♪ Very Special (Instrumental Remix) by Funky DL ♪
Greetings and salutations y'all!
Welcome to my channel! It's the Sarah O.
It's been so long since we've done a *sighs*
chit chat get ready with me. I don't
really even know what to talk about...
I'm lying. I have a list! Because y'all
know I will ramble if i don't have one,
so i have my little list
on my phone prepared so i can stay on
track while i do my makeup.
i'm not going to list off the things
that I use um because I know I'm going
to forget to
list off something. So I will definitely
leave all of that information in the
description box below.
So I literally just moved like two days
ago and
I'm still highkey tired but I'm also so
excited because I feel very at peace
in this new place and it's just a very
refreshing um
a refreshingly new environment just like
this refreshing ass drink that I got
from Krab queens!
Y'all, my favorite part about living in
houston is the food. I live next to all
the seasoned
food. You know, hood adjacent. So it's
gonna be lit
I'm gonna get thick. Y'all gonna see.
Periodt. I did my brows I already you know
line them up extra thick but I'm going
to go ahead.
I'm not going to show y'all everything
because highkey, the house is still a mess
and I'm a little ashamed
of that. *laughs* Um but this is, just you know,
show y'all you know my bed
it's dark as hell. There you go. It's my
bed, my favorite thing you know. Grata ta ta!
Just like a bookshelf that kind of
came built in with the apartment. We
don't really have that much stuff on it.
This is probably going to be reorganized.
And then we got the TV
and the dresser periodt. You know, it's
just a little bit mess right now.
Closet space is also- I got my wigs up
there because you know it's a mess
but you know, we got the closet space.
Also we still have a lot of unpacking
as you can see to do. Um and this is
le bathroom. *smacks lips* Periodt!
That was an extra hard *makes soft popping sound*
*laughs*
It's messy. I really want to just get
more organized. This is like the messiest
my bathroom sink has ever looked. It just
needs to-
I need to get more organizing things to
organize the shelf space in here. You
know the bathroom, toilet. Nothing fancy and you know we got
the shower you know little
uh- i don't know what you call this a tub
yeah the little tub shower thingy
whatever
And then we have the laundry room.
Periodt let there be light! A little
bedding and stuff up there.
And this is the living room space. You
know the front door.
It's like this little weird like
electronic lock or whatever. Security
systems
you know niggas try to rob me. The police
will come! But you know all cops are
bastards so
fuck the police and abolish them niggas.
Anyways uh the kitchen
area- you know, I have always wanted a
sink-
A sink with this little thingy majigger bob.
Oh shit this little thingy i love that
shit. We hype!
And then this little like
backsplash
Oh shit wrong light! I'm still gonna use
to it. There's a lot of light switches here.
This little backsplash is like so cute
y'all. It's like little brick
thingy. Oh it's not brick. Uh what's the
word i'm looking for?
Y'all know what I mean! A little TV. We're
probably gonna sell that tv because we
still want to mount one
but it's just there for now until we
figure out what we want to do with it.
And the floor and then the balcony.
*alarm beeps twice*
Extra hot cause you know it's Houston.
But a nice balcony space. I'm thinking-
It's just a chair.
I'm thinking of maybe getting plants or
something but uh i'm still thinking
about it.
And this is where we at. This is what
we're looking at.
Nice little color
and then just like our little gaming
room. Hey baby.
Light them niggas up! oh well
all right. Well yeah this is our little gaming
room. You know we gonna have a whole
bunch of anime posters. This is the first
one we got but we lowkey might throw
it away and get another one
of the attack on titan because it got
wrinkled in the moving process. And
I told y'all there's like all these damn
light switches. You know, sometimes you 
wanna shower but you don't have lights
on. It's like a nice perfect mood light
periodt!
Yeah so that was just a quick messy,
hot mess tour of you know
the apartment. *laughs* I started color correcting
maybe
like a month ago. It has definitely
helped me save a lot on foundation
too.
So I would highly recommend trying it
out you know.
Just to see if it works for you. Moving
has definitely been stressful.
I feel like it's gonna take me another
week
to fully recuperate from the process.
Like it's only- it's Tuesday today and I
still feel extremely tired and I
definitely have slept
a lot more than I have been lately.
Y'all, of course I'm going to talk about
it because I'm a black
woman in Amerika and Amerika is on some
fuck shit.
As always. Black lives matter and that
means
all black lives motherfucker. Um we
understand that
twitter used to be the place for funny
jokes and things like that and nowadays
it's really just
a more reliable news source than a lot
of the media that our parents are
watching. A lot of the media that most
Amerikans
are watching. I feel like not being
informed right now is one of the worst
things that any of us could
possibly do and I don't think that
people realize
that black lives mattering will affect
the way that the government treats all
lives.
And black people shouldn't have to remind
other people that
black lives matter for our lives to
matter. And something that also has been
pissing me
the fuck off is the marketing schemes
that
the whole country seems to be on with
the black lives matter movement.
Um you know there was also like a
blackout Tuesday which I kind of felt
like uh I was like for it but also kind
of
uh I don't want to stay against it, but I
didn't feel like it was the best way to
go about raising awareness for black
lives.
I do believe that uh- It was
nice to see people showing their support
but you know don't be triggered by me
saying this word.
It was, as they say,  "performative".
You know you have people who literally
uh haven't talked about black lives
matter
or who have said racist things in the
past regularly
posting these little black squares and
people applauding them for their
activism.
Whatever that means. For posting this little
black square for
blackout day. I'm happy to see the amount
of people who are finally tuning in
and finally acknowledging the fact that
black people are disproportionately
disadvantaged by
the system-
Y'all look at this shit. Nah nah nah nah nah look at this shit! *laughter*
Y'all, this my baby. Hi. Say hi.
I'm ugly. She's fine. You're not ugly!
You're never ugly!
This my baby. A bad bitch!
We gotta do your hair. Y'all I'm gonna show you her again
when we got her hair together. But she's
still a bad bitch. Here here so we can be
so we can- Oh god! *laughter*
So we can match. I wasn't prepared for this. So we can match, here you go.
Yeah go ahead and play ya game. You look cute.
Thank you.
Even in my wig cap? Even with my makeup
looking ashy. My heart.
Mhmm finest ever. Well no not as ever.
But still fine. Awww *laughs*
The honesty! Anyways yes back to black
lives mattering.
I feel like there are no words to
describe the anger and frustration
and fear that i feel living black in
Amerika. Like that's just-
that's on periodt! The fact that people
are not even trying to acknowledge those
statistics or not even trying to
acknowledge the fact that you know
say her name is also something that
needs to be acknowledged you know
Breonna Taylor. How many days has it been?
Let me go ahead and search.
It's been 102 days since she was killed
literally
in her sleep. Like imagine you are home
in your bed
and someone comes in your house and
shoots you and you are just dead
and you can't do anything about it but
your family
has to live with the fact that nobody is
going to be held accountable
for your murder. That's some fucked up
shit!
And the simple fact is: if she was a
little white girl, everybody would be
in fucking arms and every single person
that was in that house would've been arrested,
would've lost their job.
The simple fact is: she was a black woman
in Amerika and Amerika doesn't give a
fuck about black women.
Periodt. Simple fact. A lot of
um black men especially on twitter are
now going out of their way
and talking about how uh
black women are essentially trying to do
it- to make this a black men
versus black women movement. And I
think that's some bullshit.
Like that's honest bullshit and misogyny.
We are trying to tell you that-
Yes we know. Like black women are aware
that black men are dying because we are
out there fighting for y'all. The black
lives movement was started by a queer
black- like queer black people.
Excuse me. Queer black womxn. We are
always
and we have always fought for all Black
people.
Black men have constantly always talked
down on black women
have uh- not saying that you know all
black men but you know at the same time
it's the majority of motherfuckers so
let me be general.
Black men over here playing black women
and I'm not here for it and I'm not
especially here for
if you're trying to say that we're
trying to invalidate the black lives
matter movement because we're trying to
tell y'all
to listen to us. We're trying to tell
y'all to acknowledge us
in the movement. It's just frustrating.
But earlier last week, you know I was
just really angry
and I feel like something that I have
also been struggling with during this
time. Like we're literally living through
the middle of a global pandemic... A. We're living through the middle of one
of the worst economic recessions
this country has ever seen...B.
And we are also living in
a fucking race war. Like if we want to
just be straight up like this shit is a
race war. You got the ku klux klan
coming out the woodworks,
shooting guns, and lynching people. You
got the police
writing off these lynchings as suicides
because the police are part of probably
the fucking kkk and probably hung that
motherfucker too.
You have all these people who are out
here-
In fucking London- They-
European white people they- y'all are some crackheads! Like no offense to the
ones who aren't racist but offense
because you're some fucking crackheads.
Y'all went across the world to steal
spices from people
Let me lubricate.
Y'all went across the
world to steal spices from people,
to enslave people and rape, murder, and
kill people,
and now, y'all are going out of your way to
have these
anti-racism protests because you're like
"we didn't do none of that shit. That was
our ancestors." But you continue to
benefit from the
evil ass shit that they did.
Like y'all were the original colonizers.
Like let's be fucking real.
Like and y'all over here- Anyways, I'm not
really as
in uh the know of everything that
happens in terms of like
overseas racisms. Like detail by detail
but I have heard things. I'm just gonna
go ahead and put pictures
of the stories that I'm listing
off that I remember.
There was a girl who was literally
drowned and and i'll probably put like
the petitions down below too
but there was a girl who was drowned
allegedly-
definitely- by her classmates and the
school just literally like changed the
name.
Changed the name of the school instead of
actually trying to
investigate her death. The girl didn't
know how to swim. There was no way that
she would have went by this river that
was by her school but they went ahead and
was like" oh it was an accident. She
happened to drown."
You have another woman who was out
trying to work and feed her family
who got spit on, literally spit on, by
somebody who knew they had COVID-19 and
ended up-
The woman who was spit on ended up dying
and those people literally have not been
charged.
Like no one has been arrested. There has-
Nothing.
And then you have in Amerika- Amerika got
too many fucking examples. I'm not even
gonna say. I'm just gonna sit here and
just
blend my makeup and just keep on popping
up pictures so y'all could just see
the amount of faces, the amount of
uh lives.
Like that have just been thrown to the
wind and disregarded...
because Amerika doesn't give a fuck
about black people.
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*sighs* Okay blended. There were enough
for me to blend my face, acknowledge them,
their names, and probably still have
missed
hundreds of thousands. And that's
honestly the sad reality of this
situation.
No matter how much we fight, no matter
how much we...
say that black lives matter
now... there were still black lives that
were lost.
And that's what makes me frustrated and
that's what makes me angry and the
system that we have right now, there's
nothing that is going to be changed.
There's nothing that can be reformed.
There's nothing that can be de-funded.
This shit needs to go. Abolish this shit.
Burn this shit to the ground
and start from scratch because nothing
of this is going to help us.
Like at the end of the day, the one
percent is in power and none of us have
power.
That's the reality of the situation. None
of us will have power
until we acknowledge that the people
that are in power are
the actual issue it's not you know and
racism
is the actual issue. And the people that
are in power are perpetrating that
racism.
Because none of these people are here to
help us. Like you got Joe Biden over here
talking about some
"don't shoot 'em in the heart. Shoot 'em in the leg" LIKE!
And then this nigga gon say some shit:
"If you ain't voting for me, you ain't Black!"
Now you have a lot of things going on- I
feel like it's just turning into a very
political discussion but
I'm a political ass person and I don't
think that I have really talked about
politics and things like
that on my channel but uh
that's something that I talk about with my
friends all the time. But
let me go back to my list to see what I
can talk about next. Uh-
okay diaspor- the diaspora feud.
I saw this shit on twitter and this
bitch- not-
I'm tired of being polite. This bitch ass
nigga. This bitch nigga had the audacity
to talk shit about
African Amerikan culture. You know he was
like "oh Caribbean and Afrikan culture is
like
better because like African-Amerikan people
have like no culture.
Mind you, I'm African. Nigerian.
Born in Nigeria. I just immigrated to the
fucking states.
i was just like "what the fuck are you
talking about?" Most of Amerikans try to
imitate black culture in some way or
some form. Black people have literally
influenced
the development of this nation. A black
person invented a traffic light, a black
person invented a refrigerator, a black
person, black people invented like-
i'm gonna just put all the shit that
black people has invented
in this motherfucking country. And you
want to sit up here and tell me that
Black people have no culture
as if they didn't literally create a
culture after being stripped of
everything.
The Africans and Caribbean people out
there that be doing that stupid shit
please shut the fuck up because us
African-Amerikan people with common
sense who are living in this country
who appreciate all cultures don't need
y'all speaking
for the majority of us. Stupid asses.
They have assimilated to Black culture.
They have assimilated to
African-Amerikan culture.
Like you see that on them and they
really want to try to act like they are
better
than uh African Amerikan people because
they happen to know where they came from.
Me knowing where I came from is a
privilege.
There are definitely people who are in
my lineage that could have you know been
taken from our you know
family tree and brought to this country
and i would never know and they would
never know because
none of that shit was keepin- kept track
of. Nobody cared enough about black
people
to remember where they had stolen them
from.
To remember what what they were named
before they were given their slave names.
And you want to sit up here like you are
not in this country like-
If Black people had not fought for their
own civil rights, and black people
had not fought to get their own freedom
if black had not fought to escape- you know, we're
enslaved in people new modern way, but if
they had not fought to
fight that enslavement and entrapment in
the past,
nobody would even have like- None of us
that look Black.
African-Amerikans, Caribbeans that
immigrated here would even have half the
opportunities that we have if
black people who were enslaved here did
not become what they are today.
Did not create the culture
that we appreciate and that everybody
tries to imitate and appropriate
unsuccessfully today. So put respect on
they motherfucking names
periodt. Periodic french but
on to the next topic social distancing a
lot of the motherfuckers
are... nasty because if you don't give a
fuck about a global pandemic that could
potentially kill you,
coming in contact with you and your
family, I know you don't give a fuck
enough to actually
deep clean your house. Like i said we're
in Texas now. It's hot as hell in Houston. Dallas has apparently been doing a
lot better with social distancing rules
and laws and people have been following them more
but Houston don't give a singular fuck.
If there was one fuck to give, they would
be like "oh that's too much" because
they couldn't. I just- I go out in public
you know, I got my mask on. I go to target
or
walmart or whatever grocery stores to
get my-
what I need. Walk past families
with babies in their hands, kids, no masks.
People just don't give a fuck. Uh
honestly I would say the the place where
I saw the most
masks since I have been in Houston was
when I went to two of the black lives
matter protests.
We were honestly only closed for like
closed. Like closed closed like
businesses were fully closed for maybe
two or three weeks before they started
phase one again.
And that shit is terrifying and what's
even more terrifying is the amount of
people
that I know, the amount of people I see
on social media who are literally
a couple months ago, roasting the fuck-
roasting
the motherfucking fuck out of Texas for
not closing.
"Why would you put our lives at risk? We need to be home and we need to be-
"You guys need to figure out what you want to do!"
A thousand and one complaints from all
of Amerika,
and then hillbilly America got tired of
being home after a month and were like
"Our rights as Americans is to go out in the middle of a global pandemic and eat at restaurants
"And get our nails done and...."
"Do things that we wanna do because we're American!"
Like oh my fucking god like Texas- Texans
are...
Now I guess I'm officially a Texan now
that I live here but like we be
stupid like!
It's not even just Texas. Americans are
so individualistic and so
just me me me me. And being an
individualist
at points in time is completely fine but
I'm Nigerian. I grew up in a collectivist
culture, we are-
"the village raises the child" you respect
your elders even if they're not part of
your family. It's very
you know- it's we. America, it's me.
And the government's job honestly is to
tell us to stay home. Like to make us
collectivist to make
the sound decision to be like weell-
There are about, you know, a couple thousand cases every day.
There are about a couple thousand people who are dying every day.
We have about 100,000 deaths right now in the country.
Unemployment's at about, you know, mm almost 14%.
Um we should probably keep things closed and
just spend all the extra money that we
gave to corporations on the people so
that people don't go homeless and starve
during the worst you know pandemic
that we have ever seen in the last you
know 20 to 30 years and we should just
be
you know actually doing our job so we're
getting
paid hundreds of thousand of dollars to do.
Them motherfuckers are like
Florida had four thousand cases
yesterday?
Open that shit back up! Phase four let's
go!
And people are leaving!
Like that is the worst part! It's different if
you literally cannot feed your family
and have to go out in the middle of a
global pandemic to work
but the fact that people even have to
make that decision is
infuriating. You have to make the choice
between life or death to feed your
family because the government is not
going to do their job and refuses to do
their job
to be able to give people resources and
money to afford to stay alive right now
by staying home
and keep the hospitals from feeling
overwhelmed.
And people are defending them like there
are so many people on twitter, so
many people in the world who are
defending
the choice to reopen. I've seen people go
all the way to the grocery store
in no mask and the second wave hasn't
even...
It's trying to decide
between cussing people the fuck out for
not giving a fuck
about other human lives or just taking a
step
back and thinking you know this is a
stressful time...
This is a stressful time for everybody
and you know everyone is trying to cope
with the reality of this situation in
their- in one way or another.
But it's just like this is not the time
to be selfish. This is not the time to
think of only
you. I'm sure you know people are dealing
with depression and anxiety and like
domestic violence has gone up crazy
since this time of quarantine and
it's so unfortunate that all this stuff
is happening but like
death is the answer if you catch this
disease. And sure you might
not die from it but people who are
surviving from it are having like
heart attacks and strokes because of how
badly their body is affected by the
disease.
My immediate reaction at first to like
anybody who was like going
out and not quarantining and things like
that who i was friends with was like
"these bitches are stupid as fuck, these
niggas are dumb as hell
like are stupid as hell like why are
they doing this? Like why these niggas
out here
like risking their lives?" Especially
because black people have historically
been treated
less than in the medical system. So not
only
are you running the risk of catching
this disease, you're also running the
risk
of dying- a higher risk of dying from the
disease because once you actually get
into a hospital-
like there are a whole bunch of studies
and statistics that show that a lot of
medical professionals believe that black
people don't feel
as much pain as white people. I think
there was a study that said 50
of like medical professionals or people
who are in med school believe that black
people
felt less pain than white people.
There are plenty of studies and cases of
slave masters using slaves
for medical practices and that even
shows another disdain that black people
have
towards medical system. Like all of this
shit is just very interconnected and I
think that people don't really realize
it as much until you do your own
research.
Just reading. I'm on a
no-name side and this j cole and uh
no-name feud even though she murked that
nigga so if you don't agree,
just stop watching. Thank you. She
apologized afterwards and I honestly
think that spoke more to her character
than his. You know, at his big age, he was
like 
"I meant every word or whatever". Like you're
coming at a girl who don't give a fuck
about you.
You're coming at a woman excuse me. Who
has enough knowledge to educate herself
even though you're college educated and
you should be aware of the misogynistic
ways that the world operates that allow
you to benefit
from life more than she does. That was the
day after um Oluwatoyin
had passed away. um I'm gonna show
a picture of her because literally like
that shit really hurt my heart as
like as a Yoruba girl, seeing somebody
like her that literally looks like us.
I'm gonna keep putting all these
pictures up of her because her life was
important and her life fucking mattered.
She was out there protesting and
advocating for black lives
and when she died or when we when they
found her body and like social media was
informed that she had been murdered
by black men- man, Black women were mad. We
had every right to be mad
because even in the middle of a global
pandemic, even in the middle of a race
war,
even in the middle of everything that's
been going on, we still
can be killed by black men. Like it was
somebody who was supposed to help her
and
chose to kill her. A lot of black women
were mad at black men that day. Like I
personally was extremely mad at
all black men and a lot of black men
were like
"not all black men!!" And I'm just like
y'all sound exactly like white people!
"It's not all white people!"
Okay? But y'all all benefit from being a
white person, do you not? Just like you
benefit from having a dick between your
legs, do you not?
And I understand that there are plenty
of black men who are in this movement
and there are plenty- I have plenty of
black male friends who I know are not
misogynistic
but the statements still apply. So before
you want to come up in this bitch and act
like you got some saying some shit.
To tell us that we're dividing the
movement that WE
created. Think a motherfucking-ain
periodt!
The summer book club that we're in,
we're reading about these Black
revolutionaries and we're reading about
all these black
um all the things that these people did
to help
us get to where we are today. Take a sip.
The first book that we read in the book
club was "are prisons obsolete?"
by doctor! Put respect on her name.
Dr. Angela Davis. It's just a really good
read so I will link the free
pdf in the description box below for
anyone who wants to read
the books, and I'll link the other books
that we've read also we just finished
up
Assata- Assata Shakur's
uh docu- not documentary. *laughs* We just finished
Assata's autobiography.
So I will also link that free pdf in the
description box below.
I think that's something that's great to
do during this time is to educate
yourself
um and I feel like I.. I knew
what was going on and I knew the
severity of the situation but I didn't
know the history of the situation
and I think that it's very important to
know the history in order to not repeat
ourselves and in order for
this time to be different than any of
the other times that we have ever tried
to
um dismantle the system. And once
everybody's on the same page about that,
you know, it's going to take a little
more time for people to get comfortable
with that because like when people hear
dismantle,
automatically they're like,
"But what are we gonna do to replace it?"
Okay we can figure that out after that
shit is gone. We are literally-
People are being killed in the streets...
legally. You literally have citizens
killing other citizens. Like a police
officer is
still a citizen. Maybe in the uniform,
he's not considered one at the time but
they are still a citizen.
Like imagine somebody who works at
fucking subway murdering somebody and
just getting fired from the job because
they were in their subway uniform.
That shit don't make no sense. Like
abolish them motherfuckers like
throw that shit away. So now that I'm all
cute
and still now I can talk to you guys
about peace because I'm at peace and
ion have to do shit
with the rest of my makeup. Periodt. Things I've
been doing to stay peaceful lately:
reading in my book club. And we read
Assata like I said. And we also-
We read Assata's biography and we also
read Angela Davis's-
Doctor excuse me. Put respect on her name.
Dr. Angela Davis's
"Are prisons obsolete?" And honestly both
of those books were very enlightening to
me just to really understand.. the- for Assata, reading her biography
with my summer reading group, understand like the life of her.
Like as you know a member of like
the black liberation army and like a
black revolutionary during the
those times, back in like the 60s um
and seeing where the movement has
developed until
now and just kind of
not... I think just reading about it and
understanding that like,
we still have- even though we haven't
come that far, we still have come
a ways from where we were back when
MLK
and Malcolm X and all these other people
were fighting the good fight that
most black people are fighting now. I
think it's very good to see
what mistakes they made and where
they went wrong
and making sure that we don't do those
same things moving forward.
And I think it's just important to read
about the history of why
this stuff is happening because I think
a question a lot of people have is "oh my
god I didn't know!"
like "why is this happening? What's going
on?" And just reading things from the past
can easily help you understand
what is really going on and the severity
of the situation that we are living in.
There have been a countless number of
lynchings in the last couple weeks that
are being ruled as suicide.
It's okay to not be at peace right now.
Some things that have helped me
like reading, making these videos, doing
my makeup when I feel like it.
Being in, you know, my little cute summer
swimsuit because I can't go nowhere in it.
um so yeah just doing things that kind
of just make you feel at peace for
fleeting moments
because honestly I have only had
fleeting moments of peace since this
entire thing started
um and there's nothing that we can do
until
the system is dismantled. Not defunded
not destroyed-
uh excuse me not defunded not reformed.
Destroyed. We need to care about each
other, we need to fight for each other
but we also need to acknowledge the
system that we are living in.
Misogyny, racism
transphobia, homophobia,
all the phobias, all the isms that we are
currently living in
need to be acknowledged. And you cannot
fix something, if you do not acknowledge
it.
You cannot want black lives to matter if
you do not believe that trans lives and
queer lives and black women's lives
matter.
You cannot believe that things will
change
if you're not willing to admit that
everybody is-
everyone plays some part into the system.
It's not really the most bubbly and
positive thing ever but i've been just
not in a bubbly positive
place. I'm not gonna say here hearing
be- "oh yeah guys makeup and hair and
stuff" when I literally can't think about
anything else but
the fact that people that look like me
are dying every day.
Despite the fact that people who have
done nothing
or who are just trying to live and make
something of themselves in this world
are being murdered just because
people feel like it that day and because
they have a badge
and a blue ugly ass uniform
that protects them from being judged as
a human being.
Like cops are human beings who have been
given the right to murder.
And no one is going to rest and there
will be no peace
in this country until the system is
dismantled.
I hope you guys are at peace. I hope you
guys are
as good as y'all can be. If you don't
think that you have any love in the
world, you don't think nobody love you, I
love you.
I'm here for you. I hope you guys enjoyed
the video. I'm just gonna go ahead and
end it off. And remember that
no lives will matter until black lives matter.
Thank you.
*laughs*
