it's safe to say that yesterday when I
tried to film this video it went a
little bit differently
*incoherent crying*
yesterday I had a complete and total
mental breakdown let's talk about it so
from the background of my video right
now you might think that I live in a
really nice house I actually don't I
don't live in a very nice house my house
is actually caving in from the outside
it's broken broken broken broken and
yesterday I had enough I had enough of
this house
I wanted to just sell it and move it's
harder than it sounds and I ranted to a
camera for 20 minutes bawling my eyes
out but you don't need to see that I
scheduled uploaded it and then I deleted
it because I decided to wait and compose
myself to make this video so I don't
have the best living situation right now
and I don't really want to go into
detail about it besides the fact that
like this house is not good to be living
in
there's mold there's leaky ceiling
there's bugs I shouldn't be living here
but like I can't afford to move anywhere
else that I'm not gonna go any deeper
into that this video is just to come on
here and tell you guys that I have a
patreon page now I actually had
one for a super long time but I just
revamped it I gave it all new perks and
a couple of you guys have already become
a patreon so thank you guys so much if
you guys have noticed there's a little
bit bottom of my description where I put
all my patrons there are well there's
two people right now but I have three
patrons but I think one of them has
their like things that I'm private so I
can't see their name so that's like a
thing yay
patreon you don't know what patreon is
basically a website where you can donate
or pledge a certain amount of money per
month to your favorite creators and I
and I ooooh *takes selfie*
and Iactually updated my perks and I
think that they are super cute so I'm
gonna read a little bit of them to you
right now if you pledge one dollar or
more per month I will follow you on any
social media and you will have access to
secret posts that I post on patreon that
you can't see anywhere else if you
donate five dollars or more per month
you will have access to all the previous
things from the previous donation tier
as well as access to my private
livestream that I will be doing once
that tier has more than ten people in it
because there's no point in live
streaming for like one person we might
as well just Skype so I will be doing a
patreon patron livestream every month
once that tier has more people in it so
donate to that tier you'll get to speak
with me one-on-one once a month I don't
really do lives anymore because they
make me feel like I'm being watched 24/7
but I think it'll be super fun if you
donate $10 per month you'll have all the
previous perks your name in the
description of all of my videos I
actually just do this for everyone so
you don't even need to do the ten dollar
perk to get that as well as a mention in
the end of one of my videos probably a
tea and chat if you donate $25 or more per
month you will have all their previous
prices as well as a handwritten letter
mailed to you complete with a cute
drawing by me so obviously you'll have
to give me your address when you do this
perk if you don't want to give me your
address or for some reason you can't
receive mail just message me and we can
come up with something else maybe I can
send you a cute email or something like
that um or I can mail it to a friends
house I don't know
but yes a cute little hand-drawn cute
stationery letter by me yay if you
donate $50.00 dollars every month all
that previous stuff happens so you get a
letter you're gonna mention in my video
you can come to my live streams I will
send you an item of clothing from my
closet yes so y'all give me your address
and your preferred size range like small
medium medium large large extra large or
like above and I will literally mail you
a piece of clothing from my closet it
could be a bag it can be a shirt it
could be shoes it can be literally
anything
it'll probably something that you've
seen in a whole video on my channel
before so if you're in similar size
range to me I even have clothes that are 
too small to me I've clothes that are
too big for me i have all size rages  just i
just buy clothes in all sizes so yeah
that's probably one of the most exciting
ones oh and if you're international I
cannot send you clothes because it'll
cost way too much money to ship but I
will send you something small like a
necklace or a ring or something like
that and my last perk is called are you
okay because it's a hard video month
which includes all the previous perks as
well as I will literally get your face
printed on a t-shirt
and I will wear it in an Instagram photo
and a YouTube video like it'll just be
like your face right here I don't I
don't know where I came up with this
honestly love the idea that I could
literally have a patron closet just full
of people's shirts oh and I also give a
customized Instagram shout-out to anyone
who becomes patreon shout out to Lexi
Phillips and Dev Laney  you are currently
in my shout out folder whoo
of course I don't want any of you guys to
feel obligated to donate to me on
patreon but I just really if I didn't
mentioned this at the beginning of this video I'm
trying to move and I haven't been
totally open with like how like horrible
my life has been recently and where I'm
living in Arizona it's monsoon season
and usually throughout the rest of the
year it's fine
like yeah I can deal with my ceiling
leaking twice a month whenever it rains
but now that it's raining every day I
cannot walk around my house without
shoes on no matter how many buckets I
put down it's like the second I figure
out where all the leaks are another one
pops up mmm fun I have exclaimed my
friends and I feel like I'm living
outside with the current wasp
infestation in my house too I can't
really spray that much bug spray around
to get rid of them because I do have two
dogs and wasps need like intense bug
spray and like it's just not a good
situation this house cannot be livable
much longer and I really need to move
and any sort of support from you guys
would be so amazing like you don't know
how freaking blessed I would feel even
if like a couple of you guys did like
the $1 or $5 a month donation like it
would just mean the world to me
but yeah I understand if you guys cannot
donate of course I'll just put the link
in the description go check it out if
you can only do it one time that would
still even just be amazing cuz any penny
helps I'm really just trying to get
enough money for my like move in costs
like first and last month's rent to get
me in the door other than that like
moving is no big deal but it's that big
lump sum and if you guys follow my
channel you'd know that I had that
situation last year where my roommate
kicked me out and like it cost me $5,000
and like
my family's still trying to recover from
that and it's just it's a big mess if
you want to watch that story time I'll
link it up in the I it's honestly a big
mess but yep I made a patreon and do
with that what you will I don't really
expect many people to donate because I'm
such like a small youtuber but I saw a
youtuber called pixielocks made one and
she has like a thousand dollars pledged to
her each month and like I don't even
need a quarter of that for this to make
a huge difference in my life and I'm
like she must be so grateful because
that's like amazingly I can't even
believe that that's the thing but yeah
that is it for this video and I hope you
enjoyed it
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so thanks for watching and I will see you guys
in my next video guys *cute slap*
