

#  Conspiracy Science and Religious Heresy II

#  Blood, Rust & Worms

####  Attila Vincent

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####   **Table of Contents:**

Introduction

Chapter 1 – Prophets, Philosophers, and Gurus

Chapter 2 – The Metaphysical Underpinnings

Chapter 3 – The Truth about You and the Light

Chapter 4 – Suffering and Self Correction

Chapter 5 – Navigating the Waters

Chapter 6 – The Logic of Transcendence

Chapter 7 – We All Have Tales

Chapter 8 – The Riddle

Chapter 9 – The Voice

Chapter 10 – Inner Technology

Chapter 11 – Space and Time as an Impressionable Fabric

Chapter 12 – Near Death School

Chapter 13 – Clairvoyance and Instincts

Chapter 14 – Change at the Speed of Light

Chapter 15 – Birth, Death, and Rebirth

Chapter 16 – Blood, Rust, and Worms

# Conspiracy Science and Religious Heresy II - Blood, Rust, and Worms

There is a Metaphysical Consciousness like a Fabric and Spirit Component which Transcends the Physical Matrix we know as Reality; which is not subject to De-coherence and Entropy. Beyond the reach of Worms and Rust – is the Truth and Light behind our material Blood existence.

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**Introduction:**

This is not a story book. If it were; it would strive to be a story about reality. I can also say without reservation, that the story would exceed the limits of fantasy and be beyond the value of a mere tale. This tale; is the tale of Life.

The facts surpass the fantasy upon closer scrutiny of reality – once you factor in how we experience it. The real detective work is just beginning with the bold realization that the ultimate technology (if you could call it that), is you and I – or the Observer. The entire riddle of life and existence is a self contained phenomenon. There is enough evidence to choke a dinosaur; and convince even the least amongst us – if we dare to look.

That having been stated; each one of us contains the answer - as well as the means to discern it. Each "individuation" of life is an "Image" or "Likeness" or "Fractal Hologram" of Life – depending on which terminology one chooses to employ. The exercise and talent is to be found in the verbal charades we employ to describe something which defies description – from our individual portal of observation.

Oops! I just gave something away! Alright - here is a clue to cipher on; and a question worthy of pondering. What I am doing – just might explain what I am! What I am looking with – just might be what I'm looking at – and visa-versa!

And here is the question I would really like you to consider. What if I could more fully interact with it? What if I am actually in a round-a-bout way – the principle operator at a distance? What if I am in fact – the "ghost in the machine" that I seek and quest for without cessation throughout the eternal cycles of existence? What if "I" am the answer?

A near death experience confirms that this seemingly bizarre delusion of spirit continuance is not a fantasy for the participant. I can vouch for some of the effects of the near death experience being more than a hallucination first hand. I experienced no fear, and felt a super clarity, a strong reassuring loving presence, and received an education while "walking between the worlds." These are all common facts of near death experiences. So are increased incidents of clairvoyance thereafter.

If you find such beliefs "too heavy" or "too weird" to consider; just realize that virtually "every" spiritual belief system is based on the notion of spirit continuance. To disregard the possibility can only be done by one who can wholeheartedly deny any spiritual epiphany, belief system, or significance associated with the notion of a Creator.

We might also include the general considerations outside spirituality, of the paranormal and supernatural. It is a fairly large assumption, either way you look at it. Whether you deny or accept the existence of a Creator – you are making a rather profound assumption.

Spirit continuance could also be experientially supported by those of us who swear we have had some contact with a departed loved one from the other side. More than a few of us have felt the presence of a loved one from beyond the barrier of third dimensional reality. I have felt the presence of the departed; as I am sure many of you have. Some just don't recognize it.

Given the near death experiences, the repeatedly manifest delusion of the existence of a Supreme Being by religion, the communications from beyond, various acts of clairvoyance, and the newly developing picture scientifically speaking – how could we not conclude that we "vibe on" after we shed our physical shell.

They tell us that the Universe is made essentially of "information" distributed as "matter" and "energy." They tell us that this matter and energy is never destroyed; but merely changes states – that the information remains.

There is no more tactile and indestructible energy, than the energy of life. That energy first and foremost is conscious. If anything can survive changing states – it is the principle operator and self generator of life itself.

So what does this mean to you and me in layman's terms? It means everything! It means that how I feel about life, and how I experience it – writes the program. It doesn't seem to react fast enough to yield immediate personal gratification (notions of Karma and reaping what we sow) – but it is without a doubt how it works given the available evidence. You end up "there."

This speaks volumes about our value to the program – rather than giving a value to our individual self gratification and our ego based concept of ourselves. We are all important – but it isn't about us – which is a unique novel new view! A better one I suspect. The proof would be in how this new view would serve us – and our conscious evolution into adulthood. The resulting possibilities would definitely rate as food for thought.

I'm not saying that science is totally wrong; they just missed an initial input which skewed the results. That forgotten input, is the fundamental primordial element of all matter, energy, and of the consciousness with which to reckon with it. The premise of life has been factored out of the equation by academia. The most vital and tactile essence of life itself has been overlooked; the one "looking."

Reductionists, those who feel that every component of our experience can be reduced to a scientific principle of matter; fail to address the writing of the program they are attempting to decipher. Everything is always attributed to the mystery of nature which is then never explored.

If you get what I am saying; and try to meditate with pure intentions – you will get results. There are many of us who can verify this as a fact. The point to consider is – no select method is required. Any way you can understand and feel this energy – will lend itself to your ability to experience it. And once you do; you realize the point of life is just this experience. To secure your metaphysical link to your spiritual address should be a required component of all religious endeavours. Yet it is not!

Toss your misconceptions and inhibitions aside for a short while and consider what you might have viewed as mystical, esoteric, and ancient misconceptions, and as impossible; long enough to learn the truth........I double-dog-dare you! The experiential proof is there for the taking – it always has been – perhaps we are finally ready to reckon with it.

I welcome you on a tour of advanced metaphysical concepts; one that is not promoted in the mainstream sciences, standard faiths, or society at large. This information has always been deemed taboo and branded esoteric, occult, and misunderstood; but the fact remains that it has always been sought out by whole hearted spiritual thrill seekers – especially the most revered in the texts which are used to deny it.

The bulk of the prophets, seers, sages, gurus, clairvoyants, and tribal shaman, already know what I mean; since they all actively practiced what I hope to educate others about. I discovered the "gist" of this theory by studying cutting edge science. I "gleaned" a peek of it in spiritual study of all belief systems for content. But then I found the meat and potatoes of it; through near death experiences – and what is called "walking between the worlds." In other words; I don't merely think we don't die – I know so.

The mystery of Nature; is the Spirit organizing the information. The Metaphysical information everything is based upon – is like the Hyper Text Mark-up Language around a webpage on your computer screen. The subtle as always; instructs the gross – the immaterial – the material.

"The Hyper Text Mark-up Language of Life" can be best understood by getting a simple understanding of webpage design. For a look at what I mean, go on your computer and go to any webpage on the internet. When the page comes up, where it says "Firefox" or whatever you use (in the top left hand corner), click the arrow for the drop box. Then select "web developer" and then select "view source page." It takes about a minute to gather what I mean by this, when you see how the visible part of the page conceals the mountain of information which went into creating it – yet remains hidden. All around what you read on the page; are countless written instructions which format and organize the information, otherwise it wouldn't be grouped sensibly.

When you do this – it shows you how the invisible instructions around what we see on a web page; generates the visible part. This is what I mean by this – our reality works in very much the same way. The HTML (hyper text mark-up language) around our physicality is Spirit; but you have to understand what "Spirit" really means.

Spirit is sentient, non-physical, non-localized consciousness - it is just you and I and our ancestors in metaphysical form. Emotion and feelings are a self generator, they just always are, which then makes complete sense of it all I might suggest. They are the ongoing act of Creation. What we are based on never dies. Just as matter and energy can never be destroyed and merely change states; we changes states, dimensions, cross a barrier, move to a higher vibrational frequency, go home, meet our Creator – or whatever you see this as.

If I actually realize my existence and conscious experience in it is not a fluke, and serves a higher purpose as an integral part of a greater totality or boundary state – I immediately grow up. I grow up in all respects, or as the Buddha expressed it; I awaken to the true nature of reality, and I do my level best not to harm any other creature. I still eat and cause a certain amount of harm by design – for which I immediately become grateful and give thanks, knowing that all life is a cycle.

What is around me – is me. What is inside me – is everything. You are not only a part of a totality, you are a fractal hologram, or image if you prefer; of the totality self contained. We are very special; nobody really tells us that or explains it properly.

My motivation for writing stems from knowing how this takes place a little. If I can empower a few people to realize how special life is, and how special every occasionally misguided one of us really is individually – I do a service to the greater boundary state we are all a part and parcel of.

I don't profess to be an expert, or to know it all. I do however feel that I know enough to share what I do know about how it works, and let you work the rest out. The entire process is sort of geared that way. The information is not solely my own, it comes to all of us as intelligible light we all share and shape. I just connected some much needed dots, and now hope to impart or convey the gist of an alternate way to look at things.

Once you catch on, and it is natural; you won't need to wonder what is true or not – because like they say, the truth will set you free. Many people, more and more every day, are "getting this." We can all then teach each other "Empowerment 101" and benefit exponentially. This is not only the truth, but how it works! Dig in and enjoy, it is from the heart.

The real definition of spirituality as merely the belief of spirit continuance in some way, shape, or form, is more agreeable to most parties. The real definition has little to do with a fictional spooky father figure on a throne, a selective path, grovelling, giving money, so on and so forth. There is much validity to the notion of spirit continuance, or life after death as it is commonly called. There are also many falsehoods about how this actually works, which has resulted from a deficit of empowering information.

I am driven to explain the indescribable truth behind spirituality as a result of my independent research, the very real results I get from free-style meditation, and a few near death experiences which confirmed transcendence. Most of us have been convinced by academia that these are chemical and electrical imbalances and most likely hallucinations.

We have been conditioned by society (school, church, and so on) to disregard these considerations as false and unreal. I can prove to anyone with an open mind, and a memory of their experiences, what a blatant falsehood the denial of these metaphysical properties this is. Once you get that – you get proof. We all experience them. Most of us remember them. We are just hard wired to deny or rationalize them away. This is why we don't remember dreams as much when we grow older – we subconsciously rationalize them away and erase them.

Things like "feeling a vibe" when walking into a room, or sensing the presence of a loved one who has crossed the barrier, clairvoyance, prophecy, déjà-vu, karma, synchronicity, and about a million other such effects are commonplace.

A good example is how people who call this line of thought impossible and too fantastic, have stories to the contrary. I have often encountered people who claim to have seen a ball of light in the sky, or felt the presence of a departed loved one, or other such clairvoyant experiences with one breath; while calling any belief in metaphysical properties of consciousness "hooey" with the next breath! (Like an atheist who says; "thank god.")

I have no problem dispelling this myth; having experienced metaphysical consciousness – but personal experience is difficult to convey to another. My near death experiences were the "no heartbeat kind" - the real McCoy. Science and medicine claim that without a heartbeat there are no brainwaves (alpha, beta, delta, or theta), and no evidence of physical consciousness. Flat lined – literally. Don't believe the hype!

The key is to view this as evidence. Rather than dispel the notion because a physical test fails to detect this – we should consider it proof of non-physical (metaphysical) conscious existence. We don't currently have any meters with which to measure properties of this nature. This "continued consciousness story" is a pretty consistent theme for people who survive mortal trauma. In other words - the likelihood that we are all having the same hallucination (one medical science claims you can't be having), is a lousy wager at best!

As a point to debate; one merely needs to decide whether to believe the people who have actually experienced perishing physically, yet remaining conscious; versus those who have never experienced this and who vehemently deny it because to be frank – it shakes their tree too much.

The only proof of intangible forces is found experientially; by the act of witnessing or the power of observation as it is called. Scientifically this would be akin to the principle of validating an invisible force or condition by the effects it causes; like observing a black hole for example. Or magnetism observed by metal fillings showing the invisible fields from a magnet through a piece of paper as another example.

There are countless examples of forces and properties we can only see through their effects – so what I propose really isn't that outlandish. To verify what I am trying to impart to you can only be done by seeking knowledge outside the mainstream – and experiencing the esoteric truth behind existence first hand for yourself. Through the effects, as it were.

This book is for those inquisitive brave souls who are willing to expend mind and heart to seek the truth, and then apply themselves to some new age and old age methods to connect to the metaphysical repository of all emotion and information. I found all this out "free-style" - so I hope to have you consider that the greatest gift costs no money, and doesn't reside in any single belief system. All the belief systems or religions if you will; are merely records of this fantastic truth. It isn't what you believe, so much as how. What is in your heart is what matters – not the façade.

For those who already occasionally access their inner child in any way shape or form; I trust that I am able to adequately convey an accurate theory which quantifies and validates these spiritual phenomena without negating common sense. I hope to inspire open-mindedness through validation. Real validation for spiritual beliefs after all is a rare commodity.

For those with no such foundational underpinnings linking them to their inner child; I trust that I may provide an accurate theory to enable them to consider it without negating common sense. I hope to inspire participation through validation. Real consideration of our spirit component is also too rare.

Some of you will forever be changed by this Esoteric, Alchemical, Metaphysical, and Shamanic foray into mysticism – or so I hope. I found out some really cool stuff to share with you – I hope you get the gist of it.

The difficulty factor in attempting to express such a totality of knowledge from my individual portal using mere words was insurmountable – so kindly excuse any shortcomings. We are very small, the concept we call God is very large.

The proverbial Tree of Knowledge was about our conscious evolution from a mere beast, to the knowledge seeking beings on a quest we are now. The Tree of Life shares a root – and another forbidden fruit beckons us. This time we shall eagerly munch the forbidden fruit, and dive headfirst in the waters of life, naked and unashamed.

I welcome and invite you to leap into unknown waters – only to resurface with critical information to share with the tribe in hand. I offer my humble attempt to effect change in same. My wish is that my information will empower you beyond what you would have deemed possible a few scant pages prior to being exposed to my "bent." If so – I did my job.

As always; Wellness, Truth, and Love for All................

Attila – the Mad Hungarian

#### 1- Prophets, Philosophers & Gurus

Good Prophets, Philosophers, and Gurus are not as rare as you think. You are one! The various Sages and Seers and deep thinkers were merely extremely good at contemplating their navel; as it is often referred to. Professional navel gazing yields results! If we chose to enter this realm in a serious manner – we become a voice with which to channel these experiences to others.

What you have to dispel to understand this; is the notion that only special people in the remote past were capable of such feats. Nothing could be farther from the truth; the act of Creation is an act of evolution and is an ongoing evolving matrix – and not a thing that happened only once long ago. It is always going on, as long as there is life with which to experience it.

Along with experiencing life, comes the reckoning of how it feels. Life; contrary to what we have been told is not about facts, figures, deadlines, material things, ego, domination, or explosions – it is entirely about how you feel about it. The point of life itself is the experience. The significance of the journey exceeds the destination.

So if you can accept that how you feel plays a fundamental role in not only your experience, but at a higher level into how life unfolds, the things that seemed confusing will start to click into place - things like – karma. You reap what you sow, what goes around comes around, bad juju, fate, and so on; all denote this mysterious fact of life we know is true – but holds no place in logical scientific consideration. Big mistake!

Like I stated to begin with; if you can accept the premise that how you negotiate life is as important (if not more so) than the physical bumps, rolls, and bruises – then the best teacher in the world is one who contemplates life deeply. A Good Prophet, Philosopher, or Guru – is such a person. You can tell by the dumb little sayings they come up with; that totally reek of the truth of our experience.

Being ahead of the curve however has always held the same danger, which of course is persecution. These enlightened navel contemplators take a beating or worse, for taking an alternate route. Let me give you an example, at the upper scale.

A Buddhist might have another take on the Jesus story. To a devout Buddhist this was about discovering the true nature of reality. It was stated that when the Buddha became enlightened; he had grasped the true nature of reality. The meaning and purpose of life itself was this understanding. In other religious belief systems it is an awakening to some form of understanding that what we call God is indeed "everywhere."

I have heard some freethinking Buddhists comment quite accurately how this same epiphany describes our favourite Prophet in the western belief system. The only difference is how we handled it!

Jesus also connected to, and discovered the true nature of reality; (and was perhaps as mystics claim – the best student of the Sacred Mystery Schools.....ever!) – And tried to tell the others about what he had discovered........and we killed him for it! I'm sorry for the blackened toes; but all Jesus did was discover the riddle of life just like the Buddha or almost any other prophet you can name did.

That has no bearing on the significance for those who might take offense to this view – once you get that they were all trying to tell us the same thing. It just doesn't make one prophet better than another or one religion better than another, and I dare say; or one human more worthy than another. This corrective lens is required to begin to understand our experience.

If you require proof; reconsider what your favourite Prophet told you (pick one). They all tried to teach us that nobody is better than anybody else. The first thing we were to understand was the value of every single being. Plant that seed firmly – because it is the undisputed truth. So what else were we told – universally?

You don't die! Every prophet worth his salt also realized this hidden aspect to our physical existence – that it is based on "immaterial existence." The gimmick is that non-physical life, or spirit if you will; is an ever present always existent property because it is what the venue for life as we know it now is constructed from. The instructions for life are a far greater more permanent life which evolves through these biological expressions we call ourselves.

Religion if reduced to only two basic elements; revolves around the notion that every individuation is equal to and related to each other (everything as a fundamental Oneness) – and that we don't die as we generally define it consciously. We are different, but the same; and consciousness is an ever present and eternal component of life.

Look at it this way – as odd as it might initially seem, and the rest will fall into place. Assume for a moment that life (defined as conscious experience) is everywhere; non-physically. Consider that long before "physical life" – "metaphysical life" was always there and got bored. Infinity and Eternity are a long time in a big place; or a small one.

This is the mystery behind religion and what most of what we call Prophets were trying to tell us. But what you have to remember is that those Prophets were flesh and blood people just like you - who realized the true construction, nature, and purpose of life. They were just people who figured it out, and tried to tell us. It is the physical display which is the rare expression of the ghost in the machine.

What we are experiencing is a rare evolving physical expression of that eternal consciousness. Physical life is the gift of the universe; to itself. Life does not have to be physical is what I am saying. Conscious life is all around us – although invisible to our material senses. But; not to our metaphysical senses which you also posses as a physical being – due to your construction. How we are made and develop exposes this seldom considered truth. I trust that I helped to place Prophets in perspective as versions of you and me who solved the riddle of life from their individuation.

Now I would like to briefly examine Philosophy in a new light. Philosophy is this same quest to solve the same riddle – by means of expression of our experience in verbs. These verbs if expressed properly resonate with us. If they do – that is philosophy.

There are too many philosophical expressions to delve into here given the constraints of room and patience. There are thousands for every emotion and experience in life. Philosophy is the quest to describe experience, rather than define it. A Philosopher just verbalizes or writes about how it feels instead of why.

Let me go even farther out on this limb I'm on and call philosophy what it most obviously is – the "science" of how we "feel" about our quest to experience and define life. The Prophets told us what is really going on here – and the Philosophers told us how it feels. They are both defining and describing experience. This leaves Gurus. One might say a Guru and a Prophet are similar without deeper examination – but there is a huge difference in not only status (one is perceived as it could be me and one is perceived as not me) - but there is also a difference in delivery.

A Prophet generally expends their efforts trying to explain and make us see what they do – their vision if you will. A Guru is more like a bad psychiatrist – but in a good way. What a Guru does is just like what a "shrink" does - they make you figure it out rather than trying to explain it to you.

Anything you ask of a Guru is returned as a question; just like the psychiatrist does. If you ask a Guru; "What is God?" – He returns the question to you and might ask; "What do you think God is?" Rather than explain it to you, because he knows you can't get it that way; a Guru knows that this is a realization you must make for yourself. The Guru knows the only hope is merely helping to guide you to make this fundamental realization about the nature of reality for yourself.

This is why the title of Guru carries a stigma as a joker of sorts in the western belief systems. He doesn't actually tell you "squat" and makes you do your own footwork and psychic battle. A Guru "gets" that this is experiential and the only road to make you what you study. A Guru is a teacher who teaches the same thing as a Prophet in a different way. The end result if not the method employed is identical.

The notion that one or the other is false – is false; if you'll pardon my pun-age. And here is the other difference to reiterate; a Guru is just like you or I and not a "special different person." They are special for what they figured out and not in their construction. What I am saying is that at some point – all Prophets, Philosophers, and Gurus; experienced life just like you and I as physical beings subject to pain, suffering, and mortality as we know it. I would have to place the Prophets who sacrificed "skin in the game" above those who explain, teach, and make a science of this same pursuit.

My point is this; Jesus, Mohammed, Buddha, and countless other prophets were not physically special. They were "consciously special" in that they were evolved earlier or in advance of the rest of us. Remember Jesus telling his disciples that what he was and what he could do; was what we would evolve to become and do – and more! It was a peek at the future.

All the Prophets said the same thing is what I am saying, and it was for a reason. Not to exclude you from the equation. Organized religion just doesn't get that – and pretty much never did. The old way to consider spirituality was from the outside externally – rather than to view yourself as a participant and fundamental component. You get no self value or self worth or sadly, no self empowerment from those outdated concepts. As a result of this confused perspective we give little self worth to others either, unfortunately.

If the point of life is experience; wouldn't spirituality also be something we are to experience as physical mortal entities? The true nature of faith, like the true nature of reality is not a fact, figure, or concept – it is a feeling which is only obtainable experientially. You can't just learn about it.

A Prophet experienced the Creator through Creation; and did their level best in every case to tell us about it. They tried to tell us it was true – and that we are all part and parcel of each other as brothers and sisters – who do not perish consciously after this physical trial. The trials and tribulations of life become fuel for this experiential lesson of physical 3rd dimensional experience for someone who really understands this point. These are the fuels for the lesson.

If you go back and study what your favourite Prophet tried to tell you (again pick one), with this consideration – pretty much everything which was mysterious and not understood meaningfully.........becomes profound. I see that as a good thing! Once the true nature of reality is gleaned in almost any fashion (the ways are many), that we are all One at some higher conscious level, and we don't cease consciously – the things all Prophets told us are valuable tools to realize and self experience Spirit. Not just read about it, have someone else tell you what it means, and think you can't connect to it as a puny mortal physical being.

The facts are; nobody can "die for you," we all get to do that for ourselves. Everyone "dies" for everybody else – to make the blueprint of the energy we are made of evolve. And just like life - it is all about how you face it. No one can experience your life for you – if ever there was a ridiculous premise it is the commonly accepted one that it is a sin or wrong to experience spirituality through all teachings and avenues available. If you re-read Bibles with such a mind-set, the confusion over meaning is reduced to a common theme in all of them. Point made; that applies to Prophets as well.

Philosophy is our collective effort to express how we feel about this difficult lesson as a verbal art form. The thing which warrants giving philosophy a higher value than we give it currently are the previous points - the fact that life is actually about how you feel about it. The proof is the undeniable truth in the realizations about life made by philosophers. Things we all agree on as true; but have no basis in fact or reality. Get ready for the new paradigm, because the newly developing picture in science is starting to generate such a possibility!

For but one example; a Philosopher will tell us that time is malleable consciously, and that it either drags on interminably, or that it fleets by - depending on whether your consciousness is dreadful or anticipatory. Time flying by when you are having fun for instance, or dragging on if you have a detention in school, or if it is the last half hour at work approaching quitting time.

Feeling someone watching you, or getting a vibe when you walk into a room, and experiencing Karma are often topics of philosophy. Oddly enough they are also the topics of Gurus and Prophets if you look at it just a bit differently. Those feelings which are common to us all and resonate with truth yet have no foundation in the standard models of how we view our lives – are Spirit – properly defined.

This is a baby step towards experiencing what has been described by others. The emotions and feelings you experience are all around you – you just have the given free will to draw from them what you will. Anything being possible is not so fantastic in a venue, or matrix, or grand signal, which contains all of the possibilities as a totality. We call that God.

God as we call this; is the sum total of all conscious experience as an uppermost single boundary state. God as we call this; is the repository and record of all experience as a developing body. God as we call this; is by default – the "In and Of everything" we were told He was - as a factual property. The Beginning and End, First and Last, the Logos, and the Eternal Self Generator – of all Reality and Experience. It is not a "thing" or an old fart on a throne, or a spooky father figure, as depicted in the dogmas of organized religion.

The reason I write this stuff; is because of what you can do with the knowledge which cascades into your individual reality to generate experience and connect to – once the foundational underpinnings are understood. Once you do – you start to envision these metaphysical properties and processes at work, and you automatically begin the work of participating. That is where the real work happens – and the real fun begins.

Just don't underrate your favourite Prophets, Philosophers, and Gurus. And most of all don't underestimate yourself, or the possibility that life actually has value and meaning – unlike science and the organized religions tend to tell us in their standard forms.

All deviations are acceptable, participation is mandatory, and you have an "Image" of the Holographic Conscious Totality we call God – inside you. It ain't weird to go find it, or to consider it could exist. Just be realistic about it – and make an effort to experience it – and have some reverence for life. Next; let us investigate the metaphysical underpinnings of physical life itself.   

#### 2 – The Metaphysical Underpinnings

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A brief review regarding what the science tells us about the sub-strata behind the nature of reality is in order. Something we can't see is doing something we don't understand - to oversimplify. What we see - isn't how it really is. Reality in atomic terms is very hollow. Time is not an immutable arrow; but is Relative – as Einstein proved. Science (although it denies it vehemently) - exposes the Metaphysical Underpinnings which indicate design. And you know what they say; "design" implies a "designer."

The Subtle instructs the Gross. The Invisible minutia of reality structures the Visible. The Metaphysical property of Consciousness – is the ethereal blueprint for the physical property of Matter. Metaphysical Laws govern Physical Existence. A quick review of this principle is in order.

Starting at the sub-atomic; we have a shared field of vibrating strings (string theory) of which all sub-atomic structure is formed. These "strings" are mere vibratory resonances of space/time itself; folded onto themselves at certain harmonics. Yes; you could easily define that as "Word." All matter, at the most elementary levels is this vibrating, non-local, outside space/time, metaphysical energy (super-positioned, multidimensional and so on and so forth). Everything is really made of a better defined "nothing."

The atoms themselves are like tiny balls of space/time when viewed this way; as are galaxies at a larger slice of the fractal. They make a dimple in the fabric they are embedded in - and make a dent in space/time in order to exist. Atoms are just a boundary state made from a seamless fabric. A fabric of consciousness would complete the equation; but for now let's stick to atoms.

Atomic structure is rife with hints about the true nature of reality – we just can't fit the results into categories we currently accept. In Particle Accelerators, and Colliders; we learn some mind boggling truth about what we thought to be a "steady-state classical world view" of reality. Things are not as they appear! Quantum Physics taught us that simply stated; what we see – is not really how it is!

The smashed particles are doing things we have not been able to come to grips with! The accelerated particles time travel. The bits can occupy more than one position at once. The smashed bits can form tiny black holes which then disappear. They can exceed the speed of light. These bits can only be measured by either Time, or by Location – but never both. The scientists can predict where they will appear, but not when - and inversely when they will appear, but not where. They are in some instances behaving as dots and as waves simultaneously!

These particles can also flip inside out and become waves – depending on whether you observe them or not. The stuff reality is made of is pretty weird stuff – no matter how you slice it, dice it, or interpret it.

Nikola Tesla claimed that what we viewed as a "steady-state reality" was actually a cascade of photons replacing each other so quickly that it appears steady and solid. He claimed that everything in the universe was blinking in and out of existence as we know it; at frequencies and vibrations beyond our scope of detection. He was correct of course.

Just consider what holds an atom together, and lends it to self organize, emit radiation like a star, and spin like the dickens (approx .9 times light speed). These answers are not provided in the current models because it doesn't fit with our outdated view. They fall under the guise of the mystery of Nature. Alright I think I rattled the cage about atomic structure enough for now. All I have suggested and more; are just the tip of the sub-atomic iceberg – when you study the data – reality is not so real until you interpret it.

The Biology has the same problems in the standard models - unexplained self-organization being a big one. The non-local nature of the cohesive consciousness which assembles and guides the biology is another. In other words; how does biological life communicate with itself and each other – and how is this information maintained non- physically, or metaphysically, if you will. Because there is no denying that this does take place – it becomes a question of how? We call that the mystery of Nature; when it is in fact proof of how we are constructed and how we operate.

Just as atoms seem to be linked by a vibratory field of information beyond our perception – so are biological entities. This applies biologically from the molecules, proteins, and DNA, and cells from which we are constructed in the form of instructions and communications of a metaphysical nature. In other words; what instructs the biology? Because whatever conscious organizational effort constitutes evolution, instincts, and the mind of Nature – it is without a doubt maintained and communicated beyond each individual experience.

Rupert Sheldrake calls this "thing" the Morphogenetic Field and explains it for example; as what tells a rabbit, how to be a rabbit – from the information how to construct the creature – right through to how it behaves in the environment. It is the inherent non-physical memory complex behind physical existence. Nature, instincts, and evolution quantified in a nutshell for those who will consider it. No more "mystery pile."

The Tribal peoples and Shaman generally understood this principle in its most basic forms with the notion of; the Spirit of Bear, the Spirit of Eagle, the Spirit of Man, and an over all Great Spirit often referred to as Manitou – a Totality of Spirit. Don't mock your ancestors too quickly – they were technically correct, even if not technically oriented.

Room and time limit my discussion; but it should suffice to say – that all Life including the physical display of biological physical life – reflects the process it is embedded in. This process is one of conscious evolution through the sharing of experience beyond the boundary-state of each individuation.

The proof of this is found by the solving of the mystery of nature as metaphysical information which is shared on all levels – even the biological. Biology acts like insects in a hive in this respect sub-consciously – but the information is transferred metaphysically. All DNA being a single eco-system in a reality constructed of a single fabric, from a shared matrix of information – not only makes sense; it bears out when we scrutinize the data.

Now let us briefly consider consciousness as an element, and not merely a by-product of atomic and biological process, inexplicably compounded into further complexity. A quick way to grasp this idea is to consider some rather simple, albeit large notions. Just ask yourself at a deeper level; "Why is there Life – at all?" Why did all this fantastic complexity self organize in the first place? Why a Big Bang? Why atomic cohesion and self organization took place – and better yet how it communicated as a whole?

And back on point; did the all the above, and the biology, and consciousness to experience it – just happen by chance? That alone, my inquisitive associate - is a question worth pondering. Again; why is there life at all – in the first place? The answer is obvious to all but those who are easily amused, egotistically distracted, materialist, and the least amongst us. The very first element – was consciousness! It had to be.

So the consciousness you experience as your individual life – is exposed as nothing more than a boundary-state, or portal from which to observe and experience, and as evidenced – a vessel to evolve a greater consciousness – a conscious cell of a greater conscious body – not a physical one. You are an Aspect, and Intention, and Observational Individuation, of an eternally existent property, or element.

The Guru in our previous chapter knew this; to backtrack ever so slightly to make a point. The Guru knows this is an illusion of sorts – because every single being perceives itself as the center of the experience – in a perpetual moment. This conscious dilemma of each separate individual, actually believing this perceptive deficit is true - is our Veil. It is not possible – in other words. Each one of the many of us – is actually what could be called; "the many of us."

Conceptually; it is not possible for each individual to factually hold this perpetual center in an unending moment. Not unless you think you are the only one who truly exists. I can't "feel" my center from "you" – but even a half-wit should realize that you feel just like I do about my experience – generally speaking. This applies from the lowly insect, to every life form up to our scale and beyond – everything feels the same about their experience. They, we, and I; all take this central position, in what can only be considered a shared reality. Problem solved – at least consciously.

This illusory viewpoint can only mean one thing – consciously. We are all the same entity – distributed as many – in a conscious perpetual moment. Translation; each individuation is a morsel of a greater whole or body - consciously, just temporarily not physically. Consciously we are a fractal hologram of a metaphysical information matrix. This is how life self organizes and communicates this evolution. The mystery of Nature is Universal Soul. We are as cells in the Universal conscious body.

Consciousness and Spirit if understood properly are interchangeable as a process of education. In plain English – your Spirit, or Soul, is your consciousness – which is by in large; a metaphysical component. A Component that has always existed; an All Seeing Eye, Creator as Creation, an All, an Is-ness, Universal Soul, the I Am That I Am, or what ever title serves you will do. Just grasp what it is and what that really means.

Cosmically this same gambit can be exposed at the upper level of the fractal. Every Galaxy, Star, Planet, Moon, rock, and spec of cosmic dust; came from a single point to express it simply. Whether you come to grips with this through any brand of religious belief system, or through scientific principle alone – the conclusion is unanimous. It all came from one point, place, and/or thing, no matter what or how you believe, or how you cipher.

This helps us grasp what life is and what it means – as stated earlier – at the upper level of the fractal. It also reflects how it works – and the likely implications. I repeat; this is proof that everything, and everyone – is a fractal or individual reflection of the initial force. It is consciously that we are Fractal, an Image, a Likeness, or represented process. The many are formed from Oneness.

The atoms we are made of, the biological processes we enjoy, the consciousness with which we experience life, and the cosmos in which we are embedded – are not all separate as we were taught...............they are One Thing. So to consider that it might be capable of "deliberate communication" as well as this automatic process; is anything but silly – don't believe the dogma. This speaks volumes about our potential, our value, and the reason we exist. It also explains why at a fundamental level; nothing ever really is born or dies at a more inclusive harmonic or reflection of this conscious totality.

Let me stretch the boundaries of what you thought possible for the remainder of this chapter – armed with this knowledge you were denied.

You have the potential to heal yourself and those around you; if you so desire. You can indeed manipulate that which you are made from. It doesn't mean concrete isn't hard, or that death is immutable – but it does mean you can affect it. And oddly enough this takes place only once you realize it doesn't matter if you do!

When you understand that even your physical survival doesn't affect your spiritual survival (your transcendent nature), all of a sudden you can begin the work of affecting your survival. This also works on those around us. When we radiate this knowledge as Light around ourselves – we illuminate others. This resonates and reflects back and generates an interference pattern – which is a wave effect.

I have some inside information about how this works to share with you. We always wish for dumb things. We always wish to win a lottery for ourselves, or for our boss's ass to fry, or for that sexually appealing partner to submit fully, and so on and so forth. To summarize – we wish for stuff for ourselves. We blow it because we don't get it; so we assume what I am saying couldn't work.

The secret is that you can't "Wish" for yourself. You have to genuinely wish for everyone else to win the lottery, or for everyone's boss to take a hike, or for everyone to be loved and happy – rather than for ourselves. If "everybody did that" everybody would get the benefit. Consciousness is a reflective process. It has to be applied selflessly to others in the hopes that it will be reflected back. We currently don't get that.

You can't bless yourself is what this implies. When you give thanks properly it isn't for you – it is for others. I can give you a historical sample if you are familiar with the life and work of Edgar Cayce – if not you owe yourself an education about one of the most remarkable men in our recent history. My point is that Edgar Cayce, as amazing as he was; was not able to heal and help himself (in the end). Either that or he wouldn't.

Edgar Cayce (also known as the sleeping prophet) had a well documented history of going into a subconscious trance state in order to accurately diagnose and give remedies to patients. Even those remotely located! He would cure people who had fallen between the cracks of conventional diagnosis – with a sort of psychic reading. He had no recollection of what he had said during the reading after awakening from his trance. Mr. Cayce was also over 99% right; which still remains unexplained with well over 1400 readings. All that being said; he was not built to direct it on himself – it seems as if nobody can.

The power of consciousness is in selflessness; because the underpinnings of consciousness are Love. This is why it works better when you wish for the well being of others. It is like karma; only stronger. I would also like to share an aspect of this most have overlooked. The turn around time for karma, or the notion of reaping what you sow – is getting faster too! The self correction which will result from this will likely save our collective asses.

This speeding up of conscious development is taking place all around us. In a few years our knowledge doubles now, in excess of that which took us a thousand years to gain prior. The previous cycles were even slower. In the last scant few thousand years we developed more consciously than we did for hundreds of thousands of years. Just over a hundred years ago flying in an airplane was merely a dream – now we fly into space on a regular basis and air flight is commonplace. Alright enough said; not many people would dispute my claim that knowledge compounds faster and faster, in shorter and shorter cycles. Where will it take us?

The efforts of our applied consciousness will have more effects on physical reality; and we will likely begin to author the program more deliberately and efficiently. We will start to "tap into" that which is always "tapped into" us. This is big information.

You see; we have always been affecting things more than we thought possible; but like the other cycles it was slower. The Monks called it "Kama" and not Karma for this reason – turn around time. The notion of Kama is rooted in reincarnation; the idea is that you pay for your failures in your next incarnation. In other words – the "next you" pays for, or reaps the benefit of the "previous you." This is true in most respects; the part we don't grasp is that the "previous us" and the "next us" is one and the same – which it is.

So let me return to clarifying the gift of understanding I wish to impart to you directly. Karma is going faster too! When you are selfish and self motivated by ego, greed, and materialism, and choose to dominate others – brace for the impact. The fan and the flung poop are getting closer. When you do like I said earlier instead; and wish well for others in the heart of the universal consciousness, and give of yourself and do good – the same effect will return the benefit faster.

What this will do; is educate those who we might call "the sleeping ones." Those who fail to consider these principles of their own conscious free will and free choice; will start to be physically taught the lesson. If you feed it – you'll eat it; and remember why! And my point is it will start to take place at noticeably increased speed. It will force the needed course corrections which will hopefully guide our survival. It is an immune response.

So I really am an optimist – I'm betting we get our proverbial "poop in a group" in short order. If I am wrong – it won't much matter the way things are going. We are just as likely in the opposite extreme of destroying everything including ourselves in faster cycles if I am wrong. We will either evolve to become more benevolent – or we will destroy ourselves with too much power, and not enough sense.

There is an even worse possibility, unfortunately. There is a chance we will survive and create a nightmarish future in which most of us would rather not participate. I'd rather we perish.

The metaphysical underpinnings of reality are consciousness based. It is Source Based and made of Love and Knowledge – intelligent light. Nature makes a lot of good choices for inexplicable reasons. As we discussed; atoms seem to have instructions and store information – perhaps since the big bang as some suggest. Biology shares the results of each experience to generate evolution; and it also shares genetic information and communicates at higher dimensions than those we are privy to.

The Universe it also seems wouldn't exist if it were not for an initial intention and observation. The Cosmos is the greater mechanics of the same consciousness that made a Big Bang – and "Saw that it was good." The Creation was a conscious act; as is every fractal within it.

Toss the hyperbole in the mystery pile where it belongs. The Fabric is Consciousness; or Spirit – depending on interpretation. None the less; my point remains the same – empowerment. As a temporary individual portal of the conscious totality; as a mote of the totality folded upon itself to make a dimple in space/time to exist in – you are a mediator between the physical and metaphysical planes of conscious existence – you are the Universe experiencing itself. We exist; as above, so below. We exist; in the Heavens and on the Earth. We exist; as reflections of conscious Light. We exist; as Word.

The empowerment of this knowledge of the true nature and construction of reality might not seem readily apparent to those lacking a certain mind-set. But if they wait for it to come to them, it will through physical lessons. For those who are in tune with the new method and "get it" – the Karma generated by them will reflect back. At a still deeper level; some will connect to and communicate with the Universal Soul.

We can still connect with Creation and Creator – because we are part and parcel, and one and the same. Our holographic link to our real metaphysical address is not only how; but also why we exist. With the Metaphysical Underpinnings exposed – the internal communication becomes normal and not unexplainable.

Perceiving ourselves as mortal separate individuals, is what makes us falsely believe that "eternity" is infinity, and that miracles, clairvoyance, real spiritual epiphany, and pure knowledge from our Source, are fantasy and impossible. Perceiving ourselves as eternal shared consciousness – returns us to a point where these inexplicable mysteries become a genuine peek at where we are going. That is if we do it right.

Every fantastic thing you ever thought possible is within your grasp in the bigger picture. Even if it feels like you are spending your life "just fixin to get ready" the truth is that your experience is a vital function. The moments in time and how you feel about them are the fuel for the hologram, or the Source Image.

The end result is the realization that we are not a random chance fluke and an accident. We should develop a newfound reverence for all life with the understanding that every single being is special – including you. It is the age old truth that you can't love another, if you can't love yourself. Our problem is obvious. How can you assign value or worth to another being, if you assign none to yourself? The benefit of knowing the operating system for conscious experience also empowers us with the ability to ask it things – if you ask right.

The Metaphysical Underpinnings expose all acts of clairvoyance, and spiritual experiences, near death experiences, Shamanic visions, healing, miracles, and related phenomenon as proof of how life works – rather than viewing them as unexplained anomalies amid unexplained principles. Not selling ourselves short on what is possible translates into the fact that the truth really does set us free!

Seek the Truth and the Light was factually good advice – and not a fairytale. Find the Source Image in your own hologram; and do some math. The initial Light Source is a Self Generator and Creates the Hologram which is Infinite. In this respect; anywhere consciousness (or spirit) directs itself – the Matrix exponentially expands before it. You are the Matrix. 

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First off; you have to understand that everything is made of light. These vibrations and waves are in a range beyond our visible spectrum normally; unless we use our metaphysical component of consciousness to access them. The non-physical range of consciousness has to be felt.

Matter; is nothing more than this light energy of Creation slowed down in vibration and frequency – and sort of "congealed" as matter. Light; is this Fabric accelerated beyond what was assumed to be the cosmic speed limit (perhaps incorrectly)? This is why matter can never truly be destroyed and really only changes states back into this energy – because that is where matter comes from. Matter is made of conscious energy. The Universe is made of Mind - foremost.

In the Ancient Kabbalah the explanation goes as follows; we are Vessels of Light ourselves – made to give and receive light – and exchange it with each other and our Source. Given that everything is constructed from cascading, vibrating, non-local, metaphysical light – the explanation is beyond chance. They knew we were made of light – and they apparently knew it was conscious.

In the Atlantis lore, and in Ancient Sumerian Texts, and in Ancient Babylon, this conscious force which surrounds everything was called "Intelligible Light." It was known to be the repository and record of existence, and the memory of Nature. They also knew we could communicate with it. They were correct of course.

In the Western beliefs the explanation went as follows; everything was formed "Of" or "From" the primordial element of "Ether" which is also known as the Waters. This is why "God" is described as the First and Last, the Beginning and the End, Alpha and Omega, and "In" and "Of" everything. There is actually no difference between the bulk of the spiritual belief systems other than terminology, time period, and perspective. The information is consistent to say the least.

There are countless others one could compare; and I have. Without drowning in details; the Waters of Life or this Conscious Fluid we are made of (the fabric of space/time) - is Light. Once you start to see it this way, all the belief systems make sense. They all become worthy considerations regarding the operating system of life. Not Life itself mind you; but the metaphysical nature of the Light it is made of.

The Consciousness or Spirit – is the Eternal Ethereal Mind of God as we presently define that. The Light, or the Waters, or the Word, is how it works. Consciousness operates the Fabric – in general terms. Don't get me wrong; my spiritual message isn't that God doesn't exist – it is that it doesn't work like we were taught in the dogma and falsehoods provided by organized religion.

Bibles, and Religion – are not Spirituality. They are records of experiences with connecting to the Light of Creation, and the shared knowledge about spirit and how to experience it. This is why we get screwed up by religion; because it is perceived as spirituality when it is not. That would be like saying that a pamphlet about an activity - is the actual activity.

Reading about something, and having it interpreted for you, and being told someone else learned your lessons and died for you – is disempowerment with a capital "D." It makes you not look for, or experience spirituality in any meaningful fashion. I'm not knocking Jesus; I'm just saying we should consider that we missed something important. The Prophet might be plausible; the interpreted premise may lack – that's all.

Sure; you might meet in groups and call it fellowship, but giving money, comparing garments, and defining this loving force of light as a crotchety old fart on a throne, might be selling the entire premise short. Failing to experience this Light due to weak definitions and outdated dogma is destined to fail and is the definition of evil and deception.

I realize that this burns a few stifled holes – while simultaneously freeing some from continued dogma by causing some open minded consideration of more advanced concepts. The price is only lost upon those who give a small value and definition for a fictional product. For some this realization is the door to freedom to learn and experience a real product.

All of our emotions stem from, or branch off from only two actual conditions of consciousness, fear and bliss. A general positive feeling of well being which we associate with love, bliss, hope, wellness, truth, and so on; and a generally negative feeling we associate with fear, hatred, a sense of loss, aloneness, deceit, and so on. These two generalizations of emotion encompass the full gambit of our experience – just two. The rest are subdivided aspects of the same two root emotions.

For further consideration, I submit to you that these emotions are a reflection of the very structure of life. If you are not familiar with my theories; I believe these to be the same two gravitational forces our universe is structured upon. There is only one solitary medium for experience, given alternate names. Biblically it was "the Waters," in the micro world it is known as the quantum substructure (string theory), to cosmology it is the fabric of space/time, or the quantum flux of the vacuum of space/time, or dark matter, dark energy, and dark flow, and in particle physics it might be called a "God Particle" also known as the Higgs Boson, or the Schwarzschild Proton.

This is the Trinity of forces. This metaphysical element called "the Waters" and two infinities of Gravitation; as collapse and expansion – this Trinity is the Light. If you will recall; all deep spiritual concepts entail these two forces and one medium. Just a few examples are the Yin and Yang, the In and Out breathing of Brahma, Tetragrammaton, the Logos, and countless others. The idea is the same – two forces – one venue. The Father, Son, and Holy Ghost are another; since the universe could be considered the Father, the Son could be considered all the repeating cycles of internal conscious life experiences, and the Holy Ghost could be seen as the Waters, or Venue, or Matrix, which is malleable and we affect.

Gravitation is Light. A Star is this delicate balance between collapse and expansion; and a star gives us light. Atoms, beings, planets, stars, and galaxies, are all products of this temporary balance of these two states of the same medium, matrix, or venue. This is why some faiths define God as Balance.

The very definition for God – the unutterable word in the Jewish Bible is after all – Tetragrammaton. Alright; there are enough metaphysical concepts to boggle the mind for decades on this topic alone. I have a point to make for those who "get" what I am saying.

Let us return to the notion of this Light; and the full gambit of emotions with which we experience the journey of life. The basis for all emotion amid the waters; is gravity. Think about it.

When you experience a negative feeling or vibe – a contraction takes place. We might say; "My heart is heavy" to describe this. A contraction might be another expression of negative feelings; withdrawal. Time may slow. A weight is felt – gravitation is emotionally increased. Every emotion on the negative scale entails negative energy and conscious collapse.

On the other extreme; when we are positively charged (happy, blissful, well, loved, and so on), we experience this as positive emotion. We might say; "I am light-hearted" when we feel good. We radiate out to others. Time may zip by. When we are happy; every emotion on the positive scale entails positive energy and expansion. Like I said, think about the construction and nature of reality; as these same two forces and the one fundamental primordial element of consciousness.

What I am trying to explain is very hard to describe; albeit pervasive and ever present. Forgive my attempts to describe the indescribable. My reason for stretching some boundaries and parameters is not without purpose. It is to help you navigate in the Light. As fantastic as all this might sound – the proof is in the practice. Properly defined – this has always been going on and just has many descriptions. Trying to describe this is what the fuss and problems have always revolved around. I regard myself no less guilty than those who have gone before.

You are the fabric you are embedded in – which shouldn't come as too big of a surprise. Let me go even farther – you are the space/time you are made of. If you are made of what you are embedded in – that you could torque on it should also not be considered as strange as it is in our society. This is all about definitions. There are endless constructs which define this same principle.

If you go back to what the most ancient spiritual records and texts tell us; they had a pretty accurate explanation for this by telling you that you are a star. At the very least it is an accurate metaphor; given the newly developing picture in science. It also jives extremely well with other metaphysical and esoteric concepts.

You do have an "aura" and you do radiate out from your "center." And as I discussed earlier; that balance is perturbed by our emotions. We emit less when we are negative and more when we are positive. We also have energy points and "Chi" or Chakras" or "Paraná" and energy flow. This is how messed up the current belief is – in science for example the earth is not considered as a living body. Science claims we live on a fluke ball of mud, and that it is not "alive" and is an inanimate object in space. What a croc.

The Earth is alive – just like you are. We are like cells on the body of the earth, or like ants whose colony is global. The earth is alive because we are – and in the same ways; metaphysically speaking. And you can see the proof physically when you observe how it operates.

The Earth is a self generator – and related to the consciousness it too is embedded in. The big failure of dogmatic science is a lack of explanations for the following points.

Why does the earth (not to mention the bulk of cosmic bodies) enjoy ceaseless rotation? Wouldn't cosmic bodies slow down over "billions of years" with no source for this endless engine which spins? Of course it would – just like a "big bang" in the remote past would slow down, and not speed up over billions of years. We have the premise and basic model for reality wrong.

The earth has a small star at its core. The earth has ceaseless rotation, independent internal thermal output, an atmosphere, a magnetic field around it, gravitation, and a spot in this fabric for the same reason as you and a star do. Energy points or chakras, a positive and negative pole, an ionosphere, and its own radiance to name some other properties we share. Everything from an atom on up is this principle.

Now for the empowering part! The atoms contain information from the beginning of time – from what we call the big bang. They also communicate; which is how they self organize, and maintain cohesion. They do this by means of little tunnels in space time like tethers to each other, like wormholes between black holes. All atoms contain information and are connected and communicate to each other. All of reality is super-positioned. This takes place at a light frequency and timescale beyond our ability to detect it – like a black hole conceals light, or a tunnel between black holes would be not visible.

The DNA and biology also do this when you better understand instincts and evolution as species specific déjà-vu. All biology communicates invisibly also, from the micro aspects, all the way to the entire individual entity. I believe this metaphysical communication of light is universal for the same reasons – it is the invisible primordial element we are embedded in. We are much like fish in aquariums that have no concept of what water is, even though it sustains them. And everything makes waves – every motion, activity, and thought makes an impression in this fabric.

As for the Universe – all you have to understand is two things. Everything is a star in this sense of a center and a tunnel, and radiations to counteract the whirlpool which connects everything to the original Singularity or Source. At the scale of stars and galaxies and black holes; these mechanics are exposed by science already. The beautiful part comes from realizing that the mysteries of biology and atoms when considered fractal to the cosmic activity – are flawlessly solved, and confirmed repeatedly.

Then we might consider consciousness, or the observer – or "us" if you will. If how we negotiate and feel our experience works the same – we can assume something else quite easily. All consciousness is ultimately already connected and always has been – it becomes a matter of the individual becoming aware and evolved enough to utilize these connections to their potential on the conscious and physical planes of reality.

Again; why couldn't we affect a reality we are part and parcel of? We live in a reality where every individual component is already in constant communication to generate our consensus reality. The intentions and observations built this reality by compounding the experiences to generate the information. In other words – this is how it works already if you look at things this way – which has merits.

Your feelings and observations and attitude; are not only the reason for the program, they are the builder and source of the information. You are not a fluke on a random ball of mud in accidental universe; given the correct perspective.

A Child of the Light is what you are. The Law of One; is just this principle, concept, and law. It is uncanny to say the least that the most ancient beliefs from the records of the beginning of our existence described the truth this way. The words and terms they used are again unerringly accurate. The Atlantis God lore which was the foundation for current religions told us we were the Children of the Light under the Law of One. I don't have time to pick any fights on this point here – I can only refer you to my other books, and links to other sources on my website.

Trust me; we all came from an initial tribe – and at some point we ALL shared a basic older spiritual concept which was fractured and evolved with us. The two oldest forms of spirituality are Tribal beliefs and Shamanism – and the hotly debated first civilization of Atlantis, upon which early Babylonian, Greek, Sumerian, and the Pre-sand Egyptian, Mayan, and early civilizations were based. Although the evidence is undisputable to any researcher worth their salt, or anyone above the 15watt range, many refuse to accept the required adjustment – sorry it had to be said.

To wind down about this Light we are made of and live in; there are other avenues of proof for my above points. The near death experiences many have had are always about tunnels and light, and a connective tissue of loving consciousness. What we are made of, and came from, we go back to – as a fact.

Shamanic visions and experiences are really no different than religious experiences. If you have esoteric beliefs you are considered dark; so when you make this connection it is considered occult and evil and called conjuring for example. But if you are a Catholic, Christian, or Jew; the same effect is termed a "Miracle." Definitions for things we don't understand are killing us; individually and as a species. Is your glass half full or half empty? Are you "evil" if you experience this creative energy outside accepted parameters?

Here is where I inadvertently stomp on a few toes. If you can't understand that any way to realize this is just as worthy as another – you sell yourself woefully short on sources of information. One might appeal to you and one might not. It doesn't matter – they are all just trying to explain the same thing. A brand of religion is actually a hindrance to enlightenment. All religions and their associated texts; are just records of peoples experiences with Actual Spirituality. If you check it all out with an open mind – some of it will "speak to you" as they say.

What we missed was the point. "They;" (all belief systems as a whole) were about experiencing this Light and Conscious energy for yourself and not just reading about it, denying other views, and restricting your growth intellectually as far as the concept of Spirituality and a Spirit Component. Selective paths to Heaven are not the truth. The only way you can fail – is to fail to try to actually experience what we so feebly call God.

Before you disregard what I am saying; and brand me a religious nut whose cheese is slipping off his cracker – redefine what we were told God was – and replace it with this more mature, believable, grounded in science version. It is easy to shoot down a silly rendition for this; i.e. a spooky father figure on a throne, who claims to love everyone and then writes texts (through people) which exclude the bulk of them, and banishes them to an eternal flaming pit. Oh; don't forget – he needs money! $%&*#^@%@^!!!!!

Once you consider the totality of the information, and use your individual ability to sort through the process in your own way, and really define this non-definable essence of experience – the boogie-man goes away, and the real definition of God is rendered into a Creational Light Energy. God is just the sum total of the whole, as the same form of consciousness as we experience on the micro scale.

You are an indestructible, self-generating, consciousness; having an experience as a weak individual fearful mortal – cast down into the realm of 3rd dimensional physical suffering and reality. Life is a lesson, a chance to evolve and grow – which is only possible by experience. I'll explain this in my next chapters; there is a reason life is a bitch at times.

That this is a 3rd dimensional reality projected from a 4rth dimensional reality might sound absurd until you contemplate it on a deeper level. Just as sunlight casts a two dimensional shadow – so might "The Light" cast the three dimensional shadow of life.

Don't let anyone convince you there is only one way to connect to this Light, nor that there is no such thing. The experiential proof is available for those who can grasp the idea by seeking knowledge – and the effort and belief expended worthy of such connections. Seek the Truth and the Light you will recall, was the gist. You might only get a few "big ones," but you will also develop awareness and a set of instincts we often call clarity or clairvoyance. The truth is those are all just terms. The truth is only felt and experienced by focusing these abilities.

One way is meditation. Prayer done correctly alone in silence is also valid. Any form of earnest contemplation scientifically or spiritually works. Artistic endeavours such as music or visual art are also a common expression. Some have visions and prophetic dreams when sleeping; the list of methods is endless. It isn't about the method to conclude my point. It is about you freely exploring your individuation and educating it – given a few basic ground rules which come naturally if you grasp the concept properly.

Can you see the light? I believe you can internally access the whole. It is about self correction and evolution; of the light itself. You have to gain the knowledge to understand (whatever form that may be), and actually connect in a meaningful fashion to the totality of the conscious information of reality for yourself. The cool part is that if you can "grip" or "glean" my "gist" then with a little practice you can experience this metaphysical light – and ask it whatever you want. In fact that is how it works – and why we are all individual.......never two the same.

I said a lot. Let me break some of this down to something you can use and experience for yourself. We are a vibe – as is light.

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Most people can't fathom the reason for suffering in this life if there is indeed some benevolent Universal Consciousness at the helm. As a matter of fact; it is a gauge of how well someone has developed their understanding (again; by any means).

Those who are one with themselves and their experience; don't bitch and moan anymore than superficially about the trials and tribulations, and are not about the ultimate if not immediate demise life entails - they more correctly view them as lessons and opportunities. The activity of life is an activity with a predictable outcome.

Let me give you just one example of the inverse affect of tragedy. When an earthquake, volcano, tidal surge, windstorm, or other similar disaster is experienced by a community of humans (and animals), the best of them comes to the surface. They put aside any trivial differences, and view each other more as the family they should have all along. In the event of a disaster – we pull together like we should have all along but didn't. It is a learning experience.

We are always aware that life doesn't deal the same hand to everyone; and since we don't know why it may make us angry. Just like the old argument that life is unfair because babies die, parents outlive their children, and disease mercilessly consumes life; becomes mute – if you understand that we were neither born, nor die – and the nothing we came from and return to – is only a totality we perceive as nothing from our limited condition. It is all a cycle folks.

The notion that what we call God is loving and fair; is the understanding and full reckoning with the fact that this life is not the whole shebang – far from it......it is a mote. So my point is that what we perceive initially as suffering; is an opportunity to develop and grow.

The entire gambit hinges on how you deal with the suffering life will throw at you – and it will. Rich or poor, righteous or not, you might as well brace for it. Another example we see is when a victim becomes an advocate; and affects change; while another might become lost or possibly further victimize others instead. It is about the decisions you make of your own free will – in a sometimes very difficult venue.

These decisions are often made poorly with a poor education about the very meaning, premise, and nature of the construction of life. The "Valley of the Shadow of Death" we tread – is this physical life amid suffering and subject to immediate or eventual mortality. You will never be a more fearful entity than as an individual ego based mortal who perceives themselves as entirely physical and material. You will never experience fear of death once you recognize your transcendent nature.

The truth is if you ask most elderly people if they really would like to be sixteen again if they had to re-live the suffering they experienced in life – most would opt out – even with no belief in spirit continuance of some form. I wouldn't want to re-experience all the losses and failures of my past. New ones might be more reasonable; new, ever evolving, higher levels of consciousness – to return to my point.

This is where "suicide bombers" get their intestinal fortitude. It is one thing to pray and give money and comfort yourself in your belief. It is entirely another to willingly lay down your life for a mutual cause – as you would for another. That is a solid belief! I might rightfully question doing so to hurt others – and I chalk it up to every religion having its own particular delusions. If they did so nobly, effectively, and without harming others I could even condone it – but that doesn't describe a suicide bomber very well.

When I was in Level One Cardio for ten days the first time (I suffer from sustained ventricular tachardia), I had some eye opening near death, self healing, and meditational experiences – and I learned something about suffering and how we cope. Most people we consider "religious" as defined in the standard terms – had a pitifully weak belief system. They were scared, miserable, self centered, people. Lesson one was; learn what is real for yourself, and don't buy into lame fairy tale explanations, which don't serve you well when you need it most – at deaths door.

Other than almost dying several times before they got a grip on my condition with meds, and refusing to have an implantable defibrillator for personal reasons, I considered myself lucky. Yes I said Lucky!

I know that we don't really die – for real – and not as a fairytale to comfort a fearful entity. I don't fear death anymore, it wasn't that bad – if I was to say it felt better than life that might be wrong............although not at all inaccurate. I got what I often call a metaphysical education at the University of Cosmic Consciousness – and I am not alone. I found my inner voice, instincts, and inner child. And I also get an occasional good link when I meditate – like the ones you read about.

I feel lucky not only for surviving poor odds – but for what I learned. And the other thing I would like to offer; is that clarity beyond regular existence accompanies the near death experience. If it was an imagined, fabricated, delusion, or dream-state – it wouldn't be clearer than life.

Why do you get brighter when you approach the barrier or star gate? Why is it more real than your whole life and pre-existing notions about reality? Try this outlandish answer – perhaps because it is. Why do you think a baby cries like hell at first? Maybe, just maybe, a baby still subconsciously remembers where it just left!

In a ridiculous comical sense; life is like a bad old cowboy movie where the same participants are killed off – only to reappear next week! This is due to the nature of this "intelligible light" of Creation; which is consciousness. I know this sounds whacky given our current conditioning to believe we are mortal entities; but the ancients had the explanation.........we just didn't "get it."

This "Light" is the sum total of conscious experience. We are mere "aspects and intentions" of this shared field. Each being is the information (light) of life, particularly and individually configured from birth. Each being; is an "expression" of this intelligence much like an artistic endeavour. Every creature is a unique configuration – of space/time. This is where the idea of horoscopes comes from. Each creature is a product of its location in time and space – which like the individuations in it – are never the same and always changing. A clue presents itself.

This Light of Consciousness is the expanding and developing cosmos. This is why we are each different from another. Not two atoms, snowflakes, fingerprints, bugs, trees, mountains, people, planets, or stars, or galaxies are alike! We are obviously configured from the ever developing environment! Our very DNA is spun from the vertigo of space/time. It is also why everything is in constant communication via these tunnels or silver thread tethers which exist outside physical space/time as we know it.

If everything were a fluke in a static state; repetition would be commonplace. The only way you can maintain infinity without repeating; is to provide an infinitely changing menu for choices. My point to be considered; is that "infinity" is a factor, and that means "eternity" plays a part. Infinity means eternal – since they both mean "no end." So if we live in infinity – an aspect of the information is forever preserved. To repeat; this is why we evolve, and why two things are never configured the same and rendered identical.

This is most logical if not intuitive proof, which is verified by how things work. Just like a black hole which is not visible except for the effects it causes – matter is also a reflected vibration of a higher order, or Law. So we should observe Life – by the effects it causes.

Let us return to the subject of suffering and self correction. As an "organelle" or "conscious portal" of the universe; why would suffering be an integral part of physical experience? It is the age old question – "What is the point of it all?" This is why we fail to grasp the meaning and purpose of life; it is because we incorrectly view the bumps and bruises as penalty and punishment – thus a "veil" restricts our realization.

If you realize that life as we know it physically represents about as much as the matter in an atom (.0000000000001) - you might get what I am saying. Fully considered about 99.999999999999% of an atom – is non-local eternal energy. Most of an atom is "empty space" which upon further investigation is anything but empty! So are you; being constructed of atoms and all! The honest scientists will admit our reality is so hollow that there lacks an explanation for the existence of mass in objects. Everything is made of "empty space" quite literally.

Another way to make this basic realization is to understand that the "empty space" in the cosmos; is also this same potent energy of space/time. At the universal scale the "matter" is like an atom; with vast empty spaces of expanding infinite energy constituting the bulk of the reality. The distances between the objects in space generally speaking, are measured in time; due to the almost impossible to measure nature of such things!

Add to this fact that science readily admits that we can't see well over 90% of our reality; due to our limited perspective from this condition of physical experience. We can't see the vibrations, and speeds, and dimensions, of this light energy at our lesser vibrational frequency. What if that was because it was a "wave condition" or smeared everywhere as it were; and perceived as nothing incorrectly? Bingo!

So now try to imagine that the math represents the reality. If it does; you and I in our present state – are only at .0000000000001% of our potential. The big difference which gives us the power to offset this fact – is free will. Our little mote of the conscious totality has the infinite power to make choices of our own free will.......in a difficult venue. Don't kid yourself – that is a significant point when we observe other life around us.

What this proves; is that we really are an important factor and a fractal of the master source hologram in a special capacity – and here is why. Nothing else makes choices or thinks beyond the classical world view. Only the Cosmos, and you and I my friend; have this special gift. Everything else makes decisions instinctively more so than consciously, generally as a rule. Nature is automatic. Simpler creatures are unable to see beyond the mask of what appears to be a static and steady state reality – and discover that it is anything but.

Don't misunderstand me to mean that some mammals are not capable of higher thought – it just isn't abstract thought like ours. As much credit as I give animals (being an animal lover and all) - not even a dolphin or primate would unlock the atom, or put themselves on our nearest neighbour the moon – at least in the present tense. I wouldn't want to over suppose.

An animal regardless of its complexity; never looks beyond to ask "why" or how it works – in the technical sense. Only people "quest" to achieve knowledge regarding atomic structure, space programs, and so on. Only humans (on our planet) have the ability to see beyond the material construct of reality. Keep that thought in your back pocket for a moment, while we complete the equation.

Animals are also not held responsible for the decisions made instinctively – versus ours of free will. Karma doesn't play into it because animals have no bad thoughts even when they kill. The difference is animals "kill" – and people "murder." An animal just acts instinctively in this regard and is not malicious – it is just nature. Ergo; our suffering is the consequence of the gift of higher consciousness and the gift of free will.

If you think about it; that is what is going on. Our struggles and suffering, as a group and as individuals; is about us learning how to use these gifts of higher consciousness and free will. I'll spell it out for you; our suffering is self induced – which should come as little surprise. Our suffering is caused by the notion that lessons are pain, and that we are individual mortal ego based entities. Well; ego based entities we are – which keeps us from reckoning with our experience. Mortal; we are not.

If we correctly view our experience as an act in that old cowboy movie mentioned earlier; we get the point of being ambushed. Next time; you'll not fall for it. Even mistakes have value to conscious experience – in fact they have the greatest potential to generate important realizations and strategies for future reference. I repeat – that is what is going on here if you just consider the evidence from a broader perspective than that of the individuation.

The proof of the point; is the point of the proof. The pain of the point; is the point of the pain. Likewise; all love and reverence and forgiveness withheld – represents a burden to the eternal metaphysical aspect of our soul. Unlike animals – our physical decisions made from a higher aspect of the conscious process – can more readily affect the universal soul.

Now let us review briefly, and put things together. From our back pocket earlier we draw the notion that we are built to ask "why" and delve into the substrata to unlock the apparent metaphysical (non-physical) properties behind material reality. Our inherent conscious nature is on this "quest" or "hunt" to unravel not only our reality – but the nature of experience as well. All scientific and spiritual efforts are this same "quest" from different angles – the left versus the right hemisphere of the brain for instance.

The next difference was free choice. Every puny mortal one of us has conscious free choice. It might be infringed on from outside – but we maintain the choice of how to interpret it. We can always view the glass as half empty, or half full, even though the content is identical. This is the actual point of your gift of free will – the ability to discern.

The ability to discern and reckon with the bumps and bruises is another thing that makes us more aware than our animal relatives. This; coupled with the desire to unlock the mysteries of reality to expose their underpinnings - makes clear the purpose of experience. It is of course the experience itself. The purpose of any journey as we all know is the journey and not the destination.

The reason we exist; the Riddle of Life, the Secret of existence, the shared root of the Tree of Life, the Holy Grail, and the ghost in the machine – is "you" and why you are here. Once you get that life has a purpose and that you are neither a pointless fluke, nor mortal in the conscious sense – the reason for life is exposed as a developmental stage. We cycle physically, as does everything else. Self correction individually – affects the Whole.

Now ask yourself what the point of free will would be; lacking a venue without pitfalls? What good is the ability to make choices; if there are no good and bad choices to be made? And here is the bigger question; what is the point of making choices if they have no effect? What is the point without the usual two extremes? I hope you got that!

I'll use a Guru version of my own design to explain it in another way. First off I'll ask a question; "When you go for a long drive in your car – do you assume the identity of your vehicle?" When you go for a journey in a physical body called a life experience; you do in fact temporarily assume the identity of your vehicle. Perhaps this illustrates the confusion regarding eternal consciousness being an occupant and not the vehicle.

The confusion over what we incorrectly view as suffering during our experience also is explained by the same principle of life. If you build cars for example – you test them and put them through their paces as it were. In order to improve the vehicle as an entity; some individuals are tested, so corrections can be affected to the model. These corrections benefit not only the model – but those who use it. To build a good car is similar in this respect only to the requirement of building an ever better human vehicle – because the human vehicle is just a mode of transport for conscious experience. We are just a temporary "aspect" and "intention" of the model – if you will recall.

The point is the same; the "car" that gets the most "shit and abuse" (if you'll pardon the expression) – finds the flaws in the model faster and improves the model quicker. The vehicle that undergoes the most rigorous testing makes for the best car.

So the next time you face a difficult choice, or a negative experience, or even when a vehicle of life is lost around you; try to look on the bright side – maximum benefit was achieved in the higher order and magnitude. It wasn't pointless like we were taught. Nor was it a product of a fairy-tale solution; as we are also taught. It was the act of Life Itself – educating the over all model for experience and improving the design. You are the act of self sacrifice – you are literally the skin in the game. The truth is that while nobody gets out alive and unscathed – nobody is consciously lost either.

It is like the "Baja Infinity" race of life. You can sit on the sidelines and avoid the danger if you so chose – but you do yourself and the whole a disservice when you do. When you participate fully and experience the race of life, crashes and all; you get valuable experience which is not gained without risk and participation. You only win commensurate with how much skin you have in the game. Conscious skin that is; since that is the foundation of experience and the spirit component we call God and Soul.

There are other considerations which accompany this avenue of discussion. The fact that the record of life is maintained is evidenced by how it works and evolves. The same expanding ever-changing fabric of space/time that forms everything uniquely – is also the repository for the information in it. The fabric of space/time in short; is the record of the experience also.

This is known as the Book of Life to Western faith. It is known as the Akashic Record in Eastern beliefs. The Hall of Records, the All Seeing Eye as the sum total of conscious experience, and of course as the Mind of God by multiple titles. All things are contained in the Book of Life as we were told – only it isn't a book – it's us and this activity of life recorded into the fabric of space/time – which is an all inclusive fabric if you will recall.

And ultimately, it is a record of all conscious experience – and not that of the material reality which imprinted it. It is what we call Nature's inexplicable memory exposed as the recording of all thoughts and activities in the fabric of space time. The record is what remains. There is no such metaphysical property to money, or to gold, no physical remnant – just the record of the experience and how you felt about it. This is what makes "how you feel about it" and interpret it, paramount over the material considerations of wealth – or even the individual life and death of the vehicles in it.

This is to be blunt; some "heavy shit" if you have never probed this deeply into the machine-works of experience. I wouldn't have taken you here unless there was a benefit and an extreme "up-side." I hope you get that.

The benefit simply stated is this. The next time life throws a curve ball at you; consider it a challenge of your consciousness – a hurdle for your mind. Revel in the fact that the hurdle is by design; and an opportunity disguised as a problem or woe. Life is constructed of excellent opportunities; masterfully disguised as impossible situations. These situations however; all are eventually overcome by design. Even our most painfully large hurdles are just huge leaps in our conscious evolution of the holographic vehicle of life. Even the loss of the game serves a purpose for the resurrected cowboy.

I won't blow smoke up your hinnies and burn your hole and tell you life doesn't matter and is a dream like the societal propaganda meant for public consumption. Concrete is still hard, life matters, and nobody rides for free. What I want you to take away from this is though; is that it does however matter – not to understate the point.

The fact that life is hard and then you die as they say; in no way negates the possibility of value or spirit continuance – it actually reinforces the notion from a perspective of purpose. If you designate a purpose and value for experience, unlike society at large, and as organized religion, and dogmatic science would have you believe – the function of suffering and self correction is a required contrast.

This way life has meaning – and the stinky bits serve as contrast to the pleasant bits, to give life its meaning. If life was entirely good, or entirely bad – it would suck – like having your favourite thing all day, every day, for too long. It is the gruel of life which makes it so the gourmet meal has value. Life has value; so it entails contrast – amid choices. If life wasn't sometimes tough – it would lose its flavour and become pointless. Savour the flavours of life without fear, even your eventual terminus.

Life is life; and is a difficult cycle – but it is for a reason and serves a higher purpose. You are in essence a reflection of the holographic compound resonance of Life. You are Intelligible Light. Everything you endure; no matter the calibre – is a testament to the effort of life to adapt, develop, and evolve. And we are not talking strictly about the physical reflection – as much as the metaphysical hologram. All you have to be able to wrap your head around to understand all of this - is that this metaphysical hologram of life is Consciousness. The instructions for DNA are an evolving permanent record of the experience of consciousness – the instructions are you.

This translated means; that matter and energy are indeed interchangeable; and neither matter nor energy is ever truly destroyed – but merely changes states infinitely. There is no more tactile and adaptive energy than conscious life – and you can literally bet your ass that all we do is change states. We exit our material vehicle in this permanent cyclic dance to return to the energy which bore the matter. Life is an "Activity" and not a "Thing." Birth and death are both birth. One birth was from this shared conscious field into an individual physical lesson; and one birth is the sudden or eventual release from the lesson we call death perhaps incorrectly. 

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You; being a conscious vehicle and all – have the ability through free will to consciously navigate the Waters of Life. Unlike the lesser consciously developed (not lesser valued) creatures; we can steer the boat a little. The difficult gift of higher conscious awareness – has a purpose.

The big question is how do we do this navigating? First off, you have to realize that you are an operator and can do this – and that you are surrounded by this sea of intelligent light in the first place. You have to realize you are the captain of your boat – and that you are in the water – and not in limbo in mid air. You have to become spiritually aware; or enlightened as it is often called. The first step is seeking the knowledge to fully understand the concept. Usually; we don't give it enough value, nor spend the time to "flesh it out" as they say.

The reason this takes place is due to our societal conditioning (through science and religion) which both tell us it is not possible to navigate these "Waters," but they are wrong. Science says nothing special is going on here; which given the fantastic construct we call reality – is hardly considerable. The church whether intentionally or not; has also reduced the premise to a non-working solution logically - with an invisible fictitious deity. They both tell us we are worthless in different ways.

Both academia and theology leave "us" the individual, feeling like uninformed fearful disconnected entities, having little value or consequence. And you know what they say; "How can you love another if you don't love yourself? I'll go you one better; how can you give anyone or anything any value – when you are taught not to value your surroundings, or yourself?

On the flip side of the coin; "How can you participate beyond what you are conditioned to believe is possible?" You can't – which is my point. When you de-value your individual self; you de-value your abilities. The bulk of us are capable of much more than has been conditioned out of the equation.

This gets back to everything actually being constructed of light at various frequencies – some congealed and made solid, and some not. And that Cosmic Light is in academic terms; eternal information smeared everywhere and cast about as a wave. The light everything is made of – is consciousness. The "Waters" are conscious!

Spiritually; this is why it was all about this intelligible light. The method of interacting with this totality of conscious information (the repository of life if you will....) has always been withheld from you by these fairytales provided by society.

Remember in ancient texts and bibles how "God" always communicated directly with people? Remember people regularly having "visions?" Remember spiritual events being witnessed – by what were called "witnesses?" Remember how they told you virtually every ancient religious text and bible came into being?

I propose the outlandish consideration (albeit true), that they were telling you the truth. This gets back to "why" millions of people, over countless thousands of years; chipped this information into stones and built inexplicable monuments. The simpler truth is exposed that it is modern man who fails to grasp this – gadget advantage considered.

If you are a "ball of light," and you live in a ball of light (the universe), and it is also conscious information of an experiential nature – what is so weird about some internal communication? The instructions we are made of – are not a forgone law or a robotic intelligence. We are made of Intelligent Love. More accurately stated perhaps we are made of Feelings.

I found much of this out when I had a few near death experiences. A few fuzzy points were made clear in these respects. What we are taught, even in most faith based institutions is very watered down and weak? There is little room for experiencing Universal Soul in the standard dogma of organized religion. It turns most of us away from the truth when we expose the obvious falsehoods it provides. This does society a great disservice by eliminating the possibility of a Spirit Component to life.

It is a thin line I walk when I endorse spiritual content in bibles, while simultaneously debunking aspects of religion. I won't get into it here – but there is a big difference between organized religion and true spirituality. Organized religion needs a swift kick in the disinformation portal for actually repelling intellect from a worthy consideration that merely implies in essence that Nature preceded matter.

Organized religion considers the same interaction expressed in their bibles from which they derive their content occult and evil if you express a desire to interact with Universal Soul. Religion views "your experiences" as forays into esoteric pursuits, as wrong, and any success as conjuring, possession, or delusion. Need we remind religion that their cherished manuscript was the result of "channelling" and meditating witnesses to "balls of light" which told them what to write?

If Aleister Crowley did it – it was occult. If a Shaman did it – it was savage and pagan. But if the Pope was involved so to speak – it was a "miracle." I hope you can see that the only difference is perspective – the Light doesn't care.

However; in what are considered esoteric belief systems, and as mentioned in Tribal beliefs and Shamanism - we often find the opposite attitude. In these belief systems generally speaking, it is almost solely about participation and true knowledge thereof. One view is against participation with the supernatural; and the other fully embraces it and teaches us how it was accomplished – no matter what you decide to call it.

I didn't write this book about meditation and how to do it. I wrote it to make you consider that these things were possible, and to make you consider that we have a Spirit Component. Many others have written superior volumes to instruct you how to do it. I drop enough names in my previous books to provide avenues to seek out.

This Navigation we undertake in the waters of life is the entire point of being embedded into the currents. We don't control the upper currents, and like a dinghy in a strong flow however; our present limitations can seem insurmountable. What you have to fully grasp is that the smaller course corrections done without fighting the current of life render the greatest results. The path of least resistance is where you steer from.

What I would like to do for the remainder of this chapter is describe the process as a reference for others who experience similar phenomenon in their individual way. I offer the structure of how it worked for me merely as a guide to compare and not "your guide." The same Intelligible Light which was revealed to me; is the same Light all spiritual quests revealed to others, and the same pattern generally results.

I first had my child-like questions resurface with a vengeance. The intense desire overcame me to seek out what is called the Riddle of Life, which is in fact the quest to know the True Nature of Reality. I studied science to glean how the mechanics if you could call it that worked. I found plenty - without re-hashing my theories for you. Needless to say with an unfettered perspective; science is hardly at odds with spiritual notions if you have more mature and inclusive concepts for the term.

I found enough science to validate spiritual concepts is what I am saying compressed to a single point. Then I realized a similar principle was lacking in our Spiritual considerations. All those religions and only one thing we call God; was a major clue.

I soon found through an unfettered perspective applied to multiple spiritual texts, and belief systems, the full magnitude of the deception employed by organized religion. The truth became revealed that only through open minded full examination of multiple religious concepts – was the full truth revealed. They all had good bits; that was how they roped people in. No single version however is capable of encompassing something which in essence is all the versions.

The religious dogma aside; spirituality is revealed and methods are given in multiple versions to actually experience it. This sparked my interest, and rekindled my child-like ability to ask and consider less restrictive possibilities. I had inadvertently started down a path.

With some help from ancient texts and spiritual manuscripts, I learned how to meditate in a fashion which was a cross between the old way, and a new way. I started meditating "free-style" and I suspect because my heart was really in it – I got some early strong results far above just relaxing. It wasn't long before I had several strong reality shaking connections with higher consciousness – vague though that may be. I'm trying to keep this short.

Then; quite positive that there was indeed a special hidden component to life which was derived from my meditational successes; I had a near death experience; and then another a few months later. I won't repeat the information in my previous books to argue the case – I am just telling you quite truthfully that I had them.

Now I am a guy who will tell you that there really is a celestial higher order. I can truthfully tell you that I don't believe personally that we die; and that we should maintain a reverence for life we currently give no value, since we attribute reality to a fluke. We put nature in second place mistakenly. We are "Nature" – to denigrate nature is to denigrate ourselves.

Then I found a sporadic occasional strong link through meditation became an ever present stronger link to what could best be described as advanced instincts. My occasional spikes of spiritual connection gave way to a more subtle form. Once in a blue moon I still have a meditational link worthy of note – but for the most part I am much more in tune with a constant conversation with metaphysical consciousness.

What I want you to get from this is that you have also experienced some of this but have been conditioned to deny it. We wouldn't want the label of being someone who "hears Voices" or "sees Lights." The truth has been concealed and removed from the equation. Once you break away from preconceived notions and become open to consider such things; such things are revealed and you learn how to recognize and work with them.

If you redefine every spiritual belief system as an attempt to quantify something that can be anything you want to see it as; and use them as guides to try to experience what they are talking about for yourself in those beliefs – you will get results and see what I mean. If you lay some basic non-discriminatory foundations, and openly explore all versions – you will find what works for you. This is what really matters; that it actually works for you.

Now when somebody tries to fool me it isn't so easy – no matter the guise. I find that my cosmic instincts are always there to ask. I don't always ask, so it isn't fail proof; but if I stop and decide to ask of my own free will – I get what we call a gut feeling, a strong sense, an instinct, a sliver of clairvoyance, or whatever you wish to call it. But; it is stronger, much stronger, than that sounds. You get back a serious vibe from a higher dimension of conscious activity.

My advice in basic terms; is to seek knowledge of a non-physical nature in science and try to envision a working construct for yourself – by means of real facts to lend credence to your efforts. There is much valid science which allows for these considerations as possibilities in quantum physics, biology, consciousness research, and cosmology.

Then an esoteric education is in order. The Emerald Tablets, the Kolbrin Bible, the Oahspe Bible, the Ancient Sumerian Texts, Babylonian, Egyptian, and Greek knowledge are worthy pursuits. Buddhism, Taoism and Daoism, the Ancient Kabbalah, Alchemy, the Tibetan Book of the Dead, and the Atlantis lore – are all worth investigating to say the least.

Even our western beliefs have this same information embedded within; after all they share a common root – you just have to already know the esoteric version when you read it to fully grasp the meaning. It all makes more sense; both the esoteric and the conventional – once you have knowledge of both.

Then practice meditation. The higher forms of meditation – not just "relaxing and calming" like we were taught. The old kind where you get results! Channelling, leaving your body, automatic writing, receiving divine knowledge, speaking with the ancestors, and actually experiencing this metaphysical conscious energy of life! We so poorly grasp the premise which translates to poor results. Learn about life's metaphysical properties, your spirit component, and learn how to meditate and get results.

Then the other things take place I mentioned – but each to their own version of clairvoyance tailored, or shall we say filtered through the individual portal. The aspect of which is dependent on the individuation – which is always unique. If you review history and consider clairvoyance in its various forms played a role occasionally; the reason it did is no longer a mystery. Some people heal, others glean great wisdom, and many create art or music beyond material ability.

After some success meditating, and some experiential proof of your own albeit intangible; a constant link is achieved. This is called enlightenment by some faiths. It is known as "remembering" or "being found" or as a moment of Zen or an awakening to the true nature of reality as Buddha expressed to others. It might be referenced to as Christ Consciousness as well. These are all just words and terms. The point is that this constant link can be achieved, and that it has a benefit we forgot and abandoned.

Consider it "super instincts" if you can better understand it that way. All acts of clairvoyance and spiritual epiphany are just the best instincts we access with intentions. If a rodent can intuit a water source – why couldn't we? As the apex of biological development on this planet; we are as Thoth said – the mediator to the above and below.

If you look at it things this way, with this alternate version of the true nature and construction of yourself and your reality – all the mysteries vaporize. They become the "norm" which has yet to be experienced by the uninitiated individual. Thus we can realize the purpose of the repeated delusion of spirituality and the reason for preserving ancient texts and chipping this onto stones.

This was exactly what it appears to be – a great deal of effort expended to preserve very important information. They were the required guidance to achieve maximum benefit from experience. When you read them as such – they all make the sense perhaps they were intended to.

Navigating conscious waters can only be done consciously – with a focused consciousness (no pun intended). If you get that "Spirit" is the same thing as non-physical consciousness – then you are starting to see the true nature of reality. The physical display is a reflection of the shared metaphysical consciousness. The thoughts and feelings perpetuate the matter. That is the missing information – consciousness.

While much of this is over the top by conventional standards; the fact that the bar has been set too low needs to be considered. If you give the appropriate value to yourself, others, and your shared experience – the fact that the conscious bar has been set too low becomes apparent.

With this simple adjustment to the existing conscious and spiritual paradigm, which merely requires giving a greater value to yourself and the experience you are having; you can engage more fully. Navigating the waters is a metaphor I used to describe the realization that you are piloting a vehicle of experience in conscious waters, and not adrift in a random sea, on a fluke related ball of mud.

Take the time to learn, study, and practice this information – it is the very purpose of life as defined by what life is doing. The purpose of the journey – is the journey. The purpose of the journey is experiencing what you and your environment have in common and helping self organize and gain complexity as a whole.

I know what you will find. I urge you to look – in your own way – for your self. The biggest prize requires your effort and not your money. The biggest prize of self determination and conscious navigation is an internal process to be mastered amid a delusion of mortality and material reality. The Key is a little metaphysical education and some desire to experience the higher planes of consciousness.      

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We are conditioned to believe that other life is non-existent, or extremely rare; which is the crux of our lack of understanding regarding the construction of life. Like I said earlier; you have to better define life and come to grips with the metaphysical underpinnings that are behind what we see.

What if life as we experience it consciously is indeed everywhere? What if the physical display of life was not the whole kit and caboodle? What if "Life" was itself the feelings we experience, more so than the vehicle we experience it in? It is – and that changes the way we see things.........or at least it should.

When you go for a long drive in your automobile for example – do you assume the identity of your vehicle? No! Yet we do this in our lives! We assume we are the vehicle we are contained within, and not a conscious occupant. You are not your "body" anymore than you are your "vehicle" when you drive somewhere.

You are not the biological meat puppet you occupy – you are the consciousness with which to experience your biological vehicle. And what is a vehicles purpose? Your vehicles task is to transport your essence through physical space/time; to make a journey.

I covered this consideration in my previous books regarding the basic ground rules of experience. We always feel in our experience, as if we were the "center" of life. We always assume the position of being the center of our own personal universe. Maybe, just maybe; we are.

Then the "time" problem confirms this notion. We also "all" perceive our experience as an ever present moment which also seems to be a permanent condition. In short; we all see ourselves the same way. We all see ourselves as a permanent "center" in a perpetual "now." From the first pair of eyes to the last, no matter the creature, whether a fruit fly, a dinosaur, or a human being; we all have this same perspective.

The really compelling argument is that it is either true – or a deception of enormous magnitude. What it is – is one of the biggest clues to the true nature of reality. The separate consciousness we experience as an individual physically; becomes revealed as a shared metaphysical experience. There is a reason we all perceive ourselves as a perpetual center in a never ending moment. The reason is "Transcendence."

Remember the "real definition" for God? The truth is contained in the most basic definitions given in ancient spiritual texts. In some beliefs what we call God is just called; "I Am That I Am." Others explained it as an All Seeing Eye. Western beliefs explained it as the; Alpha and Omega, the First and Last, the Beginning and End, and so on and so forth. We were expressly told in most beliefs also; that we were a "Likeness" or an "Image" of this Infinite Consciousness – a Fractal Holographic reflection if you will.

A reflection implies Light. Even the "Word" of which all things are created can be now understood as a resonance vibration which is the harmonic building block for the Sacred Geometry that forms matter. Word (audio frequency) and Light (photonic vibrational frequency) are all "waves." Waves by definition are not in one location – but smeared about everywhere. They still contain the same information; but they are no longer locally or physically represented. Matter that seems to disappear really just relocates to a more inclusive and less restrictive environment for consciousness. A dimensional shift perhaps takes place?

The building blocks for reality are waves – waves of non-local, super-positioned information smeared everywhere. These waves still contain the same information in a higher condition, state, dimension, frequency, or what ever you can envision it as; as the matter (or vehicle if you will), which has come and gone. This "information" came from "experience." Why wouldn't it just go back from whence it came?

Now let us return full circle to the notion that we are a random fluke chance of evolution which is somewhat pointless and terminally mortal. How does that fit with what we see? It doesn't jive with our reality; nor is it how we experience life. We already know through future cutting edge science that "everything" communicates. The atoms we are constructed of, the biological micro entities we are composed of, and the fabric of space/time we are embedded in – all communicate at these higher frequencies, gravitational waves, dimensions, or whatever you want to call it.

That still leaves how we experience life – if the science wasn't enough. It becomes stunningly obvious to all but the least amongst us; this is a shared individuality we experience. How we operate, how we experience, and what we experience it in; are not individual. Nor are these considerations local and individual like us. The "odd duck" in the equation is in fact; how we "perceive" our experience; because the evidence both scientific and experientially, contradicts this perceptual deception. The "Veil" of the classic steady state world view is fading to reveal a fluid environment in which everything is revealed as a Fundamental Oneness, a Singularity.

This is the notion we call God. This fact of how we and our reality are constructed through knowledge – exposes our feelings with which we experience life as the fundamental operator and smeared about wave condition upon which physical life is based. The "gift of life and experience" made flesh if you will recall. Life and experience are modeled on a single law, principle, and conscious condition.

Now we can drop the bomb here! The Consciousness with which we experience our reality is what it is constructed of. If everything, conscious life included, is made of consciousness - which is the repository for the information for life smeared about at the quantum scale and the cosmic scale – then nothing is ever lost or destroyed – nothing.

Not even a fleeting thought is wasted – so why would the sum total of your conscious experience be lost? Then consider that this applies at the upper level of the fractal. This also explains how the cumulative experiences of entire species and the evolving shared field of information upon which they are based – is also maintained. And at a higher cumulative resonance frequency (a more all inclusive harmonic or wave) the entire record of life is also an evolving conscious body – metaphysically smeared and cast about as a wave. This is where the idea that we are "building the body" comes from in religion. We build the body that builds us.

The secret to this knowledge is the very premise of fractals and infinities. To come to understand this requires in some way, shape, or form; the reckoning with the fact that our reality is constructed from an infinite fractal hologram of life. The physical display is a by-product of the consciousness with which we experience it. Most lines of thought miss this consideration which limits our understanding of the true nature of reality by putting the proverbial cart in front of "said horse."

Our entire concept for life is ass backwards! The simplest way to express this is to ask; did Nature come first – or come about as the result of a random cosmic fluke? The answer is quite obvious once you put the metaphysical horse in front of the physical cart – consciously speaking.

The chicken or egg first question is this same question posed in its simplest terms; or the seed or plant first question. Which came first – a chicken or an egg? What was first – a seed or a plant? If you think science can answer the question of why we are here; give your head a shake. They can't even answer the gist of the above two questions to the satisfaction of an inquisitive child. They have no explanation for the cause of atomic structure, and no explanation for cosmic structure. According to science; the very premise of life relies on an unknown process!

The previous statement burns a great many reductionist holes – but; it had to be said. Religion which doesn't grasp these concepts for life – is not much more receptive to this obvious truth either. According to dogmatic religion it was the work of a spooky father figure on a throne who needs my money – or he will toss my ass into an eternal skillet of suffering for not cooperating. By religious considerations in the standard definitions – I am worthless and must grovel for forgiveness for my birth.

My point is that religion in its current developmental stage – is also sucking the hind tit in explaining our experience. I am however convinced that the premise of Creation and how conscious experience works is generally covered. We just are not reading it right. Whoever wrote those ancient religious texts (witnesses of cosmic consciousness) really did have a superior grip on the true nature of reality. We just didn't have the developmental awareness to understand concepts of infinities, and fractals, and holograms. We didn't know what was meant by "Image" and "Likeness."

This is the logic of transcendence. It is happening all around us to everything else it seems. All life is a cycle of a single conscious energy. All DNA, although programmed uniquely, is an over all ecosystem – a single overall biota or biomass. All atoms share a field of information smeared everywhere; and they contain the information from the big bang (or whatever you want to call that too)! The biology is a compound resonance of this quantum information. Your conscious morsel is part of an infinite consciousness.

And the Cosmos is in some respects, from a higher perspective; still the conscious egg, seed, or particle mote – which it started as. We are just the separations of a seamless boundary state of consciousness. In a way we live inside the egg as infinite fractal divisions of it.

The translation is we don't die. We were not born. We cycle. We are by definition an eternal transcendent state, displayed as terminal bits. We are a conscious reflection; of our conscious Source. We are an individuation of a continuum. We are temporary boundary states of consciousness folded into individuations – which are primarily formed from the totality of the conscious energy of the universe.

The first time I had a near death experience; I was astounded by these metaphysical considerations made real by experience. There are no verbs to adequately describe the feelings I had; but out of need I'll try.

The first thing I felt was a "Presence." A Calm, Loving, feeling enveloped me like a conscious comforter. I felt a direct communication that everything would be alright – no matter what happened or how it turned out. No pain, no fear, and a "Voice" which goes by many names – but means the same thing to "All" people. I didn't wonder what this was – I knew it was what we called God.......how we each define that might be debateable. What it is – was never in question.

This "Voice" was without a doubt the Source of Life – of Consciousness itself. It told me to "look around and learn," which I then did. With "fresh eyes" I re-examined my situation and observed those around me in a new light. The first thing this Voice taught me was about the falsehoods of organized faith with narrow parameters. The first thing I learned in a ward full of people who were perched at the barrier of mortality; was how afraid they were.

I was not the least bit worried that I might die; mostly because I felt and heard "the Voice," and I knew in my heart of hearts there was nothing to fear. At the most; I felt perhaps a tad apprehensive and perhaps curious. Once you "know" we are not mortal worthless and weak – what is there to be afraid of?

The other people in the Cardio Level One Ward – the ones who believed in the standard ways we are taught – were shitting bricks to express it mildly! I never realized how weak what we are taught in the societal propaganda versions actually were; until I witnessed the effects of a weak concept first hand. I was surprised how rude, afraid, self concerned and confused people who we would consider highly religious were, when it came time to face the end.

What I learned, and what my point is; that while there is "something" it has little to do with a particular brand of belief, and absolutely nothing to do with fictional father figures or books about it. Bibles and ancient texts were revealed as sources of information about true spirituality – and not a replacement for actually experiencing what I am talking about. In other words, don't be fooled; books about religion are just records of other people's experiences with what I am talking about – they are not "yours."

Experiencing this Transcendent nature of consciousness before you die – is what all religions are trying to do – but you wouldn't know it. They lost the point. The standard method doesn't believe or encourage actual experiences with it. Books about spirituality are not spirituality – they are merely records of experiences meant to inspire you to find this out for yourself. When you consider the books about it – "it," you missed something critical in the content.

In my case, my near death experiences were not just "scares" or mere "brushes with death," as a blurred line between being alive and not being alive. Mine were the no heartbeat kind. Once I had no heartbeat for about three minutes (according to my distraught wife who was present). The next time was during a corrective surgery gone awry; which entailed several calls of "code white" and "code blue" and left me in a coma on life support in the Intensive Care Ward. After some 18 – 19 hours apparently; I started breathing on my own again. At which point they started pulling out what felt like too many tubes.

Code white, and code blue, means a dying and combative patient. This went on for about 4 – 5 hours beyond the scheduled time for my surgery. My family was painfully aware that things went wrong. As strange and unpleasant as this all sounds – I considered myself lucky. Not for surviving so much (although I am thankful), but for what I learned! What I learned and am trying to impart to you! This is why this stuff is so important. This is about the true nature of reality and our experience.

My advice to you is simple. Don't believe in books about spirituality – go find the truth out and experience it for yourself. Use those books, all of them; to learn how others experienced this Transcendent Nature – and do it on your own. And don't believe the hype that only special people in the remote past were worthy and capable of actual interaction with it. I don't consider myself special – but I experienced fantastic things. So can you; this being my ultimate point. This isn't a fictional consideration.

You don't have to have a near death experience to discover this. The seeking of knowledge is a good method. Once you rewrite what we were taught. Through open minded study and examination of science, and taboo esoteric concepts, from a position of heartfelt enquiry – this same truth is revealed.

A spiritual quest to explain our reality is another excellent method – as long as you don't restrict this quest to a particular name brand or solitary concept. The truth is much, much, greater than such a restricted method, and will not reveal it's self to a mind not able to consider other peoples experiences as food for thought. Selective paths to heaven, my God is better than your God, and exclusive groups; don't get this – so they can't help you.

Some people find this through Shamanic experiences, vision quests, fasting, chanting, meditational efforts, prayer, dreams, and about a hundred other divisions of the same principle.

What every spiritual experience entailed; was this same separation from your individuation. This can also be done by inward focus. My point is that every form of experiencing this Transcendence is a product of separating yourself from your individual aspect, or going deep enough inside yourself to find that you are the "whole" contained.

When you meditate properly; you find the fundamental oneness and the primordial element we missed. That element is a sea of shared consciousness which is contained within you and accessible. You find that out inadvertently if you get separated from your body prematurely. Those who consider this complete crap – will eventually face this truth when their body fails. Those who realized and experienced it prior to their demise – have already secured their metaphysical address.

Another thing I learned which surprised me was how we heal ourselves. I don't mean to imply we can negate the effects of physical experience, but we can affect it. You can only heal yourself or others, once you realize it doesn't matter if you do (because we don't die), and you can envision the process. Just like "wishing for stuff," you have to wish it for others and not yourself. Then it works.

If you give as good as you get emotionally – Bob really is your Uncle! If we all wished for each others well being it would work. The best way to get is to give. The best way to love is to forgive. The burden we tote in life is the result of result of love and forgiveness withheld.

Don't be afraid. Especially don't be afraid to explore without restraint. The restraint we are spiritually conditioned to apply; is the method of a fearful entity. That fear will resurface when you face your demise. If you don't fear, and you understand, every experience; even the worst – is made easy. Leave the dogma in the dirt where it belongs and sail the ether of space/time a little – and you'll see what I mean.

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Every single one of us has experienced this supernatural metaphysical phenomenon at various times throughout our lives. In fact we run on it all the time – oblivious as we currently are for the bulk of our experience. But sometimes; we can deliberately or accidentally trigger what Churches call Miracles, what Occultists and esoteric believers call Clairvoyance and self healing – and Science calls impossible and denies vehemently. However; I think thou doth protest too loudly as they say!

One of the most gratifying rewards for my work; are the things people tell me when nobody is around. You know; look right, look left, and then tell me something supernatural \- which I am then expected to explain in a meaningful fashion. Tales as it were; of these phenomenon we speak of – because trust me it happens all the time to everybody if you learn how to recognize this.

A deceased relative making their presence known somehow is a rather common one. A near death experience which reveals continued consciousness, and tunnels, lights and entities is also common fodder in this realm. Healing occurring inexplicably and often deliberately induced is another repeating theme. Like I said to begin with; call it a miracle, or an esoteric consideration – it just depends on what side of the fence you are hanging off.

What we do is place this same phenomenon into different categories; depending on who witnessed them. If it was Mr. Crowley telling us; he conjured the apparitions. If it was a Bishop in the Catholic Church; it was a sign from God. It is the same phenomenon; with different explanations. The tribal Shaman, Mystics, the Gurus, Monks, and Sages and Seers of old, and multiple others also experienced these effects.

The real answer is to be found when we study all the various claims from a broader and more inclusive perspective. What do they have in common?

In every case it is a result of a separation from your body in some form. And it doesn't seem to matter what form this takes; as long as it is genuine. The Shaman would ingest a natural hallucinogen and generate a spiritual experience. Some use fasting. Wandering through a desert or wilderness as a rite of passage was another. A trance state induced by deep meditation and akin to self hypnosis would be another. Breathing exercises of various types might be another. Extended prayer works as well. Gurus who lie on spike beds or hang from hooks would be another way. Evangelists and Ministers practicing flagellation, and Priests inflicting self harm for sins committed against God as penance; another yet.

You can also find this effect also documented in G-Force Accelerators (gravity force accelerators) used to test pilots. When the g-force gets too great – they have a mini near death experience. Some claim this proves it is just a sensory overload, and maybe it is.

My belief however is that when you overload – your spirit pops out a little due to the physical separation or duress. I believe that rather than disproving our spirit component; they just found another way to reliably induce it. My conclusion is based on my research and my own experiences on this topic.

What I soon learned; was that the near death experience was a window into our non-physical, or metaphysical being – and so were the rest of the other phenomenon. Two basic forms this takes are - Astral Traveling; as in out of body experiences of all types – and Channelling.

One form is you temporarily exiting your body prior to your demise – or externalizing your essence. The other is going into your center more than normal – to the common point in all of us; to draw information from the shared conscious field. One is an outward manifestation of your conscious application, and the other is an inner manifestation. The common denominator is the consciousness applied. Leaving your body, and remaining conscious; can only mean one thing if it is true.

I go into more detail regarding the gravitational properties involved with consciousness in my other books; but the long and the short of it is this. There is only one fundamental primordial element upon which all life and reality is based, and a single infinite force in two states at work on it. The "Ether," "the Fabric of Space/time," "the Waters," "Dark Matter," "a God Particle," or any similar concept for this first element from which all we can see and experience is made from – is this element.

The force of Gravitation in two states is the operator of this element which behaves like a fabric – which again should have been more obvious. Even our emotions are effects of gravitation as we expand or contract consciously. Atoms, Beings, Planets, and Stars, or individuations, are this force held in check temporarily to generate the stuff we can see – like a Star maintaining the balance between collapse and expansion for a fixed period of time. Atoms, you and I, and all formed creatures are a result of this delicate balance.

What constitutes every aspect of reality; is the result of the fabric we are embedded in and these two states of infinite gravitation as infinite expansion versus infinite collapse. The objects in this expanding fabric are all collapsing; to make a dimple or a folding of itself to create objects in it! This is what I meant when I mentioned an unauthorized metaphysical education. This is indeed a class in empowerment 101.

Given such a construct, as odd as it might initially seem – explains pretty much everything we can not currently. Especially the weird stuff! If we are all made of a common primordial element; which if you break it down to beginnings must be true, and if we operate on a single force in two states which also jives with the beginning – an entirely new landscape is generated from this long overdue realization.

We can as I indicated - now explain the bulk of the things that science, and faith based systems, and conscious experience, lack explanations for. For now I would like to return to our journey of life, as consciously experienced by all of us. When you think about how we experience our life this new way – the riddle or secret of life is revealed.....the veil drops.

The joy of my work has an untimely and odd essence to it. At times it feels like I am so far out in left field – I've abandoned the stadium........but maybe that's not so bad. This work is like planting rare seeds in hostile environments, and letting nature take its course. Some seeds get rain and sun and grow; others wither. At times I am elated when a seed grows; because unlike conventional seeds, these conscious seeds all grow in different directions.

More and more frequently, people come to me after I planted a seed – and tell me beautiful things I understand all too well.

Some realize mentally, and feel consciously; the ancient knowledge we have forgotten and been conditioned to disregard. At a most basic level – knowledge becomes awakened and sought out. The first reaction is seeking knowledge; when I see that awakened in a person I take comfort that the Seeking of Knowledge required to facilitate growth has sprouted.

Then some elevated conversations can take place. Then we have conversations about important things; and not about Britney's garment failures, wealth, domination and explosions, societal distractions, and other unworthy topics. With the seeking of knowledge; the bull pucky looses its appeal. That's why all true spiritual pursuits endorse seeking knowledge as a foundation for belief. Knowledge will expose this special element.

So the first bonus is intelligent well intentioned debate with other like-minded spirits about worthy topics, rather than the mindless preoccupation with the pointless propaganda employed to distract us. Thinking for yourself and debunking bunk at a personal level has multiple benefits which are not encouraged. It makes us individually harder to manipulate; and infects others to make us harder to manipulate as a whole.

With this new found freedom and confidence; and an inkling of the broader parameters for spiritual reckoning – we start to explore things we previously believed were not possible. We realize things in the past which we couldn't explain – had completely reasonable explanations. Then we start to bust out of convention with a bent to experience this newly discovered realm!

The intense gratification of hearing people tell me that they got a solid connection to universal consciousness through meditation is indescribable and infectious. Like I said earlier; more and more people are catching on to this – it is in the air. Actually it is probably in the Ether and the Grand Signal of Creation – but my point remains that it is shared.

People call me and describe "channelling" which is what inspired witnesses to write bibles. Regular ordinary folk like you and I; not just some special Minister, Prophet, Pope or ordained stuffed shirt can do this. We are led to believe even in religious dogma, that special events which inspired writing manuscripts – were restricted to special people in the remote past. We all know where the concept of selective paths, selective renditions for God, and special people to grovel to come from. They revolve around control and money – they conceal the truth. Romanticised Metaphors regarding these Parables about the Truth – require filtering.

Give yourself the appropriate due. Once you understand how this reality works, and how it is constructed, and its very purpose – you should realize what you are! This is why this type of genuine "Illumination" is restricted by those in power; because it is very empowering to know this truth. It makes for independent free thinking individuals – which translates to shitty slaves. All of us; are made of infinite consciousness applied to an infinite fabric. If the reverence and humbleness required to navigate this realm just fell into place for you – I have more information about how to participate with it later.

For now let us review the phenomenon we couldn't explain and branded with strange connotations.

How many believe in "water dousing?" If science had you convinced that there was no basis in reality for the practice, and you accepted the church version and perhaps viewed this as "water witching" and deemed it occult – give it some more thought. If a rodent can "intuit" and sense water, and we are the apex of biological evolution on this planet – wouldn't we be able to use our metaphysical connection to everything else to locate the water? Would we not have superior instincts? We do – but we are conditioned to deny them and told to use only our left-brained intellect to make decisions. This is but one example of the experiences we have, and things we are capable of.

Déjà-vu is another prime example of this link we deny. When a person experiences déjà-vu, and can tell you where objects are in a town they had never been to before – they are just remembering where another consciousness has been. The same phenomenon applies to past life regressions – they are all of ours – pick one. Creatures showing inexplicable instincts are another; like when a bird or fish knows where and when to go never having undertaken the journey – it is having species specific déjà-vu.

Even how our DNA knows how to construct us is a result of this déjà-vu – this is the species specific inherent memory complex we mysteriously call Nature........or the mind of God. That should break about a hundred mysteries if you get what I am saying. This is the true nature of reality, as evidenced all around us, and mislabelled as mystery - due to our limiting self imposed falsehoods. There is that veil again. I'm not saying we are "dumb" as convenient as that might be; I'm suggesting we are just looking at the whole shebang ass backwards.

Or we might also consider those who heal themselves or others; merely with conscious application, or envisioning? If you think there is no basis in reality for self healing – study the placebo effect. If we truly believe or wish something to work; like a child would – a "sugar pill" for example – works just as well as the prescribed medicine. Who do you think is in charge here? That; and a mountain of unexplained "miracle cures" which were considered impossible. They happen all the time. I grant you they are not commonplace or "the norm" - but evidence that it does take place is continuous and unyielding.

Has anyone else reading this had, or intimately known someone who had a near death experience and met the Transcendent Other? If you have; then you already had this education at the University of Cosmic Consciousness. For those who have not, and are conditioned to disregard such stories as hallucinations born of distress – you'd best start listening to your brothers and sisters who endure ridicule to tell you about their experiences. Most of us know someone we consider marginal for speaking about consciousness with no pulse.

Not only is the evidence of spirit continuance denied; all the effects we experience when loved ones die, are denied. Countless people will swear up and down that they felt the presence of a loved one in some fashion, after they died. Many of us have felt this as a profound inner thought, or resonation of that person's essence in alternate form.

Myth busted - spirit continuance is real! That should be worthy information which breeds empowerment I would think. Either that; or we fall back to us being delusional creatures which negates any value to ourselves or our experiences. The second and widely accepted answer is baseless and disempowering – in case anyone missed that!

Hospice work (helping people pass on) becomes most rewarding, although it remains difficult; for those blessed souls who help others cross the threshold. If you have ever witnessed a loved ones passing first hand – at the end, some familiar themes are repeated. Mostly when people are "walking between the worlds" half here and half there; they all say the same things. Things like; "I'm O.K. now, don't worry about me – I'm walking and feeling fine – Mom and Sis are here" (for example) – and a temporary glow is often mentioned by those who can see it.

How many ways does the truth have to be experienced – before we start to give a value to it? From the sub-atomic to the cosmic; the evidence is that life is an evolving repeating cycle, of fractal holographic boundary states. One that is eternal. A Yin and Yang, or the In and Out Breathing of the Universe, or as a Cyclic Force, we are an integral part of - and woven into the fabric of.

I hear tale after tale from people once I awaken them. We all have tales. Tales we should reconsider from an enlightened perspective. What we call Spirit, God, and the memory of Nature – is just non-physical consciousness. And just as we were told; it is "IN" and "OF" all things. A First and Last, the Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and End simultaneously, the Sum Total of All, the I Am That I Am, the All Seeing Eye, and endless descriptions for the same realization. Everything is at the very least made of "God stuff!"

Time and Space; are a Venue. The Dots and Waves in it; are the same thing in two states. This all inclusive fabric, harmonic, light, or whatever property you wish to use to describe it, is turned inside-out, and turned outside-in, from a metaphysically non-localized dimensional beyond what we experience now. We become this all inclusive conscious property we call Spirit which is all around us as a wave. The information is always preserved and never destroyed – not a single mote. A rule is a rule, after all!

As mortal third dimensional beings, we are a center unto ourselves, and we draw in this fabric of light we can't see; because we are temporarily in the opposite state – turned "outside-in" if you will entertain the notion. From this perspective things look different to a being limited to their five senses with a materialistic world view. For the Spiritual Thrill Seeker however; to those who "intuit" and "feel" with senses we are evolving to develop as a species – the Metaphysical Universal Mind is revealed.

Every credible religious epiphany, and spiritual experience, from every walk of life past and present, if lumped together as a single phenomenon and not subdivided by variation, if considered perhaps genuine and possible – are another proof.

It seems impossible to believe that as a species for tens of thousands of years - we keep having the same delusions and experiences. Could we really have all been connecting to the same thing in a variety of ways – as a fact? How could we not! If you believe in any shred of any religious manuscript channelled by a "witness" you already bought into the notion without realizing it.

We swear on bibles to marry, give witness in court by swearing on a bible, and fashion our society on rules in the bible. But if you claim to have made a connection or communicated with the remote control author of "said bible" you can be locked up or disregarded as legally delusional for hearing voices. A bit schizophrenic; wouldn't you say to base a culture on bibles – yet give the concept no value other than lip service?

So really; we are in constant contact with our Source by energetic, material, and conscious connections. Start considering that when you hear someone put their feelings out for a beating; to make you realize it. The apparitions we see, the balls of light, the self healing and healing of others, the transcendence we occasionally glimpse, the clairvoyance some have tasted; are the new reality. New realities are being created that require no money – and are worth everything.......did I mention empowerment? Spiritual Capital is earned and harder to come by – but free to any and all takers. The real Fort Knox is consciousness and the evolution thereof.

I now believe in spiritual considerations – and advocate creating your own individual version of religion – since religion is just a record of actual spiritual experiences. Everybody is just like their favourite Prophet waiting to wake up. And nobody else can define and interpret your life, nor experience it for you, and ultimately nobody can die for you, or learn your lessons for you. You have to do all the above for yourself. And isn't it a coincidence that we are all unique in our construction, viewpoint, and flavour?

We all have tales – it is just a matter of whether we invite them in or not. I suggest we reconsider what we experience. It might take a little practice; but discerning a dream from a vision, and knowing a notion from a nagging repeating message to yourself, is a valuable asset to navigate life and educate your self with. 

#### 8 – The Riddle

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What is the Riddle of Life? The riddle of life is quite simply the quest to explain what we are, and why we are here. Consider my verbs a collection of my own thoughts and experiences – that I found information to back up. So can you – this is a natural process once a perspective change is entertained. Once the desire to discover the true nature of reality is rekindled and experienced; one becomes "illuminated" beyond the scope of the standard fare.

Our life is a test, soul school, and a lesson. If you start to glean this truth about your journey – everything you experience becomes the activity of education. The meaning of life returns. This knowing returns the flavour to life. It is after all; all about the journey and not the destination. Life is all about how you get there. So where is there?

The problem is that this type of thought has been systematically eliminated from our lives by the misconceptions we are taught from birth. The truth about life is factored out of the equation by number crunchers and control freaks. Remember when the riddle of life was paramount on your mind? WTF am I - and why am I here – and what the hoo-ha is this all about? (Not to mention; where is "here?")

The true nature of reality is the energy of conscious experience. The engine for reality as we know it really is consciousness – a collective one which forms a consensus reality. We do live in a universe of mind with an infinite manifold of individuations. Each individuation or portal, you and I for example – are reflective expressions of it. Each experience is a part of the aspects and intentions of a greater consciousness; like the inner workings of a larger boundary state or multidimensional reality.

The age old expression that "we are all One" really does apply in simple terms. There is more to it than that – but that is the gist of it. The riddle is and always has been internal to you; and to all of us individually. The proof we can't find is the one "looking." It is like looking for your keys or glasses with them in your hand. You are the proof of what I am saying; only you haven't learned to see that part of yourself yet. The veil is our personal individual realization of the whole. The Christ Consciousness or the "Building of the Body" are expressions of this realization. There are many others less known. Some are pretty damn interesting and worthy.

Alright; a little less "touchy-feely" and a little more of an exercise in logic is in order. After all; I did promise you some information pertaining to the greatest riddle. Information which intuitively resonates for you I hope, to allow deeper contemplative thoughts.

We don't see ourselves as part and parcel of something bigger; but everything always is. The entire structure of the cosmos, the biological relationships which create entities, and the atomic and sub-atomic bits, are all interconnected. Let us start at the micro end of the scale and work our way up, in this effort to give a purpose and reason for life.

Atoms all self organize from a shared field. Atoms themselves are like hollow balls of space/time and are more of an energy field than what one would call an object or thing. At a smaller yet scale - String Theory accounts for all the matter in the universe being nothing more than strings of ethereal energy (space/time), folded gravitationally, and vibrating at a certain harmonic to form groupings.

If you prefer the God Particle, which is also known as the Higgs Boson, or the Schwarzschild Proton; the same knowledge is revealed. The God Particle is like a stem cell for matter – a fundamental primordial sub-atomic building block for all matter. The "I can be anything bit." And this knowledge might account for how they all communicate, if they are after all "one bit" at core under the various manifestations of that "one bit." Science and Spirit should be able to quantify and verify each other; with tangible and collaborating information if you really hope to credibly explain anything worthwhile.

Biology is a fractal of the same concept. The biological scenario is easier to digest because it is closer to our experience. The atomic information science provides takes place below our level of experience and is harder to relate to. But it would seem as though the information to write the program for the biology or DNA; is a bridge between what could best be termed the metaphysical information at the quantum scale, and the material manifestation of that information as a grouping of biological entities.

This is information which is coming from a "shared field" to be clear. The information in our DNA is not completely internal as was once thought, but is derived from the environment; from the shared field. The DNA is a mechanism for communication between the sub-atomic information and biology – or us to simplify.

Then one merely needs to consider how biology works from the DNA up. The molecules and proteins also self organize into cells. These cells assemble and organize themselves into our internal components like tissue and organs. This grouping of organs communicates to each other – thus we exist. The random fluke hypothesis for life just went out the window – if you can appreciate the "beauty" of this assembly system! Although "beauty" is a seldom considered aspect scientifically, other than for it's simplicity of design once grasped by the mortal mind.

Then cosmically - you just have to run the film backwards to arrive at the same truth at the scale of the universe. It all came from a single point, place, or thing; no matter which brand of academia or theology you prescribe to and may accept as valid. There is little or no argument on this point by anyone. So if this universe which is really big to keep it simple, all came from a cosmic mote, or a single particle or entity; if you run the film backwards – it is still the "one thing." Easy stuff; you subdivide this dot to infinity to create everything perceived in "It."

The cosmos in all its singular splendour; is comprised of infinite, multiple individual components; as is any single process or boundary state at a more micro scale. Now some benefit of empowerment can take place for those able to consider the above interpretations of science – reasonable. All the above have serious implications – let us review the last few points to clarify this notion.

Atoms are all part of a shared field of information which communicates and forms all matter as we know it. These atoms also communicate and group into the biological building blocks for life. They build the biology from the information in the shared quantum field. Now I'll lay it on you.

What makes our science think it stops there? All this fantastic process builds and develops to generate sentient living organisms – didn't anyone stop and ask why? Why couldn't we be like the cells in our bodies; all individual units going about our business with our seemingly own agendas – yet part of a grander scheme? We are; that is the basic gist of the riddle of life.

We are part and parcel of something much greater – something infinite and eternal of which the veneer of this reality we experience is fashioned. We might never find what we call God – but we sure as Hell to pardon the pun are on the verge of proving the concept of Universal Consciousness, Cosmic Soul, or the God concept.

We are surely the bits that make something of a larger boundary state – like where the atoms generate the biology. Why couldn't our conscious individuations all constitute a greater conscious boundary state we call God or something of that sort?

Why couldn't the information we represent be a two way reflection of consciousness itself? This would make us a truly eternal integral component of life – on tour. The Spirit made Flesh to express the idea in religious terms, or Downwards Causation, or Emergence to express the idea in scientific terms.

So you see; it really is all about how you look at things which renders clarity. Given the perspective one gets from an unauthorized education about the true nature of reality, it becomes exposed once again as being about how to interpret reality and your experience. The ancient texts describe it as the ability to discern – since it is all about the interpreter or observer, developing enough to unravel the greatest riddle!

Everything works on the connective mystery of nature, like ants in a colony, or bees in a hive. Each cell of the conscious whole is always working to a common goal with no outward knowledge of the fact that they are. This is the secret to why atoms self organize into packets of information, which in turn propagate physically evident biology.

Everything is communicating at a metaphysical level; which isn't hard to grasp given the evidence life provides. Atoms, cells, and all the subsequent entities are all products of this system. I reiterate; what makes us think it stops there?

Just ask yourself as a betting person; where you would place a 50/50 wager on this issue? Given our construction and venue; what is the likelihood that the process ends at our scale – or that it is all a random fluke occurrence. It just isn't a bogus fairy tale that's all. The truth usually resides somewhere in the middle of the romanticised versions of religion and the robotic Spock-like logic of a strictly left brained scientific approach. Both hemispheres are required I assure you – or they wouldn't be there!

Now if we move into the experiential part of life, the conscious application of being aware of ourselves and our journey of experience and consider the above – the riddle is solved. One more question needs to be asked. What if the consciousness we enjoy – is also a required building block for something greater? What if our minds are also communicating subconsciously? What if like an ant colony or a hive of bees – we really are just organic process as cells of the earth in a cosmic milieu? Boy that sure would explain a lot!

This simple exercise in logic makes short work of a mystery pile in fear of collapse I might suggest, and serves to explain all the "unexplainable" crap we are taught and force-fed. Like denial of the ability to "douse" for water, or water-witching as it is often referred to. Of course we can!

Our instincts as I hope to prove to you (instincts merely being one term for this) are at the level of our greater awareness – if we will permit it. We can not only "intuit" better than a rodent as a fact – we can ask this shared field of consciousness things! Call it the mind of Nature if that helps, as the unexplained repository and record of all the information and experiences preserved in the fabric of space/time. I said a lot; let me continue this exercise of logic to explain the metaphysical, mystical, and spiritual aspects of our existence.

If we reconsider any aspect of reality in this light (full pun intended); this makes short work of a mystery pile. From how we are constructed, to how we behave – it can all be explained once we consider the metaphysical invisible minutia behind it. But for our purposes here; this is also a damn good explanation for what we call spiritual, occult, and mystic manifestations which we presently attribute to mystery.

Given the metaphysical connective tissue between all lives, which is after all conscious energy; these internal communications become more than possible – they become exposed as commonplace. We just have a hard time accepting things we can't physically see or measure.

Instead we ignore and deny obvious contradictions to our theories; because they don't fit within the parameters of the current scientific models. Our outdated classical static steady state models and laws and principles - are being challenged and failing as we speak.

For example; all clairvoyance such as, spiritual experiences, past life recollections, prophecy, near death experiences, out of body experiences, self healing and healing of others, and most of what is considered supernatural........is normal!

The proof as I stated earlier is that this is how we are constructed, and how we act in our environment – it is all the same system! Once you get that everything is "built" this way – it is hardly a mystery that it "acts" this way.

The concept of déjà-vu is a nice simple way to explain this. Déjà-vu is usually described as a person being in a place they have never been – yet being familiar with the area. And we are not talking about a vague familiarity. Many of the déjà-vu experiences describe knowing where the trees and homes and such are located, the types and colors – as if it were their own memory.

Our lives are a lot like that. We just sort of remember stuff about how to live and survive passed down from our ancestors. Our bodies do the same thing; and are completely constructed from the memories of other life. This "memory" it seems – is generally species specific.

The ancient tribal peoples had this right long before we did by the way; with the notion of the Spirit of Eagle, the Spirit of Bear, the Spirit of Man, and so on. They even had the upper fractal covered with a Great Spirit called Manitou which encompassed all Spirits. This simple concept is often difficult to grasp until we adjust our perspective regarding how life works. But once you do – everything falls right into place and fits logically – as well as experientially.

Allow me to provide a few examples to stimulate consideration. When someone claims to have a "past life memory" – they are just having déjà-vu. They are remembering another life. It might be their own, or someone else's; but it feels like their own from the perspective of a Universal Soul – which everything ultimately is.

When one of us achieves a spiritual link, or an epiphany of knowledge which was sought consciously, or externalizes and yet remains conscious without a body; it makes complete sense – given an understanding of the actual construction of existence. Knowing the "true nature of reality" as the Buddha expressed – explains everything.

Water dousing was used as an example, which we all know has been, and still is used today to find water. Voodoo in the age of technology to some – is a proven fact of life to others. Walking into a room and feeling a "vibe" is another example we all know is true which has no explanation from academia.

How about this explanation for feeling emotion as vibration? We are a "vibe" so feeling this invisible "vibe" shouldn't freak anybody out or be denied just because it doesn't fit with an outmoded view to explain life. I contend that when we exit our mortal physical vehicle – this special part of us "vibes on."

My own personal experience with our transcendent nature through my near death experiences, meditation above the standard fare, and spiritual experiences which are in many respects beyond verbal description, have given me a peek and an advantage – and a duty. All that is required is a little unauthorized esoteric education about the riddle of life, the Holy Grail, the secret of life, or what ever you want to call it.

I could write an encyclopaedia of things to consider on this point, but I think you get the gist of what I am saying. Just take the mystery out of your own life experience, and return the value to life. The small questions and the large questions are easily answered by an open mind offered an unauthorized metaphysical education.

Questions we abandoned as children need to be reconsidered now. Why am I here? What is it all about? What am I? Where do I go? I am sure this is what was meant by "a child shall lead them." A consciousness which retains a child-like inquisitiveness about experience which is all about feelings rather than self concern and ego is what is required. It also doesn't hurt to have an esoteric education. I think that is what was meant by "seek knowledge."

The reason is empowerment. Knowing what you are, how you work, and the knowledge that you have nothing to fear regarding death; ultimately changes your perspective for the better I might suggest. You are no longer a greedy self centered fearful entity from this perspective of yourself.

This information also empowers us to experience what we are made of at the metaphysical level. You get to do some "hands on" conscious exploration which is in other terms experiencing spirit. We are special elements called spirit, a metaphysical non-local, eternal, permanent force of consciousness which evolves – the gift of conscious experience made flesh or material.

This spiritual theory is not my own solely. Many mystics and luminaries far beyond my scope have contributed to the conscious evolution of our species; and I am humbled to contribute in my own small way. It all matters in a shared reality where everything is connected as a fundamental Oneness.

The mystery of evolution is solved and verified by the idea that the information of our experiences is maintained beyond each life cycle. This information compounds to make ever more complex and aware physical reflections of itself; an Image or Likeness if you will recollect.

The First Star, I Am That I Am, the All Seeing Eye of the sum total of consciousness, Tetragrammaton, the Logos, an All, and God as a totality, or a Conscious Source beyond our dimension is what this is. And the key to this riddle is exposing the mystery of life as being something you are to solve for yourself - individually.

Once you get this perspective change in place; the riddle of life, as the bulk of the other riddles are made short work of. Even the suffering we endure in a three dimensional existence can be viewed as an opportunity to educate and evolve a permanent eternal multidimensional conscious totality we are aspects and intentions of.

The Micro scale Spirit Energy, and the Macro scale Cosmic Mind, and the temporary individual representation of it you are – are all part and parcel of each other. That we, it, and everything in it can communicate is far from impossible. It is in fact; the answer to the riddle; and this Riddle has a prize!

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The Voice is something that is hard to describe. What I can say with no reservations is that it is a clear and direct powerful communication. If you have ever experienced the things I covered earlier like instincts or strong clairvoyance – multiply it to infinity by comparison. This Voice is a very powerful vibe to say the least.

After my near death experiences I realized I had felt that voice in many lesser forms earlier in my life. We live with this Voice as a constant signal; it is just a matter of how open to receive it we are. The Angels are always singing praise as it is said. The Universal Soul has a tone.

I don't want to make this about my experience with the Voice; I want to make this about you experiencing it – before we climb into our metaphysical star ship and exit our mortal coil. I will just say in no uncertain terms that I have no reason to feed you a line – and I know it wasn't something I made up or hallucinated. I also know each and every one of us (you included) will hear that Voice sooner or later; and I will be vindicated as a result.

Accompanied with "the Voice" there was an unmistakable presence which was also hard to describe in standard terms. It was like the strongest, clearest, presence you could imagine. The Voice was also a Vibe. Along with a strong direct communication, and this super presence; came an indescribable feeling of safety and Love. A calm loving presence, a feeling of well being, a complete lack of fear, super clarity, and omnipresent conscious communication – is felt when we physically die.

How can we be conscious; more conscious than ever – in death or near death conditions? Why do most of our passing loved ones tell us that they are alright, and not to worry, and often that they perceive themselves physically restored and communicating with the previously departed? I am pretty sure I know why – despite what the doctors and scientists claim.

The ones who never "experienced" this Voice and Feeling – are far too quick to deny the possibility. Oh well; they too will one day find the spirit component in themselves. I will be vindicated – I just might not hear about it in this life. Like I said earlier; it isn't hard to surmise that life is about self correction to facilitate conscious evolution. The Philosophers Stone is correct. Life is solely about the evolution of consciousness – over the alchemy of time and space.

The Voice is ever-present in you. You are a reflection of it, which is where the notion of being veiled may have come from. We limit the reflective potential of the grand signal due to our limited perceptive abilities. We get the "Tree of Knowledge," but not yet the "Tree of Life." They share a root.

The Knowledge was a 3rd dimensional way to physically teach us the true nature of reality "physically and materially." It was the first step above animal consciousness – the quest to understand existence – rather than just experience it like an animal. To know how and as a result why – and in essence to become aware, this should sound familiar.

The Voice is trying to tell us something. It is time to understand and become aware of the existence of the Tree of Life now. This next level of conscious evolution is about increased awareness again; awareness of a simple fact that despite the harshness of physical existence and being cast down into a realm of 3rd dimensional suffering – it is just a temporary condition or lesson. Wouldn't we act somewhat different given this simple truth as a fact of reality?

So spiritually and socially a correction would take place. We are all on the same Ball, and we are in the bigger picture; "each other." So we wouldn't see the point in any violent solutions to violent problems. We might be so inclined to correct the inequities and problems which "cause" the conflicts instead – seeing as how we are all in the same metaphysical boat.

How old are you now? Somewhere between 1 and 100 I can safely bet! How smart can you get in a hundred years? Now ask yourself the question which makes clear this conundrum of existence. How smart could you get in 14 – 21 billion years? This totality of conscious experience is likely much older than that; so if it is a continuous mind at a greater scale – the repository for the information of life has been exposed.

Something so vast is always made of smaller components. Those smaller components communicate with each other – at a scale which remains invisible to the greater organism. You are just a smaller component in the cosmic scheme of things.

This returns us to consider this communication as the information which constructs life – and lends it the consciousness with which to experience it. What we call God, or Nature, or whatever; is just "us" at a larger scale and a more inclusive boundary state. The truth is that the entire gambit revolves around consciousness – so we shouldn't be too surprised that it; a) freely communicates internally, and b) retains the information beyond the individuation of itself.

So what we call a "hunch" or a "gut feeling" is actually an internal communication of the higher organism. We should consider these feelings far more valuable than we do. I hope I am able to give rise to consider such notions. Let me try and explain it in another way.

We could look at this simply as conscious and sub-conscious communication. We take in far more information with our five senses than we are able to process consciously. Sub-consciously, at the Micro level – we absorb much more of this information. Sub-consciously at the Macro level we also absorb more of this information. At scales above and below our current ability to consciously process information – there is a constant flow of information at a metaphysical, sub-conscious, non-local, all inclusive harmonic. The grand signal of life if you will consider it – is always playing out around us.

When viewed in such a fashion; the logic becomes impeccable. Our five senses take in billions of bits of sensory inputs per second. Our physical mind only processes a select few thousands of these billions of bits of information which we are aware of consciously. But sub-consciously – you get a different story.

Just ask why your individual being takes in millions of bits of information you are not physically aware of? If this invisible communication served no purpose – why would it take place? The fact that this invisible minutia of information we are seldom privy to takes place – speaks volumes.

Your subconscious element uses this information to connect you to the greater totality and your reality! So when you tap into this sub-communicational system; you get what we call instincts. When you start to master this same field of information more fully; we call it clairvoyance – or pulling information from the sub-strata of reality.

When your inner child speaks you should probably listen to it. When you hear a Voice that isn't you own – don't be in denial (unless it tells you to hurt others). The Voice is just an inner communication of the greater boundary state of conscious existence. It is a conscious immune system speaking to its body. We are bits of that body.

This is an internal communication of the greater consensus reality you are embedded in; of the greater Universal Mind. Some call this God; and all I am suggesting is that what we call "God" is actually a name for an even greater ever-present force. I am not saying that no such thing exists – I am just stating an obvious fact that the concept of a spooky father figure on a throne – doesn't hold a candle to the truth.

For me this greater Voice is the sum total of all the communications of life. Every atom, every DNA strand, the proteins, and molecules, the cells, the biological entities, and even the internal cosmic bodies such as planets and stars – are all metaphysically connected and linked – and they communicate like cells in a body. These are the ever present energetic states we call gravitation, or infinite collapse and infinite expansion, which is what everything is at the wave or force condition – be it an atom, a black hole, an entity, or an infinitely expanding cosmos, or consciousness.

The Voice we hear at times of crises, and times of deep contemplation of life; is the voice of creation. When we experience these phenomenon as real events and not fictional as we are conditioned to believe currently; we get the "straight goods" about life. We get the truth about reality, to which our five senses alone leave us Veiled, or Lost, Deaf, or Blind – to use familiar terms.

Like I said before – this communication is ever-present; it is we who need to learn how to deliberately participate with it. When we do; we pull information from beyond the limitations of space/time as we know it. To us it seems a bit fantastic given the limited construct for reality we currently entertain. But the more we learn about the true construction and nature of existence; the more we are realizing we were wrong in assuming life was a random fluke event.

The whole nature of reality and experience is a sentient act. If you still can't get a grip on the concept for a "Voice of life" – take this process to the very first act. Remember being told a Creator did it and that "He saw that it was good." Remember statements like; "There Shall Be Light." These are the very same elements of consciousness which we experience now – broken down to their very definition.

A Creative act is an intention. Seeing that it was good; was the observation. Something "intended" to create – and "observed" that it did; or it wouldn't have taken place. And if it did take place for no reason at no particular time – who or what would give a care if it did? This means something regarding "The Voice."

The very first element in existence was "The Voice." The very first primordial element upon which all subsequent elements and dimensions and realities are generated from – was Consciousness. This self-generating, self sustaining element of consciousness is the only element with this property of permanence. The very act of Creation was a Voice; the "Word."

The "Word" of God we were told; is what everything is made of. So spiritually, no matter what version you prefer; we owe our existence to this fundamental primordial element of "Word" which I suggest must emanate from a "Voice." Forget the contrived differences between the various belief systems, and just look at the facts – spiritually.

has come to much the same conclusion, if you just look at the facts also. At the sub-atomic scale, the building blocks of our entire reality – are all one primordial element. This sub-stratum of atomic structure is a non-local, outside space/time, super positioned, metaphysical energy – a wave made of yet smaller strings vibrating at a certain harmonic. Word indeed; if you will consider the similarity.

At the opposite scale of scientific endeavour, we have the same information regarding cosmic structure. The greater realization is that if everything in manifest reality came from a "dot,".............................it still is a dot at some scale. What I mean to say is that even if it expanded, inflated, big banged, turned inside out or any other such manifestation – it remains the "one thing." It might have changed "dimensions," but it is still contained within the same "boundary state."

Another way to envision this would be to imagine that you could back up from the universe itself at such a scale and dimension as to render it back into the dot it started out as! Diving into infinity, and subdividing reality; isn't much different than doing the opposite of backing up until you detach yourself from it.

With the above considerations exposed; it is easy to understand why we seemingly keep having the same delusion over and over as a species regarding a Supreme Being. The very construction, operation, and experience of life – is this "State of Being." This is why we keep receiving the same spiritual information through various methods, since time began. Each time we got "special information" or had a true spiritual link with Creation, which in essence is "Creator," we fashioned a belief system from it because it was always profound, real, and yielded information beyond what we can politely call our current "pay-scale" consciously.

What I am saying is that proof of this Voice, as corny and obvious as it might seem; is to be found in every single spiritual belief system throughout time. Proof of this Voice is the communication and vibrations matter itself is constructed of. Matter is the vibratory essence of "The Voice." And with a firm understanding of the true nature of reality under your belt – while meditating, praying, or in deep contemplation – you can also "tap into" that which is eternally "tapped into you." I see that as first hand, experiential proof we can each individually take to the Soul Bank, as Spiritual Capital.

It is not strange to experience spirituality. Most Organized Religions would have you believe that interacting with what they call God, is not possible; that it requires a mediator. What a low expectation rendition for spirituality that is – the worth should be considered equivalent to the explanation.

One of the first things "The Voice" taught me in my time of trauma; was the weakness of the watered down version of religion we are taught, and how disempowering it was. I felt like the remote control author of every belief system in existence was showing me with disdain – how pitiful and perverted His teachings had become. This was a powerful message which given my circumstance in the "Level One Cardio Ward" – was repeatedly proven to me beyond any doubt. The bulk of the people who we would consider highly religious – lack true faith where and when it matters most – at deaths door. At least I can say with a clear conscience that my beliefs based on experiences – carried me through that difficult time in my life with remarkable ease.

All that religious texts and belief systems represent are the individual perceptions of true experiences with spirituality – as the mystics professed. They are just records of experiences – not the experience. If you see them as such; the actual value of these records serves a purpose. The purpose is just to help you experience it for yourself. This process has been removed from Spirituality by society at large due to academic and theological falsehoods about the true nature of reality. What you are, why you exist, and how it really works.

We are quite capable of communicating with that which we are constructed of! The eternal metaphysical energy of consciousness is what I dare say we are! This same energy constructs the very venue for our experience. This same energy we can communicate with; and affect! The possibilities should be apparent. Conscious awakening or awareness is just a doorway to endless conscious portals with infinite possibilities – physical and non-physically manifest. We are a mere cosmic infant. The language of life has yet to be mastered; the Voice inside us holds the key.

#### 10 – Inner Technology

What the ancient texts describe; is a time when our "inner technology" was the whole point of life and existence. They had it right. The difference is that we went off on a technological tangent and lost sight of our Inner Technology. Both inner and outer technologies serve a purpose – but we only currently acknowledge one. The spiritual one we mistakenly assume to be fictional.

Does this mean there really was a time when what we call God – spoke directly to man? Yes – but not in the fashion we have depicted it as. Creation spoke to its children; in the same way it built them and gave us the ability to experience. Nobody poked their finger through a cloud and spoke Shakespearian Queens English at anybody.

It doesn't much matter which belief system is employed either; they all are about this knowledge. It has just been wrapped in secrecy and mired in dogma, and has become separated into many belief systems. Even science is this same quest. From all religions, to mysticism, esoteric beliefs and beyond – this is all the same knowledge.........although you wouldn't think so by the vehement denial.

I don't have time to rehash my other books in this regard, but if you want simple proof that this is all the same information; just read any Bible with an esoteric education – it will I suggest start to make the sense it was intended to. I see this as a good start; the mystery removed from the concept of religious dogma. Many of us are turned off by the version which entails a "My God is better than your God" mentality and a selective path which excludes many.

Alright; let's get into how any of this is beneficial to us as we muddle through this lesson we call life. As I stated earlier this starts with an education – an unauthorized one. We need to learn things we can do with this knowledge about our inner technology and how it works.

The first thing we have to learn is that when you look up at the starry night sky – you are looking at an inside-out version of yourself. The first step is recognizing yourself for what you are. Do you see infinity and wonder? Good – then you can see yourself! You are the same thing in the opposite state – we are outside-in versions of what we see around us.

This is what causes spiritual people to weep profusely at the realization that in a real sense – everything is what we call God. The true nature of reality is revealed to those who bother to learn that what we call God from an immature perspective - is all conscious experience, to the spiritually mature perspective. An unfettered education in spirituality, metaphysics, or the direct scrutiny of consciousness as experienced will expose this as true.

Science which is ahead of the mainstream is also starting to prove that every separate element and property conceals the fundamental oneness, or the primordial element from which all life is structured. The really mind blowing part is that this oneness or primordial element which is displayed as "information," is "consciousness." This memory of nature and law governing the elements; as a whole – constitutes a greater conscious totality within a larger boundary state.

First; get a working concept for some sort of a construct for your individual experience. Envision the workings which connect everything for yourself in your own way, using any of my many constructs for it – or better yet your own. This can be photons (light energy), waves (vibrations), particle effects (quanta), dimensionality (multiple dimensions and universes), gravitation (wheels within wheels, and orbits), wormholes (tunnels through space/time), electromagnetic tethers (energetic silver chords), or any other real process in science. This is all that is required – a working model that works for you based on reality and knowledge. It has to be "real" and not "bogus." Not a fictional force, a real one. Any envisioning system works quite simply because nature actually employs them all at multiple dimensions. For now let us not rupture something we will need later, to express a point!

This force is so all encompassing it defies simple description which is why; a) spiritual people romanticised and employed colourful metaphors, and; b) why scientists use ambiguous terms to conceal shortcomings. Cipher your own science, and write your own faith – it is after all given the correct perspective – meant for you. It is meant for you to learn how to actually move about in this conscious playground. Religion is just the story of learning and experiencing Spirituality. Science is just the story of learning just how special we are. Our effort to envision reality and experience it is paramount to our journey.

The problem is that we forgot our inner technology, when we went of on this left brained quest for external technology – which was in short; the ability to manipulate our environment. A quest which unfortunately seems based on explosions and a dominator culture. Me first, he who dies with the most toys wins, and greed and ego driven pursuits, all serve to deceive us equally as well as falsehoods about spirit. Being self absorbed, fearful of mortality, and unaware of our Inner Technology – is costing us big-time.

I should think it was a required part of our growth to realize that beyond our five or so senses – much of the true nature of reality remained hidden. The bumps and bruises of learning to walk; seem apply to our conscious evolution over the alchemy of time equally well.

Now thanks to the scientific quest to quantify reality; we know that what we see isn't how it really is! We learned that a static steady state reality as was once believed correct couldn't be further from the truth! We learned just how special reality is; beyond what we see and feel. To a religious free-thinker, a mystic, an esoteric spiritualist, an alchemist, or a shaman, to name but a few – the true essence of life is revealed. It is revealed as a fundamental oneness – just like everything starts out as. The end is the beginning. Everything is Source based.

If you can accept the new science as proof that something special is going on here far in excess of the possibility of a random fluke occurrence without cause or reason as was once accepted – you get it. Now figure out how it works for you.

If you can then consider that all the ancient stone monuments, and ancient information chipped onto stones, and repeated themes of religion, are all about this inner technology of our oneness – you get it. The same applies; now figure out how it works for you.

Also realize that all the individuals (us) are different by design so that they/we/us actually see this differently. We are supposed to differ. We are just not supposed to fight about those different interpretations. The secret is to share and consider what we each discover and learn without forcing our opinion on others. Brothers and sisters tolerate their differences and draw upon them to assist each other. We as a result all have certain strengths and weaknesses. The truth is we all have our own path to follow to our own tune.

Now with the short version of what science is doing, and the "just add water" version of spirituality behind us – we need to talk about the point of this Inner technology. The lost science and spirituality of what we are and why we are here. We are here to learn and grow and educate and improve the blueprint for life – the shared conscious field. This conscious field we belong to – is everybody's Daddy.

The reason we are to learn this is because it is what we are. The self discovery and spiritual awareness is all part of the same process. I have my own metaphor for this; "Did a scientist just streak through the church naked and wink at that cute nun in the front row?" And I dare say.............That I'm pretty sure she winked back!

This merging of knowledge and feelings is the age old conundrum of the observer and the observed doing nothing more than looking at their own reflection of each other. At a level beyond the immediate senses – an empowering consideration emerges.

If my/your/our individual identity masks our universal sub-conscious; then if I learn how to consciously separate myself from my temporary individuation and navigate this shared field deliberately (like lucid dreaming, out of body experiences, and near death experiences, shamanic visions, spiritual experiences, and other effects suggest) – I can experience first hand and prove this fact to myself.

This is why this type of unauthorized education is seldom endorsed. You don't need a guru after you learn this. You also learn to think for yourself, learn alternate truths, and are not as easily manipulated once you shed the dogma learned from the version of this meant for public consumption for the worker bee population.

This type of information carries metaphysical weight! You get immeasurable benefit; while returning the power of your own free will and of choice. Government, Church, Multinational Corporations, and the Bankers – would rather you didn't know this. Illumination after all; has always been a secret of the controlling elite, in all the above departments.

What they haven't told you is simple. We don't die. And when they do tell you to blindly believe in an afterlife – it entails a non-workable premise and a fairytale. Even when the standard dogma dangles the notion of eternal life in front of you – it always has a price. That price is your spiritual freedom to actually learn how it works so you can participate! That way; you still need them – which is a crock and everybody knows it.

The gift of your spirit made flesh to suffer third dimensional reality (being cast down, fallen angels, etcetera), is your ticket to eternal life. You don't owe anybody "shit" to be perfectly blunt – except to your "higher self" to fulfill your mission. As we know all too well – we all get to be fearful entities, and we all get to suffer and pay the price of this learning experience. Everybody gets to be a hero, and everybody gets to be an ass.

I would even go deeper and suggest that with further education, we might consider ourselves privileged to endure difficulty, as a duty to the Universal Soul. The fear part is cured with the same knowledge; (yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil and such) I repeat for clarity – the gimmick is we don't die. The trick is we think we do. What a perfect venue to make choices in – with real perceived skin that bleeds in the game! Blood was special – remember? It is a learning tool! It helps to have us make difficult choices in a difficult venue! I owe you an explanation.

You have three aspects to your identity. The first self is the one you know as yourself in this experience. The second self is what they often call your "higher self" which is the metaphysical property, or spirit component, eternal light body, soul, and etcetera. The third aspect of your consciousness is ultimately – its Source. The third aspect is the shared one.

Carl Jung broke it down to your waking consciousness, your sub-conscious, and the super-consciousness. In religious terms this was the trinity, or the two forces in one medium, yin and yang, the in and out breathing of the universe, and so on.

What is really happening here is the first self, the one you know and experience as you; is drawing from the higher self or sub-conscious aspect of the self. This is where your instincts, gut feelings, sixth sense, and similar information comes from. The second self has had multiple incarnations and is like a mediator. This second sub-conscious self, is interacting with the third self or super-consciousness which is shared by all consciousness. The All Seeing Eye of the sum total of all consciousness; or the I Am That I Am.

What all mystical, alchemical, and spiritual efforts are about; is learning how to access this "middle child" which is indeed the mediator or buffer between the consciousnesses. If you study any such practice armed with this knowledge, you will see what I mean and thank me for this simple clarification, which is then repeatedly evidenced as proof.

The tactile metaphysical consciousness (the light body) is a permanent fixture. Our bodies are vehicles of experience. We assume the identity of our bodies of over the course of our journey; which is a perspective that is corrected when our vehicle ultimately fails by design. It would be like going for a long drive in your automobile and starting to believe you are the car – when all you are is the driver. It works the same except that over the course of a lifetime you start to believe you are your vehicle – since you are stuck in it.

Now let the fun begin! Think back to people that we learned about who were special and defied explanation. The Edgar Cayce's, and Nostradamus, and other Sages and Seers who had what could best be described as paranormal or supernatural abilities to know things and heal others and so on. The next thing we don't learn because we are not taught it; is that we can do many of these things too.

What they haven't told us is that all these special things, and that all these special people did; they accomplished the same way. Whether they knew it or not (some did and some didn't) we all possess these special powers. They are in fact proof of this cosmic mind or shared field I keep bringing up.

This is the knowledge of your inner technology. The Egyptian Mystery Schools, The Tibetan Book of the Dead, the Ancient Kabbalah, Freemasonry (and all its offshoots prior and past), Gnosticism, the Emerald Tablets, the Oahspe Bible, the Kolbrin Bible, Alchemy, Shamanism, Mysticism, Esoteric Spirituality, and most early Bibles (first testament, etc.), are solely about this same information (a short list of some of my favourites). How it works and how to connect to it used to be standard fare. We lost that aspect of spirituality – the purpose of and for it!

What you will learn (and hopefully experience as a result) is this ancient knowledge about our inner technology. I added a "new age bent" once I realized this is a free-style system - and I added what science has taught us about these metaphysical forces. It does jive quite inexplicably with the ancient information once you start to get what they were saying. What are the odds?

What didn't make sense will start to – and we can begin to see that metaphor and parable can be interpreted also as instructions. Instructions for conscious application of the described principles! This becomes even more apparent and undeniable when you openly study the above spiritual beliefs and others I have not mentioned (The Ancient Celtic myths, Cosmogony, Tarot, Astrology, Wicca and Paganism, Hindu, Indian, and other Eastern philosophies to name but a few others).

Our Western belief systems are also rife with this information (especially the first testament stuff) when interpreted with the benefit of a full spiritual education which also includes the foundations and perspectives closer to those who wrote them. They had Esoteric Mystical Pagan belief systems – so it shouldn't come as too big of a surprise that they had such a view of reality. I can only refer you to my other books and the information by other sources which lend credence to the notion that all belief systems share a root and a Creational Source we call God.

It is all the same information (that we don't die, and we are One) and you are to take from it what resonates for you personally and individually. This is spirit school – bibles and the like are just your textbooks. It is the act of learning which has the importance. Not like we are taught with only one belief system and someone interpreting it for you. I find that at the least minimalist, and at the most deceptive; not to mention disempowering.

I can personally vouch for an immediate benefit to giving your feelings (your link to your higher self) a voice. We are taught to ignore our feelings, and decide things using only our brain. This is the first thing you will notice – your instincts come back when you listen to your inner voice. This subtle communication of vibes is an integral part of us we are conditioned to disregard.

Once you start to practice this a little and learn the difference between fleeting thoughts and fears, and your link to the Cosmic Mind – you start to gain access to a greater volume of information. This is the first advantage to adjusting your perspective as to what is possible.

Other possibilities include leaving your body but remaining conscious, like a near death experience, an out of body experience (astral traveling, remote viewing etc.), or a lifting out of the body as described by Zen masters, or a shamanic experience, the list is endless. Just consider that if any out of body experience is true; it proves my point. You can occasionally exit your vehicle whether accidentally or intentionally.

This allows us to consider spirit continuance. If I can exit my body while remaining conscious – why wouldn't or couldn't this happen when we die physically? We can and we do. This also indicates that our loved ones are still around in another form. Once you open up to these ideas and learn just how possible these considerations are; the proverbial blinders come off – the veil drops.

I have experienced some of these effects myself – which is what propels me to share this with the tribe. I have as I mentioned earlier clinically died a few times recently. What people tell us is true; your consciousness is not entirely an element of your physical body.

During and after these events, I walked between the worlds as it is called, and received a metaphysical education which I try to share. And I also spoke with a deceased friend, and felt the presence of a small number of family members.

I am sure I have channelled a little, had some visions, and experienced some automatic writing. Once; I am sure I received a message directly from our Source about how this all started and how it works. I have also had some moments where the feelings are so intense they defy description. Emotional considerations come of this.

Everybody likely tends to publicly mock these ideas to avoid ridicule – but deep down actually consider them. A little Inner Technology is not impossible in a reality science freely admits it is not privy to some estimated well over 90% of. Other dimensions, and vibrational frequencies, surely surround us. The fact is; the energy the life that we see is based on – greatly exceeds the physical display.

I urge you to meditate, contemplate, pray, and show reverence for all life as the Buddha expressed. Just show a little gratitude and thanks. There is more to this experience than we think. And it doesn't end when we think it does. I am convinced this is as individual a process as we are. There are likely infinite expressions of transcendence. The over 90% we are unable to detect is in a different state, dimension, condition, or what have you; which likely has a permanence to it we can't detect either!

Each one of us should develop our inner technology, be nice to each other and nature, and learn to incorporate it with our material technology and make a bridge. I am one of the few "spiritual proponents" who is also a proponent of the sciences – they just have a few metaphysical dots to connect.

What developing our inner technology would do; is unleash a tidal wave of new Prophets, Seers, and Spiritual Teachers, all with different things to teach us. Great science always came from those who contemplated their navel too! Most of the scientific greats had weird ideas and daydreamed which resulted in discoveries which they then set about to verify as fact. Often it was.

Taking the same approach to life in general is long overdue. Every single one of us is unique for a reason. Feel free to navigate the metaphysical seas with your inner technology – that's why its there!
**11 – Space and Time as an Impressionable Fabric**

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The topics of space and time are unfathomable and incalculable; after all – they are infinities. We shan't revisit my earlier technical forays into these subjects. What I want to do, considering the time constraints (an inevitable pun); is to give you a working construct to envision the process of life from a completely different angle.

In the simplest terms, time and space are a venue to separate life, and give it defined temporary boundary states. This venue is like a matrix, or format, which is at root a guise; designed to experience and record the information. Consciousness is a continuum. Space is time; and as space expands, time is created. It is a seamless fabric stretching to suit conscious observation of it.

Ancient texts all covered this concept extensively. To some this was the unexplained memory of nature. To others it was the Akashic Record. In Western beliefs it was the Book of Life, and we were told that all things were in the book of life. The Hall of Records is another example. It doesn't much matter what you call this, as long as you can envision how it could really exist – for real.

My way to understand this record and repository for experience we are all part of – starts at the cosmic scale.

The first necessary correction to how you see the cosmos and your place in it is to better understand how this journey takes place in an ever expanding fabric. First off; orbits are not circular. They are as they relate to each other, but whenever you take the next overview – the truth is revealed. Wheels within wheels I believe the ancients called it.

In a steady state view, orbits work just fine. Our local star orbits the galactic center, the planet orbits our local star, and our moon orbits the earth, and so on. But this isn't what is actually happening; we do not live in a static steady state universe. As these orbits are maintained in relation to each other, the universe expands at ever increasing cycles. So if you bone up a little on modern cosmology you'll grasp what I am saying – the objects in space actually move in spirals, more like a stretched pen spring or a slinky.

The significance of this is lost to most people, but in a nutshell the difference is this, without getting too technical. In the classic out dated view, things always return to make the usual circle through the same chunk of fabric and repeat (sort of like the movie Groundhog Day). The real truth is that nothing ever occupies the same point in space/time, not ever – due to this expansive nature. Never, ever, ever!

Did you ever wonder why not two things are made truly alike? This is something proven out by observation. Not two snowflakes, not two fingerprints, grains of sand, or two creatures, trees, mountains, planets, stars, nor galaxies, are exactly the same. The reason for that should make more sense given the understanding that we live in an ever changing and evolving blueprint. The energy which supplies the data for Creation is in a constant state of flux; our DNA is spun from this activity. The premise for astrology hinges on this knowledge.

The mystery or riddle of life is made easy by a simple re-adjustment of the true nature of the format for life – which is what propels my efforts. The greatest gift we can give anyone is the truth. Since we really are brothers and sisters, or at least members of an over all tribe, those of us who have recently been fortunate enough to experience the truth and realize the true nature of reality – are obligated to share with rest of the larger tribe.

This truth is a knowledge, but without the gift of spirit, no traction results. The truth of life is a twofold duality; which conceals oneness. The logic lives in the duality, the heart and feelings or the love; are derived from the inner truth that all existence is actually based on a singular condition fractured into holographic representations of it's self.

This is where love comes from – the very real connection of everything to everything else – to the fabric everything is embedded in. All our ability to experience and feel is actually generated because everything is part and parcel of everything else. When we reach out and touch things and externalize – we experience. If everything was not metaphysically connected for a fact – we wouldn't sense and feel the way we do.

What is really going on here; is that we are imprinting this fabric that we represent. I have hinted that the fabric is space/time, but now let me boggle your mind a little. This has lots of names, as you can well imagine. We keep tripping on it, but we have not connected the much needed dots. Here is a brief although incomplete list of alternate terms for this fabric, matrix, venue, or whatever you choose to envision it as.

The ancient texts called it the ether; they even knew it was the unseen energy behind the mechanics of all that exists. To the ancients the belief was that everything in our manifest reality was made of this one fundamental primordial element which permeates everything. Biblically this concept is embodied with the term "the Waters." They were actually way closer to the truth than we generally like to admit. Horus is depicted crossing the "Waters" to be with his God Osiris in the Egyptian, Sumerian, and other texts as another example.

Lately they call it dark matter, dark energy, and dark flow, as related to the hidden properties which we are not privy to; which science has realized surely must exist. The "stuff around stuff" or the "scaffolding of the universe" as it is often called. They are not too far off the money either; but you must admit the concept was covered by the ancients long before science tripped over it.

In particle form this is called the "God Particle" by various names. They recently termed it the Higgs Boson, and it has also been called the Schwarzschild Proton. The idea is that an original particle like a stem cell for matter is the building block of reality – since it can be anything. I might suggest that Singularity as all places and times might also consciously represent a state where all things are one, amid a state where all things are simultaneously cast about. Neutrinos are yet another possible underlying component.

Super-positioning and non-locality are two other examples of this principle. The particle/wave duality problems associated with the two slit experiment are another, as is the argument over whether light (photons) is a particle or a wave. It depends on how you look – which again speaks volumes as to what is going on here. It depends on "how" you look – and whether you look at all.

Fractals are another version, holograms another, dimensions, and vibrations as sound or light - but paramount to any of these concepts are infinities. The short version is this; all things are infinities, in states of expansion and collapse. The objects are made physically manifest by achieving a balance, just as a star gathers from its environment to reach a point to fire up and emerge as a new star.

Atoms are also a lot like little stars, black holes, and singularities; for about a hundred reasons at least. There are differences; size, timescale, etcetera – but we need to ask how they are the same? If everything is a "holographic infinite fractal" which seems to be the case intuitively and scientifically.........the point of it all is how it works, and not how small or big it gets. The answer my friends; is a question. What are the fundamental principles of operation? Never mind what it is doing, or how big or small it gets (since infinities prevail), ask yourself the critical question. Why is it doing it? Unification hinges on such an outside the box consideration.

Why is it doing it – and how can I find a unifying principle to finally unite the cosmic with the quantum? We will explore these points further, but my point regarding space and time as an impressionable fabric is that the matrix, or venue, or fabric they all share is the single common denominator.

Atoms, biological life, planets, stars, galaxies, and the universe, have something in common that touches and permeates them all. This infinitely expanding fabric of space/time, or the "ether," or dark matter, dark energy, and dark flow, is the engine of all matter and life. This metaphysical property we speak of; is what everything is not only made of – but what it is immersed in.

Now we must go in the opposite direction once you fully digest that – and take a much closer look at the objects in this fabric; namely atoms, biological life, planets, stars, galaxies, and the universe. The things "in" this fabric; are in the opposite state – infinite collapse. This is not what we are taught – but the spheres and swirls in space/time tell a different story.

First off as we all know (or at least should), there must always be an equal and opposite reaction according to Maxwell's Laws of Thermodynamics. If something is infinitely expanding, something else in the matrix, or fabric; must be in the opposite state of infinite collapse – an equal and opposite reaction. Here is where this metaphysical education all but seals the deal – like I said earlier; if you dare to go there.

This construct places a singularity, black hole, star, or such a point of infinite collapse; at the center of every atom, biological center, planet, star, and galaxy. Just get back to Einstein's idea that objects make a dimple in space/time; and really expand your thought. The points of infinite collapse are the dimples or objects, which is how they formed and what they are. Which is merely an inversion or a gathering; of the fabric itself!

This is how "one thing" is separated into "two conditions" or properties. This is the mysterious "engine" for cosmic bodies – they are akin to electric motors, drawing their energy from the expanding fabric like a positive charge. The magnetic poles and field around the earth is a good example, as is any star.

Galactic centers (black holes), Stars, Planets with Life, and Beings (and their associated components); are all like electromagnetic engines – spinning with positive and negative poles. The centers of these cosmic bodies, like black holes, have a negative charge; and draw in the fabric, which has a positive charge – Einstein's "dimple in space/time" defined.

If you study "string theory" this is exactly what they are really telling you. String theory is the idea that everything at the sub-atomic scale is generated or made of – vibrating strings of space time folded onto itself at a specific harmonic or frequency. Gee – you mean everything really is made of this one fundamental primordial element!

I will quit bending your mind shortly and get to the "why" part – but the workings like I said are important to envision what I am saying. This is just a very short version. Seek the truth remember – seek knowledge and the goal?

The same scientists will tell you that everything in the universe, the sub-atomic included; is actually information displayed as matter and energy. So the bottom line is that if you are swift enough to realize that this defines consciousness – then you make the genuine knowledge and fact based connection that we do indeed live in a universe made of mind. An infinite one; doesn't that sound familiar? Imagine the totality of that Mind; if we equate it with the totality of the represented information in an infinitely expanding cosmos.

Alright; now if you've digested what I am suggesting, I have hopefully set the stage to explain the really fantastic part (as if the above wasn't enough)! The above not only makes sense and fits 100 ways from Sunday; but it has implications. These implications are good and take us to a whole new level of understanding about the true nature of our reality.

Let's get back on topic now that we have a context for it. This impressionable fabric called several things which we can now call space/time in more modern terms; is an expanding powerhouse full of energy, and is full of information. It is if you will allow the notion; an All, an Is-ness, Intelligible Light, the Ultimate Harmonic, Vibration, Dimensional Inclusive, or Infinite Force, and at our scale currently the ultimate Boundary State. An over all boundary state or condition we all share – the ultimate unification theory or concept which incorporates consciousness.

That is the technical side of how this works – like I said to help you envision it for further results. Why it works has slyly been revealed through how it works. Remember the two infinite states; one of infinite expansion, and one of infinite collapse? The expanding fabric is the matrix or venue; the singularities and collapse points to the original condition, are the portals. Portals to what you ask? The portals to observe and evolve, and experience itself with and from!

The observer and the observed as one thing in two states; is what this entire reality is constructed of. That ultimate singular property is the consciousness with which to pose the very question. So what does that mean exactly – and better yet where can it take us?

It takes us to a whole new level of understanding and awareness about our situation regarding the Tree of Life. Do you remember the Tree of Knowledge we got kicked out of the Garden of Atlantis for? (Oops, I keep doing that; I mean Eden for those who aren't there yet!) The Tree of Life is this very Knowledge; the knowledge of the infinite nature of conscious life as a perpetual cycle as a venue to evolve said consciousness. It is simply a higher level of awareness. Awareness of what we are.

After all; becoming aware by taking knowledge from a tree of life, and changing from a cave dwelling simian into a sentient human being – was one evolutionary and conscious level of improvement. It was a substantial step, with no doubt exceptional circumstances. The next forbidden fruit is the knowledge of the Tree of Life – and of our eternal underlying nature.

One step was from a simpler creature, to the inquisitive questing little super-mammal we are. The next step will be the full reckoning with how we got here and where we go; which is the evolution which binds us to reality by learning how our transcendent nature works. How we are defined – to ourselves. Self definition through knowledge led us to self definition of the very fabric we are constructed of and embedded it. Nothing is separate it would seem.

The topic at hand is how this evolution takes place, since it seems to be the point of life. Right after survival, evolution is the favourite exercise to develop consciousness and the blueprint for life. It does so by imprinting this fabric which permeates all things; onto the matter, displayed as the reflected bits we see.

Every thought and action is preserved in this fabric, as we pass through it – and we always have an empty canvass to make our impression on, thanks to the way we move through space/time. Remember the pen spring and slinky analogy to describe our orbits more accurately? All us dimples, features, or portals; are a required component! We are the very activity of life, not a random fluke that serves no higher function other than to propagate further copies of ourselves – for no good reason. Theses are the same spirals which form our ever evolving DNA!

The point of these musings is that if animals have instincts which are nothing more than species specific memories, or nature's déjà-vu; as the apex of biological awareness on this planet – shouldn't we have the best? I write this stuff because we do – but we are so out of touch with these possibilities thanks to the technological ego based dominator culture we have created, we forgot how. Imagine what we could do with that ability with what we know now. A Shamanic Minister Alchemist with an intact Inner Child is what we should all strive to be.

As we undertake this conscious journey as portals; every thought, feeling, and action we develop independently by virtue of our own free conscious will......alters the program or over all hologram we share. Life is a lesson, one that is being recorded and kept as a record. The Cosmos itself is a multi-dimensional tape recorder; and we are like the battle of the bands right now – instead of a symphony in tune with each other. We are making some music, but we could really rock as they used to say.

This Cosmic and Sub-atomic recording of experience takes place at infinite levels and dimensions. We really do live in a maxed out version of Horton Hears a Who. Anywhere conscious observations and intent direct themselves of their own free will – the matrix, or fabric opens up and expands away from it. This is also how we experience our consciousness – as a perpetual center from which everything then revolves around and expands away from. The confirmations of this all pervasive truth are everywhere. It is how everything works, and how everything is experienced, from this singular condition cast everywhere as a wave or turned inside out.

Now when you consider all the unexplained bits of life with this enlightened perspective – the riddle and mystery of life unfold with any subsequent knowledge you glean. Drink from the Grail (as referenced to a Holy cup, or chalice), and try it – you'll like it! I am willing to bet you will soon start to connect dots for yourself at increasingly satisfying rates with this knowledge to help kick start the process. That's all we all need; I freely include myself and imply no exclusivity from these considerations.

Why we experience spirituality, déjà-vu, clairvoyance, past life experiences, instincts, near death experience, out of body sensations, and pretty much all unexplained phenomena makes complete sense once you get not only how life works but its purpose.

You record the program as an observer. You actually alter the program by how you experience it. If you experience it wrong – you negate the purpose of your journey and experience. We probably can and do repeat until we get it right. And feelings and decisions more than play into it, they are more likely the crux of observing and participating in physical form. We currently live our lives within a completely smaller, self centered, greedy, mortality fearful condition; which not only fails to serve the greater potential – it writes a smaller, self centered, greedy, fearful program.

In my previous books I explain in better detail how we imprint this fabric as we spiral through it consciously, if you are in need of further food for thought regarding the fabric of space/time and this process. Time is linked to our conscious observation of it. Time is an element or property we move through at a fixed rate due to our perspective which is imposed by our condition. Time is a big part of this venue to separate our experiences. For the purpose of this quest into free thought regarding metaphysical concepts this brief review should suffice.

This merely needs to be grasped as a fact that everything we experience is preserved in a real way, and a record and memory of all experience is preserved. This has been called many things. A panoramic life review; or your life flashing before your eyes would be one. It is known as the inherent memory complex upon which nature draws upon. The Book of Life is a spiritual rendition. The Akashic Record is yet another, as is the Hall of Records. Some seek the Hall of Records physically as secret chamber under the Sphinx – when actually it is an explanation for this same metaphysical repository for all life and experience. You "dig it up" in your mind. This is something we can tap into once we know how it works, once we know how to do so; and learn how to recognize the connection and interact with it.

Life is very cool, even with its nasty bits; once you realize it is indeed a temporary manifestation as we experience it – and not the whole enchilada as they say.

Knowledge is indeed the key. Feelings are without doubt the way. We can totally alter our reality for the better, and manifest a better physical reality, by coming to grips with our own metaphysical nature – and the underpinnings of how we work. We are sort of intention and observation organs for universal consciousness, made physically manifest to play in a venue of its own design! Infinite portals of the greater universal manifold of conscious totality; branches of the Tree of Life, and the fruit of realization awaits us. 

#### **12 – Near Death School**

I consider myself lucky for not only surviving my near death experiences; but also for what I learned. And when I studied the topic, and read and heard what others described from time immemorial and recently – I knew to my core which ones were real by who described what could only be felt and understood from such experiences. Given this advantage with which to sort through the available material; I want to share what I learned with you.

Near death experiences are broken into two basic categories with an intermediary stage. One would be the type which places us in a condition where we are on the verge of dying. Medically it is described as a state in which without immediate change; it will lead to death - sort of like you are starting to die. In these cases science might debate whether "death" was experienced. There can however be little argument that these people experience the intermediary stage; often called "walking between the worlds."

The second type of near death experience is harder to explain – the no heartbeat kind. Medically they claim that about 10 or so seconds after you have no heartbeat – your brain flat lines. No more brain waves; no alpha waves, no beta waves, no delta waves, and no theta waves, according to science and medicine; equals no consciousness. In these cases there is only a mystery – and little debate about our condition. And again on either side of the near death experience; a little walk between the worlds.

When a loved one passes on; we also find evidence for this. Often they are calm, unafraid; speak of being whole, and of seeing others who have passed on. These are generally dismissed by mainstream as hallucinations; mere electrical and chemical overloads. But they sure share a familiar set of hallucinations – don't they? What are the odds – logically?

This still leaves the intermediary stage we experience – which we can see repeatedly when someone is on the verge of dying. Walking between the worlds is how it feels. The question is I suppose; are they really communicating with spirits? Do they all share a delusion – or do they see something we can not? Science and medicine have a different answer than those who have experienced this effect first hand. I believe it is real - speaking from experience.

Shamanic experiences have the same problem - those who have experienced the Transcendent Other through Shamanism; will never tell you that they just "tripped out." This might be the case in a distracted party state with no spiritual intention. But if one ingests a substantial dose of hallucinogen alone in silent darkness, and contemplates things from a place of reverence for life – a mini near death experience is generated.

The Shamanic Journey is just another ancient way to deliberately induce non-locality and transcendence. This is as I often explain; why all serious forays into spiritual realms have an element of being separated from your physical body. Deep trances, extended meditations, and a host of other means; are just a way of separating your physically trapped body from your eternal spirit component.

The things I can unequivocally vouch for are the following. First you are overcome with a calming loving presence which erases all fear – no matter what. The power and emotion in this feeling are beyond verbs – but I'll try. You know to your very core that there is nothing to fear no matter the outcome. In fact most people will tell you how hard it is to come back. The feeling is so strong and good – it is preferable to life as we know it.

Then I felt "the Voice." I guess I heard it; but it was more like direct communication or strong telepathy. You just knew what that voice was, that it was real, and that you were not causing it in any way. I knew it wasn't me. I asked what to do. I was told not to worry – and to look around with new eyes – like I was a newborn from this perspective.......like I was an observer. I did immediately learn some things.

Starting with them in order, I learned how scared people really are. I was in the Cardio Level One Ward; and I got there on a Lear jet in a panic fest – and everyone I shared the ward with including myself was a ticking time bomb and clinging to life. Some had no sense of humour; while a select few still did. I learned it was a perspective thing – as is everything.

We are fearful entities because of how we see things incorrectly. And there is no nice way to say this, and I don't say it to offend; but the first thing I learned was how terrified people were to die which is understandable. But the crux of it was that the people we would normally consider religious; feared the most! Lesson one; what kind of a belief system leaves you quaking in your skin when it comes time to face your end? The answer was apparent; a bogus one. This is why although I profess spirituality; I often find fault with religion. Universal Consciousness is great – it is his or her fan clubs that suck.

The other thing I often hear from others who have felt this – is this alternate description for life and the nature of reality and conscious experience. Things we all took away from the experience - like how all life is a shared property of existence. Those who crossed that barrier, or bounced off of it perhaps; got a peek at the truth – that all of us are part of a larger boundary state of consciousness. You will never convince a near death survivor that they are an individual random fluke which is mortal. We know better.

Some of these effects are part of the before and after process. I considered the possibility that I was just "out of it," but it didn't feel that way – quite the opposite. I experienced what is termed "clarity" by spiritual proponents. Everything was vividly clear, my thoughts especially! It wasn't an intermediary dream state – it was more real than life. What comes after life is much clearer and brighter than life!

Just after surviving my first near death experience, I had another profound vision while struggling to reckon with what happened. Not having such beliefs prior to my incident left me at a loss to explain them. So I asked some questions while thoughtfully contemplating my situation.

I meditated until I got a blank screen; and invited answers to my heartfelt questions. Again this is beyond verbal description; I'll do my level best to choose my words carefully; in a realm best described in "gists and gleanings." Try and forgive a physical mortal being for attempting to describe ethereal greatness.

I was shook up. Not so much about what happened to me; but about some big assed questions about the experience and my fate. Given my beliefs, I first asked; "why I didn't leave my body as is commonly described by others?" And I also asked; "where were you?" I'm not sure I even knew who "you" was?

All at once in a sudden rush of sensations, approximately a couple of dozen bright blue balls of light flew out of a tunnel onto my pineal screen (my meditational inner eye). They were bright electric blue vibrating balls of energy, which looked like "smoke rings" with one bright blue electric vibrating ring foremost in front. This startled me and I thought back loudly; "who are you, who are you, who are you!"

At the same instant I was told, and simultaneously answered back, my recently deceased friends name; "Mikey!" Then a question and answer session from beyond took place!

My first question was dismissed as irrelevant (floating out of my body which I didn't recall doing specifically), and answered as part and parcel of my second question which tended to both – which was specifically; "where were you?"

A: "We were all there."

  * I understood immediately that Spirit is always present everywhere. Then I asked; "What happens to me now?" "Will I Die?" (Seeing as how I was talking to "dead people!")

A: "No; you will live to about 70 or so."

  * My next question was; "What do I do now?"

A: "Do your work – write your books – tell people what you learned."

Then something weird happened (as if the above wasn't enough!) These loving vibrating blue entities expressed concern that they were "in shit!" That they were breaching a protocol or breaking a rule of some sort – and had to go; and not now – but right now as they say! Then all the vibrating blue rings or balls shot back down the tunnel on my pineal screen in my mind – and were gone.

This wasn't merely a visual absence; you could feel the severed link at an ethereal metaphysical level. I called this feeling "getting hung up on" in my previous book – with the dial tone as silence. I was back in my own mind alone. This meant that at a prior moment I was not alone - and in case you are wondering; yes this all does shake a person's tree to express it conservatively!

I have also previously encountered the Voice I heard in my near death experience once at an earlier time when researching and seeking knowledge about Creation for my first book. Before I had the near death experience, while learning to meditate as described in ancient texts; I got the same link. I know this only now – after experiencing this Voice when I had no heartbeat. The term "Ancient of Days" seems to stick in my mind when I think of that Voice. It is the Voice of the Initial Intention \- the First and Last; if you will.

In this prior experience I was given a very special gift about how reality came into being, how it all works a little, and most of all why. I didn't fully understand until later when I had more time in this realm. I'll quit babbling and describe the event.

This was what I can best describe as a "Waking Vision." I now know the difference between a vision and a thought or dream – it is the "clarity thing." Dreams are not clearer than life – visions are. They are also accompanied with a "presence" which is also clearer than life – a greater than self presence.

It started as a nagging repeating thought or notion; like a subconscious idea that kept bugging me while I was preoccupied writing my first book. After some time; I took mental note that it wouldn't go away. So I thought to my self out of the blue instinctively; "Hey this might be important!"

This vision was so strong that it was like a transparent view screen imposed over top of my regular vision. I could still see the room – but this metaphysical ethereal film was playing out over top of it. What I saw took a bit to comprehend; and involved this conversation from the other side.

I saw (perhaps witnessed) the very beginning of Creation. How and why it happened, and how that relates to our experience in a fractal form. The extra bonus was this vision was accompanied with narration. Again; I'll do my best to describe indescribable sensations in purely physical terms. Add a "presence" and "clarity" to my verbs to attempt to feel their import.

A tiny silver ball, sat quivering in the open air of my living room. As it hovered inexplicably in my dual vision, I watched as it struggled to emit every type of frequency we understand.......and some we don't. This little silver ball was struggling to get out. Then that Voice that speaks directly sort of mumbled; "I tried everything!" This image was accompanied with a heavy feeling of dread which I felt intensely. The image and voice were trying to show me something, and feel something – something relevant to my research, and to our experience (which had not turned into "my work" yet). I was made to understand the suffering and difficulty endured by the Creator to create our reality.

Then I got an explanation from what I feel was the head honcho of a very long string of conscious levels above ours. Something far above other non-physical conscious dimensions – the emanation of them all; The Source, the All, the Isness, God, or whatever title you prefer. The Fact encompasses them all, and they are just attempts to name this nameless pre-existent force of conscious totality.

The Voice explained that it struggled for what seemed like an entire lifespan; for even such a power as itself. Then it mentioned that I should note the metaphor used to describe this time of struggle, as a lifetime. The notion was firmly shared with me that this was the model for all life in the way of conscious experience. A long struggle to get free of a physical trapping – that takes an entire experience to accomplish, perhaps several. This made some sense.

Then the little silver sphere turned inside out, I guess you could call it a big bang; but more correctly it turned inside out and cast itself everywhere as a wave. Then I got told something about how this Creation was started. After trying every possible thing to break free, I was told by our Creator, that the answer was Love. The only force capable of initiating Creation was Love – to give itself wholly, to sacrifice for love. Then it was repeated that this was the model for every conscious experience in life. Wow; huh!

On a side note, since my near death experiences, I developed some newly found skills. I can more often tell when people lie and it pisses me off something fierce. I will now see beneath the veneer of a person despite a façade. A person will smile and seem pleasant on the surface – but I might see their disregard for truth regardless of their physical display. In other cases people will seem hostile and scare other people – but I see beyond that display and see a nice person underneath.

It doesn't mean I can't be fooled or wrong; but I find it only happens when I fail to focus my conscious application on it. You can't be on your game 100% in this life. Just as what I am trying to teach people about can not physically become tangible; this in no way negates the possibility of its existence. Some stuff is felt – nuff said.

This applies to knowledge presented as well; I can intuit the truth – after all I am a being embedded in, and made of, the same stuff as everything else – and I am intrinsically linked with all other life. Most of us just don't know this and so we don't take this view until we become educated or experience it directly. Nor; do we then take advantage of it. Clarity and the ability to discern; are forgotten practices we can all relearn and develop.

I could digress to the extreme, but it would be enough to say - that the statistics seem to indicate; that people who have had near death experiences exhibit approximately four times as many effects of clairvoyance and paranormal abilities in some way shape or form. I would just like to experientially confirm this; and move on. What I am telling you is of an extremely personal nature.

I would like to spend the remainder of this chapter just briefly naming some effects I've experienced, and provide a short description. It is the only honest way; which leaves the rest up to you to learn and experience for yourself – because ultimately this is what life is about.

My experiences are only mine; and only shared with you – to facilitate your own independent growth. My understanding, unlike the conventional one of theology – is that this is not possible without your experiencing this growth for yourself; which is not possible without individual conscious application. I am not trying to sell you anything; just free concepts to empower you – to help yourself.

I've said this before and I'll say it again (and repeat for posterity); if you follow me or anyone else - you are doing it wrong! My ultimate wish and intention is to spark your own reckoning with your true nature for yourself; before it is thrust upon you – which is I feel the only true prerequisite of genuine spirituality.

Eventually we will all die to prove this to ourselves; but we can also learn and experience this truth through every trial and tribulation along the way. The basic fundamental requirement is of course self correction - to serve and improve the whole. This is I feel the real definition of common sense everyday personal spiritual growth through self sacrifice, not grovelling and giving money.

I have been shown while meditating how it actually works when you give reverence to all life and you emote back with thanks and gratitude. The view I was given was of the blue waves cascading onto us as ethereal light; being intersected by the blue waves we send out when we pray, meditate, contemplate deeply, and so on. When we deliberately send back some emotional thanks in some way – those waves mingle to create an "interference pattern" which then multiplies the effect like conscious ripples in a pond. We make more Light and Special Light by interacting consciously. It is good. We radiate this metaphysical light like a Star.

Another thing I am sure of is what is inside of Black Holes. I got a meditational peek inside one. Black Holes contain expanding universes just like ours! That is why there is a whirlpool in space behind one! The stuff doesn't compress to infinity – it changes states. "But how can there be a Universe in a Black Hole?" – You might ask. We live inside a Black Hole Universe ourselves! We are the proof!

Remember what they taught us about nothing ever being destroyed – and only changing states? Science excluded black holes and conscious beings from that consideration wrongly. Nothing is destroyed; it only changes states; which applies to you – and to black holes. They'll figure it out eventually, but how I already know – is a little mind blowing.

This knowledge of Black Holes was the result of deep meditation, and drawing information from what I believe was called the Akashic Record, Hall of Records, or the Book of Life, in western belief. In short it was the same way the Maya knew we had a Galactic Sun (Black Hole) at the center of our galaxy, some thousands of years before we stopped burning people at the stake for claiming that the earth wasn't flat, or that we revolved around the cosmos – and not the other way around.

I have also had the occasional spiritual education while sleeping! Like a child in some respects again; I dream frequently and recall more of my dreams. Sometimes I can remember bits, but mostly I just wake up with more tools to un-fuddle this with! Lucid dreaming is actually quite common if you do a little research. What if it really was the same in the respect that you are "less-so" your physical body when asleep – and your spirit might inadvertently drift the metaphysical sea of shared information a little when we sleep.

Thoth (the ancient Egyptian god of all knowledge, language, and so on); claimed that when we wake up – the dream we generated carries on for a while without us afterwards.

The Ancients understood this and explained it with the concept of an All Seeing Eye. They were trying to impart a great truth about existence which transcends life itself and all religious separations. The same being looks out from all centers – it always did and always does – thus there is no death. I can experientially verify this; and so can you – you just might not realize it yet.

If you are starting to grasp what I am feebly attempting to tell you – this will blow your mind a little. It is something else I learned while "walking between worlds." Most of us have experienced what I am going to tell you – but had no means to explain it. I get a little confirmation for what I am shown through being able to properly analyze experiences.

Think back to when you were a child. Have you ever dreamt of flying? Perhaps you have dreamt about running and running without stopping? Another common dream is about swimming underwater for exceptionally long periods of time without surfacing or breathing. The delusion is simple; you think it is "you" who is in the dream flying, running, or swimming.

The real answer is that you are "seeing life" from the perspective of a flying, running, or swimming creature; which you perceive as yourself. You are remembering another creatures experience in the shared record of life. Which given the full explanation is rightfully so; if the same being lives in all beings......individual as cells though they might be.

Those of us who can recall the sensations of those dreams, given the information just considered; should have just received a mental "at-a-boy!" The truth about all life and reality is there for all to see – once we are willing to see the mountain of evidence.

When you dreamt about flying, running, or swimming like an animal – you were remembering. You were getting a glimpse from an All Seeing Eye of the conscious totality we are part and parcel of. This also proves all conscious life is a single force going through endless cycles of experience while educating itself! That was a mouthful; even for me!

Past life regressions are also exposed by this as just a confused belief that the experience remembered was solely your own, and not just of the conscious totality of which you were privy to a peek at. The truth about the notion of reincarnation might be that of a single eternal life force recycling in an infinite cycle.

It all starts to make sense when you start to see the true nature of reality – and it is accompanied with endless confirmation for those willing to make the initial leap and consider it. If you have reincarnated you might remember your previous life; but it is far more probable that you tapped into the shared field of consciousness we call nature. You may have inadvertently tuned your receiver that way – or have a predisposition due to the configuration of your body antenna. We might occasionally pick up radio static of the grand signal to put it simply........ bleed through.

Or unless you die and come back perhaps and receive an extra education at the University of Cosmic Consciousness; or UCC as I like to call it. Consider what I am saying; like I stated in the beginning - this is not a story book. This is the truth about reality we deny due to conditioning. This is the veil which must fall, the riddle of life we seek, the coming of a new age, amid the finding of the lost and the realizations of a completely new paradigm. Evolution is permeating life on our little blue Pandora's Ball.

I've run myself out of time and paper on this section – the subject matter can be summed up with a few points. We will look at what the ancients said on this topic nearer the end of the book.

We don't die – so we should quit being greedy and shitty to each other; since we are always only harming ourselves in the greater scheme of things (Don't take offense – I freely include my sometimes guilty self)! The same goes for forgiveness. Like we were told; everybody messes up quite a lot; so be understanding and not overtly critical. The love you withhold is always proportional to the load you carry. When you hold anger and hatred for someone or something; you are only hurting yourself – this explains why.

A life spent without any such consideration or realizations, is a life repeated in perpetuity. What we fear the most – our termination – is our prison. The reality is that the best we hope for now; to live forever as we know that presently to mean – is a duty of education which resembles punishment for failing to define life – you included. It is fitting and humorous.

I now would consider it cruel and unusual punishment to not die at some point and be released from third dimensional reality – cast down as it were. The wish for material immortality, rather than ethereal immortality; is a wish to live forever in darkness.

The wish for eternal life as we know it now, if ever achieved by science and the overtly rich who could afford it; would actually be a curse and a Hell of ones own design. Nature has it covered – don't freak out. I personally wouldn't want to be cheated out of my "oh shit moment" for any technological Borg-like alternative. A Golem I am not, nor would I wish to be.

The eternal repeating cycle we know now is not eternal life. It was always there. The ancient texts told us that the doorway to eternal life; the real eternal life – was the doorway through what we call death. Death is not a killer; but a mere tunnel or passageway to higher non-physical cycles of life. Don't be afraid anymore – you can't fail – and you are as special as it gets. If you get just that – I accomplished something worthy. Let us delve on! 

#### 13 – Clairvoyance and Instincts

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Hopefully; if I laid a half decent metaphysical foundation – this part will get you started at feeling your way through life as was intended. That is; before the illusory nature of our experience got the best of us.

The gimmick of this delusion is simple. We perceive ourselves as terminal little individuals which function completely separately from the stuff around us. So when things happen that break down the illusion that we are separate from the others and the environment, like genuine effects of clairvoyance – we rationalize them away.

Once you understand this, for any reason, by any number of methods; those unexplained fantastic things become the norm! As soon as the mask of illusion the left brained physically land locked mentality creates is breached – the metaphysical realms can be accessed. The right brained, ethereal, eternal, creative, wonderful entity you really are – can come out and play. Remember being told that a child shall lead them? That child is lost inside you, and dying to get out of its materialistic self imposed prison.

Loose your inner child and explore the inherent abilities you forgot. Things like an animal might do – only you can be conscious of them. Let's start with instincts. If an animal has the ability to make good decisions by feelings alone – doesn't that warrant investigation by the supposed "apex of biological evolution" on this Blue Ball?

If a bird or a fish can rely on this system of feeling their way to fly south, or spawn using only the mind of Nature we should be able to do more. As amazing as a fish or bird knowing where and when to go with no prior knowledge of it is; we can do much more.

Just try looking at acts of clairvoyance - genuine clairvoyance – as a credible version of advanced super high definition instincts. Tapping into this same shared field, or the memory complex of nature – is just accessing the conscious metaphysical record of life.

The big difference is that we can ask it questions. The field is us – physically post mortem – so we can "talk to the ancestors," as the tribal Shaman told us. We may choose to talk to Angels instead, depending on our belief system; but the only difference is a label.

The bulk of spiritual experience rendered into verbs and symbols called bibles; are the result of clairvoyance. When a ball of blue light inspired Joseph Smith to write the Mormon Bible – he was channelling. Channelling is a substantial link to the Transcendent Other generated by a genuine heartfelt desire to seek this knowledge. Nobody holds the exclusive key to this connection. It is possible for everybody to experience this. It should be explained and taught – not denied and concealed.

The reason this knowledge about how to experience the University of Cosmic Consciousness is concealed should be obvious. If this is how the ancients got all that fantastic, and apparently accurate information was by making such connections; the greater truths are revealed for the asking.

The self professed experts of every brand of religion prey on your fears with the Devil/Hell concept; by selling the notion that only they can help you out, in a particular way, for a fee. The spiritual information we get now is like the rumours about sex you hear as an adolescent teen in high school, mostly inaccurate!

I don't want to get sidetracked with why we have been getting the short version for the truth about our spirit component; it is far too empowering to know the truth. I can't be threatened with my life anymore. I might not want to die by design – but I know it just means another form of consciousness. No more fear; which in case you haven't noticed is the preferred tool of distraction and manipulation.

Other than realizing our transcendent nature, I can draw information and guidance from this totality of consciousness. If I really want or need to know something; I can feel which way to go. If I work at it and I am patient – sometimes I can get a milder version of the question and answer sessions I experienced when I died and came back. It is very similar with the exception of having to feel milder responses. It might take the form of asking it; "like this" - and feeling a negative vibe for an answer. Then you might glean the meaning more fully and ask again; "like this" – and receive an unmistakeable positive vibe. You just got an answer.

After a little practice you can become more proficient at knowing which vibes are from you and which are from the field around you. It is like a metaphysical muscle we have allowed to atrophy – and some exercise is required to regain mastery of flexing it. The more you meditate and practice connecting, the easier it becomes to differentiate. But there is something I found that you must understand – I don't want to blow any smoke up you know where.

For anyone who thinks this is like clicking your fingers – think again. In fact – anyone who tells you it comes too easily – is probably just babbling to themselves internally. I can't vouch for anyone but myself – but that isn't my experience. You have to hold your question, inquire with reverence, and often wait from between a millisecond, to an indefinite period. I often use the analogy of fishing. The really outstanding connections are special and somewhat rare, and often only experienced under extremes of emotion, trances, and near death. They have to be sought.

The other benefit is a constant minimal link. Even when the strong links are few and far between (and they can be), the one we call instincts; becomes a new found constant companion. This is I believe what was meant by spirit being always being there with you in the ancient texts – this immutable presence felt thereafter.

I equate this with that "walking between the worlds" effect we experience when we are at the limits of maintaining our physical body near death. It feels to me like I kept a toe in that conscious water – and I always have a tiny link to it – all the time – like a special gift.

This might also make it a little difficult maintaining two feet planted firmly in our physical reality, in fact I know it does. This is why I am explaining this aspect of it all. When 2% of your consciousness lives beyond the barrier without a veil – it can be very difficult to balance with the standard issues of life. Until you get used to it; you feel like you are in a fog and a haze. Two percent of your essence feels like it should, which makes the other 98% of your being realize the weight and burden of life. Our life is a duty – our spirit knows the burden of the soul all too well. You do eventually balance out the new mix; at least I did – mostly.

My point is that after you learn to deal with it; you get stronger consciously – which is the point of all the physical difficulty. Just like life. That which you survive makes you stronger. If you find yourself confused by a slight disorientation when you go through the process of enlightenment; don't be surprised – you just covered a lot of spiritual ground.

Trust me; every Seer and Sage and Prophet that genuinely experienced Universal Soul was surely made giddy by it. Don't be confused if you experience a little discomfort letting go of the illusion to grasp the true nature of reality. I figure it is an unavoidable consequence of evolution. Like growing a leg or cutting teeth, or something! It is very hard to break free of our hard wired misconceptions – but they are detrimental and it must be done.

Now try to imagine the benefits of that growth. On a day to day scale; everything comes together to reinforce this fantastic ideal. I like an example given by the greatest selfless people in our history we call Saints and Martyrs. When these people are asked how they maintain amid grotesque poverty and suffering, and senseless violence; their answer reveals this truth. Mother Teresa answered this difficult question by simply stating that she could see God in every single suffering and misguided human. Some were just farther from the Light or Truth than others – but they would all get there. She answered this problem of how not to hate the misguided. Feel sorry for them instead; because they have a more difficult journey to make to get home. They have more hard miles to endure, so help them along when and if possible. But don't push. Self correction and example, not dictatorship of spiritual morality is required – but guidance. The problem as I see it; is that we "All" have to get there.

Just as when we suffer – it is viewed by the enlightened as a necessary burden and an opportunity to move the Soul along its path. Mother Teresa believed it was the job of the enlightened to help the lost find their way. To find yourself and/or what we call God is the same; all paths lead to Him. The rougher paths are the faster routes; and they need not be viewed as suffering but as opportunities.

With a new found vision comes a new way to view life. The odd steep shortcut removes miles off the trail; the suffering should be accompanied with an understanding that you are not being picked on. In the bigger picture there is benefit to struggle – called growth. All growth is achieved after struggle. You just have to bear in mind that it is the growth of a greater body – which can seem senselessly cruel at times on our level.

This new view of life is the correct view – it just conflicts with a mortal one. People who can't believe there is a God because of suffering – still think this life is all there is. No foundation to understand the greater implications of the struggle of a life immortal has been realized.

If you learn to trust your inner child, you will learn to just take things as they come and realize that how you deal with it is more important than the crisis – no matter how bad. In fact; what I'm trying to tell you is that the worse thing that can happen is you will be released from this mortal duty. It is less pleasant to exist in physical form than in ethereal form – for obvious reasons. One is subject to entropy, pain and suffering; one is boundless. So it is possible to consider release from such a duty although we view it as the end.

We all are connected to the energy of Creation; we just don't know yet how to recognize the signals. The signals are there – we just don't understand their value. Like I said earlier – we write it off as unimportant.

When you get a gut feeling for example, did you ever notice how the strong ones are usually right? We usually dismiss these vibes and think only with our logic; and as you well know already – we often regret it. "I should have listened to my gut feelings" we often say – after making a blunder in logic. If you sensitize yourself to these inner communications, you will find what I am talking about. And it will serve you well.

Or when you walk into a room and feel an unmistakable "vibe," you know it wasn't something you induced. Often we walk into a room and are surprised by a strong negative vibe, because we weren't expecting it. If it was a product of your own mind – it wouldn't startle you or feel so strong. That is a "real vibe." The ability to feel that vibe is a useful tool.

A big part of the failures of our society despite the technical accomplishments are due to this lack of a moral compass. We can see the results of ignoring our link to nature by the needless pain and suffering amid swirling falsehoods. So you see I do not advocate abandoning our inherent ability to develop; just how we apply it.

We have a "Big Brother" society due to this lack of moral compass – since we lack the inner morality to regulate ourselves. We do a lot of bad things because we are guided by information without feelings. We also would gain knowledge faster if we were to intuit which way to proceed. A merging and working together of the metaphysical mind which intuits, and the physical mind which materially calculates is what we are. A meeting of the minds internally would benefit not only the organism (you and I), but most of the entirety of the environment (the earth – critters and all)!

I can see a day in the future when scientists recognize this vibe as an inherent property of conscious existence – rather than dismiss it. One day some future "Einstein" will actually get his "groove on" meditating; to help him decide which way to proceed as a standard procedure. One based on the truth that information and life is a shared field we are a part of. Life should get easier once we do.

Another verification of this shared field developing is how ideas appear at the same time. Many scientists have noticed that when they embark on what they feel is a unique new technology or science; somebody else either beat them to the punch – or is hot on their heels. Ideas are in the air at the same time. Things "trend" subconsciously for a reason!

Often a scientist will intuit information and then set about to prove it. Newton and Einstein for example employed thought experiments (daydreams!); and like I said – then found scientific verification of their hunches. Many apples fell before Newton considered gravity. No such thing as space flight existed when Einstein developed his theories about relativity, gravitation, and time and light speed. They were hunches and inklings which they nurtured.

If you consider the other clairvoyant abilities some of us posses – it jives. When somebody makes a prophecy for example, or predicts a future event; it is just a very strong hunch that won't quit. From our tribal roots to our future potential – this is an ever present ability that we need to develop.

Those who disregard these abilities as impossible have not been paying attention to "how" we develop and learn as a species. We intuit first and then we prove. The old horse needs to be put back in front of the cart. You also have to consider that if you have the completely wrong construct for reality – you won't intuit much. This is why many won't consider such things – it means the foundations they laid about life at church and learned in school and on the learning channels, were wrong. We hate being wrong, and we are not good at admitting it!

We are taught the opposite. Science and knowledge are not the same. Science quantifies, measures, and processes data. Knowledge is the developing field which evolves us. Knowledge is metaphysically maintained invisibly for all to tap into – science dies with each effort. One is mortal and one is not. Knowledge includes how you experience things – especially knowledge. It is all the same quest of; "What am I, and why am I here." It is a very old question with many faces.

If you think that sounds too fantastic – reconsider evolution. The biology maintains the experience and development of the previous life, without a paper record. The blueprint for life is ethereal.

The atoms we are made of are balls of space/time which contain the cosmic memory since the big bang. The DNA, proteins, molecules, cells, and biology; all draw upon this information to self organize. Galaxies and their subsets, stars; are also balls of space/time. What I am trying to say is that in a "real way" everything is information. Another way to consider this is that in a "real way" everything is mind, and is fractal.

A mind observes, intends, feels, and records. At all of these scales this is taking place, especially at your own personal level. You are not a pointless fluke – you are an integral functioning component of the cosmic mind. You are a synapse of the Universe; a mere moment of an ongoing sentient computation. This might make you feel small at first, as did the conventional malarkey; but no longer mortal or pointless. Consciousness to infinity is immeasurably large, compared to our individual limited version.

What you have to remember is the concept of infinity, and eternal existence is also a factor. If you live forever consciously, and you evolve and develop forever – there are no limits – none! I hope I helped you feel a little bigger. I have another way to explain this confusion between being hopelessly small, and infinitely important.

This is the common argument against spiritual pursuits. The argument is that to believe in a Creator – removes control and purpose to life. It is believed to a left-brained physically land locked human being – that surrendering control to a supreme being of any sort – is disempowering. I guess it is if you define it like that and see it that way. The truth is much, much, more worthy to consider.

In the first place; forget the crappy definition for this Supreme Being. It is just the sum total of all conscious experience, and the record of it. It is a lot like a big infinite version of you; you are a reflection in space/time of it \- a Hologram in the Waters – if you will.

The second incorrect view we entertain which causes us some confusion; is the disempowerment issue. You don't "surrender to God" – you find it in yourself. The result is empowerment. There is no mandatory loss of free will – quite the opposite.

Look at life this way; every option you take is always of your own free will. Even if we are forced to do things we don't like – how we feel about things is always our own. It is in fact the only thing it seems that we posses at times as we are pushed along on the currents of life. This is very significant; and an important revision to how we should view our journey.

If you are someone who always looks on the bright side to express this fact simply; life looks better. If you are always miserable, greedy, and self concerned; even good things are sometimes perceived as negative ones. We all know this fact; people who try to look for the good in things – find it. Those who do not look for those good things – do not.

Let's get back on point here; now that I went off on this deliberate tangent. If you have no idea of what is possible, because you have no unauthorized education – you won't know to look. Once you do know, and you learn how to look for those good things; the riddle or secret of life is resolved. Every single aspect of life falls into place – even the shitty bits. Then with confirmation of a properly defined spirit as a permanent conscious element which not only constitutes your essence – but surrounds you in the form of environment – comes true empowerment.

This is the kind of empowerment you can't buy – you have to learn how to feel it. A sort of self sacrifice which is learned and practiced – and thereby earned......not the bullshit kind that gets you nothing for a little submission and cash.

Now with the proper tools and some unauthorized education; start developing your consciousness to include your full participation. All the people who experienced true clairvoyance and transcendence told us the same thing – "You can all do this!"

Edgar Cayce was just one example of what is possible; since it is as individual as we are. The point is – that it isn't impossible to access your instincts. We are veiled and lost regarding our place in the cosmos, as we are veiled about our ability to affect a reality made of consciousness – or in essence – of ourselves.

Try considering some of my ranting – even if you find it too fantastic at first. Actually feel for truth in what you are told. Don't let anyone convince you of anything that doesn't feel right to you. Then learn to ask it questions – in whatever form that takes for you. Oh; and by the way – don't be too surprised if you start to get answers!

When you meditate, pray, contemplate, cipher, or whatever you want to see it as; start listening to yourself for the answers. The secret is that every last confused individual monad of connective tissue is an inversion of the whole – hence an Image or Hologram of Itself. YOU are everything (and I do mean everything), turned outside in. Anything you want to know is inside of you.

All we have to learn how to do – is how to navigate our own Cosmos. All we are lacking (with minimal exceptions) is the ability to perceive ourselves as the fantastic beings we are. The Key is enfolded in you! The entire gambit is a mental prison of our own construction. Don't let anyone limit your concepts of reality – yourself included.

#### **14 – Change at the Speed of Light**

What is going on all around us? Can you feel the winds of change? Some are starting to feel it! This force of conscious evolution is something we "feel" long before the effects become visibly pronounced. For those of us who are locked into a left-brained, materialistic, dominator culture mentality; we are oblivious to this new flavour of metaphysical energy of Creation raining down and reflecting on us – as are those bound to outdated concepts of spirituality.

However anyone who really understood my first statement – already knows what I speak of. For those who don't get what I am saying – it is just a matter of a little unauthorized education. One not promoted by mainstream academia, or theology.

What I am saying is anything but new. It is just new to us. The Mayan's knew about this "Change Time" and constructed a calendar which incorporated this point in mans development. Perhaps evolution is a better term. They knew. If you study the Mayan Calendars, you can see they were well versed in the cycles of time and evolution. They had three basic time systems, a personal calendar (individual), an Earth or crop calendar (solar), and a Galactic calendar (cosmic) – whereas we only use the slave's version; the one based on solar cycles, crops, and deadlines.

The point is that seasons and crops live and die, people have calendars and a cycle, as do celestial orbits of stars, and in turn those of galaxies. Everything endures this cycle and change time on its own calendar. The Maya never said the world would end – fearful old white people interpreted it that way and spread panic – just like every brand of faith can verify (the same old fear mongers are prevalent).

In the western beliefs this notion of an end time is called Armageddon, and also explained as a time of turmoil; after which a "New Kingdom" is created. In fact if you put aside the fact that they were written by people from different times, and different situations, and put aside the unrelated dogmas – they tell us the same thing. A rough change which leads to a better new reality is not only long overdue; it is becoming quite obviously unavoidable. It doesn't matter where you look either – once you start to feel the sickness – an immune system response is just around the corner. From tribal times; to new age beliefs – this is a repeating theme. It isn't a date – but a notion.

All religious belief systems with very few exceptions include this concept in the belief. Whatever the deity is labelled; we are told it is coming back. What if the deity we await – is actually us? That would describe an awakening now then wouldn't it? What if this "return" we await – is an "awakening?" What if the return of Christ for but one example – really meant an awakening in mankind to the principles he embodied? What if he came back where it really mattered – in our hearts?

Just ask yourself what is wrong with the world today? A lack of something in our hearts would describe our situation. There is not any system in place today which is not failing equally well. Therefore it is easy to conclude this is not a failure of intellect to design systems, which we do very well – it is instead a failure of the heart to include a benevolence which comes from a full understanding of reality. Any system would work; in other words, if applied with a different flavour.

We might be technologically savvy; but morally we suck – big-time! When I try to tell people the obvious – that as a species we are in dire straits; many chuckle. Nero fiddled while Rome burned as they say. For those who believe the politicians and the cartoon news networks; I have some bad news for you – they lied. We are living through an extinction event right now! We have been for sometime. We lack a certain reverence for the other life around us.

This is what constitutes "change at the speed of light." I like to be hopeful that we will get our proverbial "poop in a group," before it is too late – but we are running out of time. So you see there are only two likely outcomes; extinction, or awakening. For those who might have initially labelled me a pessimist; I hope I vindicate myself as an optimist.

So how can I help I asked myself? Knowing what I know; and realizing that it is beyond belief to many – how could I help people understand? When something is as obvious as the nose on your face in a metaphysical sense; you don't see it. You know what they say, if you want to hide something – the best place is in plain sight. In fact you might trip over it constantly; and still not see it. This is our situation.

One way to see this is as light. Another is as a vibration. A tone or sound can be another. Dimensions layered upon each other, above and below the visible dimension would be another. The short version is that everything is a wave. That is why religious texts call this "the Waters' or a "Word" denoting a wave or vibration.

Consider that everything is actually a wave of vibration. Light; is such a wave and constitutes our reality. Everything can be viewed as a wave is my point. Matter by some is merely viewed as light slowed down to a lower frequency and congealed and made solid. The notion that light can be congealed when slowed sufficiently is a reasonable consideration given the known properties of other matter. If you think that sounds far fetched – let's look at the science for a moment.

String Theory makes this concept feasible. If you study quantum physics a little, and follow the progression of matter into its more micro components – there is absolutely no conflict. Everything is made of atoms; and atoms are more like balls of space/time. Balls made of a continuous fabric isolated into packets of information – hence the very term "quanta."

But if we break down the process in detail; those packets are made of waves at certain harmonics. Let me explain. An atom is like a galaxy, or solar system in the way of empty space. Most of atomic structure and cosmic structure share the fact that it is nothing but empty space with little or no actual matter as particles.

It is mostly an energy undergoing an activity. The secret is that what we called "nothing" is anything but nothing. Nothing is the full potential of the possibilities, that a mere sliver of resonates as what we mistakenly view as all of reality.

Science now has been placed in the embarrassing situation of having to admit that there is little or no substance to reality. They can't give a reason for things to have any mass at all; being as they are mostly empty and made out of virtually nothing. Then they have to contend with the problem that this "nothing" contains enormous power.

Briefly stated; atoms are very hollow, and mostly a vibrating energy. When we go even farther we may break the atom into its components. The atom is a nucleus made of protons and neutrons, with electrons orbiting at approximately 90% of the speed of light around it. Those bits can be broken into quarks and various sub-quarks.

However when you get down to the basic structure of our reality – you get waves. String Theory has exposed that at an even more micro level; our reality is made of tiny vibrating metaphysical strings which are actually space/time itself - folded upon itself at various harmonics of gravitation. I would find little contrast between the notions of the Waters of life, or as the Ether, or Word in ancient religious texts, with what science claims.

Tiny metaphysical loops of space/time folded onto themselves at certain harmonics; is what the true nature of reality is. Stuff really is made of nothing! But that nothing is the ultimate something. The Yin and yang unfolds, as Brahma breathes in and out the universe. My point is that as we evolve our steady-state classical and static world view; it is being exposed as the illusion it is. Briefly stated; what we see is without a doubt – not how it really is! The "steady-state solid classical reality" is an outdated concept which unfortunately still serves as a foundation for the pillars of scientific stuffiness.

Now let us return to some of the concepts left for us by our ancestors who chipped this information onto stones, and who constructed our most ancient texts. They told us that everything was made "of" or "from" this primordial element called "the Ether." They told us that at the building blocks for all existence and reality – was a single primordial initial element called the ether. They were right.

I'll spell it out to save time – this "ether" is the fabric of space/time as Einstein referred to it. Some call it Dark Matter and Dark Energy; others seek this as a fundamental primordial particle like the Higgs Boson, Schwarzschild Proton, or God Particle as the self generator of reality. The stuff we are embedded in - and we who are in it are one and the same! Some religious notions should come to mind. The basic concepts in ancient texts were not a bunch of hooey! That came later!

For simplicity I like often to call everything "Light" to make a working construct we can understand and work with. There is more to it – but this makes the concept something we can envision. We can easily conceive of everything as light; once we consider that if you slow this vibration enough it becomes solid as we know it.

Now take a moment to consider the speed of what we call light. The speed of light is said to be 186,000 miles per second. Light as we know it moves so fast we can't see it – only the reflection and the effects of it. We don't really see conventional light; we just see the effects of the reflections it makes on the objects it contacts.

It's time to blow a few minds here. There is light all around and inside of everything, we just can't see it because our five senses are not able to process information moving at that speed – while we are at this speed or lower vibrational frequency – the energy of Creation remains hidden.

A half decent Sherlock could have sorted this out some time ago. I refer us back to ancient texts and bibles; because if you read them correctly – they did have this information embedded into the belief systems. And not just in one version. This information has been preserved for countless thousands of years, probably closer to 50,000 years, some claim much longer. Forget the dogma which revolves around a limited view which entertains a mere 5,000 years for human history and a limited premise. The truth is much greater; which should come as little surprise and offend few.

If everything is made of light, or vibrations, they must all come from an ultimate and all encompassing speed or harmonic. Creation and or a Creator must be the ultimate harmonic which includes all speeds and vibrations. I would like to briefly digress with an exercise in logic and consciousness expansion.

Atoms are made of even smaller bits which work together to generate the body of an atom. Atoms gathered into groups constitute proteins, molecules, and DNA. The biological micro components work together to generate cells. Those cells assemble into organs and into ever more complex forms of biology. At the higher levels; that biological symphony or concrescence creates our bodies. What made us think it stops with us?

Take it a few steps farther and it all becomes quite clear. We as temporary cells of the earth constitute its body and personality. Planets and stars assembled into cosmic sized groupings make galaxies. All the galactic groupings together make up the body of our universe. A half decent theory would entail the notion that several universes would build something even larger. We live within a limitless evolving infinite fractal holographic representation of consciousness; like a Mandelbrot Set of Mind.

Anywhere conscious application is directed – space/time unfolds for it. This is a "Horton Hears a Who" reality of limitless proportions. Our reality therefore is an infinite playground to evolve consciousness. Why would this be so? What is the point or purpose of it all?

Novelty! The constant evolution and development of a whole; or "the Body" as explained in ancient texts. But "the Body" is just a term for the totality. A Hologram which encompasses all life as it evolves; generates all life from a source shared field which is evolving. This is why ancient texts call it "Building the Body." All life is a compounded resonance which builds as further novelty is generated. That's us!

In religious texts we are often told how one aspect prepares or makes a house for the next aspect. The idea of building a house was the notion that many parts make up each repository – in perpetuity.

If you want a little common sense proof of what I am saying; consider how uniquely life is constructed. Never does it build the same thing twice, or in the same configuration. The reason for that is the novelty I spoke of. Not two grains of sand, nor two snowflakes, nor mountains, planets, stars, galaxies, nor two people are made the same. We are made from the same divided bodies, and the same elements, but we are never made the same – nor do we experience life the same as each other. This generates the novelty which evolves the hologram we are reflections of.

Some may argue the point with considerations at the atomic scale, and reason that atoms are the same in groupings. But upon closer scrutiny I have found many scientists who point out that the electrons and sub-atomic bits have individual characteristics since at the atomic scale even the electrons for instance; have different positions from each other at the same time. Or perhaps sub-atomically; the wave configurations and gravities of the strings they are constructed of – could also never be identical by design.

My undeniable point is that not two things are constructed identically – for a reason and purpose which is part of a greater function. Oh, by the way; it also makes short work of the consideration that everything is a pointless fluke. Design implies a designer.

The other point I would like to make is in regards to a most obvious component of evolution. If everything you and I (or any other creature) experienced terminated 100% when we physically perished; how would anything evolve? At the very least the information of our trials and tribulations resonates onto the subsequent version of our selves. The information as light is maintained. The Intelligible Metaphysical Light that permeates everything and is the instructions for life – is a permanent fixture. Now put it all together.

If everything is deliberately constructed from an ever changing space/time which weaves quanta and DNA in endlessly individual versions of a shared blueprint – and it shares and passes on the information of conscious experience metaphysically (non-physically), then the purpose of life is exposed.

Ask yourself this basic question in a deep way. Why is there life at all? Never mind how the photons and particles bumped into each other to make what we see – why did it do it? Because given the design and construction characteristics of life – it wasn't a fluke. A fluke serves no purpose like they taught us. A random copulating fluke we are not. There becomes only one clear solution. The initial force was an eternal self-generating consciousness. To make it even easier to understand it was "you" the one looking out from within; and observing and experiencing.

The same consciousness is looking out of every life form which is conscious. The same metaphysical dweller in you that remains after you pass on; is this "All Seeing Eye" as the ancients called it. There are hundreds of names and versions for this basic concept for our experience and reality – and thousands of renditions for it.

The core concept is that each individuation is but a temporary aspect and intention of a permanent conscious whole. Each of those individually perceived aspects becomes convinced through this perspective – that they are mortal individuals, that they "are" their vehicle. Thus the format for the lesson begins. Remember the idea of being lost and then found, or remembering, or a casting off of a veil, and similar metaphors for the same realization?

The Buddha expressed this as an awakening to the true nature of reality. Many people of multiple faiths weep profoundly when they realize that in a way; "Everything is God." Christians may view this as Christ touching their hearts, to a Buddhist a moment of Zen the list is endless – but the point the same. This is not a fictional realization – about an intangible subject. It is the poorly defined truth which our current veil or perspective deficit conceals from the bulk of us.

So here is where "change at the speed of light" comes into play. We have to "get this" in short order – or to be blunt the future if any will be grim. We are either done as a failed cosmic experiment, or we are about to propel our ever increasing evolution to completely new heights – at the speed of ethereal light (the real Light).

I'm not suggesting that anyone should leap into any particular chasm of faith because in a real way that is what creates this "veil" or incorrect perspective. What I suggest is that we look at all the preserved concepts left for us in a new way. A way that understands the information left for us as a totality – rather than as confused separated dogmas.

All true spiritual belief systems incorporate an element of empowerment through individual experience and freedom of choice. The entire construct of reality revolves around conscious choice, how you feel about it, and the subsequent contribution that life makes to the hologram. We were told we were an "Image" and made as a "Likeness" of our Creator, were we not? We could indeed be able to equate an infinite fractal holographic representation – with what the ancients called an Image of life itself.

I personally believe that the ancients understood the correct function and nature of experience better than we did – without the benefit of science as we know it; or a "gadget advantage." They had "knowledge, wisdom, and genuine knowing" it was just achieved differently. A way we forgot. Their technology was internal – it was "us."

Our technology is external and unfortunately based on ego, explosions, and a dominator culture. They understood better how "we" work – and we understand better how our surroundings work; as a result. Both disciplines are worthy; they just need to merge.

Change at the speed of light entails the meshing of the old knowledge with the new information to generate this new landscape – in a remarkably short timeframe. What we have become – might be the only way to save ourselves! The fact is that in ever shorter cycles the knowledge we posses; multiplies exponentially in quality and volume. Where can this lead if we don't destroy ourselves by dragging our feet and holding on to old ways which strangle our true potential?

I promised to help empower you if you would consider the ranting of a solitary fellow associate in this process of life. I invite you on a factual journey regarding the true potential of you and your life. The future holds the possibilities of our rapidly unfolding potentials – or the demise of that potential.

To start this change at the speed of light – a little unauthorized metaphysical education is in order. It sounds a bit strange given our societal conditioning at first. The part I really like is how if you openly consider it; the credibility grows rapidly with each subsequent realization, and by each experience, which lends it credence and confirms it. Pandora's Ball is about to open and unleash a conscious development unprecedented by any before – even the one that brought us to the elevated state we enjoy over the rest of the animal kingdom now.

The next evolutionary step is the reason we got kicked out of a garden for taking a metaphoric fruit as a parable. First we discovered a Tree of Knowledge which set us on a path of discovery – pock marked with many poor choices and sufferings. We learned a lot with our conscious advantage given our five senses – but the bumps and bruises of our conscious childhood are evident to all but the least among us.

Remember the Tree of Life? Remember the verse; "Lest them not take from the Tree of Life, and become like "We" are? And then; getting the boot from the Garden of Atlantis (oops did I just say that again)?

We are special beings – living in very special times - and as always what we choose to do with it is the entire point. For some of us perhaps evolution has arrived, although for many it remains impossible, or just not considered due to societal conditioning imposed through misconstrued academia, and theological falsehoods. Everybody is God, and everybody is Jesus (or substitute you own deity name). And that is a truth worth knowing; and deserving of a better look. 

#### 15 – Birth, Death, and Rebirth

When the Buddha was asked by one of his students how many times we reincarnate into this life – his answer was an eye opener. The Buddha responded that each one of us had been reborn many times; and that each mans bones would constitute a mountain.

We in the western culture don't consider reincarnation a fact of life in our spiritual belief systems in general. Our religions are Monotheistic (one God), and unlike the bulk of the other belief systems; we don't embrace the notion of reincarnation – or cyclic life. The facts really are that other than the Jewish, Christian, and Catholic faiths; virtually every faith not only believes in reincarnation – but is structured around it.

Only the three belief systems embraced in the western culture (Christian, Catholic, and Jew) believe in "One God" and no reincarnation – generally speaking. The problem is that any 15watt Sherlock can sort out this apparent dilemma in short order indeed.

You see; if you dig a bit deeper – there really was only one belief system which didn't teach reincarnation – the Jewish religion. I say this without reservation; because any historian worth their salt can tell you that Christianity and Catholicism are direct off-shoots from the Jewish faith. I.E; Jesus was a Jew. This isn't in dispute.

To free the mind completely from this misconception we are taught, the last falsehood must be exposed. The Jewish faith is a descendant of the Ancient Kabbalah. The Ancient Kabbalah is like their early First Testament. The Ancient Kabbalah has roots and foundations in the Sumerian, Babylonian, and Pre-sand Egyptian beliefs; which incidentally revolve around cyclic life, cosmic mind, and rebirth! (Not to mention all of which are all the preserved teachings from the ancient wisdom of Atlantis – but that is another subject!)

Even in our bible in Revelations; when the world as we know it is destroyed – it is told as "Babylon has fallen." We live in nothing more than a technological modern offshoot of Babylon.

So any real spiritual myth buster can easily deduce that even our western beliefs were the offspring of similar concepts as the eastern faiths. My point is that all religions are a product of the same ancient belief systems, which despite the nay-say – do all include these esoteric, mystical, and spirit rebirth notions.

Here are the straight goods regarding cyclic life, or reincarnation; as best I could discern. Some of the best information I found to seek out if you are so inclined are the following; the Tibetan Book of the Dead, the Kolbrin Bible, the Oahspe Bible, the Edgar Cayce readings about spiritual topics, the Emerald Tablets, the Illuminated religions such as the Rosicrucian's, the Knights Templar, Freemasons, Alchemy, and Hermetic beliefs from the Ancient Greeks.

There are also many tribal beliefs which are much older rooted in Shamanic practices - which entail talking to the ancestors. Ancestors to a Shaman are the same as Angels to a Christian; and are also the same as us not in physical form. The idea of spirit cycling between higher states or dimensions – really isn't alien to any belief system if you get down to the brass tacks of it. There has always been "experiential proof" from "witnesses" to give us rise to build religions based on personal interpretation.

This leaves about a million questions of which I will address merely a few. I hope however to have enough answers to spark your interest due to the sincerity, and genuineness, and resonations of truth an awakened soul can verify internally. These are some pretty big assed questions; that these ancient texts address in detail. I would like now to share some of these really good answers to our biggest questions which prohibit our understanding and which are given in these alternate belief systems.

Mostly; they all begin with the acceptance of a Cosmic Spirit of sorts. The Universal Mind of God to others. We all embody that fractal image in personal form – we are just extremely incomplete individuations of it. This growth of conscious evolution is the point of existence. The difference is how it works.

According to the bulk of these works; we select our own next lives if we are capable spiritually of understanding what is going on after we physically perish. Let us start at the beginning of this cycle to elaborate further.

You go "home" when you die; you awaken from this physical reflection of the dream, which really means you start out as a spirit – a perhaps imperfect one. Imagine that!

So as a spirit in need of growth, in an effort to attain the Absolute, our Source, God, or whatever you call it; we volunteer to sacrifice a little skin for a while, to move the spirit along. We undertake a journey.

When, where, and how we enter our physical body as a spirit is a hotly debated subject. The best information which makes the most sense - is that it is when we take our first breath. The consensus is that we enter from our pineal gland, or perhaps our heart chakra, but our "center" would cover all of them. With our first breath we draw in the Spirit of Creation and reduce an all inclusive property to one land-locked in a body and fixed in time and space. Whether shortly prior to; or shortly after our birth – the gist is you enter your body incarnate from the Spirit Realm – which means you pre-existed.

This is where the idea that we are Angels who fall to the earth, or that we are cast down comes from; this spiritual cycle of education. Then as a spirit bound to a body as a vehicle of experience, the journey begins. But don't forget – you start as a baby. A baby has no little or no coordination, or cognitive abilities yet; these all have to be learned.

Every sense is dull. Babies start out virtually blind and work their way up from general recognition of light and dark, through fuzzy and unfocused stages, and several slow progressions to develop the ability to see properly and process the information. So as we gain the control of our senses to negotiate this reality, which takes several years; we slowly lose the identity of the higher self. We begin to consciously occupy the vehicle or body we are learning to function in; like learning to drive on a grander scale.

Babies try to talk; but are not yet developed enough and merely babble and grunt. They can't coordinate their arms and legs. A baby takes a long time to grow into this new world – and during this process it forgets while it learns. You start to assume the identity of your vehicle of experience by design, as a process of forgetting.

I have often used the analogy that the process a baby goes through is like Alzheimer's disease – only backwards. How we go into life, and exit life – is similar and telling. Our consciousness seems to collect itself from the environment, and respectively lose itself back to the environment.

There are variations on this theme. If you are completely clueless and a confused spirit you might reincarnate spontaneously without any control over it. Some claim that if a spirit had gone backwards in the process of conscious evolution; it might sleep for several hundred years before rebirth, as a process of healing takes place in order to give it another shot.

We move all the way from a state of sleep to facilitate healing for the damage done; to rebirth with conscious choice, to retaining memory through subsequent lives, and up to achieving enlightenment and not having to be physically reborn anymore. Then according to the information; we continue to consciously encompass the greater totality until we eventually achieve apotheosis – and become "like God" or his "Brother." This takes a long time – but we have time............

So we enter our body by choice or nature, depending on our level of conscious awareness – and have this experience. But the first problem with this; is reckoning with the tragic losses which seem to cut this short. First off; everyone doesn't get the full experience – and no matter when it ends – it is generally nasty. This is in conflict with this greater teaching from a moral perspective for life and the lesson.

So why do people get cut short and suffer a short or a dreadful experience? I think you will like this most excellent if not a bit longwinded explanation. But it is worth the effort given that it answers one of life's rudest questions – the potential for brutality, misfortune and apparently needless suffering.

To begin with; restructure your thoughts in regard to this consideration to include the idea that the spirit never dies – it just exits the vehicle or body. With this in mind; here are some damn good answers and reasons for the unexplained harshness associated with our experience. The Myths and romanticised misconceptions we have been taught since birth need to be surrendered.

The physical body is born, lives, and dies; but the intelligent essence of the spirit body, or the light body – persists through many lives acquiring experience and knowledge in each. You might ask; "Then why don't I remember my other lives?" This is probably a blessing since if you study history; many of us have led less than saintly previous lives. If you knew; it would weigh you down and negate your current experience (with select rare few exceptions).

In a round-a-bout way you do remember your past lives – your present personality has its foundations in them. Skills which come easily, certain aversions and fears, instinctive knowledge, and artistic and musical abilities – are all manifestation of these subconscious memories in retention. We are "built" of these memories to generate who and what we are.

The exception to this is also a well documented fact which is manifest by people who inadvertently or deliberately tap into these past lives as unexplained memories and déjà-vu. A small percentage of us experience "flashbacks" of this sort like a life review which revealed other episodes or chapters.

Each one of us is secretly moving closer by this process, to full and proper expression of the particular God-like quality we glimpsed in the aura of God, and selected by the soul prior to its first incarnation in physical form. Our many lives are a testament to the difficulty of the task we selected long ago. Given this corrected perspective; the nasty aspects of life are opportunities to gain spiritual capital and move the soul along its path.

So some pick the often more difficult lives to gain the most benefit – those who understand the purpose of this life as an educational stepping stone towards the Source of our consciousness.

The unaware just select the easiest lives, in order to experience the pleasures and distractions of life; and sort of muddle through repeated cycles aimlessly. Still others remain in the spiritual realms too long; and are also forced into a random cycle after awhile to initiate further development of the spirit of their consciousness.

Even Jesus told his disciples that we must be born again of Holy Water and the Holy Ghost; which is still symbolized by the act of Baptism. This is all the same information after all. Information about a perpetual rededication and being reborn – thus all spirituality includes the theme of reincarnation. I would welcome intelligent debate to the contrary – but bring plenty of spiritual bullets – I have a lot of tough questions for you!

What each life represents is a soul lesson. If a life cut short by tragedy or physical defect seems unkind – it only seems that way from an earth bound perspective. We often select a tragic physical life in advance, knowing full well – because of the gains made by the soul along its individual spiritual path. The "Goal" spoken of in all spiritual teachings is the need to no longer reincarnate physically. After being "born again" we are to eventually attain a state above the need to physically incarnate.

Some move on to other worlds and higher states and dimensions – and others remain behind to help their brothers and sisters attain the same. We call these beautiful souls Angels – rightfully so. Some physically reincarnate at a level of Prophets, Spiritual Teachers, and Saints and so on occasionally to help us along – while others help from an ethereal state by influencing the field from above. As Above So Below, or In Heaven as on Earth as they say.

Now that we explored what happens at birth, and throughout the life experience – we should look in detail what these wise old texts say about the death process. We only see one side of it. There is much good information to consider about the end process that we are perhaps not aware of in this condition.

Some who pass over we are told, sleep and rest until they recover and recuperate after they die, as we so wrongly express it – when in fact they really did just move on. Those who don't believe in any way shape or form that there is a special element or property to life – may fall into a deep sleep for up to several hundred years or more to re-set. However the advanced student of these principles it is claimed; moves directly through a review and judgment process by their own higher self to more quickly facilitate further training. These souls know the gig and are eager to get on with the program.

Most of us fall into an intermediary category, and are granted a spiritual vacation for an undetermined period of time. We have a time for seeing old friends and family, and as a relief from the pressures of life. A time is spent in a world we fashion after our own design in which to meet other souls. Then we resume our journey well rested.

The good and bad are not interpreted the same for each of us. Each individual cell of the Godhead or the Soul; is judged by its own yardstick pertinent to its needs. This isn't a one size fits all program. The only possible interpretation of "Hell" can be an unaware state and an unwillingness to acknowledge our failures in this regard. Hell would be a self imposed conscious condition required to sort out our own most horrid failures by our own higher self before allowing the soul to move on.

A life cut short physically we might rightfully hope represents a life which has accomplished what it had to. Some little lesson completed the journey and spared it the physical duty. The other reasonable excuse for a life lost prematurely, is that it no longer served the duty needed by the spirit – it was a wasted tour. They could then be viewed as spared the suffering of physical cast down third dimensional existence. We wouldn't necessarily see it that way – but in the bigger picture – who can really say?

And the best possibility for a short term physical experience is that it was just a duty served to teach you or someone else something they couldn't otherwise get. This could be viewed as one life given in sacrifice to teach others; which should sound familiar. The last reason; is that you are done this duty after countless efforts – and you now get to climb into your own personal rocket ship and take your place as a part of the Universal Soul, or the All, Isness, God, Creator, Source, Manitou, Logos, Tetragrammaton, All Seeing Eye, the Mind of Nature, the Source Field for the Hologram, or whatever you can envision it as. Because all the methods of attempting to describe what we envision – fall woefully short of the Truth and the Light.

If you read the Tibetan Book of the Dead to learn about death, it clearly explains the process. According to the Tibetans, it takes about ten days to go through the death process – after you stop breathing! The gist of it in condensed form; is about the spirit going through a netherworld after it passes – which determines how it did.

The Tibetans believe, perhaps rightfully so; that we consciously go through several stages of temptation and fear after we die. If you get distracted by the temptations, which could be sex, vices, personal weakness, desire, greed, and so on – that's it......you go no farther. Your incompleteness led you astray and you start over and reincarnate at your level.

There are also several multi armed and multi legged versions of evil which threaten to destroy you in the texts – which you are to vanquish by the realization that they are of your design. This in my opinion is just their version of the Devil which really is the same depiction for your own fears and shortcomings. If you can't get past your own fears – you are also not ready – so back you go!

In the Oahspe Bible; it clearly states that the figure Thoth in ancient Egyptian texts – is Gabriel in our Bible, and that they are one and the same. The notion that our spirit returns is also repeatedly found in the Kolbrin Bible as well. (The Kolbrin Bible is where some claim Nostradamus secretly got his information from!) Thoth is also supposed to be one of the incarnations of the Greek God Hermes, in the Hermetic beliefs, who was called Hermes Trismegistus; or Hermes the thrice reincarnated (The dude with the little symbolic wings on his ankles!).

The Egyptian Mystery Schools taught these secrets to the masters; and expressly taught students how to maintain their essence through one life into another – and be aware of it. They not only knew how this works – they had learned how to manipulate their memory through the process of death! I have studied the method, which is very intriguing – but that would warrant a full education on meditation as a basis to begin. I just don't have the desire to botch the explanation in order to sufficiently condense it.

If you go back and read our western bibles with this mystic, esoteric, alchemical and metaphysical education; the stuff that didn't make sense will start to be made quite clear.

This is a big part of what you are not supposed to know. Things like God channelling to us – which is what every religion and related dogma is an attempt to explain. It is just that we get the romanticised version full of parables – instead of the straight goods.

Nature and Science both confirm that nothing is ever destroyed; it just changes states and cycles. There exists no more tactile an energy form than our consciousness. The ever present primordial element is consciousness, which we see as informational display such as atoms and DNA. Everything is a cycle of development and self organization to further complexity – what makes us think that "we" defined as our consciousness is an exception? What made us think it ends with us – at our scale?

We are evolution. As the Philosophers Stone suggests (not the Harry Potter version!); Mankind is the Evolution of Consciousness, over the Alchemy of Time. Everything around us is verification of this principle. Read a Bible, any Bible – with an esoteric education; you'll thank me once this all clicks. Real validity for our Spirit Component is indeed a very rare commodity.

Let me end this thought with a positive rant. Our DNA, and the atoms we are made of; all contain the information since the beginning of time. They are this concrescence or layering of the information of Creation – this is the special element to life. So are we. This has positive implications; knowledge of the permanence of experience, and a workable definition for a change.

This means we have been here since what we simplistically called the Big Bang. What this means is that we have been the primordial goo from which the first life formed in our early oceans, billions of years ago. We have been molluscs and boneless creatures. We have been the dinosaurs, and we have in fact; been our ancestors! And, yes – each other – and our future selves. This is after all a conscious fractal hologram. Each bit contains the whole – and any change is immediately reflected in all the bits. A consensus reality, as it is sometimes called.

If you get anything out of my verbs; I hope it can be reduced to something like this. We are all special beings, every last one of us – spiritual texts attempted to feebly explain this fact. Nobody is forever lost, and every last sheep and child shall be gathered. Some of us might just have farther to travel along the road of conscious growth – these are the people we are supposed to help rather than slow their progress with our misplaced hatred.

Don't ever, ever, ever; let anyone convince you through academia or theology that your experience and the venue for it are a fluke, nor a fairy-tale. The proof grows daily with ground gained that something special is behind the apparent static-steady-state reality we incorrectly assumed explained reality. The Metaphysical invisible properties of life as we well know; make up an estimated 80% - 98% of the Cosmos and the Quantum.

These other hidden dimensions include what we call death and the permanent dimensions and aspects of your consciousness. Brave the difficulties of life, with the added knowledge that they are lessons to gain spiritual capital – for your reflection of life. You are a reflection which is a permanent fixture. Instead; we are taught to be fearful entities.

You and I will never be more fearful than we are as this physical incarnation or aspect of ourselves. As you well know; we are subject to damage! We only live for a fixed period of time, which if it wasn't bad enough; can be tragically and brutally cut short at any time. We are not even guaranteed a short duration! We can suffer pain, go hungry, be persecuted, and face rejection, and endless forms of hurt and danger.

While this paints a nasty picture – you couldn't create a better venue to provide a "real lesson" in. The difficulty serves a purpose. You are to make decisions with real skin in the game – yours. Once you learn to consider others despite the apparent peril; you pass the test. The truth that you were never in any real danger in the bigger picture has to be concealed until you pass the test.

This is my advice worded around an old parable which was an ancient romanticized version to explain this concept. Fear not as you walk through the valley of the shadows of death in this life, because you walk not alone. The shadow of life we know as life – is but a mere reflection of the greater life of the Truth and Light. In short; there really is nothing to fear. We have a whole lot to unravel and understand without a doubt – but only our own fear to conquer.

The humour of our situation becomes apparent once we fully understand the true nature of reality regarding birth, life, death, and reincarnation. Now that I "get this" I understand why release from this life, is by design. I now would consider it cruel and unusual punishment to not be released from this duty in this body at some point. I might not hurry to this end deliberately and void my lesson; but at some unknown time – I deserve to have my "Oh Shit Moment" and pack my bags as it were!  

#### 16 – Blood, Rust, and Worms

This really is the story of the struggle of Blood, Rust, and Worms. The Blood can be defined as conscious corpuscular life. The Rust and Worms are the mechanisms of entropy wrought upon the material which is repeatedly recycled to perpetuate the activity of conscious evolution.

Amid this breakdown of matter and material considerations; a self organization and compounded complexity takes place as an equal and opposite reaction in opposition to the physical. The information for life; the blueprint - seems to evolve as a direct result of the physical breakdown, and the recycling of it. Without rust and worms – material and biological recycling wouldn't take place. They serve a higher purpose is what I am suggesting.

If everything were static, nothing would ever change. That might be alright if we really were temporary manifestations of consciousness, but if infinities play into this (and I am convinced that they do), then to be blunt – what a drag that would be. The opposite condition where things don't ever break down lacks purpose in the extreme. It is this constant struggle we endure that gives life its flavour.

The permanent aspect; is the consciousness exploring the temporary evolving biology as a medium for experience and developmental evolution. The rust and worms so to speak; are opportunities in disguise. There is no death. The concept of death is something we fear and create and invent in our minds. I would consider birth more frightening than death; given the full understanding that we rise from a state of bliss only to once again struggle through yet another repeated demise.

While that might paint a rather nasty picture of it all; we can take comfort in the possibility that each might be a form of relief from the other. Why else would the cycle of conscious life entail perpetual birth, demise, and rebirth? I suggest given the complexity of it all; that the answer has little to do with chance. More likely it has to do with purpose as I suggest – which nicely addresses the question at hand.

The maximum benefit is gained from this struggle for one thing; as we explored earlier. As another consideration we might accept the notion that metaphysical consciousness is too complete and too peaceful to endure without the contrast of physical struggle. The same need for contrast between cycles of existence might be required to maximize an eternal component of conscious existence. The action of life like the joy of a thrill seeker is incomplete without peril.

The Blood component is an evolving matrix based on conscious experience – therefore the DNA is an antenna to receive the blueprint for life. The blood cell is in a true sense – the Holy Grail to the Riddle of Life. This is what I mean when I say Blood in reference to the evolving conscious hologram of life we are a fractal manifestation of.

The blood is a special component because it is a bridge between the metaphysical instructions, and the physical product of the instructions. The biology is a conscious bridge. It is how the driver gets into his vehicle in metaphoric values. Scripturally it is how Spirit is manifest on the earth. So if you didn't think you were special – think again. We are all part of a very special process.

It all makes sense mentally; but then the material considerations kick in. The entropy, and rust and worms, seem to have the upper hand at the best of times. Nothing stands the test of time as we know it in regards to atrophy. Everything; even the greatest stone monuments wither under the unrelenting efforts of the elements – the demise mechanisms are firmly in place to create an ever changing matrix for conscious experience.

You just have to accept the design of it. The strange part like I said is that an equal and opposite reaction takes place at the opposing spectrum for life. Once you realize that it doesn't matter if you heal yourself; you gain the ability to actually affect your health.

Once you learn to forgive others, you receive forgiveness. Once you choose to love others, you receive love. Life is a reflective process.

Some will try to tell you that to accept a higher power, even if defined in a non-offensive individually acceptable manner; is disempowering – that you surrender your free will and lose control of your destiny. I have found the opposite. When you realize that there is a special component to life, and you play a special part in it, and that you can connect to it in a meaningful fashion – enlightenment and empowerment result.

Understanding our plight in the domain of rust and worms; I dare say makes the entire experience worthwhile. How is that for a little proof derived from result? This point which can be expressed in many more eloquent forms than I am capable of delivering remains simply, that knowledge really is the key, special knowledge. This can take many forms.

Experiencing Universal Soul and your inner Spirit Component is a duty of physical experience and is not a sin - nor is it a fictitious and imagined pursuit. Don't let the rust and worms fool you – the blood holds the key. You hold the key. The attempt to convince you not to look by academia or by theology, I believe to be the actual fictitious pursuit, and perhaps even a sin if such a thing exists. Mistakes yes; sin – I am not so sure.

Physical life is the method employed by metaphysical life; to erase its mistakes. Through this erasing of mistakes, and assembling complexity and novelty; life educates itself. This gets easier to see once we realize all of this is fractal – and the same principles are prevalent in virtually all aspects of life.

You do the exact same thing during your life experience. You discard the bits that served no purpose or were negative; and you retain and collect the habits and novelty that were positive and/or served you well. The reflective nature of life becomes apparent to those who will consider my point. All life is a cycle. All life is the same cycle.

The struggles of life as a group are also a copy of the same principle. The Blood that flows in every vein – is shared. This is the deception of conscious existence – the individual. This might be how notions for communism developed, since we really are a global collective. The principle that we are all one and should share is not a bad consideration. It is an instinctive reaction. I am not advocating communism as we know it today, but the concept is sound. But just like any other system in place today; the problem is always how it is applied.

For example; our version of capitalism and freedom as we all know is not all it is cracked up to be either. Even a dictatorship is entirely a matter of whether the dictator places himself or his people first. A benevolent well meaning dictator, or a benevolent communist, or a capitalist system – can all be made fair or not. It is all about how it is applied – and how self serving or mutual the intention is.

I render this as further proof. Life doesn't depend on certain systems, ideologies, or methods chosen – it depends on "how" you apply them. It depends on conscious application – just like all modes of experience........it is about choices which then reflect back.

Two outdated modes of belief prevent this "change of heart." The first is the belief that is pounded into our heads by science which unequivocally states that we are nothing special, a fluke; and that we only have this brief conscious life. Most people believe and fear mortality as a result of this societal skew.

Simply put; we don't die. At least not as we currently define it. If we as a group were better educated in this respect – we would immediately stop all forms of crapping on each other. We are rotten to each other; because we are greedy fearful entities. When the actual truth is that nobody would deliberately hurt anyone else given the full understanding that the other person or thing – is them in another form from another position in the space/time experience.

The other point we need to grasp will come easier. We must come to realize that we are not only in the same boat, but also in the same ocean, or water. The science unequivocally states we are all "one thing." A particle which turns inside out to be a universe is still integral to the same cosmic egg. Biology which cycles from a single shared conscious blueprint, and evolved from solitary goo; would be another. Atoms which all share a field and are tiny balls of the common fabric of space/time would be another.

I believe that when the new science finally convinces us to look at reality in a new light due to the repeating information which all points to the same premise – then science will have no choice but to tell the new truth. The theology won't have much choice but to admit that all religious premises are also one and the same thing. No more "selective paths to heaven" is long overdue. No more spiritual voodoo.

The result of a society better educated about the true nature of reality and of our conscious experience – would describe the foretold golden age spoken of in virtually all ancient texts. The physical method of learning will also accelerate this development for those unwilling or unable to come to conscious grips with this new way of being.

The explanation is so clear and easy to reckon with; and I think you will like it. In the bibles it says you reap what you sow. In the eastern philosophies something called Karma is used to explain it. Philosophers might just proclaim that what comes around; goes around. There are many such analogies for this same principle. My point is this.

As the cycles of life increase and accelerate all around us – Karma is no exception. The self-organization and increased complexity of life is accelerating. We learn and develop at ever faster rates, like a wheel rolling down a hill. What once took millions of years, later took thousands; what took thousands of years, will take us mere decades to unfold. Most of us would agree with the principle that our conscious development is ramping up.

Here is where the physical education gets a boost from this thanks to what the ancients referred to as the Karmic Wheel of Life. If you believe in some form of Karma – realize that it too – is getting faster. What "goes around" will "come around" faster. There will be less of a delay between action and reward and penalty. This is our immune system response to these changes – a need to become more benevolent before we kill ourselves and everything on the earth with our foolhardiness.

To express this in terms we can all relate to; we will remember why we are getting the shit end of the stick before we forget why! What a simple way to help us along! For those who can not come to conscious grips with the new paradigm, the physical return time for unkind deeds will educate the others in short order. When you "feed it" to somebody else; get prepared to "eat it" accordingly in short order.

The chaos we are suffering with is a direct result of too long of a turn around time for the Karmic Wheel of Life. In the Buddhist belief it was called "Kama" as the payback for your decisions in this life in your next incarnation. Your good karma and bad karma were considered by the principle of Kama; to be passed over to your next experience.

Many of us believe that this is how prodigies like children who pick up an unfamiliar musical instrument and play it flawlessly come from. They were perhaps an accomplished musician in a previous incarnation. This is also how the Dali Lama was found; by identifying the child who was familiar with the late Lama's possessions. The concept of this passing on of latent talents is not new and frequently considered by many to be possible. I'll go you one better – it is.

Rust and Worms, and the various components of breakdown of physical matter – are the components that make development possible. Pain and suffering are a means of education. This education although difficult is worthy; for an eternal soul bound to this reality by the information of the Blood.

We have a lot to learn rather quickly if we hope to maintain. I am an optimist in that I personally believe life will utilize an internal immune response; even if it means a rough period. It might seem strange to wish for difficulty for our species; unless you make the connection that it needs to take place. Like a child learning to walk for example – the best student gets some bumps and bruises learning to walk. We are learning to run – so expect a few crashes. History verifies my theory; as does the nightly news.

I am watching the news and those around me with fresh eyes these days. And I am learning something I wish to share with you. Some people are really doing some remarkably good selfless work. At the very same time; some people are getting more bitter and twisted. There seems to be an increase in what we could generalize as good and bad deeds. I believe I know why – and it relates to my above considerations and is perhaps physical proof of a metaphysical consideration. Emotion is ramping up; as we each choose how to use it.

Thanks to those kind souls who have had experiences prior to ours; the signal is changing. The informational energy grid we are a part of is undergoing a metamorphosis. The "Shared Field" (defined as the sum total of consciousness) has had enough. The problem is for those who are not tuned into the signal – this being about choices and all. Those who can feel, intuit, or understand the new energy will grow consciously, like stage two of the awareness we gained in the garden.

Those who remain greedy fearful entities however – are getting stranger. You don't have to be whiz kid to see this happening either – we can all see it.

The result will be that a minority of the general population, albeit still a larger number than ever before – will gain information directly from the shared field and share it. What was called enlightenment, or realizing the true nature of reality, or the lifting of a veil, or "remembering," or finding yourself, will become commonplace. Some will learn from them and also soon learn the true nature of reality and our experience. This leaves those who remain lost, confused, hostile and irrational; because the signal of light we all receive is changing, while they are not adjusting to the new signal.

Those who are locked into a left-brained, materialistic, "me first" attitude are going to have to learn this physically – the hard way. That is what all the "apocalypse" and "Armageddon" and "end-times" malarkey is that you are hearing. Again the proof, truth, and logic, is how this cyclic activity is played out in our own experience, that of us as a group, and ultimately as a totality of experience – exactly the same way!

The doom and gloom part is an ever present part of our individual experience. At best we get old and suffer, or worst die younger than need be; for about a million crappy reasons. Add how we incorrectly view our experience to the mix – and you get what you see. These "rust and worm" aspects compounded with being fearful entities bound in "blood" experience – applies across the board.

The ever present threat of our demise from disease, space, war, earth changes, aliens, and so on – would be another example of this threat upon us as an evolving body or group. Even as a group which recycles the entities it is comprised of – it too can be viewed as an over all cycle of experience which mirrors our own!

This gets easier and easier to see as soon as you unfetter yourself and apply logic. If you have had clairvoyant experiences before inadvertently and channelled a loved one, or had a hunch or instinct so strong you could sense it was more, a prophetic dream or vision is another, déjà-vu, a Shamanic experience, felt a presence during prayer, or achieved a solid link through heartfelt meditation, or had a near death experience to bolster the consideration – I am preaching to the choir as they say.

The only difference between any of us is whether we realize and accept these phenomena as real and not fictional - or not. We all occasionally inadvertently experience what I am saying, and all too often fail to recognize it. The only fundamental difference is being educated to notice and understand the goings on of life which the academics, theologians, and society at large deny and have placed on "the mystery pile" which is rightfully in fear of avalanche – this is what the kicking and screaming, and denial fuss is all about.

You already know what I am saying is true; perhaps you just haven't quantified and processed it quite the same – and related it to your experience. As soon as you do; hopefully thanks to a conscious prod from me – we will both have served a higher function of our physical duty.

When we begin to view life in this manner, the mystery pile goes away, fearful existence is eradicated, kindness becomes the only logical recourse; a reverence for the energy of life is automatic – and the earth and nature quit taking a beating. Again; if the potential results of such esoteric considerations of Universal Consciousness are any indication of validity – the arguments against it are mute.

Given the results of the current view we employ and deem correct; only an uninformed individual could conclude that we should carry on the way we are. The conscious element of nature enfolded in the Blood will educate the biology if need be through the elements of Rust and Worms – until it, us, you, and me – all "get it."

We are all in this together folks, and it isn't by chance. The Secret of Metaphysical Consciousness is that it is a single eternal component of existence, a fundamental primordial element if you will; and the reason the matter that we see as "all that is" exists! Don't be fooled. Life as we know it in 3rd dimensional reality – is merely a by-product of multi-dimensional consciousness.

We are the process of educating Angels unfolding.

Until next time:

Wellness, Truth, and Love for All...............

Attila, a.k.a. the Mad Hungarian   
