[film reeling]
[serene music]
- [Andreane Lanthier Nadeau]
Control and letting go,
that's a funny two words.
[serene music]
[leaves crunching]
It's a super fine line
to be on [chuckles].
[serene music]
- Sometimes, I try and
just take my fingers
off the brakes completely,
and just like kinda death
grip through things.
[serene music]
You know, like, you're
not just a super human,
you are uncomfortable, but you
do want to take the risk of,
you know, maybe braking
a couple seconds later.
[serene music]
And it's almost like a
heightened sense of control.
Going slightly out of control, you know?
If that makes any sense.
[serene music]
- I love that feeling of weightlessness
and just like being, like
high above things, I guess.
I'd say the best part is
that time where you're like,
you're just about to go down.
You reach that peak height,
and then you're falling.
[serene music]
It's like um one of the
best feelings in the world.
[serene music]
[chains rattling]
[gravel crunching]
[whistle blows]
[gravel crunching]
- What makes a fall a fall?
Ah, um, it's a hard
question, falling asleep.
[women talking, overlapping]
falling asleep, falling asleep,
definitely one of like,
my favorite times of day.
Falling asleep, some people
say it's my super power.
My eyes are half open, and like,
my mouth is just like completely
unclicked, like my jaw,
and I'm just like, look like I'm dead.
Falling into rhythm, falling
into rhythym, gym, ride, sleep.
Falling into place, free-falling,
skydiving, falling apart.
[brushing wheel]
- Falling behind, I'm
just instantly think of
where you feel like
you're making mistakes,
and so then you try and push harder
but then you just make more mistakes.
Then you just keep falling
more and more behind
when you're trying harder, harder, harder.
[feet stomping]
- [Woman] Whew.
[heavy breathing]
[whistle blows]
[thud]
[painful gasp]
- [Woman] Ah.
- [Man] Are you okay?
[heavy breathing]
- [Woman] Fuck.
- I think I think a lot
and [laughs] sometimes
I think about my mind and I
think about how strong it is
and how strong it can be at helping me
but also how strong it
can be at hindering me.
And sometimes it's hard,
I find it hard to have the awareness
that I'm like in this zone
where my mind is really not
helping me.
But it's like strongly will
that doing that right now
and like finding
strategies to bring it back
onto the good side.
- What's tomorrow?
- Bike ride day.
- West lake?
- Yeah.
- If you look at a video after your,
you won't see anything on the video.
It'll be like you're up on
your bike and then you're down.
[sound of crashing to ground]
But it feels like things are
happening in slow motion.
[indistinct talk]
- Some people say it slows down
or they can see it all coming or whatever.
But for me its just like
you feel absolutely nothing
and then you fell everything
like sort of all at once.
[sounds of jumping]
You have to be calculated
to try and find the limit
of that control.
[ball moving on ground]
I just love kinda being
nervous about trying new things
and like a bit unsure.
[crashing sounds]
- [Men] Oh!
[indistinct talk]
[cheering]
- I think it's just like,
it's a really cool display
of athleticism as funny as that sounds.
Being like athletically crashing.
Once you commit to like you
know you're gonna be probably
sliding around quite a bit.
Yeah, just embrace it, have fun with it.
[pumping tire]
[water and bird sounds]
- [Man] You know what they say,
a fish is a fish is a fish.
[birds singing]
- When I was eight years
old, I lost my dad,
and my mom decided to put me into sports.
[phone ringing]
[speaking in foreign language]
- I think it really really
helped me get through
ah losing my dad and has
really rooted that connection
with me like super deep.
It's kinda how I got into it
and how I will never get
out of it also [laughs].
[speaking foreign language]
Bye Mum [foreign language].
[dramatic music]
- I think we live in a
bit of a bubble of sort of
extreme athletes.
You know, you'll see like a
five year old kid running around
with his arm in like a cast
and a brace and no one seems
too fazed by it.
[traffic noise]
Ah, all the body parts that I've injured;
my tibia plateau in my right
leg, the head of the tib fib
at the ankle joint.
I had to have surgery on that
cause it slid into my ankle.
My left radius, left collar
bone, my ribs, left ulna,
and I actually rode too soon
on that one and it pulled
the plate off the bone.
I shattered my right radius
and ulna, my scaphoid
and another small useless wrist bone.
I got kidney failure from like dehydration
and muscle exhaustion and...
I've been knocked out a couple of times.
The worst fall that I've had
was probably when I broke
both my arms.
You've got to like get your
sister, like shave your armpits.
Like your mom's brushing your teeth.
That's easy [chuckles].
And this is my most recent crash.
My front wheel just pushed
and so that it shot me kinda
the wrong way, like into that tree.
And I'm super k-oed for a few seconds.
[sound of wind rushing past bike]
[crashing]
- [Man] Rider down, rider down.
- I thought my go pro broke
cause of like, that noise.
[whirring]
[moaning]
- [Woman] Try to breathe, try
to breathe, take your time.
[people talking]
- I have maybe experienced
more like physical trauma
than some riders.
But I don't like when it
becomes like defining.
Because I am more than that, yeah.
[bird song]
[sound of bike through woods]
- That's the video I did
with my friend Antoine.
And I was just like there is
no way I can hit that jump.
And he was like, we're
not even gonna film here
if you don't hit the big jump.
I was so upset, I was like
oh he thinks I can do it.
Like am I thinking I'm
less of a like less of what
I'm capable of?
Maybe I can and I don't
know it just like created
this perfect atmosphere
where I was like feeling
like I could push myself.
Your perception and your self
doubt in life is just like
kinda this weird funny thing
and is kinda this super quiet
and this, this wave of belief
came in and I just did it.
[fast electronic music]
- Oh my god is that Kelsey's Sara?
- How did we find you here?
- [chatter]
- Where did you crash?
- Like right at the top.
- Yeah.
- [Man] [indistinct] ... miss the corner.
- Oh I crashed there too.
- Yeah.
- It is what it is.
- Okay I'm coming.
[laughs]
- Yeah girls. [laughs]
- That was so funny.
[ drum music]
- Skid, [laughs], he
went a little low too.
[ drum music]
- You can think about when
things fall into place,
it's also sometimes
maybe a bit unexpected,
like you can't really
pinpoint like exactly
the conditions or what's happening.
- [women's voices overlapping]
Falling into balance,
falling into balance...
- When you have everything
dialed and you just floss every
morning and everything evening.
_[ women's voices
overlapping] Falling in love..
- Falling in love...slowly.
He went through a phase where
he had two diamond earrings
and stuff and I was
like, hmm this guy huh?
I don't know if he's
just like the one person
that I do really wanna
share everything with.
- One of my friend and I
we always joke round that
we fall in love with a loaf
of bread at the grocery store,
because we fall in love
too easy, [laughs], yeah.
[ suspenseful music]
- Like literally all I wanna
do is like ride my bike.
And so the reward just
outweighs that risk so much.
I could, I could not fall ever again.
But I might not go fast
ever again you know, like.
It's like my mum always like
kinda gives me a hard time
for being super slow.
I kinda talk slow, I kinda like move slow.
I'm really slow at walking.
Maybe it's just like,
balance me out, [laughs].
Don't want to do everything too slowly.
[electronic music]
[bottle drops]
[egg drops]
[glass breaks]
[ice cream drops]
