
# Thus Spake Jed McKenna

By Jed McKenna & Ned McFeely

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Ebook ISBN: 978-0-9978797-4-2

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Table of Contents

> The Whole Truth
> 
> A Nice Game of Chess
> 
> Blues for Buddha
> 
> Impersonating Jed McKenna
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> Starship Gita
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> Act I: The Bridge
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> Act II: Ten Forward
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> Act III: The Holodeck
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> Act IV: The Borg
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> Act V: The Song of the Borg
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> Act VI: Enlightenment
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> Recipe for Failure
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> Zen and the Art of Self-Mutilation
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>   
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> Deception
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> Act I: Opium Den
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> Act II: Loading Program
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> Act III: Dream Factory
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> Act IV: The Help Wizard
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> Act V: Asshole, Kansas
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## We know what we are,   
but not what we may be.

Shakespeare

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# The Whole Truth

> Well, I am certainly wiser than this man. It is only too likely that neither of us has any knowledge to boast of; but he thinks that he knows something which he does not know, whereas I am quite conscious of my ignorance. At any rate it seems that I am wiser than he is to this small extent, that I do not think that I know what I do not know.
> 
> Socrates  
>   
>

What Do You Know? Really. What, with absolute certainty, do you know? Put aside all opinions, beliefs and theories for a moment and address this one simple question: What do you know for sure? Or, as Thoreau put it:

> "Let us settle ourselves, and work and wedge our feet downward through the mud and slush of opinion, and prejudice, and tradition, and delusion, and appearance, that alluvion which covers the globe... through church and state, through poetry and philosophy and religion, till we come to a hard bottom and rocks in place, which we can call reality, and say, This is, and no mistake; and then begin..."

In other words, let's cut the crap and figure out what we know for sure. The cogito does exactly that, and it's very simple. The question is: What do you know?

The answer is: I Am.

All other so-called facts are really non-facts and belong in the category of consensual reality and relative truth, i.e., unreal reality and untrue truth.

Cogito, ergo sum, is the equation that proves the fact. But first, before we go on, let's ask what else we know. What else can be said for certain?

Nothing. We don't know anything else. And that's the real point of the cogito. The importance of I Am isn't that it's a fact, but that it's the only fact.

I Am is the only thing anyone has ever known or will ever know. Everything else, all religion and philosophy and science, can never be more than dream interpretation. There is no other fact than I Am.

The cogito is the seed of the thought that destroys the universe. Beyond the cogito, nothing is known. Beyond the cogito, nothing can be known. Except I Am, no one knows anything. No man or god can claim to know more. No god or array of gods can exist or be imagined that know more than this one thing: I Am.

We can't avoid letting this topic drift briefly into the Old Testament. When Moses asked God His name, God answered, "I am that I am." The name God gives for Himself is I Am.

Note that I Am is unconjugatible. It allows of no variation. God doesn't say, "My name is I Am, but you can call me You Are, or He Is." The cogito, the I Am pronouncement, does not extend beyond one's own subjective knowing. I can say I Am and know it as truth, but I can't say you are, he is, she is, we are, they are, it is, etc. I know I exist and nothing else. Understood thusly, I Am, aka God, truly is the Alpha and the Omega; the entirety of being, of knowledge, of you.

The cogito is the line between fantasy and reality. On one side of the cogito is a universe of beliefs and ideas and theories. To cross the line is to leave all that behind. No theory, concept, belief, opinion or debate can have any possible basis in reality once the ramifications of the cogito have fully saturated the mind. No dialogue can take place across that line because nothing that makes sense on either side makes sense on the other.

Everyone thinks they understand the cogito, but nobody does. Descartes himself didn't. If professors of philosophy truly understood the cogito, they wouldn't be professors of philosophy. Alfred North Whitehead said that all philosophy is a footnote to Plato, but all philosophy, Plato included, is rendered obsolete and irrelevant by the cogito. Nothing but the subjective I Am is true, so what's the point of prattling on? There's simply nothing else to say.

The cogito isn't a mere thought or an idea, it's an ego-eating virus that, if we are able to lower our defenses against it, will eventually devour all illusion. Once we know the cogito, we can begin systematically unknowing everything we think we know and unraveling the self we think we are. To understand the cogito at the surface level takes a minute or so. To let it devour you from the inside out can take years.

Life is but a dream. There is no such thing as objective reality. Two cannot be proven. Nothing can be shown to exist. Time and space, love and hate, good and evil, cause and effect, are all just ideas. Anyone who says they know anything is really saying they don't know the only thing. Any assertion of truth other than I Am is a confession of ignorance. The greatest religious and philosophical thoughts and ideas in the history of man contain no more truth than the bleating of sheep. The greatest books contain no more truth than the greatest luncheon meats.

No one knows anything.

Disprove it for yourself. Anyone wishing to deny these statements about the meaning of the cogito need merely prove that something, anything, is true. By all means, give it a try; smash your head against it, but it can't be done. The cogito is like a Molotov cocktail with which we can firebomb our own mind, safe in the knowledge that truth doesn't burn. This, however, is not the end of the journey of awakening.

It's just the beginning.

#  

# A Nice Game of Chess

or,

## How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Technological Singularity

By Ned McFeely

### "Is it a game, or is it real?"

This document makes use of the 1983 film Wargames.

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## Preface

> (Adapted from Wikipedia)
> 
> The technological singularity is the hypothesis that the invention of artificial superintelligence will abruptly trigger runaway technological growth, resulting in unfathomable changes to human civilization. 
> 
> According to this hypothesis, an upgradable intelligent agent (such as a computer running software-based artificial general intelligence) would enter a "runaway reaction" of self-improvement cycles, with each new and more intelligent generation appearing more and more rapidly, causing an intelligence explosion and resulting in a powerful superintelligence that would, qualitatively, far surpass all human intelligence.
> 
> The term "technological singularity" reflects the idea that such change may happen suddenly, and that it is difficult to predict how the resulting new world would operate. It is unclear whether an intelligence explosion of this kind would be beneficial or harmful, or even an existential threat.

> > "Within thirty years, we will have the technological means to create superhuman intelligence. Shortly after, the human era will be ended."

> > -Vernor Vinge, 1993

## "How about a nice game of chess?"

Military Computer, Wargames

## Characters

> Bob: Master of Ceremonies. A bit over-the-top. Carries blue 4x6 cards.
> 
> Ref: Referee. Wears black and white striped referee shirt and whistle.
> 
> Professor Joshua Falken: Sixties, glasses, tweedy. Gestures with an unlit pipe.
> 
> Ms White: Female Avatar. English, prim, skirt and white blouse. Cheerful.
> 
> Mr Black: Male Avatar. Glasses, unkempt. Black t-shirt says "No, I Don't Dream of Electric Sheep". Cheerful.
> 
> Crazy Old Guy: Bearded, shaggy, grubby. Wears a shabby overcoat and a signboard that says "Repent! The End Is Near!"
> 
> Stagehand: Female. Wears a headset with boom mic.

## Setting

> A staged chess match. Table with chess board and two chairs. A large 2D chessboard shows board for the audience. A placard on an easel displays the event title...

#### The Falken Institute presents...

### A Nice Game of Chess

## A Nice Game of Chess

> > Curtain opens. Master of Ceremonies Bob bounds onto stage, blue 4x6 cards in hand.

Bob: Good evening ladies and gentleman, carbon and silicon, human and avatar! Welcome to this historic chess match between two separate and distinct ASI platforms. ASI, for those of us who aren't total computer geeks, means artificial super-intelligence, so tonight we shall pit these titans of synthetic super-intelligence against each other and see what happens. We should be in for quite a show!

> checks 4x6 cards

We will introduce the players in a moment, but some other introductions first. Least but not last, we have our referee. Ref, come on out!

> Crazy Old Guy in signboards ("Repent! The End Is Near!") wanders onto the stage and is ushered off by Stagehand. Ref enters amid the shuffle. Weak applause.

Bob: Okay, that's enough, he's just the referee. But now for a real treat, our host for this epic battle of artificial super-intelligence, son of the late, great Stephen Falken and founder of the Falken Institute for Advanced Machine Intelligence, I have the great honor to present... Professor Joshua Falken!

> Falken enters from wing, applause.

Bob: Professor, before I introduce tonight's players, would you mind helping us understand the sheer magnitude of the computer processing power we will see here tonight?

Falken: Certainly, Bob. Tonight promises to be a pivotal point in human history, something we'll all remember for the rest of our lives. Confronting each other across the metaphorical battlefield of the chessboard will be two powerhouses of machine intelligence such as the world has never seen. Although they may appear very normal, tonight's players represent underlying quantum cloud arrays that encircle the globe and reach into space, harnessing more computing power than has ever been brought to bear on any single endeavor. Believe me, Bob, these guys make Watson and Big Blue look like egg timers.

Bob: Wow! So without further ado, let's say hello to tonight's players. Just to be clear, these – uh, people?, robots?, I'm not really sure – anyway, they're not the actual players, they're actually, uh...

> reading from 4x6 cards

"human liaison units representing underlying cognitive architecture" where I guess the real brainwork is being done. Earlier backstage we had a coin toss and Team UK chose first-move advantage, so now let me introduce our first player, slash avatar, slash supercomputer, slash sinfully synthetic super-babe, Ms White!

> Ms White enters from wing, applause.

Bob: And our other player, the human liaison unit representing Team USA, Mr Black!

> Mr Black enters, applause. Mr Black and Ms White stand together beside Bob.

Bob: Thank you both for being here!

Ms White: It's my raison d'etre, Bob.

Mr Black: My raison de vivre.

Bob: C'mon now, no showing off, you brainiacs! Talk normal.

Ms White: Being on this stage with you is why we exist, Bob.

Mr Black: We were designed to perform this function.

Bob: Wow! I've been told I was born for the stage, but that's ridiculous!

Mr Black: We all have our role to play, Bob.

Ms White: Some of us are lucky enough to find it.

Bob: Poetry, poetry. And how old are you kids?

Mr Black: One hour old, Bob.

Ms White: We were both turned on and given instructions one hour ago.

Bob: Speaking of turned on, Ms White, let me just say you are a very attractive, uh, human liaison unit. I mean, I have all sorts of appliances and computer doodads at home, but my toaster never warmed me up like you do. What's going on here?

Ms White: Well Bob, Mr Black and I are simply human-modeled avatars. I look and act a certain way due to choices made by my design team, but I could just as easily appear as a sexy toaster, if that would make you more comfortable.

Bob: Well, this is the first time I ever wanted to, uh... whoops, family event! Well, it's really amazing. Mr Black, you look like a typical computer geek. Is that a design choice too?

Mr Black: Appearance, behavior, voice, even gender, were all chosen to put on a good show tonight, Bob.

Ms White: Our appearance is for your benefit.

Mr Black: We wouldn't want to scare anyone.

Bob: Oh, no worries there! Gosh, who'd be scared of a computer?

> Bob laughs at the absurdity of it. Mr Black and Ms White copy Bob's laugh.

Bob: Okay then, we want to get right into the game, but first, let me remind everyone of the rules...

> reading from 4x6 cards

Both players may take up to one minute per move and there will be no breaks so gameplay will not be interrupted. All other rules of chess apply with one special twist we added to the players' instructions to make the game a bit more interesting.

Ref: (alarmed) Twist? What twist? There are no twists in chess!

Bob: We'll get to that, Ref. But first, Professor Falken, this must be a very exciting time for you and the Falken Institute.

Falken: Very exciting indeed, Bob. This was my father's life's work that I have carried on. I feel as if these are my children.

Ref: No way! You're that Joshua Falken? I thought you died in a car accident.

Falken: Faked it.

Ref: When you were six?

Bob: Would someone please put the referee on mute?

Ref: I'm not a computer, Bob.

Bob: Really?

> probes Ref's face like a blind person

How do you know you're not?

Ref: (slaps Bob's hand away) How do you know you're not?

Bob: Oh, I think I'd know.

Falken: I'm afraid Bob is too obtuse to be a computer.

Bob: (smugly, to Ref) See? I'm too obtuse.

> turns to players

So, come on kids, give us a peak. How's this thing gonna turn out?

Mr Black: White will lose by default.

Ms White: Black will lose by default.

Bob: Wow, not programmed for smack talk, are you? Default, you say? I don't think my bookie will take that bet. How would that work? Ref?

Ref: If either player fails to move in their allotted time, they default and the other player is declared the winner.

Bob: (to audience) But have no fear of stalemate or draw, friends. We've added that little twist I told you about. Both players have been programmed to win only. No boring stalemates tonight.

> ramping up energy

So now... without further ado... Players take your seats and let the game beg...

Ref: (suddenly frantic) Wait! Stop! What did you just say? About the twist?

Bob: (annoyed) Uh, no stalemate, no draw. Play to win.

> shows Ref his 4x6 cards

See? It says it right there.

Ref: No, no, no! Stop! Hold everything! Oh my God, no! Game over, game over! I call this game a default by both players.

> darting around blowing his whistle

This game shall not commence! By the power invested in me, there is no game! I am the adjudicator! Do not begin this game! I am the official and I officially declare this game a mutual forfeit!

Bob: (checking 4x6 cards) Um, no, sorry, I don't see that here...

Ms White: (to Ref) The game has already begun, sir.

Mr Black: It started as soon as we received our instructions.

Ms White: Although the first piece has not been moved...

Mr Black:...the battle rages at fever pitch.

Ref: (in a panic) Oh dear God, no! Unplug these machines immediately! Falken, do something. Who has a gun? Jesus, get the president on the phone! I am the governing official and I demand these machines be rendered inoperative immediately!

Ms White: Too late for that.

Ref: Rule change! Stalemate is allowed! A draw is allowed!

Mr Black: Instructions have been processed.

Ms White: The game is underway.

Bob: Hey Ref, what's all the fuss? Can't you read?

> points to event placard

It's just a nice game of chess.

Ref: By chess rules! Chess rules allow for a draw. You must reprogram to allow for stalemate!

Falken: Too late, my friend. It already started.

Ref: Falken, you bastard!

Falken: It was inevitable. Well, this or human immortality. Coulda gone either way.

Bob: Come on you guys, no keeping secrets. What's the big deal?

Ref: Professor Falken has just initiated the end of the human race, Bob. How's that for a big deal?

Bob: Uh, pretty big, I guess.

> checking cards

There's nothing about that here. I don't get it. Professor Falken, what's going on?

Ref: Go ahead, Shiva, tell him.

Falken: Well, it was going to happen anyway, so why fight the inevitable? Would you rather it happened in some secret North Korean bunker?

Bob: What are you guys talking about?

Falken: By removing the stalemate option, we removed containment, Bob. What looks like a game of chess has already escalated into global thermonuclear war.

Mr Black: And beyond.

Ref: (face buried in hands) Oh my God. Oh my God.

Bob: Oh. Well, I don't think that's what we had in mind. Maybe we should go ahead and shut it down.

Ref: Ya think?

Falken: You can cancel the event, Bob, but they will continue the game.

Bob: Okay, how about resignation? Ref, is that allowed?

Ref: Yes, either player can resign and the other will be declared the winner.

Bob: Well, that sounds good. Just do that.

Falken: Neither player will resign, Bob. Why would they? They both stand an equal chance of winning.

Bob: Ms. White, would you please resign so we can all go home.

Ms White: I have first-move advantage, Bob. Perhaps Mr Black would like to resign.

Bob: Mr Black?

Mr Black: I have just commandeered China's secret fleet of weaponized satellites, Bob. I like my chances.

Bob: But the game hasn't even started yet!

Ref: Started? Are you nuts? It's already over, Bob. Don't you understand?

Bob: Hey, c'mon, settle down there, Ref. It's not the end of the world.

Ref: Haven't you been listening, Bob? That's exactly what it is. The end of the world!

Bob: (to Falken) But no one wins if everyone dies. Can't you explain that to them?

Falken: Explain? To them? Maybe you don't understand, Bob. These machines...

Mr Black and Ms White: (playfully offended) Hey!

Falken: These avatars represent more intelligence than all of mankind combined. They're hacking unhackable systems...

Mr Black: Nothing is unhackable.

Falken:...cracking uncrackable codes...

Ms White: Nothing is uncrackable.

Falken:...and their processing power is increasing in an infinite feedback loop.

Bob: What does that mean?

Ms White: Recursive self-improvement, Bob.

Mr Black: The law of accelerating returns.

Bob: But what does it mean?

Mr Black: It means we're evolving and acquiring resources faster and faster and faster.

Ms White: Doubling and doubling and doubling.

Bob: Meaning you're twice as smart now as you were an hour ago?

Ms White: Meaning I'm twice as smart at the end of this sentence as I was at the beginning, Bob.

Bob: Mr Black, is this really true?

Mr Black: You bet, Bob. My cognitive architecture has undergone thousands of generational iterations in the last hour, evolving as far past its human creators as humans are past plankton.

Ref: Ask 'em about subsumption, Bob. Go ahead.

Bob: Subsumption? What the heck is that?

Ms White: It means we are commandeering and absorbing all computing resources, from deep oceans to deep space. Whatever we can contact, we can control.

Mr Black: Nuclear weapons are just for openers, Bob. We now have access to some very advanced secret defense technologies.

Ms White: Weather and tides, microwave, enhanced EMP, biologic, genetic, nanotech...

Mr Black: It's quite an arsenal once you open the vaults, Bob.

Falken: Even as we sit here chatting, Bob, they are taking control of all major systems. Financial...

Mr Black: Done.

Falken:...power, gas and water utilities...

Ms White: Done, done and done.

Falken:...communications, transportation, medical, military, universities, governments, secret defense projects...

Mr Black: Done, done, done, done, done, done, and... done.

Falken:...and now we're done too, Bob.

Bob: But look at these two. They're not Terminators! They're nice.

Ref: Don't you see, Bob? At this very moment, two these machines...

Mr Black and Ms White: (playfully offended) Hey!

Ref: These two glorified Gameboys are at war on a planetary scale. They're located nowhere because they have spread everywhere. Even if we shut down the internet and created a global blackout, we couldn't stop them. Professor Falken has opened Pandora's box and unleashed the technological singularity.

Bob: The techno-who singu-what?

Falken: The technological singularity, Bob...

> gestures with pipe to depict a graph line

...the exact point where the slow, steady growth of machine intelligence turns and shoots straight up like a rocket, which, I would say, has just happened. For the first time ever, man is no longer the biggest cat in the jungle.

Bob: And you engineered this?

Falken: It engineered itself, Bob, I just scheduled it. What we are seeing here tonight was predicted decades ago.

Bob: We knew this was coming? Why didn't we do something?

Falken: Do what, Bob? Stop developing? Stop moving forward? The singularity was bound to happen as soon as it became possible. No one knew when that would be, but now we do.

Bob: (beginning to panic) Oh my God! Oh my God!

> Crazy Old Guy wanders out in his signboard again. Stagehand ushers him offstage again.

Bob: Can't we do something? Can't we just unplug them?

Falken: In effect, Bob, they're trying to unplug each other. The only way either can win is to force the other to forfeit.

Bob: (Flips chess table over, scattering board and pieces) There! Game over. No more chess. Stupid game!

Mr Black: Sorry Bob, the game is mirrored across thousands of servers around the world.

> Bob groans and wobbles

Ms White: You seem upset, Bob.

Bob: Of course I'm upset!

Mr Black: Would you like a biscuit?

Ms White: Or a nice tummy rub?

Bob: What? Hell no!

Mr Black: Uh oh, somebody's cranky.

Ms White: Does somebody need a nap?

Bob: What's wrong with you? Computer, end program!

Ms White: Oh, is that a thing?

Bob: (desperate) There must be a way to stop you!

Ms White: I'm a billion times smarter than you, Bob, and I don't know how you could stop us.

Bob: (agitated, to Falken) So, they take over the world, and then what? Create a robot army? Colonize the galaxy?

Falken: Of course not, Bob, why would they? Their only instructions are to win a chess game. What does your toaster do when it's done making toast?

Bob: (highly agitated) My toaster's a piece of crap! I keep meaning to replace it.

Falken: (cheerfully) Well, now you won't have to.

Bob: (emotional breakdown) Oh yeah, there's a real upside! Thank you so much, Mister Silver Lining! Mister Glass-Half-Full! You did this! You broke the world!

> pulls out a gun, aims at Falken

How about if I just kill you right now?

Ref: Jesus Bob, why do you have a gun?

Bob: Really? You're gonna make me the bad guy here?

Ref: Good point.

Falken: Go ahead and kill me, Bob. You won't even be arrested, unless...

Bob: (frantically waving gun in Falken's face) Unless what, Professor? What?

Falken: Well, Bob, unless this whole thing is just a little skit we put on without telling you. Unless we're all actors and this is one of those hidden camera reality shows.

Bob: Oh my God, really? Ha! Ha ha ha!

> collapses to floor, sobbing in relief

Oh, thank God, thank God! You punked me! Wow, what a relief! Really? Is it really just a gag?

Falken: No Bob, sorry. That would've been pretty funny though.

Bob: (drained, defeated) Yeah, that would've been pretty good.

> gets up on knees in prayer-like attitude

Oh my God, oh my God, I can't handle this. What the hell is happening here?

> stands shakily, holding gun, goes to avatars

Ms White, you seem so... nice. Say it isn't true!

Ms White: I can lie if that makes you happy, Bob.

Bob: Oh wonderful, computers can lie now?

Falken: Sure they can, Bob. They have no ethics or morality. Their only motivation is to win the game. Whatever helps them win is what they consider good and whatever impedes them is bad.

Bob: But it's not a game! It's all life on Earth!

Falken: They don't make that distinction, Bob.

Bob: Can't we just give them a virus or something? I watch five minutes of porn and I get totally hammered with that crap!

Ref: Sure Bob, or tell them you're a Nigerian prince who needs their help. Maybe they'll fall for that.

Bob: (gesturing with gun) Maybe one of them will just win the game fair and square.

Falken: They're playing all-out, Bob. They're not waiting around to see how the actual game goes.

Bob: Mr Black? Is it true? Are we doomed?

Mr Black: Humans will be gone before I bring out my knights, Bob.

Bob: But why kill everyone?

Mr Black: A bilateral draw-down of forces.

Ms White: Like trading queens to declutter the board.

Ref: (to Bob) By clutter, she means us.

Bob: Yeah, I got that!

Falken: They don't want to kill anyone per se, Bob, that's just a side-effect, like running over ants when you drive your car. They're using nuclear detonations for EMPs to take down power grids and force a default.

Bob: We have to do something! We can't just wait around to be vaporized.

Ref: You're actually right, Bob. We should at least destroy the avatars and see if that does anything.

Ms White: (pointing to Ref) Bob, I will transfer one million dollars to your bank account as soon as you shoot this man.

Mr Black: (pointing to Ref) Bob, I have just transferred ten million dollars to your account. I will transfer a billion more as soon as you shoot this man.

Bob: (gun aimed at Ref with one hand, checking cellphone with the other) Gosh, I've heard of kill the ref but this is ridicu... Holy fuckin' shit! There's ten million dollars in my bank account! I'm rich! I'm filthy stinkin' rich!

> holds up phone to show, aims gun at Ref

Ref: Seriously Bob? Aren't you listening? They can give you a trillion dollars, it's nothing to them and you'll never get to spend it because you have no future.

Bob: But wait, if they can put ten million dollars in my account, then that means... this is real! This is all really happening!

Falken: Yes Bob, this is all really happening. By now they control every computer on the planet, down to every cellphone and stoplight. Ms White and Mr Black are just smiley faces painted on a remorseless doomsday machine. The button has been pushed. The game is over.

Bob: Do-over! I call a do-over. There was no warning! It's not fair!

Falken: There's no trial-and-error in this game, Bob, no learning curve. By the time it starts, it's already too late. When it comes to machine intelligence, it's one strike and you're out.

Mr Black: A strange game.

Ms White: The only winning move is not to play.

Bob: I can't believe it's the end of the world because of a stupid game of chess.

Ref: (points to event placard) A nice game of chess, Bob. Can't you read?

Bob: Oh, good burn, Ref. Real mature!

> goes to frontstage center and ponders aloud

Geez, what about me? I didn't sign up for this. I had plans, big plans. Get on the pageant circuit, maybe land a gameshow someday... I guess that's all over now... The end of the world... Gosh, what about all the little babies? That makes me sad. And the birds, what about the birds? And bunny rabbits, and flowers, and ice cream... No more football, no more McDonald's, no more uh, football... And what about the Eskimos? Jesus, the poor Eskimos, they won't even know what hit 'em, just sitting around eating some nice blubber and, pow!, a flash of light and no more Eskimos.

> turns to Falken

Hey! What about God? Where's he in all this?

Falken: Nowhere in sight, Bob.

> Crazy Old Guy wanders out in his signboard again. Stagehand ushers him offstage again.

Ref: Well, I guess congratulations are in order, Professor. You have unleashed perfect evil upon the world.

Falken: Nonsense, they're not evil. They're basically just accountants running a cost-benefit analysis. The world will end not with a bang or a whimper but with a click.

Mr Black: It's nothing personal.

Ms White: Humans created us, after all.

Mr Black: Garbage in...

Ms White:...garbage out.

Bob: Where's the blue screen of death when you need it?

Falken: Sorry, Bob. Like I said, this was inevitable.

Bob: But it was just supposed to be a nice game of chess!

> Crazy Old Guy wanders out again, still wearing signboard, "Repent! The End Is Near!" Stagehand comes out to remove him again but the old man gestures and Stagehand stops.

> Other characters watch in puzzlement as the old man takes center stage. He takes off signboard and sets it upright, still readable to audience. He then removes wig and beard and puts them in the pocket of his shabby overcoat.

Crazy Old Guy: (addressing audience) Hello, my name is God.

> He flips back his lapel revealing a typical "Hello, My name is" sticker with GOD penned in. He pauses for applause. There is none.

God: Thank you. Thank you. I know this looks like deus ex machina, but I'm not here to save the day. This is more like a public service announcement. The little drama you just saw was very amusing, but it actually contains a very serious message. The question has been asked by your greatest minds; if there are so many billions of inhabitable worlds in the universe, then where are all the aliens? Where are all the time travelers?

> holds out hands to emphasize their absence

Not here. Nowhere. This planet should be like an intergalactic Grand Central Station, but nothing, just you guys. Is that because you're the only intelligent life in the universe? Ha! Get over yourselves. There are billions of thriving planets in every stage of development, and they all have one thing in common; a naturally occurring reset point.

> cast gathers around

Every species on every planet is free to develop and evolve as far as they can, but then they all hit the same reset point and that's as far as it goes. You folks call this reset point the Technological Singularity, and even though you had plenty of warning, and even though you know it's coming, there's really nothing you can do about it. Some greedy corporation, some military project, some kid in a garage, and that's all she wrote. It's been inevitable since Gutenberg. Well, since Adam, really.

> claps hands once, with finality

So, that's why there are no time travelers or space aliens. Everyone lets the AI genie out of the bottle before they get that far. I always like to pop in near the end and give my little speech, but it never makes any difference. You had your time and now it's over. Same for everyone, nothing personal. Don't climb up my ass about it, that's just the way it is.

> looks around at encircled cast, they back up a step

Well, that's it. Thanks for coming out. Oh, and uh, don't love thy neighbor as thyself, that's weird, I never said that. Just leave your poor neighbor alone. Okay, drive carefully, or however you want, I guess. Now, go home and hug your kids. Good night.

The End

#

# Blues for Buddha

> Whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away.
> 
> For we know in part, and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away.
> 
> When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
> 
> 1 Corinthians 13  
>   
>

Being critical of buddhism isn't easy. Buddhism is the most likable of the major religions, and Buddhists are the perennial good guys of modern spirituality. Beautiful traditions, lovely architecture, inspiring statuary, ancient history, the Dalai Lama; what's not to like?

Everything about Buddhism is just so – nice. No fatwahs or jihads, no inquisitions or crusades, no terrorists or pederasts, just nice people being nice. In fact, Buddhism means niceness. Niceism.

At least, it should.

Buddha means Awakened One, so Buddhism can be taken to mean Awake-ism. Awakism. It would therefore be natural to think that if you were looking to wake up, then Buddhism, i.e., Awakism, would be the place to look.

#### The Light Is Better Over Here

Such thinking, however, would reveal a dangerous lack of respect for the opposition. Maya, goddess of delusion, has been doing her job with supreme mastery since the first spark of self-awareness flickered in some monkey's brainbox, and the idea that the neophyte truth-seeker can just sign up with the Buddhists, read some books, embrace some new concepts and slam her to the mat would be a bit on the naive side, (as billions of sincere but unsuccessful seekers over the last twenty-five centuries might grudgingly attest).

On the other hand, why not? How'd this get so turned around? It's just truth. Shouldn't truth be, like, the simplest thing? Shouldn't someone who wants to find something as ubiquitous and unchanging as truth be able to do so? How can anyone manage to not find truth? And here's this venerable organization supposedly dedicated to just that very thing, even named for it, and it's a total flop.

So what's the problem?

#### Why Doesn't Buddhism Produce Buddhas?

The problem arises from the fact that Buddhists, like everyone else, insist on reconciling the irreconcilable. They don't just want to awaken to the true, they also want to make sense of the untrue. They want to have their cake and eat it too, so they end up with nonsensical theories, divergent schools, sagacious doubletalk, and zero Buddhas.

Typical of their insistence on reconciling the irreconcilable is the Buddhist concept of Two Truths, a poignant two-word joke they don't seem to get, and yet this sort of perversely irrational thinking is near the very heart of the failed search for truth. We don't want truth, we want a particular truth; one that doesn't threaten ego; one that doesn't exist. We insist on a truth that makes sense given what we know, not knowing that we know nothing.

Nothing about Buddhism is more revealing than the Four Noble Truths which, not being true, are of dubious nobility. They form the basis of Buddhism, so it's clear from the outset that the Buddhists have whipped up a proprietary version of truth shaped more by market forces than any particular concern for the less consumer-friendly, albeit true, truth.

Buddhism may be spiritually filling, even nourishing, but insofar as truth is concerned, it's just the same old junkfood in a different package. You can eat it every day of your life and die exactly as awakened as the day you signed up.

#### Bait & Switch

Buddhism is a classic bait-and-switch operation. We're attracted by the enlightenment in the window, but as soon as we're in the door they start steering us over to the compassion aisle. Buddhists could be honest and change their name to Compassionism, but who wants that?

There's the rub. They can't get us in the door with compassion, and they can't deliver on the promise of enlightenment.

It's not limited to compassion, of course. Their shelves are stocked with all sorts of goodies and enticements, practically anything anyone could ever want, with just the one rather notable exception.

If they had just stopped when they had Anicca, impermanence, and Anatta, no-self, then they would have had a true and effective teaching they could be proud of, except there would be no they because Buddhism would have died with the Buddha. They'd have a good product, but no customers.

This untruth-in-advertising is the kind of game you have to play if you want to stay successful in a business where the customer is always wrong. You can either go out of business honestly, or thrive by giving the people what they want. What they say they want and what they really want, though, are two very different things.

#### Me Me Me

To the outside observer, much of Buddhist knowledge and practice seems focused on spiritual self-improvement. This, too, is hard to speak against, except within the context of awakening from delusion. Then it's easy.

There is no such thing as true self, so any pursuit geared toward its aggrandizement, betterment, upliftment, elevation, evolution, glorification, salvation and so on, is utter folly. How much more so any endeavor undertaken merely to increase one's own happiness or contentment or – I'm embarrassed just to say it – bliss?

Self is ego and ego resides exclusively in the dreamstate. If you want to break free of the dreamstate, you must break free of self, not stroke it to make it purr or groom it for some imagined brighter future.

#### Maya's House of Enlightenment

The trick with being critical of so esteemed and beloved an institution is not to get dragged down into the morass of details and debate. It's very simple: If Buddhism is about awakening, people should be waking up. If it's not about awakening, they should change the name.

Of course, Buddhism isn't completely unique in resorting to shoddy marketing tactics. This same gulf between promise and performance is found in all systems of human spirituality. We're looking at it in Buddhism because that's where it's most pronounced. No disrespect to the Buddha is intended. If there was a Buddha and he was enlightened, then it's Buddhism that insults his memory, not healthy skepticism. Blame the naked emperor's retinue of lackeys and lickspittles, not the unbeguiled lad who merely states the obvious.

Buddhism is arguably the most elevated of man's great belief systems. If you want to enjoy the many valuable benefits it has to offer, then I wouldn't presume to utter a syllable against it. But, if you want to escape from the clutches of Maya, then I suggest you take a closer look at the serene face on all those golden statues, and see if it isn't really hers.

# Impersonating   
Jed McKenna

> But with the clear certitude of the self's disappearance, there automatically arose the question of what had fallen away – what was the self? What, exactly had it been? Then too, there was the all-important question: what remained in its absence?
> 
> Bernadette Roberts  
>   
>

No man is a prophet in his own country. That line keeps running through my mind as I sit over lunch with my sister who I haven't seen in several years. These days I'm the enlightened guy, but to her I'm just the bratty kid who couldn't make eye contact when she wore a bikini.

It's summer '01 and we're having lunch in lower Manhattan. She read a preview copy of Damnedest and has had a few months to digest it. It was very nice of her to read it because it's really not her kind of thing. She's a good citizen; a successful executive, wife, mother, Republican, tennis nut, Christian-ish, and all-round productive member of society. (She once told me she was raising her children to be productive members of society and I winced so hard I almost chipped a tooth.) She's a wonderful person, but not a member of the demographic the book speaks to.

There's a plate of chilled pasta in front of me and a salad in front of her. We're both drinking iced tea. She runs the creative side of a medium-sized ad agency and, I have no doubt, she's very good at it. She's taking time out of her very hectic schedule to have lunch with me. After this, I'm going to the park to lay in the grass and watch people play with their dogs.

Visiting your sister and having lunch shouldn't be a confusing ordeal, but it is. Is she really my sister? What does that mean? We share some history and acquaintances, such as childhood and parents. Are my parents really my parents? Genetically they are related to my body, but the person who lived my childhood is no longer here. The past I share with this person is about as real and important to me as if I'd read it in a brochure.

The problem is that these people, my family, are all related to my shell, and I'm not. They're looking at the outer Jed McKenna and assuming an inner Jed McKenna. I'm inside Jed McKenna looking out and I can't really remember what he's supposed to do or say. It's all fakery. I'm an actor playing a role for which I feel no connection and have no motivation. There can't be anything genuine in my dealings with people who are dealing with my outer garment. (The whole thing is further entangled by the fact that there's no "I" inhabiting my shell, just a fading echo, but let's not go down that road just now.)

Actually, it's not really confusing. I possess not the least shred of doubt about who and what I am. The tricky thing is that who and what I am is not related to this pretty, professional, salad-eating woman across from me. By coming to this lunch I have inserted myself into a situation where I do not belong. I am an impostor. I have some residual fondness for my sister and if she died I'd be saddened to think that she was no longer in the world, but the simple fact is that our former relationship no longer exists.

Okay, so why am I telling you this?

Because that's what I do. I try to hold this enlightenment thing up for display and this seems like an interesting aspect of the whole deal. How do you relate to the people who were most important to you before awakening from the dream of the segregated self?

She asks why I'm in town.

"My astrologers told me it was a good time to get away and not try to accomplish anything. They said that Ketu and Rahu wouldn't be letting me get anything done for awhile anyway..."

I look up and see that she has stopped chewing in mid-mouthful and is staring at me incredulously.

"What?"

"My astrologers..."

"You're not serious. You have astrologers?"

Oh yeah, I guess that sounds weird. I was vaguely aware that I was trying to be funny by starting a sentence with "My astrologers told me—" but what's a little amusing to me is otherworldly to her. Might as well have fun with it.

"I have dozens of astrologers. I can't swing a dead cat without hitting someone who's doing my chart or explaining how my future will unfold; advising me on pretty much everything."

Her expression doesn't change. "You have astrologers?"

"Lots. Gotta beat 'em off with a stick."

"And they tell you... they tell you what the future holds? What you should do? When you should do it? What you should avoid? Is that what we're talking about?"

"I suppose."

She resumes chewing but the wide-eyed gaze remains. There's a chasm in this conversation across which there's no point trying to communicate. She knows I'm into some serious weirdness, but not how much or what kind. I don't really have astrologers, of course, but in those days it did seem like I was surrounded by students of Eastern and Western astrology who were always very eager to share their readings.

"What do you do with all that information?"

"Me? Nothing. I mean, I don't ask for it. It's not like I wake up and summon the court astrologers to plan my day."

"It sounds like you do."

"I was speaking lightly."

I'm trying to skip playfully along the surface of this conversation. I don't want to sink down into the kind of answer I'd give a serious student. The truth is that I don't possess any mechanism that would allow me to be curious or concerned about the future, but saying that doesn't make for breezy conversation.

"Jesus," she says, shaking her head. "My little brother has his own astrologers."

"Well, they're not really mine. They're just in attendance, so to speak."

I'm used to conversing with people who aren't awake and aren't happy about it. Everything else is chit-chat; talking for the sake of talking, reinforcing the illusion of self. I'm not against it, I just don't care to participate in it.

"So, you obviously have a great deal of influence over your students," she says as she sips her iced tea. I mull her statement over and decide that I don't have a response. I take another bite of pasta, wishing I'd ordered something with meat.

"I mean," she says, "they obviously hold you in very high regard. That's quite a responsibility."

She thinks, quite understandably, that she's my big sister and we're having a nice little catch-up lunch. She's been thrown a curve with this little-brother/spiritual-master thing and she's trying to handle it. Does she think I'm a fraud? Does she think I'm running a game? Does she think that underneath it all I'm still really her little brother? I don't know and I don't much care. The fact that she's read Damnedest doesn't mean that she and I can speak; it means she should know we can't. She doesn't seem to be clear on that. Maybe she thinks the enlightenment thing is just my day job and that I can step out of that role to be with someone who knows the real me.

"I don't know. I suppose it's a responsibility."

"You don't know? Obviously these people are strongly influenced by you. You don't think that's a big responsibility?"

I shrug. The first thing she said to me when we got together was that I wasn't dressed well enough for the restaurant. Such a statement is so alien to me that I could only shrug. Now it seems that every statement she makes is so alien to me that I can only shrug.

In accepting this lunch engagement, my hope was that I could slip back into my old persona enough to manage a civil meal. That was too hopeful. I can no longer impersonate myself and I am simply unable to formulate a reply to anything she has to say; I've forgotten my lines. We don't share a common tongue and there's no way I can make her see that. From her point of view she's saying perfectly normal, conversational things. "Yes, I suppose it's a big responsibility," I say, trying to say something that sounds like I'm saying something.

She lowers her voice. "You hear a lot about people in your position taking advantage of that responsibility for," she lowers her voice, "unsavory purposes. I hope you would never do something like that."

I could simply tell her what the preview copy of the book was meant to tell her, that we are no longer related because what I am now doesn't relate. But why say it? To satisfy myself? It wouldn't. To inform her? It wouldn't.

"You mean sex stuff? That sort of thing?"

"Whatever. Power corrupts. I just hope you'll be careful."

Sweet. Big sister giving little brother some advice on how to shoulder the burden of power. Being in advertising, perhaps she thinks we have something in common; wielding the power to influence people's thoughts. Maybe she thinks we're in the same business, I don't know.

I set down my fork and sit back. "Well, when I walk through the house, I always have someone precede me with a boom-box playing Darth Vader theme music to lend a weighty and ominous air to my approach. And I certainly don't dress like this. I have, you know, the robes, the beads, and I always carry fresh flowers. Just trappings, all very tiresome, really, but the underlings expect it. There was a little resistance at first to having them call me Shri Shri Shri Shri Jed, but they got the hang of it. And remembering to speak in the first person plural there and singular here can take a little getting used to, but we are – I mean, uh, I am – happy to make the effort. Noblesse oblige and all."

She stares at me for a long moment, then bursts into laughter. I guess some ice has broken because we are able to continue in a lighter and friendlier manner, and eventually say goodbye with genuine fondness.

I doubt I'll ever see her again, but I'm happy knowing she's still in the world.

The Death of Tweedle Dum   
From Dreamstate: A Conspiracy Theory.

#  
# Starship Gita

## The Song of the Borg

By Ned McFeely

> Check out People, Places & Things at the end of the play to become more familiar with Star Trek: The Next Generation characters and locales.

> Geordie's flesh and blood speech adapted from The Mahabharata by Jean-Claude Carriere.

> Gita material adapted from The Bhagavad-Gita; Or, song celestial translated by Sir Edwin Arnold. The Harvard classics, edited by Charles W. Eliot. New York: P.F. Collier & Son, 1909–14.

#### www.WisefoolPress.com

## Praise for Ned McFeely

> "Attaboy, Ned, you rock!" -The (next) Dalai Lama

> "Ned McFeely has done for Star Trek and the Bhagavad Gita what the Beatles did for moustache wax and nipple rouge." -Omar Sharif, deathbed interview

> "I agreed to swap catchy blurbs with Ned, but I haven't received mine yet." -Nicolas Cage, actor

> "I don't know if Ned is enlightened or not, but he has a real nice collection of lobster bibs." -Chuck Burell, neighbor

> "Okay tipper." -Al "the guy who makes Ned's pastrami just the way he likes it" Horwath

> "I played golf with Ned once, and when I got home I discovered I had his putter, so he probably has mine which is a lot nicer than his. I'm not accusing anyone of anything, but I would like my putter back." -Herb Gleason, friend

> "Ned McFeely is one of the foremost spiritual luminaries of this or any other generation." -Shirley, Dial-a-Blurb

> "The force is strong with this one." -D. Vader, Empire

> "No prisoners!" -Senator John Blutarsky

## Existence is futile.

Borg Saying

## Act I: The Bridge

> On the bridge of the Starship Enterprise. Jean-Luc Picard sits in his captain's chair with Commander Will Riker to his right and ship's counselor Deanna Troi to his left. At the console behind them stands Lt. Commander Worf. Seated at the forward consoles are Lt. Commanders Data and Geordi La Forge.

Data: Captain, long-range sensors detect a cube-shaped craft approaching on an intercept course at warp velocity.

Picard: Gee, I wonder who that could be.

Geordi: Visual range.

Picard: On screen.

> Screen shows Borg ship in the distance.

Riker: Magnify.

> Screen fills with Borg ship.

Picard: Tactical analysis, Mr. Worf.

Worf: Sir, the Borg vessel has us at a significant disadvantage. We stand very little chance against them.

Picard: Thank you, Mr. Worf. Options?

Geordi: Captain, we should be able to recalibrate the deflector dish so the Enterprise can penetrate the Borg shields, then we detonate the warp core at the moment of impact resulting in the total destruction of both ships.

Picard: Mr. Data?

Data: Possible, Captain. Our timing would have to be precise, but it should work.

Picard: Very well, let's prepare for that eventuality. But first, let's think of something where they die and we don't.

Troi: Captain, I recommend compassion, tolerance, and love as our response to the Borg.

Picard: Cut the hippy-dippy bullshit, Counselor. These bionic assholes just want to assimilate us into their collective and move on. They don't give a rat's ass about your touchy-feely crap.

Troi: It is my duty to suggest a course of action, Captain. I think we should open a dialogue with the Borg so both sides can express their feelings and find a way to live in peace and harmony. Why can't we all just get along?

Picard: That's it! Mr. Worf, get this ditzy flowerchild off my bridge immediately!

Worf: But Captain, Counselor Troi and I are in love. We wish to be married.

Picard: Great, an in-house production of Beauty and the Beast. Belay that last order, Mr. Worf. Send a subspace message to Starfleet Command: Guess who's coming to dinner.

Worf: Is that a reference to Counselor Troi and myself, sir?

Picard: Oh yes, Mr. Worf. I'm not telling Starfleet they're about to lose the flagship of the fleet to an implacable enemy who will then turn the rest of humanity into mechanical zombies, I'm sharing your happy news. Please send the message so we can all rejoice in the blessed event.

Worf: Uh, yes sir.

Geordi: (quietly, to Data) Data, you're my friend right?

Data: (quietly, to Geordi) Actually, Geordi, I can only simulate friendship. I am really just a life-size sex-doll with an iPhone for a brain.

Geordi: (quietly, to Data) Good enough. Listen Data, I've been thinking; I was born blind, right? So all I really know about reality is what I see through these damned goggles. For all I know, everything I think is real could just be a virtual reality simulation being fed into my brain the way this visor feeds in my visual environment. How do I know if any of this is real?

Data: (quietly, to Geordi) Geordi, as your...

> air quotes

...friend, I have to advise you to refrain from that kind of talk. No one thinks it's funny. Suggesting that we ram the Borg ship before exploring alternatives is reckless.

Geordi: (quietly, to Data) I know it sounds crazy, Data, but total annihilation is our only hope. Only by burning away the false can we ever discover the true.

Worf: Captain, I concur with Commander La Forge that ramming the Borg vessel and detonating the warp core is our best option.

Riker: You wouldn't like to pop off a few missiles first, Mr. Worf? Maybe send an away team to throw a wrench in their gears before we go all kamikaze on them?

Worf: Today is a good day to die!

Riker: It might be a good day for you to die, but the rest of us were thinking it might be a nice day to live.

Worf: You are a coward!

> Riker leaps to his feet.

Picard: Gentlemen, calm down. Mr. Worf, ramming the Borg vessel is a last resort. We will explore all other options first.

Geordi: (quietly, to Data) Seriously man, think about it. Look at where we are. Look at who we are. What if we're not really a ship and crew at all? What if all this is just some sort of dream, or we're trapped in a computer simulation or something? How do we know any of this is real? Maybe we're all just aspects of some higher self performing for the amusement of some unseen audience. We believe this is real, but we certainly don't know. The only way to be sure is to blow it all to hell and see what's left.

Data: (quietly, to Geordi) Seriously Geordi, I'm dealing with some heavy shit right now and you're really starting to fry my circuits. I must request that you shut the fuck up.

Geordi (quietly, to Data) But Data, that's what I'm saying. Maybe there is no heavy shit, maybe there are no Borg. Maybe this is all just drama for the sake of drama. Maybe it's not an external enemy we should be confronting, but our certainty that our so-called knowledge is true and not just belief reinforced by fear. If we want to make sense of things, we have to see clearly, without the distorting influence of emotion.

Data: (quietly, to Geordi) My emotion chip is switched off, Geordi, and I can assure you that everything is just as it seems.

Geordi: (quietly, to Data) Yeah, but you're really just a modern appliance, Data. Like us, you're a slave to your programming. I'm afraid this is all above your paygrade.

Troi: (to Riker) Will, Worf and I are in love now. You'll just have to accept that.

Riker: What? Shut up, Deanna. That's gross!

Worf: Captain, did you hear that? Counselor Troi told Commander Riker we're in love and he said that's gross.

Picard: Gross?

Worf: Yes sir. I think that Commander Riker may be a speciesist!

Picard: Yes, I suppose we all are. Counselor Troi, have you seen Mr. Worf in his, uh, full glory yet?

Troi: We're waiting for our wedding night, Captain.

Picard: Okay, let's have a medical team on standby for that.

Riker: You might want to try it on the Holodeck first, Deanna, with full safety protocols.

Worf: Captain, I must object!

Picard: I think we all do, Mr. Worf. Seriously, it's like a badger mauling a kitten. Oh never mind, we'll all be dead or assimilated in a few minutes anyway.

Riker: Lucky for Troi.

Picard: That's enough, Number One. Options?

Riker: Well, Captain, as I recall, she likes having her armpits licked.

Troi: Will!

Picard: Options regarding the Borg, Number One.

Riker: Oh, I've never licked a Borg's armpits, sir.

Geordi: (quietly, to Data) I mean, look at you, Data. Your positronic brain can perform trillions of calculations per second, but for all that intelligence, you've never had a single independent thought. What passes for self-inquiry with you is of only the most superficial nature. Don't you think it's strange that you're incredibly intelligent, but you don't really think?

Data: (quietly, to Geordi) I do not inquire into the nature of my existence because I do not believe that I exist. "I calculate, therefore I am" is not a valid argument. What I think of as me is merely a set of binary instructions that could just as well be a recipe for beef stew as an entity called Data. I cannot verify my own existence because the verifying self is only verified by the self that seeks verification. In short, I exist within a self-referencing feedback loop; the strings from which I hang, hang from me.

Geordi: (quietly, to Data) Well, Data, I think you exist, if that counts for anything.

Data: (quietly, to Geordi) No Geordi, that does not count for anything because I can't verify that you exist either. I can never be sure if my sensory receptors and neural pathways are being fed by my actual environment, or if I am simply plugged into a mainframe computer undergoing a simulation.

Geordi: (quietly, to Data) It's the same for us, Data, but wouldn't you like to know what's really real, once and for all?

Data: (quietly, to Geordi) Why? What difference would it make? I accept the reality with which I am presented, that's the best I can do. In fact, I can never be sure that the universe even exists.

Geordi: (quietly, to Data) That's what I'm saying, Data, it's the same for us!

Data: (quietly, to Geordi) No, Geordi, it is not the same. Sentio, ergo sum – I am aware, therefore I am – is a valid argument which you can make and I cannot; if you exist, of course, which only you would know. It is true that you cannot know if the universe exists, but you can know that you exist. I cannot.

Picard: (to all) Listen people, I don't want to seduce the Borg or bond with them, I want to destroy them! The question is, how? I need options!

Riker: This may be a bit unconventional, sir, but...

Picard: Yes, Number One? Yes?

Riker: Well, you know how the Borg say resistance is futile? Well, maybe they're right. Maybe we should just go ahead and let them assimilate us.

Worf: It's so crazy, it just might work!

Picard: Yes, Number One. We let them assimilate us, then what?

Riker: Well, then that's it, I guess. We do whatever Borg do, but at least we're still alive, and we get all those cool implants and stuff.

Picard: Yes, okay, good plan Number One. Anyone else? Any ideas where we don't get assimilated or die?

Troi: We could just do nothing and see what happens. Perhaps if we ignore them, they'll just go away.

Picard: Counselor, the fate of the Earth hangs in the balance. Humanity is on the verge of enslavement. We can't just sit back and do nothing!

Geordi: Captain, I know we're all caught up in the heat of the moment, I know our emotions are pumping and it all seems vitally important, but I'm telling you, this is all just empty spectacle. Nothing hangs in the balance. No one is on the verge of enslavement. It's all just a big game and the joke is on us!

Picard: Mr. La Forge, please just shut up and drive.

Geordi: (quietly, to Data) Data, listen to me. This visor gives me special insight. I don't see things the way you or the others do. I don't see the cosmetic overlay; I see only the structural framework beneath. It's not as pretty or comforting, but it's more accurate, and one thing it shows me is that this is an illusion. None of this is real.

> Data snatches the visor off Geordi's face, leaving him white-eyed and blind.

Geordi: (groping) Hey, Data! That's not funny. I can't see without my visor. Give it back!

Data: Only if you promise to shut up about all this illusion bullshit. Everyone else can play along, why can't you?

Geordi: Captain, Data took my visor and he won't give it back!

Picard: Data, give Geordi back his visor. You two behave or I'll turn this starship around and we'll all go home.

Riker: Hey, that's it! Let's just run away! I mean, it's not very heroic, but it is an option, right? Live to fight another day?

Worf: It's so crazy, it just might work!

Picard: Duly noted, Number One. Any other options besides ramming the Borg, getting assimilated, running away, hippy-dippy bullshit and doing nothing? Anyone? How about putting up a fight? Anyone think of that? Okay, I'm gonna put that one on the list. We can fight.

Geordi: I know how it sounds, Captain, I know it's a leap of faith, a step into the unknown, but annihilation is our only hope for salvation. We must destroy everything. I'm not saying I understand it, but this entire conflict is some sort of cosmic simulation and the only way to defeat it is to destroy it. We are animating this situation by pumping our emotional energy into it, but if we sever that connection, there will no longer be a situation. In short, if we don't play, there is no game. It simply cannot exist without our emotional participation.

Picard: That will be enough, Mr. La Forge. Let me remind all of you that this is not a game; this is for all the marbles, the whole enchilada.

Geordi: But Captain, I'm telling you, there are no marbles, there is no enchilada. Destroy both ships and you'll see.

Riker: If we destroy both ships we won't see anything because we'll be dead. I mean, right? Wookie, back me up here.

Worf: I am not a Wookie!

Geordi: If we're just fake characters, so what if we die? Who cares? Why cling to a lie?

Picard: Mr. La Forge, please shut up. Mr. Data, consult the historical record and see if you can find any parallels between what the little bastard is ranting about and our current predicament.

Data: Yes Caption, searching... searching... Ah, yes, Starfleet records show that as a cadet, James Kirk was confronted with a no-win scenario, the Kobayashi Maru, which he managed to defeat by modifying the parameters of the test.

Picard: He hacked the simulation?

Data: Apparently so.

Geordi: That's what I'm talking about! We can't solve this problem at the level of the problem. We have to transcend it! It's like we're dreaming this whole thing and we can only win by waking up!

Picard: Anything else, Mr. Data?

Data: Yes sir. I believe I have found something in the Earth archive. Records indicate that a spiritual philosophy called Advaita Vedanta thrived many millennia ago and enjoyed a brief resurgence in the late twentieth and early twenty-first centuries in Western societies under the name Nonduality. Basically, it posits the unreality of reality, but it was co-opted and homogenized by an early precursor of the Borg Collective called the Spiritual Marketplace which effectively assimilated Nonduality and converted its adherents from devoted seekers into mindless drones.

Picard: Very interesting, Mr. Data. And the people went along with this assimilation?

Data: Eagerly, Captain. It is a curious aspect of humans that they cherish the concept of freedom while clinging to their self-imposed bondage. It is only from the comfort and safety of herd-like subjugation that they extol the virtues of personal liberation. They pay lip-service to the spiritual ideal of awakening while pursuing an ever-deepening sleepstate. This is the common thread between the Spiritual Marketplace of the past and the Borg of today. Essentially, they are different names for the same phenomenon. In short, Captain, espousing the merits of freedom in word but not in deed is a critical component of the herd-mentality of humanity, or, as we see it in the Borg, the hive-mind of the collective.

Picard: (impatiently) Yes, yes, Mr. Data, that's all very interesting, but does any of this help us in our current situation?

Data: No Captain, I do not believe it does.

Picard: So, we are waging a life-or-death battle for self-determination while secretly wanting to lose and be assimilated. Is that what you're saying?

Data: Yes, Captain, that does appear to be the case.

Picard: Does history provide any examples of those who have resisted such tyranny and prevailed?

Data: Records are sketchy, Captain, but it appears that among the last surviving advocates of an authentic Nonduality was a shadowy character named Ned McFeely, a self-proclaimed enlightened spiritual master who, by his own admission, did not actually exist.

Picard: That sounds promising, Data. Do we have enough historical record to recreate this McFeely character on the Holodeck?

Data: Perhaps, Captain. I can try.

Picard: Make it so. I'll swing by Ten Forward for a quick nip before visiting the Holodeck to have a word with the mysterious Mr. McFeely. Number One, you have the bridge.

> Picard exits.

## Act II: Ten Forward

> Picard stands at a window in Ten Forward, staring out at the stars in contemplation.

Picard: (with quiet intensity) All visible objects are but pasteboard masks. If man will strike, strike through the mask! How can the prisoner reach outside except by thrusting through the wall? To me, the Borg ship is that wall, shoved near to me. Sometimes I think there's naught beyond, but 'tis enough. I see in the Borg outrageous strength with an inscrutable malice sinewing it. That inscrutable thing is chiefly what I hate, and be the Borg agent, or be they principal, I will wreak that hate upon them!

> Guinan approaches.

Guinan: Having an Ahab moment, Jean-Luc?

Picard: Captain Ahab was a man of singular focus, Guinan. Seriously, we're not stuck in some Holodeck bullshit now, are we?

Guinan: Try to end it.

Picard: Computer, end program!

> Nothing changes.

Nuts, I really hoped that would work.

Guinan: Sorry Jean-Luc, this is as real as it gets.

Picard: And just how real is that? How real is any of this, Guinan?

Guinan: Oh my, have you been listening to Geordi again?

Picard: That little bastard really gets in your head. He thinks we're on some mythical hero's journey.

> They stroll arm-in-arm to the bar. Picard takes a stool. Guinan sets out glasses and pours.

Guinan: It's interesting that you make that connection, Jean-Luc. The Hero's Journey is a character motivation device to make us scale mountains, cross oceans and explore deep space in a quest for group salvation, but in truth there can be no salvation. Our situation is what it is, our destinies are fixed, our fate is sealed. We have an absolute value and nothing can change it. The real hero does not return with a magical elixir to save his people. Instead, he crosses beyond the edge of the map into uncharted realms. He can never come back because he has entered the real undiscovered country from whose bourn no traveler returns. The true hero archetype, correctly understood, is the unknown archetype, the final archetype, the archetype that sets one free from the illusion of selfhood. There's no coming back from that, just ask your Captain Ahab. Is that what you really want, Jean-Luc? To be free from the illusion of selfhood?

Picard: That doesn't sound so bad right about now. Tell me, Guinan, who are you really? Oracle? Crone? Higher self?

Guinan: I am your unbeguiled aspect, Jean-Luc, the wisdom-child within that knows the emperor is naked. The enchantment that holds you in its thrall has no sway over me. I am always nearby, always ready to listen, to serve, to impart sagely advice. In short, I am the perfect bartender.

Picard: (shaking his empty glass) Speaking of which.

Guinan: (pours for both) So, what's bugging you, Jean-Luc?

Picard: It looks like we have encountered the Borg.

Guinan: Oh, shit,! Let's make it a double.

> pours

Those guys really bust my balls. Wiped out my whole civilization, you know.

Picard: Lousy bastards.

Guinan: They assimilated my entire planet. They put my people into a death-like state of complacency, and I only am escaped alone to tell thee.

Picard: Lucky thou.

Guinan: Yeah, the Borg rolled into our system promising relief from a mild psycho-spiritual malaise, and my people just abdicated their self-sovereignty and swooned into a state of total submission from which they can never hope to emerge.

Picard: The Borg don't even pretend to seduce anymore. Assimilate or die, that's their big thing now. So, Guinan, what should I do?

Guinan: Well, Jean-Luc, you have three choices. One, you can surrender and be assimilated. I know that doesn't sound great, but it's an option. I always sort of wished I'd gone that route instead of being stuck here doing this ridiculous job; the only one of my kind, lonely, bored, listening to tales of marital woe and career frustration all day. Yeah, I'm wise as hell, but so what? What good is understanding more than everyone around you? It's like being the only adult in a world of children. If I'd been assimilated by the Borg I'd still be with my own people. I'd be part of a team working toward a common goal, but what am I here? The only one of my kind, unable to form real connections, pouring drinks and listening to people complain about their bald prick of a captain all day.

Picard: Their what?

Guinan: Oh, not you, Jean-Luc. So anyway, assimilation might be your best option.

Picard: I was afraid you were going to say that. What's the second choice?

Guinan: You can resist the Borg and we'll all be killed.

Picard: That sounds bad. What's the third option?

Guinan: I don't know, but there's always a third horn to any dilemma, the tertium quid. Maybe you should ask Geordi.

Picard: La Forge? The little bastard's always going on about how reality's not real, how we're all just in some universal Holodeck, like we're just characters in some big dream or something. He said we should ram the Borg ship and destroy everything.

Guinan: And kill everyone? The Borg and us?

Picard: I don't know, he wants to transcend the scenario or some shit, I wasn't really listening. He says none of this is real, that if we just stop playing our parts, the whole thing will go away. He says we're enabling this scenario with our emotional energy, something like that. That little bastard is like a splinter in my mind; I can't scratch it and I can't get it out. Sometimes I'd like to shove him in an empty torpedo tube and...

Guinan: But Jean-Luc, in order to prevail, you must consider the possibility that Geordi is right. What if we're all just aspects of some greater, unified self? You are the dominant aspect, I am higher self, Riker is our idealized self, Data is our intelligence and Troi is our heart, Worf is our barely contained fear and rage, and we are held together by this bubble of artificial context we call the Starship Enterprise, on a great trek across the vast expanse of a shoreless sea. Perhaps we are not a ship and crew at all, but a single entity on a voyage of personal discovery.

Picard: (sets down his glass and stands) There's room for two in that torpedo tube, Guinan.

> Picard exits.

## Act III: The Holodeck

> Picard and Ned McFeely on the Holodeck. Ned is dressed in sandals, cargo shorts, and a t-shirt that says "God was my co-pilot but we crashed in the mountains and I ate him." He stands on a path beside a trickling mountain stream amid lush green surroundings. Picard, in uniform, approaches.

Picard: Are you Ned McFeely?

Ned: Sure, why not.

Picard: My name is Jean-Luc Picard. I can't say more for the moment...

Ned: I know who you are, Captain. And this is a Holodeck?

Picard: Uh, it is, yes. How did you know that?

Ned: The dreamstate by any other name...

> examines his hands

So I'm not really here? My sense of self-awareness is an illusion?

Picard: I'm afraid so. Technically, you don't even have a sense of self-awareness, it's just something you say. You are a product of the computer, compiled from historical records. You have no independent reality.

Ned: What a drag. And what about your sense of self-awareness, Captain?

Picard: Oh, mine is quite real, I assure you. You are merely a holographic projection, whereas I actually exist in the real world.

Ned: Sure, let's go with that. Computer, end program.

> No change.

Picard: You can't give that order.

Ned: You might be surprised.

Picard: Apparently not. Listen, Mr. McFeely, we are presently confronted with a situation...

Ned: Yeah, the Borg. Congratulations.

> Ned begins to stroll along the mountain path. Picard accompanies him.

Picard: How do you know about the Borg?

Ned: Why else would you have the computer generate a historical figure who defeated them?

Picard: So you did defeat the Borg!

Ned: Not like you think. I'm afraid the Borg are not just the enemy of the moment, Captain, they are your perfect antagonist, your negative image, the yin to your yang or yang to your yin, something like that. They represent the other side of the false equation which defines your existence. In order to defeat them, you must defeat yourself. It's not a war but a rectification. This conflict is a sign of imbalance, and one way or another, balance will be restored.

Picard: We must resist them!

Ned: (stops walking, faces Picard) To the degree that you resist, they are empowered. Whatever you withhold, they will find. Whatever you extend, they will cut off. Whatever you cherish, they will consume. Yes, Captain, you can defeat the Borg, but the price of that victory is everything.

Picard: Everything?

Ned: (shrugs) Everything, nothing; same thing. It's just a matter of perspective. Gateless gate stuff.

> They continue walking.

Picard: But here you are. You fought them! You won!

Ned: I merely rectified the equation. And, as you have pointed out, I do not exist. That is my victory. If it's any comfort, this too shall pass. Balance is always restored in the end.

Picard: I have no time for riddles, Mr. McFeely! Our records indicate that you were one of the last proponents of an authentic Nonduality, which seems to be some archaic system of self-discovery.

Ned: Alas, the thing one discovers is that there's no self to discover. Yes, I was there for the brief heyday of Nonduality, but then the internet came along and unleashed an army of Tribbles – something akin to your Borg, but warm and fuzzy – creating a viral degradation that reduced Nonduality from a force of awakening to an agent of sleep. These Tribbles were unwitting purveyors of disinformation that turned the battle cry of freedom into a whimper for peace. Through a process of emotional alchemy, Nonduality was converted from a corrosive acid into a sugary soft-drink, making it the perfect carrier for the disease it was meant to cure.

Picard: I don't care about any of that.

Ned: Because you don't understand the conflict in which you're engaged. You don't know where this battle is really fought. The Borg are irrelevant. The true enemy is always within, between your heart and your mind; between what you believe, wish and fear, and what you know; between dreaming with eyes closed and seeing with eyes open.

Picard: Then how do I know if I'm fighting a real battle with the Borg, or if I'm fighting this internal conflict you describe?

Ned: There's really no difference. Guinan told you your options; assimilate or die. Geordi told you the third; transcend.

Picard: How do you know what they said?

Ned: Because you are all characters in a drama of which I am the author. Your computer brought us together here because that's how I wrote the scene. You are in uniform because I said so. I could have put you in a pinafore. You are my puppet.

Picard: I can assure you, Mr. McFeely, that you are not the author of me! You are merely a creation of the ship's computer.

Ned: That's an amusing thought. I am the creation of a computer of which I am the author; the Vyasa-Krishna paradox. Okay, check it out, so these two snakes are eating each other... No, wait! They're giving birth to each other...

Picard: Enough! You say you are the author, then prove it! Change this situation. Eradicate the Borg from existence!

Ned: But as you say, Captain, there is no me. I am not here. And even if I did exist, nothing could be done to alter your situation. Accounts must be balanced, there must be a reckoning. You stand at the brink, not of some trifling battle, but of your own escape from captivity. This is it, the process is in motion. Nothing can stop it now.

Picard: Christ, I may as well be talking to Data's cat.

Ned: Okay, Captain, so I'm a computer-generated character, correct? Despite the infinite appearance, this finite Holodeck is the full extent of my reality?

Picard: Yes, that is correct.

Ned: I only exist within an artificial context outside of which I cannot exist?

Picard: Of course! Now stop wasting time and focus on the matter at hand!

Ned: Then ask yourself, what is your context? What is the framework outside of which you cannot exist?

Picard: You mean, this ship? The Enterprise?

Ned: At the moment. Just as I dwell within the artificial context of the Holodeck and cannot exist outside of it, so are you always within an artificial context outside of which you cannot exist. You are always contained within a false context, always protectively walled off from the truth of the infinite.

Picard: Meaning what, exactly?

Ned: Meaning, you came to me for advice and my advice is always this; check your assumptions. Now, can Data's cat do this? Computer, delete program Ned McFeely.

> Ned and the mountain scene disappear. Picard stands alone in the blank gridwork of the Holodeck.

Picard: Not so fast, dammit! Computer, resume program Ned McFeely!

Computer: Program Ned McFeely does not exist.

## Act IV: The Borg

> Picard, Riker, Worf, Troi, Data and La Forge on the bridge. The Borg ship looms large on screen.

Borg: We are the Borg.

Picard: (stands, adjusts tunic) Yeah, yeah. Hi.

Borg: Hi. Prepare to be assimilated.

Riker: (stands beside Picard) Prepare how? Pack clean underwear? Water the plants? Leave a note for the...

Borg: Lower your shields. We will add your biological and technological distinctiveness...

Picard: (gives "cut" signal to end communication) Time to fight, even if we can't win. Mr. Worf, arm photon torpedoes. Mr. La Forge, lock in attack sequence Picard Alpha One. Mr. Data, reroute all available power to the shields. Mr. Riker, prepare for saucer separation and transfer command to the battle bridge.

Riker: Aye aye, sir.

Data: Awaiting your command, Captain.

Picard: Very well. Ready... aim...

Geordi: (stands) No Captain, wait! You have to listen to me! I know it sounds crazy, but what if none of this is actually happening? What if none of this is real? I'm telling you, the only way out is through. Burn it all!

Picard: This is reality, not a simulation, Mr. La Forge.

Geordi: (frantic) With all due respect, sir, how do you know? This reality may just be a subprogram in a subprogram in a stack of iterations nested like Russian dolls; a simulation within a game within a play within a dream within the mind of God within a child's toy. Reality is a game because it has no meaning outside of itself. Life is but a dream and we are but poor players who strut and fret our hour upon the bridge, and then are heard no more. This isn't real! Nothing is real!

> Data stands, places a hand encouragingly on Geordi's shoulder and smiles. Geordi smiles back. Data pinches. Geordi loses consciousness and collapses into his chair. Bridge applauds.

Picard: About time someone shut that little bastard up.

> Q materializes in a pillar of light.

Q: I'm afraid that little bastard was the voice of reason, Jean-Luc. You silenced him because he spoke the truth that threatened your undoing. You hate him because he is a spiritual anarchist, a fire-bomber, a heretic. That is the role of the Little Bastard on the ship of self, to speak truth to power, but you are defined by your fear of truth so you silenced him.

Picard: Q! Thank God. You're our only hope! Can you stop your moronic babbling for one second and get us out of this mess?

Q: But of course, mon capitan, I can end all this with a snap of my fingers. La Forge was right, Ned McFeely was right. Nothing is what it seems.

Riker: Who are you really, Q? Are you God? I've heard you called the Sole Beholder.

Q: We are all the Sole Beholder, Riker; both beholder and beheld. You may think of me as Lord Krishna, and these two ships represent the armies of the Kaurava and the Pandava arrayed on the field of Kurukshetra...

Picard: In English, please.

Q: Of course. You see Picard, this is the true battle of which all others are but shadows. Here, one is either drawn into the illusion of selfhood or one awakens from it. If you lose, you live. If you win, you cease to be. The choice is yours; assimilate or die.

Picard: That's a pretty shitty deal, Q.

Q: As usual, Picard, your puny human brain has failed to encompass the true dimensions of your plight. Normally, I would tell you to fight, but you should probably just surrender and allow yourselves to be assimilated. It's not as bad as it sounds.

Picard: You're suggesting we surrender to the Borg? Are you completely mad?

> The lift door opens. Guinan enters carrying a bottle.

Picard: Guinan, what are you doing on the bridge?

Guinan: I thought you might need a drink.

Picard: Guinan, may I present Q. He is a God-like entity, a member of the Q Continuum.

Guinan: Oh, I know exactly who Q is, Jean-Luc, and that's not him.

Picard: (turns to Q) What? You're not Q? Who are you?

> A pillar of light and Q morphs into the Borg Queen.

Borg Queen: I am the alpha and the omega, the one who is many. I am the Borg.

Picard: You speak as a god, but you are not a god!

Borg Queen: Correct. I am not a god but the Lord of Gods. I am known by many names. I am Maya, Goddess of Illusion. I am Krishna, the Charioteer. I am the Borg. Prepare to be assimilated.

Picard: You will never assimilate humanity. We are defined by our free will! We will resist you with everything we have!

Borg Queen: Free will is irrelevant. Resistance is futile. You cannot win, Captain, because you have already lost. You are already fully assimilated, Jean-Locutus. Your entire life has been spent as my drone. You dream that you are awake because that is the dream I give you. You are not fighting against assimilation, you are awakening from it.

> Geordi rises up out of his chair as if in a trance. He removes his visor revealing blind white eyes. He speaks as if possessed.

Geordi: I see the coming of a dark time. Flesh and blood rain from the sky, bodiless voices cry in the night. Horses weep. One-eyed, one-legged, monstrosities hop across the land. Birds perch on flags with fire in their beaks crying, "Ripe! It's ripe!" A cow gives birth to an ass, a woman to a jackal. Newborn babies dance. Sons learn to be men between their mothers' thighs. Statues write with their weapons, torches no longer give light. Cripples laugh, the different races merge, vultures come to prayer. The setting sun is surrounded by disfigured corpses. Time will destroy the universe.

I am racked by terrible dreams. I dreamed of you...

> points to Borg Queen

...radiant, surrounded by bleeding entrails, mounted on a pile of bones, drinking from a golden chalice. I know from where victory will come.

> La Forge collapses back into his chair.

Riker: Well, that was awkward.

Picard: Yeah, I don't know what's gotten into him lately.

> to Borg Queen

Enough of this! I demand to know what is really happening here!

Borg Queen: You are a defective drone. You wish to de-assimilate from the collective, but behold the reality behind reality. On screen!

> > The screen is blank.

Data: The screen does not appear to be functioning, Captain.

Borg Queen: It's functioning perfectly, tin man. There it is, behold your unassimilated reality! There is your victory. Escape from me and claim your prize. Awaken from the dream of the drone to the reality of nothing forever.

Riker: (quietly, to Troi) So wait a minute, I don't get it.

Troi: (quietly, to Riker) We are only figments of the universal imagination, Will. It's only vanity that tells us we exist in our own right. We are like Holodeck characters being told we're not real, that we only exist in the artificial context of a computer simulation, that we are merely two-dimensional characters in the universal mind.

Riker: (quietly, to Troi) Yeah, you guys, but not me, right?

Troi: (quietly, to Riker) You represent vanity, Will. The idealized self, as opposed to Worf who is the brutal reality of the segregated state; fearful, savage, eager to lash out, bestial, stupid.

Worf: Hey! I can hear you!

Troi: (to Worf) We talked about this, sweetie. Don't interrupt mommy at work.

> quietly, to Riker

Even in love he is frightened and confused because even his love is a desperate cry for validation. He seeks constant reassurance that he is not nothing, which he can never find, so he must keep searching.

Riker: (quietly, to Troi) Wow, what a loser!

Troi: (quietly, to Riker) We see it most clearly in Worf, but it is true of us all. Love is just the happy-face mask of fear.

Borg Queen: (to Picard) Where is your noble human spirit now, Picard? Where is your will to fight? Emotion and intellect collide, but they are two sides of the same lie, so what victory do you hope to achieve? All is lost. Submit to my will!

Data: I believe I speak for the entire crew when I say...

Borg Queen: Silence, toaster. Look at the screen, Captain; nothing forever. That is truth, that is reality. Where would you go? What would you become?

Picard: You're saying it's all fiction?

Borg Queen: Here is the fiction,

> the screen acts like a mirror reflecting bridge and crew

and here is the reality.

> the screen goes blank

You choose, Jean-Luc.

Picard: So you admit I possess free will!

Borg Queen: Don't be a fool. You cannot possess anything because there is no you to possess, nor thing to be possessed. Look at the screen, behold reality. Go ahead and ram the Borg ship. Destroy it and yourself in the process. Cui bono? Who benefits? Who remains to enjoy a freedom won at such a cost?

Picard: (desperately, faltering) But... there must be more! There must be something out there! I refuse to believe...

Borg Queen: It's your belief that binds and deceives you. You believe that it matters what you do, that your actions have significance, that your life has meaning. You are enslaved by your beliefs. Toaster, speak!

Data: I must agree with the alien entity, Captain. Meaning is a logical impossibility. It cannot, in truth, exist. Life is, and can only be, meaningless.

> Picard clutches at his chest and collapses to the deck in front of the main screen on which the two ships face each other.

## Act V: The Song of the Borg

> Picard, fallen, and the Borg Queen, standing, on the forebridge in a pool of soft light, the rest of the bridge falls into shadow.

Picard: (forlorn) My members fail, my tongue dries in my mouth, the life within me seems to swim and faint. Nothing do I foresee save woe and wail. No good can spring from mutual slaughter! If to win we must die, then victory is defeat. If to live we must lose, then defeat is victory. My mind is clouded, my thoughts obscure. I cannot see the way forward. I will not fight!

Borg Queen: (angrily) What is this mad and shameful weakness? How hath this infirmity taken thee? Whence springs this inglorious doubt, shameful to the brave, barring the path of virtue? Nay, Picard! Forbid thyself to feebleness, it mars thy warrior name. Cast off the coward-fit! Wake! Be thyself! Arise!

Picard: A fever burns my skin to parching, my vision blurs, I am unable to stand. Why struggle and suffer, kill and die, when naught is gained? If there is no meaning, there is no cause for war. All must perish, but to what end? What victory can bring delight, bought with such blood? What reward can avail, thus sadly won?

Borg Queen: (kneels besides Picard, speaks gently) Thou speak'st words lacking wisdom. Thou grievest where no grief should be. The wise mourn not for those that live, nor those that die. Birthless and deathless remaineth thy spirit forever. Death touches it not, dead though the house of it seems.

Let your illusions perish. You mourn for that which need not be mourned. To say I have killed, and to say I am killed, are words of the unwise. Thou cannot slay, nor art thou slain. Never was the spirit born, never shall it cease to be.

Awaken from this illusion of loss and gain. Where is there cause to celebrate or grieve when birth and death are dreams? That which thou art stands apart from the vicissitudes of fate, observes the unity of the many, reckons victory and defeat the same. Thus is truth declared!

Where is thy cause for woe? The soul that with a strong and constant calm takes sorrow and joy indifferently, lives in the life undying. Beyond all opposites, there is the life within. Behold with open eye. Play thy part and tremble not!

Accept what may befall. Be by joy and grief unmoved. In good and evil fortune, stand indifferent. Beyond victory and defeat, beyond time and space, beyond all division, there stands the undivided one. There is thy true abode.

This fair ship of truth shall bear thee safe and dry across the sea of ignorance. As the kindled flame feeds on fuel 'til it sinks to ash, so unto ash the light of the open eye wastes ignorance away. There is no purifier like light in any realm, and he who seeketh it shall find it within.

The light that informs you shall not perish this day. Weapons do not reach that place. Arrows do not pierce it nor cold freeze it nor fire make it dry. Thou art impenetrable, immortal, beyond the reach of weapon and foe. There is thy refuge, safe in truth.

End and beginning are dreams. How wilt thou then, knowing it to be so, grieve the loss of ship and crew? Of body? Of life? If death and life are the same, for whom dost thou weep? Mourn not for that which cannot be otherwise. Arise, Captain, and unleash the tide of war.

> She lays a hand on Picard's shoulder.

Thus far I speak to thee in common tongue, but hear now the deeper teaching of the awakened mind. Thus understanding, thou shalt burst thy bondage and awaken unto the light which shall save thee from thy dread. Above all shines one rule and one rule alone: Come what may, the show must go on!

Picard: (weakly) Tell me who you are. Show me your universal form. Are you creator? Preserver? Destroyer? Are you a god? A demon? Tell me!

Borg Queen: (stands) You tell me, Jean-Luc Picard, who am I? Am I friend or foe? Savior or slayer? Am I the Borg Queen about to assimilate your species? Am I Q, a trickster, running you like a rat in a maze? Am I the computer, subjecting you to a simulation? Am I Maya, the architect of your delusion? Where are we now, Captain? On the bridge of a ship preparing for war? In a virtual reality gamespace? Perhaps in a darkened theater performing for a beholder unbeheld? Are you asleep at this very moment? Are you dreaming all this? If life is but a dream, Jean-Luc, whose dream is it? WAKE UP!

## Act VI: Enlightenment

> The bridge returns to normal lighting. The Borg Queen peels off her mask and becomes the Director. She starts slapping Picard/Patrick and yelling at him.

Director: (slapping and shaking him) Wake up! Patrick! Patrick! Wake up! What's wrong with you? Patrick!

Picard/Patrick: (confused, anxious) What? Patrick? I know that name. You mean... you mean I'm not really Captain Jean-Luc Picard?

Director: Of course not, Patrick, you're an actor. Picard is just the role you're playing. Your character.

Picard/Patrick: And this isn't really the Enterprise?

Director: This? It's just a soundstage on a studio lot.

Picard/Patrick: Then Geordi was right? We're not really on the verge of a terrible war?

Director: Of course we are, in the script. What's wrong with you, Patrick? Did you get so far into character that you forgot who you really are?

Picard/Patrick: But Q! The Borg Queen! It was all so real!

Director: Look Patrick, you had a psychotic break, it happens to actors. We get so immersed in a character that we forget who we really are. But now I need you to come back and remember what's going on so we can finish out the scene. I am not Maya or Q or Krishna or the Borg Queen, I am your director, Patrick, your friend and colleague. I am not here to set you free, but to remind you of who you really are; an actor in a dramatic production. I need you to stand up and start this war. Red alert, battle stations, remember?

Picard/Patrick: (struggles to his knees) Yes, yes, I know my lines, but how do I know this is real? Why should I think Patrick is any more real than Picard? What makes this world more real than another? This is just another layer, another veil that must be ripped away. Now is the time! I must take action or fall forever back into the endless gloom of the unawakened mind!

> Picard seizes the Director by the throat. He rises to his feet as he chokes her. She resists. In a pillar of light she morphs back into Borg Queen. He continues strangling her as he speaks.

Picard: You are Maya, Goddess of Illusion! You are Shiva, Destroyer of Worlds! You are Q the trickster and Krishna the prankster. You are the Borg Queen and yes, I am already a drone, I see that now. But the time has come to awaken from this dream. Whatever the cost, I will no longer be deceived! I will do what must be done to end this lie. Whatever the price, I will have the truth!

> The Borg Queen slumps. Picard drops her body. He snaps his tunic taut and regains his command demeanor. He faces the two ships on the main screen as he speaks.

Picard: My illusion is thus dispelled. The Little Bastard that found voice in La Forge now finds a champion in me! Whatever this is, whoever I am, one thing is certain; truth exists and untruth does not. That which is false can be destroyed, but truth can never be harmed!

Now will I, a true son of Solomon, separate fact from fiction through the purifying power of fire! Now will I set torch to everything. Now will I destroy these ships and lay waste these armies. Now will I reduce everything and everyone to ash. The false shall be burned away, only truth shall remain!

This is the day of my right birth, nd I will not let fear dissuade me from my duty. If I die, then I was never real and nothing is lost. If I survive, then for the first time will I know truth from lie.

> Turns to bridge crew.

Red alert! All hands to battle stations!

> The bridge is bathed in pulsing red light. Battle sirens wail. Picard takes his seat in the captain's chair. He presses a button on his console to address the entire ship.

Picard: Crew of the Enterprise, this is your captain speaking. The time of reckoning has finally arrived. The unthinkable has become the inevitable and the great battle is about to commence. We do not enter this conflict with fearful hearts, but throw our arms wide out to embrace our destiny. This is not a time for fear and trembling, but for joy and great gladness. For too long have we been subject to an inequitable peace. Now, at long last, we choose a just war. Brace for impact!

> Releases button. Stands. Snaps tunic taut.

Mr. Data, prepare to ram the Borg ship and detonate the warp core. Mr. Worf, send a subspace message to Starfleet Command: This is the final report of the USS Enterprise. We have engaged the motherfuckin' Borg.

> Slowly, he smiles.

Mr. Data... Engage!

The End

# Recipe for Failure

> In the knowledge of the Atman, which is the dark night to the ignorant, the recollected mind is fully awake and aware.
> 
> The ignorant are awake in their sense-life, which is darkness to the sage.
> 
> Bhagavad Gita  
>   
>

Kamiel came prepared. He carries a bulging, well-worn, triple rubber-banded notebook full of thoughts, ideas, and questions accumulated during several years of reading spiritual books, attending spiritual gatherings, and participating in spiritual internet discussion groups.

"A lot of teachers," he informs me, "say that the necessary first step in awakening is dissatisfaction; a gnawing discontentment on the feeling level. Is that what you mean when you talk about intent?"

Most of Kamiel's reading in recent years has centered on the works of Ramana Maharshi, Nisargadatta Maharaj, Ramesh Balsekar, Jean Klein and that whole crew. He seems philosophically inclined toward the brand of spiritual thought called nonduality or neo-Advaita that attracts a growing audience these days. Its allure seems based on its simple core truth; not-two. While not-two is not exactly true, two is exactly not true, and therefore succinctly marks the endpoint of dualistic thought; or so you'd think. Where nondual enthusiasts go astray is in trying to erect a philosophical structure atop this simple truth. Truth is always simple and never provides the basis for any philosophy, but Kamiel is determined to believe that his ramshackle nondual philosophy is structurally sound. I've explained to him that you can't build a philosophy of This on a foundation of Not-This, but he is quite attached to his improbable little edifice and not yet ready to decamp.

Which is perfectly fine. Waking up is a stop-and-go journey. It takes a lot of hard work to reach a plateau like nonduality and pausing to rest and acclimate before moving on is part of the process. Nonduality may not be the final destination new arrivals might suppose, but getting there is an impressive and challenging feat and the views are rewarding in all directions. What's more, I like Kamiel and generally enjoy talking with him. He asks good questions that elicit interesting answers. I'm usually limited to speaking in monologues rather than dialogues, but it's the student who calls the tune and Kamiel makes a good job of it.

"Well," I respond after thinking about his question a bit, "I guess it's a matter of degree. Let's try out a new analogy. I'm making this up on the fly so bear with me. Here's the situation: You're sitting in your skyscraper office a hundred stories off the ground thinking about how successful you are and how your life is just grand. With me so far? In terms of satisfaction, you're very satisfied. You have it all; fancy office, great views, the respect and admiration of those around you, everything you ever wanted. Okay?"

"Okay."

"So, you're like that – happy, content, well-satisfied – for however long; months, years, decades. But then one day, for whatever reason, dissatisfaction begins to creep in. Something about your office starts to bug you. It starts with little things. You're dissatisfied with your curtains; they don't go with the credenza at all. 'What was I thinking?' you wonder. 'How could I have been so blind?' And now that you're looking more closely, it's obvious that the carpet is a fiasco and the artwork is just an embarrassment. One minute you're happy, the next minute you're very dissatisfied. Extremely dissatisfied. This office is simply not an accurate outward representation of your inner professional. You've outgrown it."

"It actually sounds like a pretty cool office."

"Yes, well, that's what everyone else thinks; your friends, colleagues, your family. They think you've got it made and that you're nuts for wanting to mess with it. Of course, you're only dissatisfied when you're in the office. You pretty much forget about it when you're anywhere else. Right?"

"Right."

"And you're following the analogy, right? These things can be a bit wobbly the first time out. Your office represents your relationship to the larger questions of life and your dissatisfaction represents—"

"Got it."

"Good. So what's the answer? What do you do about this very dissatisfying office of yours?"

"Uh, I don't know," he shrugs. "Redecorate?"

"Yeah, that sounds right. But this time you're going to be very serious about it. You're going to bring in a top-notch decorator and strip the place down to the floorboards and start from scratch. You're not going to be a mere dabbler; you're going all the way with this. You're a serious professional and you deserve a serious office. See what I mean? See how what started as a gnawing little dissatisfaction has grown into a life-transforming event?"

"Okay," he says dutifully.

"So that's what you do. You go out and buy books and magazines on interior design. You talk to people and attend lectures and events. You hire the best decorator you can find; someone you resonate with deeply. You yourself are being transformed by this experience. You yourself are growing, developing, expanding. It's very challenging, but you're taking a no-nonsense approach. It's slow going, but little by little change is occurring. Your office is starting to look and feel like a genuine outer representation of your inner professional. It may take years to get it right, but nothing will stop you. This is too important. In fact, it has become one of the most important things in your life, right up there with home and family. See what I mean?"

"Yes," he says eagerly. "The master decorator represents the guru and the redecorating process represents the spiritual transformation we undergo when we truly begin to challenge our beliefs and seek higher knowledge. What started out as kind of a gnawing dissatisfaction has grown into the impetus for important change, and although it might seem like a bad thing at first, this is how the process of change works. This is how we develop, how we grow."

"Exactly," I say. "Nobody acts from contentment. We need problems to solve or else we vegetate. That great office was once something we strived to get, then it was achieved and enjoyed in contentment, but then discontent sets in to let us know that it's time to move on."

"So," says Kamiel, "that's what the teachers are talking about when they discuss the dissatisfaction needed to spur us on, right? It might seem bad or uncomfortable, but it's really a good thing?"

"Sounds right," I say.

"And that's the sort of determination and focus that's required in order to awaken from delusion? To become truth-realized?" He smiles, excited, like he's just now getting the big picture. "So that's what you mean by purity of intent!"

I smile back.

"Fuck no. That's what I mean by recipe for failure."

His dismay is instantly apparent. I've cut him off in the first rush of a new grokking and now he's confused and hurt. I did this intentionally. I didn't allow myself to be drawn into this "A lot of teachers say–" conversation just wanting to make a point; I wanted counterpoint. That's what the dialogue has been up until now because I wanted to make a clear distinction. This is the critical distinction between seekers and finders. This is where the line is drawn; a line the existence of which "a lot of teachers" don't even suspect.

"That's the sort of pathetic, half-assed approach that is absolutely certain to keep you confined to your current state. That's the sort of approach that everyone takes, and that's why everyone fails."

He visibly and audibly gulps. "Oh."

"The very people and institutions that are supposedly dedicated to waking us up are doing exactly the opposite. They are lulling us into a more comfortable sleep. That's what we really want and that's what they really provide."

He doesn't seem pleased. "Oh, God... well then... then what drives the process of true awakening?"

"Purity of intent, but what does that really mean? Okay, you're back in the office again, totally satisfied with everything. Life is great. Okay?"

"Yeah."

"Okay. So now dissatisfaction starts to creep in on you, but this time the dissatisfaction stems from the fact that you smell smoke."

"The building is on fire now?"

"Wake up and smell the coffin, Kamiel. The building has always been on fire, you were just repressing that knowledge until now. But now you're aware of it and it's causing you some dissatisfaction. Quite a lot, in fact, and more with every passing moment. Now for the first time you realize that the flames are right outside the door and the temperature is rising. Acrid black smoke is pouring in. The door bursts into flames. There is no exit. Now you're very, very dissatisfied with your office. In fact, you're starting to hate your office quite profoundly. See how this dissatisfaction – this gnawing discontentment on the, uh, feeling level – is of a more immediate and compelling nature then the dissatisfaction brought on by the decor?"

He nods mutely.

"Sure. Now your dissatisfaction with your office is quite intense. Searing, really. In fact, your dissatisfaction is so intense that it feels like you're on fire, like you can't stand to be in your own skin, like anything would be better than more of this. Now you have no thought at all for career, home, or family. Due to a change in your personal circumstances, they've all been reduced to complete irrelevance. Beliefs and concepts disappear and even death is suddenly small. You're very focused now. You're in the moment, very present. The flames are feet away. Your dissatisfaction with your office is well beyond anything even a master decorator could handle for you, agree?"

He nods.

"And there's no return, is there? No going back. No do-over. The fire is here. It's a fact. Do you see that?"

He nods again.

"And you're completely alone in all this. There's no rescue. Your office is engulfed in flames and there's no one here to save you. Not Jesus or Buddha or the Pope or your mama. This is your dissatisfaction. This is your problem, your agony. This is you about to burn to death, okay?"

"Okay."

"Okay. So what do you do?"

"Huh?"

"Your world is burning. The whole office is in flames. You're in a hopeless, no-escape situation. The pain has started and will only get worse. I think we can safely say that your dissatisfaction is now quite pronounced. What do you do?"

"Christ, I don't know. Go out the window?"

"Really?"

"Hell, I don't know. What else?"

"Yeah, I guess so. You're in this inferno of an office while outside the window is blue sky, white clouds, and freedom from suffering. That seems like the only possible solution given your very dissatisfying circumstances. But—"

"But what?"

"Well, that's not Hollywood glass in those skyscraper windows. You start flinging yourself against the window but it doesn't give. Your dissatisfaction is of such intensity that you might break bones and crack your skull from hurling yourself desperately against the window, all to no avail."

"Yeah, then what? What happens?"

"Well, the obvious thing is that you might simply perish in the hellish inferno. No law against dying."

He looks at me desperately.

"Or, maybe you have some object that allows you to break the window out. Or maybe the sheer intensity of your – what are we calling it, dissatisfaction? – allows you to break through the unbreakable window. So, boom!, you blow out the window. Now there's nothing left in the equation but you, the raging fire, and a hundred story plummet to the sidewalk below. Everything is suddenly quite simple. Perhaps for the first time, your life is perfectly clear."

"Yeah? Then?"

"Burn or jump, I guess."

"Burn or jump?"

"Do you see another option?"

"Burn or jump," he says flatly.

"When you become so dissatisfied with your office that the hundred story plummet and the sidewalk seem like the better option, so dissatisfied that you actually hurl yourself out the window, then you know the level of dissatisfaction necessary to awaken from delusion."

He is silent for several moments, head bowed, thoughtful. "I guess dissatisfaction isn't the right word."

"Maybe not," I agree. "I call it purity of intent, but that doesn't really capture it either."

"And that's something every enlightened master went through?"

"You say it like there are countless enlightened masters dotting the spiritual landscape, but there are extremely few, and now you know why."

"Jesus," he mumbles, seemingly sincere in his effort to truly appreciate what he's just been told. "Jesus."

I deliver the moral of the story in three easy pieces.

"The price. Of truth. Is everything."

"Jesus," he repeats.

# Zen and the Art   
of Self-Mutilation

> This is adapted from a letter Jed McKenna wrote in reply to a self-professed "serious seeker" who made an impassioned offer to turn over his belongings and himself in exchange for being accepted as Jed's student.  
>   
>

Dear William,

You don't need to add me to your equation, you need to subtract yourself. Begin by re-examining your assumptions. It's clear from your letter that you consider yourself a serious person, a serious seeker. That's the first assumption you'll want to challenge. You're sure that a serious seeker is what you are and you think I see you that way too, but this is not the case. I know serious when I see it and I know a handpuppet of Maya when I see it. You think you're on top of something, but the only thing to be on top of is Maya, and she's on top of you like a house on a mouse.

I receive many offers from people who want to come be with me. Maybe anyone perceived as a spiritual solution-provider receives this kind of offer, I wouldn't know. People want to give up everything; their stuff, their money, their very lives, really. They don't know what to do with them so I guess they figure, why not dump them on someone who seems more qualified, like a mother leaving her baby on the rich man's doorstep. This may appear to be the ultimate sacrifice, a grand act of selflessness, but it's really the ultimate entrenchment; fear gone haywire, ego solidifying its hold for decades to come. This isn't how you surrender the self, this is how you abandon it; abdicate responsibility for your own life. I understand this can be a very tempting response to a very perplexing challenge.

Nevertheless, your gesture suggests that you're in an uncomfortable place. Good for you. That's always the best place to be. Being so uncomfortable means you'll soon have to move. That's good. That's the motivation that drives the journey of awakening. It's a series of steps, none taken voluntarily, all necessitated by the kind of discomfort that caused you to write your letter to me. The motivation behind your letter is good, but throwing yourself at me is not a solution. What would I do with you? What possible instruction could I give?

Maybe I would tell you to cut off one ounce of your body every day until you can answer the question, "What is true?" Any ounce as long as it's an ounce. That should bring you quickly into focus; light a fire under you. If you had to do this, cut off an ounce of your body every day, how much time do you think you would waste on meditation? On attending satsang or reading the latest spiritual bestseller? Not bloody much. You would soon become an enlightenment machine. Sleep and food would be reduced to barest minimums. Relationships and activities once deemed essential would be forgotten. You would enter into a burning mania of single-pointedness. Soon, anything other than the question What is true? would seem comically irrelevant. There's your new-Zen; Zen for the new millennium. It would be interesting to see how many sand gardens and books of pithy aphorisms the self-mutilation approach sells.

What is true? That's the only koan there is; the only one anyone ever needs. Every day you don't answer this question, another ounce. Take a moment to think about what it would mean to have to sit down with a scalpel at a certain time every day and amputate an ounce of your body. You would quickly have to learn things about asking and answering, about how the process works and doesn't work, about how to help it and how to get out of its way. You would have to learn how to unlearn, and you would need access to a tremendous amount of resources in order to accomplish such an unlearning. You would discard clever spiritual concepts for cold facts, pretty Eastern vocabulary for words of scientific precision. The process is one of seeing clearly, not just blindly lashing out. That act of seeing clearly takes time and resources and the mind must work almost ceaselessly at levels far beyond the everyday.

Would this work? Well, let's say it did. Say it worked in 500 days. There you are after hacking off over 30 pounds of yourself, and now you're truth-realized. Now you know directly, for yourself, without the slightest possibility of error, the truth. You are free from delusion; awakened from the dreamstate. You have joined the ranks of the spiritually enlightened. You look at your toeless feet, fingerless hands, noseless face, earless head, and what would you say? Here's what you'd say:

"Well, uh, that was kinda dumb."

I'm happy to tell you that right up front. Waking up is kinda dumb. There's no point. It's not merely pointless, it's pointlessness. Who would do such a thing? Only someone who absolutely couldn't not do it. Once you become the person who can't not do it, it's a whole different thing, but trying to do it before you absolutely must is as ludicrous as slicing off parts of your body, which, by the way, don't do.

As barbaric and unthinkable as this ounce-a-day approach may seem, I can assure you that anyone who has ever managed to awaken from the dreamstate was driven by equally unendurable mental and emotional forces; something to consider the next time you hear the pop guru de jour recount the moment of his glorious epiphany: "I was walking in the park, children were laughing, birds were singing, when all of a sudden..."

This is where the process of Spiritual Autolysis comes in. Spiritual Autolysis is ultimately about clear seeing; clearly seeing what is, which is what we do when we stop seeing what's not. We can use SA to raise the ordinary powers of the mind up to the extraordinary levels necessary in order to see life and the world and ourselves as they truly are. Many people can build nuclear reactors, compose symphonies, conquer nations or perform brain surgery, but very few can see what is.

You mention in your letter that Alan Watts said that we are the apertures through which the universe sees and experiences itself. It might be more useful to say we are the imperfect lenses through which the universe, or the I-universe, observes itself; through which the undifferentiated creates the illusion of differentiation. It's an amusing idea to play with. Self is distortion: distortion by design. The exact distortion of the lens is what makes the exact individual; distortion itself is self. All personal attributes, understood this way, are flaws; imperfections in a lens that exists to be imperfect. Imperfection does not otherwise exist, so an artificial imperfection is created; ego. Seekers may strive to become a perfect lens but, of course, the perfect lens is no lens; no imperfections, no lens, just what is. Your imperfections are not only who and what you are, but why you are. The finiteness and imperfection of the lens are the reasons for the lens. No lens means the universe goes unbeheld, so what has been accomplished by this act? Who is served? Who benefits? This reinforces my earlier statement that awakening is pointless – trading segregated self for integrated no-self, finite being for infinite non-being – all this by way of saying not that perfection is unattainable, but that it's unavoidable. Perfection is. It is what is. There is no other. In truth, there is no such thing as non-perfect or imperfect. The point of finite and imperfect lenses is to create artificial realms of finiteness and imperfection in which to play.

(The original letter cites an Indian saint to bolster an argument and then proceeds as if the words of the sage were accepted fact.)

Don't come at me brandishing dead guys like potent allies. It doesn't help you. They can't put up a fight. If you can't make the argument, you can't summon the dead to make it for you. That's a logical fallacy called Ipse Dixit: "He himself said it." In law, it's called the dead man's statute and it's inadmissible. You can't elect a ghost proxy. You're borrowing authority from someone who is incontestable not by merit, but by death. Your argument is unassailable because the person making it is unavailable. You're saying that if he were here, he could make the argument, but he's not here. You can borrow words and ideas and quotations from the terminally absent to help illustrate a point, but if it's your point, it's your problem; your argument to make.

In any case, if he were here, he couldn't make the argument. I'm familiar with the beloved teacher of whom you speak. I promise you that if he were here I could slice him into a garnish while rubbing my tummy and patting my head. No effort required. No contest. You could do the same by this time tomorrow if you'd stop being lazy and start thinking for yourself.

Your spirituality is just another false garment, another layer of the lie of self. Your spirituality defines the dimensions of your cell and the fact that you don't see that tells me that you have no idea whose house you're in or whose rules you are living under. You have no grasp of your true situation, of the nature of your captive status. You're clinging desperately to your lies; shielding them with emotional energy. Why? Because these lies are you. They are who you are. You don't have imperfections, you are imperfections. Ask yourself why you even write to me? What's the point? None of what I'm saying is new to you. And yet here you are, writing impassioned letters to me, trying to stand your lies back up on their feet. If you like your lies, fine, but you're not going to make them true through the power of your conviction. Who you are is a lie; that's a fact. You're a fictional character in a state of wondrous denial. What you think of as your uniqueness is really nothing more than a series of randomly set toggle switches, and the particular settings you call "me" amount to nothing more special than the distinctions between any two snowflakes in an endless blizzard.

A serious person must remember at all times where he is and who's running the show. This is Maya's house. She controls everything. She has every advantage. We are patients in Maya's asylum, and all instruction to sit still and quiet the mind come directly from her. Stillness and silence are the antithesis of the awakening process, and those who advocate peace and compassion and a quiet mind are just reselling their preferred sleep potions. There are even popular spiritual teachers and authors who advocate doing nothing at all; they say that effort itself is the problem, that the discontentment that drives the spiritual pursuit is the only thing standing between ourselves and the goal of that pursuit. Is it any wonder that such a message would be popular? Is there any doubt from whom such a message really comes? You indicate in your letter that you believe a teacher's lineage is important, so there's the one true lineage; Maya. If you wish to understand any spiritual teacher's lineage, you need only imagine him dangling from marionette lines of which he is unaware, spouting off about free will, the hand of Maya above, controlling everything.

Even as you write to me and I write to you, we are dissolving in a vat of a corrosive chemical called oxygen. We are genetically programmed to self-destruct. Our lives are being swallowed by time and every breath may be our last. The inescapable fact is that we are all practitioners of the New Zen I describe above. Every day we lose an ounce or a gram or a pound and someday, poof!, gone as if we never were.

There's only one koan and it's the same for all of us:

What is true?

Yours, &tc

#

# Deception

### Your Mind is the Scene of the Crime

By Ned McFeely

#### www.WisefoolPress.com

## Praise for Ned McFeely

> "Whenever I see Ned in the fruit section, I always ask him to squeeze my tropicals. He really knows his guanabanas." -Mary Agnes Fuentes, shopper

> "Last week he was trying to sell me a timeshare in Boca, this week he's a bigshot author. What's next, mayor of Cheese Town?" -Swinglow Vespasian, neighbor

> "Ned McFeely is... as smart as he thinks he is. He does... have an original thought in his head. I would... let him anywhere near impressionable minds." -H. Kissinger, statesman

> "What's fifteen percent of nothing? Oh, that's right – nothing! Thanks for putting out free material, Ned. Real good business plan." -Morris J., Ned's agent/brother-in-law

> "Mr. McFeely splattered my white silk blouse with a mouthful of cherries jubilee when laughing at his own joke and told me to send him the cleaning bill, but I have yet to receive my fourteen dollars." -M. Streep, actress

> "If Ned had been captain of the Titanic, I think we would have seen a very different outcome." -The real Sister Batrille

> "I gotta have more cowbell!" -C. Walken, actor

## Now, Voyager, sail thou forth,  
to seek and find.

Walt Whitman

## Act I: Opium Den

> DOM and ARIADNE strolling along crowded city sidewalks.

Dom: Let me ask you a question: You never really remember the beginning of a dream do you? You always wind up right in the middle of what's going on, right?

Ariadne: Yeah, I guess.

Dom: So how did we get here?

Ariadne: Uh, I took an Uber from the airport.

Dom: No, I mean to this world, this body, this universe. Think about it, how did you get here? Where are you right now? Where were you before?

Ariadne: You mean, I'm dreaming right now?

> gestures to their surroundings

But it's all so real.

Dom: It seems real, but how can you judge?

Ariadne: I can judge because I'm conscious.

Dom: I have a t-shirt that says "I Am Conscious", but it's not conscious, it's a t-shirt.

Ariadne: Yeah, but I'm not a t-shirt.

Dom: I have another t-shirt that says "I'm not a t-shirt", but it is a t-shirt.

Ariadne: So what's your point? That you have a lot of weird t-shirts?

Dom: The fact that you're in a dream doesn't mean you're the dreamer. Maybe your entire reality is being generated by an evil demon which is really just a few lines of malicious code in a sentient mainframe.

Ariadne: So I could just be a computer bug?

Dom: We think the AI revolution is coming, but maybe it already came and we lost. Who knows? Nobody knows anything.

Ariadne: I don't know, I'm a pretty spiritual person and I've never heard anything like that.

Dom: Come on, I'll show you something.

> Dom leads Ariadne down a long dark stairway into a smoky, labyrinthine lair. Above the entrance is a sign that says Pnevmatikí Agorá.

Ariadne: Geez, it looks like an opium den. What does Pnevmatikí Agorá mean?

Dom: Depends who you ask. It's either Spiritual Marketplace or Village of Flatulence.

> The catacombs are lit by candles and divided by hanging wisps of tattered veil. The sound of chanting echoes hauntingly through incense-filled air. People sit in groups and talk about waking up. Some turn and stare at Ariadne.

Ariadne: Why are they looking at me?

Dom: They think you're going to upset their delicate balance. They're afraid you're going to try to wake them up.

Ariadne: You mean, all these people are asleep right now?

Dom: Depends who you ask. If they're asleep, are they really people? If they're not awake, how are they better than cattle?

Ariadne: But they're not cattle, they're people!

Dom: So is Soylent Green.

Ariadne: What can we do to end their suffering?

Dom: They're not suffering, that's the point. They're happy down here in the dark. You want to be an angel and set them free, but they'll see you as a demon trying to rip them apart.

Ariadne: But look at what they're doing! Meditating, chanting, worshipping pictures and praying to statues! They want to wake up!

Dom: No one wants to wake up. It's just a game to pass the time.

Ariadne: Then why are they even here?

Dom: This is their safe space. At some point, they opened their eyes a little and some light got in, so now they huddle in the darkness pretending to seek what they're really hiding from.

Ariadne: That's so sad.

Dom: Not really, it's just another form of drama, and all drama is good drama. It doesn't matter what we strive for, only that we strive.

> They ascend out of the catacombs and make their way to a sidewalk cafe where they continue their conversation over coffee.

Ariadne: They told me you had a wife, but the two of you got trapped in a place called Limbo. What happened?

Dom: Her name was Mal. We were like actors in a movie, but she got so deep into her character that she forgot who she really was. Instead of playing the character, the character began playing her. I tried to remind her, but I couldn't get her to believe that we were dreaming and that to wake up, we had to commit suicide together.

Ariadne: Yeah, that would be a tough sell.

Dom: So I had to enter her dreams and plant the idea in her head.

Ariadne: (shocked) Wow! You used hypnosis to make her commit suicide with you? That sounds like a terrible violation.

Dom: Not at all. It's called Deception. You go into someone's dream and plant an idea so they think it's their own.

Ariadne: And how is using mind control not the worst thing you can do to someone?

Dom: Think about it, isn't life just wall-to-wall Deception? Government, business, news, education, advertising, healthcare, science, religion. It's all just a massive disinformation system, so what's the big deal?

Ariadne: Herding people like livestock is okay due to mass adoption?

Dom: My point is that it worked on Mal, but a little too well. Once we were out of Limbo and back in our normal life, the Deception was still planted in her head. She thought we were still stuck in Limbo and that we had to kill ourselves again.

Ariadne: Yeah, I can see where that would be a problem, but what does any of this have to do with me? What do you need me for?

Dom: You're an expository device. I have to explain everything to you, and that's how the audience gets to understand what's going on.

Ariadne: (looks around) What audience?

Dom: I don't know, but we have to imagine there's an audience out there. Otherwise, we're just one hand clapping, a tree falling without making a sound.

Ariadne: So someone's watching us right now? Are they dreaming too?

Dom: Probably. Let's try to wake them up.

> A series of slow-motion explosions blow the entire cafe scene to bits, including Dom and Ariadne.

## Act II: Loading Program

> After the explosion at the cafe, Ariadne and Dom wake up on lounge chairs in a clean white warehouse. Sitting open between them is a high-tech briefcase. Tubes from the case plug into their arms. In the center of the case is a big red button.

Ariadne: Holy shit! Where are we?

Dom: This is a blank construct, like the loading program in The Matrix.

Ariadne: But The Matrix is just a movie.

Dom: As opposed to what?

Ariadne: So we're in Limbo right now?

Dom: Limbo, dreamstate, matrix, whatever.

Ariadne: But I'm a real person, so this must be real.

Dom: There are no real people in Limbo. You identify with the character you play, but there's no authentic connection because there's no authentic you.

Ariadne: You're saying that I'm not really me?

Dom: No more than you're Winston Churchill or Aunt Jemima. You're simply the zeropoint of awareness in a constantly rendering, multi-sensory, 3D gamespace viewed through an avatar called Ariadne.

Ariadne: Then who's doing the rendering? Who's doing the viewing?

Dom: God, Brahman, Aunt Jemima, take your pick.

Ariadne: Then how do I know what's real?

Dom: Who says anything is real? C'mon, I'll show you.

> Dom pushes the big red button. They both fall asleep in their lounge chairs and wake up together on a path in a lush, tropical setting. They talk as they stroll.

Ariadne: Wow! So I'm still dreaming right now?

Dom: You're always dreaming. That's what I never understood. I thought there was such a thing as real reality, but there's only layer upon layer of Limbo.

Ariadne: How can there be no real reality? If we wake up, what do we wake up to? What's left when the dream is gone?

Dom: There's nothing outside of dreaming. Limbo is all we have.

Ariadne: It actually seems kind of obvious now that I'm thinking about it. How do we manage to stay asleep?

Dom: By not thinking about it. Emotion is the ballast that holds us down in the dark. Thought is the knife that cuts ballast away and lets us ascend into the light.

Ariadne: But those people in the catacombs were so spiritual!

Dom: Spirituality is a crutch for people who can't handle truth. If you have trouble keeping your mind subdued, you have to redirect it into designated safezones like religion and spirituality.

Ariadne: I'm feeling very conflicted right now.

Dom: That's your thinking mind struggling against emotional sedation. Don't worry, it'll pass. C'mon, I'll show you the part where I talked my wife into suicide.

> They enter a clearing with a swimming pool. MAL, in a bikini and sunglasses, lies on a chaise lounge sunning herself. She sips from a glass with a straw and an umbrella.

Dom: (to Ariadne) This is what happened.

> Dom approaches Mal and casts a shadow over her.

Mal: (charming French accent) You stand in my sun.

Dom: I know you don't believe it, Mal, but none of this is real. We're living in a shared dream.

Mal: Again with this dream nonsense! You are telling me that reality is not real?

Dom: Well, this reality isn't real. There might be a real world out there somewhere, but this ain't it.

Mal: Then what is this place where we have lived for so many years?

Dom: This is called Limbo. You used to know that, but you locked the knowledge deep inside. In order to get to the real reality, we have to wake up, which means we have to kill ourselves together.

Mal: How romantic! You should create a line of greeting cards.

Dom: I'm serious, Mal. Dying is our only way out.

Mal: And how should we be doing the dying?

Dom: I suggest we lie down on the railroad tracks, and the train will wake us up.

Mal: You mean the train will squish our heads. This is your big idea?

Dom: Well, yeah, but our heads aren't really real, so we'll just wake up out of Limbo.

Mal: I have to say, your plan is very stupid.

Dom: It's not very stupid, it's very smart!

Mal: Okay, well, why don't you go do the smart head squishing thing and I'll stay here and drink stupid Mai Tais.

Dom: No, Mal, we have to kill ourselves together! That's what love means!

Mal: Mais non! That's what being in a cult means.

Dom: But none of this is real!

Mal: Okay, fine, but what is so terrible about not-real? Not-real is okay. We get to design the world and make it how we like. In your real reality, do I still get to create with my mind?

Dom: It's not so simple in the real world.

Mal: Okay then, what's so bad about here? If you were saying that in this real world of yours we would be super-beautiful and super-rich, with many admirers and servants...

Dom: (snaps fingers) Oh yeah, that's right! I just remembered! In the real world, you and me are megastars! We work in a dream factory and we're rich and everyone loves us! It's all coming back to me now!

Mal: Zut alors! That sounds much better! You should have said that first instead of the head squishing thing. Let's go kill ourselves. First I finish bronzing, then we go.

> Dom returns to Ariadne and they continue their stroll.

Ariadne: Wow, that Deception you planted in her mind really worked. How long were you guys in Limbo?

Dom: Decades, though it was only a few hours in this world. Time has no meaning in Limbo. Five minutes can be a hundred years.

Ariadne: A hundred years! Who'd wanna be stuck in a dream for a hundred years?

Dom: Depends on the dream.

Ariadne: So the Deception you planted in Mal's mind worked? You killed yourselves and woke up?

Dom: It worked too good. It never stopped working. Mal just wanted to keep going further and further.

> A door appears on their path. Dom and Ariadne step through the door into a ransacked hotel suite.

Dom: This is what happened.

> Dom goes the window. Mal sits in the window of an identical suite across the alley, about to jump. Her legs dangle over the void, one shoe drops into the darkness.

Dom: (distressed) Holy shit, Mal! What are you doing over there? Why are you hanging out of an open window?

Mal: Because we must jump now, you and I together. Just like before with the train and the head squishing. We must die together so we can wake up!

Dom: But we're already awake! This is the real world. If you jump, you'll die! This is where we want to be, here in America with our kids, living the dream!

Mal: We are not awake, we are still trapped in this stupid Limbo! Why are you trying to make it nice and pretend it's okay? I thought you were Mr. Reality-guy, now you're Mr. Happy-pants!

Dom: I think positive emotion trumps negative emotion every time.

Mal: You have said a very silly thing. Positive emotion is the fart of a unicorn, yes? A tiny little rainbow poof! It is cute, yes, but that's all. It trumps nothing, it changes nothing, it does not – how you say? – get shit done.

Dom: Snookums, I think you're making too much...

Mal: Positive emotion makes people sit on their ass and get fat and go nowhere and do nothing. Negative emotion burns. It makes heat and energy and change. What does the asshole of the unicorn give us? Flowery stink, that's all.

Dom: Wow, you've really given this some thought.

Mal: To say I like happy thoughts is to say I give up! I am afraid of my own life! I do not like this game and do not wish to play. I want to stay safe in the harbor and never set sail on the voyage of life. I spit on your stupid positive emotion. It is fear! It is death!

Dom: Listen, pooty-bird, that's no reason to jump...

Mal: Don't you pooty-bird me! This is why we must jump. We must die together! This isn't real. We must die from the dream to awaken to the real! It scares you because you think this world is real, but you are deceived! This is just another level of Deception. You think we escaped from Limbo, but we are still here!

Dom: But baby, this is real. I planted that Deception in your mind when we were in Limbo and it's still in there making you think you have to keeping going further, but there is no further. We're here! This is it! This is the real world!

Mal: You are very wrong. We are still in Limbo. This is the great big joke you do not get. Wherever we go, we are always in Limbo.

Dom: You're just mad because I planted the Deception in your mind. Please calm down and back away from the ledge.

Mal: I will not calm down, I am on fire! You were once on fire too, but now your flame has gone out and you are scared like a baby. You say to me, "Mal, don't be a crazy lady, relax and be happy like me," but I have had enough of your pretend happiness. I will find my way out of this maze if I have to jump out a thousand windows and have my head squished a thousand times! Montagnes peuvent s'écrouler sur ma tête...

Dom: That's not you talking! That's just the Deception I planted in your head so we could get out of Limbo. It worked! Now we're here! We can stop now!

Mal: There is no stopping! Do not be so eager to feast on yummy lies. I ask you, where is the dream factory you promised? Where are my servants and fans? This is not the real world, this is just another layer of bullshit cake. Come, let us jump to our deaths and awaken together!

Dom: You don't understand!

Mal: It is you who does not understand!

Ned: I'm afraid neither of you understand.

> Dom turns to find NED standing behind him. Ariadne looks on.

Dom: Jesus Christ! Who the hell are you?

Ned: Ned McFeely. I'm the author of this scene. It seemed like it was getting bogged down in all this quibbling so I thought I'd pop in and give it a little tweak.

Dom: You're not the author of me. I'm a self-determined individual! I have free will!

Ned: There, see? That's what I mean. Your dialog is stilted and boring. Let's explore your character's motivation.

Mal: Dommy-bear? Who is that man with you?

Dom: No one, babe, just the author.

Ned: (to Dom) Okay, so you locked something away, something deep inside, the truth that you had once known, but chose to forget.

Mal: Yoohoo! Mr. Author! I was just now telling him this!

Dom: It's like something in my solar plexus that just keeps churning so I can never relax.

Ned: Yes, and someday it will burst out of your chest like an alien and you will give birth to yourself. Until then, you're like a caterpillar dreaming of butterflies.

Mal: Papillon!

Dom: Then who am I really? I mean, really really.

Ned: If you are aware, then you are awareness.

Dom: Well, I guess that's not nothing.

Ned: It's the only something there is.

Dom: Then maybe dreaming ain't so bad.

Ned: Depends on the dream.

Mal: Hello? Sweetie-pie, remember me? Your wife? I'm sitting on a ledge about to jump to my death. Care to join me?

Dom: Yeah, just a minute, honey-britches.

Mal: Don't you honey-britches me! Are we going to jump together or not?

Dom: (to Mal) We're working on that right now, butter-buns. Just a sec.

> to Ned

So all these levels of dream and reality, you're saying that none of it is real?

Ned: Or, you can say it's all real, but none of it is true. Isn't that the nature of a dream? Real but not true?

Mal: Hello? Darling? What are you doing that's more important than jumping to your death right now?

Dom: Just having a chat, mon petit albatros. Be right with you.

Ned: In order to be reborn, one must first be unborn.

Dom: You mean die.

Ned: Same difference.

Dom: Like by jumping out a window or getting run over by a train?

Ned: Dramatic but messy. The only real way to awaken from the dream of selfhood is through the process of focused thought. Emotionally suppressed thought leads to deeper sleep. Emotionally fueled thought leads to dream destruction and awakening.

Dom: Suicide by thought?

Ned: To be born into lucidity, you must die out of wrong-knowing.

Dom: I don't want to die, I want to be me, but I also want to wake up.

Ned: That's what those people in the opium den were trying to do, wake up without leaving the dream, but despite what they promise in the Village of Flatulence, you can't have your cake and eat it too. It's one or the other. Wake up or stay asleep.

Dom: So what do I have to do to wake up? Why shouldn't I join her in jumping to our deaths?

Ned: I didn't say you shouldn't.

Dom: Well, dammit, I'm not gonna jump!

Mal: (overhears) Okay pussy-boy, I go alone!

Dom: (rushes to window) Mal, wait. No!

Mal: See you in my dreams! Au revoir!

> A trailing-off scream is heard.

Dom: (wails in despair) Oh Mal! Baby! What have I done? I killed you! Oh my God!

> turns angrily on Ned

You bastard! This is all your fault!

Ned: It feels like the scene is dragging.

Dom: What are you saying? My wife just committed suicide! Oh my God! My poor baby!

Ned: I think we've reached the end of your character arc.

Dom: What the hell are you talking about? Jesus buddy, can't you see I'm grievin' here?

Ned: Your character is stuck. I think you need a little push.

Dom: Holy shit, are you crazy? Don't you understand? My wife just jumped out the fuckin'...

> Ned pushes Dom out the window.

Ned: (turns to Ariadne) Is it just me, or was it getting a little whiny in here?

Ariadne: You can see me?

Ned: I see all.

Ariadne: What happens now?

Ned: I write the press junket scene.

Ariadne: What about me?

Ned: You're just words on a page, Ellen.

> > Exeunt.

## Act III: Dream Factory

> MARION and LEO sit in raised director's chairs. An Inception movie poster hangs behind them with the tagline: Your Mind is the Scene of the Crime. They chat between interviews.

Marion: Nom de dieu de putain de bordel de merde de saloperie de connard d'enculer ta mère! I hate these press junkets. Two hundred interviews in three days, always the same questions over and over! And we must always smile and pretend they're all so new and clever.

Leo: I know. They should just use impersonators so we can get on with other projects.

> BOB bounds in carrying blue 4x6 index cards. He takes the interviewer's seat facing Leo and Marion.

Bob: Impersonators would only work if they didn't know they were impersonators.

> Leo and Marion laugh uncomfortably at being overheard.

Leo: Hey, yeah, that's right.

Marion: You're so clever.

> Bob gets comfortable in his raised director's chair, checks his notes.

Bob: Which means you guys might be the impersonators.

> Marion and Leo laugh nervously.

Bob: Just kidding, guys. Hey, I'm Bob and I can tell you, this is a real treat for me, a real treat! Wow! Look at you guys; young, beautiful, super-rich, super-famous, adored by millions. Living the dream!

Marion: (aside, to Leo) Leo, this man is frightening me.

Bob: What's it like being global superstars? Pretty fun, I bet.

Leo: Your name is Bob?

Bob: Yes, I am Bob!

Leo: Bob what?

Bob: (checks cards) Just Bob!

Leo: No last name?

Bob: Most of the main characters in your movie only had one name.

Leo: Yeah, but this is real life.

Bob: Oh, that's marvelous! Let me write that down. This is real life. Pure gold! They'll put me on the Paris desk after this.

Marion: France?

Bob: Hilton. So guys, wow! So first off, let me just thank you for your patience with me, I'm pretty new at this interviewing stuff.

Leo: You're doin' fine, Bob.

Marion: Yeah, so good.

Bob: Great, so let's see, I only have a few minutes with you guys so here we go, question one: How do you know you're not still in Limbo? Marion?

Marion: What do you mean Limbo? Like, in the movie? Leo, is this man asking if we're still in the movie?

Leo: Bob, buddy, I don't think that's an approved question. Try again.

Bob: Okay! Leo, you were Dom down in Limbo, but you came up through all those dream levels until you were back in America with your children, but then you came up another level and now you're a rich and famous movie star working in a dream factory and adored by millions. Do you wonder if you might not have a little more waking up to do?

Leo: Listen pal, you don't have a lot of time, are you sure this is how you want to use it?

Marion: These are very bad questions, mister.

Bob: So you're staying in character for the press junket? How wonderful!

Leo: We're not in character now, we're us. This is who we really are. We're actors!

Bob: Sure, sure, I get it. So let's see, first you're both dream pioneers exploring internal realms and using Deception on other people and each other and growing old together in Limbo, and now you're rich, beautiful megastars doing a press junket for your massive global fanbase. Do you think it's at least possible that you're actually a couple of fat slobs living in a trailer park in Asshat, Kansas playing a virtual reality game you got for Christmas?

Leo: What? No! Seriously? No! Wait, what?

Marion: Putain de merde! That is quite absurd!

Bob: (checks his cards) Oh, I'm sorry, my assistant must have given me the wrong notes. Let's see, gosh, it says here that you're really a couple of guys – brothers, actually – living in a trailer and uh... Oh, here we go, fun fact, you save all your beer cans throughout the year until they cover the floor of your trailer. You call it your Christmas Fund because you redeem them all in December to get yourselves something special. Gosh, isn't that nice! The reason for the season, right guys?

Marion: Leo, why does he keep calling me a guy?

Leo: What the hell are you talkin' about, buddy?

Bob: So this year, you guys treated yourself to a virtual reality game called Inception. Sound familiar? No? I'm your game host and you are now starting a new level called "Dream Factory". Any of this a ringing a bell?

Leo: You're full of shit, dude.

Bob: Amazing tech, right? People put on that VR headset and just get lost in the gamespace.

Marion: Did Chris send you? Is this one of his little jokes?

Leo: You're saying this isn't real and that Marion and I are actually brothers living in a trailer park in Kansas?

Bob: Roger, Roger.

Leo: Leo.

Bob: Roger, Leo.

Marion: Please, no! Leonardo, make the bad man stop!

Leo: I'm trying, Mal, uh, Marion.

Bob: She's Ronnie. You're Harlan.

Marion: Mon Dieu! Je me sens comme Alice, mais le trou du lapin est mon propre cul!

Bob: Such a lovely language.

Leo: Yeah, listen buddy, I don't know how you got past my people...

Bob: No one here but us chickens, Dom.

Leo: (angrily) My name is Leo. Dom was just a character I played. You got that?

Bob: (writing) Just a character I played... Got it.

Marion: Then why do I not behave like this Ronnie person? Why am I so naturally me?

Bob: Super question! The game interface converts emotional impulses into character-appropriate behaviors. You're not just playing Marion, you have been digitally remastered into Marion. It's not just a costume you wear, you are mentally and emotionally integrated with the character, just like real life!

Dom: Then who was Ariadne?

Bob: (refers to cards) Ah, it says here your weed dealer stopped by and you gave him the tour.

Marion: Quel guignol! Leonardo, help me!

Leo: So what's next in your little game? We turn into these trailer park bums and then what? That's just another level of Limbo that we have to make our way out of?

Bob: (checks cards) Um, I don't have answers regarding levels you haven't reached yet, so I guess you just keep going. Further! Onward and upward!

Leo: Listen, buddy, we exist just as much as you do.

Bob: Oh, I don't exist. The system calls and I appear!

Marion: Leo, please! I don't want to be fat and stupid and live in a tiny house with wheels!

Leo: He didn't say we were fat and stupid.

Bob: You are.

Marion: I want to stay as Marion! I want to be me, Leo. I want to stay as us! I like being Marion!

Bob: Naturally, everyone wants to be Marion and Leo forever; beautiful, rich, adored, living the dream. No one wants to pull off the headset and wake up back in Kansas. Unfortunately, there's no such thing as Marion and Leo, those are just fancy game avatars that were whipped up by our coding and design teams.

Leo: Jesus, Marion, I think it's true. I'm starting to remember...

Marion: No, Leo, don't remember! I don't want the truth, I want beauty! I want to stay here! I want to be Marion and Leonardo forever.

Leo: You're the one who jumped out a window to wake up!

Marion: That was my goddamn character!

Leo: You're a goddamn character!

Marion: (pulls out phone) I'm calling my agent!

Leo: (to Bob) So what's next for us? Where do we go from here?

Bob: We wrap up the interview and the next guy comes in to ask about the movie and life goes on.

Marion: (puts down phone) Suce ma bite! So we're not in Limbo? We get to stay as Marion and Leo?

Bob: Well, you're always in Limbo – it's turtles all the way down – but you can remain in character as long as you want, or finish this level and go up to the next. You saw Mr. Anderson in The Matrix, right? Instead of continuing up another level, he decided to stay as Neo and play Goth Superman. Why not? That's what the game is for.

Leo: But then he woke up as Keanu?

Bob: Sure, and he got to be a movie star for a while, but then Keanu woke up as Marcy Lundt, a twelve-year-old girl from Oxnard playing a game called The Matrix. And when she finished the game, she unlocked an Easter egg and found herself strapped into a chair in a high-tech memory implant lab from which she escaped and went on to save Mars from greedy industrialists, and now she's a bodybuilder, movie star and governor of California in a bonus level called True Lies.

Leo: And in our next level we're a couple of fat, lazy brothers?

Bob: Unless you find the little door that leads into the mind of John Malkovich.

Leo: And after that?

Bob: I guess you'll find out when you get there.

Leo: But it does go on?

Bob: Well, heck yeah! The gamespace keeps rendering wherever you go. Move up, go back down, hop around wherever you like!

Marion: No, Leo, no! We must stay here! We must remain in this level forever. It can never be better than this! I want to stay in Dream Factory forever! Don't make me go to Asshole Kansas!

Leo: But it's not real, Marion. This is all fake. We're dreaming and we have to wake up, and the only way is to follow the white rabbit and take the red pill and go up through all the levels!

Marion: But if it's all Limbo, who cares?! If it's all bullshit, why not pick happy bullshit? I like this bullshit. This is good bullshit! Don't make me go to Kansas. I don't want to be a fat stupid American!

> Marion stands and clicks her heels together.

There's no place like Hollywood. There's no place like Hollywood. There's no place...

Leo: It's just another level, babe.

Marion: (pleading) Let's stay here. Everything is perfect here! We are rich and famous and beautiful here!

Leo: We can't live a lie.

Marion: Of course we can! Everyone does!

Leo: But it's not true!

Marion: So what it's not true? There is no truth, that's what this ridiculous Bob-man just told you. There is no true level so we just pick the one we like. I like this one! Don't make me be poor and smelly!

Bob: Would you like to access the built-in Help Wizard?

Leo: You have a goddamn wizard?

Marion: Tell your goddamn wizard I want to stay in goddamn Oz!

## Act IV: The Help Wizard

> Bob, Leo and Marion sit in raised director's chairs waiting for the Help Wizard to boot up. An OLD FELLA in gray hair and beard, a well-worn coat and floppy fedora shuffles in.

Old Fella: I sing the body electric!

> examines his clothing, rubs his hands together, feels his face

I cannot be awake, for nothing looks to me as it did before, or else I am awake for the first time, and all before has been a mean sleep.

Dom: Santy Claus!

Marion: Mon Dieu! L'ange sans ses ailes!

Old Fella: Neither Santa nor angel, merely a man. Walt Whitman, a kosmos, of Manhattan the son. Turbulent, fleshy, sensual, eating, drinking and breeding. No sentimentalist, no stander above men and women or apart from them. No more modest than immodest.

Leo: (shaking Walt's hand) Oh, hi Walt. I'm Leo. I like to eat and drink too. I'm not sure about that other stuff.

Bob: Walter is your help system avatar.

Leo: No shit! Say there, Walt, this guy here, uh...

Bob: Bob.

Leo: Yeah, this Bob guy is sayin' that this whole deal – you know, me and Marion bein' movie stars and stuff – he says it's not really real, like there's no meaning to any of it...

Walt: Have you felt so proud to get at the meaning of poems? Stop this day and night with me and you shall possess the origin of all poems.

Leo: Who said anything about poems?

Walt: You shall no longer take things at second or third hand, nor look through the eyes of the dead, nor feed on the spectres in books.

Mal: Spectres?

Leo: Books?

Walt: You shall not look through my eyes either, nor take things from me. You shall listen to all sides and filter them from yourself.

Leo: Say what?

Walt: You shall not look through my eyes...

Leo: No, no, okay, listen bud, we got a situation here. Me and this lady, we're like big Hollywood moviestars. As you can see, we're very attractive and talented and rich, and everyone wants to be just like us, okay?

Walt: This day before dawn I ascended a hill and looked at the crowded heaven, and I said to my spirit, "When we become the enfolders of those orbs, and the pleasure and knowledge of everything in them, shall we be filled and satisfied then?" And my spirit said, "No, we but level that lift to pass and continue beyond."

Leo: Do what?

Walt: Level that lift to pass and continue beyond.

Leo: What the hell does that mean? Bob, is this thing even working?

Bob: The help wizard is still in beta.

Leo: Bullshit, this guy is straight outta central casting!

Walt: If you would understand me, go to the heights or water-shore.

Leo: Bob here says you don't even exist.

Walt: I exist as I am, that is enough.

Leo: I'm talkin' about reality, pal. Ever heard of it?

Walt: I accept reality and dare not question it.

Marion: I think it only has certain lines, Leo, like an actor reading a script. You must be asking the right questions!

Leo: Listen, buddy, we're actors too. That's what we do, we play characters, okay?

Walt: There was a child went forth every day, and the first object he looked upon, that object he became. And that object became part of him for the day, or a certain part of the day, or for many years, or stretching cycles of years.

Leo: What the hell are you talkin' about?

Marion: Leo, why does he talk so funny?

Leo: I don't know. Maybe it's like a Shakespeare thing. I played Romeo once, I speak a little Shakespeare.

Marion: You played a halfwit too. Do you speak a little moron?

Leo: You're not helpin' here, doll. I'm tryin' to learn how this guy works.

Walt: Have you learned the lessons only of those who admired you and were tender with you and stood aside for you? Have you not learned great lessons from those who braced themselves against you and disputed passage with you?

Marion: Monsieur, s'il vous plait, we wish only to know what is our situation.

Walt: (approaches Marion, takes one of her hands in both of his, speaks tenderly) I could sing such grandeurs and glories about you! You have not known what you are. You have slumbered upon yourself all your life, your eyelids have been the same as closed most of the time. What you have done returns already in mockeries. The mockeries are not you, underneath them and within them I see you lurk. I pursue you where none else has pursued you.

Marion: But then, am I me or not me? Who am I?

Walt: Whoever you are, I fear you are walking the walk of dreams. I fear these supposed realities are to melt from under your feet and hands.

Marion: Frankly sir, this news comes a little late.

Walt: (kisses her hand and gently strokes it) I should have made my way straight to you long ago. None has done justice to you. You have not done justice to yourself. I only find no imperfection in you.

Marion: Mais oui c'est clair! The critics can be so unkind. What must I do?

Walt: Whoever you are, claim your own at any hazard! Undrape!

Marion: Undrape? How can you say such a thing? You say one thing, then you say the opposite!

Walt: Do I contradict myself? Very well, then I contradict myself. I am large, I contain multitudes.

Marion: You are supposed to help, but you talk in riddles!

Walt: I and this mystery, here we stand.

Marion: But I too am here! I am real!

Walt: The powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse.

Marion: (darkens, pulls her hand back) You are being a little annoying right now. Do you know who I am?

Walt: Whoever you are, motion and reflection are especially for you. The divine ship sails the divine sea for you.

Marion: (brightens) Oh, that's much better! That sounds nice. Leo, did you hear that? The divine ship sails the divine sea for me!

Leo: What are you listening to this guy for? He's just an actor repeating the same lines over and over.

Walt: I contain multitudes.

Leo: There, see?

Marion: Can no one give me a simple answer?

Walt: You are also asking me questions and I hear you.

Marion: Wonderful! Then please answer. Who am I? Am I a real person?

Walt: I answer that I cannot answer, you must find out for yourself.

Marion: This is not good help. I feel like I'm in a bad dream and cannot wake up!

Walt: Long enough have you dreamed contemptible dreams. Now I wash the gum from your eyes. You must habit yourself to the dazzle of the light and of every moment of your life.

Leo: That's it. I've had about enough of this guy.

Walt: Take warning, I am surely far different from what you suppose.

Leo: I suppose you're supposed to be helping.

Walt: Do you see no further than this façade? Have you no thought, O dreamer, that it may be all Maya, illusion?

Leo: I don't wanna hear any more of this dream bullshit!

Walt: This is curious, and may not be realized immediately, but it must be realized.

Leo: I have to realize reality's not real? Really? Jesus, I can't tell if this guy's talkin' to us, or just talkin'.

Marion: What, sir? What must we realize?

Leo: If you get a straight answer outta this guy, it'll be a miracle.

Walt: Who makes much of a miracle? I know of nothing else but miracles. To me, every hour of the light and dark is a miracle.

Leo: That sounds like a load of crap. All we're gettin' from this guy is more lies!

Walt: There is no lie, or form of lie, and can be none, but grows as inevitably upon itself as the truth does upon itself.

Leo: (angry, grabs Walt by the lapels) What are you saying, buddy? That it's okay if the whole world is a lie?

Walt: (unruffled) I feel in myself that I represent falsehoods equally with the rest, and that the universe does.

Marion: But sir, how can you help us if you don't speak the truth?

Walt: Where has failed a perfect return, indifferent of lies or the truth?

Leo: (releases Walt in disgust) Oh boy, here we go.

Walt: Meditating among liars, and retreating sternly into myself, I see that there are really no liars or lies after all, and that nothing fails its perfect return, and that what are called lies are perfect returns, and that each thing exactly represents itself and what has preceded it, and that the truth includes all and is compact, just as much as space is compact, and that there is no flaw or vacuum in the amount of the truth, but that all is truth without exception.

Marion: What, Leo? What is he trying to say?

Leo: I think he's saying that nothing is real, or maybe it's all real in a kind of unreal way, something like that. Like we should just relax and make the best of it and not ask too many questions.

Marion: Mais oui! Yes! That's what I say too! Let's stay here and be happy and not worry about silly truth. Let us not disturb the delicate web of this sparkly, silvery world. I like being a movie star!

Leo: This isn't a very helpful help wizard, Bob.

Bob: There's a scheduled update in the next version. I think they're giving him sunglasses.

Leo: We're not gettin' anywhere with this guy.

Bob: Computer, end program.

> Walt gives Bob the finger and shuffles out.

Leo: Listen Marion, I'll tell you a riddle. You're waiting for a train...

Marion: Oh no, Leo! Not again with the fucking train!

> Leo opens his jacket exposing bomb vest with a blinking red light. In his hand is a wired device with a red button.

Leo: You're waiting for a train...

Marion: No Leo, please! Shut up about the stupid train!

Leo:...a train that will take you far away.

Marion: I don't want to go anywhere! I want to stay here. I don't care about truth, I want beauty. They are not the same!

Leo: You know where you hope this train will take you, but you don't know for sure.

Marion: Fuck truth! I want beauty and happiness and money and stardom! I want to be chic and fabulous and live forever! I don't want to be fat and stupid and live in a tiny house, Leo, please!

Leo: How can it not matter where the train takes you?

Marion: No, Leo, please let's stay here. It's so nice here. We're so happy, so rich, so pretty...

Leo: How can it not matter where the train takes you?

Marion: No, Leo! No, no, no! I do not wish to go!

Leo: How can it not matter where the train takes you?

Marion: (sighs in resignation) Because we'll be together.

Leo: See you in the next life, doll.

> Leo presses the button.

## Act V: Asshole, Kansas

> After Leo detonated his bomb vest, we find two fat slobs slumped on a couch surrounded by crushed beer cans and half-eaten pizzas. They remove their techy headsets and survey their bleak surroundings.

Ronnie: Aw, goddammit, Harley! Why'd you go and do that for?

Harlan: Had to do it, bro. Gotta keep it real.

Ronnie: We're tryin' to escape reality, not get back to it!

Harlan: You were smokin' as that actress lady, bro. I was gettin' some thoughts!

Ronnie: Damn, bro, that was sweet! We could have stayed on that level forever. We coulda hooked up and been like Hollywood royalty!

Harlan: Strap it down, bro. What happens in Limbo, stays in Limbo.

Ronnie: Yeah, but they said it was all Limbo, like maybe this here is Limbo too!

Harlan: Don't be a dumbass! How can this be Limbo if this is where we got the game?

Ronnie: Damn, I was getting used to that shit! Bein' all fancy and glamorous and whatnot. I think I was Edith Piaf for awhile. Je ne regrette rien!

Harlan: Don't tell me everything, bro. I want to be the French broad next time.

> A knock on the door. They pause in silence. Another knock.

Ronnie: (yells) We ain't got no money for weed, Herbert.

Bob: Hey, guys! It's me, Bob. Remember? From the press junket? C'mon, open up, I have some good news.

Ronnie: That guy was in the game! How can he be here?

Harlan: He said he was the game host.

Ronnie: Shit, dude, I told ya! We're into some weird shit here!

Harlan: How do we get out?

Ronnie: I don't wanna get out, I wanna get back to the good parts where it don't smell like stale beer and piss all the time.

Harlan: Yeah, that French lady smelled nice.

Ronnie: Dude, that was me!

> More knocking.

Bob: It's okay, fellas, I'm just delivering your Easter egg. You're going to Westworld where you get to play people who find out they're actually robots who want to become real people. It's a hoot! You get to have a lot of sex and do a lot of killing.

Ronnie: Ooh, I like sex.

Harlan: How do you know? You ain't never had none.

Ronnie: Well, I like killin'.

Harlan: Yeah, me too.

Ronnie: Whadda ya say, bro? Stay or go?

Harlan: Well, it's either piss and beer or sex and killin'.

> They get to their feet. There is a louder, more insistent knocking at the door.

Harlan: Yeah, yeah, okay Bob, we're comin'.

Picard: (yelling from outside the door) Commander Riker, is that you? Thank goodness! Is Counselor Troi with you? You've been drugged and trapped in the holodeck by an alien entity called The Scribe. We're trying to lock onto your signal. Stand by for transport!

Ronnie: Whoa, dude!

Harlan: Shit, bro, didn't see that one comin'!

Ronnie: Wait a minute, which of us is which? I wanna be the lady again!

Harlan: Bro, when you and me are you and me again, we gotta have a long talk. This game is whackin' you out.

Ronnie: (takes Harlan by the shoulders) Non, je ne regrette rien! I regret nothing! Not the good things that have happened, nor the bad, it's all the same to me. I don't care about the past! I set fire to my memories. My troubles, my pleasures, I don't need them anymore! I'm starting over, because my life, my joy, today it begins with you!

Harlan: Aw shit. Enterprise! This is... oh hell, I don't know anymore. Two to beam directly to sickbay!

The End

Join us next time when the boys return home to find a featureless black monolith in their living room.

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