
Chinese: 
哈囉大家好 我是室友西莫
上個星期我花了大概四到五天的時間
看完了這本小說
這本小說叫Call Me By Your Name
中文是《以你的名字呼喚我》
故事其實是從這個男生的角度去描寫
他17歲的時候跟這個當時24歲的男生之間的關係
角色的名字是Elio和Oliver
這個是Elio
這個是Oliver
他(Elio) 是住在意大利的一個教授的孩子
然後那個教授每一年的夏天都會邀請一個
像是助理研究生這樣子的人來他們的家做客
做客的時間通常是幾個星期
在這段時間的這個研究生可以做自己的研究
寫他的論文
今天的影片的嘗試
而他的義務就則是幫這個教授去處理一些他的信件等等

English: 
Hello everyone this is Shimo
Last week I spent around 4 to 5 days
reading this book
It's Call Me By Your Name
(Chinese title of the book)
The story is written from the perspective of this 17-year-old boy
about his relationship with this guy who was 24 at the time
Their names are Elio and Oliver
This is Elio
and this is Oliver
Elio is the son of a professor who lives in Italy
and the professor invites a postgraduate every summer
over to their house as a guest lodger
The lodgers usually stay for a few weeks
and during this time they would do their own research
write their thesis
and their main responsibility is to deal with the correspondence of the professor
I'm trying a new thing out for this video

Chinese: 
是我會記錄我的看這本書的過程
然後在每一章之後
我再會說一說我的感想
這本書的結局是在電影裡面沒有交代的
所以我覺得如果看完了這支影片
你還沒有覺得一定要看這本書的話
我覺得起碼結局是很值得去看的
好，那我們現在就趕快進入這個影片吧
Part One 第一章 If Not Later, When
Because I didn't know how to speak in code
I didn't know how to speak at all
我看到這裡的時候覺得是......wow!
這裡我感覺到就是因為有一些感情
可能是禁忌的可能或許不是禁忌
他只是不能宣洩出來
可能只是害羞
你要說出來的話
你必須很抽像地說

English: 
by recording my reading process of this book
and after each chapter
I will share my thoughts about the chapter
The ending of this book is not dealt with in the movie
so if after this video
you are still not convinced you should read this book
at least go check out the ending in the book
Alright without further ado let's jump right in
Part One: If Not Later, When
Because I didn't know how to speak in code
I didn't know how to speak at all
When I read this I was like... wow!
Here I get the feeling that there are some feelings
that are forbidden, or perhaps not forbidden
but they just couldn't be expressed
perhaps due to shyness
and if you want to speak it
you must speak it in abstract terns

Chinese: 
就像用一種密碼一種code暗語說一樣
而如果你不懂怎麼去用暗語去說的話
那你就完全不能說出來
Wow
我這裡是第19頁
I was too self-conscious like someone trying to feel natural
while walking about naked in a locker room
only to end up aroused by his own nakedness.
一個人在更衣室沒有穿衣服
然後硬要假裝很自然
結果卻因為自己沒有穿衣服而感到aroused
如果以男生來說的話
可能就是有反應了
很具體化地說那一種不自在

English: 
like a code
and if you don't know how to speak in code
then you can't speak at all
Wow
This is page 19
I was too self-conscious like someone trying to feel natural
while walking about naked in a locker room
only to end up aroused by his own nakedness.
(translating the quote into Chinese) A person not wearing anything in the changing room
trying to act natural
ending up feeling aroused due to his own nakedness
For a guy that probably means
he had an erection
That's a very vivid image for the unease he was experiencing

English: 
So here Elio discovered that Oliver was popular among the people
and while Elio's initial strategy was to appear hostile
or to make others believe that he did not care for Oliver
but
this might sound a bit contradictory
but I think we're seeing some acute observation by the author
like everyone in the world likes him
so I'd better say I like him too
because if everyone likes him
and I say I don't like him, this might alert others
of my hidden motives towards Oliver
such as motives to resist his temptations
I feel like this is a story about Elio's first love
and "first love" here doesn't mean liking someone for the first time

Chinese: 
這裡是說Elio發現很多人都喜歡Oliver (口誤)，
然後他一開始的話可能是用敵意
或者是讓別人覺得自己沒有很在意Oliver
可是
這個有點矛盾
可是我覺得這種觀察其實蠻深刻的
就是說全世界的人都喜歡他
所以我也必須說我也喜歡他
因為如果全世界的人都說喜歡他
而我說不喜歡他的話會警惕別人
我其實可能對Oliver一些隱藏的動機
這動機可能就是想要去抗拒他的魅力
我感覺這個故事是說Elio主人公的初戀的故事
而且初戀這兩個字的定義並不是第一次喜歡一個人

Chinese: 
第一次和誰接吻或第一次跟誰發生關係
而是第一次陷入一團混亂一團糟
然後第一次因為愛情而患得患失
因為「患得患失」
這四個字就是我看第一章時不斷出現的字
因為在第一章裡面我看到的Oliver就是一個
很有自信的24歲的成年男人
很知道自己要什麼，大家也很喜他
相較於他 17歲的Olio......
我覺得Elio是不自覺地
眼睛一直盯著Oliver看
看得很仔細
我覺得有點偷窺的感覺
可是他偷窺又不是真的偷窺很私密的部分
但作者就是可以把一些很不私密的部分寫得非常私密
比如說手肘啊或者手掌啊
腳踝啊腳板…… 這些地方
反正就是可以把一些很不性感的部分寫得非常的性感
Elio就是不斷地忍不住一直看著觀察著Oliver
同時我覺得他一開始並不知道自己的感情是什麼

English: 
or kissing someone or having sex with someone for the first time
It's more like the first time someone brought him to a pass
and the first time he felt so insecure
because insecurity
is the word that came to me a lot when I read the first chapter
In this chapter we see that Oliver is a
very confident, self-assured 24-year-old man
who knows what he wants and everybody likes him
Compared to him, 17-year-old Elio...
I think Elio was always unconsciously
following Oliver wherever he went
And he observed very carefully
Almost in a voyeuristic manner
But he wasn't really peeping at private places
but the author managed to write these places as if they are private body parts
like elbows, palms
ankles and soles of the feet
making parts that are not commonly seen as sexy sound very sensual
Elio couldn't help observing Oliver
and I think he initially didn't know what his feelings were

Chinese: 
只覺得他想要獲得這個大人的認同
想要他伸出友誼之手
一直拼命的去討好他
可是又要就裝酷
每當Oliver釋出一點善意Elio就會樂上天
可是Oliver的善意
好像就隨著他的心情而改變的
有時候會忽然間變得很冰冷
讓Elio有一種直接墮入冰窖裡面的感覺
我看第一章的時候，我覺得wow
我就是不斷的wow
wow
一直wow
因為覺得wow寫得太好了
就是wow你怎麼想到要這樣子寫
就怎麼會這麼細膩
怎麼會那麼仔細那麼深刻
現在來到第二章了
我們現在在第69頁
然後這一幕

English: 
and thought he just wanted the recognition of this adult
wanted his friendship
and tried very hard to please him
while at the same time having to act cool
Every time Oliver behaved friendly to Elio the latter would be in heaven
but Oliver's friendliness and warmth
seems to only be available depending on his mood
Sometimes he suddenly became cold
and Elio would feel like he was thrown into cold deep sea all of a sudden
When I read chapter one I was like wow
I kept wowing like
wow
just wow
cus wow this is good
How do you know this is the way to write it
why is it so sensual
why is it so detailed and profound
Now we're at Part 2
We're now at page 69
In this scene

English: 
Oliver and Elio rode their bikes into the town
I don't know why I'd notice this
but in the movie before going to the town
Oliver put his stuff in Elio's backpack
and I remember the scene where after talking
Oliver handed his papers to Elio
who very naturally
shoved those papers in his bag before walking to his bike
But in the book they actually each have their own backpack
I guess the movie did that for a reason
because it's not difficult to
let them have their own backpack in the movie
The director made the executive decision to just use Elio's backpack
I reckon it's to display some sort of intimacy
dependence
a bit like using the same wallet
Appears to me that Oliver was willing to be intimate with Elio

Chinese: 
是說Oliver跟Elio兩個一起騎腳踏車去城裡面
我不知道為什麼我會注意到這個點
就是他們出發去城之前Oliver是把他的紙啊
東西全部都塞在Elio的包包裡面
然後我記得有一幕就是他們說話完後
Oliver也很匆匆地就把手上的紙交給Elio
Elio馬上很自然的
把Oliver的東西塞進自己包包裡面才走
可是在書裡面的他們卻有自己各自的包包
其實電影那麼做其實應該是有原因
因為安排Elio跟Oliver分別有包包
其實是執行上並不難的東西
可是他們卻刻意把這東西就換成了就是用Elio的包包
我覺得這個好像想要表達一種親密
一種依賴
有點像是共用同一個錢包
給我感覺上就是Oliver願意給予Elio有這種親密

English: 
And Elio was willing to do something for the intimacy
Part 2 is called Monet's Berm
This is Elio's favourite place
He would swim in the lake
and this is his little secret place
where he reads.
This used to be a place Monet the Impressionist artist...
(choosing the Chinese translation of Monet's name)
Monet used to paint here or paint about here
When I saw this I was like wow how could that be your own secret place
perhaps in the 80s
tourism wasn't as big as it is now
since if a place is labelled as "location where Monet used to paint"
I don't think it could be anyone's secret place
Part 2 is probably the chapter where I made the most notes on

Chinese: 
而Elio也願意為了這種親密去做出一些付出
第二章是叫Monet's Berm
就是有一個地方是Elio最喜歡地方
他會在那個好像是湖邊湖里面游泳啊什麼
這個是他的小天地
他在這邊看書的地方
而這個地方曾經是印象派畫家莫內或者是莫奈
我不知道他的翻譯就是Monet
曾經用這個地方做主題去作畫的地方
我看到這個時候我就想喔這還可以是你的小天地
因為可能因為故事是發生在一九八幾年
然後旅行業可能沒現在那麼的蓬勃吧
現在如果一個地方冠名是莫內作畫地點
我真的難以想像它可以是任何人的小天地
第二章的應該是我抄寫最多筆記的一章吧

English: 
There should be 1,2,3,4,5...
5 pages of notes
When I read Chapter 2
The pace was quite slow at the beginning
Like after the romanticism in the first chapter
that was like wooooo... overflowing
Second chapter starts with stream of consciousness as well
as Elio explores the nature of his feelings about Oliver
and I got a little...
Like perhaps this book...
(choosing the word)
loses its force later on
feels a bit listless
until Elio suddenly decided to confess to Oliver
in a very subtle way of course
and all of us sudden the story was packed with actions
not like actions in the natural sense of the word
more like... the story started to have plots
Something is happening
and not just in Elio's head
The famous scene in the movie
of Elio's disrespect
and harassment against the peach is in chapter 2 too
And it's in this chapter we see
what I call Oliver's twist of personality
We will find out that his sudden surge of coldness
or warmth previously

Chinese: 
應該有12345
5頁
我看第二章的時候
我感覺就是一開始還蠻慢的
就是經歷過第一章那種少男情懷
就是wooo～滿溢
第二章就好像一開始也是意識流
然後就慢慢可能去探討它自己的想法內心感覺到底是怎樣吧
然後我就自己也有點
可能這本書有種後繼......
後繼不勁
後勁不繼
就是有點沒力的感覺
可是忽然間Elio就決定了要跟Oliver表白
那種表白也很含蓄老實說
之後就充滿了actions就充滿了很多事情
就不是說動作
就故事有......開始有plot了懂嗎？
就是有事情發生了
而不是在他的腦海裡面
包括電影裡面出名的
對蜜桃不尊敬
輕薄蜜桃的那一幕也在第二章出現
然後在這一章裡面的就看到了
Oliver的一個我稱之為人生的逆轉
就是我們發現了原來他之前感覺上就是有時候會冰冷
有時候又很溫暖

Chinese: 
他其實只是在掩飾
或者是純粹不懂得表達自己
我個人看他這個逆轉的時候
我的心情其實還蠻矛盾的
因為就以一個看愛情小說的角度來看的話
就是後發現對方可能也有自己的少男心思
看起來我就還蠻開心的
就是很甜蜜
可是從批判的角度來看的
因為作者在點出
原來他是害羞的時候之前並沒有鋪陳過
讓我覺得就好突然
我的要求就是你必須要有伏筆
讓我往回看的時候覺得
哦原來作者曾經有暗示過
只是我第一次看的時候看漏了
那我就覺得wooo! 好
可是我覺得在這本書裡面就沒有這麼做
因為我再翻回去看的時候我還是看不到有任何他原來是害羞的端倪
That night we all went to bed early.
Exhaustion was the order of the day.
I found him lying on the grass with the dictionary to the left and a yellow pad directly under his chest. 

English: 
was due to him covering up
or simply being unable to express himself
Personally when I saw this flip of personality
I actually felt quite conflicted
because from the point of view of a romantic story
knowing that the other person is feeling butterflies too
made me happy as a reader
because it's so cute
but from a critical perspective
because before the author pointed out that
Oliver was just shy, there wasn't any foreshadowing to that
and that caught me by surprise (unpleasantly).
My requirement is a good building-up/ foreshadowing
which allows me to go back in the book
and find out that the author has alluded to things before
and I just missed it the first time I read it
That'd make me go "wow that's good"
Unfortunately in this book the author didn't do that
I didn't see any sign of shyness when I went back to read again
That night we all went to bed early.
Exhaustion was the order of the day.
I found him lying on the grass with the dictionary to the left and a yellow pad directly under his chest.

Chinese: 
Would knowing we were shamming change anything between us once we were back to not speaking again?
Probably not.
105頁，我一看到「Stendhal」「 Armance」就馬上貼標籤。
看電影的時候我注意到這本書了
因為有一幕，就是Oliver把書放下來嗎？
還是在桌子上看書
然後我突然間很好奇就停格
就想看他手上是哪一本書
就是這本，我就還故意寫下來了
發現它原來在這本書也有出現的時候
我就覺得非常好奇
會不會這本書其實有什麼含義在後面呢
在書裡面這本書是Elio送給Oliver的
在電影裡面沒有這個情節
我後來好奇去找了一下關於這本書
想看下他(Elio) 是不是真的是隨手送給Oliver
然後我就發現了
Armance是Stendhal出版的第一本小說

English: 
Would knowing we were shamming change anything between us once we were back to not speaking again?
Probably not.
Page 105, I put a tag on it when I saw Stendhal and Armance
I noticed this book when I watched the movie
There was a scene where Oliver put down the book
or was reading the book at the table
and I got curious and paused the movie
to see what he was reading
It's this book (Armance) and I wrote that down
When I realized the book was also in the novel
I felt very curious and wanted to know
whether there's any meaning behind this book
In the novel the book was given to Oliver by Elio
and this wasn't shown in the film.
Later I Googled about the book out of curiosity
wanted to know if Elio actually just casually gave the book to Oliver
and I discovered
that Armance was the first published novel by Stendhal

Chinese: 
那時候是1827年
這本小說其實是受一本1823年的書（的影響）而寫的
這個1823年的書
作者是這位
不知道怎麼念
這本書的名字叫Olivier
就是在法文裡面的Oliver
好像不是Olivier
是Olivier ou le secret
不知道怎麼唸
反正是Oliver or the Secret
Oliver或者秘密
這本書其實並沒有......
在1823年時候並沒有真的出版
而是在1970年代左右才真的面世
那時候作者死了好多年
這本書沒有出版的原因是當時大家覺得太驚世駭俗了
所以在幾年後Armance就是因為這本書的啟發寫的書
Stendhal比較聰明地
比較隱晦的用了它的主題去寫這本小說

English: 
in 1827
The novel was inspired by a book written in 1823
and this book written in 1823
was written by this author
the name of whom I do not know how to pronounce
and the name of the said novel was "Olivier"
which is Oliver in French
Oh it's not Olivier
It should be "Olivier ou le secret"
Tried my best lol
Oliver or the Secret
Oliver or the secret (in Chinese)
This book actually wasn't...
it wasn't really published in 1823
and was only published in the 1970s
when the author has been dead for a long time
The book wasn't published because it offended public moral at the time
When, inspired by Olivier, Armance was written
Stendhal was being smart
and explored the theme of Olivier more subtly

English: 
Originally Stendhal wanted to name the book or his main character Oliver
but later on he decided upon "Octave" instead
because his published advised against using "Olivier"
as people were still very sensitive about "Olivier"
it being controversial.
THEREFORE!
When Elio gave "Armance" to Oliver
it's not a mindless act
It felt like he deliberated on it.
Further, Armance and Olivier
shared similar theme
namely that the main character in both works have a secret they conceal from others
and this is not different from Oliver in this story
Oliver in Call Me By Your Name
because he later chose to hide his secret by getting married.
When I read "Armance, inspired by Olivier" during my research
I was like
wow huge discovery!
And found the author quite skillful
When I was reading the book
I wasn't aware of any strong theme going on
but because I took notes
and copied sentences

Chinese: 
本來Stendhal還想要用Oliver這個名字去當書名或者是主人公的名字
可是後來用了Octave這個名字
因為出版商說還是不要了
最近對Oliver這本書 這個名字大家都很敏感
很有爭議性
所以呢
把Armance送給Oliver
這個舉動一點都不隨意
感覺就是好好的想過了一遍
然後Armance跟本來Olivier這本書
其實主題都是
裡面的主人公都是有一些秘密不想讓別人知道
這跟故事裡面的Oliver
就是Call Me By Your Name 的Oliver其實有點相似
因為後來他也是採取了去結婚去隱藏自己的秘密
我查一查後，當我看到「Armance， inspired by Olivier」的時候
我是
大發現
而且又覺得這作者真的有點不簡單
我在看這本書的時候
也沒有很好地感受到有任何的主題
可是因為我有寫筆記
把句子抄下來然後寫寫寫

English: 
I discovered a theme that jumped out to me ever so often
and that's "death"
The author mentioned Shelley
the poet who was drown in the lake
this was the most obvious reference to the theme of death.
When Elio talked about his feelings and emotions
he often employed different figurative comparisons
e.g. "my sufferings felt like XYZ...
"Oliver's place setting was instantly removed...
The removal was performed summarily
the way you'd take off the sheets and blankets
from a bed where someone had died
without a hint of regret"
Many references to patients, war, and death
I also found out that Octave the main dude in "Armance"
eventually joined a war in Greece
and was killed.
Both Olivier and Armance dealt with lovers who
because of hindrances
and misunderstandings, could not stay together

Chinese: 
那時候我發現有一個主題是不斷跳出來
就是死亡
他有提及過Shelley
就是那個詩人在那個湖里面遇溺了
這個已經是最明顯最跳出來的死亡主題
可後來他......Elio在說自己的感覺、感情的時候
常常會用到很多很多的比喻
就是說我的痛苦就像是什麼什麼什麼什麼一樣
他們把Oliver的餐盤拿走了
拿走的時候
那種干脆就好像是病人死亡之後
大家把他的床單馬上抽走
一點都不帶猶豫
就是很多病人啊，戰爭啊，死亡等等的這個主題
然後我發現原來在Armance裡面的男主角Octave
最後也是因為去參與了在希臘的一個戰爭
然後死亡了
Olivier還有Armance主題都是情人之間，
因為有很多的阻礙
很多的誤會而無法在一起

English: 
and even had to die in the end
so in this book (CMBYN) there are repeated allusions to death
probably to hint at the unfruitful resolution of Elio and Oliver's relationship
Additionally, when I was watching the movie...
it's not the same book in the novel but
in the movie Elio gave Marzia (I mistakenly said Chiara) a collection of poems
Marzia is this girl in the movie and the book
who Oliver had sex with
I like her quite a lot
but she seemed to exist only for Elio to explore his sexuality
Anyway in the movie the book given to her by Elio
was written by a famous Italian young poet
who killed herself at a young age because her own romantic pursuit
was objected by her father.
This is hinting at death again.
Should we all be glad that
neither Oliver or Elio died in the book?
Because of this finding
I think if you want to read seriously

Chinese: 
然後後來還要死掉了。
所以在這本書裡面常常有死亡死亡，
好像就是想要預告他們的愛情並不會開花結果
還有我看到在電影裡面
這個情節在小說裡面沒有(是指不是同一本書)
在電影裡面的情節就是Elio隨手有送一本詩給Chiara (Marzia)了
Chiara (Marzia)就是在這個電影跟小說裡面
跟Oliver （Elio）有發生關係的一個女生 (我錯亂了)
我還蠻喜歡她
可是她有點像類似是炮灰這樣子的角色
Anyway在電影裡面他送給她那本詩集
其實是一本來自於意大利一個年輕女作者的詩集
這個女作者好像也是因為她本身的愛情受到父親的反對
而很年輕就自殺了
這就是另外一個跟死亡有關的主題
我們是不是應該要慶幸
在書裡面Oliver或者是Elio都沒有死掉啊
因為有了這個發現，
我覺得這本書其實如果要認真看起來的話

Chinese: 
就真的是可以在課堂上好好的研究一下
因為後面應該有很多隱藏的東西，
等著大家來去發掘
如果大家對這樣子的看書方法是喜歡的話
這本書我覺得還蠻好看的
這本書有很多references
就是有提及其他的書啊，作者啊，名人
或者是流行文化里面的東西
然後我發現其實我懂的我知道的其實還蠻少的
比如說這裡啊，Tintin你們有看嗎？
丁丁，我是沒看過啦
所以
他這裡說他家有一天有朋友......
因為他爸爸是一個學者
每一天都會邀請不同的學者來家裡
然後今天除了一個教授之外
還有一對同志戀人
然後同志戀人下車的時候

English: 
this book can definitely be discussed in class
There should be many hidden things in this book
waiting to be explored.
If you like to read this way
this is definitely a book for you.
There are many references in this book
including references to other books, authors, famous people
or things in popular culture
and I realized I really don't know much about anything
E.g. The Adventures of Tintin, have you read that?
I personally haven't
so
here Elio says one day people are coming to his place
His dad is a professor
and invites people over every day
and today other than a professor
a gay couple are also invited
and when they got off the car

English: 
wearing exactly the same thing
and act in sync when coming out of the car
Elio says they look like Thomson & Thompson Twins in Tintin
I didn't know who they were
and kept reading
and Elio were guessing who's top and who's bottom
who's 1 and who's 0
and I was like
wait what, Thomson & Thompson are twins
and at the same time they are lovers?
Seriously??
So I immediately asked the boyfriend who Thomson & Thompson are
and he said they are twin brothers
not friends
and I asked if they are lovers
he said no
So I reread again and realized at this point the gay couple Elio was talking about
was the friends of his father
and not Thomson & Thompson twins
Huge misunderstanding lol
Alright we're at Part 3

Chinese: 
就穿一模一樣的衣服
一起下車動作一致
然後他就說他們看起來就像Tintin's Thomson & Thompson twins
反正我就不知道他們是誰
就一直看下去
他看著他們就想誰是上面誰在下面
誰是一誰是零
我就想說
Tintin裡面的Thomson & Thompson是雙胞胎
然後同時是同志戀人？
不會吧！
我馬上問男朋友誰是Thomson & Thompson
他就說他們真的是雙胞胎
不是朋友啊什麼的
我說，那他們是同志嗎？
他說：不是啊
再重看一次才發現他在說的同志是說
一開始的這對同志戀人
而不是Tintin裡面的雙胞胎
我覺得誤會可大了
好然後就來到第三章了

Chinese: 
其實我對第三章就......
現在來看就是真的無話可說
我前幾天就已經錄了我對第三章的感覺
主要就是批評
所以我在這裡我也不再說一遍了
可是我就想讓你們看一下我對第三章的筆記
就之前的筆記抄好多頁
你看第三章就是......
我很討厭這一章
然後這裡抄寫的東西基本上就是為了批評第三章
主要recap就是我對它的第三章不喜歡的點就是
我覺得它很矯情、它不合理
而且還有種族歧視等等的問題
很不必要
我覺得這章真的很不必要
而且對於他們的......可能是我理解錯誤
可是我覺得對於他們整個故事並沒有什麼幫助
沒有表現到什麼東西
因為他在這章裡面
他們根本就沒有很多的交流我覺得
除了一開始的時候
我就整個part 3我都......
大部分的時間我都很不耐煩
覺得很討厭

English: 
To me, part 3 is basically like...
I have nothing to say about this chapter
I talked about my feelings about chapter 3 few days ago
mainly criticisms (will be shown in this video)
so I won't repeat here
But I just wanted to show you my notes on chapter 3
I wrote so much previously
but for chapter 3, look...
I just really hate this chapter
and the things that I copied here are basically for criticizing it
As a recap, I don't like chapter 3 of this book because
I felt that it's pretentious, doesn't make much sense
and is completely tone-deaf.
Very unnecessary
I find this chapter unnecessary
and does nothing... perhaps I just didn't get it
but I don't think this chapter does anything for the story
It shows nothing
because in this chapter
Elio and Oliver didn't spend much time alone together
except at the beginning
The entire part 3
I felt impatient for the most part of it
just really disliked it

Chinese: 
有很多東西我覺得很有問題
我現在我就一一的跟你們說
好我覺得我剛才有點激動
所以現在我就冷靜下來看
感覺上就比較客觀一點
好，第三章說到Elio跟Oliver兩個一起去羅馬玩三天
然後他們在羅馬的時候有參與一個book party
Book party裡面的人有詩人
就文壇裡面的人醬紫
Elio跟Oliver跟他們這些人一起的經歷
就覺得是很矯情
做作
很裝模作樣
好像就是為了要表現一種很bourgeoisie
小資的一個文藝藝術青年的那種感覺
在一起之後
在他們最後幾天要去羅馬的時候
我覺得中間忽然間加了十幾、二十、三十人
把他們兩個又拉離了
然後Elio竟然說這是他人生最美好的時間
我也想說，可能他是來自北部的一個鄉下
去到羅馬首都
然後大家都成年人

English: 
and I found many things problematic
and I'm going to talk about them one by one with you.
Alright I think I was a little too excited just then
so I'm going to calm down
to make you think I'm being entirely objective here.
Okay, in Chapter 3 Elio and Olio went to Rome for 3 days
and there they joined a book party
in which there was a poet
and other people from the literary society.
I find Elio and Oliver's experience with these people
affected
pretentious
and ostentatious (phew thanks thesaurus)
as if to make an impression of bourgeoisie
middle-class artistic hipsters.
After getting together
when they were in Rome in the last few days
I felt like they were suddenly separated
by the addition of 10, 20, 30 people
and then Elio said this was the best time of his life.
I was like, well perhaps he came from a village in the north
and he's in the capital city Rome
surrounded by adults

English: 
with liberal thinking
where everyone was "available"
like everyone can develop a little something with anyone
e.g. this poet wrote a book
and although his wife and daughters were present
he could openly discuss what happened in Thailand
between him and girls and boys/
Maybe they are, you know... ~artists~
particularly open-minded, and Elio might think
"wow this is new to me...
this is the best time of my life"
but honestly Elio is not just a kid from a village.
True he lived in a farmhouse in the north
but he himself was American, Italian, French, and he spoke German
His father was a university professor
and their house was frequented by scholars and the like
He's seen the world (at least figuratively)
And he himself was not an unexperienced kid
not like Oliver was his first person
and that he didn't have any previous experience with anyone else before
(he literally slept with Oliver and Marzia at the same time??)

Chinese: 
感覺觀念等等都很開放
每個人都叫available
就是每個人都可以跟另外一個人有很多曖昧的東西
比如說一個詩人，他出書了
然後他的太太跟她女兒都在場，
可是他可以很大方的說他去泰國住的時候，
跟那些泰國的女生，男生之間的一些關係。
可能他們就是你知道......文人藝術家，
他們就特別開放，然後Elio會覺得
哦，這真的是很新奇
這是我最快樂的一段時間。
可是老實說Elio其實並不是鄉下的小孩子啊。
他雖然是來自北部一個比較鄉村住的地方，
可是他自己本身是美國，意大利，法國人，他也會德文。
他爸爸是大學的教授，
來往家裡的人都是一些有識之士，
不是一個沒見過世面的小孩子，
而且他自己本身也沒有多純情，就是沒有
喔Oliver是他的第一個人
他沒跟另外的人有過任何東西
也不是

English: 
I'm not convinced
why Elio would think his time with those artists the happiest in his life
Also, didn't the poet say he went to live in Thailand for a while?
His description about Thailand
made me puke a little in my mouth.
I mean, we're now in...
Perhaps because the book was set in the 80s
where people weren't politically correct
and didn't speak with a brain
therefore might say things that are racially offensive without being aware of it
For example, every time the poet talked about Thailand
he'd say "the Thai people are very sweet"
We in the west can be good and kind
but we'll never be sweet like the Thai people
They are innocent like children
and that made me guilty about the feelings I harboured for them
This seems to make Thai people sound like a very different species of human
I think this is dangerous
when you are treating a race or people in a country as "the others"
Othering them...
There's a word called "exotic"

Chinese: 
所以我覺得還是沒有什麼說服力啦
他怎麼會覺得這段時間是他最開心的時間？
另外 詩人不是說他去泰國嗎？
對於他對泰國的描寫
我是整個反感
我覺得現在已經......
可能是因為這本書設定的時候是一九八幾年
一九八幾年大家說話都很政治不正確
也沒什麼經過大腦
就可能會說出一些很充滿種族歧視而自己不自知的事情
比如說他每一次描寫到泰國
(他會說)泰國的人很sweet
我們在西方你可以很好，可以很善良
但是，你就不會像泰國人那麼sweet
當小孩子一樣的天真
而我對自己對他們的念想感覺到很內疚
就好像把泰國人變成了一個跟自己很不一樣的人
我覺得這是一個很危險的東西
當你去把一個種族，一個國家的人完全去他人化
Othering 時候......
有一個字叫「exotic」

Chinese: 
他這真的用了好幾次「exotic」這個字
「exotic」 其實有點「珍稀」的感覺，
「珍稀」不是「珍惜你」
是這東西很稀罕的感覺
其實不是一種讚美
像一個白人，一個caucasian
他去把另外一個比如說亞洲人
稱讚的點是基於他跟他們很不一樣
基於他很珍稀很exotic的話
其實不是一個讚美
因為他其實是透過自己的有色的眼鏡去看一個種族
老實說，另外一個種族跟你真的是那麼不一樣嗎？
他們的動機，他們的心態，他們的道德觀
他們對於事物的害怕、恐懼、慾望、要求真的那麼不一樣嗎？
而當你接觸他們發現原來他跟你們一樣的時候
那你是不是就不再喜歡他了呢？
因為你現在對他們的讚美是基於他跟你很不一樣

English: 
and the author has used this word several times in this chapter.
"Exotic" has the meaning of "different and rare"
"rare" but not "precious" (in Chinese they sound similar)
Saying something is rare
is not necessarily a compliment.
Like when a Caucasian
describes someone, e.g. an Asian person
and compliment is based on how different the Asian person is from the Caucasian person
or based on how rare and exotic the person is
it's actually not a compliment
because the said Caucasian is looking at another race through tinted glass.
Honestly is another race really that different from you?
Their motivations, their attitudes, their moral values
their fear and desire, are they really that different?
And once through contacts you realize they are in fact no different from you
will you stop liking them?
If your approval is based on them being different

Chinese: 
他天真很單純，像小孩子一樣
好像沒開化的人一樣
可是後來你發現，原來他跟你們一樣
有野心，有上進心
可能他念過很多書，很聰明
也很有自己的想法
那時候你是不是覺得他就不再可愛
不再純情了呢？
反正我覺得這方面
我看到我就覺得 啊 (深呼吸)。
另外他還要說
泰國的人男女都分不清
我住在那個hotel裡面的櫃檯的人
我一開始以為ta是男生，
我覺得ta是一個長得很像女生的男生，
然後又看到誰覺得ta是一個長得很像男生的女生
然後後來發現
哦原來這個女生......很像女生的男生
原來是女生，穿著裙子高跟鞋
可是那女生就跟他說，其實我是男生
(打字幕心好累）
我覺得這真的是很糟糕
因為我們都知道大家很多時候想到泰國旅遊業

English: 
being pure and naive and childlike
almost uncultivated
but you later realize they are similar to you
ambitious
and perhaps educated and smart
and opinionated and strong-willed
will you stop thinking they are cute
and innocent?
Anyway when I read about that (description of Thai people)
I had to take many deep breaths
Oh the poet also said
that he couldn't tell the gender of Thai people apart.
"The receptionist of the hotel I stayed at...
I initially thought they are a boy
I thought they are a boy looking like a girl
and I saw another person who's a girl looking like a boy
Later I realized this receptionist
...a girl... a boy who looks like a girl
was actually a girl as she was wearing a dress and high heels
but she told me she was actually a boy..."
(Where's my chill pill???)
I think this is really a load of BS
We all know when we think of tourism in Thailand

Chinese: 
他們有性旅遊業，性服務旅遊業，
還有很出名的人家叫做「人妖」的
把跨性別人士商品化
去變成是一個吸引遊客的地方
供人去消遣的一個現象
不管這是不是事實的全部
我覺得這個所謂的詩人或是這個作者
用泰國這個地方
因為他明明可以用任何地方
他可以說德國
他去德國遇到跨性別人士
他去英國、美國
他偏偏就是要用泰國
我覺得他就是在鞏固一個對泰國的一個固有的stereotype
他這刻板印象包含的就是泰國有很多跨性別人士
fine
可是這個跨性別人士是供人消遣的對象
當然我們可以再討論
這些跨性別人士有權利去選擇自己要用什麼方法去謀生
可是當中就在想他們真的是自己的選擇嗎？
還是他們因為沒有別的東西可以選
他們的社會容不下他們

English: 
we might think of their sex tourism
and what some people may call "ladyboys"
which commodifies transgender individuals
into something to attract tourists
and a phenomenon of consumerism.
Regardless of whether this is the entire truth
I have problem with this so-called poet or the author
using Thailand as a place for the story to take place
because he could've chosen anywhere else
like Germany.
He could've described an encounter with a transgender person in Germany
or in the UK, or the States
but he just had to choose Thailand.
I felt that he was solidifying the stereotype against Thailand
which entails the existence of many transgender individuals there
which is fine
but the stereotype of trans individuals in Thailand entails commodification too.
Sure we can say
these people have every right to choose how they want to make their living
but is it really a free choice
or is it because of a lack of real alternatives
because their society does not accept them as who they are

Chinese: 
他們不可能去做其他的正常的職業
所以才要去成為性服務的(被消遣)對象呢？
這也是值得討論的地方
Anyway我在這裡寫
I have no time for this (不想浪費時間)
第三Part 3
我就是......我完全就不想....跟他you know
好第四章
第四章是最後一章
211到248頁
248頁就是最後一頁耶
就是完了就沒有什麼後言
什麼羅里吧嗦的東西完全沒有
就還蠻乾脆的這個作者
最後一章我真的很喜歡
終於來到這一章可以說一說
在電影結束之後
如果想要看他們後來怎麼樣了
就可以看第四章
我知道有後續
這本書之後有Find Me這本書
可是我聽我朋友說並沒有一個更好的結局
並沒有更好地去交代他們後來發生什麼事情

English: 
so they can't afford other "normal" careers
and have to provide sexual services (of any sort)?
These questions may be worth our time exploring further.
Anyway here in my notes I wrote
"I have no time for this"
For Part 3
I just... I just don't want to... you know
Alright, Part 4
Part 4 is the last chapter
page 211 to page 248
Page 248 is the last page
after this there isn't any afterword, etc.
No BS at all
Simple and direct.
I really like the last chapter
So I'm happy to finally be able to talk about it
After the ending of the movie
if you want to know what happened to them afterwards
you may want to read Chapter 4 of the book
I know there's a sequel to this book
namely "Find Me"
but my friend said it doesn't provide a better resolution
and does not explain better what happened afterwards

English: 
In this book (CMBYN) we learn about the summer...
was it in 1983?
Things that happened in the 20 years after the summer in 1983
After that summer they actually met several times
and the description of what happened
and the feelings
is so real, non-pretentious
full of regrets
but beautiful at the same time.
I wrote in my notes "I don't think I can ask for a better ending"
I'm not one who insists on happy endings
and sometimes when the endings are too happy
they feel shallow
not deep enough
but sometimes when the endings are too devastating
I'd feel like
What, this is what I get after the whole thing?
What this book provides is a beautiful resolution.
I can't think of a better ending.
It's probably the best for them.
As a reader or a member of the audience
I feel like I can properly say goodbye to the book or the characters.

Chinese: 
這本書交代了在那個夏天
1983年嗎？
就一九八幾年那個夏天之後二十年間的事情
在那個夏天分開之後其實他們有見過幾面
然後那時候的描寫
心理描寫等等
我覺得就是真實、不矯情
唏噓
我覺得很美好
我在這裡寫「I don't think I can ask for a better ending」 (不能要求更好的結局了)
我不是一定要大團圓結局的人
而且有時候太團圓結局的時候
我覺得好膚淺
就不夠深
可是有時候那個結局真的是令人很傷心的時候
我也會覺得
看了整本就是這個下場嗎？
這本書給我的感覺就是很美好
就是我也想不到有更好的結局了
他們這樣子的結局應該是最好的
讓我身一個讀者一個觀眾
就有一種可以放心跟這本書或者電影的角色道別的感覺

Chinese: 
我其實是好像晚上不知道幾點
突然間就想要看最後一章
結果就停不下來
看到兩點多，然後就去睡覺了
中間因為太好看了
所以我就完全沒有停下來去放標籤貼標籤什麼的
所以後來我要寫這個筆記的時候
就重看了一遍 給我貼標籤
然後我在早上重看的時候就可以開音樂來聽
我知道之前的影片，有說過我並不會邊聽音樂邊看書
因為會進入那本書的狀態什麼什麼的
現在就打臉了
我覺得最後一章真的很適合配著這個電影裡面的音樂來看
基本上我在看最後一章的時候
不斷播放Sufjan Stevens的
Visions of Gideon
還有Futile Devices
配著這兩首歌去看最後一章的時候
給我一種模糊的蒙著一層灰的那種感覺

English: 
I think it was late at night
when I suddenly wanted to read the last chapter
and I couldn't put the book down.
I finished the book at around 2am and went to sleep straight after.
Because it was such an enjoyable read
I didn't stop to put tags on the pages at all
so when I wanted to take notes later on
I reread the last chapter for tagging
When I reread the book in the day I could put on the music
I know I said before that I don't listen to music when I read
because I'd get into the zone blah-blah-blah
A slap in the face lol
I think the last chapter goes very well with the soundtrack of the movie
Basically when I was reading the last chapter
I had Sufjan Stevens's
Visions of Gideon
and Futile Devices on the repeat
These two songs
give this blurry dusty atmosphere to the last chapter

English: 
as if there's a layer of filter over the story
quite cinematic.
Highly recommended for your last-chapter-reading.
Alright this video has almost come to an end
Hope you enjoyed it
I recommended this book (except Part 3)
There are some new attempts in this video
and I hope you like it
Before signing off
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which is to subscribe to this channel
and turn on the notification if you haven't already
so that you will be notified next time I upload a new video.
For a small and new channel like mine
it's seems to be quite crucial that more people watch the videos
initially after the videos are uploaded
because this will influence YouTube's algorithm to decide
whether they will recommend your videos
to new viewers (& thus potential new subscribers).
Therefore, if you like where this channel is going so far
and that it's worthy of your support

Chinese: 
好像有一個filter在這個故事上面
有點電影感
大家如果看最後一章的時候也可以嘗試這樣子做
好了，今天的影片的就差不多到這裡就要完結了
希望大家喜歡今天的影片
這本書我很推薦
今天這個影片的形式也是一個新的嘗試
希望大家可以接受
然後在道別之前
我還是想要呼籲大家
記得如果還沒有訂閱這個頻道的話
記得要訂閱，然後打開小鈴鐺
以便我在下一次上載新的影片的時候你們就可以馬上收到通知
因為一個新的小頻道出來的時候呢
影片一開始有多少人去觀看
這些事情好像還蠻重要的
可以影響到YouTube會覺得你這個影片
是不是值得被推薦給別的
撞上門來的觀眾這樣子
所以如果你覺得這個頻道so far的那個方向還可以
你覺得是值得支持的話

English: 
I'd be grateful if you could subscribe, leave comments, etc. Thanks so much! :)
See you next time!
Byes!

Chinese: 
就希望大家可以比較慷慨地去訂閱 留言等等
好，那我們下次見吧
拜拜～
