 
JESUS ASKS, "WHAT AM I THAT YOU ARE NOT?"

Jesus Teaches Lessons Of Peace

Copyright: 2008

By: K. C. Boone, MSFE

Publisher: The Scribed Light

Smashwords Edition

ISBN: 978-1-939634-17-7

All rights reserved. No part of the book may be reproduced in any form, except for inclusion of brief quotations in a review, without permission in writing from the author or publisher.

Table of Contents

Introduction

Chapter 1 - Am I Special And You Are Not?

Chapter 2 - Am I Home And You Are Not?

Chapter 3 - Am I Guiltless And You Are Not?

Chapter 4 - Am I Equal But You Are Not?

Chapter 5 - Am I Timeless But You Are Not?

Chapter 6 - Am I Perfect But You Are Not?

Chapter 7 - Am I Whole But You Are Not?

Chapter 8 - Am I Psychic But You Are Not?

Chapter 9 - Am I Peaceful But You Are Not?

Chapter 10 - Am I Eternal But You Are Not?

Chapter 11 - Am I Awake But You Are Not?

Chapter 12 - Am I Aware But You Are Not?

Chapter 13 - Am I Detached And You Are Not?

Chapter 14 - Am I Free But You Are Not?

Chapter 15 - Am I Patient But You Are Not?

Chapter 16 - Am I Influential But You Are Not?

Chapter 17 - Am I Divine But You Are Not?

Chapter 18 - You Are What I Am!

Summation

Acknowledgment

For the gifts that we are given and the wisdom exemplified by His life, we are all the better for having known of the man called Jesus. Yet, it is His spirit which brings forth truth to all who came after Him. He speaks today, in different form, yet with the same clarity and commonality which is His trademark and testament.

Never has there been such as Him, yet He would have us know Him as one of us – not to be worshiped, but to merely be heard. For in His teachings does great wisdom flow, and by His example we can live more peaceful lives which is for us His goal.

I have often contemplated the legacy of Jesus. It seems quite telling that of Him and no other have I never heard or read negative remarks. When we seek often to find the fault in everyone, Jesus seems to be the most prolific example of that which man desires and is capable.

Certainly, I have not had the chance to research all religions, but I have spent some time with a few. I have found that even for the Hindu or Buddhist or Jew or Christian, Jesus is given as an example of proper behavior and of the loving-kindness of God. His effect upon the world's people has been magnificent, based upon the simple knowledge that God loves us all equally and without conditions.

For the light that still shines upon the world, my gratitude is to the one who has shown us the way, the truth and the life.

The contents of this book, shown in italics, represent the words of Jesus. Any gender references are generalized as most commonly used. There is no specific gender associated with God; therefore, as is most common, God is referred to as our Father.

Dedication

To all my brothers, I would not have you ignorant and living in fearful doubt. I have not come into the world to save that which is not lost. I have come to teach you that there is great peace to be had upon the knowledge that we are one with God.

The world is not our home. We have not left the place nor status of our creation, except within our mind. I offer you the means to remember our rightful place and our peaceful condition which is the home that we have never left.

Our home is with our Father, who offered us the chance to play a while in the pretense that we created, as if we were not that which truly we are. I offer you spiritual vision with which to know the truth.

Look not upon the world as if it were your home, for within your dreaming you have offered yourself the chance to remember that God is home to you.

Jesus

Introduction

Jesus inspired me to know Him as He really is. He asked, " _What am I that you are not_?"

Of course, I was automatic in my responses – you are perfect, flawless, crucified, the Son of God, our Savior, our Master, etc.

His responses were the most profound that I have ever heard. If not from Jesus Himself, I would have quickly dismissed the entire communication as absurd. But, when Jesus speaks, there is no denying the beauty nor authenticity. Our most rational judgments upon His words hold no validity in the face of utter perfection.

Jesus went on to say that He had been a mere mortal, like all other mortals. There was but one difference – He was given information as no one else. He chooses for us to understand that any mere mortal, with the same knowledge that He had, would be exactly the same as He. Only knowledge made Him stand apart from the rest.

In disbelief, I argued that He suffered at the hands of men a fate undeserving. He was crucified for sins he did not commit. Jesus opened my eyes to the fact that His suffering was but a few hours, when so many others had suffered years for crimes not committed. He said that He was really fortunate that His suffering was very short. His life of thirty three years was almost an example of having taken the easy way out. So many people have suffered greatly over the duration of entire lives for the simple acts of kindness so lovingly cast upon the world. He gave examples of Saints and Martyrs who were imprisoned for no good reason. He had not suffered this fate – perhaps He should thank us for the injustices that we have suffered for God, for which credit will never be had.

Imagine the benefit of having come into a life knowing that you were destined for greatness. Did an angel appear to your mother and tell her that she would bear a child who would be called the Messiah? Certainly, foreknowledge would put a burden upon you, but it would offer you some insight into your purpose, so that you would not spend years in the agony of inquiry. The Buddha's parents were told by a hermit shortly after his birth that he would either be a great king or the world's savior. Paramahansa Yogananda's mother was told of his divine purpose before his birth. How much easier was it to accept His lot in life once He knew his purpose? We were not so fortunate as to have such foreknowledge. We were left to seek and struggle and try to figure it out. Jesus never had doubts. Imagine a life without fears or doubts.

Jesus told me of the people who spent as many years in prison as He was alive. Nelson Mandela was a person who spent many, many years in prison as an innocent man. Jesus said that his suffering was minimal compared to those who were beaten and tortured for years upon years. His suffering was comparatively short. The Bible is full of stories about those who suffered the barbs of the wicked. The Israelites spent more time in the desert than Christ was even alive. John the Baptist was beheaded at the whim of a woman. Surely he did not deserve to be beheaded and he suffered much for no good reason. Imagine John being taken for the purpose of being beheaded. I can't imagine that this was a pleasant experience.

Jesus reminded me of all the soldiers who willingly go to war to serve their countries. Imagine having your limbs blown off and having to live the rest of your life with such an infirmity. Jesus never had to suffer such a fate – He never had to go through years of rehabilitative therapy and psychological recovery. He said that there are Saints among all of us who have given as much for others or more than He ever did. He chooses that we not worship Him, but instead that we turn our eyes toward God who gives equally to all people. God is the object of worship – Jesus was just one example of many of God's magnificence in action.

Jesus asks that we know Him so that we may know ourselves. We are all the Sons and Daughters of God. He treated no one as different from Himself. He very well knew that He was a child of God just like everyone else. He implores us to see ourselves in true light. If we understood our true heritage, we would certainly be kinder to ourselves and to others.

Jesus taught me lessons about judgment which were very eye opening. As most of us believe, we are nothing if we do not work and are not successful in the eyes of society. By the world's standards, Jesus said He would be considered a bum. If you met Jesus today, as He really was, you would think Him homeless and a loser. Why do we judge ourselves more harshly than we judge Jesus? It was ok for Him to stroll around and spread the Good News, but we are simply considered societal outcasts if we do the same. Those who choose to live as Jesus did are not exactly held in the highest esteem. The Western mentality of a spirit filled life of God contemplation, as is very acceptable in Eastern societies, is seen as very odd, and for those who cannot make it in main stream society.

Jesus recently had me read an article about a woman in California – a doctor and a university professor – who was giving it all up to join an ashram in India. Her call to peace and God service was greater than she could bear, so she was giving up all of her material wealth for the peace of God. Jesus asked many to give away their belongings and follow Him, but few have the courage or desire to do so. This lady's family was greatly dismayed by her decision and did try to discourage her. Their efforts failed and she followed the desires of her heart. I question her decision, like many others, but feel certain that she will somehow be far more useful where she is going than where she has been. Mother Teresa wasn't needed in the Vatican, so this doctor isn't needed in California. Jesus reminded me that He had said that it is not the well who need the physician, but the sick.

Did Mother Teresa not leave her family to never see her mother again? Do you suppose that this was easy for her? I don't believe that Jesus had to make the same sacrifice, even as He made many others. In fairness to all, Jesus would have us know that each of us, during our lives, is crucified in one way or another. Are we not all persecuted in one way or another? Have we not all faced the unrighteous judgment of others? Surely you have at one time or another known the unjust wrath of another. Surely you have been crucified, but have you not realized it? Is there a Saint among us who has not been persecuted for his/her beliefs? Are not all who profess God subjected to the scrutiny of the masses? How was Jesus different, He would have us ask?

How are you really different from Jesus?

The world would argue, just like I did, that Jesus was special. Somehow, He was more gifted by God and more deserving of God's greatness than the rest of us. He was ordained by God to be the Savior of the world. Jesus would have us know that all are called just as He was. All are called, but not all answer. All are given exactly the same talents and gifts that He was given. All people are made exactly as He was. He simply knew more at an earlier age than the rest of us. He had foreknowledge of God, and in this, we imagine that He was greater than we. Jesus seeks to end this misperception. Jesus has given us the tools with which to overcome our limited vision of self. He has made it His mission to save us from ourselves – before and after His crucifixion. He has demonstrated that we can die and live again. He has shown us that the body is not who we are. He has demonstrated His knowledge of God, for our benefit, if only we will take notice.

These teachings are not new – these are the same messages that He gave while He walked the earth. It was the judgment of man that caused the messages to be misheard. He again is trying to cause us to know ourselves just as He was known. It is not in our ignorance that God is glorified, but in our strength. God did not create us to be here but for the misery and helplessness that we imagine. God gave all to all. Jesus is the messenger even today of this very truth. Jesus still seeks to have us know ourselves, just as He would have us be known. Jesus does not hold Himself in great esteem – He knows that He is nothing but the perfection of the Father. Jesus knows that you are nothing but the perfection of the Father. Jesus knows that until you know yourself as you truly are, you will never know the true magnificence of God.

We have all suffered during our walks upon the earth. None has suffered more than any other. Don't look up to those who are more visible and are held in high esteem as any greater than you. In God's eyes, no one is any greater than another. In truth, God doesn't play favorites. And neither does He grant specialness to some and not to others. Jesus knows that there are no special ones, including Himself. He knows that God created everyone exactly the same. But, in our limited view, we would see that all are different. We would argue that some are smarter and some are more powerful. We see people on TV who perform miracles and we do not. Obviously, we are not as good as they are. We rationalize our own ineptness because we do not have the same gifts or favors that others do. Surely all do not exhibit the same gifts, but no gift is more prized than another. Mozart did not have the same gifts as Jesus, but surely one was not greater than the other. Each was called according to his purpose.

Was Jesus greater than the army private who sacrifices his own life for the life of another? It's really all a matter of perspective. We perceive Jesus to be greater than us, but He insists that this is not so. Jesus worships the lowly private who gave his life for another. Jesus has said that there is no greater gift than giving one's life for another. Jesus was seen to have done this on a larger scale, but He only had one life to give just as the private had only one life to give. Our rational minds can begin to see the beauty of Jesus' teaching now. If we open our eyes to the Saviors all around us, we can find a new respect for the firemen, the police officers, the doctors and nurses, the teachers and preachers, the military personnel, etc. Jesus is as all of them are. A person who gives of him/her self for others is no different than Jesus Himself. The regular guy who jumps into the water to save a drowning child is no different. Jesus simply knew in advance when and how He was going to die – our heroes do not. In that sense, Jesus knows that our heroes are great, for they have faced unknown dangers that He never had to.

With a little research, we can all find saviors among us. Jesus asks that we be more aware of those around us who are the saviors of our world. Don't look to the TV for they are in your own neighborhood. They walk among you everyday. They are your friends and neighbors. They are your teachers and scientists. They are your lawyers and relatives. They are truly everywhere. Look upon everyone as your savior and you will truly see the world as God intended. See yourself as the savior that you are. Have you not done marvelous things for the benefit of others? Have you not given of yourself for the benefit of the world? Jesus was no different – He did His part and you do yours. See the world that you have saved. Your viewpoint may be small, but surely it will be ever increasing and will one day mimic the very numbers of Jesus. The world is far more populated today than it was 2000 years ago. Jesus didn't have as far to go or as many people to reach. You have a far more daunting task and Jesus knows this. Do you?

Christopher Columbus traveled to unknown lands. What a great a leap of faith. His trip was funded by those who were not so adventurous, but their contributions were no less significant. If you've ever visited Jamestown, you have seen the replica ships like those used by Columbus. Reading about them in the history books – I thought they were much, much larger. When standing beside the replica ships, one grows in admiration for those who set upon the unknown ocean in search of foreign lands. Jesus trekked through known lands – who was the greater risk taker of the two? An honest comparison can bring to light the greatness buried in each of us. This is not to diminish the contributions and sacrifices of Jesus, but He would have us know that greater works than these were done by all of God's children. If you had the knowledge of Christ, you would surely not see yourself in the same light. Jesus has such vision and knows that you are God's perfection.

Chapter 1 - _Am I special and you are not?_

Why do you worship me more than any other? Was I different than even the least among you? Was I exalted above all others? Did the Father give me specialness? Did God create some with and some without? You have misunderstood me and raised me above yourselves. This need not be, for I am just as you are. We and the Father are One. We are the way, the truth and the life. We have ears only for the truth and the truth shall set us free.

God created all souls alike, for He knows nothing of difference. To each is given sameness for there can be nothing less than total completeness in any of God's creations. All are created equal by God. Difference is not of god. Understand the truth of God's ways and you will understand that inequality, even of me, is not possible. You and I are exactly the same, as we were created by God. Therefore, I am no more or less than you are.

If I sit at the right hand of God, if God were to have hands, then you would be there also. But, God does not have sides, nor highs or lows – all conditions of limitation are unknown to God, for God simply is.

If I am the only way to God, then there would be a limit upon the unlimited. If there is heaven and God is in heaven, then there can be no hell. If there is a devil, then it was not God who created him evil, for God only created perfection from loving unlimited abundance.

Of angels and demons – are there such as these? In fact all spirits are angelic and wholly made to serve. Nothing in all of God's creations was created less than God. If you see evil, it is certainly not of God. Did anyone see me evil, the most notable personification of God in your eyes? But, what if I had chosen to be evil? Would my choice have been God's choosing? You have assigned mundane things to God's hand, as if He even has hands. If you could see God, the vision would shock you to your very core. In fact, it is not possible to know God as form, but He has allowed you the imagination with which to create your perception of God. The gift of imagination is truly all that God has given you. He has presented for you the dreaming mind to create all worlds. For the greatest gift of creation, He has surely reaped your wrath.

You imagine that God performs miracles, yet punishes as well. God has only the creation of love for which to be blamed. All else you have created from the creations of your minds. You have created evil, misery and discontent. These things need not be. Your creations have created, unknowingly, the perceived wrath of God.

God has no need of worship or punishment – He merely enjoys the love of His creations. He does not like or dislike your creations – for your creations are for your enjoyment. His enjoyment is your soul – the perfect part of Him who seeks to know Him.

You love your creations and hold them dear. You, who know so little of love, do give your best to your creations. You love them and care for them, trying to keep them safe. Does God wish anything less for His creations? He knows you as you truly are – not as you imagine. What you think you are has nothing to do with who you really are.

From your imagination, believe that all that God gave you to create with is modeling clay. Imagine that there is nothing but you and your clay. All things made must be made of clay. Your modeling clay is the literal equivalent to thought. Imagine yourself also formless – how would you shape the clay if you had not the hands? So, imagine that you gave yourself form to shape the clay and made also the clay into form, which we'll call matter. Thus, the universe is formed from the thought clay of your soul. Your "what ifs" became something that you now consider all there is – reality, in fact. You believe so much in your creations that you now doubt their true origins. You see yourself from inside the illusion of the creation, rather than as the Creator of the illusion.

You have become so vested in your own created illusion that you have even created God within the illusion to also fit perfectly into your creation. It is as if you went inside your playhouse and suddenly it became "real" to you. It is no longer a playhouse, built for your enjoyment, but your prison, meant to hold you forever in bondage.

Your playhouse of mental clay is now your world. You have played a trick on yourself and have believed that you are not the Creator, but the created. From within your playhouse, you have seen that it is not fun, so immediately you become the victim – caught inside the merciless world meant as a punishment of trials and tests from God to see if you are worthy to sit at His right hand. What a twisted vision you have created, from the thoughts of your soul. It was to be fun, but instead became a nightmare.

" _What if" I were God? What would I create if I could create anything? The trials and tests that you call experience are merely exercises for your soul, for to know what you are, you must first know what you are not. You try all types of suits, to see which fits you best. You try the ugly suit, but find the handsome suit more to your taste. You try the groovy suit, but hippy you are not. You try the uptight suit, and run screaming for another. You find the peaceful suit the perfect fit for you. In fact, no other suit will do._

Your suits of trials and tests are the incarnations that you choose. God does not care to pick your wardrobe, for He knows the one for you. He knows you as you are – not as you imagine yourself to be. In your created world, there are degrees of education and each level is assigned a robe. What if the robes you wear were related to the level of your spiritual advancement?

In the imagined world of your creation, I would wear the highest robe, not because I'm special, but because I have the highest level of education. The world could no longer teach me; I had graduated from worldly school. You imagine that I came for one incarnation as perfect, lived perfectly and graduated to heaven. This is not the case, but believe as you will, that I was created unlike all other of God's creations – that I am the only one worthy to sit at the right hand of God, wherever that is, and open the seals of revelation.

Perhaps you've been taught this by those whom you trust and have no reason to doubt, in spite of your mind's relentless questioning. It matters not. For you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free. There is great freedom in truth and all will be revealed.

So, know that I have created just as you have the experiences of my lives. I have walked the levels of spiritual growth to the point of casting aside all doubt. I have known doubts and fears, just as you have – for I walked in shoes just like you. I was not special, I was just like you.

From the vantage point of greater learning, my suffering was seen as different. I suffered more for knowing that I was away from home than ever for the punishments of man. Bodily suffering is nothing to compare to being out of the perfection of God's presence. When you've had it all, what can compare? For true suffering is our imagined separation from God. This is homesickness with none to compare. You think that you will have fun, out to play for a while, but the call of home reminds you that your soul craves its home, and nothing less will do.

We imagine that God is with us always, yet we cry constantly for Him. Which is true? Is He with us or not? I know Him to be with me always – if only you knew what I knew...your life would be as mine. There's a benefit to mastery and a reason why it is sought. What if you could get up each day and hear God's voice directing you through your life? Would you have a better life? Not necessarily, but the details certainly would not be so critical. I had the advantage of hearing God's voice always. Doubt and fear had no place in my life, for I was never in control. Perfect allowance of God's will kept me in complete confidence that I was safe and well cared for at all times. I knew what would happen next; there was no mystery for me. I could have feared bodily assaults, but what would have been the purpose? My body wasn't me and this I understood completely. Bodies are the vehicles of the mind – the mind controls the body. You have imagined the body in control and have feared greatly your death. If there were no fear of death, in fact a celebration of departure from the body, then truly there would be no reason to fear. In truth, you have no reason to fear. But it certainly seems as if you do.

You are afraid of everything and everyone. The monsters are not hiding under your bed, but are really in your head. Your mind makes great monsters and tells you to fear them. Much like movie monsters, the creations turned evil and were soon to be feared. This is how your life works – you never intended it – but somehow your beloved creations turn into monsters on their own. Isn't this how you see your children? When they behave, they are yours. When they are bad, you look for someone to claim them.

How quickly you tire of your creations, when you realize them for what they are. You pretend to love them, but only for a while. For how can you love that which is not real? You cannot make a thing that's real, no matter the amount of zeal nor the initial appeal. You try and make your life as you will, yet ever is there something that takes away the thrill. You try in vain to keep the feeling alive, yet no amount of effort can cause your hopes to thrive. You strive for perfection, always plotting and planning, yet the dubious disaster awaits the passing of the drive.

Were you to notice, the methods of your madness, you would quickly see the passing of your fancy. How quickly the luster fades from the thing beneath the shade. For to have a thing is to render it useless and unwanted. The attraction is in the seeking, the burning of the flame rests ever near the wanting for its meeting. Upon the meeting, shortly does follow the dousing of the flame. Oh how fleeting, the fancies of your dreams. Once a dream is realized, its appeal doth cease to hide, the fickle nature of your creations from what you once held in great esteem.

Can there be anything as simple, as the thing once held so dear? Yet quickly dropped and left, when another took its place. Your desires are as changeable as the passing of your thoughts. What one minute you desired greatly, the next minute you didn't even remember. As is with all that you think you want, you will tire of all but your destiny. For only that which you truly are will ever satisfy the cravings of your soul.

I had no use of things, except as for minimal support. I wore clothes, but only the modest minimum. I did not sit and think of the next meal – I ate when invited, as an appreciation for my host. I had no worry for support, as I knew that I was never alone. I could not be without anything that I needed for my journey was set – my purpose to be fulfilled. It could not be otherwise, for I knew all things in advance. I knew my life's destiny and I knew that it would be done, just as I had planned. If you knew each day, all that was set for you to do, would you have reason to fear or doubt?

Would you sit and worry about that which you already knew? Certainly not, for with God in your ear, there's nothing to doubt or fear, nor even plan. My life was set and I knew it. There was no mystery for me. I did not wonder about the chance mishaps ahead. I knew all things and walked surely on the path set for me by me.

If I told you that you could have this same kind of life right now, would you accept it? Would you be satisfied, knowing that there would be no surprises in your life? At first you may think yes, but on second thought you'd say no. For the drama of the action, do you continue in the game. You do not want peace – peace is boring. You want thrills and fun and excitement – the highs and the lows. For the drama of the game does keep your attention. When there's no action, you will stir some up for yourself. For to be alive is to be caught up in some mystery and intrigue, some fears and doubts. Much like the shows you watch or movies you patronize, you like excitement, even if you profess unto death that you seek peace. Know yourself as you are. You did not create this life to come here and be bored. You put in all the twists and turns to keep your mind on maximum.

Chapter 2 - _Am I home and you are not?_

I am home where you long to be, but you are with me. Can there but be a place called home – where we go to find the peaceful joy created by the Father? It can never be that you are homeless, even if you feel that you are. Join me in thoughts of home – walk with me and I'll show you the way, for I have been there ahead of you. I call to you from home – I am with you always to help you find your way. I have been where you are not. I know how you feel. I know that you are seemingly scared and alone in the world that we created together for the experiences of our lives. Let not yourself imagine yourself alone, for you are not. If you could see as I do, you would see the intricate workings of all that surrounds you. You could see that life is filled with seeming multitudes, even those you feel, but cannot see. Your created world is not as you imagine – it is as you made it, but you do not remember all of the interconnected parts. The parts seem separate, but are not – all things are connected to all things. Your perception tells you that you can be alone, but this is not true. You can imagine yourself alone, but you will never be. Our Father did not create us to be alone. We were all created together, of the same spirit, perfectly ordained as all that there is.

The only difference between our creations and God's creations is that His creations are perfect and ours are not. Of course, our creations are temporary and illusionary, meant purely to imagine ourselves as separate from our Father. Every dream that we have is for our experience only, to know ourselves as we are not. We are not made to be temporary or short-lived. We cannot die; we can only imagine ourselves as capable of dying. We can only imagine ourselves as full of problems and tragedies. This is all part of the game of life that we created for our amusement. It is sad that our illusions have become dreaded instead of enjoyed. We created the world as a learning tool – merely for the fun of it. Yet, we have lost sight of the purpose and have become swallowed up within the illusion.

But, were the illusion not so realistic, we wouldn't benefit from the experience. Our feelings tell us that our bodies are real, yet nothing can be further from the truth. Bodies and even the world in fact are merely an act of the screenwriter's imaginings. Your life was not meant to scare you, but your writings have such realism that you have become the game – seeing nothing outside of it. Lost in the illusion are we.

While in the illusion, I had the benefit of seeing outside of it. I knew the truth of the illusion; therefore, I was free to live a much different experience. You were not with me, to listen to my words. You were left with what you are told that I said, as if words could express what I said. My words were written by those who could not know – the truth beyond the illusion and this is why my messages were mistaught. Unless you had actual recordings of my messages, you could not truly know what I meant. Unless my messages were received by those who actually had my same level of perception, the messages could not be perfectly understood nor conveyed.

To have a child write down the message of Einstein would be a similar circumstance. The child could not understand the messages nor have the means to perfectly transcribe them. This is simple reason applied to the writings you hold as holy. It is a fact that the writings were passed along further, to others who tried to convey them. Over the years, the accurate translation was lost. For only those who could understand could have written my messages – those who walked with me and understood completely. All other "hand me down" translations lose credibility. So, don't base your world on words that were filtered down. Allow yourself to know of me from me. I will tell you my messages – translated perfectly for your understanding. You need not depend upon others, for I will give you my messages which come from the Father.

It is not that I have greater communication than you are capable, I simply have gone before you and have learned lessons that you have not yet learned. You'll get to the same level that I have reached – it's just a matter of willingness. All you need do is choose to know more, and more will be taught. The world is illusion – don't hold on so tightly. Walk in peaceful confidence – knowing that the game can be over at any time. The world does not revolve around you – it operates at your command. It was made by you for you that the child may be the parent.

Your pretend game of life is meant to give you ups and downs. It is meant to thrill you and offer you problem solving opportunities. You have used your thoughts to create a "thinking" robot which is activated by your control. Your body is no more than your robot behaving as you choose. You constantly analyze the behavior of your robot and constantly refine its actions. You somehow think that one day it will behave perfectly, but instead it breaks down. It seems to fight your control and cannot withstand your relentless demands. It does not have a mind of its own, but it reacts to the pressures put upon it.

Have you considered the pressures you put upon your body? You obsess over every detail or you ignore it completely. You diet and exercise – you run it like a slave. You do not treat it well. If your body could choose, it would not choose to be your friend. You are no kind dictator – you are ruthless. You do not enjoy your life – you live your life to death. You run yourself mercilessly – caught up in the illusion. You have truly lost sight and allowed the world to take you over. You have given up the reins and allowed others to control you. You are no longer your master – the great creator you designed yourself to be. You are the slave to circumstances by default. You have given over control to others, a little at a time. It all happened so slowly that you were not even aware. You lost yourself, a small portion each day, until you do not see yourself – you have melted into the illusion. The creator has fallen into the grasp of the creation. No longer in control, but he is being controlled. Set yourself above all of this, and retake your rightful position. Never will you control circumstances, but you can choose to see them differently. You can rise above the fray and live in peace, for that is your true nature.

Your nature is a reflection of the peace of home. You have lived a life of turmoil because you came here to live in turmoil. You chose to know the "is not" rather than the "is." The purpose of your life is to experience things which are not of God. To know yourself as a perfect creation, you have chosen to experience life as if you were not who you truly are. You have willingly chosen to believe that you are at the control of something vicious and cruel. You have chosen to allow yourself to imagine that you are not the creator, but the unwitting victim of all that is cruel and unkind.

You imagine your life as the hell of your literature. Your hell is the experience of unreality, seemingly so very real and hopeless. Hell is not a place – it is a perceived mental state. It is the opposite of God and cannot therefore be real. You have searched the world over and have not found the literal hell, but you have had experiences which simulate for you all that hell entails. Hell is that which is experienced as the opposite of what you are. You have been in "hell" yet feared going to the "pit" even after your death. If God were so cruel, He would be like you. To live in hell and be sentenced to hell – could this be the plan of the loving and most High God, whom you worship?

Let not your hopes be dashed, for I have come to offer hope. To let you know the reality that life does not exist. In escaping the world, you will find the peace of freedom that will allow you to have a more heavenly view of life. In knowing the truth, you have the perceptual vantage point to rise above the hell that you see as your life. You can freely walk as I did and know the unreality of the world. I was not immune to the cruelty of the world, just as you are not, but I knew the futility of it all and this is what I agreed to teach you.

I came not the last time to serve any other purpose. I came to let you know that life is but a dream. I came to demonstrate the life of one who knows the secrets that life is but for the experience. I have walked before you, seemingly in time, as a beacon of light. I have chosen to show you the way to know your Father as He truly is. He has chosen to give you the means to walk the world, above the imaginings and to have you see the light. The light is merely an understanding – a way of looking at life from the status intended. Your Father knows that you are safe, but you have not known the safety of your soul. You have not known yourself as you are; therefore, I have chosen to show you the way home.

Have you chosen to see what you are being shown? Have you sought the peace that comes from following me to our restful home? Only those who are willing will take the necessary steps – for the undoing of the world is not an easy road, it seems the most complicated thing of all. For to be in the illusion, yet seek to perceive yourself outside of it, is seemingly difficult indeed. This requires great mental determination – for it goes against all that the world has taught. To emotionally detach yourself from the dramas of life is a monumental act of faith. You have no basis in fact to relinquish the world's control, yet you know that there is no peace to be had in your endless string of dramas. Only by seeing yourself outside the drama will you clearly see the way.

As an astronaut sees the earth from above it, so shall you see yourself above the world. The world is but a thing and not the basis of your existence. The world is for your body, not for your soul's rest. At first you can imagine in short spurts, yourself as in the world and not a part of it. Separate yourself mentally from the crowd. Realize that the crowds are really your family on the similar quest to yours. They are not your enemies and they are seeking to know themselves. Some in the crowd have advanced in perception more than others, yet all will end up at the same place.

You have placed great emphasis on the body and what it sees. You feel your way through life, ever searching for escape. But inside the dome of life, you imagine no escape. You have not realized that only your mind is held hostage for the body holds you not. The body is a tool, but not what you are. Allow yourself to be free and see what life does offer. For above the pain is seen the cruelty of man, especially upon himself.

You have not realized your earthly behaviors nor the vicious way that you have treated yourselves. You have seen yourselves as guilty of all sorts of sin and have held on to past hurts which have festered into untold misery. You have put burdens upon yourself, almost unknowingly. A time of self examination is necessary to unlock the secrets you have harbored to your own demise. Until you know your behaviors, you can not be free of the burdens that hold you hostage.

The secrets of life are held within you. You have but come to realize the evils that you do to yourself and to be released from self-destruction. You never knew the guilt that you harbored, added slowly the pieces over the days of your life. Allow yourself to know the one whom you have unknowingly become. You have swallowed guilt and doubt and fear and have been lost in the maze of confusion. You have become lost inside the dream that is now but to be revealed.

To awaken from the dream is our current mission. It is upon this threshold of realization that you now find yourself. To at last know that you are not what you have seemingly become. You are free to be all that life has chosen for you to be or to be free of the illusion, imprisoned no more. Can it ever be that you are but held within the walls that you have built or at least allowed to be built around yourself? You have closed yourself off from the world and even from yourself. You have allowed the misery to become the focus instead of the fleeting gift of experience. You have seen things wrongly and I am here to help you see the light. The light is only hidden behind the veil that you have erected. You are no more the person that you have fallen victim to. You are free at last to realize and choose the beauty that is truly you.

Never have I left you to fight your way alone. I am here, but a call away, and will do for you all that you will allow. You have not realized the clinging of your will to the needless struggles of life which call to you each day. Concern for the details of life has distracted you from your purpose. You came here willingly to know not what you are. In this knowing, you have seen the distaste that you have for your unreal self. You now seek to be released and return to the self you choose to know.

Can there be a moment when a child can be separate from his parents? Physically yes, but always there is an inherent connection. How much more so can you not be separate from your Creator? Know that in reality, you are never away from God. In this knowledge is revealed the truth of who you are. If you cannot be separate from God, then what you seem to be must be unreal. If you are truly God's creation, then you cannot behave as you do. There must be a rational explanation for the diversity of your truth. If one is true, then the other is not.

If you are as God, you are not as man. If you are perfect, then what is this thing that behaves imperfectly? Who is this that you see in the mirror? Surely God has not created so fleeting a vision for He knows only of eternity and things that live forever. God knows nothing of temporary. He knows only what is forever. Who is the Creator then, of this thing that you've become? Take my hand and walk with me and we shall know the truth. For in the game of life, there you can no longer be.

You have failed to be further attracted to this thing you call life. You have chosen to leave the darkness and wander into the light. Let us linger no more in the myriad dreams of life. Let us walk joyfully into the peacefulness of God's light. The world is but a trick that you have played upon yourself. You have had the experience for which you came and are now prepared to overcome the world by walking in the light.

You never imagined the darkness that held you down. You thought that you were trapped – meant to suffer and die. What message were you given for hope to be released? Your only release is seen in death and at times you playfully imagine that too. But death is merely another shift in perspective. Death is not the end. It is simply the shifting of the perspective from the dream to the truth. It is difficult to imagine yourself as spirit when you are grounded in the world. But the change in perspective had after death is attainable today – if that is what you choose. You do not have to die to be released from the world. You need only see the world as I do. If you are willing, I'll show you how.

A sense of separation from self is to be experienced to objectively understand the motives for your behavior. As you watch another person, you must watch yourself. See how you behave and what causes you to feel as you do. Do not let life be so mystical – look at it as it truly is. You need not feel a stranger while observing yourself, yet a sense of detachment is helpful to be able to see what you are doing and why. If you have a vested interest in something, you will feel the need to protect it. Regardless of any sort of real value, your perceived value will cause you to hold on tightly to that which you have chosen to take under you wing. There is nothing which truly belongs to you, even If you imagine it to be yours. Things and people come and go in your life and you spend all sorts of time and effort clinging to those things you imagine are yours.

You have spent so much time trying to acquire, and then hold on to things which are as unrealistic as your attempts to control them. There is nothing lasting in this world, not even you who fight so hard to hold on. There are those who give up their lives and happiness to hold on to property which can never be owned forever. You will die and the property will belong to someone else. All the wealth and possessions will come and go with the tides of life. Only seeing your attachments are you able to let them go, as they are merely here one minute and gone the next. If your life depends upon a thing and suddenly it is gone, do you die without it? Is there anything worth the futility of life?

When you have experienced loss, you have found that in fact your life did not depend upon it. You may have missed it greatly, but you did not die without it. Even if you had died, it would not have been because of the loss, but your attachment to it. Your heartbreaks will not cause your death unless you choose to die. Death is always a choice. This seems the most unlikely thing in the world. Death is merely transition and when you choose, you may make the transition back to reality – awakening truly from the illusion.

Death is not unfairly put upon you nor controlled by outside forces. It is as you have chosen, even if seemingly caused accidentally by another. We never imagine that someone would choose to die suddenly, nor especially would we think that someone caused themselves to be sick enough to die. "It must have been God's will," you'll rationalize, for that person would never have chosen such a horrible life or death.

If you understood sickness, you would realize your attachment to the experience. Why would anyone choose to be sick? Sickness brings an out for some. It gives you reason to let go of life. To others it brings attention, for we all love attention. Sickness is not the cause, but rather the effect, of our intentions for our lives. I can heal no one who has not chosen to be healed. I cannot perform random healings to those who do not wish to be healed. Mr. Usui, the Reiki Master, found that healing the poor caused a great backlash of ill will towards him. He had wrongly assumed that all who are sick would choose to be well. He found out that the sickness gave an excuse to people for which they used to live as they had chosen. I could lay hands on ten people this minute and not all would be healed. Only those who chose to be healed would be healed. It has nothing to do with belief – it has to do with a choice. I can not heal the unwilling any more than you can. It is against your free will to be healed if you have not chosen it. Have you ever considered that the ultimate healing is death? True release from all suffering is death. Suicide is a more immediate end of the suffering, but with it comes guilt and condemnation. Dying after an illness is perfectly excusable. Who could hold you accountable for that?

There are other reasons for choosing sickness, most of which you do not realize. If you grow tired of working, perhaps an accident will offer you a guiltless way out. If you came into this life to benefit from the learning of limitations, you will choose to be born with limited capacity. There is great strength in overcoming adversity – a different level of strength is revealed when you are put in a deficit position. There are many layers of complexity which you have not even considered. Your thinking is not as shallow as you have imagined. The more you dig, the more that you will find hidden behind the veil of your illusion.

Once you see past even a few of the layers of you, you will be amazed that you didn't know yourself at all. You seem to be looking at a stranger. It's as if you had no idea at all about your true self – your behaviors were a mystery even to you. Your motivations were that of a madman. You begin to see that you are not you at all. You are revealed to be all that you had imagined yourself not to be. The rationalizations and reasonings that you had used to justify your behaviors fall upon the bitter realization that you have behaved from more basic human instincts, carefully disguised as benevolent and loving. You see at last that you are really just human and your actions are merely reactions to the inputs of others. You have not gone out to create a new thing – you have only gone day to day bouncing around from input to input. You are not alive in the creative sense. You are merely the reactions of the behaviors of others. In this, there is no genuine you to be seen. You are not the creative creation of the Creator – you are the reactive reaction of the Reactor. You are not on the offensive, but the defensive side of life. On the defensive side of life, there is no life – you are merely the effect of the causes of others. In this, you have been unable to be yourself.

Our task now is to reveal you as you really are. It is no longer enough for you to float through life awaiting the next action of another for which you must react. It is time for you to be a Creator – to create the world anew. You have witnessed the influences of others upon you. You have been given the chance to see yourself as you are not. It's time to be you – the you that God created you to be.

You have known that you are not the person of purpose that you were created to be. You took what you were given and saw the world as cruel and unrelenting. For certainly the world is merciless indeed, until its parts are awakened to realize the zombies walking the earth. Yours is not to be less than you were created to be. You have taken much abuse – all in the name of service. You have been told that you are less than perfect and you have believed this to be true. I tell you this – you are perfect just as God created you! Do not make the mistake of looking in a mirror to see yourself, for what you see is not you. The failing eyesight of humanity is not capable of seeing the perfection of God's creation. Even if your eyes were to see the magnificence of God, your simple mind could not process the incoming images. Your body is not perfect, nor are any parts of it. To see perfection, you must see beyond anything human or worldly.

Certainly, you believe that it is impossible to see without physical sight. You have become very dependent upon your body and cannot imagine that you can exist without it. The body is nothing – a temporary creation for the purpose of experience. It is really no different in fact than any other vehicle. God did not make cars, but you drive them. God did not make bodies, but you walk around in them. Which is more sacred – the body or the car?

In God's sight, neither is sacred, for neither is perfect. Your attachment to your body causes you all sorts of isolation and despair. There is no flawless body, for all of them do die. Learn to see your body as if it were your car. Imagine yourself getting out of the car. Imagine floating around without a body. One is no more difficult than the other. The more that you practice, the easier it will get. Learn to see yourself as unlimited spirit instead of a tired old car. At first it may seem impossible, but soon it will demonstrate how attached you are to the body, knowing that eventually it will fail. Just like the car of a teenager, you tend your body with nothing but the greatest of admiration, respect and attention. You have attached great significance to something that will simply come and go. Let go of the hold of the very thing that keeps you separate from God and all your brothers.

You believe that your eyesight is true, in spite of knowing that it can so easily be fooled. A mirage in a desert is but a very simple example. Remember that the eyes view light particles which are interpreted by the brain based on the past. It is all too easy to misinterpret what the brain receives from the eyes. Squint your eyes and look around – the distortions are easily understood. Each person has a different storehouse of processed images based on their own past experiences. What one may interpret an apple is clearly an orange to another.

You are so easily fooled by physical things – have you ever had a dream that seemed so real that you awoke sweating with a racing pulse? Your eyesight did not make that experience; it was all within your mind. Can you be so very sure that the experience you are having this moment is not also a dream? You have underestimated the creativity of your thoughts. Is it possible that the entire world is but a dream?

The Bible states that God caused a deep sleep to fall upon Adam, but never does it mention his being awakened. Could it be that Adam, in order for him to experience another spirit as separate that he would have to have been put to sleep – to not know himself as he truly was? It would be unlikely that spirits could, or would even want to, procreate. So, a plan (or an imagining) would have to be had to make it seemingly possible. In order for the world to seem to exist, there had to be some sort of "unknowing" or imagining created. Certainly, the details of the Bible are sketchy and open to interpretation, but it is more likely that God would have put Adam to sleep in order to fool him into thinking himself merely human, than that he needed a little anesthetic while a rib was taken from him.

Have you further considered the authenticity of the stories from the time of Genesis? Scientists today use radio-carbon dating to estimate the world's age. These tests are the most accurate currently available and show the age of the earth to be millions if not billions of years old. The generations listed in the Bible give mankind a very short time on earth. This creates discrepancies in data sources and does place belief where there may be none warranted. There are many assumptions placed upon the Bible and upon the scientific discoveries. It is very likely that man existed for longer than the Biblical timeline indicates. How can it be known that Adam was the first man on earth? How long is seven days to God? The list of possibilities is endless and all are so far unprovable. So, can we then take the Bible as literal truth or must we believe or disbelieve that it is the word of God? It is very unlikely to a reasonable mind that the first man alive knew to document his life and to make sure that it was done by all who followed. But, with God all things are possible, so fill in the blanks as you will. You are free to believe as you choose. In truth it matters not. God's truth never changes and will never be proven nor disproven by man – for it simply is and always has been. God alone knows all and can reveal all. So, how much faith can you really put in anything that the world has to offer? Your eyes do not know what an apple is, they simply receive light particles. Your brain does not know what an apple is either, it has been told to associate the word apple with a certain image. In truth, only your soul knows what is true. Everything else you think you know is merely what you have been taught and have accepted as belief.

Is it possible that I did not come to fulfill Biblical prophecies, but knew of your beliefs and did accommodate them while on earth? There are things done solely for the benefit of your beliefs. To help you know our Father, I did what you were told I would do. Did Lazarus ask to be raised from the dead for his own benefit or did he agree to be a faith-builder for God? The Bible is full of fanciful stories told by great story tellers. I do not wish to dispute nor confirm the correctness of the Bible contents. I understand your beliefs and do not wish to judge them, but I do wish to offer you more than the Bible is able to contain. God's knowledge is unlimited, but the Bible is limited. Would you choose to know more if you could?

You have found it easy to believe the tales of God as He is not, yet you have a problem believing that you are as He created you - an eternal spirit. Have you seen someone after his/her death? There are those who claim to have seen me after my death. Are they seeing me or a vision of their minds, created from paintings of me? When you imagine God, doesn't He look just like on TV? Your mind sees and believes what does not really exist. Will you ever even consider that this might be true?

To know God, you must believe in something beyond the physical. You are aware of your thoughts, but you have somehow believed that your brain has created all thoughts. Certainly, the brain does process information received, but it is not creative – it is reactive. What then is the creative mechanism that causes all things?

All things begin as ideas. What creates or causes an idea? What is the basic beginning of every idea? You may imagine that one day an idea just popped into your head out of the blue. Something never generates from nothing. Who or what put the original idea in motion? Many have speculated and the Big Bang Theory, although not provable, has been just as accepted as was the theory that the earth is flat. Man seeks to understand, but all paths lead to an unknown. What is the great unknown that started it all? Further, when was the all started and how?

Man can do no more than speculate, for always a question follows an answer. Even what mankind has created is beyond his understanding. Therein lies the true beauty of all of creation. If man were to figure out life, then life would cease to exist. For there would no longer be an interest or need for it. Life is merely an illusion, created by man for the purpose of experience.

Why has man allowed himself to be fooled into believing that only life is real? Why does man seek God if in this world there is no proof? Yes, those who came after me into this world will say that I caused belief in God. But before me, there were many who believed. Some believed that they had heard God's voice, while others believed that there were many gods. What is the unending attraction to God? Why has man always believed in a higher power?

Perhaps the seed of the Creator lies in every man. Perhaps even those who have never heard of Jesus or Buddha or God have always somehow known that this is not all there is. Has God put Himself into His creations? Perhaps a part of the true you knows that you are not away from God, ever. Perhaps there exists a "homing" device within you that always calls you home to God. Some would say that the call of God is merely your imaginings. I dare say that the fact that you can imagine that there is a God is the best proof of God's existence.

I am no different than you. I simply had different experiences. There seems to be a never ending quest for God that is the one thing that withstands the ages. Certainly, I did not invent God and I did not come to earth to lead you astray. Regardless of your beliefs in me or not, God is the one transcendent factor outlasting all generations. Were He the concoction of only active imaginations, then surely this is the greatest of all imaginings.

Why has man always believed in what he cannot detect with his five senses? Could it be that he has an internal sense that carries greater weight than that of the five combined? You've all heard of the "sixth" sense and have experienced it at times. Is it the product of imagination, coincidence or random insights perhaps missed by the more obvious senses? The mind is a creature like no other. Although almost impossible to prove, there is great evidence for senses beyond the five. The world's militaries and scholars have studied and taught ways of thought transference. Mothers have demonstrated nonsensical connections to their children. Is it impossible to believe that God has not also an inherent sensory connection with His creations?

How would you explain the "knowings" of things to come, unless the "knowns" were somehow planned or created in advance? There are those who have the ability to know what the future holds. I demonstrated this ability over and over. This was not a special ability just for me, it is the same ability that all of humanity shares.

The levels of connectedness among all of God's creations are difficult to understand. At your level of experience, certain assumptions must be held as truth to ever imagine that you are separate from no one and no thing. You see yourself as separate and assume that you are. Let's assume the reverse and see how that feels. See all thoughts, minds, ideas and energies as connected. On a slightly deeper level, assume that the world rests on the interconnectedness of all things. Just as you know that water is a common element of most things, use that analogy. If all beings are connected by the forces of life held within water, then the sameness of one thing supports most things. What if the water was electrically charged such that all water "feels" all other water – water attracts water. Human bodies are seventy five percent water and the earth is seventy five percent water. The power of the water to attract man to earth and earth to man would be very strong, right? All bodies, each seventy five percent water, would be attracted to each other. The energetic connection would be strong and obvious, much like gravity. Carbon is the common element in all earthly forms. Carbon is more difficult to imagine than water, so let's assume that all things have water, even rocks. We need not be scientific, for even scientists are fooled.

A sense of connectedness to the entire universe is essential to the secrets of God. If we further assume that every thing except the common element of water is removed from all things, then only water is left – everywhere. Only your water content remains. What you would then have is sameness – everything equal and alike. You and I would just be water. You would be like me in every way.

Now, let's turn the water into spiritual energy. All things are really only spiritual energy – this is what we really are. We are all created of this same energy. At our basic Source, we are the same. So, how do we appear so different and behave so differently? What "energetic" shift causes the creation of differences, if in fact there are no real differences?

If no real differences exist, then unreal differences are created. How can the unreal be created? In the same manner that God created the real – with thought energy. You used your thought energy to create yourself as unreal. You imagined yourself as physical, fearful, unloving, selfish and separate – all the things that you are not. You had no need to create perfection as you already were. You imagined yourself as you are not, so that you could appreciate what you are.

You created a "pretend" you to see yourself as you are not. The God creation – you, could never do the things that you do. The real you is incapable of worry, doubt, fear or guilt. These things were not created by God; therefore, they were no part of your natural self. You have been allowed to create God's opposite in order to know God. In truth, you have created nothing but an imaginary self to observe. But, you have been convinced that the imaginary self is real. The imaginary self, much like an imaginary friend from our childhood, seems even more real than was ever intended. The seeming realism of the imaginary self causes us to have the experience as if it were real. Just as sleeping dreams appear real until we awaken, so does the imaginary self seem real until we awaken.

Awakening from the slumber of illusion causes truth to be revealed. The truth stands apart from all else once the illusion is looked at with an awakened mind. It becomes readily apparent that what you have created is very unreal and unrealistic. As a man looks upon a robot that he has created, he sees all of the flaws within his creation. An awakened mind does see your unreal self in much the same way. The flaws, once hidden, are suddenly revealed in all their splendor. No longer can you believe in your creation. You see it for what it is – an imaginary play thing created merely for enjoyment. It was built from your imagination to pretend to live a while and die. For all of man's creations do have a limited life span.

Chapter 3 - _Am I guiltless and you are not?_

How sad it is that you are condemned at birth into the judgment of "sin." To live your life swallowed up by that which is merely a construct of man's judgment is no life at all. You have so willingly swallowed the condemnation of man and have believed yourself imperfect because of the declarations of man's judgment. Have you taken the time to realize that the pronouncement of sin upon your life has altered your life completely? Have you even stopped to wonder how one can call a thing sin while another sees it as ok? Who decided the determinants of sin? You say that God gave mankind the ground rules for sinful behavior. The Ten Commandments are the rules by which sin is created. To do wrong is to do something against the Ten Commandments. But, I challenge you to examine the commandments and apply them to the test of reality. Is there any one of them which holds true in all circumstances? I dare say that what is truly considered sin to one is the reasonable choice for another.

In short, the Ten Commandments implore us to not: have other Gods; kill; make graven images; commit adultery; vainly use God's name; steal; forget the Sabbath; lie; dishonor our parents; or covet.

The very issuance of commandments violates your free will and God's promise to not violate your free will. The first three relate to properly respecting God. Suffice it to say that God has no need for respect and would certainly not demand that you respect Him. God certainly knows Himself to be the only God, so telling us to not have any others is rather needless, don't you think? The fourth speaks of the Sabbath. Although it is wise to rest at least one day a week, God would not command that it be so, for there are those who must work seven days a week to make ends meet. You may remember that I had a little trouble for having healed on the Sabbath. You be the judge of what is right. The fifth is another common sense statement which goes without saying. Six through nine are so obvious that explanation isn't necessary, as they relate to integrity of behavior and can be applied to most situations; however, with the rules of man, exceptions always apply. Can you imagine a situation for justified killing? Does not the Bible have many examples of God ordering the killing of many people? If God commanded that there be no killing, why would He then authorize it so often? The tenth tells you not to covet; but the Old Testament lists many situations ordered by God for the taking of what belongs to someone else. God merely takes from one and gives to whom He pleases. Certainly, we would assume it to be God's prerogative, but doesn't it seem rather unloving to take from another what is not yours, in defiance of commandment number eight also? Does it really make sense that God would order the violation of His own given commandments?

Certainly, there is some wisdom in the thoughts conveyed by the Ten Commandments, but there is no universal right or wrong, so any written rule will be wrong at times. Man has not learned that there are consequences for his actions and that God has no need of issuing proclamations. This is yet another way that man has attributed his rules to God. From this do restrictions flow to inhibit the freedom of people.

But, if you find comfort, keep the commandments for yourself. Do as you will and find comfort in the things that bring you happiness. Each person born has an inherent set of values, instilled by God. You need proclaim no one a sinner for you are not the judge of anyone but yourself. You need not judge others for they will judge themselves. You are given the tools with which to operate properly and they are not written in literal letters – they are written upon your spirit. You have assumed that you must control behavior, but it is not so. Animals behave instinctively and exist perfectly with no written rules.

The world seems to operate from the sinful perspective rather than the loving. Mankind is so anxious to condemn and you have been far too accepting of this condemnation. Is behavior really improved from condemnation or from praise and loving-kindness? Do you respond better to praise or condemnation? Apply all rules first to yourself, so that you will know how another will be affected by your causations. Your world has become aware of the damaging effects of verbal abuse, yet you would give God credit for condemning everyone. It would seem that you are behind, even at the start of your life. The cloud of condemnation is forever carried with you all the days of your life. What purpose does it serve to be condemned? Does it serve to make your life better or to improve your behavior? In all things seek to understand the purpose of your creations. If something that you have created simply cannot be reasonably justified, then why continue to fall under its influence?

God knows us to be perfect and incapable of sin. Man has created the concept of sin as the term used to convey wrongdoing. Babies are considered by many to be born into sin, but can this truly be? What sin does a baby commit? The baby grows and does continue to commit sins and all the days of his life are filled with sins of the flesh, as they are called. In this life, no one is free from this presumed sinful nature, and therefore must be condemned to live with the burdens and guilt so associated with sin.

The term sin connotes such an evil feeling that it would be less destructive to merely call seemingly wrong behaviors errors. Sin creates an atmosphere of evil wrong doing that sets apart those who are condemned to suffer punishments often greater than their crimes. It is more likely that behaviors are performed within the perspective of the person behaving accordingly. Certainly, in this world, there are behaviors so atrocious that we would consider them to be evil acts. But, what causes a person to perform evil acts? Mental illness is a condition which is widely accepted as legitimate sickness by most people. The acts of the insane are not considered evil, but are the unreasonable behaviors of an unreasonable person. But, clearly mankind does not fully grasp all of the concepts of mental illness. How can people know the true mindset of another? Would not every murder somehow arrive from an unstable mental condition? Who commits murder except from a distorted perception of reality?

The mind is truly mysterious and cannot be quantified or qualified. The mind of man is incapable of understanding the mind created by God. At some point, man decides that certain criteria constitute the difference between criminal and insane behavior. But, from man's limited mental capacity, he cannot ever truly distinguish one from the other. As seen as the best means of behavior control, man has set forth a standard by which all men are judged. On the basis of generalities, come the laws of humanity.

You are told that I was perfect and without sin. If all are born into sin, then I would be no different. I would have carried the same guilt of condemnation as all men do. Do not put me upon a pedestal higher than your own. I was at a different learning level than you and had no need of defenses, for I was not offended; therefore, I felt no guilt or shame for I knew my place in God. Once you realize that you cannot be offended, you will have no need of defenses. You will behave more and more as I did – with my level of learning does come improved behavior. I didn't take things personally, so I was not insulted. Remember that nothing can harm you unless you allow it to. Words are only as effective as the listener gives them credence. Words can also be spoken in emotional states which can alter their recipient's perception of them. Words are merely symbols of symbols. I did not put more importance upon what was said about me than was necessary. One must choose to be offended before he is offended. I had no need to be offended; therefore, I did not react as an offended person offering a defense. Defenses are not necessary for the sinless and guiltless. Defenses are only useful to those who have needed to be defended. I had no such need.

The need for defenses comes mainly from pride. Pride is an ego construct which is not real, but feels very real to those who see themselves as important. Persons of advanced spirituality have no need to feel important, for the perception of importance is truly nothing. Because you feel yourself important, does not make it so. But, once you build the house of self importance, it must be defended at all costs. I had nothing to defend; therefore, errant behavior was not necessary for me.

Once you know who you truly are, you will no longer need defenses. You will seem as perfect as I did, as are all masters seen. The illusion of separateness and importance causes one to behave a certain way. Persons of little or no ego, simply float through life in a least offensive manner. For they know the futility of life. They do not choose to even react to things which would cause others to fight. Detachment from meaningless influences is a by-product of spiritual maturity. It is one thing to want comfortable clothes for appropriate cover and quite another to wear uncomfortable fashionable clothes simply for the perception of importance. It is well that you should want nice things, but not for having or for showing off. The most expensive items are not necessarily the best. Human comforts differ greatly from material comforts. I had no need for a pocket full of coins or a purebred horse. My perception of importance greatly varies from yours.

If I lived in your time, I would be seen as a bum. I would be considered a loser and as lacking ambition. I would not be on TV in the finest suits. Your society would condemn me as unsuccessful, for I would lack the outward appearance that you require as symbolic of success. In your time, who would listen to me? If I didn't roll up in an expensive sports car or limo with lots of expensive accessories, you would not even give me a second look. My words would be meaningless as I would be ignored, based purely upon my appearance. Now, I could make a splash with a custom tailored suit, fancy watch and entourage just for show. You would be wowed and adoring of my obviously superior talents. Give a fancy suit to someone and instantly they are transformed into a position worthy of higher esteem. Do the clothes make the man? Or in any way cause his messages to be more meaningful?

Make a hit movie and suddenly you are among the most influential people on earth. Your character faults are overlooked or even seen as part of what made you great. You lavish wealth upon those who wear fancy clothes and are pretentious, yet your teachers are disrespected as servants. Do you see a misperception here? Do you ever wonder why you allow unimportant things to be held higher than things that are truly important? How do you justify to yourself this disparity?

Religions are judged based upon attendance and capital holdings rather than spirituality. You have given your allegiance to that which is most popular rather than that which is more spiritually enlightening. Closeness to God is not based on assets or expenditures. Wealth does not offer a relationship with God. In fact, it offers a greater distraction from God. While you are focused on your religious activities, you are not focused on God. While singing and clapping in a church, you are not alone with God. You have reasoned that church service is the only time that you should spend with God. But, is a church service really a one-on-one experience with God? Is it not more likely that a church service is rather another distraction from God? The idea of church is more appealing than actually beneficial to your relationship with God. Rituals do not make you spiritual. Churches cannot provide you with an experience of God on a personal level. Only God can reveal Himself to you. The perspective of others can open doors of possibilities, but real truth is only of God and from God.

The experience of church can serve to open your thoughts to the experiences of others. God is only experienced one-on-one. Do not assume that hearing words read or explained from the Bible will offer you God. God seeks that you know Him as He truly is and not as He is interpreted from words. Just as hearing about something is not the same as experiencing it, the same is true of God. The experience of God is different for every person – fitting specifically the needs of each person. Hearing about the experiences of others can cause you to believe that you are less because you have not had miracles or revelations. Your personal experience must be your own. All levels of learning and understanding create the need for teaching on an individual basis. What is understood by me would not necessarily benefit you if you had the same experience. Don't assume that a person who claims to speak to God is in any way greater or better than you. For all that is required to hear God's voice is the willingness to listen. You don't need a church, or a temple or a shrine to hear God's voice. In fact, it is rather hard to hear God while someone else is speaking or the choir is singing. I made it a practice to spend time alone with God without distractions. There is no substitute for God time. Do yourself a favor and get quiet and listen to God. He speaks to all, all the time. Do you listen? When was the last time you heard God speak?

The unraveling of the illusion happens in stages. An instant of total awareness would be shocking to your mind and would prove to be counter productive. This would be like being wakened from a deep sleep by having cold water poured on you. The shock would render the experience useless. God has chosen a more merciful awakening - a slowly, carefully offered eye opening on various levels. It has taken you years to get to your present frame of mind – would a sudden shock benefit your understanding? The process of unlearning can be quite disconcerting for the seeker. It seems as if the whole world is turned upside down and you no longer have a grip on your foundation. You feel that you are without the building blocks that had formed your belief system. Your belief house is slowly dismantled, brick by brick, until you are open to all possibilities. At this point, you can build a house based on truth and not illusion. God will give you the bricks of truth with which to construct your house of truth. The house of truth is the only indestructible house you ever build. My house was built on truth and inside of it did I find comfort and solace. The world is built on illusions of greatness of materiality. All these houses fall eventually, just as all the great empires have fallen. But, God's truth stands firm for all eternity. But, you must first get out of the house of illusion before you can build the house of truth.

The unlearning and rebuilding process is often tedious and time consuming. Were the process fully understood up front, it would be far less chosen than it already is. But, the call to return to the perfection of God is universal and all must face the arduous journey home. You are not left without resources for the journey, but the journey can be as pleasing or as painful as you choose. If you cling to your old ways, it will seem very painful. If you willingly allow for the process to unfold without a fight, you will find it the most informative and revealing experience ever had. For the journey to know yourself can be unpleasant if you are distant from your truest self. This is the point of revelation and where you begin to see yourself as you truly are. Past experiences are reviewed and motives revealed. You will see the error of your ways from a different perspective with greater objectivity. You will begin to understand more and more how humanity reacts to causes and the effects which are created accordingly. You will see yourself as if you were looking at another person. For only an objective perspective can give you true understanding.

You had not realized yourself and will be very surprised to watch yourself behave for reasons you had rationalized as ok. You will witness yourself as if a child having tantrums. You will see how ridiculously you have behaved and realize that you had seen things all wrong. You will be able to witness the actions of others in a different light. No longer will you see people as out to get you, but rather out to save themselves.

It is human nature and our "civilized" behaviors which cause myriads of selfish behaviors. We have so eloquently learned to cover our tracks that we have also hidden them from ourselves. It is ok to stab someone in the back for surely they deserved it because they hurt us. So, you use your inside influence to subtly hurt them by telling the boss that you think they are crazy and have been acting irrationally. You pretend to help the boss, but your true motive is to payback a perceived wrong. Atleast animals are honest and not so clever. They will overtly do to your face what they intend. You have contrived a clever scheme to harm someone because of a perception that you have about them. The wiles of the wicked are so seldom revealed.

You have never understood the depths of your actions and the levels of cover up that you will concoct. From two basic motives, love and fear, you have created so many levels of cover up that you cannot now see the bottom. You have muddied the waters so much that to swim in the water would require special equipment to see the bottom.

Clarity of true vision is always constant. It is the barriers to clarity which distort your vision. Barriers of beliefs built from false perceptions have kept you from seeing with any sort of clarity. The teachings of the world are based on worldly motivations. You will never see clearly while looking through worldly eyes clouded by worldly beliefs. Yet, from your innermost being, you somehow know that what you do see and believe is somehow flawed and always takes a bridge of assumption to give credence to your beliefs. There is always an unknown element which causes a belief to be believable. Only God's universal truth requires no bridge for believability. For truth is merely correct and complete. There is nothing needed to be added nor taken away. God's truth merely is and needs no explanation or interpretation.

To make yourself believe what is untrue requires some assumptions or fillers to explain the gaps in logic. Humanity would see the opposite, that God only exists as belief and must be assumed. However, truth indicates that something existed before humanity and humanity does admit that there is a great unknown. Your beliefs about this great unknown are as varied as the imaginations creating the beliefs. The most universal belief is in God – the omnipotent Creator of all. Some would call this Source or Oneness or the Unknowable. Regardless of your beliefs, there does seem to exist that which calls to you to know it. This "is" cannot be avoided, although it can be denied for a time.

But what is this constant unknown that so captivates mankind that it cannot be explained away forever? Can it be known? Is it real or simply a creation of our imaginations? For those who have experienced the call of God, no explanation is necessary. There is an inner truth that defies explanation and even eliminates the need for explanation. The rational mind knows that the world does not make sense unless you rationalize the varied parts. If God is heard and understood, then everything suddenly makes sense. The universal truth of God takes away the mysteries of life by offering a reasonable and rational explanation for everything. Although not provable by man during his worldly incarnations, the truth is revealed after death, when your soul is no longer covered by the veil of illusion.

It is amusing that man has assumed himself to be the great demystifier of all. Man has not assumed himself to be of very limited intellect. Man has not truly imagined that there does exist a higher intellect in the universe, but that only earth holds all intellectual capacity. How deceived is man that he is so ego ridden as to believe that he is the best that was ever created. While even bacteria, believed to be without intelligence can survive in places where man cannot, you have assumed them to be of lesser intelligence. Man has not outlived bacteria and bacteria will outlive man. Man has been killed countless times by something as stupid as he considers bacteria. The vanity of man has clouded reality so much that he has assumed that only he rules the world. Man cannot live without bacteria, yet bacteria live without man. How superior do you now feel?

You have taken the "likeness and image of God" line in the Bible to mean that you are like God – physically. Humanity would be well served to understand that this is not a statement of physical fact, but of spiritual fact. Unless you see God on the street, do not assume any longer that your physical body has anything to do with God. A little modestly is in order, for you have taken yourselves much too seriously and given yourselves too much credit. Your physical selves are merely nothing but tote bags for your soul. Your soul is God's perfect creation, as are all of God's spiritual creations. Matter is too mundane a medium for God's creative forces. Do not put greater emphasis on the temporary ego self than true reality demands. Remember always that you have imagined this game of hide from yourself, so you can find yourself. You have let life become the dominant element and put your soul on the back burner. You have fooled yourself with the help of others, in making the word real to you. Your world will die, just as you will die. Don't put so much stock in things born to die. See the temporary as temporary. See that what your body contains is not really you. And most of all, admit to yourself that you are not the center of the universe, and all of creation does not revolve around you. Perhaps, just maybe, you are not as supreme on this earth as you had thought.

This is not to say that you are any more or less than any other creation. You are all the same as me and we are finding that we have been fooled into believing ourselves as sinful, evil creatures. We are merely misguided in the illusion. This is why we must seek truth and no longer be satisfied with the restrictions of humanity. There is no sin – you are not a sinner. You are not your behavior. Man judges as if your behavior were a literal part of you. You are not what you do. Judgment is relative based on perception. You were not born into sin. You are not any less or more perfect than anyone else. You are not a body. You cannot die. You are eternal and without fault.

Would it be any more ridiculous to say that the beam of light coming from the bulb is a sinner? You are as light. You are energy. You are not physical. This you find very hard to believe as you feel your body and connect with its inputs. But you know that it will die just as mine did. Then what? Don't assume that you have all the answers, for answers are not yet remembered. If it pleases you to see yourself as limited, then by all means continue. But, there is something within you that knows that death is not the end. You simply know that you will continue. Why not begin today to realize that you are eternal? Some of you may believe this already, but do you believe it because you know it or because you've been taught it?

My life was merely an example for you, but the truths I spoke were not understood and were badly translated. So, over and over I have inspired writers to give my messages. I have tried so many times to bring the truth into your awareness. But, you have sought to not think about the truth. You have spent your time watching TV and planning for your future. You have not chosen to learn the truth. Your avoidance of the truth makes it easier for you to exist as you have. Much like cult members who simply follow the teachings of the leader without question, you have followed your egos and have tried to avoid the truth as you are afraid of it. The truth about yourself is not an easy thing to look at. But, your soul's cries will not be denied.

One day, everyone seeks the truth when all else fails. When you no longer can explain away your life, you seek the means to unravel the mystery. When you reach this point, you are generally truly ready for the truth. But, the truth is not easy to accept because you are so vested in untruth. The truth will set you free, but not by the means that you had imagined. The truth is revealed to you as you are capable of handling it. It comes in waves – your eyes are opened slowly as the truth is revealed. The way you look at the world will be changed forever. The beliefs that you once held will be tested to see if they hold up under the scrutiny of the truth. Your new foundation, built firmly on the truth, will be indestructible. There will be no explanation not had to justify the truth and truth will be verifiable as common sense. This foundation will withstand any test and will be the only thing that dispels the untruths so believed by the world.

Your disgust with the ways of the world may follow a traumatic event or simply occur to you one day while watching TV. Either way, you will have set yourself upon your final journey – the journey that leads you home. There will be misery and amazement as you progress through the stages of this great journey. You will be shocked at some of the things you have believed and will at the same time be unwilling to let go of some beliefs which you do not necessarily believe, but hold dear. Everything in your life will be tested to sift out your truth. You will learn the real reason why things seem to happen as you become aware of a much broader perspective.

You will no longer see the world from your eyes only. You will learn to see from a larger vantage point which clearly demonstrates that you are not as isolated as you had imagined. You will begin to see the players on your team – all the players and not just the ones within your immediate circle. You will see that you are intertwined, even in small ways, with all the universe. You are not alone, even if you believe yourself to be.

You will see that there is much more to life than you ever imagined. You will see that you had been operating in a perceptual vacuum of errors and miscreations beyond your wildest dreams. You will learn the fullness of Oneness. You will learn about the creative energy of life and all things eternal. You will learn that you are nothing like what you had been taught or imagined. You will learn about time and space and the unreality of man's creations. The limits built upon your mind will be removed and you will know that greater is in you than is in the world.

Chapter 4 - _Am I equal but you are not?_

To truly love thy brother as thyself, we must see that all are truly equal in the eyes of God. There are those seen as greater and those seen as lesser, but these are merely perceptions based from the human perspective. God does not see from the perspective of humanity for humanity is not reality. In truth, I tell you that all are equal in the sight of God and it is God's divine vision which will allow all brothers to be equal in this world. When all brothers are equal in your sight, you will know God's love.

It is humanity's tendency to hold some in higher esteem than others. I was crucified publicly on a cross, but my suffering was so much less than the many who are publicly crucified over and over again. For an honest comparison, my suffering was light. Humanity sees my innocence as somehow making my suffering as somehow more unjust than the suffering of others. Have there not been others who have suffered unjustly? Certainly, each life lived serves a different and unique purpose as has been designed by each in advance of the experience. Why do you suppose that my suffering, because of my behavior, is somehow worse than the suffering of others?

Think for a moment about the suffering of those who were righteous. Many were martyred for their beliefs. This has happened since time seemed to begin. Do you not even today know someone who suffers seemingly needlessly and horribly? Have not even children, truly innocent, not also suffered in spite of their innocence? I am no greater than any other child of God. I came into this life to let you know that you are exactly the same as me – a child of God. Until you realize this, you will never know yourself as you truly are. It is my purpose to help you know yourself.

What causes a person to see him or her self as different from any other? What is there in life that has given us a belief in diversity when in truth we are all the same? We have been taught that the differences that we see are what makes us different. We are taught that our different behaviors make us different. We seek so much to be different that we cannot even imagine the unity of oneness – that we are all the same in the sight of God. The color of our skin, based largely on our environmental habitations, is seen as a great difference. Can you honestly believe that where a person lives and the effects upon their skin tone cause a person to be different? Were you to close your eyes, would people still appear differently?

You would also say that people are different because of their ethnicity or beliefs. You have used religions to bolster this claim of diversity. Take away outward appearances, beliefs, culture and behavior from a person and what differences remain? See all others through the sight of God, who sees no flesh as reality. See your brothers for the soul of God, created by God. In this visualization do barriers begin to fall. For you are not what you appear to be. You are not what you believe. You are the part of God that remains when your body has lost its usefulness. Without a body, only what remains is real.

Ah, but you still "think" that you think differently from all others. Are these "thoughts" nothing more than the constructs of what you have been taught? Does one ever really think like God? Would you even know how? God does not think that you are different from another. God thinks that you are basically playing a game or portraying a role. What you truly are is not temporary or different or in any way the body that you believe is you. See not your brothers as different from yourself. You and your brother are one in the same.

There is great peace to be had when you finally do come to the realization of the truth about yourself. You no longer find it necessary to justify your behavior or the behaviors of others. When you realize that you are God's perfect creation, playing the part of human for a time, you are free to have a far more loving life experience. To at last know that all others are merely your equals playing their human roles, just as I did, then you are more loving and less judgmental.

Your judgments about diversity stem from the ego's need to be special. Who wants to be, in this life, exactly like everyone else? So you play the part that you have chosen to play, along with all others, to have the experience of your life. See life for what it truly is and you will more fully enjoy the experience.

You would ask me why I chose a rather dismal end to my life experience, as you have read. Did it not serve the purpose as intended? Was not my life's experience perfectly suited for the purpose as intended? Further, as you now read these words, would you honestly say that I ended when my body left its life? If you believe that I was resurrected, then surely you believe that I am not a body, but an eternal creature of God. Because my body died, I did not die with it. I am as alive today as ever. You will be alive after your body's death. At that point, all doubt will be removed and you will know that you and I are one in the same. You will know that you and your brothers are one in the same. We are all equal in the sight of God and were created equal.

That you should not have to wait till death to know the truth, I teach you still. There is no wisdom that I would keep from you except that you are not ready. I would not have you ignorant of the truth, so I teach you always.

Did I not say that you should love your brother as yourself? Did I not tell you to do unto others as you would have done unto you? Does this in any way cause you to believe that I teach diversity? Did I in any way cause you to believe that I teach diversity? Did I in any way cause you to believe that one is greater than another? If you believe that I have, then my teachings have been misunderstood.

He who is without sin, cast the first stone. Did I not give you this teaching to cause you to eliminate the need for judgment? If all are the same, then why would I teach otherwise?

Consider carefully, outside of your own beliefs and teachings, to know yourself as God knows you. Be honest and leave the judgments to God who judges you not for He knows that you are guiltless and whole, not a body, but a soul.

Chapter 5 - _Am I timeless but you are not?_

Think of all the marvels that you have seen in the world that I have not. I never saw a car or a computer. I never had the joy of parenthood nor saw my children grow up. If I had only lived one life, how little would have I experienced. Can it be that I am more than you? I merely had a different life. And who's to say that your next life will not be lived as my last? What if you complete your learning in this life and return to help others as I came to help you? What if you become the next Jesus? What if God's messages are given again to the world through you? Surely you will not have chosen to learn all of this to merely die and have no further use of it.

Let's assume that you are in training for your next life of service. Perhaps you will serve humanity as Mother Teresa did. Perhaps you will be the next Pope or Holy Person. Who can say why you have sought this teaching. But, as surely as you have chosen to learn this, you have created a need for the knowledge. One goes to school to learn to read so that he will be able to read. One seeks knowledge of God for the teaching of what is learned. Did I come to earth to be taught or to teach? My last life did not benefit me, but was lived for the purpose of teaching.

There is much more to all of creation than you can remember. But, know that there are certain things that simply you know are true. To some are angels known. To others are spirits known. To some God is known. What a person knows, regardless of reason, belief or expectation is what is true for them. How each person knows something is known only to them. I do not know all that you know, as I have not had all of your experiences. We are merely looking at things from different vantage points. The truth is the same for everyone, but perception causes it to be clouded and distorted.

The removal of perception brings the truth into focus. My vantage point on the cross was not the same as the person watching the event, and no two people watching perceived it quite the same. Some felt mercy, while some felt hatred. Of all the vantage points, only one could be true. What is the truth in the event of my crucifixion? You would believe that the truth was that I was the sacrifice required by God to save all mankind from his evil sins. Does this sound anything like a tale told by those who were ordained by God?

There are people today who would crucify you for even considering that this scenario was not God's truth. There are also people who believe that the entire incident was merely a story. But, what is the truth? What was the purpose of the crucifixion of Christ? Certainly, truth is true for you and not necessarily anyone else. If you were a Roman, you have one version. If you were a Jewish leader, you would have another. If you were a follower of Christ, still another truth is had. But, what is the real truth behind the event?

The crucifixion served the purpose of elimination of an assumed enemy. It also served the purpose of fulfilling prophecy. It served to martyr me. But, what was the purpose? Perhaps the purpose was to offer a beacon of light to the generations to come. Perhaps it offered hope to all who came after the event. Can there be only one purpose to anything? If only one purpose is seen, then much is missed. I came to teach the world and that was the purpose of my life. There were many lesson taught, but teaching was the purpose.

There has been greater importance placed upon my death than my life. Where in your history is written of my years twelve through thirty? That I continued to grow in stature and popularity? Is that all? The teachings of my life were culled through based on the purposes of each. Surely my life did not have missing years, not lived nor purposeful. Man tends to skip details which are deemed unimportant. I assure you that during those unrecorded years, I taught much. Don't assume that because I was not known by the apostles until age thirty that my purpose was not being served.

In order to know me truly, you would have to have known me all the days of my life, not merely have read about certain parts. There is really no one who can tell your story but you. But, my story has been chopped up and is based on the tales of those who wrote what they heard from others. Hardly does the New Testament contain the fullness of my life and teachings. But, as you have chosen to know more – I am revealing more. Hear about me from me and then you'll have a greater basis to develop your opinion. Don't believe in me but learn from me, because I was a person just like you. I came to teach and teach I did. Perhaps you have also come to teach and are currently teaching. How can those who have heard about your teaching accurately reflect your teachings? The teacher teaches and only the teacher understands what is taught. The student receives and then filters the teaching for his purposes. No two individuals understand alike, so teaching does not guarantee the same level of learning to every student. To teach Plato is not the same as to teach a first grader. The lessons of God are hard to understand, except by those who are prepared to learn the opposite of the world.

When I said that my burden is light, did I mean easy to carry or made of light? How does one explain energy to those who know nothing of energy? The analogy of light was used, but can so easily be mistaken. I didn't teach in a classroom of students at a certain grade level. My students were varied and not all of similar learning levels. You may just think that perhaps my messages were not all accurately recorded. But, you are free to believe as you will. If there is uncertainty, ask and I'll be glad to help you understand.

My purpose is still teaching. It is my burden of light – to share the truth with all who choose to learn. I will repeat my messages until the end of time, which coincidentally does not exist. But, that's another lesson – a key part of the unlearning. Is not everyone a teacher? Have you not taught others? Have you considered the lessons you have taught? In every experience there is a lesson – a gift from a teacher. Some lessons do not appear to be necessary or wanted, but the experiences stick and are carried with you always. Suddenly, one day, you remember a certain experience and you realize the lesson that it taught. Your teachings are not forgotten, but are merely stored for the day when the lesson can be learned, when its usefulness is needed. Your life can be seen as a stacking of building blocks with each experience being a block. One day a trend of learning is revealed and the lesson becomes very obvious. It may take repeat experiences to build up enough of a trend for you to get the lesson. But, lessons are learned as you are prepared to benefit from them. You may have five failed relationships before you realize that the failings were due to a certain behavior of yours. You may have missed the trend four times, but the fifth one rang your bell and the light of learning came on.

Your life is filled with patterns, even if you do not realize it. As you go through life, you can not make sense of the seemingly random occurrences of similar events. One day you are able to connect the dots and see the pattern. The purpose of the pattern is for your learning, for in the pattern is a lesson – meant for your maturity. There are seemingly good lessons and bad lessons. You must learn wrongly before you learn rightly, otherwise you would not know the difference. So, be grateful for all lessons, whether you deem them good or bad, for one does depend upon the other for the revelation of the truth.

Chapter 6 - _Am I perfect but you are not?_

I, just like you, knew God before we created the world. Our lives were planned for the learning of what we were not, so that we could know and appreciate what we are. Every life is purposefully planned to provide unique experiences of the opposite of our godliness. In one life, we may be a total opposite of God. In another life, we may be as close as we can get to God without rejoining Him in Oneness. There are virtually unlimited possibilities of life purposes and experiences. Our brothers have worked with us and us with them to create experiences for all to enjoy. Much like a child imagining himself a pilot or firefighter, we have been given the means to imagine ourselves in as many roles as we choose to play. The cast of thousands that compose our lives requires the coordination of interrelated scripts that operate to perfectly create the fullness of life. But, all characters cannot play the "good" roles – some, like Judas, agree to be the "bad guy" in our play. Were it not for Judas, my script would have been limited and His play would have been very different. In truth, there is only one great big play, but we have a tendency to see ourselves in separate leading roles. The truth is all actors are lead actors in the great play that we call life. Characters live and die just as on the soap operas and even do some characters come back to life. All things are possible in the great life play.

In order for the great play to have balance, there are heroes and villains, victims and victimizers. The realistic portrayals make the play one to be enjoyed over and over until the actor has completed all of his chosen roles. None of the play is real, but is merely a perceptual creation produced entirely by the brotherhood of man. You change costumes and roles with the same ease as do movie characters. You do not go to the movies to be drawn in by the action in the movie. You are able to realize that you are watching a pretend creation and are able to see yourself outside of it.

Currently, in your life, you believe that the life movie is real and you are impacted by it. The movie has become real to you. Now, you have chosen to know the movie as just a movie and remove yourself from its effects. This is not to say that you are ready to have your character killed off – you are merely choosing to watch the movie from a different vantage point. Detachment from belief in the movie is a great secret to unlearning. Envision yourself as detached from the action of the movie and you will slowly cease to be affected by it. The secret to my last life was that I knew from the beginning that it was an illusion, a movie of sorts, and was not attached to results. I was merely there for the teaching role and had no other purpose.

Isn't it funny to imagine your life as a movie part? You instantly realize how you have worried over something that is merely nothing? You have always been caught up in the action and always tried to change the script, even in the middle. Part of your current lesson plan is to allow yourself to live inside the movie while not being emotionally vested in it. This may seem like the strangest thing in the world, and in fact, in the world, it is. But, we are rising above the world. We are learning to enjoy life rather than constantly trying to change it, which leads to constant disappointment. The film is rolling as it was meant to roll. You cannot change a thing in the film and you would be wise to realize this.

The Bible teaches that God does all things and people are shown praying for miraculous changes in circumstances. Face facts, if the miracle were not scripted in advance, no amount of prayer would cause one to happen. All miraculous events are already factored into the movie. I do remember asking God to let this cup pass from me if it be His will, but I knew already that it would happen just as written in the script. I knew the script before I took on the role. But, our humanity causes us to feel overwhelmed and it certainly never hurts to ask. But, God did not remove the cup from me, for if He had, lives would have been changed for generations to come. So, I had no choice but to play the part that I had agreed to play. This is not to say that knowing what will happen in any way lessens the experience. It was unpleasant, just as most of life is. But, for the record, I prayed for relief just as you do. Humans are fearful in life and no one likes to be beaten and hanged. I had weak moments just as you do – I am no different and God does not give me the prayer results that I want any more than He does for you. So, don't feel neglected, He also turned down my request.

Think of the life disruption that could come from one change in the script. If God answered someone's prayer, then others would be affected. The entire script would change, and not necessarily for the best. The life script is a well-oiled machine, whether you realize it or not. If God had changed my script, how would all else have been changed? I tell you that you have not even remotely imagined your influence upon the world. On drop in the ocean does change the ocean. So, suffice it to say, that I am not God's favorite and did not get preferential treatment. My life was no cake walk either. In fact, it was more like what you term today as that of a homeless person. I had nothing, yet needed nothing. If I were to put on my human self, I would say that my last life was rather undesirable - profound, but lacking in fun. Full of teaching, but without the zest of modern life. But, it well served the purpose and millions have been taught.

Maturity teaches us what is truly valuable and what is useless attachment. We learn that there is only fun in giving. Serving others is the only way to be served. Giving is receiving. Love and you will be loved. The material aspects of life hold less attachment as you mature. You are more prone to desire love than money as you age. You grow in your appreciation for nature rather than trinkets. Your desires as a young person are not typically the same during your final years of life. The love of God and His creations become invaluable to you. Everything else pales in comparison.

We have all lived and learned. Where you are today is vastly different than where you have been. You have had enough of useless fleeting treasure hunts. You are now on the journey back to heaven. Peace is the priceless commodity of your dreams. You've played the game long enough. It's time to stop playing and start the final trek that leads you home at last. For home is truly where your heart is. When you are away, you miss it more than you know. So, take my hand and let me lead the way to the peace and comfort of perfection.

Chapter 7 - _Am I whole but you are not?_

The peaceful way that I seemed to live was a factor of advanced learning. You are capable of this same learning, but you have not yet gone through the lessons. What the lessons teach is the undoing of the ego. During the learning process, you will shift from almost total ego control to a state of 50/50 between ego and spirit. This state is filled with confusion and indecisiveness, but this will pass once the ego is revealed to be the motivator of separation. You will then continue learning to the almost total elimination of ego influence. This is the stage of learning at which I was during my last life. The ego did not offer me its confusing messages – I was not swayed by its unreasonable pull. I walked in spirit and was therefore purely motivated by the voice of truth. It was the relinquishment of the ego that allowed me to peacefully and perfectly serve my purpose. Certainly, I had to do the lessons for the undoing of ego control. I did go through periods of mixed emotions and conflicted wishes. I have been where you are now. We are the same, except for learning levels. But, if you will, I will take you to the same peaceful place where I reside, which is our home with our Father.

Because of your desire to know a better way, I will help you through the learning process and will teach you to shed those unwanted influences and distractions. I wish for you to know the peace of God that you may return with me to our home of peace and glory. You have seen that the world has nothing lasting to offer you. You are no longer fooled by the sparkles that it shines upon your eyes. The allure of material things has lost its luster and you are no longer attracted by its pull.

You have seen the vanity of life and the endless struggles of attainment. You have felt the calling upon your mind to find real and lasting peace, and I will show you the way. Let not yourself be deceived and believe that the path to peace is a peaceful one, for it is not. The transition process can seem as if the end of the world is coming and that you have lost your grip on reality. But, know that all transitions are disconcerting. The transition from childhood to adulthood was likewise disconcerting. But, the transition was well worth the process, as you found yourself with an entirely new set of freedoms. As an adult, you were faced with making your own decisions and choices. The transition from ego to spirit allows you the freedom of not having to make decisions – all decisions are given to you by God. In this there is great freedom, for you never heard of my having sat for hours, biting my nails, trying to figure out what to do next. I always knew what I should do; that what I was to do was perfectly suited to all who would experience my actions. With the ego at the wheel, there is constant struggle. With the spirit at the wheel, there is peace.

Additionally, the allowance of spiritual control does remove from you the need for guilt, fear and doubt. You can't make a wrong decision because you made no decisions. You merely followed guidance given; therefore, you were free of the usual consequences and self effacing punishments. You are allowed to walk freely through life without the need to control, having realized that there is nothing you can control. You did not come into this life to control it; you came into this life to enjoy the experiences that you had set forth for yourself. Life is for learning, not for struggle. Your perception of the process makes it what it is for you.

God provides all answers, but not necessarily as you would decide appropriate nor in the time table that you would establish. God works with us through our lessons and does answer our prayers from the standpoint of what our souls have chosen. Our souls benefit from larger lessons and God has allowed us the experiences of our soul's choosing. Let's look at an example: Your soul chose to experience sickness. In life, your body will experience sickness. You'll, of course, not remember your soul's choice, and will beg God to heal you. Now, does God heal you or not? As you have seen, some are healed and some are not. What is the difference? The difference is in the soul's purpose. The carefully sculpted script for your life has the details of your choices and God will honor your choices. If you set forth to die from illness, then it will be so. If you wrote in a miraculous healing, then you will be healed. Remember, a miracle affects many. You have set forth a plan which impacts many others. Were God to change parts of the life script, other changes would also have to be made. If there was a person who was to have witnessed your healing in order to grow in faith and God did not heal you, then two script parts would be changed. So, when you pray, pray for wisdom and acceptance and perceptual understanding. To see things for the greater good will allow you to see how you have come to learn and then to teach.

Think of all the people you know who have impacted your life. Remember the person on TV who was healed of sickness, which caused you to be closer to God. Had the healing not occurred, the impact of the person upon others would not have been felt. God hears your prayers and seeks for you to be comforted. He knows that you have perfectly planned your life and that what is to happen, will happen. Just as I prayed for a change in my plan, out of selfish fear, I knew that I had to play my part for the benefit of all. If God had rescued me, then there would be great animosity were you not likewise rescued. God did not design our life plans. He has no need for them. He allowed you to do as you pleased and now you are living the experiences you chose. God brings you comfort by giving you understanding of why you chose to experience what you did. In this are your prayers answered, for with understanding does come the realization that you have chosen this for your learning and the teaching to follow, which is your purpose.

Knowing that I had chosen to be crucified caused me to know that there was no one to blame, no guilt to be harbored and no judgment needed. For those who harbor guilt over something fully agreed to is simply errant thinking. We have all played the game – freely and willingly. We all contribute to the experience. So, don't allow yourself to be swallowed up in the details – seek to find the lesson in all experiences. For in understanding the process will you find the peace for which you seek.

Chapter 8 - _Am I psychic but you are not?_

Psychic, you say? It is documented that I knew things in advance of the occurrence, so why do you not? I have exactly the same tools that you have, so why the seeming difference? Perhaps I chose to listen and know and you did not. I merely had fewer mental distractions. I did not allow ego concerns to boggle my mind. I had greater clarity due to fewer distractions. Think of the things that you allow to fill your thoughts and you will easily see that you have little time to hear clearly. Think of yourself in front of the TV and consider just how little attention you pay to it. While watching your favorite show, you are thinking about a million other things. You do not ever singularly focus on any thing.

Your life is full of moments of partial attention. While cooking dinner, you are thinking about tomorrow, tonight and the future beyond. You are thinking about bills and clothes and all sort of mundane things. You have no idea how your mind works and this must be our greatest learning lesson – realizing how your mind works. Be aware of the things that you allow to run through you mind. Many advocate meditation for relaxation. I advocate meditation as a means to learn how your mind operates, with relaxation being a side benefit. If you were to take meditation classes, the instructor would focus on clearing your mind of extraneous thoughts. This is good, but does not offer you the real cure for the problem, for your mind is at work at all times. In order to control or direct your thinking, you must first realize the effects of your thinking by knowing the thought processes at work.

Your mind is always fully at work. It never sleeps. It is in constant processing mode. How and what you process is different from how I think and process. You have not realized that your mind is much like a production factory. The similarities are almost amusing when you see the truth of your mental factory. Simply put, you have input, processing and products. Just like any factory, the details are more complicated, but the process is much the same. Remember, the thoughts of man did create factories; therefore it is not unreasonable to examine the similarities between the mind and a factory.

You have not fully understood all means of sensory input. There are more than five; with the sixth being what you call ESP or psychic abilities. There are inputs that just seem to pop into your mind – you can't really explain it, but you just know certain things. Within the sixth sense, there are different types of input. Remembering the plan is clearly the simplest explanation, if you understand that you have merely forgotten the plan upon life entry. There are such complexities involved with perception that we will not explore them further at this point. We have enough to cover with the basics. Let's be satisfied with six senses and proceed.

As all souls, and people, are connected within the master plan, it must be known that all are connected by impulses or inspiration or telepathy or whatever you call it. There is a spiritual connection among all beings and within this we can understand how the plan operates in practical terms. Your mind gets inputs from the master plan. Your mind obviously gets impulses from your five senses. Upon receiving input which is added to your own concoctions of ego thought items, the inputs go through a primary screening process. Those items deemed unimportant are dropped. The important items go through further processing. Depending on the processing, a product results and must be either stored or shipped. The product can take different avenues or it can be reprocessed. Thought products can be recycled over and over for all thoughts are carefully stored in the factory's warehouse. If additional processing time is needed, the thought can be retrieved from the inventory and rehashed again.

An endless series of thought possibilities flows through your factory. You choose the amount of processing to be done with each, or you choose to process it no further. Let's imagine yourself washing your car. You, of course, process the car washing details, but as you have done it so many times, you don't put much thought processing energy into it. While this is going on, you are monitoring the flow of other inputs. You may be watching your neighbors or admiring their lawns. You may wonder about the chemicals that they use to keep their lawn so green. You may be thinking about what you'll need to do next. You may be planning your day tomorrow or what you'll have for dinner. You may realize that you have that recurrent pain in your shoulder and wonder if you may need to see a doctor. You think about all the consequences of both seeing the doctor and not seeing the doctor. You imagine an almost endless stream of possible scenarios for your immediate future. Suddenly, a ball comes flying out of no where and hits your car. Now you have to check for dents, get mad at the kid who threw the ball that hit your car and plan for the repair if there is damage. Then, of course, you'll need to get repair estimates and plan to be without your car while it is being repaired. You'll need to get with the kid's parents to get them to pay for the repair, but mostly to point out the unruly behavior of their child.

This may sound like a lot of thoughts, but it is truly the bare minimum. We left out all of the thoughts about what you see while washing the car – the nicks and scrapes and how they got there. This all happens in so short a time period that your brain swells at the thought of your thoughts. It is almost impossible to follow your thinking process. Oh, did I forget to mention all of the unconscious thoughts that you had while washing the car? Let's not even dig into those, or we will embark on a journey so complex that we'll get lost along the way.

Suffice it to say that having at least a clue about how your mind works will be enough to start your unlearning. Don't seek to know it all too soon. It is better to take it in smaller bites. You will have seen enough already to understand the importance of thought monitoring. Add to this the fact that every aspect of your life begins with your thoughts about it. Remember how mad you got about the ball hitting your car? Now, you have to realize the effects caused by your thought processes. How many effects come into play with one cause of a thought? Understand that the ball did not cause you to get mad. Your judgment and ensuing decision to be mad caused you to be mad. You could just as easily have chosen to overlook the incident and throw the ball back. Instead, you chose to be offended and take it to the limit. Aren't there times when you just want to be mad? Anger is a reflection of a choice and not an automatic response. The ball hits your car and you decide how to react, if at all.

The ball has provided an unscheduled interruption to your life. Every day there are unscheduled inputs not the least of which are traffic stops and slowdowns. Being aware of how little you actually seem to control in life will help you to release some of your compulsion to control. You certainly cannot control traffic any more than you can control the weather or anything else. Life is filled with uncertainty and this you must accept. You can go along willingly or fight it all the way. But, in your fighting, you must realize that you are only hurting yourself. You would do yourself a favor to more readily go with the flow. You can spend your life paddling upstream or choose to see that you cannot win against things beyond your control. Let go of your obsessive need to control things. In this there is great freedom.

Rehashing the past is another favorite mental pastime. Stop it – you cannot change it, so let it go. It's already filed in the mental inventory for the lesson that it taught. Move on – always keep moving with the flow. Put away your old thoughts and keep looking forward to new ones. Dragging around in the past will guarantee you a misery in the making. When a past thought resurfaces, put it out of your mind. Don't allow it to be processed further. You can stop it there – that instant. Take control of useless needless processing and you will have time available for more productive thought processes. Try replacing the time spent in one hour with thoughts of dream fulfillment. Meditate on something out of the ordinary. You will enjoy the time spent in mental freedom. Of course, you'll need to keep your focus on track. Mental distractions will continue to enter, but don't allow them to keep you from your time of dreaming.

Meditation is very difficult at first. But, it will demonstrate how you begin trying to clear you mind, you are suddenly on the soccer field, then you jump to the office, then over to China, then watching TV, then...your thought inputs can easily be seen while attempting to meditate. Having clearly monitored your thoughts, you will see how ridiculous most of them actually are. Why on earth were you thinking about China? Maybe you had seen a news clip on TV and it had popped into your mind. But, was it necessary to think of China or the news clip? Probably not, so let it go. You may even learn to laugh at how your mind works. It is rather funny, if you think about it. Go ahead; enjoy seeing your mind from a different perspective. It's fun to realize how preoccupied you are with needless thinking.

It's also amazing to realize that the greatest insights are received when you are thinking the least. A peaceful mind does reveal great things. But, this you will learn with practice. The Bible states that you should be still. From the stillness you will know God. The more you learn about your thoughts, the more that you will realize that there is great truth in stillness. Spiritual masters have realized this – you cannot hear God if you are always on the speaker. Your ego voice shouts loudly with messages based from fear – the root of all evil. The voice of truth is drowned out until the ego voice is recognized and quieted. This is our mission now – to quiet the ego so that we can hear the voice of God. For the voice of God is only heard by those who choose to listen. God's greatest gift is free will and He honors it. You must willingly choose to hear God before you will hear God.

Let's throw in a little curve, which gives credence to the voice of God in a literal way. We know that God is not like us physically, so it is understood that He does not speak with a physical voice. How then do we hear fro Him? Glad you asked. There is an interpreter between us and God. His name is Holy Spirit. This is the part of God's creation which is the go between us and Him. The Holy Sprit is really the same as our spirit and it communicates to us from the spirit of God. In truth, these spiritual separations are only given as examples for our learning. But, they allow a person to put something explainable to something not explainable.

As we cannot accurately describe the workings of God, we must use analogies which can to some degree bring us some measure of understanding so that we can begin to open our minds to the possibilities of God. Play along with the analogies, if only for a while. Let's not distract ourselves with the energetic forces which are far beyond your current understanding. Anyway, God's intermediary, much like the electrical transformers between the power supply and your house, there must be some sort of downgrading done to go from God's Power house to your bodily house. Your body cannot withstand the power of God, so it is downgraded so that it can be used by you.

The transformer, the Holy Spirit, is the means by which you hear the voice of God. You do not hear it outside of your mind, but it is heard as a gentle, firm, controlled, truthful, reasonable voice. It never rants or raves as the ego voice does. You are probably familiar with the ego voice – it drives you like a mad dictator screaming of doom and gloom ahead. There are striking differences between the two voices – one is loving and one is fearful. These two voices are described in the Bible as alters at which you worship. The one which you listen to is the one which you worship, to use the Biblical analogy. The terms of separation, God and mammon, are also used to emphasize the difference. Regardless of the terms used, it will become obvious to you that two forces are at work within you at all times. We'll simply use the terms spirit and ego for now.

The quieting of the ego is the most significant step on the path to God that you will take. The recognition that you have followed the false directions of the ego is one which changes your entire perspective. It is a monumental step. No longer will you be unaware of the two opposing forces at work in your mind. You will be able to instantly recognize the voice as it speaks. The ego and the spirit speak all the time, even at the same time. So, how are they heard separately? The ego speaks first. Try it out – ask a question like, "What shall I do tomorrow?" You will hear the ego blast out a rapid fire list of things which you will recognize as familiar. Once you stop the ego voice, then another voice is hear. It will answer in a monotone calm voice and say something like, "In relation to what?"

The ego didn't bother to get specifics, but the Holy Spirit did ask the appropriate question to clear up what you should do tomorrow about what. Had you asked a better question, the answer would have fit you perfectly. It should be noted that how the question you ask is phrased, may change the answer. The Holy Spirit answers based on the real question you are asking or it will seek clarification by asking more questions. We have a tendency to ask questions which do not reflect our actual question. Our example demonstrates this. There could be a million right answers, but which one did you really want? Learn to ask the real questions that you want answered. Be aware of your wording and know that what you can do and what you should do may also be different. Be specific. Listen carefully without expectation.

Oh, now that's the hardest part of listening. Not putting your expectations upon the answers is a matter of practice and refinement. If you expect for God to answer yes, and He says no, you may assume that you have heard wrongly and will ask again and try to rephrase questions until you get what you want to hear. Trust me; you will use all sorts of manipulations to hear what you want to hear. You don't really want to hear God's answer; you want to hear God confirm your expectations. Then, once you have managed to manipulate the answers to your expectations, you will wait for things to go your way. When they do not, you will promptly accuse God of misleading or lying to you. You will forget that you changed the answer to your own and will seek to find fault with the voice of God. This is merely a note of warning, as all have fallen into this trap. It's the downside of the ego, for you have again fallen under its spell. You have again tried to control life, and you have surely failed. Only those who can completely quiet the ego can hear always the answers of God. When there are no expectations, only truth is heard.

For the record, to hear God's voice, it is not always necessary to ask. Let's say that you are walking down the street and you suddenly hear clearly that you should stop in the next store you come to. At first, you may think yourself crazy, but you feel that you are being directed outside of your own mind, so you do as you are directed. You go in the store and find the perfect item for which you had been searching or meet the perfect person who literally changes your life. When the plan calls for a change, you will be directed accordingly. The voice of God will be unmistakable and you will do as you are told, for you will have such a feeling that it is almost beyond yourself. Some call this inspiration, but it happens to everyone. For some unknown reason, you take a different path to work and later learn that there was a wreck at the place where you would normally be at that time. So, be aware that your path will be made according to your plan. You will do what you are meant to do and it will seem as if you somehow intended it, which ironically you did, but did not remember.

Chapter 9 - _Am I peaceful but you are not?_

As I was able to hear only the voice of God, I lived a peaceful life. Such a peaceful life is available to you also. But, like me, you must do the homework. It is very rare for a person to be instantly transformed out of ego mindedness. It is generally a slow process of gradual realization. Simply telling you about something or instantly transforming you does not give you the experience which is what your soul desires. Your soul seeks to learn through experiences. There are no shortcuts, unless you write them into the plan in advance. Miracles are shortcuts written in the plan. But, as you know, are very rare. So, we'll have to walk you through the homework lessons of experience so that you can learn that fear need not be, nor doubt nor guilt.

Guilt is a swarthy monster. Often hidden from your view, yet its effects are insidious and not to be taken lightly. When you only hear God's voice, there is no fear, doubt or guilt. You do not have reasons for them, as you only experience certainty. If you hear the ego voice, you have only fear, doubt and guilt which cause other effects such as anger, hatred and isolation. During the transition from ego to spirit, there are varying levels of the love/fear ratio experienced as attention is given to one or the other. Let me throw in a note of wisdom: The journey from ego to spirit is not always a one-way journey. What you call "backsliding" is common, even daily or from minute to minute. The lessons given cause confusion to the point that you don't know which to trust – ego or spirit. At the halfway point, you somehow want to go back completely, but find that you are not able to. Having come this far, you will never again be able to not seek peace. You can't go back to the point where you only heard the ego voice. You are a changed creature and your experiences reflect it. You are torn between two alters and cannot be completely at either. You are in the world, but not fully of it. You have gone too far to turn back now, even as the ego screams loudly that you have led yourself astray.

But the voice of calm reason tells you that you have come to this point for a purpose. It reminds you of your unhappiness at the start of the journey and calls you to come home. Now that going back is no longer an option, you begin the next learning level that has been called "letting go and letting God." You have realized fully that you have no control over anything including yourself, so you choose freely to go with the flow. You are not sure of what the flow brings or where it will carry you, but you have given up the wheel to God and are now riding the unseen currents of life.

My entire life was the result of having let go. I had experienced already that which you now encounter. But, I will lead you to the place that we call home. I merely went ahead and called back for you to follow. You are just like me – only the illusion of time separates us.

I choose for you the peace of God for I know of its beauty and have felt the joy of a peaceful life. You have heard the calling of your soul and are already well on the path of right learning, having realized the errors of the past.

To walk through life unbridled by guilt and fear and doubt is one which is the opposite of all that you have experienced to this point. You have known the misery of fear and all of its many destructive arms. You have been affected by the fears of others who struggled just as you to make it through the maze of life. You are not alone. You should remember that the same fears that you experience are experienced by all others. There tends to be forgetfulness that others experience just as we do. Not only are you just like me, they are just like us. You should show the same courtesy to your brothers as I have shown to you. Extend a hand to your brothers as I have extended to you. Know that hardships and trials are faced by all and be merciful. For the trials of others are no less hurtful than are ours. Do unto others as I have done unto you. Give as you have received. Teach as you are taught. Share your wisdom with those who would receive it. Be always respectful of the God given free will of others, for they have the same rights as we do. Each must do what is right for them and they need not be judged as the natural consequences will be enough to teach them the lessons to be learned.

Let's all join together and realize our sameness. One is no different than another. If I do not consider myself better than you, surely you have no right to consider another less than you. In this there is great peace. In the acceptance of your brothers as I have accepted you is the peace of God. Love your brothers as yourself, for we are all one and the same. We are all God's creations in spirit. It is our peaceful journey to use the platform of our lives to align our experiences with the desires of the spirit and to finally realize that God's will is our will. We are the marvelously perfected creations of God and upon this realization, will begin to behave as such. We need not be saved, for we are not without salvation. We are perfectly given God's salvation as our birthright upon our creation.

The obvious imagined separation from God is the cause of our problems and the reason for our fears. In truth, it is not possible to be separate from God; we can only imagine it so. Stop your thoughts of separation and willingly think yourself part of the whole of all there is. For in God's perfection, you are flawless and only in your thoughts do you ever fear or have needs. Let not another minute pass in errant thinking. Stop it now, for it need not be. The end of the world will not come and you will not die, and these two things you have considered the worst of all fates. Know that the illusion of life will end right on your designated schedule. Trust that physical death has been factored in for every man and will happen as he has chosen. Let the dying have the dignity that they deserve. They have chosen when to end their lives and have chosen the completion of this school term. The lesson will be ended for a time, and will, if chosen, begin at another. Death is not the end. If it were, I would not be able to share these truths with you now. I am as alive as you are, and maybe sitting next to you this very minute.

Never again make the mistake of fearing death. Death is nothing to fear, for it is the release of your soul back to God – it is the end of your current experience of trials and tribulations. My death was not the end of my teaching; I merely shifted to a different venue. Let there be peace by first demonstrating peace. Let's spread the peace in all we do. Let our behaviors be the reflection of the light of God so that all may discover what we have found. Our peace cannot be complete until it is shared by all who would choose it. For the record, please understand that not all people seek peace. Some people do find it boring or unsettling. Know that perfect peace is the absence of highs or lows. It is not joy; it is not sorrow. It is perfect balance, which for many, is difficult to handle.

Perfectly peaceful balance is the opposite of all other life experiences. It is something so profound that not everyone would choose it. For those who seek adventure, peace is the antithesis. For those who love life's dramas, peace is not for them. But, for those who have had enough adventure and desire to experience no more the dramas of life, the peace of God is the perfect alternative. It is not likely even for those who choose, to experience life in complete peace. For the very essence of life is not peaceful – life is meant to be the opposite of heaven. You have chosen to experience the opposite of heaven; therefore, you have come to earth. You have sought to know hell, so that you will remember heaven. Hell is your imagined separation from God. Heaven is the experience of Oneness with God. Hell can only be imagined, as it is unreal and the product of the soul's imagination.

God created peaceful perfection; you created its perfect opposite. Give yourself credit for the powerful creator that you are, for you have created much. The creation of the world is no small feat, but we have joined together to play outside a while. There is amazing creativity in the world, but it is only a dream. A magnificent dream of all dreamers combined to know what it is to experience.

So, each day appreciate your creations for the wonder of them all. Be grateful to your brothers who have joined in the creation with you so that God can be experienced for all that He truly is. If you imagine the complexity of the details of the life illusion, you will be in awe of what God created, yourself and your brothers included. God created you like Him. You created the world. Is there no better creative example than the artist that gives His creative talent to all? Perfection was created once; therefore, your painting will be imperfect, but even in your imperfect painting is marvelous creation evident. For in this world, your imperfect painting, have great paintings been created. You marvel at the creativity in the world, but do not even understand it. How much more marvelous are the creations of God who created all of this?

In all things be grateful, for none of your creations are yours alone. You have taken tidbits from here and suggestions from there and formed them into a marvelous painting of many colors. Without the paintings of others, yours would be far less colorful. Be grateful for the colors offered you by your brothers for the painting of your masterpiece. Never neglect to offer your colors to others so that they may create their masterpieces. For all the beauty of your work, without an audience it is merely nothing. Even your worst enemies and greatest trials add the colors to your canvas. Don't forget the greatest gifts often come in the most unwanted packages.

Chapter 10 - _Am I eternal but you are not?_

Dead, you say? Never one to overlook the obvious, I'll answer yet again. I am no more dead than you are; I merely am in different form. My soul is not in a body, but it can be at any time. If I am dead, then you must be writing this. I guess it's possible, but highly unlikely. But, for the record, there is no death and I am with you always. The body is an illusion, it is not you. I can create and shed a body with amazing speed. Bodies are merely nothing. Time is nothing. Space is nothing. Life is nothing. What we are is real, eternal and perfect. Know this about yourself. Open your mind to what your eyes cannot see. I have been seen by many, but only in the minds of those who would see. The mind is quite the creative tool. It has no limits like sight or feelings. The mind creates what you see with your eyes. Your eyesight depends on light, but your mental vision does not. You do not need sight to see me; you need merely open your mind to create the vision.

To have me in a body serves no purpose now. My spirit can communicate with yours on a far more efficient level – anywhere, anytime, anyplace. I am free of physical limitations. You are not yet. But, don't inflict greater limitations upon yourself than need be. Your mind is in constant communication with all other minds. This will concern you at first, but you have nothing to fear. Your thoughts are not catalogued by date, time and thinker. You have rendered your telepathic powers almost useless, but still the line is open. You might try tuning again your receiving unit to catch the communication link. Want to send a message via the intellinet, then focus your thoughts and send them on their way. Not all messages are received, for not all receivers are monitored. But, be vigilant and practice always. The intellinet is a wonderful tool, once it's put in use.

Imagine yourself as eternal without limitations. Have you not had experiences of reaching beyond physical hints? Have you not been able to send thoughts to others and have the others responded to your messages? You have placed limits upon yourself by your own perceived limitations. You have believed that without physical communication there is none. But I tell you that you can reach all others and in fact do all the time. All others do reach you as well.

Were you to not perceive yourself as individual, then you would not be. Were you to allow limitless possibilities to be a part of your experience, then it would be so. I did not live as one, for one. I lived for all and still am a part of the oneness of all. You call upon me and I answer. I teach today as much as ever. It is my chosen role as teacher to bring you to a level of understanding to make your lives more peaceful and loving. It is and always has been my desire to teach you of your perfection that you never feel the need to be better or more than you already are. Your quest for more has caused you great difficulty and misery. The way to peace is acceptance – acceptance of who you truly are.

You are not what you see or feel. You are not what you have been taught or have believed. You are eternal as all of God's creations are. Let not your egocentric self control one minute longer the limitations of your perception.

Humanity has grasped for control using individuality as its basis. To see yourself apart from others has caused you to imagine that you are somehow different, for better or for worse.

Your religions, which are your own creations, have put great barriers between groups. You have long taught individuality as the strength of self, yet you always seek groups in order to have a sense of belonging. Has it never occurred to you that being individual seems like fun until you find yourself alone?

Religions are used to bring people together based on common or similar beliefs. It's not only religions that you seek to join, but all manner of clubs and organizations. You pride yourself on your supposed individuality, yet it is this very idea that causes you great loneliness. What you really seek is to be accepted and loved by others. You really do not want to be an individual, but to be like all others.

When most your ego pretends to be appeased by your diversity, it is really not diversity which satisfies you. You have believed in the false teachings of separateness, yet have in truth always sought to join with others.

No one seeks to be alone, regardless of a person's vehement statements that the individual is king. From the moment of birth, you have always clung to groups, be it family or friends or otherwise. In truth, it is unity or oneness that you desire most. You are wise to realize this as it makes for a much more soothing and loving experience of life.

If you consider that all came from one and will return to one, does it not stand to reason that you do long to be with others? Your soul craves to be in contact with its other parts – your brothers. Just as a soul longs to go home to God, it seeks to be complete in oneness.

You may find peace in a quiet moment alone, but a lifetime of loneliness is hardly to be desired. Do you not feel more comfortable in the presence of others? Do you not somehow feel that your natural state is among the many? Consider being alone, in heaven or earth and a strange uneasiness does come upon you. You were not created alone and did God not say that it was not good for man to be alone?

In the company of others is where you find comfort. Seek always to find peaceful company that your days on earth are filed with love and joy.

Chapter 11 - _Am I awake but you are not?_

I am fully awake, trying to help you remember your awakened state. You are sleep walking. You keep hitting the snooze button, so that you will not awaken to the light. It's time to see the light and face the day. Awakening to God's reality is what this is all about. Being open to the helpful hints that come your way is key to realizing that God is calling you. You have tried in vain to ignore the call. You don't even answer the door. You have hidden long enough – WAKE UP!!! You have work to do. You must take control of your life and stop playing victim. You are not powerless to change, but you must be willing. You are the master of your destiny – ruler of your domain. You have lessons to learn and students who yearn to learn from you. Neglect them no more. For by your awakening, you will teach others what I have taught you. You are given nothing for you alone. You must share what is given you, and in this you are given more, for as you give you receive. Knowledge does not depreciate when shared, it appreciates with every giving.

Open your eyes and your mind to all there truly is. See your brothers all around you hungry to know what you have learned. As I have learned more than you, I have not merely taken the lessons and left you behind. I have reached to take your hand and bring you up to speed. You must do the same for your brothers. For they deserve no less. You are not the recipient of anything, merely the conduit to another. You are your brother's teacher, as is he yours. He is given different lessons from yours and he must also share what he has learned.

So delay no more – your willingness has brought you here. Take up your task and atleast start empowering the world. I have and will teach you always, but I expect the same from you. We are no different and our purpose is the same.

Be ye no more the isolated, lonely wanderer in the desert. Seek to make your valleys grow with great life and flowing abundance. Change your darkness to light by envisioning the possibilities. No longer hold your head down in seeming defeat for you are not at the mercy of the world. You are the world and as such are very capable of making vast and profound changes in the experiences of others. So easily can you brighten the day of another. See yourself as a viable part of the whole. You are not nor will you ever be alone. Anchor to this reality and your entire life experience will change and make change available for all others.

An anchored person, who realizes the connectedness of all, does bring forth abundant experiences of far reaching possibilities. When one is aware that there truly are no limits, one then pursues life with great vigor and determination. From a heightened awareness of truth, one no longer feels as compelled to wallow in the mire of circumstance, but seeks always the betterment of all. The one who has only a dollar knows that even this small amount can change much. The generosity of one does reach many, just as one wave in the ocean does spread beyond your vision. Seek always to make the waves that positively affect the experiences of others. In this vast ocean, the waves are still effective – far more than you know or see.

To be awakened is to see with a new and great vision. What I am, you are. There is nothing beyond your capabilities, even if you see it so. You must realize your full potential. I did not live under perceptions of limit. Why do you?

It could be easily argued that I was a simple person of limited education and experience. Yet you believe that I somehow had superlative knowledge. Consider all of the advanced education received by many in the world today. Would you consider the benefits of current education as offering an enlightened awareness? Does an MBA offer a person some sort of spiritual enlightenment? Surely, education does play a role in life, but education merely for the purpose of societal advancement will in no way offer you what simple truths do tell.

The most masterful business person on earth is often the one with the least formal education. Education is certainly no guarantor of success in life and won't much help you in your spiritual experience. One must decide what part does the spiritual path play in their chosen experience. Certainly there is life to be lived, but the quality of a person's life does heavily depend upon the rules of the game. A person who only seeks physical rewards will not be very spiritual in their daily lives. The person who is more spiritually focused will see life very differently and will be far more prone to consider others in the picture.

Consider carefully your spiritual aspirations and seek to live accordingly. I do not judge your choice in this, I merely point out that how you view something affects what you see. Your goals affect your outcomes. Your longing for spiritual growth will cause you to be far more aware of those around you. The more spiritual you are, the more connected you are to others.

Chapter 12 - _Am I aware but you are not?_

I have rejoined God in the awareness of Oneness, but you still imagine yourself separate. This is no real difference, but is merely a difference in perception. The process of awakening brings forth many shocking awarenesses, with the greatest being the awareness of the perceived distance between yourself and God. The experience of being aware that you are no longer perceptually One with God is very disconcerting. Your natural awareness is complete comfort and wholeness. Upon your birth into your illusory life, you are no longer experiencing Oneness, but somehow perceive yourself as separate. The physical body offers the separation between persons which give rise to selfishness and isolation. But how have we fooled ourselves into thinking that we are separate from that which we can never be separate from? Belief in the physical body and putting trust solely in physical inputs causes us to detach ourselves from spiritual connections. We drown out our natural communication with the unreal physical communication. You cannot hear God while talking incessantly. Your attention is drawn away from the less obvious to the more obvious. A loud noise will cause your attention to be drawn to it. A pain in your body will overshadow your spiritual knowings. All the levels of philosophy and theories will not cover the pain of a broken bone. A broken bone may painfully remind you to ask God to take away the pain, but you will not be in the mood to be very spiritual.

A personal relationship with God goes much deeper than you have understood. For you have always utilized the "pray and amen" relationship, with pray being another term for ask or tell God what you want or need. This is a rather one sided relationship model. When do you actually give God a chance to participate in the relationship, if ever? You have assumed that God works, but does not speak. I tell you that prayer must be two way communication. If you don't hear God say anything when it is His turn, then He obviously had nothing to say. But, it is important to offer the option. For in this you have shown respect for God as never before. By awaiting His response, you have acknowledged that He is there and can hear your prayers and will answer as appropriate. This is proper respect for God – this is the proper respect that you would give to anyone. You atleast offer someone the opportunity to respond. It's common courtesy.

For your good manners and out pouring of respect, God will heed your call. But, you may at first think you are crazy or delusional. But, upon further listening, you will hear answers with such profound wisdom and clarity that you will know the answer did not come from you. You will know it is God, because you will always be surprised and comforted with His answers. His answers never invoke fear. Practice will help you learn God's voice.

Over time, you will find yourself in more and more contact with God. There will come a point when you will talk more with Him than with anyone else. It will be as if nothing else satisfies your cravings. You can talk with God while doing dishes or taking out the trash. He puts no limits on how much He will talk. He will soon be your constant companion. Alas, a true relationship is born. There will no longer be the great sense of separation that you once felt. The gap between you and God will be ever less and less. There will be a sense of closeness which develops, and will continue to increase until atlast you are One again with God. At birth, you began the separation which continued to grow until you realized that you were completely dissatisfied with everything. At that point, you began to swing the pendulum back toward God and toward the instinctual comfort of home. It will take much less time to return to closeness than it took to separate yourself. Having given up hope in all illusions, the call of truth is no longer denied and you are finally willing to relinquish your illusory control and follow God's guidance.

I relinquished control much earlier than you and was able to hear God clearly and always know that by following His guidance, the peace of God was always upon me. There is nothing quite as rewarding as hearing the voice of God. No longer do you feel alone or abandoned to fend for yourself. Once you walk with God, peace must factor into the mix. The highs and lows become more level and stability brings with it a peaceful calm. When you no longer question how or why, but are simply led, you will know the peace of God and will walk the path toward home.

There does have to be built a trust in what God tells you. You will not always like or choose to follow His advice. But, in time, you will learn that His way is always the right way, regardless of your initial certainty of His error. The test of everything must be its truthfulness. If consistently God gives you correct answers, then you will know that you can trust the answers you get. These are not foolish tests – God wants your trust and will give you what you need, not always what you want, but surely what you need.

Chapter 13 - _Am I detached and you are not?_

I am seemingly more detached than you. I am able to be free of attachments so that I am free to do as God directs. In that I have no agenda, I am able to have no expectations. The absence of expectations allows me to do only that which God and I choose. I have no attachments to the past; I carry no guilt; I have no fear. I have no baggage on my journey with which to weight me down. The reason that you fear is that you put attachments upon things and you fear that you will lose them. Your body is seen as your greatest possession and you fear that death will rob you of it. You have no idea how great is your attachment to your body. You know not how your ego commands of self-preservative messages have kept you from all that you could do and be. You could be free, just like me, if you only realized that your path is set and you have no control. For in this realization, taken to heart, is the only source of freedom that you will have in life.

There are many attachments that you hold dear. You cling to what you know. You cling to persons, places and things. You do not realize that these attachments become your anchors and keep you from soaring in the places that your soul desires. But, God would not rob you of your comforts. He has allowed you to choose for yourself. But, I have told you that by your attachments you cannot be free. You have not the wisdom to see that you need nothing, for you are perfect as you are. You imagine that without the trappings of life, you will somehow be nothing and be without everything. You cling to past experiences as if they can somehow change your future. Be aware that what is past is gone. It can no longer serve you, except in the lessons brought forth. Do not lose your freedom to that which is gone.

If you understood that the future is as set as the past, your very concept of life would collapse. Time is a creation of man, for man to have a linear concept of progression. Time is a control mechanism and has no relevance in God's reality. God knows only the eternal. He does not wear a watch or base things on a calendar. You would do well to follow this example. Of course, the mundane operates within the mundane and this is understood. But once you see separate from the mundane, you will realize that you have two sets of priorities, one for life and one for God. There is only imagined separation, but for as long as you live in this world, you must give it some attention, but don't ever again be fooled by it. Don't be swallowed up in the illusion – know it for what it is. Know that the true you has no bounds of time – you are eternal. You operate in an eternity without time. You can easily realize the truth of this when you see that time is merely nothing but a means to record the past and predict the future. These are merely fruitless pursuits – meaningless in truth. The past is recorded and the future is set. You are destined to follow the script and time will not vary the outcome or the details along the way.

Let go of your luggage and learn to travel light. You have needlessly carried a suitcase of guilt, one of fear and one of doubt. Throw away your luggage and see that you will not die. The way will be much easier when you walk within the light. There are other bags you carry, such as possessions and emotions, people and things. Perhaps even a little less stuff would make the journey easier. Consider all the needless luggage that you carry and carry it no more. There is great freedom when you see the load that you bear. Always consider the cost of the freight that you haul – make yourself a document so that you can see the cost. Or think of all you carry on your vacations, those things you feel that you must have. If all of it were suddenly lost, would you die? Does your life depend upon the cargo that you haul?

Be free, even if in stages, of the burdens that you bear. Let not guilt ever be your reason for doing anything. Let love be your only motivation. For this will be the way home.

Chapter 14 - _Am I free but you are not?_

I have realized that peace is a state of mind, just as is happiness. You are capable of this remembrance the same as me. It is within your grasp. You have seen glimpses of peaceful freedom, and you have sought to live it. Have you considered the effects of near death experiences upon those who have them? Have you considered how their perspective changes – almost opposite of what it was before? In an instant, they have realized the futility of life. They have been given the opportunity and the impetus to reassess priorities and to make meaningful changes for a peaceful life. You would do well to learn from their example – to heed the lessons that they teach.

When once you felt the great urge to paint, but never found the time. After tasting death, you find that paint you must, for time is running out. How would you live differently if you knew you had only a short time left? Would you worry about your job or your status or your car or your house? Hopefully not, for in this would be waste. Why wait till you are about to die to learn to live as you would have liked? Don't wait until your final moments and allow them to be filled with regrets. Shift your focus now and follow the calling or your truest desires. You came into this life with a purpose and serve it you must. Start upon your path as quickly as you can. Don't be swayed by the latest trends or the opinions of others. There is no one who knows yourself and what you need more or better than you. The opinions of others will keep you from your call. You know what you should do at all times – listen to yourself. God will reveal to you that which you have need to remember. Who aside from God can listen to your heart?

It is all a matter of choice – the experience that you will have. From the point of ego do you project yourself outward. What is it that you would project to others?

Freedom is a sense, an experience. It is often seemingly impossible to imagine yourself free of all ties. You must work and seek to fulfill your physical needs. There are myriad layers of added confinements upon your life. Is it possible to be truly free? This depends largely on your perspective. What is freedom to you? If freedom for you is owning your own home, then the support mechanism must be there, to work for the house. In this there is a measure of freedom, yet there is the stipulation of employment. If freedom for you is living in a mountain cabin enjoying the fruits of the land, then perhaps the limits on your freedom are the confinements of isolated living.

As long as you inhabit a body, you are never totally free. You do need certain things to survive and live a healthy life. The body is the greatest limit upon your freedom. Have you not considered the truth of this? Only upon the realization of truth, that you are not a body, will you begin to envision true freedom. For one who has achieved such mastery, the confines of the body no longer hold one captive. When it is finally understood that only your soul will ever be truly free, then the leap toward living in this perspective will start to become a reality.

If I could raise a dead person, then I must have been aware of the nothingness of the body. I did recreate my body after death so that it could be touched and seen. Is this not a testament to the façade of the body as unreality?

You are more likely to experience freedom while sleeping. It is during your sleep that you have no physical limits. Instead of seeing yourself without limits, you would rather hold fast to your "body as solid" concept which truly keeps you grounded. Is your body or your thoughts about your body that which limits? You would say that in dreams you can fly, but you have not been able to make your body fly without artificial aids. If you see your body as real, then have you not already tied your feet to the ground? Your perspective determines what you see. If you believe something impossible, then for you it is.

When you learn to enlarge your vision and imagine the possibilities, it is then that the chains are broken. If you can't make yourself fly without an airplane, then build yourself a plane. Once you begin to see that this is possible, then you will further expand your vision and find better and easier ways to fly. You were not born with fins, but you can surely swim.

All things spring from ideas or inspiration. Inspiration is never based upon limitations, but on possibilities. Where there's a will, there's a way. If freedom is your goal, then your idea of freedom is entirely possible.

Chapter 15 - _Am I patient but you are not?_

Being aware of the plan of life and the details contained therein allows me to be patient, which is something that causes you much grief. If you knew what tomorrow would bring, would you be able to relax? Could you be still and know that all of life flows perfectly in perfect time? Is it even possible in your thoughts that all of life is carefully planned in advance? Perhaps even exploring the possibility of destiny may offer you some startling insights into life that you had merely rationalized away as coincidence.

If you had the foreknowledge that I have, you would be able to be patient, knowing that all is well according to the plan that you set forth. You would understand that life is merely the reliving of what was set forth in the beginning, perfectly planned for all time to come. Of course, time is a relative term, but let's assume that time is very real to you, within the illusion of life and that it offers you the means to organize your life. How would your life be different if you knew what would happen twenty years from now? What if you knew that you would experience death tomorrow?

Knowledge is power and you would have the power to be in acceptance of what is to come; yet, you would be cheated of the very thing that you created to experience. God has told us the end of the story, but has left the middle for our experience. Even knowing the end has not caused us to be any more patient during the process and we continue to be tossed about in the middle of the game. Knowing of the impending crucifixion did not negate the experience for me; it did allow me to be prepared and to accept my chosen fate. I was able to do what I had set forth to do, knowing that the purpose it served would benefit those who would come after me.

Certainly, a more pleasant plan could have been designed by me, but would you have even known my name? In all things each person must find the lesson and the purpose within each experience. Had I been selfish, my purpose would not have been nearly as effective for the benefit of others. I came into my last life to demonstrate that life is not all there is and regardless of what seems to happen, you will never die nor be harmed in any way. Your soul is eternal, and with this realization comes the conditions for patient living.

Allowing yourself to be caught up in the details along the way will keep you from even thinking that patience can even be a part of life. I have told you that worrying brings you nothing but grief. Have you not found this to be true? What has worrying ever provided for you except misery, stress and ill health? In letting you know the futility of worrying, I have let you know that there is nothing to worry about. I have taught you to put your faith in God and not in yourself. God, the All and Everything, has allowed your perfect created experience. He has allowed you to create whatever you wanted for whatever purpose you sought to serve. Why not allow the plot to unfold and enjoy the experience that you have pre-set for yourself? Is it better to sit and worry or relax and enjoy the ride?

Patience is a virtue and not one shared by but a few. For those who have lived long lives, they understand the futility of life and the vanity involved in most life struggles. They have played the game – experienced the highs and lows. They have lost much interest in the game and have refocused priorities of things of real value, love and peace. The joy of old age is the lessening of attachments. People come and go, seemingly live and die, and there is slowly the relinquishment of the attachment to trappings and vanities.

The love of a grandchild is held in much greater esteem than that of a child who caused so many problems for the parents. When you were young, children were seen as problematic; as a grandparent, they are seen with such great joy that the parents are amazed. Sure, you say, it's easy to love a grandchild and send them home. But, the truth is that the grandparent has a far different perspective than a parent. Through the wisdom of the passing years, an appreciation is gained for the simple pleasures to be experienced in life. It cannot be said that grandparents love more than parents, I am merely pointing out the change in perspective. Grandparents have the opportunity to love without the distractions of youth. They have done their time in the pursuit of passing fancies. They can see that the most important things come from the love of those around them. Just as I could see past futility and was able to be patient, the elderly can love patiently and freely, knowing that what is most important comes from the love of others.

Patience is a by-product of acceptance. Acceptance brings forth peace, if it is understood that what is experienced is indeed for your chosen purpose. This is hard for people to accept, certainly in the face of a tragedy, but once you realize the purpose of the tragedy, you do see that all of life is for the gainful experience of those who are affected by the experience. We cannot know all that is to happen nor understand all of the reasons for them, certainly at first. The lesson of a crucifixion of Christ, although seen as terrible, was very instrumental in offering hope and strength to untold millions of people over thousands of years. One action caused manifold reactions. I chose to participate just as you chose for me to do this for you. I was not crucified to save you as you have no need of being saved. I was crucified to offer you peace during your trials, which to you seem just as horrible. By my example, you were uplifted and strengthened.

By your example, what causes have you effected?

Chapter 16 - _Am I influential but you are not?_

You can easily see that I have impacted the world. Am I more capable than you? Who has put limits upon you and what you can do? As I have said, the same tools are given to all of God's creations. God's creations have free will to use them or to not use them. Consider the things that I was able to do that you feel that you are not able to do. You see me as powerful, special, and closer to God. I see you exactly as you see me – we are the same. Differences are only imagined between those created the same.

You have allowed something as ridiculous as bodily appearance to determine your feelings about a person. You have used titles and labels and finances to separate people in a hurtful way. You have chosen to see with your eyes and not with your soul. Do you honestly consider this to be helpful or harmful? Do you honestly believe that you are better or worse than another human being? More than all of this, you are not perfectly behaved, so how can you rightfully judge the behaviors of others? You do not have physical perfection, yet you so freely point out the shortcomings of others. Does any of this not appear insane to a reasonable person?

Would the world not be a better place, if only you could at least honor your brothers for their being in the same illusory boat as you? You are all in the world together and whether or not you would choose to pick out perceived differences or not, you would be much more peaceful if you saw everyone as equal just as I do. Separatist mentalities are held by those who see themselves as somehow better or more special. Who in this world can actually think that they are somehow better than anyone else? Could you imagine me tooting my own horn? Have you ever gotten the impression that I was a person full of pride or specialness?

The difference between a person of presumed specialness and a non-special person is merely a circumstance. The mighty fall; the pretentious are revealed; the haughty are disgraced. Hasn't it always been so? Have you not seen the rise and fall of many? What goes up must come down. This is common knowledge, yet you have a tendency to overlook this fact while you are admiring some and criticizing others. Why are you so foolish when you know the truth? You even think that by associating with someone whom you consider great that somehow you are great also. Humanity is delusional and very fickle. For when a person is seen as great, you love them. When they have fallen, you act as if you never knew them. Can this be love, so conditional and fleeting?

You have forgotten your Father's love. It is not lost, but certainly forgotten. You think that the fleeting passions are the experience of love, but you soon find that your love has passed and must have only been something else. God's love is not so temporary or conditional. Have you loved anything or anyone in this life without condition? You would say that you love your parents unconditionally, yet you could easily be faced with situations which would cause you to not behave so lovingly. You tell yourself that you will love someone for all eternity, yet eternity in this world has a very short shelf life. You have fooled yourself and forgotten what is true. You have played with love as you have played with hate. Hate is presumed love's opposite. Can a condition of perfect love even be open to such a thought as hate?

Your world is full of hatred and destruction of the masses. People are seen as expendable, yet you are somehow not. You place a greater importance upon yourself than you place on others. Why are you so special? Even the greatest person on the earth is great only relative to merely nothing. Who can claim to be the best of all the pigs in the parlor? What are your standards and how have you selected them? And why do you take a stand one day on a subject only to take another on another day? Your loyalties are not true and steadfast. Your loyalties are as honorable as the patterns of the sky. You change your mind about simple things, but hold fast to things which are destructive and separatist. Worse than this is your tendency to hold on with all your might to the opinions of others. If your parents hate Jews, then so do you, even though you may have never even known one personally. You've heard all the stories and swallowed them hook, line and sinker.

How can you hate someone whom you do not even know? How can the beliefs or behaviors of someone, especially someone worshipping God, be seen as hateful in your eyes? Is the other person's God deserving of hatred and yours is not? Have you met their God and known Him to be different than yours? You have again been fooled by what you've allowed to factor into your own beliefs. You've allowed the hatred of others to be your own. If you had taken the time to find out the reasons for the hatred, you might just find that the hater had simply heard the story from someone else and had so likewise believed. Current times have put Muslims in a rather bad light. Being not one to discriminate person from behavior, you simply hate them all. Is it not reasonable to assume that perhaps there is one Muslim who is not deserving of your hatred? Could there be one Buddhist in the world that could slip under the radar of hatred?

I, Jesus, did not teach hatred or separatism. Why do you?

Chapter 17 - _Am I divine but you are not?_

The trinity of God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, does not in your mind include you. Why? Why do you consider me to be the only son of God? Just because you didn't hear God say, "This is my son in whom I am well pleased," does not mean that He has not said the same about you and all your brothers. You and I are the Sonship of God. God didn't have an only child, He had only children. God didn't create based upon some hierarchy as you have imagined. God created from perfection, not limitation. All is all and not less than all. You have imagined heaven to be made of levels and stairs, much as you have established your societies. If you created levels, God created none. God does not create like you.

I am quoted as saying that I and the Father are one. This is true, but not to your exclusion. You and the Father are also one. If I am, so are you. If I am in high school and you are in elementary school, am I better than you? Are you better than me? If I am in Kansas and you are in Cuba, are you better than me? If you live in the city and I live in the desert, are you better than me? Do any of these things determine a person's status in God's eyes? If God does not judge based on circumstances, why do you? If God sees all the same, why do you see things differently? Have you not yet realized that you think exactly opposite of God? Does not your world operate opposite of God?

Does it seem odd to you that you have not realized this sooner – that you are living the exact opposite of heaven? How have you been so fooled? What has it taken to convince you that this is actually better than hell? When the best love that you can get is less than perfect, how can you think that hell could be worse? If ever you have been disappointed, surely you have thought, "There must be worse if hell is real." Have you not comforted yourself by the thought that there are others in worse situations than your own? What sort of comfort is this really?

My life may seem bad, but yours seems worse, so I'll feel better about my own. Is this not the rationale of insanity? One bad situation does not warrant another bad situation and a worse situation does not make yours better. In your guilty mentality, you have tried to make hell somehow more like heaven. You have sought to bring bad up to good by shifting your perspective. Does death by starvation seem worse than death by natural causes? Is it not really all the same? You have felt that you have no right to complain and that you have been gifted as having it better than some. This sort of coping mechanism somehow soothes the weary, but really only offers an excuse why you shouldn't feel the way you do. This is a sort of denial – much like smiling when you are sad.

You are taught to be grateful and you have always tried to see the light in the darkness. But why not be honest and see the darkness as the light and the light as the light? See things as they really are, for there is no darkness unless you judge it so. Let's not kid ourselves and try to make ourselves feel better by justifying our circumstances. Do be grateful for all things – truly grateful and not merely go through the motions. To be grateful for all things means to understand that you have created your life plan for reasons which are your own and you are grateful to have the chance to experience as you wrote. Don't pick out what you consider bad and what you consider good – for in this do you create misery. If all things were selected by you for you, then be appreciative that you have what you selected. For in your choosing was wisdom. Wisdom is relative as you may not remember why you chose what you did. But when your days are over, you will know that you had chosen wisely and will have the chance to know the benefit of your choices for the advancement of your soul.

Be of good cheer in all things – do not imagine that you are somehow the victim of the world. You are the co-creator of the world, so why not enjoy the world while you are in it? Don't let the chance pass you by to fully appreciate what you have created for yourself. You've gone through much to get where you are and what you are right now was perfectly planned for the purpose at hand. If one detail of your life had been missed, then you would not be who you are today. Somehow even one detail would have changed you completely. Be glad for all that you are today, for what you are, you chose to be for the benefit of your soul.

If one person had not interacted with you as planned, you would have experienced life differently. Think of the coach who encouraged you to perform better or the teacher who always knew you could. One person contributed much to your life just as you have contributed to everyone in your life. For this be grateful – realize the gifts of your brothers to make you what you are. You may not know your greatness, but God knows nothing else.

Chapter 18 - _You are what I am!_

There is nothing that I am that you are not – for we are one in the same! Differences between us do not exist. Use whatever descriptors you like, but you will not prove the existence of any difference between us as the eternal creations of God. In this there is great peace. See yourself as perfect as you see me because in truth, you are perfect.

You are not a sinner because God knows nothing of sin. You are not fearful because God knows nothing of fear. You are not weak or powerless as God knows nothing of these. God's opposite was not created by Him, for He knows of nothing but perfection. If you are the creation of God, then you must be perfect.

Were you anything less than perfect, God would have created imperfection and would not essentially be perfect. In all of your beliefs, do not ignore reason and knowing. Your truth is merely truth and cannot be held against any rationalizations or arguments. Truth merely is, just as God merely is.

You have taken to heart that which is not true because you have believed the words and writings of others. Peace comes to you in the knowingness of your soul. The truth is revealed to you and will be the only thing that makes perfect sense to you. You have put all sorts of definitions and descriptions upon the creations of God based upon what God did not create. Know that you are not, nor ever will be what your body's eyes can see, for what is unreal cannot see what is real.

I have told you repeatedly that you have put far too much stock in the illusions of life. You have chosen the unreal over the real. You have little trouble believing that I am resurrected, yet you argue against reincarnation. If others can return to bodies, then why can you not? Your arguments do not make sense even to yourself. Always you must rationalize your beliefs and fill the gaps left vacant by your stories.

There are no gaps in truth. The truth is what it is and will always be. It needs no mental processing to justify it or make it believable. To know the truth, you must allow it to be revealed to you perfectly and without your judgments attached. Only God can reveal His truth, at your invitation with the openness of your reception. Ask and you shall receive; seek and you shall find. God does not wish to keep secrets nor does He wish for you to be led astray.

God does not wish for you to be overwrought with misery while believing what is not true. God would have you know the truth that you may not live as a victim of things beyond your control. He would give you peace so that you can learn what you came here to know. This is not reality – God is reality. Any life that includes death is not what God would have. He sees that you are unhappy and hears the crying of your heart. His answers are freely given to all who would listen.

God's answers to prayers are not in the changing of the tides, but are in your understanding of why the tides behave as they do. It is your perception, created over years of living that have caused you to doubt. Confusion comes from the imagined separation of the body and the soul. For two voices are heard, but only one speaks truthfully. To fully understand this is wisdom; to deny it is delusion.

I have told you that you should trust and have faith in your Father as He has provided for all of your needs. You have not believed this and have chosen to worry instead. You have chosen to listen to the ego rather than the spirit. You have chosen what is unreal over what is real. In seeking the truth, you will learn that there is nothing that is not planned in advance for the life that you currently lead.

You did not come here alone as you have imagined. In fact, you have not come here at all. You have used the creative powers of your mind to see yourself here. Your mind chooses to cling to the illusion and accept not its unreality. If you live by my example, then you will have behaved as I did. Would I lead you astray and teach you wrongly? What would be the point?

Do as I did, and in this you will know the peace of God. Did you hear of my having stress related illnesses or running fearfully away from those who sought to do me harm? How have you behaved that I have not? Learn truly from my example and do not use the words of others to convince you to be afraid. Know your body for what it is and you will be able to shift your focus away and open your mind to all that there is.

There are those who have known the truth about life while living. There are those who have undone the limitations put upon their minds which have allowed them to live as I have. I am not the one and only, but one of the few who have come to realize the unity of all.

To cause your body to die is really very simple – it is a decision. You would believe that your existence is based upon a single decision to have the body live or die. If your life was all that you are, then you would have been cheated in the worst way. You would be nothing more than a lighted match, alive but for a moment.

Enlarge your vision of yourself. Don't put physical limits upon yourself. At first it may be hard to believe, but the truth will set you free of the mental restrictions that you have accepted as your truth. You have always had to struggle to believe as you do. There have always been things that simply didn't add up in a reasonable mind.

There are also things that you simply knew for no apparent reason. Your mind has been in constant turmoil between what you know to be true and what you have believed to be true. In truth, there is only truth. Neither judgments nor justifications are needed. The opinions of others do not satisfy what you know inside; therefore, only what is true for you is in fact what is true.

Don't be influenced by others who proclaim to know your truth. Your truth is true for you and only you. Test everything through your own spiritual filter and believe only what you will. Do not be as sheep led to beliefs that hold no truth for you. You can never know the truth of another, nor fully believe as they do. You may say that there is one truth, but what you have believed is in the separateness of all things.

You have believed that religions are the paths to God, but the simple fact that religions separate God's children demonstrates some untruths. Religions are man's creations, created to provide a format of separation between the believers and the unbelievers; the chosen and the unchosen; the righteous and the unrighteous; the many and the few. The divisions of man are not the divisions set by God, for God has not separated man.

Have you ever considered how one ethnic group was supposedly chosen and all the rest of the world's people were not? A reasonable person might find this to be unreasonable. Was not the position transcended to include all others after the supposed chosen had failed to live up to God's expectations? Could it be that God would have chosen some and not others? Could it be that God would have chosen the "wrong" ones? Could it be that God would have to rethink His choosing and include all others?

Your beliefs and religions have taken great leaps of faith, but faith in what? All religions deem their way to be the only way. Is it possible that God chose me to save the world? What did I save the world from? Was the world really any different after me as before? You have given me greater credit than I could ever begin to deserve. Let your reason tell you what it will. I came to teach you and that is what I have done. You take from the teachings the lessons that you believe.

Don't make the mistake of seeing me as more than you. We are one in the same and all have lessons to both learn and teach. I did not save the world, for the world is not to be saved. I did not give salvation to sinners, for sinners do not exist. I taught of more beneficial behavior, but have not sought to save you from what you have created for yourself. In this there will be great dispute, until the truth is known by each.

Lift your thoughts to higher things and do not dwell upon the futility of life. Sit in a quiet place and know that greater is in us than is in the world. Open your mind to what is possible and be not fooled by what you see. Trust that you are well within the carefully designed script written perfectly for your life. For within the script is the beauty of all the lessons that you have come to learn.

Do not live your life as a prisoner, caught behind bars of doubts and fears. Walk freely by my example and know that God is all there is!

Summation

This teaching/learning could go on forever and in eternity it will. But for now, let's take a break and consider as you will. The truth I have always taught and will continue for all time. I have taken on the role of teacher as my role unto the world. It is my gift to my brothers for I know of your suffering and have lived as you have lived. I am no different than you nor anyone else. My place is not above you nor below God and neither is yours. We are equal in truth, which is God's view and all that really is.

God has not allowed you to create for the purpose of punishment. God has not punished nor judged. For in truth you are the only judge of you. You must overlook what you've been told and see yourself truthfully and with great clarity. With the soul's progression, or regression and return, it becomes rather obvious that there is nothing to fear but what is in your mind. Your mind is the maker of all that you see and believe. Your mind is the punisher of evil and the destroyer of mankind. Your mind is the unlimited creative force for which you attribute to God, but are you not the creation of God, created to create?

If you look at my last life as filled with pain, then so it is. If you see the beauty of all that it entailed, you will see it as a beautiful life. The script that I had chosen was perfectly suited if you consider the purpose of it. Just as a writer considers the message to be conveyed and follows with the conveyance, so is our life's script. The purpose is chosen first and then the means are detailed accordingly. In order to understand a life, one must see the purpose for it. My life was to teach you peace and it did so perfectly. What can you say of your life – seeing it as you do? Would it seem different if you first considered the purpose before sorting out the details?

It's easy to get lost in the details, just as it is easy to see that I was unfairly murdered for my beliefs. I was not in the world to believe one thing or the other – I was in the world to teach peace. The details, if examined separately, might suggest a different purpose. But the whole picture paints a rather prolific view of a life lived peacefully as an example for all of peace. Even unto death, I sought to console and to teach peace. What have you come here to teach?

To know yourself is to understand your purpose. In a way, we are all teachers and each has a life filled with experiences which taught us and allowed us to teach. There are those sent to teach love; there are those sent to teach against hate. How better to teach love than to teach its opposite? See that all things are lesson material for the benefit of those in the classroom of life. You are sent to be taught and to teach, just as your brothers are sent to be taught and to teach. Your innate connection to all others is the means by which you are taught and teach. In a single conversation can you both learn and teach. Seek to see the beauty of all interactions, even if you at first see them as bad. Allow the full picture to be revealed and the gift to be unveiled.

My life was not simply one day on the cross. Please stop seeing it this way. See my life as the full lesson that it taught. I did not come to teach you how to die on the cross or how cruel is crucifixion or how we often punish the innocent among us. I came to teach peace, which is the natural state of God. The world is the opposite of heaven; therefore, its experiences are unpeaceful. Until you learn to see the lack of peace, you will not recognize the peace.

The world's lessons are opposite of truth. In this there is much wisdom if you learn to realize this as truth. Choose to live each day opposite of what you normally do and see if you do not find this to be true. For experience is the best teacher and I can only show you peace, but cannot cause you to experience it. You must choose it before you will ever know it as your experience.

As I've said, there are those who do not choose peace and this is perfectly ok, for they have lessons to learn and teach just as you do. Allow your brothers the freedom to learn as they would choose. It is not your place to force your lessons upon them, for the lessons are already planned. Each person must seek for what they need when they need it. When the student is ready, always does the teacher appear!

For those who do seek peace, it is available. For those who seek its opposite, that is available as well. In all that is written or heard, you be the judge for you and no one else. In this there is great peace, for the truth is always known in the depth of your soul. You are your greatest teacher and have much to teach the world. Let your lesson plan be taught as the call does naturally come. Seek not to change the world, but change it when it asks. The world is a marvelous creation if it is truly understood. You are a marvelous creation if only you would know the truth about yourself.

God plays no favorites; therefore, you are what I am and we are All as He is.

The Scribe Described

This scribe did not intend to be, yet was somehow chosen. Destiny played its part, shifting me to we, from I to all. I have always had a great curiosity about God and had studied much on the subject, but my primary focus was my career. Learning about God took on a new twist when God inspired me to write the words heard. "Hearing" is not how the words actually come, for it is more of a "knowing." When the mind is quieted, the emptiness is filled with inspired knowledge.

I write as and when instructed, either with pen or keyboard. The vehicle does not matter, but the content is to be kept sacred. Always, I understand that I must keep the sanctity of the gift given. Regardless of my own judgments about the content, I understood that the content is not about or for me. The content is to be presented as received, for the benefit of those seeking to have their questions answered.

I cannot profess to be specially qualified, except that I am able to simply bring the words received to print. My credentials really do not offer credence to the work, except that they are verifiable and do demonstrate the normality of my life. I do hold degrees in accounting and education and have thirty years business experience.

K. C. Boone

