A man: – All I think also
influences the ego,
it's also the ego.
Right?
I'm feeling
freer somehow.
These are thoughts,
basically.
The set of conceptions,
that's all clear.
Olya: – Not quite,
no-no-no.
Mental
Have we still got time?
A woman: 10 minutes till the end.
Olya: 10
These are
different things,
in fact.
Because
thoughts are
just the informational
energy,
which fills
everything.
Whereas
the ego is
a belief in
a certain conception.
A belief
in what you
should be like,
who you are,
who you
think you are,
what you should do
or what you have
done lately
– this is the ego.
This is what has
a history,
both the history
of the past
and the history
of the future
– this is the ego.
But you cannot
call all the thoughts
you realize "the ego".
Because the thoughts
you realize
– they are simply
not created.
They are not created
by your brain.
The brain only
registers them.
They do not
belong to you.
Thoughts are only
realized by you.
Whereas you
have clung
to the ego, like
like
to the so-called
"life-buoy ring",
in order not to get lost
in this life.
But this very
life-buoy ring
– in fact,
it makes you
sink, instead
of
helping to live.
Here is
the key difference.
Exactly what you
have asked,
«the difference»
– the energy
begins to go away
from consciousness
into the ego,
when you begin to
identify yourself
with mental processes.
Here is this
turning point.
If consciousness
identifies itself
with thoughts,
here we talk about
the ego being
switched on
to the maximum.
It is a creation
of these
illusory
inner
realities,
when we
see only 10%
of all that is
happening in reality,
and with 90%
of our attention
we are immersed
into the inside world.
Where we re-play,
let us suppose,
some situation,
which happened to us
or may happen.
This is the ego.
And here exactly we have
here we have
a contact with
the ego
as
some
conductor
that
transforms
the free energy
of consciousness,
which is in the present,
focusing
it
on
itself.
Blocking up this
free energy,
the energy of happiness,
joy.
Blocking up
in the identification
with the mental
process.
Completing
this process
of
building this
illusory little world,
in which
consciousness starts to live.
A man: – Good. Who is watching?
Olya: – The observer
is watching,
while the mind
is watching.
The mind,
but
not the ego.
The mind - as
the higher aspect
of the mind.
A man: – As the background?
Olya: – The background does not watch,
the background is everything.
The background is your
true nature.
But if we speak about
the observer, it is
the Higher mind,
we may say, or
your Higher Self.
Your Higher Self,
as a spirit,
as the higher
aspect
of your individuality,
of your individual
consciousness.
This one...
A man: – Does "this"
also watch thoughts?
Olya: – Yes!
Yes.
But
being
the mind's
derivative,
this is still
a dual
manifestation
of the world.
A man: – There's some
confusion here?
Olya: – While in
reality,
you are
this very
background, in which
everything happens.
You are
the action
itself,
without
the agent
and the object
of the action.
And
the object,
to which
the action happens.
In actual fact,
you are
just pure
realizing.
A man: – Still dirty.
A man: – Pure but dirty.
A man: – So, there are
two observers?
A man: – The observer as a screen
during watching,
and as the mind,
which is watching objects?
It turns out, the observers are two?
That is,
the observer as
a single whole - the screen,
where everything develops.
And the watching,
which
already
registers
objects.
Olya: – The thing is that
the screen cannot be
an observer.
The screen - it is all,
it is
the observed,
the observing,
and the observer.
The screen...
The observer
is one,
it is the subject
inside the screen.
When you are
the screen itself
– you are
everything.
A man: – Then the word
"watching"
is not quite suitable
here.
Olya: – Yes.
And it is impossible
to describe.
It can only be felt,
you can only become it.
This is the
Beingness Itself,
Silence.
You can
find any epithets,
but in the end
you cannot
reflect
in the mental language
what lies
beyond it.
A man: – Whereas watching
something:
thoughts or
something else –
leads to this
screen, which,
in fact,
is
nothing
concrete
anymore.
Olya: – Watching
your thoughts
helps to restrain
the mind.
In other words, due to
watching thoughts
you
learn to
concentrate
your attention.
But it is not
the final stage,
because
in reality you are
not the observer,
but the observation itself.
A man: – Which stands behind the observer.
Olya: – Yes.
And
here
is the important thing
that when you are
the observer,
you
are watching,
you
are consciously controlling
your attention.
But
to become
the observation
you should
set this skill free.
And when you are
absolutely
connected to
the clear,
restrained mind,
you absolutely
release
any concentration.
You become
both the observer
and the observed.
The last question.
A man: – And this is that grace
that has been talked about?
Because it cannot be
understood by mind at all,
it's just a brain burst.
Everyone will agree
– it can't be
adequately understood.
Can't be
understood by mind.
I couldn't realize it now,
digest
by mind.
Isn't it this
grace,
the manifestation
of grace?
Olya: – What we are talking about now
– no,
it can be understood
by mind.
And it can be
done consciously.
Exactly this
moment,
it
– it can be
consciously -
How to say that?
Directed!
manifested.
Well, to do it so that 
it could be possible.
A man: – That means,
to express will even, right?
Olya: – Yes.
But another question is -
the total
liberation
and fixation
in this
in this
silence
as
constant awareness
– this is already a Higher grace,
of course
Undoubtedly.
But, nevertheless,
this
individual
consciousness,
as an observer
– it can come
very close
and peep
into
the window.
A man: – Knock.
Olya: – Wave at
the grace that here
the window is clean already.
And of course
life
as the total
manifestation,
it is
absolutely
open to you.
And
it
also wants to
be realized
through you, just like
you want to be realized
by it.
And here the question is
how much open,
ready and
striving you are.
Exactly striving,
not as
the vector of getting,
but striving,
as exactly giving
yourself to this
Higher purpose,
which you never left.
That is all. Thank you!
