Jenna Marbles has definitely been one of the most  genuine people I’ve met that I’ve been on YouTube. Obviously,
I’ve only met her, like, I think three times, 
maybe-- maybe just two times.
One-- one-- one time it was kind of, like,
 a fan, I mean, not like a fan-fan but, like,
a Playlist Live, like, a YouTube convention, like, 
we were at, like, a YouTuber party and, like, you know,
we were both drunk and I was like, "oh my God, Jenna
 Marbles, what the f-ck is up?!" and she was super cool,
you know? She gives such genuine vibes.
Obviously, that's not a good judge a character but 
another time, uh, I went to jacksfilms birthday party,
I think it was maybe four years ago and, 
you know, she was there and she was
so cool so I got to hang out with her actually, like,
in a more friendly type of status there.
And, yeah, she, like, bought everybody
Irish Car Bombs and, like, I don't know, like,
this doesn't mean anything, 
you know,  I don't know her but, like,
what I’m trying to say is compared to 
all the other YouTubers that I have met
not a lot of them give off this vibe, really, like, obviously, 
me vouching for not really knowing her that-- that well
may not mean much but, relatively speaking to the 
amount of people-- the YouTubers that I have met,
it means a lot to me because
I’ve met so many YouTubers that will blow 
you off or-- or seem more self-important
and whether you want to argue 
that maybe it's a bad day or not,
Jenna has nev-- like, there are people that are so
 amazing that they will never display that and
even-- she's-- just how she's in
her videos and it's--
I don't know, I just wa--
I feel like I’m going into the speech
a little bit too early. I feel like
we should watch her video, huh? 
Do you guys want to watch her video?
It just made me really sad, [laughs]
basically. 
I’m preluding you guys.
Basically, she--
she quit YouTube for now,
is what she said.
And, uhm,
I don't-- I mean, I don't mean to spoil it so let's see.
"-I feel like we're at a time where we are purging 
ourselves of anything and everything toxic and, uhm...
I’m being requested that I address things 
that I’ve done in my past, uhm...
I also get a lot of tweets from people that are saying like,  'we love you, you unproblematic queen,' [chuckles] which
always makes me uncomfortable
because I’m a person.
Those of you that are familiar with how long
 I’ve been on the Internet know that that's not true,
that I’ve definitely done things in the past that 
weren't great and I’m not completely unproblematic and
I’ve tried my best to grow up and to be a better person
and, first and foremost, I want everyone to 
know that I’ve always been a two-way street
and that anytime that you criticize me and tell me that you would like me to do better or to do something differently,
that I always try to do that and I try to 
make fun content, inclusive content,
things that don't offend
people or upset people and
that's kind of
where I am.
There's a couple things that people want me to 
address and apologize for and I’m happy to do that
because what I want from
the people that I support and that I like
is to have accountability and to know that I’m supporting 
someone who's morals and values align with my own
and
yeah, I-- there's things in my past I’m not proud of
and I’m getting a lot of tweets from people saying, 
"why have you privated all these old videos?"
and, uh, I’ve spent a lot of the last few
days privating almost all of my old content
and I’m sorry if any of that holds any nostalgia
for you but I’m literally not trying to put out
negative things into the world.
I think there was a time when having all of my old content exist on the Internet showed how much I have grown up as a person
which I am very proud of and
I think now
it's hard for that content to exist at all because I think people watch it and don't bother to look at
when it was posted or, you know, care 
about what path I took to get to where I am.
It offends them now and, if that's the case,
where people will watch something and be 
offended now, I don't want it to exist.
So I’ve privated a lot of my old con--"
Okay, now, you know,
I just want to say, obviously I watched 
three minutes of this so-- so far,
this is the point where I started-- when I was watching 
I was like, "wow, this is an incredible response.
This is how I wish that Colleen 
had responded because, you know,
being offended isn't, like, and-- especially to the type of content that, you know, people like Jenna or Colleen,
Miranda Sings-- I don't know how to say her name, 
I always say it wrong - Bollinger? Ba-- Ballinger?
Like, that type of stuff, like, you know,
 the-- the stuff that Colleen made, like,
she made it seem like-- she went, like, full on 1000% SJW which, you know, it's fine if that's who she is, okay, but it's--
it, to me, it-- the way that
she kind of drew it as, like:
"-And, in this video, we are doing characters that are Latina and the characters are completely based on racial stereotypes.
It is not funny and it is completely hurtful.
I am so ashamed and embarrassed 
that I ever thought this was okay.
I was a sheltered teenager who was stupid and 
ignorant and clearly extremely culturally insensitive."
"-I ran out of eyeliner today so I had to use a sharpie.
-Oh, you had to use a sharpie?"
I mean,
I personally was not offended by that, 
I thought it was kind of funny, you know?
But I guess that's how she feels.
Now, the way that Jenna's portraying 
it is, like, so incredible, you know? Like,
she's saying that she realized that she's 
grown and it's not who she is anymore.
She doesn't want to offend anybody, that's why she doesn't believe that it belongs on her platform anymore, she's okay with it
and I’m like, "holy sh-t."
Anyways, I’ll just keep playing.
"--content because I just don't want 
anyone to feel upset about anything.
I-- I don't want to contribute to that, 
I don't want-- I-- I don't care.
The first two things that I would like to address is the
 fact that there are people that were offended that I did
blackface as Nicki Minaj in 2011 
and I’ll show you the clip.
It's incredibly cringy and embarrassing.
This is private, it has been private for quite
some time but it looks like this:
'--there's plain Nicki Minaj and that's me,
and then there's Roman who's very: [groans]'
And I do just want to tell you that it was
not my intention to do blackface.
This is the end of the video where I took my wig off.
I-- I don't know how else to say this but it doesn't matter
 because all that matters is that people were offended
and it hurt them and, for that, I am so unbelievably sorry.
That-- this isn't okay and it hasn't existed on the 
Internet for a long time because it's not okay and--"
And-- and, look, right there,
the way she's saying it is so admirable because she's not 
explicitly admitting to a fault but she's acknowledging
that she hurt people 
and she's not okay with that either
and that's what I find so admirable 
because she did not do blackface;
if you guys, like, and this is the thing, like, 
if you guys-- if you guys-- I don't know if there's--
I always feel like I’m aging myself when I’m talking about, like, old school YouTube but, literally, Jenna Marbles--
the reason why I’ve always even-- even though
 I’ve never been, like, a Jenna Marbles fan myself,
I’ve always had respect for her.
It could just be my memory but her--
her intro used to be, like, a squeaky dog
and she had, like, this-- this football shirt
and, like, she had, like, a heavy tan,
like, that's the kind of girl that she was, 
she used to do heavy tans.
"[squeaky toy sound]"
Well, let me just play a little bit more because
 this is actually just the soft part, by the way.
"Edwin, don't get canceled. They're canceling everyone we don't want to lose you too." Look, literally, that-- this is the thing
because there have been people trying to cancel me,
 like, believe it or not, like, here's the thing because
when I-- when I saw his video, I had no idea
 that people were trying to cancel Jenna, right?
Just as if I told you right now,
you probably had no idea that 
people are trying to cancel me.
This isn't something that-- that people outside 
of the sphere often tend to know about or- or hear
because it, honestly, it-- it f-cks with 
a creator's minds the way that--
that creators are dehumanized and
 set to some weird standard as if, like,
people are supposed to be perfect or that
the viewers have never made a mistake in their life
or they are perfect, if that makes sense, you know?
Anyways, let's keep playing here.
"-I haven't done anything remotely like that
because I heard people say 'this is blackface'
and I don't like that and I-- I just would
never want to put that into the world
so this has been private for a long time but 
I do want to tell you how unbelievably sorry I am
if I ever offended you by posting this video or by doing 
this impression and that that was never my intention.
It's not okay, it's shameful, it's awful, 
I wish it wasn't part of my past."
"-'What is privilege to you? Is it a victimless
 crime? How have you contributed?
-Wow, thank God I didn't get that question. 
-Oh, wow.
-Yeah, woah.
-That is way heavier than I thought.
-I think you should be able to pick a new card.
-Get right into it.
No, let's not because 'how have I contributed?' If I just, 
like, throw this card away, I’m contributing to privilege.
We can talk about the race card. White privilege 
is a privilege and if you don't acknowledge it,
that's contributing
to the problem."
"-The next thing that I want to address: 
okay, this is also from 2011.
A bad year for me in judgment, apparently. Um...
this video is called 'Bounce That D-ck.'
This has also been made private, uh, 
I don't want to offend anyone.
I’m not interested in it. I’m not interested 
in making anyone feel bad, in case you haven't noticed.
Here's the clip, I will play it for you.
'--shake your King Kong ding dong--' 
-Here, hold on, let me remind you.
'--ong wing wong, shake your King Kong ding dong.
Sorry, that was racist.
 I'm bad at rap songs. Ah!--'
-So, as you can see, I said, 'hey, ching chong
wing wong, shake your King Kong ding dong.
Sorry, that was racist. I’m bad at rap songs.'
It's awful, it doesn't need to exist, 
it's inexcusable, it's not okay.
I’m-- I’m incredibly sorry if this 
offended you, then, now, whenever.
It doesn't need to exist,
it shouldn't have existed,
I shouldn't have said that.
I've--"
Like, is it bad if I pause to laugh at that?
Like, she really-- she said that with a straight face.
Obviously, she-- she's-- it's-- it's great, I think-- I think her response is very mature and you can see the seriousness in her
and, I mean,
I'd be lying to you if I didn't make, uh, 
Asian jokes. My best friend--
Asian, my Asian best friend 
enabled me in that, you know?
It was, like, an enabling thing, like, she was totally fine and she would make Asian jokes with me and
I would make Mexican jokes with her 
and I would enable her to make Mexican jokes.
It's, uh, it was, like, a different, like, 
a sort of-- sort of kind of culture in itself.
So...
rest in peace Edwin in the future.
"-Come on, Sinday! Feel better!
Come on, jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle...
What's it gonna take?!"
"-The next thing I'd like to apologize for
is a video that I posted in 2012
and made private shortly thereafter.
This was one of the hardest years of my life and I made 
a video that came across unbelievably sl-t-shame-y
and... I’m sorry.
I...
I just f-cked up.
I ranted about girls that ran around 
and slept around and that's wrong.
I had a lot of internalized misogyny, I feel like, at that
 time in my life and I’m sorry if I ever offended you
with the things that I said in that video,
and that video's been private for a long time.
It does not reflect my attitude
 towards anyone and their bodies and
I just-- I-- that's really been eating me up inside 
for a long time and I just wanted to tell you I’m sorry
if I ever made you feel bad about 
yourself or your choices or anything.
There's no one demanding an apology for
 that video of me right now but I’m like,
just-- you know what? Put it on my tab, 
here's another thing I’m sorry for:
I’m also sorry for, uhm--"
She's decided to be like,
 "I repent. Here all my sins, father"
and also I just want to give you a heads up, it's 
kind of, like, a trigger warning, like, not trigger warning
but, like, a content warning 
that it's about to get emotional
so prepare yourself.
Get-- get your Kleenex or whatever or 
toilet paper to-- I don't know if you need to.
"-I used to make a lot of content about, like,
what girls do and what guys do
and I know at the time there were a lot of people that enjoyed those videos but I have privated all of them
because I don't think that making jokes about your 
gender is funny and I know that there's a lot of people
that struggle with their identity and that have varying fluid identities or anything and I just don't want
content in the world that's, like,
I don't know, just doesn't make sense, you know?
It doesn't make sense, it can be hurtful,
 it can be harmful and I don't want it there.
Another thing that I would like to address is when people tweet at me, 'I can't believe you'd be friends
with this person or follow this person, that's racist'
 or, you know, 'done these terrible things' and
the only thing that I would like to say is that I’m-- I’m just a person trying to navigate the world, uhm, the same way that you are
so I don't always know what's right, what's wrong, 
what the truth is and I’m just trying my best.
As someone, clearly, with their own 
past that they're not proud of,
I do just try to see people for who they are, right now, 
today and that they're not defined by their past
and I understand.
I’m-- I’m trying to do the same thing that you are and 
support and be friends with people that I’m proud of
and that I love and I’m-- just
know that I’m doing my best
and I just-- I don't know, you know? I try to just...
do what I can and I’m not trying to let 
anyone down or hurt anyone or upset anyone.
I’m just not.
That being said, I’ve privated a lot of my old content.
I don't-- I don't want to hurt anyone.
I don't want to offend anyone, I don't.
In case you guys haven't noticed, there's no sponsors on this channel, I’m not trying to sell you anything,
like, I’m literally just here to have a good time and, uhm,
I don't think I’m having a good time
and it seems like maybe some other 
people aren't having a good time so, for now,
I don't-- I just can't exist on this channel.
Hopefully, I’ve taken down anything that would upset someone and I hope you know that that's just not my intent.
That's not what I ever set out to do, to 
hurt anyone's feelings or to make anyone feel bad,
so I’m just-- I don't-- I don't want to be, like,
 upset while I say this so give me a second.
So, uhm, I think I’m just gonna 
move on from this channel for now.
I don't know if that's forever, I don't 
know how long it's gonna be, uhm...
I’m just--
I wanna make sure that the things that I put
 into the world are not hurting anyone and, uhm...
yeah.
I’m just gonna stop for now or forever, I don't know.
I’ll probably
take this video down
because it's embarrassing and just let
whatever
just live and just be.
That's it.
I want to say thank you for your support
for those of you that, uhm,
care about me and have been watching 
me for a long time, I appreciate it.
I want to hold myself accountable and--
and it's painful to do it and it's not fun 
and it hurts and I’m ashamed of
things I’ve done and said in 
my past but, uhm, it's important
and...
yeah. 
I hope this,
uh, felt like something
that you needed to hear from me
and, uhm... I just--
I’m not sure that I want to continue
doing stuff on this channel
and I don't want to put anything out in the world
that's going to hurt anybody so I need to be done 
with this channel for now or forever, I don't know.
So, all right.
Good talk. [chuckles]
See you guys."
So, if you guys haven't seen that before,
I know a lot of you guys-- a lot-- a lot of you guys have 
and sorry for putting you through that again.
It's hard, it was-- I mean,
maybe a lot of you guys-- I’m curious if you guys don't have attachment to her because I personally don't really have attachment to her
besides
the few times I’ve interacted with her in person and
 the few videos-- I-- I’ve probably only seen, like,
five to ten videos of her,
period, to be honest. But, like,
cause I-- I could be completely off, I really could
be completely off on my judgment of character
but, like, from what I’ve seen, it's just,
like, I don't know, it's shocking because--
and just-- just to see the things that she
is getting called out for, you know?
In-- in the-- in the wake of peo-- this happening to so many people, like, even-- even if there wasn't, like, some sort of tier list, right?
I don't think that this is cancel worthy
and the thing that people don't think about  is the fact that, like I said, we-- we don't see the hate that she got, right?
Like, to us, as a collective, it seems
 like it's not that big of a deal, right?
It seems, I mean, I’m not seeing 
too many people disagree with that.
You know, a lot of people have very polarizing attitudes 
towards this whole thing as far as, like, uh,
comedy goes and I’ve even seen 
it in this chat, like-- like, "oh,
snowflakes" or, like, "this and that," it's, like, look, I personally stand in the kind of in between, I think that it's good to acknowledge that
while yes, comedy has changed, comedy has changed 
for a very long time, comedy is an evolutionary thing,
comedy has been changing, 
it's not a new thing. However,
to the extent where it's forcefully 
shut down is something else.
Like, we have to acknowledge these 
things existed, we can't pretend they didn't
and if the intention (impact) was never
as harmful as made out to be and there's no, like,
visible intent and people have own--
evolved from that, I don't know, it's--
I almost wanna-- I almost wish there was a way to 
identify the people that are doing the calling out. [laughs]
And I-- I know it almost sounds, like, counterproductive because then we're doing the same thing back but--
but I want-- I wanna put a mirror to the people
 so they see what they look like, you know?
So they look-- so they can realize that they are 
holding a pitchfork and, like, a-- like, a torch, right?
Because I-- I think that the people that are doing all this mass cancellation in collectives, actual collectives,
they don't realize what they look like so
 I-- I don't know. What do you guys think?
"She's owning up to the content that offended people and wants to take time from her channel.
I don't know why we gotta dig into it more, it's just making that move-- it's just her making that move" but-- but
it's beyond that, Rocky, I-- I think that the bigger picture here is how much it's affecting her, I mean, you can-- you can tell,
like,
when people picked on her for the whole fish thing
there wasn't this much emotion into it.
Like, I-- I seen that and, like,
you know,
there's a lot that goes into, like, 
behind the scenes, like-- like, it's-- it's...
it's-- it's a lot. I’m talking about the culture of-- of the 
pitchforking and canceling people, you know?
Like, yes, of course, it's important, she did it very well
and it's, like,
yeah, it's just a lot.
Okay, and I’m trying to bring you guys the awareness of a creator's standpoint of when people spam you and they do collective, like,
you know,
I’m trying to bring a different perspective.
Of course she's owning up and she did wonderfully at it, like, incredible but I’m trying to give you the perspective
of what leads a person to 
feel this horribly about it, right?
Because the reaction of like, "woah, Jenna, that's-- that's-- girl, yes, please, no-- you know, you don't have to quit"
because she literally said, "I don't know
if I I’m gonna quit now or forever," you know?
She didn't say a break, she's-- she's
literally, at this point, hurting so badly that she
might-- she's considering quitting forever.
So, what I’m saying is
let's-- let's keep-- let's keep an eye out, 
let's be aware of this, like, very eager mob.
I mean, you can see it on Twitter; maybe a lot of you guys don't use Twitter but on-- on Twitter,
there's people that are actively so eager to cancel 
people, you see this all the time on trending topics too.
They don't even know what they're arguing sometimes.
All right. So are we ready to move on for, uh...
to Mr. Sean Dawson?
