anyone with the right practice
can attain some of the highest stages of
consciousness and abide in what sages
and mystics
have been talking about since the
beginning of time.  There are infinite
numbers of ways to get there
as i document my entire journey from the
first sit all the way to the 'Big Bang'
The objective is to dissolve every speck
of solidity
that separates you from the rest of the
universe and merge with infinity
i suspect everything we do in life are
keyholes to this end
every day i wake up in the morning i
feel like shit you know why? and i'll do
anything i can to acquire this
consciousness. How do you advertise your
brain evolution is psychology
and philosophy mostly.  I've replaced my
fapping sessions with meditation sessions
"don't you want to see
what is like beyond your mind" There's a
space
outside of the yang/yang circle. (Spirituality) is a 
self-destructive process. Now the body is
a hologram, that's vibrating
moment of moment as sensation. Gone is the
mind-body
muscle duality.  As a matter of direct
experience the mind and the body are in
consciousness
we flip ourselves inside out.  We create an
avatar of ourselves.  I've dissolve that duality
between inside and outside
at first you can catch one sensation
every five to ten seconds with your
Awareness
but eventually, five, ten, fifteen
sensations a second.  "Everything's God"
i just had my kundalini (exploded) to my
crown chakra.  Every particle of my being are exploded like nuclear bombs it was
like
death x divine orgasm. It feels like
i'm floating inInfinity, sometimes it's
scary sometimes
i get a little vertical holy shit but
there's no height there's no
width there's no dimension
there's no form no limit...that's your
true nature, that's your true face the
mirror with no
reflection.  You can access states of
consciousness
that is as powerful as DMT natty with
just the sober mind or even
more right.  i'm almost
at the point of
cessation or Nirvana, or Fruition which
comes after the eighth and final Jhana...
or Samadhi, where your whole universe
disappears
before  a Fruition usually you have a
'Kundalini Awakening' where
all your "chakras" open up.  After that
spiritual high usually you fall into a
"Darkness of the Soul"
we're dying before we die. You're
peeling away layers after layers of the
'false self'
it's hard to lock glimpses of Awakening
into a permanent shifts.
to abiding in infinity
each macro Fruition perpetuate
the character into a new dimension
i've just unhooked Awareness from inside
the head to everywhere and nowhere and
the body the mind even the world are not
just inside it, as tiny clouds of
sensations but
the modification of it and it's aware as
itself
by itself and of itself.  I'm perceiving
everything as like smoke
"paper thin feather light" but it's super
heavy. When i skin i'm 
automatically scanning this whole
Godmind.   There's only One Awareness.
They're all looking through the same
looking as my looking.  Like a Witness it's the last
thing that
is to be dissolved.
"I Am Awareness.  i'm Consciousness
that's not your True Self. 
There's no screening to Consciousness
META
is loving kindness meditation
all suffering comes from separation but
then there's still a little
speck in the center, and you go through a
threshold where...Time is a fake natty
NATTY.  Spaces is a fake natty.  I'm collapsing my
Awareness my attention
into this tiny little point smaller than
an atom
the next moment i can expand the body
mind to the universe
so i'm doing the two simultaneously
"contraction and expansion"
if infinity does not include paradoxes
and contradictions it's not infinite is
it? when i look at a cup
it's completely holographic.  I can penetrate
through it on and on along with all the
other objects in this room
and sensations, along with, sound, thoughts, body
emotions, whatever and it's like this
luminous Boundless hologram 360 degrees
and it's just perceiving itself
in unity simultaneously without any
delay
"without the separate Watcher the
distinction between a subject and object
collapsed
there's only reality where the Source
experiences itself"
see the point is to access every stratum
of the mind or consciousness
and then disidentify and dissemble from them all for max effort freedom
so it's like 4 right now and for the
last
three or four days i just can't sleep at
night
had another '"Kundalini Doownload"
The cycle ended
with a few "Cessations".  There was never
an ego to kill there was never a
meditator in here.   There's no process to dissolve
anything there was
never anyone in here.  Now there's no
center at all.
Death is inside space and time the
furthest reaches of the universe
is literally the extension or your Being.   The
edge of the universe that's
inside space and time this thing
transcends space and time. People think
this is something you imagine.
"The New Operating System" is like this vast,
boundaries, timeless... like the world
is moving through IT.  The body, the mind
even the world seems so far away that
it's like they're just barely hanging
on by this non-existent thread,
that's connecting all the other
holograms through
infinite webs of conditionings.  And when i
cycle my legs they feel like it's the
doing
of the entire universe but that's what's
happening to everyone by itself and
there's nobody doing it.
The body, the mind, sensations, perception
Source,
Awareness, the world, the skies they're
all the same
One No Thing to me right now see
thoughts were never inside the head and
you were never inside the body
it doesn't feel like my eyes are looking
out through the world or my ears are
hearing anymore.  It feels like
there's just one singular Sense Door
"God's Sense Dooor"
and it's comprehending itself. Whatever
is rising is passing away simultaneously
and everything is free falling in
the center of infinity ss infinity so
nothing has a center
total sense of compassion for all beings
understanding that
even though we could be instantly fully
enlightened and just disappear
from this world
we're going to have
every particle in this field contains
the whole it's like totally aware
and awake the future and the past even
now are all condensed
into this Singularity
literally every nano corner
of this room...Not even the room
extends outward infinitely it's it's me
and you
like how did i even believe that i was
this little thing in here
"frank yang" 
this is f*cked up this is so f*cking
crazy
like there's no mind there's no
Consciousness even
it's just this is f*cking
i thought the shift I had before was
huge this is
this feels this feels total
like every little points is connected
is connected that there's no points
anymore
like before there's still some subtle
solidity
here here there there that sometimes i
deconstruct
and then there's no separation during
meditation but now it's just
it's just it's just full it's just it's
empty and full it's just like what the
f*ck
it's
it's like i can't imagine ever going
back to the ways I was before like
there's no way that this is not going to
be permanent this
space her it's just like
it just...i can't explain it
it's like when i meditate before while i was
doing the Vipassana,  I was scanning my body
like this but now
i'm scanning like the way i scan it's
like infinite it's like I am scanning the whole
universe going like this
and then like and i just have to close
my eyes and it's like
it's like and i don't even have to scan
actually i can just sit here and then
it's like
it's really hard to describe it's just
like it's the world is going
through me and
out of me but that's not even the right
description because there's
this meatsuit is part of that emptiness
it's Hologram on hologram. Void on void.  Infinity on
infinity which means that there's
nothing to say.
But there's so much to say, there's a
billion words that could be used
to describe this and it's still not
going to touch it but then
it's
but then words are just empty too.  This
this makes LSD and
DMT even, seem like babies. It's not an experience
it transcends experiences
the whole universe eating itself through
and through like a
Cosmic Snake, like one of those symbols you
know biting its own tail
Strange Looping to Infinity
it's infinite infinite infinite infinite
love infinite
pancakes infinite god
you just get swallowed out by the Void
my body, my thought
of course you're not your mind there is
no mind there is no mind
of course this this eternal stillness
even if you have a million thoughts
a million sensations a million sounds a
million bodies
they're they're in
completely still, and silent, and empty
or they can be completely loud it
doesn't even matter
there's no there's no mind to silence
there's no body to say this is not my
body
 
what the fuck
meditation, books, yoga, all that stuff
is techniques or tools for the character
even Kundalini
for the character to ejaculate himself
out of the dreamscape
out of the Matrix but at that space when
you look back into the
circle of Yin/Yang  Duality meditation
makes no sense.  
it's a different order together
good morning everybody i just woke up
literally
four or five hours of sleep almost every
day
i can perceive every sensation
inside my body and outside stretching
all the way, to 360 degrees simultaneously
all at once
see we're condensing infinity into
finite forms to pretend we're separate
selves
but the two are actually identical
because "form" and "emptiness" are the same
just different waves in the same ocean
the Absolute is the Relative
Awareness gets unhooked.   2nd or 3rd Path it
gets bigger and bigger
infinite towards that direction. But i
didn't close the loop because that spec
was still blocking the way
you're closing the circuit so you go all
the way and then back
again like like a strange loop like the
figure 8 and everything you look
at is like...Infinite.
every sensation is like. Infinite. And the whole
universe like...
you're just like part of that let me
tell you there are awakenings
and there are awakenings and there are
enlightening. And Enlightenment Experiences then "ENLIGHTENMENT"
all that congeal and convert into a
singularity of Enlightenment and that
moment you just know
you can't deny what's right here
perfection
perfection.  Enlightenment and Non-Enlightenment all the same.  The difference
between the full thing
and 99 % is like quantum. There's gonna be
a moment where everything just syncs up
as One. Reality synchs up to Itself. Zero
zero synchs up to Zero it's kind of like
Omniscience almost. This whole Field
is totally Awake
See even Consciousness it's dependently
Originated,  with, through, and as
everything else so it's not the Ground
of Being. It's not permanent~
see even emptiness is empty and when you
try to find that "True SELF"
you can't locate it even though it's
manifesting
the universe right now through each and
every one of us
um basically i'm permanently headless
now.  Sensations when you
Vipassanalize them down to the
microscopic components
it's all just empty space, just like physics says.  
And this empty state vibrates into form
moment to moment to moment and this form
could be anything could be
Oneness or it could be my middle finger
lololol
I Am Loving Awareness.  Nope, don't get stuck
there
always changing always changing always
changing always changing always changing
absolutely no separation everything
is connected you feel like you're
flexing
the entire Reality and the way
the character responds to an
enlightenment is different for everybody.
From Stream Entry (1st Path) to 4th  Path is like
moving from 720
to 1080 to 4k to 360 degree 4k
may all Beings be happy
