today I'll be reviewing carving creases
and stay the course by Casper Allen
currently he's only on YouTube so if
you'd like to listen to his stuff be
sure to check him out there alright
let's go
 
 
how can you tell someone which way to go
especially when they're lost I love that
imagery he talks about there's two lanes
on the highway but they both run on the
same Road when you feel like you're lost
when you feel like you're uncertain
about which direction to head even if
there may be two lanes on the road it's
sometimes very confusing which direction
runs where especially a two-lane road
kinda in the middle of a desert or
there's a long stretch and rarely any
cars it couldn't go one way or another
right that's just how it feels it's very
confusing
I was once a sunrise
just like you I was once young and I was
once vibrant and knew like a sunrise yes
he is maturing and growing order the
things that he feels
I was once fresh and new but now I ride
upon my sunrise turning sunset and
getting dimmer and into Mona through the
course after life laughing harder breath
oh but I'm just running down Matthew
five times as you get older and as you
get more mature you almost feel like
you're just running down your fuse now
you've gone through the ups and downs
now you're just waiting til your fuse
burns out you're just riding alone and
this kind of that helplessness that
feeling of just floating through life
 
you have gone through so much difficult
times so much darkness so much trauma so
much experiences right you mature at a
much faster rate than someone who hasn't
had as many situations that they had to
live through and that's why I believe
maturity doesn't necessarily come with
age it comes with experience
he's almost talking about that dichotomy
between his mental maturity that he's
feeling and his physical appearance
because on the physical his face is
still young and he's saying I understand
I look young but inside I have lived
through much more than you realize
I'll carved these patterns into my
creases until my wrinkles start to come
until you can see physically and visibly
how old and I feel and how tired and how
exhausted just everything that comes as
you've gone through so many ups and
downs and that exhaustion that comes
with life how he feels inside will be
reflected outwards and I know he's not
physically gonna go and start carving
his face with a knife but it's just such
a powerful imagery
describing this frustration and how he
might not be getting that
acknowledgement or that understanding
just because he looks young people think
he's young and foolish and when in
reality he's gone through so much
suffering to come to that point
he is going through all
of these turmoil and exhaustion of life
and all of these experience studies had
to go through
he's almost asking people that seem like
they have their stuff together which no
one 100% has their stuff together we're
all trying and struggling through and
trying to survive and some are better at
hiding it than others but in reality
we're all just as uncertain even if we
on the external might have beautiful
homes or amazing degrees or amazing jobs
everyone is trying to figure it out
every day and trying to find their
purpose find their meaning and it
changes all the time that's okay that's
human nature
that's human existence but he's seeing
people that look like they have their
stuff more figured out he's asking them
what what darkness did you go through
that you found your light or conversely
all of this darkness in the world is
accentuating their high five high mood
either way but I love the next line who
are you to shine it on me when my dark
is burning because sometimes when you're
in that state of mind seeing someone
seems so better off even if it's just on
the surface a lot of times it really
gets to us and it's not necessarily
their fault either they're not doing
despite us but even if we might know
that at that moment it feels like they
are it feels like they're shining it
just to rub it in our face how they are
doing well while we aren't like who are you to shine it
on me when my darkness is burning inside
me
 
I see the shadows
rising and falling when every passing
tide in the ocean and he says this
despite the anger the frustration he
felt having people seem like they have
their stuff together it's the wave that
makes the break but it's that break that
Gibson might yes these ups and downs
will break us and destroy us you know
who we are a lot of times even when we
feel we figured it out life is not just
some destination you achieve it'll break
again and no build again and I'll break
again and I'll build again different
levels but it's just like when you work
out you're tearing and breaking those
muscles apart and they're coming back
together ten times stronger that's how a
muscle grows right and he's kind of
pointing to that with life - yes it's
those waves that make the break but it's
that break that gives it the strength
and might and it's that that holds us
 
 
by the way if you
go on YouTube to look for his stuff a
lot of these videos are recorded by a
channel called Gems On VHS if you guys
ever have time I would HIGHLY encourage
looking through that channel there's a
lot of beautiful artists in there
 
 
 
if your days get so heavy and dreary and
there's this over looming presence and
gloom remember me or imagine me as a
breeze, a breeze a long time ago and
you'll see all the other examples he
uses going on but I love that message of
even during the darkest times try to
remember those glimpses of hopeful
moments that you actually enjoyed in
order to have that help you to push through
if the rain
is pouring you don't have anywhere to go
whether that's real rain or metaphorical
rain when everything is pouring down and
coming down and you have nowhere to turn
to remember the rainbow how after that
horrible storm there will be that
technicolor day glow, that beautiful thing
that comes from that darkness
 
 
when all of these
things are coming down and falling down
and crashing and you really don't know
what to do remember in the evening a
cool desert evening in Albuquerque where
there's nothing it's barren and it's one
of my favorite things about a desert and
you'll notice a lot of the music I
introduced I'd also have very much a
desert theme because to me that
minimalism that comes from the desert
there's nothing to distract you it's
just parent it causes you to have to
become introspective to really look
within yourself and discover yourself
you're forced to realize that but at the
same time to me that wide open sky the
stars in the evening over the desert
over the bareness
it's a beautiful mystical night remember
that evening hold on to that that place
you want to be remember that and hold on
to it
and push through find what resonates
with you and find what has helped you or
what glimpses of happiness or glimpses
of hope you felt in your life and during
there was extreme difficult times
latch on to those
 
life is both a paradoxical long eternity
sometimes it drags on and there's so
much that happens, good or bad but it can
really get exhausting kind of like the
previous song I was talking about but
then paradoxically it ends too soon but
it ends a lot of times you feel like you
didn't have enough time and he says for
some of us it's very difficult to stay
on that path that society or whoever
deems as the right path to go for a lot
of us it's either difficult or
impossible because of who we are and how
we operate to fit in to the norms of
society and stay the course and
sometimes we stumble sometimes we
completely fall off and you feel that
shame towards yourself that self-hatred
because you feel like you're not living
up to those expectations you're not
living up to the right course that
people are telling you or people think
you'd need to be on and you know it's
really unfortunate there is no right
path even if you were to get everything
that you have been told you should want
a good job like a house whatever I
assure you that's not gonna be what
brings happiness yes it might bring some
more comfort but there's only so much
that materialistic things can do because
that's not where it's at
I would just encourage as much as it is
difficult
to just allow ourselves to be and exist
and live through life the way that we
feel comfortable genuine even if it
feels so wrong to do that sometimes
because of what everyone tells us
understand
similar to some of the points I brought
up in my previous video everything wind
everything is futile for time so don't
waste your time and ability to do the
things that you are passionate about to
do the things even if you're not
passionate about something to do
something that remotely sparks interest
in you but don't waste that time trying
to get approval for others or live for
what other people think is this grand
life do what comes naturally to you and
sometimes if that's you don't know you
just want some time to just breath and
just be and just flow a life that's okay
too
everyone goes at their own pace allow
yourself to go at your own pace
 
 
 
the cycle
is always spinning the good the bad
times it's a cycle there is no happiness
you achieve there is no sadness that's
eternal it comes and it goes and repeats
in a cycle saying those occasional
moments of light those occasional
moments of redemption those occasional
moments that make life worth living
those opportunities will come and go in
a cycle but they will come and go
anything catch you when you can but if
you are not able to catch it it's okay
the cycle will continue and it will come
up again another opportunity another
place don't give up hope just as nothing
good lasts nothing bad us either as I've
said in my previous videos it's
important to understand that even our
most difficult sufferings will end just
as even the happiest moments of our
lives will come back to balance it's
that balance that happens in life those
ups and downs that's what makes life
life
 
this i know is true
true you always have someone to turn to
and that's the thing understand
obviously that people relationships
friendships they change over time over
life as we also grow and change as a
person we may find different people
resonate with us and that's okay that's
just the cycle of life as people come
and go but I think what he means is more
abstract whether it's music whether it's
the rainbow is told you to remember when
you're in the middle of a rainstorm
whether it's that cool breeze you felt
on an autumn night a long time ago when
everything feels stuffy and overwhelming
when you don't know where to turn and
it's that cool and open minimalistic
freeing desert top of querque night
whatever it is hold on to those things
those memories those experiences that
have made you feel alive that have made
you feel like life was worth continuing
on for those little moments if we really
look there are those moments embedded
like diamonds in the rough in the middle
of all of these darkness those will
always be there to help you through hold
on to them latch on to them when you
need to and use that to help you pull
through because as horrible as a time
you may be going through everything good
or bad will end and the cycle will
continue there will be good times as
much as there will also be bad times
that a journey that experienced that is
what is important
and that is what makes life worth living
whatever it is that you want to achieve
or whatever it is that you want to do
regardless because everyone has
something different but that up and down
that life that uncertainty that is life
that is what makes us so unique and
different and interesting but at the
same time a universal human experience
the very intricate and interesting thing
your life there's a part of that big
journey of human nature thank you so
much for watching the whole video and if
it resonated with you I'd love to know
in the comments what your thoughts are
and what helps you push through when
life just feels too hard and too much
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