Not just from the outside looking in
but being on the inside, I do have it all.
We just built this house.
I have a beautiful fiance who's pregnant with our first son.
I have a six-year-old who idolizes me
and she always sends me messages
when I leave at night.
I love you, daddy, you're the best daddy
in the whole wide world.
And a lot of people would do anything
to have the family that I have.
And then I'm sitting here using drugs,
throwing it all away,
and I probably won't be here much longer.
Well, Mike does have it all,
he could have it all
but Ashley says he's throwing it all away
on his quest for drugs.
I'm not addicted just to the drugs,
I'm addicted to the lifestyle.
The pill game is a constant hustle
just as it would be with cocaine, heroine.
If I didn't do any of my pills,
I get 112, sell 100 at 30, that's three grand.
And then I used to sponsor people too.
So I'll take this girl to her doctor,
pay for her doctor's bill, pay for her script,
and then I would get her script in return.
So she would make about 1,100 bucks
to pay for her doctor and her script and get out,
which is like another 300.
So out of 1,400 bucks,
I would get her whole script.
So I would double my money, if not more.
You do that with two, three, four people a month,
almost eight grand from then.
Then also people will call me,
they want a 10-pack of pills.
I got someone calling me
while we were waiting for the heroine dealer,
someone needs some subs.
So I'll charge 50, 100 bucks more
and get a couple for free,
plus they'll break me off for doing it.
So I'll make like four or five pills out of it.
Street price is like 150 bucks.
Now I got to go bring these
to the guy who bought 'em.
You have to dedicate almost your whole day to doing that.
It's a full time job
and it's hard to sell your DOC, your drug of choice,
and not do it.
My dealing honestly feels better than sex.
What's your thought?
I'm angry.
So your daughter's good father
is a confessed and in fact bragadocious drug dealer?
He's not just a user, he's not just an addict,
he's a dealer, confessed drug dealer.
It's hard to hear.
It's hard to hear, it's hard to see.
I've never seen him use.
You have now.
I have now, yeah.
He said and I quote,
"I don't believe in spending money on a wedding
"until we get ourselves together
"and the drugs are being put first right now.
"I lie to Ashley,
"but I think it's better than me saying
"I'm going to get high.
"I'll be clean when I have a newborn,
"so I'll be a better father."
He's gonna flip a switch.
"My daughter never knows when I'm using
"because I'm not using to get high,
"I'm using to function.
"I think my daughter would describe me
"as the best daddy in the world.
"She tells me every day."
She loves you.
She does.
Well, she can speak glowingly at his funeral
when he overdoses.
You're right.
What am I gonna have to tell our daughter
when you're gone?
A son that will never meet you
or know the good Mike.
But it's fun right,
you run these drugs and you get this person to get a script
and figure out and get $8,000 here and there.
It's all a big game
until it's not.
Coming up, Mike says that he can't stay clean.
He tells us what triggers him to go back to a life of drugs.
We're gonna meet another individual here in a minute.
He's a former opioid addict.
He's now 12 years sober.
He says if he can do it, so can Mike.
