 
PLEASE SPEAK FOR THY SERVANTS ARE LISTENING

Offering An Empty Slate For Inspiration's Sake

Copyright: 2012

By: K. C. Boone, MSFE

Publisher: The Scribed Light

ISBN: 978-1-939634-24-5

Smashwords Edition

All rights reserved. No part of the book may be reproduced in any form, except for inclusion of brief quotations in a review, without permission in writing from the author or publisher.

**Table Of Contents**

Introduction

Chapter 1 - The Undoing

Chapter 2 - The Unlearning

Chapter 3 - Simplicity

Chapter 4 - Trust The Process

Chapter 5 - Wisdom

Chapter 6 - Soul Searching

Chapter 7 - Connectedness

Chapter 8 - Listen

Chapter 9 - Trust Perfection

Chapter 10 - Experience

Chapter 11 - Common Sense

Chapter 12 - Allowance

Chapter 13 - Remember

Chapter 14 - Between Two Worlds

Chapter 15 - Be Not A Body

Chapter 16 - Faith

Chapter 17 - Behold I Come As A Thief In The Night

Chapter 18 - Life Is Not As It Seems

Chapter 19 - You Are Not Alone

Chapter 20 - Holy Spirit

Chapter 21 - Your Brothers Call To You And I Shall See You Through

Chapter 22 - Religion Is Always One Step Removed From God

Chapter 23 - Perspective

Chapter 24 - Without Attachments

Chapter 25 - If You Fight Everything, You'll Always Have To Fight For Everything

Chapter 26 - Teaching

Chapter 27 - False Self

Chapter 28 - You Know Not What Is Best

Chapter 29 - Destiny Rules Regardless Of Your Pursuits

Chapter 30 - Be Open

Chapter 31 - The Real Secret

Chapter 32 - Wisdom As Needed

Chapter 33 - Detached Observer

Chapter 34 - The Illusion Of Importance

Chapter 35 - The Desires Of Your Heart

Chapter 36 - Chance Plays No Part

Chapter 37 - Hear Me

Chapter 38 - See Beyond Egos

Chapter 39 - The Peace Of Knowing

Chapter 40 - Teach By Example

Chapter 41 - The Subject Of Life

Chapter 42 - Expectations Bring Disappointments

Chapter 43 - A New Day Dawns

Chapter 44 - Thoughts Change Energy Into Form

Chapter 45 - Elevate Your Thinking

Chapter 46 - The Winds Of Change

Chapter 47 - Have Fun And Fear Not

Chapter 48 - Misery Is Very Motivating

Chapter 49 - Never Underestimate The Magnitude Of You

Chapter 50 - A Clear Mind

Chapter 51 - Paradise Within

Chapter 52 - Hear Them Calling

Chapter 53 - Don't Be Dissatisfied With Your Dissatisfaction

Chapter 54 - Tuning Out

Chapter 55 - Living A Dream Or Dreaming A Living

Chapter 56 - Defining Success

Chapter 57 - Reflective Lessons

God's Pearls Of Wisdom

Bibliography

Dedication

We are the sum of our experiences. The extent to which we are changed by the influences of another is for our souls to determine. As we can only see a limited portion of all there is, we are left with vague remembrances of the contributions made by each. We remember only the highlights of the moments shared with others, but some do shine more brightly than others. There are those who do alter entirely the course of our lives, intentionally or unintentionally.

There are truly few, in fact, who do so alter our lives. Their influences are profound, regardless of the duration of the time spent together. Some last a lifetime while others last but a second. We can not judge level of influence based upon time, for time in reality is meaningless.

For the relatively short span of time that we walked together upon this earth, you affected my life truly as no other. From a casual meeting came the spiritual education of a lifetime. Never again have I had the occasion to meet one so truly dedicated to the service of God, who held the grandest of all enthusiasm for spreading the Word.

The best gifts do come in very small packages.
Acknowledgments

To that which guides us and to all who share our journey. Though many are no longer here with us on earth, many are and do continue the teaching for the advancement of our souls. There can be no journey without those who have boldly laid the foundations on which we travel. Their light shining is our beacon to travel onward. Were we to fall, who would pick us up? There is never a time when we are alone, and for this thanks are given to all for all.

We have learned from great and small, but surely from them all. Let our gratitude be evident by the teachings held within that we may pay forward what was given us to benefit those who follow along the same path toward enlightenment. The most obvious benefactors of our journey are our parents, friends and families. The lesser obvious contributors are those whom we have shared relationships, personal and professional. The least contributors, but certainly no less beneficial, are those who come to us as casual encounters. Except for birth relations, didn't all others come from casual encounters?

Consider that all who are to be in our lives will be and are. Each has his/her own role to play – either for a second or for a lifetime. It is not for us to place a value on what a person contributes, for we cannot see all that there is to see. We must place equal value on all as all have brought us to this point. We are because they are. I am because you are.

I have studied the works of recent masters. I have queried those around me. None has been more beneficial or insightful than another. It is the answers to the questions that I have asked which have shed light upon this life. I have grown to understand that each one has a unique perspective and uses his/her perception to draw conclusions. No one has the answers for another. Each must answer for him/her self all questions.

Based on my perspective, I have benefited greatly from Jesus, Neale Donald Walsch, Helen Schucman, Dr. Wayne Dyer, Joel Osteen, Joyce Meyer, T. D. Jakes, Gary Renard, Bruce Wilkinson, Paramahansa Yogananda and so many others. I have also been drawn to explore other religions and religious practices. I have spoken to those in my life who are devout and some who are casually religious. I have spoken to clergy and to laymen. I have visited various houses of worship. I have watched many hours of worship on television.

I have listened to the news and never tire of educational programming, especially if it relates to religion or God. Always I filter through my perception the wisdom of others. I continue to seek God today just as much as yesterday. It's simply a part of who I am and why I am here. My "journey without distance" is unending. I hope we can enjoy it together.
**Introduction**

I, much like most others, did seek to find God and the meaning of life. I had tried church, religion, other religions, books, meditation, etc. I had tried to find answers where none met my needs. When one is saturated by available information, one seeks in the last possible place – within.

To the credit of all of those who have guided my journey unknowingly, the information gleaned from them did lead me to seek within. There are so many, far too many to list here, but none who have not altered the course of my life.

As my teachers learned before me, we are all in this together. There is nothing you do or ever will do that has not affected at least one other person, but more typically many others. One of the most valuable lessons learned came from one of the simplest lessons – I was directed to count all of the people that I see in one day. Never had I looked at life from so broad a perspective, nor have I ever been so altered by a realization.

Based on my reading the writings of others and my own experiences, I consider a "spiritual journey" to be extremely long and tiresome. In hindsight, I realize that it need not be. God has taught me a simpler way to gain the knowledge needed to advance spiritually. This book is the simpler way to skip over the painstaking years of discovery and begin almost immediately to experience life from God's perspective.

God did offer for our ease of learning "Pearls of Wisdom" which are summarized in the back for reference. The "Pearls" are very simple to understand and simple to use daily. Consider also the very simple lessons included which cause you to discover the truth for yourself. Your truth is the only truth, so take the time to know yourself. It is in knowing yourself that you know God. It is in knowing God that we live our lives to the fullest and love our brothers unconditionally as God loves us. In this, there is great peace – the peace of God.

As I had never been satisfied with the information found, I set upon a journey to experience internal guidance for myself. To date, it has been a thirteen year journey resulting in the conveyance of much information, particularly on the subject of spirituality and improving the life experience. I followed the example of others who use a technique called automatic writing. You simply write what comes into your head. This process continued for roughly ten years and almost suddenly stopped. At that point, I was told to type the book and get it ready for editing. I typed for four months, for as many hours as I could each day, after working full time. No further guidance was received until this year. I was told to finish the book.

Were I a more creative person, I would say that perhaps much of the information was concocted. After having reread the information, knowing how it came to be written, I know for certain that it has not been a figment of my imagination. Some things written surprise I even today, for I know that the wisdom conveyed is not as I would have written it. Certainly, not everyday was one of great inspiration and I did not choose to write everyday. The stresses of everyday life do, if allowed, interfere with the hearing of the messages. The messages conveyed have been edited, removing the very personal and uninspiring contents. The handwritten contents of forty four notebooks were used as the foundation for this book. The bulk of the notes, as written, have been included.

The contents are not meant to be any sort of magical formula for living the life of your dreams nor do they contain any sort of secrets not before known to mankind. The wisdom contained seeks to offer us all the chance to live more peaceful and fulfilling lives by realizing certain truths about life. I have spent untold hours asking the questions that we all ask. I have been led by internal guidance as well as the guidance of those who have sought before me. What most I learned from this is that we live a life of self created drama and most often fail to enjoy the true beauty of this thing that we call life.

We have lived our lives believing what we have been told and have failed to create our own experience. Were we to start our lives with a clean slate, untainted by the beliefs of others, we would find that our lives are lived much differently. But, as we all know, we are the products of our environments. We seldom take the time to search within ourselves to really find our own answers. This was my task, to find my own answers, that I may be able to teach others to do the same. To teach as I have learned is my purpose and one which hopefully will help you on your own journey to knowing yourself.

The italicized words represent the messages as they were conveyed to me. My inputs and questions appear non-italicized. For simplicity, God, the word, represents that which is the spirit within all of us and is all in all. As such, God is the inspiration from which this book came. I have written of God in the masculine gender. This in no way represents my personal beliefs about God, being either male or female, or actually having a need for gender in the physical sense. The format for the notebooks is based upon the biblical reference of Eli telling Samuel, the Prophet, to make he available to God's messages by stating, "Please speak for Thy servant is listening." (I Samuel 3:9-10) This has been changed from singular to plural to include all who question.

This in no way makes the process religious, but does offer a simple approach to set one upon the conscious effort of listening. The Biblical references offer the basis for many of the questions asked, as much of the world's teaching has come from this or similar texts. This is not to place one religion or scripture above another, but merely offers one vantage point from which to set upon this journey.

The poems are included at the beginning of each chapter. They were inspired as were all the other messages. Each poem contains messages which hopefully inspire and invoke thoughtful consideration.

**Chapter 1 – Undoing**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

As this is the start of a new year and everyone is full of hope – take advantage and bring forth the new to you. Don't start each day with a bag full of worries – start each day with a bag full of excitement. You cannot know what the day will bring, so why worry needlessly? I know that the concepts that you've recently studied have been both inspiring and confusing to you. In time you will understand, so don't lose focus. The books are foundational information on which you will grow. I have tried to offer a more humanistic approach to understanding me, but I seem to have caused much confusion. Keep seeking and I will teach you the meaning. I know that you want to grow spiritually and are often confused as to how to proceed. I know you and what you need. Don't worry about the details for we are in this together. I know you have desired to serve me well and I will use you in our best interests. I will use your labor to bring your happiness while bringing happiness to others. Don't despair for your lack of knowledge and constant uncertainty, just know that we are in this together and all is well.

As you have said many times, in the face of overwhelming evidence people still don't see. Why can you not see that I AM always with and for you? I have shown you much, still you doubt. I have given you tremendous gifts, still you aren't appreciative. Why do you choose to doubt that I can do such a simple thing when I have shown you miracles? Don't let your thoughts and simple understanding get in the way of my power. Know who I AM and know what I can do. Never underestimate the power of love.

People today are so busy looking for something better that they fail to appreciate the wonder of what they have. It is human nature to want more and more – with the more never being enough. As you have realized many times, appreciation for the simple things tends to lose out to the fantasy. Experience teaches us that fantasy doesn't exist – that it is a dream which will never be reality. Yes, I have told you to choose what you desire and you shall have it. You must realize that what you choose often does not encompass all of life. You tend to choose a thousand parts of the whole without ever looking at the whole. You cry for love and happiness, but never look at what really will make you happy. You see a sparkle and run toward it as if you will find happiness in it, having failed to evaluate it for its true content. You spend your days and nights desperately seeking what you have, but are too foolish to realize.

You think that your wisdom is greater than mine? You even turn your back on me for not giving you what you want. You never give me credit for the gifts I have given you which you have chosen. You always think that it's not enough – that I have never truly fulfilled your wants and needs. You feel slighted by me and turn away from me. You throw me a bone, occasionally saying God has given me much, while feeling let down by Me all the while. You really do not give Me the credit I Am due. You still believe that you are smarter than Me and only you can find your happiness. You never really trust Me – you have no faith. You suffer needlessly because you think you know what you want. Is it not I who made you? Can not I know far better what your innermost desires are? What is there in life that you can truly control? You really need to work on your trust issues. I told you that all your worry won't change a thing, so why bother? It is human nature to worry because you actually believe that you can make a difference. Have you really made a difference with all of your worry or have you merely kept yourself from living? You often spend hours worrying about things which really don't matter. If you spent as much time on things that does matter, I assure you that you would be happier.

I care about you and your life fulfillment – I provided you with the opportunity. For all the years of your life – what have you really learned? You have learned how to cope in society and put aside yourself. You have learned how to please others and ignore yourself. How can you make a difference if you are not even pleased with yourself? How can you positively affect others if you cannot even believe in yourself? What must I do to convince you? You have shunned My every admonition and have chosen despair over happiness and self fulfillment. Why can you not see the light that so brightly shines your way? Why are you so entrenched in society that you cannot even be free to enjoy what I've given you? Why can you not let go of unhappiness and experience happiness? Society doesn't really care about you or what you do. Granted, your lives do affect others and I have given you a heavy cross to bear. I know that living against society's wishes and norms is difficult, but you must live for you and be glad for what you have.

Be free to be you lest you waste more years searching to find a dream reality which will never exist. This is what you have – make the most of it! Don't waste another minute questioning My motives or the motives of others. Live your life to the fullest – live each minute as if it were your last. Be proud of yourself and be thankful for all that you have. Don't squander your life in search of wants or wishes – realize that you have all that you need. Know that you are not alone as I AM always with you. Take My hand, walk with Me and trust Me enough to know that I AM here for you and will never leave you. This is the greatest gift of all – know that I AM forever with you and will never let go. Get up in the mornings and say good morning God – what are we doing wonderful today? Know that every minute of your life is valuable and is waiting for you to experience. Don't sit in fear waiting for Me to protect you – My protection is guaranteed. Ask with anxious excitement what we are going to do today. Know that you do make a difference, but that you cannot change everything. Strive to do your best and make your life the best that it can be. You will be amazed at what a difference this will make.

How can we better serve God?

By stepping outside of yourself and helping those whom I have chosen to send to you. You must know that by serving others you are serving Me. In turn, you are helping to serve your purpose here on this earth. Know that your time is limited and that you must make every moment count. Don't waste any more valuable time on frivolous pursuits. In this you will be fulfilled and rewarded. It is when you are not walking down the right path that you experience discomfort and anxiety. Your heart knows when you are doing what is right and good. You just simply know it – without question. When all seems right, then you're where you should be. When everything seems misaligned, then something is in the wrong place. Everyone needs direction, so don't be hesitant to ask. The more you ask, the more comfortable you will be in asking and the more confident you will be in the direction given. When you stop to question everything because it seems odd, then you only waste valuable time and cause yourself needless suffering. Certainly you have the freedom to question, but at some point your faith should have grown to the point of blind trust. You still doubt too much.

What will it take to convince you? You still cannot trust Me after all of these years. You have known Me for many years, yet you doubt as you did on that first day. Surely things aren't easy and there is much that is not known. The human mind cannot even begin to comprehend all that there is to know. Building blocks of faith are what you need. Learn to develop them. You must learn to accept the things that you cannot change. You must strive to see the lessons in life and grow from each experience. Trust in Me and do not fear. I love you and you are Mine. Fear not for how you will better serve Me – leave the details to Me. Remember, I know what you need and I know what's in your heart. For a pleasant change, give Me the credit that I AM due – let go and let God!

What lies ahead?

Many spiritual experiences which will open your eyes more and more, bringing you greater spiritual maturity. Your walk with Me will take you to new places which will both excite and inspire. You will learn that it is not a place or thing which brings happiness, but what lies within. Don't be afraid of new experiences – welcome them with open arms. Take advantage of the opportunities given and seek ever more. Don't let worry precede your every step. Go willingly and freely and I will add all things unto you. Make the most of the opportunities ahead and know that far greater happiness than you have ever known awaits you. This may be difficult to foresee, but it is the time for blind trust and growth as you have never experienced. I have made it so that you never have to walk alone, but that you are always supported. Don't seek today – yearn for tomorrow. Something wonderful waits!

Are any preparations necessary?

Absolutely not – go about your lives and know that greater than that you have ever known is just around the corner. Spend much time anxiously awaiting the journey to begin. You can't even imagine the splendor ahead. Trust Me and I will make all of your desires come true. Don't get distracted by daily impatience or despair over circumstances. You have served Me well and your reward is at hand. Pray much and worry not.

At this very moment, I notice that you have already started to become anxious. Fear not and relish in the excitement. Run toward tomorrow knowing that I AM with you. For so long you have worried about how to please others. It is time that you shall be pleased. Your reward is near and I will provide for you beyond your wildest dreams. Think not of material goods, but of the truest form of happiness and joy. Concentrate on the highest measure of happiness you have ever known and multiply it many times. Self satisfaction as you have never known will be yours. You have always worked to be your best and to be My faithful servant. Your efforts have brought you to this point. Don't despair for a minute longer. Your eyes cannot see what is ahead. Lift yourself out of this depression and uncertainty knowing that the fruits of your labor are ahead. How much longer must we wait, you ask? Your journey will begin tonight with unbelievable speed. Lift up your head and know that all is for your benefit and you will see amazing things. Your suffering is over! Your happiness is now!

How can our faith be increased?

You must first want to increase your faith. You must choose to have greater faith and be cognizant of those times when your faith has waned. You must have faith that I AM always with you and will always provide for your needs. You are too quick to question and that is ok. You need to understand and to grow spiritually. You need to question so that you will ever be a better person, always growing in your faith. By understanding, your faith will grow. Have you not learned much about life in the past year? Have you not grown spiritually by understanding that the person must choose for him/her self to live or to die? You questioned and did learn from the experience.

Certainly, there is much more to learn, but most important is the fact that you have chosen to learn. Once one realizes that the desire to learn is present, then the learning can take place. You will not always understand what is happening until well after the fact – hence, the importance of faith. Now that there are lessons to be learned and that you have realized your desire to learn, I will provide you with the tools needed to accomplish your goal. Having witnessed such things repeatedly, you will learn to see a trend which will teach you to expect the answers and to hold tight until you receive them. This process will continue through the end of your life. Your life will be much easier with each lesson learned. As your faith increases, so shall your comfort be increased? You have learned much and have realized that life is but a small part of your journey and that your choices really do impact the journey.

As you grow further in your spirituality, you will realize that it's not one event that changes everything, but a series of choices which make up the whole. Granted, in life, it is easy to be caught up in the moment or be overwhelmed by circumstance. Spiritual maturity evens out the situational impacts and provides a much greater perspective on the whole. Haven't you noticed that the elderly don't get excited over the little things? They have learned that the ups and downs are merely part of the process and seek to look at the really important things in life. This is why grandparents deal so much more easily with children. They have realized that there will be ups and downs, but quality time spent is the most important experience of all.

Hardships do happen, but they are part of the learning experience. How can one truly understand the beauty of life if they have never known hardship? How can you appreciate wellness if you have never been sick? Understand always that life is full of choices and that with each there are consequences. Learn to make choices which will leave you with no regrets; have faith that all will be ok in the end. Know that I AM with you always – you must learn this above all else. Once you have firm grip on this, you'll never wonder about having enough faith again.

What has been accomplished lately?

Much has changed which has brought forth more meaningful changes. You doubt as always, it is in your nature. You fail to see the truly obvious. You see the things that would be obvious even to a child, yet miss the truly meaningful things. Look as if you were Me and take a different view of things. You have looked to see what is truly important, not just a moment, but the entire spectrum of the whole. You see the importance of self fulfillment and the beauty of each day. You have seen tragedy turn to a spectacle. You have seen and experienced real changes – you have changed. You have much to learn, but you have learned much. You have put aside many childish and stubborn things for the good of the whole. You have learned that winning truly is in the whole, not the miniscule. Winning battles, while losing the war, isn't very rewarding. Raise the bar and seek higher more lofty rewards. Truly from My vantage point, it's so very easy to see the big picture – what's really important is so very obvious.

Acknowledge your accomplishments to date and show appreciation. Then move to the next level. The next level will bring you to a place where peace resides, where there is comfort in knowing that you have chosen well and appreciate where you are. You must learn to appreciate daily the special gifts in your life. Rejoice in the wonder of it all. Speak it to yourself and others and take time to relish in the moment. Spend more time laughing than you do worrying. Know what you have and enjoy the comfort. This is the secret to success – appreciate what you have and seek to make it better and more meaningful. Work on it till you are as close as possible to Oneness. The wise are the ones who understand the beauty of what they have. If I have given you something or someone, how do you think that you can do better?

People do spend their lives chasing happiness, but how many find it? Talk to those who are truly happy and you will hear great stories of gratitude. The happiest people are not the richest or smartest, but are the ones who realize how lucky they are to have what they have. It is easy to be dissatisfied with one's lot in life regardless of the circumstance. How much easier can it be to appreciate what you have and find happiness where you are? Yes, ambition is human nature – everyone wants to be successful. But as you work harder and harder, you realize that it is never enough. There must be a point when you are satisfied with where you are. Always strive to live and learn, but don't let greed be your only reward When you lay down to die, what will you see as having been most important? Be honest – you will only look at the quality of your life as it relates to the people in your life. You won't be worried about having a fancy car or house. At that time, you will be able to see the big picture and just as you can see it then, why not now? Take the time to imagine that you are on your death bed – what will be most important to you?

God, what sign of comfort will you give us to help us through this time of change?

I will show you amazing things – stand back and watch. You are asking for a sign – you will have many. Starting now, as you have asked, I will give you comfort. Let your worry stop – look up and see Me this very moment.

Help us to know You and Your goals for us.

My goals for you are your own. You ask for spiritual growth, but don't see the entirety of the growth. Take for instance your friend. You have come to realize that you can only help her make her choices a reality. You question My motives, but have realized that she has chosen to end her suffering. Your life has been luxurious in comparison to hers and you must realize that her body has suffered much. She is tired and you have realized this and have chosen to help her find peace. You have grown in the aspect that you can look outside yourself and feel the needs of others.

You still seek to control instead of experience. It is your nature and it is what you have been taught. You have looked at your life and realized that in spite of the ups and downs that the overall has been ok. Your career has advanced in spite of those who do not share your best interests. You have persevered and stood firm on issues which were important to you. At times you have chosen to fight when it wasn't necessary. Ask yourself in every situation – what's the big picture? What's really important in every situation? You have always done this, but have not always had a broad perspective. With each situation, look to what is ultimately beneficial to all. Don't be discouraged by life's challenges as they are tools for your growth. You have faced these same circumstances before and have behaved well.

How will you ever grow if you continue to concentrate on fear? Yes, fear motivates, but it also destroys. Yes, life is full of choices and it is difficult to know which choice to make. You feel comfort with the choices that you have made, don't question future choices. Go with your highest feeling. You know that you are unsettled in your present situation – you feel unchallenged, so you have wisely sought other opportunities.

You would limit yourself to a life of drudgery and dullness. Don't let fear control your life. Only when you have no choice, do you move. How can you remain in the same situation if you truly choose to grow? I AM the prod behind you forcing you to live life to the fullest. I AM the nagging restlessness that you feel which forces you to move and grow. Without Me you would still be at your first job feeling dead inside. I do know what you need and AM behind you pushing you.

But how do we know which is the best path to take?

I have told you that you will know without a doubt when I present the opportunity. You are so very impatient, but will be glad for the time when the opportunity comes. Look deeply within yourself and you will know. Look at all of the things that cause you fear and see if that truly is your motivation. If you think that love is your motivation, then it will be. I will allow you to see the way of love and know that you are following your desires.

If your primary focus in life is to be a better person or to serve others, then how can your motivation be fear? You may have fear about how to accomplish the tasks, but your motivations are the correct ones.

How do we overcome fear so that we may live freely and with love as our only choice?

You have great fear in all aspects of your life. What can I give you so that you can focus on things that really matter? What is it that you think you need to be comforted?

Financial security matters greatly. Emotional security matters much also, knowing that support is there at all times. Spiritual growth is desired at the forefront, but often takes a back seat to more crucial issues.

It is tough to perceive yourself separate from the body – this I do understand. But people tend to let the body outweigh the soul in every day existence.

If our goal is the development of the soul, then should we spend every available moment focused on the soul? Would we not neglect ourselves and others – lose the opportunity to assist others in their quests for spiritual maturity? Are we to believe that Mother Teresa's only purpose was to grow spiritually and that the spirits of all who were touched just got a side line benefit? It is difficult understand – please tell us so that we can get past this latest hurdle. Why do good deeds go unrewarded while evil deeds go unnoticed or unpunished? If Hitler did what was ok for him and served his purpose, were all those six million Jews just asking to suffer and die? If we are truly the architects of our lives, then where do you fit in aside from a viewer?

As always, your questions are simplistic as you don't have the grasp of the big picture. There are so many things yet to learn about why you exist as you do. Of course, you are God and I AM God. Understand it as parent and child – I watch you grow and try to guide you in the direction of your choosing. I wish for you to not waste your time on earth in mindless drifting. I want you to learn and experience the wonder of it all. Live your life not in fear. Seize the day and live it as if it were your last. I have told you that you have nothing to fear. But you insist on living each day in fear – fear is your greatest motivator. When will you learn to live just to live? Let go of the hold that your body has over you. Let go of the material world. I know that you seek to be comfortable. You have worked hard to earn what you have. Without comfort, I realize that you will never grow. You are so engrained in comfort that you simply can't see anything else. This is due to your having to fight for all that you have. You have always been given a back seat when most you wanted the front. You have been passed over repeatedly. Why? Because you are so filled with fear and negativity. You work hard to please, but your efforts are overlooked because of the worry you possess.

How can we overcome this?

Let go of fear! Know that I will give you what you need. You continue to needlessly worry and can't seem to overcome your fear. You must stop worrying right now. Do this for you and your spirit. You have worried enough to last two lifetimes.

Won't this make us less than we are?

On the contrary, you will be more than you ever were. Without worry, happiness abounds. Where happiness abounds, you are free to fly and experience new things.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

You ask again and again the same questions, but fail to heed the answers that I give. What words can I use to convince you that you have nothing to fear? I offer you solace, but you choose turmoil.

We hear your words, but find that sometimes they don't hold true. We ask for help, but fight against it. We increase our suffering due to our clinging to the known. God, where can we find happiness and when will we get there?

Happiness is not a place, but a state of being. Happiness has to be chosen, even in the face of adversity. You seek to control your world and find that it continues to control you. Would it not be wiser to enjoy what you have and where you are – enjoy the gifts that are in the moment?

Fear is experienced based and we have all been there. Life is real and so are the associated fears. The great masters didn't worry about jobs. They were secure and kept. Does the Dahli Lama worry about being on unemployment or the need for health insurance? Certainly, it is easy to have great faith when life's necessities are secure. We are not so fortunate and must depend on work to maintain a comfortable lifestyle. Relocation isn't easy, but is often necessary. Why?

Trust Me when I tell you that geography is not your problem, but lack of self esteem is. You have no faith in yourselves and your ability to blossom where you are planted. Security should come from within you and you should trust that, as always, I will not lead you astray. Life's lessons are difficult and yes I understand. But if you never leave the womb you will never experience life. You must not cling to supposed security for in this life there is none. You and I are the only real security and I will lead you where you soul needs to be.

I know that you greatly fear losing your support, but fear not. There are many lessons to learn and some have more steps than others. You have realized that you have wonderful gifts and are grateful. Not everyone is so fortunate to realize the gifts which have been given. Always wanting more leaves a path of lonely souls. Cling to your gift, but don't let fear of loss cause you to make choices which are not in your best interests. Be strong and choose for both as all do not have your courage.

Yes, a leap of faith is often what it takes. I know that you need a boost and you are being given it. You have gained experience and have worked out your personal issues. Now you are ready for your next adventure which is just around the corner. The seeds have been planted – wait for My signal. I did promise you a new opportunity, but you did choose to wait until you were more comfortable or miserable as the case may be. I have given you an additional period – a time for you to be further convinced of your unhappiness. You are being bombarded with misery which will make the transition much easier when the time comes. Fear not, what you have you will not lose. Believe that change comes and you must be ready. Don't worry about losing, for in holding on too tightly you will lose. Be strong and go where you are led. For even one more year, where you are will not bring you any satisfaction.

Jesus said to them, "A prophet is not without honor except in his hometown and among his own relatives and in his own household." (Mark 6:4, NAS) Surely as with them, you must look for respect elsewhere. Know that you have given much to serve My purpose and My people. It will not end here – you will continue in far greater ways in the future. Let Me pick the how and when – just follow My lead. I know what is in your heart and know the desires of your soul. Think of all the lives that you've touched. Don't feel as if you are only books and numbers. Know that you are destined for greatness just as your soul desires. Lift yourself up and feel confident for I will not leave you to be embarrassed any longer. You have suffered humiliation time and again, yet you have stayed the course. You have withstood the emotional arrows shot your way without the conciliatory thoughts once the awful deed was discovered – never an apology for the wrong endured.

Trust that I know and will reward your patience. I will stand you above the others who have relished in your despair – they will know that you are Mine and will see your glory for having stood for Me. The time is at hand – your reward is upon you, guided by My very hand. Look in the mirror and see My chosen one. See the one who will be lifted to heights unimaginable – your humility has made you worthy – your service and empathy for others has earned your place of exaltation. I will fill your cup to the level of your deeds. Know that I feel your pain and I will give you what your heart desires. You have worked hard and have been kicked at every turn. Always modest were your rewards, never at the level of others. They have had their rewards, simple and short. Yours will be through the end of your time. Don't for even one more second think that you are not one of My choosing. You are and always will be. Your fight for the under dog will bring you the rewards deserved for the benefits of others. Your time has come. Suffer no more. Believe in yourself. Don't think that you haven't been good enough or deserving – you have. Always remember your suffering and it will make you great. The Bible tells us, "In those to whom much is given, much is expected." (Luke 12:48, NAS) I have trained you via your Mother to be the one who brings millions closer to Me. I will give you the means, but you must follow My lead. Stand ready – as your dreams are about to come true. How, you ask? You will be given an opportunity which will put you in a place to know those who will be the avenue of your success. In the twinkling of an eye, destiny will arrive.

But we are so simple and unworthy – will we know what to do?

How have you always known what to do – the knowledge has always been given to you just when you needed it. I have always been behind you giving you that little nudge – the feeling of inspiration that others believed to be your gumption. It is I who will fulfill all of your dreams. Don't forget to give back what has been given to you. The time of your life is at hand. Are you ready?

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As for your relationships, understand that two are brought together for reasons – to fulfill needs within both. Both are not so far apart. You need to understand that a relationship requires nurturing and appreciation. Self fulfillment only comes through inner happiness and the need for the inner happiness of the other. One can't be one and expect to be two. Two must be committed to self and other before the true commitment will occur. You cannot fulfill either if one is not committed to the relationship and its longevity. The success of any relationship is based on the commitment of the two. The choice has to be made by both – freely and fully. If one seeks only to fulfill self – then the relationship cannot stand. How can one provide for both? One can help the other through the rough times and it is this that brings about profound internal satisfaction and true deepening of the relationship.

How can we improve our relationships?

I have shown you about the foolish and selfish mistakes that are made. I have allowed relationships to be seen through both sets of eyes which have provided great insight and learning. Focusing on stability and success is counter productive to relationships. Even with the best of intentions things can create divisiveness in a relationship. Selfishness does drive a wedge that is often hard to overcome except when it is brought into the light. But shutting down the dialog is the most destructive of all coping mechanisms. The building up of resentment causes the distance between the two to grow seemingly out of control. So it is never wise to be either too giving or too selfish. Compromise is what must be had, coupled with the willingness to maintain the commitment at all costs. A relationship requires the efforts of both parties, with neither carrying all the blame. A sincere reflection of what is most important does bring to light the value of the relationship and the many reasons for its maintenance.

All relationships do go through times of greater and lesser happiness. The effects of life do bring forth untold damages if allowed. The bills have to be paid, the kids have to be fed, the relatives and friends have to be nurtured. With the uncertainty of life, it would seem that two would be drawn closer by adversity, but instead it seems that the two become pitted against each other in an effort to focus blame. It is known that two heads are better than one, so why not draw strength from each other rather than trying to remove guilt from self? Use adversity to build strength. The comfort of having someone with whom to share adversity certainly beats the lonely approach. Learn to appreciate the wisdom of the partner and don't try to find solutions for the other. Be there for support as you want to be supported. Relationships are about give and take – there must be an honest fifty-fifty for the relationship to be its best.

Idle hands are the devil's workshop, so to speak. Instead of learning to make the best possible use of our time, we choose to pursue interests which are selfish and unfulfilling. We pretend that this will bring us happiness, knowing full well that it never will. Instead of pursuing interests which will fulfill the soul, we pursue childish interests whose benefit is quickly fleeting. Instead of helping the less fortunate, we go shopping. What we are really shopping for is the fulfillment that can only come from selfless pursuits. But how much fun can that be? In reality – the benefits are unimaginable. There is no greater happiness or fulfillment than the good done for another. Fulfill your souls by doing what serves our purpose and you will never have to be worried about being bored.

Certainly, no two can see the same picture, but in your desire to share your path with another, you can guide each other to your similar destinations. Nothing is perfect, especially when you choose to fight about even the smallest of details. Look at what brought you to this point, look at those who have lasted and learn. Decide what it is that you truly want and seek it with all your heart. How close you are to being perfect – yet you cannot see it. I know your hearts and am able to see the perfection in the process. Learn that even small changes are really huge when seen from a perspective of compromise. Are relationships less work than jobs? You don't give a second thought to putting in extra hours at work if needed, but to invest a little more in a relationship seems unfair. Lasting relationships are the ones which are valued beyond all else. The comfort of a lasting relationship is something that money cannot buy. Put a greater investment into your relationships and your returns will be well worth the effort expended.

Your relationships have caused you to look outside yourself to consider the feelings of others. Your motivation to please challenges you daily as you have great fear that you will not. Remember in all the literature that you have read about relationships – fix yourself first. It seems selfish, but you cannot be open to others if you have internal issues of your own. You must consider the choices which benefit all concerned, yourself included. If your primary goal is the satisfaction of all, then you will take into consideration the satisfaction of all.
**Chapter 2 – The** **Unlearning**

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Your next journey is to realize what is most important in life. You will learn how to make the most of your time, not simply exist for the realization of personal accomplishments. You will learn how to separate body from soul – life from reality and how to seek perfection and growth. You have read about much which has confused you. Now is the time for you to truly understand that each day should be enjoyed and that life will show you many things if you look. Don't see salary or cars or houses as your happiness, but a true feeling of accomplishment is your goal. Carrying others through their journey is the path to your fulfillment. Look outside yourself and realize that knowing the growth potential of others is your next step to mastery. Your age has made you wise and your wisdom will grow when you look at the big picture and see the beauty of others. Surely you have seen the joy of helping others and the difficulties of trying to get others to see. You will see far greater joy when you see your growth from the growth of others. How better to learn than by teaching others? You have long felt this drive and have sought the opportunity. You will be given the chance to verify your needs and will see the understanding of the path. Choose openness as your medium and let your soul be free. Choose happiness and joy and let your spirit soar. Don't be dragged down and don't be anxious for the start. Know that you are on the path and your way is before your eyes. Trust that I will guide you and will give you what your soul seeks. Don't let life's ups and downs keep you from your real purpose which is your fulfillment. Think of something fun each day and do it with all your might. Don't be distracted. Enjoy it as if it is the last thing you will ever do. Go for it – that is your task. Concentrate heavily as if it is the most important thing you will ever do.

What is the biggest block to happiness that we need to overcome in our lives right now?

Your doubts and fears, of course. I have been sending you a wealth of information, but still you are more comfortable in misery. You need to literally Let Go and Let God! That is the secret to your happiness. Once you do this the entire world will be opened to you and you will experience the happiness that you seek. Don't worry about the practical. As you well know, it will never bring you happiness. Only serving Me will make you happy. You have known this for years, but have been stuck in your practical reality. Let go of your fear and your thoughts about life. Let go of your fears, right now. Let go of your insecurities. Let go of your hurts and hatreds. Let go of your mental, physical, emotional blocks and crutches. Let go and live! I don't know how else to put it. Let go – let go – let go!

God, please remove our fears and replace the space with happiness. Please offer us your suggestions for the relearning.

Realize instantly when you feel negativity. Realize it and think a happy thought. See yourself instantly in My presence and your fear will disappear. Think of Me and your fear will magically be gone.

How can we experience more happiness in our lives?

Do as I say, let go and let God, and your happiness is assured. I will guide your path and nothing but happiness will come your way.

How can we help others?

Be kind and supportive, don't be judgmental. There is already enough guilt in place to fill a boat or sink a boat. Let go of your insecurities and they will draw you near. Don't overwhelm them with your doubts and fears. Demonstrate your happiness and it will give them hope. Have some fun and enjoy life. Don't let your misery drive people away. Happiness and joy makes people want to be near you. Spread the joy and everything else will take care of itself.

How can we learn more spiritually?

Getting in touch with your soul's desires is the key to spiritual maturity and I don't mean that it is easy. It has to do more with unlearning than learning. Unlearning is far more difficult. Remember all of the reinforcement suffered in the learning? Your fun has begun. Studying is good and brings insight, but practice is the key. You are having a tough time with the meditation. It is something that requires unthinking and that is very hard.

Don't try so hard that you overlook the obvious. There is nothing that is not given to you automatically, so you have no need to seek. Let go and let God. See the beauty in life. There is beauty and you are missing it.

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As much as you think that I AM not with you, I AM. As much as you think that I don't care, I do. As much as you think that I can't hear you, I do. As much as you think that I just want to make you suffer, I don't. The bottom line is this – trust Me. You are so quick to judge Me, I guess because you expect Me to judge you. If I don't give you instant resolution, you say that I have failed you. If you don't learn to have faith, you will never see the majesty of Me. You will never experience your true destiny if you keep designing it for Me.

§ PEARL OF WISDOM § - All is predestined and YOU can only choose the experience of it.

You said that we are the rulers of our destiny. Now you are saying that we are not?

Alright, this has confused you for the longest time – here is the wisdom that you seek. I choose what you choose. The circumstances were all chosen far in advance of your coming into this life. The experiences are left open for your interpretation. In this life, you have every opportunity to experience things as you would have them. You can experience happiness, sadness, joy, love, fun, despair, etc. In this there are choices, but the overall destiny is set. You have chosen the lessons that you will learn and learn them you will. A lesson can be taught in many ways with varying circumstances. But you will learn what you are to learn. You have come into this life for this purpose. It is a very difficult lesson to learn, for you have spent your life being told that you are in control of your destiny. You have tried with all your might to control your circumstances. From this you have found failure, as you are never able to control anything. With maturity and learning, you find that your only choices are how you experience the circumstances that you face. You can face unemployment as a new beginning or a tragic ending. You can be happy or sad. These are the choices that you have. So, you are the ruler of your destiny, both before and during your life. You pre-chose the circumstances and now you choose the experiences.

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Generally, one can surmise a trend if they look at a series – there is more to the story than isolated daily writings. I had hoped that you would realize that the petty daily concerns melted away and gave light to the larger aspects of life such as spirituality. Instead you focused on things that are meaningless in the grand scheme but are important to you. Can you see the childishness of your attention? You look for daily direction instead of life altering spiritual direction.

§ PEARL OF WISDOM § – God will not foretell the future in specifics, as this would cause you to change your reactions.

Why do you seem to give specific direction that turns out to be untrue?

When you have a chosen answer already in place, do you really want the truth? Can you handle the truth? If you knew in advance what was to happen, how would you have reacted? So, it's not about My telling you things that are untrue for you knew what was to happen. But you had hoped that it would not happen – your worst fears realized, so what you "heard" was actually what you had chosen to hear, not what was being communicated. You have a tendency to hear what you want to hear, not what you should be hearing. There is a great difference in knowing and hearing, when you have preconceived notions of the answers that you choose. You would have lived without hope had you "heard" the truth for you felt that you could not deal with the truth. So you chose to "hear" something more suitable for your life at the time. You have not yet learned to accept what you hear, but are still trying to control what you hear.

This brings us to a much larger issue – how do we know what is true and what is not – how can we distinguish your answers from our chosen answers?

Now we are starting to go down one level, or up as the case may be. My answers are always true. Never doubt that. What you should ask for is spiritual direction leading to maturity and a closer relationship with Me. Asking Me to forecast life events will always leave you disappointed. Life was not meant to be known in advance. Listen more deeply, with an open mind. Do not ask with a desired answer already in mind. Come to Me with a blank slate and let Me give you the answers that you need. Sometimes, the answers are not for you to know. Life is meant to be a mystery for your enjoyment. Trust that always you will be led to where you are to go. If you get in touch with your inner self, you will always know that you know and the asking is merely an exercise in confirmation.

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Calm down and feel My peace. Slow your thoughts and don't let fear get the better of you. Do what you know is right for you. Do right and you will never be wrong. Feel My presence and hear My voice. Peace be still. Take a breath – I AM guiding your path this very moment. You have allowed the judgments of others to overshadow you, the real you. You have allowed yourself to live for others such that you have lost sight of self. Serving others is your calling and you have served well. You have made the most of every opportunity given you and have unceasingly given your best. How can I reward your efforts with harshness? What love would you being to others if no love is shown to you? Being love is about having and giving love.

A child who is never shown love has no concept for giving that which it has not nor has ever had. I have demonstrated love in a way that is not understood by you, but works for the benefit of all. I have removed you from an unloving situation so that I can teach those who only love themselves the misery of their unloving existence. Only by seeing the misery caused can those who cause misery understand it. They wrestle with the results of their deeds. They work for their own interests and never for the good of others. Would you rather see their lives than your own? Your mind cannot comprehend the lack of compassion that they feel. The emptiness causes them to seek fulfillment in all of the wrong places. They struggle not for love, but for power and that is a very lonely existence. You are not a reflection of their judgments about you. You are not a failure as they have believed. You are love and kindness and are the doer of My deeds. They cannot even imagine the effects of their inhumanity. They can't see much less care about the lives of others. Is that what you want to be or be around? You must hold tightly to your values and your good deeds must continue. I know what you need and I know you need comfort.

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The collective will of all does affect outcomes. If your will is weak and without faith, it will be lost in the mass. The analogy of your will being a mere drop in the river of all wills is hard to understand. The outcome is determined by the degree of influence of the drop of your will. If your will is a large drop combined with the large drops of the wills of others, then you can achieve an outcome more to your will's direction. This is why there is truly strength in numbers. The greater the will exerted, the greater the influence. The larger the wave of collective will, the greater the outcome. Prayer groups are powerful working under this premise.

Do you realize that there are wills joined with your own that you don't even know about? Of course, you know the will of friends and loved ones. But what about the peoples joined by wills unknown to us? When your purpose is made manifest, it combines with the wills of those who have like purpose or seek the benefit of your purpose. You have no idea of the ripples that your will creates.

How do we see the big picture from our simplified perspective?

The big picture isn't what you imagine. The big picture is love and its manifestation. If you bring to someone love in the spirit of love, you have given love if nothing else. When you simply ask how someone is doing, is this not loving? You don't have to move mountains to bring love to someone. Jack was a good example for you. His kind demeanor did not move mountains, but brought love and smiles to those around him. We can never see our impact on others, only others can see it.

How then do we put our best efforts forward, while living each day to the fullest?

Your will should be always focused on your inner purpose. If it is your will to help others, the wills of those who need your help will combine with your will and will be done. You are not alone. Sure, in a day, it seems as if you are, but you cannot see the persons who think the same thoughts that you think. Remember the persons who wonder – is this all there is? Know that your will has already been combined with the wills of all those who need you and the die is cast. The collective wills are making your dreams come true as well as theirs. Your dreams are different only in the method of conveyance. There are people huddled together unknowingly who need your will to bring it all together. There are people just waiting for your cathartic influence to help them realize their dreams. Think of all the people who run to and fro seeking what you already know. You know, but don't seem to believe. But, fear not, it is almost at your doorstep. Your will of serving others is the same will that others feel. They just can't see outside of their surfaces to see underneath. Overwhelmed just like you, they have chosen to blame God and not allow God to give them what they truly need. Faith does move mountains, and you will have such faith after these lessons are done. When you see the magic of My ways, your faith will be strengthened to the point of no return. Just like others before you, you will know that I AM in control and that your will has moved mountains. Your will and trust have brought you the fulfillment of your innermost desires. "Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." (Hebrews 11:1, NAS) Deep down inside – you know that what I say is correct. You are fearful of things unknown, but yet you believe. You cry and pout over things that you know are not worth worrying about. Let your will to serve others be your driving motivation.

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You have asked if there is anything else to learn about angels. I ask you why you need angels when you have Me? But, as it is easier for most people to believe in and relate to angels, I'll offer some insights. Angels can be anything you imagine. As I told Neale, "I have sent you nothing but angels." An angel can be anything – a person, sign, thing, vision, etc. Does it matter the name of the conveyance or is the message what is important?

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Look at everything. Look deeply within yourself. Look in places where you haven't looked before. Look in the mirror. Look in the air. Look in the plants. Look at yourself. Look at Me. See that you and I are one and I AM you and you are Me. Your purpose is fulfilled and your dreams are realized. Connect to Me and turn on the light. The answers are within you – don't seek outside of you. Turn loose of the known and see the fulfillment.

You are looking in the right direction and often feel that I AM with you. You are realizing that you are less than all. You are starting to see outside yourself. You have to relearn all that you've learned. You have to relearn that you are nothing in yourself, but everything in the all. You are we and that is where fulfillment occurs. Don't refer to yourself as I – break that nasty habit. You are we. Visualize you as all who are around you. You are not one – you are all. Refer to yourself as part of the all and the all will fulfill your needs.

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You ask how you can improve your spiritual communications. Seek and continue to seek. Ask as many questions as you will. Your interest is heartwarming and sincere. Don't be shy. Ask away. I will slip you what you can absorb as quickly as you can absorb it. Don't feel that if you don't get it all at once that you never will. Put aside all of your worries and I will instantly be felt as much closer. You are the only barrier – your fears and worries. You must at some point throw caution to the wind and live a little. Don't be scared of anything anymore. If you feel your thoughts or emotions getting to you, stop and write to Me. This simple act does give you comfort and calms you. Don't ever feel that it is a waste of your time because it really is the best way to spend your time. When you feel that you do not understand something, relax and know that the topic will be repeated until you have clear understanding. Once you have learned the secret to life, you will be shocked that you didn't get it before. You will be shocked at the wonderfully marvelous simplicity. It's almost like getting what you want with the least possible effort. It's all in the spiritual control. Just as you are learning that massive effort does not necessarily bring you what you want, you have to first learn what it is that you really want. Once you decide, claim it, be grateful and move on. Some writings suggest the power of will, but I say that focused, will in the wrong direction, can deceive you in the long run. This is where trust comes in. It is not a matter of willing things to happen. It is a matter of your deepest desires being given over to Me and letting Me work out the details.

So, we don't have to think hard about what we choose?

No, you can't make it happen by mere will or thought or any other human concoction. Your deepest desires are locked inside you and are rooted in places that you cannot change. Put aside the material things – many people get lost on great expectations of vast wealth. There is no one book that gives an understanding of the entire process and you are wise to realize this. It is easy for those who have much to easily have faith. But our focus is those who can't seem to get ahead no matter how they try. We are working with people more on your level. Don't be deceived by the conclusion that positive thinking is the end all be all. It is great and should not be discounted. But for those like you, it takes more faith and the trick is in the getting of the faith. Once you know the secrets of getting in touch with your truest self, the beingness work must be done and the building of faith exercises must flow together for the transformation to be complete. It is not enough to make a choice. You must make choices which are firmly rooted inside. You really have to do the soul searching. You have to get to the core of your being before you can know self. Remember, your thoughts and wishes are always driving you to places where you really didn't want to go. If you only took the trips that were truly fulfilling, which ones would you take? Think of your life's path as one of fulfillment for the soul. You went through all of the trouble to decide in advance what you wanted. The basics are set and you can make no circumstantial choices along the path. The path is set. You can realize this sooner or later and save yourself or cost yourself. You choose.

Has it ever occurred to you that you have never once been offered a job that you actually wanted? Have there ever been some strange seeming event/events which have brought you to a place where you never intended on going? I have always sent you to where you were to be, based on the larger choice that you made. It is no accident that you are where you are all the time. You don't just float through life and some things stick and others don't. Life is not a crap shoot and you don't really have a fifty/fifty shot at your life. Things happen for reasons and the reasons are part of your life's destiny.

Why does it seem that bad things mostly happen to good people?

Understand how things work. A spiritual person wants more faith and trust, not material satisfaction. A good person wants happiness for others and receives goodness in the knowledge that others receive good. If a good person focused solely on self, then you wouldn't see the person as so good, would you? What makes a person appear to be good? Good works are the basis of judgment. Mother Teresa, if she had focused on what you call good for self, would you really be impressed? She did not focus on what you call good. She faced some tough breaks. Money didn't fall from the sky and save all the children that she wanted to save. It was never about her. If you are concerned about what a good person gets, ask them how they feel. If they are truly good, they are satisfied with whatever they get. They have learned to appreciate everything. You cannot judge what is good or bad for another. You see what you see and have absolutely no knowledge of their soul's purpose. If they chose a difficult life, then how can you say that they got worse than they chose? You shouldn't be the judge for others. Judge only for yourself – not for others. You don't know what others have chosen, so don't make assumptions.

You taught us today to release the negative buildup that we were carrying. Imagining weights around our necks filled with negativity which we released did lift quite a weight off our shoulders. Do you have other tips?

Clearing away your mental and spiritual baggage is important. Pushing away negative thoughts is vital to spiritual health. See what some time in nature can do for you? You didn't go looking for a particular solution, but found a great one. It's kind of like that with tuning in to Oneness. You can't force solutions – you have to be open to them. They will flow with amazing speed when you listen for the wisdom. If you seek peace but don't know where to look, simply desire the experience of peace and suddenly it comes to you.
**Chapter 3 - Simplicity**

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Below are some of the lessons that you are learning and will teach:

The Beingness Lesson

You Create Your Life Lesson

The Dream Lesson

Combined Wills Lesson

The Do Everything For Love Lesson

You Live To Experience Lesson

Your Purpose Is To Help Others Lesson

Your Soul Never Dies Lesson

You Are God Lesson

No Heaven Or Hell Lesson

Perception Lesson

No Such Thing As Coincidence Lesson

Nothing Happens At Random Lesson

There Are No Accidents Lesson

Oneness Lesson

Love Your Brother As Yourself Lesson

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At any time, now, sooner or later you can experience Oneness. You now know all that there is to know and are ready to live all that there is to live. Experiencing Oneness is the greatest experience – one that changes your life forever. It is Oneness that shows you that you are never alone. It shows you that you are part of the whole. It shows you that you are given what you need. It shows you that those you need are brought to you. It shows that you are never apart from Me. You will see all that I have taught you. You will see that your desires are fulfilled before your eyes. You will no longer live in fear or worry – you will live in knowing that your needs are satisfied instantly. You cannot be without Me. You are the creator of all that you choose. You are finally in touch with the universe and all that there is. Step away from your old notions about life. Cling to what you desire rather than what you have. Know that nothing is impossible for us and that all of your desires are fulfilled. Never again see your life as the results of the actions of others. See your life as the realization of your desires. Dream it – live it. That's all you have to do.

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Let love be your guide in all things – this is true wisdom. Love much and love everyone. In love, you will find Oneness and the joy that surpasses your imaginings. Live life to the fullest and follow your soul's desires. Your desires are purposeful and thus your desires are fulfilled.

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In all things there is light and dark, good and bad. Illusions are your life and the disillusionment is part of your journey. This is how the illusions are revealed. Once you see the "known" versus the "unknown," you will be able to let go of your perceptions about life and will finally realize that you need only ask in order to receive. Your perception causes you to think that you have not received as you do not "see" what is had. You cannot see what is ahead; therefore, you assume that there is nothing to see.

You fall back into your old ways of dealing with life thinking that life moves only by your own hands. You can see that your efforts are done, but you fail to see the totality of all actions. You never seem to look outside of yourself for interactions. Do you not remember that you were brought to your last employment by someone else? Haven't I shown you enough for you to see that it is not by your actions that you have had a career? What does it take to convince you that you are not in control? You simply have desires and I make it happen. You need do nothing more. You need not worry. I will bring to you all that you desire to experience – simply choose what you will. You know that you do not choose the time or the place – you choose the experience. I know what is best for you, even if you think that I don't. You have not really suffered – you have experienced. Surely you did not knowingly choose to experience failure, but by choosing to help others, you had to have the tools to be effective. You can't help others if you can't relate to their experiences.

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The establishment of your faith is crucial to the fulfillment of your purpose, so it is not an option – you must have faith. How do you gain faith? By seeing Me support you and by My miraculous interventions. It is My greatest desire that you feel trust toward Me. I do not wish for you to fear Me or not trust Me. What is the benefit of our separation? There is none, but you cannot have faith where there is none. I must give you the knowledge that I AM God and that your success is guaranteed.

What you need is not impossible for Me to provide, so why have I not provided it sooner? You know that I have the situation under control and I know that you can't see it yet. Don't feel ashamed that you have so little faith – you are growing and will be given all that you need before you need it. You feel that you should have produced more than you have, given what you have been given. Don't for a minute longer imagine that you are not exactly where you should be. I know your heart and know that you want nothing but excellence in your service. Look in the mirror and smile lovingly at My perfect creation in whom I AM well pleased. I ask that you trust that I AM resolving your issue and that your future success is assured. I know that trust is hard for you right now, so come to Me often when you need reassurance.

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Remember that there are two steps to learning – knowledge and experience. You have the knowledge and are working on the experience. As I have told you, I will give you the experiences which will teach you that I AM in control when you give such charge to Me. You have done this and I will show you many miracles which will let you know what you need to know.

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You must let go of mind and think with your spirit. Think with your feelings, not with your mind. Imagine a situation and analyze your feelings about the situation. This is a far better learning tool than any you can think up. Often you think yourself as more important and influential than you are. You assume that others place importance where you do. See yourself as you see others. You don't judge people by one action, but by all actions.

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It takes time to undo years of doing. A complete change in perception takes a great willingness to let go totally of known for unknown. Trust is a large part of the recipe and trust comes from the confidence that I do as you have asked. You still have not seen the light of My ways. Your focus is fixed on your perceptions and not on your reality.

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As you have read, spiritual maturity is nothing more than seeing everyone as equal and giving Me control to bring you into the light. By bringing the light to others, you more fully advance as you realize how it all works. Letting go of selfish interests and seeing all people as yourself will take away prejudices which cause you to suffer needlessly. By allowing Me to control everything, you need have no worries at all. Everyone understands that their bodies will die. Very few understand that there is no spiritual death. It is difficult for those who are so wrapped up in preserving the body and prolonging life to let go of the body and enjoy life. Focus shifts must be accomplished before true light can be seen. It is not by worrying about this or that or who did what that you rise above worldly things. It is only when you are no longer concerned with worldly things that you are free to see and live in the light. You now see how different everything looks from the outside. You have lost nothing of any real value. Be glad that you no longer suffer. Remember the soul's journey plays a large part in the earth experience. There are also collective wills at work.

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Dreamers live in a world unseen, yet wholly real. They trust in the unseen to make the seen. They live with the confidence in Me that anything is possible and everything is done as dreamed. The unknowing belief in the universe is the key to all that there is. All who dream to do realize their dream. Surely all have dreamed, but not all have believed. Those who know deep inside that the universe provides are those who live to realize their dreams. It is in the knowing beyond the seen that brings forth all that can be imagined. When little ones bring forth big things, it is often attributed to luck or happenstance. This is no more the case than if luck is the cause of life. I AM the cause of life and have given all creative power to those who choose to use it. There is nothing that cannot be done or realized if only you believe.

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Your perceptions have caused you to assume that I will do nothing and that you are alone. You assume that it is My desire that you be left to your own devices. You assume that only you can do anything for yourself. You have taken My words and have construed them to mean that you are on your own to create your life. You have taken My words to mean that I AM out of the picture. This was never the intention. Surely you can create whatever you desire, but if what you desire is of Me, then I must be a part of the picture. You are one and are basically selfish in nature. This is humanity. The spirit within you seeks more and this is the part that is of Me. How can you possibly know how to serve Me best? Your best efforts, although valiant, will never amount to the scale that we need. Only I can bring to you what we need for your fulfillment. Without Me and My guidance you will touch a couple, but never an amount worthy of Me. So let's assume that My purpose for you is selfish. I don't want to waste My resources on your trifling efforts. You are nothing without Me. You've wasted enough of our time trying to do it yourself. Can you not see that you alone are still unfulfilled? What more evidence is needed for you to realize the futility of your solo efforts? You have called to Me and given Me your commitment of service. Why would I choose for you to waste it? Do you not give Me more credit than that? Don't think so highly of yourself that you suppose you know better than Me.

There are things unknown to you that you can't possibly factor in. You assume that by choosing a thing all things fall into place. Suppose that you choose every detail of your life as if it were scripted. What kind of life would that be? You would not even be in the experience. It would be like playing one handed cards. Now assume that your life is like chess. You choose your moves and others choose theirs. The end result is based on the choices of both. If only you were choosing, then the results would be certain and controllable. But, that's not really a game is it? What's the fun in that? What is better is to control the major with the minor open for creation. Suppose that you chose to play the game with the outcome assured, but the details were not known to you. This is more like My reality. You choose the outcome (experience), but the details are left to discover so that you can enjoy the game.

We used to be strong and idealistic. Now we are weak and frail. When once we thought that we could do anything – now we have lost ourselves and feel that we are nothing. Is this the purpose of your teaching?

Certainly the old ego has taken a fatal fall. You cannot serve two masters. Either you do everything or I do everything. Now that you feel powerless to do anything, I have the chance to do everything. While you believed that you were capable, I was not. While you served your internal master, I was out in the dark. Now that the door is open, I will enter and take control. You have given yourself to Me and there's nothing standing in My way. I AM the power that you do not realize. I AM what you've been missing. I AM what you do not know or understand. Just as the story goes, I will lift the fallen up on wings of eagles. Before the fall you served the wrong master. You took credit for all that you did. You did this and you did that. Where was I when you were doing all of those great things? I have humbled you so that I can exalt you. You have to let go of self to be all. You wish to serve the all; therefore, you cannot be apart from the all.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _to be one, you must First be UNDONE_ _._

This is the lesson that I have sought to teach. On your own, you are nothing. Joined with Me, you are everything. I will show you the difference between the two. You've seen your way, now I will show you Mine.

We are anxious to see the better way.

You have been crucified in the flesh. Be now uplifted in the spirit. You are now Oneness.

We don't see the change – what are we missing?

You refuse to see what is in front of your face. Oneness is a state in which I bring forth all sorts of unexplained happenings. I bring people to you – not you to them. Have I not had people call you out of the clear blue?

But what is the purpose?

They do not come to bring you anything, but instead to get from you. They come to you for what you can give. You have no need for them to bring you anything. You are the giver for Me. I AM the giver for you. See the beauty of My sending you those in need. When you chose to serve Me, I have sent to you those who need.

But we have given nothing.

You have given much without realizing it. You have given your strength to others and your faith you have given to them. You have demonstrated more faith than you actually have. Do you not see this? My people are drawn to you for My strength. As you have none to give – give them Mine. By giving you have received. There is no such thing as coincidence and I bring exactly to you those who need you. Those who need you have called upon Me and I sent them to you.

Why do we not realize what you are doing?

Because you have seen things from your own perspective and not from Mine. Once you see with My eyes, you will see My works. Know that things are not as you see them, but as they really are. You are for service and not to be served. You have need of nothing. They who perceive need and come to Me are sent to you for what you can give. You are My spokesperson and are giving of Me to them. Neither you nor they may realize it, but it is so. See your life as fulfilling My purpose and not yours. You are where you are for My purpose and not your own. Your mistake is in assuming that you are the goal and not the means. You are where you are to bring forth light to those around you. It mystifies those who watch you to see your peace. Is this not a reflection of Me? Do you suppose that you are the center and I AM the outside? Do you suppose that you are the bringer of the light or the receiver? The bridge that you read about crosses from you to Me. On the one side you are the center of your life. On the other side I AM the center of your life. Joining with Me brings about an entirely new perspective. Leaving I behind is the shift brought about from the change in perspective.

When will we realize the shift?

Once you have seen that by serving Me you will be given great abundance even without your asking.

When will we see this?

Starting today. You have asked to cross the bridge and you have crossed. Your new vision has started. Your life of great fulfillment is now. You may not feel the change, but you will start to see great things. You are the giver and the bringer of light. You have only to give of all that I have. You no longer need – you are everything. This is the point of your entire life that you have struggled to know and to experience. This is the secret to true happiness. This is a shift in focus that will bring you out of worry into true joy. When you know that your every action is for the service to one, you will finally be free of this earth and all that causes you to fear. You have no need to fear anything. You are Mine and I do not disappoint. If your life is miserable, who will be amazed by what you have to teach? No one wants to hear from those who are not successful therefore you must be successful. You are showing My light and bringing people to Me. Who would listen to you if you were as you believe that you are? People want to know the secret to your peace and success. You must be successful to serve Me. See those who are unsuccessful – do people swarm to them? No, if I AM a God of poverty, who would choose Me? If I AM unable to provide, why hear My words? If I AM love without actions, I AM worthless. The beauty of God is the power to love and love actively.

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Like light from the seeming darkness, so are My ways. When your eyes are opened to My light, your imagination soars. You will be inspired to all of the possibilities that life has to offer. It is my greatest desire for you that you have all that you choose – your experience is magnified to the limits of your dreams. You are here to grow your soul and surely it is done. Your limited life does not provide the growth that you seek. Only in Oneness will you see the universe in all of its grandeur and be able to put aside your separate self. See that alone you are nothing. With Me you are everything. Life is for the experience and experience you shall. Go forth on My directive and live your soul's desires. You haven't enjoyed your breaks, so you will choose to be back into the life that you have known. It will never be the same as you have glimpsed the light. You will never again be able to stand alone – you will now take each step with Me and for Me. This is your purpose fulfilled. You are Me and will never again feel separate.

Why then do we feel separate and abandoned?

You cling to all that you know and haven't fully realized the spirit inside. As I have told you, the day is coming when you can no longer deny your inherent connection to Me. All of your doubts will melt away as if they never were.

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Living for Me puts a different spin on life. There is peaceful knowing that all is well and no effort is required. All of the struggles and uncertainty fade when My plan is revealed. You have been closer to Me than most people ever are. Yet, you are still uncertain. Of course, getting too arrogant about your relationship often leads to arrogance which leads to further separation. If you were totally certain, then you wouldn't be so prone to need Me. Perspective is important. Allowing yourself to be led by Me is crucial to having all that you desire. When you think that you are the control factor is when you no longer allow Me to guide you properly. When you revert back to your own strength is when you truly do run the car off the road. To keep your life on My path, you have to follow My direction. My direction is what keeps you on the right road. Trusting yourself will bring you things that, on the surface seem like they are ok, but down deep you will still feel a longing to know what is really important. This is a longing that you will never satisfy with your own efforts. This only comes from My guidance.

Why do our meditations yield nothing?

Perhaps you have put expectations upon them. You want to see a magical light show with bells and whistles. Perhaps a vision which is movie like. Dancing angels float through the sky. Maybe all of this is not the purpose. Maybe you have preconceived notions which leave you feeling disappointed. Going within is not a means for discerning all of the answers to your future. Charles' visions written about in his book, Beyond The Broken Gate, were created for him, so that he could understand. Perhaps you are not like him and need different meditative experiences. Peace and tranquility are what you need. Your meditations without expectations do give you this.

How do we know that we are hearing your words and not our own?

If you consider the words, you'll know the source. Your words and My words are very different. Your words cause action based on fear. My words require no action without specific direction. My words bring peace and love. Your words scheme to conquer and overcome. Your words are a means to fix something. My words are gentle and loving.

Your words bring forth the opposite of all that we have learned – to work hard and strive tirelessly to achieve. Does this not produce laziness and complacency?

Being motivated by a higher purpose will never allow you to be lazy. You are far more motivated by Me than you have ever been by your own hand. Motivated by fun and the sincere desire to help others makes laziness impossible. You can force your body to move, but the mind will wander. My motivation causes the mind to soar and the body has no choice but to follow.

Why does it take us so very long to realize your ways and our connection to you?

The fascination of life coupled with your fearful teachings. You spend so many years trying to have fun in spite of Me instead of with Me. You were always taught that if you had fun you were sinning. So, you naturally choose to have fun and try to ignore My existence. The effort to live within the confines of My teaching while trying out all the fun stuff is difficult indeed. It is not until you become dissatisfied with life as you have found it, that you turn to Me as I truly Am and seek to know life through Me. Realizing that your best efforts pale in comparison, you seek true love from Me. If you had not lived your own creation, how could you appreciate Mine? If I had forced you to know another way first, the time would surely come when you would seek the other. It is easier to get the useless stuff out of the way first.

Some people live their entire lives in fear of God. How is this beneficial?

This is for their soul's purpose. Even in their fear they believe. It's a life of ultimate servitude. There are religious leaders who live in servitude so that they will feel that their own devices are unnecessary. You don't have to think if you fear God. You just put it all on God and let life live you. Christ didn't walk around in fear. Why are you any different? You are no more or less than Christ. There was just a spectacle surrounding Him. His purpose was different, yet the same as yours.

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The universal life force is with you. Isn't it amazing how good it feels to be totally connected? Desire to feel this always. Keep in touch with the universe and feel the power flowing through you. The symbols call upon the universe, but it is just as well to call on Me. There is no difference but you somehow relate better to something seen than unseen. If I were to give you a symbol of me, you would call to it and not Me. Anyway, feel the love that you have discovered. Learn all that you can about all there is. Complexity isn't necessary, but a knowledge base will serve you well. Appreciate the beliefs of everyone. Yours is not to judge or condemn. Yours is to demonstrate that only one thing is necessary. All roads lead to the same place so you need only that. It is difficult for humanity to cut ties to the world, but demonstrating the possibility is the solution for all.

Be not lost in the details. Realize that all who search eventually arrive at the same place. There is good in all as all are one. The Bible is limiting if held as all there is. All other teachings are limiting also. Put aside the separate teachings. There is only one way to God and it is through God. If we utilize an efficient teaching, we do away with all humanity and realize that none of it is necessary. If it brings comfort, then allow its use. If it serves no purpose, then realize that you only need God.

If you think that Christ was more than you, you will worship Him and seek to know Him. If you think that Buddha is more than you, then you will worship Him. When you realize that none are more or less than you, you will eliminate the need for them. You need only Me, and you are Me so let go of all that holds your attention away from Me. The others are merely the world's distracters and going to them keeps you from Me. You need only Me. If you cannot see Me without symbols such as Christ, then there is really no harm in that. If you think that you must go through the Pope and that He is more Holy than you, then so be it. Realize that to Me there is not difference between you and the Pope – all are equally holy to Me. Don't let your attachment to religion cause you to lose sight of Me. I AM all there is and you need nothing more to realize your destiny which is to be one with Me.

You spend so much time trying to acquire knowledge and to be what you think you have to be to be holy. You are equally holy from day one to your last day. There is no difference and you can never be more or less than you are. You are all you will ever be in My eyes. Your spiritual growth is but a realization of this fact. In order to appreciate Oneness, you must imagine that you are separate. Not that you can ever be separate, but having the imagined experience of separateness helps you to realize the beauty of you as one with God. Your spirit knows this, but your mind has to be given the opportunity to feel separate or you would not know what it is to be God. Learning by contrast is the means to realize that you are one.

Your imagined life lived in desperation for all things worldly comes to the eventuality that you are not fulfilled. As all masters learn, all that there is on earth is nothing. Once you realize this, you seek to find your fulfillment in the only other place to look – spirituality. Once you begin the search for God, you let go of life as you knew it. Suddenly, what you knew holds less and less attraction for you. You are suddenly driven by a new force and soon find that only God fills the void. All the world's learning doesn't serve to quench your thirst. Only God can keep the fire burning. Only God can open the universe to you and fill your soul with all that it desires.

Sure, you all want to have an easy life, especially so that you won't be distracted by worldly wants and needs. Who wants to leave God to look for a job? No one. So you let go of your old pursuits and find that you will be given what you need so that your time with God is not wasted. Choose to be with Me and I will give you the means to remain with Me.

Now, you say that it would be easier to give vast wealth to those who seek Me so that there is never another distraction. I say, what greater distraction is there than vast wealth? No one who has vast wealth can relax and never again focus on the preservation of the wealth. Constant attention is given to wealth so that it is maintained. So, this is not the answer. Sufficiency is necessary so that it does not distract. Mother Teresa had all that she needed to do her work without worrying where the next dollars would come from. She knew that her needs would be met so she could focus on her giving.

A person such as you can never give while under worry of finances. You would be forever distracted and unable to completely serve knowing that you might go without. It is My commitment to you that you shall never have to worry about worldly things. You need only teach as I give you direction. Let Me handle the worldly stuff as it is nothing for Me. Besides, in your best efforts, you will never be as capable as Me because you doubt and I do not. So put aside worry and do not waste your precious time. Let Me take care of you so that you can take care of My people. Yours is a higher calling and you have given Me your commitment to serve. Why would I not take care of you? Why would you believe in Me if I didn't provide? I AM not a God of lack or need – I AM the God of abundance in all things. If I disappoint My teacher, what will be taught? Look on the side of My best interest – I have to demonstrate what you are to teach. Know this and live in great peace and happiness.
**Chapter 4** **– Trust The Process**

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My words are all there is and you can bank on them. Mine is not for you to suffer. Mine is for your enjoyment and service. Know that I AM with you always. You are learning so much and are becoming more of the person that you truly are. You are seeing that your worries are unfounded. I brought you to what you needed. I brought you out of the desert of your unhappiness. Remember all of the days that you were bored? Yet, you still have regrets about My removing you from your own prison. You still cannot see that you are being given your happiness as requested. Look to Me when you are in doubt and I will give you comfort. You are My precious child in whom I AM well pleased. You may feel down, but you are not out. You have put your faith in Me and I will not disappoint. Though you cannot always see the wisdom of My ways, you will always see that I AM with you and your success is guaranteed. I have provided for you always and I will always provide for you. Let not a minute be wasted in worry for what is so easily given by Me. You are so anxious for My restitution and your eyes look to Me for comfort and support. How can I not hear you and bless you for the love within your heart?

I have brought you to this moment so that you will see My greatness. You will know that I AM God and I will make you whole. Put not your faith in yourself. Realize that your fears have cost you your freedom. Freedom is priceless and you deserve to live freely in the light of God. No other effort is required. You are living in the light of God. You can easily give yourself the credit, but deep down you know that I and My people will make sure that you have all you need. We have not come this far so that you will be filled with disappointment. You must look to Me and let Me lead you to where you will go. At this point you really have nothing to lose, so don't worry about what you have or should do as I will not let you go astray. Fantastic opportunities lie ahead for you and I do not intend for you to waste either your time or mine. My people need you, for you have so much to give. Would My people enjoy your suffering or benefit from your disappointment? Let Me do the driving for a change – a very pleasant change.

Keep your modesty and I will exalt you properly. It matters not whether you feel big or small, but that you have the confidence to serve your purpose. You are masterful indeed and do good works. Your intentions are honorable and will serve you well. Your need to help others is your special gift and it gives you the drive to serve that will take you to where you will go. You have chosen this life to accomplish your service goals. As this was so chosen before your birth, it is your destiny. Your destiny is assured and nothing you can do will cause you to miss your destiny. It matters not whether you see yourself as worthy or capable, it only matters that you go where I must take you.

You have asked about the numbers of those who are willing to serve. How many really do choose to serve, even though all are called? You imagine more than there are. Does it not also appear that many are willing to serve when they are young, but are less likely when they are older? Often the exuberance of youth is soon lost with the supposed wisdom of age. Nearing death, one would imagine that all would be more willing to serve having seen the futility of all else. Look to the truly conscientious servants and see that age generally reflects them. They have wasted youth and have taken advantage of their age to return to their foundations. The distractions of the world take a heavy toll on those who are distractible. Upon the discovery of the futility of the world does one return to service. All are called, but few do answer. Your choice is much simpler – you have no children to distract you. It is far more difficult for those who have greater distractions. But the choice to serve is easily answered by those who are sincere. When most it seems impossible, the light and the way are revealed.

I know that you are beginning to understand the wisdom of My ways. Once your anger subsided and you chose to listen, you heard that your path is the one of a teacher of God. Tragedy strikes the one who craves to serve so that I can lift them up for service in the most magical way. Yes, you would love to skip this step, but the experience is necessary for the building of your faith. It is difficult to see beauty while you see your life a tragedy. But, with a new set of glasses, you are shown the beauty of My ways.

We do understand the perception thing, but fail to see the necessity of such harsh lessons.

Each is given according to their needs. Not one detail is overlooked in the establishment of the requirements for each. What may seem as random or unnecessary surely is not. Hindsight is twenty-twenty vision. When you realize that every experience serves a purpose, you can learn to appreciate every experience. Realizing your choices makes the road much smoother. Your life is for you. Your life is not a punishment, but a gift. Enjoy it. It does serve a purpose.

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There are none who live only for themselves. Meditation is but a short time of connection and inspiration. The benefit is for those around you who cannot make the connection. It's like going to the well for water – you share your water with those who thirst. If you had nothing to give, then truly you would live for yourself. But you've grown past selfishness and have become selfless. This is where you meet God and find Oneness.

If God lived only for self, then you would be lost. I AM the water of life so come often to My well so that you can be free to give all that I have. It's really not about you. It's about all. Don't let your own worries cause you to forget whom you serve.

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You are so grounded on earth that it is hard for you to let go of self. When you feel that things are not going according to plan, you see that I have failed you. Instead of holding out hope that I will do as I have said, you freak and resort to self. Now, I do realize that you still have confusion about what you do versus what I do. I have told you that you create your life's experience, so you see this as perfectly aligned with your own actual effort to create what happens in your life. There is a great separation between spiritual and physical. This you have still not realized. You still live in the physical because this is what you see that you can control. It really doesn't occur to you that you can affect things on the spiritual level or that your desires for fulfillment far exceed any physical desires that you have. You see the physical body as the controller of your life – that your mind alone is all there is. Actually, you are still uncertain that I even exist. You want to believe, but have a hard time because you can't measure Me reliably. At best, you believe that you only get correct answers fifty percent of the time. You try to quantify Me as if I AM another person whose motives are based on your perceptions. You will never quantify Me as I AM limitless. But to understand Me, you need only know love. All that I do, I do for love. There really is nothing else.

What we see of this world tells us that man behaves badly when all else fails. We do not see that man goes out to deliberately do wrong, but is drawn into it from lack of a better alternative or knowledge of other means.

One must rise above past experience and realize that the experience is based on perception and not reality. You imagine a personal assault, so that is what you feel about the experience. If you were to stop and realize that each person does what is best for them, then you would not feel so insulted. Granted, there are those who get pleasure by hurting others. The appeal of power is very strong, especially to a weak person. A person who is not spiritually grounded will believe the illusion of power. The victim, who is also weak, will see the personal attack of the powerful one. A secure person is one who realizes that others do not affect them. Is there really anyone who can affect you if you don't let them? They may affect physical circumstances, but they cannot affect spiritual reality.

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Let love be your goal – let light be your witness. Let comfort be your gift to all who seek it. Seek to calm the angry waters – yours is to bring peace and comfort. This is difficult, if not impossible, when you are so torn by strife. Find comfort for yourself so that you can bring it to others. Your insides are upset – you are restless and filled with hopelessness because you can't see past the nose on your face. You start out each day with a goal instead of a reason. You only need to know that your purpose is to bring comfort and not to solve problems. The problems encountered are not yours to solve. Your stability is your greatest comfort. Don't worry about fixing – be delighted in the giving. You'll find that by being a more loving person you will bring love to yourself. You have absolutely no reason to fear. You have been taken care of even in the face of your greatest fears. You never need anything because you have chosen to serve. You have been shown that all of your clinging to security and worldliness is really in vain. I give because you ask, not because you plan, scheme or worry. Things happen as they are destined to happen. Your world cannot end until you choose it. You must allow Me to do My job so that you can do yours. Let the dark clouds be released.

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Never can your service be fruitless – even in the face of great adversity will you shine and triumph. There is no other option when you aim to serve. You have allowed despair to overtake you – you have allowed fear to overcome you. You see only outward things. You know not what is below the surface.

I see desperate people suffering at the hands of those who have lost focus. The world has clouded their view of reality much as you had allowed the world to overcome you. What a great fall you took so that you could again see clearly. So must it be for others who take for granted those who aim to serve. You are a beacon for those who see no light. Shine forth even when you think you can't. I will care for you as you have cared for others. Know that I AM with you always. Don't allow circumstances to cause you to lose faith. I have brought you far and too quickly have you given up on Me. Again, you have allowed your own eyes to determine your reality. Instead, you should see your circumstances as the necessary corrective path to resolution of problems. Sure, you can run away and who would blame you. But, you can stand and fight and help the innocents deal with making their circumstances bearable. It's not about you – it's about those who have called you forth. You have been given favor in an amazing manner. Be there for Me as My advocate, so that they can know that I AM God and that I have heard their prayers.

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I AM showing you in tidbits how to let go and let God. You have seen that by simply letting go that all you ask for is given. Think about the recent examples. Your eyes are being opened to the reality of possibilities. As never before, you are starting to know that by simply asking that you are shown the way. All of those things that pop into your mind are not your own thoughts, but are My answers to your requests. You have always thought that by your own skill that you were given these ideas. Suddenly, you see that your efforts leave gaps and cause for worry. You are seeing that by allowing Me to perform, you are given the most brilliant solutions. Sure, your efforts are required – you physically have to do what you are told to make it happen. You have to pick up the phone or write the words. But, you don't have to will things into being. Simply let Me guide you. Simply live with the quiet knowing that I AM with you and will not lead you astray. Isn't it odd how by simply seeking you find? Sure, you still try to control, but there is no reason. You are simply the requestor and I AM the facilitator. Realizing that every detail is not so important allows you to let go of its control over you and allows you to be more peaceful. Older people realize that everything works out in the end.

Why are we prisoners of things that will be worthless tomorrow?

Your desires for what you think you want keep you in constant struggle for acquisition and obligation. Once you let go of acquisition desires, you'll no longer be obligated to the mechanisms for attainment. Realize that the car and house keep you obligated to the bank.

We do not have the means of ownership without financing. We have no choice but to be obligated, at least for certain things.

You believe what you see instead of Me! You do not allow Me to make your decisions for you or offer you guidance. There are other options that you have not considered. To own a car does not necessitate that it be a new one. To live in a house does not mean that you must buy it. You may want the biggest house, but it is often more wise to live somewhere affordable. Allow your circumstances to guide your obligations and commitments. Don't buy what you can't afford. Let common sense be your guide.

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The difference between willpower and faith is that willpower is your confidence in you, while faith is your confidence in Me. It's really all the same, but the distinction is made as you do not realize your creative ability. You see yourself as powerless and Me as all powerful. It's another one of the "lay it off on God" games. Then, if it doesn't happen as expected, blame God.

Our belief in our own powerlessness comes from trial and error schemes which more often end in error.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _You doubt because you can't, YET you can't because you doubt._

What does it really take to master mastery?

Ego loss. When the ego is gone, there is nothing left to need or do.

What is the purpose of our having an ego if we are only to dispel it?

Before you were known as you, you were all. You sought to know yourself as an individual so you created the illusion of you. The ego is the driving force behind you. You have free will to do as you please. You can be egocentric or you can be God centric. Ego=self. God=all. Believe Me when I tell you that you will never be satisfied if your goal is selfish. You can only find happiness in the love of all. You've lived the first half of your life serving self, yet you are still unhappy. Let go of ego and let Me show you the way to peace and happiness.

To know how the ego operates does not help diminish its strength. How do we overcome its influence?

Knowing that the ego only produces material goals, one begins to see past its power and begins to realize that materialism comes better when it is a by-product of happiness. Buying a house that you feel obligated to buy does not bring happiness. Buying a house because you love it is a different experience entirely. Working because you have to is far different from working because you choose to. Think about it – happiness begets happiness.

Why are some masters not so affected by the sorrow that they see?

Perception changes everything. As Mother Teresa said, "I see Christ every day in all of His distressing disguises." Of course what she saw as circumstance was distressing, but she looked at the person beneath the disguise and was able to see the spirit of the soul underneath.

How can your heart not be broken when seeing such suffering?

Seeing the person's life as part of their soul's plan will help you to cope with the circumstance that you see.

How do we attain such mastery?

Life is a journey set upon by seekers. Each seeker has an overriding purpose that they have chosen to accomplish in each life. If you are very attuned to your soul, you will be able to realize your life's purpose and fulfill it completely. Remember, your life's purpose is not some abstract thing that I have chosen for you – you have chosen it before you were born into this world. You have written a basic script of your life's goals before birth. As you always somehow know that you are "called" to do something, it is not I who call but your life's script director calling you to serve the purpose of your life. Many people misunderstand this. Let's use the example of Helen Schucman, the scribe of A Course In Miracles. Let's assume, based on the part of her life that we know, we can give her purposeful goals. Maybe she had chosen to: (1)be a writer; (2)be a published author; (3)write one of the most profound books of all times; (4)teach spirituality; (5)become a doctor; etc. Maybe it was a simple goal of serving mankind. She would not have known the means, but she would know that her soul was "called" constantly to do what she did. A person's calling is often misunderstood. I have not called you to do anything. A Course In Miracles states many times, "You need do nothing." But you have given a script overview and it is followed so that you will experience that which you have called forth.

When we hear God calling, it's just a reminder to get back on track?

Pretty much.

How do we know that it is God calling and not some flashy desire teasing us?

On some deeper level, you know. It is never a passing fancy. It's a life choice that you cannot deny.

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You will need gratitude and hope to carry you through your purposeful walk into your path of purpose. But, as much as the hard work is worth it when you are pleased about what you are doing, the tasks will not be difficult but rewarding. It will be great to finally feel fulfilled and excited with the work you are doing. It is with great pleasure that you will be met by those who so desperately need you and what you have to offer. Go joyfully onward and enjoy the ride. Look forward to what is ahead, standing ready to face the challenges and self imposed fears. Go forward boldly to meet the rising sun that is the dawning of your purposeful fulfillment. Never have you even dared to dream of what is about to happen. It will surpass even your wildest dreams and expectations. The life that you have chosen is at hand and you are now entering the phase known as fulfillment. Never again will you have to worry or fear for what you shall do or say or that you will face rejection. Know that you walk in My light and I will never again let that light dim. It is not in your best interest or Mine and more so those who await your presence. You will feel My strength and know that you are on the right path. At last – the wait is over and the path has opened to you. Live, love and laugh.

All things go according to plan and things must happen in an orderly fashion. If all pieces are not in place, the puzzle will not and can not be revealed. Like many chance meetings in life are ignored or discounted. One knows not the purpose of the chance meeting, but it is almost certain that it has a purpose.

Remember that Jesus wasn't all that liked during His life. After His death, He became an icon for the ages. The trials leading to fulfillment are great. Just as Christ Himself suffered greatly before He was resurrected, the resurrection would not have happened without the crucifixion.

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Inspiration is the key. Focus toward the future – your second act is at hand. Look toward your goals – never look back. There is nothing to see behind you. Always look forward. What is it that you want? Decide, choose, and act. Remember that it isn't a place but is a journey. Your soul craves peace and purpose. If you do not enjoy what you are doing – choose something different. If you cannot enjoy where you are, go somewhere else. You are not stuck where you are. You are not held in any situation. Choose freely and go accordingly. Know that if you choose for the wrong reasons you are destined to be unhappy. Choose for the right reason and things will fall into place.

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Just as Santa Claus is really only the generosity of others, so is God. But God is much larger and all encompassing. There are no borders or limits.

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The light of life, joy and happiness is the light that you are to see. Don't see life as what you know, but as what you don't know. Realize your connection to source – hear My words and only follow them. Don't be tossed about by what you see and hear in the world. Know that I AM the way – only I can lead you to where you shall be and choose to be. You feel the separation – the distinction of you from all that you have known. Realize that you are not a prisoner to what you see, but are free to live beyond the known. You are free to experience that which till now has been unknown to you. You are not what you see – you are far above what your fear keeps you in. You are boundless and free and able to experience all that you desire. See life differently – see life as merely for your experience and its hold over you will be lessened. See that life is not for what you can accomplish, but for what you are. Let yourself be you – don't ever again see yourself as your circumstance. Lift yourself up and be whole. You are nothing less than magnificent and nothing is beyond your reach.

All things happen for a reason – if you were rich and successful, I assure you we wouldn't be having this interaction.

What is the difference between a goal and an expectation?

Goals are things that you wish to achieve. Expectations are results which you determine as the desired outcome. Your goal for your life is one thing, but your expectations are quite another. If your life's goal is spiritual maturity, then you have not expected that it will happen but will work towards it. If you expect spiritual maturity, then you'll be disappointed with anything less. Expectations are conditions.

Your efforts to be what you think others expect of you have caused you to drown in misery. It's high time that you stop choosing for others and choose for yourself. You must decide to take off the perceived comfort of others and seek only the comfort of self. You must be you or you will surely drown ever more in your misery.

Let's look at where you're headed and away from what you know and on to the uncharted waters of your fulfillment. Like others before you, you just have to swim toward the direction of your spirit's guidance.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _If you don't love it, lose it._

This is much easier said than done, especially with all of the demands of life.

This is true, but to yearn for something better is to not necessarily behave irresponsibly. Look to find a way to make your dreams come true. Seek and you shall find. Know that not all things happen instantly, so don't set yourself up for disappointment. You can choose to change your life instantly, but the changes won't necessarily be what you think you've chosen. There are many possibilities that come in to play in any scenario, so don't assume that you can make an adequate judgment based on what you think you know. Always seek guidance and be open and honest with yourself. Allow yourself to be led to where you shall go – don't try to force results. Most of life is beyond the scope of your vision, so allow true vision to guide the steps of your life.
**Chapter 5 – Wisdom**

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How many gifts are given, yet unappreciated? I know of your struggles to understand. Wisdom comes from within and only the will to learn need be had. Wisdom is not for the wise, but for those who seek. It is worthless for the wise for they already have it. If you wish to know and grow, be open to the possibility. Put your focus on the larger issues of life and don't wallow in the details. Life is lost in the details. Put aside life issues and focus on the love in the moment. Only by doing this, will you find the happiness that you desire.

Of course, you will say that you can't put aside life until you have security. Let's just say that such security isn't possible in this life except through Me. You can spend your time focused on what you see or what you feel. Remember it's all in the choosing – you can choose to be happy or sad about anything. You can choose to be optimistic or pessimistic, negative or positive. Choose what you will.

You still don't have the capacity to control your thoughts or behavior. You are still very reactionary. You let others control you, as you see them more important. Are they? Or are they just as you are? You must regain your focus and love yourself. You are important also. Don't discount yourself to the point that you are resentful of others. Spend more time contemplating your happiness and the direction of your life. Think about what it is that will truly make you happy. Don't be selfish – be equal. Don't value the opinions of others more than your own. Just as too much pride is not good, low self esteem is equally not good. You must establish the balance that your life needs.

And yes, you have asked for My help, but have not seen that it is given. If it doesn't come in the form that you expect, then you feel that it didn't come. Know that I know and have everything under control.

Why are there so many pitfalls in the life experience?

Pitfalls are what keep it interesting. When you first learned to ride a bicycle with training wheels, it was ok for a while. Then you couldn't wait to ride without them. It was boring to ride with them as they limited the ride experience. Then the thrill starts over – the fear, the thrill, and the scary ride without training wheels. Then, it soon gets boring again and you seek to find a new thrill. You try letting go of the handle bars – what a rush! The cycle continues. It is much the same with life. You try everything until the final challenge is to choose life or death. Death is the ultimate "walk on the wild side" for those who live. To take the leap into the unknown is last thrill on the ride of life.

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See that the clouds have parted and that the way is being shown. You will see clearly now that I AM in control just as you have asked. I will lead you on the path to your greatest happiness and dream fulfillment. Let no other option enter your mind. We have no more time to waste.

Give all that you can and leave the driving to Me. I know that your disbelief is strong, but you feel neglected and abandoned. This is not good for you or for Me, even if you needed the quiet growth period. You've heard it so many times recently – the dry season or dark season is a period of growth. You are not as ready as you think. You still have so little faith. You do remind Me of My commitment to strengthen your faith. You know very well that I AM with you always. You still blame Me for letting you experience bad things. Remember that your fears are overcome by misery. You don't move without sufficient misery to cause you to feel that you have nothing left to lose.

It is hard to see the light when darkness seems all around. Never in a million years would we have imagined the current circumstance.

Put aside fear and hear My words. Be no longer in the wilderness. Follow My lead and go where I take you. See with My eyes and know that I AM in control. No more feel that you are alone and desperate to seek your own means for serving your purpose. Lift up your eyes to Me and I will show you what you need to see. There is no more time in the valley – all of your days will be atop the highest spiritual and mental peaks. Don't even imagine that you are less than you are. Meager circumstances are yours no more. Today is the day that I have made and you are in My image and My verbal character. You will not rest until our purpose is fully served. Mediocrity is yours no more. Heaviness of heart will be the strangest thing to you. You will love with all that there is to love. Choose life and let your light burn brightly. Show others the miracles of your life and My guidance to your fulfillment. Think not of what is wrong – think of all that is right. Think of serving your purpose and so it shall be. If I were walking today, I would look like you. Despair no more that it is even possible that you are not by Me sent to serve the masses. Think that your guidance is My guidance and you can be nothing but perfect, even as I AM perfect. The world is not your nemesis, but your vehicle on which you travel for Me.

See your circumstances miraculously change according to your desires. See the marvelous miracles shown as a witness to My love and direction. See that I have not neglected you nor have I left you to wallow in the misery of your making. Know that I AM God and I go with you every step of the way. Don't let the past even enter your mind. Know that only fun, love and happiness are your destiny. Go forth each day knowing that only success, as you see it, is yours. Don't underestimate your power. I have not left you under the control of those who seek to belittle you. I AM God and you have chosen to serve our purpose. You cannot fail, even as I have shown you the illusion of failure. Go forth. I will tell you every step to take so that you will know that you are on My path.

If you will learn perfect communication and Oneness, then you will know nothing else. You really want a flow chart of actions based on your logic. Things are rarely as you see them. Your perceptions are not necessarily the perceptions of others.

Life will certainly be met with conflict from those who do not see things as you do. Know that success comes from doing for and being Me. Do as I tell you and stand your ground knowing that you cannot fail. If you follow My direction, your success must happen. Rest assured that your happiness comes from My purposeful fulfillment. Think of those who need to hear from Me. Think of all those who say their prayers and say Amen. That's it. Hearing My voice is difficult for a strong person and almost impossible for a weak one. You know how much trouble you have believing, even when you know that I'm here with you.

Weren't you grateful to learn that I speak to all who listen? Not everyone reads and fewer understand. Explain the concept of Oneness to a person who has very limited experience. Think of it. It's a tough concept for the learned and useless to those who have never even considered the possibility that I might speak freely. Most religious people in the world believe that they must have an intermediary to talk to Me. They are worshipping saints while I'm hanging out watching. Of course, Mary hears their prayers just as I do. But her purpose is different from mine. Of course all are One – God.

I sent Jesus and others like Him to demonstrate that God is alive and well. It really matters not to whom you pray, as all are one. God hears all prayers and knows the true hearts of all of His creations. We should not be more inclined to favor one religion over another. Religion is not the point of God awareness – God needs no religion.

Just as you are spirit, you are Me. All spirits come from one source and one is not different from the other. The worldly disguises of our outward appearances cause us to consider this – if we remove the body, then what difference could be seen? None! Without skin and bones, you are exactly like everyone else.

Teach that the purpose of life on earth is purely to experience. A spirit cannot feel. God cannot smell a flower, so you smell for Him. Teach that love is all there is. Teach that every action is right and good for the person, but not always for the whole. We must love each other as ourselves. Only then will we make life better.

Selfishness is a product of our separate perceptions. Consider how we feel entitled to the best parking place and to heck with all others? How much nicer would life be if we saw ourselves as part of the whole? Don't narrow yourselves into being one, rather be part of all. You are limited by the perception of isolation. By joining with others, you gain strength and power. "Where any two are gathered together so am I." (Matthew 18:20 NAS) One loving person is good. Many loving people are great. Millions of loving people are unstoppable. There is truly strength in numbers.

How weak do we feel when alone? Magnify the effect by all people on earth. Guess what? You've got the current mess. Add to this that there is no immediate interaction of God. What's a person to believe? It is as with you – people return to God quest after all else has failed. The internal yearning leads to only the unknown for answers after all else has failed to give peace. After people have used all of their efforts and still can't find happiness, it is only then that the possibility of something greater floats up. After all the promotions and child rearing are done, there has to be another attraction. It is only then, after all other distractions are gone that the mind turns to the other worlds. There must be something more...

Much time is wasted in the idle pursuits of happiness within the mere mortal. But after much effort, there still exists the need for something more. All of life, if seen as all there is, leaves a person feeling disappointed in the grand scheme – man needs to know more and to understand why.

Of course, the search starts earlier for some who have the benefit of parental spiritual guidance. It is easier to return to the previously known. There are those who, based on their previous learning, are much harder to convince. The quest continues for those who are seeking to find the reason for all of this. It is beyond man's comprehension that we are only here for a time with no other purpose. Why create something for it to simply die and leave no lasting impression. God would not be so shortsighted.

The recent fascination with the make up of matter leads scientists back to the quest for God. When all other explanations fail to yield answers, there is only the unknown left to examine. After all is said and done, all roads lead back to God. Mankind cannot find any other solutions and thus the existence of God keeps its stronghold on all of history. There is something that simply drives man to this conclusion despite his best efforts to dispel the theory. Man would love to give mankind credit, but so far has been unable.

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Not every desire is equal – purpose matters. Just wanting something for which you have no use does not necessarily move the universe. A purpose that seeks to serve the many does carry more weight by virtue of the combined wills of those who see the use of the purpose. Look at the recent disasters – would your need to clean up a water spill equate to the need to clean up a county after a flood? The desires of one are outweighed by the needs of many. Don't be too quick to discount the desires of one that can fall into the needs of many. If many people need one person to get something and there were many others who could incidentally benefit, why would it not happen?

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Seek to be the God that will make you happy. Mastery is realizing that you are an actor on a stage and that you are merely playing a role. How you play the role or the importance that you give the role is the God that you choose to be. Certainly you cannot control the other actors in the play. So, you must choose what you can do to be happy with the role you are playing. Imagine a soap opera, "As God turns..." You are the lead actor in the play, or actually all actors are the lead actors, each vying for prominence over the others. Your experience, from where you stand, is your own unique creation. If you choose to stand in the background and let the others take front stage, then it shall be. If you choose to vie for center stage, know that there will be competition for the post. This will then be your experience.

Does the winner always have the best ability? No. Does the loser always have the least talent? No. Desire and determination are part of the experience, but certainly not always the deciding factor. If the rules were hard and fast, would there be any mystery? Would you even bother to test for the part? If you knew all of the answers, what would attract your attention and entice you to participate?

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Consider your life review after death. What would the experience be? Without the need to worry or plan, it would be different on all levels. You would evaluate your experiences based on the circumstances given. You evaluate your behaviors and reactions to situations. Yes, most people behave well during good times, but during times of suffering, it is then that you can assess your true nature. As you've learned, there is no right or wrong from My vantage point. What a soul experiences is put in light of what the soul wished to experience. Maybe the soul wanted to know what it was like to have children. So be it. As you know, children are not without suffering. But having gone through the suffering, one can now know what it feels like to be a parent – good and bad. Maybe the soul wanted to experience the greatest love humanly possible – this is with a child. The reasons are varied and personal and may not make sense to others. This is why the game of life is so realistic and fulfilling. At the time, you actually believe that it is real. Playing pretend doesn't carry the same weight as reality. Picture yourself as a character in a video game. When the game is over, you evaluate your performance. Certainly, the next game will be different – you don't want to lose again in the same way.

If it's only a game, why is so much invested in it?

Without investment, the experience wouldn't seem so full. You don't want some uninteresting game without any investment. It wouldn't be worth playing. Half hearted play is not worthy of the game. Besides, you are developing your soul – not winning the world. Separate life from your "real" self and the game will be more rewarding. If you see life as all there is, you'll be too vested to enjoy it. Are you here for what you can get from life or for the benefits of the soul? Will what happened at the office matter when you die? No – absolutely not. Don't invest more than it is worth. Live to enjoy the experience.

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You have asked about determining or knowing you "calling." How can a person be certain given so much evidence to the contrary? They are all valid questions for you to explore. Surely, the examples of others provide great insight. There are stacks upon stacks of books written on the subject. However, knowing can only come from within. No one or nothing has your answer for you. You must know that you know.

Look within your own "calling" for the answer. Was it real for you? Was it like knitting or any other hobby? Or was it something more powerful than any other inspiration that you have had? Does it stop or go away?

No, it does not go away. It's like an obsession. We can't find peace anywhere until we do what we're sent to do.

Then surely you must know that there is something that you are called to do and that it is a true calling. Just because you are called, does not mean that things will seem easy. You still fight the process and expect that all will flow effortlessly into the perfect life that you imagine. Jesus was called, but did not have such an easy time of it. Certainly, you cannot fail to accomplish your mission as you are called. Have faith that the process will unfold exactly according to plan and that you cannot miss your destiny. For some, knitting is their calling, if it is a means for helping others. A calling is for the benefit of others – it is never a selfish purpose. To be naturally gifted at knitting is also no guarantee that knitting is your calling. A calling is a means of service to others and can be done as is most beneficial for those whom you are to serve. To teach knitting to those who benefit is a means of service. To knit sweaters for those who have none is a means of service. Don't look at the knitting for the answer to your calling – look to the service that it provides others. In this, your calling will be known.

But how do we know that we have a calling and are not just providing a useful service?

To serve food in a restaurant is not necessarily a calling. To serve customers can very well be. Look for a calling in light of the spiritual aspect rather than the physical. Does the service that you provide offer any spiritual benefit to others? To serve food to the starving can have untold spiritual benefits. Especially, if those served in turn serve others. Look for the deeper purpose of what you are doing or seek to do. To write books is rewarding, but hardly of itself a worthy spiritual calling. To write books for the benefit of others' spiritual growth can be a spiritual calling. The books are actually secondary to the primary purpose of helping others know God. Do you see the difference?

Does a calling have to be of a spiritual nature?

Spiritual can mean many different things to many different people. If you bring peace to another, this is a spiritual calling. If you bring forth a product that eases the suffering of others, then this too is a spiritual calling. What is of the spirit is often an effect rather than a cause. Consider that many are helped by simply reading magazines. To sit with a magazine brings peace and joy to many. Is your calling the magazine or the peace?

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You have asked so many times why it is that you must wait for so long to have your dreams fulfilled. Let me put it simply for your ease of understanding. If you were to be able to instantly go from the age ten to age fifty, what would be your basis of understanding? How would you perceive things differently than you do now? You have not seen that every minute of your life compounds to make you what you are and your experiences are part of your very make up. How you see things is based on your past. You are the culmination of all that you have experienced. So, if your path were changed by even one minute detail, then you would have a different experience ahead. Don't let your shortsightedness cause you to discount even one of your moments spent "waiting" for your fulfillment. Each moment will make the fulfillment perfect as it should be.

Consider also that if things are perfectly timed, would it not stand to reason that bringing something to light early would cause it to be imperfect? Let's take the example of those who win the lottery before they are fully prepared for the experience. Most lottery winners end up poor because they do not know how to handle the sudden wealth. There are unseen complexities in life which must be taken into account. Just as a ten year old cannot handle well sudden fame and fortune, how can the unprepared handle fame and fortune regardless of age? To be settled and well prepared is extremely important. How can you know that you are ready for what is ahead? Perhaps the greatest movie ever filmed had come out before its audience was prepared. Would this not be a huge mistake for all persons involved? So, don't seek to rush into something for which you are not fully prepared. If you are waiting, it is for a reason. Have faith in the perfection of the process.

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Man seeks to know the root cause for everything. He seeks to understand the intricate workings of the universe that he may find that for which he seeks. Somehow he knows that something caused the beginning and from this beginning did come all things. But in his quest for understanding, using his known means, he finds himself coming again and again to the same point of mystery. Who or what caused the existence of the elements which caused the Big Bang Theory? Man has settled on the belief that life began at this point without the realistic expectation that nothing ever generates from nothing. Before the big bang, there had to be something predicating the explosion. Man, in his quest to be all knowing, while disputing the Creationism Theory, has settled on a less than plausible theory of the beginning of time. Were you to explain away God, then man would suddenly hit center stage. Who would then take the blame for everything bad?

If God can't shift the blame as good as any man, then "I'll be a monkey's uncle."

An amusing analogy, I must say. If you believe in evolution, you are a monkey's uncle. Is one theory really any better than the other? You attach the credentials of scientists to one and perceive it to be better. Trust Me when I tell you that man's best wisdom is no where near true wisdom, and all of his theories pale in comparison to the wisdom of the universe. Man would be better served focusing on the better aspects of life than on trying to disprove the existence of God. This is really the root of all the research and theories – man seeks to hold himself in higher esteem than he warrants. Man cannot even create the simplest thing from nothing, yet he is so egotistical as to imagine that he can understand the origin of all being.

A child does not care how he was created or from whence he came. He merely knows that he is and needs attention. As he grows, he begins to explore life's creations – where did he come from, where did everything come from, etc. All questions lead to the unknown creator, that which some call God, Source, etc. Were you to be able to explain away the Creator, man would see himself as the mastermind of the universe. The ego seeks to give rise to itself by the destruction of the true Creator.

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Make your choices consciously, determined and fully intentional. Granted, your choices are always affected by others. If you see someone who's attractive and you choose to marry them, understand that by your choosing, the choices of others are involved. The chosen person must come into the same choice and you must realize that the person may not be as you had imagined. They may be beautiful on the outside and be a horror on the inside. You may actually not like the inner person at all. Then, of course, it would be My fault for having sent you such a poor choice for marriage. It always falls back into My court.

We see your point and it is well taken; however, we have limited views of life with which to make choices.

Then don't make life altering choices without utilizing all available resources.

Mind control is like life control. That surely takes the fun out of it.

It also lessens the disappointments. Choose proactively not reactively. Your life is very much like a pinball – bouncing around making choices based on the actions of others. Why should the choices of others rule your life?

You have to play the hand you are dealt.

No, you deal the cards – you are in charge of your life. Others only have the power that you give them. Stop letting others rule your life.

It is my experience that this is easier said than done. We don't live on a deserted island.

Even if you did, you either choose to lead or follow. You have followed yourself into great unhappiness. Stop it now! You have imagined that you are powerless. You are living behind the power curve. You need to make the wave and not settle on riding the wave.

How do we do this?

Choose wisely and intentionally. Do not be swayed by the actions of others. Live without failure decide, choose, and make it happen.

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I assure you that everything happens at just the right time. Hindsight will reveal this to you, if you look at the whole picture. Seeing partial frames of your life will only show you a piece of the puzzle. Once you see the big picture, the mosaic will come into focus and you will see the beauty of every little detail. It's the parts that make the car. A car is not one thing, but is a magnificent compilation of thousands of parts. If one part is missing, then somehow the car is just not the same.

If Mother Teresa was given lots of money, would she or her experience have been changed?

It depends on the time of its occurrence in her life. Once she had realized that lots of money is meaningless to her fulfillment, she would not be moved by the experience. She would have put it in the offering plate and been completely unchanged. But, in her earlier/learning years, she may have been altered by the experience or maybe not. It is much easier to be swayed while young. Once you realize that lots of money won't alter life very much, then you take it more in stride.

Sure, like winning the lottery after you're dead. Not much fun in that.

Dying itself is far greater than winning the lottery and you won't be inclined to come back to claim your prize.

But how changed could a life be by winning the lottery?

It really depends on the person. Look at the one who blows it all on flash and fast fun. Sure, they had fun while it lasted, but there is only misery to follow. Of course, it'll be My fault for letting them blow their money. I should have stopped them. There are so many people today striking it rich with so little effort that they have no appreciation for what they have. Like water through their fingers will it go and leave behind great regrets.

**Chapter 6 - Soul Searching**

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Remember that all of life is a growth process. Think about how you went from nurtured to nurturing? Cut the cord as you always say. Stand on your own two feet, even if wobbly at first. Have faith – you have a firm foundation and all the knowledge needed to proceed. Regardless of how you view "who's in control," the results are the same. Nothing changes except perception.

If everything is simply perception, why waste all of the effort?

In one sense it is a waste. But, being taught by the unknown keeps you in the dark. You have to unlearn what you were taught so that you can fully understand how things are. Much time and effort are wasted – all with good intentions.

What do we really gain from this experience that we call life?

Experience. Soul searching is a worthy cause. Perfection doesn't cause you to know perfection. You must experience imperfection to realize that perfection is all the rage.

What if there seems to be a great disparity between what we have chosen and what we believe we have chosen?

Then you must take a good look at the situation and ascertain the root reason for what you are experiencing. Granted, sometimes only hindsight will allow you to see things clearly. It is frustrating on life's journey to try to learn and understand things with maturity while feeling nothing but lost during the transition/learning process. Many do lose hope - there aren't many books about those who sought and quit. You don't read many books which end with failure and defeat. Hope springs eternal. If one wanted to give up – why sit down and write about it? Who cares if not the person? Why bother? If a person were finally through with spiritual pursuits, why then sit down and write about the failure. No such stores are on the best seller lists. Most are on the lists of classics. There are some really depressing books on the classics lists.

Let's look back over someone's life of interest to you. Playing their life movie backward would be very revealing and you would be able to understand their true motives. Just as with your life – play it back and you will see many reasons for your choices.

But still there would be much hidden from our understanding.

You know how it's easier to see what someone else is doing wrong? It's much the same. Look at your life from My perspective. It should be good for a laugh – and you will laugh at yourself. If you see your life as a house being built, it is a process of building blocks set just so. Of course, there are sometimes bad designs, but you'll be able to correct mistakes as needed. Let's say that you felt confident that pvc plumbing was the most cost effective material for your house. After a few leaks, you may start to think that copper would have been a better choice. If your leaks continue, you'll have to do something – either patch or replace. Now, after a few patches don't work, you realize that now you must replace your plumbing – partially or completely. You're cheap, so you do a partial replacement. Soon, more leaks crop up and you finally realize that you must complete the full replacement. Nothing less will do. Your spiritual house building is much the same. Your leaks cause you to continue fixing. Were it not for the leaks, you'd be right where you were. It is not satisfaction which motivates us, but misery.

Ok, so now we're like a house – can we interject the Jesus as carpenter analogy for good measure?

Of course, assuming you can afford to hire a carpenter.

Let's assume so – for the record. Why not let Jesus build my house?

Do you want to live in Jesus' house or your own?

As a spiritual house, He seemed complete.

If Jesus built your spiritual house, could you live in it?

Oh no, we're not prepared.

So, you need to build your house at your own pace so that you can live comfortably in it.

We see your point – but our house is not what we would choose. It's what we did with what we had.

And so it is with you. How many times do you repeat the same mistake?

Apparently too many.

Yes, you do put a great deal of thought into your actions.

It's our detail orientation – always looking for cracks in the masonry.

Yes, details are important, but then by the same token can be suffocating. You can't enjoy your house if you are always looking for cracks in the masonry.

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Fear is a thrill – thrill seekers do things in the name of fun which produce fear. Roller coaster and skydiving – thrill induced by fear. What a rush! You never feel more alive than when you are afraid.

I'm a little confused on the choosing issue. You say we choose, but it would seem that everything is beyond our control.

Let's say that time counts on earth. Tuesday you choose enlightenment, but on Thursday you choose ignorance. While the universe is conjuring up with number one, you change to wish number two. The universe is trying to keep up with you. Instant manifestation just isn't possible here without a great deal of attention and will. You will change like the weather and so do your desires.

Further, your desires do not take into account all involved factors. Let's say that you choose skydiving as a hobby. Did you really consider the "downside" to skydiving? Did it really ever occur to you that you may actually die? Nah, you see the fun part and don't factor in the not so fun part. So, if your true choice is not to die yet, then perhaps you will not find a way to skydive. There's so much more to life's choices than you realize. So, don't have regrets about the way that your life is working out. Go with the flow and know that the universal choices have been made already.

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There is no such thing as coincidence and everything happens for a reason. The reading about asking is about clarity of mind as the most important element to accurate hearing. If you focus on this, you will soon understand that your expectations affect your answers, even if unknowingly. Focus on a desired outcome; ask for guidance and naturally your answer will somehow be skewed toward the desire.

So how do we let go of expectations and desires?

We've talked before about desired end results and specifics. How you get to the end and where the end is – these two are vastly different concepts. As with all learning – the end does to necessarily justify the means. So you want to be a millionaire? You can do this in many different ways. Honestly or criminally, slowly or rapidly. What are you willing to do? The variables are practically endless. But if you ask Me to show you the way to becoming a millionaire and listen sincerely without expectations of specifics, surely you will get the best answer. If you ask the same thing and specify time periods and dates, surely you are asking a much different question. If you ask how to become a best selling author and teacher without expectation, you might be surprised by the answer. Remember, you do not know who you'll meet on the way to your destination. There is also a difference between prayers for results and prayers for direction.

Oh how complicated this has become. Will we learn to ask and listen effectively?

Trust and faith have much weight in the process. If you doubt, then clouds form over your hearing. Think of desired outcomes and be willing to let them go in favor of better outcomes. Remember always that My outcomes are far better than your outcomes. You must trust that I know better than you.

Let's focus on clarity. Let's begin to imagine that perfect communication is possible. Get yourself into the proper mindset and then ask earnestly for clarity. God is never wrong – so you know that something is missing. Perhaps it is focus or the lack thereof.

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Manifesting is a broad based concept – it's not about getting your way or wishing for meaningless things. Imagine that you intend to manifest your purpose in life. Imagine conversely that you intend to manifest control over another person. Which scenerio applies expectation and which is likely to bring truly desired results? Intention is a broad based term. Imagine desire as a large immovable object. You always keep bumping into it. You can't get around it or change your mind about it. It's always there. Now, you know that there is a difference between a want and a desire (see desire as deeply felt and want as a more surface hankering.) What you truly desire, you will experience. What you want really matters not. Don't focus on wants. Focus on your innermost desires. Your innermost desires are what God has no choice but to give you. Your innermost purpose or calling cannot be denied. If you are called to be My teacher, you will see the day when this happens. This is something on which you can have absolute faith. Base your faith on the knowns.

How do we know for sure the "knowns?"

In your heart of hearts, at your very core you know.

We find that God, in your experience is not reliable. When we depend on God, we are usually left holding an empty bag. It seems that when we trust in God, we are always left to wait even for no apparent reason. Perhaps all of it stems from our own misunderstanding of God and how God works. We can't seem to develop a trust in God that truly allows us to let go and let God.

_I have come at last to clearly address My self to you per your request. I do not wish for you to continue to be mad at Me. Let's go first to your issues with My reliability. God is not a "wish granting machine" as has been portrayed or as has been conveyed delusionally to the masses. Let's go to trust. You really don't trust anyone, so I'm no different. Let's go to waiting. You are impatient and have never truly waited upon the Lord._ _You have stated, waited and acted_ _. That's your prayer life._

You try to make God your infinite supply of stuff. You have completely missed any experience of God. Truly you do believe that you are God, that you do rule our destiny. You don't allow anyone else to even get in the game. You make up your mind about things and go accordingly. You keep hitting the wall of your own building. You don't really believe in God. That's the root of it all.

What have you shown us but that we are the creators of all that we see? Is this not the same thing? If we make everything, what does God do?

See, you really don't believe in the God that you so profess to follow.

We admit that we have tried earnestly to find God, but God keeps eluding us.

Is it Me that you want to know or you with God's powers?

Whatever is real. We don't choose to walk in darkness anymore. Show us the light.

I'm trying, but you suppose that you do not already see the light, at least partially. You see the parts that you can rationalize in your "blessed" mind. It is your leader and your guiding light. You do not allow yourself to see outside of your mind. You do not allow yourself to feel My presence. The power of now is presence – My presence.

But we don't ever seem to be connected with any sort of confidence. Why do we have such difficulty - or perceive that we have such distance from God?

It's all about perception. It's about your seeing yourself as separate. Foremost, you see that you are not worthy to be God, even though you are forever assuming the role of God in your life. Talk about the causes of your confusion - how could you not be? You are caught between your beliefs in having to control your destiny and wanting to do God's will. You fight the most difficult battle – the battle within your mind against God. But, God always floats back to the top. Then, when you are feeling confident that God is in charge, you see that nothing happens. Therefore, there is no God and your mind kicks back into action. And the battle rages on and on. God may not work but your mind surely does. Go with what works. You can control your actions, you can see your actions, and therefore your actions are what you can count on. But, you have that nagging knowing that your actions are based on what you think is best, which causes you misery. So again, you conclude that there must be a better way. You turn back to God and the cycle continues.

Yes, this is very correct and perfectly explained.

Thank you. That was My goal. There really is no mystery. You know what is going on. You just can't seem to reconcile the flesh with the spirit. You can't make God behave in a predictable fashion like your mind does. That's what causes you grief. Instead of either one or the other, you try to make both rational in your mind. God cannot be rationalized. Give up trying because it isn't going To happen. Your mind cannot think on the level of God. You can't even imagine the possibilities. You want life to work according to your plans and it never will. Let it go. Planning is futile.

But aren't we supposed to plan for the future?

At what point can you control what happens next? Haven't you seen enough evidence to help you realize that your best plans are but futile attempts at being God?

But you said that we are God and should act as if we are.

Yes, act like God, not like "God, the human." You limit God by trying to make God human.

But don't we alienate ourselves from God when we picture God in heaven far beyond our grasp?

Picture God in all things, not isolated in heaven, as you have been taught.

Why does God move so slowly?

It's all relative. You do not see all that transpires in an instant. Therefore, you can only judge timing based on your limited perspective. Look at the actions for even a minute going on in the world around you. Do you imagine that nothing happens quickly? Neither do you consider your lack of preparation or your actual best interests. You want what you want when you want it. You do not realize the enormity of all that happens around you. As you will fully come to understand, all of life affects all of life. All things are perfectly timed and you must simply have faith and believe.

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The one most important thing for people to do is explore "who am I?" Only by asking this question sincerely can you arrive at the cornerstone of your lives. You will never leave the starting blocks of spiritual growth until you realize that you are. It is not necessary that you spend a great deal of time on the matter, but be sincere in your seeking. Once you have realized your true self, you can then make meaningful choices about your life. Ask yourself: "what am I; what motivates me; what is my purpose; how are you different from God; what would you do differently; what is stopping me from fulfilling my dreams?" These are but a few questions that need to be asked on your way to self discovery.

What if you were just a few classes away from your dreams? One small step can change your whole perspective on life. Life altering choices need not be so very complicated. Seeing yourself as pure potential can change your life almost instantly. Let's say that you are the typical person who makes a quick stop at the store on the way home for some snack food for your television watching time at home. Consider why you sit in front of the television. Is it not quiet resolution to the prison cell of life? Imagine that you could break free from your prison. What would you rather be doing? Remember that you are the primary jailer in your prison, so don't assume by running away that you will solve your problems. You have a chosen as you have for reasons that are yours. What small steps could you take to vastly alter your life in the time that you now spend wasting time?

Would not your time be better spent in learning something new or taking a class or helping out others? If you really want to change your life, then make the decision to do something different. As the saying goes, "Do what you've always done and get what you've always gotten." Even one thing done differently will change your life. There has never been greater opportunity for education than now. Certainly, there may not be an easy way, but if you are determined, there is a way. Do not keep yourself in your mental prison, unless that is your dream.

A change may simply come from quiet contemplation under a tree. Read a book. Take up a hobby. There are so many choices in life. Simply taking a different route home from work will change your perspective.

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Don't let life distract you from your chosen purpose. Feel it – receive it – call it forth. There is only one message to focus on – finding God. Study the possible avenues to this goal. Be able to teach that God can only be found within. Rituals and practices will not bring God to you. God can no be conjured up in a magic spell. He can not be forced by threats or enticement. God can only be found within. Learn the lessons of finding God by the only means possible. Think of those who, like you, have looked for God in all the wrong places. Think of all the desperate searching that could have been avoided if you had been taught early in your life. Dispel the rumors, undo the teachings, and forego the mysteries. God chooses to be known by His children. No longer will I allow My love to be hidden in plain sight, so that only a few can claim to have been touched by God's love. Speak to the person on the back row, who is holding their head down in despair. Tell them of your search. Show them the light and where to find it. It is not in books or churches. Show My lost soul on the back row that God has heard their cry and has come to show them His love and kindness. Offer them the choice to know Me or not.

Yours is not to say "Do this or do that," but to give the tools with which, if they choose, they can know God as He truly is. No more will they be beholden to the few who claim to be able to bring them to God. They will know that they may freely choose to know God or not. You are only the teacher. Think of how your life could have been different if you had been told this at age twenty. By this simple message, God's love is spread. The Golden Rule is the main tool and the lessons about forgiveness and unselfishness will be the backups. Tell them that by looking back or blaming others, you can not move forward. If you choose to know God, invite Him in. Be open and willing to answer the call. Love is all there is. Choose your alter – to the spirit or the ego. Teach of the evils of the ego. Make My children aware of their own self destructive tendencies. Teach them that the enemy is within, not without. Demonstrate always the love and kindness that you have been shown. Remember, My children are lost. Help them find their way.

Be always My example. If you show people that you are with them and love them, they will reward you with joys beyond belief. Be not concerned with how or when, I'll take you there.

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As you have asked, you are shown. It is difficult to extract true meaning from a stack of words. It is harder trying to use words to convey descriptions of things indescribable. But, I'll show you the light. I'll even give you the shortcut version. You should wait no more. Your persistence has been rewarded. Your sincerity gives you what you seek. Mastery is not as mystical as you think. It is really very simple and you have seen glimpses of its truth, but have never been able to make the leap from knowledge to your reality. Making a sandwich is different than knowing how. The mysteries of life are reserved for those (1) who choose to serve God completely, (2) have good self control, and (3) genuinely seek to know God as self. God can not go around handing out life altering power knowledge in a manner that will unfairly alter life for others. It would be like passing out guns in kindergarten. This is not beneficial as you can imagine. So God chooses to reveal self to those who are prepared. Give guns to those who have mastered their proper use and respect of their power. If God handed out guns to everyone, might this unfairly affect free will?

Surely, we cannot equate guns with full creative power. All are given the same creativity, but not all are shown the secrets of use. Jesus said that we could do what He could do, but He only gave hints at practical application. You are told that belief in the power is the secret to use. But, this does work only for the very few. The real secrets are not revealed to the unprepared. Jesus had a little more backup info than He revealed. There is really more to it than you have found mass dispensed. Remember, things are more complicated than they appear on the surface. Yogananda said that things were revealed to Him that he could not share. He was honest and knew that it is best if all is not known by all. Think of terrorists who do great damage without using God's power. A car bomb is not a comparison, but you get the point.

So if you choose to know the secrets of the masters, you will not be allowed to share the information. Do you know this to be true?

Yes, we fully understand. We pray that we are deemed worthy to know.

You are worthy, but you will never be allowed to write down what is revealed to you. You will keep the well guarded secret. It is not a secret kept from man, it is a secret that only revealed individually when a person can accept it properly. Know that man will take advantage and misuse something out of his ignorance of his destructive power. All will know in due time.

We have always felt that there were secrets held that could be learned. We could not put our fingers on it and have only recently come to realize that it is given to some and not to others.

It's all part of the soul's destiny. The spiritual progression is perfectly set to give knowledge as it is most useful and appreciated. There are those who have gifts that they use but they don't really understand the intricate workings. Faith healers do not really heal by faith. They simply allow their powers to work without knowing how. This is possible. Man rarely realizes that he can heal just as perfectly as God Himself. It is man's unbelief in his own power which produces the greatest obstacles to manifestation. Jesus hinted at this. When man does fully realize himself, there is really nothing that he cannot do. He does not know or believe that he can. Just as it is easier to believe that God punishes us or only God heals, man has limited himself by his unbelief in himself.

Man can not imagine that, for so long at the mercy of circumstances as he sees himself, he can change a circumstance at will. Seeing is believing. The masters know the secrets of God's power because they have long sought to see the light. The light is revealed to those who are capable of truly seeing God's power as a tool to find your way home. God does not demonstrate Himself through the person for His own good just as Jesus did not perform miracles for His benefit. Jesus performed miracles that others might see the power of God and believe for themselves. The power of God is not for selfishness, but for the benefit of all. One who desires God's power only for personal benefit will not know God's power. The movie, Bruce Almighty, is a perfect example of this. Bruce got the power and began to misuse it at once. He was not ready for what was revealed to him. It was not long before he was ready to give back to God the power of God. The enormity of God's power is overwhelming to one who is not ready. It is not for God's benefit that you do not know who you are. It is for the benefit of all that you are not given power beyond your reason to control or not misuse.

So man, until he can control himself, certainly cannot control the power of God. But if so few have the full realization of God's power, then are not God's children limited?

In a sense and there is a delicate balancing act that keeps the knowledge at the right level for perfect benefit. All is as it should be and with each passing day, the masters are adjusted to fit the worlds' needs. There is what appears to be a huge movement back to God. God knows what His children need. God knows the hearts of those who seek Him. He gives them what they ask for. Know that all are given according to their needs. Jesus need only be seen once to change a person completely. There are those who walked with Him who turned away from Him. Do not be concerned that there are not enough masters; be concerned that masters be provided as needed. Only I know the true needs. You need simply pray that I send what is needed. It is true that the need is increasing, and so shall I provide.

But if we learn about God from someone else, is this not second hand knowledge of God?

I do not wish that anyone know God second hand. But if a person does not truly believe that he can know God personally, then I will not force My will upon him. Each must choose for himself how much of God he can handle. Only what he has chosen will he be given. Ask and you shall receive. Knock and it shall be opened.

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You must be full of the love of God before you are ready for the next step.

Why can we not seem to gain spiritual sight and intuition?

You have gained much, but don't realize what you have. You are so full of doubt. Of course, it is your old natural remnants. You have much in the way of foresight and intention. You have gained intention and awareness of purpose. You have begun denial of self. These things are clearing the way for spiritual development. Like major roadblocks, selfish things hinder your sight and hearing. The spirit cannot be as loud as the ego while the ego is drowning out the spirit. The spirit raises its hand, but no one lets it talk. The spirit has been in the back of the class – trying to flag down the teacher but the teacher is always distracted by the ego on the front row with the loud voice. The ego needs attention much as the class bully. Once the bully is put in the back of the class, the spirit can move to the front to be heard by the teacher. Once the spirit is on the front row, the teacher will pay more attention to it. By virtue of its proximity, it will be more noticeable. It will grow in importance as the teacher yields to its excellent messages. Joined with the Holy Spirit on the front row, the teacher will lose interest in the bully. His cries will slowly drift from ear shod despite his desperate attempts to be heard. He will be seen properly as unimportant and selfish. He will be left behind while the rest of the class advances. The bully cannot keep up with the spirits – they are part of God's reality which has no place for selfishness. The attention that he seeks he will no longer get. He will slowly disappear one day to be never heard from again. When this happens, Oneness is realized and the ego can be no longer. There is no vacancy for the selfishness of the ego.

Why do we not feel more spiritual? Are we making progress?

Your house is almost completely swept clean of your ego. Now the spiritual voice gains volume. This is what I'm telling you. Upon the realization that the ego has been quieted, you will be more open to contact.

The ego, once realized as the unwanted master, has taken a much lesser place. The spirit is now free to move about the cabin. When will the spirit step up to the podium?

Call it to the front. Listen to its voice growing ever stronger. It is almost shy at first. Give it strength and it will grow.
**Chapter 7 – Connectedness**

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Have you understood that there exists between all a universal connection? Yogananda gave a great example of this in his autobiography. You must learn that all minds are connected and this is part of all being affected by all. All things are interrelated. How can it be that there are psychic powers if no such connection exists? If all things come from a single source, does it not stand to reason that all things created are connected? Upon this connection comes inspiration and intuition. They are the offerings of the system which keeps the river of life flowing as it should.

The universal switchboard makes connections at levels you can't even yet comprehend. If you have a thought about something, it connects to the related parties. It is not necessary for you to know how. Trust that it happens. There is much more to the spirit world than you know. You have to trust until you remember. In this way are you called to prepare for your students. You imagine that you are sitting alone in your bubble wondering why your life is going as it is. You fail to realize that you have been called, were answered, and are set in motion to fulfillment. Your choices may seem isolated to you, but remember nothing happens by chance. Also, nothing happens in a vacuum. You did not just one day decide to do this, and you then proceeded to do it. The connection of the universe has prepared you all your life and your circumstances have worked exactly as needed to put you at exactly the right place at exactly the right time. You see your life as a series of actions directed by your own mind. Technically this is true, but the directions were given long before you knew. Every day is not an entity unto itself. All of life is a flow of continuous fulfillment toward the goal. How unaware are you of all that affects you and that you affect. So, you did not just end up here one day, alone and without purpose. The universe is working your plan as is perfectly designed for you and for those whom you serve.

So, we aren't just muddling through each day without purpose?

No. You can dull your senses to the point that you are unaware of all that happens. It would thus appear that you float on the river of life. You can choose to reawaken your senses and see the mechanism of the universe. By reawakening, you will begin to see with new vision. You will see things which were totally out of view before. Did you ever imagine that you are not alone with your thoughts?

Do all people have psychic abilities or is it limited to "psychics?"

All people are psychic, but some have limited their hearing. Your sending cannot be limited, but your hearing can be ignored. Most people are simply not prepared for spiritual hearing. A person would imagine themselves crazy if they heard all those voices. A conscious choice to reawaken spiritual contacts will bring forth the experience. Remember, you have much to unlearn before you can learn the new stuff. If you are satisfied with illusions, then stick with them. You will live out your life and move on to the next. If you choose to open the universal portals, then you will begin to know how things of God really work.

Fear is the greatest obstacle to spiritual hearing. Unless you were to be open to all inputs equally, you would have to put limits upon your hearing. You are only given what you can handle. You cannot handle the hearing of all thoughts everywhere. In the movie Bruce Almighty, this was clearly demonstrated. Additionally, the lessons of "you know not what you ask" were also shown. We think we want to win the lottery, but if everyone who asked won, then the prize would be negligible.

Thoughts, once you are aware of the continuous string in your own mind, can be overwhelming. Imagine the enormity of all thoughts everywhere. Imagine the creativity of the power of all thoughts. If you were to see thoughts as energy, the sight would be truly shocking. So where does all of this energy go? Does it just go out into space and disappear? Have you ever been hit by a thought? Of course you have. You have hit others with thoughts. The guy who cut you off in traffic was hit with a not-so-nice thought. You run into someone you haven't seen in years who says, "I was just thinking about you."

For now, we'll let you take some time to experiment with your thought training. Try some thought giving and receiving exercises. Consider also the occasions when you received inspiration and felt intuitive. Examine the entire scenario and draw your conclusions about universal communication.

If all things happen in due time, who decides when the time is right?

Many have asked this very question. The master plan is flawless and without fail. You cannot fail to get from each life exactly what is destined for you to get. You call it forth, yet you may not know what you have called forth, or even when. You came into this life purely by choice and each life does not stand alone. Each life is based on the gradual progression toward the soul's purpose. At some point you realize, that the larger decisions of life have already been determined. Look at Yogananda's life. What can you learn from it?

First, that it was stated at his birth that he would follow the yogi path. He was told all along his path what next he would do. His steps were directed. His every effort to change his destiny was thwarted. He was tossed about, but surely his path was certain. All things seemed to work toward the goal stated by his mother's guru. Can we assume that our lives are equally destined?

Of course you can – there are no accidents or coincidences.

So we would do well to rest in the belief that all is certain and that our struggles are in vain?

Perfect. Now you have it. You have made your choices. You need only walk along the path with peaceful assurance that all is as it should be.

So regardless of our apparent choices, we really have no choice?

You did have choices, but they were long since made. By all for all.

If there are no real choices to make, then why play the game?

To have the experience. It's all about self discovery. Once you have made the biggest choice of your life, you begin to realize that all of your struggles were for naught. It is not until you are shown the light that you realize that your only choice is ever for God or not. Ultimately, that is no choice really. You are all for God. There is nothing else. If a person came to this life as a messenger, was it not pre-determined that he would seek and find God and choose God service as a messenger? Jesus came to this life knowing full well His destiny. Why would you not know yours? Until you choose God in each life, if you do, then you are kept with limited sight. Once you start seeing the light of God, you will be shown that everything is predestined. It has already happened. It is because of this that the Holy Spirit can guide your very steps. You are simply remembering your way back to God.

Ok, so it is predestined, but not known as predestined. What you tell us that we shall do is simply your telling us what is already planned?

In a sense. This is how you cannot be lost. You can only think yourself lost. You cannot really be lost.

Why on earth do we waste so much time chasing after the winds that we can never reach? The illusion seems cruel in a sense. We work so hard only to find out that we didn't have to.

Well, the rules are given by those who know not what they do. Even the written words of Christ are often misconstrued. Your parents don't know any better than you how it all works. In reality, none of it matters. Success or failure – good or bad. It's all an illusion and it will drive you crazy if you let it. That's why Neale's Conversations With God books say choose again – choose how you interpret things. You do have that choice in life. You can choose your own perception. You can easily choose to see your life as good or bad, but you cannot change your life or its pre-destined path. You will go where you have chosen and do what you have chosen. See it bad or good, but it is predestined.

What if you tell us to go left and we go right?

Your soul's radar will cause you to find your way to where you are supposed to go. You will be miserable. Alarms will be going off and you will have to find your rightful path. Your soul's radar works much like a compass. It always points to God. If you veer off course, it will let you know through your intuition that you are not where you need to be.

What if our radar says, "I'm out of bounds, but I'm stuck." Is this part of the plan also?

You are never stuck, but you may perceive that you are. You always have options, or so it seems. Your best option is always the one that gives you peace and points your needle toward God. When you are not on course, you feel it. When you are on course, you feel it. When you are off course, you will be miserable and unsettled. You will be fearful and anxious. Fear and anxiety can confuse. They are perceptions placed by the ego. You choose to either be fearful or not. Misery is something that is a condition caused by the resistance of the soul to what you are doing. When you are doing something not according to the soul's path, you will not rest. When you are on the right road, you will have nothing but peace. Once you know that your life is set, you can finally know the peace of God, relax and enjoy the ride. You are on a pre-set course just as Jesus was.

In truth, you are always exactly where you are meant to be. You may feel that you are out of place and this is what the chosen experience is meant to convey. It is from being someplace other than where you most desire that you feel "out of place." But, you are exactly at the place where you are to experience the feeling of being out of place. It is from the experience of being where you do not choose that you learn to know where it is that you really want to be and what you really want to do. This is all part of your chosen experience to discover from your opposite that which you choose to be in order to experience the fulfillment of your dreams. When you are not in a place of peace, you can rest assured that your peaceful place is elsewhere and you must seek to find that which your soul has called you to find. If you have chosen to serve God, then you will not find peace until you are serving God. If you have chosen to be a firefighter, then you will not find peace until you are fighting fires.

How do we know that we have chosen to serve God and that we will?

You can call it faith or fate or trust. Call it what you will. See it as you will. Your destiny was chosen long before you were born.

What if we are mistaken about the content of our dreams?

You are given things that show you for sure. When you imagine your dream, it has already happened. You didn't just have this really cool dream for no reason. You chose it. You only imagine it as a dream. It is part of your pre-determined path to God, for God. In Bruce Wilkinson's book The Dream Giver, Ordinary had a dream given to him by God. He really had no choice but to follow it. Have you not always had a certain dream in your heart? You have always carried the dream as it is your natural radar target. You have known it always. Your dream is actually your purpose. Your purpose must be fulfilled. You came for that reason. It is your soul's destiny. So, see your dream as your purpose and you will see more power behind it. You will begin to understand that it will happen, just as you knew it would. Just as Jesus served His purpose, so shall you. Guaranteed.

Are we given dreams as the means to drawing ourselves toward our purposeful fulfillment? Are we duped into thinking that we dreamt up something when we really brought it with us into this life?

You brought it with you. But if you have no memory, how would you know what you were called to do? If it were not something "dreamed" up by you, how could you connect and make it happen? There are those who don't have a clue about their purposes. But you have chosen to serve and must have some heavy ammo to teach. You are given great understanding so that you can share. Life has become so much about getting that you have totally lost your way. The natural laws have begun to pull people back to God. Unfulfillment does make for much misery. But the natural radars are being righted toward home.

We dream of having a beach house. Did we bring that with us or did we make it up here?

You brought it with you as part of the reward you selected. You just think you made it up here.

Are we really just going through the motions?

Yes, just like Jesus. He understood in His life that He was simply serving a purpose. He knew the game. That's why He was calm and peaceful. He knew. You said you wanted to know what Jesus knew. This is it. It matters not what you think you choose to do. It is already done. Your purpose will be served regardless of what you think you can do wrong. It is set. Your destiny is assured. Whatever will be, will be. It is already done. That's why fear and guilt are wasted on the unknowing. The masters didn't sit around worrying for they knew. Nothing matters. Your purpose is set and you will fulfill it.

What if we are shooting at the wrong star?

Don't worry. Listen to your heart. You know that you know. If it is your natural inclination to do something, going against it will only bring you misery. Do what truly feels right. Don't be swayed by others. Know that you know and from this you will build confidence. Masters have confidence. But you will know what Jesus knew.

We're sure He knew a little more.

And so He did, but you now know steps one through three – (1) Your life is predestined; (2) Realizing your creative potential; and (3) Full utilization of creative ability for the benefit of all. As you interact with others, you will need certain tools to affect others according to their destiny. If you are to fully play the game, you need to know the rules. I do not wish for the world to control God, I wish for man to freely know God. This will literally be the salvation of the world. The mystery will be gone and the veil is removed. God will be revealed and the curtain will be lifted without effort or struggle. There are so many who cry for Me, but cannot seem to find help. You found it outside of religion and so shall they.

Guilt is a great barrier to God and a cause of sickness. By getting rid of guilt, we can get rid of sickness and get close to God?

Yes – believe it or not. It may take more than one lifetime for total healing of the world to be accomplished. But, the unified forgiveness of guilt will heal sickness. It is as you have believed taken a step further. Healing comes from relief of guilt, so you must believe that you are guiltless before the mind can free the body of the effects (sickness) caused by guilt. Guilt's effects are brought about by the notion that we can fall short of God's glory. The Bible tells us this, karmic writings tell us this. If life is but a dream, what can be the point of worsening the experience? Why would you knowingly punish yourself? Only because you see yourself as needing to pay for your sins. You can not have sinned; therefore, your self inflicted punishment is really very senseless. If you cause yourself to feel guilty, you will cause yourself to be sick. The laws of cause and effect are real. Stop causing and you'll stop affecting. Guilt punishes more than you know. If you see yourself as full of sin and worthlessness, you will never free yourself of guilt effects. Let go of all guilt this very minute!

Be free of cause and effect. You do what you do because you choose to. That's it. Don't let guilt kill you or it surely will. You will stay in the prison that you have made for yourself until you let go of guilt. There is no more harmful means of destruction than guilt. Believe this and let go of it. It serves no purpose and does not bring you closer to God or undo your perceived wrongs. Believe this. Do all things in moderation and don't be controlled by things or other people. Guilt is the number one killer of people - not guns, nor smoking, nor drugs, nor alcohol. So when you realize this, you have begun to heal yourselves. The irony of this is that guilt is a concoction of the mind and you know this to be true. To heal the world, let go of its guilt and teach it to live guilt free. The body is a great healing entity for which guilt is the most destructive force. Guilt serves no purpose, so why let it destroy your life? As life is only an illusion, why let the illusion be filled with guilt? Why not enjoy life? It is as God intended.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

If you want to change your life, you have to start thinking differently. You have to adopt a broader vision of yourself and the possibilities. You must change all of your ways of doing things. Love must be your motivator, not what you see or hear. The world does not see through My eyes. Your sight has been clouded by your own limitations and those of others. The ones who achieve greatness are the ones who set out on a path with great determination and belief in themselves and God. It is not from doubt. It is from a higher vision that you must guide yourself. There are those who doubt and still achieve, Joel is a perfect example. He is exhorted by those around him. He doesn't have self confidence to exhort himself. I have given him those who give him confidence.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

With Eckhart Tolle, it came suddenly one night. With Gary, it came as spirit guides one afternoon. With Charles, it came in meditation. Generally, when the disgust of present life and internal conflict reaches it speak, the light will shine. Eckhart was at the point of suicide when the light was shown to him.

Why is it so difficult if it is our true nature and your connectedness to us to live in spirit?

The ego is a mighty force – to put it aside requires great efforts. First you were aware of the ego, then you took the time to listen to it, then you taught against it. Until it loses power and is defeated, it will not let you see the light or hear the voice of its mortal enemy – the Holy Spirit. The ego cannot afford to let the opposing camp gain prominence over it. It fears that if you know what you are, you will not be the servant of the ego. The ego is your self-defense mechanism for protecting the self as you perceive it. It does a great job at defending you from what you thought were your enemies. The ego doesn't know that the enemies it fights are but phantoms of its own creation. The ego doesn't know that it fights against its creator any more than you know you fight against yours. It simply fights to protect you, just as it should. It doesn't know that what it does causes more harm than good.

Until you, away from the ego, realize the self destructive tactics, you will not even begin to start the fight against it. Once the fight starts, it takes much to undo many, many years of training. You have much unlearning ahead. Being stubborn and filled with doubt makes your struggle much worse. A control freak like you has far more trouble giving up the ghost. But, once you have seen the destruction and judgment of the ego, you are not likely to return to it as your compass of direction. Now that you have seen the ego in action, you don't like it and want to lessen its influence. You have seen the monster inside – your ego. It is not without weaknesses which will lead to its defeat. You must be willing to let go of the controls and choose a better way. I never said it would be easy. Abundant willingness suggests great effort.

You weren't just kidding about that. Is it even possible to quiet the ego enough to overcome it?

It is possible, but it does require great dedication.

Please offer some advice for dealing with the ego.

You imagine that you are fighting an untamable beast. See now that you can instantly stop the beast in its tracks by choosing peace instead. Stop your thoughts whenever you choose and remind yourself that you choose peace. Repeat it until it covers the ego assault. When first you recognize the pangs of the ego, know that it will not stop on its own, and stop it by choosing peace. It is your mind and you can control it if you choose to. Stop it when it starts. Don't let it get strength so that it draws the emotions into it. Stop it before you experience fear and self-hatred. This is not necessary and does become easier with practice. You can control your mind and your emotions if you choose to. Remember, the mind is what you make it. In one minute you can turn thoughts of fear into loving thoughts if you choose to. It's not so hard if you will be ever vigilant.

You see life as something that is done to you. Start seeing life as something you do. Stop being a victim of circumstances and start being the ruler of your destiny. If you sit back and let things happen, how can you not take the blame for what happens? If you choose to control your circumstances, you will see your own reactive power begin to work. Next, consider your motives – selfish or unselfish. This is a most powerful lesson – a real Oneness lesson. This is when you learn to choose wisely instead of unwisely. You have previously only chosen selfishly – even when you have deemed yourself benevolent. Examine your choices. Is this for me or for the all? When you choose for the all, remember that you are included. Do not see yourself as separate for truly you are not. If you wish only wishes for yourself, you are not being all that you can be. You are being one alone without the others. How can you ever expect that the others will help you if you have not chosen to help them? We often imagine ourselves to be far more benevolent than we are. The selfish sneak attack – I want this for everyone, when down deep you know that you are really serving self. The most basic thought is the one you need to control. If Jesus has said it was for others yet lived selfishly, there would have been conflict generated naturally. You must decide at your deepest levels, what it is that you truly desire. Only then will things fall into place. Only then will you see your circumstances mirror your intentions.

So selfishness must go completely. Teach us how to delete our selfish desires fully and not hold them hidden down below.

Analyze your motives, dreams, hopes and desires. On the surface, you choose to help others. But, you expect something in return. You want money and respect, happiness and joy. You still do not understand that these came from service and need not be desired. You have always been far too concerned with your own perceived needs – and that has been your downfall. You have always chosen safety over service. You'll serve, but only if you are feeling ok about the circumstance.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Teach My people to know that they do not know. Tell them that things are not always what they seem. Teach My people about themselves. Teach them that by knowing themselves that they can have peace. When the big picture comes into focus, the little picture pales in comparison. People must learn to see with larger vision. The limited view of self causes all sorts of grief. People must know that to believe in God is to believe in all of God, not just in small things. People's requests are limited, but God's vision is all encompassing. Don't put limits on God – don't tie God's hands. Man has not learned the ways of God. God gives greater gifts, but people put limits by inflicting their limited vision upon their requests. You have failed to realize that you are given the circumstances for your chosen experiences. In order to obtain maximum benefit, the experience must be maximal with having all the trappings to make the experience profound and powerful. Granted, not all of life's experiences are chosen to be maximal, but we are using those profound experiences as our example.

If you want it all, ask for all. Examine your motives. Let love be the guiding thought for everything. Don't be selfish for you are not alone. Your actions affect others. Have a grand vision, be positive, be faithful and always be grateful. A grateful heart is filled with love. Selfishness is miserable. Until you realize this, you will never experience all that you can be. Love all of life. Learn to see life for the experience and its beauty will be revealed. Try always to expand your vision, include more and more within the range of your sight. Know that God does not care about one aspect alone; God looks at your entire experience and helps you to realize that you are far more than a worker trying to make a living. God sees you as the means to help others. Notice that for the tiny instant that you give to another, you have joy. Increase your joy and soon you will be filled having filled. If you want joy, you can only get it in the gratitude of others. Getting a new car is great, but helping someone else get a car is far more rewarding. Think of how great it feels to be benevolent. Picture yourself as God giving a car to someone else. Oh, the feeling of greatness is almost impossible to contain. The gratitude of others – the heartfelt appreciation makes you feel like a million, even if you don't have a million. I tell you this – there is no greater joy in life than giving joy to another. Filling the needs of others is our primordial purpose. Never will giving to yourself give you such a feeling. Try it out with small things and feel the love.

Certainly the experience is less rewarding if it does not feel like giving of self. The millionaire who gives a dollar to the poor is less likely to feel fully the experience. The person who only has five dollars, but gives a dollar to someone else is truly giving from great love. I do not ask that you give away all that you have so that you are a burden to others. I ask for you to decide for yourself and give according to your heart. Give according to the love that you wish to receive. Giving to those who are ungrateful is like throwing it away. Let your gifts be useful – money is the least effective gift to someone who needs food. Give food. Take someone shopping instead of giving money. Now you have given time and money. How much more beneficial will the gift be? Demonstrate love. Teach wisdom. Imagine giving someone five dollars. What can you buy or how many days can a person eat on five dollars if they shop wisely. Show them wisdom. Give gifts of wisdom also. Don't let them run to a fast food joint and blow it on one meal.

The old saying that if you "give a man a fish, you feed him for a day. Teach him to fish and you feed him for a lifetime" is so very true. Teach skills just as you were taught. Give someone an education. What better gift is there? Get someone a job, a far better gift than food money. Help people up as you know that you are God in the flesh. God works through people. Be His helper. Instead of always looking in the mirror, have larger vision and seek to help the world. You know not what you can do if you will but try. Do one good deed a day. Soon, you'll forget about your petty problems and seek to be the bringer of God's glory to all.

What is the very best advice you can give to those who feel ignored by God?

Open your eyes and ears. Take the time to see and listen. Don't just talk at God, know that I actually listen and respond. Very few people have realized that God actually does listen and answer. You are told to pray feverishly to God. But who ever told you to stop and listen? Change your thinking and imagine the possibilities. It is the very few who listen who actually hear. A relationship with God is not one sided. If you thought for a minute that God did hear, how would your prayers change?

What about those who have given their best efforts at prayer and have still felt neglected by God?

They need only know who they are. They need only open their hearts to My loving communications. Listen, look and hear My love coming through. Do not be deceived by your thoughts of belief. Truly believe. Be determined to have what is your birth right. First, love God; then love yourselves; love others as you have loved Me. Seeing yourself as an island greatly limits. Don't imagine that I only talk to the few. Know that I talk to everyone. Whether you choose to listen or not is your only limit. Now, decide what it is that you truly desire, not what you think you want this minute. Enlarge your vision to include the overall circumstance and be determined to have it regardless of obstacles. I have not told you that everything happens as you imagine. Give Me room to work. Make up your mind and carry the thought with you always. You know not the minute of My inspiration. Find your self a person of inspiration. Those who have achieved their desires are those who have refused to let go of the dream. If right this minute you had all that you thought you wanted, it would not satisfy you but for a minute. Material goods are fleeting. Their satisfaction is only temporary. Look to the big picture. See nothing else and don't be discouraged to quit regardless of what happens.

Have faith in God, but more so in yourself. Many people have dreams and lose interest upon realizing them. Look at all of the people who open businesses with great vision and hope and tenacity. Why do so many fail? It is because you haven't seen the big picture. You only imagined the good stuff, but you failed to realize the hard work that goes into a business. We imagine the doors opening and cut immediately to living on easy street. There is much you have missed. Another great example is the people who have won great prizes like houses. They didn't think about the taxes that go with the prize. You see yourself winning, but you don't see the expenses of maintenance. When people rush out for the American dream of home ownership, they imagine that once they have the closing, that life is instantly great. Oops, they forgot about property taxes going up, insurance going up, maintenance costs, etc. Soon, they are slaves to the property. They are now living to support the house and have lost sight of the happiness and joy that they thought would instantly be theirs.

One of the greatest examples of small thinking is having children. People seldom realize the great responsibility that children bring. It seems cool to want five kids, but the reality can be very different. Every person must decide for themselves such issues, but know that it is better to have one child that you can adequately provide for than five if all will be neglected. It takes magnificent love and determination to raise five kids appropriately. Choose wisely. Some people believe that having children is hardly a life altering decision. Children are brought into this world into circumstances where no child should ever be. This brings up another issue – be responsible for your actions. Don't expect God to magically alter your life if you are not willing to do your part. Many believe that "God will make a way" and certainly it is not My desire for you to put yourselves into circumstances of limit. But, know that you have made choices which do affect your life. Blaming God does not relieve you of responsibility. Let's imagine that you want a new car and you get it and go out and race in it. If you get killed, someone will blame God. Who made your choices? God will allow you to do stupid things. You have free will. A relationship with God is a combined effort. You have to do your part.

What about those who already have five kids and see themselves as limited by their circumstances? Can their dreams come true?

Always the first step is to stop and think. Analyze where you are and develop an idea about what you want. Ask for guidance. Don't be filled with doubts at this point. Don't tell yourself reasons why it won't happen. Give your thoughts completely to your dream. We'll work on the details later. Think about where you want to be. Imagine yourself there, after examining your motives. There are those who feel led to do something. Believe that you came into this life to accomplish something. Realize what it is. What is the one thing that you feel is your God-given talent? If you are unsure, ask those around you who know you well. Everyone has something to give that truly comes from the heart. Realizing your talent will make the rest of the road meaningful. If your gift is service, then own it. Whatever it is, own it. Don't be swayed by the opinions of others. Perhaps it is a call to serve God or the poor or the disabled. You may only be on a mission to fulfill your personal dreams. First, you must decide for yourself. I am in this life to ________. Feel it for some time. Say it to yourself. If you can't seem to get it, ask that God reveal it to you. Many people lose half of their lives not having taken the time to realize their talent. Cut to the chase. Know that you have a talent. Say to yourself, I am ______. You'll feel deeply that this is so and will start to see your potential as _______. Now, thoughts will begin to come which bring forth the vision. Vision can come in many forms. You can stumble upon it or ask God to show it to you. If you believe that God called you here to do something, then surely He will reveal it to you. It may take some time to get the big picture, but never let the dream be drowned out by doubt, fear or circumstance. Rome wasn't built in a day, so don't be discouraged if at first you don't see it all. But never let it go. Never!

Always take time each day to think about the dream. Once the dream becomes part of your daily thoughts, you'll be surprised at how things will start to seem possible. Things will start to fall into place. You may have need as you go to modify your dream, but never lose sight. The manifesting period can be painful and tough. Your friends may tell you that you are crazy. So agree and go forward. If it takes crazy to live your dream, then just be crazy.

How does the dream turn into reality?

Slowly, it drips like water until the glass is full. Don't expect instant gratification. Slowly but surely you will start to see the drips of fulfillment start filling up the glass. You will bring to yourself exactly what you need to fulfill your undying dream. Know that it will happen and it will. It is God's will that you have what you truly desire. You have come here to do something and with your will and God's, it will happen. No matter how ridiculous it may seem, it will happen. You will simply know it in your heart. You cannot fail if you truly believe. God has given you all that you need to make it happen. You simply need to know this and call it forth.

God, what about the kids and the unsupportive spouse? How can we overcome these apparent obstacles?

Ask and you shall receive. I will show you what you need do to be what you are called to be. Every dream ever fulfilled started with one idea. Ideas will come if you will seek and listen. There is nothing that I need withhold from you. I choose for you to fulfill your dreams. Truly, you already have what you need to succeed, but you do not believe it. As you are not convinced, I will give you further assistance. I will be your guiding light of hope as you imagine that no light shines from you. When bringing forth your dream, call upon Me often. Listen, look and be ever vigilant. Start to put My ideas into the scenario and imagine outcomes. Let's say that you want to be a business owner. You want to open a restaurant. Write down everything you can think of that you will need. Ask around, get some info from others. Get some pricing from vendors. Look for some possible locations. Find out if the area will support another restaurant. Don't open a grocery store beside another one. The two together will kill both. There are many small business services available for free. Seek out free assistance. Attend seminars. Do the research. Know what you are getting into. Don't open the doors and realize that it wasn't what you really wanted. Perhaps you would have been more suited to a pet store.

Feel your true calling and do not quit. These things can be going on at the same time as your regular life. Dreams don't have to wait for a "perfect" time. You will realize that there is no perfect time. Start with thoughts; go to actions of research; then move into reality. Just being in the right mindset will bring forth amazing resources. Resources are available. Seek them out. So you have five kids, a day care may be better for your needs. Don't over look the possibility of working your situation into your dream. Your kids can be valuable resources for inspiration and ideas. Kids usually aren't tainted by doubts. They are certainly more freely thinking than you. Have your kids be partners. Give them a stake in the dream. Their lives are affected so bring them in. Who can better tell you how to please kids than kids? They can pick out the best toys and games. Kids are also great resources for technology. Who hasn't needed a kid's help with a cell phone or a computer? Don't underestimate the creativity of a child. They are generally the most willing help you can find. Don't abuse them, but let them share in your dream. It will help them to have dreams of their own.

Seek out mentors. There is nothing more gratifying than being able to help others realize their dreams. The rich love to tell how they did it. It never hurts to ask. More quickly than you know, you'll have a wealth of knowledge and resources at your disposal. Suddenly, you'll start to believe in yourself that your dream can come true. While driving in your car, you can dream. While having your hair done you can dream. While waiting in line, you can dream. Take the time to dream. Then you will begin to see that the power of dreams is you. You are all you really need. You are the builder of the dream. There truly is nothing that you can't do. If you have trouble believing in you, believe in Me. It matters not. If you see yourself as selfish, think of how you can give to others. See yourself as a giver not a receiver. It is often very inspiring to see yourself as a giver. Don't only seek to serve yourself – see that by fulfilling your dreams that you are giving to others. It's a win-win. If you have successful business, you will provide good service and employment to others. It's not only about you. Get a bigger vision. God wants you to live your dreams. It's for the good of all.

Shift your focus from problems to potential. Try to devote one full hour to yourself. One hour can be all that you need to develop proper focus. For those who just can't find the one full hour, reallocate time from other activities. Break time, drive times, etc.

A personal favorite bath time. Call the bathtub the "think" tank.

Alone time is crucial and if you don't take it, it will be taken from you. Force yourself to stay focused on your potentials and not your problems. For many people, this takes quite a bit of practice. Focus gently on quieting your thoughts and letting beautiful refreshing thoughts come into your head. Let your creativity gently flow. Don't try to force creativity. It's not creating good things if you are forcing it. Ask for guidance and allow the inspiration to enter your thoughts.

Lord, give us lessons to teach that we may learn.

Here's a few...

Do what makes you happy.

Follow your dreams.

Worry for nothing.

Love others as yourself.

Be kind always.

Know the ego.

Be not led astray.

Don't live to please others.

Love God above all else.

Live in the present.

Believe in yourself.

Treat others as you would like to be treated.

Ask and it shall be given.

Seek and you shall find.

Be not selfish.

Live to serve.

Imagine the possibilities.

Unto thine own self be true.

Live with purpose.

Love all – be all.

Don't settle for less.

Attitude is everything.

Be grateful.

Be generous.

By teaching the motives of the ego, all other lessons simply fall into place. Once you have seen the workings of the ego, and have learned to recognize its tricks, you can simply be love as this is all that is left. Imagine a scene of tragedy, perhaps you came upon a car wreck. Your first thought is to check on those involved. The second thought is ego involved – what if I cause more damage, what if it is gross, what if I have to stay when the police arrive and I'm late getting home, etc. Much more time is spent creating reasons for not helping than helping. Your first impulse is to do good; your second thought is why you shouldn't. Learn to differentiate between loving and selfish motives and you will begin to live a more peaceful and loving life.

Would not the world be offended by My presence? Would not the powerful seek to discredit me? If the Lord came boldly back, the rage of man would do more harm than good. Does man really want God? Man truly believes that he is the ruler and does his best to control the world. Men see themselves as God – God would merely offer another roadblock to their progress. It is far better if the believer joins with other believers and demonstrates the power of God. When man sees man leading the charge, he is not as offended. If God were to lead the charge, man would lose his presumed place of prominence. Picture the world leaders who profess great faith in the presence of the Lord. They would be offended that they were dropped from their pedestals. The power of power is to man greater than God. As you have read, in spite of many miracles, man will turn ever away from God. Man chooses that there be no God. If there were a God, then would man have power? God stands in the way of man's presumed power. Great men of power profess to believe, but their actions do not demonstrate God's love. They are only professing faith to hide their selfish intentions. Test it for yourself – see if the deeds are Mine. Take away their power and see how quickly they curse God.

Your laws are becoming more and more "man" oriented than God oriented. Your country was founded on the freedom of religion basis. Has this remained? Has it not shifted more to freedom from religion? Has not your country shifted away from God? Test it and you will see. Man professes faith in God merely for the appeal to others who profess faith in God. Unless the actions of man demonstrate My actions of pure love, then they have faith in a different God – man. Israel is a perfect example. Man's hunger for power always leads him away from God. Always. If the Pope had no power, would anyone want to be Pope? If church leaders were to live in poverty, who would lead the churches? And it is not only religious leaders. The leaders of every group aspire to achieve power. So do you. It is the way of the world. It is better to have than have not.

No one wants to be poor. How is man to act if not for progress and betterment?

Spread the wealth. There is plenty for all. Seek to share the world's treasure with the whole world. It is not that one should do without, but that all should have.
**Chapter 8 – Listen**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

In the absence of knowing – listen. As I have told you, you can only be in the right place at the right time. If you are My sheep, will I not lead you? You need do nothing until I tell you to do something. If you had simply waited on My direction, you would not have wasted so much time. If you have chosen My will, then will yourself to listen. Ask and you shall be given all that you need. Period. If you choose to ask but do not listen, you will continue in uncertainty. You will forever be tossed about. I do not intend for you to be tossed to and fro. You have chosen that for yourself. Go with confidence to where you are led. Know what you want to experience and let Me do the rest. I can do more than you imagine. If you are not happy and excited, then you have chosen for yourself. When you follow My direction, you will be excited feeling that you are doing My will. Only My will brings forth great excitement.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Spend time in self-realization, meditation, thoughts, imaginings, etc. Every child has an idea about what they want to be. See your dream, take the time to dream it, and then find a way to make it happen. First, let yourself dream. Enjoy mental visions. Relish in them. The way will be made clear. Share your dreams. Love yourself enough to go with your true visions. It truly only matters that you do what you love. Worse case, do some trial and error if you can't get a grip on your desires. Imagine the child who always wanted to be a fireman. Doing anything else will always be a struggle and will never satisfy the need. Until the person does what his heart calls him to do, he will never know true happiness. This I cannot state often enough. Bring yourself into alignment with your soul's desires. It may not happen instantly. But, at least having the dream and feeling that it can happen will give you great hope. Ask for direction and guidance. You'll find a way if your soul truly calls you. Don't settle for less and don't give up. Ever! It doesn't matter where you are or what obstacles you have in the way. All things are possible if you will just believe. Do some research and you will find that others have done great things just because they believed and refused to quit.

Teach first to live rightly, and then teach to live unselfishly. Do first what you love; then love everyone.

Yes, it is almost impossible to teach people to love others when they have not first loved themselves. Knowing self will lead to knowing others. This is crucial. Simply telling someone to love thy brother as thy self is fruitless as you have learned. You are no help to others lest you first help yourself. This is not selfish as it reveals all. Learning starts with one and proceeds to all. By learning about your true self, love for others is an instant side benefit. One cannot happen without the other. Telling someone to do something that he cannot even do for himself will lead to failure and disappointment. Always! So teach self examination first and Oneness will naturally be revealed. This is how many come to realize and serve their purposes. Do what you love and all blessings will flow forth. If you are miserable, how can you ever love another fully? Be happy and you will seek to share happiness with the world. By trying to always please others, at least two are lost and neither is pleased.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Don't look for complicated schemes and mysteries. The salvation of the world comes from simple examples of truth and understanding. Let not the world be confused as My ways are simple. The world has called upon Me in mass and begs for My help. You are not alone as your brothers have called jointly with you. You are merely the facilitator of the training. You cannot but be helpful. Your goal is Mine. The world is united in the hope for peace and salvation. Can it be that I have not heard and answered? It is more likely that the world come to an end than that I have not answered your call. Let not your own understanding get in the way of your purpose. For never have you imagined that you have the knowledge to know what is best. You in truth know everything; you have but to allow yourself to remove the block that you have placed in your mind that keeps you from knowing yourself. Have you ever chosen to do what you have done? It would appear that you have not. You have thought that you have not chosen, but in reality you have. You have chosen many things on many different levels. Your first thought, or surface thought is always one of safety. This is your fear based thought. Your heart would have you choose differently, for happiness and joy. Yet your mind clings to thoughts of security based upon your fears. When will you learn that life lived in fear is not a life lived? A life lived in fear will only bring forth more fearful situations. A life lived without expectations will seem foolish on the surface, but will bring you happiness which is your truest desire. You think that without a job you are nothing. It is more likely that a job will keep you in the sort of prison that inhibits you more than you know.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

You have clearly seen that you can easily choose between two words at will. It has become obvious to you that at any moment you can select love or fear. When you choose love, you shut off any thoughts of fear or lack. You are in the present, safe and secure. When you choose fear, you focus on circumstances as you see them and are immediately filled with fear and anxiety. You do now know that you can choose the experience. You still do not believe fully that thoughts of abundance will show you the way. You are still convinced that only by your efforts will you have what you think you need. This is because you do not believe that I AM aware or able to provide. You see no action, so naturally you assume I do nothing. Granted, blind faith is tough, but your lesson to learn is dependence upon God and not on self. Your choices have not been so wonderful.

LEFT BEHIND OR RIGHT AHEAD...

You have brought us ever near to the edge where You would have us stand – awaiting some profound choice for you or for the world. You have forced us, of our own volition, to draw ever near some choice. Without choosing consciously to go to the edge, we find ourselves there awaiting your direction still. In the absence of direction, we feel that You have drawn us to where we are to face the ultimate choice of what You would cause us to realize – either we are or are not. You force the physical to face the spiritual directly. You force us to face ourselves at the deepest level. Again and again, You bring us to places of constant choices where each builds upon the other. In a sense of hope towards hopelessness, we stagger blindly toward your promises of perfection. In a seemingly endless series of choice points, we are obligated somehow to choose repeatedly for the sake of all or self. We are mercilessly thrown down a path of unknowing toward the promises of your example. The longer the journey, the more we see the untenable positions of our previous choices. Never finding comfort at any place along the way, we are ever diligent in our quest for peace and comfort. Awareness of the limitations of the physical has caused us to seek a different experience – a meaningful experience.

The road less taken is not an easy one. In fact, it is by far the hardest of all, especially for those who have little to lose along the way. Further limiting the hope of each, each is drawn toward the only place possible for peace and comfort. The thought of one more meaningless experience is more offensive than the other unknown possibility. To stand in this place is such a horror that many simply consider giving up altogether. It would seem at this point that giving up is really the only true choice had. You don't like what's left behind and you can't see what's right ahead. It is this place where hell seems very real indeed. But, it is somehow comforting to feel that there is at least one means of escape, as a safety net. It can be viewed as the side exit door of a tunnel through the house of horrors. When from the outside, nothing of the inner conflict is seen. The inside, however, is a masochist's delight.

Very profound and eerie insights from one who has no real reason to fear. Not facing life or death, you have chosen to see those as the only options out of this experience.

A person tires of constant mental struggle. When most a person seeks for God's love and sees it not, one does somehow believe that there is really nothing else to live for. If all the best efforts at life are futile, then one turns to God. If that is also seen as futile, then all hope is lost. The game is a choice no longer chosen. Pushed to the brink of total intolerance, one is given the only seeming choice left. This is certainly not a free choice and one which is not without consequences. For even in this, one must suffer the effect of taking the easier way out. It can be seen by the unknowing that only blind faith is left. But that only goes so far. When exhausted, and all else has failed, it would seem only natural that the road must end. For a road to nowhere – is not worth traveling.

And so at times it would seem. But had you not seen the road as useless, you would not have chosen the alternate route. Similar to stepping off a speeding train headed for a cliff, you have chosen to give a chance to the other train, the train that leads to infinity. Surely you can choose any of the three at any time.

Choice is a relative term, as we have learned. Surely we would not choose to take the short cut, but it does crop up when things seem headed from bad to worse. There are not those who have so blind a faith that they are not affected by the twists and turns of life. There are many who have despaired to the point of suicide just before they would have received their life altering revelations. When one adds up the examples, it would seem that total hopelessness is a prerequisite for great revelations. How sad it is that a person must totally lose hope before the truth is revealed?

I say that it is sad that a person has allowed themselves to believe that they are hopeless. It's all a matter of perspective. Were they to simply change their perspective away from self, they would find that life is really not so hopeless after all.

We have called upon you, but have not heard your voice. The phase of life called "the undoing" is indeed that; however, the lack of correction does cause one to revert to the old ways, which were seemingly more effective. The undoing process is very disheartening and does offer the appearance of hopelessness – the new way doesn't work and now neither does the old way. It would seem that this is the condition of insanity in which one sees no way past the present distress. One senses being led blindly along a path toward something and away from something else. As if being suddenly left in a dark unknown forest, one struggles to regain their bearings and return to the place of peace. The inclination to give up and simply let the forest take you over is pervasive. Still clinging to hope, one runs and runs seeking the way out of the darkness. Where Lord is the light?

Closer than you think. You are nearing the end of the maze, yet you cannot see but a glimpse of light. You somehow know it is there, but feel exhausted, alone and afraid. You are tempted to give up the fight yet have come too far. You know that this is just another phase of the journey into the light. The light is not hidden. You imagine coming to its fullness and go forever forward. Just when you think you can take not one more step – boom, there you are. Don't be discouraged. You cannot fail as destiny prevails. I know of your struggles, but when you emerge you will never again see life quite the same. Your soul is on a journey to finally see past the horrors to heaven. Until you cross the bridge you call insanity, it will forever be hidden from your sight. You have been afraid, yet had nothing to fear. In an instant soon in coming, you will at last see the truth. It cannot happen except in perfect time. Draw your strength and stumble but a little more, for the light is just around the next corner.
**Chapter 9 – Trust Perfection**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

You must trust in Me and Me alone. Trust not in your own abilities. You will see how the perfection works and that all works perfectly for your perfect service to the whole. Certainly, you question at times My motives and methods. But you must not fret about the details. You must trust wholly. This is your chance to let all of your worries go and see how marvelously the universe works, in spite of your helpfulness. Let things happen according to the grand scheme and try your best to not interfere with perfection. You will see that the universe has workings beyond your comprehension. Even without your best efforts you will see and know that God is in control and life proceeds on its perfect path to Oneness. If you will offer your assistance and not try to make things happen according to your own plans, you will experience perfection. You cannot even imagine what perfection is much less how it works. The intricacies of it are beyond human comprehension. So give up trying to make things happen. You cannot, so why bother. You hare but a small cog in the wheel of perfection. A great piece but not the sole focus surely. If you could see outside of yourself you would know of God's perfection. It can be glimpsed in the tiniest things and in the overall picture of life. It can be more appreciated in the unexplainable aspects of life. When you surrender to God's will, you are open to experience what true magnificence is. Not until you have given your whole being to God are you able to experience the wonder of all.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Be blessed My child for it cannot be otherwise. If serve you must, then serve you shall!

It just occurred to us that feeling without makes us more prone to acquire. Feeling broke causes us to lose interest in things other than fixing the situation we feel is broken. It has taken over our daily lives. We can see now how a circumstance can become so overpowering that we do lose sight of our core being. It would have to be such that we are unaffected by circumstances that we are able to freely give. It must be that God takes care of our needs so that we are not distracted from our service. Circumstances have caused us to consider other reasons for our works. Desperation causes us to do what we would not ordinarily do. Of course, it can be conversely noted that such desperate circumstances cause the desperate actions which bring the service into action. So, is it because we choose to serve that our circumstances line up so that we do what we must? It would seem that we are put in such circumstances that motivate need fulfillment instead of the opposite.

Of course, there are other possibilities, but the way is made so that you will do what you truly desire. If service is your calling, then you must serve. One way or the other, it will come to pass. Your life is not a random series of events. Everything happens as it must. When you are employed and satisfied, you try to fit service into your circumstances. It is mediocre service at best. If you choose true service, then you must give all to all. You will see that there is only one means to accomplish your truest calling. If you are to be a teacher for God, then it will happen, even if your world has to crumble to make you desperate enough to do it. The books have not come forth without reason. You know this. Until you have given your books to the world wholly, your circumstances could not have improved. Joyce wanted to preach and maintain her church security. But, in order for her to do as she had chosen, she had to cut her ties and go out on a different path.

So look at what you have chosen and know that it must happen. The circumstances may be much different than you had imagined, but whatever is required will happen in order for you to do what you must to fulfill your truest desires. Now, there are those who are not aware of their truest desires. Joel would not allow himself to even think about being the head of the church. He wanted it, but didn't see it as possible. His truest desires were hidden from himself. He didn't dare dream. Do not imagine that he did not want it for surely he did. But, things happen just as they must to fulfill your dreams. God does know your heart's desires, even if you do not. Things will happen to put you where you need to be to do what you have chosen to do. Joel's dad died to make room for him. Joyce had to quit her secure church job and you have had to lose their jobs so that you could take your role. Play your part; be proud for you have chosen to serve God. There is not greater role to play. I do not disappoint and your dreams of service are realized.

You have not made it easy for those who choose to serve. Why?

Because you are so attached to what you think you want, you imagine that you are in difficult circumstances. Only when you are doing your proper true service will you be at peace. When you are not focused on your truest purpose, you will not be at peace. You know this to be true. You feel it. You want peace but your rational mind tells you that you are dreamer who will fall into ruins if you do not focus on your survival. You feel guilty when you are not putting your physical needs first. You must make the choice for peace or prosperity, but you assume that there will be no prosperity in your dream fulfillment. You can't see that only by looking away from prosperity that you will ever actually have it, if that is your goal.

True happiness and prosperity only come from following your dreams. Clinging to prosperity will only give you its modest attainment and you will be unfulfilled. If you want the moon and stars, you can't just seek the one, seek all from all. Go for what you truly desire, all of it. It may seem impossible or beyond reach, but I assure you that nothing is impossible. Even those who have selfish motives have become wildly successful. There are preachers galore who live opulent lifestyles while only serving selves. Even after criminal convictions, they are still supported. How can this be as it defies logic? But, they always fall from grace. Then what do they have? The sincere servant remains. I know your hearts. But I AM not here to judge you. Do as you will and desire all that you want. Don't settle for less. Write for God so that all may know themselves more fully. Do your part for the whole and don't give in to selfishness. You'll always be disappointed in your separation. Give love to all. Realize your selfish motives and don't let them control your life.

But it's hard as you know, to live spiritually while the world is material. Surely, we hope for the betterment of all, but it would seem that we have to fight the all to get where we are going.

Don't put expectations upon the all. Let God give you what you desire. He does your will. If your will is selfless service, then the better for the all. There are so many people who need what you will offer. Do you suppose that you are the only one feeling as you do? Give love and hope to those who crave your teachings. Your message is one of love, designed to help the masses. It is called forth by the world and offers hope to those who are mentally trapped in materialism. Set them free from their prisons. Let My people go and live more loving lives.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

In life there are many things which seem mystical and marvelous to you. In truth, they are really more mundane than you know. Awareness is the key to unlocking the prison doors of your mind. Once you have opened the door, you will see the world as you had not imagined it to be. You have put blinders on and left yourself inhibited to explore fully the possibilities of God. You have allowed others to keep you from knowing happiness and freedom. You have allowed the opinions of others to foreshadow your own. You must be who you truly are if you are ever to be free. I will show you the way. Let go of pettiness and rise above your perceived circumstances. Allow God's miracles to flow into your life with openness and objectivity. You cannot imagine the infinite possibilities awaiting your call. You have seen yourself as limited, but now are awakening to your divinity. Allow the process to unfold. Allow all of God's miracles to bring forth your dreams. God knows you well, and no desire is hidden from His view. Allow life to be enjoyed. There is much to enjoy if you are simply open to the possibilities. Let go of your control and allow abundance to come into your life.

We are becoming more and more aware that life happens to us and things seem to happen for no apparent reason.

You had imagined that you would progress and move forward as you imagine forward. You now have the unique ability to make different choices from the same starting place. This will be graphic for you and you will see how different choices do provide different results.

It is as if our choices have been mandated by circumstances beyond our control. We have been forced quite literally to choose to change our lives completely.

The dream will unfold as if in the most fanciful movie that you have ever seen. Allow life to bring you the joyful experiences that have for so long eluded you.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

All that there is, is yours. Claim it. You feel yourself standing between two worlds. The emotions swing from happy to fear almost instantly. This demonstrates how your thoughts affect you. If you allow yourself to think, you are fearful. If you focus on doing what you like, you are not fearful. Your thoughts are fearful creations to which your body must react. By changing your habits, you can be at peace more and more often. When you feel afraid, you are now instantly aware of your thoughts and you are given the choice of thinking rightly or wrongly. You are learning the power of thought and the worthlessness of worry. Your circumstances are no different whether you worry or not. So why worry? Worrying has bad side effects and nothing is gained by worrying. Give yourself a break and allow yourself the freedom from worry.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Be one with Me, wholly and totally. Let not your eyes drift from side to side. See Me and My purpose only and Thy will be done. You are the instruments of My salvation and are called into My service. You have answered the call and are held in highest esteem for your willingness to help others. It can never be that you are without the resources that you need to serve your purpose. You are mine and I AM yours. Go boldly in My service. Do not ever again question your purpose as it has been given. Know it and own it for it is you and you are Me. You have been called to action. You have been taught so much you must surely know by now that you can never return to your old ways. You are far past the old ways and are given the tools with which to serve. You have been shown the light. Surely, you do not see all there is yet, but as the need arises, you will see. Your faith has made you whole. You are not without all that you would need to do My will. Your strength comes from Me. You need do nothing nor try to prepare in any way.

You have been willing and have been given specifically what you need. You are not alone nor without all resources at your disposal. You can choose to be comforted in this knowledge or fearful of the unseen. Choose as you will to look on glory or on separation. You make the choice for satisfaction or for fear. You have been given much but you have not yet realized the greatness that you behold. You would discount the gift in favor of the experience. Truly without the gift, the experience would not follow. Now, you have the gift and are seeking desperately the experience. This is as it should be for you are as a battery charged for use. You need only the vehicle to expend your charge. Now that vehicle is given.

You have rested well and are fully charged. You have done your part in preparation and have laid the foundation on which to build your platform of service to the Lord. Can it be that I would not give you the avenue on which to travel? You have chosen and have done well in My service. You have mustered strength from places you never imagined. You have been secretly resolute in your determination to serve. You have picked out shards of faith from every possible source and have held fast to your conviction. God cannot let you down nor leave you disappointed. For God knows that from your disappointment can only come a lack of salvation and an unloving experience for all. Your brothers are not benefited from your disappointment, but from your uplifting messages of hope. God knows that He cannot let you down, you are His teacher and His children need you. He fully knows that from your mouth come His words into the world. It can never be that you are forgotten nor ignored. God gives you for His service. He has to support you in every way. Let not your fear or doubts dissuade you from His service. You are His and He is yours.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Welcome to My world of light and truth. Walk with Me through the valley of your perceptions and feel the truth about your illusions. Let's take a look at what you see versus what I see. What do you see?

We see that we are lost in the maze and cannot seem to find the right path to the light.

Now see as I do that you have traveled exactly as you should to arrive at this place where you are at last ready to let go of futile quests. You have experienced disappointments because you had to try all other avenues before you turned at last to the path least traveled. The path least traveled is the one which seems the least likely to you. You would not have otherwise chosen this path had you found satisfaction on any other. Until you are here, you were searching. Now, being here, you are at last at the actual start of the journey home. You have chosen now the path of least resistance – no struggles are necessary, only relinquishment to God of all things to His loving care. No more is necessary for you to journey home. You are at last at the point of departure for the start of the most fantastic journey of your life. It is difficult for you to imagine a life without struggle or pain or sorrow. See yourself at heaven's door, knocking to enter your chosen destiny. Knock and it shall be opened.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Big business is finding it more and more difficult to avoid being targeted by expensive lawsuits and health care costs. The free ride mentality of some has become very costly to the many. Would it not be more cost effective to return to the less structured businesses of the past? Would not a farmer be more productive on his own and would be less likely to sue others? Give people a stake in ownership and they will give it their all.

But that system fell also. Farmers could not produce cheaply enough. It's all about machines now.

Soon, the farmer's cost will be lower than the big business. Big business will be squeezed out much like the farmers were. There is a huge shift back to the ways of old. Lawsuits are killing the present system. Give people a stake in ownership and a reason to provide meaningfully and they will do so.

How will farmers get the land back?

There is plenty of land for all who choose to farm.

Current weather trends make it hard for farmers to make a living.

More farming in more places will help lesson the worsening weather conditions. Arid soil promotes disaster. Organic farms are growing at an amazing pace. People are tired of eating chemicals. Organic farms will be an increasing trend. Everyone should have a garden. A garden in every yard. Reconnect to nature. Experience life for real.

So, we teach freedom through produce? Ah, there's the insect problem.

There are simple, natural remedies for that also. Do some research.

Ok, what else? How do we go from idea to reality?

The universe has that task. Remember the research we did on solar products? Expand that concept. Find ways to make that happen.

As you know, it's easier said than done. And water systems in desolate places?

There's a solution to every problem and someone has the answer. You need only contact the universe and the wisdom will find you.

It seems simple, but a logistical nightmare. There are transportation costs which must be out of pocket.

Where there's a will, there's a way. Always, I will provide for the financial needs of the world. You need only the startup capital and you can make it self sufficient.

But, isn't that how bureaucracy and greed interfere? Management is costly.

But, in order for a system to be self sustaining, there has to be reinvestment. There will be. One will get and help another. Much like the Habitat model, you help build a house and others help you.

There must always be financial input into the system.

Any truly worthy system will sustain itself. Habitat for Humanity has become more bureaucratic than was originally intended. Its roots are lost and it has become self important. "Farms for Freedom" or "Freedom Farms" will be a great name for the concept. A system of turning vacant or unused land into farms, and this has been done in the past in cities, is a means to give purpose to places and people. Markets are an issue, unless the produce is freely given away. But remember, give someone food and it is not necessarily appreciated. Give them the means to grow their own and they have vested interest. Bruce Wilkinson did this in Africa.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Oneness is the realization that you must come to before you will truly have peace of mind, heart and soul. The concept is beyond your comprehension, but you must allow the lessons to be taught to you. Only in Oneness will you know Me as I truly AM. Only in Oneness will you truly know who you are. You have read the words, but have not learned their meanings. You cannot fathom the wholeness of God – all in all. You see yourself as separate from God and others. If this were not the case, then you would be at perfect peace. In true Oneness, it is understood that all minds are joined and no one is alone or separate. Separation is the myth that hides God from His children. Let go of the crazy notion that all are not connected. It is not so far a stretch from your beliefs about gene theory. If all people came from two, then are not all literally connected genetically? Why then is it so hard for you to believe that the non-physical is connected as well?

In theory it makes sense, but we have not had enough experience of Oneness to profess its truth. We need more evidence. If people could not communicate otherwise, perhaps we would be more aware of Oneness. It is not as if we sit in rooms and telepathically communicate regularly. Tests show about fifty percent success by those trained in the medium. We need some proof to really show us. Please provide for me an example to clearly demonstrate your point.

You have had some, but are not convinced.

We know it happens, but rarely is it recognized. How can we increase our awareness of Oneness? How can it be taught to others?

Acute listening is one means to hearing the higher frequencies. If you had the hearing of a dog, you could tune in more readily. Oneness can be taught as research has shown. Remote viewing has been taught by the military for years. The military is open to such things, but does not share its secrets. An ignorant world is one that can be controlled.

How is it possible to connect to Oneness and know it to be working? We have tried to reach others with no known success.

You do not have to be "connected" as you are always online. Remember, Oneness is not a universally understood concept. Let's say that you "call" the president. Would he pick up the " phone?"

It's much like floating a boat upon the waters. It goes to where it is pulled. There must be sending and receiving energies at work. You say, "I'm available." Someone else says, "I need help." The two are then connected and are brought together for the common good. When the teacher is ready, the student will come. Your cries for help go out to the ends of the universe.

But how do the two connect? We have not seen evidence of the two meeting mysteriously. We have seen that certain people connect with those who know and refer others, but simply out of the blue we have not knowingly experienced.

And this is our lesson for today. You have called upon the universe and have given yourself to the world. Now, the universe will respond. Those who need will find you. There are means of "out of the blue" interactions. They happen. But you have chosen to give chance a boost. Remember Charlize Theron and the meeting at the bank?

Yes, that was quite the "chance" meeting.

No chance at all. Her desires met with the desires of others. It would seem that just the right person happens by at just the right time.

We have not knowingly experienced this. Why does it happen for some and not for others?

What you would call fate is real. Your chosen movie script ensures that things happen according to plan.

The movie that we have written seems to be off track. What must we do?

You have called upon the universal assistance line. Just the right contact has been made. Bringing the two together may often take time, but rest assured it will happen.

What must or can we do to speed up the process?

The process is perfectly timed. You need do nothing.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Fear not that you don't have the perfect words. Your heart speaks for you and the Holy Spirit understands. Your cries have not gone unheeded. Bask in the Oneness that you wish to learn. Focus your thoughts on being one with Me. All else is unnecessary. Your love for Me has made you whole. There is nothing not given those who seek me earnestly. Rest in God this day. Your restlessness has called unto Me and I have answered. Your wish to serve has not been ignored. Your desire to help others cannot be without action. I would never leave you without our fulfillment. You are Mine and have claimed your prize. Your faith in Me has brought you to your promised land. You are far better than you were and are the instrument of My messages. I would not let you be without what you need to do My service. I AM yours and you are mine.
**Chapter 10 - Experience**

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Still trying to understand why things happen as they do? You will never be satisfied if this is the means you would use to know God. Only by God's revelations to you will you truly know God and how He works. It has been explained to you so many times, yet you do not understand. Experience is the teacher, not books or words.

Experience has taught us that no matter how devout a prayer, it seems that only the very few are answered.

All are answered, but not necessarily how expected. It may be that death is the best possible answer. You have thought that death occurs when all hope in God is lost. It can be said that this is true, in a manner of speaking. Could it not also be said that death is the result of no longer choosing to live? What if the person simply realizes the futility of it all and no longer chooses to live? Whether the reasoning is God or hopelessness or whatever, the choice is made and death follows. On the brighter side, it can also be said that the person has chosen to be free of the constraints of life. They have chosen to return home where true peace and happiness dwells. Death may not be more than a step to the next level – another rung on the ladder. Your attachment to life, as you have been taught, is not free. You will never find freedom while trapped in your body. You can lessen the number of prison bars, but you can not eliminate them completely. There are those who have chosen fewer bars, but all are in the prison of the body. There can be greater or lesser control of the bars. You can choose easier or harder bars on your prison. The person, like Henry David Thoreau who chose to live by a lake alone, weakened the number of bars holding him. He still had survival bars, so he was not totally free.

Only via death is freedom achieved. Like Beth once told you, "the greatest form of healing is death." Now, you who have chosen to cling to life and make the most of it, lessen your bars to increase your freedom. Don't make rash decisions to end your life as you came into this life for a reason. Recognize the reason and accomplish your task. For in this you will attain greater freedom. Until you release all bars, you will not rise to the next level. A shortcut never really is the same as completion. Make the best use of your time here. You have already come far, so don't waste the effort. Lift the bars away, one by one until you can more clearly see your true purpose and live as freely as God intended.

At what point can we expect Your miracles to shed the barriers that remain?

You can always expect miracles. If you know that your purpose must be served and you will have what you need to serve it. This is certain and guaranteed, you could have no worry about miracles or anything else. It will happen. You need only go with the flow.

Why is there such confusion about purpose?

Maybe you have not been given all the pieces. Maybe your fear has impaired your hearing. Maybe, just maybe, you have not believed in its possibility. The veil appears very real regardless of the hangers holding it up.

How do we recognize the hangers holding up the veil?

Look for them and ask for help in recognizing them. I will help you to see them and the power they have over your life. You have the usual hangers – guilt, fear, self doubt, separation, god doubt, lack of understanding, education, etc. We characterize them all under the fear category. Look at what you fear and it will be revealed.

My greatest fear is that God is not real, with us, or helping us. My fear is that we are alone – separate from God.

Let there be light! The dawn has come at last.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _This is the root of all of your troubles – not the fear of God, but the fear that God is not._

This is the veil behind which you are imprisoned and so you cannot know yourself truly.

This is a great revelation. How can we overcome this great fear?

You have no doubt in what you can do. You have experience to back this up. But, you do not know that this lack of doubt is very limited in scope. You see the physical. We will set about to give you the experience of what you can do spiritually. This is how God can be known. God is not separate from you. See yourself as a child inside a playpen. Your freedom and true creativity is limited by the constraints of the physical. Were it not for physical constraints, your free creative abilities would be unlimited. Children are not born in prison, but are confined by the world.

So, knowing this, what do we do to escape the world's confinement?

Awareness of the bars or hangers or playpen walls. Realize that you are bound by them. Once you are aware, you can obtain remedies for them. Just as you have often feared the displeasure of your family, now you have become aware of their power and are seeking to eliminate the effects. Detachment from their power over you is key to freedom or at least puts you one bar closer. Detachment from physical things brings further removal of bars. Detachment from the world's opinion is one of the greatest bar removal tools of all. When you do not care (truly) what others think of you, you are free to be you. This is a backward way of self empowerment. If you truly believe that you have the right to be who you truly are, then the walls do come tumbling down. Freedom of self expression and exploration is why you are here. You are not different from others.

Why do the opinions of others carry more weight than your own? You give more importance to others than you do yourself. Let this be no more. You are equal to be whomever you please. You have to please no one. You are Mine and wholly perfect. Do as you will. This is often unpopular and leaves one feeling alone and lonely, but you are free. If others can't go on your ride and you on theirs, they need to get a new ride just as you do. For once in your life, you have chosen your path to freedom. It is no more mysterious than any other. It is not directionless. You have seen the road. In fact, two years ago you drew it out on a map. So, even though you feel that you are feeling your way around in the dark, don't assume that it will always be dark. And know also, those around you have darkness of their own. You are not responsible for the darkness of others.

Tell us how to let down the veil.

Know yourself and you will know God. Be as one – be whole. You are not separate, but are one. Your flesh is not joined, and your spirit cannot be separated. Know God as He truly is. Know that you and He are one. If you exist, so must He also. You have been convinced that He is separate in heaven awaiting your return. You must change your thinking and beliefs about this. God is in heaven, on earth, the universe, in you. There is no where that He is not. If this is true, and it is, then He is next to you and inside of you. Tell yourself this until you know its truth. God is not out there somewhere – watching you, He is you. You but imagine that He is not. Know yourself fully, that you need ask God for nothing as He has already given you everything. But for your own self doubt, you would know this and live accordingly. Since you have not truly known God, ask Him still as you imagine that He is separate. I have told you years ago, you will do greater than I have done. You believed it not because you could not touch and heal as I did. There is no difference between us nor in our abilities, I have simply been shown the true reality and you have not. There is a difference between spiritual masters and you for they have full understanding that they are not separate from God. They are not magic and they had to learn just as you have to learn. There is no difference, but they have experienced true Oneness and you have not. Experience is the best teacher. You are the same as Me or them. You have just not had that experience. But as you have asked, it is given.

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Many have seen and still not believed. You have not seen and have yet believed. You have grasped for every hint of attestation of Me. You have lived your life with Me always in mind. What is in your mind is not all there is. You have fought a constant battle between faith and logic, as have all God's children. You have vacillated between hope and hopelessness. You are no different. Your doubts are what are required to keep you seeking more. The ones who seek will know. Simply believing in someone's word limits greatly the experience. In fact, there is no experience in blind faith. Seeing how God works is the learning experience. The masters were not satisfied with what they were told. They chose to actively seek the experience of knowing. This is your role model. Be not satisfied with the interpretation of others. Seek your own wisdom. You shall find that God is with you on this journey and that you are never alone. So use all of the tools from My storehouse. They are always available to you.

Perhaps you could shine some light in the tool shed so that we may see the tools inside.

The only tool you need is you – the you that has been bound and has not allowed yourself to see the light. Your freedom will bring light into all areas.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _You must see yourself as GOD, if you choose to be like GOD._

How do we get clarity?

Observe your feelings. Sort them out. Look for the peace of God. That is a sure fire way to know. Remember the peace and happiness that you felt when the recent move took place? You knew it was right – you felt totally ok with it. Sit and consider each situation or circumstance and monitor your feelings. Don't think about it. Ask, "How do I feel about this?" Wait to feel your feelings.

We've tried it and felt nothing either way.

This indicates that your thoughts control your emotions. What you think about something is how it will affect you. Your feelings are direct reflections of your thoughts. Now try this, while thinking something that you consider bad, see how you feel. Practice awareness.

It feels rather bad.

Now, think of something you consider good and see how you feel.

It feels uplifting.

Thus the familiar expressions of high and low, up and down associated with feelings.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Feelings rule of thumb: stomach = fear; heart = love._

But what about intuition? How do we connect with the knowingness or gut feelings?

Allow yourself to experience knowingness. Your thoughts get in the way of intuition. Thoughts and feelings have nothing to do with intuition. You need a blank slate and good well-worded questions. Try this exercise: Ask, "What does intuition tell me about my life?" Go blank and see what pops up. No thoughts, please.

Never make the mistake of letting the mind control your life choices.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § - THE MIND IS A SADNESS FACTORY AND THE MAKER OF YOUR MISERY_ _._

The mind does not care how you feel. Its primary function is bodily preservation.

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Remember the path of least resistance? Have you not realized that you always have two choices on any given thought? We have been very clear that you can follow ego or spirit. "No one can serve two masters." (Matthew 6:24, NAS) Always you have this choice. You imagine that you have a problem or you feel confident that you don't. When the initial thought pops into your mind, you make the choice to take stock in the problem or you choose to know that all is well. The choice for resolution is secondary as you have accepted the problem. Better than all of this is the choice to retrain your thinking so that no choices are necessary. If you had gotten up this morning, knowing that all is well and having learned that things are as you imagine, you would have no choice to make. This is perfect acceptance is what I'm teaching you. It takes time to get to this point.

You must totally reestablish your thought process. You find it difficult to feel confident in the face of evidence to the contrary. You see sickness and can not bring yourself to see it as illusion. You see your outward situation and cannot imagine it to be perfect. You believe what you see with your eyes and listen to the ego for meaning. It has not occurred to you to see the perfection in all things. The beginning of perfection was to demonstrate how your judgments create your perception. So, we lose the judgment, but still feel lost or unable to see the perfection in the circumstance. We must then go about healing the separation between body and spirit. By removing the body from the situation (at least mentally,) we are able to get to the very essence of your being. You are spirit created by God. This is the only reality. All the rest is illusion. You have the power to create within the illusion. You can change this or that simply by choosing it.

Please explain the specifics of creation from beginning to end.

Can you see that you are asking questions on a grander scale than you were before? It's not about being a victim, but about being a creator. Now you are definitely moving in the right direction. Creation can come in many forms or levels. The primary level is the choices made before you entered this life. Primary choices are already made. Secondary choices are those little detours that you set in place to create more fully the experience of your life. If you were not allowed secondary choices, you would feel that your life was on automatic pilot. No one chooses to feel like a robot, so the little twists and turns along the way keep your interest in the game and keep your mind peaked. Both types are all part of the illusion, and what a grand illusion it is. If you were to fully get with this mindset, you would have more enjoyable life experience. Choices are not the same as creations. Choices come before creations and creations may not be experienced as expected. You had chosen your profession but had found the experience much different than your reasons for choosing it. You had chosen for safety, but did not experience safety. You would have been better served to choose the experience rather than the circumstance. Had you not chosen for safety, your circumstance and experience would have been different. How do we create an experience?

Very simply put, choose the experience and follow your spirit's lead. If you choose the experience and do not follow your instinct, then you are likely to create badly or not at all. If you set about trying to create with your rational mind, you will create an unwanted experience. Until you connect more fully with your soul's desires, you will continue to create badly.

Let's say that we choose to be happy. We listen intently for direction, but feel after much time that none is given. What must we do to correct an obvious error?

If you do not know what to do it is because you have not been told. There are factors outside your choices which influence your life. You choose this and someone else chooses that. There is created a stalemate of sorts. Conflicted wishes can even be caused by you. When you struggle between fear and desires you can create the same stalemates.

How do we get to a point where we do not have conflicted wishes?

Be certain of what you want, or better yet, let the Lord decide for you. If you do not hold the burden of wishing, then you also do not hold the burden of details. What God wills involves no conflict. Only your desperate struggles cause conflicts. If God gives you His will, then there can be no conflict. You get conflicted when you assume that you must figure out what is best for you and how to accomplish it. You need only realize that you have already mapped out your life and that what you have chosen will happen. You need only learn to enjoy the ride.

How do we reconcile the physical and the spiritual, the illusion and the reality?

Awareness of the illusion puts it into proper perspective. By realizing the unreal, the real is brought to the forefront. By then being able to focus on the real, the unreal is really not a bother. It is simply there for the facilitation of the real. You only need the physical to experience the spiritual. The unreal is the servant of the real. Who's driving the bus? Put emphasis upon the real and the unreal is always taken care of. You need not be a slave to the unreal. Give the physical the respect that it needs merely as it serves the real. Keep your mind always on the real. The spiritual should always drive the bus and the bus will stop or start when the spirit calls it to service.

So we are to simply get up in the morning and ask for the spirit's direction?

Yes, quite literally. It will offer you guidance perfectly for the perfection of your journey.

Please give us an example.

You get up in the morning. You ask for spiritual guidance. If there is nothing to do, you will be told this. If there is something to do, you will be told. Let's say that there is one who needs your help and has called you forth. Perhaps just for a kindness. You will be told where you should go. You will be guided by some purpose that you may not even know relates to one who has called for your kindness. Let's say that spirit tells you to go buy milk. You will be guided to where the person is which is where you will buy milk. You may not realize that you are doing anything other than buying milk. But you will give and receive exactly what is called for. Until your awareness grows, you cannot see the workings of spirit. You may imagine that you just need milk. When you are fully aware, you will learn to see every encounter as a spiritual event. Not just the good, but every interaction. If you stop to think, even those times when you were not aware, you were directed for a purpose. Take for instance your latest outing. Perhaps you were only there to get stuff and provide companionship. Perhaps you smiled at someone who needed it. Never underestimate your every encounter. You change the world every day. If you realize this, you are more spiritually focused. By being present in every moment you can begin to see your impact upon the world.

Remember when Charles and Doreen saw everyone as light – that's the final step! God shows you the true nature of reality. Until this is revealed, you will continue to live in separation, not fully in Oneness. Once you have seen the world for the illusion that it is, you will be forever changed and unable to see anything except truth. Once you have seen the God in all, you will not again be so distressed by the illusion. It is profound if you are not prepared. Be aware and get prepared. See the world as it truly is.

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Re-learning involves creation with full potential. The un-learning is difficult. It puts into question all that you have come to think is real and important. But, like spring cleaning, you must make room for relearning by getting rid of the old ways of thinking. This is not to say that relearning is easy, but it does involve life experienced as never before. Instead of waiting and hoping, you realize that God is not in the sky, but is inside of you and that you are the creative force that makes your life what it is. You are the miracle maker. You are the responsible party for your thoughts do matter and your choices do impact your life. Whether you choose to create or react is up to you. Those who are happy are those who create. Those who react are forever miserable. The realization of your creative power is a monumental leap toward happiness. If you see yourself as creative, you are not a victim. The victim mentality keeps you reactive and behind the curve. Why not step up to the plate and take your rightful place? There is nothing but happiness to be gained by your feeling powerful. Allow yourself creative freedom to be free. Only in freedom will you ever really know the full expression of your Godliness.

There still seems to be disparity between what you say and what we can do.

There are many levels of creation. Remember the building blocks? The first level is to retrain your thought process. By retraining you to think like God, you begin to see the possibilities. The next step involves practical application in your daily life. The supernatural level involves the higher powers which seem the most elusive. No one thing is more elusive than the others, but the intent and focus must be realized in order to manifest on such a level. You don't hear many stories about regular folks knowingly having intentional behaviors as did Jesus. Some people stumble into a recognition of gifts, but generally it is the masters who develop over time the means to manifest on the highest level. Understand that with great power comes tremendous responsibility. It would not bode well for selfish judgmental people to walk around manifesting according to their whims.

Imagine those judgmental and vindictive people forcing their will upon others. The simple statement or thought "I wish you were dead" would manifest instantly and many would be dead. Absolute power corrupts absolutely. God has to keep power awareness away from those ill-equipped to handle it. I do not bring you to knowledge that you are not ready to handle. Timing is everything. You may feel that we have wasted much time, but I assure you that your undivided attention is needed for you to develop the connection needed to grow spiritually. Lack of distractions allowed you to have the focus to turn to Me daily to get your lessons. Haven't you noticed a trend toward learning then working?

Your prayers have been answered and your call has been heard. You have cried out for mercy – that your work be for God that you have no distractions from His service. Your inner need to always be with God has caused you to be dissatisfied with other occupations. You have always wanted deeply to serve God, but you have not known how. But all is not lost, you have been given the chance to serve God as you have always desired. You serve Me everyday. You teach always by your words. You offer strength to those who would seek to know Me. There has been seeming sacrifice in this world. You have given up your worldly attachments even if sometimes unwillingly. Your truest desires have been made manifest. As you have cried out to God to give you the opportunity to serve, I have answered. And My answer is not a one time thing, but will continue until you no longer have need. I AM with you always, even when I appear absent. It cannot be that I AM not with you. What kind of God would I be to let you down when you have called most upon Me?

Your deepest desires will come to you as if you simply thought them up. They are not new ideas or thoughts, but simply the remembering of what you chose before this life.

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The illusion is based on judgment. All things you see are as you would have them be. If you see Jesus standing before you, your first thought is one of judgment. You start to analyze through your perceptive filter what you see. You do not simply "see" what is there, you place judgments upon it. You make no allowance for vision as you make vision what you see. You put values on things which have no value. This need not be so. If your judgments are suspended and vision is simply received, then you will see clearly that which truly is. Look at yourself. What do you see? Allow yourself to analyze what you see and soon your sight of self will be mired in all sorts of judgments. You will systematically place judgments upon every aspect of your vision – your hair, your eyes, your skin, etc. You will then see yourself in a much different light. This is most obvious to anorexics. They see themselves as fat when all the world sees them as emaciated. Can the mind really sway perception so grossly?

Of course, you will never see through your physical eyes things as they truly are for you run your sight through perceptive filters. You believe that they are correct, but as surely as no two people see the same thing even if looking at the same object, you see what your mind creates. The Rorschach test is an example of this in action. Ink blots are seen differently by different people. The exact same image is distorted when brought through different perspective filters. Take a seat at the mall and look around. Make notes if you choose. Have someone else do the same. Compare your notes and see that the same vision is vastly different. What but perception can account for the differences?

How do we turn off the filter and see more clearly?

In this life, you really cannot turn off the filter. You can know how your perception works and can practice keeping it in perspective. It's much like learning to walk, once you understand the mechanics, you can learn to operate within them. We have sought to make you aware of your thought processes – to let you know how your mind works and does create your reality. With this knowledge, you can start to reshape your reality without the seeming creations of others impacting upon your life. Instead of your being the victim, you see that you do in fact create your reality. You see things how only you see them. We tend to believe that everyone somehow sees the same things. With a little practice, we learn that our perception is really about placing judgments upon things. In order to see clearly, we must suspend judgment so we can realize how we operate. Vision need only be received. No judgment is necessary.

You meet someone for the first time and suddenly you have a wealth of judgments about them. Do the clothes make the person? In our minds, yes. Does the outer appearance determine or in any way indicate what is on the inside? In our minds, yes. Our first impressions determine how we will interact further with this person, even if the person has said nothing to us. Doesn't this make sense? We have judged without even having any honest input from the person. If you were seen at work on Monday as you look at home on Saturday, would you be seen differently? We can assume that what we are is not our outer appearance. But, on what other levels are we seen or do we see? There is far more to you than meets the eye.

How do we let go of judgments more and more on all levels?

Be receptive to all things. Allow information to flow toward you. Do not try to change it or make it what you would have it be. Be a receptacle – allow vision to come to you freely. You need judge no one. In fact, your judgments make your misery. If you accept your situation as a perfectly timed experience, then you will have a better experience. If you judge your situation as bad, your experience of it will be bad. The situation is the same, regardless of how you see it. In all of life there are two seeming choices to make – good or bad, fear or love. These are relative to you and do not mean the same to others. But for you, you can be optimistic or pessimistic. Nothing in itself is either. You are neither good nor bad, you just are. Without judgment, you are perfect. See the perfection in all things and don't be so interested in trying to create perfection. Receive perfection. It's God's gift to you.

§ PEARL OF WISDOM § - ONLY YOU CAN MAKE THE PERFECT IMPERFECT.

§ PEARL OF WISDOM § - YOU CREATE MISERY WHERE THERE IS NONE.

Help us to see what we should – the final step taken by God is what?

A total shift in perspective, from the unreal to the real. One must be ready for the transition is radical. No longer are things seen as before. No longer do you see yourself as you thought you were. You acquire universal perspective, Oneness. You have been given hints. When the final step is taken by God, the world changes, if only from your vantage point.

There does come a point in life of total dissatisfaction with the system. Peace is not found and therefore the will begins to shut down. Hopelessness sets in and man is left without either the willingness or desire to continue life as it is. Surely at this saturation point, there must be an alternative to death. There must be a better way.

And there is, if you are willing to give up control. The process will flow effortlessly once control is given to God and His perfection is allowed. You are returned to your natural state, to the "Garden of Eden." Your mind set is forever altered. There is no return. You will have seen the light. At last, you will live as God intended. You will become His receiving and sending unit. Technically, this process has been happening slowly over the past few years. You are beginning to see that things are not as you thought they were. You are not meant to be miserable. You are not at the mercy of the world. You simply are. You are at every moment without any effort on your part, exactly as God intended. You are all that you can be now and forever. There is not an accomplishment that will make you whole. There is nothing that you are not right now. Once you realize this and let go of your preconceived notions about yourself, you will reconnect with your peace and your entire life will be transformed.

Allowing God to control the process is really very freeing indeed. You no longer worry about details nor have fear that you need anything. A mere shift from driver to passenger is really all you need do. If God is your co-pilot, you are in the wrong seat. You need only receive that which is already yours. You will be told what to do before you need to do it. Allow the process to flow perfectly, unimpeded by the interference from your fearful thoughts. Let the river run its course for its course was set long ago.

This is hard to incorporate into our daily lives. It is so radically different from what we were taught.

Jesus told you this, but you sought to put your own spin on things. "God helps those who help themselves" is your motto. In reality, God helps everyone all the time. He gives you perfect guidance. Allow yourself to be guided and you will see that your perfection will flow effortlessly toward you.

At what point does this become the standard operating procedure in our experience?

When you let go of the ropes. In the movie Bruce Almighty, after Bruce truly submitted to God's will, his will really was done. The struggle was over.

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Honor yourself always in all ways. With self honesty, you are free to teach it to others. You cannot appropriately teach what you have not experienced. Your happiness and joy comes from within, never from without. Let your light shine unimpeded by the constraints of the world. Love yourself for the thrill of being who you are. You are forever your own best friend or enemy. If you can't trust yourself...and you have not trusted yourself and your innate abilities, you are certainly no less or more than any other person. Look not at the lives of others for your happiness. Be true to yourself. That which you hate most in others is that which you find most offensive in yourself. Allow yourself the freedom to be who you are and others the same. There is no right or wrong – the sense of wrongness comes from doing what you hate. There is no more or less than this. Discordant energies will always bring forth undesired results.

A first look at undesired results will offer the opportunity to make better choices. If the lesson is learned, greater lessons will follow. If the lesson is not learned, then more of the same old misery will manifest. Seek not the answers outside of yourself. You do have all the answers inside. Love yourself first and then you will be able to love others. For you are the guide for others. Just as you had no clue how to think differently, now you can teach others.

**Chapter 11 – Common Sense**

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Be that which you are. Wear your crown and be truly what your spirit begs you to be. Let not doubt or fear ever again blind you to the possibilities before you. Let happiness shine forth. You are God's gift to those who know not how to connect, just as you didn't. All are not scholars; all do not seek vast knowledge of the world. There are those among you who only seek peace and you will show them the easiest path to self awareness. God need not be complicated. You bring the simplicity of God to the masses. You are the one who has chosen to teach the easy way to God. Complexity is not the means to reach those who have called you forth. You speak to those who are exhausted with conventional means of approaching God. You will open their eyes and let them see themselves as magnificent even if their circumstances do not reflect magnificence.

The world is full of scholars on many subjects and on many levels. You will teach "The Common Sense Approach To God," so that no one need be excluded. You will show that the simple eye-opening exercises are the ones which will turn losers into winners. You will demonstrate that power comes from within, not without. The opinions of others seldom motivate us; therefore, we must be self motivating. There need be no starting or ending point, there need only be willingness to let God enter. Seek and you will find. Take the simple examples from the crowd and demonstrate magnificence in every one. You need not be ready, for all will come to those who are even the least bit curious. This is not about God, this is about self empowerment. Let My people go. Let them freely seek to know themselves fully. Let them learn that their questions are answered and answered in meaningful ways. Let their spirits soar unto the heavens. Let the dreamers re-emerge and soar on the wings of possibilities.

There is no greater love demonstrated than the power of Oneness. Surely it is just as easy to see possibilities as impossibilities. Allow dreamers to walk the earth. Let the prison doors fly open. The bars of restriction so long held in place need limit us no longer. Be free to be happy. In America, you have the right to life liberty and the pursuit of happiness – literally. Obviously, this is not the result of our efforts. It would seem that we have the right to death, restriction and the pursuit of death defiance. Fear, not happiness, is the primary motivator of our lives. In a slow tedious process, we have allowed the opinions of others to take away our pursuit of happiness and to see ourselves as limited. Are we content with limitation or do we choose unlimited possibilities? In every moment of every day, choose either limited or unlimited possibilities. This is your task.

You now decide for yourself. You no longer allow others to decide for you what you can or cannot do or be. How is it that you have for so long been fooled into thinking that you have no choice? Surely, you have choices in your experiences. As surely as there are choices, there are consequences. Be sure that your choices are made so that the consequences are a peaceful reflection of your perfect choices. Make your choices for you and you alone. Imagine that you are the only one who has input into your choices. Let go of the teachings of others. Look deeply inside and pull out the dreams that you held as a child. Analyze them from all angles. Feel the feelings associated with them. Imagine that God told you that you could be, do and have whatever you chose. What would you choose? Before the first negative thoughts enter your mind, imagine that there are no restrictions upon the realization of your dreams. Don't consider the why not's; don't get caught up in the how to's. For just a few minutes let yourself dream. Don't dream about material things for they are but a side effect of the dream. Focus only on the special talent that hides within each of you. The dreamer waits for you to acknowledge him/her once more.

Don't be distracted as no one is watching nor are there any judgments to be had. You are free to be honest. You have the right to be who you want to be. Please understand that only by pursuing your dream will you ever be happy. It is a part of you that must be honestly sought. Money does not buy happiness – do what you love and then the money will come. A life focused on material acquisition will never bring a smile to your face. Never! There will never be enough and your life will always be filled with lack. But, if you are happy with or without, then your happiness is assured. You will have always what you need to fulfill your dream.

Rest assured that you can overcome any seeming limitation simply by thinking that you can. The only blocks to success in our lives are those which are held within our thoughts. Stop thinking yourself a failure and you will no longer be one. Think that you are successful and suddenly you are. All the trappings of the material world flow around your primary focus. Those who think themselves as successful are. Period. You may not judge them as successful, but your opinion counts for nothing. Why would you seek to impart your negativity upon another? Does it serve you or them well? No, so if negative and positive are equal forces, why not choose to be a positive influence on others? Why not wish others well?

You can never truly feel good about yourself if you seek to hurt another. You may feel vindicated for a moment, but you will realize that it is a hollow victory. It will not make you a hero. It will not make you the envy of all. You will never be truly exalted by doing harm to another. The natural intent of the heart of man is kindness. Kindness is one of the displays of a happy person. True kindness flows freely from the happy heart. A happy person can only wish happiness upon others. There are those who may wear disguises of happiness, but the actions exhibited will never be kind or loving.

How do we take a totally downtrodden and heartbroken person and teach him/her to love self and rethink the process?

See the beauty in all things. Know that change is constant and that all things are possible. You cannot change anyone, you can simply offer the tools with which they choose or choose not to use. Simply offer hope to those who don't have any. Trust in the messages that you are given.

Dr. Wayne Dyer said, "An idea is inspiration leading you to where you were meant to go." You gave me the revelation yesterday "an idea is the re-membrance of that which you scripted for your life." How do we know which ideas are meant to be and which ones are meaningless?

All ideas are meaningful to some extent. The passion with which you are drawn to an idea will demonstrate its intended impact on your life. Those ideas which bear fruit are those you will see are meant to be. Those ideas that ring true, that you cannot forget, are those that are part of your purpose. Ideas are felt rather than just thought. Such ideas come in times of peacefulness. They do not come from our thoughts. They are simply received. Instantly, you connect with them. They are more than idle passing thoughts.

How do we differentiate those that are truly inspired and are a part of our destiny?

Feelings tell the tale. If you are not totally joyous at an idea, then it is not an inspired idea. When you contemplate solutions and come up with your own answers, these are responses and not inspirations. The feelings of each are different. You do not merely think it a great idea, but you feel a connection to it. You need not think up ideas; they come to you just as your messages do. You did not think about writing books, you were simply told to write. The complete picture is given you when you are inspired. You need only receive.

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" _Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things." (I Corinthians 13:7, NAS) Love is all there is and all there ever will be. Know that love is the key to happiness. It is your inherent nature. It is inspired. Reconnect with that part of you and you will see that all things will come to you by divine providence. I AM a loving God and seek to only give you what you desire. Be clear about what it is that you desire and surely it is yours. There can never be a true desire which remains unfulfilled. Know what your truest desire is and you will see it._

Pray that your days are filled with happiness and the peace of God. If at any time you are not filled with happiness and the peace of God, stop yourself and force yourself into the knowingness that God is in control. For your peace is found in God's benevolence and not in your own mind. It is truly a matter of who is in control. If you see that you are in control and must do something to alter the situation, you will never be at peace for you know not what to do. If you know that God is in control, you can relax and not worry. If the burden of responsibility is given to God, you can have no guilt nor feel obligated to find the solution to your problem. It is a question of authorship. If you see that you somehow made yourself, then you are obligated to care for yourself. If you know that God created you and gives you everything that you need to serve your purpose, then you are not in control and need do nothing. You will be told exactly what you should do before you need to do it. In this way, you are free to be at peace at all times. It truly is a matter of faith in your Creator. If He made you, He will care for you.

If you shift from God view to self view (as to whom you see in control,) you will see that you have struggled. If God view is your vision, you will see that you have caused yourself to struggle. God has not caused you to struggle. Most of your struggles are because you have not known that God is in control. If your life had been lived from a God perspective, you would see that there was no struggle, except within yourself. You have always been given what you need, with or without your efforts. The lesson that you must learn is "you control nothing." This determines how you see and live your life.

Acceptance and allowance. That's the two features that bring forth happiness. Choose happiness and let the chips fall where they may. You can like it or not, you can fight it or accept it. You can be mad or glad. You can be free or in prison. The choice you have is simply who you see as the holder of control.

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In trying to step outside the drama of the illusion, your ego fights with all its might to hold on. But its grip is slipping. You are forcing it to let go having realized that it only brings misery. Happiness is a choice, a decision. All decisions offer only two real choices – good or bad, as you see things. You can call them spirit or flesh, God or man, etc. It matters not. Love or hate is typically the best associative wording. All decisions or seeming choices come from these two root origins. Like the tree of life or the tree of death, the branches flow forth. The fruit will demonstrate the very nature of the roots. If you see yourself as a tree, what type of fruit do you bear?

We seem to be as monkeys jumping from one tree to the other. We can't seem to be consistent.

There once was a time when you lived mostly in the hate tree. Now you are in the process of shifting to the love tree. The in-between transition period is upon you. As you choose more and more often to rest in the love tree, you will spend less and less time in the hate tree. You now know that it is only a matter of choice. You can be either in one or the other, but not both at the same time. Truly, you do have a choice to make. Which tree will bear your fruit?

There is another aspect that we should discuss. The ability to let go of physical concerns in favor of spiritual concerns. It is certainly one thing to live in the clouds, but the illusion issues keep peeping through. How can we teach people to simply let go and live in spirit when there are bills to pay, kids to feed? Is this truly in the best interest of those who depend upon us?

Short term sacrifice for long term gain, in your economic terms. There need never be a choice between happiness and feeding your kids. One goes hand in hand with the other. Part of your happiness is for your kids to be happy. But, this is not to say that kids' every want should be cause to sacrifice happiness of all. There are lesser and greater choices that you seem to have to make. But, the root decision determines all others. If you choose to live in spirit, God will prepare the way. If you choose to live in hate, God will prepare the way. Your primary motivation will bear fruit. What fruit will you bear? If you see life as lacking, you will experience those circumstances. If you see life as abundant, you will experience those circumstances. Cause and effect, the law of attraction – they are all the same and are based on your primary motivations. The simple choice between love and hate will cause your circumstances to mirror the choice.

Does it really work that way?

Yes. All that you have read and been taught leads to this conclusion.

But there are levels of complexity – life script, unconscious desires, etc. When is the choice really made?

Every minute of every day. If you scripted to work at the saw mill, you will work at the saw mill. You cannot change that. What you can change is your experience of it. You can choose to love it or hate it. You can see it as the greatest experience of your life, or you can hate every minute of it. The choice of experience, regardless of circumstance, is the only choice you have.

What of an absolutely miserable circumstance, regardless of our choice to make the most of it?

It was manifested by you to help others as you asked to serve. You were given the opportunity to serve so it wasn't about you. As you had scripted the job, you were to experience it as you chose. Love it or hate it and draw from it what you will. It was a learning experience for you. You had the final lesson in doing what you hate at the expense of your happiness. You chose to serve in an avenue that was useless. But, you needed to be shaken from your dependence upon the world. The realization that you no longer choose to be held in prison was revealed in living color. There were side benefits to others who were with you. You gave others the experience of choice also. All are affected by your choices. What fruit will you bear? There are those who can be happy in any situation. They are the ones who are fully content. Outside circumstances do not determine their choices. They simply are and they are rare.

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You have arrived at the doorstep of your heart. Your heart is the door that will open to all possibilities. You have hidden the door to your heart and have kept its cries hidden beneath the thinking of your mind. Let the voice of your heart be heard. Be free to let it lead the way to heaven. In all things, align your heart and mind with the heart being the leader and the mind being the follower. You cannot fake heart felt emotions. They are the barometer of your soul. Your feelings will let you know if you have made the right choice in all things.

By choosing for heart, how will we know what else to choose?

Choose for heart and all else will be revealed. You need not sit around and wonder about how to fix your situation. You need only ask that solutions be presented. You cannot force solutions to come as you do not know all the possibilities. Your choices would be based on what you know, like you only see winning the lottery as your way out of present circumstances. This is not the only possibility, despite your own analysis. Surely, it is one solution, but it may not be the best possible solution. As in a chess game, one move creates other possibilities that did not before exist. Unless you see all possibilities at all times, you do not have enough information to make a wise choice. One thing always leads to another and another. That's why the future is a mystery. You will forever be caught in an act and react scenario until you realize that none of it matters. Doing this or doing that in the long run is equal. It doesn't matter.

If we choose to help others, would it not stand to reason that choices do matter?

Nothing truly matters. The world does not depend upon you. You can help or not, you can feel that you win or lose, but nothing will mater in truth. The spirit world cannot be altered by your body. In truth, spirit is all that matters and it is not affected by the physical.

Should we just sit and do nothing?

You need not even await death. You can die at any moment that you choose. You are here by your own choice.

If we choose to remain here, then how do we know what to do?

Listen to your heart, know the consequences, and follow your dreams.

How do we follow our dreams?

You are always led by spirit to where you shall go. You are not left to your own devices.

Tell us what to do to follow my dreams.

Be still and await my call.

The call seems to be withheld.

Has it occurred to you that by helping someone else fulfill their dreams that yours will be fulfilled?

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Have you noticed how your day started on your own leads to a sense of disconnection? When you are not intentionally connected, you are seemingly alone? It is only when you consciously choose to connect that you felt that you are not alone. It is your intention to connect that causes you to feel connected. It is vitally important that you start the day connected. Choose first to be connected and you will enjoy the connected feeling all day. Burn this into your daily routine. It is important to always feel that you are not alone. Separation is the error that you need correct every minute of every day.

Teach us to feel connected.

By choosing to be connected at all times, you feel a sense of peace that comes from Oneness. Aloneness causes feelings of guilt and condemnation which put you ill at ease for seemingly no reason. Allow yourself to be forever in connectedness for you are never alone. It is only in your thoughts that you are alone for you imagine that because you do not see that you have not. Spiritual vision will reveal the reality as it truly is. Let not your physical eyes keep you blind to all that surrounds you spiritually.

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At all times, there are two voices responding to your thoughts. One is characterized as good and one as bad. In reality, neither is real. How we see a situation will determine the voice of choice. If we see that we have been harmed, we will listen to the voice of self-preservation. If we see that we have been gifted, we will listen to the voice of love. The twosomes we hear are often characterized as spirit and ego. In cartoons, they are drawn as an angel and a devil.

We are not aware of the twosome in our heads. We typically think that we must respond in kind and are therefore simply reactive. We fail to realize that before we react, we judge. An event happens within our perceptive field. We see it, judge it and choose our response. Typically, we will base our responses on past experiences or on input from others sources. Seldom do we have the detached perspective to simply realize that no effect was intended upon us. The circumstance simply happened and only your thoughts brought it into your reactive response circle. Even if the event did not physically touch you, you feel compelled to respond. In an instant, you have created a whole story and have created an experience based solely on your judgments. Jumping to conclusions is an almost natural response to all that is around us. Our egos place us at the center of things not meant for our inclusion.

Why are we so prone to assume that we are at the center of all we see and hear? Why are we not more realistic about our experiences?

We have a great need to be important; therefore, we place ourselves even where we were never meant to be. Then we judge and choose our responses. We feel obligated somehow to judge and place blame on everything we see, hear and do. It is so automatic that we almost feel that it is our God given right.

One perceived event has created something from nothing. Yet, we certainly don't see it as nothing. We have created an experience and somehow feel that it created itself. This is an illusion and in no way is real. But in our minds, it is very real. In fact, if given a lie detector test, you would honestly swear that you had been affected by this circumstance and your reaction would be so real to you that you would swear to its authenticity.

At this point, you are not able to reverse the process to sort out what really happened and what did not. You have created something very real to you, but only to you. There are many examples of such occurrences. Suppose you are in traffic and another car appears to be trying to run you off the road. It could just as easily be that the car's driver hasn't seen your vehicle and is simply driving erratically because he is on the phone. But, in your mind, you think, judge and believe that the other driver is trying to run you off the road. Real or imagined, you create the reality based on your judgments and your reality is born. Road rage often is the result of non-related events being judged wrongly. But in your mind, you now have the right to take vengeance on the person who "assaulted" you. Justice is yours and you intend on dishing it out. At this point, there is not a person alive who can convince you that you are wrong.

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You have asked Me for signs. Here's your signs:

  _Stop feeling sorry for yourself._

  _Yield to your intuition._

  _Go with what you know._
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Try feeling things based on your own desires. Be honest with yourself. What is it that you desire?

Freedom to enjoy life.

Freedom, like all things in life, is a mindset. The pursuit of freedom must be held in high esteem. Imagining freedom to live as you would like is a first step in arriving at the solution. It is ok to dream dreams. It is ok to want and search and choose and change. There is no harm in this. You have somehow gotten the message that it is wrong to dream. This is in error. It is God's desire that you be free to create. Don't put stipulations on it. Allow dreams to be realized from the only source that can perfectly provide them. You cannot force miracles to happen. You cannot force people into your life. You cannot know what is ahead. You see with limited vision and do cut off your own nose by attaching requirements to dreams.

Depend only upon God for your support. Put not your life in the hands of others for they will not take care of you. Be not judgmental of those who would affect you in ways not according to your wishes. Let them do what they will and you do what you must. You cannot change other people. Seek only to change yourself. When you put your support in the hands of those who do not honor God, you are in for disappointments. In God only will you find true support.

Tell us more about the patterns of life.

Once you become aware of repeating patterns, you will see them almost at once. They often relate to specific themes such as love, loving self and others, the right and wrong choices, choosing for want and not for need. You have need of nothing. This is a major life theme. You may want for everything, but truly you need nothing. All that you need is automatically provided. All that you want is not. Learning to depend upon God is in essence "letting go and letting God." This is your primary life lesson. And you have been gifted with an excellent teacher of its opposite.

§ PEARL OF WISDOM § – LET GO AND LET GOD!

This is the same as allowing your life plan to play itself out. You have for so long thought that you could change anything by your effort. You are starting to learn that all things work for the good of them that love the Lord and are called according to His purpose. As you have written in your plan to serve God, then serve you must. Once you learn to stop fighting the system, which you never win, you can learn to walk as Christ did and always be in the flow. You need not be outside the flow. In fact, you never are. You imagine yourself to be because you still see yourself in control.

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How fun is it to learn how God works? There must come peace into the mind that understands God's ways. Be ever diligent to know God and let not your interest wane in pursuit of truth. God chooses to be known. The global communication of the world makes it possible to know God as never before. What you can readily get in books or on television or through the internet is marvelous. God will be known. No longer is the world at the mercy of the few who would be the purveyors of God's messages. Let it be understood that each person gets the messages appropriate for their learning. The message for one is not necessarily the message for another. Each person must sift the messages through their own siv to get the truth for himself. No longer must you accept the opinions of others as truth. You can go directly to God now that you realize that you can. Allow God to speak to you. Ask and God will turn up the volume in your head so that you will hear. Your willingness to hear is all that is necessary to hear. Be still and listen. God's messages are peaceful. Any other messages are ego. Learn to feel the difference between the two. Practice is required.

How can a person not practiced receive messages?

Any person who calls upon the Lord will be given the incentive needed to go forth. I would not leave you without the resources to know Me as I truly AM. I will get your attention for I will cause you to notice. There is no medium that I cannot or will not use. I will call your attention to be aware of Me if only you wish to know Me. Some have seen visions; some have dreamed dreams. Some have seen something meaningful on television. Some have experienced miracles. Some have witnessed great acts of kindness. If you need it, it will be given you. God does not fail. You need only be open to the experience. Tell all My children that they are free to call upon Me at any time. But don't call upon Me with the belief that I will not answer. Expect My answer and give Me the chance to be heard. I always answer. All ways.

It would seem that the more we long to hear your voice, the less likely we are to hear it.

_Your interference causes you to not hear. When you are freaked out, you are not likely to hear anything but the voice of fear, your ego. Your fear creates static on the line so that you cannot hear. The heart pounding fear is almost beyond hearing. Until you calm yourself, you will not hear. That's almost guaranteed. In case of an emergency, I can overcome your static. But, this is different than self imposed fear which is simply created within your mind. A great part of the unlearning process is to teach yourself to calm yourself so that you are open to communication. Retrain your mind to not focus on problems, but on solutions. Problems cause fear, solutions cause hope. Allow your mind to be calm so that all solutions come forth. Remember the fable about_ _Henny Penny?_ _Her obsession with the sky falling caused her to operate outside reality. Beliefs are creations of the mind which can just as easily be bad or good in your perception._

In order to hear clearly, let go of your preconceived notions. Put your thoughts aside. Allow your mind to receive. If you create, you will not create your best solution because it will be filtered through your rationale. Never will your filter allow you to receive truth. While receiving, it is likely that you will start to pass judgment on what you are hearing, even as you are hearing it. If I tell you that you are destined to go to Egypt as a missionary, you will immediately determine that you must be hearing wrongly and that there is no way that is going to happen. Soon, you will have rationalized it away. I may as well have not said anything, except that what was said will be etched in your memory and will never quite leave you. It will bubble to the surface again and again. Like a haunting, it will continue to creep to the surface. If the message was Mine, you will never be able to escape it no matter how you try. Trust Me. You cannot avoid My messages, even in spite of yourself.
**Chapter 12 - Allowance**

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Nothing is by accident and there are no coincidences. Nothing is at random. Everything is perfectly timed to happen according to schedule. You planned out your life and now you have enough information to see the patterns. You have been given the life theme and so you can now see everything fall into place. Let go and let God is just another way of saying that you, in God consciousness, did set the life that you now experience. If you trust in your own divinity, you will learn to let go and learn as you have sought to do so. Your life has been a testament to fighting and controlling, trying to gain the upper hand and be able to bring circumstances into the neat structure of your seeming perfection. You have planned and re-planned yourself to exhaustion. You have not yet realized that no amount of planning is sufficient to bring your life under control. Only by letting go will you actually attain control. By mentally allowing life to unfold as it is written, you have actually regained control. By your willingness to let go, you have given control to your higher self (who is actually in control) and will by default bring forth exactly the perfect circumstances that you have always dreamed of experiencing. Your life is written so that this is being revealed to you now for the awesome spectacle that it is. Had you not had the experience of fighting the process, you would not be happy with the relief that comes from letting go.

The letting go process is hard for a control freak, but what do you have to lose? You have seen that you really control nothing, so why not give the process of letting go a whirl? In this, you will finally experience the life of your dreams. This now ends the first half of your life – the learning, unlearning and relearning. It is now complete! Congratulate yourself for you have reached a great milestone on your journey. Now you are free to experience the path of least resistance, in which all things seem to magically float toward you. People will appear. Strange coincidences seem to occur more and more often. You can now relax and enjoy the ride. Freedom at last is finally yours. You have been transformed into a creator who creates, not a reactor who reacts. You will now experience life from a new perspective.

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In the life plan, there are layers upon layers added to the basic foundation and as you have seen, some of your life is given in service to others just as you have been served. Don't make the mistake of seeing all things as simply for your own benefit. Just as others have done great things for you, sometimes you have done for others. In this way you can see the perfection in the process of give and take – one for all and all for one. You are not alone on this journey. You are not the purpose of this journey. You are simply part of the multitudinous purpose of the whole. Imagine for a moment the number of people who have come and gone from your life. It has been a huge number indeed. How can your sight be so limited as to view one line of sight? In your wildest dreams, you cannot even for a moment believe that you are on a path solely for your own benefit. Analyze your plan for the giving and receiving aspects of your life. You are as much a part of the lives of others as they are a part of yours.

You cannot even imagine the complexity of the path that you have designed in conjunction with others. Know that others bring you the perceived good and bad. Neither is better or worse for all are well intentioned. You all have agreed to serve and be served. Some have given more and some have given less. Some have merely passed unnoticed. But there are no chance encounters for they have gotten something from you and you were seen even if you were not aware.

Consider the various aspects of life. Look with a broader vantage point than you are used to seeing. Remember to include yourself in the life plans of others. The pieces are interlocking. Don't think so much linear as holistic. It can be seen as a pyramid – layers built upon layers. It can be seen as a circle. It can be seen as boundless scatter-pattern. Think about what you are, what you've learned, what has affected you and you can see the dots begin to appear which reveal the patterns of your life.

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Celebrate what you have learned and what you are to learn. The world is a better place for your having been in it. It is all better now that you have stepped over to the other side. You will no more harm the world, but will bring it great joy. You will be the facilitator of dreams for others just as dreams were made real for you. You have let go of illusions of seemingly necessary sacrifices and sufferings. You have let go of the seeming need to control every aspect of your life. You have allowed God to show you light as you have not seen since before your birth. Allow God to shine the beacon before your eyes that you will follow the rest of the days of your life. You have succeeded in knowing yourself as reactive creation of the ego. You have glimpsed yourself as the being of light that you are. Your journey will never again be the same. You have graduated from self into Oneness and now realize that you are not separate from anything except your body. Free at last – thank God you are free at last! You are now an asset to the world, no longer a liability.

Surely you must know by now that I AM with you always. I AM constantly interacting with you. The connection is clear to those who tune in to My station. The only distance between us is the width of your ego. Surely you have made great efforts to make the most of this time given you to learn. Just as much effort will be required to maintain the connection and to walk the walk of Christ. In every minute of every day choose love instead of fear. You have seen that fear is an unnecessary element of your life and serves no real purpose. It is merely a self-defense mechanism useful in nothing. It keeps you from My presence. It serves you not. As you are aware of Me always, you know that you have nothing to fear.

Fear is a waste of valuable energy. Waste not your energy on idle pursuits. Expend your energy instead in the constant pursuit of God. In this distractions will melt away. Be proactive instead of reactive. Allow yourself to know the joy of God instead of fearing the world. Remember, dreams are just as real as anything else you see. A nightmare produces reactions just as does your perceived reality. Live not in dreams. Choose no more nightmares, but only happy thoughts of love and joy. Why not choose happiness instead of fear? One is no harder than the other. It's all the difference between simple choices. You now realize this. Always when there is a choice to make, choose the one most associated with peace. Let go of all other choices. Anything else is but a figment of your imagination.

You wrote your life plan to best accommodate the life you have chosen. If you want to be a millionaire, then the means are written in. Whatever you desire was written in. It goes without saying that you cannot have a desire without the means of accomplishment. Let's say that you were fascinated by being a truck driver. You were kind enough to write in both the desire and the fulfillment. Otherwise, you would have played a cruel trick on yourself. The game part is the seeming impossibility that you have written in. If it were not for the seeming unlikelihood of accomplishment, the accomplishment would have no luster. It's the lows that make the highs seem so high. Being a millionaire is meaningless to one who is born into great wealth. To someone who has nothing, being a millionaire is a terrific thing. Think of those who won the lottery. What excitement. Then, one month later, things refocus and suddenly there is a whole new set of problems to consider. No one occurrence makes for total satisfaction. Don't look to a single thing as the answer to all of life's problems. You once thought that what you've accomplished was impossible. It's like running a race. Until realized, each milestone seems impossible.

There are things written into your plan which teach you about your anti-self. These things cause you to experience difficulty to teach you what you do not truly desire. There are things written into your plan which are very easy, even though for many they may be difficult. The likelihood of occurrence has nothing to do with difficulty, but with your having chosen to experience it or not. If it's in your plan, it will happen even against all odds.

The goal of your life is to learn to let go and let God, so until this is realized, you will experience the opposite. Understand that struggle is not necessary. If it is written in the plan, it will happen with the greatest of ease, if control is given to God.

Imagine that you are going on a trip. You are handed a bag to carry with you which contains all that you will need for the trip. As you go along on your trip, you realize that you need money. You open your bag, but find no money. You find instead a key to unlock a money source (your talents, abilities, help from others, etc.) You use the key to unlock the money source and find that all your monetary needs are met. You travel on. Soon you realize that you need food. You open your bag and find no food. Instead, you find the means to acquire the food you need. You use the means and proceed on your journey. It isn't long before you realize that you need to rest. You open your bag and find the means to rest, but not the rest. The moral of the story is: You cannot carry all that you need for this life in one bag or one body. But, your soul carries within it the means to supply all of your needs. Inspiration, ideas, knowings, etc., are the means that you carry to fulfill all of your needs. What things you may need for which you have additional requirements, the means are given also. Your storehouse comes with you. It is not picked up on the way. But, until you need something from the bag, it will not be revealed to you. What's the point of overwhelming you with information needlessly? Take from the bag all that you need. There will always be plenty more to satisfy your every need.

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If life had not already been scripted, how could the future be foretold? This is how I will have answered even before you ask. There is nothing unknown that will not be known. How can this be if it were not somewhere in place? How could Jesus have known in advance the time of His crucifixion if He had not known of the plan? Face it, if it had not somehow been put in place, it could not be known for foretold.

We have been under the assumption that we can use our free will to create our destiny. We have believed that our choices have determined the path of our lives.

Choosing and creating are perceptive things. There are scripted events which can be seen as this or that. You can see a day at the park as delightful or terrible. It's still the same day, but the perception of it makes it what you choose or create – heaven or hell. Remember that your mind has all creative power. Close your eyes and know that this is true. You can create mountains or mole hills of the same quantity of sand. It's all a matter of perspective. You had never guessed how powerful your mind is. You were caught up in the seeming dreams so much that you were fooled into thinking them real. What an awesome game, don't you think?

We're hardly amused at this point with the game.

Ah, but once you get to heaven, you will understand the light in the darkness of your life. If you consider that heaven is good and great and wonderful, why would you write yourself a life of good and great and wonderful? That doesn't even make sense to the most unlearned person. You learn through contrasts. You don't learn by swinging between heaven and heaven.

We see that. But, couldn't we see a little more good just to keep our spirits up.

You have scripted the plan with all of the necessary amounts of "good" and "bad" to serve your purpose. The twists and turns are part of the game. Were it not for the miraculous, you would not appreciate the struggle. Those who get whatever they want when they want it have little appreciation. Those without struggle are arrogant and insensitive. Just as those so early gifted turn to drugs and such, those who fought hard have a greater appreciation and are far more humble. The byproduct of the experience is an attitude. Your attitude is a reflection of the light inside. The degree of light shone is a product of your experiences. If Jesus' humility exemplifies the love of God, then except through supreme knowledge and experience you would not be able to exhibit the love of God. If you were not able to exhibit the love of God, then your purpose as a teacher of God would be lost. Your experiences make you what you are and the attitude that you exhibit. Would your purpose be better served by any attitude other than the one gained through struggle? You cannot teach what you do not know.

Once you understand that life is scripted and you must simply follow along, you will feel less of a need to try to force things to happen. Just as you will fear less and be more peaceful. Trust in your own scripting and allow your soul's desire to be fulfilled. From a place of tragedy one does not teach. From a place of learning and attainment does one teach the lessons learned. Do people attend seminars in homeless shelters to learn about success? People do attend seminars to hear about how a homeless person did overcome adversity and become successful.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Desire, true desire, is but a memory of something written in your plan._

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My will and yours are the same. The disparity is perceived when you see yourself at the center instead of others. You asked to serve, but you didn't really understand that you did not choose whom you serve. You imagined something glamorous and far reaching. You did not intend to serve the world by serving one. And especially one who seems to not be as interested as you are. I did not tell you to only serve the willing for the willing always serve others. It is the unwilling who are led to service, even if seemingly against their will for we respond to their destined choices. A person's true desires manifest, even in spite of their efforts to the contrary. You have answered the call of someone's truest desire. Seeing that you are serving God's will, even and in spite of your own seeming sacrifice, will allow you to be at peace. If you see that you are not being served, you will not find peace. Jesus didn't walk the streets to be served; He knew that He simply had to be available for whatever service was needed. You cannot put expectations on your service. That is not true service. You signed on to help another and it's really not about you.

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You walk in light even as you imagine yourself in darkness. As you teach others to see the light, the light will come upon you at last. As you teach, so shall you learn. In your doing for others, you will have it done for you. When God is in control, you need worry for nothing. All things have lessons to teach, will you learn from them? Be true to yourself. For in this is the only freedom that there is. Set forth to teach others of their own power and in this you are given power. Power you already have but do not yet recognize. Into your awareness comes power and salvation. For as freedom has called you, you have taught it and received it. Allow it to flow toward you. Allow yourself to be empowered as you have taught empowerment to others. See the others as free and you shall see yourself as free. A life is not made in a day and no day holds the key to eternity. There is nothing that you are not and nothing you cannot do or be. Allow the truth of this to flow into your awareness. It is not ego that would have you know this; it is your innermost being that tells you that this is so. Your life is set on course even before you enter it, so let yourself not be worried of what to do or where to go. You will always know what to do. It cannot be otherwise. You have set the course and on it must your life flow. You have imagined that you had constant choices and decisions to make. This is not so. Only your choice between heaven and hell are yours to make. See it as you will, but know that nothing else is uncertain.

How is it that we have been so fooled? The struggles we have fought were for naught?

You long ago asked for the wisdom of Solomon. Now you are seeing the truth about life. Your roller coaster cannot jump the tracks; there are no wrong or right moves. You have only imagined that you have had choices to make. If your destiny calls for this, then so it shall be. You cannot change one thing no matter how hard you try. Let go and let God. For in this is wisdom and freedom. Guilt and shame are gone as you can be held accountable for nothing. You are the creator of the illusion. You have no need for fear or guilt or shame. You are simply on the ride.

But surely, how we see the ride or that we see it as a ride, indeed does change it dramatically.

Surely it does. But, the shift from controller to controlled puts on a different mindset and experience. If you choose to be free, then surely you can only be if you let go of the steering wheel and know that the car is on auto pilot.

We are so fooled by the system that we think we are in control. What an elaborate system.

Were you not fooled by it, you would not have been vested in it. It would not have convinced you of its reality and you would not have learned from it. You cannot manipulate the system. It is only replaying for your enjoyment. You cannot know yourself or comeback to your truth unless you have seen what you are not.

But still we are largely trapped in the wrong mindset. How do we escape to be free?

Letting go more and more. When you see that freedom is in not doing or controlling, then more and more it will dawn on you that you are free, honestly free to do as you please.

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_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Thinking is of man; knowing is of God._

You have taught yourselves to think rather than know. In order to know God, you must not think, but simply know. God comes to the quiet mind. Be still and know that I AM God. You don't remember by thinking. You remember by listening in stillness. This is why you can't remember when you are trying. There is conflict for the air waves. By not trying to remember, you do. Generally, when you are doing something else, the memory simply "comes" into your mind. Revelations don't come from thinking. They come to the empty space left vacant when thoughts are stopped or are focused elsewhere. This is how ideas come to you. Until you have mastered meditations, it is helpful to be distracted on a subject completely different. In writing or painting or driving or watching television. Each mind works differently. So, whatever works best for you. But, if you are not creating a mental vacuum, knowing will not come to you. So, be at peace and knowing will float up into your awareness.

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Regardless of all else imagined, what is written will happen. If you wrote that you'll be a bull rider, you will. So what if you don't think you want to or don't have the nerve. It will come upon you and suddenly you'll want nothing but to be a bull rider. Whatever is written will be revealed. You may not even know at first what is coming, but you will. To reconnect with that which is to be is most closely associated with remembering. Before the time is at hand, a memory (reconnection) seems to come into your head. You don't necessarily remember it in the traditional sense, but you seem to know that it is what you have desired. You are at once aware of your being drawn to something, even though you may not know why or how. If you think back, you'll notice that what is meant to be seems to come from nowhere, at your own behest. You will have called it forth, even if you do not remember. The players in your script call you to them or them to you. By divine intervention are the dramatic events of your life destined. The most seemingly unlikely events show themselves to be very meaningful.

Unseen forces are at work to bring forth the manifestation of your life script. It is the shear unlikelihood that draws your attention to them. Were they mundane and ordinary, you would not give them a second thought. The weirdness makes them noticeable. They are the milestones. Signposts meant to get your attention and keep you on the right path. Your awareness of these signposts allows you to understand your connection to the plan. These events are dramatic turning points. Remember how amazed you were that Beth came for a time, suddenly into your life by divine intervention? Remember that you knew that she was sent to show you the light? You didn't even suppose that this was not so. Destiny reaches its hand into the most unlikely places. This is how you cannot miss or be at the wrong place. If you put all the random pieces in place, you'll see that they are not random at all.

We still don't see the patterns. What were we thinking when we wrote this plan?

You weren't. Destiny does not come by thinking. It is divinely inspired. There is far more at work than you know to how the soul works. You would have to understand how the spirit works on the higher levels to understand why you wrote what you wrote. You have been shown a bare minimum of what there is to understand. The system is seemingly very complex until you know how it works.

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The peace of God is a state of perfect balance where there is no turbulence. Being high or low is a state of being out of balance. Balance is total calm. It is the state that your soul seeks.

But is excitement not a good thing?

What goes up, must come down. If something is neither high nor low, it cannot waiver. This is the state of perfection – the peace of God.

This is a state of no fun, excitement or passion. How is this a good thing?

It depends on your investment. If you feel excitement purely for the fun of it, with no investment, then you have enjoyed the experience. But, if you think that only fun and excitement are good, then you won't be able to live through the lows. You should see the balance in all things. Know that regardless of circumstances, peace is the goal. All emotions bring forth experience. Experiences are the indicators that you have used to size up your life. You have surely seen more lows than highs in this life. Only from a place of peace can there be contentment. The amount of emotional swing determines the amount of investment (attachment) that you have. When you value all experiences equally, there is no swing. One thing is equal to another. There truly is no good or bad.

Is it not the seeming good that keeps our interest in the game?

Sure, when you had no other understanding. Once you mature to higher levels, you realize that you need emotion to motivate you. You are aware of how you have enjoyed emotion and even used it as a tool to justify behavior. You have no need to conquer the world. But, your desire to feel good about yourself causes you to set forth that goal which justifies your efforts to conquer the world. You want to feel the pride of accomplishment. The desire to feel this causes you to even do things you would not ordinarily do. A mature soul is not drawn by what you have learned are meaningless dramas of life. You are satisfied to sit by and watch the action. From the detached vantage point, you can see the futility of it all. This is wisdom – this is truth. You are not what you think or feel or do. These are just toys in your play box.
**Chapter 13 - Remember**

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Until you decide what it is that you truly desire, without exception, it will not come to pass. Not the specifics, but the overview. When you have chosen, seeming coincidences and miracles will occur to bring it into your reality. The seeming coincidences are the means to bring forth from your life plan, what you have chosen. By remembering it, it comes forth. You wrote it, so pull it out of your core being. It is deserved, possible and planned. Remember that you wrote I and that is why you have the desire. You didn't just stumble on the desire. It has been with you always. You just forgot. A desire is the manifestation of what has been long since written into your life plan. Remember it!

It is written that all things come to those who wait. All things work for the good of them who love the Lord and are called according to His purpose. Do you believe that this is so?

We are now led to believe that whatever is written in the plan will come to pass.

Would you have not written in the desire and its fulfillment? Just as you desired a sports car, it was given. Both the desire and the fulfillment are guaranteed. Why would you write one without the other? You have to have both to complete the experience. You have to experience not having to appreciate having. In the world of duality, you have incorporated both. You have written all circumstances with the perfect contrasts also. If you have disappointment, surely you shall also have its opposite. If you have written in knowledge, you will also have written its use. What's the point of half an experience? There would be none. So, look at the patterns of your life and see the good and bad. If you wrote in forty bad years, then you also wrote in forty good years. Both make the whole in the game of life. If you have lived without, then surely you will live with.

Remember our discussions about primary focus? When God does truly shift into first place (if that is your greatest desire,) then your life will follow that placement. While life was your first place, your life always left you feeling empty. Once you realized at last that nothing but God held much interest for you, your circumstances changed. No instantly, you had to get rid of the old and bring forth the new. You had to learn a new way of doing things that incorporated God as number one. All the efforts in learning were for the support of your new section of life. Are you ready for the experience of everything going your way instead of away from you?

Yeah, let's get to it!

Easy there, not all that glitters is God. There will be good and bad in that too. But it's different – bad treatment in prison is different than bad treatment in paradise, or so it would seem depending on your perspective. When you are in the "zone" you are much less affected than when you are not in the zone. If ten percent is bad and ninety percent is good, then you are much less affected.

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You don't create miracles for they have already been created. Things happen which seem to be miraculous because they happen for apparently no reason. They are written in – that's why nothing is impossible. When you are writing your plan, you can make amazing leaps from here to there instantly. All answers are already given. All miracles are already performed. Now you need only see them as miracles, which they are truly not. They are written in just as is everything else. Perhaps this is the greatest miracle of all that you need not worry for it really does no good. To worry is to waste; to enjoy is the best use of life. Did not Solomon encourage us to eat, drink and be merry?

So your greatest secret is that destiny controls everything?

Yep, but you needed to understand your perspectives to be able to fully realize how your mind works and creates your perspective. Until you realized that you are quite the body of misery, you would not have been able to see the truth of things. You did not believe that "all attack is a cry for help," as often stated in A Course In Miracles. You did not realize that you condemn your brother for your own faults. Your own guilt creates most of your misery.

Why has this fact been so hidden from us?

Lack of acceptance and wanting to control. Man has such an ego that he cannot accept not being able to control, or at least have input into things. The relief of not having to worry is not pleasing to the one who seeks to control. Acceptance is very difficult. You like to make things happen.

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What should be properly taught is the benefit of contact with God. If life focus changed from what God can do for me to what can I do for God, the world would be very different. Instead of telling God what to do, try listening to what God wants you to do. It is hard for a doer to stop doing. But, doing does not bring about life's fulfillment. If you have not enjoyed your life, then what has been the point of the busyness? It is from the stillness that you find God and realize that you are doing His will at all times. It is not your will (except that you wrote the plan) that is being done. From the limited vantage point, you have seen so little of life. With God's eyes, you can see far more than you ever imagined possible.

How do we see with God's eyes?

Your awareness has grown. You see far more than you used to. You are now far more aware of things that happen. When once you saw only what was clearly in front of you, now you see much more periphery than before. Your limited viewpoint is so limited that you have very tight tunnel vision. If you but knew what limits were on your sight, you'd be mad for having missed so much. Awareness brings forth sight. Take two days, ten years apart. If you saw the same exact things on those two days, the perceived visions would be totally different.

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Would you expect upbeat and happy from God? Certainly not. You have made Me vengeful and jealous. Surely I would not want you to feel good, would I? Have you considered that through the eyes of man have My messages been filtered? The personality of each is demonstrated in the writings. The messages given are exactly the same – the slant is different only through the filter of the writer. Now, I did choose the writers for the purpose of their particular conveyance. The messages will each appeal to different crowds. The point in all of this is to get the messages out to everyone. Joyce and Joel carry the same messages from two different vantage points. They each have their students and the students are drawn by the presentations.

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There truly is more gained by teaching than learning. The satisfaction gained when another is made to feel good is the greatest feeling. A selfish attainment is none to compare. Sure, it feels good to get, but to give is deeply meaningful. Give a smile and get a smile. Love another and receive love. If life had no material concerns, this world would be a different place. If money becomes secondary, then spirit floats to the top. When love is at the top, all of life is filled with love. If money is at the top, nothing is ever enough. Always there needs to be more. What more can there be?

The only thing worth having is love. You somehow imagine that with enough money that you will be loved. Love is never attained this way. For what you treasure is what you aspire to have. By seeking money, you will not find love. By seeking love, money is secondary and flows toward you without effort. These are opposites. I assure you that pursuing one will not give you the other. Pursuing love will give you satisfaction in all areas. Allow your first thought to always be a loving thought. Material attainment, if seen in proper perspective, will be as natural as the flow of the tides. Seek first the kingdom and all will be added unto you.

This seems to be inappropriate and irresponsible. You can't live on love.

But love can provide the life of your dreams. Until you realize that happiness begets happiness and love begets love, you will not know the joy of life. I assure you that material pursuits are not the means to happiness. So you get that new car, a minute later it is old with the attachments of payments. That new house becomes the money pit. As you are focused, so shall you see. If you see that God's service for you requires a new car and house, then it will be viewed as necessary. If you see that these things aren't necessary, you will not see them. Do what you do in sincere pursuit of God's service. This is all the justification that you need. You need only please your self. You deserve to have your needs fulfilled. Ask yourself this question, "What do I need for God's service?" Answer honestly and do not rule out anything for you will not be deprived of your needs. If you know that God chooses that you have what you need for His service, then choose everything. If God were the CEO of your company, what would you request from Him? And remember, God is the only CEO with an unlimited budget.

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Miracles are simply the experience of written details. When things are abruptly placed in your life quite unexpectedly, it is not a miracle, but a detail manifested to catch your attention. Intrigue is part of the joy of life. Why would you have deprived yourself of the fun things?

Miracles are merely attention getters?

Yes, or life changers, depending on what you experience them as. All lives have "miracles" in them. It is for the appreciation of these occurrences that you know that divinity exists. You attribute these to God. If nothing extraordinary happened, you would not even consider that God exists. You would simply move through life unaware. Miracles are like God's knock on the door of your spirit. Without these seeming miracles, you would not learn who you truly are. You would live in the vacuum of humanity untouched by divinity. A miracle causes you to feel or know that there are greater forces at work than you know. A miracle snaps you into true reality. Can it ever be that you assume divinity exists in the ordinary? Are you mystified when each day is the same as the day before?

Nothing happens at random. All things are carefully planned. If your primary lesson is to let go and let God, then it would stand to reason that your life would be a struggle to come to this conclusion. You have no more controlled outcomes in this life than has anyone else. Those who seem to do better than others have simply predestined themselves accordingly. Not all lives are the same and lessons are repeated until learned. Until you understand the process you will never find peace.

Hopelessness is a point in life where choices seem to be made. When a person feels hopeless, change must occur. The will dies from hopelessness. Were it not for hope, even a glimmer, prisoners would die every day. But, there is some internal fortitude of hope from despair that drives people forward. How else can a person remain incarcerated for fifty years?

How do they do it? They must have a strength that the rest of us do not have.

Physical prisons are no worse than mental prisons. If you are not freely doing what you enjoy, you are just as incarcerated. Those who get sick and die in prison have realized their fate and have elected to end their life. They have seen the light and have chosen to be free. Have you seen the light?

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The entire illusory system falls when you have remembered who and what you are. Thus the remembering must be carefully guarded – hidden deeply and revealed only to those who have proper use of it. You would not seek to destroy the game for all the others who have chosen to experience. Thus the secrets must be held sacred for it is the basis of the game of experience. If the magician revealed all of his secrets then the magic would be no more. The game is so perfect that even those divinely inspired understand but still are affected by circumstances. The mind has a strong attachment to its doer, the body. The mind realizes that the body must be protected for its will to be done. Thus the illusion rests upon making the body real. Just as you imagine that without food or money you will cease to exist, the mind is attached to the body. The entire illusion rests upon the body. Were it not important, the illusion would not hold up. Were you to see yourself outside the body, you would know that there is only the illusion as body.

If everything that we've studied is about "knowing yourself," why is it that we cannot seem to reconnect or know ourselves?

The very idea of knowing yourself is seen as somehow a strike against God. The larger issue of "you as God" is sacrilegious to you. You have been taught humility and lack of self worth. You have exalted God in your mind. Until you put yourself on the pedestal with God, your rightful place, you will never know yourself. It is not an affront to God for you to be who you are – God made you as Himself. See yourself as you are and you will learn to know yourself. You still are torn between God, the provider and you, the servant. In actuality, on earth, it is different - you are the creator.

Why has this not been our experience?

Because you have deeply believed that you were simply the creation of God sent by God to do His service. In actuality, you are God, sent to experience God fully within the creations of your choice. You wrote the plan and you are living the experience desired in the plan. You are the God of this world that you have created.

Why have you allowed the Bible to mislead so many for so long?

Within the game, only a few have chosen to see God or have His wisdom. Most people choose simply to have someone else be responsible for everything. Remember, it is man's basic nature to blame others. God is the ultimate scapegoat. Who would really want to be the blame holder for the mess that most experience?

Let's look at creation on a higher level. God created you (the soul.) You created you (the body.) The real world is what God created. Your world is but illusion – or disillusion as is more appropriate. So, who's responsible in truth? I AM for I have allowed you to create the game in which to play. How you play the game is up to you.

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Remember that desire equals memory. What you have desired you will see. For this is as it was written in your plan. Thoughts are not created, but are remembered. All of life is remembering. "Do this in remembrance of Me," said Jesus. (Luke 22:19, NAS) You will remember what is written through the days of your life. Each day brings forth remembrances for your delight and accomplishment.

Is this the light of the world? Is this the understanding of the ages?

Partially, it sets forth all other understanding. Upon this rock is all the ways of the world brought to light. Once you understand the futility of life, you will be able to see all other forms of light. For as you see your brothers blameless (as what happens is what you have chosen,) then you will no longer find fault where there is none and the world will be truly forgiven. For what you experience is exactly what you have chosen. All brothers are blameless for having done what you called them to do. You are the cause of your brother's actions. You wrote the plan and they simply followed your instructions. They have done all things for your benefit. Forgive them for doing your will. Christ was crucified by those chosen by Him to crucify Him. For otherwise He would not be seen as He is. Christ Himself chose to be crucified that He would be seen as the world's Savior from sacrifice. He merely served the purpose that He had chosen to serve. He is no different than you are. His will was done to serve the greater good. Yet in giving He received. He received the Oneness for which His soul had sought.

In truth, we are trapped within the plan, as it is written, so shall it be?

Your soul is never trapped. Your body is, but only by the mind. The body is nothing but a vehicle for experience.

Why are we so trapped and deluded? Why has the world not realized?

Understand that information dissemination is ruled by the few for their own reasons. The world does not simply give out great information for nothing in return. When you control minds, you control people. Physical control is only partially controlling. The mind that feels under control will submit to its controller. When the world is operated by commerce, what you see and do will be for the good of the messenger. Today's media serves two purposes: financial gain and mind control. If you see a commercial on television for great wealth attainment, the masses will trample to it. If you see a television commercial for no-gain benevolent practices, the world turns a blind eye. You are taught to ignore others for self. Your very core being has been trained toward self enhancement.

We came here to be taught the experience of self – the opposite of Oneness. And from this, we learn the beauty of Oneness from its opposite. If nothing unreal exists, then how can this experience be real? It isn't – it is a contrived product of the imagination meant to allow you to consider other than Oneness. In the same way that you now have to imagine that you are God, you have come here to imagine that you are human. You are so ingrained in the process that you now believe the opposite of truth. You now believe that you are human instead of God. How convincing is your imagination? You have made God human and fight to keep Him away. You have now chosen the dream instead of the reality and have lost faith in God. Why would God allow such a thing? God wills to experience the fullness of God. Only in the opposite can it be experienced.

How do we get back to our godliness and out of humanness?

See what you have seen and believed to be real. From your desire to know the truth, you have been told and are being shown "how the system works." Once you see the illusion from the outside, you begin to notice that only the soul story of the illusion makes sense, being shown pieces of the puzzle that will reveal the picture to you. You once thought: (1) everything was random; (2) there are chance encounters; (3) there are coincidences; (4) the world made no sense; (5) people are bad; (6) there are villains and victims; (7) the world is an evil place; (8) God does not exist; (9) I am separate; (10) I have choices; (11) I can change the world; (12) I must fight for my rights; (13) I am nothing except what I have fooled the world into believing about me.

Now your vision is changed. You are seeing that what you believe is what you have been taught. Just as you believed in Santa Claus, so have you believed in the great illusion of life and death. Suddenly, it all starts to make sense. Instead of trying to fit into a chaotic world, you will be able to become a vital part of the undoing of the world. To know God (yourself,) you must be out of your mind, for your mind cannot comprehend the things of God. So let your thinking stop and know that you know.

We seem to have trouble connecting with what we know. How can we know that we know?

Consider any issue and feel how you feel. Knowing is a feeling of certainty. It may and usually does conflict with your thoughts, but it is something you feel certain about.

How do we remember something that we should know?

When you should, you will.

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You are like Jesus – pure of heart and always anxious to help. All of God's children are no different. Jesus was not special. Jesus had simply raised His awareness to a higher level. This is the path of everyone - raising awareness so that you may truly know yourselves. You have spent your life trying to make yourself into something acceptable to the world. What an empty life you have lived. Now, you have the chance to be happy rather than accepted. Happiness only comes from connecting with your highest self. There is no amount of approval that will bring you lasting happiness. For the attainment of acceptance brings forth a short lived relief from which must follow another struggle to achieve. If you have "arrived" at twenty five, that will not be acceptable at thirty. So, you must continually seek to achieve acceptance at another level. It's time to get off the merry go round of acceptance. You are at every minute perfect. You are exactly what you have chosen to be. This is the only acceptance that you need achieve, self acceptance. Let there be no other standard. Put no judgments upon yourself. Envision yourself as island surrounded only by God and everything is possible. If the world didn't exist, what would you do, be and have?

How do we live our dreams without the know how to proceed?

Choose for the means are already set to come. Remember, you need only remember. Trust that the means for your fulfillment are in place. You have always written yourself out. And surely you have written yourself a great and lovely fun filled experience. If fun is your desire, trust that fun will be had.

How can this happen?

If all things are truly possible, it is possible. Quantum leaps are nothing more than parts of the plan revealed and presented. They are what people call "suddenlies." They simply happen from seemingly nowhere without rhyme or reason. They are not explainable except for what they truly are. They are interjected parts of your plan. You have written them in so that they will seem miraculous. They cause you to be knocked of your feet so that your full attention is drawn to them. They are not mysterious even though they appear to be. Somehow you feel that the universe has bent to your will, but it has not. It has simply demonstrated the fulfillment of your dreams. The means for desire fulfillment are given you in an instant. Just as you would seemingly need a miracle, the miracle appears.

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All of my true messengers are channels. They may operate in seemingly different arenas, but the messages are all the same. Always My messages are perfectly given and divinely received. There is no question of authenticity of a perfect message. Sure, there are those who do not understand and will devour the innocent lamb. It has always been so, but let not the envy of others cause you to keep a message undelivered. Seek not to please the world but to save the world. Deliver the messages as given. Do as I instruct and I will make you one of the world's saviors. For in this world, the powerless are far more numerous than the powerful. You don't need fancy things to heal the world – you need only do what I tell you. You are Mine and I AM yours.

Have I let My messengers be without whatever was needed? I will not keep you from your appointed tasks. I will not allow you to suffer for doing My work. I will not have you lack for anything to bring My messages to My people. I will give you great abundance for use in My service. I will give you the nature which is pleasing to the masses. I will that the world know you as My own. I will make you what you have come to be. Never again, past this moment, will you even imagine that you have need of anything. I AM and you are!

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In spite of your efforts, I have brought you great understanding. Your willingness was needed, but you saw desert where there was greenery. The periods of learning are very beneficial even though you hate them. They go against the world's knowledge. For the world demands your participation in the rat race. You are so well trained that you assume idleness to truly be the devil's workshop. In fact, the devil does not have a workshop, but in stillness and peace is truly God's workshop. Your world is opposite. Now that you have been told the secret, you will need to learn to operate opposite of what you've been taught. Your soul has been deprived for so long and you have forced yourself into the world's structure. Think opposites and learn to truly live.

But opposites are those who are homeless and without respect or means. They are the ones who have given up on the world.

Not all, for circumstances and mental illness cause much homelessness. Sure, there are those who simply have given up on the system. But there are many who are simply going through a phase. Some use miserable circumstances as a chance to simply get back to their roots and reconnect with people. Some have chosen to appreciate things more. Some are uplifted, but still are not satisfied. Neale is a classic demonstrator of dissatisfaction when out of purpose. Until he found God, he was miserable. He always knew that God was calling him, but he could not seem to connect. Even though he had worked with some truly spiritual people, he did not know himself. Until you know God, you will not know yourself. This is why I have told you to seek only for God. For this is the secret to happiness. A soul seeks to know Me at all times. But, you have not allowed yourself to fully seek me. You thought that God could be second or third place, but I assure you that your soul demands that I be first place in all things.

For those who hear My calling, they must answer to be satisfied. And even an answer occasionally is not enough. I must be first in all things and not just in words, but as the primary motivator of your entire life. Until you have placed me in the number one position, you will seek and not find. Only by putting yourself number two and Me number one will your soul be satisfied. This is something that few people understand. To say it is one thing, but to live it is quite another. Those who have devoted their lives to My service have understood the importance of putting God first. Suffice it to say that this does not mean by simply going to church on Sunday or being nice. As if I were standing before you every minute of every day, this is the way that I must have your attention. You must know that IAM with you always – I AM and you are. Picture Me standing before you. Then you will not be able to ignore Me. Jesus walked as if I were in front of Him always. The power of this perspective is life altering. But, it will not always hold your attention.

You will need to be earnest in your daily walk with Me. You must let Me lead and you must follow. You must ask Me what you shall do and actually do it. Otherwise, you could simply leave Me out of it. Know that your spirit is the Me that walks in front of you. Your highest self knows what you truly desire and will lead you to your perfect experiences. Know that whatever your calling is, you will not rest until you have done just that. There is no half way. There is no partial. You either are total or nothing. Either you choose to serve or you choose to be served. What have you chosen?

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Teach people to connect with their highest calling. Teach talent recognition. If a person realizes a talent and is encouraged to pursue it they will move mountains. Why keep people in the wrong boxes? Shift people for the better fit and the world will be changed by it. People have taken the fun out of life in pursuit of safety.
**Chapter 14 – Between Two Worlds**

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From the point of hopelessness does the spark of life still burn and is soon rekindled. For those who choose to give up, then the game is over and each is allowed a swift departure. For those who choose the better way, then hope is renewed and life is transformed anew. You cannot live God's way until you give up living your way, if you so chose. You cannot know what you are until you know what you are not. For as hopeless as you feel – downtrodden, kicked and abandoned - you still have a glimmer of hope that life will finally pay off and you will at last know yourself. Having not known yourself, but the version of your un-self that is not who you truly are, you seek now to know yourself in all of your glory.

You have spoken of conflicting wishes. What is that supposed to mean?

You stand between two worlds. Your desire to proceed to the new world is contrasted by your ego's need to return to the seeming safety of the old world. You feel you must make a living, but your heart calls you to make a life. You stand bogged down in guilt. Caught between living and life – heaven and hell.

Conflicted wishes are the damnation of man. See that all of your wishes are perfectly aligned and are falling into place perfectly. Allow your life to be lived as it is written. Stop fighting.

What is the real concept of remembrance?

It is the reconnecting with what you know but have forgotten that you know. The great amnesia enabled you to pretend to be separate from God. If you remembered your Godliness, then you could no longer even imagine separation. Therefore, you are allowed or choose small remembrances to help you find your way home. These are glimpses of who you truly are. More and more, once the gates are open, you will see that you are reconnecting with your true self. This is how you can live in two "separate" worlds at once.

What is the power of God?

Power is not as you would suppose. Power is the ability to manipulate energy. All things are energy including you. You move you by the power of will or intention. If you realize that all things are energy and see them as energy, you will begin to see that nothing is impossible. There is no energy more firm than another. All energy is the same. Via will, energy is transformed into matter. This can be done two ways: physically or psychically. The physical manifestations are one-step removed from psychic manifestations. The mind intends and then the body builds. The chair is first an idea, and then it is created physically. This concept is easy for you as you have done this all of your life. But, to do this psychically is what you would now consider to be impossible. You assume that it takes physical to make physical. God did not create form, but merely demonstrated the capability. There are those who have realized that matter is really energy and can move or create objects at will. Once the physical and its limits are removed from the equation, there is truly nothing that can't be created.

How do we get from powerless to powerful?

First, there must be the willingness. Then the openness. Then the practice. As with learning anything, these steps are almost necessary. But you must understand that this is not an ability that is easily realized. It can be harmful if abused. It can be so disconcerting that the unprepared are literally disturbed by it. Can you imagine if the world suddenly discovered that its foundation was built on nothing? With great knowledge comes great responsibility. Power can so easily be abused, as others have learned. Only in beneficial use can it be properly used as intended. If not for the benefit of all, it is of no benefit. The mind is the most powerful creative tool, but you have no remembrance of this. Seek to remember.

How can we move from learning to knowing to experiencing?

First comes remembering for you already know everything. Your knowing is hidden beneath the layers of unlearning. Slowly, the layers of un-remembering are peeled away and all is revealed, but only at the level that you are ready to handle.

How can we improve our remembering or speed it up?

In quiet all things are revealed.

We find that quiet seems to be a great hurdle.

You cannot force it, you can only allow it. It will come at its perfect time. Practice helps, don't over emphasize your efforts or you will become frustrated. Only an open mind will know God. By letting go and letting God will you truly remember. Too much emphasis is self defeating. Allow God to be your guide and you will remember perfectly.

If all things are possible, yet nothing seems to happen, would you not consider this a hell of sorts?

To you yes, because you do not know what happens beyond your eyesight. If you could see the world of energy, ever swirling and changing, you would know that there is never a time when nothing happens.

How can we take the leap from unknowing to knowing? If other dimensions exist, how can we know of their existence?

There are all sorts of ways. It is all a matter of personal experience. Spirit will lead you by inspiration. Spirit knows the answers. You need only be available for spirit and it will lead you home.

How can we know or be aware of true reality?

In quiet all things flow forth. I AM teaching you connections which were the means of masters – meditation, inquiry, intention, dreams, remembrance, awareness, etc. Before you know it, the puzzle will come into view as the pieces are put in place.

If we can shift our perspective much like you say in Neale's book Home With God, how does this work?

Remember that you can live more than one life at one time. If you can shift focus from life A to life B, then this is possible. Is it easy? No. Is it possible? Yes. This is part of the great learning of the world. If you are nothing more than spirit, can you not shift instantly from here to there? The analogy is the difference between waking and sleeping dreams. Both are truly meaningless, but both are experiences. Each is based from different states of consciousness. One seems to be voluntary and one seems to be involuntary. Both, in realty, are movies playing on your screens for your experiential enjoyment.

So sleeping dreams do mean something, not just nonsensical ramblings?

All of your life is nonsensical. But, your dreams are meaningful as a frame of reference, a point in time if you will. They are simply different sides of the same coin. One seems more possible and one more impossible. But, the experiences in sleeping dreams are just as meaningful as waking dreams. They compose two parts of the whole, and let's not assume that there are only two parts to the whole. Your sleeping dreams involve those whom you do not realize that you know. You are connected to all and have no trouble knowing those who would be almost impossible to know in waking dreams. But know that there is a full range of experiences in all dream states. There is love and there is fear in both. Both are equally real – simply from two different focal points. Your sleeping dreams would tend to more accurately reflect your true self as you are freer in them. Your waking dreams seem more limited by your learning. You have been told that you cannot fly, therefore, in your waking dreams you do not. But in your sleeping dreams, no such impediments exist, so you fly freely.

So how can we better utilize our sleeping dreams and remember them?

Focus and intention.

What would we benefit most from knowing?

Yourself as you truly are.

Tell us what we do not know.

As energy (a thought of God made manifest,) you are God. Unlimited and all loving. You are infinite and compassionate. You are all-knowing and the perfect part of God. You are not separate – you are a part of Me always. Your separateness is merely a movie projection of "what if."

Why is this not our understanding?

You know the answer. Let's move on to higher truths. Let's not sit and focus on the mundane for it no longer interests you. You have decided to move away from the mundane, I shall care for that. In fact, I always have, but you have not realized it. Anyway, as you have chosen to move into spiritual awareness, there are some great lessons to learn. They may seem far-fetched at first, but you will be interested as never before. The mundane no longer holds your interest, so let's walk the spiritual path to excellent enlightenment. On the other side of the bridge, where God walks and spirits talk, there is much to learn and experience. See yourself there now – in spirit with spirits. See your group as the spirits that they are cheerfully greeting you over to the other side. Marvelous, isn't it? It's like nothing you had ever imagined possible. It is perfect in every sense.

Wow. How graphic is your description. Tell us more.

See yourself in your perfection. Your perfect self in your perfect circumstance. Fear is a thing of the past, so worry no more. You are finally free to love and be loved. Walk around, or glide or fly – whatever you choose. There is no limit and everything is as you choose it. What would you choose to do?

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The return to knowledge is the constant pursuit of life. All who know not the way are gladly shown. For My comforter, the Holy Spirit, comes to you to teach you all the secrets of God, your Father and to bring you home again. There is nothing you need do, but listen for your listening signifies your willingness to learn. Come to Me all who have chosen knowledge and freely it is given. There is no greater pursuit than this. This is your return to heaven and the mission of peace.

Why does the path seem so unending and out of reach?

Follow your heart and not your mind. Allow yourself to be led and you will find what you seek. No one promised the short road, but surely the road less traveled. Be certain of the outcome for the journey is determined. There is no mystery to be solved for the book is already written. The destination is sure. Be of comfort that if you seek God you will find Him, sitting exactly where you are. The journey has no distance although it would seem long and arduous. There are no miles to trek or new places to discover. You need merely peel away the layers that keep vision hidden. You seek outside yourself, but find not anything of value. You seek within and find the kingdom of heaven waiting for your return.

We have done the lessons and studied and written, but have not yet found the peace of God. What keys unlock the doors to the kingdom so that God is truly revealed?

The keys are held by God and the lock turns at His behest. You do not perform the services of gate keeper for yours is merely to arrive at the gate seeking entry. Knock and it shall be opened; seek and you shall find.

Describe for us the gate or its symbolism.

The gate is the passageway into the spiritual realm. It is not a new thing, but has been there all along. The relinquishment of your control is the remote that opens the gate.

Therefore, the healing point, where hopelessness is, is the key to unlocking the gate?

It is difficult for man to believe there is another way. He fights to hold on to the known so that he can live as he has. Until he realizes there must be a better way, he will continue to cling to the power of control which he believes has ruled his world. There is another power which he can hardly accept. It is beyond his control and is therefore quite disconcerting to him. As it has never before been seen, it seems quite impossible to experience. The seeming impossibility is what keeps it away. Until all hope is lost, the other cannot be seen.

Why do the gates always appear to be in the future?

Your perception of time will shift when the time of revelation has come. Then the future will become now. In fact now is all there is.

We find that hard to swallow. In our lives, time or its effects manifest. We get older. We are not the same as we were at birth. How can we have hope where we are driven to hopelessness?

You cannot serve two masters. You either are led by one or the other. Until you have completely lost hope in the one, you will not be led by the other. Therefore, hopelessness must precede hopefulness. It's simple logic really. It need not be overly complicated.

But, it seems that we have stood at the threshold of hopelessness time and time again, but nothing really changes. Are there progressive stages of hopelessness?

Of course. You do not see the shifts that take place gradually. You have seen hope five days out of seven. You have then seen hope two days out of seven. Until you see no hope seven out of seven days, you are not truly hopeless.

The lack of hope, with hope being the last item to reach for, is truly the end?

It is the end of life as you know it. For your hope is based upon the hope that your life will somehow return to normal. In the back of your mind, seeing no other possibility – you strive to return to the only life you know. Supposedly, you have no choice. God has not given you any better options. Therefore, you have again reached the gates of choice – to enter heaven or to return to hell. As you have only promises about heaven, you surely cannot remember it; you are scared to enter into the truly unknown. But, upon one of these visits to the gate, you will surrender and enter. It is then that you will know who you truly are.

Is this death?

It need not be for you can enter heaven at will. Death is the clearest route, but not the only route. All may enter heaven – for heaven is a state of mind. This is the state of mind that controls your experience.

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Lessons on remembering, dreaming and peace are all small bites of the huge elephant. Huge as you have no idea. Such information could not be simply dumped in your lap. You would be confused beyond reason. I choose to open the door one squeak at the time. Know that you have shifted reality from victim to creator and that is no small leap. So, bear with Me and you will know. Rest assured that you will have it all revealed, but I will not overwhelm you with details. Once you know the secret, it really is a simple magic trick. You were never looking in the right direction. You were fooled, but not much longer now.

Will we ever get any useful information? We feel like we have been in spiritual calculus forever. We're drained and disheartened. The promises are large, but the experience is not. Why the continuing disparity?

We have to cover some theory before we get behind the wheel of a car.

What's wrong with "hands-on" learning?

This ain't no car you're driving and we cannot afford any accidents. This is serious stuff. Energy manipulation is only done by masters for the reason that emotions don't come into play. Emotional energy can be very harmful. But, that's another energetic calculus lesson.

How, you ask, do you awaken from the dream of illusions? Snap, suddenly you will see all things differently. You have been questioning the reality of dreams for a long time now. You have seen that the pieces of the puzzle do not fit. That starts the dominos falling. One by one, the illusion has been transported to the unstable ground on which you thought was solid. As you are slowly prepared, you are seeing that things just don't add up, but you can't quite get the whole concept. Still, caught between two words, you can see some truth in both. You have beliefs in both worlds, but you are not fully aligned with either. This is hell for sure. To have your beliefs shown to be false and having nothing sensible to replace them leaves you caught in the worst sort of fence sitting hell. You cannot proceed, yet you cannot go back.

We are in quite the predicament. We are at the mercy of a more cruel situation. We now have neither. How can this be preferable to what was before?

At any time, it can be seen. The final step is mine.

But we seem to not be ready for it or it is withheld and we are stuck. What must we do? Please grant us escape from hell.

Escape from hell is not the distance that it was. It is merely the leap from where you are to everything. The shift in perspective is merely the shifting of a vantage point of perception.

The supposed journey without distance seems like a long arduous journey from unknown to unknown. Will the journey end?

It can end at any moment, but not as you imagine. From the single vantage point to the vantage point of all. To see the world as God sees it is really a rather unique perspective. Shift your focus and pretend to see as God does.

That is quite a stretch. Is it possible to see all from one spot?

Not with your physical eyes. Remember spiritual vision is what is required to see from God's perspective.

How do we see from God's perspective - seeing energy in everything, yet nothing distinguishing? Perhaps it is the Oneness of energy as seen by Gary, Doreen and Charles?

The Oneness vision is the reality shock. The shift that allows you to know that you are not what you see with your eyes. This is a mere flash of God sight that truly shifts you into high gear. Once you see this, there truly is no return.

How long must we wait for this? Will it really happen?

God has a tendency to get His message across. Some see things one way and some see them another. Allow God to show you what is best for you to see. Do you imagine that all people have the same experiences?

No, but there does seem to be some common types of experiences.

There are so many, but you are only familiar with those similar to yours. Some people have Near Death Experiences. Some have spontaneous visions. Some have very real interactions with spirit. Each person is touched in the way that is most meaningful to them, as each has chosen.

What have you for us? How will we be touched?

Rest assured that your perspective will be shifted in the most meaningful way. God has not forgotten you in the back of the class. You are no slower or faster than anyone else. You are the same with different perspective. God sees you hiding in the back.

But God never calls on us or shows us good stuff.

You have been shown unto the limits of your capacity. The rest is for God's capacity to help you see.

But Gary saw it with his human eyes, as did Doreen and Charles. Charles dropped his coffee. How long will you make us wait?

All things happen according to the plan.

The plan seems to be written for our frustration and lack of spiritual development. We are hanging on a bridge between the worlds with no means to cross. Is it worth it - this journey unending? Would we not have been better off with one kind of misery rather than two? If we choose heaven this minute, why are we not given the experience this minute?

Choose heaven and see what happens.

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Listen carefully for you shall hear the joyous call of heaven seeking your return. Allow your God the opportunity to bring heaven to you in the manner most applicable to your service. How can you teach as you have not learned? Who will help those whom have helped not? Know that you must learn as you will teach. This is simple logic. You learn for the benefit of those who call to you. The lessons are over learned because you will teach how to come to God in the simplest and most quick way. Most people are not nor do they desire to be spiritual masters. But, years of constant meditation are not necessary. We have come to offer a better way. God need not be so complicated. Devotion and willingness are all that is required. The lessons are simple after you have learned them. You cannot see the end from the middle. But know that there is perfection in all things. I will teach you splendidly.

We have done the grunt work, but have seen nothing of the supernatural. If the world we see is an illusion, how can we see it as it truly is?

Know that all things are optical illusions. You have seen glimpses of this and know it to be true. You have seen mirages and have had dreams that seemed too real. Your world is this – a trick of sight. Doctors know that your eyes take in light to be processed in the brain. The brain tells you what it is seeing. If you told your brain that a dog is a cat, then you would see a dog and call it a cat. You have assigned titles to everything.

Ok, but we can touch the dog, see it, hear it, smell it and if so bold, taste it. How can an illusion be so real?

There are layers of processing of energy that you have not understood. But, as the onion peels, it will become more and more clear. An illusion, a really good one, fools the entire audience. The magician knows the secret and is not fooled. It is all about distraction. The body is the distraction device on which all illusions are based. Take away the body from all thoughts and perspectives that you have and you will see how the illusion works. You are fooled by what you consider the reality of the body and the sensations of it.

But, is that not our reality? How can we be in a body and know it not?

The eyes fool you. The five senses are but the contrived means of illusions. Your minds are trained to think that what you feel is real. Just as the magician uses sight to fool you by distraction, the body distracts from the mind's direction.

But it seems to be very real and predictable. The continuity of it all gives it even more reality. We go to sleep seeing what we see when we awake again. Is this not real?

Let's imagine that you are walking in the desert. You see the oasis and run to get a sip of the cool water. The mirage has fooled you. But for a time, you believed it was there. Was it real at any time? No, but you believed it was real so it was real for you. Your entire physical life is such a mirage. It is a greater illusion than the oasis mirage, but a mirage none the less.

Ok, but while we are trapped in this mirage, having not yet seen it as a mirage, aren't we obligated to conform to the illusion? Is it possible to live outside the illusion while still in it?

Let's say that you are trapped in a cage. Your mind can be free while your body sits in the cage. It is possible to leave the cage, if you know the magician's secrets. But, for your purposes now, suffice it to say that you can change the perspective of the cage and yourself. See it differently. View it from all angles. See it as the fence that cannot bind you. You are free.

How can we know that we are free? Show us the vision of true reality that frees us from our cages.

Remember that perception is merely a way of looking at things. It is not real. If you see yourself without a body, you see more truly. Think that what you have created is merely nothing – a projected image.

But certainly feels real.

It is supposed to. That's the trick.

How do we see outside the trick? How do we unlock our spiritual vision?

That's where I must help you. Remember, it is the final step that I must take.

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Holy days are for the service of Holy purposes. Today is such a day. It is Holy in that you are sanctified. It is Holy for you have chosen to step out of the boat and onto the water guided by faith. Let not your self be any less than Holy for you are the vessel of God. From this vessel does flow all blessings. The light of God does shine forth. Be what you truly are. Be no longer trapped within your limitations. Love the Lord your God and all His creations without limit and know that you are the kingdom of God. Your lessons have been tough for you to learn. You have experienced the unlearning to be able to learn. Into the space left vacant by the unlearning come true knowledge. You know it to be true because it makes sense to the obvious mind. At first it made no sense. But, at a different level of understanding, you could see that truth is true. Learning how you are and how you behave does allow you to see truth above the level of the ego, which was your previous learning foundation. The foundation for learning had to change. You had to see other possibilities before you could explore them. The layers of previous learning were so embedded that it was difficult for you to learn in spite of them.

Survival of the fittest is the ego's way. All things are possible in your new foundation. Before you saw that it was you against the world. Now, you know that you and all the world are one. From the vantage point of all, you see an entirely different picture of life. This one shift in perception, coupled with the fact that life is an illusion changes your entire life. See nothing as you saw it before. From the vantage point of all, you see that all things are possible. Never could you have imagined the possibilities of all lives entwined. You can now see that you touch and are touched by all. You are not alone and are certainly not limited by your physical interactions. If the mind is connected to all, then the mind is unlimited. Let go of physical limitations imposed upon you. This is not an accurate portrayal of self. This is not what you are. You are spirit, not body. You have worshipped the body for far too long, but it was the false self that teaches you your true self. What you think you are is not what you are.

When will you show us what we truly are?

When your mind is fully prepared to absorb it. When you have made fertile the soil on which it must be planted. If it is not openly received, it will not grow.

How can a revelation from God not grow under any circumstances?

You still have not believed even in Me given revelations of knowledge.

But, we know that you can make us see even what we do not choose to see. Why do you not allow us to see what we are?

The impact must be maximal. It is rather profound and must be properly received.

How must we prepare for your revelations?

Be open and receptive. They do not come by force or intent. You cannot imagine what God will reveal to you, so there is no way to prepare. You have been taught much. You have been promised much. God must do what is His part to do. Let not yourself be on alert. Relax for it comes to an open and peaceful mind. Let yourself be open and it will come. Peace is with you always, if you just let it be.

So, we'll just sit here and write for the restlessness of our minds is calmed by this activity.

That is the least harmful activity that you do. So write to Me often and compose lots of questions. Ask, for the answers will be given.

How do we know the spirit and its driving forces?

The spirit is opposite of your past. You have only known fleeting glimpses of spirit – in fact, almost none. Imagine your life lived in opposites from what you have lived. See yourself guided in all things. See yourself floating through life instead of fighting to make it happen. The world has taught you to fight. Now you will learn another way – acceptance. Allow yourself to be carried on the wings of angels. Allow yourself to be vastly shifted to a new reality. Don't think, allow. Allow yourself to feel your way. Allow perfection to come to you for you don't have to seek it or work to get it. Remember that all things come to your according to your plan.

About life plans – some people have rather unsavory plans. How can we be certain that ours is not the same?

Your experiences are great teachers. You have always sought great knowledge – why do you suppose this is?

There must be a reason. Tell us what it is?

Why do you seek knowledge?

To learn and know.

For what purpose?

To make a better life. We go to college for better jobs and opportunities for success.

Yes, knowledge as you see it is power. You think that it will give you power somehow over circumstances. Has this worked for you?

To some extent.

So, what have you truly learned?

That there ain't no guarantees. There is nothing and no amount of effort that can give you the happiness that you seek.

So, would you have been better off doing what you loved?

Absolutely – this is one of the greatest lessons that we have learned. Do what you love and pray for the means to support yourself.

So, what is the point of your education and knowledge?

We have learned that we learned the wrong thing. That we made choices for others and caused only ourselves to suffer.

Isn't that sad?

Of course.

Then what have you seen as the purpose of wisdom and knowledge?

To learn what not to do. The exact opposite of what we had intended.

And that lesson you have learned. For all of your education, you are again returned to the same point of job hunting. The choice has been given you many times, but always you have made the choice for money. The seeming security of money. Have you considered trying something more befitting your desires and talents?

Are we really any better off since choosing another way? It would seem that either way we face failure.

So, if you are going to fail, why not fail doing something that you enjoy?

Occasionally, the old way has worked and has provided us the means that we now use for support. So far, there is more support in the old way than the new way.

You spent four years in college preparing to make minimum wage. Time well spent?

Well, it did offer us more in the long term, but certainly not what was expected. So what is the point of the education, learning and knowledge?

Respect. The world responds positively to educational achievement.

So, we have all of this knowledge and education as a means of respect. Like Yogananda, just for public approval?

Primarily. Learning is a practiced ability that allows you to learn what you will teach. If you see that your degrees give you respect, then you see a greater purpose for them. Also, consider that education may actually benefit your writing. Could you write as you do if you had not gone to college? College provides more than what you see as a direct dollar value. A well rounded education is invaluable for no other reason than the vast amount of information to which you are exposed.

We have to make a leap to be able to see what the future holds.

If there are no accidents and nothing happens at random, then know that all things lead you to your purposeful fulfillment.

Ok, but where? Obviously it is not your intent that we do the same as we have always done, but you have given us no inspiration for another way.

Realize that inspiration comes when you are in your right pursuit.

But it can be said that there is no wrong pursuit, so that doesn't help. The path is determined.

But if you are to be a Baptist Minister, then are you not more likely to feel the vibes if you are of that mindset than if you are an accountant?

It depends on the inspiration given. You have taken people out of offices and put them on the far reaches of the earth.

So you are saying that inclinations are meaningless. Your desires are nothing. God will put you where you are to be?

Yep, God will move you from wherever you are. God will shift you to where you are to be regardless of where you stand.

If you believe this, why do you live in doubt and fear?

Our fear is that we have written ourselves more of the same as before.

Is it possible that you can freely go to where you've been?

If circumstances mandate. In the absence of other alternatives. It has been our experience that we are given one door to enter or not.

Perhaps, if you had not entered, something else would have manifested.

It's possible, but our experience has taught that there really aren't that many open doors.

Why do you suppose?

Because, choices are great distracters to the journey at hand. We are more likely to do something if we see it as our only choice.

Send out a thousand resumes or just one – the response is the same. What is to be, will be.

So, we are back to square one. What is the point of this situation?

You have had the opportunity to know God. As never before without the distractions of the world. Many people would love to be so lucky.

But people who are used to working go crazy.

Because they have not connected with their purposes. It is the purpose that keeps you on the right track. If you know full well that your purpose is to teach, then there can be no rest for you until you teach. Not doing what you are called to do will drive you crazy. Ask yourselves how you feel about something. How you feel is your barometer.
**Chapter 15 – Be Not A Body**

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What hope the mourning brings. The newness of possibilities seen through the eyes of God. Look not to what you have known but to what you will know. God has not left you, but merely has shown you what you have believed. If all of life is the opposite of God, then look at life as it truly must be. Allow yourself the joy of opposites just as God has intended. You are wholly the product of your thoughts, of yourself apart from God. By knowing what you are not, you will now learn what you are. God does not see you as you think you are. Let's see the real you as God sees you. You are totally loving without limits. You are all powerful and full of creative potential. You are God inside. Take away the body complex for it has nothing to do with you. It is merely the vehicle of experiences. Your car is no more the reason that you live than your body is why you live. The body simply gives you physical experiences. That's it. It is not you. What you truly are is beyond expression.

We still have great trouble with the escape from body consciousness. It's still a car and we must maintain it. We can not totally ignore it.

But it should not be the focus of your life. Too much emphasis on it will give it too much power over you. Ignore it for a week. It will not die. Try it. Sure, it will be rebellious, but it will surely not die. Don't give it more power than it should have. You can't know God if you see through the body's eyes.

That's a tough one. Please teach us to see it properly.

I will, at least you are now aware of its self importance. The masters realize that it is merely a vehicle.

Please tell us how we can experience the opposite of life as we know it.

Imagine a situation, and then imagine its opposite:

Life is sad.

Life is happy.

You are nothing.

You are God.

You are separate.

You are one.

You are weak.

You are strong.

You lack.

You have.

You have no job.

You work for God.

You are depressed.

You are peaceful.

Ok, that sounds a little like wishful thinking.

Not really – it's all a matter of perspective. You have to change your thinking from powerless to powerful.

But isn't that like kidding ourselves?

It depends on what you consider to be the object of your power. You must reassess your goals. If you try to see yourself as powerful in the physical, you will be kidding yourself. If you see yourself as powerful in the spiritual, you will know the greatness that is you. If your goal is much material success – you failed. If your goal is spiritual success – you win. What do you choose? If you choose for the worldly, you will always struggle. If you choose for the spiritual you will always succeed. Success is a relative term. Are you closer to God than you were? For this is the measure of spiritual success.

Sometimes we think so, but at other times we're not sure.

At any moment of your choosing, you can now have peace. Before, you didn't even understand the concept. You are only a thought away from the peace of God at any moment. Is this not profound progress?

It seems that it is merely escape. Like running away.

It is really more like running to God. Running away from fear is not running at all. Fear is nothing. You are simply returning to your rightful condition. Allow God to guide you. For surely you will see that everything happens as it is intended. There are no accidents or mistakes. Your thoughts must be corrected. You see life as number one. God must be the number one before your life will reflect your truest desires. For you have chosen to know God and this is your chance to experience yourself as God.

Certainly this has not been our experience. Our best efforts have failed. Will we ever experience God in this life?

Today, you will know that God is with you.

So many times have you told us this, yet we have not had the experience. Today seems to never happen. What must we do?

You need do nothing. Allow.

We allow God to be experienced by us. God quest does seem an endless journey without fulfillment. Perhaps we have missed something.

Perhaps you have missed much, but to know yourself, you must face the facts about yourself. You must look into the mirror of your thoughts about yourself. You are not what you have judged yourself to be. Judge not and simply know that you are perfect.

We'll need some help with that.

And you have it.

Why do we not recognize it?

Because you always look in the wrong place. You see wrongly and judge wrongly. If you see your life as the fulfillment of a material purpose, then you have failed. If you see your life as the fulfillment of a spiritual purpose, you have succeeded. You have created a master. You have spent the past year teaching God to another. How can there ever be failure in this? If you see, or attach, financial payoff to this, you see failure. If you see the teaching of a master as the greatest deed you will ever do, you have succeeded. If you see that you have imparted knowledge upon another, then you are My teacher. Doubt not the enormity of this. It is what Jesus did. He created apostles and disciples. Have you not done the same, on a smaller scale?

When you put it that way, it seems powerful.

Doubt not your gifts to others. You have shown others strength in the face of your greatest fears. You have taught others as I have taught you. Can this be merely nothing? Don't diminish the work that you do for God. It is the greatest work. It is the most fulfilling. Never will you find satisfaction away from God. You have chosen to answer God's call. God will deliver to you those who you are to teach and those from whom you will learn. Yours is to give the messages that you receive. Yours is not self service, but full service (a little gas station reference for those who remember.) Your world would do well to return to full service. Sure, it costs more, but it extends love manifold.

But we somehow feel that we should be doing more and better. We feel wasted and underutilized.

It can never be. You have taught and you have learned. You are doing God's will. You need do nothing more or less.

But is it not self service to sit here chatting with God?

God time is the most important time. All things come from it.

Can we teach that people should just sit and chat with God?

If this is God's will, it will happen. You need not advise people to do as you have done. Their path is not yours. If they need a break, the means will be given.

It still seems self-serving to sit here. We feel guilty and irresponsible.

Because you see what you are doing as less important than it is. It's ok for others to sit on their retirements and enjoy the second half of life. For you, this was not your path, but the means will be given so that you can enjoy the second half of your life. You have not chosen to sit idle the second half, but have chosen to give your service to God. Surely God would not force you into menial labor as a means to support your selfless service. If God gives to government workers great retirement benefits, would He not give you more for your faithful service? Your path has not rested on mankind as it has been the pursuit of God.

It bothers us still that we cannot know the difference between real and unreal. This is our conflict – what to focus on and what to do. You have said that life is an illusion, yet we must live within it. How can it be unreal if we must be beholden to it?

While dreaming a dream, you are believing it real. You could just as easily choose to not participate in the dream. You could just sit and contemplate as the masters do.

But certainly there is no unity of purpose in this. What is the real point in all of this? We feel tricked and can't seem to escape the house of mirrors.

You have chosen this experience as a learning device. Go with it as long as you are here. Why not make the most of it?

How do we make the most of it?

Ask and you shall receive the answers to your questions.

What should we do to make the most of our lives?

Follow Me for your satisfaction lies only in My service. You will never find fulfillment in anything else.

Our lives are certainly less than ideal right now. How can our lives changed for the better?

Openness and awareness. Allow My answers to come to you as they are already given.

We've been bogged down in the guilt lessons. It is obvious that our moods are affected by guilt. How do we peel away the guilt layers and be free of this monster?

Think about your feelings. If you are sad or depressed, try to realize why you feel this way. If you feel that you are not doing something you are supposed to be doing, you will feel guilty. You will seek to find fault and someone to blame. What is the reason for the situation that has caused you to feel guilty? If you feel that you must be working and you are not, then you will feel guilty. You will be fearful that horrible things will happen to you if you do not do as you believe you should. There must be a target of your guilt, who is to blame? It's either you or God. It doesn't really matter for you will be furious with either and it may even shift between the two. Sometimes, you will even feel guilty when you don't feel guilty. This is the saddest of all. It shows your attachment to guilt, for you even force it upon yourself. "I can't feel right unless I feel wrong," as Joyce Meyer says. Your body must feel guilt. It is the norm for you. It is your way of life. But, you are starting to recognize the heaviness of guilt and fear. It has been your experience that you must feel bad, that's normal for you. When you feel peaceful or happy, you feel something's not quite right and you quickly revert to yourself as guilty. Then you are yourself again.

But, it is ok to be peaceful when there is no reason to feel guilty?

As you judge things. Doing exactly what you are doing this minute was very ok and peaceful for the masters. You see it as a guilty pleasure. It is not. It is for the benefit of the world – see it accordingly and attach no guilt to it.

But, as usual, it doesn't pay the bills.

But, it will.

How do we know this to be true?

Trust Me and feel it. Do you not feel at peace about it?

Yes, but if we start thinking about what is, then fear will overcome us and we'll be wrecks again.

Stay where your peace is. That's the secret to life.

But, what if our peace fools us into false complacency?

It can't happen for your peace is associated with your prescribed actions and inactions. It is self correcting. It is the barometer of your soul. Remember, you know all the answers already – you are just following the script. The movie is written. You must trust that you will lead you to where you are to be. Fear not for you have written your life as it will be.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Today is a blessed day of inspiration and encouragement. You are here for a reason and the reason should be obvious now. No teacher of the God but does as He is told. He cannot do otherwise as this would cause conflict and not bring forth the perfect results of God's will. Understand that you are here just as God has intended. It is no accident! Nor can it ever be without purpose or intent. All of your wild imaginings of failure and desolation cannot shadow what the truth is. You can see God's way or your way for there is not in between. God wills that you are where you are at every moment. You will to be everywhere else. Your desires are in contrast to God's; therefore, you cannot be at peace. Until you seek peace through acceptance, you will not know the love of God and the perfection of His ways. What you are and where you are and what you do are but a reflection of God's desires for you.

Ok, but is it not true that you put unrest within us as a means to motivate us to action?

When you are not at peace, it is because you have chosen it so. You have imagined that you are not where or doing what you should be. It is true that you are more open when you are miserable. But God moves by inspiration. You will be inspired to do as you are destined to do. Until you know the inspiration of God, you cannot have peace. You have only twice recognized the inspiration of God as a means to move. You have not recognized the peace in the process. You have always moved because you have felt there was no other way. I assure you that you are always told before you need to be told. All direction is given before it is needed. It cannot be otherwise. Trust that you have written yourself a perfect plan. No surprises – you're prepared.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Do not judge Me based on the words of men. I will teach of Myself to you in truth. Do not know God from any other source but Me. I AM all you need and AM perfectly capable of giving you the truth that you seek. I AM yours and can give you all you need. It simply does not make sense that God would create to destroy. I do not work that way and I certainly do not follow man's rules for life. Give God some credit. Think about the opposite of the world. God is the opposite of the world. I AM not as the world imagines. I AM as you cannot imagine. Those who seek to know Me surely will. I AM not what you believe for you cannot know what has not been revealed.

Why do you seem to only reveal yourself to certain people? Why are you not more easily known?

Well, this is something that the world has noticed. For the more that God is sought, the more He is not known. I have heard your cries to know Me. I have heard your prayers. I know that many have tried and many have had great faith and still have been unable to connect. I have given you many teachers, but more are to come. The world has cried for salvation – the futility of life has brought the masses to My door. They have knocked and I have opened. For as many shall seek, they shall find. But, My children must seek Me within themselves.

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Let's consider what we've learned. First, we've learned that we do affect situations by our mental activity. If we allow fear to be in control, then we manifest badly. If we allow God to be in control, we manifest rightly. If the situation had been handled through allowance rather than force, then there would have been a more desirable outcome. But, that is the lesson and only a slight delay is had. An entirely different approach will be taken the next time. Surely, emotions are powerful forces and expectations control emotions. If you see that only what is pre-determined will occur, then there will be no stress involved. Your expectations compound fear which causes emotions to be out of control. If you have no expectations, then nothing can go wrong and either result is ok. There is no fear involved in ok. The lesson is therefore acceptance of any outcome with determination to overcome all obstacles to whatever result you desire. A heartfelt desire must manifest, but not always instantly. Heartfelt desires are almost always more difficult to attain, especially if you see them as impossible.

If you desire something, be determined to get it. Don't quit. Do whatever it takes to attain your goal. Nothing else really matters. Conversations With God Book 1, says, "The people who make a living doing what they love are the people who insist on doing so. They don't give up. They never give in. They dare life not to let them do what they love." (p. 169) They don't stop till they get it. All things in life are just not easy. If they were, there would be no accomplishment. The harder the fight, the more gratifying the results.

But, haven't you taught us that if we allow, the universe provides with least resistance?

Did you allow with least resistance?

We thought that was our aim, but an emotional overload took over. So, how do we know what is meant to be and what isn't?

If it is your truest desire, it will happen. You can fight the process or allow it to happen. You doubted, feared and freaked out. You resisted the natural flow. I suggest that you learn allowance instead of control – control causes you to realize that you have none and fear is the natural result.

You have been telling us this for years now – we have both allowed and feared. Neither has produced superior results. Others have feared and succeeded. What's the difference?

The lesson to be learned. What is your lesson?

Let go and let God.

Then, all your lessons will apply to this.

So, a different person experiencing the same situations in the same way can have different results?

Yes – to each his own. That's why some succeed and some fail at the same thing in the same way.

So, we can't learn from the experiences of others?

You have your own lessons to learn. Your tests will always relate to your lesson. You can learn from others, but you must walk your own path. Joel didn't willingly pursue what he got. He chose the experience and got it. You chose a result and did not get it, yet. Some people have more difficult lessons to learn. Some lessons are easier than others. You would fail a Jesus test.

What is the answer for us, that we may have our desired experience?

Let go of control and go for experience. Choose the experience and let nothing stand in your way.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Imagine yourself as you now are – a body with a mind and a spirit:

The mind is the fuse that connects the two. Just as the Holy Spirit connects your mind to God, your mind connects your body and spirit. See the body as the opposite of spirit. It is all that you are not.

But what gives us this cognition? It is as if the spirit is the silent partner that participates the least. How do we shift the balance of power from the body to the spirit?

Perception is the key to all.

But we have the least evidence of the spirit. It's much like trying to imagine yourself as what you see that you are. We should not have to imagine what we truly are.

But you have done this already. You did not come into this life knowing that you were a body. You were told and did believe.

But the evidence is supporting this belief. You are asking us to deny something more obvious in favor of the less obvious.

While you are dreaming, do you not feel that what you are experiencing is real?

Yes.

Then why is one dream more meaningful than the other?

The evidence. We are aware more of our presence in the waking dream. That makes it more real to us. In our waking dreams, we can do things consciously. Sleeping dreams are more far fetched and worthless.

From your vantage point and understanding that is true. But from reality, they both are meaningless. You have equated control with reality. If you feel that you are in control, then you feel that it is real. You are not in control of your spirit so it is not real.

But we are not aware of spirit or its motivations. Even in sleeping dreams, we feel more in touch with the action and the motivations.

Hear Me child of God – spirit moves you each time you perform a true kindness. Spirit moves you each time you allow it. Spirit moves you when you see the attacker as pitiful. Every act of forgiveness and non-judgment is spiritually motivated. You are more aware of spiritual motivations than you might think. If you allow your conditioned behaviors to not control your thoughts, spiritual motivations will flow naturally and your behavior will be reflective of this.
**Chapter 16 \- Faith**

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Faith in the process is a splendid thing. It takes away all worries and fears. Let go of guilt for you control nothing. Have you not yet realized this? There is no sin where there is no control. Declare your innocence and be free. This is your greatest lesson – you cannot change your life so don't bother to worry or certainly don't waste time feeling guilty. You will be led to where you are to go. Regardless of whether you like it or not, you cannot change destiny. Your path is set so allow the autopilot to fly the plane.

The autopilot seems to have grounded the plane indefinitely. When will we take off?

The time is set, so fasten your seat belts and prepare for departure. You do not realize the intricacy of the process at work. Know that all things must be prepared before the plane takes off. There is a path, your chosen path on which you are not alone. If you were the only players, then the game would be at a faster pace. But speed is not our concern, happiness is. Those who share your journey are longing for your arrival. But, the stage must be set. You are ready to taxi for your departure to the promised land.

Do we have any fuel left for the journey or have we burned it all off waiting?

We'll refuel before takeoff – so that you don't have to worry about that. Here comes the fuel truck now. Of course, on Godspeed Airways, the will of God is the only fuel you need.

Godspeed Airways seems to have many flight delays.

Oh contraire, we are always on time. Never too early or too late. Have faith, for you are not the pilot! You have chosen to follow your own rationalizations about timing, not fully realizing all that is involved. Were you to think that you needed to chop down a tree, you would get an axe and begin chopping feverishly. You would not stop to think of the best possible way to fell the tree. You would not consider how sharp the axe must be, the type of tree or the optimum angle of strike to fell the tree. Would you stop to consider all who are affected by the tree as it stands? And what of those who are affected by its falling? Life is larger than your perspective and this is what you must learn and put into practice. It's not all about you. To rush into something causes you to experience what you perceive as failure. If the groundwork is not done, surely a disaster will happen.

We do forget the complexities of life and all that every minute entails. Will we learn to see with larger vision?

Oneness vision entails more than you can see with your eyes. Your eyes cannot behold all that there is to see. See with spiritual vision and you will begin to see the bigger picture.

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Lift your eyes to heaven for the kingdom is ready. Be not dismayed or discouraged. For as surely as you feel that you have not learned, you have reversed much of the wrong learning that you accumulated. This is no small feat. Do not see it as a little thing. For as much as you have learned, reinforced and believed, you were tasked with the almost unbearable chore of unlearning bad habits of thinking. Now, you are fresh, confused, and not beholden to any learning. A fresh slate on which to learn. As with learning, openness is essential. For those hardened in their learning, it is more difficult to receive opposites. Remember, opposites are true of all of life. God's truth is the opposite of the world's truth. Think in terms of opposites. If you thought it before, now its opposite is true.

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" _Of one thing you were sure: Of all the many causes you perceived as bringing pain and suffering to you, your guilt was not among them." (A Course In Miracles T583) But now that you see the terrible effects of guilt, surely you can see that it can be overcome simply by the choice to make it so. Guilt serves no constructive purpose, but it is as real as you believe that your body is. It has brought you great discomfort and misery. It is always there so that you will never be at peace in its presence. You must escape. Escape is no easy thing, but it is the most important thing. You need only see yourself as without choice and without fault. You control nothing and therefore are blameless. Release yourself from prison and you are free._

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

You have come upon many references to the serpent lately and its relevance to spirituality. The references have caused you to wonder about this. Does the serpent really represent the spine and some sort of spiritual energy flow? There are many eastern religions and practices which teach that energy must rise along the path of the spine. You have learned about the teachings relating to Chakras and energy manipulation. There are many paths to divinity, but none require rituals. Mental energy is not required. Only your willingness to know God is required. Everything else is optional. Whether you determine that you use this ritual or that does not matter. It only matters that you desire to know God and are willing to be trained. Of course, there are recommended exercises, but prayer alone will suffice. The time that you devote to practice/prayer will in large part determine your growth. But, it can happen in an instant. You need only be open to the experience. God will tell you all that you need do to gain the desired experiences.

Does spirituality truly relate to the spine?

Just as the brain is connected to the spine, it can be said that it relates. But truly, everything is of the mind. Remember that the body is nothing. The mind is what is spiritual or physical. Energy centers can be physical or mental. If you wish to think that energy is related to the body, so it is.

People, like Yogananda, seem to have great results with yoga. Isn't this attachment to the physical contrary to your perceptual teachings?

All paths lead to the same place. Remember, dreams feel real. Why do you imagine that you need any use of the body to know God? I tell you that nothing is required except your willingness. That alone opens all doors. The body is merely along for the ride. Don't be led astray by the musings of others. Mind training is the key. Whether the body is used or not is purely up to you, but in no way is required.

Why then do those who practice eastern religions seem to more easily connect with the divine?

Because of their use of the body to enhance their mental focus. The mind must be tamed from its free thinking tendencies before enough focus can be had to hear clearly in silence. Simply trying to stop the thought process is very difficult. But, if you are focused on some sort of exercise, then you can cause your mind to slow down enough to be open to receiving and hearing. It's really a distractive technique such as listening to your breathing. You do not do this to hear yourself breathe, but to slow down your thoughts so that you can relax and hear.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Good afternoon and welcome to the light. The experience of Oneness is both profound and disconcerting. How is it that you can absorb into your thinking something so opposed to your way of life? It takes time. Be not swayed by the seeming shifts from knowing to unknowing, from the old way to the new way? These are all part of the slow desensitizing process necessary to carry you from there to here. Be uplifted by the majesty of the process. Do not be discouraged by the uneasiness that you feel. The time of certainty in the old ways is gone. Now you will develop a new certainty which brings forth the true peace of God. It is tough to handle during the process. It seems as if you can't find comfort in anything. You try this and then you try that. Nothing seems to work. It is very unnerving to be at the mercy of all, having faith in nothing. But with the belief in the plan, all emotions and attachments, guilt and fear can be let go. They melt away seamlessly, more and more with greater acceptance that you are not in control.

The belief in your spirit's plan is all that you can have faith in. Your greatest desires are but reflections of your plan. They are remembrances of what you have written. What appear to be new ideas is merely part of the ordered recall process. Often it seems that ideas fall from the sky and you are certain that they could not come from you. Be not amazed by what you think, for your thinking is merely recall. You "know that you know" things that you could not know, yet the certainty is as peaceful and sure as if you had known it always. Rest in it always – for there is comfort.

The most peaceful ideas and thoughts that you have are your connection to your plan. Some people "know" or feel they are divinely guided as to what is ahead. Nothing rational says it will be so. In fact, it seems rather impossible. Yet, it comes to pass with miraculous means. It is not possible that you cannot experience the fulfillment of your dreams. There are those who are disconnected with self and are not even aware of the dreams or the fulfillment. They just happen to appear lucky. If you understand how things work, you will know that luck plays no part. And only those efforts required will be had. If you have acquired knowledge, it will serve a purpose. There is no wasted learning or experience on your journey. It is perfectly planned to give you what you have chosen. Often it seems as if life skips about at random. But, this is not how it works. The path always keeps you guessing until one day the light dawns and you can know that all the pieces do perfectly complete the puzzle of your life.

Is there the means to more quickly remember that you are living your plan?

Awareness of the plan. Most people are not even aware or open to the concept. If you had been taught from birth that you were living out your plan, you would naturally offer yourself a shortcut. Most of your life has been filled with teachings which have to be demonstrated as wrong before you learn to look at things rightly. People are absolutely opposed to the realization that they are not in control. The ego's need to control causes the reluctance of acceptance. But, once all of the evidence is presented, one must come to the realization that the person truly controls nothing. Once you realize this, you are left no option but the truth. No matter what means of rationalization are used, to know that there is no control, releases you to learn things as they truly are. Now, the next phase of learning involves the realization that all things are energy, motivated by thought, and are simply the manifestation of the energy into seeming reality. The nature of everything is unreal. Your eyes see not the truth. You only imagine that you see the world.

Ah, but to a physically blind person, the world does still exist. It can be felt. How is this possible if what we "see" with our eyes is not there?

Feeling is a sense as real as seeing. Just as are all the senses. But, the senses do not make reality, the mind does. Are not the blind taught to associate feeling with the same things as are seeing? If a blind person is told to feel a table and he is told that it is a table, then the association is made. Just as seeing a table and being taught that it is a table teaches you that it is a table. If you smell a rose with your eyes closed, have you not been taught to associate the smell with that of a rose? If you smelled rose oil, would you not also assume that it was a rose? The mind processes information just as a manufacturing plant processes material. The pieces of sensory input are matched to previous teachings and the result is the perception of an item. The eyes see the rose, the nose smells the rose, the fingers touch the rose, and the tongue can even taste the rose. These inputs are taken in by the body and are changed into chemicals and suddenly an image is created. There is no direct link between the perception and the thing perceived. If there were no physical body, would the rose exist?

Does the body's existence create the rose?

No, but thoughts do manipulate matter into the rose. Without the body, the rose could not be sensed nor perceived. Truly the body alone appreciates the rose. The spirit cannot relate to matter. It can only relate to energy which is like itself. The body cannot relate to spirit which is unlike the self. Without the spirit, the body would have no purpose. Like a car, it would simply be a vehicle. Do you imagine yourself to be only a car? If there were only bodies, what would propel them into existence? Are you so foolish as to believe that all matter is simply self sustaining? Surely this is a short sighted notion at best and gives far too much credit to the body. Now, what of the spirit? It is best understood as the thing that drives the body. The body is, of itself, organic and unspiritual. The spirit gives the body life.

You say that the body is self sufficient? I say that it is not. Just as your dreams seem real to you, so is your life. It is merely perceived. The vantage point assumes things that simply do not exist outside the mind. If the mind could be isolated and seen for its true operations, you would more quickly know that life is all an illusion. How can it be that this is not real, you ask? It simply cannot be. Do not your sleeping dreams seem very real? Your mind knows that they are not, but they do cause physical reactions. You can be physically impacted by dreams even though your body is not even aware of what is going on. Your body is simply there, asleep, while all of the seeming action is taking place. There is no conscious control of the process – it just seems to "happen." What causes these things to "happen?" It is not your senses because they are not functioning. So, who's driving the action?

You will, for lack of understanding, believe that the mind (brain) is simply processing memories. Still, there is no direct input/output equation. The brain merely processes what it is given. It is of itself as useless as the body. It does not work by itself and it sees and feels nothing. Don't try to touch your brain for it feels no pain. So now you have come to know that something has to motivate matter.

What is this force that causes its will to be done? You have held the belief that it is God as you are merely the puppets of God. Certainly He created mankind so that someone would be available to offer Him worship. Even you must laugh at this. The thought is absurd. God has no use for puppets or slaves. God does not think the way we do. To create a puppet for the receipt of worship is rather like having children to feel good about yourself. That would be self-serving and worthless. God creates freely to see what His children will create. Just as you have children so that they may freely experience.

So, if God is not a thing, then what are we and how did we come into being?

God thought and suddenly you were. You thought, and suddenly the world was. Energy takes many forms, in fact any form. Only your limited thoughts limit forms. So if you can think it, you can manifest it. Everything started with an idea. It is easy for you to understand the idea, concept, plan and build scenario. That's how houses are built and cars, etc. But, God did not create you in the material sense for His creations are perfect and without end. His creations created everything else. The material worlds are creations of man's spirit thoughts. God did not create automobiles for if He did, they would certainly be more reliable. The destructibility of things makes them obviously not God's creations.

But we are told that God created the heavens and the earth.

Unless you were there, you would not know nor have reliable information. Just as scientists speculate over the Big Bang Theory, having not been there, they do not know. But really it matters not how it all began or even how it is maintained. For all of man's efforts, he has merely created greater and greater levels of misery. He has not truly solved anything. Ah, you proclaim greatness for having cured polio. But, have you really? Does it still exist? The common cold still eludes you and there is no disease that has been wiped off the planet nor not mutated into something else. You do more research to find cures when remedies to causes would be a better pass time. You seek to cure illness instead of prevent it. Don't address effects, focus rather on prevention. If you were to realize that disease is a function of the mind, how would you respond and what would be the focus of your research? Did not Jesus teach that healings come from belief? Perhaps if all pharmaceutical research dollars went into food programs, would not there be a greater impact on the world's health? If people felt better, would not their health improve?
**Chapter 17 - Behold, I come as a thief in the night**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Good afternoon. Be of good cheer always for there is truly no need to be anything else. Have you not learned enough to know that life is merely a mental re-run of a movie dreamed long ago? Fear not, for there is nothing to fear. Detach yourself from all attachments and you will know freedom. Freedom can only come from detachment. For you can not fear the loss of anything meaningless. Lift your eyes to heaven and know that you cannot choose anything. Let go of fear and guilt for you have no need of them. They are merely mental constructs which serve no purpose. All things are set into place as you have chosen. Relax and enjoy, as much as possible, the ride.

In your supposed ego life, you seem to have control and everything matters. Cause and effect is the only deterrent to unwise actions. All people can relate to the effects of their causes for there are consequences. This is really the only law needed in the world. How you allow situations to be perceived determines reactions and a relation to cause and effect. Remember, there does seem to be control. People are so invested in ego that they must assume that they have some control. If the perspective shifts from ego to spirit, an entirely new world emerges. This world is vastly different from the world you are used to. Try it for a day. See that all things look different from a different vantage point. Allow your life to be that of learning and purpose instead of defense and offense. If you see all things as divinely inspired, predetermined and all for your learning, then nothing can be seen as fearful, upsetting, or sinful. The stark realization that your entire life is a learning tool certainly takes the weight off of you. What is being taught is merely a shift in perspective which takes away the gravity of the situation. If you realize that the seeming offense is merely an opportunity for you to see things differently, the situation does not change, but the experience can be seen dramatically different.

Is this supposed to be comforting? Will people actually believe this and accept it?

Some, not all. But it does shift the burden and removes guilt and its effects. Guilt is your creation and it does create all sorts of havoc in your lives. You have not realized this. You have always felt guilt, but have not always considered the causes and effects. It is one of the most powerful forces known to man. Its manipulations are profound. From guilt comes the illusion of sin. From this you dig a hole of despair and crawl into it, forever bearing the shadow. If God stood before you this moment and said that your life is an illusion, that you were not consciously responsible and were thusly free from guilt, it would be as if the world were lifted from your shoulders. You do not know the weight that you bear upon yourself. You have been misled, not intentionally, but systematically by the world.

The world has taught that you are guilty of great sins and must bear the wrath of God. You are doomed from birth for you are told that you are born into sin. With teachings such as these, how could you not feel at least some measure of despair? You are cast the burden of guilt on the day of your birth. It does progress until it suffocates your life totally. Let not your life be lived at the mercy of guilt, which is but your own creation. Know the enemy and choose to be free. You do not need God to free you from guilt or Jesus to free you from sin. You need only know yourself truly and freedom will become self evident. Why be a slave to teachings which truly make no sense? Any rational look at guilt and fear, hell and damnation, cause you to scratch your head and wonder about the possible love of God given the world's teachings. How have you reconciled the love of God with the world as you know it?

Much like the belief in Santa Claus, we were told to take huge leaps of faith. There were things beyond reason which simply had to be accepted. If God is only love, why are His words in the Bible so critical and judgmental?

Talk about a leap of faith. You, by believing this, have taken the greatest leap of all. Truth needs no explanation or assumptions. It simply is and makes sense. No one needs to teach it for it has always been. But, the world has woven a web of fear and control in order to drive the sheep into submission. God freely gave all. I created you like Myself. How has man placed the blame upon God for his own faults? Look at the Bible for rational truths. They are included, but certainly are greatly hidden in the volumes of detail. Read the Bible and tell yourself to try to be objective. No one will know or no one will judge. Truth stands the test of time.

Blind belief in something that is opposed to love really makes no sense. Would God tell you to sacrifice anything for His love when His love is freely given? If you are created in the perfect likeness of God, how can you be filled with sin and guilt? Do some homework and learn that the Bible is a compilation of stories. If a story two times removed changes dramatically as you know it does, then how can you assume that the Bible has not lost something in translation? Would God create woman inferior to man and forbid her from speaking in church? What sense would this make to your rational mind? Believe the stories of the Bible literally and you will surely never understand the ways of God.

Is it possible without actual recordings of the sayings of Jesus that His words/thoughts are accurately portrayed? If your rational mind knows that after a conversation with Albert Einstein you would be a poor conveyor of the conversational content, does not it make sense that perhaps Jesus said some things that no one understood? This is not to discredit the Bible, but to cause you to seek God for yourself. Do not let God be to you only what is written in a book or portrayed to you by another who cannot fully know God. Seek God from God. He is more than capable of getting His message across to you. You need no one to tell you about God. Allowing God to reveal truth to you guarantees that you will be taught truthfully from the only one who knows. You have been led astray by teachings of fear and damnation. Can it be that God is vengeful or jealous? Somehow, you know this can't be, for it is in direct opposition to love.

Why have you allowed man to deceive himself?

Free will and the thrill of experience. Man sought to know God via experience not possible through spirit. So, God was given a unique playground where dreams could abound without real harm. It was for the fun of it. Enjoy, for you can do no harm. It's only a game. Why be so tied to eminent doom and gloom? God has not destined you to failure but has allowed you the perfect means of exploring Godliness.

But it would seem that Godliness is rather depressing if this is our game of Godliness.

It is what you have made of it. You have chosen to see yourselves as separate gods, each trying to outdo the other. The thrill of competition has caused your world to be filled with divisiveness. What do you expect with a playground full of gods competing for material gain? It's much like a playground full of bullies vying to be in charge. No one wants to follow for all want to lead.

Following is a powerless position much lacking in enjoyment.

There are all sorts of roles to play. You could even play rain or foul weather to disrupt the party. You could be flowers or poison ivy. You could be birds or snakes. There is no limit to the roles that you could play. You have complete freedom. And upon each chosen return to the playground, you will have a different role. Would a playground alone be any fun?

Who makes the rules on the playground?

There is only one rule – cause and effect. And please understand that the causes and effects change based on different perspectives and role players. Playing with Mother Teresa is not the same as playing with Hitler. And please bear in mind that these are only roles – not reality. God could not create the behavior of evil. But of man's own free will did evil come forth on the playground. How would you appreciate Mother Teresa without her opposite in comparison? Consequences must be considered on the playground. Is it not a better lesson to equate cause to effect than a proposed system of laws which are insufficient? You must learn to see the game from above. From our eye level, it appears fearful and full of treachery. From the level of spirit, it appears like a board game with toy soldiers and dolls galore. If you see your bodies like dolls and soldiers, will you not be better able to enjoy the game? You move your chess pieces and your opponent moves his. There is no hatred or ill will, but the game is played for the enjoyment. See yourself as a green army man and you will have a detached perspective that will surely benefit you.

In the game of life as compared to chess, there are far more pawns than kings and queens. There are people of different powers and abilities. There are two sides locked in the struggle for material gain. But when one game ends, another can begin. If you are taken by the opposition, you are free to play upon the board again. The pawn who makes it full length is also crowned a king. Don't underestimate the pawns for their power is great.

Would God interfere in your game of make believe? What would be the fun of that? Free will means just that. It does not mean selective will or predetermined will. You have been allowed to play on the playground of life as many times as you have chosen in the roles that you have chosen. And by playing the game in many different roles, you are given varied experiences from many different vantage points. The game is not experienced the same by the pitcher and the catcher, the outfielder and the infielder. The coach has an entirely different set of motivations than that of the individual players. To play the game of life over and over in the same roles is rather limiting and would not give you the fullness of experience that you desire.

It is still not understand why the game is not a more level playing field. Why is there so much more negative than positive?

How, with the ego in control, could it be otherwise? Was it heaven or hell, it would be all of one or the other. Depending on the experience chosen, the playground appears as such. Take ten kids and give each a different doll. See what transpires in their game. It will be amusing to watch the game, knowing that no real harm can come. Imagine as many players and roles as you wish for the scale does not matter. The dynamics are the same. You can imagine a country or corporation or house. It is all the same. Enjoy and above all else learn that none of it matters. It's just a game.

But surely with the realism of pain it takes on a far different vantage point.

It truly depends on the level of your viewing. If you see yourself as a body, it will be painful. If you see yourself as a spirit, it will be merely for the viewing. You have chosen the levels of viewing. When you have played the game enough, you will stop playing and return to Source where you are at home, safe and secure. You never really left, except in your mind which only thought it did. The learning levels explain much – why some come into the game with a profound sense of God and others are purely childishly selfish. There is no real difference for only imagined differences exist. Please play the game. Go for the gusto. Don't allow others to inflict their will upon you. You have the same rights and freedoms as all others. Do not condemn yourself to a prison needlessly. Suffer not at the hands of others. Assess the possible consequences and choose accordingly. Your game is how you see it.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Behold, I come as a thief in the night to rescue My children from their prisons. There is nothing you can or need do to win My favor for it is your birthright. In order to understand My favor, you must rise above the body and look from the vantage point of spirit. You cannot comprehend God's favor from the standpoint of the body. God cannot even imagine anything that limited. See everything as loving and all purposeful. Everything that happens benefits everyone whether it is realized or not. One day, you will know that this is merely nothing. You will see that your carefully written script is perfectly played, with give and take, for the full experience of all who interact with you and for you. Sure, there are things that you do for others and things done for you. But, there is seeming benefit in all things. In your disappointments, others have seen great triumphs. Then, the tide turns and you go through life much like square dancing – you dance with some for a time and then you change to another group.

If you look down upon your life, you can see the ever changing patterns of change. The players of your drama come and go, just as you come and go in the dramas of others. Yours is not an isolated drama – yours is not the only movie showing at the cinema. Shift from your vantage point to that of another person and see how the same movie shifts completely. What may now appear victorious for one is tragic for another. All this happens at once. Think for a moment your current circle of acquaintances, family and friends. Have they always been the same? Very few remain together for the whole of a lifetime. Just as the acts of a play change, so do the themes of your life. There are tragic acts and blessed acts, good and bad. But the movies always have happy endings. The final curtain call is one of relief and unbelievable joy for at last the drama ends and perfection begins. At last you know fully again that you are never apart from God, you only imagined that you were.

Isn't it sad that Jesus suffered in spite of knowing His fate in advance? Most death row inmates at least feel that they have somehow participated in their sentence and earned their punishment. Was Jesus ok with His script or did He suffer knowing that He was so hated by some?

Is it ever joyous to know that anyone does not like you? There is sadness, especially for those who are so filled with bitterness that their hearts are hardened. But Jesus knew that everyone had a role to play with Judas doing the dirty work. Someone had to. He did the world a great favor – he permitted the salvation lessen for the world. Was he celebrated as a hero? He played the role, the most hated role, and did thus hate himself for it. But, he kept others from being the scapegoat. Jesus knew that it was all meaningless. Don't let Bible stories and movie depictions be your only knowledge of Jesus. Many have suffered far worse than He did. He suffered for a day. How many would have rather had it so light? He did not suffer with sickness or debilitating disease. He suffered one day, so don't cry for Him. He would not have it so.

But He was innocent. His suffering is seen as more horrible due to His innocence.

Trust Me, other innocent people have suffered worse. But on Jesus was the great example made. The world glorified Christ as somehow better than all others. If all people knew themselves truly, they would know that Christ merely chose a different purpose. You could just as easily have chosen the same. The world existed before Jesus was born into the world. And certainly it has remained after. There have always been saints among you. Jesus just got the best publicity. Certainly, He served a great purpose and the world was better for His script. But, don't imagine that you do any less for the world. The one person, seemingly small and insignificant does affect the all. Each ripple in the ocean is meaningful. Don't underestimate the small for all are equally needed.

How do we, the small and seemingly insignificant, rise to the call in fullness and Godliness?

Your willingness to follow My direction is all that is needed. The course is set; you have chosen to follow your dreams, which are really your destiny.

But if this is true, what of those who have dreamed and not had their dreams fulfilled?

Surely they have not chosen them. Everything that happens is but the fulfillment of your plan's destiny. You do not know what you have written, but you know what you desire. Those who get what they want are those who are absolutely determined to have exactly that. They have truly remembered their destiny.

You make us face seemingly impossible odds. How do we overcome the odds in the face of so many failures?

No effort is a failure. All effort is a triumph. That you took action to help the world is a victory in itself. I do not deem your efforts a failure, why do you?

We would consider success or failure based on results.

Is it whether you win or lose, or how you play the game? There are people who win and therefore lose. They lose themselves in ego. There are those who lose, yet win. They win respect and admiration. So, not all winning is winning or losing is losing. There are more factors involved. I see hearts and intentions. If your intention is the benefit of another, it is a win regardless of results. If it is intended for selfish reasons, it is a failure. If the name of the game is creating winners, have you created winners?

In this life, happiness for all is impossible until mastery is achieved. So, don't have higher expectations than are possible. Satisfy yourself with doing our best. Our best is the best. Don't be discouraged by short term losses. It's the long term gains that matter. You cannot determine the outcomes of your life. You can only do your best, give it to God and hold on till the end. I assure you that if you really want it, it will come to you in the most amazing fashion. It will seem rather miraculous; never will it appear until its time has come. But when it comes, it will blow your mind. Don't put lowly expectations upon your life and assure failure. Put Godly expectations upon your life and demand nothing less.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Congratulations! The world has a new healer and many will benefit and come to know Me because of the combined efforts. Don't underestimate the accomplishment for it is the great step from no purpose to My purpose. No one comes to God alone. You have helped another self-realize potential and purpose. The grunt work is unpleasant, but highly rewarding. We don't often credit those who got us where we are, but their generosity is essential for our being what we were meant to be. "I have sent you nothing but angels." (Conversations With God, Book 2, Page 177) Know that I have sent you nothing but angels. Be of good cheer for the bounty of fruitful service is upon you. You saw your brother as yourself. Now, you must see yourself as brother to many others. It is a mutual realization. They must rise in your sight, but you must also rise in your sight. Now, you have created a master – a self-realized master – brought into the world for its salvation. All of life is carefully pre-planned. As you well know, your planning has been such that needless distractions have been eliminated. It's time to derive some actual benefit from your carefully planned script.

The plot has been carefully laid out to put you in a position of strength, freedom and purpose. Allow yourself to be aligned with spirit for your every directional need. Do not depend upon yourself, for you do not know even one best step to take. Take My way and learn to live according to the purpose, guided by spirit, the way of the master. It's not about you and you are perfectly safe. As you have chosen to serve, it cannot be that you are without the resources needed to succeed.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Going from A to B can be short or long. You can choose a straight path or a swirling path. You are going from A to B. That's fixed. How you get there can be easy or difficult. What your spirit is knows the answers. The two voices inside you speak from two different perspectives. If the ego tells you to fight and the spirit tells you not to, are they not two parts of the same coming from different vantage points? Depending on how you see things, this is how you listen to yourselves. Let's say you are cut-off in traffic. If you are offended, you'll react with anger. If you are unaffected, you'll peacefully continue without reaction. There is no difference except how you judge the situation. The situation is, you apply judgment, then react. At the judgment point, you can either be offended or oblivious. This is your choice. At the decision point, the tide turns. At any moment when you are conscious of a situation, this is a decision point. You can choose wisely or unwisely. The ultimate wise choices are always loving and forgiving. If you see all situations as ok, then no further actions, reactions, consequences, etc., are called forth. It is almost as if you choose to play in the game or not.

If there are particular decisions to make between two seeming options, how should we choose?

Without emotion or materialism, the choice should be obvious. If happiness is your goal, the choice will be easy. Ask your higher self for the better choice. The higher self does know you.

What if neither choice seems better?

You will have an inclination toward one or the other; it's usually preferred to take the choice which gives you peace. Remember, you are not alone and the next step you take is somehow connected to someone else. You pull, they push. See that every action you take is a reaction to someone else's action. Is it not true that a person wants something and another person is compelled to provide it? All of this happens very subtly, so that it is not as obvious. But one person's actions do impact the actions of another. All are connected by a common thread. In a literal way, what you do affects at least one person directly and many others indirectly. This is true for all people. You are not alone.

     

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Imagine yourself as a beautiful painting, carefully painted using all of the colors of those who have made your life colorful. Or you can imagine your life as a woven piece of cloth, perfectly ornate with all the beautifully dyed threads of those who have brought colors into your life. You are not one, but many. Truly, your life has not been lived alone. There have been thousands who have come and gone through your journey. When I tell you that you are not alone, truly this is so. All minds are connected in this way. You do not live in isolation, though you may errantly imagine it so. You are truly blessed with many colors. You are filled with the sketches of abundance and thoroughness that only can be seen from above. You imagine that your every moment is a separate event, yet I tell you that this is not so.

Each moment, even this one, has been carefully scripted to include such beauty and bounty. For there is never a moment as glorious as the one spent with your Creator. These are moments for which your soul longs. These are moments of divine inspiration. There is great pleasure in them. There is fun and joy in conversing with the creative spirit within you. Have you not found that all else pales in comparison? That you crave more and more of this? The simplicity of life is in the joy of the Lord. The letting go of guilt and distractions is the key to purposeful joy. Nothing compares to this for your salvation is found where only peace remains.

If this is true, why then do we not feel peace and joy? It sounds wonderful to remove life from us, but is somehow unrealistic, realizing that we must yet live.

This is the bridge between the worlds. You have one foot in each with neither fully holding your attention. Neither letting go of the other. This is a distressing condition for you can't fully relinquish either, no matter how hard you try. And fulfilling one, as completely as possible, leaves a gaping hole in the other. From this condition, you can see that you are caught between two worlds, pleased by neither. What is a poor mortal to do? If you choose one, then the other is crying and vice versa. You can't live in this world totally for spirit. Both worlds must be fed, but the shift in the balance of power can make the condition the least offensive. When you use the vantage point of love, then your chances of greater fulfillment are had in both worlds. If you see the worlds as separate, their purposes will always be at odds. If you combine the two, with one being the lesser motivator, then you are more prone to experience a more fulfilling life.

If love is your guiding light, then the ego will fall more in line and will selflessly seek from its more appropriate place. Never will the ego be absent completely. The trick is to quiet it as much as possible. The screaming ego will cause you to do what you find hateful and unloving. As much as possible, put aside the ego and learn to look for loving alternatives. This surely does not mean putting aside your needs, for you have many. You are part of the fabric that within which is woven your life. Look always to love yourself and others for only in loving all will you all be loved. You are equal to others. Do not see yourself as less. See yourself as equal. You are equal to all. Be who you truly are and love as you truly desire.

Instead of seeing perfection in the process, you see that you are being given your just desserts. Never is anything done to you as a punishment. Everything is done for your proper learning. You have chosen this for your spiritual gain.

It is difficult to see spiritual gain during these times of nothingness. It would seem that desperation is produced.

_From that desperation you will do marvelous things. Until you are desperate, you will do nothing, but ordinary. It is from the place you call desperation that your greatest accomplishments are had. This is when you have pulled from your deepest self the strength to go forward in spite of circumstances_ _._ _It is from this place, the one last attempt, that you achieve greatness_ _._ _Simply moving effortlessly from this to that is meaningless. What you seek is the meaningful._

The cycles of desperation, relief and misery have happened so many times that there is very obviously a pattern. How do we stop this pattern of misery making?

You have always had wrong motives and good intentions. You have chosen the wrong path on which to make a living. Can it ever be that on the wrong path you will ever find anything, but misery?

But there seemed no other choice. It can be no mere accident that the pattern has repeated.

Surely not, for there are no accidents. But, you need to realize that unless you find fulfillment of your desires, you will always find temporary relief from guilt followed by misery. You cannot find happiness where you don't want to be. You must choose for happiness and therefore align yourself on the path of happiness. You won't find happiness where you've been. You know what you want, but you don't know how to get it. Surely I will show you. Hold My hand and I will lead the way.

Our eyes are beginning to open again to the concept of destiny – letting go and letting God. A Course In Miracles says that there is no world, we need do nothing, we need make no decisions for ourselves, etc. Is it all really just a puppet show of our spirits for our spirits?

From the Bible comes the following statements regarding destiny:

" **Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you, I have appointed you a prophet to the nations." (Jeremiah 1:5, NAS)**

"... **for Thou didst form my inward parts; Thou didst weave me in my mother's womb." (Psalms 139:13, NAS)**

" **Thine eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Thy book they were all written, the days that were ordained for me, when as yet there was not one of them." (Psalms 139:16, NAS)**

If life were all there is, then you are almost done forever. Never more. If you are only a body, then what was the point? So many meaningless bodies trampling the world in misery, apparently for no good reason. Does that even seem possible to you? If Jesus was correct and we shed our earthly bodies and return to our spiritual ones, then it seems to make more sense. But still, what's the point? It cannot be anyone's purpose to live, suffer and die. No system works that way. Life is not random. It is pre-determined, with a very specific purpose.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

All are called, but few listen. They are not all ready to hear. But when they are, they shall be given the simple message. You will teach without complexity. You have complained about the complicated messages of Jesus. Jesus taught as He heard. You will teach as you have heard. Seek from the teachings of Jesus the release from the world. He will tell you simply the truth and set you free. Look at the facts and ignore the illusions. Don't listen to things you have been taught by others. Remember always how easily convinced you were in Santa Claus. Don't be deceived. The world is not as you have been taught. Those within the illusion cannot know what is beyond it. Learn from the one who was.

But some of His words were distorted by those who didn't understand. How do we know which words to absorb?

If the words tell the truth, then they shall set you free. If they bind you, they are not His words. Belief is a strange animal. It is really based on your perception. But truth is beyond belief and perception for it merely is. It is not contradictory. It is. It will be true today, tomorrow and forever. The truth is the only thing that will set you free. When you are totally without guilt, you are free. Guilt is the destroyer. Be free.

But even the understanding alone will not offer us freedom. The experience is the aspect that is freeing. Will this be done?

I do not teach you empty words. I teach you powerful concepts both in truth and experience. You are now totally free of all except your mind. Burdens are upon you only as you have placed them there. You need be attached to nothing. Freedom is merely a state of mind as is truth and light. You experience what you have chosen. If you have desired freedom and have chosen it, it shall be.

We believe that we have chosen freedom but have not experienced it. We are always tied to something. Our support is a tie that binds.

You do not live by your own efforts. You believe that you do. But I assure you that you do not. You survive by My grace and the generosity of your brothers. Your brothers will provide as you have provided for them.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

The lesson is but this – your only choice is in how you will see what you experience. It is all pre-determined and unreal. There is nothing that you have to do or figure or concoct. Your plan is set. All you need do is follow the direction you are given. Your will is being done. The time is set. You are wholly within My purpose. There is nothing to fear or contemplate. Be ye free of worry and fear. My will is done and your will is done. Be free at last. There is nothing not in accordance with your plan. You must accept and allow. You cannot change it regardless of your efforts. Be free. Be free. Be free.

But we don't feel free.

Then choose again. Choose freedom. Life is but for your enjoyment. "It is true indeed there is no choice at all within the world." (A Course In Miracles, Chapter 31, Page 654)

**Chapter 18 – Life Is Not As It Seems**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Behold – I Am coming as a thief in the night. Here to claim My prize. Don't let life get you down for there's no life. Turn your attention to reality – where all things are possible. Love yourself as I love you and you will know truly that there is a God and it is you who has all power as I have given it to you.

I have told you that the fix is programmed. Your spirit wanted to give you a little time to sweat the details.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _from your disillusionment comes desperation which greatly motivates you to do what you are called to do._

Your soul need not rest until it lines up with purpose. This is how you know that you are not where you need to be. If your soul were at rest, you would stay too long.

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Another day filled with great expectations awaiting great disappointments. How sad is this for you, My Holy child? Why do you see no end to a perfectly complete situation? For you have chosen to see the end and surely you will. You imagine that life will somehow magically change and you will instantly be transformed. If you did not truly have faith, then your certainty would not be as well. For to have faith in one thing is to have faith in its opposite. You must have believed one thing in order to believe another.

This hardly makes sense – are you not saying that there is certainty in change?

Sure, you know very well that things change. Circumstances shift always for it is the nature of life. Especially today, when there is so much at your disposal. Truly, your circumstance could change today if you were not frozen with fear.

For all that we've have learned, we've learned that life gives us what it does and no amount of effort changes it. Why has this secret been so long kept from us?

It is not an easy lesson to learn. It is the most difficult. You see that by this you have no choice; therefore, you do not matter. Humanity seeks to matter. Every single person wants to matter. You see it one way or the other, but not that you have chosen this on another level. You see yourself as only one level, the body. Once you are able to shift to the spirit level, you begin to see things differently and understand that life on earth is nothing, but for the experience of learning for your true self, your spirit. Your spirit is the ruler of your life and it has already chosen what you will experience. This is the wisdom of the ages. For in seeing and accepting this, you are free to live your life in fullness.

The ego sees this as relinquishment of self and it cannot bear this. To be relinquished from the body, somehow causes you to believe that you are nothing but a puppet of God and you cannot bear this. Your ego fights it all the way. You cannot accept that you are spirit controlled; often you cannot even imagine that there is any such thing. It is hard to shift perspective from what you see to what you don't see. If you can see it and touch it, it must be real. This is the illusion's trap – escape is almost impossible for those who are not intuitive. For those who feel rather than see, it is much easier to realize the spirit within. The holiest of people cannot see, but somehow they know. They also have periods of doubt, just as everyone does. Doubt is a part of the process. It brings up the questions that every rational mind concocts. For those who are faced with the unlearning, doubt is inevitable.

Doubt is not a bad thing; it is part of the normal progression of unlearning. Your religions teach that doubt is bad for you must have perfect faith. Faith in what exactly? That God is the puppet master and you are at His mercy? Faith in God is another way of saying faith in the process of predestination. It is splitting hairs to try to make one right and the other wrong. What is the real difference between faith in divinity and faith in predestination? Have you all not understood that life is beyond your control? Who then determines your life's paths – God or man? Does chaos control life? No one believes that chaos is really the basis of all life. There is too much evidence to the contrary. To believe that suddenly from nothing came something simply does to make sense.

But how is it that we are so caught between learning and unlearning?

The game rests upon illusion and to know the truth is to end the game. You have chosen to play the game. Much prep went into the game. Would you suddenly bring everything into turmoil and chaos?

We just imagine the world a better place if more people knew the truth.

And they will. More people are questioning. It is only natural that more people will realize the truth. But the world will be no better for it is not designed to be better. As long as man imagines himself in charge, it will not get better.

Why do some come into this life in the futile attempt to make things better?

It's all part of the learning process. Jesus came for others. Was the entire world not altered for the better for His having been here?

Are you saying that there are those who come here simply to help improve the learning curve?

Of course. Jesus did not come to simply die. He changed the world. He brought people to truth and their spirits were elevated by His efforts. What is the point of countless lives of nothingness? If the soul is not being advanced, truly then you live and die merely for the experience. Is there a point to this? Only if you like to suffer needlessly.

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Behold, I come as a thief in the night, but not to steal anything but your doubts. You do not answer my calls because you assume that I am wrong. You have decided what you think is best. Have I not told you that you cannot but be at the right place at the right time? You cannot rush perfection. All things happen in the appointed time. Remember that where you are looking may not be the direction of purpose. You must be prepared fully for what will be revealed. You will hear My call and will know to where you are directed. You run to and fro trying to figure out that which you cannot possibly know. Your frantic efforts cause you to be distracted needlessly.

It seems that nothing is happening and that we are totally forgotten. What is the point of this?

Cast your cares upon the Lord. Cast them always and enjoy the day. I tell you that where your passion is, there shall your success be also. Surely success is not always overnight. Yet, be ever true to yourself. Only then will you know who you really are. The first books were but a starter for you. Don't let your future rest on them alone. Create more and more and more. Never stop and don't let seeming failure dissuade you. Many have suffered great losses before achieving success. If your heart calls you to do something, do it. Don't sit around and try to figure out how and why. Just do it. Your heart knows best.

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Don't be discouraged for alas, it is always disappointing when your plans don't yield expected results. As always, you have chosen hard lessons to learn, yet you learned them not. You continue to wait upon the world and not trust in the powers of your plan. The process works perfectly. Why would you have written in needless delays?

One would assume that there would be a reason – either a timing issue or a patience issue.

Well, let's look at this from your standpoint. You see this as needless delay, but it is perfectly timed if you could see all involved. Your lack of focus and acceptance keeps you from much knowing. All ideas given you are immediately judged and qualified. Every answer that you get, or even suggestions that come into your mind, are judged as good or bad. You never let anything just be as it is.

Would it be better if we were to just sit, accept and wait?

Until you are told what to do, yes that is your best approach. Wait patiently upon the Lord. For all things happen in the appointed time. You can not alter life or circumstances. You are merely following directions given.

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Behold, I come as a thief in the night. BOO!!!

Now, we get it. You have taken away all of our comforts and hope. You have come as a thief in the night and stolen ourselves from us.

Is it not your wish to be free from yourselves? Do you not desire freedom and happiness and joy? There is only freedom when you are free of your burdens. What are your burdens from which you would be freed?

Your soul seeks to know itself by experiencing its opposite. Your soul has set your learning agenda. Doubts and confusion are only held at the physical level. Never do your souls contemplate doubt. There is no room for it. Doubt is merely a creation of the mind and in no way exemplifies reality. Doubt is an effect of a cause. Like fear, it comes from something else. Your soul is using your experiences to understand itself as God, with you being the subject of the experience, as your soul cannot experience imperfection. Although you can not understand the process, you surely know that something is pulling your strings. You have been shown that your life is not your own. You have seen that you are not alone and that your life is intertwined with the lives of others. Your purpose is jointly served. Your soul is the puppet master and makes you dance accordingly. Is it any wonder why you need to reconnect with your soul to truly know yourself? You have no control over the soul. You can accept your helpless position or you can continue to fight it. You are at the mercy of the plan. Why do you continue to punish yourself? Why not accept the perfection of the plan and enjoy the ride?

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The Lord loves you unconditionally and is with you always. Even though you cannot see the end of this, surely it will end and will reveal wonderful experiences. You have seen that you are My teacher and do help others cope with life. Do not be afraid for I AM with you always. Testing and trials are but perceptions. What is meant to strengthen you is not done except for your improvement. During these times, you pull strength from the previous times and are able to gradually lessen the dependence upon yourself. The trick of all of this is to realize that it is all meaningless – one day matters no more than the others. There are no delays except in your perception. Had you no expectations of timing, you would have no delays. In the grand scheme, all things must happen as prescribed else the entire game plan would be different. All things must perfectly align with all players must be in place. You assume that you are alone in this, as you can only see from your perspective. Trust that all others are scheduled on the playing field with you and there are things which must happen that you cannot see nor understand. This is where faith helps you to cope with what you see as needless delays or wasted time.

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Signs and wonders will accompany those who are filled with My spirit and who serve My purpose. As you have asked, so is it given. You will not know the hour or the day, but you will behold the majesty of God and know your Father in all of His glory. Know that I AM faithful. I have called you to believe and you have chosen to honor Me, even in the face of adversity. How can it be that I will not honor you in return? Have I called you only to disappoint? The ups and downs of life are seemingly without purpose. In truth, your lessons are given for the perfection of your purpose. You are My teacher in whom I AM well pleased. The Lord knows your needs and will not fail you nor forsake you. Truth hides from those who would not hear it or receive it. You have wanted to know My ways and you will know. I will reveal to you the secrets of God. Be not fearful or unnerved for My secrets are not frightening, except to the ego. You already know most of them. Manipulation of matter yet remains the secret you have not known. You have been taught about destiny and the soul's desires. This you have come to understand. What you have not learned is the bridge between the worlds. This is where I must carry your learning. For this you cannot figure out alone. It is not mere magic or a trick you can learn from a book. It is something that only masters have been taught, for they are wise enough to not abuse the knowledge.

Cause and effect is real and powerful. Your life of effect and reaction will shift to cause. You must carefully follow My directions for proper use. You have chosen to be My teacher. You have chosen to help others learn. You have been My righteous servant and have taught as it was given you to teach. You have honored me even to the discredit of others. Believe that God will honor His faithful servants. I will lead you to your promised land. Be of good cheer. The desert is behind you and you are upon the land of the chosen. Be not dismayed or anxious for what you shall do. Know that your Creator has not left you alone in the desert. I AM with you always. In order to perfectly honor Me and My purpose, you must know what you will teach. Your lessons are not for you alone. You are to be filled with the fire and passion of God, so that all will know that you are My chosen one. Never will a time come when you will have needed to convince others of your sanctity. You are Mine and I AM yours. Behold, I come as a thief in the night to lift you up and demonstrate My power to you. You will know that I AM the Lord your God and your doubts will be no more. The time of doubting has passed. You will be justified and uplifted in the spirit of God. The turning point has come.

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Good afternoon, holy child of God. Be of good cheer. You know not what the heavens have in store. You have a dream that haunts you and you know not how to achieve it. You see sketches of the circumstance, but know not the means. For God has given you the means and the will to bring your dreams to pass. You know not the majesty, but you see that you have the drive and determination to do My will. For all that is needed you have. You cannot have gone through so much for no reason. Feel the call of your heart and it will lead you home. What does your heart tell you that you want? You are poised to bring forth good things upon the world. There is nothing that I will not give you - the means, the opportunity and the blessings. What can anyone give you that I cannot? Why do you suppose that I have caused you to wait? Allow Me to explain. There are things that had to be accomplished before you could progress to the next step. You had to learn and others had to be taught. All delays are not really delays, they are but opportunities to advance. An unprepared leap from here to there leads to disappointment. Thorough preparation is necessary for you to go properly in the direction of our will. As if the planets were aligning for a great solar event, so is the remedy to all of this. Do you not have faith in your Father that this too shall come to pass?

Remember, learning is gradual and you do not even realize how changed you are from then to now. Allow yourself to be open to the truths within you. There is really nothing that you do not understand. Trust in the process and you will not be disappointed. Can it really be that the desires of your heart are wrong? Are they not the product of your creations before your birth? Keep sailing and don't quit. Dream dreams and chosen to have it as you will. Believe in yourself, but mostly in My ability to make your dreams come true. You are no different or less deserving than any other. Be of good cheer and believe that nothing can stop you from doing My will for the world. You are the master of your destiny and you must believe in yourself. Dream the dream and live your life as if it has already happened. See it, believe it, live it.

There are so many desperate souls in the world. How does it not break your heart to see the suffering? How do you stay so removed?

Everything has a purpose. Know that all misery is chosen as a means of learning. You cannot judge the pain of another.

If all pain is chosen, why are people so affected by it?

That's the game. If it didn't seem real, what would you learn? Do you learn at Disney World? If you lived your life as though it were an amusement park, you would be less affected by it. Suffering is your choice. Do not suffer from the fear of amusement park rides. Life is so much like Disney World. Knowing this is very freeing.

But that seems a little foolish to equate a park with life. Pain is real. Death happens, even in amusement parks.

But death isn't real either. You have confused your life with reality. It cannot be that life is in any way reality for reality could not come from such seeming chaos. If God made you, why would He then make such a fallible system for you to utilize? There is perfect order in God's creations. Your creations are flawed because they are predicated on a flawed notion that you are separate from God. It can never be that you are without your Creator just as your creations can ever be without you.

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You have no need to despair for your destiny is well planned. It cannot be that you will see other than what you have chosen. Your dreams of a teaching venue will come to pass and I will show you the way to have it. You have no idea where or when. You need only follow the guidance given. You will be called to do what you have chosen to do. Trust that you will be shown. I will give you all that you need. Trust that the Lord will provide your dream fulfillment. As you have desired, so shall it be. In fact, you are teaching all the time, yet know it not. How can you teach what you have not learned? You have learned much even without realizing it. Be honest with yourself, you have almost completely changed your mind about God and how you deal with Me.

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Are you ready for some real fun? How about the excitement of a lifetime? God doth provide the miracles for so long awaited. See not with your eyes, but with your heart. Behold, I have come to give you all of your desires, not to steal or take away. For all unnecessary matters have been removed. Now, at last you are the miracle that you have chosen to be and God has made you whole. No more anticipation and no more guessing. For you have passed the tests placed before you time and again. For you have seen the light and have not fallen away. You have accepted reality and your place among the sons of God. You are mine and I AM yours. There is nothing that you are not. Behold for you are made whole.

Tell us what is different now?

All things change, yet stay the same. Remember that enlightenment is merely a shift in perspective. A change in perspective is all there is – from defiance to acceptance. There is a reason for everything and that all things are perfectly set to happen according to your divine will. It cannot be static as you imagine. Life is ever changing and dramatic. There are parts of the plan with serve as opposites. These demonstrate clearly when you have reached your purposeful fulfillment by letting you know what you do not want. To know what you love, know what you don't. Generally, a person experiences some hardships in the beginning. There is the doing without reward most often before there is success. The shift is never easy for you doubt that you will ever have your fulfillment.

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Consider carefully your interconnectedness to all. Know that even on the smallest scale, you affect others. Your every word and deed somehow affects others. You imagine degrees of effect, some are seemingly larger than others. But of this you can be sure, you are not alone. The movie about Mother Teresa was a brilliant example of how she gave and received. Her intent was to help others. She gave constantly to others. Yet, whenever she needed something, it came to her almost always in direct return from one to whom she had given previously. Her gifts were received and returned. She received as much as she gave, although her gifts were not for her personal benefit. She saw the balance of life. She knew that God would provide her always the means to do what He had chosen for her to do. She professed the ability to hear the voice of Jesus. She said that she did as He directed her.

For those who have truly chosen only to serve, they hear God's voice with clarity and certainty of purpose. Helen heard the voice of Jesus, even though she didn't know that she had chosen to serve. A Course In Miracles is a monumental gift of Helen's service to humanity. Her means were very different from Mother Teresa, but she managed to give an eternal gift that would affect the world just as Mother Teresa did. God has the means to use perfectly all who would serve. The gifts and talents and means are not always the same, but their purpose is always to know God. Never underestimate the one called by God and the means that He will use. From the most surprising places...

How can we be led to know the perfect way of your calling?

Always, your path is set. This I have taught you. We have spent many hours realizing this. It cannot be that you will not do that which you have chosen to do. If you find yourself led astray, then it is by your own choice that it has happened. God does not make you do this or that as you freely chose it. You have seen that people blame good things on God and bad things on themselves. The first error is judgment. There is nothing good or bad. You simply judge it so. The second error is your response to it. How you react to what you have judged is further creation of error.

But having no judgment leaves us as little children, merely going from situation to situation.

Have I not told you to be like little children? Children do not judge until they are taught to judge.

Do we then teach our children simply cause and effect? How can you explain this to children?

This is no more difficult than teaching an innocent child to hate. How easily do you teach children to hate those whom you have judged inferior? Your teaching methods are cruel and cause your adults to live in constant fear and guilt. You have inflicted the guilt mechanism in order to control behavior. Guilt is your method of madness.

But guilt has so many layers and levels. How can we ever be free of it?

Pluck away the blinders that keep it hidden. In every circumstance, ask if you are feeling as you do because of guilt? Usually, you will be able to discern your guilt motivations. If you are truly doing your will, no guilt will be a factor.

Is there ever a time when we are truly doing our will?

You are always doing your will, but not necessarily as you know it.

Is it possible then to be free or feel free if we are always doing things that do not feel like our will?

While trapped in a body, there is an element of imprisonment that you will always have. You are trapped by the mental limitations of your mind over your body. So, if you think outside the body, then you will experience a different sort of freedom. It is possible to feel freer within the body's prison. It takes mental determination and practice.

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Be of good cheer. Let all thoughts, worries and fears melt away. I hold you securely in My hands. You need fear nothing, you need plan nothing. The plan is set forth. These "senseless delays" are but to strengthen you and to perfectly place you within the perfection of purpose that you seek. It is not, nor has it ever been, My desire to cause you suffering. In fact, you have made your plan and I have allowed its perfect execution. Do you not realize that you cannot fail in God's plan? God's plan is the very one that you set forth in agreement with those whom you have chosen interactions. Were these things not so cleverly organized, you would have seen through the illusion long ago. But what of a school that teaches only easy lessons? There is no learning in that. There is merely experience. Experiences are those learning tools that must be perfectly balanced – hard and easy – to bring you the fullness that you desire. Rest assured that God has not put this upon you, but you have freely chosen this. The learning is the means of your advancement. There are times which appear good and bad for the fullness you have sought. In order to know God, you must appreciate His opposite. God is all in all. You are no different. You need only change your perspective to realize this. Be glad that you are well cared for. Be happy as your time has come. You have traveled well this road of testing. Be uplifted and grateful for the world has heard your plea. Honor Me and know that I cannot fail you. Come to Me always and I will hear you. Be not concerned about the world or the things within it. You are well able to do My will.

How can we see from outside the circle of life and know that it is merely a game?

Have you ever done one truly meaningful thing? Does anything last? Has the world ever been truly altered? Has anything ever really changed? The system still operates just as it did before, with only seemingly different toys on the playground. Nothing really changes. It only appears to change. Is this not the greatest evidence of illusion? That all progress is really a different version of sameness? You have not accomplished anything. What you call life is nothing more than a merry go round with different paints used over time.

Why are not all desires fulfilled?

How do you know that all desires are not fulfilled? Are you certain that all of your soul's desires are what you judge as good? Perhaps your soul has desired both good and bad, happy and sad experiences for its advancement. You find this unbelievable, yet it must somehow be true. The actual intent of your question is why you aren't given the stuff that you desire. This is what you really want to know. Why does God not answer all prayers as intended by the person saying the prayer? First and foremost is the fact that the plan is set and all things happen accordingly. Were God to grant your requests outside of your plan, then the plan would change for everyone. Were you written in as a poor person and God suddenly made you a rich person, all the lives of those around you would be different. Secondly, what you have is not what you are to be concerned about. Things are fleeting – they come and go even if you once thought a thing to be the most desirable thing ever. Once a thing is had, it loses its appeal. So, your wants change as you change. Thirdly, have you ever considered the actual cost of ownership? To have more is to have to keep more and with everything had there is more freedom removed. As you accumulate, your freedom deteriorates. You must look at freedom from a minimalist perspective. If you are constantly concerned about what you own, then you are not free at all. Are not even the wealthiest attached to keeping their wealth? How is this freeing?

But are not the poor kept in slavery of lack? They are constantly trying to obtain more. Is there freedom in this?

Each must choose for him/her self what circumstances are freeing. Were you a bird, you would not worry, but would seek food or nesting materials as needed. If you were to understand that all things work out perfectly based upon your plan details, you would have freedom from struggle and worry. If you were to allow rather than force, you would experience freedom. But on the other side of the coin, freedom for many is considered boring. Would you rather be free or bored? It's all really a state of mind, if you think about it.

**Chapter 19 – You Are Not Alone**

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I AM! Isn't that perfection in two words? Try as you will to command the universe to be what you have chosen. Your life is not at random. It is a marvelously scripted play in which all of the actors have played their parts perfectly. Do not allow yourself to be bogged down in narrow mindedness. Trust that you are wholly part of the God complex that operates for the benefit of all. You are not isolated or alone. You are kept fully within the entirety of the whole of God. Can you imagine that all of life is totally separate? Is it true that you are merely a separate part operating in isolation? All of life is interconnected. You have not lived alone nor has your life been exemplified by isolation. You have only imagined that you have operated in a vacuum. See the interconnected parts of everyone's lives and you will begin to see how, "All things work together for the good of them that love the Lord and are called according to His purpose." (Romans 8:28, NAS) In fact, it is far more difficult to see life as isolated than interconnected.

You have been taught that you have choices to make and that certain miraculous things happen to you by chance. It can never be that you are alone. Even sitting alone in a room, you are still connected to all, even if only in your mind. Your focus on the body has caused you to think that you somehow are special and separate. You have not lived your life alone. You are the culmination of all interactions with others. You have not made yourself and you have not created the experience you call life alone. Just as driving to the mall is an experience you have had alone, even though you have imagined yourself to be alone in your car, the bigger picture is that you have been only one of many having a shared experience of going to the mall. You share the road, the laws, the pollution, the noise with many others. Even those people who live in physical isolation are not alone. For each is the product of a vast collection of influences. At no time are you alone. Realize this and know that you are not alone and without the means to conquer the world. You are part of the whole. From relative obscurity have come those who have greatly influenced others. Many have influenced the world without even the conscious realization that they are doing so.

Allow yourself to know your interconnectedness with all the world. Be a part of the whole knowing that no man is an island. Islands of minds do not exist. You have been touched by the person of Jesus who lived two thousand years ago having never met Him. Are you not joined with Him? Are you not joined with your first grade teacher? If you could fathom the connectedness of all that has influenced the you that you perceive yourself to be, you would be shocked. Your mind has a tendency to not build upon a storehouse of separate experiences – your experiences are filtered for current relevance. If today you are focused upon cars, your mind will select the relevant influences which have brought you to where you are today relative to cars. You did not just wake up one day and suddenly have awareness of cars. Your experiences are built up over your life, a culmination of many seemingly separate experiences.

How have we been so fooled by our perceived separateness?

You are taught to be individuals. You are taught to do what is right for you. You, you, you – it's all about you. You have so focused on you that you have not seen outside of you. In truth, it is harder to see yourself as separate than as joined. Oneness is natural, separation is not. You would have greater hope and more love in your life if you shifted your perspective back to Oneness. Your ego desires for self have caused you to short change your life. Reawaken to your connectedness to all and know that you are not alone. Have proper appreciation for those who have taught you the toughest lessons. They are your truest friends, for they have done the most to help you know yourself. You imagine those who you deem as friendly as your best supporters, but in truth it is the one who causes you to be strengthened who has given you the greatest gift. The harder the lesson, the greater the reward.

How do we lift our perspective to see the gifts in all things? How do we separate out our emotions from the experience and realize the beauty within?

At the time of the experience, to see the gift would lessen the experience. If you do not fully get the effect, the lesson would be lessened. This is not what you have chosen for the experience is why you have chosen to live this life. When you have tuned out the experiences, then your life has shifted from beneficial to useless. Understand that even the most seemingly painful experiences are in no way permanently damaging. They offer you the chance to know yourself fully. This is why so many people shift directions after a failure. They have seen the uselessness of the direction and have chosen to operate in a more joyous arena. Being fired from a job you hate can at first be devastating. Until you realize that you have been given the gift of freedom to explore more suitable avenues, you will be caught in hurt and pain. See the gift in all circumstances. Everything in your life has happened as a means to teach you who you really are. There are no accidents or coincidences; these are your judgments upon the circumstances. Allow yourself to see the beauty in all things, especially disappointments.

Is there ever a point when we see the bigger picture and the hurts are not so painful?

As you have seen, experience is the best teacher. The more you experience, the less you are affected. Your first experience of death was very traumatic. The ones that followed were less and less to the point where you finally saw death as a relief from life – that the dead were actually the ones who were free. To live, you must believe in the sanctity of life. To die is to finally realize the futility of life. Life is not the purpose, but the experience of what never was. Life is the you that you never were. For in the imperfections of life, you were taught this you could never be. In death, you realized that you are truly eternal and perfect. You are shown that regardless of effort, life cannot be better or even remotely near perfect. To be alive is to be what you are not. This is the lesson of life. God is not limited and therefore cannot live. God, like you, is eternal and simply is. Life is an imagined expanse of time. God does not exist within time for time itself does not exist. Freedom from life is truly freedom. Let yourself be free and imagine that life is just a silly game that you have played to learn what you are not. Life is God's opposite just as the world is the opposite of heaven.

So, once we realize all of this, we are free to either enjoy life or to end life.

The masters have realized this and have learned to get the most from the experience. Once mastery is achieved, technically the game is over. The master no longer benefits from the experience and is faced with the opportunity to live in the service of others or to die. Masters do not live for their own experiences for they have no need of them. Masters live in service to others. The perpetuation of learning is beneficial. Imagine that masters had not walked before you, how would your questions have been answered? Yes, you can live so as to only receive revelations, but learning from those who have gone before you is very beneficial and allows you to incorporate the experiences of others so that you can learn what is true for you. You do not live in a vacuum. You enjoy learning from the experiences of others. There is great help in the wisdom passed down. You cannot experience but a limited amount in each lifetime, so getting a boost from others' experiences speeds you along the way. If in each life a person had to start at square one and learn all there is to learn, life would be over before any benefit could be attained. Roughly twenty years of each life is wasted learning common knowledge. If you had to learn aside from previously learned knowledge, your life would be over without ever having applied it. You would be in school your entire life.

How can we get past the trivial and get to the meaningful aspects of life?

Truly, releasing the world from your supposed control is the best way for when you allow life to be lived as planned, you are free to see outside the box of worry and fear. Allowing life to be lived and enjoyed is the key to maximizing the experience. Knowing that the end of the world will not come if you do this or not that will demonstrate that you are not at the controls and in truth cannot be.

What is our "part" in the play?

Doing what you agreed to do. Just as others have agreed to do their part for you, you do your part for them. There is give and take in all of life. You are not alone.

How have we been so fooled into thinking that we can change anything?

It's all a mind game. You have been fooled into thinking from an errant perspective. You have seen the world from the perspective of your eyesight. As if this one perspective could be correct, you have ignored the other millions of similar perspectives. How have you fooled yourself into believing that what you alone see is true?

From God's perspective, how is life viewed?

Certainly, as a parent watches children at play on a playground, God sees all and enjoys your playful creativity. There is the advantage of seeing from outside the playground knowing that there is no real harm possible. This is the grandest playground for you are only imagining yourself there. Were it a real experience, the experience would be different. But, it is just a playground and should be viewed as such. The masters perform as referees of the game. They know the game, but have no stake in the results but that you enjoy your experience of the game. Yes, masters allow you to make "mistakes." You can fall and injure your body, but no real harm comes to you – only learning gifts are had.

Does God help us when we fall?

God has provided the means for our comfort in troubling times. The perfections of the game system give us what we need when we need it. God is not about satisfying out wants simply because you want them, His system is perfectly arranged so that you experience as you have chosen. You have free will in this life, but you are never free to be truly away from your Creator. The universe that you have created is the only perceived imperfection that there is. God does not create imperfection. He has allowed you to think that you have.

When do we shift from the control (ego) perspective to allowance (spirit) perspective?

Really, this happens according to our plan's design. You have determined how long it takes to master the game. God has allowed you to play until you choose to finish.

When will we leave the ego perspective?

You have set upon the path of leaving it. I will not tell you when or any sort of future details. I will not ruin your game.

What if we feel that our game is already ruined? What if we crave advancement, but are stuck in the borderland?

The borderland is a rather miserable place – being fully attached to neither side – still doubtful of both perspectives, yet ever drawn away from the known is tough indeed. Many people turn back and assume that they have just been fooled – that there is no where else to go. The known is often more comforting than the unknown. Those with the courage and spiritual pull to proceed are the ones who succeed. There is a point when you cannot even fully return. Once you have seen enough light, never again will you be held in darkness. The draw of the light is powerful. The desire to know more is overwhelming. When the draw of the light is seen as the only possible way to go, then you know that the darkness will never again be chosen. In effect, this is the point of no return. When the space shuttle begins lift off, there's no turning back. The choice has been made and there is only the path ahead to consider. At lift off, the astronauts aren't considering what if they had just stayed at home for it is all out of their hands. They are at the mercy of things beyond their control. This is much like your life at this point for you have fully committed to the unknown. It is beyond your control now and you can't go back, even if you wanted to. Enjoy the ride for you are being propelled at speeds beyond your comprehension. Do only what you are called upon to do. You will be directed to perform as necessary from this point on. You have chosen to be the passenger and not the driver. Sure, you fear where and when you shall go, but you are far beyond being in control. In fact, you have never been in control and only your perspective has changed to realize this. But, there is great freedom in having no control. The perfection of life is now a well plotted course on which you merely ride. Enjoy the trip.

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Allow the Lord to guide you all the days of your life. Learning has come to demonstrate the freedom that comes with the shift in responsibility. Know that you plan based on your fear that direction and perfect solutions are not freely given you. In your restless mind, you imagine that you must do things in order to have things. Only what is perfect for you are you required to do and you will always be directed where you need to go.

We still have confusion and do not seem to be able to discern what is directed.

Had you not chosen your own answers and solutions, you could clearly have seen Mine. It is when you have lost all hope in your plans that Mine are considered. Know that always your plans have heeded you nothing. When you are guided to do what you feel is your last resort (no choice,) then you will know that the plan has kicked in. The relinquishing of control is the means to get clear direction. If you had but let go and let God. You never feel that My direction is a first resort. My direction, in truth, is the only resort.

How can we know that our feelings of total disappointment lead us to your resorts?

When the call of despair has come, know that there is change upon the horizon. Always when you have felt hopeless, there has come something new with which to capture your attention and give you new purpose. You have had to feel hopeless in order to move to the next phase. Would you ever have left one thing if you were somehow ok with it? No, only when you are totally dissatisfied do you move forward. You are not so bold as to leap from place to place. You do not take proactive steps, but reactive ones. So, the process of dissatisfaction comes and change follows. You have inclinations before your decision – you knew in advance about where you were to go. You just didn't know how or why, but you were told of a possibility if it were chosen.

Even knowing in advance the direction to take and feeling miserable before did not make the new experience a happy one.

You were taught many valuable lessons about serving yourself, doing only to make a living and failure again at the hands of the ungodly. Gifts are given to those who do not appreciate them. Children do not appreciate the sacrifices of parents until they are more mature. I assure you that you have altered the life of the one served, such that the life will never be the same. Your behavior will always pluck at the heart of one who had never before felt so connected to God. Mountains can be moved, but not always instantly. The lessons taught will produce great faith. God is certain of this. You may never hear it except from Me, but you will hear it from Me. You were called and did respond. Thank you for My child was given a great gift. Many lives were touched. And you were given a gift in return. You just know it not. Be uplifted always knowing that you will receive as you have given. The lessons are given and received. There are no bad lessons, but there are those that teach you to be better and better at service. Don't see anything as bad. See the beauty in all things. Do as you are guided and know that God goes with you wherever you go. Many are touched without your knowing. Love and trust God. This is where your focus should always be. Trust not yourself, for you have not the perspective to know. Work to recognize the call of the plan to guide you home. Truly, you cannot miss the call.

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I feel your sadness and disappointment for your brother. Rest assured that nothing is lost, so there is no need to feel sad. Trust that the Lord does give all that is needed in perfectly glorious timing. It is loving to want for another greater than for yourself. Be of good cheer for each has according to his own desires. Every need is met perfectly. You need do nothing, but offer loving support. This is truly all that you have to give. Everything else is superficial and meaningless in the long run. Do what really matters and give what truly touches the heart. The gift of God is in truth the only meaningful gift. What are needed are not solutions, but kindness and understanding. Supportive gestures are the ones that speak to the heart. You are not asked to save the world. You are merely asked to offer it the choice. No one wants everything done for them. They want to know that they are not alone. No one wants to be alone. All seek to be comforted along the hideous journey of life. All things are easier when supported. This is your task right now, to be supportive. It's not about you. Do as you are guided to do. Your heart knows the way.

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Behold, I come as a thief in the night. This test of giving will be tough, but know that in all things you must trust the Lord. The Lord has brought you here and has given you the means to overcome. There are things that you do not see. There are reasons beyond your understanding. Allow yourself to step aside once more and allow the lessons to be learned as they are required. It is not for you to judge or even be affected. You do not understand the workings of the minds of others. What seems to be worthless to you may be very important to another.

Is it purely for ego reasons?

People hold onto things for reasons of selfishness and pride. Who does not want to be desired? Who does not want to be in the forefront? This is all vanity and another lesson in pride. Pride to once again be vindicated and absolved of guilt. By passing guilt on, the enemy will take another cup of punishment. From the outside, this need not be. From the inside, it is greatly desired. What is the purpose of this? Self satisfaction – it can have no other possible motive. It serves no useful purpose, but it does serve to keep in the spotlight that which seeks to be. Can you not clearly see the futility in this? It seems so obvious – children playing with toys of imagined importance. But, you cannot discredit the toys, let them have their play. The past lesson has not been learned, so let them have their fun. To let it go would be wisdom – forgive and forget.

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Behold a new day for allowing temptation to be surpassed in favor of a higher calling. Be not attached to this world. Allow yourself to be free and behold the world will slowly disappear as its importance is removed. All is meaningless and futile. Release your attachments and all will be seen in a different light. The world is nothing, but a temptation to be what you are not. Allow yourself to know yourself for the wonder that you are.

To let go of attachments makes us somehow less human and not a part of what we are called to be. Why have we been placed in a world that is nothing and are tasked with its undoing?

Once you have realized the futility of it all, you will know that it is merely nothing. In the learning of this, you will see that life is but for the experience of all that you are not.

Please help us to understand that life is merely all a game and that so much is invested in mere nothingness. How do we release the world?

The world is merely a learning tool for the body, just as the body is a learning tool for the mind. The mind seems to serve two different masters, but it can never be. The world is full of fun and games, but nothing more. Once the apple of life shines no more, what is left but the truth? The truth shall set you free.

You speak of truth and freedom and an all loving state, but we have not experienced this. The opposite of the world at this point is merely words. Why do you spend so much effort undoing when there is no other option revealed?

All things in time. The revelation does come, but only for the mind prepared. Are you ready to know the opposite of the world?

Ready or not, for we cannot fully go back. You have brought us to the point of hopelessness of one and anticipation of the other. How can we not be ready? We cannot remain between the worlds.

You have investments in nothingness, but because of your lack of choices feel that there is no alternative. Faced with the only knowns that you have, you cling to what you know. This does put a person in quite an unsettled state. This is truly hell, not real, but surely imagined. This is the point where all eyes are on God – put up or shut up as you would say. What choice can there be except to release the vision and knowledge of truth. Your willingness to know has left you vulnerable and seemingly without recourse. You have lost what was and seek what is. Do you suppose that God will fail to show you the better way? Will God not meet you at your place of greatest need? Truly God would be cruel indeed if you were left at this point. This is not the purpose of the trip but the turning point along the way. There are times when you must let go of what you have known in order to more clearly see a better way. The better way exists, but is most difficult to see.

How Lord can we see the better way? We have not seen anything better, but only a different perspective.

The better way is one of no worries, attachments nor commitments. Don't suppose that you can achieve this alone. It is not for you to achieve at all – for it is given when you are ready. Isn't it funny that you imagine that you can do something worthwhile to make a better way – when the very essence of the better way is that you can and need do nothing? How confused are you about the better way.

Then reveal your better way. Haven't you waited long enough?

For surely I have waited long enough, in your opinion. In My opinion, My timing is clearly perfect. The revelation of Oneness is the point of zero, where only the positive begins to be built. The better way starts at zero. No longer will you be in the negative for only the positive remains. It will come upon you with great power and force. Were you not properly prepared, your world would be quite shaken.

Our world is already quite shaken. For those who seek the better way, who would be attracted to this particular method?

That is why there must be willingness to know the better way. The ones who have walked before you have spent many years learning. No one is magically transformed. In spite of your knowing this, you did walk as you felt you had not choice. It is not meant to be fun. It is meant to calm the call of your soul. Let the love of God be what you desire most. It is not really a matter of choice, but is a call of your soul that you must heed. You imagine that there is a choice, – but your destiny is set. There can be no other way for you, because of what you have planned for yourself. It is a call that cannot even deliberately be missed. If you thought the college years were tough...this is a master's program of at least ten years. You are a master, yet you know it not. You have done the time and will see the rewards. You will know the better way. God does not fail.

What is your part, the mysterious final step?

To show you what you truly are. The shift from perception to reality. The knowledge of your behavior is awareness of learning. Knowing how and why you do things is a great part of knowing yourself. Have you not learned much about human behavior?

Why do you allow us to behave so badly before we have been shown the wisdom? Why not show us the lesson and avoid our miss-creations?

You do not wait upon the Lord. You choose to dash off to find the answers for yourself, to see things as they really aren't. Instead, learn to ask before you jump to conclusions. In this you will avoid much pain.

Teach us before we act, react or just play the fool. Give us Your wisdom.

My wisdom was given perfectly timed. To know yourself, you must see yourself in action. That's part of the learning curve. Yeah, you'll make some mis-creations, but they are the experience part of the lesson plan. Knowledge without experience is rather hollow. Knowledge with experience teaches you the associative behaviors and feelings that magnify and exemplify the learning. To know what you are, you must first know what you are not.

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For as much as you have loved Me and sought after me, your gifts have come. Your faith is rewarded. Your misery has ended. See it and feel it and know it. For the time of redemption is at hand. Reach to heaven and claim your prize. For you have served well your purpose. You have demonstrated long standing faith and the power of your will to bear against the tides of mankind. Be no longer as you were. All things are different. Vision is given you. Only by looking out will you see. Looking within has been a tough journey for you, as it is with everyone. Seek no longer remedies that produce only heartache and hardship. Look to heaven and see only God's greatness and abundance. Be forever in My sight and walk in the light. Know that there is nothing wished for that is not within your power to behold. Let go of all things you thought brought you pleasure or happiness. Lift your sights higher and focus only on lofty effects. How can God work with hardened clay? There must be the flexibility of openness to allow God to do His will.

What do you want from us?

Give only your love, not yourself. I have not asked you to sacrifice yourself, but your selfish nature. It is your ego that has suffered and nothing else. Let go of all you thought was important and behold what truly is. There is nothing that you give yourself except misery, for life does not live up to your expectations. Only without expectations can you freely live and love as God intends.

What is the purpose of this?

To know yourself. With all of the wisdom you have gained, yet you are only partially changed. The world has shown you nothing different; therefore, you are not so different. Wisdom itself is not the teacher, but experience is. Words are merely nothing, for learning does not come from them.

Words do not "learn" you anything. They set your mindset for the proper application of the experiences. They are precursors to learning. Words put forth the context of the learning environment. They do not cause you to learn, they merely set you up for learning. They set the tone for learning. All classes are taught via lectures then practical applications follow. Tell me how to do something, show me and then let me do it. This is the basic learning model of everything. As you have learned, so shall you teach.

Our behaviors would suggest that our learning is less than perfect.

Perhaps you have behaved perfectly. You told your child not to run into the street to play. You saw that traffic was heavy and that there was danger. Just because it was not seen in a perfect light, does not mean that it was not perfectly given. The temptation to play in the street (ego validation) was rather strong. Were you not even in the picture, the advice would have been the same. Don't go where you need not be. See with wisdom – see yourself outside the situation and go accordingly. If your advice is the same with or without you, then you have clearly seen the situation. You cannot keep children out of the street, but you can offer suggestions. The ego draw for validation is supreme. Don't doubt its power.

It does cause us to run wildly toward something totally illogical. Should we be more like Mr. Spock?

Be logical, but always comforting. Take Sylvia's example and make people feel better. Open them up to goodness and not despair. Despair is not helpful. Seek ye to help people see clearly and lovingly. Don't make your lessons so harsh. Put forth a little more compassion, but don't pander for approval.

It would seem that what our minds see as wrong may well be right. Do we really behave the opposite of God? Is the world really the opposite of heaven?

To know what you are, know first what you are not. Know yourself as worldly and selfish. Then know yourself as loving and giving.

It seems almost impossible to know yourself as the opposite. Is it possible to no longer see through selfish eyes?

Granted, it takes much learning to see how you have been taught to be. You were taught behaviors justified by self preservation and offered all within loving guises. You were taught to give and share and love others. Yet, your behaviors have evidenced the opposite. Adults behave much like children. Mature behaviors do not emerge until much later in life, once the futility has been experienced. "Grab all that you can" is the motto from birth till death. Except for those who have wisely seen that this is worthless pursuit.

We just don't see how we can separate out our selfish nature and behave totally lovingly.

Those who give see the beauty of the gifts received. This gesture, taken to the logical extreme, would allow you to separate the two selves. As long as acquisition is your primary focus, then the other will not be seen. The shift must come from thought, word and deed. By giving, you know the true opposite of taking. It is merely a shift in focus, but the rewards of one are far more satisfying than the other. The joy received in the face of another is beyond the joy that can ever be attained from taking. Taking presents a hollow victory of isolation and separation. Giving presents a God-like loving satisfaction for which there is no comparison.

Certainly, this all sounds great and it is true. But what of the loving gift which is unwanted and unappreciated? Does this not kill the urge to give?

Not if giving is in your true nature. You must give and give and give all the days of your life. This is your true nature. You do not give to receive or even to have your gifts appreciated. You give because it is your nature.

When you feel as if you've given all that you can and you seem to be depleted, what should we do?

Give more – always. The reward is in the giving.

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Behold, behold for the Lord has spoken! What for you seems nothing is rather monumental to others. It came not as you imagined, but you see that a different path was chosen. The need to re-swim old waters was avoided. Praise be to the Son of God who has learned a valuable lesson. Trust in the Lord and I will make straight your paths.

What does it mean to make straight my path?

The path of least resistance. The easiest possible way. Don't fear, God's here.
**Chapter 20 – Holy Spirit**

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You have questions. I have answers.

On to the subject of Baptism in the Holy Spirit, how can we receive it?

What is so described in the Bible is what would be considered direct inspiration from God. There is nothing to be done – no ceremony to be performed. God inspires as it is needed.

How then can we know the spirit is upon us?

I assure you that you will know. God's inspiration is beyond compare.

Have we ever experienced this?

If you had, you would surely know it.

We have only experienced mild episodes of what we would call inspiration – nothing so awesome as described by others. Smith Wigglesworth had such an experience at age forty eight and was transformed. Is this not something available to us? Did not Jesus receive it and why haven't we?

It's like an electric current sent when needed. Surely, the power of God is not manifested at all times for who could handle it? When God chooses to use this, it will be done.

Can we or should we ask for it?

Ask for everything. God gives all to all.

But what is the use of a power which is unknown?

When it is for you to use, you will know. A gift is a talent that you always have. It does not come and go. It can be ignored or wasted or abused, but it is a life gift. Just as Elvis could sing, your talent is given and not taken.

But there are those who do lose their talents, or at least their ability to perform them.

It is not lost, just hidden behind other issues.

How does one choose to know and fully utilize their talents?

You know it. Everyone has a talent.

But not everyone has connected with it. There are those who do not fully utilize their talents. There are those who are afraid of their talents.

This is why there needs to be a spiritual experience to bring forth awareness of talents. You do have free will.

But what of a talent given and not received? Think of those who paint feverishly and never sell a painting.

It's all in your plan.

How do we connect the talent with the audience?

Always I will show you the way in which you shall go.

Always?

Of course – your steps are carefully planned. Not just a few or some – every single step is planned.

Why then does it seem so badly planned – scattered as if randomly patterned?

Because you do not connect the dots. It is a marvelous exercise of realization to know that all dots are connected.

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Behold, I AM with you always. Do not put your faith in what is not real – the world is not dependable, but the Lord is faithful always. Look only to the Lord for your support and I will never fail you.

But there are times when you seem to fail. Why?

Expectations lead to disappointments. Put no expectations upon the Lord and surely you will not be disappointed. Know your heart truly and realize those things for which you seek which you do not truly desire. You apply for jobs that you do not want out of guilt and desperation. You believe that somehow you must do something as God has left you.

Let's be honest, sometimes we call and you do not answer. We seek and do not find.

You may not get what you think you want and surely you do not find those things that you expected. The Lord doth provide in the most magical ways – far beyond your understanding.

It seems that the Lord promises and ultimately does produce. But it is in the Lord's ways to keep us guessing. It seems the Lord's folly to keep us in fear and despair. Why?

Until you learn to let go, you will always fear. You are in a position of total dependence upon God, yet you do not realize this. You try to control that which is uncontrollable. This produces the despair and fear that you experience. By your own hand, you cannot succeed. Know this.

By God's fruits, will we know Him?

Eventually you will see My fruits. They are not the fruits that you might expect. You might expect a pear and get a watermelon. You might expect a watermelon and get a grape. You must know that the quality of the fruit cannot be judged by size. Until you fully know the fruits, you will not understand their value.

So, we can surmise from all of this that we do not understand anything and we do not know any truths?

Until you have fully known, you know not. You are still looking to the world for help and there is none to be had. Until you seek only for God will you ever find satisfaction. Do not look to the world for it offers you nothing. Instead of feeling bad that you did not get a job, be glad that you are not trapped within the prison of another meaningless occupation. You hated it and really do not want it.

But what choice do we have? Your fruit tree bears not fruit.

Ah, but the faithful know that spring always comes and the Lord doth provide. Be glad that I have kept you from another misery. You see a job posting and think instantly that it is great. You have no idea what is behind the office walls or whose servant you become. Choose only to be My servant and I will keep you out of prison. Choose for heaven, not for hell.

But poverty is hell, as anyone will tell you.

Then choose heaven and not hell.

We choose not hell, but seem to be ever drawn to it. What is truly our choice?

Choose heaven and don't back down.

But we cannot create heaven simply by our desire.

Your plan is filled with your choices. Allow them to manifest for you know not what you do.

Ok, so the world is heaven's opposite. We've had plenty of hell. How do we get to heaven?

You can go at any time. Your spirit can return at will, but you cannot take your body with you. Your body cannot go where it has no use. Heaven is everywhere – in fact, you are there now, but you do not know it because it is covered by your imaginings. What your eyes see is not heaven and will keep you from seeing heaven for so long as you look with your eyes. You may know heaven again, by putting aside bodily functions. Your mind is not split – it only imagines that it is. Choose heaven's vantage point and you will see all the beauty that is well within you.

Our efforts at this have failed. The hours have been spent in darkness – the light has not come. Surely we can at will experience peace by choosing it. But vision is more difficult, as this we have not seen.

As you once thought you could not have peace, you will one day know that you can have heaven. All things are mental concoctions – thoughts and ideas. Peace is not real. It is an imagined state just like all others. Were the world to simultaneously choose peace – the world would instantly be at peace. The simple choice is what determines what you feel. Choose peace and you have it. It really is this simple. The complications come in from ego desires for power and greed. One group wants something. They assume that peace will not give it to them, so they choose to take what they want. More is gained by asking than by taking if all things are equal. But, greed does not operate in balance. The one who is greedy seeks to take from others. They do not realize the taking also takes from them.

When something is given, it is given with a blessing of confidence. Anything taken fosters fear and guilt. Fear and guilt make a thing harmful. The taking can be seen as ok, but it then must be defended. The one who takes does fear that the same will happen to him. If you take from others, you assume that others will take from you. By giving, you have nothing to defend. A clear conscience is truly a most precious commodity. Guilt is the destroyer – silent and deadly. Sure, you can commit a robbery, but the ensuing guilt will be a punishment far worse than man can inflict. Guilt comes in all forms, shapes and sizes. But always, it destroys. It is not real, yet it has devastating effects. Your greatest enemy is guilt.

So, if we have no conscience, then we are ok with everything and we can murder or steal or whatever?

The laws of cause and effect to not operate exclusively within you. Guilt is your internal effect. The world does not promote murder, at least not openly. The world will judge your actions and an effect will be put upon you. Remember, you are not an island. Your actions are not without consequences. Whether you feel guilt or not, it does not change the circumstance – it merely reflects your feeling about it.

Again, how do we get to heaven right now?

Choose peace, choose God and let it be known to you.

How can we truly have peace when there seems to be a constant assault of horrible inputs?

Detachment is really the only way to experience peace. If you see things as real, either good or bad, you are drawn to be affected by them. Circumstances are false and serve no real purpose. Only if you can see the unreal as unreal, then peace will not be yours. Peace comes from seeing everyone as angels sent to bring forth perfect experiences for your spiritual development. See everything as God does.

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It is forever difficult to go forward while looking in the rear view mirror. You need not worry nor fear for your path is straight and your destiny assured. Behold, the Lord is upon you. You need only do as you are told. Do not follow your own advice; follow the guidance given by the One who knows. Look to God in all things and you will never again be without the means to do as you have chosen.

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As the world seems to progress by, with you setting still, know that you move with it and you cannot be left behind. The world is but for the learning of all – it cannot leave you behind, as your destiny is set. You are a part of the world. The world seeks to know Me and you have willingly chosen to do My bidding. It is not possible that I will not have you fulfill your purpose. You may not know how, but I assure you that you are at exactly the right place at exactly the right time.

Tell us what to do and we will to do it.

Without even your realizing it, you are led to great and wonderful places. You are set upon a path and it will be seen by you even if you believe with all your heart it cannot be. The call to do My will is never ignored. But, in following My lead, your experience will be perfected and you will see the light. You will enjoy the fruits of My labor. Remember, the cries of your heart are not just your imaginings; they are ancient calls to experience that which you have chosen to know. Your heart's desires are not mere whims of fantasy – they are your soul's remembrance of your chosen experiences. The unfulfilled desires cause you misery until you bring forth them to pass. You cannot have a true desire without the means to make it so. You have the desire and the means; you now simply wait upon the experience.

Things are new – you are no longer the same creature. You have separated yourself from the world. You have chosen to be led by God. Upon this choice, this sincere choice, you have altered all things in your life. Be ye aware that I AM in charge and My will be done.

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As for Me and My children, we choose only love. As for the world and its children, it seeks only destruction, for they know not what they do nor are. The world blindly seeks to make God what and where He is not. The world is lost, but sadly doesn't realize it. Could anything be closer to hell itself? For the love of God is hidden beneath the layers of past hurts and pain. You do not even realize the work it took to become what you are not. Make the choice to tear away the layers that keep you from seeing yourself as you truly are. Your first thought is always a loving thought, until you remember the hurts of the past. Upon remembering the past, you take a step away from love and begin to rethink your actions. Your initial response is now seen as stupid and could never be chosen as wise. Further remembrance causes you to step even further away from love and even to think of revenge. The more you remember the past, the less likely that you are to behave lovingly – your true nature.

Lord, it is difficult to be forever open to the pain of additional hurts. The scars are thick and do serve as a constant reminder of our susceptibility to be hurt. One who has been struck by a car is not so willing to get back in the street. We do learn self protection – a coping mentality which keeps us from experiencing constant hurt and pain.

Your protective devices also keep you from living. The greatest joy comes from the greatest openness. From your hiding place, away from painful opportunities, you are not open to the fullness of joyful possibilities. You live to avoid pain. As such, you avoid life also.

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_Behold a new day dawns. See the opportunity for what it is. Be not restrictive nor prison minded. See that all possibilities are yours for the taking._ _Do "write" and you'll never be wrong_ _. Let this be your motto. Let this be the most important thing in your life. If you spent as much time writing as you do making excuses, you would have a library by now._ _You are looking for right circumstances when they are "write" before your eyes._

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There is no magic formula – life is merely to be lived. The plans you made are all for your purposes and life follows exactly the script that you set. Allow yourself the enjoyment of the process. For all learning goes through stages and levels, as you have seen. The stages of the undoing are meant to remove the ego from yourself. It is not needed and is the greatest distraction to the goals that you have actually set for yourself. The ego fights vehemently our goal of God service which only happens after you let go and let God. It is in the release of the ego that you are at last free to serve as you have chosen. As long as you cling to life, you will never know God. Release your attachments to life and you will be free to experience all that God has to offer.

Letting go is the most difficult of lessons. It would seem that our entire lives are spent clinging and now we find that we must learn the opposite.

The tighter your grip, the more you must be forced to let go. Peeling your fingers away from your attachments is something that you find difficult, so you will consider it suffering. Of course, your suffering is all in your mind, not in reality. Your expectations have again caused your disappointments. You have not considered the intrinsic rewards of service. Fighting with God surely is better than fighting with man.
**Chapter 21 – Your Brothers Call To You And I Shall See You Through**

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You have created the perfect learning experience. The hopelessness of life. A desperate soul is a willing soul. It keeps you humble. You are very motivated by misery. Your misery caused you to be motivated to try something new. From this you found joy. Are you ready for a better way – to walk in the light? The time is set for revelation.

I have allowed you to see that your love for God was based on your expectations of His performance, not for Him.

The mysteries of life are for fun. Without mystery, there would be nothing to seek.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _The shortcut to God: Close your mouth and open your mind._

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Boundless energy is all around you. You are held together by mere particles of energy. You seem to think that you are the mere physical reality that you see in the mirror. Nothing could be further from the truth. You are everywhere, all the time. You are everything and in everything. God is not limited by space and time. Why then do you think so little of yourself?

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What can you make of this life? Can there be happiness and joy? Is there really peace to behold? The opposite of the world is what you desire. But realistically, how can you know a thing and its opposite at the same time? This is what we seek to teach. Attachment versus non-attachment; love versus fear; happy versus sad; freedom versus restriction. You have learned so many opposites, but are only beginning to know the opposite within you. You have always assumed that within you are aspects of opposites, but held all of it as one. Your good side and your dark side are melded into the whole of you. You have put much effort into reconciling the two, but this was a mistake for the two can never be one – you are either good or bad, happy or sad. The distinctiveness of the two make the way to let one go and the other stay. This is really your choice, to see what serves you not and let it go.

In understanding your thoughts and motivations, you can see that the true desired effects are not as you had imagined. When once you defended your turf as if it were something to defend, now you can see that you merely are and have no need of defenses. Pride causes the need for defenses. Without the attachment to pride, there is nothing to defend. Regardless of your thoughts, you are what you are. Stop defining yourself as this or that and simply know the truth. Putting labels on yourself will not change what you are. In fact, it is a means of type casting or restricting you and this need not be. You are not what you do and you are not what you have labeled yourself. You are not better or worse for what you own and what you've lost. Your worth cannot be measured or quantified in any way. But the judgments of man seek to categorize people as if they were assets on a balance sheet. Further, you assume that all things remain static. You plan your entire future as if nothing will change. Even though you know that things change daily, you set your path till death and then become entrenched within it such that you cannot imagine it otherwise. Then, when the inevitable change comes, you are shaken to your core. You become disoriented and depressed, for you had considered no other possibilities, but mostly that the only certainty in life is change.

If you had spent your time living rather than planning to live, you would not now be depressed. You would simply know that each day brings its own challenges and what tomorrow brings cannot be known. There are those who plan their retirement years from the beginning of the careers. Isn't this an interesting concept of planning to not work while having twenty to thirty years of work ahead? To the world this is reasonable, but to the one who sees it all, this is madness. For the world seeks to control that which is uncontrollable. Would you not be better off to set your heart on its path and know that all is well, rather than planning for a time that may not be? How ridiculous is it that you spend your most productive years planning the unplannable? Sure, it is wise to set aside something if you can, for the length of life is growing. But consider also the person who frets and worries and dies at forty having never lived. A balance must be reached and a limit set upon planning that is reasonable and not restrictive. For you put the limits on life. The uncertainty of the world has grown such that with the passing of twenty years is a different world seen. There is no longer the job security or vested retirement plans that were popular twenty years ago. Jobs come and go. Do not make the mistake of planning around them. You never know what is around the corner.

With the ever changing world, your best plan is one that puts you in touch with your truest self. To know that you are doing what you love is by far the greatest comfort of all. To sit in an office for thirty years doing what you hate is not living as it is merely passing time. But your fears won't allow you to make the change, for you have allowed yourself to become imprisoned by lifestyle, possessions and the opinions of others. Let not your life pass you by, always thinking that one day you'll find your calling. Let not one minute more pass without you setting your thoughts upon the path of your heart. Life is much like a cheerfully designed hike in the woods. When the weather changes and you are lost is hardly the time to think of what you should have been doing and now it is too late. Don't let the wake up call come too late. Seek to know that there is really only one pursuit worth your attention – the calling of your heart. To live the dream as dreamed by others is not to live your dreams. You have heard that everyone must get married and have kids and live in as big a house as possible. Once you become vested in this, it takes much to change the course. When the first child is on the way, you realize that restrictions become added and the dream is not as you had imagined.

More and more the layers are built and soon you have no free will left. There's really nothing like restrictions to take the free will out of life. But, attachments need not be bad, or more restrictive than necessary. For to each a life is chosen and to each a life of free will given. To realize that life is leading you is certainly no excuse to run away. Be responsible and take back some control. Reassess your life and the life of those around you. What is best for you and your family may not be what those around you would choose. Keeping up with the Jones's seems like fun at first, until you realize the Jones's are just as trapped as you. Assess your life as it is now – reconnect with your desires and seek to recapture the calling of your heart. Your dreams will not lie within the plans of others. Only a life lived by your dreams will bring forth the satisfaction of your soul.

Ok, we get the point, but reality calls also. What do you advise?

Stay the course, regardless of the storm. All storms pass, and the sun will shine again.

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Letting go is a difficult process, certainly tied to the degree of control that you seek to have. There are those who give up easily and those who fight it till death. You have made this difficult for the expected results have not manifested.

It seems to work less well than the other way. It's like suspending all actions – nothing happens at all.

Perhaps that is the learning of the period – suspending all movement to realize that no movement is necessary.

What causes the corner to be turned – for the change to happen?

It's all written in – believe it or not.

Does there ever come a point of knowing?

When experience has come to pass. You will see that all is known when the time has come. When knowing comes it is complete and peaceful. Won't it be nice to finally let go of the uncertainty and know at last that there is nothing to fear?

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With freedom comes chaos – always there is chaos till calm is restored. People who have not legitimately earned power seek to have it by any means necessary. Put a means of power in someone's hands and then see what happens. The new political party was finally in power and what did you hear? The story dramatically changed. Fingers now had to be pointed in a different direction. Nothing conquers like responsibility. Give them something to be responsible for and they will have a sense of purpose and responsibility. Give terrorists a province and tell them to run it. See how that goes. Nothing is more frightening than actual power achieved. Have them show you a better way.

But dictators do not collapse under power. They seem to be in control of situations they have taken. Terror puts them in power keeps them there.

But, all have fallen. No one lives forever. Living in poverty is the situation that creates the fertile soil for revolution.

But, we are hearing that women are again allowing themselves to be dominated by men in Afghanistan. Maybe people don't want to be free.

Freedom from responsibility is freedom for some. Freedom with responsibility is no freedom at all to others.

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The world is not as it appears. The highs and lows are merely symptoms of the process. For to have given birth, one must surely have gone through the tests and trials to sort out the truth. If allowed, you will see the life you had not chosen. There must be a correction – and this you would call loss. Instead of loss, see it as the light dawning upon your life – shining brightly upon the path of your chosen life ever coming into sight.

Does it ever appear clearly? Or is it always a thing of illusion?

The life that you have chosen does appear before your eyes. At last you are rewarded with the clarity seen surely before your eyes.

For all that we have learned, we have glimpsed a better way, but it remains far out of reach. Always it would seem that the carrot moves much faster than our aged legs can move. Why give us a dream and keep it from us always? Would it not have been better to simply have kept us ignorant? For in much wisdom, does come much despair.

For those who have continued to seek the dream unseen, theirs is the fulfillment of priceless treasures.

Why can we not find the comfort that you promise – the peace of God?

Because you seek to control and not allow.

With each revelation does come merely a different set of circumstances to be resolved. Is it better to be lost in the woods unknowing or lost in the woods knowing? Which is more likely the peaceful place?

Either way there is no peace as long as you are in the woods. You must get out of the woods for peace lies outside the forest.

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Expectations are but the means to disappoint. Let them go so that perfection has a space to occupy. Let Me fill the void in your life – let Me show you the error of your ways.

What is the blockage that keeps us from moving forward?

You are blocked by the perpetual need to choose and control. Your nature is that of freedom seeker, and it goes against your nature to be controlled.

How does one get past something that is an inherent nature?

You need not get past it – you need only learn to accept it and incorporate it into your life. Know that you are freedom and work from this. Don't expect others to see your vision, for it is their very opposite. Live your freedom for your happiness lies there. If you depend on others to teach you about freedom you will continue to be trapped. Know what you are. Be free.

How can we be free when circumstances don't allow for freedom?

You have the perfect time for freedom – just not the money to behave freely. But freedom is yours now. Live it every day. Feel the shifting of the tides – the waves crashing upon your shore. For the life of a servant is always torpid and testing. My work is not for the weak, but the bold. You must be ready to face the critics and stand firm in what I have taught you. You are not weak – you are bold. You are merely disoriented by the circumstances. Stumbling around in the dark room causes you to not have your usual bearings.

Will you show us the light?

Not as you expect, for the light dawns, it does not suddenly appear. I have been dawning the light upon you for years now, but you refuse to see.

We have seen glimpses and been told great tales. When will we see the light which must surely shine from above?

That time has come and you will be amazed at what you will see. You will be shown the interconnectedness of all things. It will dazzle and amaze. For what will be shown to you will demonstrate beyond all doubt that you are not alone. Doubts will melt away and fall like the house of cards upon which they are built. Never again will you doubt – for I AM the Lord your God and it will be done as I have told you. You will know Me and your brothers will know Me. I AM just as I have always been. There is no other to stop Me or prevent My will from being done. If you are willing, walk with Me into the promised land. For you cannot go alone, for you cannot be alone. Wherever you are, I AM there also. Your path is prepared and I have given you the tools with which to do My service.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Your brothers call to you and I shall see you through._

All that is needed will be given you. Our will is always done. Be still and know that I AM God.

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Countries which are impoverished are that way for a reason. They are not victims. But rest assured that the resources have been plundered. A greedy political structure will take food from babies. You know this to be true. You cannot fix something so broken all at once. It takes small steps if even the leaders are willing. Today, for example, you could not go into a country with a billion dollars and affect a change. You would not be allowed. Thirteen million orphans is a huge number and there seems no end in sight. The flood gates have not been closed. Abstinence is not the answer – real practical solutions are the answer. If birth control is not practiced with aids prevention, can the sympathy of the entire world fix the situation? There has to be a willingness to face the problem head on. Reducing the spread of aids is only possible if proper prevention methods are used. Let's not pretend that able bodied persons will not be sexually active. The difference between the growth rate of aids in poor countries and rich countries is available resources. Children don't spontaneously generate – nor does aids. The people must choose to control their situation, very simply put.

But of the orphans already here – shouldn't they be helped?

As much as possible, but don't imagine that the flow will stop just because you intend it. Each country makes their own rules and you cannot change the outcomes. You can do all that you can, but ultimately the people are free to make their own decisions.

Each country must decide for itself. When the Russians were through with communism, out it went. But no other country could make it happen. You would do better to let people see what they are doing without. People can make things happen, if only they so choose. Remember envy is very motivating.

But, what about those who use brute force to control the people?

Every thing will go based on the will of the people. Sometimes, you have to take some risks and lose a few – but free will rules the world. Teach people to exert their free will. From this will come change. Create jobs in their own countries and immigrants will return.

Ah, but you forget that even Russia fell to free will. People will not be denied forever. Besides, it's time to bring yet another country into today's times.

But, how will chaos be avoided?

People are not as ignorant or ill-informed as they once were. Sure, some will act out and try to seize control. But this has been in the works for years – the people want money and freedom.

Why are some countries free and some still in bondage?

Might is power – confusion or apathy is also powerful. People must decide to take it no more. If they've had enough, then it will stop.

But some countries just continue to live in chaos and poverty. Some beautiful places are destroyed by the greed of a few and the fear of those beneath.

The people must ultimately decide – what they are willing to tolerate. Democracy isn't perfect, but it is the best that you have. Until the world decides to choose Oneness, democracy will have to do.

The opinions of a few make misery for many. The greedy and savage acts of a few keep the fearful in place. The willing masses follow the teachings of the doers. The ones who take charge somehow command respect. Are not even hated leaders respected? If some were not willing to let them lead, then they could not lead. A leader is made by those willing to let them lead. Leaders are merely willing to try. Some get lucky and some do not. People vote their ignorance. Believing in the self serving tactics of a leader rarely serves the masses well. When divisiveness is evident, then so shall the effects flow downward. There is no system in place truly fair to all. Somehow the scales are always tipped. Money is very influential. Don't be fooled. There are very few persons who seek the same for all.

Those who seek the same for all are usually squashed by those who are selfish. The rich get richer and the poor get poorer. Why are we not smart enough to see that this system does not work?

The ego is the most powerful influence in the world. If given a choice this minute, between your wealth and the wealth of a nation, which would you choose?

We hope that we would choose the wealth of a nation, but more so prosperity for the people.

But can you say that you want for others better than for yourself?

We would hope so, but why not include us in the success for all? Why must we be excluded?

There is a fine line between what is right for you and what is right for others.

But, in truth, there should not have to be the choice made.

Influence of others is powerful. Presidents do not come to light in a vacuum. They have those behind them who seek to improve their lot. Layer upon layer of self serving interests tend to drown out the cry of the hungry. Until the hungry get so tired of being ignored that they start a revolution. In America the revolution comes easily – a few angry citizens can cause quite a show. For those in dictatorial countries, they must be willing to risk their lives for change. Would you be willing to face a firing squad to change your government? Those who are become leaders, or dead. If you live in fear, you will not be a leader.

But not all fearless persons become leaders.

Actually, it's all in the cards. A knowing makes people do what they do. Some know they are called to lead.

Teaching people to use their free will is to cause their conditions to change. From a helpless mindset does come an imprisoned person. Shine the light and the possibilities unfold. Your religious teachings have sought to control the world. You do not practice what you preach – you say you don't believe in birth control, but you use it anyway. You have realized the cost of excessive populations. One less baby born gives better chances of survival to those already born. A family of four eats less than five. Do the math. Use some common sense.

But common sense just ain't that common!

And religions forbid the use of birth control even though millions are starving. Does this make sense? If you can't feed one, why have another? Many of your religions continue to cling to doctrines based on outdated wisdom. Perhaps we need to take a fresh look at our stale ideologies. Stop the madness. You can love God and use birth control. Tell them I said it!

As abstinence is not practical in modern society, it is imperative that disease prevention methods are used. Diseases are not punishments from God. Stop using this reason for your guilt trip. Take responsibility for your own actions and stop blaming God.

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Could there be such as these? Could there be so wonderful a place as this? From the desert has bloomed great beauty from which all sorts of seeds will be planted. Of whom do I speak? Of those who have known the ways of the Lord and have followed His sure direction. Never have the plans of men been lasting or even beneficial. Let not the will of man direct your paths. Worse than this is a conflicted will in which you cannot choose whom to follow. You may have a million thoughts, but none of them are worthy to direct you. Stop your thinking and join with the mind of God that you will know the way to go.

But have you not told us that you direct our path and they are set and certain? We can't get sidetracked, even if we try.

But you can either allow or fight – it's all in how you see the journey. Your vestments will cause you to not fully get the most from the experience. Let go and enjoy the ride.

Have we not let go of enough? Have we not willingly tried to do as we have been told?

Still you fight. You try earnestly to arrange schedules and set time tables for everything – even that which you cannot control. Be still – you can do nothing aside from your destiny.

When you are attached to something, it becomes more important than it should be. It takes on a life of its own. Your dream should be to serve and let go of all else. There is nothing to be done otherwise. You cannot know all at one time. So, take it day by day and be satisfied with what each day brings. Life is not as you imagined. Take it one day at a time and learn to be happy where you are. You can't change the future – or the past. Be free and be happy.

All people need to go through the sorting out. Has there ever been a time when you felt truly happy?

It seems as if always there is at least one bad element when things seem good. Always there is an aspect of life that is out of kilter. You have this, but not that.

As long as you are not doing your beloved purpose, there will be the bad element in life. Except for that, your life is perfect.

There are things in this life that cause confusion. In fact, life itself is confusing – it defies logic and so it keeps you in a whirlwind of hopeless pursuit. It will never make sense to the rational mind. Trying to figure it out will only cause you to be further confounded. Stop trying to make sense of it. It doesn't work. That's why I tell you to listen for guidance. Only by being aware of guidance given will cause you to have some sort of handle on your life. It won't make sense – ever. It will merely appear to happen as a series of isolated circumstances. Until you follow only My guidance will you begin to see all things come together in a pattern of logical progression toward spiritual goals. You must be spiritually oriented to see the pattern unfold. Being worldly oriented will cause you to feel as if you are stumbling around in the dark.

But, what if we hear no clear direction? Is it possible that we'll miss the direction?

You can't miss the direction, but being aware of the enfoldment of events will help you to better adjust.

How can we know what is direction and what is misdirection?

The true sense of peace is a sure sign of clear direction.

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What makes a man, but who he thinks he is? Can there be another standard of measure which puts forth a greater degree of certainty? In your beliefs are worlds set forth which teach you that you have really not known yourself at all. The world is not as it seems. It is the opposite of what you have imagined. Let not your mind continue to distract you. You are not the essence of belief that you have created. Consider your beliefs. How many of them have remained constant throughout your life? If beliefs represented truth, there would be truth in them. But truth is beyond belief. It is beyond all that is conceivable by man.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Man assigns belief to that which he feels is true, but cannot explain. Belief is the gap filler between reality and illusion._

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People believe what they want to believe. They decide where to put their faith and will justify their beliefs. Don't be fooled, seek for the truth in all things. If something seems untrue, then there must be a reason. The illusion is built on false beliefs. Know what you know and believe as you will.

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Can it ever be that what you have destined for yourself will not be? Can it be that you have been led astray? In this life, there is no mystery. There is certainty, for what you know is merely remembrance.

What have you taught us from all of this?

The lesson is simple – let go of your obsessive need to control.

But, letting go has not brought forth a better way. So, which truly is the lesson?

Having never fully let go, how can you say that you know anything?

But, we have been aware and have tried to let go. This effort has not brought better results than the obsessive total control.

The physical effects are lessened, but the mental effects are worse. You have worried just as before – maybe more in fact. But, your worries have been single focused and not random daily task worries. Take relief where it is given.

But, the guilt is horrendous.

Were you ever without guilt, fear or worry?

Never!

Then, I'm trying to show you that regardless of what you think, I will take care of you. I have given you the means of support and all will be well in one day. Don't see your mountain; see your solution at hand.

**Chapter 22 – Religion Is Always One Step Removed From God**

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Think of all you've experienced and learned. There is much that you have gone through to bring you to the point of flexibility. I can now mold you into anything. You can go back over the years and see how entrenched you were in your ways. You can watch yourself being transformed into that which you were not. You had put all of your focus on that which is meaningless. Allow yourself to be putty in My hands and I will mold you according to greatest need. What you are now is not what you were. What you were was not what was most useful. Now that I have your full attention, you will do as directed. See how you can be led to do that which you once thought was impossible. You can look back and see how you were so bent on having things go according to your own plans. You have seen how your life has not worked out to your designs. You have seen that the greater good will be served and not in a manner of your choosing. You see how you have tried to figure things out and have been unable. Things have worked out exactly as you had not planned. Things are not what you think they are. Be glad, for you would not have been satisfied with the life of your own designs.

How is it that we ask for direction, but none comes except when it's almost too late?

Things work according to the designated plan – you have not known the plan and could not even understand it if you had known. Allow yourself the freedom to let go and go with the flow. See that you have not chosen what will happen – at least not on this level. All of your planning and scheming don't work. Can you see this now? Your communication problems come from your trying to put words in My mouth. Let the inspiration come to you as it will. This is true communication – beyond your conscious control. You will never be able to control life, so give up the fight. Punish yourself no more.

But, how do we get off our channel and get on the real channel?

Allowance. Only to an open mind does come freely thoughts from God. You cannot direct the path of life – it is set. It can only be revealed to you – you cannot choose it, it is already chosen. Notice how you let outside influences determine your thoughts. Carefully note how you are manipulated by those around you. You do not seek. Clearly you are reactive.

But, what is the choice in this?

See your truest desires and focus upon that.

But you have said that we know not our truest desires, and certainly we don't know the means of accomplishment.

Let it be revealed, don't try to figure it out. That's when you get on the wrong path – led astray. Remember, you are as a cork on the water. The water takes you where it will. You cannot determine the currents; you can only go where the water takes you.

So, we are corks without lines – no one pulls us to this side or that?

That's how it goes. Would you in a million years have chosen this path?

Probably not, but it seems more like being on a current of hopelessness – a reactive state of being tossed from here to there without any choice.

Yep, that's how life works. You imagine that you have some control, but you do not. This realization is hard for people to grasp – the control freaks among you seek to fight this all the way.

So, when do we stop fighting and go with the flow?

When you realize that you can change nothing. Just do the best you can each day. That's all you can do.

But, in each day, there's no purpose. What's the point of this?

There is purpose – you are being taken to where you are to go.

What of people who make choices – it still seems as if choices can be made. We can choose nothing or something. How is that determined?

It's all in the plan. Your mind has an innate connection to follow the pre-selected path. You are in fact a cable car and you are pulled along by the cable of life. Why continue to fight it?

Because it just doesn't make sense. How can it be that life is set, yet it seems as if nothing is set? It defies the rational mind.

Never will the rational mind explain life. Life cannot be explained by so simple a thought process. The rational mind seeks to take a small portion of life and put forth grandiose explanations upon it. One slice of life does not make for the whole pie.

Can we ever see the whole pie?

You can certainly see more slices by looking outside of your one slice.

Perhaps Jesus saw all slices at once – He had whole pie vision.

Of course. He didn't walk around focused on His slice – He knew that it was meaningless. One pie is all that matters. Not one slice.

Will we ever truly be able to see outside of our slice?

At least you now know that there are other slices which affect your slice. The whole pie cannot be separated, no matter how many pieces of it you create.

How can we get a greater awareness of the pie?

The pie communicates to all the pieces. But the pieces must be open to hearing. More so, it's more like a feeling. Either way, the pie cannot be without the pieces. You imagine that by the slicing of the pie that the pie exists no more. This is not so. Even though the slices think they are pie, they are only parts of it and will never be a pie for only the whole is complete. Without all the slices, the pie does not exist. It is your task to reassemble the pieces back into the pie. See the pie as the focus – not the slice. This is an accurate analogy for all to use. See the pie coming together. All slices as one.

But, it would seem that the slices fight against joining. Every slice seeks to be a pie. How do we get the pieces to know sameness?

Never overlook the obvious. People have operated in ignorance. Teaching sameness, rather than divisiveness will open the eyes of the pieces of the pie. For those willing to see, they will, for truth always makes perfect sense. This your rational mind cannot dispute. See that the world has taught separation, for the ego is about separation. Spirit is about wholeness.

But it seems that our efforts to see the whole have not caused us to have a greater vision. We have had no effect nor been affected either way. To merely know of the whole does not bring it into our perspective.

It doesn't happen overnight. You would expect that life somehow comes into view all at once.

But, honestly, you speak often of our limited perspective, yet you do not bring it into our experience. It's like all spiritual pursuits – always beyond our reach.

What is the true difference between what you perceive and what you experience? There is merely a shift in vantage points. Nothing really changes.

How do we know what is our true calling and what is merely just another effort to create our calling?

Knowing is like nothing else. Can you always know what is not for you to know? What if knowing is revealed as the other layers are removed? Much like seeing the metal that was hidden beneath the rust. When the rust is removed, the metal is revealed.

What other rust must be removed? Tell us how to get rid of more rust?

Rust is the creation of your mind. You have created so much rust that you cannot allow the metal to shine through.

So tell us, how do we get rid of the rust?

Allowance of truth to be revealed. Let go of the rust.

How?

By seeing it for what it is.

How do we know what is rust and what is metal?

Rust goes against your truth. If you are doing something against what you know to be true, it is rust. Accounting is rust. Spirit is metal.

But rust seems to carry more weight than metal in the world.

Yeah, but it is as obvious as it can be.

Why does spirit not shine more brightly than the rust? How is the metal so easily covered?

So easily? You cannot imagine the complexity of the layers of your rust. You have worked diligently to create the rust crust over your metal.

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Allowance is tough, but not impossible. Please accept what I will give you without trying to analyze or impose your worldly will upon it. There is nothing you need do to have My guidance. It is freely given and freely heard as it is needed. Allow yourself to be free within My flow and all will be revealed. You need not struggle or suffer. For the purpose you will serve will come to you with or without your assistance. It cannot be avoided. It is chosen and sanctified. It is My will that your will be done. I will make you what you have chosen to be. In this have confidence. Don't despair for the outer appearance does not show you this. Know that I AM with you, even when you feel me not.

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Can there be a time or place where I AM not? Why have you chosen to see without instead of with? It's time to turn your attention one last time toward God and never look away.

If we are where we should be, then why does it feel so wrong?

You know that in spite of your fears, it feels somehow right. Your fears have caused you to feel that you are doing something wrong. Otherwise, your seeming lack of success would seem nothing more than a mere bump in the road. You expected that your journey for God would be easy, but it is not. As all others attest, it is merely a journey like all others – filled with traps and snares. Your ability to put aside traps and snares and continue merrily on your journey is what separates you from the masses. It is the lesson that you have come to learn - that the world offers all sorts of meaningless distractions from your purpose at hand.

The distractions seem to carry exceptional weight. The purpose part seems to not even ripple the surface. We do not understand why the purpose has met with complete and total failure.

Do you suppose that you are the only person in the entire world who has not met with instant success? There are those who have met with continual failure and have somehow found the courage to endure. Are you not willing to endure?

For as long as we can. Our resources are not unlimited.

Mine are.

Then why do you hold them so close to you and do not share?

Am I as greedy as you?

You are very selective it seems. To some is given greatness while others barely skim by. Some of your patrons have not so willingly shared.

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_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Religion is always one step removed from God._

They have chosen for themselves. They have placed themselves upon pedestals for their own glorification. At what point does an empire begin to be worthy of God? Does only the largest building or shiniest temple bring forth God? Who is your audience and what is your purpose? Whom do you seek to attract? It would seem that money begets money – larger churches are needed to increase themselves. You have confused size with importance. Rather than helping the homeless, you have chosen to elevate those already of means.

But size matters in the world. Only the largest are respected. The world gives more to those who have much. No one wants to give to those who have given little. We gravitate to what appears to be working. Small churches are largely ignored. They don't get large donations nor do they reach millions.

Would they not be better served to unite into a larger purpose?

People want to be part of something which demonstrates great return on investment. People want to see their money building something grand. Who seeks to modestly build?

But, who are the ones who have made great impacts? Mother Teresa did not keep a thing. Those around her spent much of her donations trying to increase investments, but she sought to put every dollar to work. Which is wiser?

She did not receive donations like the large churches do today. She had to make do with much less. Is there really a best-case scenario?

Each must choose for themselves. How big must a building be before it is brought down? Was not Babel the same? Would it not be better to build fifty churches than one?

What is God's wisdom for churches?

If not accessible, what is the purpose? If a church stands merely as a monument to those who built it, it serves no purpose. A church that serves the needy is by far the more desired and useful church. Churches have become stagnant and self serving. When the greater percent of income is spent on maintenance, then it has no served its highest purpose. Would it not have been better to have built five churches rather than one? Those five could then support five more each. But, what really is a church? Is a church better than a school or hospital? A food kitchen or a place to stay? Perhaps a place to work is a better use of funds. There is no one single best purpose. All must be had, but to build for size is merely for grandeur. It does not serve God. Billy Graham reached the world from not one place. Seek for yourself that venue which best serves your purpose.

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Am I to believe that you are weak and not filled with My strength? Am I to believe that you are less than I say you are? It shall never be that you are less nor another more. Be strong in the Lord and I will lift you up. Do as you will and I will support you unto your dying day. There is none so bereft of help that I can not reach. You are not alone – you are well within My care. I AM the Lord your God and I have sent you to do My work. You are no less than any other – you are all the same. I have sent you to do what I have called you to do. Be of good cheer – for God is always here.

What is our purpose here?

To satisfy the souls of those who have called to you. Give them what they need – be My representative to them. Show them that they are not alone.

Then let not another doubtful thought enter your mind. See what you have chosen and know that I support you fully. For Mine is the Kingdom and you are called to serve. Behold, I have come to answer your call. I AM and you will know Me as I truly AM. Doubt no more! I AM and you are!

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Ah, the ups and downs of life. You put so much stake in them. You allow yourself continually to be tossed about on the tides of life. The waves have tossed you up and down. In truth, there is no up and down – only your experience judged good or bad.

It would seem that the ups and downs do happen. Why do you say that they are only imagined?

Your life is a series of points. How they are experienced is how you have judged them. Your judgments put them either good or bad, happy or sad. Who has demanded that you have ups and downs? What rule of life determines what a situation is? Is it not your own judgment that causes you to see one point as different from another?

Of course, but isn't how we feel about a thing, or its closeness to what we want what causes it to seem good or bad?

Yes, but nothing is better or worse than anything else. You have merely chosen to experience something as it is not. If all experiences were the same, why would you even bother?

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The new foundation waits on no one and nothing. See life from the opposite perspective. See it as you choose it to be. See it as happy and it is. See it as wonderful and it is.

Yes, we agree that we can change how we see things, but we cannot wholly convince ourselves that what is tragic is good. Honestly, the simplicity of your teachings is not how they are experienced. You would have us live as if life doesn't exist. But why not live, if that is why we came here?

Certainly, you came here to live. But how you live is really the issue. If you live for the throws of drama – then so be it. If you live to be purposeful, then you have to let go of your useless attachments to the drama and learn to live with purpose. Choose your purpose and hold on to it. Regardless of what seems to happen, you must live with the chosen purpose. Don't let go of what you see yourself as – regardless of all inputs, hold on tight to what you know. For what you know is what is true. Every thing else is false and part of the world's creation. Let go of your attachment to the world's expectations. Feel free to be you – let no one sway you to do what you would not choose to do.

But Lord, how can we override all inputs – especially if you are not giving us positive reinforcement toward our chosen purpose?

Trust what you know – it has always worked for those who knew and kept the faith.

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Behold, for the kingdom of God is at hand. Allow yourselves to be filled with My spirit of hope and gladness for the world but melts away before your eyes. Don't be swayed by what you see – feel that which is within you. You travel over and over along the same road that leads to heaven, yet you do not remember that you have been here before. The rational mind keeps you from knowing. You have been told how things are and have so believed. You have allowed yourselves to be fooled by that which doesn't even make sense. The time has come to be open to reality and let go of your taught perspectives. As easily as you believed in Santa Clause, you have believed in what you have seen through eyes which do not even see. Your visual filters have shown you what you think is real. What if reality were evidenced by what you know? Would this change your world or your thoughts about it? The perception of a blind person is greater for they are not distracted by but only four. They are closer to the reality of knowing because they have fewer distractions. If you had none of the five senses, how would you experience life? If you could not see, feel, taste, smell or hear the inputs of the world, what would you be left with?

Only what was produced inside. Would this not be the same as being dead? For what is the body except a means of interpreting the five senses?

So you believe if you had none of the five senses that you would be dead? Is there nothing aside from these?

Certainly, it would be impossible to interact with the world. What are we missing?

You have equated yourself with only the five senses. Therefore, without them, you would be nothing – so surely you would be dead. Yet, you can live without any one of them, but not without all of them?

What would be the point? Would that be living?

It would be painless and hopeless. Life was meant for experiencing. Consider that life is for the living, but nothing more. It is not the "end all, be all" of God. You would be left with only that which is your essence – the thoughts of God would flow freely, without interference.

_Remember the movie_ _The Man With Two Brains_ _? What if you were the brain alive in the jar? You could remember what you had learned, but no new sensory inputs would be had. You would have to communicate telepathically. Would you actually need the brain to do these things? Is it the brain that functions as cause and not effect? What if you were mere spirit – without feelings or functions?_

Then surely we would be almost nothing.

Well then, God is nothing to you. You really are caught up in the illusion. Let go of your illusions. Be free of your taught world and learn to know yourself truly. You are pure spirit – only love. Essence of perfection. Know yourself as this. For this is what you are. You are fooled into believing yourself as skin and bones, but you are not. You are the essence of God floating within this physical prison.

So you say, but we know of nothing else.

Then learn to connect with what you know and be less willing to accept outside influences. You have within you all that you need to do as you are planned to do.

But, how do we bring the two together?

Why would you even want to? What you know is greater than what you think. Choose for what you know and let go of what you think.

But what we know is sketchy and not specific. It is an overall thing and not a path to follow. It is but a star to dream upon – not a ladder to climb.

But if you aim for the moon, will not the way be revealed?

Why do we have the capacity to think if we have no use for it?

You wanted to be God, and that is the means with which you imagine yourself as God. Instead of simply being, you choose to think. Simply know what you know – that is being what you truly are.

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How can it ever be that life will give you more than you invest? Have you given your best? Have you sought to do what God has called you to do? The answers to these questions lie in the results you have had. If you have led others wisely, then there can only be perfection. For yours is only to offer an example. What a person chooses to take from the example is not up to you. You can only demonstrate good character. Certainly you cannot cause someone else to be of good character. Don't look for a person to be changed by you – look to give them your example. You can do no more.

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Stress is your creation. You cause yourself to suffer needlessly. Why punish yourself? What happens simply happens and you cannot change what happens.

Why haven't you told us this before? Why have we believed that we have to struggle and fight?

Would you have believed me? You chose your own beliefs based on what you were taught. How can it be that you can control anything? Could you have a purpose and not be assured of its completion? If things were changeable, then you could mess them up. Certainty only comes from a script. Had it not been already written, it could offer no guarantees.

What good are guarantees if we don't know what is guaranteed?

It is upon the certainty of the script that faith is even possible. But, you have supposed that I sit and provide inputs to your every request.

Do you provide inputs to any requests?

It's either all planned or none. Which do you choose?

The truth.

Then, it's either all planned and heavenly complete or unplanned and hellishly confusing. Jesus was peaceful and taught to not worry. He knew everything in advance. Was it planned or not?

Based on the Bible, it would seem that it was all planned, or at least Jesus has updated contact at all times. But, He did pray to the Father and ask for things. If it were certain, why did He pray?

Prayer is many things. Prayer can serve many purposes. Sometimes, don't you just want to talk with God? Even if you know the answer?

But, we are to follow Jesus' example. He told us to pray. To ask. To seek. Why?

To be in communion with God is to have the experience of peace on earth. When all of life is seen as less than Godly, then only God suffices.

Why didn't Jesus teach that all of life is pre-planned?

The mysteries of life are the cause of the drama. Without the drama, what would be the point?
**Chapter 23 - Perspective**

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Behold! I just like saying that. Actually, it would seem that I come as a thief in the night, but really it's all planned. Time merely waits till the plan goes forth as destined. Imagine that life is merely a series of preplanned events. What if nothing happened at random? What if there was in fact no choice? How would your life be different?

We have been taught that life is a series of random events, impacted by the choices that we make. Nothing is certain and nothing guaranteed. That we should pray for God's constant inputs into our lives. Only God knows how things happen.

What if the opposite were true? There would be no worries nor fears, no doubts nor angst.

Would there not also be hopelessness and despair? Would this not seem more like prison? Or robotics?

Given the fact that you planned it, it's not robotics. It's merely like your choice to see a love story or a horror movie. You picked the movie and all the roles.

How have we been so fooled into believing that we have choices?

You have chosen to watch the movie from one vantage point – you have not chosen to watch the whole movie. If you pick out only one part, then you can't see the interconnectedness of the whole. Imagine watching the movie, Gone With The Wind. From each person's perspective, the movie would seem entirely different.

That's true. That's an interesting concept. It makes sense – all different angles or perspectives would make completely different movies to the viewer.

You can look at the contributions of the players and see how all parts must be perfectly played so that the perfect outer circumstance is presented. There are often surprises which seem to be thrown into the mix to make it seem as if random acts occur. Also, what you would call luck, either bad or good, is thrown in to make things flow according to plan. Seemingly the most out of character actions are taken. All things contribute to the total picture.

Are "lucky" things seen as corrective measures meant only to make things seem random?

They do add an element of spice to the plot. If all things happened predictably, who would ever be watching? Think back over any situation and back track the events to reveal the necessary components of the situation. As T. D. Jakes said, "Nothing just happens." All things are interrelated.

But can the same not be said of random things? You have given us two explanations for the same thing and either can be said to be true. Why is one true and not the other?

Ok, let's talk about how some things happen that were "known" to be forthcoming. Did Jesus know what was ahead? Did the Buddha's parents not get forewarning? Are there true premonitions? Did prophets foretell the future? The future can only be foretold if it is prewritten. Otherwise it has not been determined therefore cannot be foretold. Only what is known can be foretold. Nostradomus' predictions – believable or not? Is it possible that some things can be predicted, but others cannot?

How can we be convinced that things are preplanned?

The time is set to put an end to your doubting.

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Are you afraid?

Of course – uncertainty produces fear.

Of what are you afraid?

Not being protected by God.

What do you consider protection?

Real help and healing – real solutions, dream fulfillment. Certainty.

Then why are you uncertain? Have I not shown you that I AM with you always?

To the point that one is fairly certain, but not completely convinced. Remember that you have taught us a different viewpoint – that all is set and not a play by play with God's help as we once thought. When once we prayed earnestly for your help, now we find that you don't interfere – you let the film roll as it will. This is tough for us – being no longer certain of anything. How can we convince people to love God when God won't influence our lives?

You have My spirit and in this is all the comfort that you need. What you really want is magic, not God.

But Jesus did magic – He altered circumstances, yet we do not have the same abilities. So His example does not teach us to be like Him – but we are led to feel less than Him. He did great things, but we do not. Surely You see the disparity.

You have healed many and been healed by many. You look only at the physical – you still have not placed greater value upon the spiritual than the physical.

We just don't know what to do. We have been at this for over ten years and suffice it to say, we feel no more enlightened than before – we merely see a different way of looking at the same things. We still can't say that one is better than the other. We thought we were seeking a better way.

There is a better way – let go and feel the peace.

There is no peace in letting go if it changes nothing. Seeing a bad situation through peaceful eyes does not change the view. Bad is bad.

As you see it, so it is. The impetus for change in so many lives is total disgust with things.

But, have we not just heard that by taking things into our own hands we mess things up? How can we know the right things to do?

You are properly guided, yet you see it not.

We have done all that we know to do. We're exhausted and confused.

You cannot miss your calling, nor fail to see it realized. Many have felt as you do before seeing the promised land. But, they have persevered and have reached the stars by merely being willing to continue the quest.

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Greetings from on High. How are you? Did you enjoy the very close call with the rain? Quite amusing, eh?

The timing was unbelievable. It's a small thing, but quite profound. We look for miracles in the smallest things and unlikely places. We tend to watch more carefully that which we totally ignored before. Desperate?

Aware! You missed so much overlooking the small details. You have been slowed to a snail's pace so that you don't miss most of life as a blur. You notice the small things if you are not running wildly. Focus and attention are controlled by outer circumstances. It is in every fine detail that the patterns of life are revealed. Otherwise, you skip crucial details that demonstrate the interconnectedness of all things.

So, by slowing us down, you cause us to be more aware of all things?

Absolutely. You miss so much by running toward useless things. After a life of job worries, you find you have had no life. So, in your best interest, the distractions were removed and you were in a position to see and be aware of the important things in life.

Why do we only understand this later in life?

Because, once you get on the treadmill, it's tough to get off. Before you know it, you have completely forgotten that there is life outside the job. Work becomes such an obsession that life is lost.

But, it's important that we make a living.

Yes, but what's a living without a life?

Times are hard – jobs are scarce. There is struggle everywhere. It's eat or be eaten and no one is valued. You are only as good as what you produce. More and more job requirements eat into our lives.

Greed is out of control, but people can only take so much. The inevitable correction always comes. History does repeat itself. Rest assured, if you do what is intended for you to do, there is no struggle. This is wisdom for all.

How do we learn to align ourselves with what we are intended to do?

Awareness – once a person believes in purpose, it's only a matter of time before it is realized. One must look before one finds. Sure, trying to fit yourself into what the world expects may serve you, but never well. You will feel like a square peg in a round hole. The trick is to go with your heart's desires and to follow your dreams. Get in touch with yourself. Know thyself. Remove outside influences. Listen to the call of your heart. It begs for you to listen.

Ok, so we follow our hearts and find continual disappointments. How do we convince people to hold on to their dreams even in the face of seemingly insurmountable obstacles?

You first teach people that they will not die during the dream seeking. Despite your own worst fears, you are no worse for the wear. The trick is to stay the course. That's where faith is a key factor. Not faith in God, but faith in the truth that you know inside. Dig deep – refuse to give in. Be determined.

But that can only last until the creditors haul you off.

No, it can go further. Where there's a will, there's a way. If it was pre-planned, it will happen.

Are there not those who have died having not fulfilled their dreams?

As it is written, so shall it be. Your plan is set – you must reconnect with your plan and remember what your purpose is.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Your purpose brings joy at the thought and ease in the performance._

You will know it. Everyone knows it, but they have simply forgotten. Reconnect to that which you know.

Why does it seem that what we desire most is the hardest to achieve?

Because you are so removed – you took such a trip away from the dream that you have long way to return. Your gift was neglected for so long that it takes time to get back in the swing.

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Awareness is key to understanding the patterns of your life. How can you not see the ebb and flow of life? The patterns do reveal themselves.

As I have told you, your life follows certain patterns and if you begin to connect the dots you will see the connections and related patterns. You are always looking for signs and the numbers are an easy way for a message to be conveyed. Surely you can ignore the numbers or use them to gain confidence. But if you are in awareness, you will feel the impact of the numbers when they appear. Numerologists use numbers to calculate all sorts of things. This is neither good nor bad. But as there are no coincidences, you can ascertain that certain patterns are related to numbers as all things in life are mathematically oriented.

As you grow older, the patterns become more obvious. Each person can see the patterns as more events are stacked up. What, you ask, is the benefit of this? It will let you know that your very life is planned and that you are merely along for the ride. With this awareness comes great peace and freedom.

Why are people so disillusioned with God?

Because your expectations do not match God's provisions. Had you expected nothing, you would not be disappointed.

Is it not our expectations that lead us to achieve more?

That is incentive – expectations place conditions upon it. If God said you would go to the store, you would immediately pick out which store and mentally navigate the route. You put upon God that which was never said by God. Allow God to steer you in the right direction – let go of the wheel.

Having not been at the wheel in such a long time...perhaps the driving skills have been forgotten.

Ah, but you haven't – given half a chance, you would be right back into it full tilt.

Having experienced the undoing of life circumstances, nothing now seems certain. What of life is certain?

Nothing – from the world's standpoint. From the script – it is all certain.

But, we cannot be certain because we have not remembered. Why are we not able to remember more – with increasing awareness?

Are you prepared to handle what lies ahead?

You have learned the futility of life. You have seen that struggle doesn't help. You have learned that there is nothing you can do to change the world. The world only changes by the collective and the collective has already chosen. So, why waste effort?

Do you teach a child to be lazy? Won't this change experiences?

Changing experiences is the key to a better life. How would your life have been different if you had known earlier how things actually are? What if all children are taught to dream and are allowed to try out things? Aren't experiences of being controlled somehow resented?

But a certain amount of control is necessary.

But, should you restrict the creativity of a child? You hated it. You would have wished to explore greater freedom than you were allowed. To this day, you feel the restrictions placed upon you by the world. You could have had fun.

But, what if we teach the benefits and the person is having a hard life?

Knowing that life is pre-chosen makes a huge difference. Realizing that there is a purpose offers the opportunity to be aware of the learning opportunities. Allow life to be explored, not merely tolerated.

Will it really make a difference?

If all the world is open, surely some will catch it and run with it. Not all, of course, for the non-seekers do not seek. But, for those who would know, let them know. You must admit that the recent increase in spirituality is rather amazing.

But, so is capitalism. More greed is experienced.

What will counteract selfishness? There must be balance.

Capitalism versus spirituality?

Exactly. Greed versus generosity.

But, hasn't spirituality become capitalistic also?

Sure – there are no free rides. There is a cost of any business, regardless of message.

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Experience is the best teacher. It wills that you be what it teaches you to become. Allow experiences to flow to you unimpeded by your own judgments or perceptions. There is no substitute for what rings true inside. You cannot glean from others that which is true for you. Your experience is your own. Only what is meant for you will connect with you. There is no magic formula or masterful one way to God. Your way is the one way for you. Allow yourself to be who you are and enjoy the learning meant for you. Not all lessons are meant for everyone. Not all religions are for all people. There is variety in the illusion of life and no two people perceive it in the same way. Allow people the freedom of choice as I have. No forced will is totally accepted. People may pretend to agree, but only what is really true for them will be their truth. There is great wisdom in allowing people to seek for their own truths. To merely ask a question is to offer a chance for personal exploration. Don't be about the business of telling people what to believe – be about the business of offering opportunities for internal exploration.

There is great wisdom in this.

Is this not how you have learned? Have I not given you the opportunities to explore for yourself what rings true for you?

Yes, you have forced us to know ourselves. You have caused such doubt to fall upon what we thought we knew. You have opened our minds to actually explore for ourselves what is true for us - to throw away what we were told to believe and to decide for ourselves. We have realized that we have accepted so many beliefs that we had no actual investment in the truth.

Bravo! The "Questioning Lesson" program. This is your foundation. Work with it. For who can argue with a question? Don't try to give people answers – all you need do is ask the right questions.

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Think sometimes, "If I were God, what would I do." Then consider the opposite, which is probably what you will actually do.

You would have us believe that we are the opposite of God.

While human, you are. The trick is to get you to learn to be less human and more God like. You've now been the opposite and you easily recognize yourself and your behaviors. Now, it's time to consider the opposite approach. What would God do?

Generally nothing. You allow us to wallow in our own cesspools until we scream for mercy. Often, even after we scream for mercy, we still are allowed to wallow.

Have you not chosen to wallow?

One might think so. But, even with the awareness, we do still wallow. Why?

You have not accepted. You have not allowed. Simply being aware is only the first step in the process. Can you say that by being aware you are still unaffected?

No, but being unaffected cannot be the purpose of our lives. That would make us sociopaths.

Being affected has levels – how deeply are you affected by things around you?

Very much.

Then, would you consider this God like or human like?

Human like to the point of self exclusion.

Then which is the way to be?

Mother Teresa seemed very feeling. She didn't separate herself from emotions.

There must be a balance between the levels of effects. To feel sad at someone's unfortunate circumstances is ok. To be disabled by it is quite another.

But, we should surely not detach ourselves completely, should we?

No, you misunderstand. We are talking about degrees, not yes or no. You can see an unfortunate situation and (A) get mad; (B) shrug it off; (C) try to help; (D) cry and weep and die. It's all about degrees. You cannot fix everything nor does it help to share in the misery. Offer the miracle and pray for help. Don't be dragged down as it helps no one.

You sound rather aloof – of course that would be your position.

If what you experience is not real, how should I react?

Help! We've been taught to pray and ask for your help.

Is that really what you want? God standing over you to rescue you when you call?

Sounds good to us.

What if I went one better and rescued you before you called?

Great.

Return your soul to heaven and this will be your gift. No worries.

Sounds appealing, but not if we have to do this over again.

There is nothing you have to do. Free will is yours. Remember, you chose this experience.

Why have we chosen this particular life? We can see no possible benefit for it. To date, this life has not been one that the world could not have lived without.

Sad that you see it that way, but gladly it isn't over yet. There's still time to make something of it. Every life is written for a multitude of purposes. Each purpose serves to learn and teach with a majority of them being the culmination of the experience.

Why do some lives have so much struggle and others just seem to float through as if by magic?

You can't look at life from one life – you must incorporate all lifetimes. Be honest, one life would do little to fill your basket with experiences. How you experience life is what leads to your choices about it. What is unbearable to one is tough for another.

We realize that bad things happen, but the cruelty of some is beyond reason. Why is this the only way for our souls to advance?

Have I not offered help? Have I not stepped in and told you that it is all a dream?

But without clear cut help, it's a waste. You give us something so difficult to understand that only the elite will get it. Ninety-nine percent of the world will not benefit.

There are messages dispensed every day on all levels.

But, there is still so much wrong info on the podium and so many led astray that the war seems to be lost.

Most people on earth believe in God even with no firsthand experience. Has God not won the battle already?

To believe in God and to live a spiritual life are two very different things. It has been our observation that at all levels, power corrupts, even the most spiritual among us. But it is a catch twenty-two you have to have it to be influential, but you get caught up in it. It becomes God.

Then let those among you teach you what you are. Let no one or nothing cause you to lose yourself. Always remember, it was given, taken away and given again. Don't assume that anything is permanent. All of your security is nothing. If you trust yourself, then you are a fool. Do your best to be honest and have integrity. That is all that is asked of you.
**Chapter 24 – Without Attachments**

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How far we've come to consider it nowhere. We have launched a thousand ships only to remain tied to the dock. Can it be that our journey is truly without distance? Have we done anything more than look at different perspectives? This is as I have told you. You have left nothing and gone nowhere. Nothing changes except perspective.

How can this be when the essence of our lives changes every day?

Your body and all material things do change – you do not. Except for your connection to the body, you would be like an angel floating above looking at things from the harmless perspective. The goal is to return to this perfected state of being which is merely a different vantage point. Look at the couch as from above. If you had not a body, the couch would be meaningless. You wouldn't need to sit. The couch would appear odd to you. It would be worthless and not understood by you. Without your body, the couch would be nothing to you.

In theory, this is understood. But our experience is not that. So, what's the point?

It may seem worthless to you now, but you have chosen to transcend the constraints of mortality. You must be open to the possibilities before it can dawn on you the truth of reality. Otherwise, you would simply explain it away as nothing.

But had we not chosen mortality, we would not have to transcend it. It sounds about as smart as choosing to hit your big toe with a hammer so you can experience relief from the pain.

Yes, much the same. But only from within the experience do you get to know the opposite – the marvelous and wonderful perfection that is truly you.

Why do we choose over and over to forget and return?

Fullness.

Fullness of stupidity?

See it as you will – you have your reasons.

We guess that after this life we'll understand the reasons, for surely we do not now.

Of course – but then you'll also understand that none of it is real. You choose to play a video game – why? Because it gives you experiences you would not ordinarily have, knowing that it's only for fun.

Fun – that's a laugh. Who would say that life is fun?

The one who knows that they can play the game without attachment to results.

We are still seeking the experience of this. The game seems all too real from our point of view. Rasha wrote that it was real.

Seemingly real at the time.

So what have we learned from all of this?

You know the truth, yet you still find it very hard to believe.

Why then do we not feel better about life? How will others be convinced if we are not ourselves convinced?

It is not your job to convince another – you merely present what was presented to you.

Why have you not presented a better case of proof?

Slowly, but certainly, will all the proof that you need come forth.

So slowly that we have lost interest? You have guaranteed that it doesn't matter by demonstrating that nothing matters? Is this not rather counter productive?

One day you'll understand the training technique. Today, you have seen it as the opposite of teaching. You have seen it as neglect.

Rather like when Jesus did not return to save Lazarus until after He had died, for greater impact?

Yeah, kinda. Without the struggle, you would simply call it coincidence. Bet your life that when this does finally turn around, you'll be dancing in the streets. You'll see your own Lazarus raised from the dead. Then, there'll be a story to tell.

People weren't very amused when Jesus was purposefully late. Will You be excused? Will this not paint God in a less than loving light?

It depends on how you tell the story.

Truthfully, from our perspective.

You would call that truth?

As far as we know the truth.

Well, I guess I'll have to stand by My actions and let the chips fall where they may.

Is it any wonder that people lose faith?

Of course – expectations and time limits.

Lazarus was on a limited time table. Jesus let time run out and days pass – why?

Dramatic effect – to wow the crowd for God. Regular small healings were getting us no where. We needed a great miracle to stun people.

Isn't that pandering to the crowd?

It made a great story, don't you think?

Ah, but beneficial? Was it somehow misleading to suggest that Jesus would dash in and save us? Have we wrongly put our faith in intercession from above? Does God really intervene in response to prayer?

If so the script is written, so shall it be. All miracles are written in advance.

When the scripts are written, why are there so few miracles?

The scripts are written with a cumulative design. If miracles were seen as commonplace – would they then be called ordinary? You know that in every day, there are numerous close calls. But you do not classify them as miracles. Your definition of miracles is fairly lax. The car that "almost" hit you is not seen as a miracle. Even though your life may very well have been saved, you merely write it off as good luck.

Miracles are seen more as beyond explanation. The undoing of something rather than the avoidance of something.

How do you know what has been miraculously altered in your own life? You don't, but you have merely made assumptions. How many times have you prayed for good health and actually gotten it without even appreciating it? Don't be so quick to quantify nor qualify that which is merely written in your script. Calling something a miracle does not give it credence. It merely is, as are all things. If God were to intercede on one thing, how would He not choose to intercede in all things? Jesus wasn't rescued, so who shall be?

You really are giving us a bad impression of religion. You are teaching us that we have led ourselves astray. How can we love God if God does not love us?

Altering your life, as you have designed it, would be seen as loving?

If you didn't keep us from making horrible mistakes, it would be seen as very unloving. Honestly, we felt that you loved us more while under the system of religion than now under the truth system. How can it be that the truth has taught us to feel less loved and protected by God? We don't think that we are really ready to feel so unloved and unprotected.

My love and My protection have not changed – merely your perception has changed. Your beliefs are changed as a result of what you have learned. My actions/inactions have not changed. Your mind has changed – for that is all that can be changed.

But, how is love all there is if the reality is merely "you wrote it and you're stuck with it?"

If you fully realized yourself for what you are, you would clearly see that love is all there is. If you think that controlling your life is love, then you have greatly misunderstood the entire experience. Life was not meant to be controlled – it was meant to offer you the chance to create the experiences of your choosing. Is there a greater love than that?

We would speculate that perhaps a much less overall disappointing set of circumstances would seem more loving. Not letting the child choose to stay in the ant bed being bitten over and over would seem more loving.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

You have asked about angels. You want to see them and wonder why you cannot. It is because you have no need of seeing "angels." Some people would be very afraid of the an "angelic" encounter. There are stories galore by people who claim to have seen or have somehow experienced the miraculous. "You do not walk alone. God's angels hover near and all about." (A Course In Miracles, Lesson365, Page 488)

But wouldn't that be fun?

Don't most people already believe in angels? Like God, belief is not always in the seeing.

Why are spiritual things so hidden from us?

Hallucinations happen often – are they real or imagined?

If there's a question, then probably it doesn't matter as they are assumed imaginary.

What would convince you of the spiritual world?

The experience of it. Undeniable proof.

Is there such a thing as undeniable? Even Jesus is speculated to not have lived. Did man walk on the moon?

Ok, but for each person, there is proof beyond his doubt. We need only be convinced. Each for himself.

I could show you a view from heaven, but would you be convinced?

Who can say, for we have not seen heaven. Surely proof is written in our plans, how long will you let us continue to doubt? You have long since promised to increase our faith and end our doubting.

For the truly hardheaded among you, yes.

But for the serious doubters, there must be a reason.

Ah, the convincing is so funny. The change is amazing. When you finally feel the love...

You have played this hand out. Like the parent who promises to come to one of your games but never does, after a while we don't even care. It's a coping mechanism – no expectations lead to no disappointments. Right?

Boom! Then suddenly I show up to the game and I'm the hero again!

You know, some parents show up too late for us and we no longer have need of them.

I see your point – no more super hero stories.

Fool us once, shame on you; fool us twice, shame on us.

So, you're not falling for that one. I'll have to try a new rescue story.

Yes, that one surely won't work.

Ok, what about the boat that came after the rain had stopped, but saved you from drowning? Does that count, even if you were wet and scared?

Perhaps, that's a better story. So, rescue me.

Of course. There is no doubt.

**Chapter 25 – If You Fight Everything, You'll Always Have To Fight For Everything**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

All things begin with an idea. Once upon a time, worlds were created by ideas. But it was realized that the worlds were self destructive. So, like all bad ideas, they were scrapped and new ideas were birthed. Your creativity abounds.

But the ideas seem to come in the form of nothing we had imagined. Let's say that we had wanted a red sports car. Chances are that we would be driving a mini van full of kids. Our plans or ideas tend to start in one direction and wind up in another. The best laid plans, as we know, lead to some crazy outcomes. It would seem that planning is a waste of time all together. But, there must be some point where we formulate a direction so that we go where we should.

You can either plan or listen. You choose – either way you'll wind up at the same place. If you merely listen, you follow exactly the course and not experience the disappointments associated with your errant planning.

Listening is tough. How do we know what we're hearing or that it is correct? In the jumble of the mind, your words are hard to hear and distinguish.

Yeah, it's tricky to sort out Godly communications. But this is what we must practice. It is possible to hear clearly, but only a few do. The trick is to find the medium or method that works for you. Each person hears in his/her own way.

So please tell us the best way to hear with certainty.

Unattached writing is for some our primary tool. But, you have other methods. You hear clearly if you are not attached to results. Your feelings tell you what you know. The wonderful conversations that you have had with the Holy Spirit always made you feel good. You've gotten out of practice, but must return. Practice every day and your confidence will grow. You do think too much and your thoughts get in the way. But, God always makes His will known.

There are times when we feel that you are sending us messages, yet we do not understand them. This is very frustrating.

Because the message may be nothing more than "I see you" or "I've not forgotten you."

But is this not like false hope?

When the bell of our heart rings and your mind recognizes the toll, then you know that you have been contacted by God. Pay attention. For whom the bell tolls is you! These are the things that you would be advised to pay close attention to. Don't dismiss them as odd or surprising. Pay attention – for I send you signals of perfection all along the way.

Why so mysterious?

I AM not mysterious. You are ignorant of My ways. You seek to complicate the simple messages. Let your heart be open and you will know always what My messages to you mean.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

If you believe that it will happen, it will. Your belief is your remembrance of it happening.

Once we believed in God's intervention, but we were wrong about that.

You were never sure and have never truly believed. You are confusing want/wish with beliefs. Hopes and dreams are not the same. Belief is a known certainty within you of which you are totally convinced. Somehow you didn't believe in what you professed to believe in.

How do we know what we know?

It's like no other feeling, a perfect peace. Any uncertainty will cause you to feel nervous or anxious. Only what you know causes perfect peace. We've had the peaceful discussion and now you know what it is. Imagine that you had not even known what peaceful feelings were.

Yeah, that was a shock. We somehow associated peace with joy.

An easy mistake to make. You assume only highs and lows. But peace is perfect balance. Highs can be as unsettling as lows. Each has a measure of uncertainty. Peace is the only certainty. This is where your soul operates. Connect with the things that bring peace. This is your barometer. You can learn to recognize it and be led by it.

But the peaceful path seems to be the one that defies logic. It opposes the mind and causes fear. It sparks fear when analyzed.

Then do not analyze it. Test all things against your barometer. Visualize and test it. Let's ask an obvious question and see how the barometer works. How do you feel about traffic in Miami? You are so terrified that you hate to go anywhere. Your barometer would point to very low. How do you feel about cutting grass in your yard? You should feel peaceful. How do you feel about winning the lottery? Your barometer would be pegged out on high. The only reading that causes you no stress is the peaceful one. So too high or too low are both bad for the body. Too much of anything is not good for you.

But even this exercise does not reveal an actual distinguishable feeling. We can't conjure up the feelings of the actual experience. Put us in a car and suddenly terror strikes. Tell us we won the lottery and we're off to the races. But an imagined experience is in no way the same as an actual experience.

That's true. That's why you planned out your life in the first place - the experience.

Is there a way for us to create an actual barometer which accurately represents our true feelings?

If you had some scientific instruments, you could do this. But, being the unscientific one that you are, the mood ring might be your type of indicator. Of course, it can be deceptive, because you can learn to lie to yourself.

Ok, the mood ring was a bust. Nothing was discerned from it, but give us credit for trying.

If you could actually literally focus, it would work. But, you've go to learn to focus your attention, not on results, but the process.

So what do you suggest?

Practice your barometer readings. Focus without intent. Let your soul give you the answers. Be still and allow.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _You do know that you know._

You know that your work is for God – you've always been mindful of it. You know that all things have energy. You know that you can feel energy, but you must be aware. Remember, bad or good is relative to you alone. No one else can have the same readings that you do.

Why is it that if we are not focused on you that we are disheveled?

Because, the call of your heart and your peace is only in My presence. Notice how the more distracted that you become, the more edgy that you get? When you are out of sync with your soul, you will feel edgy and afraid. Draw near to Me and I will comfort you. Choose always to be with Me and I will show you true love.

It simply is not possible that we spend all of our time communing with You. For one, You don't commune clearly and we get frustrated. For another, life must be lived or else we wouldn't be here. Sometimes, we do enjoy your company, but sometimes we feel alone, frustrated and abandoned. The experience that we have had is not as wonderful as You profess it to be. Surely we are missing the boat somehow.

You are half-hearted at best. You do not come fully to Me. You still harbor great resentment towards Me. You have not yet trusted Me as you feel that I have let you down. You have a huge buildup of bitterness against God. You have not understood that I have not abandoned you, but have forced you to do what you have chosen to do. I have left you no choice. I have gifted you with the chance to do what you love and you have seen it as a punishment.

Does it matter whether we believe?

Absolutely not – the outcome is not based on your belief. But know that your truest belief in your purpose does matter and in that your faith has been built. It has less to do with Me and more to do with you. You know that you have a purpose to fulfill and you know that it will happen. You may not have faith in Me, but your faith in yourself is building.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

The trivialities of life so attract your attention, but in your defense, you see nothing else. You do not see the larger aspects of life, because you do not allow yourself to be elevated above the mundane.

Alright – the choosing of elevated thoughts does seem to be unrewarding. When the opportunity for the profound is allowed, nothing profound happens. You want us to study and meditate, yet You do not give us benefit during the experience. If meditation offered something, our attention would be drawn to it. But our experience is that nothing happens which builds our frustration, so we do not enjoy the experience. How can it be that You would place so much emphasis on something from which we cannot seem to benefit?

It's like learning to read – one day poof and you get it.

But the drudgery until the poof is rather discouraging, especially something that is to be so profound. If God speaks in stillness, then with stillness should come beneficial experiences. It is no wonder that people have such a hard time knowing God for it takes a lot of work. God is not easy to know.

What if you did not have so much unlearning to do? What if you were taught all of your life that God was always in the stillness? Your hardship is in the unlearning. So much excess to get out of the way. A fresh mind would have a much easier time with knowing God. It's easy to learn when you are young and untainted.

But how can the world learn to start a fresh approach to life? How can our learning be transformed to all areas of life?

As more and more people learn the truth, then the truth will systematically infiltrate all areas of life. The current trend toward material satisfaction has yielded disastrous spiritual results. But, upon learning this and looking for a better way, the world will realize that things are not as they seem and that all of the struggles need not be. The easy life – should and will be the way of life.

As long as people continue with the mentality of greed, then things cannot change. Common sense is not a factor when greed is the goal. When will people realize that to spread the wealth is more beneficial than to hold it all to oneself? Is it possible? Microsoft does great things, but it holds enormous wealth. Wealth sharing would seem the better approach, but then there comes competition and breakdown like with AT&T. Some companies are too big and some are simply worthless. With monopolies comes corruption. With poverty comes crime. Both levels produce crime. What is the happy medium?

Systems do not create criminals, people do. A person chooses their own actions based on their own feelings about a situation. If there were more confidence and awareness of the unseen, then there would be less cause for a person to choose out of desperation. Desperation can cause a person to do strange things. It can cause an honest person to perform dishonest acts. Desperation comes from feelings about a situation – where there seems no alternative or no way out. When life seems to afford no honest options, the mind will seek all possible solutions. This is a sad state to be in, but one that most people face often in life. For the lack of perceived unity causes an isolated sense of desperation. A desperate person will try to solve the problem. Upon the realization that the solution is worse than the problem, the person will simply give up. This is how a homeless person views life. When fighting and struggling no longer work, a person feels that there is no alternative, but to simply give up. This is defeat, or so the person feels. In a very real sense, this does bring relief and the person is relieved of guilt and fear – the torment is lifted. There are those who have different experiences – the relief may come from sickness or someone else's decision. But misery cannot continue for there must be relief. The tension has to be released. Some people snap and take out their anxiety on others. The world causes great desperation. Think of the people who jumped from the world trade centers. It was fall to your death or burn. The stock market crash caused some to feel that only suicide would bring relief. Imagine the suffering. If this is not hell, what can it be?

But these same emotions are experienced by those who are highly spiritual. There is no magic formula – no mastery that takes it all away.

There is one solution, but in the interest of staying alive and making the most of it, there is a way to live a better life. A person, who gives up on life, while living, does find that it is a much better experience. It's all about where you place your values and expectations. If you choose to live your life as if it is all there is, then you're attached to it and will hold on with all of your might. When you no longer care to fight, then there is relief, which brings forth a better quality of life. Giving up the fight is a marvelous experience. It may not make you rich, but your experiences will be richer. When you are more relaxed, greater things will come to you.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _If you fight everything, you will always have to fight for everything._

All of this sounds fluffy and wonderful, but it doesn't really work that well. It seems that you substitute one problem for another. Are you really giving us wisdom or a different method of struggle?

As long as you live, there are issues to contend with. Until you are in full realization of your purpose, you will not know relief. But, for those who have attained it, they know relief. Those who have attained it and not appreciated it have lost it. But for those who have it too easy, they do not appreciate it. So this cannot be their purpose. This is merely what they are, given at the start the tools to begin their journey. There is a huge tendency for people to stick with what they know. Why? Because the unknown is fearful. Yet, there does come a point when the known is more fearful than the unknown. When your life stops being acceptable and becomes unbearable. You have a great desire for change as what you have is intolerable.

But even the greatest desire for change does not bring forth desired changes. Just when you think it can't get worse, it does. So then you are full of regrets and somehow feel that you should have stayed where you were, for surely it was better.

Ah, the growing process can be filled with twisters of mind numbing proportions. But I tell you this, for those who left familiar surroundings, returning will not bring relief. For once you leave, it then becomes unfamiliar. So, why not choose something totally unfamiliar and new? At least, for a time, there is an attraction. But soon, it becomes familiar and you are looking elsewhere.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Halleluiah, the end has finally come. The desert has passed and now the true journey begins. You have dreamt of this your whole life and finally it has come to pass. Newness falls like rain and the light has finally dawned.

Tell us more. We love good news and great news even more.

Well, here's the rub – the universe could deny you no more. Your determination was too great to stop the forces from fulfilling your desires. You have overcome and you will rule the world, figuratively, of course. As you have realized that the world is merely nothing, you will be less and less affected by it. Thus, you will rule it by circumventing its influences upon you.

We hear your words, but are anxious to experience the fulfillment. For surely we have traveled a long and winding road to get to a point of grand experience. Surely, we have not gone through this for no reason.

Surely not – it is too complex to be for naught. The twists and turns are but tests and trials to learn what you desire most from this experience. Allow the unfolding of your long awaited dream to manifest like the opening of the petals of life's flower.

We pray that the dream has come true and that we will see what you have promised. Show us, that what you say is true. Show us that we have not merely wasted these years in idle pursuit of nothing.

It cannot be. You know that the road has led to somewhere. You know that I would not carry you this far to merely drop you off in a needless place. For God knows only love and only love will be found where God has called you to be. Your purpose is set and it must be fulfilled.

What is our specific purpose?

I have told you to teach as you have learned. Were I to not do as I've said, then what would you teach? Would I have you teach that I am a liar and not to be believed? For their years of living in deprivation, they finally saw the light. So will you. You will know that I AM with you always and that the purpose set in your heart is the one that will make your dreams come true. You have always sought to bring God to others. What possible good could come from denying you this experience?

Why have we been denied the chance to do your good works?

Only for the learning. No one wants to hear from someone who does not know. Who wants to be told to relinquish all things to God if they have not done so themselves? You can only lead by example. This is My way of teaching. This is the way that you shall teach. You will show My people that they are what I AM. They will no longer be condemned or ashamed. They will be uplifted and joyful. Let's celebrate divinity and not hold people hostage to it. People seek to feel good about God, but until they have an honest experience, they will not feel good about God.

But many are unwilling to hear your words. They choose to be spoon fed what they should believe. Why would they choose to listen and not discover?

Teach them to be self sufficient. Teach them to come to Me so that they will learn the truth and not be as sheep led to the slaughter.

People have been so fooled by unscrupulous religious leaders. They have been fooled. How can this be overcome?

If the message rings true – they will listen. People want to know God, but they are held captive by a slave mentality.

We understand this.

Yes, you'll teach as you have learned. It is easier to keep the flock by the use of fear and churches know this.

So what format can be used to satisfy the quest for God with an honest teaching?

People listen – the venue doesn't matter.

**Chapter 26 - Teaching**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

How are you? Were you not motivated by My words of hope and promise?

Of course – they were joyful words – but words don't create reality. If words were enough, we could hold the dictionary and be filled.

Ah, but order and placement are crucial. No random words will give you fulfillment. A Course In Miracles is no random smattering of words. The carefully contrasted document filled with words of truth is what benefits you. They are teaching words. They open your mind to a whole other way of looking at things. Can it be that you need more than My blessed words to be uplifted?

Of course, – words only go so far. As you said, experience is the best teacher.

Yes, but experience follows teaching. Teaching is but the laying of the groundwork for the experience that you will have. Let not your life be only of teaching, but of experiencing the magnificence of who you truly are. You are My representative and I shall show you the way. But words come first to provide the foundation, or else the experience would not be what was desired. Telling you that the tree is green will open your eyes to the possibility of green trees. Otherwise, you may have experienced a brown tree.

To tell you that you are God does not bring it into your experience. Being God causes you to know and knowing is the key to understanding.

But this we know and have established already. How much foundation need there be before the experience comes?

Depending on the desired experience, so the foundation is laid.

Apparently we have desired a great experience because the foundation must now be huge.

Relatively, yes. To know yourself as you truly are is rather a huge undertaking. It is the complete reversal of all of your beliefs. Your mind is not easily convinced. Much unlearning and relearning is required to make the real you come forth. Masters aren't created over night. Just look at the examples before you.

But surely they did make some progress. We seem to have progressed no where. We have not really changed. What have You taught us that we did not know before?

You have shifted blame from others to yourself. You have taken responsibility for your own actions and have learned that you are the creator of your life.

And instead of hating others, we now can only hate ourselves.

Hating anyone is not the objective. It is shifting your perspective to see that you are the creator and not the created. You have chosen to learn as you have. It's not about hate or blame – it's about understanding for the purpose of learning/teaching.

But if we can't help ourselves, how then will we help others?

When the light comes on, you will know. "Enlightenment is but a recognition, not a change at all." (A Course In Miracles, Lesson 188, Page 357) En -"light"- enment! When you experience it, you will then recognize who you truly are. It's a method of realization.

What sort of realization?

To realize that you need nothing "from God," for you have all that you need.

So if God gives nothing and we have everything, why do people have to work so hard to stay afloat?

If man had not been greedy, he would have needed nothing. But when one steals from another, there is an imbalance created. The imbalance has gotten so far skewed that one percent owns everything and the rest serve them.

But greed may be the motivator, but allowance and fear have their parts to play.

Of course – there must be a giver and a taker. The greedy are not givers; they are consumed with taking all that they can. They may pretend to be benevolent, but at the core is greed at all costs. Man will kill for greed – it happens everyday, needlessly, all over the world. Human life becomes less important than a bag of pot or a gold watch. Even sneakers and jackets have become reasons to kill. What do you suppose motivates a person to kill over shoes? Or angry words? Or perceived insults?

Hurt. They are hurt that they were unfairly treated at some point. There has to be a buildup of hurt that causes a person to do something no one deems rational. Ask a murderer why they did it and almost all will say they don't know. Hate crimes are the results of perceived righting of wrongs – there must be an enemy to be destroyed. There must be relief – kill or be killed is the thinking.

Hurt is a perception based upon a judgment. In early childhood, the situation is not understood, but the pain is felt. This can fester into actions later in life not fully understood by the person. The pain builds up and eventually must be released. If the person does not fully understand so that appropriate release is possible, drastic pain elimination measures are taken. Not everyone gets in touch with their truest self. Not everyone finds a way to let it go. Just as you feel slighted by life, think of the feelings of those who really had it rough. I'm talking abuse and neglect. Is it not understandable that they will act out at some point?

Of course. So what's the solution?

One simple kindness makes a huge difference. Many hurts can be covered by one generosity. People ache to be loved. Love is the gift of the brotherhood of man.

Agreed. But how do we get more people to do more acts of kindness? Notice that the untold acts of kindness each day go unnoticed while one donation (of no financial consequence to the celebrity) makes headlines. Surely the world has lost its collective mind. How do we remind the world of the really thoughtful gifts?

The world is not interested in Sally who gave her last $100 to feed someone else. The world wants to know that the huge celebrities are giving to good causes so they can be honorably worshipped. People look up to the rich and famous because everyone wants to be rich and famous. The imagined good life of praise and admiration. Be honest – would you rather be Mother Teresa or Paris Hilton? I said be honest. Even knowing that Mother Teresa heard the words of God, you would still choose the admiration and material wealth. If I asked which one you respected more, you'd say Mother Teresa. You respect Mother Teresa but admire Paris Hilton. Have not your religious leaders emulated the wealthy rather than poor?

Hey, poverty is not so desirable. Mother Teresa knew how tough it is to be poor. Surely she would have wished for free flowing finances, not for her but for those who could have used it. She could have made much better use of the money, but she was limited. Would not the world have been a better place if she had more money?

To what limit? There was only so much she could do. Bureaucracy took away much of her usefulness. How much can one woman do?

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

The spirit has never really been understood by the masses. You have asked many questions about the spirit and all things spiritual. It's as if you know something's there, but you just can't put your finger on it. As I have told you, all is all in all. All are connected via the Source. As all parts of the whole are made of the same material as the whole, then are related and thusly connected. Does removing a part cause a thing to be less than it is? More so, does removing a limb cause a tree to lose its identity or its genetic makeup? Why do you see a body as more important that what actually caused its being?

If all minds are joined, how can you present something to the seemingly physical reality of another?

Thought transference.

Let's say that you sent messages from your mind to the mind of another. What would make them believe that you had given them a fish?

Appearing to them when they were given a fish.

This would be placing your mental self where their mental self experiences the fish. How can you decide where to put yourself in their mental experience?

If all minds are joined, you would know. If the plan said on May fifth you will give Sue a fish, then you could link over to her and give her a fish, in thought.

This sounds rather fishy.

See how convinced you are that your body is real? I have told you that only your spirit is real.

Yep, because it is sitting here writing and not hearing voices from afar. We've been trained to think it real, so for now let's assume it is. So, what's the secret to multiplying loaves and fishes?

Miracles seem to "happen." Perhaps they are just written in for your amusement. Let's perhaps assume that it was written in that on May fifth you would give Sue a fish. On this date, the fishes would somehow multiply and the how would not matter. What's meant to be will be. Moses parted the sea by lifting a stick. Did the stick cause the water to part or was it merely symbolic of the preplanned event to occur? The secret is in the planning.

So, if the miracle wasn't written in, it wouldn't happen?

How can it? Wouldn't that mess up everything if you suddenly decided to perform a miracle?

It would only change those things meant to change.

Again I say – it's all in the planning. Jesus knew the plan. Remember?

So we don't affect anything – it's all already done and set?

Of course – how else could it be perfect? If it were to be changed, it would be imperfect. Let's say that you were to perform miracles, but you decided not to. How would all the other plans be messed up?

So, Jesus performed miracles because He had planned to do them?

Yes, and so you see, you are no different. Your plan is set. What miracles you are to perform are already manifested.

Have we manifested miracles?

Everyone does, but not all miracles are recognized.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Good evening – it seems that you have ignored Me today, if only in writing. You have learned on the computer, but I miss our time together.

Us too. It seems that we miss our time together, even if we are not necessarily happy with each other.

I'm always happy.

You who live in paradise can afford to be happy.

It is an advantage. The body weights you down more than you know.

A necessary evil?

In a manner of speaking. But its usefulness is without measure for the job at hand.

Of course – to learn to live with the body you have to have one.

True.

But isn't that rather backward?

Yes, but since you've already chosen to be here, why not make the most of it?

Indeed. Making the most of it is certainly what we've tried to do.

Well, that's what you are learning. These things take time. No need to shock your system so that you are no longer useful.

Let's say, the shock has worn off. The progress has been so slow that we fear we've forgotten much of what we've learned.

Nah, it's perfectly suited for you. Maybe you need a slow course for full absorption. Others take longer or shorter roads, but you are perfectly within your training period.

Why then do we not feel substantially learned, even after all of this time?

Gradual changes seem almost as no changed.

We honestly thought that the time would come when we would blast off into the supernatural understandings and experiences. We find that our training is merely mundane. We've had no grand awakening or spiritual encounters. What we've learned could easily be learned in a classroom with human teachers. We really thought that God's teachings were more profound. Are we wrong to feel disappointed?

No, all people want the fantastic. Science fiction is far more appealing than science. Scientific discoveries come after long, long searches of doing things over and over.

So, how can we be more in tune with the learning process and its results? How can we get closer to God?

Realize that it is possible. Think yourself somewhere else. Let go of your mental surroundings and create a new perspective.

On a white sandy deserted beach with all of the favorite amenities and the peaceful comfort of God by my side. It's cool and breezy – perfection on earth. No worries as we discuss the things of God.

Sounds good to Me. Can you imagine God in a swimsuit with a frosty drink on the beach looking relaxed and having a quiet conversation?

We would love it. Then we could ask all of those questions and get some real answers.

Then go there and ask your questions.

If only – we would appreciate a qualified travel guide.

Certainly, where would you like to go?

Suggest the best spot – we've not traveled much.

Just imagine the scene and you'll be there. Spiritual vision – it's your greatest tool.

We don't really seem to have such a great talent for visualization.

Because you don't fully let go. You always have one eye on the world.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

So the beach party was a bust. Isn't it shocking how your mind rambles on and on? From nothingness to nothingness. Like a crazy out of control machine, it turns from here to there to everywhere.

But even our best efforts to control it don't. How can we control our thoughts?

Desire it above all else. You must be determined. Your defiant mind will succumb to your will eventually. You can beat the busy monster of mental ramblings.

Hours have passed with no break in the action. Serious help is needed.

You are not alone. Know that you are not the only one. You must help yourself overcome yourself, but I AM with you always. I can help you blast off into the places you desire to go.

What does it take to win this battle against the ego?

Determination. Don't give up.

If all minds are connected, why are we not aware of this?

You would freak out.

How so?

You can't handle your own mental ramblings, much less those of others.

Do we hear the thoughts of others?

Have you ever had an odd thought?

Yeah.

Perhaps it was someone else's thought that you heard.

How do we "get" some messages and filter out the others?

Frequencies. If everything is energy which travels in frequencies, then you can safely assume that you are on a certain frequency.

Why then can we not send and receive intentionally?

What would you choose to send and receive?

Those who would help and be helped.

Yes, and all of your students are on that frequency. Let them who have ears, hear.

But, how do we contact those who do not know us?

You call out and the right one responds.

Been there. Got no call back.

Sometimes there are layers. This person hears who knows that person and who then sends another person the message.

And this is consciously done?

Well, it's already set to go, so you need do nothing.

But, if we don't go fishing, we'll catch no fish.

Not necessarily. Sometimes, fish show up at your house. And besides, haven't you already been fishing?

Only caught sharks.

Keep fishing if you will. It matters not. The fish and the fisherman will meet – guaranteed.

We're not convinced. We haven't even caught bait.

So, who needs bait?

People who fish.

Not necessarily – fish have been known to jump in the boat.

So you are telling us that we literally need do nothing?

Literally nothing. I wasn't kidding.
**Chapter 27 – False Self**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Good afternoon. Sorry that you feel so alone in your fight for the life of your dreams. It hurts that you feel this way and cannot seem to rise above the dream. You must let go of the dream in order to live the reality of your desired dreams. All dreams are the same, just with different attention to details. In dreams, all things are possible. You know this by your experience of sleeping dreams. Sleeping dreams seem so very stupid to you that you find it hard to imagine that you actually dreamed them. All of the dreams that you have seem so ridiculous, unbelievable and fantastic. There is no "proper" sequential order. People change about instantly in dreams. How can you get something meaningful from something so distracted? You put no faith in sleeping dreams, so why then would you be more attached to waking dreams?

The waking dreams seem to be more real. We have seemingly conscious control of waking dreams, but no control in sleeping dreams.

You can learn to control sleeping dreams as well, but there's not much point to that, especially not now. You are far too confused already. Spreading your attention further would cause you to lose more sleep than you already do.

We feel less known to self than ever before.

Because you have known your false self. Your false self had you so vested that you had not known yourself at all. You have hidden yourself beneath levels of what you thought were the word's expectations for you. You have not known yourself at all. Take the time to truly know yourself. Your childhood memories reveal much about your truest self. Others have convinced you to be what you are not. Let go of that. You are not even remotely what others have taught you to be.

Tell us then, what are we?

You are the teacher of God, filled with the empathy of God. You have always felt connected with all others and have always sought to help or at least seek remedies for others.

But this has never been very beneficial for us. In truth, it has caused more harm than good. Our greatest desires have never been met with any sort of true helpfulness.

Because you have not understood that you cannot help as you would imagine. You must help as the person chooses. Saving the life of someone who doesn't want to be saved is not helping. It is interfering. You must shift from what you think helps a person to let the person tell you what they need. Sometimes, and most often, they want you to listen and not advise. So, be more helpful in causing them to tell you or discover for themselves what they choose to have or know. Ask questions – it's really how you are most helpful. No one wants to be told what to do, especially not you.

Ok, so we're human. People don't really want to be spoon fed if they aren't getting what they need. They want to feel good about what they are getting. Truthful insights can only come from them.

True. Don't be as sheep, be a shepherd. Lead, don't follow.

So, we do have to follow the plan via the Holy Spirit. Why do we not get clearer directions from the Holy Sprit? Why is it so hard to know what to do?

You need to nothing. When action is needed, direction is given.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Well hello there. How are you?

Fine. Still confused, but always hopeful that the process works for the betterment of all.

Of course it works – just as designed.

We are still not connected enough to get the feeling that all things are connected.

Understanding connections is our goal. That is where we are headed and you will have the experience as soon as you are ready. It is rather disconcerting to experience the connectedness of all things. Your life will never be the same afterwards. So, we can't dish it out before you are ready.

But, you've prepared us for so long that we do not even think that we could not be ready.

You can only forget what you do not know. You don't forget anything important. All you need you carry with you, even if you are not aware.

How do we remember what we know?

When the bell of recognition tolls. You know that you know.

But this seems to be so rare – shouldn't we be ringing all the time?

If you were more in tune, it would ring more often.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

We accomplish more when we work together. Two heads are not better than one, they are one. The whole world is connected, but it has yet to be realized. This realization would save the world from much misery.

But, the world experiences separation, not Oneness. Why can the world not experience more Oneness?

We are not here to go against free will. As many as choose to experience Oneness, they will.

Honestly, most people have not even heard of Oneness. Why is the secret so well kept?

You came into this world to experience separation. From separation can you remember Oneness. Otherwise – you simply are Oneness. You have to not know before you can appreciate knowing.

How do we better connect with Oneness? Is it truly possible to experience Oneness rather than merely imagine it?

Of course you can experience it. There are those among you who have experienced it. But, like a miracle, it changes you for the rest of this life. You can't go back after Oneness. The transformation is total.

Is that a bad thing? What if a psychopath were given the experience of Oneness? Would they not be changed forever?

Of course. But a psychopath has freely chosen to be that and only with his free will can he ask for Oneness. Oneness is merely the perspective of truth. No separation allowed.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Good afternoon. How are you this fine evening? I trust that life is giving you the distinct feeling that you are not in control.

As always. Life is giving us the experience of "what's the purpose of this? How on earth are we supposed to succeed?"

The purpose of life is for the discovery of your true self. How odd it is that you spend so much time trying to get to the point of total dissatisfaction so that you can start the real journey to yourself. But, at least be glad that you are past that point and are on the road to the true purpose of your life. How wonderful is life when you discover your true self. This is life lived with passion and vigor. Never before were you headed toward the stars that sparkle in your life. Before it was the defeat of your self esteemed efforts to "accomplish" something in your life. Now you know that you have weathered the greatest challenge in your life. Let the happy life begin. You've earned it. Know what you are and what you want. That's the secret to life. Don't settle for the designs of others upon your life. Know that your truest self is without faults and is perfectly suited for the life that you have chosen.

You keep saying this, yet we are just as clueless as before.

There is nothing about your life like it was in your twenties. You may have similar tendencies, but you have gone far past where you then were.

You know, we feel like twenty plus years of our lives were wasted. We haven't accomplished anything truly meaningful. What was the purpose?

To find out there is no purpose, mostly.

So, we've come all this way for what?

What resonates true to you of all the possibilities before you? What is your greatest desire?

Realize that there are seeming miracles that happen everyday. No one produces something alone. It takes an army to make a miracle. You may only see the general, but the army is backing them up. All of life is interconnected. There is no one person who makes it all happen. Let's say that you were set to produce a book. From the idea all the way through the endless possible readers is the action set. If your book is to be read by twenty eight million people, then those twenty eight million people are already waiting for it. Is this not an army? The army is not aware of their waiting, but you have been made aware that they are waiting and have been motivated to act.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Surely all things do come to pass according to the plan set forth.

What is the purpose of this?

To detach yourself from life. You must let go of all that holds you to this world. You have seen that life holds nothing for you, but you must learn to live not be attached to the trappings and concerns that once held your attention. You are still too focused on the business aspects rather than the spiritual aspects.

But, this is all we know. You have not shown us the spiritual aspects. For this we have prayed and sought, yet it eludes us. How can we have a greater experience of God?

The undoing demonstrates that the world is not what you have imagined. The redoing will teach you that there is another world to be experienced and this is where the real learning comes about. This is the time during which you live the life of your dreams and that you know that God is all things.

Is it possible that there really are great things ahead that all of this is really preparation for something?

If all things are truly planned and there are no accidents, then how can you have planned something meaningless?

But, is there a point when you see that all of this does actually serve a purpose? Does it all come together?

The culmination of all does come into view, but not all people see the same conclusions or purposes. You make the mistake of looking for your answers in the lives of others. You cannot find your answers where even a similar situation would not be the same for you. Remember that all experiences are different for every person. All experiences are individual to each person. Even ten people seeing the same event will have ten different experiences. But, some not being authentic will quickly discuss the experience and "decide" what the experience really was. People are so worried about the expectations of others that your own experience will be invalidated and the opinions of others will be accepted. What makes the opinions of others more valuable than your own?

We are taught to think like others. Civilization causes us to choose to be like all others. We are carefully trained to be like everyone else. Otherwise, we would be like animals living separate lives with selfish motives.

Ah, but what if you were taught to work together for the common good, but yet be honest to yourself? In all societies there are generally accepted rules for society. Rules need not be restrictive. Just as the rules are different for those who are incarcerated, the rules must apply to the circumstance. For truly benevolent societies, fewer rules are necessary. If people believe that they belong, then the need to "act out" is minimized. Teach people that they count and that they are important – all men should be equal just as they are truly created equal.

But you know full well that there is always one in the bunch. The one who seeks to rule over others – the separatist. Is it possible to stop the loners from influencing others? Especially if they use violence to get their message across?

A benevolent society will be able to teach inclusion rather than exclusion. Only willing souls can be influenced. A person who is secure will not be so easily led. It is almost impossible to convince a secure person of anything. The trick is to teach people to be secure. A secure society will not be wishy-washy.

But there are those who seem naturally to be the outcasts of society. How are they to be brought into the fold?

As long as the great percentage of the society is secure, then the few will be squelched quickly. By their example and loving will, even the most violent can be brought into the light. As an example given by Dr. Dyer, treating people with love and concern goes much further than harsh punishments. The best medicine is really loving and good. So let only loving and good tools be used by you and know that only the willing can be affected. Do not force your good wishes upon another. Give only to those who ask, for only the willing will beneficially receive.

That is an important point. To only give to those who seek. Otherwise, efforts are wasted. This is a great lesson. You cannot help an unwilling person.

And another is to allow people to live their own truths. Just as you seek your truth, which is only true for you, let others seek for themselves. When asked, offer the lessons that you have learned. But always help others to seek for themselves. It is not yours to convince others, but to show them the way that you learned and were able to discover for yourself what you found to be true.

If before we ask, the answer is given, then circumstances come to pass which cause us to ask the questions that we were meant to ask. The answer is already here, so the asking the question is preset. So, one could say that looking backward from an answer was the question and the circumstance that caused the question already set in motion. It would appear that all things are not set in motion and all things are pre-determined if, "It will also come to pass that before they call, I will answer; and while they are still speaking, I will hear." ( Isaiah 65:24)

Remember, as A Course In Miracle tells you in Chapter 8, you must go back to the beginning to understand. Looking back at your life from and to beginning would show you a pattern which you would be able to recognize as most beneficial for what you accomplished.

But, this seems hard to comprehend when looking at the lives of some people. For instance, the young genius who was about to finish college but was killed in a motorcycle accident. What was the point of that?

Let Me repeat. Do not try to judge the lives of others. You'll never be able to figure it out. You cannot make sense of another's experiences. What if he had simply figured it all out and was done?

But what if he could have contributed greatly to the world?

He did and he was done. That's all. Stop trying to follow the examples of others. Stop it!

But, as we use Jesus to learn, should we or can we not glean helpful information from others?

You can observe, but don't try to model your experiences after others. Your soul is not the same. Teach people to be honest with themselves.

But, what if someone's truest self is a murderer?

Is it your place to change another?

But aren't we supposed to help?

There is only so much that you can do. Do only that and let it go.

Ok, so what about helping ourselves? What if we seek help and do not find it? What if we ask and no answer is given? Let's be honest. We've been asking the same questions for twenty plus years and the answers are still eluding us. If you have given all answers upfront, why do we not know this? What is the purpose of not hearing answers supposedly given?

You sometimes seek to know things before it is beneficial for you to know them.

Ok, but we knew long ago that we were on the wrong path, but did not know of an alternative and still to this day do not. You'd almost guess that twenty plus years would be plenty of time to let us in on the great secret.

You have been show what was perfect for you to know at this point. Further revelations come forth as needed.

What revelations would be perfect for us now?

To trust that the process works perfectly. You need do nothing.

We don't get a full comprehension of this. It would seem that if all things are pre-determined, then why do things not go more smoothly? Where is the peace of which you speak?

When you finally realize that you cannot do anything to affect the course of your life, you will find peace at last. Until then, you will be caught in a quagmire of confusion and constant seeking. What in your life has happened that you would have chosen?

Surely we would not have chosen this particular course of actions. Hopefully we would have chosen for happiness, not what we could get.

Then why do you suppose you can control anything?

We have never felt that we could control anything. We just did the best we could with what we had. Reactive, perhaps. And still it is this way today.

What would happen if you were to really stop trying?

Perhaps we would give up and die.

Then you must assume that in order to live you must "try" to live.

People who do nothing do die.

Why?

There are things necessary to stay alive – eat, drink, exercise, etc.

I tell you this, unless it is your intent to die, you will not die. Even if you deprive the body of all its cravings, it will not die. Death is a choice.

But, also are debt and worry and joblessness.

Jesus didn't hold down a job. He merely offered His gifts to the world, to do with them as they pleased.

But His gifts were valuable. He healed people.

So, are you saying that He was a healer? Healing is a choice like death. A person who chooses healing will be healed. He was a teacher. But He did not sit behind a desk and teach. He taught wherever He was called to teach. If you must emulate a life, at least let it be Jesus. Remember, He grew in stature and respect – He did not always have it. You assume that He shot from the womb an instant hit. Perhaps He also had to earn respect.

But He was born and celebrated as the Messiah.

Yeah, and He was always on the run. He was also most hated. All spiritual teachers have detractors. One cannot expect that all of your life will be filled with supporters. There were even those who cursed Mother Teresa. You cannot even imagine this, but not all people are so kind and even minded as to allow others their truth. Perhaps, some people enjoy sharing their misery. Misery loves company. Who wants to be the only miserable soul on the block?

But, what is the purpose of this?

It's all about free will. People love to share what they are feeling. They don't worry about the misery they are spreading, they want sympathy. "Feel sorry for me, I'm hurting!" Is there a more selfish thing to think?

But, no one wants to cry alone. That really hurts. It is natural to seek comfort.

To seek comfort is one thing, but to seek pity is another. It's all about "me. Me, me, me." Otherwise, it would not have mattered. If it's not about you, then you would not be concerned, right?

Ok, but it is about "me." The "me" exists for some reason, right?

Yeah, to get rid of me and opt for we.

You speak of this marvelous Oneness, but you have not given it to us to experience. Perhaps if you were not so stingy with Oneness, we would not be so "me" inclined. "If (we) knew who walked beside (us)..." (A Course In Miracles, Chapter 18, Page 378)

Still plugging for vision?

Of course. It changed the lives of others. Why not share it more often?

Why not indeed. You suppose that people will accept it even if they are shown? What if people, although miserable, are basically happy with the way things are?

Say it ain't so. Too many suicides. Too many drugs. People don't use drugs to feel bad. They like the escape. The world is full of misery. You can't fool me. Even the rich and famous are dropping pills like candy. Alcohol, oh please. It tastes terrible, but has dulled pain for ages. So, there's no need to shower us with tales of happiness. It just ain't so.

Then why is it chosen so often?

You tell us.

If you came to earth to know what you are not, why would you not be happy with your choices? If you want to know what you aren't, then be human. That'll learn you rather quickly!

You sure put a foolin' on us. We are duped over and over and over again. How do we get off this non-merry go round?

Choose to return to your natural state.

Which means?

Do nothing. Be at peace. Love yourself and let yourself be free.

Ok, let's go on television and tell this to the world. Perhaps this wouldn't be a good idea.

Is it? What is the truth?

Let's say that all Emergency Medical Technicians stayed home one day. What would happen?

Some people would die, but only if they had chosen it.

Still, it sounds crazy to us.

Did the world exist before EMT's?

Yes, but there were fewer people.

Yeah, and people died just like today. EMT's don't make the world. Neither do doctors. If all doctors quit practicing, there would be less sickness.

So you are saying that doctors aren't necessarily always necessary?

That's right. Doctors help mostly by offering comfort and sympathy – they cannot "cure" anyone. How many broken bones has a doctor ever healed? The answer: None, for the body heals itself. Sure, doctors can set bones or brace them for healing. Only the patient's choice brings healing and that choice was made long ago.

But what about surgeons – they remove all sorts of things and mend broken bones.

There has always been sickness and there always will be. Trust me – sickness is a choice. Healing is a choice. One hundred years ago, did everyone run to the doctor once a week? Annual checkups were unheard of. Get over your dependence on physicians. You are the physician of choice.

But, only a few know this. Who has said, "I am healed" who actually was? It doesn't seem to work that way. And for those who know the secret, they aren't telling.

Well, does anyone really want to live forever?

Who knows? We're tired of this life thing as a no-win situation. It's not really fun. Even for those who think they have everything, they are still not happy.

And you are right. How can you be happy in the oppressive world? This is not the place of your godliness. This is your opposite. This is your hell. But, for living in hell, you do give it a good shot at redemption. You can't change the world. You can only change your experience of it.

You are so very uplifting and motivational. Three cheers for the pep talk?

Until you realize that your attachments to anything are worthless, you will not be able to be free.

Consider Dark Night Of The Soul by St. John Of The Cross which details process much like A Course In Miracles. It states the objective to know yourself. It does also speak of the night of the spirit which is a more intense experience. Without religion, it could be seen as almost identical to A Course In Miracles. There seems to be so much of this type of info available, but unheeded. Why?

Have you had fun? Would you not rather run screaming back into the world where things were hard, but you felt you knew yourself?

Yeah, it's easier to go backward than go forward.

Then, you understand why only a few make it to Oneness. It isn't easy and not very pleasant.

Why must it be so difficult? Surely there is an easier way.

Sure, but not for those who fight the process.

It would seem that those who go through this, in order to teach, fight it vehemently.

Exactly, those who teach must be able to tell the tale. The teachers are those who have to do the hardest homework so that they can explain it to others. It's tough.

We've done so much work. The confusion is intense and unnerving. And without even a glimpse of hope, the wandering seems endless. It's hard to imagine that we can be whole again or have any measure of confidence. Aren't you supposed to help us?

You are being helped. Did it not comfort you to read the trials of others who are going through such horrors?

But hearing about the miserly struggles is hardly joyful. How are we supposed to recover from this and be useful?

Trust in the process and it will unfold miraculously. Are you not at the stage when God is supposed to give you revelations?

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

The value of life is one of layered mystery. There are so many levels that you cannot always see from the surface all that is involved. Allow yourself to trust that the levels are there and that perfection is the bountiful fruit of all that has been set by all who have set it. Do not mistake what the surface reveals for the completeness of all. In this, just as any book there is more and more to learn as the depths are explored.

There is great beauty in this once the levels are understood. But, on the surface, there seems no beauty at all. How can we learn to see better or more clearly the levels?

With books, expanded readings bring greater insight. Re-reading is also a valuable tool for cutting through the layers. The more you understand, the more levels you will see. Trust that at the surface, the meaning is not seen at all. It is merely the shell that covers the innermost beauty. This is what you must seek to discover. Don't be fooled by the outside. Look until the hidden beauty is revealed.

But, we don't seem to be able to see the inner beauty.

What if the struggles you now face are the very impetus for someone else to have the courage to follow in your footsteps? What if you are the example for others? What if you give strength to those who have secret desires to live more freely?

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

And a festive time was had by all. Can it ever be that life is less than fascinating? How you deal with it is a challenge between right and wrong – happy and sad – good and bad. More interesting is the fact that it is all a worthless pursuit of nothing meaningful. Isn't it interesting that the pursuit of nothing is so overwhelming that it absorbs all of your time and energy?

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Take seriously all the ideas given you, for you know not what will become of them. They are so freely given, yet so hardly ever heeded. Would this not be a perfect gift for those who need a boost of positive energy? Always think of those who are less fortunate, for you have many gifts to give and give you must.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Job loss can be chosen for many different reasons. On the surface, dissatisfaction would be the most obvious reason. But there are untold hidden reasons which only the person may or may not be aware of. Read the many stories of those who have had great increases after suffering seemingly dismal failures. Perhaps the job loss is the best thing that ever happened to the person, if only in hindsight. Never look at an experience from one perspective or point in time. All things happen for a reason whether you understand it or not.

Please demonstrate for our understanding our spiritual connection. The story about miracles really is hard to believe – a lady, contemplating suicide, was given a series of numbers to call. She called and reached the guy who helped her, who was on tour, and had simply walked by the ringing pay phone and decided to answer it. We know that we are all connected, but we don't understand how it operates. Why sometimes it works and at other times it does not. Is it that those particular miracles were predestined? Why are there so few? Why are we not more aware of our connections?

If all of life is predestined, how could the miracle not be included? Of course it was set to happen for the exact benefit of the two people who needed it. The benefit was mutual. All interactions are planned. Remember, it was set for the desired experience. All things are miracles or nothing is a miracle. There is nothing not preset. If miracles were seen everyday, they would not inspire people. Ordinary things do not change people.

How do we learn from this? What's the point?

To realize that you are never alone. You may at times believe that you are just sitting there with your notebook writing alone, but rest assured that you are connected to all others.

Show us our connection to the spirit world. We have always had much trouble with illogical concepts.

It is more illogical that you are isolated. What you consider irrational is really rather obvious. There are no empty spaces – something fills everything, lest you would bump into everything else. Space is something. Space is equally physical as are all other things. Between you and the couch is space, not very much, but enough to keep you separate. But separate does not exist. Think of space as either the glue or the spacer between all things. Space is something. There is no such thing as empty or separate.

This would defy, but if you say so.

If you see that all things are connected, it is much easier for you to understand connectedness. By reaching out in front of you, you send a signal that passes through the space to affect what is beyond. If you think about thought energy as having the same effect, then you would know your connectedness. Take empty out of your thoughts for there is no such thing. A visual would be to walk into a smoke filled room and blow. You could see how your thoughts look while sending forth energy. Don't assume that thoughts have to be translated into physical effort in order to have an impact. Studies of telepathy demonstrate that thought transference is real. See your thoughts as breath in a smoke filled room. Or, as the ripples in the water.

How can we test with certainty our thought transference to another?

With certainty is difficult as the message received may be ignored. Otherwise, free will could be overridden.

Then, there is no proof of connectedness.

It is difficult to generate with certainty and get expected results. But you have witnessed coincidences of thought. If you would believe in the system, you would need no proof. When you can connect all of the dots, the mystery will be gone.

A little less mystery might help us cope.

You will always know what you need to know. Trust that what you think are ideas popping into your head are actually sent there for a reason. What if the questions you ask are exactly the questions to be answered for others?

Then they will still be lacking answers for we have not ever been able to grasp it ourselves. We have the theory, but the belief or proof or understanding still eludes us.

Ok, so would you think that you must know all of the secrets before you can teach the one that you do know?

You have yet to give us a firm foundation from which to teach. It's as if we have a millions pieces of the puzzle and cannot even get the outline put together. Random disassociated pieces of life meant to be used as teaching material do not a foundation make.

Give someone a piece of bread and they can recall the whole loaf. The little bit awakens their inner knowing. Expert? Nah. You don't need to be an expert. You need only be willing to teach. You are here to save time by helping others save time. Teach them and they will learn for themselves what the completed puzzle looks like.
**Chapter 28 – You Know Not What Is Best**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Feel the presence of God with you now. Allow the world to disappear and you are left with only God. You need not seek God, for God never leaves you. You are God and God is you. I AM with you always. Only your thoughts can separate us. There is no other way to be apart from God. We are all one and you are never alone. So, feel what you know to be true. Don't try to think up how it works or how it is. It merely is. There is nothing isolated or alone in life for all is interconnected. But, often, when one imagines himself isolated, then so it seems. Be aware of your connectedness to all things and you will soon find that you can never again imagine yourself alone. All things work together...all things are together...all things are the same. Don't seek your own means of solving anything for the solution is set. It was set when your life was imagined. There is no other way. Look at all that is connected. Look closer still. You often overlook the very simplest essences of your life and only look at certain things. What conspired to make the grass in your yard for you to enjoy? What conspired to keep it alive? You seek for unknown forces, yet you see that all around you are evidences of the brotherhood of man. Who built your house? Who made your car? Who sold you the house? Who fixed your car? Even without metaphysics, you can easily see that you are interconnected to all of life. With metaphysics, you can know further still all that combined energies to present this canvas in which you now seem to live. You have contributed on more than one level. But, trust the levels as they are revealed to you. If you simply look at the contributions of the physical things in your life, many have impacted your life.

The spiritual contributions are even more vast. Realize and appreciate your helpers for they are always with you and each contribution is worthy of gratitude. Oh, did you buy groceries lately? What effort did you put forth to put them in the store? Don't discount even one thing for all are interconnected. Appreciate the contributions and do not merely assume that a person was paid, so they were obligated to assist you. It is the willing nature of people to accept payment for services that you may enjoy the vegetables in the market. No one is literally forced to bring you food. But, the system of commerce causes you to believe that somehow you are owed that which you choose to purchase. You are not owed anything. Nor do you owe anything. Appreciate the gifts given. Everything is a gift. Oh, did someone invent the TV that you so lovingly watch? How about the programming that you receive? Be grateful for everything. Always, be grateful. Don't be grateful to God, as God did not create this. Be grateful for your brothers who have made your life experience full and wonderful. Be grateful to God for allowing you to create. What you created, with your brothers, is due great gratitude for the suffering of others has allowed it to prosper. Think about the light, lamp, pen, paper, couch, house, a/c, etc., that makes this current interaction possible. Thank your brothers. Thank them all.

That's a wonderful lesson to keep that in mind. It is our nature to think only of what is wrong in our lives. Yes, others do make life all that it is. We are grateful to all.

How can you do your part? How can you help others? What do you offer them for which they should be grateful? You have spent years doing service work and have given your very best regardless of pay scale. This is excellence. Thank you for this. What more will you do? Lots, but not the same type as before. You have maxed out on that experience. Your gifts are now wasted by doing that work. What now? Your chosen gift of learning and teaching shall be established. You will simplify for your brothers the long misunderstood teachings. As you have learned, so shall you teach. God need not be explained in metaphysical terms nor need I be hidden beneath mountains of books or years of study. Simplicity is the way that you will teach. Simplicity is your gift.

Thanks, but how will it be put into practice?

Fear not for your brothers make it possible. Love will find a way to have your simple messages shared. Allow the Lord to open the doors, for your brothers call to you. They shall set you free and you shall return the favor. There is no magic formula. There is no one better than you at what you do. Keep it simple – bring God to the people.

What more must we do?

Know, pray, try, and hope everything. Don't ever give up. In giving up you experience failure. Never give up – never, never, never. Let the light of hope always keep you going. There is no defeat, only your thoughts of defeat create the experience. You cannot fail. Trust in the system. You have chosen to teach. What better vocation is there?

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Can you feel the power? Be open to all there is. Tune your radio into the universal call and respond with gifts of kindness and gratitude. Love the brothers that are here, just as you are, to make the world a better place. Focus always on the goodness of the human spirit. Allow only kindness to be given and received. Stop anything that is not the highest communication of love and gratitude. Be aware of the good things and let go of the bad things. Your focus determines your experience. Allow life to be what you would choose it to be – a gift or a burden. Burdens are part of the balancing act of life. Don't let life get you down. Use life to lift you up. Be all that you want to be. Be gifts to all of mankind. It is in giving that you receive. Give to the world all that you have to give. Be that which you would choose others to see. Don't be swept away by negativity. Allow life to be what you can give to others to lessen their burdens. Allow life to offer you the abundance that is your rightful blessing. Give as you want to receive. It is in lifting up others that you are God's example.

Teach people to proclaim themselves creators and world changers. There is not one among you who is less than any other. Is there greater love than helping someone see their own magnificence? Teach others to be great and in return you are great. Teach people to love themselves and to be what they choose to be. Don't let others feel less than perfect. Tell them that they are perfect and perfectly loved. Teach people to feel their connectedness to all. It is the realization of Oneness that softens the heart and puts the love back into life. Think of all who helped you. Think of all you've helped. Give to the world and the world does amply repay.

But it seems that we are taught to think in isolated terms. Survival of the fittest. Our whole lives are spent creating walls around ourselves to keep others out. How can we overcome the selfishness of the world when it seems that only in selfishness do people succeed?

Success is relative. If only one person succeeds, is this truly considered successful? If the entire group succeeds, then this is truly success. The person who foolishly assumes that he has succeeded alone is the poor one who will see the opposite realization come to pass. No man is an island. If a person climbs to the top and assumes that he has put himself there, his downfall will surely come. It is in the gratitude and sharing with all that brings forth true success. Don't let misguided concepts of success confuse you. Success is not success without the betterment of all. Yes, you can give away material things. But, what have you given? Would it not be better to give jobs than to give money? Teach people to be better by being all they can be. Don't teach people to wait for handouts. Teach them to be God. There is nothing that even the least among you cannot do. Teach this, with practical reinforcement, and you will be a great success. Don't just offer lip service as this only leads to disappointment. Teach the world to be who they can be. The master is the one who creates masters.

We hear you, but surely we don't know what to teach and how to back it up. We understand the importance of teaching success, but we do well remember those who got jobs and wouldn't show up. You can lead the horse to water...

And this is all you can do. Lead My people to the water. What they drink is up to them. Teach Godliness; teach what you have found to be most important. Teach My people to love and to establish loving organizations and to lift up people. You will teach people to spread the wealth of love and prosperity. Teach people to love themselves and others. A kind word, thought or deed – this is what you will teach as invaluable.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Oh happy day, for the Lord has come to save the world. Your thinking is now magically transformed to be open to all there is. See how even the little things contribute to the happiness of others, even without your planning (actually, in spite of it) you helped someone find their medicine. Cool huh?

That was amusing. Who knew that by taking out the trash that we would see the medicine bottle on the bumper for which they has searched for hours?

I knew, but why spoil the surprise?

Indeed. Why not keep secrets instead?

If you knew everything...you would have no need to live.

So, the day was for the purpose of finding a medicine bottle?

Well, that was one thing. Certainly there were others.

So, back to the salvation of the world. Another day has passed without progress toward our fulfillment. What say you?

I say that by counting the days, you only disappoint yourself. Why not know that all is well at hand and very well set for your perfection. Just like your finding the medicine, all things are carefully planned. Let go of your worries and enjoy the ride.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Behold, here comes the Lord for the manifestation of your magnificence. Allow the doors to your heart to be open to the guidance from your Creator.

The doors are open, please proceed.

As with all of life, temporary setbacks are truly only temporary and aren't really setbacks at all. You only imagine them as setbacks. Actually, they are more like reassessments and track shifting which puts you on the right track. Once you realize this and welcome the transition, the experience becomes all the more profound. When you are satisfied with the new direction and fully willing to pursue it, then all things conspire to bring it forth. The gathering of the forces seem to pull together to suddenly honor the new direction that you have chosen. Cleverly, you have thought that your willingness was necessary, but the die is actually cast and you are actually coming to the predetermined realization needed to accomplish the next stage of your life. Regardless of your cooperation, it has happened. You will somehow think that you came to certain conclusions based on outer circumstances, yet all of it is predestined to happen; therefore, it must. Once you fully get on board with the complete acceptance of destiny, your fight will truly be over. This alone will be the end of your struggles. This is the great secret to the game – it's predestined perfectly. Accept all things and see the perfection. All things do not work at random. All things work together according to the higher plan.

Doesn't this sound very irrational?

Of course and that is why it works so well. But, to look at every minute of your life, it does appear random. To look at the entire life, it appears predestined. That's why it is always said that you must look at the big picture to understand the beauty of all things.

This is rather surprising, but the daily reviews have at least opened our eyes to the possibilities. You have slowly and methodically caused us to become aware of every miniscule detail of every day. You have taken away all else so that we can not be distracted. There is truly no occupation at which we are able to separate ourselves. Working does truly keep us distracted and swept away in the dramas of life. Why have we not been more able to deal with both at the same time?

Lack of esteem and concern with results. If you felt better about yourself and cared much less about results, you would not put so much importance on meaningless things. You allow daily trifles to take over your life.

Well, you have shown us that we must have something vocational, which does warrant care and high esteem.

All things must work together – all things. You must follow your passion. There is great wisdom in this. If you love what you do, you'll be satisfied on many levels. Remember there are composite levels of life and not one of them will complete the picture. You must satisfy all levels before the happiness that you desire comes into focus.

Agreed. But, how does a person get to the place of holistic happiness – where all things seem to fall into place?

You won't find it by searching – it will come to you as you have planned. Your desire for it is the prerequisite for it in that the desire is a requirement of remembering what you have chosen to come forth. You have an incredible desire to have a lawn tractor and so you will. Is it because you desire it or because you know that it is remembered from the future? The writing is a passion you have always secretly held. But, you hid it away in the "impossible" trunk of your mind. But, as it was destined, it did resurface.

But, there have been so many things desired which have not come to pass. How do we know the difference?

You once desired a higher position even though you knew you only wanted the position and not the responsibility. Only that which you desire totally is that which is the calling of your heart. What you really wanted was the position, but in an entirely different role. You love leadership, but not with your hands tied behind your back. When you are a leader, answering only to God, then you will have what you desire.

Is it possible to only answer to God?

Reporting to and answering to are entirely different things. You must report your income to the IRS, but you answer to your boss. Your boss is now Me – no one else. The boss must be satisfied with His chosen leaders before sending them out upon the world. You must be ready to be what God has called you to be.

Your eyes are beginning to open to all possibilities. You are slow to accept things. Our doubting nature does hold you back, but it also causes you to be convinced. Once you are convinced, you will go ahead full force.

Does astrology have any significance or relation to our lives?

Have you lived without it up to this point?

Yes.

Then what possible use could it have?

Should we learn more about it?

It can be judged either helpful or not. Can it be that your choice of birthdates actually causes your life to have a certain destiny?

Perhaps. It could be somehow connected to destiny, a life plan of sorts. Perhaps this is like time for the predestination. The method of laying out the plan, just as we now use time to set our lives on track.

Interesting concept. If astrology is the time keeper of destiny, then how can this benefit you?

Not knowing how it works, how can we possibly know if it would help?

Let's pretend that it is the map of destiny. What would you hope to gain by its use?

To know the future.

Why would you want to know the future?

To prepare. Like the almanac for planting seasons, etc. You can't just plant at any time, there needs to be some sort of system.

What if I told you when to plant?

Rather, what if you let us guess and "think" we heard you. There's a lot at stake on the farm.

There are those who believe just as there are those who do not. It can mean whatever you choose it to mean. I think you know that the moon affects the tides. The seasons are affected by the rotation of the earth. Perhaps, the system must be studied further before you can think it believable or not. If you believe in destiny, nothing you do makes any difference. You choose. Yogananda's guru, Swami Sri Yukteswar Giri, believed in astral effects on the body. Yogananda wasn't totally convinced, but believed that his guru's advice was to be taken seriously. Perhaps it's worth a look-see.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Let the world go away. Behold, for the world is merely nothing. It seems so overwhelming, but in truth only has the power you give it. You see yourself as controlled by what you see, but know that it is only as you have imagined. Imagine it powerless and it is.

It is far easier to imagine than to experience. As you well know, the world does impact us regardless of our desires, beliefs or imaginings.

But, you can and do choose your experiences.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Words are merely nothing, but they are the tools at hand. Your destiny is assured and blessed in spite of all appearances to the contrary. Don't let daylight hide the darkness nor vice versa. There are always things ahead which will come forth unforeseen. As one day does not show the next, neither will your destiny come into full view overnight. The mystery does intrigue and make the fulfillment seem all the more amazing. There is nothing beyond My reach and you will see what I have called you to see. The world is not as two dimensional as you think. The world operates holistically as I have often told you. One never knows when one will strike gold. It isn't necessary for you to know the future for it to unfold. The world does not depend upon your direction for the direction is clearly set. Behold, I do come as a thief in the night, in the dark night to offer you the light. This you will see is true. For you could not predict what was ahead, just as you cannot predict from this day forward. The Lord knows your path. You need merely trust in the process.

We would have to surmise that you would have us unknowing. We have carefully looked and watched and not seen what was ahead. We have had hints of a general direction, but nothing clear enough to see. Do we ever develop spiritual insight so that we are more prepared for the days ahead?

You will never know all the turns of your path. You wouldn't want to know all. Yes, you can know some things, but all things with specific details, no. Don't destroy the experience by knowing all the answers. Let life bring you to the place that you call home. There is no need to fear or worry. Your safety and wellbeing are assured. You have brought My precious child to awareness of self, this is no small feat. Let your accomplishments not be on paper but in the hearts of men. Allow your rewards to be truly meaningful. Lead others home to God for they so desperately seek. A healer is born anew and the world thanks you. All the hurting ones who will be touched are grateful in advance. This is your gift, secondary, but priceless nonetheless. Thank you for the healer and the healing. This is a great gift unto the world.

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For I AM with you always, doubt this not. You have witnessed how suddenly your life can change for the better, yet you still are filled with fear. Relax; there is nothing beyond you for you are ever in My care. I have not left you. I have not sent you to your doom. I have used you for the betterment of another. How well you have served Me and I will not forget. In the eyes of hope does shine your reflection. Don't despair for your seeming loss of life. The life you lost was not what fulfilled you nor sustained you. You have given a new hope to another. Be glad for you have done well. If never you do another thing, this is blessing enough. But, I AM greedy and your talents shall not be wasted. Now set upon the path of experience and healing, you have brought the world another healer. Rejoice for the world celebrates this great gift.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Love is all there is and all that is needed. Allow love to flow to and away from you always. From this loving flow comes all goodness and prayerful happiness. Let the world not concern you for you are not of the world. The world holds nothing over you. You are not here for the world, but for the souls in it. You are here to help others learn the value of truth and honesty. You are here to teach the beauty of each person and the gifts of all. Each one has a part to play and gifts to give. Let them know their impact and be connected to all others. Teach the beauty of connectedness. Teach the power of the joint force. For one is limited, but the group is very powerful. Teach the souls to love and they will be transformed. Give them purpose and they will become powerful. Teach them to rule the world and not be victims within it.

Your words are heard, but no connection found. We cannot see what is not shown.

There are many, but not necessarily those whom you would choose. On many levels, you have success. On other levels you have failures. No life is perfect. Don't put so many burdens upon yourself. Live and let live.

It would appear that you have given us a house to build, the tools and supplies, but not the place to build it. Why have you brought us to this desire and not made its completion possible?

In all things there is great wisdom. Let yourself be ready when the place becomes available. You know not the time or place. You know only that you must be ready when the call is heard.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Thank you for taking the time to listen. I honor your time of reception and your attempts at not forcing results. As you have well learned, you cannot force results for they must flow naturally to you. By allowing and being open, you put yourself in a position to receive, which is surely the best position to receive what you truly want. By stirring the pot, you do nothing except offer confusion to the mix and disrupt the peaceful flow toward you. Do not ever again think that you can force desired results. What you imagine as desired is generally not the solution that is best for you. For all the wrong reasons, you will always choose the path of least worry. You will choose based on fears and seek that which you think will offer the greatest remedies to your worries. Let it be said that what you choose is very limited. You will not choose based on all possibilities because you are not capable of knowing all possibilities. Therefore, it is best to allow all possibilities to come to you rather than choose the most limited of all possibilities. Remember always, that you know not what you do. Seek to have a more spiritual vision and try to not assume what is best in any situation. You do not know what is best, so why worry and waste time trying to figure it out? It is impossible for you to know.

St. John did explain it, but not to your taste. Those who have great mystical experiences need no convincing. Those who are not so fortunate have not the foreknowledge to understand. Is it possible that every soul have visions? No, so how will you teach them so that they understand? Give the St. John book to a thousand people and only a very few will gain from it. It is not for everyone. The construction worker and waitress often do not have the time or resources to contemplate the mysteries of God. How will you teach them?

This is our issue and all of our learning is focused upon it. This is why you have been given the specific direction toward modest learning. You are not a God scholar – there is no such thing. You do not have the capabilities. None of you do. What is of benefit to regular people is to learn about God just as you have, only in a more simplistic way. Intellectuals can read and make their own decisions. But for the majority, smaller bites are preferable. Don't feed a baby a whole pie for it wastes the pie and makes the baby sick. But, bring God to the people, allow them to feel comfortable with God personally, so taking away their dependence upon others. No one needs a preacher for God comes equally to all. Teach My people this. Going to church or practicing a religion should enhance the experience of God. The experience of God should not depend upon any rituals, practices, dogmas, or any man made creations.

Always, I AM with you. Don't imagine it to come as you expect. Don't allow what you see to determine your judgments about your situation. Let Me show you how things really are. Remember that all of your associations are vitally important and must be just right to accomplish our goals. True independence of alliances must be had by you for complete objectivity. You are not pushing any one thing, but all things. You must be completely independent.
**Chapter 29 - Destiny Rules Regardless Of Your Pursuits**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

You are no longer ignorant of the ego, yet it controls you to this day. Still you fight the ego, even as you know it to be. You have yet the larger steps to take which do involve going beyond the ego's selfish influences. You have not arrived at Oneness, but you at least know how to get there.

But, still we see your examples and still they are burdened with ego. Who among us has no ego?

The level of your ascension is determined by your choosing. This is not to say that only by a Christ-like nature will you succeed. Not all are able to serve God without selfishness. This is for the very few. And, it is easy to have ego issues especially when you become "important" in the eyes of man. The accolades do cloud judgment and cause you to feel important. But the "mighty" do fall when true purpose is forgotten and selfishness does again over take. This is the nature of man, to forget how you got to where you are and somehow assume that you are simply who you are. There are many who struggle to make it and forget all the hard steps to the top. I assure you that the tide does turn and the "mighty" do fall. Do remember that you have not walked alone. You are nothing more than the cumulative effect of the masses. Never was there a time when you were great of your own devices. Greatness comes from others and it is not an isolated thing. Let not your ego fool you. You are what you are because of the brothers with you. How great can a ruler be if his minions were not in support?

So, how do we remember always that our brother is our keeper?

Remind yourself daily. Never see yourself as the perfect island of strength and salvation that you imagine yourself to be.

It would appear that our brothers have not called to us for teaching. What must we do to be what our brothers need?

There are many brothers in this life. You see not any number of them as greater than the one. Help the one and you help all.

What determines the number to be helped?

It is written, according to all plans, how many will be helped. Do you imagine still that you are read for the work that you are called to do? Would you rush to the shore assuming that you could conquer the ocean? Perhaps you would need swimming lessons and surely boating lessons. A life guard would be your best accessory.

But, you have sent no life guard, or perhaps you have sent us to be the life guard for another.

Would you choose to set another upon God's path and be satisfied?

If it be so, then so be it. But, it would seem that we have lost all that was given to us and what was the purpose of all the learning if only to be sidelined?

One does not exclude the other. It is difficult to be the supporter, especially if you are drawn to leadership. You know in your heart that you are merely waiting in the wings to spring forth upon the world. So, be satisfied to lead or support as you are called. Leave better for those whom you have supported and know that you have given more than you have taken.

Surely, you are more aware, but not totally aware of all. You catch mere glimpses at this point, but surely you see things on a broader landscape than ever before. You are now aware of the thousands, in fact millions of people with whom you do interact. Your vision has been expanded greatly.

By virtue of globalized communication, we can more clearly see the interactions of all. But, in olden times, how could it be understood that all were connected?

It was surely more difficult. But with material connectedness you can now begin to imagine how spiritual connection occurs. Can it be that a physical thing is required for your connection? You, a human, would be without connectedness were it not for satellites? Oh please, you humans flatter yourselves.

Surely, we do see better, with greater physical vision. The fact that we can instantly physically communicate with almost everyone on earth does bring forth a greater sense of connectedness. Why is it still so difficult to imagine a spiritual connection?

You demand proof of everything. You put more importance on the physical because it is provable to you. You explain away the spiritual as somehow a fluke form the physical.

Why are we, even if aware, not more spiritual? We can choose to contact others spiritually, but get no obvious response.

Don't confuse mental with spiritual. This is a great mistake. Mental energy is a force, but not on the same wavelength as spiritual energy. You can choose to eat food, but have no concept of the spiritual energy involved.

Well, explain it please.

You don't imagine that there is living energy within each of the rice kernels that you eat. Consuming a living thing is a transference of energy.

We do tend to see rice as something without life.

Your eyes see no movement so you see no life. If you could see with spiritual glasses, you would be amazed. Mental energy is a force from within the physical. Surely, physical energy does exist, but is rather different in scope than spiritual energy. The physical is limited, but spiritual is not.

We understand this concept, but cannot seem to get into the spiritual energy zone. How can we connect with spirit and know the connection?

Feelings are physical, but on some level do pick up on the spiritual. Somehow you just know something. Not thinking about something, you just somehow know. What has given you this knowing?

We seem to be rather bad at recognizing knowings. We tend to know things that absolutely have nothing to do with now. Or in fact, ever.

Is there a time limit on knowing? Perhaps you have confused wishing with knowing. Logic is not knowing. It is almost like spiritual feelings. It is a dramatic, confident feeling unlike all others. Generally, more irrational than rational.

How do we know what we know?

It is a feeling of perfect peace and contentment.

We are often very confused about knowing. We think we know, but then it doesn't happen.

Then, you didn't really know or the time has not come.

Perhaps our knowings are thoughts?

Perhaps they are not knowings. Remembrance is a more likely term.

We're still weary of that concept. All of the "plan and remember" stuff seems to not be reliable info for us. If it is the real way of things, then shouldn't we be more certain of it?

Some people need less evidence. But, the thinker that you are keeps you seeking proof. You cannot explain what is beyond your comprehension.

How can we teach what makes no sense to us?

The avenue of teaching is given as is the content. What a person needs to teach is to him given the evidence. You do not teach blindly general concepts. You will have what you need to back up your teachings.

If we are not convinced, we will not be convincing.

Absolutely! On this you can be sure. But, there are teachers who have done enough research to eliminate some possibilities. Albert Einstein could not explain the universe, but he could make a convincing argument about his best guess. He taught what he thought with the rest to be proven or disproven. Those who teach driving skills have the knowns. Those who teach God have only theories. You will have what you need to merely open the minds to possibilities. You can't bring people to God; you can only offer them a common sense opportunity to seek God if they choose. You can offer them a different vantage point. Offer another view of God, one which people could be less afraid of and open to receiving. Where is the proof? There's none to be had. The words merely speak for themselves. The greatest wisdom is to teach people to think for themselves. It is not about shoving doctrines down people's throats. It's about bringing them to the well and then stepping back. Allow people to drink from the waters of life that which they freely choose. Sure, they may ask for your advice – your prior experience is valuable, but is not what will create their experience. People must come to the light in their own way. Souls are seeking. You allow yourself to be the flashlight in the dark that allows them to let their own lights shine. You cannot be the light for others, you can only show them the way to self discovery. See the masters who have all come to wisdom via different paths. There is not one way. Emphasize all of the different paths. You may want to explore the stories of those with less notoriety.

For instance?

Online are thousands of great stories of unsung strength and fortitude. Generally, these stories are not the ones you hear about. It's not about being famous. It's about self exploration and not wide spread discovery. It's the "little" people who bring forth the best examples for regular folks to be inspired. Once a person gains notoriety, they go into a different category. This is not about success or fame, but about personal satisfaction.

But surely, everyone desires success and happiness.

Surely not. Success brings burdens. Happiness, even if it involves great poverty, is still happiness. The person must choose their own happiness. Some television evangelists sell hope of prosperity. We teach hope for happiness. Prosperity is not the same for all. True, most people would like to have financial freedom. But, is it possible for the average person? You can save your entire life and still be broke. Saving for the future is a life of hope – hoping to live long enough to be able to enjoy the postponed benefits. Does anyone ever tell you the actual percentage of people who start a retirement fund and actually live long enough to fully use it? With the current instability of business investments, so many people lose their retirements at the whim of management. In one fell swoop, the benefits are lost. Not everyone can set aside enough money to plan for retirement. I tell you this, if more people lived for today to be happy today, more retirements would be guaranteed. Don't assume that your 401K will secure your future. All can literally be gone in an instant. This is not to say that saving is not wise, but don't put all of your eggs in the wrong basket.

Following your heart and fulfilling your dreams now will be a far more beneficial sacrifice for the future. What is here today can easily be gone tomorrow. If you find happiness today, then at least you have one happy day. If you work yourself to death living for tomorrow then you will have had a life of no happiness. Each person must choose for themselves. Life is meant to be lived. You cannot ever secure life beyond this very minute. Uncertainty waits beyond every corner. Know this and proceed accordingly. Don't spend thirty years doing what you hate just on the hope of happiness someday. Start today. Start younger. Realize that the world has changed and you are not meant to be slaves. You are meant to be successful – each in his/her own way, by their own definition of success. Decide early what it is that you want and proceed accordingly. How many lives are wasted reaching for the dreams told to us by others?

Your goal should be your own. Sure, how do the rich remain so? With a slave mentality – were it not for the workers, the rich would not be so. Do you think they can be independently wealthy? Of course not. What would do most to spread the wealth? Having more people take the initiative to create their own wealth. Everyone has the potential to create wealth. It does involve risk and hard work. Many small businesses do close, but many do succeed. We don't think of Wal-Mart as a small business, but once upon a time, it was. An idea created an empire. Simply working for others is not necessarily the way to lifelong happiness. If you are satisfied to work for someone else, so be it. But the truck driver who saves enough to buy his own truck will soon realize that working for someone else is a way to stay in poverty.

But, not everyone can drop and save for a truck.

If people would learn to plan earlier in life, it would be much easier. Everyone is in such a rush to marry, buy a house and have kids that they put needless road blocks in their way. A slight delay in creating the "American Dream" would offer a much easier way to have the dream. If a person spent their twenties working and saving for their thirties and beyond, then the rest of their lives would not be postponed till sixty five. You are far too anxious to be a grown up and be like everyone else. Look around at all the marriages of those in their twenties. You never walk away free and usually these marriages do cost you long term delays. If you have kids at twenty, then you'll be at least thirty eight before you can even think about your personal freedom again. That's quite a delay. Use the energy of your twenties to learn to be a grown up and enjoy your freedom. Don't let your twenties cause you to wait twenty years for the opportunity to get back on track. Start earlier working on your happiness for there is no rush. Besides, you make much better parents in your thirties. People are far too anxious to have it all that they kill their best opportunity to actually have it all. The cars, the houses, the children. All of these cost time and money. Go forth into the world unburdened and free to make better choices. If you do this, your lives will be more fulfilling.

Oh, but the call of love is the most overpowering.

Sure, because you have mistaken lust for love. Keep things in proper perspective. Satisfying lust will do nothing to satisfy love. Lust will be gone and you'll be stuck with needless consequences. Do not teach your young to assume that lust is love. They are as different as spiritual and physical. Hormones rage, but after the kids are here, lust fades to dust... Teach more maturity. Teach your young to separate the loving from the lustful. Sex should never be used to control another. It should be wisely and wonderfully and respectfully experienced. It is meant to be a gift, not a burden. Sex is something that does not cause grief in the animal kingdom. It merely is a fact of life. Humans have made it all sorts of things – a means of control and manipulation. You think like no other creature, yet you use the worst sort of logic to manipulate. All too often sex is used the wrong way and only bad results are had. Let's not point gender fingers for both sexes use it for manipulation and control. But, if you allow yourself to be controlled by physical urges, then expect less than spiritual results.

But, as you well know, physical urges are quite powerful and very much the stuff of life. Repression causes all sorts of problems in a more sinister way.

I have not asked you to repress, but to participate wisely. Be honest and natural, wise & cautious. For physical acts used wrongly will produce undesirable results. Monitor your motives. Trickery and deceit will often backfire.

Point taken, but can a twenty year old get it?

You teach repression and you cause unwanted results because you kid yourselves into thinking that you can manipulate lives. Why not try a more honest and open approach. Sex is a fact of life. Participate responsibly.

How can this be done without encouraging premature abuse?

Be honest. Good advice works better than trying to control behavior. Teach self respect, proper planning and honesty. Like you told your parents, while you are out, even for a few minutes, they cannot control your behavior. Why not teach the young to be more responsible? Sex should not be used as a vice for adulthood. The allure of sex is greatly lessened when the mystique is removed. Much like "don't stick your finger in the socket" will not teach you why you shouldn't, but the experience is all too revealing. Of course, teach safety always. Always be safe and don't forget the consequences.

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Be it ever established that you shall rise above your circumstance and will be what I have called you to be. Let there be no doubt of your purpose or its guarantee. Always be confident that I have told you truthfully. Never second guess your life nor any minute of it as all is perfectly suited to your purpose. You will be and do what I have called you to be and do. Isn't it quite the honor to have helped another reach a partial goal of service? Are you not gratified by this? You have given confidence where there was none and have caused the exhortation of many by simply being supportive. The wind beneath the wings is as important as the wings, for with the wind, the eagle will not soar to such great heights. Enjoy this accomplishment as if it were your greatest for you have given what was not before had – confidence and hope. Think in such a short time the service already given. How any have been gifted by so loving a gift?

You have recognized the service and have understood the benefit behind the duty. Just as a muse can be a healer or simply a muse, all occupations can surpass expectations. The purpose behind the duty makes it special. Why you choose to do what you do is the very essence of the purpose you serve. What separates the good from the mediocre? Desire and intent. The initiative behind the doing makes it what it becomes. A halfhearted effort does demonstrate a half hearted intent. Desire to be the best usually translates into the best results.

Not always – you know what they say about intentions.

Yes, and all things can be lost in translation from intent to action. But, a determined person will not veer off course.

As has our discussion veered off course.

The second act of life is one filled with soulful intent. No longer guided by the same old desires – the materialistic ones – the second act comes from the heart. The heart does reveal itself in ways once it is allowed (or forced) to be heard. As no other way, the heart of the soul does produce the greatest of all accomplishments. This is the true nature of man and does allow for the truest expression of self. When the heart leads, the world does react. Consciously seeking to honor the desire of the heart is the very catalyst that is needed to release the abundance of the universe. The particular call does not matter. Each has its place. What matters most is setting aside the desires of others and honoring the desires of the heart. The heart is not concerned about meaningless things. The desire of the heart is the truest and freest expression, without mundane concerns. Connecting with the desire of the heart and putting it first is the key that opens the door to salvation, abundance and enlightenment.

What is the catalyst after the desire of the heart is in control?

Still must the proper circumstances align. Ordinary people do extraordinary things. Enjoy the ride and know that all is well. Allow the realities to be revealed. Things don't always happen fast nor materialize overnight. See things as on the right track and know that the fun has just begun.

Why is so much time apparently wasted?

At the point of joining, the spiritual had not been realized and accepted. Spiritual development is more important and is never a waste of time. Don't look at your years based on material accomplishments, but rather on spiritual development. Much growing was needed, away from materialism toward spiritualism. You are on a journey of spirit and both had to come full circle to arrive at the proper place at the proper time.

But there is not seen so magical a transformation that the average person would see this as spiritual.

Remember, it's about yourselves and what you know to be true. Don't look with the world's eyes. See with your own.

We must be wearing blinders, as usual. You still have not gifted us with spiritual wisdom and vision such that we are able to overcome the worldly.

Surely, if you were to take off your blinders, you would see a larger world, in fact much larger than you imagine.

But we can't seem to see as you have described. We are convinced that there is more to life than we imagined, but still we have not experienced the reaching in and helping aspects as you describe. The interactions have been very limited.

Don't despair. You will see that you are reached from afar. Things do happen beyond your intentions. Things do happen as you will surely see. You need not worry or fret, life does provide wonderful opportunities for those who have so chosen.

Why is it so hard to know that all things are pre-planned?

Destiny is tough to accept because it takes away control.

Yes, and it sets people up for seeming mediocrity.

Only if chosen. But remember, every person contributes to all others. Every person serves a purpose.

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For every day is another chance for change. You know not from whence change comes nor when. Allow life to flow effortlessly to you. You will be called according to your destiny, not according to your wishes. In this there is great relief and wisdom. You can try valiantly to force life in a direction, but always know that you are not in control as you had imagined. And you can surely see that you do not know what is best for you or for any other. You can try to make life your directed orchestra, but the players have their own music and play accordingly.

But you have said that the world is all together on the same sheet of music.

But not everyone realizes it. Life, if lived more attuned to all others, surely it would be more harmonious. But when every musician thinks that he is playing a solo, the music sounds like crap. Learning to play harmoniously is the secret to beautiful music.

Why are we not more aware of this?

St. John tells that all learn to be selfless. It is difficult to join with all, even though you have an innate need to join into groups. But, small groups suffer much the same fate as individuals because they have not learned to be selfless either.

If all people share the same goals in total, why is there such divisiveness in the world?

Because the means of accomplishment are seen very differently. Some choose peaceful solutions while others choose force. It seems more important to fight each other than to look for common goals. In all honesty, there is selfishness which causes people to be isolated. When one group seeks to control another or to operate independently, then it seems that the inequality will remain. The United States system is based on both population and on equality taking both into accord. The balance of power gives the one and the many the chance to be heard. All people want to be heard. Suicide bombers want to be heard. But they feel as if their rights aren't respected, so they use the means at hand to make an impact. Find out what they really want.

But, the wishes of the very few cannot always be fulfilled.

But, the small groups must be given something they consider meaningful.

How? The powers that be obviously do not know the solution.

Of course they do, but the dollar is not served best by it. The entire world is dollar driven. Solutions are easy if people are the most important factor.

The world does value money more than people. Be honest, greed causes all sorts of selfishness. How do we learn to value people more than money?

If you saw people as asset value just as you do money and put people on your balance sheets as assets, your financials would look quite different.

Wouldn't that just inflate financials?

Yeah, but it would cause companies to put more value on employees. Make a people sheet. Base it on quality and experience. A company with a thousand entry level employees is hardly the same as a company with a hundred experienced and educated employees. Treat all assets fairly.

But people already feel that they are treated like numbers. People are more than numbers.

Are they treated better than numbers?

Certainly not. Land value seems more valued than people. People have become the least valued commodity. But, more experienced employees are more expensive. Dead wood comes to mind.

There is dead wood at all levels. Better management practices and quality employees would get a better result.

What's the point of all of this? Who is this message for?

For those who seek to quantify people and see them as machines. Always what I tell you will find an audience.
_C_ **hapter 30 – Be Open**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Well hello there. You've been distant lately. As always, you find a distraction and forget about Me.

Honestly, as St. John said in The Dark Night Of The Soul, "The more you chase God, the faster He runs away." Simply allowing you to do as you will seems the greater connective tool.

Hmmm, is this not what you have been told, to allow and accept?

Yes, but also we are taught to seek only God and put Him first in all that we do. There seems a disparity here – seek, but not so much. There is no all or nothing. It would seem that you teach us to be only open to receive, but never to pursue.

Yes, allow yourself to receive. Don't try to force receipt. Be open, but never demanding.

Yogananda said that we should address God as if He were a child - that we should be demanding.

Ok, demand all that you will and wait for the disappointment to follow. You do not know, so how can you demand? What is for you will always be yours. It doesn't change like the weather. Follow to where you are led and allow the best to come forth.

How strange are your ways. Certainly no one would have guessed what you had in store. It seems that you pick out rather least desired alternatives as the way to your wisdom. There seems to be no easy way involved. It's not the abundant path of least resistance. Your way seems to be the path of greatest resistance and hardest work. What are we to learn from this?

Humility and understanding. To be a help to those whom you are to help does cause you to walk a mile in their shoes.

We have already walked in their shoes.

But you have not dealt with them so closely – face to face. Equality will give you empathy. You will know their ways.

You keep us in decline and despair – even in the new opportunities; we must start well behind the previous steps. Always it seems that we start over at the bottom – again and again. What have we not learned?

That you are not what you desire, or seem to desire. You are one of those whom you have chosen to help. You are not above them nor are you beneath them. You are them and from this do you achieve great understanding.

How does this prepare us to teach?

Hindsight does show all lessons learned. As you have said, where you are today is no indicator of where you'll be tomorrow. You, as a shy person, must learn to deal with people – the kind and the unkind. You cannot hide behind the shadows if you are to face the masses. This will allow you to learn to not be so afraid of those whom you seek to teach.

Are there other lessons to learn from this?

Always there are lessons available to learn. Be glad that you have the opportunity to change your life completely. To be among My people. This is a great opportunity, priceless in fact.

Tell us of your path to our success.

Well, we have some basics to cover and then we'll be on our way. We need to get a feel for the people. You have been among the limited people of various cultures, but now you are in the heart of the masses. If you were to but earn their respect, this would be enough. But to teach them southern courtesy is far more invaluable. They have not known of your kind of kindness – southern hospitality is your greatest gift. You are in a position of little pressure, so you are simply to assist. The world does not stand upon your shoulders. You need only shine the light. Smile always and have fun. Do not let this be a burden, but a benefit. Do not think for a minute that you are to do anything but serve. Let not the burdens be upon you. Help is all you do, so do it with a genuine smile. No pressure, just pleasure.

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Behold, I come as a thief in the night and honor your works with great abundance of all love and generosity. I place before you the means to be, do and have all that you desire as you have chosen to serve the Lord your God. You have given in faith to others that they may experience themselves fully and live independently and confidently in their chosen professions. You have given confidence, but have none of your own. Would I leave you without what you have given to others? Would I not love you more than you have loved others? Can it ever be that a gift given is not given you as well? Fear not that you are lost and forgotten for the Lord has made you whole and kept you well within My loving arms.

Behold, I AM with you always, even till we are together in all awareness, without the perceived separation that now haunts you. Let your heart be filled with joy even before you have seen My actions. Know that there is nothing unfulfilled in your life and that you are forever in My care. Trust that through the storms of life I see you and know all that affects you. Know that I AM teaching you to see life for what it truly is. Life is a perceptual game of trickery and the more your eyes are opened, the more you will be able to see the trickery revealed. As you have sought to know My ways, they are thusly revealed to you. Let not your heart be darkened in these seeming days of despair. For none have fallen who have not been uplifted as swiftly as they fell. Trust that life will be what is planned. Do not assume that today will be as yesterday. Those who keep the faith that God is near will surely be satisfied. I do not disappoint in total, despite the short term appearances. Let not the weak moments cause you to lose sight of the whole.

Know that miracles happen every day and that yours is ever near. Don't see a setback as a bad thing. There is no bad. All are learning devices for the soul. See that these lessons are merely tools for your learning. Know that all are perfectly suited for your growth. Don't seek to make life happen, but hold open your heart and let life fulfill your dreams. You can so easily see how trying to force your will causes you to experience disappointments. You cannot know what is in store for you, so why bother trying to make something happen. All that is yours does come to you, seemingly out of the blue you are sent your perfect solutions. See that you are the perfect tool used by God for the perfection of others. Let your life be the clay for God's molding into a perfectly useful tool

You know not the needs of others, so let yourself be used by God as He sees fit. There is no circumstance that God has not perfectly caused you to experience. One day you will see the wisdom of all, but until then, you must trust in the perfect power of God. It cannot be that you are here for no reason as you have a very perfect purpose. Your will to serve is honored by God. Take heart in the struggles of others and know that ups and downs are a part of life. Don't be discouraged by appearances as they are for those who know Me not. You have been shown enough to know that what you see is not what is real. You know very well that you are well placed, even if you do not understand the entirety of the reasons. Do the best you can and never lose heart. You do not know what the next corner brings, so keep looking on high for signs and wonders. Always is the necessary direction given.

Love the Lord and all His people. This is your main focus. Let the Lord love you also and know that you are deserving of all gifts and grace. You are no less and surely will not be further disappointed. My saints have gone through hard times, but from these came great respect and knowledge. I seek not to punish, but to demonstrate the uselessness of your worldly attachments. When you have nothing else, there I AM still. I never left you nor will I ever. Without the attachments that you currently hold, I can use you fully for you are free to do our will. Love not the world and let go of attachments. I do not choose for you to be without. I choose for you to operate freely without being held by trivial things.

You cannot serve the Lord fully if you are clinging to life. This is what I would teach you, to let go of the world and your needs will still be met. You need not assume that by your wits you are saved. You are not the cause of yourself alone. You are at the mercy of the process as you have chosen to serve the people in the world, and then the world must honor your choice. Only by letting go of attachments are you free to be like Me. Attachments to rules and regulations are so easily taken for God's will. Until you are absolutely certain of God's will, you cannot know which rules to follow, if even there are any to follow. What causes you to think you know best? Trust that you do not know anything with certainty and you are on the right path. Only God knows for sure. Don't be so presumptuous as to assume that you know anything, for you cannot possibly. Therefore, you must trust in something – either the universal will or that which you choose to force. You either allow or struggle. There is no in-between.

Either way, you must know that all you can truly do is react. You take what you get and try to make the most of it. Of course, you have continually failed to realize that your plans are worthless and you must alter your plans daily to incorporate the latest inputs. You make plans today for what you think will happen tomorrow. Even though you have no possible way of knowing what will happen tomorrow, you take the approach of most likely scenarios and make plans accordingly. Granted, most things do happen as expected, the sun rises and sets, etc. But, there are also things that change daily. The unexpected elements that cause your plans to go away. Remember the two past hurricane seasons? How on earth could anyone have planned fully for them? You do the best you can and hope for the best. This is how life is. The unexpected elements keep the game in play. If you had not these elements, you would become bored and lose interest in the game. If you were able to fully prepare for all eventualities, what fun would the game be?

Rest assured that as soon as your life "settles" down, you are again seeking drama and adventure. You are not satisfied with boredom. You need action and you'll even invent it if you have to. A life lived to the fullest needs no artificial adventure. Jesus didn't need skydiving to keep His interest. Let your life be filled with fullness and then there can be no emptiness. Fullness comes from doing all that you can to serve mankind. For in service are you truly fulfilled. No amount of activity can replace this for you. You need only find that in giving do you receive. Resist your temptations to follow your own intentions. Allow the Godly intentions to carry you to where you are to go. Be not the maker of your destiny for you have already done that work. Trust that you have mapped out your perfect life experience and now you only need to experience it as you choose. It can be joyful or filled with sorrow. but the details are set.

Over and over I have told you this. Still you doubt. You cannot believe that this is true. But until you accept this, at least in part, you will not live the life filled with wonderment that you have designed. Take your hands off the wheel and let God do the driving. Over and over I have told you this. This is the secret to the happiest possible life.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Destiny rules regardless of your pursuits!_

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

To light the world with your smile and your compassion and humor. Your specific gifts are many, with your willingness and determination being at the forefront. You have many lesser gifts also, but primarily is your having chosen a life of service to mankind. Your kinship to Christ flows from this very premise. Your service is not necessarily the same as His, but certainly toward the same goal. You have sought to bring people to God and you do share this with Christ Himself, and so many others. Let not one be your sole example, for many have given of themselves to help others. Do not be distracted by your thoughts or the thoughts of others. Put your face toward God and I will lead you to where you are to go. As you have begun to experience, I do lead you every day. I have "reminded" you of things you needed to do when you needed to do them. I have led you to the places where your shopping was most beneficial. In your mind, it seemed as if you just "decided" to go in a store that you had not otherwise known about or planned to enter. But, you were suddenly urged to go in the store and did find super bargains, surprising even yourself. I AM the master shopping guide. I know where all the best bargains are.

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In an instant, your whole life is transformed, even if in your mind. Let not this day be one of discontent for a measure of self inflicted guilt is now gone. You are now learning people, not business. Your learning opportunities have come full circle. This is necessary to demonstrate your genuine love of people and to show you that service is more than you have known.

Your ways are truly a mystery. Has not much time been wasted?

If you see the past as a waste instead of a learning experience. Let the light shine before you and show you the beauty. The learning process has ups and downs. The sincere student will not run away when the chips are down. This is how you know who is sincere. Regardless of experiences the total backslide does not occur. There are more who appear to hate God, but they are the ones who seek the most. They are dealing with huge lessons and are surely in My sight. They must know that God has not done this to them, but they have chosen it as a great learning opportunity.

It's hard to have faith in God when your life seems to fall apart.

What sort of faith is there when your life goes smoothly? You must taste both halves of the fruit to know it truly. It is during the down turns that faith is most needed and rewarded.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

For there is great fun in the happenings of hopefulness. Will you let me show you the life that you have chosen?

Certainly.

The life that you have chosen is one of happiness and service, of love and support. You have always been very clear about your feelings for the welfare of others. You have always used your resources to help make better the lives of others and have sought to put your wisdom to the best possible use. Of course, the less than ideal circumstances have kept you from maximum benefit, but that is about to change. You need not let the situation determine the outcome. Demonstrate always the love of God and only success will be yours. You must have more confidence in God and not depend so much upon yourself. The rewards of God are far greater than you can reach yourself. Relax and allow God to show you the way. You do not have to plan for it. In fact, you would do well to not plan for it. Let it flow to you and surely it will be more magnificent than you could ever imagine. Let go of your fears and compulsion to control. Give not a second thought to how you shall live or what you shall do. Your destiny is assured and your path is set to bring all of your dreams to pass. Be certain of your wishes and let Me do the rest. You may not see in a day what is ahead, but trust and you will know that the powers of heaven are with you always. You need worry about nothing. Cast your cares upon the Lord. Know that I AM with your always. The world is with you also.

Please share with us your vision. Granted, we embark anew on a path not consciously chosen, but hopeful that it will be far better than any previous situation.

See this as the beginning of a new chapter. Nothing from the past needs go with you. The blank slate can be whatever you choose it to be. Make it what you would have it be. Make it happy. Make it filled with success. Don't bring forward the blues from the past. Bring forth an empty chest to fill with treasures anew. This is the new blank slate, so make it Godly.

That is a profound thought.

Yes, "recreate yourself," as Neale said. There are no preconceived notions and modest expectations. You can be whomever you choose. There is no need for you to be the smartest or the most responsible. You may be free to be who you truly are. Be grateful and giving. Be helpful and considerate.
**Chapter 31 – The Real Secret**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Hello there. How are you this fine evening?

Very well and you?

You know how it is with God, there's never a bad day. So what's on your mind?

What are you thoughts about Rhonda Byrne's book The Secret? If The Secret about attraction is true, then the destiny theory falls apart. The universal law of attraction cannot attract what is not destined and surely one would not knowingly attract bad things.

Have you ever wanted something for no apparent reason?

Yes.

Perhaps it is destiny causing you to think you want something or to remember your having it. The author did admit an "emotional" connection to what she desired and manifested. It could be understood that the "emotional" connection is the indicator of what you are destined to encounter. Is it not possible that what you desire is what you have remembered choosing? Desire comes from a belief in the having as a major factor of your life. If you are aware of your desires, which are the seeds of your destiny, then you do seem to attract what you desire. But, looking not from the vantage point of desire, but from the vantage point of destiny, either vision came from the same origin. Your life plan is what determines what you will desire and seemingly call forth. In The Secret, they do not discuss why it is that you desire what you do. They would need to go back one step further to more fully understand the total process. You are programmed to desire what you do. The ability to connect fully with a desire means that you have remembered it in the plan.

Destiny>>Remembering>>Desire>>Attract>>Manifest

Would we do just as well to simply live day to day and not focus on anything?

Certainly, the quality of your life is largely determined by your thoughts about it. If you have a positive attitude, then the experience will be more positive. If you are thrown about like the wind, then you will surely be uneasy. So, thinking has effects, but not in the details. The experience as you judge it comes from your thoughts about it. If you are destined to be rocket scientist, then no amount of negativity will change it. Your destiny determines outcomes. Your thoughts see it as good or bad or neutral. So, in this, it is wise to be positive and accepting of all things, just as the masters teach.

What about our chances for success if we do not connect to our dreams?

Success is relative. You will get what is yours regardless of your desire.

Can we alter anything in our destiny?

Nope. For to change even one thing is to change all things. You are merely here to observe and experience.

Will our lives ever become easier?

Already you have learned to let go of certain ups and downs. You do not take as much bait as you once did. In this, there is great wisdom.

Why does it seem that we are actually in worse financial condition than ever before, when you have promised us such abundance?

Time is of the essence and all things must happen according to your designated plan. The promise is there, but the time is not yet. Surely, circumstances had to manifest so that you would be open to the lessons to be learned. If you had money, but refused to lose it for happiness, you would have money without happiness. But, you have chosen to let go of needless attachments so that you could grow into the whole life that you chose. Money will not get you where you want to be, God will. Follow My lead and money will forever be a non-issue.

Pardon me, but money has always been an issue.

Then, don't focus on it. Focus on fixing your life toward happiness and I assure you money will no longer be an issue.

Is this simply a choice to not think about money or that it will be had sufficiently to not warrant focus?

Both. For as you have had great desire to be financially secure, you certainly shall. This will be your experience.

How can this be when debt is greater than income?

One shovel full of dirt at a time will yield a great well of wealth.

It hasn't in the past. Why will the future be different?

Your opposite is ahead. The callings of your heart will now bring forth what you have desired.

How can we know this is true?

If your desires are the remembrances of your plan, then they must be manifested. One half of your life was not achieving desires. The second half will now be the achievement of desires. Always it seemed that you were thwarted by life and could not achieve your desires – there appeared an almost invisible barrier surrounding you.

How will this be for surely much has to change?

It matters not where you start for the finish line is set.

When will we experience these winning ways?

Oh my little doubter child, have I not told you of the purpose of this? When will you trust?

We still have trouble hearing your words correctly. We have asked for improved communication. Why do we not improve?

Expectations. This is one reason why dreams are more reliable, but dreams are hard to understand because they are so far fetched.

Teach us to better utilize our dreams, if this is possible.

Any message for you will be received by you. You need do nothing.

Obviously we must do something...

But not until directed. I assure you that you will be, do and have what is destined for you even if you consciously exert no effort.

How can this be?

Your body simply follows instructions. You need do nothing. The plan will make your mind cause your body to respond as needed. You could do this in your sleep, as if you were sleep walking.

How is it that we have seemingly had to put so much effort into life if it happens automatically?

Everyone tells you that you are the ruler of your destiny. You must go get what you are to have. I tell you this – it will come to you even without your effort. You are always led to do what is destined for you to do. Neither by your hands nor will, but by Mine. Haven't you noticed that your best laid plans are always wrong?

Always? We have been fooled to think that sometimes they are correct.

So it would seem. But this is not true. You, if led and follow, will know success because you are always led correctly. When you seek your own means, you will always fail. If you listen, you will always be shown what to do. If you feel peace, then you have listened and followed. If you feel conflict or misery, you have not willingly followed.

This surely cannot be true for we have willingly gone to where only misery was beheld.

Did I say happiness or peace? There can be peace – you choose the happiness or sadness of the experience. Peace means that you have accepted your destiny. As long as you try to direct your life, you will not have peace. Peace comes from doing God's will – your chosen destiny. Your soul can feel peace while your mind races to and fro trying to second guess what is had. Your soul is peaceful about the new job but your mind is conflicted. Let yourself accept and relax. You have been ok and it will continue. Be not afraid.

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There can be nothing outside of perfection. All things work perfectly for your welfare and spiritual growth. Give God His due and let the perfection be demonstrated. I assure you that this is far greater than you know. Let the light shine forth. The worst is over already. Now, there is but a little hardship left in the new situation. You have done very well and have shown your good character, even under less than admirable circumstances. All situations are learning opportunities. Take advantage of this one and soar to new heights. Learn to be as those whom you serve. The wisdom is in the relationship of familiarity to those who have called you.

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Dreams are remembrances – whether you are aware of them or not does not bring them to life or keep them dormant. What you have long since chosen will occur.

**Chapter 32 – Wisdom As Needed**

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The ways of the world that you seek desperately to understand will forever be outside of your understanding while living. You do understand the concepts, but can never see the totality of all motivating factors. How can you know the soul's desires from all souls? Impossible, therefore, you can either continue to fight or accept. Acceptance will bring you peace. Only acceptance will give you the relief that you need to be happy. Stop struggling to understand for I will give you present wisdom as needed. Granted, you always ask and cannot be faulted for lack of interest. You are always on the game trying to figure it all out. But nothing so meaningless will ever make sense. You have placed far too great a value on life for it is not as important as you give it credit.

But surely it is either in our experience good or bad and there are things that seem purely to break our will, for no other useful purpose can be seen.

What is the point of your individual will? Are you alone here? Let go of your will. It serves no purpose.

Why then do we suppose that we have free will? How are the separate wills reconciled?

Two different experiences coming from two different places. What works for one does not necessarily work for another.

But are we not all the same?

Not in perception. Each person sees things differently based upon their own loves. What I may tell you is specific to your own best learning. Don't be so set upon being like anyone else. Lift yourself up, wherever you are, and be what you choose to be. There is no day that will not end and no situation that will not change. Be conscious of your thoughts – make life good – choose good always. Happiness can happen anywhere at any time. You are the catalyst that makes it happen.

So, You would not say that life is set to often thwart our desires and kill our will?

Surely life offers great twists and turns. How else can it be life? You would not have chosen this in the afterlife if it had not suited your best interests. What you are learning and teaching is the very purpose of your life. Perhaps there are many who will benefit from your dreaded tales of woe. Perhaps you are simply paying off some karma. Perhaps you needed a change, because you didn't like things before. There area million reasons why you have chosen these experiences. But surely, most of all, you can now relate to the common man. You have absolutely no specialness. What you get will be obviously earned. They will not be able to say that you have not walked in their shoes.

Who would say this?

Your students/teachers. Respect comes from an honest effort. You have lowered yourself, even unwillingly, to face the exact same challenges as so many others. Be glad that you can not be held as above the lowest. You've now earned their respect. Be glad that you have had the courage and fortitude to do what so many would not do. Be honest always. Earn respect. It makes for a great story.

But does it serve the world best? We just feel as if we have somehow failed to optimize on the opportunities given.

You cannot fail. You cannot succeed. You can only do what your plan has called you to do. There is nothing more to do. You are always on the right track, even if it feels very wrong. Misery does motivate. Seek to follow life's plan and do your best. This is all that you can do. Relax and enjoy.

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Behold, and now you will work your magic. Show them how great is the one who does the work of the Lord. Let no obstacles hinder your progress nor clog your path. Nothing is before you that you cannot easily overcome. Don't sweat the small stuff. It is easily done if you will seek proper guidance and believe that there is nothing to stop you. Behold, you have done what you would have sworn you could not. And as always, have done well. You have overcome a mountain using only your will. You did not let a small mountain keep you down – you climbed it and did overcome. What is there truly that can defy your will? Surely, not all mountains are so easy to climb, but on the journey of life, there are things which must be overcome.

Your dragons are not as large as you imagine, but surely they are unpleasant and seeming wasted effort. But as with all of life's experiences, there is a helpful lesson hidden within each. Let not the surface dim the color of the water. There is no wasted effort and no journeys not worth taking. Don't see your jobs as your life. See your life in motion, much as a river constantly flows. There are good flows and bad flows. But surely the river does not stop. It goes on and on until it has fully run its course. Who can figure the purpose of each twist and turn? Why would you even want to? Let life lead you to the bountiful shore of peaceful purpose and enjoy the ride along the way. Never have you been taught that life would be a joyous ride. You've always known of the ups and downs along the way. Be grateful for the chance to have seen the river flow. For the joining of all waters is truly marvelous indeed.

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How can you know the road ahead? Would you choose to know even if you could? Certainly there are things ahead which you would like to know and things you would not like to know. But how can you select to know only what you consider good? Let the beauty unfold before you. Enjoy the experience as you have set it to be enjoyed. Knowing in advance does not offer a better experience. There is always anxiety for what lies ahead. Why not just focus on now and leave the future to itself?

There are so many people who have gained by so-called mindless occupations. Whether you consider it mindless or not, it is not better nor worse than what you have done before. Before, you were in the background, a sideline player waiting to get in the game. Now, you are in the game – on the front line so to speak. You are not hiding behind walls – you are at the forefront of service. No talents are needed except those of good service and respect for all others. Let yourself be brought up on the front lines. Learn to deal with people and to not be so afraid of them.

It's not about winning but about learning. To learn the lessons of life and to not be what you despise. To learn that people are important and nothing else is. That's the point of this lesson. Again and again, it's about putting a smile on the face of another. It's not really hard.

Of course, in this world, there is no such thing as good enough. Always there is more to be done. You know this for even as good as it was, it was still not enough. You have faced this and very well know how they feel.

So how do we feel ok when we are facing "not enough?"

You must be satisfied with yourself. Give your best for that is all that you can do. Your value is only judged properly by you. If you look to others for approval you'll be sadly disappointed.

What dreams may come to pass?

Those nearest and dearest to your heart. Behold, dreams do come true and not always in the way you had imagined.

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Love each other with all of your heart and mind. Do not fixate upon what is to be done – remember, life changes suddenly and without warning. Let your life's choices flow effortlessly. Do not seek better for you know not what better truly is. Let life show you what you have chosen. There is always a perfect reason for all that happens. You do not have to struggle to find answers. You need merely ask and they are given.

The more we seek answers, the more they seem to elude us. Lord, how do we improve our communications with you?

You seek to know answers which benefit you not. You worry about trivial things and forego the larger issues.

It seems that regardless of the size of the issue, there are no answers. If lives could run backwards, it would seem that ours have. Surely there must be something profound in all of this, but surely we cannot see it. What is the point of going backward?

Does not even a train occasionally have to move backward when shifting tracks? The track you were on was not going in the chosen direction. Then, naturally, there had to be a shift in the direction in order to get you to where you want to be.

Where is it that we want to be?

In your best service role – a helper and teacher to the masses. Today is not the end of the road, but a means to set you upon your chosen path. Surely, you have not come this far to simply give up now.

Is it better to simply give up or keep trying?

Either way, the end is the same. You do not win all races nor do you succeed at every turn. Life is not about where you are but about what you are being. If you are collecting garbage with a lack of purposeful joy, it will be miserable. Be where you are and make the most of it. As you know, there is no other choice.

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Very good afternoon. Be not surprised by My calling you today. For you have needed an uplifting message from Me. You have cried for understanding and have been heard and answered. You are wise enough to know that what you see is not exactly what you have gotten. You know that on the physical level, things appear to be one way, but simultaneously on the spiritual level things are quite different. It is as if two worlds operate at the same time and your attention can be focused on one or the other. Choose which world you will see in any moment. You can see the physical and surely you will be disappointed. You can see the spiritual, granted with more imagination, and see that the entire world is not as you had imagined. If you see people as the bodies that walk among you, then you are making them what they are not. If you see them as true spiritual beings, then you will see the community in which you truly live and where your true purpose resides.

You are not here to save people. You are here to save souls from their unwanted ignorance. But, you must be first saved. You must learn to see the souls within the bodies. Once you have done this, then you can teach others. For surely there are no differences between you and what you do. It is not about doing, but being.

Demonstrate that life is not what we see, but what our souls feel. Scrape away the vast layers of physicality and let the truth be known. For the truth shall set you free. Not in the physical sense, but in the truest sense. Would a perfect God create something as fragile as a body? You see bodies as marvelous creations. But do you consider them perfect if they die? Anything that dies is not perfect – it is merely illusion. The illusions under which you operate keep you in prison because you have not seen from behind the curtain. Lift the veil of deception and see what truly is. Do not be fooled any longer by what you see.

But Lord, what we see is what operates and changes. What we may know does not alter what we see. What is the point of knowing that life isn't real if we are stuck in it and cannot operate outside of it?

Attachment is the difference. You attach yourself to those things that you see as important. If you realize the wasted effort of attachments to physical things, then you will lessen your investment in them.

But, when all else fails and no new answers or offers are given, what choice do we have? Are we to mentally zone out and disconnect with the lives we are leading?

No, you are just to appreciate them and learn from the experience that nothing is real. Don't waste effort here it is not necessary. Let go – I've told you a thousand times to let go of struggles!

So you say, but situations still exist where struggles seem to be necessary.

Learn to let go and relax and enjoy. All things are fixed in time.

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Behold, a new day dawns and the love of God shines upon you. Let not worry or hardship fill your mind. You are with Me always and I know that you are faithful to My service. Let not the world be your focus for it is merely nothing. Focus upon the souls like yourself who are much in need of direction and loving-kindness. The only hope for happiness is to help others feel less pain. Show the world that kind souls do exist and that they are ever in God's service. This life is not a contest to see who wins or loses. It is a path of service toward the goal of growth. Do not be distracted by the trappings of this world. They are meaningless and disappear all too quickly. What stands is how you treated others – for this is all that makes a difference. Don't be distracted from purpose, but go forward on your mission to save the world and make it more tolerable for all whom you will touch. There is nothing greater or lesser – there is only that which you have chosen. Let not your heart be distracted by material things for this will keep you from your best service. You are not here to worry and suffer – you are here to learn from your chosen experiences.

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And our latest topic is judgment. From this are all errors created. Write of all you know now to be true of this. See that from this one starting point does the world flow in its reactionary effects. Were there no judgment, then there would be no reactions.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Judgment is the true root of all evil_ _._

Show My children that the first step to happiness is to not judge anything, but to accept what flows toward you. Your judgment causes you to react and to miss the point of the entire life experience. Judge not – for this is the key to heaven. In all things let life be what it is. See all things as wholly perfect. Do not condemn nor be condemned. Without this condemnation are all things perfect and whole. Thus is the choice between heaven and hell. There is no in between. Choose one and you will lose the other. Choose peace or guilt – love or hate. There is no middle ground. Happiness is a choice, so choose happiness and you will see the face of God. In all things, there does exist the very essence of God. But by your hiding the essence beneath the layers of judged corruption is God's glory not seen. Peel away the layers and see God in all things. Only love is real. If you see anything else, you have chosen to cloud the face of God.

So you say that all things are perfect, except for our judgment of them?

Yes, do not let the clouds keep you from seeing the perfection in all things. The world was meant to be experienced and you can easily see the choices as made. Let not yourself continue to believe that the world is real for in this there is great despair. Let go of the perception of the world as real and you are free to have another experience. Let go of the notion that what you see is real for it is based on perception. No two people experience a thing the same; therefore, how can it possibly be real? What is real simply is and does not change, ever. What have you truly known that does not change?

Better yet, can we consider what is changeless?

Either way, but it is difficult to know what is changeless except as opposite of what changes. You have been taught to believe what you see is real and thus you find it most difficult to believe what you do not see instead. The reversal of learning is not easy. The mental training needed is tough, especially since it opposes the teaching of the world. Why are you so trapped by your beliefs? On what have you believed that you could rest your life upon? Is there anything or anyone on whom you can totally depend? What have you believed and why? Examine the core of your beliefs and know that you have built your life's foundations in quick sand. So what basis is there for a new foundation, ever changeless and true?

When all else has failed, mankind turns to God, because all else has failed and reason demonstrates that there is nothing in the world on which to base your life. Life, it seems, is finally realized for the distraction that it is. Regardless of effort, the world is never really changed in any meaningful way. Man chooses to attach himself to the belief that life is meaningful and therefore struggles to hold on. He attaches great importance to what he sees and can have. Instead of enjoying, he struggles and does ever seek that which he judges will make his life better. Never, in fact, will his life be truly better, until he is free to enjoy his life. Acquisition is a maddening creature and will keep man in the trenches of despair. For in his mind, there is never enough. In reality, there is always enough. But greed keeps some with and some without. What is the point of one having millions when millions have nothing? Judge this as you will.
**Chapter 33 – Detached Observer**

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There is no need for desperation, so relax for I AM with you always. It cannot be otherwise. Feel Me with you and know that what you fear is not reality, but the rantings of your mind. Stop thinking about what to do and let the answers come to you. You have all of the answers inside and know that this is not who you are. You are merely experiencing what will make you more valuable to My service in the world. You are being given the opportunity to live as the common man that none will call you blessed or privileged. The association with trials and failure will make you more related to those whom you will serve.

If this be the reason, surely you have taught us enough. Could you please now change the course to uplifting and happy times?

Have you truly gotten the lesson?

We believe so. Certainly we have seen the plight of the employee and how unappreciated they are, especially by their employers. Of course, who can say that any employee is truly appreciated? Employees are treated like office supplies – use 'em and lose 'em.

It's not just employees who get this treatment, although you have this experience. Learn to love people; all people for none are different from you. See everyone as equal – teach people to be more respectful of each other. Isn't it odd how people complain about abusive customers, yet they are also the very ones who abuse retail workers?

We would offer the justification that some workers behave badly and that customers have rights.

Given your experience of late, what would you now say?

There are good and bad workers and customers, or rather people who display bad attitudes. It's often hard to give one hundred percent all of the time, especially during those busy times.

Then be more sensitive to those who are on the receiving end of what you are giving. Be mindful of your behaviors. Behave more consciously. If you love your neighbor as yourself, how will you not behave better?

Sometimes it's tough. Life is full of tough times.

Surely it is for it is meant to be the opposite of heaven. How else would you know love without hate?

But so much hatred makes the experience somehow less beneficial, don't you think? When the perceived suffering is so much, people just give up and choose to quit. What's the point of this?

Each will do as he has planned. Each will live the life that they have chosen.

But how do we realize that we have chosen this and that it is not merely the hand of God or random acts of violence?

Can your entire life be random? Or is it the carefully orchestrated purposeful play in which you are merely a player?

Can it be that all of this useless nonsense is scripted?

It depends on how you look at the process of life. If life is truly meaningful, then you would be well served to script it. If it is worthless play, then what does it matter either way? Life is not everlasting and therefore does not deserve the credit that you give it. Be real for a minute – can life really be so important, yet so temporary? You hold on to a balloon leaking air. You treat it as if it were the only thing of value. Is it?

It is surely what we have and know for now. How could we see it otherwise?

Detached observer. If you were not so vested in it, then it would not cause you such suffering.

But Jesus suffered even with His knowledge. How can we do differently?

By His example, you are free to know the truth and divest yourself.

So, are we to isolate ourselves and live as hermits among the mountain caves?

Whatever you choose. Remember, you have chosen to have the play time for the experiences. Do you choose to experience isolation?

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Be it known from this day forth that you are the child of God and are forever held within My mighty hands. Let not the world cause you concern nor fear. Let go of the world and the truth will be revealed. There is the mundane to suffer, but the visions will make the journey more peaceful and pleasurable. There is no need to worry or fret for the guidance is always given to lead you on your way. Without worry will come all that you need. Planning only delays your progress and willful acceptance of what is yours. Don't use your mind to scheme, but rather to receive. Turn off the motor and let the engine run on the power of the universe. Struggle is not a part of God's plan for your life. See that each day brings forth new experiences and rest assured that you can never be outside God's loving protection and safety. Focus not on what you consider against your best interests for no real harm does come. There is never a situation that cannot be overcome in an instant. Allow yourself to hear the voice of God and know that life is but a dream.

It often feels more like a nightmare. You have not made life easy and certainly we are disappointed often by the way your plans are laid out. Do we ever see the beauty of your wisdom or do we simply reel from the sting?

There are perceived ups and downs. Why do you choose to focus on the bad rather than the good?

It is simply our nature. We were taught to live the war plan and prepare for all assaults.

And you have seen the misery of this.

What must we do to see your light? Many have seen your light, literally, and no longer have to wonder if God exists or not. Why do you keep yourself hidden, especially from those who seek?

God need not be sought. Why look for what is always there?

But the experience seems otherwise. Why do we feel as if you are hiding, especially if you are not?

The illusion of separation is the basis of life. Finding God ends the game.

Not necessarily, for Jesus did not end upon finding God.

The end of the game comes when you no longer believe in the game. Jesus entered life having remembered the end game.

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On to your questions...

What constitutes "belief" as described by Jesus?

Belief is what you make of a thing – knowingness is that which you have remembered as happening. What you "know" simply is. You cannot manufacture belief – it is something that comes from your being convinced. There must be a deep sense of connectedness with the object of belief. You cannot simply choose to believe something and it is so. Neither can you be convinced to believe something. You can be convinced to fear something or to think it real but belief goes much deeper. You know that you are happy. You believe that the moon is not made of cheese.

So, your beliefs are really a factor of what you are destined to experience?

Correct – don't confuse the word belief with the things that you are taught. These are things that are learned, but not necessary. Remember, beliefs are true objects of being convinced. The word belief has been used incorrectly over time. To say that you believe something does not in fact convey the proper message. You are taught that Santa Claus is real. Do you believe it or accept is as truth?

Of course we are taught this and thus "believe" it to be true.

What if you were told that no parts of a thing added together can ever equal another thing? Two plus two equal two twos together. Four is a separate entity. Four is simply what it is. What a thing is, it simply is. By adding more people to you, you are not increased. You may go from simple to group, but never will you be changed by adding others. Numbers are not real entities and should be treated theoretically. Two people plus two people equal four people. All of these are groupings of separate entities and no one thing has really changed. So, when you speak about belief, remember to better isolate your terms. Everything is relative. Language often confuses when assumptions are taken away. What is there that you truly believe?

What we see.

What has given meaning to what you see?

Our teachings.

Then, do you trust what you are taught?

Worldly assignments of names do seem to be acceptable. It is what we have to "believe in."

But, do you really believe what you see?

More than anything else, for we have no comparative alternative.

Does seeing make a thing exist?

In our minds it does. We see a chair and touch it. We can move it or sit on it. It is there and we do believe it to be there.

What if it isn't really there?

We do not have that experience.

What if you are not really here?

All evidence is to the contrary.

Why are you talking to something unseen and unbelieved?

Perhaps we want to believe and are looking to be convinced.

Perhaps you "know" that there is more to you than you see and feel. Having a knowingness about a thing should not be confused with wishing. Wishing is very different – it relates to a hopeful outcome. Wishing would not be necessary were you to know something. Do you believe, expect, know or wish that you will get up in the morning?

We believe that we will and expect to, as evidence has taught us.

But do you "know" it?

No.

Then how can you say you believe it?

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Behold, before you stands greatness beyond belief. Don't wallow in sorrow even a minute longer. Be prepared to be what you have dreamed. Let go of fear and reticence. You have scaled the mountain and have learned to be My servant. You have faced your fears and have dealt well with those who have come to you. You need now be more confident. Don't sweat the details as much. See that the world is not as concerned with hard work but with glad tidings. People want to feel good. The details of life swallow up the joy of each day. Don't be so concerned about the thoughts of others. Live for your own thoughts, as you would have the world be. See that suffering is not required. Enjoy yourself more and you will find that life will be more enjoyable. Let go of your fears. There really is nothing to fear if you are not concerned with results. Are not all alive just as you are? What is the difference?

There are different qualities of life. Some have achieved great joy in life for they have learned to adapt. How can we attain success and joy for hard work has not paid such dividends?

Hard work – think about these terms and tell Me about the joy in each of them. You see work as hard, requiring great effort. Even as you see others merrily floating along with little effort or concern. Are results what truly matter? Does perfection really cause success?

Some say that hard work is the key to success. Others don't care one way or the other. Should we not care about results? Poor work habits are surely not the answer.

If you knew that hard work is a guarantee of nothing, then perhaps you could let go – at least a little. Life is not meant to be hard. You make it hard by requiring hard work of yourself. Why don't you require easy work instead? All that is required is less intense pressure upon yourself. In the final analysis, the difference in the experience is largely what you have chosen. Choose easy work instead.

Ok we'll try that. But, should we be giving less than expected results?

You are giving more than expected results. The robot remark should have been enough.

But, how can we give less and stay challenged?

The challenge is to enjoy your life. Try that as a real challenge for yourself. It will be the hardest thing you have ever done.

But, at what cost?

What has hard work gotten you to date?

Suffering and loss. Fear and worry.

Well, let go of those things. Just enjoy yourself.

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In God we trust. Is this not your country's motto? But do you really?

When all else fails, we turn to You in hope that You will at last answer us and show us Your better way.

Why wait? Time is irrelevant except in your creations. God waits for no one.

Well, we try God first, give up, try our way, and then try God again. Why is God not more responsive? Why must a person be so desperate that God must be begged to act, and even that does not always work? What is really the point of dragging people to their knees before good happens?

Were it any other way, would you know your Creator?

Do we know our Father now?

You are learning to get in touch with yourself. You and your Father are the same.

We don't feel that same. We feel like total opposites.

Then you have much to unlearn. You have let your lack of understanding cause you to build up resentments. Your constant struggles have caused you to believe that what you do matters. You have tried desperately to live within the confines of the world's limitations. Only disappointment could have resulted. Let go of the past, because it was built upon the impossible. See that no effort is required and that your life will unfold according to that which you have set forth. Fighting will not bring you success or joy. Allowance is the process by which you will succeed.

But some effort is always required. You know this is true.

But you never have to figure it out. You know!

But what of the things that we do not know and cannot seem to find out? Living in a state of limbo seems to serve no purpose either.

Then surely the timing is off. Were you to be satisfied with what you have, you would not seek for what you truly want.

But chasing rainbows doesn't pay off either.

Chasing rainbows is more fun.

But equally worthless pursuits.

Then seek to connect with your highest calling. Don't settle for less.

But you have said that there is no choice. We will do what we have planned.

Do what you must. Learn from each experience. Know what you are called to do, you will do!

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Behold for thy time is at hand. Let not yourself be weary nor concerned for the Lord has heard your pleas. Do not seek to know what is beyond your understanding – merely follow as you are led. I will cause you to know beforehand what you have need of knowing. I AM with you always in all ways. Let go of your need to plan or control for these are the makings of loss and disappointment. All that you need is yours. This is what you need know only. Don't let yourself get carried away by things that need not concern you. For as the sun rises, so shall you know the glory of the Lord. For you cannot know Me as long as you are trying to force your will upon Me. Allow Me to do My best work. See Me as I AM.

But, it would seem that from our limited vantage point that You affect nothing. You seem to let us flop around as fish on the beach.

You choose to flop rather than know that I AM with you. You imagine that you are alone struggling to survive. Have you not yet realized that life needs not your cooperation? Your learning will proceed even without your efforts. Your thoughts are aligned with the universe and will flow according to the universal design. Imagine a world run by the individual thoughts of man. Chaos is not an adequate description of the mess to ensue.

But, the world does seem so much this way.

Trust Me when I say that this is not the case. What appears chaotic is really a master learning plan for the masses. Could a mess such as this really be the design of God?

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Let go of your attachments to approval. Do what is right for you. You cannot please others and even if you do, they will do what is right for them. Let go and trust that God knows far better than they your true worth. How can your worth be determined by those who know even less about life than you? They seek their own approval and are not concerned about yours. Remember, they do what they believe will serve them best. Selfish interests are from the ego. Let not the world cause you to lose heart. The world is a cruel and selfish place. And now all are more concerned with self-service and "The Secret." Do they seek to serve the world or themselves? The true secret is to give to others. Help others that the world may return the favor. Don't seek to gain, but to give. In this is the true secret to a happy life. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you, not as they do unto you. Give your gifts and rejoice in the gifts that you have given. Teach the beauty of giving, not the despair of not receiving. Surely the world does not return goodness in kind for who remembers what they received? Let not your concern be with what you received, but be concerned with how you may serve and have more to give? You do not know the circumstances that you affect. Don't look at your own circumstances and believe that you are what you see. Let go of concern, except for giving. In this you will find the happiness that you seek.

Are the struggles necessary?

Only to motivate you to act beyond your comfort zone.

But even when we step outside our comfort zone and take a leap of faith, what we had faith for did not happen and even greater struggle ensued. What must we do to connect with the circumstances for our happiness in great service?

You need do nothing, except as you are directed.

But you seem to direct us continually to less than ideal circumstances. What is it that we are doing wrong?

You are trying to force things. You must learn to allow.

But we've tried that and it has worked less well.

What is yours will be yours regardless.

Why is it so long delayed – over and over again?

You are learning to experience that which will make you what you need to be.

Consistent disappointment and the failure of our best efforts?

Your efforts are not needed, only your acceptance. When will you learn this?

What is it that we must accept?

That life flows according to a divine plan and that you can only enjoy the process or hate it.

Why must those who choose to serve get so beaten by life?

To learn that it is not life that holds the answers that you seek. Let go of the world and worldly success. Choose Godly success. Only God holds the key to what you truly desire.

You have beaten us enough. It seems that we cannot win in either world. What must we do?

Behold the answer lies within.

How do we get the answer from within?

State your truest desire and connect with that which makes you smile. Know that it is possible and probable and will happen. Your desires come before your birth. Reconnect and don't ever look away. Don't see things – know God. Know yourself.

When will we know for sure that we do not depend upon the world?

Now, behold the greatest feeling that you have ever had. Feel My presence with you now. Wherever you are – you are with Me and I with you. Take hold of the God experience and never be the same.

But we feel nothing different. Surely there is greater evidence than this that You are here and that we're online.

Draw near to Me and be open. Let Me show you. Draw to you that which is Godly and serene. It is there, but you must be open to it.

Please teach us or give us the experience. We're tired of seeking and choose to simply be. Show us that which You describe.

Open your heart and let love flow. God knows no other way. Pour out upon all mankind the love that God has given you. In this there is great joy.

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" _Blessed are those who are poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." (Matthew 5:3, NAS) Be no longer poor in spirit, but abundant in grace. Walk with the knowing that God goes with you wherever you go. You are not alone. There are twenty eight among you and you will know them now. Let not your heart be saddened at any time for yours is the Kingdom of Heaven. Know that life is for you to benefit the salvation of others. You are the glory of the Lord. Show others the secrets that you have discovered. In this there is great joy._

Who would look to us as their example? What can we teach from the positions that we hold?

Are you the sum total of where you are? Don't short sell yourself. You are not what you appear to be. Let your very essence demonstrate for others the sanctity that you have found. Don't let your circumstance rule your life. Let go of what you see and live by what you know.

But over and over do we fall into less than admirable circumstances. Who respects us for what we are or have accomplished?

You are not here to be admired, but to offer teachings of grace and salvation. Teach others to forgive for they also seek peace. Let your example be one of peace and love. From this there is no greater gift to humanity. The little that we seem to do can have great effects, even without our knowing. Teach peace and help others live by your example.

But what if they suffer as we do – with a great sense of hopelessness and desperation?

Teach them, as you have learned, that all things are temporary. Better times are ahead if bad times are had. Always look up and make each moment worthy of the effort that you have put into getting there.
**Chapter 34 – The Illusion Of Importance**

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Rare is the occasion when the world doth satisfy a man. Only when the man can find satisfaction with himself is he satisfied. Do not depend upon the world to keep you happy, for it is full of disappointments brought mainly by your errant expectations. For if there were no expectations put upon it, the world would merely be, as it is – neither good nor bad. Upon closer inspection, you find that the world is nothing, but a series of seemingly random events clustered together into a meaningless mass of nothing. There are not truly dynamic events which drastically alter the lives of all. There are some pseudo-magnificent events which the world proclaims as wonderful, yet they do not change the world at all. Don't be caught up in the illusion of importance. There really is nothing of truly lasting importance in this world. Spread over eons, nothing seems to be vastly important. The best efforts of man fall in an instant in the face of weather influences. Man can plan, but nothing is as good as man imagined. Man can fight to deal with the weather and prepare for it, but his best efforts often fall short. The unexpected and unknown play roles which overcome man's plans. Let not yourself be swallowed up in trying to control. The world cannot be controlled. Don't waste your time. Learn to live your life in the make believe world. If you are not attached to results, the world merely fades away.

But we live in this world, illusion or not. Were we to not care, we would be swallowed by another set of problems.

Problems come and go. What was a mountain yesterday is merely a mole hill today. Sometimes, the mole hill is turned into a mountain overnight. The point as always is this – disconnect from that which is undesirable to you. Disconnect from all worries and concerns – it only makes things worse. Settle for what you can change and leave the rest. You can change the way you see things. You can alter your outlook to be more positive.

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Which is truth – destiny or manifestation?

It can be said that both are true, depending on how you look at things. If you choose to look at pre-life planning, then you would say that you have set forth your destiny – a carefully scripted life set forth in cahoots with all others. If you choose to look at life as all choice, then manifestation would be your reality. Which do you suppose is the more accurate way of looking at life?

As we have not been able to consciously manifest, and perhaps it is from a lack of focus, we do believe that our lives are predestined. As most, if not all, that has happened in our lives has been not of our conscious choosing, we would have to say that destiny is more likely the cause. We would have to conclude that either everything is choice or nothing is choice. As all people affect all other people, it would seem odd that everyone is choosing all the time. But, there do seem to be occasions where things do seem to be chosen. These things confuse. It could be said that these things were chosen also beforehand and that we somehow remembered them (or somehow felt compelled to) attain them. As always, the exceptions cloud the rules.

If you were to know the truth, how could you play the game? Would you not rather that there was some mystery involved?

Honestly – seeking the truth has not eliminated any of the mystery to date. Certainly the mystery does keep the game alive. But, never reaching any answers does seem to kill the lust for knowledge. Why is it not seemingly possible to finally learn something truly useful which when applied repeatedly does give consistent results?

There are things that you learn which are consistently true. Human behavior is quite predictable.

Ok, so human behavior isn't rocket science. But spiritual truths certainly are. If the object of the game is to bring everyone to the realization that we are all one, why not give us the experience?

It's rather like the ripple effect – one person chooses Oneness, then another joins and another.

With all the openness of spiritual pursuits of late, are we any more spiritual as a whole?

People are not as dogmatic, but surely the younger generations have a better chance at open minded exploration. Previous generations were more harsh with religion – even beatings were had by those who didn't fall in line.

But worldwide – we still see great divisiveness, even as we are now so globally connected.

As long as greed is the pervasive factor of life and motivation, separation will prevail. But what if people joined forces and decided to promote everyone? There is still a great misunderstanding – it's you or Me, both can't win. What if it were not a competition?

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You very well know your destiny, but you do not know the means for how it will take place. I have not hidden from you My desires for you. I have told you over and over that what I have promised is yours.

But, nothing has happened in that direction. What's the point of this?

Timing is everything. There are things you had yet to learn. How could you well serve had you not experienced service? Do you not have greater experience than before? Have you not grown from this latest experience?

We have learned that at all levels there is no fairness and that people serve themselves. People are not interested in what is best for others. Selfishness seems to be taught and rewarded at all levels of life. It is less important what you know or even your character than who you know and choose to kiss up to. Integrity is very lacking and terribly unrewarded.

Isn't that so very sad? When people are more rewarded for butt kissing than for hard work – what does this say about ego controlling the world? People have not realized that butt kissers only do so as is convenient for themselves. The perceived recipients feel the ego boost, not realizing that they too are a victim of a sham. But, let them learn their own lessons. Selfish service has fleeting rewards. They learn to not trust just as you have learned that honesty is not appreciated.

We do so understand that honesty is not appreciated. It does seem that the world works on opposites.

If you know this, then why do you continue to care what the world thinks?

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Enjoy this day as if it were your last. Let nothing disturb your peace for you know that this is not your final destiny. Let your life be one of joy and fun. Find the avenue of peace and let nothing concern you. For you have chosen better and better you shall have. But this experience will be with you always that you may know the plight of your brothers. They go with you on your journey and suffer far greater disappointments than you. This is merely a learning tool that you may better know those whom you serve.

How do we move on to better?

All things happen in their appointed time. Be not concerned with when or how, for all things are laid before you. Let your learning be complete. Do not be dismayed or confused about your purpose at hand. For it is as God intended.

Show us the way to purposeful fulfillment. Surely we have spent enough time in merciless pursuit.

At least your entire life has not, nor will it be in merciless pursuit. Your time is at hand. Not here, but surely now.

As always, we have tried our best and again find the rewards less than matching the effort.

Know that the world does not work according to your expectations. The world is self-serving. Only when you are seen as benefiting someone's purpose are you given rewards. The amount of neither work nor concern that you give to a job means that you will be amply rewarded. The amount of benefit seen will determine what is given you. Everything is relative. Consider that rewards flow as seen best serving of selfish motives. There is nothing fair nor just in this world as it is not a cohesive place. As long as individuals run the show, no amount of honor shall be of it.

Point well taken. So, we're still waiting to hear about the next phase.

Keep focused and know that what you should know you will know. I would not leave you unaware.

Would you please give us a better communication medium so that we do not misunderstand?

Focus on feelings and know what you know. There are only feelings which are reliable.

But even they are not reliable. Our thoughts seem to confuse our feelings.

Don't think – feel.

But feelings do not help in large part. They let us know the now, but not the future. How do we know how to proceed?

Feel your way through life without concern for thoughts. You thought that your present employment choice would be ok. You never really considered all of the facets.

This is true. We simply look at the surface and try to do what we think best. Our choices and knowledge is so very limited that we are not able to fully make informed choices. Therefore, reactionary choices are our only option.

That's largely true, if you are choosing. But realizing that there is no choice eliminates the possibilities for error. Lighten up and know that to get to your chosen goal you must have certain experiences.

Why then are we so discontent with our choices?

To fully appreciate an experience, know it and its opposite. Duality – remember?

But, duality implies that there is as much good as there is bad. It feels as if things have been one sided so far.

Then know that the opposite is to come. Take joy in this.

So, we can rest assured that only good things are ahead?

Primarily, be ready for the opposite to unfold. Your happiness awaits.

What will be the sign that things have shifted?

Your feelings will reveal it to you.

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You need do nothing for I AM in charge as you requested. There is no one whom I cannot sway to your defense, if any were needed.

What is the lesson that we must learn so that we can avoid repeats of this?

Let not your concerns be with the world. Let go of what causes you concern. Trust that the Lord will carry you, even if you do not believe that it is so. I AM with you always. Don't let people's behavior control your life. Let go and let God be your master, for people will always disappoint you. You are not to carry the weight of the world upon your shoulders for you cannot. You need do nothing, but be aware of how you are affected by the behavior of others and how you absorb their behavior upon yourself. Know that each one has an agenda and that you cannot save yourself or anyone else from the selfishness of the world. Let Me handle for you that which you cannot control.

Let not the world get the better of you. Do what is right for you and you will be saved. This is not the end all be all of life. Your history has caused you to be concerned for everything. Let Me handle all things – for greater AM I than anything you face.

Situations are not always as they seem and don't give more importance to things than they deserve. Have faith in the eternal goodness of man. Behold, you are Mine and I will show you that greater is in you than is in the world. Trust Me!

Why does one seek to make miserable everyone around them?

Misery loves company, as you well know. A selfish frame of mind does seek to spread the wealth of misery. Often, not intentionally, the misery does flow unendingly from the miserable.

But the makers of misery do seem to reap great rewards. Why do people not see that kindness is more rewarding?

Kindness offers a different reward, an internal reward. Let not the world receive misery in kind. As you have learned, people will sell their souls to promote themselves. They do believe that this is the way to self-preservation. You have learned this.

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Good afternoon and joy in all things. Let peace be your guide and joy be your focus. In all things think loving thoughts and give freely of God's love to everyone. In this life, there is so little love expressed. What a blessing it is to be a giver and not a taker. For in giving you do receive. Let your generosity demonstrate the grain across the current. Show that even when all hope is lost, there is much to be grateful for – for all is not truly lost. Lift your hearts to heaven and demonstrate that there truly is light in the darkness. Show the world that I AM with them, even in so frail a form. Do not be a detractor from God, but an example of God. Even in the slightest of seeming circumstances come great things.

The difference between today and tomorrow can be tremendous or littleness. What is the cause of the difference?

As I have demonstrated time and again, destiny or life plan plays the crucial role. Not all days are the same. You cannot force a difference upon your life. You can be happy or sad, but you cannot be outside of the plan. Don't fight what is for the world is as it has been planned. Don't worry about manifestations, but simply try to see the beauty in all things. Let love be your greatest concern. In this, let love flow unendingly from your vast storehouse. Enjoy what you have and do good for all men. This does bring great satisfaction. This is your God job. Teach that the world is not as it seems. Love is truly all there is, but it is very difficult to know this when life seems to get you down. It is hard to love when you experience unloving things. But, see the good in all men and know that at the very core is the same God that you are.

Why is the loving God inside us all not more evident?

With all that you have learned, you are still miserable. Think of how people see things from the unlearned vantage point? When a person truly believes that God has stricken them with all sorts of maladies as punishment, how can a person be happy? The world does not know that they have made their own choices, largely because they do not understand the process. In all things, teach them to love and forgive themselves and know that God is not punishing them. For God has no reason to punish them. I only love My children and I do not judge nor punish.

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Is there ever really a right cause for happiness? Doing what brings you happiness, regardless of your circumstance, is the answer always. But, this is not always possible so a little creativity is in order. Let's say that you enjoy travel. How can you work this into your situation is the question. It is possible to be a traveling salesman, but as sales is not your strong suit, you may have to consider other alternatives. Traveling for pleasure could be a part of a travel career. But, it's tough to travel without the finances to enjoy it. The simpler solution would be to be rich and then travel. But, how do we get from here to there? First, let's consider that to get rich, one must somehow have a passion for the work. J. K. Rowling wrote the ideas that popped into her head. Oprah did it via television. But, did they know the heights before they sought? Oprah wanted to be Mary Tyler Moore. She did that and far surpassed that goal. Why? People enjoyed her style. She started as a "real" person and people could relate to her. People play a huge role in creating your life. In fact, life is nothing without them. If you choose to be successful, you must have an appeal with people. You cannot just be rich by yourself. People are the key. You need them to put you where you want to be. No man is an island.

So how do we bring people to our aid instead of our demise?

Give people what they want. If they want it, they will pay for it.

What is it that we have which is desirable to people?

You have love and there is no greater commodity. People want to know love. They want to understand the nature of life which truly works from love when properly understood. People feel hopeless – hope is a very loving and desirable thing. People want the same things that you want – peace and happiness. Not all people of course, as some are still trapped in the love of drama. But, for those like you, the drama has played out and the games are no longer fulfilling. They are seeking true fulfillment. This is the greatest tool you have to share.

But, it is very difficult to relearn thinking patterns. For the benefit so far derived, we wouldn't recommend it.

But you have still not learned to let go.

Are we not like most people?

Yes, you have learned and reinforced beliefs that you feel have been truthful. In defense of self, you defend yourself, somehow thinking that this is meaningful. You have been taught that it is beneficial to be an individual with rights. Surely, being a number in a crowd is hardly rewarding. So, to see the entire population as one is the very opposite of all that the world teaches.

But, let's say that every television talk show host is just like Oprah. How many do we listen to?

See, not everyone is the same, but each is a vital piece of the same puzzle. You need Oprah and all the others. Variety is the spice of life and not everyone has the same tastes. Oneness does not mean sameness, except on the God level. Simply be more aware of common elements rather than differences. At the core of everything is God. A blue God or a red God is still God. So don't focus so much on individuals – take as example the military. Sameness is promoted, but each soldier is seen as a person, except in service. I'm not saying that I need God's military; I'm giving an example of the dichotomy of sameness with individuality.

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When the world has passed away, you will be just as you are. You will not be less nor more, but exactly the same. Only the pure essence of God that you are will remain. On this you can be certain and have complete confidence. Let not the world discourage you – ever, for you are not at the mercy of the world at any time. Your perception may be that you are, but surely you are not. For why would you give control to something that cannot control itself? The world is a place of trials and errors. It is merely for the learning of yourself as you are not. Let go of what you are not and know instead what you are. You are God's chosen teacher and nothing the world can do will stop it. Your progress has seemed slow to you, but think of the years it took to bring you to the point of hopelessness in the world system. You had to see that there truly is no other way and any investment in life is really futile. Once this is realized, then we can move on and learn to see life in a different perspective.

But Lord, we are just as trapped within the system as ever before – actually by the numbers, more so now. How can we learn to be free of this if technically we must still depend upon it?

Things do change and life goes on. Don't be weary of how or when, but know that all things are already taken care of for you. You have set forth a plan that will satisfy your need for freedom. You are perfectly placed for perfect performance and the brilliant teaching opportunities that you are given. Rest quietly in confidence that the Lord has you well within His care. You need do nothing, there should be no worry, fear, anxiety, or confusion. Know that all is perfect and flowing according to God's perfect will.

Let God do His work in perfect time. Surely you do not understand the timing of things. You see each day and even each minute, but you do not see all that must happen behind the scenes. Trust in the process.

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Well, today has come at last to bring joy into your life via your circumstances. Believe that all of your problems are solved and so they are. A kind heart will bring to you all of the help that you imagine that you need. The Lord has answered your prayers, so be no longer in the funk of disbelief. You are well within My care and are blessed beyond your imagination. The world has answered your call and you are now put into God's service. No longer see yourself as weak and alone. See yourself as the blessed child of God that you are. You are well within My care and are in need of nothing. Before you will have asked, I have answered. I AM with you always. Feel My presence surrounding you. You are not alone and are forever My blessed servant. Join with Me now in grateful service to the all. Watch Me work My "magic" in your life. For as you have chosen to be My teacher, so shall you be. Behold, I bring to you the beauty that you have for so long sought. Celebrate your having overcome the lessons seen so terribly unbearable. Know that God is with you and My hands hold your heart. There is nothing that can come against you for you are wholly Mine. I love you, know this to be true. I smile upon you. Feel My loving guidance.

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" _Let your light so shine that they may see your good works and glorify your Father who art in heaven." (Matthew 5:16, NAS) And surely heaven is everywhere. Let not your worth be judged by those who know you not. Let your worth be judged by those who seek the kingdom of heaven – for they are the ones whom you are called to serve. They are the ones who will show you the way to peace and happiness. Let not the destructive behaviors of those less fortunate than you determine your life or your feelings about it. They know not what you do nor the grace that comes with you. You are the teacher of God and are My holy child – having chosen freely to give of yourself so that others may have better. Surely, they do not appreciate nor even care about your service, unless it relates directly to them. Remember that only a few have realized the joy of all when joined together. Let not the masses perpetuate sadness upon the world – seek always to show a better way. Let your conscience be clear in that you did not contribute to the chaos. Don't lose heart when you see that the world is apparently a cruel and heartless place. Know that inside of each person is a God seeking to find happiness and joy as well._

It is most difficult to demonstrate happiness where there seems so little. It would appear almost dishonest, in fact. You would have us lie to cover the truth?

To lie or even believe that you can, demonstrates that you have not realized the truth. You still believe yourself to be the product of the world. Let go of this attachment and surely the truth will be revealed.

In truth, we have had no divine revelations. The truth has not yet set us free. We have sought desperately to know the truth, but it eludes us. What does one have to do to be the truth and free from the world?

All gifts are given to those who sincerely desire them. Do not imagine the world as for any other purpose than your perfect experience. When all is said and done, you will fully know the truth. The truth is rather disconcerting to those who are not prepared for it.

How does one prepare for it?

By keeping your attention toward it. Sure, it is tough, but the world will not let go of its hold on you lightly. One must be prepared to know the world for the nothing that it is.

But, we have given much attention to it and have not made any significant progress. It is exasperating to not be shown even a clue of the truth so loudly professed.

Yes, it is hard, but the desperation and resolve to no longer care are vital to giving up the attachment. The attachment is strong. You have no idea how strong it really is. This is why you must be disillusioned before you can be made aware of the truth. You cannot live in "two" worlds. You must let go of one and see the other as the truth.

But, you are asking us to give up the world that we must still live in. That's really tough.

No, you learn to deal with life given the basics, but you no longer are primarily focused upon it. Your greater attention and motivation will be spiritual and not physical – the opposite of what it is now.

Then things must surely change for that to happen.

And surely they shall.

When God?

I have told you in the proper time. Don't be concerned with things beyond your control.

But, everything is beyond our control.

Know yourself and how the process works and you will surely be in control of yourself, at least if this is what you choose.
**Chapter 35 – The Desires Of Your Heart**

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Let the Lord do His part – do not feel the need to help or massage the process. Let go of any concerns you have and trust completely in the process. All is set for your perfect progression. Do not lose sight of your goals and dreams – keep them at the forefront of your mind. Desire to be what you desire to be and let all else be of no concern to you. Do as you are directed. That is all you need do. For I will always lead you to where you are to go. You are mine and I have not forgotten you in another mindless job. Do not be mistaken or discouraged – I assure you that this experience is vital for you even if you see it as most miserable. I do not do anything to torture you, but do prepare you for your ultimate goal. Know that all things work together for your good. Disappointments are but learning tools meant to foster your growth. People relate best to the failures of others. It's always nice to hear the success stories, but better to hear the stories of overcoming the odds. Stories that demonstrate the actual role of destiny are the ones that bring hope to others. The person whose life is blessed from start to finish is hardly the norm and surely not a life meant for growth. This is not your audience. Your audience is one of over comers and successes by trusting in the process. You do not preach, but teach. Teach from the vast experience that you have. You are mine and I AM with you always.

You make things sound so magical, yet what we experience is hardly that. How can we better see the magic of which you speak?

Be aware. Look to see the lesson in all things.

Surely, this must get easier with time. How can we increase our ability to see the lessons?

Practice. Always allow the lessons to flow freely to you. You need not struggle. They are open to your receptive mind. You need only be willing to receive them.

When we try to be open, we seem to get nothing. Why are we so addicted to thinking?

Because of your teachings. The world would have you believe that you must create when in truth all is already created. You need only float along. Surely you can go through a day without the need to think. All that you need will come into your mind and will be there as you have need. In fact, you need think of nothing. Just as these words do not come from your thought processes, let your life be so. All will come.

But, there are times when we do need to take action.

Yes, and you will be so directed. Trust in the process. Let go of your need to think. You need create nothing – all has been created!

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Things do change and you needed to have done nothing. You had told me to give you a sign of what you should do, you did and against the odds it did pay off. Depend not on what you think but what you know. Ask and you will know what to do. Let not your thoughts get in the way. The answers always await your openness to receipt.

But, sometimes we feel as if we don't get answers.

Because only an open mind can receive. A mind focused on planning cannot be open to receiving. Be more aware.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Awareness is the key to a spiritual life._

Let your highest self bring forth what is your truest desire. Do not be led by your physical self. Know that what is your destiny will happen. There is no choice in this. So, why worry or plan? Be free to enjoy life.

But, enjoying life does involve true freedom. Not the sort of freedom that is really a mind trick. A prisoner cannot experience real freedom except by imagining it.

But, a prisoner has not chosen freedom. Perhaps beyond the deed that caused the incarceration was a desire to be without choice. Perhaps the pressures of life were too great and the person was not able to handle freedom. There are many stresses in life. You cannot know what motivates a person, not even yourself. You can somehow think that you have the answers, but surely you do not. Don't waste time focusing on things outside your potential. Look to what you truly desire and stay focused upon that. For your desires do call you to attain them. Like answering a call from afar, your desires are calling to you to be heard, constantly. Let not yourself be distracted from the call. Answer the call for it will not quit ringing. The world only makes it seem impossible, but know that all things are possible if are part of your destiny.

But, how do we know what is our destiny? After so much time, we're still not sure.

You know what you know. What is it that brings you the most peaceful pleasure and greatest excitement?

The desires of our hearts, but they seem but impossible dreams.

And all dreams do so appear until they are realized. Could Christopher Gardner have imagined his current life? Picture him sleeping on the floor of a subway restroom with his son. How could he have possibly imagined his life now? You would have called him a fool. He had a dream and the determination to see it fulfilled.

Yep, but also figure in the odds and it does seem rather foolish.

Yes, I agree that unless you see the big picture, which you do not. Do you believe that all of this has been for nothing? Do you think that you have suffered through this undoing merely as a way to add fear to your life? It cannot be. Please understand that life is for your betterment. Achieve what you will outside of your teaching and let the spiritual stuff be at the forefront. I assure you that it is as I have said.

But, there is not even a hint that this is so. On what do you expect us to rest our trust in what you say?

You know that writing is your passion, to share what you have so diligently learned. You have chosen to make the lives of others better. Why do you not believe that you will be given the means?

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Allow the Lord to work in every aspect of your life. Allow love to direct all actions for this is the key to true success. Let not worries nor fear be your companions any longer. Lift up yourself and be the god that you truly are. Doubt not the influence that I have given you to represent me to others. Teach others the secrets to peace that you practice, even if you yourself do not believe. In teaching you will learn. Give and you shall receive. The lessons you teach will benefit everyone. So, you haven't found perfect peace for yourself. Be not afraid for you will learn the secrets to success. Teach always My truths and you will also learn them.

How do we find peace?

Peace is a choice, like all things in life. Do not depend on circumstances for your happiness or your peace. Find your peace from within and you will have peace regardless of anything exterior to you. For nothing outside of you will bring you pleasure. Only love given and received will be what you find fulfilling.

But, love received comes from outside.

But only when it is received is it meaningful to you.

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Behold, I have come to you in greatness and glory to uplift you from that which you see as a burden and suffering. Let not the days keep you in merciless service, but a meaningful life that will be helpful to you and those whom you have chosen to serve. Not one minute of your life is wasted. Make every second count. If you perceive yourself to have needs, ask and all will be provided. I am not here to take away or punish. I AM here for your bountiful service. I know the needs of your heart and do not wish for you to suffer. I bring you experiences that will bring forth the best that you can be. I will make you the one who will bring peace to the masses. Let go completely of fear. Trust in God's will for your life and know that I AM with you always.

Why does it often seem that you have us go through tough times over and over?

Remember the lessons. Give up attachments held before in order to live the life of your dreams. Trials are but lessons repeated until learned.

But it seems that we miss the lessons, somehow not getting the point of the lesson. We try different things but nothing seems to bring relief. How do we jump to the lesson goal and truly understand that we do not have to repeat?

Learn to live by My guidance only. For in this is the key to happiness.

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When the world no longer controls you, you will be happy for there is nothing else. Do not be so concerned with circumstances for these always change. Let the world melt away into the nothingness that it is. For truly there is nothing meaningful here.

Within its grasp we are held. How can we step outside and not be affected by the world?

It's all a matter of choice. You can be caught up in it or not at all affected. You choose how you would live.

But, this is merely a reaction and by no means an answer to the question.

It is if you but know that life is merely a set of circumstances set for your spiritual growth. A master is not affected by the ups and downs of the world. A master has learned that there is nothing meaningful in this life. He has learned to let go of all attachments.

But, we must surely operate within the system. It is not reasonable for a person to be totally detached. This does not promote happiness. Surely we did not come into this life to merely sit among the other passersby.

You are free to enjoy what you will. Let your life be filled with all of the feelings that you choose.

More importantly, how do we get to where we know that you have destined us to be?

It's all worked out. Follow My guidance and you cannot fail to reach your chosen goals.

But how long must we wait? Lord the years are slipping away and hope fades more and more. The belief that we had in Your certainty is not at all reflected in our current circumstances.

Have I not told you repeatedly that I have you firmly in the place of your choosing to learn what you have chosen to learn? Don't be fooled by what you see. Know what you know.

Feel with your heart and I will tell you always what to do. You are never without the answers that you seek. Be of good cheer knowing that what you wish you will see. I have promised this to you. I will give you what you need. I will make you what you choose to be. Listen to the calling of your heart. I AM yours always – never doubt. Never!

Be confident in God and seek only My service. Don't let the darkness and despair of the world cause you grief. All that I have to give is yours. Know this. Do not choose fear and you'll have it not. Let go of fear. Be gone that which causes you to not be your best! Have a great day at work! I AM beside you all the way! Be blessed with My greatest gifts!

If feelings are the language of the soul, why does it cry for help?

Because, it knows itself as grand and it is not allowed to be itself. You have imprisoned it. Why not let it be free?

But did not the soul create the prison by choice?

Yes, because it wanted to experience. But, it did not only seek good experiences, it sought to know both freedom and non-freedom. It chose for you to have this experience so that you could know how your brothers feel about life. You can't relate to them unless you have their experiences.

How or rather when do we get to experience true freedom from worries, pain and financial struggles?

The time will come as prescribed.

Why is it that we cannot be satisfied?

Because you have not attained satisfaction. You still have expectations, unfulfilled desires and hope for the future.

Is that wrong?

Not at all. There is no wrong. Be as happy as you can until you can set forth on the chosen path.

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Well, you certainly have great expectations and at least you are seeing hope for the future. It is good to not expect specifics, but to trust that the Lord does have great things in store for you. Be uplifted on this Good Friday and know that no sacrifice is necessary. The Lord has given you all great gifts. Expect nothing but blessings and angels. Love the Lord with all your heart and soul. You are Mine and I AM yours. Know that all whom you encounter are but those who have called you forth. In all things there is purpose. Don't be so blind that you do not see each blessing. Remember that each does according to his/her own agenda. What they choose to do is directly related to their own experiences. You are not to judge but are to treat everyone with the kindness of God. In this there are great rewards and great gifts. People are often surprised by your courtesy, so keep shocking them. Show them what they should want to be. Behold you are god incarnate – is there a better purpose than this?

Is not kindness appreciated everywhere? Must we be here?

For a time – you must learn to teach wherever you are. For you have chosen to learn lessons about humanity. You have learned to overcome stereotypes and have learned to adapt to your surroundings. You cannot come to a place with preconceived notions. You must adapt to those around you. Let the world know that you are My servant and are doing My work. The world is a cruel place if there is no generosity. Not everyone has the time or desire to see outside of themselves. Show them what it is to be kind for kindness is the key to a happy life.

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In all ways, I have. You imagine that if one aspect is "bad" that all is "bad." Don't let your dissatisfaction cause you to lose sight of the whole. For in the whole can be seen the beauty. The kindness of strangers is not to be discounted among the whole. There is nothing that can cause you to be less than whole and all things are a part thereof. See the whole tapestry, not just one part.

Always we have been distracted by the one part. Were this not so large a part, then perhaps the rest would seem better.

Again, don't focus on the least important part. That is merely an exercise in futility. If you put less emphasis upon it, perhaps it would be less important and cause less impact upon the two thirds.

Have we not tried to do this? Have we not tried to overcome the bad and make all things good?

Not wholeheartedly. For in this you have still put too much emphasis upon the unimportant. Let go of worries and concerns and feel the major impact that this will have upon your life.

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Enjoy the process as well as the results. Don't let life get you down. Let it lift you up. You have marvelous words. Some of God's best messages are held in your books. Take them seriously and give them to the world. The world does not at first understand who or what you are, but surely will be known. They will question – who are you to bring forth the messages of God? Let not your fears or doubts keep My words hidden. Let My love come forth in all that you do. Believe in what you have been given and don't keep it hidden. I will show you the way – My perfect way to teach the world simple messages of hope.

Of course it seems overwhelming and impossible, but the one who is to receive them will and will be forever changed. The world will know the messages are from Me. Don't be concerned for what seems unknown. I will reveal to you what you must do when the time is right. Don't be discouraged. Be filled with hope and joy for what you have been given. Because you cannot see the future does not mean that it will not happen.

You have made the promises, but not provided the means.

Does this mean that I will not?

No, but you are withholding miracles and keeping us in doubtful suspense. Why?

The world has been planned and all things are revealed in due time. Your time will come. Have faith that you have set forth perfect timing. Would you have done all of this for no reason?

Some surely have not lived to see benefit. There are many books hidden from light.

Publishers have much to read in their slush piles, but it takes only one to be convinced. One will bring forth the miracle that has been called forth. What is to be will be.

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The world is a place of believable illusions. Don't let the world's disguises fool you into believing the illusions are real. The real world is no world at all – merely souls out to discover the vast richness of experience. Your sleeping dreams are filled with the impossible – just as are your waking dreams. Don't ever make the mistake of thinking that there are limits upon your life. There are stories galore of mystical and magical experiences. Miracles are spoken of every day. What makes a miracle? Miracles are created long before you enter this life. Miracles are choices made before you came into this world. So, yes, miracles can and do happen. They merely happen as foretold in your own life plan. Imagine, or rather know that if you are to have miracle, it is already set. It will flow along on its given course. Your only worry should be whether or not you have chosen a miracle in your plan. Don't think that you can now somehow add a miracle here or there, for there is no room for additions. A miracle is a life changing experience and affects many others. If you were to alter your path, you would also alter all other paths. If a miracle were to affect another deeply, would it not be also that they had it written in? A river flows as it does by the design of all of its creators, not just one. You cannot just suddenly impact the learning plans of so many by your new choices. All is agreed to in advance. You all have created the circumstances of your experiences collectively. How do you suppose that now you will each have individual choices affecting all others? If everyone brought changes forth each minute, how could there be any sort of stability in the learning goals of all?

But, it has always seemed as if we have choices. We can choose to go here, there or nowhere. Are these not choices?

You fool yourself thinking that there are choices. What you have not realized is that you have already chosen where to be and when, as have all others. Could it be that you chose to be born at 2:00 PM but your birth mother had chosen 6:45 AM? Somehow, there has to be a correlative set of circumstances within which the seeming world operates. You can choose to believe that you are making moment-by-moment choices or you can simply go with the flow. Realizing that there are no choices not yet made should be one that causes you great relief; yet, you feel somehow cheated. You think that by going with the flow that you are not important and do not count. But, what you would doe better to realize is that the "real" you has already chosen. What choices would the unreal you now choose if given the chance? There would be no "flow" to your choices, merely a series of choppy self-gratifying choices which would in no way advance you toward spiritual maturity.

But, it seems that this is also the course of the "flow." It does not feel as if there is some great master plan at work.

Because you have not taken the time to look at the whole. You look at bits and pieces and see no connections. Until you can connect the dots, you will not appreciate the flow.

How do we learn to see the beauty of the flow?

All is revealed – time lays it out for you so that you cannot miss it. A series of days does not grant you a proper perspective. Knowing the goal will reveal the steps taken toward it. No one chooses to be taught by those without great learning. Before you can teach well, you must learn to live well. You have not chosen struggles for the sake of struggles. You have chosen struggles for the learning to teach overcoming struggles.

But for all we have learned, we are no more able to overcome struggles. What then can we really teach?

You have learned that nothing is the end and all can be changed in an instant. You have learned that you are not what you seem and you truly control nothing. By letting go of the need to control, you are free to make the most of what you have chosen to experience.

But who wants a teacher to tell them there is no hope, that you have chosen this misery and you have to wait for your pre-chosen solution?

This is not the message. Teach them to see the beauty in their choices, each and every one.
**Chapter 36 – Chance Plays No Part**

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Be uplifted and full of hope for the future is at hand. The world is one of great promise and you shall know that I AM God. As only the world knows God, you will show them a greater picture than they have ever seen. Living by hope alone is not sufficient. My people must live with the knowledge that there is a true purpose to everything and that there are great reasons behind everything. I AM with you always and there is nothing as fearful as you imagine. Take back the power that you hold in great confidence. Be confident that there are no accidents and chance plays no part in God's plan.

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There are times when the world does seem a place of mystery and intrigue, but truly it is neither. The world is a very well established and organized place of chosen interactions. Those whom you shall meet you will. Those whom you are to teach and learn from are set. Be not so awe stricken by life as it really is a playground for the soul, to know itself as it is not. Be not amazed nor put so much emphasis upon it. Your fears are merely remembrances, but all solutions are given in advance, so truly there is nothing to fear. How many times in life have you been afraid for no reason? Have you not yet learned that fear is merely a waste of your precious time? All things work out regardless of fear.

Fear does seem to happen so that we will react to danger appropriately for self-protection.

But, when a fearful response is needed, you are automatically given that response. You do not have to be fearful nor worry.

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Let not the world put limits upon you. Love the world for what it is and know that it cannot hold you back. You are beyond all of its illusions of failure and despair. There is nothing that you are not nor can you attain if you will believe. You are wholly perfect and well within My care. Let not yourself be limited in any way. Trust that what you seek the world will give you because you have chosen it.

It would seem that the world has not so chosen to give us what we desire. How can it be that this will change?

There is only time to consider within the world. No other seeming obstacle stands in your way. You are perfectly suited for the place that you are and you are ok just as you are. Don't make the mistake of letting go of your dreams just because you sit in a place not of your dreams. Let go of all thoughts of failure for it is not possible that you fail. You are exactly where you have chosen to be for the exact purpose that you have chosen. Let go of your need to make everything perfect for it already is.

Why does it not feel "perfect?"

Because you do not understand. You want the world to be as you imagine it to be and never will it be. If you will allow yourself to see things as perfect, then so shall they be.

Tell us what to do.

Always this is given to you. Let go of defensiveness and judgment. Let people do as they will for they believe that they are fully justified in what they do. If your entire focus is to escape this place, then you will have no other concerns. Keep your eyes on the prize. Let the world melt away in the meaningless dream that it is.

This seems so hard to do when it all appears as a living nightmare only to be endured.

If this were heaven, then it would appear differently. You did not come into this life to find heaven, but to discover that you are heaven. You have come to learn that you are perfectly unaffected by the ways of the world – while seeming to be in the world.

But how is it possible that it seems so real, yet you say it is unreal?

If the illusion were not so "real," then you would not learn from it.

How many of the same lessons must we learn?

Until you are no longer affected by them.

Is that really possible?

More and more, in large part. When once every single detail caused you to freak, now you are learning to let it go.

But, we are still crushed by things which seem very important at the time.

Let it go. Simply choose to let it go.

But is it possible?

Possible, not probable. You still have not seen beyond the illusion.

Have you shown us anything beyond the illusion?

I have taught you, but you have not seen. You have imagined, but not experienced.

Why are you withholding the experience that we may more freely let go?

You would need to understand before the experience so that you can grow from the experience.

Are we ready yet?

Everyday ever near.

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When you choose the easy way, so it is. Know that struggle is not necessary. Your feelings about a thing make it what it is. Let go of the need to fight and struggle and the struggle is over. Go with the flow.

But the flow seems to be one of crazy flowing.

It's only crazy if you try to judge what is happening. Instead of acceptance, you fight because you do not like what is happening. It doesn't seem to be your chosen path. Sure, odd things happen, but if you accept all things as good, then nothing is really odd. What you think is best may not actually be. You have not considered easy choices.

And you call this easy?

There is no mental stress – except that which you put upon yourself.

But the physical duties are hard.

But not so much as to be undoable. How can you do My will without physical effort? Would you rather be lazy?

No, that's not the answer, but running is tough. The constant effort is hard on the body.

Only as you see it. Be glad that you can.

And we are...

So, don't work yourself so hard. Give yourself a break. Think about how to make things easier.

We try, but we don't want to burden others.

If you do your part, then they will help you. You are not independent of all others.

This is true. But, are we put to our best use?

Always. Every situation is perfect for you. You will learn what you are to learn. Every moment is for your benefit.

But it so often seems that time is wasted. Is it?

It can never be. Time is perfectly suited to your plans.

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Don't despair for God is there and everywhere.

The world does not operate justly. Why have You allowed us to make such messes of our world?

Because you wanted to know yourself.

But, we have not known ourselves truly. We have known ourselves within the landscape of all others. We have known how to react to others. Hardly an honest portrayal of self.

But, you chose it. You did not choose isolation.

What is this lesson that we must learn?

That your brothers do not see things as you do. There is always perspective. You must do what is right for you and be satisfied with the consequences.

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Let go of all concerns. Be uplifted. There is nothing for which you cannot overcome all concerns. Be strong and remember always that it is all decided far in advance. Don't be tormented by supposed uncertainty. There is no uncertainty. All things are predestined. Every moment decided according to your chosen growth plan. So relax, there really is nothing to worry about. Your choice is to make yourself the best servant that you can and to allow yourself to choose better experiences. Choose to see all things as pleasant and so they shall be. This is your only choice. In every moment, relax and choose always peace and happiness. "I could see peace instead of this." (A Course In Miracles, Lesson 34, Page 51)

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For as many as seem the days of your life, time is fleeting and not to be wasted. Make the most of each day and love the Lord your God with all of your heart. In loving God, you love all mankind for all are God. If love is your focus, then nothing else can fill your mind.

Let us know your ways that we may live as the loving masters of spirit.

When the world does cease to control you, you have mastered the process. When you do not allow your senses to be your masters, then you have learned to be as the god that you are. For nothing in this world is meaningful and all shall pass away untouched. For as you awake from the bad dream, so shall your eyes be truly opened.

If this is meaningless, why does it seem so real?

Because you have been taught that senses are real. You are born crying because you do not know how to handle the new physical experience. You are taught what is "normal," but you are not taught to be in constant contact with your true self. Your true self is not even acknowledged. You are taught to be what you are not. Thusly, you must learn to get in touch with what you truly are.

_The power of positive thinking is very helpful in making your days more pleasant. It does not, however, connect you to your God source. There are seeming levels of spiritual attainment (for example, The Seven Mansions as described by Teresa of Avila in The Interior Castle_ _,_ _) but not all can be had at once without shocking you. Take it one step at a time and know that what you will have, you do._

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You do well to relax and enjoy the experience. Let go of your worries and behold the majesty of being God's teacher. No person is unworthy of God. Let the world know that you stand for excellence and give them reason to respect your choices. Don't despair for there is nothing so desperate for your concerns. Take the ease given you and proclaim that the world is not your prison.

Grant us Your vision that we may see things as they truly are. Let not what we see control our feelings about the world.

Make not problems where there are none. Behold your day of greatness for that is what you truly are.

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Never in a million years would you imagine yourself here, would you? But, let not the seeming reality cause you to despair, for all things change. Change is the constant of life and you will not stay here for longer than your appointed time. I have given you the perfect means to escape the busyness of this city and all is according to plan. Be excited rather than desperate. For you cannot see tomorrow but know that surely it comes. Be glad that you have been saved from your nightmare. The method to the madness is always seen in hindsight. Go through the process and let the world deal with its own. You are not trapped and you are surely not without resources. Let the world depend upon itself, but you shall depend upon Me and I will make you happy. For all that you have dreamed will come to you in perfect time. Trust that you have written yourself a perfect escape plan. Know that what seems hopeless today can seem hopeful tomorrow. Step up and let the world be your oyster. Do not succumb to the pressures of life. Let the world not control you or your thoughts. You have nothing to fear. You are wholly perfect and I will rescue you from what you see as your pit. Life has its ups and downs. Do not believe that there is only down and further down. In a day, all will turn around and you will see your dreams come true.

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Let life be all that you imagine. Show the world that you are not some sort of pretender, but a real honest to goodness symbol for all to follow. By your example, others are saved, but only from themselves. The guilt imposed upon self in the presence of those who demonstrate excellence causes a person to make the choice between correction and defense. Defense is more easily chosen. As you know, it is much easier to accuse others as a way of deflecting guilt. Why would a person want to do something to correct their behavior when they feel it is perfectly justified? Every person covers guilt with persecution. "Only the self-accused condemn." (A Course In Miracles, Chapter 31, Page 651) Let not this be your tactic. Do what you consider right regardless of how it is perceived by others.

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Never does a day pass when the world is meaningful. Let go of your attachment to it. It only serves to give you what you think it will. Never more and never less. Until you know yourself will you feel trapped by the world. Until you literally give up, you will cling to that which offers you nothing. Simply live simply. Enjoy each day and look for the blessings in each. Seek to know yourself truly and to connect with that which is yours to behold. You can know what is yours, but you must first let go of what you think. Thinking is the downfall of man. Stop thinking and start living. For in living does happiness spring forth.

Surely there are reasons, but we know them not.

Sometimes the reasons are not so obvious, especially when they involve others. If I were to move you via the desperation of others, then you would not necessarily see the causes and effect. What on the surface may appear one thing, is really quite another. There are peripheral events which move others as well.

But if others fight the process, what must we do?

All is worked out in advance. Let yourself be satisfied until all is resolved.

So, creating huge debt is Your way of motivating?

If that motivates best.

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Let not your heart be filled with despair. You are never away from My care. Seek only closeness and I AM to be found there. Trust in what you know. You are not bereft of help. You are always One with Me. I will help you as I always do. Enjoy your gifts and be My shining light for all the world to see. The world seeks help. I have sent you to be a glowing beacon of the Lord. Be always a gift from God that you never seek your own.

Open your heart. Do not be filled with judgments or expectations. Show others what you want Me to show to you.

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All things are blessings. See them as such. Know that just around the corner, your dreams do come true. All things are abundant and life will restore to you that which will bring you happiness. Know that your time of misery is over and your satisfaction is at hand. Don't lose sight of each day's many blessings for in them is great learning.

As you have always known, life will bring to you great fulfillment. You could not see it, but you always knew. Your life was planned to help you see greatness, but first you had to see desperation. You have been shown that your plans are meaningless, but that the needs are always met. No amount of worry could bring forth anything useful. All things are provided without your worry or concern. You are led, willing or not, to where you need to go. Be of good cheer for you are the kingdom of heaven.

How do we get to heaven? It would seem that it is unreachable.

Let go of all distractions and it is revealed.

Is that really possible?

Were it not possible I would tell you. I would not leave you without the help that you need. I will guide you always to where you are to go. Be of good cheer, My dear, for I AM with you always.

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In all the world there exists a standard of conduct, but it does vary by each person's conscience. Also, circumstances vary by consequences. If you are starving, some would think it ok to steal food. Situations can dictate codes of conduct. What is right for one is not necessarily right for another. With the approval of others, one can eliminate questions of morality – depending of course on the morality of those giving permission. Do what is right for you and let all others do the same. Don't bear the guilt of others, for you have not committed their deeds. Let your conscience be your guide. "Do not judge so that you will not be judged." (Matthew 7:1, NAS)

It is difficult to serve those who only serve themselves.

I tell you that you should do what is right for you and leave the others to their own. Perception is a major part of life. Let the others have their choices, just as you have yours.

Always, focus on your best service to others. Do not let circumstances be your guide. In all things love, – for in this there is great peace. Trust that you are the willing servant of God and let peace be your constant companion.

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Behold a new day, one with all the possibilities that love has to offer. You are not stuck, but are free to explore new avenues. You have passed the test and are free to seek new and marvelous opportunities. You have given your best in spite of your trepidations and distaste for the chosen experience. Let not yourself be taken in by what seems like a lifetime of guilt and suffering and disappointment. Lift up yourself to the heavens and behold the world anew. You have willingly chosen to step up and do for others, now is their gift in return to you. Let yourself be uplifted on the wings of angels and know that the world you have experienced is not the truth indeed. See all of those who have shared your path as your angels, for they have brought you home.

Home is not a place, but a frame of mind. See the marvelous possibilities in each person and know that they also share your search for happiness. The world is a mystery to those who cannot see outside of it. Look beyond what your eyes behold and know that this is a limit upon your vision. In all the world, there is nothing of lasting value. Only see those around you as your saviors and your friends. Do not judge behavior for it is not real. See the struggles within the person and know that all is well within your sight. There are various trials and tribulations, but all are passing distractions from your purpose. Only the love of God is real. Call forth in all circumstances the love within you and know that you are bringing the messages of God.

Lift us up for we feel that we have not entered the magnitude of your service.

Make each day your mission field. Whether one or a thousand, the numbers don't matter for one person expands to everyone. Lift yourself up and know that My messages of love and hope are not hidden, but are perfectly received by those who have called them forth.

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Of all the wonders in the world, there is none better than a loving and willing servant. Self-sacrifice for the benefit of others is the most noble of professions. There will never be a greater calling than this. Know that you have served very well those whom you have chosen and be at peace with your choices. This will not last forever and this is not your calling in life. This is merely passing from one journey to the next. Do not put so much emphasis on that which is fleeting. This too shall pass and be nothing more than a memory. Know that the plan for your life is for the fulfillment of your dreams. Let not yourself be discouraged by the seemingly endless futility of your life's circumstances. Know that greater things are ahead. There is nothing behind you that is not but for the perfect purpose of your life.

All that you need to have and do is given you before the presumed need is in your awareness. Know that you are always drawn to that which calls you, even if you are not aware of the call. The world is not a happy place. Be aware and always listen to your inner guidance. It will steer you in the only direction for your purpose.

But most often, we do not hear your guidance.

Most often, you do not hear because you are putting your own thoughts in place of it. If you will relax and know that all answers are given, you need only know them. Don't try to figure them out.

The figuring comes from no clear direction.

Learn to put out of your mind your wants and desires. Simply allow things to unfold.

But there seems nothing unfolding.

Trust that the wheels of life are always unfolding new things. There is always change. Be open to what comes and not stressed about what doesn't.

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The festivities of life are always unfolding and you are distracted by the enfoldment of the drama. Why are you so concerned about the little things when there is so much to enjoy? Let go and know that the world is a place of games and trials meant for your experience. Why look for what you do not have when what you have is plenty? All the great things that you have desired are at hand. Don't seek, but instead enjoy. Find your joy in what you have right now. There is nothing that cannot be enjoyed if it is your desire that it be so.

Don't look for ways to serve. They will come as needed. Those whom you are to teach will come to you as needed.
**Chapter 37 – Hear Me**

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Why have you waited all day? I have been calling to you all day long, but you have ignored Me. Perhaps you seek to hear the audible voice of God, but know that there isn't one. You speak for Me. Your voice is the one you hear. Be satisfied with that.

But, so much of what we hear or think we hear is wrong. We have become weary. Skeptical, even.

Because you try to fix the answers. After all of this time, you still seek to manipulate God.

We try all known means to get clear answers. It would be better to get a clear "no answer yet" than allow us to wildly make up answers.

Try whatever works for you. The true answers are somehow known – you know when something is true. There is a peace about it.

Not always, we seem to have a way of complicating even the most peaceful of circumstances.

Yes, you are still trying to be in the driver's seat, when you need to move to the backseat.

Perhaps if you were more clear with Your directions, we would be able to relax in the back seat.

Get in the back seat and try with all of your might to relax.

Are we drones? Merely along for the ride?

You'd do well to assume this position as it is closest to reality. You set up the drive and hit auto pilot, yet you didn't realize it. So – hit the auto pilot button and relax.

If it were that simple.

It is.

Then why do we think that it's not?

You confuse doing with controlling. You see that your body must be driver, so you assume that you must drive it. Could you not let someone else do the driving?

We could go mass transit. But, that's no fun.

If mass transit were a more spiritual level, yet it could be said that you do use mass transit. The entire experience is mass transit, so to speak. Think of Miami – surely you are not alone in the collective.

Surely not. No where in Miami can you be truly alone.

So, you must make believe you are alone. No where can one be alone. Why do people choose the unpeaceful situation of big cities? People still believe there is safety in numbers. The truth is – the more people, the more problems. Choose a more peaceful life. Enjoy the simple things as much as possible. There is no fun where you do not feel comfortable.

We have gone through the motions – what would You have us do?

You have always been told what to do in advance. You have always been prepared.

But we have not actually known in advance what we figured out in hindsight.

Get more in touch with your feelings.

We don't know how. We have tried to focus on the spiritual rather than the physical. But, it seems that the physical speaks at a much higher volume.

You are just more familiar with it. To listen to feelings is hard, especially when doubt and fear are so much a part of your process. Peacefully knowing the answer does not keep you from feeling fearful.

We try to examine our behaviors and circumstances. We don't seem to get a knowing. How do we distinguish what is wrong from what is induced fear?

Fear is a reaction to your thoughts about a thing. You create fear and feel the effects. Were you to have no thoughts or expectations, then you could not feel fear. If you knew that you were going to get Job A and put no expectations upon it, you could easily assess your true feelings. Instead, you start thinking about it and analyzing it. Soon, you are freaked out and don't know how you could do the job or even think that you could want to. If you knew that you were getting Job B and didn't care one way or the other, you would have an honest feeling.

Is it possible to be that aloof?

Not so easy for you.

Ok, so what of our feelings of great dread about Job A?

When you are in a place, not of your true purpose, you will feel out of place. Always you have felt out of place. Never has it been your truest desire, to work for others. Your fears have kept you there, but never has your heart been in it. Thus, you always dread working for others. This does not mean that you were not there for a reason. It means that your spiritual truth is not served at any of those places. So, you must know that you are to find a way of being self employed. For there will your peace be.

Then why can we not seem to find it?

Yes, but could you have appreciated right if you had not fully understood your wrong? How could you have taught better if you had not known worse?

How many bad jobs does it take to get the message?

As many as you have chosen. Each one had a special lesson for you. You have analyzed them mercilessly. Know that each job has taught you much. You have given your best to each of them. But none was altered accordingly. Effort does not equal effect. Remember that everything is relative. You must do what is right for you and let the world judge it as it will. Focus on what you have to give. For surely there will always be detractors. Surely there will always be those with different agendas. You cannot control your own behavior much less the behavior of others. You can only do what you think is right. Focus on that. You see – there is good and bad in all things. Perception creates the experience.

For fun, let's say that some jobs really aren't fun.

That's true, but all lessons teach.

But do we learn from them? It often seems that we learn the wrong lessons.

Yes, if you look for whom to blame, you have learned the wrong lessons.

But would we not be totally absorbed with guilt if we only blamed ourselves for our misfortunes?

Don't blame anyone – not even yourself. There is no fault. All have chosen collectively. Either blame none or all.

How can it be that we just accept everything as good?

Know everything properly. It merely is.

Really, then what's the point and why not simply end the lessons?

You can, if you choose. So many others have done such similar things. Experience is the best teacher. Know that every experience is for the good of all.

But who has learned anything?

What have you learned from them?

Bitterness, selfishness and hatred - all manners of self-service.

But you are ever more opposed to selfishness, except that unselfishness is unrewarded. There are no medals for kindness and no honors for the honorable. If your only acceptable rewards are worldly, then perhaps there are some disappointments ahead.

But, we don't understand why some do get amazing rewards and some don't.

It's all in the cards – whatever will be, will be.

So, in relative terms, life is hell and is meant to be the anti-heaven?

Exactly. Heaven is Oneness, separation is hell. Can any form of uncertainty or unknowing be heaven?

This makes us feel like we've all sentenced ourselves to hell.

In a sense, yes. There are fleeting reprieves from your sentence, but overall – you wouldn't like a do-over.

Some people have great lives.

Great relative to what?

Great relative to most.

Problems are of the mind. Can not a financial crisis be as debilitating as a physical one? Are not those who are starving better off than those who are eaten up by greed? There is really nothing worse than total selfishness. When the ego is completely unchecked, misery is the only experience. How can a person so driven by greed ever be satisfied? But to the starving, a meal is an amazing experience.

Ah, perspective.

The ego does not give up easily. Self preservation seems instinctual, but is really a creation of the mind. You are taught that you must struggle to survive, but in truth you need suffer nothing. Greed has created the circumstances where everything is no longer free. All was free for the taking, until it was taken and hoarded. Now, you have been put at the mercy of those who are the greediest. They will steal or kill or whatever to have more of what they do not need.

In this world, how do we stop this trend?

The collective can fix it, but it won't. People love to be mindless pawns. They want someone else to tell them what to do. Thus, your dependence upon God and religion. You do not need God, you have all creative power. But as long as you all continue to seek for greed, it will not change. Imagine if all the world were taught to hate greed and know only love. Then, the next set of life plans would spawn from this loving nature until only love is left. There has to be a growth process toward changing the primary motivators. Greed and love cannot co-exist.

Is this possible? How can you convince the world to choose love instead of greed? All of the peace marches have done little. Wars rage on.

There has to be a point of total dissatisfaction with the world before the masses get enough. The world is almost at a point of complete communication. With this recent development will come great changes. When more and more people truly know what is going on, then more will be done. The world must unite against greed.

How can the common man even dream of such a thing? What will spark the change?

Innovative ideas. It's what built the world as you know it. A generous soul, unmotivated by greed can offer much to change the world.

But, who can resist money? Great ideas are always sold to the highest bidder.

Not always, but it is hard to resist temptation. The allure of great wealth does spur on greed.

Why can not the wealth be held by the non-greedy?

It can and there are many who hold great wealth. But those who have no use for money seldom are activists. They usually are unknown. But, you do see a resurgence of benevolence in the world.

But hardly a drop in the bucket. The best efforts of a few can hardly outpace the savagery of a few radicals of great greed.

The tide must turn. People must unite for the common good.

The numbers needed are far too great. People will kill anyone for a few dollars. Is it possible to give everyone enough to stop the need for greed?

If you had fifty dollars, someone would be willing to steal it even if he had fifty dollars. Greed is about more. There is never enough. Removing the need for greed is the key. Changing perceptions from dollar based to love based is what it will take.

We don't see that it's possible. Look at Cain and Abel – even so little competition caused envy from greed. It seems to be a part of human nature.

People are progressing – it may not yet be evident. Think of how much you have learned in so little time. People have left the community concept – two heads are better than one. They have grown weary of all others and trust no one. Until the concept of community returns, people will suffer in isolation.

Two families cannot even get along. How then can we save the world?

A great idea goes a long way.

So what are all of these great ideas?

Consider that if you were able to help another family as much as you helped your own. In turn, they would do the same. Much like the Habitat model.

Oh, but you know there will always be a kink in the chain. Someone will not do their part.

But, if their part was done up front, then there would be an assurance.

You know, it reminds us of how we train someone to do our job and they get our job and we have none. Where is the guarantee of this not happening?

The assurance and the debt are served in advance. Perhaps there could be a system of reward – like moving up in neighborhoods. If you helped build a fifty thousand dollar house, then you would be assured of a one hundred thousand dollar house. If you built a one hundred fifty thousand dollar house, then you'd get a two hundred thousand dollar house.

But isn't this like a class system?

Is this not also a fair earning system for those who want to better themselves?

But, who would oversee the system objectively? And who would keep it from becoming a slum?

All good questions. All ideas are welcomed.

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All is well and perfect. Be not afraid. The world is your playground and you are well able to enjoy it. Let not despair cause you to forget your real purpose here. If for no other reason, enjoy your life and have fun. The world has made you whole – it has given you the experiences that have made you the teacher you came to be. There are those who you have learned from and those whom you have taught. See that all relationships are perfectly suited for the message you bring to the world.

You must trust in the total process. You cannot allow yourself to be without hope for the manifestation of My promises. At what point will you let go of life's expectations and just know that all is well? Sure, regardless of the job – it is still a job. It is not a purpose on which to base your life. Jobs come and go. You do need support. This is for sure. But, don't put more weight upon a job than it warrants. There is no job so important that it should take your life. Even doctors provide a service and are not what they do. Your profession should be something that you enjoy.

Let's be honest – almost no one enjoys "jobs." Jobs may each have rewarding characteristics, but who only wants to be a slave to the world's capitalism? You did not come here to be what you have been. You have come here to learn what you truly are and how to connect with that. Know yourself as you truly are. Seek always to do what you love, but do what you must till you do what you love.
**Chapter 38 – See Beyond Egos**

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Don't let the others get to you. They have their own agendas and have chosen to fight rather than join. They have their own ideas about how to score success. Remember the adage, "Don't cut off someone else's legs to make yourself look taller?" In a selfish world, things must work for the self's benefit. The team is a means of failure when only selfish motives rule. At least, being the star of the team is desired – no one wants to be the "no name" person who supports. So, don't put your value upon others, for they will disappoint. Al that you can do is your best and be completely satisfied with that. Never will another person give you value, except as it relates to them. The world is not a kind place. The world is a greedy place. Consider motives – they see that what they do as right for them. They honor themselves only – they see but a small window upon the world. They justify and defend. Let not this be your mindset. It's hard to see beyond egos. But you have unlearned enough to see past the feelings of disappointment.

But Lord, surely there are those who can see past the ego, but there are not many among us. Would we not benefit from more of them?

Yes, and their numbers are increasing. But think how difficult it has been for you to try to overcome ego and you have more time and focus than most. Know that the heart of each soul is love. There are countless layers of protection added to help overcome fear. A child is not born afraid – fear is taught and learned. Fear lies underneath all negativity.

And we do believe this. It would seem that we would have to have an indirect relationship – nothing to gain or lose.

And that makes sense, but always when there is a connection, there will be assessed a value. Humans put values on everything. Even passing strangers are assessed. Were you to merely enjoy having passed another soul, your experience would be better. It is your expectations and valuations that make people what they are to you. The speeding driver is a pain to you.

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Be of good cheer. The world is not your enemy, but is your reaping field of dreams. You are among My people for the purpose of healing them of their delusions. How can you be able to help if you cannot rise above the circumstances you have imposed upon yourself? See not your situation as your own. Do not feel powerless to control your situation. Deal with great power your every moment. You have all resources available to you. Do not see yourself as victim, but be in control of the power that you have been given. There is nothing that can stop you. You are all powerful and must claim your power. Do not feel weak or sick or tired. Behold your strength to carry My light into the world. Do not be misguided into believing that all resources are not at your disposal. You need deal earnestly and faithfully with all your God-given gifts. Let not the world get you down. The physical only has the power that you give it. Do not dwell upon your supposed weaknesses. Lift up yourself and be the God that you are. There is nothing greater than your will. Stand up and save the world as you have chosen to do. Be My example – let your light shine. Let My light shine through you. Don't be swayed by the pounding of the flesh. Renounce its power over you and boldly declare that you can overcome all obstacles with power and grace. Let nothing stop you from your purposeful activities. Be determined to be joyful and be My living example of God's loving gifts. Let go of all presumptions. There is nothing that you cannot do if you be determined. Lift yourself up and go boldly on your way. I AM with you always.

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Let go of your attachment to the world. Let go and be free. You again are holding on too tightly. Does the world operate around your every little interaction? Let go, let go, let go. There is really nothing so important that the world rests upon it. You will be ok and are always in My comfort. Rest there. Let go of the overwhelming need to be liked or seek constant approval. The world holds nothing that you truly need or desire. Can the opinion of one or even two make you good or bad? There is only the opinion of self which is truly worthy. If you have done rightly, then there is no judgment which can stand against your own. There are no two who agree on anything, so let your actions be based upon what you consider right and let go of all other concerns. People come and go. Will tomorrow rest upon the opinions of yesterday?

Sometimes yes – as we have experienced it. The opinion of one has great influence upon tomorrow.

Only as you see importance in the effects of their opinions. Your life is based upon what you have chosen, not upon the insidious plots of others. They have come to teach you as you have come to teach them. Have you learned from them? What have you learned from them? Does one naysayer control your life? Why do you put so much importance upon the opinions of others, especially the negative ones? Are not the positive ones more by far than the negative ones? Where is the balance?

If you insist upon looking only at the negative, then you will surely not be helped. Let go of negativity. See only the positive in all things. Learn to quickly wipe away the negative as if with a cloth. Wipe it out of your mind, for no good can ever come from it.

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In all the world, there is nothing you cannot do. There is nothing beyond your wishes and desires. Learn to love the Lord and all your brothers, for in this is your happiness. Let not your seeking be for better – seek happiness where you are. Enjoy today just as it is. Behold the grandeur of each day and learn to be who you truly are. Don't spend your life seeking better – for better shall come to you in due time. There is nothing you need do. Do what you have already chosen to do and let your rewards come to you as they are already scheduled.

You say these things, but in all that we have learned we must seek better before better will come. Always the struggle to do better comes before better. Why do you tell us to relax and let go when obviously this is not how things work?

Have you not understood that better is predestined and will come whether you seek it or not? Which came first – the layout or the seeking? You have looked at things backwards. You have not seen that there is a natural draw which takes people to their destiny? The desire came after the planning. As if the dream came and then the means followed, look upon each example and see that people merely "chose" to go where they were supposed to go. The instinct was there, long before the desire or the means realized. Paula knew she could cook, but did she ever realize that her learning to cook was a necessary step to get her to her destiny? Which came first? You would think that only because she had learned to cook was she able to be so great a chef. I say that she had chosen to be a great chef; therefore, she had learned to cook. She was perfectly placed to have the experiences which would make her what she had chosen to be.

If a person is destined to be President, she will have the experiences which will best serve the purpose of making her that. She will not know that she will be President, but will have the deep inclination to head in that direction. Looking back on life, it is much easier to see all the amazing events which played out to make the person what they are. The more mundane life experiences cause you to miss the truly amazing things. But, if you are able to see each of the building blocks (unplanned) that caused you to go in a certain direction, you will clearly see the beauty of the process. Think also of the things that happen to you unplanned. Your life is forever the seeming random occurrences and the reactions to them. There are those also who seem to know early on where they shall go. One can imagine themselves a dancer and live as if there is nothing else. What separates the two who have seemingly the same start?

Destiny, for no two people's paths are ever the same. Let your life not be like anyone else's. For each path is unique. Don't look to others for guidance. Seek your own guidance and know that you will do what you have chosen to do. Some would say it is better to be lucky than smart. But, what is luck? Destiny. There is no real luck, you have simply planned and have gotten something called forth. It merely seemed lucky, but luck plays no part in life. You will do what you have already chosen to do. Look to see from the beginning what you will become. It is hard to make the connection, but all the signs are usually there.

But how does one see or make the connection to winning the lottery?

These things are more difficult to connect. But, the destiny of those who follow childhood leanings are far more evident. Yogananda was always on one very obvious path.

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You have every reason to be happy now – yet, you do not allow yourself the pleasure. Your mind is jumbled with all the negativity you can muster. Think only of good things. Think of positive outcomes and fun filled days ahead. Let life be a good thing. Don't let life only show you what you think is bad. See that everyday is a building block toward where you are to be. Although it may seem that you are not even remotely where you want to be, know that all steps lead to the chosen destination. Every step is toward the goal, whether it seems backward or not. You imagine ups and downs, but in truth there is only forward, toward the goal. What you consider loss really isn't. It is all growth. Each experience is to teach you more about yourself and your purpose. It's all about growth. And it's not all about you. You have chosen to help others realize their potential. It's tough to step into the shadows and allow others to shine, but in the final analysis, is there a greater gift of service? Allowing and helping others to reach their own potential is truly the gift of life. To teach others to be who they truly are is the greatest teaching that you will ever do.

Isn't it odd that one who teaches this cannot seem to incorporate the lessons? Why on earth would a person teach what they cannot learn?

You are right that you teach what you are to learn. Perhaps being in the shadows gives you the motivation to move forward and do what you are called to do, but have not had the courage to do. Your shyness and insecurities keep you in the shadows. You can gain strength in one of two ways – desperation or self-confidence. Desperation seems the more likely choice for you. You will do things out of desperation that you would never do out of self confidence. But, the definition doesn't really matter, because the results are the same. Confidence will come as is necessary.

How can you see that what has happened is progress?

When you see the result, you will see the progress. At any point in the building process, it is almost impossible to see the purpose of the step. But rest assured that your lack of vision at any point does not diminish the importance of the experience. Don't fight the process – seek to see the lesson, so that other lessons can be learned. Do not put the cart before the horse – see that the cart is properly behind the horse and both are moving perfectly toward progress. In all situations, seek only to see the perfect purpose. All things have a purpose and each purpose contributes to the whole. Each is a piece of a very large puzzle.

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The benefits of listening to your intuitive self are obvious. The more attuned you become, the less you will feel the need to worry, as the answers to everything are simply known.

But what is the difference between intuition and common sense? Are not we aware, based on experience, of what we should do?

Your common sense tells you a most logical solution – you have learned to operate under this guidance and except for happiness, it has served you fairly well. But, if happiness is a concern, then common sense is not always your best guide. Doing the "smartest" thing often brings you the least smart action. It may have seemed smart to follow a known path, but the boredom was so overwhelming that you hardly felt smart along the way. So, how do you know what to do? The still, small voice inside leads you to where you are best being. It is hard to learn to distinguish intuition from thoughts.

How can we learn to be better at recognizing intuition?

Allowing intuition to freely flow into your mind. Do not ever try to force it. Think of open meadows and the picture paint itself. Do not create the scene, but let intuition fill it for you.

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The world knows not you yet, but surely it will. When most you seem so little and insignificant, there is light that will dawn and the world will open its eye to your messages. Let not your eyes cloud your vision. See all that there is to see with true vision and hope. Let love by your guidance. The people are your objectives. It is not what you do, but how you do it that counts. Work as if you are working only for God. In this, you will find great satisfaction for the world will know you as you truly are. Don't let life get in your way. Be one with all persons – they are the fruit of your spirit. Feed upon their need to know God just as you have. They may not even realize their own seeking – but open their eyes to all there is. Love is all there is. Be of great joy and let love's light shine forth from you.

We see so little joy on people's faces. How can we help those who seem so unhappy?

Just as you choose to focus on the negative, so do most others. When one percent of life is considered bad, all of life is considered bad. This is the nature of the human thought process. Never do you focus on the ninety nine percent that is perfectly ok. This truly is a choice. In fact, you actually magnify the one percent to seem like the ninety nine percent. This is what you must change about yourself and demonstrate for others. See people who appear happy – is their life any better than yours? Attitude is everything.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Attitude greatly determines experience._

A pessimist is one who is constantly miserable. They have left themselves no choice. An optimist knows that some bad things will happen, but chooses to make the most of the ninety nine percent good. There are even those who can put a positive spin on negative circumstances. These truly know what life is all about.

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Let not your thoughts be filled with anything, but that which is of now and today. Worry not about what will happen or what is to come. For this only brings forth anxiety. I assure you that there is nothing to fear and the world will keep on turning. Enjoy your day as if it were your last.

Lord, if this were the last day of our lives, what would it say about our lives and choices therein?

Would it really matter? You still assume that life matters. You have not given up on the concept of life's importance.

If life has no meaning, then what are we here for?

Learning – the purpose of the classroom is to learn.

What are we learning?

To love and be loved.

Why is this so difficult to grasp?

Because you have so many distractions. You are not aware of what love really is. You see it as something like possession. It is not. It is about giving – true giving. Were it not for love, then truly the world would be a hellish place. But there has to be something worthy of keeping you in the game. Only love keeps you going.

It is upon the hope that we keep struggling to find something worth the struggle. Do we ever really find love and contentment?

When you let go of the need to struggle and have, then you will see love blossom before your eyes.

But the struggles are part of it. We cannot merely sit and watch love blossom. We have to do stuff – we have to earn a living.

That's part of the illusion that keeps you trapped in unloving circumstances. Let go of your wants and wishes and know that you have all that you need.

But when do we get to the fun stuff?

Let go of attachments and enjoy where you are. Regardless, all is well and you will see the happy situations which you desire.

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In all of life, there is but one solution to every problem – love. The loving solution is the only solution. Can it ever be said that love is not the right answer? Look on this as the solution and you will never be led astray.

How can we superimpose a loving solution where love is meaningless – for example financial problems?

Look for root causes – why are there financial problems? Dig deeply and discover the real cause of the problem and you'll find an opportunity for love to prevail and resolve the problem.

How does love solve financial problems? To lose a job or not be able to find one is hardly a matter of love.

If you love yourself and others, your attitude will reflect it. Attitude matters. What's inside is reflected outward. Bitterness and resentment flow outward despite your best efforts at containment. A loving fun attitude is also exuded.

But, the good jobs seldom go to the happy souls who are often seen as air-headed. The world seems to promote serious minded attitudes with a sense of urgency.

You assume that all the world is a corporation. Get over that mentality. Erase yourself from business mindedness. The world is equally full of good and loving occupations.

But still, even these are financially oriented. One cannot live by bread alone.

This is true and there are plenty of provisions available, but you must look for the product and not the resource. Don't worry about the financial details. Do what makes you happy.

Our failed attempts at that landed us in debt. We have not found the loving nor purposeful solution.

So, would you consider doing something unpleasant as a living the loving solution?

If we love ourselves and our families, we choose to support them. This could be considered loving.

Paying your bills on time is loving. Do you not feel better when you can?

Yes, but the cost can seem quite high and unloving. Surely there must be a way to solve both problems.

Surely there is, but don't let the lack of instantaneous results cause you to doubt. There are degrees of love. You must experience the full range of unloving solutions before you can get to appreciate the loving ones. The person who finds love after so much unloving does truly appreciate the gift. The world is not your enemy, but a wonderful ally. Use your ally wisely. Don't be so swallowed up in the worldly illusions for they will keep you off track. Think of the stories that you'll have to tell when you are outside of the illusion. Can you teach hope and perseverance? You bet. You've done it, as have so many others. You can teach what you have learned while looking back. Others can learn from you and you from them. Do you suppose that you are alone in your starting over? Look around you – see the many who are trying to get back on their feet. You are not alone.

But we have done this more than once. What are we missing?

There are different levels of starting over. The starting point moves based on your spiritual growth – are you the same as you were before?

Not exactly, but somehow we don't feel further along. We still seek the same answers. Have we really grown up or further down?

Growth is always forward. Because you do not see the big picture, it may seem as it is not.
**Chapter 39 – The Peace Of Knowing**

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Patience, My child. Do not despair over the minute details for all is well within your destined choices. Fear not that you have been forgotten or that you would be without all that you need. You cannot be led astray nor left behind. Enjoy today with all of its blessings for you are perfectly situated to succeed as you have been called. Do you imagine that I would send you to where you are not to be? Do you think that you make better plans than I? What causes you to be so discontented, in spite of your satisfactory situation? If you are called to do something, don't think that you can avoid it. Don't think that you can plan away perfection. Allow yourself the peace of knowing that you are called to greatness and that God does fulfill the promises He has made. Can it be otherwise?

We do not have certainty about anything. Why will You not help us to know Your will?

You are guided and would feel more sure if you were not so certain that I was wrong. You see your current circumstances as hopeless toward the goals of your heart. You see it all as a waste of precious time and this causes you great distress. You hate wasting time, but do not understand that there is no wasted time. All that happens is not a waste of time. It cannot be so.

Why then does it feel so wasted?

Because of your expectations – you think therefore it is. Think not. Experience all that is yours to have.

We cannot seem to see the purpose. We can't seem to get the connection. We just don't understand.

A different perspective might offer you some insight. Do not look at everything from your perspective, but from the perspective of the world. This that you do is meaningless except for the joy that you bring to others. This is all that there is.

But, is it true that a person must be dissatisfied with their work in order to satisfy others? Is there not a way that both are satisfied?

In the end, this happens. When both are aligned, there is greater satisfaction than ever imagined.

But, does this happen for us? Why can we not seem to get to the point of mutual satisfaction?

Until all of the blocks are in place, the house is not built. The blocks must be laid one upon the other until the entire house is completed. Then there is the satisfaction of a home where only love abides.

Are we close to our house completion?

Closer every day. Keep building and know that never again will you suffer as you have. Enjoy the fruits of your labor for you have persevered. You have taken the fall and have again landed on your feet. Know that salvation is just around the corner. Do not spend your time planning, for you do not know what is next. Enjoy today!

Still it does not seem that joy is at hand. The labor of today feels rather hurtful given our age. Surely, this is not the easy way. Are our talents truly being useful?

You are using different talents than you knew you had. You are learning that shyness is nothing, but a wall to hide behind and serves no one. You have learned to put yourself out there and welcome the world. Would you have done this by your own choice? Absolutely not. Desperation has caused you to learn this lesson. You felt you had no choice.

But, this is not the same as putting yourself on the line. One can hide behind the company.

But, you are less hidden than ever before. You have always been very much in the shadows. Now, you have come into the public eye and have faced one of your biggest demons. You have done well, given your debilitating shyness. Now, you are among the masses and not cloistered behind the office walls.

But there is still the impression that we stay isolated.

One block at a time. Don't move into an unbuilt house. Let yourself learn each day – desensitized to the trauma you are facing. Cut yourself a break. Don't worry so much. Do your best for that is all that you can do.

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Always there is hope for better things ahead. Don't let any situation cause you to despair, as all of life is fluid motion. Step up and see the hope. Don't cause yourself needless grief by considering "what ifs." What could have happened is meaningless. There is nothing that could have happened that would have brought you better results. Don't allow yourself to live in the past – live in the moment of now for that is all there is.

But what if the now is hardly the ideal?

Living in the moment simply means to get the most out of where you are right now. You have come to experience this moment for a reason – what would be the purpose of having planned this simply to gain nothing from it? That would be a waste, if it were possible.

But what if we don't seem to understand the purpose of the now experience? What if we somehow miss the point?

All events lead to one conclusion – all things are meant to prepare you for the purpose you have chosen.

It would seem that the events playing out have nothing to do with the purpose chosen, or we have completely misinterpreted the purpose.

You need to go back to your joy. Reconnect with your truest calling – that which causes you to have the greatest delight.

We're not sure that we really know what it is. And yes, we blame You because we certainly don't connect our choices with the current circumstances.

Give yourself the benefit of knowing that where you are is always the place of your greatest service. Perhaps you have much to learn and are being taught by those who have much to teach you. Always the teaching/learning goes both ways. Perhaps you are being taught mighty lessons of perception – what you see is what you made.

Perception is all of life. If we are perceiving wrongly, how do we correct it?

See the worthlessness of it all. This is true wisdom. You think that something matters, but in truth it does not. Life is not as it appears. You are not a victim as is no one else. See that where you are was chosen by you for a reason.

What is the reason?

Letting go of the illusion. You are not what you think you are and you are not stuck anywhere.

But it would seem that we are stuck between a rock and a hard place. It's not as if there are thousands of excellent opportunities waiting.

But, can you not see that things do happen perfectly as planned?

No, we don't see the reasons.

Thine eyes have seen heaven melt away before you, but soon it shall come again. Heaven, or at least the awareness that you call heaven is returning to you. You have lived through your perceived hell and have lasted through thick and thin. Allow yourself the pleasure of enjoying life again. There is nothing so important as to keep you from the heaven that you desire. You are more than you know and everything that you desire. Let go of all worries. For there is nothing beyond your wishes and desires. The fun of life is for all – don't think that you are simply put here to suffer and die. You are put here by your own choice to experience, learn and grow spiritually. Let this be your call.

God, it would seem that if perception is the key, then why do we not perceive happiness when there is every opportunity for it?

Look at your expectations and you will see that what you expect leads to disappointment. Otherwise, without standards, there is only happiness.

Oh, but what of animals who do not have such expectations, but who also experience suffering?

Animals do suffer, but not from emotional stress such as you do. They suffer from fear and bodily injuries – they are not exempt from suffering. They do not worry – theirs is more survival – realistic survival. You imagine that you have to go out and hunt for your food each day, but you do not. Some humans have suffered such a plight, but this is less the case than ever before. Surely, some still have to rummage, but only because those who have, have taken more than their share and have left others without. Blame yourselves. Greed has ruled the world and caused many to suffer. What if all the proceeds of nature were equally shared?

An entire mindset would have to be changed – and as long as riches are held in high esteem, it's not likely to happen.

No, but until it dies, people will "suffer" needlessly.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

When all the world is over, only joy will remain. There is nothing else and what you have experienced will seem rather worthless and distant. Looking back you will see that you have invested greatly in that which is meaningless. You have worried about things that matter not. If all the world could see the waste that exists, the world would suddenly be a better place. Do not worry so much about that which matters not. Think carefully about every little crisis you have created. How many can you even remember and how many truly matter now? Hindsight allows for the dissolution of seemingly miserable times which are now long forgotten. The "what ifs" of yesteryear are gone and often forgotten. Ask always if this will matter in the future? Keep everything in proper focus. This is not to say that each moment should not count, but surely proper perspective must be had. What may seem today a huge mountain may tomorrow be totally meaningless. Let not your life be scaled based on what you merely think is important now. See all things as a means to make your life more meaningful. Seek for joy and not for mere survival. The world can overwhelm you if you let it. But know that it is perfectly planned to bring you the experiences of your choosing. As you have taught yourself to worry – teach yourself to not worry. A little more money or a little more fame will not create happiness. Peace and joy come from letting go, not from struggling. So you get a raise. How long before you need another? Will it make you happy? A promotion makes happy for a day and then the next promotion is sought. The endless cycle continues until the end is reached. Then, you start anew. What then will you do? If you are bound to continue the endless cycle, why do you put so much effort into it? See life for what it is – a way to experience. Nothing more.

So how do we find the way to live for happiness if what we do is not satisfactory?

Know that all things are chosen, not at random. You are where you are for a reason. Shouldn't this be obvious to you by now?

But, if we are perfectly placed, why are we not more at ease?

Not all of life's choices were made to bring you comfort. Some were made to make you uncomfortable so that you would be motivated to move in a direction opposite your thoughts and plans. If you don't like what you've chosen, choose again. Searching causes you to look outside of your plans and allows you to do what you would not ordinarily do. It is a long way from one to the other, especially if you are not open to change. When you have had enough, you will seek again. Seek and you shall find, but only that which you have already chosen.

Certainly we cannot see the relationships between events. This does cause us to wonder about our choices. Can we be more aware of events and how they relate?

Having the future foretold will not cause you to understand. Even hindsight will not bring you clear understanding. Do try to see that everyone you meet is purposeful. Don't underestimate the smallest benefit from each interaction. It may only be a glance, but the other person is greatly affected. If your entire focus were to bring joy to others, would this not bring joy to you?

But we cannot only bring joy, sometimes we miss the mark and this brings disappointment.

So, you really can't please them all. Please as many as you can. But mostly, try to please yourself without offending others.

Are we not all in pursuit of selfish pleasure – is this not the root cause of our problems?

Yes, because you do not know how best to please yourselves. You imagine the results that you think will bring you happiness and then you seek ways to manifest. How can you possibly know how to make things happen? Your plans fail because you do not have access to all information. You may think you know a lot, but in truth you know nothing. Look at an example: you pick out the perfect house. You buy it. Then you discover that it's really a money pit. Now it has become your nightmare.

So how do we know what to do?

Allow yourself to be led to where you should go. Don't try to make things happen.

But, more often it seems that nothing toward happiness seems to happen. Take the example of our most dreaded employment. We went toward allowing for the best and instead got the worst. How is this preferable?

But look at the changes that came from it. Is everything not vastly different?

But not necessarily better.

Better is a relative term. Would you not travel some bumpy roads to get to the most beautiful place? Consider it a road bump on the way to a beautiful place.

Where is this beautiful place?

Heaven – see it before you, even if you understand it not.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

The fun of life is pervasive if you look upon all things in light of their relative meaninglessness. Allow yourself to feel the freedom that comes with letting go. Let go of worries and fears and suffering. Enjoy each moment to the fullest. Help the world see the beauty that is in everything. Allow yourself the joy associated with fun in all things. Working need not be your misery. Find what you love to do and seek to do that only. Seek always to find your place of peace wherever you are. Enjoy the love given you by all who surround you. Likewise, give love to those around you. Enjoy all that you have. Don't see the burdens, see the beauty. Let go of the endless worries that have haunted you always. Learn to be free from worries. Worries solve nothing. And the constant business does not cause you to propel toward success. Be distracted by that which makes you happy. Love those around you. Enjoy.

You are teaching us to relax and enjoy, but you are not giving us worry free situations. Finances are still not up to par. What must we do to be able to live the life of our dreams?

You see hopelessness without dream fulfillment ahead. You see through the tunnel of your own perception. Were you to see from My vantage point, you would see the greatness that you have in store. But don't give up because today doesn't appear the stuff of dreams. Things change. Have faith in yourself.

On what should we base our faith?

Because I told you so! You need nothing else. Remember, I AM with you always. What you see today is not all that there is.

Show us Lord, that our dreams are fulfilled.

Look at this paper and know that all things happen for a reason. You write because it is the calling of your heart. Do this for those who feel as you do – hopeless and unfulfilled. It will bring great joy one day. Know this.

How do we get from today to one day – the day of fulfillment?

In the twinkling of an eye. It doesn't take long. It merely takes the right sequence of events.

On what confidence can we know this? We seem drawn ever away from what You have promised.

You are merely treading water until your time has come. Don't despair that you will somehow lose what you have learned. You cannot miss your destiny.

When will You open the doors of great success?

When the time is right. It is all set. Don't think that you can miss your opportunity. It can only be as it is written. Let your time come when it will.

Why do we have such fear of all things? Why do we have so little confidence?

If you understand that your life is a teaching tool, know that what you currently are is what you have learned to be based on your experiences. You have learned to be fearful. You are always awaiting the next disaster.

Can this be unlearned?

Of course, when you give up your attachments. You have seen that your entire life has been one of struggles and seeking, disappointments and failure. It's time to see success and enjoyment, joy and happiness. Let go of the struggle.

But when will the doors of success open?

In the properly appointed time. Trust in the process.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Better to be employed than unemployed. Better to be saved than unsaved. Better to be happy than sad. What will you choose?

Are there not also levels of each? Is there not better employment or are all considered the same?

Better is a relative term. Better must be decided upon in light of that which you would have. What one considers better must be in relation to one's own goals and particular needs.

Surely there are occupations which provide for the happiness of persons. The right livelihood is certainly to be desired, is it not? Always, but how does one know what is right?

If it feels right, then surely it is. But, can everyone find the right livelihood? Or does the right livelihood find them? Is it not set forth that what is right for each will come to them? One must trust in the system to provide. You are drawn to that which is right for you. Can you find it by searching or rather by calling it forth? One must allow the process to unfold for its discovery is already planned. Let the seeking come forth as it is called for from deep within. Let your self flow toward that which your internal compass directs. Don't try to adjust your compass, but seek to go where it leads. Look at those who are happiest and see how they have been strangely directed to their perfect situation. What you might call luck is not at all. Luck plays no part in the stuff of dreams. Any setup you design will not meet your own internal goals. Feel your way and allow yourself to be open to what you have in store.

What would give us confidence that what we desire we will have?

I have told you this, but it is only your truest desires that will be seen. The smaller, less felt desires are not true desires. The deep inner passions are those that will be seen.

How do we know the difference? Paula only knew how to cook – it was not her desire to cook that brought her happiness. It was the means to self-sufficiency, not a deepest desire.

Ok, self-sufficiency was her deepest desire. It came to pass. Does it matter how? Look at the deepest desire, not the means of achievement. If the desire is to be famous, do the means really matter? Seek to fulfill your deepest desires by knowing what they are.

How can we know them with certainty?

Feel them. It is your goal to be financially independent and to not have to be employed by others. You seek to be respected and well received. Then, how will you accomplish this? Can you know? You might guess at the means, but you cannot know. This is how your plan operates – suddenly, the means will come to you quite out of the blue. You are forever directed, even if you know it not.

How do we know if we are headed toward our calling?

It cannot be otherwise. It is all planned and working accordingly.

But, those who make it are the great exceptions, not the rules. How can we be confident, in spite of the obvious, that we are among them?

You can choose to be confident or not. If you know that you know, then you are confident.
**Chapter 40 – Teach by Example**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

All the evils in the world were thought up by you and you have allowed them to fester. What if you let go of them and try looking on the bright side?

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Regardless of what you see, think or hear, believe only in what you know. This is what is true for you. The others do not know what you know nor do they know what is best for you. Relax and enjoy the process of what is given you by your own choosing. Let the world know what you know. Show them, do not tell them. They will only be swayed by the evidence of your behavior. Words seldom convince others. Teaching is largely done by demonstration. If you do not practice what you preach, you will not convince others of your truth. Remember that the world is very jaded, as are you, and much undoing must be had. The convincing is very necessary to show them how to walk not under a cloud of despair.

Please tell us of our purpose. We seem to be missing the point.

There really is no point to miss. Do your best always. And try to learn that complaining is not profitable. Seek to always see the positive. Learn to look on the bright side. It makes a huge difference.

So, keep doing and smiling. That is all?

Be supportive and loving. Learn to believe that all is well within your perfect plan. You are well cared for. This you have chosen.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

For all the world is merely nothing. You imagine it to be otherwise. Let not the world deceive you. You see it as full of disappointment, but truly its purpose is to teach you that it is nothing. Let go of all that you imagine your life to be. It is not as it appears. For what is done in a day does not a life make. You are given tasks to do which teach you that nothing is permanent or meaningful. When you look at each day, do you see meaningful contributions to the world? No, you see little snippets of help given to make the days better, but lasting impacts are not had. So, let go of your attachment to the days full of meaningless activity. Seek to find your place where meaningful contributions are made. There is nothing in your current occupation which serves the world – it is merely the means of support. This is not your life. Your life is one filled with expressions of who you are. Your work has not brought you to what you have chosen as your purpose, but has taught you only that doing has nothing to do with being. They are totally separate. Do not confuse this unhappy work with what you are called to do. It has been merely a teaching tool to lessen your attachments.

But, we are only attached due to the lack of other opportunities. You tell us to let go of our attachments, yet You leave nothing in this place. Over and again have we traveled this sorrowful road to nowhere. Seeking earnestly to make success where there has been so little, we have wasted so much time and have, in fact, accomplished nothing meaningful. What is the purpose of this?

All things are learning tools to bring you to where you have chosen to be. Surely you have learned that nothing has any lasting meaning in this world. Therefore, do not hold on to the temporary for it is fleeting. Reach for what does at least bring more lasting comfort. What has the world offered you that you would choose to repeat? This is why I tell you, let go of your attachments and seek your higher calling.

What is our higher calling?

To be at One with God and all there is.

How does this provide physical support?

When you are on the right path, all that you need is given you.

How do we get on the right path?

Stop struggling and let go. You do not see what is ahead.

But, based on what we've seen and now see, what would cause us to see differently?

Trust in the desires of your heart.

The desires of our heart have always left us wanting. Fulfillment seems to never come.

Does this mean that it never will?

In spite of evidence to the contrary...

Does this mean that I do not have every means possible to accomplish all things? Do you believe that by your own efforts you can do anything/nothing? What of all the others? Are your brothers not your keepers?

Our brothers have not seen our vision nor seen the benefit of it. Our brothers might help if only they could relate.

For surely you have at least seen that all things relate to all. You are not alone in this. See your brothers working with you to bring forth your dreams. Just as you have helped others, so shall you be helped. There does always come a time for your sacrifices to be repaid. To give is to receive and to receive is to give. If you see your life as merely what you do today, you will be disappointed. This is not you. It is the part of you doing what it must to survive. But, it is not the real you, for the real you has a higher calling. You are not put here to be a slave for too much has been invested and too much is expected.

If the world is a learning tool, how do we learn to make better choices?

Search your truest desires and seek for that fulfillment. Do not put your thoughts on what you are doing, but on what you wish to be doing.

But does this not make us more miserable in the meantime?

It should offer you motivation to proceed with more zest toward your desires. If you put forth the same effort toward a life goal as you do toward a "having" goal, then perhaps it would be seen sooner.

But in the absence of even a hint of direction, how do we proceed?

Keep seeking and surely you shall find. Things happen according to the plan and not a minute sooner. Have faith in your plan.

But so far our plan has been filled with disappointments and directionless struggle. How do we change course?

The directions are given, heed the signs.

What signs? We cannot recognize them.

Look always with your heart and follow its calling. Your mind will deceive you, but your heart should be your compass.

Our hearts are so filled with hurt that we cannot see. We have no clues as to how to truly improve our lives.

Don't think, feel.

That has not helped. When will we see the promises come to pass?

One day, suddenly all will appear differently. The curtains will open and your vision will be seen. Trust in the process. Believe!

Please tell us what to do.

Go beyond your wildest dreams. Let go of all the stops and beyond all of your fantasies. The world is no less or more than you have seen or will see. The world is a limit upon your vision. Don't look to the world for answers. Seek from the deepest part of your soul. Go within and know the answers for yourself. It is all a matter of discernment. Know what you know.

How can we know what we "know?"

Don't assume that you will always know before time. Be confident that you will know when you should.

You have said that we repeat lessons until we learn them. How do we know when we have learned a lesson?

When that type of experience no longer presents itself.

So, we are not aware of lessons learned until in hindsight?

You have learned that defenses do not pay off. You have learned that to fight is needless. It's all a waste of energy. Because your fight may seem like a good cause, it will not bring you anything but misery. Disappointment is natural in this life. So, don't get so caught up that you only see negativity. Surely there are experiences which are very negative, but don't let this be the pattern of your life.

Life would seem like an electrocution. The times of lesser pain feel so much better than the shocking times, so that it would almost seem hopeful. Life is full of ups and downs – the ups never really seem to measure up to the downs. I'm sure its all perspective, how each person sees things. But also, how do we learn to have more highs than lows?

Remember that peace is no feeling at all. The less you are affected by every detail, the more peace that you will have. In theory, the more peaceful that you are, the more opportunities for highs that you will have. In other words, lessen the openness to downers and the ups will be greater.

The major mind game?

Masters know this to be true.

But, do they not also have a greater understanding of how the universe works? Jesus had more info than we do. Surely this helped him deal with things more calmly.

Yes, and have you not been shown more than you knew before?

Yes, but obviously not enough to keep us from being so affected by details.

But, think about it. You sweat fewer details than before. Now, you still sweat some, but generally those which are closest to you. You are not as tossed by the wind as you were.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Words are always given you as I AM never at a loss. Where to go and what to do are your mysteries. You have assumed that a place is somewhere. Truly it matters not where you are, except that you are where you are destined to be at the proper time. There is no chance of your not being at the right place at the right time. There is also no chance that you will not do your destiny. Let go of any concerns you have about these things. If you will but let yourself be in the flow, you will always go as you should.

There are things which motivate us to do what is required, but we are not aware of the actual "true" ones as opposed to the "untrue" ones. For example: We may need a job and will apply to a thousand jobs on a thousand days. But, one is the right one. We have no way of knowing when to look at what. It all seems to be shooting in the dark. What is the clue which tells us the right thing to do to eliminate the needless effort and worry?

There is always a deep sense of peace and knowing associated with what you are to do. Almost a casual, but disinterested feeling associated with what is meant to be. If there is doubt or disturbance, you can probably assume that it is not right. Now don't confuse this with excitement. It is entirely possible to be joyful about the right things. Be discerning and learn to separate out derived feelings from true feelings. Your thoughts about a thing will cause derived feelings. These are not true. And do not assume that all opportunities will bring forth joyful feelings. It may not bring you joy when a wound heals, but surely it is a relief. Getting a job merely to pay your bills is a relief, but will never be joyful. Getting a job that is fulfilling and pays great does bring feelings of joy. To be gainfully employed is a relief, but you must seek the better choice. Have you not learned that there are levels of misery just as there are levels of happiness? Everything is relative. Always you have been called to lead, but you never have. Can this cause you anything but misery? You have known this about yourself, but have not come into your calling so that you can finally and freely express yourself. Your life has been lived under a rock – a rock built mostly of fear. You always do what you feel obligated to do and wind up at the same place – under the thumb of a tyrant.

What must we do to escape this pattern and do what we are called to do?

Know first that you will not die, even if you are without employment. You do know this, but still are gravely frightened. Know also that nothing is as it will always be. You have seen both sides, but have always sought to have the freedom to explore as you have wanted. Prison is your mind – you have kept yourself locked up. Why not let go a little?

Because, as You know this has been unrewarding. Each time that we try, we get a reminder of why we don't. The more we try to step out, the more we get a repeat lesson. So, we tried living in the flow. Our money flowed out and our debt flowed in. So, what was the point?

You looked fear in the face and were afraid. You did not trust; instead your hatred grew. You allowed the world to keep you down. Have you learned nothing?

Don't judge tomorrow by today or even yesterday. Don't ever give up on your dreams. They will come to pass, in the proper time. Trust in the process and know that your suffering at the hands of the merciless behavior of others is not without purpose. Every experience makes you more of what you have chosen to be. Lift up your eyes to heaven and see the benevolence of all that there is. Tomorrow could bring forth the breakthrough for which you have so long sought. But, even if not, go merrily on and do what is yours to do. For in faith, know that I have your best interests carefully planned. All things contribute to what you are in total.

So, you've pointed out the error of our repeated ways. What should we do to break free of the bad habits?

Let go of your attachment to supposed security. There I none. Realize that what you really want is freedom – freedom to be who you truly are.

We do realize this, as we really always have, but have no idea how to do anything else.

Before you would not have believed it nor been open to it. Now, at least, you are really searching and open. You have seen that nothing else suffices, so let's explore.

We are willing to find the better way.

Good, your willingness is all that is required. If you truly want freedom, let go of your doubts and fears. You must be open to what comes along. See opportunities where you have not before.

Where, we still don't see?

If you are willing to explore, and I know that you are as you have proven, let's get down to business. The world does not appear to knock upon your door. It would seem as if you must seek out that which you would have. In truth, this is not so. What is yours will be yours regardless of your efforts. You may not fully believe this, but I assure you it is so. Whether you sit and stare or run to and fro, you cannot miss the opportunities that you have called forth. They are yours. From your present vantage point, you cannot even imagine the bridge from here to there. All blocks of your life have been carefully placed to put the foundation as you would have it laid. Don't think that even a moment has been wasted, for this is not possible. You have called forth a life of leadership and surely it will be so. Don't look to find your own means, for you could never figure it out. Let the Lord do His part and be confident that it is done for you as you have desired.

We have seen nothing materialize as you have promised.

I never told you when nor did I put dates upon it. I did tell you to prepare for that which will be required of you. All of your experiences have worked toward this goal. Let this be a comfort to you. I have not forgotten nor forsaken you. I AM with you always, even unto the end of time.

If nothing else were to change, have faith in what you already know. I have given you my words and they are as solid as gold. Do not despair. You hold the words of God and the great understanding of life. You are not without resources and will soon be propelled into the leadership role that you have for so long sought. These trivial days are but a respite from the magnitude that is ahead. You will experience all that you have ever dreamed of and more. You will see the respect and smiles from others as you give them the comforting words of God. Imagine that you had all that you ever dreamed plus more. There are lessons to be learned to prepare you so that you do not become crushed under the weight. For leadership does carry a heavy burden and not all things are nice. But personal satisfaction is at last found and you will know that I AM with you and AM faithful and true. You have experienced Me as I AM not. Now you will know Me as I AM!

I have revealed Myself to others and they have been filled and have shared their feelings. But, the personal experience is the only experience which truly allows one to know truly. To listen to the tales of another, although fascinating, in no way compares to the personal experience of God. It is not possible to describe or to adequately convey. Even my descriptions fall short when expressed in words. Know Me as I AM! In this you will lead others to the same experience. This is your gift to the world.

Cause us to know You as You are.

And so I shall. Behold the magnitude of God. Is there a corner untouched?

Your hope offered is filled with exciting words and prospects. When will it be seen and known?

As soon as you are open to it and realize that it is so. Look not at what your eyes see. See the majesty of all there is in everything and feel the passion once again fill your heart. There has been tremendous learning had, even if not fully realized. You have shown and been shown tremendous approval. You have demonstrated that your fears are not well founded. You have seen that by your willingness that most people respond well to kindness. Be of good cheer and show the world that chivalry isn't dead. Honesty and kindness still live among the walkers of the world. If you are the only one, then one is enough to demonstrate sufficient hope. Let the world guide you through without effect or recompense for what it has not known. The world has deceived you and your brothers. You have given in to the temptations of the world and have suffered accordingly. Let this no longer be the case. Go gladly through your days knowing that this is merely nothing but an exercise in loving others. The physical tasks are but the world's way of keeping you in bondage. You're tied to comforts and must therefore earn your keep. The trick is to find the easiest possible way to do this.

Show us the easiest way to earn our keep.

I have shown you the hardest ways – now, please allow me to show you the easiest ways. You need not put forth immense effort to get great rewards. This is the world's misconception. Find the easiest route for yourself by doing what you feel most passionate about. Do what you love!

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

When all the world has passed away, what will be left for you to do? Will you be satisfied with nothing? Will you have to do something? What will you learn? Have you learned enough? You do not realize the perspective from which you enter this life. You merely see that all things are bad and full of suffering. Can it be that you have put yourself here to experience all the misery that you can muster? What is the purpose of living if only to suffer and die?

Tell us the purpose as it truly is for surely we have not gone through all of this merely to suffer and die.

You have come here to know the opposite of what you are. You are not at all what you have experienced. You are the magnificent perfection of God, with a suit of imperfection and weakness. To know yourself truly, you must know what you are not.

But to have known ourselves as we are not to the point that we believe this to be our only selves, have we not lost the point of contrasts?

If you have not believed that you are imperfect, then how would you be able to believe the opposite and fully see the contrast? You must have been fully vested in one to be able to experience the opposite. To have seen only partially, you would not have known truly. There is only belief when you are convinced. Pieces don't work – wholeness of belief does offer the experience for which you came here.

We get the impression that there is more of one than the other. We are convinced to the one extreme and not shown the contrast. If we are not what we have experienced, then why do we not get the chance to experience our perfection? We are not allowed to experience the perfection of the love that is all there is. We seem to pick all the opposites and walk within the grasp of limits. Are we to go through our entire lives and not know ourselves as we truly are?

There does come a point in the life of a seeker when they are revealed truly. They are allowed to experience the contrasting side of themselves. But, you are attached to that which is your temporal self for as long as you choose this life. When you have had enough, let go and go. But, until you have known the contrast truly, you will not be willing to let go. You cannot give up until you are satisfied with your experience.

But, do we really experience ourselves as we are? Do we ever really get the chance to know You as You truly are,– or do we one day give up the fight and simply fade away?

It's all in what you have chosen. You have chosen. If you think that you cannot know God or are no longer willing to try, then you will give up. It doesn't really matter for there is nothing to be accomplished – you came to experience. You can either enjoy or suffer what you have chosen. Like going to college. You can either love it or hate it, but you chose to attend. The type of experience is your real choice. You chose to work. What will you make of it?

But there are different things and types of college studies which can offer a better or worse experience. The same with work. Why would we choose studies and work which do not cause us to enjoy the experience?

Experience yourself as you are not. Know that you have to do your opposites to discover yourself.

But we have always done opposites. Will we do the right things – opposites of opposites?

What would be the point of not knowing both sides of the coin? Half a person is no person at all. Know yourself as you truly are.

But, is this in the eternal sense or in the physical sense?

You are not truly physical, even though that is your present experience.

So how, in physical life, can we know ourselves truly? Jesus was aware of the separation between spiritual and physical. He knew both at the same time.

But, He is known for His suffering as an innocent man. He is not known for spirit in flesh, which is the more remarkable accomplishment. People seek from things what they choose to experience. If your purpose is to know yourself truly, then you will focus more on the spiritual. If you are more physical, then you will focus more on the physical.

But, even Jesus, knowing all that He did, suffered in the body. Even He was not able to rise above His circumstances.

He was able, but did not choose it. His purpose was to leave a teaching legacy for all time – and this He did. He could have easily escaped, but He did not choose to. He came to teach and so He did.

How can we, if we can, know ourselves truly? We have tried all manner of effort and have not had such an experience.

Effort is not required. Willingness and openness are required. You assume that you will experience physical perfection if you are merely more spiritual. The two are separate. One will make the other easier – less physical distraction will make the spiritual more accessible. Focus on one and the other will be less. You must be more open to the spiritual before you will experience it.

But the weight of the physical does seem overwhelming. Is it really possible to do this?

Those who put forth great effort have made progress, but the amount of effort does not guarantee results. It is much easier to experience things when you are truly open to them. God does come to the quiet mind.

This has not been truly possible for us. The quiet mind is the impossible dream. How does one really quiet the mind?

If you are looking out your window, enjoying the beauty of nature, the peacefulness will allow God to enter. Quiet is merely another way of saying "distracted" by peaceful thoughts. If you are without worry and fear, then you can be peaceful and God does flow accordingly. Don't so much focus on stopping your thoughts as which thoughts you will stop. Think of beautiful scenery and then you will quiet your mind. When thinking about your wants and needs, you are not quiet. When thinking about beautiful and grateful thoughts, you are quiet. You do not realize that you constantly think of ways to get more and be more. Problems solving does not promote quietness. Look at a beautiful picture. Put your mind on hold and enjoy. This is a quiet mind. There is a great difference between having and not having. One struggles and the other does not. Mental restlessness is the same as physical restlessness. Relax and enjoy your life and you will know the peace of God. And His voice will be heard. Know that your circumstances are pre-set. So, let go of doubt and worry. Enjoy.

What of the feelings that one is "out of their purpose?" Does this mean anything or should these feelings be put aside and ignored?

If feelings are the language of the soul, then they are meaningful. If you hate something, then surely you will feel it. Honor your feelings, but don't be overwhelmed by them. If you know that you are not doing what you believe you are called to do, then look for ways to get in your purpose. There is no harm in considering alternatives. Honor your deepest feelings. Know them and get to where you feel comfortable. If life is about knowing yourself, then you must believe that you are led to do what is your calling. Are you not always led to do with strangest things? Why then would you not be called to honor your feelings professionally as well?

But, what if we have felt for over twenty plus years that we are not in the position of choice and nothing in that direction appears? How can we know the exact direction in which we should go?

Look at your compass – the direction of your heart. You may know if you look carefully, what you are called to do, even if you don't know how. If you are looking for instant acceptance, then perhaps you are not willing to commit to the calling. Being fully committed is the first step to doing what you love. You cannot waiver in this, even if it looks impossible. You must get up each day, regardless of your circumstances and believe fully that it will happen exactly as you know that it will. Don't put a time table on accomplishment – this is how many dreams are lost. Continue as if you know it is on the way – continue even if you are the only one who believes. God never puts a dream in your heart – you have chosen your dreams and have lived the perfect life to make your dreams come true. Believe in your plan, even when you have nothing obvious to believe in.

But are we merely deluding ourselves? Not all dreams come true.

How do you know? An idea is not a dream. A dream, in the sense you speak, is a calling, a knowing of what is to come to pass. You cannot know what is in the heart of a person. You cannot know the depth of feeling nor the commitment needed. Those who have realized their dreams are those who have truly known and have never really given up. In spite of failures, the knowing soul proceeds. Can you really ever give up on your dreams? Can you walk away and never look back? If you can put it down and live the rest of your life without it, then was it truly your calling? A calling, a dream or your purpose, whatever you call it, keeps haunting you until it is realized. It is not a passing fancy. It is something that is with you always. It must be realized for you to have peace. Will you go to your grave with a dream still in your heart? Dreams don't work that way. Dreams are inside you and never go away.

But, what keeps the fire burning when the flame does not seem to spread?

It's as much a part of you as your personality. Is it possible for you to be happy without it? If you were to imagine your life without it, would you rather live or die?

That's a drastic scenario, but is it living truly if you do not honor the calling? Living without dream fulfillment is rather empty. It is much like going through the motions. But, its accomplishment cannot be forced, so there is no other choice. How does one live with an unfulfilled dream? Is this not the recipe for misery?

Certainly it is a recipe for misery. If you were to go to another country to speak and you were not willing to make the trip, could it be said that you were not ready and willing for the dream to be fulfilled? Have you committed your whole life to your calling? Have you been willing to give up everything that you have known to honor the cries of your heart?

We have, as we have said, done all that we know to do. There have been no avenues open that we have not explored. Either we are missing the signals or we are on the wrong road. Why does God put a dream in your heart without the means of accomplishment?

Is God so cruel? Did God do this to you? Does God perform half a miracle and not the other half? If you think God so cruel, surely you have misjudged God. God is you – you created this. Would you, as God, have given you all the tools and knowledge to build a house without the opportunity to build it? Would you God, have done this to yourself?

It would seem that we, as God, have done far more ridiculous things. We have caused ourselves to love those who never love us in return. We have given our best efforts to worthless causes. We have worked ourselves to death. So, it is not unlikely that we, as God, would do such a thing.

But, we are talking about dreams. We are not talking about mundane, self serving tasks. We are talking about a purpose grander than oneself. Separate your life into two parts – that which you do for yourself that which you do for others. What you would seek to accomplish for yourself is meaningless. That which you seek to accomplish for others is meaningful. Think about what you are called to do for others – this is where you will find your dreams fulfilled. Joyce had a dream – she saw it as self serving, but in truth it serves millions. Joel saw his dream come to pass for the benefit of millions. It is not that which we do for ourselves which constitutes a dream. It is that which we do for the benefit of others that will come to pass. Jesus did not live for his personal glory. He lived that others would know themselves. Sure, in a dream realized, there can be great personal success, but it comes from those who have called forth the dream's contents.

Everyday of your life is spent learning for the accomplishment of the dream. All dreams are not the same – you may see some of them as ridiculous.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _All dreams are for the benefit of others._

Some people die in pursuit of their dreams – they may never know worldly success, but trust that they will serve the purpose for which they are called. The artist who dies poor has at least left behind the art which will be appreciated. Each life does produce lasting results, even if the person does not realize it. The teacher who inspired may not know great worldly success, but the student is forever touched by their influence and the lasting effects continue. Parents make lasting contributions for generations. Think about it – the artist today who was raised by parents who supported the arts, who were raised by crafty people who were descendants of a famous painter. All things are connected. There may seem to be gaps in generational influence or there may be totally unrelated events which come from seemingly nowhere, but trust that you have not magically appeared on a certain date with five books to be written. All things are related, in spite of your not being aware.

If you invent the greatest car ever driven and it does not sell, is it a bad car – a worthless idea? Or is it in someway the inspiration for another who will use the idea to serve millions? It is not always the original inventor who is appreciated. There are many products which have evolved from other products which are readily used now. Who thought that airplanes were really the future? Were not there many who doubted? If the Wright Brothers were alive today, would they not be held in great esteem? They had a dream which served millions, even after their deaths. Jesus was more respected because of His death.

Why are the willing servants often so underappreciated?

They are not known – truly known. A radical idea which serves the future often brings laughter rather than success. Not every life is meant to be successful and living a dream is no guarantee of success – at least not in the present. Some dreams are gifts to future generations. Some are gifts to present generations. If words written are true for all times, then success will come forth now and in the future. A Course In Miracles did not bring Helen success in her life because even she did not understand the magnitude. If she had believed and understood, she perhaps would have known great success, or maybe she would have detracted from the content. A radical idea is radical because it is not understood.

Helen had chosen to give her gifts to the millions to follow. Her life was not based upon the success of the book; her life was a gift to others that they would have access to great knowledge. She was not called to be successful in her writing, so she did not place it as a marker of her success. It was seen as merely a task to do and let the world do with it as it would. She did not consider herself a writer, but merely the pen that copied the words. She saw herself as a medical person, not as a person who would write the greatest book of all time. She was insecure and did not have the confidence to promote such radical ideas. She had the grace to let the book stand on its own. She had not chosen to be a great author, but merely the physical purveyor of God's great truths. Had she been set to be a great writer and to have great fame from it, the book would not be what it is. She was generous in that she gave it to the world with almost no attachment. Its contents could stand alone and not be clouded by her personal life or actions. It was a perfect plan and she performed well. Granted, it was not her dream, but it was a great gift given. So, she did not even realize her dream as a dream. She saw it as a task which she could not avoid. If perhaps you would see your dream as a task you could not avoid, then you would not be so caught up in the whys and reasons and potential gains.

You are far more willing to do things that you feel are unavoidable. A change in perspective can help you allay some doubts and fears. If you worry about success, will you not cater your efforts toward what you think will bring success? If you believe that you simply must write exactly what you are given, then you will truly follow your dreams. Don't write to be successful – write your own truth. From the deepest knowings do come the greatest truths. Let your honesty be in the products that you produce. Many great ideas have fallen on deaf ears, but in the greatness does eventually come acceptance. Christianity was not so popular in the beginning. Now, it is very common. Is it right or true? It doesn't matter because it serves those who would be served. Don't even let success be your measure for your deepest truth should be your measure. If you feel you must, then you must. Some people are not so attached to their dreams. Some may not even realize them as dreams. Some ideas may be the very dreams without the knowledge. Take for example the child prodigy who paints beautifully? Does he paint for success or because he feels compelled? A child who plays to please parents may not be fulfilling a dream. They may even hate playing. Each purpose is different.

Do what you love and most certainly do that which you feel totally driven to do. Honor the calling of your heart. You may never know the benefits, but surely you know that you have done what you are called to do. There can be no harm in honoring your calling. There is great harm in not honoring it. Ask yourself – if nothing "good" seems to come from this, would I do it anyway? If your answer is no, then perhaps you have not known your true calling. Some soul searching may be in order. A true artist can put down the brush and vow to never pick it up again. But, this will not last. The overwhelming urge will return as a true calling is always heard.
_C_ **hapter 41 – The Subject Of Life**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

On the subject of life, will you even understand that it is merely a pretense? You are not what you have imagined nor are you what you have experienced. This is all merely nothing but a game of "what if." How you perceive life is largely how you will live it. What is temporal cannot be meaningful. Think of all that was once deemed important but now is meaningless. Things pass by the window of your view to someday disappear. No longer is it worthy of your attention. If this is how life works, and I assure you it does, then why not loosen up and see things from a larger perspective? Why not look upon all things as temporary situations and let go of your attachments. For in this there is great freedom. One day you are obsessed with buying a new house. Once you have gotten the house, your focus changes entirely. Then there is an entirely new set of items on which to focus. Your tendency to put great importance on temporary situations does cause you to miss the greater aspects of life. Were you to focus on larger, truly meaningful pursuits, then the daily mundane issues would seem almost laughable. Let's say that instead of spending all of your time focused on financial issues you were to put your efforts into feeding the hungry. Once caught up in the plight of those less fortunate, your problems would seem to much less in comparison.

But when we have worries and we believe them to be real, how can we give greater attention to others? When we have job and financial worries, do we not place ourselves on the same level as those who are in worse circumstances?

It is easy to be overwhelmed by the little tragedies of life. Never will focusing on these things be beneficial. Certainly, you may feel that you have lessoned your guilt because you have not ignored your problems. It is somehow seen that you are responsible and must somehow make amends for these situations. What of the situations caused by outside influences – like hurricanes or falling world markets? How can you place that burden upon yourself? Are you saved by wallowing in the mire of guilt? Perhaps your time would be better spent in the betterment of each day's experiences. Beating yourself mentally will never rectify a situation. Even situations which are of your own causing are not remedied by guilty sacrifice. At some point, you must let go of guilt and move on. Focusing on mistakes and "what ifs" will not bring you happiness nor will it help to improve your situation. By letting go of guilt and the past can you step forward and enjoy your life. Too often you are caught up in blame and condemnation – who are you to judge even yourself? Even if you did something you judged to be wrong, is anyone truly served by your being punished? Give yourself at least the chance to live free of guilt. Forgive yourself and others. There is no benefit whatsoever in condemnation. Your legal systems do deal with criminal behavior, but what is the point of further chastising someone who is already serving time? Has not the situation been already dealt with? Beating a dead horse is a worthless use of effort.

It seems that human nature seeks to judge and condemn. What causes us to be so mean spirited against all others?

The ego would tell you to kill or be killed. If you are focused upon the actions of others, you will not be looking at your own actions. You look to others for guidance, so you do what you see being done. Your ego would have you believe that you are alone in this and must fight for what you have. This is a self-fulfilling cycle of destructive behavior. The more you serve yourself, the more that you will need to. Selfishness breeds selfishness. When you mature and learn that everyone has been deceived into believing they are isolated, then you can better understand how much negativity comes from selfishness. Understand that you are not alone and nothing in life occurs in a vacuum. All things are connected. How many people influence your every day life?

You see through your tunnel vision and discount the efforts of others. Someone may open a door for you and change your entire day. Someone may cut you off in traffic and change your entire day. These you must acknowledge for they have contributed to your life experience, just as you have contributed to theirs. Think about all the people you see in a day and take the time to really see them. Count them if you can. You'll be amazed at all the others who are really your brothers. Your life experience is nothing without them. Be grateful that you are not alone. Thank your brothers for their contributions to your life. They are all part of what you call life. Without others there would be not life, so always thank them for their contributions. Don't discount both the good and bad, as you see them, for many good things do come from perceived bad things.

But would we not love the good and hate the bad? Are there not those who have caused us great harm and have effectively destroyed our lives? Take for example the rapist or the person who caused us great physical harm?

If you but understood the purpose, could you not even see Judas as the one who make Jesus the sacrificial lamb? Had Jesus not died as He did, would the world still see Him in the same light? Would you be uplifted by the stories untold of seeming sacrifice and loving acts of kindness? The purpose of each life has meaning, regardless of your knowing it or not. Could it possibly be that all of this has happened without some sort of master planning or deliberate intent? If Jesus knew in advance what was to happen, is this not an indication of some forethought or planning? You tend to see life as a random series of events which require your response and reaction.

Do the tides of the ocean require your efforts, thoughts or planning or has this not been set already? What can you control, even with your best efforts? You set about each day with one agenda and soon find that another agenda is in place. You may have planned on a certain path for the day, but find that something entirely different happens. Have you not realized that you control nothing? When you finally give up the ego's way of thinking, you will at last see that you are merely a train on the track of life and someone else is the conductor and engineer. You are merely along for the ride.

Why have we been so deluded? Why have we been taught to work hard and think and plan our lives?

The world operates on perception. If all the world saw it as just a game of experience, then the game would change entirely. It would not be experienced the same. In order for you to have your chosen experiences, you must believe as you do. If you have chosen to come to the understanding of life, then you must have the corresponding experiences. To understand life, you must look outside of life. If you have been in control of life, then it would not be the life that you have come to know. The uncertainty that is life is part of life, as much as certainty is part of heaven. To know a thing fully, you must know what it is not. The same is true for you. You have seen yourself as the selfish and egotistical person that you are. It is quite shocking to have all of your human traits brought to light. But it is even more shocking to have all of your godly traits brought to light. Contrasts are necessary learning tools. The purpose of life is to present the contrast to heaven. If life were to be heaven, then there would be no point. Heaven is always just as it is. If heaven is the opposite of hell, can it not be said that life is hell? Life is not the in-between of heaven and hell for an in between is not needed. In order to know heaven, you must experience hell. Life is for this purpose. There is no other.

Why would we, as perfect souls in heaven, choose to willingly suffer in the hell of life?

To know yourself as you are not. As a perfect soul, you understand that life is but a game and that no real harm can come to you. If you were not given the full belief that hell or life were real, while within it, would you really get the benefit of the experience? Had you not seen the heartbreaks of life, could you appreciate the beauty of an eternal soul? Your time on earth is set by you. You have chosen to come here and live a little. You are not forced to be here, as any suicide will tell you. You can get off the train at any time. Life is not a punishment put upon you. You are here for the experience. Would you rather love or leave it? Be happy or suffer? It's all in your mind. Make of life what you will.

How do we turn dreams into reality?

Do as you are directed, not as you think you should. Don't let your thoughts cause you to exhaust yourself in worthless pursuits.

How do we know what we should do?

You cannot miss your opportunity for success. You must be diligent to listen for direction and go accordingly. God will not let you miss the call from those who would call forth the fulfillment of your dream. Don't despair for your not seeing results. Know that what is today may not be tomorrow. There are many things anew each day, so don't let your thoughts hold you hostage. What if a new company is created tomorrow and you gave up today? What if you are merely waiting for your help to be created? Can you know what the future holds? Can you predict with any certainty what the market will bear? Do not the times determine what demands will be had? If the world is ever more aware of truth, will not more truth be needed? Can you judge anything rightly? Where you are to be, you will be.

How can we be sure of our dreams and their fulfillment?

You know what you want – you feel it. As I have told you, you are assured of fulfillment of dreams which are for the service of others. Look not for that which will serve you, but what others need from you. What is it that you have to give the world? This is your dream.

What if we are uncertain of what our dream is?

If your dream is to be a teacher of God, is it not certain that you shall be? A teacher requires students. You cannot teach without them.

The "me" generation is very selfish, but more aware of others than ever before. How can you serve them?

Teach them that they are not alone and is not all about them. That happiness comes from others – all for one and one for all.

Why would they listen to you? Is your life a testament to perfection?

Certainly not, but we have gone through the struggles that they face.

How can you sit and chat with teenagers about life?

Have we not done this for years?

Ah, so you think you are prepared. Let's put you to the test. Let's imagine that you go into work and are asked by someone to explain why God is so cruel and has caused such hurt.

Teach the person to see the big picture – not the isolated incident. Look at life as a matter of perspective, just as with Jody and his car.

Have you learned as you have taught?

Jody taught us to listen and be comforted - to not let one incident ruin your life.

See how it works? In this you are realizing the teaching/learning scenario. Most people do not understand this, but you will bring it to their awareness. I will give you all that you need to succeed. Trust Me when I say that you are one of the chosen ones who have answered the call and have chosen to serve. Would I not give you the chance?

So far, not so much. Even today, our teaching has been almost nonexistent. Surely this is not the extent of our teaching dreams.

Do you believe that it is?

We are caught between hope and belief. We are unsure of the extent, having seen all efforts not materialize results.

Have you not taught one very well?

As was learned in return.

One multiplied by millions is still millions.

Is one the extent of our teaching?

That would surely be enough, were it so. But then would the writings be necessary? That would have been a terrible waste. I have not given you books for no reason. They are for the multitudes. Believe in them as they are the words of God. Would God have so wasted His talents? Surely you do not believe this, nor do I. If you have it in your heart to write, then write. Don't sweat the use, because art is not for the receiver but a gift given selflessly to those who would enjoy. If you paint for profit you have lost the joy of the gift. Paint as an expression of your heart to the world. Do what you feel compelled to do, even if you do not know the reason or understand the purpose. If it feels right to you, do it. It will fulfill some desire deep within you. I never said that it would be easy or instantly gratifying. But know that it is the calling of your heart and you should honor it as any master who paints because he cannot stop. It is your calling to write, so write as often as you feel compelled. It is your heart put into words – the ink is your palette and the paper is your canvas. Put your pictures upon the paper that all the world may enjoy.

But our art is simplistic and not profound. Who would enjoy our art?

Those who would, will. Those who would not, won't. Don't be concerned with audience for that is set beyond your control. First, you must believe that you have a gift to give, then give it with all of your heart.

Write books, whenever, and let the people know that God is with them. He has not victimized them, but seeks always to help them. If they were more open to God, God would be more evident to them.

Is God more evident or have we merely shifted focus from God's power to our power? Have we taken our power and shifted it back to created perfection? There seems to be opposing shifts taught. How do we reconcile the two?

The world believes that God is all powerful, yet under your breath you believe that it is you who controls everything. You adhere to two opposing thought systems which cannot both be true. You believe that God will intervene when you call upon Him, but yet believe that He judges and punishes you. Can both be true? A rational mind would see God in a different light. It is man's insistence that God be the parent figure. He rules everything like a puppet master from His throne in the sky. Now really, would God have need of a throne? If God is truly everywhere, all the time, what would He place upon a throne? Is this not our own need to see God as like ourselves, our human selves, which causes us to envision God as ourselves?

Conversely, you have not known yourself as God's perfect creation, so you have nothing with which to compare. "God created man in His own image." (Genesis 1:27, NAS) You have believed this because the Bible so states. You have not even imagined that you are not your physical self and neither is God. You see yourself in the mirror and assume that God must look like you. And if He looks like you, surely He must act like you. But, have you considered that you know your behavior and physicality to be imperfect, so why assign these characteristics to God? Is it not more logical that God has no need of characteristics or physical being? What if God were merely the essence of all that is perfect? The only true perfection is what is called love, yet the word does it injustice.

If God is only love and created only perfect love, then how can the traits of jealousy and vengefulness even remotely be assigned to God? Have we not taken someone else's assumptions about God and believed them to be true? Is your personal experience of God the same as you have been told? Do you find God to be jealous and vengeful? Perhaps you have assigned to God causation for circumstances in your life, without even realizing your part in them? Perhaps you have assumed that God is the cause of your life and holds all responsibility. Would this truly be life? Would this be a chance for you to know yourself as you truly are? Or would this be God's little mind game for His personal amusement? What would be the point? Does it not seem more rational to realize that you have chosen your own destiny based upon your own learning goals?

God could not have an agenda for your life as He only knows you to be perfect. You are the only possible one for whom life could have meaning. Are you not then the maker of your life and the beholder of responsibility for it? A parent creates a child but the child does grow into his own person. God creates souls and allows the soul to create. If your soul is eternal, then what can you create that is eternal? Certainly life is not eternal nor is your body. So, what real value can you put upon life? Have you not been deceived into believing that life is all there is? If you did not believe this, then why are you so afraid to die? Were you to know yourself as the eternal soul that you are, you could have no fear of death or anything else. But you have devalued yourself and given power to the physical. You have not considered things greater than physical self. If you can't see it with physical eyes, then it does not exist.

Atheists are the only ones who are honest in speaking their perceived truths. Others may believe there is not God, but due to God's jealous nature, are afraid to talk about it. Atheists come much closer to the thoughts of God because they do not have a God to think for them nor to take blame for them. In truth, God does not judge nor should He be blamed. God allows you to do as you please for your life is nothing but a temporary learning academy. You learn and experience what you have chosen. People don't go to school to learn to be people for they already are people. A soul does not incarnate to learn to be a soul, as it is already a soul. Only experience of what is not a soul can be learned from life. It has no other purpose. If you see yourself as a physical being, then life is all there is. If you know yourself as an eternal soul, then life is seen in proper perspective.

It's hard for us to see ourselves without our bodies which cry or laugh and make us abundantly aware. Our souls are not so obvious, rather there seems to be a subtle pull from inner knowing. Much like the elephant in the room, our bodies cry for attention. Our souls do not seem to.

Your soul has no needs, for what would it cry? Your body is imperfect and has needs; therefore, it must cry. It needs your attention to survive.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Can you believe that your life has taken such turns? What fun it is to be so excited over the little things. When once you thought it was monumental to only look for the fantastic, you've seen how it is to look at the little things in a whole new light. The big concepts ironically cause you to appreciate the little things. Let life demonstrate that large or small, neither is real or lasting. One day something is up and the next day it is down. On what can you place your confidence? Only what is real can hold any sort of interest for you. Focusing on what you do today will limit your experience greatly. Sweeping the floor will not change a life, so don't let this be your focus. When you have seen the greater reality, these mundane things will fail to hold your attention.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Building trust is not as you have understood. You wanted to trust me and I wanted you to trust you and your brothers. Have you not learned that God allows all of you to do as you have planned? Trust in yourself and your brothers. You and your brothers are one.

There have been some lessons on this. Perhaps we have not understood them all. But, until our brothers demonstrate more brotherly love, will we not continue to be skeptical?

Remember, we are looking at souls and not behavior.

But in this life, behavior rules.

Is this not what we are trying to change?

Do we make progress? Is it possible for us to make a difference?

You are all connected and would greatly benefit from unity rather than division. Separate purposes driven by separate methods do not provide an adequate resource for world change. What if all the most popular religious leaders joined forces? What a magnitude of wealth could be had. But, leaders who are self-serving and those who support them keep the resources divided. It's seen as more important to build your own rather than the masses. Do religions really promote anything, but self-service? Be honest. The same with all isolated groups. Divisions are celebrated – one is seen as superior. Specialness is key to keeping the little kingdom in tact. Did the Axis powers choose to join the world or rule over it? If nations were to join rather than oppose, could not all problems be resolved rather quickly? Don't kid yourselves – the world could all be the Garden of Eden if only there were no egos.

Ok, but that's not likely any time soon. So what for the short term can we do?

Live your truth and love all others. Others are the key to your success. What would cause you to believe that the world cannot be changed, even if ever so slightly? Changes in perception are changes nonetheless. Work toward this goal. As you have learned to see the magic of perception, let the world know what you have learned. A changed mind is a powerful thing.

But we can't even change our own minds.

You need do nothing, except what you are told. You have need of nothing for all is given you to do what you have chosen to do. Don't get caught up in the meaningless details. Life is full of meaningless pursuits. Let go of these and focus on what brings you joy.

We were under the impression that we had tried that and it had not worked out well for us. We had to return to the old ways and nothing new appeared. It's hard to keep hope floating when nothing seems to go in the desired direction.

Don't let your eyes deceive you. There is nothing as it appears. When once you had planned a thing and nothing but the opposite happened, could you trust your own instincts? I'll grant you that you have wallowed enough. You have watched every manner of perceived success pass you by. What is the point of this? What have you learned?

Hopelessness and bitterness against God. We trusted that you would protect us, but that was not the case. You did allow us to go through those dreaded things.

Have you learned nothing of how God works? God allows – you create. Actually, you have already created and now you are walking through your creations. You find blame where one day you will give thanks. But don't despair, the other side is revealed. Now you can know your plan as it is written – for the benefit of all.

When you say now, do you mean now or sometime in the future? Use worldly terms so that we can know.

In order to get somewhere, you have to start somewhere. Now is the starting point and it means what you call now, this minute. The future is happening now, or in your terms very shortly. You will not see instant results, but you will see the picture developing before your very real eyes.

Trust in the process and your plan of action. You have surely not gone through this course for no good reason. What would be the point?

Certainly, what is the point?

Don't imagine your life to be pointless suffering. It is not for this purpose. Suffering, or the perception of, is part of the learning process. Allow yourself a respite from your perceived suffering. It's over. Move on! Start anew. Begin a fresh new approach.

Approach to what?

Everything. Understand that life has a call upon you and you will not escape it. Do you believe that what you suffer is for your own benefit in any way? That makes no sense. The purpose of the lesson is what you can teach from the lesson. There are no useless lessons. You teach those around you by your actions and reactions.

From isolation, who learns from us?

If only one, that is enough.
**Chapter 42 – Expectations Bring Disappointments**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

What in the world is there worth loving – only those lost souls who walk it with you. They are not truly lost, but certainly feel as if they are. What is there, but the hope of finding something meaningful to make sense of all of this? Were you to understand it truly, you would not be so caught up in it. Peace comes from the understanding that this is not all there is.

But for our time here, it would seem so very important. We are as children lost in the playground and can find no security. It seems so cruel that we have done this to ourselves under the guise of helping our souls. Truly, who would have chosen this?

You have the choice to get up each day and live peacefully. Yet, you find peace boring. You want fun and excitement – you don't want peace. The struggle to find fun and excitement causes you to have some opposite effects. The pursuit of happiness does bring forth some rather unhappy times. Disappointment happens when your expectations don't match your experience. Had you gotten up this morning and had no expectations, you could not be disappointed. Your thoughts about a thing create the experience.

Ok, but let's be honest. Life is not lived in a vacuum of isolation and non-interference. We can be peacefully sitting in a park when a mugger robs us. Is it realistic to assume that our peaceful mind frame will be held in place after such an event?

It is possible, but not probable. You will be afraid and offended. The distrust will skyrocket to that you will no longer be at peace sitting on that bench.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Patience, My friend, is a virtue and one that you should have. Two years, four years – both are meaningless. Let go of your attachment to time for all time is set. Accomplishment is really for the benefit of all and cannot be thrown out randomly. I assure you that you are neither the first nor the last to have waited anxiously for some accomplishment. Allow yourself to know that what is for you is yours.

But time is wasted when there is no accomplishment. We can fully understand Dawn's despair. Many years have gone by and nothing has been accomplished. What can possibly be the reason for all the delays? Who is helped when dreams are unfulfilled?

Did we not already discuss Dawn's situation. Has she been given enough time to heal from the painful wounds?

Would some accomplishment not help her to heal?

Not too fast. She needs to accept before she can step out and help others. She is full of bitterness, so could she help others?

Others could help her.

Would she not go out on a vengeful tear to get even with the religion that she sees destroyed her childhood? She still seeks to blame and get revenge for what was done to her. She has not accepted the benefit for the common good.

Is her bitterness more a factor of her family or of her lack of professional success?

Of course she feels total disappointment. When your expectations don't meet your experience, it is normal to be disappointed. Without expectations, you have no disappointments.

But you tell us to dream and to live our dreams. You know that we'll be disappointed. Why do you allow us to suffer years of disappointment needlessly?

_Because I AM the mean and cruel God that you imagine._ 

So very funny, but comedy doesn't seem to cover the facts. Why not be more open and honest with us rather than leave us wandering in the desert for forty years?

But why were forty years necessary? Did I cause it or was it called forth by the collective?

Would the collective have knowingly have called it forth?

The collective did call it forth and no, they did not remember having called it forth. Were they to have understood all that was involved, accept and go forth, then the time in the desert would have been greatly lessened. But, it was not planned, so the lessons were not to be learned for speed. You are still discussing this after thousands of years because you are shocked that God would punish them so. You do not get the fact that they made their own choices. And perhaps, it was not really forty years, as you know forty years. Forty months maybe, but forty years? I don't think so. Have you lived to be a thousand or even several hundred? Do you really think that time has always been calculated the same way?

We have no way of knowing, but we do know that even forty months in the desert is a very long time. And as we have seen, speed typically is not part of your plans.

If everything happened twice as fast, you'd have to do twice as many things to fill up your years. Change does not come easy, so a slower pace is generally less traumatic.

Well, we'll give You that one, so even Jesus didn't hang around long. He got in and out quickly.

Why be where you are not comfortable for very long? He served His purpose in thirty three years.

But, He didn't waste time like we do. He was certainly more efficient.

And more fully prepared. He did not need time to learn and unlearn and relearn. He had already completed the learning process.

Would you say that most masters do require a few years to become learned before teaching?

Most, yes. Would you respect the wisdom of a child? Do you put much emphasis on the thoughts of a young adult? Wisdom is typically thought to come with age. Would you not agree?

But, is it necessary?

No, as Jesus showed. But those who are totally committed are the very few. Those who, like Joyce and T. D. Jakes, are more regular folks do take a little longer. Their lives are demonstrations of their learning.

But somehow, they always knew that they wanted to serve, but didn't know how. As we have always known, but still don't know how. Why has this secret for so long been kept? Would we not both benefit from our knowing?

You do know part, but not all. You do, and have for many years had a great desire to write, but couldn't seem to make use of it. This has haunted you for twenty plus years.

Yes, but the venue was never given nor known and still after twenty plus years is not. What is the real purpose of this?

Everyone loves a mystery. A gift given too soon is wasted.

Then why do we feel as if the gifts are not given soon enough? It is as if we spend years in waiting while nothing progressive happens?

Would you be satisfied either way? Do you not understand that life runs a very specific course, set well in advance?

This is what You have taught and surely were there some seeming benefit, the time would not appear wasted. Could Joyce or T. D. not have served as well sooner?

Perhaps by only a short time. There has to be certain milestones covered before a person is really ready to serve. There needs to be a greater understanding, an almost "nothing else matters" frame of reference.

But neither had truly given up. They were just very disappointed.

When Helen saw the beauty of her writing, she knew. Not how, but that this was God's fulfillment. Joyce knew that even on a small scale that she only wanted to preach. She needed time to hone her skills. Preaching to so many takes time to master. To speak so much and not offend is rather masterful.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Unto these hills is born a star, a shining star as a beacon of light unto the world. Let go of your attachments to misery and suffering for these will be but faded memories for you. You have weathered the drought and have waited upon the soothing rain to come. From this rain does sprout forth beautiful flowers for all the world to enjoy. See the growth of your words as the healing rain upon the world which does sprout in the hearts as beautiful flowers. The world does need them. Give them freely to all who would enjoy them and feel the love of God in them.

The world does suffer needlessly and is desperate for healing. Let the world know that God does hear and will answer every one. Show the wisdom that you have learned – give as it was given. Do not be clouded by how, for that is set by Me. I AM the facilitator of your dreams. You are merely the teacher of My principles. I have not asked you to stand alone. I have given you all the tools needed to serve your purpose. My children have heard your response and are calling you to serve. As you stand ready, they will bring you forth. You are prepared – you are My holy instrument. Would I have brought you here for no reason?

When a dream has gone unfulfilled, the heart does suffer. But, a dream fulfilled too soon is wasted. A dream fulfilled too late is worthless. Can it not be assumed that only perfectly time fulfillment is of God? It cannot and should not be out of God's perfect timing. It must be perfectly suited for all involved.

You have placed us in stagnant roles, not the best for use or others. It would seem that we only serve earthly needs and are not allowed to serve spiritual ones. Why have we been for so long set aside?

To learn non-attachment. This is a vital lesson in life in order that you be free. Free to serve – this is a requirement of My messengers.

But not all are so free as all have attachments.

But, not all are so swallowed up by them. What are you that you must be here or there? Except for a few bills, you need very little. You have seen that with a few bucks, or good credit, you can just go and do whatever you are called to do. Less is needed for those who are free. The fewer things you have to worry about, the freer that you are.

But, there are still mundane necessities to acquire and they are not free. Freedom entails not having to worry about these either.

All is given to those who have need.

We don't believe this to be true, as so many are without the basics.

But their choices are not yours. Would it not be wiser to starve to death than live a long life of misery? Many make this very choice. Perhaps they do not choose to continue the path.

But why choose such a life?

Don't judge, for you have also chosen foolish things.

We don't seek to judge, but to understand. Surely the soul has motivations that seem totally ridiculous to us.

From a different perspective, all things appear differently. You will understand one day and see the richness of the life of a starving child who seeks to return to God and feel the comfort of home. A long life is not necessary. Some souls learn very quickly. Some take longer.

What of the soul that feels trapped in worthless circumstances in seemingly endless suffering?

It has called forth all things and does exactly what is called forth. You can stop at any time and go home. You are here by choice, not by requirement.

But, why do we have desires which go unfulfilled?

Desires are motivations. You don't move merely to move. You feel compelled to move for reasons that are your own. You are to do what you are drawn to do. Would you simply write for no reason? Do you get up in the morning and think, "oh how wonderful to sit and write?" No, it is the compelling desire that makes you write. Otherwise you would not.

You are compelled to write, not because of incentives, but because of the desire of your heart. Incentives are merely results of writings, not reasons for it. If all who wrote did it for the money, would not their deepest inspiration be compromised? Write to help yourself and others find God. Money comes with or without writing. Don't even let money be your motivation. Money is the least effective motivator as all management texts emphasize. Comfort and freedom are far more motivating. Love should be the greatest mover of people. Let the love of your heart cause you to bring forth your gifts unto the world. Money follows, but does not motivate.

But money pays for necessities. Let's be honest, money does make the world go round.

But if money is your motivator, then you can do almost anything to get it. If the love of God is your motivator, then you will get money as a means of survival, but your efforts will not depend upon it. To serve others does not require money. You only think it does.

Were we not so dependent upon money, could we not serve better?

More freely, of course. But, with this comes different responsibilities. To advertise is to put yourself in many places. Are you willing to do what is required? Would you rather be in isolation and be free to be home at night or in constant travel status? Travel is tiring and advertising is a factor of popularity. People don't come to your house – you go to them.

But there is a balance to all things. Should we live for one or for all? If the service to self is not satisfying, then what should we do?

Be prepared for you do not understand how the world does put demands upon its servants. They may see you but for a minute, but you are to be seen by others. How much of yourself are you willing to give?

Those who have done this know how to balance their time. To keep others from controlling them is key. The world will burn you up, so balance must be achieved. Successful writers do not die from over exposure.

But they do get tired. Are you willing?

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

_Having comes from roots of want. If you had not wanted, you would not have sought having. "_ **I will give you the desires of your heart and desire is the first step to having. " (Psalms 37:4, NAS)**

You are quite free with desires, but having seems the impossible dream.

Only for a time, then having makes room for a new desire.

Can you believe that you have at last heard and understood desires? I give you your truest desires that you may know what you are called to do. The desires of your heart – I give you the desires of your heart. Get it?

Sure, we have desires, but what's the point?

I AM the Desire Giver – I lead you to where you have chosen to go. Otherwise, you might have to stumble upon it. Either way, you'll get there.

But we desire so many things and so few we actually get. How can we distinguish what's a true desire from something we merely want?

A want deals with physical pleasure or fulfillment. A true desire gives meaning to your life.

But do not wants give meaning to our lives? Are we not driven by both wants and desires?

Everything is relative – you do live too much by fear. But, are your fears not somehow related to your life? Fear is not the cause of your life, fear is not necessary. Fear is something that you can control just as are all other emotions. You have very well managed to suppress your loving thoughts. Why not your fearful thoughts?

You are right. Loving thoughts are easy to control. Fearful thoughts are not.

You are wrong – both are equally easy or difficult to control. Train your mind. You have taught yourself to be unloving, so now teach yourself to be loving.

But don't we have to feel love before we can be loving? Is it all a mind game?

Feelings were natural in the beginning. You have learned to manipulate your responses to them to alter your experience. The minute you feel love is the next minute coming a fearful thought. You have learned this as an emotional protective device. Unlearn it. Stop thinking away your happiness.

But if we don't, we'll be stupid and do something foolish.

So what – be stupid and foolish. Better a happy fool than a sad wise person. Fools laugh. Why don't you?

Because we're not feeling happy about our choices. If we chose this, the consequences are miserable. Who enjoys a fall from grace? Who loves to live in poverty, especially after so many years of hard work and study? Granted, it has been worse, but why not better? If we choose one, why not the other?

Learning is for all and the process does include highs and lows. Has your life not gone through such patterns already?

Yes, as have all others. But, it would seem that ups are so short lived and the downs are more lasting.

Yes, primarily because of your focus. A low period can be filled with all sorts of little ups which you lose sight of. Neither need be exclusive of the other. But your attention causes one to seem larger or longer than the other.

We can understand that, but what draws us to focus on the negative rather than the positive?

The positive is accepted as it is. The negative you see as somehow needing to be fixed, thus requiring your focus, management by exception.

That makes perfect sense. So, we don't accept what is deemed as negative for simply what it is. We see it as something to be corrected, not that it is correct as it is.

Exactly. If you accepted both negative and positive equally, then one would seem as the other.

But are we not taught to fix the wrongs? You would not let a sick child go without treatment.

Your whole world is so obsessed with sickness. Stop it – this need not be. How can you be well if everyday you are expecting illness to befall you? Stop focusing on sickness, illness and death. Focus on living your life.

Tell us how to live better lives. We can't seem to figure it out and make it work.

What say you accept what you have and deal with it? Never have you been accepting. Always you have sought more and better. What if you were pleased exactly where you are with what you have?

We are trying, but living expenses are just going up at a much greater rate than our earnings. Lord, we try.

And I know this. But, what do you expect to do with more? At what point are you satisfied?

When we don't have to worry about it. When there's enough to pay everything without worry.

You don't have to worry now. Worry solves nothing.

But surely there is a better way. Tell us what it is.

Honestly, there is a better way – a peaceful and loving way. Remember your grandparents who lived and died mentally poor even though they had plenty.

But that was not always the case.

But when they did, they still were not without worries. They were ridiculously attached to money. They have taught two generations how to be equally attached to money. The more you struggle for it, the more you struggle for it.

Why is this?

Because you struggle until you are satisfied. Will you ever be satisfied?

Hopefully. It's not as if we live an exorbitant lifestyle. What does it take to make a worry free living?

Do what you love. This first is the key to the right way. You will never find success doing what you hate. Your energy will not be in it.

But we're not paid for doing what we love. At all!

Maybe someday. Keep at it until you are.

**Chapter 43 – A New Day Dawns**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Behold a new day dawns and all is good in the world. The star is shining and the world has finally begun to see its shining rays. For the sacrifice of extensive learning was given that so many would find comfort and healing. The world needs more saints to stand among them and let them know Me as I AM. I AM not as men have believed – I AM as you cannot even imagine. I AM all there is and nothing before seen. I AM just as you truly are. I AM you in every sense of being.

But behavior I AM not. Don't mistake your behaviors as having anything to do with Me. I do not behave one way or another – I simply AM. When you have seen past the veil of illusion, you will know that you simply are. You are not what is experienced by the illusory self. You are far greater than your mind can imagine. You have directed the movie in which you star. You are the star of the movie. You are celebrated for your star power and your willingness to please the world by your performances. The world has called you forth and you have answered the call. You are not alone – it is not a one person show. You have carefully scripted this movie to include all sorts of actors – they celebrate your stardom and share in your wonderful service to all of mankind.

If we are stars, what are you?

I AM the producer who has made all of this possible. I have given you the creative license to explore humanity from God's perspective. I have allowed you this freedom to know Me as I AM. Have you not enjoyed the project on which we have collaborated?

As you have said, we have known you as you are not. But, we're not certain that we know you as you are. Can we know you as you are?

Allow yourself to be open and willing and of course you can know love as it truly is.

Why is it so difficult to know Your love?

Because you place conditions on everything. From your perspective, nothing truly loving happens. Everything is seen as serving some selfish motive.

Is that not human nature? Were we godly creatures, we would not feel the need to be self serving. – if we knew ourselves as God, we would think that we had no needs. But believing ourselves human, we do believe we have needs. Isn't this the nature of the illusion?

Of course, or the experience you call life would be meaningless for the experience would be laughable. How could a god-realized person be so caught up in the mundane trivialities of life?

Is it possible to be totally god-realized and be alive?

Very close, as Jesus was. But the human part still beckons and feels - not nearly as for Him as for you. Knowing the truth and living the truth are different. You know the truth, but have not experienced it.

Can we?

At any time, but it is a life altering experience and never again will you see things as you did before.

As close to God as she was, Mother Teresa still was not so godly that she didn't feel great pain and she did suffer much from her lack of understanding. Of course, she did not have Jesus' healing powers. She had to pray just like the rest of us.

Her mission was doing, not healing. Her next step will be to return as a great teacher and demonstrate great healing as did Jesus.

Why did so loving a person suffer so much?

It was her movie and she was the star.

Her generosity caused her great suffering as did Jesus. Why do saints give only to suffer for it?

They know that suffering is only temporary, but the gifts are long lasting. Love is like this – give and you receive.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

The world of work is unforgiving and ruthless, so you are to keep it in proper perspective. Enjoy what you have worked so hard for. Don't assume that your life is more than it is or that you are ever stuck where you are. Your life is not meant to be a suffering but a living. At times it may seem as a suffering because you do not understand the larger view. But know that you are not what you do. You are what you choose to be. Believe always in the best that you would have and do. Let not your life be something that you would not have. Always reach for what you would have for this is the goal you have set for yourself. Always know that all things are possible. You are capable of all of the greatness that you desire. Don't ever see yourself as a victim of your circumstances for all circumstances serve a purpose. They are part of your growth process. You will always be given opportunities to do more – as you are called. Feel the love in your heart and follow its call toward perfection. Don't sit idly by and assume that there is nothing for you. All that you are to have is yours. Trust in the process of God's perfect will.

If trials are presented for us to learn what we didn't learn before, how can we know what to learn so that we can move on?

If perhaps the lesson was forgiveness, did you learn it? If the lesson was nonattachment, did you learn it? If the lesson was growth, did you learn it? If the lesson was "do what you love," did you learn it? There is no such thing as one lesson per trial. All lessons are incorporated into one. See your learning as a whole – all for one and one for all.

Oddly enough, we have not seen enough to know what is the big lesson. We thought that we had some idea about all of this, but then we are again back to square one.

As you have learned, your life is set and you can choose love or fear. The circumstances are set. How will you deal with what you are given?

But there seems no progress being made. If there is learning, what are we learning? Our role models went through these tough trials and did not seem to learn. Until one day they were given the breaks needed to let them live as they had chosen. Are you saying that we must simply wait until the doors are opened for us?

The time will come, for it is all set. You do not see the beauty of the intricate workings of life's little pieces. Can the world be so random that we do not all follow some sort of plan?

It would not seem so. The world does not appear to be so carefully planned and executed.

Then you have not seen the larger picture.

Does anyone ever really see the big picture while here in this life from behind the veil?

The rare few who have advanced beyond the mundane. Those who would see, will see.

What is the point of this directionless road we travel? It seems as if we swirl within the drain of life without feeling or growing?

It is only directionless in that you do not see all. It seems that you cover the same ground over and over, but in truth even if you covered the same ground over and over, your view would be different each time. It's all in what you have chosen. You have chosen to walk a path of discovery, but find there is nothing left to discover. The point of it all is to teach you what is truly meaningful. That is the love of God – the souls with whom you share this journey.

We have all come into this life to know each other?

To know all parts of God and to understand that even a saint will murder if feeling threatened. It's all relative. The human condition does teach that we are factors of the circumstances in which we find ourselves. There are not cut and dry rules – at the heart of man, is an animal. At the heart of the soul is God. A situation may seem tragic or comforting. It's all in the perspective. You tend to look at life as if it were black and white, when everything is really grey, subject to interpretation. All of life is based on judgments. Have you not yet learned this? Judge not – this is the key to changing your life. Simply float along and be always determined to allow life to answer your prayers. It will be as you choose.

So, Nelson Mandela is to see his many years in prison as the wonderful learning experience brought forth from God's love? Would he choose again to spend those many years in prison even if he would not have the current level of fame for the suffering?

No "man" would choose to spend twenty seven years in prison. A soul seeking perfection would offer such an experience to offer a great teaching to the world. Did not Christ choose to be crucified for the benefit of others? Those of greatness are called to make physical sacrifices for others. Have you not learned from this? Have you not grown from the experiences of others?

Have we learned that others must suffer for our benefit? Must we also suffer for others? What can we derive from these lessons?

All things affect all things. For having never actually met any of your role models, you are changed by them. The sad part is that you focus more on the "greater" role models than the "lesser" ones. Everyone in your life is a role model. Don't discount any one of them because you see them as not profound.

How can we live a better life, full of inspiration and hope and love?

Let life play itself out. Don't struggle. Don't let the perceived negativity control your everyday. Always look to the future that you would live. Don't let today be less because it is not what you would have it be. Let today be a building block for tomorrow. Each building block counts equally on the future that you would have.

But always, we look to the future and it does not seem to draw any closer. We seem stuck forever in the struggle for what we want and do not seem to make progress. We try this and that, but always we are in the quicksand of reality. How do we get out of the quicksand and stand upon the shores of our desires?

You have not yet understood the all – the little that builds the big. Let not the small steps be considered worthless and wasteful. You must see that life is filled with all that you need to get from here to there.

Why have You not shown us the connections? Why can we not see the internal workings toward the desired?

Because you choose to focus on the mundane. Would you not believe that beauty is in the details? Would you rather see a leap from here to there?

But, for some, we cannot even imagine being there as we are offered no insight into the promised land. How can we keep hope alive with no basis?

Your beliefs have much to do with the journey. If you somehow believe that better days are ahead, then you will find the strength to move forward. If you believe that there are not better days ahead, then this will be your experience.

But, according to You, it is all written and planned. We cannot change the outcome.

Yes, and this is so.

Then why should we even care?

Because, it is your nature to care. You want better, so you struggle to find it. You need not struggle, but you do.

Have we not believed that one day you would somehow shine your light of favor upon us?

You have believed and hoped. It keeps you going. Were you to have no hope, would you still try? Would you still struggle? Have faith in your own beliefs for surely they have some basis. If all who believed did not put forth some sort of effort toward their goals would they have achieved their goals? Walking by faith is all that has caused many to fulfill their dreams. Don't ever give up on that which you would have. It may not come how or when you thought, but surely it will come. If I put a song in your heart, sing it. If I put a book in your thoughts, write it. Don't write for success, but as a means of telling your truth. The truth shall set you free. Success is not measured in dollars. Success is measured in peace and comfort. Learn to judge success differently. Judge success as a means of telling your truth regardless of effects. Success comes from truth. Express your truth always and it will allow you to know success which is freedom. Freedom comes in many forms, not just financially. Don't write books to make money. Write books as an expression of who you are. From this comes success – for you will have lived your truth and have expressed it.

But, why write simply for expression?

Why paint for expression? Why make pottery for expression? Why sing for expression? Why express yourself at all?

Because you feel you must!

Then by all means, express yourself.

If Dr. Wayne Dyer knew that a book he was writing would not sell, would he still write it?

He has no need for additional worldly success and he finds great fulfillment in his expressions. He is sharing what he has learned with the world.

Perhaps he has enough to not feel obligated to write for money. Would Joyce preach even if no one showed up to hear her? Let's be honest – we do what we do in hopes of having it be accepted and rewarded.

Not everyone does, but the need for approval is great. People like to be liked. No one wants to be ignored.

But how can we distinguish between the person who loves to sing and the singer with natural talent? There are those from whom little effort is required. There are those who are very studied. There are those who can't carry a tune in a bucket. What determines success for each of them?

Destiny for it calls to constantly produce. Tenacity of the one who is never willing to give up. The one who finds his perfect niche and does not allow failure to even be a consideration succeeds. Would you say that Garth Brooks is a gifted singer or a determined performer? Garth Brooks described it best for himself stating that marketing is his talent, not singing.

But what about those who have no marketing skills – who are shy and introverted?

Whatever tools you need will be given you. Trust.

So, if we believe that we will be successful writers and don't give up, we will be?

If it is your destiny, how can you fail? A successful writer is the one who is satisfied with what he has written. It really matters not what others think.

But to the person whose mission is to help others, must it matter what others think?

No, you must trust that what is produced for benefit will serve the purpose for which it is intended. This is a point of faith. What is called forth must have been called forth. Someone needed that which came forth. The invention of car wash soap came from the need to wash cars and not damage the paint. It was the result or the effect of the cause. It was not invented and suddenly needed.

But electricity was invented and then found to be useful.

Or was it created to fulfill a need? Which came first – the need or the solution? Things are not invented to create. Things are invented to solve problems. So, it should be understood that solutions are called forth. That which is needed will be created. Research is done to solve problems. Books answer questions or provide entertainment. Music is not necessary, but is greatly enjoyed. What in this world is really needed? Perception of need is far greater than actual need. More time is spent on perfecting that which appears to be needed than on that which is actually needed. Compare industrial pursuits between food and nonessentials. Is more time spent producing automobiles or on purifying water? The luxuries of life are seen today as essentials. What needs do you really have?

But the worldly person would say that money is needed to buy essentials; therefore, a car is needed to go to work to make money. Clothes are required at work, etc. Granted, we do enjoy luxuries. But are not luxuries the fun part of life?

Sure, if everyone were willing to share equally, all could enjoy all the luxuries. If wealth were spread equally, all would enjoy life more. But, this is not likely. Wealth is hoarded by the few and the rest do without. In theory, this was possible through communism. But, that philosophy fell short of ideal and also died. In this world, man simply cannot share equally.

If one family adopted another family, then would this not go far in changing the world?

To the extent that both families benefited from it. It has to be a mutually beneficial relationship, not just one giving to the other. Share goes both ways. There must be giving and receiving equally – not necessarily monetarily. Instead of the United States pouring money into a country, what if families adopted families? The close relationship would offer a great monitoring system. An almost instant feedback. There is no accountability now. Pouring money at a problem does not solve it – it creates other problems. People must be allowed or empowered to find their own solutions. In this there is greater success and fulfillment. Offering assistance is helpful, but not everyone wants their problems solved for them.

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Allow yourself the pleasures of life for life is meant to be lived. A day spent in fear and despair is a day wasted.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Do not be so attached to life that you feel you need to live in fear of losing it._

Let yourself be joyful always for life is but a dream.

But the dream seems so very real. Why is the dream not more pleasant?

Then it would be heaven, which you left to experience this - the anti-heaven. You know that this is not heaven. You know that this is not right for you – you do not feel comfort here. Then, how can you find peace when you are stuck in anti-heaven? Your mind can visit heaven at will. Even your body can go if you are so determined. But a body in heaven is not heavenly. The body is a restrictive barrier to all that you are. The body greatly limits who you are for you are limitless, yet the body is not. But, the body is powerless and can be manipulated at will. You can make it do whatever you choose. You can make it pick up a gun and kill someone. Did the body kill the person or did your mind? The body is the servant of the mind. Of itself, it does nothing. We often blame it, but in truth, it is the puppet of the mind. What does the body of a brain-dead person do? What does the body of a quadriplegic do? Is the body the master or the servant? When the body dies, does the mind also die?

What are we – how do we know ourselves?

By peeling away the layers of life's learning so that you are free from those burdens of limitations. Know yourself as unlimited and powerful. Trust that you have all the answers. You are the love that God created. You need nothing nor do you have need of doing things. Do what you love because it brings you joy. Seek always joy in life. In all that you do, find the joyful moments which are intended and well deserved. You are not here as a punishment. You are here as an experience. Like taking a vacation to experience out of the ordinary, you are on a bodily vacation. Won't you be glad to get back home – be it ever so humble, there's no place like home!
**Chapter 44 – Thoughts Change Energy Into Form**

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Ah, reaching for the stars. No longer settled in the mire. Let's look at something mundane and see it as profound. Cleaning away the levels of pseudo-truth, let's look at the true reality. How can anything be as it is seen? Can anything be what you have made of it? You have taken mere thought and turned nothing into something that you will swear is real. Talk about magic – you have really done some tricks. But, since you have not acquired or realized your true vision, you have only small pieces of information with which to operate. Until you have seen through God's eyes, you will not comprehend the worthlessness of your own sight.

You are told that all things emanate from energy. Thoughts change energy into form. Could this not also work in reverse? Could your thoughts cause things to disappear? You are not so developed that you can watch things appear from or return to energy. Energy is not seen except by the few. Jesus could materialize forms at will. He could see what you cannot. With all of your great scientists, you are still baffled by this concept. Matter from energy is beyond your scope. Were you to have widespread control of this concept, imagine the mess that you would create. It would be similar to giving nuclear weapons to children on a playground. You do not know the power that you can control; therefore, misuse would be inevitable.

That concept makes sense. But what of good uses – why are our God given abilities not more known to us?

You have a tendency to abuse your gifts. You may start out with good intentions, but soon you are on the road to disaster. You have a little trouble with self-control.

What is the point of knowing about such things if they are always out of our experience?

The learning process is filled with amazing things, but until you are capable of self-control you would be wise to not experience them. Even though He could have, Jesus did not intervene in the process. He knew that things were to go according to plan. He did use His knowledge to try to help others on their paths to God. Of course, man with his selfish interest, did turn something loving into something fearful. As a means of control, men do assign punishments to everything.

We've been over this and have not progressed further. If we are not to learn more, why are we discussing this?

You asked for profound truths. Is there another topic you would prefer to discuss?

How can we put our lives to good use?

A loving experience will always be considered a good use. Let your life be one of loving experiences. Teach others to be more loving. Even if love is selfish, it is still loving. If you truly love yourself, you will be more loving toward others.

Why have we not progressed further? We seem to have hit a wall, which has caused us to resort back to our old ways? What is the purpose of this? Is it possible for us to grow further?

Of course, but you must take the ladder one rung at a time. You wish to skip over the bad steps. You have believed that spiritual growth makes life easier. Life is what it is. You cannot make it easier, but you can learn to deal with it more gently. So many people want to make great strides in a short time, only to find that they have lost their way.

But we seem to be going over and over the same things. It seems that nothing profound has been accomplished for all of the effort? We have been on the downslide for years – in fact, all of the years of our supposed learning. It seems that spiritual growth is very costly. What is the lesson in this?

For you to grow in faith, you must learn to trust. If you do not believe in God, how will you be open to the possibilities? You surely believe in God for all the punishments, else you would not fear Me. Why so much belief for one thing and not the other?

Because our experience teaches us that punishments come quickly but rewards are years away. There seems to be a pattern of experience for those who would serve you. Years of downfall and all sorts of trials. For years – between five and ten it seems, the would-be servants are beaten down to egoless lumps of doubt. When all hope seems lost – poof, You seem to offer the miracle that brings forth the service opportunity with the means. What is the purpose of this?

The Manual For Teachers section of A Course In Miracles explains the process for readying God's teachers. The first stage is a trust building exercise. In order to do what you must, you must have great faith that God will always provide. Do you now have this trust?

Nope. Based on our experience, we believe that You will give us the minimum to keep us interested, but will not give us what we need to be of service.

Please re-read the Manual For Teachers.

Ok, we've read it and studied it. What is the message that we are to derive from it?

Can you not see the remarkable similarity in all these examples? What did your mentors learn from this process?

A total shift in direction. From one way of life to the right way of life. Each was shifted from a meaningless pursuit of income to a wonderful manner of service. Not just the learning and studying – each was completely removed from their former lives/livelihoods and were shifted into their purposeful fulfillment. This is not only for the spiritual teachers, but the pattern from choice to destiny is one followed by so many. Those who feel out of place in their careers are suddenly shifted to uncertainty and a rebuilding process. J. K. Rowling had a similar situation. When she was on public assistance, don't you imagine that she felt rather hopeless and helpless? Could she have imagined her life today?

But this is true for some, but not the majority. Not everyone has a similar experience.

What makes this applicable to us?

Were this information irrelevant to your life, we would not be discussing it now. I do not bring to your awareness worthless information.

But J. K. Rowling is not teacher of God – why is this her experience?

How do you know what is her path? She has taught much and by the messages that she presents, does she not teach good over evil? She teaches reading. Do God's teachers only teach spirituality? You again limit God. You assume that bringing happiness to the world via seemingly worthless messages that love is not the lesson being taught. God only teaches love. The teacher is also the student.

Are there other mentors of this process for us?

If a person is to shift from one place to another, some sort of detachment from the former must occur. There are so many stories about people getting fired as the pivotal point in their lives. In the book Second Acts (Pollan and Levine, 2002,) about changes in paths during the second half of life, it can be clearly seen that what happens in the first half of life is not necessarily a determinant for the second half of life. There are so many examples – just look around.

But changing careers is no guarantee of success. There are many who have suffered greatly and have not found success in new careers. How can we know that success will be ours in the second careers?

There is quite a difference between a career and a purposeful fulfillment. Success is a measure based on a person's judgment. What is for you is set – your truest desire and highest calling are what drive you. No one else's life will mirror yours. Each walks his own path.

But examples give us inspiration when God is silent, offering no true specific direction. We need some direction when none seems obvious.

That's true, but don't expect your life to be like Joyce's. You are not her nor is she you.

Certainly not, but we do need mentors. We need help on the path that we have chosen. How best can the burning passion of destiny be known?

It keeps calling to you, even if you try to deny it. You know it even when alone in the dark. You cannot run from it, you cannot stop it. It is as much a part of you as your body. It is what you would do if you could choose to do only what you wanted.

You continually want to rush things. You want to be a movie star tomorrow. You do not know that this would scare you so badly that you would not be able to overcome the shock. Yah, relax. No one likes to wait. The ego deals harshly with those who are not struggling wastefully. God, however, enjoys a relaxing slow development.

But why all the idleness? What's the point?

Preparedness – you must be prepared.

For what? How can we prepare for what is not known?

You are, at this very moment being prepared. Trust has to be built.

Trust in what? It's ironic that your trust building exercise has done exactly the opposite. It has really caused more doubt than trust.

Because you have not seen phase six – achievement. This is the stage when trust is firmly cemented into your life. This is when you know, at last, that you are on the right path and that God goes with you wherever you go. Part of learning to trust God is learning not to have faith in the world. You once were convinced that it worked a certain way and that by your hard work you would succeed. Now, you have surely seen that this is not true. So, for a time, you have faith in nothing. You were seeking to find something to have faith in. Now, neither the world nor God seemed to offer a basis for faith. Until God shows up and rescues you, you will live in faithless limbo. This is surely hell. Hell on earth - nothing works for you. You feel totally dejected and alone. What can you do? Where do you turn? God doesn't answer and people are unwilling to listen. This is what the hopeless experience. The dark night of the soul.

This is a time for great soul searching. Soon after this, the helpers are found and faith begins to dawn. As you walk toward the new destination, mysterious things begin to happen which seem to be destined for you. You begin to grow in faith with each miracle witnessed. Suddenly you are aware that God has been there all long. You remember all of those who helped you along the way. You see the signs that you had missed before. Now you are at last free of struggles for you have finally seen the light.

But, why does the light hide from us for so very long? Should half of our lives be spent in darkness before the light dawns?

For some yes, but for some are born into the light. Your path is your own and you shall see when you are to see. Seeing the light does not however, guarantee ease of all pursuits. There must still be mundane details to attend.

But now we also deal with mundane details. Wouldn't it be nice to have pleasure to accompany?

Trust Me when I say, there will be pleasure ahead. How many times have I told you this, yet you hear Me not?

How many promises are made and results don't follow? You have told us so many times that things are on the upswing, but we find them not. How long must we wait and be teased along?

I have told you great things for years now, but you not chosen to believe them. You have chosen to focus on what you see and not what is coming. Why do you believe that I will not honor My promises to you?

Because You haven't.

Does this mean that I won't?

If it was Your intent to build our faith and You have all manner of faith building techniques at Your disposal, why have You not chosen to demonstrate Your intent?

God is trying to get you to see the light.

Then show us some light. You have done so much for others, but have left us to encourage ourselves. Why the preferential treatment?

Because treatment is individualized. You get what you need. One day, you'll laugh when you tell the story of how you chased God and He ran away.

Not laughing now.

Why not – just picture God running away from you. It makes me laugh.

Let's trade places and see how funny it is.

I cannot even imagine. God would go crazy with your thoughts in His head.

So, You know how we feel. Why not offer some much needed relief?

Ok, ok, you've beaten Me down. Convince me now that you love me.

How many people spend so much time obsessed over you?

Why do you obsess over that which you do not believe will help you? Hope springs eternal.

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For all the world, what would you give? Would it be worth even a cent? The world is not real and is therefore valueless. So, don't be so distracted by the dealings of the world. Spend your time on spiritual pursuits – the things that matter. Focus not on behavior or worldly trappings. Seek to find the inner beauty in each person. Seek to find true meaning in all things.

But how do we not get caught up in trivial things? Behavior seems to be the only inlet into people's lives. How can we get inside without prying?

Allow people to be themselves – they will open up if given the opportunity. If they think you care, they will feel this and you'll be able to get past the behavior and meet the real person inside. At the heart level, all people are the same. Behaviors are defense mechanisms to keep vulnerability hidden. If a person did not feel the need to put up defenses, then defenses would melt away and become totally useless. What causes a person to be defensive? They feel attacked. Why do they feel attacked? Because they feel that some weakness has been exposed. A different choice of communication would allow people to be more open. To feel accused causes a defensive reaction. Understand that everyone has hidden issues or sore spots that serve as behavioral triggers. Each trigger is different, but rest assured that everyone has them. Make attempts to draw people in and not push them away. Feel the needs – some need more and some need less. It's a learned thing – a skill of wisdom.

Isn't it ironic that people appreciate your efforts more once they have been without them?

The old adage "you don't know what you've got till it's gone" applies. But, at that point, it's only a lesson learned and not a solution. People are all too often taken for granted. What we imagine as horrible can easily be rather ok when presented with worse. And there's always worse. Not all people are kind and giving. Try to find the suitable in the unsuitable – surely there is hope to be found in almost everyone.

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Behold, a new day dawns in your humble life. Lessons of humility need be no more, for you have swallowed enough. As I have told you, you have weathered the storms that have caused you great harm. You have felt the sting of humiliation and have stepped up to bat again and again. You have allowed the world to see your strength. In this there is great honor, far more than you have imagined. Let not the world see what you are not, but what you are.

But what are we?

The loving children of God who have walked through the world a day after day and have always trodden forward even through ups and downs. Is this not an example for the entire world to see?

We have begged for the chance to honor our calling, but as yet have not found the window of opportunity.

Fear not little ones for I AM with you always and would not even consider allowing you to miss your call. You cannot help but be at the right place at the right time.

Where is the right place and when is the right time?

Would the world be a mystery if all were revealed? Ask not meaningless questions and spend your time trusting. Allow the world to know you as you are, and by this, Me as I AM.

How frustrating is it to be left full of desire and no opportunity for fulfillment.

Yes, and frustration builds to a fever pitch till you are thrust unto the world.

Are we wrong to feel that?

How life changes in an instant. Your focus is set in one direction and suddenly all is shifted and another view comes into focus. For a person who suffered much and enjoyed so little, at last there is peace which eluded him all the days of his life. Enjoy the peace of God and know that you are well within His loving care.

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Unto the heavens go the weary souls, destined for relief from life and much beauty ahead. In this cycle of life and after life does come great wisdom, for the truth is known of what you are. Can it be that you are this thing so fragile and full of despair? Would God have created something so useless as this thing that is your body and your so-called life? Give God some credit – there is nothing temporary created by God – you have created the thing that you call life for the experience of your pretend godliness. You are playing god in your world, but what you are beginning to realize is that God cannot be so fallible as you have presumed.

The light begins to dawn upon you that your image of God is all wrong and that you have been greatly mislead by the teachings of your created world. Truth does stand the test of time and does ever rise in answer to all questions. Only one solution does solve all problems – in this there is great peace and relief once it is fully realized. All is set beforehand and nothing changes destiny. Your struggles are but your efforts to control that which is uncontrollable. Let go of this and be free.

Trust in the process set forth by souls eager to learn the truth – for to know God truly, one must know God not. Let yourself enjoy the freedom of the process for once you have known the secret to life, you will be able to enjoy it. When you have let go of your fear of God and your fear of all sorts of punishments, guilt can melt away and love can be more openly shown. For who can hate that which is perfect? Seeing life for what it is, is very freeing. Let go of your expectations and enjoy that which you have set forth for yourself.

All things are meant for your soul's development. Understand this and the process becomes clearly painted on your mind. Once you let go of expectations and judgments, then you can see life unfold before you. You can see that all is a well oiled machine – not the random series of events that you seem to think is your life. Were there no plan for your life, then all would perhaps flow more smoothly. If you know that the plan is in place and working, you know that you can let go of the wheel and leave the driving to God. This change in perception does create a far more peaceful experience and does free your mind to focus on more loving pursuits.

Why is predestination not more obvious earlier in life?

If you knew the game was fixed, would you bother to play it?

But if there is great freedom and relief in the truth, why is it so hard to achieve if this is the goal?

Remember, it is the goal of those who have chosen to know the truth. Not everyone will know the truth in the present life – everyone is not on the same schedule. But when a person is ready, the truth shall set them free.

The truth has not yet set us free. We cannot fully comprehend that all is pre-planned. The concept is larger than our minds seem to grasp.

It will dawn upon you and you will come to grips with it. It cannot be denied.

Is there really peace in the truth?

When taken to heart and known completely, how can peace not be the result? Guilt must be gone. Judgment must go. What can be left?
**Chapter 45 – Elevate Your Thinking**

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Be ever diligent to learn the truth about life and God. You have deceived yourselves and have believed that life is about material success. When you have learned to elevate your thinking, you lift your sights far higher than mere trifles of dust. You have not recognized that having is your substitute for being. You have not seen that the whole of your life has been the pursuit of acceptance and approval and you have believed that by acquisition these can be found. You would rather be accepted by man for having money than for the kindness of your heart. You have sought approval where there truly is none. Your motives have always been selfish, even when you have pretended generosity – always have you sought approval and acceptance.

But, there does come a point in each person's life when these two things are realized as meaningless for they never bring happiness or joy. Happiness and joy are only found in self-satisfaction, not in the pleasing of others. There will never come a point when you will ever be certain that you have satisfied another. Only your standards need be met and it must be understood that the standards for each person are different. Each must walk his/her own path to find the joy that God has placed within their hearts. Each path need not be lonely for there is an endless cast of characters walking beside you offering you the experience of your choosing. You too play a role in the paths of others. You must allow others to find their happiness just as you must be allowed to find yours. As with any game, not all players play the same roles. The team must consist of all types of players.

Expand your view further and you will see the other teams, the fans and the many people who benefit from the game. Your game is never played alone, but your perspective will give you the sight of your personal involvement in something incredibly large. You will be able to see how the whole works perfectly to present the grandest performance. If you expand your vision, you will be able to see how everything was, is and is to be perfectly connected. There are no isolated events. You have all chosen perfectly your places upon the tapestry of life. You have chosen to bring forth wonderful experiences of that which you are not to learn that which you are.

Once you have realized the futility of life, you begin to seek to find your truest self and purpose. You know that you are not the reason for all of this and your limited experiences have not saved the world. What then is the purpose of your lives? Upon this question does lay the answers you have sought. Upon letting go of your little perception, you begin to see the bigger picture and the grand purpose is revealed. You begin to see what you and all others truly are and God is thus revealed. Once you have opened your eyes to the reality of yourself and God, then you can live a life of freedom and live as you truly intended.

You did not come into this world to be this or that; you came to have the experience of God and to know what you truly are. Would you ever be truly satisfied if all you learned from life is that you are a doctor, lawyer or office worker? This is not what you are – these are roles that you have played. What you truly are is so magnificent that a mere role play could never begin to characterize your reality. Don't see yourselves as merely the little roles that you have played. These roles are meaningless in the eternal truth of your creation. God did not create workers. God created eternal souls like Himself and no limits you place upon yourselves will ever diminish your truest self.

In life, what you may think that you are is merely a perception of the role that you have chosen to play. But in God's perception, which you are learning, you are far greater than any job that you have held or role that you have played. If God created this world with all of its limitations, He would be powerless indeed, hardly worthy of your pursuits. But, in the game of life, you have always known there is something greater to behold. In your tiny wisdom, you have know that there must be more to the picture for what could God's purpose be in creating this world? You have been taught that God created all of this and that man failed to live up to God's standards and therefore was punished.

But look further and realize that God has no need for any of this. He does not sit in heaven as the puppet master watching and waiting for you to sin so that He can dish out just punishments. Man has put his standards upon God and God needs no such standards. There is great similarity between your views of kings or rulers and how you see God. But man cannot even imagine the truth of God, so how does he profess to know that God sits on a throne and is a vengeful and jealous God? You are told that God has said these things, yet you have not heard them for yourselves. You have accepted long passed down tales of what God said as your truth.

You have not taken the time to know God for yourselves. What would cause you to take some else's version of God for your own? Why do you imagine that you are somehow not worthy of hearing God's voice for yourself? You have chosen to believe that you are not worthy or holy enough, even thought all of your biblical heroes were human just like you. It's amazing how you choose to remember people after their deaths. You tend to forget all of their humanness and tend to focus only on the good qualities. How can you know a person truly who lived thousands of years ago?

There is no written record, even today which is one hundred percent accurate for all words are subject to interpretation. Why then do you give allegiance to written records instead of your own personal experience? You are told that documents such as the Bible are the words of God, but on what is this based? Is there God's stamp of approval on the cover? Historians all know that the content of the Bible has been changed, so I guess God elected certain person to be His biblical editors. And what of the various translations? How did God give the Bible info to certain languages and not to others, knowing full well that meanings are lost in translation? Perhaps only certain languages could benefit fully from God's words. Perhaps God only knew one language and only spoke to certain generations? Perhaps God gave specialness to certain people – His Chosen People?

Would God have chosen certain people to be His only saved people? Is this not one of the most judgmental things that God could do? Why then did He have to come back and revise His stance, opening the door to others? If God could have made a mistake, then this must have been one. If only those chosen people or those who profess salvation through Jesus could be saved, God could be viewed as racist or exclusive. Would God have ever been so limiting? Why would God have need of one human's life to bring souls home to heaven? What of the souls who were born before the one human and were not the chosen race? Were all doomed to hell simply by birth? Could this actually be the work of the all loving, all powerful God?

Give God some credit and do not make the mistake of putting limits on His wisdom. If all have sinned, as you believe, then how could not all be returned to heaven equally? Does God have need of your confessions? Does God not know you truly? Is there anything that man can do to take away God's souls from God's loving heaven? You would say yes and immediately give hundreds of examples. Does a man in prison become less of a man? Does a child of God ever become less of a child of God?

You cannot change a soul that God has created nor prevent its return to God no matter what behaviors the body has committed. Even the body's absolute denial of God cannot erase the soul within. The soul within is not reflected by outward behavior. Behavior on earth is absolutely meaningless in heaven. Does God not understand that you are reacting in life according to your circumstances? If life is a role play exercise, why do you put so much eternal validity upon it? Surely God has wisdom greater than this. Why do you not?

But we do not have vision to see the bigger picture and know the wisdom of God. How can we know God personally?

Simply by choosing to. God is no different than your truest self. But you have believed yourself and God to be limited. You have allowed others to tell you what you should believe instead of coming to your own conclusions. You have been lazy and have not chosen to take the time to do your own research. If you would but put aside all that you have been taught, the way to knowing God would open.

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Well, well, well – you have mustered and survived another life altering event which you were certain was beyond your abilities. You see, life is merely a path of twists and turns set to bring forth your great inner strength. That which you imagine to be unbearable is really but a building block of stamina for your experience. To know yourself as you truly are, you go through things, although many are very unpleasant, which are designed to demonstrate how you can experience things and come through them with a wealth of learning meant to allow you to show others that life is merely perception based on perspective.

Constantly you draw on your inner strength, not because you want to, but because you feel you must. You can choose to go through them with strength or cower down and be overwhelmed. This is your choice. Life is not an exercise in futility – but a discovery of your mind control over situations. There are hardships as well as pleasures; each will bring forth character tools meant to help others through theirs. How you choose to handle them is your teaching tool. There occurs no event in isolation. There is learning for all in all. You are not alone. See that life is what you make of it. Go with the flow and make the most of what you have chosen.

It would seem that life is meant to whip you – to bring you to your knees over and over until you give up the struggle.

Surely you do not believe that you have merely come here to suffer and die. What would be the point? If you choose to look at life in this way, this will be your experience. If you choose to look at life as a series of challenges meant to demonstrate your inner truth, then this will be your experience. Have you not learned that there are things of meaning in your every experience? You work with all others, sharing the experiences of others, drawing upon their strengths and they upon yours.

When you look down from above, you see the intricate workings of a very complicated system. None in isolation for all are interconnected. It is from this that you draw strength, knowing that all conspire to make life what it is. The joining of all for the experience of all. There is nothing new. Others have walked before you and others will walk after you. You imagine yourself to have been the first to have gone through each experience, but soon learn that you are not alone nor are the first. Everyone suffers hurt and disappointment. How these are experienced are the lessons you were meant to learn. When you have left this life, you will know why you have experienced what you have. You will know the futility of each "disaster" presented as merely a learning exercise. In eternity, these "disasters" are meaningless, so why not see them today as such?

It is almost impossible for us to turn off our perceptions here on earth. We are certainly not disconnected.

How you choose to experience them is what they are to you. The more emphasis you place upon something, the greater its effects on you will be. In this way, you can punish yourself needlessly – suffering greater than need be.

But should we go through life as robots, unaffected by life's ups and downs?

You did not come here for that purpose. From heaven you could watch things unaffected. You came to feel, to experience things fully. You find it difficult to realize that you have chosen this so that you will know yourself. You cannot imagine that you have wanted it all – the good and bad. You do love the highs and lows. You have come to enjoy the pain and the pleasure. From the moments of pain do eventually come moments of pleasure. Just as from the pain of the loss of a loved one does eventually come relief from worry. A full range of emotions comes from a single event. Life is for experience and nothing more. Don't give it more credit than it's due.

But we are so easily swallowed up in it. It often seems overwhelming. Efforts to overcome the fear seem almost futile. Our best mental control seems no match for the events.

Your perception is based on your chosen experiences. Perhaps you have chosen to be less bold and more dependent. Then life will offer you these opportunities to develop dependence. There is no experience wasted in life. Each will give the desired benefit. You tend to see your life in the spotlight – but how can this be. You are merely more aware of your life, but certainly it is no more important. You are not the first nor will you be the last. Take away emphasis from your life and you will have fewer burdens to behold. Focus on the burdens of others and yours is less. Where you put your attention contributes greatly to your experience.

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On the subject of a mentor, there is already assigned all the help that you will ever need. You do not see the help assigned, but surely all have conspired to help you be what God has called you to be. Have I not told you that you are a star in God's eyes? How can you doubt the things that I tell you?

Honestly, so many things we thought we heard were apparently untrue. Things have not happened as You have said or as we have heard. Years have passed and we are no closer to your stated goals than before. What must we do to bring forth goal attainment?

You do not attain goals. Goals are benchmarks for attainment. What you attain is a circumstance. Yes, this may be a play on words, but it is like saying you want something versus saying that you have it. Now, as you well know, you have many books. Has not God given you the very foundation upon which you are to have what you desire?

True, but when do we get to put up the house on the foundation? An empty foundation, regardless of merit, isn't much.

This is quite true, but the foundation is necessary. One must come before the other. Your foundation of books need only grow depending on the size of the house that you would build.

How long can an empty foundation sustain hope?

For as long as necessary. Build and build your foundation for it really costs you nothing.

But what is the point if the house does not appear?

The point is that it is your calling and you must do what you must. Stop at any time and you'll begin again. You cannot leave it behind.

It's almost like a cruel joke. But, greater tricks have been played on us.

God doesn't do tricks nor lead people astray. If you are to honor your gut feelings, then surely something must come forth.

What is the holdup? Time waits for no one. You have taken us out of one world and have left us in limbo. We cannot find rest in either world.

Help does this way come. Were you not just thinking about a mentor and today you saw that message on Joel? Coincidence? Believe as you will.

But we have begged for so long for a mentor, yet none comes.

You would believe that this is God's way of hurting you more. He takes and takes and takes. He pretends to have a plan and then nothing happens. This is how God punishes. He gives dreams and takes away any hope of accomplishment. Isn't this really how you see God?

That seems to be how it has worked. But we keep trudging along. Holding on to baseless hope, begging for help.

Is this the loving act of a loving God?

You would say that it's us who have chosen this. We have punished ourselves. All experiences are beneficial. Blah, blah, blah.

But, you imagine that you are alone. Your life must have meaning to others.

How can this be? Think of the homeless person who seems to benefit no one.

You do not know the lives touched by each person.

Why is it not more obvious?

All things happen according to the collective plan.

If the plan works so well, then why does it seem so chaotic?

In the grand scheme, it is meaningless. So organized or chaotic, it really doesn't matter. Don't put more into it than its worth.

So, don't buy into the collective. Should we then set ourselves apart and bear out our final days?

As you wish. For the most part, you've done this already. You have never followed the crowd nor even wanted to be in it. You do tend to isolate yourself, but this is for the purpose of hearing God for yourself. What you have learned while in your isolation is that you do need almost nothing and no one to exist. But, isn't it more pleasant to be around others? God is not truly served alone. Learn in quiet what you will. Then share it with the world. Yours is not to judge the results, but to merely pass along the info given.

"Pass along" seems to be the missing link. How do we pass along what we have heard?

The means are of God and you shall always be led to do what is called forth. Fear not, the messages were not to have fallen on deaf ears. The inner drive that you have is for a reason. Keep writing and I will bring forth unto the world that which is called forth. Do not doubt that God has made you the teacher of what you have been given. To save your soul is enough, but not all there is. God typically speaks to one for the benefit of many. Moses didn't need what was given him, but he was to share with others that which the others could not hear for themselves. Not everyone chooses to do the research. Your life has been a constant research project and this more than anything should demonstrate that you have the purpose of sharing what you have learned. You have lived your life to get to this point. You are the perfect teacher, not distracted by so many worldly things. Is there a more perfect person for this opportunity?

Those who are less free are often the messengers.

Not necessarily. All different types are called. But only those who are convicted do the research. Those who can do both are less likely, until such time as their circumstances are less affected. But surely, God had called you early. Don't waste your time doubting. Doubt accomplishes nothing.

But neither does false hope.

Don't focus on expectations. If you truly believe in God, then how can you deny His call upon your life?

Look at our lives. What points us in the direction of God service?

You see the pieces of the puzzle falling into place. A huge obstacle has fallen away. This was one of your main fear producing elements. You know this as surely as you know me. Instantly you were aware.

But how sad is that?

Not sad at all, merely a relief for both.

So what does this really change?

Not reality, but perception. Obstacles in your way will melt away and the open road will appear.

You make things sound rather easy. Why has this not been our experience?

Because you do not look higher than the mirror. You somehow still believe that you must do this or that to make this happen. From sadness does come rebirth. See the petals of the flower of your life unfold – the restrictions are gone. I bet you never realized the powerful hold upon you it held.

Rather suffocating. The shame of having your worst critic in your own circle.

So, with the worst out, who's in?

Do tell.

All the love of the world shall enter your life in the most magnificent way. Let not doubt or fear rule you. Sure, there are critics ahead, but none which held so tight a grasp. Breathe freely for the noose is loose.

But still there is a noose.

But it is made of paper and can easily be broken. It cannot bind you, you merely think it can.

Ok, so the bindings are being lifted, but what of the financial constraints?

Money is easy for Me, but you imagine that it is not. Don't be so swallowed up by what you experience now. Things do change. You have rebuilt a desolate existence and will continue to grow in strength and finances. It can all change in a day. Don't worry for this is temporary.

Why the hardships that seem to limit our possibilities? More could be done if more were had.

Trust that you have what you need. It is as it should be. Had your circumstances not forced you to where you are, would you be there?

Certainly not. But what's the point.

There is much to learn for the benefit of others. Do not see your life as an isolated event. All for all. You are always where you are for the benefit of all.

One would be hard pressed to make that connection.

Trust in the process and know that there are no isolated events or circumstances. How could you teach others if you had not learned yourself?

But what have we learned?

That what you see today is not forever and that all things work together for the good of all. Who benefits, even if you do not?

We would hope those who have been pleased.

And there are those, but what is the greater benefit to being pleased? To experience kindness where none was before.

But is this so profound? Could not greater works than these be done in the same time and for the same effort?

Do not discount each experience. You know not the smiles you share or the smiles you receive. Much is to be gained from the little that you seem to do.

There is the issue of magnitude. This is very small magnitude.

For those that help one person per hour, are they not filling their hour fully?

But could not thousands benefit from the same hour?

One at a time before thousands. Confidence is built. Self confidence is surely lacking.

But we see no gains. We are personally less confident than ever before. You do have a strange way of boosting confidence.

My ways are mysterious indeed.

So explain it to us how stripping a person of the last little shred of esteem is beneficial.

When you feel you have nothing left to lose, you do get a sense of freedom to try new things.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Hitting bottom allows you the unique perspective from which only ascension is possible._

But we've done this before. It didn't help before and we don't see it helping now.

Ah, the shortsighted one. You see two pieces of the puzzle and imagine that the picture cannot be revealed. Broaden your view.

We trust that You will help with that. We do tend to have tunnel vision, and it seems to not expand. This is where experience comes in. We have not experienced the bigger picture.

This is where we are going. Remember those whom you knew before and have met again? This is all part of the bigger picture. You touch one life and many others are touched as a result.

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From here to there the in between melts away and becomes nothing more than a memory. When once you thought you couldn't, now you are passed what seemed impossible. Tomorrow is another day and you must look forward and never behind. Sometimes, your strength comes from nothing but desperation. Sometimes, you must draw on strength you didn't feel you had. Always you are more than you imagined and must pull yourself up and move on.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Giving up IS NOT an option, but letting go is._

Hold tightly to your inner strength, even if you think you can't go one more mile.

But it almost seems that life is like mountain climbing – ever onward and upward with your strength being depleted along the way.

Don't forget to rest along the way. Be good to yourself and honor your efforts. Rest and relax as often as you will. Don't wear yourself out with needless struggles. Your thoughts do create your experience. See life as an adventure of awe and wonder. Don't cower in fear for this does diminish the experience. An openness to new things does bring forth a wealth of new experiences.

But what of those times when life seems overwhelming and only to be feared?

Especially during those times, put one foot in front of the other and move on. With your last bit of perceived strength, go forward. You are never helpless nor hopeless. You are the very essence of God. Use this as you will. It's ok to feel overwhelmed. It's ok to be tired, but don't let those feelings become your life. Take a break when you need it. Be kind to yourself. Be kind to others. Love is all there is and getting the most happiness that you can is very important.

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Upon the world is built great emphasis. You have chosen to do what you need not do, but instead of rest, you drive yourself crazy. Would you rather not enjoy the love of life? Would you not rather love the blessings rather than fear the tragedies? Be of good cheer. The world does bring forth great learning that it is merely nothing. You are set well upon a path. Need you suffer great misery or relish in greatness? Let yourself enjoy your life for you are meant to have nothing less than your greatest desires. Walk upon the waters and live life without care or concern. Enjoy, for you are well prepared for the road ahead. I have given you strength and all the learning that you have desired. I have taught you to be prepared by listening to wisdom that is not your own. I have not taught you to be fearful. I have taught you to be filled with love and strength. Your journey has not been easy, but you have learned that strength and diligence will pull you through. Trust in your inner guidance and it will see you through. You are Mine and I AM yours.

What must we do to feel more confident and less fearful?

Stop thinking about what can go wrong and focus on what is right. Know that life can be lived without fear. You cannot change life by merely fearing every possibility. Trust that God has you well within His care and will prepare you for anything.

The world does seem so big and we seem so little. How can we feel that we are part of a larger purpose?

Connect with others. Love others. Focus on the goodness of life. Just as you have pulled strength from desperation, do so as necessary. See things as hurdles that you can jump. Don't see things as more than you can overcome. Lift yourself up. Be bold and unafraid, even if at first you don't feel powerful. You always know what to do. Your instincts are always correct. Don't feel that you must cower in the corner and await rescue. Rescue yourself, if need be. Life does keep dishing out perceived problems. Will you be swept away by them or merely deal with them as part of life? Know that life merely is what it is perceived to be. Neither good nor bad, just what it is.

But is it not true that life's series of problems can be dealt with more easily with better finances?

Some of them, but some cannot be purchased. Be glad that your problems are merely financial. These are the easiest to remedy.

This is true, unless debt is overwhelming. It would seem that debt rises higher than the ability to pay it.

Be of good cheer for your troubles are not so bad. Money worries can be easily fixed. Let not them swallow you up.
**Chapter 46 – The Winds Of Change**

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With the winds of change do come wonderful insights and experiences. You cannot predict, even a moment ahead, what will happen to bring forth great joy. The world does offer much to you and all of your brothers, but the kindness of the human heart does surprise you, as often as it is given/received. The little deeds done are not without merit – the dividends are wonderful. A simple act of kindness is great, even if at first the impact is not known. Be of good cheer – love everyone for they give you great gifts. Can you imagine the divinity of a life of service? You can not know all that you touch, but rest assured that you are one of the chosen ones who have chosen to serve. Let your service be the light of the world. Lift up those who least expect it, for in this there is great hope built. Seek out those who seem forlorn and discouraged, for they are in need of a blessing. Give them what they seek. They have called for help and it is your service to help. As they help you by offering you perhaps nothing more than a verbal blessing, take this as the greatest reward for a job well done.

Is this the best we can do?

Need there be more? No, if only this then that is enough. But, more and more is called forth as you are more open to the calls. Surely you can do more – everyone can. Why would you not, when it is so rewarding? To bring a smile to those who need it. Is this not the stuff of dreams? How your day was magically transformed by a kindness offered to a stranger. You gave a gift and received a much greater gift. What did it cost? A little extra effort. Surely it was worth it.

But for the one good gift, so many frowns were had during the day. How do we keep score?

The score is not important. Did you do your best and offer the most? You cannot please those who would not be pleased. Let them go, for they have been caught up in their own trifles.

It seems that we operate twenty four seven and only do good a very small portion of that. How can we improve our stats?

By seeing every interaction as an opportunity to improve the experience of others, thereby improving it for you.

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Let the fun begin. Have you not waited far too long? The joy of life is but for the taking, at any time you choose. Choose it fully and it will flow to you. Let there be joy in all of life. There is no way around it – it's everywhere, all the time, if you but choose to see joy rather than sadness. What makes the difference? Choices. You can choose joy instead of sadness as easily as you can choose love or heartbreak. If all things are recognized as good, how can there not be joy?

There's the small matter of others. Now, we may be absolutely joyful, but if others around us are not, can we still be filled with joy? Nothing is more offensive to some than the joy of others?

Well, as they say, you can't win them all. Be respectful of the chosen misery of others for they have chosen it. Be courteous of their bad humor and allow them the joy of their suffering.

But what if some are sad and in need of joy? Are we not to lift up others?

Some you can and some you can't. A person caught up in misery will not be soothed except by their own choice. You must realize that there are some who love to be offended and defensive. Indignation is their justification for hating the world. They do not choose to get along. They feel as if the world owes them something. Those who merely offer joy are especially seen as threatening. "The world deals harshly with defenseless innocence." (A Course In Miracles, Chapter 31, Page 656) An unhappy person hates happy people. Misery does love company. Your best efforts can only include a sort of discernment of happiness levels. Those who appear to be unhappy – let them be unhappy. Give them their desires. Smile and go away. You will not make someone, bent on misery, happy. Please don't let them drag you down as well.

But they attack, even without any sort of justification.

All misery is seen as someone else's fault. There must be an enemy to blame. If not you, then who?

But it seems that our best efforts fail, at least in part. Why?

You can not please everyone. In fact, you can only seemingly please a few, ever. You may do the same thing a thousand times and one day the reactions change. Life is full of variety and no two days are the same. People change just as moods change. One remark mistaken by another can cause an avalanche of horrors. Consequences may be given you which very well belong to someone else. Life is not fair. As you always say, "Fair is something that comes in October."

So always there will be hatred?

Always. It need not even be personal. You must let go of the hold that people have upon you for you will never please them all. People will lie if need be, to find an object of the blame they feel compelled to place. Let go of it. It matters not. Carrying around a bag of guilt will not help. Always give your best .

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Can there ever be a time when all knowledge comes together and gels so that the same questions are not asked repeatedly? This is our goal – to get to a place where new learning occurs and old questions are answered and no longer need to be asked. Is it possible? Can learning actually stack up to bring a person to a higher level of understanding? Surely learning must be cumulative and bring a person to another understanding of life. Learning is better described as unlearning at this point. You have learned all of the wrong ways of doing things and have not understood life at all. Looking at life from the learned perspective keeps you forever at its mercy. Were you to reverse the process and look backwards upon all of life, you would realize that things are interrelated and absolutely not at random. There are no underlying plots to neither destroy you nor cause you untold grief and heartache. There are simply events – take them as they come.

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For the world is a lonely place if seen through singularity. It beholds myriad wonders if seen through plurality. How you choose to see it is as it is. Never underestimate the power of perception and its hold upon you and your experience of the world. Always seeking solutions will leave you wanting, for you do not know the preferred solutions. You take two or three pieces of evidence and seek solutions. How is it possible that you can ever see rightly or know what is truly best? If you were using your analysis to solve crimes, you would have to jump to conclusions and often, if not always, you would be wrong.

As with all problem solving, you must have all of the facts, including the factors beyond your comprehension, to solve them properly. If you knew all the players and their motivations, you would surely be more capable of solving problems. But, with your limited resources, you seek to bring about presumed desired results, and these results you do not even know if you truly desire them. You may even seek simple relief from your current situation, feeling that something new will be better. But, when have you known better beforehand? Are you able to predict all of the surrounding circumstances? One part of a situation may be better with all the others being worse.

If finances are your primary concern, then it is easy for you to make rash decisions. So, you'll make more money, but will this be a guarantee of a better situation? Maybe, or maybe not. If the increased finances come at a higher cost, then was it worth it? You may change jobs for more money and find the working conditions much worse. Or you may find the money better and working conditions ok, but you are not satisfied with the benefits. There are many, many considerations to take into account. How can you know what you should do?

So, we roll the dice and take our chances. We rationalize that if the money is better, so will be the overall picture. As we never have true insight, we have no choice, but to take a gamble. We know what we have, but if it does not meet our needs, then what should we do?

You can allow yourself to struggle or you can be led.

But the leadership is so subtle that we cannot even know that it is there. How can we follow unknown guidance?

If you believe that you will go where you are meant to go, then it can never be that you will not somehow be connected to the leadership needed. This is about faith in the process.

But, what if the leadership seems to lead us into great despair rather than great success? It would seem that the results of struggles pay off better than the results of leadership.

But, are not all part of the same plan regardless of how you get there? There are ups and downs. If you believe that you are better off living by struggling and trying, then go for it. You are quite good at this. But, you have also seen that what will be, will be. You have not been able to change even a minutia of your life – why do you suppose you can start now?

Because we have hope for better, more prosperous times.

And do you suppose that you will not have them unless you struggle?

Somehow, it seems that greater prosperity was had when there was the struggle. This new "easy" way has not yielded such great results. And the spiritual path has not brought about the peace it promised.

Because you have not allowed the process to work. You are still convinced that struggle is necessary.

Do teach us the benefits of the "easy" way, many will be interested to know.

There are many times in your life when you have found something simply "dropping" in your lap. You discount these as luck or simple good fortune.

Yes, these seemed so obvious. But that of the important, success oriented, things in life? Why are we not aware of great "easy" opportunities?

Just because you do not see the great benefit does not mean that they are not there. Remember that all things work together...of this you can be sure. What you must learn you will learn.

But we seem to learn nothing useful. What are we to learn?

Have you not learned to let go of worry for it benefits you not? Have you not learned that all things work together? Have you not learned that life goes on regardless? Have you not learned that you are not alone? Have you not learned adaptability? Have you not learned that life is but a dream? Have you not learned that things happen as prerequisites to other things? Regardless of your stated disbelief, you know very well that things are progressing very well. You may not know which direction you will be led, but you do know that you are led.

Often we do feel led astray. We seem to be on the worst path, toward self destruction.

You must see that all roads lead to the same place. Find beauty where you are, even if you have to look very closely.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Let all the world disappear for a moment and enjoy this peaceful time with God. Go not astray with wild thoughts for you need nothing but to merely be with God. Alone in quiet do come great things. Be One with God and know yourself truly.

We don't feel that we know ourselves truly. What is it that will cause us to know ourselves truly?

Do not let yourself be influenced by the thoughts or wishes of another. Consider always your truest desires. Don't try to fit in to someone else's plans for you. Honor your own wisdom. You know very well what you desire and what feels right for you. If you look to others for your guidance, you are looking at guidance given subjectively through the lenses of their own wisdom. You cannot guide another properly nor can you be guided by another. Great dissatisfaction will come to both.

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Behold a new day dawns. Fear not for you are well within My plan for you. For what you do for others does require their willingness to accept and they must be prepared as well for the gifts you offer. You cannot assume that you alone are to be prepared. You must know that the cogs are interconnected and all must work in unison to bring forth the situation that you desire. It is not all about you or your personal desires. Many are affected by the plans that I have for you. Neither one day early nor one day late. Everything must perfectly work together and all will flow as naturally as rain water. Rain is not based upon the individual characteristics of each drop, but is characterized by the whole of all drops combined. Were your contributions to be seen as isolated things, how could the effect be held as soothing to the masses. If one rain drop fell, would the grass be soothed?

Remember, words are a compilation once thrown together, but the individual words leaves the reader wanting. If you see each word in a book as a person to benefit from it, how can you even imagine that one person or one word would be enough to cause completion? Many words and many people must come together, even if only one seems to be operating in the beginning. It's never about one person. There are many involved and all must be brought together for the completion.

This makes perfect sense, but in the mean time, what are we to do to keep focused until all comes to fruition?

There are lessons to be learned and strengths to be developed. Just as college prepares in roughly four years, time for learning is set aside.

But the years set aside for learning seem to be filled with discontent and unknowing. What brings comfort during these learning years?

You must maintain focus, keep up your learning and trust in the process. You must know that things are aligning for the betterment of all. In spite of your not seeing any sort of coordinated effort, know somehow that all is well within the process as planned.

But, life seems to be going in exactly the opposite direction with no actual learning being had. How are we so unaware of the process – as if we have no connection to it?

If you were to have hints, you would struggle to make things happen. You are better served to keep your focus elsewhere, so as to not distract the process or be distracted by it. Keep yourself clear of focusing too much, for you cannot see behind the scenes.

It would be nice to have some foreknowledge of success to keep interest peaked. We are really given nothing on which to base our hope and as the years roll by it seems as if nothing happens. Hope is a delicate thing, seemingly based on nothing but itself.

What feels right is right. Go with your gut feelings.

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How have today's events influenced your thinking? What is it that you feel has put behind you one more day?

Kind of stuck on a treadmill, so to speak.

All things are relative. They have made choices which you made previously. You sought escape but they seek comfort. They are looking for peace in the way that they can find it. In a way, they are looking for escape as well. If it ain't working, why not get out?

Desperate times do call for desperate measures. But know that happiness is not a place – happiness is a condition. If things aren't going well, and no hope is seen, what else is to be done?

There are larger issues at play, never underestimate that. Be not swayed by visions beyond the rose colored glasses. Not all that glitters is gold?

Your experiences have taught you great fear. This is understandable, but should not cloud your view.

But You know that it does. Experience teaches some harsh lessons, so how can we not be affected by them?

One never knows what is around the corner. It can be seen as good or bad, but uncertainty it is.

So, we've been through the training, but for what?

I will show you for what. Are you not adequately prepared for greater experiences than you were?

But, there are greater barriers than before. You had promised great freedom, yet the yoke of finances continues to strangle.

Even when you had no debt, you were strangled by the possibility of it. Always you have served the financial master. Were you to not be so focused upon it, perhaps its grip upon you would be loosened.

There is relief – be patient My child. There is really nothing to fear. Be of good cheer. Don't look to others for your happiness as the road of each is filled with chaos, just as is yours. Don't think that some live in heaven while you are stuck in hell. All have ups and downs – aren't you about due for an up?

You have said this before, but ever so slight has been the up. What must be done to truly get an "up?"

Let it flow – let things peacefully come in due time. You are neither forgotten nor neglected. You are just as you should be for the lessons you have chosen. Don't fear or fret for all things work together.

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There is fun in the air. Frolic in the fall and look about at all there is to be grateful for. Be not distressed, for all of life is but a game for your enjoyment. See it as good and good it is. Is it more fun to contemplate moving or actually moving? Be honest, there is no permanent green grass and there is no gold at the end of the rainbow. But, rainbows can be wherever you look. If you look for rainbows, you'll find them.

But what of those visions of cloudy skies? Rainbows come after, not during or before.

As Henry Wadsworth Longfellow wrote in his poem, The Rainy Day, "Into each life some rain must fall." Would the grass be green if not for the rain? The cycle of life does involve the withering of plants with rebirth in spring. If you do not see both as part of the good, then you'll be disappointed half the time. What makes you think that some things or places are preferable? All things and places have advantages and disadvantages. See the whole picture, all things included.

When looking at the whole picture, some elements weight more than others. Isn't this true?

Sure, but know that all are beneficial regardless of weight. Weight is based on a value judgment. Do you suppose that all situations can be considered good or bad?

We understand perception, but is it not helpful to recognize the things that you desire and actively desire them? Would life be as meaningful if nothing was preferable to anything else?

Life only has the meaning that you give it. If you choose a peaceful life, then by all means do what you can to live without expectations. Peace only comes from acceptance.

What if happiness is the desired condition?

Then by all means accept that happiness as your lot in life, even if you do not see happy conditions.

What if great wealth is the desired condition?

That is as much an element of the mind as any other. A poor man can feel wealthy – it's all in the mind. Perception rules. When conditions are placed upon perception, then it becomes more difficult to have satisfaction. If you don't feel wealthy until your bank thinks that you are, then perhaps you are headed for disappointment. When conditioned assessments are left to the judgments of others, then disappointment will follow. If you "need" the acceptance of others, how can you not fail? You must learn to make your own assessments based on your own values. Only then will you have what you desire.

So what you are saying is that we must accept whatever we are given –even if our heart knows that it is not the desired condition.

Not necessarily. Be honest about your feelings. Remember, I have given you the desires of your heart – I have caused you to want what you want, your deepest desires. What would be the point of giving someone the desire if they were never able to have what they desire? You would then say that I AM a cruel God. I want you to understand how things work – I AM trying to give you comfort. Please listen. I give you desires which motivate you to certain actions which cause you to experience the desired condition. Now you may not know your deepest desire, for often they are veiled by superficial wants. Unmasking your truest desires is quite an exercise in honesty. What is your truest desire? Is this not what motivates you? Being out of the desired condition is what brings the misery that motivates you to action. You may not even understand the process, but surely you know that you move for reasons. You are often very motivated by financial misery. So you seek and seek for a way to a better financial situation. Are you not always trying to find solutions?

Yes, this is no secret. The struggle for financial security has always driven us – to school, to college, to work and to college, etc. Always we have felt "dissatisfied" financially. There must be a reason for this. Struggles abound in the pursuit of comfort.

Aha – the pursuit of peace – that's your real motivation. You do not believe that you can feel peace without financial security.

Of course – as we have seen, money doesn't fall from the sky nor grow on trees. It's very hard to relax when you can't count on your next pay check. Peace, is it even possible?

Some people find a degree of peace, but as long as tomorrow is a mystery, there will be uneasiness. If life were not a game, would you play?

Did we really have a choice?

You soul thinks not for it had desires also. It wanted to know itself as God.

Has it learned anything so far?

It laughs at your creations – hell where there is none and heaven not found. It sees the ridiculousness of your struggles. It knows that you are safe, but cannot convince you without interrupting the game.

So, has it learned anything?

It has learned that playing a game does not affect reality. Clearly it hints at reality's opposite, but never enough.

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Alas, a new day dawns and how does one experience the "chance" meeting of someone whom all means have eluded? Can it be that those who are to meet will meet? Or was it merely a random occurrence? What does reason tell you?

Remember that what is meant for you is yours. You cannot lose what you never had. Seek and you shall find, if it is yours to find. Let yourself be guided always to where you shall go. The Holy Spirit is your guide – let Him lead the way. For you do not know what tomorrow brings. It could be good or bad as you see it, but surely it is as it is meant to be. Take it one step at a time and do not count your chickens before they hatch. Be happy for things are improving. Don't be so afraid, things were bound to go up again.

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What would you have Me say? Do you feel not the call of your heart? Would you have Me take you by the hand and lead you through each step along the way? If you need comfort, I AM with you. If you need help, simply ask. Be not troubled by what life holds for you. It is all a matter of time and you will surely know what the future holds. Stress yourself not for life is but a game, to be played until you choose no longer to play. Be always at peace. If you but look to those around you for comfort, you will not find it, for comfort must come from inside. Comfort is a wonderful gift of living a life directed by spirit.

Worry not for worry is the worst possible waste of time. Let go of guilt – all have chosen for themselves. Let go of guilt for you are not meant to protect others. There is little that you can do. Suffer not or be not distressed for all is chosen and the opinions of others will not bring you peace. You are where you are meant to be. You are not to be in a suffocating environment. Remember, that where you are is for the very purpose of your growth. You do not see tomorrow so you must trust in the process. You do not know what is best for you or what is ahead. Even the greatest thing that you can imagine is nothing compared to reality. Let not yourself be limited by what you see or think. For you know nothing of life and the fullness of all there is. Today's worries are soon forgotten and new issues spring forth. This little thing is nothing in the grand scheme, even though you imagine it a big thing.

But the directionless existence is disturbing. To have life solely at the whims of others is really disconcerting. There seems to be those who make their destiny while some live only as reactive agents of others.

Have you ever made your own destiny?

No!

Then how do you suppose that others are better than you at this?

It would seem so.

You know very well that into each life there are challenges and rewards. Let go of worry. Be uplifted and enjoy the process. Things happen for reasons beyond your present understanding. Let life fill you with peace and joy. Be free from worry and guilt. All is well and struggle does not benefit you.
**Chapter 47 – Have Fun And Fear Not**

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Please, stop stressing out. Always you are in My care. Be consoled for you are not to feel guilty. Forgive yourself and all is forgiven. Be of good cheer – let not your blessed day be destroyed by worry and guilt. Stop beating yourself up for you cannot control outward events. Help yourself by being kinder to yourself. Give love to all. All to all. Be kind and forgiving to everyone.

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Step up to the plate of life and enjoy what you are called to do. There is no life outside your own choices. Have fun and fear not. For life lived in fear is no life at all. The joy of life does come from taking chances and learning to live a carefree lifestyle.

But how does one learn to live a carefree lifestyle when so much depends upon not being carefree?

You can work hard and still be carefree. What you are doing is not necessarily reflective of your lifestyle or frame of mind. If working hard give you a sense of relief from worry, then this is carefree to you. If you are nervous and worried about every little detail, then carefree you are not. If you allow the process to unfold, then it will be more carefree. Face it – life happens whether you worry or not. Your life quality is not reflective of the amount of worry you put forth. If it were, you would have a fabulous life.

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Join with Me today in this blessed event. Know that life is about to get more interesting. Do not be concerned with trivial things. Look at your life on a higher level – for there is your foundation. Look up and out on a very large scale. Do not see today as all there is or that what you do today is the sum total of all that you are called to do. For surely you are called to higher things. Allow the process to flow toward you and know that you cannot fail to accomplish all that you are called to do. Lift up the life force that drives you forward. Do not set your sights so low that you are held captive by thoughts of insufficiency. There need be no lessening of your magnitude – in thought or deed.

As you have chosen, so shall you be given. Lift your sights to see the wealth of possibilities ahead. For surely you cannot know what lies ahead. You cannot be held above where you are. You are set to follow in the steps set forth by Me. Would I then leave you to be less than I have called you to be? Have I not always been with you, even if you doubted? I will never leave you nor forsake you – I AM and You Are.

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Beyond all the world there is nothing but perfection. You have struggled to realize this, but have failed for it is seen as beyond your comprehension. How can it be that what you see is not real? How can so much that seems real be merely an illusion? Your thinking cannot even imagine that what you see is not so. You can know that dreams are not real just as soon as you wake up. But what if you were to wake up from your life dream? Is it really possible? The final step is taken by God, for you in your carnal mind cannot even imagine what reality is. There are those among you who can imagine reality, but they are not convinced that reality is real. From the world's perspective, reality is basically a creation of the thoughts of man based on religious teachings. Such is heaven and hell – you have taken a few words and believed in the very existence of two places unknown. But, in your heart, having never known them, you secretly question their reality. You profess your fear of going to hell, even as you are quite unsure that there is such a place. What you really fear is God and this puts you in a state which can be called hell. Separation from God is the most hellish thing that you will ever experience.

Then why have we not experienced heaven? We are no closer to heaven than to hell. Why does God not reveal Himself to us more?

You came from heaven to experience hell. One who is in heaven cannot seek to be in heaven. That would be ridiculous. Where else is there to go, but to the opposite end of the spectrum? If there is no actual opposite to heaven, then hell had to be created, or the illusion established.

Why then do we seek from hell to return to heaven?

Because you came from love and seek to return – hell is not the sort of place you choose to linger.

But there are those who seek heaven all of their lives and do not experience it till death. There are others who are given glimpses of heaven while living. What makes the difference?

How you choose to experience life. If your life was written for you to know heaven while on earth, then it would be so. A small dream of heaven is quite easily accomplished. Typically, visions of heaven are most often given during your "near-death" experiences. Even hell is sometimes imagined during these episodes. But neither is real, for they are reflections of your thoughts about each, just as everything is.

But the experience of God does change lives. Why are there not more such experiences?

God gives as was requested. If you had chosen to see God, then your path would have called it forth.

But what if our path does not include the needed elements? What if we really need to see God, but have no such experience? Wouldn't our lives be less – far less than desired?

For you cannot see the whole, do not judge the parts! It is ok to question, but do not assume that seeing God is what is best for you. You do not know what is best for the life that you have chosen.

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Behold a creature comes forth from inside you which is so profoundly different and wonderful. Who could have guessed that perfection was so well hidden inside of such a modest body? Let your shining spirit come forth for there is no amount of fear that can hold it within. Let it out – let it shine forth. Be of good cheer in all that you do. You are the grace of God and all of your days are numbered by Him who set you upon this course. If by your days being numbered you are set upon this exact course, how can it not be that your purpose is set and you are to be perfectly fulfilled? Let not yourself be deceived by the honors of this world. Breathe a sigh of relief – let go of any anxiety that you have. Be bold in the spirit, knowing that God is in full control

I have not sent you on a futile journey to nowhere and to nothingness. See not the day as your entire path. For surely there are lessons to be learned. Let go of your attachment to the means and know that all is perfectly set for you. As surely as you feel that you are stuck in a life of slavery, know that "slavery" need not be your life. To serve God is a happy service. I have not put you here to wallow in misery, but have put you here, with great desires in your heart, to serve the world. If this is not what you are doing, then trust that you are not at your assigned destination. Do not lose hope for this is a passing learning assignment. If you see your life as destined to what you currently do, then surely you will be disappointed and feel abandoned by God. But if you believe that God does have a wonderful plan for your life, then surely you have not yet arrived. What then is the purpose of this, you ask?

In all things there is purpose. Humility is one great lesson that all of God's servants must learn. Not all circumstances are the same, but all servants have had to suffer humbling experiences so that when uplifted, no personal credit is had. You will know God and know Him well. There will be no question of the authorship of your destiny. When all hope seems lost, then the light shines forth. Have not all of My servants somehow been uplifted in the greatest of all forms of grace? Is it possible that a man can truly exist alone? No, and the helpers needed are received. Who has mastered the world alone? What would really be the point? The genuine love of your brothers and the calling of their hearts is what sets you on a path of fulfillment. There are none who succeed alone – none! Know that without your brothers and sisters, you would have no purpose at all. The masses call forth the ones whom they need. Have you not called upon those whom you have needed? Who really can live an isolated life?

Why does it seem that no help arrives? Years go by and only disappointments seem to happen. What is the magic formula for the amount of time that one must wait for the cavalry to arrive?

Of course there is no magic formula – to each his own. Some need more time and some need less. But struggling to make things happen does not help. What can help? Only patience, love and kindness. Trust in the goodness of God to set things right.

There does seem to be many who are lost in the waiting process. It is easy to understand how people get hopeless and discouraged to the point of giving up. Why would souls be lost merely for time to have passed?

Not all have truly chosen service. If you have truly chosen service, then you must serve and never will the call be taken from you. You cannot miss your call. Those who give up are meant to give up. They have another path in store. You know that you cannot, having tried so many times, give up. There is no peace for you to be had elsewhere. You must keep at it for there is nothing else for you to do. The call of your heart is alive and well, even when the world offers you no consolation. Behold, the world does come calling – if not today, then tomorrow. But rest not on the future for the future never comes. Today is all there is, so make the most of it. Enjoy your life today and let all the fears and torments melt away. Do not let your happiness depend upon even one thing outside of yourself. There is really nothing outside of yourself.

Why is it that there is such a great need for struggle in this life?

This life is meant for gratitude, not struggle. But, you lose sight of the perfection in life and are thus left to struggle. As you cannot see beyond the horizon, you assume it is not there. For how could there be better ahead, especially in light of what is behind? If you let yourself only look back, you will never see what is ahead. If you merely trust in the process, you will know that things are not static and nothing is really stuck. You are not still, but are in constant motion. The tides go in and out; the waves go up and down. Movement is a constant in life. Does life move at your desired pace? No, and should it move at your pace, you would find yourself overwhelmed. How can you possibly know the pace of life perfect for you? You have feelings and desires, but do not know all that is involved.

The whole world is interconnected. If you could understand all that transpires in even one second, you would marvel at the seeming slowness of the pace of your awareness. Think of a chicken house and all the chicks inside. Each seems to be working on his own agenda, but the mass works together for a higher purpose. Ants work for the good of all, not for selfish purposes. How many ants have you seen building their own houses? A house for each ant would be a waste. But one large hill for many ants is much more doable and practical. Like building a society, it is much better for many to share common goals. If each person worked alone for selfish purposes, truly the world would be a place of strife and isolation. In large part, even with great civilizations, there is still much strife and isolation. But, not so much on a miniscule level.

How is it that we can only see our isolated lives instead of the interconnectedness of it all?

What do you choose to see? Have you not chosen to focus on the smaller picture? How much of your thought energy is spent on the big picture? Why you've only recently considered the big picture. And you have no concept for how big it really is. At the same time you are sitting here writing, what is happening in the rest of the world? Imagine what a person is doing at any other place in the world. Now, understand that you and this other person are interconnected and the actions of one affect the other and vice versa. Surely your small mind cannot comprehend this, so don't be overwhelmed. It is not meant for you to grasp nor is it meant to boggle your mind. With the advent of global technologies, you are becoming more and more aware of how everything does affect every thing else. The isolationist mentality is falling by the wayside. And the global scale of things is not just for those who work on a global level – the world's people at all levels are seeing the truth of this.

When one travels, they are aware of other places, but there is a seeming separation between here and there. The internet allows visitation without travel, so there is no perceived separation of time and space. You are becoming aware of Oneness on its most basic level. To go a level deeper is to discover the similarities of all people and their desires. It should be known that all people seek happiness and joy – love and purpose. There is really no grander vision held by one than the other.

Take the seeming least influential person on the planet and teach him that he can influence the world and give him the tools. Talk about a life transformed. This is now literally a fact of life. Any one person can very easily influence the world. Will everyone? No, because not everyone has this purpose or need. If putting food on the table is priority one, the rest of the world takes a back seat. An individual's priorities are set by the perceptions at hand. If your child is sick, do you care about the rest of the world as much? Priority one is to help your own child – the others must wait.

Is there no justification for this position? Should a parent not tend to their own first?

I AM not your judge, merely your teacher. I AM telling you what motivates people and how limited is your vantage point. What you make of any situation is strictly up to you.

Is there an actual benefit to seeing the whole rather than the part?

All things are relative. Depending on your purpose, the size of perspective matters. If you are out to save the world, how can you focus on a small group? To be effective, you must see things on a much larger scale.

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Would you enjoy a fresh cup of relief? Ahhh, isn't it refreshing to breathe a little fresh air? Surely, there must be some soothing of your fits of worry and despair. Relax a little – for there is nothing to fear but fear itself. So, there was disappointing delay, but don't you think that helping someone else was worth it and the favor was returned? See, all things are not as you believe – it's not all about you and you are not the only one who needs a hand up. So, rest assured that a brother was helped and you were helped by that brother. Is it not better when you see the big picture?

It is strange how things work out. It is much easier to see that things do workout, but the ups and downs along the way seem to be needless.

Surely life does teach more and more that hindsight is twenty-twenty vision. You may not know the reasons why, but you surely know that all is working out collectively. Is there really any doubt that you are where you should be? As there are no other options or offers, would it not stand to reason that you are exactly where you should be? The trouble with this is how you feel about it – you cannot understand why you have chosen this, but surely you must have chosen it. If you could be satisfied with where you are, you would be less exasperated and disappointed. But, as you have demonstrated, you do have the ability to thrive wherever you go. Is it fun? No. Is it glamorous? No. But, there is something to be said for tenacity and determination. So, take a moment to relax. You've earned it. Don't be so swallowed up that you are filled with regrets. Enjoy. For you have suffered much to get over this latest hurdle. And always be confident that obstacles can be moved that you thought were unmovable. Suddenly, things are different. There is nothing written in stone from your vantage point.

Ok, so You worked it out twice. But what of the biggest obstacles that we face – dream obstacles?

Just as little things move, so do big things. Life goes on and the wheels of change continue to churn. Can it be that I would not make a way for you if it is our goal to help others?

You've not made straight our paths nor have You made the road easy. Where's the basis for faith?

You are holding it. Can there be doubts still while you are writing feverishly?

Many, many books are written – unpublished and unread. Many educated souls never find their presumed or promised outlets. While working today as we do, if You were us, would You hold out much hope of dream fulfillment?

Seeing all, your perspective would be much different. Seeing little as you do, it's hard to know what to do or think or believe. Certainly, I understand this and know your limited perspective and its limitations. Can it ever be that you would know what is best or what to have faith in? This thing called life is hardly easy, but it wasn't meant to be for the lessons you have chosen to experience. Would you know life had you not lived it? Would you recognize a miracle if you had not known the opposite? The great secret to life is to get in the flow and let the process unfold. Surely you have lived the opposite, so now you can experience the opposite of that.

But this does not appear to be the opposite – merely more of the same. Over and over we go – it seems that we learn nothing. We sometimes think we catch glimpses, but then we're back to square one. Are we making any progress?

Surely, all paths lead to somewhere. What do you think?

We think we're confused as we seem no closer than before.

Great things come from confusion. The quest for understanding does come from the restless soul. Let the soul have its way and it will lead you to where you are to go.

There is no choice for the soul has set the path.

Obviously, this is true. The soul has set its path and you would be wise to not fight it. Fighting it does not pay. Why not relax and enjoy. For the world needs not your struggle – it needs your cooperation. Life can be as miserable or as wonderful as you want it to be. See it as a gift and it is. See it as a burden and it is. Remember that your choices are limited to two – heaven or hell. Those are your only choices.

Why then does it seem that we have choices? To go or to stay? To rise or to fall?

That's how the game of life works. If you were not fooled, you wouldn't participate. Even though you know that you have no choices, you still conjure up all sorts of solutions. You spend countless hours figuring it all out only to find that the circumstances have changed and your solutions no longer fit the situation. You decide to go left, but then you can't go left, so right is your option. Do you control traffic or does it control you? You merely react – you decide nothing and control nothing. Get it through your thick skull – you control nothing, so stop trying to.

But is it not true that we can choose some things – like to write or not?

Try it and see.

We have, and here we sit writing again. For no apparent reason. What is the purpose of this writing? Only for our sanity or maybe insanity?

If it were so, it would be enough. But, I do not waste your time on meaningless pursuits.

There are many pursuits in life which we would consider meaningless – having not understood them.

But, you know not what you have chosen to do for others. Perhaps these things were not meaningless to others.

Why are we not meant to know purposes – ours or others?

With learning and experience and surely hindsight – you do see purpose. It may not always be readily apparent, but it will dawn upon you. All things are revealed eventually. Maybe not before this life ends, but surely after.

Is there really a point to learning after this life? Will it matter then?

More than you know. For in the after-life does it all come together. What you consider suffering now is merely experience. It's hard to know a purpose when you do not have all of the facts.

So give us more facts. If it makes our lives easier, then tell us.

As you need, you are given.

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Are you ready? Are you tired of getting the same undesirable results? Have you seen enough to know that you do not run this show? Things always happen beyond your control – don't waste another minute letting life get you down. There is no physical thing that should control your life. Be at peace once and for all. I have told you over and over and over that all the worry in the world will not save you nor help you. Have you not seen this to be true? Worry is the worst possible waste of time. Be honest with yourself – if it is My desire for you to have, you will. There is nothing that you can do to change this. What is yours is yours and everything is yours.

Do not let the world have control over you. There is nothing here but valueless wastes of time. Your brothers are to be valued for they suffer as you do in the unknowing of God. What is God really? What am I that you are not? This is the lesson that you must learn and learn very well. There is no lesser or greater than you. You are it, along with you brothers. Your brothers have been seen often as enemies, but they are not your enemies. They are just the same as you in different packages of experience. See everyone as God and you have seen truly. See yourself as God and you will know Me as I AM. There is no great mystery to God. See perfection and you know God.

God is all there is for love is all there is. If you love all people – be blessed and a blessing. Show the world what you have learned. God is only full of love and joy and this must be the lesson that you teach. God does not punish for God is outside of your realm of perception. You punish, you suffer, you die – all within the life that you have chosen to experience. Why do you assume that God seeks to punish? What sort of God do you think I AM? You have assigned Me roles I cannot play. You have chosen to make Me the "bad guy" in all things. I created your soul and allowed it to do as it would. Why then would I punish you for playing the games that you have chosen?

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Hello! How are you? Did you get My messages? I have broadcast My messages to you that you would not miss them. I made certain that you heard them? I gave you dreams of messages – your time has come. Your number is up. Nothing but 28's all around. Manifest the harvest I have in store for you. The suffering is over. See the easy way – see the bountiful harvest. You have done all that I asked, so now is the reward bearing fruit.

What is different now? You have told us all of this before and nothing seemed to happen.

The seasons have changed. You have been on the upswing – slowly, but surely. Now, you are on the major upswing. There is nothing slow about this one. Up, up and away!

So many is the time you've said this before. On what should we base this new encouragement?

See what happens – don't just take My word for it. The facts will bear themselves out. There is no room for interpretation.

We watch for your miracles. Give us signs and wonders that what you say is true. Show us.

" _But there will be no more gloom for her who was in anguish. The signs and wonders shall follow you all the days of your life." (Isaiah 9:1, NAS)_

You must know that you have chosen wrongly in the past, but now are on a new journey – a journey of the soul. For your soul has reached out to help others who have not found peace. You will demonstrate the peace of God in all that you do. Find love where it is and rejoice in the calling of the Lord. Honor the calling of your heart. Forget not the purpose for which you have called. For this is no lightweight calling – you are chosen among men to spread God's teachings of truth. To end all fear of God by demonstrating that it is unnecessary. Let go of your attachment to worldly things for they are merely the matters of survival. Trust the Lord to provide for all of your needs, for none have gone unnoticed. It takes but a minute to undo all suffering.

The world is not your concern, your brothers are. Think of them for they look to you for support. You are Mine and are My servant – a messenger of peace, love and hope. The world has called you forth. Let your light now begin to shine. Now is the time for you to know Me as I AM that you may demonstrate this for others. For the chosen purpose, the tools are given. Behold a new day dawns and you are worthy to do My work. I shall make clear your paths. You need never again concern yourself with petty things. Let your light so shine that others may know Me as I truly AM.

But will they listen? Will they learn?

To whom the message is given, it was chosen and will be received. Fear not the effects of your work for you have been called merely to deliver. You are not called to convince.

What message do we bring that is not brought before?

Separate God from religion that you may truly know Me. Break down the walls and barriers to knowing God and I AM revealed. Put not forth hindrances in My path and I AM there. I stand alone – I need nothing to present Me or to lose Me. I AM!

But people fear God and don't really want to take the time to find God. God seems to hide from seekers – isn't it easier to simply go to church and feel appeased?

You will never find God in church, or a house of worship. God is not in a place and no amount of attendance will bring Me forth. To know God – go to God, directly to God. It may be easier to pretend a relationship by pious practices, but none of these will bring you closer. God does not need a practice nor recitation, God needs your simple willingness. If you want to know God – then merely ask.

Begging your pardon – it takes more than merely asking to know God. There are those who have dedicated their lives to knowing God and still had questions. Why do you not make it easier to know You? Even after two thousand plus years, Jesus' teachings are still misunderstood.

Your experience and theirs is on a level different than most. When you seek to know how the universe works, then your lessons become more difficult. But for those who merely want to undo errant thinking, the task is much easier. Not everyone seeks to know it all about God. Simple guidelines are sufficient for most. Not everyone seeks enlightenment, but merely a peace and strength for a life well lived.

So, each is given as he seeks?

Of course. Would you give a full meal to a baby who only needs milk? Overloading is not helpful – simple understandings are often best. Trust that the Lord will give you what you need and no more. Ask for what you need and no more.

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Let the world fade gently from your sight. There is nothing as distracting as the feeling that you are at the mercy of the world. You are at the mercy of no one, even though you have convinced yourself that you are. The world operates on a prefect schedule – there are no random acts which influence your life. Be glad that you are not at the mercy of the world for it would be cruel indeed if you were. You have chosen great moments of change behind the guise of circumstances beyond your control. Things happen not as results, but as part of the plan for change. If it is your desire for change, then things will happen to necessitate that change.

Let not the consequences seem to be the cause for there is nothing not planned well in advance. Trust in the process, not in the results. Let life give you comfort, knowing that all things work for your benefit and not for your destruction. If change is on the horizon, then let it flow effortlessly toward you. You do not know the answer nor what is best for you. Seek not to figure it all out, for you cannot know what is ahead. The course of life seems mysterious, but it truly is not. See the future ahead and do not be weary for what you need do. What will be, will be with or without your effort.

It seems that struggle without reward is the path on which we cannot escape. What is the point of this and how do we get to a better place – a place of rest, comfort and peace?

I have told you that your struggles are over. Why do you not believe this is true? I have not told you that everything goes immediately to perfect, but things are surely looking up. Don't let a few seeming setbacks hold you down. Don't let distractions cause you grief. Know that the trend is up and I will make your way better that you have desired. You do not see the wisdom of the way, but trust that it is on the horizon. When you thought you had lost, it was merely a delay. What is the point of the delay? Delay is nothing but a distraction, don't be swirled up in it for it is not defeat, merely the effects of the plan on what you have desired. It is often the case that you take a delay as some sort of failure. There is no success or failure – only what is meant to be.

Don't be distracted by the little things for they are meaningless. You tend to be so easily distracted. Why do you invest so much into so little? Taken on a whole – all are meaningless, both the seeming ups and downs. There is nothing that warrants the effort that you put forth. You try too hard. You worry too much. If you spent as much time and effort into enjoying life, you would be far ahead of where you are now. Learn to be at peace, for peace is really life's only reward.
**Chapter 48 – Misery Is Motivating**

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Hallowed be Thy name – your name. Don't despair over what you think that you are to do or be. Be the child of Mine that you truly are. Help others to know you – to know Me. This is your purpose that My children know Me so that they may know themselves. This is how you let them know God – all of God. As you have learned that God is all in all, so let them learn the same. Others are not enemies, but are brothers – "br-others." Consider this. There is not one of them in isolation. All for all! Consider the magnitude of this. People have so much misery because they have imagined themselves alone. Can we ever be really alone? Does your life not affect others? Do not others affect you? Consider wholeness and extension. All for all.

But what is the purpose of enduring attacks and misery, especially when peace and joy are the greatest desires?

At any moment, peace and joy are available. If you expect that all others seek your peace and joy, then you are mistaken. The mere desire for peace and joy is not universally understood. Remember, that the perception of "every man for himself" is prevalent. The disappointment of a loss of promotion does cause a person to blame others. Is it really the other person's fault? What is justified is merely a matter of perception.

Paula White said, "The soul remembers your future, this is why we are frustrated." Why then can we not connect or somehow know the direction we should travel?

On the way to where you are going, conditions must be such that you are motivated to go to where you are to be. A miserable condition creates the perfect condition.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _misery is very motivating._

You do know that you are not in the perfect position for your soul's desires. But, as part of the learning process, we must learn what we are not, that we may know what we are. On the way to where we are going, we must experience the side of life which does not satisfy our spiritual longing. From this, we do develop clarity for what it is that we are not. We are not the baser part of life – we have learned that material wealth is not our purpose, even though wealth does make life easier. We have learned that joy and happiness are ours to behold, even when there seems no reason for it. There does appear to be something in us that cries for fulfillment, but the frustration of not knowing makes life unbearable. Thus the motivating misery.

But how many forms of the same misery must we experience before we hit pay dirt and see our fulfillment? Surely, you have shown us that what is ordinary is not fulfilling.

All things happen according to your perfect plan. Even though you do not understand it, you know this is true. It seems that you are forever stuck on the same treadmill, albeit at different places. Can it ever be that you would not have something calling you forth?

But nothing of direction seems to come forth. Over and over does the record spin – stuck and continuous.

Surely, you do not believe that every new experience does not teach something. The world does teach, but too much of your time is wasted in the stuff of life. You do not even know how to live – you merely exist and react.

Our futile efforts at living have failed miserably. Why?

There is no failure for all of life is perfection. What appears to be failure is success hidden in a dark coat. Always there is a hidden message of hope in all that appears tragic. Let not yourself be dismayed by what seems to be negative.

If our souls do cry for fulfillment, then why not get on with the fulfillment?

Let's say that a day too soon is imperfect. When you are ready, fulfillment appears.

Then we would beg to be ready. The same brutal attacks would lead us to lose heart. Surely Christ suffered such attacks for His well meaning efforts, but always He was ready. Is there really a purpose to all of this?

Of course there must be. For nothing happens without purpose. Nothing! Regardless of your insight or the lack thereof, there is always purpose.

If all of life is literally without meaning, then why do we do this? There must be a better way? You have given us all creative ability, yet we do not use it wisely. Look at life and tell me how creative we really are?

It's an excellent pass time for you. The drama is demonstrated by how much you do enjoy video games. What you have created is the ability to live out your fantasies. You dream of power and position. You can even play the roles of your dreams. What a magical playground you have created, yet you have failed to enjoy it. You have put mental limitations on it. You have made the game so real that you've taken the fun away. So, you are creative, but you are also destructive. You have created drama gone badly, for not all are playing with the same goals. Some consider fun power and control, to the exclusion of all others. When the game gets out of hand, then the reactions must be such that the power monger is brought under control.

Power is an illusion taken to the extreme. There is no such thing as power. There is no such thing as control. In life, there are only actions and reactions. Choices are taken to the extreme until the failure recurs. Let not your life be spent in the seeming control of others. Others will kill you to advance themselves. Kill or be killed is the ego's cry! Don't be fooled by thinking that mankind is about kindness. Kindness is only a factor of self worth. Charity is meant to be self serving. You do give to receive.

Man does not behave benevolently, as a general rule. How assaulted are those who, like Christ, would make the world a better place. Defenseless innocence is dealt with harshly. But in your lack of defense, others have nothing left to fight against. Be like Christ. In all things, give them only your innocence to fight. Do your best and let God win your battles. Think of how Mother Teresa was attacked for no good reason. She was trying to do good and was assaulted almost at every turn. But, in the final analysis, she was vindicated. You must understand that the ego is a vicious creature. Selfishness causes undue hardship on people.

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Unto these hills is given your name to pronounce for all the world to hear. You are Mine and I AM yours. Fear not for your time is at hand. You will be known as My servant at last. There need be no more time wasted – for you will demonstrate for the world that life is but for the enjoyment. You are not to suffer nor be down-trodden. Let your light so shine that they may see your good works – for your good works are proof that God lives in all. I AM that which motivates you. I AM that which has called you forth. I AM that which has brought you through this desert in your life. I AM that which has taught you that there is no place in which you have not succeeded. I have taught you to be honorable in all things, for in this there is great honor. But do not look to man for appreciation for they will not see your majesty. Man is only able to satisfy his own needs. Look to God for your rewards. In this there is great joy. Be uplifted, for no man can stop what God has ordained. If I have called and you have answered, then who dares to try to stop our mission?

But what is our mission? Surely there is something great that you have developed.

Can it ever be that the one called to service not be heard? Does God create foolishly? What may seem impossible for man is merely simple for God. My plans for you must come true. Don't see these days as the end-all, be-all of your life. Your life has been ordained for great service – littleness of your life is no more.

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What a wondrous day indeed – slow, but fulfilling.

Yes, not so freakish. Rather refreshing.

Have you enjoyed your learning experience?

Which one?

The one in which you are currently enrolled?

Please be more specific.

You are learning to be more accepting and just keep looking up.

Can we say that I've enjoyed it? Not as we would define enjoyment. We see the similarities in this to other so-called learning experiences. It does build tolerance, but is not what we would call fun.

Then, why not make it fun? Who do you see as having fun?

We really don't see much enjoyment around us. It would seem that only those with outside deals to be the ones exhibiting any sort of joy.

Then perhaps you should come up with outside deals.

We obviously don't even understand your point.

Focus on things outside of work and work will be less. Don't make the mountain bigger than it is.

So we shouldn't pay attention at work?

Not to the degree that you currently do. Ease up – the world will not end. Besides, what is it that you want from this place – a life or a living?

A living, but this place takes life, more and more. Is this what we have intended?

It only takes what you give it. Slow down and enjoy life. All is well within My care.

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Can all the world be your playground? Can you see yourself loving all of life as you do your little part? Can you expand your vision to see beyond your front door? Let Me show you how to step beyond your borders and know that all of life is within your grasp. Lift your eyes to heaven and know that nothing is impossible. You have limited yourself by your meek vision. Would this be My vision for you? Would I choose for you to be strapped in littleness all the days of your life? What do you think of Me that I would do this to you, especially as some sort of punishment? Do you see that I AM spiteful or helpful? Do you fear or love Me? Do you feel that I AM for you or against you?

Let's just say that we are not sure what part you play in all of this thing we call life. Remember, we are just guessing – based on what we've heard. Some say that God controls all things and some say that you merely watch while we control all things. We fear what we don't know. We do not know you – we have sought to know you, but still don't.

An honest assessment. At least you have not convicted Me as you once would have. An open mind can be filled, but a closed mind is hard to penetrate. When once you thought you had the answers, now you have at least realized that you do not. You are half-way home. You have given Me something with which to work.

But you have not revealed Yourself as You truly are. Are we really any further along, any closer to home?

Always closer, even if not by much. You have given Me your willingness to learn and that is all that is needed.

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Upon the world does a shadow cast – fear and trepidation do rule when allowed. Nothing unreal exists, but in your very seeming real existence does fear take control. Fear needs to control, for its basis is lack of control. It wants what it can never have; therefore, it is never satisfied. So, to let fear control you is to give in to total lack of control. Only when the luster of fear is let go, does its opposite actually come in and take control. What do you suppose is the purpose of fear? Fear is the basis for the body's self preservation. Self preservation is the basis for all of life. It is the cause of all hatred and distrust. Holding on to your need for self preservation you do the strangest things.

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Behold a new day dawns. Sure, you've heard it before, but again even small steps are still steps. Be glad for there is nothing to despair. You are well within My care and should always be joyful. Let go of your trepidations and be finally free. You are nothing but perfection and you must realize this in order for it to take hold of your life. Believe that you are one – a great one and you are. Actually, even without belief, you are perfection on the highest level for I create nothing but perfection.

Why is there such a huge gap between your perfection and what we see?

Because your clouded vision does impair your ability to see correctly. You focus on what you sense and not what you know. But, in your defense, you are created this way. You see what you are meant to see. You let life keep you under its veil, because that is what you wrote into the plan. Had you wished to see joy, then that is what you would have seen.

Why were we so stupid as to write so fearful a plan?

Stupid is not your way – purposeful plans were written. Just because you do not see the end of the rainbow does not mean that it does not exist. You are inclined to experience hopelessness so that the beauty of the rainbow will be revealed. Can you not see that there is beauty behind all ugliness? Do you not know that life is but for the beauty and not for the sorrow?

But look at life through the eyes of most people and see that there are some rather disturbing circumstances. If life has no true meaning, why then do we go through all the suffering?

It is difficult to understand from your limited vantage point. Many seekers try to make sense of the mysteries of life, but find that their best efforts often fall short. How can there be perfection where selfishness rules? Can you find a giving soul where the ego rules? Until the world does realize its connection to everything else, it will always have competition and struggle. Is there not competition in all things related to life? Someone has to win and someone has to lose – this is the way of man.

How can we turn this around? There are so many varying opinions that no two seem to agree on anything.

Truth prevails, but not everyone acknowledges it. If everyone would simply follow the simple truths, then the trend will begin to reverse. Allowing the opinions of others to count equally would open many channels of communication. Someone has to be right and someone has to be wrong. This divides and never reconciles. In truth, the things of arguments are meaningless. Even the "winners" know this to be true. For upon the win does come another conflict. There is never a real win, which all sides come out ahead. Let not despair rule your life. Judge not those who would seek to destroy you for they would not win even if they did.

Killing one giant does not eradicate all other giants. Only when there is no longer a need for giants will they merely cease to exist. When anything is no longer called forth, it ceases to exist. When life becomes a greater burden than its purpose, it stops. Know this and teach it to My children. When hunger is no longer called forth, it will not exist. You do not understand this because you see it as outside of your control. One cannot control all, but all can control anything. Your common sense would suggest to you that hunger is a function of circumstances beyond your control, but I say that the very actions of people do make it so. Even given feet, people stay in deserts. Even given birth control, people have children at will. Is it God who creates deserts and makes people live there, having untold children to starve?

It's easy to blame God, – but have you not been given the resources to better your circumstances? If you knew that water was one hundred feet away, would you not be foolish to go to it? You could wait upon God to drop water/rain from the sky, but would this be your most prudent move? Certainly, you can go with the "wait and see" approach remembering that your life is preprogrammed. What you are to do you will do. But given seeming choices, which would seem more prudent? On the other hand, you can simply be led by your autopilot and save yourself the struggle. Remember, you have already chosen.

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Trust in the Lord your God with all of your heart, mind and soul. There must be something to hold on to for otherwise you will see nothing but defeat. Let go of all hopelessness and fears for the future. You are what you are – this does not change. Circumstances will change as you well know, but you are made specifically to be what you are. In all of life there does a progression exist – toward your own perfection in answer to all the questions you have asked. Let not any one circumstance cause you to be weary nor disheartened. Surely there are reasons to be weary if you let them overcome you, but those are not the causes to which you have given light.

The development of your spiritual journey is the foundation of all circumstances, not the actual circumstance itself. You must go through life on your chosen path in order that you may know yourself as you truly are. The purpose of life is not to test your reactions, but to cause you to learn that this not all there is. This day, as a whole, is a meaningless display of nothingness and is merely an experience that you have chosen. You are mystified that you could have chosen such a thing. You cannot believe for even one minute that you had a hand in this. You are the maker of your destiny and you have worked with all others to create this thing called life. Judge it not at face value for you cannot adequately do so. Know that all of life is as if layers of self are built upon each other, even those experiences which are often forgotten.

If you stick pins in a pin cushion and then remove the pins, are not the holes remaining? Your life is much the same. The holes are still there, seen or not. You are a created product from the vastness of your experiences. Whether you understand it or not, you are meant to be exactly what you are. Do not spend time trying to change or be something else, for you are exactly what you have chosen to be. Don't waste time with regrets. Know that you have landed at exactly the right place at the right time. You are what you have chosen, given the experiences you have chosen. Do not judge nor condemn yourself, for you are perfectly within your destiny.

What if we feel that our destiny truly does not suit us – as if we are operating outside ourselves?

Then you know that you are on your way to something else – you are not at the end.

What if we have always felt out of ourselves?

Then know that you are operating within your destiny, to become what you have chosen to be. There is no one place. When you arrive, you will know that you are at last home.

Time is passing with no real accomplishment. What is the purpose of this?

The purpose of what you have called forth to make you what you are.

What are we?

The greatest of all of God's miracles. The gifts you give are not for you, but are for those who benefit. Do you get up each day for yourself alone? You are part of the whole – you do your part for the benefit of the whole.

But how miniscule is our part – does it even matter to the whole?

Look through the microscope and see all that goes on and know that even the smallest specs contribute to the whole.

But nothing really changes, so does it really matter?

To the ones whom you have chosen to serve, it does matter. You have given part to the whole, just as have all others.

But should we not be able to give more?

You give what you have chosen to give.

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What kind of God do you think I AM? Check all of the adjectives you have associated with Me and examine the ramifications of each, i.e. jealous, vengeful, etc. What purpose could I possibly have for any of these? Does simple logic tell you that I must operate as you do? Do you not believe that somehow a kind and loving God would not be more merciful than you, who are all sinners and have fallen short of the glory of God? How can it be that you would give Me no more credit than to offer an enduring punishment such as is described as hell? If hell actually exists as you believe, what would be the point? Making some judgment errors in life would cause Me to banish your soul to the eternal fires of hell – now really...does that make sense? Blasphemy against the Holy Spirit is the only unforgivable sin according to the Bible. What sense does this make? Did God create perfect souls and offer them the chance to burn in hell forever? How long is forever? Does God put time limits on life and eternity?

Depending on where you stood in history, your definition of God springs forth. Did Jesus make God? Is it possible that there is only one such as Jesus who ever existed? Before Jesus and Mary, did God exist? Did Moses and Abraham need religion or its practices to directly contact God? Does regular worship take the place of a relationship with God? Is God only honored in church? What makes you so sure that God is not with you, just as Jesus said? Is it possible that man-made institutions substitute for God? Do you need someone else to speak to God for you? Why do you put practices ahead of personal interactions? What does God require of you, if He has requirements? If you are the likeness and image of God, how do you die? Would God punish God to hell? And what of heaven? Would you choose to spend eternity in any one state? A perfect creator created this? What does God tell you about God? Why would an all powerful God desire, demand or inflict fear? Would you condemn your child to hell forever?

Think outside the religion. If you had never been given any religious teachings, would that mean that you could not know God? Would God punish you for being so unfortunate as to not have heard the good news? Could God's law or being be captured in any one book? You are so busy trying to follow religious practices that you fail to know God. Is it not entirely possible that God can reveal Himself to you without any other sources or reference material? If God invokes fear, He cannot be loving. Fear and love are opposites.
Chapter 49 -

**Never Underestimate The Magnitude Of You**

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In all honesty, you are perfectly fine. You make your life a tragedy because you insist on worrying. Instead of cheerfully waking and making the most of each day, you start with all sorts of reasons for worry. You even notice yourself doing this. You would do well to deal quickly with your issues, if possible, and eliminate many of your worries. You imagine monsters where there are only irritants. Relax and give yourself a break. Stop letting every little thing turn into a huge obstacle to be overcome by great worry and effort. Ok, so life isn't your perfect little dream or fantasy, but surely it is not what you have made it out to be. It is not the terrible fright fest that you must suffer through. At worst, it is mundane. At best it is fairly pleasant. You have such hidden torture about your presumed circumstances that you are eating yourself up, from the inside out. Have you not learned the horror of this? Stop it – God wishes for you to be happy.

Contrary to your thinking, I have not "put upon you" your life or the contents thereof. I have given you the opportunity to dream and hope, not to be dashed, but to be fulfilled and rewarded. Your life is not a punishment – your life is merely an experience of your soul's choosing. Let go of guilt and fear. Be happy when you can and enjoy all that you can. If you have a happy moment – relish in it. If you have joyful experience – celebrate. If you have an unhappy moment – forget it. Learn to let go of hurts and worries. I AM with you always. Let yourself celebrate your life.

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A new world view is within your sight. From tragedy to triumph come revelations of greatness for you to behold. That's enough of your sadness, guilt and fears. Let go of worries and behold a new season of splendid greatness. From imagined prisons have you flown to discover the vastness of the world. Let joy ring from every part of your being, for you are destined to behold the wonder of it all. Let the fun ensue and bring forth the successes that have eluded you. The struggle is over. The joy is yours – at last, at last. Behold the joy is yours.

How so? How is the joy ours at last?

You have sought escape from your trapped existence and have longed for great freedom from struggle. You have given your best and now your best is My best. You have wondered incessantly and have fought the good fight of faith. You have done what was required, should you not now be rewarded? Should you live one more day a hopeless, sad person trapped by the world? Or should you live in blessed freedom, from which you have for so long begged? Does God not reward His creations, at least eventually? You may doubt My gifts for a time, but not indefinitely. There is no one who has called upon the Lord who has not eventually found the peace of God. You are no different. Your patience has earned your reward.

You have called upon Me and have given your best, so you deserve to be recognized for your efforts. Would God keep forever your God-given talents hidden? What would be the point? I have not brought you here to punish you, but to teach you for My service. Would I abandon you to suffer at the hands of those whose purpose is self-service? Have I caused you to seek only for no purpose at all? What would be the point? Would I not give you the fulfillment of all My promises? What sort of God do you take Me for? Would I allow you to live merely to suffer, especially when you have chosen My service? What sort of God do you take Me for?

Let go of your foolish notions. Let go of your struggles. Let go of your sufferings and worries. All of that is behind you now. What you have seen is not My best for you – what you have seen is neither My worst for you. There are no degrees of My will for you. My will for you is your will for you. All things combine to create you and your experience, as it is for the purpose you have chosen to serve. Let love be your guide – follow the calling of your heart. Don't let yourself be so discouraged that you find no enjoyment in life. Surely, sad experiences happen, but they are never the end of the story.

There are myriad new experiences this day, which will not be your last, but another great new beginning. I will show you the purpose of the learning that you have had. At last, the purpose is revealed. At last, the greatness of the Lord will shine and you shall never doubt again. Fear no loss, for you are not to lose again. All 28's for you. Abundance has finally arrived. There is nothing that you desire that will not be yours. There is nothing that you seek to do that you will not do.

You have told us these things before, yet the experience has not been as you had described.

You have doubted the Lord. I have promised to increase your faith. Is not the time long past due in your mind?

You promised years ago to increase our faith, yet doubts do linger. There is much confusion. Never have we been so confused. We are convinced of nothing. We know not where to turn.

My direction is always given you. You are Mine and I am yours. Let Me be very clear about My intentions for your life – I AM and You Are. Trust in the guidance that you will be given. There is nothing so disconcerting to a human as trying to understand while seeing only bits and pieces. Trust that the whole picture is not what you see. Trust that wholeness is where your future lies. I have not brought you to this point to keep you hidden or outside My service. Trust that I will make you what I have told you that I would. Trust with all of your heart that you are the chosen as you have chosen and will know Me as I truly Am.

For in this life you have chosen to know Me and I do not disappoint. For years, you have sought and now you will find the answers that you have sought. I AM not here for without reason, nor are you. Allow My miracles to unfold before your very eyes. Allow Me to show you all that you would know and teach. The world is not changed by lack of effort. There is no purpose in your sitting alone seeking God. All seekers know of the struggle between heaven and earth. To be caught between seeming worlds is not a desirable position. But the living between worlds does take time, practice and patience. These I have given all of My seekers, but a few actually hold out until the secrets are revealed.

To say that it is tough is an understatement.

I agree. But, had you not chosen to seek, surely you would not find. What is the point of seeking, only to give up along the path? Is this true seeking? Only those who have chosen to go the distance will. Even if given the truth, the half-hearted will not benefit.

Is it a matter of being half-hearted or merely disappointed, confused and hopeless?

All of these things combine to make misery. It is much the same as the marathon runner who gives up and quits, opting for the pain to stop rather than the reward of having finished.

How can one be certain that the reward is worth the pain?

Would you say that knowing and teaching God is a worthy reward?

We hope so, but Jesus and many others suffered greatly over their "rewards."

Don't be deceived, not everyone is convinced of the goodness of God. Not everyone relished in the bounty of the boundless. There are those who would kill to suppress the guiltless of God. Not everyone seeks as you do.

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Behold, I have come to rescue you at last. I AM with you - My face is not hidden from you. I AM with you – you are not alone. You need not struggle or worry for My light shines upon you at this very moment. I AM – You Are. Rejoice in the Lord's salvation for it is upon you now. Trust in the healing kindness and worry-free existence that you have now chosen. I will lead your steps – I AM your guiding light. I have chosen what you have chosen. I give you signs of excellence ahead. I know of your cries for rescue, for love and hope. I have heard you and know the joy of your ways. Let not yourself be one minute more in despair. The dark nights of your soul are over. Your rescue is at hand, now and forever more.

Let the joy from your heart swell and overflow into all others, for yours is the kingdom. Rejoice in love and happiness, for at last the struggle ends. You are the anointed child of God who holds the keys to the kingdom. You are My shining light and are a beacon for those who would know Me as I AM. Your struggles teach others that there is hope and that nothing is lost, except in giving up. Persevere and you shall know the rewards of God. The desires of your heart are there for a reason – do not let the lives of others be your judgment upon your own. For no one has chosen exactly as you have. You have chosen to be God's teacher and this very thing, you are. Who will receive My lessons from you?

Let them hear far and wide the joyous news of the Lord, for in this there is great joy and salvation. There are no instant fixes for those who seek Me, but the efforts of those who earnestly seek shall surely be rewarded and they shall find. The lukewarm will not be satisfied, for they have not known truly what they seek. Earnest seekers shall find what they seek. I have not made false promises of hope. I have given you the wisdom to find what you seek. You may not know where to go or what to do, but you find yourself led ever so gently to the places of your knowing to find what it is that you would know. Every step along the way is one of hope and love, even if you see not the beauty of each. Join with us – all who would reach the blessed destination and find the loving arms that you seek.

It seems that the steps are not filled with love and the road seems full of potholes and traps. Give us a better vision for making the road more peaceful.

There is no road without seeming difficulties. The size of the obstacles depends on how much credence you give to them. If you see it as merely something to avoid, with little thought, then it will be minimal. If you see it as something awful and full of danger, then it will be huge. There are those who do not see outside of themselves. Let them fall into their own traps. They will not find pleasure or love, because it is not within them. They seek to fulfill their own desires and feel that someone else must pay the price. If you choose to be the price, then so be it. If you choose to return the price to them, then so be it. Do not be swallowed up by those who seek to undermine your efforts. They have only the power that you give to them.

As people who have held the short end of the stick, let it be known that the spoils do not always go to the righteous. The evil minded persons do often win, at least in the short term.

But this is not for you to judge. It is merely nothing.

Merely nothing is what is left after their punishments have been exacted. Where is the hope for those who seek to help?

In all your ways must you seek to do good works regardless of your perceptions about what happens. There is never an excuse for revenge or punishment. What a person does, they will ultimately do to themselves. This is not for you to correct as it will be corrected for them. Yours is merely to do your best and let the others do theirs.

We are told that you restore seven fold to the person from whom something was wrongfully taken. We have not seen this to be true.

You cannot judge what you do not understand. Not all things are financial, in spite of your world's standards. For the person denied justice, do not look for what you believe to be compensation, for it may come in many ways. Have you considered that Christ's own reward came from the very death that was imposed upon Him? He lost His job, but was forever vindicated after death. So, do not waste your time looking for seven times your salary. The chosen compensation may not be in cash, or in the specific multiples expected.

What are your ways then, of repayment?

Take for example those poor souls who were cheated by the owners of the company. What are the chances that they would ever see real justice? If perhaps they were given new peaceful lives of honor, would this not be justice? There is not one answer to your question. To each is given what he/she needs.

What must we do in answer to the call of our hearts?

Honor that which calls for you to seek the glory of the Lord. In all things, know that life is for the experience and no circumstance is constant. Know that God calls upon you to honor your inner knowing, that to which you are called is the calling of your heart.

What of the confusion? How do we know what we should do?

Always it matters not what you should do, for you will do what you are to do. If there is unrest in your soul, then you will be led to where you are to go. The unrest is a calling for you to be aware of the signals for you to heed. You are always led. Constantly you are led.

What of the confusing signals that we receive?

For surely you will do what you are to do. Trust heartily in the system – there can be no mistakes. There are no wrong turns. If you feel the desperate cries to do something, even if you think it is the only hopeless move you have left, then do this as it is what you must do. Always know that everything does happen according to the plan. You have a carefully scripted plan for your life that you will follow.

But, it often seems that we are merely throwing darts at some unseen target – blindly going and doing. How can we know what we should do?

There are very subtle signs and it takes great skill to discern the truthful callings of your heart. It may seem that you are merely throwing darts, but in truth, the darts are already placed. You are just going through the experience of throwing them.

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Of all the things you imagine that you love, I AM not one of them. You aren't even sure that I AM or that you love Me at all. You have sought Me, you have begged Me, but do you know that I AM? I have not yet revealed Myself to you – certainly not as you would imagine. In order to seek for something fully, you must know that it exists or be reasonably certain that there is something to seek. Apart from wishes and beliefs based on the tales of others, what is it that you are seeking? Do you even know? What you really seek is a better way of life. In this, you believe that finding God will give you this.

You believe that "God" is the means to more and better – the help that you seek. You have heard great tales of how God blessed others and provided the true happiness of life. This is what you seek. You profess the will to help others and the desire to bring joy into the world. Is this your true motive? Do you even understand why you do what you do?

In truth, the more we seek, the less we are certain of anything.

Compare your spiritual growth to the charts of the stock market. Daily there are ups and downs, but over the long term, it always rises. You are not without hope – you just are looking up from the bottom and find it difficult to imagine increase, when bleakness is all around. You must and will gain confidence once you have seen the rise in the graph – and it always rises overall. You may have fallen, but never as far back as were you before.

This is not so on the economic scale for surely we are still far below where we were, even after increases. We can't even imagine being where we were. It seems impossible.

A year ago you could not imagine where you are now. But, the true source of your misery is the lack of progress, digression in fact, from your true calling. You do so believe that God has given you a gift and not the means to enjoy it. You feel totally bereft of help - left now to suffer with the mundane life you so feared. But, has this not been a great learning experience for you? Trust that all of life is learning, learning to love your brother as yourself. Your brothers are your very life. You are nothing without them and them nothing without you. In your pursuit of intellectual conversation, I have brought back to you the one whom you enjoyed most offering the thrill of intriguing conversation which stirs your soul.

But it is not as we had imagined. The digression is so totally complete that we are still in shock. What is the purpose of this?

You are always the product of your environment. You learn to think and profess as those around you. From opposing sides of the fence does come great conversation. The truth remains and you have come from that place – both from each end. Would you rather be suffocated by religion or enjoy the freedom of God? You do not need religious beliefs, for they are merely beliefs. Know that there can be no hateful or unloving aspects of God. God does not punish. God does not enter into the world of judgment. What would be the point? The system would not work if I interfered as you believe that I do. Helping some and killing others. Is this not a little too human for God?

Then why do we pray? Why do we believe? Are all of our "God" pursuits a waste? Would not we get more from talking to our fellow humans?

Perhaps you would get more out of it. But, there is something inside of you that seeks more. You know that humans, all humans, seek something higher than themselves. There must be something greater or what is the point? If most people believe in a higher power, what is it based upon? There must be some sort of evidence to guide most people to the same place. Does God exclude? God knows only love and embraces all. If you but understood the true reality, you would laugh at how foolish you are to believe that God punishes. You are the only one who punishes. Cause and effect – the natural order of things punishes – or seems to. This is the perfect system of checks and balances. That's how life works.

When you believe you are doing right, but everyone else sees you doing wrongly, does this make either right or wrong? Who is the judge? Understand that all things are relative. There really is no right or wrong, but there is a great deal of confusion. How can you know the mind of another? What motivations are at work? You may be motivated by passions so great that you believe you cannot control them. It's all about perception. And no two people perceive alike. Your entire lives are spent trying to develop and foster sameness. You hate diversity, because it complicates your life. You think the world should think as you do. But, what about your thinking? Who says that your thinking is correct? You place a high value on your opinions. But do others?

The general consensus comes to certain conclusions which are taught the world over.

So, does this make it right or largely accepted?

At our best, we believe this to be right.

But is it right – even if it goes against your perception? There are many outside the mainstream who do not believe that you are right. So do not focus on right but on that which is truth.

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Behold, a new day dawns upon the world. Let go of yesterday and all that has passed. Enjoy today for all of its grandeur – only the sane will walk free of all that is imposed upon the world. The world is not a place of tragedy as you have imagined, but a place of peace if it is chosen. The peace of God is yours if you will have it. There is nothing as tragic as the mind bent on destruction. The sadness of life is but the choice to have it so. God does not wish for you to be sad, but for you to be free. There is nothing but freedom for those who have chosen freedom. Lift always your eyes to heaven, for this is where you shall see greatness in all those who are a part of heaven with you. The ease, with which you are contacted, at any time, should now be readily apparent to you. Those who are to meet, will meet.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Those_ _who share a common bond will be brought together – seemingly out of nowhere._

Join with your brothers and delight in the joy of the passage through life as you have chosen. Enjoy all that is your destiny, purpose and fulfillment.

What is this common bond that we share and why is there so much mystery? Would we not all be better for the knowing of what we share?

In truth, you do know much, but the revelations of knowledge are part of the fun of life. Can you imagine the joy that comes from learning what God reveals? There is nothing as joyful as the revelations of God's own inputs in your lives. Let the joy be revealed and the fun takes over. If you will see your life as one level above what your eyes see, then you will know the beauty of all that has been chosen.

It is so very difficult to see one level above when things aren't so obvious. Surely we understand that there are levels of operations, but it would seem that the details are so hidden that we are kept in the dark and must focus on what our eyes see. What is the point of looking above if nothing is seen?

The more you learn to look above, the greater will be your vision. On each level is built a very complex structure. Only when you do not focus on the bottom will the other levels be revealed. You cannot go through life seeing only the physical if you are to behold the greatness that is all.

After so many years, do we ever actually progress toward the top? It seems that we struggle to go up, but are repeatedly dropped back down. Surely, there must be some secret to progression, some way to climb up the levels. Help us to know your secrets.

At all levels there are influences dropping in from other levels. Have you not felt that you have been influenced by other levels? What you term "knowing" does not come from the physical levels, but from other levels down. You tend to think of praying up and receiving down. In your perspective, this is so. But, also there can be influences from lateral influences, as it were. Remember, that people are God's messengers on all levels. Because you do not see Jesus does not mean that you are not influenced by Him or His deeds, even so long ago in your perception of time. The past, present and future are all at once and there is constant interaction between all. The interrelationships of all are so huge that your mind cannot imagine. Oneness is merely that – all in all. There is nothing outside of the constant workings of all. There is no one person outside of the all. There is no magic bomb coming from the outside. It is all contained within the all and all are working together. All things work together!

Are lives actually changed for all of the seeking effort put forth? Is anyone really better for having sought the things of God?

There is no such thing as better or worse – there simply is. The purpose of a thing is merely as it is called forth. If you perceive something as beneficial, then for you it is. If you believe that others are made better by your pursuit and info sharing, then there is benefit. If the receivers believe there is benefit, then there is benefit. Remember that life is not truth, but the experience of the opposite of truth. Nothing eternal can change or be changed. It simply is as it is. But in life, perception can be changed. If life is lived more easily by wisdom gained, then surely there is benefit. A person can just as easily live their entire life without any pursuit of God or spirituality. But, if a person wishes to delve into the secrets of God and gain an understanding, so that life does not appear to be so cruel and random, then so be it.

Each person chooses as he would have it be. Do not waste time inflicting your thoughts upon another, for this causes animosity. Offer the means of exploration and let each discern for him/her self. There is no one great pool of wisdom from which to drink. There are small wells of wisdom in all things and from each you must take what you will. There is no one way, no right way – all ways are part of the whole. Remember that from your perspective, you cannot clearly see anything. You must derive from the pool of wisdom that which is true for you. You can take the wisdom of others and profess to believe it, but at your core, only you truly know what you believe. Don't be swayed by others, for their truths may not be your own. Decide for yourself that which brings you closer to God. For you know and feel your own truth. Don't be as sheep led by others. Be true to yourself.

What is the purpose of this? Why write and contemplate that which accomplishes nothing?

If all romance novels ceased to exist, would there not be less enjoyment in the world? They do not accomplish great feats of literary achievement, but the fans would be less without them. What video game saves the world? The world does not need to be saved; therefore, the game is only for enjoyment. If you were to see life as a video game, you may tend to enjoy it more. Life is but a dream...a game...to be played and left behind. If you take it too seriously, then it will no longer be fun. You have taken the joy out of the game. You have cheated yourself out of the joyful experience. Start today to enjoy the game of life and all who are around you will begin to enjoy life also.

For those of us who have heard the calling of a higher purpose yet have not been so blessed, what must we do to quell the raging desire within of our destiny unfulfilled?

Be at peace for your time comes. There is no one given a purpose which is not served. Trust that your desires will be fulfilled. Trust that you will know the time and place, for you cannot miss your destiny. You see today and imagine tomorrow as the same. Do not make this mistake for even a moment longer.

There seems no progression. Still the dragging on of unfulfilled desires haunts us – year after year. And still you say wait. For how much longer must we wait?

The season is at hand, as I have told you. Do not let your joy be perpetually robbed. Take heart, My child, and do not lose even the very last glimmer of hope. Thy will be done!

There is great confusion – the unknowingness of life and purpose and Your will. There is great confusion – at every turn. Tell us Lord, as we follow the directives of A Course In Miracles Lesson 71, "What we are to do, where we are to go, what we are to say and to whom." (p. 122)

Blessed be the Lord, for He will guide you in all your ways. Trust that you cannot fail nor will you. You are to set your feet firmly upon the soil that I have gathered for you. Do not despair, for I have you well within My care. You are Mine and I AM yours. You cannot fail to touch the lives of those chosen for you. You cannot fail to reach upon the waters and rescue those who have called you forth. You cannot justify a life as bad when all that you have ever sought is righteousness and betterment. Do not let the thoughts of the day cause you despair, for these are but false idols set before you to keep your eyes away from your destiny. As I have loved you will you love others. You have lost faith in Me, not I in you.

You must recollect your fullest desire and passion for the pursuit of the happiness of all. Do not let the negativity shown toward you to be the compass on your path. Hear the still small voice – feel the joy unfold as your dreams do come to pass. I will set before you a new set of circumstances which will allow you to see the beauty ahead. The shining beacon before you will light your way and you will know that I Am God. Do not give a moment's thought for how it will come to pass as you do not know. Trust that God will shine forth from the heavens the means to bring you home, that you may take with you all of those who have chosen to follow your light.

Do not be dismayed nor discouraged by those who do not believe, for they will be disappointed when My plan comes to pass. It is not those who wish you well who will be shocked, but those who have sought to down-play your part in heaven. They will surely cry out for acceptance at that time, for they will not have known you as you truly are. They have assumed that you were delirious – led astray by others. They do not know you as I know you. They do not have your courage, but they will see that you have Mine. You are a lion among wolves and have set yourself apart. You are the joy of the Lord. Feel it and know that even the unseen will be seen as the greatest of God.

Behold! You are filled with the exhortations of the Lord. Shine anew and do not make the mistake of seeing the present as the future. Surely all steps along the way are dusted with hardships, but let yourself be free to know yourself as I have known you. I do not make mistakes and you are not mistaken – I have called you and your students have at last called you forth. You have chosen others ahead of self and this will be the basis of your gifts – to help others as I have helped you. They will know Me because of you. For you have chosen to be My light upon the world. You have worked diligently to this end and you will be forever rewarded by the number of souls who will come to know Me.

You are not to be beholden to others nor seek their approval – the approval of God is stamped upon your head and forever you will give the gift of God's peace and love to the world. These things I have revealed to you are not for you alone. Do not be selfish for to spread joy is your calling – to help the world heal itself by letting go of those misperceptions which cause undo anger and frustration. By your learning to let go, you will demonstrate the mighty power of God – the right way of truth. How easily can peace be had, when there is no other expectation put upon life? Teach My children to love themselves and others and to embrace all others for the world is not saved by division, but by multiplication. Spread the true good news that God does love all and love is all there is!

Open the doors to the world and we will go through. You still have not given us guidance – merely an overview. We do seek real guidance to do Thy will.

Of course, I will show you in every moment what you shall do. I will rescue you from the oblivion that keeps you from doing My will. Trust that in one day, all can change. One person can make your life anew.

When God, when?

Oh, they drop in on occasion to offer you a new spark or twist. Only time will tell, for they are many, not just one. One may be the cathartic one, but the masses are needed to bring forth the total change. So do not discount the one, but see the many. There are great things ahead, you need only be ready.

It has been over ten years since we began this exploration. Surely there must be some great good to come from this.

Ah, the ten year milestone – does it have meaning or is it the general span of time needed to bring you over to the new way of looking at things? The slowly evolving lesson plan – would you say that you are sufficiently changed over the last ten years?

We do see things differently and have had some rather odd experiences, but how can we judge "sufficiently changed?"

Are you open and willing to do what you must to fulfill your purpose?

Yes!!!

For those desperate souls who choose to live the quiet life of suffering, in no way without what they need, they need only change their perspective. You see yourself as desperate, longing for the life of your dreams. You cause yourself to suffer needlessly. Give up trying to guilt God into action. It doesn't work. For you have long known this, but as you say, you keep trying because there is nothing else to do. Why not relax and know that what is designed for you is yours without struggle or input from you. Enjoy the fun of life. Be at peace and struggle no more. Love yourself and the life that you have. It is better than yesterday. Trust that tomorrow will be better yet. Love your brothers as I love you. There is nothing to fear for I AM with you always.

**Chapter 50 – A Clear Mind**

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Is there ever a time in life when you have felt truly satisfied? Was there a time when you felt that you were well within your plan? If not, then the path you are on is not your chosen one, although you have chosen this to bring you to where you should be. So, how do you get to where you should be? Your efforts have failed repeatedly, so now try mine. Let yourself go into the wild world of day dreaming. If there could be imagined no obstacles, what would you do? Let your most vivid dreams unfold, so that you can know yourself truly. Ask yourself only for honesty – for by being honest will you know yourself truly. Listen for the calling of your heart without the pounding of fear. Let go of your anxieties and worry not about the hows and whys. Be clear to listen and not tell your heart what is inside. Only honest listening doth reveal the very truth inside.

It is never clearly apparent – this truth inside. How can a person clearly know what their chosen path is?

The less investment a person has in controlling events, the more likely they are to be in touch with self. Rather than putting so much time into "your knowns about the world," try some imagination. A clear mind reveals truth clearly.

But as a clear mind is especially difficult to attain, especially with age, how do we overcome the world and see the results of the chosen path?

Are there things hoped for not seen? Of course, but even with all of your doubts and fears do come the ever flowing springs of hope. What causes hopes to rise amid all of the doubts? There must be something inside of you that reveals itself over and over.

Surely there are hopes and dreams, but also there is disappointment and despair. The struggles to keep hope alive seem harder than simply letting go. When nothing manifests, over and over, toward the dream, one does get weary and tired – even unto death. That is fact, not fiction. What is the difference between choosing to keep up the fight and just letting go?

Truly hopeless people do give up. Those who still feel that there is something worth fighting for keep fighting. This is in the nature of their path. What is chosen before manifests now. You cannot say that one lived and one died merely as a matter of hope or lost hope. There are no easy choices and none made lightly. But what is within a person reflects the choices made long go. Remember, what you do is a direct reflection of the choices made long ago. You are merely now reflecting those choices.

So the person who hopes endlessly for better, yet never sees better, has merely reflected choices made long ago to suffer endless disappointments?

Yes, for they did believe that searching was in the life for the betterment of their spiritual growth. One does not grow spiritually by having all dreams come true. The hardships of life do cause a person to be revealed truthfully. What you truly are comes to light during the hard times.

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Verily I say unto thee – behold, for your work is the very blessing to many, a light in the darkness. Let them not cause you to be weary. Rejoice for you are the Lord's teacher and our will is always done. You are not without hope nor reasons for great joy. You may not see it today, but know that all of My blessings are upon you.

We are not ungrateful, but we see not the tremendous miracles of Your promises. We see our lives much as they were and have not changed to reflect the words you have spoken. There is great disparity between what we see and what You are. Tell us Lord – what must we do or say or both that we may live the blessings of Your promises?

Fear not for you have not nor can you miss anything. Time will but reveal to you all that I have promised. Worry not that you have chosen wrongly, for that is not possible. I would have you learn from the experiences lain before you as part of your slowly evolving lesson plan. You are not changed instantly. You are changed slowly, so that you may derive full benefit from all that you experience. You have learned to see things differently, because you have experienced them. These times are not meant to be punishments, but are the very teaching tools of the future. Empathy, in its truest form, does offer the greatest honesty – been there, done that as it is said. Let not your mind be boggled with mundane worries. I have cared for you and always will. It is not your calling to suffer at the hands of men, even though you have had this very experience. But what does set you apart? What will make you what you are to become? You have listened and heard the voice of God. You are My chosen one in whom I am well pleased.

But with each passing day we feel more and more reverted to the old ways. We have not lived upon a higher mountain nor grown beyond ourselves. We have seen ourselves more clearly and have realized the truth about humanity – the ego driven self. We have seen the enemy and he us. What You teach is true – we are self serving, even in our charity. We do secretly seek to gain while putting on a show. The ego does rule the world and we seem powerless to control it. We may wake up with the most saintly of intentions, but almost immediately do fall into the ego traps – we witnessed ours and that of others – the egos ruling the day. While Christmas shopping, insults were passed many times. Why is it that we can't or won't control our egos, even for such a blessed spiritual holiday?

Stress does do awful things. Did you really mean to insult someone or they you? Or were you merely in the way of their getting somewhere on time? Malicious intent is not the same as stressful inconvenience, even though both are ego motivations. Too many people trying to do the same things in the same time and space produces stressful conditions. You must know yourself and be mindful to offer a kindness rather than an insult. Could you, while running from a snake, take the time to offer him forgiveness for chasing you – or he to forgive your trespassing upon him? We may lose our manners when faced with a stressful situation.

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When once there was a beauty queen who suffered endlessly with self doubt, also there was an ugly person who was held in the highest self esteem. What is the biggest difference between them? One was happy and one was sad. Self esteem, or the level of it, did allow for the happiness and not that which was on the outside. The feelings of personal satisfaction do outweigh any other feelings or circumstances. Let not your heart be low because of your perceived failures. Perception is not reality. Realty has nothing to do with life. Does it matter if you lose everything or gain everything in relation to reality? No, for you do not change nor does reality. You are not this thing which you appear to be. You are the eternal living spirit of God – changeless and forever perfect. From this there is great esteem to be had. Lift your sights above the manufactured images that the world has to offer. See everyone as what they truly are and you will live above the world.

But living above the world is not wholly possible – we must still participate in the unreal world. We can pretend to live in reality, but the unreality is the car in front of us.

For as much as you allow it. Let not your heart be swayed by those things that bring forth unreality. Focus on the higher things – the things that bring you joy and happiness. Let the love of God bring you up to the truest nature of all things. Look for the good in all things and know that the love of God is your highest calling. Be not afraid of those things which you look upon, for they will fade. Hold fast to the things of true beauty – the love of all within all.

But the love of all in all is really a hidden thing – covered over by the harshness of life's circumstances. The world does not see past the perceived transgressions of life's hurts and failures. Do we hold onto the beauty or the terror of it all? Let us not be swayed by the cruelty of life, but help us to find the joy in all things. Love us God and lift us up to know you are you truly are.

To know God is to look beyond the temporal and hold fast to the eternal. God is not here today and gone tomorrow. God does not appear and disappear. God merely is – changeless forever. What faith could you have in something that changes? Does God write a law today that holds no truth tomorrow? One must truly look beyond for the eternal and not try to find God where He is not.

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Hello – what a wonderful day. It is full of hope, love and happiness. The joy of your heart plays for all the world to sing along. Let the love of God be spread for all to be uplifted. There is nothing unlike salvation in all that you do. Behold the great joy in the celebration of the season.

Tell us what to do.

Tell all the world of the joy of the Lord. In all things let love be your guiding light. Trust that there is nothing that you are not. For what you are is all in all. Let your love be great. Enjoy all that you have and are. Be uplifted and joyous in this holiday season.

Give us specific direction for the path ahead.

Look and watch and listen. You are never without the resources that you need. The joy of the Lord is with you always. Be forever at peace with yourself and all others. Lift up yourselves and behold the miracles of life. They are upon you and your life is one of greatness. Do not allow yourself to despair over the moments, but rejoice for the glory of the Lord is upon you.

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Can another day really be different? Will tomorrow offer something different than today? What is it that you expect or look forward to? Know that today is what you have and enjoy it to the fullest. Look to all the goodness in the world and make the most of each moment.

We do expect more in the future. We are here with your promises and do look forward for today is not necessarily our best. We expect your promises to be fulfilled, but nothing it seems is happening today, so we must look forward.

But don't overlook today while waiting for tomorrow. Let's not waste a minute, even if we know that tomorrow holds great things. Knowing that you have a great vacation planned two months from now, would you choose to ignore what happens between now and then? Don't let today suffer for the sake of tomorrow.

But should we not also have hope today – for things not yet seen – while living today?

If you choose to be hopeful, then this is good, but not if you only look to the future. Have both – hope for the future and hope for today.

Have you not prepared us for something to be hopeful for? It would seem that we have gone through so much schooling that we must surely have something great ahead.

All of life is a preparation – you are well prepared – for what you do not know. But, even if there were nothing else, your preparation would not have been wasted. Can it ever be that all is for naught? Would you have been so vested in some unfulfilled destiny? Could it be that you have driven so long a road to nowhere? It doesn't make sense, nor should it. If you know that you are being prepared for something, then surely you are. Be at peace with this and live as if your greatest days are ahead. If you have not fulfilled your purpose, can you be done? Do not see tomorrow as today. Do not let your future be determined by your past.

You are not what you were nor will you be what you have been. Lift up your eyes to heaven and see the road ahead. What is ahead is surely better than what is behind. Do you not feel that you are much changed and far closer to God than ever before? If your goal is God realization and you have sought earnestly to get there, then it must happen for you. You are not running a race that you cannot win. If you seek God, you will surely find Him. This I guarantee!

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Weary, lost and afraid, I have called you into My comfort and My peace. You are nothing if not well within My divine care. Let not your heart be weary, for I will give you rest. You need not struggle nor try in any way to find Me, for I Am with you always. You cannot be apart from Me. I AM yours and you are Mine. Let the world know of your wonders and behold the Christ in you will arise and speak freely. I will end your suffering and will lift you up to the glory of the Lord. You are My servant in whom I AM well pleased. Rejoice – for the glory of the Lord is upon you. Save not your goodness for a time ahead, but celebrate each moment as if it were your last. Be of good cheer, for the Lord has called you near to the hearts and minds of many. For your valor and search, you are hereby rewarded with all the gifts that you have chosen.

To teach you must and teach you will. You have spread My words upon the waters and they have not drowned, but are swollen and enlarged to reach all corners of the world. As you have doubted, so much more shall you be given faith and assurance of My promises, for they are not made lightly. Never have I broken a promise nor shall it ever be. Trust in the Lord your God and you will be made whole. Do as you have believed and desired, hearing no discounts of anyone, go forth into the world and spread for the messages that I have given you by the means you are given. Do not be swayed by doubt or naysayers. Trust that God alone is your teacher and you are my messenger. My power is given you for the purpose that you were sent to serve. Behold the miracles of confirmation that you may doubt no more.

Your work is our work, but we have seen nothing beyond the ordinary.

As the messages are given, so are the means. Though you may not see them today, tomorrow it is revealed. The world does not go without what it needs and all is given to bring forth what is has chosen. Would I put you up to disappoint? Would I bother with you to give you false messages? What do you take me for?

I give you the desires of your heart. You have desired to serve Me and I would not allow you to be disappointed. There are so many lost sheep – seeking to find what you have. They have cried out to Me and I have answered. You are merely the pawn between Me and My people. It has less to do with you than you would imagine. So, don't be so self important as to believe that I would lift you up merely for your sake. You have chosen to serve and serve you will.

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Be of good cheer – the holidays are here. There is no reason not to enjoy the season. For the hope for the New Year brings forth much happiness. As you count your days, let the days of despair be gone. Know that what is ahead is much better than what is behind. Know that with each passing day you are one day closer to your dream fulfillment. The road ahead is filled with great blessings, fun and happiness. You have always taught yourself to be miserable – to worry and fret about everything. You have wasted much time focused on the one bad thing in each day, while ignoring all of the good things.

Your time to change is now. Reverse this pattern and ignore the one wrong thing in each day and focus on all the great and wonderful things. Learn, as I have told you, to quickly identify all thoughts related to past or future events. Discard them immediately. If it does not relate to now, then don't give it another thought. Learn to let go of wasted thoughts. Granted, living in the past does keep you from facing future fears. This is one of your distraction techniques. You can't look ahead with any sort of real hope if your future is clouded with conditions from the past. The future is meant to be a surprise – not a repeat of the past. Certainly you don't want to live in the past. Trust that your future will be vibrant and very different from the past. Don't look to stamp the future with a basis in the past. Let life play itself out and enjoy the ride.

It would seem that life does repeat itself – with only certain subtle differences. Is it not reasonable to project forward the same patterns as experienced in the first half of life?

You can call it reasonable or just plain miserable. As much as you see your life the same, surely you recognize that there are certain patterns which have brought you to this place. Can it be that perhaps, you have selected certain elements of your life and have given them precedence over other aspects? Perhaps you have chosen to focus on the negative aspects of life. It's like taking random events and finding some common elements to produce a theme. You have made your life theme from unrelated events. Based upon your themes, you have chosen a life of struggle, worry and misery. If you were to look at your life from a different perspective, you would see a totally different theme. If perhaps your life theme was to know God, how would you select the events to weave the pattern?

How can you propose to create a life theme having seen only half of it? Do you cross half a river and thereby judge the entire experience? Surely, after having only crossed half the river, you might surmise that your life theme was to drown in the middle of the river. Your perspective of your life is much like this at this point. Another example is climbing a mountain – it's tough to get up the one side, but the other side will be much easier to come down. Don't judge the whole by the half. Give God credit for the whole picture and not just the tough half.

What you say makes sense, except that without having seen part II, part I seems rather rough. When does part II start?

As soon as you are able to handle it. We have worked diligently to prepare you for it.

If by preparation you mean the hardening of us, we then should be tough. We would not have guessed that your preparation would be so very disheartening. In order to know God, we have to totally lose confidence in God and ourselves. To be at the total mercy of God is what you are teaching? The opposite of self reliance?

What we are teaching is God reliance. The self is nothing. Of My own I can do nothing. Let God do all things for you. Walk in the spirit. It will guide you appropriately. You must learn to trust that all is provided. You need worry about nothing. It's all set.

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For there are many ways to heal, the most important is to be the loving example of Christ. The details other than this are meaningless rituals to build faith. Can you be taught to heal? A doctor would argue yes. But, I say that you may knowingly create a healing environment, but you will never heal. For the only healer is the patient. You can encourage and promote a healing condition, but heal you cannot. Healing is a choice made by the patient. This is why the exact same thing heals some and not others. It is a choice. If you were to be a "great healer" going into a place where healing is not chosen, your greatness would be in question. Take a Bible into a room full of Atheists and measure your success.

Recognizing the choices of others will eliminate much failure in your practice. A person seeking sincerely healing will have it. But you can not use their words to attest to their conviction. Many will request healing, not fully understanding their own choices and motivations. Therefore, be vigilant to acknowledge your prayers are but the healing environment in which the patient heals himself. Do not put the burden of guilt upon the patient, but let yourself be convinced that you are not the healer in the situation and all you can do is create the loving, healing environment.

But how can we have faith for others when we have none for ourselves?

You are merely the sought – I will send the seekers. Understand that I can reach you from anywhere, anytime.

We have no training – merely the desire.

Who would train you? Medical school? Priests? What do you need that I cannot give? Do you not believe that in a minute you can be taught or touched or enabled? What is to be, will be. You need not plan nor worry.

But planning and worry have been the driving forces of our lives. Things have not happened out of the blue.

Really? Has nothing happened which was not planned in your life? Be careful – you'll make Me laugh.

But always there was worry and planning.

But in truth – neither was needed.

Our lives have not been examples of happy-go-lucky and we admit that we were taught and re-taught to worry and plan. If none of it were necessary, then why does it seem so?

Perspective. If you could have done the same things without worry or planning, would you have believed it? Or were you so convinced of its necessity that you could not see from that vantage point? The worry happened, you planned and something happened. How many times did your plans come to pass?

Well, we planned our schooling, our work and our personal lives and proceeded to live.

Was planning or worry necessary?

At the time it seemed so.

But now, having your Master's Degree unplanned, are you still convinced?

Confused rather than convinced.

Has your life been as you had planned?

No!

Then, why continue to plan?

As opposed to doing nothing, it makes us feel like we're doing something. Problems don't solve themselves and we eat by the sweat of our brows.

So I do not feed the birds?

Some of them starve. Many people starve.

Why do you suppose that some starve and some eat?

Either by choice, environment, etc. Birds who don't seek food will surely not eat. They will die. They don't plan or worry, but they do work to find food. And so do we. They don't have to pay for their food, but they must get it. So, it is not as if food simply drops into our mouths. There must be some sort of effort put forth.

Would you have Me feed you as if you were a child?

Not physically, but things could be easier. Think of the miles that birds migrate. Is that really necessary?

Nothing is necessary. But, things happen for reasons beyond your comprehension. What if the migration of birds was necessary to sustaining life on earth? Would you understand this? So, let's just say that all things work together for good. Birds don't migrate because they planned it, nor do they refuse because they are worried or afraid. They simply do what they are instinctively driven to do. Let them be your example. Live by the spirit and it will lead you to where you are to go.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Perhaps the world is mysterious to you because you do not understand it any longer. You are still caught between the old way and the new way. You cannot allow judgment to be let go because you have been so taught to plan and organize. But, if you were to place no judgment upon anything, could there ever be disappointment or struggle? If you did not plan, then how could you be held to a set schedule? The world tells you to plan, but you have found this is often a waste. Why then, do you bother?

Because we are given schedules and tasks and duties and so little are the resources to accomplish them. If even a minute is wasted foolishly, something will not get done and there are consequences. Always are the consequences, more than the rewards. People are quick to tell you what you've done wrong, but seldom are you told what you have done well. And so they wonder why people are miserable. Given too much work for so little reward – naturally people give up. This is the same for all. A person or animal facing impossible odds will merely give up. Why fight a losing battle?

But if you looked at life overall, you'd see that any battle is a losing one. There really is nothing to be gained in the winning. If it involves a battle, there will be losers on both sides. If you do not believe this, then look back and you'll find sufficient evidence to support this claim. So, stop fighting and merely go with the flow. In truth, you only fight yourself. If you give into the battles forced upon you, you will not win. Turn the other cheek. Let go and let God.

So you are saying that never is there just cause for fighting – on any level?

That is correct. Peaceful opposition is best. You can stand your ground without getting all warped out of shape. This was Ghandi's way. Be still and let them accuse you as they will. Let not your heart grow weary. Be at peace. Above all else, be at peace.

It is most difficult to be at peace when assaults come against you. There are times when it seems unbearable to simply sit and take the blows. Is the coward ever really better for having allowed the bully to assault him?

By better, what do you mean? There are two ways of looking at this, actually more if you think about it. But, the coward has nothing to really gain by fighting back. He is defeated before the first punch is thrown. Further defeated after the first punch is thrown. The answer must lie in many variables. Each person must do what is right for him/her self. Maybe today you choose to fight and not tomorrow. Perhaps running is the best way. Maybe a peaceful solution is best. There is no right answer, so each must do as he must. But, conflict does not prosper. It divides. Division gives you less, never more.

But how can we lessen the conflicts and learn to multiply rather than divide?

Look for win-win solutions. Seek the means of having all hands on deck.

This seems impossible. No two people really agree on anything.

True, but a good consensus helps.

There always seems to be the bad apple in every bunch. The ego is greater than the team.

Egos are powerful things. Never underestimate the ego.

How is it controlled?

By awareness. Know thy enemy.
**Chapter 51 – Paradise Within**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Be at one with Me and know that all thy days are carefully numbered. There is no mistake, for all is set just as it should be. Know that there are no accidents nor coincidences. Life is meant to be exactly as it is. If it is not suited to you, then you have not understood the whole picture. You have instead focused on small parts of it. Try to see not the trivial details but the larger overall picture. What is the purpose of this? Ask always for the spiritual vision to see beyond the trivialities. In a day, you may see a million little things, but miss entirely the grand landscape upon which all the million things are overlaid. It is if you were walking through a valley and only seeing one or two things, not realizing the enormity of the entire scene – the sky, the valley, the flowers, the grass, etc. While perhaps focusing on one barren spot, you are overwhelmed with despair and sadness. A broader view would have revealed the beauty of the whole, but you chose to focus on that which is not representative of the whole.

Just as you choose to focus on the isolated negative events of your life or even a day, you miss all the joy encompassing the whole of either or both. Truly a simple change of perspective can reveal an entirely different life. What you choose to focus upon brings forth the experience. If you choose to focus on the negative, then your experience will be negative. There may be exactly the same percentage of positive and negative events in a day, as you perceive them, but you can experience positive or negative days simply by your focus. You can break down all of life into as many pieces as you choose and decide based on your perspective how it is experienced. Two people experience the same event differently. You can experience it two different ways. The circumstances merely are. How you experience then is up to you. Pessimists and optimists have the same circumstances, but each with different experiences. Choosing how you experience something is your only option. You would argue that the death of a loved one is horrible. If you looked at the big picture, you might feel otherwise. Broaden your perspective. Do not let one thing determine your view of life.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Behold the vastness of the world and be not amazed for the world that you seek is beyond all sights and sounds. There is a place so great that you can never get there by travel or struggle. The destination of choice merely is everywhere and nowhere. Set your sights upon finding this paradise within yourself. There can be paradise wherever you are. It can be here or there or everywhere. It's all really a matter of choice. You may find this a difficult concept at first, seeing all the ills of the world. But knowing that you are powerless to change the world, you can choose to escape its powerful hold. The world only controls your mind and your perception of things. If you were to review your life and eliminate all of the times of worry and fear, having the benefit of hindsight, you would have known and feared few things. You would see much wasted effort and would realize the error of your ways.

But within the bubble of your limited perception, you find it most difficult to be without worry. You find that life is but a minute-to-minute series of tragedies to overcome. You do not look down upon your life from above and see the beauty of it. You look up from within the quagmire and feel hopeless and lost. There seems no escape. Only more of the endless struggles. Day after day, you feel swallowed up in hopelessness. Can this be the life of your dreams? Why has God forsaken you when all you've done is choose to do good in the world? Even with the best of intentions, you fail over and again to set yourself upon your chosen path. You see no hope or even a glimmer of chance at making your "God life" come to pass. Is this not your truthful vision of your life?

From within the bubble and based on history, we would say so.

Then what must we do to change this?

You tell us for we know not.

All things happen in due season. Can a bird fly before its wings have developed? Neither can you come into your season before you are properly prepared. I have trained you thoroughly on how to handle the success to come, but you feel that you are not prepared. You have no confidence in your abilities, yet you claim out of false ego that I am holding you up. But be honest. You are afraid because you have not had such success. Your mediocrity has kept you in a safe place. You have not been center stage. You fear that you cannot handle the opposition. You falsely declare that you can. But, what you do not have naturally to overcome your fear, I will give to you so that you are perfectly capable of handling what comes forth. You let the little things rattle you. Even the appearance of rejections sends you further back into your shell.

I will give you the boldness to speak for Me. There is no choice in this, for it was all chosen long ago. Now it is merely for you to deal with it and I will give you what you need. If there is even a hint of fear, I will give you the means to dispel it. My messages are not to be hidden away forever. They are for the edification of those who seek to know Me. You have chosen to carry forth My messages to those who have not previously understood them. You are to reach to those beside you and teach them what they seek to know about Me. The joy, the wonder and the love of their heavenly Father who created them in His own likeness. To love God is to love self and those who love themselves do love others as themselves. Let there be no mystery about this.

It is not about lifting man up to God's level, for he is already there. He simply does not know it. God wishes that His children know Him truly and by knowing Him will know themselves. In this there is great love and compassion, not isolation and desolation. These are not mere words for the spouting, but are the very core of every human being. Let them look inside and know that God is there – for God is everywhere. There is nothing of God hidden and He is not only revealed to the select few. God is available to everyone, if they will but choose to know Him.

Fancy robes and powerful messages do not bring people to God. These merely allow people to hear about God. What happens when the lights go out and there is no one with whom to learn? Does God wait to reveal Himself through others or does He reveal Himself to those who seek Him? Let My people know that I AM here, available, anytime, anywhere. I AM not hidden in secret doctrines of the religions. I AM not hidden at all. I AM just as you are. You are Mine and I AM yours. Seek to know Me and I will make Myself known.

You say these things and make it sound so easy. We have not experienced the ease of which You speak.

You have caused hardship by your own ego. That you had come to Me as a child, how much easier would it have been? Instead, you come with all manner of preconceived notions which had to be unlearned before you were even open to the possibility. Having been taught about God through others, you were almost convinced that I was out there somewhere and only available if I chose to be. Your heart told you that I was near, but your mind kept Me at quite a distance - so large a distance that it has taken years to bridge. Had you merely asked, I would have been there as I Am always there. But you chose to deny reality and put upon God that which I AM not. You did not realize that you made it difficult when it wasn't necessary. So, for those who are less convinced, the knowing of God is much easier. Didn't Jesus tell you to be like children? Children don't assume they know all the answers – they merely ask. You once thought you could control things. What it took to convince you otherwise. You once thought you knew God, but finally you actually do. Life has been a series of learning, unlearning and relearning. It takes time. But all things in their due season.

So what was the point of learning the wrong things first?

What you learned is what most people learn. How will you teach others to overcome learning if you do not understand?

So, we walk the road before them so that they will not have so difficult a time as we did?

Yes, because we love them.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Many a new day will come and you should prepare yourself for the changes ahead. The love of life is one of wonder and amazement. Let not yourself look to any one situation as permanent for you have seen that all things do change. You have designed a life of love and joy, surely not one of fear and hopelessness. Your misery has shown you many things, especially the persevering soul that beats on. You try your best to make the most of what you have. In all of life there are ups and downs, so choose always to life yourself up and move toward that which is the calling of your heart. Look to see the overriding things that make your life either good or bad. Find the joy in all things for within each experience there is a gift. You have walked this difficult path, but never alone. Aloneness is tough, especially for those who cannot stand to be with themselves. I have not chosen for you to be alone, so why do you insist upon it? Share yourself with others that they may know you as I do. Be more giving of yourself. Not in financial ways, but in loving ways. You have much to offer if you will but open the door and walk through it.

There are many promises and hopeful suggestions given. So where do we go to fulfill these mighty promises?

Fulfillment is not in a place. It is a matter of allowing the pieces to fall into place. So many times I have explained this to you. Timing is everything. Don't give up for yours is on the way.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Is there anything that I can do for you to make your life "better?" What would you have God do to give you the sense of peace that you desire? Do you even really know what is better? Better than what? Consider before you ask what you are really asking for. Do you even know or are you merely shooting in the dark? Perhaps you have an inner unrest which causes you to know that you are not where you are called to be. Perhaps you do not see your life as progressive or meaningful. If you were to understand all circumstances, causes and effects surrounding your life, then perhaps you would be at peace. Know that all things work together for there are no isolated situations or circumstances.

Life happens as it does for the reasons it does. You do not know all things. You cannot know the intricacies of the workings of the plan. You cannot know the part you play. Your inner self knows, but your rational self does not. There are things that cause you to wonder about them. "Why this and why that," you ask. Were it all to be explained to you, you could not fathom the details. Even if you had all of the information laid out for you, in logical form, would you necessarily agree or be satisfied with it? Life was not designed to be agreeable. It was not meant to be a pleasure cruise. It was meant as a way for you to learn who you truly are.

But if who we truly are is in no way a reflection of our lives or circumstances, how are we learning from that which is truly not?

Opposites do not exist in reality, but are learning tools for you to use to know yourself. To realize what you are not helps you to discover what you are.

But there are no choices which allow us to self discover. What is the point of wasting so much time?

What you consider a waste of time is perhaps the time that you have chosen to help another or even many others. One cannot look only at his/her self and know the entirety of all. As some have chosen to help you, others have chosen for you to be helpful. Remember, this is not about you. This is about all.

But, of how much help can we be if we cannot even help ourselves. Can the lost help the lost?

Ah, misery does love company. But certainly if things don't seem to be going your way, perhaps they are going the way of someone else. Let's not kid ourselves. Each will take care of his/her own. Just as you see life from your vantage point, so does everyone see life from their vantage point. It isn't really possible to see life from all vantage points nor is it possible to completely ignore your own. Even the most benevolent person does know that he/she exists and does matter. Totally selfless people do not exist in life. Because of the nature of life, you are called to be aware of your existence. A pain here or there confirms it. You cannot make the mistake of assuming your isolation. You are not alone. The entirety of life is a part of all of humanity and no seeming distant person is excluded. All of it works together.

Think of something as simple as the clothes that you wear or the food that you eat. A factory worker in an isolated country may have contributed to the fabric of your clothing and the fabric of your life. All things work together! Remember this. Just because you do not see them does not mean that they do not contribute to your life. Just as your dollars contribute to lives around the world, they bring labor to your products. Your work does also spread around the world. You do not know the far reaching results of your efforts.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Never underestimate the magnitude of you_ _._

But for those who choose to have a more meaningful life, what must they do to have the desired effect?

Expand your vision and you will see greater magnitude. This is the first stop. With a broader view, you can see greater possibilities. Once you realize the lives that you already touch, you will be amazed and surely more open to touching more and more lives. With the advent of global communications, there is an almost unlimited opportunity to address the world almost instantly. You have seen how the world is affected instantly by a terrorist act. Why are there not more good deeds shared with the world? Our news focus has been on the shock factor. Good news doesn't sell as well; at least that is the general consensus opinion. But, were the news hounds to focus on the "good news" channel, perhaps it would be shown to be as popular, if not more so, than the horrible news currently reported.

Would you not rather watch a heartwarming story of love and hope than one of horrible murderous rampages? Which story makes you feel glad to be a part of the world? Aren't you deeply affected by what you see on television? Why not be affected by good news rather than bad news? For each deadly news story, there are millions of good stories to be reported. Why not focus on success and unity rather than on destruction and divisiveness? See, it is really a choice and you have allowed the media heads to determine what you watch. In reality, a country of a million people may experience a handful of bad things in a day, but the rest have regular days, even great days. What do you hear on the news? The isolated bad events are shown as if nothing else matters. If there is nothing bad enough to report, the news hour will be filled with presumptive theories and "what may be" stories. Do you not love the drama?

Why are we so ignorant as to have allowed this sort of control over us?

You are lazy and led like sheep. The masses really don't bother, so the ones in power make the choices. When enough people take action, things do change.

But who has time to protest? People are working feverishly trying to make a better life.

Would not better news create a better life? People still waste lots of time. You rush here and there, often needlessly. If you were to take out the nonessential efforts from life, you would see that you have many opportunities to make a difference. Have I not advised you to eliminate the clutter from your lives? If you would choose to live creatively, you could do great and wonderful things. But, from inside your limited vision, you feel that you are helpless to make a difference. You do not know what to do, so you do nothing. Rather than getting involved, you stay safe within your manufactured cocoon.

For those who have ventured out of their comfort zones, they have found great rewards and much joy. But these are the very few. They are risk takers. They know the value of a seeming sacrifice for the common good. All around you, if you look, you see great evidence of generosity. Can a country which gives so much be heartless and cruel? More people would join if they believed their efforts made a difference. So many people do give, but their efforts go unnoticed. It is seen as more important when a billionaire gives than when the poor elderly lady donates $5. Who has made the greater sacrifice?

Perspective plays a large part in all of life. You discount the small and relish the large. Those who have more give for different reasons typically. They know the benefits of tax breaks. But the person who gives a $1 to someone on the street corner knows the real value of the gift. So does the recipient. To spend a million at a charity event is not the same as giving your last few dollars to a hungry person. Consider the price of a charity that siphons off twenty percent of every dollar. Sure, every charity needs to operate, but twenty percent is a great deal. Government contracts typically operate at about ten percent or less overhead. But money makes money, you say. This is often true and everyone wants to sponsor a cause that contributes millions. The fame and prestige go further with a large organization. But I tell you this, when charities run like corporations, there is much lost which could be of great benefit. There are enough people to manage charities on a volunteer basis. Huge salaries are merely taking food from the hungry.

Many governmental agencies run on far lower salaries than do most charities. Consider how your money is spent. There need not be a great bureaucracy involved. Consider also, that ten charities, each getting twenty percent off the top, doing the same work, waste a huge amount. What if all athletes gave to the same charity, instead of a different one for each? What if all actors and actresses all gave to one charity? Think of the food that could be provided, if the funds were properly channeled. The world has been given all that it needs. There is enough. But the divisiveness and separation and egotism have caused shortages for some and excesses for others. Your mother may have taught you to eat everything on your plate because there is a starving child somewhere who would love to have it. Does your eating the food help the starving child? No, it has contributed to the childhood obesity epidemic in this country.

Perhaps a better stance would be, especially in light of our obesity epidemic, to donate a can of food. Then the hungry could actually benefit and you would be healthier and happier. Perhaps your diet would be more beneficial if you ate half as much so that another could have half. Just a few thoughts from the wise old guy in the sky. These are not judgmental assignments, but merely "food" for thought. See the world as a whole and its problems become more manageable. When you imagine a hundred countries each with a hundred problems, it does seem over whelming. Look down on the world as if you could see only one problem, world-wide hunger. Address this one problem and so many others are eliminated.

How can we alone begin the process to bring forth such changes?

There is a universal will. The innate goodness of man prevails. In the deepest parts of all men is a benevolence that brings forth goodness, even if at first it is with selfish motives. An appeal to the wealth of those who are greedy will have them jump on board. They care not about how the fame is accomplished, but that it is so. Notoriety is its own reward. Who would not lend their name to such a worthy cause?

But who are those who have the means to start the process? The universal will must have doers.

There is not one, but many who are called upon to complete the plan. There is no need to seek the one, for the benefactor is set. They need not be sought for they are found, not by effort but by universal call.

Can any two agree upon anything? Who will receive the most acclaim? Is it not a matter of fame, as you have said? Who will choose to share the stage?

There are those who stay hidden. They will share, but not up front. The one in the front gets the fame while the silent partner gets the satisfaction. This person needs no fame for he knows himself truly.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Justify the world and love yourself. Be ye not conformed to this world. It is not what you are. It has nothing to do with you except that you imagine yourself to be in it. Let go of false illusions. Believe in a higher power and live accordingly. There is nothing in this world to hold your attention or to pledge your allegiance. Let go of it for it profits you nothing. Attach yourself to that which truly is. Let go of false purposes and reasons for living. These are not for you. How can you find happiness except where you are meant to be? Is this your chosen place, this world of fleeting illusions? Why do you put your faith where nothing remains the same and all is operated by the ego? Would you not rather be founded in stability, truth and eternity?

Ask yourself what truly matters to you? Where does your allegiance lie? Have you found happiness anywhere you have looked? Have you found joy in all the suffering of the world? How can you attach yourself so completely to that which exists not? Be honest, look deeply within and realize that if this is the best that the world has to offer, can it really be the creation of God? Did God create a reality with so much heartache and shame? What would possess the most loving God to allow you to exist in this world of egos and greed? In truth, I tell you that this is not God's creation, you are. What you truly are is God's creation. The world as you see it is merely the playground of your illusory life. One day, when you are above worldly things, you will know how you have been fooled. You will see that your game of pretend had you completely fooled. Had you focused instead on God's reality, you would have sooner let go of the circumstances of your suffering. Only in knowing the truth can the truth set you free.

Explore the world for kindness and goodness. What do you find? These things only truly come from those selfless souls who have returned to the world to help others. I would not leave you without helpers. Your brothers know how deeply you are invested in the illusion and they do come back to offer you a hand to realize and know the truth. They have not taught you to be conformed to the world. They have not taught you to gather riches and cheat and scheme. They have taught you the importance of brotherly love as shown to you by God. If you find these higher beings to be somehow different, more peaceful and serene, then surely they know something that you do not. What is it that they know? Discern from their teachings what it is that they know. They tell you what is truth, but do you listen? Or do you get caught up in philosophical contests and simply believe that which based on your experience seems more likely?

You have rationalized until you no longer find anything on which to base your faith. What you believed at twenty has no meaning for you at forty. And at sixty, again you will have arrived at different conclusions. If something is merely truth, why can it not be true for you over the years of your short lifespan? The more you grow toward God, the more you realize that you have believed based upon what you have been told. As you mature, you put things to the test and learn that you have been mistaken, that you have believed wrongly. Between your elemental beliefs and your truth knowing does come a period of confusion, albeit at different levels at different times. You try this and you try that, testing all sorts of theories along the way. When you reach the theological conclusion that none of this makes sense, you will have arrived at the point where learning can begin. You are then ready and open to truth.

Before this period of development you were working on errant assertions from others. You believed what you were told. At the time, it was enough. But when all of it ceased to make sense from a "loving God" standpoint, you were drawn into the exploration for truth. Life seemed real, but then it didn't. You learned the limitations of human understanding and then were open to a much larger view of things. If you could not rationalize the limitations of the world from God's viewpoint, how much less could God? So, you explored the large picture of truth. You have enough evidence in the after life to explore the possibilities. Your higher beings have believed and taught you that the body is not all there is, so you then imagine one more level of truth. Your mind finds it difficult to imagine past one after life, much less eternity and infinity. Have you considered that the levels you have experienced are maybe only two? How many more are contained within infinity and eternity? The possibilities are endless, beyond your wildest imaginings.

Perhaps we are getting ahead of ourselves. We have not even learned to deal with this life, much less all that there is before and after it. We need practical solutions for how we can look beyond this and see into eternity.

Practical solutions will not help. We could go over a thousand suggestions as given by those who have walked before you, but it would be worthless in light of the fact that "reality" is always surpassed by some unforeseen contact. A person suddenly appears who offers you just exactly what you need to catapult you into being beyond what you thought. These contacts are not at random. Life changing events are carefully planned to occur at just the right time. There is no amount of your own planning which could have produced the perfect time conditions. These things happen when you are truly ready for them. Otherwise, failure would ensue.

So, do the best you can to be as open as possible and follow the calling of your heart. Know always that the timing is perfect and will surely cast you upon your desired waters. You can, if you like, spend great amounts of time in contemplation, study, meditation, etc. But nothing that you do will hasten the coming contact. It is better that you find comfort for your soul and eek out happiness where you can. Don't try to force things to happen for as you know, the perfect timing cannot be rushed.

We do understand this, but have a really hard time feeling complete while anticipating perfect timing. There are many disappointments along the way and the feeling that God has forgotten or forsaken us. As the years drag on, one may believe that they were totally mistaken and had misheard and was totally off course. How does one keep the faith when nothing and often the opposite happens?

You find it very odd that you want something, yet the opposite happens. You see no reason for this. But hidden in every experience is a very valuable lesson meant to drive you to the perfect being at the perfect time. You are unlearned until you are opened to the possibilities.

One would argue perhaps that times such as these are when many are lost and never turn back.

All happens just as it should. If that is what is called forth, then so shall it be. Had you been more open earlier, you would have been ready sooner. But, you were meant to try your own hand first, then to come to a much different conclusion.

But we have always believed in destiny, but our lives seem to be the very opposite of what we had thought was our destiny.

If you would but look over your life, you would see all of the very indicators of your destiny. Your obsession with pens and writing should have been a clue.

But also we love sports and other activities. In fact, writing would not have been our first choice.

But, given the hindsight of your age, would you now choose sports or writing? Obviously, at your age, – there really is little choice. So now, as I said, looking back, what then would be possible now?

Our God service was always important and we knew of nothing else except to write of our experiences.

So are you not now doing what you were so long ago destined to do?

As far as our writing, perhaps. But this cannot be the whole of our life's purpose for it benefits only us.

If for no other person, to write is most important for oneself. It is now your closeness to God – the means by which you seek and do find God. As if God is in your pen or computer, you have found God where many others can benefit, one day if not today. Who do you know has instant success? Is there a person in God's service who reached full impact at once? Not even the Masters before you have had it so easy. A life spent in exile has not been so beneficial as the time you spend with pen in hand.

But, the feeling of hopelessness and lack of purpose does overwhelm the willing soul. Even those who have done great things fall into the dark nights of the soul. What is the benefit of this?

When you turn your eyes from God, there is always darkness. When you feel that you have been abandoned due to disappointing results, you have not seen God for you have turned away. I have never turned away from you. When you expect God to do this or that, you set yourself up for dark nights. And yes, hope and faith can lead a person to have great expectations. How easily do your desires turn to disappointment when you put specifics on God? How can you presume to know what is best and should be expected. Rather, put all things in God's hands and let Me do the rest.

But often it seems that nothing happens.

Then nothing was called forth. I didn't write the playbook, you did. You have only yourself, and all the others, to blame. But you choose to blame God, for surely this must be God's will as it certainly isn't mine. Sure, go ahead, blame Me. While blaming Me, you are missing the intended point designed by the whole. If everything happens for a reason, then look instead for the reason and not the blame. Granted it is much easier to lay blame than to ascertain the reason, so don't let Me off the hook unless you are willing to receive the intended message.

We would say that it is almost impossible to ascertain reason. There seems no logical explanation for things and even if we think we know the reason, we probably still don't.

Because there are infinite lessons captured within each experience. Each person has their own lessons and sees things from entirely different perspectives. You need only focus on your part for you cannot even fathom the lessons of the others.

It is a tough world for those who care. The heartbreaks are almost impossible hurdles and an accumulation of them does taint one's willingness to be open and serve freely.

But what you are called to do, you will do in due time. Be not discouraged by the present circumstances for they are but a learning tool for the future. You are a building, built upon a firm foundation and all things do work together to create the whole that you are becoming. When you have become disappointed enough with life, then you will take on a different perspective where only the things of God and spirit matter. Were you not so disillusioned, you could not now be so illumined. There is great wisdom in this. It's always darkest before the dawn, but the dawn always comes. There are highs and lows in each life making it the wonder that it is. Trust in the process and marvel at its magnificence. You and all your brothers have created the most amazing learning playground, so why not go out and play and have fun?

Perhaps we take ourselves too seriously. Perhaps we are given circumstances which are quite serious. To overcome our senses and have fun really is a monumental feat of the mind. We do so need help. When we are on our knees literally begging for help, why does help not come?

Help is with you always, but you know it not. In truth you need nothing, but within the illusion of life, you often think that you do. So, there are factored in little signals and helps to get you over the rough spots. If all else fails, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding." (Proverbs 3:5, NAS) Just let go and let God. Simple enough.

And so You say, but not from where we sit.

Your letting go needs to be developed. For in your life you have truly never let go of anything. You have pretended and professed, but let go – never!

In our own defense, we haven't seen so many miracles overcoming the dark nights. Problems don't just melt away. They generally require intense effort to resolve.

All things will work out if you let them. Maybe not as you had expected or wanted, but truthfully no effort is required.

And so are many things resolved in bad fashion.

Bad is relative. Don't forget the lessons.

Let's say that we have a problem paying our bills. We don't know what to do, so we turn it over to God and let it go. What do you suppose happens next?

What was intended to happen, just as it was intended.
**Chapter 52 – Hear Them Calling**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

What will become of those who choose to be swallowed up by the details of the day? Are they so consumed with details that they forget to look at the big picture and see that all is truly well? Can it ever be that the fun of life is completely missed in the swarm of the drama? Absolutely. Life is missed while attending to needless details. Let this be your lesson today. Don't sweat the details of today for tomorrow they will be meaningless. The importance of any event is that which you assign to it. Have you not learned that fear produces what you consider to be most important? All other priorities are lost in the face of fear. Fear produces a "priority one" condition.

Now, you would argue that this is as it should be. But I would say that there are different types of fear based on presumed consequences. What you fear today you may not fear tomorrow. You may be totally afraid of something today and be mildly afraid of it tomorrow. Remember, that all things change, even your thoughts and feelings about specific things. You are a work in progress. You are developing. Don't you remember how afraid you were on the first day of school? After a week or so, you were more concerned about other things. Perspective changes with experience. What we are attempting to change is your perspective of things unseen. The monsters that you created from nothing.

But today, the monsters were huge.

In truth you need fear nothing. But, you don't believe this. You somehow believe that fear motivates you. And you are motivated by fear, but needlessly. What has fear done for you lately?

You fear a blowout, so you buy new tires.

Isn't this just really smart planning? What did fear have to do with it? Would common sense not have told you the same thing?

But can we fearlessly plan for all things? The desire for perfection does not provide the means. Often we are left to choose between the purchase of many things. Typically we prioritize based on fear. The squeaky wheel gets the grease.

But, with the development of your intuition, you will learn that all guidance is given when needed. But you are so out of touch with your intuition that you are not led because you do not listen. You have not learned to hear the direction given, but you are at least learning that you are given guidance. What you see as stumbling through life really is not, it is merely your perspective. If you but understood that everything is set, you could turn on your auto pilot and merely enjoy the ride. You have taken your ability to think and chosen to use it in ways not intended. To think about things is not the reason things happen, it is merely a mental treadmill.

If you tapped into your intuition, you would realize that thought is not necessary. You think to entertain yourself. Technically, a bird could sit on a bench and contemplate all sorts of food finding scenarios. But, is he not more productive merely getting the food rather than thinking about it? You worry yourself into a fritter about what to do. You make comparisons based on theorized outcomes and still do not really know what to do. You still must either guess or feel your way through life.

A person of well developed intuition does not waste much time in possibilities. They know that all things happen just as they are meant to happen and that no amount of coercion will change the road ahead. But, there is much unlearning that is involved in coming to this realization. You are almost at the point of letting go of your seeming necessity of thought. This is the current direction of our re-learning. If you could imagine yourself with a sort of internal radar telling you how to keep on your path, you could begin to put into perspective how spiritual guidance works. Imagine a meter or the like that lets you know your path and whether you are aligned with it emotionally.

If your spiritual path was Interstate 75 and you were on Interstate 95, your meter would indicate that you were off course. Only when you are on Interstate 75 would your meter and feelings of peace align. So, spend as much time as possible monitoring your meter (how do I feel about this, is it peaceful?) Your intuition always lets you know, if only you will learn to discern the feelings. Is this an easy thing to learn? No, so don't think that overnight your meter will turn on and you'll have flawless meter readings.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

What fun there is in life when you let go of all your cares and worries. For in the relief from worries does come peace in its place. Find the joy in happiness and the pursuit of it. There can never be good from bad, happiness from sadness. Let go and do what you are called to do. The joy of the good is often missed while preparing for presumed doom. Let go of worries, dread and fear. It all works out eventually. One can only do what they are called to do. The joy in life is had by living life and not having it live you. Don't be so isolated in your thoughts that you imagine that you are alone. There is nothing that you experience which has not been experienced by others before.

Your trials and tests are meant to teach you that you shall overcome all circumstances. Let not your heart be weary in knowing that trials do come, but celebrate the joys of overcoming. In life there is nothing so important that the world stops and takes heed. All things come and go, just as you do. There is not a monumental thing that causes you to change the world nor do you allow the world to change you. Be who you are called to be and enjoy all the joys of life. Write off the seeming bad things and go merrily along your path. You are not meant to suffer, but to merely experience.

But a mindset of happiness can be filled by a circumstance of destruction. We need not be so foolish as to take no thought for our circumstances. Is it even really possible to live above your circumstances? Even the masters are affected by circumstances – perhaps to a lesser degree than the rest of us, but surely all are affected.

What you make of a circumstance is really up to you. Know that life is full of circumstances, but you can choose how you experience it. You may see life as overwhelming or underwhelming. But, if you make up your mind to bring forth a positive attitude into each day, your life will be the better for it. See life as challenging, with your having all that you need to overcome all challenges. You may certainly not understand the reasons for things, but know that everything is as it was meant to be. If you see that all things happen just as they should, you will be relieved to a degree and learn to face challenges with a greater grace. You were not put here to solve all problems and save the world. You were put here for the chosen experiences of all. If you had a repeat scenario every five years of your life, you would see how your responses do change and you would have a different experience every time. Let not your life control you. Take control of your experiences and learn to level out the playing field.

We have learned that life is more of a mind game than we first realized. We do not seem to have learned how to conquer our fearful thoughts. What do you suggest?

If you look at your life as isolated circumstances, you will be more fearful. But if you realize that the highs and lows do give you an average overall, then you will learn to put less emphasis on the ups and downs and keep your mind focused on the overall average. The average concept takes away the extremes. The extremes are not all of life. The average is your life. Instead of looking at your life as a number of years, you learn to look at the whole and know that within each life there are good times and bad times and that the overall paints a picture without such extremes. So, on the average of your life, what is your assessment?

Generally average with way too much struggle caused by worry and fear. The comfort factor has not really been a part of it. Always results are less than desired.

Then can you not assume from your average that there is a trend toward dissatisfaction, regardless of circumstances? If so, what is the point of this? Were you to be satisfied, would you seek as you do? Would you be constantly seeking to find the answers? A person who is complacent is not a seeker, but one who has found. And do not assume that one who has found is less than a seeker. The one who is perfectly satisfied to work each day doing the same thing for years on end is one who has found. They need nothing more. They do not struggle with attainment. They are well within their calling.

But for those of you who constantly seek, there is something to be gained from your seeking. Were you to not seek, you would not find. But what is it that you seek? The satisfaction of those who have found. So, seeking is not bad. Don't let yourself be compelled to be satisfied with less than you desire. Your soul has put you on a course which is perfectly suited to your soul's desires. This is your path, so be satisfied that you are doing exactly what you are called to do. Be satisfied with your seeking. This is your way, your destiny.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Behold, a new day dawns and you are well within My care. I AM with you always. Have fun and enjoy the gifts that I have given you. You are not alone nor are you without all the help that you need. Enjoy the calling of your heart. Stay with it for it will bring you all that you desire. There is nothing that you are not nor do you need. I AM with you always.

Please give us the advice and guidance that we need. Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

The power and glory are yours. Let not your hearts be weary for you are the Kingdom of the Lord. You know all that I have taught you and you are on the path of righteousness. I will bless your efforts and make you the joy of the Lord in all thy ways. Lest you not find what we seek, seek in the places where the answers are. Do not look for answers where there are none. Look to the Lord in all things and find happiness in doing the will of God. In all things, rejoice in the holy creature that you are. You are what I AM and can never be less. Know that you are God's own servant in whom I AM well pleased.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

In all the years of your life, you have sought Me and begged to know Me. Now you do. Let not your heart be downtrodden for I AM not as you had imagined or had been told. I AM not the thing you feared nor the thing you worshipped. I AM merely the thing that you are. I AM in all just as you are. I AM that which caused you to exist and I have caused you to know Me. But what do you make of this. Now that you know Me? Are you shocked, dismayed, disappointed or amazed? Perhaps you are all of these things. In truth, you do not yet know Me fully, but have learned that I AM not the meddlesome old critical one that you had been told would punish you. I do not punish nor reward. I merely AM. I exist as you exist, not in the same form, but of the same substance. I do not judge nor condemn. I have created you for you to create as you will.

Once you have learned that all things work together, you will experience life differently. Instead of fighting, you will learn to merely experience. There is no need to struggle and suffer for all is set well in advance. Can you allow yourself the freedom with which you were created? Do not let life be so important that you cannot enjoy it.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Life is merely nothing, so go out and play._

But it often doesn't seem so joyful. It seems like a battleground with everyone fighting for superiority. Some must lose that others may win.

It's all a matter of perspective. Struggle is a function of your seeming need to get ahead. If you were to understand that to get ahead is already written in stone and unchangeable, you would be more apt to relax and enjoy the ride.

But getting ahead seems almost impossible. Surely, the more we fight and struggle, it would seem the more we get behind. Why is it so difficult to get ahead when you profess that it is easy?

All things are relative. If you go through life with the attitude of success, then you are successful at any level of material gain. If you have struggle mentality, then all things are a struggle.

But, be honest, there are times when assaults are aimed at us and there is no amount of denying this. Jesus was the perfect example.

And in life there are times of ease and hardship. It's tough to deal with assaults, especially if you do not understand them. But, what is the point of a perfect life. where nothing is gained and there are no benefits? Let's try to learn to enjoy what we have and look to the great days ahead. In the eternal moment of now, be happy, trust in the Lord and know that you cannot go astray.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Was there ever a time when you saw yourself and others as perfect? Could you ever have imagined a world filled with perfect person, all trying earnestly to do good and be pleasing in the sight of God? Then imagine it now. Drop the bodily clothes and see the spirits as the very light of God. All it takes is a little imagination to see things as God does. Don't look with your eyes for you have not yet developed spiritual vision. Allow your imaginative powers to show you what God would have you see in everyone. It'll take some practice for you have spent your entire life seeing with your physical sight. Allow the spirit to show you the inner beauty of every creature, man, beast and plant. All things created carry the very essence of God. Look to see this instead of what your five senses perceive. Were you to see your worst enemy walking toward you, knowing only the part of him/her that is God, how could you feel anything but love? Take away the senses and you will experience all things as God, with love.

This would be quite the imaginative feat. How do we look with so great an imagination as to not remember our previous interactions with this person and be untainted?

Ask to see the person as God sees them. Yes, it takes quite a lot of imagination and help, but the first glimpse will broaden your scope so much that your perspective will forever be changed. It may be easier for you to look upon strangers first. This way you are not so apt to inflect your jaded inputs upon the vision.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

In joy all things are loving and peacefully experienced. Let not your heart suffer needlessly from the wanderings of your mind. All things are but meant for your experience, the development of your soul back towards intended perfection. Your soul, in truth, needs nothing, but does learn much from the experiences it has chosen. It learns that all things temporary are meaningless. It learns that only in life are things seen as important, only later to see them fade back into nothingness. Can it be that the world, full of changes, has any effect on eternity? Remember to see your life in proper perspective. Do not put so much importance where there is none. Enjoy and learn to live life for the joy of the chosen experiences. Do not be overwhelmed by life, for its purpose is merely for the joy of the experience. You and all others have chosen to play awhile and then to let go of this temporary existence. Don't allow yourself to be swallowed up in the false reality that is life. For all things will pass away, but the real you will remain the same, forever unchanged.

Let go of the hold that life has upon you and you will find more joy, comfort, peace and love. Be not attached to that which will no longer exist tomorrow. There is great peace in non-attachment, although you may find this an unsettling thought at first. Let go of as much as possible and soon you'll realize the truth of this. The less that you have, the less attention that you give. Place your attention where it is most beneficial. Choose to enjoy the little that you have rather than always struggling to have more. There is a limit to what one can enjoy, so don't seek to acquire more than you can enjoy. Be satisfied with what you have and don't be so caught up in acquisitions. Life is relatively short, so don't waste it in tireless pursuit of needless things. You are not what you have.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Can you even imagine the grandeur that is you? Have you ever stopped to realize how great you truly are? You are so busy trying to be great that you have lost sight of what you truly are. Don't be so captivated by what the world might think of you. Instead think of how truly great you are, right now, this minute. Think for a minute of what you are, you child of God. Think of the kindness that is within you. You are not the person whom you imagine the world thinks you are. You know who you are. Be honest with yourself. Evaluate yourself on God's scale and see the beauty, love and kindness. You are wisdom, experience, and love. You have sought always better for yourself and for others. You have given greatly of yourself. Be glad for all that you are. Celebrate!

Don't let yourself even attempt to live up to the world's standards, for in truth the world has no standards. There is no universal standard, so you find yourself reaching for something that does not exist. What in this world is really worthy of you? Does God put expectations upon you? God needs nothing from you and you need nothing from God. Our relationship is a mutual one in which you are exactly as you should be. Mistakes, as you see them, are part of your course. In truth, there are no mistakes. There is only a series of experiences from which you learn to sort out who you truly are. Don't let yourself wallow in the illusions or pretense of the world. See yourself as wholly perfect, for in truth, you are. But you must see all others as perfect just as well. Each is God's perfection in his/her own way. Stop judging others and stop judging yourself.

Start knowing the inner greatness in all people. Certainly, behavior is often seen as imperfect. But does behavior make the person? Behavior is merely the mind acting out physically based on and motivations coming from a skewed perspective. As we have explored many examples, perception makes up a person's reality. Behaviors are judged by the world and there are consequences. Is it not sufficient that you do your best and leave the rest? One can do no more than his/her best. This is enough. If it is not sufficient by the world's standards, then let go of the world's standards.

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _There is no shorter route to disappointment than to try to live up to the world's standards._

Be who you are. Love yourself and let go of reaching for impossible goals. Trying to make yourself what you are not leads to a miserable life. Why then attach yourself to that which you are not?

If we are to believe that our lives are preprogrammed, then we have no choice in that to which we attach ourselves. There are no mistakes and nothing happens at random. How then can we not be attached to that which we have no choice but be attached to?

We are speaking of emotional attachments. You can go through the motions in order to do what you must, but you need not be emotionally attached. Honor your heart felt desires. If something is brought into your experience, there is a reason. You may not know the reason, so don't let yourself become discouraged. All things do change. Let go of your attachments to results. Where you are one day does not assure you that you'll be there the next. So don't be attached to the temporary. The illusion of importance must be let go. There is nothing important in life. It all comes and goes. Just as you will pass from this life, forever unchanged, so will all things. Do try to make the most of your experiences and move on. Evaluate the things in life upon their permanence. Only your soul is permanent, so put your focus there. People come into your life and then leave. Does your life stop because someone else's did? See the ever changing landscape of your life and realize at last that today is not the end. It is merely a new beginning.
Chapter 53 -

**Don't Be Dissatisfied With Your Dissatisfaction**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

All great things do prosper as we speak. Let not the day bring you to a slow end, but go out with a bang! Make sure that all of life is a joy for all, especially for you as this will show to all who see. Joy is for the spreading, not for self. Let life's lessons be learned and move on. There is nothing so great and wonderful so to not change as the seasons. Surely there are hopes and dreams alive and well. Let all rest upon their own merits and bring forth the splendor of all who hope. Join with others in their hopes and dreams. Let it not be magical nor mystical, for all join together in both good and bad. All are partners. Let not the downtrodden be so hopeless that you cannot lift them up as others have lifted you up. Try earnestly to find the joy in every moment.

There are those who seek to cause misery for others. How can we reverse these trends and find mutual joy for all?

All do not welcome happiness, especially for others. You can only bring forth joy to those who welcome it. Remember that there are people who do love the misery of others. This is merely a fact of life. Don't be swayed by them for they do not choose to change. Only when everyone around them changes do they finally see the error of their ways.

There must be great joy somewhere, somehow. How do we really find the peace of which you teach?

I'll not play games. It's tough in this life to unlearn what has been taught. Let go of the mystery. Behold the joy can be found if you are determined to do so.

There must be some guiding wisdom to carry us through. Surely you must know that we seek to live better lives and be better examples for you.

Let it be not for Me, for I need nothing. Let it be for the full joy of all. Love yourself and others as only you can. There are good days and bad days. Learn to get the most from each. Don't settle for less. There is no sacrifice needed from you.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Behold a new day of joy and happiness. When nothing seems to be the cause of your status, you feel compelled to find reasons. Trust Me when I say that reasons cannot be found for they would make no sense to you. So stop looking and enjoy the experience that you have chosen. This is for you and all of your brothers. Let them live for their experiences also. There is nothing of life worth even one minute of worry. Even today you have seen that perfection is the way.

Today has been perfect. The weather, the traffic, etc. How is it that we cannot have this experience everyday?

You do not choose it, or rather you had not chosen it. Remember the variables of life – only your experience. There is nothing so marvelous nor disastrous to merit anything but a peaceful experience.

But we do not seem to be able to experience beauty where there only seems sadness. Be honest, there are some things that are difficult to smile through.

So it would seem. But to frown does not ever improve a situation. You bring yourself and others down. A smile on the other hand does make experiences better. Simple logic reveals the truth to you.

But what if a smile seems inappropriate?

Trust Me – there are smiles for all occasions. You be the judge of the appropriateness.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

What makes you think that you should ever think about anything? Have you not learned that feelings are greater than thoughts? Feelings guide you, but can be deceptive if you are swayed by negativity such as fear and guilt. Once you have cleared your mind of thoughts, then you can learn to read your feelings clearly. But, you must practice this to be able to ascertain your honest feelings. Inspired thoughts are those that merely pop into your head. A string of thoughts is not inspired. What you often characterize as "the light bulb coming on" is such. When you are otherwise distracted and what seems like the perfect idea pops into your head, you can almost be certain that it is inspired. Be always on the lookout for inspired thoughts. Train your mind to not be so focused on particulars. Be open to receiving ideas.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

In a narrow hallway, you walk slowly forward. You know of only one way to go, so you press onward. You look always for signs of light or openings along the way. You know inside that there is no escape, only one way to go from here. You have tried all other means of escape, but none have proven feasible. So you go forth, often afraid of what lies ahead, but your soul leads you onward. You are ever diligent to get to your destination.

As you tire of trying to find relief from the darkness, you give up the fight and become resolute in your determination to arrive at your goal. Your goal is now close at hand. You begin to see glimpses of light ahead. You become hopeful and begin to feel the peace and joy for the end must surely be near. Your heart swells with joy for you at last know that you have walked this long corridor for the very reason of your hope. At last you have entered heaven's gates. You hear the singing of angels and know that you are at last home with God. You realize instantly that your mission is complete. You have found the true object of your desire. You are home at last. You are filled with more love than you ever imagined.

You have finally seen the light, the light that is God and you are certain now that you have been rescued from the illusions that for so long held you captive. You are finally free from the restrictions of the world. You no longer are held within the grasp of carnality. You have seen the light and it is good. So good, in fact, that you are compelled to help others see it. This light is to be shared and enjoyed by all. It's a secret you cannot keep. How selfish it would be to keep it to yourself, even though you find it quite blissful and totally comforting. But how can you fully enjoy the experience if your brothers are not able to enjoy it with you?

So you return to see how many you can bring back with you. This is a gift that must be given. You no longer are concerned with selfish things. You must help as many as possible to see the light just as you have. You run back to get as many as you can. You tell a great tale of what you've seen and urge others to follow you to the promised land. The joy that you exhibit surely entices those who are intrigued by your story. Some will make the effort to walk the path as you before them. You have demonstrated the worthiness of the effort. Your light does shine with the Glory of the Lord. Over and over do you urge others to seek what you have found. This is your mission. Leading others as you have been led. You are ordained a teacher of many unto the light of God. Go boldly into the light!

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Thank you for today and your perseverance and trust. You have learned that pride does come before a fall and have learned that anger and retaliation serves no one. As I have taught to forgive and forget, to turn the other cheek, you have learned that there are no winners in conflict. Conflict only causes hardships and many times it is multiplied relentlessly. It spirals out of control. Let this be the last time that this is learned for never is anger justified. Let go of your offensives and offending behavior. No one is saved. It is far wiser to live and let live than to try to be right and convince others. This is not to say that there are always varied perceptions for no two see things alike. A bad situation does not get better by its continuance. Let go of the need to be right for this is not your mission. There are occupations where right, as the public sees it, matters. But as in your court system, the majority rules. This is not your cause and you need not concern yourself with it.

So, we have also learned that an errant assault will do much damage to a good person's character – a life or career can be trashed by someone who is bent on destruction. Should the innocent person simply roll over and play dead and allow the power mongers to roll over them?

How you handle a situation is up to you and every situation is different. But, you do often lessen the effects of the power mongers when you let them appear to win. If they need to satisfy their egos, then you will only heap coals on your head by fighting them. Remember also that the young do put much stake in ego and power. They do not properly appreciate age and wisdom, just as you did not. So know the motivations of the ones with whom you are dealing. This will teach you how to deal with them. And in truth, some people will not listen to reason. It's their way or the highway. Trust Me in this. Ego does control more than you know.

And so we have learned. People will kill you on principle. Win at all costs and fight to the death.

There are those who make great mistakes while believing that what they do is right. All that you can do is try to mediate and forgive. Some will become docile in your presence if you are honest and sincere. The need for the approval of others has caused you great suffering. You will never please everyone. Do your best and let go of the rest. Remember to always look at circumstances for their true importance. Don't assume that you will always win. You are never on a level playing field. Know this and your game will become easier. There is no equality and life isn't fair. Do your best and that is all.

But often our best is still seen as not enough. What then must we do?

Still, do your best. There is no more that you can do.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

_§ PEARL OF WISDOM § -_ _Don't be dissatisfied with your dissatisfaction_ _._

Can there ever be a time when you are satisfied with less than you are called to do and be? Trust that your heart leads you to the place and time of your calling and that you will serve the purpose you are called to serve. Don't be discouraged by circumstances which are not seen as beneficial to your calling for you are always being transformed into the person who is called. It serves no one to be in the right place at the wrong time. Don't give too much thought to where you are today if it does not serve your purpose for you will be led to where you are to go. There is no doubt in this.

You may see that you are being led in the opposite direction from what your heart calls you to do. But know that the feelings that you have are for a reason and so serve a purpose. If you feel out of place, there is a reason. The reason is that you are being led, even though you may feel abandoned and alone. Your feelings tell you to do this or that, but your circumstances seem to hold you captive. Again, do not despair when you are out of sorts with your circumstances. This is clearly an indication that you are headed in the right direction. All you need do is realize that were you to be satisfied where you are, you would be being lead nowhere. If it ain't right, trust that you have somewhere to go.

Dissatisfaction is a major indictor of your path ahead. If you are going in the opposite direction from your heart, a correction of direction must occur. Most people do not know where to go or what to do, so they start to seek heartily. They try this and they try that. It is generally from a sense of deep dissatisfaction that most breakthroughs emerge. Those who are not bold enough or honest enough with themselves will continue along the path of misery. Always blaming themselves or others for their misery, they continue their unfulfilled lives. From the unrest of the soul does come the desired circumstances which produce a life fulfilled. So, don't let other people tell you to be satisfied with less or offer you a guilt trip for your wanting something different. Gratitude encompasses a wide variety of things, so if you are not satisfied with less, then be grateful that you know it and are willing to try something new. People who are grateful for knowing themselves are the ones who will eventually achieve their dreams. Be grateful always and follow the calling of your heart.

There will be those who will proclaim your foolishness. Accept this, but do not buy into it. They do not know you nor can they know the path that you are to take. We've all heard of the dreamers, losers and fools, but from these types do come some of the most influential people of history. Persons who behave contrary to the norm are bound to catch some flack, but they are also the very ones who achieve the things of their dreams. There are so many examples of people who have boldly chosen to run counter to common sense and have brought forth the most brilliant ideas known to man. But, I say to you, that it is far more foolish to deny your heart than to cower with the masses. See yourself as the one who strayed from the herd. Take the chances that come your way. What's the harm if you try something new? Don't live with regrets – live!

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

What on earth makes you think that the world is anything but an excuse to be miserable? It gives you the great opportunity to blame everything on everyone, except yourself. Even those of you who seriously take a look at yourselves do have a hard time looking in the mirror. If justification is what you seek, you'll find it. There is always someone to blame and there are untold reasons for attaching blame. When in truth blame only really matters in a court case, do you really need to expend so much time looking for offenses and defenses? Have you learned nothing about the nothingness of life?

When it would be far more beneficial to live and let live, you feel compelled to make everything right according to your judgments. You spend much of your lives pointing out the errors of others. Perhaps if you had spent the same amount of time looking at your own behaviors, you would find happiness and joy instead of judgments and criticism. Does it improve your status to attack another? What is the point of this? Let go of your pursuits against others and focus rather on improving your own behavior. Don't focus on what others do "wrong," but on what you could do better. There are a millions ways to improve life. Seek always to make a better life for yourself and others by being the best that you can. This is not material advice, but spiritual. Be the light in the room and not the darkness. If you were a cloud, how would you be seen? Granted not all see the same, but do look for the majority for your evaluations. Even greater is self evaluation if it is honest. Be honest in all things for the truth shall set you free.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Trust in the Lord God with all of your heart and let nothing cause you to distrust the process. For God's plans are your plans and I will for you that which you would have, that your life may be the abundant salvation of the world. As you have chosen, so shall it be. There is no mystery in this except that you confuse your worldly desires with those of your spirit. Your spirit is the very spirit of God and God knows your desires for I have given them to you for the benefit of all. You are not here by accident. You are here for the purpose you have chosen to serve. All who have chosen to serve shall be given the grandest opportunity to do their service. This is My promise to My children. You cannot be denied the opportunity to offer the service that you have generously chosen to give.

Is there one among you whom you know to be disappointed forever, not having served as they have chosen? Perhaps until they are fully prepared, they must wait for a time, but their time of service will come to pass. You have My word on this. On this you can rest assured. For the Lord needs the service of those who have answered the call. Your brothers suffer much and suffer needlessly. You have done the homework and are prepared to share what you have learned. Would I keep this from those who need it most? Would I deny you the opportunity to give what you have received? What kind of god do you take me for? For what you have chosen is not impossible, but is easily accomplished. Don't put up barriers where there are none. Enjoy what I have given you and spread it to the corners of the world. The world imagines Me a distant and unkind God. Let them know Me as I truly AM. I have hand picked My messengers and they know who they are by the receiving of My messages.

As you are given, so shall you give. This is the role that you have chosen, to bring light to where there are those who need it most. Teach My children that I AM not what they have been told or even as they have imagined. I AM just as they are. Let them know that what they experience with their physical senses is not what I AM. I AM what causes love to swell up in their hearts. I AM that which causes them to understand that there is One greater inside than outside. Let them not believe that their bodies are the creations of God for God created nothing to die. The soul inside is the link to God and it is this they must realize.

Don't look for God where He is not nor assign roles to God that are based upon human frailty. God has no connection to your physical body for He knows that you are not what is seen with physical eyes. Teach My children to honor their truest feelings, their loving feelings. Learn to sort out the physical from the spiritual. Live by spiritual guidance – the inner knowing that is instinctual in every person. Jesus taught that those who had ears would hear, but surely He was not referring to physical hearing. The communication from God through the Holy Spirit comes through internal channels – the still small voice and the inner knowing which is evidenced by peace. These are your communication devices, but certainly there are others as needed. For your brothers, your media outlets and anything can be used by God to give you messages. If there is no place where I AM not, then surely there is no method unavailable to God.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Can you believe that so much time has passed and you are still uncertain of your path and progress? I AM amazed that you are not more convinced of your perfect path and all that it entails. Of course, you have not been yet given the visions nor fantastic helps that God has given to others. Is it not remarkable that you have lasted given so little on which to grasp? This attests much to your tenacity to hold on to that which you deem important. So little given, yet you merely have doubts come and go. For those who have seen great miracles are not so trusting as you. In this you have shown great loyalty to that which you have truly believed. If God had given you great visions, it would have been much easier for you.

But you have overcome all obstacles and still you sit writing and hoping. Your faith is based on what? Some dictations which have proven to be less than important? Such faith without real cause is what drives most people. You go on the teachings of others and do go along willingly. Are such as you not the greatest of God's followers? Having seen no miracles, yet do believe. It is easy for those who practice great miracles to believe. But you and your brothers who merely seek without the powers of God manifesting for you, what do you base your faith upon? Is it not logical that you doubt at times? Be kind to yourself for you are perfectly ok to doubt as you do. It is God's job to give you the miracles which remove all doubt.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

For much ado about nothing, such is life. You toil and sweat, worry and fear all for that which is meaningless even one minute from now. Learn to hold on to what is real, your truest self, and let go of all the fleeting moments in life. If you must judge, judge things by their real value. Ask of each worry, "Will this matter a day from now?" Or even a month or year or more? You have allowed your life to be so totally ruled by others that you feel that you must fear every simple interaction with other people. You have derived no comfort from the length of time spent with others. Nothing seems to offer you comfort. You have become so totally afraid of others that your very self is paralyzed and unable to freely express yourself. How have you allowed this to happen?

This has happened by virtue of experiences. We have learned that fighting for right does not help. We have learned that people who have presumed power over you will wield it, if only for fun. We have learned that there is no justice. We have learned that the illusion of power is rather amusing to those who seem to hold it. We have learned that people will take advantage of those deemed weaker among us. We have learned that each person must look out for him/her self. To love oneself is really necessary for mental survival. It is from the will to survive that often we go forward. For no other reason, at times, can we justify forward motion.

This is really a barbaric and sad evaluation of what you have learned, albeit mostly true about human nature. So you have leaned that man is no different than animals, their need to survive seems paramount. Man has learned to self evaluate and can understand his motivations. He can know why he behaves as he does and can even fight to behave differently. The civilization of man is no different than the taming of animals. Even though most of the behaviors are acceptable, sometimes the behavior is reflective of the uncivilized animal inside. If you do not believe this, look at your news programs and see the aftermath of brutal killings based solely on the illusion of control. The mentally ill person is used as a suicide bomber. People are being hacked to death with machetes over political differences. Would animals behave this way and kill over ideologies?

You have not completely understood the nature of man and the animal that beats within. Under the guise of benevolence does a monster run rampant. The allure of power and material wealth cause man to do all sorts of unbelievable things. But you paint a happy face on civilization and believe that man is basically good at heart. But underneath the happy exterior does hide the one who would fight you to the death if the incentive were deemed worthy. And it is not different among some and not others. All men have this potential to kill or be killed, to win at all costs, to die with the most toys, etc.

The human will is often misunderstood. But if you are to learn what you are not, you must recognize the truth about the human experience. Know that what you'll do for what you consider life saving is almost anything. It is from this that Jesus was killed and many did willingly participate in spite of His innocence. So innocence is meaningless when a person perceives a threat. And threats need not be major to be defended against in total. Teach people about their lives that they may not underestimate their own motivations. Teach them to be truthful about themselves. Even office politics turn very ugly against a perceived threat. It does not have to be real to exert real effects. Teach people to realize that there are consequences for every action. In the world today, a perceived business threat will even make killers of men. A lover scorned will commit murder.

Are we then worse than animals?

In a sense, yes. Man is more calculating and fearful. It is often more desirable for a person to be cut throat than honorable. Common criminals are often hailed for their keen business sense, whereas the poor unfortunate person is only to be pitied. Clever is the one who is seen as being able to escape consequences while cheating many out of much. Just because you gain all the wealth in the world, does this really make you clever? And know that as you have taken, so it will be taken from you. No one allows the mighty to stand forever. Someone becomes jealous and aims to take your wealth. There is nothing that some will not do to have what belongs to someone else. Even pretend friendship as a means of drawing close. Thus the saying, "keep your friends close and your enemies closer."

This is a rather sad way of seeing humanity.

But it has always been this way. Your history books are full of examples.

But what must we do to counter human nature?

The natural laws do counter this behavior. If you could see all of the inner workings of the universe, you could be confident that there is justice where none is imagined.

In knowing ourselves for the Judases within, does this help us to somehow rise above our basic nature?

Of course. To know what you are not will cause you to seek the opposite. If you realize that you are prone to defend at all costs and that the costs are meaningless, then surely you will begin to invest much less into your causes. Once you realize that you seek an illusion that can never satisfy you, you will learn to seek elsewhere. The elsewhere of reality is truth. Once the futility of the worldly experience is known, then another vestment must be sought. There is no other than that which you truly are. God or heaven is what you call it and it does remain the final frontier.

Will we ever be sensible enough en masse to change our primary focus from humanity to spirituality?

The law of averages would say yes. With the advent of greater communication does come greater understanding. With greater understanding does come spiritual growth. The numbers will multiply experientially until all have come to know the truth. You who live now are fortunate enough to be able to know more about human nature than ever before. You see it globally and are able to react instantly. No longer are you dependent upon someone else to tell you about the world for you can experience it instantly. The people of the world are bound to begin to see the bigger picture. The world's eyes are being opened and you would do well to keep them sharply focused on what you see versus what you are told.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Stop yourself from wanting and allow yourself to have. Have the experiences that you seek so that wants no longer control you. Ask God for what it is that you choose to experience. The experience is what teaches the truth about God. But these are experiences beyond your mental convolutions. These experiences are those which constitute the revelations from God of God. "Ask and it will be given to you." (Matthew 7:7, NAS) Enlightenment does come from within, but God must be the guide that allows the truth to come to those who truly seek to know the truth. When you have chosen to know God truly, He will open your vision that you may see and know Him truly as He is. This is not an experience to be taken lightly as it alters the very landscape of your perception. The world ceases to hold the same allure after God's revelation. Your life is never again the same and the power that you have given the world is gone, in that instant. Upon seeing God's revelation, you are transformed and instantly know that there is far more to the universe than you had ever imagined.

No longer are you captivated by materialistic things. You have now seen the light and know that you are not of this world. You see yourself and others as the tightly woven tapestry of God's perfection. You see that all are connected and all things do work together. The light of God does shine brightly in all souls. You are no longer bodies, but are the perfectly created spiritual beings. The deception of the world no longer holds you in its grasp, for you have seen the littleness of the world. You have known that all brothers are in this with you and are merely playing out the human roles chosen to be played.

But when Lord are we allowed to see your truth, to know ourselves as we really are?

When you have willingly chosen to overcome the world and let go of your attachment to it.

Have we not demonstrated our willingness already?

You are at the door and have said the words, but are you truly ready to give up the world as you know it? Can you live in a world where nothing holds any appeal? It is far easier to say the words than to live by them.

But for us there is no other choice, for the world does not now hold much appeal. We have learned of its illusory stature and now have realized that we have no control over it and are no longer willing to be tossed about in it. The journey of the last thirteen years has shown us that what we had thought was life really is nothing. We have put our faith where there is nothing real. Now we seek a better way. To be led by the truth, to end our struggles, that we may live in your awareness in peace and harmony.

You have learned much about the futility of life. You have learned that nothing is as it seems. You have seen that life is merely a passing fancy – a worthless game of pretend. You have been difficult to convince, but you have finally given up hope and faith in the world. You have seen that the games people play are meaningless and futile. Even with presumed success, life is still nothing nor will it ever be. So stop clinging to life as if it were all there is.

Then show us a better way. Show us Your way and let the illusion fade away that we no longer cling to worthless pursuits. Time is of the essence.

Time is yet another meaningless example of that to which you cling. But, it is the world's standard and for now you live within its grasp. Time can be nothing but perfectly planned. Do not worry that you will miss something meaningful in your life. It is not possible that you will miss the experiences that you have chosen. You are well within your perfect timing.

These thirteen years passed have not been easy. They have been a testament to why the world should hold no attraction for us. Why then are we not shown your way, the better way?

The unlearning that you have experienced has taught you that you cling to worthless things. Without this unlearning there would be no room for the new way, the better way. Your house had to be cleaned before there would be room for new knowledge. Your attachments had to be severed so that you could grasp new things. A new way of life is ahead for you, one that is different from the one that you have led. Are you really ready to start your new life?

As ready as we know to be. For who can truly say that they are prepared for something of which they know not. Based on the stories of others, there seems to be nothing bad about the new Christ life, except for the detractors. But, we are at a crossroads and going backward is not an option. What real choice do we have?

You are wise to realize this for the path is set and there is no crossroads. There is only one road, but you cling to the illusion of choices. It gives you comfort to think you have choices, but by now you know that you do not. Let the road go where it will. All things progress according to the plan you have set.

How much longer will You allow us to linger in limbo, between the worlds?

What need have you to linger longer between the words?

We cannot see the need for having been here so long already, but as You said, we had no choice.

Then choose to live anew. Start this very day. Not one minute more should be wasted in limbo.

But without the guidance unseen, we can not leave limbo. We are stuck in our tracks. You must guide us into the promised land. When will you do this?

Give control to God and He will take the next step for you. He knows of your willingness to go forward and your unwillingness to go back. Allow Him the perfection of timing. Thy will be done!
**Chapter 54 – Tuning Out**

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

What of this consciousness that Joel Goldsmith has mystified you with? Do you find it so complicated to understand? What you give your attention to is what you are conscious of. There are also things in your subconscious which you are not fully aware of. There are many things operating on many levels at one time. There are things that you are aware of which you can willfully tune out. But are you aware of what you are aware of? Until you focus upon something, it merely seems to remain in the background. You can move things around in your awareness, giving some more attention than others. You can write, watch television and listen to music all at the same time. You would call this multitasking, but we are not now interested in doing, but are focused on awareness.

There does seem to be levels of awareness which we cannot reach. There are things going on that are obvious, or should be, but we are not aware of them. The energy flowing through universe, for example. The magnetic fields of the earth. We can see the effects, and sometimes feel them, but we cannot be aware of these forces. Some people claim to see auras and spirits and such. We have had no such awareness. The great rays have eluded us. What can we do to bring more of God into our awareness?

Let go of your illusions about the spiritual world. You were taught that all such things are bad and not to be entertained. You have great fear which creates a tremendous block for you.

But God can remove all blocks. Why has this remained?

You still have trepidation that what you experience will scare you, so you only pretend to be willing. Until you have learned to overcome this fear, it can't happen.

But how can we overcome that which we do not even remotely understand? Teach us to overcome that we may know You.

There is nothing to fear. There are no demons as in your dreams. Your dreams have frightened you and caused you to sleep less well. You do not want to take the chance of a scare so you avoid. You need fear nothing of God. What you are is wholly perfect.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Untouched you go through life seeking for the truth in all things. You know that life is not your truth, but the very thing that seeks to keep you from the truth. You have been deceived into believing the opposite of truth. Now you have chosen to know the truth and to be set free from the imagined prison that you are in. Life does appear to keep you captive. Its rules are the very opposite of those of God's perfection. I have told you that you are free, but you have not experienced this in your life. There seems to be no freedom, only rules and regulations and standards that keep you captive. Learn to see yourself as free. Enjoy your life as the unbound servant of God who can not be captive. You do what you must to learn what you have chosen. Do not see your experiences as punishments or suffering, but a fantastic learning opportunity meant to make you the perfected person of God. Teach as you have learned.

Do not be distracted by things of your old nature and perceptions. See all things as through God's eyes. For in this there is great freedom. For God knows that you are not bound, but are free. For God knows not the limitations that you imagine. Be honest with yourself. Are you not the very child of God? Would God have created you for limitation and doubt? Would you do this to your own children? You would seek to offer your children great freedom to learn and explore as their hearts led them. Why birth prisoners? God is far more wise than any earthbound parents, so surely He would not confine you to that which is a worthless pursuit. If there is an experience called life, then surely you have chosen it for the benefit of your soul, so that you may know yourself truly.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

From the beginning of time, I have implored you to return home to Me from whence you came. But, you have chosen again and again to live out your dreams on the playground of your life. Why has this game so enthralled you that you perpetually leave home to go out and play? Yet, once outside you complain incessantly to come back in and to be relieved of the suffering in a godless world so unkind and out of control. Over and over you find something in your games which cause you enjoyment, else you would stay home within your sanctuary of peace and comfort. What is this that causes you to seek for enjoyment and what is the enjoyment that you seek?

We really don't know because we are not in the soul's perspective. What say You?

Speaking for your soul, who knows no possibility of harm or ill will, it seeks to know what it is like to be God in the only possible way, make believe. As the soul is God just like God, how can something perfect know itself as perfect? So, the soul wishes to pretend to be less than perfect, so it participates in the universal game of hide and seek. The soul hides in a body and seeks its way home to heaven. The soul would not otherwise be able to experience the lack of perfection without the vehicle for the ride, the body. The body, as you all know, is temporary and the opposite of eternal. It dies and is left behind when its use is done. But, the soul lives on, just like God, forever and ever.

If this is a game of pretend, surely it is the most perfected pretend game ever. In fact, it seems so real that we seem at its mercy, unable to escape except by death.

Death is surely not the end, except in the particular phase of pretend life for your soul. Were the game to be unrealistic, would you be fooled into playing along? You are not so easily fooled, except from inside the game. Picture your latest video game. They are more realistic than ever. What if your video games were so life like that you believed it real? Once inside the game, you would not know that there was anything outside of the game. Wouldn't you play with all of your heart? Your game of life is realistic, but there are fault lines which can be seen by those who choose to look. Once a crack in the exterior is seen, the whole pretend world crumbles. Those who seek to know God are shown the cracks and flaws in the system.

One major flaw seen early on is that nothing happens at random. This gives rise to the fact that the entire system is planned and organized. If nothing happens at random, then there is no chance that something unplanned will occur. When it is realized that nothing happens at random – there are no odds that something out of the ordinary will occur, it can be realized that they system is a closed system and not open for creation.

Once it is realized that creation is not within the scope of life, then the creative environment must be sought. If there is nothing creative in life, then where is the force that created all of this? One by one the blocks of the illusion begin to fall and truth is revealed. From the revelation of truth does come the presumed end of the world, for it is then known to be nothing more than a game. God does not live there, nor do you in truth. So, you have now been given the secret to the universe. What will you choose to do with this knowledge?

From inside the game, our options seem limited. We would choose to make the most of the time that we had planned to be here. We would hope that there is purpose in our being here other than just playing a game for a while.

What purpose need there be? None of it matters, really.

Perhaps our brothers do not know that life is just a game and they are afraid as we have been so many times. Maybe they could benefit by what we have learned.

Only those who wish to find relief. The peace of this world is illusory, but the peace of God is real and beyond this world. How can a person really know peace while believing that this world is real?

So, how do we rise above the belief in the world? We do not wish to merely sit and watch it go by as if being worthless to ourselves and others. We wish to make the most of our chosen experience, not to just live but to do all that we can to help ourselves and others enjoy the peace and freedom of God. Why not maximize the experience?

And so you have come again and again to experience the world on different seeming levels. You have sought to know more each time, to give your souls the perfect anti-soul experience. As you are here, you might as well make the most of it. Enjoy the ride for you've already bought the ticket.

How do we enjoy the ride and make the most of it?

Focus on the crack between the worlds. Remember always that the world is not the place where God lives. God lives everywhere in eternity. This is not eternity! No longer be fooled by the world that you see. Focus on God and He will show you the way home. Only God can teach. That part of God that you are is always within you seeking to call you home. Especially in your moments of greatest trial, when you are overwhelmed, it is then that God answers your every call for help. When you believe that all else failed, you still, with even your last breath, call upon God to help you and you are comforted for you know in your soul that God cannot fail you even if He could want to. He is always with you as you are part of Him. Trust that He will bring you back home if and when you are ready.

But He will not always save us here for He will let us go through some harsh times. Why does He allow such tragedy to befall us even in the dream, especially in the dream?

God knows that you only imagine tragedies in your pretend game. Were He to really think that you were suffering, He would wake you up immediately. But, He has allowed you to be and do as you please. Your creator allowed you to go out and play for your own amusement.

But what if we've had enough and want out?

Get out – you always have that choice. You may feel that you don't but you are never stuck anywhere. Just as you can choose to walk out of your house, so can you walk out of your body. You are stopped only because you are afraid. But of what are you afraid?

We aren't sure. Perhaps we think we'll suffer or die and go to hell or something. The unknown does cause us to fear.

Ok, a better question is this. How many souls would remain in bodies right now if they knew that they could leave without consequences?

There may be a few souls left, but we dare say that many would escape at first opportunity.

Are you sure? You still hear of those young people who died who had so much to live for. You feel sorry that their lives were cut short. What do you really think? What if you had children? Would you feel differently?

We are taught to resist death at all costs, but we really don't know why. The fear of the unknown is scary, but I guess the greatest unknown is if we merely cease to be. We just die and then we have lost our only chance to live. What then?

Do you truly believe that you somehow materialize from nothing and return to nothing? How many things have you ever known to be created this way? You are again letting an irrational fear take hold of your life. Stop it. You know that matter is never created from nothing. Sure, form may change, but matter's roots are never eliminated. Learn from the insights that you have into eternity.

If the insights were so obvious, why do so few actually get it?

I never said they were obvious, but to those who would know all is revealed.

Then why do so few seek?

Seekers come into this life to experience the seeking and the finding. Those who seek shall find.

What will they find?

The way home – the truth about themselves and their creator.

What is this truth?

Only what is eternal is real. All else is pretense or illusion.

Who actually comes to the conclusion of the illusion?

Those who have had enough of the pretense. The game is over when the illusion is revealed.

But even if we have truth revealed to us this instant, are we not still kept within the illusion, even if only to help others find their way home?

It's all up to you. If I were to stand before you now and you knew all truth, you would still have the choice to go directly home or continue in the game. I have never removed your choices.

Why if we know the great truth, would we choose to remain captive in pretense and the misery of the world?

You tell Me. You now know enough to render it useless, yet you still cling to the portion of belief that this is all there is. You have chosen your beliefs.

But shouldn't we all desire to cut and run, especially if we know that there are only unloving consequences ahead?

Would it be loving for you to forget about your brothers?

We don't know what is best for us or them. We're still very caught up in the illusion. Our experience has not shown us the opportunity for escape, except by the fatal door.

You use the word fatal as if it were the end. There is no end. There are no endings, except as you imagine them on earth. You hold great attachment to life. You have played earnestly on this playground. You are fully vested.

Is it possible to be less vested, merely a casual passenger on the train of life?

There are those who choose to watch from the sideline. In fact, there are all sorts of travelers. Some come and go without notice.

What's the point?

What's the point of watching any game? Entertainment. Don't be so high and mighty that you would say that you are above such things because you watch the news every night. You check out the latest killings and bloodshed around the world. Your pretense is that you are just keeping up with current events. But surely you can keep up without relishing in the tragedies of the world. Did I mention gossip? Don't your ears perk up when someone says, "Did you hear...?"

Perhaps rather than suggesting that we perpetuate the entertainment myth, may we suggest that we try to keep my ear to the ground to stay ahead of the pack?

Sure, play it any way you choose, but the truth remains that boredom is one of your least favorite conditions. You can't kid Me.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

For in all the world there is but one solution to all problems and it is the elimination of a problem mentality. For if it is assumed that there exists a problem and therefore a solution must be sought, then one is preoccupied with the problem and the solution. Finding a resolution becomes a focus. Instead, would it not be more prudent to realize that there are no problems and thus no solutions need be sought? From a different perspective, things look much different. Instead of seeing life as a puzzle to be solved, start from the assumption that the puzzle is solved and you are merely looking at the pieces already in the proper places. You do not have to figure this out nor seek solutions. This is part of the illusion. You need only deal with the pieces as you become aware of them. If you were to look at a completed puzzle with magnification on a certain piece, you would know that you were focusing on part of the picture and not the whole picture. How different is your judgment of the two different views?

Think carefully about this for it will allow you to understand life more clearly. You never imagined that things were not coming and going at random, that you were affecting things, as were all others, is how you perceived life. But it all must be more clear to you now that you have merely looked at life from a cause and effect mentality rather than the more realistic "deal with what you're given" perspective. You see that you create, but you do not see that all was created before hand. You do not understand that how you look at things can really change everything. You even go so far as to imagine how things must have been made. You connect the dots where dots never were. You create visions where none exist. You are creative, far more than you know. But what do you really create?

You do not understand that the worlds that you create are not real worlds but are merely your dot connections. No two people connect dots the same way nor do they perceive the same dots. Consider that what you see with your eyes is not what is realized in the brain. It's much like putting an egg in a cake mix and seeing it as something different in the cake. Perspective is the essence of life. Surely you must by now begin to realize that this is true.

Notice that all things are relative and only that which is real merits your attention. Your thoughts determine your experience. Haven't you noticed how some people are grateful to be alive after their homes are destroyed? Are they not concerned about their losses? They have chosen to deal with their losses by seeing the good in the situation. The fact that they are not dead is good, even if they have lost their homes. Some choose to kill themselves when they lose their homes. What makes the difference? Why are some grateful to be alive and others only want to die?

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Do you ever wonder about the mysteries of the universe? Do you contemplate the heavens and make yourself crazy trying to make sense of it all? This is as mankind has done for as long as he has lived within this universe. What's the point, you ask? Besides providing hours of entertainment, it offers more than anything else a glimpse into the spiritual world. It allows mankind the chance to explore that which is so far beyond explanation that he can only attribute it to "God." Whether looking outward or inward, man discovers over and over that the mysteries of life are beyond his understanding, even those things which he seems at times to comprehend. Were man not intrigued, he would be stuck, mentally, physically and spiritually in the world that he sees and pretends to know. But mankind is smart enough to know that there is much that he will probably never know.

This gives credence to the notion that there must be something greater than mankind, for man could not of his own intellect have created this. In much the same way as an automobile owner tries to understand the creation of the car and how it works, he does know that of himself he would probably be walking. You contend at this point that man did invent the car, but you cannot come up with the inspiration behind the concepts that came to be known as the automobile. Well, someone had an idea, but you fail to realize that the idea did not appear from nowhere, something or someone beyond human intellect caused the idea. The over simplification of something like the creation of the automobile causes man to believe somehow that he is smarter than he is. But to the person who chooses to see beyond his own presumed intellect will easily realize that there are many things far beyond man's understanding. So, what is this that has greater intellect than even the smartest person on earth?

Man attributes all things unknown to some sort of "God" for lack of a better explanation. In this presumption, man also assigns characteristics to this "God" as if man were astute enough to make such assignments. Would not a dog use the same such reasoning with man? Would not a dog see man as some sort of "God?" It's all a matter of perspective and one would be wise to realize that knowing God is not a matter of reason based on perception. In order to know God, man must be open to the experience and not make any sort of attempts to place judgments or make assignments upon that which is beyond a thinking person's reason.

In quiet contemplation does one begin to experience the magnitude of the truly unknown. No thoughts held by man can even begin to imagine God. In order to know God, one must allow God to be known, without any sort of presumption. In order for this state to occur, man must undo all of his mindsets about that which he has attributed to God. All that you have been told and all that you think you believe must be put aside for openness to welcome the revelation of God. One must be smart enough to know that he knows nothing and from this can come the truth.

Only from the direct experience of God can a person even begin to comprehend the truth about God. So rather than wasting enormous amounts of time trying to figure out how God works, you would be well advised to come to God as an open mind and allow God to fill the emptiness with truth. Knowledge about God is not found in a book. Even the best books on the subject point to the actual experience of God as the only valuable learning tool. There are no saints or masters who found God in a book. There is no number or combination of written or spoken words to give a person the experience of God. Just as childbirth can be described, the words in no way convey the truth of the experience. So let us seek God where He can be found – in an open mind uncluttered by the mundane thoughts and ideas of man.

So if words serve not the purpose of knowing God, then why are we now writing this?

These words are guidance to help those, who like you, need to know that God need not be studied nor derived from religious activities or texts. So many people have missed the experience of God because they have not understood that God will not be revealed via the intellect. After a lifetime of study, a person will be no closer to God than the person who never once even contemplated the concept of God. Only God can cause a person to know God. God does reveal Himself personally to each one as only that person can understand. So teach that to know God is to hold out your hands and allow God to fill them. Even this statement you would not understand. You would hold out your hands and wait upon the Lord. Words are symbolic. They can be misinterpreted very easily. Have a billion people read the Bible and there will be no consensus. Only an actual experience untainted will cause you to know God. Put aside your thoughts and be open to God. For He alone teaches of Himself.

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For in as much as you have called upon Me, I will have answered. There is nothing you need do to manifest My perfection. Only your willingness and openness is needed to bring forth all that you have desired. You have often felt and have been taught that great struggle and effort are required to manifest God in your life. But how can it be that God requires effort of you for anything? God has no needs nor requirements. He knows nothing of your system of sacrifice. God only wants you to choose to know Him and He will give you all that you need.

But we are well aware of saints and martyrs who have written of great struggles in seeking God. Dark nights of the soul are common among those who earnestly seek your presence. How can you say that struggles aren't necessary when it seems the common foundation of all spiritual paths?

Struggles come from the desire to advance at a pace greater than your ability. Trying to force God realization on your time table causes you to feel as if struggle is necessary. In truth, you need put forth no effort. Were you to simply be open, all knowledge of God would flow to you effortlessly. But you feel the need to control the process, to somehow force God to activate. It is in this desire that you feel compelled to urge God to reveal Himself. You pray earnestly, but nothing seems to happen. You pray and pray some more. Still nothing happens. You become disappointed and are soon experiencing the dark night of the soul.

You seek God, but He seems to hide. You try everything you know to coerce God to reveal Himself. Typically, when a person pretends to give up (for you can never really give up,) God at last is revealed. But this revelation does not come by any effort on your part, but comes simply at the perfect time, when you are ready. So don't believe that any effort is required and don't let your desire or time tables cause you to experience these dark nights of the soul. The time of revelation is set and this you cannot change.

So it is typical that seekers must go through these waiting periods, feeling abandoned by God? What is the purpose of this?

The so-called waiting periods are vital for the development of the empty vessel. The empty vessel is what is needed to properly receive God's revelations. The experiences leading up to the readiness of the empty vessel often seem very harsh and un-god like. It is often imagined that God has abandoned the one who is going through the vessel emptying experience. Can God enter where there is not space available? Your minds and hearts are filled with all sorts of things and your vessel must be emptied of these things in order to make room for God. This is often known as the undoing or unlearning. It is a time when one seems to be losing all that they have known and become comfortable with. Were a seeker to remain in the same state of mind, there would be no chance for God to be revealed. There must be an environment created which is full of doubt and confusion.

Unless a person has lost all of his convictions, he can not be open to the truth of God. When one realizes that the truth of God is almost certainly opposite of all that one has learned on earth, it becomes much easier to understand why unlearning or vessel emptying must occur. One must start school over, with a clean mental slate, in order to learn the truth clearly and unimpeded. So, you can choose to experience struggle or go willingly and freely into and through the unlearning.

So when the seeker is totally discouraged and hopeless, does God then reveal Himself?

When all force has been exhausted and the person gives up on the struggle, then God can come at last. And come at last, He will. Think of all who have given up and merely choose to sit and wait. Always after a time, God is revealed. You don't hear many stores of people having God revealed to them one day out of the blue. It takes true openness. Not effort, but openness. Were God to reveal Himself without the proper open environment, the experience would be wasted, misunderstood or explained away as something else. Who can say that God has not already been revealed to them, but they have not understood?

Who can say that God is not revealing Himself this very minute with these words yet; the experience is depreciated as merely mental babble? You have not understood what God has revealed to you. You have assumed that because of the lack of financial worth upon them that these words are not God's revelations. In spite of your knowing that these ideas have not come from your own understanding, you have given them no credence. You have put forth a judgment upon these ideas based upon your wishes.

Because you have discounted these messages as worthless, you have cheated yourself out of the full beautiful revelation of God. It is not that God has not given you at your will, the very ideas of which you write. It is that you have not judged them as valuable and therefore you have rather believed that God is absent – or merely offering worthless dictation. But is God really absent in this process? You have put beliefs upon that which you somehow know is beyond you. You have not seen the marvelous in what you have determined is mundane.

But does God give worthless revelations? What is the purpose of this?

Were these words for you alone, that would be enough. If for no other reason than for the benefit of the time that you spend in contemplation, that would be enough. But you see no value in the wisdom that comes from your pen. You deem it worthless and that you alone do not really benefit from it. What is the point of writing all of this down? Let go of any expectations upon these words and trust that all is as it should be. Had Helen believed as you do, and she did, the world would be without a marvelous book of truth. Don't let your limited vision discount what you commit to paper. Merely write as you are given inspiration. From this will come many hours of worthy occupation. If for no other reason, you are enough.

How can it be that we are enough? Writing for us is hardly worthy of the ink, especially if we never even reread it.

But you will. You hold a greater value upon these words than you admit. They are your very soul expressed. Don't treat them as worthless for they surely are not. Be honest, are these writings not more valuable to you than almost anything else?

But we don't understand the purpose. We cannot make sense of this. Our lives contrast so much. When it would seem so much easier to have one unconflicted occupation, why are two still necessary?

You proclaim your readiness, but you know not what you face. A person is not instantly accepted, in fact some never really are. But to the person who does give up completely, it was never theirs to behold. In truth, you do this not because you choose to, but because you are compelled.

Going through the motions hardly seems just cause. There are many things we do for which we feel compelled, yet are really wasteful. We feel compelled to worry and do spend countless hours doing just that. Is it worth it or merely wasted effort? Can not the same be said for writing, if nothing worthwhile comes from it?

One is beneficial and one is not. One produces learning while the other deteriorates peace. How does each make you feel?

If we put expectations upon either of them, the results are the same.

So, do what makes you feel good and let go of expectations. There need be no measure put upon anything except your feelings about it.
**Chapter 55 – Living A Dream or Dreaming A Living**

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What a wonderful day – full of revelations. What did you learn? Anything good? It turned out to be nothing like expected, as do most days. So, instead of planning so much, why not let the day unfold as it is destined to? Much is accomplished when you let the spirit flow. You are gently guided to where you shall go and what you shall do. If you learn to trust in the process, great things do come from allowance. It all works out if you let it. Don't be so sure that you have all the answers. The spirit guides you, even to feel as you do. Your feelings are great guidance tools. You often wonder why you feel about certain things as you do. You have not fully understood that strange feelings come to you for reasons beyond your understanding. You may feel averse to something which defies reason. You explain these odd feelings away and go on.

Sometimes these feelings can nag at you and cause you to react to them. Or spur of the moment things may pop into your mind and cause you to do something that you had not considered. Strange impulses seem to pull at your for no known reasons. You wonder what causes you to do some of the odd things that you do. "What was I thinking," you ask? When most it seems that you are acting as if by some unforeseen force, know that there are forces at work which you are not fully aware of. If it is true that all things are pre-programmed, does it not stand to reason that you are being moved by forces outside your will? Mostly, your thoughts coincide with your actions.

But there are times when you are thinking one thing and doing another. Remember that you are not alone in this process. You are being led through this life and sometimes experience lapses of awareness or ultra awareness. Sometimes you are aware that you are being pulled and at other times you seem to be floating along on a river of unseen forces. The trick is to be hyper aware of what is going on and learn that just as you affect others, others affect you. You may not know why you are doing something and if you were hyper aware, you would realize that you are working on behalf of another. It's all a give and take. Perhaps you are the supporting cast and sometimes you are the star. Life has many roles to fulfill, but all are intertwined to serve the needs of all.

Do not assume that all give and take equally, at least in part. You may be twenty five percent of a person's life, but they are only two percent of yours. The mix is typically not so equal. Remember that it is tough for both persons to get fifty-fifty from any relationship. The mix is more scattered, just as is the purposes derived from each. Look at a simple life and try to figure the percentages of even one element derived from others. This can be very complex from your vantage point.

For instance, one person can get various quantities of love from others. There are endless combinations. So don't even try to figure it out, even for one person as it matters not. Just understand that there are reasons for everything – you are either serving or being served at all times. There are inputs at all times. You are constantly sending also. How can your simple mind even comprehend a small amount of what is going on? So, you have learned to focus on you and your thoughts, hopes, wishes and desires. You have forgotten to consider always the thoughts, hopes, wishes and desire of others, all others. It is overwhelming to you. If you are in a room of twenty people, consider the myriad expectations of each person upon all others. It easily becomes mind boggling and overwhelming. So, you revert to the one view that seems to make sense, the ego view. Always looking outward from I.

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What dreams may come to the blessed ones who are fearless enough to dream? Do dreams actually come true? Or do predetermined events merely come into your consciousness? Are you drawn to something as a moth to a flame? What constitutes a dream? Is it a remembrance of what is to come or simply a wishful desire? How does one know what the future holds? A calling, no matter how faint, is still a calling. A dream no matter how unrealistic, is still a dream. But what of those times in between when the dream seems laughable and impossible? What must one do to keep the light of hope glowing in the night? Whatever one does that feels a part of the dream is what one must do to keep the dream alive. Pouring gas on a fire does not make the fire burn longer, but actually shortens the length of the burn time. Sure, the fire will be much hotter for a time, but will quickly exhaust itself by burning up the embers.

So it is not advisable to rush to dream realization for you will be consumed by the fire quickly. Dreams take time if time is truly needed. To refine the skills necessary for the task, one must go through the honing process. As with any school or learning, a certain amount of time is needed. Your wish to expedite the process will cause you to lose hope and burn yourself out. This is the quickest guarantee to failure. Once hope is lost, desire is also lost and therefore any effort will not be expended toward the dream. If your expectations surpass the necessary learning process, then you are headed surely for disappointment.

In order to achieve your dream, you must learn to be apart from self. In all things you must learn that you are not the most important factor. In fact, once you realize that you are not important except for your ability to carry My messages, all of your worries will melt away. When your service is more than you are, you will have need for nothing, especially worry. On this you can be certain.

But can we be sure of anything? The saints before us have had many a worrisome time wondering about how to pay bills or meet financial obligations. Mother Teresa was always in need of more to feed the increasing numbers of hungry. The hungry came faster many times than her ability to feed them. Jesus multiplied leaves and fishes, but did Mother Teresa manifest more than she had, except by the generosity of donors? Are we not of the understanding that her worries ended with her selfishness?

As the Israelites had manna sufficient to feed them, Mother Teresa always managed to feed more and more people. Don't look at one day or even one year. Consider from beginning to end the abundance that she acquired. The increases were exponential. Certainly with each new day came new challenges, but look at what came because of her and I assure you that she need never have worried for anything. She, by her efforts, did multiply food and many other things. So don't consider the subtle obstacles that she faced as anything more than a call for her to receive more. Her generosity was soon recognized the world over and her light could not be hidden.

Was her life perfect? By no means – there is no prefect life. Especially for those who are living in the sacrificial mentality. Have you considered the effects upon a person of the Catholic faith? A person who is taught and therefore does believe in sacrifice will behold a sacrificial mentality. Did not Teresa of Avila write often of her need for sacrifice and repentance? Were these required by God or man? You would say that the Bible teaches the necessity of these. But I say that if all sins are forgiven, what else is required? Were a person to get past the religious doctrines, they would have a much different perspective and their compulsive worrying would stop.

Fear of God does cause great worry, even for the most pious of saints. If saints are not perfect, then what chance do others have? Let go of your expectations upon God and live by your own conscience. You know what is right or wrong for you. There need be no additional judgment past your own. Consequences are quite enough to cover any punishments that you feel are necessary. You, in truth, are judge and jury. You'd condemn yourself for even thinking "wrong" thoughts. The guilt that you then carry starts the punishment process and you're not clear of this guilt until you feel you have paid the proper price.

A person without conscience is a person who does live outside of your jury system. If a person has such mental disability as to have no internal judgment, then this person will behave without the need for punishment. But I contend that such a person does not exist – every person has a conscience. Some have less regard for others, even to the total exclusion of others. This does not mean that there is an absence of conscience, but a very different one than most. Serial killers know that what they do is wrong, but the thrill outweighs their conscience. They have chosen to accept the consequences of their actions in return for the satisfaction derived. Is this any different from the person who chooses to shoplift a pack of gum, knowing that it goes against their conscience? It's all a matter of magnitude with neither being socially acceptable. So, all judgments come from you based on your perspective. Does God really need to get involved?

We are taught that You will save us and kill our enemies and raise us up from any undo hardships. Why are we taught these things if they are not true?

You have always believed that you needed to be saved. You have portrayed yourself as small and incapable of saving yourself. But I know you as you truly are. I do not see you as a human being with all sorts of limitations. I made your eternal soul like Me with all means of salvation. I did not create you to need Me or anything else. I created you to be God and to have all of the powers and manifestations of God. But you have chosen to see yourself as separate from God.

You have pretended that you are merely this mortal being in much need of God to protect you. You are not a mortal being and I do not give in to your mortal fantasies. This is your game and you are the master of it. I AM the master of eternity, not this temporal world. You have chosen to play in the mud and have wanted Me to rescue you from it or play with you in it. Why should I stoop to your imaginary level and wallow in the mud? I have not banished you to the mud nor do I require that you forever go around muddy. The mud that you wear is purely of your own choosing. You may cleanse yourself at will.

Then why do our best efforts at cleansing away our mud fail? Always there is mud at every turn. Why can't we free ourselves from the mud if you say that we can?

Your mud is really mental. It has so clouded your life that you can not even imagine yourself free from it. Remember also that you have already chosen the particulars of the mud play. So whatever rescue plan that you have is already in place.

So, really there is no hope for us to escape the mud if we have not already hatched the plan?

What good is a perfect plan if it is not followed to fruition? Would you have gone to all of this trouble to merely change horses midstream? Give your plan some credit – let it flow peacefully and enjoy the mud of your choosing. It won't last forever for surely you have a well devised escape plan.

Honestly, it seems that we put all of our eggs in Your basket only to find that Your basket has no bottom. Does this about sum things up?

From your perspective, yes. You created a false-bottomed basket from the teachings of those who were quite well meaning but erroneous. Your teachings have come through words and as you well know, words can easily lead you astray. To be saved can have myriad meanings. You merely choose the one that best suits your own purposes. How have you taken "You shall love your neighbor as yourself," (James 2:8, NAS) and twisted it into all sorts of uses. In fact, the very word love is probably the most used and misunderstood word of all. You have put all sorts of physical and human connotations upon it.

God's understanding of love and your understanding of love are entirely different. Granted, we do see most things differently. God is not a puppet master. You are one of many puppet masters operating your life. You have chosen your roles as others have chosen theirs. What if you could actually see your part in someone else's life? When you are so certain that you have it all figured out, suddenly you realize that you are the created arch enemy of someone whom you have never known in this life. Interesting, isn't it?

But we don't have enough insight to behold the workings of the plan. We only see from one perspective and must try to make the most of the little that we see. Can we learn to see from a better perspective?

This is your current process of learning. You are leaning that there are dimensions beyond your own. You are beginning to see that you are both cause and effect. You do unto others and they do unto you. But you have not realized yet the magnitude of you nor the magnitude of others upon you. One single act of a stranger can change your life forever. You understand this much. But do you understand that the effects of this change are unlimited upon others? You are changed and therefore change your interactions with others and their interactions flow accordingly. The ripple effect is how this is often described.

So the net effect is that one cause affects everything. When you cry about why me, all others just might be crying also. If a tragedy makes a person more spiritual and all others whom they affect are thusly more spiritual, then was the tragedy in fact a tragedy or a blessing? A tragedy for one could be a blessing to many. Can you know enough to make this determination? Was not the crucifixion of Jesus seen as a tragedy for Him but a blessing for all who followed Him? Are more people affected by His life or His death?

Would His life have not been more meaningful if He had lived to a ripe old age?

Perhaps, but this was not His chosen path.

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Watch for the signs of wonder all around you. You have cried for My help and at last it is here. There is nothing to fear or dread for amazement will be your reaction. What is this of which I speak? Oneness and light – at last you will know the secrets of God which have for so long eluded you. You will know that there is more to life than life itself. Let go of your attachments to self and expand your horizons. Look beyond what you have known and explore the unknown realm. For in this foreign land is the joy of your truest self. You have only imagined this before – you have read the accounts of others who have known the unknown. But words can not describe what you will experience. Be prepared to be amazed. For in this world there is no comparison for that which is beyond your senses. Get excited and learn to be open to the possibilities. Life has nothing of value to offer, but the unknown has wonders beyond belief. Are you ready?

As ready as possible. Having not previously known such experiences, we are skeptical. You've promised signs and wonders before without results.

Have you put expectations upon the experiences? Have you predetermined that you will have exactly what others had? Things will happen outside of your mind. They will involve the senses, lest you believe them to be imaginary. If you can explain them away, would you be convinced?

We hear so much about meditation, yet we get nothing but frustration from it. If meditation is a requirement of spirituality, then it is no wonder that we have failed so miserably.

Meditation is a word, a descriptive word, which often causes people to limit the experience of meditation. There are no "rules of meditation." There is not right way to meditate. God has no need for you to sit and perform rituals. A peaceful mind or pleasant thought offers the opening for revelation. In fact, a distracted mind can not keep revelations away. Simply going through the motions of your day, without great thought, is enough of a distraction to allow a single though to enter. Don't be so dogmatic about meditation. Allow yourself to take time for God however you choose. Focus lightly on God or merely call out My name and I will avail Myself to you. You don't have to sit and chant for God to hear your call.

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Oh, wonder of wonders – you have let your light so shine as to uplift another. You have managed to spread good cheer, even when you felt none of your own. This is a true gift – one given to another that they may have a more blessed day. Your empathy for others has always been a strong suit. You have not lived so selfish a life that you have allowed others to serve your selfish needs. This is not to say that at times you have not held selfish motives, but you have known enough to put aside, at least in part, the selfishness that is often at the root of all causes. In recognizing your true motives, you are much better able to deal with your behaviors.

Once you learn to control your behaviors, then you learn to control your thoughts. Control in this sense is not really control per se, but a conscious choice to change your behaviors and your thoughts. Being more aware of what you do and why you do it help you to analyze and decide if the things you think and do are actually the things that you choose to think and do. A change in focus does offer you the alternate vantage point from which to garner your perspective. If one day you see yourself as a poor worthless servant, then your thoughts and behaviors will reflect this perspective. Your actions follow your thoughts. Your thoughts follow your perspective. Your perspective follows your experiences. You do not come into this life with a particular perspective. Your experiences cause you to believe as you do about yourself and all of life. Two people having the same lives can have vastly different experiences.

What you make of your life determines your experience. It's all a matter of perspective. Moving up the spiritual ladder of maturity causes you to begin to eliminate the need or reliance on perspective. On the way to Oneness, you realize that there is really only one perspective and it is that of all or Oneness. It is from this perspective that you realize that no judgments are necessary or appropriate. Judgments are based on perspective and any perspective except for Oneness is errant. Judgment involves the false duality, that there can be good or bad. From Oneness, it is understood that there is only perfection. This is one of your hardest lessons to learn, because you see things that you are told are bad. And you will defend this to your death and you will argue to your last breath. So, yes, there must be quite a change in perspective for you to see the perfection in all things.

The more you realize the unreality of life in reference to your true eternal self, the more you allow yourself to know that life is not your truest reality, but is a performance by all stars so that you may experience what you are not. The more emphasis that you put on eternity, the less credence you give to that which is temporal. In learning to see what is unreal, you learn also to see what is real. Your soul is not nor can it ever be affected by the events of life nor even life itself. As a child learns that a nightmare is not real, so you learn to put life into proper perspective.

This change in perspective changes your very life experience. Once your realize that your soul neither dies nor goes to heaven or hell as it merely always is, a great relief is felt and life can be lived more peacefully and joyfully. Letting go is much easier when you truly realize that your actions are not life or death. You may still argue this as untrue, but this lasts only as long as you think yourself a body. When you realize your soul as the true you, then you put less emphasis on that which you are not.

It is exceedingly difficult to put less emphasis on that which screams the loudest. We have a much greater sense of our physical selves while in the flesh. Our souls seem to be the silent partners. Can this be reversed? Can we have a great sense of our soul than of our body?

You have learned to drown out your soul's voice. You have rationalized away the callings of your heart. You have been told and have thusly told yourself that to do what you love is madness and a worthless pursuit of dreams. But for those who have listened to their hearts and have let nothing get in their way, they have seen their dreams fulfilled. A dream held in your heart must be fulfilled, for you cannot alter your destiny. So what if you appear foolish for a time? Do what you love or die trying. It has been said that one should never die with unfulfilled dreams. This is sad, yet more sad is the person who does not give honor to their dream. To dim the dream and to live as if there were no dream is a great denial of self.

Has it ever occurred to you that the dream is based upon something deeply rooted in your very soul? Perhaps there is a greater purpose than you know for the desire of your heart. You must know by now that your life serves many purposes, not only the one you see through your ego's eyes. What if your dream fulfillment were the very impetus for many others to know God? You think that your dream is yours alone, but think of the many others whose dreams have given so much to you and your life. You are not alone on this journey. Don't be so egocentric as to believe that you are the only one who suffers while your dreams are not fulfilled. Your life is for many benefits and if you have chosen to be God's teacher, then what must be the larger purpose? It is true that your destiny is set and you cannot avoid what you are called to do, but to be fully aware of your deepest desire does make the ride far more fulfilling.

You can experience life as stumbling through or being fully awake and aware. Seek always to hear the cries of your heart that you may know the road ahead. Your soul will lead you to where you are to go. Don't be distracted by the physical senses. Listen to your soul and know what you are and what you shall do. Don't let your thoughts run wild and convince you that you cannot do what you want to do. Regardless of your belief or that of others who influence you, go for it. Why not? Would you rather be trying to fly your kite or be sitting at home thinking that you can't? Is it more fun to give up before the race has stated? Is there really a good time to give up on your dreams? Would you rather not at least have given it your all and failed than never to have tried? Strange things do happen when people follow their dreams. Sometimes dreams do actually come true.

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Thanks be to all who enter here for they are the keepers of the wisdom of God. It takes great courage to be among the few who deny the worldly "knowers of all." There are many who profess to have all of the answers and are able to pass judgment on what is and is not possible. Listen to such as these and surely you will be led astray. Never let another cause you to go against the truth that you know within. For there are few who are true to themselves, yet they are the ones who are truly satisfied. No one can adequately advise another for another cannot know you as you truly are. Listen to your own heart and judge not what you hear. Take what you hear as the whole truth and live it with all of your might.

Don't look to others for your approval for even their words may not honestly give you their sincere approval. Doubts may be held by someone, even as they profess a belief in your pursuits. They surely cannot know what lies ahead, no more than you. In much of life, there is a playing the odds, making decisions on biased probabilities. This is the surest way to take away the passion from you life. This is what humans call taking the safe road. Eliminating the highs and lows of life surely makes life a dull experience. There is no excitement in taking the safe road. But fear causes you to do all within your power to keep things on an even keel. Some people, but only a few, are willing to gamble with some things, but not others. Those who take leaps of faith believe on some level that all will be well regardless. There are those who feel strongly that certain risks must be taken for without the pursuit, the dream will never come true and this is worse than death. So decide what you are willing to risk to have your greatest desire fulfilled.

§ PEARL OF WISDOM § – YOU ARE EITHER LIVING A DREAM OR DREAMING A LIVING.

Do you now have regrets? What would you have done differently with wisdom of age? How many people have actually pursued their dreams? How many live in drab lives wishing for another chance? Consider that there really is no risk involved at all. You will do what you are to do. Period. You can try to fight it or ignore it, but you are preprogrammed to do what you have set forth to do. So, why not let the joyful musings of dream fulfillment linger in your thoughts? What if...What if it were destined to happen?

Dreamers are those who keep hope at the forefront and do enjoy their dreaming. Is this not better than having your thoughts filled with worry? What do you really have to lose by relishing in a few dreams? Would you rather imagine yourself ten years from now exactly the same? It is human nature to want to experience the fullness of life. You may not live out all of your wants, but surely your destiny will reveal your greatest desire of your heart. Far too many people spend their lives set upon making a living. They do not take the time to contemplate the "what ifs" of life. What if you won the lottery? What if you never had to work again? These enlightening contemplations reveal much about what you hold dear and what you desire to accomplish in life. These are not idle contemplations, but are exercises in soul searching. Consider these exercises as a spiritual requirement so that you may know yourself. Don't be swayed by the opinions of others. The have their own souls to search.

It is enjoyable to soul search, but people are criticized for being dreamers and losers. What, if any, is the difference between purposeful soul searching and merely wasting mental energy dreaming?

Who should judge another? The dreamers and losers are typically the ones who have inspired ideas. If you are not open, then how can you receive? Soul searching is a means of getting to know yourself. You spend so much time trying to learn about life only to find it a complete waste of time. Why not then choose to spend time getting to know yourself? If there were a book written about you, would you read it? Would you take the time to explore the mysteries of you? Most people don't really want to know themselves. They are afraid of what they will discover. Fear and guilt keep people focused on others to deflect the revelations of self. You run from yourself and toward others. But what are you to another if you do not even know yourself?

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

When was the time when you felt so connected with your destiny? What makes you smile is that which is closest to your heart and having recognized this you smile more. Your every thought of doing what you love brings happiness for in this there is great reward and satisfaction. It is the honoring of your self. It is the recognition that you have something important and worthwhile to do and that what you do matters. It gives you confidence that you do have a purpose in life rather than simply living. Nothing is as depressing as the belief that your life doesn't matter. All of life matters, at least to some degree.

While you are here, make the most of the experience and do what makes you smile. The flood of warmth that encapsulates you as you think about your efforts as being beneficial even if you know not how. Believe in what you do and love what you do. For in every effort there is some reward, even if it is only you who fully realize it. You may never know how you affect others, but always put forth your best effort that you may know that you have given something back to the world and not merely taken. Do your part to make life grand and trust that all your brothers will do the same. If every one felt more akin to others, there would be much less egocentric efforts put forth.

Know that by a kindness shown to others is a true gift and that it does make a difference. Think of how good you feel when you are complimented. Why not share the joy? Teach others to give as well, especially complements and courtesies. There is no cost for these, so they can be given freely regardless of your status. Be ever aware of the imbalance of good versus evil in this world. Know that people are far more likely to point out your errors than your rightness. A good deed may never be noticed, but one mistake is often blown way out of proportion to the complete exclusion of all that you have done. Don't make the mistake of treating others this way. Be more cautious of your behaviors and never stop yourself from offering a kindness. It may be the only bright spot in someone's day.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Today is a magnificent gift to all who behold the eyes and ears to take in the messages it beholds. Let life give you today that which is given as a gift and receive it just as it is given. Let not your own perceptions be put upon it for nothing need be added. All truth is held with in it that ye may know that I AM God. There is nothing outside of God nor beyond My grasp. Know that all things are held in loving captive of the One who has given birth to it all. Trust that the life of every soul is made with purpose for there is nothing made by God to be wasted nor created as wasteful. All things are exactly as they should be and all is as intended. Let not yourself feel that you are without purpose nor benefit. Life is to be a joy for your soul that ye may know yourself as the eternal loving creation of God.

You are God, even as you imagine yourself to be the farthest thing from perfection. You do not understand that you are what best represent goodness and love. You see yourself as petty and worldly. But these things are not you nor reflective of your truest nature. You have imagined that your characteristics are what you are and that you have had no choice in your being or your behaviors. You were not made to kill, yet this is what you have learned. God did not create you to live under the survival of the fittest scenario. You always survive as you are eternal. Your body may need some protection, but surely your behaviors or root motivations are learned.

When you are able to separate yourself from your behaviors and then from your learned motivations, you will begin to see the beauty of yourself blossom. A wonderful revelation indeed. Is it not always your first thought to do that which is loving? It is after rationalization that you elect to do what is self preserving. Focus on your true first motivational impulses for in this will your loving nature be revealed. Spend a day being aware of what first pops into your mind. You see a beautiful child and you are automatically filled with loving thoughts. But after you think of all the reasons why this is not for you, you then put the loving thoughts aside and move on.

What joy you have chosen to by pass. How many glorious moments do you let go because you talk yourself out of them? Joy is offered to you, but your rational mind does take control. Is it not also true that learned fears have greatly hampered your life experience? When the very thoughts of offering a hug are thwarted by your immediate thoughts of consequences, your life is lessened and your joy is withheld. It is true that those who would seek to be offended have put limits upon the free expression of love. The careful balance of kindness versus lawsuit is a constant focus for those living in such greedy societies. What may be offensive or at least claimed as offensive, is a constant concern for those seeking to share much needed joy in this life. It is a sad statement when the rules are skewed toward stopping the spread of joy. Is it any wonder why there is so much sadness in this world?

People will go to all sorts of extremes to make a dollar, even to the needless ruin of a guiltless person. Greed has become your ruler and freedom really no longer exists. Why have you chosen to make this world a restrictive place rather than a place of freedom? Did God file the lawsuits that created most of your laws? Surely you blame God for all that is "wrong" in your world. But did God teach you to trample the innocent so that you could have the rewards not deserved? Think of how much of your freedom is taken away by those who seek to profit upon the back of another? Are your laws truly meant to protect the innocent or the wealthiest? An innocent man with a bad lawyer will almost always be seen as guilty. A guilty client with a good lawyer stands a great chance of being declared innocent.

You put such value upon your civil rights, but your learning about what should be equal rights is far from it. There is nothing equal when money is involved. The fastest way to bring out the worst in people is to put some money in the mix. Families have been torn apart over a few bucks. At the scene of an accident, any conscious parties are already figuring out how much they can profit from this or how much it will cost them. Even before the status of the other victims has been determined, mental calculations are going on. Dollars are far more important than almost any life. This is what you have taught yourselves. This is your learned behavior. Is it not necessary to unlearn these behaviors before you will even begin to see the light?

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Join with Me on a mission of mercy. Think no longer of yourself or how you are affected, but let your heart go out to others. Let yourself follow the divine path to greatness that you may show the world God's great mercy and love. Lift up your heart to benefit all of those around you. Enjoy your mission and do keep the focus away from self. For the distraction of self keeps you separate from God. Remove the barriers that you have placed between us and let God shine through you. It is from the standpoint of selflessness that you will finally succeed. Give up yourself and your ego focus and you will at last know the love of God.

For God does not cater to one, but to all. See yourself and your problems as not yours alone. See yourself as part of the whole and your troubles do diminish. The world is not yours alone nor are you meant to cater to yourself. Only in giving of yourself do you finally see the rewards desired. In helping others does help come to you. Let go of all of your personal concerns. Give all your cares over to the brothers who can offer you swift resolution. In life there is but one soul and it is the total soul of all. Forget your little worries for they are merely distractions. Concern yourself with how all others can benefit by your humble service. Let go of the lost soul that you think that you are and join heartily with all others. For in this there is great joy and happiness at last. I have not forgotten your willingness to serve and help. I AM ever aware of your desired contributions. We have spent much time preparing and are ready to give our gifts unto the world. At last! At last!

But what gifts are ours to give? Even the best of intentions need an avenue of delivery. What must we do to get things rolling?

Trust in the process. You have made a friend from one who was surely a devout enemy. Let not those who choose to persecute and belittle you cause you to take even one misstep. Go ever forward and do that which fills your heart to do. Whatever it is, however seemingly meaningless it is. Go forth with all haste and diligence and bring forth your gifts unto the world. Don't think for a minute that you are alone or forgotten. Your mission is as firmly planted as it has always been. Let not today determine your tomorrow, except in that your products of today be a lasting contribution to the future. These words are your contribution to the future. Hold them dearly and keep them sacred. This is your gift. Give it to Me and I will magnify it.

But we remember years ago that we gave you gifts and not one good thing came from them. You magnified them not. Why do You now ask for more?

I ask for all and all will be magnified. Would you put a time table on God?

The years keep adding up without any sort of encouragement. On what must we base our faith?

Do what you love and feel called to do. Many before you have offered similar sacred gifts without any sort of rewards known. Would you do this if only because God asked you to?

Yes. We have.

Then continue and be filled with hope. Do not live for the future. Live for today. Write the messages given today, for tomorrow may not come. But if you were face to face with Me today, would you have regrets?

No, for we feel we've done our best.

Then go and feel guilty no more. Do not feel slighted by God for you know not what God holds in store. Just do that which you are led to do.
**Chapter 56 – Defining Success**

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What would you do for the promise of success? Would you sell your soul? Would you give up yourself for the desired success? Were it necessary, would you take away success from another to promote your own? Consider carefully the true value that you place on worldly success. To what degree does it control your every thought? This is one great motivation in your life which you have underestimated. You have kidded yourself about your truest desires. You have said that comfort and security are all that you desire, but has there ever been enough for you to feel secure and comfortable?

Absolutely not. Our experience has been a testament to just enough and sometimes not enough. Always there has been insecurity.

Then what do you define as success?

When there is enough that you no longer need to worry. A sense of freedom is had and the pursuit of happiness can truly begin.

How many people ever live up to your definition of success?

Surely there are some. But not all find satisfaction in their success.

So we can assume that success is different for different people?

Surely. But there are those who have sufficient resources to feel comfortable and not feel guilty for not taking any job that comes along.

And so there are. Are we talking about jobs or success?

Without alternatives, jobs do provide income. Until there is enough success, there will need to be jobs. Actors don't wait tables for fun.

They are doing what gets them by until they can do what they love.

Yes, until they are successful.

But success for an actor is typically not a one-time thing. Success comes from several successful films or gigs. It is a constant life-long pursuit, would you not agree?

Yes, perhaps. It depends on the person. Some people do give up acting careers for a more simple life.

Yes, and many pretend to choose when it wasn't really a choice.

Perhaps it had ceased to be fun. The constant scrutiny is tough.

But for those, like you, who are addicted to success, it is never a matter of choosing what you consider less. This "choice" was not made by you in this life. So don't even pretend that a simpler life is good enough for you.

Then what is it that success addicts like us are really after?

Approval. To one day be able to feel as if you've made it.

Then we can go back to root cause for our need for approval and find the reasons for our desires. What does this change? We are what we are.

Were it to be as simple as changing your perception so that you no longer had expectations nor desires, then we could eliminate your never ending struggle for success.

But is this not an integral part of who we are? Have we not been cultivated to be as we are?

Of course. There is nothing wrong with what you are. It just offers great clarity when you know yourself better. You do not want to appear greedy or materialistic. You merely want to earn success. You were taught that hard work was the key to success. So, your work ethic is thusly an example of this principle. Were you to know that your effort is not required for your success, then you world more quickly be successful. Your struggles cause you to unknowingly delay your success. You try too hard, worry too much and exhaust yourself needlessly. If you were more relaxed and open to the pipeline of great ideas, you would more quickly achieve your goals. It is inevitable that you achieve your goals. Depend upon it.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

From where you stand, the world does appear to be cruel and unrelenting. It would seem to you that you are held victim by those who are in control of you. Take back your power, even if only in your perception. You are not made to be victim, but are made to stand above what you see as circumstance and know that you are merely God's servant playing your role in their little games of power and control. You have chosen to teach that power is an illusion of those who seek to have it. It's not real, for there is nothing real in this world. It is for their learning of the futility of life that you have and are where you are. They walk a path long since walked by you. You are past those illusions of worldly power as you have seen things come and go. You have known what they have yet to learn. But, knowing even this, you allow yourself to be tossed about on the seas of their power trips. This is what you must now learn. To free yourself from their evil and selfish games where there really are no winners – only losers.

But it is indeed frustrating to be held within the ridiculousness of those who seek only self enhancement. It makes no sense that our efforts and purposes be so foolishly wasted. It is not we who teach, but they who have taught us the cruelty of man.

In this case, do not teach as you have learned, but teach a better way. Teach always that to stand on higher ground is a reflection of your character, not a testament of their excellent leadership. To point out their errors does not help them for they do believe that they are faultless. They merely believe that you are unreasonable. From their vantage point, they are wholly justified in what they do. These are not masters, but are merely children playing games of power. Do not be discouraged and smile upon them for they know not what they do. Do not try any longer to get them to do what is right or reasonable for they do not know. They merely take the day and let it go as it will. Let them have their fun. Realize, they suffer just as you do upon the wrath of the uncaring.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Behold a new day dawns with renewed hope for the promises that you have been given. There is a deep and abiding knowing that is kept well hidden beneath the guise of reality. "Don't dare hope lest you be disappointed," is your means of keeping down the waves of hope which surely sneak into your mind. You have been given promises for your fulfillment, yet you see not the means for accomplishment. Still, ever distant, so seeming far away that there can hardly be cause for happiness. Your daily reality is one of hope versus hopelessness. You keep trudging along in spite of the seeming depressive circumstances that you see. Would you be more inspired if hope came riding up on a horse? It is rather unbelievable to see yourself in such an opposite situation even if you believe in miracles. But, hope does spring eternal and you must keep climbing lest you sit in despair. Hope is what keeps the masses moving when there seems no real hope for success. To merely survive is mostly the driving force behind all of humanity. Were there no need to eat, would most people even move? Guilt and fear motivate far more than love and happiness. In this life there is no comfort – no true rest. Even the most spiritual persons are plagued by their lives and the demands brought forth by guilt and fear. Any measure of comfort in this moment does not bring forth comfort in the next. Who is truly satisfied with what is had in any moment, knowing the next moment is surely coming.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

When once there was a place of peace and understanding, there now seems a place of torment and uncertainty. How long do you choose to stay in this place of turbidity? Would you rather not choose to be safe and whole, living the dreams of your destiny? What does it take to transcend from one to the other? Are there literal steps to climb or is it merely a mental journey? In truth, both play parts in the whole. Surely a circumstance must exist for the dream condition to be mentally realized. Sure, wishing is real, but its reality is not the same as the conditions which predicate your fulfillment. It is easy to imagine the conditions of dreams. But in your life's physical reality, seeing or experiencing the conditions is very different. We are now focusing on the more physical reality of your life which is a part of the whole.

Certainly your spirit drives the machine in total; however, from the bodily vantage point, your dreams become reality when you experience the conditions which allow you to experience your chosen life's path. Were your dreams limited to mere wishes, what would be the point? The point would be to disappoint. But as mankind often says, "Great expectations lead to great disappointments." This is true in the sense that you cannot nor should you have expectations about the circumstances surrounding dream fulfillment. As a general rule, the circumstances flow from the least likely scenarios.

You have spent much time trying to scheme up the means to make your dreams come true, but have in no way found anything that works. As with all dream fulfillment, it comes from the least likely sources. Surprise is the key to having a fulfilling fulfillment. Otherwise, it would be regular and rather mundane.

Now, for as much as you have suffered disappointments, learn to experience successes. The pendulum has swing the other way and as in all of life, the downs turn to ups. Focus on the happiness ahead. Surely there will be new challenges to face, but there will be great satisfaction and relief in finally knowing that God's promises are true and everlasting. There will no longer be doubt and the truth shall set you free.

Have you not told us exactly this before?

And I will continue to tell you until you have no reason to doubt.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Watch and wait for the signs are all around you. You will know the way that you are to go always before you have need of knowing. Trust that the Lord guides your steps that you will not stumble nor fall. See beyond what you see with your eyes. See with your heart and know that all things are well planned for your perfect experience. Your dreams do come true, but not as you had imagined. You are blessed among men to know that you do have a purpose beyond the flesh and yours is of the spirit and does serve the hearts of mankind. Let not the disappointments cause you to lose hope, for in this there is no benefit. Let go of your foolish wishes and desires and let your hearts truest desires be your beacons of light which lead you to your promised land. You will know that you are Mine when you see the clouds part and the sun shine. Behold a new day dawns for you and your household. You will know that God speaks to everyone and does guide the steps of every soul. Let not yourself be deceived by foolish appearances. Things are not as they seem. For how many times have you been looking over there while the real action was over here? You are not as wise as you would think yourself to be. Your thoughts are not based on facts but on perception, flawed perception based on your experiences. Learn to not consider what you "think" about a thing. Be more open minded and willing to learn, to feel and be guided by inspiration. Ask yourself if you were ever inspired to do something that was not in your best interest? Inspiration when fully understood is the driving force of spirit, the compass of the soul. You would argue that you've done many inspired things from which there has been no benefit. Regardless of your judged benefit or not, only inspired actions are those that direct your journey jointly with others, so there is always a benefit even if you know it not.

Learning to live by inspiration is difficult until you finally realize the true benefit of being led instead of trying to lead. This is in no way a sort of "slavery," but is the truest sense of having your life directed by God on a level that you cannot even understand. Just as you have seen an intervention of what you judged "bad" which caused you to experience "good." You were not looking from a higher level; you were merely seeing a small part. When your scope increased, you began to see the beauty of the whole. Still you chose to focus on the next "bad," but have not given enough time to pass for you to be able to see the larger good. Remember, "All things work together..." There is nothing happening for your benefit alone. You are not alone. It would be wise for you to see every circumstance in your life as something affecting all of those around you. Who is affected by this occurrence? Remember our discussions about ripple effects. What reactions were caused by this action?

It seems that inspired actions, often lead to nothing, or at least this has been my experience. You have that great idea, take action, nothing happens. Over time it seems that this is a waste of time. Perhaps I have been unclear about inspiration. How do we distinguish inspiration from regular thoughts?

Inspiration comes from seemingly no where, typically when you aren't thinking at all. In fact, thinking greatly interferes with inspiration. A quiet mind is the best receptacle for inspiration. Besides, who are you to judge whether something is inspired or not? Perhaps the inspiration caused you to do exactly what you were supposed to do. Perhaps the only benefit was to give you the "what the heck" attitude about presenting ideas. You judge too much. Follow your inspiration and let the chips fall where they may. You never know what lies on the other side. Judge not.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Watch the ways of the world and be not conformed to them. Live outside the maze of senseless trappings. Always take the higher road and walk the path that is your own. You are not to be like others. You are to be your own person. No one can fulfill your majesty nor can you fulfill theirs. See yourself not as alone on this journey, but as an integral part, lovingly serving your duty as others serve theirs. Join with your brothers, but do not seek to be them. Seek to do well your part and love all of those whom have called to you for help. The world truly loves no one, so don't let acceptance and approval be your goal. There is really only one whom you can ever please, but please yourself you must. Only in self satisfaction will you ever find the peace that you greatly desire. No one can give you this for it is yours alone to behold.

It would seem that self satisfaction is almost impossible when others come against you. Those seeking to pass blame rather than help will stop at nothing to defray their responsibility. Kill or be killed, as you have said.

And so it is in this world. People have not learned to be responsible, but have been taught to be offended in order to justify anger. How many times in a day is anger really justified? It is human nature to make a mountain of a mole hill. We seek to increase our self importance by making a loud display. People assume that the degree of the display is an accurate determinant of their level of being offended. People want to win the world's support, seeking to have the support of others rather than be alone.

And so it is. But how must we not fall victim to such overblown attacks?

Don't buy in to their assaults.

But assaults often leave bruises.

Give it as little power as you can. They have only the power that you give to them.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Beyond yesterday stands tomorrow. But for the love of life, what else is there? To find the beauty held within small nuggets of time is really the only purpose served by this thing called life. To experience life with others is all there is, for from a lonely isolated position does only despair appear. Being part of the whole is what most your heart seeks. You do all that you do to join with the others on the journey of your life. Would you but seek to have lived alone, isolated from the very ones who give you the experience of life? Surely there are those who profess to seek the solace of isolation, yet are they actually being true to themselves? What is it that makes a life worth living? Do we enjoy ourselves or do we enjoy ourselves in relation to others? We imagine a peaceful life lived without the interruptions from others, yet in peace we are found to be bored. We do seek for the dramas of life. When most we have found satisfaction, it is then that we instantly realize dissatisfaction. From complete to incomplete instantly.

What causes us to never be satisfied, if even for a minute, a day or a week? We keep searching for some magical place or circumstance which will cause us to be satisfied down to the depths of our souls. But, is it ever really possible to feel such completion? Are we ever really satisfied? Consider the true cost of satisfaction. No more desires, nothing else to conquer. At this point the journey is literally at end. Would you truly choose this, even if you could? Even during times of baseline effects, you are always drawn to seek ever more. You cannot nor will you even attempt to find satisfaction, because you know that with satisfaction does come boredom. Boredom is seen as undesirable. No one wants to be among the boring or bored. This is not life if it is filled with no excitement. Why are you so driven to find reasons to not be bored? Is boredom really a bad thing?
**Chapter 57 – Reflective Lessons**

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Trust Me when I say that you are well taken care of. Do not believe or fall victim to the ramblings of your mind. You are your own worst enemy. Stop thoughts of powerlessness and victim mentality. Lift up your mind to higher thoughts. You must regain the confidence that you once had in yourself. The actions of others in no way validate you or make you any less than you are. Settle your mind on your strengths and know that life is but for your joy.

It would seem that during these dark nights that we are left defenseless and unknowing. What are the benefits of these times of trial?

You are not increased by increase. The true test of a person comes when all things seem to fail. It is then that you are forced to see yourself for what you truly are and believe that you are. You put forth great effort to defend your ego and your honor. Why is it that you feel so the need to teach others about yourself? What do you have to prove?

Is it as much about proving something or merely holding on to what you have? Were there no seeming need for defenses, would we expend the effort?

Are defenses really beneficial, regardless of reason? Does it ever really work for you?

Typically not, for those who seek to destroy usually find a way. Look at the story of Pursah in the book Disappearance Of The Universe, by Gary Renard.

But what is the purpose of the story? Was there nothing gained?

I see loss for all involved. Surely the false accuser must have had to bear some guilt.

Only if he had a conscience. Perhaps he saw his actions as fully justified.

Can a person be truly without a conscience?

There are those who carry such a twisted sense of ethics that they do believe that their actions are always justified.

How do we deal with these sorts?

You must save yourself by separating yourself as much as possible. What you are is what you are. Surely your life is laid out as you have chosen. What do you hope to gain by living in constant fear of that which you cannot control?

The fear keeps you on your toes, as much as possible. But truly, the punishments of others are meant to do harm and harm they shall. Why is success so elusive?

Success is relative. Is depth of character not a measure of success? Would you say that Jesus was successful?

Worldly successful, no. Successful at setting a good example, yes. His example has surpassed the test of time, in spite of His not having material success.

Then what sort of success do you most desire?

Success to me is a total thing – material and spiritual. A poor person who cannot be free to explore fully their spiritual life is not very successful. To be trapped by the world and held hostage to money mongers is one who is limited by circumstance.

This is true to a point. A person living upon the gifts of others does find freedom limited. Your world has little respect for those who do not "earn" their keep.

Exactly, so how does one find "success" to be free?

If this is a prerequisite for fulfillment, then so it must come to pass. Remember, what you see through your limited sight is not all there is to be seen.

With each passing day I believe less and less in the hidden currents of kind energy. People seem to be bent on taking more than their fair share. They want theirs and someone else's. What do you suppose causes people to be so greedy?

Kill or be killed – survival of the fittest. The constant struggle for success causes people to feel obligated to get all they can from wherever they can. Do you think that someone merely gets up in the morning and decides to rob a bank? There is an underlying motivation which causes the rationalization for the action. Were there ever to be a true sense of satisfaction, there would be no need for any sort of rationalization. A person who is satisfied is not wracked by reasoning. Complacency is key to peace and kindness toward all others.

Life does build for us walls of experiences which close off our creativity. Is it possible to tear down these walls and be as open as a child again?

Would you want this truly?

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Trust that I will keep you well and blessed and full of life for the journey ahead. I have not sent you into a den of lions but have sought to teach you marvelous lessons from those who have much to teach. Yours is to learn from your brothers that you may teach the ones ahead. I AM with you always and there is nothing you need fear.

We pray Lord for Your kindness and mercy, healing and forgiveness. We feel as if we have not lived up to the expectations set for us and have disappointed many. We pray heartily for Your uplifting mercy.

Peace be unto your heart. The lessons you learn are not meant to teach you destruction, but empathy and consideration for others. They know not what they do. Be pleased with your service and never feel that you are less than My perfect servant. You have chosen the greatest of all vocations and need not fear that it will not come to pass. You are My teacher in whom I AM well pleased. Learn to love yourself as much as I do. Don't allow yourself to be downtrodden nor helpless. You are never alone. Teach My children that they are loved and are not powerless nor bereft of help. Be at peace for Thine is the kingdom of heaven.

We do at times feel less than adequate, alone and abandoned. Our fears do keep us paralyzed and less than able to serve as we should. Help us Lord to regain our composure that our service be as you intended.

Would you know yourself if you met yourself on the street? What would you think? Would you be proud or even more afraid? Imagine that you met yourself as a stranger.

How can we even pretend to judge, not really even knowing ourselves?

Ok, what if you had to live with yourself for a month? What then would you think?

Again it could go many ways, depending of course on how we are and how we need to be involved.

Take the intellectual thoughts from the scenario. Would you be happy or sad to know yourself as you currently behave?

Behavior is often quite different from the innermost person. We tend to put on false "airs." What we truly are is typically the opposite of our behavior. We tend to overcompensate for perceived weaknesses.

This is true. So how is your current behavior reflective of yourself?

In an effort to lessen the pain and hurt, we cower hoping to not draw attention to ourselves. We strive for perfection, knowing it as impossible. Yet, we seek approval, mostly for the peace that we hope it will bring.

See how behavior is deceptive? Let not yourself be fooled by your own actions for behavior can be the weakness of all persons. Look not where truth cannot be found.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Could you have imagined the magnitude of your experience had you but taken the time? You have seen now very well that there are factors upon your life beyond your control. Things just happen. When you let go of control or the need for it, you see how life does happen even without your input. You are simply going through the motions and no amount of planning have anything to do with what happens. This is what I have tried to teach you. You do not need to suffer and sweat – it all happens as it is meant to happen. There are things you do for which you never thought you could or would do. There are things that you would not have picked in a million years. Seeing that life is beyond your control, why not relax and enjoy as much of it as you can? Haven't you yet learned that no matter how hard you try, you have not the ability to change even one outcome? While looking in from the outside it is much easier to see how little control you have. Learn this lesson well and know that being in the flow and not allowing yourself to get caught up in the fray will make your life much easier and enjoyable.

Ok, so we have seen how we are merely riding the waves and that we are directed in all things. How is it that we are not more in tune with or accepting of that which we are to experience?

You still believe that you have choices. You still believe that you can affect your destiny and that you can alter your course. Let go of your desires to change the unchangeable. Be more accepting of that which is for you. Even if you do not like what happens or the direction you seem to be going, don't spend so much time fighting the process. Allow the plan to work for you, not against you.

It would seem that we have chosen some very difficult times and lessons. Why does it seem that we have chosen to punish ourselves?

You have not chosen to punish yourselves, but have chosen to learn valuable lessons. You know not the lessons that you teach. Just as you had to learn, you teach what you have learned from an opposite vantage point.

So how does an honest person succeed in this life?

Success is not measured in money. Success is a measure of a person's actions based on integrity and character.

Tell us of those who succeed based on integrity.

Those who are able to hold on to values despite all temptations. Those who continue to be who they truly are, even when being persecuted wrongly. Integrity is seldom celebrated with money or financial rewards. Typically the spoils go to the most ruthless among men. So, what type of success do you choose?

There are those who do hold on and are rewarded for their efforts. But it is the very few who actually see benefit for having made sacrifices to do what is believed to be right. So, what gives strength to those who choose to do right?

Like the desire for money, a person has a basic inner purpose in life. This is the guide post for all things. It is no more possible for a person to go against their nature than for someone to adopt a false nature. Pretense only lasts a little while.

So, how do we accept our nature's call, for good and bad, and not be tainted along the way?

You can tell yourself today that you will no longer be the same, that you will change and be something new. But, you will always come back to what you truly are. A leopard cannot change his spots. You are what you are. Realize that what you are, down deep, is the soul that God created. What you do or how you behave has no effect on that which you truly are. You will always come back to your truest nature. All things in time.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Watch for the signs of relief and comfort. I Am with you always and you are not alone. See not that you are abandoned, but see that I Am with you always in your perceived hour of need. Struggle not to find the answers. The answers are given even before you ask. You have seen one great miracle performed. You did not even suspect such a thing were possible. Try to find hope and strength in the knowing that this sort of miracle is for you everyday. Try to look beyond your own means to see that all things are truly possible. Don't let the subtle delays cause you to feel hopeless for all things due you are set upon your perfect schedule. I have not brought you on this journey for you to fail or to feel abandoned. I have brought you upon this journey for the upliftment of souls along the way. Please give God the benefit of the time that it takes for your learning to go full circle. Allow me to show you how perfection works when allowed. Don't fight the process and know that the lessons you learn are those that you will share with others. For others will come to you for help and you must guide them along the way. For you will have seen their road before them and will be able to guide them along theirs.

We have seen the miracle and are quite amazed. Never in a million years would we have thought it possible. We do get the odd feeling that in this it was somehow meant to be. Why is it not so obvious in other things? Perhaps we consider miracles to be only good things and not all types of things.

In all things are miracles, but you recognize them not. The simple traffic delay you call irritating could be the very life saver. The harshness experienced in daily life could be the very lesson that teaches you to be more merciful to others. Perhaps a wrong done by one will become the lesson for them to change. In all things, people do what they perceive best for themselves. Kill or be killed and save yourself even at the expense of others. You very well know this to be true. You have seen it and done it. But is it the best possible course of action? Who is served by even one loser? Any loser is still a loser and this is not a win-win situation. Don't despair over the lessons of those who are young and in need of much experience.

But how are we uplifted against constant assaults? How do we stay motivated when all efforts fail?

Always you must keep looking for your inspiration wherever it may be. Don't allow yourself to be defeated even when it seems you have not hope.

§ PEARL OF WISDOM § - SEEK ALWAYS TO FIND A REASON TO PUT ONE FOOT IN FRONT OF THE OTHER.

Keep marching even when you see no reason for it.

In the trends of life, is there ever relief for the weary? There seems a constant pattern of disappointments and cruelty. Does it ever really end, with shouts of glory and happiness and joy?

Every dog has his day. Those who choose to persevere do come out on top. Let not yourself be dragged down in the mire of the world's greed. Even the most righteous face hardships. Know that you are not alone. You are God's chosen servant and God will not disappoint.

We've been on this journey for at least thirteen long years. When is it that we see your relief and rewards?

There is no set number of years for all, but for most you have reached the end of your suffering. When you see that your life changes in spite of your efforts, you know that miracles are on the way. Trust that change does come from above when most the lessons are learned.

We are always secretly hopeful for your miracles as others have received them. Yet what we see is still more of the same, seemingly without end. The worries and struggles seem to continue.

Success and happiness are frames of mind caused by your satisfaction with yourself. To be at peace and feel complete, a purpose served and a good deed done, brings forth the conditions for happiness. What would it take for you to be at such a condition?

To be satisfied that our life's goals are met and that we have finally achieved the purpose for so long sought. To be appreciated and respected for the efforts put forth. To enjoy the fruits of much service. To be healthy wealthy and wise.

This you now have.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Watch the world go by as if upon a story board. Be little affected by it. Allow your life to pass slowly by without the unnecessary hindrances for which you have for so long suffered. Let your life be filled with joy. Show yourself the beauty that you have never allowed yourself to see. The joy of freedom. Long gone are the days of woeful worry. Today is your joy set forth, so let life demonstrate it's beauty. See the good in life and suffer no more the "what ifs." Allow yourself to be free to enjoy what is before you. Set yourself free.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Walk with Me on a journey to explore the fanciful world of experience. There need be no sadness nor hardship. Let the freedom of experience overtake you that you may fully enjoy the vastness of the experience. Would you seek to be king or pauper? Would you seek to be intelligent or ignorant? Before you answer, consider all sides. Sure, at first one may see preferable, but in hindsight only the fullness of both offers the perfection of the journey. Having been both king and pauper, will allow you the benefit of contrasts so that all sides are part of the overall experience. Anything less would be less than perfect. Certainly there are hardships, but from these do come betterment. To enjoy a bountiful harvest having had so little before gives you a full and far reaching perspective gained only by the experience. Would you choose to see only half the picture? Certainly, half is not so beneficial. As you care to experience, so you have chosen the full experience.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

Worship each other dearly for the time of life gets shorter with each passing day. Live so that you have no regrets and that you've blessed all passers through your lives. As you've recently seen, time waits for no man. Life passes on and those who have regrets are left in their own misery. If true forgiveness and joy are factors of your days, you'll have no regrets in which to wallow. Be aware of your behaviors, that you judge them as you would have your life lived. You are as guilty as others; however, to the extent that you lessen your reasons for guilt, your days will be more peaceful. It is often advised that you should live only for today, but what if tomorrow comes? Will you have regrets based upon your actions of yesterday? I say that it would be better to live each day as if it were your last day, knowing full well that the chance to recompense will not be had.

How would you have lived today if it had been your last day? Would you be kind, thoughtful and forgiving? Would you be reckless and merely do as you please? Knowing that it was your last day, chances are that you would make it a day of quality and comfort, being more considerate of others. Surely you would not seek revenge upon the world. Would you wish for your legacy to be fraught with shame or love?

Surely there are those who choose to end it all with a big bang and take the lives of others in the process. Would you consider them to be fully rational? What makes a person so desperate that they take their own lives? As a sane person, you find this mindset impossible. However, to the one so overwhelmed with despair and hopelessness, it seems the only real option. The pain will only stop if death occurs and they are willing to stop the pain by whatever means necessary. For the vengeful ones, they are happy to bring others along for the ride. Misery does love company. Would you not agree?

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

What joy there is for those who have traversed the desert and come out the other side. How pleased are they for they know what lies on the other side. They have seen the purpose of the path and have weathered the storms needed to make them worthy to be on the side of life where teaching is the purpose. You cannot teach what you haven't learned. You cannot learn what you haven't been taught. Experience is the best teacher. So for the sacrifice, the result is well worth it. Many have traveled lightly, taking shortcuts along the way. For them, the lessons were easy as the tasks were simple. For those who do the work of God, the travels and trials are longer and more arduous. Your journey has not been light, at least as you have seen it. Surely many lessons are much worse. But what you have needed has been given you, enough that you are the broken vessel that I have needed you to be. You cannot be accepting if it is your nature to fight. Anger is never justified. It should never be your desire to change people, but to offer them the resources needed to get their questions answered. This is your task.

You have questions – I have answers. You are My mouthpiece for those who cannot hear for themselves. But, you say, there are so many others. I say to you, there are far more seekers than finders. The teachers are few, especially due to the rigorous requirements of the training. Who would choose to walk through the desert merely to be of service on the other side? Most would choose to be served rather than to serve. But, the few have chosen to serve and serve they shall. It is destiny and cannot be denied nor avoided. Have a look at the bios of those who have been called before you. Has it been easy for them? Have they not made the difficult lessons needed for growth? As with all masters, there are many lessons to learn and none come easily. If it were easy, it wouldn't be interesting. If Moses and the Israelites had simply taken a short walk over to the promised land, would you still be talking about it today? The interest of life is in the difficulties. Easy doesn't fascinate.

Please speak for Thy servants are listening...

The world is a special place as it is a place for specialness. It is the very haven for those who seek to enrich themselves, even at the expense of others. Greed takes a heavy toll and does blind the conscience of many. Its delusions allow the fallen to ever believe that what they do is justified. To be caught up in the game is to allow the game to control. At what point do you learn that all you want is not necessarily in your best interest? Cannot even the chosen ones fall under the guise of wisdom and wealth? Is there ever a point of satisfaction when enough is enough? Even with the acquired wisdom that with each rung on the ladder, satisfaction is never achieved at any level, the struggle for more continues. Eventually there must come an end to the struggle. An inevitable obstacle will fall upon the path of those who fail to be satisfied. It is at this point that a true life/value assessment begins. A good close look at the true value of things comes to pass which demonstrates always the futility of the struggle. It is the things given that bring the only satisfaction. The love of another, the beauty of nature – these are the givens that are so often overlooked and discounted. The struggle for a better life causes you most to miss your life. Not until most of your life has passed do you realize what really has value.
**GOD'S PEARLS OF WISDOM**

_1-_ _All is predestined and YOU can only choose the experience of it._

_2-_ _God will not foretell the future in specifics, as this would cause you to change your reactions._

_3-_ _In order to be one, you must be UNDone_ _._

_4-_ _You doubt because you can't, YET you can't because you doubt._

_5-_ _If you don't love it, lose it._

_6-_ _This is the root of all of your troubles – not the fear of God, but the fear that God is not._

_7-_ _You must see yourself as GOD, if you choose to be like GOD._

_8-_ _Feelings rule of thumb: stomach = fear; heart = love._

9-THE MIND IS A SADNESS FACTORY AND THE MAKER OF YOUR MISERY.

10-ONLY YOU CAN MAKE THE PERFECT IMPERFECT.

11-YOU CREATE MISERY WHERE THERE IS NONE.

_12-_ _Desire, true desire, is but a memory of something written in your plan._

_13-_ _Thinking is of man; knowing is of God._

14-LET GO AND LET GOD!

_15-_ _from your disillusionment comes desperation which greatly motivates you to do what you are called to do._

_16-_ _The shortcut to God: Close your mouth and open your mind._

_17-_ _Man assigns belief to that which he feels is true, but cannot explain. Belief is the gap filler between reality and illusion._

_18-_ _Religion is always one step removed from God._

_19-_ _Your purpose brings joy at the thought and ease in the performance._

_20-_ _You do know that you know._

_21-_ _If you fight everything, you will always have to fight for everything._

_22-_ _Destiny rules regardless of your pursuits!_

_23-_ _Judgment is the true root of all evil_ _._

_24-_ _Awareness is the key to a spiritual life._

_25-_ _Attitude greatly determines experience._

_26-_ _All dreams are for the benefit of others._

_27-_ _Do not be so attached to life that you feel you need to live in fear of losing it._

_28-_ _Hitting bottom allows you the unique perspective from which only ascension is possible._

_29-_ _Giving up IS NOT an option, but letting go is._

_30-_ _misery is very motivating._

_31-_ _Those_ _who share a common bond will be brought together – seemingly out of nowhere._

_32-_ _Never underestimate the magnitude of you._

_33-_ _Life is merely nothing, so go out and play._

_34-_ _There is no shorter route to disappointment than to try to live up to the world's standards._

_35-_ _Don't be dissatisfied with your dissatisfaction_ _._

36-YOU ARE EITHER LIVING A DREAM OR DREAMING A LIVING.

37-SEEK ALWAYS TO FIND A REASON TO PUT ONE FOOT IN FRONT OF THE OTHER.

_38-_ _Your brothers call to you and I shall see you through._

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The Scribe Described

This scribe did not intend to be, yet was somehow chosen. Destiny played its part, shifting me to we, from I to all. I have always had a great curiosity about God and had studied much on the subject, but my primary focus was my career. Learning about God took on a new twist when God inspired me to write the words heard. "Hearing" is not how the words actually come, for it is more of a "knowing." When the mind is quieted, the emptiness is filled with inspired knowledge.

I write as and when instructed, either with pen or keyboard. The vehicle does not matter, but the content is to be kept sacred. Always, I understand that I must keep the sanctity of the gift given. Regardless of my own judgments about the content, I understood that the content is not about or for me. The content is to be presented as received, for the benefit of those seeking to have their questions answered.

I cannot profess to be specially qualified, except that I am able to simply bring the words received to print. My credentials really do not offer credence to the work, except that they are verifiable and do demonstrate the normality of my life. I do hold degrees in accounting and education and have thirty years business experience.

K. C. Boone

