

### MY LIVER

### CIRRHOSIS

### JOURNAL

Version, JULY 16, 2018

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107,000 Words

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Author: Billy Oxkidd

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WARNING. **Serious Risk of Personal Injury, Including Death**. The content materials contained within this book are not intended for use as a medical self-help guide. No treatment, cure, medical advice or medical instruction is offered or given in this book. Do not copy or otherwise emulate anything contained within this book. Seek medical care and treatment from your Physician for any and all your health cares requirements. This Book is comprised solely of a memoir of one person's personal experiences, thoughts, opinions, and conclusions. This book's contents, solely intended for educational and leisure reading purposes. Anything that you shall personally do, based on what you read in this book shall be solely your own responsibility. No responsibility or liability of any kind whatsoever is assumed for any reasons whatsoever for anything associated with this book, including, but not limited to inaccuracies, omissions and errors

Contents

Ch 1. Alcohol Cirrhosis Syndrome

Ch 2. Neurological Brutality

Ch 3. Merciful, Zinc

Ch 4. Aggregate Symptoms

Ch 5. **Historical Vignettes**

Hepatic Symptoms

* My pillow my Will

* Little restaurant

* Mute Physician

* Neurological brutality

* Physician indifference

* Socializing coffee

* Trembling & Physician

* My mark my signature

* Mercy and Zinc, synonymous

* Dripping tap

* Endless urinating

Ch 6. Stomach Collapse

Ch 7. Control Protocol

Ch 8. Medicine Falls Down

Ch 9. Self Defense, Forbidden

Ch 10. My Own Patient

Ch 11. BC Amino Acids

Ch 12. Liver Toxicity

Ch 13. Beriberi

Ch 14. Heart Symptoms

Ch 15. Skin Immunity

Ch 16. Vitamin D3

Ch 17. Typical Cirrhosis Meal

Ch 18. Dead Man's Line

Ch 19. Alcohols With drawl Strategy

**Epilogue - Abridged Journal Entries**

Ch 20. Modern Observations, Experiments,

**Pre** Thiamine Discovery.

Ch 21. Modern Observations, Experiments,

**Post** Thiamine Discovery.

Ch 22. Exact Journal Entry, April 8, 2012

First Time Ever Discovering

Thiamin's Absolute Requirements

Ch 23 **2018, Clarification INSERTION**

Cognitive Interpretation clarification,

Between, Virtual Neurological Symptoms,

of Humming/Vibration, & Hand Tremor

Ch 24 **Emerging 2018, Vit. (K) Understandings**

Prologue

The one intractable negative flaw I see as counterproductively directly associated with a material hindering of correct and proper interpretations and understandings of matters contained herein, "My Hepatic Cirrhosis Journal". As simply stated, the very party that shall be expected to evaluate this material, medical communities at large, themselves pervasively incompetent to carrying out such evaluation duties. The fundamental basic reasons for such medical incompetence, medical communities having absolutely no relevant understandings of the endless and mostly permanent metabolic biological changes occurring within Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis. Medical communities pervasively plainly do not understand this alternate Hepatic Cirrhosis Model of human metabolic function/dysfunction. And because of this very pervasive failure within medical training protocols, medical communities measuring, understanding and acting utilizing such failed medical training, incorrectly interpreting and otherwise dealing with all matters associated with Hepatic Cirrhosis. And as possessing such failed medical community understandings of the extremely complex metabolic changes having taken place in cirrhosis matters, intern possessing truly parochial understandings, understanding little of altered hepatic biological significance within cirrhosis matters. Under such hobbling circumstances, how can these medical communities in tern be capable of grasping or otherwise conceiving such relevant metabolic understanding of hepatic cirrhosis, as such in many ways contradictory to standard medical training? It may take a very long time, but from times to times there will be those with open eyes and hearts willing to confront and otherwise challenge the status quo of indifference, presently as good enough, don't rock the boat. Through such incremental processes a great deal of my cirrhosis understanding will some day eventually see the light of medical community enlightenment.

My strait speaking questioning reasoning driving my "Hepatic Option" Hypothesis, questioning Liver Transplanting as solely the only viable remedial intervention option within all severe Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis manifestations. My direct speaking, not intended as an assault upon medical community dedication or overall competence, however such strait speaking the only path available in any quest of knowledge, opinion and truth.

A main supporting pillar of my "Hepatic Option" Hypotheses, my suspicious questioning if all severe Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis transplanting decisions, solely the only acceptable option in each case circumstance. My universal past pervasive hepatic experiences, existing throughout medical communities and medical training protocols alike, enshrined failed medical community status quo understandings of control possibilities within alcohol hepatic cirrhosis manifestations, including total absences of relevant metabolic function understandings of Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis.

Apparently totally absent within medical community understandings, Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis, for the most part essentially permanent, metabolically functioning under its very own distinctive metabolic rules, thereby requiring its viewing as comprising its very own distinct model of metabolic function/dysfunction. Presently patient cirrhosis symptoms complaints to Physicians, some, brutally sever and chronic, intern creating chaos and confusion within medical communities, such symptoms making no sense to impotently hepatic cirrhosis trained Physicians, intern spawning medical failure, summary medical dismissal and egregious medical material patient abandonment.

My lessons brutally learned from my own four decades personal hepatic cirrhosis experiences, even serious potent Hepatic Cirrhosis manifestations as my own, regardless of symptoms intensity, brutality, stubbornness and degradation of health status, effectively controllable with commitment, time and enormous investment of personal effort, including indispensable practical and associative control procedure and conduct understandings. Not only controllable, but if properly managed throughout long periods of time, significant healing liver function capacity improvement is possible, however any such very fragile liver healing achieved, completely and perpetually subservient to continuing ongoing effective hepatic control.

Immediately after stopping my alcohol consumption in 1977, mysterious new symptoms arising and daily growing in crescendos of brutality and misery, the causing of my brutal symptoms, a total mystery to me, and with advancing time also proving a total mystery to Medical Communities alike. My many newly emerging potent and difficult symptoms anomalies, all chronic in nature and all occurring at the very same times, symptoms such as, Neurological internal trembling/vibrating 24 hours a day, Neurological Seizures, Sever muscle rigidity, Breathing dysfunctions, Heart rhythm beating dysfunction, Irregular heart beating, Shortness of breath, Excessive bleeding, Anemia, Depressed immune function, Skin infections, Low good and bad bodily blood fats, Mucus forming in throat, Hand tremor, Impaired long hand writing, Endless, endless sudden urinating, Severe Body weight lose, Metabolic digestion dysfunctions, Upper chest (Sternum) tenderness and rigidity, Eyes and vision symptoms, Absence of detectable body fat stores, etc. etc. and endlessly etc.

My unidentified, untreated Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis syndrome symptoms holding me hostage for many decades, facilitated by systemic medical community knowledge failures of my Hepatic Cirrhosis syndrome. The great numbers of symptoms generated by my mystery disease proving very potent, brutal, chronic, non controllable, without solution or endings, endlessly exacting brutality by day and by night upon my body. Additionally complicating my mystery, absolutely no understanding on my part, what or why this is happening. During the first decade of my occurring chronic and brutal symptoms, Physicians have absolutely no idea of what is happening and I suspected, my Physicians not believing that my symptoms even existing.

Coalescing within my thought processes, perhaps medical help will never be available for me and with the decades unfolding, my prediction of medical community incompetence of my mysterious alcohol related symptoms brutalities, ultimately proving correct, I was to be totally egregiously materially medically abandoned. "Unique opportunity existing within and throughout these writings for penetrating Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis's extremely well cloaked mysterious metabolic sponsored symptoms and control understandings, understandings unmasked over four brutal decades in time. However for any interested inquisitive reading achieving such Hepatic Cirrhosis understandings, extensive individual determined study effort is required in studying "My Liver Cirrhosis Journal" in exchange for such knowledge

Chapter - One

Alcohol Cirrhosis Syndrome

My alcohol induced hepatic cirrhosis, (liver destruction) occurring as a result, heavy sustained over use of alcohol, subsequently never medically treated in any manor whatsoever, due to medical community ineptitude failures, never addressing, advising or in any manor whatsoever ever engaging my alcohol induced hepatic cirrhosis trauma. My never medically addressed or treated Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis, thereby providing unique opportunity for study and better understandings of this truly enigmatic hepatic syndrome, especially when hepatic cirrhosis is left without address, understandings or treatment over the longer term. My long-term untreated chronic hepatic cirrhosis symptoms, especially as never medically recognized and never in any manor medically addressed, having a great deal to say from differing perspective regarding better understandings of alcohol related hepatic cirrhosis Trauma.

Alcohol induced hepatic cirrhosis is infinitely greater in metabolic complexity then simplistically a disease of vitamin deficiency, even though such liver dysfunction routinely accompanied by serious chronic vitamin deficiencies, such liver dysfunction driving enormous physical and neurological metabolic bodily dysfunction. In particular the alcohol cirrhosis liver having lost its optimal automatic ability, harvesting, processing, storing and distributing critically important vitamins, nutrients and the livers life supporting miracles of its produce, a disease status of chronic body starvation, neurological dysfunction and metabolic dysfunction, such representing only a very small part of this brutal hepatic syndrome. In effect alcohol hepatic cirrhosis's metabolic liver dysfunction actually produces its very own distinct new model status of human metabolic function/dysfunction. Hepatic Cirrhosis's such alternate model status, as a separate distinct alternate model of human metabolic function/dysfunction, even though the hepatic cirrhosis alcohol model, a dysfunctional model in itself, nevertheless because the hepatic alcohol dysfunctional model mostly permanent in nature and non-reversible back to original human metabolic hepatic functioning status, therefore such hepatic cirrhosis model must be considered, understood and viewed from perspectives as its own separate metabolic model.

Appearing to exist within Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis, some fundamentally importance of hierarchic partnership association in excess of all other plethoric cirrhosis importance, that of thiamine. Thiamine's metabolic relationship within resultant disease manifested hepatic cirrhosis appearing completely different, dysfunctional and broken down, as comparing to thiamine's normal relationship within normal hepatic metabolic matters, as without massive thiamine dosage interventions on a meal-by-meal basis and in between meals is required or Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis will not be controlled. Daily total control dosages of thiamine required in hepatic cirrhosis symptoms control, dependant on several factors, amongst such factors, the particular degree of achieved partial fragile liver rejuvenation, dietary carbohydrate loading and ferocity of occurring neurological symptoms, heart, pulse, breathing, virtual and physical neurological tremor, etc., and endlessly etc. Daily thiamine dosages of perhaps 1500/2000 mg. daily, found by me as not totally out of the question, however depending on current cirrhosis severity status.

My experience, thiamine is fundamentally important within alcohol hepatic cirrhosis, thiamine appearing absolutely fundamentally important in association with neurological bodily functions, including the functioning of the bodies central nervous system, and neurological brain functioning, such brain functioning affecting, neurological motor skills, metabolic digestion, muscles, heart beating, and breathing amongst endless others. The cirrhosis liver appearing completely dysfunctional in storing and distributing thiamine automatically upon the bodies metabolic needs, and secondly the traumatized cirrhosis body appearing to require very large dosages of supplemented thiamine in order to accomplish its metabolic bodily duties, including the neurological operation of the stomach and digestion system, amongst endless other neurological duties.

Thiamine's bodily presence so fundamentally critical in Hepatic Cirrhosis, in part because thiamine's normal neurological relationship that exists within non hepatic cirrhosis circumstances, intern becoming totally dysfunctional and broken down within manifested hepatic cirrhosis circumstances. Thiamine appearing absolutely essential to the normal neurological functioning of the human body, therefore if a breaking down of this neurological association, as occurring within hepatic cirrhosis, the body shall be incapable of neurologically functioning normally, brutally excruciatingly dysfunctional, as commonly exampled within Beriberi. Beriberi's manifested circumstance resulting from bodily thiamine starvation, such thiamine starvation, the result of thiamine starvation from inadequate diets mostly in developing countries, however also occurring as result of alcohol hepatic cirrhosis trauma, even when within normal adequate diets.

As direct result of my own medically abandoned cirrhosis decades, I see a great conundrum existing within medical communities rationalizing of Hippocratic principles, as pertaining to address of the complexities of Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis control. In a nutshell, the medical community cannot themselves directly control patient hepatic cirrhosis manifestations, solely the patient themselves must take on such control responsibilities; nevertheless I do not see this Physician/Patient responsibility conundrum as a medical community absolution of complicity within this matter. Even though the patient taking on full control responsibility themselves, however such control responsibilities, only occurring and only possible if with the dedicated and tireless application of knowledgeable detailed and practical associative Hepatic Cirrhosis Control Knowledge, , such control knowledge I see as solely coming singularly by good effort from within the medical community domain, solely a Hippocratic responsibility. And if any patient is unwilling or unable to apply such dedicated control responsibilities in daily redeeming their own lives on a daily basis, I do not then see any further Hippocratic responsibility in such matters. However this just aforementioned Hippocratic argument still remaining academic in reality, medical communities neither possessing nor embracing such seminally required hepatic cirrhosis understandings.

As direct result of my one and a half decades of excessive over use of alcohol, my liver sustaining a great deal of liver damage, liver damage proving for most part permanent in nature. My body appearing as having lost its abilities to properly metabolically digesting food, lost its abilities in properly digesting fats, lost its abilities in properly digesting carbohydrates and lost its abilities of harvesting, storing and distributing such harvested critically important nutrients in support of my bodily metabolic requirements. As direct result of my dysfunctional alcohol traumatized liver, my body trapped within highly dysfunctional metabolic digestion incompetence, highly susceptible to Liver toxicity issues, and unable to metabolically function as designed by nature. My cirrhosis ravaged body especially incapable, effectively metabolizing fat-soluble vitamins and carbohydrates, rendering me to linger within a state of physical rack and ruin, and deep chronic dysfunctional metabolic nutritional starvation.

In addition to my bodies fat and water-soluble vitamins nutritional starvation status, my body also metabolically dysfunctional in digesting carbohydrates, especially simple sugars. Recognizing early on some intriguing similarities between my mysterious occurring symptoms and symptoms of diabetes, however my diabetes mimicking complaint, a one and only symptom complaint of my countless other complaints, ever medically taken seriously, although to no avail. Appearing through such metabolic digestion dysfunction porthole, dietary carbohydrates producing symptoms masquerading as diabetes mimicking symptoms, even though my blood glucose levels generally remaining in normal ranges, as witnessed by my easily passing medical administered several hour blood glucose tolerance testing, such involving the drinking of a very sweet liquid and then several subsequent time separated blood glucose testing. Initiating my diabetes mimicry complaint to my Physician, hopping to shed some possible light on my mystery symptoms origins, ultimately however to no avail, as easily passing my several hour glucose tolerance testing. Treating Physicians understanding nothing of my neurological or glucose mimicry symptoms, perusing such complaints no further, just abandoning me with my symptoms brutalities, indifferent and unconcerned.

My long term untreated, undiagnosed metabolic digestion dysfunction producing complex, adversarial and enigmatic complex arrays of mysterious disease symptoms, truly horrific and devastating health consequence to my body, as my body no longer functioning as originally designed by nature. The chronic result of my alcohol driven resultant metabolic digestion dysfunction, my body and its supporting biological operating systems, completely racked by chronic serious plethoric and brutal disease and no understanding or resolution possible over four decades.

Contemplating on medical community ineptitudes, failed understandings and failures recognizing hepatic cirrhosis when medically confronted by same, my conclusion, primary care/contact Physicians pervasively inept of Alcohol Cirrhosis matters due pervasive inadequate failures in medical training. Physicians throughout medical communities ineptly trained in Alcohol Cirrhosis, unable recognizing complexities of alcohol trauma matters, possessing poor understandings at best, thus incapable when confronted by alcohol cirrhosis, effectively advising or addressing such alcohol cirrhosis. Primary care Physicians cannot be expected proficiently expert in such complex matters as Hepatic Cirrhosis, however Physicians must be sufficiently competently trained, recognizing and understanding the existence of such Traumas when professionally confronted by same.

As a direct result of pervasive medical community vacancy of cirrhosis understandings, medical community protocol referral failures and medical community sponsored medical abandonment, intern driving my self into attempting the controlling of my own mysterious symptoms, hopefully somehow developing my own understandings. My experiences, within permanent non reversible hepatic cirrhosis, once some preliminary partial liver healing occurring, commonly medically used routine liver function testing, generally useless in diagnosing alcohol induced metabolic liver cirrhosis.

Eventually commingling to suspect possible reasons for my consistent experiences of medical community blindness in recognizing my manifestation of alcohol hepatic cirrhosis. When alcohol cirrhosis is suspected or patient professed, in such events circumstances confused treating Physicians should be looking at several simple and easily verifiable indicators, such as both good and bad blood fats, both blood fats usually low within alcohol hepatic cirrhosis, low immune function status, and elevated resting heart rates, all very common in alcohol metabolic liver dysfunction. The apparent trick in unmasking hepatic cirrhosis, carefully taking into account as many as possible, all occurring symptoms, intern deeming all such occurring symptoms as one synergistic symptom grouping, as opposed to a failing strategy of evaluating each symptom only, each one symptom at a time.

Further common symptoms of alcohol induced hepatic cirrhosis, chronic severe muscle rigidity, sternum rigidity, sternum especially tender and ridged after eating, and especially after eating carbohydrates, carbohydrates also very difficult to metabolically digest, severe unintended body weight lost commonly occurring, chronic lose bawl syndrome commonly occurring, esophageal refluxing commonly chronic, and complex neurological dysfunction common in alcohol trauma. Alcohol traumatized livers commonly affecting eyes, optically and physically, existing a critical status of thiamine starvation, such sponsoring sever and complex neurological disorders. Fats and Carbohydrates very difficult to digest in alcohol cirrhosis, blood sugars generally not directly effected in my hepatic cirrhosis, but however convincingly falsely mimicking diabetic symptoms. Absolutely critical in Hepatic cirrhosis, nutritional starvation of the fat-soluble family of vitamins, A, E, D3, K, including extremely, extremely absolutely critical, water soluble B1, thiamine starvation.

Chapter - Two

Hell's Domain,

Neurological Brutality,

No Identity - No solution

After falling out with my old comrade, Alcohol in 1977, an especially sad and devastating symptom, makes its appearance into my life, I describe such sad and devastating symptom, by coining its name as "Mysterious Neurological Symptom". This new unexplained Neurological Symptom incessantly producing non-stop, 24 hours around the clock perpetual internal vibrating/trembling/humming inside my body. Such symptom destined lasting four interrupted years without pause or hiatus, a vibrating/humming especially detectable within my arms, but also throughout my entire body. Such vibrating/humming definitely not a condition of jittery nervousness, but profoundly neurological in its expression, inhumanly impossible to tolerate, however impossible becoming an academic terminology where choice can no longer exist, as I solely subserviently required to bear such brutal unbearable onslaught of brutality personified.

Vibrating Body, immediately after stopping my alcohol consumption in 1977, mysterious new symptoms arising and daily growing in crescendos of brutality and misery, the causing of my brutal symptoms, a total mystery to me, and with advancing time also proving a total mystery to medical communities alike. My many newly emerging potent and difficult to tolerate symptoms anomalies all chronic in nature and all occurring at the very same times, symptoms such as, Neurological internal trembling/vibrating 24 hours a day, Neurological Seizures, Sever muscle rigidity, Breathing dysfunctions, Heart rhythm beating dysfunction, Shortness of breath, Excessive bleeding, Anemia, Depressed immune function, Skin infections, Low good and bad bodily blood fats, Mucus forming in throat, Hand tremor, Impaired long hand writing, Endless, endless sudden urinating, Severe body weight lose, Metabolic digestion dysfunctions, Upper chest (Sternum) tenderness and rigidity, Eyes and vision symptoms, Absence of detectable body fat stores, etc. etc. and endlessly etc. The great numbers of symptoms generated by my mystery disease proving very potent, brutal, chronic, and non controllable, without solution or endings, endlessly exacting brutality by day and by night upon my body.

Additionally complicating my mysterious brutality, existing absolutely no understanding on my part, what or why this was happening to me. During the first decade of my occurring chronic and brutal symptoms, Physicians have absolutely no idea of what is happening and I suspected, Physicians not believing my symptoms even existing. Coalescing over time in my thought processes, perhaps medical help will never be available for me and as the decades unfolded, my prediction of medical community incompetence, ultimately proving over time as a spot on accurate prophesies.

Neurological Vibrating/Trembling

My truly brutal four years tenure of excruciating day and night Vibrating/Humming Internal Trembling first ever occurring in the late afternoon while at home, beginning soon after my totally severing all relationship with alcohol in 1977. Very clearly recalling standing in the basement of my home while contemplating a small repair, suddenly starting for its first recognizable time ever up until this very moment, a vibrating kind of vibrating/trembling within my body, especially disproportionably as manifested within my arms.

Not knowing what to make of this new trembling symptom at first, or what my trembling was, or what could be causing this vibrating/trembling. This trembling continuing unabated over the next several hours as I was still trying to get my head around this newly occurring mystery. Knowing nothing possibly relating to this trembling matter, having no other choice, I would try and tough it out. Over the next several hours such adopted compliance toughening out strategy was getting me nowhere. My new Trembling/Vibrating symptom, not easily tolerable and its compounding effects on me are becoming impossibly difficult to tolerate.

As the hours unfold I continuing my ongoing efforts in trying to understand what is occurring to me, by next deciding to exercise myself out of this internal vibrating situation, but finding exercise having absolutely no effect on this new Trembling symptom. Next deciding to lie down in bed, trying to relax myself out of the grip of this mysterious vibrating symptom, all such attempts at remedial relief occurring over the span of perhaps three consecutive days, while achieving absolutely no symptom relief of any kind. Ultimately my Neurological Symptom, as I coined its description, ultimately proving to chronically endure for the next four years, and accelerating in its crescendos of intensifications.

My mysterious chronic Neurological trembling symptom raging in full flower, while a bewildered medical community systematically ignoring my plight, materially disregarding any existence of my symptoms, I am abandoned by the medical community to linger without address, an egregious result of failed Hepatic Cirrhosis knowledge. After parting company with alcohol in 1977, shortly thereafter this never before experiencing of internal/vibrating/humming/trembling appearing present within my body, a vibrating trembling, excruciatingly agonizing to me in ways really impossible to properly describe then or now. Appearing present some sort of vibrating throughout my body, especially as manifested in my arms, my both arms feeling as very aggressively trembling and shaking, but if an outsider is holding my arms in their hands, they are feeling nothing at all, and this fact, nobody else physically feeling my excruciating aggressive trembling, endlessly perplexing to me.

My neurological trembling manifestation is the easiest to describe amongst all others of other experienced neurological symptoms. My arms feeling as if trembling in a motion of about two inches in movement, while outsiders detecting no feelings of movement in my arms. My internal trembling continuing 24 hours a day, intensifying after eating, however still always present, but somewhat milder in presence between meals. I go to bed with my internal trembling, and I awakening in the morning with my trembling, existing no relief and no escape from my internal trembling. Time progressing, more symptoms surfacing, trouble with signing my name, unreadable when managing to sign at times and at times as I would be writing by hand, losing complete control of my writing hand, with my writing hand going off on its own, scribbling uncontrollably, resembling a child's scribbling at play.

Occurring several times, especially when I am under additional strain and pressure situations, a familiar event starting to materialize. Wherever I happen to be, responding to such materializing event I immediately sit myself down, grabbing and holding onto something I know will not move, then holding on tightly. My head begins spinning, I loses my eyesight, my eyes going dark, my head is spinning as within a powerful centrifuge, and not knowing up from down. I never lose total consciousness during such events, as I can still hold on and I also know that I am holding on, and after what seeming to be a long time, perhaps about 3 or 4 minutes in time, difficult to exactly say, I reawaken to my previous sub normal status, and I am back until my next such event.

My such losing of consciousness occurring while driving on the road, unlikely very low, as driving not a stressful activity for me, nevertheless I take precautions, by establishing a protocol of counter reaction, if such lose of consciousness threatening during my driving on the road. At first such possibility signs of looming seizure occurrence, I have at a minimum perhaps 30 seconds to react to any such threatening event. Resolving instinctively immediately pulling over to the side of the road, immediately shutting down my car and just hanging on, fortunately such situation never materializing for me while driving.

Describing still another neurological manifestation. In 1980 I am preparing to build a small 22 X 32 foot wooden building while my internal trembling is well entrenched with its merciless hold on me, however when trying to arrive at some simple, but important dimension calculations, finding it greatly impossibly challenging, because every time I try to mentally do my required calculations, I begin outwardly shaking out of control. I finally manage to accomplish these required calculations, by first selecting one of my better symptom times, then only having a five or six minutes window of partial neurological stability, before again outwardly shaking out of control.

After completing my most important calculations, I finally end up building my structure utilizing my long term memory, without any required heavy mental thinking, because years earlier, I designed and built a very similar structure. When I am calm and relaxed my internal trembling, although always excruciatingly present, impossible to tolerate but there is nothing I can do about its presence, however the moment I start any simple mental activities, examples, simple mental calculations or anything requiring a little mental effort, I start outwardly physically shaking out of control. When beginning my out of control shaking, I require immediately shutting down my voluntary mental activities in order to calm the outward shaking of my body, but my inside trembling still continuing without end.

During the height of my four years internal trembling period, finding it helpful if turning down the heat in my home to freezing cold in the winter, cutting out all sound and light, it then easier to bear my incessant internal trembling symptom. My Neurological trembling chronically lasting about four years until about 1983, when the most excruciating portions of my trembling generally slowly fading away forever, appearing never to return, but decades later would it, could it, and did it return? At the times in question and solely by myself, I attributed such Internal Trembling Symptom, as originating and residing within my own physical Brain's Neurology, something I can then do nothing about.

However no Physician ever making such Neurological Brain Origin claims as possible reasons for my vibrating/trembling Symptoms. Every Physician ever asked to engage my mysterious symptoms, ultimately demonstrating a total failed absence of cirrhosis symptoms understandings. The reason why I attributed my internal trembling symptom, as originating in my own physical Brain's Neurology, was due to my observing of two simultaneously occurring paradoxical and incompatible factors. One such incompatible factor, while living with my constant aggressive trembling within my body, especially disproportionately manifested in my arms, and at the very same times as my internal trembling is occurring, my Physician can not detecting any physical movement or sensations within my arms.

My personal conclusion therefore, my trembling arms, although excruciatingly very real to myself as experienced, however because nobody else was capable of physically feeling or detect my aggressive trembling in my arms, it was my belief, this internal trembling was actually a virtual trembling condition, actually originating within my physical brain's Neurology. I also observed and experienced, Dietary Sugar somehow playing its own significant mischievous roll in these trembling matters. However my blood work always confirming, sugars roll in these matters, not by sugar negatively directly affecting my blood glucose levels. Early on in these matters, as myself not a Biological Metabolic Chemist, nor a Neurological Endocrinologist, nor a Physician; therefore I could not explain the specific methods, and paths, (suspected by me) of sugars relationship in my neurological matter.

My Physician appearing to have no understandings of my newly appearing Neurological Symptom, nor understandings of any others of my plethoric barrages of other mysterious symptoms, hence never treatment, never guidance and never explanation of any kind provided to me, intern sentencing my emersion into a purgatory, enduring all onslaught and unbearable. Decade's later I self unmasked, identifying my mysterious symptoms drivers, as Hepatic Cirrhosis. Attending my first ever Physician in these maters, several years passing with no treatment or information of any kind forthcoming, my mysterious symptoms never addressed, I decide to find and attend a new Physician.

Hopping by such changing of Physicians, my receiving some kind of information regarding my chronic and mysterious symptoms or even perhaps some possible knowledge or treatment of my mysterious symptoms. However this new Physician ultimately providing me with the same hopeless bewilderments, non-recognition, summary denials and failed understandings of my mysterious relentless symptoms. This second Physician proving to be of absolutely no help in matters of my mysterious symptoms, now realizing, my untreated materially medically abandonment most likely continuing forever into my future and forever remaining completely on my own.

Such realization of my true status quo circumstance, I now accept being forgotten and medically untreated, and getting on with my new life while tolerating such mysterious symptoms without much further hope, expectations or complaint, as treatment expectations proving to be irrevocably hopples. Viscerally understanding, if always complaining about my relentless symptoms, then no time or room left in my life for living or movement forward with my life.

Finally coming to terms, the Medical Community has materially abandoned me and I will remain completely on my own, and throughout the many decades yet to come and pass, all the while encompassed by my mysterious afflictions. Having no conception of the origin or of the solution to my mysterious symptoms, eventually pragmatically accepting my fate with out further complaint, as such affliction by this time morphing into me and me morphing into this affliction, we both now coexisting together as one entity. This ruthless disease playing such intricate part within my life and for so long by this time, I no longer dwelt on this disease as even existing. I no longer recognizing this disease as somehow separate from my self, thus without further complaint I begin the rebuilding of my life around and through this disease as if this disease never existed in the first place.

Now soberly realizing that whatever this disease was, I will probably never receive help with my relentless symptoms, now or ever into my future. From this time onwards and thorough out those following decades to come, I accepted this disease condition as a lifelong fundamental part of myself, accepting its probability of continuing to my very end, whenever such ending be. However from times to time, still hopefully seeking out Physician's opinions for clues or possibilities, but always unsuccessfully. The decades passing, potential opportunities arising with differing Physicians, but never light to be shed on my mysterious symptoms, always ignored and summarily dismissed by every such Physician. These kinds of medical responses, denials by Medical Communities, my universal routine experiences, totally ignored by egregious medical community sponsored incompetence, each and every time I desperately sought hope or treatment enlightenment. Over many fallow passing decades of mysterious symptoms tenure yet to come, such mysterious symptoms very slowly starting a tempering thereof, but still remaining very presently potent. Over the next 33 years such slow tempering of my symptoms, imperceptibly slow, as measured against these five decades in time, comparable with the earth's imperceptible movement of its tectonic plates.

Chapter - Three

Zinc

My never medically addressed Hepatic Cirrhosis Neurological Symptoms, beginning around 1978/79, at the time my treating Physician, displaying, what can only be interpreted as medical buffoonery in medical practice, this Physician's decision of a fool, prescribing Tranquilizers for my internal chronic trembling, instead of dealing directly and knowledgably with my clinical traumatized Liver dysfunction and chronic Nutritional Starvation, the real drivers of my Neurological internal trembling.

Myself encompassed by day and by night within my excruciating neurological brutality, medical knowledgeable help for me totally absent, in my hopeless defense of merciful relief, I would attempt all imaginable solutions to my endless brutalizing neurological hell. Subsequently by endless trial and much error, myself mercifully finding Zinc capable of separating me to some degree from my Physician's inappropriate buffoonery prescribed tranquilizers. My subsequent findings, tiny amounts of zinc, however toxic to my Liver, as witnessed by my resultant liver discomfort upon zinc's use, nevertheless still no choice in this matter for me, merciful zinc is mandatory under such present circumstances, intern partially tempering my neurological brutality. My taking of zinc is only partially effective as an intervention medication, however my use of zinc allowing me to get away from my inappropriately prescribed tranquilizer in dealing with my internal neurological vibrating/trembling, however zinc only subduing the most inhumane parts of my Neurological symptoms.

My use of merciful zinc tempered my neurological symptoms from status inhumane to status excruciatingly bad, a greatly improved status of mercy. Driven without mercy or choice, my employing of merciful zinc, even inadequate as it was, however it really was merciful, as absolutely no other options were available to me at these times. There was no ways of my knowing at these early symptoms times, the root reasons for my Neurological occurring symptoms, driven by my Metabolic Digestion Dysfunction, undetected (Hepatic Cirrhosis), and resultant Chronic Nutritional Starvation, especially by deep starvation of incredibly important thiamine. Alone without defense, employing this lowly but merciful mineral, Zinc for standing in place of total medical knowledge failures. Later truly wondering, what shall have occurred if in zinc's absent stead, truly extremely bleak to even now contemplate?

Chapter - Four

**Aggregate** **Symptoms**

Endless Urinating

My third never medically addressed Classic Chronic Symptom, chronic constant sudden strong needs to urinate without hiatus or interruption all day long for 33 years. My constant strong sudden needing to urinate every 15 to 20 minutes all day long, seven days a week, 52 weeks a year, such lasting uninterrupted for 33 years. This urinating symptom, consistently extremely strong for my first twenty years, then still remaining moderately strong for decades to come, until my "Epiphany" event occurring in 2009, unmasking its remediation control with B 12. I never considered this urinating symptom as serious, just a relentless nuisance symptom partner I eventually learned to accommodate and tolerate.

Easy Fatigue

A Fourth chronic symptom closely related to my incessant urinating symptom, my reduced Stamina, I also considered a nuisance symptom, its cause I never understood for many decades into my future. After accomplishing some simple physical half hour task, then feeling a similar exhaustion as if having worked hard for the complete day. Also as a result of my "Epiphany" sponsored experiments that I began in 2009, experimenting with B12 supplementing, such B12 immediately and permanently ending my exhaustion and urinating symptoms. My chronic forty five years of B12 deficiency, subsequently attributed to my hepatic cirrhosis induced, incessant chronic heavy blood loses and incessant chronic body flushing urinating.

Ridged Breast Bone

A Fifth classic never medically addressed chronic cirrhosis symptom, very pronounced chronic, tender Breastbone area of rigidity, tightness discomfort, chronically occurring, especially intensifying after eating, always accompanied by a very strong banging pulse. My Sternum area, (breast bone), starting intensely throbbing with feeling of extreme tenderness, discomfort and rigidity, throbbing, rigidity tenderness occurring even without touching my Sternum, my body mostly rigid, painfully impossible for me to fully straitening my posture when lying strait on my back, however all other of my body muscles always remaining rigid with limited range of motion, 24 hours a day.

During my early symptoms years, my extremely intensely potent Sternum tenderness, remaining tender during those times even if gently touching my sternum, however after several passing decades, my Sternum symptom began to get somewhat milder, however still always present and potent. I also considered my Sternum symptom, a nuisance, but decades later then knowing better. My Sternum symptom continued up until 2009, when I became capable of defensively treating himself with my newly emerging Cirrhosis Control Treatment Protocol strategy.

Eventually my sternum symptom got much milder, almost completely vanishing, the direct result of my self treatment Protocol Control application which I commenced after my 2009 "Epiphany", however from times to times, tiny subtle hints of sternum rigidity still remaining. My future experiences, especially in 2012 and 2013, my Sternum rigidity Symptom again noticeably daily routinely reoccurring, reconstituted and intensified, but not anywhere close to its original past potency or intensity.

Rigid Body Muscles

My sixth classic never medically addressed chronic cirrhosis symptom arriving as predictable as clockwork, Ridged Body Muscles, Rigid Joints and Ridged painfully inflamed feet toes, also considering a nuisance symptom. Characterizing my body muscle rigidity symptom, all of my joints and muscles chronically stiff and rigid all year round with limited range of motion. However beginning around the middle of September in the sunless fall time of each year, the toes on both feet begin daily getting stiffer and more inflamed each day, until by the deepest part of each winter, my toes are so stiff, inflamed and painful, my toes will no longer bend, requiring walking on my heals, my toes so painful they just would not bend.

However with the arrival each year of spring, finding myself fanatically hunting and craving what little available new sunshine is available. With increasing sun exposure, my toes begin to get more flexible by the day, slowly reverting back towards normal during summer and by high summer, my toes are again flexible without pain, but my body muscle rigidity still continuing the year round.

This ridged/flexible toe cycle continuing as regular and as precise as clockwork throughout all of the decades, and in to the times, present 2009, when first applying my newly emerging cirrhosis Control Protocol. Retrospectively looking back at this toes rigidity symptom, one might conclude, obviously most likely attributable to lacking of vitamin D3, however in reality, not quite so simple, vitamin D3 is fat-soluble and herein laying one of the complicating problems regarding D3 and others of fat soluble nutrients family.

Retrospectively contemplating the possible reasons at hand, D3's fat solubility, along with its other fat soluble family members, a primary problem area in hepatic cirrhosis, appearing very difficult for the traumatized liver to properly metabolize fat soluble nutrients, both incompetence and toxicity issues arising. During the thirty-five years up to the time in question here, I had absolutely no knowledge of what is and was happening to me, only knowing that something was very, very chronically wrong with my body.

Musings over these many decades about this particular problem of my stiff inflamed toes during the winter sunless period and then becoming normal flexible during high summer, I thought about a lack of vitamin (D3) as a possibility, but could not just jump to this convenient conclusion of (D3) deficiency when considering my symptom. Considering myself as generally similar to every body else, however unknowingly to me at these times, I was afflicted with many chronic fat-soluble vitamin deficiencies, such highly resistant to dietary supplementing due to my hepatic cirrhosis dysfunction and liver toxicity issues, however understanding and fully believing, the sun possessing some kind of needed magic, but then remaining unaware of what this magic could be.

Discovering in 2009, to break my summer winter cycle, requiring full long sun exposure in the summer months and during the darker winter months, finding though my experiments, by taking several thousands iu. dosage of Water Soluble emulsified version of vitamin D3, my problem of stiff enflamed toes on my feet could be remedied and also finding as secondary unexpected benefits, Water Soluble D3 positively greatly benefiting stomach digestion function, including reducing the mucus forming in my throat after eating.

Lose Bawl

My seventh never medically addressed classic chronic hepatic cirrhosis symptom, my thirty-three years of chronic daily loose, diarrhea type stools at most bowel movements, such accompanied by very heavy daily bleeding, blood lose without endings, I also considered this symptom as a nuisance, such symptom chronically lasting until 2009 upon applications of my emerging fledgling Protocol Control Understandings of Alcohol Induced Cirrhosis.

My chronic Diarrhea Symptom lasting for 33 years in duration, a very loose diarrhea type of stool condition, producing a lot of pressure and very heavy endless bleeding during most bawl movements. Never an explanation for my chronic abnormal type of bowel movement condition, intern also exacerbating my pre existing long-term hemorrhoids condition. As previously helplessly and without choice, accepting and accommodating this symptom for many past decades before becoming capable of understanding hepatic cirrhosis and developing my cirrhosis control Protocol.

At most all bowel movements, pain and extreme amounts of blood lose, blood resembling water flowing from a faucet, both very dark black blood and rosy red blood, bleeding intensity, very difficult for any unacquainted normal person correctly perceiving or understanding. My Bowel consistently loose with a great deal of pressure at most bowel movements, such intern greatly exacerbating my bleeding hemorrhoid condition. Again decades later, due to my evolving hepatic control understandings, finding that chronic nutrient deficiencies were also responsible for the chronic abnormal malfunctioning of my bowel, thus validating, existing a direct relationship between bowel dysfunction and chronic nutritional starvation.

Unstable Eye Sight

My eighth never medically addressed Classic chronic Symptom daily continuing over many decades, Chronic Eyes Sight Symptoms, both optical and physical, annoying feelings of activities around my eyes, including unstable optical clarity functioning of my eyes, such symptom eventually somewhat fading after my "Epiphany" understandings after 2009. My daily eyesight varying all over the spectrum, sometimes better and sometimes worse, depending on evolving daily circumstances, what and when eating, what kinds of foods, even effected by eating or not eating for some previous while itself, such eyes symptom also directly affected by any recognized or hidden food sugar content.

Optically and physically, my eyes developing varying degrees of glassiness, feelings a lot of physical activities in the area of eyes, many other symptoms occurring throughout the years, just too many for referring and basically irrelevant for current purposes. Whenever referencing my eyes symptoms or activity around my eyes, the following descriptions shall be the dominant standard of interpretation as to exact meanings.

Activity around my eyes meaning, differing degrees of optical clarity of vision, eyes also burning at times, eyes changing back and forth, continually optically better or worst regarding clarity of optical vision and depending on dietary content, eyes feeling tight and feeling uncomfortable, dietary sugar intake, atmospheric whether conditions and how long previously eating. My eyes also appearing sleepy or looking as just awakened. These just aforementioned conditions, daily circumstances of my eyes over a duration of some thirty-five years in question herein to date, with never any period of eyes stability symptoms, good, bad or intermediate, eyes always daily changing, all day long over these 35 years to date.

Mental Fog

Mental fog during my initial early period after severing relationship with Alcohol in 1977, daily constantly fighting an overall condition of mental fog, sluggish non-alertness, my ninth never medically addressed classic symptom. For the first several years after 1977 and nothing I can do to overcome this condition, however on its own through passages of time slowly fading away.

Alcohol Hangover

My tenth never medically addressed classic hepatic cirrhosis symptom, Alcohol Type of Hangover, if eating certain foods close to bedtime, white toast, soda crackers, sweets or milk, the consequences, absolutely dependably predictable, without exceptions awakening in the morning, extremely dry, thirsty, headache, and mentally non-alert, in many ways directly closely resembled the classic alcohol induced hangover.

G. I. Tract

My eleventh never medically addressed classic chronic hepatic cirrhosis symptom, accumulated consequential damage to my G .I. Tract, Stomach, and Esophagus, my Stomach, and Esophagus sustaining a great deal accumulated damages from my many medically undiagnosed and totally untreated decades. Damages caused to some degree by acid refluxing into my throat and esophagus over those many decades, especially prominent during my "Stomach Collapse" period, including many additional symptoms, endlessly many more. Additionally a great deal of mucus forming in my throat, accompanied by hoarseness, intensities of symptom depending on size and amount of fat contained in the meal. The more fat contained, the greater forming of my mucus, and very difficult clearing this mucus for at least one hour after eating.

Body Weight

Upon my cessation from alcohol in 1977 occurring sporadically throughout the following decades, losing a great deal of body weight, body weight I could not afford to lose. Such lost body weigh, impossible to replace, regardless of taken in calories, my body completely absent of detectable body fat stores, skin and bone, resembling advanced starvation status.

Chapter - Five

Historical Vignettes

Alcohol induced hepatic cirrhosis symptoms as viewed through actual chronic daily examples, generally representative of my never medically addressed day-to-day life during my four decades, Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis Body Trauma. Following here, a few simplistic but illuminating short snapshots, placing practical faces on my untreated four decades, Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis Trauma's chronic mysterious daily produce, no identity, no rational reasons, no endings

My Pillow, My Will

My recollecting from my historic notes, occurring approximately in 1990-91, one evening after going to bed, started to occur in addition to my routine plethoric trauma symptoms, intense feelings of activities in my chest, feelings appearing as strange rhythms in my chest, feeling very poorly, such chest rhythm feelings very concerning to me, what to do? In order for me to get to sleep, and because no Physician ever knowing anything about my overall condition up until now, I decide, futile to go through such useless medical exercising again my night, instead deciding my getting up out of my bed, and retrieving my "Will", and placing such "Will" under my pillow, and in the morning, either removing such "Will", or it will easily be found, then somehow drifting off to sleep.

Little Restaurant

My retrospective recollecting, I was traveling on business in 1980 to a neighboring small town of about 100,000 populations, located about one hours hence northeast driving distance, lunchtime approaching, deciding, stopping at a conveniently located fast food outlet, I finishing eating, then continuing on my way. About fifteen minutes after my eating, my heart is starting to race, my breathing becoming shallow, my heart beating becoming irregular, starting to pant, a very dry feeling in my upper chest in the area around my Sternum, all such intensifying in crescendos of increasing intensity with passing time. Realizing from my routine past experiences, I must quickly find drinking water, but from where, as I am in my car away from home, and in some unknown environment. No possible option for me, only immediately finding drinking water, as my Heart wanting to explode at any minute. To be remembered at those times the wide spread current availability of bottled water not then existing.

Now forced into immediate desperate searching for my absolutely critical immediately needed water, there seemingly to be no place at all for obtaining this water. Moment by moment my Heart is wanting to explode, breathing now is by suffocation reflex, such further intensifying, my spotting what appearing to me like a small independently run, non descript family restaurant located in this area quite desolate of businesses.

Under most circumstances I would never go into an eating establishment, not having given my business, and asking for a glass of water, but circumstance now of such desperation, and life threatening immediacy, without further contemplating, immediately pulling my car over and entering this little restaurant. The time now after lunch, only the owner of this establishment is present standing by the cash register to greet me as my customer. Due to my immediacy of desperation, saying to this restaurant owner, "could you please sell me a glass of water", while at my same time also asking the owner how much he wanted for this water.

The owner replying, "we don't charge for water", while pouring me a large glass of priceless, precious water, and intern handing it to me, upon my grasping down this glass of water, drinking it down in about a quarter of a second. Immediately upon this waters hitting my Stomach, immediately predictably reacting to this water, my emergency has completely ended, as if never happening in the first place, and I am back to my considered previous subnormal. Expressing my appreciation for this incalculable gift of water, I attempt paying for the water, by pushing a dollar across the counter.

In tern the owner just repeated, we didn't charge for water, pushed my dollar back to me. Remembering in those days a person could fill a car with gasoline for five dollars, and today that same fill, forty dollars, making my historic offering of one dollar payment worth five or six dollars today. The truth of this matter, I was willing to pay without hesitation, whatever price demanding for this water, regardless of such price. This gift of water, a gesture of compassionate decency from one stranger to another, its giver not recognizing its enormity of true need and value. My particular water symptom itself, a very commonly occurring symptom, chronically occurring throughout my many decades and described with greater details else ware throughout these writings.

Mute Physician

This particular event occurring many decades after my cessation from alcohol in 1977, sometimes around 2001, never the less accurately materially depicting countless similar occurrences, endlessly past times experienced throughout my passing decades. During one of my routine visits to my Physician for some unrelated matter, again this day my making an effort such often previously made with others within the medical community, in trying to find out any useful information regarding the origins and identities of my mystery symptoms. During this particular visit in question, I make this direct comment question regarding my chronic occurring mystery symptoms, as many times previously doing, firstly also prefacing my past alcohol history to this Physician.

To my amazement, no response at all, not a facial inflection of any kind from my Physician, no nuance of any movement, or of any other sign of acknowledgment, signifying the Physicians intellectual receipt of my query? A full minute passing my query, the Physician still remaining completely mute without gesture of acknowledgment, directly again repeating the same query to my Physician, this time the Physician looking up at me and saying, "I herd what you said, but I don't understand".

What my event signifying, no help possible for me as validated over my many decades of similar failed medical community encountering of ineptitude and indifference regarding my cirrhosis symptoms. Status quo medical community knowledge failures loudly speaking, regardless of professional medical prowess in other matters, when matters pertaining to complex enigmatic subject matters such as Alcohol Induced Trauma, Physicians proving truly inept of required understandings of Alcohol Induced Trauma. For certain my Physician and virtually all others previously encountered by me, never effectively tutored, or otherwise trained in matters pertaining to Alcohol Induced Cirrhosis.

Neurological Brutality

My initial Internal Vibrating/Trembling symptom started in approximately 1978 after my cessation from alcohol, first time occurring in the late afternoon while at home. I very clearly recall standing in the basement of my home contemplating a small repair, suddenly starting occurring for its first recognized time ever up until this time, a vibrating kind of trembling within my body, especially involving my arms. At first I don't know what to make of my new trembling. Over the next several hours my trembling continues unabated, still trying to get my head around this newly occurring mystery.

As knowing nothing possibly relating to my trembling matter, having no other choice, I deciding to try and tough it out. Over the next several hours such strategy of compliance is getting me nowhere. This new Trembling/Vibrating symptom is not easily tolerated, my symptom's compounding effects on me, impossibly difficult. I decide to try and exercise myself out of this situation, but finding exercising having absolutely no effect on my Trembling symptom.

I now decide that will lie down in bed, trying to relax myself out of the grip of my mysterious trembling symptom, all such trembling remedial actions over the span of perhaps three consecutive days and absolutely no symptom relief of any kind. Ultimately my Neurological Symptom, as myself coined its description, ultimately chronically enduring over the next four years, accelerating in crescendos of intensifications, my Neurological manifestation now in full prowess of flower with the Medical Community systematically ignoring my plight, materially disregarding and summarily dismissing my symptom as even existing.

Physician Indifference

This mysterious Neurological Trembling Symptom in full flower, I purchases a new car from a resent new manufacturer entering the auto market. Such purchased vehicle having a great deal of problems with blown head gaskets, so again this day forced my taking this vehicle into the dealership. In between all else going on within my life this particular day, when arriving at this dealership, I was required leaving such vehicle with them. I had so much to do my day, I tries to rent a vehicle from this dealer.

The service department then informing me that they have nothing to do with loaners or rentals, and I must speak to the sales department upstairs. The pressures resulting from my days circumstances continues building on me this day, I was asked for my drivers license, which of coarse, left at home. With out my license in my hand the sales manager said, he could not rent a vehicle.

Regardless of what I would say or what I would suggest, this sales manager was plainly indifferent, even to my suggesting that the sales manager could drive the rental to my home, retrieve my required license, I then driving the manager back to the dealership, all to no avail as this manager was plainly inconsiderate and disinterested. If trying to get home by public transport meaning, requiring my taking two busses in each direction, even though not that far, such approach taking a good part of the remaining day in any case, and so deciding as my most practical strategy, waiting things out at the dealership.

Myself helplessly pinned down by endless waiting the building of frustration, pressures continuously building on me, suddenly commencing out of nowhere, some crescendo of strange sensations, resembling vertigo, accompanied by trembling and my losing of eyesight. In response immediately sitting down where I was, on a staircase, every thing around me begins darkening, I grab onto a staircases railing balustrades, locking on with very purposeful grip, my darkness increasing, the room begins to spin, my eyes remaining dark, I still continue to hold on to the balustrade, even though having lost total track of space and all direction.

After what seeming like a few minutes, I slowly start in regaining my vision, the gyroscope within me beginning to slow, soon after I am back to my previous normal, such as normal being during such my untreated Alcohol Induced chronic Neurological Symptoms. This is the first appearance of such Neurological storm during my Neurological period lasting for some four additional years. My Neurological symptom continuing unabated, unknown, and untreated by every Physician, all Physicians understanding nothing of Alcohol Induced Cirrhosis matters, all unwilling to in any way engage my matters.

Socializing Coffee

During the four years tenure in the early 1980s of my Neurological manifestations, finding daily I am compelled to make accommodations, relentlessly demanded of me by my Neurological manifestation, such having mysteriously intruded into my life. One such neurological accommodation that I was required to make, my completely abandoning my drinking of coffee during the four years tenure of my particular neurological manifestations. In attempting to make such required accommodations, thereby a number of challenges surfacing, some challenges easily dealt with, others challenges successfully implemented.

Very difficult in overcoming was my unanticipated social interactions of sharing coffee with others, as result of my Neurological affliction visited upon myself, coffee drinking seriously exacerbating my plethoric trembling symptoms. Then commonly my practice when visiting my customers on business, being socially offered coffee, in that we are all social animals to varying degrees or another, it can be offensive to continuously refuse such gestures of hospitality without continuously laying private lives bare for all to see. I found from times to time that I could bluff my way through such difficulty, by pleading my having just had a coffee, etc. etc.

However I experienced that such strategy of coffee refusals only going so far before posing its own problem resulting such refusals. At other times when this coffee problem arising, I was presented with a coffee without my having been previously asked, and in such cases I developed an operating strategy, of innocuously pretending to sip on that coffee, creating or waiting for opportunistic subterfuge distractions, intently waiting without drinking my coffee for some undetected opportunity for the disposal of my coffee, with non being the wiser.

To accomplish my subterfuge, taking the time required, while socializing with any particular host, waiting, observing, waiting, pretending, posturing, until my opportunity subsequently arriving, then dispose of my coffee in a planter, in a sink, in a toilet, or wherever the opportunity allowing, or even takes my now cold coffee with me, anything, but never drinking my coffee, as the penalty would be far too great.

Trembling & Physician

While attending my then Physician in 1978; during a routinely taking of my blood pressure by the old traditional stethoscope method, hand pump, and optical gage, and while my Physician is firmly grasping my arm in the my hands, my saying to this Physician, something to the effect, "what can be causing the shaking in my arms", the Physician replying, "what shaking, I don't feel anything", all this while an aggressive internal shaking/vibrating/buzzing continuing throughout my entire body, especially noticeable as manifested in my arms.

Again speaking to this Physician as previously, the Physician again repeating what he previously having just said; I then acquiesced as any further pursuit of this matter would be the beating of a dead horse. My Physician appearing having no further particular interest in my query of my shaking, my Physician feeling nothing in my arms thus just completely ignoring my query of day and night shaking/vibrating symptom. My day and night trembling/vibrating symptom without ending, mine alone to endure solely by myself, as the Medical Community appearing having no understanding of my trembling symptom, nor interest in its pursuit or of its addressing.

Myself quite puzzled by the disinterested response from my Physician of my shaking query, this same Physician whose office I first entering, directly relating to my alcohol matters, this same Physician supposedly treating me for the residue of my past excessive alcohol exposure. Aside from my Physicians alarming disinterest in my internal vibrating/trembling, one would think, the Physician being alarmed by my trembling query, also puzzling, why this Physician could not physically detect my incessant internal trembling. Myself chronically fully encompassed by my trembling, previously by me taking for granted that my trembling could be felt and recognized by the whole world. As a result of my arm shaking appearing to be physically undetectable, caused me to re-evaluate my own thought processes regarding my trembling symptom.

As result of such revaluation, at this very moment I realized, this trembling within my body, most likely a virtual trembling, residing in my own brain's neurology itself, more specifically residing in that area of my brain responsible for my hands and arms, as the trembling in my arms appearing to be effected disproportionately to the rest of my body, this truly sad display of medical disinterest always my fait, nobody within the Medical Community wanting to know anything about anything.

My Signature

Occurring most severely during the first decade after my cessation from alcohol having begun, my difficulty in producing my Signature when required, finding when at home that I could make as many attempts as needed in coming up with a passable specimen of my signature. However when I was in live action signings in real time, extremely very difficult in real time, my chicken scratch un legible signature markings somehow always sufficing. Myself having put my hand to paper, such chicken scratches, undoubtedly my Mark, whether resembling my signature or not, and indeed such Scratching Marks, somehow always successfully sufficing as my true signature. Ignorance and ineptitude, the medical communities guiding light during my Trauma infested years, the medical community taking no part, having absolutely no interest in any meaningful engagements with my chronic symptoms, demonstrating time and time again, just having no interest in knowing or engaging my Trauma related Symptoms.

Mercy & Zinc

My treating Physician in 1978/79 displaying as only being interpreted, as practicing a Medical Buffoonery of Medicine, such Physician fools decision, prescribing Tranquilizers to treat my Neurological Symptoms of internal trembling, instead of dealing knowledgably and directly with my alcohol traumatized Liver dysfunction, and Nutritional Starvation, the real drivers of my Neurological internal trembling. Myself subsequently mercifully finding, by using tiny amounts of Zinc, I became able to separate myself from my Physicians inappropriate, fools buffoonery of prescribed tranquilizers. I found that even tiny amounts of zinc was very toxic to my Liver, as witnessed by my resultant Liver discomfort upon my such using of zincs, nevertheless, no choice for me, zinc must be used. I came up with my zinc treatment to get away from my inappropriately Physician prescribed tranquilizer, zinc was only acting as a partial medication, as Zinc only subduing the most inhumane parts of my Neurological vibrating symptoms, Zinc mercifully tempering my neurological symptoms, from inhumane in status to a status of only excruciatingly bad, a greatly improvement in status of mercy.

I was required to employ this partially adequate treatment with zinc, as having absolutely no other options available to myself at these horrendous times, having no way of knowing for many decades to come and then passing, that the unknown root reasons for my Neurological occurring symptoms was my Metabolic Digestion Dysfunction, undetected Liver damage and resultant Chronic Nutritional Starvation. What occurring if zinc having not been discovered and implemented in my very primitive self treating efforts in partially controlling my Neurological issues during these critical years, later truly wondering, what shall have occurred if in zinc's absent stead, truly something extremely bleak?

Dripping Tap

Occurring Neurological symptom, 1978 to 1983, occurring during my earliest days, months, and years of my inhuman Neurological darkness period, the jarring penetrating impacting of energy pulses, generated by some dripping facet or some rain drops falling on a window sill. Enormous pulses of energy from such innocuous single droplets, projecting into my body. Each such individual droplets, penetrating my body, each droplet of sludge hammer effect, jarring, drop-by-drop, unbearably staggering me with each such single droplet. No tolerating or accommodation to be made with such tormenting droplets, silencing the only solution. Excruciating is to mild a word in trying to describe each impact such droplets exacting on myself, however not knowing any stronger more appropriate word for its description, except possibly inhumane, a more suitable description. Whenever these kinds of otherwise innocuous slow drippings arising requiring, either the silencing such dripping or the relocating out of the hearing range of such cruel inhumane bursts of energy.

Endlessly Urinating

Endlessly occurring throughout my many untreated decades, my chronic needs for constant sudden urination every twenty minutes or so. Upon my cessation from alcohol in 1977 and seamlessly chronically continuing uninterrupted, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, and year by year, to the time near present of my Epiphany in 2009, my need to constantly urinate continuing throughout all passing decades until that occurrence of my Epiphany in 2009, when my first ever discovery and use of vitamin B12, such urinating never taking any time off its self imposed schedule.

This constant urinating, truly a great nuisance and a very inconsiderate symptom, such symptom wanting whatever and whenever it wanted, regardless of any other considerations. I was always at my symptoms beckon calls for all those decades to yet materialize into my future. When I was in my familiar comfortable surroundings like at home, my nuisance factor was reasonably tolerable, but away from home and especially while driving in my car, this symptom was much greater than just a nuisance. My mandatory requirement for my complete subservience to this symptom, wherever I happened to be at any moment, when my symptom beckoning, I was required to drop everything, somehow complying with my symptoms immediate demand.

Over the years I became very creative in ways I employed in satisfying urination's relentless demands, developing endless strategies for accomplishing these demands, requiring a great deal of discretions, modesty and unobtrusive masking solutions in accommodating such demands. In my dealings with such demands I developed an enormous volumes of knowledge of procedures involving appropriate locations, and suitable sites, existing throughout the regions where my previously finding such suitable sites and facilities to satisfy my particular need. The creative arrays of solutions that I inventing or discovering throughout my 30 years in satisfying such needs to constantly urinate, staggering in numbers.

Chapter - Six

"Stomach Collapse"

During the decades immediately after I parted company with "Comrade Alcohol" in 1977, my chronic Alcohol Induced plethora of symptoms, ever so brutally present and demanding, such impossibly brutal onslaught of horrendous brutality by massive physical and neurological bodily dysfunction. Now many decades later, somewhat nebulous in clearly isolating each original expressed symptoms. Over the ensuing decades these symptoms, always present, however very slowly moderating over such vastness of time. After my 2004 Stomach Collapse event, my capacity to eat was again severely negatively impacted. During this period of "Stomach Collapse", I again re experienced severe chronic body weight lose, physical starvation like appearance, swollen closed throat, mucus in my throat, difficulties eating, onset of skin infections and outwardly appearing my obvious rapid inexorable declining of remaining time.

Previous of this time when my self described, "Stomach Collapse" event first occurring, I have been living with and helplessly tolerating my unidentified and never medically addressed mysterious symptoms from long ago past alcohol behavior. By this late time, still having absolutely no knowledge of what has been occurring, no knowledge of thiamine or knowledge of possible symptoms control, this is why I coined this event as "Stomach Collapse", in absence of truer fundamental understandings. However when looking back at this event of "Stomach Collapse" from much later achieved understandings of Alcohol Induced Cirrhosis control, later then interpreting events somewhat differently. Such later understandings suggesting, more accurately occurring as of this event, my collapse and steep decent of my liver function status, such for reasons then totally mysterious to me as I always jealously protected my liver at all times from all perceived liver toxicity. Outside of the driving reasons still remaining as a general mystery to me, I have become suspicious of two reasons. One, my total failure of long term thiamine control absence and Two, liver toxicity from vitamin (A) poisoning, vitamin (A) nebulously unrecognized throughout many areas of my daily diet, especially in dairy milk which I had been consuming in rather large amounts, oblivious of toxicity issues, my strong suspicions in any case.

It is during this period, commencing after my "Stomach Collapse", when my Stomach dysfunctions seriously intensified. After my "Stomach Collapse" event occurring in the year 2004, my metabolic digestion symptoms immediately intensifying to new heights of symptoms potencies brutality. Arrivals many additional very potent symptoms, which in many ways started resembling those potencies of symptoms occurring to me many decades earlier when first quitting alcohol consumption. My experiences exactly mimicking my life long experiences of medical community hepatic cirrhosis understandings ineptitude and indifference, pre, and post "Stomach Collapse" periods. Again I experienced the same medical ineptitude of cirrhosis understandings during this 1004 "Stomach Collapse" period, identical to medical indifference and impotence previously experienced. My manifested Alcohol Induced Cirrhosis always deflecting engagement by Physicians or summarily dismissed by every Physician to ever be confronted with these matters.

Upon awakening one morning in 2004, my stomach and esophagus appearing totally collapsed, tasting acid in my throat and my stomach grinding, growling and burning, along with burning in the area of my esophagus, my complete digestion system seemed completely collapsing. Eating became impossible for me as these new stomach conditions appearing extremely potent. The days progressing such newly emerging stomach condition continuing without improvement and daily getting much worse, I could neither eat or sleep as my stomach dysfunction was becoming impossible to tolerate, my overall condition interfering completely with my eating and my sleeping.

Again no practical knowledgeable medical help forthcoming from any Physician, only barrages of irrelevant x-rays and prescribing of ant-acids use. The Medical Community again understanding nothing of my current symptoms, as each treating Physicians again and again blindly and deafly follow irrelevant medical protocol templates, which in my case of alcohol proclaimed trauma, totally irrelevant and non-applicable protocol templates. All the while as I am vigorously proclaiming to each and all treating Physicians, my past untreated alcohol induced symptoms history and my very strong suspicions of a close connection to my present G. I. Tract symptoms. However again not one Physician will seriously ever listen to anything I will say in such regard. The acid refluxing into my throat was terrible, as I continued taking a lot of ant acids with very little overall positive results, except only for immediately reducing the burning to my throat stomach and esophagus. Again as always occurring throughout all past experiences with the medical community, now again repeating in lock step, as again only uniform summary medical community ridicule dismissals, being possibly at the root of these current matters. Just prior to the occurrence of my "Stomach Collapse", I started extensive renovations to my home by my self and this renovation was still not completed when "Stomach Collapse" occurring. Because my health as now becoming so very bad by this time and because it was becoming very difficult for me to sleep, I feverishly restarted my mission to complete such renovations, which intern would take a great load off of me.

Believing I must complete such renovations while still able, and so for the most part I began working by day and by night towards completing these in progress renovations. After two and half months passing, my G. I. Tract steadily getting worst, overall health deteriorating by the day, viscerally convinced I most likely have reached the end of my road, I thus entered into the unavoidable, but necessary process of making my required peace with my self. I was generally okay with my resolve in making this peace with myself, except for only one thing, I could not resolve, the extreme impossible difficulties of leaving my un-resolved current responsibilities unfulfilled, however most importantly, leaving behind my wife Jenny of some forty three years, "My Girl", such possibility paining me most of all.

However as hours turning into days and days turning into months, my downward spiraling from these newly re manifested relentless and impossible barrages of symptoms continuing, but somehow I am able to hang on to my life. Even though this current reprieve of my life's forfeiture somehow occurring, my life continuing daily excruciatingly bad, day in and day out, with no possibility of remediation. My ability to bear these symptoms, buttressed by a simple basic fact, I am and shall remain without choice in this matter, similar of decades earlier experiences of similar paradoxes, requiring to bear the unbearable if having no choice", such my hopples circumstance of these times. Now encompassed within an impossible cruel and tragic reality, it was becoming impossible for me to live with my now accelerated neurological dysfunctional body, materially medically abandoned while having no means to impact or intervene in any manor whatsoever.

Now also forced to deal with my badly damaged and eroded oesophagus, I begin employing desperate mechanical measures in trying to control the refluxing into my esophagus. As the burning and discomfort becoming intolerably very scary and unbearable, and because mechanical means are the only method available to me at these time, mechanical intervention means will be required to suffice. Prior to the moment of my "Epiphany", I have no way of controlling my constant burning eroded esophagus, such burning resulted from my many untreated decades of metabolic digestion dysfunction. This refluxing having accelerated in intensity after 2004, as a result of "Stomach Collapse", with a further increasingly raw and degraded esophagus.

Clearly recognizing and understanding the looming dangers of my chronically eroded esophagus, however there is absolutely nothing I understand about this condition. My treating Physicians, never accepting my past alcohol history as in any way involved with my current "Stomach Collapse" symptoms or as a matter of fact, that my alcohol induced Trauma even existing in the first place. Ultimately ineffectual antacids prescribing would be the medical communities answer to this current G.I Tract problem. Having no real answer for any possible control or treatment of this serious current looming danger by my refluxing and eroding esophagus at these times. Engaging my truly desperate attempting in trying to relieve my esophagus-refluxing problem, deciding that immediately after eating a meal, I would then take a leather belt, fastening this belt with strangulation tightness around my stomach, by placing this belt just above my belly button, and keeping this belt in place for 20 to 30 minutes after eating.

In my opinion even though this type of stomach strangulation procedure was inappropriate, however in actuality it really did work in preventing acid into my esophagus, and it did provide significant but deeply flawed procedural relief. However this very tight belt intern posing a new problem, the squeezing of my kidneys, and to overcome this new problem, I would now hook the back of this stomach strangulation belt to the back of my trousers belt and in this way change the trajectory of the strangulation refluxing belt so as to bypass the impacting of my kidneys, and this is all that I can do to control my aggressive acid refluxing at these times. The stomach strangulation period is a time before my "Epiphany" in 2009, before my first ever-seminal understandings of hepatic cirrhosis control, discovering through experiment, existing a complex depth relationship between specific vitamin nutrients and the complex control procedure understandings for controlling Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis manifestations, as exampled by my first ever successful B12 experimenting results.

However once my "Epiphany" occurring, I am alas able to move past my previously primitive methods of attempting to control my acid refluxing, as now slowly becoming capable, however very primitively at first, employing knowledge based root cause control in treating symptoms. Armed with seminal understanding stemming from my 2009 "Epiphany" I am now fanatically determined, experimenting, hypothesizing, and perusing, Vitamin/Hepatic Cirrhosis control knowledge to the ends of the earth. Such produce of understandings the birthing of Practical Associative Control Understandings of Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis. In interest of a transparency of understandings and as declaration of fact, I never consumed Alcohol ever again after my initial stopping alcohol's use in 1977. I remain very cautious and fanatic with the protection of my remaining liver capacity and its function, therefore never allowing Organic Vapors, Pharmaceuticals, Dietary toxicities or any other recognizable liver toxic agents or conditions ever again making assault upon my liver.

The formal creating of "My Liver Cirrhosis Journal", Oct., 2010 – July 2015, Journal's first documented entry, Oct. 1, 2010, but some invaluable, however primitive directional fragment of experiment insight having been accomplished earlier during my feeble attempt at Stomach Collapse's pacification. Such invaluable initial fragment of potential directional control knowledge discovered in 2009, as result of my "Epiphany" event, Vitamin B12's efficacy in controlling my long term sudden urinating, B12, having such power to subdue this 40 years tenure of insistent chronic, round the clock, sudden strong needs to endlessly urinate, this one discovery that a vitamin nutrient could have such enormous power of disease seduction, intern the driving seminal geneses for the creating of this Journal, as without such fundamental understanding of nutrition's power, this Journal not otherwise conceptually possible.

it is during this complex second Liver Cirrhosis Trauma period when herein Journal entries are recorded, my body weight lose issues again impossible to positively influence, as not yet having achieved my personally developed hepatic control understandings. In any subsequent reader study of herein daily Journal entries of hope, explorations and understandings of Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis, it must be remembered, logged herein entries represent a period in time when my understandings of Alcohol Liver Cirrhosis are still very primitive, a time when simultaneously occurring, symptoms of two distinctive periods, combined into one synergistic disease manifestation. The quality efficacy content, direct and indirect knowledge contained within herein Journal entries, believed by me to be truly spectacular, nevertheless keen interest, contemplation and study will be required by any interested parties for the extraction of such unique understandings. By continually forming my incremental stepping Suppositions, Hypotheses, and Conclusions based upon Observations and Experiments, materially a foundation basis for the next following steps in my ongoing probing of Alcohol Trauma Liver Cirrhosis Treatment Control understandings.

Chapter - Seven

Control Protocol & Thiamine

My Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis, stubborn, mysterious and brutal without hiatus or pause during its spanning four decades. Hepatic Cirrhosis generated symptoms during such four decades, consistently daily present each and every day. Experiencing medical community systemic wide incompetent and dangerous failed medical community understandings of Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis. Commonly existing fallacious cirrhosis understandings within general society and medical communities alike, that resultant hepatic cirrhosis nutritional deficiencies, simply correctable by routine supplementing with bottle labeled dosages of vitamin nutrients, wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong and egregiously naively simplistically wrong, as such being essentially totally useless irrelevant and life threatening dangerously false understandings.

The metabolic Hepatic Cirrhosis model is in fact very different from the societal common normal metabolic model, Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis model requiring the understandings of specific nutrients themselves, and prudently effective dosages required in the cirrhosis model, also understanding a required embargoing of hepatic toxic nutrients, understanding nutrient dosage timing issues, procedure issues, hepatic toxicity precautions and understandings alcohol hepatic cirrhosis's metabolic nutritional incompetence driven resistance issues.

Alcohol hepatic cirrhosis resulting from enormous damages to such liver's capacity and functioning abilities, hepatic cirrhosis traumatized livers, highly dysfunctional in carrying out its appointed metabolic bodily duties, As result of hepatic cirrhosis, chronic nutritional starvation of the body commonly occurring, including the livers inabilities in carrying out its duties intimately associated with metabolic carbohydrate and fats digestion amongst many other.

Alcohol traumatized liver not only thus dysfunctional, but complexly such dysfunctional. Highly probable the alcohol traumatized liver having lost a great deal of its original function and detoxification capacity, thereby no longer capable of even withstanding its mildest hepatic toxic challenging and certainly no longer capable of properly metabolically facilitating the bodies digesting of carbohydrates or the bodies effective harvesting and distributing of critically required nutrients, even from within good and well balanced nutritional diets.

However the alcohol induced cirrhosis manifestation is infinitely greater in complexity than just aforementioned, in that such badly traumatized livers still can in many cases successfully pass routinely medically administered liver function testing, thus masking its existence to Physicians, unapprised of appropriate Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis knowledge. Finding through my extensive experimenting in defense of my own life, effective nutrient supplementation within the Alcohol Traumatized body requiring understandings of the traumatized bodies existing enigmatic hepatic cirrhosis status quo circumstances, and in depth understandings of required tradeoffs between immediate critical biological nutritional need, verses highly probable risk of liver destruction by nutrient toxicity. Chronic large spectrum vitamin nutritional starvation deficiencies can be present within alcohol-traumatized hepatic cirrhosis, including a severely damaged dysfunctional liver.

Also finding through extensive personal experiments, careful, studious and knowledgeable nutrition supplementing to the alcohol traumatized body, absolutely essential in restoring improving health status and metabolic biological digestion function. Also findings that very high dosages of one particular nutrient, vitamin B1, thiamine, absolutely critically essential within alcohol induced hepatic cirrhosis, and further finding that thiamine is absolutely critically essential in controlling Neurological bodily dysfunction, Heart dysfunction, Breathing dysfunction and complex metabolic Digestion dysfunction amongst many other impaired biological functions.

Also finding that thiamine is critically essential to be taken continuously in extremely high dosages and over very long periods of time, dosages perhaps many tens of thousands of time the dosages considered societal normal. Other critically important deficient vitamins in alcohol hepatic cirrhosis, the fat soluble family of vitamins, A, E, D3 and K, with A and E, extremely liver toxic in alcohol hepatic cirrhosis circumstances, thus requiring creative compromising deals with the devil. Vitamin (A), a fat-soluble vitamin metabolized in the liver, vitamin A, critically nutritionally deficient in alcohol cirrhosis, however exceptionally liver dangerously toxic in alcohol cirrhosis, again representing some true conundrum to be overcome.

Due vitamin A's extreme liver toxicity in alcohol cirrhosis, abstinence of vitamin A from the diet as much as possible may be required, including dietary foods where high dosages vitamin A can insidiously hide, examples fortified dairy milk amongst others, even though vitamin A, desperately deficient within alcohol cirrhosis. The geneses of my Hypotheses of hepatic Cirrhosis Control, a direct results of my endless observations and endless probing experiments, incrementally learning of exactly how I could successfully apply my materializing hepatic cirrhosis understandings in controlling my own brutalizing hepatic trauma

Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis requires its viewing and interpretation as its own separate distinct model of human metabolic digestion function/dysfunction, representing a second such model if you wish. Even though itself a dysfunctional model of the normal function model, nevertheless because of cirrhosis's general status of non-reversible permanency and stability of dysfunction, my belief is that the cirrhosis's model of alcohol induced cirrhosis is required being viewed as its own completely separate and distinct metabolic model of human metabolic function/dysfunction.

Such alternate metabolic hepatic cirrhosis digestion model, not generally medically understood or recognized by the medical community as existing as a distinctly new and permanent model in itself and not as a transitory disease driven variation model from the normal human metabolic digestion model. Complexity conundrums within alcohol cirrhosis and failed parochial medical community understandings of alcohol hepatic cirrhosis, Physicians only understanding metabolic digestion principals of normal human metabolic models, and therefore basically unknown, the metabolic principles applying to manifestations of the alcohol hepatic cirrhosis syndrome model.

Poorly trained Physicians only have understandings of the normal metabolic human function/dysfunction model, unapprised of the existence of such alternate dysfunctional cirrhosis model of human metabolic dysfunction/function, intern falsely measuring all medical hepatic matters against their medical training, solely only of the normal model of human metabolic digestion function. Thereby if such improperly hepatic cirrhosis trained Physician attempts patient treating within alcohol hepatic cirrhosis, a model they do not understand as even existing, existing a recipe for complete medical failures, failed referral and failed medical treatment.

Encompassing principal within my Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis Control Protocol, all dosages of identified daily-required control nutrient supplementations, not to be taken at one time applications each day, but instead without exceptions, such required control nutrients are to be administered with each and every meal eaten throughout each and every day, otherwise immediate hell to be paid from occurring dysfunctional metabolic digestion failures, such capable of spawning many ongoing sever bodily dysfunctions, Heart, Lungs, Eyes, Breathing and Neurological dysfunction dysfunctions amongst many others.

My Hepatic Cirrhosis Control Protocol requiring this method of meal by meal nutrient distribution, due to alcohol induced liver dysfunction, the cirrhosis liver losing its metabolic abilities automatically harvesting, sequestering and distributing each such identified required nutrients upon the bodies metabolic need, thus requiring the patient personally, however clumsily taking on such distribution responsibilities, in making such nutrients available to the body at each and every meal eaten so as to facilitate metabolic digestion. When eating away from home I creating and carry with me a number of portable travel kits containing all such required nutrients. One very important category of fundamental difference between my own alcohol induced cirrhosis nutritional needs and the metabolic nutrient needs within the normal public at large.

Outside of the nutrients themselves biologically similarly between both model groups, required administering procedures and enormous differences in required nutrient quantities plus and minus, nutrient precautions, nutrient toxicities and timings of nutrient introductions, totally different between both human biological models, all compellingly completely different with no similarity of any kind between such both very different biological metabolic models.

My liver's functioning capacity has been enormously diminished as a direct result of my Alcohol Induced hepatic cirrhosis, my understandings of my diminished Liver function capacity, my Liver is still capable of sustaining my life support, however my Liver having lost a great deal of its ability to metabolically function in discharging its metabolic responsibilities. My diminished metabolic Liver function model, my so called Second Metabolic model, manifested as a permanent dysfunction of the normal metabolic digestion model, therefore actually qualifying to be viewed as its own distinctly separate irreversible model of human metabolic function.

Primary care Physicians appearing only having medical training understanding of the normal human hepatic metabolic function model, understandings they solely use in evaluating Liver function disease, sadly however such understandings totally excluding understandings of the existing virtual second model of liver cirrhosis dysfunction. Tragically again, again and again as in my own case experiences, the standard utilized Liver function testing model, never capable of disclosing my hepatic cirrhosis metabolic dysfunction, totally non-effective for the most part in unmasking alcohol hepatic cirrhosis.

My circumstances always similarly the same, medical community's employing poorly designed, improperly understood Hepatic function testing, always incorrectly improperly producing as normal liver function test results, my hepatic cirrhosis intern totally masked. Physicians never capable of understanding that even very badly cirrhosis traumatized liver's are still capable of improperly passing their commonly administered routine ineffective and irrelevant hepatic function tests. In addition the medical community also failing to recognize, also existing in hepatic cirrhosis, its own separate model of carbohydrate metabolism, instead of only one model as commonly taken for granted by medical communities, one model as manifested within alcohol cirrhosis and the other model as manifested within the normal societal public at large.

The so-called normal Glucose biological models medical communities recognize and fully understand and my distinctly separate model of carbohydrate metabolism within alcohol induced hepatic cirrhosis. Such second dysfunctional carbohydrate cirrhosis model, capable of mimicking the normal model of carbohydrate glucose metabolism, such alternate carbohydrate hepatic cirrhosis model, neither recognized nor understood by medical communities at large. Medical community confusion always existing within medical communities regarding true understandings of my Alcohol Induced hepatic cirrhosis's such second model of carbohydrate glucose mimicking symptoms.

Appearing that most Physicians are inadequately trained in Alcohol Induced hepatic matters, having little respect for the prowess of nutrition in disease processes, only recognizing and understanding normal models of human carbohydrate Glucose Metabolism, understandings against which Physicians measuring everything they understand, treat or attempt to do in relation to all situations, including hepatic cirrhosis maters of blood glucose metabolism.

Physicians untrained in matters of alcohol hepatic cirrhosis, thus falsely concluding patient complaints of cirrhosis symptoms, only patient gibberish to be ignored, as Physician's inadequate understandings of hepatic cirrhosis's metabolic mimicking carbohydrate glucose dysfunction appearing normal and liver function appearing normal to cirrhosis unqualified Physician, thus misdirected and confusing Physicians, intern dismissing the cirrhosis patient, unrecognized, and un addressed to linger untreated into perpetuity.

Every physician ever confronted with my symptoms complaints, all proving as possessing no hepatic cirrhosis control understandings, including no understandings of the great differences in carbohydrate metabolisms between the normal human model and the alcohol liver cirrhosis model. Secondly Physicians having no understandings in regards to hepatic cirrhosis that the commonly administered liver function test is for most part irrelevantly designed for use in unmasking alcohol induced liver cirrhosis, thus understanding nothing of what is actually occurring before their very own eyes.

My universal experience, Physicians never recognizing or understanding my alcohol induced glucose mimicry model, nor any other understandings of the fundamental differences between these two distinct separate models of glucose metabolism, sadly intern masking my own unrecognizable model of hepatic cirrhosis trauma, a big, big difference in understandings of the matters at hand. Briefly and parochially describing the differences between my Hypothesized two possible occurring models of Glucose metabolism mimicked symptoms.

In the normal model of Glucose Metabolism, unstable levels of Glucose facilitating serious disease processes as a direct result of blood glucose, such model Physicians appearing to fully understand. However in the Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis Trauma model of Glucose metabolism, appearing to exist a mimicking of many normal model glucose symptoms, however in my case circumstances, my blood glucose normally stable, such facilitated by dietary metabolic dysfunctions of carbohydrates, especially simple sugars. My alcohol induced hepatic cirrhosis mimicking metabolic model of glucose dysfunction, appearing outwardly similar to the normal model, however in my particular alcohol induced cirrhosis case circumstance model, normal glucose appearing not directly affected by my cirrhosis. Physicians have never understood such concept of fundamental differences between both possible models of carbohydrate metabolism functionings.

My initial singular discovery of vitamin B12, a direct result of my "Epiphany", demonstrating that this one single B12 nutrient having such enormous power of disease seduction, by suddenly reversing my profound four decades chronic urination symptom of incessant day and night urinating, immediately hypothetically unmasking the genre identity of my mystery disease, as Alcohol Induced Hepatic dysfunction, accompanied by chronic Nutritional Starvation, (Notation, at this time myself still having no knowledge of thiamine or its fundamental importance in Hepatic Cirrhosis). Such easily recognized because of the profound and immediate changes to my decades long incessant urinating pattern, such seminal knowledge intern planting the seminal seed for exploring nutrient control of my hepatic cirrhosis.

Consistently over my many untreated symptoms decades and throughout all stages of my manifested alcohol cirrhosis, vigorous physical exercising activities proving extremely important in dealing with my mysterious symptoms, robust and prolonged daily physical activity consistently shown to improve symptoms profiles present at any particular stage of my mystery Trauma. This is the only time I mention physical activity in relation to my Alcohol hepatic cirrhosis in these writings, even though physical exertion, not directly a part of my protocol treatment control, nevertheless, the more strenuous the physical exertion, the better my consistently significant experiences throughout all stages of my Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis driven metabolic dysfunction.

Consistently experiencing that dietary sugars causing serious hepatic cirrhosis health deterioration by dietary sugar's insidiously exacerbating degrading of current achieved health statuses. Requiring preferably a total abstinence intake of dietary sugars, or if not possible, tightly controlled for superfluous intake, as Dietary Sugars not only capable in preventing my successful movement forward with improved health status, but also actually capable of reversing many previously achieved health status gains. My first ever knowledge and use of vitamin B12, my initially experiencing, B12 required to be administered in very large daily dosages in early hepatic cirrhosis circumstances.

Next I found that supplementing, in particular with fat soluble vitamins, fat soluble nutrient dosages are to be determined very cautiously, experiencing that label recommended dosages are unfortunately far too strong, dangerous and liver toxic for my alcohol cirrhosis traumatized liver to metabolize. Also finding that my metabolic digestion chemistry appearing permanently forever altered due to permanent Alcohol Induced Liver damage. My bodies having lost its automatic ability to harvest, regulate, store, and allocate critically essential nutrients upon my body's metabolic needs, for enabling my more normal metabolic digestion functioning.

Effectively controlling my hepatic Trauma symptoms, finding it necessary to exercise a most strict discipline in managing my Control Protocol. An especially perplexing problem plaguing me, fat-soluble nutrient Liver Toxicity issues, especially involving vitamins A & E, such toxicity issues arising when introducing these required fat-soluble nutrients, truly exasperating to deal with and in some cases virtually an insurmountable predicament. Also finding as result of my alcohol induced hepatic cirrhosis, being personally required to intellectually introduce my cirrhosis protocol control nutrients into my body at each and every meal eaten, as my bodies such automatic abilities, previously lost to alcohol liver destruction.

Mandatory cirrhosis protocol control requirements, forbidding taking my daily maximum nutrients dosages at one time each day, instead without option, requiring taking proportional dosages of such identified control nutrients with each and every meal eaten, otherwise immediate penalty exacted from any failure with such compliance. Resulting from my extensive self experiment and trial outcomes, appearing existing Protocol Control procedural introduction hierarchal timings, intimately related to current achieved degrees of liver recovering healing and overall health status, such appropriate Hierarchal timings dictating when specific protocol procedures can or will be effective, out side of which timings, only apparent failures resulting. However such failures not necessarily meaning, such procedures without value in Hepatic Cirrhosis Trauma Control, however only meaning that possibly introduced out of such appropriate Hierarchal timings order. Hepatic Cirrhosis control conducts posture without choice requiring consistent, determined and fanatical lock stepping obedient adherence.

Discovering through extensive observations and experimenting, my underlying decades old mysterious trauma's identity, primary always having been my Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis driven Metabolic Digestion Dysfunction of Carbohydrates, Fats, and Chronic Nutritional Starvation of fat soluble vitamins (A), (E), (K), (D3), such egregious failure of medical knowledge amidst medical plenty. Thus myself exacted into my four decades wilderness of endless brutality from ignorance of Hepatic Cirrhosis knowledge before self-discovering the identity of my mystery disease nemeses, as in fact Hepatic Cirrhosis.

After self-discovery of my own desperate chronic (B1, Thiamine) starvation and thiamine's critical importance in controlling my Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis Syndrome, further finding that I required taking all identified control nutrients in specific controlled dosages with each and every meal eaten, as these nutrients requiring to be present in my stomach with the eaten food at each food intake of each and every day. Further discovering through my evolving fledgling experiments, my daily conduct requirements for controlling my cirrhosis symptoms requiring in part, my most severe restricting of dietary carbohydrates, especially simple sugars in all its forms and the strict mandatory inclusion of animal fats with each meal, animal fats as apposed to ineffective cirrhosis irrelevant plant based fats.

My first time ever discovering of thiamine as essential in my cirrhosis control, occurring only after four fallow and brutal decades passing without knowledge of thiamine's relevance within my Hepatic Cirrhosis. Upon my initial discovery of thiamine, a great deal of trial and error initially required in establishing my understandings of appropriate techniques and required administering dosages. Ultimately I would establish my meal thiamine dosage strategy through trial and experience as generally stated here, but also depending and influenced by my current degree of achieved hepatic health status improvement. During Beriberi manifestations, thiamine was required in very large dosages at each and every meal, perhaps 300/500 mg. thiamine at each meal, however after Beriberi's eviscerated pacification, then routinely taking 100/200 mg. thiamine with each and every meal eaten for facilitating my neurological metabolic physical and carbohydrate digestion taking place, and as necessary, additional thiamine between meals as required.

During my early experimental with thiamine, I experienced confusing and unclear understandings of thiamine's required dosages. Such nebulous experimental thiamine results with very large thiamine dosages, apparent transitory muscle toxicity symptoms of temporary numbness in outer body muscles, however also finding by employed additional thiamine dosages when only responding to dietary carbohydrate load metabolic digestion dysfunction demand, such muscle toxicity not appearing to materialize. Further describing this perceived thiamine induced muscle numbness, if sitting or sleeping, and when my muscles are sustaining contact pressure during such activity, muscles feeling dead numb and without sensitivity to gentle surface touching. I describe such numbness as transitory, because such muscle numbness immediately reversed, if either by purposely flexing the involved muscle, or alternatively rapping on the effected muscle's surface with my knuckle as if knocking on a wooden door to gain entry.

For purposes of clarity of understanding of my such experiencing of attributed transitory thiamine muscle numbness, presenting here three examples of somewhat similar appearing related muscle numbness categories, however not in fact directly related to thiamine overdose muscle numbness. Before my discovery knowledge of thiamine, through my (BCAAs), Branch Chain Amino Acids experiments, experiencing that large dosages of B-Complex taken with each meal providing partial but incomplete neurological symptom relief from my mysterious raging plethoric symptoms brutalities, at such times I have no way of knowing what the magic effective component or component were within B-Complex.

As no other option then existed for my remediation of symptoms brutality, other than daily taking very high dosages of B-Complex, totaling 500/800 mg. of complete B-Complex amalgam daily, such still insufficient for my neurological needs and larger dosages totally toxically impossible. Eventually such high-unwanted, unknown bundled (B vitamin) amalgam member's dosages contained within B-Complex, facilitating total numbness of my fingers, my fingers feeling like wood, no feeling at all. Thus with serious trepidation sacrificially forced me into cutting back on B-Complex, but again no choice in this matter, my finger numbness taking several months to completely reverse during my sacrificial cutting back my B-Complex doses.

Another very different category of muscle rigidity, my never medically advised or treated, four decades tenure of chronic permanent night and day muscle rigidity, such muscle rigidity only lifting upon my successful application of thiamine. This very different muscle rigidity chronically lasting many untreated decades without thiamine, chronic limited range of muscle movement, such including inability bending to put on my socks, but most serious, my chronic rigidity of chest muscles in sternum area, so profoundly chronically rigid that I was not able to lay on my back with my legs strait, having no choice my knees would be required to be bent significantly upward as my chest was so ridged. These differing categories and degrees of neurological muscle control dysfunction, ultimately remedied by sustained very high therapeutic application dosages of thiamine governed by my evolving Control Protocol understandings.

After eating a meal and equally between meals, myself also chronically experiencing, heart rhythms suddenly becoming erratic with shortness of breathes. Before my discovery of thiamine, I was required to helplessly ride out such abnormal heart rhythms events, solely with the help of drinking water. However after my discovery of thiamine, by directly taking thiamine in required quantity with water quickly successfully subduing such erratic heart beating events. Immediately upon such erratic heart rhythm event materializing, I immediately drop whatever I am doing, immediately taking at least 100 mg. thiamine with cold water, if water available, I also keep thiamine on my person and water usually closely available.

Taking thiamine to normalize my irregular heart beating events, usually returning my breathing and heart beating to normal rhythm within several minutes. Further discovering through my experiments, I required the fullest possible exposure of sunshine on my skin, however also finding, even such full sun skin exposure, inadequately in supplying sufficient vitamin D 3 for my bodies needs, as the toes on my feet becoming unbendable ridged and inflamed during the sunless winter months. I experienced previously of my "Epiphany" enlightenment that it was not possible for me to get enough vitamin D3 from fat-soluble sourced vitamin D3 supplementing during the sunless winter months.

Subsequently discovering through my ongoing experiments, by taking emulsified water-soluble sourced vitamin D3, in addition to full summer sun skin exposure, where and when sun is available, clearly appearing the most successful method for delivery of sufficient D3 in meeting my bodies needs. Also subsequently finding, by initially taking (1000 iu. D3) dosage from a Water Soluble Emulsified sourced D3 at each of four meals daily, such appearing to solve such apparent D3 shortage. During my initial Water Soluble D3 experimenting, I was mesmerized by the immediate and positive results obtained with water soluble D3, actually I was speechless and this being in full high summer when I was also getting a great deal of sun skin exposure.

Finding as a result of vitamin D3 supplied from a water-soluble source, surprisingly providing unexpected additional benefits, alleviating my chronic body muscle rigidity, and amazing improvements in the areas of my stomach and esophagus performance, simple digestion performance, including the minimizing of my esophageal refluxing, and also overcoming my rigid unbending toes on my feet. I experienced my alcohol induced Hepatic Cirrhosis driven metabolic dysfunction as a permanent condition, however decades later also finding, if alcohol induced hepatic cirrhosis is properly understood, such condition can be successfully treated for reasonable symptom control.

However one thing is now very clear to me, the fundamental driver of my four decades of mysterious brutal symptoms and extreme health decline, both clearly unmasked as being one and the same, alcohol induced hepatic cirrhosis driven metabolic dysfunction, my lose of metabolic ability to harvest critically required nutrients from my good diet, lose of ability sequestering such required nutrients and lost ability automatically transporting such nutrients where and when needed for metabolic bodily needs. For eight long years following my Stomach Collapse event, nothing I will do or try, absolutely nothing working for me, as I understand nothing of consequence regarding my mystery Hepatic Cirrhosis symptoms, no real progress can ever be attained, I am thus locked and doomed without option, solely daily to endure my uncontrollable, brutal and inhuman symptoms hell.

Advancing brutality with ongoing time further heralding ever more increasingly sever metabolic symptoms brutality, intern forcing me into taking some very large risks in hopping to somehow mitigate such new manifestations of intensifying brutality. Such chronic intensifying symptoms profiles, my racing heart, increased resting pulse rate of extra 30 Beats P.M., no longer breathing automatically, but breathing by suffocation reflex, trembling throughout my body, my blood pressure spiking abnormally very high, wanting to vomit, eating totally impossible as my body will no longer accept food into my system, intense unbearable Neurological Activity occurring within my Stomach and throughout my body, my stomach appearing no longer functioning and food appearing to stagnate undigested in my Stomach, current circumstances so excruciatingly inhumanely debilitating, my life not much longer appearing possible, such is this manifested of Beriberi.

Chapter - Eight

Medicine Falls Down

Medical Communities pervasively and historically universally demonstrating an existing egregious incompetence of Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis understandings and failure of perceived appointed duties. After ending of my alcohol drinking in 1977, such medical community incompetence of hepatic Cirrhosis understandings destined seamlessly continuously repeating throughout each decade, decade by decade into modern times. My plethoric symptoms brutalities by day and then by night first beginning upon my alcohol cessation in 1977, these alcohol resultant symptoms never medically recognized, acknowledged or ever to be addressed or treated in any manor by any medical community to this very day. Subsequently I would always be medically released, medically unrecognized, medically un-addressed, medically ignored and medically untreated by every subsequent medical community involved in these matters, even as I was immediately suffering plethoric and wide-ranging spectrums of symptoms, including excruciating Neurological symptoms.

Desperately endlessly seeking competent compassionate medical care, however medical communities universally absent, not understanding, never addressing, never advising or never in any way treating my simultaneously occurring symptoms. My self destined to never receiving basic medical care, my outcomes always identically similar, no care ever provided and no hope ever provided to me during my most desperate of hours, only experiencing complete Medical Community incompetence, denials of existence and ineptitude of Alcohol Cirrhosis Knowledge. Decades passing, my symptoms continuing through such passing decades, however no change ever occurring to such medical community ineptitude of alcohol trauma understandings.

Decades later and beyond beginning in 2004, further symptoms brutalities mysteriously encompassing me, I coining such event's description as my "Stomach Collapse". Over the many decades of mysterious symptoms I had become extremely cautious of toxicity assault upon my alcohol traumatized (hepatic) liver, such toxicity causing liver discomfort, both from normal dietary liver toxins, prescription medications and environmental toxins. Even though I had no actual understandings of my alcohol induced cirrhosis circumstances for many decades, nevertheless absolutely avoiding at all cost, organic vapors (paint solvents), some vitamins and minerals, some medications, and some dietary foods, all extremely toxic to my liver, and alcohol itself in all it forms totally embargoed. In spite of my extreme caution in protecting my previously alcohol damaged liver against additional toxicity assault, how and what precipitated my 2004, accelerating hepatic liver dysfunction, commonly referred by me as "Stomach Collapse"? One of my more favored Hypotheses in explaining "Stomach Collapse's" driver, Vitamin "A" in dairy milk, extremely liver toxic.

Medical Communities again replaying their past ineptitudes of inhumanity, again resulting in my true dilemma having no way out of my intensifying inhumane predicament. Medical Communities again and endlessly again failing to engage, no Physician knowing anything of my grouping of particular symptoms, such the case no matter how forcefully I strenuously emphasizing my belief of my past Alcohol association being intimately involved with this matter. Again and again I was completely and materially ignored, a result of incompetent and parochial Physician understandings of such Alcohol Induced Trauma. Again and again Physicians just were not interested in knowing what I thought or what I had to say in regards to this matter.

Predictable Again my Lab tests always inappropriately pronounced as medically fine, medically nothing wrong. No matter how forcefully I was proclaiming my past alcohol history and continuity of symptoms, again and again I was flatly ignored by all, again and again I was set adrift, untreated by the Medial Community while excruciatingly suffering with my plethoric symptoms. As the direct consequences of such failed Physicians knowledge and arrogant Physician posturing in the practicing of medicine, no recognition or identity of my ongoing symptoms manifestations ever occurring, including my brutal ever present neurological symptoms.

Notwithstanding the enormity of positive accomplishment within medical communities, including dedicated individuals encompassed within such medical communities, nevertheless still remaining the begging of fundamental profound question. What were and still continue to be the fundamental individual component reasons for such totality of failures within Medical Community infrastructures, failures in providing medically required services to me, a universal status quo reality, then and to this very day. How can medical communities at large, including medical governing bodies reconcile and defend such egregious status quo, failed Alcohol Hepatic understandings within medical communities, medical failures in recognizing Hepatic metabolic function trauma, failures understanding alcohol trauma's complex metabolic nutritional life threatening disease processes.

Presently the status quo reality, Physicians neither recognize nor understand Metabolic Cirrhosis Matters, thereby rendering Physicians incapable and impotent, both in treating or referring alcohol trauma cases medically forwards? The direct consequential result of such complete and egregious medical community failure of Alcohol Hepatic Trauma Knowledge, the desperate patient inevitably sequestered in an abyss of hell and brutality having no ending, a critique on the current status quo, total failure of medical Alcohol Trauma care.

In examining the decades of unfortunate experiences at the hands of medical communities, total failures by Physicians to in any manor engage my Alcohol Induced resultant Trauma, a number of possibilities immediately coming to mind. In the theatre of medical realities, demonstrated by my own experiences of medical abandonment by medical community ineptitude of alcohol trauma understandings, could my unfortunate experiences be the result of my failed luck of the draw in selecting my Physician, or more likely are my experiences a true reflection of actual medical community status quo incompetence of alcohol induced trauma understandings, I believe this latter being true?

Chance by luck of success or failures in selecting Physicians appearing irrelevant and highly unlikely in reality, as my actual experiences with incompetent medical communities, consistently proving to be identical over the spanning of four decades. Appearing difficult in believing, such pervasive failures of alcohol hepatic trauma understandings by primary Physicians actually existing. I cannot think of any other medical subject matter where Physicians have such failed depths of understandings, Physician so deficient as rendered incapable of providing the most rudimentary standard of medical care to a patient in need. Perhaps the answers may closely lie within a fatal lapsing of Physician training criteria by medical governing bodies.

Medical Communities continually demonstrated incompetent and absence of appropriate understanding of Alcohol metabolic hepatic function/dysfunction during my four decades of trauma manifested symptoms. Medical Communities appearing highly resistant and virtually adversarial to new ideas involving medical knowledge of human metabolic disease processes, if such ideas and new thinking materializing from outside of the medical system's approved hierarchy itself. Convincingly appearing to me that regardless of potential for medical human disease advancement knowledge.

Plainly incomprehensibly such crass, willful medically accepted blindness, pervasively commonly existing within medical communities, Physician's just not wanting to inconveniently know, even to the determent of Patient care and determent of medicine itself.

Ultimately in my case circumstance, my prognosis, unmasking and resolution of symptoms was left to me alone, the helpless Patient. Myself medically untrained, solely personally required to unmask my neurological manifestation as deep B1, thiamine deficiency, manifested in real time as Beriberi. My deep vitamin B1 deficiency, pervasively inconceivable to all within closed eyed medical communities, medically inappropriately and completely ignoring my desperate pleas for medical help over those many decades while myself, the helpless Patient, suffering egregiously, alone, and without possibility of treatment from within wider medical communities. Without exceptions and in exclusion to all else, every past Physicians had been and still is afflicted with this same tragic flaw, routine professional arrogance if indifference

Professional arrogance can be an acceptable part of any profession, but not to the exclusion of all else, as systematically occurred to me throughout and over my 40 years Trauma manifestation. Physicians closed minded and dismissive to patient impute in the name of expediency, solely preferring Laboratory tests results for reasons of such expediency. The direct result of such expeditious conducts on Physicians parts, Physicians unable to entertain possibilities that Patient can contribute useful and relevant information regarding related patient maters at hand, treating Physicians always simply discharging me without treatment or explanation, never addressing any of my neurological symptoms, while I was fully encompassed by my mysterious Neurological symptoms. My four decades of material medical abandonment, truly indefensibly egregious, myself abandoned to my own inadequate resources, a shameful produce of medical community incompetence, indifference, ineptitude and arrogance. No choice, or option for me, to somehow relieve my neurological symptoms, again and again I am forced into conducting desperate experiments in search of symptoms control.

One great and overbearing remaining concern of mine regarding my manifested trauma, the fragility of my Liver, if I shall require any routine and unrelated medical care, it is highly likely such medical care completely destroying my remaining liver capacity. The reasons for this sorry explanation and ominous fear, the status quo reality remaining true, no person, Physician or medical community itself, knows or wants to know anything about my Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis, and are not capable of knowledgably dealing with such alcohol trauma's, whether think they can or not and as a result, liver metabolized drugs easily spelling my end. To define a long story into short order, the basic subterfuge reality of Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis, the hepatic cirrhosis condition can easily be capable of passing all routine medical liver function lab. testing, exacerbating additional potential liver destruction, as witnessed by unrecognized liver damages from environmental occurring toxicities, dietary food toxicities and medical medications toxicities. Being that treating Physicians will not take advice or direction from a patient as in my case experiences and being that my almost totally destroyed liver is not detectable by ineffectively liver testing by inadequately trained Physicians, serious potential existing for critical and dangerous liver destruction.

Chapter - Nine

Self Defense, Forbidden

In desperate self-defense of life I make a desperate attempt in Nov. 1983, personally contacting a local diabetic organization in person. Asking the people at this organization if I could purchase a glucose blood-measuring device. Remembering in those days, things were very different than they are now, now you can walk into any shop and purchase such blood glucose meter, but not then at those times. The response reply to me from this diabetes organization, a big "no", and further saying to me, "you will have to get a prescription from your Physician". My impossible dilemma, my Physician understanding nothing in sufficient depth on this subject of my mysterious alcohol related disease, other than administering routine laboratory tests, included liver function tests, and diabetic tests. My diabetes tests, always negative for diabetes and liver function tests intern never explaining anything my Physician understanding that could possibly be related to my Symptoms.

The direct consequences of my Physician's failed understandings of my groupings of alcohol related symptoms, my Physician seeing no problem, no matter how forcefully I pleaded and complains. Resulting from such total failures of Physician, Alcohol Induced Trauma knowledge, no diagnosis, no medical referrals or appropriate medical treatments of any kind are ever provided to me. Ultimately without my Physician's blood glucose meter prescription, this diabetes foundation refuses me, saying there was nothing that they could do for me. My reasons for obtaining this blood glucose device, the one thing that I did realize very early on in these matters, the majority of occurring symptoms usually intensified after eating a meal, but I did not know why. I also noticed, a lot, how I felt after eating seemingly mimicking sugar symptoms, both high and low.

My reasoning strategy for trying to acquire this glucose machine, my desperation for possible clues or answers, wanting to test my blood sugar before and after eating when my symptoms were intensifying. Later never knowing what this blood glucose meter could have told me during those most desperate times, or how, if, and to what possible degree this meter could have influenced the direction of my unmasking pursuit of my mystery disease. Medical community interference with my self help attempts, their dog in the manger attitudes, truly another shameful medical community failure, not only a failure to in any way engage my symptoms, but also materially obstructing my self defense medical care potential.

However when I continued pleading with these same people at this diabetes organization, pointing out my predicament, being my Physician's ineptitude of alcohol trauma understandings, my reasons for needing this glucose tester, immediately some relenting to a partial degree. This diabetes organization informed me of a local hospital's excellent endocrinologist on staff, and writing on a piece of paper, which piece of paper I still have in my possession to this very day, the following notation, then handing this notation to me. On this piece of paper is written the name of a well-known local hospital, we shall call W. C. Hospital, a phone number, the words Family Practice Unit and the word, **ENDOCRINOLOGIST**.

**Contacting,** **Forbidden**

Ultimately, sadly, medical establishment Protocols of Physician referral requirement will forbid my contacting or speaking to this Endocrinologist, again totally blocking my most desperate self-defense efforts, an event of promise, tragically squandered by indifference and self-serving interests of others. This is what actually occurred during my failed Hospital Endocrinologist matter. The very next day, this piece of precious paper from this diabetes organization in my hands, and great, hopeful expectations, and feelings of exhilaration, this day hoping to discover the possible reasons for my mystery symptoms. I arrived at this local hospital, hopping to speak to this Endocrinologist, parking my car, and then walking into the front door of this hospital. I was confronted by a large rotunda style lobby in this hospital and in the center of this lobby, was located an information kiosk staffed by two women. I asked one of these women staffing this kiosk, "I understand that you have an Endocrinologist here", this woman replies, "That would be so, and so", I replied, "would it be possible for me to have just a word with this Endocrinologist". The long and short of this very sad and deflating event, one of these woman was willing to allow this initial contact attempt, as she said to her partner, "He just wants a word with this Endocrinologist, "What could be wrong with that"? But the other women berated her partner, absolutely forbidding such contact with this Endocrinologist, ostentatiously quoting the strict rules of Physician referral to her partner, and so I dejectedly walked out of that hospital completely beaten, deflated, disillusioned and with no place else to turn.

The lessons exacted upon me by these two incidents of medically denied self-help attempts, viscerally deeply searing into me, my true status quo reality, I was expected to obediently bend, except and docilely submit to whatever Medical Community incompetence was to be exacted upon me. However myself never submitting to such implied outrageous demands, docilely accepting incompetence within Medical Communities, instead from this time onwards, I would start to summarily defend my own life, using my own meager resources. I did the best I could from this time onwards, understanding without reservation that I was completely alone in this matter of mystery symptoms. For the next four decades this prediction of my material medical abandonment proves accurately true, as Physician's never appearing to have appropriate understandings of my actual disease condition, no relevant medical treatment is ever provided to me.

In my desperation, alone and suffering egregiously in my medically sponsored wilderness, I start keeping rudimentary records of symptoms and observations, desperately seeking some pattern to explain my brutal symptoms. This situation that I found myself encompassed within, is amongst the saddest and cruelest situations people finding themselves, having no defense at all. From this time onwards I personal resolutely dealt with my hopless and abismal alloted circumstances, placing my abonination of symptoms to the back of my daily life, as no longer hopefull of resolution. I silently, obediantly, and with anonimity, optimistically endured that deemed unendurable, as if such unendurable abomination no longer existing, I thustly then proceeded with the living of my life in between and arround my daily brutalizations.

Chapter - Ten

My own Patient

Early on in these matters many decades earlier I realize that I am completely abandoned by the Medical Community, a time when things not only appearing to be hopples but in fact, completely hopeless for me. In resolute attempt of personal salvation I begin recording my then very primitive observations entries into a very primitive version of journal, decades late referred to this primitive Journal as, My "Historic Journal". In effect my primitive Journal entries, my muted crying out in my wilderness abomination of medical abandonment, even as nobody else ever hearing my hourly & daily torment of unrecognized, ridiculed & untreated symptoms.

My crying out in these Historic Journal entries, in no way my superfluous complaining of the existence of my resultant torment that I was so totally immersed within. This endless torment notwithstanding, I was desperately trying to somehow find a solution to my mysterious plaguing on my own. The most difficult circumstance I faced resulting from my medically unrecognized mystery, not the cruel symptoms themselves, but the Medical Communities summary denials itself of my Alcohol Induced Traumas existence. Partly what I was attempting to address with my early journal entries, my primal venting of hopelessness from my silent hidden medical abandonment I was buried within with no escape possible.

By my creation of these early Journal entries I was hopping to somehow, in some way, by some miracle, find that which having taken my body so completely over and what could be done about it, but however very little real practical knowledge is actually learned by me at these earlier times. However by this simple act of laying down these Journal entries and by the existence itself of these entries, these entries providing enormous comfort to myself, locked within my impossible abyss of knowledge vacancy.

Because now what I previously solely alone knew about what is happenings inside of me, my Journal entries now also knowing, only the two of us in all the world knowing. My Historic Journal entries are significant, not because such entries containing significant findings during those earlier times, but because these Historic Entries are a material part of my experiences with these matters.

My practices of recording journal entries proving extremely helpful in future decades, it is in this early and very primitive Historic Journal, that I entering the following haunting paradoxical lament, entering this sad entry into my Historic Journal, dated October 6, 1984, the following paradox, "You can bear the unbearable, if you have no choice".

Myself totally eviscerated at the hands of Medical Community absences of perceived medical duties, pursuant to a total failure of Alcohol Induced Trauma understandings. In response and in self-defense of life, feebly at first in 1977, in all absence of relevant knowledge, unable to properly defend myself, however doing what insignificantly little can be done, observing, contemplating, experimenting and conducting trials, decades later however in 2012, 13, I am destined to produce my most eminent depository hording of Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis understandings, apportion of which making up the body of this work herein.

Without choice I am forced, driven in becoming my own Patient, such most people believing very unwise, and I normally fully agreeing with such opinion. But my circumstances of total medical abandonment by non-availability of appropriate knowledgeable medical advice, engagement or treatment, I am absolutely without choice or other option, solely personally requiring me myself to engage such defense of my own life.

To philosophically graphically illustrate similar, but unrelated scenarios examples, generally mirroring my own self-engagement of my own plethoric onslaught. If any of our selves without life jackets are dropped into the middle of a large ocean, each and every individual of our selves will attempt to start swimming, whether we know how to swim or not, whether we believed it possible or not to ever reach the safety of the shore, fundamental we all most likely will make similar attempts at preserving our own salvations.

The reasons we attempt such futile swimming, at minimum hope always overpowering finality of futility, even if no possibility existing, our swimming to the safety of the oceans shore, nevertheless we all shall still try in complete bold face of such futility. There are also many common examples originating from news stories of people performing crude amputations of their own-trapped limbs in order to save their own lives. If you were to be in my medically ridiculed, abandoned and isolated abyss of hell, would you, could you except pervasive medically sponsored ineptitude or would you choose to defend your own life, even by bare hands if necessary?

Throughout my entire journey of some 40 years to date perusing the enigmatic understandings of my alcohol induced symptoms, I recognize my greatest, most important discoveries of trauma knowledge, the direct produce of crises managing catastrophic occurring events. One such momentous catastrophic event, my 2004 "Stomach Collapse" event, intern directly leading to my "Epiphany" of 2009, intern directly facilitating the unmasked of my mystery trauma's identity as metabolic bodily dysfunction from Hepatic Cirrhosis.

Secondly my 2012 catastrophic "Beriberi" event involving my excruciating Neurological Stomach dysfunction, intern again leading directly to my first ever isolating discovery of B1, Thiamine, such taking 37 years for me to first ever discover my indispensable fundamental needs for high dosages of thiamine. Following 33 years from my alcohol cessation I understood nothing of my mystery disease or of its relentless plethoric symptoms and my Physicians appeared to understand even less than me. Throughout these knowledge fallowed decades I only understood one basic suspicious coincidence, there appearing some kinds of associated interactions, occurring either directly or coincidental, between my mystery symptoms and my eating of food.

Past this association suspicion, I knew nothing of my mystery disorder, only thinking that my eating of food, somehow aggravating and exacerbating some pre-existing mysterious and unidentified disease. Throughout all such decades in time I never believed or was capable of making that fundamental connection, between my eating of food and my mysterious disease, as part of one and the same disease manifestation.

Before and up to the stopping my use of Alcohol, my mystery disease never appeared to existing. It is only after the stopping my use of alcohol; this mystery disease somehow spontaneously appears into my life. Often wondering, could it have been nutrients within the beers along with spirits that I was consuming, possibly responsible for retarding the most potent of my mysterious symptoms, as symptoms only appearing to occur after I permanently ended my consumptions of beers and liquors.

It was never possible during the early days after my quitting alcohol, making any direct associations between my alcohol history and my mystery disease, as one day this disease just seemed to be there by itself, however in my thinking processes I eventually attributed my mystery disease to my past Alcohol history, but only as its general probable cause.

For the first 33 years I was never able in making the fundamental connection, associating my Mystery Symptoms with Metabolic Nutrient Dysfunction. The closest association I was ever able to make during those years, I was convinced that for some reasons my eating of food is somehow aggravating some pre-existing mystery disease, but I was never able make the two fundamentally correct associations, having acquired liver cirrhosis, and my body having lost its ability to properly metabolize and digest carbohydrates and fat soluble nutrients, along with acquiring chronic and deep nutritional deficiencies, amongst multitudes of other symptoms.

Fundamental vacancies of knowledge, unfortunately and needlessly continuing for several decades further, sponsored by medical indifference by others. This profound darkness of knowledge would continue cloaking my mystery disease, until that moment in 2009, mercifully spawning my "Epiphany" some 33 years belated.

My original treating Physician demonstrating the buffoonery of a fool, possessing insufficient and a total lack of Alcohol Induced Trauma understandings. Abominations of universally pervasive repeating realities of failed Cirrhosis knowledge, to this very date always similar in nature, as all others subsequent Physicians also possessing such similar deficits and absences of understandings.

Physicians never appearing to have inquisitive intellectual curiosity, never using their own intellectual medical resources, in trying to intellectually peruse my disease symptoms complaints. Instead when routine Lab. tests disclosing nothing Physicians either recognizing or understanding, each and all just terminated all efforts in regards to my symptoms, Physicians understanding nothing of my trauma, deeming such Trauma as non-existent.

Having no access to trained knowledgeable Physicians or access to medical laboratory testing and myself having no formal medical training, the only tools available for my self-defense of my own Life, solely Intellectual tools of Observation, Strategy, Trials, and Experiments, which I employed during my most desperate search for knowledge in defense of my life _._

Chapter - Eleven

BCAA's

Driven by desperation I begin risky experimenting with tiny experimental dosage of (BCAAs), Branch Chain Amino Acids, in approximate dosages of (1 mg.), initial experiments with BCAAs proving partially somewhat effective, mitigating my neurological metabolic symptoms, but however not fully effective. Nevertheless because of these slight improvements demonstrated with BCAAs use, I begin exploring all known BCAAs associations, noting an indicated associations between BCAAs and thiamine, this noted association intern directly leading to my first ever knowledge of my absolute critical needs for B1, thiamine.

Tragically this first ever knowledge of thiamine, 37 years belated, this miraculous nutrient, thiamine immediately restoring my appetite, eliminating my wide spread nausea, remedying my breathing difficulties, and subduing my severe neurological symptoms within my stomach and throughout my body. Finally discovering in late 2013, the decades of missing fundamental knowledge responsible for my mystery symptoms, my first ever seminal understanding of my critical essential needs for B1, thiamine.

As a result of discovering thiamine, now clearly understanding, my decades earlier abusive overuse of alcohol, responsible for spawning my dysfunctional metabolic deficiencies, now clearly understanding, most prominently important of all alcohol resultant metabolic deficiencies, my deep chronic deficiency of thiamine itself, thiamine and Branch chain Amino Acids, both of fundamental gold standards in mitigating Alcohol Induced Cirrhosis, baring none.

Also experiencing, in matters of profound Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis manifestation, thiamine is most effective in its form Mononitrate, verses it's much less effective form of Hydrochloride, finding while experiencing my undiagnosed, untreatable Beriberi manifestation, Hydrochloride essentially proving much less effective under such earlier circumstances. However eventually finding after spectacular improvement to my Hepatic Cirrhosis circumstances, Thiamine Hydrochloride thus latterly appearing equally effective, along with Mononitrate in controlling my automatic breathing function competence, controlling/remediation of irregular heart beating, pulse rate, and carbohydrate digestion competence.

Appearing to exist significant intimate partner relationships between Branch Chain Amino Acids, Thiamine and Alcohol Hepatic Cirrhosis. Further discovering, such Thiamine, BCAAs partnership appearing to be of foremost primary importance in the Treatment Control of Alcohol Induced Cirrhosis. My subsequent finding, thiamine is absolutely dietary essential on an ongoing permanent basses, but BCAAs, cautiously intermittently essential in facilitating required health improvement break outs from otherwise impossible to influence deteriorations within cirrhosis conditions. Carefully using BCAAs, both in my extraction out from my stubborn intransigent apocalyptic metabolic symptoms hell, with additional ongoing benefits from extremely small controlled dosages of Branch Chain Amino Acids taken for very short periods.

Previous my taken decision, carefully using BCAAs in association with my impossible to influence, stubborn intransigent alcohol cirrhosis symptoms, I was impossibly locked within my brutal daily and nightly trauma status quo with no remediation possible. However after my fortuitous experimental using of BCAAs, such impossible to influence trauma status quo, immediately morphing into my break out from my previous hell and abyss, myself once again rejoining the human family.

My first ever-direct experience using Amino Acids, occurring about a year earlier during my deepening decent into my mysterious and profound, untreated and medically unrecognized manifestation of Beriberi, experimenting with something I knew absolutely nothing about at the beginnings of such experimenting. A real time blow-by-blow description of my Beriberi manifestation is contained within extracted samplings of verbatim Journal entries dated Feb. 16, 2012. It is during this horrific inhuman Beriberi manifestation, tat I begin my initial desperate experimenting with pure BCAAs, driven truly of recklessness of last resort. At this time an extremely serious mysterious medical anomaly, (in the future, unmasked as Beriberi).

During my blind and risky BCAAs experiments in attempting to gain some measure of relief from my unrecognized medically ridiculed inhuman manifestation of Beriberi, driven by deep Cirrhosis Induced thiamin deficiency, my manifestation of Beriberi is never recognized by medical communities, a result of failed medical training and Beriberi's rarely within modern societies in modern times. My next words I measuring very, very carefully, if I had not been so blessed by auspicious outcomes from my BCAAs experiments, here speaking in a very immediate sense, there was no further possibility forward with my life, such is Beriberi's inhumanity, and especially so if unrecognized and not addressed.

Beriberi is so totally neurologically devastating to life itself, because many of the neurological functioning's of my body are totally completely dysfunctional due to chronic profound B1, thiamine deficiency, such intern impacting many other critical operating systems within my body. My neurological Beriberi manifestation effecting many of my body operating systems, neurologically affecting my automatic breathing, neurological control of my digestion, neurological control of my heart beating, neurological control of my ability to metabolically process food, and many other neurological dysfunctions etc, etc, and endlessly etc., Beriberi, so completely neurologically devastating as Beriberi manifestation is incompatible with ongoing life.

It is the Thiamine/Beriberi synergy knowledge resultant from my initial experimenting with BCAAs, directly leading me to my first ever understanding of thiamine's intimate association and fundamental absolute requirement within hepatic cirrhosis. subsequent supplementing with high dosages of thiamine at each meal, and in between as needed, miraculously soon completely subduing this still mysterious to me, unidentified neurological manifestation of Beriberi. As many times previously stated, in effectively controlling hepatic cirrhosis, each identified nutrient must be introduced at each such nutrients own appropriate Hierarchal times in the trauma control cycle of liver healing progression progress. If any newly introduced Nutrient is not appropriately Hierarchal introduced timing wise, such particular introduction usually failing the test of efficacy, such may times my experiences with inconclusive experiment outcomes. My BCAAs experiments immediately producing impressive results, very noticeable improvement to my overall metabolic digestion dysfunction, and directly improving liver competence, such never previously possible, BCAAs experiments.

BCAAs experiments involving taking, 1/200th of an accurately measured teaspoon of pure BCAAs at each of my three main meals daily, a maximum daily total dosage of 500 mg. BCAAs, including accompanying mandatory taking of thiamine with these BCAAs at each such meals. As a direct result of my BCAAs experiments, my metabolic digestion competence is immediately enormously enhanced and my body weight gains again occurring, and also finding that I needed less thiamine than my previous required thiamine dosages before BCAAs. Experiencing as result of BCAAs, my previous very sharp cravings and needs for dietary animal fats, noticeably diminishing, my sternum discomfort and chest pressure greatly diminished and there appearing immediate improvement in my ability to digest carbohydrates, feeling much more stable and comfortable after each eating session, BCAAs convincingly appearing as a mandatory requirement at this experimental time period.

Regardless of all, BCAAs were absolutely mandatory essential for me, supplemented in tiny 1/200th, teaspoon dosages, (500 mg. daily total dosage of BCAAs, and always accompanied by thiamine at each of my three main meals daily. Taking BCAAs with thiamine appearing to facilitate the enable some extremely essential metabolic bodily processes, including my clearly recognized enhanced Carbohydrate Metabolism. Without such tiny amounts of BCAAs present with thiamine at each of three meals daily, just aforementioned enabling of essential metabolic processes remaining fundamentally dysfunctional. After my 90 day experimenting with BCAAs was completed, my health status leaping forwards with spectacular seminal improvements to my overall health status, as my liver's functioning appearing, breaking through previously impenetrable barriers of improvement. Immediately replacing badly needed body weight as result of my BCAAs use in these experiments.

Immediately gaining about 2 & ½ real lbs. of body weight, sleeping stronger and appearing to be dreaming a great deal more, my facial appearance looking more robust and vital, my digestion competence enormously improving, more competently digesting carbohydrates with less consequences previous of (BCAAs), and returning of my several years absence of normal under arm body odor now noticeably returning after its long several years absence. Resulting from my 90 days BCAAs experiment at 500 mg. daily total, I begin feeling historically normal in ways, I speak else where herein my writings, as contained in my Journal entry of May 16, 2012, my resultant experienced feelings, as a young man. These newly experienced feelings of just right, never previously possible during my past nine years, since my "Stomach Collapse" in 2004.

As a result of illuminated understandings, the impressive efficacy of BCAAs with thiamine combinations in controlling Alcohol Cirrhosis, sadly lamenting on decades of medical community ineptitude sponsored wasted opportunity in controlling my brutal cirrhosis. Hypothesizing, my current spectacular beneficial health improvement outcomes flowing from my BCAAs, thiamine combination, understandings possibility theoretically extrapolating to my earlier 1977 decade needless cirrhosis manifestation suffering, tragically and unfortunately such fortuitous knowledge then unavailable to me when I abandoned alcohol in 1977, and still unavailable to day from within medical communities.

ENTRY Inserted from future understandings

Resveratrol - 2017

This honorable mention of my first ever knowledge experience with **Resveratrol** , occurred in the year 2017. My experience with Resveratrol is well worth mentioning. A brief setup of background information, I am now approaching my eighth decade of life, not withstanding my life time of cirrhosis matters, I am physically strong and robust now, I eat well and I am sleeping quite well, During the preceding year and half, my hands and arms were bruising very easily and unknowingly during my many physical activities. For me this easy bruising has never previously occurred thought out my past, only now recently. After this one and half years, just recently, I began eating a great deal of almonds, and during this Almonds period my bruising greatly accelerated by greater more dramatic bruising. Experimentally responding to the coincidences at hand, I immediately stopped eating Almonds and switched from cooking with Olive Oil to Peanut Oil exclusively.

After three or four days I began to see a dramatic difference in improved bruising. After one month in time my easily bruising has totally vanished, even when doing heavy construction labor. I looked into nutrients within Olive, Almonds and Peanuts, noticing that Olive is high in vitamin E, Almonds high in vitamin E, however Peanut oil high in Resveratrol. So far everything ,remaining stable and excellent with no bruising I now strictly limit Olive Oil, No Almonds, but a lot of bakers dark chocolate, and exclusively, Peanut Oil. Resveratrol appearing to be consistently amazing in relation to my bruising matters and additionally subtly appearing to improve my overall vitality and stamina.

Parameter understandings of my Resveratrol experiences must take into account, such occurring in hepatic cirrhosis, occurring under geriatrics, occurring decades later after cirrhosis onset and finally my experienced observation, being, previous of Resveratrol, the skin on my hands and arms appeared as onion skin, absolutely no fat under my skin. Now after successfully using Reveratrol, this skin in question appearing to be somewhat meagerly plumper with some additional body fat. My opinion is that Resveratrol has facilitated my needed improvement of additional body fat. This will also buttress and explain somewhat more clearly, circumstances directly associated with my references of beneficial use of Peanuts, where and when appearing throughout these writings.

Chapter - Twelve

Liver Toxicity

Experiencing over my four decades living and daily dealing with my mysterious Alcohol Induced symptoms, significant liver toxicities existing as environmental toxicity, medication toxicity and dietary toxicity, each playing their own obstructive complicating rolls in my symptoms mystery. Due to my reduced Liver functioning capacity capabilities within alcohol cirrhosis, many common dietary foods proving liver toxic, even foods nutritionally essential, such nutritional foods requiring skillful compromising, proving insidiously extremely toxic and counter productive when consumed in normal quantity.

Eventually recognizing through my advancing understandings of Alcohol Cirrhosis Control, many unrecognized decades of dietary liver toxicity issues plaguing my health status improvements. I subsequently recognized and identified many such nutritional carriers of liver toxicity, intern ferreting out such toxic carriers from within my daily diet. Findings such unrecognized dietary liver toxicity capable of degrading normal liver healing and even degrading liver healing previously achieved, also finding liver toxicity issues extremely perplexing to manage successfully due my diminished liver function capacity.

Also finding such dietary liver toxic nutrients, especially (A), (E), and Zinc amongst others requiring to be strictly and tightly controlled for dosage intake, even though such paradoxically deficient and highly desirable within cirrhosis. Eventually recognizing many such hidden liver toxicity dangers existing within many commercially available nutritional supplements and the likes, finding such nutritional supplements preparations containing many liver toxic components, especially vitamin "A", as proving extremely liver toxic to my alcohol traumatized liver.

Effective Liver toxic nutrient dosages controlling strictly required at paramount cost, as protecting my Liver from toxicity is required at all cost, even at the overall cost of sacrifice. Thus incorporating a strict doctrine into my Cirrhosis Treatment Control Protocol, such doctrine, my first and paramount priority is the protecting of my Liver at whatever the required cost, this protection doctrine dictating that my Liver is required remaining without liver discomfort and without liver pain for all reasons possible. Preventing toxicity challenging of my Liver, intern posing many challenges, especially from unrecognized toxicity lurking throughout my daily diet. Examples of unrecognized Liver toxic nutrients hiding within the diet, vitamin (E) in nuts, oils, butter, multi vitamins, vitamin (A) in milk, butter, etc, etc, endlessly etc.

Finding through my experiments, tiny dosages of (BCAAs), seminally extremely effective at very tiny dosages if taken over some 90 days period in time, such helping in rejuvenating my livers functioning status when nothing else accomplishing such rejuvenation. All such Amino Acids to be administered in minute tiny dosages and only for very short periods of time, as even these tiny dosages of BCAAs appearing somewhat liver toxic, stomach and kidney toxic.

Example of nutritional toxic carriers capable of seriously impacting my liver, Tomato juice and Dairy milk amongst the more obvious dangerous carriers of dietary (A) toxicity within Hepatic Cirrhosis Trauma circumstances, Dairy Milk itself, if not fortified with vitamin A, should be fine, but all milk sold today, mandated to be fortified with vitamin A, and herein laying a very serious problem, associating vitamin A fortified milk with the alcohol traumatized liver. Vitamin A, although highly desirable for good health and consumed by babies, unfortunately within Alcohol Liver Cirrhosis, vitamin A, although highly nutritionally desirable is extremely toxic to the alcohol traumatized liver. Liver toxic vitamin "A", even in extremely moderate small dosages appearing to interfere with my liver's healing and even capable of reversing incremental healed liver statuses previously achieved.

Finding my upper most prudent daily dosage limit for dairy milk, should be no greater than 8 oz. daily total from all sources, including coffee, serials, ice cream etc., etc., such an equivalent dosage of one cup of milk. Within my alcohol trauma circumstances, such vitamin A fortified milk is to be respected and not just some abstract idea, as vitamin "A" can exact enormous damage to a Alcohol Traumatized Liver, especially if the vitamin "A" is not generally recognized as present as it can often be within fortified foods. I experienced in particular, Cod Liver Oil should be completely out of the question as far to Liver toxic, and Beta Carotene, an associate of vitamin "A", also appearing toxic to my body, causing lethargy, and resulting liver discomfort.

Also experienced zinc as another contributor of dietary Liver toxicity. Zinc interfering with my Liver and also capable of reversing previously achieved Liver healing. Experiencing my upper most tolerable limit for dietary zinc should not exceeding 5 mg. total daily dosages from all sources. However just recently I ferreting out from my daily diet, 7½ mg. of zinc contained in my multi vitamin, and an additional 7 ½ mg. zinc contained in my calcium tablet, such alone contributing 15 mg. of hidden zinc to my daily diet. Fortifications of dietary foods by manufacturers also presenting a minefield of hidden and often unlabeled toxins contained within such processed food products.

Additives in processed foods can in many cases be to the advantage of dietary normal consumers of such foods, however as in my cases of diminished Liver capacity, fortified foods can be extremely toxic and health threatening. Also finding that liver toxins existing in many different dietary items and in some cases not listed on product labeling. Also finding vitamin E, a particular difficult problem, as vitamin E, contained in great numbers of food products, occurring both naturally and as fortified by manufacturers.

Further finding requiring my limiting of vitamin E intake, as vitamin E appearing to be quite toxic to my Liver, even though paradoxically, desperately requiring vitamin E, and so again requiring bending and compromising my toxic E dosage exposures. I also experienced that if roasted peanuts are taken routinely in the diet, such very helpful in arresting body weight loses, however conversely roasted peanuts also appearing liver Toxic when routinely taken in excess.

Not certain of the reason for peanuts benefits or peanuts apparent liver toxicity, but strongly suspecting, however not certain, possibly both beneficial amino acids and toxic vitamin E contained within peanuts the possible culprit in this matter. Under alcohol liver Cirrhosis, organic vapors are to be strictly avoided at all cost, as extremely liver toxic to the traumatized liver.

Examples of organic vapors, paint fumes, gasoline fumes, solvent fumes, etc., etc. It goes without saying, but saying it again and again, alcohol must be totally embargoed as extremely toxic within Cirrhosis Traumatized Livers. Sugar contained within the diet also appearing extremely overall metabolically toxic within Hepatic Cirrhosis, even when under improving circumstances of health. Even though there can be a buffered forgiveness period of perhaps one week in time, however once this buffering period passing, any grievous violation of this dietary sugar restriction requirement, intern spawning health and metabolic decline.

Medications that are metabolized in the Liver can also be very toxic to the Liver, requiring compromising, balancing need verses toxicity, toxicity verses need.

My self suspected of being at great risk of unintended consequential medical harm if hypothetically prescribed various varieties of pharmaceuticals, as such pharmaceuticals are required to be metabolized within my chronically cirrhosis traumatized liver, such especially dangerous if the prescribing medical Physician prescribes such pharmaceuticals unaware of my traumatized liver status, as medical community training and past experienced ineffectual liver tests for Hepatic Cirrhosis never previously capable of detecting my chronic liver Cirrhosis.

Chapter - Thirteen

Beriberi

My unknown needs to supplement with very large dosages of thiamine, rendering me helplessly to linger in a perpetual state of deep thiamine starvation, a driving genesis of a metabolic neurological dysfunction status known as Beriberi. Beriberi's Neurological Symptoms neurologically affecting many areas of my overall body, neurologically including muscles, brain, stomach, neurological hand dexterity, hand tremor, and virtual brain internal body tremor vibrating amongst many and much others. My (Sternum) Chest muscles being rigidly tight, my Stomach, and chest area feeling physically nervous with feeling of a vomiting sensation. Beriberi's neurological effects on my Stomach existing before and after eating, but much greater in severity after eating, and for the most part my stomach feeling very strongly it was somehow completely locked up, my stomach absolutely not excepting food even though I wanted to eat. These neurological nervous effects affected all parts of my body including my arms, and my torso.

Beriberi causing my breathing to be neurologically labored, in that I had to consciously inhale and exhale, and if deeply relaxing my normal breathing it would feel similar to a feeling of suffocation along with deepening intensifying negative neurological feelings. During Beriberi my blood pressure was greatly elevated to some 60 points higher than my expected normal blood pressure, and accompanied by a very strong banging pulse in my ear

These overall Neurological effects were very excruciating to endure and Beriberi Symptom would ebb, and flow in intensity in relation to dietary food intake. In order to eat a meal when I was hungry and when my Beriberi Stomach was refusing to physically and Neurologically accept any food, I found that if I first took a small portion, about 15 mg. of (B-Complex), and then waiting for about 8 minutes, my Stomach would then willingly except the food. Unknown to me at these times, it was the thiamin content within the B-complex as the effective agent.

I also found that my complete body becoming more agitated if I engaged in any animated intellectual activities. Day by day appearing that I was becoming more and more encompassed by my Neurology, and becoming more and more under its complete dysfunctional control. My days were completely dictated and controlled by Beriberi's Neurological Symptoms. My complete body feeling completely wrong in all respects, and I recognized, if my Symptom's cause remained unknown to me, continued uncontrolled and unchecked, it was clear to me that there would be no further future for me.

As no other option is available to me, I embark on heroic effort in defense of my own life, my effort taking me all of four decades to accomplish. My heroic experimenting efforts, eventually enabling my discoveries, by separating the mimicking misdirecting subterfuges from the real indispensable key cirrhosis related understandings that were profusely flowing from my nebulous cirrhosis experiments. Discovering very late in my journey of salvation, an existence of some mandatory fundamental indispensable key requirements in the treatment control of Alcohol Induced Cirrhosis. Thiamine itself within alcohol metabolic liver dysfunction, indispensably the key nutrient of importance beyond all other nutrients and not forgetting thiamine's close associate, Branch Chain Amino Acid's important contributions.

Finding throughout my personal extensive experiences pre and post thiamine experiences, vitamin B1, thiamine is absolutely fundamental to my life support, as when in thiamine's complete absence, life shall no longer continue further possible. My experimental finding further indicating, thiamine is essential to complex neurological functioning within my body, lesser deficiencies of thiamine causing tremor in my extremities and difficulties with intricate hand motor skills, but my deeper deficiency of thiamine generating sever and brutal neurological manifestations throughout my body, especially in my Stomach, and Brain, these brutal manifestations of thiamine deficiency so severe, if not quickly remedied, remaining time on this earth immediately limited.

Also finding thiamine essential in regulating my heart beating, thiamine essential in my ability to eat through metabolic processes, and thiamine neurologically essential to my automatic breathing processes and Heart Beating. As the produce of the understandings flowing from my complex and tireless experimenting, now apprising me of my trauma reality, I have lost my normally successfully ability in metabolizing thiamine through normal dietary means. As the direct result of my dysfunctional metabolizing capabilities of thiamine amongst many other, my symptoms of hell being driven by such incompetent metabolic digestion, including my death, when such thiamine deficiency sufficiently deep and if not arrested.

Myself thus entering hell itself, Beriberi, and If Beriberi remaining unrecognized and untreated, my truly tragic and very agonizing hard death quickly and surely soon following. Over my many decades, untreated and undiagnosed by medical communities knowledge failures, I remained basically completely ignorant of my indispensable needs for high dosages of thiamin, medical failures most likely due to thiamine deficiencies rarity in advanced societies in modern times, thiamine deficiency usually occurring in third world countries from nutritional starvation due to inadequately nutritional diets.

Alcohol Induced resulting metabolic liver dysfunction generating severe B1, thiamine starvation incompetence, and without thiamine there can be no escape possible, thus directly descending into an abyss of brutality known commonly as Beriberi. My liver's metabolic dysfunction resulting in severe thiamine deficiency, impossible to correct, even with my best of diets. Under combined prevailing circumstance of thiamine's rarity of occurrence in modern advanced society and failed medical training curriculums, my sever chronic thiamine deficiency, unlikely to be recognized by medical communities, some truly scary situation indeed, precisely eclipsing my own 40-year personal scenario, total failure by medical community recognizing, diagnosing, treating or advising me of my status quo hepatic cirrhosis,

Ultimately after many fallow and empty thiamine absent decades passing, sadly and then only solely by myself discovering thiamine, I found that thiamine is required to be taken in very high dosages with all meals. Comparatively the daily dosage of thiamine required by normal populations are very tiny, but conversely hepatic cirrhosis requiring extremely high daily dosages of B1 thiamine, perhaps several thousands of times greater than normal dosages. My initial thiamin finding, requiring thiamine dosages in the range of 100/200 mg. with each meal, my daily total dosages of thiamine perhaps 1000 to 1500 mg., ultimately diminishing to some degree with achieved liver healing, but such thiamine reductions only somewhat diminishing, as cirrhosis remaining permanent.

What my appropriate thiamine dosages would have been in 1977, shortly after terminating my relationship with alcohol can now never be truly known? Throughout all of my invisible decades, no information regarding thiamine was ever made available to me and no treatment with thiamine was ever recommended by any medical community, for certain my required thiamine dosages during initial times so long ago, at least as high as these thiamine dosages spoken here now.

Medical community ineptitude of cirrhosis understandings subsequently sentencing my to many needless cruel decades of total absence of thiamine within my life from such egregious material medical community failures and dereliction of reasonable responsibility providing medical care. Without any knowledge of thiamine I was forced into using very large dosages of B-Complex, trying to pacify my very severe and accelerating brutal symptoms, however even very large dosages of B-Complex, still insufficient for accomplishing acceptable symptoms pacification, and any larger dosages of B-Complex, being totally out of the question, as neurological occurring side effects of fingers and limbs numbness toxicity occurring from such high sustained and still insufficient B-Complex dosages.

During my still primitive hepatic cirrhosis understandings, B-Complex is my only known method of influencing my symptoms brutality, many times wondering, but having no real idea of what the active cirrhosis ingredient/s contained within the B-Complex. However my reality at these times, B-Complex is the only remedy of compassion available to me, even though B-Complex is somewhat limited in its effectiveness of symptoms control, but however limited or not, still life saving crucial in partially helping in my symptoms pacification efforts. My resultant fingers numbness caused by high intake dosages of B-Complex, my fingers feeling as if my fingers were made of wood, absolutely without feelings. As result of my BCAAs experiments, I ultimately isolated thiamine as the magic elixir contained within the B-Complex, thiamine intern enabling me to drastically reduce my intake dosages of B-Complex, and over several months time generally remedying the more severe expressions of my toxic overdose nerve numbness effects from B-Complex.

I also experienced, existing within some foods, ingredients appearing to be the enemy of thiamine, somehow neutralizing thiamine or otherwise interfere with thiamine's metabolic utilization in my body. These so called thiamine antagonists, not appearing a particular problem for the general normal public having very low thiamine needs. However for persons with alcohol cirrhosis, such thiamine antagonists truly devastating if not understood as existing, such capable of materially facilitating Beriberi. I found thiamine antagonists secretly existing and hiding within many different kinds of foods, experiencing thiamine antagonists within baked goods and within preservatives in dried fruits, subsequently totally avoiding such Sulfites containing foods as far as knowledgeably possible.

Thiamine antagonists are truly insidious, as for most part existing unidentified and unrecognized in many foods, if unknowingly routinely eaten in larger quantity, bodily thiamine stores fully destroyed. The insidious part, all such thiamine destruction occurring secretly and accomplished without my knowledge such thiamine's destruction occurring, until Beriberi's rising of brutality. In facilitating metabolic digestion to occur, finding thiamine is requiring present in routine minimum dosages of at least 100 mg. with each and every meal eaten with additional thiamine dosages as required based on current moment-to-moment circumstances. Also finding when my heart beating becoming irregular by fluttering and beating irregularly, if taking 100 mg. of thiamine, mononitrate, optimally with cold water, or thiamine by itself if water not available, that usually in about three of four minutes my heart beating again returning to normal rhythm.

Having absolutely no knowledge of thiamine previous my first discovery of thiamine around 2013 as stated many times previously through these writings, and as such my early control protocol understandings were still primitively incomplete, as I was unknowingly getting my mysterious but partially effective control benefits from the only method and source I then knew, solely from B-complex. However after my decade's belated discovery of thiamine, I then knowing could take thiamine directly as thiamine mononitrate itself. With my discovery of thiamine, I was now capable of taking my required high dosages of thiamine, directly from a dedicated thiamine source itself. Previously to my discovery of high thiamine dosages it was impractical getting such dosages from the B-Complex itself, as in order to then unknowingly get whatever thiamine I could from the bundled B-Complex, I was also receiving unintended toxic bundled nutrients dosages contained within the B-Complex.

The immediate direct result of taking high thiamine dosages with meals, my health begins accelerating dramatically to never before seen excellence of improvement, relatively comparatively speaking of course, in comparisons to the inhumane depths having just arisen from. Due my auspicious maturing thiamine understandings and introduction of high thiamine dosages, my brutal metabolic Beriberi onslaught becomes successfully controllable. Truly scandalous in modern times and in a modern advanced society, a needless suffering over my past 40 years, with access to medical facilities all around me, the deed of the word thiamine is never once spoken to me by any medical community, truly, truly shameful, and a miscarriage of humane and moral decency.

There exist be many complex components within effective treatment control of Alcohol Induced Cirrhosis, but no matter how beneficially necessary each such required treatment components are to Trauma control, my experienced opinion, without thiamine itself in alcohol trauma circumstances, no effective treatment is possible, no matter when, no matter by what, and no matter by whom, as sufficient thiamine appearing as occupying the apex treatment requirement position in any effective control treatment of Alcohol Induced Cirrhosis. As the direct result of discovering and taking high dosages of thiamine, I vanquish and emasculate my chronic however then unidentified manifestation of Beriberi.

Chapter - Fourteen

Heart Symptoms

My second never medically addressed classic chronic Hepatic Cirrhosis symptom, my critical needs for drinking water after eating, such occurring while myself totally medically untreated, ignored and dismissed. Water was absolutely essential after eating, (Water a mandatory Metabolic Requirement and not a Dietary Requirement). My drinking water symptom is at its peak, beginning immediately upon my cessation from alcohol use in 1977, then seamlessly enduring to about 1989, then gradually starting its tempering, however still always very present persisting until my "Epiphany" in 2009.

Describing this Water Symptom, about 10-15 minutes after my eating, my pulse rate is starting to rise rapidly, my heart starts banging out of my chest, I start to pant with rapid shallow breathing, my chest feels extremely very dry, not my throat, but my chest, my accelerating heart is wanting to explode, I must immediately obtain drinking water, my attention is totally fixated on finding water to drink, absolutely crucial getting water. My availability of drinking water after eating is absolutely essential for some critical biological occurring processes, whether normal or abnormal biological process. Upon gulping down my first large glass of water in about a quarter of a second, everything immediately is starting its calming down, and virtually immediately within ten seconds time all is calm again, this symptom ended for my event, My water symptom continues throughout my medically untreated, medically abandoned decades, but very slowly and gradually throughout the decades, getting much milder in its intensity, until "my Epiphany" in 2009.

Another manifestation of this drinking water symptom, I required drinking very great quantities of drinking water during each day and during each over night period, taking one to two litters of drinking water to bed with me, this water mostly consumed overnight, especially true during the earlier periods of this symptom. Decades later coming to understand, if drinking water was not available, I absolutely should then not have eaten a meal. However at those earlier times of knowledge vacancy, I had no idea of Water's intimate association relationship with my eating of a meal, as no Physician ever informing me of anything possibly relating to my mystery symptoms, my Physicians themselves having no understandings of Hepatic Cirrhosis and therefore no idea of what is happening to me.

I remain completely mystified by my strange mandatory requirement for water after eating; only thinking perhaps my water requirement symptom, a coincidence with eating for reason yet unknown to me. Having absolutely no ideas at these times, my mandatory requirement water symptom, directly driven by my unknown metabolic digestion disorder, then still totally unknown to me. I was never capable of making this fundamental association connection between my eating, metabolic digestion and symptoms, other than water coincidentally required as a result of my eating. If in my car after eaten a meal and if no water available to drink, while this water requirement symptoms is intensifying, I would often find myself self-fixating on rainwater puddles at the side of the road.

I also recall hypothetically considering, if absolutely necessary, getting drinking water from whatever available source, at whatever the required cost, and even the distinct possibility of my drinking from a clean toilet as my last desperate resort, but thankfully, one way or another, such gross requirement never coming to pass. Immediate access to drinking water after eating, life essential without exaggeration, as if in waters absence, my heart subsequently accelerating out of control and preparing to explode. One thing to remember about these earlier times in the late 1970s, and early 80s, bottle water not yet commonly existing at those times and not the commonly available product available to day. During those earlier times if drinking water was not readily available to me within my tolerable time range after eating, I should then never have eaten, regardless of any and all other considerations. Reconciling my puzzling thoughts decades later, how is it possible I failed to predict my critical needs for water after eating, thereby providing drinking water's availability in advance of any anticipated eating? However over many symptoms decades, I was never able to make such predictable association between my mystery disease, water and eating. I never knew the cause of my symptom for many decades, as no Physician ever capable of recognizing or understanding my symptoms, thus never informing me in any manor whatsoever regarding my mysterious symptoms.

Regardless of my pleadings, desperately complaining of my brutal symptoms to all Physicians, Physicians all universally responding similarly by egregiously just ignoring me completely. For many decades yet to pass I remained completely in a mysterious darkness regarding my relentless symptoms, no idea of why or what is happening to me. Over many decades and many subsequent ponderings on why I was never capable of recognizing or predicting such obvious relationship between my eating of food and this critical need for drinking water, however never an earlier explanation ever to be found. My hypothesis, alcohol induced hepatic cirrhosis manifestation, so very complex, involving metabolic digestion dysfunction, symptomatically involving my upper body chest area, intern simultaneously producing multiple misdirecting subterfuges of what is actually occurring. Therefore reasonably expecting my symptoms to originate in the stomach area if involving metabolic digestion, however instead my symptoms actually manifesting in my upper chest areas of my body, effecting lungs, heart, muscles, breathing, etc., etc. and endlessly etc.

Alcohol induced hepatic cirrhosis's misdirecting subterfuge, plethoric virulent and brutal symptoms resulting from eating, appearing for the most noticeable part, physically residing in my upper chest area, affecting my Sternum, my heart, my lungs, and my breathing, such symptoms not appearing associated with my stomach, as one might reasonably suspect if suspecting metabolic digestion issues. Myself having no medical training, and understanding little of metabolic human biology, therefore no such association of food and Metabolic Digestion Dysfunction ever intellectually forming in my thinking processes, such scrupulously true until the passing of several decades in time, when revolutionary new cirrhosis understandings start streaming from my experiments and trials.

Chapter - Fifteen

Skin Immunity

This third never medically addressed classic chronic Hepatic Cirrhosis symptom again arriving in 2004 as of my "Stomach Collapse" event, referring to this event occurrence as, "Loosing of Skin Immunity", I became high susceptibility to opportunistic skin infections, occurring for reasons then unknown to me. My such losing of skin immunity now again repeating as also occurring decades earlier, however during those earlier times, myself medically abandoned, my understandings then totally absent in such matters, hence without ability to document this symptom or in any manor pushback in self defense. My body having become hosting to perhaps a dozen different varieties of infectious agents, such agents all-trying to colonize the skin on my body. These occurring skin infections are very puzzling as to why only such infections were occurring to me, as these infections were not affecting anybody else around me, only myself alone being colonized.

I tried to control these marauding infections with fanatical effort and procedures, disinfecting my clothing, applying anti bacterial meds, burning with heat, with acid, but I could not get ahead of the impossible to control onslaught of infections. Understanding nothing of what is actually occurring to me, only that something drastic is requiring to be done quickly, I decide seeking medical community help in dealing with these skin infections. My Physician understanding nothing of hepatic cirrhosis, appearing somewhat lackadaisical in dealing with my skin infection issue request, as visible scarring mostly only showing, scared remnants of infections I managed to destroy in trying to prevent my bodies total colonization, however there existed countless, endless other infections in various early small sizes and stages of development, some not easily noticeable, however with soap on my skin they could be felt.

My Physician just laughing at my unknowing request for some systemic antibiotic prescription, not taking my dilemma seriously, seeming to dither by not dealing with my infection control request, in any event this medical encounter, similar as all previous medical encounters, ending up with essentially nothing happening that could be interpreted as treatment or treatment advice. Ultimately I again am forced into personally defending myself, again abandoned to my own personal inadequate resources in dealing with my skin infection colonization. During my "Stomach Collapse" event in 2004, many additional new symptoms occurring, amongst such additional symptoms, my unintended severe body weight loses and my extremely potent skin infections involving many differing varieties of colonizing infecting agents. Some such varieties of infecting agents, relatively easily destroyed by my destruction remedy of hot iron burning, but some varieties, extremely virulent, stubborn and difficult to destroy, even by repeatedly high temperature burning.

Based on my past experiences of egregious medical abandonment, indifference and ineptitudes of Alcohol Induced Cirrhosis understanding by medical communities, such experiences now again buttressed by medical community failures to any manor address my current infections issues, myself again without choice or option requiring me to personally self engage this new infections onslaught. Sadly as result of failed medical community understandings of alcohol trauma, I no longer believed and for very good reason, my previously highly held opinion, medical community invincibility, perceived good judgments and bastion of relevant medical knowledge, as solely, if in fact at all, existing only within Medical Communities themselves. I resolved never again allowing such medical community ineptitude and medical disinterest to ever subjugate myself ever again. Determinedly resolving, not allowing these skin infections, free ranging over my body without self-defensive pushback, regardless of my complete defenselessness in this matter of infections.

I only knew and viscerally understood, if failings my rising to my skin colonizing infections challenge, I will be irrevocably lost. Believing that these infections were opportunistic in nature and furthermore believing, these infections would not respect any boundaries placed upon their opportunities to completely colonize my body, I required going to total all out war with these infectious agents, total victory the only acceptable out come of such Herculean struggle. Having no idea of how to accomplish such total victory, or in fact if any such victory even being possible, some tall order indeed. Fundamentally fully understanding the gravity of my infections, my resolve is truly resolute and monumental, under no circumstances will I allowing these infections to continue pillaging my body without challenge. Now taking personal responsibility in dealing with these infections by my self, never again passively accepting medical community failings to engagingly act by disinterested others, including Physicians. Time now of critical essence, infections quickly daily gaining a stronger presence, intern allowing even quicker colonizing of my body. I could not afford, waiting for some non-existing medical help from some indifferent and poorly Alcohol Cirrhosis trained Physician from some non-existent medical community. Outside of the alarming presence of these skin infections, my skin infestations felt intolerable creepy to me. I stoically resolved personally entering into a war of total attrition with such colonizing infection agents, for some unknown reasons, such infecting agents freely ranging over my body, with apparent objectives, a total opportunistic colonization of my body.

Having no understandings during this infections period, why such infections are occurring, I thus blindly resolved to destroy each and all such infection agents at whatever the required cost. I then took my decision for my best method of destroying these infectious invaders, deciding to engage each skin infected location by the best and safest method I could think of, destroying each individual agent, one by one, employing high temperature burning, destroy each individual infection with a hot soldering iron of several hundred degrees F. My decision for destroying these infection agents by hot iron burning, appearing on the barbaric side of sensibility, but such proposed treatment destruction method, antiseptic in nature and I also believed, absolutely necessary under prevailing circumstances at the time. As for any physical pain involved in such destruction by high temperature flesh burning, it boiled down to one fact; I hated these infectious invaders more than any consequential pain from such process of their destructions.

For the most part any pain created on the application of high heat to my skin, greatest upon the first application of hot iron, but once burning through my skins defensive nerves coverings surrounding each of these invaders the resulting pain was very greatly reduced and I was then successfully mostly destroying all, each with a great deal of concentrated heat. My war of attrition by hot iron destruction, turning out to be a very long war lasting about three years, estimating the destruction of some 500 & 800 individual assorted varieties of infectious agents during this prolonged conflict. Most such infectious agents were very easily destroyed, but several varieties proving very robust and stubborn lesions, very difficult to destroy, even with repeated high temperature applications of concentrated heat. However by my attempts in controlling such on slot of skin infections with high heat destructions, I was able to weaken and to large degree mostly subdue these infections, however I could not stop them completely.

Also employing fanatical infection prevention control measures, amongst others, constant disinfecting of clothing, but these measures having very little effect on re-occurrences of these infections. Ultimately taking nine additional years until after my 2004 "Stomach Collapse" event before fully understanding, as of my "Stomach Collapse" event, a sobering new reality was now associating with my life, this sobering reality recognition; I was now personally amidst a sustained ongoing process of disintegration and dying. In essence my immediate sustained dying process, not that process beginning with our births and gradually progressing throughout each of our life times, our normal routine aging processes to our eventual deaths, nor referring to those events occurring to any of our selves as the result of random occurring unforeseen fatal circumstances, our selves subsequently failing the surviving of such sudden unexpected events striking us down.

At this time easily clearly recognizing my immediate sustained downward progression health status, my sustained and progressive diminishing of health status, without ability to in any way meaningfully positively intervene, halt or to reverse such progressive diminishing crescendos in any manor whatsoever. Spawned by my past alcoholic behavior some five decades earlier, however significantly further exacerbated by my resultant never medically treated long term cirrhosis manifestation, and now currently further exacerbated by my "Stomach Collapse", with no ability to arrest my fundamental and inexorable progression downwards, ever closer delivering me to my foreseeable looming final ending.

My inevitable final ending especially evident by my sever systematic losing of body weight, my non existence of detectable body fat stores, my onslaughts of skin infections, and my systematic losing of body mass, appearing that myself having entered the beginning process leading to my finality. Such mayhems systematically exacting upon my dignity of sensibility and person, while medical communities indifferently looking onward, seeing nothing, doing nothing, understanding nothing and want to know nothing of my egregious suffering by indifference.

Now hypothesizing on my predicament, appearing that Alcohol Induce Cirrhosis having permanently altered parts of my metabolic bodily functioning abilities, included many very complex liver dysfunctions. Such permanent dysfunctional alterations to my model of metabolic Liver functions, not deviations from normal metabolic digestion models, but distinctively instead a very complex new altered model of metabolic Liver functioning, such new model of metabolic function, Medical Communities do not understand, appear completely disinterested in, are incapable of recognizing when confronted by same, as medical communities only understand the routine normal function template of human metabolic functioning and or deviations from same. Being that the Liver is so very complex in its responsibilities of duties and being that Medical Communities have sufficient understandings at best of such altered complex template of hepatic duties, hence totally predictability, material medical abandonment, the direct result of failed and absent medical knowledge.

Chapter - Sixteen

Vitamin D3

Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis appearing first present four decades earlier, myself then having absolutely no understandings of these matters or anything relating to these matters of hepatic cirrhosis or its control. Experiencing rigidity to the toes on my feet, especially during the sunless months of each year, such rigidity occurring as dependable and as regular as clockwork. Occurring over the many passing decades since my hepatic symptoms first beginnings in 1977. During the sunny summer months of each year, easily obtaining my apparent requirement of, my assuming, vitamin D3 from normal skin sun exposure, as witnessed by my more normal flexible toes on my feet during such adequate summer sun skin exposure periods. However during the sunless months of each year, my toes daily getting more and more rigid, stiff and inflamed, until by deep winter my toes no longer bending, requiring walking on my heals. However by early summer after again obtaining good sun skin exposures, my ridged toes symptoms quickly fading away during these summer months, but however always again reappearing in the fall of each subsequent year. My decades later experimental D3 findings, if taking vitamin D3 in a water soluble emulsified version, such water soluble D3, singularly eventually reversing my stiff toes symptoms during these winter sunless months to my more normal summer flexible status.

However such experienced D3 advantages only lasting as long as was taking the Water-soluble D3, something the fat-soluble sourced D3 supplement could never do for me during these times when my liver function was most deeply compromised. Hypothesizing on the possible reasons for such differing effects from two different D3 versions, concluding the fat soluble D3 more difficult to properly metabolize, due to the depth of my current Alcohol Induced liver dysfunction. Alternatively when previously taking vitamin D3 in its more common fat-soluble formula, such D3 appearing to be virtually irrelevant to my ridged toes and digestion competence. My rigid toes symptom easily identified as affected by such lack of vitamin D3, however having no knowledge, wondering if the fat-soluble D3 was only non-effective for my bones & joints in my feet, or if additionally also equally non-effective for others of my bodily D3 needs. Also strongly suspecting, a result of my unexpected positive experiences, vitamin D3, also appears intimately associated with my chronic Bawl Health Function. Also demonstrated by my D3 experiments, even though D3, itself is a Fat Soluble vitamin, nevertheless D3 appearing very easily liver tolerated under hepatic Cirrhosis conditions, without involving noticeable Liver toxicity, paradoxically however, vitamin D3, extremely difficult to effectively metabolize in Hepatic Cirrhosis manifestation. I found as result of my extensive experimenting, water-soluble sourced versions of vitamin D3, is required to be taken in both summer and in winter for normalizing Bawl Function, even though my summer sun exposure, sufficient to free up my locked stiff toes.

One of the few Classic Chronic Symptom appearing unchanged and unaffected from first beginnings to four decades later present untreated times, along with my ridged body muscles, my ridged, inflamed toes/joints/bones symptom remaining chronically cyclically present during the sunless winter periods, resistant and unaffected by all efforts that I ever made in trying to mitigate both hepatic cirrhosis symptoms remaining ever present, however until my discovery and successful use of Water Soluble D3. My experiments, post 2004 "Epiphany", in testing my abilities to metabolize fat-soluble D3 for my bodies needs, such experiment conclusions appearing very clear, each year when sun skin exposure ending, it is mandatory for my taking of Water Soluble D3, as the fat soluble D3 did not appear to be appropriately effective in elevating my ridged toes symptoms. Eventually other intriguing contradictory D3 understandings surfacing, understandings appearing paradoxically conflicting, clearly posing two very different and contradictory understandings results to my original understandings, most likely this conflicting paradox, apparently the result of my new thresholds of improving liver and health status. Experiments in first instance, fat soluble D3 not effectively working, and then my same fat soluble D3 in the second time separated instance, coincidently effectively working, both within similar mirroring circumstance, however only in differing situations of significant liver health improvement separating both findings. Example, if during the summer high sun skin exposure period, if not receiving sun skin exposure for several days while successfully taking 3000 iu of D3 daily in fat soluble form, apparently at these times, apparently receiving sufficient D3 to prevent and alleviate my rigid toes symptoms, conversely however such fat soluble D3 appearing totally ineffective when within my previous diminished hepatic/cirrhosis/health status.

Still another paradoxical D3 experimental result, when successfully taking fat sourced fat soluble D3, during my receiving Sun Skin exposures periods, paradoxically and counter intuitively, under such circumstances, D3 no longer appearing effective, as my rigid toes quickly returning, Resulting such experienced paradoxical D3 understandings, in the future required either selecting D3 only or sun skin only, but not both strategies simultaneously during sun skin periods. Even though these initial D3 experimental findings have been and are accurate at my current greatly improving health status, still not totally clear to me if such results holding up under circumstances of differing Hepatic Cirrhosis health status circumstance, time to eventually validate such clarity of question?

**Conduct D3 mid. 2017 Hypotheses**. Some very interesting but however extremely nebulous hypotheses competing in my thinking processes regarding contradictory anomaly experiences with vitamin D3. I have no real idea if this entry Hypotheses is in fact based on reality or based on fanciful suspect thought, however such Hypotheses for many meticulous reasons appearing as cutting very close to the bone in a manor of speaking. Fat-soluble vitamin D3, extremely critically important and commonly unrecognized as such within Human biology, however D3, a fat soluble vitamin is very difficult to metabolize from dietary means within Hepatic Cirrhosis, however sun skin exposure when available appearing extremely effective in such regards within Hepatic Cirrhosis. Fat-soluble D3, convincingly appearing to act very differently than fat-soluble vitamins A and E, both of which are liver toxic and difficult to metabolize in Hepatic Cirrhosis, however D3 not appearing to me as liver toxic, only difficult to metabolize. Here now is my setting up of potential nebulous Hypotheses on vitamin D3 conduct. D3 conduct Anomalies commonly experienced by myself, such contradictory D3 conduct anomalies defying and constantly confusing my well experienced anticipated understandings of D3's expected anticipated conduct with in my cirrhosis circumstances.

Commonly confusing experiences, even though D3 is a fat-soluble vitamin, difficult to dietary metabolize, and deficient in cirrhosis circumstances, nevertheless, credibly appearing, the balancing of D3 levels in the hepatic cirrhosis circumstances, appealingly requiring of personal hands on regulating of D3 body levels, as to be not to great, and as to be not to little, as apposed to the normal population, where the normal body D3 levels appearing automatically self regulating. Convincingly commonly experiencing such D3 Anomaly Conducts suggesting another nebulous D3 Hypothesis. In matters of Hepatic Cirrhosis, depending on the times of the seasons, if sun skin exposure is available and depending on combination of how successful my daily introducing D3 from diet and D3 supplementing and depending on how much sun skin exposure daily receiving, possible originating symptoms suggested by my advanced experiences, if to little D3, the bones in my feet are ridged and painful to bend, and if receiving to much D3 exposure, my muscles not firing smoothly as my muscles firing somewhat jerky.

Convincingly appearing to me, if successfully sufficient daily D3 is achieved by diet procedures, then additional sun skin exposure appearing counter productive, and vice versa, depending if in combinations, of sun skin exposure or and diet. These such convincing D3 observations herein this entry appearing the case circumstance, when Hepatic Cirrhosis is well controlled and with achieved possible degrees of advanced liver healing, outside of which D3 appearing much more difficult to bodily introduce. This particular Hypotheses on D3 conduct is only highly suspected by my experiences, even though my observations of symptoms are quite accurate, I do not truly know if my proposed D3 conduct Hypotheses is in fact fully correct. I think the bottom line is correct. In Hepatic Cirrhosis the Party must skillfully regulate the optimal parameters of D3 daily, as automatic D3 regulating suspected by me as dysfunctional and not automatically occurring.

Chapter - Seventeen

Typical Cirrhosis Meal

My typical daily required amalgam of nutrients, conducts and dietary principals for effectively controlling my hepatic cirrhosis, regardless of how very positive controlling my symptoms, still remaining a long way from my original societal normal functioning status, but sufficient to coexist with hepatic cirrhosis. My optimally structured main meal of three daily meals is basically as follows here now. My identified control nutrients for each meal are to be cut up into desirable dosages, all nutrients and control procedures perpetually administered with each and every meal eaten throughout each and everyday, without exceptions, and also as required in between meals for symptom control.

Each such meal must limit carbohydrate content and absolutely for certain not be mainly consisting of carbohydrates. Each such meal must contain fat animal protein, importantly including animal fats as animal fats are extremely important in cirrhosis. Each such meal may contain as much unsweetened vegetables as desired. Each such meal must NOT contain dietary sugars from whatever the source and if absolutely necessary, containing only tiny amounts of sugars. Each such meal's tolerances to be based on the degrees of liver healing gained over any particular periods in time, every meal containing at minimum, 100 mg thiamine with each such meal, and as much thiamine as required after and between such meal as found to be necessary in controlling carbohydrate accelerated symptoms. My past experiences of daily thiamine requirement, 1500-mg. of thiamine daily total not out of the question.

Each such meal may or may not contain vitamin D3, base on times of the year, sun skin exposure or not, current degree of rigidity of toes on feet, sun skin exposure is best, however water soluble emulsified D3 otherwise best, however sufficient D3 found quite difficult to achieve in cirrhosis, a great deal of effort required in judgment and accomplishing such. Each such meal should contain one third of a divided 100 mg B-Complex. One such daily meal should contain a routine dosage of 100 mcg. B12 as found necessary. An important dietary principle to be cognizant of within conditions of alcohol hepatic cirrhosis, great difficulties in digesting fats, nevertheless definitely not to be a primary controlling dietary standard of fat avoidance compliance, as dietary fats, in particular dietary animal fats are absolutely essential within hepatic cirrhosis circumstances, and regardless of digesting difficulties, nevertheless, such fats must be present within dietary meals, no option, as fat avoidance in hepatic cirrhosis can be seriously counterproductive to effective control effort and progress forwards.

Chapter - Eighteen

Dead Mans Line

During the waning of the 1970s, I am at another of my crossroads of life, my facing an immediate choice, death or life, such decision unavoidable, as in default of such decision, death quickly prevailing. Philosophically hypothetically apprised of death's infinite patience and disinterest in any outcome of my chosen decision, intern apprising myself of existing possibilities in moving forwards within my life and past my alcoholic slavery. My body now broken, medically unrecognized and ridiculed (hepatic cirrhosis), counting my blessings, because during my abusive indiscriminate use of alcohol, I crossed some invisible virtual nebulous line of no return, such line my referring to as semantically "The Dead Man's Line". My reprieve of such sentence, my far to early a death, a sentence well earned by such passage threw this "Dead Mans Line", apparently for unknown and nebulous reasons, set-aside in my case and for such reprieve of sentence, I remain eternally grateful. The only required price to pay on such account reprieve, perpetually daily dealings with my resulting relentless, complex, and unstable brutal symptoms, willingly some small price to pay for my apparent forgiveness and passage forwards with my life.

My overwhelming reason, never even considering any alternate possibility to my actual taken decision of parting company with "Comrade Alcohol", recognizing the enormous effort and turmoil required in accomplishing such reforming of my life, if and after parting company with "Comrade Alcohol". Ultimately I choose correctly, because regardless of the costs involved with such cessation effort from alcohol, the cost of doing nothing, exacting a far, far greater cost to me, the forfeiture of my life. Philosophically appraised of a relevance of strategy entwined within my current predicament, taking my choice decision, death or life, an additional entwining strategy of Death's role in this matter also playing its own significant roll in my taken decision, parting or not parting company with "Comrade Alcohol". My long time familiarity with my old menses death, death many times unsuccessfully encroaching upon my side of our virtual shared separating fence, or perhaps instead, my recklessness itself stocking my old nemeses death? Many uncounted times, my recklessly rendering me upon death's alter for well earned reason, and as many such times myself subsequently spat back unscathed and devoid of penalty. However now ominously very different, my body now broken and such spitting back from death's embracing alter at this catastrophic convergence of my past excesses now highly unlikely.

My mind set ponderings at these catastrophic converging moments in my life when requiring this taking of decision to cease or not to cease my association with "Comrade Alcohol", my ponderings at these converging moments, being that I am still quite young at this time, and without noticeable major maladies, other than my alcohol associated resultant consequences, I choose correctly and ceases my alcohol association, deciding my looming Herculean effort of parting company with "Comrade Alcohol" will be well worth the doing. However also balancing other less noble option possibility of choice at these sobering moments, being if significantly older at these moments of choice decision, maybe perhaps instead my taken decision, a very different taken decision. That alternative decision then not taken, not ending my association with "Comrade Alcohol" and just allowing my status quo alcohol saturation, playing its inevitable way out to its looming foreseeable, predictable and inevitable conclusion, thankfully not taking such failed decision. Philosophically seeing death as having no interest in any of my outcomes, one way or another, indicating to me that my heroic efforts towards some new future, still theoretically possible. Failing my severing of relationship with Comrade Alcohol, my far to early an exit from life certainly soon to follow. My reprieve of sentence, my far to early a death, which I might have received, subsequently set aside and overlaid by an exceptionally good life, filled with life. However also knowing, my gift of continuing life for vast majorities of people finding them selves in circumstances similar to my own, not as fortunate as my own in their own outcomes.

Chapter - Nineteen

Alcohol Withdrawal Strategy

By the late 1970s when I was ending my association with "Comrade Alcohol", and that fog of carefree abandon lifestyle was beginning it's lifting, I surveyed the desolation now surrounding my life in all quarters. I was not only now facing the rebuilding of my destroyed body from my many years of alcohol abuse, but also facing the rebuilding of my private, social and business life, all which now lay hollowed in disarray before me. Now observing my past business peers, peers having progressed over the years and subsequently built impressive businesses, while I squandered these many years with little to show.

Now prepared and determined to rebuild my life from alcohol's spent ashes and indeed with "My Girl" at my side, such rebuilding attempt now appearing possible. When I previously took my decision to remove alcohol from my life and stopping my drinking for good, I recognizing in advance a number of challenges that would be laying before me, challenges requiring overcoming and addressing, if I was to be successful with my parting of company with comrade alcohol. Anticipating some challenges in advance, other challenges identify themselves with the progressing of time. In such regards I decided on a philosophically generated strategy for facilitating my alcohol with drawl.

The main pillar of my with drawl strategy would involve the total removing of all past alcohol associations, alcohol conducts and alcohol habits from my day-to-day life, and then leaving the resultant voids created in my day to day life, as vacant. Fully philosophically understanding, if I was unable to completely sever all current and past alcohol associations, I would never escape from my alcohol enslaver. To help in conforming to such alcohol withdrawal strategy of total alcohol associations severing, I created a number of default obstacles, then placing such obstacles within my day-to-day life. Such artificially created obstacles now firmly in my daily lifestyle's path, hopefully dissuading me from inappropriately prematurely refilling my many artificially created voids, thereby increasing my prospects, and successfully facilitating my exit from my now hollowed and spent alcohol saturated lifestyle.

Fully expecting to face some predictable challenges by my cutting out and discarding of substantial pieces of my day-to-day life, and most importantly, carefully leaving such resulting voids as vacant, until appropriately refilling such voids at some appropriate future time, some tall order indeed. In effect my proposed strategy amounting to my completely burning all bridges. Knowing that for my effort of with drawl from "Comrade Alcohol" to succeed, I will be required to firmly resist all inevitable subsequent pressures to quickly refill my such created voids in my life. Understanding my purposely created voids within my life will be necessary to be left vacant, as if refilling such voids too early, I will be refilling these voids with previous failed and worn out alcohol genre of my past, similar to that which I am so desperately attempting my withdrawing, intern directly leading to my totally failure of mission. Philosophically understanding that this single circumstance of my living with such unfilled voids in my daily life, very critical, because if relenting or unwisely recklessly allowing such artificially created voids to be inappropriately refilled, I will never succeed in my mission of purging alcohol from my life, as I can only be refilling such voids with things similar to my current alcohol related circumstances.

In effect refilling such artificially created voids with similar habits, and associations that I am attempting to withdraw from in the first place, a recipe for my complete and hopeless failure. Alternatively I cannot allow myself to be fooled into some flawed assumption, being that I will only be temperately refilling such resultant voids until better, non alcohol related lifestyle alternatives coming along. Fully understanding, to establish my new life, my old life firstly requiring complete dismantling and discarding, otherwise they're being no room in my new non-alcohol life for new non-alcohol lifestyle options to reoccupy. Retaining the old until the arriving of the new, a fatal flawed strategy, guaranteeing my total failure, by hopelessly traveling backwards to where I am trying to escape from in the first place, as there being no voids room for my hoped for new alcohol free life available for appropriate refilling.

To guard against this predictable looming problem of inappropriate void refilling, I decide to create some default artificial blocking obstacles, then utilizing such obstacles for the controlling of my future daily conducts and thus hopefully preventing the inappropriately refilling of my purposefully created lifestyle voids.

To protecting against those predictable occurring traps I was certain would constantly arise, the opportunistic social revisiting of my now missing social comrades at my previous social drinking venues. When previously involved within my bankrupt social alcohol activities, I required the dress code imagery of my suit and tie amongst others of my social bankrupt lifestyle's requirements. Creating an obstacle buffer against any such possible inappropriate fraternization with my past social alcohol venues, I resolved, to stop wearing my suits and to reinforce this decision, I then disposed of them all, in effect, my alcohol social activities uniform. Now that I would not be appropriately dressed to participate at my previous bankrupt social venues, if and whenever such opportunities randomly arising, then far easier for me to just avoid such inappropriate opportunities when inevitably presented, as no longer fitting my previously established imagery.

Now no longer fitting my previous polished social imagery, intern buttressing my preparation for the establishment of my new lifestyle, disassembling of my old life and thus facilitate conditions favorable for the establishment of my intended new life. Inevitably from time to time during my daily routine activities, I would inevitably pass my familiar past social activities locations, and if being properly dressed for participating, I might then enter, socializing and catching up on things. I recognized that such apparent harmless fraternizations with my defunct alcohol past, the thin edge of the alcohol wedge, and as such my modest dressing method not allowing for such chanced participations, thereby just shrugging my shoulders and passing without stopping.

The third reason for requiring my dressing down strategy, the complex complete changes required to my complete life, believing that an extended period of simple uncomplicated and subdued reflections was required, leaving my old life behind me, while at the same times leaving uncommitted vacant room in my current fledgling life and then patiently waiting while looking forward towards some yet to arrive, yet non-existing new life, in effect, proceeding with the healing of my life as well as that of my body.

My dressing downward strategy helped in keeping my lifestyle vacuums unfilled, allowing for the time required for my inevitable non alcohol related refilling of such vacuums in my life, with non alcohol associated new people, new activities, and new realities, towards forming a hopped for new normal societal lifestyle.

Chapter - Twenty

Abridged Journal Entries

(Modern, Pre Thiamine Discovery)

33.3

Date, October 2, 2010,

Experiment,

Complete temporary Supplements withdrawal. I have started today to take a complete holiday, withdrawing totally from the taking of all supplements, vitamins, and nutrients for the next period of time on a day-by-day basis. There are varieties of reasons for this action. One reason is that I have noticed my hands have become quite a strong red color, and there are a lot of dark veins raised up through the surface of the skin on the back of my both hands which sometimes produce lesions on some of these veins with tiny traces of blood, and I also want to evaluate the current results of this action of a complete drawl. Another reason is for cautionary purposes to protect against any unknown health effects of overdose, and still another reason is to detoxify my body, and still another reason is to better estimate where I stand in these matters visa via dosages toxicity, and benefits, I will see what happens with this action.

33.4

Date, October 9, 2010,

Health quickly Collapsing, very Poor, Emaciated Appearance. My stomach, and Esophagus are still doing very well on there own, even during the recent withdrawal of all supplements. To day in an emergency situation I have immediately stopped the withdrawal experiment due to extreme, and adverse experiment results started after October 2, 2013. The reason is that I have arrived at the conclusion that I have no other choice but to start orally taking (B12) again. On October 3, 2010, the next day after my intended temporary stopping of the taking all supplements, it looked to me that the conditions on the back of my hands were clearing up, and after the second day my hands were clearly very improved, and within four days in time they seemed to be totally normalized, at least in my opinion. But due to the overall consequences of my experimental action of stopping all supplements, many adverse things started to immediately happen to me. I noticed that I immediately started to lose a great deal of weight after stopping the (B12) supplementation, body weight that I cannot afford to lose. My eyes were glassy, and there were a lot of feelings of activity around my eyes, I started to feel poorly, and my appearance looked terrible, and haggard as if deeply malnourished, and in a state of starvation. After the 4 days of stopping all supplements, I noticed that upon examining my stool after a Bowel movement that the stool was well cylindrically normally shaped with a normal dark brown color but it would float, could this be the results of fat absorption problem? Over all I did not feel as good as before my stopping of this supplements experiment as I started to look extremely bad, and emaciated looking. Many people would ask me what is wrong with you when they would seen how my eyes, and myself would be effected, glassy with poorer vision. This poor vision I recognize as a common symptom from my earlier times going far way back in time. It is my firm opinion that the absence of B12 may be the main culprit here.

This entry following now is a post entry, dated November 1, 2010. At this time I was not restricting my intake of excess dietary sugar, and this may also have been implicated here. When this event was happening, three hours after resuming B12, the first beginnings of positive results were experienced by me). Upon my restarting of the taking of B12 on October 9, 2010, and always with meals, my overall condition has started dramatically to immediately improve. In response to this previous experiment, I have decided that I will establish a lower dosage daily total (B12) dosage. Up to the time now just recently I calculate that for several months I was orally taking a dosage of about (800 mcg., of B12 daily in total), and for many months before that I was taking a considerable larger daily dose of B12, possibly 1200 to 1400 mcg daily. It appears that the beneficial effects of the taking of B12, no matter how large the dosage, and for how long a period a time of the dosage, B12 will only provide my required benefits as long as the B12 is taken daily. Once I stopped taking the B12 the health benefits immediately start to vanish, also if a constantly large dosage of B12 is taken it will give unwanted side effects. The correct minimum dosage for me at this time is still to be discovered by me.

33.5

Date, October 09, 2010,

Recommencing, taking of Nutrients. I shall start today retaking my new B12 dosage of 350 mcg. Orally, divided up between the main meals of each day, the total being from all sources except food, I will re-evaluate this dosage day by day.

33.6

Date, October 11, 2010,

Metabolic Digestion Chemistry.

After two days of my resuming the taking of 350 mcg. of B12 daily with food, I have started immediately to gain weight, and I feel very good. In examining my stool after a Bowel movement, I found that my stool would no longer float. In trying to explain, and reason for the many perplexing questions in my mind at this time, I am in the early stages of developing a SUPPOSITION pursuant to these matters, this supposition being a preliminary bases for an explanation of better understandings of exactly what, and why is presently happening to me at the present time period. The basics of my current understandings of my Supposition shall be as now follows here now.

There is absolutely no doubt in my mind in that my conclusion in these matters is that I have metabolic chemistry deficiencies resulting in B12, DEFICIENCY, being a primary factor into the cause of my overall symptoms, and conditions in these matters. I have found that without first providing to my body the supplementation of B12 with food daily, my bodies' metabolism cannot function properly resulting in my symptoms of severe negative health effects. I also wonder if B12 must first be introduced to my body by way of oral daily B12 supplementation with food before any secondary metabolizing of the fat-soluble vitamins (A), (D3), and (E) are enhanced or even possible. Referring now to a puzzling finding in my recent past, before I started my B12 supplementation period, I did not seem to be able to derive any perceptible desired benefits from a fat soluble D3 source until after starting my B12 supplementation.

As my most recent experiment involving the with drawl of B12 showed me, that I would not be able to thrive very long at all without my daily supplementation with Vitamin B12, as it seems now to be mandatory for me daily. In the past over the many years it seems that I was very deficient in vitamin B12, but still could live, and function along with all of my other accompanying daily challenging negative symptoms but now it does not seem to be possible for me to live at all without B12 daily supplementation, what has changed? Perhaps my advancing age of 70 years has changed things or it may be a direct result of what I refer to as my stomach collapse period. It seems to me that my present chronic stomach, and Esophagus problems are the direct cause from the many years of my digestion dysfunction problems, and Esophagus refluxing, and since that Stomach collapse in 2004 as I refer to that event period, there seems to have been additional changes that have taken place with my metabolism. In my most recent experiment of October 2, 2010, after the temporary total with drawl of all supplementation for five days, my accelerating weight lose, and overall deteriorating health forced me to immediately cancel that experiment, and restart my B12 supplementation. Everything started to immediately reverse on the restart of B12 with meals. I will modify this supposition as questions are clarified.

33.7

Date, October 12, 2010

Update

I continue to take daily 350 mcg. (B12). My stomach, and Esophagus are very good, and almost perfect. My eyes are clearing, and there is less activity around my eyes. I am very slowly putting on body weight, and I feel excellent.

33.8

Date, October 13, 2010,

A Puzzling Question, effective dosage of vitamin B12.

Why I wonder over the many years of enduring these symptoms could my body still then function even though I was deeply deficient in B12, and currently now I find that I must introduce B12 with each meal or my body will start to immediately fail. The next question is why has the effective dosage requirement of B12 been changing lower since I first started using B12. It seems that a lower, and lower amount is still effective, and why before was the larger dosage required to be effective, when now it seems to me that regardless of the size of the dosages, any with drawl of B12 will immediately lead to serious negative symptoms, and apparent deficiency of B12. A possible explanation has crossed my mind, what if it is possible that my body has learned to store B12 but cannot access it when it is needed, it's just a thought.

33.9

Date, October 14, 2010,

Lower Back Ache.

My stomach, and Esophagus are still excellent without any apparent special support required. To day I decided to temporarily stop taking the multi vitamin-mineral containing 100 mcg. Vitamin B12, and replace its B12 portion with 100 mcg. of B12 from another source. The reason that I have taken this action is that I have started to feel a little tenderness around my back in the area of my kidneys. I am wondering, and suspect that the 75 iu of vitamin E in the multi vitamin is associated with this, I will see what happens next.

33.11

Date, October 18, 2010,

Digestion greatly improved.

Refluxing into my Esophagus is under very nice control, and my stools appear daily to be uniformly normal looking. I am currently still taking orally 350 mcg. of B12 daily. I am now trying to influence my gaining of some badly needed body weight for me, which at this time for me is my main surviving challenge in these matters, so I am setting up a new experiment which will go as follows. I have decided to start to use, and monitor the activity, and the measure of my eyes clarity through out the day as the measure of the effectiveness of my daily dietary actions, and experiments. I have always had a strong suspicion that the mimicking of sugars effects on my body is somehow connected to my overall disease including my current body weight issue. The measurement will be, the greater the clarity of my eyes the more effective the experimental action. I will therefore restrict as much sugar from my daily diet as reasonable, and also include where possible exercise after eating. I will report further on this as I see how it goes. I have never been diabetic according to any tests that were ever done, but this clarity issue with my eyes has been with me since the first beginnings of this whole journey in 1977. Note: I still use some vitamins in two different ways, and at differing times as either a Nutrient or as a Medicine depending on my reason for use, and the results anticipated by their use.

33.13

Date, October 24, 2010,

Observation, difficulty Digesting Fats. It seems to me now that I have always since quitting alcohol consumption in 1977, had this difficulty digesting fats. In a recent observation of my stool after a Bowel movement, my stool seems to be normal in color but partially buoyant which may or may not indicate fat content in the stools. I have for two days now started to experiment with trying to cut down my B12 daily dosage to 50 mcg. per each meal times 4 meals daily. In thinking about what I can do to enhance my fat metabolizing, I thought about considering digestive enzymes, but due to my past experience with these enzymes during my stomach collapse period starting in 2004, when at that time during the use of these enzymes, I was dizzy, losing weight, and feeling terrible, I decided that I would definitely not pursue them again as they were not suitable for my symptoms. I decided instead to try using a (B Complex) instead, and in particular a (B 50 complex), making certain that it also contained a 50 mcg dosage of B12. My current plan is to take a dosage of (B 50) complex each with the two main meals of each day, and one dosage of B12 twice the same day, but at different meals, which will still deliver to me 200 mcg. of B12 daily, being my new target dosage. What I want to know is will the B complex work as good or better than B12 alone in the metabolizing of fats during my digestion.

33.14

Date, October 26, 2010,

Excellent Stomach, Esophagus.

In examining my most recent Bowel movement I noticed that my stool was normal in its form, dark brown in color, and shape but still had buoyancy to it, some of the large Chapters could float on top of the water. My stomach, and Esophagus refluxing seems to have ended, and a great deal of repair to my stomach, and Esophagus has seemed to have taken place since I first started taking B12, and along with separately taking small amounts of (B complex) Orally as a Medicine as needed to help control my Esophagus reflux in 2009. Since just a few days recently passed I started to also take (B 50 complex) with each of two main meals of each day, in addition to me taking separately (B12) 75 mcg. each dosage with the rest of my daily meals. My results have been spectacular, and my eyes have been quite clear with no feelings of activity around them also it seems that at this stage of my healing progress that the (B 50 Complex) has produced good results, but I have just noticed something at a supper time. After taking the B 50 complex my veins on the back of my hands were very pronounced, and raised up with a dark color. Because of this scary looking result of these nutrient use, and regardless of the benefits obtained from (B12), and (B complex), I will experiment with temporally discontinue this treatment, and then at the re introduction of these two nutrients, I will revaluate by experimenting with reduced dosages depending on my findings. The experience of this occurrence may be the root of something new or not for me as I dare to wonder if there is as possibility that I am developing the ability of storage, and distribution capacity for these B vitamins, I will probe further.

33.15

Date, October 28, 2010,

Controlling Dietary Sugar, Imperative. When I control my dietary sugar intake as I do now at this time, and I continue supplementing with moderate B12 dosages, and small dosages of (B Complex), I find that my eyes are more clear with no feeling of activity around them, and I seem to be slowly gaining a bit of body weight, and the veins on the back of my hands appear normal. Yesterday I experimented by taking 60 mg of, B6, and a bit of B12., this seemed to be too much for me as after eating a meal the veins on my arms, and the back of my hands became raised up though my skin, and engorged looking, frightening for me to look at, and so immediately I put an end to this practice, and experiment. On returning to my previous conservative application of these B vitamins, every thing is looking more normal, and their effectiveness is still good.

33.16

Date, October 29, 2010,

Restricting excessive Dietary Sugars. I continue to take B12, and some (B Complex), and have been able to greatly reduce both of their dosages, and they still continue to be effective for me. Currently for B12, 200 mcg. a day, and for (B Complex, 25, mg per day), all with food. Since I first started taking B12, and B Complex in 2009, I have been taking enormous dosages of B12, for the past many months now, something in the range of (B12, 1200 mcg) with meals per day, and perhaps (B Complex 150, mg) per day as needed. My stomach, and Esophagus continue to heal, and there is no more Esophagi refluxing, and mucus in my throat. On my examination of my latest sample of my stool, the stool is firm, and normally shaped with a normal brown color, and it looks to me as if the stool is becoming less buoyant.

For the past thirty years my stool has constantly, and generally been very lose in nature, normally closer to very lose rather than firm, but not any more since my B12 treatments. I have now begun to strictly reduce the excess dietary sugar in my daily diet. In, and during the past I considered sugars effects on me as symptoms of my condition, but I now understand that the deficiency of my metabolic digestion processes make dietary sugar a part of the condition causing my negative symptoms, and not being a symptom in itself.

Along with the B12, and B Complex, and my total embargo on excess sugar in my daily diet, my eyes are very clear now with no perceived activities around them, I feel, and look good, and my weight is stable. There are no raised veins on my hands, and my average blood pressure is 122/75-p68. It appears to me that because of my examination of the sugar component in my diet in the past, I have come to the conclusion that excess sugar in my diet is probably a larger culprit than I ever suspected in the past, because of the metabolic changes to my body, it is somehow able to reek havoc on my health. I have never been diabetic that I know of, and I still know that I am not diabetic.

33.18

Date, November 2, 2010,

Sternum Pain, rigidity, Toe Rigidity and Pain. In my most recent observation of the characteristics of my stool, it appears that all looks normal to me with this additional observation; it still will float in the water. In other observations, today I became aware of newly occurring circumstances, which I will cause me to increase my daily supplement dosage of the water-soluble vitamin D3 to 2500 iu. The two reasons for this are that last night I started to experience my old symptom of tenderness at the bottom of my sternum, and today the toes on my both feet are starting to display the beginnings of my old symptom, being the rigidity of my toes. Anyways my sun exposure had ended in early September, and I am no longer getting the simultaneous D3 from sunshine, in addition to my water-soluble D3 supplementing.

* Insertion. This is an insertion from my future better understandings, date of insertion Date, July 3, 2011, I am becoming increasingly more suspicious that in regards to my Sternum Tenderness, and the Rigidity of my Toes, it appears to me that the Water Soluble emulsified D3 is by far the most important to me in regards to these two issues, and I am suspecting apparently even more important than summer sun exposure.

* Insertion. This is an insertion from my future better understandings, date of insertion Dec. 12, 2012, In regards to Sternum tenderness, and rigidity of Toes, I have found that the Water Soluble D3 to have been a partial interim solution, because I have subsequently found if vitamin K1 is taken with a Fat Soluble source of D3, that this appears to correct these problems best of all, and completely.

33.19

Date, November 4, 2010,

Last Remaining problem, Stomach and Esophagus.

The following are the controls, and the indicators that I am using at this present time to both indicate to me the direction, and the possible toxicity of my current Treatment Protocol strategy. I want my eyesight to be clear with no perceived activity around them. I want the back of both of my hands to be smooth, and clear without any raised veins. I want to see that my stool will not float. I want to see my blood pressure stay at my normal 125/70. I want to see no body weight loss but a moderate weight gain. I want to see that I sleep well. I want to see, and feel that my overall appearance as good to excellent. I want to see that I do not awaken in the morning as being dry, hung over, and with a headache. I constantly monitor all of these areas so as to determine the correct direction of my current strategies. t my last movement I noticed that my stool was normal looking in all respects except that half of the stools sank to the bottom, and half floated on top. To-day I have ended all previous experiments, and have withdrawn all supplementation in order to stabilize myself, and find out where I stand in regards to my supplementing, including toxicity load build up, and retained benefits. Because Vitamin D3 is a fat soluble vitamin I will now probe its effects on my only remaining significant problem, being my stomach, and Esophagus to see if I can improve my past results while withdrawing from taking the (B family) of Vitamins. I will now start to take a emulsified water soluble version of Vitamin D3 in the following way, because it is now the sunless winter period, I will take orally a dosage of 1000 iu at breakfast with food, and 500 iu at lunch with food, and 500 iu at supper with food, and no other vitamins until progresses, and my evaluations dictates, Then I will slowly re introduce individual supplements for further evaluation. Excess dietary sugar remains my number one enemy, and so I shall continue to strictly control its intake.

33.20

Date, Nov. 5, 2010,

Water Soluble D3, with Meals. The taking of the water-soluble D3 as planed with meals is proving to look like a very promising strategy due to my results regarding my stomach, and Esophagus. Because of this I am ending the Nov. 4, 2010 experiment, and will start a new experiment immediately. One thing I did notice is that in this recent experiment with taking the water soluble D3 with food is it that it lowered my blood pressure immediately to 115/80, a little low for me. In this new experiment I will take with each of the three meals of the day as follows. (Water soluble D3, 500 iu each meal X 3). (B12, 25 mcg. Each meal X 3). plus (vitamin C, omega 3, and calcium) at the same time fully trying to avoid (B Complex ) supplementing in any dosage as I am concerned with the raised veins on the back of my hands, and a built up toxicity load. Now at this time my main objective is my stomach, and Esophagus healing, and performance, body weight gain, my overall appearance, good sleep pattern, and my overall good feeling of health.

33.22

Date, November 8, 2010,

Reducing Dosages.

I still avoid excess dietary sugar, as sugar has proven to me that it is my enemy, my eyes are good, and I am happy about how well I am doing overall. Today all my stool was buoyant, maybe its my diet composition, maybe not, maybe its got to due with the two days of with drawl from all B Vitamins. My stomach, and Esophagus are doing better, and better each day, and in order to promote deeper healing of my stomach, and Esophagus, I have for now given up coffee for now. Having sufficiently dried out from nutrient supplementing, today I will start with a new conservative introduction of nutrients. I will take with each of my four main meals of each day as follows here, (250 iu of water soluble D3, daily total 1000 iu,) (25 mcg of B12, daily total 100 mcg.), and some calcium, (C), and a multi vitamin.

33.23

Date, November 10, 2010,

Stomach, Esophagus, and Stool. am now progressing extremely well, my stomach, and Esophagus are improving daily in a spectacular way. On the examination of my latest stool sample, it was found to be totally buoyant, one possible reason for this buoyancy outside of the possible fat content in my stool is the transit time of the food through my intestine. I have only restarted the B12 now for a day or two. My current treatment that I am now proceeding with is as follows, the following amalgam, and dosage of vitamins that are working extremely well for me now, and so I will continue every thing in the same way as follows here. Four times each day with a meal I take orally a (water soluble Vitamin D3, 250 iu), each meal, (B12, 25 mcg) each meal, plus (one quarter of a multi vitamin) with each meal, plus give or take miscellaneous nutrients. It has taken me about one, and half years of supplementing with very large dosages of B12 treatments to eventually arrive at this, my current very low B12 dosage. After recently deciding to introduce the water soluble D3 with meals in the same manor as the B12, I have found that the D3 is now indispensable, and crucially important to me. I am also continuing my strict practice of avoiding excess dietary sugar, and all coffee from my diet; these are both killers in there own ways.

33.24

Date, November 12, 2010,

Normal Stool.

Everything is going extremely well according to my current B12, and D3 consumption pattern including the size of my daily dosages. Today upon the examination of my latest stool sample I found that to days stool did not float but otherwise looks normal in all respects, this might be due to the composition of the make up of my diet.

33.25

Date, November 15, 2010,

Mimicking Alcohol Hangover. my stomach, and Esophagus seems to have achieved a status of a deeper healing, and they are doing wonderfully. The tiny dosage with each meal of (B12, 25 mcg), (300 iu water soluble D3), and a tiny dosage of a multi vitamin seems to now be fully effective in the maintenance of the desired benefits. Last night I ate a little to late, I ate some simple carbohydrates to close to bed time, and as a direct result of this, one of my old classical symptoms appeared in the morning, the symptom being head ache, thirsty resembling in many ways that of a alcohol type hangover the next day. My firm knowledge, and conclusion here is that this is a result of the metabolic changes that have occurred to my bodies' digestion chemistry, and this appears to be permanent.

33.26

Date, November 16, 2010,

Difficulty arisen Taking Amoxicillin. Insertion, (My future Hypotheses inserted here from my future understandings in 2014, being that my serial problems that follows in all following entries documented herein stemming from my taking of Amoxicillin, were in my opinion probably due to its toxic overload in my body, as my liver not being able to effectively metabolize the prescribed dosages out of my system). For a period of four days now I have been taking a prescription medication, totally unrelated to any of the subject matters relating to this paper, instead relating to an infection in my nose which was probably caused by my plucking of nose hairs as a result of this I have been taking a daily prescription of AMOXICILLIN 500 mg capsules, the total prescription being 21 capsules.

I am finding that this medication is getting very difficult for me to keep taking according to instructions because this medication is acting in my body in a way as if I were taking sugar, and or other simple carbohydrates, and especially during the period over night. I am finding that it has become very difficult for me to balance my diets content for my desired results. These desired results for me are feeling stable, and a good normal. What I cannot control now at this time while taking Amoxicillin is the daily effects on me that resemble in many ways that of the Mimicking of the effects of the alcohol type hangover that is being produced by this medication, and I am looking forward to this medications end.

Insertion of an Entry from the future, Dated July 3, 2011, being due to my better future understandings in these matters, this difficulty in my taking of AMOXICILLIN as has just been past described here was probably due to two basic reasons. One reason was that of my unstable, and degraded health status at that time, and the second reason for this difficulty was probability that of a similar reason as was for my difficulty with metabolizing Vitamins (A, Palmitate), and (E), this being some sort of sever Digestion Enzymes difficulties for me, which difficulty commenced as of the date of My Stomach Collapse in 2004.)

33.27

Date, November 19, 2010,

Difficulty Taking Amoxicillin

I am looking forward to the end of my taking of Amoxicillin. This medication is totally messing me up internally; everything is upside down for me. During the last two days I have cut out all other supplements in order to try, and mitigate these new complications being caused by taking this antibiotic, and I have also reduced the amount of this antibiotic that I now take being close to its end supply but this antibiotic appears to have been successful for its purpose. (Note: I have taken Penicillin several times in the past many years, and seemed to have no problems with their taking at those times.)

33.30

Date, November 23, 2010,

Light Headed.

Yesterday, and to day I was feeling a little light headed at differing times of the day. This light-headed effect is not a traditionally normal effect for me, and I suspect my recent antibiotic usage as directly or indirectly responsible for this effect. To day upon my taking of several blood pressure readings on myself, I found them to be low. Here is a list of my to days blood pressure readings as follows, keeping in mind that I could not take any readings when I was away from home, Saturday Nov. 20 2010, 104/65/79p, 114/68/69p, 116/71/71p, Nov. 22, 2010, 112/68/84p, 119/71/72p, 122/72/63p, etcetera. What seem to be helping now is me getting back to my normal procedures without the anti biotic, and especially the return to my taking of my self prescribed Treatment Protocol supplements again.

33.31

Date, November 25, 2010,

Light Headed

Overall I am doing very well. All my symptoms are now in the background, and even my stomach, and Esophagus seem almost perfect. My eyes are always very good now; my weight is absolutely stable at 161 lbs. net weight, and about ten lbs too low for me. Since my antibiotic session has ended I have been troubled with a new symptom of being a little light headed at times. In resuming my supplementation with the vitamins that I had eliminated during my antibiotic use, this symptom appears to be improving with my taking with meals of (B12, 50 mcg.), (200 iu. Water D3), (20 mg. B complex), and a quarter of a multi vitamin.

33.32

Date, November 26, 2010,

Balancing Sugar in Diet

Even though I have found that in the past as also at the present time, that sugar can be a poison for me. I am realizing that I still need sugar in my diet but in a tightly controlled, and in balanced manor. I have found in general that my ideal meals must absolutely not be of a sweet nature by not containing sweetness thorough the entire meal.. I have found that my ideal main meal should not be a sweet meal but sometimes could normally contain a small sweet component such as a desert.

I have found that I should not normally eat a sweet snack by itself as the entire snack. I have found that for several hours before bedtime I should not consume any sweets at all. I have found that if I should stumble, and disobey these sugar dietary rules the result of this stumble would be that I would find myself in a negative health position, the remedy for this would be the complete abstinence or sugar for several days until I can restore my normal routine again.

33.33

Date, Nov. 27, 2010,

Problems tolerating Amoxicillin

I have taken Amoxicillin in the past several years for a dental problem, and at that time I had no noticeable problems tolerating I. Since my taking of this antibiotic just recently I have been having a problem with light headedness, and apparent lower than normal blood pressures, for example this morning after breakfast, I was feeling a little light headed, and my blood pressure was 109/66-74p, and three hours later it recovered to 127/76-p63, also over the past few days there has also been a tiny bit of clear moisture sometimes dripping from my nose, and also less often tears from eyes especially after eating. Later on the same day I decided to eliminate everything that I was taking, and only took 50 mg. of B6 with meals twice this day. The results on this light headedness, and low blood pressure looks very promising but it will take a couple of days for me to see what actually happens. Part of to days preliminary results indicate that in addition to the B6, it still looks like I need the B12 at meals.

33.34

Date, November 28, 2010,

Light Headed.

To day I have again experienced the light head, and lower then my normal blood pressure reading (106/70) after eating, and as a result of this, I now seriously question, and reconsider my suspicions about vitamin B6, and my light-headedness. Instead I am questioning re-examining my taking of a water soluble D3 after each meal. I think that the false success demonstrated by the B6 was actually due to the exclusion of the D3 during that experiment, I will see what happens with this strategy as time progresses.

33.35

Date, November 29, 2010,

Light Headed.

To day I again refrained from the taking of vitamin D3, and the results so far by the end of this day are that to day has been a successful day with no light-headedness, and within my normal range of blood pressures being (124/70). I have also cut back on all supplements at the same time to see how, and what the passage of time will do, and bring on this subject.

33.36

Date, December 1, 2010,

Amoxicillin, Light-Headed.

Since that single event almost two years ago that I refer herein to as my epiphany, as a result of this momentous event involving my new understandings of what had been happening to me for over thirty years, and the new, and novel treatments that I was able to employ as a direct result of this new understanding, every thing in regards to my current overall state of health is essentially now under good control, in that some of my chronic symptoms appears to have been totally eliminated. There is currently only one newly emerged symptom that seems to have occurred since my just recently taking of Amoxicillin, and that symptom being from time to time, my light headedness, and the corresponding blood pressures of (example 108,70) etc.

This symptom may be just temporary I will wait, and see. On my pondering about my most recent newly emerged symptom of becoming light headed, I am now strongly leaning towards the following possible explanation of its cause. At first after finishing with the Amoxicillin, I thought that the cause of my light headedness was due to an excess of D3 or other nutrients in my diet, but I have since strongly modified this suspicion, and replaced it with the following explanation that I am more comfortable with to explain the light headedness. On my closer examination of this entire period when I started the Amoxicillin, I now believe that it is highly likely that my light-headedness is due to my metabolic digestion deficiencies interaction with the Amoxicillin, and or the lingering effects of my nasal bacterial infection. I find that day-by-day the light-headedness is improving as if healing is occurring, and is now essentially no longer a problem for me.

33.37

Date, December 2, 2010,

Treatment Protocol

It appears to me now my disease condition is permanent, and that I shall be permanently required to constantly balance, and re balance my daily interventions with nutrients, and dietary rules, depending on exactly how I feel at any precise moment in time. These dietary rules, and my understandings of the applications of my nutrient supplementing must be modified constantly changing back, and forth, meaning one thing to day, and another thing tomorrow. As long as my Treatment Protocol results are positive as pertaining to my current overall state of health, I shall consider those results as positive. Within the period of time of two years, I have apparently corrected, healed or otherwise placed my total disease, and overall health under a condition of good control, and management, including the repair, and healing of my stomach, and Esophagus, and all of my classic chronic symptoms previously noted herein this paper.

33.38

Date, December 3, 2010,

Searching alternate methods, and sources, A, and E. Because of the toxic effects to me from (A, preformed Palmitate), and (E), I will now experiment, and try to see if I can derive my desired benefits from foods, as Beta Carotene, and foods rich in vitamin E., and see if this can get me around my metabolic problem in regards to toxicity.

33.39

Date, December 6, 2010.

Current Treatment Protocol

Now that all my previous symptoms including my stomach, and Esophagus have been subdued to the point of almost being negligible, I am now daily only on a schedule of routine maintenance, and control as follows here. As routine maintenance for my metabolic disorder three times a day with each meal I take, (25 mcg. B12), (20 % of a multi vitamin), ( B15 Complex), ( 300 iu., D3, water soluble). In addition, and not directly related to my (Alcohol Induced) Metabolic Fat Digestion Disorder, I routinely take also with each meal, three times a day for my overall general nutrition, (a daily total amount) divided between all daily meals, as follows here. (1000 mg. C), (1000 mg. fish oil, EPA 180, DHA 120), and (1000 mg. Calcium).

33.40

Date, December 10, 2010,

Stomach, and Esophagus

My overall health, including my stomach, and Esophagus in regards to these subject matters is becoming excellent. I find that this being winter I suspect that I am required to increase my intake of (water soluble D3 to 2000 iu) daily, divided up between meals. I also notice that I estimate that I get at least an additional (1000 iu) from misc. dietary fat-soluble sources, which for me seems to be of little consequence, and benefit.

33.41

Date, December 12, 2010,

2000 iu, of water soluble D3. This dosage seems to be correct for me at this time. Everything else is excellent, and I continue to apply my overall Protocols of Treatment.

33.43

Date, December 15, 2010,

Reducing Toxic Load) Nutrients? There is one more task that I have realized that still needs to be accomplished, and that is for me to experiment, and find the lowest effective management dosages of my Protocol Treatments as with time I expect that a toxic load can build up in my body if I do not effectively control this.

33.44

Date, December 20, 2010,

Introducing Plant Fats into Diet. * Inserted here in italics from the future in the interests of clarity, (Plant Fats in these matters were only relevant for my normal nutritional purposes, but only animal fats were effective for me in my effort to control the symptoms of my Alcohol Induced Trauma. Everything health wise with myself is excellent on a daily basis as I continue to apply my Treatment Protocols, my stomach, and Esophagus are healing in a more profound, and deepening way with my continuing Protocol Treatments, and with the passage of time.

I have been able to reduce the dosage strength prescribed in my Protocol treatment application, and I have added to my Treatment Protocol the new item of a small handful of roasted peanuts after each meal, this feels to me as if the peanuts are delivering some unspecified unexplained benefits to me, so I eagerly continue to include roasted peanuts in my diet. The next experiment that I shall proceed with will be to see if I can increase my net body weight from 160 lb net to at least (164 - 65) lb net weight. At present I consider my health to be basically optimal but my body weight will not move from 160 lb net weight either direction no matter what I eat or do, and I remain on the skinny, and emaciated side.

*33.44B-

Post entered material, inserted here on January 21, 2013. This entry is extracted from writings dated December 21, 2010, which has recently come to light. This verbatim transcription is from a single page note that I made as a precaution when I thought that I might have incurred a Stroke? What had happened is that I washed my hands, and immediately during the drying of my hands, a sudden complete numbness occurred to one of the fingers on my right hand, this numbness being a complete numbness resembling that as if my finger was made of wood, absolutely no feeling to any kind if touching or manipulating this finger.

This was for me a never before seen or experienced phenomenon, and worthy of my immediate attention. This numbness was both mysterious, and scary, especially due to its split second manifestation, being non-existent, and then one second later being fully manifested. In response to this mystery numbness, I wrote a note in the case circumstance that I would not be able to communicate later on. This now as follows is the verbatim transcription of the content of that note. "It started for the first time at 12 Noon, Dec. 21, 2010, something new.

Finger next to thumb on my right hand got numb feeling, and I seem to be getting a sensation in the same right arm. I took my blood pressure, it was abnormal high for me, 152/87/p86, (my normal is usually 124/75). Dec. 21, 2010 at 2 pm, 130/74/p80, and instruction if necessary to Phone 911", (In the future I would find, and attribute this event of numbness to my large dosage uses of B-Complex, this numbness event then being triggered by my immediate use of hot water to wash my hands, and the rubbing of my hands during towel drying on the towels surface texture. My experienced decision to deal with this numbness would be that I would sacrificially reduce my B-Complex intake by approx. one half, and subsequently to this, it would take several months for this numbness to fully recede.)

33.46

Date, January 2, 2011

Experimenting, A, and E & Weight Gain. All is going extremely well, and is rapidly improving still further in every respect. I continue treating myself with my Protocols of treatment, and in addition, my most recent experiment treatment with Vitamins (A), and (E) is also looking very promising to me in my efforts to gain a little body weight. Over the past week I seemed to have put on one or two lbs, hard to exactly say at this point in time.

I continue taking the dosages as in Entry Date December 28, 2010 experiment. I still also apply cod liver oil to my face in the morning, and wear it until evening, and I also take (A), and (E) orally in the same dosages as in my most recently specified experiment. One thing that I seem to be noticing is that during this experiment period of one week, my blood pressure is elevated about (5) points from my recent normal range of (123) to my newly elevated blood pressure of (129). I certainly am encouraged, and will continue this experiment for a much longer period of time. A final new observation, since the starting of the December 28, 2010 experiment in trying to re introduce vitamin (A) to my diet, I have noticed that after taking a shower there is no longer any hair in the showers drain strainer.

33.49

Date, January 11, 2011,

Low Body Weight

Everything is excellent, and still improving. I still am taking small amounts of (A) Cod Liver Oil, and (E) carefully with each meal, and the results are slowly very encouraging as I seem to be slightly moving my body weight upwards or so it seems at this time, and other positive effects also seem to be occurring. I have without interruption, and in addition to; I continue to take the nutrients specified in my Treatment Protocol.

33.50

Date, January 14, 2011,

Low Body Weight

My overall health has improved exceptionally to a virtually normal, and stable status, but only as long as I continue with my daily nutrient Protocol treatments. My only current remaining major challenge remains the increasing of my low body weight of 161 lbs net weight. With my taking of tiny tolerable dosages of vitamins (A), and (E) with each meal, one of the resulting unique benefits seems to be that I have slowly started to put on body weight, when nothing else would accomplish this task. Other benefits of (A), and (E) seems to be, better sleeping, increased body hair growth, less hair lose, and reliefs from chalk dry skin. I do not know which nutrient is doing what as I started taking them together, and for now this information is not of critical importance to me. Observation. Spectacular achievement, Normal Bowel Movement.

It will be difficult for any body reading this paper to fully grasp what I am about to say here regarding some of my current health observations. That which is normal to any person is essentially routine, and not usually thought about, just the way it must be, and as it has always been. I now continuously marvel at the efficiency, the workings, and the process of my current apparently normal Bowel movements, as for over thirty years this normal process had become lost to me, and another process had become accepted to me as normal. This same admiration of my body's normal process also applies to that of my stomach, and Esophagus functioning status at this time.

33.51

Date, January 15, 2011,

Current Treatment Protocols, and Diet). as follows here now. Remember that now at this moment in time, I am at a very advanced status of improvement, and success in the repair of my health, and n the overcoming of my chronic symptoms, because of the application of my Treatment Protocols, as a direct result of this successful treatment, my dosages involving this Protocol treatment are very much lower then the dosages in my earlier Protocol Treatments.

33.53

Date, January 17, 2011

Desperate, to increase low body weight. There is absolutely no doubt that my taking of (A), and (E) together with each meal at this time is now allowing me to increase my body weight, I do not know for certain if the tiny oral dosages of both (A), and (E) by them selves that I am taking with each meal is allowing for this weight gain, or, and if my applications daily of (A), and (E) to my face is contributing by trans dermal absorption, but my overall results in weight gain is becoming spectacular. Immediately previous to this time, my body had absolutely no body fat content that I could detect or recognize.

In my recollections of a resent experiment about a couple of months ago, weather documented here or not, involving the taking of Vitamin A), that experiment was soon after abandoned as my sleeping at night was becoming very poor but once the (A) was stopped my sleeping quality immediately improved. My current experience with both (A), and (E), seems to be different from that experience, as it now seems especially effective for me in promoting my body weight gain. In a separate observation, I am noticing in regards to my bones, that they seem to be getting a little painful, and a stiffness in them, and my first suspect causing this is excessive (D3), I will cut back on (D3), and see how, and what happens, otherwise everything is excellent at this time.

33.54

Date, January 18, 2011

(Inserted Note), Health Status, Reborn, This entry made after unknowingly emerging from my chronic Beriberi brutality. It appears that the cutting down of the D3 dosage, and changing the source of my calcium supplement this has started to eliminate my bone pains. I continue to include as much plant fats as possible in my daily diet, my stomach, and Esophagus is quite good, and getting very stable. My overall health, and the way that I feel daily is starting to resemble that of myself when I was thirty years of age in virtually all respects being, physical strength, physical endurance, physical dexterity, mental clarity, intellectual agility, on no prescription medications, a stable blood pressure daily of an average (122/70 - P74), and visceral automatically without thinking about this, my routine daily conduct, and feelings of as if I were at this moment in time thirty years old. It seems to me as if I have just awoken from a thirty years of hibernation or a suspension, and now continue from that suspension, and I am now hopping for no new surprises.

33.55

Date, January 19, 2011

Bone Pain.

The changes that I have suggested, and made in regards to my report of bone pain just recently appears to have been successful as theses bone pains in different parts of my body have essentially vanished. The Calcium supplement that I discontinued, for the record contained as follows here now, Calcium Carbonate, Vitamin (D), Magnesium Oxide, Zinc Oxide, Manganese Sulphate, Copper Sulphate.

Reporting in other matters, I have put on about (3, and ½) lbs of body weight, and this weight has made a large difference in my appearance, and thus my perceived status of enhanced health, and well being. My basic daily task pursuant to these matters is now trying to increase my body weight, and to increase my bodies fat content. Reporting on another matter, I also am proposing to see if I can successfully withdraw from (B Complex) supplementing. On still a different matter, there have been no further episodes of light-headedness, and now that I think of it, the banging pulse in my ears has disappeared for quite a while.

33.56

Date, Jan. 19, 2011,

New Problems, Treatment Protocols, Changes due to my Reaction of suspected Preformed Vitamin A, Palmitate, Liver Toxicity). I have started to feel a little discomfort activity in the area of my liver, and as a result of this I have to-day taken the decision to at least temporarily discontinue the taking of the small dosages of (A, cod liver oil). I will still continue to take extremely tiny dosages of (E) with most meals, and carefully monitor this situation of apparent liver toxicity. In the resent past it has been quite difficult, and tricky for me to treat myself with my Treatment Protocols because in actuality I have been treating two separate dysfunctions at the exact same time, one being the accumulated damage to my stomach, and Esophagus being one, and another being the treating of my digestion capabilities of fats problems.

It seems to me at this time that my stomach, and Esophagus have recovered to a point where for the most part that I can stop their specific treatment, and as a result I can now concentrate solely on the treatment, and consequences of my digestion of fats dysfunction including my low body weight. At this time I am adjusting my Protocols for treatment with each main meal as follows here now. Keeping in mind that now at this point in time, I am at a very advanced stage in the healing, recovery, and treatment of my overall disease processes, and condition, and therefore these new very low Protocol dosages of nutrients are being proposed because of my new status.

33.57

Current Experiment, Treatment Protocol, as currently amended with each meal, (Vitamin B12, 25 mcg), (Vitamin (E), 8 iu), (Water-Soluble D3, 400 iu). Plus my other sundry nutrients supplements that I take daily. Plus as much of the plant fats as I can eat, Example:, Roasted Peanuts, and Stuffed Olives. Plus Topical Medicine applications of (B Complex) as needed for stomach, and Esophagus. In addition the principal of the restriction of routine, and excessive intake of dietary sugar also is to be avoided.

33.58

Date, January 20, 2011.

Re evaluation, Current Strategy. I think that because my stomach, and Esophagus have reached this advanced status of healing, and function, and thus it would be reasonable for me to assume that my digestion capabilities have dramatically improved. It is now time that I reconsider all of my previously held understandings, and strategies held since my Stomach Collapse in 2004, regarding my (Alcohol Induced) Metabolic Fat Digestion Disorder Treatment Protocols. At this time one of my major concerns is that of my supplementation with (A, Cod Liver Oil), and its toxicity to my liver. The protection of my liver has for me over the many decades been an absolute priority, and as a result of this, I am very concerned with the feelings of some activity originating from my liver while I have been supplementing with even very tiny dosages of preformed Vitamin (A).

It appears to me at this time that because of the advanced status of the healing of my digestion system that I might be able from now onward to derive the desired benefit of preformed (A), from dietary sources of Beta Carotene, hopefully through the conversion process in my body instead of the direct dietary consuming of (A, Palmitate). In any event it looks to me as if this could be a promising possibility, and worth trying at this time as this might solve my toxic to liver concerns. I am further now encouraged in trying this new approach as it has seemed to me recently that I have developed a strong appetite, a craving for cabbage, and olives, and the like of such.

It has been one of my observations that since in the period of time that I refer to as "Stomach Collapse" in 2004, it seems to me that I was not able to derive these Beta Carotene benefits through my diet, including Vitamin supplementation, but now this seems as a possibility, we will see what happens next. My current revised Treatment Protocol in theses matters will now be with each meal, (25, mcg. B12), (500, iu. Water soluble D3), (10, Iu. (E)), restriction of excessive dietary sugar, plus a variety of routine secondary nutrition supplements. The use of B Complex will be administered if, and as needed as a topical stomach medication only. In addition I shall try to consume as much dietary plant fats as possible again with meals, and I continue in my efforts to increase my body weight, and also my bodies fat content.

33.59

Date, January 22, 2011.

Low Body Weight

In still another re evaluation of my low body weight issue I have made a decision for the time being, as long as I feel good, and reflect that status of health in how I physically look, I will be patient, and wait, and see what several months in time will bring in regards to my low body weight issues. I think that my tendencies for impatience must be tempered in this matter so as to prevent any unintended consequences due to any unwise or impulsive treatment actions on my part. See what comes with a couple months of time.

33.60

Date, January 24, 2011.

Hypothesis on Vitamin (D3)

It appears to me that for persons having my disease condition that of the several forms of (Vitamin D3) available, different forms of D3 act differently in my bodies' ability to efficiently absorb Vitamin (D3). The fat soluble D3 tablet appears to be the least efficient, followed by a much more efficient form, being a Water Soluble Emulsified version of D3, but I think that the most effective form of D3 for me is as a direct result of full sun exposure, when sun is available. I do not know for certain if enough D3 can be manufactured by full sun exposure by the person himself having my condition disorder, in which case the supplementing with a water-soluble source of D3 would be desirable, and appropriate.

33.61

Date, January 24, 2011

Over the last little while, and at this current time I have developed a very strong craving appetite for, Olives, Raw cabbage, and plant oil foods.

33.62

Date, January 25, 2011

For the past two days now I have with a great reluctance, totally suspended my supplementing with tiny controlled dosages of (A Cod Liver Oil), and (E), because of discomfort feelings, and activities in the areas of my kidneys, and my liver. The results of this suspension of (A), and (E) is that the feelings in the areas of my kidneys, and liver have essentially totally receded. In another current observation I seem to be slowly gaining badly needed body weight, and it appears to me that my personal appearance is normalizing, and this healthier mirror appearance is a good gage of what is really going on with me at this time.

33.63

Date, February 1, 2011.

Routine status.

My overall health is still improving in an overall way, and is excellent. I have eliminated, and I still eliminate the taking of even tiny amounts of (A), and (E) in order to prevent the slight pains in my liver, and kidney areas. I still have a very high intake of plant fats in my diet, and also a strong craving appetite for raw cabbage, olives, and roasted peanuts. I still apply my treatment Protocols with each meal, and my (B12) dosage is now 25 mcg with each meal along with (B Complex 10 mg), and (700 iu Water Soluble)(D3) with each meal, plus other sundry nutrients. I have started, and continue to put on badly needed body weight, and now my appearance is looking as normal. My net body weight now is 163-64 lb. My stomach, and Esophagus are doing spectacularly good, and I avoid as much sugar as possible in my daily diet.

33.65

Date, February 5, 2011

(D3), EXTRAORDINARY EXPERIMENT FINDINGS. Two days ago I started a new experiment to try, and see if since my spectacular discovery of Water Soluble D3 in July 2010 that any thing has changed. I wanted to see if I could now replace (water soluble D3) with the (fat soluble D3 pill). Because of my advanced status of the healing of my stomach, and Esophagus, I wanted to see if my previous poor inabilities to absorb the fat soluble D3 had changed. On the second day of this experiment I started to notice that my stomach, and Esophagus were starting to act up. What was the reason for this new setback complication of my stomach, and Esophagus, and at this time when my current digestion performance was stealer? This immediate setback was very puzzling to me. Several hours later the thought struck me that perhaps the reason for this digestion setback could be my experimental switch to the fat-soluble version of (D3). I immediately took 500 iu of a Water soluble D3, and virtually immediately this problem began to reverse. This experiment was conducted during the winter, and therefore without sun exposure.

(This is a Post Insertion from the future Dated July 1, 2011, I will find that there is a definite value for me in getting a lot of summer sunshine exposure but I am coming to the advanced conclusion that my best results will still be obtained from my taking of a Water Soluble Emulsified Vitamin D3, even under full sunshine circumstances).

This first finding buttresses my previously held very strong opinions as of July 2010, being that I have an absolute requirement for a daily (D3) supplement that is exclusively obtained from a (Water Soluble Emulsified D3) version instead of obtaining it from a Fat Soluble version of D3, plus all available sun exposure available to me. The second finding also buttressing this very strong previously held opinion, being that (D3) for me is absolutely essential for proper digestion of food, and it appears that this (D3) supplementing shall also be required during the summer sun period.

My experience in these matters is that (D3 is also absolutely essential for my digestion process, without my supplementing with water soluble D3, in particular, my digestion deficiencies would be impossible to effectively treat. (Water soluble emulsified D3) is, was, and remains an indispensable component in my Treatment Protocol along with (B12), (B Complex), and moderate dietary sugar intake, taken with, and at each main meal. Even though (A), and (E) is also required, I have found that they are far to toxic to my body if I take them as a supplement, so I now rely on my overall good diet, and my currently good stomach function to supply (A), and (E) to meet my bodies needs.

33.66

Date, February 16, 2011

Logging event, (Hypothesis).

Three days ago after not checking my weight for two days, I noticed that my body weight scale suddenly showed a weight lose of at least two full pounds which for me at this time is an enormous weight lose representing about half of my recent two months weight gains. My first thought was that something was wrong with my scale but on further investigation I found out that this weight had actually vanished. I immediately made a note of all my daily activities, circumstances, and diet over the preceding three days. In examining the possibilities responsible for this sudden weight lose, I came up with a plausible scenario, the Hypothesis of which follows here now.

(Hypothesis), Reasons for weight lose, discovered on Feb. 16, 2011. Here is a clarification of my extreme weight lose events. Even though my extreme weight lose events when occurring, during these periods is a very negative health issue in itself for me, but this weight lose is only a manifestation of an overall more serious problem, being the complete breakdown of a portion of my bodies metabolic function. Over the previous immediate several days before my noticed weight lose, I had cut out my large daily dietary consumption of roasted peanuts. During this same period I had cut out completely my daily dietary taking of (5 iu, of E), because even this very tiny daily dosage appeared to be toxic for me. Vitamin E, will apparently manifest itself as feelings of activities in my kidney, and my liver when I was taking this vitamin (E).

I decided to resume my dietary roasted peanuts, and also the (5 iu daily E), and within two days I had regained almost all the weight that I had just immediately lost. I am not absolutely certain that the deficiency of the tiny amount of (E) which I had eliminated being the cause of my immediate rapid recent weight lose, but I feel quite comfortable with this Hypothesis, and will study this event further as time progresses. In further explanation, when I first decided to introduce the roasted peanuts into my daily diet, my reason was to satisfy a primal craving that I developed for the peanuts plant fats. At that time I did not realize that these dietary peanuts were also a provider of vitamin (E) to my diet.

33.67

Date, February 17, 2011.

Flashing Lights

In a current recent observation three days ago during this weight lose blip of mine, coincidentally I started to see flashes of light to the extreme left of my left eye, this would happen when I suddenly moved my head in the dark This same light flashing condition existed for me up to about a year ago, and at that time in all it had existed for about one, and a half years in total, but for me it had never existed ever before. In the two recent evenings when this occurred it seemed to be triggered the both times when I drank a hot coffee after supper. It would vanish both times after a nights sleep, I do not know if it will reappear this evening.

33.68

Date, February 18, 2011

For me, Peanut Oil as a source of (E). In this current observation, in addition to my previous Treatment Protocol I have experimentally started to additionally use a dosage of (1. ml) of peanut cooking oil along with at other times whole roasted peanuts with each meal hoping to receive the benefits of vitamin (E) into my diet. After two days of this practice I have noticed that this potential method strategy of supplying (E) for my bodies needs seems to be working quite well from two perspectives. One perspective is by supplementing with peanut oil, this seems to have very little toxic negative side effects on me as compared to the supplementing from a (E) supplement.

The other perspective is one side effect that I am noticing when taking peanut oil is occurring, and lasting for a couple of hours after the taking of the peanut oil. After taking the peanut oil there is a feeling of activity around my eyes that feels like a little bit of sandy squinting in the area of my eyes, that is when the light flashes seem to occur. All of this occurs after a meal plus the Treatment Protocol plus the Peanut Oil. The other effect is that peanut oil appears to be working in the supplying of Vitamin (E) to my body.

(Several hours later on February 18, 2011), In my thinking that the effects of (E) derived from peanut oil on me would probably be benign effects, I have been exuberant in my taking of more peanut oil than I indicated that I would in this most recent experiment, as a result of this I feel an ache in the area of my liver/kidneys. I will try, and hold down my dosage, and see what happens as time progresses. Also in a routine note, I have just noticed a tingling sensation in the finger closest to my thumb on my left hand, it feels numb like as if asleep or poor circulation comes, and goes this may mean nothing. In still another observation, since I started with the peanut oil I seem to have lost my strong primal cravings for olives, and raw cabbage. My blood pressure right now at this moment is 124/75.

33.69

Date, February 20, 2011.

A Significant Serious Event Report, being the numbness of my Finger. In recent days I have noticed a tingling, and numbness in my finger next to my thumb on my left hand, and low intensity numbness in my both arms, and some low intensity numbness in my legs. I believe that I am required to deal with this event immediately, and decisively. My suspicion is that this numbness, and losing of feeling sensitivity, and sensitivity to hot, and cold, and others, may be due to the result of a toxic overload of some nutrient on my body.

I have decided immediately to stop taking as many of my supplements as I can including, (B complex), (Omega 3 Fish Oil), (Peanuts, and Peanut Oil), (All portions of my daily vitamins), but continue to only take (Water Soluble D3), and (B12), and (Calcium) with meals. An explanation of my present activity conduct in regards to (B, Complex), up to now my believing that the family of (B Vitamins) were totally benign in regards to toxicity, I have been taking (B Complex) in a cavalier routine manor along with its taking when needed Orally as a Medicine, with out any regards as to the total dosages being taken.

This numbness really surfaced in earnest when I additionally started utilizing Roasted Peanuts, and Peanut Oil into my diet without any regard to the vitamins, and dosages that they might contribute to my diet. In my looking for information on my numbness, the possibility of (B 6) being the culprit here is plausible because all my symptoms relating to this issue here now exactly mirror everything in detail, and without exceptions in the descriptions of (B 6) toxicity that I have read, but I do not know this for certain. I will continue my withdrawal from some of the supplements to purge myself clean, and see how things progress day by day.

33.70

Date, February 21, 2011.

Result, Nutrient Suasion Experiment. After 50 hours of stopping the above (B6) nutrients of February 20, 2011, it appears that my numbness has essentially completely retreated. However I now seem to have an instinctive primal feeling urge that I need to start taking (Omega 3 Fish Oil), and (Roasted Peanuts) again slowly, and cautiously, but I for the present time will not restart, and be taking of any (B Complex). I will now amend the content of my Treatment Protocol being, with each meal I will now take as follows here now, (B12, 25 mcg), (800 iu, Water Soluble D3), (10 Roasted Peanut halves, being 5 whole Peanuts, as I can not tolerate more), (Calcium), and (one only daily, Omega 3 Fish Oil capsule). This next period of time should be a period of intense experimentation on my part, involving the exact reasons for my numbness, and a possible replacement strategy for the control of my stomach health.

33.71

Date, February 22, 2011.

Curious Observation A.M.

Upon my awakening from sleep in the past two mornings I noticed that the veins on my hands were looking somewhat engorged. I immediately took a blood pressure reading on the first morning, immediately on awakening, the reading for me was elevated being 143/82 -78, after using the washroom, and within five minutes I took a second blood pressure reading, this reading being essentially my normal of 126/74 -74. On the second morning, and under exactly the same circumstances within five minutes the first readings were 147/86 -84, and the second immediate within five minutes the second reading was 124/75 -66, this reading of 124/75 -66 is in general my long term normal blood pressure reading. I do not know what to make of this event but I shall keep my eye on this situation.

33.72

Date, February 22, 2011.

Information Update.

My overall progress in these matters is still progressing; my primary objective at this period of time is to aggressively protect the healed status of my stomach, and Esophagus in order to prevent any possible regression backwards to a condition of an earlier poorer status. I still continue to embargo (B Complex) from my current diet Protocol because of my recent experience with numbness in my extremities, although there have been some small challenges in the implementing of this embargo of B Complex, but I have successfully managed to get around these challenges. My opinion, and commitment to (B Complex) has not changed at all, as (B Complex) has been indispensable in regards to the healing of my stomach, and Esophagus when nothing else would ever be able to accomplish that task. (B Complex) has been good friend for me, and an extremely effective friend, both as a nutrient, and Orally as a Medicine intervention agent.

A new problem that I am now recognizing in regards to nutrient supplementing is that of the potential of hidden overload due to commercial enrichment of foods, and other hidden sources of unidentified nutrients. My newly discovered wonder food for someone like me is Roasted Peanuts. I have found that Roasted Peanuts may be too good of a food for me as they have a great many nutrients that can contribute to a toxic overload for me, and so I have been required to force myself to strictly control the amount of Peanuts in my daily diet, but I shall certainly keep peanuts included in my diet if even in a subdued roll. My body weight has essentially stabilized, up one lb., and down one lb. to an average between net (162-63 naked) but the appearance of my face has started to greatly improve, and looks okay without that emaciated, starved look.

I have good stamina, good endurance, clear thinking, good appetite, regular Bowel activity, a stabilizing health status, a good daily blood pressure, and I am on no prescription medications, only on my self-prescribed nutrients in my Treatment Protocol. I still see a little bit of white light flashes to the left of the left side of my left eye when I quickly move my head from one side to another in a subdued light. My Treatment Protocol now at this time is as follows here with each meal, (25 mcg B12), (800 iu of a Water soluble D3), (5 Peanuts), (7 mg. B2, do no know why B2 for sure at this time), (moderate amount of omega 3 fish oils), and some other sundry routine nutrients.

33.73

Date, February 25, 2011.

Experiment (B Complex)

After my experiment of February 20, 2011, being my totally with drawl of the taking of (B Complex) for the period of five days in order to detoxify, and recover from the symptom of losing feelings in my extremities, to day I have decided to carefully restart my taking of (B Complex). Up until now I did not know for certain if I needed to supplement with (B Complex) for nutritional purposes along with my past use of it Orally as a Medicine for my stomach, and Esophagus. As a result of my recent five day total with drawl of (B Complex) experiment, I have found, and concluded that there is no doubt but that I absolutely require to supplement with (B Complex) daily, although with careful, and moderate dosages. Over the past five days without (B Complex), I have started to notice a great deal of freighting around the edges, in a matter of speaking. I have noticed that my blood pressure has slowly started to rise, my sleeping performance has started to deteriorate, I noticed that the veins on the back side of my hands seemed to be much more noticeable, and there were other subtleties that I started to notice, This I have concluded that for me, (B Complex) is still essential in my daily diet.

33.74

Date, March 8, 2011.

My Emerging Developing Hypotheses) on Dietary Fats. Due to the better control over my symptoms, I seem to be arriving at a new, and advanced status of health. It has now cautiously occurred to me that because of my currently achieved advanced health status involving better control over absorption of my dietary fats, apparently due to my ingesting of Vitamin (E) with each meal. Now new additional possibilities may be possible because of the (E) being derived from roasted peanuts in addition to my Treatment Protocol. I am cautiously suggesting that because I now appear to have a better control over my dietary fats, and this fact is being outwardly acknowledged by my vastly improved facial appearance, and stabilizing my increasing body weight, new advances in my metabolism abilities may now be possible. I am now hopping that it may be now becoming possible for my metabolism to more effectively deal with, and to metabolize the very difficult for me to metabolize vitamins (A), and (E), either or both sourced from both foods or supplementing, but extreme caution in regards to dosage will still be required by me in regards to these two vitamins.

It now appears to me that for me, Vitamin (E) must be present in my daily diet with each meal as it somehow facilitates, and controls my metabolic ability to absorb, and metabolize my dietary fats. I will now be required to identify as many of my dietary sources of Vitamin (E) as possible in order to prevent my unintended taking of the excessive Toxic dosage of (E), and (A), and also to make certain that I can identify most of my dietary sources of Vitamin (E), and (A) including hidden sources in order to get the amount of (E), and (A) that I intend to get with each meal.

For someone like me, I have at this time found that it is best to get my Vitamin (E) from food sources rather than from a supplement as the toxic dosage is the concern here. In my looking at the possible sources of (A), and (E) in my diet, I am suspecting that Olives, olive oil, and cow milk may contain sources of either or both (A), and (E). As a result of this thinking I will now try to temporarily eliminate this background source of (A) or (E), by eliminating olives, and cutting down on olive oils, and milk, and only use some small amount of roasted peanuts for a source of (E). The reason that I propose for this present action, is that I am trying to retain my fat metabolizing abilities while using (E) while at the same time trying to cut down on my suspected side effects due to (E), and (A), being the aching sensations around my mid Chapter on my right side, and to the back side of my body.

33.75

Date, March 11, 2011.

Peanuts, and Fat Metabolism

It appears to me in addition to my standard Treatment Protocol that for me the eating of a small amount of roasted peanuts with each meal is essential in that it seems to deliver to me enhanced fat metabolizing abilities at this time. I also find that I must be cautious, and not take to much roasted peanuts with each meal as toxic side effects can occur with peanuts. I suspect but do not know for certain if these toxic side effects are due to the vitamin (E) content in the peanuts or, and the (A) content of the olives, and milk. Further more in the reporting in a separate issue related to these matters, I have noticed for about two months now that I have lost my intense cravings for olives, and (raw cabbage coleslaw with olive oil) although I still eat them but now I do not hunt or insatiably crave them.

33.76

Date, March 15, 2011.

Liver discomfort/ weight lose.

My overall health pursuant to these matters is becoming excellent, and still improving. I have gained generally another two lbs, and I continue with my Treatment Protocol. I have now reduced my intake of (E) from all possible identifiable sources in order to minimize the aching that it causes around my liver area, and to the back on my livers side. It is now almost spring, and during the past two days I have managed to glean a small bit of sunshine exposure on my skin. Several hours after my first sun exposure I could notice what seemed to be a general further improvement in the area of my digestion, and overall good feelings. I am still deeply committed to both Sunshine exposure, and Water Soluble D3 as for me both sources seem to enhance each other in their effects when the sun is available to me.

33.77

Date, March 23, 2011

Vitamin E, Body Weight Gain?

This entry will involve a possible modification of my overall Treatment Protocol Strategy, depending on the results of some of my newly proposed experiments. The basic reason for this proposed modification of my Treatment Protocol Strategy is that I now strongly suspect that my supplementing with Vitamin (E), being obtained from various food sources is required by me in order for me to be able to gain badly needed body weight, and because of this apparent fact, there is a resulting apparent mild discomfort in the area of my liver, this discomfort being located on my right side, and towards my back. I consider this discomfort activity around my liver, and kidneys extremely unwise to allow it to continue or even become chronic. Through very intensive trials, and testing, I have found during this period in regards to my gaining of badly needed body weight, that in order for me to be able to gain any body weight at all, I am required to eat a small amount of Roasted Peanuts with each meal. This clearly has nothing to do with the extra calorie intake, as no matter how many calories I take in from whatever the sources, for me to put on a bit of weight the Roasted Peanuts must be present in my diet, and even in very tiny amounts there is a positive effect in this regards. I seem to require Vitamin (E) with each meal in order for me to gain body weight, but Vitamin (E) will among other things cause a discomfort in my liver area at this time, and so in response to that side effect I have now at this time been considering a COMPROMISE strategy in my Treatment Protocol. A compromise treatment strategy involving a possibility between a partial treatment, and complete treatment of my disease symptoms, a reference to some of the possible current factors impacting this treatment strategy compromise possibility are as listed here now.

Since I have been able to successfully tolerate, and live with my untreated disease symptoms for at least 35 years, it appears that if I were required to remove some treatment strategies from my Treatment Protocol, the results could probably only be nuisance symptoms, and not life threatening. Some possible additional metabolic changes may have occurred with my metabolism due to the geriatric factor of my advancing age of 70 years, and also possibility additionally due to the degeneration of my stomach, and Esophagus from my "stomach collapse" event in 2004. My proposed Treatment Protocol compromise will be as stated here now, however there will be no compromise possible in the, and protection of my Stomach or Esophagus, and the of my immune system, however with that proviso in mind, I will try to cut down on my intake of foods containing high sources of Vitamin (E), which may effect my weight gain issues, also would be included other sundry nutrients as I discover them throughout the passage of time. In order to positively effect the status of my liver, and kidney discomfort I am now prepared if required to accept for now some old, and new benign nuisance symptoms as a possible price of this new possible compromise of my Treatment Protocol..

33.79

Date, March 28, 2011

Update

The just recent experiment in eliminating of the vitamins, (Multi/mineral) (reducing (E) from oils), and (vitamin C), seems to have been successful in the reduction of my liver, and kidney discomfort. Furthermore it appears that I may have finally crossed a thresh hold in the matters of my body weight lose, and my body weight gain difficulties. Over the past 65 days I have been weighing myself with a digital scale every day at the same time, and exactly under the same conditions. During this 65-day period all my daily actions, and conduct have totally been concentrated on my trying to gain body weight. It was very discouraging for at least the first 30 days, and then it seemed that I was able to slowly start to gain a little body weight. After this I will now shift my focus away from exclusively my body weight gains, and let events look after themselves. Following here now is this 65 consecutive once a day record of my daily naked body weights beginning on January 12, 2011, to date.

(Jan11, 2011),

162.6/163.6/163.0/162.6/162.2/162.8/162.2/163.2/162.8/162.8/162.2/162.4/163.2/162.8/163.0/162.8/163.0/162.6/164.0/163.6/163.6/161.8/163.6/163.0/163.0163.4

(February 15, 2011),

161.8/162.8.162.6/162.8/161.6/161.6/161.8/163.0/162.6/161.6/161.8/162.2/162.2/161.6/161.2/161.8/160.8/160.8/162.0/162.0/162.2/163.6/161.8/164.4/164.2/163.8/164.4/165.0/163.4/163.8/163.0/164.0/161.4/163.2/163.8/164.4/164.0/(March 23, 2011), 165.2/165.0/165.2/165.6

It appears to me that Vitamin (E) is the primary factor allowing for my body weight gain. It also appears that for me that larger dietary dosages of (E) are toxic, and problematic for me but I seem to be able to manage, and achieve my desired required benefits from tiny dosages of (E) contained in Olives, Peanuts, and Olive Oil with each meal. At this time with each meal I take two peanuts only, or, and a little Olive Oil or Margarine, being careful not to take too much at each meal. Two things that I am totally committed to are Sunshine, and Peanuts that seem to have magical properties, and providing to me powerful benefits. At present I take with each meal (50 mcg., B12), (Water soluble D3), (15 mg. B Complex), (small dosage Olive oil, and Peanuts) plus other sundry nutrients.

33.80

Date, March 30, 2011

Water Emulsified D3, Produces immediate, and Spectacular Digestive Results. It appears to me that there may be a great deal of new positive health advances that have started to take place over the last two days involving my digestion pursuant to these matters herein. Some of the possible (Coincidences), and factors that I have identified, that may be encouraging these advances are as follows here now, I have started in a deliberate, and determined way over the past several days to provide Sunshine Exposure on my skin, in addition to my Water Soluble D3 supplementing. This newly apparent circumstance of the (Coincidence) of introducing this (new) Sunshine Exposure to my Treatment Protocol, and these apparent immediate positive benefits for me is very intriguing to me, as a similar occurrence occurred in my recent past, during July in the summer of 2010 at my first discovery, and use of Emulsified Water Soluble D3, but only in reverse.

It first occurred on my first discovery of Water Soluble D3, at a time when I was getting full summer sun exposure on my skin in July 2010, and then adding this Water Soluble D3 at that time to my Treatment Protocol, the procedure of the relationships between these two sources of D3 were totally reversed between the original observation experiment of July 2010, and this present current experiment.

In other matters, Peanuts, and Olive Oil are now a part of every meal, and I have increased my B12 dosage to 50 mcg. per meal, and (may still increase it further) with each meal. It may now be possible for me for the most part to be able to remove the (B Complex) Topical, and Nutritional supplementing from my Treatment Protocol. I will study this closely, and report further.

33.81

Date, March 31, 2011

Water Soluble Vitamin (D3)

It is appearing to me at the present time that by supplementing with both Sunshine, and Water Soluble D3, my digestion seems to have radically improved with no more mucus in my throat after eating. It also appears to me at this time that I can, and to test this I have for two days now eliminated my supplementing of, and also the topical use of (B Complex) without any negative penalty, but outside of this experiment I still intend to continue my (B Complex) use but perhaps with a more conservative smaller dosage. On another issue, I am no longer single-minded on my body weight gain issue, and essentially watching to see what happens as time progresses. I still feel at this time an itchy type of feeling on my right side in the area of my liver, and this exact same condition was observed previously occurring in 1982, according to a notation that I recently found in my "Historic Journal", Dated January 10, 1982.

33.82

Date, April 1, 2011

Significant new findings, and conclusions regarding Vitamin D3. I have newly concluded due to my long experience, and experimentation with Vitamin D3 that for a person with my disease disorder, the supplementing with the Vitamin D3 is even more crucial than my previously held conclusion of very high importance that I have attributed to D3 in the past. I have come to this new understand that for my disease disorder, not only is my supplementing with the water sourced D3 absolutely essential, but I now understand that for my disorder, Vitamin D3 is far more essential for me, in that it is apparently required to be present in my body in the adequate amount for my proper bodily function, regardless of dosages taken or how much D3 I take from various sources, but the only success objective is, have I absorbed sufficient D3 for my bodies digestion function needs. Vitamin D3 for me is absolutely critical along with Vitamin B12 in allowing for my correct digestion of food, and stomach/Esophagus healthy function.

I have now actually raised the importance of D3 to be of equal importance with B12. This importance of D3 in regards to digestion is not being over stated here, due to my type of Patient chronic incompetent fat digestion abilities. This degree, and depth of D3 chronic deficit will not normally be found in the general public, and hence this association of D3, and Digestion Health will not be commonly normally recognized or known. For a person with my chronic Metabolic Fat Digestion Disorder, in order to obtain adequate levels of D3 to be present in my body is extremely difficult to accomplish. Once adequate levels of D3 in my body have successfully been accomplished, and maintained, the corresponding stellar positive benefits that will be provided to my digestive function is staggering, and unbelievable, but this experience is the experience, and is therefore indisputable for me.

33.83

Date, April 4, 2011

My Current Thinking, Preliminary Components, New Supposition Formation. My current thinking in regards to the significant connections between my alcohol induced metabolic fat digestion disorder, and the Vitamin (E), is due to my study of, and my advancing knowledge, and experience in this apparent relationship. Because of my findings of the successful relationship between Vitamin (E), and my body weight gain, I am now thinking that vitamin (E) is the key crucial vitamin required at all stages of this disease process in a person such as myself. I have found in my experiments that even though Vitamin (E) is extremely toxic to me, it also appears to be vitally necessary for my successful digestion process, as without (E) it is not possible for me to gain badly needed body weight. This question of (E) toxicity to me, and of its requirement for me has been very difficult for me to solve.

However I have apparently solved this toxicity problem with Roasted Peanuts, by taking two Roasted Peanuts, and sometimes three with each meal. By taking this low dose of roasted Peanuts in this manor, the Peanuts will deliver to me both Plant Fats, and a small dosage of Vitamin (E), which has worked very well for me in allowing my body to gain body weight, and overall vitality, and without the toxic side effects of (E), if the Peanut dosage is carefully kept very low, and therefore from my experience it appears that a very low dosage of (E) will do the required job. This has now led my thinking to some additional possibilities involving Vitamin (E) such as follows here now.

It now appears to me that either I do not have the ability to store Vitamin (E) in my body or if I can store it that it is possible my body cannot retrieve it when required. I am thinking now that because of my Vitamin (E) deficiency that this may be a key vitamin deficiency reason for my chronic deficiencies of the other fat-soluble vitamins (A), and (D3). I am also thinking wondering if it may be possible that by me taking small dosages of (E) byway of Peanuts with each meal that this intern may help facilitate my normal absorption of the other fat soluble vitamins (A), and (D3). It may be plausible that for a person with my Metabolic Fat Digestion Disorder, that from the earliest recognized stages of this disease, and thorough out this disease, a cautious supplementing with Roasted Peanuts in order to acquire Vitamin (E), Fats, and Vitamin (B12) are key essentials along with (B Complex), and secondary other supporting nutrients.

33.88

Date April 10, 2011

Description, and Circumstances of Dietary Disease Relapse, currently occurring. This gross failure of my bodies health status will usually occur during the period in time when I misjudge my dietary conduct through the use of too much sugar or too much starchy simple carbohydrates or with incompatible combinations of food or through the failure of one of my experiments in my trying to expand my boundaries, and understandings of my disease. Some of the following shall occur under these circumstances being, my blood pressure will always elevate at least 15 points, and higher, my eyes will be on the blurry side, my eyes, and my facial appearance will look terrible to others, my eyes will feel sandy, my eyes clarity of vision will diminish, I will start to lose body weight very quickly, and I will feel that there is something very wrong with me. When this metabolic failure condition occurs, I must take the correct immediate, and decisive remedial dietary actions or my personal health status will spiral downward extremely quickly, and seriously.

33.89

Date, April 18, 2011

Update of Events, and Status. Overall I am doing quite well, my stomach, and Esophagus has appeared to reach a still higher degree of stability although still quite fragile. I have three days ago discovered by accident that by my taking of a careful very tiny dosage of a blended curry powder, that it appears to help in the overall improvement of my stomach, and Esophagus, which at this time is allowing me to cut back my dosages of (B Complex), and (B12). I have decided to experiment the use of this Curry Powder as an oral Medicine in the same manor, and purpose as I now use (B Complex). This use of curry powder by me would have been foolhardy, and would not have been possible over the past seven years, and possibly before that, during the degraded function status period of my stomach, and Esophagus, but now if I am careful it my be possible.

I have now found, and I fully understand for certain that regardless of how well I feel or how well I am doing at any particular time, I will be forever locked into my mandatory daily dietary balancing in the using my dietary intake rules to control my sugar, and simple carbohydrate intake. This balancing can be tricky even for me, because when I am in a current status of successful proper control, and feeling excellent, sugar, and simple carbohydrates seem to be of an irrelevant nature, and it is easy for me to misjudge at those times, and slip back. Also in order for me to keep learning, and to increase my understandings of this disease, I understand that I must continuously try to expand my current boundaries of understandings, by my willingness to take some risks which can often also cause me to slip backwards.

The very first signs, and indicators that I have started this slipping backwards are my eyes; my vision becomes blurry, and poor. In order to effectively deal with this situation, I immediately must take the action of stricter sugar, and carbohydrate intake controls, and I must increase the protein, and animal fat content in my diet, until my vision improved, while still continuing the supplementing with my Protocol of Treatment for metabolic digestion purposes. If I do not take these quick, and decisive corrective actions at these first early signs of my vision deterioration, then my weight lose will start, and my immune function will start to deteriorate.

33.91

Date, April 23, 2011

Managing Liver Discomfort. The early results of my latest experiment in regards to the eating of Roasted Peanuts between meals, and on an empty stomach is that no Liver discomfort has since occurred as a result of eating those Peanuts in that manor. I have also found that at this particular time in the management of this disease, that in regards to the makeup of my optimal meal, the meal that solely contains Carbohydrates should always be avoided where possible as this will cause Liver discomfort, instead the optimal architecture of the meal or snack shall contain a balance between PROTEIN, and CARBOHYDRATES in addition to my current Treatment Protocol, which appears to be much friendlier to my liver.

33.93

Date, May 1, 2011

Seven Year Barrier to improvement. Reflections, and Puzzlements of the seven-years Barrier to Improvement.

The puzzlement in question is, why was it impossible for me to recover to my previous health status that I had previously enjoyed prior to this event, being that of My "Stomach Collapse" in 2004, even though that previous health status was far from optimal. In my pondering of this question, the most likely answer was easily to arrive at, as all of the required information was available to me, but not obvious for a long time.

My situation after this "Stomach Collapse" in 2004 was that my stomach, and Esophagus had been badly degraded in that it was very difficult, impossible to eat, and digest what I wanted, and my stomach looked as if I had a basketball in it, even though I was very skinny. My Esophagus would burn like fire about ten minutes after eating, and no amount of antacids could put out that fire for about eight minutes.

My throat was swollen narrow, and I would have trouble swallowing, and there was always mucus in my throat after eating. My Esophagus was always raw, and uncomfortable thorough each day, but would slightly heal overnight, and then everything would repeat, day after day after year. In my recollections it recollect that in this type of circumstances I started to favor carbohydrates as the main component of many of my meals as the carbohydrates promoted less Esophagus discomfort by being the easiest for me to digest. During this seven-year period to the present time it was impossible for me to make any real headway backwards to a previously more stable health status, just plainly impossible. My newly developed Treatment Protocol was virtually lifesaving for me in theses matters but without diminishing or in any way discounting the contributions of my Treatment Protocol; it is not the specific issue that I am reporting on in this particular entry. What I am reporting on is the action that I recently recognized in allowing me to break through this previously impossible seven years barrier, thus allowing me to generally further stabilize my health.

It started after I realized that my stomach, and Esophagus had healed sufficiently so as to allow me to more regularly eat a balanced diet containing animal protein, animal fats, and carbohydrates. I then made a conscious decision to require as mandatory that my every meal was to be composed of this balance of animal protein, and carbohydrates. This Animal Protein, and Carbohydrate balanced in my every meal along with my Treatment Protocol, appears now to be very effective in my overall stabilizing of my health status, this factor may be my final major key of solution?

After about a week in time of complying with this Animal Protein, Fat, and Carbohydrate diet at each meal, my liver is happier, and without symptoms of distress, and my eyes are normally clear, and without symptoms but I seem to have lost about two pounds of weight during this week (to 161.2 Lbs. naked), but my face appearance looks good, and I am feeling good. This two pounds of weight for me is a huge amount of weight for me to lose, but there can be many temporary reasons, and factors for this weight lose.

I will keep a close eye on my weight, but overall I am doing quite well as measured by my clear eyes, my good appearance, my liver without symptoms, and my overall good feeling. For over many past years going back to my earliest days of this disease I had recognized that when I had misjudged my diet, and my eyes were blurry, and I would be more frequently urinating, at those times I was required to immediately cut out all sugar from my diet, and start to eat animal protein, fats, and carbohydrates in order to recover to an immediate more stable status. What I have discovered here in this most resent entry experiment, and that I now formally realize, is that it appears to be mandatory for me because of my disease condition, that every optimal meal shall contain a balance of Animal Protein, Fats, and Carbohydrates. It now appears to me that animal proteins, and carbohydrates combined are easier on my Liver, while Carbohydrates alone are difficult for my Liver. It also appears to me that because of these more friendly interactions with my Liver of the meals balanced with Animal Proteins, and Carbohydrates, and not forgetting my Treatment Protocol, my overall body function, assorted symptoms, and outward appearances appears to be quickly, and dramatically normalizing. These findings will now be formally enshrined in, and as part of my Treatment Protocol.

33.95

Date, May 14, 2011

Update

My present overall health status is getting constantly better overall but with some setbacks. Generally at the present time my weight is stable, and in my normal range of 161-164 lbs naked. My eyes are clear, before I eat, and after I have eaten, and my appearance looks good. My liver, and kidneys are normally quiet of any activity but only if I stay on my strict diet of a balance of animal protein, fats, and carbohydrates at each meal, and if I strictly control my intake of precious vitamins (A, and E).

Because I desperately require the vitamins (A, and E) in my body, and paradoxically because they are so very toxic to me, this has proven to be a monumental problem for me. In experimenting with (A, and E), I have found that if I take more than one small drop a day by piercing the capsule of (A, Palmitate from Cod Liver Oil), my kidneys, and liver start to acquire a low grade of discomfort, and (E) produces a similar situation.

One of my foremost challenges at this time is the maintaining of my body weight, and protecting, and enhancing my bodies skin immunity against opportunist skin infections (A, and E) are my difficult partners in this objective. In this matter of vitamin (A), I will vigorously continue in my daily efforts in safely trying to get sufficient vitamin (A) into my body without further traumatizing my kidneys, and liver. My stomach, and Esophagus still continue to improve, and are now extremely good, and I still apply my Treatment Protocol at each meal.

The overall great golden rule that I must follow at every meal is, very little if any sugar, a mandatory balance of animal protein, and fats along with some carbohydrates but never carbohydrates by them selves or within two weeks of the failure to comply with this golden rule, my liver will ache, my eyes will be glassy before, and after eating, and I will be losing a great deal of body weight, and I will become highly susceptible to skin infections.

33.109

Date, July 19, 2011.

Reporting of a Severe Anomaly Event, being Severe Breast Plate Bone Discomfort, and Rigidity extending into the neck, and the right side of skull. *This note of clarification inserted from the future, (Enzymes use by me, being irrelevant and counter productive, and are to be totally avoided).

This future insertion Date, June 2013. There shall arrive another similar event of potent body rigidity being associated with a similar high amount of Sunshine skin exposure, occurring at text position 33.215-D, herein these writings, which may amplify understandings of what actually has happened in this account record of this event of rigidity.) This entry is to be viewed solely by itself, as this Entry is my reporting of, and the circumstances surrounding a significant, intense, and worrisome Anomaly Event, and will include my efforts in discovering what exactly has begun to happen to me over the past two days, and the reasons for its occurrence.

The occurrence of this event at this time is the mystery here, and not My Metabolic Fat Digestion Disorders response to my Vitamin D3 Deficiency here. The occurrence of this dramatic, and worrisome anomaly event at this time is a complete mystery to me, and absolutely not to be expected at this time, and at my advanced recovery status of health, and so my initial action here will be to describe this anomaly, and all of the possible recognizable circumstances surrounding its occurrence. This sudden worrisome intense anomaly event of bone tenderness, discomfort, rigidity, and pain, first occurred unexpectedly, and completely out of its expected character, two evenings ago after eating an evening snack.

The first occurrence was very concerning to me as there were a lot of suggestion in my symptoms of the mimicking involving my heart, but because I believe that my heart is in an excellent condition, I was willing to forgive this first occurrence as unexplained, but because there was a second occurrence the very next day, and under the similar circumstances, the exact reason for the occurrence of this intense anomaly must now be understood by me, and corrected. Before the occurrence of this unexpected anomaly my health circumstances were becoming optimal, and excellent, pursuant to these matters herein, Description of this Anomaly.

Both days in a row this intense anomaly occurred with intensity that I have never experienced before, occurring about two hours before my going to bed, shortly after eating my last snack meal of the day. I seemed to get a very pronounced, and uncomfortable intense feelings of rigidity, tenderness, and stiffness in my upper trunk of my body which seemed to involve my both Breast Plates above my Sternum, and my Sternum to my neck area, and seemed to extend even further upwards to the inside structure in my throat, and my jaw, and into my right side of my skull close to my ear area. This intense uncomfortable stiffness was actually painful to some degree, in that when it was occurring, this anomaly made it difficult for me to concentrate on anything else.

This anomaly would make sleeping difficult, and would continue thorough out the night, and would be still present in the morning, but would be much lese intense, and would greatly diminish after eating breakfast, and my applications of my Treatment Protocol. Conditions, and circumstances surrounding the occurrence of this Anomaly being spoken of here now, is, in that the last three days it has been very hot, and humid, and I have been staying inside, and out of the sun. Another condition is that I do not normally apply my complete Treatment Protocol at my last small meal before bedtime, by usually eliminating at this snack, the Water Soluble D3, a portion of a Multivitamin, small dosage of Palmitate, and Vitamin (C). Probing for possible answer to Anomaly.

An opportunity to probe for one of my suspicions of a possible answer appeared during the middle of the day during the second Anomaly. That day was cooler with bright sunshine, and so with this tightness still in my breast plates I took about a half hour of strong sun on my skin, and in addition I took a great deal of extra Vitamin D3 from several different water soluble sources. This will end this session of my reporting on this serious, and especially very unusual Anomaly occurrence at this sunny time of the year without the drawing of any conclusions at this time. It is obvious that my suspicion is directed at Vitamin D3 deficiency as the possible culprit here, but if so then why now, and how now?

33.110

Date, July 20, 2011. Updating experimenting understandings of recent Anomaly occurrence. It appears that my suspicion as to the involvement, and cause of this recent intense Anomaly Event was absolutely correct, in that I isolated that its cause was in fact my degraded deficiency of Vitamin D3. This re-revelation of Vitamin D3 Deficiency was very surprising to me at this time in that I have known of this deficiency since "My Epiphany" in 2009, and believed that I had this deficiency well under control. There is also the past documenting in these Papers herein of my discovery of the vital roll that Vitamin D3 seems to plays in my digestion chemistry. Because of these facts, I have been daily supplementing with a water soluble source of Vitamin D3, without exceptions, and also because this period is in high summer, I am puzzled as to how I could have receded so far backwards into an apparent deep deficiency of Vitamin D3.

Because of my suspicion that somehow D3 could be involved here, yesterday I took a good deal of sun exposure on a large part of my body, and I also took extra large dosages of water sourced Vitamin D3. This action cleared up this serious, and very pronounced Anomaly almost immediately, and by the next day being to day, this Anomaly being overall Bone discomfort, Stiffness, Rigidity, Pain, Interference with full breathing of a large part of the bone structure of my upper body, which included my Sternum, my both Breast Plates bones, and my Jaw bone area, and is completely gone.

This overall occurrence of this event Anomaly is truly puzzling to me as at this period in time, my Metabolic digestion health has reached a new high plateau status, but perhaps in retrospect I did not fully recognize a small clue, being a predictor of this Anomaly event, being that in the last three weeks I have been noticing a stiffness in my toes after driving my car, and then walking which I took note of as this was puzzling to me.

This stiffness of my toes was in itself a notable event, as it should not have existed at this time of the year, and under the circumstances of my treatment with Vitamin D3 of this exact matter. The exact reasons for the occurrence at this time of my deficit condition of Vitamin D3 remains a mystery to me. Perhaps it is due to a defective Vitamin D3 product or a misjudgment on my part or perhaps due to this (well known to me), this Diseases apparent predisposition to appear to apparently mount an adversarial response to any treatment of another symptom of this disease. Simply put I have found that if any symptom is treated then because of interactions between different symptoms of this disease, the symptom profiles of the differing symptoms can be shifted to a slightly different profile, because of the fact that only the symptom is being treated, and not the underlying disease that is creating the symptom.

33.111

Date, July 21, 2011.

*Correction , Previously Reported Anomaly event, Chest Bone, and Jaw Pain. My concerns are rising; circumstances are not as good as previously reported by me in regards to this most resent Anomaly Event of Breast Plate Bone, and Jawbone pain, and rigidity.

Yesterday after taking a good exposure of sunshine, my chest rigidity seemed to clear up after a couple of hours or so. During that same day I took a great deal more oral Vitamin D3, perhaps 4000 to 5000 iu. This was clearly too much for me as I could feel that I was carrying a toxic load, and my throat became raw, and soar feeling for the remainder of the day, which resembled a virus throat.

My breastplate bones remained relevantly improved of stiffness, rigidity, and pain for the remainder of the evening, and over night. During the night however from the first moment of my laying down, I could feel that all was not as right as I had earlier believed. I found that by far I had the most difficulty laying on my right side as this would create a lot of feelings of a pressure in my chest upon my breathing, on my jaw bone, inside my neck, and in my skull on the right side.

The best position that I found was on my back, and the next best position was on my left side, which did not seem to create the same pressures on my jaw, neck, and skull. In a little experiment by lunchtime today, I had taken some extra (B Complex) which seemed to significantly help overall. Over the past several weeks I had greatly scaled back my use of (B Complex) as my Stomach, and Esophagus had improved so much. At noon this day after eating a small lunch I decided on a new experiment involving a previously effective but suspicious agent, I decided to entirely stop my usage of any quantity of Digestion Enzymes, and the to see what occurred over a 24 hour cycle.

33.113

Date, Aug. 8, 2011.

Hemorrhoids, New inclusion into this Document, of a previously irrelevant chronic factor. I have now decided to include this following packet of information that I previously considered as being irrelevant, and not being material to this Paper.

Because of new current findings, this factor now in effect has become very relevant in its own way as is described here now. One day when I was about 14 years old, I experienced a stomach upset after eating lunch at school which resulted in an experience of explosive intense cramps, and diarrhea, which for some silly, to this day, unexplainable reason, I painfully for some unexplainable reason refused to use the available toilet at hand, and struggled to hold back this diarrhea, and I did so for about four hours.

When I reached home four hours later, the toilet was heavily blood red with blood. From that silly adolescent experience of holding back that explosive session of diarrhea, the heavy bleeding hemorrhoids that were developed at that time would continue chronically, and unabated for the next 55 years of my life. The kind of continuous, and very heavy bleeding involved with these hemorrhoids would be difficult for ordinary person reading this to contemplate or to understand, but the constant discomfort, and the oceans of blood was something that became a part of my every day life, and a normal indivisible part of me. The swelling or the bleeding, this blood could be either a very dark red or a bright red, depending, and was my daily condition for the 55 years in question here.

From the start of these hemorrhoids at my age 14 to my mid 20s, this bleeding was quite heavy. From my mid 20s when I was starting to use alcohol heavily, to several years time prior to my stopping the drinking of alcohol time, this swelling, and bleeding continued with the same strong intensity. From the time period starting just prior several years before I stopped drinking, my hemorrhoids became intensely worst with very heavy, and constant bleeding.

From the time that I stopped drinking to the current period of 2009, "My Epiphany" these painful bleeding hemorrhoids continued as less intense but still very potent, present, and chronic. Here now becomes the relevance of this entry as shall follow here now. It appears to me that due to my successful treatment of my Metabolic Fat Digestion Disorder with my Treatment Protocol described herein this document, as of middle, 2011, it appears to me that for the first time in 55 years, my hemorrhoids have seemed to vanish along with the swelling, the bleeding, and the discomfort after a Bowel movement.

This normal functioning of my Bowel elimination process is truly miraculous to me. For the past 55 years I required a recovery period after a normal Bowel movement, which normally would involve the keeping off of my feet for several hours to sometimes most of the day. Obviously my new digestion competence is in a great part involved in this great event, but other conclusions of explanations also may be possible here, as these hemorrhoids continued chronically, many years previous to my alcohol history, and in my entire history with these hemorrhoids, these hemorrhoids were consistent, persistent, incurable, and chronic, with never a period of time without them in the entire 55 years.

The only plausible explanation here must be that even though these hemorrhoids were pre existing my heavy alcohol usage by about a decade, that if it were not for the consequence of the arrival of my Metabolic Digestion Dysfunction, these hemorrhoids probability would have eventually healed, but because of my acquired digestion dysfunction, these hemorrhoids would not be allowed to heal. However once my Treatment Protocol had produced a normalizing of my metabolic digestion process, this subsequent healing of these hemorrhoids became possible. The perplexing, and unanswerable Question

It now appeared to me that my heavy drinking had, and was exacerbating my existing hemorrhoids problems, and it also appears to me that my successful treatment of my Digestion Dysfunction with my Treatment Protocol has miraculously eliminated this chronic, and consistent hemorrhoid problem after 55 years. However there still remains a very large inconsistency, and unanswerable puzzling question involving the reason, conducts, and time lines of the beginnings, and endings of my lifetime of hemorrhoids.

This inconsistency involves the period from my initial contracting of the hemorrhoids around 1955 to the time when my alcohol exposure started. When I first contracted this hemorrhoid condition around 1955, right from its start around 1955, and through the next 20 years, this hemorrhoid problem condition being consistently chronic, and very sever, and during the time when there was no exposure to any alcohol activity on my part.

My hemorrhoids condition continued very severely throughout my alcoholic period, and continued thorough my life in its most sever form, until the later stages of the application of my Treatment Protocol in 2010/2011, when they for the first time in 55 years seemed to miraculously vanish. I am not able to advance a complete credible hypotheses for this contradiction of circumstance, only a partial hypotheses, being the improvement in my Bowel function health being due to the replacement of chronic nutrient deficiencies, these nutrient deficiencies which were due to my altered metabolic digestion dysfunction, which I believe is very accurate. However there is no explanation for that initial period in time of approx. 20 years duration when there was no exposure to alcohol, and my metabolic digestion function was normal as my metabolic digestion dysfunction did not yet exist, and still these hemorrhoids were severe, and relentless.

33.114

Date, Aug. 14, 2011

I suspect an additional Factor, in the Category of my Nutrition. I have been strongly suspecting for some time now, but I have no way at this time of knowing for certain if my suspicions regarding the beneficial importance to me of my inclusion of a portion of a multi-vitamin-mineral supplement at each main meal are correct or not. It appeared to me for certain that in, and during my recent past, that the inclusion of this nutritional multi vitamin package in my diet was considered by me as being in the second tier of hierarchy, and if applied without or before the first tier nutrients were successfully applied, would produce no noticeable or detectable benefit to me.

The one interesting element that I now suspect in relation to the obtaining of desirable benefits in regards to this supplement is a matter of supplementing hierarchy. I suspect that my supplementing with this second tier Multi Vitamin Combination can be effective, and of significant benefit for me, but only if to be taken after my full, and successful implementation of what I refer to as my first tier of supplements.

These first tier of supplements, being (A), (E), (D3), and (B 12), and are required to be taken in sufficient, and in stand alone quantities, being large enough to impact my chronic deficiencies, but at the same time carefully not producing Toxicity. If there were positive effects in my past for me when taking theses multi vitamins by different methods, I had no recognition at all of those benefits, however when taken as a second tier of supplement as described above, I have a strong suspicion of significant benefit to me.

33.115

Date, Aug. 15, 2011

Experiment – Efficacy, Vitamin (D3). This is an entry regarding the preliminary outcomes regarding my experiment involving the effectiveness of different sourcing types of the Vitamin (D3). Because of the elevated status, and stability of my current health, I was not afraid to retest the efficacy of benefits to me from different sources of Vitamin (D3). In this test that lasted about one month, during which time I was still getting good sun exposure on my skin, I only changed one thing in my daily Treatment Protocol, being the source of the Vitamin (D3) that I was taking. In this new test I switched to taking Vitamin (D3) in a total daily dosage of at least 2000 iu., daily predominately from a fat soluble source, and in, and by the same method as before this test.

After about three weeks I could clearly observe as follows here now. My Breast Bone was becoming tender with stiffness around this area, my toes on my feet were starting the first stages of rigidity, and my full right leg was becoming painful on flexing when walking. Immediately upon this recognition, I switched back to a Water Soluble Emulsified source of Vitamin (D3), which seems to be producing positive results after only 12 hours. I will further report on these results when the outcome is known.

33.116

Date, Aug. 17, 2011

Up Date, Vitamin (D3)

After a couple of days of retaking Vitamin (D3), solely in the Water Soluble Emulsified form of (D3), along with a good deal of sun exposure on my skin daily, I am observing the following positive results along with no perceived negative results. Over the past several days I have been taking (1000, iu. of Water Emulsified D3) with each of three meals daily, a daily total of 3000 iu. of this form of D3. My observations about this experimental action are as follows here now.

The tenderness, and the stiffness of my Sternum has appeared to subside. My sleep is much stronger. The pain, and stiffness in my right leg has subsided. My process of digestion function stability seems to be improved, and the beginnings of the stiffness in my toes have subsided. I will continue with this present dosage of, and Water type of (D3) for a little while, and then re evaluate the dosage. It appears to me that there is no doubt that my original suspicions were correct in regards to my requiring a Water Soluble Emulsified version of Vitamin (D3), and that the Fat Soluble version of (D3) is essentially of little nutritional value to my bodies needs. Soon I also will be experimenting with new (D3) dosages for use during the sunless winter months.

33.117

Date, Aug. 23, 2011
Current Updates Status.

It appears that in regards to Vitamin D3, (300 iu) appears to be to large of a daily dosage, especially when sun exposure is still available to me. I have reduced my daily dosage at this time to about (1500 iu) of Water-soluble emulsified D3. However, just recently I decided that I must increase my (B12) daily total to 500 mcg. for the time being. This appears to have been a good decision, in that I feel more vital, and my frequency of urinating is more stable, this will be my routine new dosage of (B12). My weight remains stable as long as I work on maintaining it daily. My weight has been ranging daily at about 161.5 lb. upon awakening in the morning to approx. 163.5 lbs. naked weight by evening. My blood pressure is stable, and stays in the range of 124/75.

I have a long-standing habit of water consumption before bedtime, but during this period it is not actually required by me, just a habit, and comfort. My sleep pattern is quite good, and I urinate 2-3 times nightly, which is historically normal for me, and this does not bother me, and will not effect my sleeping. My urine stream flow is always strong, and unhindered as it always has been. My Esophagus has greatly healed, and the mucus forming in my throat is no longer any problem. I daily apply my Treatment Protocol without exceptions. My eyes are mostly always excellent now; this was not the case for the 35 years in question here. This eye, and skin improvement I attribute to my taking of tiny dosages of Palmitate with each meal, being very careful because of its Toxicity to me, and my taking of sufficient D3, solves my tender stiff Sternum condition.

Note: The validity status of the conclusions or observations that appear in this journal, which have not in later entries been expressly abrogated, withdrawn, modified or corrected, remain valid as intended, as stated, and when stated. For the record I take no prescribed medications, and I have past my 70th. Birth Date

33.118

Date, Sept. 5, 2011.

Medically isolated

In the midst of the modern advanced medical community, I am still without access to treatment of any kind pursuant to these specific matters, and I am still SHAMEFULLY Forced to Practice Medicine on My Self. Take note that because of my un diagnosed, and untreated 35 year Disease Condition, all references in this journal to my required treatment required to repair, stabilize, and heal my accumulated damages, might have been very different, if my disease condition had been appropriately dealt with early on in my disease process, and not allowed to fester for 35 years. I still totally respect, and value the Physicians medical training, judgment, competence, and commitment to their patients, however if the Physician shall not address my medical concerns, it would not be appropriate for me to attempt to direct my Physician in the method by which the Physician shall conduct their medical practice.

I know for certain due to my originating disease that was caused by excessive alcohol consumption many decades ago, that I had then, and still I still have now, deep, and chronic deficiencies of the critically important Fat Soluble Vitamins, especially (A), (D3), (E), (K), and deficiency of the water soluble (B12), these chronic deficiencies of nutrients being without identity or treatment of any kind, further spawning new disease conditions. In part these newly spawned disease conditions being Skeleton Rigidity, Digestion Dysfunction, Dysfunction, Esophagus Erosion, Skin Infections, and Eyes Problems, being only some. These secondary spawned disease conditions were consistent, continuous, and chronic over the entire thirty-five years to date. Because no identity or medical treatment of any kind has ever been made available to me over the thirty-five years in question in this master, I was forced, and required to practice medicine on myself, and to engage in exploratory experimenting of my disease condition.

My resulting findings, and understandings of my disease condition are nothing less than positive, and spectacular, in that my application of my findings, and understandings in my overall treatment has effectively rolled back, and eliminated all of my original diseases spawned disease conditions. It is however probably the case that my kind of deficiencies of these vital critical vitamins are most likely never seen in the advanced countries of the world, and hence never seen in individual medical practices.

However as in my specific case circumstances, even with my specific prodding of my Physician, and along with my indisputable findings, and understandings that Physicians blindly disregard, it appears that Physicians are oblivious to this entire category of medicine, including this entire matter herein this journal, even though my disease condition must surly fall completely within the scopes of modern medical general practices. It still boggles my mind to think that my Physician could be completely oblivious, and dismissive of my complaint in these regards.

Truly my disease is medical disease, and if the causes of my medical disease are not willingly addressed than my resultant disease conditions, and symptoms shall continue as totally non addressed. It is perhaps a travesty of overall medical responsibility that my disease condition must be considered by the medical community at large as being outside of Physicians medical scopes of practices, in that my disease condition is probably not taught to them as part of their training in medical training schools, and also

Physicians do not appear to possess the skills required to act larger in their profession duties than their training have provided for. As a result of this rigidity, and indifference of medical practice, and the curriculum of medical training schools, my experience in these matters over the past 35 years remain unchanged for me, and I am still shamefully forced as my only resort, to continue forward on my own to personally practice medicine on my self, truly a shame.

33.119

Date, Sept. 5, 2011.

My purchase of a Blood Glucose meter took twenty-eight years for me to achieve. It is presently still my experience in these matters of my overall disease condition, that Physicians still do not know of or have any real comprehension of my overall disease condition. Because of my present advanced understandings of my disease condition, September 2, 2011, is the date of a long belated accomplishment, this effort first began in approx. November 10, 1983, which is fully explained, and documented earlier on in this journal at mark >2., as a Historic reference, bearing that date. At that time in my desperate history, my efforts to purchase this glucose device was a Herculean task that ended in total failure, but this meter that I just purchased was as easy to purchase as a purchase of a stick of chewing gum, what a difference a few decades can make. The reasons for this device purchase are exactly the same as they were so long ago. With this meter at this time in my disease history, I will be using as a tool in my future experiments.

I am hopping to further improve my present self-taught excellent, and detailed understandings of my disease condition. I intend to use this meter from time to time as an experimental aid tool in sessions of groupings, by the use of the blood glucose measurements in conjunction with one of my Historic continuous chronic symptoms being the initiating driver of these experiments, being the study of associations, and circumstances, and activities, and stability of my eyes, and eye sight. I will also be formulating a totally updated version of my Treatment Protocol which shall from now on, not contain (B Complex) as one of its components. (B Complex) has been indispensable up to now in the healing of my Stomach, and Esophagus, and I could not have achieved the success that I have achieved, without (B Complex), and for certain I could never have been able to arrive at this present point in my advanced healing without it, but now a new chapter is beginning in my advancement forward in these matters.

33.120

Date, Sept. 6, 2011.

Weight Gain Difficulty, is my current main issue to solve. I am now finding as a result of my most resent experiments involving the total withdrawal of (B Complex) from my current diet is as follows. It now appears that I have advanced to the point where I can eat a meal without additionally supplementing with (B Complex) without the resulting discomfort, and accompanying Mucus in my throat that will not now occur. The reason for this experiment is to see if by the elimination of (B Complex), if I can gain Body Weight. In a separate related matter, I am developing a suspicion, and only a suspicion, that in some way (B12) may be involved or associated in some way with blood glucose management, time will see if I can improve on this suspicion.

33.121

Date, Sept. 6, 2011.

DIETARY SUGAR, my no. 1, NEMESIS, acting on me in very different ways than would be commonly normally expected. Dietary sugar for me is to generally be avoided, as this sugar can, and will quickly cause the degradation of my overall health status. However dietary sugar for me appears to act distinctively differently than dietary sugar acts on people with problems of unstable blood sugar level or on people with a tendency for uncontrolled or high blood glucose levels. It appears to me that dietary sugars act in, and have a completely different roll, and ways when viewed between its roll, and way that it acts on myself, and its roll, and way that it acts on the general group of unstable blood glucose people described just above. It appears to me that in both of these two groups, the rolls that sugar plays when viewed between these two groups just mentioned above are separate, and very different, and distinctive rolls from each other, but these effects rolls are also intimately related to each other to some extent.

My example here of a description of the two similar but different relationships of rolls are similar to the relationship of first cousins, closely related but distinctively different. From my simple understandings of the unstable blood glucose group, it appears to me that dietary sugars plays some sort of negative roll in the elevating of blood glucose levels, while in reference to myself, and my disease condition, according to some just completed simple, and random experiments that I was able to conduct using my newly purchased blood glucose meter, dietary sugar does not seem to elevate my blood glucose levels, as they appear to be relatively stable during this period, and also there appears to be no correlation between my blood glucose levels, and the condition activity status of my eyes, and eyesight.

However I have known from many decades of actual experience with the effects of dietary sugar on my health status, dietary sugar somehow negatively interferes with my metabolic process, always, then, and now. When I have further completed my blood glucose experiments using my newly purchased meter, I will enter my findings in a separate entry herein this journal.

33.122

Date, Sept 7, 2011.

This is what I know at this time in regards to the impact on me of Dietary Sugar. Since 1977 at my end of alcohol, dietary sugars have always impacted my daily health in a negative manor. My 35 years of experiences are as follows here now. Throughout this entire period of thirty-five years my wounds would heal quickly. For the thirty three years in question, but only before I started to treat myself with Vitamin (B12), I would be required to strongly, and suddenly need to urinate all day long for the 33 years in question. For the past 33 years but before my self-treatment with (B12), and my Treatment Protocol, after eating it was mandatory for me to drink water.

My chest was dry, not my mouth or throat. Over the 35 years in question my eyes were always a symptom, being good, poor very poor, very good, etcetera, and always influenced by eating, and not eating. Excess Dietary sugar for me always meant weight lose. This is what I have just found out, based on my Blood Glucose Experiments. It appears according to my current experiments that there is no correlation or relationship between the status condition of my Eyes, and my Blood Glucose levels. My blood glucose levels randomly have ranged from 5.0 to 5.9, in this broad experiment, while at this time when excessive dietary sugar or sweet eats are strictly avoided in my diet. (I will eventually test blood glucose with dietary sugar, but only when the opportunity automatically presents itself by default through uncontrolled circumstances, as a very negative impact on my health status is to be expected under that condition, and I do no look forward to it). My random blood pressure taken along with each blood glucose reading is a close average, being 121 / 71 / 73.

33.123

Current Date Sept. 8, 2011

Non-negotiable, Strict Parameter, encompasses my better Daily Health Status is as follows. My health Status, and stability is solely controlled, and based on the composition of each daily meal that I eat, and also on my conduct associated with that meal, including without exceptions the studious application of my Treatment Protocol. Any variation of or failure of a individual meal in compliance shall immediately cause a dramatic reversal of my better health status. My life is essentially, and intimately tied, and related to these meals conduct parameters.

EXPERIMENT, and CONCLUSION

Regarding possible relation ships between status of Eyes, and Blood Glucose levels. This experiment has been conducted at, and during random circumstances, only to investigate one question, being if weather or not there is any correlation or connection between the current status condition of my eyes, and eyesight, and my current blood glucose level. My conclusion reached from the results of this experiment is that it appears according to this experiment, that there is no correlation or connection between these two conditions being Conditions, and circumstances of my eyes, and my blood glucose levels.

These experiment results are follows here now. Eyes Evaluation Scale, Very Good - Good - Poor - Very Poor, +, -. The following chart is of the Random spot check Experiment test Results regarding the Study of a possible Relationship, if any, between Blood Glucose Levels, and Eyes activities. While at the same time studiously applying my Treatment Protocol with each meal as currently amended. *(In the interests of clarity, no medications of any kind are taken by me in regards to affect Blood Glucose). Sept. 2, 2011-(1. PM)-(Blood GL 7.7)-(weather cool)- Random experiment, Sept. 2, 2011-(5. Pm)-(Blood GL 5.6)-(weather hot)-(eyes very good(BP xxxx)- before eating, and after exercise, Sept. 4, 2011-(33. Am)-(blood GL 5.0)-(weather cool)-eyes good/activity)-(BP 113/67)-2 hr after breakfast, coffee, no sweets. Sept. 4, 2011-(3. Pm)-(blood GL 5.8)-(weather cool)-(eyes poor)-BP 115/67)-half hr after potatoes/ after 1 hr, eyes better. Sept. 4, 2011-(4. Pm)-(blood GL 5.1)-(weather hot)-(eyes good)-(BP 119/68)-after hard exercise eyes better. Sept. 6, 2011-(4. pm)-(blood GL 4.4)-(weather cool)-eyes very good)-(BP 120/72)-4 hr after eating, eyes good all day. Sept. 6, 2011-(8 pm)-(blood GL 5.9)-(weather cool)-(eyes good)-(BP xxxx)-2, and half hr after supper, routine reading. Sept. 7, 2011-(4 pm)-blood GL 5.6)-(weather cool)-(eyes poor)-(BP 125/74)-4 hr after eating, little hungry

33.124

Date, Sept. 9, 2011.

My Treatment Protocol, as currently amended, its composition of components, Procedures, and Rules of application are as follows here now. Note: My current Treatment Protocol as currently amended reflects my current very advanced healed health status, my Protocol has been quite different in the past during my journey of ascent to healed, and stabilizing health. Note: My current good health depends directly, and without exception on each individual meal of each day, any deviation from my Treatment Protocol will immediately commence the process of my degraded health status. At this time in my progress of improving health, (B Complex) is specifically eliminated from my Treatment Protocol as both an oral medicine, and as a nutrient supplement, as its work for me is now done, pursuant to these matters.

An equal portion of the total nutrient contents of my Treatment Protocol is to be applied to each of my three daily main meals. Sweets, and sweet meals are to be strictly avoided. My Treatment Protocol is mandatory to apply, and contains the total daily amounts divided. My Mandatory Protocol content of Nutrients as currently amended (B12) 500 mcg., Daily Total. (Palmitate) Cod Liver Oil, 250 iu., Daily Total--> note: (I require more but more will be toxic). (Water soluble Emulsified D3), 2500 iu. Daily Total. (30 Roasted Peanuts, (E). Daily Total---> note: (I require more but more will be toxic). (Additional extra plant or, and animal fat is also a Mandatory component of each meal). It is preferable that each meal shall contain a balance of Animal protein, Carbohydrates, and Fats, along with the Nutrients contained in my treatment Protocol, but no or very little sweets.

33.125

Date, Sept. 10, 2011

Random Blood Glucose Study, while studiously applying my Treatment Protocol. Sept. 8, 2011-(11 pm)-(blood 5.1)-(weather cool)-(eyes good)-(BP 114/71)-2 hr after breakfast, juice, coffee, meat, no sweet. Sept. 8, 2011-(7 pm)-(blood 5.7)-(weather cool)-(eyes good)-(BP 119/71)-2 hr after supper, coffee, no sweets. Sept. 9, 2011-(12 noon)-(blood 4.8)-weather cool)-(eyes good)-(BP 123/75)- 4 hr after breakfast. Sept. 9, 2011-(3. pm)-(blood 6.7)-(weather nice)-(eyes good)-(BP 118/72)-3 hr after lunch, preferred more meat at lunch. Sept. 9, 2011-(8 pm)-(blood 5.2)-(weather dry)-(eyes good)-(BP xxx)-2, and half hr after supper, coffee, no sweets. Sept. 11, 2011-(2 pm)-(blood 6.0)-(weather xxx)-(eyes good)-(BP xxx)-2 hr after eating.

33.127

Date, Sept 15, 2011

Increasing of Body Hair.

I have wanted to comment on this item of information for several months now. For approx. the last eight months, I have been growing a lot more, and thicker body hair, especially noticeable on my upper, and lower chest area. The hair growth is approx. 400% more dense, and it also appears that even though I still had a good head of hair that also appears to be a lot denser. The main value to me of this observation is as an additional unambiguous sign of the validating of my Treatment Protocol Strategy, and also a validation of my improving health status.

33.128

Date, Sept 16, 2011

Opportune Sugar Experiment

At 8.30 pm I had the opportunity to conduct an experiment of opportunity involving the eating a small piece of sweet cake, and coffee on an empty stomach. At 9. PM, being a half-hour later I took a blood glucose reading, being (7.9). At one hour from the beginning, being 9.30 PM., my blood glucose reading was (5.6). This type of experiment involving sugar, I am normally not anxious to conduct because it will normally promote negative circumstances, however the opportunity presented itself by a default situation, so I took advantage of that opportunity to conduct this test.

33.131

Date, Sept. 25, 2011

Randomly taken Blood Glucose Readings. My random testing of my Blood Glucose levels during this period of time, using my recently acquired blood glucose meter, has indicated that generally my random tested blood glucose readings are from 5.4 to 5.5 to 5.6 consistently.

33.132

Date, Oct. 4, 2011

Conducting of a (D3) Probing Retro repeated Experiment. Regarding the fat-soluble form of (D3). During this experiment I shall simultaneously continue with my Treatment Protocol as per my normal activity, and only replacing the water soluble D3 with the fat soluble D3. Treatment Protocol as amended at this time is as follows now. With each main meal of each day, (125 MCG. , B12), (100 iu., Palmitate),

(1000 iu., water soluble D3 emulsified), (must contain oils), (small amount of Peanuts or Peanut oil), and (small amount of Sesame Seed oil). Regarding Palmitate, and Roasted Peanuts, I want a greater dosage, and I need a greater dosage, but due to their toxic effects on me this is my upper dosage limit at this time. *In the interests of Clarity regarding my Treatment Protocol, No matter where in these writings any reference or description of my Treatment Protocol is or has been made, there is now, and has always been a strict component requirement that my Treatment Protocol shall always also contain fats in its make up.

In my constant quest to improve my understandings, and knowledge, I am revaluating my current ability to successfully interact with vitamin (D3) at this time, but in the (D3) Fat Soluble Form, and not in its water-soluble form. In my past experiences the fat soluble version of (D3) would not work as intended for me, but due to my improving, and more stabilized health status, I am again retesting to see if any thing has changed in this regards. The reasons, and circumstances for conducting this (D3) experiment at this time is as follows. Sun exposure is now not available to me. I also have a impulse suspicion requiring me to conduct this experiment at this time, and finally at this time I will be able to more accurately judge the results of this experiment, using a control, being the status of the degree of flexibility or rigidity of the toes on my feet, this method of control has for me always been absolutely dependable, predictable, and reliable.

33.133

Date, Oct., 7, 2011

Resent (D3) Experiment.

In the interests of caution, and prudence, to day I have decided to modify my most resent experiment-involving vitamin (D3) in its fat-soluble form. Because of some strange, and unexplained happenings involving my stomach, I have decided to re introduce the water soluble form of (D3) back into my Treatment Protocol, along with the fat soluble source in a modified experiment involving a blending of these two different soluble types of (D3). I will comment further when things become more clearly defined regarding this specific matter.

33.134

Date, Oct. 9, 2011

Updating recent (D3) Experiment Findings. It appears to me now without doubt, that the Water Soluble Emulsified source of (D3) is mandatory for me, and in particular for my Metabolic Digestion function to function. In my most recent experiment with the substitution of fat-soluble (D3), the degrading of my digestion, and stomach immediately began to degrade rapidly until the Water Soluble source was re introduced back into my Treatment Protocol, immediately arresting, and reversing this degradation.

33.135

Date, Nov. 1, 2011

Routine Update

My Stomach, and Esophagus are still improving, and becoming very good. It appears to me, and it seems that my tolerance for Palmitate, and Roasted Peanuts is increasing, in that if I remain careful as to dosages, my liver area, and my back area feels very good with little discomfort. However there is a confusion in my thinking as to what exactly is going on in regards to my digestion. For a weeks time now I have added, and have been using Zinc as a nutrient, being (Zinc Gluconate 12 iu.) once a day to my Treatment Protocol diet, and this Zinc feels as producing very friendly, and positive results to me. Because these Zinc produced results are not black or white, they are not easily recognized but I will comment further when, and if I know more. My body weight remains in a stable range of 162-64, lbs. naked. Overall I seem to be gaining ground in regards to my overall health status.

33.136

Date, Nov. 3, 2011

Update on Zinc Gluconate, and B Complex, (Digestion?). Since my decades ago earlier on neurological symptoms, I have not specifically used Zinc in any manor for many years now. In the earlier days I used Zinc as an immediate intervention agent, as a Medicine to control the excruciating effects of a neurological symptom., however at this time I am using Zinc as a Nutrient. It appears to me that I have started to now sleep stronger, immediately after starting the taking of Zinc a few days ago. Weather this better sleeping is coincidental or is directly connected to the Zinc, I cannot say for certain, but I will happily continue with the Zinc usage as a nutrient.

In another matter of my Stomach itself, over the last couple of days my Stomach was feeling less solid, and was becoming a little noisy. In a pre-emptive action I started to apply a double daily dosage of (B Complex) as needed, and as an immediate intervention medicine, to sooth, comfort, and to help repair my Stomach. These Medicine applications of (B Complex) appears to be working well, and I will soon end this method of its usage, and completely revert back to its routine usage as previously solely as a part of my Treatment Protocol.

33.137

Date, Nov. 11, 2011,

(Digestion?) Intriguing New Insights into current interactions with Zinc Gluconate. This entry is being made in regards to my just recent experience with the addition of Zinc Gluconate, (15, iu.) Daily Total. About two weeks have now passed since I first recently started the taking of Zinc Gluconate, and today I have decided to at least temporarily stop the taking of this Zinc. The reasons for this stopping decision, is because it appears that although I appear to sleep much better, my overall digestion system seems to be to some degree over functioning, involving, grinding bubbling noises, a lot of gas being created, and a loose uneasy feeling in my stomach, and bowl. However my process of digesting seems to have become more efficient, maybe over efficient, and appears to have been enhanced.

There is, and remains confusion in my thinking as to exactly what is really going on during this period, involving my digestion. In that I was becoming worried as to the reasons, and origins of these new digestion changes, in order to identify the exact source if possible of my digestion changes, today I have at least temporarily terminated this Zinc usage experiment.

I now have a suspicion, that Zinc is probably metabolized in the Liver, firstly because when I was using Zing many decades ago, as a medication, Zinc taken at that time in very tiny dosages would cause me liver pain, and discomfort. The maximum dosage that I could tolerate during those times was (5 iu. ) Total Daily Dosage. Secondly now at this time many decades later, Zinc appears to have the ability to somehow enhance my digestion capabilities. It now seems to me that there may be an interaction component between Zinc, and the Liver, I intend to report further on Zinc, when I understand more.

33.142

Date, Nov. 23, 2011

Up Date, Coincidences

It appears that I have reached a still higher status of overall improvement. In a recent experiment, involving Peanuts, with my dietary testing of Peanut Butter, I was amazed at the results that I immediately just recently obtained, being that it demonstrated to me for some not understood reason, that Peanut Butter is far more effective in my treatment control, than Roasted Peanuts or Peanut Oil. The results obtained by me were excellent, and a still bigger benefit was, and is, that Peanut Butter appears to be less Toxic to me for some not understood reason, in that I can take larger dosages of Peanuts in this form, and still not experience Liver discomfort, amazing. Coincidental,? Recent new activities, being Zinc Gluconate,

33.146

Body weight Lose

Date, Dec. 1, 2011

It is appearing more, and more to me that my stomach, and Esophagus problems have now reached a condition of flux, hovering, and edging ever closer to a more normal status, and appears to require lesser interventions by me with my Treatment Protocol. I still am required to manage my weight stability, as it is not easy for me to gain body weight. My weight now fluctuates between 160 to 163 naked weights. In order to maintain my tiny weight gains, I have found that the use of Curry, Ant acids, and excessive (B Complex), can somehow retard my weight gains.

My suspicions as to the possible reasons for this weight issue, although very good for stomach issues, is I suspect, but do not know if correct, that curry reduces stomach acid, as does ant acids, and for larger dosages of (B Complex), it appears to somehow retard my weight gain. In a separate additional observation regarding (B Complex), it appears to me that it can have three identifiable useful usages for my self. One good use is as a Nutrient, the second good use is as an aid to digestion of food, and the third good use is to comfort any discomfort in my stomach, and Esophagus after the digestion period has ended.

33.149

Date, Dec. 17, 2011

Reporting on an abnormal experience of Sternum tightness, and discomfort last night. Two hours before going to bed last night, I ate a snack that contained as follows, Pork, and Beans, White Toast, Coffee, and one Sardine fish, along with my Treatment Protocol. When I finished eating this snack, I was feeling very full in my stomach, and I started feeling a tightness, and a discomfort in the area of my Sternum in my chest. This tightness now only occurs from time to time, and usually very mild, and usually only after eating snacks before bedtime later in the evenings.

After going to bed this tightness in the area of my Sternum continued through most of the night, being about another seven hours more of the discomfort, and tightness in my chest. During my present health status, this Sternum discomfort is abnormal, although in my past this discomfort would have been very normal, and far more severe. I suspect that the Pork, and Beans being hard to digest as being the problem, and I will try, and stay away from them in the future. It also appeared the next day, at this time when after a late evening snack before bed time, that this stiffness, and slight discomfort in the Sternum region of my upper chest again appeared, and usually now slightly occurs at this last snack period, but quite mild in its intensity. It also appears that it will occur after the eating of carbohydrates, example being, Oatmeal eaten with margarine, and toast.

33.152

Date, Dec. 25, 2011

Gratefully, Humbly, and Thankfully. A Humble, and Grateful health status now appears to be at hand for me, because to day after eating a large Christmas dinner along with the taking of my Treatment Protocol, I experienced a completely normal aftermath of a symptoms free experience. It appears that I have now regressed back in time to a long ago normal, and stable Digestion, and Esophagus status. For me this is truly a humbling, and grateful outcome to my many years of tireless effort in these regards, truly I am thankful.

33.153

A future inserted clarification, (at the time of this just aforementioned entry above, I had not yet discovered the vitally important B1, Thiamine.)

Chapter - Twenty-One

Observations, Experiments

Unfolding, Post Thiamine Period

Journal Entries - 2012

33.154

Between Dec 26, 2011 & Jan 9, 2012. Conceiving of a new experiment. During my tireless study, probing, and exploration these new potent nervous digestion, and stomach symptoms, I became apprised by chance observation of a possible however unlikely but important possible clue. Unlikely because I had been keeping a close eye on my blood glucose readings throughout these episodes, and my glucose values appeared to be in the expected ranges regardless of how well or how poorly I was feeling at those times.

However yesterday a half hour after supper I was feeling very jittery, not very well, and with an elevated pulse. At this half hour mark my blood glucose was 8.7, I immediately took one third of a gram of sugar 0.33 gm, and five minutes later my pulse had slowed, the jitteriness was gone, and I felt fine, my blood glucose at this moment had become 4.9, a 3.5 basis drop in blood glucose after taking 0.33 gm. of sugar.

These blood glucose readings appeared to make no sense to me from this particular experience however these results buttress my historical findings, and experiences being that blood glucose levels appear not to be correlated or directly involved in my overall metabolic disorder. Over the next two days I conducted this same experiment twice additionally with generally similar positive results, with the readings being different but the relationships between the readings holding up as similar, and the outcome as very positive. It is also now appearing as a result of these initial 0.33 gm sugar interventions, that this nervous disorder has appeared to virtually vanish at this time.

This is only a speculation on my part, but can it be possible that the relaxed calmness created as a result of these three successful 0.33 mg sugar interventions, have allowed for a reconstituting of the nervous system components involved in this symptom experience? As a result of this finding I will now engineer a formal experiment to directly test this clue in regards to blood glucose levels during the targeted periods, and the outcome of each, including the associated glucose levels after taking 0.33 grams of sugar.

33.161

Date, Feb. 12, 2012

(Inserted from the future), At this time, a still unknown ghost, Beriberi, such hardener of brutality still totally unrecognized as existing by me.

Still no progress in unraveling this Puzzle. Over these past few days I have been exercising for at least five minutes, immediately after eating, and within 20 minutes of the starting of that eating. During this time this new overall very harsh neurological Symptom of debilitating nervousness in my Arms, Chest, and Stomach has been improving over these past several days. I do not know for certain if my exercising or other unknown factors can be responsible for this general improvement in this matter, however at 9 P.M. last evening before eating anything, a milder form of this nervous symptom spontaneously appeared, and remained during eating, and after eating, and lasting about 3 hours before subsiding. During this Symptom flair up I tried many different possible solutions without success. Near the ending of this flair up, one of the things that I tried even though I did not require it was a piece of a Calcium antacid.

This seemed to have some positive effects, however I cannot now know for certain if relevant or connected to this matter. In examining the content of that antacid I saw that one of its components was Magnesium. In a new experiment I have now decided to increase the Magnesium in my diet along with my required specific exercise timing, to see if there is in fact any relationship of the occurrences with this Neurological Symptom. During my sleep last night, and upon awakening in the middle of the night, I experienced a very mild version of this nervous symptom that I found I could effectively calm by my purposeful full lung breathing in continuous medium speed rapid successions. In a separate entry here, after

33.162

Date, Feb. 13, 2012

No Meaningful Progress of Understandings. I will now completely change my Experimenting approach as no meaningful progress has been achieved by me in regards to this particular current Neurological Symptom. Starting now I will focus on a possibility of a Toxic Load of Nutrients in my body that can be causing this Neurological Symptom. I will therefore temperately withdraw completely from the taking of separate (B12), separate (B Complex), and the separate Multi/Mineral Vitamin in my diet, and I will cut the dosages of all others, waiting to see what shall occur by this action as time shall progress.

33.163

Date, Feb 14, 2012

Preliminary Experiment Results. As a result of my latest experiment, which was conducted between yesterday evening, and this morning in regards to this current nervous, and rigid chest, and stomach Symptom, some very clear, and unambiguous understandings have emerged. It now appears to me that it still is mandatory for small amounts of B-Complex to be present in my daily diet at all meals of each day or sever symptoms of chest, and Stomach rigidity shall occur. It is appearing to me, but I have no proof of this yet, being that my nervous condition portion of this Symptom is probably occurring as a direct result of a Toxic Over Load of (B12) in my body. However as a result of the experiment that I conducted over last night, and into this morning, it appears very clear to me that (B-Complex) must be present each time I eat a meal, even though my stomach can now function without (B-Complex) at each meal not creating the mucus in my throat, and Esophagus.

Here I lay out the conditions, and circumstances that surrounded this Experiment. In my trying to understand the origin driver of this new Symptom, this specific experiment concentrated on a possible Toxic overload of nutrients in my body as potentially being the cause of the Neurological portion of this Symptom, with another factor being the cause of the remaining portions of rigidity, and elevated pulse. Over approx. the two previous days I eliminated from my diet, all separately (B12), most (separate B-Complex), and for the most part, almost all Multi vitamin/minerals. It has appeared that my nervous body condition for the most part had dramatically improved as its result, with one caveat, being that both evenings over the past two evenings at about 9 Pm, the nervous symptom spontaneously appeared before eating, and both times lasted about two, and Half hours before subsiding, making no difference of whether I ate before, after or not at all.

Starting yesterday morning from breakfast to 9 Pm. that evening my overall feelings were normal with no sign of these symptoms, however at 9 Pm. this uneasiness spontaneously appeared before my eating, and continued for about two, and half hours before mostly subsiding before bed time. I noticed at bedtime that all my arms, and legs were uncharacteristically itchy. Overall I was feeling quite good, and I decided to take a small piece of calcium antacid for good measure as a prophylactic, as it was not needed. This seemed to coincide with what was to come all through last night. After going to bed the intense, and uncomfortable rigidity, and tenderness in my chest at my sternum, and of my stomach started to intensify along with my pulse banging in my ears, and this would continue through out the entire night without abetment. If I did not have my past experiences in these types of matters, and if I did not know that my heart was good, for certain because this symptom was so very scary, and intense that it resembled heart failure, it otherwise could have easily been recognized as such, an entry example of a similar circumstance that occurred many years ago, a description of which is contained else ware in these writings

This condition circumstance became the salient focus of this experiment, in that I purposely did not try to intervene between these presently occurring Symptoms by any use of many possible different attempted remedies, for the reason that if I had made many different methods of attempts, any solution then at best would be blurry, and difficult to correctly identify. I continued with my decision to study the progress of these Symptoms on their own without interfering, allow these Symptoms to take their own course so that I could see what would happen. Throughout the night these symptoms were very difficult for me to tolerate, and they remained very potent, and unrelenting. At 5 Pm. that morning I decided to take solely by itself with water about 10 mg of (B-Complex), and went back to bed but did not sleep. After 10 minutes had passed there appeared to be a very noticeable improvement in the reducing of these symptoms, after half an hour, there was great improvement, and after one hour, things were very good.

Throughout the night these symptoms were locked on my body without any diminishing in their intensity, until I introduced back into my body a small portion of (B-Complex). It is apparent to me now that B-Complex appears to still be mandatory in my diet, and it also appears that I must reduce my (B12) intake load. To be very clear here, in going forward in time I now propose to greatly diminish my separate B12 intake, and at the same time I propose to also maintain a B-Complex intake at each meal. It is appearing to me that my stomach has improved over the past eight years since my Stomach Collapse Event, to this advanced point to which it now has. Now because of this advanced Stomach function status, some very old, several decades old Symptom occurrences have resurfaced, probably due to some present new metabolic conflicts, which I hope will only be transient in their nature. I eventually would like to isolate the specific individual component (B) vitamins, which I cannot now do without, and that are contained in that B complex.

*Insertion from the future,( I will find out that B1, Thiamine is that missing member of the B Family that I cannot do without). An immediate practical demonstration of last night's new understandings

At supper to night I just could not eat, and I started to feel extremely poorly, in fact terrible as food was repulsive to me, and my body would not, and could not except food. According to my new understanding as a result of what I experienced last night, I took a piece of about 10 mg of (B-Complex), and after about ten minutes this very bad feeling of having a large stone in my stomach lifted from me which allowed me to easily eat, and receive some food.

33.164

Date, Feb. 15, 2012

Conditions are becoming more difficult to Tolerate. These new symptoms of Stomach Jitteriness along with Eating Problems are becoming quite a large problem for me at this time period. I hope that I shall be able to continue to make my entries into this Journal as time progresses, as I do not now know how these newly emerging circumstances shall play themselves out as time progresses. At present things are becoming so difficult that I am required to especially select windows in time when I can more easily accomplish my entries in to this Journal. Over last night, and into this morning, I took 12 mg of (B-Complex) along with a small bit of extra B12, and I had a fairly good night. This mornings breakfast was acceptable, and lunch was acceptable, however both not perfect.

I have started to re-introduce back into my diet, half of my previous dosages of B12, which seems to have some positive effects on how I feel. To night at supper as has previously occurred over the past several days, I was not able to start to eat supper until I first took a small dosage of (15 mg of B-Complex), which somehow works to facilitate my eating ability by somehow unlocking my stomach. All of these new symptoms emerged directly in time with the occurrence of that stopping of my refluxing at X-Mass 2011, with no more mucus forming in my throat after eating. Before this Symptom I was required to use (B-Complex) to both comfort my stomach, and Esophagus, and to also control the mucus forming in my throat mainly after eating. Now that this refluxing does not occur anymore, I absolutely require (B-Complex) in order to facilitate my eating, and to also help control the supper extreme jitteriness, and the Physical effects of nerve effects, and function, and rigidity to both my stomach, and my chest Sternum area.

Without (B-Complex) at this period of time I cannot function. I am hopping that I will be able to heal myself out of this Symptom, and I have realized that I must exercise extreme, and extra caution during this particular period so as to guard against Toxic Overloading of my body with these presently for me virtuously life saving friendly Nutrients. I will report further as when I am able, and when my current circumstances become clearer to me. I will try to locate, and somehow have arranged for me a referral to a specialized Digestion Endocrinologist Physician, as all other kinds of Physicians will be useless to my plight in these matters, but according to my past experiences with Physicians this referral shall probably never happen for me. (Inserted from the future, and this referral never did come to pass)

33.167

Date, Feb. 18, 2012

Pondered QUESTIONS, what actually has been, occurring during this Period? In my trying to explain what has recently changed, and what are the possible reasons for those apparent changes, and what might be done to better deal with those changes, I will now try to decipher here the answers as best as I am now able. To the question of why has there just recently been an apparent degrading of the condition of my Stomach, and its digestion abilities since X-Mass 2011? In my pondering of this question the most probable possible reason could be, that since X-Mass 2011 when the refluxing, and mucus formation began to greatly diminish after eating, it may be that as a result of not being driven to take the (B-Complex) with meals by this refluxing, that the dosage of these (B Vitamins) have actually been greatly reduced in my diet. It appears to me that my understanding of exactly what is now going on with me in these matters is non-existent, and so far it looks as if I have been spinning my wheels in regards to these recent matters, and I appear to be at my wits end in trying to successfully deal with this current digestion problem.

33.168

Date, Feb. 19, 2012

A Promising new Experiment with Sublingual B12. In that my daily condition regarding my Digestion is now becoming consistently very bad, something has got to be done, but what, and how as there seems to be no approachable professional Medical help available for me, as every time, and every thing that I try in the regards to Professional Medical assistance has, and continues to be met with unsatisfactory subject knowledge of my digestion problem. In true desperation I decided to-day to re-explore the taking of heavy dosages of B12 as I have nothing to lose regardless of any potential dangers of this experiment, in that things are now becoming consistently very bad, and difficult to daily tolerate, except for short periods of daily normal.

To day I purchased (Sublingual B12) in 1000 mcg. Strength. I apply my Treatment Protocol with the exception of replacing the (B12 Cyanocobalamin) through Stomach component with a B12 Methylcobalamin Sublingual Component. At lunch I dissolved half of one B12 tablet under my tongue (500 mcg), and I successfully ate my lunch. For a start this seemed to work out well, as there was no tightness across my Chest, and Stomach. However I could feel that I had taken this B12 under my Tongue by an overall feeling in my head, and also I felt a little sedated, and calm. Three hours later during a snack I repeated this but using only a dosage of 250 mcg of B12 with a similar result. To night at supper I will take 500 mcg of B12 under my Tongue, and see what will occur. It will take me several days to early evaluate this experiment.

33.169

Date, Feb. 20, 2012

Preliminary Results, Observations, and Strategy. There is a two point general strategy that I am perusing at this time in regards to this debilitating problem of my current Neurological Digestion Symptom. One component of this strategy are my efforts to provide a rest period for my Stomach, and Digestion System in order to facilitate its healing, by Fasting, by eating less often, and by eating foods that would be easier to digest, and the second part of this strategy is to greatly increase my B12 intake by using Methylcobalamin being absorbed through my tongue in addition to my "Treatment Protocol". My Current Digestion Situation, and Observations.

At 6 Pm. Last night I ate supper, and I decided that I would not eat again until morning if I could manage it. Yesterday while cautiously rationing this Methylcobalamin B12, for the complete day I only took a total of 1500 mcg of B12 Methylcobalanin, even though I would have preferred more. After eating supper at 6 Pm., there were about four difficult hours of chest tightness along with the excruciating Neurological effects of feeling overall jittery, and very unwell, my socks felt damp, and my blood pressure was medium elevated. After this 4 Hr. period things started to settle down, and I was determined not to eat again until morning, which I successfully accomplished. Upon awakening in the morning I noticed that my chest was not rigid, and tight as it had been in the previous mornings, and throughout the previous days, and my fasting glucose before eating was (4.0). Upon myself addressing my breakfast at the table, my Stomach was eager to accept the food, and in addition I took my normal "Treatment Protocol" plus 500 mcg. of B12 Methylcobalanin through my Tongue absorption.

There was a mild attempted appearance of this Neurological Digestion Symptom, but it could not get going, and quickly subsided. So far today it is close to Noontime, and there has been no real signs of this Neurological Digestion symptom, and I am feeling good at this moment. At lunchtime when I tried to eat, my Stomach again refused to accept food until I first took a small bit of (B-Complex), and then accepted the meal willingly. Upon ending my lunch I took 500 Mcg of B12, dissolved under my tongue along with my Treatment Protocol, and then felt okay.

Two hours later I took a small snack without any problem, and to-night at 5. Pm. I ate a good supper, without my Stomach refusal, I took my ``Treatment Protocol``, and I took 500 Mcg of B12, Methylcobalanin dissolved under my tongue, and I felt completely normal, and this now being two hours later I still feel normal. I do not know what are the complicated relationships between all of these (B Family) of vitamins as they have been relating to me in this matter, but for certain my taking of Methylcobalanin B12, by dissolving under my tongue has appeared to be well on its way to rectifying my current problem of this Neurological Digestion Symptoms. It appears that over the past two days I have taken 1500 Mcg. of B12 each day by dissolved the B12 under my tongue.

In regards to a reference regarding clarity of my recent past history of my consumption of B12 is as follows here now. Up to this recent point in time I had been taking as included in my "Treatment Protocol", 700 Mcg. of Cyanocobalamin B12, orally daily through my Stomach from supplements alone plus what I was getting through my diet, which I still continue with that B12 dosage while taking the new additional B12 Methylcobalanin dosage of 1500 mcg daily.

In regards to another reference regarding clarity of a current observation, being that before this general period there continued in my chest a rigidity, and tightness in the area of my Sternum along with the Neurological Digestion Symptom, and after my starting the use of Methycobalanin B12, this rigidity, and tightness appears to have completely receded.

A reference to Historic past Similarities in pursuit of clarity, Regarding Clarity of "Stomach food Refusal. An intriguing reminding of reference of recently experienced similarities to an old Historic Symptom from my early history in these matters. This recollection is an event snapshot of many others from that period in time being within the five-year mark of my quitting Alcohol, occurring around 1980. It was lunchtime, and I was hungry, and so I purchased a snack box of Chicken with French Fries etc., and attempted to eat lunch.

When I tried to eat the Fried Chicken my mouth, and Stomach did not want it, and simply refused to cooperate, I tried several times to eat the Chicken portion of this meal, but I had to spit it out as it somehow was not wanted even though I wanted it, and I was hungry. Recently during this current period in time I experienced a similar kind of experience once again, however this time in my experience my Stomach did not want to accept any food at all, this experience being the case just recently documented here in these recent matters.

However going back to that several decades old Historic example, when trying to eat that Fried Chicken, and Fries snack, even though the Fried Chicken was good but uneatable to me, however I could eat, and was eagerly able to veraciously eat the French fries component of that meal. (Ending of Historic reference). The general description of the eating matters just discussed has been, and could be considered as (No Appetite), however I do not consider this description as appropriate in this matter, as if there is clear, and present hunger, and if there is a strong desire to eat, then saying that there was no appetite would be an inappropriate explanation of this condition. I think that the appropriate description of not being able to eat in this circumstance would be better stated as Stomach Refusal to except food.

33.171

Date, Feb. 22, 2012

Evolving preliminary new understandings in Treatment Control. As a result of my latest health challenge of the very serious to me Neurological, and Digestion health crises, revolutionary but new, and subtle understandings have appeared in my realization, being new indispensable, and subtle detailed understandings in regards to the treatment of my digestion disorder. In general these new fine detailed, and subtle understandings involves the (B-Complex) Family of vitamins, and their complex relationships with each other in that B-Family, and also these B-Family Members relationships with my particular Alcohol induced Fat Digestion Disorder.

What I am now starting to understand as a result of my current experiences, and experiments are that without these new extremely subtle detailed, and indispensable understandings, no adequate success can be possible in these matters. I have realized that it boils down to that degree of subtlety of understandings, as detailed but general understandings of the relationships of, and between the B Family of vitamins, and of their relationships to the treatment of my Alcohol Induced Trauma Disorder are not sufficient in these matters, and that the key to the correct treatment is only that of the comprehension of this relationship in its exact, and subtle details.

33.172

Date, Feb 22, 2012

B12. Here now laying out the results of my two most recent just completed very successful experiments. In regards to B12 deficiency as explained in these writings, when recently I attended the Medical Clinic looking for help in regards to my Neurological Digestion crisis, the subsequent blood work showed nothing, and specifically I was informed that my B12 blood levels were normal. Another factor being that I have been taking a 100 B-Complex tablet daily, also taking 500 mcg of B12 through my Stomach, and getting another 100 mcg from my multi/min vitamin, being a minimum of 700 mcg total of B12 through my Stomach each day.

However these ongoing crises continued onward, and there in fact again would be no help possible for me in this matter. As the days progressed these debilitating symptoms of Stomach food refusals, and overall nervous trembling was intensifying, and becoming impossible to tolerate. In a desperate experimental act, I purchased a sublingual form of B12, Methycobalanin, dissolving under my tongue at a dosage of 500 mcg each time I ate a meal, in a daily total of 1500 mcg in each of three consecutive days. At my first 500 mcg taking of this new to me form of B12, there were immediate good results, and over these past several days I have completely stabilized this Neurological Digestion health problem.

The BEGGED QUESTION here is, why the discrepancies between the Laboratories result itself stated as normal along with the no effect on my Symptoms?, and conversely why my immediate stellar success in taking Methycobalanin under my tongue? It appears to me again as so often it was the case in my past, that the general understandings of Physicians in these kinds of matters are completely insufficient in order for them to be capable to accomplish any degree of successful outcomes in these matters, and that the required degree of appropriate understandings of Physicians of these matters must therefore be far more intricate, and detailed then is now the case universal, as experienced by me in these matters presently, and over the decades.

33.179

Date, March 2, 2012

Finally a primitively simple method of communicating my Dysfunction to Others. To day I was finally struck by a realization of a potentially simple but effective revolutionary method to explain the existence of my Metabolic Digestion Dysfunction to Physicians, and others. The insurmountable problem for me over the decades in regards to this matter of my Digestion Dysfunction has been to somehow explain its existence to others, for the reasons being that if I tried to explain my digestion condition by explaining the symptoms, and the impact on my daily life, and how I was controlling these symptoms, I would immediately hit a dead end of mystified understandings. The reason for these dead ends of understandings by others, including every Physician that I have ever encountered, was that my attempted explanations were too complexly detailed, as I did not realize to explain myself in simple enough terms to those whom have never see my affliction anyways.

When I would explain myself in detailed complexity, the resulting blood work, and x-rays would always indicate that my Vitals were normal, and thus the assumptions were that I was to be deemed as normal, and thus without any acceptance or resolution to my digestion dysfunction. The way that I should have explained my Dysfunction is the way that it has always been for me over 35 years being, as follows here now. Generally, and simplistically put, "(when I don't eat, everything is better, however every time I eat, things intensify, and big problems immediately start to intensify)". When I have good control over my Digestion Dysfunction, and after long periods of time have passed since my last meal, I am essentially normal, but every time I eat, big problems accompanied by harsh symptoms immediately develop, and will last for at least several hours". Over the decades I have experienced that if these resulting symptoms are allowed to occur unchallenged, and untreated for extended periods of time, then very serious consequential degrading of my health status has occurred at those times.

33.184

Date, March 12, 2012

Losing Body Weight.

Over these past two weeks in time, I have been losing body weight that I cannot afford to lose, however my facial appearance still looks good, and over this past week I have been feeling overall quite good. This losing of my body weight of 5 pounds is very concerning to me, and I have started to take measures to at least halt any more weight lose. In order to attempt a remedy for this weight lose I have immediately completely stopped my taking of Digestion Enzymes, as my past experience with these Enzymes were always associated with my weight lose, and I have started to take three Intestinal Probiotic capsules daily being about 18 billion cell cultures.

It will be interesting to see how well my digestion can now function without the help of these Digestion Enzymes, and so far to day I have successfully past Breakfast, and Lunch without problem. Previous to last week in time I would get very bloated, feeling very full after eating a moderate amount of food, which I would not consider as normally able to cause this pumped up fullness of feeling in my Stomach, and so I am now experimenting with these intestinal bacterial cultures to see if they could possibly resolve this bloating. I have also started to practice exact daily dosage control of (50, B-Complex strength), this total dosage divided by three dosages daily with one each at each meal, in addition to my other standard Treatment Protocols. I have also re-commenced my use of smaller dosages of Sublingual B 33.

33.186

Date, March 22, 2012

Experiment, Branched Chain Amino Acids. A possibility of a truly Stellar Seminal Moment in my 35 year struggle.

In the evening of March 20, 2012 I conceived of this new theoretical experiment in trying to deal with my expanding, ongoing, and deteriorating very poor Stomach Digestion problems. Even though I have a great deal of animal protein in my daily diet, this experiment would involve my dietary testing of adding Branched Chain Amino Acids to my diet. In order to conduct this experiment, the next morning I located a supply of these Amino Acids, and commenced their dietary consumption, but in very conservative dosages. During the morning of March 21, I took my first dose of these Amino Acids, there appeared to be immediate positive feelings of results within a couple of hours, and by the end of that day, and over that night there had appeared for certain to be a vast overall improvement in my digestion circumstances.

During this application experiment with these Amino Acids I continued in addition to apply my Treatment Protocol, however there appeared not to be the same requirement as to the higher dosages required of my Treatment Protocol as previous to my Amino Acid application. I will report further when I have more substantive understandings to report. I also intend to study, investigate, and understand the Vegetarian Vegan Amino Acid requirements, even though my diet provides a great deal of animal protein I am suspecting that there is a possibility the because of the metabolic dysfunction of my Liver, that I may be somewhat in their same circumstances, although for different reasons.

New entry after lunch this same Entry Date. March 22, 2012. It is very early in my experiment with these Amino Acids, but the results being produced by the use of these Amino Acids are quite spectacular, in that it appears to me that I have risen from the living dead, and this is not over spoken. After lunch I took a quarter teaspoon of these Amino Acids, and then another quarter teaspoon of these Acids, all together so far to day I have taken three quarters teaspoon of these Amino Acids. This appears to be too much of a dosage for me as a little while later I developed a good hunger, and a very strong appetite. There is also some sudden strong needs to urinate from time to time, but my overall feelings are excellent so far. I am thinking now that I will experiment with one half teaspoon of these Amino Acids daily total dosage divided between all meals of each day.

My current Treatment Protocol as currently amended is as follow here now. With each main meal daily I take 250 mcg. of (Sublingual B12), (15 mg of B-Complex), (one third of Vitamin, (currently temperately containing iron), (one eighth of teaspoon of Branched Chain Amino Acids, these Amino Acids only at each meal), (250 mcg. of additional Folic Acid), ( a drop of Palmitate from Cod Liver Oil), (Small hand full of Peanuts), (Two teaspoons of mixed Sunflower, and Sesame oils), and various other sundry nutrients. The dosages, and the preferred method of delivery of the Amino Acids are yet to be learned by me but this is the starting plan. However it is now starting to appear that with my use of these Amino Acids, that the previous components of my Treatment Protocol are no longer as mandatory as previously, and along with diminishing dosage requirements of these Protocol Nutrients. Low body weight remains a big problem for me; it appears that I have very little fat on my body.

33.187

Date, March 23, 2012

Continuing Studying Observations With Branch Chain Amino Acids. It appears that these BCAAs are producing very good digestion results for me with there use by me at each main meal in a dosage of one eighth of an accurate Teaspoon. I am finding that when taking these BCAAs, I require less intervention with the B vitamins to facilitate digestion, and to settle things down after eating. The two main concerns that I have during this period in time are trying to put on body fat, and controlling my digestion including the neurological activities in my Stomach, especially after eating. The BCAAs are working well on the Stomach digestion, and Neurological, and I have yet to see if my low body fat will be affected by their use.

33.188

Date, March 24, 2012

Another truly Significant Event has occurred Suspicions-Revaluations-Hypothesis. There has emerged here a possible important new potential treating strategy tool, being the use of Branch Chain Amino Acids as a temporary Medicine used to heal my body, including my Stomach, and Liver. As a very strong indication possibility of this just experienced by myself, I intend to study this Hypothesis from all possible perspectives over the coming days, and months. This entire entry being made here under this date shall deal with my revaluation of my current Digestion status problems, and the early beginnings of my suspicions being begged by my resent experiences in these matters.

I do not know for certain if all or any of what is being discussed in this entry shall be in fact correct, however all of my observations discussed in this entry are in fact extremely accurate. My current Digestion Status over these past two months has been very degraded, and impossible to endure, including body weight lose, especially body fat. This impossible to endure Neurological status condition is so impossible, it appears that it will not be possible to sustain my life for very long under these Neurological conditions.

My eating process has been difficult because of excruciating neurological feelings in my Stomach of a feeling of extreme nervousness, and wanting to vomit, however not vomiting along with a very impossible to endure feelings in my Stomach, and my body refusing food, just not wanting food, hungry or not. During these two months period I have been required to employ taking of Sublingual B12, extra Folic Acid, and B-Complex in order to be able to eat at all.

During these present two months period of time I have experimented with the use of Digestion Enzymes, and pure Branch Chain Amino Acids, with the Amino Acids in tiny dosages of ¾ teaspoon total daily dosages, which proved to be very helpful with my Stomach, and Digestion problems, however my weight lose problem still remains a challenge, and unchanged. It appears to be that as a result of my taking of these Branch Chain Amino Acids over a three day period just ended, that these Amino Acids have appeared to have accomplished a great deal of stomach healing repair, in that during their use my Liver became very peaceful, and felt as non existent, and my Stomach functioning during their use also was very greatly improved.

I have recognized a begged Supposition here, being that perhaps indeed there were unintended positive benefits that flowed from these Amino Acids usage, perhaps these Amino Acids could be instrumental in the healing repair of Stomach, and Liver tissues. I do not know for certain if this is correct, however there has been a huge advancement in my Stomach digesting status since these three days of Amino Acids usage. In my current, and immediate revaluation of these current past two months, I am now acting on my emerging suspicions. Firstly to day I have completely stopped my use of Branch Chain Amino Acids, and Digestion Enzymes for the suspected reasons of possible interference with my normal metabolic process, except for the possible specific targeted use from time to time of Branch Chain Amino Acids or Digestion Enzymes as a Medication of intervention.

To day I have started to reduce my B-Complex use as much as possible for the suspected reasons of possible long term accumulated Toxicity, which could be contributing to my Stomach Neurological problems. Going forward from now I will cut down on my dosages of B-Complex as far as I will be allowed to by my prevailing circumstances, and I will only use either or both Digestion Enzymes, and Branch Chain Amino Acids as immediate temporary intervention medications to intervene with immediate extra ordinary digestion difficulties. If I am on the right tract in my current thinking, this new Stomach Digestion strategy of mine could produce some important benefits, by allowing my body to detoxify, and for my Stomach to rest, and heal. I feel confident that these new measures could at least produce some potential benefits, and perhaps even much more, at least this is my current hope.

*(Inserted from a future Date, Nov. 2012, regarding understandings directly descend from this entry). Beriberi must be treated, as Resistance or Coexistence is not possible. It has been my experienced observations regarding my manifested excruciating Metabolic, and Neurological symptoms that were being generated by my very deep deficiency of B1, Thiamine, that this condition of Beriberi is essentially impossible to either both tolerate nor to resist. I have recognized that when this complete deficiency of B1, Thiamine shall exist, there is in fact no reasonable possibility that B1, Thiamine's Beriberi manifested symptoms can be successfully resisted, only however can those lesser deficiencies of B1, Thiamine be resisted.

The only remedy to a complete Thiamine deficiency is to recognize the deficiency, and then to replenish the B1, Thiamine in the Body. The reason that Beriberi can not be successfully resisted is due to the situation reality that if, and when Beriberi shall be occurring, the manifested symptoms of Beriberi will completely negatively encompass the full bodies embodiments of its being, both of the Bodies Metabolic functioning, and of the Bodies Neurological functioning.

Therefore no matter how strong the Patients intellectual will, and attitude shall be if attempting to resist these on slots of Beriberi manifestations, it shall be futile, because this manifestation of Beriberi shall have completely encompassed the Metabolic, and Neurological capabilities of the Body, and there for successful resisting of Beriberi cannot be possible, as any attempted resistance to Beriberi in the absence of B1 Thiamine will be equivalent to asking the body to resist itself. The only hope when Beriberi shall be occurring is to recognize its existence, and to then replenish the B1 Thiamine levels otherwise I do not believe that life can for any extended period in time proceed.

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33.189

Date, March 25, 2012

Excellent progress in Stomach, and Digestion Function. As the result of that three-day experiment using small dosages of Branch Chain Amino Acids a huge positive change has occurred in my Stomach, and Digestion Functioning. The Neurological stomach Symptoms are basically entirely gone, and in addition I have been able to constantly reduce my supporting dosages of B-Complex, and my Stomach, and Digestion functioning appears to now be functioning, and functioning normally. At each meal during the past two days I have only taken 10 mg of B-Complex, 250 mcg of B12, by Stomach, and 300 mcg of Folic Acid in addition to other standard sundry nutrients, and all in proceeding extremely well in regards to digestion, and function. For some reason, which is difficult for me to exactly explain, it appears to me that Folic Acid, and myself are very friendly, and compatible partners. Because of the stellar successes with BCAAs, over the past two days in an additional small experiment, at only the Supper meal once each day of the two immediate past days, I have been experimented with the taking of a dosage of one sixteenth of an accurately measured Teaspoon of Branch Chain Amino Acids.

33.190

Date, March 28, 2012

Finally solely by myself, my belated 35 years Self-diagnosis of Liver Cirrhosis. Finally yesterday I arrived at my Diagnosis of my 35 years mystery disease as being Liver Cirrhosis, which I am confident, and comfortable with as being correct. The facts remain that even though my Liver Cirrhosis has never been detectable by my chronic complaints, my alcohol history or by the countless conducted routine medical liver function tests over the many years, that never the less my disease condition is in fact a chronic manifested disease of alcohol consumption being 35 years to date of chronic Liver Cirrhosis.

With this advancing understanding of my disease condition, and with my discovery of Branch Chain Amino Acids, over the past two days I have started to withdraw from my past dosages of B Vitamins in an attempt to detoxify my body from the accumulated possible toxicity of my long term, and very heavy usage of B Vitamin Supplements, along with some sundry others. In the past I had no other options available to me for the control of my severe digestion dysfunctional symptoms, except for these B Vitamin nutrients, but now I have new, and advanced options available to me with (BCAAs). My cautious calculation in this matter of detoxification, and preliminary Liver rehabilitation, is that this first stage of my Liver support shall last for approx. three weeks, and then I shall evaluate any progress.

33.191

Date, March 30, 2012

Current Progress, and update. With the use of my currently amended Treatment Protocol, I have been making good, even spectacular progress, and improving daily from my previously seriously deteriorating digestion health. I have noticed just recently that the occurrence of the nervous tremor that have existed for many decades in my hands, and arms have for the first time greatly diminished, and mostly vanished allowing for my better hand writing. My current Treatment Protocol as currently amended is as follows here now. One sixteenth of a teaspoon of Branch Chain Amino Acids with two meals of each day (Total daily one eighth teaspoon), Milk Thistle tablet at two meals of each day, One third of a multi Vitamin at three meals each day, B12 (250 mcg at each meal by stomach), B-Complex at each meal (20 mg. daily Total), Folic acid at each meal (250 mcg, daily total 750 mcg), B1 (750 mcg daily total), D3 at each meal, Vitamin c at each meal, Omega 3 Fish oil twice a day, Tiny drop of Palmitate from Cod Liver Oil (an example being, one Cod Liver Oil capsule will last me daily for about two weeks), and I have been required to totally withdraw from taking separately Peanuts, and seed oils in order to overcome my tenderness in my Liver.

The B.C.A. Acids have proven to be immediately very effective in regards to my Stomach Dysfunction Symptoms including the pacification of my Nausea, and Neurological Stomach Symptoms. This Nausea Symptom is an entirely newly occurring symptom that newly first occurred as of two months ago, has been very persistent, and virile, and had never occurred before in my past. My use of Milk Thistle, and my withdrawal from the use of seed oils appears to be producing positive results regarding my Liver discomfort, however I do not know for certain if the Milk Thistle is contributing to my improving Liver discomfort feelings, but I do know for certain that the seed oils will contribute to my Liver discomfort. I do not know for certain if the B1, and the Folic Acid are specifically beneficially effective, but my current perception is that they are very friendly to my digestion health circumstances, and so I continue to carefully use them.

33.192

Date, April 1, 2012

Making good Progress with new Strategies. I continue to make excellent overall daily progress, especially with my very serious current Stomach, and Digestion issues of Stomach Neurological Symptoms. I continue my experiment to withdraw from B-Complex, and I am now able to accomplish this withdrawal. I have withdrawn from seed, and nut oils in my diet in order to improve the mild Liver discomfort that I daily have been experiencing while taking these badly needed oils Nutrients, however this compromise has been necessary. Daily at each of my three meals, I have been taking Milk Thistle ???, for the past four days. (This a Post entered Note, Never using Milk Thistle again, for my own reasons, Milk Thistle having essentially nothing to do with any health gains achieved by me).

Over the past three days my Liver is feeling peaceful, and without discomfort. After five days of taking the very helpful to me Branched Chain Amino Acids in very small dosages daily, I have decided to test a withdrawal from these Amino Acids to see what shall be the results, and in addition, I have been finding that by taking even extremely tiny dosages of these BCAAs, (tiny being if a teaspoon is 8 gms, then I estimate my tiny dosage as being, one quarter gram or in by another method one thirty second of a teaspoon), that I do experience a slight discomfort in the area of my Kidneys when taking this tiny dosage.

I cannot emphasize strongly enough, how fundamental these BCAAs have been in facilitating my presently occurring improvements to my digestion tract, this improvement being historically significant. However my present Control Treatment strategy has proved to be very effective, even more effective than I had hoped. I have a suspicion that my unavoidable past several years of heavy dependence with my heavy use of B-Complex has had Neurological Toxic residues, this is however just a suspicion, however the BCAAs truly were a lifesaver for me, even using these tiny dosages for only a several days period of time.

*(In the interest of clarity). During the past immediate several weeks of my experiencing this completely new Symptom to me, I would dread as mealtime was approaching, because I would be required to eat. Before, and after eating there did exist in my Stomach area a feeling of fullness, of intense Neurological feelings, and of Nausea. I found that if I took some B-Complex at this time, and Sublingual B12, then waiting for several minutes I could better manage to eat, however the Neurological feelings especially in my Stomach would continue, and then this Neurological feeling would intensify especially between 2, and 5 hours after eating that meal. Upon my first experiment with taking BCAAs, being comprised of (L-Leucine, L-Valine, and L-Isoleucine) in a pure powder form with nothing else included with them, I experienced an immediate relief of these Symptoms.

The dosages that were involved were very conservatively tiny, and all dosages were with meals, being that I was experimenting dosages for the first two days ( ¾ teaspoon BCAAs, Day total), for the next two days (1/8 teaspoon Day total), and after that (1/16 teaspoon Day total), and now I am experimenting with a 1/32 teaspoon Day total). During the first day of these BCAAs experiments I found that taking these Amino Acids between meals would cause me to start urinating extra often, and so I established the with meals rule in their use. I do not know what has been generating this specific Stomach problem, and I do not know how, and what these BCAAs are doing, but these BCAAs are, and have been extremely effective in whatever their roll is, and has been during this experiment. During this experiment with BCAAs, my appetite, and eating ability has become excellent, and I now eagerly look forward to meal times.

During this experiment with BCAAs, I have been monitoring both my Blood Pressure, and my Blood Glucose which have appeared to be very good, being generally 5.2 Blood Glucose, and 125/70 Blood Pressure. Also during this BCAAs experiment, because the positive effects of these BCAAs were so immediate, and impressive, and because my focus was now directly on my Liver s status because of my just resent intellectual acceptance of my personal diagnosis of Liver cirrhosis, I also immediately commenced the use of Milk Thistle for good measure. It appears to me that due to my promising experimenting with these BCAAs, this being another example of my going to the right place but for the wrong or unknown reasons.

33.195

Date, April 5, 2012

Hypothesis, Occurring Events. To-day has been a very good day for me in these regards, it still strongly appears to me that I must continue amongst other things to limit the simple carbohydrates that shall remain in my system undigested at that time when I go to sleep at night, as this condition shall seriously negatively effect my current health status. My eating is good, with good appetite, no nausea, no bloating, and I am slowly starting to gain body weight. Absolutely none of these gains were possible, no matter what was done or tried over the past.

The only action that has precipitated me present advancement in my health status has been my short duration use of Branch Chained Amino Acids. In this entry I shall try to generally sort out, and otherwise uncover, and explain what actually may have just recently occurred in my battling with this chronic Digestion Disorder. It appears to me that what may have occurred here is what I shall now muse about, however I do not know for certain if correct, however I strongly feel that what I shall propose here is generally correct if not in all respects. It appears to me that as a direct result of that event in this experience that I refer to herein as "My Stomach Collapse" which occurred in 2004, and chronically continued to 2009, the event of "My Epiphany", which created additional very serious digestion complications, I found that for the next six years I had no way to effectively deal or otherwise successfully influence these newly emerged chronic digestion symptoms.

The result of my inability to effectively control these new symptoms over those six years would cause my health to deteriorate due to a perpetual status of malnourishment, which was encouraged by the very heavy chronic usage of Acid reducing medications, and Ant Acids. However as a result of my Epiphany in 2009, I discovered that by using B-Complex, B12, D3, tiny dosages of vitamin (A), and sundry other nutrients with meals, that I could successfully positively influence my chronic digestion symptoms. The B-Complex in particular was very effective, and the only substantive tool that I had to facilitate my eating, and Nutritional requirements from food, to control my serious Esophagus refluxing, to facilitating my digestion, and for repairing the accumulated damages that had occurred to my Stomach, and Esophagus.

It may be the case that my very heavy but reluctant reliance on B-Complex at all meals for at least two years could be partially implicated in my just resent Stomach Neurological symptoms. During the past two years I did experience numbness in my fingers when washing my hands, when rubbing my fingers, when exposed to hot, and when exposed to cold. When in reaction I forced myself to ration the B-Complex for several weeks this numbness receded. However because I was without choice but to daily heavily use the B-Complex, I have a suspicion that their heavy use additionally did accumulate a toxic residue in my body which may be implicated with my Stomach Neurology Symptoms.

During the resent past two months of my very serious Digestion failures, and excruciating Digestion Neurological Symptoms, Sublingual B12, and B-Complex would facilitate my eating but only partially. However my use of Branched Chain Amino Acids in small dosages with meals were immediately, and completely successful, and in addition my use of these BCAAs allowed me to almost completely withdraw from the B-Complex while nothing else in my past would allow this detoxification, and complete drawl of B-Complex). It now is appearing to me that something very impressive has occurred, and continues to positively effect my overall health, and Digestion status. My current Digestion Status is still a little tenuous, but Historic in its normalness, and is firmly daily progressing. As witnessing of these historic events, I appear to be replacing body weight without specifically taking any measures to accomplish this weight gain, a good sign of normal digestion functioning, and metabolic functioning.

The final analysis is not exactly clear to me as I have no Laboratory or scientific measurements, only that of objective observation of my experienced spectacular immediate results, being this miraculous, and substantive improvement of my Digestion Symptoms. Was this due to solely the with drawl of the accumulated toxic B-Complex?, I do not think that this could be the basic main reason. However the explanation that I favor, being that the BCAAs somehow facilitated, and produce these results by some not understood Metabolic requirements. BCAAs appear to be a very good tool for me to use in my daily struggle to deal with my ongoing Digestion Dysfunction which continues to require a great deal of daily management.

Inserted information date Sept. 2012, in the interest of clarity. My references to B1, Thiamine that occur before any references herein to B.C.A.A.s where they shall occur around that general time period, were due to my grasping in the dark, in my hopes of, and along with other nutrients, of finding some relief of my symptoms, as at the times of these references to B1, Thiamine I had no particular knowledge of the importance to me of B1, Thiamine, I only knew that Thiamine was a B Vitamin in the friendly to me, B Complex Family of vitamins.

33.196

Date, April 7, 2012

Impressive B1, Thiamine Experiment results. In my continuous, and tireless efforts trying to alleviate my excruciating Neurological Symptoms after eating each meal, I again focused on B1, Thiamine. This time I exercised the discipline to experiment solely at one time with only this one B1, Nutrient. The immediate results of this experiment was unambiguous, and quite impressive in that my neurological symptoms for the most part had not materialized after eating during the immediate first two experimental eating sessions using the B1, in a dosage of 25 mg with each meal. In an interesting observation during the experimental use of the B1, I seemed to notice the similar BCAAs after taste when using the B1. I intend to continue the B1 use to see if this experienced result shall hold up.

33.197

Date, April 8, 2012

Developing of a New Treatment Strategy. Due to a number of my resent observations it has occurred to me that it could be advantageous to me if I were to take these resent observations into account, and incorporate them into a new experimental treatment strategy. Some of these observations are as follows here now. I have observed that in regards to my Stomach, and Digestion functioning that now in the mornings at the start of each day, my Stomach, and Digestion status always appears to be at its best, and then shall deteriorate throughout the day to its very worst at supper, and past into the evenings. I have observed that in regards to my use of BCAAs, that these Branched Chained Amino Acids are best used in my circumstances as an immediate intervention Medicine to overcome Digestion Distress, and not as a routine prophylactic of nutrient.

I have also observed from my past experiences that my use of Ant acids must be specific, and appropriate, or their chronic usage will facilitate a nutritional deficiency status condition for me. I have also observed that in regards to my usage of B-Complex, that these B vitamins must not be chronically overused regardless of the pressures requirements of any current prevailing circumstances. What this strategy is intended to accomplish is to both facilitate my Digestion, and Nutritional extraction from each meal while at the same time mitigating, and helping to repair the damage to my Digestion Tract, and also helping to mitigate its negative dysfunctional digestion Symptoms, especially those excruciating Neurological Symptoms.

Chapter - Twenty-Two

Exact Entry

First ever Understandings

Thiamine's Fundamental Roll

THIS ENTRY of April 8, 2012 IS TEMPORARILY SUSPENDED, Due to incredible new experiments results, and understanding pending. *(Inserted this Notation: at dated entry of April 8, 2012, is being temporarily suspended without its completion due to my discovery of some extremely important information, and understanding regarding my current Neurological Symptoms). This entry suspension is directly due to my immediately just discovered knowledge of (B1, Thiamine) experimental results, and Thiamine's ability to predictably, and effectively control my current excruciating manifestations of my Neurological Symptoms. During my past 12 consecutive experimental eating session meals while taking B1 at a dosage of 25 mg. with each meal, I have found that so far my results of taking this B1 have been consistently dependably predictable, in that my currently occurring excruciating Physical Neurological Symptoms that appeared to be originating in my Digestion Tract region, and subsequently radiating throughout the rest of my body have been effectively, and completely subdued.

This current Neurological manifestation has been so unbearably excruciating for me to tolerate, that over these past two months I have quite often found myself contemplating the possible exit strategy for myself, if this neurological condition should extend unabated into the longer term. As result of this immediate experiment, being my resent experiment by first the taking of Branched Chain Amino Acids in tiny dosages, and without taking any B1, because B1 was unknown to me at that time, which appeared to be effective in the control of my current Neurological Symptoms. A little later due to my subsequent discovery of B1, my separate taking of this B1, Thiamine, without the BCAAs was even more effective in controlling my Neurological Symptoms. Also because both the BCAAs, and the B1, appeared to produce a similar after taste in my mouth, it is a strong suspicion of mine at this time that the BCAAs, and the B1, have a relationship in some manor or another that I do not understand, but however strongly suspected by me. The main importance for me at this time is my use of B1, Thiamine which appears to effectively control my current Neurological Digestion Symptoms, and which I intend to continuously take with each meal in a separate dosage of B1, at 25 mg. along with a 10 mg dosage of B-Complex.

*(Insertion in interest of clarity).

In regards to any similarity between this currently occurring 2012, manifestation of Neurological Symptoms, and those Symptoms that Historically occurred from around 1979 to 1983, and are documented very early on in these writings. Both Neurological Symptoms manifestations appear to be very different in their manifestations, however both manifestations being very excruciating in their own ways. My Historical manifestations of Neurological Symptoms were occurring by day, and by night, and involved an internal trembling inside my body, and especially inside my arms, but no involving my Digestion System, (this trembling not being detectable by anyone holding my arms).

However this Historical Neurological Symptom would also intensify after eating a meal. My currently occurring 2012 Neurological Symptom at its uncontrolled, and untreated height of its potency during the resent past two months, Feb., March, and early April, 2012, and would usually only occur, and continue during the five hours surrounding meals, this current Neurological Manifestation appeared to be directly located in my Stomach, and affecting my digestion competence. I must however in fairness keep in mind that during these modern times I have to some degree been able to influence this 2012 Symptom manifestation, because of my current understandings, and treatment efforts thereof.

Now that I think of it in this light, and because my circumstances of health, and nutritional understandings are so very different between these two very separate periods of time, and circumstances, that it may be very possible that the origin reasons for the occurrences of these two Neurological manifestations of Symptoms may indeed be in some manor fundamentally related to a B1, Thiamine Deficiency, again however I cannot be certain of this. One thing however that is certain in regards to my current Neurological manifested Symptom, being that my use of B1 with each meal is immediately reversing this Neurological Symptom completely.

*Again in the interests of clarity emphasizing a very salient point in this matter, being that there has been no recognition over the 35 years duration of my disorder by any Physician that I have ever attended for treatment in this matter. This includes the four unsuccessful attempts that I made over the last three months in trying to receive some sort of real help, advise or recognition of my possible problem. Including the Neurological. All my past attempts including these current attempt have been completely rebuffed, and disregarded by those Physicians that I encountered, even after I vigorously proclaimed my Alcohol History including that my overall Symptoms had never left me after I had stopped drinking, and had continued all these 35 years. These Physicians prescribed blood work tests, and then just ignored my claims to this very day. The gate keepers refusing my entry for adequate medical treatment in this matter, being the Physicians that I have access to, plainly do not understand this category of Medical Practice, and because of this, it still remains impossible for me to be referred to those specializing practicing Physicians that might understand my disease, and resultant digestion dysfunctions.

(Continuation of this (interrupted)

Date, April 8, 2012)

My Proposed new experimental Treatment Strategy shall be as follows here now. With each meal of each day times 3 meals, mainly I will take at each meal, (B1, Thiamine 25 mg.), (B-Complex, 15 mg.), (B12, 250 mcg.), (experiment with taking, and not taking BCAAs, in a dosage of 1/8 of one gram., or 1/64 teaspoon, if one teaspoon is 8 gm.), (1/3 of a multi/mineral vitamin), (D3), (100 iu of Palmatate total daily), and sundry other nutrients.

33.198

Date, April 10, 2012

B1, Thiamine is completely solving this current Neurological Problem. My taking of B1, in the dosage (33 mg. with each meal, daily total 100 mg., and plus 50 mg., and plus 15 mg. from other known sources daily) has completely solved this Neurological Stomach, and digestion problem. So far my appetite is vastly improving, the nausea has completely gone, and my digestion has greatly improved. I am feeling good, and normal.

33.199

Date, April 13, 2012

B1, Thiamine results are holding up, and continue improving daily. My taking B1, Thiamine with each meal has controlled my current period of Neurological Symptoms that appeared to originate in my Stomach, and was directly associated with eating, and digestion. My appetite, and my capabilities to eat a meal are also increasing daily, and my overall health status appears to be improving daily. This discovery of my critical need for the Nutrient B1, Thiamine, appears to be completing my 35 years to date puzzle in these matters.

*(In the interests of clarity.

Once I had eventually many decades later uncovered this knowledge solely by myself, using my own observations, and tireless experiments, it may be possible that once I had found my required understandings on my own through my experiments, that in fact some dispersed, and disassociated fragments of this knowledge may exist else ware, but however sparsely, and scattered, and never available to me. Some disconnected portions of my findings may exist else ware in disconnected, and non associated, confusingly, fragmented, and in non practical or non associated irretrievable forms of information, that may be hidden throughout the Medical Domains, but never accessible to me, and apparently throughout the decades also never accessible to any of my past Physicians.)

(Inserted here in the interests of clarity)

Wherever thorough out this document, and these writings, and whenever there shall appear references, and observations regarding my negative experimental treatment results outcomes, which are documented as being very negative, and to be avoided activities for me in the future, these negative to be avoided outcomes as documented in those entries are for the most part correct, and as intended by me at the time of those writings. The majority of the basic reasons for these very negative to be avoided in the future outcomes in those negative results experienced entries, have usually ultimately found by me to have been caused by my total lack of, and insufficient understanding, at those times of some fundamental missing knowledge, being usually later found by me to be resulting from a yet unknown to me of some unknown, and untreated chronic Nutrient deficiencies.

These references to these very negative to be avoided experimental outcomes documented throughout these writings herein, were usually ultimately found by me to be directly due to the absence of that required knowledge, understanding, and the absence of the appropriate remedying of these unknown deficiencies at those times. I have found in these regards that whenever the required future discoveries have been found by me, that if those past documented deficiencies would have been first properly remedied at those times, during these negative to be avoided experimental outcomes, those very negative outcomes most likely would not have materialized during those experiments.

A subject matter example of the types of to be avoided outcomes entries include, use of dietary components, the use of dietary sugars, Stomach, and Esophagus damage, degraded immunity, severe neurological, and severely degraded health status among much, and many others. I have found that if this disease in not appropriately understood recognized, and properly treated, then there can be no other substitute treatment possible. Either this Disease condition must be completely recognized, understood, and fundamentally correctly treated, or there shall continue a complex metabolic adversarial resistance by this disease condition itself to any attempted remedial measure that the Patients shall attempt. My fundamental lifelong lesson learned in these matters, is treat this Disease correctly, and completely or the body will not work as intended, no matter what substitutes shall be attempted, as there is no compromise possible in these matters of treatment.

33.200

Date, April 17, 2012

Discovery of B1, Thiamine appears to be completing my Odyssey. Finally due to my discovery of my isolating my serious deficiency of B1, Thiamine, it appears that as a result of this important discovery, for the most part my recording herein of my 36-year odyssey of discovery is now quickly coming to its completion. My isolating discovery of B1, just recent in April 2012, appears to have finally put in place one of the final remaining missing pieces of this 36-year long puzzle, but (this is as follows here in italic type face is an inserted piece of information from my future new understandings which would occur later on in the later part of 2012), being that there would be still one other major discovery of understandings, being my discovery that without vitamin C, at each meal, I am not able to gain body weight or digest Fat, and Protein, regardless of my huge calories intake from both Plant Fats, and Animal Fats.

This second to final discovery of my current desperate, and long-term requirement for B1 has without question directly, and immediately saved my life. During this past month as a result of my use of B1, my excruciating Neurological Stomach Symptoms appears to have been completely eliminated, and it has swiftly returned my digestion, and Stomach functioning to a far better status then was for a very long time, resembling a more normal status, and it is still improving by leaps, and bounds daily with my ability to eat becoming very normal. My resent isolating of my desperate need for B1, in April of 2012, rivals my great discovery of my desperate need for B12 in 2009, in its magnitude of its importance to my salvation itself.

Just the same as my discovery of B12, was made possible because of the easily recognizable result of the immediate elimination of my 35 years of constant sudden urinating, Similarly my just recently discovered isolating of my desperate chronic need for B1, became possible because of my just resent collapsing of my Digestion function, and its accompanying excruciating Neurological Symptoms manifestation, and my experimental taking of B1, being the easily recognized remedy for this serious Neurological events. If this just resent Neurological event had not occurred, there remained a very good likelihood that I could not have isolated my deep, and chronic need B1, Thiamine. This particular Neurological event while it was occurring, but before my discovery of my chronic need for B1, was without a solution or remedy for me. Once again this time, as has occurred for me many times before throughout the past decades in these matters, the Medical Community that I sought answers, and treatment from had no recognition of the possible reasons, causes or treatment of this present just past serious, and excruciating neurological event, and again I was set adrift alone, and on my own.

My prognosis for my future appeared to be very, very short, in that I knew that it would not be possible very long for me to live with, and tolerate this Neurological condition as this Neurological manifestations involved a fundamental material dysfunction of the nervous operating mechanism of my bodies operating system, fundamentally effecting that of my being itself. There is a great deal pain, and difficulty that I can tolerate, I can carry mountains on my back, but I knew that this Neurological manifestation I could not carry very long. Truly before this lucky, and opportune solution of B1, became available, I found that I had fundamentally intellectually moved to a distinctly different daily thought process pattern, being taking an intermediate position between my current embodiment in life, and my looming possible future embodiment. Because of my current unsolvable Neurological manifestation, and at the same time its unbearable excruciating characteristic, I constantly found myself intellectually looking in two separate different position directions at the same times.

From this new intermediate position of my intellectual posture I would at the same times be contemplating, both the immediate duties of my affairs that I felt I required to be place in order, and at the same time looking in that other direction as to the logistics of how my final exit could in fact be accomplished, as living with the status quo would be impossible to sustain for very long, and therefore would not be a sustainable longer term option.

The reasons I understood that this occurring excruciating neurological symptoms would not be possible to tolerate for very long, was due to its irresistible, and unbearable intensity, in that there could be no defense or tolerating of this excruciating Neurological manifestation, because this Neurological manifestation was degrading the Neurological operating symptom of my body, said otherwise it was fully consuming, and disarming me by stripping my ability to resist its presence, as this Neurological Symptom had unwillingly to me become me, and I had became it. However since my discovery, and subsequent use of B1, thanks in part to my experiment with Branch Chained Amino Acids, these remedy contemplations of my viewing both directions are now irrelevant, and only a part of past historical fact, as this matter has currently been resolved by my returning to a heath status of acceptable normal for me.

33.200-B

*Inserted here in early 2013 in the interests of clarity. I have found that all things are both relative, and associated by degree with each other, and so in these writings when, and where I have documented my experimental outcome results as having been of very impressive, and stunning achievement results, with results approaching a normal health status for myself, in fact that perception of mine at that time would be true, and correct.

However my perception at those times of normalizing health status was in fact closely related to my experienced perception of the much diminished circumstances that I have just ascended from, and to me at those times, being that my perceived newly ascended health status being the best that I had experienced in many years, that contrasting comparison is what I am actually referring to as indeed spectacular, and these earlier achievements truly were spectacular in their own rights. However as time progressed, and my fortunate improved health ascended to newer, and greater heights than I could ever have hopped for or imagined as being possible, these earlier spectacular health status achievements would in retrospect appear to be very diminished, but however still vitally important as they would be my incremental stepping stones forward.

33.201

Date, April 19, 2012

Rebirth in April 2012, thanks to B1, Thiamine. My discovery, and isolating of B1, during the month of April 2012, is apparently my final recognized crucial deficiency requirement. B1, has improved my overall health, and digestion status to not only the status that I had prior to my just resent onset of Neurological Stomach, and Digestion Dysfunction, but for certain to at least that status that I enjoyed previous to the onset of my "Stomach Collapse" event in 2004, and I am suspecting to even further back to the genesis of these events in 1977.

Thiamine seems to have such an amazing positive impact on all areas of my overall health, but especially on that of my Digestion Competence, and those benefits that appear to be flowing from that optimal digestion competence. It is truly not an over statement to say that my daily use of B1, has facilitated my rebirth during the early part of April 2013. It has taken me 33 years to isolate my chronic need for Vitamin B12, and a further three years, being 36 years of time period to isolate my chronic need for B1, Thiamine. For me I believe that these two Vitamins B12, and B1 were, and would have been the most crucial for me to isolate early on in this disease if it had been possible.

With my isolating of B1, and by its dietary use by me in early April 2012, in conjunction with the standard nutrients that I take with each meal as part of my Treatment Protocol, my digestion capabilities appear to becoming very normal. All Neurological symptoms, including those of my Stomach, and digestion have appeared to vanish, my facial appearance appears to be enhanced so as to signify my enhanced health status, my overall body feels more normal in all respects than it has been for decades, I now just feel very good, and normal, however I know that this disease condition for me is permanent, and shall remain permanent, and without exceptions I shall be required to treat myself with these prescribed nutrients that are contained as a part of my Treatment Protocol, at every main meal of every day, and forever into my future.

33.202

Date, April 22, 2012

B1, Thiamine, continues to work spectacularly well. The positive effects being experienced by me in my using B1, as a separate Nutrient continues each day, and although its positive effects on me at this time are excellent, each day my digestion competence still improves further, and my overall health status also appears to be accelerating backwards to a time to a time when my health was far better then the just previous time period. For the most part all embodiments of my current, and past neurologically Symptoms have been subdued, and have receded to virtually being vanished. In my pondering of what had probably been occurring during these just past, and current times in these matters, I have been reflecting on a number of credible possibilities of reasons.

It is appearing to me now that, because of my un-known, and un-identified chronic need for the Nutrient B1, Thiamine, I had been consuming a chronic Toxic dosage of B-Complex daily for a couple of years in order to get the unknown to me, B1, that I so badly needed. The amount of B-Complex that I was taking daily was at least 150-200 mg of B-Complex daily from this one source alone, plus that which I was getting from the multi vitamin, and other sources daily. The most visible resulting Toxicity of my B-Complex exposure for me to identify, is that of my finger numbness on both hands, and their sensitivity to cold, and hot, and even the rubbing of my fingers on a coarse towel which could result in a complete numbness of a finger without feeling of any kind, as if my finger was made of wood.

There would also be numbness to some degree involving my arms, and other body parts. Whenever this finger numbness would occur, I would be forced to make a compromise, to somehow making due with less, by cutting the dosages of B-Complex in half. After several weeks of the reduced dosages of B-Complex, this finger numbness mostly would subdue. Even with my taking of these very large amount of B-Complex, which appeared to be quite helpful for my digestion, but not completely sufficient for what would have been actually required for my digestion function purposes. As a result of the isolating of my need for B1, I have been able to very heavily cut down on my use of B-Complex, and now only take B-Complex as a sundry prophylactic Nutrient, previously to my isolation, and separate use of B1, my use of B-Complex with meals was mandatory without exceptions.

At this time from the B Family of Vitamins, and at each meal I only take in stand alone separate dosages, B1, and B12. In addition at the same meal I also take, Water Soluble D3, and Vitamins A, and E, which remain very toxic to me, and as a result A, and E must only be cautiously sparingly taken, even from natural or fortified food sources. Even if Vitamins A, or E, are taken by me even in very small amounts there will immediately develop a discomfort in my Liver region towards my back, and also in the area if my Kidneys. I am finding that milk may be containing to much Vitamin A, for me, and even modern Margarines are containing to much A, and E Nutrients for me to handle successfully all of the time, and so I have returned to the use of Butter for now.

33.203

Current April 23, 2012

The occurrence of this new, and hopefully final Epiphany" Which occurred between March 22, 2012, and April 22, 2012. It is strongly appearing to me that there has occurred a "Second Epiphany" in these matters of the resolving of my overall Alcohol Induced Trauma Disorder. This Second Epiphany was spawned by my desperate requirement to somehow overcome my just resent very sever occurrence of Neurological Stomach Digestion Dysfunction problems. Due to my very promising results from my experimenting with BCAAs, Branched Chain Amino Acids in order to somehow help to control my extreme, and serious Neurological Stomach problems, in my I subsequently investigation of BCAAs I found that B1, Thiamine was associated in some manor with these BCAAs.

Because of this association between BCAAs, and B1, I decided to separately experiment directly, and solely with the use of B1, Thiamine. The totally positive, and spectacular results that were achieved by this B1, experiment, directly led me to the isolated recognition of B1, and to my chronic requirement for B1. As a result of my "First Epiphany" in 2009, I discovered, and isolated my chronic need for B12, and now as a result of my "Second Epiphany" I have isolated by Chronic need for B1, Thiamine. It truly is appearing to me that these two (B Vitamins) are all along what I chronically required along with D3, and because my unknowingly of this, I was taking the large dosages of B-Complex in order to unknowingly accomplish my B1 needs. I now separately take both B12, and B1, each by their selves as separate nutrients, along with all other that I take in whatever forms.

33.204

Date, April 25, 2012

Disease Treatment Control, being exacerbated by Fortified Foods. My comment here involves my difficulties being experienced because of dietary foods that are being fortified at the manufacturing process. I have been finding that many of the foods that I include in my diet have been fortified with nutrients, and ingredients that can be harmful to a person with my Trauma. These normally excellent, important, desirable, and valuable dietary Nutrients such as Palmatate, and the very healthy nut, and seed oils can be toxic to a person with my Trauma, but I am finding that they are occurring everywhere in modern products, some openly, and some hidden. The problem for me is that I have found that I must strictly regulate the amount of these Nutrients or I will immediately suffer discomfort in the region of my Torso, being in my Liver area towards my back, and also in the areas of what appears to be my Kidneys.

Even though these Nutrients are highly desirable to be included in all healthy diets, and normally of no problem for the general populations to properly metabolize, however for me they can be extremely toxic in the normally routine daily dosages available in normal diets. I believe that the oils provide to much Vitamin E to me, and Milk products can supply to much Vitamin A to my diet. Because of my Body Trauma condition, at each meal I specifically specify what nutrients that I must take, and in exactly the dosage required, both to control my Digestion Dysfunction, and to control any residual Toxic effects to my Organs. For these reasons, the difficult to avoid dietary products containing Vitamins A, and E, although normally very beneficial, but to me contributing significant problems for me to guard against, and to be constantly overcome or avoided in the first place.

In addition I must also be on the alert for products containing Sulphites as a preservative, and its associated family members, as these will degrade my very scarce supply of B1, Thiamine that is available in my body due to my Trauma. This has only been a tiny example of my problems with fortified foods as there are many more examples possible. Specifically this problem of fortified foods happens for me because they can deliver undesired or embargoed nutrients, and undesired dosages of desired nutrients to my diet, and toxic conditions will arise. This circumstance undesirable because I am required to carefully manage all nutrients, and all dosages of nutrients at each, and every meal.

33.205

Current Journal Date, April 29, 2012

B1, Thiamine is my Supper Star. B1, Thiamine is producing remarkable results for me throughout my entire daily life. There is really not much more to say about the positive impact that B1, is having on my entire life. I have truly been reborn since my B1 usage has started, in that it is having positive impacts on the complete dynamics of my life. My complete life is changing for the better in regards to my decades of Trauma disease symptoms. I even appear to have lost the nuisance of my decades old perpetually chronic occurring tremor in my hands that interfered with my handwriting. The main treatment control that I now apply with each meal to control my Trauma Disorder is as follows here.

Basically these three Nutrients are absolutely required by me, with each meal I continue to take with each meal, Vitamins (B12, 250 mcg), (B1, 35 mg), (D3, Water soluble), in total from all sources I daily now get (160 mg) of B1, Thiamine. (I believe that this requirement for B1, B12, and D3, will have been true for this entire past 36 years, if I had only known.) (I also now believe that B1, Thiamine, thirty years ago would have prevented or controlled my early chronic four years of internal trembling). In regards to my requirement for Vitamin A, and E, as they are very toxic to me, I now completely stay away from any additional supplementing, as they cause me Liver discomfort even in tiny dosages. I also take other sundry nutrients with each meal, including B-Complex in small dosages, but the B-Complex is no longer absolutely mandatory for me since my starting B1 usage.

33.206

Date, April 30, 2012

B1, Thiamine appears to favour Dietary Sugar Metabolic Interactions. Since I have been taking B1, as a separate supplement, I am finding that I am developing a requirement to purposely include some dietary sugars in my diet. I am also finding that these dietary sugars are being metabolized very well, and without negative side effects, including the previously occurring overnight side effect of the alcohol kinds of hangover the next day, when simple carbohydrates are ingested in the evening before.

33.207

Date, May 5, 2012

Observations of a resent benign, and minor Neurological Symptom. Over the past several months there has been sporadically occurring a very minor Neurological symptom that I have yet not made reference to in these writings. Several times each day, there would randomly, and sporadically occur several strong throbbing pulses in my left ear. These strong pulses would range from three to seven pulses, and then immediately completely vanish until their next random appearance. These pulses would feel as if being automatically fired in quick succession. However I have been just reminded to-day that since I discovered, and started taking B1, Thiamine, these pulses appear to have waned, but for certain are waning, and are becoming less frequent as of this day, if it occurs at all, and this symptom for certain has been gradually fading with B1, and time. In other separate observations this day. Since my exposure to B1, Thiamine, all of my past Neurological symptoms are still keeping receded, and there has been unexpected benefits to me as a result of B1, being that my hand writing ability is being enhanced to good function, and my arms, and hands are a lot more steady then for the past many decades. In still another matter, since my last recorded experiments herein with (pure) BCAAs, Branched Chain Amino Acids, I have not experimented again to this point in time with these BCAAs.

33.208

Date, May 7, 2012

Current Health Status Update.

The wonderful series of benefits associated with my resent starting of B1, Thiamine supplementing is continuing daily, and as each day progresses forwards through time, these beneficial results are being still further enhanced. B1 is having a remarkable impact on a wide range of my Neurological symptoms, both my historical, and my most resent occurrences of neurological symptoms. My Neurological stomach symptoms appear to be gone, the decades of my chronic Neurological symptoms of hand writing, and tremors in my arms is mostly gone, my just resent random neurological occurrences of the rapid firing pulsations in my right ear have gone, my eye sight, both physically, and optically is always quite good now, my appetite is good, my eating capacity, and digestion capabilities are greatly enhanced, my facial appearance looks good, and vital, my body weight appears to be stable, and I feel exceptionally overall excellent.

Two days ago in my ongoing pursuit of better understandings, I initiated an experiment involving BCAAs, in the very tiny dosages of (one fiftieth) of a teaspoon. After three hours I experienced some Liver discomfort, and as a result of this, I abruptly terminated this experiment. However after the second day this Liver discomfort ended, and I appear to have emerged feeling overall very good indeed, was there any association with BCAAs or not ?, I have no way of knowing. It is now appearing to me that for the first time in 36 years, my body has started to feel, and to function as it was originally designed to function. It is now appearing to me by taking this entire 36 years into account, that for certain B1, Thiamine has been the single most beneficial nutrient for me in these matters, followed by B12, and D3, in this order.

33.209

Date, May 8, 2012

Hypotheses,

Well founded, regarding my most resent onset of Neurological events. In my attempting to puzzle out the reasons for the occurrence, and the intensifications of my most resent Neurological Symptoms in early 2012, these are the factors, being my observations during, and immediately preceding that period in time of this neurological event, which will buttress my Hypotheses for these reasons. Preceding Circumstances regarding this Neurological manifestation occurrence. In the period preceding the major onset of these Neurological events, two different coincidental event circumstances occurred. I had started to eat a lot of bread originating from a small private bakery, without product ingredient labels. During this period coincidentally it appeared to me that I began to feel extra poorly. In that it is a very strict investigating policy of mine to fully bow too, and to fully investigate all possible coincidences. Without any

understanding of any possible associations between these coincidental food products, and my poor feeling, I immediately stopped consuming the two products. About at the same time I had started to consume a large quantity of dried Apricots in my diet. During my Apricot consuming period, I again began to feel extra poorly, and this is when my Neurological Stomach Symptoms started in earnest, so following my coincidence policy I again immediately stopped consuming dried Apricots. At this time these two events remained unresolved, however I would no longer consume either of these products.

Experiment Period with B.C.A. Acids

Subsequently in great desperation, and with no medical help available to me, as the several Physicians that I attended for help with this matter during this event, had absolutely no ideas, and ultimately offered no help to me, even though I strongly impressed, and professed to these Physicians of my past alcohol usage, my consistent chronic symptoms, and the unbroken chain of continuity of my symptoms since their beginnings 36 years ago. Again it was impressed on me by the demeanor of these Physicians, being their absolute lack of knowledge, and understandings of this Alcohol Trauma category of Medicine. These repeating failed responses by these, and all past Physicians of the basic, and fundamental understandings of my Trauma Disorder or of what I was referring to when trying to explain my background experiences in this matter, was yet another demonstration of one of my most serious classical problems in regards to this, my body trauma issue.

This classic problem of mine being the repeating of my classic experiences of not being referred else ware by the unknowing Physician to a place where my condition might be better understood, because the Physician involved had no basic understanding that a problem even existed, as a result I could never get this referral now or ever throughout my past. Myself then being in that impossible, and desperate circumstance, I started a desperate experiment with BCAAs, (Branched Chain Amino Acids), and found that these BCAAs would offer significant help with my Stomach Neurological Symptoms. Myself being amazed by this help that these BCAAs offered with my Neurological symptoms, I next decided to look further into these BCAAs. In my looking into these BCAAs, I noticed that there were references to some associations with B1, Thiamine, and this is why, and how I isolated my need for B1.

Because of this association between BCAAs, and B1, I decided to try B1. In trying B1, I found that it worked spectacularly well in subduing my current Neurological symptoms, and so I continued to successfully use B1, with immediate spectacular results, which spectacular results still further intensified, and continued to improved with use of B1, over time. Sulphites (B1 antagonist?) In my subsequent examining of the research of others on the subject of B1, Thiamine, I noticed that Sulfur Dioxide was found to be an antagonist of B1, preventing absorption. Upon my examination of the Apricots that I previously had been eating, I found that the Apricots were preserved with Sulphur Dioxide; here was the smoking gun, the explanation, and a buttressing of my suspicions that these Apricots preserved with Sulphur Dioxide had been degrading my health.

Hypotheses Reasons for my Stomach Neurological Event. My Hypothesis is as follows here now. Based on my observations of related associations of circumstances from this 36 years of the existence of my Alcohol Induced Body Trauma, it is now clear to me that for this entire 36 years time period I had unknowingly been deeply deficient in the Vitamin B1, Thiamine. However it now appears to me that during that overall period I appeared to still have some access to B1, but however in grossly insufficient amounts due to my chronic Trauma Condition. It also appears to me that during the just resent Apricots Sulphur Dioxide period, because of the Sulphur Dioxide, my B1, level deeply plummeted to a critical crises deficiency level. This is what brought on my Digestion Neurological crises. However I realize now that it is absolutely the case, being that if this just past Neurological crises event had never occurred, it is highly likely that I would not, and perhaps never have been able to isolate my critical need for B1, Thiamine. I now strictly stay away from any dietary products that can be identified as containing Sulphites.

Buttressing support for my Hypothesis. By my taking of B1, as a separate nutrient, my just previous current Stomach, Digestion, and Neurological symptoms immediately started to recede. The B1, also unexpectedly started to greatly improve the 36 years occurring of my hand tremor, and writing tremor. The B1, also within weeks has appeared to greatly positively effect many previously unpredictable overall areas of my health status, some of these effects being very subtle, but all of these positive effects working together to having essentially normalized my health status to my never before experienced health status over these past 36 years of this disease.

Thiamine, B1, also demonstrated by its broad ranging series of its efficacy that it was indeed the missing nutrient that for many years I had been searching to isolate, thus amply having proved to me that this previously unknown remaining key nutrient was this final component required to solve my final outstanding classic treatment puzzle. Ongoing Performance, and Status Observations. Even though this record of this medical Odyssey that has been portrayed herein these writings has essentially come to its fruition, I am finding that there are still continuing ongoing events, and circumstances that are directly, and intimately connected, and associated with this matter, and that are still very important to record herein.

33.210

Date, May 11, 2012

Related New Consequential B1, Neurological Event. (This is a post entered insertion in the interests of clarity regarding future understandings of this matter of body rigidity, insertion Date, June 1, 2013. Upon my future reflections on the possible causes of this rigidity of my arms, and face muscles after eating, it is now my opinion that the most likely cause of this rigidity symptom involves Vitamin D3, and probably not B1, Thiamine)???,(B1, Thiamine, is still doing a good job, however maybe too much of a good thing), Yesterday being April 10, 2012, there occurred the unexpected onset of a new embodiment of Neurological Symptom.

Around the middle of that day I started to notice a sensation of the feeling of numbness involving my, arms, legs, and body. On my studying of this numbness, I found that I had very good sensitive touch response feelings at any of the location that I softly touched on the surfaces of my body. However there still existed a condition of slight jitteriness, and a strong sensation throughout my entire body of a distinct numbness feeling. This current numbness Symptom although being a neurological symptom was very easy for me to tolerate, and it was only a little uncomfortable being a kind of a nuisance, but it was worrisome for me, and had to be immediately addressed.

My immediate Response. My immediate response to this apparent numbness or muscle rigidity (its difficult to exactly describe or establish this symptoms expressed embodiment) throughout my body was, to start to investigate what was responsible for this numbness, and so my first thought decision was to immediately withdraw from any more supplementing of B1, Thiamine. After eating again before bedtime, I would not take any further B1, or any other nutrients that normally I would have taken after that eating. I went to bed that night with this numbness symptom, and by morning this numbness appeared to have subsided. At breakfast I took no B1, or any other supplements.

Fifteen minutes later while doing some exercise, I could feel some sensations around my heart, and a little shortness of breath, this particular symptom not being new to me due to my vast past experiences with these matters. In dealing with this shortness of breath symptom, I took a tiny oral dosage of B12, (25 mcg), and for good measure a tiny dosage of B-Complex, (5 mg)., this immediately, and completely eliminated this shortness of breath symptom. Five hours later being now, and after lunch had been eaten by me, two hours before now, and I continued to stay away from B1, taking only tiny dosages of B12, and B-Complex, all appears to be still normal.

Examining the entrails of these events. It was my well-founded suspicion that this particular Neurological manifestation was originating from a condition of B1, Thiamine Toxicity in my body. From April 7, 2012, when I first started to separately add B1, Thiamine to my body at every meal, to the onset of this new Neurological symptom, which for the first time occurred between May 9, and 10, 2013 During this thirty-day period I have been taking a daily dosage of B1, being 200 mg daily. As a result of my B1, supplementing, over this 30-day period I have taken (6000 mg of B1, Thiamine), which appears to saturate my need for this B1, if I am not mistaken. It is appearing to me that so far to day, that my decisions to scale back my B1, intake is working.

It is appearing to me now that I have satisfied my deficit need for B1, Thiamine, and that I will be required to drastically scale back my intake dosage of B1, to some very moderate intake level that I will have to establish by experimenting, and trial, observations, and errors. However B1, Thiamine for me has been an exceptional gift as its influence on my overall health continues, including B1, completely controlling that just past excruciating Neurological Symptoms, that I started taking B1, to control. Now the next task is to find my appropriate supplementing dosage for B1, Thiamine. One of the problems that I appear to have involving many vital Nutrients, is that I do not appear to possess the ability of a buffering reservoir so as to be able store these nutrients for my bodies daily needs, as these nutrients shall be required from time to time. For this reason of problem, I am required to balance my nutrient intake, too much is toxic, and to little is ineffective, a constant daily struggle is required.

Preceding associations with this Neurological event. I have been noticing that preceding this Neurological event that certain occurrences would be happening in advance of, and occurring with this neurological symptom. For the preceding three days of the first occurrence of this Neurological event while taking these large dosages of B1, I would find much more body hair in the drain screen after my shower then would normally be the case. This hair lose observation was also observed many times in the past when my B-Complex dosages got too high. Another preceding event condition has been my accelerating requirement for the numbers of times that I must urinate during the overnight period. These occurrences can, and will be used by me to monitor my B1, dosage status, in my efforts to keep out of its toxic range.

Predictable occurrence. This same evening being the next day after my temporary with drawl of B1, Thiamine intake dosage from my diet, the Numbness Symptoms feelings from this latest neurological manifestation are still gone, and at my latest bathing shower, I observed that there was no hair in the drain strainer after that shower. Dosages. I intend to start a new dosage protocol for Total Daily B1, Thiamine, intake dosage of 100 mg. from all daily sources, and then as time, and circumstances progresses, and allow, to then further cut back this dosage if possible.

33.211

Date, May 14, 2012

B1, Thiamine, comment on Efficacy. The effectiveness of my B1, Thiamine usage is still continuing to hold up against my just previous Neurological Stomach, and Digestion manifestations, and I truly feel that I have, and I am making up a great deal of ground in regards to improvements in overall health statuses. However I have realized that even with my apparent successful current B1, strategy, that it is reasonable for me to expect that even though there has been incredible good progress in regards to my overall health improved status through my B1, usage, that some extended time period will be required to pass so as to be able to effectively heal the accumulated damages that have occurred to my Digestion System, especially since that event of my Stomach Collapse in 2004.

It is appearing more, and more plausible to me that this extended healing is possible, because I can daily see subtle, but never the less, daily, and weekly further improvements of historical significance during this period in time. When it comes to knowing the exact reason, and method of why, and how B1, is being so effective for my current medical needs, two basic possibilities come immediately to mind. One possibility is that for me, B1, was, and is a chronic deficiency, especially since my 2004 Stomach Collapse event. Another possibility is that B, can be acting as an effective Metabolic Intervention Medicine, acting to facilitate a more normal digestion function. And still another possibility is that B1 is acting in both of these ways simultaneously.

I have been finding that by my routine taking of B1, at each meal with my other treatment components, that it is doing a good, and predictably reliable job for me as expected, however I have been finding at times especially in the evenings of the days when there are times that I feel that it is required for me to take a little extra B1, alone, and so I carefully have done so. I personally am leaning towards Chronic B1, Deficiency along with a dysfunctional metabolic digestion function, and I am hopping that given the time required to further repair, and heal, still greater stability of digestion functioning status shall occur.

*(A Post Insertion of Clarity, Insertion Date, Sept. 2, 2012. Upon my examining, and my comparing of both, my resent excruciating Neurological, and Digestion Dysfunction, with that of the deep B1, Thiamine deficiency condition known as Beriberi, along with my remedy that I found to vanquish this dysfunction, there can be no doubt, but that my resent Neurological events were in fact, that condition of Beriberi.)

33.212

Date, May 15, 2012

My emerging Supposition regarding, Roasted Peanuts, Sugars, Body weight, B1, and Neurology. Based on reoccurring past, and present associated observations of my experiences involving my dietary consumption of Roasted Peanuts in small controlled amounts, appear to have a positive, and subtle effectiveness for a person with my dysfunction. However I am required to stay away from healthy plant oils as much as possible, as they will cause to much discomfort in my torso areas of Kidneys, and Liver. My experience with dietary Roasted Peanuts over the past has culminated at this time in some very strongly associated impressions of Peanuts relationships with the possibility of body weight gain, and hence improved health status for someone with my Trauma Disorder. This observed, and experienced association between Roasted Peanuts, and Body weight gain, for certain is not connected in any manor with the supplying of dietary calories from the Peanuts.

It is now appearing to me that either the Roasted Peanuts contain some not understood metabolic enhancing digestion function ingredient or another possibility is that Roasted Peanuts contain well known, and well understood dietary nutrients commonly available in my diet, however but in a different chemical form of that nutrient that is metabolically better able to be processed by my body. It appears that 5 to 10 Peanuts at each meal can accomplish this positive body weight gain, but however under the right overall prevailing conditions. It also is my experience that no matter how great is my calorie intake from all sources, that weight gain is stubbornly rested. It is also appearing that by including B1, Thiamine in my diet that the required prevailing conditions better exist for Roasted Peanuts to put on my body weight.

Sugar associations regarding Neurology, and Dietary. In a different subject observation regarding my building suspicions that there is to some degree an association between my Neurological Stomach Symptoms, and Dietary sugars. To be very clear, it appears to me that my prevailing Blood Glucose levels at any particular point in time, weather above, below or optimal have nothing to do with this possible Neurological, and Sugar association. It is however appearing to me that this suspected association between my Neurological digestion symptom, when prevailing, and dietary sugar is probably associated directly, and immediately with my immediate metabolic function requirements of my Digestion Chemistry. In this same theme, B1, Thiamine appears to facilitate in me a more normal metabolizing of dietary sugar, in addition to Thiamine's other important duties. 33.213

Date, May 16, 2012

Demonstrated power of B1, Thiamine. It is daily being demonstrated, and becoming more, and more evident to me daily of the power that Thiamine possesses for a person like myself, because this positive produce resulting from my use of Thiamine is being expressed daily in my life now, as uniquely contributing to the normalizing of my health status to that of historical significance. I have now started to observe on a routine basis during this period in time, being that of an excellent overall status of my current health circumstances, that for certain has at least not existed since my "Stomach Collapse" event in 2004, being during the past eight years.

I have been newly observing, and subtly noticing from time to time just recently, that there has been starting to occur a very significant improvement change in my overall demeanor of my daily being, in that I have started to feel in a way that I have not felt for the many decades just past It is appearing to me more, and more daily that things are just right in every respect, in many ways as they were for me when I was a teenager. A simple demonstrated example of my perceived just right correctness of status circumstance can be described by this exaggerated example as follows here now. Just recently while driving my car, and newly noticing my condition circumstance feelings of something being very different than my usual circumstance.

This new feeling circumstance that I noticed was that everything appeared to be, and feel just right, and that there was nothing extra that I would either add or remove from that present circumstance to improve anything at all, as all appeared to be just right. And the way it was meant to be. This apparent just right condition that I speak of here, could be equivalently compared to a more naive, and simple time in my past. This exaggerated example itself, being myself as a teenager, driving along in my first automobile on a perfect summer day, when every thing was just right, with the car radio that I had just installed playing, myself having no maladies, stomach discomfort, or health issues, as the circumstances at those times always appeared to be just right, and the way that things were always expected to be at that time in my life.

Weather or not my jalopy automobile had brakes or not, was of little importance to me in those carefree days, as all was just right. Responsibilities of life had not yet fully impressed itself on my daily life, as unknown to me at those times my Parents were still doing the heavy lifting in my life. In a very general way this feeling is that exhilarated uplifted kind of just right overall feelings of my current circumstances which have started to occur, more, and more due solely to this just resent introduction of Thiamine into my life. Thiamine is producing these kinds of historical subtle comparison benefits into my daily life, including many others not being mentioned here. B1, Thiamine has fundamentally impacted my Trauma Disorder in a revolutionary positive manor, which nothing else has been capable of duplicating. "Generally I have noticed that with all things that effect our daily lives, that these unrecognized, and unnoticed things move, and overlay themselves on our lives so imperceptibly slowly, that in effect they become a part of us without our noticing their presence, and as such we willingly embrace these changes, and except them into our lives as being a normal part of our selves".

In effect my discovery, and use of Thiamine, 36 years after the onset of my Alcohol induced Body Trauma, has appeared to restore, and repair many of the affected areas of my health, and has appeared to have lifted the chronic fatigue, and drudgery of battling this 36 years war, which fatigue, and drudgery that I did not even recognize as even existing before this drudgery fatigue had began to lift by my resent use of Thiamine., and I now appear to step more lightly when I walk as if on air. Even though I consider the benefits being contributed by B1, as primary, unmatchable, major, and indispensable benefits in regards its prowess, there still also remain the lesser important, however still very, very important treatment requirements of my Treatment Protocol, including D3, and B12, and for certain, many related heath challenges still remain. This demonstration of the significance of B1, and the power that B1, Thiamine can exert over someone with my Trauma disorder, can in fact be extrapolated forward to show clearly, Thiamine's unseen associative with Metabolic normal health statuses of the population at large.

33.214

Date, May 24, 2012

Current observations / B1, Thiamine. My overall status is stable, excellent, and improving daily, along with my improving more vital facial appearance. It is now appearing to me that once I had filled my body's deficit reservoir with B1, my metabolic ability to properly digest food, and extract its nutrients have somewhat normalized. It appears to me that because of my initial taking of heavy dosages of B1, that my digestion ability as a result, is becoming more normalized in its functioning abilities. As such it is appearing that I now am able to extract more of the nutrients, that I previously chronically required, and as a direct result now appear to require less support from nutrient supplementing. However as a direct result of my experiences, I see a very clear point of understanding in regards to the Human bodies requirement for B1, Thiamine. This understanding in part, being that if B1, Thiamine is totally absent in my body, my digestion shall cease its metabolically Digestion function. It is my belief that B1, is at the apex of the hierarchy of digestion enabling nutrients, and as such is totally indispensable to digestion function competence.

33.215

Date, June 1, 2012

SUN, both Friend, and Foe ???

This entry will be an involved, and complex entry, which will be comprised of many associated participants, being, Alcohol Induced Body Trauma, Vitamin D3, Body rigidity, sun exposure, D3 supplementing, and some emerging intriguing suppositions in these regards.

*(In the interests of clarity, this entry is being posted from a little bit further into the future. I will experience still further contradictions involving Sun exposure, Vitamin D3, and Symptoms. In order to react, and respond to these contradictions of understandings being dealt with here in this entry, I will have strictly ration limited my skin Sun exposure, while still taking Water Soluble D3, and will find that the past old symptom of foot, and toes rigidity has started to re-appear again, again this contradiction. (item), The way moving still further into the future that I will try to deal with these contradictions regarding D3, and skin Sun exposure, is that I propose to try to balance manage this dosage time of Sun skin exposure, and see what happens).

During this past resent period, and now still currently occurring, there has been the occurring of some puzzling newly intensifying symptoms of body rigidity. This Symptom seems to especially involve my arms, and hands, but also in my facial expression muscles, a feeling of stiffness, and rigidity after eating a meal. At first I thought that this rigidity was of a neurological nature, and perhaps it is, but as a result of my further thoughts about the possible origin of this rigidity, and that of the nature of this rigidity, it is appearing more, and more to me that this rigidity is strongly, and intimately associated with Vitamin D3 in some manor, and that this rigidity appears not to be directly of neurological origins.

This rigidity usually occurs after eating, and is more intense later in the day, and in the evenings at this particular time. Upon my still further reflections on this rigidity, it appears to be closely related to my past experiences of overall body rigidity including chest rigidity of my Sternum. However this current rigidity being spoken of here now dose not involve my Sternum at this time. To be clear, this symptom of body rigidity is a very old symptom in these matters that date back to the earliest beginnings of these matters, however the exact manifestation signatures of this rigidity symptom has varied greatly over the years. At this particular time, because of the strong manifestation itself of this symptom of body rigidity, and its immediate association with direct sun exposures, myself recognized this contradiction as being a good opportunity of study, and experiment into this Symptom of body rigidity. In my subsequent reviewing my dated entries herein this Chapter of these writings, I am reminded of the past Sternum rigidity of my Sternum, and its suspected association by me with Vitamin D3.

Curious Observations regarding D3. I have noticed that there were two particular events that stood out, being very easily recognized due to the virility of the symptom produced, and accompanied at the same time by a lot of sun skin exposure. One event being when this current rigidity symptom is now occurring in my arms, and face, and not occurring to my Sternum, and the other major time being referred to, which occurred about a year ago, and involved similar direct immediate associations between body rigidity, and sun exposures. At that time, and subsequently I could not reconcile the reasons for its occurrence, and it remained unresolved. That rigidity account of a year ago is contained herein these writings at entry dates, as of July 19, 2011, and onward in entries, at text positions 33.109, 33.110, 33.111, and 33.133.

The one intriguing similarity between these two entry periods that are separated by about one year, is that specifically during both of these periods, my sun exposure on my body was very high which including my face, torso, and arms being exposed to the sun during both of these event periods. These two periods being spoken of, and dealt with here, and now are not the only times that body rigidity has been an occurring problem for me, in fact over the years, and decades, body rigidity has been a significant problem for me to deal with. However for purposes of brevity, and simplicity I only am referring to these two event periods of body rigidity, which appear to be strongly associated with each other by sun exposure, and simultaneously occurring body rigidity, but separated by one year.

Setup to "The" Question

I have recognized an intriguing paradoxical question here that appears to require some contradictory answers. This setup information to this Paradoxical contradictory puzzling question being, it appears to me that in my particular case circumstance that a deficiency of Vitamin D3 can be strongly associated with this symptom of body rigidity, and in both of these occurrences of experienced body rigidity being referred to, and spoken of here, being that in both of these experiences, my body was exposed that day to large dosages of sun exposure to my torso, arms, and face, and the rigidity symptoms were particularly potent in their expressed embodiments. In my historic observations over the many past decades in time, it has been my experience during summers long since past, and before I understood or knew of my D3, deficiency, and its association with my resulting overall body rigidity, that experience being that Sun Exposure on my body would immediately cause the grip of rigidity on my body to be loosened. Additionally during these two body rigidity event periods being spoken of here now, I have been taking a great deal of Vitamin D3 as a supplementation, in addition to getting as much sun exposures as available when available.

The Profound Paradoxical Question. The Paradoxical Question being, Why, Why, Why, the apparent Vitamin D3 deficiency (or association of some sort), in my body which in the past I have strongly associated with D3, deficiency causing this Body Rigidity, when during these both periods of times of body rigidity being examined here there has been high amounts of sun exposures on my skin at the same time as Vitamin D3, supplementation?

My Hypothesis for this Answer. These mystifying occurrences of body rigidity has been truly puzzling, tricky, and deceiving to contemplate, because of the not understood by me of the contradictions of Sun Exposure on my skin, being both beneficial under some circumstances, and detrimental under other circumstances. To this point in time my understanding of sun exposure had always been that sunshine was truly my hero in all respects, and its possible negative side was never realized or known by me. Perhaps over dosage of D3, should also be considered along with deficiency of D3, as a possible cause of this rigidity. This Hypothesis will be required to deal with the coinciding contradictions, being strong sun exposure to my body while I was simultaneously supplementing with Vitamin D3, and on the other side of this argument my apparent Vitamin D3, deficiency, or overdose toxicity simultaneously occurring at the exact same time. Which is it, or am I on the wrong track altogether in this thinking.

As to what exactly has been happening in regards to the observed relationship between D3, skin Sun exposure, and body rigidity is not clear to me, but what I thing may have been occurring to cause this apparent Vitamin D3 deficiency (or not deficiency) is as follows here now. (item), It has occurred to me that perhaps I do not posses the ability, because of this Trauma, this ability to properly regulate my D3 blood levels. (item), It is common knowledge that when our bodies are exposed to sunshine, our bodies are capable of manufacturing Vitamin D3, as a result of that exposure. (item), Now a preliminary question emerges, being how does the body prevent the production of toxic overdoses of Vitamin D3? (item), Again it is common knowledge that apparently the answer is that one the optimal amount of D3 has been manufactured, from that point onward, further sun exposure will no longer allow for further D3 manufacturing, but instead further sun exposure will start to degrade D3 to maintain the bodies desired level of Vitamin D3.

Vitamin D3, Hypothesis.

What I think the mechanism might be that is causing my suspected D3 deficiency that is spoken of in these two cited examples here is as follows. For a Person like myself having an Acquired Alcohol Induced Body Trauma, I have discovered due to that event of My Epiphany in 2009, I require additional Vitamin D3 supplementing all the year round, regardless of the availability of sunshine or not. So in the summer time on a sunny day upon my taking of sufficient D3 earlier in the day, and then getting lots of sun exposure during that day, that sun exposure previously beneficial to me will, apparently now actually cause my body to degrade the supplemented level of Vitamin D3 in my body in order to maintain my bodies predetermined preferred level of D3.

My bodies recognized level of D3 is for me not high enough due to my Fat Digestion disorder. This I have tentatively very successfully proven by a resent experiment, however I am now proposing a further experiment. This experiment basically being to examine if I can successfully side step this potential of the destruction of D3 in my body occurring from additional sun exposure, by myself taking sufficient Vitamin D3 during the summer time from a supplement source, after the sun exposure period has ended for each day (preferably a water soluble emulsified source of D3).

There is also an additional intriguing possibility of explanation, being perhaps that the Sun exposure on my skin is also doing other unknown, and unrecognized things in my body, in addition to its Vitamin D3 activities?

33.216

Date, June 3, 2012

B1, Confirmation Experiments results. Due to my just resent past experiencing of accelerating body muscle rigidity, I conducted a few experiments in regards to the possible causes of this rigidity, and also included in these experiments were my re-evaluations of both my requirements for ongoing supplementing with Vitamin B1, and including the re-evaluation of B1, Thiamine's minimum effective daily dosage required for me at this time. My conclusions according to this seven days of just completed experiments regarding Body rigidity, and minimum level of B1, daily supplementing required by me at this time are as follows here now. It appears to me that these muscle rigidity symptoms are not directly associated with my supplementing with B1, Thiamine. Instead this rigidity appears to be directly related with Vitamin D3, and in particular with a deficiency of D3. The current cause of effect of this apparent deficiency of D3, I believe paradoxically to be sun exposure on my skin, which is contrary to common belief, being under some circumstances like mine presently, sun exposure can actually facilitate D3 deficiency.

This contradictory result conduct of the Sun on my well being is still very mystifying to me, sometimes it appears to be my friend, and sometimes it appears to be my foe. During the two days of observations following the end of this experiment, not only did I stay away from sun exposure on my skin, but also for two days it rained with no appearance of the sun. Immediately I started to feel a resumption of my classic old symptom of the beginning of mild foot, and toe stiffness, but not any other rigidity as was being described being dealt with by this experiment. My experiment result assumption regarding my body rigidity in arms, and face appears to be immediately shown as correct so far, being that without added sun exposure on my skin this body rigidity will not occur, and if it shall occur, it shall be so mild that it is difficult to recognize.

Now in turning to the subject of B1, Thiamine, and its minimum required daily dosage for myself according to the outcome of this experiment. During this experiment I had severely cut down the dosages of B1, Thiamine, and after seven days I had found that my overall status of health had diminished, and was continuing to steadily diminish. As a result of my conclusion as a result of this resent experiment that B1, was not directly implicated in the occurrence of my body rigidity, and because of my occurrence of diminishing health status which seemed directly due to the reduction of B1, supplementing during my experiment, I re-instated my supplementing of B1, to my previously routine daily levels. This routine daily level of B1, Thiamine supplementing for me at this time appears to be temporarily higher than the previous to this experiment, that previous being, (75 mg to 100 mg of B1) daily from the supplement only, plus 50 mg of B1, from the B-Complex I take daily, plus other sundry amounts of B1, from other sources.

33.217

Date, June 5, 2012

Promoting understandings of Clarity. *This entry shall contain all sorts of fragmented information in the pursuant of promoting clarity of understandings of the matters throughout this document. (Item), I have now passed my 71st year. (Item), I do not take Digestion Enzymes, as the mechanics of my digestion are good, and any references to these Enzymes are only as stated when stated herein. (Item), I do not take BCAAs, (Branched Chain Amino Acids), because of cautionary reasons, as very tiny amounts, example, (one fortieth of teaspoon), will cause back ache, my BCAAs history is only as stated herein, and where, and when stated. (Item), I use Butter instead of Margarines at these times in order to stay away from the otherwise healthy fats which contain to much Vitamin E for me to tolerate. (Item), Milk products contain to much Palmitate, and as a result I ration my intake of Milk, and Milk products.

Peanuts contain too much Vitamin E, and so I also ration my desirable intake of this very beneficial food. (Item), At this time during this period at these very moments, I am conducting a casual experiment in regards to Sunshine exposure, and its apparent promoting of body rigidity, by carefully limiting my Sun Skin exposure. (Item), I take B1, Thiamine daily, (100 mg) divided between all meals, also including the taking of (500 mcg B12), (50 mg. B-Complex), (1500 iu Water soluble D3), plus many other sundry nutrients. (Item), I use, and monitor the appearance of my Face, as to colour, vibrancy, and look of vitality, not for vanity, but to monitor the efficacy, propriety, and appropriateness of my conduct of current remedies. (Item), My body weight is stable at 160 lb. naked, and it is not possible for me to change this weight, no matter how many calories I take in. (Item).

My blood pressure remains very good, and normal at 124/70, and my blood glucose remains in good normal range. (Item), I daily exercise moderately, and I am quite active. (Item), Just recently I have been successful in my subduing of the chronic feeling of mild discomfort in my torso, being in the area of my Liver, by the process of the dietary restriction of Vitamin E, being contained in plant oils, in multi vitamins, in peanuts, and wherever else I can recognize as containing Vitamin (E). (Item), My eyes, and eye sight are now always good, and clear, both physically, and optically. (Item), My Hemorrhoids no longer exist nor have they existed for at least a year past now. (Item), My Stool now is always normal in all respects, as to color, and shape.

(Item), My Stomach, and Esophagus have, and are healing to advanced status, as to biological healing, and metabolic function, with this one proviso, being only with my mandatory ongoing of critical Nutrients buttressing. (Item), My resent excruciating Neurological Stomach symptoms, post B1, Thiamine, no longer exist, the documented representations of which are solely as intended were, and when they occur herein.

(Item), I strictly avoid the preservative, Sulphur Dioxide ?, and its close chemical relatives, in order to preserve my B1, body stores. (Item), I still avoid dietary sugars as far as possible, as they are overall counterproductive.

(Item), There is a future experiment brewing in my conception, this experiment essentially being comprised of the marriage in tandem between B1, Thiamine, and BCAAs. (Item), I monitor my body weights stability as a conformation of the correctness of my posture of conducts, and treatment measures that I use to control my disorder. (Item), Since that event of my epiphany which occurred in 2009, I have made it as a strict rule without the possibility of exception, that I shall carry with me the nutrients required for the control of my disorder, no matter when or where I will be located at any given time of each, and every day. (Item), I take no prescription medications, now or basically ever.

(Item), Historically I have had a fair amount of chest hair on my body, but over the past decades this chest hair had become very thin, however I have noticed that since that event of my "Epiphany" in 2009, my chest hair has returned to a very robust density of chest, and stomach hair. (Item), In an observation regarding the hair on my head, my head of hair seems to have never been affected by this disorder, in that it remained essentially undetectable changed over the decades of the occurrence of this disorder, maintaining its density, and original color.

(Item), Firstly in regards to further attempting to clarify the subject of body rigidity, there was the original neurological symptom of internal trembling, especially in my arms, which historically occurred at the beginnings of my trauma disorder around 1978, and lasting about four years, which is recorder herein early on, and was distinctly very different from anything that has ever occurred to me again in regards to these matters.

(Item), Secondly referring to the excruciating Neurological Stomach symptoms which occurred in early 2012, and the account of which is recorded herein, this Stomach Neurological manifestation, had never occurred before, and was solely found by me to be the direct result of Vitamin B1, Thiamine Deficiency, this symptom was distinctively very different from any other which has ever occurred to me.

(Item), Thirdly referring to the describing of my current occurrences of body rigidity, this symptom that I have recently associated with both Sunshine exposure on my skin, and Vitamin D3, this rigidity as I have described this symptom as resembling can now be better described as follows here, this rigidity symptom actually more accurately is better described as a combination of the feeling of rigidity with an underlying mild neurological component, especially noticeable in my right arm, and my jaw, and face after eating.

(Item), Fourthly referring to my 33 year historically occurring overall body rigidity, and lack of flexibility, there was occurring in me ant to my body, from this disorders beginnings in 1977 to that event of my "Epiphany", a constant daily lack of flexibility, and overall body rigidity, but with no recognizable Neurological component.

(Item), It remains as a material fact regarding these overall circumstances in regards to the matters contained herein these writings, that as of this very day, and to this very moment, no Physician has ever addressed or in any way recognized the existence of my Alcohol Induced disorder, being the subject matters of these writings herein.

(Item), In reference to my resent onset of excruciating Neurological Stomach symptoms, which I successfully treated solely by myself by my experimental use of BCAAs, and B1, Thiamine, this sole self treating of myself by myself was forced upon me once again, when again I was discharged, abandoned, unrecognized, and untreated by my Physician, and set adrift alone, and by myself, with no treatment or advice, and with this Neurological Stomach Symptom raging inside of me.

(Item), In regards to this non treatment by my current Physician, and in fact by all past Physicians, my begging any Physician for treatment, and relief would have been my final option in trying to get treated in these matters, however in all cases this begging would have been both inappropriate, and ultimately fruitless, being that if the Physician does not know, than they do not know, and especially if they have a propensity for indifferent blindness, end of possibility.

33.218

Date, June 10, 2012

Auspicious Experiment Results, Marriage of B1, Thiamine, and BCAAs. It is appearing that there has just occurred still another great discovery, a truly seminal moment. This discovery of importance for myself being perhaps ultimately the most important of all of my past important discoveries in regards to the treating of my Alcohol induced Body Trauma. This discovery has appeared to enhance my bodies' ability to better metabolically utilize the very important to me B1, Thiamine that I have discovered I so desperately require. For me B1, Thiamine, is from my point of view the most important Nutrient of all the essential nutrients, in that if other essential nutrients are missing from the body, the body can still limp along in its diminished, and diseased capacity.

However in the case of B1, Thiamine, if B1, Thiamine shall be missing from the body, because B1, Thiamine is so intimately involved with the bodies Neurological Operating System, this absence of B1, Thiamine will mean the absence of the expectations of life itself. This marriage between B1, Thiamine, and BCAAs, convincingly appears to somehow allow my bodies better metabolic access to this wonderful nutrient B1, Thiamine. Since my discovery of B1, Thiamine, the reason that I have always more formally referred to this nutrient together as both, B1, and Thiamine in these writings, is because it is my way of denoting my respect for this unique nutrients power. I have been conducting an experiment over the past seven days which involved the testing of my proposed strategy, testing the possibilities of any benefits to be derived from combining BCAAs, (Branched Chain Amino Acids), and B1, Thiamine.

This experiments parameters were to add pure BCAAs to my B1, Thiamine dosage. The Dosage of the BCAAs was to be very tiny, this tiny dosage volume of BCAAs, being equal in volume to the volume dosage itself of the B1, Thiamine being taken, and certainly no more than double the volume of that B1, Thiamine dosage. The immediate result from this experiment was spectacular, in that there was an immediate recognizable positive effect resulting from this experiment of this marriage. These positive benefits results flowing out of this experiment turned out to be immediate, predictably consistent, and reliable on a use by use basis. The describing of these positive benefits are as follows here now.

(item), There was no ach or discomfort across my back in the area of my kidneys while, and when taking these BCAAs in concert with the B1, Thiamine, as were my consistent previous experiences of taking BCAAs alone, even with lesser dosages of these BCAAs.

(item), With this combination of BCAAs, and B1, Thiamine, there was a feeling of an immediate enhancement occurring to the status of my overall health, and a recognizable immediate decrease of some symptoms, and total elimination of others.

(item), This marriage of these two Nutrients is consistently elevating my overall status of health to a status of health that could best be described as statistically approaching that of the normal health status in the population at large.

(item), My facial appearance has become vital, and healthy normal looking as a result of this experiment. (item), Again a proviso, being that this supplementing conduct must be maintained in order to maintain these new elevated health benefits.

33.219

Date, June 15, 2012

Experiment to control Neurological Rigidity. In a just resent experiment I attempted to mitigate my most resent symptom, being the feelings of a combination of apparent?, Neurological symptoms, and rigidity symptoms of my body muscles, especially noticeably involving my arms, and my face, which symptom appears to dramatically increase after eating a meal. When this symptom was occurring I experimented with the drinking of a glass of plain water. Amazingly this water appeared to quickly greatly diminish this symptom of Neurological rigidity. Before, and after the drinking of this water, there was no thought of water on my part, and no thirst or dryness of any kind being experienced by me, either in my throat or in my chest, or else ware in my body. This experienced result of this experiment is leading me to consider that this symptom of this rigidity can in fact be a metabolic issue, and perhaps not totally a Nutrient issue.

33.220

Date, June 17, 2012

Clarity of Understandings. *This entry will be dedicated to the clarifications regarding the content matters throughout this document. (item), References to the toxicity of Vitamins A, and E, to someone like my, are as stated throughout these writings where ever they are stated. (item), Digestion Enzymes are in fact irrelevant, and of no consequence in regards to Alcohol Induced Trauma, and as such any references herein, where ever these references occur are abrogated as irrelevant to this disease or its treatment. (item), Roasted Peanuts are toxic, and therefore if eaten they must be rationed in the diet. (item), Because of this Trauma, and its subsequent unstable, and evolving status as a result of healing or appropriate treatment outcome, the Metabolic Digestion System can act differently at different times to the exact same procedure or treatment effort. (item), Tiny amounts of BCAAs, taken with B1, Thiamine appears to greatly enhance the Thiamine's effectiveness, and remains as stated where stated.

(item), In regards to this Trauma condition, I have found that it is my dietary preference that Beef, and Pork is far more friendly, and effective, as apposed to Chicken or Fish, as animal fats appear to be especially required in my diet. (item), Milk must be rationed as it contains to much Palmitate. (item), I have been using Butter in place of the plant oils in Margarines, in order to control these good plant oils, but carriers of Toxic to me Nutrients. (item), Antacid use, and acid reducing medications to control digestion Symptoms are generally a failed treatment strategy in regards to Alcohol Induced Traumas, for the reason being that the actual problem lays else ware involving Metabolic Digestion Incompetence, and as a result this incompetence must instead be correctly treated instead. (item), Dietary sugars, and simple carbohydrates must be strictly controlled for excessive usage, and the references to dietary sugars are as stated, wherever stated throughout these writings.

(item), References to the need for dietary animal fats are as stated, wherever stated herein. (item), The references to my pre-existing hemorrhoid condition are as stated, were stated, however this hemorrhoid condition pre-existed my Trauma by many years, but however was dramatically impacted during the build up to this Trauma, and during this Traumas tenure. Paradoxically when I ultimately found the proper understandings, and solution to my Trauma, these hemorrhoids miraculously also disappeared. (item), Ultimately I have found that my use of Blood Sugar measurement equipment was essentially irrelevant in any practical sense, in the treating of this Trauma, but when I knew little about things, I had no way of knowing this. However it did help to rule out things, and was of some help many years later when it did arrive on my scene, but never instrumental in any real way in solving my trauma mystery. (item), all references to symptoms regarding my eyes that occur throughout this document are as intended when intended.

33.221

Date, June 19, 2012

Vanishing Neurological Symptoms. I am finding that by my ingesting of a glass of drinking water after eating a meal, the Stiffness, and Rigidity, if then occurring in my arms, and hands appears to greatly lessen in its intensity. At the time of this drinking of the water, I do not feel thirsty or dry in either my throat or else ware in my body, and normally otherwise I am not required, and do not desire to drink this water, except for this one reason itself. At this current time period there are no other symptoms that I can recognize connected with this stiffness, and rigidity in my arms.

33.122

Date, June 20, 2012

Current Procedural Treatment Precautions. Here will be documented some several cautionary reminders in order to reinforce my remembering of some dangers experienced, and identified in my current treatment procedures of my Alcohol Induced Trauma. This reinforcing is required due to my constantly evolving interpretations of my actual health condition status, with its constantly modifying symptoms, both because of the continuing complexity of this Trauma's Symptoms, and secondly because of the continuing improving status of my health with nothing remaining static or the same.

The first danger to remember is, if I should feel or interpret as existing a little or subtle digestion discomfort from time to time, especially before going to bed at night. I have found that it has been inappropriate to take any kind or amount of antacid as a response to this interpretation, and should be avoided. The reasons being that it appears that this condition when or if existing, is most likely not related to too much acid, and as a result my digestion ability can become compromised. This compromised digestion condition will be manifested as a very unpleasant feeling in my Stomach all night long, with a lot of noise in my stomach, and the feeling of liquids flowing in my stomach.

Conversely there can also exist a resulting stomach condition of this antacid, as everything just sitting in my stomach all night long without activity, dependent on the current circumstances, if, and when this shall occur. I have found that the appropriate response to the initial interpretation of stomach discomfort should have been be to take small amounts of (B-Complex) with water instead of antacids. Controlling Vitamins (A), and (E) Toxic dosages. I have found that it is extremely important to control my Vitamin (E) dosages from all daily sources. A compromise is required in regards to Vitamin (E), as it is, and remains Toxic to a person with this Trauma. I have been finding that there is a great deal of (Vitamin E) contained in a wide variety of foods, both naturally occurring, and also from fortification.

I have as a result been required to drastically limit my consumption of otherwise good plant oils, containing (E). I have also been required to select a Multi-Vitamin/Mineral that for certain directly contains no Palmitate, and which contains the lowest possible content of Vitamin (E). I have also found that milk contains to much (A) Retinal, and its dietary intake should be restricted. Drinking Water. The drinking of water after eating should be a standard procedure requirement if afflicted with this Trauma condition, weather or not being thirsty or dry it is irrelevant, as I have found that water is a mandatory requirement of some metabolic digestion functions, with this Trauma condition. Drinking coffee can suffice as a surrogate for water, but water is best, with or without coffee.

33.223

Date, June 22, 2012

Neurological Symptom Progress. It is now being observed by me regarding my most recent symptom, being firstly of the extremely serious excruciating Neurological Stomach, and Digestion dysfunction symptoms, and secondly of the (as I am guessing at, and describing as) neurological feelings of mild rigidity after eating particularly in my arms, hands, and face muscles have appeared to for the most part to have all gone, since my discovery, and my continued taking of B1, Thiamine over the past little while. The B1, Thiamine appears to have been very effective in the influencing, impacting, regenerating, and thus eliminating most of the current, and long-term consequential damages that I am aware of as a result of this Trauma. Differing Neurological damages have been occurring during differing periods of time over the past 36 years, and some of these residue damages have become chronic in nature, however it is appearing that B1, Thiamine is improving, and possibly reversing, even these mild long term chronic Neurological symptoms. Remember this, I had absolutely no knowledge of B1, Thiamine until early 2012, and so this capability of B1, Thiamine appears to be quite remarkable indeed. In another comment, Even though my experiences with BCAAs have been quite positive, still I do not now routinely take BCAAs, as I apparently do not need to take them, and also I do not adequately understand them, and so I remain very guarded, and suspicious of their use routinely.

33.224

Date, June 23, 2012

Vitality of my Facial Appearance. Over the past several years, especially during that period of my Stomach Collapse Period, I have been trying to put on some body weight without success in order to improve my facial appearances in regards to, improving my facial look of vitality, to improving my facial look of health, to improving my emaciated facial look, and to improving my haggard facial look. By my resent starting of the taking of B1, Thiamine in order to successfully control my Neurological problems; I have also accidentally accomplished this great improvement in my facial appearance as a result of B1, Thiamine, and without any changes in my body weight. I am now convinced that I was completely on the wrong track in associating my bodyweight with my facial appearance; as it turns out, there was no connection in fact. It is now consistently, and stably appearing that now my facial appearance is the appearance of health, and vitality due to B1, Thiamine, and not body weight.

33.225

Date, June 24, 2012

Current content of Treatment Protocol. The mandatory content portion of my current Treatment Protocol is as shall now follow here, these daily total dosages being divided up between the main meals of each day, and taken with each meal. Mandatory Treatment Components, Orally With Meals, Daily total dosage, (B1, Thiamine 200 mg), (B12, 500 mcg.), (B-Complex, 50 mg), (Water soluble, D3, 1500 iu),

(Note; Drinking Water is Recommended)

(Note:, Vitamins (A), and (E), is continuing to be restricted by sacrificial rationing.), (Note, Butter instead of Margarine), (Note, Restricted Milk intake), (Note, Restricted Peanuts intake). Also taken with meals. Discretionary in addition to the Mandatory, *Portion of Multi/Vitamin containing no Retinal, and a very low Vitamin (E) content, *Omega 3 Fish Oils, *Vitamin (C), *Calcium, *Drinking Water, *Intermittently, discretionary, and not routinely,*Sublingual B12,*Tiny amounts of Zinc.

33.226

Date, June 25, 2012

Event Occurrence of Muscle Rigidity. There is now a sporadic occurring symptom of the feeling of neurological muscle rigidity in my arms, and in my face muscles after eating, occurring most noticeably on both sides of my face, from in front of my ears dawn to the mouth areas of my face, now usually only occurring in the evenings after eating, and appears to be intensified by the fat content of the meal. However I have found that a high fat content meal for me, from many perspectives is highly desirable. This rigidity will begin about fifteen minutes after eating, and will slowly intensify. I have found that if I drink a glass of water, this neurological muscle rigidity will slowly start to wane, and essentially be gone within one hour. In these circumstances my body does not ask for drinking water, nor am I thirsty, I just know through experience that drinking water is my best overall remedy for this manifested current symptom.

33.227

Date, July 1, 2012

Experiments on Facial Muscles Rigidity. During this general, and resent period in time, there has been noticed, and observed by me, that after eating a meal there occurs a rigidity in parts of my body, especially noticeable in the mussels of my complete face, with varying degrees of intensities. During further experimenting, and observations regarding this rigidity, it has been noticed by me that the degree of rigidity that is occurring appears to be directly related to the amount, and the percentage of fat that is contained in each meal. In further experimenting I have found that it is advantageous for me to include fat in each meal, however for best results the fat content of the meal must not exceed a certain moderate percentage portion of the complete meal.

I have also appear to be finding that the last meal of each day before bed time, should for certain follow this just above mentioned percentage fat rule, and it also currently appears to be advantageous for me under most current circumstances, for the time being, to suspend the taking my complete Treatment Protocol with my last eaten late meal. Keeping in mind that my current complicating circumstances require that I must continuously simultaneously deal with both my fragile Stomach, and Esophagus status, and that of my Fat Digestion Trauma Disorder statuses, with each demanding apposing responses at many of the same times. Regardless of the advances that I have made in the healing of my Stomach, and Esophagus, the present fact remains that my Stomach, and Esophagus statuses remain fragile, and can easily by reversed by my poor dietary choices, and conducts, as has just recently re-occurred to me. I now recognize that from now onward through the forward progressions of time, my main immediate remedial task in regards to these overall matters, is the healing, and stabilizing of my Stomach Status as my primary task, and concern, and that this task will truly be a challenge.

33.229

Date, July 11, 2012

Toxicity, and Nutritional Remediation. Currently in an attempt to solve my experienced toxic overload of Vitamins A, and E, due to their artificially pervasiveness occurring in the fortified foods that are available to me, I have started to solve this problem of Toxic Overload by creating a food product of my own formulation. I have been finding, and experiencing the negative results of Liver discomfort from to much Vitamin A, and E, being supplied to my body by the default circumstance, especially from currently available Margarines, and Multi Vitamins. In order to solve this identified problem I have switched to an alternate brand of Vitamin, that contains directly no Palmitate, and half the amount of Vitamin E, as in my previous Vitamin. In addition I have begun to manufacture for my own use, my own formulization of Margarine, eliminating these Toxic Dosages of A, and E. In that I am not going into the Margarine Manufacturing Business, my Margarine formulation only has to satisfy my sole, and personal needs. My first formulation attempt appears to be satisfactory for my current requirements, and its description is as follows now, 6- parts, Coconut Oil, 4- parts, Olive oil, virgin, cold pressed part, Peanut Oil,parts, Powder Skim Milk (fortified Palmitate).

This formulation used by served each time from the refrigerator, not the freezer. For my needs this formulas appears to be excellent for the time being, and I am expecting that there can be additional benefits to these raw oils in my diet.

33.230

Date, July 12, 2012

Carbohydrates.

I have just recently realized, and have come to the additional conclusion, that my Alcohol Induced Trauma also includes a disability of my Digestion Function regarding Carbohydrate metabolism. This past oversight of my realization that Carbohydrates were additional involved with my digestive dysfunction, was probably due to its lesser symptoms intensity than those of Fats. This suspicion probably explains my old chronic symptom of Alcohol mimicking hangovers caused by simple Carbohydrates over night.

33.231

Date, July 14, 2012

Nutrient Dietary Experiment

To day I have decided to test my temporary stopping of the taking of B12, and B-Complex with each meal, and then instead only taking B1, Thiamine with each meal. During the past resent years all my attempts at stopping my taking of B12, and B-Complex with meals completely failed, however at those failed attempts I did not posses the knowledge about B1, Thiamine. The reasons for this experiment itself are several, including investigating the effects on my digestion competence, effects on body weight gain, effects on my facial appearance, and the furthering of my understandings of my present hierarchal needs of available nutrients, and their efficacy in my Trauma Treatment at this present stage of my journey.

33.232

Date, July 16, 2012

Experiment, re-evaluation of B12, B1, and B-Complex. The reason for this experiment was to encourage my Stomach healing status, and to also test, and re-evaluate my continuing requirements of these following Nutrients by my suspending of B12, and B-Complex, and by my increased dosage inclusion of B1, Thiamine with each meal, and my preliminary early results are as follows. My Stomach healing status, and digestion competence appears to have very significantly improved during this experiment, however some other symptoms from my past experiences appeared to have started reoccurring, such as my feelings of tiredness over the past several days, and my heart rhythm appeared not to be beating as it should after eating, causing me to start shallow coughing continuously along with this fluttering feeling of my heart.

In response I will take drinking water, and restarted my taking of B12, and continued with the B1, Thiamine, but I am at this time still not clear about the new roll of B-Complex in these matters. I am still contemplating, and considering what exactly at this time should be my B1, Thiamine dosage. It is appearing however that I still have a strong need for B12, and B1, Thiamine, however my B-Complex requirement status is appearing to be demoted to a lesser status of importance, however to some degree still required, and useful in smaller amounts then before I started my use of B1, Thiamine, and no longer a major key Protocol Nutrient, so it appears. I have now started to use B-Complex as both a sundry nutrient, and in small amount dosages as an adjusting intervention medication, in response to muscle rigid ness, and stomach issues as required, being as a result of eating. I have also been finding that when this symptom is occurring after eating, and more aggressively the symptom the larger the meal, as I have been describing as muscle rigidity (neurological?), the use of my muscles in physical work at those times appears to improve this symptom when it is present.

33.233

Date, July 17, 2012

Report of meaningful event regarding B1, Thiamine. The set up to this event is as follows now. Up to about two hours after my successful eating of supper, my eating of this supper being accompanied by no problems at all in the eating or with the apparent digestion of that supper, and my Stomach feeling very good after this eating, there started to occur a feeling of restless uneasiness. My retaking of additional B1, Thiamine appears to have overcome this uneasy symptom. I must note that this performance of my Stomach during this supper meal is very impressive to me, in that I was able to eat a good size meal without refluxing, without stomach discomfort, and with apparent good mechanical digestion. I will take note of this experience, and increase my intake of Bi, Thiamine with meals, and see what shall be the future result.

33.234

Date, July 18, 2012

Crossing a thresh hold of Digestion Competence. It is now occurring to me because of my recently experienced new digestion improvements, that I am in the process of the crossing of another important thresh hold in the improving of my overall health, and in particular, the improvement status of my digestion competence of my stomach, and digestion system. This is the first time period since my Stomach Collapse in 2004 that my digestion competence has in any manor whatsoever approached this current apparent higher status of function. These very encouraging results are for certain due mainly to my current usage of B1, Thiamine.

Even though in my progression forward in regards to these Trauma matters, there are still occurring from time to time disappointing reversals, and periods of stagnations of progress, never the less my overall ascent upward is in very positive territory, and my health gains are nothing less than spectacular. My improving health circumstance in regards to this matter is a very slow, and , and subtle process, but this process has appeared to have begun. I am for the most part no longer feeling my daily discomforts in the region of my kidneys, and towards my back on my right side in my Liver region. It is now appearing to me that my digestion system is healing to a capability status, being able to function more normally than at any time since that period event of "My Stomach Collapse" in 2004, however I do recognize, so to speak, that I am a long way from getting out of the woods in regards to these matters to some intermediate stable status.

33.235

Date, July 22, 2012

Nutrient Dosing Issues. The response to my latest efforts in trying to improve the overall status condition of my Stomach is proving to be very positive, and successful, however now my immediate next challenge will be to arrest my body weight losing. It has occurred to me that there may be occurring at this time in my life, a convergence of my advancing age, and the effects of this Trauma on my body weight issues. It appears now to me that I should now re-evaluate my dosages of both B1, Thiamine, and B-Complex, and adjust by lessening my B1, Thiamine dosage, and by re-increasing my B-Complex dosage.

33.236

Date, July 26, 2012

A demonstration of B1, Thiamine Deficiency. During the reviewing of some of my narrated Cam-Corder films that I have made in earlier times, I noticed that there was occurring but however unrealized by me at the times that those recordings of narrations were made, a distinct shortness of my breath was clearly noticeable in all of my previous recordings made in 2011, and previous, before my initial use of B1, had started. However those narrations made in 2012, several months after my use of B1, Thiamine had started, now show no shortness of my breath at all in the narrations.

33.236

Date, Sept. 19, 2012

Enhanced Digestion by inclusion of Vitamin C. It is appearing to me, and without any doubt in my mind that vitamin C, is immediately enhancing my Metabolic Digestion capabilities, when taken directly on a meal-by-meal basis with, and at the same time as each meal. As a result of my resent discovery that B1, Thiamine as Hydrochloride being poorly effective, and of my re-discovery of Vitamin C, having strong enhancing properties on Metabolic Digestion, I have been able to moderate my intake of Treatment Nutrients. The very clear, and immediately visible results of these circumstances is that I appear to be accelerating out of my Metabolic Digestion trap, and I appear to be digesting my meals in what appears to me as normal, with my Stomach feeling very much more normal, and comfortable. It is also starting to appear that that the taste, and enjoyment of eating food is now returning after many years of its absence.

33.238

Date, Sept. 25, 2012

Routine Update

The addition of Vitamin C, at each meal with the other nutrients has been very successful in greatly improving my digestion competence. In a related observation, I have observes since my inclusion of Vitamin C, has commenced, that my stool appears to no longer want to float, but it will sink to the bottom of the toilet bowl. It is now appearing that with my added use of vitamin C, at each meal, I have been able to make that final difficult amount of progress in the improvement to my digestion issues, which before my use of C, I could not achieve.

Previous to my inclusion of Vitamin C, my body weight had slowly diminished to 155 lb, from my previously low 161 lb. naked weight, however I have great, and hopeful expectations that perhaps I may now slowly be able to regain some of my lost weight. After eating a meal during this time, thanks to vitamin C, I no longer shallowly burp for sever hours after eating, including that after one, and half hours, I no longer feel the onset of the overall uncomfortable neurological feelings which appear as I believe, being the result of a very difficult digestion in progress, that would previously begin to occur at this one, and Half hour time mark, and would then proceed to last for two to three more hours before subsiding, and on occasion when digestion was particularly difficult , even continuing for up to seven hours before subsiding.

These following clear, and unambiguous observations, and unquestioned result in regards to my current experiences, being my additional Treatment Measure of adding Vitamin C, with the food to every meal, that it has immediately been demonstrated to me in my case, that Vitamin C, is immediately necessary to be present with the food that is to be digested at each, and every meal of every day, the positive effects being immediately apparent at each meal. In these regards to my greatly improved digestion functioning, before my additional usage of Vitamin C had started, my B, Vitamin strategy that I had been applying at each meal for the control, and improvement of my Trauma, and Digestion Function Competence, would only achieve a ceiling of perhaps some 75 %, and not greater, being only a 75% of the total improvements in my digestion that was required to fully control my digestion dysfunction. It clearly, immediately, and predictably appears that Vitamin C has allowed me to break through this 75% ceiling, and approach 100%, in regards to my digestion function.

As secondary observations in regards to Vitamin C, even though wounds, and cuts on my body would generally heal quite quickly as far as I knew, and experienced throughout my overall history in regards to this Trauma matter, I have now noticed an accelerated healing of cuts, and wounds on my body. There had been a great, and enormous impediment to my experimenting with, and use of Vitamin C, placed in my way throughout my 36 years of my totally unrecognized, and untreated Trauma. This totally encompassing impediment was that of my chronic 36 years of my resulting very lose Bawl, as a result of this untreated Trauma. This consistently very lose Bawl would be explosively aggravated by all of the attempts that I ever would make when attempting to experiment with Vitamin C, over those past decades, and so my exposure to vitamin C had been severely restricted.

My overall digestion status, and competence is constantly accelerating, but I still have a long way to go to where I need to be. There are setbacks that I experience in my overall digestion matters, but these set backs are occurring within an overall advancing, and improved digestion status, and then I move forward again, and achieve a status of higher than before. My usage of Vitamin C, has allowed me to rationalize my Treatment Control component of B, vitamins, by cutting down on my intake of B, vitamins to their appropriate levels of perhaps 75% of total control as I stated here earlier, without hopelessly trying to push through that impossible ceiling using the B vitamins, which then these B vitamins only contributing to toxicity. It appears that Vitamin C, has taken over that last 25% of duties in promoting Digestion Competence.

33.239

Date, October 2, 2012

For myself at this time, Vitamin C, appears to possess significant, and potent properties. This period of time frame of my current, and successful reference here to my use of vitamin C, in my immediate treatment control effort in regards to my Alcohol Induced Digestion dysfunction, is here being made some 36 years after the original facts of my previous Alcoholic Conduct, and still at this time, and all of these years later, vitamin C, along with my other control Nutrients are still mandatory, and relevant in the control of my Digestion Dysfunction.

My current experimental additional use of Vitamin C, with each, and every meal continues to immediately greatly enhance, and improve my digestion at each meal. Since my resent use of Vitamin C, at each meal has begun, I have also noticed an improvement in wound healing, and still more impressively the discomfort in the area of my Liver as receded, and essentially vanished. For certain over the resent past several years, there has been occurring to me, as a result of eating, and depending on what exactly was eaten, a classical occurrence for me of discomfort in the area of my Liver on my right side, and towards my back. This occurring discomfort was very difficult to prevent or circumvent, and the only impact that I could make in reducing or preventing this discomfort was by my restrictions, and limitations of some dietary foods. However now since my use of vitamin C, has been included into my Treatment Control procedures, I have noticed that this Liver discomfort no longer appears to be present.

33.255

Date, Dec. 1, 2012

Up date, regarding resent observations. I have been noticing that B1, Thiamine is still absolutely essential for me for it to be included in my daily diet with meals, also that 100 mg., of B1, Thiamine is too little a daily dosage, and 200-225 mg. dosage is to great a daily dosage, when considered in the daily context of 30 days. I have been finding that I must adjust my dosage of B1, perhaps every three weeks, by dropping to the 100 mg., dosage for three weeks, and then adjusting to the higher dosage for a couple of weeks. The main sentinel keys amongst others, as to when my required dosage adjustments are required are, if B1 is too high, my heart will want to start to beat irregularly, or if my eating, and metabolic digestion functioning starts to deteriorate, B1, will be too low.

It is also strongly appearing that for me vitamin K1, has been working extremely well for me, in eliminating my feet, and toes rigidity during the winter months, by successfully facilitating the metabolizing of fat soluble sourced vitamin D3, that I am now using, and also it is appearing that vitamin K1, appears to be important to me in other ways that I can not now explain, but however appearing to be playing some positive role in my digestion metabolism. Vitamin C, is still doing the excellent mandatory job in facilitating the enhancement of my digestion metabolism of Fats, and Proteins, which has allowed for my body weight loses to be halted, and have allowed for my real, and dependable body weight gains to have begun again. Overall since I appear to have found, and employed the final missing required vitamin components of K1, and C, I have been experiencing that I require much less dosages, including that of B-Complex with my meals in order to accomplish, and facilitate my metabolic digestion process.

I have now reached a very advanced status of health in regards to these matters, my metabolic digestion capabilities are truly spectacular in my opinion, as for certain as compared to that status which I have ascended from over these past several years. I will never be out of the woods so to speak, but I remain very grateful for that current health status that I have been fortunate enough to achieve.

33.262

Date, Dec. 19, 2012

Difficult days, Excruciating, Unstable conditions, losing Control, Continuing Confusion. After the resent occurrence of what I refer to as this Anomaly Event, there still appears to be a great deal of confusion as to exactly what occurred, and apparently is still occurring at this time. After my resent reporting of that Anomaly Event, and of its appearing to have ended, there however would follow my two succeeding days of my acceptable health, being virtually two symptom free days. However after these two better days had passed, there occurred upon my going to bed at night, a strong pounding of my pulse in my head, and ears that lasted the complete night.

Upon my awakening the next day there started to occur those difficult to control symptoms again, which included, a strong uncomfortable nervousness throughout my entire body, which I found impossible to treat, and so this nervousness continued throughout that day. At eight o'clock that evening I decided to try the use of animal fats in an attempt to control this nervousness. In an after thought I changed my decision to try animal fats, and instead decided to try taking a little dosage of pure Branched Chain Amino Acid. Being that this nervous symptom was becoming difficult for me to endure I also added at this same time a little creamery Butter, and a little Coconut Oil. The dosages used in this experiment were accurately measured dosages, being 1/8 Teaspoons each of BCAAs, of Coconut Oil, and of Butter. I do not know for certain which of these three ingredients were responsible, but within a ½ hour of their taking the nervous condition had greatly diminished, however I am strongly leaning in the favour of the BCAAs as being the active medication inserted agent here in the reduction of the nervousness, and the insertion of fats here as being irrelevant with this immediate nervous control matter.

During this continuing episode of Anomaly Event there were also other symptoms simultaneously occurring with that nervousness, being a pressure feeling around my Sternum, and an uncomfortable feeling in my stomach, and chest area. These Anomaly Symptoms slightly resemble, those of Thiamine deficiency, and Beriberi, but however very much milder, and without any problems of breathing difficulty, eating difficulty or heart, and blood pressure symptoms, however my taking of extra Thiamine at this time did not seem to in any way impact these current Anomaly symptoms. Upon going to bed this night being the second night, my pulse pounding started again however very much milder, and through the night this pulsing went away. This morning I awoke feeling much better but not my best as could be, and proceeded with my day. Some of the mentioned symptoms started returning, but milder however, and the overall nervousness was only hinting at its appearance, and essentially did not fully materialize.

At noon with lunch I took a very tiny dosage of BCAAs, being 1/32 teaspoon, and also a similar measure of Coconut Oil. My main continuing symptom to day is continuing lower intensity nervousness, along with my urination cycle starting to increase abnormally, the continuing of my metabolic digestion difficulty, and of that discomfort in my chest effecting my Sternum, and feeling like a lump is lodged there. I will continue to exercise moderation, and self control, and wait, and see what shall now follow as time passes. In that this Anomaly Event is continuing, is unstable, is doing as it pleases, and because I have run out of good options in trying to treat or make significant impact on this Anomaly, thus because of my increasing desperation I have decided to re-conduct an old experiment at suppertime tonight involving Water Soluble emulsified vitamin D3.

Being that since my recent discovery of vitamin K1, as recently documented herein, I had then discontinued my usage of this Water Soluble D3, and reverted back in favor of a fat-soluble D3 but the D3 being always together with K1. It was appearing that that D3, K1 combination was working well, and appeared to be a superior choice for me at that time instead of taking only the Water Soluble D3. Regardless of the outcome here from this experiment, I still consider K1 to be an indispensable valuable, and required addition to my Treatment Protocol. By adding back my use of the Water Soluble D3 in concert with my continuation of the fat soluble D3, and K1, my subject focus of this current Water Soluble D3 experiment is intended to evaluate any impact that this Water D3 may make on my discomfort in the area of my Sternum, manifested as severe internal nervousness throughout my entire body, my very uncomfortable, and tender Sternum, and accompanying metabolic digestion distress, along with the feelings of a few tennis balls lodged in the area of my Sternum.

Chapter - Twenty-One

Abridged Modern Journal Entries,

(Post Thiamine Discovery)

33.272

Date, Feb. 25, 2013

Subterfuge Surrounding B1, Thiamine. I have been noticing at this time period that my parameters governing Thiamine use have started to become more simplified, and clear to me. In my contemplation of the possible reasons for this new status of enhanced clarity, I have concluded that the most likely possible reason is that of my enhanced G.I. Tract healing, in that there is no longer the additional required primary competitive requirement of controlling my G.I. Tract issues, hence removing these issues of essentially subterfuge. It is now much more clear for me in evaluating the issues surrounding my requirement for B1, Thiamine.

Now that this has been said, I have been finding during this period in time when my health issues have more normalized in regards to my ongoing Trauma, that I still have a strict mandatory requirement for additional B1, thiamine, and that the more subtle symptoms connected with this thiamine need being now recognizable without the overbearing G.I. Tract issues clouding matters. At the present time period, and in conjunction with the continuing studious daily applications of my Treatment Protocol as currently amended, it is appearing that I require daily the dosage of (250-300 mg.) of B1, thiamine, with only benefits accruing to me, and with no resulting negative effects resulting, including no Heart rhythm associated occurrences occurring as a result of this daily dosage at this time. It is also appearing to me at this particular time that Vitamins C, D3, and B1, Thiamine, are especially effective, and important, amongst all others contained within my Control Treatment Protocol.

33.273

Date, Feb. 20, 2013

Musings regarding B1, Thiamine. I have a suspicion that is now starting to emerge in my thoughts, and which I do not have solid evidence of at this time, but generally what I suspect is that outside of that enormous biologic chemistry roll that thiamine plays in eating, digestion, breathing, neurological, and heart issues, it may be appearing that thiamine is also playing a key roll in Alcohol Trauma body weight, stop lose, and gain. I am also becoming suspicious that the hidden to me essential element contained in my treatment Protocol, and contained within my heave past usage intake of B-Complex was most likely thiamine. Another suspicion has additionally crossed my mind, and only an unsupported suspicion, being that it may have been possible in the past when my metabolic digestion competence was far less capable, that at those times even though I had a sever deficiency of thiamine, my biological metabolic incompetence at that time would paradoxically still hinder my thiamine supplementation, and possibly also have contributed to the earlier lower dosage onset of upper dosage thiamine symptoms such as uneven heart rhythm episodes.

In other words it may, or may not be that that my upper level dosage ceiling for thiamine has increased in concert with my improving metabolic competence. I have found during the past that there appears to be many possible stages of differing degrees of thiamine deficiency, with all stages generating differing symptoms, from subtle mild deficiency symptoms to total Beriberi onset symptoms. It is now becoming much more difficult for me to prove or otherwise associate both symptom, and remedy effects of thiamine, because things, and symptoms are much gentler now, and the black, and white of these matters no longer have the contrast that they once did when symptoms were as brutally potently evident as they once were with easily recognized experiment treatment effect results.

33.274

Date, March 4, 2013

Subtleties regarding Thiamine, B1. There are some very subtle symptoms relating to my Thiamine levels that I now appear to be recognizing, and I will not be referring here to any other of Thiamine's profoundly important symptoms which are being dealt with in earlier writings herein, but strictly dealing here with these subtle, and lesser important, essentially benign symptoms, when looking in comparisons with those other profoundly major symptoms that will be produced by deep Thiamine deficiencies. It is appearing to me at this time that if my thiamine levels are not as high as my daily required, my body weight gain shall be retarded, my appetite will be lessened, and my facial appearance will immediately lose its vital appearance. These observations that I have just mentioned here are based only on my strong impressions at this time, but these impressions appear to be recurring in their nature.

At this current time my daily supplementing range of B1, thiamine from all known recognized sources appears to be between 200 to 300 mg. daily. I have recognized one other complicating factor that can or may be exacerbating the maintenance of more stable thiamine levels in someone like myself with an Alcohol Induced Trauma. This potential complicating exacerbating factor being the unrecognized, and unintended presence in the diet of thiamine antagonists, which can destroy thiamine. I have found that these thiamine antagonists can be present in different foods, some being preservatives in baked goods, and in dried fruits, and there will be many other unrecognized sources of these thiamine antagonists. The real problem for someone like myself are not the so called dietary transient thiamine antagonists that become intermittently present in my diet from time to time, but those unidentified antagonists that may become routinely present in my daily diet, thus creating havoc, and complicating my judgment based on past experiences of my present daily thiamine requirements.

33.278

Date, March 20, 2013

Hypotheses, regarding the paramount effectiveness of Water Soluble D3. At the time of this experiment of my evaluating vitamin D3, regarding its effectiveness based on its origin of source, sun exposure is still not available to my body. However I suspect, and I also wonder if my suspicion of efficacy differences regarding different D3 sources can in fact be correct. My suspicion based on various observations is that I can get some but not all my required D3 needs from supplementing of both Fat Soluble sourced D3, and Sun exposure generated D3, but in these two cases I am thinking that I cannot get all of the D3 benefits that I require, however I am also thinking that Water Soluble Emulsified D3 is capable of delivering to me all of the D3 that I require. What has brought my thought processes to this thinking in regards to the possible different degrees of effectiveness of vitamin D3 based on its sourced origins are these noted observations, some being historic, and some being of a more current nature. My historic observation being, if my exposure to sunshine could deliver to my body the adequate amounts of D3 in the summer months, being in that case of my chronic lose bawl, my chronic lose Bawl would have been temporarily subdued during those summer months over those many past decades, but however this was never the case of circumstance for me in this matter of my chronic lose Bawl, until after my Epiphany had occurred in 2009. Possible reasons for my incomplete D3 needs delivery from Sun exposure may be due to my metabolic incompetence. However repeatedly being repeated during the summer months over those same past decades, the was a noticeable benefit from the sunshine in the alleviating of my body rigidity, and my non bendable toes on my feet, but not of my lose Bawl, these observations suggesting to myself of a partial benefit to myself of usable D3 from sun exposure.

In the additional observations of the current just completed experiment here involving Fat, and Water sourced D3, my current conclusion is also that a fat-soluble sourced D3 is only partially effective for me but that for me the Water Soluble sourced D3 is overall the most effective source of D3 for my bodies needs. The just resent result of an informal experiment regarding my testing over the period of several weeks by my replacing of the water-soluble sourced D3 with a fat soluble source of D3, this result being that it has become very clear to me that the fat soluble sourced D3 is essentially ineffective for my nutritional needs, and the water soluble sourced D3, continues to work well for me, as when it was just reintroduced to my diet having an immediate noticeable effect on my Stomach activity of functioning within minutes of its application. It appears that it is becoming very clear to me now that vitamin D3 has a profound effect in the areas of Stomach activity performance, and also vitamin D3 appears to have effects on the bawl, the bawl being lose if D3 is insufficient for my bodies needs. Deficient vitamin D3, in this experiment also improved my sleeping by deeper sleeping. I am now also becoming suspicious of, and will try to examine if perhaps D3 deficiency may or may not be associated with dry skin in the wintertime.

33.280

Date, April 3, 2013

Emerging suspicions of a significant improvement to my Metabolic Digestion Competence. I am now interpreting a sense of suspicion that my Metabolic Digestion Incompetence may be in the early stages of an additional new fragile recovering, in that it is starting to appear that I have been able to start digesting meals with far less Nutrient intervention support. Over the last several days I have also been feeling some new activities in the area of my Liver. My sharp needs for dietary fat has started to diminish, and I have appeared to develop a very strong appetite for Salads. We will see if indeed what shall come of this suspicion as time progresses.

33.281

Date, April 6, 2013

Continuing enhancement of Metabolic Digestion Competence. It is appearing more certain to me, that I have now entered a new stage of Metabolic Digestion Competence enhancement. I have developed a new voracious appetite for Salads, and also I am able to eat much larger meals than previously. My appetite, and hunger cycle appears to be normal as compared to the general public, in that I do no develop extreme hunger between meals, just normal hunger at 3 to four hours. It is appearing from my current experiences with B1, that B1 thiamine is also the major regulator of appetite, along with all of thiamine's other complex metabolic duties. I have found that B1, thiamine's metabolic duties range from those of its comparative minor duties of regulating the hunger/appetite cycle, being that reduction of appetite as the direct result of the minor deficiency of B1 thiamine, to those truly catastrophic failures of the Digestion, and Neurological Metabolic Duties being the direct result of very deep B1 thiamine deficiency.

At this peasant time I am employing my usage of B1 thiamine to accomplish a specific series of thiamine related duties outcomes that are immediately required to buttress my Metabolic Digestion issues. If my stomach feels as being full at my regular scheduled appointed eating time, being three to four hours after my last meal, I will take a small dosage of thiamine, example, 20 mg of B1, and this full stomach feeling will immediately vanish an my appetite will become immediately strong, immediately being within two to three minuets. If however this stomach fullness before my eating has not materialized, I will not be required to take the thiamine before eating, but if in this case circumstance, being that I have not taken thiamine previously to my eating, then immediately after my eating, usually now the first signs of mucus starting to form in my throat will start to occur. When this mucus shall start to occur, I immediately shall take a small dosage of thiamine, 20 mg., and this mucus in my throat shall immediately reseed. It is at this time appearing that my body weight has started to noticeably be increasing without special or heroic effort on my part to accomplish this body weight gain. It is also appearing that thiamine is also somehow implicated with body weight gains or loses.

33.282

Date, April 8, 2013

An occurrence of an Anomaly Event. Today there occurred an uncharacteristic anomaly event, which is completely out of the character for this present time period of my routine stable, and very improved health status. I was today stranded by the circumstances of my being away from my access to my control nutrients, and dietary structure at lunchtime, and so as a temporary measure I ate only a simple carbohydrate bun with coffee, and with out taking my normal formal Nutrients. About half an hour later while standing, and talking, suddenly out of the blue I almost fell over, becoming dizzy, and unbalanced, which instability I was able to recover from in about 60 seconds.

This sudden dizziness, and balance failure occurrence was completely out of character for me for at least the last two years. This anomaly event occurrence of degraded health status is for certain somehow directly, and intimately related to B1, Thiamine, in one way or another, as during this day, in addition to this dizziness event, I was feeling extremely bad, bad in ways that only thiamine's absence can produce? At this present time my normally to be expected metabolic digestion dysfunction, and my overall G.I. Tract healing has reach that excellent status of healed competence that I have not experienced, certainly for at least the last ten years, and quite possibly a lot longer. Over the past two weeks I have developed an enormous appetite for Salads, which is appearing to coincide with these enormous new gains of digestion improvement function, and health stability at this time.

This current appetite for Salads reminds me of a somewhat similar type of occurrence that occurred some 37 years ago shortly after I stopped drinking Alcohol. That paralleling event of dietary craving which in many ways parallels this salad event, being similar to this Salad event except that instead of Salad I had an insatiable craving for Red Radishes, this coincidence I do not know what to make of it. However as a note of additional possible interest, at this present time period I have found by accident, that my eating of small amounts of red delicious apples, appears to somehow enhance my normal overall present excellent health status, also I do not know what to make of this. As of this current time of my continuing advancing health, I find that I am now able for the first times since my Stomach Collapse events began in 2004, to eat a larger meal, and to successfully digest that larger meal, this is in itself an enormous accomplishment of Metabolic Digestion improvement.

The only things that I can associate with this anomaly event occurrence is the possibility of this simple carbohydrate itself, and its possible hidden sulphites that may have been contained in that simple carbohydrate, being a possible thiamine antagonists degrading my available B1 thiamine, also my incorrect dietary procedure, and the failure to exercise my correct Treatment Control Protocol could also be involved here, but I will be required to look deeper into this anomaly occurrence as the days progress. From this dizzy period at noon, and onward this day there was a definite, and clear deep reversal of my current normally expected routine health status normally experienced during these general periods in time. As of my last eating at 9 pm. before going to sleep at 33.30 pm, I was careful to eat lighter than normally I would have eaten. At bedtime it was appearing that I had started to significantly improve, and the overnight period was good, and uneventful. In the morning I awoke as completely excellent normal feeling in every way, and so everything continued normal all through the next day.

33.284

Date, April 18, 2013

Current Status, 10 to 40 years, Experienced Excellence. My supper excellent progress continues by my continuing to achieve even higher status of perceived normal Metabolic Digestion competence than has been experiences since my Stomach Collapse in 2004. My body weight is stable, and has been consistently in a narrow range of 158 lbs., naked body weight. My facial appearance consistently appears normal, and vital looking to me. My handwriting is much improved, and the outward tremors in my hands have greatly receded. My background shortness of breath has vanished. My long-term existing resting pulse rate has dropped by 12-15 BPM. My current routinely stable blood pressure is in the range of (115-20) /73/63p. It is now appearing that I am now able to Metabolically better deal with B1, Thiamine, being able to handle greater dosages without side effects of fluttering heart rhythms, at present being about 250-300 mg daily.

I continue with my eager eating of high intake of Ice Berg Lattice at every meal. B1, thiamine is at these times my main Treatment Protocol nutrient, followed by vitamin C, and water soluble D3, and I appear to be withdrawing from by past heavy reliance on B-Complex. It is appearing that those Esophagus symptoms of discomfort after eating, and discomfort when my Stomach has emptied, no longer occur. I have noticed that I have replaced some fat on various parts of my body. Animal fats are still important in my diet, but not as strictly required as before, and not as strongly craved as before. My eyes have been consistently without symptoms for a long time now. My Liver area is now without feelings of discomfort, and feels essentially normal. My Bawl movements are routinely normal in all respects. There is no bleeding of any kind occurring, there are no skin infections. My urination cycle is completely population normal in all respects. There is no body rigidity, and my joints all work well. I am physically strong, and robust, and I do heavy physical work without thinking of exceptional effort. I am still required to ferret out, restrict, and strictly limit my intake of unintended dosages of vitamin A, and E, as being Toxic to myself.

33.285

Date, April 25, 2013

An apparent Paradoxical current Observation. It is appearing to me now at this exact time period that I appear to be able to better metabolize B1, thiamine. This improved metabolizing of thiamine is in effect appearing to be somewhat of a contradiction, in that thiamine itself is, and continues to be my main, and indispensable dietary requirement without which I cannot survive. It is appearing to me now at this time of my incredible achievement of Metabolic health status, that thiamine itself has essentially been the main author, and driver of this achieved Metabolic Status, and just having said this, my resultant new advanced metabolic status, now appears to be enabling, and sponsoring my improved Metabolic processing of this thiamine itself, a sort of reversals of duties. It appears now at my improved status that I can better process this mandatory life giving thiamine as witnessed by my fading heart rhythm sides effects associated with my thiamine, currently being taken by me in a daily dosage of 250-300 mg. of B1, thiamine.

Notation clarity of understandings of the actual relevant facts as eventually revealing themselves in 2018 relation to required daily Thiamne dosages, at minimum, I require some 1000 mg thiamine daily, with and in between meals as required by daily circumstances.

33.286

Date, April 26, 2013

My current increasing knowledge of Thiamine. Not withstanding the importance of water soluble D3, and my other Treatment Protocol components, it is now appearing in my thinking that as a result of my present experiences with Thiamine, it appears that B-Complex is essentially irrelevant to my control treatment of my trauma, and may have been irrelevant all along, except for its content of thiamine. It is appearing that sufficient thiamine is required with my each meal eaten, and the dosage depended on how much, and exactly what was eaten, included with my thiamine applications I always include Vitamin C. My current daily dosages of thiamine can now range in excess of 300 mg., and my progress status is, and continues as being excellent. Simple carbohydrates, sugars being the worst offender, and vitamin E, and A directly as Palmitate, are to be strictly rationed, as they are TOXIC to me. My Liver is now feeling always very comfortable, and also very encouragingly, I can see new signs of body fat deposits on various parts of my very lean body. It is appearing to me that thiamine is king in these matters of Trauma Control Treatment, especially if taken in the appropriately required large dosages required at each meal.

33.289

Date, June 9, 2013

Current Observations, and Vitamin D3. During the past ten days the weather has be abnormally cold, rainy, and sunless, and I have started to feel those first signs of classic rigidity of my toes. Being that I have been now in the high summer season of good sun exposure, I have during this period lowered my vitamin D3 intake to those lower dosages required in the summer period. However due to this prolonged abnormal sunless weather, my sun skin exposure has recently been total absent. Being that it is very difficult for me to set the exact D3 dosages that are required under all different circumstances, because there is a difference between what D3, I take orally, and how much of that D3 will become effective for me, also in which form, fat or water soluble, and in combination with sun exposure or not.

After this just resent lose of sun exposure my toes began to dependably classically stiffen, and there appeared some stiffening effect in my hands. By my taking of perhaps 6000 iu of D3 over two days, this stiffening is beginning to subside. If however I have ultimately ended up as taking to great a combined dosage of D3, my resulting symptoms will be restless legs during the overnight, and pains in my legs starting in the middle of the night that appear to be residing in the long bones of my legs. To alleviate these long bone pains I must get out of bed a stress my leg muscles by 4 or 5 slow squats, and then return to bed. After this squat stressing of my muscles has taken place, dependably it will take some 15-20 minuets for these long bone pains to completely subside. When this bone pain is in progress it fully appears to me that this pain is in the bones themselves, however curiously the stressing of the leg muscles appears to solve this problem of bone pain when it is occurring as a result of excessive vitamin D3. These examples of D3 over, and under are classic for me., and is what has just again past occurred.

33.290

Date, June 11, 2013

Toxicity Remediation Experiment. During the past week there has started to daily occur a noticeable discomfort in the region of my Liver. After several days I took the following immediate remedial actions to deal with this ominous Liver discomfort by my taking the following exploratory actions. I cut my current already very modest intake of dairy milk in half again, and in examining the dietary components that I was ingesting, I noticed that there was 7.5 mg zinc was contained in each of both my calcium, and in my multi vitamin, a total of 15 mg zinc, and from my past experiences I knew that this dosage of zinc is far to toxic for my Trauma condition, and these dosages of zinc I immediately totally eliminated.

I also cut down on other known toxic sources of vitamin E. It is appearing by today, being after about three days after these remedial actions having been taken by me that the area of my Liver has now settled down. I have found over the years that toxic nutrients can exist, and hide in many unsuspecting places throughout my diet, and my vigilance in detecting these toxic components that can be hiding in, and in, and many cases not indicated on labeling is therefore essential, I have cut in half my already meager use of dairy milk, and I have found 7.5 mg of zinc in my multi vitamin, and an additional 7.5 mg of zinc in my calcium, 15 mg of zinc in these two sources alone are far to much zinc of this trauma condition.

My Fluttering Uneven Heart Rhythms. In a separate issue, I have found at these present times that if my heart starts to flutter by beating unevenly, my effective remedy is my immediate taking of 50 mg of thiamine.

Suffocation. In an observation of still another unrelated separate issue, I have found that that my breathing dysfunctional issue associated with a full onset Beriberi, being a tendency of suffocation in my breathing function, also can be associated with a much milder deficiency condition of B1, thiamine, than normally occurs with the full onset of Beriberi, and also can be manifested solely by itself without others of Beriberi's symptoms. Due to my just resent experience of this suffocation symptom occurring by itself, it became very easy for me to recognize the symptoms of this suffocation when it was occurring without the subterfuges of the others of Beriberi's symptoms. This suffocation issue is fundamentally related to thiamine deficiency, and I have now bettered realized how to explain this suffocation experience. How I now explain this suffocation tendency due to thiamine deficiency as, "when this breathing effect is occurring, my automatic breathing appears to no longer be possible, as my breathing then becomes controlled by another process being by my suffocation effect itself, being that I do not breath until I start to suffocate, and then I will take a breath, and this process repeats until I take 50 mg thiamine, which returns me to automatic breathing".

33.299

Date, July 28, 2013

Health Status Report of Relevant Current Circumstances. Since my actions that I took in drastically reducing my dietary intake of vitamin A contained in dairy milk, butters, and margarines, and at the same time reducing my intake of a multi/vitamin/mineral, my Liver has appeared to have significantly recovered, in that my Liver is comfortable, and without discomfort of any kind. In addition to my more normal feeling Liver at this exact same time, I have been feeling an extremely overall status of normal well, this status of wellness being judged from all possible perspectives. I feel strong, I feel energetic, I feel optimistic, I feel vital, I have no discomfort of any kind, my eating, and sleeping is good, and there is almost nothing that I can complain about in relation to these matters, except one thing. This one thing that is not currently correct is that in the midst of this current normal status of health I have been losing body weight by about 2 lbs, which is a great deal of weight for me.

This weight appears to be my losing of fat, from what little bodily fat stores that I have. This fat losing trend is worrisome to me, as it is the trend that is important, and if I am unable to arrest this trend I shall disappear. However there is this one overall compensating comforting factor in this weight lose matter, being that at the present times I am feeling exceptionally well from all perspectives as I have just past stated here.

My current Body weight Naked during this weight lose period is 154 lb. I have been eating a great deal of dietary fats at every meal in the form of Peanut Butter, Cashews, fat containing meats from pork, some fish oils, etc., etc., but I seem to be burning a great deal of my meager existing body stores of fats, and also burning my dietary fats at this time. It is clearly appearing to me that my taking of 100 mg. Potassium daily with thiamine, taken in divided dosages at each meal, that this combination promotes far to efficient a metabolic process of processing carbohydrates, and fats, appearing to be burning everything completely.

Also occurring during this Potassium/Thiamine partnership is my occurrence of extraordinary normal health status feelings, but unfortunately however accompanied by my body weight lose. This occurring body weight lose during my use of this combination of Potassium/Thiamine requires a compromise to be made, by giving up some of the exceptional health feeling, and accepting some degrading of my Metabolic Digestion processes status. I have been looking at all resent coinciding circumstances involving this fat lose, and these are those identifiable coincidences as follows here now. I had reduced my dietary intake of Vitamin A, I also had begun to take 100 mg. of Potassium Gluconate daily, I also had reduced the daily dosage of my multi/vitamin, and I also was able to reduce my thiamin, and B-Complex dosages during this period.

Hoverer it is clearly evident to me that as a result of these dietary actions that I recently had taken, there has resulted my current overall status of extraordinary well being, along however with my occurring weight lose. In my carefully measured response to my ongoing weight lose, I am proposing an experimental compromise of actions to be taken by myself being, that I slightly increased my dietary intake if vitamin A, from dairy milk, and products to 4 oz. milk daily total, reducing my daily Potassium dosage by half to 50 mg. total daily, action to greatly increased my intake of fats from Peanut Butter, and Cashews, actions to begin the taking Beta Carotene from a separate dedicated source, and I will reinstated my dietary intake of previously greater dosages of thiamine. It should take at least one-week tp see any new trends developing.

(Inserted here on Aug. 12, 2013, to day I have decided to eliminate that recently begun experimental dedicated taking of this partner of vitamin A, a Beta Carotene supplement, because it is appearing to be Toxic to my, in that it appears to cause a lethargy in me that appears to last for about 3 hours before my reverting back to generally normal.)

33.300

Date, Aug. 4, 2013

Important Conformations regarding the control of vitamin, in Trauma Control Treatment Efficacy. It has become abundantly clear to me regarding my newly apparent achieved liver healing results obtained from my resent restricting of my in taking of dairy products containing vitamin A. This Vitamin A, that is regulated, and mandated to be added to, and to be contained in dairy product being very insidious to those with Alcohol Induced Trauma, because this vitamin A that these dairy products contain is normally considered by society as being health promoting, and toxically benign in its nature, and normally this being correct as even babies can consume these dairy products. However these dairy products, and all other sources of vitamin A are extremely toxic, and liver destroying under Trauma conditions, even at low dosages, for those with this Alcohol Induced Trauma.

I have now experienced, and found that my restricting of vitamin A to no more than what is totally daily contained in 3 ounces of milk, and in a ½ teaspoon of butter, my finding being that my Liver is responding in practical, and meaningful ways, being that my Liver discomfort is gone, my metabolic digestion competence has improved enormously, and it is appearing that my Liver is starting to be able to accept greater responsibilities facilitating metabolic digestion functioning, and Body Fat gains. These experienced improvements to my Liver health, being directly the result of my very resent vitamin A dietary restriction policy, facilitating in tern a more normalizing of my metabolic health status, being truly impressive.

Vitamin A/Dairy product intake control is the only thing that has been effective in improving my Livers Functioning in regards to Carbohydrates Metabolizing, and my ability to achieve Body Fat Weight Gain, these effects having been clearly demonstrated throughout my Traumas Manifestation, and again most recently, persistently being demonstrated daily since that occurrence of my Stomach Collapse in 2004. This controlling of vitamin A, and Dairy products must be studiously, and accurately managed, as this embargoing of Dairy products, and other sources of vitamin A, must include the milk or cream that I take in each coffee taken at home, and taken in coffee shops, and shall even includes the milk used in the preparation of foods. It is my opinion that the daily total dosage of milk, and Butter/Margarines etc. consumed daily by a Trauma Patient shall not exceed three oz. dairy milk daily, and virtually no Butter/Margarines.

33.301

Date, Aug. 6, 2013

My Crossing back over to Life's side appears to have begun. Over the past two days it has been convincingly appearing to myself that for the first time since my Stomach Collapse event in 2004 that I have begun my passing over from that nebulous area, being somewhere between Death, and Life, if indeed such a place can in fact exist, firmly over to the side of Life. During these past nine years being in modern times of my living with this Trauma, being since my Stomach Collapse event had occurred in 2004, I had been existing in this nebulous area somewhere between Life, and Death, but my current circumstances that are newly occurring for the first times in these past nine years, not withstanding the similar kinds of circumstances that have occurred throughout my past 37 years in these matters, are now strongly suggesting that this crossing back to Life's side for me has truly begun.

There are enormous quantities of incremental credits to be shared for this great accomplishment, however having said this, there is one salient fact being, that without its presence this great accomplishment shall still have never come to passing. This past impenetrable obstacle to this great present accomplishment, being my recognizing, identifying, and controlling of me dietary intake of vitamin A, insidiously essentially having been provided by dairy milk, and dairy products, which embargoing of vitamin A has in effect allowed that area of my Liver affected by this Trauma to start its required healing to some intermediate status of healing, but my Liver damage, and Trauma otherwise shall remain a permanent part of my life forever.

I do embargo Dietary Sugars, because I believe that I must by following my Treatment Protocol, but I have started feeling much more normal from a historical perspective, I have begun craving Carbohydrates which I can now tenuously successfully metabolize much better, my Stomach, and my bodies Metabolic Digestion capabilities have appeared to greatly improve, I am appearing to be replacing body fat, and it is appearing from many subtle perspectives that my health status as daily occurring has improved enormously, but I still am required to reverently respect, and studiously apply my Treatment Protocol as currently amended. In my retrospective contemplations it has strongly been suggested that my past barrier to my Body Fats gains being directly due to the negative status of my Liver/Trauma, and this negative Liver status being perpetuated by those TOXIC dietary dairy products containing vitamin A.

33.302

Date, Aug. 9, 2013

Continuing benefits from Vitamin A, Restrictions. It is appearing that my rebirth resulting from my dairy vitamin A reductions has been accelerating as the days progress. I respect my embargo on dietary sugars, but I have been searching out, and increasingly consuming a great deal more of those more complex carbohydrates, and included with fats, and I am requiring less, and less direct consequential digestion supporting by my using less B1, thiamine. However I have been noticing some newly emerging low blood glucose readings occurring about one hour after eating breakfast during this apparent transition of my passing over to this side of Life. These low glucose readings when tested being 280-380 etc, (Metric). My overall my current progress is truly spectacular, even when considered in historical time frames.

33.304

Date, Aug. 25, 2013

Second Round of Branch Chain Amino Acid experiment, (B.C.A.A.s). Being that my body weight lose, and weight stability is continuing to be a concerning, and significant problem for myself to in any meaningfully positively influence, one, and a half days ago I had then decided to begin a new re-experiment involving BCAAs in regards to my present Metabolic Digestion status. Previous to this new second round of experiments my circumstances were generally as follows now. It was appearing that there have been a great deal of improvements to my overall health status, and to that of my Liver comfort since my decision that I made, and have studiously enacted upon, being that of my strict controlling of my dietary intake of vitamin A to 3 oz. of milk daily from all recognizable sources, and especially from dairy products including milk.

This restricting of vitamin A has appeared to allow a great deal of progress to occur to my Liver healing, and I was hopping that this restriction of vitamin A would also provide myself with extra toxic buffering room for my attempting to increase my toxic vitamin E intake, and this objective appears to have been realized according to my results experienced. I have, and I am still consistently trying to influence my body weight loses, and weight stability, however mostly unsuccessfully, no matter how much I eat or the quantities of dietary calories taken in. However my overall Metabolic Digestion status has been quite good recently, but still very challenging for myself to control, especially requiring my using of Thiamine in dosages of about 500 to 600 mg. plus daily, including my taking of those other nutrient components contained in my Treatment Protocol at each meal.

I have also noticed that my previously normal underarm body odor, which has been absent over the resent past several years, is now appearing to be returning. There has never again occurred any events of my fluttering uneven heart beating episodes since my past experimental taking of Potassium, these Potassium events being documented several months earlier herein these journal entries. But overall my general daily status has to some degree stabilized to that status that I have spoken about herein these writings, as my feeling as I did when I was young, and before these matters first began, however now being the routine occurrence for me, and not just occasional anomaly occurrences from times to time, but my overall health status still being fragile, and a long way from being routinely perfect, systematically requiring my immediate interventions of my Treatment Protocol at each meal.

For the record, the BCAAS that I am using in these experiments have been, and are (Pure Micronized, 2:1:1 Ratio, L-Leucine, L-Valine, L-Lisoleucine, respectively).In this new second round of experiments involving BCAAs, I decided to take one eighth of an accurately measured teaspoon of pure BCAAs with each main meal, and in concert with those other nutrients contained in the balance of my Treatment Protocol.

The reasoning for the dosage measurement of 1/8 teaspoon of BCAAs, is initially for reasons of prudence as I have no ideas as to the possible side effects to me from these BCAAs, and so this dosage I considered as sufficiently conservative to keep me out of trouble. My immediate preliminary findings during this particular experiment with my taking of these BCAAs have been quite impressive, being that I appear to require much less thiamine than previous to this experiment, my positive control over my Metabolic Digestion dysfunction appears to be greatly improved, it also appears that I am losing my sharp needs, and cravings for Fats, there is a very noticeable improvement in my overall stability, and my feeling of well being, I appear to require less drinking water, my Liver area feels comfortable, my kidneys feel comfortable, and it is appearing that I an urinating less frequently, resembling the patterns of those others around myself.

As for my body weight issue, or the emerging of any resulting negative symptoms, this will require a waiting to see. In those of my initial previous experiments with BCAAs that mercifully led me to that miracle of Thiamine during my Beriberi manifestation, my use of BCAAs at that time did not appear to be appropriate for me, in that at that time it appeared that there were many complications connected with BCAAs pertaining to my health status, including that complication of my healing status not being advanced as would have been required, amongst others of these difficulties experienced by my initial previous use of BCAAs at that time, there appeared to be discomfort created to my Liver, and Kidneys.

33.305

Date, Aug, 30 2013

BCAAs Experiment Progress Reporting. Starting to Occur immediately at my first taking of BCAAs over this last week were as now follows. My chest Sternum area has begun to routinely feel much more comfortable than it has over the past several years, and my ability to eat carbohydrates has greatly improved, I feel much stronger a much more health stable, and I feel more Metabolically capable of Digestion. There has been an enormous, and real overall meaningful, and easily recognizable improvement to all matters associated with my Trauma induced circumstance, which has immediately commenced as of my beginning experimental use as indicated of BCAAs. I am strongly suspecting that these BCAAs are contributing some vital critical missing capabilities to my Metabolic Requirements, and it is therefore reasonable for me to expect to see still more significant progress in these matters as times progress.

33.306

Date, Sept. 1, 2013

Impressive BCAAs Update

On this eighth day after the seven days of my taking BCAAs in the dosages of 1/8 teaspoon at each meal, being in a 24 hour total dosage of ½ teaspoon, and having experienced spectacular results that were immediately apparent, especially in regards to my improved metabolic digestion of carbohydrates, and with a great reduction in my required thiamine dosages, impressively including the pacifying of my chronic uncomfortable Sternum, I had decided to reconfigure this ongoing experiment in the interests of caution, by reducing my BCAA dosages by one half to 1/16 teaspoon at each of three to four meals to a 24 hr. total dosage being ¼ of a teaspoon daily. I immediately found that this reduction of BCAAs was still effective but however noticeably a little less effective than my initial previous larger dosages of BCAAs. The strategy that I am attempting to initiate here by my cutting in half of the BCAA dosages is for myself to be required to be pushed into taking additional amounts of BCAAs if necessary, by individual current circumstances of prevailing Sternum Chest discomfort.

*In italics in the interest of Clarity, which has been Referred herein many times before in the past, being that there are two distinctive periods to these matters of my resultant Trauma that has been portrayed throughout these writings. Period one begins in 1977, and continues onward to 2004, My "Stomach Collapse". This fires period beginning with my horrific, and inhuman symptoms that would after the first decade in time become much milder, however still being daily very present up to 2004, however my having no body weight issues during the later second half portion of this first period. The second period begins in 2004, at my "Stomach Collapse", and continues to, and includes the present with sever newly emerged metabolic digestion related symptoms, including my impossible to influence or control body weight lost issues, this second post 2004 period is what is being referred to in these matters at these times.

These are a couple of circumstances which may be of significant interest regarding these overall matters, which I had been noticing as significantly having not occurred for a very long period of time, being over the just recent past several years. I have many times in recent years been noticing that my lifetime previous pattern of occurring cold soars that would break out on my lips in a routine fashions from 2 or 3 times a year, beginning when I was about eight years old have no longer been occurring, and my normal underarm odor also has been absent during this period in time. Now that I have experienced what these BCAAs can be capable of accomplishing in my present case circumstance, it is becoming my thinking that I may have some metabolic deficit in some of these matters of BCAA responsibility, as what these BCAAs have immediately accomplished upon their introduction to my system, I have not been able to accomplish by any other means.

I am now interestingly wondering as a confirmation of my theory of BCAAs responsibility deficiency, if these absent Cold Sores shall as a result of BCAAs, eventually begin to resume their original rhythms, and outbreaks patterns. There appears to be a real validation of appropriateness for myself carefully introducing these BCAAs into my diet, as these BCAAs are accomplishing what I desperately required to be accomplished, by influencing the occurrences of my vital, but however previously normal, but however long time missing Metabolic Abilities. I am now also wondering if my use of Peanuts, and Cashews to attempt body weight gains was in fact the unrecognized result of my unknowingly seeking of Amino Acids from these items? My direction of thoughts here are in this direction, of the possibly of there being my overall deficiencies of available Amino Acids during this second period since my "Stomach Collapse" in 2004.

33.307

Date,

Sept. 5, 2013

Branch Chain Amino Acids, Truly SPECTACULAR. Currently I have been maintaining my reduced dosages of BCAAs in the dosages of 1/16 of a teaspoon at each of three daily meals as I have eliminate my previous last 4th dosage of BCAAs close to my bed time, because this last 4th dose of BCAAs appears to promote my restlessness overnight. To date these BCAAs are appearing to be working spectacularly well by their more normalizing my metabolic digestion, in that I am now craving, and competently able to eat carbohydrates, which I can now also digest competently, it is appearing that perhaps my uncontrolled weight lost has been arrested, and even beginning to reverse, and I am daily feeling overall exceptionally well, and robust. Spectacular, and Consistent results are immediately stemming from my inclusions of small amounts of these BCAAs at each meal along with thiamine, and the balance content of my Treatment Protocol, but the two significant main drivers at this time appears to be BCAAs, and Thiamine.

There is now forming this plausible idea in my thinking, being that BCAAs may have been historically critically deficient or even absent in my case circumstance, and that these Amino Acids being critically essential for me to replace. Being that these BCAAs may not in my case circumstance occupy a status of Intervention Medication, but instead BCAAs occupying that reality status of a Chronically Missing vital Metabolic Nutrient in my case circumstance. The reasons for my thinking this way about the effectual status of BCAAs, is because as a result of my long term consistent experienced observations of my mandatory daily dietary meal requirements, being that it was my mandatory requirement that my each, and every most successful meal must have contained within each such meal, Fats, and Meat Protein in order to achieve my best or at least acceptable outcomes from each such meal.

This past dietary history is now leading me in a specific direction in my thinking, being that because of my historically occurring strict needs for mandatory Protein, and Fats to be present with each meal, and these Proteins, and Fats requirements now appearing to have been lifted since my introduction of small dosages of BCAAs at each meal, it may have been that my dietary Fats, and Protein requirements at each meal were due to my unknown harvesting of critical Amino Acids in my past from these mandatory dietary meat proteins, and fats.

33.308

Date, Sept. 6, 2013

Seminally Important Associations Interpretations, BCAAs, & Thiamine. According to the just resent congealing of my findings based on my stable, dependable, and consistently repeatable findings experienced by my use of BCAAs, along with Thiamine for the control treatment of my previously very resistant, and almost impossible to treat Alcohol Induced Trauma, being that these just mentioned two component combinations of Nutrients appear to be a mandatory metabolic requirement for myself at each meal, in order to facilitate my successful Metabolic Digestion, including those resultant metabolic bodily processes that it in tern enables as a result of this enabling.

Hypotheses

What I am clearly intending to say here with my explanation on the appropriate uses of BCAAs, which I believe to be stronger than just only my Hypotheses, being that I appear to have exposed that which I believe to be the true nature of BCAAs responsibilities in association with my Alcohol Induced Trauma. It is convincingly appearing to myself based on my consistent long-term experiments results, being that in these matters of manifested Alcohol Induced Trauma, BCAAs appear to be sufficiently deficient in the traumatized parties body so as to profoundly interfere with many of the Trauma parties required essential metabolic functioning tasks, including that task of Metabolic Digestion Competence.

It appears that for some reason the Traumatized Body cannot easily or sufficiently harvest sufficient Amino Acids from even the most robust of animal protein rich diets. In my stripping away of the subterfuge surrounding the uses of Amino Acids in the Treatment of Alcohol Induced Trauma, it appears that the primary use for Branch Chain Amino Acids is for Amino Acid supplementation, witch shall be solely for the purposes of introducing these Amino Acids to the Patient at each meal as a Nutrient at each meal, and in tiny dosages, and in combination with B1, Thiamine, in order to enable fundamental Metabolic Digestion Competence to occur.

All other uses of BCAAs shall be for specific intended secondary reasons, and for use purposes to be classified as a medication. For myself my introductions of BCAAs in the dosages of one sixteenth of a teaspoon at each of three daily meals along with 75 mg of Thiamine at each meal has over one weeks time appeared to completely temporarily reverse my long duration of my previously resistant to positively influence Metabolic Digestion Symptoms, that were occurring after eating, and even those occurring before my eating, which symptoms I could never adequately previously control over the many past decades. My Sternum is now comfortable, my G.I. Tract is now comfortable, my Liver feels comfortable, my Kidneys feel comfortable, I now somewhat crave, and seek out carbohydrates, which carbohydrates I can successfully now metabolically digest without symptoms, I am comfortable, and it appears that I have truly been reborn again since my beginning use of BCAAs.

How these spectacularly effective revelations regarding BCAAs shall ultimately impact that knowledge gained during the course of my incremental progressive findings, and understandings contained herein throughout these writings I can not know at this time, being that knowledge which I experienced, and documented previously to these BCAAs experiment findings. Regardless of what shall ultimately surface as being that final assessments of these previous incremental understandings experienced by me during my very long journey of discoveries relating directly to my efforts to treat, and control my Alcohol Induced Metabolic Digestion incompetence.

It is possible that this incremental previous knowledge being spoken about now can be valid as it now stands or some of these previously acquired incremental understandings may be capable of shedding additional knowledge on this subject of Trauma by being engineered backwards, to better understand those specific paths, and methods of this disease processes which will occur with this Trauma, as these entries of incremental knowledge were ultimately quite effective in my control of this Traumas symptoms, but however previously to my BCAAs use, never being able to temporarily completely reverse these Traumas symptoms, as temporary is the best that can be accomplished as I do not believe that permanent reversal will be possible under, and circumstances.

33.309

Date, Sept. 12, 2013

BCAAs, and Body Weight Gain. For my record, during for at least the past year, and including the time immediately at my commencing my use of BCAAs, my naked body weight, being measured in the same circumstances as previously when being then recorded herein has remained stubbornly in the ranges of 154.5 lbs. to 155.5 lbs. Before, and during this BCAAs Experiment I have been continuing my strict rationing of dairy milk, and dairy products in my continuing effort to reduce my total daily exposure to vitamin A. Since my just resent introduction of BCAAs into my Treatment Protocol in the small dosages of 1/16 of a teaspoon at each of three meals daily along with reduced dosages of thiamine, the positive results that were experienced by my from this introduction of BCAAs, as immediate, and sustained.

These immediate results being my being, and feeling virtually normal in all respects while myself being under the influence of these BCAAs, in that my digestion itself feels normal, my ability to digest Carbohydrates feels much more competent, my Sternum is comfortable, my Liver is comfortable, my Kidneys are comfortable, and it is clearly appearing to me that I have started dependably, and predictably to accumulate my badly needed body fat on my body. I have some background concerns regarding my use of BCAAs, but in the face of these BCAAs appearing to have spectacularly, immediately, and continuously completely reversed my Trauma deficiencies to that of essentially normal status by their limited use by me with no side effects at all, these background concerns of mine have been somewhat completely muted.

33-312

Date, Sept 29, 2013

BCAAs continuing withdrawing Observations. This being the second full day of my experimental withdrawing from my BCAAs use, and with my previous spectacular metabolic digestion function capability benefits that had stemmed from my previous thirty days use of these BCAAs, these spectacular benefits having never been achievable by any other means over the past four decades are generally still holding up for myself, including that it also appears the BCAAs were the cause of my resent Kidney and Liver discomfort as I previously suspected, as these conditions have subsided as a result of my with drawl of BCAAs.

There has however newly been reoccurring during each day so far the occurrence of my fluttering heart beating rhythm, which I subdued immediately by taking 50 mg of thiamine that I carry on myself for this exact reason and purpose. I also have been newly noticing during this BCAAs withdrawing, being a couple of hours after eating that I was becoming tired and sluggish feeling but generally comfortable, and upon my taking of a blood glucose reading at each of these times, resulting readings were 3.8 and 4.6 respectively.

33.313

Date, Oct. 9, 2013

Current Update

My just recently past taking of BCAAs for a one-month period, in a dosage of 1/32-second part of a teaspoon at each of three meals daily, and then quitting their use after thirty days due to kidney and liver discomfort, has produced enormous positive overall results. The amazing results produced continued after the stopping of my taking of BCAAs, which involved enormous positive improvement to my overall Metabolic Digestion Dysfunction, including body weight gains. These incredible positive results achieved have never previously been achievable by any other means, except solely by my subsequent use of these BCAAs. Two days ago I decided to carefully reintroduce these BCAAs to my daily diet, but however in much smaller dosages of exactly 1/200th of an accurately calibrated measuring teaspoon three times daily.

This BCAAs dosage described in another way, being BCAAs in a dosage similarly equal in volume to that volume occupied by 1/4 to 1/5th of an 81-milligram low dose Aspirin. This required accurate measuring is being accomplished by the use of special measuring devices, which I have created and have calibrated backwards to that of a standard measuring teaspoon. The reasons for my reintroduction of BCAAs decision, is that the BCAAs appear to so positively normalize my overall daily life in so many different ways, and it feel absolutely correct in my use of these BCAAs themselves, that it appears these BCAAs have some fundamental positive roll to play in my Metabolic Digestion Functioning.

There has also occurred unintended, but however recognizable additional benefits occurring from that 30 day use of BCAAs, being the benefits of repairing of my long time damage in my right shoulder, and a repairing of some physical negative effects in my upper jaw on my left side. What these unexpected, but easily recognized apparent repairing results indicate to me, is that these BCAAs may be capable and also could be instrumental, and may have actually been facilitating repairs throughout other unknown parts of my body that also require repairs. It is also becoming a very strong and convincing suspicion of mine, that I require Amino Acids for whatever the specific reason, which reasons I do not fully understand at this time. I have a strong dietary need of Peanuts, which I suspect are suppliers of Amino Acids, a strong dietary need for fatty animal protein, and a strong dietary need for eggs, which I am starting to think have Amino Acid contributions of their own to make, in addition to those three Amino Acids supplied by the BCAAs.

The BCAAs have been so impressively positive in what they have singly been able to accomplish, that it would not be stretching things to refer to Amino Acids as being truly Miraculous in my particular case circumstances. An insertion from the future, entered here on Oct. 3, 2014 in the interest of better understandings. Wise to remember that there were two distinctly different periods of experiments with BCAAs, before I was able to identify BCAAs incredible efficacy. Further more there were three distinct periods of my actual use treatments with BCAAs. Each such general use treatment periods representing specifically different BCAAs dosages, as indicated in such original entries.

33.316

Date, Oct. 17, 2013

A Heralding arrival, the Common Cold Soar. A simple event has just occurred, which I consider as being a very important indicator of my improving health status. It may sound strange to others, but I was quite happy and excited to notice the arrival of the ordinary cold soar on my lip for the first time in a very long time. This arrival of my cold soar event, along with the new arrivals of my under arm odour, indicate and validate that I am gradually regaining some of my lost metabolic abilities, thanks to my careful use of BCAAs, which metabolic abilities had been lost to me for a very long time.

33.317

Date, Oct. 26, 2013

A Closing of my Log Entries

It is probably becoming time to close off these dated Log entries, as it appears that this particular story has been for all practical purposes been told. My overall health status has stably improved to what I consider as being a spectacularly normal status, resembling normal overall health. This arrival of more normal health has been solely achieved in main, thanks mainly to my introduction and use of Branch Chain Amino Acids,(BCAAs). These BCAAs being taken three times daily at each main meal in tiny minute dosages, being each dosage measuring 1/200th of a teaspoon. Thiamine has also been extremely important to my arriving at my present excellent more normal health status.

It is very clearly evident to me that my fortuitous inclusion of tiny dosages of BCAAs into my daily Treatment Protocol for the control of my resultant Trauma, having enabled many previously unavailable Metabolic Processes to become functional for the first time in very many years. Immediate benefits accruing from BCAAs, my body weight loses are no longer an issue for me. My Metabolic Digestion is greatly improved. I require greatly reduced thiamine dosages. It is appearing and I have noticed that there are a number of unexpected unrelated chronic physical bodily deficits that have seemed to repair themselves as of my use of BCAAs. My Liver is feeling much better, and I have found that I must be very careful with BCAAs dosages, as they can be toxicity to my Liver and Kidneys.

There is an Hypotheses emerging in my thoughts regarding BCAAs, being that it is highly likely that previous to my use of tiny amounts of BCAAs, it is highly probable that there was existing in my body a very large deficit of unattainable but necessary required Metabolic sponsored body healing and repair capability. I am convinced that in addition to those healing benefits flowing directly from BCAAs, which I can see and I can feel, there are if the reality be known, being there shall have existed numerous required repairs to various parts of my then un-repairable body, which my body could not then accomplish by itself, but vitally important that these required repairs be accomplished.

It is clearly evident to me that without BCAAs my body could no longer grow and repair itself, as I had lost my ability to harvest these Amino Acids from my daily excellent diet. I still am required to take my Protocol Treatment studiously for the control of my Trauma. I still restrict my intake of dairy milk to 6 oz. daily to limit my Livers exposure to the vitamin A that the milk carries. In closing, it has been my extended experience over the last several years, being that no matter how high my calorie intake was, no matter how nutritionally complete my diet was, and no matter what I tried to do to overcome the slowly fading away of my body weight, my body mass, and my body fat stores, it was totally impossible to in any meaningful way halt this bleeding away of my body, solely only being reversible by daily taking tiny dosages of BCAAs.

33.318

Date, Nov. 2, 2013

Miracles of Amino Acids

At present my health is becoming spectacularly and fantastically excellent. The spectacular combinations of nutrients that I presently recognize as being indispensably responsible for my spectacular health improvement status, being in particular my taking at these times of BCAAs at each of three meals daily in a dosage of 1/200th of a teaspoon at each meal, along with 70 to 100 mg. of thiamine and one dozed roasted peanuts at each of these three meals, along with other lesser important nutrients. The accurately measured dosages of BCAAs resembling the size of one small grain of rice, more or less, however I use my own special measuring device to accurately control my tiny dosages of BCAAs.

This spectacular health status being similar as those transient temporary descriptions described earlier herein these writing, being very fleeting transient descriptions, fleetingly emerging from time to time as my health status began to significantly improve, resembling that status which prevailed in my life when I was a boy, except appearing in this present description now as being daily dependably permanent in nature, however only as long as I take my Treatment Protocol. It is hypothetically appearing to me that tiny trace amounts of BCAAs, along with perhaps others in this family of Amino Acids, are a significant and required supplemented factor in facilitating my more normal metabolic body chemistry and functioning and for facilitating the good control of Alcohol Induced Trauma.

33.322

Date, Nov. 16, 2013

Hypothesis on associated effect between BCAAs and Alcohol Induced Trauma. The congealing of this following Hypothesis regarding BCAAs has now appeared to me, being based on both my historical experiences that ranged from 1977 to approximately 1987 and based again on my more resent current experiences, ranging from my Stomach Collapse in 2004, to the immediate present.

This Hypothesis on BCAAs is as follows here now. Based on my truly spectacular results obtained from my dietary use of tiny dosages of BCAAs at 1/200th of a teaspoon three times daily for the past two months, it credibly appears that during both of these previously just mentioned periods in time, that BCAAs were for some reason not available to me from my normal good diet. It further appears in my thinking as part of this Hypothesis, that it being highly likely that it may have been possible that my deepened diminished Liver functioning capacity having been to some significant degree responsible, for deficiencies of Amino Acids, along with perhaps some other organs diminished functioning.

Being that I could not now conduct experiments on that historical past period mentioned in this Hypothesis, being from 1977 to 1987, never the less the similarity of Symptom Signatures involved during both of these periods, being so intimately similar, and especially as pertaining to extreme body weight lose amongst much and many other symptoms, I confidently feel that my current experiences regarding using of tiny dosages of BCAAs, and my theory of a deepened Organ Dysfunction Status, can reasonably be extrapolated backwards to also having been directly involved during that early period in time.

In my continuing laying out of this BCAAs Hypothesis, credibly appears to me that during these two protracted periods in time, due to the exacerbating of for certain my Liver function capacity, that I had become part of and encompassed in an endless loop of impossible escape. In this Hypothesis, this inescapable loop involved my inability to harvest those nutrients that I required from my diet, including Amino Acids due to this diminished organ function, in for certain involving my Liver.

(Hypothesis continuing)

Because of this absence of Amino Acids, my body had likely lost its ability to make repairs to these effected organs, including the Liver, but however these repairs to the Liver, being possible only to some limited degree, as I do not believe full repairing of the Liver being possible, and so around and around my prevailing circumstances would go. The availability of Amino Acids from my diet waiting on some limited Liver healing, and this required limited Liver healing waiting on the availability of Amino Acids. There is additionally including that complication of the Amino Acids being toxic to my current Livers status in my Livers deepened dysfunctional circumstances, while at this very same time my having no knowledge of any of this and so no supplementing of Amino Acids being possible. This ends my Hypothesis presentation on BCAAs.

33.323

Date, Nov. 22, 2013

Update overall Status

Since my use of BCAAs began a couple of months ago as recorded herein, being in tiny dosages of 1/200th of a teaspoon at each of three meals daily, there have occurred enormous improvements in many areas of my Trauma concerns. My Liver and Kidneys feel comfortable all of the time now. It appears from my use of these BCAAs that there have been repairs enabled in many different areas of my body, such as my jaw, my shoulder, my liver, my stomach, and I strongly suspect in other areas unrecognized by me. It also is appearing that my liver tolerance for toxic dairy milk and the Palmitate, which it carries, has greatly improved as a result of my BCAAs activity.

My body weight lose is no longer any problem for me to be concerned with, as I can accumulate body weight without effort and without special dietary considerations. My eyes are generally quite good, my body is flexible with no muscle rigidity, my bawl function is consistently normal in all respects, I suffer no infections, no aches and pains, my blood pressure remains excellent, my blood glucose remains very good, my heart rhythm very seldom wants to beat erratically.

I take no prescription meds at all ever, my stamina is good, my urination during the day hours is normally and good, and overnight my urinating cycle is as it has been for many decades, occurring several times each night with a full bladder, but I also drink quite a bit of water before bedtime, there is no bleeding anywhere, including non from my gums, and non from my bawl, my simple stomach activities have improved enormously, there is seldom mucus produced in my throat from eating, and my facial appearance is normal and vital looking.

Another of my reliably occurring circumstances in regards to vitamin D3, and especially at this time of sunless winter being, that if I take to great a daily dosage of vitamin D3, I will get pain in my leg long bones during sleeping in the middle of the night, and in order to elevate this long bone pain in my lower long bones, I will be required to stress my leg muscles with several slow squats, and then after returning to bed it will reliable take another 12 to 15 minutes for this long bone pain to subside. Conversely if I take too little vitamin D3 during the day, my toes on my feet shall become rigid, thereby making walking difficult, as my toes refuse to bend easily. These vitamin D3 consequential effects will immediately occur on a day-by-day basis, responding to my daily D3 supplementing activities.

However there remains to some degree, some neurological impact, especially in my arms and hands, but not to serious and quite mild. Not all of these positive accomplishments being due exclusively to my use of BCAAs alone, but nevertheless certainly having been enormously enhanced by my Thiamine and BCAAs usage.

There is however one area of potential possible and unknowable concern for me regarding my improved healing capability and healing status due to my successful use of BCAAs. In effect these concerns being embodied in that of this following possibility of Hypothesis. It has been my thinking over this resent past, regarding how, why and what was really happening to me. About three years ago during a routine medical examination, I became apprised of my low immune status and of my low blood fats content, involving both my good and bad fats being low.

In that I have often wondered why, as a result of this low immunity condition, which having been revealed at that examination time, being thankfully, why was it that opportunistic diseases were not inundating me. I appeared to be without all disease, except for my traditional long term Trauma related symptoms. I have been thinking that it can be plausible that due to my absence of sufficient Amino Acids available to my body, that my body could not both adequately maintain and heal itself during this just resent past several years period. Simultaneously possibly occurring as an additional result of this inadequate availability of Amino Acids, I suspect that I was somehow being protected by default, from these opportunistic biological infectious agents, because the potential infections would also be subdued by my lack of sufficient Amino Acids, because it appears to me that they would also require access to Amino Acids if their biological manifestations were to be successful.

33.323

Date, Nov. 25, 2013

A Reporting of Significant BCAAs occurrence. My daily use of BCAAs in very tiny dosages of 1/200th of a teaspoon at each of three daily meals over the past couple of months, the time limes of which having been previously recorded herein these entries, have produced truly exceptional result outcomes for me. As a result of my use of these tiny dosages of BCAAs, there have been only extremely positive spectacular results from their usage, with essentially no significant side effects occurring, especially involving toxicity with my kidneys or my liver.

However last night I decided that it was time to withdraw, even these tiny dosages of BCAAs, because of my noticing that upon my intended firing of a muscle activity, the muscle responded with a suddenness of jerking, rather than my more normal smooth and even action of movement. This jerking of my muscles upon their intended movements was most noticeable in my arms, hand and feet, and can be better described as closely resembling a twitching movement of my muscle, except however this twitching being under my intended control of it activation. Now at the ending of the next day, being after one full day of my BCAAs with drawl, I am noticing that this jerking action of my muscle movements appears to have greatly subsided. I will report further when I know better of what positive and negative shall occur as a result of my BCAAs suspension.

33.327

Date, Dec. 4, 2013

Evolving Update

There has been no further use of BCAAs since their most recent stopping. My eyes are quite stably good all of the time now. My Sternum is very much less affected by my eating. I require a great deal less thiamine after eating. My body weight is increasing without effort. I require less vitamin C, I have no bleeding, my bawl function is completely normal, My muscle jerking movements have ceased and remain absent as of my stopping BCAAs, My feelings of activity occurring in my Liver as of my stopping of BCAAs use have now ceased, I appear to require a lot less vitamin D3, and it appears that I can better metabolize fat sources of D3, It appears that I require less animal fats in my diet, and there is occurring much less immediacy at this time requiring the taking of my Nutrient controls after my eating.

It appears that the original root of my metabolic Digestion Dysfunction still remains intact, nevertheless this dysfunction has never before been so docile, in that it almost appears that I am without symptoms, this being true for the first time since the first recognized onset of Trauma symptoms in the year 1977. There is something here that must be seriously considered, being that of my Livers continuous dysfunctional status lasting unchangingly uninterrupted for the past 36 years, then only significantly improving 36 years later with my short term use of BCAAs in tiny dosages of 1/200th of a teaspoon three time daily with meals.

33.328

Date, Dec. 7, 2013

Update

Every thing is truly excellent at this time. My health status and my age old Alcohol Trauma has now morphed into a normalcy, which has never existed for me over and since the beginnings of these matters in 1977. It is my impressive experienced conclusion that as a result of my short term use of BCAAs in the tiny dosages as indicated herein which use had taken place in late 2013, my Liver has appeared to start functioning differently, appearing to have begun to function competently in regards to my Trauma related symptoms issues. This resent use of BCAAs has accomplished Liver functioning abilities previously having never been possible during those past decades since 1977, truly miraculous.

This clearly having been demonstrated to me that when my Liver healing having been left up to my normal unassisted healing processes of my body, that these improvements to my Livers function could never occur by its unassisted self throughout all of those decades that were to pass since 1977, occurring only with this present by my use of BCAAs. In a separate issue, it is credibly appearing that I can newly occurring now easily derive benefit from fat-soluble sourced versions of vitamin D3, which I could not achieve previously to my BCAAs use. As a result I have now decided to reduce my intake of vitamin D3 to 1000 iu daily, half of this D3 being obtained from a vitamin D3 supplement and half being obtained from my reduction to half of a vitamin D3/K supplement. My toes remain flexible and my long bone pain at night no longer exists, this signifying to me that this current D3 dosage balance is correct at this time. My body weight lose issue no longer exists, as I have put on nine real lbs since my BCAAs usage began, and even though I still abstain from the use of BCAAs as and when indicated herein, my weight still easily daily increases.

33.329

Date, Dec. 11, 2013

Coincidence of Anomaly Occurrence. Today there occurred an event, which is both puzzling and intriguing at the same time. During the process of my having a routinely scheduled bawl movement, there occurred this ghost from the past, being an event and a vivid reminder, reminding myself of my historic past Nemeses and Lost Comrades, being this current occurring of similar symptoms, being of those historically occurring pressures being routinely generated at my bawl movements during those times, except at this current occurring anomaly event occurrence, there was no bleeding. Those historic bawl movements would cause a great deal of diarrhea type pressures to routinely occur at bawl movements, accompanied by residual hemorrhoid tissue damage and at many times being accompanied by heavy bleeding as its result.

I have thus decided as a result of this observation that I will restore to my previous dosages, both vitamins D3, water soluble and B1, even though I am not certain which of these or if each is actually involved, and being that I am not currently being driven to requiring these higher dosages at this time due to my spectacular and improving status of Trauma. However I suspect that the D3 may be the culprit involved here in this renewed anomaly, and especially Water Soluble D3. I will closely watch to see what shall happen next, as it also can be possible that I may be on the wrong track, or even that this event was actually a one of a kind event, but those similarities encountered with this event were all to identical with these past Nemeses to just ignore.

33.330

Date, Dec. 12, 2013

Further to resent Anomaly bawl event. Both yesterday and to day I took 3000 iu of vitamin D3 each both days, half from fat soluble sources and half from water soluble sources of vitamin D3. It was my immediate impression that particularly the Water D3 being immediately perceived as being very friendly. Today being the next day, I had a normal bawl movement with no hinting of yesterday's anomalies occurring.

I cannot be absolutely certain but I feel very comfortable in leaning towards Water Soluble D3 as being directly involved with this Anomaly matter and thus importantly still being required in my daily diet, regardless of how well having been my overall progress. In a separate matter, my current naked body weight is consistently now in the range of 161 to 163 lbs without any effort to achieve. Over the preceding past two years my body weight was stubbornly in the range of 154 to 156 naked, no matter how great my efforts to increase this weight and to prevent weight decline, with my tendency still being to gradually decline in body weight regardless of my Herculean and sustained efforts to stem this declining trend.

33.331

Date, Dec. 16, 2013

Excellent Progress Continues, my body weight continues to recover, my Liver is feeling more and more routinely comfortable, my Sternum is not generally being effected by symptoms, my Bawl function is normal, my simple Stomach Digestion is normal, my Metabolic Digestion is becoming much more normal, My eyes are generally consistently very good, my body and muscles are not ridged, I feel consistently very good, and my normal underarm odor is increasingly more noticeable as now existing, which is an auspicious sign of my more normalized metabolic capability. All of these gifts, in significant part having been kick started by BCAAs in particular, in addition to B1, but however this underlying Alcohol Induced Trauma still very much exists.

Journal Entries, 2014

33.332

Date, Feb. 1, 2014

The Mystery of a New Anomaly. Since my resent past temporary usage of small dosages of BCAAs for the 90 day period of its usage, and my resultant enabled new beginnings of Metabolic Digestion Competence, an overall status of greatly improved health and metabolic function has resultantly been enabled. This resultant greatly improved metabolic digestion functioning competence, intern consistently additionally improving as time progressed, to appear as approaching normal, generally speaking.

My eyes are good all of the time, my Liver feels comfortable, my Sternum is no longer rigid and uncomfortable, my body weight has easily increased and no longer poses any problem for me, my Bawl is completely normal, my muscles no longer jerk with movement, my body is always flexible, my Stomach and simple digestion is normal, my stamina is good, my appearance looks vital, my urination frequency is under good control, my blood pressure remains excellent without intervention of any kind, my blood glucose readings are and have always been stable and in normal ranges of 5.2 exactly or several points away from 5.2 depending on how soon after eating or depending on when I have last eaten, (I routinely have take my blood glucose readings under many differing circumstances, but my glucose readings have always been in good ranges), my resting pulse rate has consistently fallen about ten points, my heart very seldom flutters unevenly and there is nothing that I can really complain about regarding this Trauma.

I continue to daily take my Treatment Protocol as currently amended, including a daily minimum of 450 mg. of thiamine. For the continuing record, no Medical Community involvements have ever occurred involving this Trauma matter, which is still true up to this very moment. My normal posture, including during this anomaly period is as my usual, I am not sedentary and I get a fair deal of physical exercise activity.

Describing this Anomaly Itself. Starting just recently and closely coinciding with my greatly improved overall positive Metabolic Digestion and health achievement, this anomaly only occurs when I go to bed and lay down at night. When I lad down directly with body weight pressure on any muscle, being either thigh, arms, or hands, these effected muscles quickly become numb feeling as having had no circulation. This numbness condition never occurs under any other circumstances, my muscles otherwise function excellently, have no issues at all, are sensitive feeling responsive to gentle touch, being otherwise completely optimally normal. In my pondering of the possible causes for this occurring anomaly, one possibility, which I suspect is an involvement of glucose.

Dietary Sugars still remain to be avoided for me, even though dietary sugars have now become much easier for me to metabolize and with much lesser penalties to be paid for sugars use. However dietary sugar remains my nemesis and my enemy and which I instinctively avoid. Dietary sugars being present throughout the dietary spectrum, these sugars are becoming more difficult for me to strictly avoid, especially as my ability to metabolize these sugars has improved. Generally I have been avoiding dietary sugars, but there is a circumstance where it has been required that I make that deal with the devil. One such deal involves my inclusion of pure Concord grape juice in my diet, which has appeared as being extremely friendly and positive to my overall metabolic circumstances. However again this inclusion of Grape Juice in my daily diet, required me to make the compromise of accepting the sugar that it carries, in order to receive the greater benefits that it appears to provide to me. In this vain I have strictly controlled the quantity of this Grape Juice in order to lessen its sugar carrying impact.

I had as a result been taking at each of three or four meals daily, 60 ml of Grape at each such meal, comprising a total daily dosage of 180 to 240 ml daily. 240 ml of this Grape juice providing approx. 40 grams of sugar, being far too much for myself with this Trauma. There is the additional possibility that as of my Metabolic Digestion Competence having dramatically improved, it may now be possible that my improved status requires less dosage of those various nutrients, which I have been required to control this Trauma and its symptoms, and thus possibly toxic conditions may now exist? This possibility of toxicity is well worth looking into. Proposed experiment of Anomaly Remedy I will experiment by reducing the application dosages of my control and nutritional measures by as far as I shall be allowed, and then seeing what shall have materialized from this action, and report herein on any achieved positive relevance of such actions.

33.333

Date, Feb. 5, 2014

Preliminary Anomaly Experiment Findings. Within one days time I experienced a clearly recognizable improvement in that muscle numbness when my laying on any muscle. This muscle improvement although being far from complete, nevertheless being clearly noticeable as having occurred immediately after my complete embargoing of Grape Juice and the sugar, which it carries, and the reducing of my previous dosages of all other sundry daily dietary nutritional exposures, and the reducing of my thiamine intake by half, to 50 mg. per each of four meals daily, my being allowed to make this reduction in thiamine dosage without negative occurring consequence of any kind, which would have been previously totally impossible. This improvement in my Anomaly muscle numbness when my laying on any extremity muscle appears to be daily noticeably improving so far to date.

It may be the reduction of sugar that is responsible for this improvement, or it may even be the reduction of thiamine driving this improvement. I am finding that as my Metabolic Digestion competence has miraculously improved since my recent documented herein completion of my 90-day BCAAs experiment and it is appearing that my bodies newly achieved natural unassisted metabolic abilities have clearly improved. My newly improved Metabolic Digestion Competence now appearing to be able to do many of those things, previously only accomplishable with the aid of large dosages of thiamine. Perhaps it may be mysteriously plausible that my previous and absolute requirement dependency on thiamine for life itself may have now moderated, as my body having gradually taken over a great deal of thiamine's indispensable past duties, and thus perhaps thiamine now being somewhat toxic in those previous dosages. I just do not know at this time exactly what is going on with this muscle numbness, the sugar, the thiamine or something else, but this consistent and progressive improvement to this Anomaly is a tract that I shall maintain.

33.334

Date, Feb. 6, 2014

Ongoing Anomaly Experiments Findings. It clearly appears to me that the driver of this Anomaly of muscle numbness, being neurological driven and not being driven by blood circulation matters, as this numbness arrives to quickly and it recedes to quickly to be circulation caused. Further more it is appearing that my reduction of thiamine at each meal, to 50 mg. of B1, that this dosage of B1 is very close to being insufficient for my needs, and so my thiamine toxicity hypotheses, now looks quite improbable in this matter of muscle numbness. As the direct result of my reductions of all nutrients and procedures during these probing experiments of this Anomaly matter, I found today that I was required to take both additional thiamine and at a separate incident, I was required to take Potassium, which I had been excluding during this experiment, in order to stabilize another newly just occurring Anomaly of my irregular fluttering heart beating.

It is at this time my more favored conclusion, being that Dietary Sugars primarily being responsible for my original Anomaly of Muscle Numbness, and I shall wait to see if these conclusions hold up with time. It is reasonably probable that I have sustained some permanent degree, of some degree of nuisance neurological damage in the muscles of my extremities. If this being the correct case of my circumstance, it is probable that this tendency of temporary muscle numbness when laying on these muscles, may involve a complex combination of this sustained neurological damage, while at the same time being influenced by a complex array of over and under nutrient dosages and perhaps even including nutrient absences. These complex Nutrient dosages constantly varying, and based on a complex current evolving need, again further based on my overall progress of health improvement capabilities, truly complex and exasperating to pin down exactly.

33.335

Date, Feb. 17, 2014

Continuing my Probing of Muscle Numbness. As a result of my cutting down on the dosages of Grape Juice and its Sugar load, there was a noticeable improvement to the muscle numbness and was occurring on both sides of my body in my arms and my legs, especially when laying down in bed. However these feelings of muscle numbness still continued, but mostly now in my right arm and in my right thigh muscle and also occurring on both sides of my face to some limited degree. In my new decision to conduct a group of additional new probing experiments regarding this muscle numbness matter, I proceeded with my conducting of a combined grouping of simultaneous experiments to see if it was possible to shed some additional understandings in this muscle numbness matter.

I have been continuing my reduction of Sugars, especially those originating from Grape Juice. Over the past four days I have resumed my temporary limited taking of BCAAs, twice daily and with each dosage being 1/200th of a teaspoon and I have ended my taking of BCAAs. I have to-day stopped my taking of vitamin B12 and vitamin B1, and so far after breakfast and lunch have passed, it appears that so far I am getting away with these eliminations. It is far too early to determine any useful results if any occurring from these actions that have been taken to day. However so far so good and besides I have no bases of knowledge for these present actions taken, only my desire to change things up to see if anything interesting shall have emerged from these current actions.

33.337

Date, Feb. 24, 2014

Muscle Numbness Progressing Well. Since my more extreme cutting back firstly on sugar in my diet and then a few days later by my cutting down by at least one half less of my daily dosages of thiamine, this muscle numbness when laying on the muscle has progressively diminished, until this numbness phenomena now appears to be completely gone and absent. There is a strong suspicion in my mind that even though for myself, thiamine has been no less than a life saving necessity for me, nevertheless it appears in my thinking that when the circumstances of a more advanced metabolic improvement having been achieves, being under these improved circumstances, thiamine can and appears to be capable of directly contributing to some sort of neurological muscle toxicity, if taken to much for to long.

There is one test possible that I recognize as having existed in my case circumstance regarding this so called thiamine toxicity, being that at this time of my attempting my total with drawl of thiamine, I was successfully able to make this thiamine with drawl without my being immediately driven back to thiamine's use. Previously thiamine with drawl was not possible, as each and every time that I attempted any small with drawl of thiamine in my past, I would be immediately forced back to its immediate use. It is thus somewhat appearing to myself that under some circumstances of metabolic digestion functioning improvement and time that a point shall arrive where this wonderful life saving thiamine shall then start becoming neurologically muscle toxic?

33.338

Date, March 2, 2014

Experiment of subtle Extremity Numbness. Yesterday I conducted an experiment regarding my impressions of my occurring subtle numbness, which occurs from time to time. It does not appear to involve the feelings on my skins surfaces, but feels much deeper inside these regions. In my experiment that day, I would take a series of blood glucose reading during, this occurring subtle numbness and in the absence of this numbness, and these as follow now are my inconclusive results of that experiment. One hour after supper, numbness in arms hands and face, Blood Glucose reading 6.8.

Two hours after this supper, no numbness, Blood Glucose reading 5.1. 9 pm after eating again, numbness in face and arms, Blood Glucose reading 7.3. One hour after the 9 pm eating, no numbness, Blood Glucose 5.7. The next morning before eating any food, no numbness, Blood Glucose 4.6, after eating breakfast, no numbness Blood Glucose 4.6. One hour after lunch this same day, no numbness Blood Glucose, 5.8. Three hours after lunch this same day, slight numbness, Blood Glucose 5.2. I do not fully understand how to interpret this final reading anomaly of 5.2 & numbness.

The next day I began an experiment with chromium, taking 50 mcg of chromium, three times daily, derived from chromic enriched yeast. The result of these actions is that there appears to be something here which involves this numbness to some degree, but with only two days of this experiment, I really do not know how to interpret this effect, if actually having occurred. Continuing entry on the next following day. My overall health status regarding these matters is overall super excellent. I also have started to further reduce my daily thiamine intake, something that appears I can now successfully accomplish without penalty. I have also begun a process of greater restrictions of simple carbohydrates, including sugars. With all of these resent measures, which I have been taking, it is somewhat appearing that I am making progress in regards to my subtle degrees muscle numbness in my face arms and thighs, more often than not being connected with food intake.

33.339

Date, March 28, 2014

Subsequent Updating of apparent Nero-Muscular Toxicity. My commenting in this entry will be on my just recently experienced round of my apparent Nero-Muscular-Toxicity that appeared to be present within this past year. This Muscle toxic condition that is perceived by myself as manifested by a transitory numbness occurring, especially in my hands, arms, and thigh muscles and especially when my placing body pressure on any of theses effected muscles while laying in bed. I had experienced that when any of these particular individual muscles were being affected by this numbness, that by my taping the effected muscle with my knuckle, this numbness would immediately begin to recede. This manifestation of numbness was clearly not a result of absent circulation, but instead appeared to involve a Neurological Muscle interaction. Upon my evaluation of this problem it was decided that I would attempt to experiment by withdrawing my thiamine dosages.

During the first two weeks I was able to almost completely withdraw my thiamine supplementing, even though I appeared to be getting away with my thiamine withdrawal, after about a week it was becoming clear that I would be required to restore my thiamine, but however in about one third of my previous standard dosages of thiamine. Slowly my experiences of muscle numbness under there conditions of manifestations began to recede, starting with my hands and then followed by my arms, and then followed by my left thigh muscle and finally followed by my right thigh muscle. It appears at this present time that this numbness condition of my muscles has completely receded out of existence by my reduction of thiamine intake. My overall health status at this period in time appears to be my best that it has ever been since the beginnings of this business in 1977. It does appear to me now that there is two possible categories of Toxicities involved with Alcohol Induced Traumas, Liver Toxicity from Fat soluble vitamins and Neurological Muscle Toxicity from Water Soluble vitamins.

33.341

Date, April 26,2014

Animal Fats no longer critically required. Over the past week I have been experiencing that I am no longer being driven to include animal fats with every meal that I now eat. At this same time my health status has achieved even greater gains then my previous. I am now experiencing that animal fats are no longer being craved by me as mandatory and it has been appearing that I have even been avoiding animal fats as now being irrelevant to my needs. Carbohydrates also now appear to now be less toxic to me.

33.342

Date, May 10, 2014

Hybrid Symptoms

I have now come to understand in more exacting ways that my classical trauma symptoms would each not only create their own individual havoc, but if left untreated these same symptoms have a propensity to combine with that havoc being created by other untreated Trauma symptoms, to eventually create many new hybrid symptoms that are not normally commonly recognized as the produce of Alcohol Induced Trauma.

33.346

Date, June 10, 2014

An entry of a curious puzzling Vitamin D3 observation. At this time my toes rigidity has been under very good control by my studiously applied treatment Protocol, including with D3. It now being in high summer with a great deal of available sun/skin exposure, that I have been experiencing some contradictory paradoxical anomalies. Just prior to my getting a full day of sun/skin exposure each day, my toes on my feet were comfortable and without rigidity. However after my getting of a full day of sun/skin exposure, my toes would this same day immediately have become stiff and uncomfortable.

My perplexing observation is that it being my normal status condition due to my Metabolic Fat Soluble dysfunction, that water-soluble emulsified D3 or sun exposure is required to stabilize my toes rigidity, but in this experienced observation after I have stabilized my toes rigidity, prolonged full sun/skin exposure will now produce counter intuitive results that are completely opposite to fact and my previous experience. Under this sun driven occurring anomaly I can easily remedy my stiff toes with my taking of additional water soluble D3. It is clearly looking to me that one I am in a stable daily vitamin D3 status, that sun exposure shall reverse this stable status.

33.347

Date, June 14, 2014

This post entered script regarding (BCAAs). I have not further experimented with BCAAs since my previous last entries indicating such experiments with BCAAs herein this Journal. In a random experiment, which I conducted yesterday for reasons of testing any possible affect on my Metabolic Digestion competence, my findings were very impressive. I found that by my taking of very tiny amounts of BCAAs in dosages of no greater than 1/200th of a teaspoon with each of three meals yesterday, and along with my Treatment Protocol as per my standard usual, that my overall ability to eat and digest a meal had been immediately greatly enhanced. I also found that as a result of a tiny such dose of BCAAs I would then be craving Carbohydrates, and these BCAAs appearing to be very welcomed by my body in many overall ways. I intend to highly restrict my further experimental use of Branch Chain Amino Acids, as I believe they can be very dangerous, as I intend to only use BCAAs to overcome anomalies of heightened digestion incompetence. However it is appearing that BCAAs are essential in tiny amounts in Alcohol Induced Traumas.

33.348

Date, June 22, 2014

Looking back throughout my decades having this Alcohol Induced Trauma and my known and my unknown associations with BCAAs, it now appears to me that it is my current opinion that these BCAAs were badly needed by myself but totally unavailable during the very earliest portion of this Alcohol Trauma. My further actual experience being that during those intermediate years occurring between my cessation from alcohol and my now current times, it appeared that even this Traumas symptoms being chronic, stubborn, untreated and brutal, during this intermediate period of time in question here my body weight lose issues did not generally appear to exist for me in any profound manor.

However over my recent times being since my "Stomach Collapse" in 2004, and continuing to current times, that of my losing of body weight having been a consistently perplexing, challenging predicament to even try to inadequately influence. However again it having been my credible and consistent result from my experiments with BCAAs, that it appears during these more current times in question, that amino acids now appear mandatory in my diet, but however in only infinitesimal dosages resembling tiny smudges, being perhaps administered only from time to time and only in dosages of 1/3000 ths of a teaspoon or even less, as any larger dosages of BCAAs being toxic and totally inappropriate for a person like myself. Myself now having well entered my seventh decade of life, and those normal metabolic changes that are to be expected may have something to do wit BCAAs, or perhaps a normal progression of this trauma may have to do with these BCAAs needs, or perhaps something else?

33.349

Date, June 23, 2014

At the immediate current times my Trauma is under exceptionally excellent daily control by my studious application of my Treatment Protocol as currently amended. However there are still many daily challenges required to be daily overcome in my perpetual effort of daily controlling my Trauma. Perhaps however one of my most difficult daily challenges to guard against and to daily overcome, are issues of Liver Toxicity. Liver toxicity is and has been a daily challenge to be overcome, as there are enormous numbers of dietary items, which can pose toxic challenges to my Liver. These items can be many of those mandatory required nutrients for my control of this Trauma, or nutrients, which I find useful in my striving to enhance my overall health status. Therefore there is required my daily balancing of my endless balancing procedures in controlling those symptoms generated without endings by this Trauma. My mission being to make the required compromises while at the same times still not unduly creating toxic effects on my Liver.

These toxic Liver effects will immediately show themselves by my Liver's discomfort and pain, which toxic effects being generated by extremely tiny dosages of toxic items. Therefore some of these items must be sacrificed in the name of toxicity prevention but others being so important to my overall health status maintenance and improvement that I am required to make some intermediate compromises of drastically reducing dosages to minimize such toxic impacts. However regardless of how exasperating my challenges are in controlling the symptoms of my Alcohol Induced Trauma, this Trauma's excellent control has been and continuous as being possible.

33.351

Date, July 11, 2014

My health status at this time has become truly spectacular, but strictly subject to my studious applications of my Treatment Protocol as currently amended. All previous entries regarding BCAAs remain valid and as intended in each such previous entries, but however at this Date, and based on my current health improved status, that which follows now regarding BCAAs is accurate and as intended as of this date. BCAAs have proven to be an exceptionally potent and effective tool in advancing of my current health status. However BCAAs continue to be extremely toxic to myself, even in extremely infinitesimally tiny applied dosages. Therapeutic dosages of BCAAs for myself at this particular date continue to only be warranted for several tiny groupings of applications, from time to time only. The BCAAs dosages that I speak of at this time are truly tiny dosages, being comparable to perhaps of equal volume to 1/10th to 1/20th of the volume of one uncooked grain of rice, or even less, as they look almost invisible.

This volume of BCAAs is so tiny that it is almost impossible to administer this dosage, and still my body recognizes that these BCAAs are present. These BCAAs will facilitate many and much health improvements to occur, but they are still extremely toxic to my liver and I suspect my kidneys, even in these tiny dosages, and for this reason of toxicity, I only take BCAAs in these just mentioned tint dosages very carefully and only from time to time. Overall dietary Toxicity continues to be one of my main overall problems for me to daily guard against and to otherwise effectively deal with effectively, but many others of my past, previously exasperating issues are now routinely under extremely stable and good control at this time period.

33.352

Date, Aug. 8, 2014

During this overall protracted period of several months in time, my overall health status has been excellent, and continues to be excellent, being completely devoid of all brutality, and remaining very stable. At meals I continue my studious taking of my Treatment Protocol of Nutrients as currently amended. It has been my current experience that it appears very advantageously helpful for me to take an extremely tiny dosage of BCAAs once a week.

This dosage of BCAAs being very tiny indeed, by representing about the same volume as one half of one tiny uncooked individual grain of rice, if that. This dosage of BCAAs appears to be very helpful in very subtle ways, if not essential for me at these times and I look forwards to the taking of each such dosage of BCAAs once weekly. This present experience with BCAAs is an accurate accounting for me at this general time period, but all other previous BCAAs accountings also remain as accurate and as intended in all each such accountings herein. In a totally separate issue. Last week I decided to conduct an experiment with my taking of one 81 mg. low dose aspirin each day for a total of four days, before abandoning this experiment because of very heavy abnormal activities in the area of my eyes, which in many ways resembled those activities occurring during my early days after I first quite my alcohol consumption.

33.353

Date, Aug. 20, 2014

There is one extremely relevant and significant fact of circumstance that has revealed itself to me as a direct result of my experienced Alcohol Induced Trauma experiments. This relevant experience is that even though thiamine was absolutely life saving to me and required to continue on an ongoing basis, without my careful use of Branch Chain Amino Acids, (BCAAs) in very tiny dosages, there was no possibility of my Metabolic Physical Enhancement Of Recovery. This being true regardless of even the unlimited time spans available, this recovery absolutely could not occur without trace amounts of (BCAAs). These trace dosages of (BCAAs) ranging in dosage volume sizes of one uncooked grain of rice taken for 90 days, to eventually the volume of one tenth the volume of one uncooked grain of rice taken once weekly.

33.354

Date, Sept. 8, 2014

The arrival of a perplexing Anomaly of Liver Pain. Just prior to this entry I had been taking minute tiny dosages of BCAAs, once every five days in dosages so tiny that they were almost invisible to the eye.

On Aug. 29. 2014, there began sometimes after my eating supper, a strong and steady pain towards my back in my liver area of my body. This pain was moderately intense, steady and ended up as lasting for some fifteen consecutive hours, after which its intensity then moderating to a low grade and steady nuisance level. This anomaly occurrence was very concerning and perplexing to me, as it could be representing many possibilities, both positive and negative and I just did not know what to make of this Anomaly. In a move of caution I immediately discontinued all possible carriers of Toxicities in my diet, including A from Milk, E, and Peanuts, etc.' as I thought this could be the result of a Toxic challenge to my liver. On Aug. 31, 2014 I decided and took a dose of BCAAs in a tiny dosage resembling 1/4 the volume of a small grain of uncooked rice, and I resumed my taking of those just previously embargoed toxic carriers, once each week only, and in this greatly reduced insignificant dosage.

Subsequently in short order things appeared to be shaping up nicely. On Sept. 3, 2014 this low grade nuisance pain in the back of my liver area would be present overnight, but appeared to almost fade away completely during each day, but to exactly repeat this pattern again each following day. By Sept. 8, 2014 it was now appearing that this nuisance liver pain had greatly diminished, beginning to credibly appear to me, this liver pain Anomaly was indeed of a positive nature, being that it was beginning to appear that I was requiring still less thiamine with meals and thiamine being less critically required. It was also appearing that I had moved another step higher in my overall improvement to Metabolic Digestion Competence and overall personal vitality. It credibly appears to me that this liver pain Anomaly was the result of my additional liver healing to its new fledgling ability to accept additional metabolic activity responsibilities in my body.

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Date, Nov. 6, 2014

Approaching the Gates Of Hell. On Nov. 4, 2014, I stopped taking both B-Complex and B1, for reasons of experiment. Did these nutrients have anything to do with a mild tingling, when rubbing the tip of the next finger to my left-handed thumb? I was able to successfully withdraw such nutrients for three days, however then started very severe failing metabolic digestion functioning's, however not effecting my simple stomach digestion, and with no sever neurological symptoms. For the next two days my symptoms were accelerating, becoming intensely more impossible. It began to look like I was approaching the gates of hell, I didn't' know what to make of current circumstances, because previous to this experimental embargoing of B1 and B-Complex, my required dosages of B1 and B-Complex were becoming, what seemed to me as almost irrelevant, as the dosages routinely administered by me, were only in very tiny dosages of 200 mg, B1 and 100 mg, B-Complex daily, and my metabolic digestion status, my overall health status and my feelings of normalcy, being previous to this experiment, my stable overall daily routine condition. However the resulting condition resulting from my then, considered innocent with drawl of B1 & B-Complex, so alarming to me, I desperately, immediately and carefully started reintroducing B1, in controlled dosages of 100 mg each dose, but was ultimately continually driven to taking 1000 mg, B1, this day of Nov. 5, 2015. I also took a tiny dose of BCAAs, in a tiny dosage resembling a small grain of rice.

The overnight was a little improved, I awoke the next morning feeling better, with no alcohol style morning hangover head ache and this day I have returned to taking at least 50 mg B1, and 25, mg of B-Complex with each and every meal. So far this day it is looking as I have rehabilitated this truly potent scare, as I feel exceptionally good today. It is credibly appearing, no matter how well things appear to be at any particular time, I will be bound to B1, until the end of my days.

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Date, Dec. 1, 2014

Mandatory Amino Acid requirements. Currently I am finding, and now recognize more clearly, Amino acids are and have been intimately associated with my alcohol-induced trauma. Two provisos I must make clear, the following observations and circumstances, represent my generally current experiences, and secondly, my observations and experiences, occurring at a time well into my seventh decade of life, perhaps to some degree influenced by normal geriatric metabolic changes to my body, this I do not know, one way or another.

It is my credibly strongly appearing Hypotheses, Amino Acids long time deficient to my bodies needs, and secondly, Amino Acids are extremely difficult for me to harvest from my excellent meat protein diet. Palmitate vitamin A, contained in dairy milk and other dietary sources, along with the vitamin E in roasted peanuts, continue extremely toxic to my liver, causing strong liver discomforts. When taking roasted peanuts, in trauma circumstances as mine, enabling body weight gains, I now hypothesize, I was harvesting, badly needed Amino Acids from these Peanuts, but however, poisoned by the undesired liver toxic vitamin E. It is very clear to me, I require additional sources of Amino Acids, in addition to animal meat proteins.

It was the 90 days of BCAAs that arrested my nosedive into oblivion, and it appears I still require a minute dosage, BCAAs, size of an uncooked grain of rice, once every two weeks. I have started an experiment, based on my credible emerging Hypotheses, replacing roasted peanuts, with raw Hemp, the goal, seeing if I can harvest my required Amino Acids from this Hemp source, without the accompanying vitamin E. It clearly appears that I have not been able to harvest my sufficient Amino Acids needs from my adequate animal protein diet. I have experimented with such identical Hemp/Amino Acid Hypotheses prior to my discovery of thiamine, but at those times, Hemp proved totally irrelevant, and totally without merit, however, it is early, but Hemp now, at this time looks very, very promising. It is continuing mandatory of animal fats in my every meal, if the animal protein is lean, I require adding a little chicken fat to that meal. Bacon fat and chicken fats are most effective in normalizing my metabolic digestion performance capabilities at each meal, and plant based fats are totally irrelevant in controlling my trauma. Thiamine is still mandatory at each meal, an average of 400-mg. daily total at these times. Vitamin K appears to still be required. My current health is superior excellent, only as long as I march to my required daily tune.

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Date, Dec. 14, 2014

Significant (Amino Acids) & (B1 Thiamine) Findings. On Dec. 11, 2014 I stopped my current Amino Acid experiment, due to significant side effects from their current short usage experiment. My liver and muscles, appearing to be effected, my using of 1/4 of a teaspoon, Hemp Protein, three times daily. My liver was beginning to feel discomfort and my muscle outside surfaces appeared to suffer a little numbness. It also indicated to me by others, for the previous two days of Dec. 11, 2014, my breath smelled of, as explained to me, of Onions. However my short use of Hemp supplied full spectrum Amino Acids, appeared to catapult me a great distance positively forwards, with very positive improvement to my ability to digest Carbohydrates and a great reduction in the amount of thiamine required by me to accomplish such competent digestion functioning.

It is credibly appearing to me, Amino acids are both indispensable in my diet, and at the same time, incredibly liver and muscle toxic, even over very short term small conservative dosages. I am further finding that the previous benefits of Amino Acids are surviving the stopping of their use. My post Amino Acids needs for thiamine to facilitate my Carbohydrate digestion, the thiamine need virtually zero so far up to this day, however there appears another finding emerging from this just halted Amino Acid experiment. My just past Amino Acid experiment indicating, thiamine not only solely responsible for facilitating my carbohydrate metabolism, as previously believed by myself, as without thiamine at each meal my digestion was greatly impaired. However I am now finding, because my having no pressing needs for thiamine over several days, my carbohydrate metabolism still remaining effective without thiamine, however I am noticing without several days of thiamine, I have become noticeably short of breath. For myself at this time it is appearing, I require thiamine for at least two separate duel purposes, Carbohydrate metabolic metabolism and breathing function amongst others. Amino Acids are incredibly effective for my Trauma improvements, but only taken very carefully from times to time and in very subdued temporary dosages.

Feb., 15, 2018

Ripping and Bruising Skin

Previous of two months ago, and especially over the past two years, the skin on my body was totally devoid of fat content. The skin on my hands and arms resembled onionskin, appearing to contain absolutely no fat. My skin would easily rip, like ripping paper as result of small easy skin abrasions. And my left arm in particular would very easily and unknowingly burse for no recognizable reason, such brushings appearing as large red blotches.

Resulting my successful experiments utilizing Peanut Oils and Olive Oils in controlled dosage experiments and further including tomato products in these controlled experiments, these are my findings of the following resulting conclusions, findings proven to be predictably consistent and reliably stable.

It appears that the high content of Vitamin (A) in the tomato products causing my bruising. Additionally it appears that the absence of fat in my skin causing my skin's easily ripping. It also appears that excessive (E) in both olive oil and peanut oil contributing to my bruising.

However it has been my stable predictable ongoing experience, by carefully balancing, dietary Tomato products, Peanut Oils and Olive Oils, the skin fat problem, the skin bruising and skin ripping has been corrected.

These are my understandings of the component reasons solving these just aforementioned skin related symptoms, amongst others. Limiting Tomato products in significant part, reducing negative skin bruising effects, however I believe that the Resveratrol contained in the peanut oil, intern correcting the lack of my skin content fat. Additionally the Resveratrol dietary intake from the peanut oil, even though encouraging body fat content, exacerbating my blood pressure, such appears to increase some 12-15 points. It also appears by a carefully dietary balancing of both peanut oils and olive oils and limiting my dietary exposure to excessive vitamin (A) from tomato products, Blood pressure is normal and good, Skin is normally plump with fat content, no longer ripping, and my arms are no longer bruising. However this careful balancing must be maintained, otherwise I quickly return to the original skin problems as occurring before these control measure

Chapter - Twenty-Three

2018, Post Entry Clarification,

Neurological Symptoms

During my recent idle musings regarding two of my Neurological symptoms, in particular, My Virtual Vibrating/Humming neurological symptom and an entirely separate neurological manifestation of Arm and Hand Tremor, I came to realize that theses neurological symptoms could very easily be cognitively wrongly misconstrued by readers of these matters.This post entry in intended to prevent any such wrong interpretation, by more clearly defining the differences between each such neurological symptom, where and when appearing within these writings.

During my initial four/five years period of neurological Vibrating/Humming, when I refer to my use of sugar water to partial elevate the most brutal part of this Vibrating/Humming neurological symptom, I must be very clear here in what I am now clarifying, this sugar water referred to here in my writings, this sugar water was solely used to alleviate the most brutal parts of the Vibrating/Humming symptom only, and definitely not involving or to be confused with alleviating the common symptoms of low blood sugar, jitteriness, as jitteriness was absolutely not a part player in my using this sugar water remedy. This difference must be clearly understood, if to correctly understand the matters as occurring.

A Second Neurological Clarification

Arm and Hand Tremor was and continues as a completely separate neurological symptom and from my interpretations, a completely different and unrelated permanent neurological symptom, as compared to the Vibrating/Humming symptom. The Vibrating/Humming symptom, now long gon, but the hand and arm tremor still continues to this very day, five decades later, the hand tremor is a permanent spawn of my alcohol related permanent.neurological damage.

**Presence, of little consequence**.

There can be from times to times, a Third nascence category of Neurological symptom, low blood sugar, jitters, but this is truly only of nuisance consequence.

**Not withstanding** , my body has suffered many other neurological damages, permanent damages effecting many body organs, Heart function, breathing function, muscle function, etc., etc., etc.

Chapter - Twenty- Four

Emerging, Vit. K, Suspicions and, Understandings

This post entered 2018 entry relating to the subject matters contained within this Journal involves my emerging suspicions and early experimental esults findings relating to vitamin K's probable metabolic interactions within manifested Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis.

As indicated throughout this journal, from the initial onset in the 1970's of my Alcohol Induced Hepatic Cirrhosis, I had no understanding of the mystery onslaught which had so brutally taken my body hostage, and that mystery would continue undressed, uncontrolled and totally mysterious for may decades that were yet to follow. However as indicated herein these writings, where and when present, as my emerging understandings began to shed some primitive light on my Hepatic Cirrhosis control understandings, there was one issue, Vit. K, that I suspected, because of its being a fat soluble vitamin, but could never figure out what its probable roll could be within my cirrhosis manifestation.

The reason why it was so difficult for me to understand Vitamin K's possible metabolic involvement, was that there did not appear to be any brutal or compelling metabolic symptoms association or relationships as with others such as (thiamine), (A) and (E), etc. However just rescently it appears that at last I appear to be on the scent of Vitamin K's possible involvements in my Hepatic Cirrhosis.

At this late and well controlled date in my cirrhosis history, it appears that (K) is involved in blood thining, by unexplained extensive bruising, especially within the presence of vitamin A. My emerging experience with (30 mcg) of vitamin (K) daily total, is that even within the presence of a modest amount of vitamin (A), severe and unexplained bruising on my arms no longer occurs.

Having just stated the aforementioned, is it possible that vitamin (K) is somehow also metabolically involved in the category of blood platelets, the future may clarify this ???

End.

