

### About This Book

Howell Harris was brought up to regard the Nonconformists as "a perverted and dangerously erroneous set of people." Hardly a promising start for a man who was to play a major role in the Welsh Revival. Yet in these extracts from his writings and diaries we can read the thoughts of Howell Harris before, during and after his own conversion. We can see God breaking through the barriers separating "church and chapel", and discover Christians of different denominations preparing the country for revival. Wesley, Whitefield, Harris. These great 18th century preachers worked both independently and together to preach the Living Gospel. This book is a vivid first-hand account of the joys, hardships and struggles of one of these men -- Howell Harris (1714-1773).

### HOWELL HARRIS

### His Own Story

Foreword by J. Stafford Wright

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### Contents

Cover

About this Book

Foreword

Note

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

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I do not write this as a rule for others to copy after, but as a relation of simple truth concerning what the Lord has done in carrying me on hitherto; and therefore I leave it to Him to use what I write as He shall please.

Howell Harris (1749)

"Lord, this is Thy community, and not mine. I built it for Thee, and not for myself; and the family I have in it is Thine. For Thee I nurse them; and the papers which I leave behind me are written for Thee, and not for my use."

Howell Harris (1773)

###  Foreword

Books and articles have been written about Howell Harris, who lived 1714-1773. The book reproduced here, published within twenty years of his lifetime, gave the first opportunity to read the life of one of the foremost leaders in the 18th century revival in Wales. It is a good representative selection from Howell Harris's writings, including his diaries, which run to nearly nine thousand large pages, without margins, and in small crowded handwriting.

Some readers may welcome a short introduction to the situation in which Howell Harris found himself, and to the people with whom he was linked. He remained a member of the established church, in spite of being refused ordination by the bishops, but he was distressed by the lack of life, and hostility to the Gospel, both in his own church and in many of the chapels.

For many centuries the only recognised form of Christianity in Britain was the established church, at first Roman Catholic, and then the Protestant Church of England. Those who disagreed with the official teaching, such as Wycliffe and the Lollards about 1400 AD, were violently persecuted. After the Reformation, dissenters were not allowed to build places of worship, but worshipped in private houses, or in meeting places in the open air.

Dissenters had every reason to object to the church as they saw it in Wales. In 1620 scarcely one in fifteen of the clergy could read or write in the language of the people. They preached only rarely, and then read moral platitudes in English. Many not only neglected their people, but were known to lead immoral lives.

Yet there were exceptions, and among the names of Christian ministers who were alive to the Gospel we find clergy from the established churches, as well as others. These clergy, however, were deprived of their livings by their bishops "for preaching schismatically and dangerously to the people."

The general low ebb of the faith was stemmed for a time when Cromwell and Parliament passed an Act in 1650 for the Propagation of the Gospel in Wales, and Redress of Some Grievances. The 71 Commissioners appointed under the Act comprised both churchmen and nonconformists. Although some of their decisions, involving expulsion of some vicars and appointment of other ministers in their place, have been criticized, they certainly laid foundations for future revival.

With the return of Charles II, free church ministers were once more liable to persecution. It was not until the arrival of William and Mary that the Act of Toleration of 1689 gave liberty to the nonconformists, so that a number of chapels were built to replace registered meeting houses. Unfortunately denominational divisions had already arisen. In particular, Independents, Presbyterians, Baptists, Quakers, and even Unitarians, had emerged as separate bodies, although Unitarians were not protected by the Act.

Now we come to the time of Howell Harris and some of the preachers with whom he was linked. Griffith Jones (1684-1761), Vicar of Llandowror, near St Clears in Carmarthen, was not only a powerful preacher, but he established centres to teach people to read the Welsh Bible.

Daniel Rowland, or Rowlands, (1713-1790), from Cardiganshire, traced the beginning of his conversion, after ordination, to a sermon by Griffith Jones. He was closely associated with Howell Harris, although later they had some disagreement, and parted company for a time.

William Williams (1717-1791), of Pantycelin, near Llandovery, was converted through a sermon by Howell Harris, and was later ordained in the established church. He is regarded as Wales' greatest hymn writer, and one of his hymns, translated as "Guide me, O thou great Jehovah", is sung universally, but the tune of Cwm Rhondda is later.

All of these, like Howell Harris, although members of the Church of England, travelled extensively to preach the Gospel and were attacked not only by mobs, but by the vicars into whose parishes they came.

A number of nonconformist ministers also travelled extensively with the Gospel. Edmund Jones (1702-1793) ministered to an Independent congregation near Pontypool, but also took the Gospel to various parts of Wales. Lewis Rees (1710-1800), a Presbyterian, worked largely in North Wales. Others, equally faithful, both churchmen and nonconformists, did not move far beyond their own congregations. Itinerant lay preachers established fresh centres of life.

Howell Harris and Daniel Rowland were the founders of Methodism in Wales. Methodists today form a separate church, but at that time the name was given to groups, or classes, within the Church of England. These originated with John and Charles Wesley, George Whitefield, and other members of the so-called Holy Club at Oxford University in 1729. Methodism was a nickname to indicate the disciplined and methodical lives that members led in their search for holiness.

After the evangelical conversions of the Wesleys and Whitefield, the name Methodist was used for the groups of converts who gathered to study the faith and practice of the Christian life according to the Bible. Howell Harris tells us that, after reading of this practice, he formed Methodist societies among the converts, and he was followed by Rowland. Since both of them were members of the Church of England, their societies were kept within this church, but converted members of nonconformist churches joined them without being asked to leave their own churches, even though at times they received Holy Communion in the local established churches.

At this time the only Methodists in Wales were Calvinistic, reflecting the moderate Calvinism of Howell Harris and Daniel Rowland, and also of George Whitefield, who visited Wales several times. Howell Harris was troubled over the breach between Wesley and Whitefield concerning the matter of Arminianism and Calvinism (roughly, the relationship between man's freewill and God's grace). It was not until 1761 that the first Wesleyan Methodist societies came into Wales, with the first Welsh speaking societies in 1800.

The societies encouraged lay preachers, and from 1740 Harris and other leaders undertook to examine them before they were commissioned. One such itinerant preacher was William Seward, who was martyred at Hay in 1742. Also from 1743 there were regular meetings, known as Associations, of representatives of the Methodist societies. George Whitefield was the first Moderator at the meeting held at Watford, near Caerphilly. Once the Associations were flourishing, there was gradual pressure for the Methodists to separate from the Church of England, although they did not form a separate denomination until 1811.

This book in chapter 10 speaks of the community centre founded by Howell Harris at Trefecca (historically spelt Trevecca, or Trevecka here), Harris's birthplace near Talgarth in Breconshire, Wales. The foundations were laid in 1752, and by 1755 "the family" as they were called, numbered about 120. Howell Harris and his wife cared for both the spiritual and the bodily needs of the community, which was partly self-supporting, and partly financed by gifts from the Countess of Huntingdon, who herself established evangelical churches in Britain. Members who had experience of various trades were hired out to local landowners and tradesmen.

Harris relates that between 1753 and 1759, "I had, in addition to the dining hall and sleeping rooms, put up a cold bath, balcony, cupola and clock; a printing press, tucking mill (i.e. for treating cloth), a kiln, wool spinning machines and looms, a workshop, bake house, and an infirmary. The chapel was opened in 1758." The house is well worth a visit today.

If we define Revival as an upsurge of Christian faith and practice, the period of this book marks the first revival to sweep through Wales as a whole. God used His servants, named and unknown, to win both disreputable characters and mere formalists to a personal knowledge of the Lord Jesus Christ; to instruct them in the doctrines and practice of the Christian faith; to find their love for one another in Christ over and above their denominational allegiance; and to raise the general standards of moral living throughout the country.

J. Stafford Wright

(1905-1985)

Bristol

### Note

Changes in this edition are chiefly the modernisation of the spelling, typeface and punctuation, the modification of a few obsolete expressions, and the omission of uses of "etc" in a way that we do not use today. It is perhaps surprising that an account written in the 18th century can be so easy to read without extensive editing. The book that follows was first published in 1791, by the "family" at Trevecka. No modern editorial comments have been made. All comments in the text are in the original book.

The place name that was once known as Trevecka is now usually spelt Trefecca on maps, and Trefeca by Coleg Trefeca. It is near Talgarth in Wales, and is marked on the cover here with the white spot. The spelling in this book has been left as in the original.

### Chapter 1

When I was aged twenty-one, on March 30th 1735, our Parish Minister was using arguments to prove the necessity of receiving the Sacrament. He answered objections which people make against going to it, such as our being not fit. So I resolved to go to the Lord's Table the following Sunday, being Easter Day.

I heard this saying. "If you are not fit to come to the Lord's Table, you are not fit to come to church; you are not fit to live, nor fit to die."

I was convinced, and resolved to leave my outward vanities, for as yet I knew and saw very little of my inward corruption. As a step to prepare myself (as I thought it), on going home from church I was immediately reconciled to a neighbour I had some difference with, acknowledging my own fault, and forgiving his. But I knew nothing of being accepted by God, being yet an utter stranger to all inward religion, and the helplessness of my natural state. Consequently I came to know truly of the Lord Jesus, but only what I learned by reading, and in my thoughts. As yet, I had advanced no further than forming a resolution to lead a new life, though I knew not where to begin or what to do.

However, I went to the Lord's Table on Easter Day. Here I repeated the words in the Confession, "The remembrance of our sins is grievous unto us, the burden of them is intolerable." I began to reflect within me, to search whether this was my case. I soon found my confession was only words, and could not find any inward grief at the remembrance of them, nor indeed was their burden a heavy load to me.

I was then convinced it ought to be so, and finding it was not, I saw I was going to the Lord's Table with a lie in my mouth. This, and a sense of solemnity of the sacred feast struck me, so that I was much inclined to withdraw. At last my mind was quieted, by having determined to lead a new life. So in that resolution I went to the Table, and received the pledge of God's dying love. Then I began that following week, and the week succeeding, to be more serious and thoughtful, and was given to prayer, and strove to keep my heart and thoughts fixed on the Lord. But all in vain. Thus I went on for a fortnight, till I had almost lost my convictions.

On April the 20th, the Lord put a book in my hand. I looked on the latter part of it, as a help to self-examination. As soon as I began to read it I was convinced that in every branch of my duty to God, to myself and to my neighbours, I was guilty and had fallen short.

I found again the same evening a book written by Bryan Duppa, on the Commandments, which made my convictions somewhat deeper. The more I read, the greater did the spiritual light shine in my mind, by showing me the extent of the Law of God. I was called to account not only for outward gross sins, but for our looks, aims, and ends, in all we think, say or do. Then I saw plainly and clearly that if I was to be judged by that Law, I was undone for ever.

Thus the more I searched into the nature of things, the more I saw myself, and all others that I conversed with, to be in the broad way of destruction. I was soon convinced that I was empty of all spiritual life. I came to find I was carnal, and sold under sin. I felt I could no more believe, or mourn for my sins, than I could ascend to heaven. I began to humble myself by fasting, and denying myself in every outward comfort. But I knew as yet nothing of the inward self-denial which our Saviour enjoins; I had no knowledge of the Blood of Jesus, the only Fountain opened for sin and for uncleanness, (Zechariah 13:1). I was still a total stranger to the life of faith, and therefore all this while in a damnable state, and in danger of final destruction.

Thus having laid no foundation, I knew not the Saviour's voice, till one day in prayer I felt a strong impression on my mind to give myself to God as I was, and to leave everything to follow Him. But presently I felt a strong opposition to it, backed with reasons, that if I would give myself to the Lord I should lose my liberty, and would then be not my own, or in my own power. After a great conflict for some time, I was made willing to bid adieu to all things temporal, and chose the Lord for my Portion. I believe I was then effectually called to be a follower of the Lamb, and had some inward satisfaction in my soul; but I had no evidence of my acceptance with God, till the following Whitsunday, at the Sacrament.

May 25th, 1735

I went thither, labouring and heavy laden under the guilt and power of my sins; having read in a book that if we would go to the Sacrament simply believing in the Lord Jesus Christ, we should receive forgiveness of all our sins. And so it was to me. I was convinced by the Holy Spirit that Christ died for me, and that all my sins were laid on Him. I was now acquitted at the bar of Justice, and also in my conscience. This evidenced itself to be true faith, by the peace, joy, watchfulness, hatred of sin and the fear of offending God that followed it.

I was now delivered from a grievous temptation that had followed me ever since I had first given myself to the Lord. Before that time I never knew what inward trials and spiritual conflicts were; only now and then I had some uneasiness from an awakened conscience, which was quite different from those sore trials that I bore from atheistical thoughts that made my life a burden to me. They used to come with such force and power on my mind, that I could not withstand them. But at the Sacrament, by viewing my God on the cross, I was delivered from these temptations. Now, the world and all thoughts of human applause and preferment were quite vanished from my sight.

The spiritual world, and eternity, began (though as yet but faintly) to appear. Now I began to have other views and motives, different from what I previously had. I felt some insatiable desires for the salvation of other poor sinners; my heart longed for their being convinced of their sins and misery.

I also found myself a stranger here; all my heart was drawn from the world and visible things, and was in pursuit of more valuable riches. I began to be more happy, and could not help telling in going home from church, that Whitsunday, that I knew my sins were forgiven me; though I had never heard anyone make that confession before, or say it could be obtained. But I was so deeply convinced, that nothing could shake my assurance of it.

However, I knew not whether I should continue in that state; having never conversed with any that had his face towards Sion, who could instruct me in the way of the Lord. The cry of my soul was then, "Now or never; if God leaves thee now, and thou stiflest these convictions and blessings, though art undone for ever." This fear of losing what I had then, kept me fasting, praying and watching continually.

Though I had peace with God, I was apprehensive of seeing any of my old companions lest I should grow cold again. This also induced me to keep close to Him in all duties, and to keep a strict watch over my spirit, heart and lips, dreading all lightness of mind, and idle words, and foolish jesting; which I was so prone to by nature.

### Chapter 2

June 18th 1735

Being in secret prayer, I felt suddenly my heart melting within me, like wax before the fire, with love to God my Saviour. I felt not only love and peace, but longing to be dissolved and to be with Christ. Then was a cry in my inmost soul which I was totally unacquainted with before: "Abba Father!" I could not help calling God, "my Father". I knew that I was His child, and that He loved me, and heard me.

My soul being filled and satiated, I cried, "It is enough, I am satisfied. Give me strength, and I will follow Thee through fire and water." I could say I was happy indeed! There was in me a well of water springing up to everlasting life, (John 4:14). The love of God was shed abroad in my heart by the Holy Spirit, (Romans 5:5).

I thought back on my former days, before I came to find the love and forgiveness of God. I was born at Trevecka, in the Parish of Talgarth, in the County of Brecon, on January 23rd 1714. My parents had kept me at school till I was eighteen years old, where I made a considerable progress in learning. My father then dying, I was so far discouraged as not to entertain any thoughts of appearing in the world in a public capacity, and therefore undertook to keep a country school. Having no serious friends to converse with, and being now without any restraints upon me, I was soon carried away with the stream of vanity, pride and youthful diversions, which got the ascendant in my soul.

My sphere of acquaintance among my superiors became larger, and I had promising views of preferment in the world; being intended for Holy Orders.

But while I was thus about entering more publicly on the stage of life, and while all my corruptions grew stronger in me, and many providences seemed to concur to raise me in this world, the Lord was pleased to glorify His free grace in awakening me to a sense of the miserable state I was in.

Even now that He had received me for His own, I was still ignorant of God's method of bringing the lost sons of Adam home to Himself. I did not know in Scripture terms what I had received. Neither did I long retain this immediate fruition of God by His Spirit. I still kept school (waiting for a call from a close relative to go to Oxford) and one day I felt some risings of anger in my heart towards one of the school children. The enemy immediately accused me, and alleged to me that I had now forfeited all the happiness which I had just before enjoyed; and that I had fallen from grace and was therefore in a worse condition than ever.

This gave me no small pain and confusion, and whilst I was in this agony (hating myself entirely for sinning against this good God, the Saviour of sinners) on account of the loss of that peace I had enjoyed, I was ready to despair. But God pitied me, and soon sent that word home to my soul, "I CHANGE NOT". (Malachi 3:6). That such word was scriptural I knew not at that time, and how to apply it to myself was at a great loss. Then light broke in upon my soul, to show me that my salvation did not depend on my own faithfulness, but on the faithfulness of Jesus Christ. Therefore, though I change, yet because He changeth not, I was secure. Then I was entirely freed from all fears, and found uninterrupted rest in the love and faithfulness of God my Saviour.

I was all this while a total stranger to all the controversies about religion. I only knew this, that God loved me, and would love me for His own Name's sake freely to the end. This made me to love Him again, and study how to show my love to Him. I cannot express the comfort I now enjoyed in my soul, being continually favoured with the Divine presence; having my conversation in heaven.

Now I could talk of nothing but spiritual things, which soon brought contempt upon me. I was daily derided by some, and pitied by others. Some strove to terrify me, and others to allure me with counsel that favoured too much of the wisdom of this world to have any weight with me. All my study was now to show my gratitude to my God. But it grieved me still that I neither saw nor heard of any in the country who seemed in earnest to work out his own salvation, or to have any saving knowledge of God in Christ. I did not then imagine that I should be useful, seeing not the least probability of it, but rather the contrary. I had frequent thoughts of hiding myself from my friends, dreading nothing more than to be known in the world.

This made me actually drop my acquaintance with all the people, and to reject offers that were made to raise my fortune in the world. I sold what I had, and gave it to the poor, and among the rest such clothes as I thought unsuitable for a Christian.

I saw by reading Matthew 19 verse 29 how dreadful it was not to take God at His word. I then had power to rely entirely on His word: "Everyone that hath forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands for My Name's sake, shall receive an hundred-fold, and shall inherit everlasting life." Upon this promise I resigned my body and soul to His care for ever.

From that time to the present, I can say that my life has been a life of faith, pleading with Him, that I wholly depend on His blessed promises. I daily find Him to be faithful, and they that trust in Him shall not be ashamed. But this appears as enthusiasm to flesh and blood. Though we call God our Father, own Him to be the disposer of all things, and that His word is truth; yet we will not give Him that trust which we give to mortal unfaithful man. This indeed appears dreadful to me, and therefore I was determined to trust forever on His blessed promise for my earthly blessings, as I give Him all my trust for eternal life. Thus in all my wants I have nowhere to apply but to the promise, and in that alone I have found enough.

In this light I saw my own misery by nature, and consequently could not help seeing all those whom I had been acquainted with, of every rank and degree, going also as I had done in the broad way that leads to destruction. It very evidently appears by the testimony of God's word, and the conduct of the people, that this was the case then.

There was at that time a general slumber over the land. The majority of people spent the Lord's Day contrary to the laws of God and man, it being by none rightly observed. Neither had anyone, whom I knew, the true knowledge of that God whom we claim to worship. No sooner was the worship over on the Lord's Day, than the conduct of the people demonstrated that the heart was entirely alienated from all that was good. The remaining part of the day was spent in indulging the prevailing corruptions of nature. All family worship was being utterly laid aside (except among some of the Dissenters) while an universal deluge of swearing, lying, revelling, drunkenness, fighting and gaming had overspread the country like a mighty torrent. All this was without any notice being taken of, or a stop, as far as I had seen, being attempted to be put to it.

Seeing thus rich and poor going as if it were hand in hand in the broad way to ruin, my soul was stirred up within me. The Ministers were the first that lay on my heart. I saw they were not in earnest, and did not appear to have any sense of their own danger, nor any feeling sense of the love of Christ. Therefore their instructions, which were delivered in such an unfeeling and indifferent manner, seemed to have no effect upon any of the hearers. I had never yet seen one man awakened by the preaching in the whole country. This view of their darkness, deadness and indifferency, made me, out of the abundance of my heart, speak to some of those with whom I was acquainted. But finding it had no effect, I took myself to secret prayer and mourning, and encouraged some others to pray with me; and the Lord again renewed my strength.

Then I could not help making it my business to speak to all I came near, of their danger. Although I had little knowledge of the way of salvation by faith, yet I was happy by feeling the blessedness of it in my own heart. Death and judgment were my principal subjects of conversation, and the necessity of praying, and receiving the Sacrament. I began to set up family worship in my mother's house, and on Sunday morning some of the neighbours would come to hear me reading the Lessons and Psalms.

The evening I spent with a few private friends, whom the Lord had now touched in their hearts with some sense of their danger. The fire of God did so burn in my soul that I could not rest day or night without doing something for my God and Saviour. Nor could I go with satisfaction to sleep if I had not done something for His glory that day. Time was so precious that I knew not how to improve it entirely to the glory of God, and the good of others.

When alone I was taken up wholly in reading, praying, or writing, and also continued to go on exhorting the poor people, and they flocked to hear me every Sunday evening. I soon became the public talk of the country, but I was carried as on the wings through all my trials, both inward and outward. I was highly favoured indeed by the Friend of sinners! I was now quite a new man. I feared nothing, though my life was in danger from the threats of such as loved darkness rather than light. Yet I was not afraid, but went on, little thinking all this time that I was to travel afar in God's service. Thus, I spent that summer of 1735.

In the beginning of November following, I went to Oxford, and entered at St. Mary's Hall under the tuition of Mr. Hart. But having now no taste for the way of life there, I spent the greatest part of my time in private prayer, or in public worship. My friends were in hopes I should be effectually cured of my "enthusiasm", as they called it, but the Lord Jesus had now got possession of my heart.

I had a promising prospect before me, having had the promise to be admitted as sub-tutor at a great school, with a benefice of £140 per annum from a certain gentleman. Although I was encompassed with fair prospects, yet when I saw the irregularities and immoralities which surrounded me there, I became soon weary of the place, and cried to God to deliver me from thence. Thus, after keeping that term, I was again brought to my dear friends in Wales.

After my return, I was occupied in going from house to house until I had visited the greatest part of my native Parish, together with those of neighbouring ones. The people now began to assemble by vast numbers, so that the houses wherein we met could not contain them. The word was attended with such power that many on the spot cried out to God for pardon of their sins. And such as lived in malice confessed their sins, making peace with each other, and appeared in concern about their eternal state. Family worship was set up in many houses, and the churches, as far as I had gone, were crowded, and likewise the Lord's Table.

### Chapter 3

It was now high time for the enemy to make a stand in another manner. Therefore he not only influenced the populace to revile and persecute me, but caused the magistrates and clergy to bestir themselves: the former to threaten me, and such as would receive me to their houses, with fines, while the latter showed their indignation and used their endeavours to discourage me by other means. This put some stop for a short time, yet it could not extinguish the flame that was kindled. Though fear kept many back, yet such as were drawn by the Divine attraction could not be affrighted.

So I continued still to meet those secretly, and also the following spring I continued in going from house to house as before, speaking to all that were inclined to hear me. By this time I gained acquaintance with several Dissenters, who kindly received me into their houses. In this manner I went on, till advised by a particular friend at the latter end of the summer in 1736 to set up a school at Trevecka, which I did, but soon transferred my pupils to the Parish church. By this means a great many young persons had laid hold of this opportunity, and came to be further instructed in the way of salvation; but oh, with a bleeding heart I now think of many of them, seeing they were likely to end in the flesh, after they had begun well in the Spirit.

The latter end of this year, a man went about to instruct young people to sing Psalms. This gave me another opportunity to show my love to my dear fellow sinners. The people being assembled to learn and to hear him sing, there was no objection made to our meeting any more than there was to assemblies met for cock-fighting and dancing. So I laid hold of this opportunity. When he had done teaching them to sing, I would give a word of exhortation, and thereby many were brought under conviction, and many religious Societies were by these means formed.

I began in imitation of the Societies which Dr. Woodward gave an account of, in a little treatise he wrote on that matter. There were as yet no other Societies of the kind in England or Wales. The English Methodists were not as yet heard of, though the Lord was now, as I found afterward, working on some of them in Oxford and elsewhere. But I was exposed to all kinds of opposition, though I saw no proper steps which I could securely take.

However, the beginning of the following summer, in 1737, a certain gentleman in Radnorshire sent for me to discourse at his house. This stirred the curiosity of some of the better sort of people to come to hear me; whilst others, in conversing with me, had their prejudices much removed; and others were convinced. I had reason to believe the Lord would be pleased to bless my labours.

Though I still continued to teach in the school, I went out every night to such places where I was sent for, and did the same on the holidays and on the Sabbath until, at last, about the latter end of this year, I was turned out of my school. This enabled me to enlarge my sphere of service.

After this, I readily complied with every invitation, went wherever I was sent for by day and night, speaking generally three or four, and sometimes five and six times a day, to crowded auditories.

Now I was loaded with all manner of persecution, from all quarters. The magistrates threatened me, the clergy preached against me, branding me with the character of a false prophet and deceiver. The mob was active, laying in wait with intentions of mischief. Yet during all this I was carried as on the wings of an eagle, triumphantly above all. I took no particular texts, but discoursed freely as the Lord gave me utterance. The gift I had received was preaching to convince the conscience of sin.

There appeared now a general reformation in several counties. Public entertainments became unfashionable, and religion became the common talk. Places of divine worship were everywhere crowded. The Welsh Charity Schools began to spread, by the procurement of the Reverend Griffith Jones of Llanddowror. People in general expressed their willingness to be instructed to read the Word of God, and Societies were also set up in many places.

About this time I heard by a friend, who came from London, of a young clergyman called Mr. Whitefield. He preached four times a day, and was much blessed. In hearing this, my heart was united to him in such a manner that I never felt the like connection with anyone before. Yet I had not the least prospect of ever seeing him, being informed that he had gone over the sea, it being his first voyage to America. But in the beginning of January 1738 I was agreeably surprised by a letter from him. He, having providentially heard of me, wrote to me in order to encourage me to go on. I was at this time greatly concerned over my way of travelling and preaching, yet I went about my work with the utmost activity.

Thus I went on, having sweet fellowship with God daily in private prayer, and at the Sacrament which I constantly attended. Yet still not being fully settled as to my method of proceeding, I was shaken by Satan, and by a sense of the greatness of the work, and of my own weakness and incapacity for it. But still I was constrained to go on, by my concern for the people, and by the visible good results of my labours; also by the united call and approval of many whom I esteemed as gracious ministers, and by the continual power I felt with me in the work. Thus my spirit was much enlivened, especially when in the Lord's work, and I feared neither men nor devils. Such power and courage I had not by nature, therefore it appeared to me to be undoubtedly from God.

As to the subject of my discourse, it was given to me in an extraordinary manner, without the least premeditation. It was not the fruit of my memory, for my natural memory was bad. Therefore it was the effect of the immediate strong impulse which I felt in my soul. I was not able to rest. Consequently, necessity was laid on my spirit to go and awaken souls. Thus I went on, though with fear and trembling, lest others of bad intentions should take occasion to go about after my example.

Therefore I prayed that I might know God's will more perfectly. I also prayed to see whether He was the only object of my love and desire, and whether His glory and the salvation of my fellow sinners were the only objects of my view. After examining the matter thus, I had power to rely in all things on the strength of the grace that is in Christ Jesus, for power to carry me through the great work. So, if His honour should call me to suffer, to be imprisoned and tortured, I should find Him a faithful Friend in every trial, in death, and to all eternity.

By this time the Reverend Daniel Rowlands, and some other young clergymen, were called to preach the Gospel to Wales in the same extemporary manner as I was.

Although I had many comfortable assurances that my commission was from above, I was not thoroughly confirmed about it in my own heart, until I was summoned to appear before a person of distinction to render an account of my going about in the manner I did. Then these words were brought with power to my soul, from Revelation 3:8. "Behold, I have set before thee an open door, and no man can shut it." By the gracious effect this left on my soul, I am confirmed and persuaded it was applied to me by the Holy Spirit.

My life was now in danger in several places by the mob, especially in February 1739, when they found I could not be prosecuted as a rioter, because it did not appear I disturbed the peace. Yet in Montgomeryshire a knight, a clergyman, and two Justices, whilst I was discoursing, came, attended by a constable, with the mob, and took note of me, and such as met together, to hear my exhortation in a place unlicensed. Then they began to charge me with a breach of the Conventicle Act. I told the Magistrate that I was a Conformist, and for that reason not subject to the penalties of that Statute.

Then they said, "We shall consult the best lawyers in order to know if there is a law to be enforced against you. And if there is, you must expect to suffer its utmost extremity." My persecutors continued thus to threaten me until Session came on, at which time a lawyer was consulted, and the case was dropped.

After my dismission I went to Merionethshire where, I trust, the Lord blessed the seed sown to some. In my return from thence I came by Dinas Mawddwy and discoursed there. At the request of a friend I went on to Machynlleth. But at my first entrance there, I found none were disposed to receive me. However, I proposed to preach the Gospel to such as met in the street, being placed in an open window in an upper room. But I was soon obliged to desist by the noise of the multitude who continued hollowing, threatening, swearing, and flinging stones or anything they could lay their hands on.

On one occasion an attorney came up to me with such rage and fury in his looks, and his mouth so full of the language of hell as if his name was Legion, and with him a gentleman and a clergyman in the same spirit and language, to head the mob. One of them discharged a pistol at me. I received no hurt, but was obliged to go among them into the street, not expecting that I should escape alive, seeing every circumstance threatening me with death. But my hour was not yet come. Though they used me ill, yet I was miraculously preserved: and at last one of the mob was disposed to fetch my horse. As soon as I mounted, they observed which way I went, and blocked the road, and began again to throw sticks and stones at me till the Lord delivered me out of their hands.

My natural strength by this time was so spent by incessant labours night and day, that frequently when I went before a congregation I felt such a bodily weakness that I could hardly stand. Then our Saviour would enable me by faith to plead that promise in Isaiah 40 verse 31, that "They who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength." Then I presently felt, by faith, instantaneous strength sufficient for my soul and body to carry me through my work. Yea I felt it just as I have felt the benefit of food when hungry, or the warmth of fire when cold.

Thus I continued and went on still through the Counties of South Wales, until I arrived at Cardiff, where I was much refreshed by the sight of Mr. Whitefield. This was the first time I met him to converse face to face.

George Whitefield in his Journal at Cardiff, March 7th and 8th 1739, gives the following account of Howell Harris:

I was much refreshed with the sight of my dear Brother Howell Harris, whom, though I knew not in person, I have long since loved through the deep love of Jesus Christ, and have often felt my soul drawn out in prayer on his behalf \-- a burning and shining light has he been in those parts \-- a barrier against profaneness and immorality, and an indefatigable promoter of the true Gospel of Jesus Christ.

For about three or four years, God has inclined him to go about doing good. He is now above twenty-five years of age. Twice he has applied (being every way qualified) for Holy Orders, but was refused under a false pretence that he was not of age, though he was then twenty-two years and six months. About a month ago he offered himself again, but was put off. Upon this, he was, and is still, resolved to go on in his work; and indefatigable zeal has he shown in his Master's service. For three years (as he told me from his own mouth) he has discoursed almost twice every day for three or four hours together; not authoritatively as a minister, but as a private person, exhorting his Christian brethren. He has been, I think, in seven Counties, and has made it his business to go to wakes, to turn people from such lying vanities.

Many alehouse-people, fiddlers and harpers (Demetrius-like) sadly cry out against him for spoiling their business. He has been made the subject of numbers of sermons, has been threatened with public prosecutions, and had constables sent to apprehend him. But God has blessed him with inflexible courage \-- instantaneous strength has been communicated to him from above, and he still continues to go on from conquering to conquer. He is of a most catholic spirit, loves all that loves our Lord Jesus Christ, and therefore he is styled by bigots, a Dissenter.

He is condemned by all who are lovers of pleasure more than lovers of God; but God has greatly blessed his pious endeavours. Many call and own him as their spiritual father, and, I believe, would lay down their lives for his sake. He discourses in fields, from walls, a table, or anything else, but at other times in a house. He has established near thirty Societies in South Wales, and still his sphere of action is enlarged daily. He is full of faith and the Holy Spirit.

When I first saw him, my heart was knit closely to him. I wanted to catch some of his fire, and gave him the right hand of fellowship with my whole heart. After I had saluted him, and given a warm exhortation to a great number of people who followed me to the inn, we spent the remainder of the evening in taking sweet council together, and telling one another what God had done for our souls. My heart was then drawn out towards him more and more. A Divine and strong sympathy seemed to be between us, and I resolved to promote his interest with all my might.

Accordingly we took an account of the several Societies, and agreed on such measures as seemed most conducive to promote the common interest of our Lord. Blessed be God, there seems to be a noble spirit gone out into Wales; and I believe e'er long there will be more visible fruits of it. What inclines me strongly to think so is that the partition wall of bigotry and party zeal is broken down, and ministers and teachers of different communions join with one heart and one mind to carry on the Kingdom of Jesus Christ. May the Lord make all the Christian world thus minded, for till this is done I fear we must despair of any great reformation in the Church of God. After much comfortable and encouraging discourse with each other, we kneeled down and prayed, and great enlargement of heart God was pleased to give me in that duty.

This done, we ate a little supper, and then after singing a hymn we went to bed, praising and blessing God for bringing us face to face. I doubt not but Satan envied our happiness. But I hope, by the help of God, we shall make his kingdom shake. God loves to do great things by weak instruments, that the power may be of God and not of man. After being much refreshed by last night's rest, about ten in the morning, according to appointment, I went to the town hall, and preached for about an hour and a half to a large assembly of people. My dear brother Howell Harris sat close by me.

### Chapter 4

About the end of March 1739, I went to London where I received further Gospel-light by conversing with a friend who among other observations, said, "I see many people concerned about good works, but few seem to be convinced of the necessity of believing in Christ before they can do anything acceptable in His sight."

There came such a fresh light with these words to my heart, that I could not but insist that faith is the fundamental grace in the spiritual work, and the genuine spring of all our obedience. Till we receive this grace, we cannot apprehend the righteousness of Christ, and consequently cannot say that we are justified. This fresh light brought also with it fresh convictions, which sunk deeper and deeper into my spirit, especially by reading part of John Cotton, on the Covenant of Grace, where he was showing how far one might go with right ideas of Salvation, and yet not rightly believe, trust, or rely confidently on the merits of Christ -- but in works done by us, or in us. There he showed the many false rests people are apt to use in the place of Christ; for example some trust in their outward profession of the true religion; others because they are orthodox in their principles; and others because they have reformed their lives, and do abound in all good works. He showed that all these were our works, and not the Blood of Christ. A person building his hopes here was not building on Christ.

Although I had been delivered from trust in works a long time before, by reading the Sincere Convert, I was wounded by close re-examination of myself, especially as he went on to show that we must trust in our faith. Good works, though they are good in their place, yet to rely on them is idolatry. True salvation is in Christ's Blood only.

Though I had the seed sown in my soul four years before, and had daily feelings of God's love in my heart, yet the awakenings that I felt this time made so deep an impression on my heart that I could hardly bear them. Yea, I can say that my spirit was greatly distressed with deep anguish of soul for some days together, until I was refreshed by that text in Revelation 22:17, "Whosoever will, let him take the water of life freely." This sustained me, and I felt I was willing to let God do what He pleased with me.

But still I was troubled with some reasonings about going directly to Christ in every condition. Then a woman came to me, to relate how all the night she had been in distress and perplexity, reasoning with the enemy whether she was a child of God or not, and that she could have no rest or satisfaction till it came to her mind to go to Christ just as she was. She had thereupon found peace and victory.

Upon hearing this, and some preaching afterwards -- that people should come to Christ as they are, without reasoning in themselves -- I was made to cease from reasoning, and to go with all my troubles and fears and lay them before the Friend of sinners who loved me freely, and not for any good in me. Now, that legal principle of fitting myself for Christ, and of being afraid to go to Him when I was not in a good frame, was rooted out of my heart. Then I learned to look and go directly to Christ at all times, and in all circumstances.

I parted this summer with many dear friends in London, and came home to Trevecka. The next day I was called by business to Abergavenny, and was edified in reading Bunyan's Law and Grace. Then my soul was much revived at the kind of hearty reception I had from some of my dear friends there. I could not part with them till after nine at night. Then I went, and came home about one in the morning; notwithstanding I had travelled these eight days past very hard, and had many letters to write, and also was to discourse with some of my neighbouring friends before noon. Yet I was assisted to sit up all night, to read, write and pray. The Lord enabled me to discourse with great strength of body at noon, and again in the evening, with much power, near Hay, for about two hours. From thence I set off about five miles further; and to bed about twelve.

The following day, as I was going to Longtown in Herefordshire, many young people were crowding towards a feast kept there. I had a spirit of pity and tenderness to them; and from that spirit spoke to persuade them from going, because I had some concern in my soul that God was so publicly dishonoured at these feasts, and that their souls are in such a miserable condition. Then I had some plans in my mind to go to the feast, and I was willing to suffer whatever I should meet.

After having prayed alone, I ventured to go thither in the Name of God. Before I came to the great crowd, I met with a few who were together at their diversion. To these I took occasion to speak, on account of one of them swearing. And while I was speaking with these, the news went to the great crowd that I was there. They ran up by hundreds, till I believe there was in a little time about two thousand around me. The Lord gave me courage to attack the Devil in his own quarters -- and made my face as a flint -- supplying me with the words to speak.

When I saw some gentlemen and ladies coming up, I was made stronger and stronger to humble their pride. I was also moved to speak to the minister of the parish and two Justices that were present, asking how they could give account of their stewardship, while they countenanced pride, swearing and drunkenness. Some of the gentlemen laughed at me, and one cried, "Take the babbler down!" But my time was not yet come. I went from thence towards Abergavenny. There the vilest of the town came to hear me, and the Lord helped me to deliver my message faithfully. I went to bed about two o'clock in the morning.

Having now, by the strength of the Lord, a power and courage to resist the Devil in two towns, I went on my way with Mr. E. Jones to Pont-y-Pool, where I had been led to discourse much about the courage of Daniel, Shadrach, Meshach and Abed-nego. The Lord stands by His people in the day of battle, and I was at last honoured with the fulfilment thereof in myself, for Mr. C.H. came upon us and did read the Riot Act, ordering us to separate in an hour's time. At his first coming our spirits were a little discouraged, but immediately the Lord strengthened me to tell him that, in obedience to his Majesty's order, we would separate. Then he ordered a constable to take care of me. I had full courage in the inward man to say that I was willing to go to prison and to death to save souls, but that we had here no riot nor sedition against Church or State. I asked him if he read that Act at cock fights but he continued his threatenings that he would take notice of as many as he could, and if they did not disperse as before, they should die without benefit of clergy.

The assembly continued unmoved and easy. I told him we would part, having first prayed for him that the curse of those people may not fall on his head, and that God would not lay this to his charge in the Day of Judgment where he would stand not as a Justice of the Peace, but as a man to give an account how he did bear the Sword of Justice. He then replied that it did not trouble him at present. So we went to prayer, and when I begged God to meet him, as He did Saul, with His saving grace, he went away. The people were most of them in tears, and so we parted in great love.

I was strengthened and more cheerful than usual all the time. Late in the evening I went with the constable, and a great number of people before him, and having consulted with some friends (though it was my own inclination to go to prison) I gave two bails to answer at the next Great Session at Monmouth. I said that I was surprised that Major H's son, (for he was a good natured man) should be the first persecutor of a Protestant peaceable assembly. He said he had his orders from above. I asked him, "Was it from heaven?" And he said, "No, I did not mean that." I told him, "If his Majesty knew how loyal and harmless we are, he would not love you the better for suppressing us."

Thus I parted with him, having left some arrows in his conscience about his being soon to give an account of himself at a dreadful tribunal. I said I had prayed for him, and would continue to pray for him, and he thanked me.

This being about the middle of June, I was not to appear at the Great Session in Monmouth till August. Therefore in the meantime I was determined to be diligent in the work of my Lord. I went from hence to Bristol, where I had a sweet conversation with my friends there. I went to a Society of Welshmen, where I expounded for near two hours. Thence to hear Mr. John Wesley whom I had heard much talk of, and loved much from what I have heard of him. But I had some prejudice against him because he did not hold the Perseverance of the Saints and the doctrine of Election. He preached on Isaiah 45:22: "Look unto me, and be ye saved, all the ends of the earth: for I am God, and there is none else."

He excellently and clearly held forth Free Justification by Faith, without the works of the Law. He explained the necessity, duty and privilege of everyone looking to Jesus for righteousness and strength, instead of trusting in works. The Spirit of God attended his discourse to me in such a manner that much of the Lord's glory broke in upon my soul. My prejudice against him fell away, and I was convinced that he was a faithful minister of Jesus Christ, especially when I went to him to Mrs. G. where he was vastly enlarged in prayer -- for me, for the Reverend G. Jones and for all Wales. Thus I believe, from the benefit I received, that my going to Bristol was from God.

### Chapter 5

Having parted with all friends at Bristol, I set out for Wales. The door now opens wider and wider to the Counties of Glamorgan, of Brecon, Carmarthen, parts of Radnor, Cardigan and Pembrokeshire. I had reason to believe my labours were attended with much blessing.

I returned from this round and arrived at home in Trevecka, Breconshire, on the 7th of August. In the evening I went towards Abergavenny on my way to Monmouth Assizes. I spent the night at Mr. F. most agreeably, with some Christian friends whose hearts the Lord has inclined to go with me, to bear a part in my sufferings should occasion require.

Then I went on to Monmouth. In the meantime I heard that my persecutors were resolved to have me punished to the utmost rigour of the law, whatever it might cost them. I knew that I had neither friends nor money to make any defence or to help me that way, for I had renounced all my former friends. And if I was deluded, as they said, and not sent by God, I knew that He would not stand by me. However, this being my case, it drove me to send strong cries to the Lord that He would give me a clearer proof of my commission, to know whether I suffered for His cause -- or for my own imprudence, as some said I did.

The Lord comforted me soon by that portion of Scripture, Esther 6:9. "Thus shall it be done to the man whom the King delighteth to honour." Then it appeared to me as a wrong step of honour to be obliged to stand at the Bar, to bear the contempt of the Court, and the whole County, considering that the Cross is the way to the Crown, and that the reproach of Christ is the greatest honour!

When I came to Monmouth, the Lord, though without my knowledge, had animated many friends and brought them from several parts such as London, Gloucester and Wales to stand by me. But the magistrates, after consulting about the affair, thought it not expedient to appear against me; and so I was dismissed.

After my dismissal I was more established in my own soul that my mission was from God. I had often applied for Holy Orders, and was rejected for no other reason but for my preaching as a layman. I felt no scruple ever since, but have been more and more established and confirmed, both from Scripture examples and by the judgment and practice of the Church, and the writings of Christian scholars. As to the lawfulness of laymen's preaching in some cases, and at times of necessity, I saw in the Acts of the Apostles the account of Apollos and others who were scattered by the death of Stephen, having no other mission than being moved by the Holy Spirit and love to the immortal souls of their fellow men.

I thought a greater time of necessity could hardly be than at present, when the whole Country in a cursory sense lay in a lukewarm, dead condition. In many churches, for some months together, there was no sermon; and in other places an English learned discourse to a Welsh illiterate congregation. And where an intelligible sermon was preached, it was so legal, in the language of the old Covenant, encouraging man's good works, and not speaking of a Mediator. Should any give heed to it, they were far from being led thereby to Christ, the only new and living Way to God. Seeing this, and feeling the love of Christ in my heart, I saw an absolute necessity of going about to propagate the Gospel of my dear Master and Redeemer.

Having parted from my friends who came to stand by me at Monmouth Session, I went on my way with some friends to Llanfihangel Cerrig-Cornel, and offered to discourse there for my Lord and Master. But here I met much opposition, being contradicted, ridiculed and abused. I saw that this was given me as a thorn in the flesh to humble me, lest I should be exalted above measure. But Satan, thou art chained! Thus having been much humbled in the inward man, I was enabled at last to conquer some of them by love and meekness. Then I had quiet, and an open door to discourse and pray. Surely times of trials are very sweet seasons: they draw forth our faith into exercise, and knit our hearts more closely to God and His people.

Thus I went through the Counties of South Wales the second time this year, having new strength and a new commission from the Lord. I was supported in general by those of the established Church, because I professed myself a Churchman and had no intention to draw them away from the Church. I began to show them the danger thoroughly, and that the doctrine they had was not of our Articles and Homilies, nor maintained by the old Reformers, but that it was the Covenant of works in the whole. I said that it was morality, and not Christ, that was preached almost everywhere.

Then I was looked upon as an enemy of the Church, though all this while I was endeavouring to revive it. The Dissenters at first liked me much, as I was encouraging the people to go anywhere to hear where Christ was preached, and where they found most benefit. When they found their places of worship thronged by such means, I was for some time much respected by all parties, and had much encouragement from each party to join them.

But the Lord kept me all this while from meddling with the differences and controversies about the externals of religion, for I dreaded the consequences this would produce to souls newly awakened. Therefore for many reasons, being persuaded in my own mind that I was called to labour as a member in the national Church, my conscience did not permit me to dissent. When I came to see the bigotry of some parties, the luke warmness and worldly-mindedness of others, with their legal method of preaching, I began to bear my testimony against them. Then many waxed cold towards me. Others disputed with me, and thought it was their duty to weaken my hands as much as they could.

The ensuing summer in the year 1740, as I went through Glamorganshire, I met with Mr. Seward at Cowbridge. From thence he came on with me to Cardiff. Then we went on comfortably together to Monmouthshire, and preached at the towns of Newport, Caerleon, Usk and Monmouth. Satan was permitted to rage against us in a most horrible manner. At Newport the mob rushed on us with the utmost rage and fury. They tore both my coat sleeves, and one quite off, and took away the covering from my head, I being now in the rain --- O sweet bare headed -- under the reproach of Christ!

Having a little silence, I discoursed on, but soon they hollowed again and pelted me with apples and dirt, flinging stones in the utmost rage about me. I had one blow on my forehead, which caused a swelling with a little blood. Many friends would have me give over in the tumult, but I could not be free to do that till the storm would be over and God be glorified over Satan.

When we came to Caerleon everything seemed calm and quiet, whilst Brother Seward prayed and discoursed sweetly by the market house. But when I began to discourse after him, then they began to roar most horribly, pelting us with dung and dirt, throwing eggs, plum stones and other hard substances even in our faces, and hollowed so loud as to drown my voice entirely. Brother Seward had a furious blow on his right ey, which caused him much anguish, and as it affected his left, he was obliged to be led by the hand blindfold for some days, till at last he became totally blind by it.

When we came to Monmouth Town, we had much the same treatment as we had at Newport and Caerleon. It happened to be the Horse Race there. Both high and low were assembled against us. I began to discourse from a table against the town hall windows, where the Duke of B. and Lord N., with a great number of gentlemen and ladies were at dinner. Then they ordered a drum to be beaten by our sides, although the Lord enabled me to bear my testimony against their assemblies, balls, horse races, whoredom and drunkenness. The drum continued to beat and the mob continued pelting us with apples, pears, stones and dirt, and even a dead dog.

During this storm, Brother Seward was much afraid of hurt, yet he endured it with much calmness of spirit, saying, "Better endure this than hell." Thus all their opposition could not hinder our progress. In the strength of the Lord we went on from conquering to conquer.

Brother Seward went with me to Coleford and to Gloucester, where we had much power to discourse to many hundreds, both in public and private. Being in Gloucester on a Sunday and hearing that the Sacrament would be at Nicholas's Church, I went there and had a fresh sense of my poverty and vileness, so that I could cry with feeling, "O Lord, I am the poorest, the vilest and the unworthiest here before Thee." And when I thus fell at my Saviour's feet, I had a sweet and close communion with Him. My soul felt a pity for all the world, longing that they all might be born again and be brought to the true knowledge of the Saviour of sinners. Yea, I felt I deserved hell for not valuing His precious Blood the more! O the infinite value of that Blood! It is the fruit of God's eternal love to poor sinners! Here is light, life and liberty from the guilt and power of sin. And, O, that I may abide in it for ever.

My reception at different places was daily enlarged, although the enemy caused some disturbance almost everywhere. At the entreaties of several friends, I went to a revel in Radnorshire, which is a yearly meeting, where numbers of people meet to dance. I often frequented those places in order to speak to the people, and God was pleased to bless the word to the conversion of some, and conviction of many, who would not attend preaching elsewhere. After I had begun to show to the attentive crowd the folly, vanity and danger of these ways, and invited them to the Saviour, I was apprehended by two Justices.

After I had suffered much contempt and derision, they drew up their Commitment. But when they perceived that I was well pleased to go to prison, they sent for some of my friends to bail me. I assented to this, lest they should think me obstinate. So they bound me to appear at the Quarter Sessions and dismissed me. When I departed I was filled with joy unspeakable and great glory. In consequence of my obligation I appeared at the Quarter Sessions, being accompanied by others who had answered for me. Although we requested our trial, yet they declined it, and obliged us to appear again the next Quarter Sessions.

At this time a strong attempt was made to take away my life. The hall wherein the Sessions were held was an upper room, up a high flight of stairs which was opposite to the street. It being by night, the mob placed themselves at the head of the stairs to push me down. This plan, if it had taken place, would have certainly caused my death. They began to push me, but by an especial providence a worthy gentleman (one of the Magistrates on the Bench) came that moment and snatched me from their hands. He protected me and led me to his lodging.

As I was going out of town they surrounded me, and unanimously exclaimed against me, but I was soon minded to demand peace in the king's name; upon which God struck them with such an awe that I was permitted to escape.

The next Quarter Sessions, when I appeared in Court, an Act was perused which was made in the twenty-second year of King Charles II against seditions and illegal assemblies; for under pretence of Divine worship people had met to plot against the king. When they had done reading it, a counsellor, being employed by a certain gentleman, stood up. The whole Court was surprised as he pleaded that these assemblies were not subject to the censure and penalties of that Act, unless they could justly charge them with sedition and disloyalty, which they could not possibly do. Therefore he was clearly of the opinion that the defendant might be acquitted of that charge and suspicion, by his subscribing to the Articles of the Church, and taking the oath of allegiance to his Majesty. I immediately expressed my readiness to do this, and they thought fit to dismiss me. Previous to this time warrants were issued to take me, but now the magistrates observed that I was peaceable, and a conformist, and also loyal to the King; by which it appeared I was no criminal, and not guilty of that which they charged.

### Chapter 6

In the beginning of the year 1741 I went to North Wales. As I proceeded, the enemy was provoked at my attempt to spread the Gospel in his territories, and resolved to make a stand against me and endeavoured, as much as he should be permitted, to take away my life. Having been led to visit Bala in Merionethshire, and to proceed to the North (though I had been there once or twice before), after prayer and consultation I entrusted God with my life, relying on His faithfulness, and went on.

As I was near Bala, I met the minister that belonged to that place, on the road. He cautioned me to desist at my peril. I meekly replied that I was fully persuaded that it was my duty, and that I had no other intention but to publish the glad tidings of Salvation, and would not wilfully offend any person. However, he gave me very ill language and came towards me with a great club to strike me. I told him, when I was reviled, that I was taught not to revile again, and rode on quietly. But when I entered the town I found a numerous assembly waiting for me. It was said that all the county mob were met together purposely to abuse and hinder me. But at the request of my friends I quitted the street, and went to a house to discourse.

During all this I was happy in my soul and full of power and courage, my voice being lifted up like a trumpet so that the people could hear in spite of all the disturbance that was made at the door and window, which was broken to pieces by the mob. Thus I discoursed on for some time. But when the mob who had been preparing themselves by excessive drinking (it was supposed that the minister had given them the drink) came among the people, a friend desired me to leave off. Though I was yet full of power in my spirit, yet preferring my friend's advice before the call in my own soul, I ceased to speak. But I immediately felt the power withdrawn from me. Then I understood that I had done wrong. However, I retired to an upper room; but the mob, instead of withdrawing, appeared to be more enraged.

Some surrounded the house, whilst others climbed to the top of it, threatening me with death as soon as I should come out. As night drew on I thought it was my duty to go out among them, committing myself to the hands of God. But as soon as I went out of house, one seized me by the collar. By it giving way, I was prevented from being dragged to the ground. Another hit me on the face, whilst others flung stones and dirt at me.

I then thought it was my lot to die Stephen's death in the midst of them. I spoke to them, and prayed for them. But whilst I did this, one desired me to go away, telling me that I tempted the Lord by staying there. No sooner had I turned my back on my enemies to go away, but I was somehow left to myself, and sunk under the waves. I was not afraid of death, knowing it was an entrance to eternal rest, having no fear of hell, or doubt of God's favour through the Blood of Christ my Saviour. Yet being rather unwilling to die by the hands of these villains, I experienced some uneasiness.

They still inhumanly continued to beat me with sticks and staffs, and to pelt me with stones, until I fell under their merciless feet, where they continued to beat me until the Lord touched the heart of one of them with pity, or fear of being prosecuted for killing me. He swore they would beat me no more, and rescued me and my friends out of their hands. Although my friends were able to make defensive resistance, they imitated Christ the Lord their Master in bearing all patiently, as I desired them to do. So at last we came together to our lodging and dressed our wounds. There also I exhorted my fellow sufferers, and rejoiced together that we were counted worthy to suffer for Christ's sake.

Afterward I went on my journey to Caernarvonshire, and reached there on a Saturday night. On Sunday morning I enquired where the best church-preaching was. It was said it was two or three miles distance, where the chancellor preached. I went there unannounced, and heard such an evil sermon as I thought could never come into the heart of man to conceive, or any mouth to utter. He had heard of my journey to North Wales, and took occasion to forewarn the people, least I should happen to visit that place. Unaware of my presence, he began to depict me as a minister of the Devil, an enemy to God, to the Church and to all mankind. He in several respects described me worse than the Devil, because the Devil could not act here except by such instruments.

So he went on, and made a repetition of my being the Devil's Minister, a deluder and a false prophet. After he had painted me worse than any monster heretic, or the Devil himself, he showed it was a duty incumbent upon the people, out of love to God and His Church, and their country, to join unanimously against such a man who carried with him such destructive poison, which would not only destroy their persons and estates, but their immortal souls for ever. But neither he nor the people had expected me there so soon.

I went to the minister after he came out of church to speak with him about setting up Welsh Schools, and also to tell him my dislike of his sermon. Then on a realisation of my being the very person publicly exposed in church, the people set themselves in the way by which I was to go, to take my horse, that they might pelt me with stones. But though many stones were flung violently at me, yet the Lord saved me from having any considerable harm, and kept them from laying violent hands upon me. Thus I was greatly endangered all this week, and often thought I should not be permitted to return alive from this place.

I returned by way of Penmorfa near Traeth Mawr; and whilst I waited my passage, the mob bestired themselves against me, and the spirit of murderers was seen in their looks and behaviour. They abused me, but by the mercy of God they could not hurt me much, and at last I escaped their fury and came over Barmouth ferry to a Dissenting minister's house in Merionethshire. From thence I came by Machynlleth, and Llanbrynmair in Montgomeryshire, where my life was endangered again, but was preserved as a prey out of a lion's mouth. So I went on and visited the souls in that county, who had now begun to form themselves into small Societies.

O what experience I gained by this perilous journey! I never had so much awareness of the nature of self-love, which now grew in me by means of my success. I saw more and more of the depth of all evil in my nature, so that I often wondered that the earth was permitted to bear such a person. I daily observed, and had a clearer evidence of the truth of that expression delivered by good Bishop Hooper at the stake, "Lord, I am hell, but Thou art heaven." I find as yet I am but a child. But the Lord by degrees continued to show me more of the height, depth, length and breadth of His love in Christ; and led me to know, by experience, more of His sufferings, death and resurrection, love and faithfulness.

My eyes were more opened, and my spiritual understanding increased, to apprehend the mystery of Jesus Chris, who can only be savingly known by the operation of the Holy Spirit, as the Door, and the Way to God, and the ineffable Majesty Himself. By this light and experience I had deliverance from the Old Covenant and its legal fear, and it drew me also more and more under the Law of faith and love; the fruits of the New Covenant, and into Gospel liberty; and not licentiousness -- the Cross was heavy for my body to bear, but I felt my soul growing sweetly under it.

The following summer I was called again to London, to assist for some time at the Tabernacle. I passed Bristol on my way, and going through Wiltshire I met with Mr. Cennick, and went with him to Swindon. As we preached there, we were set upon by the mob to some purpose. They brought horns, guns and a fire engine. When they presented a gun to my forehead, my soul was happy. I could cheerfully stand as a mark for them! One struck me on my lip till some blood came. But God was pleased to endow us with uncommon patience and meekness, and great power to speak to the people; and many listened with great seriousness.

We walked up into the town, reasoning with those who opposed us, being smeared with mire, gunpowder, and the muddy water thrown by the engine. We were followed by a large concourse of poor husbandmen and traders. When we had borrowed clothes to change into, and washed ourselves, the people came together in the yard of the house where we were staying. Then I preached to them, and Mr. Cennick prayed. I am persuaded some of them were convinced of sin, and they begged us earnestly to come to a village about a mile distant, which we promised, if God would so permit. Then we went to that village, where the word of God runs and is glorified. Then I proceeded on my journey to London.

It was very remarkable that we received no material hurt at Swindon. Though several, in our hearing, bound themselves by oaths that we should never go away alive, and they followed us above a quarter of a mile from the town, they were not permitted to lay hold of us.

After being some months in London, I returned again and came through several towns in England to Bristol, and from thence to Wales in the year 1742. I now saw clearly that many abused the liberty of the Gospel by turning the grace of God into wantonness, such as spiritual pride, judging and despising others. And because they do not believe that there is perfection, or a deliverance from the essence of sin attainable here, they sit easy under the power of pride, anger, lightness of spirit and love of the world.

When I saw this, I had a new light and power to preach the genuine fruits of real faith, and the necessary consequences of every Divine truth savingly believed in the heart. I was able to distinguish between nominal and real Christians, and knew the absolute necessity of exhorting and persuading all to make their calling and election sure, and to have the victory over all their spiritual enemies. This doctrine caused a vehement opposition, but I was encouraged by seeing the daily good effect it had on the sincere, to rouse, purify and drive them to the Lamb of God.

I still remained a member of the Church of England. Though I am blamed for my conformity by people of all denominations, yet I cannot but rejoice on this account, and of the good work that the Lord began in the established Church. I hope it is a leaven that will effectually operate. I recommend the peaceable spirit that remains still in the established Church, which tolerates such as differ from it, and does not quench this small beginning of a revival in it. I look on this as a token for good to me. I find His presence always in the worship and ordinances, and have great freedom to wrestle in prayer for it, and a strong confidence that God would receive and revive this work in it. However, in this faith and persuasion only I can testify that I was called to abide in it. Not on account of any prejudice, against any other party, I abide in it to this day.

Several were going to the Dissenters and other parties, and I thought it my duty to declare against them. I used the following reasons and Scripture proofs before them, namely the example of the prophets of old, and good men who abode in the Jewish church, notwithstanding its degeneracy in every respect. Our Saviour and His Apostles attended service at the hour of prayer, in the same Jewish church, though they knew that this church was to be abolished. Nor did the Apostle exhort the sincere to forsake the Corinthian church, notwithstanding the many irregularities therein. Our Saviour, after His ascension, did not advise His people in the seven churches of Asia to leave that church of which they were members, and to go to another. No, but to reform that which was blameable, and to become the salt of others. So in regard to ourselves, though we are but poor and despicable members of this church, yet the Lord hath done great things in the nation by this revival -- and He can make us the salt of this church and nation.

In the year 1743, the glory of the Divinity of Jesus Christ was more deeply impressed in my soul than ever. The more I meditate on that text, "Great is the mystery of godliness: God was manifest in the flesh," (1 Timothy 3:16), the more the glory thereof shineth on my soul.

I had also much help to see more of the glory and wonders of the Divinity of Christ, by reading a tract called A Sling and a Stone. I now was brought to see more and more wonders in His infinite Incarnation, Life, Blood, Death and Resurrection, with the glory of all His offices, and also the glory of His Church, as being related to such a glorious Person. She is called His Spouse, Temple, Family, Army, and His Fullness. But yet I was not insensible of the workings of self, that set itself up against all His offices. But I had a more visible view of it in my own soul.

By these discoveries (which I had gradually of Him, and of myself) I was led to find that every truth when revealed by the Spirit is practical, and will have its proper influence on the soul by humbling the sinner and exalting the Saviour. As the glory of God displayed in our nature its Divine rays thus on my soul, I felt it increased my faith, and my love became more habitual, my joy more solid, my resignation more entire, my spirit more smooth and quiet, and I had more depth of compassion and mercy towards poor sinners.

I now also learn to understand several Scriptures which I could not spiritually apprehend before. And what I saw and understood in other Scriptures before, I come now to see a much greater depth and more glory in them. Every moment of time also becomes very precious in my sight. All my misspent time, talents, mercies and gifts that are not employed by the Lord, and for the Lord, are not only lost but also employed against Him.

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In the year 1744 I went again to England, where I found the glory of our Saviour breaking forth among the people. Many were rising out of the Law to see the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ, and the completeness of His Atonement, with the mystery and glory of His precious Blood. Seeing that these blessed truths prevailed, the enemy stirred much within doors. Several people acquiesced with the light in their heads, without having it in the heart. Wherefore they began to speak very unguarded things which caused great division, although I believe that many had true faith to feed on the Saviour, and so will live for ever.

After I had been some time in London I returned to Wales. The thoughts of going to the marriage state were weighty with me at this time. A close examination was laid on my spirit to see what motives were leading me towards the matrimonial state. Was it the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eye, or even the deceit of riches? Through grace I had made myself free from these things. Then the following words of the Lord through Jeremiah 45:5 came with power to my heart. "Seekest thou great things for thyself? Seek them not." A light came to me with these words. If I was going into marriage for myself, and not for God and His church, then I was an idolater.

I could not rest till I felt a resignation of myself in this matter, wholly from my own hand to the Lord's, that He should have His own way and time. Now I saw that marriage is a great mystery to such as are brought together by the Lord. In that relation such shall experience the mutual love that is between Christ and His Church. What a great thing it is to be a husband, father and a head of family, and behave in each as a man of God and an inhabitant of the new Jerusalem.

At last, after much prayer, self-examination and also great opposition, I was joined in matrimony with Anne, the daughter of John Williams of Skreen, on June 18th 1744. She was converted by my ministry some years before. The Lord then gave her faith through Hebrews 11:25: "Choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God, than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a season." Anne was enabled to stand by her choice, and show her faith in all her trials. This is a time ever to be remembered by me. Nine years ago, to this day, I received the Spirit of Adoption to seal my everlasting Salvation.

My spirit increased more and more in beholding the glory of Jesus, the wonder of all worlds, the terror of devils, the delight of angels, and the real and only hope of poor sinners. But I began to find great and strong opposition to my preaching His Godhead and death. This was especially so in Wales, where opposition gained ground, and I began to be openly opposed. Many of my enemies were those that once called themselves my spiritual children.

About the year 1746 I saw another spirit creeping into the work, which was different from that which had been before: the spirit of levity, pride, foolish jesting, unwatchfulness and carnal rejoicing. This took place immediately after times of purely natural excitement, which many seemed to enjoy at the hearing of the word and singing. The real and serious spirit that began the work was at length almost extinguished. This lay with weight upon my heart, together with the additional weight of my own infirmities.

I could see the enemy advancing as a flood and gaining ground, and now very likely to do that in which he had failed once by all the outward opposition. The spirit of awakening sinners in the ministry was also lost, in great measure, together with its real and solid fruits in the spirit and the hearts of men. In a word, the Holy Spirit who began and carried on the work for a while was seemingly vanishing gradually away. Many saw this and were concerned, and are waiting for the Spirit's returning to renew the work. Yet we proceeded in Wales, notwithstanding the great disputes that arose amongst us.

But the year following, the enmity grew stronger against the preaching of God's humiliation and death. Still I bore all, in hope of seeing this storm ceasing, as I had seen many others. I now also beheld very evidently a tendency in the ministry to please men, and to appear wise and popular in the world. A great many of my nearest friends, both in England and Wales, were losing their former simplicity, although the number of teachers was increasing daily. I have found also that the spirits of many grew proud and would not take the word of reproof or exhortation -- although they called me their father -- as I began the work in this last revival, especially in Wales.

I have spent a great part of my time in England, to spread abroad the fame of the dear Saviour. I travelled through the Counties of Kent, Essex, Buckingham, Wiltshire, Somerset, Gloucester, Oxford, Warwick, Shropshire and Herefordshire, and all the Counties of Wales; being much importuned to go to Scotland and Ireland.

I should not have mentioned these things so particularly, had I not feared that I might rob God of the glory due to Him for helping me thus far. I am at writing this in the year 1749, being thirty-five years of age, twenty-one of which I spent in vanity, but for the last fourteen I have been called by our Lord, and followed the Lamb of God.

My good Lord, as I have already said, gave me (without premeditation) the necessary light, utterance and bodily strength instantaneously, whenever I was to discourse. He enabled me for seven years to do this, mostly out of doors in all weathers, every day (very few excepted), generally three or four times, and frequently five times; to ride from eight to twenty Welsh miles (twenty of which are equal to thirty English miles) over hills and dangerous places, through floods, ice and snow, and He preserved me, that I never received any material hurt, though I often fell from my horse.

I do not write this as a rule for others to copy after, but as a relation of simple truth concerning what the Lord has done in carrying me on hitherto; and therefore I leave it to Him to use what I write as He shall please.

At this time I was continually grieved by the thick darkness and spiritual ignorance of many church people in the mystery of our Saviour; and by the selfishness and carnality of others who were favoured with great views of His humanity and glory, and the impatience of these different spirits with each other. Seeing all this, my spirit often longed to finish my work and to quit the troublesome stage of this life, to be with my dear Saviour in the land of peace.

Towards the end of the year 1749 I went to London, and in January 1750 I parted with my friends and brethren there, imploring them to attend to the Lord only, and to preach His Godhead and death with power to the hearts of the hearers, as the only true Foundation to build upon.

On my coming down to Wales, I saw and felt more than ever of the infinity of our Saviour in His birth, life and sufferings. The infinity of His Law and Gospel; and the infinity of His pardoning grace and smiles -- wanting nothing indeed but Him. I loved Him in all His works, but more especially in all the steps of His wonderful humiliation. I had such a view and sense that I should soon be, to all eternity, with Him, that though I longed for the happy time, yet I saw a thousand years as nothing to wait for such bliss.

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At this time I felt more of the difficulty of the work I was engaged in, of dealing with souls aright, and of bringing them to the knowledge of the true God in Christ, and to direct them only to that great Shepherd of souls. I obtained also a knowledge of the necessity of seeing and knowing the state of all I discoursed with, and of whom I had the care. I also gave to each what was proper and suitable for their good, according to the state they were in. There were babes, little children, young men, fathers, and perhaps carnal men in the house of God, who were not as yet begotten to a living faith.

Babes should be properly nourished, as redeemed with most precious Blood, for they are exceedingly dear on that and many other considerations to the Saviour. Little children also should be properly instructed, disciplined, nursed, that they might grow up according to the Father's purpose. Young men in Christ should have all regard shown unto them, as being due to their situation (and not too much). The fathers in Israel are called to be rulers and pillars in their house, to have their just place, authority and esteem. This helped much to make me realise the great responsibility of my work, and made my spirit to cry, "Who is sufficient for these things?"

Thus also was shown more clearly to me the greatness and difficulty of the work, especially the spiritual work of the ministry and faith. I came to see how by something in nature (appearing like faith, love and humility), souls are deceived and think themselves changed and born again, and that they accept the Gospel -- when they are really nothing else but what our Saviour termed the whited walls and painted sepulchres. Their nature was only outwardly changed, enlightened and influenced. Yet they were not without some influence of the Spirit of God, so that there was some sensation of joy and sorrow which such persons were not accustomed to. They take this to be a Gospel faith, and real change, but it proves at last nothing but a change in the flesh and a house built on sand -- whilst self-love and the spirit of the world lies deep under all. The strong man armed was never cast out, for he still, though hidden, keeps his seat in the heart where God should be.

Thus the spirit of such was never awakened by God's voice, neither through the Law nor the Gospel. Yet he thinks perhaps that he has experienced the real power of both, though his heart was never convinced spiritually of unbelief, although the understanding has been enlightened to receive some new notions. Nor has he been convinced of the evil of spiritual and secret sins, of his own total fall by nature, and his ignorance of the Saviour and His Blood. Such superficial people who profess to be Christians should tremble lest when trials come, notwithstanding all their profession and supposed faith in the Saviour, they may join in that blasphemous cry of the Jews, "This Man shall not reign over us," or, "How can this Man give us His flesh to eat?"

I was brought more and more to see the deceitfulness that is in man; to see how nature may appear like Grace, being turned from delighting itself in the way of the world, to run in a religious channel. They now delight themselves in hearing sermons and singing hymns, especially in having the passions enflamed, but they are never considering whether they are truly rooted and grounded in Christ; but only seeming to be strengthening, establishing and building each other up in the faith, and imagining that they are thus growing in Grace. But it is evident that the spirit of their minds has stayed behind in the world. They have neither power nor authority over the spirit of the world, nor retain that distance from it which once they perhaps sought; and yet they show the same appearance of faith, love and zeal as formerly.

Now seeing things in this light, a necessity was laid upon me to lift up my voice like a trumpet to all who claimed to be Christians, to examine their profession and to make a close search to see in what foundation their religion and faith was seated: whether in the outward man, called the flesh or nature, or whether it had indeed penetrated to the inward man, called the heart or spirit.

I saw clearly that there is such a thing as knowing Christ after the flesh, by a kind of prophetical knowledge and views of Him at a distance, such as Balaam had, and from those views to have a certain confidence in Him, and a kind of love for Him, and seemingly great joy and happiness, as the seed on the stony ground.

Yet the heart will be self-righteous and worldly amidst all this; and the spirit carnal, asleep, unawakened and in bondage to the god of this world. Such a person will never be convinced of the sin of nature, or the evil of unbelief. They will not see the difficulty of believing in the Saviour while a sinner, and of obeying the call given to such in the Gospel. They look back to something that they had done or felt at different times, and from hence they draw the conclusion that they are in the Covenant and belong to God, and shall therefore be saved.

I saw plainly that this was the religion of most who called themselves Christians. They form a faith for themselves without coming as lost damned sinners to the Cross, and looking to Him as the Israelites looked to the Brazen Serpent; without fleeing to Christ as the man fled from the avenger of blood into the City of Refuge. No wonder then when this confidence is settled that the spiritual life, the daily combat, the victory of faith, the feeding on the Flesh and Blood of God our Saviour, the mysteries of His Person as God and Man, opened in all His obedience and humiliation, and the infinite depth of His glorious riches, and the wonders of His Blood and wounds, with the infinite torments which He endured -- no wonder, I say, that these mysteries remain a secret to them, and afford no life or entertainment to them, but become matters of speculation and controversy, if not ridicule, instead of being their life, delight and daily food.

The more my spirit was raised to the Lord to see the value of His precious Blood, the more necessity I saw of having that Fountain daily to wash me, and all I did. I also saw the necessity to testify to everyone of His Fountain which alone cleanses from all sin, and by which alone we overcome. By seeing and feeling this in my own soul, I had cause to fear and suspect the religion of many, whom I hoped formerly were come to Mount Sion and to the Blood of sprinkling.

The strong man armed had not been cast out, but had only gone out for a time, and the natural enmity of the first Adam and the spirit of the old Covenant (which is opposite to the new Way of Salvation by the Blood and death of a Saviour) had not been cast out and mortified. But after all that God had done for them, they were no more than outward-court worshippers. Though many cried, "We are Abraham's children, God's people, a chosen generation, called to the Lord," such nomination of ourselves is not sufficient when the Lord denies us as not being born of Him.

Then I was led often to show what was the work and action of Abraham's faith. Being dead to his possessions and country, Abraham readily obeyed the call and went out to wander in a strange land among heathens, not knowing whither he went. He denied himself and forsook his own reason, by believing what appeared impossible, that he should have a son from a barren womb. And again, by offering up that same Isaac who was the delight of his heart and desire of his eyes on a mere command, without having any satisfaction given to the carnal enquiries of his reason.

The same noble works and actions our Saviour showed to the Jews when He was on earth, and is now upon record for all His spiritual seed likewise. Also I often spoke of the Israelites, how many thousands of them died in the wilderness for that damnable sin of unbelief, not taking God on His word and not venturing on the promise in the face of all difficulties from giants, walled towns and fenced cities.

O how unbelieving the Israelites were, notwithstanding all the wonderful works which He had done for them in Egypt, at the Red Sea, and in feeding them with manna so many years in the wilderness, and showing His love and favour to them above all the nations on the earth. He had so often pardoned them by the entreaties of Moses, and yet the nations would blaspheme so that He could not after all bring them to Canaan as He intended. But their stubborn unbelief made Him at last to swear in His wrath that they should never enter into His rest.

These, and the like considerations, made me shed many tears over those who claimed to belong to Christ, lest it should be their case also. "All these things happened unto them for examples; and they are written for our admonition" (1 Corinthians 10:11). Therefore it serves as a warning to all, lest spiritually the same judgment should still overtake us after all His kind dealing towards us. We should tremble lest our spirits stay behind in the world and come not to the Saviour continually, but go on building on His past favours instead of obeying His present call to go on from conquering to conquer, to take possession of the Land of Promise, of the dear Saviour and His glorious Kingdom, in spite of all oppositions that rise and set themselves against us, both from our corrupt nature and others.

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I watched this self and carnal spirit getting ground and growing under the seemingly glorious work that was going on, and those who called themselves Christians being willing to content themselves with false peace -- overlooking their sins, being not truly brought by the Holy Spirit daily under a deep sense of them to the Cross of Christ, to see them there punished, forgiven and done away by His Blood. Superficial light and knowledge can never penetrate to this spiritual discovery of our sins thus laid upon God our Saviour. Neither can it feed and derive all its life and comfort from His sufferings and death. I could see so many resting short of this discovery, in what they received from the Lord, and not relying by faith on Christ and what He has done and suffered for us.

I had reason to fear that there were but few born again -- for where a new man is formed, he must have the Bread of Life, Christ Himself. He cannot be satisfied with hearing of Him; he must have Him, and have Him constantly, to speak with, and to delight in Him. He must have His Body and Blood daily for his meat and drink. In a word, his Redeemer must be his all, upon whom he rests. And those who are rightly and truly awakened, at first believe what the Lord says of the miserable state of man by nature, yet without being made a new man in Christ Jesus. But they cannot rest anywhere without coming to Jesus and knowing Him for themselves, that He is their Saviour, and that He has suffered for them. This becomes their continual meat and drink on which they feed; and thus they come up out of the wilderness, leaning on their Beloved.

Perceiving thus that the work was not effectively carried on, I could not but sound the alarm, and cry aloud, "O Watchmen! O Watchmen! What of the night!" I had authority through the Spirit of God to declare against the "tares" growing in the Lord's garden, at the same time calling sinners to the great Atonement in the Blood of Christ. I showed also how the sin of secretly despising it, or thinking of it carnally as common blood, is the greatest of all sins. God will not deal with us sinners except through Christ's Blood. The Jews dared not to come before Him without the blood of the sacrifice offered in the Temple. How can we then presume to deal with God without the Blood of Christ?

So it is not only sometimes that Satan and our evil nature do set upon us to tempt and defile us, but they do it continually (if we rightly feel and know what passes). So we are continually under an absolute necessity of having Christ's Blood to wash and cleanse us from our sins, and His Spirit to renew our souls. O the infinite and wonderful efficacy of Christ's most precious Blood! How it fills the whole creation, and has infinity in it, because it is the Blood of God, by which He Redeemed His Church, and cleanses His people from all their sins.

The Lord Himself sent me round the country and gave me a desire to please Him only, and helped me to speak plain truths. So at this time a necessity was laid upon me to preach that great truth which He revealed to my own soul. This is the wonderful condescension and mystery of God in our nature, reconciling the world to Himself and not imputing their sins; that He was God in the womb of Mary when He assumed our nature, laying in Himself the foundation of our Salvation and deliverance -- and was the Supreme God in His poor birth and swaddling clothes. In all His sufferings He was the great I AM, the ALPHA and OMEGA, and there is none other God but Him! There are Three Persons, but one God; and those that worship another god, besides Him, do worship an idol -- for in Him dwelleth all the fullness of the Godhead bodily. Then when the time came to make an Atonement for our sins, when He, the great Sacrifice, was raised on the Altar of the Cross, all nature, earth, hell, was in an uproar and confusion. The sun was darkened, the earth trembled, the dead awoke and were raised, that all might enquire, "What is the cause and meaning of all this?"

'Tis the MIGHTY MAKER dies!"

(Dr. Watts)

I went on thus some years through Wales, bearing my testimony to these truths in the face of false Christians and those who denied the Divinity of Christ, who all railed against me. Although it proved to be an occasion of much murmuring, contention and division, yet I am in a lively hope that the Lord will bless His own truths, in His proper time. It may be when I am gone. I was then in great expectation that it would be my last work and testimony, but at His feet I leave myself, together with my work and labour. To Him I commit myself also, for the remainder of my life, knowing that He is able for the time to come to carry me through every trial, work or suffering, as He has done hitherto. Through His unchangeable grace, to the chief of sinners, I gain the victory.

Though I know but little of Christ the Lord, yet I am a living witness of His free grace, and of what it says of Him in the Scripture. Therefore I could not refrain from inviting all to submit to His righteousness and government of Grace, and to wait at His gate, that they might be made happy for ever in Him, the only sure rest and shelter for poor penitent sinners. He is the only City of Refuge, the only Friend for distressed souls to flee to, and the only One who will never leave them, and will suit all their need, and can supply all their wants, and will at last present them spotless to the Father.

Now I cannot but ascribe all the glory to Him who has loved, pitied and forgiven me, the chief of sinners indeed, in my own eyes; who still washes and heals me by His precious Blood, and doth overrule and manage even my very evils to turn them for my good. To Him therefore who is worthy with the Father and Holy Spirit, be as is most due, all honour and glory, by all His Church in time and eternity, Amen, and Amen.

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(This section has been collected by his successors, who were eyewitnesses of Howell Harris's proceedings unto his departing into Glory: the matter of which is chiefly taken from his diary.)

After seventeen years of hard labour in the Lord's work through Wales, and great part of England, Howell Harris settled at Trevecka. Here he spent the greatest part of his time in his own house, though he made several journeys from thence in the following years. A few of those who received a blessing through his ministry in former years, began to gather to him there. As he preached to them, two or three times a day, they earnestly desired to stay there with him.

The ardent desire of these sincere people he could not withstand, and thus in April 1752 he laid a foundation of the present building at Trevecka. Though he had at that time neither friends nor money, he set about it purely in faith, relying on the Lord and His promises. Having an impression in his mind for some years past that he should build a house for God, he set about it in full persuasion that the same God who had sent him at first in an uncommon manner to awaken the country, also now laid this undertaking upon him. He himself writes thus concerning it:

"I was impelled to build, by the same Spirit which sent me about to preach, and at a time when I was far from being provided with money or friends. The latter had deserted me, and instead of the former, I had demands upon me, and about 40 workmen to pay and maintain. And yet I made no means to get even one shilling, but a humble pleading of and confiding on the promise on which I trust my all, for both for temporal and spiritual things."

But soon after he began to build, some people came to offer their work and help to him, that they might have a more convenient opportunity to be under his care, and profit from his ministry daily. Thus the family began to be gathered together this year. Mr. Harris had at this time a severe fit of sickness, but yet though very weak he would preach to the people till he was seemingly ready to die from fatigue, being not able to move himself from the chair he used to sit in and speak from. We were obliged to carry him in it into his room. At other times, when he recovered a little, he would call the family to his bedroom and would speak to them from his bed for a long while, with the Divine blessing attending it to their souls. He continued some months in this sickness, expecting to go home to his dear Lord and Saviour. As he himself expresses it, "I was all this time in continual hopes of going home to my dear Saviour, and expecting it with earnest desire." Meanwhile he continued to discourse daily to the people, as one already in sight of heaven.

In the year 1753, part of the building being finished, a great number of people flocked to him from all parts. Many of them were under conviction to hear the word. Others came partly from curiosity, the report of Mr. Harris's preaching daily at Trevecka having spread throughout all Wales. Satan also began to rage, and set the whole country as it were in an uproar, inventing all manner of lies that originated in their various ideas with the aim of influencing the multitude crowding to that place.

However, the people continued to come there from all parts of Wales, some staying for a time, others returning home because their present circumstances did not admit of their staying at present, and others complaining. Some said that the food was too plain, others that the preaching and discipline were too hard, and that Mr. Harris was an intolerable reprover. Yet for all this, many settled there this year, especially single persons, both men and women, giving themselves to the Lord and His work, because they believed it was a part of the Lord's work, and suited to the rules laid down in the Bible.

At the end of this year, and the beginning of the year 1754, there was a settled community at Trevecka of about a hundred persons, besides those coming and going. Mr. Harris took the sole care of their spiritual and temporal concerns, having nothing outwardly adequate to provide for such a family, nor any manufactory set up, but only a couple of small rented farms, and a little quantity of wool bought for the women to spin, to get their maintenance by.

It is a difficult thing to imagine what straits Mr. Harris went through at this time concerning the outward care of the people, besides the care of their souls. He was preaching publicly and exhorting privately daily; watching many nights to pray and wrestle with the Lord, and as soon as the family arose in the morning, preaching again, exhorting them for hours together, without having had any rest in bed, but yet with fresh power and spirit from the Lord -- of this we were living eyewitnesses.

As to outward matters, the Lord has been with him in a surprising manner. Frequently, when a call for payment came to him, he had no prospect in the world how to discharge the debt, but applied to the Lord in prayer, pleading His promise that He did not bear these burdens for Himself but for him, and therefore relied upon Him, that He would certainly help and carry him through. And very often the Lord answered him in an unexpected manner by sending some person or other with as much money as he wanted, either as an acknowledgement for the benefit received from this work, or as a loan.

Thus the Lord never forsook him. As he writes:

"Being often in straits concerning temporal things, wanting £20 or £50 or even £100, and having nowhere to turn to for assistance but to the promise; the Lord not relieving till the last pinch, and even then appearing from a quarter that none could ever imagine; some bringing, and some sending me £10 or £20 and even £100, though living at the distance of 70 or 80 miles, being compelled so to do only by the word sounding in their conscience night and day, and no man in the world knowing or imagining anything of it. Thus the Lord appeared for me many times. This seems strange to many, and well it may, yet it is real truth."

In the year 1755 several families came to Trevecka, especially from North Wales. Some came to live in the family and others to farms in the neighbourhood, that they might have a more convenient opportunity of attending Mr. Harris's preaching. Many of them had substance. Others were poor, and having many children, were obliged to be assisted. Mr. Harris wrote thus about that time:

"No sooner was a great part of the building finished, but soon appeared presently here and there a family, which I neither thought of, nor sent for, nor could expect. Therefore it appears evident to me that not man, but the Lord, hath done great things for us.

"Many people continued to come here, notwithstanding crosses and trials, to a place represented in the blackest manner, being drawn only by love to the truth, and by the force of the Lord's voice which they took to their hearts through my ministry. Freely they left their country and all that was dear to them, working and living hard, and allowing me to provide for them, both in their work and fare. There are now above 100 persons, old and young, that board, work and sleep in the house, amongst which are ten families. A further ten families live out in farms in the neighbourhood."

The plain truths, which they formerly heard by Howell Harris's ministry, brought those people thither from all parts of Wales; and some even from England also. And when they came to reside there, many of them testified that the word of God as preached by Mr. Harris was attended with more and more energy and benefit to their souls. They also said that they saw a necessity of being under the Lord's discipline, as well as under the preaching of the Word; especially as the Lord has said in His Word that His servants should meet in fellowship, and use other means of Grace for the benefit of His people. Every true minister of the Gospel should be both a watchman and overseer, to look after the flock (Acts 20:28), and a preacher of the Word to them (2 Timothy 4:2).

At the end of this year there were about 120 persons in the family, besides those families in the neighbourhood, that belonged to it. Mr. Harris preached publicly two or three times daily, and to the family; besides keeping private meetings with some of them, an hour every day of the week. They gave themselves thus to the Lord and to His servants by the will of God, as the Holy Spirit directs us to do in 2 Corinthians 8:5. From the beginning of this work the Lord had moved and fitted out two or three speakers as assistants to Mr. Harris, to exhort, both at home and abroad -- and by this time the Lord had raised others as helpers, both in the ministry and in the government of the family.

In the year 1756 our Saviour began to gather some fruit from His little Garden at Trevecka. Some souls departed very happily to eternity, praising and testifying to Jesus how dear and precious He was to them in their dying moments. They told that they beheld eternity bright and glorious before them, through the Blood of Christ. They blessed Him for His love and grace, and for having brought them to Trevecka where they found edification for their souls. This afforded much comfort and joy to those of us who were left here below, seeing their dear brethren and sisters depart strong in faith to their eternal home.

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This year, as the nation was engaged in war with France, Mr. Harris was in much concern lest our privileges and liberties should be taken away from us; especially the liberty of the Gospel, which should the Papists succeed, we should be robbed of. He laid this matter therefore before the family, especially the young men, to see if any of them had a willing mind and spirit to go to the service of our good king. He entreated them to be earnest with the Lord in prayer for His aid and defence at this critical juncture. Soon after he had proposed this matter, many of them unanimously answered that they were willing and ready. It was then settled that five young men should go to the army. They went in faith and the strength of the Lord, willing to lay down their lives for the liberty of the Gospel.

In the year 1757 many people continued to come to Trevecka, though many also went away after being there for a while. In this and the two following years, more than forty people died in the family, which in some sense was a great loss and seemingly a forerunner of some change amongst us. But the blessing which attended their departure made this loss a great gain, not only to them that died, but to the living also. We saw the Lord's grace and faithfulness to them in their last hours, enabling them to triumph over death and all their enemies. They thanked Him for bringing them to a true feeling sense of themselves as sinners, and a knowledge of Christ as their Saviour.

Of the family who died in those years there were some children from seven to twelve years old, mostly from the smallpox. Some of the children praised the Lord Jesus in a surprising manner, testifying, "that they loved Him. because He suffered and died for them." Mr. Harris also was powerfully enabled to pray with many of them in their dying moments. And we are living witnesses of this, that the Spirit of the Lord was present, comforting and removing the fear of death from them, which some of them at first sorely complained of; but they then longed to behold His face, and be for ever with Him.

About the spring of the year 1759, Howell Harris wrote thus:

"We have buried since the beginning of this work, about forty persons, and there are still about the same number in the family, and about thirty in the farms. The Word has been preached here, I trust, with power and authority, three times a day and four times every Sunday, this seven years. Surely I can say that this is the Lord's work, for He has hitherto been pleased to own it by bringing and keeping people here, and by giving me a spirit of faith to stand in the face of my own, and other's sins, and many other impossibilities.

"He has honoured us in standing by and protecting amidst many heavy storms that indeed would have defeated all natural strength and overturned all that was not built on the Rock. Here, therefore, I can claim victory and say, 'Thus far the Lord has helped me. This is the Lord's doing.' This work was founded, carried on and supported by the Lord, and that by His free grace; not by the wisdom and policy of any man, nor by the arm of flesh. Though Satan would be glad to destroy it, yet it remains standing and flourishing in spite of all difficulties from without, and from sin, division and rebellion within."

Towards the end of this year, when the nation was alarmed with an invasion intended from France, Mr. Harris showed much concern about the welfare of the kingdom in general, and our rights and privileges both public and private. About that time some of the gentlemen of the County offered him a commission in the Breconshire Militia. He then answered that he would accept the offer on condition that they would give him liberty to preach the Gospel wherever he should go. He told them further that his chief motive and concern was the danger he saw to the liberty of the Gospel, and our privileges in it being taken from us.

Having been for many years in danger of his life for preaching the Word of God in many places, he was even now willing to lay down his life, if occasion required, to defend it. But if he should serve as a soldier for King George he must have liberty to preach the Gospel of King Jesus. The Officers assented to these requests, and insisted upon his accepting the office. Howell Harris replied that he must pray to the Lord for knowledge of His mind and will, and also have the consent of his large Trevecka family.

Thus, after waiting on the Lord in prayer, he was fully persuaded in his mind that the same Spirit of God who sent him at first to preach the Word, would send him now in the like extraordinary way to defend it, and to offer his life for the truth he preached, and the liberty we enjoy in this nation. He laid the matter thus before the family, imploring the assistance of their prayers, how to act on this critical affair; and also whether any of them had an inclination to go with him for the Lord's sake, to offer their lives in defence of the Gospel. The matter was then further considered, and laid before the Lord in prayer by the whole family. All consented that Mr. Harris should go, believing it to be the will of God. Many of the men were willing to go with him, and to lay down their lives for the protection of the precious Word of God, if occasion required. The rest of the family willingly released both him and the men that intended to accompany him.

Howell Harris, having settled all at Trevecka, delivered the affairs of the family into the hands of Trustees. He went intending to serve the Lord and his king even unto death, together with twenty-four men of the family. Twelve of them went as volunteers on Mr. Harris's own cost, arms, clothing and maintenance, for three years. They enlisted with the Breconshire Militia in the beginning of the year 1760. Mr. Harris received an Ensign's commission at his entrance into the Battalion, but afterwards was made a Captain. Before we proceed, we must insert a few lines that he himself wrote to the family at this time on the value of the Word of God, the Bible:

"I am resolutely and coolly determined to go freely and conscientiously, and die in the field of battle in defence of the precious Word of God, the Bible and the true faith. Who can sufficiently set forth the value of a Book wherein God speaks? He speaks to all ranks, degrees, ages and languages of men. Who can set it forth in its own real and majestic glory? O the Infinite and unfathomable depth of glory and Divine wisdom and love in it! The glory of the sun is nothing in comparison to the glory of this valuable treasure! It is indeed the mouth, the image of God Himself, drawn by Himself; a Book which He has made the standard, touchstone and rule, to try even His own work by.

"By this Book all spirits, doctrine, ministry and Church discipline, all faith, love, truth and obedience are proved. A Book that God has referred all men to, from the monarch to the peasant. The universal teacher of all men. Here is the seed whence the Church and her faith are begotten, and herein they are purified and nursed. Here is the believer's armoury, herein is the true ineffable Light of the World. Herein the unerring Father and teacher of all speaks both to young and old, high and low, rich and poor. Here man's pride is humbled, his wounds searched, the Saviour revealed, and declared to be made ours!

"If life and its various comforts and necessaries are vastly dear, how much more should this treasure be? Without it there is no faith, no salvation. By this we know what could not be known by any other way or means, and that with the greatest certainty, both of God and of ourselves, of present and future existence. Without this, all is uncertain and thick darkness. This alone speaks infallibly, and calls for implicit faith. O that its glory may fill this Nation.

"Happy the man that shall be counted worthy to show forth this universal teacher, in its own uncovered Majesty. It would be an unspeakable service both to God and man, and would defeat all hell, and cut its way through all difficulties. As the Infinity and Majesty of God its Author will gradually be displayed to our hearts, so will this. His manner of speaking to us, make Himself and His mind of Grace known to us. By this means, working in us, both to will and to do of His good pleasure (Philippians 2:13), and establishing His Kingdom among us, and in us, He will bring Glory to Himself by our salvation. The Word will perpetually come more intelligible and precious to us. Without it we are without hope, without knowledge of our misery or recovery.

"O the unutterable Treasure! No wonder so many thousands triumphed in dying for the precious Bible. Now I go freely, without compulsion, to show the regard I have for the privileges we enjoy under our best of kings. Our unutterable privileges, especially the precious Gospel of our Saviour contained in the whole Book of God, is openly read throughout the kingdom. Every person is able to exhort his neighbour without molestation.

"I commit my Family to the Lord, and am going with a part of it (who freely offered their lives on this occasion) to defend our Nation and privileges; and to show publicly that we are dead to all things here below. We can part with all for the sake of our dear Lord and Saviour, even with life itself, for we seek a City above, (Hebrews 12:22)."

Thus Howell Harris left at Trevecka more than 120 people in the family, who all willingly committed him and the men to the Lord. Some wives willingly resigned their dear husbands, resolving to cleave to the Lord by giving themselves wholly to Him, believing that He would take care of them. And indeed, we have experienced that He has been with us as a tender Father, owning us before the world as His people. The Lord Jesus is our Saviour and God; and not Mr. Harris, as people used to say.

Notwithstanding many trials from within and without, the Lord was with us and kept us together. The preaching and the meetings were kept daily as before, and the outward affairs went on regularly the same. We were visited by two severe fits of sickness when Mr. Harris was abroad, and in one of them no less than fifty lay sick at the same time, and even some of those that were over the care of the family. It happened during the time of Harvest, yet the Lord brought us through, even at this critical season, that everything turned out well. Indeed the sick and the healthy had a happy time, the presence of the Son of God being amongst us. He that appeared in the fiery furnace with the three, comforted our sick ones in a particular manner, and made even this bitter cup sweet to the whole family.

But to return, the first rout which Mr. Harris and the militia had was in the spring of the year 1760 at Yarmouth, a seaport town in Norfolk. It pleased the Lord, as soon as they arrived at Yarmouth, to open a door for him to preach there, and other places, every evening to many hearers who attended to the Word, and a blessing rested upon some souls there.

The following winter they returned from hence to Brecon by another road, which gave Howell Harris an opportunity to preach in other towns. When they reached Brecon, their headquarters for that winter, he had an opportunity to be for a part of his time at Trevecka with his family. The following summer, 1761, they went to the west of England so that he had a new area for preaching the Gospel. Then they settled for a while at Bideford and Torrington, where he met with a kind reception and many hearers. In the summer of 1762 he went to several other towns in the west, including Barnstable and Plymouth. There he continued to preach the Gospel at every opportunity.

After being thus three years in the Militia, the war was over and a Treaty of Peace concluded. Howell Harris and his little company returned to Trevecka after showing his faith and love to the Lord Jesus, and also his love and loyalty to his king and country. He spent the remainder of his life at Trevecka with his large family, except for some occasions now and then when he went to preach in England and Wales.

In the year 1764 he agreed with the vicar to have a monthly Sacrament at our parish church. This had previously only been administered four times a year. On Sunday February 5th 1764 we received the first monthly Sacrament. Howell Harris wrote thus:

"This was a great day indeed, the first time we had the communion according to our wish and request; and this privilege has been given us in answer to our prayer, and is a further open proof of our Saviour's love to us. We were happy in the morning in exhorting, and went happily together to the public service, and I trust in one spirit, to the Lord's Table."

On the 19th of this month, our people sat for the first time in the gallery of the parish church to sing, and continue to do so every Sunday since. Mr. Harris made the following observation on this day:

"While the people were singing today at church, such a glory fell on me, and I thought filled the church, as words cannot express. We are happy in this, and in many other respects, having our public and private meetings daily, and on Sundays before going to church, and when we return, without any molestation, at Trevecka."

As the late revival in religion began in the established church, we think it not necessary or prudent to separate ourselves from it. Indeed, it is our duty to abide in it and go to our parish church every Sunday, to join in the prayers, to hear the reading of God's Word, and to use the Ordinances. We find that our Saviour meets us there by making these a blessing to our souls.

In the years 1767 and 1768, Howell Harris was very glad to hear of Lady Huntingdon's plan for building a college at Lower Trevecka. He began to repair the old building there, and afterward rented it to her Ladyship for her college. When it was finished, as an institution fixed for training up young men to the Ministry, Mr. Harris used to go there every day, for a long while, to exhort and discourse with the young students, trusting it would continue a Spiritual Seminary of Learning, like the School of the Prophets, (2 Kings 6:1-2).

In the year 1770 he buried his dear wife Anne. She departed very happy in the Lord, and was an instrument of edification to all about her. After her death, he decayed more and more in his body, and in his last year had now and then very severe fits of the stone, which at last carried him off. Yet for the last weeks of his life he would still come down to preach and exhort the family with much power. He insisted on there being a true and thorough change in the inward man. He spoke much against superficial religion, and against receiving the truths of God in the flesh without feeling any true effect on the heart, so as to change the spirit and the whole man. We need to become one spirit with Christ, experiencing the power of His resurrection, and the benefits of His death.

Chapter 12 (last chapter)

(These last reflections were written by Howell Harris himself, in his last sickness.)

I find the Saviour's will is my heaven, be it what it may. But I have, I think from Him, insatiable cries to go home, out of this body, to my dear Father, Saviour and Comforter. O how I loved every word that came from the dear Saviour, and all His dear people that feed on Him, and receive every good thing from Him. I feel my spirit feeds on His words, and I could wash the feet of His servants.

My spirit adores Him for giving me leave to hope for that blessed time when I come into His presence. Much more, for giving me room to hope that my work is done; and that I am at the door, and that I, a poor sinner, should lay hold of His righteousness and wisdom and strength, for I have nothing of my own. My spirit is like one at the door, waiting to be called in. I could have no access to ask for anything, but that I may go home, and that He would make haste and make no long tarrying.

I love all that come and feed on His Flesh and Blood. I feel that He, and not anything here, is my rest and happiness. I love eternity, because He is there. I speak with, and cry to Him. O the thickness of this flesh which hides Him from me. It is indeed lawful to be weary of it, for it is a thick veil of darkness; and I feel clearly it is this that makes me weary of everything here, and longing to go home to my dear Saviour. O Thou who didst bleed to death, and who art alive, come and take me home. As for the passage, I have committed that to Thee to take care of me. I am Thine here and for ever. I am one of Thy redeemed, the fruit of Thy blood and sweat, and Thy will is my heaven.

I feel my spirit continually, as it were, from home. I am one of the Lamb's company, and belong to Him, and can't be long from Him. My spirit cries, "Lord, Thou canst not be God and not pity and love me, because Thou hast given me what Thou hast promised in pity to a poor, broken, penitent and humbled spirit; and also faith to lay hold of Thy Righteousness and Blood. O Lord, Thou canst not leave me long here. Thou must pity and call me home, for I am a stranger here."

I love the glorified spirits, and long to be among them, because they behold His glory. They have no guile nor deceit, nor self, nor strange gods, nor any other corruption, nor wisdom or righteousness of their own, but only in the Lamb.

I find myself growing very weak today. I am in much pain, and feel my spirit crying, "O my dear Father, art Thou coming to strike the last stroke?" When our Saviour shall come and raise my spirit from nature and death, and everything here below to His own Spirit, then I shall know what it is to be cleansed and purified. I feel that my spirit goes to God, not as His creature but as His child, through the purchase of His Blood.

My dear Saviour did shine on me sweetly this afternoon. "O let me eat no more the bread that perishes. Be Thou to me, from henceforth, my bread and food for ever. Be Thou to me my Sun. O hear the cries of Thy poor creature. Thy Blood has done the work; take me from this body of clay, for I am here in prison. O take me there, where Thou bestowest Thy Glory, and indulge a poor creature, sick and longing to come home. I adore Thee, for all the graces bestowed on all the spirits round the throne, and especially on my own poor spirit. And as for my concerns and cares, I have none but Thine, and Thou must take care of them. Call me hence, and make no long tarrying."

I cried again, "If I am not willing to be clothed with Thy righteousness, then do not hear me. And if Thy Blood does not overbalance all my sins, then do not hear me. And if my work is not done, and if it is not Thy will that I should come home, do not hear me, for I am as nothing before Thee."

I then cried and prayed for the whole race of mankind, loving them all, but more especially for this little family which He has given me, entreating Him that He would be in the midst of them, and reveal Himself unto them as crucified, and banish every spirit from them but His own.

I said, "I have no name worthy of preserving to posterity, but only as far as it is connected with Thine, and that, I leave to Thee. I love this body because Thou hast made it, and hast united it to Thyself. I give it to Thee, to be embalmed in the earth, where Thine was laid. I call upon Thee as a child does upon his dear father. I weep over all the sin of the world, especially over the sin where Thy Blood and sufferings are despised."

I feel my spirit leaving all places and men here below, and going to my Father; and to my native country, home; yea, my own home. And though I am here below, in His Kingdom, yet whilst I wait to be called home, my longings and cries are insatiable indeed. And when the Lord of Glory tells me that I shall soon go to Him, my spirit does so burn with love for that dear Saviour, that I flee to Him.

"I can't stay here, and though I am but a bit of dust and nothing before Thee, yet, O Father, may I without offending Thee, ask this one special favour. O Saviour, give me leave to ask without offending, that my time may be shortened. O my dear Lord, I must love Thee, and weep at Thy feet, and wrestle with Thee, till Thou appearest unto me. This is Thy lower house, and Thou my life, and my all here below. That is Thy upper house, and Thou art gone before me, and therefore I must come. Thou canst not leave me long. Thou art both here, and there also, my heaven."

I must have the Saviour, for He is my all. All that others have, in the world, in religion and in themselves, I have in Thee. Pleasures, riches, safety, honour, life, righteousness, holiness, wisdom, bliss, joy and happiness; and by the same rule that each of these is dear to others, He must be dear to me. And as a child longs for his father; a traveller for the end of his journey; a workman, to finish his work; a prisoner for his liberty; an heir for the full possession of his estate; so, in all these respects I can't help longing to go home.

My spirit rejoices within me, for He that made me will call me hence. And it is indeed weary of all things here, having all kind of answers and confirmations from the Holy Spirit relating to my approaching departure. "Lord, this is Thy community, and not mine. I built it for Thee, and not for myself; and the family I have in it is Thine. For Thee I nurse them; and the papers which I leave behind me are written for Thee, and not for my use."

Seeing all in this light, I feel it is easy to part with all. My spirit therefore cries continually, "O come, Lord, come quickly." I feel my spirit, among the suppliants here, before the throne. I find freedom to say, "I have done my work, I have finished my testimony, I have run my race." What more remains for me to do, but to come home to my own dear God, Father, Friend, and best relation? "All Thy friends are my friends; and all Thy enemies are mine. O come, Lord Jesus, come quickly, and take me home to rest." I feel my spirit rejoicing and singing:

"My Lord is gone, and I must go;

I cannot stay content below."

Being now confined by his disorder to his bed, and not able to write himself, Howell Harris said, "Blessed be God, my work is done, and I know that I am going to my dear God and Father, for He hath my heart, yea my whole heart. Though the enemy is permitted to torment my body, blessed be the Lord, he is not suffered to come near my spirit."

Howell Harris very often and joyfully repeated these words, "Glory be to God, death hath no sting! Death has lost its sting!" And again, he broke out, as one full of faith and assurance, "It is clear to me that God is my Everlasting Father, and I shall go to Him soon." He over and over again expressed how exceeding dear and precious the Saviour was to him, and said, "This is following Jesus: We are come to Mount Sion, and I am on Mount Sion. I saw great glory before, in that God Man -- Jesus. But that was nothing to what I now behold in Him!"

At another time, when he awoke from a slumber through the extreme pain of his body, his spirit leaping within him, as a prisoner coming to liberty, thinking this the last stroke, he cried out, "O Jesus, here I come, here I come to Thee."

Some time afterwards he expressed his faith and longing desires to depart, saying, "I am in great pain, but all is well, all is well. He has settled all things well. O, how would it be if the sting of death had not been taken away. O that I could now go home, for my work is done here."

And as he constantly contemplated on the infinite sufferings of the Redeemer, which was always his pleasant anthem, he said, "I am in great pain, but Christ by His sufferings has taken away the sting of my sufferings. O here is victory, indeed; great is the Glory, but narrow is the way to it; O how full is the world of false faith and false hope."

At last, considering the great faithfulness of the Lord to him, be breathed out the language of his soul in these words. "O the dear Redeemer, He keeps my heart with Himself." In the greatest pain he cried out, "O this cup, blessed be God for this last cup. Jesus drank it all for me. I shall be soon with God who died for me, to save me for all eternity." And thus, he went home to rest, in the Lord, on July 21, 1773, in the 60th year of his age.

Many more divine sayings came from Howell Harris just before he departed, which were not taken down. But in all, he testified his great love to precious souls, and the concern he had about them.

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# Welcome to Coleg Trefeca

**Coleg Trefeca is the lay training, conference centre and retreat house of the Presbyterian Church of Wales.**

Located in the beautiful Brecon Beacons National Park, Trefeca is an historic and sacred place. Trefeca was the home of Howell Harris (1714-1773), influential leader of the Methodist Revival in Wales and contemporary of other great Methodists such as Daniel Rowland, William Williams Pantycelyn, George Whitefield, and John and Charles Wesley.

Today, many people from various Christian traditions come to Trefeca for training, conferences, spiritual renewal and retreat. At Trefeca, the emphasis is on hospitality and Christian welcome and for many people. Trefeca is a little bit of heaven with its beautiful surroundings, timeless quality, sense of peace and true family atmosphere, where people of many traditions can gather together to witness and to worship. The sense of family is still strong and the long tradition of Christian learning continues.

### The Howell Harris Museum

The museum shows aspects of the life of Howell Harris, whose 1735 conversion led to the founding of Welsh Methodism; also of the community, Teulu Trefeca, which he established here in 1752.

The displays include a room as it might have been in Harris's time, an outdoor preaching scene and panels telling his story. A collection of 32 religious books, most of which were printed by the Trevecka Press in the late eighteenth century, are displayed in rotation in the museum, along with artefacts and furniture from Harris's period at the College, many of which have been recently restored.

The Presbyterian Church of Wales refurbished the museum in 2000. It is located within the main building at Coleg Trefeca, on the site of Harris's birthplace.

The museum is within a busy residential training and conference centre and access to the museum is through a frequently used room. It is therefore advisable to telephone before paying a visit. We cannot cater for coach parties without prior arrangement. There is no charge for entry to the museum.

Teulu Trefeca

'Teulu Trefeca' (meaning 'Trefeca Family') was the name given by Howell Harris to the remarkable Christian community he founded here in 1752. Inspired by the Moravians, the Teulu shared a daily pattern of work, meals and worship. They even pooled their wealth for the benefit of the community, such was their passion for living the gospel.

At its height, more than 120 men, women and children lived at Trefeca. They were virtually self-sufficient, practising over 70 different trades and crafts. They included clock-makers, joiners, carpenters, masons, labourers and plasterers.

The furniture and clocks in the museum were made by members of the Teulu, and the Grade 2 Listed building is itself a testimony to their craftsmanship. After the death of Howell Harris in 1773, the Teulu continued but gradually began to decline without Harris' remarkable organization and drive. By 1838, only 3 women remained.

The 'Teulu Trefeca' today is a network of individuals who support Coleg Trefeca in its mission of Lay Training and Christian discipleship by:

● Praying for staff, volunteers and the work of the Centre, and for all Teulu members.

● Promoting the Centre and the courses that are held here.

● Offering practical skills and help where possible.

Members use the Teulu Trefeca Daily Devotions in their private prayers. They receive a newsletter and gather at Trefeca for an annual conference, a social day during the year and at other times as they are able.

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Publisher's note

This link is to Google Maps, and at this scale it is currently possible to walk the Google Pegman around the roads in the area in both Map and Satellite view. If this link is broken, either copy and paste it into your browser or enter Coleg Trefeca in Google Maps:

 https://www.google.co.uk/maps/place/Coleg+Trefeca/@51.9807921,-3.2517643,16z/data=!4m2!3m1!1s0x486fd4abb8f05edd:0x6ee08d4292f7e98f

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## Christian Non-fiction

Four short books of help in the Christian life:

_So, What Is a Christian?_ An introduction to a personal faith. Paperback ISBN: 978-0-9927642-2-7, eBook ISBN: 978-0-9933941-2-6

_Starting Out_ \-- help for new Christians of all ages. Paperback ISBN 978-1-4839-622-0-7, eBook ISBN: 978-0-9933941-0-2

_Help!_ \-- Explores some problems we can encounter with our faith. Paperback ISBN 978-0-9927642-2-7, eBook ISBN: 978-0-9933941-1-9

_Running Through the Bible_ _\--_ a simple understanding of what's in the Bible _\--_ Paperback ISBN: 978-0-9927642-6-5, eBook ISBN: 978-0-9933941-3-3

### Be Still

Bible Words of Peace and Comfort

There may come a time in our lives when we want to concentrate on God's many promises of peace and comfort. The Bible readings in this book are for people who need to know what it means to be held securely in the Lord's loving arms.

Rather than selecting single verses here and there, each reading in this book is a run of several verses. This gives a much better picture of the whole passage in which a favourite verse may be found.

As well as being for personal use, these readings are intended for sharing with anyone in special need, to help them draw comfort from the reading and prayer for that date. Bible reading and prayer are the two most important ways of getting to know and trust Jesus Christ, our Lord and Saviour.

The reference to the verses for the day are given, for you to look up and read in your preferred Bible translation.

Paperback ISBN: 978-0-9932760-7-1

116 pages 5x7.8 inches

e-Book ISBN: 978-0-9933941-4-0

A Previously Unpublished Book

The Simplicity of the Incarnation

J Stafford Wright

Foreword by J I Packer

" _I believe in ... Jesus Christ ... born of the Virgin Mary."_ A beautiful stained glass image, or a medical reality? This is the choice facing Christians today. Can we truly believe that two thousand years ago a young woman, a virgin named Mary, gave birth to the Son of God? The answer is simple: we can.

The author says, _"In these days many Christians want some sensible assurance that their faith makes sense, and in this book I want to show that it does."_

In this uplifting book from a previously unpublished and recently discovered manuscript, J Stafford Wright investigates the reality of the incarnation, looks at the crucifixion and resurrection of Jesus, and helps the reader understand more of the Trinity and the certainty of eternal life in heaven.

This book was written shortly before the author's death in 1985. _The Simplicity of the Incarnation_ is published for the first time, unedited, from his final draft.

Paperback ISBN: 9-780-9525-9563-2

160 pages 5.25 x 8 inches

Available from bookstores and major internet sellers

eBook ISBN 13: 978-0-9932760-5-7

### Bible People Real People

An Unforgettable A-Z of Who is Who in the Bible

In a fascinating look at real people, J Stafford Wright shows his love and scholarly knowledge of the Bible as he brings the characters from its pages to life in a memorable way.

Read this book through from A to Z, like any other title

Dip in and discover who was who in personal Bible study

Check the names when preparing a talk or sermon

The good, the bad, the beautiful and the ugly – no one is spared. This is a book for everyone who wants to get to grips with the reality that is in the pages of the Bible, the Word of God.

With the names arranged in alphabetical order, the Old and New Testament characters are clearly identified so that the reader is able to explore either the Old or New Testament people on the first reading, and the other Testament on the second.

Those wanting to become more familiar with the Bible will find this is a great introduction to the people inhabiting the best selling book in the world, and those who can quote chapter and verse will find everyone suddenly becomes much more real – because these people are real. This is a book to keep handy and refer to frequently while reading the Bible.

" _For students of my generation the name Stafford Wright was associated with the spiritual giants of his generation. Scholarship and integrity were the hallmarks of his biblical teaching. He taught us the faith and inspired our discipleship of Christ. To God be the Glory."_ The Rt. Rev. James Jones, Bishop of Liverpool

_This is a lively, well-informed study of some great Bible characters._ Professor Gordon Wenham MA PhD. Tutor in Old Testament at Trinity College Bristol and Emeritus Professor of Old Testament at the University of Gloucestershire.

Paperback ISBN: 978-0-9525956-5-6

314 pages 6x9 inches

eBook ISBN: 978-0-9932760-7-1

Note: This book is not available in all eBook formats

Christians and the Supernatural

J Stafford Wright

There is an increasing interest and fascination in the paranormal today. To counteract this, it is important for Christians to have a good understanding of how God sometimes acts in mysterious ways, and be able to recognize how he can use our untapped gifts and abilities in his service. We also need to understand how the enemy can tempt us to misuse these gifts and abilities, just as Jesus was tempted in the wilderness.

In this single volume of his two previously published books on the occult and the supernatural ( _Understanding the Supernatural_ and _Our Mysterious God_ ) J Stafford Wright examines some of the mysterious events we find in the Bible and in our own lives. Far from dismissing the recorded biblical miracles as folk tales, he is convinced that they happened in the way described, and explains why we can accept them as credible.

The writer says: _When God the Holy Spirit dwells within the human spirit, he uses the mental and physical abilities which make up a total human being . . . The whole purpose of this book is to show that the Bible does make sense_.

And this warning: _The Bible, claiming to speak as the revelation of God, and knowing man's weakness for substitute religious experiences, bans those avenues into the occult that at the very least are blind alleys that obscure the way to God, and at worst are roads to destruction._

Paperback ISBN 13: 9-780-9525-9564-9

222 pages 5.25 x 8 inches

Available from bookstores and major internet sellers

eBook ISBN 13: 978-0-9932760-4-0

Howell Harris

His Own Story

Foreword by J. Stafford Wright

eBook only

ISBN: 978-0-9933941-9-5

Howell Harris was brought up to regard the Nonconformists as "a perverted and dangerously erroneous set of people." Hardly a promising start for a man who was to play a major role in the Welsh Revival. Yet in these extracts from his writings and diaries we can read the thoughts of Howell Harris before, during and after his own conversion.

We can see God breaking through the barriers separating "church and chapel", and discover Christians of different denominations preparing the country for revival. Wesley, Whitefield, Harris. These great 18th century preachers worked both independently and together to preach the Living Gospel. This book is a vivid first-hand account of the joys, hardships and struggles of one of these men -- Howell Harris (1714-1773).

From the Streets of London

to the Streets of Gold

The Life Story of

Brother Clifford Edwards

A True Story of Love

by

Brother Clifford Edwards

eBook only

ISBN: 978-0-9933941-8-8

(A printed copy is available directly from Brother Clifford)

This is the personal story of Clifford Edwards, affectionately known as Brother Clifford by his many friends. Going from fame to poverty, he was sleeping on the streets of London with the homeless for twenty years, until Jesus rescued him and gave him an amazing mission in life. Brother Clifford tells his true story here in the third person, giving the glory to Jesus.

English Hexapla

The Gospel of John

(Paperback only)

Published to coincide with the 400th anniversary of the Authorized King James Version of the Bible, this book contains the full text of Bagster's assembled work for the Gospel of John. On each page in parallel columns are the words of the six most important translations of the New Testament into English, made between 1380 and 1611. Below the English is the original Greek text after Scholz.

To enhance the reading experience, there is an introduction telling how we got our English Bibles, with significant pages from early Bibles shown at the end of the book.

Here is an opportunity to read English that once split the Church by giving ordinary people the power to discover God's word for themselves. Now you can step back in time and discover those words and spellings for yourself, as they first appeared hundreds of years ago.

Wyclif 1380, Tyndale 1534, Cranmer 1539, Geneva 1557,

Douay Rheims 1582, Authorized (KJV) 1611.

English Hexapla -- The Gospel of John

Published by White Tree Publishing

Paperback ISBN: 978-0-9525956-1-8

Size 7.5 x 9.7 inches paperback

Not available as an eBook

Roddy Goes to Church

Church Life and Church People

Derek Osborne

**No, not a children's book!** An affectionate, optimistic look at church life involving, as it happens, Roddy and his friends who live in a small town. Problems and opportunities related to change and outreach are not, of course, unique to their church!

Maybe you know Miss Prickly-Cat who pointedly sits in the same pew occupied by generations of her forebears, and perhaps know many of the characters in this look at church life today. A wordy Archdeacon comes on the scene, and Roddy is taken aback by the events following his first visit to church. Roddy's best friend Bushy-Beard says wise things, and he hears an enlightened Bishop . . .

Bishop David Pytches writes: _A unique spoof on church life. Will you recognise yourself and your church here? ... Derek Osborne's mind here is insightful, his characters graphic and typical and the style acutely comical, but there is a serious message in his madness. Buy this, read it and enjoy!_

David Pytches, Chorleywood

Paperback ISBN: 978-09927642-0-3

46 pages 5.5 x 8.5 inches paperback UK £3.95

Available from bookstores and major internet sellers

eBook coming late 2015

### Heaven Our Home

William Branks

White Tree Publishing Abridged Edition

e-Book only

ISBN: 978-0-9933941-8-8

"I go to prepare a place for you." This well-known promise from Jesus must cause us to think about the reality of heaven. Heaven is to be our home for ever. Where is heaven? What is it like? Will I recognize people there? All who are Christians must surely want to hear about the place where they are to spend eternity. In this abridged edition of William Branks classic work of 1861, we discover what the Bible has to say about heaven. There may be a few surprises, and there are certainly some challenges as we explore a subject on which there seems to be little teaching and awareness today.

I See Men As Trees, Walking

Roger and Janet Niblett

Roger and Janet Niblett were just an ordinary English couple, but then they met the Lord and their lives were totally transformed. Like the Bethlehem shepherds of old, they had a compulsion to share the same good news that Jesus Christ had come into the world to save sinners. Empowered by the Holy Spirit they proclaimed the gospel in the market place, streets, prisons, hospitals and churches with a vibrancy that only comes from being in direct touch with the Almighty and being readily available to serve Him as a channel of His grace and love. God was with them and blessed their ministry abundantly. Praise God! (Pastor Mervyn Douglas, Clevedon Family Church)

The story of Roger Niblett is an inspiration to all who serve the Lord. He was a prolific street evangelist, whose impact on the gospel scene was a wonder to behold. It was my privilege to witness his conversion, when he went forward to receive Christ at the Elim Church, Keynsham. The preacher was fiery Scottish evangelist Rev'd Alex Tee. It was not long before Roger too caught that same soul winner's fire which propelled him far and wide, winning multitudes for Christ. Together with his wife Janet, they proceeded to "Tell the World of Jesus". (Des Morton, Founder Minister of Keynsham Elim Church)

I know of no couple who have been more committed to sharing their faith from the earliest days of their journey with the Lord Jesus Christ. Along the way, at home and abroad, and with a tender heart for the marginalised, Rog and Jan have introduced multitudes to the Saviour and have inspired successive generations of believers to do the same. It was our joy and privilege to have them as part of the family at Trinity where Janet continues to serve in worship and witness. Loved by young and old alike, they will always have a special place in our hearts. (Andy Paget, Trinity Tabernacle, Bristol. Vice President, International Gospel Outreach)

eBook ISBN: 978-0-9935005-1-0

Also available as a paperback

(published by Gozo Publishing Bristol)

paperback ISBN: 978-1508674979

### Leaves from

### My Notebook

New Abridged Edition 2016

William Haslam

(1818-1905)

You may have heard of the clergyman who was converted while preaching his own sermon! Well, this is man -- William Haslam. It happened in Cornwall one Sunday in 1851. He later wrote his autobiography in two books: _From Death into Life_ and _Yet not I_. Here, in _Leaves from my Notebook_ , William Haslam writes about events and people not present in his autobiography. They make fascinating and challenging reading as we watch him sharing his faith one to one or in small groups, with dramatic results. Haslam was a man who mixed easily with titled gentry and the poorest of the poor, bringing the message of salvation in a way that people were ready to accept. This book has been lightly edited and abridged to make reading easier today by using modern punctuation and avoiding over-long sentences. William Haslam's amazing message is unchanged.

Original book first published 1889

e-Book only

ISBN: 978-0-9935005-2-7

Blunt's Scriptural Coincidences

Gospels and Acts

J. J. Blunt

New Edition

This book will confirm (or restore) your faith in the Gospel records. Clearly the Gospels were not invented. There is too much unintentional agreement between them for this to be so. Undesigned coincidences are where writers tell the same account, but from a different viewpoint. Without conspiring together to get their accounts in agreement, they include unexpected (and often unnoticed) details that corroborate their records. Not only are these unexpected coincidences found within the Gospels, but sometimes a historical writer unknowingly and unintentionally confirms the Bible record.

Within these pages you will see just how accurate were the memories of the Gospel writers -- even of the smallest details which on casual reading can seem of little importance, yet clearly point to eyewitness accounts. J.J. Blunt spent many years investigating these coincidences. And here they are, as found in the four Gospels and Acts.

eBook only

ISBN: 978-0-9935005-5-8

First published in instalments between 1833 and 1847

The edition used here published in 1876

eBook coming 2016

Fullness of Power

How to Obtain

Fullness of Power in

Christian Life and Service

R. A. Torrey

White Tree Publishing Edition

From many earnest hearts there is rising a cry for more power: more power in our personal conflict with the world, the flesh, and the devil, more power in our work for others. The Bible makes the way to obtain this longed for power very plain. There is no presumption in undertaking to tell "How to obtain Fullness of Power in Christian Life and Service"; for the Bible itself tells, and the Bible was intended to be understood. The Bible statement of the way is not mystical nor mysterious, it is very plain and straightforward. If we will only make personal trial of "The Power of the Word of God," "The Power of the Blood of Christ," "The Power of the Holy Spirit," "The Power of Prayer," "The Power of a Surrendered Life," we will then know "The Fullness of Power in Christian Life and Service." We will try to make this plain in the following chapters. (Foreword by W. A. Torrey to the original edition that is just as relevant today as it was then.)

eBook only

ISBN: 978-0-9935005-8-9

The edition used here published in 1903

eBook coming November 2016

Twenty-five Days Around the Manger

A Light Family Advent Devotional

Marty Magee

Will a purple bedroom help Marty's misgivings about Christmas?

As a kid, Martha Evans didn't like Christmas. Sixty years later, she still gets a little uneasy when this holiday on steroids rolls around. But she knows, when all the tinsel is pulled away, Whose Day it is. Now Marty Magee, she is blessed with five grandchildren who help her not take herself too seriously.

Do you know the angel named Herald? Will young Marty survive the embarrassment of her Charley Brown Christmas tree? And by the way, where's the line to see Jesus?

Twenty-Five Days Around the Manger goes from Marty's mother as a little girl awaiting her brother's arrival, to O Holy Night when our souls finally were able to feel their full worth.

This and much more. Join Marty around the manger this Advent season.

eBook ISBN: 978-0-9954549-1-0

Available now in paperback

from Rickety Bridge Publishing

ISBN: 978-1-4923248-0-5

eBook coming

Gospels and Acts

Charles Foster

White Tree Publishing Edition

In 1873 Charles Foster published his much acclaimed paraphrase of the whole Bible, adding his simple explanations of various events along the way. It had the rather misleading title of The Story of the Bible which implied it was the history of how we got our Bible. Charles Foster made a single account from the four Gospels -- Matthew, Mark, Luke and John -- combining the four Gospels relating Jesus' birth, life, death and resurrection into one continuous narrative. For this edition, White Tree Publishing has taken just the Gospels and Acts from the original, and updated thee and thou to you and your etc, bringing the work inline with modern practice. Some of the traditional wording has been left alone, but we have added speech marks and more modern punctuation, while making no changes to the Bible message. Included in this White Tree Publishing e-Book is Foster's account of the period between the Old and New Testaments, and his brief summary of the Epistles and Revelation. For readers unfamiliar with the New Testament, this book makes a valuable introduction, and it will surely help those familiar with the New Testament to gain extra knowledge and understanding as they read it. Please note that this is not a translation of the Bible, it is a paraphrase.

eBook only

e-Book ISBN: 978-0-9935005-9-6

## Christian Fiction

The Lost Clue

Mrs. O. F. Walton

Abridged Edition

A Romantic Mystery

With modern line drawings

E-book ISBN: 978-0-9932760-2-6

Living the life of a wealthy man, Kenneth Fortescue receives devastating news from his father. But he is only able to learn incomplete facts about his past, because a name has been obliterated from a very important letter. Two women are vying for Kenneth's attention -- Lady Violet, the young daughter of Lady Earlswood, and Marjorie Douglas, the daughter of a widowed parson's wife.

Written in 1905 by the much-loved author Mrs. O. F. Walton, this edition has been lightly abridged and edited to make it easier to read and understand today. This romantic mystery story gives an intriguing glimpse into the class extremes that existed in Edwardian England, with wealthy titled families on one side, and some families living in terrible poverty on the other.

Doctor Forester

Mrs. O. F. Walton

Abridged Edition

A Romantic Mystery

with modern line drawings

E-book ISBN: 978-0-9932760-0-2

Doctor Forester, a medical man only twenty-five years old, has come to a lonely part of Wales to escape from an event in his recent past that has caused him much hurt. So he has more on his mind than worrying about strange noises behind his bedroom wall in the old castle where he is staying.

A young woman who shares part of the journey with him is staying in the same village. He is deeply attracted to her, and believes that she is equally attracted to him. But he soon has every reason to think that his old school friend Jack is also courting her.

Written and taking place in the early 1900s, this romantic mystery is a mix of excitement and heartbreak. What is the secret of Hildick Castle? And can Doctor Forester rid himself of the past that now haunts his life?

Mrs. O. F. Walton was a prolific writer in the late 1800s, and this abridged edition captures all of the original writer's insight into what makes a memorable story. With occasional modern line drawings.

* * *

Ghosts of the past kept flitting through his brain. Dark shadows which he tried to chase away seemed to pursue him. Here these ghosts were to be laid; here those shadows were to be dispelled; here that closed chapter was to be buried for ever. So he fought long and hard with the phantoms of the past until the assertive clock near his bedroom door announced that it was two o'clock.

Was I Right?

Mrs. O. F. Walton

Abridged Edition

A Victorian Romance

With modern line drawings

E-book ISBN: 978-0-9932760-1-9

May Lindsay and her young stepsister Maggie are left penniless and homeless when their father the local doctor dies. Maggie can go to live with her three maiden aunts, but May at the age of nineteen is faced with a choice. Should she take the position of companion to a girl she doesn't know, who lives some distance away, or accept a proposal of marriage from the man who has been her friend since they were small children?

May Lindsay makes her decision, but it is not long before she wonders if she has done the right thing. This is a story of life in Victorian England as May, who has led a sheltered life, is pushed out into a much bigger world than she has previously known. She soon encounters titled families, and is taken on a tour of the Holy Land which occupies much of the story.

Two men seem to be a big disappointment to May Lindsay. Will her Christian faith hold strong in these troubles? Was she right in the decision she made before leaving home?

Mrs. O. F. Walton was a prolific writer in the late 1800s, and this abridged edition captures all of the original writer's insight into what makes a memorable story. With occasional modern line drawings.

In His Steps

Charles M. Sheldon

Abridged Edition

This new abridged edition of a classic story that has sold over an estimated 30 million copies, contains Charles Sheldon's original writing, with some passages sensitively abridged to allow his powerful story to come through for today's readers. Nothing in the storyline has been changed.

A homeless man staggers into a wealthy church and upsets the congregation. A week later he is dead. This causes the Rev. Henry Maxwell to issue a startling challenge to his congregation and to himself -- whatever you do in life over the next twelve months, ask yourself this question before making any decision: "What would Jesus do?"

The local newspaper editor, a novelist, a wealthy young woman who has inherited a million dollars, her friend who has been offered a professional singing career, the superintendent of the railroad workshops, a leading city merchant and others take up the challenge. But how will it all work out when things don't go as expected?

A bishop gives up his comfortable lifestyle -- and finds his life threatened in the city slums. The story is timeless. A great read, and a challenge to every Christian today.

Also available in paperback 254 pages 5.5 x 8.5 inches

Paperback ISBN 13: 978-19350791-8-7

E-book ISBN: 978-0-9927642-9-6

A Previously Unpublished Book

Locked Door Shuttered Windows

A Novel by J Stafford Wright

What is inside the fascinating house with the locked door and the shuttered windows? Satan wants an experiment. God allows it. John is caught up in the plan as Satan's human representative. The experiment? To demonstrate that there can be peace in the world if God allows Satan to run things in his own way. A group of people gather together in an idyllic village run by Satan, with no reference to God, and no belief in him.

J Stafford Wright has written this startling and gripping account of what happens when God stands back and Satan steps forward. All seems to go well for the people who volunteer to take part. And no Christians allowed!

John Longstone lost his faith when teaching at a theological college. Lost it for good -- or so he thinks. And then he meets Kathleen who never had a faith. As the holes start to appear in Satan's scheme for peace, they wonder if they should help or hinder the plans which seem to have so many benefits for humanity.

Paperback ISBN: 978-0-9927642-4-1

206 pages 5.25 x 8.0 inches

Available from bookstores and major internet sellers

eBook ISBN 13: 978-0-9932760-3-3

Silverbeach Manor

Margaret S. Haycraft

Abridged edition

Pansy is an orphan who is cared for by her aunt, Temperance Piper, who keeps the village post office and store. One day Pansy meets wealthy Mrs. Adair who offers to take her under her wing and give her a life of wealth in high society that she could never dream of, on condition Pansy never revisits her past life. When they first meet, Mrs. Adair says about Pansy's clothes, "The style is a little out of date, but it is good enough for the country. I should like to see you in a really well-made dress. It would be quite a new sensation for you, if you really belong to these wilds. I have a crimson and gold tea gown that would suit you delightfully, and make you quite a treasure for an artist." This is a story of rags to riches to ... well, to a life where nothing is straightforward. First published in 1891.

White Tree Publishing Abridged Edition

eBook only

ISBN: 978-0-9935005-4-1

eBook coming 2016

Gildas Haven

Margaret S. Haycraft

Abridged edition

For several years in the peaceful village of Meadthorpe, the church and the chapel existed in an uneasy peace while the rector and the chapel minister were each distracted by poor health. When a young curate arrives at St Simeon's, he brings with him high church ritual and ways of worship. Gildas Haven, the daughter of the chapel minister is furious. The curate insists that his Church ways are right, and Gildas who has only known chapel worship says the opposite.

Battle lines are quickly drawn by leaders and congregations. Margaret Haycraft writes with light humour and surprising insight in what could be a controversial story line. With at least one major surprise, the author seems to be digging an impossible hole for herself as the story progresses. The ending of this sensitively told romance is likely to come as a surprise.

White Tree Publishing Abridged Edition

eBook only

ISBN: 978-0-9935005-7-2

eBook coming 2016

When it Was Dark

Guy Thorne

Abridged Edition

What would happen to the Christian faith if it could be proved beyond all doubt that Jesus did not rise from the dead? This is the situation when, at the end of the nineteenth century, eminent archaeologists working outside Jerusalem discover a tomb belonging to Joseph of Arimathea, with an inscription claiming that he took the body of Jesus from the first tomb and hid it. And there are even remains of a body. So no resurrection!

As churches quickly empty, some Christians cling to hope, saying that Jesus lives within them, so He must be the Son of God who rose from the dead. Others are relieved that they no longer have to believe and go to church. Society starts to break down.

With the backing of a wealthy industrialist, a young curate puts together a small team to investigate the involvement of a powerful atheist in the discovery. This is an abridged edition of a novel first published in 1903.

Guy Thorne was the English author of many thrillers in the early twentieth century, and this book was not intended specifically for the Christian market. It contains adult references in places, but no swearing or offensive language. Although it was written from a high church Anglican viewpoint, the author is positive about the various branches of the Christian faith, finding strengths and weaknesses in individual church and chapel members as their beliefs are threatened by the discovery in Jerusalem. White Tree Publishing believes this book will be a great and positive challenge to Christians today as we examine the reality of our faith.

White Tree Publishing Abridged Edition

eBook only

ISBN: 978-0-9954549-0-3

eBook coming

Amaranth's Garden

Margaret S. Haycraft

Abridged edition

"It seems, Miss, Mr. Glyn drew out that money yesterday, and took it all out in gold. The Rector happened to be in the Bank at the time, but was on his way to town, and could not stop to talk to your father just then, though he wondered to hear him say he had come to draw out everything, as treasurer of the fund." Amaranth Glyn's comfortable life comes to an end when the church funds disappear. Her father, the church treasurer who drew out the money, is also missing, to be followed shortly by her mother. The disgrace this brings on the family means Amaranth's marriage plans are cancelled. Amaranth is a competent artist and moves away with her young brother to try to earn a living. There are rumours that her parents are in France and even in Peru. Living with her sick brother, Amaranth wants life to be as it was before the financial scandal forced her to leave her family home and the garden she loved.

White Tree Publishing Abridged Edition

eBook only

ISBN: 978-0-9935005-6-5

## Books for Younger Readers

(and older readers too!)

Mary Jones and Her Bible

An Adventure Book

Chris Wright

The true story of Mary Jones's and her Bible

with a clear Christian message and optional puzzles

(Some are easy, some tricky, and some amusing)

Mary Jones saved for six years to buy a Bible of her own. In 1800, when she was 15, she thought she had saved enough, so she walked barefoot for 26 miles (more than 40km) over a mountain pass and through deep valleys in Wales to get one. That's when she discovered there were none for sale!

You can travel with Mary Jones today in this book by following clues, or just reading the story. Either way, you will get to Bala where Mary went, and if you're really quick you may be able to discover a Bible just like Mary's in the market!

The true story of Mary Jones has captured the imagination for more than 200 years. For this book, Chris Wright has looked into the old records and discovered even more of the story, which is now in this unforgettable account of Mary Jones and her Bible. Solving puzzles is part of the fun, but the whole story is in here to read and enjoy whether you try the puzzles or not. Just turn the page, and the adventure continues. It's time to get on the trail of Mary Jones!

Paperback ISBN 978-0-9525956-2-5

5.5 x 8.5 inches

156 pages of story, photographs, line drawings and puzzles

eBook ISBN: ISBN: 978-0-9933941-5-7

Pilgrim's Progress

An Adventure Book

Chris Wright

Travel with young Christian as he sets out on a difficult and perilous journey to find the King. Solve the puzzles and riddles along the way, and help Christian reach the Celestial City. Then travel with his friend Christiana. She has four young brothers who can sometimes be a bit of a problem.

Be warned, you will meet giants and lions -- and even dragons! There are people who don't want Christian and Christiana to reach the city of the King and his Son. But not everyone is an enemy. There are plenty of friendly people. It's just a matter of finding them.

Are you prepared to help? Are you sure? The journey can be very dangerous! As with our book Mary Jones and Her Bible, you can enjoy the story even if you don't want to try the puzzles.

This is a simplified and abridged version of Pilgrim's Progress -- Special Edition, containing illustrations and a mix of puzzles. The suggested reading age is up to perhaps ten. Older readers will find the same story told in much greater detail in Pilgrim's Progress -- Special Edition on the next page.

Paperback ISBN: 978-0-9525956-6-3

5.5 x 8.5 inches 174 pages £6.95

Available from major internet stores

eBook ISBN 13: 978-0-9933941-6-4

Pilgrim's Progress

Special Edition

Chris Wright

This book for all ages is a great choice for young readers, as well as for families, Sunday school teachers, and anyone who wants to read John Bunyan's Pilgrim's Progress in a clear form.

All the old favourites are here: Christian, Christiana, the Wicket Gate, Interpreter, Hill Difficulty with the lions, the four sisters at the House Beautiful, Vanity Fair, Giant Despair, Faithful and Talkative -- and, of course, Greatheart. The list is almost endless.

The first part of the story is told by Christian himself, as he leaves the City of Destruction to reach the Celestial City, and becomes trapped in the Slough of Despond near the Wicket Gate. On his journey he will encounter lions, giants, and a creature called the Destroyer.

Christiana follows along later, and tells her own story in the second part. Not only does Christiana have to cope with her four young brothers, she worries about whether her clothes are good enough for meeting the King. Will she find the dangers in Vanity Fair that Christian found? Will she be caught by Giant Despair and imprisoned in Doubting Castle? What about the dragon with seven heads?

It's a dangerous journey, but Christian and Christiana both know that the King's Son is with them, helping them through the most difficult parts until they reach the Land of Beulah, and see the Celestial City on the other side of the Dark River. This is a story you will remember for ever, and it's about a journey you can make for yourself.

E-book ISBN: 978-0-9932760-8-8

Paperback ISBN: 978-0-9525956-7-0

5.5 x 8.5 inches 278 pages

Available from major internet stores

Zephan and the Vision

Chris Wright

An exciting story about the adventures of two angels who seem to know almost nothing -- until they have a vision!

Two ordinary angels are caring for the distant Planet Eltor, and they are about to get a big shock -- they are due to take a trip to Planet Earth! This is Zephan's story of the vision he is given before being allowed to travel with Talora, his companion angel, to help two young people fight against the enemy.

Arriving on Earth, they discover that everyone lives in a small castle. Some castles are strong and built in good positions, while others appear weak and open to attack. But it seems that the best-looking castles are not always the most secure.

Meet Castle Nadia and Castle Max, the two castles that Zephan and Talora have to defend. And meet the nasty creatures who have built shelters for themselves around the back of these castles. And worst of all, meet the shadow angels who live in a cave on Shadow Hill. This is a story about the forces of good and the forces of evil. Who will win the battle for Castle Nadia?

The events in this story are based very loosely on John Bunyan's allegory The Holy War.

Paperback ISBN: 978-0-9525956-9-4

5.5 x 8.5 inches 216 pages

Available from major internet stores

E-book ISBN: 978-0-9932760-6-4

Agathos, The Rocky Island,

And Other Stories

Chris Wright

Once upon a time there were two favourite books for Sunday reading: _Parables from Nature_ and _Agathos and The Rocky Island_.

These books contained short stories, usually with a hidden meaning. In this illustrated book is a selection of the very best of these stories, carefully retold to preserve the feel of the originals, coupled with ease of reading and understanding for today's readers.

Discover the king who sent his servants to trade in a foreign city. The butterfly who thought her eggs would hatch into baby butterflies, and the two boys who decided to explore the forbidden land beyond the castle boundary. The spider that kept being blown in the wind, the soldier who had to fight a dragon, the four children who had to find their way through a dark and dangerous forest. These are just six of the nine stories in this collection. Oh, and there's also one about a rocky island!

This is a book for a young person to read alone, a family or parent to read aloud, Sunday school teachers to read to the class, and even for grownups who want to dip into the fascinating stories of the past all by themselves. Can you discover the hidden meanings? You don't have to wait until Sunday before starting!

Paperback ISBN: 978-0-9525956-8-7

5.5 x 8.5 inches 148 pages £5.95

Available from major internet stores

E-book ISBN: 978-0-9927642-7-2

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