- I was going through a very rough time,
and I got super depressed,
and I felt like the only
thing that's every had my back
throughout my life has been music.
And I've just learned
to take care of myself
and do things that make me feel good.
[calming music]
When I first came to L.A.,
I had so many expectations,
and I wanted things to
come out a certain way.
Somebody told me that I
should have no expectations,
and I started doing
that where it was like,
instead of building up this whole story
of how a relationship's gonna play out
or a work deal or whatever,
I just go into it more open,
and I'm just more chill now
about how the outcome is gonna be.
That's helped me a lot because
if something doesn't work out
the way that I want, I don't
have such a crazy breakdown,
and it doesn't effect me for
a week straight emotionally.
[gentle music]
My mental illness or issues,
whatever you want to call it,
I think it's really helped
me come to this place
in my life, and I think it's just made me
a very insightful person and
I want to know about people
and the world, and I think me
having a lot of highs and lows
has really taught me a lot
about patience and people
and has been able to
make me a better artist.
[gentle music]
I'm always giving other
people compliments,
and the one thing we don't do to ourselves
is give ourselves compliments in our heads
or tell ourselves things about,
like keep reminding
ourselves about our dreams.
You could spend your day being like,
"You're gorgeous, follow your
dreams, keep doing that."
When you set the affirmations,
I think that it helps
cement that positivity in your brain.
I watched and "Oprah" episode,
and she said she took a check
and wrote a check for a $1 billion,
and kept it on her mirror.
Every time she would wake
up, she would look at it,
so I decided to do that.
I made a big poster with all the things
that I want to accomplish:
be nominated for a Grammy, which happened.
First late-night TV show, which happened.
Sponsored branding deal, which happened.
Get my own place, which happened.
I think everything off
that board came true.
[gentle music]
I grew up just like
every other young girl,
watching music videos
and reading magazines,
and seeing super models in magazines,
and wanting to look like them.
And as I've grown up, I started to learn,
and being in the industry,
I've learned that
a lot of that stuff is not real.
I think what's happening now is
that there is definitely
a shift of inclusivity.
Everybody's definition of
perfect for their own body types
is completely different, and
I've just learned to love
certain parts of my body.
[gentle music]
True self love is a love/hate thing.
You wake up one day, you're
about to get your period,
you feel bloated, and you
feel like complete crap,
and you don't want to get out of bed,
and you want to wear baggy clothes.
I have days like that.
And then I have days where I feel awesome.
Ever since I hit 30, I feel,
I think it's been an on-going process,
but you start becoming
unapologetic about who you are,
and you start accepting
certain things about yourself,
and you start loving your body more.
I think that it's just been a journey
of working on self-love
and understanding that
you're not gonna always
feel 100% every day,
and that's when it makes it okay.
Cause if you try to run
away from the bad feelings,
it magnifies it.
If you just tell yourself like, "Listen,
eh, it's one of those
days" and you move on.
[gentle music]
