

Amber M. Kestner

She's My Kind Of Country

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She's My Kind Of Country

Copyright ©2020 Amber M. Kestner

About The Book

A time and place for a new spark of romance. Amber felt lonely when she lost her wife Sarah to cancer. That all changed when she met this redheaded woman Natalie that brought everything pure light into their new found life. Amber suffers a lot of problems that leads to Natalie being unsure and where she would stand in Amber's life. Until they are both met with one big problem, Sarah is alive and is on the verge to ruin everything both Amber and Natalie have worked for to stay together.

Love, Lie, and Trust are built into this book as we discover what lies ahead for our ladies on this wild adventure into the Country.

Chapter 1

As I was taking care of my horses, I heard someone screaming from a distance in frustration, and I laughed as I heard the scream again. I patted my horse Nelle, then headed down the road to see the commotion from down my long driveway. Within view of nearing where the screaming is, she caught sight of a red head full of spitfire looking directly at her with fire in her green eyes that made me chuckle.

"Darlin' what is the matter?" As I spoke to her gently.

"My fucking car broke down and I am in a hurry to meet someone." She replied with anger.

"Come on up to my place for some sweet tea and we will see about gettin' you in town to meet this someone." Responding to this sweet sassy city girl.

"Sure, maybe a hot shower and clean clothes will help too. By the way, I am Natalie." Natalie replied smiling, offering a hand shake.

Taking in her soft hand, shaking it felt like sparks had gone off in my brain. As I released my hand from hers it felt like electricity had shut off. All I had to do was help Natalie and not begin something that will never be. At least that is what I hoped for when it came to handling this situation. Making their way up the driveway they stayed silent. I couldn't figure out what to say to her, she is so beautiful and

breathtaking. I wanted to kiss her just to see if she is into women but that is pushing the agenda at hand.

"You never told me your name?" Natalie said in a calm voice.

"Amber." I replied feeling so nervous.

"Nice to meet you." Natalie responded by rushing her words.

"Nice t-to meet you t-too, Na-Natalie." Feeling myself closing over words a bit.

Finally arriving at the top to my house where Natalie caught sight of the horses roaming the yard, her eyes never left them, and she looked back at me with an apologetic look. We headed into the house so Natalie could get cleaned up, I showed her where the bathroom was and got her clean clothes, towels and anything else she needed. I had made myself go back to the kitchen and wait for her to come out though it seemed to have taken a bit when she did finally come out with her clothes on, I swore my heart leapt more as Natalie stood in my red flannel shirt, tight blue jeans, and barefoot on the hardwood floor. I had to swallow my thoughts back especially with the thought of undressing her.

"I hope you didn't mind that I put my dirty clothes in the wash with hopes they'd be done before I have to go meet this person." Natalie said nervously.

"Not at all, let's have some tea and enjoy it on this hot day." I replied, smiling at her.

"Don't you need to clean yourself up before enjoying some tea?" Natalie asked.

"Sweetheart, I am always dirty working on the farm, the only time I am clean is when it is dark and their is no chores left. I am a busy woman especially with horses and this big home to myself." I said as I grabbed the tea from the fridge.

Pouring two glasses of sweet tea then bringing them to the table. Natalie didn't say anything else as she abruptly left the table with her tea and making her way outside with some type of device in her hands then placing it to her ear. I watched her movements across the porch not listening to her conversation but watching her body move. It is a wonder this tea didn't spill as I watched her very closely and looked her up and down with amazement.

Watching as Natalie turned around to look at her, she shook her head then went back to her device while sipping the tea. I decided to keep an eye on the clock, seeing how long she'd be outside since whomever she is speaking to through that device it looked weird seeing such a weird device that I love my house phone as a good use. Natalie finally came back inside after twenty minutes with a sad face that could make me cry.

"Looks like I am stuck here since no one even believes this place exists, I am surprised their is cell phone service out here for being so far out in the woods, and mountains." Natalie said in her sassy voice.

"What in tarnation is a cell phone and service? I have a house phone right there in front of you. Those aren't mountain's dear, those are hills, you want mountains got to go further than this." I said in my most country voice that she got her attention quickly.

"Excuse me, while I do thank you for letting me take a shower and everything. I am going to go catch a bus or taxi to find myself a hotel. I don't like being bitten by mosquitoes and I am sure as hell not staying with filthy animals." Natalie replied, grabbing her fancy purse, putting on socks and her heels that sure didn't go with her outfit.

I couldn't help but chuckle at her trying to work around jeans and heels while her breasts exposed in the front giving that perfect curve. Natalie glared at me.

"Do you have a better solution?" Natalie said, raising her eyebrows.

"It's called boots, princess and to think I have another pair in my bedroom." I replied, heading toward my room to grab them.

"No, no, Amber, please don't. I am not cut out to be a country like you." Natalie responded by stopping inches from me.

"Little to close, princess. And in my house this is all I have. I will be right back with my boots and longer socks because your socks are useless and why in god's name were you putting them on with heels? Never mind, I will be right back." I replied, trying to figure out Natalie.

I knew northerns were odd but this way is all sorts of sexy, sassy and a mess of help. But damn, keeping my hands from her is making it harder too. Natalie is going to be one sassy lady that will be hard to turn country but reality will definitely catch up to her and that device she has will disappear.

Chapter 2

Grabbing my boots from my bedroom wasn't no big deal but as I made my way downstairs I heard an argument broke out between two people and to my luck it had to be Sheila giving Natalie a lecture. It made me chuckle but I had straightened up and came up to Natalie with the boots as she looked at me gratefully.

"Sheila, why must you always argue with someone new in my home?" I said trying to hold my laugh.

"If she plans on dating my best friend I have a right to know her." Sheila replied sternly.

"Oh lord, please help me from this mess. Sheila, Natalie has car trouble down by my driveway so I brought her here to clean up and well, sent her on her way soon." I responded seeing that Sheila had a few choice words.

"Amber, that is the worst way to bring a stray woman home especially when you are alone." Sheila replied laughing like nothing happened.

"Ladies, I am right here. I am going to go my ride will be here soon to take me to meet someone whom neither of you need to know. Thank you, Amber for everything. Maybe someday we will catch up again." Natalie said as she got up to leave without another word and leaving both women speechless.

Both Sheila and I had no words for watching a gorgeous woman leave with that I had to go after Natalie to prevent her from meeting that person so I ran out the door but I looked down my driveway to find that Natalie is gone, she left, and I am in pain because of it. Sheila came up behind me.

"Hopefully she looks like you might have fallen as she walked away with this one." Sheila said sadly.

"Do you know how pitiful that sounds? Falling in love as she walks away. That is so country and now my life has fallen backwards. I am going to go take a ride on Nelle if you need any food or anything in the house, I need some space." I said leaving Sheila standing there.

I couldn't believe she was gone. My heart felt shredded apart for thinking that a city woman like Natalie would make everything matter. Love at first sight is a joke for those that live in the country and deep in the holler too. Reaching the barn, I grabbed my saddle that's by the door then made my way to find Nelle somewhere along the fences as I placed the saddle on the ground. I called for Nelle and she came within a few minutes. Once I put the saddle on her, adjusting it properly then climbing on top of her as I swung my leg over and getting comfortable. Settling on her, grabbed the reins then off we went to wherever I could find peace from this miserable heartache in my chest.

As we rode down into the woods, I could hear water running nearby but I wanted to find a cliff to look off of for the time to be distracted from the world or at least an empty area to enjoy the view of other hills. Though it didn't last long when Sheila caught up to me on Data my wonderful black male horse that was already in it for Nelle.

"Amber, she came back and is waiting for you at the house." Sheila said out of breath.

"Are you pulling my hair? She wouldn't come back for me." I replied suddenly confused.

"Kinky as that sounds, no, I am not kidding. Natalie has returned but with much bigger disappointment that her car refused to run and the person she was supposed to meet stood her up." Sheila responded holding tight to the reins.

I decided to turn my horse back around and race back to the house as fast as my horse would go with hopes that Natalie would still be there. Can't believe that stubborn redhead came back to her most would have totally left and never would return to her. Reaching the front lawn with the porch insight and sure enough Natalie was waiting for me, she looked shocked to see me on a horse but her pose told me this wasn't talking about being close to one another by any sort and that I am in for it. Swinging my leg off the horse and jumped down to meet Natalie on the porch when I reached her, her eyes were so deep green and her lips were so soft in pink that made her irresistible.

"Amber, quit looking at me like that." Natalie demanded.

"You have no idea what you do to me." I replied, biting my lip.

"I don't care what I do to you. I need a place to stay until my car is up and running again so I can go back home to the city. So, can I stay here?" Natalie responded, covering her breasts with her arms.

"Yes, of course, you can stay here until your car is ready. I have a guest room available upstairs in my bedroom." I replied looking at her deeply with a warmth to my cheeks.

Watching Natalie turn around inside as she went directly to the house phone making a call that rather surprised me since she had a working cell phone though she is gaining some ground from this wild city woman. All I could do was laugh, so I went to put Nelle and Data up while Sheila laughed herself catching the tail end of the conversation between them.

"She has you by the balls and it is quite funny how you stare at her. All I can say is, I hope she isn't taken by someone else or else you're officially pussy whipped by a woman that isn't even yours." Sheila said while still laughing.

"Go home, please, just go home." I said, still holding in my own laughter.

I have known to pick women who catch my interest but damn, Natalie made it harder to keep myself from getting between her and whatever is holding her back from making a move.

Chapter 3

Personally though I didn't know Natalie as a person all I saw is a gorgeous city woman with shoulder length red hair, bright green eyes, and freckles across her olive skin. I couldn't help but melt every time I saw her though I didn't feel beautiful myself compared to her. I have beautiful long waves of blonde hair, dark blue eyes, and caucasian skin. I feel big compared to her even though she is rail thin, beautiful and I am plump, big and feel fat for a country woman. I have always felt big but this made me feel self conscious around her.

Sheila left when I told her which left me alone with Natalie in my big two story house with four bedrooms and three bathrooms. I used to have a big family but they all went their own way and never returned to our home but as the trust worthy simply, I took over for my parents and made everything to my comfort. I did keep my parents original stuff but took the stuff that didn't need to be out or have my siblings take. A two story white house for a lonely woman you wouldn't think would need much though it is home to keep things in my heart.

Once I got inside after putting the horses away, I didn't bother finding Natalie then kept to myself as I worked around the house to keep everything in line as always. As hours passed Natalie finally came downstairs to reveal that her make-up had smudged and her eyes were sleepy from abrupt sleep that kept her upstairs most of the day.

"I thought you would still be outside." Natalie said with a yawn.

"No, I wouldn't leave you in this big house by yourself." I replied smiling.

I couldn't help adoring her messy hair, make-up a mess, and her way of being groggy.

"This house is so huge I can imagine getting lost in this place. I hope you don't mind but I am hungry and thirsty, I didn't realize how hot this place is." Natalie responded by turning bright red.

"I will make us both something to eat, how do sandwiches and sweet tea sound for lunch?" I replied with a bit of nervousness in my voice.

"I am on a diet, do you have anything with less calories?" Natalie asked.

"What? Why would you ever be on a diet?" I was stunned to hear that.

"I am fat, look at my stomach I have meat where it shouldn't be. You look...stunning for a big woman but I can't imagine being that big for myself." Natalie responded by pinching her stomach to show her non-existent fat.

"Where in the world did you get your fat? I am big because I work in the yard and build muscle but I am also big due to family genes. Natalie, you are thin and gorgeous. I am going to make us both salads minus the dressing." I replied, getting up from the couch and making us both salads.

I felt like we were both going to break down and cry because we couldn't handle our own bodies and how much we were hating our assigned bodies. I couldn't imagine who would tell Natalie, she is fat when she is so thin and beautiful that I would think she is a model. I made our salads without a fess, grabbed two glasses and filled them with water as my mind was debating whether to dump my sweet tea later for the sake of Natalie.

"Amber, are you okay?" Natalie asked.

"Yes, I am fine." I replied.

Grabbing everything together, setting our salads and drinks in front of us as I quickly rushed to grab our forks. I felt Natalie's eyes on me like she wanted to say more but didn't. We sat in silence eating, not daring to speak anymore of our bodies that we both hate so much. I finished my salad and water within a few minutes then waited on Natalie who barely ate a single bite.

"Natalie, is there something wrong with the salad?" I asked diligently.

"No, nothing wrong with it. I don't know what is wrong with me. You think I am this beautiful, gorgeous lady whom you just met and I feel so fat and worthless." Natalie replied, wiping a tear away.

I got up from my seat then walked over to her, pulling her into a tight hug around me that I admit turned me on but wasn't the place to do when we both needed comfort and the best way I know is to hug her. Natalie let me go within a few minutes then looked me in the eyes with sincerity that I had to back away before I really did something she wouldn't approve of. As I went back to my chair and she sat down to eat again, Natalie progressed slowly by herself allowing some different foods to be in her system though she never gained an ounce as much as she ate. After a few days Natalie definitely improved on being around me though we weren't close like me and Sheila their was a spark that would be hard to resist for too long but I needed to wait it out for Natalie's sake.

Chapter 4

Natalie couldn't believe her luck that she got stuck on some wind up road in the middle of the country, she literally can smell stink for miles but for her their was a two story house up the hill though she hated climbing hills. She cursed and screamed at how much she hated her piece of shit car that always broke down at the last place she wanted to be. That is until she heard a voice behind her that startled her completely.

"Darlin' what is the matter?" The big woman said coming down her driveway.

"My fucking car broke down and I am in a hurry to meet someone." Natalie replied with anger infuriating her.

"Come on up to my place for some sweet tea and we will see about gettin' you in town to meet this someone." The woman responded gently with a strong southern tone.

"Sure, maybe a hot shower and clean clothes will help too. By the way, I am Natalie." Natalie responded with a smiling offer for a hand shake.

Natalie followed behind this big beautiful woman that caught her eye. Though she already slipped her wedding band behind her pants pocket because if she knew this southern charmed cowgirl was going to be in her life for a while she had to make sure her wedding band from her husband wouldn't be seen. She needed to explore her sexuality anyways. Though when she shook this woman's hands she felt a spark that she didn't feel with her husband that made her question everything but pushed it aside not wanting to do something she might regret later. Arriving at the house finally took her breath away. It is everything she dreamed of minus dealing with farm animals but she could imagine being in a home this big. Once inside it looked even bigger but she couldn't form words.

"You never told me your name?" Natalie said in a calm voice.

"Amber." Amber replied nervously.

"Nice to meet you." Natalie responded by rushing her words.

"Nice t-to meet you t-too, Na-Natalie." Amber stuttered her words that seemed unlikely to her.

Making their way upstairs Natalie noticed that Amber had become really nervous around her that it took everything she could to be calm. Once they settled with her for the shower, she placed her ring on the counter but hidden underneath a drawer with towels so it couldn't be seen then stripped herself the rest of the way. Natalie turned on the water adjusting it properly, then climbing in as she stood under the hot water as it eased her, she took every ounce of hot water to clean herself and scrub the filth off but what she didn't expect to find was a dildo hanging in the shower, she took it to her advantage and used it on herself as she moans quietly letting herself finally release once she cleaned herself once more and the dildo by placing it back on the wall, she got out and put on the tackiest hillbilly clothes she has ever saw in her life. Natalie put on the flannel shirt, tight blue jeans that barely fit her, and to her surprise she had no sort of footwear. She sighed, grabbing her dirty clothes then rushing to find a washer and dryer sure enough in another room, she found one, and stuffed her clothes in then started it. Making her way downstairs, she slowly peeked around the corner to find Amber patiently waiting on her. This made her feel so nervous seeing a gorgeous woman within her advantages to take and go with but she controlled herself. Natalie came out from behind the wall as Amber stood their looking her up and down with approval.

"I hope you didn't mind that I put my dirty clothes in the wash with hopes they'd be done before I have to go meet this person." Natalie said nervously.

"Not at all, let's have some tea and enjoy it on this hot day." Amber replied, smiling.

"Don't you need to clean yourself up before enjoying some tea?" Natalie asked.

"Sweetheart, I am always dirty working on the farm, the only time I am clean is when it is dark and their is no chores left. I am a busy woman especially with horses and this big home to myself." Amber replied as she grabbed the tea for them both.

Natalie watched as Amber put the tea on the table this is her opportunity to make phone calls in which she had no problem doing since she did needed to call her husband and let him know she is okay since he was expecting her here but she dreaded listening to him when she has a beautiful woman right here before her eyes that took everything inside of her to stay calm. I took my phone outside without saying anymore to Amber as I dialed up his number. It rang three times before he picked up and was not happy either.

"Where the fuck are you?" He demanded.

"My fucking car broke down so I am stuck in the country, literally hillbilly country." Natalie explained.

"Oh, how wonderful another excuse to avoid being around us. Go to hell, Natalie and don't bother coming to meet my new co-worker." He said through anger.

Natalie hung up then called her lawyer that she planned on divorcing her stupid ass husband. She hated that he never understood why she never made it on time or anything. I couldn't let Amber know the real reason why she is ditching this whole meeting someone, she's supposed too but it is her husband's lover for sure. She couldn't wait to get away from city life and away from her dick of a husband that never loved her. Maybe she is meant to be here for some reason though going back inside with Amber is a whole nother roll that she is going to be taken in differently. Natalie walked back inside to see Amber still looking at her.

"Looks like I am stuck here since no one even believes this place exists, I am surprised their is cell phone service out here for being so far out in the woods, and mountains." Natalie said in her sassy voice.

"What in tarnation is a cell phone and service? I have a house phone right there in front of you. Those aren't mountain's dear, those are hills, you want mountains got to go further than this." Amber replied in her deepest country voice.

"Excuse me, while I do thank you for letting me take a shower and everything. I am going to go catch a bus or taxi to find myself a hotel. I don't like being bitten by mosquitoes and I am sure as hell not staying with filthy animals." Natalie replied, grabbing her fancy purse, putting on socks and her heels that sure didn't go with her outfit.

Natalie glared at Amber as she chuckled in the kitchen knowing this had to be the worst thought of putting on socks with heels but listening to Amber chuckle made her heart swell a bit.

"Do you have a better solution?" Natalie said, raising her eyebrows.

"It's called boots, princess and to think I have another pair in my bedroom." Amber replied, heading toward her room to grab them.

"No, no, Amber, please don't. I am not cut out to be a country like you." Natalie responded by stopping inches from me.

"Little to close, princess. And in my house this is all I have. I will be right back with my boots and longer socks because your socks are useless and why in god's name were you putting them on with heels? Never mind, I will be right back." Amber replied, trying to figure out Natalie.

Natalie knew her sassy attitude would only get her so far but she loved making Amber reach for someone she couldn't have quite yet but the distance is better and that made it all worth the while until this woman came up to her demanding why she is into her best friend and damn knows what else. I didn't know her but didn't like being accused of something that is non-existent.

Chapter 5

Natalie couldn't understand this woman blatantly coming into Amber's house and chewing her out for dating her best friend when they haven't dated at all, hell, she arrived today and long behold she is in a gorgeous house with a beautiful woman that makes her heart feel ten times bigger than what her husband does. That is when she heard Amber coming down the stairs with boots for her to wear.

"Sheila, why must you always argue with someone new in my home?" Amber said.

"If she plans on dating my best friend I have a right to know her." Sheila replied sternly.

"Oh lord, please help me from this mess. Sheila, Natalie has car trouble down by my driveway so I brought her here to clean up and well, sent her on her way soon." Amber responded, not backing down from Sheila.

"Amber, that is the worst way to bring a stray woman home especially when you are alone." Sheila replied laughing like nothing happened.

"Ladies, I am right here. I am going to go on my ride here soon to take me to meet someone whom neither of you need to know. Thank you, Amber for everything. Maybe someday we will catch up again." Natalie said as she got up to leave without another word and leaving both women speechless.

Natalie knew it was time to leave as she slipped on the boots and ran out the door by making her way down the driveway. She cursed realizing she left her wedding ring inside but she couldn't return inside since they were both inside but before she could get all the way down the driveway, she turned around to see that Amber is looking for her though I have hidden in the bushes for the sake of not wanting to be seen. Natalie knew she wasn't going to end up very far since she had no way of getting a ride to where she is and this is her only way into the reality of Amber. As she watched Amber storm off hurt it occurred to her that their is more to both of them than either are ready for and she still has a marriage to get out of before Amber does find out.

Natalie made her way back up to the house with Sheila twirling the wedding ring in her hand with a look that could kill.

"You couldn't leave without your wedding band. So, who is she? Is she prettier than my best friend? Does she know how to steal someone's heart and break it without actually admitting feelings? Tell me!" Sheila demanded.

For a woman like Sheila, she is gorgeous with her long brunette hair, brown eyes, and a busty body like Amber's. But Natalie had to focus as she cleared her throat.

"I am filing for divorce actually though Amber doesn't need to know the details of what is going on with me and my husband, he's an asshole and has been cheating on me with younger women. Amber isn't the first woman I have been attracted to in my past but she makes me feel things that my husband can't give me. So, will you please go bring her back. I am already feeling guilty without pursuing my heart to her." Natalie replied, wiping tears away as she stuffed the ring in her purse.

"Wait? You are in love with Amber and you two just met today and you didn't have that with your husband? Natalie, wow, you are amazing. I don't approve of you being married to a man, keeping a secret from Amber but I will go get her and keep this between us." Sheila responded smiling.

Natalie didn't think that would go over so easily with Sheila but surprisingly it did. Though now waiting for Amber to return, Natalie paced the porch multiple times. Without warning Amber stood in front of Natalie with blue eyes that made her melt, long blonde flourish hair that had waves to be tangled in her fingers, and skin that was tanned to perfection though Natalie had to turn away with turning bright red.

"Amber, quit looking at me like that." Natalie demanded.

"You have no idea what you do to me." Amber replied, biting her lip.

"I don't care what I do to you. I need a place to stay until my car is up and running again so I can go back home to the city. So, can I stay here?" Natalie responded, covering her breasts with her arms.

"Yes, of course, you can stay here until your car is ready. I have a guest room available upstairs in my bedroom." Amber replied looking at her deeply with a warmth to my cheeks.

Natalie turned around and went inside to make a pretend phone call this time, she wasn't even going to bother dialing a real number she had to get out from Amber and their emotions. It is too much, especially since she is still married to a damn asshole who has leverage over her. Each time she went to look at Amber, Amber would stare into her making her shake as she would pretend to talk some more that is when she heard Amber and Sheila get into it again and Amber made Sheila leave. Great being alone with Amber isn't what she had planned.

Once Natalie heard Amber going to put the horses away, I decided to hang up the phone and go upstairs to explore Amber's room though making her hair look messy as she got up from a nap seemed fun too. Making my way up to Amber's room without making too much noise, I found that she wore amazingly clothes that would make me want to wear them like big tee shirts, leggings and so much more. So, the country woman is her personality and by the pictures on her wall proved it. Amber is amazingly lucky to have such a big home that is filled with love and family all around. Upon looking through Amber's things when Natalie went to lay on the bed, she found a note under the pillow it read.

My lovely wife-to-be,

I know we were supposed to be down the aisle in a few months but I will not make it due to my health slowly killing me. I have breast cancer, baby, and I won't be able to live with you in our big home and live big dreams of having kids running around the yard. I am sorry this happened before we made it down the aisle but I had to tell you. I want you to find someone who makes you feel the same as I once did and if she brightens your country life up then you have nothing to worry about.

I love you.

Future Mrs. Sarah Starr

Natalie wiped her tears knowing that Amber did have someone to love but she died before they could walk down the aisle. It tore Natalie up but she knew better than to keep being married to a bullied asshole, she had to be with Amber somehow or another.

Chapter 6

Natalie did finally fall asleep after crying over the letter Amber had from her future that didn't become her future. It hurt Natalie reading something so personal but she wouldn't treat Amber any different that woman deserves someone better than her. She may be in love with her at first sight, it wouldn't be enough for her to stay too long. Natalie woke up from her nap three hours later realizing that she was hungry but as her husband called her fat she didn't know how Amber would handle such awful feelings. It would cause her bad anxiety and depression because he didn't see her as beautiful, the way Amber looks at her.

Making her way downstairs Natalie seeing Amber in the living room. Natalie felt bad for ditching her for several hours also snooping through her room but their was more to her that Natalie needed to know. Amber offered to feed me then went onto a sensitive subject that we both interjected with the beauties of our bodies though unfortunately Natalie couldn't answer Amber on as to why she hated her body. She cried in Amber's arms though her big breasts were soft pillows against my small ones. We looked at each other after Natalie let out a good cry but Amber backed away then sat back down. Natalie did finally eat my salad and began to eat more progressively through meaty meals that Amber would make. We didn't care about how we looked, we just loved food and it made us happy. Three days later, Natalie realized that she did gain some weight but not enough to affect her as a person.

After settling into routine for the past week, Natalie had to do something she knew would be hard to tell Amber but Sheila has been over and encouraging her to tell Amber everything for the sake of each other. It took Natalie a couple of hours to warm to the idea of how to tell Amber that she is married to a man who hates her as the person she is and is waiting for him to sign the papers since they were sent out a few days ago prior to being settled. Taking a deep breath Natalie went to Amber's study which is a few doors down from her room with a slight knock.

"Come in, Natalie." Amber said in a quiet voice.

Natalie walked into the study to find Amber consumed into her notebook writing with such progress it took her breath away.

"Can I speak with you?" Natalie replied feeling very nervous.

"Natalie, we are friends, so yes, of course." Amber responded as she closed her notebook and clicked her pen setting down on the notebook.

"I know about Sarah. I am sorry for you losing her that is why you are so closed up. But my reasoning for being here is different..." Natalie replied as she got cut off by Amber.

"You went through my things, Natalie, I can't believe you would do that. That is my life line right there whom I keep to myself. Get out of my office and don't bother me." Amber shouted, slamming her notebook scaring Natalie.

"Amber, please..." Natalie pleaded.

"GET OUT NATALIE, NOW!" Amber shouted again.

Natalie left Amber's study in tears feeling she literally made the worst mistake by admitting snooping into Amber's things. Natalie then heard Amber screaming, shouting, begging for Sarah to come back knowing she wasn't returning. Natalie didn't mean to hurt Amber emotionally but it also hurt her seeing that she did this. Natalie grabbed her overnight bag that was left beside her bed with her boots, ditching her heels and everything else then made her way downstairs. Left a small note for Amber explaining that she knew not to hide who she is now and that she is on her way back home to New York to be with a man that she is scared of. Natalie hated her husband but what choice did she have, she wouldn't make Amber love her when the time isn't right for either of them and going back into her abusive marriage isn't what her heart is wanting since serving him the papers. Natalie had no one, no siblings to depend on, her parents left the world, and she is alone fighting for an escape.

Natalie left the note on the kitchen table with tears flowing and left the house quietly as can be. Sheila would most definitely hate it if she went back to her husband but Sheila has her own life besides keeping some stranger in her life. Natalie looked back at the house one more time knowing that Amber wouldn't chase her, no matter how mad she is now, and how much it hurt her, she screwed up. Natalie almost made it to her car when she heard her name being called, surprising that Amber is calling her out, stopping where I am at and not daring to turn around.

"Natalie, I don't care what that note says or that you violated my privacy but don't leave because I get mad." Amber said in a calm manner.

"Amber, I am married to a man, and he's abusive mentally and physically. Sarah, your future wife that died loved you and you loved her. I am not officially divorced and no matter how I feel for you it will not solve what I am still facing. I shouldn't have stayed here for as long as I have but I like you, maybe even love you though I will never know until I am away from him. I am sorry, Amber for invading your privacy but we all have secrets and now you know mine." Natalie replied, still feeling tears down her cheeks.

"I like you too, maybe love you too but I won't know if you leave me. I am sorry your husband is an asshole and should be dead in my consideration but I don't care if you are married, divorced, engaged, single or any other term. Natalie, we met for a reason and I want you to stay." Amber responded.

Natalie turned around looking at Amber though her blonde hair is a mess with tears streaming too. Natalie needed to wait this divorce out from her husband so she can be with Amber but she must try and go back to New York, live in an apartment and figure things out, she has enough money to make it on her own but she needs Amber to stay where she is, not get caught up in her mess. Natalie walked away without looking back but it hurt her doing this because if her husband found out she is having an affair with a woman it will make the case worse.

Chapter 7

It couldn't be this way with Natalie not her walking away to go back to that so called husband of hers. Being that it had only been a week but we were closer than anyone else would have thought. I felt alone as she walked away and got into the car to leave with someone that would take her to the airport since her car is still broken down. All I could do is call Sheila and let her know what happened. Though it is my fault for getting mad in the first place because Natalie found out about my first love Sarah. It wasn't her fault that she had to know more about me but that led to me knowing more about her. Before I could reach the phone, I heard stomping footsteps approach me, and this is it, Sheila is pissed off about Natalie they were close too.

"Are you that damn dense to let her go?" Sheila demanded.

I dared to look at her though all I could do was hold my breath and sigh.

"She wanted too after I got mad at her for finding out about Sarah." I said as I deeply regretted it.

"You would rather sit here and mope about a long lost lover than enjoy one who appreciated you. Amber, you have been with some crazies over the years but Natalie is actually a great business woman with a damn good personality. I can't believe you let her go." Sheila replied, crossing her arms over her chest.

"She's fucking getting a divorce anyhow, she will be back and it's not like she would permanently stay in New York with that asshole." I responded not holding back anything at this point as I stared Sheila down.

"Bitch, she can divorce anywhere. We are going after her and saving her from that asshole. Get the keys to your fucking truck and lets go get that woman." Sheila replied with anger.

I didn't dare argue with Sheila. I grabbed the keys to my S-10 pick up truck and headed down to the back of the house where I kept it hidden from people. I met Sheila down by the driveway when I made my way around and we headed to New York though, in this case, we might actually make it before Natalie, I didn't have an address but if I waited outside somewhere for her then I might have a chance of getting her back. Sheila tried convincing me to stop at an airport since flying is faster but I refused to be in the air knowing that we could be seated with Natalie if the flights weren't packed and I hated heights, oh did I hate them. We drove for several more hours. That's when Sheila took over and she drove the rest of the way to New York. Never seeing the city before looked so huge but now catching Natalie seemed harder than she ever imagined.

"Let's head to the airport, I am sure she is to arrive soon if not a couple of hours. I am sure we can get markers and a poster while there for her. We have to make sure she finds you." Sheila said.

"I hope this plan works because if she goes back to him, I am done for and her life is ruined." I replied gripping my hands tightly together.

"Amber, it'll be okay, we will reach her. Let me get us to the airport and we will get set up to see her." Sheila responded.

Sheila drove us to the airport though it felt like an eternity to get there and once arriving hurried into a store to grab supplies then making out a sign for Natalie with hopes she hadn't been picked up by a taxi or anything yet. We grabbed the poster board and headed toward the terminal that read from Texas to New York with hopes Natalie is still on the plane. I caught sight of Natalie as I raised the sign up for her but as she looked in my direction, she looked shocked and disbelief at what was going on. I saw Natalie run over to us then run into my arms as I held her tightly then I released her.

"Amber, Sheila what are you both doing here?" Natalie asked.

"She came for you." Sheila said standing back smiling.

"For me? Amber, what is all this?" Natalie asked again, confused.

I couldn't take it anymore, I gathered Natalie in my arms and planted a deep passionate kiss that we both sunk into once we let go, Natalie's eyes sparkled with tears.

"Come back home to Texas, I don't care about your husband or anything else but you coming back with me. I can't be apart from you." I said still blushing from the kiss.

"I will come back to you soon, I have to go through this divorce, he convinced the judge to have it here that is also why I had to leave. Amber, that kiss felt so real though and I can't wait to have more but please go back home. I am going to stay with a friend for the time being so he doesn't bother me." Natalie replied, still wiping her tears.

Out of the blue a woman comes strolling up to the group trying to figure out who Natalie kissed and who is the other chick, it made Amber laugh.

"Dana, relax this is my soon to be girlfriend Amber ummm, we never covered last name basis and Sheila, ummm, also the same. I stayed with Amber for two weeks and her best friend would come around to hang out." Natalie said.

"Girlfriend? Girlfriend? You are getting a divorce to be in a lesbian relationship. No, no, you belong to me last I heard in the lesbian department. You will not be going back to wherever the hell these two bumpkins came from." Dana replied pissed off.

"Wow! Dana, you have a man and two, you aren't the least bit lesbian. Jealousy is way over your head. I will stay in a hotel downtown Dana, this is ridiculous. I am sorry Amber and Sheila for this awkward meeting." Natalie responded.

"No worries, we can spot homophobic miles away. Luckily, our bumpkin selves will be heading out. Natalie, I will see you when you come home and be safe. We are here for you." I replied calmly as can be.

Sheila and I walked away without looking back knowing that Dana is still yelling at poor Natalie for being in a soon to be relationship with her. It took everything I could not to go back there and beat the shit out of Dana for a rather rude statement toward Natalie all because she admitted to wanting to be my girlfriend after the divorce.

Chapter 8

Walking away from Natalie hurt so much after sharing such a passionate kiss between us but what disturbed me is the way Dana talked to Natalie. It pissed me off, so I back tracked and went directly up to her face and spoke what I have never said to someone.

"Natalie is perfect for me and she doesn't need your unadvised opinion on who she ends up with after that asshole leaves her. I will not put up with homophobic idiots like you in our life. Now, take care of her before I make her come with me." I said as my temper flared.

I knew Sheila wasn't going to hold me back as Dana stood her ground.

"Natalie is for Jesus not for you, lesbian bitches. I will see to it that she finds a better man than her man. As for you, never come back to New York for her, she will always be a part of my Christian life." Dana replied fuming.

Before I could say anything else Natalie turned Dana around and slapped her across the face so harsh that it left a red mark. I was surprised that Natalie had it in her to slap someone like that. Natalie grabbed my hand and we left the airport quickly, not sure where we were going as Sheila tried to keep up and get answers out of Natalie but it took everything we could to keep running out of the airport. We finally stopped once we got far enough from the airport that Natalie turned me around.

"Damn that felt good to slap Dana, she has been needing it for as long as I can remember. You two better head on home to Texas, and Sheila keeps her out of trouble while I am here for a little while." Natalie said.

"You are still going to stay here after Dana said all that about you?" I raised my eyebrows.

"I have other friends and they don't know my whole life story but do understand that I have privacy that is respected." Natalie replied smiling.

I couldn't believe that Natalie knew so many people in such a big filled area. I kissed her passionately once more as Sheila tugged me away from Natalie. We got back in my truck though I didn't want to leave but she knew this would fly by faster if she went back home and took care of her babies that needed her badly. It took us a whole day and then some making our way back to Texas felt like forever going back home but we needed to be there.

Soon as I walked in the door, my home phone went off without warning and I ran over to it when I finally calmly breathed.

"Hello?" I said into the receiver.

"Amber, please tell me this is you." The woman replied on the other end.

"Yes, yes it is." I responded unsure of who it was.

"Thank goodness, this is Natalie's mother, I do not approve of you and my daughter making out in public and I forbid you two to be together. If my daughter comes back to you, I will make sure she isn't allowed to return here. For right now she is staying with us until her divorce is final from that asshole." The woman replied sternly.

"Excuse me, I don't know who you are exactly but me and Natalie love each other and it is her decision to come back to me. Goodbye." I hung up the phone with force that I almost knocked it off the wall.

I hated the way people treated LGBT community, granted, we still aren't the greatest community but we love one another dearly before I could finish my thought Sheila came in with the keys to the truck and gave a look of uncertainty.

"What is the matter?" Sheila asked.

"Natalie's mother called as soon as I stepped in the door and demanded I stay away from Natalie which would be impossible since Natalie will be back before I could tell her what is going on with her own mother." I said pacing the kitchen.

"Calm down, it'll be alright, if we have known Natalie for that week she will return, especially the way she kissed you, my goodness that was hot." Sheila replied smiling.

"You always think something between two women is hot. You do need to head home to your girlfriend though I am sure she is excited for you to be home, finally." I responded by biting my lip thinking of Natalie being excited to see me.

"She left me months ago, I have sold the house and actually live on the streets. I didn't want to bother you by living in your parents house again." Sheila replied looking like a puppy with sad eyes.

"Sheila, I would never deny you staying with me. It will be good to have a roommate. So, go get your things wherever they may be and come grab a room." I responded by punching Sheila playfully on the shoulder.

"I don't have anything left besides what I am wearing and what I brought with us." Sheila replied fidgeting with the keys.

"Go get undressed and in the shower, I will get you clean clothes. We will go get you more in a few days. You should have told me that she did this to you." I responded.

I watched as Sheila made her way upstairs and I followed getting her some clothes from my drawers then realizing Natalie left hers behind too. I went to rewash Natalie's and then waited in between to do up both clothes. I checked in on Sheila to find that she fell asleep after a nice hot shower in her room, she felt eased having someone in her home again. I went back downstairs and headed outside to take a nice calm sit on my own porch watching my horses run around wild while enjoying the fresh hot Texas air. Being able to breath and relax without a worry felt like heaven though it never lasts long when someone randomly pulls up in your driveway with a shitty ass vehicle and this she assumed is Sheila's ex Jolene, they both hated each other and this is to prove it by standing guard on her porch. It took everything inside of me not to walk over to that bitch and punch the shit out of her for hurting my best friend.

Chapter 9

I leaned against the pillar of my porch when Jolene came face to face with me since I didn't dare to meet her in her car like she demanded within minutes of pulling up.

"Where is she? I have looked up and down the streets for that bitch." Jolene demanded again.

"None of your concern. You two broke up and you left her on the streets." I said with a smirk.

"It is my concern since she has it in her head that...oh fuck it." Jolene replied.

Before I could stop Jolene from going inside, she started yelling for Sheila loudly. I hoped Sheila was smart enough to lock my bedroom door before preventing Jolene from going in and sure enough, Sheila caught sight of Jolene by a peep and quietly snuck back to the room then locked the door. I knew Sheila wasn't going to let Jolene get to her again since she knew Jolene had a history of mentally abusing her. Jolene demanded to know where Sheila was and I had to keep telling her, she wasn't there with her, that she hasn't seen Sheila in months though it is a lie.

Searching for an hour Jolene finally gave up and left slamming the front door though it made me laugh that she couldn't dare find Sheila whose upstairs was still in the room. I climbed upstairs, making my way down the hall, and reached my door as I was about to knock Sheila open, looking grateful for the fact Jolene had left.

"I wish she would leave me alone, all she has done since we broke up is demanding me to come back to her and have our planned marriage." Sheila said about ready to cry.

"She will give up eventually, let's get some beer and relax. I am ready to put on some good ole fashioned western movies while drinking ourselves away." I replied smiling.

"You got it. Let's have a night to ourselves." Sheila responded trying to smile.

I made my way down the hallways and down the stairs to lock the front door because I was done dealing with drama plus my best friend needed me more than those in the world. Once, I have closed the curtains around the house, shutting off the lights, and grabbing beers from the refrigerator. I left my beer on the table as I went to get cleaned up for the evening since it began getting dark earlier and a cold shower sounded good so she can enjoy her thoughts of her lovely lady Natalie. It gave her release from stress when she did end a shower quick enough but once she got out a scene she didn't expect happened in front of her with Sheila.

"You weren't supposed to be drinking ahead of me, damn woman." I said with laughter.

I couldn't make sense of what Sheila slurred but it made me laugh some more. I got dressed quickly before Sheila could attempt anything then dragged her downstairs with me though it never made sense why she always had to drink so much when I can barely handle one. I placed Sheila on the couch then grabbed my beer from the table and saw that Sheila ended up grabbing her liquor instead. I left Sheila on the couch, I wasn't dealing with a drunk best friend because she gets handsy and it leads to more than what I want from her though I have always been attracted to her, I couldn't do it though not with Natalie coming back.

I went upstairs locking myself in my room drinking a toast to Sarah as I missed our nights together and cried as I read the letter of her love to me. I did eventually drift off to sleep with dreams of Sarah but without warning I was making love to Natalie in my dream it literally jolted me out of my sleep I had to check if she was beside me knowing she wasn't hurt a little but I got up anyways and decided to go settle for the horses make sure they were okay. I didn't care that I was barefoot and in my pajamas as I made my way out to the pastures, sure enough they were happy to see me but as I turned around to get the hay for them, my smile reached my eyes as I saw Sarah looking at me. Her ghost would always come around early hours of the morning when I fed our babies. It is a bond that we held. I missed Sarah so much but I knew I had to move on eventually and she will move on herself though she wanted to make sure I was happy before she could. All I could whisper to her is that I missed her so much and I loved her even though she couldn't speak back. It would hurt that she couldn't speak herself. I went back to work on the horses making sure they had their runs around the pastures and let them free reign the pasture. I went back to the house after cleaning up after them then went inside to shower once more to get her out of my mind.

Making my way back downstairs from my shower with my tears still shredding me apart inside, I decided to make Sarah's favorite breakfast with a cup of orange juice since she always appreciated my cooking when it came to making hash browns, topped with over easy eggs, and bacon, I would always make her that when we would have a little argument the night before though we made love in forgiveness. We had a special love that gave our parents the reason to stay together. We were best friends from our Middle School days and ended up married soon after Prom, we had no problem loving one another. Sarah Ellen Starr and Amber Madison Skye-Starr, I took her last name but she stuck with hers because we decided it would be best and I did anything she wanted including our wedding. When Sarah lost her battle to breast cancer, it took everything inside me not to live with guilt on saving her. I will always love Sarah but life has to move on especially these tears.

Chapter 10

Natalie felt like her whole world was going to crash when Dana and Amber got into it at the airport but thankfully Natalie went to her parents to settle in since they weren't far from the airport though she didn't expect her mom to find out about her new love interest. It took all she could do not to run away from her own mother without tears and regret of leaving completely.

"Natalie, you have no right to be kissing that woman in public. I don't agree with you being with her after you divorce that asshole. I will not put up with my daughter being gay." Katie shouted throughout the whole house.

"Mom, please, stop! I am going back to Texas to be with her once this is all said and done. Amber is beautiful, loving, and so sweet. We may be different in body but she treated me better than Aaron did and I hated him for trying to make me feel bad about my shape. I can't wait to get away from all you closed minded people, this is so ridiculous." Natalie replied.

"I will not have you be with a woman that is beyond miles from here and doesn't speak a lick of proper english like us. I have raised you to be proper, not some out west, filthy hooligan and for hell sakes Natalie go change into proper wear that I prefer you in." Katie responded with gritted teeth.

Natalie got up from the table and did something she never imagined doing but she got sick of people dissing her life then turning her love life into nothing because Amber means something to her. She looked straight into her mom's eyes then slapped her as her father stood there with no words and Natalie walked out of the room, grabbing her luggage and decided that this divorce wasn't worth dealing with the idiocy of people who couldn't accept her decisions. Natalie called a cab, made arrangements to be back at the airport and decided it is time to leave as she called her lawyer, he wasn't happy that she is leaving but understood that her love is more important and her divorce with Aaron will be settled without her there. Natalie looked back at her childhood home, as she saw that her life with the cell phone was ruining her but she knew once she got to Amber that it will be history because it has tied her life down for so long. Natalie knew she wasn't her mother and will never be so selfish to ruin her child's life because she liked someone of the same-sex.

Soon as the Taxi arrived Natalie felt grateful to not be consumed in her thoughts. Natalie dialed Amber's number that she found in a directory and it just rang, though it threw her off knowing Amber is usually not far but then a voice she recognized picked up.

"Please tell me it is you, Natalie?" Sheila said on the other end.

"It is, where is Amber?" Natalie asked.

"No idea, she made breakfast for herself, shower and then from that I have no idea. We got drunk last night and our worlds have crashed since I told her I was homeless." Sheila explained through heavy breathing.

"If you see her, let her know I am coming back and that she has nothing else to worry about at this point. My divorce is being handled." Natalie replied as she got out of the cab with her luggage.

"I will for sure and I will make sure we wait up for you. See you in a day or less." Sheila responded drunkenly then hung up on Natalie.

Natalie chuckled, placing her phone in her back pocket. As soon as she was about to board the airplane her phone went off as she looked at it, it read her mom so she shut it off and gave the lady her plane ticket without anyone else coming to catch her. She made her way on board without any problems and found her seat. A long trip back to Texas but it'd be so worth it to be in Amber's arms again and kissing her with that spark. It always makes her happy that they were able to share a kiss at the airport and be passionate for once. Natalie took it as a grain of salt for not dealing with her mother's closed mind and also not accepting her life even though she knew her mother would eventually come around if at all. Natalie fell into a deep sleep as more passengers boarded the plane and as she dreamed away from the world of life it became her alternate sense to listen to someone speaking to her though she rather be sleeping instead of conversing with other people.

"Miss, you are in the wrong state to be here in New York with that kind of style." A woman said with a thick New York accent.

"Pardon me?" Natalie replied looking at the woman beside her.

"Country women don't belong in the City." The woman responded looking Natalie up and down.

"I am from here, this is what my girlfriend gave me to wear before I came back home." Natalie replied looking at the woman in her fancy wear of a white top and khakis with heels.

"Sure, lady, whatever you say." The woman responded holding tight to her purse.

Natalie rolled her eyes then went back to sleep. Before she could fully drop off the woman had the nerve to speak again.

"Did I hear you say girlfriend?" The woman said with a gasp.

"Yes?" Natalie replied with a raised eyebrow.

The woman looked at her with infatuation all of a sudden and all Natalie could think of is fuck, here we go again with a woman wanting to be curious. Natalie stopped the woman before their lips crashed together.

"Don't you dare. I am in love with my girlfriend back in Texas." Natalie said with demand.

"She is damn lucky for a sexy thing like you, who can resist such a sexy redhead that is full of spitfire." The woman replied, winking.

Natalie rolled her eyes wishing this airplane would get to Texas faster because sitting next to this woman is going to piss her off.

Chapter 11

After a whole day Natalie finally arrived in Texas then had to call another driver to come get her and take her out to the backwoods of Amber's luckily the driver knew who she was and had heard that she hasn't come out of her home since Natalie left, it tore Natalie up badly to imagine what could have torn Amber apart so badly that she wouldn't come out of her home. Natalie grabbed her cell phone out of her purse and dialed Amber's home number with three rings Sheila answered again.

"Does Amber know I am coming? I am on my way." Natalie said urgently.

"Amber hasn't come out of her room, I have been doing all the house chores but the house is unlocked and you can come on by." Sheila replied in her accent.

"Great, be there very soon in about an hour at most according to the driver." Natalie responded then hung up.

Natalie didn't like this about Amber being cooped up in her room for what reason? It isn't Sarah's death date? No, it couldn't be that is still a month or two away. As far as she knew anyhow, Natalie just knew that she had to get to Amber and see what was wrong. This is unlike her to not answer her phone or anything. Panic began rising in her when she couldn't figure out for the life of her what could be wrong with Amber.

Reaching Amber's house, the driver pulled up to the front of the house as Natalie ran out of the car into the house as Sheila opened the door. Natalie ran from the kitchen to the living room, and then up a flight of stairs to find Amber standing in the hallway looking directly at Natalie but not actually looking at Natalie. Natalie watched Amber walk back to her bedroom and then slammed it shut. Startling Natalie, she walked the rest of the way to Amber's room then slightly opened it when Amber slammed it in her face and locked the door.

"Amber, please, let me in. Let's talk." Natalie said softly into the door.

"Sarah, you know our lives have changed and you are dead, nothing will ever be the same." Amber replied through the door.

"Amber, this is Natalie not Sarah. Sarah is gone, Sarah is...away with her own happiness." Natalie responded smoothly to ease Amber.

"Nat--Natalie, is that really you?" Amber replied with stutter.

"Yes, Amber it is me. I came back for you. I tried calling to tell you I was coming back but you never answered the phone, only Sheila did." Natalie responded.

Natalie stood their waiting for Amber to open the door but it didn't happen. Natalie hung her head then went back downstairs to find Sheila who seemed consumed in her own world.

"She isn't budging, I think Amber may need some help and I have no idea what history is with Sarah but she is gone." Natalie said to Sheila.

"She doesn't need therapy of any sort, Amber needs someone to be with her when her mind goes into memories of that bitch. I have always hated her and once she died I was happy while Amber went hiding from everyone including that family. I have no idea what Amber saw in that stuck up family or Sarah herself but I would have never treated her that way." Sheila replied venting away.

"I get it Sheila but Amber obviously loved her enough to have married her." Natalie responded biting her lip knowing that is probably the wrong thing to say but someone had too.

"Sarah mentally abused Amber and they did get physical a few times. It wasn't a perfect love but Amber stuck it out because she loved Sarah." Sheila replied, still drinking the liquor.

Natalie didn't understand how anyone could stay in a relationship like that though she was no better with her soon to be ex-husband. It took all Natalie could handle the fact that Amber isn't coming out of her room. The whole reason she came to Texas to be with Amber not see her hiding because of Sarah though she hoped Amber would come out eventually.

"When she is like this, does she come out of her room?" Natalie asked.

Sheila laughed drunkenly knowing that isn't a good sign.

"Amber will never change when it comes to Sarah even if she is dead. Sarah's ghost must still be floating around the property or else Amber would be handling day to day stuff." Sheila responded.

"I thought once people pass over they don't come back to earth. This seems impossible." Natalie replied.

"She can see ghosts always for a long time including lost family members. The only wish Sarah had for Amber is to move on and be happy with someone to actually love her and not mourn over her too long. For a bitch who hated my best friend, that is a shocking statement." Sheila responded.

"Fucking wonderful, so she is haunted by her past until she becomes happy again. That seems nearly impossible with her avoiding me, I came here to be with her and she is now held up in her room. Fucking hell!" Natalie yelled into the air.

"Could be worse, you and Amber being together while Sarah is still alive. That would be a messy situation." Sheila responded chuckling.

Natalie couldn't hear anymore as she stormed back upstairs and pounded on Amber's bedroom door begging her to open up. It was enough that Natalie wore herself out by crying and staying by the door without moving as she reached underneath to feel Amber's hand at least. She couldn't see Amber through the lower part of the door but she could hear Amber crying as much as she was.

"I am here for you, Amber, always." Natalie whispered.

Natalie wasn't leaving this woman's house until they were back in each other's arms whether it meant fighting for a day or months, Natalie wasn't going to up and leave Amber when she needed someone the most. Yes, it hurt to find out that Sarah was abusive mentally and physically though when you love someone, it doesn't matter, you truly love them no matter the case. Even for a city woman that is going through hell, she would be by Amber through thick and thin, she also knew Sheila would be too.

Chapter 12

Natalie sat their day and night but Amber wouldn't come out of the room to eat or anything though Natalie would slip her food under the door. It didn't make much difference until after two weeks staying by that door, Amber finally opened the door.

"Ya know their is a million women out there for ya, and ya still waited for me." Amber said.

"I am here for you, not someone else, including your drunk best friend though Sheila can clean excellent and work hard on those horses for you." Natalie replied.

"Sweetheart, I am not worthy of you. I am worthy of Sarah whose heart is attached to me." Amber responded thoughtfully.

"She is gone, Amber. I don't know how long she has been gone but she isn't returning." Natalie replied.

"Darlin' I know she is gone but that doesn't mean I have to move on because I am not over her. You wouldn't understand though, you were in a straight relationship longer than I was with my wife." Amber responded by carrying her southern tone.

"I do understand mental and physical abuse, Sarah loved to hurt you and I hate seeing you hurt over her but comparing my husband to your wife is no different than being with someone else, anyone else. Amber, I came back for you but I made a mistake sitting here for two weeks waiting for you to come out and now for you to push me away. It is either you are with me or without me not both." Natalie replied with a deep sigh.

"DON'T YOU EVER TALK TO ME ABOUT SARAH AND HER ABUSE! I love her no matter how much she treated me badly. You darlin' need to learn to stay out of my business and let me deal with this." Amber responded as she fought tears.

Natalie didn't stand anyone yelling at her but she gave Amber more of a stand down, she wasn't budging on any factor that led to a big fight. They hadn't known each other long but it was starting to show that Amber isn't always going to be in her head. Natalie heard Sheila come up behind her when she spoke directly to Amber not afraid of hurting her the least where it counted and that was in the heart.

"Sarah didn't love you and you know it because all she cared about was making you suffer whether good or bad days. She mentally and physically made you the worst out look to herself. Amber, I know you loved her but I am going to say this so you can hear me loud and clear. I am glad she is dead and you can move on to someone who could also love you and give you the world. Natalie may be a city woman and still legally married but at least she makes you happy." Sheila said through vile in her voice.

Before Natalie could stop Sheila from saying anymore Amber went back inside her room but didn't close the door all the way. Natalie decided to walk downstairs with Sheila behind her and that is when they hugged one another. They pulled away looking at one another.

"I never really introduced myself, I am Sheila White and I am Amber Starr's best friend." Sheila said giggling.

"I am Natalie Holden and the woman you met at the airport was Dana Hopkins though I will never see her again." Natalie replied smiling.

"Only because she is jealous of your romance to be with Amber that was a smoking hot passionate kiss if I do say so myself." Sheila responded winking.

"You need a girlfriend though that kiss did feel amazing." Natalie replied thinking about it.

Natalie couldn't help but laugh with Sheila out loud then conversation went back to serious and took a needle to them both.

"We do need to get Amber some help, somehow, she needs to be stable and in her right mind." Natalie said in a serious tone.

"Not happening, Amber is known to refuse help of any type including for her mental state but she is known to help herself get better as the days go on." Sheila responded.

"You made her wait it out? What would possess you to do that? Sheila, she needs help badly and the way she kept calling me Sarah is rather scary. You can't expect her to be better as time passes by, you know she could kill herself." Natalie replied with worry in her voice.

"Amber wouldn't kill herself but getting her that kind of help will make her hate me, us, more than what she sees good for. Reality is she needs someone to love her and accept her for who she is no matter what." Sheila responded.

Natalie couldn't believe what she was hearing that no one dared to help Amber, not even a little to make sure she is stable and can handle day to day life. She doesn't recall when Amber came out to take care of the horses or anything, it felt like the world flew on by while she hid herself. Natalie heard the sound of boots coming from the stairs as she and Sheila looked in that direction to see Amber looking better than normal with her long blonde hair washed, cleaned clothes, and a big smile on her face.

"Amber, are you okay?" Natalie asked.

"Darlin' I am perfectly fine, you and Sheila can go rest easy while I take care of what needs to be done around here. I will be making dinner here at five." Amber replied.

Natalie and Sheila looked at each other completely stunned of the three sixty that happened with Amber. This is so unusual for anyone. Natalie watched Amber walk out that door as she decided to chase after her and see what happened but as she did, she saw Amber looking directly at her with what wasn't going to end on a good note by the stare down Amber had at Natalie. Natalie decided this was not the time or place to be standing in front of Amber but she needed to see where they stood, it's been two weeks and the friendship or relationships or whatever it is hasn't moved.

Chapter 13

No one knew the consequences that I took to survive from Sarah's ghost haunting me day in and day out. It took a lot out of my mental mind that she could take a chance and hurt me as a ghost though she never did for the time she stuck around in our bedroom. I had no idea how much time had passed but when I heard a voice from my bedroom door I swore it was Sarah though the person confirmed it's Natalie. I know I have PTSD, Anxiety, Stress, Depression, and other forms of health problems that I can't pinpoint one I do know exists but I refuse to see a doctor again to have them diagnose me with more problems. I have been lucky to survive from Sarah's abuse even when she was weak and dying, she still had a way of letting me know I was worthless and not worthy to be with her. I loved her and still do that is why I never gave up on her. Sheila has tried to get me away from this home for years, to move some place new and fun, live life to the fullest but I wouldn't leave Sarah's ghost floating around this place because of someone else. Being locked in my room for too long I did finally leave it to find myself face to face with Natalie, the woman I adore came back but when I heard her say she would always be here for me. I don't remember much of anything since being in my room. I couldn't filter my anger for long that I ended up lashing out at Natalie and taking it out on her because I keep denying what Sarah had done to me but my best friend has no filter herself and fills my head with more words of what I already know.

After hearing them out I decided to go back into my room and make myself feel good with a nice clean shower, nice clean outfit and go out to be with my horses. I had no idea what else to do with myself or why else Natalie would still stick around knowing that my wife treated me so badly but I do like Natalie more than I thought I would have someone whose so patient with me as I have a breakdown over Sarah. Once, I got downstairs to reveal myself they both were stunned at how I went from being depressed to now looking like a decent human without being cooped up in my bedroom. Natalie looked so gorgeous in her flannel shirt, tight jeans and boots that I gave her if anything can get me over Sarah is Natalie's beauty and gorgeous looks that impressed me.

"Amber, are you okay?" Natalie asked.

"Darlin' I am perfectly fine, you and Sheila can go rest easy while I take care of what needs to be done around here. I will be making dinner here at five." I replied.

That made them both stunned, neither of them prepared for such a response but as I made my way to the horses I heard Natalie come up behind me as I turned around and glared at her, it wasn't that I didn't want her company but I needed space to think some more and enjoy my horses. I knew Natalie cared when she didn't dare step back inside and go rest like I told her but I could see she needed to speak about something even though I had a feeling that it wasn't something we weren't ready for.

"Amber, what is going on with you? You look at me like we're in love one minute than you faze out over Sarah. If you need to see a doctor let me take you, I will be beside your side for anything that is going on." Natalie said.

"Darlin' I see ghosts, I have PTSD, Anxiety, Stress, and Depression those I am diagnosed with at least the medical stuff not the ghosts part. As for anything else I can't speak of. I do care for you and admire you from afar but Sarah is still around in this home. I won't leave her for someone else to deal with." I replied, feeling my anxiety rise from telling her.

"We can take all of this with us to a new place, minus the house of course but it wouldn't be hard to get a contractor to make a new one in a new location for you to recover. I am sure your parents would have appreciated it and your siblings would understand, yes, I saw pictures of your family. We can do this if you can trust me." Natalie responded.

"No, I can't do that, not with her ghost still here. Now this discussion is over. As for us, we still have yet to discover that since you have other issues going on. You are beautiful inside and out but I am not ready to risk everything we have got so far." I replied, as I began to walk away.

"Wait! Amber, don't push me away. Listen to me, please." Natalie responded.

I didn't dare listen anymore that someone thinks it is simple to move away and begin anew on some property. This is my home, my life, my siblings would hate me if I left this world behind. We don't talk and our parents are gone but I can't do that no matter if they understand or not. I couldn't turn around to face Natalie though I could hear her footsteps behind me, all I wanted was to be alone though that seemed impossible when a city woman that attracts your interest insists on following you.

"Natalie, please go back inside." I said as I kept walking.

"Natalie is back inside." Sarah replied.

I turned around to see Sarah but she wasn't actually there, it was weird to me. I turned back to walking without daring to look back and with finally reaching the stalls, I felt relieved that no one followed me any further. Once I got inside though I saw a figure standing near Nelle that I nearly couldn't believe who it was and I wanted to go back inside my own home so badly.

Chapter 14

Surprisingly, as I stepped closer to Nelle it turned out to be my imagination on overdrive since their was no one standing beside her, so I went ahead cleaned her stall, cleaned her hooves, and gave her a nice clean bath as I did Data, Honey, and Lulu the same to make sure they were all ready for their runs around the yard. Hay bales were usually spread around the yard for them when I would make sure they eat so that way I could clean the stalls. It made everything so much easier on sunny days. It began getting dark as I made my way back inside though I stopped seeing the sights of Sarah so it helped me smile and relax at least her voice is also silent. I looked around at my home once reaching the porch as I saw Natalie finally able to bring her car up the driveway after weeks of it not running. I went inside finally to make steak, potatoes, corn and bread with a big batch of salad. Serving for two to three wasn't as bad as serving for six though their is usually friends who come unannounced and I am lucky to make extra.

"I am glad to see you back in the kitchen and in the barn again with your horses." Natalie said as she sat at the table.

"Sweetheart, I may have down days but that doesn't mean I forget my animals or my love for cooking. I am glad Sarah has finally left though it has brought peace back." I replied by peeling potatoes.

"Have you ever been diagnosed with Schizophrenia?" Natalie asked.

"No, and why would I be diagnosed with a word I can't pronounce?" I replied by grabbing a bowl to mash the potatoes while stirring the gravy.

"I am assuming that you may have it according to my research but I would rather have a doctor check to be sure. Could explain why you have problems with day to day things and you go through numbness of not remembering because your thoughts are consumed with someone not here. Like I said I am not a doctor but I would highly recommend going back." Natalie responded by clenching her hands tightly together.

I wanted to storm out of that kitchen so badly because I didn't want to hear that I have another diagnosis that is causing problems with my day to day life. That is when I felt Natalie put her arms around my waist even though I am a big woman, she gave me a tight hug and then began helping me with the rest of dinner.

"Thank you." I said to her,

"For?" Natalie replied looking at me.

"Giving me a hug and not giving up on me because I am not here mentally." I responded.

"I may come from a bad marriage but doesn't mean I can't love you any less. I want us to try and compromise more. We didn't meet at random for nothing. I want you to be able to talk to me and let me get you help for anything that bothers you. I may be a city woman but I do know when someone needs to go beyond themselves for help. Amber, I came back because I couldn't stand being away from you and I had major problems with my family accepting of you though they were capable of accepting my divorce from Aaron. It is weird how all this panned out." Natalie went on and on describing everything that went down but I loved hearing her voice.

We finished up dinner together then our conversation went on calmly like nothing happened between myself and Sarah. Natalie made so many faces during our talk that I never felt closer to be around her even Sarah wasn't that bright and full of laughter that would make everything go smooth. We both cleaned off dinner together and then went to the upstairs bedroom, both showered together which made an interesting fun time especially making out and exploring one another but we didn't make love. It seemed too close to comfort for any of us. After the shower, we cuddled naked in the bed and still enjoyed talking plus sharing more kisses.

"Natalie, we barely know each other but I feel like we are moving in the right direction especially since you came back. I have to know though why do you love me knowing I am bat shit crazy?" I asked knowing that would lead to a big explanation from her.

"I don't care that you are bat shit crazy and your ex haunts you, hell, mine probably would too. You accepted me when my husband doesn't, he is the reason I went on diets and to the gym. My business that I owned in New York failed because my marriage was a big failure when he would abuse me every chance he got. You didn't care that I put on weight or that I had a man in my life. You love me for who I am not what I am." Natalie replied.

I kissed her knuckles with my lips and then kissed her softly once more.

"I have never imagined being in love again but you light my whole world, no matter how much I struggle. I do love you and I am still scared of what could happen between us." I responded by biting my lip.

"We will cross that road when we get there as of right now, if you love me, you will let me take you to the doctor to get a proper diagnosis on what is going on with you." Natalie replied with a bit of force.

That is when I knew the conversation had to end. I will not let her get this over me by seeing another doctor to keep diagnosing me with problems that I don't need to face at this moment. I looked away from her and stared outside my window seeing Nelle looking back at me. I decided to climb out of bed, walking away from Natalie leaving her on the bed as I went downstairs without a care of being naked in front of Sheila if she came down from the upstairs herself in her own room. I didn't dare take a chance of being told to go to a doctor over something that I can control on my own.

Chapter 15

After getting some milk and looking out the kitchen window, I saw Natalie behind me naked herself without a care to put clothes on either. I couldn't face her even if I encouraged myself too. She keeps deeming me to be someone who willingly goes to the doctor for every little thing and I am directly one to refuse. Whether I have schizophrenia or not, I don't want to see a doctor again. Nelle came to the front of the house and stared at me through the porch. Being on a mountain has its advantages for her to come look for me and even my bedroom had a hill for me to see her or the other horses.

"Babe, I am sorry for pressuring you. I am worried that you will relapse and avoid me. We will take this at your pace and if you don't want doctors, I understand." Natalie said.

I turned around to face her trying to hold my anger but how can I be mad at her? She loves me for all my faults. I never understood someone who could love me with little about one another besides our own faults. That is all we know about one another. I walked over to her and held her tightly in my arms as she wrapped her arms around my waist. There has never been a woman like her in my life and I don't know what else could make us stay together. At that moment, I took in a deep aroma of her body against mine as I felt myself trying to hold together by her, our breasts touching, our legs nearly together, it felt like we were tangled but not quite. I wanted Natalie, needed her, and to be surrounded by her touch. I couldn't bring myself to do this though, we still have leaps and bounds to accomplish.

"We better put on clothes before we both do something that we might regret." I whispered to her.

"I would never regret whatever happens to us. I am afraid of letting you go even if it's to put clothes on." Natalie whispered.

I felt a tear from her fall onto my breast as I made her look at me, those beautiful green eyes making my heart sing. I grabbed her by the hand then guided her upstairs into my bedroom as I locked the door behind us before I could speak Natalie had her lips on mine and her hands on my breasts as my hands stayed on her hips as we both landed on the door, I pushed her hands over her head as I kissed her neck then guided my way down to her breasts as I licked and nibbled both between her beautiful B cups as I pinched her nipples with my fingers and listening to her moans. I couldn't handle this thirst as I made my way further finding her beautiful sweet pussy a little red strip of hair, I opened her legs wide as she held onto the door and she let out a gasp as I placed my tongue inside of her, devouring her sweet pussy that filling my mouth with juices. Natalie tugged on my hair and she would scream my name into the air as she quivered multiple times. I licked her cleaned then placed her down gently then carried her to the bed and laid together with our legs connected.

"I have never experienced such hunger from someone. That was amazing and my turn will be next but I am in no hurry but you are so good." Natalie whispered.

"You are beautiful to me, Sarah would never let me take lead like that but you let me and you tasted wonderful. Natalie, I know we have a lot to cover but we don't have to always make love to one another to prove our love. You came here to get your car repaired and now it has become a love story. I don't regret it but..." I said, feeling my tears threatening.

"But you can't get over Sarah because of what she did to you?" Natalie replied, finishing my sentence.

"I truly can't and it is only because she's my wife. I have her last name." I responded by covering my face in the sheets.

"You are a widow, Amber. Technically she has no hold over you since she is dead and isn't coming back." Natalie replied without holding back.

I looked at Natalie with her staring right back at me awaiting my answer though I didn't have one because as usual she stands corrected on my whole wife aspect. Yes, she is dead but she still haunts me and that is a big issue or at least I assume she is haunting me. I sat up on the bed, crawled to the edge and then got off of it as I grabbed Natalie's hand as we made our way into the showers once more but this time, she had no problem making me cum as she had me pushed against the wall and fingering me with pleasure. It took all I could not to scream myself but she begged me to scream and let loose when I did, Natalie smiled and we began cleaning off. No matter how much I adore this woman, making love is amazing with her and I would do it again until we both couldn't stop touching one another. Natalie adored my body as big as I am, she devoured every inch to make me feel amazing. As we finished our shower together, got into clothes and cuddled close, we finally fell asleep in each other's arms. I didn't care that it was late or hearing thoughts of Sarah nagging me for being with another though that was in her will at the time for me to find love, an actual true love. My dreams unfortunately didn't lend me a hand that night and what I endured that next morning hadn't prepared me either for what came into my home. Natalie had no better reaction as we both stood there holding hands tightly.

Chapter 16

Natalie couldn't believe her husband stood in the doorway that morning looking pissed as hell. This isn't what she expected when she came to Texas and now this asshole has followed her, waltzing into her new love life.

"Natalie, I can't divorce you and I won't. We got married until death do us part. You need to come back to New York." Aaron begged standing in the doorway.

Natalie had no idea what she was getting into now that her husband had made an ass of himself to come and beg her back when he already had a side piece while abusing her. He didn't know how to love her, always stuck on himself and not a care in the world if she even tried.

"No! Not worth dealing with abuse and you are always being selfish plus you cheated on me with someone else." Natalie pointed out.

"Please, we can work this out. I will take you out, shop with you, go anywhere you like. Natalie, sweetheart, come back." Aaron begged.

"I said NO! Now leave and never come looking for me again." Natalie demanded giving Aaron a furious look.

Before he could turn around to leave, Sheila came bounding down the stairs, and then came up to Aaron knocking his ass to the ground with an uppercut to the jaw.

"Well, you said no and he wouldn't leave." Sheila said.

We both laughed and as all three ladies dragged him out the front door another person Natalie didn't expect to see is her mother giving Natalie a pissed off look like all hell broke loose along the way. Katie came at Natalie without stopping.

"What the fuck is wrong with you? You knocked out your husband and now you live with two sluts. This is disgusting. Natalie, pack your bags and come on, we are leaving. Don't bother saying goodbye to your little friends. It is time for us to be in New York and raise you properly again." Katie demanded waving her hand around to express her hate.

"Sheila knocked out Aaron for refusing my answer. Amber is my girlfriend so I am not leaving under your demand and neither of these ladies are sluts. So, go back to New York and go be with dad. I am old enough to make my own choices, I am not going back to live in hell, and I am happy where I am." Natalie replied, grabbing Amber by the hand.

Natalie didn't make it to the porch before her mother Katie grabbed her by the hair and tugged dragging her to the rental car that she assumed borrowed to get out here.

"Amber or Sheila, please help!" Natalie yelled into the air.

"You come after my daughter. I will call the law and tell them you kidnapped her." Katie said as Natalie kept being dragged.

"She is a grown woman, let her go Mrs. Holden, and let her be with whom she chooses. That isn't Aaron." Amber replied feeling her heart break watching Natalie struggle.

Natalie kicked her mom in the knee and then kicked her gut as she ran back to Amber's arms in a hurry then Sheila went over and punched Katie right in the nose. Amber, Natalie, and Sheila all three went inside to call the police as they looked over the scene, they placed Katie and Aaron in the back of two different cop cars as the three of them wrote statements of what went down. Natalie unfortunately knew her dad wouldn't be happy to hear this about her mother but she didn't know what else to do. Natalie felt at a loss on how to handle everything, Amber unstable, her mother and soon to be ex-husband ruining her love life, Sheila homeless, and people hating the fact that she is with a woman. It took all Natalie could not to find alcohol to drink her life away but as always she held it together. Natalie grabbed her cell phone to get a hold of her father and break it to him, when she finally got a hold of him, he didn't seem to care one way or another and that he is proud she stood up to her mother for bullying them three. He hung up on her before she could finish. It seemed to not matter what had gone down that her father would find someone else and be happy again.

"Looks like my father could care less, he seemed content that my mother got in trouble with the law and that we protect ourselves from her bullying." Natalie said to no one in particular.

"I hope your father has brains to divorce that wacky woman. I can't believe she tried to take you from here all because she assumes you are better with that asshole of a guy." Sheila replied.

Natalie looked at Amber, hopeful for some kind of response but nothing came from her. It concerned Natalie since Amber is known to have no filter. Sheila looked at Amber with the same concern like something wasn't right. Natalie couldn't take the silence anymore as she bit her lip.

"Babe, what is running through your mind?" Natalie asked.

Natalie didn't get a word out of Amber that stubborn country side came out at this point that Sheila grabbed Natalie by the arm and they both went outside to be on the porch. They both sat away from each other in case Amber came out behind them.

"I don't like her silence. What could make her stay quiet?" Natalie asked Sheila.

"Your mother wanting to take you back to the city with that dick wad is my guess." Sheila replied bluntly.

"I am still here and you beat the hell out of both of them." Natalie responded.

"Amber didn't get to protect you though and it might have hurt her a bit since I am the one who is always willing to bust some ass at a drop of a hat." Sheila replied.

"Oh." Natalie responded unsure of what else to say.

Natalie had never experienced this closeness with someone and being with Amber brought on more than just her mental stability but also the ability to protect her from anything and everything. They have such a unique relationship it is hard to adjust.

Chapter 17

Natalie and Sheila hung out on the porch until it became too dark to be out there anymore. Both went inside to find Amber on the couch consuming her favorite chocolate mint ice cream with a big spoon and holding the tub. It had surprised both Natalie and Sheila that Amber didn't come out to the porch with them. Natalie watched Amber place the ice cream tub down then looked at them both. Natalie's alarms went off on what could be next?

"You two honestly don't have to be here all the time. Natalie, I am sure you have work to catch up on from New York. Sheila, you need to get to work and get out of my house." Amber said bluntly.

Sheila laughed, shaking her head. Natalie worried what she could do so far out in the middle of nowhere to do whatever her boss required in New York. Natalie couldn't understand what was going on at all? Sheila acted like this isn't the first time Amber has overreacted to her best friend living in her home. Natalie watched Amber pick up her ice cream and focused on her show. Natalie took the chance walking over to Amber then stood in front of the television with her arms crossing over her breasts not that she had much to boost them up.

"Honey, can you please move?" Amber asked, shooing Natalie away.

"One minute you call me Natalie, next I am whatever nickname you come up with, and you expect me to call my ex-boss and demand work that I don't have. Amber, it takes two to make this work. You may have had a free life with Sarah but with me, we are both going job hunting and so is Sheila. Now go put that ice cream up and let's go job hunting." Natalie replied, smirking.

"My job is here on the farm that my family left me, I don't need anything else and I still have enough money to live on for the rest of my life from my parents' deaths. Now, I would never ask you to stay here and be bored but you can go look for work all you want." Amber responded looking at Natalie with a smirk in return.

Natalie sat down beside Amber as she laid her head down on Amber's shoulder then sighing as they heard Sheila come running down the stairs with squealing in her voice.

"Natalie, whatever you do, don't kill me." Sheila said with more excitement behind her voice.

Natalie sat up and turned herself around to look at Sheila.

"Sheila, whatever it is you did, I couldn't kill you but what is going on?" Natalie asked with a raised eyebrow.

Sheila looked panicked as she realized that both of them were looking at her. Natalie knew in her gut this is going to be bad and it isn't going to be pretty with whatever happened.

"Um, nevermind, I will pack my bags and go. Thank you for letting me stay, Amber. I will catch up with you both another time." Sheila replied as she bounded back up the stairs.

Natalie didn't like this one bit that is when her cell phone went off in her pocket. It is the last message she never expected from someone back in New York.

"SHEILA!! WHY IS DANA COMING HERE?!" Natalie yelled.

Natalie got off the couch, running up the stairs to catch Sheila fixing to leave her room with a shy redness across her cheeks. Natalie didn't like Dana after their last interaction. This isn't what her love life would become with her new friend doing something she might regret.

"Sheila, I am going to say this to protect you but she is straight and has kids. I am begging you, please, do not get into her. You will find someone just not her." Natalie pleaded.

"She is right. We are going to protect you. Dana is homophobic, Sheila and it isn't worth heartache." Amber replied, holding Natalie's hand.

"Who the hell is going to want me? I have been single since Jolene cheated on me with a guy and I am damn sure not wanting to listen to you two love birds going at it every chance you get. I need someone, anyone, anyone but Jolene." Sheila pleaded with tears streaming down her face.

Natalie took Sheila in the bedroom with Amber behind her as they all took a deep breath and Natalie finally spoke once more.

"You will find someone but get a job first so you can impress them women. You have a home here at any time. The only way you are going to find someone is going out there."

Natalie looked at Amber for some more encouragement though it seemed Amber has never left her home to find someone her own self, this has become a task in its own self to find Sheila her own happiness without being with her ex friend Dana. As if timing had to be predictable the doorbell rang, startling them from the conversation, and the way Sheila looked seemed to tell us more than what she did tell us. Natalie wasn't wanting to go downstairs, at this point what more could go wrong here in Texas from the family appearing.

Natalie got up from Sheila's bed then ran downstairs to answer that damn door since the bell kept going off. It annoyed her when people did that shit as she threw open the door, Dana stood their smiling with divorce papers in her hand and no kids in tow that means she left her husband for Sheila within a week or so. Natalie wanted to be so sick that Dana got divorced before she could and she has been trying for months to get out of it with Aaron to be with Amber, this whole mess has been more than she can handle. Natalie felt Amber come up behind her and Sheila bolted into Dana's arms while kissing her with passion. Natalie wanted to gag. Natalie and Amber went back inside slamming the door on them knowing that this will lead to more than what either of them looked forward too in the coming months and now she has to deal with Dana's homophobic hatred in front of her face while trying to convince Sheila that she isn't worth this.

Chapter 18

Natalie felt really uncomfortable having Dana in the same home as her though by that following morning Sheila and Dana were nowhere to be found on the property and that made Amber go into panic mode knowing her best friend is about to be ditched so she can go back to married life with her husband and kids, not that it is a bad thing but Dana is straight as an arrow, she isn't into women, never has been an that is why Amber is worried that this all might break Sheila.

Several months went by before Sheila appeared again this time with a look of disappointment.

"She really left me..Dana went back to her asshole husband. I am so heartbroken. We didn't even make it down the aisle like we had planned." Sheila said sadly on the porch.

"Down the aisle? Sheila, are you fucking nuts? Dana would have never married you. For one, she is straight and two, that woman needs to know where her life stands." Amber replied furiously.

"Compared to Jolene at least she cared and wanted me. I would rather be with a straight woman than another nut case like Jolene. Amber, you and Natalie turned against me as soon as I got with Dana and now that she is gone, I have no one once again, and I actually liked Dana maybe even loved her but I will never know." Sheila responded with doubt in her voice.

"I will give you that she is better than Jolene though I barely know her and as for loving her that maybe a possibility within several months though I can't say much since I fell for Natalie. Wait, our situation is the same, how the fuck? Two straight married women from New York walk into our lives." Amber replied though she didn't realize everything the way it went.

Natalie decided to leave the conversation since it dawned on Amber what truly has happened with everyone and it made her realize the same that she did as well for a lesbian woman though she was in the middle of divorce an Dana might have as well when she met Sheila in New York. Natalie went to the couch and turned the television to tune out Amber and Sheila arguing over their lives on what is supposed to be happening. Once they were done arguing Amber stood in front of the television with a serious look, that isn't good when Amber isn't happy.

"Natalie, how far were you into your divorce before ending up here to meet that someone?" Amber asked.

"Six months, I am still fighting with Aaron to get that divorce finalized though they may now since he is in jail and won't be released." Natalie replied.

"Six months? Wow, that is harsh. Wait, Sheila, how long did it take Dana?" Amber asked.

"Two weeks from the time we met her." Sheila replied not liking where this is going.

"Within those few months, it didn't dawn on you that Dana would go back with her ex husband that has her children also? Sheila, her divorce to him was to make him jealous of being with you. You will learn one of these days not to fall for someone like her." Amber stated without biting her tongue.

"Amber, shut the fuck up! I know, I fucked up but did it ever clue you in that Natalie could have done the same to you. Either of these situations are better or worse, the only outcome is that Natalie is still here and I have to listen to your mental case go downward again." Sheila replied with anger in her voice.

"Ladies, ladies, calm down." Natalie said.

Natalie watched as Sheila went one way and Amber went outside. Natalie couldn't believe the argument that boiled over them both. It didn't take long for either of them to scream on other ends of the house either with frustration. Natalie stood there unsure of who to console first if at all. Natalie barely sat down when Sheila came barreling down the stairs with suitcases and backpacks.

"Don't say a word. I am leaving, and I am not coming back until I am with someone who makes me happy if it means Dana coming into my life then so be it. You fell in love with a woman you barely know and that is how it started with me and Dana. I have no idea where I will end up but for now, I want to be left alone and away from you two." Sheila said, grabbing her things.

Natalie saw Amber come through the door to see Sheila struggling with her luggage. Natalie knew that this would be another standoff. Amber didn't say a word and left the door wide open for Sheila without bothering to say anything. All of Natalie's insides were screaming at her to speak but she also knew this was their fight though what came out of her mouth should have stopped everything.

"Wait! Please, wait! Sheila, I have one question: why did Dana go back to her husband and children?"

It was the last thing Sheila said that hurt her more than anything.

"Because she wanted to be with someone other than the homophobic world that she lived in with him and she saw more of you then anyone to know you were into women and not men. You knew how to hide it well."

Natalie dropped to the ground with tears flowing down her face that Dana actually had a heart for someone like her and her lifestyle. It didn't make a difference what her husband said, she came to watch me fall in love and be with someone who treats her the same.

"She wasn't in love with her husband...out of all that she didn't love him but she loves her kids." Natalie said out loud.

"Natalie isn't such a dumb city woman after all, Amber. Look at that." Sheila said to Amber with a smile.

All three of them laughed with everything that went down those whole four months. Natalie felt relieved that Dana might come back for Sheila though it may take her to say something to Dana and bring her back.

Chapter 19

I wasn't actually mad at Sheila for calling Natalie a dumb city woman but it seemed more sensitive to the fact that both her and Dana wouldn't admit to liking women long before now. Bringing Dana back in the picture isn't what I had in mind when Natalie called her from the house phone though it seemed Sheila over reacted that Dana had to get her kids and was making her way back once everything in custody worked out. It took everything I could to calm Sheila from her excitement that Dana would return and that they would be moving into their own place a few doors down from them.

"I didn't know that their was a house for sale two doors down from here." I said looking at Natalie.

"Turns out the people that lived there before moved out two years ago and they hadn't had anybody buy the house since then. Dana decided to buy it for her, Sheila and the kids." Natalie explained.

"Are we going to be babysitting? I am not fit for kids." I responded.

"Dana will probably find a daycare for them but if they get married you will have no choice but to get used to Tyler and Lily." Natalie replied.

"Tyler and Lily? Interesting names." I responded pondering the idea of kids running around her barn.

"Babe, it'll be fine. These two are proper anyways due to their asshole father. All he cared about was posture, standing still and a bunch of other childish things. These kids aren't normal kids by any means and that is the way their dad wanted it." Natalie explained.

"Darlin' you don't understand no matter how prim and proper they are. They will hate this life in the country. It is all about hard work and labor. Dana is a very city woman like you and neither of you have a clue how this life is." I responded by biting my lip.

"I have been with you for almost a year to know if this is going to be a problem with us then why are we even trying? We are always bickering about something or anything that makes you unhappy. I am questioning whether staying here is a good thing." Natalie replied as she turned red with anger.

I knew better than to speak when she is madder than a wet hornet and that is putting it gently. I bowed my head down as I knew this time I did cross the line on judgement. Anyone can be in the country and live the country life, it is my thought that no one can be trained to my lifestyle though Natalie has taken it in stride and has gained life here. The only thing I knew I could do is apologize to Natalie because she will always stand correct in my life and the way I should treat people including kids.

"I am truly sorry, love. My judgement needs to be washed out the door. You are correct. I am foolish to not see that Dana and her kids couldn't handle this life in the country and it is my stupidity that is blinded." I said with my head down in shame.

I watched as Natalie stormed out of the house as Sheila looked at her in question. It took all I could not to tell Sheila about what went down but as best friends we never hid anything no matter how bad it was for either of us.

"I made a big mistake on judging Dana and the kids coming here assuming they couldn't live here in the country when Natalie has proved that their is no difference in the matter who can and can't." I said looking at Sheila with hope.

"Seriously? Amber, I swear you can't keep your mouth shut long enough for anyone to enjoy a happy moment including Natalie accepting that Dana can be with me. You literally have no filter when it comes to opinions and it shows." Sheila replied with anger in her voice.

I felt really small at this point knowing that I have majorly screwed up before I could say anything else. Sheila went outside with Natalie and they both avoided me as much as possible. It became a hard task to talk to either of them. Natalie ended up sleeping in the living room instead of the bedroom and Sheila hid in her bedroom. After a few hours alone in bed, I heard moving from downstairs then someone coming up the stairs, and to the bedroom opening a little. I didn't dare move, to my amazement it was Natalie who stepped in the bedroom and closed the door quietly. I felt Natalie cuddle into bed next to me as she breathed a sigh of relief as I held her hand and kept her close to me. I lifted her knuckles and kissed it as she sighed again. I knew at that point that I had to roll over and look at her.

"Natalie." I whispered.

"Mmmm..." She replied.

"I am sorry." I whispered again.

"Mmmhmmm." Natalie replied again.

I chuckled then kissed her forehead letting her enjoy sleep while I didn't dare to bother her anymore with hopes that by morning, Sheila would forgive me too.

Chapter 20

That next morning, I woke up extremely early to make breakfast for both ladies and made sure to have juice, coffee, sweet tea, and water ready at the table along with toast, creamer, sugar, and grape jelly. I couldn't contain my excitement on making Natalie and Sheila feel happy for once without being judgemental on my case. As soon as I saw Sheila though that certain look where she is disappointed made me feel the same. Sheila also had her luggage ready by the door.

"Dana, will be here in a couple of hours and we are going to the new house. I don't expect you to show up and put on a fake smile." Sheila said flatly.

"I am actually in a good mood. I want to apologize for my outburst yesterday over Dana. You are my best friend and deserve anyone you choose to be with whether it meets my approval or not." I replied, biting the inside of my cheek.

"You have outbursts all the time, anymore, that is no excuse for being judgemental when your own woman was the same way. You are a bitch and you know it too." Sheila responded.

I decided at this point that their is no more between me and her. I grabbed my breakfast then went outside to avoid anymore confrontation with Sheila when Natalie is still sleeping though it seemed Sheila wasn't done when she came outside with her own plate of food.

"I will miss being here though for almost a year, it has been interesting to know Natalie and see her as a good friend." Sheila said in her saddest voice.

"You are going around the corner, nothing to worry about and you all will be here a good chunk of the time, I am sure." I replied smiling knowing my best friend isn't going anywhere far.

"Actually, we didn't get that house, we are going to San Antonio to be closer to one of her other friends that aren't close minded about us." Sheila responded, wiping tears away.

They both ate in silence after that. The bickering came to an end when knowing her best friend is living across the state and they would rarely see each other. Once they were finished, they went inside to enjoy the air conditioning and Natalie ate her breakfast in silence not looking at either of them. By mid-afternoon Dana and the kids arrived as both kids complained that it was too hot. I got up and gave them both drinks as Sheila and Dana ran off upstairs which led Natalie and I to take the kids outside to see the horses.

Watching Natalie naturally handle Tyler and Lily looked adorable making her consider adoption to kids of her own, help her with farm, and have fun as a family. I saw Natalie run towards me with the kids beaming with a smile.

"I know that look, darlin'. You are considering kids." Natalie said.

"It is a thought, my parents would have wanted someone to carry on the farm if anything happened to me or you." I replied smiling.

"If that is the case Tyler and Lily could get used to having chores and living this life." Dana said smiling from ear to ear with Sheila holding her hand.

"MOM!" Both Tyler and Lily said turning red in the cheeks.

"Let's go you two, time to get back on the road with Sheila this time, we got a long ride." Dana said in her motherly voice.

"I will call when we reach San Antonio. Love you both and thank you!" Sheila shouted.

We stood there watching them get into the rental car that they borrowed and off down the road they went. I looked at Natalie who looked like she was going to break herself. We watched the road with hopes this time Sheila would come back but it didn't happen as the sun started to go down, the day went by so fast and now it felt so quiet.

Natalie grabbed my hand as she had her car keys in her hand then ran to her car together. It seemed Natalie had a back up plan but something told me that we weren't leaving home for ourselves.

"Where are we going?" As we both got inside the car and closed the doors.

"We are headed somewhere special." Natalie replied, starting her car.

I had no idea what was in store since it is dark outside and who knows what Natalie has planned. Almost a year together seems hard to believe, it feels like just yesterday that Natalie had her car broken down and they met with lust. Love at first sight happened to me a lot especially after Sarah thought that she was gone, Natalie has given her so much to be grateful for. Natalie and I held hands on the way to wherever we were going. I am not one to be away from my horses either so this really had me worrying as to what Natalie is thinking of doing.

"Will we be back to take care of the horses?" I asked nervously.

"Of course, I wouldn't want to leave your horses and the house alone for too long but we need fresh air for sure. Take a small break from day to day chores." Natalie replied as she gripped the steering wheel.

I sat there and wondered where the roads would take us since I have never ventured out of my home growing up. It was going to school and coming straight home to do chores. The only reason I could be with Sarah is the fact we went to school together and our parents were best friends. Now that I am with Natalie, I feel safe and secure though our worlds are miles apart at times. A woman like Natalie is something special that no one rarely sees and it hits my heart that her husband betrayed her and hurt her mentally and possibly physically too though Sarah did the same long before she died. I am learning to love again and mentally accept Natalie as my own.

Chapter 21

We had finally reached our destination in the middle of the night, a desert like area but you can see the stars and much more of the horizon. I couldn't believe how Natalie had found this place with driving to wherever they may be. I climbed out of the car the same time Natalie did as we met in front of the car then leaned against the hood.

"This is my dream when being out here. I love where home is too that we can see the stars but this is amazing for the middle of nowhere for miles on end." Natalie whispered.

I turned Natalie around to face me as I softly grabbed her face in my hands and kissed her beneath the stars with a deep passion that I had to release before my hormones took over.

"Thank you." I whispered to her then kissed her forehead.

I held Natalie close on the hood of her car as we drifted off to sleep without a care in the world that we were out in the middle of nowhere and being able to relax and hold onto one another. I felt like my surroundings finally calmed down until Natalie woke me up.

"I think this calls for a shower and sleep back at home. Is that alright with you, hoss?" Natalie said in her country voice.

"Let's head home, darlin'." I said with a chuckle.

It took us several hours to get home, when we did make it home, we were both too tired and dragged our asses upstairs to sleep for more than normal. That following afternoon, we didn't bother doing anything and decided to go do more fun in the daylight hours. This time we headed to the park and throw around a frisbee then off to the swings while holding hands, it felt good to be surrounded by her love though everything is so far out and I am highly considering moving closer to more fun stuff, it is a start to where I am not seeing Sarah's ghost frequently and I haven't had to worry about Sheila since she has Dana.

"Sweetheart, have you ever thought about remarrying since Sarah is dead?" Natalie asked.

"No, I see no point in remarrying since we never know where life leads us. Sarah died from breast cancer, I can't imagine marrying again." Amber replied seeing Natalie's somber face.

"Oh okay, I was only wondering." Natalie responded.

I couldn't help feeling bad for what I said but how can I remarry someone like Sarah without knowing if destiny could take me at any moment too. I knew that we have been together a year but it isn't my thought process to accept such a beauty of a woman into my life again like Natalie. My doubts and fears always win when it comes to expressing myself with how I feel, Sheila would have told me otherwise on how ridiculous I was about being denied marriage so quick especially with Natalie though she would be correct I am not wanting to hear it and will run away with my horse.

"Can you at least consider it some day? I can't imagine myself with anyone else." Natalie pleaded.

We walked hand in hand around the park as Natalie contemplated on bringing this up anymore. I am not wanting to talk about it but the least I could do is respect Natalie's thoughts on marriage.

"Darlin', I will consider it for the future." I replied.

Unfortunately, Natalie didn't beam up to my response. I felt myself falling into her depression as she seemed to not care. We didn't bond anymore once we arrived back at the house, she locked herself in the second bedroom and didn't come out at all unless I was in our room. It felt like our worlds were too far apart at this point since I didn't want marriage like she did. For the first time in a year, I put my wedding ring back on from Sarah and wished for her return to this world so I didn't feel so alone. Looking at my wedding ring, I know I shouldn't wish for her back when she hurt me so badly. I heard Natalie open the bedroom door to take a peek.

"Amber? Are you awake?" Natalie asked.

"Yes, but not because I want to be." I answered with annoyance in my voice.

I watched as Natalie walked into the room a bit more as she stood in the doorway. I could tell Natalie didn't want to be near me or anything at this point since she brought up the whole marriage thing.

"Can we please talk? I know you are mad about the....wait are you wearing? Amber, no! Damn it! Son of a bitch. Fuck it, I am going to grab a hotel for a while." Natalie said as she slammed the bedroom door.

Once again, I heard Natalie rushing to the other room then it must've dawned her that everything was in our room as she flung the door open, grabbed her luggage from the closet and then packed her clothing and anything else she needed.

"Natalie, I don't know why you are mad? It is just a ring." I said with a lump in my throat.

"Than sweetheart, I must be an idiot to not see that you can't get over your dead ex wife. I was hoping to marry you but you have proved that. If you have a change of heart then I might consider coming back until then I am not returning until you are ready for me to be in your life." Natalie replied, throwing her stuff everywhere into bags.

"What hotel will you be at? Or are you going to find Sheila and Dana?" I asked, still fighting the lump in my throat.

"Don't worry about it. I will be out of your hair and we will come to agreement eventually that Sarah is dead." Natalie replied in her sweet voice.

That was our last conversation and she left my room without another word, my front door slammed shaking the whole house as I heard Natalie start her car then that was it against the gravel driveway as Natalie left me.

Chapter 22

Natalie didn't know what to do with herself once she left Amber. It broke her heart that she still had to be caught between her dead ex wife and herself to meet Amber's attention. Natalie pulled the car off to an empty lot and cried her eyes out, also slamming her hands against the steering wheel, she hated everything at this point and wished she could fix it all with Amber. Natalie decided to turn the car around and head back since she wasn't far at all, punishing Amber for holding onto Sarah is a bad thing since their love is much more stronger than a ring. Sadly once she got into the driveway she saw a car that didn't belong there and Natalie's fears crept up into her throat. After delaying thoughts of going inside Natalie grabbed her purse then made her way inside, that is when she walked in on Amber to find this woman all over her.

"What the fuck is going on here?" Natalie said.

"Nothing, darlin'. Journey actually is leaving." Amber replied.

"Don't call me that. If you are going to cheat on me at least have the density to call for a break up because this is bullshit that I came here to be with you from New York and you bring some new chick into our home." Natalie responded fighting tears.

"Natalie it isn't like that at all. Journey is a good friend of mine from school. Sheila can verify that." Amber pleaded in an attempt to keep Natalie calm.

"I don't need Sheila to verify everything that goes on with these friends of yours. Is it because this woman is more beautiful than I am or something? She must have more beauty than I do for you to call her when I am only down the road crying over what you did." Natalie responded in fury of anger.

"You were friends with Dana before coming here, what makes Journey any different?" Amber responded placing her arms over her breasts in defense.

Natalie gulped before she could backfire on more words. Journey is beautiful long black wavy hair, a bit bigger than Amber, hazel eyes, and perfect pearly whites with her smile. She wore a black hoodie, blue jeans that were tight, and tennis shoes. Natalie felt like her eyes were wandering too far while Amber gave looks that could kill.

"You are right. I am sorry, I will go out to the porch until you two are done talking or whatever. Journey it is a pleasure to meet you." Natalie replied as she walked out the door.

Natalie felt her whole world change by witnessing a jealous fit over some woman being friends with Amber. Granted, they were only girlfriends but Natalie felt her world slipping as she watched Journey come out with Amber.

"Don't bother coming in. Journey is staying here with me until we figure this out. I am keeping Sarah's ring on and if you don't like it then go back to your ex or find someone new. You knew my struggles of getting over her and now you lash out because I still love her. Natalie, I love you but I don't love you accusing me of things, I didn't do or how I feel about Sarah." Amber said as she squeezed Journey's hand.

Natalie felt herself breaking. She couldn't breath and felt her world closing in as Amber literally shredded her heart in half like it was nothing. Natalie grabbed her purse then bolted to her car, she couldn't take this heartbreak that Amber had caused. All she wanted is to be loved after what her ex did and now she is paying for it by Amber staying with Journey. Natalie went through her purse finding her cell phone to get a hold of Sheila or Dana, she needed someone, anyone. After three rings someone finally answered on that end.

"Hello." Someone said through a sleepy yawn.

"Dana or Sheila?" Natalie asked.

"Sheila, do you know what time it is?" Sheila replied with another yawn.

"No, but do you know anything about some woman named Journey?" Natalie asked with tears still streaming.

"Amber's high school sweetheart, why?" Sheila asked, holding back a yawn.

"I thought that was Sarah?" Natalie asked in return.

"Journey and Amber dated all the way until Sarah got between them, is there something going on?" Sheila asked, alarmed.

"Journey is here and I blew up at Amber for having that wedding ring on after I tried to get the idea of marriage for me and Amber." Natalie responded.

Natalie waited for any response from Sheila though it seemed their wasn't going to be an answer since this left her clueless on how to handle this situation.

"Natalie, I am unfortunately unable to help you. Journey is a good woman and so are you. You both might share Amber until she knows where her heart stands." Sheila replied.

"Thank you. Looks like I am off to find my own happiness once more." Natalie responded.

Natalie heard Sheila hang up the phone as she sat their in the driveway watching Journey smile at her eyes caught something or someone in the back of the house. Natalie shook her head as she looked again and it disappeared. Natalie didn't want to leave the property, she wanted to stay here and be with Amber not leave her side. Natalie turned on her car and looked at the gas tank seeing that she had enough to go find a hotel for the night as her gut turned leaving the home she has been at for a year. Driving down the road with the window's down and her hand out the window, Natalie breathed fresh air but her lungs felt like they were closing as her memories flooded of Amber and how much they loved each other. Arriving two hours from Amber's place, she found a hotel off the highway that looked run down but she deserved to be reserved in such a place. Natalie stood outside of her car with heavy sighs knowing that being alone is that last thing that she wanted to be in this predicament.

Chapter 23

Natalie headed inside to the hotel, made her way to the front desk and made her room arrangements. It took thirty minutes to find her room then getting her bags as she settled for the night. Natalie couldn't believe that she is left alone in her world with no kids, no man or woman, now lonely as tears flowed down her eyes. Natalie slowly drifted off to sleep on the bed that is only for her as she heard pounding on her door, it startled her completely since she wasn't expecting anyone, and as she slowly went to look through the peephole she noticed it wasn't a joke that Sarah Starr is still alive and pissed off.

"Let me in, Natalie. Yes, I know your name. Now open up!" Sarah demanded.

Natalie unlocked the door then let her in as she smiled.

"So, you have been crying over Amber, isn't that sweet. Game is over toots, my wife still belongs to me and you along with Journey will be out of her life. I want Amber alone to realize that I have never left. I have faked my death to see if their were other women involved. Turns out, she has loved me all along and I am going to win her back from both of you. I got rid of you, now to get rid of Journey." Sarah said with vile in her voice.

Natalie couldn't comprehend anything that is going on. She stood their utterly speechless as she watched a woman that is supposed to be dead from cancer take over someone's life because to prove something that never existed to begin with. Natalie couldn't make sense of this at all. Natalie nervously watched Sarah move close to her and her stomach began to churn. It took all she could not to fall behind the chair in the room as she moved it out of the way.

"Don't be scared. I want to show you how good I can be since Amber misses me so much." Sarah said with a smirk.

Natalie knew fighting this would be bad for her if she didn't comply with Sarah though all she had to do was remember when she made love to Amber and it would fly by faster. Natalie lost train of thought as Sarah's lips crashed with hers and her hands tangled into Sarah's long hair. Natalie took in every ounce of Sarah taking in her body and followed her rhythm. Their bodies were intertwined with one another that Natalie had to try and gather her thoughts though once finished she fell asleep. Natalie knew going back to Amber would be a bad idea since she slept with her ex wife to make a point that they did belong together and it broke her heart more than Amber being with Journey. Natalie's tears fell hard when she woke up to the bright morning sun, she then contacts Sheila to let her know what happened to let Amber know of the game that Sarah has led everyone onto that she isn't dead and very much alive that Journey should be careful too.

Natalie gathered herself together then went to shower for a way to get rid of Sarah's smell on her. She had to scrub hard as if she needed a reminder that the woman is alive and well. As if on cue the hotel patron knocked on her door to tell her that she needs to leave for someone else to have the room or pay another day. Natalie got herself dressed then packed her overnight bag again, she left the room leaving everything of that night behind her as she saw her car parked across the lot with someone inside it. Natalie walked toward her car to see that it was Amber, Amber had been waiting for her...oh shit she thought. I got into the passenger side of the car without looking at Amber as I stuffed my bag into the backseat.

"Natalie, look at me." Amber demanded.

Natalie looked at the beautiful woman that captured her heart.

"What did Sarah do to you? I am not losing you to anyone that includes Journey and Sarah." Amber said sternly making her point.

"But...but Sarah is watching you and Journey is in love with you still as much as Sarah is too." Natalie replied, trying to fight more tears.

"Sarah is dead to me and has been for the past couple years. Journey is a desperate woman but a good friend, so I friend zoned her because I am in love with you and have been since we met. Now what did my ex do to you?" Amber demanded without missing a beat.

"She locked me in my own hotel room and had sex with me." Natalie replied as her body shook from what happened.

"That bitch!" Amber yelled into the car loudly slamming the steering wheel with her fists.

Natalie hated when Amber would outburst with fumes but she knew that keeping it a secret would ruin everything they had accomplished this far. Natalie did have to know how in the world did Amber get to her when the house is two hours away.

"Amber, how did you get here? This is a two hour trip from the house?" Natalie asked.

"Taxi driver that dropped you off came back looking for you but I told him I needed to find you. He wanted to give you this that was found in your bag from your parents, I am assuming." Amber handed the folded paper over.

Natalie unfolded the paper to read that she has been divorced for over a year now. That meant her ex-husband didn't need her to file. She felt stunned but also happy meaning she could eventually marry Amber.

"I have been divorced from my ex husband for over a year now, we didn't need another lawyer or anything. I can call my lawyer and give him the good news that it has been over before I left him. I can't believe my parents hid this from me, I should say that my mother hid it." Natalie smiled with a giddy and big smile on her face.

"Now neither of them can bother you but I am still legally married to Sarah that has put a big dent into this and that means I will have to file for divorce along with stating that she is alive and well for a woman faking her death to assume I have cheated on her. Journey showed me the internet on her phone before I knew I had to track you down. Natalie, this journey has been long and hard but I am not giving up on us. Sarah is dead to me as a wife and I want it to stay that way. You are more human than she is." Amber replied, kissing Natalie's knuckles.

Natalie understood as she kissed Amber with a moan escaping her lips. They both released the kiss as Amber put the car in gear and drove back to her home to get Sarah out.

Chapter 24

Somehow or another the driving didn't phase Amber making their way back as Natalie thought it would but once they arrived at their home it looked untouched but then you could see clothes on the lot and priceless items that shouldn't be there. Natalie didn't understand what Sarah could be doing by taking out everything that Amber has owned for years. Natalie watched as Amber stormed up to the house as Natalie followed behind her as quickly as she could.

"Sarah! Get out of my house!" Amber yelled as loud as she could.

"This is our house and I am not leaving. You want to be with that prissy woman then feel free the divorce files will be sent to you but this is my home and I will find someone more deserving than you." Sarah replied from the upstairs as her voice carried.

"My parents gave me this house, you can't do this to me." Amber responded as she found Sarah digging through more stuff.

"I can and will. You're siblings wouldn't care if I took over since this is where I belong." Sarah replied looking over her shoulder at Amber.

Natalie felt their was no need to stay and listen to them fight as she went to go take care of the horses that have become her everything since being here. She didn't understand why Sarah would do this to Amber but she knew how Sarah could manipulate people too. Natalie felt a hand go into hers as she felt Amber turn her around.

"I lost my home to her, the only home I ever knew. So, it looks like we are on the streets because I have no other place to go." Amber said with sadness in her voice.

"We can go to a shelter for now, I am sure we can get this house back. It is a home that your parents left for you. Sarah will not win this battle completely." Natalie replied squeezing Amber's hand.

"Weren't you a lawyer before coming out here?" Amber asked.

"No, but I know plenty in New York who could get me one out here." Natalie replied.

It took consideration but Amber did agree as they both got into the car and drove off to find shelter in the area besides hotels because you can only stay for so long with some budget though Amber has enough it isn't wise to live in hotels. Natalie knew at this point that they could travel to see Sheila and Dana with the kids until they could win their home back from Sarah. San Antonio took a good chunk of the drive plus finding the house but they made it by afternoon and were able to spend time with everyone before they both were able to share a bed with making themselves feel at home as best they could.

Natalie got up early as she felt Amber had already gone downstairs for the morning with a smell of brewed coffee. Making her way downstairs feeling groggy and stretching her joints. Natalie gave Amber a kiss as they met in the kitchen then grabbed a cup of coffee to get herself woken up.

"I am guessing they are still sleeping?" Natalie asked.

"Sheila is off to work and Dana is hustling the kids for babysitters so they can be off to school soon enough." Amber replied sipping her coffee.

"Did either of them have an answer on getting a lawyer? I can call those that I knew but if they know a source it would be helpful." Natalie asked again with a curious expression.

"Neither of them knew, let alone couldn't figure out how Sarah got away with that and passed the system." Amber answered as she looked out the window.

"I know this sounds wrong but we could give Sarah that place and make a new home out here to be with Sheila and Dana to know their relationship more?" Natalie suggested.

"I have considered it more in the country than where I was but I will still have to let my siblings know that she took everything with the divorce." Amber replied with sorrow in her face and a heavy sigh leaving her lips.

Natalie knew this would be hard on Amber losing everything that she has in the house due to a mutual agreement in the divorce that she didn't even know she signed after Sarah faked her death. It had turned everything around. Technically Amber had been divorced for so long that she didn't even know it and it tore Amber up when she found the records.

"Darlin' don't worry about it. Home is where the heart is and that is with you more than Sarah. I may not have my parents home but I have you." Amber said with sincerity.

"For a woman that wasn't so positive all those months ago, you sure are now and have the brightest smile in the whole world." Natalie replied with her own smile.

"Medication does wonders it seems but I am weaning off of them since she isn't dead and has divorced me without my awareness. I am not mad at the world or anyone else. Sarah may have destroyed me mentally and physically at one point but she can't anymore and I am happy wherever this goes." Amber responded, still sipping her coffee and gazing out the window.

Natalie didn't think that Amber should take herself off the medication quite yet due to everything Sarah has done and Amber could relapse. It worried Natalie more than anything that Amber could easily drop her like her ex-husband did. Natalie went to the table, sitting there with her thoughts, and taking in her coffee slowly. The silence stilled the room as neither of them spoke anymore about the situation though with the house now silenced with no kids, Dana and Sheila out doing their jobs it was left to them. Natalie couldn't bring herself to do more than to search Sheila's books and read them to pass the time as Amber did who knows what but they weren't up each other's asses.

Chapter 25

I couldn't believe Natalie left. Journey surprisingly came into the driveway it felt like High School all over again. This didn't feel right having Journey show up unannounced not that I have been near the phone lately with Sheila gone and now Natalie too. Journey Harper has always been full of life even when we dated back in High School until Sarah destroyed it to have me. It took me several years to get over the fact that Sarah had ruined my love life but she ended up being all I had left.

"Hey Amber, it is so good to see you. Where is your new woman? Everybody in town is talking about this new city woman who appeared in your life after Sarah died though I got news that you aren't going to believe. And I thought you took that ring off after she died?" Journey asked away in questions.

"Howdy Journey, you too. Natalie and I had fought over the ring because I wanted to feel Sarah close to me again. And what type of news?" I asked unsure where this is going to go.

"Sarah is alive. She has a small house back behind your house to watch you. She has an eye on Natalie waiting for her to actually leave you." Journey replied, waiting with baited breath for Amber's answer.

I thought all along that Natalie was seeing things but she wasn't and now that she is gone again this could get bad. I gave Journey a tight hug and that is when the door flew open to reveal Natalie pissed off for her assumption that I would cheat on her though that is so far fetched, a hug is a hug. I watched as Natalie went to the porch, the most gorgeous city woman actually thinks I went back to my High School sweetheart.

"That redheaded woman has a fuse for a simple hug. I am guessing that is Natalie?" Journey said.

"That is my woman but I hate to push her away all over her being jealous of something that isn't happening." I replied, feeling my guts ready to burst, she is hot when jealous though.

"Tell her that I am staying here and I am letting you keep the ring on. She leaves then we can see what actually happens to her." Journey responded.

"I can't do that to her. I love her too much." I replied, biting my lip.

I felt this was the only way to see what happens though I knew the outcome that Natalie would leave so I would have to chase after her. I grabbed Journey by the hand though it felt so clammy and warm not like Natalie's. Got outside on the porch telling Natalie exactly what Journey told me and sure enough, she left the porch headed to her car as me and Journey made our way back inside. That is when I rushed to the kitchen window watching Natalie leave the driveway. My heart literally sank after I did that to her. Journey came up behind me, startling me as she whispered into my ear.

"Time to let her go. I came back for you. I am still in love with you, Sarah or Natalie can't come between us."

I pushed her off of me then spoke the words I never thought I would say to her.

"Journey, we aren't in high school anymore. We are only friends. I love Natalie and Sarah can be dead or alive, I don't want her back for not trusting me. Go back to wherever the hell you came from and stay away from me and Natalie!" I replied with frustration.

I watched Journey leave by slamming the front door. I decided to go upstairs and lay down in my bedroom. I have missed Natalie for more than a few hours now and it is hurting me. Before I finally drifted off to sleep the house doorbell rang through my skull like an alarm clock. I got up from the bed slowly placing my pants back on then made my way downstairs to see some figure in the window with the curtain covering whomever it is. I turned on the porch light, unlocked the door and found some gentleman dressed in a Taxi suit.

"Hi, I am sorry it is late for disturbing you but I was looking for Natalie, is she here?" He asked nervously.

"No, she isn't sir. I am however her girlfriend is their something wrong?" I asked with a shaky voice.

"I have a paper here with her name on it and I wanted to make sure she got it. It's an important document that will make her whole world. I hope you can give it to her." He replied with a genuine smile.

"Yes, I can. Can you take me to her though? I believe I know where she is but I don't want to take my truck knowing it could break down." I responded slightly smiling back.

"Of course, how far is she?" He replied.

"My guess is two hours at one of the hotel's in the next town." I responded.

"Get something on your feet and let's go." He replied wiggling his keys.

I ran upstairs, got my socks and boots on as quickly as I could then made my way downstairs, grabbed the house keys and locked the door. As I ran down the driveway to the Taxi waiting on me, I stopped a moment and saw her following me. No, fucking way is Sarah following me to Natalie this can't be right. I ran faster then slid down my driveway as I reached the cab door and begged the driver to go as fast as he could. I was hoping that I have only seen things because their is no way in hell, Sarah is getting Natalie that is when it dawned on me, she could already be there and that was a stand in. I cursed so much under my breath as we went flying down the road at top speed. The taxi driver knew it was urgent when he went down the winding roads at 80+ miles per hour. I held my breath with hopes that Natalie would be okay by morning light even if it meant sleeping in her car, I needed Natalie to be okay.

Chapter 26

We arrived at the hotel where we found her car, thankfully, Natalie gave me her second set as I gave the taxi driver money but he waved it off.

"I don't mind losing my job to help two good ladies. Have a nice one and make it back safely." He said as he tipped his hat.

I got out of the taxi with a smile. Now, I had no idea where Natalie would be in the hotel so I ran over to where it was parked, unlocked the car door, then started it up and moved it out of the way in case anyone else came. I fell asleep in the car that kept me warm on the chilly night. As the sun rose in my eyes I woke up to her still not in the car quite yet as I looked at the clock, she will be out in a few hours at most so I just sat their staring at the beautiful sun rise. The next several hours felt like a dread waiting for Natalie to come out of the hotel but once she finally appeared my eyes couldn't leave the sorrow in her face that showed how her whole world crashed.

Once Natalie opened the car door, I saw that she wasn't herself at all. I knew what happened and who hurt her that made sense to me in all the world. I still have to go back to my own home and face Sarah once and for all. Natalie didn't admit to anything at first but she did say Sarah hurt her which meant that Sarah is in for a heap of shit when we get back to my home. I whipped out of the hotel parking lot with not much more than making sure Sarah stayed dead. I wanted nothing more than me and Natalie to have our lives back before everything fell through though at this rate it seemed nearly impossible to be happy since Sarah has controlled my life by pretending to be dead from cancer.

Arriving at the house two hours later that is when I parked the car and rushed out of it like a mad son of a bitch. I wasn't letting Sarah get the upper hand. I yelled for her to get out of my house then stormed in on her in the guest room to find that she had destroyed everything of Natalie's that wasn't in my room yet. I couldn't believe Sarah had been so cruel. I heard Natalie sigh then made her way back downstairs knowing this argument was going to be awhile.

"Sarah, you had to run off Natalie and I know what you did to her. That isn't right." I said in a harsh tone.

"Every woman wants me, Amber, she couldn't resist the most desire of love with me between her thighs. If anything I don't see anything exciting about her besides that red headed temper and her sexy figure. Oh, by the way, we have been divorced for a while now, you never realized and probably too busy mourning the loss of me." Sarah replied with vile in her throat.

"Thank the heavens above that we are divorced but this is still my house and I want you out." I replied with anger.

"About that when you signed the divorce papers, I own everything including this house, our horses and your truck. Sorry babe, but your time is over." Sarah responded with a smile.

"Fucking hell!" I yelled into the air.

"Bye bitch, now you can leave my house and that prissy woman too." Sarah responded.

"Wait, you didn't fuck her to get me back, you fucked Natalie to own my life and control my aspects as I mourned you for over six months before she arrived. You ruined my life! I hate you Sarah!" I replied, walking away and stomping my boots down the stairs.

I got into the living room, slashed my hand across every picture of us and everything that still showed anything of me and her or anything that used to be ours. I was so mad that I didn't care if she could afford to replace it or not, Sarah took my childhood home and I have no way of getting back not unless their is a way to change everything. Once I finished I made my way to Natalie and found her with the horses, she looked so beautiful by both of the horses that got to know her. I came up to her with my head down knowing that this news is going to be hard. I ended up giving her somewhat the details that went down and she was still supportive. We agreed to a shelter then changed our minds to head to San Antino to see Sheila and Dana with the two kids.

Two hours later with Natalie driving we made it to San Antino by afternoon and found the house where they were staying. We got caught up with them before calling it a night early so that way we could find a way to get Sarah out of my parents home.

I got up extra early out of routine to figure everything out but I needed Sheila to talk too without the kids and Dana being in the way. I found Sheila in the kitchen, sipping on her hot coffee that was freshly brewed, I pulled up a chair beside her and laid my head down.

"Amber, I didn't think you would be here in my life as of yesterday after our big disagreement on Dana." Sheila said with her southern drawl.

"I can't believe Sarah lied then led me on a wild life of a goose chase. Journey is gone for good or she will come around to hang out with us. I need to find a lawyer and get my home back. I doubt Natalie knows anyone but I want to ask her when she gets more rest." I replied with a heavy sigh.

"Sarah has always taken shit from you and I never approved of her from the start. I knew she lied about her death when her casket was empty. Amber, Sarah can have that house. You can be out here with us and make a home. You were considering it months ago. Let her have it. If your siblings want it that bad they will get it back by taking her to court." Sheila responded sipping her coffee.

I knew she was right by staying here and finding a new home. Might as well solve my issues with Sarah by finding a new home to begin with my new love.

Chapter 27

I had watched as Sheila got up for work and went to go check on Dana to let her know that she also had to get their day going. I went to check on Natalie as she was still fast asleep in our bed. I went back downstairs drinking more coffee as I heard everyone hustling around. The kids were happy to see that I was still there and wanted to bond more after their school day. Sheila came to give me a hug and said that they would all talk more when the kids are in bed to gather up a plan.

Natalie ended up sleeping a good chunk of the morning away. She always looked beautiful when her long curly red hair would fall to her lower back and it wouldn't be messy. Her kisses always made my morning. Natalie knew how to make me smile. We made a light discussion of the day and it turns out we were stuck until they came home so the silence made it a little challenging. I went to scour for Sheila's computer to find out if one of my works has made any readers and Natalie, I caught her snooping Sheila's books for something to read, I couldn't help but grin seeing her pick up a well known book in the world which is Love Over Coffee. Making my way into Sheila's office, I found her laptop left on and password beside it. Once, I got situated and found my way to one of my works. It made me smile that I haven't failed my readers as most were waiting on an update but that would be waiting a while. I heard Natalie giggling downstairs reading the book and as I went down their I found her smiling as she read each page.

"I was really hoping you wouldn't read that one." I said to Natalie with a grin.

"Oh, um, the title drew me in." Natalie replied, biting her lip.

I knew then we were both done for because when she bit her lip it meant she saw something more juicy than her eyes could handle.

"Sheila is known for that. That book is full of it too." I said, sitting beside her reading to where she left off and I shook my head.

"I have never read yours so I wouldn't know but Sheila has won me over. I am going to keep reading then leave a review in the book on paper, of course." Natalie replied as she waved me off.

I had no idea what to do with myself at this point since I am usually taking care of my babies though Sheila and Dana had a cat around the house it wasn't the most friendly one to either of us. We weren't properly introduced to the cat either, so we left it alone and kept to ourselves. I made lunch while Natalie still devoured the book and didn't dare look up from it. Everyone came back about four in the evening and Sheila dragged me upstairs with embarrassment of Natalie reading her book but their was more important discussion.

"You let her read my book. Dana doesn't dare read them." Sheila said turning a light pink in the cheeks.

"I couldn't take it from her." I replied, smiling like a fool.

"Amber, Natalie is to not touch my books again. Though her opinion matters, what does she think of it so far?" Sheila responded excitedly.

"She hasn't put it down and as long as we are here you should let her read all your books. And why doesn't Dana?" I replied with a raised eyebrow.

"She hates that I am published and that I am better than her at everything." Sheila responded with doubt in her voice.

"So, the serious matter is that you are leaving her or you found someone else?" I asked knowing that either answer wasn't going to be pretty.

"I found someone else." Sheila replied.

"SHEILA! Come help me with the kids, NOW!" Dana yelled.

We both jumped and felt lumps in our throats.

"I am not meant to be a parent." Sheila whispered as she unlocked the door from her office and went downstairs with her head down.

I have known Sheila my whole life but this isn't the first woman who hasn't made her happy in years. I didn't know what to do since I am in a bind myself with Sarah, I don't have my home and I miss my horses. We didn't get a chance to discuss anything the rest of the evening since Dana had eyes on us both as if we did anything and suspected more than anything that we were having an affair with her in the house, Natalie knew that wasn't possible and called Dana out on it. Me and Natalie decided that we would have to leave their house sooner rather than later since they didn't realize how bad they were fighting.

By that following morning when I woke up to find Sheila once again by herself with her coffee, she looked at me with sadness this time.

"I shouldn't have left your side. Natalie is correct, Dana isn't for anyone." Sheila whispered into her cup.

"We didn't know." I whispered back to her.

"I didn't go down the aisle with her as soon as that happened, our lives changed, she has used every hated word possible and reminds me of how selfish I am." Sheila whispered again.

"You aren't selfish and you deserve better than Dana, now tell about this new woman." I asked in a quiet whisper.

I let Sheila tell me all about her new love interest that stole her heart the moment their eyes crossed paths that she couldn't wait to see her again. I knew this time it was love because Sheila glowed and went into a whole new world with this new woman that caught her eye. I told Sheila when we got our new place that she could come along but they weren't staying in San Antonio and that we were all going to start over some place new and exciting.

Chapter 28

Natalie felt the bed beside her to feel that Amber is once again out of bed without her and that she has coffee freshly brewed. Natalie got herself ready in the bathroom then headed downstairs to hear whispers in the kitchen and to her surprise Sheila and Amber were having an adamant conversation that led her curiosity to what it could be about. Natalie got in silently tip toeing to the coffee as she caught Dana looking at Sheila with fury. Natalie backed her way out of the kitchen then rushed as quietly as possible back upstairs to find both kids huddled in their own rooms. Natalie mimicked the kids on covering her ears because she saw how Dana would yell at Sheila because she used to do the same to her. Natalie waited for Amber to appear in the room to be with her but she knew Amber would protect Sheila with everything she could from Dana.

Natalie closed her eyes as the argument downstairs carried itself upstairs and it just wouldn't stop though Natalie felt hands on her as she opened her eyes it was Amber looking at her with desperation. Natalie uncovered her ears as the argument silenced.

"Sheila is packing her things, Dana and the kids are gone for now. Dana tried to hit Sheila but hit me instead and I am fine. We have to go though this place isn't safe. I can't save them kids from her but I can save my best friend." Amber said with a whisper.

Natalie nodded in agreement then gathered both of their luggage's. Natalie wouldn't dare tell Sheila that she knew Dana is abusive because she was towards her ex-husband and it was bad enough they fist fight. It took time to process as they were on the road within twenty minutes and now finding a new place to stay with Sheila in the back seat also talking with Amber about this new love interest she has with another big woman like her and not so skinny like Dana. Sheila never mentioned her name, she would boast about how beautiful her long hair was and how much she loved making love to her when they got the chance.

Natalie and Amber held hands tightly as they veered off a beaten path to find a hotel again that wasn't near the highway. Natalie didn't like being out so far away from the city but being in the country she had to get used to it, she wasn't with her ex-husband and she was free. Natalie unbuckled herself then climbed in the back seat of her car with Sheila as she covered her eyes so she didn't see the dirt road they were on. Natalie felt Sheila put an arm around her and they stayed close together as Sheila told Natalie that it will be over soon.

By the time they arrived at the location, Sheila left the car as Natalie still refused to open her eyes and Amber lightly padded Natalie.

"Darlin' you can open your eyes now. Sheila didn't tell me this was a bed and breakfast also that she knew someone here. I believe this is where she has been staying with to meet this new woman since Dana wouldn't know how to get to it." Amber said in her soft voice.

Natalie opened her eyes to see that the place was huge and definitely not a hotel. Natalie and Amber both got out of the car as their hands met then walked the rest of the way to the bed and breakfast. As they got inside it was huge and also filled with anything Western related that made Amber smile but Natalie unsure as though this is a right place for them to be at. Natalie saw Sheila holding hands with someone they had never seen before and Natalie knew this is the one Sheila has kept secret since being out in San Antonio.

"Amber, Natalie, I would like you to meet my new girlfriend Shanna Vixen. I met her a while back ago when Dana would start accusing me of things but I would come out here to see her as much as I could when Dana would go to work and kids would be at school." Sheila said smiling ear to ear.

Natalie didn't know what to think of this lady, she was thin and beautiful like she had been working out day in and day out, her muscles were tight, her breasts were the size of tennis balls, her long curly brunette hair was wrapped in a bun, she wore a bright blue tank top and tight blue jeans that you could see every curve. Natalie tried not to lick her lips as much as Amber did beside her; they were both surprised at this woman.

Natalie felt Amber tug on her a bit so they could properly shake Shanna's hand since they were waiting for their room. Natalie felt her hand go into Shanna's as the firm shake felt manly instead of feminine. Natalie saw Amber gave the same look but this could be just the way Shanna greeted everyone. Natalie decided then that they needed to grab their luggage from the car and Amber followed suit as Sheila stayed behind with Shanna.

"I don't know if I like her. She seems more manly than a woman. Granted, her figure is juicy and she has a sweet voice but I am so unsure if she is right for Sheila." Natalie said, biting the inside of her cheek.

"Darlin', I have never heard you call any woman juicy before. Maybe your nerves from all the stress that we've endured, I am sure Shanna is a great woman for Sheila. Let's get back inside and go get our room. This is going to be one fun adventure." Amber replied with excitement in her voice.

Natalie shook her head carrying Sheila's and hers to their separate rooms on the other side of the bed and breakfast. Natalie couldn't shake the thought of how bad it is for Sheila to be with Shanna. That woman seems too strong for Natalie's liking.

Chapter 29

Settling in for the evening Natalie saw Amber strip to nothing and she felt it might relax her to do the same since they were in their own privacy away from Sheila for the time being. Neither slept that night as their bodies came tangled to one another, it felt like heaven to be with Amber and share their love once more.

They slept the day away by skipping breakfast and lunch but at around six in the evening a knock startled Natalie felt Amber get out of bed, then heard the door click open as she whispered and as she started to drift off to sleep again Natalie heard arguments in the hallway that ended up with Sheila sending a message to her phone which read:

Pack bags, meet in your car, and hurry.

Natalie didn't like that text one bit as Amber came in the room with a pissed off look but tried to relax.

"What is wrong?" Natalie asked.

"My best friend and her new girlfriend are wanting to run as I just paid for an extra two nights here for us both to unwind and relax. I like this bed and breakfast and we had so much fun making love after all the stress we have been through with everyone that we deserve each other." Amber explained with frustration in her voice.

"I can give them my car and we can go get another one, it isn't like either of us are broke. Well, okay, I am near it but that is because the settlement of divorce money hasn't come through yet but we can get another vehicle." Natalie replied calmly as can be.

Natalie knew it wouldn't be that simple to convince Amber to hand over her car though she could hand the payments to Sheila.

"You can't simply hand over your car to them, that is wrong. I wish I had my truck then I knew they wouldn't leave." Amber said.

"Sheila could handle the payments while being with Shanna, it isn't that bad." Natalie replied still naked without bothering grabbing her clothes.

"No, and we are in the middle of nowhere, we can't simply get a car that easily. We are staying put and them two can figure it out." Amber responded as she climbed back into bed and didn't dare look at Natalie.

Natalie couldn't go back to sleep so she got dressed and headed downstairs to find something to eat as Sheila sat in the dining area picking at her dinner.

"Sheila, what is wrong?" Natalie asked.

"Shanna and Amber are not able to agree." Sheila said sadly.

"Amber is concerned with you being with her because she is on the run from something." Natalie explained.

"Her ex, same as all three of us. Trying to start a new life." Sheila replied, biting the inside of her cheek.

Natalie sat down and placed a hand on Sheila's forearm.

"Do you love Shanna?" Natalie asked

"Shanna is better than Dana and Jolene. I thought Dana loved me but was wrong and Jolene became controlling and everything else. Shanna is more than both of those ladies together." Sheila explained picking at her food still.

"That doesn't answer my question: do you love Shanna?" Natalie responded squeezing Sheila's forearm.

"I like her not sure if I love her." Sheila replied, finally eating something off her plate and avoiding eye contact.

"How long have you been seeing Shanna?" Natalie asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Um, after Jolene left and Dana was new to the area." Sheila answered nervously.

"A whole year if not two and you don't know if you love her?" Natalie replied in shrieks.

"How can I love someone like her after what Jolene and Dana put me through? I have kept her hidden from Amber for this reason. Natalie, you and Amber are finally getting somewhere in this life but as for me, I am unsure if I want to risk another chance at being in love. Shanna is more than I bargained for. I am not exactly sure where my life ends up." Sheila responded dreadfully.

"Sheila, you need to let her go if you can't love yourself or anyone else. You have led Shanna horribly through this whole fiasco. You need to decide for yourself if you can actually love because this is the worst I have ever seen in all my years of wanting to be happy." Natalie replied gripping Sheila's forearm.

Natalie watched as Sheila snatched her arm away then walked off into the direction that her and Shanna have been staying at. Natalie bent her head down as a waitress came by her.

"Would you like to order anything?" The waitress asked gently.

"A glass of whiskey." Natalie replied without thinking.

Natalie heard the waitress write down then stepped away. Natalie knew being honest would be a hard task and Sheila is so bullheaded that she won't listen to anyone else but Amber most days. Speak of the high cotton tail devil.

"Darlin', why are you drinking whiskey?" Amber asked.

"Because you're fucking best friend has no control of herself and her love life, did you know Shanna has been around since after Jolene and Dana being new here, she has lost herself." Natalie replied with anger.

"Wow, darlin', I know you and Sheila didn't see eye to eye at first but I think you are in love with the wrong woman." Amber responded as tears filled her eyes.

"What? No, Amber, you have that all wrong!" Natalie replied, fighting her own tears.

Natalie watched Amber run off upstairs this time, she knew whiskey wasn't going to save her endless battle of friendships and love. Natalie left money on the table, went up to their room and listened to Amber sob endlessly as she couldn't figure out what else to do. They were in the middle of San Antonio with no other line between them.

Chapter 30

Five Years Later

Natalie felt the time come as she saw Amber's eyes filled with tears though their relationship has never been stable since meeting on that fateful day. Natalie saw the look on Amber's face knowing that it is the end of their journey since they weren't able to ever find a new home again and Sheila has gone off with Shanna to a whole new world, they got married last spring in the most beautiful sunset and also on a gorgeous beach setting.

Natalie felt Amber's hands go into hers then they're heads lightly touched one another. Natalie took a deep breath as their eyes met, Natalie couldn't hold in her thoughts much longer.

"Are we sure this is for the better?" Natalie asked in a soft whisper.

"Darlin', we have to let us go. We aren't meant for one another no matter what we do." Amber replied, brushing back Natalie's tears.

Natalie couldn't imagine her life without Amber in it but their is always that jealousy twinge that Amber still faced and when they ran into Sarah a few years ago, she admitted to being in love with Amber sister Hailey instead of being truthful with Amber all those years ago it broke Amber's heart more and that her sister literally stole her wife or did she? Natalie wasn't sure where this mess happened since she came in later.

"Darlin', I can't forget what happened to us back at that bed and breakfast in San Antonio when I accused you of loving Sheila. I am a horrible person and don't deserve anyone especially you. Natalie, we have to let each other go." Amber pleaded with tears.

They held each other tighter through each memory of them being together. Natalie couldn't let Amber walk away and it is shredding her heart each time Amber tries to leave.

"I can't and won't, let you go. I still love you." Natalie replied with raw in her voice.

Seven years down the drain because Amber couldn't love Natalie the way they were meant to be and it killed her mostly since she left her dumbass ex-husband for Amber. Natalie didn't want it to end this way. Natalie felt Amber slip out of their embrace and she grabbed her back for another hug, Natalie wouldn't let go of Amber and it wasn't going to keep being this way.

"Darlin', you need to let me go. I can't stay." Amber said.

Natalie nodded in agreement then watched as Amber slipped from her embrace one last time. Natalie and Amber ended up back in New York to live with her father but it didn't last when Amber announced that she is leaving Natalie and going back to Texas alone. Natalie didn't understand any of it.

"Babe, why are you leaving me?" Natalie asked.

"Darlin', their comes a time when a relationship must end. You are back in New York safely with your father but I don't belong here and I don't belong with you." Amber replied packing her things.

"We were finally working through all the hardships of the past couple of years." Natalie complained.

"I have to leave. You will someday understand but I am going back to Texas." Amber replied as diligently as possible.

Natalie had no words as she watched Amber pack everything of hers in all the luggage she could manage. Natalie didn't believe in loving no one else and Amber is her soulmate, she knew it and felt it long ago but Amber wouldn't stop packing her things.

"Amber, please! Don't go, I love you." Natalie said through tears.

Natalie watched as Amber lugged everything up and down the stairs as she packed her new truck up with everything.

"I am staying tonight but leaving early in the morning. I will be sleeping in the guest bedroom. Natalie, you are a wonderful woman but you are to keep the distance. Do not wake me up for anything and I mean it. Good night." Amber said as she closed the door then locked it.

Natalie went straight to her own bedroom because she knew her father wouldn't want to hear of them two breaking up. She wouldn't lock her room, she wanted Amber to be able to come to her. Natalie didn't sleep that whole night and when she heard Amber going downstairs in her boots, Natalie bolted out of bed and opened her door to find Amber staring at it down the stairwell.

"Don't. I knew you wouldn't sleep but stay where you are. I will be gone soon." Amber whispered.

Natalie nodded watching Amber go down the stairs into the kitchen as Natalie also made her way down but watched with a close eye. Natalie loves Amber so much that it is hurting her to see that Amber is willing to walk out.

Once Amber finished, she placed everything in the sink and then grabbed her keys, walked straight to the door leaving it open as Natalie followed then couldn't control herself.

"Amber, wait!" Natalie yelled across the lawn.

Natalie watched Amber stop and turn around slowly.

"Can I have a hug at least, please? Amber, I want to hold you one last time." Natalie pleaded.

Natalie watched as Amber made her way up the steps and they were in one another arms. Natalie savored in Amber's western smell that always made her smile and she held Amber tight. The hug ended but their hands met with their foreheads. As it was Natalie hated to see Amber leave her but Natalie felt her slip away.

*~*~*

Natalie felt shaking like she was getting pulled out of the dream as she heard her voice, the woman she loves so much.

"Baby, wake up, wake up. It is a dream, I am right here." Amber whispered softly.

Natalie opened her eyes slowly to reveal that her best friend and love is by her side that it was just a dream and that they were still together. Natalie breathed a sigh of relief.

"Babe, I thought I lost you in that dream. My heart felt ripped open." Natalie whispered back.

Natalie felt Amber kiss her softly.

"Darlin', that isn't happening. Remember what you told me when we met?" Amber asked.

Natalie shook her head.

"I don't either, darlin' but I know I love you." Amber replied in her southern twang.

They shared kisses and giggles while still being in the bed and breakfast out in San Antonio, they ended up loving the place where they worked together and their bedroom became permanent. Sheila and Shanna worked out their differences and also ended up working in the same place, they did get married, it wasn't a dream because Sheila kept squealing like no tomorrow.

While working though Amber came through the kitchen by giving Natalie a hug and whispered that she needed to be in the dining room when she was done. Natalie had no idea what was going on that day. Natalie got done with her dishes and put everything away as she walked out to the dining room to see it decorated with everything she adored from fancy heels, make-up and country boots and music. Natalie then saw Amber down on one knee with a beautiful ring that shined bright in the lighting. Natalie walked over to Amber with her eyes filled with tears.

"Natalie, will you be my wife? I love you and can't wait to see what the future holds." Amber asked in her southern accent.

"Yes, yes, I will be your wife." Natalie replied.

Their lips met and they were both so happy that everyone cheered when she saw their friends being for their engagement. It was an evening worth not forgetting any time soon.

The End

Author Note:

This book is dedicated to all of my fans that have supported me through Annora Rose and the transition to my real name for all of my works. I am so glad to have you all their for me. She's My Kind Of Country is well read through Wattpad and Dreame also took me months to get through it's trials but I did it. Thank you again for supporting me on this journey and hope to see you around for my next release.

