𝘏𝘰𝘸 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦
𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘦 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴?
I'm following your website
and Facebook Page.
And then,
you're calling for participants
So I've decided to give it a try.
I would also like to share
my passion for writing poetry.
So, that's it.
I don't want to tell him
because I might bother him.
So I need an outlet
in another way of saying it.
In a way that I don't look like
I'm seeking for attention.
I have things I didn't get to say
to my mom
before she passed away
last January.
I want to say those things here.
 
 
So this time,
I actually really made a piece for this.
𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺, 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦.
𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶,
𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘶𝘴𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳
𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘦 𝘧𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵.
𝘗𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦
𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘥𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴,
𝘐 𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘬𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵
𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴.
𝘐 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶,
𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶.
𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘧𝘪𝘹 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧,
𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶.
𝘛𝘰 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥
𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘣𝘺 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦
𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘭,
𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦.
So I heard
that you're with someone new.
You are together.
I want you to know
that I'm happy for you.
Promise,
I'm happy for the two of you.
But that doesn't mean that...
I'm happy for myself.
I didn't expect that...
my friend will be your new one.
It's harder to accept.
But...
I need to accept it
because...
it is your happiness.
I won't hinder your happiness.
That's it.
I want you to know that...
I'll always hold you
special in my heart.
Growing up,
I felt that I'm always alone.
I felt that I'm nobody's favorite.
That's why I tend to seek attention
from everybody as a child.
I don't know if
I didn't feel something or...
I just didn't see the one
who truly loved me.
I'm with her all along.
Whenever I have problems,
she's always there for me.
Whenever I faced my problems,
she...
she always carries me.
But I didn't notice that.
That's it.
So, Mom...
I know that it's too late.
We can't turn back the time.
But I know that
you're always with me.
I wish that I showed my love for you
on your last days,
and how much
you are important to me.
It's hard without you
by my side, Mom.
I will make you proud, Mom.
𝘐𝘵'𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘢𝘭 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘦𝘴𝘴.
𝘎𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘪𝘥𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩.
𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦.
𝘠𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮,
𝘣𝘶𝘴𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥.
𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘢 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘦 𝘫𝘰𝘬𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬.
𝘛𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥,
𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘦
𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶.
𝘋𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘵 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘢𝘪𝘥,
𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦.
𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨.
𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦
𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺.
𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘢 𝘤𝘳𝘶𝘦𝘭 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥.
𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘦𝘦𝘵 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦
𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦?
𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭
𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢 𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘦
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴
𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘴
𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘥𝘰
𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵
𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘪𝘵?
𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘮𝘦𝘦𝘵
𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘶𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘰 𝘰𝘯 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘴?
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵'𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦.
𝘞𝘦 𝘮𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘳𝘺 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯.
𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘬 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘢𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘦 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴
𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘦
𝘮𝘺 𝘤𝘢𝘨𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘴,
𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴
𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧,
"𝘐 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘵 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯."
You know,
I have been going to therapy?
I'm trying to explain this
to my therapist.
but I don't think he gets it.
I feel, you get it.
