TOP OF THE MORNING TO YOU LADDYS
My name is jacksepticeye and welcome back to doki doki literature club
We're startin' off the next day exactly where we left off the last episode coming in on Monika is right here saying
[Reads]
Again with the determination she keeps saying that or
No, that's actually in the poems that I keep saying that
Maybe not determination, but I guess passion remember that the club wouldn't you
And I'm super happy that you're all willing to help out for the festival too
Ah! I can't wait for the festival
It's going to be great
Eh? Weren't you complaining about it just yesterday Natsuki?
Well yeah.
I'm not talking about our part of the festival
But it's a whole day of school where we get to play and eat all kinds of delicious food
You sound a bit like say Sayori all of a sudden
Monica I do usually have fried squid?
squid
That's a pretty specific thing to look forward to.
Oh come on! Are you saying you don't like squid?
you of all people?
Eh?
I didn't say I don't like it
Say- is that something on my screen?
It looks like she is something around her mouth. Like she's a little bit of food- like a little stain around her mouth.
Besides, what do you mean by you of all people?
Because,
It's right in your name
Mon-ika.
Eh??
That's not how you say my name at all!
I don't know how she was, supposed to be saying that.
Also that joke makes no tran-*laughs* sense in translation
*laughs*
She's breakin' the fourth wall again!
That's cool..
Uh- Nevermind..
Let's just focus on our own event for now, okay?
Eh heheheheh
Fine, fine.
Your reactions aren't as funny as Yuri's or Sayori's anyway.
Excuse me?
Where is Sayori anyways?
Oh. There you are.
Sayori is sitting at a desk in the corner of the room looking down at nothing. I walk over to her.
Hey, Sayori.
I wave my hand in front of her face.
Ehh--?
You're spacing out again.
Sorry, haha, don't mind me!
You can go talk to everyone else.
huh?
Is everything all right?
O-.. Of course!
Why wouldn't it be?
Just feels like you're a little off..
Sorry for assuming things.
Jeez, you worry too much about me.
Haha, I'm fine. See?
Ha ha ha!
Don't let me distract you from having fun with everyone.
Well...
Alright. If you say so.
I worriedly glance at Sayori before turning back toward everyone else.
The conversation is already dispersed, with everyone back at their usual activities.
Maybe I should ask Monika, if she's noticed anything about Sayori recently.
Since they've been preparing for the festival; they must be spending a lot of time together.
I timidly approached Monica who was shuffling through some papers at her desk.
Jack, What's up?
Hey, this might sound a little strange, but, have you noticed anything up with Sayori recently?
Anything up with her? In what way do you mean?
Maybe I'm reading a little too much into it, but she seems a bit downcast today.
Oh, you think so?
Can't say I've noticed anything about her.
Monika peers across the room at Sayori who is idly dragging, a rubber eraser up and down her desk.
Maybe there is something on her mind..
But, I'm surprised I'm not the one asking you jack! You certainly know her a lot better than I do
Yeah, but she's never really liked this..
She's always talked to me about things that bothered her, but this time, when I asked her she was really dismissive.
Sorry, I know it's not your problem. I just wanted to ask if you knew anything, so, I'll drop it now.
No, no, it's important to me, too.
I mean I'm also friends with her, and I also care about the well-being of my club members.
You know. Maybe I'll try talking to her myself
Are you sure about that?
She seemed like she wanted to be left alone.
Are you sure? Maybe she just has a hard time bringing it up with the person of interest.
Person of interest?
What do you mean by that?
I'm saying that maybe the thing on her mind is you Jack!
Me? How earth would you come to that conclusion?
Well, I probably shouldn't say too much but, Sayori talks about you more than anything else, you know?
Huh?
She's been so much happier ever since you joined the club. It's like an extra light was turned on inside of her.
What?!?
Girls have lights on the inside?! Oh God.
But my understanding of uh..
Human physiology is all over the place.
No way. Sayori is, always like that.
She's always been full of sunshine..
And now they're full of sunshine?!?
I need to get my medical book..
It's not any different now than it always has been.
Heheheh-
You're so funny Jack
Have you thought that maybe you've always seen her as so cheerful-
because that's just how she is when she's around you?
Oh god I never thought about that.
Heheh. I said too much. I'm sorry. What do I know anyway?
I didn't mean to jump to conclusions, so- you should just forget about what I said.
I'll try to talk to her! So, try not to think about it for now.
Uhh.. All right
Monika smiles meaningfully. I know she said to forget about it
but I already know that I won't be able to get her words out of my head
Monika stands up from her desk and walks across the room to where Sayori is sitting.
I watched her kneel down next to Sayori and gently talk to her.
But she's keeping her voice so quiet, I can't hear her from here.
I sigh and sit myself down.
*Loud sigh and sit*
I know she already told me not to worry about her and to have fun with everyone else but,
that's impossible to do when she's behaving like this.
Exactly how much do I care about her that I'm letting this weigh me down so much now?
Now it feels like I'm the one behaving out of ordinary.
But there's nothing I can do besides wait for Monika.
Why does it feel like I'm being watched??
I glanced around the room- hey, I just did that!
Suddenly I noticed Yuri peering at me from over her book.
People REALLY wanted me to stay with Yuri.
Like really, really, REALLY wanted me to stay with Yuri.
I don't know why.
But. We might have to do that.
But as- I'll see how I feel in the moment!
But she looks away. Just as quickly with a flustered look in her face. I realized that she won't get anywhere like this
I've never really seen Yuri approach anyone or start a conversation of her own accord.
So, I have no choice but to approach her myself.
By now it's a little easier for me to do that.
I stand up from my desk and sit in one next to her own.
I didn't mean to bother you or anything.
Relax, you didn't even do anything
But..
I could tell you wanted to be alone with your thoughts..
Alone my thoughts?
How were you even able to tell what I was-
that I was thinking like that?
well
It's something that I do a lot, so it wasn't hard for me to spot based on your posture and expression.
N-not that I was staring or anything- I didn't do anything creepy like that..
In any case, I guess you were right.
Sorry if I caused you any concern.
You did her a heckin' concern Jack!
Don't apologize. Your troubles are only the concern of those willing to sharing that concern
Of course there are certainly those who find the most comfort in keeping to themselves
But if you would prefer to share what's on your mind then, I would be glad to listen.
It's really not that big a deal. I was just feeling a bit uneasy about Sayori.
Sayori?
Yeah, she seems a little off today, but when I asked her about it. She didn't want to admit it to me
So I can't help but wonder if something happened to her.
Oh.
That's quite romantic
Huh?
S-Sorry, I didn't mean to say something stupid.
It's not that I just I didn't want you to misunderstand.
Sayori and I have been friends for a long time that's all.
Ah.
I see then, perhaps it is unusual for her to be dismissive to you about her feelings.
Or maybe I'm just reading into it a little too much.
Jack. The world is full of meaning, often hidden deep beneath plain sight.
And there are many untold mysteries behind every person, no matter how well you may know them.
I waited getting all deep on me. I was just asking about my oh my my my girls yo yo over there
you think that there might be something behind it after all oh, I smacked oops I
Smacked my my mixer, and I'm afraid that I mess up by mic settings today. There's a sound okay, I fucking hope so
Mmm. I think that say Ori is a very complex person
Her mannerisms on the outside don't always match what may be going on inside her head
she may not always know what she wants I
Noticed her strange behavior today, too
but I also feel some concern for her, but in your case it looked like she was fully occupying your thoughts wasn't she
Well, I guess that was the case
C or E. She really means a lot to You doesn't she uh
I guess
You don't need to put it that way. We're just good friends. That's all Yuri. Suddenly looks deeply into my eyes
Hey Jack, how's it going?
Her expression is gentle and curious if she was searching for something like gal gadot in the Wonder Woman movies Pier Austin if you're Wonder
Woman gal gadot playing Wonder Woman in any of the movies I love her as Wonder Woman
She's great, but notice how many offices she goes?
Like out and watch Wonder Woman I watch after she goes like a puppy try to figure out what's going on?
Embarrassed I avert my gaze
Sometimes a person's mysteries are untold even to themselves and
You as someone honest and caring may uncover feelings you weren't aware were in you that that is I think that
She would be a very fortunate person to have you feel that way about her Yuri
You're giving me too much credit. I'm a pretty simple guy
I'm a butt man Yuri. That's all it is. I should say boobs Yuri's all boobs
So I think I'm pretty good at understanding my own feeling
Singular I'm not nearly as sophisticated as you
That's not a compliment is it it is what it is it abs or the dams?
Anyway, as long as we're here, but always do some reading well
As long as you're okay with it, yeah
She should be taking my mind off this whole thing anyway cut use first someone died
Okay everyone wait did we do the the feeding sensual chocolates to each other again the whole shoulder robbing me and you you
Man, I hope so cuz it was adorable last time it also got me kinda hot under the collar after some time passes Monica it
Calls to the club room. They don't we share it phones out. Oh, yeah for a Poetry Club
Before I know it everyone is back to normal everyone goes retrieve their poems and I do the same. Oh my god
I contact with Monica she smiles at me
What she was just what she was talking about with say Horry
Alright, let's go what my girl you you again you you first you you waifu. That's what I like to call her
Decided to try something different today. Oh, yeah, I forgot I did a I did a mix match
and it's a Horry and a yury poem didn't I I did like a half and half or at least I tried I
Guess so is that good or bad well neither I have my preferences
But it would be unfair of me to call something good or bad based on that
As always I believe what's most important is exploring and discovering yourself
That's comforting kind of afraid of disappointing you in some way or another
Why me well you're always sophisticated with your writing and have the most advice to share is that so
URI thanks for a good hot minute that must be terrible what no
For me to have become someone whose opinion is fearsome. How unlikable of me
You're a sweetheart shook him up. Don't be saying those things about yourself. It's not as bad as you're making it sound in your head
Just meant that I respect your opinion
I see I'm sorry that I always overthinking come to these sorts of conclusions. I'm just a little too used to it
overthinking
Being disliked. Oh, that's sad
We like uuu
We like Yuri very much
Right you like Yuri, right?
Don't don't you're disappointing spider loaf. He's gonna be sad if you say no, I'm sad
That's what Spyder love says all hail spider loaf Yuri
What what what am? I saying? I'm sorry. I didn't mean to bring that up. Let's move on
All right, you want to share your poem now
Okay
here
So somebody pointed out her last poem was
It could have been symbolic towards self-harm because she talked about feeding the raccoon so the raccoon is like
Perverse or like personification of self harm, and the more she feeds it the more it comes back kind of thing
Which is interesting, and I'm glad that a lot of people are taking different meanings out of the poetry even when?
Because what I what I'm recording these
I don't take like a lot of time to actually sit down and think about what they're writing and I think
What the writing is very emblematic of how what type of character they are maybe what's gonna
Happen with them later on so I
Don't really have time to sit down and think about it for ages
So I'm glad that people in the comments go away and think about it, and then write what they feel
Beach a
Marvel millions of years in the making where the womb of Earth chaotically meets the surface
I like that line under a clear blue sky an expanse of bliss
But beneath grey rolling clouds and endless enigma the easiest world to get lost in is one where everything can be found
One can only build a sandcastle where the sand is wet
But where the sand is wet the tide comes
Will it gently lick at your foundations until you give in or will a sudden wave send you?
Crashing down in the blink of an eye either way the outcome is the same yet. We still build sandcastles I
Stand where they all god-sent where the foam wraps around my ankles where my toes squish into the sand the salty air is therapeutic
The breeze is gentle yet powerful. I sink my toes into the ultimate boundary line tempted by the foamy tendrils
Turn back and I abandoned my piece to erode at the shore drift forward
And I returned to earth forevermore
hmm
Be curious to see who I am the beach represents
Toasting in the sand salty salty air therapeutic region
I sink my toes into the ultimate boundary line tempted by the foamy tendrils turned back
And I abandoned my peace to erode at the shore so her the beaches her peace like her happy place
I guess drift forward, and I return to Earth forevermore
Does Earth make you sad?
I'm aware that the beach is kind of an inane thing to write about
But I did my best to take a metaphorical approach to it
You say that like you didn't even want to write about it. Oh
You haven't heard
after yesterday Natsuki and I
Well, it was amusing that we wrote about something similar in such different ways
So that's a key wanted us to write about the same topic as each other again
I'm supposed to better compare the differences in our writing styles or thought processes
Anyway, it was her idea
Knowing her it's no surprise that she wanted to do something like that
She probably just wants to show off
It's not like I have a particular interest in her writing style. I just went with her request, but well
I suppose it's not so bad to write about something simple on occasion. It could be refreshing you know
It's good for me to count my thoughts once in a while. Yeah, I think I agree
And it works out well because my character technically wrote something different today as well, so everybody's trying new things squirt
They're trying new stuff put your feet into different shoes and walk a mile in someone else's steps for a day
Thanks for sharing. Okay, so I have to go to Natsuki's then after this just to see what she's writing about. Yeah, no, thanks
You didn't even next
It's fine it's cool
Do you even want to fucking read your stupid poem anyway nasty
Your name should be Knotts K. You know like that's okay, don't you read your fucking home?
Okay
Monica let's let's listen yours hi jack. Have you thought about what you want to submit to perform at the first of all?
Well being in this club is one thing but performing in front of a bunch of people
I'll have to give it some more thought
Okay, no pressure, but make it awesome
Whatever you do. I'm sure to turn out great. Just don't embarrass the whole cup in front of everybody Thanks
It would also make me happy to see you know if you made something really awesome
Maybe not the bullshit that you were reading before okay Monica. I get it honey. Let's take a look at today's bullshit. I mean Tom
Sure, I don't Monica take the poem. I'm holding in my hands. I
Like this one. It makes me think of something C. Or E would like that's also a NFC or e to last because
Technically I wrote the poem for her today
That's so
You and say are you're really good friends right? I wouldn't be surprised if you had those sorts of things in common. Oh
Well we may be good friends, but C or E. And I are actually really different
Well that may be the case, but maybe there's also some similarities that you wouldn't expect haha anime
The way she talks about you. It sounds like the two of you would really care about each other's well-being even
If you show it in different ways it ends up being more similar than you think
So I guess that's the kind of vibe I get when reading your poem say you're he's also entered bullshit
Huh just like you are hmm
You sure you're not reading into it too much. Huh I could be but it's a fucking literature club Jack
I kind of have to read into things all the time. It's what we do you don't ask
Okay, Monica, Jesus relax. Oh gosh. I sound like Yuri Yuri my wife who would never talk to me like that in any case
Series writing has a kind of gentle feel to it
You know don't like she doesn't know what she's talking about. I can tell that she likes exploring with emotions like happiness and say yes
Who knew that someone so happy you would enjoy sad things, too
Yeah, that's totally unexpected
It's almost like people's surface emotions aren't the full picture all the time
How often do we hear about?
comedians committing suicide in real life or not even just comedians, but
Like people who always seem so happy in interviews like especially celebrities whenever you hear one of them committed suicide. It's like what?
They seemed like they had everything together. They seemed like everything was fine
It's not always the case
And you shouldn't be afraid to experiment a little bit either
Anyway, I'll share my poem with you now all right. Just try to understand it
I know you like to write shit, and you're stupid and everything but sometimes maybe I can teach you
All right
Perfectly the lady who knows everything aka
Monica an old tale tells of a lady who wanders earth the lady who knows everything a
beautiful lady who has found every answer all meaning all purpose and all that was ever sought and here I am a
feather oh
You really do like messing with the stuff on your page lost adrift the sky
victim of the currents of the wind day after day I searched I
Searched with little hope knowing legends don't exist you're looking at one
Huh in-game Jack pure legend read my poetry also visit my blog
But when all else has failed me when all others have turned away
The legend is all that remains the last dim star glimmering in the twilight sky
Until one day
the wind ceases to blow I
Fall and I fall and fall and fall even more gentle as a feather a dry quill
Expressionless sometimes she's this little - under her letters, and I don't know why?
But a hand catches me between the thumb and forefinger the hand of a beautiful lady
I look at her eyes and find no end to her gaze
the lady who knows everything knows what I am thinking, but before I can speak she responds in a hollow voice I
Have found every answer all of which amount to nothing
There is no meaning. There is no purpose, and we seek only the impossible
I am NOT your legend your legend does not exist and with a breath
She blows me back afloat, and I pick up a gust of wind I
Like that poem I
think it's talking about
Again my interpretation of these things on a first glance first surface-level read is
Not always gonna be the thing and the thing about poetry is that everyone takes different meaning out of them anyway
But I think the lady who knows everything is there is
the
It's like is a character
You create in your head
That everyone has somebody out there that they think is perfect or they think that there's a perfect version of themselves
the lady who knows everything could be who Monica thinks she has to be or what she's
Striving for what she's aiming for what? She's looking for
a person who has their whole life together, but then
They're just drifting through the sky on the currents of the wind and day after day
They're searching for that
That purpose that goal that perfection that version of themselves that they think they have to be
Or they're searching for that person who they want to look up to who is everything they want to be
but then they realize that maybe
They're never going to find it or maybe sometimes
They're sad and sometimes they think that they're never going to get there, and they're not worthy so they fall
But they fall like a feather through the air, and then they meet that version of themselves
or if they come to terms with that version of themselves
And the lady says I have found the answer of all of which amount to nothing, but there is no meaning
There is no purpose and all we seek is the impossible I am NOT your legend so
Monica sorry I'm going off on a tangent, but I like this stuff
Monica's seeking a perfect version of herself
the impossible
Which doesn't exist as she comes to terms with the fact that it that that character doesn't exist and she's blown back?
Into her day to day life
She finally catches a ghost again, so I think it's the the duality of like happiness and sadness
Some days you're happy and sometimes you're striving for that perfect version of yourself
But sometimes you're sad, and you fall back down and you come to terms with yourself that maybe that version of yourself doesn't exist
But I liked it can be a very pessimistic ending to it
but I like to try and see the silver lining and everything so I'd like to think of this as
Coming to terms of things in a good way that you come to terms
He's like you know what maybe there isn't a perfect version of myself out there
Maybe I don't have to find a perfect version of myself I can just go back into my life
Pick up a gust of wind and just live my life, and that's fine
That's all there is to it. You don't need to have to find the lady who knows everything
Let's see what she says about it. You know I
Feel like learning and looking for answers are the sorts of things that give life meaning
not to get too philosophical or anything, but it was kind of on my own mind, so that's what I wrote about ah
So maybe it's a spiritual kind of thing lady who knows everything is like
Like God or I
Don't know I see I never really put that much thought into it in a way
It's almost paradoxical because if we had all the answers wouldn't the world start to lose its meaning
You know there's one thing. I noticed it seems like everyone in the club prefers writing other things that are more sad than happy
Haha, are you surprised? I mean, if everything was okay? We wouldn't really have anything to write about would we
no, we would humans are two-dimensional creatures I
Think you'd know that better than anyone
You mean one-dimensional? Uh-huh yeah that?
Anyway, here's Monica's writing tip of the day
Are you ever too? Shy to share your writing because you're afraid
It's not that good. It can be really disheartening to get a lukewarm response to something that you put so much into
But if you find other people who enjoy writing
I think sharing becomes a lot easier because instead of just telling you that your writing is good or okay, or bad
They want to focus more on everything that went into it and the things you can work on it's much more encouraging that way
I'll make you want to continue improving
It's almost like having your own literature club. Don't you think that's my advice for today?
solid advice for any of you out there who wants to do anything
Art writing movies anything like that the first thing you produce does not have to be a thing that even if you put
Effort effort put into something should never equal
Praise given afterwards it can and that would be great. That's a perfect word
Not a perfect world
But that's that's that's the hope that if you put a lot of effort into something people will
Like it just as much as you had as much energy going into it
But that doesn't always have to be the case and it's not always the case and as soon as you come to terms with that
The easier it is to keep creating stuff because you've put a lot of effort into something
it's easy to build up expectations that people need to have an outpouring of just as much affection towards it and
Then when that doesn't happen. It's easy to be like oh well
There's no point putting that effort in again because it didn't work out
It's not the case keep on working keep on trying keep on pushing and find that light. It's worth it. I promise you
but I do not trust Monica in the slightest she's she's very weird she says things now and then and
Then all of a sudden it's like wait you mean this she's like oh yeah that
Like talking directly to the player twice now
Saying that it's lost in translation and that you should save and now she's talking about being
Two-dimensional, and then I have to correct her with one dimensional so it's almost like she's talking to me as the player and then Jack
In the game is correcting being like wait, don't you mean one-dimensional?
It's like
It's like if I started talking to you guys and being like humans are just four-dimensional creatures
And then you guys are like don't you mean three dimensional, and I'm like oh yeah
That it's I think there's something more sinister going on so Oh trust you Monica
Thanks for listening
All right, see yo, yo can we say yo yo, okay?
No, I can't pull that off. Whatever. That's that's cool perfectly fine
It's nice. I guess come on. I can already tell you don't like it. I wrote I wrote it for you
Well, you don't need to worry about what I think
After all you wrote this for someone else didn't you?
Probably Yuri, huh I didn't write this for anyone specifically maybe
That's not really what I meant though, but it's okay
You're making new friends. Just like I was hoping that
makes me really happy and
You're happy too right in this club
Well of course I am yeah good. That's all that matters to me
Thank you jack so Yuri is there something wrong, huh?
No, nothing
I'm just a little tired today, haha
All right, just tell me if you need anything okay, oh well hurry about me okay. He can go play with everyone else now
If you insist yay, I'm gonna go home a little bit early today. No
Sirree
Turn Monique. I wasn't feeling well. Okay. Let's see you tomorrow
Before I can say anything else see or he cheerfully walks out of the classroom humming to herself so
I don't get to walk home and say or easily is she getting
Upset because I was becoming more attracted and incident Yuri
And then Yuri was getting upset because I might be interested in say Orry don't do this to me game
Ah
Horrible poor say, Ori
Cuz that's the thing Sayuri's attitude
well, uh her her cheerful mentality is like the thing that I'm more drawn to in real life that kind of chipper Pipper kind of
thing
But URI was like the first one ah God. You know what let's not question it
It's still just a game at the end of the day, but do you think this is a motherfucking game?
Well done sharing poems right. Why don't we start figuring out hold on a second?
Is it just me or did you say something strange just now?
Something did sound a bit unusual
That's right. You deviated from your usual catchphrase when addressing the pub
Catchphrase, I don't have a catchphrase
jeez
Weights DeMuth, so we're today look given Yuri as an immune to it
Stagnating air is common for shadowing that something terrible is about to happen. I don't like it. I don't like it
In your books, maybe look the only thing different is that say aureus in here
It seems you're right
See Ori always helps lighten the mood a little bit doesn't she it's almost like everyone's balance is thrown off a little bit
She's not around
Who the heck did she run off to anyway? I thought she just went a pee
That's a key. Please show some decency. Oh come on
Jack she wasn't feeling too. Well, so she went home early is that so I hope she's all right seriously
Of all the times to not go home with her you picked the time. She's not feeling well
So much for you two being all lovey-dovey uh
No
First of all stop misses understanding my friendship with say Ori. She my girl Maya
She she my ride-or-die yo and second. She's kind of been avoiding me today, so I didn't want to force it
What sound is this who I'm an owl the curious expression coming from Yuri of all people
Calm down guys. I talked to her earlier and everything is fine
What did she say?
Anyway, we need to figure out the rest of the festival preparations, so
Why are you not telling me is it because I like the you you
Which sounds like milk is you you are a form or brand of like flavored milk you you?
It sounds like that. Is that an American thing I remember
This is a whatever. We'll be doing this weekend. I
Already know what I'm doing
That's right. That's the key will be making cupcakes
But we might need a lot of them and different flavors
Can you handle that all by yourself Natsuki a tiny little shit sorry?
challenge accepted
And as for myself. I'm gonna be printing and assembling on all the poetry pamphlets
Siri will be helping me design them
I'll also be disliking all your pictures on Facebook because I'm actually a chaotic person, but as RiRi
Yuri, you can suck my ass um
guys can you help me come up with something for Yuri I
I'm useless
No
That's not it at all. You're the most talented person here. You know
Her nuts he's like oh. No not sakis pouting -
Jeez even I can tell now
I guess I never gave to say Yuri enough credit, but you can tell things are even harder on you when she's not around
Haha that may be the case are yeah cuz she's vice president
But if I can't also be a leader on my own, then it won't grow as a person. Oh shit. I forgot to leave the
I
Forgot to leave the thing open there their files for the game
I'll do it in between days if anything has gone in I'll be able to see anyway, so URI you have beautiful handwriting
You know so you should make some banners and decorations to help set the atmosphere
atmosphere
about that I I
Love atmosphere curious expression suddenly changes as she stares at her desk and focuses sarah's nodding to herself
Your mind is already racing. I see that's great. You'll be a wonderful help URI, but anyway that just leaves you Jack
You're a piece of shit you want to do anything, huh?
The one who is truly useless
Don't say that. I mean we're all thinking it, but just don't say it in fact boat Natsuki
And you already have some pretty heavy tasks to handle. It'll probably go a long way to give you one of them a hand
You can always help me out as well. I have a really appreciative of that
I mean I could do it all myself, and I actually don't need your tiny hands in the middle of all my work, but whatever
That's is Monika suggesting you spend the weekend one of my club members
How on earth are they gonna respond to a suggestion like that I?
Suppose, I wouldn't mind a bit of help
You you I know I I knew I loved you for a reason you build big milky mistress
And I'm not just saying you're big and milky because you got big boobs
I'm saying you're big and milky because you you sounds like milk
Well even if you don't know how to bake. There's always some dirty work. I could give to you. It's like my laundry
It's not something Monica's gonna. Give me a choice, and you should it's not like she's gonna. Give me a choice
I don't know. I can't speak can't make good mouths
And you shouldn't be sitting on your butt anyway that ski tries to mumble a bunch of excuses like that um
If I recall Natsuki you mentioned that you would like to handle the baking on your own
Chuck may not like to be around you if only you make him out to be a nuisance so therefore
He may be more suited to assisting with the decorations. Also. I really want to make out with him. Is that obvious by now
Hold on. I never said that how could it be to make a few decorations anyway?
Sounds more like you're just making excuses for jacket, but what are you saying? It would be extremely meticulous work and
baking isn't
Just what do you think guys guys let's settle down for a moment in the end?
I think it's up to Jack to decide how he'd like to contribute besides
He hasn't really gotten the chance to spend any time with me yet. You know. It's cuz you're a demon and I
Johnny you don't trust you
So I'm sure he's interested in you literally just said I'm surprised as well
Sorry, sorry. I was just saying though jeez
Can we just settle this already yeah, Jack? You're okay with this right in the end. It's up to you uh?
of course
Very well in that case everyone looks straight at me. Oh I could pick say Yuri
Why does it always rain on me I
Really want to pick say, Orry because I think she's feeling down, but people told me to stay with Yuri, and they really wanted that
But I don't know Hawaii. I don't want you guys to be able to participate in this as well
I wanted to be a series for everybody and I
Don't know. I'm kind of interested in Yuri as well, so let's go with Yuri
Well, I probably be most useful helping out Yuri. I don't say you're he's doing anyway me are you serious?
Why would you that's the key I can already tell you're about to say something mean that
No
Was just saying
Wha?
So you'll be helping Yuri then Jack
Yeah
That's what I'm going to do. I'm glad I have a bad habit of overthinking these sorts of things
So I think your assistance will be very useful
That's great to hear Natsuki. Will you'll be able to handle their baking by yourself, I mean, yeah
Hurry said I would be fine. Okay. Okay? Everything tell that Natsuki is feeling a little sour
That's our key. Haha got him. So is that everything we needed to go over. Yeah, that should be about it
Are you guys excited show me your excited face show me your game face?
Well excited may not be the right word, but I suppose I'm looking forward to it a little bit
I'm positively ecstatic can't you tell from my expression and my demeanor?
Do you feel the same way Jack me? I guess you could say I'm interested to see how it'll turn out
That's good enough for me. How about you not Sookie?
That's a key what why is everyone yelling at me didn't even do anything
No
That's not what I meant at all
Yuri, anxiously glances between everyone in the room, but I'm sorry for this
I don't really know why Jack picked me you you fight heavily for me to come over I?
Guess he could come over and help me about my decorations is really meticulous work
And you guys said you didn't want him to be with you anyway
I have no idea why you picked me and also you cupcakes are the best cupcakes. I've ever had
They go really well with my, TEA!! (I really like Tea...)
Nothing that I do for the event will compare to that so
So I get it I get it kind of surprised oh
Why?
Um well I'm the one acting immature. I already know that
But you're trying to cheer me up all of a sudden. Yeah, I know I'm not very good at it
I'm sorry if I said something bad that ski isn't the only one surprised Monica and I are all so taken aback by Yuri's words
know
When she already has trouble with words trying to cheer someone up must be far out of her own comfort zone
But they begin to understand her II was trying to sound like say Yuri. Oh, that's sweet
Even if it didn't work out perfectly I can tell that she tried to say something
Say, or he would say at a time like this because he or he always helps everyone smile and feel good about themselves. Oh
Yuri, oh I
Feel I feel so bad from the picking er
Appreciated it. I'm sorry for making everything a big deal out of nothing
I'm gonna say this
Huh you better bet that my cupcakes are gonna be the best part of the whole event
uh-huh I believe you yeah, I
Hope to see everyone do their best but with that
There's nothing more for me to do today so get the fuck out of my classroom. Bye
All right, let's get out of here then
Everyone packs up their things I said to follow Monica and Natsuki out the door as they chat between each other
I turn around
Sorry, I didn't I realized that I don't have any way of contacting you this weekend. Oh
You're right. I believe that's it my mind boy
So give you my phone number. I think that would be the best way. Yes, all right, then just write it on my chest
Yuri, and I exchanged phone numbers
Okay, then I'll be stopping by your house on Sunday, huh?
My house it is that a problem no
Not at all. I just gotta clean up my
socks
My stiff and harden socks. I just thought that I would be the one going to your house since I'm the one helping you I
Suppose that makes sense, but if you don't mind
I think I would prefer going to your house all right in that case it won't be a problem
Decided not to press Yuri for a reason
It's not like it should matter much either way, so I just need to make sure my room is clean
I hope I manage to make myself useful in some way. I'm not nearly as creative as you are
Don't underestimate yourself Jack. I think that will make a very productive team
Even if you only chose me because you felt bad or something
Wait you don't actually think that do you?
of course she does she's full of self doubts I
Don't know it's difficult to come up with any other reason why you may have chosen me I
Can think of a few reasons?
You're forgetting the one reason with the most common sense I think of the game is trying to like lead towards that as well
it's probably just gonna do a point and flip on me I
chose to help you because that's what I want to do but but
Yuri thinks to herself with an extremely tense expression
Yuri, you're overthinking this you wanted me to point out when you're overthinking right I
Didn't realise I'm telling you. I want to that's all there is to it. Do you believe me? I?
Yuri, things really hurt again. She looked straight into my eyes for a long while I?
Believe you
Okay
Thanks
As if it took her tremendous effort Yuri finally says that and relaxes her expression, and I'm really looking forward to Sunday
Yeah, I am, too
After the exchange I make my way out the door and Yuri follows
So nothing has changed in the game files or at least. I don't know how far how deep I have to go?
I assume it's just in like the main folder
everything still seems to be the same so I
Just keep that open now as we move forward. I can't believe this yours is going to be come to my house on Sunday
My anxiety shoots through the roof
Even though I've gotten pretty used to handling her at this point
There's no telling what might end up happening when we're outside of school. Maybe you'll feed chocolate to her again
More than that she told me that she was looking forward to it
Is this the chance I have to make something happen between us?
Where's the too early for that only time will tell but until then I won't be able to take my mind off it
I seriously can't wait oh
He's cute
It's already Sunday, I've been getting increasingly anxious about Yuri's upcoming visit. I keep telling myself
There's no reason to be nervous, but it doesn't help much. Okay I'ma save real quick
Just so we have a save
Yuri is clearly an introvert and almost an intimate person in general there's no doubt that she'll end up a little bit
That she'll open up a little bit. I can't fucking read man when it's just the two of us
Meanwhile we've been texting. Okay occasionally. She was extremely apprehensive at first, but it wasn't long before I was already learning more about her
But putting Yuri aside, I haven't heard a thing from Sayori since she left the club early the other day
It's not like we text each other all the time or anything, but I've been worried about her in the back of my mind
Between what Sayori said and what Monica said
the really okay for me to put Sayori's feelings aside when she might need me I
Was just gonna say like she just she lived next door go say hi to her I
Decide to visit Sayori before Yuri comes over rather than asking
I simply tell her I'm coming over much like we've done in the past once
I reached Sayori's house I knock at the door before entering it myself again
We used to play so often that we've made a habit of simply entering each other's houses like we were family
The house is quiet
Sayori isn't anywhere on the first floor so I assume she's up in her room
it's already strange of her not to run down and greet me
I don't like this
I head up to her bedroom where I finally find her
Sayori?
Hi, I forgot the voice. I gave you. Okay? Hi
Hi Jack
I sit down in her room Sayori forces a smile, but it's easy to tell that she's different
There's a minute of silence between us.  Plus she's in her underwear
No,  are those shorts it looked like pink polka dots. I thought it was her underwear
You haven't come over like this in a long time. Have you?
Yeah, I guess you're right
Has been a long time how much has really changed has it
Sayori's room is as messy as it's always been I also recognize the same stuffed animals and wall decorations that she's had for years now
Uh-huh if you came over more often it wouldn't be such a mess it's because they end up cleaning it up for you
How come you suddenly wanted to come over today?
Aren't you supposed to meet you Yuri today?
Yeah, but wait how did you know that?
Sayori had already left by the time we decided that last meeting
Monica told me it's only natural for her to keep me informed about the festival preparations, right?
Huh that's true
What about you aren't you gonna be helping Monica today, of course? I'm just helping her online
I didn't plan to meet up or anything. Oh, so that's why she didn't come downstairs ah
So it's just me and Yuri then yep
There's more silence between us so Yuri stares in a random direction
Everything about her behavior is really uncharacteristic. I finally get to the point. I just
Wanted to see how you were doing after you left on Friday when something's wrong. You can't hide it from me
I know you too well
So Sayori smiles shaking her head
That's no good Jack, huh?
Why can't it just be like it's always been
This is all my fault if I didn't get so weak and accidentally express my feelings, if I didn't make a stupid mistake
Then you wouldn't have been worried about me at all
You wouldn't have come here
You wouldn't have even thinking about me right now
But this is just my punishment isn't it I'm getting punished for being so selfish
I think that's why the world decided to have you come over today. It just wants to torture me ah
Jesus, Sayori, I grabbed Sayori by the shoulders what an earth are you saying?
You listening to yourself right now. I know something happened to you. There's no other explanation for you be like this
So tell me already until I know I won't be able to stop thinking about it. Ha ha ha
Sayori gives me an empty smile. You really put me in a trap Jack but
You're wrong
But nothing happened to me. I've always been like this
You're just seeing it different, but you're seeing it for the first time
Seeing what?
Are you talking about Sayori? Haha?
You're really just gonna make me say. It aren't you jack I guess I have no choice this time
the thing is
I've had really bad depression my whole life
Did you know that?
What do you think I'm late to school every day because most days. I can't even find a reason to get out of bed
My reason is there to do anything when I fully know how worthless I am
Why go to school? Why eat?
Why make friends when make other people put their energy and caring to waste by having them spend it on me?
That's what it feels like
That's why I always just want to make everyone happy
See this is what I was talking about you. Never know what's on the the surface emotion is not always what's underneath?
Without anyone worrying about me
I'm in shock. I can't even figure out how to respond how is it that C or E?
Kept this from me the entire time that I've known her does she really want so badly for me to just not think about her
Why say or e hey?
Why is it that you've never told me about this?
Promise feels like I've been betrayed as your close friend because if I knew I would have done everything I could to support you
Even there's only so much I could do I would have tried a little bit harder to make every day a little better for you
That's why I'm your friend
All you had to do was told me
You don't understand at all jack
Why do you think I didn't tell you?
Because if I told you then you would have to waste your effort caring about me instead of doing important things
I don't want to be cared about it's bittersweet when people try to care about me
feels nice sometimes
But cause it feels like a bot being swung around against my head ha ha ha
That's why I wanted so badly for you to make friends with everyone else
Helping everyone be happy together. It's the best thing for me, but then I discovered something else too
Seeing you make friends again with everyone in the club
Feels like a spear going through my heart
So that's why so I decided the world just wants to torture me
Every path leads to nothing but hurt
You're right that I don't understand
I don't understand your feelings at all C or E
But I don't need to understand whatever it takes for me to help you to stop hurting
That's what I'll do no Jack. There's nothing nothing at all
The only thing that could have helped is if everything could be like it always was
But I was selfish
Finally showed you how what a horrible person? I am tears streak down say or his face
I'm if I made you join the literature club because I was selfish and
I was punished by my heart hurting in a way that I couldn't understand
Now you came here, and I made you hurt, too
But I'm just weak and selfish
That's all I am
That's why I'm going to accept these punishments
Because I deserve every last one
Without thinking I once again grabs aori shoulders this time. I pull her into a tight embrace
But uh
Jack
Say Ori. I don't care if you feel selfish. I'm really happy that you convinced me to join this club
Seeing you every day makes it worthwhile enough if I make ever if I make friends with everyone else and that's just a bonus
But please never underestimate how much I care about you
Lordan have it any other way
Jack
Say Ori, isn't hooking me back despite my hours being wrapped around her say orys arms remain at her sights
She starts sobbing next to my ear
No
Don't do this to me, please
Don't do this jack. I
Say already barely manages to speak between her sobs
I don't know if I'm doing the right thing but all I want is for her to know that I care
If you have it in you to call yourself selfish, then you have to let me be selfish, too
No matter what it takes. I'll figure out. What needs to change
I'll make these feelings go away, and there's anything you need me to do
Then you'd better. Tell me I get mad if you don't I
Don't know I
Don't know. I don't know
gently say or he finally puts her arms around me in return I
Don't know anything. It's all really scary I
Don't understand any of my feelings jack. The only time. I'm not feeling nothing is when I'm feeling pain, but
Your hugs are so warm, and that's really scary too. Oh
Jesus this hurts oh
Man because I didn't pick her as well Jesus
But it's it's also a thing that is my is a bigger relationship than friendship really the things she needs
She won't let me go as she does I let her go as well
The first of all is tomorrow
Yeah, it's gonna be fun right yeah
How would you like for me to spend it all with you?
Haha, that's what I want, I promise
And this is also the thing while he's trying to be a good friend
She also has deeper feelings for him, so is that making things worse or better?
Right I?
Think that would be nice then
Yeah
See already wipes her eyes if I could spend the whole day here
I would of all days this has to be the one where I have other plans
Maybe I should cancel
No, no don't please don't
If you did that then I would really wouldn't forgive you
But it's almost time for URI to meet me at my house at the very least you want to come along and help out
would be fun
to my surprise cieaura shakes her head
I'm sorry I
Don't know if that would be very good for me today. You understand, right?
It's kind of hard for me to fully understand, but I'm trying my hardest
It's okay. Don't worry too much about it. I'll see you tomorrow. Okay
All right look forward to it
Oh
Oh see Rory
Say goodbye to see Orion exit her house and the way home
I find myself still feeling uneasy, but it's hard for me to keep thinking about it. When Yuri is about to come over to
Think say Ori is right
Shouldn't be worrying too much, and we're definitely going to have a great time tomorrow. I should just focus on. What's ahead of me
As I approach my house I see something that makes me feel a moment of panic Yuri
Thank goodness
You're a little early. Sorry. I wasn't home yet were you waiting for a long time
No, I just got here, but I started to get really nervous when nobody answered the doorbell
You could always have texted me wait no when I would have reassured you and hurried more on my way home
I
Suppose, that's true. I didn't think of that for some reason I
Shall be common sense to do that, but I decided to ignore it anyway. Let's go in sight
See you brought a lot of stuff with you
That's right, and did you manage to find everything? I asked you to buy as well
Yeah, pretty much at least. I hope I got everything right. I'm sure it will be fine. I
Take Yuri to my room the first thing she does is glance around curiously, which makes me feel anxious
I feel like that's what everybody does with each other's bedrooms. Oh, and nothing has gone into the game files. So we good we gucci
It's so clean
Ha ha ha I clean it before you came over so that's very considerate of you to do that
No, I would be really embarrassed for my room to be a mess while you were here
Hmm well or well. I do enjoy cleaning I would have gladly helped you clean Jesus
No, you don't make your guests clean your house. Ah
Well that would have been even more embarrassing wait don't look in there
My statue is rais'd which was in the process of opening a desk drawer of mine first off
I think I know it's in there secondly. Why was she just reaching for drawers
Is in your house?
I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking for some reason. I was just spacing out. It's fine. It's fine
Let go of Yuri's wrist she puts both of her hands firmly in her lap as if making sure she's keeping track of them
So um should we get started?
yes, I
Have a few things planned that I can that you can help with
decorations and other atmospheric
enhancements
atmospheric
enhancements
You know mood lighting
aromatherapy candles
Oh wow, I didn't think you planned on I didn't think you planned on taking it that far of course
I wanted to keep I wanted to help keep our take our guests to a faraway place
Although money will stop by just out of curiosity and for cupcakes. I guess I'm
Determined to provide an experience that will leave them wanting more. That's great
Ceaser's forget that you're a pretty intense person
Intense I guess that's the best way to put it is that a bad thing
No, not at all. It's something that I like about you
Actually, it is that so that makes me feel relieved and kind of happy
Yeah, no need to be so anxious you can relax a little
relax I
brought some things for relaxation I
Was going to use them during the poetry event. Oh, yeah like what?
Let's see Yuri rummages through her bag. She pulls out a few candles and a wooden cylinder shaped object a pattern appeared dildo Yuri
I did some shopping on the way here, so I happen to have these in my bag
Convenient I plan to cover the windows in black paper and use the candles to light the room
I think that would be amazing don't you?
Yeah
That would be really neat a little weird, but pretty neat. What's the wooden thing though. Oh this
It's just a diffuser for essential oil shaped like a butt plug
You don't mind that do you how familiar are you with aromatherapy?
Not familiar at all ice that's so it's one of my favourite contributors to a positive atmosphere
Depending on the oils are herbs. You choose you can change the mood of the air itself
You can even feel it permeate through your body
relaxation positive energy romance
reflection violence speed momentum
You know it's almost like magic
URI takes the cylinder and pushes a switch on the bottom in
Just a moment a thin ray of vapor begins to spout through a small hole in the top
I have done some aromatherapy stuff not well
I don't know if you'd call it aromatherapy but getting one of those like Glade things that and smell their little spouts of
Like vapors that come out of them. It's actually quite relaxing to have in a room just have the room smelling like something
Wow, this most wonderful
Kind of mood is that one fir?
That is Jasmine essential oil it says in the box that it's for a sexy time
smells a little sweet and flowery right yeah, that's a good way to describe it I
Chose Jasmine for the event because it provides more than relaxation and it's my favorite Disney Princess
She enhances your emotions and helps you feel them flow through your body
You feel warmer and your heart pounds more heavily, don't you think that'll be perfect for sharing our poems sure
It is sound
suitable
But you seem to know a lot about this, so I'll trust your opinion with anything Yuri smiles gently clearly enjoying herself
She again reaches into her bag and pulls out several spools of thin ribbon
No come on you can't have that line and the next thing you know you pull out a book that says my name is Jeff
Well
Did you purchase the origami paper? I asked you to get yeah. I have it over here
You won't we won't be using the paper for folding origami
What I'd like to do is write a different word on each paper. We'll need about a hundred of them. Oh yeah
Well those be used for well
I'm gonna cut I'm going to cut pieces of ribbon to hang from the doorway of the classroom
Then we can fasten the paper onto ribbons to create a doorway curtain
It's pretty cool
Wouldn't that be beautiful it would also catch the eye of those passing by the room it may attract some to peek inside
That's really creative
Head no ID be so good at this Yuri
Is that's all well I suppose I do get a little intense as you put it
Hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo ah she's cute
Yuri giggles with red cheeks is it just me, or is she more relaxed than when it's just the two of us
Or maybe it's the excitement she feels from sharing something that she enjoys
Here's a marker check you can write any characters you want. I'll help you once
I finish cutting the ribbons ha all right sitting on the floor together the two of us get to work
I carefully draw a different character and each paper doing my best to manage my bad handwriting
Yuri unravels a long strand of red ribbon to her desired length, then she reaches into her bag once more and pulls out a pocketknife
Okay, okay, huh the knife is strangely beautiful the silver handle has an interphase pattern of ways edged into it
The blade itself is gently tinted blue
that's no ordinary pocketknife looks really fancy, but
You mean my stabbing knife well
embarrassed URI looks away
What is it?
You're going to think it's weird URI whatever. It is. I have no reason to judge to each their own
You know if you promise you won't be weirded out. I mean as long as you don't say that you stab people with it
Yeah, I promise
All right, the thing is I'm kind of into knives. They're just so pretty. I can't help it I
Don't know what it is the combination of craftsmanship and the feeling of danger?
Maybe yeah, they do seem to suit you alright. You knife branding weird oh
she did talk about knifes off in her poems as well didn't she
Huh what am I saying? Please? Don't think I'm weird for this
You're laughing at me. No I'm laughing at you
It's just funny. How nervous you get about sharing. It's well
It's an interesting thing to be into I guess but I think it kind of suits you
I mean didn't Angelina Jolie collect knives didn't her dad buy her knives and she was younger
Suits me yeah, it's kind of intense
Besides it's a really cool-looking knife. I can't deny that it is isn't it URI relaxes her expression once again
What do you like to hold it you like to hold my knife?
Sure, I'll check it out URI carefully hands me the knife with the handle facing me
I take it and turn it around in my hands feels heavy and extremely solid or do you even get a knife like this?
Curious of its sharpness I feel the point of the knife with my index finger
ow
Jack why did you do that? Oh?
I didn't expect that me. That's sharp. I barely touched it at all
It's my fault. I should have warned you this knife is extremely sharp it can cut through skin like paper
Okay, calm down miss. I want to stop a person
oh
No small drop of draw blood trickles down the side of my finger here. He takes my hand and gives the wound a closer look
She stares at it, and noticeably fidgets if you're squeamish I go wash it off. Now. Uh-huh
Without warning URI puts my finger in her mouth and licks the wound
What?
I
Feed her tongue turn around my finger what?
Okay, this wind disco way weirder than chocolate
startled I instinctively pulled my hand back oh
Please forgive me. I I wasn't thinking I
URI lowers her head her face burning up
URI that's the most embarrassing thing I've ever done, how could I do something like that? I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sure it was a little weird and it took me by surprise. It's very weird
But I guess she was just trying to help bright
URI I think you're overreacting a little
uh-huh
She doesn't lift her head. What if she doesn't recover from this for the rest of the afternoon?
All right, you know what this might be a stupid thing to do, but I do it anyway
I take you his hand and lick her index finger in return I
Feel like the police are gonna like kick down my door any second
Jack did you really just do that?
Now we're even
URI just looks at me like I did something wrong
Hahaha. I knew that would be a bad idea
It's not for the sweet aroma of jasmine oil the air would be extremely heavy right now and full of the sweet scent of
My sweaty underarms because I am sweating profusely their immediate trauma that I am in
You're so weird jack URI giggles. Shyly, huh?
URI calling me weird I have no response to that
Where do you keep your bandages? Ah I don't think I need one actually there was a tiny cut look they're already stopped bleeding I
See that's relieving the tension is quickly lifted. We each resumed our respective activities and what's your reason?
I've cooked through ribbon like it's nothing but air
Meanwhile I continued to make progress on the paper this time
That's timing myself to death after we finish attaching to paper the ribbons we lay them all out side by side
He looks better than I expected and would be very effective as a talker. It looks great good thinking coming up with this URI
Thanks, it's just something I saw online really
Are you ready to move on to the next task yeah, let's do it. What do you have in mind?
I'd like to create a banner. That's why I asked you to buy the paint tablets ah
That's right one of the items Yuri had asked me to buy. It was a kit of watercolor watercolor paint tablets
Will need about six cups of water to put each of the tablets in do you mind fetching those for us
Of course not six cups of water. I'll be right back in a jiffy
Jiffy did I really say that no one says that Oh bonehead bonehead. Thank you very much
Oh and just a little bit of water is okay. If you fill the cups too much it will be too diluted
Taking Yuri's advice I decided to use a small plastic bathroom cups
rather than full-size glasses
Wait what are small plastic bathroom cups?
Does everybody just have those put them on a plate to catch any paint that drips then bring it back into my room Yuri
Yes
and come in to see you read quickly unrolling her sleeve pulling it back over her arm ah
Nothing your face is a little red. This is too. Hot in here or anything
No not at all coz I mean I turned up the thermostat
Really really high so you take off your shirt. Oh, I said that out loud didn't I?
There's nothing wrong so let's mix the paint Yuri hurriedly dismisses wait a minute
Okay, so
it's clear that she has some sort of like anxiety or
Fear of confrontation and some social anxiety and stuff like that
but as somebody pointed out she had a poem that was very reminiscent of self-harm and
she's into all that kind of like darker stuff, and now she says she's into knives and
Now she's pulling her sleeve back down
So if she pulls up her sleeve is he gonna reveal that she's a bunch of self-harm moons
Is that what this game is about?
We have C or E. Who's just admitted that she's had severe depression her entire life and now we have
URI who self harms and is a ball of anxiety and nerves
Jesus this game doesn't pull any punches
So I thought we would do something simple that would look very nice I'd like to paint a gradient across the banner
Starting with the colors of first sunrise then daytime then sunset at the nighttime once it dries
I'll write an inspirational quote across the banner we can hang it on the wall behind the podium on front the classroom
I don't need like bender neat just take a picture
Are you gonna write?
Well, it would be more fun to surprise you URI smiles at me if you say so
After rolling out the banner URI and I kneel an opposite end so we don't get in the way of each other
URI uses a brush and adds a few dots of different colors across the banner to serve as a color guide when we paint
Hmm thoughtful it's kind of reminds me of elementary school
Painting on a banner with watercolors feels a lot less or a lot like art class projects we had back to it
relaxing
I'm sorry if this feels too childish
No, I didn't mean that at all. It's just kind of fun. You know
Yeah, it is fun. I'm glad you feel that way, too
URI stops painting for a moment thinking to herself for
Me I don't need to go out and do crazy things to have fun in fact
I usually don't even want to it's just like when I could spend time with one other person
Even if it's something simple like reading doesn't even matter if we don't talk much
Just having a friend next to me makes things feel a little bit nicer. I
Think that's all it takes for me to be happy
That's so
Even if URI and I are quite different
I can understand where she's coming from I feel that way I
Feel that way about things like anime and games were simply sharing the experience that someone can make me happy
Me too poof. I think I feel the same way Yuri smiles gently I
Knew you'd understand Yuri leans over the banner to grab an unused paintbrush
But I move at the same time causing my head to bump into hers
Yeah, oh god. That's the most the most Japanese anime sound you could have made
So sorry Yuri reels back, and I quickly lift my hands and surprise are you hurt?
No, I'm not hurt
It just startled me. That's all are you seeing pink spots though?
It smells like copper in here. Sorry. I should have asked you to get it for me. It's not your fault
Ah your face. There are droplets of paint on Yuri's face and neck
So something I might fate, or is there something on my face. Yeah, I accidentally got paint on you, sorry
It's totally my fault I get the towel right away
I rush out and fetch a small towel
And I dampen it with hot water I return to my room and kneel back down in front of her
damn
Here I pat down Yuri's face and neck with a towel
Is something wrong
It's hot I just didn't expect. It. Sorry. I didn't want to use cold water
Having finished. I start to retract my hand but Yuri suddenly holds my wrist
wait
Yeah
just
for a little longer
it feels really nice ah
I keep my hand still against Yuri's cheek she looks into my eyes
It's an intense expression that I recognized from when she reads her books
Almost as if she's lost in a daze enveloped by her own thoughts
If you think this music does not go with this she breathes gently half half through slightly parted lips
What's happening zero monoi giving me this dizzy feeling?
URIs gentle fingers wrapped around my wrist sent a tingling sensation
Through my arm turn into my pants and suddenly her face seems to be much closer to mine, and it was just moments ago
Kiss her jack
You ready slowly pulls away, sorry I've been feeling a little light-headed today. I
Didn't mean to space out. Yeah, it's it's fine. I
Damn it the moment is over as soon as it began URI picks up her brush again
But her movements seemed clumsier like she's unable to focus. I remained silent forced to ignore the event that just transpired I
hesitantly retrieved my own brush and continue following URIs example
Huh there that should do it I
Finished off. I finished filling the night sky with white dots that looks like stars
Looking at the banner as a whole. It's very pretty a natural looking. I think it came out better than I expected
I'm really happy with the results yeah, me too
Are you gonna add the lettering no?
Not not yet. It needs to dry first. That's true, but won't that take a while
Well perhaps it would be best to leave it here. Then have you bring it in the morning?
I can do the lettering in the classroom before her event starts is that okay? I was totally fine
Wonderful in that case. I don't think there's anything more for us to do here who?
You say that like you're glad
it's over was I wrong to assume that you were at least enjoying yourself for a little bit URI, please stop overanalyzing everything ah
No, it's not that I'm just glad that we managed to get everything done
I see I am - I was a little concerned about time. I need to start making dinner soon ah
So you don't have any time left. I'm secretly hoping we could have extra time after finishing the work
well
URI thinks to herself, but I think it would be too irresponsible for me to wait much longer
I'm sorry. I was hoping there would be more time as well. It's probably my fault
Sorry for being such a slow worker. No it's not your fault at all and the important thing is that we got everything done, right?
Yeah
So I shouldn't be disappointed or anything
gathering all her things URI seems to look a little down caste I
Understand why it sounded like she rarely gets the opportunity to spend time with friends in a relaxed environment
But that doesn't mean this is the last time it can happen
Once he packs up I walk her out the front door. Thank you very much for having me today
No problem. I was tired. I was able to have you I mean
Have you over?
just let me know if there's anything else you need me to bring I
Will well then your religious, and then she spins I?
Guess I'll see you tomorrow wait. I kind of say that without thinking
about today
It's fine that we didn't have as much time as we wanted because we can do this again
Whatever you want you can come over we can go out somewhere. Ah I forgot. You don't like going out that much
Introvert. Yeah, as they stumble over my words Yuri. Simply smiles bashfully
Anyway, you know what I'm trying to say so you're very thoughtful jack Yuri takes a step closer to me
Then briefly squeezes my hand whoa whoa whoa whoa I?
Kind of like that about you oh
How am I supposed to respond to that, but I don't even get a chance as Yuri suddenly pulls back
But so Yuri, yeah, ha
Hi jack
She said hi jack though. She's trying to hijack sup the terrorist. Okay. Sorry. Oh god. Sorry. Sorry flashbacks
See, Ori, just just no we weren't uh
It's okay jack. I just stopped by to say hi
um
Well, it's nice to see you. I'm sorry, but I'm already on my way to leave ah really
That's too bad
I'm sorry
But we'll all be together at the festival tomorrow, so so that's fine right of course
say Ori beams
Yeah, so I'll see you tomorrow
Clearly embarrassed Yuri hurries off see Ori waves goodbye after
fat pi
C or II thought you didn't want to come over today
Well, that's right saying in my room, but my imagination was being really mean to me
Stupid imagination don't like you so I had to come here and see it for myself
See what what are you talking about? You know how much fun you were having with Yuri?
How close you got to her it makes me?
Makes me really happy that you've made such good friends. It's all it matters to me tears started to fall down and say orys face
That's all that matters to me
Why am I feeling this way Jack? I'm supposed to be happy for you
Why I feel like my heart is splitting a half it hurts so much
Everything hurts so much
This would be so much better if I could just disappear
C or E. Don't say that it's true Jack
If I wasn't here that you wouldn't have to waste your sympathy on me
You wouldn't have to put up with me being selfish
Bah, Rika was right. I should just Monica Monica was right about what?
C or E what I said before is true
I'm not gonna let this continue carrying about you like this isn't the burden your mind is making it out to be
Something that makes me happy. It's something that I wouldn't trade for anything else so even if it takes an entire lifetime
I'm gonna be by your side until you don't feel any more pain
but
See or he looks away. I put a hand in her shoulder to reassure her
I'm scared Jack
I'm really scared
What have you? What are you scared of C or E?
I'm scared that that
I might like you more than you like me
C or E
It's true. Isn't it I?
Was weak and started to like you too much. I do this to myself
Jack I like you so much that I want to die
That's how I feel and and that's enough C. Or E. I don't want you to hurt anymore
It's like my hand don't say orys arm. Thank God. That's an arm and squeeze her hand in my own
You remember how I said, I always know what's best for you
Do you still believe me?
Wordlessly say or he nods
Even if you don't understand all of your own feelings
I know what you need the most right now, and that's what I'm gonna. Give you oh
Fuck
Uh
Technically, I do love her but as a friend if I say you'll always be my dearest friend that will absolutely crush her
But I also don't want to lead her on
Fuck
She's gonna be one of those things where everyone's like. Oh Jack. Why did you pick that but you know what?
Might play through my choices
You will always be my dearest friend
What you need most is for things to be like they've always been
Monica told me the truth
She told me how much happier you seemed after I joined the club. I know you're struggling with some really difficult feelings right now, but
Please trust me that I know what's best and what will make you happy in the end
I promise I get things back to the way they were I
I see so Yuri forces a smile through an incredibly pained expression
Is this what it feels like to get stabbed in the chest I
Should write a poem about this so Yuri
It's okay
This is just my punishment remember for be so selfish
so please
please don't worry about these stupid feelings I
Know you're right. I knew this whole time that there's no happiness down that path
That's why I came here. Just so I could get the answer. I needed to hear and
the other thing you're also right that I just wanted to go back to the way it was I
realized that now
You really do know me better than I didn't want Jack
I'll trust you at anything anything at all so
Siri smile finally breaks all of a sudden she turns around and drops to her knees
Clutching her head with both hands. She screams as loudly as she can I'm so shocked that I don't know how to react
Sir. He looks over her shoulder and flashes me one more weak smile before turning around and running off say, Orry
I'm left helplessly standing in the front of my house
Why am I feeling so horrible about this?
There's nothing more I could have done
The most I can do is support say, Orry through her feelings and help her on the path. That's right
But I'm having as much trouble understanding serious feelings as she is
Even though I can comfort her I keep wondering if I should be doing something more
Or something different, you know these thoughts will continue to plague me until things are back to the way they were
I'm gonna give it everything I've got
So Yuri will always be my dearest friend, and I'll do whatever it takes to put a smile on her face every day
Jesus Christ
Mother a god that episode got heavy
Okay, I feel like I feel like we're starting to get into some stuff
So I stuff started to get a lot more real than it was
Feel I feel horrible about that, but there's the thing
If she's having really really depressive thoughts and she's like clearly in a very bad way
Me saying I love her for the sake of saying. I love her just to appease her in that moment
might make her might late her and give her a false sense of euphoria, and it's for a false high right then and there but
it's
It's only temporary and if anything I'll do more damage than good saying she lost me my dearest friend gives her an answer
That's truthful, but that's also very damaging
Because who knows what's going through her head now and and like where her mental state is going to be but
as the jack character
I know you feel like you can
Solve everything you feel like you can help and you feel like you're there for your friend
And you will do everything in your power to help, but sometimes. That's still not enough sometimes. It's important to note
When to seek outside help you may feel like you know what's best for your friend you may feel like you know exactly
What's happening, and I'm not a therapist also take this with a grain of salt
These topics are very very tricky, and they're very very scary and they're very
they can turn into something very serious very quickly so they're not to be treated lightly a
Lot of people do treat it lightly like URI self-harm if that is the case it seems like it is
It seems like she's also maybe having problems at home because she didn't want me to come over to her house
C or E. Then obviously being very depressed
It's it's easy to treat these things being like we'll just get happy again
And that's not always the case and some people are like you you're fine
You're privileged you have everything you need everything you want. Oh, wait a
Thing just came into my folder happy thoughts
a picture called happy thoughts, but it's well H X P P Y th X
So the vowels are different way what oh?
My god oh
Jesus that just gave me goosebumps, what the fuck?
Oh
No, that was just put in there
The folder for the the game in the steam folder that was just there called happy thoughts
You can see up here HX p py th x ug h CS
Don't like that. Oh, it's like playing. I'm scared all over again. Oh
I don't like that wait is that C or E. Yeah, cuz it has a bow in her head series
Wait doesn't Natsuki. Have a bow as well. Oh
I don't like that
When I was in the middle of saying something as well now it's completely detracted from what I wanted to talk about
So they did the festival of all days I expected this to be the one where I'd be walking to school
It's a or E. But C. Or E. Isn't answering her phone
Considered going to her house to wake her up
But decided that's a little too much mean why the preparations for the event should be nearly complete the banner Yuri
And I paid it as dry, and I gently rolled it up to take it with me
She sent me a pleasant text reminding me not to forget anything and I reassured her fully enough
I probably feel the same way as Natsuki about the event
More excited for it to be over so I can spend time with say Ori and Yuri at the festival but knowing Monica
I'm sure the event would be great too. Oh
No you should have gone to check I'd say Ori, she needs you man
Getting fucked up I
Don't know how I feel about this. I'm all weirded out
I'm kind of creeped out so the game starts to like break through the game, and it starts messing with real life. I
Mean I fucking love it that shit is awesome
But it's freaking me out at the same time
As I was saying if
Your friend is in like a really bad way don't be afraid to talk to their parents about it
Even if it feels like you're betraying your friend
Sometimes it's better to do that before
mistakes can happen or
talking to
Encouraging them to get professional help as well or encourage them to talk to their parents first and foremost and see how they feel
just
It's tricky topics and again. I'm not fully versed in it. I'm not a therapist. I'm not a psychologist
I don't have all the answers all I can do is try and point you in the right direction
Brainy way that does it for this episode. I didn't realize they'd been recording for much more
I actually wanted to get in and do a whole lot more my god
This game goes by like that, but we're getting into it now. We're finally starting to uncover some stuff and see
Kind of what the game is about and now this is weirding me out even more-- this picture
Because it's not just happy thoughts. It's like a fucking horror picture happy thoughts
It's like the game is invading my computer
So into it, very into it. I can't wait to record the next episode of this
ANYWAY
I'm gonna have to leave you guys here
But thank you guys so much for watching this episode if you liked it punch that like button in the face
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Man, it's complicated
Fighting between yo-yo and Yu-Yu
*mumbles* It's difficult...
