Good morning YouTube
It is 6:09 a.m. On July 28
2019 and I am about to go get on a plane and go get married
But first I had to make this YouTube video. It doesn't really feel right for me to upload it on any other day this
Video is unlike anything I've ever really made because it isn't just for the people who watch my channel. It's for someone specific
And I'm sure you can guess who?
And if you don't want to cringe like really really hard, I suggest you click off while you can
I'm nervous. I'm nervous. I've never made a video like this. I'm fucking sitting in my room
Talking into a microphone like I even know how to work a microphone
The other day in an airport a girl came up to me and asked me why I love you Jake
People actually asked me that a lot and I'm sure people ask you that about me too
But uh, I guess that's beside my point here
I realized in that moment that the only person I never want to question why I love you is you
Because I love you
Like on some I listen to love songs and smile now shit
On some I fall asleep
Smiling notebook shit. I
Love you
it actually still scares me so much to say it because once I say it and
It's somewhere other than my head it becomes completely real and to be quite frank. I am so used to losing everything
I love and I don't want to lose you
But uh, I love you Jake Paul
So I'm making you this video which is really weird
I actually can't even imagine you watching it
And if you watch it in front of me, I'll probably run away cuz this is really fucking cringy
But gotta do what you got to do on your wedding day, you know, so
next time I'm running later pissing you off if you could just watch this and and
Hopefully I can keep you for
A little longer as if this video couldn't possibly make you cringe more
Russ has this song lyric. You heard me, right?
I am referencing a fucking Russ song less than a minute into this YouTube video.
I want to slow dance while they're screaming I remember where I was the first time I heard that song lyric
I remember where I was
The first time I realized I was 100% sure I would never find that with anyone
But I also remember where I was the first time I looked at you and realized every moment of my life
Since I was first enamoured by that song lyric was leading me to you
It's not the idea of Fame or people liking us that entices me about that song lyric
It's the idea that it's us against this world a world
That's so fucking harsh that will chew you up and spit you out and make you feel like you have no place
That's your own a world where you begin to accept in a crowd of people
you'll still feel completely alone a world where a cell phone in your face is more common than a safe place and
Everyone thinks they know exactly who you are
But only you and the voices in your head know that isn't the case, a world that is absolutely not for the weak-minded
I remember where I was when I fully accepted
I would always navigate this world on my own and no one could even begin to untangle or understand the thoughts in my head
I fully accepted that I'd go the rest of my life looking at everyone around me
Knowing they would never really
Understand me or what was going on in my head that I would probably fall in love with and walk down the aisle one day
With someone who didn't fully understand me
I just accepted it because to be honest with you with a life like mine and a path like the one I've walked
You don't really meet people who understand you
ever you just meet people that pretend to and
To me. That's what the truest form of love is
Someone who understands and not just fake understands like a comforting nod or a cliche tumbler quote
But someone who can look at you from across a room full of people and know exactly what you're thinking. I
Could never speak again and you'd be able to write out what's in my head?
We could close our eyes and walk through this life completely blind and we'd still manage to take the same steps
It isn't just I love you. It's thank you. I'm thankful for
Everything bad that's ever happened to me because it led me straight to you
Undeniably in front of my face a magnetic connection so strong that even if I didn't want it
I'd be stuck with it and never forget it. Thank you for going through every single thing
I've gone through but ten times worse so that you know exactly what to say to make it all okay
Thank you for lighting a fire in me that no one else could light a match to
Thank you for waking up the kid in me and making it all fun again
Thank you for working so hard that I wake up every single morning thinking if Jake can do that
So can I thank you for freeing the creative juices in my head like a fucking river
Thank you for loving me even when it might be so hard to
Thank you for never ever ever ever
Giving up on me or losing patience and for always pushing me to be the best version of myself
Because that is the truest form of love you could give me
Thank you for walking into my life and showing me Who I am with you because I fucking love that girl
My best ideas are the ones I think of with our brain and my best
Self is the reflection I see when I look into your eyes and my best life is one lived by your side
I spent my entire life thinking I would be too broken to ever
Match perfectly with someone else and I can't even begin to express the joy
I felt when I first realized that our two broken pieces fit together perfectly
Like a fucking puzzle. You made me realize it's okay
If people never understand if they hate us for who we aren't if they write us off and they cancel us
Because that's easier than figuring us out. It's finally okay
If we go the rest of our lives with dirty looks and Confused reactions while I'm holding up a smile
Because at least we get to do it together
Because when you and I are in sync, we are unstoppable
The world stops spinning for a second when I'm standing on your feet
I'd search the rest of my life for that feeling even if I only got to feel it once and
That's why partner-in-crime would be a fucking understatement. I love you Jacob Joseph Paul
I
Love you for exactly who you are and every part of yourself that you don't. I love you at ten years old when you didn't
know what
Unconditional love was if I could get in a time machine and show you that I was somewhere in the world feeling the exact same
Way in one day it would all make sense
I would. I wish that every moment someone withered away another layer of us using us
Misunderstanding us lying to us breaking us treating us like we weren't even human that we knew we were one step closer to each other
I would pick up the pieces of your heart and meticulously glue them back in place over and over and over again
Because it mends my soul to mend yours
You could build a thousand walls
But I would know exactly how to climb over every single one
Home is a feeling and never a place and I could pick up right now and never go home again
As long as I'm by your side
I'd give you every last ounce of my youth without thinking twice because I couldn't spend it better anywhere else and I have no idea
Where this crazy fucking roller coaster is headed, but I can't look forward because I can't stop looking at you
Thank you for slow dancing with me while they scream I love you
