good morning good morning I am wearing
my hat this morning because it is cold
downstairs we shut all the vents before
we go up for the night
so I want to get on here and pray with
you guys this morning
I am sipping some tea it is Friday
morning just January I think it's
January the 3rd because tonight we're
having our our prayer and healing
service I'm excited about that
here in Herndon Virginia I hope you guys
need some prayer this morning because I
want to pray
I feel very led to pray I so father God
why some people are getting on good
morning good morning my husband said he
was coming down but I didn't make it up
there to get him back up so Julie Oh
Lord God we thank you we thank you for
an opportunity we thank you for all of
the opportunities that we have every
hour of every day to come before you and
to make our requests known and to come
to you for comfort to come to you for
grace you know I get up every morning
and I ask the Lord to give me all his
all sufficient grace or whatever comes
is what becomes whatever comes during
the day we need the grace of God to get
through it with joy to get through it
with peace and so Lord we just ask you
for your grace we just pray like little
children with faith that if we ask you
agree our requests if they are in line
with your will and we know God that it
is your will that we have grace to
resist the devil that we have grace to
put our flesh underneath the control of
the Holy Spirit that we have your grace
to treat other people the way we want to
be treated
though we need your grace to even see
our circumstances and a positive light
and light of eternity and light of your
love for us or we need your grace and so
we just take a moment this morning to
receive your grace or we know that your
grace enables us to walk in obedience
your grace enables us to see your hand
in situations that are hard you know I
have a friend believe he's on my
Facebook page and I'm pretty sure I know
him from high school because he's in my
hometown he looks familiar you guys have
those people on your Facebook page and
he's from my hometown but he and his
wife I think they have like five or six
kids already and they had another little
baby girl this week and she only lived
for two days in the hospital she had a
lot of genetic abnormalities that didn't
show up in the scan and her chest bone
was missing and they put together a
little clip with music in the background
Christian music that was so beautiful
and so painful like I was just crying
crying when I watched this if you guys
watched me earlier this week I said I
don't know what is going on if God's
preparing me for some loss but he has
put death in front of me and I think
what it is is he's preparing me to bring
some different messages that need me to
have this work done to my spirit you
know fresh that our life is so short
that we are not promised tomorrow
and this little this little baby's life
impacted you know we don't know why I
got a little certain things to happen
but you know the little brothers and
sisters gathered around the bed and the
dad was explaining heaven to the brother
and you know just seeing them hold their
baby and love their babies you know she
carried that baby it looked like to
about full-term if not full-term it was
a full-term looking baby
and then she passed two days are you
guys live in your life realizing that
we're gonna face God because God's
really been dealing with me more and
more as a teacher as a prophet not to
sugarcoat the gospel and to look like I
just I've just digging the word and I'm
reading the word and I'm thinking you
know I don't think that a balanced
message is being released in the body of
Christ in most circles right now because
the Bible talks a lot about sin then it
talks a lot about overcoming sin and the
expectation that we are to live without
sin and that grace is not a license to
live any way that we want to live and it
is not that grace is actually the power
of God to set us free from the power of
sin and death that that means not not
only are we set free from the power of
death that us being set free from the
power of sin is is the evidence that we
are set free from death and you know it
is a process the Lord is working in us
but when when talking about fighting
battles because I say you know the
battle belongs to the Lord
the battle belongs to the Lord and you
you go through the Old Testament and
there's so many wonderful stories about
the Lord leading people into the
Promised Land and the battles that they
had to fight to fight off the
inhabitants of the land and this is the
battles you know these things were
written for us now to understand God's
character how he goes before us and he
makes a way where there seems to be no
way and he has great plans to to
prosperous and not to harm us he has
great plans to clear out the land before
us and
to bring us into a land flowing with
milk and honey and bring us into that
place of righteousness peace and joy in
the Holy Spirit and these things that we
that come against us the trials and the
tribulations we are we're called to
fight I posted about this yesterday but
we are not we are fighting many people
are fighting battles that God has not
called them to fight or at least
fighting battles that God's not called
them to fight that way so I just want to
encourage you guys this morning that we
need to be fighting the good fight of
faith we need to be fighting to enter
the rest of God we need to be fighting
against our fleshly desires we need to
be putting our fleshly desires
underneath the control of the holy
spirit there is an expectation that
Christ died he suffered and died and we
are supposed to suffer with him we are
supposed to suffer with him you know
what that suffering is it is resisting
the temptation to sin and to live in the
passions of the flesh that is what we
are supposed to suffer through it it is
there is a suffering the one who suffers
the Bible says is done with sin we have
to go through suffering if we're gonna
get free from sin
I mean fasting is one of those things
that enables us to break free from
certain strongholds I mean if you have
habitual sin in your life you've got to
cut that out you have got to cut that
out then it needs to be a reverential
fear of the Lord this is not under
condemnation as there's no condemnation
for those who are in Christ you know but
if you read on a nut scripture says who
do not follow after the flesh there's no
condemnation for those who aren't
following after the flesh you aren't
living in the flesh who are following
the spirit if you're living for the
flesh if you're living in the flesh if
you're living in sin you could have
condemnation coming on to you I'm
telling you
if you were just giving and giving and
giving and giving in if you were a true
believer you are going to have
condemnation because we know we know
that God is a holy God somewhere inside
of us even if you're not reading the
scriptures where that tells you be holy
for I am holy to be holy for I am holy
and there is something that rises up in
many people and you know just from
sermons that we've heard and things that
we've heard that really believed that
God presented a gospel of Sloppy grace
grace it just allows you to live in
Hannah way and your salvation is secure
no matter what you do and I'm not saying
that you lose your salvation I'm saying
this the Bible says allow the word to be
grafted into you allow the words are
dwell in you richly it has the power to
save your souls
okay he's speaking to people who are
already saved our spirit is saved but
your soul your mind your will in your
emotions you could still be living like
the devil
you could still be thinking like the
devil you could still be living like the
world and your soul is a mess
you might squeak in the back door heaven
by your spirit but your soul is a mess
you know our personalities are and could
still just be in a place of destruction
and cause and destruction causing other
people pain you know the prayer of Jabez
he asked that he would not cause pain
then as believers we should be the light
we should be bringing healing into
situations we should be bringing healing
in our home we should be bringing
healing in our office and if we are
living in sin we are causing other
people pain you might not see it you
might not see it
just wait till your kids grow up you
know and now I'm not saying that every
kid that goes wrong it's because the
parents fault kids you know are
responsible to God before their own for
their own sin but I'm saying if we if we
are not living right I know for myself I
lived with a horrible temper a horrible
temper for many years but I will say I
thought against it I battled I fasted I
prayed you this is not a message of of
trying to hurt anybody trying to put
anybody down this is a message of
encouragement because if you are a
believer and you're living in habitual
sin and you've got a temper but you
can't get a handle one you got appetites
you can't get a handle on
you got addictions that you can't seem
to break through from you don't need to
hear a word you know that God loves you
no matter what and your you know your
grace covers all that well wha no you
need to hear word that says stop sinning
addiction is idolatry quit turning to
other gods repent for your sin and turn
back to the Lord before something worse
happens to you you know like God has set
you free from there and then if you turn
back to your sin or you don't turn away
from your sin something worse could
happen to you you know Jesus he'll only
think of exactly what that story was I
don't want to tell it wrong
he yield um somebody I can't remember
what he yield him um but um when he came
back around to him he told him stop
sinning or something worse could happen
to you
that means there's consequences that
means there are consequences to sin we
cannot just live to ourselves and expect
the grace of God to cover all
consequences you know you are sleeping
around you could get diseases you could
get good morning Shante you could get
pregnant you know like yes God will work
good through all these things sometimes
God will heal at some cost sometimes the
wonderful miraculous grace and love and
overpowering love of God will deliver us
from the consequences of bad choices but
many times most times God loves us too
much to just deliver us from the
consequences of our bad choices because
he wants us to grow up and he wants us
to understand that he has called us to
holiness he has called us to
righteousness righteousness peace and
joy we can't do it in our own strength
I'm not telling you guys to get off and
beat yourself up and try to do it in
your own strength because you can't we
can that is why Christ died for us
because we cannot save ourselves we
cannot save ourselves we cannot deliver
ourselves but the Bible tells us to put
off the old man that is a verb we have
to put it off it's still hanging on us
we have to put it off and put on our new
man that's may been made and like Christ
we have to put that on and it is
something that we do and how do we do it
we spend time in the word
it is the Word of God that changes us
and if you're just listening to prophets
that tell you all the wonderful things
they're gonna happen in the future if
you just listen to words that are
telling you all how great you are and
how loved you are it's time to grow up
and read the word for ourselves and I'm
telling you it will challenge you and a
lot of people are avoiding free
the whole Council of God because when
they read it they're gonna find out hold
on a minute I'm not necessarily being
fed the truth in its entirety we have to
be able to rightly divide the word of
truth and it is mints
the Bible mints is no words we are not
supposed to be living the lukewarm
we are not supposed to be living to
ourselves we are not supposed to be so
fish we are supposed to be givers we're
supposed to see needs and meet needs we
are not supposed to be talking about
about other people we're supposed to be
kind tender hearted there is just you
know I just feel that this is the Lord
is going to be having more and more
people he's dealing with the body right
now because he does have some pretty
good things he was to release but he
needs a mature believers he needs a
mature body because if you are slave to
sin how are you gonna go out there and
take territory for the kingdom if you
don't even have your own soul underneath
the control of God like our own own soul
is like just step one step one get your
you know we are going to battle in the
flesh but but Paul says and your battle
it gets in you haven't shed blood we got
a battle against those things that war
against our soul I mean those those
fleshly desires there's evil desires we
got to get our appetites under control
even our our appetite for food I'm
working on the book eat to live and I'm
late Lord people are gonna read this you
gotta give me something else for the
first part of the book because I'm like
overeating a sin what gives us in what's
the sin that I've struggled it it's
probably the sin of the flesh that I
have had to battle more than any other
one cuz you gotta eat you know but the
Bible's talking about people who their
God is their stomach it's common it is
common but you know no temptation is
common a man except
what even Jesus has had to face even
Jesus had to face the temptations that
we face every day temptations you think
well I don't know how to get free from
this you spend time with God spend time
with God I mean it's pretty much the
answer to everything you can watch all
the profound teachers and profound
prophets and and it's so interesting
because when it comes down to it the
answer is spending time in the word and
spending time in prayer it's not
complicated I mean there's definitely
deep deeper things of the Lord he has
deep revelations there's wonderful
mysteries to unfold before you but all
of that comes from spending time with
God it's been a time in the word
yes educating ourselves listening to
good teachers good preachers good
prophets good morning Dave okay we know
Lord what we know many of us know where
our issue is we know what we struggle
with we know that there is fear that
there is doubt that there is unbelief
that there is selfishness that there is
greed
that there is you know earthly human
passions that we're fighting against we
know these things so fight fight your
battle by praising the Lord for the
freedom because listen if we are still
being controlled by sin the chances are
it's definitely we're just not being led
by the spirit we're not walking in the
spirit
if you walk by the spirit you will not
gratify your sinful desires when we walk
by the spirit we're not gonna gratify
the desires of the flesh
we can't just fight the flesh fight the
flesh fight the flesh and expect to win
the battle we've got to walk by the
spirit and then we won't gratify the
desires of the flesh
what is walking by the spirit beam being
led by the spirit the spirit says this
isn't the time to talk
you just don't talk about it at that
time practice self-control the fruit of
the Spirit is already within us it's
already there it is already there we
develop it when we get our soul
underneath the power of the Spirit
because our soul is not patient our soul
is not self controlled our soul is not
loving unless it's underneath the power
of the Spirit and we have got to renew
our mind and the word the with the
washing of the word renew our mind with
the wash of the word we got to keep
ourselves stirred up in our most holy
faith I know most of you guys many of
you guys are on this battle you are
battling you are praising you are
worshiping Lord out of the mouth the
heart speaks and so God is sanctifying
his church we are set apart people set
apart for special purposes that means
the Bible says you know good soldier
doesn't get involved in civilian affairs
I gotta stop getting involved in
civilian affairs family matters that
stall kinds of things gossip at work the
Lord is saying you are set apart I have
set you apart the pain that you're going
through the the trials that you've had
don't war against them war against the
flesh war against the things in your
soul that keep you out of the peace of
God rest in the Lord and do good and he
will bring it to pass it's a scripture I
should figure out where all these are
they're just in me I don't have the
reference but you google it like most a
lot of the things I say scripture Jesus
Jesus Lord God we want we want and even
in the battle like with Jehoshaphat
the worshipers were there they were
worshipping there were people bowing
down there were people praising they
fasted before they went to battle they
fasted and they worshiped and they
praise God and you think I have had this
issue in my life God will discipline
those he loves okay so it's not a
punishment but consider your hardships
as discipline because when you have been
made that the discipline is working in
us those things that we that we go
through that we come against I mean
there are natural consequences to things
you know somebody I saw a mean that said
it's all fun and games until they the
genes don't is it you know we can go on
with our this pain nerve flesh whether
it's through actual food overeating or
some other thing you know not what
reading them not reading the Bible not
praying just watching TV every evening
until you've realized you're impatient
you're not happy - how many peace you
know got dread and fear and you're
wondering like what's going on you've
been watching TV all evening there's
been any time with God it's not rocket
science
not say don't ever watch TV but we got
to understand that what we feed gross
you need to watch what you're watching
you know need to watch what you're
putting into your into your high gates
into your ear gates you're hanging
around with don't be deceived bad
company corrupts good morals that's a
proverb do not be deceived yes I mean
the emotional eating I'm gonna put that
eat to live thing back up and I'm so
glad I'm back able to fast after that
the nursing because it's been it's so
helpful for me to keep the flesh under
to control fucking fast on a regular
basis it was really difficult not not
being able to fast
about how jealous she was of me and I
didn't get that it forget I don't know
Dave was saying I was saying I was
jealous cuz he was able to store able to
fast oh Lord
we need you keep fighting keep fighting
I had a temper for a long time I had a
temper for a long time you know
sometimes what we need to get free from
is just trying to fix problems ourselves
trying to fix problems ourselves we have
to get free from trying to make things
happen
lord I pray that we you would deliver
your people from and fight in their own
battles in the wrong way
Lord God I pray that you would just
bring your people into a place where
they trust you and I know some of this
just comes from experience but God is
fighting our battles as we rest in him
God is fighting our battles God is
working it out
that's where patience comes in that's
where long-suffering comes in sometimes
we have to wait as he's working but God
is working and he and when we rest in
him that is a spiritual discipline that
actually is a weapon of war it is a
spiritual discipline that is a weapon of
war we aren't to have that shield of
faith up put up your shield of faith
this protects your situation put that
shield of faith up over your marriage
God's working in this God's working in
him that's working in her he's working
this out I know it seems to be taking
awhile but God is bringing deliverance
God is bringing healing God is bringing
deeper measure of love and commitment
and intimacy I'm believing that this is
what God is doing that God has good
plans for my marriage I'm believing that
God is
working on the life of my child and
believing that God is making a way where
there seems to be no way oh Lord
you know what I say rest and waiting
that doesn't mean we don't do anything
we do only what he's telling us to do we
worship we pray we give these are things
that like move shift atmospheres they
they move things in the spirit they
bring thing to past God is doing a work
right now there's an anointing just on
this word that God is working in people
to stay shift your focus shift your
focus to God
and shift your focus to the things that
you can change with God which is
yourself I mean this is this is
Christianity like 401 this is upper
level Christianity we cannot change out
work situations the thing that we can
change is ourselves and we can allow God
to change us and as we change as we
change we become more powerful because
it's not God just wanting us not to eat
overeat or God just you know God doesn't
want us to feed her body the wrong foods
and overeat because he wants us to feel
healthy he wants us to live long lives
you know like life is short he wants us
to feel good he wants us to feel
confident he wants us to be our best
physical selves that we can be that's
just an example I'm using because it's
one for me that he speaks to me about
you know God doesn't want us to have he
doesn't want us to have fear and dread
because he wants us to walk by faith he
wants us to have joy he wants all of
this stuff it's not it's not God trying
to take something from us he's trying to
get something to us and so when we
change when we allow him to change us
when we get rid of the sin out of our
lives we become powerful people
we're already powerful the sin is just
blocking that power from flowing the sin
is just
it blocks things it hinders things its
constraining its is a chain that God
wants to break off of us that we can
live free and so that we can walk in the
fullness of everything he he died for us
to have he wants us to be able to have
prayers that are effective the righteous
man has powerful and effective prayers
now Elijah was man just like us just
like us he wasn't perfect he was walking
in his righteousness
the prayers of a righteous man availeth
much he prayed and it didn't rain for
seven years seven years and then he
prayed and it began to rain and this is
the kind of prayer life that we can have
where it affects regions not just our
lives so God is he's healing his body
he's bringing healing to families he's
bringing families into the fold all the
things that are needed to be in place in
order for us to move out and move
forward unified as you know sin
separates us from other people it
separates us from God
and it separates us from other people
the sin in our lives separates us from
being able to have the same kind of
intimacy with other people so when we
have sin there's something that we can
do with it like what do you do when I've
got sinned you repent there's something
we can do we know Jesus
the Bible says my little children do not
sin in other words he expects us not to
do not sin but if anybody does set you
have an advocate he says if anybody does
sin you you have an advocate you have
somebody to go before God on your behalf
and clear your name you go into the
courts and you you go to Jesus and you
apply the blood of Jesus to your sin and
when you do this you've recognized this
sin cost
this was not this is this is why it's
not the grace is given freely but it's
not free it costs Jesus's life his
kindness that leads us to repentance and
so when we have sin in our life and we
go before the Lord and we say God
forgive me for this dad
I repent turn from it and enable me to
lay this thing down enable me to break
this ungodly soul tie and able me to lay
down this addiction I mean our Bert was
doing speed this was back in 2000 and I
had started reading the Bible on my own
high and I and I did it
like I didn't do it all the time I would
do it like all weekend and then I
wouldn't do it for a couple weeks but I
had not done it for a couple of weeks
and I was reading the Bible and pushing
into the Lord and bought some more and I
did some more speed and I was like what
have I done
you know like hi I'm not gonna be able
to come down off this for a day however
long that stuff lasted lasts lasts a
while wasn't coke of speed and so I'm
like I feel awful I don't want to be on
this what have I done
you know bondage and I just got on my
face before the Lord and I was like you
have got to deliver me from this I am so
sorry I did this again like I regret
this I apologize like I just cried out
to the Lord set me free set me free from
this Lord and I don't know how long I
stayed on my face crying and crying out
to the Lord deliver me and he touched me
and I was fully sober and I took the
speed that I just probably spent about
$180 on and I flushed it down the
commode and I did never back to that I
smoked cigarettes I had smoked
cigarettes for years and years and years
and years and I wanted to quit I slowed
down tried to quit slowed down and
I gotta quit gotta quit smoking I got to
quit this I got to put this down oh free
from this and I remember it's funny
because these are some pivotal moments
for me addictions that the Lord broke I
was crouched down on my porch for some
reason my mom's front porch because that
first year I got saved I moved to a
really turned my life over the Lord I
moved into my mom's house and I just
remember crouching down to the Lord I
crouched down on the porch going I've
got to get free from this I just balling
up like when your desire to live free it
rises up when you but act of your will
desire to be free more than you desire
to satisfy your flesh you will be free
because Christ lives in you and the
power your spirit is stronger than the
power your flesh the power the Spirit of
God within you is stronger than your
flesh you can be free you got to stop
telling yourself you can't get free you
cannot do it you can't you've always
been this way it's too hard don't keep
saying as too hard as too hard it's too
hard it's too hard on our own strength I
can't love this person is too hard
mmm but I got free from cigarettes now
the temper I just kept losing my temper
oh my goodness uh that was a struggle my
son was hard to race when he was little
he was difficult difficult
I'd hurt him I did I hurt him from from
raging at him on several occasions it
wasn't every day usually it was right
before my period so there was some
hormonal stuff involved too but I still
you know it's it's amazing I can still
experience that hormonal and change
right before my cycle now a lot of
people probably think I'm just way too
blunt about sharing my staff like I'm
not on my fasting vlog that I put out
there because it was a training thing
for people who want to fast I was talked
about during an enema because I was
trying to train people teach people
these are things that you do while
you're fasting sometimes to help I had a
guy just flip his lid about how like he
said I don't know whether to cry or spit
he actually said that like I cannot
believe he said that I'm like if you
read the Bible God told was it Jeremiah
to eat his own dung mmm you told Ezekiel
to bake bread over human dung okay
that's what it was Bray baked bread
every human dung I've never eaten
anything impure I've never liked clean
okay okay you can certainly come on
people think they know what God would or
wouldn't say or would or wouldn't dared
you know like this is what God had one
of the prophets do in the Old Testament
Tom to cook his food over human dongs so
I'm not trying to be a crash but Jesus
Jesus
okay that sidetracked me a little bit oh
Jesus I just pray God that you would
help me that you would help us that you
would help us to live free Lord that you
said it is for freedom that Christ died
it is for freedom that Christ has set us
free stand firm then and do not let
yourself be ensnared again and a yoke of
slavery so a lot of times that you have
been free a lot of times a lot of times
thanks honey out there whoa Jesus Jesus
Jesus yeah babe that's distracting me
will you go in there I'm sorry Thanks
distracted easy lord help me
I just work on hearts this morning
you know the scriptures say this kind of
stuff is hard to hear you know no
discipline at first seems Pleasant but
later on it produces a harvest of
righteousness and sometimes just hearing
a word that like we really have a
responsibility to be fighting off our
flesh and not be walking by the flesh we
have a responsibility we are not our own
we've been bought with the price the
Lord paid a high price to have us we
can't just do whatever we want not not
like we're supposed to be led by the
Spirit he's got a specific purpose for
our day a specific purpose for our life
a purpose for our marriage he's got a
purpose and a plan for us
we want to walk on our purpose this year
we want to walk in our power this year
we want to be free from the chains that
hold us back we want to be free we want
to be like you Jesus I'm not saying that
we should walk around feeling bad about
ourselves all the time but there should
be times of reflection where we where we
are grieved in the ways that we're
grieving the Lord
there should be times where we are
reflecting you know whether it's in
fasting you know seasons the fasting is
the beginning of the year many people
are fasting and we want to be grieved in
our heart by the things that grieve you
Lord we want to be moved in our heart by
the things that move you Lord because
when we are not in any way bothered by
the sin in our own lives then we don't
we're not bothered by the sin in the
world we're not bothered and we're not
compelled to do anything to bring change
to the world you know I think some of
the messes that we have going on in our
country or because Christians are live
and lukewarm in their own lives
so my god what can I do what can I do to
change things you know they might throw
up a prayer or say something but they
don't actually do the things that they
can do we often don't actually do what
we can do to change our society to
change our neighborhoods to fight for
the freedoms yeah that that the enemy
would like to take obedience does bring
freedom that's good Mary
Lord I know this word is heavy
Lord God but we want freedom in this new
year I don't want to leave this week
this day with some of the same things
that I've went into it with well we want
to be changed we want to have our heart
circumcised Thank You Jodi circumcise
our heart give us hearts of flesh Lord
take away our heart of stone take away
our heart of stone you know if we don't
stay grafted into the vine we're not
gonna bear fruit you take a pull a limb
off of a tree and just let it sit there
for a while see what happens
couple of days it withers and the Lord
in the scriptures it says you know if a
tree branch isn't bearing fruit it's not
good for anything and it'll be cut off
and burned into the fire the word prune
us back help us to remember how
important it is just spend time with you
every single day to just sit in your
presence and to allow the light of your
presence to shine on us let nothing be
hidden in darkness Lord deal with us at
the beginning of this year as we go into
the Sears many people are fasting and
praying deal with us God deal with our
pride deal with our our need to be
understood or need to be noticed from
other people
lord help us to live to please you only
Lord you are the one who are rewards
those who diligently seek you you were
the one who has the power to change our
circumstances the power to shift things
you you are the one who who can open the
doors that need to be open you were the
one who can provide the provision that
we need to move forward you are in you
is everything that we need or do you
have the love that we need the
acceptance that we need help us to go to
you God's love is unconditional it
unconditional it's not like he loves us
less because we smoke or you know still
lose our temper or because we're still
overeating when we're stressed out like
that does not change God's love for us
it doesn't change God's love for us he
is love he loves us He loves us He loves
us he doesn't leave us when we sit we
step out from under him we turn our back
on him when we sin he's not turning his
back on us and repentance just brings us
back into his presence it brings us it
it restores relationships the Bible says
without repentance there is no remission
of sins you know they used to preach if
you die in your sin like you're going to
hell
now I mean I know we have to forgive to
be forgiven if you're walking around
bitter little bitterness unforgiveness
resentment you got to get past that I'm
not telling you if you smoke you're
going to hell I'm not telling you that
like we there is grace that's needed
every day of our lives for the mistakes
that we make you know we asked the Lord
to cover the mistakes a lot of times
were we don't even know the mistakes
we're making you know sometimes we don't
even understand where we're sinning you
know we could be not doing something
we're supposed to be doing it is a
process and the Lord is saying just work
it out work it out with fear and
trembling don't just you don't put your
confidence in Lord put your hope in the
Lord but work out your salvation with
fear and trembling I didn't make that
scripture up the Bible says it that
means there needs to be a reverential
understanding of who God is and his
expectation of what he had to go through
in order to make us close to him I was
talking to my son he's 23 he was raised
in the word he was raised me prayin and
fast and getting him out of all the
situation's and God doing supernatural
miracles and maneuvering things like he
was raised in that he's 23 and he has a
girlfriend now
and so he is really talking to her about
the Lord a lot because she is she has
not heard about God she's Japanese girl
but she's really good morally upright
girl and you know he's telling her all
the things about Christianity and stuff
and she's challenging him because he
says basically mom she's living more
like a believer than I am I'm like okay
yeah that's not good you know he said I
think I've just kind of taken things for
granted and I don't think since I've
moved out of house I've never been
challenged as much as this woman is
challenging me and I'm realizing that
I'm not living what I believe
I mean he's not doing some of the things
that he's not sleeping around but he's
you know he's he's dealing with stuff he
realizes he's just taken for granted
many of us raised in the word raised in
church we get to the place of
complacency where we think that just
because we were raised in church and we
no no no the Scriptures a stuff we can
just live any kind of way you know
that's cool and I don't think we realize
it's dangerous it's dangerous we don't
know who we're hurting we don't know how
many people were keeping out of heaven
because we're living to ourselves like
this harvest the Bible says the harvest
is plentiful and the workers are few are
the workers view by the workers view
there's a lot of millions of Christians
if we were all living like we ought to
be living we could get this harvest
synergies can come back we can wrap this
whole thing up and I think that's what
God is doing right now he's saying all
right guys let's get this together
there's a huge harvest out there we need
everybody working together we need
everybody giving 100 percent
Jesus help us Lord God deliver us from
ourselves
you got higher things you got better
things delivers from these lower things
help us to suffer anybody who suffered
in the flesh is done with sin we've got
to suffer through some things to get
done with sin
it hurts to die to yourself it feels
good to send sometimes I don't care what
anybody says I know I love me I have had
times where you know I used to have
bulimia you know we like to call sin you
know our little mental problem or you
know like we the world has labels for
all these things I'm just
I just got post-traumatic stress that's
why I yell at everybody not saying that
it's not a real thing I had it you can
come out of prostitution you and have
post-traumatic stress that's like not a
good thing to have to go through you
know I make those choices or sometimes
the choices have been made for you but
I'm saying we got to quit labeling
things that are sin as an excuse I had
bulimia which I mean really it's just
the ultimate gluttony like I'm gonna eat
everything I want and then I'm gonna
vomit and try not to have to deal with
the consequences it's like uh you know a
many abortion but thankfully doesn't
involve a child I think I'm gonna do
what I want and then just get rid of the
evidence and think that that's gonna be
okay
I had bulimia I had major eating problem
for many years and like almost you can
die from that kind of stuff my saw focus
was eaten out I remember going through
another bout of bulimia after I was
walking with the Lord really close and
because it wasn't all the time I would
have stressful things happen or you know
I a lot of the things that we have a lot
of the dictions we have is just a lack
of surrender so we're trying to control
things we can't control the thing and so
we just control what we can especially
with eating disorders you're controlling
what you put in your mouth
don't put in your mouth or get out of
your stomach and so I just I remember
not being able to swallow and feeling
like this huge metal lump was in my
chest right here and doing some research
and going to the doctor and realizing
like this is a major issue and I could
die like this is bad and just once again
I'm just like putting it out there you
can get three from all kinds of stuff I
would I am
I just got before the Lord and I said
please Lord heal me of this get me out
of this and I'm done and I I don't think
I ever did it again you know and so
sometimes unfortunately we have to get
to the point where the consequences are
so bad then we repent let's not be those
kind of people let's not be like wild
horses that you know have to just have
practically our life stripped to nothing
before was like god I need you I'm gonna
surrender I can't do it on my own like
living in a shelter
you know just gotten beat up by the guy
that you put before God you know
whatever like don't get to that place
you know for some of us like don't don't
get to the place where you're 50 pounds
overweight again if you lose it like cuz
thank god this time are you got to help
me
you got to help me and I am going to
press in and feed on your word so I'm
not starving for all these other things
it was nah mean it felt like there was
something stuck in my throat
all the time like something really heavy
metal' right about here
Mostafa guess word up and up mmm
I could go on and on oh my goodness so
much but if we belong to the Lord he
doesn't let us go he works with us he
works with us he's patient he's so
long-suffering he's more patient and we
could imagine he loves us he understands
the pain that we're avoiding don't be
afraid of pain walk through this door as
a pain sufferer go ahead and walk
through this suffering allow yourself to
suffer a lot of the addictions a lot of
the sin we're even even when you're
losing your temper on other people
you've got pain in your heart get before
the Lord and feel your pain I have so
much pain sometimes I mean now I'm able
to carry other people's pain to the Lord
I'm able to feel the pain of different
situations in the world that I intercede
for and then you know I will feel so
much pain so much pain but my capacity
to handle that
it's just stretched because I don't run
to other things you know and it's like
the running of the things might dull the
pain a little bit but if you just sit
with your pain before the Lord and
intersession you get breakthrough you
break through the pain you come through
the pain with healing it's like a
surgical thing that pain is letting you
know there's something wrong there's
something wrong so you go to the great
surgeon like this hurts I can hardly
breathe like I can't handle this
yes I mean I have days now I mean any
any prophetic person knows this where
I'm paying my heart right now just
actually interceding for you like I feel
this pain I'm carrying and it's like you
carry it through to the Lord you carry
it and you lay the burden down and you
you pray through until you get a release
until you get the healing and then
you've prayed into the healing and
sometimes when you're fasting sometimes
you know it could go on for a couple of
days no hurt for days fast all day long
or for three days straight yeah
well if you're just sitting in front of
the TV neat whatever you want you might
not be hurting real bad but you're also
not getting healing
you're also not being effective in the
earth to move the kingdom forward I'm
sorry there's not enough preaching on
suffering we were called to suffer with
grace if we suffer with Christ then we
will be glorified with him that's like
the prerequisite he says those who have
suffered with me will also be glorified
with me and he's not talk about the kind
of suffering that comes from the sin
you're gonna suffer either way you may
as well suffer towards righteousness
because that sins gonna cause you
suffering I mean you can't block it
forever you can't drink it away you
can't smoke it away you can't have sex
it away it's still it's gonna cause you
anxiety you're not gonna have the peace
you know the joy you know I mean really
the only place I think CS Lewis that is
safe from the pain of living is him how
does he say it closed off from love so
those are our choices
so I have talked long enough I believe
that the this is a lot to chew on but I
feel like it's from the heart of the
Lord I feel like my son where he is
right now it's kind of prophetic because
I feel like he's he's my son he's also a
spiritual child but also other other
people spiritual children I feel like
this is what the Lord has wanted me to
say not that your children but like
people that God is using me to mentor
that this is where his heart is with
some people right now it is time to grow
up it's time to put away childish things
I want you to walk in the fullness of
everything I have for you so missus they
want to get off anxieties meds but
you're scared too well then your anxiety
medicine doesn't even work it I had I
had the Heidi medicines I have that's
another story I've told it recently had
all that there's medicines side effects
you know I will let me just give you a
some practical advice from breaking
addiction do what what is the word I'm
looking for
transfer it take the unhealthy habit and
do a healthy habit okay
don't just try to get off your anxiety
meds go join a gym and start working out
and transfer it don't just try to quit
smoking start walking every day like do
a positive thing in place of that ask
the Lord what is my replacement therapy
is what I call it replacement therapy
you know big about what do you need to
do to replace this with something
healthy with something positive with
something good and do that like maybe
you have anxiety and maybe you know you
need to right you need to be journaling
you know and that journaling when you
get anxiety you pick it up you start
writing to the Lord or writing what you
are hearing a lord saying or writing it
out like so you're not just trying to
stop this one thing but you do something
else in place of it and I think that
it's super helpful you know I mean you
you you got to suffer some and and just
go through the pain of being done with
that but it's really helpful if you have
something else to replace it with so
help something healthy that you're
loving yourself better you know like I
know I've got this anxiety but the walk
helps I know I get anxiety sometimes and
it really helps to take a long walk
really helps to write it really helps to
praise it helps to dance it helps to
sing okay I love you guys that's what I
got for you this morning tonight if
you're anywhere in the Herndon Virginia
area we're doing the the prayer in
prophecy room starting at 7:00 my
husband's come in with me if you are
blessed by this ministry and the Lord
puts it on your heart we appreciate any
any financial help that we can get to to
move forward and all that the Lord's
want us to do and here in this town and
around the world and the different
opportunities that he has placed before
us this year we can only do it by the
support of our friends and partners so I
appreciate anybody who feels led to
partner you can you can partner through
the website and God bless you praying
for you I love you guys I just pray Lord
that this word would not return void
that there would be people delivered
from cigarettes that there would be
people that are able to fast this week
that have not fasted in a long time or
have never fasted and breaks some things
off get a net next level of healing
operative in their soul Lord God I pray
that you would just fill people with
your self-control that you would just
give them a mighty grace to walk and
self-control this year in the name of
Jesus and walk in your love receive your
love flow in your love flow in your
spirit flow in the gifts of the Spirit
that you would just remove those things
untangle those things that hinder all
those things that contaminate my body
and spirit Lord that we you would just
deliver us deliver us God by your power
deliver us by the power of Jesus that
that raised Christ from the dead the
Holy Spirit that Lisbon and I stopped
power within us would rise up and bring
life to our mortal bodies or we are dead
we reckon ourselves dead because of sin
we are dead to sin we have made up our
mind we are dead to this if it rises up
that's a hate that things don't talk
dead things don't rise up I'm dead to
this I am dead to this consider yourself
dead to sin believe it by faith receive
it and walk in the newness of life that
God's called us to God bless you
