(box rustles)
- Our mugs came!
Wow oh my God they're huge!
Okay I did not expect
them to be this large.
They're almost as big as my hand.
I've been watching a lot
of like Korean cafe vlogs
and they always have
like a nice insulated cup
like this so I wanted
to get some of my own.
This is the website that
I purchased this at.
They've got a lot of beautiful
serve ware related things.
But let's put this in the kitchen now.
Wow!
Today is my dad's 60th
birthday and in Korean culture
it's actually a really big
deal when your parents turn 60.
You throw them a big party,
it's a big celebration,
you're supposed to get
like a really good gift,
it's all compounded to the age of 60.
I don't know, we were
supposed to be in Europe now,
but you know circumstances
have not allowed that,
but the celebration continues.
We're still gonna try
and make the most of it,
even through lockdown.
So right now I'm gonna be making him
a sweet potato fudge cake.
I've had this before because
my friend Emily made it for me
and it was just scrumptious
and it's healthy.
So let's get started.
(peaceful music)
Set timer for 10 minutes.
- [Computerized Voice] Okay.
- So first we'll need a 1/4
of a cup of maple syrup.
This is definitely the agent that
is sweetening things up.
And now we'll need 1/2
a cup of almond butter.
Oh, I think I'll have to
use like my whole thing
of almond butter.
No!
This is good enough.
Let's see if we can
slide with this amount.
All right.
And now we're gonna add a
teaspoon of vanilla extract.
The sweet potatoes are done.
I need like a cup of sweet potatoes.
I just feel like putting that much in,
maybe I'll put a little that.
I'm gonna continue to mix it.
(mellow jazzy music)
And I dump that in.
(mellow jazzy music)
The mixture is finished.
That looks beautiful.
I have my super janky parchment paper
that I wrapped into this bread pan.
This is my level of patience right now,
I just, I just don't care
to learn this right now.
I just want this in the oven already.
The mixture is really, really thick.
This is my first time
making it so we'll see
how it turns out.
So this is what it looks like,
we're gonna throw it in the
oven for for 28 to 32 minutes.
Well, wow.
This is what it looks like.
I'm just gonna have like
this edge right here.
Yeah, I mean I should check
to see if it's good right?
Ah, it's good.
Oh my God.
You would never believe that
there's no like dairy in here.
Okay I'm just gonna let this cool.
But it's really good!
(mellow jazzy music)
So I picked up the practice
of morning pages again,
I've been doing this for a
good week and a half now.
When I cleaned out my
office I found all these
notebooks and one of them
happened to be my morning pages
journal of 2018.
And by the way morning
pages is an activity
that you do in the morning,
you get a notebook and
you fill out three pages.
And you can write about anything.
This is just a mental dump of everything
that you're thinking and it's just like
a stream of consciousness.
And you just let it flow baby.
I was reading my entries
from 2018 and I was like wow.
I was, I was very harsh on myself.
I think whenever I look
back at any of my journals
the tone is a bit rough.
It really transported me
to how I felt at the time.
Towards the beginning of
2019 that's when I was
writing a little bit softer to myself.
There were more affirmations
which I thought was a big move
and I remember when I was writing
those affirmations in 2019
I was like oh this feels so
unnatural but let me just hype
myself up and when I reread them now,
I was like damn, like this
is really hitting home.
It's nice to be able to affirm yourself
and not expect other people to affirm you.
Like when you are telling
yourself that you're doing
a good job, when you like
yourself I think that is just the
biggest hack to life.
Your only job is to like yourself
and once you've completed
that job, I feel like it
makes life so much easier
and whenever someone else
tells you that you're doing
a great job or affirms you
it's just like a little bonus.
You're like oh thanks.
Like it made me really
happy to see that I was
speaking to myself in a
gentler form and it reminded me
that progress isn't
just completely linear,
it's definitely got its ups
and downs and it just made
me really happy and so I wanted
to add that, I wanted to add
morning pages into my routine again.
Apparently you're supposed
to do it like right when you
wake up but I like to do
it after I have worked out
and showered and then
I feel the most clear.
I feel like it's important
for me because when I write
things down I remember things more
and memory the foundation of identity.
If you don't remember
things, what are your values,
what do you believe in,
what's important to you?
There was one instance that
happened 2018 that I won't get
into but it's like it's
just like this rumination,
this thought that always
comes in the back of my head.
It's so annoying or I'm trying
to be more gentle on myself
but it's not the voice I
want to hear all the time.
Last month, towards the
end I was just having that
same thought and I was like
oh my gosh I thought we like
came to terms to this.
But when I was rereading my morning pages
that same thought that is
coming in my head I wrote down
and I wrote down how I
came to terms with it
and I was like oh my God
like how did I forget?
And so just rereading what I did
and how I kind of processed
that it made it like satiated.
It was just like oh yeah I remember.
Either way I feel like
writing my thoughts down
is just a great way to organize
and catalog my thoughts
and also look back at them in the future.
And it grounds me it reminds me of of the
things that I should recall,
it also transports me back,
like one of the things that
I want to write down more
are just like good memories,
things that I'm grateful for
and not to ruminate so
much on the negative
because in 2018 it was
just like pages and pages
of negativity when and it
makes me feel like 2018
wasn't that great of a
year, but it actually was.
Like that was the year that I got married.
You end up remembering
what you wrote down.
Also I wanted to shout
out to these notebooks,
these are by Penco I got
it from High Tide store
in downtown LA, it's like my
favorite like stationery store.
I know like every small
business is struggling right now
and so I wanted to be able to
support them so I bought like
three of these notebooks
because they're just really,
really nice to write on.
The paper is so buttery
and I like the fact
that it's a spiral ring so
you can write in the front
and the back with ease.
- [Woman] And Which comes for
his character in the story.
There's no such thing as first.
Sometimes people say, express yourself.
Expressing yourself can
be shouting in a field.
So rather than expressing yourself,
why don't you think in
terms of evoking, conjuring up.
I've been really enjoying
doing masterclasses
in the evenings because it
just spices up the night
for a minute.
Evenings are so unbearable, I
was like just put me to sleep,
I can't deal with this
but I'm finding ways
to make it more exciting.
I have like a little nightly routine
that I've been enjoying.
But I like to do two or
three lessons of masterclass
every once in a while
and right now I am doing
Margaret Atwood's creative writing.
And oh it is so good.
She is one of my favorite authors
and she's just giving me a
new like even like a deeper
appreciation for writing.
I feel like these days
I've just become even more
of an avid reader.
I have so much time to read now,
which is amazing, but I kind
of want to go deeper within
the realm and writing is a
key component in reading.
When I was little I loved to read,
I would just devour books
and I think it also stems
from the fact that we
would spend so much time
at the library when we were younger.
It was essentially a form
of free child daycare.
Like my mom would tell me
my brother to like walk home
from school and like go to
the library and stay there
until she could pick us up.
So I have like a deep
attachment to the library,
like a hatred, but also a
love but yeah I would just
read "Junie B. Jones".
I used to read this thing
called, this series called the
Bailey Schoolkids and I remember the cover
of "Ghouls Don't Scoop Ice Cream"
because I literally wanted
it to be this ghoul.
Like this image is giving
me so many flashbacks.
I think after I saw this cover
I immediately like got a big
hoodie and wore it to school.
And I think I even like tried
a little bit of eyeliner,
but yeah that was my
like primary school days.
And then in high school I
think I just started to really
hate reading and writing because suddenly
there were all these
expectations about your essay
being good and and having
like a strong voice
and with writing it is a
form of recording your voice
and if you don't have a
voice and you don't have
statements to back up your opinion then
it doesn't make sense, and I
think I always really struggled
with it for a minute
everything I turned in the main
problem was you don't have a thesis
and I'm like what like
my paper has no point,
like and it was just so
difficult to find a point.
I couldn't make an opinion about things.
It was very strange but
if you have a weak voice
then you're gonna be a weak writer.
But now that I'm older
and I'm more confident
and I'm not, I don't know
I feel like there's almost
like a fog that's been
lifted out of my head.
Because when I was younger I
felt like just this constant
pressure to be something great
and excel that it
completely debilitated me.
It wasn't until I was
like in Community College
that like I suddenly started
to retain all this information
because I just like stopped caring.
So it's funny that it's
all come full circle
and now I'm enjoying to read again.
I like can't get enough of
books, it's a way to teleport
to different worlds, it's a
way to dive into different
points of perspective.
But I do have an interest in
sharpening my writing skills.
I've always loved to write
when there's no pressure,
but it would be nice
to have more structure
in my writing, because journals
is just you know just random
thoughts and morning pages is
just a stream of consciousness
so it would be cool to have
like a purpose for my writing.
I'm already excited to do
one exercise that she told
us to do which is to write about an event
and write it in three perspectives.
So it could be your perspective,
it could be the person
that you went with and
then also like the doorman
and it's very interesting
because one event can be
a different experience
for everyone that went.
And I think that's so cool
but it's also kind of sad too.
You can see one thing but
there are different realities
of it depending on who you are.
This lesson is one of my favorites,
I think out of all the
masterclasses I've done
RuPaul is definitely my favorite
and then Margaret Atwood
is honestly a close second.
I'm about to experiment
with my hair these days,
I've been really enjoying that
like effortless mermaid wave
look and I do have this waver by Bedhead,
and I like it, but I just
wanted to see what else
was out there, like is there a way to make
the waves look even better?
So I was on Instagram and I
saw Cory Morello use a waver
that was similar to this,
but the one that she used
was like unavailable,
so then I got something
that was more accessible
and available so you really win here.
This is by the brand Allure.
This gadget is a little
intimidating if I'm gonna be honest.
It's just so large, like
look how big that is.
Alright let's clamp this.
Okay that's looking a little sad.
I'm not like stoked to
with the curl but let's see
what it looks like as I
continued to do entire hair.
(mellow jazzy music)
Okay final verdict here.
I'm done and it's very underwhelming.
I would recommend you just save your money
and not get this waver.
All that work just for my
hair to look like this.
I don't know dude.
We'll see if my opinion changes,
but I don't think it will.
I watched one of Alicia's vlogs
and she had this egg cooker
and I was like holy crap
I need this in my life.
I love eggs, I love hard-boiled eggs,
but it's always so hard to get
'em the perfect consistency.
And with this device you'll
get that egg every time.
It's insane so I'll show you how I use it.
So first you're gonna want
to fill this container up
with water depending on how
soft or firm you want your eggs.
And I like to put the
water in between here.
Now that I filled up the
water I'm gonna pour it
onto this pan.
I feel like a scientist every
time I use this machine.
So I'm gonna put this little casing back.
And now I'm gonna grab my eggs.
Okay, I'm gonna make three.
So now that we have our
eggs I'm gonna pierce it.
So underneath this cup there is a nail.
See?
So with this nail you're
gonna pierce the bottom
of the egg or I guess the part of the egg
that's a little bit more round,
because as you can see the
egg kind of tapers off down here.
I used to be quite afraid
of piercing the egg
because I thought that it
would just crack in my hands.
Out of the many times I've used this,
that's never been the case.
So now we've got all the eggs aligned.
We're going to put the casing over it.
And we're gonna press this
button and it'll start filling up
with steam and we'll have delicious eggs!
All right so it is done.
You're gonna hear that beep.
(egg cooker beeps)
You just press it.
And you let the eggs cool down
because they're steaming hot.
Oh my goodness look at that.
This is my breakfast, the Brekkie Bowl.
You all have seen me
eat this so many times.
Freakin' slaps though man every morning.
And it makes me so happy
when I see pictures
of your guys's Brekkie Bowl.
It's getting the recognition it deserves.
Mm.
So good.
(upbeat music)
Attempting to do a TikTok.
Wish me luck.
(funky music)
♪ Shining, shining like a diamond ♪
♪ I see, I see people watching ♪
♪ Perfect, hourglass timing ♪
♪ Good things come to those who wait ♪
All right.
The TikTok is now live.
It is for the world to see.
If they decide to see
it and that didn't take
that much time.
I slotted one and a half hours
to shoot this whole thing.
That's four outfits, and
you know filming it all.
Just I hate editing on my phone
it's just so claustrophobic,
but I realize it's just
taking me a lot longer
because TikTok is just
like a new interface
and I've noticed that
it's a lot less polished
than other social media platforms,
which I appreciate, but
for this particular TikTok
I wanted to do something
with a little bit more effort
that involved like fashion you know?
Now that we're in quarantine
it's, I've been wearing
like relatively the same couple things,
as you've seen so it was
nice to dress up for this.
Yeah I feel like I finally got my swing
on this platform though.
I think when I first started
I was like oh my God,
like how do I learn this?
I feel like that happens with
anything that I start new,
it's just, it's just a lot
for your brain to compress.
You're like what the fuck
is this new platform,
what is the culture on
here, like what's happening,
and with TikTok off I
feel like at a glance,
when you first look at it,
it's just super over stimulating,
it feels like your brain's on crack,
but as you continue to
go on it more and more
your brain acclimates to it
and I do find it more addicting
than I thought because of
its short format content.
Like, just when you're
like I guess I'm done,
you'll just watch one more video,
and then it automatically
plays another one
and so it just keeps you in this loop.
So in that sense I don't know,
I like to moderate my
time on this platform,
like I'll go on it for
maybe like 20 minutes
and then I'll try and get off of it,
because I've noticed that
if I don't keep track
and I just like get into and
sucked into the TikTok loop
I'm like wait, how is it like six o'clock,
and to be honest that's
like not the way I want
to spend my time.
But I do enjoy watching it to
get some fashion inspiration
because I feel like with
fashion you just need
to glimpse at an outfit
and you're like I like that
or I don't like that and I
feel like TikTok is a way
to really get my fashion fix,
but in a fun enjoyable
way because there's music,
there's transitions, it's
definitely an art form.
And also it was a great excuse to bust
out my giant Gudetama plushie.
Sanrio actually gifted
this to me last year
and I thought it was so nice of them
because I always wear my
good Gudetama clips so,
so they reached out to me,
which honestly is surreal
because growing up I
would always go to Sanrio
and it would be my dream to
get one of the huge plushies
but obviously like we
couldn't afford them.
And now I have one.
I feel like I should display
it because it does embody me
at some capacity.
Gudetama is a good reminder
for me to sometimes relax
and just be a blob.
Also I would love to know who
you guys follow on TikTok.
Please comment down below.
Like not the dancing TikToks,
but just for other content
like it would be, that sounds
so like rude of me to say,
not the dancing one but you
know like fashion content,
I follow Brittany Xavier,
The Nava Rose, I like her.
She's like the TikTok fashion queen dude.
She knows how to sew,
she's freaking great with the transitions
so good, so I follow her
but yeah I just like some
more recommendations for
fashion inspiration on TikTok
and also like humor is great.
Cooking.
