
English: 
*intro music*
*sigh*
oh hey I didn't see you there...
Today is my 3 years on post op
oh my god I was gonna say 'on T' nope
My 6 years on T is coming up though in two weeks, so that's exciting
Yeah? You're probably asking yourself 'Chase, why the hell are you drinking water from one
of these big ol' things?' well, hi Aaron, I know you're watching this and you know
I make fun of you like, for the last month for drinking water out of this, its
actually a really great idea because you get a lot in a gulp, and you don't have to suck in
*snapping fingers* this summer is all about hydration, right? Oh my god
I don't know I feel like I'm preaching right now, Anyways
So three years post op, not much has happened since last year. I'm not gonna
do some big ol' comparisons, um but maybe just
talk a little bit about personal experience with how I felt in the last year
and how my overall, like mental health is maybe improving cos of top surgery
and maybe talk to you a *going into Texan(??) accent* little bit about what I did today

English: 
[intro music]
Oh, hey, I didn't see you there.
Today is my 3 years on... post-op, oh my god, gonna say "on T", nope.
My 6 years on T is coming up though, in 2 weeks, so that's exciting! Yeah?
You're probably asking yourself - Chase, why the hell are you drinking water from one of these big ol' things.
Well, hi Aaron, I know you're watching this and I know I make fun of you like for the last month for drinking water out of this,
it's actually a really great idea because you get a lot in a gulp and you don't need to suck in.
*rhythmically snapping fingers* This summer is all about hydration! Right?
Oh my god, I don't know, I feel like I'm preaching right now.
Anyways! So, three years post-op, not much has happened since last year,
I'm not gonna do some big ol' comparisons, um, but maybe just talk a little bit about personal experiences of how I felt in the last year and how,
my overall like, mental health has maybe improved because of top surgery
and maybe talk to you a little bit about what I did today.

English: 
I had surgery May 30th um, 2013 in Florida with Dr Garramone
I had double incision, and like there it is right there
So, *admiring noises* Um, I never really talked about this online
But since like I went to Florida twice with um, Parker
and then with Aaron to take care of them after surgery, I feel like maybe
I'm more comfortable talking about something, so I think that maybe my post op depression kinda stemmed from
my scars, and I kinda talked about this once before, but I feel like they should be straighter
like that. And, like to me that's perfect, and I don't know why, but it bugs me that
they're kind of roundish. because Garramone doesn't do round scars, and I feel like my scars are
kind of different than his, but I still love my chest no matter what, like I still- like I feel
really great, and whatever up- he told me that these are under the pec muscles
so if I ever developed pecs- obviously I haven't because this shit is concave

English: 
So, I had surgery May 30th, um, 2013 in Florida with dr. Garramone.
I had double incision and like, there it is right there, so mm-mm-mm.
Um, I never really talked about this online, but since, like, I went to Florida twice with, um, Parker and then I went with Aaron,
to take care of them after surgery, i feel like maybe I'm more comfortable talking about some things,
so I think that maybe my post-op depression kind of stemmed from my scars.
And I kind of talked to you about this once before, but I feel like they should be straighter. Like that.
And, like, to me that's perfect.
And I don't know why but it bugs me that they're kind of roundish.
Because Garramone doesn't do round scars and I feel like my scars are kind of different than his but I still love my chest no matter what.
Like I still, like, I feel, it feels really great, and whatever,
he told me that these are under the peck muscles, so if I ever develop pecks, obviously I haven't cause this shit is concave
*breathes in* um..
Then it'll probably disappear but honestly I don't care,

English: 
um, then I'll probably be- disappear, but honestly I don't care, Aaron keeps telling me that
he decided to go to Garramone cos he loved my chest so much and he wanted those
results, so that kind of made me feel better, so I'm trying to get over that
But no matter what, I love Garramone, its not his- he told me
he did this, because one- if ever I do get pecs, blah blah but anyway
like cos I didn't specifically ask for the straight scar- anyways whatever
*british accent* that's not for here
lets move on. I'm completely happy with my chest, I wouldn't have changed anything. Maybe
would have told him specifically like 'please do straight scars'
but I told him. And then he said- ugh well whatever
I literally don't remember it was three years ago, it doesn't seem like that long but trust
a part of me is like 'how has it already been three years'
but then a part of me feels like I've had this chest forever
I feel like I've just been comfortable like this, and then like, I know that I haven't
and, like had this chest forever, like its- obviously, I had surgery, and I
suffered for 7 years man. Knowing that I'm trans but couldn't get surgery
It was tough. It's tough, and its not good *heh*
Also I do apologise for my sweatiness and my talking fast, I had to close the fan

English: 
Aaron keeps telling me that he decided to go to Garramone because he loved my chest so much
and he wanted those results, so that kind of made me feel better
so I'm trying to get over that, but no matter what, I love Garramone, it's not his- ..
He told me, he did this because, one, if I ever I do get pecks blah blah
but anyway, like, cause I didn't specifically ask for the straight scars, anyways, whatever.
That's not for here, let's move on. I'm completely happy with my chest, I wouldn't have changed anything.
Maybe would have told him more specifically, like please do straight scars... but I told him.
And then he said, well, eh, whatever. I don't, I literally don't remember,
it's 3 years ago, doesn't seem like that long, but trust, like apart of me is like - how has it already been three years,
but then a part of me is like - I feel like I've had this chest forever.
I feel like I've just been comfortable like this.
And then, like, I know that I haven't and, like had this chest forever, like, it's, obviously I had surgery and I suffered for 7 years, man,
knowing that I'm trans but couldn't get surgery. It was tough. It's tough!
And it's not good. Heh.
Also I do apologize for my sweatiness and my talking fast, I had to close the fan

English: 
and close the...the window and I'm like literally. I'm sweatzilla over here
and I'm just like drinking my water, gotta stay hydrated during these videos costhe lights are really bright
Anyways, I mean that's really it, like I- you've seen my chest, I'm always nude, I always take
pictures in the nude. I always wanted this to be my thing, I always wanted to be able to never
wear a shirt, and like my dream has come true. So like, to me that's perfection
I am comfortable without my shirt, I went this year, this- year as in like,
May 30th 2015, to May 30th 2016, I finally went running without my shirt and I did that in Vancouver and
it was a lot of anxiety for me, cos it was like 'aaaa' cos I feel like I've got the flab goin',
tummy, but I did it with my friend Kai, which I made videos for, for um FTMrunners
It was just like a fulfilling experience, like mark that one off of my
checkmark, whatever. Next I'll wear a speedo and like go diving, or something like that, I don't

English: 
and close the, the window and I'm like literally, I'm sweatzilla over here
and I'm just like drinking my water, I gotta stay hydrated during these videos cause the lights are really bright.
Anyways, I mean that's really it. I, like, I... You've seen my chest.
I'm always nude. I always take pictures in the nude. I always wanted this to be a thing,
I always wanted to be able to never wear a shirt and like, my dream has come true.
So, like, to me that's the perfection. I'm comfortable without my shirt, I went..
This year, this like - year as in like May 30th 2015 to May 30th 2016 - I finally went running without my shirt
and I did that in Vancouver, it was a lot of anxiety for me, cause I was like ahhh,
cause I feel like I've got the flap going on the tummy but I did it with my friend Kai,
which I've made videos [with] for FTM runners, and it was just like a fulfilling experience, like,
mark that one off of my, checkmark, whatever.
Next, I'll wear a speedo and like *smacks own butt* go diving or something like that, I don't know.

English: 
know . Um, but I feel like- like the milestones from my chest are not over.
Which is great, because I feel like the milestones for testosterone are kind of like, I mean I'm coming up on like 6 years on T
like, who c- like whatever, 6 years is, what is this you know? When I get ten years
that's a milestone, and then after it's like who's counting? The top surgery
you know, I feel like,I still got a couple things to do, you know, like I still, I don't know, four?
I feel all messed up right now, I'm really hot but another part of me feels like I don't have
like, I'm kind of, you know, living my life. Livin' myyy life. I don't know
I feel like I'm not really making any sense so I'll just let you know what I did today.
Today was a very *?? accent* beauty-ful day outside
so I had to go to Aaron's house to film the podcast that we do which is the You're So Brave
podcast, you all like, all the stuff down there. So you can take a looksee at that, we're on episode 8
right now, we just talked about family dynamics and stuff like that because I *sniff*

English: 
Umm, but I feel like the milestones for my chest are not over. Which is great.
Because I feel like the milestones for testosterone are kind of like, I'm mean I'm coming up on 6 years on T
like who c- like whatever like 6 years is, what is this, you know?
When I get 10 years, that's a milestone. And then after it's like ahh who's counting.
But top surgery, you know, I feel like I still got a couple things to do you know, like I still, I don't know, or...
I feel all messed up right now, i'm really hot.
But another part of me feels like I don't have, like...
I'm kind of, you know, just living my life. Living my life... I don't know.
I feel like I'm not really making any sense so I'll just let you know what I did today.
Today was a very beautiful day outside,
so I had to go to Aaron's house to film the podcast that we do which is the You're So Brave Podcast,
I'll link all the stuff down there so you can take a looksie at that, we're on episode 8 right now.
We just talked about family dynamics and stuff like that because I, um, went to a funeral
and all of my extended family that I haven't seen in like 8 years were there,

English: 
Um went to a funeral and all of my extended family that I hadn't seen in like 8 years were there
So it was like a fun experience. So we talked about that, and I also actually made like a storytime video
about that which I will link there. Down there *clicky tongue*
You know where, mm
So I decided to bike, and I'm giving you a little story, um because it was great, I biked there, it took an hour, it was
like really fun, and finally I can do like exercise, like I can run, but its getting really hot outside
and I'm really not good with heat. But to bike, it was great, and we did the podcast, we hung out, and I came back
and literally when I'm like two minutes away from my house, going up the hill, *wtf is this noise, like catatatata*
and I'm like, what is haappenin' and there's like 25 people around me, watching me and I'm like so embarrassed, I'm wearing
these tight ass shorts, and this tight shirt, and like, what just happened and I just see my derailer and my gear
shifter and the the little thing at the end of the bike in the back wheel hat had- you know like the wheel has
 
like the- like you know how the wheel is here, and then you have the thing, and the little other thing
where you can press down on it if you need to put the chain back, no idea what its called

English: 
so it was like the fun experience, so we talked about that and I also actually made like a story time video
about that which I will link... there. Down there. *clicks with tongue* You know where. Mm.
So i decided to bike. And I'm giving you a little story, uhm, because *breathes in* it was great,
I biked there, it took an hour, it was like really fun and finally I can do like exercise
like I can run but it's getting really hot outside and I'm like really not good with heat,
but the bike, it was great and then we did the podcast, we hung out and then I came back
and literally where I'm like two minutes away from my house, going up the hill,
CarracacacaCA!
And I'm like, what the fuck just happened
and it was like 25 people around me watching me and I'm like so embarrased,
I'm wearing like these tightass shorts and this tight shirt and I'm just like what just happened?
And I just see my derailer and the gear shifter and the little that at the end of the bike,
in the back wheel that had, you know like the wheel is here and you have the thing
and the little other thing, where like you can press down on it if you need to put the chain back,
NO idea what it's called.

English: 
I looked it up online, there's like three different words for it, so google it if you need to, anyways
That whole thing like came off my bike like it was stuck in my wheel. How fun is that. Literally, the first ride of the seasn
and that's what happens to me. Also I had to change a flat tyre, before I left the house, so it took me an extra, like 30 minutes
But that's the usual, you know you wouldn't have to change a flat tyre, like its- not a season till you've changed a flat tyre.
*angry breathing* Why. Do I keep. Having. Issues. So now I have to bring it to a shop, which is good cos I was gonna
gonna get the thing changed anyways, cos it was not 100% it was like mayb 70% like it didn't really have like
whatever, 21 speeds, it probably had like 7 *heh*
*this noise cannot be spelled* so its good that I'm getting a good one, I just like, I wish that this was next month when I have money
you know what I'm saying? Kind of poor right now. Anyways, random story about today, but that's what happened
and now I'm home, and it took me 12 years to set this up, but let's stop complaining and lets just have fun
Today is 3 years on post op-

English: 
I looked it up online, there was like three different words for it, so google it if you need to.
Anyways, that whole thing like came off of my bike and was stuck in my wheel.
How fun is that. Literally the first ride of the season and that's what happens to me.
Also I had to change a flat tire before I left the house so it took me extra like 30 minutes,
but that's the usual, you know, you wouldn't have to change a flat tire,
like it's not a season until you've changed a flat tire. *breathes*
WHY do I keep having issues.
So you know I actually had to bring it to a shop which is good because I was gonna have the thing changed anyways
cause it was like, not one hundred percent, it was like maybe 70%,
like I didn't really have like whatever 21 speeds that I was supposed to, I probably had like 7, umm, hmm!
So, it's good that I'm getting a good one, I just like, I wish that this was next month when I have money.
You know what I'm saying? Kinda poor right now.
Anyways, random story about today, but that's what happened!
And now I'm home and it took me 12 years to set this up but let's stop complaining and let's just have fun.
Today is 3 years on post-op...

English: 
Its hot, okay? Its hot. And now Beauty is interrupting my video. Beauty
She loves to be filmed. She is the star. Did you know, fun fact, Minou's birthday was two weeks ago, and Beauty's birthday
is in two weeks. We're gonna have a joint celebration of their birthday. Look how happy she looks. mmmmmmm!
She is alert. *grunt*
Think she's triggered by the lights? She's like
*snicker* literally staring, okay Beauty you're freaking me out. Fuck I got puss hair all over
me. Anyways, that's it. That's my chest. Ths video sucked, and this is a random like three years post op, but
You know, whatever. I have some really awesome videos coming up in the next two weeks that you should definately
check out. Please don't forget to check out my sexual health series, sex ed series, even if you're asexual, even if you've never had sex, its just good

English: 
... It's hot, okay. It's hot.
And now, Beauty is interrupting my video. Beh-yu-teh! She loves to be filmed, she is the star.
*smooch* Did you know, fun fact, Minou's birthday was 2 weeks ago and Beauty's birthday is in 2 weeks.
We're gonna have a joint celebration of their birthdays!
Look how happy she looks. Mmmmmm!
She's alert.
I think she's triggered by the lights. She's like  O-O
Literally staring, okay Beauty you're freaking me out.
Fuck that, that puss hair all over me.
Anyways, that's it, that's my chest, this video stopped  and this is a random like three years post-op but, you know, whatever.
I have some really awesome videos coming out in the next two weeks
that you should  definitely check out, please don't forget to check out my sexual health series, sex ed series,
even if you're asexual, even if you've never had sex, it's just good information I have,

English: 
information to have, I made video- I have cat hair in my eye I'm sorry, I made um, videos about STIs and like
the health of your who-ha down there, so check those out, I think they're great, because I spent a lot of time doing research on them, so
like, you know, I'm tootin' my own horn, toot toot. Anyways, have a great week, thank you for watching and I will see you later
Bye
CC by dat boi

English: 
I've made videos - I have cat hair in my eye, i'm sorry - I mean, videos about like STIs
and like the health of your hoohaa down there, so check those out, I think they're great,
because I spent a lot of time doing research on them, so like, you know, I'm tooting my own horn.
Toot toot.
Anyways, have a great week, thank you for watching and I will see you later. Bye!
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