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Chase: Hello everybody, it is me chasey poo. I moved into a new room and like the background
I don't really know what to do with it
Today is not one of those like I'm gonna set up everything like and do a video. I had my light out already
So I just kind of wanted to sit here and kind of talk to you about something that's been happening
um
something happened to me a couple days ago and I kind of want to share it with you because this
Sucks and the only way I can process things is to talk about it on YouTube in front of all of you people
Up before I even start talking about this like trigger warning content warning
I'm gonna be talking about that monthly thing that people don't usually like when they're trans and
All of that stuff and I'm gonna use like words that you might not be comfortable with so just brace yourself
So I'm trans if you didn't know and I've been on T for eight and a half years. It's a long time and this week
Like my period I want to die even saying that out loud
but I want everyone to be clear and understand what I'm talking about when I'm like saying I'm bleeding like I'm
Im bleeding. So let me give you a little history lesson on my body because this isn't the first time it happened
There's having about two years ago. I bled like a couple of times and then last year
I bled like like three times in one month and that was traumatic. So I was put on a Madroxy which is a
Progesterone so that you just take it and it just stops you the first time you take it though warning like it kind of expels
Everything that you already have so you will
Probably believe in the beginning, but then you don't bleed and I didn't bleed and that was great and then I bled
*laughing*
It's like this isn't good so they put me on hormone blockers and it was an injection
I was taking every three months and
I have a bunch of videos where I talk about this and I'll put those links in the description below
But that was that was traumatic because I don't I don't give myself injections
You see I do androgel every day on my shoulder because I don't want to deal with that
Needle stuff so I had to go to the clinic and they had to do the shot and it was painful and you know
Whatever. I just I just don't like needles and
And then I didn't bleed and that was really great
but I was getting really tired of
Being on this a hormone blocker honestly because I was having issues with my hormone levels where they were too low
Which means I had literally no hormones in my body
So I was getting like a crazy hot flashes and that was really fun
Especially because I was on a cruise like in the Caribbean that was fun. So I
I had to get off of hormone blockers because I one didn't want to deal with the needles anymore two graduated for my university
So I don't have access to the nurses that I like and three. My hormone levels were all over the place anyways
And I thought that the hormone blockers were kind of messing that up. So I needed to get off of it
so I've been off of hormone blockers and off of progesterone now for I
Don't know total of six months and because I was not on progesterone when I was on hormones
Oh
I am bleeding and
I feel like shit and like I don't know how to explain to you how it feels to be eight and a half years on
Hormones on testosterone and have this happen because you don't expect it to happen
I barely remember what it's like to have this I suffered a lot through high school with it
I was painful I would stay home
I'd have to take like a million pills because like I was in pain
It was like really heavy and it was like a lot all the time and it was just really hard to manage and to handle
Especially because I was not comfortable at all with anything that was like that so when I started T
It was beautiful because I was no longer
bleeding and then I had issues with bleeding here and there during my transition and I am just
I'm over it. And yeah, the number one solution that people are gonna say in the comments
Why don't you just get a hysterectomy or?
I heard that you have to get a hysterectomy within five years being on testosterone else
You're gonna get cancer listen to its listen. These are myths. Alright, you don't need to have a hysterectomy
I will only get a hysterectomy. If literally I absolutely need it because of medical reasons
Technically, this is a medical reason and I could get a hysterectomy like that if I wanted to but I don't want one
I don't want to have to go through another surgery
Like it was so traumatic to get Top surgery and I just don't want to deal with that again
And also I don't want to be sterilized forever
Like that's me personally and I understand how some people might not think that way and you know what that's completely fine
That's that's them that's their experience. We're all different, right?
Not that I'm gonna use any of those parts for anything, but I don't want a discount that as an option, you know
So anyways, I'm not having a pretty shitty week. I don't know what brought this on
Maybe my mine levels are to see this is funny because it's either my testosterone levels are too low
So the estrogen has kicked in and is like hey, I'm back or my testosterone is too high. It has converted into estrogen
it's like
Oh, I'm here because testosterone a too high level converts into estrogen and your and and I feel like maybe that's the thing
That's happening. Look. I have no idea and yeah, you're gonna say go to your endocrinologist chase
Why don't you just go my appointments in April? And it's really hard to get one before then. So I'm gonna call
tomorrow and try to make an appointment with my endocrinologist though and just kind of find out what to do because
Sometimes it's like spotting right when it's happened
It's like oh maybe one day or like one time bleeding or like two days but like really like nothing like you don't really need
To pay attention to it. It's fine
I'm
dealing with day four right now of
Not fun stuff. Let me just put it that way
I'm not gonna go into details because I barely want to talk about this but I need to process it and I feel like
It's a great place to talk about this on YouTube because you'll listen to me maybe anyways has this ever happen to you?
I understand that some people will be mad at me because I don't want a hysterectomy and
I'm complaining about this so it's like why am I complaining if I don't want to his so just get a hysto look listen?
Okay, this is my body and that's I don't want that for me. Okay, but yeah, I'm just like it
Okay, so what's gonna happen? I'm gonna tell you the steps that's gonna happen. Okay
I'm getting you to get an ultrasound but not one of those like, oh we take over the belly ultrasound
No, this is a LOL transvaginal. I think that's what's called
transvaginal ultrasound where they put something in you so they could get like
actual images because I might have fibroids I might have issues with my
Who knows? I don't know what it is. I can't diagnose myself. I don't know what my insides look like
However, if they do take those scans, you know, I want those
I want to see what my insides look like hopefully it's nothing serious
And if it is I will have to have a hysterectomy, unfortunately
But I will keep you all in the loop and let you know what's going on
because
This really sucks
And I want to thank you so much for allowing me this platform so that I can talk about this and complain and just ramble
And not really have like any good lighting or rambling or stuff in the back to entertain you
But yeah, so thanks for that and I feel a little bit better
I feel like I can cope with this a little more
So that's good because oh my god
Like literally after not bleeing for this many years and then it happens
I sat on the toilet and I cried because I
Literally was like this can't be happening. Not right now. Not please. I'm so stressed out and you know, maybe it is stress and anxiety
That's bring it out. I have a lot of stressful things happening in my life right now. So
Like I just moved and all this other stuff. So I feel like maybe the stress brought it on
So maybe I just need to relax meditate a little bit. Maybe shove some bath bombs up my ass and I'll feel better
Alright, well, thank you so much for joining me. I have a great week. Bye
