who taught you
to not like yourself?
come on, tell me
where did the idea
of you not being enough?
was it the others?
was it yourself?
life?
I,
after 22 years of living
went trough a phase of several revelations
here I would actually like to give
a special shoutout to pain
pain, thank you.
without pain, I wouldn't be who I am today
I wouldn't have organized the drawers that I've needed
to start to put myself in order
if it wasn't because of pain
pain, actually, is our best friend
but you have to learn to hear it,
in order to learn from it
anyhow, back to the topic
in that phase I ended a long relationship
and traveled by myself for the first time
and in the middle of this turbulanenacne
and in the middle of this turbulence of emotions
I had an...
revelation
an universal intervention
I said
geez
i don't like myself
you know what's the worst?
you realize you don't like yourself...
because you actually don't even a relation with yourself
is to be in such a comfortable state
with the flow of things
that you end up forgetting that there is a soul in here
that you have a thing that lives,
a thing that changes
that have new necessities
that has dreams, that has nightmares
you have everything, you have everything here
there's a whole universe inside of you
and sometimes we forget about that
I had seen me as an unpleasant person for myself
because I didn't act accordingly to my wills
I was following the will of other people
people around me
I was following what was taught to me
what it was a standard for success
that being car, career, an apartment...
and in no way I am saying that path is wrong
far from me.
but simply was not the way that I felt I needed to pursue
but followed, for lack of self-knowledge.
it doesn't matter the path you take,
it only matters if it is you who wants to take it
at the end,
I wouldn't even see myself as an possible friend
and only after starting doing things for me,
and most importantly
with me
that I've started to feel, for the first time
going into the direction
that I identified that I've needed to go
and not the one that I've been convinced to follow
but I will tell from now
the self-knowledge journey
is a cruel path
but cruel only to the ego
and most likely
everything you have attachment to, will change
your friends,
your relationships,
how you act with your family
because, the truth is
you cannot change yourself,
without changing your surroundings
it's all together
the change is complementary
it's all connected and you can't escape
it's related to something that I always say
that every change presents itself as an opportunity
who decides if it's good or bad...
it's you.
aaaand, for the first video that is pretty much it
first attempt to... talk
agree? disagree? comment below :)
let's talk
because, in truth I live to be wrong
and let's learn together
