Josh Evans just came out with a video
threatening to expose colleen ballinger
Shane Dawson and Trisha Paytas but
Before we jump into that topic I want to
read you this quick excerpt from my new
book canceled inside YouTube canceled
culture unfortunately I found out
there's no honor or loyalty when it
comes to many youtuber relationships
when I started my channel I started
introducing myself to a lot of creators
I comment on their videos DM them and
build connections it was beneficial to
have others who were trying to build a
channel in my life these were people I
could talk to behind the scenes who
understood the headache that is the
YouTube algorithm and what it was like
to get hate comments from strangers on
the Internet in hindsight I should have
treated these more like work
relationships but I treated them like
friendships I had people warned me not
to get too close to these people and
they were right I was far too optimistic
these next chapters are going to discuss
people I considered friends who left me
high and dry
when everything happened this was the
most painful part of the entire
experience not only did I have people I
thought were friends start making hate
videos about me but some completely
disregarded everything they knew about
me as a person and believed the
narrative that was being spread about me
when I spoke to people in my life about
how this was more painful than losing
fans and subscribers they reminded me
that this was just business they told me
that if I were in their situation I do
the same thing but I disagree as you've
learned and we'll learn more about
throughout the coming chapters that's
not how I operate I stand up for what I
feel is right even when I think it might
hurt my pocket maybe that's done with me
but part of my sobriety is making sure I
live in a way that allows me to go to
sleep at night with a clear conscience
I'd rather be broke and loyal than rich
while Noah wasn't there for people when
they needed me the most
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because I'm going to be following this
story about Josh Evans and the new
videos that are coming out but before we
get started real quick housekeeping my
book cancelled inside YouTube cancel
culture it's free alright the pdf
version is free okay it's going to be
for a limited time until the end of the
month there was some confusion about
that so I'm going to extend the free
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you want to get your free copy get it
down below I talked about cancer culture
on YouTube and mob mentality and the
recent Josh Evans made this video has a
lot to do with all of this stuff alright
so I'm gonna give you a quick little
TLDR about the situation and his new
video that just popped up I just saw a
lot of people talking about it on
Twitter even Matthew Santoro commented
on this video but anyways Josh Evans is
the ex of Colleen ballinger and there
are some stories out there that Colleen
you know cheated on him and everything
like that and we all know that Colleen
is remarried she has a child and
everything well anyways Josh Evans four
months ago he made a video that I highly
recommend that you all check out is
called I'm struggling right he talks
about struggling with anxiety and
depression and how he thought that these
mental health issues were things that
you could just get over right but now
that he's experiencing it he understands
right and it's been holding him back
from creating content that happened four
months ago and he talks about just
wanting to be there and help people and
kind of get vulnerable and share his
experience you know what I mean
and it's a great video and I actually
watched that after I watched his new
video and it's really interesting to see
that mindset change but something that I
I learned myself personally and I've
seen a lot of others go through this as
well is that depression got anxiety
can then turn into anger and resentment
right and we are constantly looking for
other things to remedy it so in this new
video he talks about how he's going to
be coming out with a series of videos
kind of exposing everybody and he talks
about you know he's gonna be talking
about Colleen ballinger he's gonna be
talking about Shane Dawson's maybe talk
about Trisha Paytas and everything like
that and he talks in the video about how
like you don't understand what it's like
to have thousands of strangers telling
you to kill yourself and that you're
irrelevant and all these other things
and the purpose of this video is I want
to kind of help you get into his mindset
because this is an experience that I've
been through and one of the reasons why
I wrote cancelled so I want to help you
understand what he's going through but I
also want to share some of my opinions
as well as my experience on it as well
so what he's saying is that he has been
protecting a lot of people who abandoned
him or don't care about him and there's
probably going to be more stuff that we
learn but dude Josh have you ever
watched this like I get it I get it man
so in my book cancelled something that
you know one of the reasons I wrote it
like I got inspired to write it was
because nobody talks about this thing
like when you when you have the internet
hate mob come after you everybody just
want to kind of sweep it under the rug
and just never talk about it again just
don't talk about it or they might come
after you again I was like you know what
screw that I'm gonna be the dude who
talks about this I'm gonna write an
entire book and I'm gonna address it on
YouTube as often as possible because
this is a problem all right
like this dude and his wife split and
people are telling him to kill himself
people are telling him he's irrelevant
people are telling him he's useless well
like this world has so many angry and
miserable people that have no other
outlet than to put it out online right a
lot of them are from the comments but we
also live in a time where there's a lot
of creators where they're so miserable
but that's all they do - they just
how to tear people down right and so
Josh it seems has finally got to this
breaking point and he's tired of keeping
quiet and protecting people who don't
give a damn about him and I get that
because in my book something I debated
on for a long time was do I want to
write about the people I've never talked
about publicly and I finally came up
with the answer and that answer was yes
so the way I live my life today as much
as possible is I try to pause and check
my motives what are my motives why do I
want to do this right because we know
one of the tricky things about mob
mentality and cancel culture is if
you're the one getting all that hate why
great example is James Charles and the
talk to us sports situation if you're
the one getting all that hate and then
you defend yourself then the hate just
goes the other way right like the
internet hate mob they don't care who
they get to hate they just want to hate
somebody right so as I'm writing this
book I'm like okay well if I write about
these other people I don't want the
audience to be like oh and judge these
other people and go Hayden right and go
leave them nasty comments because listen
if you do that like if you watch
somebody get canceled and have the
internet hate Bob come after them and
then you go take that energy and you put
it on someone else you're not learning
anything and like frankly I don't want
any of those people in my community okay
so what I did the decision I made was I
was gonna discuss it but I was gonna
leave people anonymous which I which I
did there was a few people I actually
named my man but those are just so
public like the people I left anonymous
or ones that have just never liked it
never came up before and well some
people have figured it out like it
hasn't become a huge deal and I hope it
doesn't but again I had to check my
motives what were my motives so getting
back to Josh Evans talking about you
know exposing colleen ballinger and
Shane Dawson and Trisha Paytas I'm
looking at this I'm like what is this
dude's motives right and you watch this
video
and it's anger right and I get it I get
it when people turn their back on you
like it's it's part of our survival
instincts right when people turn on us
and they aren't there for us and
everything like that like we feel like
we need to defend ourselves especially
when you have thousands of people coming
out to you and you're trying to be the
bigger person and just let it slide so
then there comes this decision that
someone like Josh has to make someone
like myself has to make us like do I
defend myself do I let these people off
scot-free or do I defend myself which
may get them some hate so while Josh and
I both made this decision to discuss
these things
josh is is coming from a place of anger
and just purely my opinion I don't think
that's gonna work out very well
because he it seems obviously I don't
know Josh I'm not inside his mind I'll
just let you know what it seems like to
me it seems but he wants other people to
hurt as much as he's hurt okay and
that's not something that I want a great
example of this is slaws Oh defending
I'm Alex recently like a lot of us who
go through this we wouldn't wish this on
our worst enemy but when you watch
Josh's video it really feels like he
wants other people to feel the pain that
he has and when we do that we're coming
from such a dark place and we think that
revenge is going to make us feel better
like if you could just feel a little bit
of the pin I hope you're paying
attention to this as well because I used
to be a very vengeful person and all it
did like maybe it gave me like this a
little like quick little little instant
gratification but that I felt like a
dick right and I don't know maybe Josh
will change his mind but I'll tell you
this like I said I thought long and hard
about what I was gonna like if I was
gonna talk about some behind the scenes
stuff that I hadn't talked about
publicly some people I considered
friends behind the scenes who just
completely turned their back on me
but again I checked my motives I asked
myself do I want to write this to get
these people back do I want them to get
hate do I want them to feel my pain and
the answer was no because I don't want
that I don't want that at all I could
have put their names in there cuz I said
it was these people right but I didn't
because one of the purposes of my book
was like I said nobody talks about this
nobody talks about this nobody says like
how this affects them so you're gonna
learn more about it as Josh releases
more videos if he does but I wanted to
have documentation taking back my story
like josh is doing I want to explain it
this is what happens this is what
happens in this community when the hate
mob comes for you
and like I read in that section of the
chapter that's actually from the control
before I talk about the people who turn
on me like I realize like there's no
loyalty among youtubers none all right
it's not all of them I have some friends
that I've met who have stuck by me and I
talk about them in the book as well but
many of these things are just business
relationships they're just business
relationships and if you're somebody
like me or it seems like what Josh went
through it it hurts because you thought
you've built up something more you know
what I mean you thought that you were
tight and some of you might be able to
relate like if you have you ever gone
through a breakup and your friends just
kind of side with the other person or
something like that well so I think part
of it for Josh might be that you know
what I mean just because it was a
breakup but I get what it's like to have
people you thought were friends turn
their back on you and I'm sure a part of
Josh and this is something that I like I
I didn't want to get into but I'm sure
part of Josh is like I want everybody to
know that this is not a good person look
what they do this is who they really are
you see who they are on YouTube right
but I know who they really are right and
like the vengeful part of me like the
old Chris I wanted to do that in my book
but I didn't okay like something that I
I learned very early on in my sobriety
was is
not my place to expose people that's not
like I need to I need to heal me right
and I learned a long time ago like
getting revenge and exposing other
people like that's not something that
fulfills me and brings me joy now don't
get me wrong I have defended myself in
the past and I will but something that I
don't do and will never do I don't
release DMS I keep people anonymous when
I can sometimes people figure that stuff
out you know what I mean but like that's
the kind of balance like for my own
mental health I have to share my stories
but I do everything in my power to try
to protect that other person you know
what I mean like but like what josh is
talking about in that video is is he's
tired of protecting those people and I
was too I knew that there was a small
chance there's a small chance that
people have got to figure out who I'm
talking about in the book but for my own
mental health like I had to share that
experience I wanted to help others I
wanted people to understand this is what
happens there are so many kids there are
so many young people out there who
aspire to be a youtuber so social media
influencers or video game streamers
right and I wanted to write the first
book documenting what happens in this
community when everybody turns on it but
I don't have to do that at the expense
of others so anyways I'm talking a
little bit longer than I thought but I
will be following this story and if if
you've made it to the end of this video
and you really want to get into the
mindset and understand what this is like
go pick up a copy of cancel this on my
website www.africanelements.org
and most people most people out there
are never going to understand what it's
like to have hundreds of thousands of
strangers just coming after you you know
so if you want to understand it a little
bit more check out the book tell a
friend whatever it is but anyways I hope
the best for Josh I will be following
this story and see what we can learn
from it alright anyways that's all I got
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