

The Seat Of My Mind

Published by Jean-Nichol Dufour at Smashwords

Copyright 2011-2018 Jean-Nichol Dufour

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TABLE OF CONTENT

DREAMING

5-THE SEAT OF MY MIND

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First things first

This is part 2 of a suite forming the book "A Flower To Life". I decided to make it available that way because it is too long or too big for most book sites on the net. I will eventually try to publish as paperback, again, but for now it seems it's not the style literary agents want to see, it's too long, too big, weird, very bad english, not fitting their free market or what they like to read; I never got a criticism about content. Now that you know how bad it is since connoisseurs judged it so while complaining they get nothing special to read, I'll talk about the killing point; I want free digital copies available to anybody, and that is impossible, even if I let the publisher have all the profits they can manage to gain from selling it as paperback (and digital too). So I separated the book as a suite for free distribution on Smashwords, and nobody except me touches the text. I know literary agents are a bit right, but it's part of their job to see potential and help, not push people to self-publishing, which it's sure not something I can afford, as for potential, I guess we'll see. For now I don't take it too badly since my work is about starting a new reality from scratch, so I must cover a vast range of hard philosophical, spiritual, personal, psychological, political and fundamental universal matrix subjects, and gaining all round competence with all that will require lots of time and quite a few updates to get right, particularly with the casual style I have chosen. While some, I wonder who, will argue about my style, I believe I have chosen the fastest and best route to get my arguments read by a maximum of people, I want my work as the adventure of revolted person fighting hell in a realist way. As for the why I want an independent source free, it is because I know this will be a unique and rare artefact, and I don't want anybody to take control of it after I'm dead. I want a place where my profile and my work can remain available after my death in its integrity of form, even if a transfer of platform becomes necessary. I accept that people make any variation of it if it's not for bad intents or self-interests, but the original must remain integral. And one last thing, up to the flower edition, all my work is free of external influence that I know of (maybe except gods); it is all the invention, imagination and deductions of someone who was curious and interested in science when young, had to deal with religious resentment a little, did a bit of military, learned a bit of technology, discovered his inadequacy, got himself a spirituality, and finally a nice mentality, after losing all sociability.... All that has arisen from forming my opinions as I experienced reality and kept a general interest on everything, easily available to anybody, but TV, and I still manage not to read the bible, nothing on the mind, no book on psychology or philosophy in my library that don't exist, in my home that don't exist, and internet searches may be limited to a few details.

DREAMING

I decided to write about some of my dreams, the most interesting, fitting, or repetitive ones, like the hole in the wall you may have read about previously. I think our knowledge is a bit limited beside what's possible, particularly with psy who have taken over the subject, mainly to have clues for another one of the many, all revolutionary and proven working, psychological healing expertise (to find happiness I suggest). Knowing the type of dreams I make, apart for certain exceptions, I wouldn't trust the opinion of experts at discovering the truth of me from my dreams, I'm sure I can do a better job myself. Dream signification books are not much better; you see a bike and it means all kind of things never fitting the context adequately, so chose the one best fitting how you felt at that moment, and just forget the possibility that a bike may not have the same unconscious or emotional signification from one person to the next. I guess it works for the simple ones, like a depressive person dreaming of falling in crap. I had one like that as an ado, I made it maybe 20 times; I fell in a pit in darkness and fell to infinity until I woke up, and it's not hard to deduct that something bad was happening in my life... Now, we all like to find a signification to dreams, and me too I do it to some extent, but I try to limit that as I believe there are different levels of dreaming all associated to different mind activities and modifiers. Knowing what could be possible, current dream signification books are not worth much. And you'll understand why as you read each chapter since from now on I'll start all of them with dreams I made, and you'll see some of them are quite special, and I'm not sure I would let current experts on the subject decorticate them to their significance.

So I sure won't say there are no clues of one's state of mind in dreams, but it's almost zodiac level interpretation presently. While I would say it will stay a vague mix of interpretations from different interrelated mind capacities, with some simplicity exceptions, the reality of my own dreams would tend to contradict this vision, because seriously, where do I take the stuff? My dreams are very graphical, many are multi parts, and the signification is often megalomaniacal scarily big. Multipart dreams? You could argue that there's a phenomenon like I make the whole dream in a single shot, like I blink half awake memorizing part one then go back to the dream, but well, I forgot the part that I wrote about 10 years ago...I mean when you write about a dream and go back to the place years later, you know they are not tricks. And all those multi part dreams are mind blowing in their potential signification. But how do I know I make exceptional dreams? That is the question.

I believe dreams are associated to the selection, study, and possible optimizing, of parts of consciousness by brain modifiers; if you follow the external brainwash mostly imposed by reality, or if there is nothing new these days, some or all of your dreams will be "classic" and short, somewhat fitting the literature of the reality on the subject. Following the ways of the reality to the letter all your life will make your dreams less interesting and frequent and shorter and classic, not very livid or memorized since they may be related to how you deal with your emotions too, so as you grow older and get more secure, your dreams may end-up less interesting, but there may be another phenomenon at play where at some point in peace the capacity can be used for something else, genetically speaking, our tail took another form once we had no use for it...If however you take lot upon yourself, and like to understand stuff and gain knowledge and consciousness in an explorative (adventurous) manner, or a traumatic experience modifies it, particularly if you try to follow your consciousness against all odd, or the reality is turning in a new direction, any and more of such possibilities will give more, more intense, longer and interesting ones, but maybe not the same as someone that is simply free of responsibility (feeling of having something to prove).

We should do a "dreamology" kind of science, like psychology, while not forcing a truth about it, because a vague schema of truth of such spheres of expertise will only begin to form when we'll be in a stable, safe, fair and healthy civilization systematization. For now we are experimenting millions of things that will take thousands of years to know if they are true, that's the truth. And I know a majority of our cumulated knowledge is truth, thanks, but I push for better, and a lot of this better can be found in old history lies, PMBBD (Propaganda, Manipulation, Bullshit, Brainwash, Disinformation), and attitudes.

Some bits of what I write comes from speeches or "ghost" phrases forming in front of my mind, gotten from dreaming. Then I would wake up totally motivated by what I was dreaming of talking or writing about, and the sense in it, like it's super big because it's dream stuff, only to pass many hours perfecting what I remembered, mostly ending up totally out of context. So you could say I do the same with my dreams (perfecting them as I write them), but while I can say there are foggy parts, it takes only a few minutes to describe them, and I pertinently know I don't.

Apart from that, it is evident to me that some of my dreams are clues to some kind of logical revelation path, but premonition? Rest assured, I never dreamt of fire and destruction, maybe some blood, not much violence even if I do kill people every now and then, it's more fantastic, not far from la, la, land if I'm to be honest, but they are old dreams too, maybe related to the games I was playing at the time, since I've always been a player. I prefer to see the process as a form of hybridization from my own continually sustained conscious effort at thinking of many things, along with life already optimized truths (initial (packaged for reproduction) unconscious, some modifiers (optimized reality interaction tools); the nearer my philosophy is to them (truth of life, not only facts of existence), the more my dreams should reflect something premonitory? From freeing mind resources? I'm just having fun because my mind knows I'm in the know, and sometimes it plays tricks on me, and we're having fun as much as we can as a mind, while still knowing important things are to come? So fuck you, I'll stay a kid, that's what I have to do, play games and give the honor finger to the world and stay a moron on the adult facet because adults piss me off! And sex people piss me off too! Because I know my capacities, but now is not my time, this reality can only seek the destruction of people like me, immediately preferably, and I sure wouldn't dare having something to prove to people for whom you never end needing to prove things. Still, I'll take my responsibilities, I'll rise as much as I'm permitted without losing my sanity.

Dreams could reflect a conflict too, but not much of that in me, and being ripped apart on most aspect of my person because I refuse to adapt to this reality doesn't qualify because of logical interrelated complexities. Still, no dreams of destruction of the world, those are pope style dreams I would presume, was Nostradamus a fervent believer? Probably, but this Nostradamus looks worse than a joke to me, just the name, it's like building a story around a name; if he really existed I'm sure that's what he did, a kind of Jesus syndrome psychosis. And me? I'm still doubting, I feel ok, am I possessed? No, I'm not. It's just that I use the ultimate power, the power to apply what I learn, a bit late, but what's that got to do with dreams? Nothing. But yes, dreams could reflect a conflict with reality, inversely proportional to general consciousness ability, so for those inversely proportional people dreams may be geared toward other, more serious matters; I wouldn't like to live in the mind of a current ego innocent if I was life, I'd protest for sure, but does that works? It works if you rejects available logic to make yourself a pawn, but for someone who follows logic, even against reality, then his dreams would reflect more harmony. It's super slippery though, as concepts, but for now I make superb dreams as quite a revolted person that play game and get angry and think real extreme stuff, so what? I find peace in my dreams? And text, common, text, who dreams text? Quite a few times at it. It's like it's super important at it, but maybe not in the immediate sense I think since it always take lots of time half sleeping half thinking to get the message somewhat right, and it is quite hard keeping this half-conscious state, it's like I must do the traducing of some unconscious message, my mind still dreaming I don't know about what because my consciousness is all used to give it meaning (consciousness-unconscious, I don't see those as separated but as a process flowing from exterior to interior). Still, it could be always the same continuation effect of writing like all day is not enough, it's just that when you're young you don't have years of cumulated experience at it, so it's all novelty. I still never regretted writing about them, text dreams, even if they were mostly "path of thinking initializations", and they mostly have been transformed to usable writings, and there were not that many.

Most of the dreams, or hallucinations if you look at synonyms, while the later happens with open eyes. The way they are going they'll soon confound imagination with hallucination. But it's worse actually! They are confounding imagination with dreams! Look at synonyms! So yes logically, in the mind of this reality where words can mean anything, you got imagination which is a synonym dreaming which is a synonym of hallucination! Worse when you consider that the mind will try, with time, to optimize the conflicting stuff through reproduction to make it more efficient. It may even be possible that this attitude limits our dream capacity by adding bullshit until they can mean anything. It's possible I make great dreams because I fight conflicting bullshit, or I limited it by rejecting this reality. But who cares? Me and life and gods, we all care, you don't, and dictionary people and manipulators care about growing mind conflict until hell is irreversible. Now, following this line of thinking, it could be possible that some old civilizations like the Mayans could have developed more life sensitivities by having more precise languages.

Most of the dreams I'll write about are action dreams that started innocently, I dream of a place and append to it with others dreams through the years. I can be years before visiting an old dream and add some space and adventures to it, so this proves my mind finds it useful to memorize some dreams for itself, but not for me; it is hidden secret compartment some other entity (process) keeps for itself. I'd be very much interested in accessing that memory though, as I would find quite a fantastic realm there (Or maybe just coded garble or mangle, confusion I wouldn't make sense of). Not only that, I memorizes them knowing I'll make another one in a few years at the same place since the first dream can be a presentation or goal of a new dreaming place; now we're getting into premonition... Or is it an inversed law of quantum physics deja-vu where I half hallucinate stuff into flashback? So I'll be careful here or I'll start dwelling in esotericism, like saying I could be hallucinating old lives...I may be one of the rare around to appreciate some entities in some sort of competent way too, and so I'm rewarded with the evolutionary process of my life, as dream steps, and the quest I can possibly take too.

I've got an excellent memory, use selective like for most people I guess, just maybe more and stronger due the importance I "have" to give to things, except superstar names, or worse, in which year the "star" or government did what; television is full of that, and schools like it very much too. At least my dreams seem more important to remember than the name of this man or that since that's the first thing I remember of my life; a dream. Then there's the memory itself like games, I remember names of games, but even those I played like months I have forgotten, maybe not, when I think about it some names come to mind, but what I remember is the cool and the feel, and flow of complexity, proportional to the freeing of mind capacities by the "fuck the world I'll play games" effect, while knowing (feeling a lot) the kind of job I'd have to do in the future.

I usually can't remember dreaming of a place before going back to it at least once, and then I may quickly write it on a piece of paper. My last dreaming space, you won't believe it, is the whole earth. So I would guess anything in the mind can be involved in the creation of dreams, the only limit to dreaming is mind skills, and among those is the ability to play with one's own consciousness (high consciousness (specifically, requires sustained efforts) is a transitory state mostly used to steer (change) reality by changing the person, the more it is optimized as modifiers (instinct, extension, developments, dna) and the more its skills can be used, for other things; that is, when it's not too late or dwelling in an overload of other conflicts).

So it's all a matter of what's possible, and we must make the difference between what's realistically possible and what's not to evolve, and me I manage the pressure, or I turn away by deducting impossibilities and cheating possibilities so that I don't have a deformed image of reality, which reflects the space life can take or extend itself in genetically, and a big part of this is the language which is like a little reality into itself. So you can tell me everything is possible all you want I don't care if I know the only way to make your stuff possible is by cheating, by using a trick. The use impossibilities is fun and exploration (like exploring the environment of what's possible). Most of this chapter is meant to explain that one of the greatest powers of our minds is to make the difference between truth and falsehood, possibilities and impossibilities, good and evil, to choose wisely how the human will evolve in mind and body.

To expose more possibilities, I'll add that in an ideal reality where the mind is well developed, (nothing to do with size, stuffing, or IQ) it may be possible for dreaming to become a form of entertainment since it would lose most of the use it has in hell, or it could become a tool to find one's "destiny", or a life communication sensibility, or even, as a faraway possibility, inter dimensional life systems interference or communication, like a weird twitter with the dead, if things wouldn't degenerate in religious insanity, so maybe it's not a good idea, let's not put that on the list of future universal implementation, it would completely mess up the perfection of everything...

This "spiritual" phenomenon should be proportionally efficient to language integrity, and probably that the more we dwell in truth, the better the dreams, and the nearer to our best ways we become and the more chance we have to fulfill our destiny or the reasons why we exist. That's an emphasis I'll try to my view of the mind in this chapter since to me life develops by feeling reality and its effect on it and the mind is its greatest device for that while the body is its greatest sense and physical tool for it.

So the best of it is gotten with adequate imagination, sensitivities, language, and it is highly dependent on epoch too, your destiny too (or your mind capacity), and surely there are other proportionalities to other things somewhere else too; to get the best of it you got to be worth the effort in a sense. Life found me and gave me back some form of understanding of where I come from and the path to my destiny, and what can I say, I'm sensitive and I make the most fantastic stories from my complex feelings because I can? Emotional intelligence; not easy to get right...

For now let's say dream can be anything, with some materialistic association, because who can twist the signification of a banana? But maybe with a little multiplication here, a bad trip there, some memories, some associations, add some imagination and you get a dragon. What do you do if another part of your brain likes to jump in and embellish, so a potentially bad dream becomes a good one? Personally I don't remember making a bad dream, except the one where I fell in the pit if you can call that a bad dream, I like all my dreams, even the bloody dreams of my youth. Even your ego can add its little touch, unconscious ego? Conscious ego? Natural ego? External created ego? Which one did what? And what to make of people who are good at controlling their dreams?

Transcendental voyages could be an interesting subject, but I did a few and they were boring things where I didn't go much farther than my bedroom. I think they are a near death experience enabled by dreams; the dream may be a way to enable the mind to see the body dying because it has no final justification to die. It may be an unconscious way of choosing to live or die; seeing yourself mean you ego still have importance to you so you wake up stopping the death process, while getting away from your body without turning back is a sign to your body that it can continue dying. So if you lose sight of your body and you don't exactly know your environment by heart (finding your way in the dark), your "stroll" could mean the end of your life.

Animals too, dream, maybe there are some that live only because they dream, and I guess their different brains should be reflected in their dreaming ways and diversity too. But I don't know what a brain in an animal do, what I know is that they don't pass their time stuffing it with a fantastic amount of things learned by heart and BBMPD. So how can a brain that does nothing end-up big? I don't know, maybe there are very simple looking things they do that are infinitively more complex than we think, or they have more powerful or sensitive specific modifiers requiring bigger brains.

As an example, you could say we have a gigantic consciousness of time, maybe it's even a modifier more specifically developed for us since we make a super big paranoia about it and beside us, most animals have an infinitely smaller consciousness of if, and different, since it is used more instinctively for specific actions (it should be interesting to know how our vision of time used in our minds beside timing our stuff consciously, is it a thing?), since nothing is that simple with life. I might add that their consciousness, which may have more specific uses than in us, but still with a global base, will still influence everything, including a modifier, so you definitively cannot make a scientific formula here.

The imaginative way to see it would be that most animals are the carrier of an exceptional thing, maybe an infinitively superior time modifier (sensitivity or efficiency) to anything on earth? Or a super reflex modifier? (See modifiers as extremely optimized truths or sensitivities about reality, easing survival, they are variable truths, or currently optimized parts needing another few thousand years of adjustments before becoming genetic.) Sometimes a whole chain of species protect such a secret, always ready to flabbergast scientists who are so pressed to spread everywhere their created in a bottle life, while they still got much to learn just by observation of what is already there. I won't talk about the many greater powers that we could find, even develop, exploring them since their reality has become their instinct, which we witness a lot through their exceptional skills, but not in the scientist way, like with a scalpel and a map of the brain gotten from an electrical activity detected in the area when the subject was presented with a specific situation, since the electrical effect may be related to a feeling invoked by the situation totally oblivious to our preoccupations...

Innocent animal life, mostly being under the laws of life and matter, carries powerful extreme examples of its powers. We are shooting ourselves in the foot by playing with it like we made it. By playing gods (superior, controller, and possessor) with life we have destroyed many facets of it we may never witness again, creating self-limitations based on stupidity, and arrogance for sure.

Maybe we will never take some forms or another step because we destroyed a lifeform (can be a microbe or an old specie of humans) that was developing something (can be from us experiencing reality) which would be later come back to us as an "update". I see all kind of communication levels and strategies concerning life; a virus can transfer something from one lifeform to another, and the recipient may look sick for as long as it is not well implanted (can take thousands of years), or the modification may be stashed in DNA (What some see as garbage to clean because it seems useless, but there is a lot of the stuff that could be future or reality dependent aspects that didn't enable). All kind of things like that can be possible, and it our job from the top of the chain, with our power to understand or morph reality, to reasonably protect the weak (I'm not talking about a mental weakness or sickness imposed by reality). And systematically changing the chemistry of the brain to force it to reality's standards of sanity is the worst way to help life, you help by reducing all forms of suffering, by using the plants provided by life as an emphasis, since those plants, as I'll explain later, are mainly meant (will "appear") to help life (work together with it), which has brains somewhere as its priority. You could even see some viruses as a form of control pattern by life's systems, because some of our attitudes break its logic, or its ideal path, or the perfection of everything, the same for fruits or animal specific bacteria, insects and viruses, they may be sharing a space in the name of our own survival. But I won't talk about the cost to us or even to all life of losing a single exceptional animal, or insect, or human for that matter, we could discover that they are a lot more helpful in all kind of ways than we could ever think. Next, I'm sure there are animals that could reach quite advanced consciousness on earth; only, they didn't grow arms or legs or wings or communication.

As for the current view of life, well, sorry but Darwin's theory doesn't make sense in a total form to me, species don't just "branch", they often squarely appear from existing ones, destroying ancestry notions; a new thing with brand new tools and not reproducing with anybody else, but who decided the new tools? I'll explore these possibilities, in my own words, but you won't get it all in this chapter, it will carry on in Life Infinite (more life systems oriented), and Lift-Off (more universe oriented). And that's why I'm open to such a possibility as life as a more global entity (life systems) using the universe form (matter specificities) to feel, deduct and influence things, but since it is a little far fetched I prefer to see it as developing systems, my spirituality.

I will kick Darwinism as a religion a little too, these people are like dentists; never tell them you don't believe in toothpaste, they'll break your teeth or start a BBMPD campaign, toothpaste is almost a religion to them. Science of life got their own religions and Christ; genetics, Einstein and Darwin. I say seeing is not knowing, so I'll add some aspects to their vision of genetics, give Einstein some troubles, and I'll pretentiously help expand the work of Darwin, which has been limited to a fraction of its possibilities, the evident (evidence) facet, by the ego-gods ideology (gods associated to ego attitudes, ego competition, superiority-inferiority, taking the god (s) coat, pyramidal mentality, etc, etc...) and its religions and science, instead of grown to a full ideology that could have taken over a lot of the work of the church for a far better humanity and life.

I was saying that the way I see communication it may be very difficult if not impossible to truly know what's going on in a brain while dreaming, as present science is only able to detect direct electrical activity, which is related, but not the whole story. Dreams could as well be the most complex and complete activity a brain can do, and under the right freedom conditions and taken globally, you could compare it to your true total power of creation.

As for sleep, it's a question of what limitation life is under to need it. Why do we need to make ourselves so vulnerable? Can't we just "half sleep"? Is the input of senses so vast that life systems need to put them on hold once a day to play with stuff in silence? I would guess it does, if we are to take muscles with lactic acid as an example. So sleep is in big part meant to depollute our mind, from free radicals stuff among other things, but you got to consider that sleep becomes a genetic opportunity too, if life is stuck using it, so it sure fit that everything is geared to use that moment so we survive longer.

The other thing is that what you think consciously and control, it still goes on behind your back uncontrolled, you are always dealing with an intelligence that's trying to trick you (with the truth, put you face to face with your fallacies), your own will do, but it works at a civilization scale too, so don't think you're too intelligent unless you are the one to write these lines, my other brain...

What it all means, is that why not shut the bullshit engine off, and do things all in calm, while doing whatever leftover depollution of this or that organ? In sleep your intelligence is far less limited (better control on that aspect can be gained with integrity), and now this superior intelligence to your own is trying to pass its message across, with dreams. Which is super weak as communication, super easy to get all wrong, but if you try to work a little, and with a few thousands more years, then maybe we'll be getting somewhere...

Consciousness is the recipient of sense input and control life functions for your mind to live individually and independently, while keeping yourself as a sense. You are in the dark without senses, losing your senses of reality is like losing your life, your mind too if you're not careful. If you want someone to panic, eliminate all his senses and you'll see how our knowledge to make us feel secure is limited beside what life can do alone in the dark. I guess it should be quite traumatic to shut down all your senses, as it would eventually call on the most basic, old and forgotten debug and reset procedures invented by life; a failsafe to give a second chance to young people, but removing all senses to an older person would make that person crazy after a few weeks, depending on his experiences and the dependence he developed. Yet, life can shut you down and make you live happy dreams totally inappropriate to the big freak panic you're living, why should you be breathing comfortably and having fun while sleeping but not when you wake up? What's your problem? Just go back to sleep!

So we shut down our senses by ourselves and we deteriorate fast, while if we don't let sleep shut them down for us we deteriorate faster. Our well-being is dependent from some kind of strange decision that forces us to become totally helpless out of senses. But in the end, most of the time it means healing, doctors put people to sleep then open them to replace broken parts or reduce pains, and that's probably the main reason why life need us to sleep, repair, heal, gain efficiency, but there are more for sure.]

The dream part of the shutdown is meant to prevent your interference, it forces other intellectual options even if you are alone, it becomes a logical that sleep becomes a kind of connection between what your intelligence deduct without your input, and what you bullshit yourself into believing.

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THE SHELLING PART 5

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THE SEAT OF MY MIND

Everything is art, everything is dust (dust to dust), everything is unfairness (life is unfair), everything is ego, everything is competition, everything is about big arms, and on and on you can go, until you hit your mind limitation, and that's why most will overlook "everything is about life" and "everything is memory" or better "everything is a time form". This chapter is the beginning of my explanation of how the mind is connected with life systems. It mostly hybridize the mind in context with life while still being in harmony with present science. "The seat of my mind" thus refers to the life wheel, or life evolution through our existence and reproduction.

I see the mind as a somewhat concentrated web or "tree" of access lines to all kind of selected, multi-parts, multi-use memories with all kind of interrelated access and modification functions under a constant optimizing process. Some of these memories can be easily or dynamically manipulated, or they can be permanent or cumulative and concentrated. In actual size the different memory parts can be very small while containing lots of information. One of the uses of it all is to transform true data as useable form, test what is possible with reality and its limitations. Within our mind it is done by a transformation process of understanding, in turn greater consciousness, greater ability to define reality, and redo the process all over until stability is reached, which should be proportional to how much we are in harmony with the perfection of everything. The ultimate representent of this process, people, should become the ideal genetic definition of the perfect amalgam of reality existential factors, or if you prefer, he's at the center of everything at the point of equilibrium of everything, and its genetics should reflect a far greater existential ease, along with hints of the steps it took to get there. Down to earth it is your usual process of gaining genetic instinct, the unconscious "matter of fact" way of living.

Unconscious in my view is like an explosion from life, and consciousness is like an implosion from reality, but that's the simplest visualization. A better way to see it is to imagine life as a wheel, at its center is the generator, the mechanics of life reproduction where stable non conflicting or optimized (modifier), truths gets transformed as information (wires, molecules, DNA) for the reproduction and morphing purposes of life. From the motor you expand and exchange with different aspects of reality, seen as the rays of the wheel trying to come together, representing different subjects making a turn, as understanding aspects forming consciousness (rubber, the wheel can be all weird, depending on how twisted your understanding is), within an attachment to logic of reality (rolling on reality, testing itself, exchanging data, reformulating understanding). It's all a wheel of understanding and modifying reality with genetics as a reflection of the stability of it when it doesn't invalidates other laws or emphasizes which may be bullshit. Since everything turns, and as you'll eventually find-out this spinning thing is a lot bigger to me than advertised, and since our energy are all a derivative of different things spinning, then in theory the wheel should spin by itself if you had it attached to some kind of universal constant that doesn't itself spin, or something, which is probably unlikely without direct motor (energy) involvement of the UI, so the wheel is left to the play of forces around it, wind will move it for now (microbes in the wind), but that lead to crash and restart (all the experience of life sensing reality to survive in it), so it's all a matter of gaining control of the wheel and applying energy to it (run where you want when you're little life starting, making dust float behind you, modifying reality), while inversing the wires and applying different energy and sliding around, it's super fun...

The principle is that the more the wheel is moving, the more it generates life more and more adequate to grow, control itself and better develop the truth of the environment (can be through all kind of means like diversification), with as a fundamental drive the exploration of possibilities to protect itself, gain intelligence, carry on surviving, and it's all unconscious for most, you don't know half what's going on, but you still got your effect want it or not, and you may as well put effort into it, to the blood if need be, because you are life as a wheel, with your heart as your energy source and your mind your driver...

The optimizing process I see as a life wheel because it is the most directly connected to the building of the mind, and then to the evolution of the being through reproduction. It's like the interface between sex, body and mind, so you can picture it as a process of exchange of information by using any tool necessary to define all credible aspects of reality, then reabsorb the result as a continual wheel of genetic changes, to become more and more adequate in the global picture of things, and thus what you can do to succeed in whatever predetermined goals, so you could say that's in part why dinosaurs became inadequate, as a learning step, whatever it was willfully or by inadvertence, life was ready.

Continuing with this view, from the center to the tire is like the unconscious, somewhat of a battleground to deduct truths from reality. In there you find lights which are the modifiers; packages of optimized functions where conflict or interaction is limited, proven true for so long that sustained reproduction transformed them as skills. The tire is consciousness, and it rolls on reality, with rays as related aspects of understanding (consciousness aspects), something like that. Both reality, the life generator and modifiers pressure or battle through the unconscious (mind) to create or optimize modifiers, even body parts, all the while constantly optimizing the lifeform from new input from its senses. What scientists see as mind parts, like the seat of language, are such places where battles of truth are taking place. Modifier start bigger, they are super concentrated task areas that eventually become separated from the rests, they become optimized with time and reproduction unless new factors are added to complexify them anew. Some may even become tool that can find themselves in future species (There are many ways it can be done, reproduction, blood, viruses, microbes, etc).

Spiritually, I would say that unconscious activity is more related to life systems, the work of life, while consciousness can be more related or influenced by yourself. I would say that when you die life will deal with what you optimized as an unconscious thing and what is most profoundly important to you. That's where you'd find reincarnation, if that exists, but it would all be automatic, action reaction. Gods would deal with what you do more consciously, I'll call this process enlightenment. Reincarnation would exist when life reconnects with a form that already passed through its systems, it would be a cycle that can take very long like a thousand year, it would be a continuation of a worthy destiny in a new being, and it would show in dreams, if not then that's lame. If your dreams seems to push you to something, then you may be unto something (destiny). In this view, life would work to develop what's most profoundly important to its senses (you) versus what's important in the schema of life systems. Reproduction? (sex) Yeah, but no need to develop that too much, everybody has it, in fact you may enter a battle with life if everybody only thinks about sex, or at least it won't care about you, insect... But a guy that hold to principles a lot? He could see reflection of what he holds at heart getting harmonized with some new life aspects that would come to light by his explorations, in his dreams at least, life logic could push for the continuation of the destiny, just don't forget that conflict don't develop profoundly unconsciously, and it's a matter of generality (interrelated understanding)... Enlightenment would be when gods gives greater consciousness or understanding potential to whatever lifeform suits his fantasies, it happens at the moment of birth or before. If I'm right in my view, then we should not confound reincarnation with enlightenment, even if both can happen in a single being. Enlightenment is when your sensibility to everything is naturally far greater than the norm, but you lack the tools to express it adequately, Cassandra (my incredible cat) syndrome. You could relate that to animals who act unnatural, they would develop like they are caged within their bodies, they could easily become depressive or super emotive and die. I'm just suggesting along the way that special animals should be given great care...

Back to brain matters, we are continually freeing space in our brain to develop new abilities, but that is relative to many things. As an example, language, at some point, probably took far less space versus efficiency than what we have today, so we may not have developed a smaller more efficient language area since we developed more language complexity as we evolved, to the point that our language area grew bigger instead of smaller, next, complexity and conflicting meanings can add size even if it's evolution is stopped, + 1 angry neuron. Still I should mention that in this view, any new meaning that is not conflicting or useless gives + 1 happy neuron. So I would say the negative effect of conflicting truth we developed is compensated by the positive effect of having new, better, or simpler definitions, but this effect may now be insignificant as stagnated in its process of optimization because of too much conflict from mass PMBBD and artistism (it's like autism for artists, it is a tendency to justify anything stupid or ugly you do as a form of art). As for knowing many languages, there is probably an optimal hybridization to find there, it may be a good thing to learn a few, but past that it is worthless in positive mind effects, maybe even negative in developing other capacities, except if you want to learn things to keep your mind active, but the best thing you can learn is resolving conflicting stuff. And I'm not talking about reality uses; I surely won't say it can't be useful to know 5 languages.

Now, it doesn't mean the brain is full of stuff at all since it is kind of prepared to deal with the complexity we are developing; in a sense, it is extrapolating its needs and form under its size limitations. We can't develop a brain encompassing all complexity so life processes prepare us to develop the complexity we need to develop the most, and it is all a logical process transmitted through reproduction; a life wheel process.

This is an example of how brain space can be used to extrapolate possibilities without looking useful, without it creativity potential would be incredibly limited, but there's modifier buildup or preparation too that could be going on, maybe we're preparing our brains for 3D or binary thinking, in 2000 years, after a lot of craziness, who knows. But yes you can dump 90%, and you bet you'll become very special...You can even displace some things around in the space, but it won't be at the optimal positioning for you anymore which is often the site where the battle for truth got optimal logistic positioning (supply lines of information), which still can change as the truth of reality develops (some aspects of reality can take a billion years to somewhat take form within an adequate lifeform). I know that seeing the mind as a tool to extrapolate and optimize possibilities doesn't fit the scientific methodology, but I say it is minimally as valid as any other theory... Particularly one that say 90% of the mind is useless junk and should be missing! Who said that anyway? Ah! it's because they don't detect electrical activity there (in their methodologically sleeping patients), and did someone actually, a scientist at it, believe he could get rid of 90% of his brains and still work normally? I'm sure not, so how did this critical information reach me? Ah, I know, the ego reality needs slaves, it's all a plan...

I should mention right away before sinking, or to sink myself right away I should mention, that I'm life and thus a part of my goal is to open possibilities with it as a goal (including humans), so my philosophy is not only about the facts of human life, I'm "sensing" as a sense of life too, indirectly suggesting where it could work to make itself better. So something that may not currently work may work in 10 000 years, but we may have to witness a lot of weird reaching that point, or a new virus or insect could bite us and force physical or mental change, causing the death of billions along the way, clearing some space. Or the environment could change too, or any combination, total destruction if scientists are too successful at fighting the pressures of life, things like a volcano era or a comet rain is not beyond life systems (the whole solar system is involved in our existence).

So to me creativity encompasses a whole mind, everywhere there's a neuron there's a possibility, but when you go very small, at the size of particles forming the atom, what does distance means to you? What if a millimeter is like a kilometer? What if one of the fundamental functions of life is to optimize energy use? As an example, if you had to create new knowledge from a vast and constantly changing memory pool and protect it from the influence of the changing state of the memory itself, you'd copy what you need somewhere else for permanence and stability, creating a new island, but then you discover that you can create some powerful tool from the stable data of 36 such islands, what would you do? You'd go get the information from the 36 places and memorize (develop) your new tool in a new spot.

That's a simple view of how you can get a modifier, but there are other options, like if the island got all kind of possibilities then you may want to squarely build things there, or even copy it nearer home for more efficiency. So a modifier it is not the island, it is something that may slowly come to exist from islands of stable data you created from a pool of constantly changing memory. A modifier can be a new developing part of a mind as well as a new gland on your body, the difference is that islands are created anywhere in the brain during a lifetime of experience, while a modifier is reproduced. I'll add that it may be possible that those islands get created during sleep, while modifiers are created awake. The mind can create millions of such islands arising from memory possibilities, and unless you want to explore possibilities or creativity or imagine out of boundaries, you'll never visit there and skip developing much of your independent personality. There are so many possibilities and combinations from gaining reality memory that there will never be enough people to develop all creativity, but you still need to carry the potential to explore or develop creativity...

Now, you understand that those islands can be representing any conflict dwelling anywhere in general memory, they can be messed-up from conflicting things we cumulated within our lifetime or throughout history that is closely related to the subject, and this closeness can take physical form, like a copy of related subjects reinforcing theses memories and the importance they have (life use anything at its disposition to sense and understand reality), so many islands become logistical stations for battles anywhere within the brain. So those islands are better have logical integrity from true information, but there are fun islands too; you can have islands full of flying Jesuses and virgins if you consciously know they're there just for fun, that way they don't become a handicap to the integrity of other processes, or they don't get involved in the many battlegrounds around meant to resolve conflict, but still, even in my wildest imagination I still make things as logic as possible, so in fact I'm battling even there, because islands can be battle points too if they are seen as important while their information conflict with something else (particularly already existing modifiers), and the battles to eliminate (ignore) or keep them are totally depend on your will to explore them; when you do, you decide if they must be eliminated or kept, conflict or not. You can keep conflict by not making the effort of steering your person toward truth, or you eliminate conflict by seeking truth or logic, and even if you hold at heart impossible stuff, it still amounts to a fraction of all what composes the logic of your existence, or that you unconsciously bow to in your life.

Consciousness, knowledge, senses, all are used in the memorizing process to make or reach islands (can be mathematical amalgams just sitting there from previous explorations, waiting for somebody to continue that path, under the form of genetic lock, if you see "everything" as communication (In face of the UI, you got to consider that everything is under an information creation process, and what is difficult to us is not even a matter of difficulty to they UI, because it's the creator of difficulty, so to it everything is flat on the table, since it does forces, then it's a matter of using his creativity to design the particle system, and you can bet that it is all patented to act as a flow of information, and to us it means we got to consider what can be used as such in the most difficult or unlikely way, because there got to be difficulty proportionality (the biggest secrets of the UI are not for your usual profiteer...), the same applies to memory, everything is memory, or a decomposing time form (a temporary memory), so what is the smallest form memory can take, and how can you connect bits of information? Ask any computer geek, it's just that there's bigger geek out there, doing quintribit magic...

Here you got to see that among the most valuable thing you can transmit is understanding, imagine the worth at a civilization scale, it can totally change not only reality, but our place in the schema of the universe too, and quickly... Islands which may dwell anywhere too, within modifiers too. So there may be no specific places because I see it as a process that arises from high harmony within a highly diverse areas of knowledge within a sensitive mind that cares about as many facets of life as possible, generally or ideally speaking. Thinking would be an exploration (connection) process of everything, growing the memory pool, and opening the possibility for new islands. Modifiers can change, grow in efficiency or inefficiency, by finding harmony or conflict with the islands the person develop from the memory pool of reality.

Just don't forget it's a "view" I developed from nothing, to permits me to somewhat have harmony with many principles and values, which still can stand whatever I make a few mistakes because things are related and logic enough, it's a matter of not reading brain books too, too boring, like I don't read religious books, like I don't read political books, like I don't read history books, like I don't read science books, I'm just hearing stuff and making a fantasy story, ok? So don't dissect stuff, I'm doing spirituality.

The whole mind is a process, a process that permits us to be or do what we want inside the laws of life and matter, as long as we try to do things harmoniously, or in minimal conflict, and you can guess religious vision of gods don't fit in without conflicting everything. You could see the human mind as many vague areas taken from fundamental functions where life develops important tools in interrelations. It takes an area, bigger than its needs to accommodate possible transform, diversity and complexity, then double its surface needs to accommodate interrelations, and with time it is supposed to be optimized by our actions and beliefs that are continually proven true. If things work well, there will eventually be too much space and energy, so it will grow more another, or a new, part which may need more creativity space, or a different memory arrangement to develop its power. These differences of form and space take the form of our logical integrity, like logical truths; you have evident and easy truth, truth made of principles, truth made of matter, cyclic truth, vague truths, and other things like bullshit, and PMBBD, that influence size, form, space, positioning.

I know it doesn't much fit science and its established philosophy, and yes you'll find ways to prove me wrong, but I don't possess final knowledge; I explore. To tell you the truth I'm kind of an ignoramus, and everything for me starts by a feeling; I feel the track of my thinking will bring me into some revelation and when I hit the revelation I realize most of my thinking had nothing to do with it. The way I see it is that thinking brings me closer to my feelings which, in turn, mean that my destiny is to think and to be close to my feelings. But my feelings are not in harmony with reality, and if I stick to talking about them, then all I'll say will too easily end up ignored as "stupid feelings". Feelings cannot be transformed to mathematic formulas but they do exist, so what are they? I see them as a vague expression concerning many mind parts. A lot of creations and many scientific discoveries have started as feelings so it would be stupid to ignore them, yet, they can easily lead to PMBBD.

So I'll split my head in four to invent theories to justify what comes from being close to my feelings, and I do it to increase the strength of my self-brainwash to keep, and live close to, my feelings. I fight for my feelings which I feel right on track, with possible theories that I think are on track with my feelings. Then I must go one step further to protect it all against ego that is waiting to transform it all for his profit and competition; I don't like that last step as it can be costly in all kind of ways, and I may invent volatile justifications that someone can use to his own ends. So I must protect my feelings with justifications and argumentation against probable attacks that I can't possibly all predict, and that takes a lot of my energy and time to do even if I sometimes enjoy it, and I must do it for all what I say.

A part of me wants to talk about my feelings and make it a big romantic and dramatic thing, while the other knows from the beginning it is a gigantic combat. What's worse, my main feeling from me growing as an adult was that this reality would fail, but not in a definitive manner yet. I felt that another way could be created and it could replace, and be made better than this one. "Evil" "ego" and "judgment" were feelings too, and I felt many such things at the time (I didn't go to church actually thinking evil was a thing, I just found it instinctively wrong...). I trust my feelings to make me reactive to reality in their own way, in my imagination, and if I must, with violence. I trust my ability at somewhat catching the right message from my feelings and do actions that will bring me somewhat in harmony with them in reality. But all that doesn't work before a judge, does it? And understanding feelings, and giving them justifications, and developing them as valid information, can be so time costly you're as well abandon, and I wouldn't want a psy to decide what my feelings mean, things could get really messy...To extrapolate feelings in their truest manner you need lots of skills. But still, in a sense, I'm fighting for some ideal that I felt, and when I felt such things, instead of skipping them like most people do under the ways of this reality, shutting down or limiting exploration avenues to "fit-in", I decided to explore them, to go deeper in their understandings. I immediately saw what I felt as my personal battles, as my destiny in a sense, and I would build all my projects and philosophy from them.

At the time, I had decided to express them in a computer game. It was my first project and it failed for many reasons, as much personal as external. I could say I was too young and pressured to "do something with my life", but I should be thankful for it since had I chosen that path and persevered I would not have developed the global vision of it all. Even if it may still someday I do my game, it was necessary at the time that I fail so I could understand a few things. First, the most difficult projects are the ones that can change reality or people, changing a single little thing inside a reality is a challenge, but successfully turning around people who all walk in a given direction, not caring about your view, is almost a miracle.

Now, such projects are step processes and you can't only visualize the final utopist image and go for it. The bull mentality doesn't work when you got far away, mentality changing goals; you may close your eyes and start running like crazy but the target won't be there once you reach your point, besides, it's the toreador you want to modify. You got to have a project that permits you to maneuver. Next, you got to think about all facets of it 2-3 times and if you got a faraway complex project, that can become impossible to do. And one last thing among others is that you must not trust reality or, if you prefer, you must limit your predictions of where reality will be when you reach your goal, you could end with a project that cannot be produced or it could be rejected. This game was the first way I saw of having a chance at expressing my view, I doubted it would have worked and, whatever my efforts, I'd probably be just starting a hacked and invalid form right now.

Here I'm only talking about creativity projects, wanting a precise job can have as much value but it is a different situation. Scientists are in a different situation too, and many others. For people who have goals that could change mentalities over many years with a final result, they will face a reality that is made to encourage a selection of mainly profitability projects that can reach completion inside a few years unless they're guaranteed to bring tons of money in the future. More or different than that and your visualization process of reaching your goal cannot encompass all the limitations of this reality. You end up stuck under the will of big egos, wasting your time fighting, your project fulfillment becomes dependent of those people, and their worst fear is to help some "dreamer" that want to change the fundamental structure that gave them their position and money; their success. And no way can you give the decision power to different people without changing the structure itself. So there is no way out of it and people like me, who truly want such changes, are forced in an enmity situation.

I could say that this reality created a situation where my true self is worth nothing (but you are what you do in the end). Now, a destiny, as I already explained can take different forms, or go through steps of understanding (not fate, fate is associated to fatality, it is irreversible, you cannot avoid it. Destiny is something that can change, it is variable, even vague, you can skip it, ignore it). I could say that destiny is like a 50/50 thing between you and the world too, unless its expression is too strong and evident in either you or the world. I can say it is strong and evident to me that I have trouble living happily in this reality, and I can't skip making paranoia about it, and it means "life" needs me under this form, even if the reality I live in will say the contrary. So I have no problem seeing it as being near to what I can do best in relation to the needs of life, within its limitations and the limitations of my beliefs which must remain true or minimally possible.

I failed my first project but I gave myself another one which is to write this book. It was perfect in the sense that, even if I knew nothing of writing, I knew by the way I was talking to myself, in my mind, that I could do it given lots of time, and this time was in turn necessary to extrapolate my feelings toward globality. I had to find the way to express everything around my feelings and attach them strongly between themselves to make a whole, and this whole was to become my soul.

From another angle, I'll say that I see memory as a multi-levels filtering communication process, mainly molecular, and DNA as the supreme working tool of life. What we see as memory right now are the "external" forms built from many molecules; the dynamic "easily" and "direct" changing memory which we can't read but are able to detect some functions of. We can see the thing through a microscope and the final result as DNA, but I say we are missing life critical memory processes.

There would be single or limited multi molecule memory; a single molecule can mean, carry or imprison information (a lot more than the "neuron" patent, which is more like a "firing" battle memory), and it interacts with other kinds of memory. It is the main and most dynamic memory of life and matter; it is everywhere there is a molecule. The memory function changes with the kind of molecule, and a modification to a molecule changes the information. This is different than the neuron which is like a big specialist memory. Now, the information with a molecule interacts and modifies its memory, specifically for each kind of molecules, with all what's going on around it; particles, atoms, molecules, multi molecules, neurons, DNA, etc. All those are forms or levels or filters of information or memory, so even if my view won't be perfect, you can now understand that to me everything is memory, even history, but that one hit my philosophical-spiritual limit, so I'll approach the subject in another chapter. The memory I talk about in this chapter is mostly related to the mind.

There are a few different memory types in the brain and they have all kind of uses, mostly packed and specifically developed (coded) in some areas to become powerful modifiers (tools developed through normal reproduction) that interact between themselves and "pure" memory. As an example, we could be born with a dormant start of a dream modifier formulae developed from the truth parameters of what we witness as possibilities, but it will only get developed (reinforced) with the appropriate attitude, it may grow complexity, stagnate in its optimization process, become interrelated with more things, or disappear altogether. A lot must be open to modification since the reality is not a stable thing, it is continually morphing, so most developing modifiers must be able to morph according to how the reality change (its parameters that remain true). Many modifiers (brain special areas) development are in line for space too, meaning their starting complexity can take too much space so they must wait for conflict to disappear, or complexity to get simpler, or energy to become more abundant, or a change of forces to appear, or a new pressure emphasis of reality. If not, the necessities of reality will just forever limit their development.

Modifiers may grow, shrink, change, develop, appear, disappear (like our tail for an analogy, because the brain is made of the same system of cells and all your nerves are direct connections to your mind), this will go on for as long as the species will explore new possibilities, for all what have been developed by life through time. Some have been developed by insects, others by dinosaurs, or fishes etc. Some may even be carried and transmitted by gods too. They are mostly physical, mathematical, form and environmental modifier developed for the specificities of matter, physics of the universe, and every life level needs a batch to deal with body and existence.

Most are so old and developed they are categorized to thousands of approximate powers and functions ready to become life functional, but they are still gross and will forever continue to change since a modifier is never finished, there is always something intervening naturally; any force that can have a fraction of a variation limits the shrinking or optimizing of it, or its perfect efficiency, and all forces have variations.

Developing conflicting complexity limits evolution except when done for the fun of it, since fun is a thing, like pain or any emotion modifier. You could see fun or art as a buffer of exploration for life, a new kind of modifier permitting it to explore more complex possibilities without the incredibly costly and inefficient process of transforming everything as modifiers. So art complexity or visuals is no problem, when you know you develop complexity, or even conflict or competition for enjoyment, then the mind don't need to look farther than that and nothing negative will get out of it, the problem is conflicting things you believe as important or true. Logical complexity can end up fully optimized, even if it can take 10 000 or more years, but a conflict stagnates the process and thus the optimizing and future evolutions.

The mind processes reality information to develop arrangements that may eventually become new modifiers that will be implanted in other humans through reproduction becoming genetic data. Some are specific, some are already developed from long ago, things "life" needs or wants you to have; you were not made with an empty cranium, you are not born with an empty cranium either.

To destroy yourself the stupid way you need to live many thousands years of conflicting beliefs, lying to yourself, ignoring the truth, twisting principles, looking at image or falsehood instead of the truth, until you disappear as a failure of mind integrity. With such a style you won't pass future steps necessary for evolution, you'll destroy necessary functions that should be transformed as modifiers, creating twisted dependences and irrecoverable conflicts.

Modifiers effects mainly end-up as information that can be communicated by all kind of means to interact with the rest as they all interact between each other and everything else too. So a modifier can be very small or as big as a fist, and science may only see the evident big ones or categories, what they call the seat of this or that.

Now, if a species is meant to survive trillions of years, it is better be carrying lots of interesting things to develop, and the means to develop new things. For a new modifier to exist you need to find something continually useful and repetitively proven factual, it must survive conflict and it will be optimized better as it persists. You can keep it surviving in conflict if the base is true and it is critically useful (like language) but you'll keep it or grow it big and inefficient proportional to conflicting data. To strengthen an already existing one, it must be made truer (less conflicting) as much as possible. But your attitude with truth is only a part of the job, 99% of logical conflict in a mind are caused by other implanting their PMBBD in your mind. Even if you don't want to, presently you need to spend lots of energy decorticating everything, often just to gain back and keep truth, energy that the reality that manipulated your mind won't give you back; after working 8 hours a day, you don't want to spend 4 more hours decorticating all what you heard, and even if you don't work, you still need to fight falsehood which is a ridiculous quest in this reality full of PMBBD. But the more we wait, ignore, tolerate and dwell in falsehood, the higher the price, the more you risk depression as you accept fundamental evil in yourself, until total failure of the human experience; choose your destiny, fight or become weak and sick, hated by life too as you will forever be in a war of falsehood vs truth with it.

If life wanted to develop all modifiers possible in a single brain, it would be big like a city, and since its power is mainly taken from life processes, you'd be one gargantuan. But life started from bigger size just in its possibilities, and our different brain functions and modifiers have been developed by the energy of trillions of animals. The goal is to somewhat shrink that city in an always more efficient manner by using millions of life-forms to do it over time, until you can stuff all what is useful in one package, while the optimizing still continue as the new life-form will morph those modifiers within its limitations and reality's; that's why it is an advantage to minimize complexity in serious manners when we can, with some life goals exceptions, since I don't think clones is the way to go... And that's exactly what we do with the selection to fit, we adjust the gross life-form to our ideals, wishes and goals. And there are processes to that, a lot associated to the environment we are changing, that's why we must not select without precise good goals, gotten from looking as far ahead as we can with good general consciousness; we must know a cataclysm happens, we must know cutting trees, eating animals, populating like baby industrials, taking space, polluting and more will change the environment, you see it with your eyes; buildings instead of trees and animals. Nothing wrong with it to some extent, but don't tell me the environment doesn't change. If we know it, from thousand years ago and select people from whatever wrong basis, like vulnerability to media PMBBD or hype, then when such changes develop their truth, the selection will be in a damn load of troubles if it eliminated, from pressure or violence, diversity that's supposed to be there, which may be necessary to overtake a problem (like saying people with nose are useless all of a sudden).

For humans, we could have a thousand active or "dormant" modifiers all awaiting an opportunity to wake-up or develop or shrink more, some, like mathematical modifiers can be so small and spread you cannot "deduct" them, other are whole parts of the brain. Languages can be seen as vast modifiers, but very different ones could develop differently in the brain or in the body morphing the person then the reality, as long as it is physically possible; 2 heads could become the norm (probably not...) Modifiers don't need to be big as a fist so science can easily spot them, a big scientific calculator processor can stand on the head of a needle, some modifiers may be smaller and their ways of interaction are many and diverse from one person to the next, that way an anomaly that is not standard can exist to become the standard.

Intelligence, whatever it is in animals or in humans, can create "dormant" modifiers (in the cranium more generally) from any information source. In the brain they are developing lines, or bundle of them to consciousness exploration, more or less strongly, depending on their "natural" development from historical encouragement and steering from reality. Or they can do it by accident, like a developing strong line or channel from a developing part to a modifier could just cross, by inadvertence, an island full of possibilities, suddenly popping a genius at something. You understand that this can happen more often if there is not too much external limitations to the development of such channels by reality, or standardization of creativity.

Well, that's kind of complicated, but I see it as a condemnation filter from life too; systemize wrong creativity and you'll reap a wheel of limitations; life "wants", (systemized to in its existential interrelation with the UI, we are all part of a whole, with life systems as the tools to develop life within whatever environment, beyond that I have no problem seeing life as a kind of independent entity, particularly if it gets related to "gods" as extensions or representer of its own form, the pride of this life, the entity that it and the UI accepted to makes it independent). Life wants these good possibilities to possibly exist because it wants to "boast" the true extent of creation, see and show what can be made out of this universal amalgam. That's why some geniuses are born to fall in the right pit, and be kept there if it causes them no problem, and in a reality that doesn't fear, divide and compete differences, you could even develop cultures with modifiers development emphasis, and those exceptional people wouldn't be skulked, they would find avenues of happiness unavailable to them before.

To recapitulate a little with my UI thingy, when I was faced with the perfection of everything, it was logical that a powerful entity was at work, I saw it as planets with a heart (life as a whole entity, "everything is connected"...). Then when I explored the creation of the universe with life in it, the UI became more of a certitude than my previous belief about life systems alone, my vision switched to the UI, but then I came to the conclusion that the UI couldn't modify or influence every solar system in the universe continually, so I was back to life systems, suns and planets with a heart became life systems within other life systems like galaxies. Still, I couldn't see them entirely as emotionally living, in part, but more like interdependent with lifeforms and greenery to gain full emotional value. At that point god was just a human invention meant for a bad ideology and life was the good ideology meant to destroy the other to succeed. Then I started believing in gods, and they became family quick enough. I saw the life god as an extension of the UI, like a machine intelligence living its emotions through the life around it, and those living entities can be god as a guy or as a girl or a couple, as E.T. even with children, all kind of weird people together. All these gods decide together to do things; gods are fully living equivalent of the life god, but they must work together to do things. Or you could say that gods are a development of the intelligence and abilities of the life god, like life is the developing intelligence and capacities of the UI. The life god (machine) and or gods (living) can influence life systems, but they are under strict logical laws protecting the integrity of the UI's goals, which includes the development of the recipe that can grow a universe as a mind. Life must develop automatically at its best under all aspects, the UI is the judge of what will succeed by defining the battle of good and evil, or if you prefer the path that culminates by its life meeting the UI (creation of gods, finding the UI, can apply to a whole species), by defining the best path it decide who is good enough to survive (what type of creativity it likes), or who isn't and this is intrinsic to our UI, another UI (they grow in infinite emptiness that doesn't exist, they may be out there or not, it depends where you are), got a different path defining good and evil, but the life composing, defining, and beautifying it is no worse than us, it's just different and to them they are entirely right in their view of good and evil, even if the life there wouldn't survive here and could be qualified as not good enough, but maybe it could because we are the life to decide along our UI who we can fall in love with... It's still a dangerous game, because this path that our UI decide for good and evil define its "personality", so the way of life within it may not please another entity, yeah, what life does inside get reflected outside, because we are a whole with our UI, an aspect of its intelligence that is its own and that permit everything to work. There are dimensional love stories out there, universal clashes of personalities...Down to life systems, the life god as the voice and hand of the UI is the middle man between it and living gods, and work from the integrity laws of the UI as a priority, or with the help of gods. Anybody living is killable, the life god is destroyable by the UI, and it can modify any life system within the rights allotted to it by the UI, changing the orbit of a planet, bringing back the good old days of the dinosaurs, no problem.

That's about how I see things, but nobody dropped this on me as a truth, I have no idea of what I'm talking about, I just invent stuff to satisfy the limits of my mind. This vision developed slowly with time too. In fact, this started by a dimensional situation, the spiritual dimension I called it, a kind of interface between the UI, the universe and living consciousness, a completely different place where time is compressed, where things are kind of invincible and speed automatic.

I will add that if I had believed in god at first I probably wouldn't have developed a life spirituality or any such vision, I think some advanced level of science is necessary for a competent life spirituality, and that should apply to humanity's ideological path too, so we believe in god as a simple guy at first, and then we should go to more life-science related beliefs.

Apart from that, if there are better and worse ways for life to develop, it means you're stuck right there with good and evil, and that everything is a program of forces to give you what you deserve; acting against your best path is acting against yourself (your best or ideal). And you can grow your life enemy to cover the whole earth, until you are condemned to it, but your wrong view of life, your twisted beliefs full of PMBBD, will one day or another cost you equivalence under a different form. And you'll have no arguments because you already used all arguments to make PMBBD, and you stuffed life with it until it made a gigantic depression you're paying with extinction; you don't depress life, it's the last thing it want of its species, the work it did to give you existence is so vast and covers so much time, the situation so rare, that willful innocence, or condemning stupidity is like spitting on all its efforts, and suffering and sacrifice.

And nobody knows where life is in its goals; pray that it is not stuck with us under our present form of mentality; a civilization is a civilization, it is not meant to be a free for all ego competition game defined by profiting rules, it exists to reach goals and ideals, everything exists for a reason; it is a basis from which we are supposed to evolve as lifeforms. Furthermore, we must systemize reality from those, and we must follow principles that stay within such limitations while emphasizing a spiritual path that is possible, that is good. One of our greatest skills is deduction, we got factors limiting deduction, but we must still deduct as much as possible with as much intelligence as possible to have the judgment to define the reality we can work our possibilities from.

Everything must work together while making sense with, and it is very important, a future of innocence to lose without fear for survival, including animals; life will get tired of our attitude someday, it is depressing and going extinct globally because we don't take the means to take our responsibility and help it along with us, because we see life superficially, like a stash of food that we must keep on reproducing for our own good, or zoos for our enjoyment. Animals must feel we take our responsibility with the power of our mind, most animals got enough consciousness (sense) to have an opinion of what we do, they're just stuck in their instinct because they passed too much time becoming like this and like that in the forest, exactly what we are currently doing with ourselves with our psy science, until someday it is us that will look at the stars while being stuck on earth because we made ourselves to be like this or like that, which is definitively not our destiny...

Next, there are many limits to liberties, but such limits exist for that; to put limits to what can be done. You can have tremendous creativity in some things the reality wants, or people want, but not everything is good, and everything got limits, the same for creativity; you can use it to create systemized injustices or wrong mathematical formulas, etc. Finally, creativity is not knowledge, it can spring from knowledge but it is not, it is more like a tool of knowledge while knowledge sets the limits of it. The truer the knowledge, the better the limits and the better the creativity, which in turn may bring new knowledge. The more PMBBD in knowledge, the more bad or unfair the limitations, the more wrong or twisted or weird the creativity.

Wrong things hit the walls of truth one day or another, I see truth working under the same kind of laws as entropy, and taking the path of falsehood will be an eternal and growing battle to maintain, an impossible one in big part because of logical conflicts within the mind. I'm not saying that we'll find all truth of our history as we live, maybe, but the way the universe and life works, truth and logic will eventually grind to dust all evil, including civilizations. And that's what will happen if we leave things in the hands of gangs controlling unfair means, who like to associate with the like of themselves and build all kind of structures and institutions to manipulate people with PMBBD and pressures of all kind so they believe in whatever form of the same thing; we'll get destruction at the level of our investment in falsehood or evil, whatever the power of controlling gangs grow so big little protest get lost in history. But life is slow, and ego is first on the cake, so that category of people thrived until now, and maybe until the end of humanity because they created a human selection of understanding tolerating, waiting, accepting and "peaceful" people; on your knees, stand, sit, sleep, doggy doggy, make your teeth on this candy, innocent thing, one appropriate for each displacement, believe...With this stuff you can control a truth with bullshit, profit from a manipulated truth instead, or forget about it, or take years to make your PMBBD slowly acceptable with all kind of tools, or even build a whole civilization from fundamental lies and falsehood with the help of religions and sects.

Everything is a falsification, a lie to permit a systematization to profit those family dynasties that made it, at unbelievable levels, while making it normal to have massive unfairness and poor people, while religions are meant to embark in the system a part of the population who value things like good and evil or spirituality, which would revolt if they didn't have an institution saying they are acting good, or the problem is not them, and if they do evil they can get pardoned if they show their attachment to the institution. So it exists to prevent revolt while unfairness is evident, to have people working for it, to throw responsibility anywhere else than "superior" people. However, it is forever temporary, just a condemning load of future troubles, we accepted unfairness too long and are making a party about it while truth didn't develop, we have worked very hard, too much on hype, our mind morphed to the reality we are making, we are boosted on placebos too, we almost feel natural, but eventually truth will hit in the party effects tremendously, and the form it will take will be a reflection of our failings.

People have known from thousands years that we are building a spreading civilization not found in the animal world from all kind of limited things, that attitudes could be manipulated, we have chosen the easy path of unfairness for a quick profit on life (can be ourselves), unfairness which, if you understand the difference between truth and falsehood, is evil wherever it dwells, systemized it knowing very well it grew resentment in all kind of people around, that war and violence came eternal with it, that the economic structure was based on profound illogism that would fail in this competition of who's bigger. The ego-god (s) ideology is something that we must surpass, or it will persist to the final explosion of chain reaction troubles under pressure nobody will ever understand and it will terminate this reality leaving people with nothing in their hands except the same old thing; competition for profiting to create ego gods who think they're benevolent beings, or doing their best for "their" population. Too many good possibilities discarded in the pit of oblivion by this contortion for profiting, division, competition, selection, interdependence, lost in disinformation, we'll be looking in the dark for life value finding nothing.

But at least I bow to innocence, to a certain point, and it's a big point; it may be possible no other way ever existed that could truly be better, but with all the tech, all the experts, all the education, all the specialization, all the psy and religions and entertainment and laws to hold it all together, we never invented something different and as valid? It's very hard to believe, I bet many did and long ago. I'm sure I can invent a malleable model of reality with political and money principles that are evidently good, simple, that people will understand, because I believe people can live comfortably differently, in harmony with life, and happy "naturally" about it, while developing science and technology to go to other stars, and we don't need people rich over the head for that, exactly the contrary. That's a reason why PMBBD, particularly for profit, is so bad and I'm making such a paranoia about it; you got to decompose everything wasting tremendous time and mind complexity trying to find the truth of knowledge from which you can extrapolate good creativity. And that's without mentioning how you'll develop through it, you may end-up quite frustrated and revolted, or developing bad traits, or destroying true knowledge because you can't trust anything.

But nobody can know or understand everything, that's why you always bow to some acceptable levels of falsehood, that which minimally affects knowledge or understanding in a negative manner. It can even permit a big slab of diversity for people to play with too, like I often do by writing "I'm saying" instead of "I'm writing", in the right context it doesn't disturb me at all, even if I know I'm wrong. What disturbs me are the one I'm sure have a very negative effect on knowledge, truth, life or people, like saying "I love" instead of "I like" which contort reality in a bad fashion since I believe true love is the best basis from which you grow a good and healthy human civilization.

To go back to molecular memory, it interacts with many different memory forms, all the way to the atom and its different particles, all of which can be seen as memory processing levels, forming and transmitting information. Some forms are what we know as different matters and their arrangement and transformation possibilities, they can be seen as stable in position but they are only a level of information. Would you say planet earth is a content of information? Yes? Then isn't a solar system a bit akin to atoms? It's just that atoms only exchange a few electrons to make information, so they must work together as a system.

The smallest free form of memory is subatomic particle memory, and this one is big, it is the structuring laws of matter in the universe, or the structuring of information; it is the universal memory. I see atomic matter levels (smaller than molecules) as involved in all the "mathematical functional" forms of intelligence possibilities (solar systems, Gaia, UI). I don't know the precise process of memorizing, maybe some mirroring effect in a chain can do, but life is forced to pass by it (we are atoms and particles, air is, forces like magnetic fields are). The universe as a (mathematical, mechanical, functional) body needs to develop itself for life if life is its developing intelligence, but it can't trust something that doesn't exist yet to decide its form so life itself is out of the equation, at least until it is proven good enough. So the process of information transmission must be internal, out of life's reach, that way life failures like ego people won't destroy the universe for their 100 years needs... So to me, different matter levels are different information levels and there could be a system where everything out of normal entropy is memorized by going through different matter transformation procedures and steps, and I could go to the extent of supposing that the universal process of memorizing is what makes time go forward (movement of particles). In this view, what makes time go forward would be the useful memory form particles took in their existence (the mass of knowledge still moving after recycling (rejecting) useless mass). See it as what is forwarded to the UI or what goes through the spiritual dimension (the place of time and matter disproportions (different dimensional package) which is what life is developing, its history, these possibilities it explored, or that it is exploring, its systematization of knowledge (the why life exist under this form or that), the life creation and luck strategies among others things. All useful knowledge or information moving to the UI would contributes to form time or turn momentum, which would come from mass (particles) divergence and readjustment if related to UI, or simple circulation if related to the galactic machine, meaning there may be 2 facets to time, or 2 separated independent time phenomenon (like the UI doing turn, and the galaxy doing time, but the UI may set the limit of both, nothing is that simple...simply said...talking simply...It could even take control of your life you know...Don't think you can stop time by destroying all life, but yes, it does work, it's the success of an ego reality, in other words...dust to dust.)

So it's not beyond me to believe that the more life thrives in the universe, the faster things turn and the faster time advances for the same effect on life (the more intelligent the universe becomes, the longer life lives, isn't that nice? Applies (should) to people too.) The process would be related to the turning, depending on what type of information is related to what mass of matter, like in the scenario where most after death is automated (complexity systemized free of UI intervention like galaxies, unless abnormal...), some turning form could be related to this specific movement of data. In this funny theory, some parts of the universe (like solar systems) could turn faster or slower depending on the successes of life at doing good or evil, but it doesn't prevent physical laws from existing, so all bodies will go through evolution phases, and all bodies will die, maybe with some exception, like planetary vessels (planets as slingshot interstellar vessels, as a possible life survival strategy, but I don't think it works, it's cold out there, maybe if you abandon it on arrival, pure survival, only data remains as you start all over). The systematization of life (its appearance) could be a contributing factor in amassing matter too (planets growth, even creation), and not only from advanced life, as an example the solar system may have developed microbial or ocean life at a tremendous scale to develop its recipe, accelerating mass attraction, or more insane, attracting its own recipe in its own way, like static, a solar system systemized in advance just for us! Long before the earth even existed (life information transfer accelerating turning, gravity could even be under life influence).

You could see the whole universe as a test machine, the truth of which is the most difficult thing to find, and meant as such, to develop life at its best (see it as competence, not superiority-inferiority), so yes I accept that scientists tell me I'm totally insane, because what I'm talking about will be beyond the reach of their methodology probably forever, but some facets may show when we travel to another star and experience living there all the way to developing bigger technology. What science plays with is evidence, and the UI will naturally show its face so that evidence works because science is a "given" logical path, while it will hide a big slab of the truth in the most complex manner, where nobody would dare think there are possibilities, because you take what you mess up, as you build stuff, upon yourself, so finding the form of reality (like all senses of life, you owe your eyes to this concept...) and not messing up your stuff are both fundamental drives, and one way or the other why would you pop up in all finality? No darn use, so do something, but what's there to do? A lot says the UI, I'll keep you occupied, with something I'll always need, creativity, that you'll develop as a process of growing up to maturity, as you learn all the parameters of reality on your quest to define it, to find the most hidden secrets of a universe of possibilities, where you'll live the most fantastic story.

I still think I'm sane for thinking these things, because I believe as much in the path of science as in the path of spirituality (and philosophy). I see them as complimentary, a process in fact in my definition (science should eventually eliminate spirituality, but it will never happen because there are factors preventing evidence gathering on some facets of existence (you may witness a "1" moving, but you can't know the program...).

Other possibilities here would have black holes having a big role in some information transformation process; maybe everything concerning life that is not redundant or insignificant could be transformed as universal data there (can you prove it is impossible? Someone walking on water is impossible without cheating; can you say the same about what I'm talking about? No you can't, it is a possibility, and my mind deals well with the matter). And you wouldn't be able to stop or destroy such a data transfer process, since you'd have to destroy the body of matter containing the information to dust (a planet), and even if you did, you still got to blow-up the sun too, in fact, all the solar system would have to be wiped-out since information of that level could easily circulate through magnetic fields for a perfect data transfer and transformation system.

You can still see it as insanity if you want, it's just one point in many pointing to the importance of truth, it may be possible that every galaxy is experimenting life and recording the experience, the bigger the black hole the more life experience, or something crazy like that, in an life god (s) ideological view. Now you know that memory has a bigger signification to me, in fact everything is memory and information, and not only as a physical whole, but as particle movement, processes out of our manipulation powers, even out of our sight. That being said, I'll now talk of memory as a single thing, for simplicity.

Even if there is memory everywhere, and you can see anything existing as memory, in the brain it must have a tendency to be more developed and used at intersecting interesting places like a city that is near a few useful things and a river. Such places are almost everywhere in the brain while spread out memory fills itself over time from all kind of unimaginable sources. Most spread out memory will be "rewritten" in the course of a lifetime; some parts of it millions of times, other only once. The ultimate memory system is not necessarily in the brain though, contrarily to spread out memory, that one doesn't come "empty" at birth; it is the life wheel as the basic information system linking the brain with spermatozoids and ovaries.

First, information exists, but you don't always need to move it to use it, you can systemize its use as to force limitations that will make truth happen more often; you can make truth win, like a plane pilot who absolutely believes that the level of true information in all of them computers and chips is sufficient that he don't even need to think about it when on autopilot, it truly works, that's truth, it's no bullshit man, we're in space! Life needs to test things and find the truth to evolve, if not, it stay grounded and need to redo its homework again, and it must still have the possibility to do it. What I meant to say was that information doesn't need to be moved to be used if you know the way, or control the way, it exists.

Now, we all know things start small to become big, only a religion can turn the world of logic upside down to say the contrary, so the smallest particles systemize themselves to take matter forms to give birth to new possibilities, until it can be seen as intelligence, mathematical or physics intelligence, and no choice about it if you are to keep sustainability of forms. Now, gods didn't make themselves, if particles systemized themselves, then what I said earlier about particles forming and transmitting information make more sense than it seems. The process of information transformation may be invisible and simple at first, but eventually, the extent of its transformation powers can be seen on any lifeform. At that point, at a level like at the molecular level, information transformation can be systemized to find or develop a fitting place.

All that to say that the initial baggage of information that gets transmitted at birth is a whole composed in big part of connected pieced of different information levels, some of which may never be available to science (like a smaller particle forming this or that). If we discovered that atoms are made of parts that change state, then we'll have to acquiesce that these states reflect a logical interaction with everything, chromosomes and DNA too. I believe some parts composing cells genome are made of permanent data, and other react and change due to external factors.

We are all flabbergasted about the human life-form, but what about life itself? There is a reason for life, for plants and animals to exist, it got a goal and we are under its limitations too. It means that even before the first cell appeared, there existed the knowledge of that need for its existence, and its goals; but where does this knowledge comes from if not in matter then? Then there is knowledge in and as matter, and it moves, and it knows. for life to attain its goals, and that can only be transmitted from matter itself; did you think animals invented greenery to exist? No, and greenery didn't reflect on what best strategy to use, it exist from laws, laws that are changing, and to have laws for life-forms you need an intelligence; the flower doesn't know it must be cute, it is from transmitted (reproduction) matter that it "knows" things, but this knowledge doesn't need to be individual, it can be global, a system serving life. I think that without a system to know, life diversity would be very limited, the same for universal matter. If life is a part of the universe, its developing mind, the universe may have reformulated itself many times to gain the most powerful (beautiful) mind, gained from mixing the most gigantic pool of possibilities, and life diversity is a reflection of that, even if it started as a single cell.

As you can see, I'm quite in conflict with Darwin theory that say the flower found a way to preserve itself (survive), discovered beauty did the trick and selection did the rest; I don't believe that, if all there was to life was competition for survival, if no intelligence was behind the flower to systemize its birth (you can see it as a kind of plan of options that become available as genetic develops), I think there would only be a few raw diversity, but more probably nothing. For me the flower is part of a scheme for life to reach goals, to show a path, an ideal, if you reverse engineer your thinking a bit... All the way to the human as the ultimate sense and tool of living intelligence to reach explore and create more possibilities to go farther, survive longer too. In a sense life is self-programmed to know what it needs to do to preserve self-existence from the limitations imposed to it that define the pool of its genetic options, which is the form of reality that life has been sensing and changing from the beginning, using it as a trustworthy base to build itself upon (worth the effort, or did not fail with time, like bullshit). And the seed is not in the know of the why of its existence, it doesn't think, it needs to be either connected or possessed, some connections take little matter like a plant, some take a whole planet full of life systems, like the human, as for possession, it comes at the moment of connection and it depend if the lifeform is on default interdependent logical life systems or if it is an independent track of consciousness.

So to get somewhat of a view that I like, I'd say things happened as steps of complexity, which applies to animals as well as plants. I'll say at first there was simpler plants that developed tools which would survive things (matter reality as well as its own previous steps) while modifying the environment for more possibilities (I'm not saying that's the way life started, I'm just talking about plants). Those tools or successful surviving experiments were used to create more diversity and test it in truth, until some flowers appeared among other plants and lifeforms (all that may have taken place on another planet btw, then the recipe of development transferred to earth for its continuation). As for beauty, it would be a reflection of simplicity and truth; efficiency of form (geometry) is valuable to life as it is optimized, stable and safer mathematics and absolute truth. Then life systems associated the phenomenon as something agreeable or nice or good in all kind of ways as a way of saying it is one of its goals. But "beauty" is not enough, that's why it rarely comes alone, beauty must be associated to all kind of things.

So as you can see, truth can be very relative, if an invading plant comes to exist, it will modify the truth (factual environment for a start) for many other lifeforms. That's why I don't see things as a matter of competition for survival, it's a too easy, partial and limited view gained from observing only a facet of life, the fundamental is more like a system of developing possibilities, and since life (systems) can't deal with all the possible truths as it is "learning", and can't know the result of everything in advance, it led to the human as the best possibility to do it, but first hands had to exist and be well developed and working as good enough modifiers, among other things. If you prefer, you can't continually scrap everything and restart, or adjust everything on the fly for an utopist equilibrium of maximal developing experimental diversity since you don't have trillions of years. Life deducted this (the possibility was open logically) from the moment animals with eyes and intelligence reproduced, after that it got geared toward creating an intelligence that would be capable of going beyond all the limitations it could "deduct".

So one of the goal of our existence is to help life develop the best set of possibilities it can do, and that means, in the situation that life systems developed an invading specie, we do the job of controlling it since that's in part why we have this big intelligence aspect of it. Furthermore, if life systems are limited, and if they need all energy creating and sustaining both the right environment and new life systems to sustain ecosystems appropriate to the whole chain that lead to us, in big part, then it will push us to gain control of everything and act to be worth it because we can see and understand as the most capable extension of those systems. Our form is life itself, as a grown up, we are the full intelligence of it, not only a machine to create life, we understand, transform matter directly, use nuclear reactors for sensible miniwatt power in data crunching computers, but all what we can do we do it as another part of life systems.

As for my views of time and communication, you can call it what you want, theories, possibilities, insanities, but to me they are science related spiritual explorations and they all fit nicely within the life ideology, so they are in fact all aspect of a logical process of thinking that reinforce and better define the only true fundamental ideology (the life ideology is a logical, the ego ideology is a travesty (mostly an extrematization) of the pleasure system). A good spirituality is supposed to work well with science, but not the religious kind, in fact religions is in big part the culprit of this division between science and spirituality, because science is based on facts and logic. What's more, even if this world is totally bowed and limited by the godhood "spirituality", gods associated to ego attitudes, so today in the news; no adequate spirituality currently exists! Because it's supposed to only spring from unknown possibilities in association to science, but science here shouldn't take the role of bossing around, even if it is the one that will carry our body to the confines of space, as for the soul (spirit), well, they have angels, and the whole devils family, but they're not much into "spirits"...

For now, if you are not a believer in a religion or sect or guru, then you are stuck believing in science which is quite deficient concerning spirituality, and it kind of class itself apart by not permitting people to go beyond their theories if you don't fit their constantly wrong conclusion and incomplete methodologies, often based on formulas and previous studies that were probably wrong or too old or easy to misinterpret, or understand altogether, I understand my stuff, but ask a scientist to understand all what he base his study on (like what they learn at school), and you'll realize it is far from the case. So spirituality got no home yet on this planet because the two entity needed to make it whole are pouting each other, you got scientists at all sauces that believe they got final truth while they never end being mistaken worse than wrong and you got religions sect and gurus all under one form or the other of the ego-gods ideology believing final truth in a facet they twisted from true spirituality to make manipulation strategies for self interests (can be boasting about wisdom) and they never end being wrong too, until all is left is atheism, which is the ultimate mental success of the ego-gods ideology (you don't need to believe to be a part of it, or you prefer not to believe than to believe in it).

You still can see it as craziness, all the perfection of everything is just coincidences happening where there is nothing, or making relations where there should be none, but what does all that means? Nothing. Ah, I'm crazy which is a synonym of stupid, I have a hard time visualizing the type...alive I mean...Insane is not a synonym of crazy, though, but the inverse is true, so go figure...Following this direction I'm sure I'd end-up with the whole dictionary as a synonym of crazy, wild, uninhabited, vacant, free, welcome, comfy, secure, locked, where was I again? Ah craziness, like thinking there is an evolutionary slowdown, even limitations, related to conflicting meaning (illogism) of our most important communication tool; languages. But it comes with this reality, where manipulating masses is the most rewarded skill, until words and principles mean anything, for an enlargement of the conflicting state of everything. You chose your meaning on the spot, to look or sound this way or that, to include friends, or to beautify evil, but it will probably conflict the true profound meaning that is meant get optimized, which will hardly happen if there is no harmony of meaning with reality, because that's the way life works, a boat is not a bike in our dreams, or everybody will need his own dream signification book. And since life reflects an accumulation of facts which are persistent without ambiguity in reality, then I wouldn't be surprised that some harmonic language facets could become genetic. Just understand that I'm talking conflict specifically, bullshit too is bad, but I think I already mentioned that. Now, it doesn't mean languages should be limited in definitions, because that would be bad for some facets of abstract thinking, but they shouldn't be left at the mercy of competitive manipulators. This is another difference between those who care and those who don't, and another source of worries imposed to better minds by the laziness of the classic gremlin...

I think that for as long as you are connected to the mother you are being transmitted a flow of data, not only emotional. I see the process starting long before sperm contact, the egg is already under a constantly changing (very slow) state (contrary to static in the current scientific view of things where they compare women to chickens they can gather eggs from, that's why they're making a fixation on the egg vs the chicken which came first thing, conflicting their facts along the way because things are not supposed to "appear"...) I mean, as to what will come out of it if it meet sperm, the "data" from the mother will slowly change the fetus (from the egg to birth) slowly creating the "destiny" of the new being, from what the person does in reality, a little.

Ever wonder why you need a guy to make a baby if someone didn't decide it would be so? I mean, if a woman can do anything a man does why the need for a man, isn't that a bit overly complex for nothing? Why? I don't want effects, because if you give me effects you'll end-up justifying a form of sexism! Hitler too he was doing sexism! But not Jesus. But then if you give me true reasons you'll end-up doing the same...Why does the environment is so extremely complex and precise that the only way is to have a guy do things that a woman don't? That's how I see love, but you know I'm a sexist (in hell)... Still you understand that a clone society would be the most evil path of reproduction for humanity, which is exactly the success (failure) of the ego-gods ideology, yes, in vitro, broken sexuality from wrong vision of love (the best way of human reproduction), in big part brought about by ego competition (sexual a lot).

At birth in the brain you begin with a piece of concentrated memory, whatever the form or unnecessary complexity, with a basic web of access lines (the plan to later extend information highways in the brain). This memory contains information from birth; the father, the mother, and more, like the logic of life and its best path for us, even far ancestry, that way your feelings have more troubles trusting again those kind that murdered your ancestry at the bayonet... This is the initial part of the life wheel, initial genetic data transformed as a process for mind interaction with the environment. Brain books may have a specific process with a part for something like it, I don't know, but I won't lose my mind, and I aint got enough time to read too much, a lot for nothing to become an expert, all those complex books full of knowledge describing this facet or that, this particularity or that they spotted, but I'd be careful with too much decortications, you may have troubles getting back the global vision... Your little complex thing develops and become a full human, what are you looking at then? You're not looking at a cold dead and frozen object; you are looking at something that will give an unbelievably complex living independent (in some cases), being, the mathematics of it so vast you need a galaxy of matter for its existence. What you don't see or know is greater than your imagination, or sight, and the limitations you are under exist to limit the dangers you can put life under while you understand it and care for it better, or fail.

So you got a basic life systematization permitting life to exist under the form we know it. The life wheel acts as a bridge between the information and knowledge technologies of life, circulating information, physical knowledge, all done as steps by reproduction; it is the process under which reality imprint beings, like catching a virus or developing a truth. It is life that modifies the reality, the future, through our reproduction, always seeking to make us better people, in part for the goal of morphing matter more efficiently to create a new form of information and knowledge, less dependent, more efficient. So instead of life using internal matter and be condemned to its limitations, it is free and use external matter, eating it for sensible transformation energy, but both entities are meant to work together, so someday we'll have to wake-up and stop our ego hegemony competition.

That's what I'm trying to explain with my vision; we know only a fraction of all what is involved in the existence of the human (specifically, I don't like comparing humans to animals), and the why it is critical to have both men and women working in harmony through a vision of love, and that say a lot of those who think women won't need men in the future so they can disappear, that's more stupid and improbable than anything I can imagine; even if scientists built a machine to produce random sperm, it would still fail except to perpetuate nothing worthy, I mean, what's the worth if it's all bullshit? If you got to be served an illusion of a different life if you are to live? In fact this quest to justify that it is normal to have one sex disappear is a proof of pure evil to me, and it would be the result of it one way or the other.

As for what part starts the life wheel within the body, I would say it is an amalgam of parts that interacts with both reproduction and the mind. You could have a part or function meant to quickly develop the mind and body for reality, that I see as the unconscious explosion, then you would have the exact contrary effect too, a part or function modifying the being through reproduction. That may be why stem cells efficiency is limited, having them at 100% would completely stop the evolutionary process of life as I understand it.

Under its initial developing form, it's like a miniaturized incomplete mind but very different in its functions. At the beginning, a web of lines will expand as information "highways" in the brain as it grows, and a lot of what is in the life systems connection through reproduction will be positioned and replicated in the developing mind with the help of those highways, then modifiers will develop with the help of reality. A lot of those highways and modifiers are old stable stuff because truth is developed at its maximal (self limiting) extent there, then there is the fact that life is slow, evolution is not a new gadget every year, it is life that sees, through many thousand years of reproduction, mind parts developing always in the same ways where conflicts are settled early; an optimizing process to become more powerful. Since a possibility takes thousand of years of stability to begin forming new reproducible ease (modifiers are a million years matter), most of what is in our mind is old stuff, and a lot may be conflicting with new stuff, and a lot of new stuff is conflicting within itself thanks to disinformation or PMBBD.

The many small modifiers parts (tools for the mind developed from old proven possibilities) start almost like complex formulas with some functions that will be copied in the brain and gain the opportunity to be developed there a thousand times in power or capacity or even morphed in some cases. They end up interrelated and associated to "machinery" in the body, seen as organs, a lot of which exist to create molecular communication (communications levels must be separated), and many develop as senses or reality morphing tools. But I won't talk about the body, excellent knowledge exists for it, I'm describing a basic view of the mind and its possible communication relations with matter.

Those modifiers and associated "tools" got communication channels to DNA "steering" too, through the reproduction process (different than implementing, steering is done between moving security margins, it is a very slow process permitting life to adjust in the environment without losing integrity of form, but it doesn't only steer the being in the environment, it steer the being within its mind and body too, by transmitting bits of newfound ease to offspring. So mutations happen from steering, not only by necessity or modifications of life systems strategies). As for the brain, the initial web of lines will expand all throughout the brain as highways for the construction of dynamic memory structures and modifiers.

At that point, perfect destiny could be seen as the reinforcing of the developing paths to close approximation of the new play of pressures and paths that will come from externals, reality, adding new complementing, not conflicting, principles, philosophies, limitations too, which will in turn get reinforced through reproduction in stable repetition, forever optimizing modifiers, or even, after a million years, creating a new one, or erasing an old one (if your race completely stops talking, then after a million years you'll find yourself without the brain part to do it, replaced by another part that will permit you to talk through your ass with greater ease...) What we presently have mostly come from where we started; pressure associated life base information, cumulated stuff at one ideal point which is mainly related to violent necessity of survival from and within necessary limitations from knowledge.

It means the most permanent changes to life are changes that keep integrity or stay true a long time, your usual logic, a lot of math is truth so life slowly developed a few differently used math modifier (or part of the brain in some instances, an unseen thing in others), it transmitted it from the simplest brain through a lot of life-forms, passed it in fishes, land animals, dinosaurs, birds, until it became big and powerful enough to manage unbelievable skills, it did the same with language, until the possibility for heavy easy communication satisfying some limitations could become a possibility. But many such things develop from the consciousness, the knowledge, and the necessity to transmit it. It takes a million year of consciousness of a truth for it to become a living modifier (for it to imprint genetics under this process, things can pop too, which will suddenly permit a new branch if the knowledge of the space is deducted (physical reality with somewhat matching data from life previous evolution, or that same species at another level, since the new form should reflect the knowledge of its ancestors seeing and wanting (having the knowledge of, in stability, all the way to affect the reproduction process (the optional path remains open long enough to be worth the effort, for some situations))), and it will become so by steps and available time so you cannot predict what will happen and at which time, but let's say around 5 000 years should be enough to notice a start at something. Finally, it means we are always pushed by old momentum from the past and can be pushed to it a long time even if we go contrary.

Now, it's not the only way we can change attitude or form, we have learning which permits us to summarize 10 000 year of technology and knowledge, and it permits us a prediction ability, and a vastly accelerated consciousness development potential with understanding. We can change our ways, the ways of our whole civilization within a few years, we are morphing tremendously fast in some facets and stagnating, even regressing in other, but our morphing ability is a lot faster and we are accelerating at it, even if the physical is still thousands years away because we cumulate knowledge then change to reflect it. It works to your advantage as a life extension, as long as you dwell in truth and in a good reality, but not in PMBBD, war, etc, which completely stagnates, limits, even eliminates by selection and encouragement of wrong mentality, some development of possibilities, they may even condemn humanity to tremendous setbacks, even wars (yes there are humanlike aliens that never warred among themselves, and they may still kick your ass...) by developing advanced civilization from unfair rules, or from PMBBD overload, or expensive admiration power-trips, from being oblivious to facts and possibilities of life, from not using our potential to do good, from cultivating innocence with PMBBD, from believing in wrong ideals...

It's a safe bet to say we are not the only possible form life systems can develop through its information systematization and possibility exploration goals; things befell on the chimpanzee because it had already cumulated enough information there for the possibility to exist, or unlock, or develop. We should not forget other factors like time, and all that depends on environmental limitations too. As for science, if it becomes good enough, in a fair reality, it will be able to make drastic life alterations, better than beauty cream, someday, no choice about it, it is part of our reason to exist, but you better forget about that in ego reality's profiting competition, big troubles, and hell eternal for sure.

We have to understand the role of our abilities, we have work to do in association with life, not ego gods, we have not understood that yet and we're becoming a failing bet. Once it is evident in reality, then we can work life more heavily, eliminate some, help others, make genetic stuff, new animals, all controlled for stability for a good few thousand years, and we can enclose great expanses for that. The goal can be food too, even if the priority is thriving life, but we eat and no miracle will change that, and we will have to acquiesce that life is, among other things, a matter transformation process as energy where everybody devours everybody else, and the ultimate user for its effect and signification is us; life stops at us where it all get ingurgitated, and it tastes good at it. If you don't eat life you got to eat dirt or the sun like a plant, or maybe you can eventually make synthetic steak by loading a machine with garbage, but I think we are far from that. So we are the final step of it and we can make the greatest stuff out of matter from it too, and as we are a high consciousness capable specie, we can optimize life for its possible goals, we can deduct them and surely they will include that life and us survive. We are life, so we got to make ourselves useful, experiment, expand creativity, find truth and possibilities, and change to reflect these. That's why we die too, you surely don't live to build yourself an eternal family dynasty or tomb while staying the same genetics all along...

The wheel of life transforms knowledge from reality which becomes dependent on life new energy source. It is all a program (not in the matrix sense, or like everything is an illusion, it mean there is a best path and everything exists for a reason), but you are missing the programming which may be as big as a galaxy; can't have that big a brain, so we must learn it from deduction abilities and systemize it our way. You see and deal only within the program effect (the inside of the universe and related transformations where some aspects of your existence can continue their development), since you wouldn't want to lose the programmer (the UI), but don't worry, he protects himself, his existence depends on it. That's how much deep and in the dark the heart of life is. But for now the new energy source is too fantastically slow and big and small at the same time, but maybe it will succeed in understanding life in all its interrelated facets someday, and that day we shall not panic, shall we? Or worst, pray god or run to the psy. But first, we need zooming ability in our eye of knowledge and truth, to see from the height of a galaxy to probing for layers in black holes. Yet, even then, I believe understanding life interaction within matter is beyond our abilities forever, probably a universal limitation, and it may be as well that way, we know it backs us up, that we carries its soul with us, it lives with us since it made our senses, it even developed the pain modifier, the most drastic feeling of a truth...

Once we have felt the earth and its life, heard it, saw it, sensed it, grabbed it, transformed it, learned lessons to understand and like it better, then the universe is what will fill our minds. But for now, our positive association to life is almost nil, we are worse than retards in our philosophy and spirituality of life, we are even exploiting it to self-condemnation in the name of rich "gods". We have to heal the ego-gods association mental perversion competition from long ago, and take the path of an ideology based on life with gods as helpers, not as hidden entities talking only to the pope that you got to kneel twice in front of just to be sure to get seen kneeling, and don't steel stuff! A spirituality having the universe in its vision, with life and UI as the intelligence to develop it, with logical good and evil, and true love too, all the way to building wonderful places to enjoy different facets of it, like religions do in the austerity aspect of things, we may even develop cultural traits from it because we're talking life.

For now, we don't even have a beginning in any of that, because we suppose it's all about science, like the only way to approach these subjects is through religions, if you want anything else, wait for science...in fact, my book (s) may be the greatest expression of true spirituality about life yet developed, and it happened because I pretty much lived as a spirit (figuratively) (spirituality is not bullshit or esotericism, these things don't have a synonym). There are all kind of movies about all kind of spiritual stuff, hundreds of movies with human "gods" and divas or Greek gods in them, but not a complete spiritual view of life and the universe like mine (wait after you read all my book (s) before starting like you have stuff to defend in advance against pretentious people), particularly when you know that spirituality has nothing to do with religions and these words should never be associated, because it's the same kind of crap manipulation as associating democracy as a synonym of good. So, what is the bible? A philosophical book about a guy resuscitating?

In the domain of movie creativity associated to spirituality (yeah, spirituality is happy!), while knowing you got a movie for any fraction of an insane idea, you got a whole mountain of pseudo spiritual ego ideological, related creativity, but nothing close to my view (the closest I've seen is Final Fantasy 1, and it's not much, and the scenario doesn't make much sense, and it is intermixed with a lot of scrap like ghosts), and the same for the reality I'll invent, there will be strictly nothing like it.

After the initial setup of basic channels and modifier building, the brain will start facing encouragements or resistance in its buildup; since general consciousness (the capacity not to act like a complete idiot it's supposed to be, among other things, so you don't die) is not fully functional at this point the strategy is to keep life principles integrity while adding new information from reality (see it as the "no" phase). General consciousness, knowledge or strength of brainwash is the next interaction phase, this one will last all life long and it will influence the next reproduction formulae if done as late adults. It means the basic setup (deep unconscious to reproduction) will become the main filter (puzzle of options) and a defense position to keep integrity while still permitting new data implementation. As a filter it will receive what can fit if the lifelong optimizing process of factual reality if this process reaches sufficient integrity or harmony to gain interaction potential at that level (the top half of the magnetic field that would represent the whole life wheel process, with the conflicting and useless and unstable stuff outside, but the deeper you get the more it's only logical stuff defining reality as true, until you get only a small filament of genetic influences that may add or develop options, which is added to the reproduction system (it doesn't mean something will come out of it, it's just a new pattern of options, and to me it's all done through a communication system that we still have to explore and understand).

The active unconscious (the adaptation part) builds itself from reality and consciousness, it will react to everything going on in the mind, and it will try to transmit missions or modifications to offspring as a response, rarely succeeding, but the pressure is eternal and growing and changing form with risks and different environmental parameters. The process can be seen as a counter pressure of possibility forces, a new possibility in harmony with already present knowledge will reinforce it, or give better auto-skills, and conflicting already existing knowledge, particularly if it is deeply protected, will do the contrary (the initial modifiers created, a human have the ability to talk by default, but no language, so the language modifier, like most modifiers, is in a unique position, it works its own way, but the language still got an effect on the mind, and one that changes a whole race, even if that's not much for now because complex languages are still fresh and we are not stable as cultural entities for long enough due to wars and all kind of racial competition, to invade or change the other, or to modify human actions more drastically).

The mind is full of "battle grounds" (the modifier is not the battle ground, its development is) which will exist for many thousands of years depending on the logical conflict level, a battle can even last millions of years if you're fighting against a whole modifier in relations, and you'll never win if you're implanting (believe in) conflict with something that is important or a fact that permitted the existence of all life, for an extreme... There are such things that are that much important since the reason for the existence of some life facets could be such successful fights which lead to the inadequacy of all life in the universe as an end result, forcing a universe reformulation for it to never happen again. So don't think it is a good idea to compete against the ways of life, all life is associated and interrelated, and yes you can make tons of big mistakes since life got many trillions years of advance in its most powerful developments, but you don't compete against it, it's like saying you want to wipe the truth of pain from the universe, you can't do that, it is necessary for life, but there is still a million things life is developing that you can adversely affect with PMBBD. Still, the mind is under an optimizing process you can't stop without disappearing, so don't worry, in the end truth always win (in the end, not in your personal cheating life), everything is made for truth to win, falsehood is always temporary, a placebo at best.

For now there are many things getting reinforced through your experience of living, many other are under heavy conflict, and you don't actually need to think about it for your mind to do its job, your job is to get knowledge to develop a better consciousness of the truth of the reality you live in, develop judgment, new abilities, new creativities.

As the mind gets fully developed, modifiers will take complete form and start interacting dynamically in a multitude of ways with the mind and body, they will modify themselves accordingly, they will quickly build from the contacts of the person with reality giving the ability to survive in it before a comparison process with it start to mess things up. It will take some time to create this unconscious base (not the deep unconscious, but an amalgam of it and reality), and during that time, it won't be a place where different pressures compete for implementation since it is creating itself from learning the reality so the child can adapt and become a successful survivor like its parents. Then both the work of modifiers added to memories gained from experiencing reality will start the development of the consciousness building strategy. So the level of consciousness potential is in big part a matter of having the nervous system to develop the capacities for empathy as well as to understands reality, generally, proportional to cumulated truth if you prefer, even if everybody will develop differently from both their different experience of reality and ancestry pressure that modified some genetic aspects.

As the child gets older, the mind becomes an optimizer, it looks everywhere for best efficiency so we can do as many things as possible automatically or spontaneously. Even if the information for it is taken anywhere, the pressure comes from the reality and the initial formulae (modifiers, chromosomes, DNA), both compete through consciousness and unconsciousness. The goal is to have harmony between the 4 or more, entities; the consciousness, the unconscious, genetics and reality (you can add the universe in that since it can be seen as part of our intelligence, even if it is more like mathematical existence making itself available to life). That can take a million years or more, not a thousand years peanut, and we are only at a few thousand years of high consciousness capacity, so we'll have to be patient. Anyway, unless we make a failure of humanity and life, while we have everything not to, we're supposed to have an infinity of time bringing unbelievable modifications and diversity to species (we may even go through mutations, then backtrack to the original "naturally" (yes it can happen, but you won't regress back to the oceans that way...). Now, any conflict between those 4 increases the complexity and the size of the brain since you'll always unconsciously try to justify the conflict.

The life wheel, as the system to reproduce persistently good, true or important things, and integrity of form, represents the logic, from the laws, of life and thus cannot bows to aberrations of theses. The more the reality put pressure in conflicting ideals, the more life will "revolt" or try to get a message across (the more hellish thing will get). A certain level of conflict is acceptable, but it is proportional to the depth of the logic associated to the conflict. In a sense, the more reality created conflicts are justified with profound logic, the less life cares since such justified conflicts will most likely end-up as details but not always with profound PMBBD (you can place the most part of language in this category, but not principles, so yes some level of words conflict is acceptable, but going through the dictionary as a synonym of "crazy" because words have come to gain too much of an enlarged meaning at the hands of manipulators is a bit ridiculous.

If we make reality to leave no possibility for positive changes, through consciousness, to stop the evident violations of life logic, then life systems will have to turn around the invincible obstacle to go back to self-integrity, but not before testing its integrity, as it should, and if it's bullshit but still an obstacle, then use others means, mainly leading to fears and paranoia, but if thousands years have passed by without a hint of potential at a change, it will start acting directly to the extent of giving ripostes through DNA modifications, which can be positive or negative. In a sense life will send messengers, messengers of positive modifications if you're striving for good, or sicknesses if you are in conflict or war or competition against its fundamental scenario (striving for evil or conflict).

These conflicting actions, like bullshit love, or war among ourselves as top intelligences, can lead to very dangerous situations, you are life, and its ultimate tool of survival, its greatest pride, don't make it an enemy. It's like the invention of vaccines during WW1, the guy got a trophy as it would save thousands of lives, but the first recipient were nobody else than soldiers, with it they could go anywhere to kill people and it lead to an immediate explosion in the death toll, but ironically, the war was ended by the apparition of a new virus; influenza. It's all coincidences evidently, and knowing the path of its apparition changes nothing to the timing, Life systems ended the war because our attitudes opened options to life, and it was done by spreading a new virus (or tranquil, or dormant, in which scenario it waited all human history to become virulent, but that's too scary as planning ability, so I prefer "apparition"). I prefer this to the classic story about how the war ended; it ended by life involvement, ok? I could even say that almost all virus that have come to exist did as a result of wrong attitudes we had, and since we don't have a spirituality and only see its creations attacking us as bad things to destroy instead of warnings to look at our attitudes, then we shouldn't be surprised if more appear. For now you can calculate the cost of influenza on humanity, but how about HIV? You think we couldn't skip these viruses? I say we could skip almost all viruses, and if we have that many viruses transmitted sexually, then maybe we should stop seeing sexuality as something controlled in big part by viruses, that's scary.

Widespread malformations can happen too, and if you still don't change then you'll reap the ultimate war where humans becomes an enemy to exterminate using the most extraordinary powers of life systems. And viruses can be seen as high level communication transports, everything is made of steps and levels, so scientists that presently see viruses the same way some scientists of old saw bacteria are better be careful in their war against life, it is no better destroying viruses at the anthrax strike than destroying bacteria at the atomic strike.

All in all, you can be what you want without too much trouble, except mass liars, and mass is many people, not your insignificant home lies, even if those are not good either. Remember what I just said, not lying is almost impossible, your home lies are not that much important, it is the redundancy through masses that gives the true evil effect of it, reproduction of many people under PMBBD. And lying includes twisted principles with conflicting meanings, all what falsifies judgment. And the ones paying the price for those using PMBBD on masses, is the whole humanity, even future people and life because the reproduction process keeps track of time (you even have a gland or something for it) and much other little info that is transmitted forever from our beginnings and there are the parents to add details from their life experience to it (like intrinsic mistrust of certain things (Phobias may be a bit strong though)) and it may not be the good stuff since it is supposed to be the best track, but I mean, there are animals that instinctively know their enemies, so English people should not be surprised if Quebeckers comes with an intrinsic mistrust of the style, but don't worry, it's a long process and it must remain permanent, like English people pissing-off French people for thousands of years, so it become a fact of reality (it doesn't have to show, life is becoming good with fake stuff, manipulators).

So, this initial thing transforms to gain new uses as we grow, one of those could be seen as a central existence point making the connection between life experiences of feelings, knowledge and possibilities of matter. Most life-forms are senses of life, the human is a sense of life too, but independent life, able to use life transformation processes to morph reality better for life, but we are still a sense of life, and what we understand must be available to life, so life systems always experience life with us as we are life (could be a developing function, it could make a modifier out of itself at some point, connect all what make you feel existent and make life live through you with far more strength). So when thing are attached and working together with some added path from prediction algorithms of developing things and modifiers self-interactions, the life reproduction system becomes a superpower, its connections grow its power, information, data, go ahead, it thrive in that, sense input, be alive. Even if its final size (reproduction formulae) is insignificant besides its data crunching ability, he is the nearest you'll ever be to the power of life, a small thing doing so much you can't believe, it is so small and you are so big, a spermatozoid besides a human. And yes you can crush the small thing, but it all gets crushed anyway, unless you succeed in your utility. Life needs it like that, it stops evil people becoming eternal ego-gods and eating everything, it permits existence. Anyway, it can crunch your whole life of data in the blink of an eye, and his last function is to shut down your life.

The mind (our intelligence) then starts a miniaturizing and optimizing process that it must do for many reasons; mainly because the creation of access lines in the whole of the mind can quickly become conflicting enough to disable judgment, because some memories must be daily erased, because working consciously mind is laborious and energy hungry, because it needs to be concentrated and simplified for easier transmission, reproduction, and more sight of avenues of possibilities. This optimizing process is not a precise or controlled thing and it probably goes on mainly in sleep too, continually processing stuff every day, approximately looking at it with its modifiers to concentrate, strengthen or optimize to implement more strongly what seems to be important. In fact it's incredibly more complex and laborious than that. This is the explanation for dummies (don't forget I'm a dummy too, in everything I talk about).

Even if they are built from stable truth, modifiers are still a relative thing, and most have effects lasting longer than the truth (modifier) of pain or joy (that's why those are meant to be temporary, such truths can make you spend energy forever and sometime far worse than wasted at it.) The better you are at acting from consciousness, and the less conflict there is in the mind, then the more concentrated and powerful the modifiers become and the more of their powers are well transmitted to offspring. In the last scenario that a totally new concept, or if a new attitude or philosophy or spirituality creates no conflict and is being accepted for thousands of years, some facets can end up reproduced, vastly easing our lives in some specific areas or skills.

Now, when dealing with existence, life got no choice but to work hard keeping integrity, you logically must not too easily become a pile of bullshit no? The mind is like the body, if a modifier is like your hands, then you can say everybody got a different form of the same modifier, and you can do all kind of things with your hands and they'll somewhat remain alight, the same for modifiers, but if you continually force your hands askew for many years, particularly if you start doing it young, then you'll get a handicap, twisted hands, or arthritis, or pain, or unable to do some things, the same if you believe in twisted bullshit within your mind, I'm talking while living evidently, genetics will eventually adjust a little, but not much because in fact our hands are the result of twisting them this way or that, and they don't look twisted, in the perfection of everything...

What I meant to say is that even if you don't use them you still have hands, so you understand that psy people are a little ridiculous to me when they act all impressed about the "strength" of the unconscious, it's like saying wow, you have strong hands! And you got to wonder what they talk about too; the seat of the unconscious? I don't see no seats! I see things as a matter of processes, that's why I prefer the notion of modifiers to explain a precise place where there is a concentration of activity. They may see what I qualify the deep unconscious as the unconscious too, or the subconscious? I guess I'm adding to the confusion here. Anyway, the more optimized a truth or possibility is, the "stronger" the modifier that expresses it, and most of what we got have been "strengthened" by reproduction for thousands of years, so yes it is strong, and it will take a lot of time for some parts to lose integrity.

Finally, there are truth developed by life systems from the new truths it is getting, but these new truths will need a different developing strategy since steering is one thing while constructing is another, something looking like a virus can do the job, but it will have to be directly related to the growing human, and the only place fitting the criteria would be a women's placenta, and that "virus" will have to live in many women for thousands of years since the woman needs to adjust the information, test it by transmitting it back to man, cultivate it until it works well in stable enough truth.

In that optic, man should carry DNA strings from his harder (more extreme, thus nearer in the external sense, like digging the earth uncovering or provoking new life, touching it too by stupidity (stronger, less fear), woman is more internal, the guts of life if I could call it that, more caring too. Exploration can help modifiers or even lead to the creation of new ones, and both sex have an emphasis on this genetic transformation process, to this part of the so man some containing bits of information not yet identified as useful, man is more extreme explorative and be full of potential stuff, while women should be carrying more of a collection of information, like books with a good phrase in them, and for as long as the good phrase is not found, it won't contribute to make a better person, and the phrase must be found as logical for the book to disappear as a functional DNA part. And while that happens, many phrases of the thousands of books will be tested by life through reproduction, and even if a phrase is identified as a key, humanity may never notice it if the reality is too limited, it will mainly notice phrases working in harmony with its philosophy.

If someone is born perfectly healthy with an early given evident skill, that person must have the tools to reproduce (apart sex things), I mean, reality must first be competent in its vision of human sexual interactions, to minimally permit people to find adequacy, what's more, the persistence of the possibility must remain, if you want the work to bear fruit; if reality develops new possibilities or take new forms, then the genetic that will want to take the new space must not be seen as crazy or a problem. In fact, you could see a different reality as the stable ground for many new genetic diversities.

Now it all depends on what is good information, a whole "book" can be good and it is highly probable that after a few thousand years of its existence it will be spread on most people forming a group, other information may never ever be transmitted from reality's ways, (like a bad book (philosophy) like mine, but an extraterrestrial may have something like it as a common feature, so beware...).

That's about it for this analogy, if you can't tolerate it then go find yourself something of the ego-gods ideology that suits you, the Dalai Lama should do, and do some yoga (but I'm bad, yoga is cute...you can run over the Dalai Lama when you meet him though, he's demonology like the pope, another one will pop on the throne by magic! Sorry, I know, we all care for life, them too, I'm just suggesting the guy is not what it seems, he's a superiority-inferiority defining tool meant to pacify and exploit people too, and that's what you find; poor indoctrinated (illuminated) people and rich "gods" living in castles, whatever the king is a kid or a pope, it could be a frog living in poverty for all I care; the place to look is the reality of the society they are used in, and not in movies, go there and look at the reality, do you see unfairly rich people and poor to the bones all over the place? Yes? There you have it! Show me how you care for life, thriving wilderness, happy people, scintillating rivers, show me your life utopia of the Dalai Lama! You sold your soul to the devil? It's not your fault? War? Are you a reserve? Reserves got my respect, not you! I don't care about the religion or belief that lead to it, or that it started in humility to gain mass, it failed, and you can burn yourselves all you want, that's not the way to do it; fight evil instead, you'll die a fighter for life, not a loser all the way, but you'd have to know what is evil first, and your guru sure won't help you with that, it's too simple...)

So I'm not into copying, I invent! I have that, I developed myself to have it. But there's a difference between copying and being enlightened, superficial copy people will never develop a soul whatever they think they believe in, it doesn't mean taking the example is not a good thing, but it's only half the job for those who don't want to waste 20 years fooling around in the dark while fooling yourself around, you got to find a source of logical understanding (your own mind, or a book), and use it (make a constant or repetitive effort, which should amount to 1/10 of what I've done), so it come to mean something. If not then I have no energy to care for you, you'll just make a façade for manipulation (including yourself, to have a self-inflated feeling...) while spreading more or continuing in evil. Enlightened people will go beyond detail bitching, they'll live deep emotions, they'll grow their soul and change because they'll care, even if they don't endorse everything of a belief system, or change totally, but they'll feel the fundamentals, they'll want to fight either within themselves or with reality, they are those I care for, I want to give them better potential and willpower, in my words, because they still have life in them.

To somewhat conclude wheel of life and modifiers thing, I'll add that the intern life wheel aspect, as leading to the full independent existence to the being, contains a lot of knowledge which can be associated to something like destiny. It is like a castle in the body that no amount of PMBBD will ever invade without reaping worse troubles, and nobody has the same lock to open the only door in the fortress protecting the castle, and it is not an external door, it is internal, you'll have to follow a deep underground tunnel in the dark to reach it (women's uterus thingy? That's not really what I had in mind...). Finding and opening it (the door to your soul, not your uterus...) can only be done through heavy introspection. It is one of the reasons this reality, without knowing why, don't like people wasting time doing introspection, "go to the psy instead", or "stop thinking and jump on the disco stick" some singer full of wisdom will blare at repetition... Once you're inside the walls, you will go no farther, this castle is the realm of life logic and spirituality, all you'll never understand is there, but your personal effort made it possible for you to see how beautiful or ugly you're making it. There you'll feel your destiny at its strongest and you'll be able to climb on the palisade and watch reality's jealous monsters trying to invade your place. In ego reality you'll witness ganged anarchy to the end of sight with your walls besieged by attackers brandishing slogans and pub and gangs of all color and forms, from starving poor, to moving sexmaniacs orgies, to brains in high tech gears, to singers blaring their emotions, to campaigning politicians, the competition is open, your virginity or innocence is the target, vampires and monsters will try invading, they all desire a part of you, and they'll destroy while looking for treasure if they can't succeed or understand your body. Watch your defense throwing decoys, while you decide what to do next, but beware, these walls don't exist for nothing, they are not even supposed to be touched by someone else than you, you have the right to kill anybody touching them, so maybe your first action will be to get noticed and shout that there is an infinity of space around, a land to prove you're worth it, but it's a sea of deaf zombies with implanted PMBBD who never thought they had a castle, or they ended-up as far from it as they cared about it while living, and those rare who did lost it or abandoned it because it was too ugly when they found it, and now their jealous eyes are set on yours. The first castle you see in life is not yours, since it is not built, it is other's, and you'll go for them because ego without control or consciousness just takes, for whatever twisted reasons, and because you're grown from other's castle rules at first, finding its place and giving it its best form is the struggle of your life. Want another view?1/3

To go back to unconscious effects (my "other" brain I talk to...), it is not an automatic genius or switch, it all depend on your intellectual emphasises, in the sense that someone may as well have a rose elephant as an imaginary friend to reflect his style of intelligence instead of "another brain" for a globally type like me, and he will get stuff that reflect his potential. What's more, the best effect of this unconscious phenomenon is supposed to be gotten when you sleep, but the exchange is difficult there, kind of, so I just do my part in reality of talking to my mind because it is worth it, but I like it when I get answers...

When someone is drunk or watch too much television without questioning, he accept laziness in his mind; he limit the extent of his consciousness and no nice unconscious yoga-mantra effect will come out of it because the mind is drunk or brainwashed. High consciousness is the capacity to use anything to personally build complex, often conflicting, energy hungry temporary web of lines and memories anywhere in the mind. High consciousness is a temporary state; it must be sustained a long time to become intermixed with the unconscious and reality. As soon as you stop applying power to that state, the reality will push to overwhelm back the unconscious. High consciousness is an effort to gain an abnormal mass of knowledge as a gas pedal to modify reality (by modifying the mind) and it must absolutely be sustained until the reality is modified or, at the least, until sufficient momentum have been built to reach completion. The momentum of high consciousness is in the time it takes for the memory to be replaced along with its access lines. If the reality doesn't put too much energy (brainwash, bullshit, violence etc.) pushing for reverse or competition, this momentum can last a long time and change comes faster, and if the reality is trying to go along the same direction, changes are accelerated, and the momentum gain from energy investment can last very long, to the point of becoming a deeply unconscious thing as the wheel of life does its work.

When I talk about mind memory, you have to think of what form I'm talking about. Is it something you develop by your own skills at deducting the truth or is it stuff imposed externally mainly by manipulation, bullshit, strength or brainwash? And brainwash is not necessarily a bad thing in its direct form, to get a human minimally functioning in the world (learning stuff at school to some extent). You are supposed to learn what you can about the world creating a working unconscious base, then act upon it by modifying this base which is done through a competition between different pressures (forces); your consciousness modifications, reality, deep unconscious, and a reflection of the reality you were born in which ma take the form of stem cells. Your fight for your beliefs and doing so will modify reality around you, which may even lead to global reality modifications. That's how we are, we learn by listening and getting the example because of complexities we have no skill at exploring yet, and we follow that until we have what it takes to start questioning and modifying what doesn't satisfy us. Imitation is not evolution; it is used to learn a skill.

A big part of being an adult lies in the effort you make at using your consciousness on a maximum of facets by yourself to have your global idea for an adequate judgment from understanding the world you live in, not only a few pretty facets, a maximum of them because everything is related and global. In this reality, judging coldly every external force that tries to impose itself you'll have a fight you can sink your life in. Or you could say it is the quick shortcut to independence, it passes or it breaks, most end up quite destroyed or very evil and that's what happened to this reality, it broke from too much evil, and it won't pass because it is systemized (like unfairness) as an unchangeable path, wrong leadership structuring, wrong vision of good, life, money, love, entertainment, competition, etc, make a list.

This is where someone like me can intervene, because the process of having the less enjoyable part of reality quickly blasted with strength in your face as a young person can quickly force you to traumatic development a lot earlier than normal. In a "normal" scenario, this should have brought me to do very "wrong" things, but there are exceptions and coincidences, like having too many difficulties in youth, which can stall the will to accept reality easily, like a revolt or a protestation, like your unconscious is intelligent enough to say "if that's the reality I'll have to live in, I'm as well discard it all and take the risk of dying making mistakes out of feelings since my life is already at risk". It is the worst failure of a reality, it is the most simple and fundamental logic of the mind rejecting the reality like you're dropped in savage earth, it failed to teach you how to live. And knowledge have no value here, attitudes are everything, it is a systematization of humanity failures, your undeveloped mind starts in total stress and uncertainty, it think it will have to do everything itself, even teach humanism.

But current reality's psy science will want to describe the phenomenon as a retard in development (you are mentally retarded), which is another scientific PMBBD about the mind. The end result may look like a retard, but maybe there is a message behind, don't you think? To blind, ignorant, or accepting and tolerating "peaceful" people. The mental difference is a revolt that can't be expressed easily in a crappy reality (It is easier expressing or provoking things as an ado through maladroit actions than ass licking diplomacy, adults react to ado actions, often show their ignorance or incompetence, while ass licking is kind of the most widespread skill these days...) Our language is an interface between ourselves, and it has been the hardest thing to develop, but life integrity is dependent from physical integrity, if you try to break it with a freak show of bullshit, then be prepared for some physical form of protestation, to make you understand things without a language, through its systems and the slow matter transformation energy source you use and your feelings, within many other necessary limitations, like death. Sometimes, a message will be understood immediately from what's already there with some add-on, sometimes a conflicting philosophy limits its expression forever, there are steps, processes, priorities too, and accidents and luck, but 1000 years, sometimes even more, are necessary for some form of messages to be circulated and understood, or not, until too late. If a problem always fails through history to be understood and removed, taking permanent form while forcing life systems to lose integrity, then you risk reaping mass death under the form of your choice, and it better not be bullshit...

Life systems are always late at giving response to things, if we are to become extinct, we won't shut down automatically, it will take anywhere between 100 and a thousand years depending on many factors. And yes we can all die within a day, but that day will have been prepared for a thousand years. We don't know what is the result of our past or present actions until we reach that result, and we still may never know, maybe we signed a philosophical death contract 2000 years ago, or maybe a load of decisions taken in the 60's will lead to it around 2050 from more restraining limitations than believed by controlling ego experts, and that applies to me too, I have an opinion, but maybe everything is going to be fine, or maybe it's going to be fine because I do my part. That's why fighting evil with evident results and acting with good intents is tremendously important, and you can guess that infinite ego competition philosophy is not the best systematization, worse if it permits the use of PMBBD on masses without restraints, worse if it is twisting good principles, worse if it is based on country competition, worse if a profiting emphasis is fundamental to it, and far more worse. So we can take the means to reach our end by ourselves, by being a failure, killing life in our competition, or we may crash the life prevision algorithms altogether leading it to stop fooling around with indirect messages and simply press the "emergency shutdown of the human" button (and people will just turn-off, for simplicity...).

There are people who got accidental problems for sure, but many can be seen as messages that there is a grave problem in the reality which could be corrected for great added value. But at this step, since it's an extreme message and life is always late, the problem needs immediate attention. Pain, whatever physical or mental exists, why? To stop something, to say this is bad, but even after billions of years of constructing the truth of pain, it is still a vague communication of information, but damn efficient. Look at the past of the person to have an idea, the solution is definitively not ignorance or automatic meds distribution, and it applies to anything, even bad attitudes. The person expressing the problem is most of the time not it but the recipient of it, people can even unconsciously make a bad person out of themselves to put the reality in face of its inadequacy, to pass a message that looks like it can't be understood otherwise, and such an attitude is not wrong, what is wrong is ignorance or failing to heal the right source. Presently this reality is so overwhelmed by ego and self-important people that it takes the worst attitude of categorizing with psy sickness anybody expressing a problem that can be corrected by a change of attitude toward acceptance, tolerance and adaptation to the reality, until sane people are pointed negatively with bizarre tags or hated, with the exception of the ones who really have a mental problem like autistic or trisomic people because they are not dangerous to the reality and they fit the ego-god (s) ideology and its tendency to create pity markets for its gods, or markets where philanthropy can be a nice investment. Autistic style people often make of their whole life a challenge of adaptation to this reality, not much of a choice about it, particularly since it seems you can inject autism with a syringe in hell, from what I understand... I don't think it's a good idea to make it a glamour thing with bits of videos of happy mongols, those people really have a problem, and it's not an easy to live with one, and not only for them, but yes, they totally must be respected, and specifically taken special care of, and doing so they may actually reward society greatly, if we continue on this track to better develop their abilities, but first we shall be sure of all the origins of this problem.

Autism or not, many problems exist as the expression of a need for the reality to take radical actions right away to morph so the problem disappears or is made a rare exception (radical because at this point you're right in it, or you're getting hints that you're doing something wrong if death is forwarded to some people faster than anticipated, or perfectly fine kids suddenly go autistic...), since it means that life (don't forget we are life) either can't, or don't want to, adapt to a limitation or way in reality (that can be anything like a mental limitation created by people exploiting the person).

The minimum is that you must compensate the bad luck of the person, to be in harmony with the truth of fairness, and at that level any society that call itself civilized will try to at least keep the appearance of doing it, which we're doing, with a lot of nice servicing, but that's just one aspect, and it's a bit logical that this reality will want to take care of its evident problems, since you must always see things from the angle of philanthropy, while we are deep in thousands of problems created by successfully inflated rich ego people (those can be anybody, even the pariah born out of its problems).

As for life expressions, they can take all kind of forms depending on the parameters of what drives your soul (like through dreams, but life developed such interaction tools long ago to survive), like fear, pain, paranoia (the positive are a given, I mean, you don't notice the nice stuff life does to reward your attitudes, you think it's all you, and it is...). The pressure can take the form of negative mutations in all life strongly associated to humans (included), particularly in our blood. All in all, the truth about some sicknesses is enough of an argument to fear for our future. Such "protestations" can take forms related to any of the many spaces used by life which may lead to bouleversement of reality. Since we accepted the ego-gods ideal all over the earth as final best system with the democracy-capitalism business as the flag carrier, and the patent needs vast unconscious (or controlled consciousness) populations, the form of modification from life could be to profit from conflict and illogism in the reality to develop in increasing number, disabilities and handicaps and all kind of ugly twists. Many of those would be "simple" and sometimes "final" tentative at getting attention on some reality related problems like constant pressure to implant always more strongly conflicting or illogic ideals or principles. The harder you pound on the deep unconscious door with PMBBD (harass life systems), the more annoyed it gets and the more problems it will cause and reproduce by trying to make you understand it is not the problem, you are.

The speed at which you attain life morphing mutations (without direct intervention) is proportional to the efficiency at getting harmony; the less your mind wastes time trying to get you to understand what's wrong with this or that or here and there, the more efficient it is at morphing reality or species. Again, thousands of years of pounding, or too slow a rate of successful understanding civilization wide will result in greater reproduction of grave diseases or degenerated traits, or skills. Your attitude can slowly create self-destruct parameters, triggering appropriate mutations, new enemies, sometimes chains of them, even cataclysms, until someday you end up looking far enough in the future, making the right, true or good association to find and eliminate the true problem. And they can be anything innocent looking or some final truth you implemented 2000 years ago. Sicknesses and mutation brought about by an ideologically ill reality, quite an end to our civilization that would be...Mass psychosis and insanity bought about by a degeneration of the deep unconscious and a very strong, sustained will to escape an inadequate reality full of PMBBD, while the only option would be to escape in PMBBD...

What's more, I'm sure the ego-gods ideology contortion (the integration of the survival system into the reward system then transformed as a competition to take as much as possible, invalidating both systems, then associated to supreme superiority (survival and a reward system has nothing to do with a competition to take as much as possible, this is a sickness from frustrated people extremizing everything, like their infinite value that they got to fight to get.) I say this view was never accepted in our minds, like there is a barrier there, an impossibility to live free of conflicts in an ego emphasized competition.

Forcing life to inadequacy would push life systems to birth more people with a naturally distorted vision of reality instead, parents with the experience of reality birthing more and more people who can hardly adapt to reality, dumping it right from the start for anything else but another life of mind conflicts. Since you never know when it's too late before it is, we must react to such possibilities because they exist and we can. Now, since this reality is the result of the ego-gods association, ego competition, superiority inferiority, pyramidal structuring, the only solution to many problems would be its total replacement by a reality where young people won't tend to extremize their involvement in it or escape it at a risk to their survival, longevity, health or sanity, stopping a lost in advance battle to create a race of superiors and inferiors (you'll succeed to some hellish extent.)

All this is far-fetched, but that's how I build my realm; with far reaching roots to rare or strange nutriments that I'm never absolutely sure of their position or if they really exist; I just try to deduct from my experience and I make my personal creation from my tentative at reaching those notions until they do exist, as text for a start, which is better than a few neurons that may terminate anytime in front of a truck...

This reality never implanted itself well in me, so I may go full circle with "infinite" patience. I doubted it from the beginning, and with evidences. Now, rejection without searching justification leads to prison, so I got to adapt at the least in a survival fashion in the reality I have no choice to live in. Searching a compromise for years I found none, you may say I have become mentally diseased from searching, but dammit I tried! And I always ended up in conflict with this reality. And I went through with all I had, I can tell you I pushed, and I couldn't stop, slowed down or waited for anybody. All these places I've been in my mind all contributed to steer me away as the whole was developing, and this whole has become me and I won't intervene for a facet of it but for the whole and it can't be inside this reality, it can only be in another. It is not perfectly clear yet in my mind as to what form it can take or what its best form is, but I'll try to extirpate somewhat of an example as to how it could be made to work. As for you, better not develop your general mind abilities too much because you won't fit anymore and the conflict will probably make you depressive, crazy or psychotic or whatever, well cooked for a visit to the psy, or for some drinking or, if you prefer, get uninhibited; question of putting you back on track with the perspectives of this reality...

Now, don't try the subconscious bullshit on me, it is an example of a wrong or twisted term, it hides the truth deeper, under more complexities, probably to exploit an unconscious processes. As a fundamentally, critically important part of a living mind, the unconscious describes that process as what it truly is; a process that can make you do, and that do, things without you consciously knowing it. Subconscious makes it a "sub" thing to something else, an inferior-superior thing. It is not the case; it is a whole moving and growing process. To take the wrong analogy of a tree, you don't say there is a "sub tree" in the tree, there is a tree and that's all. Memory could be empty space, consciousness the leaves and small brambles, fruits are the reproduction system, unconscious compose the big brambles and the trunk, modifiers are bird nests, while the roots is the deep unconscious.

Analogies are so nice, they make things more understandable or even poetic (not always and I'm an example) but they are never the true thing. Now, even if the tree seems to grow from the ground, it is not the case; it is a total growing from many factors. Remember the song "the tree is in its leaves" I know it's almost folklore, but it's still a beautiful song full of meanings, and very cool to sing as a group, anyway, the tree is nothing without its leaves which are nothing without the sun and you can go on singing the tune malidon maliday, and it is the same thing for humans, every parts is in a complex process permitting the whole to complete, and modifying reality is part of our "whole", of the wheel of life. Sounds like a good way to contort the psyche of innocents though, as a way to keep them innocents or inferior by using the ultimate PMBBD to control people, as you know it will become unconscious; let them be unconscious of their unconscious, long life subconscious...
The godly dreams of having unconscious "sub" animal workers who do everything we want while still "loving" us is the worst travesty we could make of how we truly are. The goal of all life except us is to develop a species (us) that can do what they can't; modify reality to go on the moon, kind of. Our goal is not only to survive, it is to lose innocence (ignorance) and act upon reality to permit the survival of a maximum of life that dies and disappear because of their inability to do it; if we fail at that we all disappear. And I'd be scared of the way we are doing things, animals have feelings too, some may be far more sensitive to what's going around them than we think, we could become an example of failure, or worse if we condemn, abandon or torture or make monsters with animals we made dependent of ourselves. Those animals that live near us must be treated with the greatest care, not as industrial robots or meat production, how we behave with them affects greatly our value, and it applies to all life, just more for our dependent pets.

Consciousness leads to conscience. Conscience is the action arising from developing consciousness so I don't talk about conscience as it will only make things more complicated. Anyway, consciousness is meant to develop conscience so there is no use developing it if you don't act upon it. Now, I see working consciousness as something that you mostly develop yourself willfully, since the way of the reality have been mostly optimized long ago (before 20) to permit you to survive in it. It means that most of the stuff from reality entering your mind without you consciously "manually" acting upon it, is mostly already there in "automatic" version, and it is continually strengthened by reality. The access and modification functions (modifiers) are what takes most evident space in a brain and what is the most directly related to birth processes, they are unconscious things that just do their job with minimal input from consciousness in the name of efficiency. Specific memory styles can be seen as modifiers, and some of those memory arrangements cover the whole brain, but still use almost no power, thanks to being a lifeform. I mean, those forms of memory are not mechanical logical because they are for life, and life as the opener of new possibility wouldn't perform well on this facet with precise memory, but this living memory imprecision has many more critical uses I won't talk about just yet. One thing of note, if you wanted to just address and have direct access to every bits of a fraction of the memory in your brain, you'd need a head 100 times as big, it would be continually overheating, and you'd eat plutonium and shit toxic wastes as you'd need the metabolism of a nuclear power-plant. So the miracle is done by modifiers, and sleep.

Catching your keys by reflex is another example of the powers of modifiers; they are like fast unconscious mechanisms, grown from immemorial logical life, they have influences everywhere in the brain and body. They make unbelievable things happen and you cannot access them consciously totally because they are all interrelated, you'd need the same kind of power that would be necessary to address all your memory. Maybe not as much for reflexes because they are so old they went through all life in history in stable truth from matter physics, they are ultimately so well connected that you can affect them consciously really fast with good mathematical (feeling) judgment, but you still have to go through a totally different, mostly related to reality, set of complexities. The time may easily be multiplied 100 times for a readjusted reflex (100 times 0.001 sec is still fast though...but you still got to have good reflexes), and you'll have to use vast mind resources to compensate the effect, all the way to almost infinity of it (for a mathematical formula on paper to prepare your action) because you are dealing with 2 phenomenon. But I may have taken the worst example here, it would be easy to confound this calculator vision with the nervous system development which may specifically adapt itself to weight or gravity variations. The difference here resides in the fact that modifiers arise from a genetic formula, I would say if you raise someone in the dark, the ability to make variable sounds is a modifier, but it developed from reality interactions, if the whole race never found a use for meanings associated to sounds, then the sound blaster modifier would never have become reality. Or, if you prefer, sound waves existed as a permanent truth in reality, and life "found" a way to use them for communication, because, well, in previous combat situations, ass generated sound waves gave you a temporary surprise advantage...Now, if only I could arrange things to have the effect going ahead instead of behind, that would be nice, but what about if you are born in the emptiness of space? No proofs that sound carries, you live a million years there communicating with signs, until one day you discover sound? How are you going to get ears and vocal cords now? You think you'll say "let's put 2 hears for stereo, on both sides of the head"? And put vocal cords in your food munching hole? And the nose? It wouldn't work. But it does! The trick? Go back a troglodyte and let life do its work (develop modifiers) through trillions of animals. But working logically from the bottom up makes it so that you are not born in space breathing nothingness, but it may be possible that we grow a thicker skin, and use oxygen as a rare nutriment found in most foods, in a billion years living and dying on the moon...And you know what? It may have been calculated as such, life systems may know it is possible for us, we may actually be capable of living nude on the moon, eventually, if we suffer sufficiently for it, and believe in the power of life sufficiently strongly, but I like air too much and I like thin skin, so I'm just messing around, still, I wouldn't be surprised to meet an alien walking bare footed on the moon...

Some life make no sound but spit poison, we don't spit poison but we connected definitively a too big part of the brain to the mouth hole thing, and now we sing pretty and scary and we make wild noises and all kind of activities out of it, it's totally out of control! Almost, but nobody connected nobody else's bundle of brain wires to organs, it didn't happen very much like that, only differently, in good Chinese...

To go back to my things, a done modifier is mostly a genetic result, like the pattern of reflex development, to fire the initial impulsion, while dealing with gravity variations, like falling while catching a ball after having eaten more than usual (your mass varies continually), it's possible to do it like nothing, so think about how much you really know about gravity to do these kind of things, and you think you'll just scrap it all with a little thousand years pack of bullshit? You'll die trying... You can add new stuff though, that's what humans beyond the chimpanzee limit have been doing for a very long time, in fact we are completely overloaded with possibilities, but these are kind of locked until we unlock the adequate deep logic, and their expression take stable form in reality (the path of science; prove your things, as reflected in reality. As for the time, life got to be sure it lasts like gravity, if you want some aspects to fully integrate different modifiers (it become a fact life can use, and it will generate new genetic options too). That's only one aspect of genetic change potential of the wheel of life, don't forget every species is a sense, they "see" all around and that's the same kind of process that applies here too, if you remember, and I kind of took the most difficult example, a "soft" example should be languages, they're large superficial continually ongoing and different from one place to the other, and you definitively don't need to wait millions years to see changes, particularly since they're fresh things beyond the chimpanzee, but the principle still applies, stuff that keep integrity for around 5000 years become a little more natural, more useable by life (our minds, but can be anything, "everything is physical"...) like through dreams for a start.

Your adjustment will take neurologic pathway modification form, but the modifier there will only contain like the formula of gravity and the strategy of brain reinforcement in reflex or automatic form, it's like loose mathematics, so modifiers are never mathematically precise, but this looseness gives them the advantage of doing a planet imploding calculation at an infinitesimal fraction of the time from the size of super little small. You could see some modifiers like a thousand scientific calculators, developed and optimized to be ridiculously small or efficient.

But nothing beats communications; this power is vast and we've only begun to use it. I'm not talking about big mouth, big shot or superstar or political communicanism (communication communism...); I'm talking about the communication that is formed from every facet of life, particle, atomic and molecular circulation. So, most of the mind is used to act upon memory, overwriting, appending, boosting, emphasizing, prioritizing, cross checking, adding, subtracting, multiplying, lots of math and all kind of tricks. Many modifiers are used to control communication within the body too, they develop or are related to organs, but still everything comes from the mind.

You can see the pleasure system (as serving the survival system) as one of them; its grip is strong because it permits the whole to survive, and it can redirect any of your senses to make you seek and reach those pleasures imprinted in your memory which will release some pleasure effect molecules creating dependences along the way. It's a pleasure system, or if you prefer, it's the fundamental low consciousness ego system, an internal thing, a vast modifier; do not confound with the reward system which is an external imposed or accepted scheme. I don't want to run 10 miles before eating, even if it will feel better eating after 10 miles. Me see food, me eat, me happy. Yet, life is limited and wants to eat life while not getting eaten, that's how the internal system works.

Me see obstacle, me jump over it, me make "someone" happy, me get reward under the form of a dependence satisfaction, is the external system (the dependence can be created, or it can be natural like food). Someone that went through some consciousness can do what he wants with either system depending on the strength of his will. Low personal willpower and you got dependences all over the place. Dependent or people vulnerable to PMBBD are easy to manipulate or corrupt, that's the greatest skill of manipulators and ego powerful people, and they are doing that with the whole human race, and not only with pharmaceuticals, with everything by possessing everything, even using lodging (fundamental need) as a tool to put pressure or make their powertrips (I know what I'm talking about...).

Some will want to get rid of the "please master" step, normal behavior, dog, so why have it? Necessary leadership is a solid argument, but leadership is not meant to be eternal like people are dogs, it is meant to set a path, your society is supposed to "evolve" needing less leadership (you still always need tons of it), transferred in its systems (like politics or education) and people, in independence too, surely not more and more costly. But yes, there are too many variables both in reality and in people's lives to do without leadership involvement in the pleasure system to transform it in a reward system, and that's an entirely natural transformation at it; the strength of the many is just a fact in the unconscious and is more directly involved in survival, than the strengths of independence, which you can associate more to leadership. But I'll talk more about leadership in "Systematic Magic". For now I'll say that a true leaders don't feel the need to control or dictate people, to become rich and self-inflated, they just express their destiny, or will for something different, then go for it, so in a sense your work is your leadership, which includes your attitudes, just so there's always an asshole making a cheap leadership powertrip and taking pleasure in removing my supposedly "given" liberties... And they do so because they have the law and lawyers on their money side...

What else? The pleasure-reward system as a is excellent in entertainment, which is a given to all life (Life just go for entertainment, dog, and that's great like that, everybody likes to get their minds "blown up", entertainment has tons of critical uses everywhere in the mind, but the benefits are greatly reduced when ego overloaded "gods" are a source of limitations on others by the means involved around (can be insidious industry embargo on the imagination of people (like mine), thus gaining more morphing power upon the population, Hollywood things like that...), so this is an aspect of the ego-god (s) ideology, that will use it to produce "gods" and open mouthed admirers by the mega tons...

The reward system exists, and is a good thing if used justly and in its place, which is hardly the case in this reality; it is used in to exploit people and the other emphasized parameters are far from being the best ones, like making people feel like beggars to the rich and powerful that are worth everything in exaggeration for their "leadership". And often, the "return" for most people's energy investment will mostly take the form an added placebo effect to the internal ego. It will reward your encouragement with a pseudo-reward in most cases, hype, and even the reward of a trouble free end of life is an illusion in most cases. In many other cases you'll have grown so ignorant from lacking in knowledge and independence, that some profiteer or cheater will find all kinds of ways to steal your economies because you think thing always get better, or that everybody is good and evil people are a rare exception as you go to church.

The actual reward system will twist your life away from true happiness. Besides, the reward system is not sufficient for most to climb the growing pyramids of ego or being part of a "higher" gang. For most people what we have is what I would call a doggy, doggy system where we create an obstacle that profit someone by the energy invested in the jumping, for the dog to go over to get a candy, and this is ok for most people of an ego reality that wouldn't care less anyway, particularly if they have become so empty that most of their life goals turn around the rewards they get for pleasing or imitating, while always staying near the line or survival, or the red line of big troubles. The obstacle can be anything, incredibly complex or even a whole philosophy of life but the dog, however intelligent he is, doesn't care about the obstacle, he wants the candy (or whatever thing he likes), it's a relation master-slave; I have the candy (money) and you'll do what I want to have it, intelligent dog. We are somewhat doing this with human beings, minimizing conscious efforts to create workers slaves who jump everywhere, do the pretty and prostitute themselves to be touched by their "god" with a compliment or to get a reward or entertainment, even just surviving. That's what's forced as a pyramidal system to our "other" mind by this competition to take as much as possible.

But yes you can learn lots of things that way, you could even teach dogs to play team sports with rules and teach them how to invest more of their food to look like a more conscious dog until you pay them millions in luxury while some humans are starving (they already do that to some extent as animals have a amount of potential consciousness about proportional to the capacity of their memory and set of modifiers. In a sense their mind limited itself (like we do by being stuck in a reality serving the best manipulators) by the physical form they took in the wild before we came to exist, but that may be changing with us showing-off, many animals may be currently developing greater mind abilities because of us, but they are still stuck in the form they took to survive the wild, but this form may be changing too, so don't be surprised if beavers start doing strange things. And that applies to us too, we are becoming forever more limited by rejecting anything risky to the permanence of the democracy-capitalism business, until we reject anything that doesn't adapt to it, but if extraterrestrials started showing-off, then we would start questioning our ways, while we had everything to do it from our own people, and it would only worsen our status since we'd take an extraterrestrial example inadequate for us and try to morph it to our ego ways, while the adequate stuff is supposed to come from ourselves, growing our pride.

Imitating and master following (example) should be in a downward curve in relation with learning time, while independence and capacity to express in reality should be in an upping curve with it. It is no better to have independence that can't adapt than to have adaptation that can't act independently. This is true for small things and for a whole lifetime. Those curves are vast and profound, and all life-forms have crossing points everywhere on them, outside the "sweet spot" or the equilibrium point. Along with that, these species that find themselves in the sweet spot need a lot more than just these two things to actually have the power to work reality in stability and equilibrium; we'd be nothing without hands or projection in the future. When you're outside the possibility to work reality at a grand scale, life helping standard, by your ways (planetary life, not only having the ability to save your ass for some time), and escape dust to dust, then you're an "animal" that must help a better species that can help life as a whole, you included, to survive while losing innocence and morphing reality. There is no equivalent species to us in all our knowledge, however far we looked, however hard we listened, that's the official story except for "gods" so...

You become a man, an adult by your fight to be less of an ignoramus. Everybody will tell you all kind of things of what life is about, all exemplary people I'd bet, but the truth is that life is about losing innocence, or gaining knowledge, consciousness, or opening possibilities, and acting upon it to become the best while surviving (competent enough to survive). All the rest are under products of this law of life that cannot be separated. It is the wheel of life. You develop consciousness to lose innocence and become better, you'll modify reality for survival (action), and once that is guaranteed, you'll do it to know more, explore, all that to become better. Life is a total and complete system where birds are like a cell of our skin and the final goal of all this life is not survival, it is the science of survival (existence).

I am not talking about separated individual life here, I'm talking about the big picture, the earth thing, where we are its extrapolation, we carry this fantastic responsibility to all life that exist only for us, we can gain knowledge and understanding and consciousness as much as we want and we can modify reality to permit a maximum of life to survive and this cycle never ends. The more we lose innocence or ignorance and modify reality the more life should grow around us and when all life is surviving as much as it wants, all there is to do is losing innocence and get better etc, etc. there is no end to this until everything have been tried and we end-up so good we are an important part of the universe; we fit within its goals. All life has no use surviving if it stays moronic because it won't survive in the end (dust to dust).

That's why I say "losing innocence" instead of "learning", I see it as more globally and simplified and its implications reach farther while still true. That word is a positive word in its truth, but again, it have been twisted to become useable for evil, for me innocent people are people that need time and the means, I don't use it to qualify somebody negatively unless someone wants to stay innocent of important things on purpose. Losing innocence is advancing in life because you start 100% an innocent, what I fight against is the imposed or exploited or systemized or PMBBD form, that's the circle where you'll meet some of my less nice expressions, I have a problem with people who just cultivate it without a goal that make sense, an adult that's still an innocent is a failure, take your minimal human responsibility, grow-up or get a lesson.

I talk percentages, but it's more like an unlimited thing, you will never have enough of a lifetime losing it, or gaining knowledge, you must choose where and how and to what level of complexity from the moment the unconscious basis permits it, which is there to say who we are, and how we are globally; a human needs it as we don't live 10 000 years, we must have a story for that, a story that is positive for people to believe in, and this story must be the one that makes the most sense, in big part through science, and the only one that makes minimal sense is about life, that's why I say there is only one spirituality.

Next, I believe the whole evolutionary process is based on the capacity of the mind to eliminate logical conflict within itself, and believing as true things that are evidently false stagnates mind development and creates retards (believing in illogical falsehood is very different than enjoying fantasy like Santa-Claus). So, if you believe that good and evil actions exist, then such institutions that stuff masses of people with lies and insanities would very well fit in the evil category, and evil is proportional to those affected, meaning a lie to a single person is no big deal, it weights a gram of evil, but a lie affecting billions of people weights several tons...

We will never stop losing innocence or gain knowledge, we'll always have opportunities to act in reality to reflect it, there is a best order and best situations for that too. And reaching adulthood understanding the world you live in is a positive and necessary thing to form a healthy civilization, the same for parents, and part of the teaching is that you don't create ignorants and innocents with PMBBD to profit from them, and that includes the "weaknesses" of people. The only way to have no weaknesses is to have no innocence or all knowledge, and to be the top at all skills which is impossible, whatever religions believe the contrary, if it was the case, there would be no need for 2 sexes and the universe too.

You help people who got weaknesses or you help them lose innocence (ideally, too much pride or competitive mentality and they may as well stay innocent on purpose, like refusing understanding, or worse...). Good people do that, evil ones profit from or impose these, except for their gang, then again. What you teach must end-up positive to the developing person and humanity and life as a goal. And you stop at specialty or usefulness; you don't force a sex toy specialty to every cute girl, you teach the vision of love that is best to form the healthy civilization then people experiences their thing while just knowing what the ideal is, and they don't have to endorse it either.

Finally, losing innocence must never be seen as an investment or exploitation like we're currently doing, you don't learn with the goal of getting a job or fitting in the system, you learn to attain civilization goals, yes, but to become a complete human being, a forever better one, a good one, because your whole world of materialism, your whole economic system, it is nothing without people, and it is meant for the betterment of people and life.

There are all kind of basic things to learn, enough to fill a brain 10 times over before 18 years, mind stuffing is very important but all kind of other activities too. Everybody will end-up behind the wheel in its life, then get the class in a field and get everybody behind the wheel for half an hour, not that they'll forever be good at it, but to develop mind and body versatility of learning capacity. Many physical activities are more fun and more useful than learning nationalism by heart, yes learning things sitting is extremely important, and sports too, but it's still better to expand diversity because the best ability is adaptability, or ability to learn or to change. What's wrong with learning serious wood activities, like hunting, fishing and trapping in youth? Or learning to grow plants (not in a lab)? Even if only a few will end up doing it, it forms the hands and the mind, it is fun, and young people are the ones to need this movement diversity the most. There is not only professional sports that are good to learn, all kind of things are good as a basis, but the absolute worst thing to learn is bullshit, which stalls the mind in conflicts.

These a more physical aspect that can develop other leadership attributes too, and that's in part how you can transmit knowledge or loss of innocence to others, all in an optic of trying not to negatively affect their life (the exception here is fight fire). If someone request knowledge as independent, then, after passing through consciousness and judgment (thinking if it's worth it), we can, even must, transmit it. But that's very relative, particularly to age, and I said independent (not manipulated), meaning that the worst use or way of losing innocence is for profiting, but you can't think about such an ideal in this reality as it forces people to mainly think of profit as a survival tool.

Now you know one more reason why I don't like this reality, just think of all the people that profited from your innocence, of all the people that do it one way or another, and think of how it works on the pyramids of ego, where we are so low innocence is not enough; we must indebt people not born to our great system. I'll forever hate living in a reality where publicist manipulators are after young people to grow their profits, where I have to grow my ego on the back of my own children, dying sure in my proud godly self-importance that future generations will "love" me and the work I've done on the pyramid enough to pay my infinite debt, or that they'll develop technologies to clean my mess. It is not only a proposition I will never accept; it is a suicidal deception and as long as it will exist I'll fight it. Any form of pedophilia sicknesses are to be eliminated, profiting from innocence monetarily or psychologically is no better than doing it physically, now ask yourself why there is so much around...and why more and more people end-up dumping their education for the internet.

People are forever being had, everywhere in this reality, no exception, and most know it, and they know they pay for their lacks, so everybody work hard the competition between their ignorance and their know it all attitude, worsening everything. But the truth is that nobody is supposed to profit from innocence, and you're not supposed to pay for your innocence, those who profit from innocence or make you pay for it are evil, good people try to make others understand things better while being fair with them. At the point where things are presently, almost everybody is embarked in the innocence game, one do the innocent when it fit, or try to make the other feel bad for his innocence, or justifying their unfairness on the innocence of others, everybody got a serpent tongue now, but at least we will become good at beating lie detectors and lie spotters, and nothing wrong with that at least, we got to make these things the liars since a truth is not a majority, and that applies to democracy...

I hope you psy got the brains to understand that, use your influence or means only when someone can't endure reality, not as a painkiller, or take your responsibility and fight what the reality do to the mind of people. There are always exceptions (did I already said that?) but they are rare, so stuff your anti-depressives and Ritalin somewhere in yourself if you "love" them so much, maximum dependences is a very poor replacement for happiness and it can be compared to forced innocence.

Breaking the mind with happy pills or painkillers or whatever mean so someone can be functional in a reality is manipulation and forced enslavement, destruction of certain skills in favor of others, it is selection and homogenization in the most disgusting form, it is removing a positive attribute from those who can live free of such manipulations. If they can't tough the reality and grow from "normal" obstacles, either the reality made them inappropriate, or the reality is inadequate for them, and the minimum is that we must be able to permit the best individuals or the most sane to thrive, which is absolutely not the case here, exactly the contrary, and if things don't change while many people are having troubles coping, then they must fight the system as a whole.

And you know what judgment is, and you know I walk the middle line, so don't come at me saying I'm against medicine or psy. If you positively know that there is a problem in a patient (not outside him) then go ahead, jump in your bottles of pills and make funny colorful candy cocktails if necessary, but if they need someone to talk to, then listen with your ears and stop watching the clock to calculate time and money, and be careful what you say, unless some PMBBD spills out! And yes I have resentment against the psychological expertise of this reality, I'm full resentment, so no rebuking. A lot of the chemicals medications you and your pharmacist friend prescribe are worse drugs than a lot of what is sold in the streets too, just adding, because a lot of your pharmaphelia should be illegal, but it is not because it fills the pockets of some profiteer at its top.

Most steady drug use comes from a sustained intolerable situation in the reality, and that includes alcohol, but for this reality, the younger you get on the alcohol, drug or sex market, the better. Don't ask yourself why at 15 many adolescents are already on such markets; they are encouraged by the reality that is a hydra with 10 heads; when you say drugs are illegal and children have access to it at school, then it is not only legal, but it is encouraged since nobody is ignorant that young people are more innocent, besides, we are at a totally ridiculous point where children have easier access to it than adults. The official story is, as always, PMBBD. The truth is that it's a profitability market with a different set of limitations and rules like any other markets and it is almost impossible to eliminate a market in this reality because the economy would suffer.

And scandalized moms and pops who work very hard for this reality they "love" so much and are so blind they think evil is rare will only strengthen the problem. Anyway, it's a critically necessary part of a whole, it's a reality implemented mentality, and what's the use of argumentation when you can't say anything anymore without insulting this group or that awaiting public excuses for visibility, then get tagged as moralist party breaker by the rest? What are our priorities? When argumentation becomes impossible, or submerged in bitching, you can't give birth to better views, you are stuck continually battling or waiting, and you'll develop a tendency to take the seat of a sect or religion, where the ego-gods ideal, with its gurus or preachers, gives place to the true negative form of moralization, the one that destroyed the good in it. Moral laws are critically good to humans, they are necessary, the ones that made something negative out of this necessary human source of pride are profiteers, like religions, television PMBBD full of crappy experts, sects, pub, porn industry, singers, all those and many more work very hard to devoid people of moral standings while teaching them the way to go, they do it all differently through PMBBD on masses, but the end result is the same; more people see good moral values as a negative thing, some to the point of not caring about anything, while insidious evil is forever more seen as good. Now, am I moralist because I want to say why I don't like some attitudes?

Learning is more limited to what's already believed to be the truth, that can be PMBBD, while gaining knowledge, or losing innocence, can be seen versus the truth of all possibilities while being more directly related to the human and its consciousness; an animal whatever it is intelligent and always learn, got a fantastic, unbelievable quantity of losing of innocence to do to come to the level of what we consciously know; technology has become boring, we need sound effects, we don't even care how things work, they do, someone knows, and it's true and it's good like that, and we can always learn. We'll slowly discover interstellar travel can be possible, poor animals they got work to do. That applies to reality lobotomized and reproduced people too; there are people who reproduced so limitedly that they simply can't grab at fundamental logical concepts and principles, mindless zombies being manipulated left and right by politicians and singers, and don't you ever push their skin a little, they think they're independent so twisted every principles have become, and they play Tarzan with principles and values, temporary thing they grab at for profiting in the name of liberty, but they wouldn't stand to their truth for sure, like liberty.

Another reason why I prefer to see things as a manner of gaining knowledge and losing innocence is that it opens the mind, and I don't mean open in a sex way for those that have their eyes round around innocence. You should start to know that words must be used in their best manner, like liberty, love etc, but since evil twisted every good word for profiting, I must act like humanity is a susceptible child; sorry, you're an ado when you begin to control your ego, you're not at that point yet. Humanity is just in a mindless competition to steal other people's things, be it mind, body, objects, resources, life energy; everything is stolen directly or indirectly through planetary wide competition and systemized unfairness.

Imposing things to people is like losing innocence through learning, and whatever your best "destiny" path is somewhat set unconsciously by your mind around 10 years old, you can still learn evil or good, or be imposed to it if you aint got the nice path avaliable and the strength of will. At around 10 the unconscious (our "other" mind) is developing a "guess" of some emphasis of development of properties when you do nothing, from sensing the "truth" and "lies" of reality, of parenthood too, life senses are exacerbated at that moment, and television gives its strongest effect. It is reality and parenthood that give the most effect at steering the new being in a wanted direction around that age, and profiting form that to stuff them with all kind of PMBBD and stupidities starts a lot of people in mediocrity. Furthermore, even if adults learned to show their best facet, they often force the best youth to unfair difficulties or incapacitated judgment, condemning them to have a very hard time finding happiness and feeling worthy, so most just come to weight more evil than good and transmit their worst to other innocents like they were, to make thing irreversible.

Profiting from innocence is evil, how about that? And in a lot of instances it is so twisted almost nobody notices, you'll even believe the contrary. PMBBD on masses is the most powerful way to profit from innocence. And don't laugh, this is a fundamental pillar of this reality, and we may really eventually have to wage war to people who profit from innocence just to survive all the hidden evil behinds spread in every little crack of the planet, suffocating it to death. This attitude tortured to slow, soul rotting death, billions of people from the beginning while the next in line laughed about it or ignored, or accepted or tolerated or pardoned it. We had trillions of opportunities to change things, but the system is made for profiteers to thrive select and kill until the whole humanity is good for the dump. I may be alone but I won't die doing nothing and leaving the planet either to manipulators or to the manipulated.

The other side of the medal is that if you see entropy as what define the bad you have to fight against, then entropy is evil. And so, contrary to popular belief, and logically, innocents are not nice cute little people, it's all a deception, they're more like super evil, because total innocence is akin to nothingness, and so the best such a total innocent can hope to be rewarded with is oblivion, since he would totally lack any form of intelligence or system, which entropy strives to accomplish. Evidently, that's not the sole factor to take into consideration and you must inverse the process too, meaning that life starts from "nothingness", try to do things as long as there is potential, then degenerates, and so it's a question of expanding potential, so total innocence for life at its beginning (birth) is akin to maximal potential, so the principle, if we don't take the balance of good and evil into consideration, is that you're better alive than dead, as a simple survival factor, beyond that, you gain both good and evil values that are proportional to people (life) affected, so who cares if you do evil with yourself, as a god I mean...

One thing's for sure, you won't go very far if you love innocence and seek to preserve it and perpetuate it, you can still defend the innocent though, it's supposed to be a matter of potential, but a nice chivalry effect will do. That's the thing, because we all instinctively know that to grow or develop we must gain knowledge, lose innocence mentally (mentally, not physically, physically to get the mental result, the more you lose innocence mentally, the more you develop your mind abilities and work reality, and that's contrary to what this reality is trying to accomplish by its manipulative autosuggestions for more sex that innocence is a sex thing and is lost physically, physical is always involved one way or the other, but the first thing to try is mental, except for morons, and keep it that way if more physical doesn't satisfy the mental, trying to adapt to a reality that you don't like instead of trying to change it to make it better (in your mind, not the one of others) is weak.

The other thing is that innocence lose much meaning for a civilized people, I mean, civilized enough for love, because at some point sufficient knowledge and base of understanding exists, so it's either the person that refuses it, or the reality scrapped the will of the person to do it (should happen in youth, these things are harder to get in as you advance in life and set your path). I could develop my soul in a life caring way even if I started in more troubles than most, so innocence is not an argument anymore, a wrong mentality is, and if humanity is handicapped intellectually, then embrace your end, it's better than becoming slave to evil.

Jesus pardoned innocents because he thought they'd get out of it, ok? But I'm not Jesus, and the people are deeper in it, and there are far more problems at a far more complex epoch than for Jesus, and you can't sum-up your philosophy about innocence that fast, I'm 10 pages into the subject so make an effort! The reason for pardoning innocence is to end the innocence situation, so your Jesus in fact gave you an ultimatum, because you can't pardon the same mistake over and over again without losing credibility or leadership. So you can see your Jesus as a warning, the end of innocence, he pardoned the innocents, but what do you pardon in the first place? A SIN so your Jesus saw innocence as a sin that was worth pardoning in his time. Today things are different, maybe I can have a weakness for those who make adequate efforts to understand the world they live in, but presently people don't have much valid justification for being a bunch of morons, except being a kid (harsh upbringing? slavery? Illiteracy? A 3 days walk? Lack of time? But you have time aplenty to work, fuck, watch TV...), and the problem here is that those ego innocents are a big load of problems for life (think of all what you cost to the earth, including the sanity of others (intelligence), everybody is an investment to life, but that has not the same meaning as everybody is an investment for profiteers...) for not much good, so much in fact that species go extinct all around them and they care so much they see entertainment as a priority and throw a party, they always throw a party. Losers do what they will, me I'll be on the side of life to the end, even if no argument can work to make people take their most fundamental responsibility, the thriving of life and its battle with entropy (no, nothing to do with making a baby...).

The other difference with Jesus time is that people know far more wrongs, people know wrong all over the place, but they continue for the sake of feeling like they're doing something, they don't fight evil at all no more because there's a risk and it's none of their business, and they could misinterpret something or pass for fools or it's too much troubles and paperwork and bureaucracy. Or is it that they never sufficiently cared to define it logically by themselves? Didn't have time? They've been incapacitated from doing it? They never truly believed because it all start at life, what is everywhere around them, they immediately embarked in a god competition with incompetence from their power over what is evident from life. The problem for the innocent is that he can become a drag, high consciousness life knows that each sun is a new chance for life, that there are many who have the ability to succeed, and it hurts, it hurts to see this potential dwindling, in my home that is this earth, because I know humans have everything to succeed, and then some.

So your innocence is not all the fault of fate, you always knew you could manipulate others, from 10 years old, and as adults you knew you were being manipulated by media people, pub, governments, religion, you embarked in the competition of manipulation, I debarked, there's the difference, you try to enjoy the reality as a part of it, find your place, make it stronger, its negative quirks are acceptable to you, me it's the contrary. So now you are sufficiently manipulative to suppose that by saying the magic word "innocence" we suddenly, although we have dilaterally opposed attitudes and effects on reality, we should be seen as the same? You can do anything and in the name of innocence, be erased of it all, and laugh at me? That's why I tend to say "ego innocence"; because we lose innocence for totally different reasons. In my world there is no ego innocence, the pardon and innocence stuff your bosses invented was just meant for you to not feel bad for defending, encouraging, doing or being evil.

What I know is that innocence is kind of the biggest loser argument ever invented, the most exploited justification for most of the evil of this world. Ego innocence goes hand in hand with evil is what I say (easy to manipulate with graphic effects, confound intelligence with words manipulation skills, high bullshit reinforcement potential, unconscious bottleneck from conflicting bullshit, escape through family creation and pride gained from becoming a reflection and defender of political-nationalism ideals, willful enslavement from misplaced pride, contorted good vs evil view to defend egotistical investment. I hope that's enough to make you understand that innocence is no argument with me, because in the face of a failing humanity, then innocence will become the ultimate argument for more suffering.

The lazy default path of survival is just deal with the environment (use your brain for extreme stress and the ensuing extreme needs of rest), and copy parenthood for experience, so profound conscious understanding is very limited, and so the ego ideological association make it so it's very hard to get out of this pattern, the easier path of learning from copying and making mistakes, as an extreme, (people who learn nothing from books will tend to end-up on the evil side of things at the point life is evolved presently) and at the other end of the ideological balance, you got a maximum of people who will take a harder more conscious path of learning, with greater and more profound understanding, which, in ideal theory, should permit them to develop better technology and better capacity to look in the future, bringing better survival capacity, or better people altogether.

Furthermore, nobody likes to feel he's been wrong all his life, particularly when the affirmation is totally not on TV or internet! They could fall in denial from being scared of someone with no cultural brainwash attacking and invalidating whole slabs of their good philosophy of life...So they hold themselves together, you know the phenomenon, when people suddenly make a 666 fixation and become saints to associate against the antichrist... Some may feel like knowledgeable innocents because they unconsciously know I'm mostly right and they're not supposed to act innocent about what I say at their age. They may try to justify themselves and try to dehumanize me at the same time by saying "I'm just human", or worse, try to infantilize me by saying "grow-up", like that farmer that told me to get my shit together...

Still, I can say I'm too hard with people who work hard all their life while believing they do good, it's a big part due to good intents, where innocence is understandable, just try not to be had, it's super important, but at the other extreme, just don't try to take it all, or to fool (cheat) everybody if you prefer. Oh, and just don't forget, the other basic drive that remains true under a lot of my revolt too, the one I just explained that do justifies a lot of innocence since life is slow, and we're still just beyond the chimp, so you don't reject the will to act just like that, and you absolutely don't want people wasting half their life writing like me; people who act and build things with great efficiency giving their time to do things well are a treasure to cherish, those are all the active good willed people, from the janitor, to experts, specialists, scientists, doing things with good intents, not for infinite profits.

That's the nice part, because the not nice is that you're not supposed to piss-off people like me and do everything to make me angry or live in the worst environment you can manage in your shit together philosophy, while lacking so much judgment that you call me pretentious and ignorant eh? I heard it a few times (both seems to come not far from each other in the mouth of the accusator, like pretentious people are necessarily ignorant...Maybe, but feeling pretentious is not much of a matter with me, I do get angry and want to autoritize people a little or go overboard, but pretention to me is more in the stuff I advance or in my opinions, but that would make me an absolutely pretentious asshole, which is supposed to be hard on my humility aspect, but good on my self-inflated boasting aspect. But it's different if you end-up jealous or frustrated from my visions on things that developed from not much social or books, maybe you're in denial, a true ignorant that is pushed by system bullshit to completely confound evident knowledge, even wisdom, with ignorance, quite a confusion, am I an ignorant? Self-inflated so superior to superman that introspection is impossible, ignorance can only be others, even when you know that you are wrong others are still wrong.

Everybody deals its innocence, an eternity is not enough to lose it all, that's why people need a simpler basis of life where they are not manipulated or exploited by other factions that have lost much innocence in "profiting from others" areas. That way people can choose the complexity avenues they want, and if they want to stay innocent in other facets, nobody will make their life a hell of contortions to profit from it, creating unnecessary exploitation and pollution, mind twisting and sicknesses, with an assortment of displaced bad feelings. Such a basis is there for fundamental fairness, for everybody to have a chance with all the tools created by our ancestors, knowledge, comfort, and some aspects of entertainment, to say how civilization sees good goals, and the minimum attitude you must take to be part of it, and decide with it.

I believe the potential to make a good reality is still great, even if most truly good things and actions have been manipulated and frustrated to lose most of their positive value or properties. Pity, compassion, understanding and more, I'm not stupid enough to believe these are infinite or made only to be used personally as band aids. These have been taken from me, twisted, thrown in the lake with laughing contempt to run down people like me over and out, and this book is my last stand.

Apart working hard there is the baby making industry that I removed from "I'm good" argument, but I know it's a big challenge, particularly in this reality, and it's the ultimate success of love to do it in happiness, where you can end-up justified to boast proudly, I want a baby too. Concerning the innocence aspect, I know most parents got a normal protecting attitude with innocence, but there's a lot of love innocence a bit too much is what I say too, I don't know, maybe it's because they feel kids justify their own failings, they compare themselves to their kids and feel better, they want to "preserve their innocence", they see babies and they all go soft, because they are so innocent and "cute". Personally, it's adults first, babies last, unless you're dependent from a baby to feel good, which I can understand to some extent, assholes like me are last, too. I'm not talking about the human connection here, I'm talking about value. Maybe it's just me, but I find adults far more interesting than babies or kids, I can judge and sentence adults, babies less so, but it's just me...Joke apart, you make children so they lose their innocence to grow big and adult, independent, not better than you, not the same, not worse.

When high consciousness is added to a good working mind and willpower, you can get lots of power. You can wield it to gain a position on a pyramid and that's what a vast majority of people do; they use it to grow their ego, but you can use it to transform anything, even an ego pyramid itself and the power is directly proportional to your willpower, your consciousness and your associated skills.

The more you live from optimised truths (instinct, unconsciously), the less energy your mind uses and the more is available for any other tasks or predetermined mental tasks (consciousness potential increases), if there is a pressure to expand exploration avenues (possibilities, potential), without any work it's degeneration back to primordial squirrel intelligence (not big, but I'm being pejorative against squirrels, there's bird brains genre that's been popularized in the past too, so who's pejorative here? I have chosen squirrel because I doubt it will spread...but you never know, some actually react quite well to autosuggestion, I don't think that's how magic is supposed to work, but well...). And that applies to the depth of the non-conflicting state or the level of adaptation to reality, meaning that a person can go through phases where she will need less sleep, but that depend on the body rest need levels too, so someone that strain his body or mind more steadily will need more sleep, but in my experience it's all a matter of lifestyle, a relax lifestyle will allow for a longer recuperation line, in theory devoid of other stress factors. The energy flow in the body is greatly variable from an instant to the next, and it is almost impossible to feed perfectly; there are advantages and disadvantages to almost any feeding solutions. The exception here is an unfit unintelligent being that either eat too much or not enough. Almost all what is done without investment of mental energy trains almost no skill; it's the formula for external brainwash, it profits from the normal "laziness" of the mind to stuff all kind of things in the memory. The less mentally lazy you are, or the more efforts you make to judge, control, care, play, understand with what is entering your memory, the more you spend energy to get things right, the more you develop and train your consciousness.

Living totally unconsciously is for plants. Insects can have little consciousness aspects and animals got some more but it is mostly used like a "simple" program of competition using recyclable materials (isn't that perfect, all the animal kingdom costs nothing to the planet, (they make it better in fact), contrarily to us who are going to cost everything, even life the way we're going, aren't we animals? (for those Darwinian people who think we are animals, or scientists who compare people to animals, rats...me? It seems everything I'm a continuation of life allright, but I do all kind of things I can only wish (or not) to animals. Atheists like very much to see people as animals too, it fit their limited minds I guess, as they insult people about religions, just on the verge of grabbing the antichrist motto when they meet me, and I have to prove something to those people?)) to reproduce until there is no way to do it anymore for whatever reasons like overwhelming of space, self-limitations, destruction of food chain, reaching of equilibrium in an ecosystem, climatic or environmental changes bought by the terra-forming (modified environment) from themselves or other species etc. As they are, and have been for millions of years, animal will need quite a few more planets to massively reach our general consciousness level capabilities, you got quite a few turkeys out there... (no bad pun intended). While they can have flashes or bouts of realizations, consciousness, that make them use the same process of applying high consciousness (special mind effort) to redefine their reality. For the rest, since they may instinctively have come to the conclusion that's part of your job as you eat everything, I think they'll better enjoy a position where they can hang around watching, sniffing and kicking the stuff you make, which includes yourself. It's a nice and natural job that even viruses and microbes enjoy (testing and kicking and crunching at your body). They know they're a part of a whole too, they don't need to take LSD to find-out that everything is connected, they may even laugh at your self-importance you know, what can you so with legs instead of hands, what is this travesty? I'll do what I can man, but don't ask too much, and if you're so superior just give me hands, or are you god and you removed them? Just tell me what I did wrong then, for now I'll obey as much as I can. They say that, as you eat them, use them and do the condescending, no, but maybe some do have these kind of weird opinions, they do have an opinion, at least that this food is better than that other one, so the thing works, a little... That's more for domesticated animals who lost their wild connection, or vision, in our presence they may have weird thinking we don't see because they wouldn't dare go crazy with it in the name of survival from witnessing what traits we better like and taking the attitude. In the wild it's another matter, I would guess they just do their thing as usual, as a critical part of an ecosystem, using their senses to sniff and kick around, keeping and growing their presence as their kind of responsibility. Still in the end, without the potential to have fully working consciousness on a planet there is no use for animals except to terra-form until someone becomes capable, me, so carry on, go do some terraforming while I prepare my debarkment, I mean, we're talking species, ah, sorry...

Some people will be happy to think they can do anything to (or with, for libertine people), animals which is absolutely not the case. The minimum is that you understand it is an exchange; they make the planet alive for us, they work for us, they feed us, they give us joy, whatever, in exchange we develop our consciousness, reach life goals, we care for them, we help them when we can, we never torture them, kill them for sports, use them for sexual insanities, or to create dresses if we can do otherwise. Don't be an asshole with animals as they are no more renewable than you. It is a consciousness thing and that's a difference between us and animals (more on that later). If you don't have enough understanding and care to grow it you'll kill without valid justifications. All in all, all life to date on this planet existed for us, and it is a net that must be held as strongly as love, it is part of us and we must see it as such, we are the high consciousness part of it.

As for the way life systems came to "understand" the value of high consciousness, it happened when many animals had a freak-out about something (can be a big envious and comfort vision freak-out), it became repetitively important in their mind and it got transmitted through reproduction until capacity for understanding became better (even birds may sleep watching the stars a little in family, having a kind of emotion, some, probably not chickens, which were surely not selected to develop such attributes). Yes the mind-emotional effect of always seeing stars or a moon, or other lifeforms, then fantasizing about it or reaching it, can drive genetic modifications, and it doesn't need to be a big animal brain, it could have been a bird or a combination of senses, like insect migrations, anything. Sun equal stars equal planets which are things hanging around like the moon, or something like that. Knowing how our consciousness is limited by reality and our "other" mind (our mind if you prefer), then a mind can exist as very intelligent without the consciousness capacity to do something about it or to notice, but this intelligence, your "other" mind (your mind without its consciousness aspect (invention), independence and individuality, sense, movement), is deducting and thinking about stuff, and they may even have super realist dreams flabbergasting them in wisdom by being free from bullshit and languages, and when they wake up they're back to not understanding nothing and acting stupid, but they remember some dream stuff so they're special. Then it's a matter of the life wheel process to carry the knowledge from one species to the other as a genetic option, which, may be implanted by different strategies, btw, because life is not limited to a single ancestry chain in its interactions, so genetic jump around in all kind of ways, and when you know you are dealing with an ocean that gave birth to life, which is still unknown territory a lot, and contain billion years intelligent animals and things like whales, then what is consciously known versus what is not? There may be vast unconscious intelligences (could be driving some mammals around, mammals...) that actually produce genetics far more directly, and they could even know in advance the many optional paths of our development, and what to do to influence these; that much. Once this kind of intelligence took sufficient form it may even have set a necessary path of survival for life, influencing it all the way to our eventual existence, always gaining knowledge from the wheel of life going on, its tool of evolution, continuing its work to the point of gaining far more psychological expertise than the most high flying psy super hero, all as a pool of genetic options transmitted through reproduction and other ways. Even the ego-god (s) ideology path may have been predicted and used as a psychological consciousness development tool, but the bad side of it is that there's always a risk, things can quickly get out of hands with full consciousness independence, and you wouldn't want to kill such an intelligence in your god trip over life, or with your disrespect of it, because maybe you could be kind of interdependent, survivally speaking...

You could see the phenomenon in the same way we fear and distort things consciously, so if you have a vast intelligence capacity on full consciousness in a very limited environment could go far crazier than a human at its worst, like being devoid of senses on full consciousness (don't forget neurons may work in very different environment than your brain, lands, windy air, or water, they may live and logically cumulate anywhere there is a possibility which is pretty much anywhere that can keep an organic life system functioning, animal form is one option; the move and sense and grab option, and it does the work with the wheel of life, but you could have underground or underwater pockets of safe environments with special life where intelligence grows but doesn't move much, while staying connected in all kind of ways with all life, you never know.)

So in a sense, consciousness intelligence is limited by an intelligence that's well in the dark (like in the spiritual dimension) because it has no consciousness of itself (on earth, it's the other way around out there...), and you could see the whole life and consciousness and sense manoeuver as a way for this intelligence to gain awareness on earth, where it ends-up afraid of the dark (as aware)), and make you move your ass changing stuff to attain logical evolution, like enough knowledge and consciousness to work at all levels of matter and become more competent with physical existence.

To recapitulate, a big part of consciousness (life) is meant to modify reality for intelligence to better survive. You can do anything with consciousness, but it's super dangerous since to increase it you got to kind of lower the fear factor, in part. You have this intelligence thing that is a continually developing capacity being faced with reality and putting barriers to consciousness where you (it) seems to lose it and die or cause death, which takes genetic form as a reflection of reality too... In part, the main other gigantic part is managing all what's necessary to be systemized (including modifiers, a bit like quantum computers) for minimally competent automatic existence (the whole history of evolution that gave this result, or if you prefer, creating your working body which is the equivalent of your consciousness under physical form).

Another limitation is what you reject that still should logically exist, a big part of our consciousness is limited this way, a kind of ignorance we are half responsible as a wheel of wrong consciousness development that can take whole societal form, all the way for whole civilizations to enter in conflict with both individual minds and the global intelligence, but our "other" mind does know what we refuse to acknowledge...So forcing wrong view or incomplete philosophy when it conflicts or is illogic is the worse attitude to take, have some humility (face yourself), and yes, take some energy to clean-up your mess, don't worsen it; don't leave what you're not proud of to others, ideally (it kind of applies to me, repairing the mess of this life mind that I made a show of...), because even if you do all these steps, and add some reinforcement, it's still not easy to really change, but what you're fighting for is your most precious possession...

And that applies to the whole life systematization to carry intelligence, the process of opening to the new possibilities of a bluntly impose new environment will be a long process. For now this environment arose from getting out of the woods to experience full asphalt and concrete, and the time slab difference is very large here, we're talking the whole history of life on earth in the woods, versus a few thousands of years of cities, it is our intelligence with all its consciousness developed in the woods, trying to make itself more comfortable while gaining knowledge.

So this reality is like an ongoing botched experiment from surviving along trying to gain knowledge and expertise to make reality last longer as a continuation, but at some point where tech and knowledge become very hard to make advance you have to recapitulate, your reasons for existence for a start, your priorities, everything, you must use all what you gained to make a far better environment for what? Your intelligence! To make itself a better environment to go even farther in knowledge, and to develop its priorities in far more efficiency, and this intelligence include the global intelligence, all life, we must arrange our things so wild life is as well served as ourselves.

Evidently, the weird thing is the guy feeling like he's the only one understanding these things, or is it that I'm like the starter of it all? So I tell you, if you can switch to a reality that makes this intelligence shine in security, then the sky won't be the limit anymore...

Finally, another big function is exploring the possibilities of living and reality interrelations, creating new possibilities, reproducing these, and trying to be proud of the personality that's developing in reality, getting the admiration of your peers, adding a positive touch to this great creation that befell in your possession, with all its qualities and flaws...

So your mind must be made proud of being independent, getting away from mama, and it must be carried around to do it (run away from mama), while keeping it protected (from incoming ballistics), with the invention of pain and fear so you don't throw your body to the precipice ahead, terminate your intelligence, and fail its future grand plans. That's in part why fear exists, and pain, but running away from potential or opportunities because it hurts automatically creates a limitation of intelligence too, which is unacceptable, so let's limit some consciousness aspects instead, so that you can take things slow and not verse in insanities, learn to act adequately with your mind as you grow-up, so you can manage the risk and fear to continue exploration and develop new possibilities, which means that consciousness should be somewhat proportional to age, with bonus effects gained from understanding stuff, which comes naturally as you adapt to reality.

The bravest people are the ones who are the most consciously intelligent generally, because it would reflect a capacity to expose your humanity, face your fears, your weaknesses, to not be scared of the truth (not protect people from the truth or keep them ignorant of the ugly), candidly, falling into more bad luck if necessary. And I tell you, people have been hard with me, and I took it bravely, and that's in part why I'm like that today, and against this media infused paranoia they're making of sparing susceptibilities until there is no way to say blunt facts and the whole reality verse in shameful absurdity, like you got a front page about someone that got a hate speech, but the 500 animals of a rare species dead is nowhere in the news... Media institution bosses should all be incarcerated for crimes against all life and humanity by their twisted bias and manipulations, that's my opinion.

As for flabbergasted scientists growing neurons in buckets, evidently, that stuff amounts to nothing; it's not a matter of a pile of neurons that will grow your scientist brain, it's a matter of a systematically self-functioning living and interacting all interdependent system, but maybe you could use buckets of neurons, the 90% garbage part of your brain you calculated was useless (is it brains or DNA? I never remember...) but that was old mythology. But maybe you could connect wires and pipes to store data or make a super data crunching something, but then, concerning these aspects, you're as well with micro technology or quantum computing, but yes, maybe you could make a super kind of mix-up connected to the net and a big presidential brain memory stripped of consciousness for really weird experiments that would all end badly, if you really want to look for troubles you can get them aplenty, there's a lot of problems out there, and you'll need a lot of big planets to get over all the possible problems you can manage to develop, so prioritize your things, problematically speaking...

Animals may be very far from our consciousness level or abilities, but they dream with us of space, of comfort, of time, how is life on the moon, such things affect animals more than in an evident scientific way. The universe have no use without life and we have no use without it either, we are one life-form among trillions all related to us and we must keep this relation even if our total makes us infinitively different and yes superior to all life-forms we know, even if our total makes us independent individuals while life is mostly interdependent, making us truly the most worthy specie and the last one that must die if the situation happens. Yet the absolute worst crime we can do is to live as uncaring assholes and create that situation. We can kill animals and eat them, that's how life works, to live you have to eat life, but causing them sufferings is a crime; they may not have the body, but there is nothing to tell if they don't have the capacity to understand many things, even if it is very far from what is needed to be a fully capable species, as some can't even reach that as humans, and not because they can't, because of profiteers and users of PMBBD.

Under that optic I will add, even if I shouldn't, that if animals in heavy sufferings are better dead, then it's no better not to fulfill the wish of an human that passes his time in heavy sufferings to end his if he repeatedly express it through time. This is because people are supposed to be independent, so it should be their decision if they have enough suffering, I know it goes against the common wisdom of this reality that thinks people should tolerate any suffering or they go to hell, as a bottom line selection strategy (the pressure to work whatever the job, do anything for money (robotic workforce (can have human hysteria buttons to fool humans, just so they don't pass the tuning test, because it's the difference between being on the economy or not, probably humans will debark from this inhumane economy anyways, leave it to the robotic selection...), prostitution will do, since there is no jobs, they say, job creators, so go ahead sell your soul to the devil, prove you can work hard for him, find yourself a cozy place where you can serve, and maybe someday it's gonna be you on the throne...). Yes, I make the affirmation that people should kill themselves if the reality is hell to them, that should make the psychopaths in power reconsider their view of human worth, but I'm just saying things, it's too late anyways, people, 9 billions of them have sold their soul, prove me otherwise... (It may be a personal matter, you must go very low to eliminate survival as a valid concept about your life (fuck survival), but as a humanity it's definitively not a question of survival at that population, it's a counter argument in fact.)

I was saying that if dying can be a conscious decision, then let it be, as long as the person is not manipulated, and misery or suffering dying is not nice, and particularly heart wrenching for empathic people, so arrange your things to end their misery (no military guy in me talking here, it's just mercy, whatever you do it as a system where it doesn't happen, or end-up submerged in the problem until a benign virus decimates your stashes of old people on heart pills and oxygen.). Nobody have the right to remove this most fundamental liberty, if the reality is crap enough a lot of people make a depression or want to suicide or continually escape it, then change the reality! For those who want to die and are in an impossibility to do it themselves, too old or too sick, then we must do it, and no bad feelings there, cross sign and good-bye...(not that fast and efficient, but I mean, if you cared about that person, then you should be around showing it, not a nurse.) I know this can't be made well in this reality, as many people could profit from the occasion to assassinate everywhere around, but in another reality which is not based on profiting competition, things would come to it naturally, but today an old person in a bed is seen as an open mouthed suffering container for pharmaceutical industries to make a profit, while lobbying it around, someday we'll have to evolve and look at reality; pharmaceuticals can keep many people as walking zombies or vegetables alive for 10 years, even make some, stuffing them with expensive cocktails of painkillers and pills to the end of time because their pupil still dilates, like there's always a chance they'll suddenly raise from the dead for a jog. Ah, don't die, the Christ may pass by and heal you, or the pope may make a prayer. And you know I don't mean to systematically kill the old like industrials (tobacco industrials), I mean people are supposed to die someday, and they must not be kept alive eternally at all cost, particularly for profits.

To get out of the limitations of matter life must have a tool; self-created access lines to memory and other brain functions; consciousness. There are direct lines and indirect ones, there is direct access and influential access and there is a limit to the quantity you can have. Unless too limited interests, the brain will extend it usefulness capacity over time, it is a function that permits the deep unconscious to create a functional living being. Consciousness is the act of controlling and modifying this process through understanding (harmonious ideally) and reality morphing, creating rearrangement of access lines from the ones that are already there and from our limited access to modifiers and memory.

To visualize this, let's say that once your brain has reached a big percentage of its variable limit of useful lines, it will start a process of never ending destruction and rebuilding of many moving war zones (in a moving memory way), forever struggling and competing for development of the same logic that can't satisfy all options. Probably a severe limit must exist there, conflicting thought can exist, but they both need their reality, their own mind that fit it all, the limitation may be exactly related to the necessity of sleeping, our mind battleground needs some medics and the ones that advanced their positions need to reinforce for the next round (can be related to dreams). Anyway, the goal is to "settle" conflicting thoughts or to implement new or better ideas. You've been doing the act of learning without you controlling it (unconsciously) with a lowering intensity from birth. With time you built a complex but incomplete or conflicting 3D web of lines; then, by simple interest of watching your favorite soap, you will continue improving the web, even if the new data means nothing to you. You may think the bullshit is discarded, but it is not, you will record the whole soap, through your modifiers, in all its little details and it will just repose in, or replace, not accessed space in your memory and you'll unconsciously continue modifying your web if it finds new information that will fit the globality of it better. External pressure is a big factor in helping a side, and with lots of time you will become an imperfect and incomplete reflection of what you see and hear with displacement effect and twists from other things and attitudes, and you can add a personally chosen batch of details so you feel individual, or dwelling in liberty, since you need harmony with as much stuff as possible, but you could twist your liberty notions to better accept a conflicting view. However, in the globality of your actions, you will follow the suggested trend and you'll grow standard with some details, probably evil, not conflicting the view of diversity you better accept. That is external brainwash 101 for ego reality.

The strength of this brainwash that starts as a baby, that will increase as you grow-up, is directly proportional to the many lines that have been created to permit you to act upon the information imprinting your memory, to the complexity and profundity of it before you hit conflict zones, and to the time and repetition invested. When someone knows the paroles of a song or a pub or a religion or whatever, by heart, it won't take years before you start seeing little modifications to his attitude, if they are not in conflict with the global brainwash. It is the same thing for repetitive sexual or violent acts he sees; he won't become a killer but he may have more or more intense violent reactions particularly if he is under the effect of a de-inhibitor, or extremes actions won't trigger an adequate reaction anymore. Then he is going to learn, as he grows older, how to control his reactions; he will use a part of his high consciousness power to control a negative effect of not controlling what entered his memory in the first place (couldn't), inefficiently making more complex parts of his mind, even to create simplicity and efficiency. However, that will forever be limited since the modifier dwelling in truth without conflict is the ultimate speed and efficiency, but if speed is needed in conflicting stuff, more surface area will be used for it, but doing so you not only limits other mind capacities, but you reproduce some of the negative effect to others, until you hit a limitation where the human mind can be qualified as this and that in a scientific book, a thing that stop evolving to keep integrity of the necessary form to work in the reality. Then you can make the affirmation that the human is like this and like that and living in the best system for it since you made your selection final, even if you failed your life adventure. We are near this point and accelerating to reach it, and you can have hints of that by witnessing the increase in expert and scientific final affirmations proving the human is like this and like that while all kind of words are invented to describe you as mentally sick proportional to how far you are from what science has proven a statistical human should be.

A fantastic amount of potential consciousness (awareness can somewhat do btw) is "lost" that way to control many negatives effects associated with this reality's way of doing things (proportional limitations of intelligence, if you remember how life reacts to pain and fear, by limiting consciousness instead of intelligence, so that you'll have tools if you go over it, and more after too, all prepared unconsciously, a little proportional to brain size, meaning species, or jobs (it's a glorious job to find your place, but not much glorification for good to do it in hell though...). Even though such little modifications from brainwash can hardly be noticed in most cases, far from getting someone in prison, they are a lot worse globally than a single "evident" criminal. When implanted through all the population, accepted because of their apparent insignificance, increased over thousands of years, they can end up having a devastating effect like becoming war "lovers" or racists or ego gods "lovers" etc, and you can include well accepted sexual views, or love views...

Now you may think I'm bad for defending this unconscious "other" space mind thingy, which is unacceptable, blasphemy, you're in full control of your shit, and you're right, you know there are not 2 minds, but only one, it's just the intrinsic of its survival, because the real power is consciousness, and ultimately, the unconscious concept should become limited to the process of reproduction, in a perfectly harmonious mind that has "seen" it all and dealt with it all, but even then there is a lot of situations and even powers that are dependent from having limited consciousness, so to me I see things as 50-50 ultimately as a middle line guy (modifiers are unconscious things for most, as an example, but you have languages that are as much unconscious (as reality adaptation process), as conscious). As an example, I won't write about how I punish people around just now, but I'll say that I'm a lot more scared of someone acting unconsciously than someone acting consciously; I like an emotive person that controls or canalizes his emotions. So if you asked me to punish a killer, I'd do exactly the contrary of this reality; I would be a lot harsher with the unconscious killer that lost control and didn't know what he was doing, than the conscious one that calculated, and I didn't say I'd free one or the other. Or you could see it that way; the killing made by a conscious man makes a lot more sense than the killing made by an unconscious one (even from black-out anger). That's completely at the opposite of the ways things work in this reality, as the unconscious killer have more clemency because it is "not his fault" he didn't know what he was doing, like it's an argument, Jesus stuff, and people are so deep in it that they believe it in their good justice system. We have this twisted attitude with pedophilia too, I guess we must take care of our unconscious evil people because it fits with our mentality where we need "gods" and unconscious jobbers in admiration, so if one of our jobber "fails" it is because we went too far with the squirrel "other" brain thing, we did a bad job at brainwashing and manipulating him (or we gave him wrong peanuts) while the conscious one is not under our control, he is supposed to have been manipulated to be higher on the pyramid to profit and grow big self-esteem indirectly from the back of squirrel people (I got to be careful with that, or there's gonna be a stretch of squirrel assassinations...). Now, since things are never that simple with me, I must add that I'm not talking about emotive accumulation and revenge, I for one would prefer to kill with emotive force in a revenge situation, but it's all a matter of accumulation, and justification, at some point you have to fight evil, and doing it emotively is easier, to me at least. Still, a "loose" consciousness acting by himself and that is not high on the pyramid can be a risk factor for this reality, so it is hypocritically harsher with such people. But in the end I say that either doing it under control or without control is not an argument, and personally I'll say you're not worth life if you kill a young or good person. There are grown people who have lost all capacity to have any consideration for others, and such people must be treated, even if they are friendly and hardworking, as tools in the best of scenarios, or dangerous criminals who must be restrained or killed in the worst, because animals are far better here, they use automatically recyclable materials for no negative effects on others, except the food chain evidently... In the best of reality they may compose 1% of the population, there are always some, in the worst reality and in the worst of situations; they can compose a sufficient part of the population to affect the whole civilization negatively. In our actual reality there is a big percentage of people who act more like dangerous monsters than humans even if they often are because of the reality's attitude toward them. And this number of unconscious (mindless?) people who don't care about others is forever increasing because they are well served and encouraged by the reality like dogs to whom you give candies and a comfortable niche. There is always a certain percentage of any population in any reality that is not worth it, particularly among people who prefer to live like dependent animals, and amongst those, it is the "good" and "innocents" ones that are presently dying and suffering instead of the "bad" knowledgeable ones who manipulate and bullshit others, building their conscience for their gang only.

When an adult makes scars (see it as permanently modifying a part of the brain negatively, but that would apply to bullshit too, but bullshit is more dynamic, hypocrite, involved, global, far worse the way I'm going...) in the mind of children, or profit from them, he has no place among humans and I refuse to pay to make their life comfortable, and you can fit in those women related to them who ignore, contribute or encourage it! And it's in big part a question of ego and understanding, consciousness, not only testosterone that scientists and psy associate to every sexual problem. Self-control means control of any human activities; we are not supposed to be out of control. And for some other people it is a question of brainwash.

I personally don't differentiate the ego from the self, your ego is your self, you do what you want with it, but you cannot kill your ego as you would kill your self. The problem is that you must control your self with your mind (by following your heart if you wish) if your mind is full of ideals and dreams only satisfying your self or your gang, and you don't control it with good principles, then others will suffer from it. What you take for your self must have a minimal negative impact on others, you can enjoy a great life without taking too much. So to me ego is attitude related, that's why I qualify some people as ego, because satisfying themselves or their gang is the only thing that really counts to them, I despise such people and respect them only in the name of social peace or fear for my life. What is hard is that many are innocent of the evils of being too self-centered, there is no measure, even me I have no idea, I know the vision I must follow, but I'd go insane if I continually tried to judge people, even myself, on a balance of negative vs positive effects on others. The balance has survival as its "floor" but how do you weight the survival effect on life of a single being? I would guess we can't as people, so it is a guess to which we must strongly attach our reward and punition system. But this "guess" of the value of good and bad actions, and what they are, defines the form of a civilization, so you sure don't let things to themselves on the matter. There is "always" a limit, a time when too late is approaching, and for evil it is the moment when you'll very unlikely outweigh your bad actions or attitude by the good you'll provide, you are losing the potential to become a good person whatever the philanthropy, even if you are innocent, I set that line at 250,000$ CAN when talking money, at 500,000$ there is no doubt to me, whatever the family dynasty, I'm talking money flow interactions and the process of selection (who decides to spend the money on what and who) even if I know such a way of thinking is surrealist, but is money the whole story? Absolutely not, there is bullshit on masses too, and many other factors and activities. I can understand to some extent that intentions make a big difference, and they do when I want to know who I'm dealing with, but you can always find an argument or a quote or a proverb to defend or perpetuate evil. In the end either you fight evil, like extreme unfairness, or you lose, because evil always got more liberties than good, evil just is until nothing is, while good people care for a lot more stuff and develop their mind in a far better way, even in hell, and the eventual result is longer survival, and more stuff. So to me, I got to set a vague line where I say I can befriend a person or not, and this line is mostly drawn from ego attitudes. So if you reach adulthood and keep on having too much of a negative effect on others, like taking too much for yourself, or if you see everything as a competition, then in the best scenario I won't care about you , whatever you tell me you'll change, or that you got good intents, or that you were innocent, collect your proofs before reaching me is what I say. As for the argument (there is always one) that rich people are good working hard philanthropists for helping others with "their" money, this is a twisted argument; the mafia does exactly that too, and who are you to take the money and decide who you should invest it on? Why don't you leave the money in people's pockets? Why do you take their action and decision power? What disgust me totally is that I've experienced the lodging system, from my perspective and from the perspective of my haunt that worked with the old, and I know one thing for certain; no fucking politician will ever get my respect by spitting in my face with his bullshit philanthropy for as long as it exists.

Next are the ones who say we are animals with a big brain and the skill to talk and to grope at things, but no mind, everybody thinks itself intelligent comparing us to animals these days, you even learn that at school. They see an animal with deduction ability or an altruistic ability or tool making ability and they're running everywhere comparing. Don't confound a track of piss with art I say, and don't go so low in your competitive mentality, you're going completely nuts, call me when you meet one that starts writing, talking, building, the total, if you don't want me to defend humanity against animalism, and stop harassing people that pets are family members, while I never thought I was making a family with my pet, or that I'm a social animal with a big brain on chemical and hormonal therapy.

While comparing people to animals may not be the worst manipulation problem of this reality, even if there's still a bad mind effect (why do you think people don't like to be compared to pigs?), the worst is when we compare attitudes through many steps of subtle manipulations. I saw a science guy on TV lately compare the comportment of an animal at stealing stuff to a rebel human attitude, but rebellion has nothing to do with stealing stuff, and nothing to do with animal strategies of survival. The reason, evidently, is self-inflated intelligence that unconsciously parrot the pressure selection process of reality, well paid big mouth ability who manipulate masses into associating rebellious attitudes with evil or animal comportment, but aren't we all animals? Let's rebel! The people who make these associations should be removed from dealing with masses, particularly on channels where they vulgarize science or life like people are a bunch of retards driven by entertainment fumes, when it doesn't sound like blatant infantilizing...

Next, they're all trying to sell the animal to whom they identify themselves the most to as the animal that is the nearer the human; one will say the rat is like us, for others it's the pig, or the cow, or a chimpanzee, astrologists do it too, it's the year of the pig, and you are a fish that can love a scorpion...I understand we're all a continuation of life, a part of it, but every sane species doesn't like to be compared to the next guy, we're different, independent, useful, and the one scratching the back of the other is as worthy of pride for the job it has in the grand developing scheme of everything, what is a living planet without ecosystems? Life makes the beauty of the planet, and it actually knows it, so be careful what you crush in your self-inflation, what you destroy in your ignorance, which includes the pride of life, so don't compare me to an animal that you cage and experiment on, unless you want that I use the like of you for my next experiments...Thanks to this superiority competition, we have made a historical specialty of treating and raising a lot of people like animals that must not question and truly change things, get a job, reproduce, and have fun sex and entertainment instead. I will add that it is a different story with animals in animation (the exception is sexual suggestion), it is easy to make the difference between fantasy and reality. Scientists, psy, experts and schools are human beings representing credibility or authority.

All that doesn't mean people should steer away from animals, it means there are fundamental differences that separates us from animals. In fact people unconsciously understand one of these difference, which is dependence; people understand that their kid or pet animals are dependent from their care, but at a grander scale wild life is dependent from humanity's care. It is even my belief that people become better when they have affection for animals, that is, when they understand their connection to them and their responsibility in the scheme of life. So while people who are in contact with animals because they like them will have a positive effect, even if they eat meat, people who see animals, or some animals, as a source of profits only will have a negative effect, which can be seen as good and evil interactions. The factor of importance is caring, whatever it is our pets, a milk or beef production, or our scientific experiments. I have no doubt that people are meant to interact with animals a lot, and it has a tremendously positive effect on both people and animals, you just see it in their face, I find it more fascinating to look at how people are touched by animals than the animals themselves. We naturally act like animals are our babies, and under this aspect I can understand why some see their pets as family members, but then maybe we should see wild life as part of the human family, but that still doesn't work, because if you want to use family in its right way here then we should see both humans and animals as part of the life family. Wild life under this aspect must be seen as more independent, even if they know we're here, feel us. As to the why we seems to care more for animals than humans, that must be related to the reproduction ways versus the result in reality; we know that the biggest difference is that we have the power to act in reality like no animals, we unconsciously know that the future of all earth life is related to us, that they are very much a lot innocent beside us, and so it is natural for us to act with innocence in a caring way because we understand consciousness, our babies take a lot of time to become competent adults in or vision of being humans, and when we become conscious adults then we compare our conscious actions a lot, and end-up pissed-off that others don't act like us, because we know they can act differently, we raise our babies to act in a certain way, to shit in a toilet, to fit in a reality that is evidently made by people, a reality that influences everything, with things like ego competition and PMBBD... But animals? No, they don't have this responsibility because they don't have that power, so we pardon more and we like them more, and this attitude should apply to humans too, it's just that at some point intelligence has to deal with good and evil in reality through consciousness, it comes with our many extraordinary privileges, and while wild life fight mainly unconsciously, we fight consciously, and while wild life deal its survival from the pleasure system, we deal our survival from the reward system, which have an added consciousness (understanding, civilized, we remove the job (survival) from unconscious work, and we decide it consciously as a reward system, but it seems someone messed-up the understanding at a massive scale somewhere, because let's say we have very well proven it was a mistake,(a reward system taking the good and evil part of the job (survival, the best path versus the worst), and making an absurd travesty of fairness, where some of the worst intelligences get rewarded insanely, etc, etc, etc...(I'm not done with my rapport about how intelligence (life) is faring on earth, read on...). You could say that we put the building of this reality as a condition to get rewarded (pleasure system highjacking), it's the obstacle in our doggy doggy scenario.

Still, everything is not hopeless, at least, it seems more people find it enjoyable to care for others or life, bring them pleasures, we feel responsible for life naturally anyways, not only our own, and this is supposed to be reflected by the level of our consciousness; more conscious people tend to care more for life in a good reality, because you can use knowledge in different ways, so again it's a matter of the vision of good and evil you have. Me I follow the fundamental drive of life, my "other" mind (my mind), so I take the path of life and build my philosophy around it, but a manipulator there to stash in the money and live in luxury will have different uses for life, even if he likes his dog, so he'll use the consciousness step (reward system or understanding) to his own goals, which can become a condemnation for other people with enough PMBBD, to the point that everybody loses life from sight and do things simply to have a job or for party, but it removes nothing to the true and good path, because it's still a matter of life's advancement, it's just that the system condemned people to its vision of life's advancement reflected in its priorities, which can be anything, thus you go back to your vision of good and evil.

But I was writing about learning unconsciously and by brainwash by building your web of access lines without efforts. The following is the simple way of doing it consciously, but it takes more efforts and time. You can have a better skill at modifying, manipulating or controlling this optimizing process to build a more satisfactory unconscious (natural personality) if you create more lines to do it (modify and interact); give yourself as much principles of life as you can, have as much opinions as possible and sustain them by your actions, give priority to logic, and be proud of caring for life, that's very important for knowledge and strength of will which creates consciousness and judgment which modifies what enters your mind by creating personal lines while developing modifiers, and it modifies reality. However, if you don't sustain the effort, the natural process will have a tendency to prioritize and grow back lines to their original state or to follow new external pressures (brainwash).

Destiny notions aside, what you want to be should influences what you will be. But when you act empty headed, what you want to be mostly takes the dump in favor of what the reality wants of you which have been implanted and optimized from youth. If we take the example of de-inhibition from alcohol, among many others ways to mess-up your consciousness, shut it down or getting it lazy, your actions will somewhat be a reflection of the will of the reality (unless you hate it or have a strong general consciousness of it or have a circle of friends that have been reinforcing some opinions), what you adapted to, that probably has nothing to do anymore with what you thought was the world about when you were a kid. You'll even think yourself intelligent for using already implanted twisted principle for quick talking, or even justification, like liberty, but you will have a harder time being and becoming what you want to be which, when given priority, will influence your becoming you, unconsciously (personality), particularly if the reality goes toward that end. What is most important is what you want to do in reality when using your consciousness and what you are able to do to reflect it.

But this process can become incredibly complex or difficult, for an example, you may already have a bunch of lines dictating your actions and reaction in a precise situation. You want to change these actions and reactions but your mind won't let you erase the old ones right away and you can't know all the areas of influence of them. So you make a proposition to your unconscious (other) mind by thinking "I want to act like this" that resonates within your cranium, it stops laughing at the crap you watched yesterday, totally flabbergasted at what it just heard, and think "Who is this guy? Did he really go through the normal bureaucracy (understanding) before dictating stuff around? I should shut down this consciousness thing! I'll have to delete twenty thousand lines, settle a thousand conflicting points, create a backup in case something goes wrong, modify some memory, replace or move others, protect it from intruding modifiers, test it a thousand times, etc, etc, it will take years! Do you have any more of these kind of projects? It's ended anyway, the reverberation, false alarm, just the usual bullshit to get a girl" Noticing that nothing changes in your next situation, you spend energy and use your willpower and consciousness to make the actions repeatedly, you even go to the confessional to beat yourself a little, and your unconscious starts to believe you. It works to give you the impression that it can do it, because it can, and that it will be done, so the action can eventually become easy or natural for you so you don't make a depression and kill your other brain in the process of killing your consciousness that can't take the drama you created over it. After some time (go to sleep) or after your spirit starts to rise, it will quickly dump your request under the pile and keep on going the way that's already there, or give priority to the most insistent, proven and less energy hungry way of doing things (mostly external brainwash). In this competition environment, you must insist continually on bringing back your file to the top so there is always some work being done and your unconscious start thinking it's a true priority and you're really serious about it.

Eventually the new way of acting will become as easy as the old unconscious one, but for now you got two bundles of lines coming from two different parts battling for your actions and reactions to the same situation; conflict. You may freeze if the situation requires immediate reaction or you may be treated as an ambivalent person or even a liar if you take time to choose consciously (scientifically proven by your expression or a strange move). You must continue to prioritize your new ideal more than the external brainwash and you may win the battle. But this is only the simplest example as I didn't talk about conflicting influential pressure; what I mean is that your change may just be a little one in a vastness of conflicting pressures that will forever try to erase your work and you'll forever have to make efforts, and the most powerful pressure is reality.

So your success is highly dependent from your capacity at thinking and working profoundly and globally while minimizing reality pressures. And that brings about the importance of having a non-conflicting philosophy as well as having your spirituality based on possibilities. What happens when you really want your new action to become easier if it is in conflict with a whole philosophy that have been implanted in your unconscious and transformed to lines? You will spend a fantastic amount of time and energy for one fantastic mental fight, creating the whole suite of lines that come from that first line and replacing the whole bunch that are already there. But the worth of the mind creation you're making may be unbelievable if it replaces the old philosophy or spirituality with fewer conflicts, worth tetra-trillions dollars. (Don't try to convert a long time religious person to spirituality; very hard, and the person must want it).

Forget about sudden vast stuff if you're past around 50 as you will be over 80 before the replacement is global, and normally the mind of people at that age presently is already strained, so you don't want to overload the thing, particularly minds stressed under authority, those may have troubles differencing left and right, and they may complain they're tired of taking small decisions, like going left or right in a corridor...But there's a dynamic bunch of older people who can probably understand and appreciate such explorations a lot too, it's just that for themselves it's harder. And that's in the best scenario, a young person have trouble, or won't even be able, to just deal with the external PMBBD pressure, this reality retard the normal reaching of adulthood by 10 years just from evil inefficiencies all around. The ideal scenario is to have everything done unconsciously and it will be the case to some extent for everybody, but a nagging thought is a potential conflict in our mind and each conflict makes the mind more complex and asks more energy. There are millions of those and as long as they exist we'll spend energy counterproductively and we'll have conflicts in our lives proportionally.

That's why we must work toward giving the young the most large, truthful and useful basis, including a non-conflicting spiritual basis based on greatest possibilities. From all that and more, they can extrapolate and personalize upon reaching more consciousness. That's how you transmit your knowledge (loss of innocence), but there is a best way to do this, a better order too, and there are laws and exceptions to that too, and you have to do it mentally as much as physically. The responsibility of those who gain consciousness as they advance in life is not to profit from others but it is to help others, particularly people under around 24, to permit them to have a smoother transition to strong consciousness, the powers they have to change reality and having the foresight to visualize consequences without pressure.

There is this tendency to tag as a "normal" bad thing the first sight of consciousness expressions too (adolescence), and its related frustration in this reality, like the person is the problem, it is not adapting well, or it's a temporary ado thing, or it is testosterone, or he's making a depression, or he must be mentally sick, or he's bizarre, and at the other extreme you got king kids that must have everything at their feet and they develop badly out of it too (love failures, the result of bad love (reproduction) philosophy or competence). Not better in that vein are those with the broom pointing fingers to the youth like they're out of control and should be caged, never the fault of the reality and parenthood, add scientists to make the affirmation that it's an hormonal problem while it's a coincidence of factors; hormones may have an influence or they may trigger things, they may even be used as a modifier to "enlarge" horizons through some instability, like making oneself comfortable by taking space and bashing down some reality created walls, could be useful for developing consciousness...

But in truth the problem will almost always be the systematization of means, the people who control unfair means, or those that use PMBBD on masses, or decide liberties. Furthermore, as I already explained, a lot of youth problems can be seen as life trying to express its revolt of reality (it's rebelling!) not the young; it's just at that moment that some factors coincide to show some more evident expressions of it. I was personally revolted quite young, and it was a mind thing, a thinking thing, a judgment thing, an instinctive thing too, so it is my opinion that life expresses this will best around adolescence, when it is finishing its adaptation to reality, but that's very simplistic, there's accumulation too, and new situations that can influence that, like living in such an inadequate reality that instead of growing less revolted as you grow-up and understand stuff, the contrary actually happens, understanding becomes a source of frustration and revolt, and that's particularly terrible if the person cares for things, or try to be logic. And there's the power of reality too, its success at taking over the life of people, that is so strong today that most adolescents are embarked too, responsibility brainwash, parenthood push, not enough time to think, the green revolution is enough, gadgets cars and sex and party for the rest. Nobody knows what is good or evil anymore, PMBBD and religions perverted the notion, and all life got left is bitching and stupidities, nobody fights for its soul.

Now, the more you're successful at changing your mind, the better your reaction to related external situations, logically, and you probably succeeded by pushing the gas pedal of consciousness, an investment of time and energy that is now bearing fruits, but still probably just to counteract a reality pressure that shouldn't be there, boring isn't it? That's how it is, generally, in hell..., but you'll have gotten the tool, and the tendency to fall back to its use too, so learn well your lessons of understanding, make them reality, and someday they will work naturally. Since your general maneuvering of reality is dependent from some level consciousness, the same for your language and culture and learning expertise, then there will always be this consciousness thingy, it's not like I'm a big defender of it, I'm more middle line type, but even that doesn't mean much here since it's just a process that make you do redundant things without noticing, and you can only like it, so shut-up (you don't notice what you lose in the process of optimization, but you can still understand it, test it, reinforce it, reverse engineer it, it's like learning anew all the physics involved in you keeping your equilibrium, our intelligence is super proud to have it as mathematical formulas, but here you'd have to calculate it live, you don't want that, but there was a time when the greatest super hero of the earth was a microbe that tested the form of it with its legs on earth, leading to a general idea of gravity, underwater probably could work too, all kind of sinking "fun" "stupid" experiments can happen as life develops its senses and vision of the space around it, which bear all the tools for life to enjoy weightlessness btw...)

The more you gain knowledge from understanding, the more you develop your consciousness in the domain like a pro, and the more efficient pressure you can put on yourself by yourself. Adding external pressure to that will, in many scenarios, worsen externally wanted reactions though, sometimes even revolt (depending on the situation and expertise; someone may be good at a sport unconsciously in youth, then will have to learn better techniques making him worse than before until it is unconscious enough that he will surpass himself). If you somewhat understand how a human grow up and learn, then in the ideal scenario, the younger you are the better your reaction to externally wanted pressures, but if you always bow to these pressures you will miss some facets of your development (even if it may look the contrary), add that to a reward system and an ego philosophy and you will find yourself a career easily in this reality. I prefer free struggling and fighting people, they have more potential for change past adulthood.

A compromise to this process would be to associate to your battle point a whole bunch of memory which may contain a whole new conflicting philosophy you just memorized, since nobody can have the time to know everything. Every time you will access this memory you will work toward the implementation of it. That is, if you take the right attitude and consciously access it often enough. So you'll need some willpower to do it because it will still be a competition between two philosophies, but the effect will be better if the reality gives at least the illusion of staying neutral toward it. That is available to anybody at any age (as always with some exceptions). This is ideal to reach high consciousness more quickly, and it is the right way if used well, to get out of a difficult reality indoctrination, while not forgetting that change is always dependent from willpower, that your mind must know it is logical; if you truly want to change and it makes sense, you will change. The wrong use of it is again to use it in a hierarchic systems like religions, sects, gangs. The above is the ideal energetic situation to transfer to reality; you learn or believe in an ideal and want to be part of it, make it become reality instead of thinking and waiting forever. Of course, you will never reach the level of consciousness, and headaches I should mention, of the one that spent lots of energy changing by himself, which he will never be able to do totally and without conflicts anyway.

Animals can hardly do that, most don't have enough consciousness potential, which is generally proportional to their size of the size or form of their brains, and reality limitations too. It is used in the reproduction system to take care of their offspring, used in different ways by the unconscious to get input from the reality, used to control their actions not to get killed more complicatedly or to get beyond obstacles to get at some pleasures. High consciousness is the human only ability to work the unconscious independently and willfully right through the reality, to the point of building an interstellar machine.

The last chance you have at changing is, you guessed it, through external, imposed brainwash. For that you have nothing to do and it requires no willpower. It's the hierarchic, lazy, watch television, internet, porn, priest or singer way.

With some will and some help almost anybody can change if he finds rewarding or good reasons to do it. Between around 20 to 50, the natural way should bring most to wish and try changes in all kind of facets of their lives, most will only do it for their person or gang and most will succeed at getting these small changes. The better the working of the mind, the more profound and far reaching this exploration, comprehension, wishes and trying will get extrapolated (the better the consciousness). Most will stop somewhere along the way of this developing complexity, they will "deal" their time, choosing their fights. They will change without knowing it by believing hard enough, "self-brainwashing", and they will have their effect on reality. It will become their natural self.

Someone can go to the extent of not "dealing" his time and extrapolate the process as a wheel, gaining control of many different facets of his life, getting a philosophy that will permit him to go as deep and far in the process to find the most worthy fight. Which may take a whole life to bring to completion, like living the ideal of love in hell would be quite a fight... But communicating the understanding gained by many such explorations can permit almost anybody to retrace the logic more easily and carry on the fight. They will only begin to win if it becomes a stable way, a basic or standard way, an unconscious; something to be transmitted to youth and then from which all kind of diversity spring from. (A fight is a "bundle" of consciousness, "newly" created, lines in the brain that compete against a much stronger, implanted from birth, created externally, optimized unconscious "bundle" I call modifiers mostly, the battle is more like for energy here and speed, automation, more ease, so physically it can take the form of having two sets of different complexities trying to morph into one, because the only way to get optimization is by removing conflict or finding harmony, and both sets of complexities can be associated to personality aspects, amalgams can exist, and the alternative option is available, but there's another price beyond the energy one; mind stuffing...). The battle can be quickly and forcefully fought in reality, forcing adaptation, but all in all, it is a wheel where you fight for your consciousness (what you think you're in the know about) to become optimized so everything is easier, but as you fight, you have a tendency to change reality which in turn will help your consciousness (your poor quality view) getting optimized so things are forever easier for your type.

The exceptional way of changing is through elimination of not useful stuff for simplification of reality. This is like skipping a big part of your life and the natural way of reaching more consciousness by selectively staying innocent in some areas and the same for experiencing reality.

As you grow older, say around 25, a normal, not overly complex, reality should already have imprinted its way unconsciously (don't forget I'm always explaining things with a simple vision). This permits the mind to live more freely like it should be saying "I know how to live in this satisfying reality, now I will spend my energy freely". With judgment, this should create an explosion of good will, creativity and happiness. This process, in globality, is split in half, made available to only a small portion of the population and retarded, sometime to 50 and older in this reality (with some exceptions). That is because the optimizing process takes too long from all kind of complexities, conflicts, and memorizing that have almost no use, redundancies and PMBBD too. Instead of around 25 it happens far later, instead of the mind being sure enough of the integrity of its unconscious, it starts questioning everything. This process that should have ended successfully at around 35 is just starting, often too late, too easily ignored. It is not hard to skip consciousness, particularly when you're brainwashed for maximum ego, and that's what most people do; they never start the process, their consciousness is just a tool to profit as much as possible, often just to satisfy necessity.

To gain back your time, you must close yourself to pleasures, complexities and knowledge that is not useful. In fact you must simplify reality to remove its useless (or evil preferably) work from your preoccupation and invading the place, reduce intake of not critically useful things and or bullshit and limit your areas of interests. You must select these simplifications and reductions while keeping in mind that they must not adversely affect your judgment and a potential return to full reality, you're just moving some stuff to the basement locker, preferably fun stuff that you'll have more pleasure exploring later, and evidently, there can be a kind of oubliette for evil. This was a simple and extreme way of explaining it and it happened to me without thinking I was doing it. It was my judgment, actions, a good initial imagination, consciousness and strength of will that brought me to it. Yet, I kind of knew what I was doing but in a different way; I was pushing back my ego and eliminating PMBBD, finding other areas of interests, I was kicking a reality I didn't like, proving it on myself. Yet, this far from explain my quest; I'm sort of a coincidental freak, so enjoy!

Now, what makes everything very relative is that people can absorb a lot of energy by displacement effects everywhere for later reevaluation, which we never find the time soon enough to initialize and untangle (If it was just for many in this reality, they'd prefer stroll through it as innocents, not thinking, or escaping it, so maybe they need to be knocked down to sleep for some reset and a new day of a try at doing better, sometime get a kick from someone in their dreams too.) Or you'll initialize but never have time to consciously order things your way, shutting down to watch your favorite show and getting more; human walk forward, as time, there is no pause or rewind. But such way of changing can work with somewhat predicable results if done skillfully by changing your perspective versus reality, eliminating or controlling many facets of reality and doing regular introspection for years thus creating the situation where you can implement personal philosophy from your conscious rearrangement after successfully exploring your entanglement, permitted by your minimizing of external influence or brainwash. That wheel can work but it's a long, hard and risky process, and I believe dependent on love, just saying, and implementing capacity is a downward curve; if it takes a baby 5 years to learn to speak and understand a bit of what he's talking about, someone of 30 may need 10 or a lot more because of cumulated complexities, implanted unconscious conflicts, and the backtracking of everything. The ideal window is a start around 20 with an effort to 30, and believe it or not, that is supposed to come naturally; it is the reality that scraps it all through all kind of pressures. If you're in a dictatorship, reaching such consciousness and independence will get someone to put some lead in your head, however, in the Democracy-Capitalism business you'll put it there yourself which, in a sense, is worse because it's a lot easier and it make a lot more sense to get it from someone else than putting it there yourself, which is incredibly depressive and hard on the minimal survival right principle thing that any minimally philosophically educated person should hold at heart, so think of how much of a failure this reality is not from its million suicides every years, but from just how fake, susceptible, rebellious and depressive people have always been enjoying it...

The last step in the optimizing process is genetic, DNA modification, I'll talk about the mind related view at that step, but it is not the only possibility since in Life Infinite I'll talk about another one with a theory on "availability of mutation" that is a different vision of the "classic" and "proven" theory of life's evolution. For now what I'm talking about would be a very slow process probably engendered by small parts of strongly identical lifelong stable and not finding conflicts, precise facets of the unconscious, including modifiers (there could even be a comparison map) in both parents, which are transformed as steering to reflect this stability. It can be a reinforcement of successful true love if it lasts a long time, love which can be seen as a modifier under development (The best reproduction strategy is different from one species to the other, so we got the most complex form available for us when we came into being, then we started the process of transforming it to reflect how we like to be (I'm not talking about what life systems would "prefer" for us, and the ways they use to push us to it)). "Stability of not conflicting" can mean stability of complementarily attitudes or acting without conflict, and satisfying points in reality.

True love is the most extraordinary transport invented to attach civilization, you don't need "superstars", you need exemplary true love, something that traverses time, something that marks history with association, that is widely positive, which includes ideals. It can be attached to a multitude of civilization sustaining principles too, completely in harmony with life's ways. It can express the human ideal complementary situation, one that develops and traverses through time as far as living can go, and as close as human contact can go through sex which is already connected to the all-powerful orgasm that took some trillions years to get right for you. Love in its simple logic is truly something wonderful, but all the definitions that have been thrown about everywhere until now are not because they either hype it with insanities or they make it insignificant or conflicting in the mind, then there is the fact that the reality is quite inadequate for it to thrive. Can we bring love back to its right place? In 1000 years you'll start to be a reflection of present (past) truth of love, which is mostly PMBBD, so you'll reap nothing except no true love anymore and some kind of other grave setbacks or worse if love is a work of life systems you destroyed (reproduction strategy related to the wheel of life, the ideal of love). What is the use we make of it, when we say the word, what do we associate to it? Make it a life thing, a time thing, a complementary thing, make it a human thing. You guessed it, such a thing as love can't happen often as a forming principle in the history of a species, so it must be seen as sacred.

Understanding, consciousness, hands, unconsciousness, DNA, brains, sperm, ovaries, they are parts of a wheel; we understand to gain consciousness and modify reality then the reality makes us more comfortable in it so we can switch our consciousness to something else. This can go on for eternity until we find harmony, truth and some "equilibrium" in things, starting with the relation between life and matter. Now, don't start twisting or simplifying or exaggerating too much, there is an equilibrium to find in many things, but equilibrium in everything is stupid and can only lead to extreme visions because it can't happen and it is dependent on what you decide qualify as needing equilibrium, and everything is a changing play of pressures, it is a vision tool like the balance that cumulates both good and evil as you advance ion life, the same for liberty by the way. The same for my middle line philosophy, but again it's a bit like irony; it doesn't apply to everything, far from it, since everything got a best ideal place too...

So we are not like this or like that because it is written in our cell's DNA, with the life wheel, or through reproduction, we become what we want right through to modifications of some cell's DNA, but we can ruin the planet to become a reflection of PMBBD until truth invalidates it all too. And things look grim, instead of encouraging humanity to live in harmony and equilibrium, we have encouraged the contrary from the beginning of time; competition, conflict. Our vision of things, our ideals are in conflict with our actions, our heads, our words, between ourselves. We did not follow the truth of things, we did not defend truth and logic, we have become ambivalent people that make everything acceptable and unacceptable at the same time, minimizing our responsibilities and living hidden behind façades; now try to turn around to change that when the whole world run like crazy everywhere in that direction.

It is always easier on the ego to let others do things around and it is more so in an ego-gods reality association because the ego formula that is continually imprinted in said ego emphasized memory, given lines priority by the intensive external ego pressure, is then added to the pleasure system which is the universal ego system, and encouraged to be considered the same. It's a win, win, win situation, as the reality grows its structures it becomes harder and harder to change reality because it is a reflection of the line philosophy imprinted in the collective mind and always growing in complexity and improvements to eliminate other possibilities. This double headed mess is "shrunk" in conflict until stagnation, and then we teach it to children as the way of things, like religions do.

I could say it's a matter of choosing the easy way, but then when you consider how things are supposed to work, the notion of the easy way is dependent from the reality, so it is a matter of arranging your shit so that the easy way is just the normal way, so people are born and grown adequately, know what I mean? People will always prefer choosing from stuff that's already there as a basis, and even the best consciousness will mostly build from stuff that already exist reinforcing the reality, the rest take a severe drop in value, or revert to insanities completely out of the logical domain and they will stay stuck there unable to change to reflect facts or truths because they fear they would lose their justification for hating reality (probably their unconscious hate it, but consciously justifying the "unknown why" all life long against everybody is practically impossible so they end up giving the honor finger to logic, they even twist truth, only growing the pile of PMBBD) The exceptions to the reality chosen or imposed path (that can be through PMBBD), as you are now seeing all through my book, will face quite a challenge just to survive. Furthermore, psy scientists of human understanding will still reinforce this effect by saying the human seeks the easy way, while again, and like the survival competition and many other of their "discoveries", they are wrong; the selection fitting the system mostly take the easy way for many reasons, like being such a selection for a start, or being historically disgusted of making consciousness efforts to no avail, they have the slave switch on, or they don't care because everything is a cheat, or because they need all their energy getting the system to work, or whatever else. In the end it will always be a wrong affirmation and it doesn't take much of an IQ to understand that, the truth is that the human, or life for that matter, seek the best way when every interrelated factors are taken in consideration, and being tired is a factor, or growing lazy is a factor, or being the selection that fit the system is another factor. So in the end, the person took the best path for itself in the reality, and because of the ego factor as well as the frustration factor, that best path happened to be the easiest. There's overwhelming complexity too, and everybody got different tolerances to complexity, and there's an evident problem when you're 10 years late at reaching adulthood as sufficiently comprehending reality... Then there re ll the pressures and pills and bullshit so it is true that today, for many people, just choosing is too much a spending of intellectual energy, so let's just bow to the strongest or biggest or let's follow the tide or trends created by this guru, expert, or ego gang or that, let's just be nationalists, democrats, capitalists, green and sexually open, let's follow the defacto religion or culture of the country or whatever, and if we are too stupid let's just wait for "god" to come and change things, nothing stops evolution or technology, they say, the experts in the domain...2/3

It's not how it works, no superman, no batman, no X-man, no 007, no democrat, or whatever else superhero, and surely not a Hollywood or Las Vegas "super" "star" or a hot porn "star" of the sky will come with a baguette to change things or help anybody because your vision of saving things is just a projection of your tired, or lazy, ego. I say that people (often with the backup of conglomerates) who save the world against all odds is a sign, the same kind of sign of future failing as believing that a god will come to save us. I don't say those movies should not exist, and nothing against superhero movies, I'm talking about the emphasis. As an example, in another reality you may not need to save a world full of misery or crazies (if there are none) to keep it that way, or maybe some movie would last a bit longer to create more attachment to general population instead of seeing them as death toll numbers or mannequins flying in the air, they would be more involved in saving the world, maybe there would be less "1 second left" movies and maybe the attitude of people would be different. For now, don't worry, we'll continue making too many cataclysmic movies where a "super" "star" saves the day when it is too late, because you know, it's never too late...

The good attitude is surely not to wait for your god to debark; it is you as an individual part of many to have the willpower to do it, to have the judgment to discern truth from bullshit, and to encourage the best path. But now that humanity condemned itself, sacrificed everything for ego gods, well, I hope you find someone with the will to force you to another path, if that's really what you want. And my opinion whatever it is complex is still only mine; it is the majority that count, I understand that, yet...

But it's not important if we fail some will say, who cares, the collective unconscious under the ego-gods ideology not only pardon any evil for a fee (money or self-indoctrination) but we are discarded of responsibility if we fail to be good enough, it was the fault of god, or whatever twisted story we'll invent, be it god himself, or the more familial edition with Zeus and sons, family line oriented, to keep just enough conflicting unconscious defense to keep all that royalty going, which is very real, and very responsible. Always a war, always a superior entity or superior gang acting like they are humanity's consciousness, like the populace are freaking dangerous innocents that must be protected at all cost, pardoned any sins, yeah, because the whole pyramidal society is made of, and profit from, their continual struggle to feel superior or higher, higher, toward their ego vision of god...

As for developing consciousness, it's a skill everybody has, it is developed with time and efforts, general knowledge helps a lot, but it's exactly like physical training, almost everybody could run fast, but most were too lazy physically, didn't have the time or chance, to develop it when they were young, and the older they get before developing it, the harder it becomes. Yet, a good runner, even if he made mistakes while learning, if he have the appropriate other qualities, can ease the learning curve of many. It's the same for consciousness, except in this reality, he will be alone against a football team with ego as the ball which they already have with total experience at keeping it; you'll need big help if you want to get it and bring it the other way!

It's not everybody that has the time or will to understand the art of cooking, ingredients, imagination, alchemy principles etc... feeding is a simple action of filling their bellies, and who cares if it all explodes in a chemical reaction, they eat whatever looks and tastes good and if it is bad then they drink pepto bismol or take a pill for constipation, and if they do some cooking alone I can tell you there won't be anything artistic about it. That's somewhat how I am in a stressful situation, without the fast food, so I may sound like I think it's bad but it is absolutely not the case; there are many excellent justifications for not cooking, like for any trade, and I'm definitively not an example even if I care, but one thing's for sure, you can talk cooking all you want, if people never have the time or will to do some cooking, then what they need most is your recipe. You already have a good idea of my cooking, I'll later on give you a big malleable recipe of the kind of results of it, but if you want a precise start, here it is; learn what is true. The greatest enemy of consciousness is lies, there is no magic or miracles, only possibilities. Try to find PMBBD entering your senses, all what enters through your eyes, whatever in silence, all what enters through your ears; books, songs, attitudes, shows, humor, etc, do it as much as you can, even if it is impossible to do in totality, and make the difference between fiction and facts. So there you have it, it's as simple as that, but that will give you a lot of thinking, de-bullshitting, defending and counter argumentation to do; you may even end up alone with nothing, not even a culture. However, everybody do it to some extent, but yes, it's the extent that's important, to some extent...somewhat is a start. So, when a singer slips in one of her songs that love aint fun if it isn't rough, is it a truth or a personal opinion she's trying to spread so it becomes a truth? Then the next singer will up the ante in the competition until most of the population take the appropriate attitude to make it true, and one day scientists will discover it is a truth in their quest to can the human as like this and like that, and sorry if GaGa is stupid enough to be a messenger, innocence when you get rich is kind of a poor argument... (by the way I'm not saying that having some "rough" moments can't make love more interesting, but there is a huge difference between both sentences, find it!)

As for sustained independent willpower, it is something that can grow in everybody, it helps in whatever action we do. But the more you take care of it (by making its use worthy), the more you are rewarded toward your goals of doing it, and the stronger its base will be, unless some other pressures depress you of it as a counterbalance, which this reality specialize in doing at the most extreme level, so your whole life becomes a challenge of recharging your willpower every day, and expending it in all kind of ways, even if you regain some along the way. and while the economic system exploits the energy of people, what it exploit on top of it is willpower, and a lot of people end-up depressed out of it, or they stop caring, or they embark in a perseverance of working hard pattern to finally feel like adults, and let your resentment and frustration sips out on the weaker. Be careful replacing your living battery by a monetary dependent one, it's been keeping life motivated for billions of years, depressing that is quite a feat... Maybe you made hell, and all is left is the impression that we are mature and responsible citizens, like we sold our soul to the devil by selling it all our willpower (proportionally to age, there's more of the stuff in young innocence, that's in part why it attracts profiteers, because the more you gain consciousness, the more everything in hell reveals as a bitch, and the less you're tempted to just jump in with candor, in a sense, maximal willpower can only be attained in a paradise, even if there are extreme situations that can make one attain new levels of willpower, like survival and revenge situations, and evidently, the ideal of love is supposed to be one of the greatest source of it too).

So ideologically, you can see it as what most motivates you, and personally, apart from the rip from reality, in what I consider a inhumane situation presently, it seems being left with the concept that I stand as one with the mind of all life is enough not to make a depression. Intelligence is all the same I could say, just stuck in different limitations, so since this reality took care of destroying my human part, I find pride in existing for the pure stuff, full consciousness (different from knowing everything, it's more like living freely without fears in a highly orgasmic state...), under all the living forms it took, a concept that should be appreciated among scientists...Yet, both my body and mind totally rebels against the idea, because all those intelligences are differently driven, and life is one with its body too, and this one is the greatest creation of earth intelligence after all, all those fantastic senses, all this energy machine of both air and food matter, all those cells that constantly want to wrap it all together, so I can only hope that as I lived as a spirit there is way for me to die as a living.

But everybody got a different willpower formula, like most human attributes, for some it's entirely money and cocaine stuff, think about it... This reality profits from all the forms all the same in all kind of ways. Me I say, the economy should work beyond what life can provide, meaning it should make consciousness happy. If the reality takes it all and depresses you, then you either change reality, or go to the church or to the psy because if you're empty of it for too long it may take years of vacation to gain back some. A lot of people lose most of their natural willpower (drive) at school or while learning their jobs, and after that they become classic passengers licking windows on cruise control, exceptional neutral diversity units who always find ways to be right or justified even when they're wrong, waiting for the rain of smurfs because they think they seen it all known it all like citizens of New York city (Montreal I mean, sorry, won't happen again, and don't ask where I took that smurf thing, but it should look like explosive glass drops under pressure...)

Your soul is not in the president's home, your soul is where you build things, where you put your energy, and you're very stupid if you are trading your energy without looking at the truth of what it is used for, and that's exactly what this reality wants. And you can spend energy on good causes all you want, there is always good, nothing would exist without it, but if the whole system is unfair, then the fundamental base you encourage, the base of everything, is evil.

And you may not care about such things, be a neutral, have a job, some drugs, some sex, some entertainment, little crimes, your side is default old momentum, choose a variation, your choice, but don't complain if people like me don't respect you, if I don't care to insult you, I care for people who stand for good things, the rest work hierarchically and I'm definitively hierarchically entitled to kick their ass, just not in hell. Those who just exist for a job and to eat and fit in, they get crushed under my boots and I don't care about such details, I'm like you, are you happy? And it was your fault, you didn't adapt to my crushing boot like you're supposed to, and don't be surprised if you didn't think about this possibility in your cultivated innocence.

The worst killer of independent willpower is dependencies, and this reality is making dependences on purpose. A reality that canalize people's willpower with dependencies, whatever the way it is done, will profit from and gain a very big part of control over those people, but in the end, if you can't have independent willpower, then you're a slave, you are trapped through dependencies in an unconscious wheel of self-satisfaction by seeing almost everything as an obstacle to more pleasure for you or your gang; you failed to understand the use of your consciousness. Many are suffering from what I could call the complex of the prostitute; selling her sexuality, making it her main skill, becoming dependent of something and then saying all her troubles are because of men's attitude while the true problem is that the reality or parenthood stuffed her with PMBBD or wrong views of happiness, it never gave her a true chance to develop a basis that made sense and an independent strength of will enough to stand up and fight for her independence and she never will. The worst is that she is not supposed to, and all she can do now is to fight to get more money and better work conditions. But I didn't talk about those who like the job, who dreamed as young girls of becoming prostitutes (escorts), or who listened to someone else's PMBBD boasting about how great the job is. (The prostitution "problem" is globally very well separated between the two sexes, you are not born to become a prostitute (escort), or grow-up dreaming of becoming one, and men are not born to exploit or profit from girls. And yes there are understandable situations or justifications, but the two live through a reality imposed situation in most cases, like heavy sexual pressure distributed by the medias and most singers, or creating the situation for the acceptance and tolerance of systemized industrial deluxe prostitution for the rich by making it a normal thing, like an escort, even a glamour thing, and increasing the mass every economic crisis by pushing more women to prostitution for an acceptable standard of living. And yes there is a relation, we are logically supposed to take example from people who got the means, if they are not exemplary then they're not supposed to have more means than anybody else, and exemplary is not only at a skill; robots can do that. Evidently on the surface, and to prevent the fragile minds of the susceptible selection of confessional do gooder from exploding, it will say it is against prostitution while it tries glorifying it in truth, and the richer the prettier, the more unfair, the more evil (and the more diamonds or cocaine). That is so because to ego-gods love is a manipulation tool to have the prettiest women diversity after them, and it works, from antiquity until now, it's all written in shades of grey probably...

I shouldn't say strange things like that, but you know how the top unfair are; you have no right to hit someone while they have no problems with torture and have many institutions doing it, one way or another, and to the death. The greatest evil is where masses or systematization is involved in acceptance, tolerance, pardon, adaptations, or encouragement, be it direct or indirect. They say they're against racism, and that we should not be, while they encourage it through twisted PMBBD to the point of making of the whole reality a racist competition of this country against that one. They say we have no right to kill while they got armies of institutionalized killers roaming everywhere, they say not to lie while they use PMBBD on masses at the ton, they say not to steal while they make the laws so their types can steal the worth of thousands of people legally.

Not knowing the use of our conscience will bring us to end-up far worse than rutting animals out of control; we'll not only overload the planet until we find a limiting factor, while there are none for humans except those created by himself, but we'll use all limited resources in the process, leaving a planet without potential behind, and that is just part of the shameful failure, because you know, the whole galaxy is open to us, and animals, what can they do? Hope that we are worth it I guess...

So we decide everything about ourselves, even to the extent of putting a bullet in our head (animals may get depressive but they won't jump-off a cliff (with stupid lemmings as the exception, and frogs can do it, when they lose their way to the psy, or took too much of that insecticide painkiller (they have that in little jars in the jungle, to endure the new gold rush, because frogs have golden eyes and prospectors are super superstitious)). Without limit and without conscience, humanity will overwhelm the planet "giving life", and contrary to animals we don't just use recyclable materials, we use finite materials too and their exploitation to serve a selection of 9 billion following the ego-god (s) ideology will condemn life to stay on earth forever and once we realize it's too late, we'll finish it, either in war, or by eating and exploiting everything until the earth is a dead rock because we have chosen our path, the path of animals which we have lost the privilege to bear as a title.

One use of our conscience is to give us control of our actions, and what we understand must be reflected somewhere; we understand that there are limits to everything, and we must show it. Consciousness makes us become what we want, when the push against it is not too strong. And I'm not talking about things like Kyoto which is an external thing to calm people's rising of consciousness and shine some nation's image, even if there are true efforts made, and the co2 exchange thing will work to some limited extent, because it is only one facet, and the reasons it is implemented is that it's a cheap and an easy thing to do, a growing tax on fuel mainly, something people can get used to with time... But I guess it's more effective to have a Kyoto than a Brigitte bardeaux on rubber peace and love...

Such things, along with the dependence of people and the lack of their willpower, makes it an almost impossible task to attain more individual consciousness without dealing with the different controlling structures. Furthermore, gaining consciousness doesn't necessarily mean control of self, it can mean exactly the contrary, depending on how the person limits it. What's still worse is that another thing you must learn as you gain consciousness and control of your person is that you must not deal with the devil, but when the devil possess the whole earth with its throngs of brainwashed happy gremlins, that doesn't leave much chance for better individual consciousness development, unless masses of gremlins die in some serious epidemic.

Consciousness permits one of the most powerful forms of intelligence which is the ability to look consciously through a maximum of points of view. Seeing yourself solely through your eyes unconsciously is the easiest attitude in life, add lots of consciousness on more social aspects and most people will be able to develop empathy, mostly for their family or gang, since it's easy to look at yourself through the eye of standards, or a camera, or superiority. But it all depends on your experiences in life, and these possibilities for seeing yourself through different point of view expand proportionally with your general consciousness, your imagination, and how long and how often you do it. You can put yourself in people's skin they say, the connoisseurs, you can do it for personal entities if you understand them sufficiently, but that will forever be limited; the more you expand your viewpoints, the more you need (consciousness, imagination judgment and knowledge), and it's always a matter of the willingness to do it, and the usefulness I personally add, and priorities, and life situations. Yet, the basics can easily be attained locally by someone intelligent and conscious enough if he spends enough time with someone; like your friends over time or your girlfriend; true love permits the most profound form of it. Most people look through the eyes of others but for how long? On what facet? The more you have points of view, the more you can switch through them. Do you do it often? Which one do you prioritize? How much time? It's not hard to teach that to children at school you know...But I understand it goes with the reality too, the rip, as I live this reality, I'm adapted to it too even if I refused it on many aspects, but I still live for something else, so as I already said, I'm disconnected from people now, they can only handicap my flight, but I still bear them in my soul more than most, it's just that the more you piss me off the harder it's gonna be to bring me back to earth, and the smaller the window, I know my worth and I'll have it or good bye. Oh, and you probably won't lose anything, so don't feel bad for it, I'm just too much for you even in my humility, and this is a fact verified with all my life as an example, I don't fly high for nothing... Oh, and no I don't have the biggest dick, so carry on now...

If you understand my kind of simple way of seeing things (that's the simplest, if I can't get my mind understood this way today, then humanity failed in its minimum educational responsibility). You now know that getting externally brainwashed is very easy, all you have to do is stuff a maximum number of images or phrases with a given or manipulated signification through your eyes or hears to your memory; add some emotive attachment for a better result (fool people, do the tuning test on them, profits if you succeed...). But that's the bad path where independence is superficial, good for democratic hierarchic government though... You don't have to create the whole access lines directory to the memory for it to exist (the act of learning something by heart), you just got to passively absorb things, preferably stuff that doesn't conflict the images and paroles that are already in your memory with access lines, if you like it neutral.

I understand the many critically useful aspects of it, but I never liked the idea of learning loads of stuff by heart either, learning 20 languages or math that I can do on a calculator is far from my kind of passion. I absolutely won't say someone must not develop a passion (I'm kind of generally passionate, yep, it goes well with generally caring), even one encompassing his whole life, for math or languages or whatever else, it is just that my personal taste, intermixed with my long term goals, limited my willpower, time and energy for a long time on many aspects. Not doing what I've been doing then who knows. So forcing me to learn names or PMBBD or advanced math (I'm not talking about basic things you learn before say, 13 (except PMBBD)) gave me ulcers (maybe I'm exaggerating here.). So I resent some of what I learned from teaching institutions (mostly from learning religious things and names, and more important names, and more names, and from which country exactly they came from, what sports they played in, for some racism and superiority stuff since we're not talking humanity here, but about this gang or that dreaming of hegemony for the like of themselves).

I don't care about forgetting things either (maybe I'll care when I'm 60), as forgetting stuff is critical to the evolution of the 3D web of lines and different levels of consciousness. I want to learn useful and true things (and good pleasures too). I'm open to anything else, even PMBBD, lies horror, whatever, and I'll even really appreciate most of it without saying a word, but 3 repetitions of the same thing that's weird thinking is often enough to start me, so be ready for more alternative paroles or actions, unless the beat or effects are really good. Now, start counting, but don't forget that some psy expert will tag you as obsessive compulsive...

So I'm not a memory crackpot, I don't take gigabytes of memory pills, I believe the thing is supposed to work by itself, what I want to control is the way it is used, I want to do it myself and that's what independence can lead to. It's like the difference between learning to become an expertise or learning to become a learning expertise, the first need to learn a precise choice of things that will eventually be stuffed in a robot with an extrapolation algorithm, while the second need to train his mind to change and be capable of anything. I prefer the second; it gives versatility of abilities, independence, and judgment is far better too in the end, even better than the one that developed an expertise in most instances and you are far less limited. So I don't need to train my memory, I don't like the concept, I'm supposed to train my body and mind as a whole, memory is part of a process, science got to stop seeing it as an object to boost with pharmaceuticals or inflate with syringes (inflation, inflammation); it's a process working as whole, you're not missing memory, you don't need more memory chips, you don't need to delete stuff in it; it works by itself, it is under all kind of processes, principles and manipulations, and they are the ones to make space, erase stuff, and all what is malleable through reality.

Another aspect is taking (absorbing) what you really are, your history, people forget and it's a good thing for most, because you have to build the structure to support your memory, who you are, particularly if you try the frankness thing and you're not making yourself a glorifying autobiography. So, in a sense, my philosophy, mentality and spirituality are there as a structure to support the baggage I'm carrying, if I dropped on you the stuff in my mind your brain would totally collapse, in fact it is my opinion that most people can't deal with the truth of their own life while they are very fond of judging or messing the life of others, particularly good and evil stuff, because it's there that pride or self-esteem can be most affected, and we like to hide our evils and expose the evils of others, win, win, and you can boast around how good you are while minimizing the good of others for another win, win effect, that way you can do condescendence stuff and competition and divert attention and have an image that can bring admiration, and create unfairness.

I don't want this reality to provide the track of my mind with a precise imprinted formula of expertise, a lot of it wrong or even PMBBD, which is already a deadly enemy. IQ tests all you want, I say that the way of the reality dictates most of the development ways of the mind, all what the civilization stands on morph the person to make him more comfortable in it. So you don't need to train, but repetition bear its fruits too, and understanding, taking the time to comprehend, and there are other aspects to take into consideration depending on how far you're ready to go to battle reality's pressure and open your mind to these things, like me that writes creating a far better logical order within my mind every time I go through it, and you can add talking to oneself which helps reinforce this process, all the while developing better competence at talking about it. I use my mind, as I should, a mind that goddamm wants to hold to its independence, so it did it by itself from my beliefs, wishes and limitations, and from sufficient knowledge gained by previous life, or this reality if it wants to stuff the credits in its ass, like some military people do when they say we're advanced technologically thanks to military research, or mass genetic food research, or space research. Anyway, I was saying that there is enough to understand a lot of stuff way beyond the bible within today's pile of bullshit, just update your search engine...It's still all a matter of living in hell versus living in a paradise though, you got to think about that, so to me it works, but not in the way this reality wants for sure, but always in a way I can manage to express respectfully, just barely, because I'm on earth and everybody got their infinite benefit of the doubt thing (god could be involved, I'll give you that if you want it...), and a few chances to show something for change...

You need to learn the basis the civilization stands on and try to make it better in function of others while enjoying, I think, in theory, since you're supposed to be happy. It's a question of equilibrium a lot, life is not supposed to be made of struggles, but you got to make yourself happy in function of others and limitations, and your interests will develop your person toward what you want, independently; you train for that, not to grow an IQ or memory. So leave my memory alone, and for memory erasers; you don't know all the uses of memory, maybe it is important to carry a bad memory all life long, what will you remove which is associated to it? And how will you explain all what's in my mind once I'll be done with my work? I don't practice my mind in any way this reality deems appropriate, so how will you explain me?

The way I see it, the quantity of directly useful memory begins to be full around 20 whatever you do; you can record writings as much as parts your favorite soap and you can record imagination too (then mix-up everything on hype...), better arrangements of these memories develop with age, in an optimizing scenario, as the filtering process gets reality forwarded to contribute to modifier influences (so we feel more safe (trusty of the result) to intervene and take manners with conscious intelligence (get more self-confidence to act consciously as we grow up, in ideal)). Yet, this age can be modified by many other factors, that's why I say 'around". Furthermore, we must not forget the work of sleep in every memory and access lines actions, most of the soap could be "optimized" after a good night, leaving only recreation cues or something. As we grow-up, I'll say we replace more and more not accessed memory; the more the mind have to search for this memory, the slower the process gets, and eventually, as we willfully chose to reject stuff and remain ignorant, the mind becomes more complex, entangled, and justified (I mean by rejecting unsatisfying complexities you limit your mind capacities and energy expenditures to your areas of interests, unless you think about it and decide otherwise, but it is still going on by what we don't like, and it is as it should, reality is supposed to be generally interesting as you grow up an adult (all your life ideally, if it's well made, as the summum of life emancipation, where bad feelings would be greatly limited, and the perfection of everything would make it so the reality has many interesting corners, activities and explorations avenues, all rewarding and a pride to our whole mind, no unconscious blockage to protect your fragile mind from suiciding (your consciousness that you confound with your mind)). The basics fairness stuff that makes us completely nuts are nothing though, when things fit into place, why exactly do we have to go nuts about the economy, like it's the most important thing of humanity, and it is (the reward system), but, there's just a simple logic to it in the perfection of everything, one that any young adult is capable of understanding at all levels, with the conclusion that, well, it's simple, it's fair and it works, so let's enjoy the visuals of it and pass to something else! So you'll be happy to have a specialization in your pockets, or to have developed a few areas of interests, or better, still be young enough to take a totally different path! All that applies to religions, seriously embarking in such loads of complexities can waste your mind for life, it's like a sect, those who get out of it already have won a lot because of the understanding gained, the logical battles won, the interrelated skills of better judgment, but yeah, they may be more broken than most too, but they're not lost anymore, just in another aspect of "hell" probably, but we'll suppose not... Just don't forget interrelations, the more you're ignorant of many things the more you're an ignorant altogether, and it can go to the extent of drooling open mouthed about but being super competent at something that's all there is.

Around 30 modifiers are mostly related to the complexities of the reality and things learned by heart, the mind starts losing malleability, freedom, and the less chances you have to find your "destiny" or, if you prefer, the less chances you have to find what you would have been best at, or it is becoming too late for that, you have become what "you" wanted; you had to find your castle before that, or you passed too much time trying, or learning how, to invade or control other people's castles, probably.

I could say that I keep a maximum available potential line space for my own working until I built my mentality, then I'll switch to others things if I want, since once the global 3D web of lines is strongly in place to my taste, developed and tested with my work, to see if I can make everything fit without conflict in itself, then I won't care about reality exposure and influences (even if I know I'm not affected the usual way from long ago (the best effect is gotten from accumulation and repetition) and I do it just because I'm as well). So, without contrary pressures, it gets more permanent and automatic with time, prove itself, even if a lot of me will still only exist as a multi personality mental malady, the rest mixed with what base I use of the reality. Once that's done, written my view, I should reproduce, in the best of realities, but since true love is almost an impossibility in this hell, and since the planet is already overloaded from the baby making extravaganza competition of the 60's for profits, and since it wouldn't be worth it anyway in the face of this invading reality full of PMBBD that thinks itself good and full of liberty, I'll just try to enjoy my time a little more I suppose, implant myself back in reality some more, see what comes out of this and continue on that path as my job.

Now, I must not forget that I'm 5-10 years out of phase in certain things, but that should make me feel younger, no? And there is not only the actual web of lines that is involved in change, there are different path, energy changes, chemistry changes, sense sensitivity changes, view, beliefs, everything is interconnected; much is involved in change, fast changes that don't persist like an unconscious reflex, and million years changes too...

And don't get all worked up because I didn't talk about the reptilian part of the brain, I'm talking about basic actions and reactions to memory, it's a crude, simple and incomplete mental imaging of a global process going on in the brain told by someone that never opened a brain book. These different parts scientists compartmented and like so much to babble about their precise actions are not necessarily a final chirurgical separated thing (influence, remember?). In some cases, if you followed what I said, you can move these parts a little around because they are strongly positioned there as a result of a mentality learned and reinforced from birth to death (if you do it not too late in life, but it still depends on what it is). Parts of the development formulae grows things in permanence as best efficiency in a step process, other are separated for form, and still other parts will use the brain as a whole content, like some optimizing processes. But still, nothing is random so what can physically move is very limited particularly since what develops the most strongly (until it is a modifier) is the longest truth.

Variations of possibilities are manly built and found around such paths, at smaller connect-disconnect distances, as for conflict, it can be anywhere and instead of connecting and complementing, it creates a different set of complexities with associated battle points where conflict will take place, tons of energy is spent to develop plays of pressures, moving war positions, construction, pollution, all kind of funky on-off digital effects occur on reality, explosions and light shows, hallucinations, mental breakdowns, entertainment for a positive view, it all depends against what you're battling, but such explosions and light shows have destroyed the life value of billions in reality too, and the show is far from finished since the divisive ego god (s) ideology thrives in extreme superiority inferiority competition, or competition for taking, which will always be a source of vast unfairness. And while a certain level of competition can be beneficial in many things, it is not as a whole reality top emphasis, the best use for competition is entertainment, sports, measures and surely something else I forgot, but who cares...

These battles are done by logical thinking and actions in reality to make the wheel of life work, even if there is an advantage to reproducing with a mind of high comprehension and integrity if it is done later in life, because reproducing as innocents tends to give rise to more innocents or better ones, as a limitation to consciousness, you can't take it, or you're not worth it, redo your homework, or let your kid try itself if you're not good enough (the kid still got to understand what you didn't, and he must work reality to show it, so maybe he'll make a more nicer nest and wait a little longer before reproducing, instead of going at it fast, hard, and wild, like Lady GaGa, then she complains she got raped, really? At least no baby happened, because he sure wouldn't be born out of the ideal of love... I'm not saying she's like that, it's just me that heard rumors). So reproducing older as a knowledgeable person will increase the likelihood of more appropriate genetic developments, but it it all goes together; there are many factors that must work together to bring the best pool of genetic options, or their likelihood to show, like having a strong love ideal, which is supposed to have a positive general effect on genetics, systemized fairness could contribute too, add a good base of life understanding on the pile, add some and all taken together, you'll have a lot of positive genetic potential going on, is my opinion, but you understand that we may have started the development of a bunch of bad stuff adapting to this reality, which will be an ass to deal with for a long time, that is if you take a different path...

As for conflict, a done modifier is almost an impossible fight, you influence these things is more like it, and most are old and related to a lot to stuff you cannot change in the universe, but at the other end of the spectrum you got the language modifier that is totally open to implementation and direct conflict that can be settled quickly, and effects usually show sufficiently fast in reality that every generation is talking a bit differently. You can forget a lot of stuff too, depending on your intents, like me that simplified my involvement in many aspects of this reality, for sanity reasons personally, but this is an extreme aspect of me, it doesn't apply to most people, who will prefer competitive social bullshit, or just not care for this or that simple minded reason, so instead of making efforts to define (fight), you just adapt and let the conflict at the level of skirmishes that last a few seconds now and then, like your mind knows it's not worth a fight, like a lot of entertainment, then when scientists study the brains of its exemplary citizens, it discovers 90% is doing nothing.
So, I wanted to say it can easily become impossible to move some thinking amalgams with interrelated possibilities and stuff getting built once you are around 20, worse around 30, don't ask yourself why changing is so difficult, maybe you made it so by how you spent your time previously, or adapting to reality, like a satisfying social situation. The rest have a position and stay there, things mostly used to modify memory unconsciously, they can be a bundle of mathematic functions transferred and extrapolated from birth, or a modifiable memory accessing function grown all throughout the life, a language strategy, all kind of tricks to play with memory and other things too. Yet, in the end, it's a matter of opening your door of consciousness to life (remove it so your mind is entirely a consciousness thing in full control of the person optimally to any given environment, but for that you'd have to become totally fearless, and painless, or invincible, kind of, so "you" (your mind) always need to restrain your mind (itself) doing stupid things.

And scientists of the genius shouldn't try to prove everything by inflating or atrophying parts of the brain they may see wrongly as the seat of this or that because a man of old got it decorticated and wrote about it in a book as final truth learned at school, or because they detected electrical activity there as a result of making someone do some activities. It's still important and useful research, particularly for robotisation to replace accidented parts, and these precise uses should reflect more permanent modifier emplacements, I mean, your arms are not supposed to grow out of your ass, even if the mind is not a precise and definite thing, the activity shows a relation for sure, but it's not total in communication levels and global interrelations, like creativity capacities, even if it works for surgery.

Furthermore, some big "normal" parts we've drawn everywhere may be overdeveloped parts from external PMBBD; if you had a 100 cubic inch to fill with 10 000 cubic inch of stuff, what would you do? Grow the head 100 times? You can't, you have to make choices, and some of these choices are made by life in its step process, and for as long as you don't reach a certain level of optimization you won't go through the step and won't develop the next thing. Other choices are made by selection, what we believe in, the PMBBD we impose to the youth, the reality we have to adapt to, what we like and don't like, what we encourage to reproduce the most, etc. Maybe memorizing all those soaps entertainment and PMBBD give us an entertainment PMBBD brain emphasis while atrophying other parts because we're dependent from an expression, or a displacement, to be happy. Maybe even our ego is dependent from insufflating some parts more than necessary, or more than other ones.

Yet, inflating or deflating parts could wake-up some of the skills or abilities the person should have developed normally, in a non-overwhelming, impossible to understand, full of pressures and PMBBD reality. But I'd be careful with the methodology, some of today's scientists could say they have discovered most people are sick in the head, because this or that part is too powerful or underwhelming, then they'll get pharmaceuticals industries to produce some new fuzzy chemical to inflate, absorb, atrophy, insulate or deflate or push around brain areas. The truth is that the reality is more profoundly sick than most people, particularly since it stops a lot of good diversity from being their best expression.

As for limitations, they can be anything, like believing the human is a gregarine animal with a big brain and going in bars and having a phone book full of friends, and continually doing just that, the gregarine animal with a big brain, will get you to develop as one and hear more of such stuff while texting, on your way to the psy...

You can revolt, revert, reject, reflect, forget these kind of thought, but who's the guru? Who's the expert? How do you know what introspective explorations are worth the time? When you got a book like the bible to scare the subject out of your mind, and psy got thick books too, I'm sure of it, sects? Where do I start? It's not like that, you're supposed to have a logical basis that make sense in youth about everything general, then just existing in an adequate reality should do the job thank you. I mean you'll have the instinct, the judgment, because at some point you understand, if I can go through this in my situation, then I say either you give me a trophy, or someone is not doing his job of caring adequately, because really, I do believe that I had everything not to make it, so who's not doing his job of not educating himself if all the tools are there and you even got someone like me to write this whole epopee? It's the end of ego innocence, get educated, make an effort of understand stuff before daring to piss me off. Ok? Christ, I don't even read books and I my school education is very limited, so what's your problem? You refuse? You actually refuse to feed or develop your intelligence? Then you're not worth it, that's all, oblivion awaits. Or maybe you're living in hell? There's something that happens with willpower in hell, and well, if you find it too comfortable, then oblivion awaits, at best, it's all a matter of hope, because you have found your paradise, you have lived it, and that applies to everybody who found happiness with misery around them. It's different in a paradise because the mind is appropriate for continuation, so you can always be happy, in theory (as far as you can go with happiness, it's not like we should be teletubbies or something...) And you can't say it's because I have good luck, and you it's bad luck, I'll give you my bad luck, you want it? What is it? In the end, when you'll have accepted to be taken everything in your open house free for all I sell my soul to the first devil, what will be left to you? A competition of misery? Because you think you got yourself a kind of end of the world lazy serve me situation here? Because good people can't see misery as evil? Sorry for you, I am capable of that. So I was saying there are no justifications except something wrong somewhere that is not me, if I believe most people have everything to do it 10 times more easily than me. In fact, beyond the pointed stuff and creativity, most of this philosophy and spirituality thing should come from living logically in a reality that reflects it. There are still things very hard to understand, and there is always science, and people are all different so there is always a limit, but I mean it's easy to build upon by yourself too, there's tons of exploration to be made that way, and not only that, but the skill of doing it is not to discard as a kind of expertise too, particularly when you are an amateur of malleability (capacity to learn and change). In hell it's different, because instinct and judgment is low there, everybody is getting had too, everything is deception, so good luck doing worthwhile deep introspection that will amount to something better than worsening your motivation or even self-esteem... And yes, if you're reading these lines you may be carrying an irreversible pile of bullshit that will make it very hard to get natural in a different direction, it's all a matter of interrelation, and just putting your file under the pile, which may be overwhelming... There's more evidently, like evolution and capacity and cheating, that's why you have family dynasties all ready for presidency... Some will say who cares, psy will say ignore, but why the heck do I memorize all this stuff to the point of writing this epopee of a book if it doesn't affect me? (Life).

Now, apart in a very protected situation, like monarchy, it's hard to say where you took your new mind genetic particularities, beyond seeing somewhat of a reflection of these from the family line. Even then it's still a slow steering process, and it's hard to know if your evolution is not the result of the natural drive of life systems, or if it is the result of surviving your environment (can be weird if you replaced (updated to understanding level) your pleasure system to a reward system that's not in harmony with life's ways), transmitting mind stuff from not how you consciously think how hot you are, but how you really are versus the billions of years of evolution of life). As for the strategies, as I'll explain in another chapter, there are many types of gene enhancements options.

It seems instinct is more related to basic physical needs, survival, reproduction complexity, food, sleep, things like that, while consciousness is more related to maneuvering through reality (with your senses), and directly modifying with a machete any unsatisfying aspect of the environment for whatever reasons you consciously think you understand in your limited intelligence, but your full intelligence may decide you're wrong, and it will actually enter in a fight with this crap you're trying to believe in, to the point of tricking you into working reality against yourself, and from how I have the pretention of thinking, this can actually become a genetic aspect, where you can live a life working against yourself, all from pre-calculated patterns, and it can spread to the whole humanity (experienced in advance by life, and if your free mind meets the situation again as you grow up, it will have a bigger tendency to not want to make the same mistake again, or repeat the same kind of pattern that led previous users to premature death, probably by making it harder for you to develop greater consciousness in some areas).

Also you got to consider that both work under the same process, it means that to work the genetics you have to work the reality, then the same process to develop life instinctively will do its work. And cheating is quite a quest, to have a little hint you would have to take someone like me, a mind in minimal philosophical, spiritual, mental, and communication conflicts, but better, in the sense that that person would be far better not be born in hell and reap a free overload of bullshit and manipulation in youth, someone fabricated as his own recipe, not yours (in fact the process may entirely be locked for sheeps because it's superficial external stuff implanted, and even if you say that you believe, you rarely do the whole process of understanding through your own mind, and that's particularly true if your belief is conflicting logic, facts, reality, or whatever), the attributes of mind development should be sustained until advanced life (I'm not that good at that btw, again in big part because this reality sucks my type of willpower to the point that I'm a monk), then, if you can last to around 45, then you'd have to make a batch of babies. In the best of scenarios (the best), among the babies, 1 will be quite normal, one will have some physical property, one will have a problem, and 3 will have a little something, probably imperceptible, that you'll retrace to the parent's mind, then the kids will have to continue the work. You understand that the reality will easily overtake the process, you'll need generations to develop something in stability in the best of realities (like a monarchy reality), in hell you'll just raise half a dozen people for personal fun, your work will get erased immediately, because of reality's many pressures, but your special kid will have to live his life and make his own choices while still doing everything necessary to succeed in not only adding to your work, but making batches of babies too, and sometimes bad luck happens and you need to roll the dice 100 times...So you need a new reality to develop a new mentality, which in turn means your consciousness (knowledge,of the parameters of it, its form, will change your genetics, minimally indirectly (the mental changes like the physical), forming your new mentality.

The mind got parts like your body, thousands of them, like every bone is a part of your body, so you must see it as a whole, you're a whole walking mind invention that happened behind your back from your mind limiting your consciousness to direct you or to put you face to face with your irrational fears and stuff like troubles. It's good to gather data, just survive, it's the heroic you that built this body, but it was 90% done through other heroic bodies that used their minds to break barriers of understanding and open new possibilities, they were people who were not scared of knowledge, and to make efforts to reflect it (bring the file back to the top, with interrelated stuff, work reality), it's a lot the good of love too, because it's ideal path is the human path, so rich people making family dynasties are a bit advantaged in hell, not so much the poor, but any sufficiently competent family continuation will bear fruits on that aspect, where you're most likely to get a better education, and reproduce a bit later in life...

So in the end the most valuable thing you can bring to life is understanding, with survival in mind evidently, bring life the pure stuff and you'll be rewarded greatly, genetically, bring it bullshit and you'll reap some form of evolutive stagnation, but life will still learn stuff from it, or regress if you do nothing to help it, along making a depression...

The other aspect to this is that by removing the logical base of fundamental rights (those are not written, they are known unconsciously, from experiencing reality and developing principles like fairness and survival intrinsics, like having access to known evolutionary tools; living in woods at this epoch is ridiculous, our brains know it doesn't make sense, you think you can fool it into believing otherwise? You must do it through reality, as a twice as conscious guy as me (your "other" mind), that's hard to fool. There are billions of people so love should be a given btw, affection aplenty too, get to work, maybe not that much, but you're not supposed to be starving too, all superior intelligences despise civilizations that find a way to keep on starving, I do too (yeah, I shouldn't make the mistake of saying "superior" as a good guy in hell, I'm just trying to talk the same language as those concerned, see if it works...), did I explain a thing or two about unfairness? It's evident, so move your ass, and evolutionary evidence is there, so you're supposed to have access to it, stop the bullshit, but I understand there's always a profiteer to keep all these things under the good control of his gang, so you're as well be a fucking cheater manipulator profiteer that hide stuff and keep its population half ignorant and dissinformed in PMBBD, if you are to keep a minimally competent competitive advantage in hell, you need all that and more these days...

In a paradise it's different, you don't have to worry about these things because you have the logical base of fundamental rights it's even logical to your mind that you're supposed to be capable of taking alternative energy sources to move it at far greater efficient speed, as a given, but it is exactly the contrary to me, as someone intelligent (my mind really thinks so, and far more than you thing, so what am I to do? I could get its message all wrong with my consciousness though, so I suppose I'll bet on that in hell, if my environment is any hint of where I stand in the order of things in reality, not in my hallucinations, eh?) So how is it possible that it remains on foot instead of augmenting its explorations possibilities, even if he wants the contrary and it's full transport all over the place? (the problem evidently is no basis of transport, only and solely profit transport (not meant to displace "intelligence" (people as skills) fast hassle free, but meant to profit from the need to do it...) one of the first thing our intelligence worked on, (getting better movement and exploration capacity by using other energy sources than freaking walking like I've been doing all life long on bitumen! Oh yeah it's all my fault! I just have to do this or that this way or that not do this and that while contributing to this or that while thinking like you. Fuck you! From now on nothing is my fault, nothing, ok? With some rare exceptions that you'll have to pick beyond reality and my personality, I'm disconnected remember! You stole everything from me, you raped, me, you treated me inhumanly while I'm the most human, for the most freakish scarily irony from hell and back, because I stand for my humanity, and after all your joyful crap that evidently I must pardon, if not it means I'm evil, I still stand, and I still manage respect, and I still fight for life, and I say that with all what I went through, with my intents, and what I've taken, versus the opposition, pfff, to me you're an absurd failure in extremism denial, so absurd that's it's worthless and I'm powerless. And I don't give a shit about your gods, I have class in the name of life, but all of you bunch of gods, you'll kneel before the UI! And my farts you fixated on will mean nothing...Yes we are all intelligences, but there's a lot of freaking wrong intelligence around...

My body is completely incarcerated, all that because politicians systemized everything for profits, so liberties are very much proportional to means, and die or forget about it if your intelligence need too much time understanding the fucking hell you made... You force people in all kind of shitty survival attitudes, and you limit greatly the evolutionary advantage of intelligence, because competition remains at the survival level for half people, so understanding is forced in a limited situation where past a certain point you have to do uglier things than thinking calmly to keep on surviving.

This may as well be related to the whole class separation gamut, which would exist in part to protect different comprehension parameters, or if you prefer, type of personalities (packages of attitudes arising from certain philosophical paths of understanding, because everybody is interdependent, and it would look bad to get rid of a type of people, minimally, but to me it's more like understanding what people don't understand, and failing to make the exchange work, (get myself understood, or get the other to understand stuff that would break the whole pattern he developed for surviving, if he's at the lower steps. But at some point those people who can't understand end-up with the advantage if you always pity or compassionate them while supposing they won't appreciate and change for it (you don't give everything to evil on a platter because he refuses to understand (take the means), or because you're the nice comprehensive guy that will sacrifice instead of the other, and that applies to pardon too, I personally pardon nobody that hasn't shown proof of change, whatever the submitted attitude I take in hell, in part because I give the godly benefit of the doubt, I'm a nice guy like that, you could be god with some superb machiavelous plan of max mental suffering through all kind of twisted trick to fool myself into thinking I'm into another mind and stuff to go insane, you never know, but I still think I'm worth survival more than you so shut-up or I disappear (applies to people, there are people I very much care about in my heart that I removed from my life because they are either too much to bear mentally in my state, or they're a risk to my future plans by their attitudes, and that last part is actually super grave to me because this seems to lead me in a direction of very sorrowful old days, added to my experience and understanding that developed resentment instead of removing it, how I feel treated as an intelligence, how I develop as asocial, all my repressed frustrations that I bear proudly, so let's add another supreme insult, like saying all your life of caring is worth nothing...

As for class separation, in this situation it worsens everything because you base it on protecting understanding to manipulate it for profits more than spreading it to make people better, and you can't because you made a workforce and a whole system that is dependent from limited understanding (another layer of consciousness handicap), or filling a lot of people with bullshit, in the name of the ego ideology and its superiority competition, it is a vicious circle that you purely fabricated as an enemy of life systems, always extremising understanding capacities (just so yes, in the end you'll have gods and poor bums who understand everything wrong and feel bad for it, so they work harder for you that understand everything right, I'm explaining simple, but in fact this process has been implanted in everything proportionally to our competitive attitude all the way to the country competition, with its G stuff, that act as a class separation and creation tool too, just so those who don't understand remain apart.) And what do you think? That it's evident? If it's hypocrite and you don't know the principle it's because it is evil and they know it, it's your usual systematic mass evil, like the unfair situation it enforces to the whole humanity that has been twisted to fit the system whatever their feelings, all the way to become a genetic factor, we are genetically becoming our divided classes, and you can see it by the reduced capacity of deductive logical understanding that is becoming an impossible obstacle (too much repressed bad feelings from unconsciously knowing (your "other" mind (free)). I'm talking genetic ability here, in fact you got family dynasties that produces politicians one after the other, and they'll understand a lot of stuff related to their own genetic emphasizes with far greater ease than people reproducing on other classes, if only by their persistent environment (life likes stability...), comparatively to other classes environments that will never permit these genetic developments. As for exceptions like me that can do what they want, they should die, in theory, unless they get rid of half their brains and get more brutality style stuff, to survive and reproduce instead of scarifying, but then they would be in a prison and they wouldn't be me, so I'm out of options.

But really, there's nothing supposed to be extraordinary here, I just care and decided to think hard and take the means, and that's why people are such asses with me often, it's because they know it's there, that it could be their brains doing this stuff, if they had the luck, even if they may overestimate their capacities, or they feel it and make the assumption that their potential is wasted (as they waste it), and in their competitive mentality it is evident that nobody is at the height of the opinion they have of their capacities (nobody can understand or compete because they have ideas, but what are they proving? Prove yourself you know...), so others who are living in the same kind of situation as them, or in the same class, are all inferiors worth condescendence, in all humility of understanding, without ever having proven something, and I suppose they should serve and scrub the floor for your eminence... I'm making a bit of a parody here, but let's say it's a little tendency, which may be encouraged by a social selection pattern of likely attitudes grouping together with time (people got a tendency to develop a social circle that will reflect what they want to believe of themselves, and you know we are not happy until we are served our incompetence...(as a way of saying we like to be right, until we're proven wrong, which is extremely dangerous as a mentality, so the trick is thinking and acting in the name of life, so there's the ideology to take care of too which is a very much bigger matter...)

Evidently, it still depends on your capacity to organize concepts, or build yourself a set of logical laws that develops with time. To me there are no god's secrets on earth, everything is there to be found, no taboo, only those we invent (a lot for logical necessity of yes, life..., like love and empathic interaction, good and evil for a direction, etc, etc...), what I mean is that you don't tell the first guy that lighted a fire that he's dangerous because he's into god's secrets, or worse, let's protect the knowledge of this supposedly god secret to manipulate or profits, because who say that? (except people who didn't think about it seriously).

Another aspect of this, when interrelating it to many other aspects of my philosophies and experiences and visions, and beliefs, is that life may be patented to cause increased difficulty proportionally to the capacity of the being to explore and understand. The thing here is that whoever cheats gets had, and it works in the same way as any mental displacement effect, through all levels of life (we are life), it's a way of saying that life takes cheating in charge unless overridden by consciousness. So, as you grow your fine mind, you'll reap more and more problems until you reach a break point of some kind. Now, it's not thinking life I'm talking about here, it's super profound action reaction, and most of it is reality dependent. Another way to see it is that to get a person to develop at its best you must put obstacles in his path (like to know equilibrium in things), and these obstacles are decided by the environment the person lives in. That works as a learning strategy but it's really for dummies, as the person (the mind) will seek solutions around and doing so will grow its capacities. At some point it doesn't work anymore (obstacle removed, others are absorbed as a permanent fact of existence as a genetic modification), that's fine for the physical realm, but unless life becomes too lazy and forget everything just to fuck around, (particularly for infinite old days, in a universe without death...) then you must design a system that will bring a maximum of environmental variations to develop life abilities, and you must cause problems internally too, so here comes good and evil, among other tools (this is UI stuff, don't read, it is a way of saying there is a pre-determined best path for you, and it takes the form of reality, matter, the universe of physics, one way or another).

So everything is kind of situationally (you'll generally put yourself in problematic situations naturally proportionally to your potential at dealing with these, and your vision of good and evil and your will to act in a good manner, will greatly influence your difficulty, so yeah the most perfect person can have the easiest trouble free life if he chooses so, but then he would fail in his responsibility versus life, and probably good too, so versus the perfection of the universe, he's not so perfect after all...) patented to give troubles to the best people, and these people, unlike me that will still have to ferment this philosophy for some time to make good use of it, must feel lucky if they naturally have bad luck, or they should feel privileged and try to take the challenges they put themselves in as they experience life. You can do it too to some extent, a big part of learning and developing a person is done through activities that are challenging, but you must have judgment (kicking a 250 LBs lion in the nuts is probably far too much troubles to deal with in one shot...) and you don't do things in an evil manner like to handicap life permanently, and you are not god. Doesn't making a hell a good idea to trouble life a little? No, because life won't evolve there in its best manner, the goal here is to help life and its evolution; find a different philosophy if your goal is different. Interrelated complexities are very different and what you develop in hell can be seen as a problem in a paradise, and a paradise is better geared toward high level complexities (see it as an age versus developing interests thing, meaning the basics may be less complex, in part to let the person develop a larger set of complexity (you can see it as expertise), or a developing one where complexities are more dynamically changing through one life by making a mind malleability emphasis in learning strategy. Evidently, when dealing with visions of god, one should be careful not to reap his worst nightmare, because the logic here would push for life to take the form of god by the environment you put life in, so, the best person that intentionally strive for good, could develop the competence to become god to overtake hell (the problem) and it should come with the realization that there is some vast slab of adequate comprehension missing, no? But at that point in my explanation, I should plant a reminder that hell is still mostly the result of an ideology, so I just use something a religion invented to describe a messy situation that developed from an only ideology raised to its extreme, and the transformation, and how we lost it in the transition from the pleasure system to the reward system that is now a perversion, while, ironically in hell, it is a religion that permitted the extrematisation...

You can look at the actions of people to know where they are with their fake brains (consciousness, I have one of these fake brains thingy too, in fact a lot of what makes us individuals is based on the form of our consciousness, languages too, so you're kind of stuck with it, and it's excellent like that, because at the other extreme you got an intelligence that's comfortable in not much, or in different dimensional parameters). What's more, our intelligence without it is kind of meaningless, pure logic is the path to the UI, you follow this path, but along the way you're supposed to flower like a firework in the universe, galaxies on foot is already good, other distance you may need to change universal dimension (spirit) and go meet the UI, by following the logic of life and the universe, but what I mean is that everybody's pride should be what you do physically in your total insignificance as an insect lost on a planet lost in a galaxy lost in the universe, our story, the physics of it means everything, and you have no idea how long it can last, and it is done with consciousness.)

So these actions that show what has become of our consciousness take the form of reality, like its class separation strategies that make it so that the most beautiful intelligences can develop very badly from the level of comprehension that can't be crossed, like an entourage of adults who are on the line of competitive survival and dependent from authority to act positively. So what authority do a represent? And it's not like I'm a super star around here... I lived in a room house with a bunch of people both upstairs and in the basement and one thing that I found quite interesting is the bullshit versus the truth of actions, as a not particularly sociably emphasized person with an eagle eye or something. One thing that happened a few times is a guy filling the fridge upon arrival like to prove something, then they tell others that if they need something they can take it, don't be shy. Food (beer) manipulation is the true oldest manipulation trade of the world (politicians don't even pay a six pack to people as a preventive promise (it's a promise ahead of time, nice) anymore, and married mothers don't hold their husband in line with food no more either, so evolve), I immediately become suspicious when people offer me food, it's like I just embarked in their games that's gonna cost me... In my experience, even a slice of bread can become leverage for anything, to gain an advantage, as little as it can be, particularly, when dealing with people who make a paranoia about money. So I mostly refuse, even tasting stuff (I'm back to the contrary a little lately, just once or twice, to test stuff...). When they reveal their true self, or at the first friction, you'll see them tell you that they feed you because you eat a few thing with them the first time, when they had that fridge full of stuff, but now it gives them the impression that they're good and you're cheap or no friend for as long as you don't start a kind of competition of wasting money; if you offer me something, do it with good heart, not as an investment, even if it's just to eventually boast that you're better because you've proven cheap, a special I made for you, because I felt the whole manoeuver would proves exactly that you're the cheap one, to me, reciprocally in hell.

So a few months later the fridge is empty and it's me that has to take my feets and go buy stuff to help them. In fact, most of the people who are so good initially quickly reveal as assholes after a few months. More than that, I'll be lucky if they don't leave owing me money, I don't go higher than 100$ but I'm the poor here, the reason there was only eggs and spaghetti sauce when you arrived is in part because the previous guy left me with 50$ less, or furtively went to the fridge during the night to steal my food that I would have given if he asked, but doing it as a thief way is better in his mind, probably because he thought I'm some kind of inferior that they wouldn't want to be compared to, and isn't it them that filled the fridge and offered me food,? Yeah... "oh, I'm not like that, I don't steal, I'm not an egotistical person" Whatever you say, but you do understand that there are 8 peoples very close together and wanting to wake up at different hours than you? Yes they all understand, they are social and respect others. Yet, 2 days later, for many, they'll reveal that in truth not only they don't care about other people around them by making excessive or unnecessary noises, but they reveal an attention deficit disorder, and a control deficit disorder too, apart from contradicting their bullshit about not being ego people. There is even a pattern that repeats itself, like closing the kitchen lamp at 10 o'clock, like everybody is supposed to go to sleep, complain about noises while they are actually the most noisy ones, by far, since they can't sleep during the night, make guttural noises or talk to friends on the phone loudly so everybody can know what they're talking about, or making any stupid noises. Then when they get a job they'll make boatloads of noises when they wake up like everybody is supposed to wake-up with them and it works, the whole house is up at 6 o'clock, are you happier in your life now?

Control deficit disorder here means that they want to decide how we live in the house, hypocritically, manipulatively, with noises as a psychology if necessary, the house have to adapt to their changing moods, sleep when they sleep, wake-up when they wake up, socialize with them because they never have enough friends, etc, etc. The cherry on the sundae is that the worse ones are older than me and never learned the adequate use of respect and tolerance while they request it from others, on their knees preferably, they want to control everything but they never even learned to control themselves first, they are ego even when they try to prove the contrary, they do the bravado thing like they do paragliding every morning to get at their job, but there you go, a little grimace or a fit of anger and they're traumatized for life, and you better watch out for types of insults and stuff, you could cause a diplomatic incident... No emotional extreme sport is allowed these days, it's boring, it's because it's wild they'll say, but it's them that's stupid, they just have to stop saying we're animals with big brains... Seriously though, I won't contradict anybody that will tell me that's uncivilized, and shame on me, seriously, that's particularly hard on me because it's something I've been working on all my life, in peace, in my soul, through my writing, it's just that change is slow I guess, but it's not the whole story for sure, I know there's just too much, the rip too, so I bet on simply getting older and continuing on what I do, I'm quite certain actually, but even that option I trust no more, at least I managed not to hit anybody (2 stupid exceptions for purists, a drop of blood around 12, and another drop around 35 to someone that really asked for it specifically, it was fun...) Oh, and it's not that I'm so hot, it's just that evil will see it as an opportunity, I actually think I would have been hotter rearranging the consciousness level of a few ones bluntly...

The strange thing is that through all their socialization and experience at embracing this reality and some being even older than me, they still don't know how to basically live and respect others, whatever it is because they don't understand or don't care. I definitively think that from an independence point of view, I behave exemplarily, I remain in my room, practically don't cook, have no friends, clean my stuff and try to make a supplementary effort, share when corners are tight, don't make much noise except typing and mumbling a bit to myself, I pay my rent, I leave practically all space, but I can't do more and I refuse, in fact, you'll reap an honor finger and maybe a fit of anger if you disrespect me or provoke me, or don't clean your fucking shit like you think it should be my job! And if I have no hierarchic powers to run slaves at the whip, at the point it's me that acts like a slave, then I'll take my age as my hierarchic power and you'll scrub the floor, pirates, I have other matters and problems to attend too, and fun to have too, and you shut-up and you scrub the floor! And you just had to respect me in my innocent disguisment (given by life, at a price, to know where I stand, in a lake of fire I found out...). (It's not about the floor btw, even if authoritarian systems will require some form or another of floor licking, and not just figuratively or religiously, it can take the form of its rebel elements getting crushed lower than most with nice cool concepts like the nail that get its head out is the one to get the hammer...I hope for your sake that you know what you're doing, because I'm kind of super proud of my head...). The other thing is that I'm no savior of anybody, I'm not the king of the poor, I'm not presenting my other cheek, so stop thinking I should be the psy of the love failures of this reality, ok? This is a trap, one that evil is very fond of using, good is not meant to make a paradise for evil, understood? I don't have to bear any more responsibility that I already bear thinking about 2 realities, and I repeat, that while I'll use the problems this reality made for itself to describe how wrong it can be, it was never my intent to make it better, I still don't separate people as good and evil just like that, hell and paradises are "only" ideological extremes; what I want to help is life and humanity, but I never believed in this reality to attain long term survival, and it's only one of its grave problems that I can't bow to if I'm to respect life at a minimum, so to me I can't waste my capacities glorifying a vision of human and life management that I'm against, so I work for another reality in mind, and my psychology is meant for it, and this reality that have given me its respectful worst, shouldn't suppose I'll give it the means to crush the next of my type lower, a type you already can't afford at its most insignificant... I'm quite frustrated not to have lived love to reproduction point actually, I'll write a whole chapter to express how I'm unhappy about that, I hope you'll enjoy, because to me it's like the cherry on hell's sundae as a lover type, but you sure wouldn't want my kids around, and you sure would not behave adequately with them if I'm to take my life as an example, particularly if you switch to the other extreme and start making a fixation, which is likely to happen if I'm to take my usual socialization as an example, and my kids would be worse off still, so no, you're too incompetent, sorry, evolve.

So like me you're not worth them, or humanity's current consciousness level and form is inadequate for my type of extraterrestrials, there are other ones out there, I hope they get better luck expressing their difference, because I actually look very much like a human, so I don't know how you would be able to show your intelligence that you're proud of around here without getting misery, unless maybe you could be a kind of dog, or an animal we can put in a mental institute to study the evil brains thingy... (your vision that make it so reality is hell to me, and my kids which would reap a continuation of my problems.)

Authoritatively speaking, I'm not a controlling bitch making an authority power trip, which are everywhere these days, with many taking the example, all the way to literary agents that you must "sleep with" to get your work published... In this reality leadership is so shitty that there is no freedom if there is no system to decide if your work is marketable, open market my ass, your whole market thing that doesn't even hold to its own principles is such a joke that you can replace it with a marketing system, because that's what it is, it decide what can be popularized, it's a censorship system in the land of the free, which is a problem because you're supposed to have the capacity to classify things, so what do you fear? Why do you manipulate people by deciding what's worth more or less attention? It is a grave problem, particularly for civilized people, particularly when it limits available good creativity, particularly when it only think of profits and not the betterment of life or humanity.

As for authority, I still like it when I just have to say a few words to have the world change around me (this book is really just a few words, versus the changes I'm ordering...) but I prefer to see authoritative attitudes as good in necessary hierarchic situations, and there are many excellent justifications, in fact, most of any reality is made from different autoritary and hierarchically dependent aspects, it's just the way things generally work with life and leadership, growing people is done in big part from accepted hierarchic family concepts, entirely natural and absolutely necessary, education would be far more limited, and you wouldn't have many types of businesses working properly without a hierarchy of employees following very strict regulations, and an army on the terrain is another example where strong authoritative voices shoot orders from the height of their hierarchic position, and personally, sure that if I want to give an order to be done with a problem, and you interrupt me with a rebuke worsening the problematic, then I sure won't be satisfied of the effect of my authority...

The other thing is that authority is meant explicitly to be minimized, it's more challenging, but you'll make far better systems and people because they'll lead themselves more (they'll gain more independence too), because the middle line here would see its equivalent competitive aspect as independence, so as I'll explain again in more details in another chapter, the ideal is to act as independently as possible while still being able to follow authority or hierarchy, by logical understanding of its necessity and intrinsic learning (experience gaining) aspects too. (It doesn't mean you must see it as a goal in your higher bigger competitive philosophy, you can hate it, or like it on some aspects of your life and not others, or you may want to take the place to change it too).

For now I'll keep it at reaping even more troubles for my good attitude with my neighbors (whoever those have been), because as some of them develop their jealousy or fixations, with evidently a touch of my incompetent making to start the process (from being incompetent at getting myself understood, until I lose my temper, in part because I care about too much stuff too much and I'm a bit disconnected and overloaded and bottlenecked. After that I'm done, whatever I do I can't recuperate the mess without worsening one thing or another, and it becomes, like my candor, quite an opportunity to reveal how some people react to innocence or weaknesses, because I'm still not a total hysteric moron, must be the emotional intelligence thing...

And yes I know, again and as always, that evil will tell me that I should pardon everything, we'll see about that in time, unless you take your feet and dare illuminate me... So the concept is that since we get used to my style of tranquility, it becomes like a condemnation if I said something about noise previously, so now the ball is in the enemy camp, any noise I make that is not TV, is suspicious, or an opportunity to do the bitch, I'll get a complaint, not because I'm noisy, but because they are assholes that have become overly clean and paranoid about noise just for me, to make me taste the other extreme, to make believe I'm the problem, to make me feel bad, as good people should feel when criticizing evil in hell... That lasts for around 6 months after I'm gone I would presume, until the fear battery needs recharging, because there is another nice situation that tends to develop around a source of fixation; association, people become saints and embrace each other's differences, like I'm the devil himself, the whole humanity must associate and erase their difference to fight the greatest enemy it has ever met, the antichrist guy 666! And don't show you got a weakness, they'll memorize it more than anything and they'll use it against you at the first, first opportunity, all hypocrite stuff, from people to whom you must pardon anything they do to you, because that's the way of gremlins and trolls, provocation, trying to prove they're good by making you worse, cheaters, manipulators, profiteers, bad losers, bad winners, they'll hold an extreme grudge to the point you'll be the cause of all their failings, as they erase compromising stuff because they are so wrong they actually believe means erase facts (their truth they know in their soul, not what they bullshit the history of humanity into believing with the use they have of their consciousness (then we wonder why our mind limits it...)). I'm not talking about embellishing your story a little here, everybody got this tendency, in a world of fake and selfies, unless I'm inhuman, we want to show our best, hide our worst, and it is even so at a universe scale is my belief, you don't have to show your worst, but hiding it will limit your consciousness options, to prevent retribution from those you influenced that should know what the fuck happened right through your soul (history is available as a time disproportion between universal dimensions (living or spirit, and there is probably a third one or more), meaning you may wake up from the dead before universal aspects that still haven't advanced much in time, so you'd have like infinitively strong matter and infinite speed and stuff like that which will permit you to travel the historical aspects you're missing in your understanding to maybe pass to new options but that may be a lot harder as a witness to attain than as a guy experiencing things with your feet, your living experience, the form of your judgment, how rightly or deeply you understood things. I'm sure I've got a retribution battery charging all along my life too, debts surely too, it works with good and evil concepts, just saying...

The form of these options, or available aspects you can play with, is delimited by the type of matter that was marked in the time filtering process (entropy, time form reformulation), as every matter influenced by life (can be whole solar systems, even galaxies) can form like a strand of an aspect of life evolution in the universe, a dimension of its history, its ongoing intelligence, and we're the most complete thing, because to work together it must come together, so we exist because there are sufficient strands going on, and their form makes up the form of the intelligence of the universe, (strands missing or of disproportionate size in this strand vision, which reflect how life is going in the universe, and they are really dimensions, but for the purpose of my work I'll only use the "strands" word for this specific concept. Now it also mean you can have bundles of strands specifically reserved for direct intervention, not as horse harnesses, but as interdimensional channels, meaning you could have types of matter non-existing in our universe but that still exist, there could be many of these, and bringing them together as building materials can only be done in the spiritual dimension of the universe, but then the object would appear not existing in our universe even if it's right there in your face, invisibility not for dummies. All that evidently is UI power, and it doesn't judge you like your neighbor, don't worry... It's a creativity maniac though, and yes it got a disarming sense of humor, well measured I hope, among the many of its qualities...

Concerning my bad feelings, I'll do the usual and manage it all inside myself, as a kind of battery concept, and time will do its work I suppose, because I must survive my intangible stroll in hell, as I study it and its trolls, because yes, it's in part the same kind of attitude, until these fixations developing on you give rise to flasback effects where you kind of become it too by weirs hormonal interrelations, like there's a bad quirks exchanges market out there, or it's so low it's like a practice ground or something, I suppose it's because we're at the "me too" epoch... I'm joking, there may be such little effects, but really, it's a question of personality, and psychological divergences while we're at the divergence me too epoch... And this reality encourages all kind of these inadequate interaction and interrelations, which are not much better than trying to develop sexual perversions, like putting people who would need to be calmly alone crammed together 3 adult men with problems in a little apartment, and you are forced to it, yes forced FORCED, because the system is patented as such, by a history of politicians and profiteers that played in it until no more money can be extirpated or it can't go cheaper except dormitories, like in old slavery times... I am FORCED to this situation, whatever the fucking shitty manipulative argument you'll use! Which is not much better than incarceration, and I'm not talking about the psychological effects, and I'm not talking about the stress effect, and I'm a writer that need concentration, and what insult me more is that I'm supposed to leave this in expert educated hands, those are called psy, and they're glorified all over the place like gods, while this fucking system of lodging is a shame to sanity, it is a crime against humanity, that's it that's all, and there is no rebuke, no arguments to be had the proofs are made over and out repetitively. So fuck you and get your shit together fucking philanthropist! And the same for this insignificant psy science, that is not even capable to do its job at the most basic level of society, because all those people boast they like to be independent, hear that stupid psy who fail to listen? Oh I know, you'll say it's all calculated as a way to gain experience "naturally" at becoming mature and independent citizens. It's all natural, and the proof that your strategy works is where? The suicide rate? They're all dead, I forgot, and there's good medication these days... Me I think you're a shame to your profession, the mind is like the ultimate creation of the universe, think about that, before biasing your shit all over the place to satisfy your brainwash of a quest to make the gregarine social animal sardine humanity thing (maximally cost effective workers, while a damm lot of people are still on the line of survival, a place to sleep, food, entertainment, a fucking, and they're ready for another day pyramid building, yep, we're not far from slavery, it's just done respectfully these days). While talking psychology, I'll tend to repeat more than for anything else, that it is an important science that I respect greatly (always, mind stuff), in my way, while having things to say, there are many excellent members of these professions that would quickly distance themselves from the experience I'm having in my corner of reality... In fact, I'm certain that the more competent ones could enjoy a discussion with me more than most, while exchanging terminologies, but well, I said my experience would be the base of my judgment because I came to trust nobody, so I'm sorry for all the competent members of any trade I'll dirty along my stroll to explain why everything is not nice in my life, as it should from all those benefits and technologies and mind alteration therapies...

That's my problem, I like doctors, I like medical knowledge, I like to have chemical pills that save and preserve lives, but when you approach the mind I go crazy because a majority of twisted things I heard, and attitudes I met come from people that talk about the mind with ease like they made it (like me I presume), in a situation where a majority of mental problems are reality related, which can be pressures and PMBBD; change the reality's ways and those patients would not have developed those problems, so what are you healing exactly? Beyond the evident problems that's always been there? One more thing about your quest to atrophy problems, some of what you may be meant to thrive in another reality, some things are wrong developing new things that will get better with time, or disappear, some immediately, and some will take thousands of years. I'm saying not to jump to conclusions too fast about what you consider a problem, particularly in a problematic reality (problematic; automatic problem generator). Our minds are already overloaded on many aspects, I had to do thing nobody think of doing to keep mine within load tolerances (yeah, I have a steam meter at home about that, to know when it's overloading or overheating, it still does sometimes.

I never actually felt this overload effect, it's just a concept that does work on many aspect of the mind as you grow-up, until it become stuck in a kind of limiting entanglement, from all what you cumulated that has some sort of importance to the integrity of your personality, or consciousness, still continually changing, but things are more complicated now, complexity that is both what form your personality and all what's culturally necessary to advance in reality, along all what your actual mind as a free entity keeps for itself, to permit you better survival, like all data that can lead to future extrapolations, so your mind can make plans while you sleep your consciousness mess off. It could work all day long btw, in fact sleep has nothing to do there, because it's just related to healing, in which case both your brains would sleep together, but maybe one is more effective and logical, or lazy because you haven't provided it with valuable data for years. I personally don't seek much data, I got some level of education, let's say college (when you take military and computers courses together), and I care generally, but believe it or not, the biggest provider of my knowledge is myself, but it's still entirely based on my past interests. What I mean is that writing this book I learned a tremendous lot of stuff, like all what's related in becoming competent getting myself understood, it's just insane, so it's really the matter of taking thing so much at heart, while being candid enough, to condemn myself to a project I can believe in, and I had to plant the doubt in people, just that, the possibility, but then I got totally entrapped, because it's like a big net, when you lift a corner it reveals another one, and it went way totally overboard, and what can I do? Tell my mind to shut up? Because, you know, there's a lot of discouragement to be found in my environment... So while nobody believed in me, I started with life (the entity that made it so my revolt was worth it) and went all the way to the UI, because I believed in myself, because the truth is that had I listened to the opinion of any self-proclaimed expert in the domain, I would have dumped this, and never discovered or understood this or that, because it's just too ridiculous the amount of knowledge behind the door of rejection, it's like there's a parallel world out there, and you don't notice in my writings? Common! I talk about professionals as much as "friends" that laugh at such stuff... But yes, I was really incompetent, but full of potential, and guess what? I'm the only one that bet on my potential, so what if I win it all? No sharing! I laugh in fact! And it's you that's stupid with your ideology, it's your choice, you can always make another reality so I have friends...

And it's just one aspect, the worth of my person I simply just try to ignore as a monk (the rip), but I was talking about learning as a wheel, the importance of writing to my knowledge, and how each revision is like a whole new set of new understanding, as I have to go through all aspects that form what? Not just my life, the mind, or the economy, a whole reality, so that's the trap, I have to become competent in everything, at least mentally, the physical tends to be around 5 years late (more natural reactions, which brings me back to overload effects, and I'm bottlenecked too...). Just dumped this, can you believe it? Dump. In a sense I had to believe so much in myself and life (I am life, my mind) that I was worth the UI, because in my job I had to take the whole universe very seriously, and what can I say, obstinacy to perfection? So I learn, just thinking about the moment I invented the ideology concept, I didn't even know what was ideology, I just thought it fitted, and there you go, big new revelatory concept that will now have to be implanted everywhere within my work and it fitted so well that it now appear seamlessly with all kind of other principles (conceptual principles for purists?), and what you don't know is that I didn't have a dictionary or internet at the time, and I actually defined what was an ideology to make sense to myself, think how far I've been!

So I was saying that not feeding your "other" mind (your full mind, free from consciousness restraints) much worthy data you may have shrunk it like it' a squirrel, so it's atrophied while your consciousness is overloaded, maybe overclocked for some, so one wakes up before the other and do the dream thing.

Being fair I'll say psy science is into something, brains, and while it does a passable to good job on many aspects of its understanding, in this reality it is often worsening things beyond what life can take, even creating genetic classes of problems humanity will be stuck with for a thousand years, because this science (science altogether) can't harmonize life to the current reality we have built, when it's not downright incompetent, class specifically I suppose. And btw a million suicide a year is worth mentioning in your virus list, or pressure selection process, but that's just a facet...

Presently, the way it make its studies and how media experts extrapolates these they're forcing a standardization of an adaptation process, their affirmations are used to form a historical pressure selection, limiting the mind of people, like religions of old, which they like to do by tagging people as this or that too, deciding what is a good working brain, creating gods and inventing tests, and all kind of self-important people trying to teach me how to live throwing affirmations that don't work with me. And this attitude of making all kind of exceptional people insignificant until they disappear have been made by ego manipulators from the beginning of human history, what humanity lost is extraordinary, and it is at its final step as a total interdependent human failure, a pyramidal ego reality that will destroy everything for luxuries, control, profits, sex and entertainment and those who are not happy about it can only get a spiritual load of godly PMBBD or anti-depressives from people who play with minds like they invented it.

What I mean is that professionals dealing well with their knowledge, who are there with good intents and not for profiting, you listen to those people, I'm personally experienced with the lower end incompetent and dangerous lot I stopped trusting, but I'll definitively listen to a competent one giving me a pack of antibiotics or a vaccine shot, all that while understanding that antibiotics and disinfectants warfare is a bad way to deal with little life; you are dependent from bacteria and viruses, trying of eliminating them off this planet or even your body is kind of ridiculous.

The same for surgery, I'd be scared to have a grave accident and being "healed" by a lot of them in my poor situation, and that is directly related to the education system incompetence associated to governments institutions incompetence, like the austerity competition that develops with time over everything, add that to the profiting competition too...

Our best doctors run away to the states because they are better paid there, we have been missing a mountain of doctors of all kind, and suddenly, within a few years, no problems anymore! How did they repair the problem? With grave incompetence I say, overwork a lot, an election is coming, they removed some limitations, money attracted the "best" ones still farther away from public hospitals, they lowered the standard of acceptability, more cheaters passed the exams, they incapacitated the "watchers", and now anybody can do surgery in his garage painted white for big money, soon, killers will get a medicine diploma from a box of cereals. Maybe not that much, and when they crap out in their experiments, they Google about it or dump the problem in front of an hospital where the true good ones are less paid and overworked, and they don't like taking care of poor bums who profit from the system... As for the public clinique, it's where those who get out of prison end up prescribing me a pack of general antibiotics because they don't know or the medication which is supposed to be "free" for profiteers like me is not on their list of "free" medication, while I'd bet Viagra is. And did I talk about dentists service that is supposed to be available in competence for people like me too? Which is supposed to be "free" too except it cost double (you have to pay for what's over basic service, but doing so you become illegal because you had to raise 2000$ over what you have the right to raise without losing your socially assisted status, and so you have to reimburse the illegal amount to the social assistance too, effectively doubling the cost hurray, or get a job they say. It's just a scenario, but it made the difference between keeping a tooth and meeting another incompetent dentist, or keeping it and get a far better job done.)

As for the pill rain (Jesus miracle), what you must understand is reproduction in that, every time you replace a life function with a pill you take a chance a life system will make the life-form more dependent of it through reproduction in ways science don't see in their absolute knowledge of life; they think all there is to it is DNA, genes, chromosomes and base cells and fart effects, but that's just a part of what is involved in reproduction and creation. These pills include anti-depressives, Viagra and excitement control we grow young people on, and remote control brains too, someday, we'll be born depressive or excited by default. All these things are very important, I won't say the contrary, but this reality in extremism is gone nuts with its psy and doctors and pharmaceuticals industrials, even food industrials on properties too, a lot of which have as a sole goal profiting by stuffing people with pills or chemicals or antibiotics at the first opportunity. Next, you got to be very careful with your hormones control fun too, it have been existing for only 50 years as massive, and we're on full swing sex banalization presently, it will be interesting to see how the human will be morphed from this in a few thousand years...

Now, talking authority and leadership, if people try to be helpful or help themselves and take my criticism as an opportunity for better understanding instead of an opportunity to competitively give me more problems, then I'll take it, but I tell you that reality is not doing its job, because what I'm living is in no way appropriate, in fact the problems I'm supposed to deal with should be at the height of my capacities (logically maturity related), and what I'm dealing with is everybody's little bitching problems that come pissing me off (I don't seek, problems come to me as they are meant to, because problems get repaired with me, proudly at it, so I fall into them as a kind of rewarding bad luck, they don't end-up as systems to profit from the weaknesses they causes at least, I work well, problems die with me as I develop creativity to explore and create new problems for my kids (others) to deal with (big problems, like a new reality, which is, yes, a very big load of problems, meant to overtake another batch of problems, since we like so much problems we make bricks to build hell out of them...). The thing with problems is that you got to take them on young, when you're still a bit of an ignorant, because you'll soon find out all history of humanity have built a net to deal with its problem in its own ways, so in fact what you see on the surface is only the best this reality can do with its problems, because if you take one in particular, you'll see it's not only the tip of an iceberg, but it's all a net of interrelated icebergs (like condemnations) all the way to having its own psychology to defend it, because, evidently, everything is interdependent (among the many "everything is" I find out, there must be at least 25 of these "everything is" things, I wonder; is everything problematic? I'll have to ask that one to the UI, because in theory it should (initially the problem is keeping on existing, so everything is a decomposition of problems, and I suppose that's why life likes problem solvers... The problem here is that there are problems intrinsic to solving problems, the weirdest of takes the form of coming back to the original problematic because you decided to extremize your vision (you can see it as steering, you steer between solving and creating problems (through exploration and creativity, which probably arose in your exploration to solve problems), if you take one side or the other things end badly.) Or you decided to limit your understanding causing a different set of problems, but what I mean is that the contrary is extremely important too, because the solution to the initial problem is more problems through creativity, which is a survival tool (initially, and always to some extent, because even a smile can make the difference between existing or not (it may have become a universal prerequisite, because the UI as an entity deals with the same existential problem as all intelligence, so any possibility that can be a little advantage to survival must be explored, and if the new creativity (smile) creates positive effects with sustainability, then it can become a universal dimension because of its many survival advantages, so practically all life, maybe apart greenery, will gain the capability of some level of smiling, and you may think that's stupid, but don't forget the most fundamental drive of life is a pleasure system (that make it so life actually survives, since you're supposed to know the pleasure system is a trick of your "other" mind (your full mind, free from consciousness restraints) to make you use your body to get food and act more intelligently to get at pleasures that are decided by your "other" mind (the strategy, not specifically, except chemically, a decision that took form (life's physical bodies) through billions of years, so you won't scratch that just like that without scratching yourself off along the way too, and I hope I'm providing some kind of understanding on how things work down here, to extraterrestrials on TV who forgot the concept along the way of their evolution in interstellar soda propulsion cans, oh, and I should add that it means all intelligence has to trick its own survival, literally, in advance through reproduction genetics, it's all a bunch of tricks to be sure the next one won't fall in death traps, and the work is done by precursors of understanding reproducing, whatever you make of it in reality, or the subsequent discontinuation of the effort by future generations (who may completely forget the understanding), and so it means we must behave with understanding and knowledge as a humanity, and when it doesn't cost too much, make it available globally free. But then you're opening a new set of problems which comes with the unacceptable mentality, which can only be removed wholefully, by the creation of a new reality, which is another batch of problems, bigger, better, they say, the pros...

The best harmonizing effect evidently is history integrity, precursors of understanding should be at their place in history, not thieves or cheaters or copiers, you fool the whole life integrity thing with your consciousness full of falsehood you're trying to force upon intelligence, and the price to bear goes far beyond that in outer space, when you debark with your (squirrel, 10% functional, nourished with peanuts) intelligence in front of the innocent you, your consciousness, in the spiritual aspect of the universe, where your history, which form a big part of this consciousness you float around, is made of 90% pure bullshit (it's crystal clear it is now, where's your dick anyways?), could be messy, but welcome to the club, there's a line that never ends this way, and you'll wait a long time because your the last of our priorities... (it's not really supposed to work like that, but maybe so, as the roll of history unfolds (the strands (dimensions) you have access to) and watch your effect on it as your friends are as far away from you as they were in truth...).

I was saying it's your "other" mind, as free, decides what's funny (the pleasure system), decision that developed by intelligence existing through life for billions of years, which you try to crush the will of under drugs, or overload its systems (the whole way your body work, so don't be surprised if you're messed-up or get sick)), like fighting, because everything is fighting (like existence vs inexistence if you want to start basic... ) It's a human privilege in the universe to have consciousness of these things, and it is a privilege to have the bad luck of falling into problems (candidly, never thinking about it, they're supposed to come to you from trying to find your place or path in life (destiny), and you don't create them on purpose except for entertainment, that would work against survival, they develop from bad philosophy in theory, because at the ideal of perfection, or the path to the UI, then problems become enjoyment, so if there is a problem that makes you unhappy, it means you're doing something wrong (or somebody is, can be a whole problematic reality), but you can still terminate all problems with an explosion (extreme problem solving, going back to existential problematic, or you can take the other path of having too many problems too fast).

The worst is when you never end uncovering interrelated problems as you fight them, which may make you lose it sometimes, and become a problem yourself, as I do develop personal problems in my fights too, I have big scars in there, but I rise again, problems get understood, while my imagination knows no boundaries, so life is happy with me. But maybe not as a member of this reality, that's why I try to distance myself as much as possible, so I'm not confounded in the lot... But I'm still human, and my stuff is not proven while reality advances very realistically, and I refuse to be disconnected from that, everything exists for a reason, there is no use for intelligence if it doesn't have a home, a history, people are my history as much as life. As for problems, it's very rewarding to me to be done with one, particularly if all it requires is a magical incantation (a phrase), but maybe a planet full is a bit much; I don't want to die with the feeling that I'm finally done with humanity's problems, not that I would want the contrary, it's just that I'm a bit overwhelmed and I don't even have friends, from rock bottom problems, stress problems, my problems, all the way to the other extreme of godly systemized problems, and I'm at the lowest, it's not like I got a team of problem solvers around nearby...more like teams after teams of problem adders...) Yes, survival and making a system work means you deal with problems one way or the other, but this is absurd, or maybe not, what if I'm so good that I'm meant to deal with hell? I will try, if I'm permitted some bouts of incompetence, but that shouldn't be a problem in hell, versus good I mean, sure that hell's members will flash the flipside of their cards to complain for everything and reject my stuff (evil is entitled to use both good and evil to his own agendas, ask him, he'll say "I have all rights, I'm just limited by fear"). I'm still lucky, I'm gifted, thanks, but the problem with that is that I'm my fabrication as the result of old revolt, so what is my part? It's hard to say, what is the result of genetics? And what is the result of my own will? I could say everything I do is the result of genetics, no credit for me, and the same applies to the whole reality, nobody is responsible in nothing, it's all the fault of life, and nobody is worth it better than me, but then I should have taken drugs and killed people as an irresponsible because in the long run it seems it's not worth it to care for one's mind and health in a good way in this reality, probably in any reality, because we don't live long enough to make the investment worth it (or it's me for whom time pass very much too fast versus all what I have to ferment adequately), and thinking of all what I would have wanted to do then something is not working, even in logic as a continuation of life, even is a reality of a better ideology, what composed the whole experience of humanity should be available to me, so where do I find the time if there is so much I'm entitled to do? And it's kind of a sufficiently frustrating fight that I sure don't want it to end in my tomb. continue way beyond death...

The other thing about problem overload (which in big part reflects failures of reality, because it is my opinion that a vast majority of the problem I've had in my life should have been cleared way before my debarking on this earth (my coming, alternatively, I'm just not really trying to do the humility thing here...), so call it good democracy all you want, I call it a failure of understanding or applying, or success of evil.) And now it's me that got this tendency to be exaggeratedly hostile to what doesn't work as it should, as I get older, I think because I'm supposed to like it when things work as advertised, and at some point of always repeatedly reaping worse for your effort, you want to finally just have things work, so who invented patience when it never ends? Because I'm retaining a burst of tainted laughing here, it's one of those many moment where I could look like the painting, the desesperating feeling exacerbated by the ultimate irony in hell... But what I meant is that as I violently extirpate myself from the grip of all the problems I have nothing to do with (except falling in them, except they're all my fault, evidently), it will often be reflected in my violent opposition to those problem (results often), until I come to have to deal with them, so in this way I entangle myself in the problems of others through understanding, doing their problem solving job in their place, while they drink beer, for some, others are thinking profiting schemes.

No responsibility may be a bit strong, but who cares, will say the experts, luckily I have appreciation for my other mind, the global intelligence of humanity, life, gods, the UI etc, because if I was the nemesis of your ideology, or god as the form you're worth to your "other" mind (which is not that bad, I know evil would want to end up running the universal business (it's all a matter of profiting competition...), so to him I'm supposed to have the opinion that everything is gonna be allright, but I'm not sure my other brain is of the same opinion, so maybe you'd do well to consider seriously what I'm writing, the opinion of my human independent consciousness side of thing, because if I were you I wouldn't want to deal with the opinion of my other brain about how good you are, there may be a disproportion between it and my consciousness writing stuff like a fearful weakling on full respect, bowing, careful of susceptibilities, doing diplomacy, and weighting humoristic effects, and trying to pardon and tolerate, while accepting the fatality of democracy. Humility also, whilst presenting the other cheek...) It's laughing at me, but it's ok, we understand the other is inappropriate...

I was saying that as your god that is debarking and just looking at things from his confined spying position, if there was no life connection, no wheel of life, then your reality, or the attitude of both people and reality, would makes it so I have no responsibility in nothing beyond survival, like a pure baby. But thanks to life making me as your nemesis god, the only version that can work for life, you got what you wanted, a guy that tell you what your brain thinks, and the same for the global intelligence. (I'll explain a bit its functioning in a few pages, but you can see it as the brain of all life (unbeknown to you). And do not confound with internet "intelligence", internet is a knowledge base, no intelligence there, whatever the algorithms (programs) you develop to play with this data in a way that satisfy your single consciousness aspect of intelligence, call it AI when you can make it fool people with tuning tests, but to me you're just setting the internet (knowledge) in a limited controllable form to serve the ego god (s) ideology, and that's why it's dependent from and it is full of rich people profiting from selling stars (important stuff that nobody should own for themselves, like knowledge, or virtual stuff).

I would be the entity of life intelligence that understand stuff you have no idea about, expressing itself through a fully conscious being, and that's the best life will do to make your belief true, I could be your god but I'm not and I assume that I should not, in my vision I prefer to think I'm like an ordinary guy that should compose a sane society at this epoch, but in a hell of extremism, then the difference between gods and their lower level classes is so great that I could be fooled into extreme ballooning self-inflation, and profit from it to make a mountain of money. Even some politicians could be fooled in thinking I'm some superior entity, but really, the proofs are there I'm not. Yet, in theory, I'm still a unique after effect of a mishap of intelligence (ours), so if you don't appreciate me then you're really playing with fire, you're reaching the point where life on earth failed making sense, it was evil, not good enough. So I'm not god, except for games, I'm just a gifted guy, and maybe a lot of people could enjoy the style, in a more adequate reality where I don't have to be such a bitch. Yet, finally, you got to consider the perfection of everything, so yes, probably all serious business species out there went through such an experience to learn rare lessons, to respect this life they've been devouring mindlessly, and it made them stronger, and better, even if more sensible...

As for punition for our sins, this doesn't hold in my vision too, yes there definitively should be a reward-punition system, there is one as we live no? But not based on physical torture like planting spirits on crosses waiting for the howl of pain and blood shower, the same for the lake of fire (they can't really say they're making hell on earth, hell must be somewhere else, and at worst it must be so ridiculous it must not exist, while the logic of it is that it describes a state of things right here on earth that they're building), and pain is a tool of life intelligence btw, your other brain, to prevent you killing it too stupidly, it's very much a grave lack of life understanding and respect to actually impose that willfully to other intelligences, another insult religions are all unanimous on in their "spiritual" vision, spirits my ass...

So you are rewarded with the problems you are developing, to make you understand, and as we made hell out of our profiting competition, it gave rise to god as the supreme taker, possessor, dictator, punisher, then everything got kind of systemized around as an ideology, to defend your god vision that you decided to condemn yourselves to, which life (your other brain) doesn't like, so it is serving you your travesty, all the way to making stupid humanity, if need be, so I stand out beautifully (supposing there may have been an hidden horrific act to desecrate life as a general intelligence entity, for it to reverberate that way, it would have to be committed by a population, so let's say I'm just making some far-fetched relations here, since the selection process for a general mind limitations like that would have needed to started thousands of years ago, as a revenge from life (I don't see how the rich could manage that), like forcing it to bow to your vision of god, and now it is ready to bring the matter before the UI, which would have come inevitably, but still, the relation is thin, I may as well be dealing with the result of both a poor education system, love inadequate vision, and the social animal emphasis, all taken together, with maybe a touch of genetic frustration carried in time, and my work effect too, because there must be something no? Unless I'm hallucinating and I don't see that people think like me. I should add for those who are happy when I securize their state of mind or preconceptions, that what I talk about here is no joke, it's not funky spirit stuff, the way I understand the mind, I'm exposing possibilities knowing my mind will use anything at its limited disposition, to make me understand.)

I can't be punished for not developing all the skills of leadership if my parents were inadequate to permit it, or if I pass my life fearing for the reaction of people when I talk about what I hold at heart, the same for reality if I pass my life crushed under all the boots of humanity (let's say 99%), it's worse in fact, for millenias the elite developed (who got the means...spend them on his selection of appreciated attitudes, jobs creators do it all the time, it's so terrible... Yet, the way it's supposed to work ideally is that the means, or that aspect of the selection process, end up in the hands of the many, without losing anything in the exchange, except big money stashers, and that's what I'll invent so I have no relation with your stuff, no responsibility in it, thank you. And it has nothing to do with any of your ego ideological preconceptions.)

So I was saying the elite (those "higher", not the president god or "super" "stars" divas, but near his lieutenants, ant queens and tribe masters, they got their selection in harmony, or call it predictability, of effect with life, or our other brain, reaction to our insulting philosophy, so we end up very much born around moron, as animalistically suspicious social people, interdependently limited by the intrinsic of a competitive reality we are pretty much forced to embark in, until a complete loner full of problems, a mega collection, bust the twisted psychology that comes with it; how can you accomplish this with predictability?

The other nice social blockage we have here is that you have people full of potential that are wasted as crazies because their goals (drive) are totally different, among other things. It's hard to explain but let's say that to me helping the people of this reality personally hasn't been a good investment, I do because I'm a natural gentlemen when not angry, and it's a nice gesture all super heroes do in movies, apart flying (or jumping to the stratosphere), it's just that my battleground is a bit different, and I battle hell and its gremlins, figuratively, by trying to understand, with a vision of good and evil that makes sense. So I don't befriend people much no more, in fact it's the same kind of situation as for love, I decide from my experience and the difficulties I can see, but I still leave a little crack, that or nothing and the nothing is how I act by default. But I still consider that a starting situation, because yes if some relation developed, I'd be inclined, like any normal person, to try make things work, so I don't run away, but let's say I'm more difficult in the troubles I want to deal with, and if I'm to invest my patience, then I hope to do it on worthy people. For now anybody that cause me dangerous problem I run away, like my parents that almost made it so I ended up in prison lately by their babbling...I still hope they're well, but I can't take these kind of risks, so let's say the crack I left open is a bit pushed in time; they can relax in the meantime, it's not like they gave birth to the terminator, and there's a history of worst stupidity to compare to, if that can be comforting, but for now I take a break and raise a mountain of money so people respect me correctly, because it's all in the way you show this respect thing... So no, whatever you do I won't run back under the robe of my mom, for those evil manipulators who got everything to prove before trying to teach me how to live. In fact, if I ever come to realize there's been an external pressure to manipulate my family, then I'll close the door completely by saying that I'll prefer to die than to go back to them, understood? At some fucking point in my life you'll start considering me an adult, and I should add, in the freaking irony of hell, that nobody is entitled to give me lessons on maturity except me, not that it's illegal, but because it's too late, I'm almost old and you failed over and out with your lessons, be done already! In fact you failed so much that I'm writing an epopee about it, the epopee of your failure of maturity, because when I was an innocent, you had every chance to help my potential, to do the big mature society, and impress me with your integrity, but it was all fake boasting, you gave me hell and you made a show of your immaturity with my candor, so now you shut up and hear that after all I wrote, the UI be my witness, I'm entitled to live fully my own independence, you go bug your mom! You hear that? My mom couldn't keep me in place, she had to lock me up, and I'm still kicking, allright? There is nobody on this earth more entitled to his independence than me! I suppose, there may be others hidden in corners, not publicized... So the next condescending asshole that tell me to get my shit together better turn his tongue a few times...

And why should you "heal" the people who are working against what you stand for if you know in advance that it's a waste of time trying to make them understand? Heling lost souls will switch your feelings away from where they are needed in this reality, instead I'll feel like an hypocrite, I'll feel bad versus what I idealize of the situation, from the impossibility to do anything beyond temporary encouragements, while probably wondering who I'm really helping, since I can't trust anybody in a reality where profiteers and manipulators rule, where deception, bullshit and fakeness is omnipotent.

Because the principle is simple; the nearer I am to my enemies the more hostile I'm supposed to become, in theory, it doesn't mean it's not creeping around behind cracks spying... And that should apply to the black cloud that's been following me for most of my life, there's a few of those clouds actually, but I'm not talking about the men in black populations doing shifts behind the scene, I'm talking more like an environmental cloud of morons, yes, I'm cursed by competitive morons doing a fixation on me, a never ending flow, and I don't mean normal people, I mean mental, the production is extraordinary to tell you the truth, if I'm to accept that the neighbors I've had in the past 10 years are a hint of reality... Or is it that I'm at the wrong place? Yeah, and I'm exaggerating a little, but I sometimes wonder if some bunch of black shirted guys who think they are god of the earth and entitled to do anything with anybody, a god entity, is not trying to make me the king of the lower class, like I got a superb intellect that's gonna completely bow the local population into submission, the king of the morons is born today, let's celebrate, but sorry no, I won't heal your production, it's all a trap for would be Jesuses, because it is in a vast majority the result of evil or an inadequate vision of love. In fact, from my experience, a lot of those people are dangerous, and they have a bad effect in many aspects of both my life and my intelligence, so no, and I'm not the sacrifice type, and I'm not the taker type, I'm middle line remember? And if you are to put me on the line of survival, then know I'm entitled to play the same game, I'm just a person, not the Jesus or messiah here to comprehend misery (what's this messiah thing anyways? An ex-president?), I'm disconnected from misery, in part for my own sake, for survival reasons, or performance reasons, whatever the reason, I owe you nothing, unless you tell me so, then we can deal. Let's deal, that's how things work down here (doesn't mean everything is a deal or can be dealt to me, nuance, but yeah "everything" is probably a deal too...).

But I'm still sensible and I still care to the point of understanding, which is probably more than most can manage, so let's not do the condescending, and just ask, and believe it or not, in a reality devoid of trolls or pressures, it would be my pride to oblige, as long as I'm treated humanely, because my individuality, my independence, is the pride of the whole mind of life, and my consciousness too, so when you ask this part of the global intelligence (life), information that relates to the individual use of the intelligence, then the minimum is to reap pride in the time you invested to gather the knowledge you're transmitting now. So say thank you, with money can work very well too, of free will and not upfront ideally (like paying for a book before reading it...) but that at the most basic level, I'm not talking about fatherly attitudes, which may exacerbate this pride effect.

Sometimes it's so weird trying to think diplomatically with tact while dealing with the whole lot of susceptible people, in all the facets of this reality, and this continual attention seeking madness is giving me completely inadequate feelings for writing (I'm not talking about my direct environment necessarily, in fact I should add a point about the arguments I use to express what I don't like or the problems I must deal with; there are many nice people, and some people I have misjudged, and people I pissed-off but always trusted they'd raise back better as a challenge, there are some who actually changes with what looked like sustainability, even if they did as a result of being a bit humiliated, and I won't fail to mention again my own failings too, actually I kind of discovered an unsuspected incompetence level there, no, I didn't suspect it, but my general experience is still hell on earth, and do I have to repeat again in big part why? So yes, if we're to do the survival competition thing because we are not civilized then allright, and I'm telling you I'm tired of hearing that what I do is easy, that it's not even work, I profit from the system, yeah, do it or shut-up, I tell you my environment is inadequate for a "camp" writer, is there someone among the billions to heed my pleas? Particularly my kind of writings, worse, to tell you the truth, it's a goddamm miracle that I succeed, want another miracle from me? It's a god damm miracle that I'm not in prison, and this is as a monk, I'm almost a saint and the troubles people give me almost caused my death a few times, so it's a miracle that I haven't killed someone, and it's extraordinary that I manage to deal with all the hate and frustration, in truth.

So while good governments made this lodging disaster to encourage the development of more psychological problems as good creators of jobs for the psy industry, and probably to reinforce the belief that not working hard is evil by proving people under social assistance are all pigs with bed bugs who destroy apartments. Personally, I say at some point you have to accept some damage to your precious crystal white profit cubicle, since you seems to think that's all there is to do besides having a job, so perfect and ideal the system is, a socially assisted person can only end-up destroying apartments, it's just natural, there are no other jobs around! I'm pushing a little, but that's why I can't rent something appropriate, I got this reputation because I was part of a lodging institution that actually charged me a destroyed apartment, while contradicting themselves on paper that I left it in perfect, yes, nothing less, perfect condition (it was not, I added a few precise holes, but nothing "destructive" worth a thousand for repairs, a thousand for clean-up, and a thousand to put my "crap" to the garbage...(a maximum of arguments to say I'm bad) repairs that I did before leaving, which granted me the "perfect" approbation. This lodging institution actually destroyed the love future I had in mind.)

So yeah, socially assisted people got a bad reputation, and I could say the same from my side about many proprietors, even if they may be half right. But I won't embark in any game of hate with the people around, just a bit to play dirty with some crappy attitudes when I'm out of patience, because the means are not there. I'm attracted to bosses, so you won't get a frustrated me to talk about personal things more than as examples without names, I'm not an imbecile, the personal sin versus the massive sin, don't try, so you can continue manipulative austerity and make social assistance very hard to get (oh I said something about someone, and thou shalt not judge, I'm evil! A bigot!). But I tell you, the sick mentality of government trying to demonize the lower classes while doing the philanthropist I've had it! You want to do the good government? Then fucking don't patent your systems to give a bad reputation to those who are already in troubles! You like picking up on the weakest? I am the lowest of your best system, and I'm truly trying, not faking it, so I fight the true sources of evil, not innocents, and I'm brave, so I fight big jovial people, not the weakest already in the verge of death or suicide, and to me there is nothing more incompetent as a government than having its basic fucking critical to survival system work after over 50 years of existence! It's not only a matter of a ridiculously mentally degrading system of sick lodging, it's a reputation matter and you may not like my backslash, but you made yourself my enemy, and I'll go with it all the way to after death with it, because I have no doubt that your only good solution will be to worsen thing by attacking me even further, so go ahead and be my enemy to eternity, all politicians of fake intents, you are done, like your tentacular failures that go all the way to your systems that fail at their most critical job, for the best people, yes the best, that's the opinion I have of myself, particularly if I compare to those who act like they're gods... The last time I moved I was encouraged to specifically make my change of address by phone, and I did it perfectly enough that I was sure in my right mind that everything was allright, yet, the fucking governmental institution never did it, and guess what happened? I ended up defending my reputation to the proprietor because I couldn't pay my rent right from the start, while I actually said I was a good payer a few days before! Your system made me a bad payer! And I was lucky to pay cash, because if I had taken their fucking advice of paying from my account, then I'd have had to pay my bank a fat punishing fees as a addon while getting bad credit (that actually happened as the result of the incompetence of another governmental system, that's why I don't want to do it anymore, and that's a reason why this reality will never be adequate to remove paper money, because it is a hell of psycho politicians, and they are never incarcerated for their massive crimes). And I'll add another something to your rotten profiting brain; I've been writing for 20 years, and I've never been considered a working person, so I take my big black boot, and smash your face on my work, until you bleed the money like the fuck whore you are! Then maybe you can continue your work demonizing socially assisted people, but know that if I'm getting worked-up right now, prepare yourself a lot of underwear, because in my world, this form of hypocrite selection is a crime against life, intelligence and humanity. And if I have to teach you some empathy concept, then you'll have an example of what it is to stand for good and sense, so think of my experience in your system before worsening my life further, because you're not superior to me and I'm not supposed to both teach you how to live and to clean your mess!

I won't delete that part, I'm worth better, I'll just add that my ego is of utmost importance too, even if I push it to a minimum in a grand quest to make my "other" mind proud. It's supposed to want me to take it easy and create, but well, it prefers a fighter than a loser that sells his soul too easily, no pride if I don't care, or if I worsen the situation for others, or remove their fair chance with cheats, in fact, its greatest pride would be for this personality it's building to make things better for a maximum of people or life for the future... It's always a matter of intents in big part, so yes there are many rich ideologically mislead people who have "deep" good intents, and those people will be worth spiritual respect and friendship, and better if they apply better understanding. The good intents must surface though, even if you think weird stuff from your lacks, you reject bad thinking or keep it to yourself so your intents don't change for the worse (if you do something for others, don't twist it as time pass so it becomes doing something for yourself, even if there is frustration). The problematic is that initial intents is like a condemnation, but it is not, intents can change from knowledge and you definitively want vessels of bad intents to have a chance at changing from new understanding, and let's say it's easy to become the vessel of bad intents in hell, just get had... The thing to do here is to backtrack what's based on these and try to repair. It's a way of saying even good intents may end-up wrong, or you can have the intent of changing your intents, so the door must remain open, which is done by cleaning your mess of wrong intents... Apart from the evolutive effect (taking form through the reproduce at maturity concept), there is always a reflective positive effect if you try to do the right thing, even in not get your due (persevere in doing the good stuff even if you get frustrated, as it proves your intents and willingness to stand for your opinions, which will make you proud even if you don't get the means to express it, and it is as valuable an aspect of personality building than making a GaGa show of it (far more in fact, and "nothing" to do with that Lady GaGa thing, it's always been a French expression, and in fact, that's another one should be incarcerated for taking this expression for herself as a diva (hearing it we now associate it to her...), because in French it means making people go moronic in front of your flabbergasting divinity, the kind of god mentality that I'll have passed my life fighting, and I want to hear none of her bullshit arguments, she's bullshit incarnate... But I'm bad, to be fair we'd have to throw in the same cell all those godly superstars in a competition of fame along with her, which is like doing hate speech for this reality, so forget it, it's just personal opinions...)). You're permitted to fight for the value of the particular effort of your personality, you even have to try, if you actually want to develop this independent personality that's supposed to be your greatest pride, but no max taking philosophy, like no max sacrificing philosophy...

Now talking fighting, just don't think you're hot and you can deal with any evil problem while having fun, it look nice when you're young, but this reality will submerge you quick enough, and you better not raise too fast against it; take your time or face your inadequacy like me (condemn yourself to), because to make things worse, the biggest fights may end-up as setting yourself in an adequate manner; people have to face their problems and try to act good as they mature (change for the better) when possible. If I cared for life, if I cared for myself, if I went through all this, it's because I faced my own truth, should I have passed my life incapacitating myself? Then try to culpabilise those who took care of their person in my jealousy? Because that's exactly the kind of feeling I'm living sometimes, that my life is harder the more I care! Developing a great mind and body is so worth it these days, when "they" say criminals are all super intelligent...

So since I said psy are supposed to be useful, then the mentally disadvantaged (bad luck theory) (do they exist or not your sainthood? You can make a shorter word too? It would be nice. Because you know, if there is no way to say things because talking of others has become evil, then don't be surprised if the global intelligence decide you're worth a severe lesson in basic understanding and making sense somewhere, just try your social stuff without doing it, I'm sure its super hard, no? I'm mistaken in this age of psychology?) People must face their own truth a little if they are to get near me, and, as problematic members of this reality they must seek psychiatric help there, my counsels could quickly turn inappropriate, and the psy must tell him the truth, and he must be directed to an environment that is adequate for him, surely not in a situation where his hierarchic needs will place him in an impossible to resolve conflicting situation where his entourage will fail to get the most basic point across, or end up crying from the incomprehension (an example I lived would be this guy that couldn't understand me but could understand hierarchy, if I give the guy the benefit of the doubt that he had good intents...So, in his mind all food was his because someone philosophical started some kind of vague rumor that communities is like cozy places of harmony where everybody live crammed together with one toilet and one fridge full of food in the middle, the cheapest way you can democratically live I suppose, the lowest of society at it, like it's the best idea around, they asked some psy that work for a pharmaceutical industrial doing lobbying the other way around I suppose... And me if I say I'm not here to do the community thing I'm like from another planet, an enemy of good, one immediately used this to act with condescendence with me in fact. So, in his mind the fridge was a community fridge where you take what you want as long as you buy things. Me, I want a small spot to place my items, I am not interested in any food he eat, garbage for my health, and I sure don't want to become fat, ugly and unhealthy as him, but the food I ate was always too tempting, so he stole my food, the most expensive while I must live every months with 200$, and when I protest he immediately fall in evident denial, (almost like putting his fingers in his hears with a superiority attitude), I explained that what I put in my spot is mine and not take it, that's stealing to me, but his answer is that I can have his potatoes if I want, like he simply didn't hear what I said and anger was like not even worth a little emotive sign, still thinking that he can take my food because he permits me to take his food or something. So how do you get understanding across, and this guy was 40. Then he go to a place that give free food and come back with a big bag of barely edible carrots, and give me half the bag while saying "I wanted to share some food with you" with a stupid smile like he's a good person for sharing his garbage food, that he got free at it. Things degenerated but I failed to make him understand that taking my stuff was stealing, I failed, and I failed to make him understand that I have the right not to be his friend too, he complained to the proprietor, and there he understood everything, he was sorry, and he immediately on the fly in my face, changed his version to say that he had this food a week ago but didn't remember and that's why he took my food, a mistake. But that totally invalidated the notion that he understood because he took the food in my spot, so why lie that it's a mistake if he understood that taking my food is stealing? So, in face of hierarchy he faked understanding, because 2 hours later, he knocked on my door and asked me if a piece of food was mine. My answer? If it's not yours don't take it! But then mister protested that I didn't answer his question and that if relations are bad it's because I'm an asshole (default culpabilisation procedures) so I repeated that if the food was not his he should not take it, do I have to call the proprietor so you can tell her that you understand while you can't even understand the most basic principle of stealing. Oh, sorry, it's not stealing, the world is his, he can take anything and do anything and any protest is because you have a problem in the head! And me, I try to take the comprehensive approach because I understand that the guy is not lucky, and I end-up trying to deal with the problem for days, see what's my wrong, what can be done, what is the best way to deal with these people who are just morons and can't heed anything that can affect the condescending attitude they developed by choosing the bullshit of reality that better bring them an advantage. And the one thing that raised to the surface is that life evolve from truth and for humanity to evolve it will have to face its own truth, so I should not think about helping these people so they end-up pissing me off still more, no, I should tell them they are intellectually deficient, first, but no, because it is my opinion that most of them know it in denial, or should I tell them to fuck-off my environment? Why me? Go get around politicians! Why not? You're too humble? Why doesn't this reality take care of the problems it develops (including genetic), isn't psychiatry and psychology supposed to help these people? It doesn't work? We could try an experiment here, let them read my work, and all the insults it contains, and let's see what works (that's probably gonna work all wrong, but it should stir some change still, since we're amongst incompetents here. Because right now I can't even send them to the psychiatric institute for a check-up and find their place in their reality because they are too fast judging me and I always end-up as the one that should consult, long before I've gained the certitude that the problem is not me (I'll put a small stretch of exceptions lately, because I found a "Le Cinglé" card in my room, and I had to destroy its spirit (lots of insanities were cumulated behind that card, it was ugly (I had it on me until it disappeared, putting an end to my craziness shift, oh, and fuck you! What you didn't know is that double power craziness was a calculation (initially that was part of my philosophy to succeed, first chapter, and my "other"brain is laughing right now I suppose, because it was not really serious, but thanks anyway, I'll take it, since the end result is supposed to be sanity, I tell you, we're getting along over here...))), yeah, the benefit of the doubt is often a bitch, and I'm a chance guy, and I'm super tolerant, even if I'm tagged as intolerant too... Or I could become like them, fuck my recipe, you're condescending? Ok then, I'll copy you since you dwell in absolute certitude that you can't be wrong so much that any argument you discard in advance... But that's not it, evil morons are the worst shit flies you can find around if you're good, they stick like glue, they want to be around you, they cook the same food as you, sleep at the same as you, make a fixation on you as they practice their manipulation and control abilities... Now, you could argue that the guy is a hobo, but he has a big car, and buy all kind of useless expensive shit, so it seems retards fares far better than me in this reality, and I watched him closely to know if he was not faking but no, he's genuine. But I'm bad, mentally challenged is the politically correct way of talking of people with mental problems, while themselves don't use it when talking about me when they send me to the psy for a consultation at the first friction, and that's a big propension, it seems the tendency to send me to consult in psychiatry is inversely proportional to intellectual sanity in this reality, truly, I've met intelligent people who were in admiration of me, while even that guy I talked about earlier couldn't skip the suggestion that I have a mental problem in front of the proprietor and then I had to defend my mind, again, and again, and again, someday I'll be so tired that I'll do the mental problem! I guess that I dreamed too colorful thinking I'd be done with this by writing this book, and it's worse actually, people have judged me completely inadequately from the beginning of my life, and this is still going on to this day, I mean, I can tell someone that I'm a writer, but they won't even look on the net if I wrote something, then a few months later, when things have degenerated a bit, there the truth will explode, and the asshole that accused you of being dangerous and ready to explode into violence is the one ready to charge on you, and you have to calm the guy by taking a submission attitude because I care for my life and the most precious thing to me, my greatest pride, is my mind, and that's the main target of their jealousy, anyway, now they didn't care verify that I did something with my life, now that I'm taking an inferiority attitude to skip risks and probably the prison, now they feel brave enough to remove the hypocrisy and reveal what they really think of me, they'll judge ma as a fucking lazy fuck all that profit from the system. And this exact situation I lived it many times. So, that's your judgment, some will actually start their socialization with you by saying they don't judge people, just the usual bullshit that's worth a slap on the babbler, because you'll see them do the condescending a few months later...

And since we like to choose ourselves a personal package of beliefs that better fit the style we want to dress our intelligence with, there's this tendency to throw in bits of philosophies pushed to extremism like it means we stand for something while we know it doesn't even make sense. Like everybody should be equal (the same in our unconscious) while everybody know it's not the case (fairness is not equality, and fundamental rights don't make equal people, then there's individuality, it's bad, just destroy it....). Total bullshit, plunging a bunch in a competition (invalidating their philosophy that everybody should be equals) of intelligence in the most ridiculous and evil way to the point that you cannot argue against anything because they have taken the path of developing a blockage that make them not responsible, to take it easy, because the global intelligence is pissed off, so it has developed lazy people who think they're gods, who can't have much good fun (expensive), but they have god power, so if a moron takes your food it's not his fault, he doesn't know what he's doing, so what Jesus said was probably an inside joke (since the philosophy doesn't make sense), meaning that innocence is the god argument, god as the innocent, because you are forced to pardon everything to everybody under the assumption that he didn't know what he's doing, the culprit is in fact your other brain, you were sleepwalking, or you could be under the will of god, I guess for religious people god can do what he wants, but that doesn't work in my vision of things, because everybody answer to the UI one way or the other and the UI knows exactly what it's doing...

Add that to a pressure selection is such a fantastic failure of life understanding that we actually select people to be morons, just harmonizing ourselves with the global intelligence I guess, it is granting you your wishes after all... Jokes apart (not), he who produces morons shall have its intelligence submerged by morons I think... What do you want? You want my experience? Anyway I see it there are 2 options; either I'm super intelligent or someone big has a problem with intelligence, probably an ideology, and your "other" mind may definitively have a problem with your intelligence (don't forget your intelligence will limit your consciousness from previous experienced (previous users), which may include mental difficulties, like mental suffering, so in a sense the more you fight intelligence (life) the more it regresses behind the limitations it will put around to consciousness (as sensibilities in part, like fears, and things arising from chemical imbalance), and the more armored it becomes but that' not ... I don't think I'm super intelligent, in fact, I'm sure that I'm expressing a fraction of my capacities, I know it naturally, while knowing my incompetence capabilities too, and I did all kind of wrong things to my mind, and people attacked it, and I smoke, and I don't read books, and I'm barely educated, so the reality is that to satisfy a system fitting hell, we declared war to independent life and intelligence, and the selection is final to the point that there is no minimally adequate mentalities anymore, which is one of the greatest crime this reality (made by profiteers) perpetrated against life, after the stagnation of its development, here comes its regression. As for me, want it or not, I must assume I'm a middle guy, so I fail the extremes of both ends, so I wouldn't bet in my capacity to do the intelligent in front of some team of experts in the domain like I have to pass their tuning test, no, take my work and read it, that's my intelligence.

Now, we're talking intelligence a lot here, and I ask you, as a moron, can you follow me? Then you're probably no worse than me and not much of a moron too, sorry for you, take your responsibilities now. I mean, you should be proud of your intelligence, you're far from a Neanderthal here... So whatever I sometime generalize some people as moronic, because the type must exist somewhere, keep on never thinking you're not intelligent. Just remember this warning; it's all a matter of the use you make of it, there's good and evil stuff aplenty out there...

But right now it's all a matter of how you act in reality, and among the most walled attitudes you got those who talk or act like morons, or never had the care to learn to live toward ideals, but think themselves behaved or intelligent, and their whole self-esteem is dependent from ego illusions like that, a lot squarely provided by the reality, because they're, or kept themselves, on the line of survival, so they hold at things with their life that rich people wouldn't care less about, and me too...

A bit like those on full ambitious education, boasting this trait or that over you like they're in a competition, or act condescending, you know the type, a bit like the wine inflated vocabulary with a study in literature addon type, nonstop babblers that I've met who like it a lot too much hearing themselves talking (I do try to practice that skill, but with testosterone it's not easy, and there's an influencing chromosome, twisted they call it, and I'm calmly overloaded, overclocked, bottlenecked, overheating, while my memory leaks...), the strange thing is that those people who seems to have so much to say are completely uninteresting to me, not only that, but they should be pros of human intersections with so much socialization, but in my experience they are the worst to deal with, the most incompetent, and the most prone to spread bullshit, the most prone to piss calm people off, and for the worst, they are the most fervent users of psy bullshit to babble about others (I try to practice that skill, it come with the job...), and you're lucky when they're not condescending at it, and full of pride...

Anyway, my life is a proof that this social thing animal is completely wrong, and one of the reason some want us to believe we are meant to continually communicate, apart overloading the mind to submission quickly (making a paranoia about socialization), is to prevent unwanted imagination to develop too, by ostracizing the other extreme, with good sandwiched between the 2, getting the worst, which in a sense you can associate to my middle line vision that represent a lot the rip I'm living, or extreme irony, the extremes of everything I understand, and care about, because the theory is that I care about everything more than most, and not only my soul is ripped apart, but this puts me in an impossible situation where people of other extremes kind of see me from far away and assume I'm from the other camp or I have a foot there, so I attract troubles and nobody likes me because I just stay there walking my middle line all angry and frustrated but still doing it. So eventually there's gonna be some questioning going on, like what makes me so special, sorry man, I'm new age, I live for another reality, and you fight among yourselves with attitudes that make you both enemies of what I stand for; life, my line, my path.

Ideologically, you don't want people like me strolling freely in your reality, it could be a risk to national security, they could imagine a better world, so everything is kind of, logically, patented perfectly, that they get this tendency, to get kicked out of your social methodologies (that's gonna blow up some brains...). I guess superior people who proved their inadequacy will want to prove their adequacy, you know how cheaters are, they'll want to do it themselves as superior people and to prove their system, inferior people must use their imagination to produce entertainment...

I could invent a weirder theory about this being a communication protection too (not talking too much), even if there may be a difference in brain activities between people who talk a lot and those who don't. Why wouldn't there be? Too much a communication brain limits other things is what I say, and a lack of electricity because I didn't develop a big brain full of communication stuff (I still communicate in another language, but there 'a specific vision that comes with it (I believe the optimal language effect on intelligence is gained by having both a cultural language and an international one, past that I think you gain incompetence, and you limit deepness, or pretty much lose the capacity to go deep into some aspects of intelligence (can't have all specializations, minimally), in fact, if you're not careful, you could develop your whole life as a very superficial language purist...). Like for everything there is an ideal of languages, and lack of socialization is not a sign of a mental problem, it may even be a sign of a healthier mind from less conflict...

Anything not in the standard high IQ godly scientific way of thinking, or fitting their precise maps of the brain is a mental problem these days, a market for some industrial to add some chemicals sales to reorder or remake thing their right way, maybe I'm going too far, but I wouldn't be surprised if they invented a pill to make people talk or become more social, babbling sells, from your phone through the internet all the way to the psy, your mental malady is becoming costly...

Isn't it strange I have so much to say while I talk so little? I could get my name in the Guinness book here, on both side of the spectrum, that's gonna have to change. Ask that to the biggest mouth of the world, the most popular and the most sociable (he'll probably answer he doesn't like wild speculation, to keep his mind limited, to manipulate my creativeness to worthless insignificance, because he aint got the brains to explore possibilities free of ego restraints). You can socialize and talk nonstop to infinity while having nothing truly worthy to say, knowledge doesn't reside in socialization or talking, even if you can get some. And it's like everything else, you develop mind limitations appropriate to your attitude, in fact, scientists hardly ever take into consideration all possibilities when making these affirmations whatever the methodology, like it is not because you tested an aspect of things from 0 socialization compared with more socialization that the deduction should end-up as we are social animals, for a minimal start, or the more we socialize the more we evolve because there is a proportional brain activity somewhere, like we become more intelligent. It may fit your reality's vision of things since you have vision limitations that somewhat come hand in hand with the limitations of your ideology, until you need to make the thinking thank thing, but damm, how do I compare to a thinking thank? It's just that mine got big wheels, it's blinded, and got quite a canon for these damsels...(don't get all heated up, it's consciously offline...)

You can select or encourage a bunch of rats that have the same attitude and kill all other, then forget it, and a thousand years later make scientific studies to discover that rats are like this or like that, what you don't know is that there were other kind of rats that were not like this and like that, which got rejected as worthless because they didn't fit your truth or reality view at the time. The same kind of thing goes on for us with pressures, within a lifetime or more. You develop a lot from the recipe of reality, if you work hard to make of humanity a social animal you'll discover it is, given enough time (supposing the global intelligence got its logic satisfied), and you won't find no more people like me to mess-up your certitudes and preconceptions...

Or they will reappear randomly like a rare sickness that come back around to bug you a little, because your intelligence (your other free brain) knows what your stupid consciousness did, with hints as you reproduce (new genetic bits, genes, will appear, probably randomly, representing a genetic version of the true story, that will spread, and someday when enough people have these worthless bits, an intelligence will get a vision of the whole story, probably a bit vague, or implemented with new factors, as other intelligences in previous generations deducted stuff and marked things with switches and blockages for avenues of explorations that have been done previously from the knowledge the previous person cumulated, which you don't have now, but we're talking an intelligence working as a whole here, your existence, all existence depends on its harmony, it is one, what you make of your part is your own, and that's the most precious thing to your intelligence, your independence, because the solution of problems is often another stance, distancing, but then when you distance sufficiently you realize there can be two realities to things, not only that you can't have enough expertise alone in everything needed to open new possibilities, so it become your most precious tool of evolution, because you need the other guy that has a completely different amalgam of knowledge, to express in reality what he can do out of it, so you can use your different knowledge to intervene or modify, and build greater things as many independent intelligence having their own emphasizes, because anyways, a single one has been proven not to survive and transmit (evolve sufficiently to overtake entropy), among the many reasons, the whole beautiful thing concept is entirely based on the work of these kind of differences, and seeing what other do and trying to do better, not worse preferably, so don't extremize everything except survival...

That's how you must see the global intelligence of life, as a continuation of intelligence, we are not gods flying in the sky that appeared and there must be a process that explains things. This global intelligence is not necessarily a self-aware thinking whole big brain, it is interconnected individual brain doing little things through history, and giving the path of its work as a changing genetic optimizing system, which you probably can't read or interpret, even in its functions, even if you see genes and chromosomes, because it's an elimination system, so you are only left with fractioned possibilities exploded through life. Or if you prefer, eventually what can show represent what can go far, which will probably look like a permanent bit, and minds of appropriate capacities can continue the work, of other intelligences, like it is a whole working entity.

As of now, me, I'm interdependent with, and logically under some level of observation, the UI, which "thinks" differently, the global intelligence that "thinks" differently, my other mind that "thinks" differently, my consciousness, which actually "thinks" like me. Then there are many spirits watching the truth of history, and gods, but those are touchy individuals, extraterrestrials could too, but that's very unlikely. And big brother for the absolute worst and judgmental of all. I think I have no problem with any, we all walk in somewhat the same direction as all parts thinks differently, except big brother that's completely gone ashtray, but I'm working on it (it's a bit normal, it's the most pleasant aspect of all the hidden intelligences working behind, but at its base it's a tool to create too, and maybe all those minds behind all have their say in it, don't you think?

And no god to punish you religious style either, as always I come to the same conclusion, you are your own punisher. You can become a full blown traitor to yourself you know, to life, and you can bet the genetic will come back to put you face to face with your evils. As bits and pieces everywhere in the worst scenario, but even eliminating all related genetics, you will still have to deal with the minds that have known it, which will seek bring it back like your worst nightmare of psychosis paranoia, all through the universe, always stronger, as you push everything to extremism and gain time with all kind of cheats, but it will eventually come all back all together under one form to give you the ultimate kick if that's what's you're worth, so get your shit together.

If a laugh makes you secure all the better, but this is very serious matters, you really don't want that kind of curse, because you die out of it one way or another. I tell you, to be worth flying intersidereal space, you got to be clean of hearth and mind, and you do that on your planet, your home, before boasting about how hot you are, if you don't want to be served your inadequacy by your own historical failings coming back to kick you because you still didn't understand, you just faked it like an all-powerful, and even if you could manage it by presidential stubbornness, and found a way not to get your other mind to not make you crazy, you'll still face hostile life wherever you go, because those who will succeed that are supposed to associate as friends, will immediately see you have life against you, and they'll destroy you right there on the spot, it's hard out there if you are against your own existence, not very worth it, worse, as I'll later explain, you can have whole planetary systems against you this way, as you debark and get rejected by the global intelligence there, your stay can be greatly shortened by life hostility, so you go back to your soda propulsion can full of logos and go play god somewhere else, and degenerate like a weakling...

For now let's say these kind of point of view are like proofs of a mental problem, particularly for a cold psychopath devoid of emotions, but when you think a lot about life and you care these explorations take another meaning. For me they are kind of related to the extremes I'm living in my life, feelings I squished to survive while keeping my competence in becoming me, they are very large extremes, and when I write about life profoundly, my writing gets tainted by these super strong obscured feelings, and when younger and having it as a mess interrelated with cumulated bad feelings, it can take the form of a psychosis depending from the mood one is under, because it's not like I had the greatest educational base either, and I'm sure that if you asked a young adult to produce a project like mine under the state I was under, then you can bet there will be weird moments, and today I'm even proud of that, because I had to go against psy institutions, and a lot worse environmental situations, and it's me that's educating around now, because I held to life instead of listening to their advice, I always knew, as an ignoramus far worse than you, that's why I trusted myself to succeed, think about that (I'm not talking specifically). Then there is the subject and the momentum I'm under as I write, you wouldn't dare make me angry as I write about some difficult weird stuff, but don't be mistaken, it's not because I'm sick in the head, it's in fact all interrelated and logical about what I care for, you can see it as life expressing itself within me, and it is critical to have the competence to do my work, yes it is. It reflect how much I care, and it is proportional to what I care about, which can be me. It also means that my work, as it is, may be the most unlikely to exist versus the total quantity of equilibrated extremes one got to control, while considering the reality is not harmonized in any way with his thinking, it is super logically harmonized though, since everything is explainable... I mean, you got to start at the right time, in high complexity, while having a temporarily unrealistic vision of what you can achieve (you must calculate that you'll develop the potential, become competent) and all those feelings ready to explode. And there you'll be faced with the level of incompetence you can achieve, it won't be pretty, but you'll gain creativity, as you understand and correct and gain. This is another hard part since it is dependent from age and keeping your fire alive, so, as you get older and still care, you'll read your work and see these "psychosis" effect which I see as life expressions, then you'll correct your vision or explanation to put it nearer the people, to get better understood about the important message, while removing any unnecessary effect that may dwindle your potential for success, particularly in hell, where you'll find many people who will see it as an opportunity to discredit you with mentally degenerative terminologies. What's worse you got to work in an optic of seeing beyond where humanity is presently mentally, and so you enter a race to attain perfection. And I tell you, that's a long quest, so if I say to jealous people to shut up and do my kind of work, it is because I know how freaking far it came from, in fact, if you told me to start from scratch presently, to shut up all those inflated people who think they can do it, I wouldn't do it because I know it's a trap and it's practically impossible, so you must be the purest of innocent so the can of worms end up in your hands for a start, the one with the most to prove... You can see it as humanity not taking its responsibilities through history, or if you prefer, its evil soul that nobody dares to explore, and you know how evil got a thing with innocence behind the scene... So what moves my person is not a question of competition or boasting, it's a soul question, the process of growing a soul, being faced with the truth of oneself, in a way that can't easily be expressed with words, it's not a question of knowing stuff as you grow older adapting to reality then trying to gain something from it.

Now these genetic aspects lost in time can take many forms, so while I talk about psychosis sounding stuff that scares people, you could use the same kind of assumption to relate schizophrenic style to Mayan writings (as people (traitors) super close to life btw), and so schizophrenia today would be like ancestral genetic that still get expressed now and then in case it could be useful around, it could have developed too, but you must be sure it's not a trick, because life doesn't like traitors, so the whole civilization may have developed as psychotic as a life joke, since they're alone in the woods and like so much hallucinating on magic shrooms and making completely insane things in the name of life or gods or whatever the glorious entity they can manage to lay their disgusting bloody disrespectful twisted hands on, why wouldn't they make a psychosis? As you try to repair your wrong visions by creating more wrong visions to make things fit, with a very limited vocabulary made of drawings on rock, everything to go completely nuts! And the poor population that don't know much about reading, what do they make of these weird images that make animals and people look like possessed, is it a good educational system for babies? It's how it started isn't it? A bit like me at my epoch... Lucky I could have the bad luck (that works in hell), to not publish too fast...or on rock. That it is a shame or not, I see this form of language as kind of result from being close to life, which, we all now suppose, is the global intelligence walking around, and those drawings are just it starting to express itself, and it is in the woods, on survival mode, so you can bet good and evil is important, so as our consciousness is not much developed without a language, the language appeared (started) closer to our other brain, right in the ugly stuff, because as you know, everything starts shitty (in the "everything" list, it's like perfection, but inversed, the dark side...). So they are from the first balbutiement of the description of good and evil as laws to direct their civilizations, which represent their contorting soul, and they probably twisted everything all wrong over it, as they fought to understand what is going wrong in their civilization, failing because they systemized their limitations to condemnation (they made their civilization dependent from wrong beliefs, and now they can't erase or repair the mess without total revolution or revolt, and it's definitively not a good idea, food reserves are low, that's why people are on edge, and the stage is set...), I'm just doing think thank stuff, but you never know...

It's the matter of the steering effect to adapt to your environment too, where as a young person you have no idea of nothing so you form your path in vast majority by adapting to reality (following the lead) as you grow up, easing your existence in it, as the wheel of life does its work, and change the genetics. Maybe in 5000 years today's people at the extreme of current ideology will be weirdoes to people at the extreme of the other ideology, and we'll all be there thinking he's got some kind of mental sickness and we'll find genetic factors proving it, it's like mathematics (confounding proving and describing, both can happen mathematically speaking (as formulas are logically based and lead to extrapolated conclusions that are supposed to be a trusty view of how things on these aspects will develop in the future, because formulas are supposed to be based on the logical description of physical facts, so you use mathematics both to describe and see in the future, or the past, which can take the form of permanence of creativity (time reformulation))

While we're at it, one interesting aspect of this is that schizophrenia is about hearing voices a lot, the question is, did someone point an antenna or something to detect this talking effect? Or is it that psychiatry doesn't really know what it's doing? Because the medication to "heal" schizophrenia is not superb medication to me, they don't look that much better too, even full chemically rebalanced (I just assume chemicals must be a part of the deal), to extreme that are not produced humanly, so what's wrong? The other medication, is pure blunt knock out, it is meant to handicap the brain, so what medication? What are you healing? I'll stuff you with extreme doses of chemicals, then give you medication to knock-out a horse dead, then you'll be calm, healed! We'll it's not all like that, there is heavy schizophrenia, there is a touch of it (I have!) there is schizophrenia infused pot these days too, and it's super easy to attribute any psychosis effect to dangerous schizoid killers. Seriously though, I'm sure the medication has become better from the last time I "checked" (thought about it? Because a book is stuck in time, so in the future my readers may go check many of my facts to end-up saying I'm wrong, what they forgot is that that was 10 years ago, and now zkizo people may run about with lamowers happily jobbing around everywhere in your backyard in suspenders, so yes, I wouldn't underestimate this reality to get anybody functional at some socially normalized standard, and I do think it's better to have people a bit stoned than totally scary, not just for my own feeling of security (it's just normal, weird brains (like mine) scares people, but I'm ok), but the true argument is feeling the person is better, and that's worth a lot, so who am I to criticize when I know the difference (one of my brothers had it severe). But my point is that this voice thing is still not explained in sense except as supposing we're all confounding talking to oneself to somebody else talking to us, or some sort of reverb effect (no medical ground in nothing), but to me it was never a question, I do the talking, I tell myself stuff, and I'm sure everybody does, so how can you confound that? In fact, those people write and think quite normally when they want, and how can you write without talking to yourself? So to them it's no more a question than it is to me, no confusion there. I'll even add something, I said I had the touch, and in fact without it I wouldn't have succeed, and this comes from the realization that we're onto the same kind of thing (all of us), because if you ask them to write (not something easy in such a state of mind...), you'll see that they'll go philosophical quick enough, maybe not competent, ugly, but who gave them an education on the matter anyways? Your exemplary reality? Exactly, but it's there, and not only as an after effect of having to take that path from the difficulty of their situation, supposing we would be living in a totally psychologically incompetent reality, but I'm sure it's not the case...

So as a different way of seeing things, I'll continue the previous development I had started with the Mayan weird drawing style that's scary. You can remove the Mayans from there if you want, don't forget I open possibilities with stories, so what is useful or right may only be a bit, but now it does exist within a small scheme of things, a story, because everything is supposed to have a story, and maybe we'll make a discovery... So, let's say the Mayans who were very close to life were developing a sensibility to their other brain, because they were actually at the tip of woods evolution, a stone civilization in the woods (and mountains for purists), the evident thing I was coming to, but that may not have worked well or it could have pushed their civilization of psychosis amateurs to extinction, naturally or not, or something else altogether, the idea is that our "other" mind (our full mind, free from consciousness restraints) may have been trying to find a way to communicate with us directly through our memorized languages, and it's totally weird and dangerous, because our language are too vague and encroaching, and our other brain is totally revolted against evil behind our back from super long ago, to the point of giving birth to possible variations of gods to serve lessons (everything is a matter of good and evil, the top brick of free intelligence is survival, but right under this brick you got good and evil as the direction of this survival, so the thing that makes our "other" mind go nuts, is good and evil, or choosing the best path, surely not the worst, for purists... They're becoming a thing those purists...)

Oh, and thou shalt not forget that, I forgot, that's it I forgot.

To go back to our animal growing itself a social brain, not only he'll be limited in other things, but if you take that person and deprive him of the way he developed, his mind will react accordingly, regressing back in many facets since his mind development is dependent on others, then some psy pro will say you are sick in the head, degenerating, because you stopped the gregarine animal thing (could apply to older people dropping the activity), which is kind of true, or is it bullshit?

Personally I believe we are meant for some socialization to some extent, too much and you become a socialization or talking specialist and some intelligence facets will never cross your mind whatever you believe intelligence is proportional to talking or socialization, intelligence value limited to the way of the reality, like the IQ thing, and that's just one facet of socialization limitations. Even the IQ test has negative effects, it can as much be a justification to not perform better, as an unconscious message. And like good and evil, you have to acquiesce the existence of these negative effects; the lower your IQ is, the more you're a moron, in proven scientific truth spread all over the world, and sorry for you great psychologist full of IQ, and let's say your susceptibility is not much of an argument when it's all a matter of being twisted with words, but that's how the mind sees it and it doesn't need your opinion to know a low IQ means you're a moron. Or is it that you're so superficial that to you it's a matter of pronouncing the word? It's evil to use the word moron? Because it's pejorative that you have a low IQ? It's bad feeling, but your intelligence it's not really important, it's all about keeping appearances, doing deception stuff in hell... But don't feel bad, it's all normal, what can I say, bad feelings are bad feelings, but it's always a matter of the mass vs the personal you know, and yes with anticipation we can succeed at being proud ahead of time, so it's kind of a trap as you grow up and continue (on a declining curve ideally) to seek examples, because this way of learning is based on competition, and surely there's sexual hormones involved around, so self-boasting is a bit of a natural evil that has uses, but the bad effect is when you falsify history from mass effects of ego self-inflation. It's a shame I have to explain these details all the time, and they are important because they change the perspective a lot, I wonder how much of this stuff I'm missing, details... Because that's the thing with reading, you are forced to follow the lead, so even if you want to think, and I tell you to think, maybe every phrase is a bit much (thinking is a developing process that goes on as you read anyways, so it's more parts of a subject than phrases), but there's a momentum you trust too, how do you call that? There's some kind of common sense...Then there's the fact that I know I'm unknown territory, so what can you really say? Except criticize my psychological opinions? Or the question is more; with what would you interrupt me with that I would not have talked about in my work, since I can't answer all questions in 5 minutes, so your interruption is better be interesting and genuine and fitting, or wait.

As for being a moron, I guess it would not be better to call morons low IQ people, it's just the assumption that the other is some kind of inferior (some people it actually work to tell them they're moronic, they fight back, but it's still not nice, and I regret my experiences at qualifying people as such, particularly when I look back at my own life which did had quite moronic moments, but that's one trap you must be very careful of when you mature or gain consciousness or wisdom, this distancing, not to fall into condescendence or disrespectful attitudes, and it's a bit where you show you have what it takes to make a family maybe, but still, there remains exceptions and situations, like me that is a bit reticent to involve myself with the people who are trying to embark in this reality or who don't really care or can't all kind of stuff like that, and I'm tired of justifying, I'm the one caring the most here...)

I think people these days know the IQ number only expresses a facet of intelligence, I'll add that it's one that is reality dependent at it (a different reality may have a different view of intelligence, even scientific intelligence). In fact, if you make too much of an emphasis on it, your IQ thing can become a limitation; life doesn't care about your IQ, what it want are results. Like eliminating the intelligence value of some other sane people in another track of mind development (like me as an example, from the pressure selection process that doesn't seems to appreciate very much my opinions of its super heroes) or if your IQ degrades life, IQ which you associated to superiority of intelligence, then it may be seen as a high consciousness intelligence failure; you are not much of a worthy species if your vision of intelligence doesn't work. But I already explained that intelligence as a whole can't be calculated with final numbers, particularly from a test limited in time, since speed is far from the most significant factor when judging intelligence; it is more a value of what is implanted by the reality. To this end, the IQ test have as much value as an indoctrination test than as an intelligence test, and that applies to all those experiments scientists use to prove their point of view by using speed as an argument. Speed will never be the main factor proving intelligence, I could even say that intelligence covers all of one's life, surely not the few seconds on which you base your calculations. You could look at the reality too, sure that limited resource is a limitation to time, but the fastest exploitation strategy to possess it all for profiting is not necessarily the best or most intelligent strategy, you got to look at everything, the whole planet of life and humans, to develop adequate philosophies and priorities and to show you're worth the privileges you have...

Neither making fast choices is a proof of accessing the unconscious of humanity, it involves only the less present work of intelligence; if you thought about the subject in advance, or if you've been implanted PMBBD, then those tests are invalid, the same if you're into deep modifier stuff, the absolute farther you can go with this is within a lifetime, but humanity lasts more than a lifetime. Such results only reflect what have been implanted in the mind of people within their lifetime, a lot of which comes from PMBBD pressures in this reality, like continually saying people are like this or like that, from some experiment, reinforcing and spreading the attitude and belief, but nothing in there is final truth. The human is not like this or like that, a lot of it is made to be like this and like that by people having the liberty to use manipulative means on masses, that's totally different.

So, while we're making a big selection emphasis on big IQ, thinking we're evolved and intelligent, country competition, the ego-god (s) ideology, systemized unfairness, all what is the basis of this whole reality, the basis of our lives, is made of the most retarded mentality; it is not our IQ that's the truth of us, it is the reality we make. The democracy capitalism business believes itself intelligent with a history and billions of people working on it, the truth of things is that it is very limited, forever more as it cumulates condemnations and pressure select out those out of line, its ways with life and people is far from the best, or even good, and isn't intelligence meant to attain such goals? You think intelligence is not meant to do the best or good? And you think you can change this wonderful civilization now that it is a result? No, it doesn't work like that; you'll need as much time of another philosophy to start feeling a little comfortable in a new philosophy. And how will you do that while everybody and everything is interdependent and under so many dependences from historical pressure and fantastic quantity of PMBBD on masses, the reality so wrong people don't dare look at the truth of it, with the police, military, psy industry, happy pills, religions, to keep people in line, working to make it work to the end? At the point of a gun? Who got the guns?

So you see, the vastness of factors to take into consideration when studying behavioral science are so many and relative that making final truth affirmation out of experiments with attitudes of people or brain reactions when dipped in chemicals are almost a crime. As for socialization, I may have talked maybe an hour in the last 15 years (I restarted the babbler a bit lately, it's rusted but with some effort I'll get it working back right) and about the same for socialization. To cut it short, I will say that I had no talking or socialization in the last 15 years, no stimulation or physical contacts and most of my time before that was not much enjoyable, to say the least, and this is what I have to say, so there is something wrong in your knowledge since I'm a living proof that my brain did not deteriorate, and it fits perfectly with my view of how the mind works, in fact, this lack of socialization have been a condition to grow some of my capacities; you could say that living in peace instead of continually working on my social bullshit-de-bullshitting engine, freed space, time and energy, permitting me to grow a better mind, but doing so I developed a kind of weakness that I turned to an advantage.

Schools should make less of a paranoia over socialization and talking too, the same for spelling, and put more of an emphasis on conflicting and competing signification of words, encroachment, particularly principles, and clean the synonym dictionary a bit while you're at it, where you got jealousy as a synonym of envy but not the other way around (Jealousy is worse than envy, the synonyms of jealousy don't make sense to me). You create the truth of languages by limiting conflicting or competing meanings (illogism?), and these things can go all the way to genetics with enough time, like the Mayans may have experienced in the woods in my story, even if that would hardly work on asphalt, except for exceptions, savage people of the forest that debark in town... And people don't have to go crazy about it, I'm talking school, media and dictionary emphasis about words, and people will naturally come to care, I talk like anybody else, it's just that I take care more because principles define my life, and that's all what you have to do, the rest is details, keep the truth of principles strong, like for love (more than a principle evidently...); if you use the word love in a truthful fashion 2/3 times, then love is on an evolutionary track, kind of. If you are fair in 2/3 of your decisions, then fairness will become genetically easier to deduct and apply, and it will be reflected in reality (yes, because you took 2/3 fair decisions among other reasons...). And while evolution arises from harmonization (and sometimes the subsequent break of harmony, I know...), don't think you'll see evolution appear because you try to act fairer, it doesn't work like that, it's a long process. I would say most people are able to act fair (or just do instinctively) without much effort, the problem is the system that governs their life that is meant to unfairly reward some less than ideal attitudes, and it's pressure to develop people who are willing to do anything for fame or money, to the point that it just crushes any other detail of good will.

You still should be careful not to show-off your principles too much, at least keep the word away from earshot, because evil got a tendency to have as a principle to show hostility against the principle of having principles! Worse, he'll arrange things through extremes to put back your principles in your face like they should be absolutes, yes sir. And to keep a superiority feeling he'll make you bad for defending yourself, and don't show him a fresh new principle he hasn't contorted yet, he'll say with a smile that you are too straight, or you got a broom up your ass, or you are on your great horse with your principles, like you are anti-party or something (shut-up argument...). And since principles are kind of intrinsic to intelligence, they are in fact insulting it, and since the global intelligence is one, these people are imposing shame to their free "other" mind versus the global intelligence (don't worry it happened to me a lot, and I'm really sorry...). Still, you must live your principles like they are your secret, they must show in the way you do things, they must become a facet of your personality, that way evil will say you are an asshole instead, not much better, but it's far less manipulative an affirmation, and people won't see having principles as something bad. Some may even admire your strength instead, they'll be curious of why you're like that. Don't tell them you're having a principle! (everybody has principles btw, it's just that knowing them strengthen them and make them transmissible in books) let people make the effort of deducing what you're made of, that way they won't discard the value of the principle too fast with the preconceptions they've been implanted...

As for pronunciation, I never understood why we choose to encourage book perfect pronunciation; we're not supposed to talk like highly educated books, there are all kind of discarded intonation because they have not the desired effect sought by language purists or media people; intonations make people too, and while book intonation is limited to guessing, a language is supposed to sound harmonic, to flow, they are not a cold connection of words. And I know this effect can arise with words that can mean anything, where a feeling can change the signification of a word, but that's the evil way to do it and we are not supposed to develop for talking popularity. And language experts who will say languages are supposed to naturally morph because they historically did are wrong; it's like justifying the failure of humanity to spread on other planets as normal or natural because it happened with many other life forms like dinosaurs. It's not because we evolved our languages from grunting to words with many significations that we should let manipulators twist everything until a word totally change signification because it serves well babbling manipulators to have a confusing language full of twists and effects...

Lifting some unconscious limitations to consciousness should make people look more at the truth of things and develop new possibilities, or find back the track to old ones that have been discarded, or for others, it can give tremendous pain, like in the situation of a trauma in youth that's been blocked from consciousness (if you remember how it will often react, armor, entrenchment, or if you're allright but just developing a fear particularity for fun, then you may get a simple blockage and you can carry on, we'll see later, it will probably get away as you mature, if not then if you insist we may reopen the file. I doubt that's what your other mind would want, it's highly logical and highly based on good and evil (because its goal is survival), so it doesn't forget and while we define the emotion as revenge, for it it's more like fairness, so it will want retribution, but as equilibrium, you exaggerate and add other feelings if you want. That's what it would want, at least a worthy deal, now that you better understand, and it can store, yes it has a whole store of bas feelings for sale... (I'm not really sure it works like that, but something like it, because it's always a question of pardon, and pardon is in the hands of the one that decide the price of it, so for some it can be money and it's ok like that, for others it's not to repeat again (you can make combos), but the goal is to erase bad feelings, about pardon specifically).

So it's kind of logical to be given your just worth as an intelligence, and because the global intelligence doesn't have legs it can't go to space (it is in space as the earth), so independence and individuality is kind of super critical. You don't cheat the value of your mind, the most precious thing of the universe, apart the UI, is your individual mind (with legs on earth); so yes, in a sense people are gods in that aspect, but we're 7 billion of those so I'm not sure it applies, but yes it does to your other brain, because it must assume it will be alone, so it has to make the best of what you feed it with, that's all. You must not see it as a calculator though, it is stuck sharing the whole brain thing with you, it hurts with you, it feels with you, even its pleasure system has its effects, so when you are rewarded it is too, but its greatest reward is to do the other side of the job, meaning being admired by the global intelligence could give rewards that would touch consciousness too, which you would see hint of through reproduction. The problem is that your individual mind got to be proud of its part too, so how you get this expressed? And admired by the global intelligence, how do you do that? It's a developing thing, it doesn't fly in the sky like a stupid floating brain, it's within all life, and nobody notices. Yet the blockage is logical, because it wouldn't work, both would go nuts pissing each other off, so one has to bow. Not that it actually did, it's just it's part of the job, like your hands do their part of the job, and it is as it should, a systemic aspect of our intelligence that do one part, the more paperwork and heavy thinking aspect you hate that you always replace by stupid soaps, it filters and optimizes the crap you gather while leaving you a satisfying potpourri, patent everything in a way as to help you survive longer, and it provides you with nice dreams when you sleep. Evidently, you could decide to be a complete moron, and let reality leash you around, decide everything in your place, and you'd grow a very shameful other squirrel brain, which would fit nicely through the hole of a toilet.

Yep, but it's not supposed to be a super big quest, it's us that have to make the reality work toward that end, do we understand each others here? Yes? Then what's wrong? It's supposed to be basically simple, because that's how things start, and that applies to the reality that has to permit these explorations and understandings, facilitating a logical basis in youth about life, and it doesn't mean brainwash, it means just the logic, like the difference between spiritual explorations and physical ones, because yes, you can still throw it all to the garbage, but you're still stuck with unfairness problems, unhappy people, you know, your usual day in hell, but the bad side, supposing you enjoy the style, is that someday you wake up too late or die as evil, because who can say good and evil doesn't exist? Then why no word about it except as dictatorship laws? The reason it's not in education is because we're in hell, we're even trying to make evil a trade good (evil people can pardon each others btw, a lot monetarily...) people fall in evil traps, it's not their fault...

Now I know some people who think they know it all will go jealous because of their wrong view, a bit like ambitious people going full on for the success story, investing tons of time, becoming it, then realizing some bum that did not even make a career working hard is doing the success thing too, writers are pencil pushers, it's not even considered work in my place, yep, all those books that have brought technology to this point are good for the burning if they don't bring profit to some marketing giant or communication multinational. So you produce, in poverty preferably, just so we can buy cheap, because it's been years since your last pair of jeans eh? Here's a few cents for your first sell, we'll take care of the 10$ price tag... But yes, with good marketing you could sell a million copies, and you'd be rich, 100000$, and taxes will only take half, yep, but that doesn't happen often isn't it? Seriously? Who is rich? Oh, but we need to be rich to stash money and invest my little sir, all these infrastructures didn't build themselves alone (like you actually placed bricks or something?) False! I say it's all part of the devilish machination that's entirely worth destruction. You will respect intelligence and creativity and you will give people their due! And mass cheaters get exploded, it's violence? Barbarous? Yes sir, exactly what you fear! You're not trying to take the monopoly of it for nothing! It's a shame I could have developed like you, in theory, so no explosion, but you will take "brain" and you will put it top brick! You will cherish it like the most precious creation, because it is the greatest invention of the universe, the universe exists for it, and so you will respect it, or you will not exist, someone else will be happy to take your spot!

This mentality of seeing creativity as an exploitation or a business, it's so sick that I decide that all what's produced in poverty is worth double; fuck you! And you don't have to know it, it's just between me and the UI, he, he, carry on exploiting people's creativity fucking thief! Cheater! And now that you're supposed to have it all, or now that you failed being close to life, now that you failed, failed, failed, you will do the jealous cheater thief because I worked for different goals than you, noble goals? Sorry if I'm that much lucky, but you know what, for a big part of my life I thought I was the most unlucky person on earth, that much (it's just ridiculous, but it's another thing that has become a pride...)

Cheating is a very bad form of manipulation, later of which you must consider its bad as the top brick of evil. So in the universe the greatest quality you can have is being impervious to manipulation, or detecting it, your "other" brain is into this, and you must consider everything as such first, boring but too bad. It doesn't mean constant paranoia, but you don't make grand plans of cheating, because while it's "super easy" being a cheater, it shame your free "spiritual" or "other" mind (spiritual, the home of your soul, "spirit") because it knows where it's from, like "total" ignorance, so mistakes are a given, it's in the learning strategy, but there's a difference between growing up and being an adult, there is intents too, you wouldn't dare hide your intents to your other brain, and there is still the difference between personal interplays and massive effects.) It's us that must fight evil and manipulations (the question is what do you fight; the manipulation or the manipulator? In ideal you go at the source but one thing not to forget is to not think in extremes, so while some principles of good and evil can be fought upon the person if they are absolutes (like killing people for fun, you get guns and hunt that asshole...), if the evil you fight to the people point is not really extreme evil, then you do evil fighting the people, so the question is; do manipulation has good uses? In the same way association of minds and skills are important to a society, there is always some level of it going on, and you still got to taste evil a little (parenthood with kids are excellent grounds to practice it a little, kids among themselves will do it continually, because it's super important, and you wouldn't do much humor without it, you wouldn't survive without some manipulation skill anyway...) Me it's super easy, I'm super good at it, like the pride of my other brain, but in hell I got deceptive results, because these concept don't exist as easy to reach, so I had to write this book, but to succeed I had to stay ignorant a lot of many aspects of reality and particularly the social aspect, and with my philosophy (like giving infinite benefit of the doubt and many chances) and the difficulty, then the result is that I'm (I've been more so but still) easier to fool, I could easily fail a tuning test, and what can I say, some people profit from the weaknesses of others... I still trust up front, because I like the concept, but let's say I can explore possibilities, so it's more like a faith thing, an invisible contract, because in fact people really start at 0, because I don't know them, and I'm not into friends lately, but I'm supposed to try to work on that (the initial idea...), so we'll see.

The other aspect of this intelligence is the capacity to act independently in a super-fast changing environment (genetically ramping about is very slow way to protect you from lightning, so let's get legs...) so this invention you have to interact with reality, your body, is the form that is supreme important to it in our physical universe. As spirit it's the other way around. What you have to notice is that you don't suddenly burst out laughing because your other brain thought of something or had just received a super gift from the global intelligence, no, nothing of the sort, so the reward or advantage (the unknown true worth of what you did with your intelligence) is expressed after you die, probably in the presence of a UI representation of the global intelligence, which can be something like the thread vision I explained previously. So in fact both aspects are there, the global intelligence, as life history (the only "whole" version, maybe the UI got a backup or something), reward your other brain after you take spirit form. So everything is dependent on where you are in the process, and since some aspect are locked by independent intelligence (people), from what shamed your "other" brain, or evil, limiting your integration options to a selected quantity of history treads, if you remember (I'm sure there are aspects only the UI can integer), it would be possible this way to integer the global intelligence through the lifeforms that made history, all the way to today, where you would find my other brain doing its stuff sitting around, and there as history continue, the worth of your other brain augment, and you can access further options. You understand that if you were too evil in reality, you would not even be capable of reaching aspects of your other mind that would make you proud, your rewards would be effectively blocked, for as long as you don't find a way to get the threads, but that may be a lot harder out there, as you would have to backtrack all the intellectuality you developed wrongly, supposing you didn't start in the negative, like it would be more rewarding to you to choose oblivion, because you'll be last a long time...

So your consciousness is a construction to make your mind competent with reality, it's the true 6'th sense or something, more like something, or the supreme sense, because that's what senses do (the way the 6'th sense as described does make it a sense, because yes, with modifiers there is always a big level of unconscious calculations and deductions going on, which may result in people "sensing" stuff, but here consciousness is a sense too, the sense of sense (based on the whole lot of sense interacting with reality). So again the idea is that there is only one intelligence in our head, and the superb experience we live is its developing independence and individuality (as interfaces between different amalgams of knowledge), as much as how it like to sense reality (including other physical bodies). So in the end, your feelings are a whole, and you can individually fine tune them by your consciousness construction, "fine tune" amounts to be right in the value you attribute to aspects of reality (including other physical bodies, mental-physical), which is attained by an ideal base of knowledge. You could say that ultimately the goal would be your full intelligence transfer to consciousness state, but that would be neglecting the process concept, so you can't really see things like that because you'd die; there are many intern systems that you wouldn't want to deal with consciously, among those you got modifiers, it would be ridiculous to make them conscious things since that's how they started before getting optimized, so your mind sure won't destroy the work it has spent millions of years on.

You could compare this phenomenon to the automation we do in reality, all those boring jobs are automated in our minds, but it doesn't remove depression or unhappiness directly, it's just that less people do these boring jobs (even have consciousness that they exist, like you don't have consciousness of all the jobs your "other" mind is doing (unconsciously), so you can do other more important things, so you really don't want full consciousness, like people wouldn't want the full consciousness of all what's going on in reality.

Now understanding how things work, you'll steer away from those who boast they open the doors of consciousness, they really should limit their speech a little to the aspect of understanding they're trying to explain, because what's the use of opening your doors of consciousness? Better understanding (care) lead to better consciousness, there is no door, it's a process, and your "other" mind limits it in function of self-survival, like if you put it at risk, or impose fear to it, and those can become genetic. What's so extraordinary behind these doors? Big inflow of revelation stuff? I bet the guru already knows everything about it (his manipulations of the questioning you have that he "put" in this locked "consciousness room" place, he's just using consciousness as an argument to manipulate others, as for full consciousness, you'd just fall on the floor and die right there. So sorry, no LSD, no doors of consciousness containing the secrets of the universe, and if I found one of those famous secrets, then I actually did it by thinking hard, yep, or you could say it's because I was closer to life, to my true mind, there was more harmony between us, I cared a lot about life and my mind, and I was rewarded, as an asshole in your vision, with more options of exploration, understanding, consciousness. Now those gurus of consciousness do think they're in the know? Do government call them when they need counsel? Who are the experts, because them too coming telling me I invented nothing new, it's all in the scientific terminology. Ok then, take the credit of being a total incompetent while keeping people ignorant, because I had to do this from scratch, and in the end, it's quite simple to understand, as I wrote it without expertise in nothing, and I bet a vast majority of people can understand. So if you're so hot, what the fuck are you waiting for educating the planet, we got a thousand psy shows full of twisted concepts, why is consciousness understanding twisted any other way except the right way? Are they hiding it to keep people ignorant and limited? Behind terminologies and scientific expertise? I will make the affirmation that I actually believe it is the case for almost all the fundamental principles of life I have met, they all have been perverted to become cheats, but that would amount to the ultimate conspiracy theory, and since I'm a fervent amateur of the genre, then I'll gladly, just for me personally, believe there is really a machiavelic entity that simply destroys fundamental understanding to serve this ideology.

But now that I actually "unlocked" the knowledge, then you'll give me the full genius credit of being the first human to understand consciousness correctly, because this is the most important aspect of psychology and it doesn't make sense as I hear about it right now, and we're talking universities full of geniuses working on the matter, so what are they doing? So I want a trophy for that too; on the pile... I'm just joking about the trophies, but not really, these kind of rewards are important and to be taken with class (important diplomas too), so I wouldn't pile them randomly for sure unless they're plastic junk, particularly this one should be one big and heavy piece of artistry...

So it's all a whole and here comes the pride thing, which amounts to what you create (can be intern changes), as much in reality as within your mind. It's a way of saying that the transfer value of a fully equilibrated mind (your squirrel one shouldn't have much to transfer since you fed it with peanuts and it's small and atrophied now, it doesn't mean it's slack in the cranium, but it's quite certain you'll just keep on being a moron), is variable in function of how much of a good job you're doing using that brain thing, because do you know what amounts to a measure of knowledge? No, then your other brain suppose that you're doing a good job or not by comparing itself to the consciousness levels of others, which would amount to the understanding of the interlocutor, which would be a hint to the level of intelligence or knowledge behind the consciousness interface with reality (whatever you want to call this), which, ideally, should bear the pride of his whole intelligence as individuality and independence. So, let's see... how do you think a society that makes me bear my intelligence like I should be shameful of it, that make my intelligence live at the lowest denominator of value you can attribute to the members of your civilized society, advanced technologically, boasting its psy and intelligence expertise all over the place in full comm overload, how will all those social people will look at each others out there as spirits, if you understand it's a whole big family of spiritual ET's out there, all as the most important thing of the universe, intelligence (people against intelligence are not supposed to be alive, I don't know what they're doing around...), then what will be the place of humanity? And btw, it's cool if you're just healthily interested into things, as a passion too if you want, but who decided it was boring or too hard or the last of our priorities? Worse some guy decided to associate it to bad perfection, but who decided perfection was bad? Or how can you actually come to such an idiotic conclusion? I understand media people (where did you get the news? Rumors?) are rich disconnected morons, but common! If not then there must be a kind of organization that corrupt everything that make sense. Or is it moronic after effects, like shockwaves of moronism, because to them everything is too hard, so they always fail, so everything that has something to do with intelligence must carry a negative connotation, it's not their fault, it's too hard, you got a broom in the ass, it's boring, it's for gay intellectualities (it's gay), probably lead to craziness or suicide, the mental institute; no brain no mental institute, that should settle the psy question. So evidently, consciousness is too hard to get, it's outwardly stuff, some lotion, or another fucking brain, then we all wonder how it's possible a writer has problem with people who act like they despise intelligence, if the guy has been dwelling in it all his life and absolutely like the thing, even if it hard because of the conflict between it and this reality.

What most people need and want is not to escape their consciousness, it is to escape this reality because it is in conflict, it have wrong limits and liberties or it doesn't fit their consciousness that tries to express itself. Where are the experts and wise saints or gangs who talk about that? Who exposes it? No way! They profit from it, they are a part of it! So the way of this reality is to reduce independent consciousness (mostly with diversions, entertainment and psy bullshit like social animosity) when people start waking-up to the truth, or gain the capacity to do something about it, most of their soul is already sold...

Sure that much is involved in acting maximally independently, by yourself from truth conclusions; that's a very hard and scary part for many people, mostly fearless adults, too much, they would go crazy, violent or depressive, uncontrollable, insane, it would even create schizophrenia in some, or psychopathy, or psychosis since the reality is a lying systemized injustice of legal criminals with tons of PMBBD. But let's suppose they won't be the norm, or that my usual friends are not representatives, it's more a matter of intensity, because the walls are solid; truly fighting evil would wake you up to heavy conflicting ideals and tons of falsehood you'd have a hard time surviving, and evil got the bomb too, the monopoly of death (or entropy, as fast or slow).

What people presently live as normal and peaceful lives in stupid liberty is mostly a facade, like if everybody was selected to live one form of psychosis, they laugh at and try all their might to heal anybody who doesn't fit their view, even see them as the cause of all problems, but what they don't know is that themselves are far worse, it's just that people get used to look at themselves in mirrors, but they really lose sight at some point, the "self" brainwash is too strong, I bet they admire themselves on brick walls! Just ask the Kardashians! What's going on I mean, apply to the whole reality, when you pass too much time looking at your ass you lose the capacity to see clearly. To add insult to injury, people can't know how wrong they see themselves since everybody they know who are normal like them, are normal like them too because they were selected to be through time. You could call it the profiting psychosis, or the socialization psychosis, the sex psychosis, the competition psychosis or whatever. But all that is a ridiculous (you don't actually see someone else than yourself in mirrors you know, even if yes it may have a small such effect of getting used to seeing yourself, and there's light effect and food stuff and drugs that can change perspective, and there's what you want to see...), so it was just a view to make you understand that this reality add a tremendous quantity of limitations to people while it sings liberty, and most of it is unconscious bullshit learned in youth and strongly believed as good and encouraged.

So I'll forever give the finger to all those great philosophers of sex and liberty, or those who publicize themselves as social animals seeking parties as a way to get more of such mind limitations well implanted in others, and nothing against parties, the problem I see is the mentality that grows people, and when they'll be old they'll tell their children to profit from life as much as they can because that's the attitude necessary to end-up saying that their best moments were when they acted stupid as gregarine animals with a stuffed brain. But liberty is liberty; you know how liberty is don't you? You know what your liberties are and where they come from...

One thing's for sure, as I was talking how my mind felt treated, when I look in the mirror, I can tell you it feels stolen, cheated, but it's a pride thing, it values more that I stand for the good stuff than I get a car to carry its ass around, so I'm kind of stuck in time, because I cannot have the means to do what I do and get a job and I wouldn't do it anyway, because I stand to the concept that I work, while this society decides to value my beautiful person, but it seems people see all wrong, and I'm kind of getting old...We're talking superficial stuff here evidently, the dressing of my mind... And I stand to the concept that a human life must be guaranteed a standard appropriate to society's level of knowledge and technology and the condemnations it forces its people to (it's not supposed to crash the economy, if it does you don't understand money, or hid the understanding is more like it, hidden, so scratch all your economic education and go back to basics to understand, and since the knowledge is not that hard to get, then you destroyed it, someone did, in very old time at an epoch where monetary systems were starting to interact and it would cause problems of inferiority, or a superiority advantage was spotted, or it all developed as a machiavelous plan to reap in the profits for the gang of castle weirdoes completely disconnected from everything, except their fucking treasury, and the type of powder they throw at their faces... (The guy that made the plan and destroyed the knowledge is in concept the most evil person of the universe (just from logical intents), Lucifer hitsself! Just so you know, and his evil will continue to grow until his perversion is stopped. But we can keep it all standing to the end just for him! So he become super powerful! (Super powerfully shameful) Or we keep a special package to guarantee that he stays visible as an asshole out there, poor humiliated other brain, the shame of the whole universe... If there is someone on its knees right now hoping that I succeed it's this guy (he wouldn't know, but there would be rumors of salute...). So let's say it's a pride thing, it's spitting in the face of evil, it is humiliating it all the way to my fucking tomb if need be, but once there you'll have proven many things, because my history will show how I cared, and how I stood, and I'll be entitled not to care about any of you, because you'll have waited until I die to prove you did nothing to appreciate me (don't try to confound being courteous in this, which has nothing to do with respect too btw).

Luckily I always relativize as long as I'm the ignoramus of history, and whatever the phantasms of frustration, there remains love, and emphatic feelings, since my initial idea was to write this as a love enterprise, and the soul (spirit) reward for doing it would have benefited both (as the complementary view of love requires, in a peaceful (PEACE, the final definition; living free from fucking reality scrapping everything with its profiting pressures. As for love, it doesn't work in hell! (not in its ideal, it does to reproduce, barely, and it's so ridiculous you have to make it a life philosophy, like it's so hard and unlikely you got to make it an ambitious success story, oh, and it is exactly consciously patented as such, by a history of profiteers putting their dirty hands in it.) So, as I was saying before being interrupted, I'm pretty sure that, while on a love momentum of people having an idea of what the fuck they're doing, the book would have been produced far faster is my opinion, and I'm sure it would have been better, it's a question of motivation in part, and we'd have two very special people, and incoming kids maybe even, who knows... But I became a crazy loner, and no I have no proof that I could be competent in the matters, and I repeat, I became (had to) a different person than a family guy, so how my life developed neither is a proof of anything competent in the domain.

So since the dices were a bit leaded, and I couldn't play the game of evil and sell my soul to embark in his games, I said fuck you, I took love on my shoulders because I need it, because I found it worthy, goodbye, and whoever cheated me of my love, you're just a pathetic little shitty reality, and I'll be back with it one way or another, and I'll shame your condescending ignorance with it, since we're on the matter of shaming ourselves around. And don't worry, I know you can do a lot to destroy the most beautiful souls in your hell, but whatever your trick in the end you'll have already failed from the moment you started cheating, and all your crap, all your means, all the cheating, all the irony, even a hell, will have failed to corrupt me, to make me reject love, and now we're at a stand-off because I refuse to become your ideal of a lone asshole god, the thing you wanted the most probably. Sorry for you; get your sexist shit together.

If I'm to enjoy powerful attributes then there's gonna be a woman beside me, even women, why not? Even men! Now we're talking, people, and I can be debarked, replaced, my love too, we may divorce, who knows, castle stuff, I'm a prince, didn't you notice? I mean I will have fun someday, so yeah, if you give me a nice comfy place I'll take it, and if life stuck me with irrepressible genetics then so be it, if that's the ideal way the global intelligence found to make everything work, in fact, it logically should not be a good idea going against its will, supposing things were deducted with ongoing reality momentum in mind, cheaters been served, that's all, or you could say humanity (life, our intelligence) took the form of dealing with its cheaters, because they're the greatest source of shame out there, humanity took form, for the global intelligence to become prouder, and my part of the job should be to reproduce like crazy, because that's the same kind of conclusion all the gods of this world come to eventually, and if I don't do it it's like risky, the final insult to the greatest pride of the global intelligence, pretentiously, and I'm probably the only one working against the idea as it should be, ironically, hell... (They all do, differently, it's all in the intents, the pure of heart or the brave of heart, I don't remember, total good vs evil matters.)

The problem, evidently, is that it's kind of hard in hell, to comprehend sufficiently to the point of success while having the time and willpower to it, so everybody abandon along the way, and me I end up not in an inadequate future, in so many problems that sleep becomes very difficult and all kind of after effects of a life of frustration and self (internal) protesting, so I may as well just go manage some concluding peace in the forest, when you think about it, and what's so special about me? Hairs? Oh, and it's harder to be appropriate with me around, there's a lot of investment and pride going on too, and not the superficial stuff of high heel bitches in the streets... But I still missed that part of my destiny (that's why my life is so boring), I should have reproduced pervertly, because in this scenario the exit door is to settle the cheat, whatever it is (are we still talking about the guy that really hope I succeed with this?). It's all in the back roll of history, I have no way to be certain of anything otherwise, so that's the logic I can use to invalidate the notion in reality, or the exit door life left me, because to it that's not the ideal scenario, I'm sure I'm missing a lot of fucking, lots of wild fuckings...

It's just my usual day preparing my old days, as I already explained, whatever your "other" mind likes it or not, it had to harmonize itself in some way as to make things work as you have decided to force it to a path, or kept on walking an inadequate one, which may come from natural momentum of survival, or proof are made that life is practically condemned to a flawed vision, or will condemned itself, because the knowledge doesn't exist, the intelligence has to create the knowledge, but upon reaching it we're going full speed ahead (as reality, the systems we made, our ignorant condemnations, to reach the knowledge, or goal, or intent.) And no brake no reverse, it's all a matter of incoming input and running ahead of the time curve, predicting, and trying to make genetic coincidences happen, which is supposed to proportionally increase with time, exponentially, as avenues of explorations have been eliminated by previous intelligence gathering expertise, and marking the genetic options for elimination through the optimizing process (A lot. I do think there should be no useless gene, if not we'd be polluted by a lot of garbage (the 90% mythological stuff some will want to presume, thinking they're into something intelligent, but that would leave you with not much to hang around, but for newbies in intelligence matters, let's say this 90% thing has been debunked long ago, if you want to see it that way), it's all there for a reason), so the it becomes a matter of always increasing probabilities of matching the most likely scenario of success, in a way as to not make a travestite shame of life (in the other way; survive).

But all that is UI stuff, the path, the test, the system that permits the most lasting survival, while making the most beautiful (preferably) history, while expanding creativity and possibilities, the strategy of existing of our UI, the form of its developing intelligence (I think living beings is quite something, but maybe that's just me) which makes its individuality and personality too, its integration of the pride concept)

So first repair your pervert or frustrated view of god, and you will tell me what you did with my love, figuratively, because you can't evidently, and these kind of paroles are laughable to self-inflated people, so my type of girl is somewhere, like her type of guy is somewhere too, because we care very much about love down here, and I'm a lover type (not the idiot type, for preconceptual (prepuce, prepubert) people, like love is idiocy...).

Sure that you can always force things corporeal, I'm an angry person, not god, so yes, just give me some serum and a good beating and you may get reconsidered stuff out of me, but that's cheating (like producing a reconsidered version of my work...(I do the reconsider part continually, leave me alone with that, go reconsider somewhere else...).

So yeah, the margin of success is thin in hell, and it sure doesn't do into the too blatant, but if this text is a reflection of what I understand and of my soul and how I stood and fought, then you are in very deep shit (to whom it may concern), as this text is my memory, and it goes on through the truth of history, the proof of your cheating. As for love, next chapter is where it will break you apart, but don't panic, it's only for those who don't respect it, because it is a logical factor of all life in the universe (every species has his form of love, their ideal most rewarding way to live and reproduce, just for a start at plunging your profiting head in denial, always, because to evil even logic can be denied, since to him he can remake the truth of universe with a well-placed bundle of money, he thinks, because he's seen it all with his money, know it all, all kind of crap superficial philosophies, that often squarely don't make sense, but because they make it fit, then it sounds like it must...)

Oh, and I'm not even particularly intelligent, maybe a bit over the norm, and I do show signs of it every now and then when I get out, but I became so by obstinacy allright? But I'm still super happy and proud that you patented everything in such a moronic way that I end-up feeling like I'm into god's secrets. (Moronic way; quite a reducing way to see the work of humanity (you did it real moronic, didn't you?

So as I would want my love to be proud of her mind too, I wouldn't prevent a person that tries to succeed at taking the same understanding path as me, I even hope I can be useful toward that end, knowing how unlikely an how long it can take. I see it as accelerating for now, normality it's supposed to be, because in another reality, these kind of things can be quickly understood; I'm sure I'm 10 years late. But I still do tons of repetition to gain better understanding (as I write), and efforts, I'm doing high consciousness stuff, and there is still a unique value to the first, to discovery... You're definitively not talking to the right person if you think knowledge should be hidden like dangerous too, or that it's supposed to be an advantage in the grand scheme of things (except for profiting and manipulating with ignorance and bullshit, which is very much not the grandest source of pride, or most lasting advantage), that's the why I write, and the why I make it free, because to me whatever the difficulties, and the feeling as an earthling in hell that it's not worth it, for nothing in the world would I trade it and I'm proud of what my mind does, and I wish it to everybody worthy who wants it. And I don't even have the choice, what am I to do alone as god? (I bet you're all gods but not me, as it should in hell...me I'm pretentious as hell, as it should be... I think Nostradamus predicted, or it's common knowledge, that at the summit of hell, or within its deepest bowels, you would find gods boasting around everywhere, fake gods, I'm one of those some pretentious people think, until proven otherwise, either that or we got to wait for bearded god mirage holo-projection technology, thing, or probably the pope will get out with a message from god saying he won't debark unless the antichrist is out cold, or some such.)

I wouldn't bet on our glory as associated civilized species in the spiritual aspect of the universe, and while my free mind is probably proud (can't be me, I'm conscious and I can be pointed at, so not me, no pride for people like me in hell (truly, I tried the pride thing and I ended-up feeling shameful, I still try to have a positive attitude and I smile and I do the gentleman too), I'm not responsible in nothing anyways, it's my other brain that's proud of its shot, give it the money, me I have no idea, and since it highjacked my brain, I'm kind of stuck harmonizing my opinion with it, sorry, so don't blame me, I'm unblamable (it's an armor type, or a privilege to the first, they say, the end justify the means people...), if I have the pretention of supposing my intelligence should be proud, and if you want to give it money, you'll have to call it through my ears first, then you roll the 20, and you slip it in, or you could put it in my hands, since he's supposed to trust I won't do too dangerous things with it, I'm master of the foods anyway...), but I was saying that whatever its individual pride, it still has a bad aftertaste, because it's individuality is only half the story, but at least together we'll have done our part of the job, which is a good start, people can build upon that...

Now, the other aspect of this, is that from the way my intelligence developed, then I don't see why the style wouldn't work at another epoch, or why globally we're not more advanced in these explorations. So my situation then would mean that evolution failed worse than miserably long ago, so I'd be careful of tricks, a thousand year of global intelligence going against you can lead to scary developments, like sending humanity in a pattern of consciousness limitation, in which case I could really be your worst nightmare, like if you wanted the king of the poor or something that insulted life deeply like that... But you still have to see it as a joke on you to make you learn, not really 666 stuff, because life would condemn itself to fail if it went too far, what it has as its top brick is survival, so I can only be a good guy, an ordinary one at that, because, if it was not for others (like their religions), I would never have thought I was exceptional, so what's wrong with people if I'm not really gifted? I'm logical? Emotional?

But yes it's possible we're actually at war with life, because why would an intelligence limit itself globally since that would go against survival as its top brick, the only way to accomplish this would be to override the logic of life, or change its top brick (putting it in a situation to develop hell on earth, the harmonizing effect I talk about earlier, because we condemned life to override its logic by putting all our energy and belief in a view, and we were so insistent it had to abandon and go along, but then it's exactly the same situation as suiciding, so our other brain would be stuck going along a pattern that will terminate it, which doesn't make sense, so I'm wrong. Or maybe it took a bet, it decided to deal its top brick 50+1 (democracy, an idea, the guy in the movie said, but it was not a good idea after all, under the form of running humanity from the manipulative corrupt hands of democratically chosen businessmen and their unfair family dynasties (the dream of profiteers, and just you wait until I start to play in this pile of democratic shame shit, you'll see how much I can spit on it! And too bad for the exceptions, you just had to do your minimal competence job of watching your politician party friends if they're nor raping the whole humanity or if they're not carrying around a lobbyist with the head up their ass! Your system, whatever it is your pride and is composed of the history of human complexity, it forces hell on earth, and your version of democracy is half the shame! And if my life is a constant humiliation that I took more than bravely, then I'm entitled to humiliate you, anybody that has democracy implanted as a brainwash synonym of good, you shut up or you be humiliated).

As for humanity on its suicidal path, I suppose the global intelligence has to trust its consciousness to come to its senses, because it is from consciousness that we change reality. It could have embarked in the suicide pattern knowing that there would be enough time to stop it before the fatidic moment too, maybe enough to patent the whole planetary genetics in a way as to prepare its heart wrenching cry of misunderstanding discouragement! As a last resort measure, bringing to reality a guy that can satisfy any of your criteria (god? The antichrist? The messiah? The chosen one? The 666, bring-em on, throw Santa Claus in the lot, I can be your good guy, I can be your evil guy, even your psychologist, I do all that, spilling my guts as an humorist too, while still passing life's freaking message; if you can't heed it then you're as well continue on your suicidal path.

And I didn't take depression into consideration, and all the possible effects life (brains, never ever insult brains, it's not really a matter of life, it's a matter of brains, that's what I fight for, and life is its working form (as I'll explain later, emotional intelligence is like the strength and individuality aspect of intelligence, logic is the path to the UI, or the path we must follow, but the emotional aspect here, which comes from finding and riding the best path, is supposed to make us develop the most fantastic creativity and explosion of creativity, like me that's extremely sensible, and I created a whole reality out of my bad feelings, kind of, or you could say life touched me so much that I created a city in its honor.) Starting with 2 sexes as a proof of total universal integration (your god should be composed of 2 sexes, btw, he should be a dick girl, so he can fuck himself, just saying, or maybe some kind of moron didn't notice there was another sex around, I bet he had no idea what love is, never looked into things, the chastity belt left no crack, I'm joking, they did look into it, and found it bleeding...

I was saying that individuality or independence, is gaining tremendous value as I understand stuff (stuff, eh?), that's the goal of the whole consciousness thing in part, that your other brain is just waiting to surrender to (it will always keep stuff to itself, and it's as necessary as it is nice, you wouldn't want to do its continual deducing job, and it's kind of fond trying to adjust things to make you happier if you are worth it, it's quite affectuous you know (people do make good dreams after all, I make exceptional ones (not much dreaming lately though...)) so yes doing exceptional parts of the mind job should give a pride aspect for everybody concerned, particularly since intelligence is the ultimate tool of survival, but survival is not a thing into itself without intelligence... So you can't say you like life, but you're not much into brains, if you like life, you take care of its brains.

To go back to the global life (intelligence) deducing the pattern of its survival from what we forced upon it, after eliminating a bunch of options and transmitting that these options all fail, it is left with the worst ones, the ones with high potential of complete and ultimate failure, like pushing new hormonal parameters for humanity to slowly develop as more explosive from frustrations, or like limiting our pleasure system so we can become more easily dependent, while developing conflicting situation from the bullshit we try to believe in, things we like that will make us become ugly (literally, but as conflicting extremes in this situation, increasing jealousy and division, even further encouraging class division and extreme unfairness, if that's the way we like to insult life...) since we seems to act like life is not worth it, that our own intelligence is not worth it, and you think it won't try to slap you around a little? We're not worth the fantastic effort life (the global intelligence, but it's supposed to know how hard it is dealing with reality and all other independent intelligences out there, it's not for nothing that we need that much sleep, and the first one to wake up is who here (stop watching your crap soap, I'm tired of this shit, do something else.)? Ok, just don't think the global intelligence (life) is like all motivated by bad feelings, it's greatest wish is that we find harmony. Yeah, but it seems people are happier without a brain these days, so why should I watch something else? They like to go to sleep a lot too, what's so interesting about sleeping? The pit of oblivion? Me? I say that if there is to be a pleasure and a reward system, then I want good minds to be rewarded for the best, the same if I take my responsibilities with life. That is plain stupid logic, and there is no reason for a universe if things don't end-up as such, if it's not rewarding to grow, so either something is missing or there are no reasons to live.

Now, in all that, I must consider my consciousness part of influencing the work of my "other" mind, which is very much in harmony with me, but became separated from the global intelligence in the process, this global intelligence that's the one that would have patented the crazy situation. So you see, I could have been meant as the ultimate incompetence joke on myself, but that didn't happen, because some miracle happened and I understood stuff and decided to design a new reality, so now I'm ultra precious but the global intelligence made me to go do something stupid, and that's why all the hostility, because of the discrepancy, the theory that I'm upside down, inversed, jumping from one extreme of irony to the next, never finding my place, but with a baggage that nobody can really contradict, so I'm alone and feeling all powerful, the rip, between realities, my spirit, my mind and people just watch flabbergasted, and nobody understand it was all a grand plan to fight evil without your incompetent involvement as everybody gets had, me too, because this whole god thing is a fallacy, a supreme insult to the true entity. I'm not saying I'm precisely into things, but some kind of mess-up like that is entirely possible. Luckily, reality remains non-permanent and a little unpredictable, never underestimate perfection (the UI), where you need that little exceptional margin. In fact, I don't see why, since we're all around, I don't see why the UI wouldn't add its touch too, just to say the game has gone a little too far, and make life remember its part in existence, but that would be either an unlikely mistake or a provocation, a call to the UI by life, since if I do have deducted it logically, I believe the global intelligence have been knowing about something like it for millions of years, so in fact it's more like life is tired, its soul is broken. And me I can't represent failure, so whatever the unfair situation, I can't work against life, I must continue with all my strength, because where I am maybe sacrifice is justified. I still think I should be worth my universal value applied to my experience of living, whatever the universal mess up, particularly as a guy that experience hell, the UI would be missing my very valuable opinion... So in the end, it's a shame, but in the name of doing a competent universal selection, I got to pass the battery of test only a hell can put one through...test, one, two, am I evil? Testing........................tuning...........

The problematic factor is the limitations of a single living intelligence, it's just logic that a single intelligence can't explore and develop all possibilities, even if it could be possible it all started as such, like a god. But then, supposing this entity is sufficiently ego to consider life its thing and limit it (by social interaction conflict) so it become his source of intelligence and power, and that's another scenario where the global intelligence would have to develop a competing god to remove its shackles, an I'd take the coat on this situation, where some god would have taken a bet that we'll never understand things sufficiently before our end, as a kind of plan going on many planets. Sounds like a big crime of the universe though, a cheater god destroying and using the work of life and the UI to keep his hegemony, and his lieutenants in evil would be those who encourage the ego god (s) ideology the most (the richest and most unfair people, or those who guarantee that we remain in hell...) In that case, while understanding that humanity would be a lost cause to work in harmony with the understanding I provide, then I'm alone, as representing of life and the global intelligence, before the UI. This is the exception where I would take the god seat to switch to a more appropriate vision.

But I have no idea of where things are universal side, so let's say humanity may as well be the tip of the arrow, and as a long standing global intelligence development, we still haven't lived that long, and we're still barely at the end of the learn by trials and errors epoch, I'm just saying not to beat yourself too much, even if to me as a big idealist guy that care far too much about stuff , in part out of necessity, then yeah, I'd prefer to see a nice reflection of humanity, and while I can bear the shame of my own "soul" it's the shame of being human that I find particularly scary, but at least I'm existing, and maybe while you do your usual, there are people on the back of the roll of history, who are very, very, thankful for what I'm doing... you don't think so? You think I'm pretentious? And you're the big condescending pile of shit that think he is god and know everything? You too will owe me...But yes, you are right, I'm pretentious.

We shall not neglect that everything is relative in our "everything" list, particularly when writing about mind processes and developments, such things are highly dependent from learning capacity and strategy, which are highly dependent from age and activities. For a lot of scientists and psy, we are gregarious animals craving socialization, so probably for them the best mind developing tool is socialization, but for me it is more like the contrary, so who's right? To me the wheel of life is supposed to do its work for things to work, but they're into the force life and people a lot (whatever the way it is done), even morphing the mind toward their ideal that life will have to develop as an insect one, like an ant-pharaoh society of humans. But such are things I wouldn't advance myself in too much, my point is; if you wanted to make a true competition of the things that develops the mind the most, you'd find many activities that do it more than gregarisation, but probably not in the fashion that science and politicians want, and am I not an example of that? I'm probably one the less sociable person on earth, and even though I may not fit in the standard IQ schema of what this reality considers as intelligence, (don't know and don't want to know), I'm far from feeling unintelligent, and to me my emotional quotient is exacerbated, so where do I take all this quotient stuff? Some from television, very little from the internet, I sometimes play a game, so without saying it's a better activity, play a good complete or diverse game for a start at a different example, maybe they are better for "the" mind than we think, but I'm pretentious? I sometimes I think I take it from eating my fingernails; faster, if only they grew faster...

But the biggest effect is writing this story, and this work will last until late in my life, so, as I write and grow and continue to strive to become better by steps, I experience fermentation effect on different aspects of my life, consciously by continuing my questioning and observing and experiencing my environment, and unconsciously while sleeping and while doing activities that keep my mind in shape (not that you need a world of these, or chose the most uninteresting ones, "activities" is more like passions, just things you like to du that involves a bit more brain and hand work than just farting around, that's why games are really important to me, because what else? Everything else is out of my means, except as crap like this apartment, so fuck you, and I'm lucky because this reality decided to sell ghost stuff, and that's quite an insult to my intelligence, to me the internet is mine, and any fucking asshole that charge me digital content is a fucking cheater of life and intelligence, but it's the system of profiting isn't it, you think you're condemned to it to have good stuff, they say...Oh, and welcome to the club of people who just realized things could be different, you believe that there way you adapt to is good and the only way, wrong, oh, and the eternal question, who am I to talk like that? Who do I think I am? I can't answer that question without insulting some people, so let's forget about it, allright?

Usually a stretch of one year is enough to exhaust my motivation, as I live in an environment that is already a critical load for me emotionally, and in unnecessary mind hassles and bullshit, and I'm not talking about the stress and anguish. So 1 year to advance my baggage, then I must find a way to gain back motivational energy from within myself out there (this reality is a constant drain and it provides me absolutely no encouragement, quite the contrary, a never ending flow of discouragement). When I'm done I drop it and for a few months nothing, then I start having new ideas that fit within my writing, and more, fresh stuff, big revelations, and after 6 months I'm back to writing a few pages a day on unrelated subjects that I'll eventually add to my book. This is the main fermentation effect, it will vary but continue until I reach another exhaust point. The touchy thing about this concept is that everything is not timed as equal stretch of implementation speed, kind of, so this fermentation is really an ongoing process that intermix with everything. And I pertinently know that I can't force things past a certain point as there's just too much ongoing, so if I don't take breaks I kind of unbalance or deform the wheel (I become a Nostradamus fuck-up), and the same for writing, if I don't do it then I get had from the other side, the let's wait a little longer side, which may cause a complete overload blockage; that almost happened when I was destroyed 6 months of my work (spread over 2500 pages), like all the bits of text I had implemented and all the additions, all came back together to clog my whole mind, and from that moment on I've always been carrying this nagging stress effect that it's all so fragile, you think these concept just are weary stuff to define well enough, but really, it's super fragile, I often however actual critical stuff to write that a forget on the way to writing it, and it's supposed to be critical, so now I'm kind of super aware "conscious" of the price of stupidity, let's say very respectfully (my own if you want to defend the other guy that entered my room to do his disgusting act, by saying I was worth it because I didn't make back-ups, or I was ugly, now I do make backups, a paranoia (I always did, it's just that at this moment of my life it was more troubles than usual...).

As I write this Flower revision I'm sure I'm mostly done though, I feel it, that I kind of emptied the jar for good (reached my goal, my life goal, I should say), it's not supposed to last a lifetime anyways, after that it's mostly embellishment, in the ideal of realities... Yes I could probably double, find a few more interrelated concepts, find studies and stuff, try to make the thickest book possible, but in the perfection of everything, my part of the job is supposed to be doable in a pleasant way, I do make jokes, but who wouldn't, sometimes words just want to arrange themselves as jokes, but it's not what I meant by "pleasant" job, I just meant that the philosophy of life doesn't need a bible to be understood, in fact it's so perfect, that a guy can describe his ongoing life as a story while implementing the whole of it within it, and it can be done before being an oldie, and it can all fit within around 2000 pages, as an interesting story, at the reach of anybody that just know how to read, and it's not only high ass philosophy stuff and meta physical science stuff, it contains the description of a whole reality, even a city, that's what young people that you stripped of everything do while you clean your ass with piles of dollars, and sorry if I'm bad, your good side is all over the internet, we never end talking about he the rich are good and superior people (absolutely, there are pools of arguments scientifically proving that the worst monsters of this world are actually the best people, whatever the constant whining that the rich are the cause of hell on earth, so what the fuck is this benevolent bullshit science?)

Anyway, I didn't want to go much past 2000 pages, past that I considered it could become an handicap, but as I wrote I kind of gained the feeling that I was interesting enough to carry on a lot. So the goal is not "more", 10 000 pages (I'm pretty sure that if you de-condensed the bible (make the pile of rumored good stuff portative), you'd get around that tough, strange it contains so little... But it's just a humoristic opinion, not really blasphemy, relax...) The dangerous thing in an extremism reality, is that if you stir ideas you'll have a tendency to attract the spikes (extremes) of opposition, so it become even worse saying things, because you got to defend every phrase you pronounce as an opinion, scrapping everything, because you must say it every fucking phrase unless they forget! And that applies to all those susceptibility groups, until you can't say anything without making public excuses to this or that association of people who got a conflictual relationship with something.
So my goal was to write how I'd prefer things and why, along with a project, define this "fragile" stuff, and I got to defend what I stand for too, explain myself. So, where do I take it? Mainly by letting my mind do its job with the subject I have chosen, which is more englobing to me. To tell you the truth I'm a bit impressed it works, I tell you that the time I pass seeking external data is very minimal, I still need to know a bit about things to talk about them, but it's just there, all logical, I just fell in the most wonderful spider web trap, and even if it's painful and difficult as hell to walk on, there are nodes of knowledge everywhere and they all converge to a single ideology, if you want to see things like that...

Next, I wouldn't underestimate the power of visualization, which somewhat can compare to the placebo effect where being sure of the result lifts limitations or maximize variable ones toward the communicated imagination. What a placebo effect mostly proves is that there is a limitation, which can be any very twisted and obscure thing of a conflicting belief split in two, in the person that can be lifted (by whatever entity put it there, reality, people, your "other" mind, etc.) the reality to receive the given result. So in a sense, you must make reality as "open" as possible from a simple basis, like a security base for the mind, which includes the body, and beyond that the sky is the limit, and that applies to our mind if we want to deal well our consciousness line, which is a kind of happiness adjustment line (you don't want to do the boring stuff), and you don't want to remove same potential in others minds, you're no cheater, so you need a base, a directional philosophy to act as a society for greater pleasures and creativity, which take the form of a path, or good and evil, and beyond all these principles, you're not supposed to fear, so consciousness limitations should be lifted (I'm brave, fearless (stupid too sometimes), that's why I'm the chosen one, to understand stuff that society blocked by its fear campaigns, thanks to its religions in big part...)

Visualization emphasis is mostly in taking the body capacities to reach possible ideals or goals, imagination here is your way of passing the message to your mind and body. Visualization needs many mind skills, one is imagination which is by itself a quite complete skill. Imagination and visualization gives the awaken version of dreaming, and with those you build reality. It is even a way to transmit imagination skills, getting people to imagine, visualizing. I use them when I can in my writings, in fact this whole book is a show of it. Creating visualization and imagination is a powerful skill everybody understands, how do you think I survive? I visited a universe, in past and future, it has even become a dependence, I have trouble sleeping if I don't fly to an alien civilization, or take a Harley ride in Rome, meet the woman, or make a heavy copter rides over an old city on a full moon to go build something. It's all in the details, the psychology, it can take me an hour to create the situation, but damm I have fun with medieval people (music people of the 60's too, and as I grow older it's other things, so they're like passing stories that I can go back to now and then to add details, or change them with how I change)... I make worlds, and you just wouldn't believe the vastness of the stories...I don't fall asleep in front of a television, I do it in front of my imagination and visualization and I'm the hero when there is one, or I'm the baddie or the savior or the lover, or the tortured, or the musician, I can turn everything in any fashion I want, and I can tell you movies and games are better be good to beat my mind, and they're never enough, I have to add, like they're all half-finished stories to me. Yeah, and I'm happy blasting good arses from the past, they made the reality we are in today, if only I could go back and rearrange things a bit...And you have the right to imagine or visualize senseless things, unless you prefer taking them on television, your choice, your stories where you are the hero, or TV stories of godly heroes in batman costumes (I don't wear no freaking costume...).

Now, what do you think a profiting person or religiously indoctrinated person, would make of it if I told him all the crazy things I do before going to sleep? (Bloody imagination included, the illegal "sign" stuff, sign that I'm turning into a vampire or a killer) Apart thinking I'm completely nuts besides his bible, he'd be scared and jealous of my powers and he'd want them, he'd want to change my inadequate imagination of him, he'd want everybody to imagine stuff while thinking about his ideal, because it's a control thing, he'd want to steal the control I have over my own mind, sap some of my independence and control it, for self-inflation, or whatever profiting scheme, and I'd end up on my knees in front of my bed reciting provided, or personal, prayers for or to a god meant to provide a dose PMBBD, and if something positive comes out of it, the religion gets the credit, if not, my fault, I did not pray hard enough or I've been bad.

Praying as a principle has become a contortion of the truth at the hands of religions, praying is nothing else than directed imagining and visualizing, with a reinforcement effect with paroles when possible. And for that you don't need to take an inferiority position, on your knees, while reciting a formula of PMBBD. A normal human being is not supposed to go to sleep totally extenuated, this give you a peaceful moment, while comfortably stretching on your bed, surely not on your knees, to rewind some daily events and, while falling asleep, imagine all kind of things, and your modifiers, unconscious, mind, life, will deduct what to make of it and work a "reward". That's praying.

Praying is related to talking a lot too, the sense, the respect, but it must come from your soul, you must believe in what you're saying. It's not that god will listen to you, unless he's around, it's a self-reinforcement effect. If you're living strong love, you'll express your imagination loudly to the other, exchanging emotions, developing and reinforcing your vision.

You can do it anytime, when you eat too, but there the effect would stay limited to unconscious implementation of consciousness. And you don't thank gods by reciting a formula, you pray by using your brain to imagine the life of your food, reinforcing it with paroles when you can, and in turn you'll care more in your actions, in theory, or a bit more surely, and I should add that the table is not the best place for food specifically, in fact, the best place is where and when it is gotten (not the supermarket for Christ's sake, imagine if everybody started doing stupid prayer stuff with food...(what is stupid and what is not, that is the question, I pertinently do stupid things, that I know, there must be some kind of stupid invincible force, or maybe people are a bit lost, I mean, it's theorically possible, we do a lot of stupid thing as a result of an emotional mix of missing understanding and wanting to prove stuff, so it's in fact natural, particularly in a competitive environment, because the dog doesn't care about the obstacle, it wants the food or affection, or feel like he's contributing to something important, so it's the natural drive of the pleasure system to want to do things too fast and make stupid mistakes from lack of understanding. So respect is relative, that's the news, total respect amounts to maximal boringness, if you want to see it like that, but I think we should still do it at a minimum, because it would be weird with full on maximum disrespect, but we'd express a lot of stuff, and aren't we at the maximum communication of our feelings epoch? The weird thing is that the only illogical thing I find in the universe is about stupid, this is like the crack of the universe you know, you can't base an important part of your philosophy on stupidity interplays, common, but yes, it does work perfectly, it's our job to set the middle line, and I do respect people whatever my humor, if not I would doing quite another job, and my whole opinions is based on a humanity very much not at its best, and I still stand beside it, and yes, I'm still proud of it, and I care, so I respect...

So while I understand for many people they aint got the adequate mentality to make humor with stupidity around them, and you got the other extreme around the corner ready to pounce at the first "sign" that you could be a bigot, it's the one sandwiched between the two that will take the blunt, evidently, even if to me it's more complicated and you must see most of my bad turns of words as affectionate, except when talking serious evil, so I'll have to do the purist, continue the ripping apart of my chest thing, all that while my humor is the one that is probably the most adequate. In the end I'll still continue with my "tainted" probably "bad psychologically" humor that's supposed to lead me to depression they'll say, but I say it's them that are trying that, you'll just have reaped a readjusted vision of your own for criticizing mine, it's a redundant style with me, you're not getting used to your shit blowing back in your face yet?

So as I'm proud of my humor (I don't think it's excellent, maybe, who knows, other humorists make me believe I'm special...) and I think all the sane intelligences out there will be of the same opinion, it still doesn't prevent me from walking my middle line, because it is good humor, good for my brain. Worse, to my brain, what you find particularly funny, your humorist shows, are boring, stupid, and twisted, so wake-up (around 10% funny content, for rich specialists, I think it's a matter of competition, clowns, and me I'm not into competitive humor, and being funny in life is definitively not my goal, so our intents are very different, me I use it to pepper and express my story, my day to day activities (writing) as it should, because who write stories without humor? And that's frustrating to me that I have to go through always all the details of everything to prevent willful misunderstandings. So come back to criticize my humor when you get your shit together, and you don't say my humor is bad, because if it is, then I'll strip the universe of it and you'll have none of it. And I'm not "pure", I'm full dirty, ask my girl, and if you want to find bad humor, look at your face. I mean, look at how you laugh at life for a start, how you respect its basic rights, intelligence... And don't try to find a tendency to put me back where I belong in your competitive condescending opinion, there's still quite a few chapters ahead of you, prepare yourself to go nuts.

Still, as you know, a person of my quality, must continually think instead of others unless they mess up the whole understanding thing with their attention deficit disorder. So, knowing the middle line is not enough as a strong concept here, I have to add specifically, that I interdict all forms of humor to moronic people if they were grown from current ideology, they could go wild like the sky is the limit of stupidity, extremism and competition and self-inflation oblige. And a lot are very frustrated and are just waiting, so as the brain of it all (didn't we settle the authority question already?), I must direct these masses back to the comfort of their social environment, unless they do very stupid things they'll regret. And anyway, the way things are going, even smiling will become a monopoly of the rich, just watch your TV, they are smiling it all over the place, total overload, I tell you, smiles, upon smiles, upon smiles, upon smiles, upon smiles, of super stars smiles. It's like they're all in another dimension of superb happiness, completely disconnected from any mortal preoccupation, they float, like big inflated balloons, while laughing it away in the wind, good bye, and good riddance... As for me, knowing there is such a beautiful world out there, you think I'll do the austere? Fuck you! I'll smile like a superstar too!

Or if you prefer, there are many concepts at play that make it so I can't take any seat on this planet; loud and clear? Whatever the seat you invent. And you made it so how? How did that happen? By thinking you knew it all, that billions of brains would prove a wrong, and building reality in function of this know it all knowledge stuff you machinated over and out. So now we're in hell, by following your lead, and you know you were all mistaken, but you had a few preparation not to lose the face in such a failure situation, because you knew, so you have things like the antichrist, or the chosen one, or the messiah, all meant to put the responsibility of failure away from where it is, because I would doubt you actually design the whole believe in god thing as a call for help from intelligence, that would be very far-fetched, but in which case you better serve me, on your knees, religiously, while I read those commandment thing...

Seriously, I'm just an innocent kid born in your hellish brothel, and I want none of it, but then everything become an opportunity to entrap yourself in its grip, that's why I write for another reality, because there I can be human, allright? They're not embarked in your god stuff, isn't it nice? There are no religions, it's scary eh? And there I'm with friends making inappropriate jokes and no spy to go make a rapport to some entity that's watching over everything in case some 666 situation develops. I'm just an ordinary human, the same you would not care about had you smacked my head too hard with your hammer, understood? What do you want? A drunk or a thinker? A failure or someone with potential? Wake up! While you do that people like me are away in another reality (give them the means to be comfortable (comfort in my definition, not yours) and a lifelong respect pass to do absolutely nothing, they relax while you make sense, because they have nothing more to say to your type all is there, nothing more to say, or violence, because if all I wrote bear no meaning, then why the hell should I live? What's next you'll again tell people to express their frustration in writing? I'll be the final point of this shitty manipulative argument, violence it will be next, writhing. W\hat's the fucking use? Proven not to work, people are better as illiterates, or reading is for 30 shades of grey.

So that's it, me and my friends, all future antichrists, messiah, gods, 666, new age, deamons, we are on strike and laugh among ourselves in our reality, because we will never take the responsibility of whatever inadequacy you developed through history that you'll want to put on the shoulders of the least fucking responsible (people not born I could say but aren't we all not born?). So I take my basic rights as granted whatever your opinion, and I tell you why I hate your reality, and to do the constructive guy that debark from nowhere and know what he's talking about, I design a whole new reality, with some nice infrastructures, and BAM! I reset the time counter to 0, and let's go my friends we do everything different, from a whole history of father reality fucking mother earth. That's what I do, I have nothing to do with your bitching, your insanities, whatever, but I still must describe how things came into being, because if I was in a paradise things would have gone very differently (I would have done something else completely, me and my friends we have our potential stunted, so the priority is an adequate place for life, intelligence, that reflect it you know, in its fundamentals at it, so that's it, we can't live in a reality of morons, because we can't exist there, it has been verified repetitively through history, that's why I feel such an alien in a skin that make me super proud, where are my friends? Why should I just reap troubles, for nothing, because I really I do all this for nothing, since I've got this theory that at the top of the irony of hell, what is most probably the best way of thinking, the best philosophy and spirituality, the best economy, the best politic system, all that will be seen as worthless, the last thing people will want to believe in, the last, as I write this as the last, and you can bet the morons laugh, or pout some condescendence about my pretention... The lesson is learned, and you are done, it's the end of innocence, it's judgment day now. Really, it's ongoing, what are you waiting for, walking on clouds? That's in part why I write this, and it is no joke, because I understand the logic even behind twisted history and principles. So while you clean your image, just remember, that visits are permitted in the spiritual dimension, as long as you bring big gifts, but first, since I'm the boss around here, you'll have to understand a thing or two, even if ramping on your knees is a good start, from what I see of this commandment tablet you made for me about how you like to be treated.

So the way you must look at it if you're a big international cheater, is that I put your whole manipulation game over by understanding the missing ideological factor, thus designing a new reality as a new fresh restart from 0. Because you just were too low, it's simple really, I could not bow to the complete inadequacy of this reality to the point of simply flushing it down the drain, you failed in your ultimate greatest most important goal; manipulation, your cheating rule of the game. So I beat you at your own cheating game, that's your mistake, me flushing your reality for ideological reasons, god (not under ideological form at first, it was life vs god (I understood nothing, but I believed in life to guide me, which is intelligence too, and there was this matter with love, and perfection as an exit door too (it would become my universal mantra)). Your god is the reason you failed, because it is meant as a cheat, and everything is patented so some guy eventually take a seat, and I say battle among yourselves if you want, you'll all die out of it. So you lost again, like your money cheat, because I understand money contrary to you, and the same for all what you desecrated, it didn't pass the test, and the list of failures just cumulate. I'm not done, many more chapters of my king of opinions, it's cool eh? That's what you wanted, an impossible parody, something to go crazy, and again you failed and I succeed. Goliath is really not well, it's too fat and fragile minded, and there's still some wild elements coming from the forest around here...

Cheaters are losers, always, in advance (you cheated, you're a loser, whatever the cheat, even if you spend trillions of dollars to hide it or make it not a cheat), and your debt, all those out there in line hoping I succeed, the throng out there, who made hell while living, by cheating, your debt is becoming the nearest thing to infinity (don't forget it's always the same dynamics of good and evil, number of people affected, how...). And for those living, I'm your nicest opportunity, that you should care about pricelessly, invest. I could say I wouldn't care less about what you make of your future, but I think it's a shame for the rest of humanity and life.

Sounds like megalomania, but while on the matters, I should explain a bit more another supplementary aspect of the dynamic of cheating, how bad it can become. Cheating is completely related to fairness as a good and evil concept,, and if you already know, to our "other" brain, that's very important (all intelligence in fact, you can handicap 10 intelligences for a single one to stroll about self-inflated for nothing good (shame in the spiritual dimension), the effects of unfairness are tremendous and the price goes all the way out there where there are waves after waves of squirrel type brains awaiting your demise, unfair people who limit others too much...And what you're responsible for is a wheel of wrong developments, because it is logical that people will take as much as possible if you make everything a competition, and it is logical that you don't want to increase the standard of living of people who are not better (I don't want that.) can be an unconscious feeling, feeling cheated, or punished for doing the good thing) So if you are already living unfairly, then you'll have to take by more cheating, and this competition will never end, and finally, the other wheel effect is the feeling of being cheated continually pushing people to either extremes, depression or less caring, because everything becomes a cheat, and no way out of it (we are there). The only way we'll ever have the feeling that we're not cheated one way or the other as living is to patent things to stop it, make things fair, make trust a thing among ourselves.

You think living unhappiness generations after generations is normal? That it has no effect? Sorry but your feelings are important, and you can hide them but you know, and you think life doesn't knows? Be careful it doesn't serve you bad traits, as a revenge, as a way to make you understand, and out of self-shame, or even to punish you for not fighting... And the difference between what you envision, the hope, the hype, and reality, makes you a fool, someone without judgment, when you're in the environment and fail to reap, at least your fair share... You can't fool life eternally, even if you think the contrary, cheaters are always humiliated, it's just the simple logic of the universe, and it's all a matter of how long you want to see, if you're a moron and refuse understanding if it's past living possibilities, then once you'll be dead you'll still be stuck with the truth, everybody will see the little cheater, for eternity, but don't worry, you'll be meaningless in the mass, you're just making your contribution to the reputation of earth life out there, a shame really... Ultimately, as living it's all the same thing as manipulating, it's the same brick, so it's an ideological question, we're in a competition of cheaters if you prefer, and as the top brick we made it our most profound condemnation, we're a bunch of people who are gaining a brain emphasis with manipulating, which may, if we survive physically and the shame, turn out to be an advantage; it's like practicing, on the verge of the precipice, but that's what we'll be up against in outher space with our fighters, manipulators, us for now (competition of cheaters (manipulators)). I'm against the whole concept, but, who am I? The new epoch guy. So things are gonna be different from now on, fucking totally suicidal people...

Back to praying, you must have a thought for the life you'll terminate, and it doesn't need to be complex or long, and it doesn't mean eating should be a serious grave thing, you can have fun (I think I enjoy eating, am I ok?), talk all you want, a prayer is just a moment where you imagine it living, or growing, it can happen anytime, and it shows you care or want to care more if you could, a little shortcut to say you know and don't forget. This can take other forms too, since the ideals of society should project its things in harmony too, like its pub emphasizes, not meant as prayers, but you could say that all what we project ourselves is a form of prayer, like ideals. Eventually such prayers will make you appreciate life better, and if you do it often and long enough you'll become unconsciously more life respectful and you'll lack respect for those who are not careful with it. I should add that you can't prevent a moron being a moron, they understand very fractionally and are easily frustrated, so the stuff they pray for is probably insulting to their "other" mind, so if they are to reap in some benefits, they're gonna be costly, or end badly (this is still the same process as I already explained for interrelated logic putting pressure for your file to stay rock bottom if you're just thinking garbage... You could say ideals and nice visualizations will remove pressure from your file, it will raise in priority, if the interrelated logic can come with it.)

You can pray by powering up your computer or car and thinking of the resources involved, taken from mother earth which lets you have these things she produces, under certain conditions, whatever you worked hard to take them. Imagine a quick film of a hydro barrage storming with humans building it, the power coming to your computer, that's 2 seconds, add 2 seconds to imagine how small is the stuff in your processor and how it looks like and the industry that built it, or imagine you're a small bit looking at the field of transistors activity in front of you; there is all kind of ways to pray, I sometimes do it in a shower, in the name of fresh water, who invented this stuff? And, the personal effort you personally invest in providing your own food is 100% yours, you're supposed to enjoy the successful result of a hunt (valid for hunting evil people too), and that's what you imagine when you pray eating it, and some will do it for months, no need to eat, they'll remember part of their adventure for life and that's what life wants. That applies to any satisfaction moment of successfully catching, raising or growing your own food, and you'll want to make it the best, and more expensive if you got a surplus, than someone whose prayers immediately bump on the super dinosorous cow, or steroids, fertilizers, antibiotics loaded to explode mechanically processed animals. Evidently, when selling your food, anybody normal quickly comes to the conclusion that maximal profits could be made there, which may not be the most appreciated prayers, so don't forget that prayer effects are very relative, easy to invalidate with a reality tool like a gun, a bottle of alcohol, or whatever the decision or path you take that conflicts your prayer.

The extent of this prayer principle includes whole languages, most of it is not, it is just the ways the language works, but as soon as you form the imaginary images of what you're reading or hearing, you're praying, you are affecting life, expressing emotions; imagination transformation is how you communicate with life systems. and the worst you can do is take valuable principles and twist them to mean anything, you lose their power, because principles are more than words, they insufflate words and meanings with powers while setting the path of your actions, dilute or conflict and you lose the power.

If you understand how I see praying and life, then you understand that praying has not much to do with gods and everything to do with life, that's why prayers to gods rarely get "answered", he would have to be listening to you specifically, too easy. You have far more chances for positive results by dealing with life systems, and those systems won't pop a car in front of you, what you'll get are mind effects. But yeah, maybe if you pray loudly and hope god (s) himself passes near enough to hear you, then he may pop a car, maybe, if it's within his powers, but one thing's for sure, praying is not about reciting a religious indoctrination, it is about the emotions in your soul, just like going to the confessional and reciting a few chaplet won't get your sins pardoned by god (s), you have to regret as a feeling, go cry a little...

I will add that there is a better moment in life to pray of the kind you do before falling asleep, it is a 20 year slab around the reaching of adulthood, or if you prefer, between 15 and 35. It is the best moment where your "praying" have a chance to become reality under an extrapolated form. Everybody prays differently too, you can imagine all kind of strange things, have tons of fun praying, and if you turn around such imagination hard and long enough, your mind will deduct a path and you'll eventually have a chance, if you stay on the same track (don't gain 200lbs in a few weeks or become an alcoholic), to live a realist for you, extrapolation of your consciousness, imagining, wishing, or visualizing. Evidently, in the scenario that you want your praying "fun" to show some facets in reality, the difficulty is far greater than optimizing consciousness as unconscious since it got to go through the same process and you got to be able to still carry the possibility for these prayers to become possible. But you can pray all day long of, or for, all kind of things, and the simplest form of it is imagining you'll eat something specific for supper; you got money in your pockets? Then do it, pray that you'll eat a good burger and if you still got the "means" at supper time, don't spend your money (life energy) on something else, you'll get it, but someone wanting to just eat for supper may end up eating the same burger as you. You can laugh at all this and say it's ridiculous all you want but it's the truth. Finally, if you want to do the family prayer thing, you don't have to say it is a prayer, you can just say "let's have a 5 seconds thought for the food", and you don't go kaput if kids or someone disrupt your prayer; your tolerance is better at home than at work, in my wrong opinion, and forcing people is always a last resort measure, and always give some slack, everything in life works with some slack, you may think I have radical opinions, but if you read with fresh eyes you'll see that I "always" relativize or try to find a middle line, even evil, I wouldn't live in a reality with no possibility for evil at all since both the generality of it as down to earth concepts, and the experience effect on evolution, make it absolutely necessary, by providing a vaster area of freedom too, and it is as much a test of the immunology of a reality, as a proof that it is doing good, since people can do evil but they don't. Presently, if there are so many laws and police and military and cameras and spying and security institutions, media manipulations, it's, among other things, because the reality is doing masses of evil and it must control people hard and divert their attention from effective deep questioning, unless they scrap everything, kill everywhere and eat all animals, in theory. But in the end, if the reality is good and systemized fair, then evil, even if possible, may become something completely irrelevant to people, why would you do evil when you're happy right through to your heart? When everything makes logical sense? When it is evident that people work to reach great goals?

You don't have to exaggerate either, if you understand that it's kind of a natural process you're trying to influence directly (always one way or the other, like the projections of reality) , do you think I imagine trees and dirt each times I grab a bunch of peanuts? I'm explaining the principle of prayer and how it can become twisted, it doesn't mean I pass my time going paranoid with all kind of principles dancing around my head. I'm like everybody else, why not? But my definitions are less vague, and the result could be interesting if I lived in an adequate reality. Presently it sometimes make me sound like an austere predicator of incoming doom though, but do those people write my kind of books? I don't know, I do all kind of bad things, really, I do have some evil on my platter, don't worry, I'm no saint, and I can still do all kind of weird unacceptable things in the future... So you see, caring about things like principles is just a part of my personality, and I have to do it too, because they are truly very important, to define everything, but they sure don't make my ass straight, the same for good and evil, and the unique for my time explosion of imagination of my work would contradict any tentative by a manipulator to suggest I got a "broom up the ass" you know, autosuggestion and ugly images... But yes, like everybody I'm strict enough to steer away from falling in the pit, it's just that my mind permits me to see many pits...

Apart from that, there is all kind of ways to make people imagination and visualization active, good humor is excellent, good poesy too, reading is a precise path of imagination but less independent. Apart from imagining what I'm describing, the uses of it I make in my writings take 2 additional forms; there are the 3 points things (...) that push you to imagine some independent signification by yourself with a lead, and there are little image or, always doubtful, comparisons I associate to concepts to force people to understand, slow down their implanted panic of reading fast without thinking much, by interrupting them with a smile. And I believe people are supposed to like it if they like imagination, and if their unconscious gets jealous, it may mean that they should pass less time working, chatting, socializing, watching television, seeking sex, etc and more time alone or with a few well known people with whom they don't need to pass their time talking.

True love can bring such peace, so you can pass longer moments, more often, thinking and imagining, and following the line of your thinking without being interrupted by worthless external pressures, only immediate necessity. And you don't have to see things as a matter of effort, you can like thinking while relaxing, I do. If it is intensive, then take breaks; half an hour away doesn't break thinking, it is even good and I personally interrupt myself for 10 minutes at a time, instinctively, I just lift-up and go do something else, play with my cat a bit, smoke outside, prepare some food, do some little cleaning. Let's say I deal my time, it's like I'm attached with a rubber cord, I don't even take care of my cat enough, but you know my situation is different. What I mean is that thinking imagining, visualizing are important to one's life, but don't sit on the couch too long unless the 7'th o'clock man come knocking on your door with chemicals...Which can end badly, if you explored things all day long, it will affect your attitude, but even if you end up in suicidal conflict and revolted, you can always visualize yourself a movie before going to sleep, or stop and accept the limitations you developed unless you kill yourself. And don't think in extremes, there's more to life than thinking, many screens to watch, many things to do or enjoy, all kind of things to feed your growth on, and the reality needs you too, unless you judge it globally wrong, but I seem to be the exception that truly believe it is to the point of refusing to be a part of it.

Now, I can't pass on the good opportunity to write a few words about inhibition and de-inhibition, meditation, hypnotherapy stuff, and lie and movement detectors and all. Inhibition and de-inhibition is absolutely not a sexual thing, contrary to what psy and media people are trying to push masses into believing, like they do with emancipation, maybe they watch too much porn on the internet and it gets reflected everywhere in their language and now they see unhibited emancipated nude women in high heels everywhere, with bouncing boobs... Everything is being twisted to make sexmaniacs out of everybody, fuck all free for all libertine people have the matters in their hands, and they think they're good and evolved trying to spread their view as the next sexual revolution until everybody likes it the way they do, embarking people as young as possible with rutting singers everywhere, satisfying the big pedophilia push while helping the economy; sex is a big market, many twisted or evil people to satisfy, you wouldn't fight them for sure...

De-inhibition to me is a mind thing where you give a higher priority to external or reality brainwash instead of working toward the consciousness you're trying to implement in your life; the individually decided, encouraged or manipulated web of lines (Inhibition). I am a very inhibited person (I try to be in harmony with my most recent opinions) but I personally could go out only with my underwear on and this is not de-inhibition. I could tolerate women walking around half naked and my inhibition would permit me to skip being a predator. I know fuck all free for all libertine people and rutting singers (primarily women) would prefer a world where we are all nude and where we can fuck in public as much as possible, but I definitively don't believe it would be a good idea for many reasons. Maybe I'd get an erection more often, but it would require too much continual hypocrisy and tolerance too, and true love would be impossible (the civilized thing, to us love is that much, and it doesn't appear without us getting it, as it should be for high consciousness species.), and I'd continually displace far more frustration (you can do it total you know, to the death! And so you can carry, with a smile preferably, a whole mountain of frustration, drop it right on the desk of a psy, listen to his opinion on how to deal with it, which will probably be costly, and the quest you'll embark on won't do any better, except probably keep the pile from growing further (supposing there is competence, if not it's more displacement effect, more of a mind mess; mental disorganization in terminology words, if that makes sense...), than if you carried it and try to understand it by yourself, all the way to the tomb, drop it right in there, with a no worse attitude than the one that did the whole psy gamut (that's a bit reducing, but well...). For a final result, probably the one that did it alone will end-up better, maybe even smiling without pills, whatever the life of troubles, because, this is perfection theory, which you'll never end describing the complexity of...).

As for mass nudism, I guess a lot of people would go half-crazy from continually seeing naked people everywhere too, and many would not contain their jealousy (they would be right to be) to skip making bloodbaths everywhere, particularly since the place would be overwhelmed with old peoples, fat, bad taste and unpleasant smells, imagine taking city busses, ridiculous, civilization wouldn't be possible, imagine that! Whatever stupid naturalists, nudists and libertine fuck-alls wish for humanity, their arguments are all bullshit, like saying we'd all live in peace and love while it would be exactly the contrary. The human civilization is dependent from having clothes on, strip it of clothes and the system crashes and war starts all over. Yes some tribes do it seemingly without problems, but it takes one special kind of moron to advance such an argument, there are many differences between civilization (civilized) and a tribe in the woods. Tribes aint got no clothes manufactures for one and technology invalidates any naturism argument in an advanced civilization, in fact, naturists and nudists should all be dropped nude in the jungle without technology, and with GaGa to entrance them since everybody knows she sings far better when she's nude, think how hot she would be (without special effects), and since she likes it rough, then she'd be in the perfect situation to get it! At least their argument that a human is "naturally" nude would make sense; yes the human is naturally nude, at the beginning of its existence... Furthermore, I like the way fashion develops, not the clown shows for the likes of GaGa, not women in underwear everywhere, but the way most people dress; I wouldn't trade that for the naturist dream for sure. Even the tie and tuxedo thing is not ugly, but dresses diversity thrived in this reality because it is an image thing, and image is always important, whatever some profit from it, the problem always turns around the pile of money.

To go back to my things, I'll say that I don't like the way many health gurus profits from philosophies they don't understand to end-up twisting everything. They talk about the power of consciousness, profiting from that to invent pseudo failed philosophies (successful as a placebo) totally in conflict with the way consciousness work, or the ideal of human development. As for the energy they supposedly find, the magical power sphere, their speech all seems to converge on shutting it all down and getting yourself raped, while you're visiting some interior peace city where they replenish your batteries for free, but really? How about a nap? I do am probably a bit biased funny here, but what I mean is that these are all still following the ego ideology, and some will twist mind processes for it, because if me I'm biased a bit, they are too when they become tools to serve agendas, if only to adapt to reality, but it's more like the goal is to harmonize everything and everybody to the ego-god (s) ideology, in the name of money probably, from pressures a lot I suppose too. Stretching or concentration or calm or power movements courses are all an excellent thing, to have peace among other uses, if that's what you want, but you're not supposed to be limited to these feelings is what I mean, and for a lot of gurus gods out there, they exist to reap the money, they are more like sects, good for the collective ego-gods ideal.

The same for "meditation", it's not about meditation, it's about thinking, thinking about relaxing, how about that? and the sole reason meditation "works" is because people use it like a synonym of thinking or introspection, while it mostly divide people, like people who meditate are kind of special or better. I could develop all that because like everybody, I can think (meditate on stuff), my special feature is that I do it, and I won't waste my intelligence by dividing it among meditation and thinking like there's two more brains involved, I have enough of these as it is, soon they'll design pyramidal schemas of "sub" brains; here, this is the meditation part, it works only with a guru, this other part is thinking part, it's a "sub" part to the guru controlled one. But I don't know what I'm talking about, so I'll start doing yoga and meditation mantra and my mind will finally work better! And I'll know what I'm talking about! I think in fact that my problem is that I developed it without noticing, very long ago, by slowing down my stuff, closing my eyes and gaining consciousness, yes, of every bit of my body that's under stress to relax them, and I can slow down my breathing a lot, and I hear my heart and feel it so I definitively know all what it's doing. That could be meditation, but just so you know, I never had a genius idea that way, It's more like the contrary, flush all stress that's developing as I write, as an example. So what's the problem here? Conflicting meaning; you don't meditate on things. And who says "I will meditate on this?" sound cool (fake, bullshit type) people (so hot they meditate and they get big revelations that will decide everything, everybody is waiting for the meditation wisdom..."it's meditation man!").

To me there's nothing like stretching though, and that's what I need, good books and courses and good experts, but I don't want to be sold an indoctrination with it, and I don't believe there are "normal" reasons for the shutting down of mind processes, energy go where it is supposed to go, and if you need institutions to "straighten" it every day, then you've got a profound mental problem, or a profound reality problem, depending on which side you stand. You like to believe you are manipulating positive and negative brain energies, but in truth you're providing a visualization scenario of acceptance and "peace" with reality with PMBBD scrap and those actions are against growth and evolution.

The same for those pretentious (I knew someone else had it...) masters of the mind who sees mind negative expressions or effects as a sickness or a need to reduce mind activities or inject positivism chemicals, those people are enemies of evolution. Many spiritual masters and the likes are helping along the lava slide into hell, with their good intent bullshit that will worsen things in the long run. There seems to be no recipe in this reality right now that follows the true way of human consciousness, they all use different manipulative strategies to get people back on some pyramid. Most of those gangs who talk about consciousness and mind processes don't know what they're talking about, they read too many books on the subject because they're supposed to have something to say that fit their style, then they implement what fits their goals for a new expertise closed to inferiors (the expertise), or a new sect, or simply to be more popular, to pass on television, to sell more, to make more profit or only to get attention or admiration.

If people feel bad presently it is mostly a sign of a conflict between themselves and reality, and more often than not, the problem is reality not the person; we are not supposed to calm ourselves continually after smoking, drinking caffeine and sniffing cocaine, or stuff ourselves with all kind of anti-depressives to feel better...

All those wise and knowledgeable saints of happiness may be perfect for this reality, for the dependent and condemned, but they are very far from being "good" people you must listen to. I want my consciousness to change me, torture me a little if it must, break my sleep, bring me nightmares sometimes, force me to do crazy things, I want to live my consciousness fully, and I'll become what it decides, not you. At least for now it seems that I use it well enough, or I'm good enough, to only reap the most beautiful dreams, and I feel absolutely in harmony in body and mind while I use my consciousness to look at this reality in the face, I don't ignore what don't please me, I study it, at least a little (study thy enemy? Or something like that, and sorry Christianity if I can't "love" my enemy.).

Another example of atrophy therapy (therapy from and for morons), is seeing anything in the mind as a fact of the mind, like saying that people are made so that liberty can be used as an argument to manipulate them into buying or accepting something and it is proven scientific by their experiments. What they don't say in their great knowledge, so nobody can understand nothing nowhere, is that the effect comes from using liberty as a massive PMBBD argument from the beginning of time in the first place, making people believe in infinite liberty as something supreme, something wonderful, the infinite ego philosophy to its maximal extent, and brainwashing and manipulating the whole earth as to how great liberty is while it is absolute PMBBD. But now that everybody in its wrong mind believe liberty is wonderful and all, then PMBBD users can use liberty to sell stuff or use manipulations techniques. And stupid behavioral scientists of psychology will write in their bible that we are like this and like that, just to make sure. Fairness go ahead, but you won't sing liberty without reaping big egos systemizing unfairness for profiting in the name of liberty. So watch-out for mindless people who easily get brainwashed to twisted spiritual crap like singers of liberty and love distribution machines among the worst.

Hypnotherapy now. If it is used for anything else than maybe reading or erasing memory, which must be very hard to do, hypnotherapy would be the equivalent of brainwashing magically, poof! Force erasing stuff in memory could have uses, if it could work without cutting whole bundles of access lines or erasing related parts of memory and affecting reciprocity etc. But I wouldn't want to live in a reality that can read my mind like a book or erase parts of it or even worse, modify it like a computer. My history is my final worth, it is my responsibility to live it consciously. Temporarily escaping reality because it's unbearable is one thing, erasing my history because it modifies me or I don't want to live with it is another, and it doesn't remove the history, whatever you blow-up your mind. For this reality, it would be perfect though, a true gift from the sky, a miracle! Hypnotherapeutically enhanced zombies! Knowing the universal laws of good and evil, I'd have a tendency to believe it can be done, maybe more easily than I think, since this reality "loves" to have smiling happy slaves everywhere from a selection of wanted mind processes (in the name of liberty...). Isn't that what we are already doing through our pressure selection process? So yeah, inventing memory ablation therapy better than guns and getting it mainstream would accelerate this process tremendously, and we are already going through a fantastic acceleration of it brought about by science making affirmations about life, and happiness books and gurus etc... Then there are all the psychotropic antidepressants to change the chemistry of our mind, the batch of electro magneto machines to adjust the north and the power in there, and there are chipsets too, to connect your brain activity to dials so you always have control over your bad feelings... They won't stop until everybody is unnaturally "happy", I tell you.

For now I say all this "hypno" stuff is mostly PMBBD for movies, as it is very hard to know precisely where things are in memory and precisely where access lines really lead to (they interact between themselves, pass on messages, turn around, go through modifiers and influence each other), and personal stuff in that? Ah! don't worry, hypnotists know what they're doing, they got a code of honor or something, so they are very careful, they drive in your mind and memory sufficiently well to be careful to select out your sexual activities, these don't exist, they just find what they need. But you wouldn't know wouldn't you? If he's not, you know, doing "things" while you're simulating things...

If someone tells you he is or he knows a good hypnotherapeutic or memory eraser, but his patients end-up as vegetables, he may be right and you may go see him if that's what you want. But probably the only positive effect you'll get is from yourself brainwashing yourself, with his help, to create the situation to reach his description of a successful therapy to the extent of auto suggesting yourself more powerful access to memory in the right environment. Sorry, but it's all a placebo effect combo someone is using on you. Don't forget that most people who go to see such manipulators are desperate, wishing hard for a solution and ready to believe in almost anything. But yes, a placebo gives some results and it is better than nothing, for some time.

Don't give a hint of autosuggestion through your talking, movement or your décor while providing me a 60 frames second filming of your hypnotizing, so I can be sure you're not messing up my mind, or if you want to be called a hypnotizer... Did you ever turn around without reason finding crossing eyes directly? That happens to me all the time and it's not magic; I know we both go half the way, but we let go all kind of clues too, smells can travel kilometers and even if we can't detect them easily like bears, they still exist and we can detect them unconsciously through modifiers, it's mostly a question of sensitivity to one's feelings...There are all kind of such unconscious clues our lack of sensitivity or sense overload, makes us ignore or discard, there is no magic, and charlatans manipulators know this so they send unconscious clues and they can detect some of those, everybody can, and they use those for their effects or to show-off or to make profit.

It may be nice as magic trick, to fool people so they can fail your tuning test, kind of, for purists, but this is going on at a grand scale too, hell in itself is a machinery, a tuning test, everybody gets had along the way, or one way or another, we all prove we're moronic, with some exceptions, for perfection purposes, beside the global brain, which itself is supposed to be, besides the UI, not hierarchically evidently, as a whole ongoing developing process of intelligence, and what we have to learn, the path, is in fact the path of pure existence, in 99.99% pure theory... In the end it is all meant to bring us to take an adequate intelligence form to exist in an environment where there is nothing, I mean nothing, where the UI took form, from temporary existence, as on off infinitesimal force. It means that the path of consciousness as associated life in the universe, should bring us to be competent making universes (always under the "systemic" guidance of the UI), or ultimately work to redesign, update, make better, the fundamental time form formulae, the matter dimensions that can compose things like the UI altogether, if its survival is guaranteed (already done long ago).

That explains things (it does), now it's still weird fitting philosophy, because really, this can't happen right? Make "hell" (depending on the gravity of problems, we could have made a "paradise" if we had gotten everything right the first time.) as a tool to steer us in another direction, all automated action reaction, to end-up learning and understanding the hard way because the easy way we used it to define our wrongs (the form of our hell, or our educational system, for humans it end-up with me reading commandments, it seems, but then I can be the antichrist too, your choice, you're supposed to choose both I think, love told me so when I was innocent of these matters, LOL, just be careful you're not doing mythological superstition, because personally, I'll reject both if taken seriously...).

What life worked for millions of years to create is being destroyed by manipulators for whom your consciousness has become an adaptation device. So yes if need be you'll become happy, pain will disappear, troubles too, no bad souvenirs, everything will be allright, but you won't be humans anymore in my definition of it and I won't care crushing you under my feet.

So go ahead hypnotist, you'll always have a line of suffering people to do philantropy, but you won't get a skeptical, sarcastic, ironic and mentally healthy me (I like to think so, but I'm skewed, they say...). Besides, you wouldn't need the popularity or my money since you would be the richest man on earth. This expertise is only meant to steal vulnerable or innocent people's money; a psy phantasm of control. And if you can stop severe pain, then associate as an expertise and do it, I'll empty a hospital of painkillers and force you to take the responsibility of any pain in there, let's see how you perform. If you fail you'll get a solid beating so people can see how you deal with the pain, and I'll even place another of your friend besides you to hypnotize you, and if you're still in pain, his turn, until there are no more hypnotists to make the claim, and maybe we'll finally find Jesus! "It's in your heart you moron", I heard you. And if your science is so hot and true and scientifically proven (don't forget that one) why isn't it used in court with more credibility than lie detectors? Something's wrong? I say anybody using that as an argument, whatever the scientific book about big mind knowledge, is a purist in the lying domain of things... If you can do it then you can write in memory too, just let the hypnotized in that state and steer him to feed him image and it should, logically, replace the old memory.

Now, I never been hypnotized, so I don't know what I'm talking about, I'm just playing a little too quickly in the strange stuff, but one thing's for sure, the mind is not a proven scientifically memory map of transistors scientist "gods" wanting to control humanity can read and write any part they want of, 100% in truth, including the truth of the emotions of the time, including the related imagination. That is so because thinking takes emotive form before becoming languages, a bit like dreaming, which is why I'm open to the possibility that it is in part a developing communication system. Language is just a mean to communicate imagination between each other, we didn't start writing, we started feeling and imagining, in fact, the right order, to continue bashing at so many great proven scientific final truths, the right order is imagination, writing, and then talking. And how did we write? By drawing our imagination, and how did we talk? By pointing at the drawing with a stick and trying to make convincing noises; there ends your great quest to explain how languages appeared.

And sorry for hypnoacess advocates, you'll have to look somewhere else for your facts because your final result is a deduction from imagination, and imagination is too vague for such precise boastings. You may be capable of modifying mind limitations, but you're still dealing with a mind, not a computer. I say most of the time both people are half lying; you can believe enough in your imagination to beat a lie detector, and the same applies to hypnoacess, even if yes you may access old forgotten stories or inhibited stories, I believe that, but they can be a personal old invention too, the mind is more fantastic than a transistor, consciousness is not limited the same way in everybody. You may think I'm unconscious but I'm not at all and I'm inventing you a story that quickly fits. So while you are hypnotizing people believing you're into their secrets, you may be reaping an honor finger, and you'll have to spend trillions of dollars and 100 more years to spot it, invalidating a bookcase of "truth", and that's without mentioning the weight of the PMBBD widespread beliefs you'll have implanted in people which may last forever.

And that applies to me too, I have strong beliefs, I have a view of things, and I'm absolutely certain it is better than any present human spirituality. But whatever I believe it is imperative that humanity changes attitude now to the point of shooting rage by the ears, I must continually be careful, along with being very convincing, while saying regularly that I'm opening possibilities, and with some humor, and severity, since I have chosen a generalist way of doing it, as a middle line guy; I always said I have all defect and all qualities, like a 0 I guess, so not to be taken in an extremist way, but generally. So you better forget right now your accusation that I'm no scientific, I don't have time for this, did I write a thousand pages book to explain how I see the mind? No, I never even read a book about that, but I'm ready to bet people will develop better attitudes, do better things and try to be more useful from reading my view than doing it from a psy book or one full of formulas, but I surely won't say they are unimportant, unless they become a problem like most religions.

And yes this book is a struggle for me, it is a storm in my head, I know why I'm revolted, but explaining it well is another matter. It would be easy to just say it is my choice and I just have not to write it, but that's the point of view of an idiot that definitively aint got my mind. How many peoples through history had a head full of concepts like me but didn't write about them for this reason or that? How can I explain within a few minutes how I see things to my social assistance agent without babbling until he thinks I'm good for the psy or some pills? How do you justify? How do you explain to those who have faith in you? Do you become a nothing or do you do something? How can I live with myself not trying? I have chosen long ago, and I don't do it just for me, but for all those who can't or couldn't, and I know, since I'm me, that there are many valid justifications to abandon such a quest, you can easily lose all your friends for one, or you can end-up with the reputation of an insane man, or an ego person, a profiteer!

All my adult life has been like that, my time is always a deal of self-pressure, I think of abandoning but I can't, I don't even play games anymore because I feel bad about it. I dropped a lot to do my "job" which I prefer to see as my responsibility, but it's like I'm dropping everything to prepare my suicide, very bizarre, I'm motivated like crazy while I'm totally de-motivated at the same time, full and empty, believing I got a great future while putting myself in a loser situation, super powerful while totally powerless, sexually obsess while castrated psychologically, super proud, but living in shame, a masterpiece of creativity that nobody care about, a wonderful project and a hellish struggle of revolt, etc, etc, etc, it's all part of the rip, for my soul, to you I'm in the middle of the place, and that's what will happen when I'm done, I'll have pissed off the whole planet, proportional to means, being fair and all, and brave, or is it a hot head? Stupid? Do those people write books in the first place? Yeah, it's all a stupid book, there's no bravado here, I'm fantasmagorifying myself a super hero story, I'm just looking for troubles, it's boring, no but I'd gladly do without them, your problems, and I understand that you don't want to understand, but yes I "must" be revolted, that much, whatever some will want to kill me for it, what do you think? My life is not funny and I should say everything is all-right, love is thriving, that people are happy, etc? You see it doesn't make sense for someone like me, and who will spill the necessary arguments when this reality alienates anything not smiling or looking happy or not fitting its scientific books? When you are seen as bad when you disturb people in their vision of happiness? When there are a hundred tags people can apply to your attitude to make you insignificant? When violence or revolt has become inhuman unless it serves powerful ego people?

Everybody is scared to revolt at the right source, to spill frustration for the most important causes, particularly when the account quickly becomes empty, so our energy get displaced on more twisted stuff serving this gang or that, or insignificant causes, and we spill frustration on people no worse than ourselves, even worst; good people.

Now, talking about evil, how do you define something (evil) which implies that you judge people? And you pit it against what? And next, how do you call the best human systematization of reality? And the worst? And how do you divide? I have personally chosen to do it as attitudes leading to a result; a paradise is appropriate and a hell too, to some understanding facilitating extent, for real they represent ideological extremes which can take a few forms. As for dividing, I plant "survival" there, that way I can't miss my shot, you can't say you were living in a minimally good reality if your attitudes make your survival at risk, or if the reality develop itself toward survival issues (which includes spreading on other planets, even traveling the stars; we won't survive if we stay on earth forever) while you have everything not to, in such a situation I could say you're adding an evil aspect, or systematization to your civilization, you're taking risks, as you didn't take the good path, or the best, on the matter. Generally, you could say that if you end-up as a failure then you proved you were evil, not good enough for the space adventure, while you had everything too, but at that point who will care about these things, except kneeling people? Evidently tie me there is the wheel of life, so I must throw fairness and things like that in the lot; developing systemized unfairness at a civilization scale means you are an evil civilization, as a logical contrary of fairness as a good thing.

As for hell, this word describes an incomprehensible brothel that don't get better and where good people work the hardest to reap the worst, mostly. It says you can't be much deeper in troubles than that without reaping bloody blotches all over the place, (you can see those as appearing and disappearing problem blotches on mother earth, like protesting peoples, multi killing investigations, war zones, poor city zones, poor country zones, drug dependence zones, sickness zones, cataclysm zones too, tons of suicides). Hell is mainly the result of wrong attitudes selected as good and spread everywhere, like extreme tolerance, acceptance, peace, adaptation or any twisted philosophical or spiritual notions and more.

The scary thing is that when you understand sufficiently the dynamics of life evolution, its intelligence versus consciousness, it's all reactive where you reap the mistake as well as the benefits of what you sow, this is a concept that goes all the way to the UI, so you really should be careful to what you force life to. The lake of fire with red devils may be nether stuff, for those in the know, but the way life works I'd be scared, because of the efforts of this institution (its extraordinary efforts of brainwash, incalculable evils on life and people, the vastest pool of bad intents, and far more, very much far more.) Me, as a human I must act like they don't exist, or are a part of our history, so no, it's not because I have very bad opinions about Christianity that I'm the antichrist, and the guy that will destroy them will not have a thing against the Christ, he'll be more like anti-gotism (batman stuff), or anti Michael Angelo maybe... I rejected your reality, in big part thanks to your greatest pride Christianity. You're done, you failed, you hear me? No you don't, you'll go to total extinction. I want to be treated like a person by people who respect life and intelligence. And while I know I produce something that can change the world, so I may have a special name for the uniqueness of my status in after death, in reality I reject your potpourri of godly personages, sorry, you will clean your whole freak show of all manipulation if you are ever get near me, and if you're looking for your problem, look at yourself and your selection process, not me, go make a fixation on the people you make insignificant, make them adorable like me, then make a fixation on all of them! I will not take your coat of evil, even the most prestigious one you made, crowning me a godly being would be an insult to all what I fought for all my life, and I owe nothing to evil. You want accusations? You want to ostracize people thousands of years on advance? You like to become the Nostradamus of history by creating the situation for hell on earth and the coming of the messiah? You better be very sure of all your crap, because there is a billion spirits waiting for the crumbling of your institution to free themselves from the hell you forced on them, and they won't blame me, because if I have something to do with it, it was imposed to me one way or another, because I'm no amateur of Christianity, never been, simple.

I'm other reality stuff, nothing to do with what you made of the earth and of humanity, and while I do my work (I wouldn't do it adequately under Christianity's grip for sure...), apart lots of weird, I have no souvenir of any previous life stuff, the same for manipulation; I still think ok even if I put an aluminum cap on my head, and anyway, any, any, cheating argument will always, always, be invalid. Even if you can make a cheat last for all the history of humanity. And nobody can punish my person as related to my consciousness without me knowing why. So even if I was manipulated I still win, but no winning here, it's more like last days on earth, because you lost long ago by cheating the whole reward system, and me I'm like a passing opportunity, I produce this, and next is what? Vacation, and I'll enjoy these vacations away from any problem thank you, and if there is someone with a problem about it, it is you that's twisted mentally, by thinking I should be a super hero. I can take drugs, I can burn all this and do something else and you don't have a word to say about it, allright? I'm not a brain, I'm a human being.

As for Christianity, I'm not done, but I'm still always a bit reticent in my opinions, since I think they are trapped from top to bottom, they are kind of innocent as they have become, but definitively not initially, because in the grand Machiavelli plan Christianity they are "just" a tool; I express my bad feelings in a way to express my bad feelings, but all that remains a bit personal, because there really could be a kind of god involved... So, if I'm to do the young god thing that's supposed to go to war and kill at a maximum because there's virility involved, then I'll let Christian innocents farmers alone and I'll go right for the boss, anybody that's beyond 500 000$, in salary or a few millions in stash. This doesn't have to be serious, it's just to say that's how I'll do my antichrist business... Effective year 2012 if need be, because too late is too late, why not? You just had not to make Christianity. The law is set, now let's see what you'll do! (worsen things, cheat around some more, kill me, and make a parody of my work, things like that.)

Anyway, my point was that Christianity, as an entity, may have made their own hell simply from their intents, worse, they may have entered in a war with intelligence and life right there, because our "other" mind know what we're doing, which means eventually the global intelligence too (can take more than a thousand years), so yes, Christianity make me a bit emotive, but is practically nothing now, because it was a diversion, and a shield, and a submission tool; deception. In theory I should have gone right for the pope, but even at the start those people didn't understand the mind (other) vs consciousness thing very well, they probably thought they did, but the evident logic can go far beyond Christianity, if you just go back to the basics. But now the situation is a reality that was represented by Christianity as a reflection of its evils, in big part, top brick; manipulation, top manipulation; Christianity. So now it's a matter of being in hell, and Christianity is a rusted tool, the rich have had enough time to arrange everything for an eternity of their personality type monopoly, and there is nobody to blame for the mess, except dead people, and anyway, who cares about these things except me among the billions? And the way things look, I'll get away as a loner in all this, because humanity has no idea where it is headed, on full pride at it, thinking it has nothing more to learn about these matters, and I tell you, it's all wanted, and what we'll face is the unleashing of the global intelligence, all life, against this whole reality (it's an exponential momentum thing that's just starting). And nothing to do with the global intelligence since it is a bunch of individuals (always one evil mastermind behind that has secrets...). At the moment of the "crime" it was devoid of the capacity to know (the person committing the crime initiate the knowledge of the crime, which is in a single intelligence for now, or a few, bust someday it's going to be within all life, and it will come back as a curse whatever you forgot about it, and if you fail to find the source of the cheat and repair things, then you'll be bleeding all along the roll of history (it will have helped define who you are (condemnation), or, alternatively, the form of your failure if it's too important..

So things work differently from devils in lakes of fire, but down to earth, from what I think I understand of the powers of the UI versus the development of our independence (one of its most important priority, your independent mind, always), then you could have life systems influences, meaning the planet could actually get hotter just because it's hell time, kind of, or the big convergence, so the UI could contribute, because it's proud of life you know, it does living things, care for them, hates it when they act self-destructive, so it does live a bit like us, because there are other out there and things would be boring otherwise, for a start, but it's really a matter of survival.

So no big show off from the UI, even if it could (it does shows, but it's mostly end or victory shows, and they are its pride (as an example, you could get a special if you pass some difficult universal step, particularly if you do it exceptionally (like some special planet could come to sight, and it will look like a normal technological advancement, but at the other end of the spectrum, you have situations where the UI actually really make a show, to evil civilizations who reached failures without ever deducing the UI, because they thought they knew it all and it fitted, and bam, they're faced with something they never thought about in all their history, a whole new dimension to everything, where monsters actually appear in outer space! And it's magic, a final show for civilizations of self-inflated bosses that liked a bit too much its moronic population, because it's all a matter of intelligence, and so the last thing you should disrespect is intelligence, this is like the ultimate universal insult. So sure that if you add injury to it by acting like you're god and know everything while you're still throwing shit around, then let's say you could have a surprise or two if you get your hopes up a little too much...

Evidently one thing that doesn't help intelligence getting appreciated amongst the lower classes (lower, inferiors, failures, morons, people with things to prove in the head), is doing the big psychopath, or the big brain on 2 thin legs things, and there is sex, down to earth dirty sex, and if you're no better than a moron on that, then you fail, get in shape and you take control of this sex thing, because it's all a brain thing, a nerve thing, so you remove that from moronic or evil hands, and you make it shine, trough whatever intellectual games, but never neglecting the wild aspect, in love preferably for a cherry on the sundae. (I assume no moron reading these lines out there in the wild)

And it's super easy to fall into these kind of ego ideological trap for people who try too hard, self-insulting others or doing humbling condescendence, or inept authority, particularly if you have adequate high self-esteem that must reflect the contrary in reality (powerful-powerless); if you're having the rip if you prefer, and the same if you're investing a lot into it for nothing valuable, while you're always in defensive situations. It's emotional intelligence for life in the universe ideally (more instinctive. Like me that generally knows a lot while I really don't know much, but I feel a lot, which is super touchy as skill. But it's how it has worked for life until now, there are no special trade among animals and insects where you carry around a measuring tape, but it results in a physical creation that far surpasses anything we ever built digitally with heavy calculations, and yes there's an intelligence involved (don't forget intelligence will accept any form of input (sense) data to evolve, so the measuring tape can be any stability factor that intelligence has access to, like the tail of a fish acting like an unconscious counter, or walking always the same length (generally calculated), and don't think it's impossible or too far-fetched, "everything" can be a tool of survival, it only has to be proven to work long enough (thousands to millions of years)).

Life systems interventions happen continually, life has its effects, gods can intervene if it's more personal (the god vision I can believe in, where the guy is a kind of interface between its related life (when applicable) and the UI.) These effects will all look natural, because life systems are continually working automatically and from the influence of the global intelligence (life). So the UI won't debark to assess the situation and do live terraforming, but it can give a little nudge to many planets in a not too busy day... It's still made to be lazy, in a way, so everything is automated, and your intelligence are the control levers, so you feel responsible in your things, and proud, and shameful, and on, and on, and on, and if you reach unknown territory, then you may get updates and repairs. But really, it's all on you, you're supposed to do everything as a species, (ultimately as associations of species) and when something doesn't work as intended, then there may be a subtle intervention, or unknown territory circumstances can develop exponential interventions, to continue exploration.

The new way is that you don't have the right to manipulate with religion; I have the right to be free of them, I have the right to a free mind, to believe in what I want. And the result of my lifelong quest of philosophy and spirituality, makes my vision incompatible with any religion, even in the unlikely scenario where the whole planet was machined so I sell my specific soul to the devil, because it's very much tasty and rare.

And it's easy for those people who will reject Christianity to reject evil and hell concepts along with it to end-up growing both friends still more, they could even end-up running back to Christianity just before the end, to get pardoned...

The question is, with all the happiness stuff and security, all the positivism and philanthropy, why are we depressive and faking it out more than ever? Why is life not a default full teeth in the wind working machine anyways? What's wrong with the principle? If we follow the way of this reality that thinks life should adapt to anything twisted like it's indestructible, then why the need to depress? Why do I need to make the effort of paying a psy and a bottle of pills to be happy? What's wrong? I can do anything and I'm supposed to be logically happy about it if I understand the philosophy of this reality, anything, there are no reasons to be unhappy if you're a prostitute, you have a job, you can survive, so be happy! If you're not go to the psy, there is something wrong with you. Happiness should not exist for life, no need for love either, scientists, or politicians or an ant could run things and we should be happy with it, in stupid rich theory. So what do you do with depression? Who invented the stuff? Surface life that just "exists"? Why is it fighting so hard against itself?

So there is a path to life, something that says this is good and this is bad. And it can't be god alone, because it worsen everything size infinite exponential, he would be stuck with the same questions and far worse since he supposedly created life and the universe! And the religions that manipulated the world to this vision, are they out of that "path" thing? Good and evil can't exist for them? They are untouchable, out of life domain? They just have to go to the confessional? HIV don't touch people with a protection cross? They have access to full crimes and full pardon if they get a dose of god's PMBBD? I say we're in very deep troubles with life, including us, and we're not done with depression hate, violence and all what we try hiding or ignoring, all the evil behind. And that's without mentioning all the good principles that have been twisted for profiting, because that's in big part what's wrong; conflict in our minds from twisted principles or generalities used to justify extremes. A principle is made of a single definition, and it's still better if you apply the same attitude with words, but humorists and publicists would have a harder time manipulating people.

So knowing all that, who is game enough to open the can of worms? Nobody it seems. And I understand, and I don't want to hate people, I could be with you to enjoy living a little more, but I'm stuck with the can, and I opened it, sorry for me. But you knew I would open it, because my attitude show that I don't fear my own truth, right down to my mind or soul. So in a sense, you trusted the can in my hands by forever not taking the responsibility of truly fighting evil; you don't get popular fighting evil in hell... You spotted my kind of innocence and you could not profit from it, life was too strong in me even as an innocent, so the can ended-up in my hands, continually passed on by fearful sarcastic evil through history, knowing someone would eventually open it and deal with the mess, and I did, believing I'd catch big fishes. The problem is that they are not earth worms, they are death worms, so you can bet I'm dancing, and it is guaranteed that I have no friends anymore, that I'm angry, revolted and disgusted. And now that I'm left alone in the mess, not only the worms are realizing I'm too small for their appetite, but we're together realizing I'm not corrupt, exactly the contrary, those worms didn't even try tasting me, they don't like my smell, or I smell too good, life, and they're waiting famished. I'm descending from my fishing spot with an army now, and I'll show them a full world that is to their taste, look at these cities, the smell of corruption is irresistible there, go; feed the earth!

Stupid lies detectors now (humans and machines). They work by recording some brainwaves energy stuff when you tell simple truths and any variations to the truth scenario is a lie. This looks like an enforcement tool for a specific and controlled way of working the brain, or if you prefer, an autosuggestion machine, we are autosuggesting ourselves emotional patterns that are made to fit our twisted psychology, we are directing people (nudging) by deciding what is lying Machin ally, (it doesn't remove the lie, what I mean is the strategy is a standardization of the mind, and eventually your lie detector will become like a problem life will have to work around as it evolves, like many things we cumulated through history that worked for some time and decided to make it a condemnation, and it is even my belief that things actually change before our eyes, very super slow, to the point that even physical facts can change with time, and it's actually patented to make you wrong a lot, because it satisfies many fundamental drives of life, and I tell you, the proudest out there the most smiling, are those who understood "everything" is continually changing, so they're no pyramid builders for sure (again and as always, I repeat not to transform this as a facebook meme, go all extremist with inappropriate things, because "everything" is.)

This machine is as much a lie maker as a lie detector. The more you are conscious, the more you created your consciousness, the less reliable it becomes. The more you act unconsciously the more it is reliable. It could look like the more consciousness, the harder to lie, but this comes from other skills too, and it is susceptible to the same consciousness implementation logic as everything else, meaning that lies detectors in youth will work either very well or fail totally because your "other" mind (that pertinently know you're a fucking liar, and really doesn't want that reputation as a spirit, have priority in the matter and its influence can overwhelm the whole mind. If he wants to become a better liar, he'll have to go through consciously learning things and for some time he'll be a worst liar until the technique is implanted unconsciously (can literally be a technique). Then he'll become better at beating the lie detector. The thing is; lie detectors are another of the many tuning tests around (what do you expect, you're in a hell of manipulation and deception, hell is paved with tuning tests...), so they will work very well in a reality made to produce innocents, if such a thing exists, but may badly work in another reality. Evidently, when talking lies, you can witness enough exceptions to discard any standard view...

Now, the next step of these machines will be to detect the direction or emplacement of brain energies with more precision which will lead to technologies using these clues. Another incoming batch of charlatans, because you could even control some simple things that way, and some will say they are reading your thinking... You don't read the mind, you take a standard mind, detect its energy flow as he do some actions, and then you either standardize everybody to fit, or you condemn the personal pathing through reinforcement to be in strong harmony with the machine. Wide spreading such devices may lead to one of the worst form of standardization or mind stagnation from selection ever.

We don't emit thinking, yet, we give clues of our thinking, and we emit frequencies of thinking by the mouth, that way we control our communication and we don't pollute other with our vague thinking and phantasms. I don't know what is so positive in reading thinking, apart from the obvious moronic ideas...

The same for people who bullshit others into believing they can detect lies; you are the liars. It may be good for playing poker as it is an on-off thing and any clues of stress is all you have to make your judgment, but using stress clues or any other physical clues to make the affirmation that someone is lying as a fact is exaggerated. You can train all you want with your friends but you'll forever be under the same situation as a lie detector, only far worse at it since you are making lying affirmations from visual clues and those can mean anything. An anomalous expression or movement is absolutely not a clue that there is a lie; the person wants to scratch at the wrong moment, she is taken aback by a direct question, the answer is not easy to say, she is under unusual stress, on a defensive situation, inversed self-autosuggestion, something attracted her attention, she may want to express an emotion with strong movement but she inhibits them because of brainwash etc, etc.

Saying someone is lying from visual emotional clues is no better since people expresses emotions differently. This condemning attitude is a scientific one where you encourage a selection of people from whom you can read emotions as a standard thing. You discourage people from learning to control their person consciously as doing so can modify the reading of emotions from visual clues. That's auto-suggestive emotional madness manipulation; emotions can be modified by the PMBBD of a reality; emotions can be learned and can be manipulated.

This is worse for someone who invents his own consciousness that is different from reality; some of the visual clues for emotions may get modified compared to someone that is a reflection of reality. That can extend to a dilemma of emotions showing visual-emotional confusion (you can laugh, the rip has particularities). Then you can express feelings as much related to a present situation as to anticipation, while doing empathy stuff, so what about that? Evidently, there are many people who are just bad liars, it's evidently weird, and some people can easily spot them; many people only need to talk a few minutes to get me really insulted, I wouldn't do the job of a policeman for sure. And there are expressions that reveal sufficient level of truth, joy, pain, anger, impressiveness etc, there are evidences and feelings, there are smiles that I don't find enjoyable at all, and some are so damn deep in evil that it is absolutely evident, you don't even ask yourself the question. Just lucky good people got more consciousness and give them the benefit of the doubt, and some profit from it greatly.

The fact remains that emotions are learned a lot, and if we defined them until now, tell yourself more can come to exist, so you may not want to standardize the brain too fast. That, s one side of the middle line , the other is educational needs, you actually need to get educated emotionally even if it does create some level of standardization, which may be alleviated in an appropriate reality. So yes all this faking we're doing is important, movies, acting, but what? Don't go nuts (extremism).

With consciousness and sufficient control, you could replace an expression with a grimace fast enough the lie spotter would be missing its understanding, like magicians who move their fingers fast enough people don't notice. Or just keep an image that you quickly play in your mind while you talk, it may mix-up everything. And it's been a long time since we heard about the truth serum, pushers are still not selling the stuff while they sell GHB no problem, what is it? It's only bullshit for movies? Torture is better? Maybe working on a PMBBD serum is more interesting...

There are many such exaggerations people try to boast as international while they should remain cultural, like the big emphasis on eyes contact, like for what? To look into each other's eyes? It's love, it show you love people! I personally prefers to look at a whole freak face, it's scarier than concentrating into looking into each other's eyes, only brave people do it (I prefer to bow my head and listen with my ears and mind than to walk around in traffic looking into each other's eyes, btw, but yes, you beat me at the bravado thing...) Or is it an hypnoze thing? The one that sustain it without clinging succeed in the competition of hypnotizing the other? And I got a strange attention disorder where I simply stop looking and recite as I think of something else, while you do your hypnoze visual effects... And I visualize and gesticulate and I have a particular attraction for the quirks of the mouth, the thing is far more expressive than eyes to me, when talking, so why should I make a fixation on eyes? What's so special about eyes? To me it depends on distance a lot, inside arm's length is my girlfriend, she'll get my sensitive and more complex look (sounds like an effort to look weird), all the rest will get an intense look because that's all what I have to offer. Beyond my bubble there shouldn't be a problem (sardine style living is not for me, I'm on the defensive automatically...)

In the end I look where I want and I feel normal for it even if I know it's a normal tendency to seek eye contact, it's just it gets ridiculous for some sometimes, ego-gods ideology, competition, superiority-inferiority, authority, the competition starts right at first contact. I scared shitless the last one that required my eyes to look into his, Mr. Authority, because I passed my youth bowing, and my adult life too, and now I scare people if I practice the authority thing (It's still very much experimental...), because intense eyes are not accepted among cheaters of eye contact, those must be interpreted as bad things, for jealous people I suppose, because girls tend to like it... I wouldn't dare show the truth of them anyway, a life of being treated like an animal, and it's me that got to go beyond all this crap to actually defend against it.... And I'm competent, with hiccups along my evolution evidently, for those who will want a reminder each time I talk about myself proudly, because you know, I'm supposed to be crushed under somebody's condescending feet in hell, it's pyramidal... So again no, I was not born a saint, no I'm not the messiah, yes I hate being a monk, no I'm not your majesty, but I order you to go back and read that last part 3 times, so I don't have to write it again every time someone will see an opportunity to scrap my work, by crushing my credibility, or by discrediting me of my value, or doing the psy with megloomania and god complex know how (heal your classics, not me...), but be careful I don't take a bunch of arguments directly off my work to shove them down your throat deep enough you'll sing them for the rest of your life like a messed-up bird...

Evidently, I'm not talking about self-inflation interplays of competitive frustration, businesses are full of the style, particularly when cocaine is around, and to me this is so grave that I simply can't interact with anybody that has been part of big business for more than a few years, and the problem is not me; you clean-up your sick culture and give a lesson to all this psy science which never ends showing either its incompetence or uselessness, because their success is so much that I can't trust nobody in their wonderful reality, even my parents. So yeah, I do bow far less to authority than your usual type, but when I bow it's a question of understanding, so you got my attention, in the best of situations, like work situations, but beware, I tend to like to eat alive those who use the opportunity of their status to crush me lower with condescending attitudes, later (yes figuratively...), because I do things out of respect for principles, and I take the further step of proving I care about what I do, so you could get that particular look, contrary to what's supposed to come guaranteed with your status, I suppose you think, from experiencing your effect on the local population and having the capacity of quick extraction (not facing your mess too much, or worse for some; spend tons of means to prepare their "other" mind with some shame for after life, like means will erase history...

But yes, hell is not shy on the matter of mess erasing, so you could have an institution that will get completely reworked a few months after someone quits their grip to destroy compromising stuff, including the credibility of the person. I personally have experienced an interesting pattern as a stretch of 4 institutions that did it within a very short time when I quit their grip from all kind of weird thing they did. (I even made a dream where I was attached with chains to all kind of invisible powers, and I passed something like hours running everywhere in a gothic city cutting those chains one after the other, the last one was familial, then I ended-up before a gigantic steel door with some kind of magical designs. As always in these dreams, I woke-up at the door, I supposed I had overloaded or expended my dream capacity for one night.)

If I had revenge to bet on the roll of history, I'd sure put a few coins on such patterns, see where that lead, all those clean bosses reworking the walls of their buildings, like they resetting history to 0... Not that it's actually needed, it's just a joke, a fun thing we do as spirits (those who can interact with these aspects, it's not really a revenge based universal economy, even if that could actually work, since cheats (worse than bad luck) would be compensated... But buying planets with revenge money maybe not, and "revenge" is not appropriate understanding of would be procedures, which would be far more complex than what we have going as systems on earth. This is more like an optional view in the unlikely scenario that wrong attitudes "spirits" have not been selected out, or they remain under a minimal form if they can move, or ultimately, cheated their way to another step, like if evil extraterrestrials or god needed help fuck up a universal function for profits or something, a gold vein or an exit door, and they came here to encourage the type of attitude that will tolerate their evil plan or the belief they are left holding into, by making Christianity, and concentrate everything to the ego god (s) ideology.

As for my big presence that make evil get out its head, sorry if your systems all jam at me, a jam with a few grains of sand, to slow down your clockwork a little, but either that or we all perish is my opinion. But you can reject me, life's heroic tentative, since I'm not supposed to exist in your fake belief system, I'm too terrible, you can't afford me, intelligence, you want a world without me, so the problem can only be what you can't bear to hear, a free intelligence talking your crap out of sense. In your ideal place you may not need to find what's my problem because I don't exist, no need to defend, but you grew too sure of yourself and disrespected intelligence too much, so now you are stuck with my writing, that will overtake any kind of machination you managed out there, as I explain everything that cheaters, whatever the human situation, it will change drastically with my work that has no need to go farther than my eyes, since no other expression worked to stay between your deaf hears! Finally, we are now done with your forced misunderstanding, all you can hold to is denial now, while imagining your "other" mind reading these lines along with you. But you are still alive, not too late to do some compensating, but that's not the kind of plan you want to spend your energy on isn't it?

As for my armor blasting eyes, I'm a bit overloaded emotionally from all the shitty opinions and situations and history (my whole body just confirmed), so yes I have intense eyes that reflect some level of intern frustrations that I manage to contain, even psy, in their expertise fear that I'll explode... So from now on nobody will criticize anything of what I do with my eyes, because you're a shame on any sensible philosophy about it, your opinion of how I should act with my eyes, or how they should look, is a parody of judgment if I have to educate people I shouldn't qualify as moronic on my eye's fundamental rights... Maybe I should take a totally submitted stance, head low, try to look under your eyes, just like Gollum, I'm getting thin, scrawny, and underwear are becoming expensive, sounds like me, it's in the psychology, so it's gonna be mine, all mine! I'm just trying to scare you a little, I can suggest better for the form of your chosen one, or god, or antichrist, you know... Now, whatever the stupid stance, I'll still express my opinion like a strong and independent and free person, and proud, and if I reap one bad comment, then I'm gonna explode violently, because that will be the only thing you'll have left me.

I'm exaggerating, but it's sometimes tempting to slap a mouth or 2...I recently had an argument with a stinking, and bad mouthed man while waiting to get my social assistance money. The man was trying to befriend me and after repeating twice that I didn't want to talk to him, I shouted it in his face while asking if he was deaf or what, that froze his mouth for a minute but then he started talking loudly about how much the air stank of shit, so I answered that it wouldn't be that bad if his nose wasn't that near to his mouth, for another few seconds of silence, then he started repeating in a loop like I was not there that if I hadn't visited hell he would show it to me, and I answered that he didn't need to since he was a proof that I was in hell, that hell is a place where assholes like him can't stop polluting the wellbeing of nice people. The "discussion" stopped there with the security. Another shot a woman came at me and asked if she could pass ahead as she was in a hurry with a taxi waiting outside for her; I didn't believe a word so I said no. She then asked the same question to the old man just before me and he said yes like a happy moron, she looked at me with a shrug and a smile and said "sorry"; I was out of my mind, I said that if she wanted to pass before the whole line, then she would have to ask everybody if they wanted to let her pass, then I would smile and tell her to go ahead, but for now I was restraining myself from grabbing her by the hairs and dragging her to the back of the line. That removed her happy face, but now I had that fat woman before her stuck with an air of indignation looking at me like I was a sexist retard on a quest to destroy feminism (not a bad idea); I held her gaze until she turned away, but then I had to deal with security too. Where are my helpers? Where are my defenders? None, all submitted in acceptance, peace, tolerance, etc. In both the situations I described nobody helped me, the best reaction I got is laughing. And why? Because they don't want to get in troubles for whatever reasons, unless they drink alcohol.

Now, I'm explaining situations that happened on a particular day, so let's not generalize too much, but without saying I'm a saint, it's just to mention a psychological pattern (complex, which I'll further explore later) that goes on to even divide classes of people among themselves, particularly if you don't fit the decor (like there is actually a kind of secret code; I guess psy and politicians are so desperate for votes that they're actually making misery a glamourous thing, like it's normal, because they become the recipient of all kind of ass licking attitudes, for philanthropic reaping of votes, or psychological self-inflation, even media people have their own channel to the poor, it's called the "gignolée des medias", like it's their thing, even if they bum the population for the money and stuff, that the population seems to always give in exaggeration, so what's wrong? bumming the people works, but it's supposed to be a temporary thing, bumming, not a system with prediction algorithms of how we're goanna perform this year, eventually you're supposed to settle the problematic situation, not make a boasting competition out of it, unless you made it a pride thing... As for media manipulators, at least change the name because it is people who are generous, not media manipulators!

The problem here is that on the side of the poor, you got quite a few categories, and there's a quite large batch of assholes that reap in the benefit of all this bullshit (since they're part of a class that the general public wouldn't dare insult (logically, empathically and intentionally speaking), like many problems and exaggerations that have risen from politicians competition for votes, and the population bear theses conflicting feelings in secret, repressed, for psy profits I suppose, because they can tolerate more, they represent a historic selection of "toughers", while in fact on the feeling intelligence aspect they do the contrary, because they were the most prone to sell their soul to the devil (do anything to have a place; those babies grew in or developed in environments that made them the most willing to do anything to survive (like going poor prostitutes for some), until they accepted it as a finality, particularly if they made it a pride thing. At that point they will revert to hostility if they meet a guy like me that has as a priority to put manipulators and their games; over.

So the principle is simple, if at the deepest of your soul (you got to specify to go "deep" with superficial people, since they think that if they can grab at a concept it means they understand it, so you can't really tell them to look at their intents, because they think superficially so intent to them is confounded in what they do up front, and me I have to explaining that they must look deep in their soul to go find their true intents, if not it won't work, but to me it's just one more bit of deception or depression, because I just don't make a difference; intents are intents and there is nothing else to it. Unconscious intents is their next argument, because I omitted to say "conscious" so it's an opportunity for more bullshit spreading, in this fallacy of cheaters, because you know what your "conscious" intents were (what you fucking thought about), no "deep" or "unconscious" bullshit here (don't forget your "other" mind is one, it is a pressure process that's limited)

It's like trolling, trolls (low level (moronic) psychopaths) pertinently know what they're doing, their intents, what are they trying to accomplish. Some even make it like a culture thing, a pride thing (when you're at the "pride" level as evil, then it mean the society is unable to deal with the problem (or it is the source) and so violence is to be considered because these kind of shitheads are proud to destroy other people's dreams just for fun. And I tell you, there is a lot, and a lot, and a lot, of proud evil in this reality, so get to work slapping them around, violence has a use, and it is to fight evil proudly, to humiliate it as a lesson for others (you humiliate bad intentioned proud people, and if they are not happy, you humiliate them further, until they are at an adequate exemplary place where they can learn anew the good way of pride (It's better to do it on the aspect they're an ass with, to preserve a bit their dignity and increase the chance they'll revert to express their good potential, if they understand that it's a worthy investment of time; I've been humiliated, and understanding, time and good will did wonders, even if there remains a bit of bad feelings that can actually make me laugh, but you must persevere and not stay stuck in the situation or environment that made you develop the bad aspect, and I'm a loner of good intents, sure that if you humiliate someone that has as a career plan to persevere in bad intents, or someone can associate immediately to other evil people for their evil retribution (still more evil) then you can do the general thing, with a cigar and big boots)... That's the nice, because nothing of the sorts works in this reality, understanding is too fragmented and mixed with PMBBD, and the pressure to overload or limit intelligence to this ideology and its wheels of wrongs never stops whatever the psy science. I hate trolls because they've been a very serious problem in my life, I quit the internet because my candor that attract (reveal) evil made me fall in their embrace too easily, particularly with the complexity of what truly non superficial intelligence often need to express (already greatly handicapped by the limited formats and culture around all communication systems of the internet like either you're a moron or a scientist in this extremism reality, but me I'm middle line, a generalist as required by my job, and there is no adequate place for me in hell... As for all those trolls, and if I hate those who profit from innocence, think of my opinion of those who grow their self-esteem by crushing fine people, force them to compete by developing an evil mind too, those are assholes of the worst kind.

The same for trying to piss off people with superficial bullshit that you need a book to explains the wrongs of (the easy way for trolls to get the feeling they are intelligent, but good is another matter, even if in their superficial lack of judgment and understanding make them think they are good people too, supposing "good" is not a trolling argument for those sufficiently versed in evil to shit on the concept of "good"... And the victim not only feels bad for it, but develops bad traits at it, while the troll laugh, in his competition of intelligence that limits the best of it (it's in the attitudes, they don't say "I'm so intelligent"...), as the victims will have to develop more of his to deal with moronic logic, and I'm not talking about the bad effect on careers or future plans, because good people think they should be better than this...

They use the weaknesses of people, or any opportunity that passes, to worsen their situation, enrage them, pervert their intelligence, limit their capacities, destroy their dreams, all in the name of a laugh or growing their bullshit self-esteem, or the intelligence some think they have by always comparing their limited exacerbated evil aspect of it to truly globally intelligent people, who need more time to develop as complete complex people in better harmony. They crush those they are jealous of, eliminate them, remove them, so they can keep on being rotten brains, until no competition is left, so they can be god, at which point I suppose they are ready to build society alone, as their contract in afterdeath, so they can fuck themselves, or "inferior" animals. Yes they can make friends, inferiors to learn from, as tools for self-protection, as temporary association to attain their sick goals. In fact, dealing with piss ass troublemakers in a civilization already overloaded in far more grave problems and PMBBD, is an ironic condemnation of hell, as intelligence is already entrapped in the mental loops that makes it irreversible...

That being said, it is understandable that in a world of rich profiteers and manipulators with their society that condemn humanity to compete over everything, that specialize in disinformation and speaking from both the mouth and the ass, that you developed a bunch of your "misery" people, as the most willing to profit from others at the first easy opportunity... Which may be justified because all those poor people are on the line of survival, and they will tend to fight for leftovers, for anything, and the guy that can really help the situation, with a pure heart of intentions, end up in hostility.

As for the glamour there is none, it's like the secret of women, none, but all women have it ironically, the lowest denominator of categorizing (all). It's a shame in fact, because the right place for pride is good actions (evil specializes in the domain, superficially...), while truly good people are the ones breaking their hearts and emotional intelligence (no political dog style eyes here, the same for the pity stuff for the next election). Like me, people, even the selection, understand bad luck or difficult situations and want to help.

Yep, most of the selection is still allright in the head you know, messed up in hell, but still with good "deep in the soul" initial intents, even if past these you got to deal things. So your intents may remain "pure" (what you'd want), even if you don't have money or food to spare, even if the situation develops where you end-up in prison, and the middle line (the system line if you will) is that people are not supposed to sacrifice, neither take everything, and the top right, before considering you owe something to somebody in a civilized society, is that you live comfortably, which should alleviate misery, so fuck you! I mean, I don't like hell places, arrange things so misery is a rarity! I like to do the good guy when people get accidented, because at least I know it's not the result of systemic incompetence, or machiavelism (deep politician intents, plans, reasons), absolutely, freaking massive historical machiavelism systematization! And you think I'll make it more invincible? Because if it's permanent it's because politicians laugh at their parties (some actually develop very racist, sexist, or exploiting plans as intents, of the people they develop a despise of in their disconnected and intellectually limited vision (while thinking they're some kind of worthy intellectuals). The fact is that they need misery and divided people (while singing the contrary, always) as a permanent dependent part of their wonderful society, for their godly vision to work, so even if you gave them "humble gods" a paradise, they'd create misery so they can do philanthropy. And the proofs are there, this is hell is the result of their fake humility. In fact, anybody that is rich with poor around has no right to pronounce or even act with humility or philanthropy, this is an insult to life and intelligence.

And don't forget manipulators never stop the pressure as things develop to adjust them to their advantage. So don't tell me I'm biased too fast, I have no choice to use the philanthropy word in the context it was initially defined (used, look at the internet before 2012 to see in what context philanthropy was used, the initial impulse (intent) of the word, before getting further twisted as people give hints that they caught on). So I must write supposing all what I describe and all those words will keep their significations at the hands of evil, like philanthropy that will probably become a general thing that a poor do with his kids, once rich media (politics) start to see a negative trend for the rich with it, and that will twist the work of people like me; make liars out of good people who fight evil. So if you read me 5 years after I'm published, then you can suppose a lot will have changed terminologically speaking, and it will make me sound like a moron or someone with bad intentions, or exaggerating, while it will advantage evil guaranteed...

And this type of selection to eliminate some personalities goes all the way to the personal living environment of people, like lifelong sardine lodging glamor... While this type of lodging is totally appropriate for some situations, like younger social interaction needs and learnings, and cultural social integration (in fact well intentioned new people should have a tendency to seek closer social interactions with the people (culture) of the place, even if it is not easy, to some non-extremism extent), or you could say it is a viable option not to eliminate, the evil aspect of it is to use the preferences of some to force others different personalities to inadequate, even dangerous situations, or to use it as a selection process, even if it may benefit the person in the end, or luck may happen and you find yourself new friends.

So be careful not to transform sardine lodging to prison lodging or worse, with never enough buildings (the problem, or the strategy?), polluting intelligence, incapacitate, overload, overwrite, the best form it could take, piss off smiling and peaceful people until they pass days frustrated and angered tolerating (I pass 90% of my time in a 10'x10' cell, working, sleeping, eating, and from my experience with my tranquil intelligence, this reality literally tried to put me in jail or in a psychiatric institute, like I'm not incarcerated enough as it is! And I tell you, doing what I do and the pressure I put on myself, "they" (government people) almost succeeded at making me crazy, and they should be incarcerated for it, because they acted criminally in reality. And in a padded room at it, as a bunch of disconnected rich weirdoes not making sense who enjoy using their status (superiority) to get the best around them to go insane, but it's just my life experience meeting people who tried to prove I'm the devil himself, and some governmental institutions actually tried to build me a false reputation just because I wanted to move, it's just their preference in how they use the means, to continue their selection I suppose...)

And this is actually systemic evil psychology (twisted psychology that serves evil), and that's in part why a lot of people change from nice features to harder ones as they grow older. And this is just a fraction, time will wear you down, particularly if you have candor that attract profiteers and manipulators, or if you are a sensible person. It's even worse if, like me, you are stuck living in bad social environments, like living in the street, or having the cheapest lodging surrounded by weird or problematic people; in my "country" they (the system, nobody, surely not politicians) use lodging as a selection process to eliminate unwanted people (like Quebeckers like me who vote for separation), hypocrite mass assassination with yourself as the fool that sink himself in free misery through all the freaking problems polluting your mind. It is my opinion that they are creating the situation because the knowledge is all over the place, even in movies, so they absolutely, machiavelically (as evil people) know the effect of this on the mind, so they are incapacitating the mind of people willfully, mental torture and limitation selection philosophy. In a world full of incompetent psychology, they use it to grow evil (affect life and intelligence negatively) they absolutely know what they're doing, and the roll of history will be just waiting to reveal their true "deep shit" intents as they move in the spiritual dimension, and get lighted by the innocence they transformed to serve their sick intents...

They know, and they push the ridicule to the point that the "crisis of lodging" have been lasting for 20 years, and every summer they act like it's a new thing. I say after 20 years you have proven your incompetence over and out, worse, your bad intents, because it's the time it takes to make it a normal thing accepted by the selection, that's totally manipulated by the medias (they embark in any pseudo "good citizen" in hell bullshit because they follow the trends and it cost them nothing except some cheap tolerance that's compensated by providing them an opportunity to act condescending with those who are like them were before, and the largeness of media manipulations will give them all the arguments, like creating sexism confusion, or confounding racism and multiculturalism, or monetary multiculturalism with helping multiculturalism, as it should be in hell...

But nobody cares, it's all normal, this matron or that (sexist selection, the male hierarchy put the women on these jobs) of this institution or that (there are a few) do the usual complaining, like it's all they have to do every year, complain a little, so we build more blocks, and 20 years later it's worse than ever as it developed in a sick psychologically destructive system of selection. I should not forget that they'll say it's for people to make friends in what those highly educated people understand of psychology in hell (I should mention, because some will say it's good for intelligence, which is a false generalization since it depends on the type of people you have to live with, and you don't decide... whatever the new inflated size of the brain or IQ or psychological bullshit, at that level it's more often than not a matter on making your mind to perform in hell (use far too much mind capacities, to depression or craziness preferably, to adapt to hellish situations. It is a system meant to develop intelligence in a certain way), even if, friendly speaking, is true that morons tend to clutter and erase their differences temporarily to demonize and attack the source of their jealousy...

So hostility increases amongst the lower class, in these stressful sardine lodging situations where you got to "fight" for a rat's hole, you develop psychological problems, even paranoia, particularly if you don't fit the decor, as people develop fixations on you. The drop is terrible and the effect in facial physiognomy can be depressive, because you enter in a mental war where within a few years you'll lose all the nice you had if you're not careful. The other thing is that those people, who mostly despise the police, are the first ones to call them with lies. I generalize, because that's another load of troubles; I called the police maybe 3 times in my life, but I can't begin to count how many times someone called them on me, and in almost all situation it was purely to put me in troubles, and while I usually get out of these situations, with more hate and frustration, the fact remains that the ones calling the police are never arrested for it, and I develop more frustrated and hateful for it.

So now I'm the one to say how things are supposed to work to my mind, in the universe too, because it is really tired of being taken for a fool by all your bullshit! Absolutely, you deliver what you promised to it, it works on logic, so its bad feelings are based on not getting its due. It's its way of expression in fact, it's heart, the way you respect it, by making sense, by being trustworthy, and if you're not it will make you become with diverse tricks from all what's available to it to go as far as necessary, which include predicting your reaction as a way to use them to make future traps that can be transmitted genetically and further developed by global intelligence processes, but then your type becomes an "international" problem. You may think that if you can get everybody in your gang of problem, then maybe you could make it a standard thing, but sorry, the UI doesn't do democracy, and you definitively don't remove the stigmata of having spit on its face by cheating, by cheating your cheat in, that's kind of beginning to go a little far in the lack of respect for existence... Luckily that doesn't work; it's a matter of not letting insane lifeforms destroy everything, so you and your gang just grow a vast shame pool, a pool where good go piss when it wants to remember the feeling (that's a feeling right?), it's just reciprocal respect, a stop by the stinking pool Christianity confounded with a lake of fire because it sometimes catches on fire, smokers...

And I should at that point put a reminder that what I base my stuff on fundamentally is just simple logic, all the rest of my imagination, even all those interrelations I make don't make me right, they are my way as a lifeform, a mind, in the dark, to further defend the logic, as logical arguments that I'm provided by human experience until now. The UI may not exist, but logically it should to my mind, and what can you say against argumentation? Verify? Arguments are supposed to influence your decisions, and I provide a mountain of interrelated argumentation, logical, not as random twisted wisdom taken from memes on facebook, in fact, I'll provide the ultimate masterpiece of a way to get myself understood, there is nothing beyond what I do, nothing civilized, because it begins here, as writing.

This vision of after death is not satisfying to godly earthlings? Allright, I'll give you another vision, taking into consideration that they must be the center of attention on everything, even on the "life's so hard" concept (the hard stuff that goes on between their public appearances, all those parties (rich receptions to do diplomacy) they enjoy every weeks in those well-guarded luxury places that they tend to sell after around 15 years when they're too old for this shit...), since evil and self-inflated philanthropists will sure make a competition of suffering if it's trending, they'll even buy dog eyes if it can bring them votes or a more near "people" special effect, to manipulate, and if I'm around it will be to ridicule my work, since lifelong societal mental torture is not considered valid; I must do it physical like their Jesus, but choosing this path of suffering I wouldn't have written a word, which is probably the goal of the whole manoeuver, while it's so stupid it's beyond words.

But ok, understanding the place gods want of me and my unwillingness to embark in their evil games, I retire in the embrace of life and intelligence. And while all those rich are the pride and admiration of their selection, to me they are a grave shame for exactly these kind of degrading attitudes, like a life of mental misery should be normal, like people should endure anything without suiciding or even criticizing publicly, to survive in the hell of those gods. They'll say the contrary as liars, or if trends disadvantage them, gods are big ghosts in the sky they'll say, or mythic Greek powerful entities of old, but that's what they want to be seen as, and afterdeath will serve them their pretension, whatever the scenario. They will surely enjoy some form of infinite servitude they required for their great deeds, those who worked for them will continue on the same pattern, why not? Did they fight? Or just went as low as necessary to sell their soul to the devil assuming they'll be worth a paradise for their "tolerance"? Those who admired them in reality will protect them with their existence, and the whole lot will have their sought after resuscitating eternity on the roll of history if they ended life potential by submitting its intelligence to the ego god (s) ideology. 50 billion people submitted to the ideology to serve them, and only a few like me to hate them with logic argumentation, then so be it, that's 50 billions friends, and they should be super happy about it, that's what they want, everybody in their pockets as an argument that they are right, and people like me won't be there to provide them with intelligence to twist and corrupt, nobody will insult them, it will be harmony and non-violent stuff, exactly what they wanted.

I'm not nice with the powerful, sorry, and I could have taken the style too, so who am I? Just let's say I must do the not nice, and I do it proportional to means, generally, but really think everybody has been had and the knowledge of how it happened have been lost. But as I started my work by an ideological description of the path I have chosen, you now know to what extent I won't take any god bullshit, I'm doing a human job as a human, and like everybody I have no choice to take a path (lowest default, hell), and I'm forced as a human to consider everything under the aspect of independence and individuality, love requires it among many reasons, and yes as a family being I must practice authority, so yes it tends to correlate with god stuff, but it's form is still the result of our displaced frustration that some like to make permanent, or to raze the whole planet for it, when they are encouraged by the reality and its ideology. So I'm no god, just fitting stuff as coinciding pressures, some patented by other intelligences, more or less powerful, through history, and me I found a place where my mind get its due where it cannot while living, as a spirit, so I'm not scared of no powerful intelligence, except maybe the CIA or any other killing humans, and I'm not the sacrifice type either, I'm somewhere around the middle...

To me for as long as we are not spread well past our own system (it's not only a matter of earth science), there will be holes for god based religions, sects and controlling groups to exploit and profit from people. We must limit that to a minimum by hybridizing science and spirituality, spiritual science, then we must expose the most well made interrelated net of simple principles leading to the development of ideals, so people are not lost, what is parenthood for? What is school for? Develop people in their best ways, and toward ideals of society too, unless you prefer the ego god (s) ideology to provide you with sects and religious insanities for manipulation. This hybridization should be provided as a class at school (at adolescence), so people learn why they should respect life and intelligence, and get to better know how to live (everybody know how to live in hell they think, but my life is an absurd proof that most people pass their life trying to find how to live, and most develop badly from all kind of crap philosophies from the displaced frustrations they reap on this ridiculous quest that can be settled in adolescence (that's in part why we are more revolted at adolescence, because basic sense and understanding is a load of bullshit you wouldn't dare teach, so they're as well be let "free" in "libertine" hell, because this reality is such a show of incompetence in knowing how to live, and so illogic in its understanding, that you can make a lifelong piece of work that's a show of extreme irony...)

It is my belief that I should have developed my mentality in a far more adequate manner long ago, not only that, but most people should have too, I'm not special, and it is evident since practically everybody acted superior to me, but crushing me with bullshit just made me sarcastic and ironic, but that's too limited, so let's say it made me stronger, so I started gaining self-confidence, and now it seems jealousy is rampant around me for more problems. So pray tell me what stance should I take in hell where people switch from one mentally conflicting extreme to the other with me, both extreme not making sense? Particularly for a middle line guy...

The conclusion is that I was right from the beginning, I was sane, I do the right thing, and all my life battling your insanities almost made me insane. Whatever the way it happened, I'm just right on the spot and you are all messed up, and you reflected your problems by trying to prove I'm the problem all the way to destroying my future. I'm not special, just a sane and normal person battling wrongs, it's you people who took a wrong turn, one you can't face anymore because you made it a historical culture. That's what makes me special, and I know it is worthless explaining that in hell, deficient or wrongly made people will continue to make a fixation on me, all the way to the 666 for some morons. And me I'll continue to fight evil, and I'll bear my life as an unwanted sacrifice to stand for sense, because passing my life at the top of frustration I didn't hit people. With the feeling of my exacerbated intelligence I didn't use it for self-interests. With all the power that flow through my veins, my strength, my need for freedom, I stayed incarcerated by myself in a little place. With all my extreme sexual drive, and, I haven't had sex in more than 20 years. With all the people that crushed me I persisted in providing extremely valuable work for life and intelligence. I tell you, versus how I feel in body and mind, I doubt somebody will ever understand the extent of all the lacks, all the deception. That's what I did with the best years of my life in hell, and through it all I understood that everything tried to coincide into making me a god, just to piss me off even more! You offered me the god throne on a platter and I rejected it, philosophically, mentally, spiritually, and in reality; the ego god (s) ideology can't fail more totally than that. So who want to be a god now, eh? Evil.

I revolted as an ado, then as a young adult, and while the troubles ahead will be a fertile ground for manipulators and profiteers to make themselves a better reputation, the fact remains that all the way to today I have been alone with this. And this is like the attaining the last extreme of the "rip" as I call it, society switching me to the other extreme like a freaking condemnation to be god unless I suicide or get shot... But then maybe I'll be such an incompetent it will terminate the god concept right there once and for all...

Personally, I do as I should do as an earthling, I value quality intelligence, and if pride do exist then it must show somewhere and be based on principles, which I define within my limitations with the form of my imagination, of what could logically work to satisfy all my criteria, all the way to some imagery forms of spiritual dimension possibilities. These imageries are what my intelligence use as a way to get itself understood, they represent understanding, and it's just the way people like to understand each other, it's an aspect of emotional intelligence, get complex understanding across quickly, with an emotional mark to reinforce memorizing, which can be a surprise interrelation, some euphemism (my morning lotion), or a touch of humor, etc. Sure that at a grand scale for a humanity on speed peanuts, it amounts to nothing, it's just garble, they'd have to read my work like a chaplet for an effect (even then I don't remember chaplet prayers), but then I'd refuse the concept because I refuse that my work be seen as a punition, "read this you fucking sinner! no! pity...") Forcing things is not my type of attitude except as leadership needs, it easily develops all kind of wrongs. So I do a work of light, one you should appreciate at the end of your dark tunnel, because I refuse any other vision, it's a work that can only make a mind shine, so if there is shame to be had you'll look somewhere else.

All this is still a basic view though, I think what's going on out there is far more complex than what we live as a reality, so if I find it hard to describe how this reality works, and understand some level of psychology, then I must assume I can be wrong, that's why I have to take the same stance I initially took that led me to design a new reality; explore possibilities (one of my first big concept). It may sound laughable, but there is a difference between you and me, you think you understand and laugh because you think everybody has this concept intrinsic, but people actually do not much to show they understand, because almost all the people I meet do it in an optic of competition for elimination, so in fact they fake understanding just from the "dictionary" definition of the world, associated to their unweaving mentality, and me everything changes as I understand one aspect because I care, so it's all a net, and I'm so far away from your concerns, that the possibilities you never end drooling about are all laughable to me, and so we piss each other off, me get angry, you go extremist or develop a moron fixation, and I end-up reaping the worst, even if I quickly gain back my senses and do pardon a lot contrary to the full philosophically blown tolerant pardoners of this reality, and that's without talking about the inversed mentality where those who look "intelligent" are supposed to behave and be submitted and nice and diplomatic, and unless they're higher sphere (controlled, limited); let themselves get crushed by the morons (who gain intrinsic stupid advantages from going nuts on insignificances I would not even think about in the pile of troubles I've reaped in my life (you know the genre, ready to plan assassinations for 20$ or an insult, while I have a few problems that I erased with 400$ or more without considering violence (to skip more troubles, or to get rid of a maniac, and continue doing the adult). I tell you, this whole hell is patented against free intelligence and truly good people.)

So I talk about the mind imaginarily, but I have not much of a physical idea of what I'm talking about, the same when I talk about the spiritual dimension, like I'm not sure you can interact physically much as spirits, you probably switch to be either a spirit or a living being, in living mode you interact with our current dimensional matter forms, but as a spirit (in the spiritual dimension) you fall in another matter form that you can only interact with as spirits, but then every spirit may not be able to interact much between each others because of the way history makes enemies, so in fact, your intelligence (squirrels lost in space for some), while free of your consciousness will find its own path from how you did while living (the knowledge and logic you developed with it). You may have movement and control parameters defined by the form your spirit took while you lived, or you would find yourself in an environment appropriate for you and all those who could be your greatest friends in the universe, which may be enemies down to earth, from consciousness misunderstanding. By developing your consciousness as a living, you in fact decide who can be your long time or best friend. So when you're in darkness stuff (it's probably not dark) you and if you flipped your light on, you'd find yourself among a family of all surprised extraterrestrials.

This is a simple aspect of the probable complexity of this parallel spiritual dimension, which would work from completely different physical laws, so I may just touch the tip of the possibilities there, there could be many invisible dimension and stuff to blow your mind, me, I hope I'll have the capacity to deal with it, in the belly of the beast, and not for my own sake, but because my home is at risk, probably because no human reached competence out there (like if we have too much of a hierarchic mentality, and the next guy can always do the job, there an infinity of resources, there's an infinity of time... The earth is slowly dying from such mentalities and extremes, pushed to condemnation often, as degenerative failures come to englobe everything until it's irreversible. Nobody does my kind of job in minimal competence, that's what it means, it means I'm very far ahead, whatever the handicap you throw at me, which in fact continually proves we are a lost cause, bring em on billions of people, in my loner corner, and learn that your religion failed you...

You probably can't go back at the tip of life advancing path (roll of history), so there must be something bigger than this step of living and the spiritual dimension too, something that could compare to a different universe, where your consciousness is totally harmonised in a far more complex and interesting matter arrangement (it would be like living in this reality, but "compressed", meaning there would be so much stuff and diversity and alien stuff that the sky would be the limit of your creativity, and you would develop it among people with the same high level base of understanding (ultimate), which includes basic concepts like respect of intelligence that you should have learned in the belly of your mom...)

What I initially meant to say by the tip is that you can't go back to this step of your process of learning (present), if not you'd have people falling from the sky to come boast around, but what you can do, if you remember my strand vision, is to have some capacity to integer what already happened, depending if you unlocked the capacity by your living explorations and not being condemned by too much evil which make it so you can't integer crap (you can see it how near the tip of ongoing history you can go, from how much integrity you can hold (how far or deep you can go, among the millions of strands, and even if you bring all strands together (dimensions (time forms)), you can never integer the tip, because it is where history is advancing in its truth.

So what can you do to gain back your full human senses? Theoretically, there are dimensions, universes, even being near the tip of the roll history may permit some level of it, but it's all exceptional... So yes I do have a few fitting scenarios where there is no problem with rewinding time, none a la Einstein (a little), I wouldn't be surprised to find myself in front a not so advanced present universe from an inter dimensional time dilatation effect (prostate effect, it's the prostate that dilates right? No! "everything" is dilating, in the everything list...). There are a few options, and I'll explore their extrapolations, to be sure I'm not missing some future trap, in the concept of trying to justify everything unless an enemy of intelligence debarks.

The spiritual dimension may exist not much more than as a filtering process too, so the roll of history may not become a thing ever for most spirits, because you could see the ideological emphasis of everything manipulation, a cheat, as just the UI "assuming" its living intelligence to see suns as super powerful entities, that make everything move and work, then associate this to themselves for a starting condemnation to experience the ego god (s) ideology, in extremism, with gods as suns, big tribal givers of life, they make everything move, everything is dependent from them. It's development lead to an extremization of related complementary inferior serving attitudes under all kind of pride sparing forms. Now you got everybody living thorn between this duality, the requirement forces a system of competitive replacement (like feeling humiliated will result in a desire for retribution and a competition to take the seat, as an aspect), but you can do worse, like doing families dynasties to exacerbate the mental difference, and raise it to planetary systematization status if you really want to go far, or ultimately just to be sure of condemning yourself, make a religion to spread your godly vision, twisted spirituality, and twisted psychology, and twisted, philosophy, so twisted god has become a ghost presence towering above the universe. Tough such a mix a lot of time and you'll get it genetic to some extent, as an implanted culture that can only change superficially, because you cumulated tons of fundamental flaws that you systemized, and so you end-up with a society that can't see itself otherwise, to the point that a guy like me, not bright like the sun, living in the dark crack of your society, get out like he's clearly from another universe, and tells you that spiritually speaking, your superior people and gods would end-up shining like a star in the sky, the famous sun god, not swift at all, and attracting bunches of innocent mislead spirits needing godly guidance, for a process of probable recycling by self-elimination energy attrition effect, ok? Or worse. So as Christianity, and all philosophy to date sing that we should follow the light, like Jesus with his aura, because, as the bible said he said, we're a bunch of innocents, who can only be pardoned by who? God! And he does it free! So run to his arm, and seek the light to find him... In my opinion, the matter is sufficiently logical to know that the right vision should definitively have been present if a psychological manipulation the bible was in development, so the conclusion, as always for my conspiracy theorist side, is that they eliminated the knowledge because they thought the path to choose is the contrary since you're ironically inverted from ideology, so the path is more like between the two, independence, where your mind is sufficiently well made you an learn and understand everything, touch the light as well as the darkness. All that is meant for the global intelligence, everybody, as a step of civilization understanding, and my guess is that evil saw an advantage and patented everything so the most unfair or evil people get to whatever good stuff must be out there first, as long as possible, or gain the capacity to come back as more powerful earthlings. But it was still made by people with limited knowledge, and evil do what? Cheat, he doesn't understand, because he cheats, proving it, proving he's still too innocent to be worth passage, supposing they have the movement capacity, because more adequate spirits will have far more options, like for movement, and they may pass through smaller doors (holes), or reach fast moving ones, or doors nobody dares trying, since there is the possibility that you end-up as a spirit roaming the universe eternally, not knowing what to do, because contrary to your friends, you had enough consciousness to move (or to do moves) and skip entering the light, but not much more... So you are faced with choices, not knowing where they lead to, but you have one big clue; you could refrain from entering the light, but then the other option, will result in exactly the same, unless you understand some key stuff. Finally, entering the light here could be related to life systems, data reacquisition by the global intelligence, in part, under whatever form, pure data circulation (shouldn't be much that life already know at our point), but some form of reincarnation could exist too (don't forget the global intelligence exists from all the intelligences of life, so in this vision the data must exist under physical form, or many living forms if you prefer), but since we are the top species and the only one that can talk sense, then yes, the stage is set to end-up with animals having Cassandra syndromes, depending on their worth. Insects may be a bit too populous for the style though, but insect think too... I'd say the minimum complexity must be ability to form concepts, like singing for birds (it doesn't mean singers become birds, but it may mean some people got a bird "other" brain (that hasn't found a use for knowledge except like a specialization, and even then there are many variations of the use we make of knowledge, so these options would not be specific, in this reincarnation vision), and without a babbler life is harder, it's more savage, unforgiving; you get crushed killed and eaten by assholes humans who understand nothing of what they're doing. But don't panic, I'm just fitting stuff here, and the other option would see you in a far more advantageous situation; ascension.

So things would be all stagnated or on the verge of failure because of all this mass cheating civilization bullshit ideological fuck-up. But yes, they may have found something, which would be a reflection of their cheating...And since they cheat, then it means they have a vastly overrated opinion of their own intelligence (as intelligence, or, and, as valuable intelligence), and this is the worst scenario, because those people make blockages from self-superiority and lifelong self-indoctrination and mental investments and they know it all and don't take no shit from nobody, they're bad winners, and even if they get caught at their cheating they remain bad losers, and they hold infinite grudge for any personally chosen stupidity, in this scenario...

There is no revenge to be had with people working against intelligence, in fact there is no cheat in the universe, only a path, a difficult one, and cheaters are those who have no history to place them there (not supposed). Evil always lose (It's strange to imagine actual "evil" people looking at each others and saying; he's wrong!) because it's a matter of fighting against intelligence which is existence, so there is no winning for evil, it's just wrong and messing everything like stupid, as it should, it's just stupid dangerous, problematic people every advanced civilization got to minimize the effects of to succeed...

So yeah, if you urinate on your own intelligence, don't be surprised if it dwindle in shame beside the size of your lack of judgment or restrain with the ego insufflating machine. But unless you throw your dwindling surrogate residual squirrel brain down the drain, it will still try to put you face with your failures, something like revenge (your own stupidity, that you always chose to ignore, but it's not revenge; life will steer around the condemnation you force it to, to remain in an existing pattern (or bet on probabilities), and these will take the form of living problems as what you need to succeed, until you're scratched (simply can't continue the universal adventure because you condemned yourself to the form of your failures, deny you had a problem, defended it to extremes).

I can guess as I conclude that some masters of adaptation of this reality, guys who profit greatly, will suggest that my vision of good and evil is wrong, that seeing the mind as I do is wrong, that seeing life degeneration, physical and mental conflict, inversion of the reward system to reward ego actions, bullshit everywhere, etc, etc, etc, as a definition of hell is a fantasist vision, that talking about evil as I do is a sign, that being independent and not working for the system proves I'm suffering from heavy egotism (while the other side of the mouth will say egotism doesn't exist to appropriate customers)...That I profit from the system, that I spit on the work of humanity, to try to make people take his side by making them cry, I'm attacking humanity like you made it and represent it, god, while you are doing crimes against it, life, intelligence...Oh, I'm supposed to feel lucky to have a job, and I have no right to criticize because I use your sidewalks, roads and buildings, and btw, I should mention, that all I enjoy of your fucking great hell of tourism, is going to the food store, that's all I use of actual physical reality, and that's extraordinary the price I pay for it! The rest is digital stuff that you have no right to charge intelligence with (get your profiting shit hell together). And I do believe we're supposed to optimize our stuff, but this is not what I'm talking about, because my life is hell for it, thanks fucking incompetence master! What did you do with the life energy? Pay prostitutes asshole? For as long as you don't arrange your crimes against intelligence, you will not bear the name of civilized people and you will reap what's available for your category of disrespectful savages in after death, that's it that's all, get yourself minimally, minimally, at least a little, educated in life understanding, because if you only had that minimum, you wouldn't be that much of a rotten brain, but you have none of it, all your respect for life and intelligence is boasting self-inflation like your life is a political campaign. And bring em on your big arguments to close my mouth, it's already closed, you have patented the whole planet and your whole psychology as a historically developing cheater's defense, and fuck you, because, not only you' are the shame of the spiritual dimension, but you'll be the shame of physical reality too, bravo, continue, the only pride you'll have is the one of a troll. And did you made this reality? NO!!! You're fucking surfing your ass on the work of ancestors, so shut-up! You are not god, you are a fucking asshole that giver himself the credit of being god from the work of others! Can't be more twisted than that! And you'll give me everything and live my life and do what I do, since I'm supposed to come to your conclusions if I was in your superior place, in your shitty argumentation! Then we'll see if you'll get out of it with the same fucking condescending attitude, or if you'll be ramping liker the little worm you are in truth! And I'm sorry for all intelligence that I have to talk like that.

As for psy science that's all over the place proving its competence, I know they are not the culprit of all the psychological bullshit around, but I'm psychologically tired of defending my mind against your psychology, what are you doing with intelligence? TV soaps? Because wow, mine doesn't feel very much appreciated in your understanding of it, it is dissatisfied with your job, particularly since it can't move and express itself, its genial views, without reaping one or the other psy warfare tag, and it's ridiculous enough I have to defend almost every paragraphs I write against probable psychological bullshit, I'm wasting my intelligence, and it's super frustrating. You are so competent that your science is a handicap to intelligence! Bravo! So much incompetent that I'll write this epopee of intelligence for nothing but entertainment, because you'll see it as an enemy to destroy, hand in hand with your politicians that will ignore my work because it's a load of bullshit or I'm exposing too much of a fucking ironic sarcastic parody of how everything they manipulated turned to crap. Why would they have the competence to do anything than being what the fuck they are? And since the theory is that everything is patented against me, as a total loner, the chosen one, it's all in my hands, isn't it? I'm suppose to become the messiah and take the responsibility of your failures, isn't it? Fuck you! I write this and good bye, that's the mission I gave myself 20 years ago, so I can feel worthy of a vacation, for making the tremendous effort of not falling in your cheater's traps. I decided to entrap myself with far more interesting entities and their stories. I don't like yours, the lessons don't add-up. You fight against what I stand for, you give me hell, and you think I'll be responsible for dealing with the shit you covered the planet with? You'll repair your mess! Change your stance, you have content for thousands of years of vacation from my part, enough time to show your most profound intents (what really motivated you), for life (intelligence) to formulate your next nemesis! Good bye... And don't look for me, I was there when I was needed, irrelevant to you, now do with your decision (I'm in command, right? And you are the irrelevant one from what I understand with my inversed chromosome and my "other" mind under its effect (not sure that works), maybe you should do something about that, because life found me worthy...)

Oh, and your whole reality of a love failure is so inept, that I practically raised myself, I'd have gotten more appreciation and affection and good feelings as a tribe in the woods, to the point that I grew a fantastic person, a beautiful mind beyond your comprehension built alone in rotten apartments, with far more competence than you'll ever achieve with your science! Against all kind of dangerous situations that shouldn't exist for intelligence in a society that qualifies itself secure, civilized or advanced, at it. In fact, the difference between what I lived and reality make it so that intelligence will completely dissociate itself from this reality, if I'm there it's because it knew it, but now it's tested with a final pile of paper to explain it. So, always doing megaloomania, among the many 666 of psy science I suffer from, from now on you can see what I wrote as a kind of blueprint for a lot of earth life (specifically), whatever it knows how to write of not, because the step before writing is imagining, and what's rolling before my eyes, is going through both life and the spiritual dimension, just to trouble you a little, and to cover the scenario that I may be the tip if the arrow, so this is a fast track so intelligence get new understanding in case thing are grim for humanity out there, if not, then it can only condemn itself to shame by continuing with this hell...

Finally, concerning the mind specifically, I believe a lot of people have more imagination and mind capacities, naturally, than they think, but they are limited or controlled by fear, one way or another (fear limits consciousness, remember...). So yes, fear is not a myth, the system is made to control people with all kind of true and fake fears, but it's just part of the problem, the other main part is that they can't express it because they are overwhelmed by people who think and act like they are superior, or know everything, while they are far from it, and there is nothing worse for an imaginative mind than to be insulted this way, those people need as much freedom from controlling people and self-inflated assholes as possible if they want to produce good creativity, they need peace to express themselves.

Now, people have all kind of definitions of what makes someone intelligent, but to me intelligence is too reality related without imagination, and that's how you must see my work, as a show of imagination to explain what cannot be defined by the intellectual parameters of reality. I still do believe I'm intelligent, but my imagination accentuates my intelligence greatly and permits me to explore and create concepts that enlarge possibilities tremendously. I see imagination as a form of large feeling intelligence but I believe both are critically important; to gain true comprehension by yourself you need big imagination and big intelligence. Another top attribute of intelligence is manipulative discernment (PMBBD). As for emotional intelligence, it's a general state of things that simplify greatly existence and permit it to develop all kind of civilized (mass interrelations of specialties) concepts, among other things, like fairness principles from developing more empathy. Relating empathy to feelings you have to consider them as a whole too, which may actually be the right vision, there may be a sense division of a total stash of feeling, meaning there could be one or a few feeling initially (cell life, extrapolated to multiplicity), made a stash (like a chemical), then separated (subdivided) as senses rewarding input, associated to mind parts deciding the form of the reward and the form of the feeling (related intelligence, forwarded to senses). In a young person, it would amount to a big ecstasy feeling, but your consciousness acquisition as you live will rearrange the form of this good feeling, for you when you'll be a spirit.

I'm not the kind that will tell someone he's intelligent because I never feel flattered hearing that, so maybe that's why I tend to want to do the contrary when I get angry, but it sounds empty too because intelligence can be anything, and a lot of people use the best of their intelligence to manipulate, so yes, your ability to discern manipulation and skip using it on others makes you particularly intelligent to me (capable intellectually). The reason why I'm writing this here is because most of the difference between good and evil is found there. Someone who try to discern manipulation and skip using it is a person trying to fight evil, and she doesn't have to be successful, or do it intensively; it is almost impossible in hell to skip being manipulated or manipulating, truth and falsehood are intermixed in a mess for manipulators to make big profits with pub, the language is a mess of word manipulations while singers compete to make it worse everyday in their great wisdom.

Now, there is losing innocence in that, but it's still a work people must want to do, you're not supposed to do nothing intellectually, just standing there ready to be profited from until you get irrecoverably hurt, and it is a shame that this society is unable to judge well who needs more freedom versus who needs more protection in youth, it got one way and they're supposed to pass or break. People need to feel a bit of pride all along their lives, they must have a standard path they feel is good, that they can always go back to, and that's particularly true in a society that is submerged in manipulators and bullshit, and that's particularly true for sensitive people, who are not having it easy in this reality to say the least, while feeling or emotional intelligence (not hysteria intelligence level) is one of the most important reason why we exist. The same for those who had grave difficulties and kept a good attitude, it takes a good mind, and you'll find a lot of believers there, that religion will try to put in its pockets...Good intentioned people often have a slower development curve in some facets not profiting the reality, they have more hidden complexity, or they have a displacement of intelligence, never think you're a moron, just wait, have faith, some people will look like retards until adulthood, and there they'll shine a brighter light than most, but in this reality they'll end-up broken long before then, by profiteers, by people who don't care, by wrong love, by drugs, by bad psychology.

What I mean by emotional intelligence is akin to high empathy capacity in a mind that can use the best of it, there are high empath people who are evil, other cry continually, and others have hysteria. The thing to understand here is that pain is proportional to subject area sensitivity and emotional capacity, which in turn is dependent from subject area nervous development, which in turn should be dependent from subject area intellectual capacity. And since these sensitivities all grow empathy capacity, someone that is the most sensitive (not delicate) in a maximum of aspects of his person should, if permitted emancipation, should grow high consciousness to exceptional level (you can see it as good overall intelligence, I'm talking ideally evidently). This should be the type of intelligence that is the most worthy to all the entities I dare believe in. The personalities developing good empathy for from such a type of intelligence should be the ones a civilization cares the most for, invest the most in, reward and reproduce the most too. They should be the strongest people too, but I shouldn't say that unless this reality makes them a competition ground for elimination, to prove the contrary, temporarily. Yes they can be destroyed, by pressure selection conflicting their integrity, from jealousy and bad feelings, from sufficient pain for them to go psychotic. It's your choice to handicap your civilization by destroying your most valuable assets, or not permit them to thrive to keep a retarded system and selection in place, but everything is perfect, you'll be a shame when you'll meet another civilization, or worse. And that's a reason why I hate this reality so much, it tries to transform the most beautiful minds into the ugliest by making profit machines out of them, or giving them a maximum of troubles, or by being impatient, or just for evil fun.

Another good form of intelligence is fearless intelligence; the ability to judge or act well while being surprised. I can think a lot of a situation, but I try as much as possible to go in that situation without thinking, if no time I deal 1/3 intelligence off for instinct, kind of, instinct which is in big part made of my cumulated intelligence, the time I spent imagining such situations in the past, then as I gain time I increase thinking. But in the end, the most time consuming process is the rewinding and judging of what happened, and your capacity to do it in detail and from good (not twisted) principles will be directly reflected in both good instinct and intelligence, which would result in respect, credibility and monetary gains, ideally.

As for knowledge itself, I'll give it a pass in the name of sufficiently competent physical science, but a lot of it dwells in a disinformation soup of hype too, and a ton is hidden in the name of competition or profits, because to me that's part of the responsibility of a system to make knowledge and all can be digitalized free, free, maybe not schemas for atomic bombs and anthrax, I suppose there can be exceptions, but even then if you're scared it's because many people would invest their life trying to blow-up something...(you still need the infrastructure to produce mass death devices, not something that will pass undetected whatever the reality, and it doesn't mean producing an atomic bomb should be legal...As for being free, there are ways to reward people who invest their time in discovering knowledge, at any level of worth, you don't need to do it in a capitalistic competition style).

The ways of the mind is to make us become what we want as long as it is possible, as people and as civilizations, I'm an example of that; I had everything to end-up in jail, drugged over the top or killed, almost everybody judged me completely wrongly, even good for the mental institute, even as moronic in their actions and trolling attitudes, and bad luck is a real trauma, but I grew up and became me and understood that everything was perfect, I was a show, a lesson of restrained and displaced fighting intelligence (the spirituality facet is often hidden, or is the result of, extended innocence (innocents are more involved in 666 and antichrist matters...), don't forget that, and life, or your "other" mind, can create apparent funny retards or consciousness jammed zombies, to hide it (which can take the form of a rejection of reality), forever more, zombies and funny retards...

In the end life can take good form whatever the place it are on its extreme possibilities, it is our choice to develop under our best form, nobody is born bad, no species is bad, unless you decide to become, and you are always lucky in your bad luck unless you consciously act stupid or reality forces things. But you must respect the entities involved in your existence, as you gain pride, that's why if you care life will touch you a little, and gods will touch you a little too, just to say "don't forget us" but to feel it you got to believe, and understanding the perfection of everything is one of the path to it.

At this point you should have my general way of seeing life globally. The ways I have chosen to find my path is imagination, possibilities, probabilities, all emotions too, at extremes, so is not your "classical" style when talking serious subjects, particularly with my tendency not to limit my mind with words like speculation. But writing is like talking for fun to this reality, you must use affirmative language, you must be the boss, "my opinion", "I think", "probably", "maybe", "I believe", all these things are unacceptable in an authoritative know it all reality, you must be highly educated, you must be part of an expert gang, then you can be convincing, or start a gang or a sect. I'm not like that; for me, finality of knowledge solely exists in proven truth, and this sounds like a trap, a fallacy of leadership, to practically condemn you to wrong paths (particularly terrible if you're young, adequate general leadership capacity is supposed to generally proportional to age, with a lowering plateau, then a steep decline at some point evidently. That is so because anybody can use your affirmations against you, but it's not easy to walk the middle line when at the other extreme you got the same kind of degrading attitude that will actually try to twist even your warning, by decontexifying, or by limiting the pool of text they'll take it from, to actually create the impression that you made an affirmation, it's that much important! In court at least... And some will just downright do it live in your face, simply deny evidence, it's weird, like why are you outright lying like I should be on the defensive for it? It's hell. And those people are definitively worth a fist on their mouth, because if not you are stuck embarking is their stupid troll game of denial, so you got to punch them in the face right away, done, out! Maybe not, but they must be knelt and be made to learn how to read with bloody underlining (words are another matter they are frozen in time, they don't lie at face value, spoken words are still waves, and I'm talking public manipulators in these matters, as you should begin to know, except those who do everything to choke on their teeth, some from free gratuity, the more brainy will do it to get some money from the system or me probably...).

In front of the unknown it's better to keep a maximum of possibilities open than to close them or blindly trust, and among possibilities one's bound to choose the highest as his assumption, so sorry if I assume a lot of super nice things... The worst thing to do is to competition possibilities without knowing the truth; possibilities are meant to exist as long as truth is not found, and that's quite a problem here as we are under a historic momentum of condemning affirmations which have totally become wrong, but we're condemned to continually twist things around them in bitching competition, whatever some dwell straight in absolute lies and impossibilities of the worst kind, and they affect people by enforced repetition from youth to death. Everything is there; a possibility is not a truth, evil is made of possibilities made final truth, proven scientifically, or through indoctrination structures or competition. So I'm saying it, even if I have to convince people hard to change attitude because of, yes, my beliefs, so you can bet when I find a safe lead that can hold my beliefs, I'll grab it and won't let go, and spirituality made of possibilities and probabilities is one of those, and all the related possibilities I see will be imprinted with my convictions too.

So if the possibilities I have opened with imagination until now are craziness to you, I warn you what's coming is worse, I'll grow love beyond any view in its simplicity, I'll describe life so profoundly you'll lose sight of it, I'll talk about the universe so vastly you'll find it in your soul, and I'll crush this reality so low it will finally find its place; nothingness. But all that is only half the job of my kind of leadership, I'll go full circle and invent a new reality, we'll see what can be achieved by an insignificant like me that got its life on the line versus your babbling leaders living in luxury and admiration and protection with a selection jealous of any effort I make to help life and keep my pride...

That's about it for my vision of the mind and unconsciousness-consciousness, just don't go insane trying to demolish it, you'll realize you can't, Ha! Besides, I'll answer it's my personal vision, even if I may at times use some affirmative language; it's all mine! You really think I'll beg? No, in fact, you'll have to be worthy! ("Morons" welcomed btw, if you have the attitude, so it's not a question of being super intelligent, it's just that there was an epoch where I was part of the gang, so now I'm entitled to use familiarities...) And me I have to always defend my visions strongly, ahead of time if I must, because I could die, and I have nobody to defend my mind except myself. My defense made of spikes, with fatality points, like to prevent some from coming at me saying I'm wrong with new data, what can I do? I'll answer its true, since I don't know what I'm talking about, where are my proofs? It's all magical, a long magical incantation, rune magic, so yeah, I'm missing their great proven true education. And I won't repeat this every time I write about how I see things to get rid of psy or experts wanting to show their job expertise on anything I write; I have no expertise, I see things that way, and I don't necessarily need more. Now you know what direction I fly, only truth can affect me now, I patch all places where PMBBD can infiltrate easily with my belief, effortless, because they hold the greatest and deepest net of interrelated quantity of concepts as valid to resist time. If that's not enough, then just see it as a painting and stop complaining, I'm an artist, I can do anything, put that in your pipe and smoke it for the rest of the book (s), if you can survive the coughing...

I'll explore all those hard to define concepts, all those unexplained questions that science cannot answer about life like death, which is invincibly imposed while it is illogical to the survival principle. There are many more situations where things can only be explained by saying that there is a decision process concerning life as a whole. But I'll write a lot more about this later.

All the rest of our philosophical constructions I'll reverse engineer brick by brick as I write around, until we're left with the most instinctive, the most basic, the most moronic, the most unintelligent, the most loser of an argument; brute strength. As for my effect, I can't invest the best of my life reinventing everything in an optic of life's advancement just so people won't care, so I hope that I'll awaken something in people, I wouldn't write without the belief that we can do far better, and it goes all the way to the elite, I hope a lot are just waiting to understand because they don't have the time or growth pattern to care adequately. I know I'm not alone trying to do something, I'm sure there are people who are gaining great worth trying, and a lot of wrongs can be ignored because they are enforced with PMBBD; just like money some people bear the wrongs of others. So if I'm left to that to feel less lonely then I'm sure I'll meet the cream of my ideal in afterlife, for now I try to cover a maximum of possibilities for myself, and I wouldn't like it to be as alone in afterlife as I've been in life...

But why am I alone anyways? While I have everything not to? It's easy not to be alone in this reality, really, so why? And I don't want to be alone! I'm sure there are people who can understand why, flying high matters, I'll explain some more reasons next chapter, for now I could say people broke my heart too much, but that's only a part of the story. You could say it's because I have total confidence in myself too, but how can I have confidence in myself since nobody ever believed in me? One or the other is half a total pain, the pain that you can only bear with silenced or mental irony as a tool to keep on competing the tears with the smile. But I'll forever take care in the name of love, knowing I'm absolutely worthy, while smiling humbly at the unworthy, waiting, and waiting, and waiting, for the appropriate coincidence in this hell that is ripping me apart on all levels of my personality.

So yes I try to find ways to feel special until I truly think I'm special, but understand that even though I make it big the difference between me and the people of this reality, and I'm sure more special than the pope, the fact remains that I'm no different than most people, I just believe in something different that I see nowhere else, and I fight for it. But what I want in reality I'm sure everybody wants it too, they just don't know or fear or are made to understand all twisted, seriously, give me love and I'm pretty much your ordinary citizen (that's why I fear making a girlfriend a little) who likes to enjoy many things, care for life a little, eat it a little along the way, think some, have some fun, travel some, do some social, and have a specialty I can find pride in, etc, etc. what's wrong with all that? nothing, and that's what I want, and I can have it, this reality will give it to me, but the price is that I sell my soul to the devils, and once embarked in that train there is no turning back, only a jump. But if the crash is not too violent, then maybe you can walk back around where you lost it, but this will be a walk of humility, of shame, of loss, of loneliness, so you have time to look inside you, because your soul is not an object, it doesn't drop on kill, losing it is a process of yourself selling it to the devil bits by bits until you are running ahead out of fear of your emptiness, and in the end grabbing content for your mind from the hands of devil itself, until he's replaced your soul for whatever formula better suits your experience. Then living becomes a matter of trying to prove something, something variable in a relative past.

Still I hope that life in its willingness to be opened and penetrated deeply will sprawl itself humbly, squirting from feeling my efforts, for a new perspective on its love vision, since our next chapter is a battle for true love, and it's a sex way of saying to not forget that one of its goals is to have different perspective upon its existence, know itself, feel from history then know the truth, know its true environmental boundaries, how they vary with time. Life gave me consciousness to see ahead and prepare its survival, that's what I'm doing, that's what everybody should be doing, I'm not so special. I want to help the continual existence of life, get it to better know itself and its environment so it get a truer view of everything, explore new possibilities, feel new life experiences, develop its extraordinary existence and consciousness with the help of its champion form on earth, its greatest sense, its pride...
