 
` THE HIDDEN SORROW

(A Story of Dedication)

A LIVING AND AWAKEN NOVEL BY

ANIMESH DEY

(.................................................................)

## ANIMESH DEY

### THE HIDDEN SORROW

### ( A Story of dedication )

"Dedicated to my beloved Parents and my three elder brothers. "

" **IT IS VERY DIFFICULT TO START SOMETHING NEW**

IT IS VERY DIFFICULT TO FORGET SOMETHING

IT IS VERY DIFFICULT TO REBUILD A PAST."

ANIMESH DEY

## AUTHOR'S NOTE

" It is a small note to my societies. It is an advise to all my elders and

younger and their parents. Yes, who am I! I am very common people like you. I am a living entity like you. I am watching our mistakes. So, it is a humble request and prayer to my all brothers and sisters and my friends that think a little bit for your self. Don't fly yourself in the vacuum. Fly through a medium, so that you can breathe at least. Try to leave all fantasies, leave all violence's, leave all sorrows and try to refresh your life. I don't know even whether my words will ever work or not. It is very difficult to say. We cannot predict our tomorrow, so don't laugh today. Flow your tears today, don't store it for tomorrow. Laugh on tomorrow. It shall be your real joy, a real pleasure and a real peace. Don't misuse your precious time by watching TV and with other fantasies. It has more value in your own life. Don't move yourself by following others smile and style. Move with your own style. It will be very uncommon. The joys

You are getting from some fantasies will lasts for a moment and it is that way which will try to dig yourself in dark. Expect more and more for your better future. Be a stable and an erect object at your own places and in others heart. Don't allow dark rays to move inside your body. Try to stand against any thunderstorm. Try to stop the flow of tears in your life and save others. Don't keep yourself back. Don't lean yourself against all enemies. Don't go back and try to move forward. Try to avoid those fruits, which you cannot digest. Try to check your Calendar by each day because the number of encircles goes on increasing. It will never wait for you and time will never listen your words. It is the most valuable and proudly word that does not listen your cry and will never checks your tears. Truly speaking, time is very cruel. So, try to live on the edge and try to live with sunshine and shine your beautiful life with us. "

### Acknowledgements

# I am totally new in this world. We are moving with world fantasies without knowing the realities and our fortune. We do mistake always. Sometime we forget something that we can do something. We don't want to face our troubles. Here I would like to thank..................

  *..............., who gave me such an opportunity to do such a holy work?

  * ### My mother Mrs. Anjali Dey, My father Mr. Gouranga Dey , My elder brothers Pintu, Kanti (Nanu), Samaresh (Sanu) for their constant support and blind support.

  * ### My best friend Riya for her silent support. My salutation to her all supports.

  * ### My friend Sweta (Payal), Lincoln Paul (Sunny), Jayanta Dey (Cousins), Moumita.

  * ### Lastly my endless tears, which I ever counted to make it.

### It was my own experience in my last thirteen years Journey at a distant place, from my native town. It was the realities of your present life. I just want to say, "Everything is possible if we work hard."

### We should always think positively. We should not ignore ourselves by saying that we are failure.

### Lastly, I would like to invite you all to

" THE HIDDEN SORROW"

### PART ONE

# Part # one

"Normal life, normal people, least demand but we have always some needed expectation. How we can survive? But we forget, that there is a beautiful life behind all such demands. It was dark everywhere when I was feeling so innocent, felt everything around me had stopped moving and seemed I am alone on my way without knowing my destiny. It sounded so vacant when I looked to the sky; it seemed bird's wings troubling them. I wanted to fly to wipe their tears. When their tears scattered over my body I felt very cold. We always fly to touch the sky. We never look our strength to fly, to touch the clouds. We are lazy to move because we are very demanding. It pains us more and more when we lose it."

### "Yes Rishabh, You are absolutely right. But why are you saying such lines to me?"

### "It is because you have to listen my words today. Do you have a little moment to listen my words? I am very upset."

### "Yes Rishabh, you can proceed." Neelon replied.

### "Who will help him? You not, me not and no one not. How can he survive? How can he taste all fruits? He is asking me and he is asking you all guys. We should move to help him. Why are you differentiating cast and communities? Who told him about the Variation? He is innocent and he knows nothing. Can we fight among us saying, he is mine, he is yours, he is ours."

### "See Neelon, he is for himself and truly speaking, he knows himself well and no one is for him."

### A stranger was listening their conversations....

### "Don't argue dears, I am alone, I am for thyself because he who sent me, taught me not to fight with any living and non living entities. It is our mistake; we should understand his power, his kindness and his strength. He will never forget you all and if you once mistake by your own virtue he will never forgive you all."

### But dears, I always asks our almighty, "Why I am seeing all to beg? Why not you giving a soft heart in all we human beings. Oh Almighty! Why are you differentiating and creating such translucent barriers among your children's. Make me a beggar who can say at least that he is innocent, who can at least realize the taste the nature of life. We, who demanded least, can never argue and we can walk with all situations what he is planned for us. Why not you people doing the same? Why are you expecting more and more rather to develop yourself, your environment, and people surrounding you and your nation? Why you people think of yourself only? Why you people don't want to make any hand-to-hand relationship with we people? You people are going to forget one thing that we are from the same origin. "

### "Why are you saying such things? Who are you? What's your identity? " Rishabh was asking to that stranger.

### "Yes, you are right. You are right to the way of conversations. Even I don't know, who am I?" That stranger replied.

Both Neelon and Rishabh were so shocked and were asking to that stranger, "Please let us know first, who you are? We are respecting you and your tongue. Please."

### "See dears, I am not a man of honor. I have no expectation, better you can ask one who sent sent me and let me know why you people treat us like a slave in spite of grasping, adoring and walk by hand. You people never tried to give us a smile and roof," that stranger replied.

### "You both friends are looking so upset. What happen? " That stranger commented on them.

### "Nothing dear, we are fine and we are the happiest guys." Both Neelon and Rishabh jointly replied.

### "But, I am observing a dark shadow, wipe yours tear, why you both?.........................." that stranger replied.

### "No No, we are fine and happy," Both Rishabh and Neelon replied.

### "You are telling a lie," That stranger commented.

### "Are you Neelon? I mean your name," That stranger asked to Neelon.

### "Yes you are!" Neelon replied.

"See by me, you are a stranger but as a human being, I respect all classes and I maintain no differences. You are asking and anxious to know why I am upset but by me, I am the happiest fellow," Neelon replied mildly.

"I was walking alone, someone caught my hand for sometime and left me alone, I can realize her warm hands and feel her absence. It makes me warm. Was it my illusion? I was thinking about our lord while I was standing at the railway station and noticed some beggars were crying by their empty stomach and with their cloth less eyes," Neelon was explaining with his sorrow eyes.

"Neelon, your words were little bit tough to understand. Let me clear........." Rishabh requested to Neelon.

### "Yes Rishabh, you are right. My words were simple and now it is being tough. It is tough to understand someone's feelings. Don't think about myself as a proudly. I like my simplicity character," Neelon said.

### "Could you please tell me, what is on your mind?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

### "But why you want to listen?" Neelon asked.

### "Nothing, just for the sake of friendship," Rishabh requested to Neelon.

### "Please, let me cry, let me lay down on the hottest desert and let the desert be myself and let it be with my heart and with my soul. So it can fill me at least. It can give me a warm sensation and I can feel myself as broad as I am the owner of this desert and let me go into my mother's womb where I can get my love and a care, where I can feel the world is very beautiful and sweet, where every relation will become true and new and where I can learn newly about the world.

### It can fill my empty heart," Neelon was explaining something.

### "But why are you saying that you are empty hearted? " Rishabh asked to Neelon.

"Yes, I am an empty hearted boy because I got everywhere is vacant. It was looking so deserted that there was an empty sound all around myself. A sound where my some one is not roaring about my mistakes. Someone showing me the right way. " Neelon replied.

### Rishabh said to Neelon, "Brother if you don't mind then can I ask something to you? But, I am not sure whether it will hurt you or not. I already asked myself several times but my mind and my heart is still unanswered."

"It's fine brother. You can ask me anything," Neelon replied.

### "Did you love someone? Or have you any someone dear? "

### Rishabh asked to Neelon.

### "Yes, I love not someone but love many one. I am here in this cosmos for many ones. I hope you will never understand it properly. I was simply late myself to get someone's smile and someone's hands. My someone is far apart from me. I saw her crying face with shiny tears. I was watching her by all her moments and was feeling to come down to pull her back with me but, it was too heavy and there was none to pull us back too......................................... "Neelon replied with his onion smile.

### "Please explain it more," both Rishabh and that stranger jointly replied.

### "It was just like a thunder storm, striking repeatedly. It was me, who can realize the moments and my pains certainly but I was silently searching her alone with some hope and a smile but I did not find any one to suggest me and help me." Neelon replied to both of them.

### Neelon was saying himself; "She was looking at me with her helpless eyes. I realized her all pains. I realized what was going on her mind when we both approached after an era of our relationship. Something was going with my mind. For a fraction of time, my breathing was becoming high, as I am crossing over the seashore and wanted to move like thunder. I was crossed her shadow and was unable to look back myself in front of her but she was looking at me. I can realize her all words. "

### "But who was she?" Risahbh asked to Neelon.

### Unanswering to Rishabh's question, "Why you have hidden yourself under the beneath of ocean. It was so deep. I have searched you everywhere around our world. Why I was not finding the exact place? Now you are so far to realize. I am burning myself under the beneath of ocean to keep myself cold..........still it is burning but I got everywhere dark only. I took the hand of sun and we together searched you but we did not find you out anywhere. I was realized you in the flying ocean and in mild winds, it seemed mountains were flying everywhere; they were shouting upon me and feeling I am warm alone. It's my warm greeting to you....................stand by my side and let me free to fly with wind."

### "But brother, you are still hiding.............. We are eagerly waiting for your words. Do you love someone? " Rishabh asked to Neelon.

#  PART TWO

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#### PART # TWO

### "But brother, your words are words are being tough to me. Let me understand it properly," Rishabh requested to Neelon.

### "Let him explain Rishabh," That stranger replied.

"Not at all brothers, I am very funny," Neelon replied by his restless tongue.

### "Yes Rishabh, then listen to me. We must love someone. We are here on the earth to live with others, our casts may be different, our religions may be different, may be we good or bad looking, may be we from different status but none is there to differentiate on such things. We have same source of origin. Just remember, we are alive to others heart and with their mind and in their soul," Neelon replied confidently.

### "Yes, I loved and still loving my dream. Love is a sacred relationship. We are always eagerly waiting to get someone's love. A love, which can make our life so precious. But Rishabh, I am not so lucky. Yes, lots of people love me and like me, but now days; it is very difficult to get a good partner cum soul mate. Most of them are going very mechanical but in between those, a few are the best. But, to get such a friend, you have to dig your friendship. Am I right Rishabh? " Neelon was explaining about his past life.

### "Yes...you are very romantic," Rishabh replied.

### "Brother, I am not too romantic. I always try to move with the present. I dislike any fantasy world. The things you will get from any fantasy world are always unstable. We always forget one thing that there is another world of ours, which is our future, our fortune. "

"Please brother, try to proceed. I am appreciating your all lines and truly speaking, you are absolutely right," Rishabh was supporting Neelon.

### "Welcome to my world,

### It's a heartiest welcome to our nation,

### It's a place of joy and lonely heart of mine.

### I am moving around the world,

### Moving towards my goal and

### Moving freely towards my destiny.

### I am searching the new way, come together;

### Feeling very warm.

### Searching that harmony in my empty sacred heart.

### My drowsy eyes saying, oh! The

### Destiny you can fill me.

### And you can feel my desire ness," Neelon shared his feelings.

### Neelon was in love and but his love still pains him.

### We are human beings and as human being it's our desire ness to taste all the fruits. In some cases, we can differentiate at least which one is good and which one is bad for us.

### "Why are you silent Mr. Stranger?" Rishabh asked.

### "My tongue is not working, it is going to be functionless," that stranger replied.

### "Why not working?" Neelon asked to him.

### "It's not working but it itself searching its own words," that stranger replied.

### "But, we have decided to give you a good name," Neelon said to that stranger.

### "But why?" that stranger replied.

### "As you are not disclosing your name, your identity. So, we are just decided to do it. As a living being, we should respect you," Neelon requested to him.

"I am very lucky and please, don't be late, tell me my name," that stranger was being pleased.

### "There is a great announcement. Come friends come," Neelon was cheering.

### "Neelon, are you mad or what? What are you doing man? Why need to give one more name. I have already a good name. " That stranger replied with his mild voice.

"We have decided to call you as Mr. Pintu. It's a good name...... " Risahabh said to Mr.pintu.

### "Yes, it is!" Mr. Pintu replied.

### "Both of you guys are very clever" Mr. Pintu was looking so happy.

### "But why?" they suddenly replied.

### "Yes, you both" Mr. Pintu replied.

### Mr. Pintu was a man of honor. He had noticed several things on both of their faces. He noticed that Neelon was hiding himself when Rishabh repeatedly asking regarding his love life. Neelon was a boy of shy. One thing is very true that Neelon was such type of boy who was always ready to help others. He was such a boy I ever seen. As a boy, he was completely undemanding and simple.

### "We are new in our relation. So, let us know each others first,"

### Mr.Pintu requested to know each other.

### "Me first.............Yes, myself Neelon. I come of a very lower middle class family. My father is a retired Government employee and my mother is a housewife. I am very happy to have such a good parents like them. They love me very much and they are very much understanding. They are simply the best and a cool parent. I am the youngest boy in our whole family. I am very restless and good for nothing. I have no sister and three elder brothers. You can say a happy family. None of them are so demanding and very simply. It's true and truly speaking I am not buttering. We are like just good

### Friends. I love them lot more than myself. My parents have many more dreams regarding my career and I am on my way to fulfill it. I don't know how much I can do it to achieve my dream. Let's see.....................................," Neelon expressed himself as a poor fellow.

### "And Rishabh, what about you? "Mr. Pintu asked.

### "Nothing, simply nothing Mr. Pintu," Rishabh replied.

"I even come of a middle class family. I have just one sister named as Annahita. My father is a far apart from our family. He had a little misunderstand with my mother. He was so good and very understanding. I have no contact with him since last six years. He had left our family a few years ago. I love my mom and my little sister. I have nothing in my life. That's all," Rishabh replied.

### "Hmm........." Mr. Pintu replied silently.

### "So, we have to help each other first. Am I right? " Mr. Pintu asked to them.

### "Yes, you can! But, I am not sure," Rishabh replied.

#  PART THREE

##### PART # THREE

### "Let save your tears guys," Neelon was requesting.

"Why are you saying such painful words? Please, don't mention such words," Rishabh requested to Neelon.

"Truly speaking, I don't know what has happened to me. I feel that someone is looking at me but I can't look back at her. I can realize her presence and she is anxious to ask some questions. She is missing my presence. Yes, she is! I want to follow her path. She is looking so innocent like a quiet lake....I can feel myself as snow, I can fall only, only scatter...................hoping someone is there to pull me back to the sky...I want to stand on that sea shore and I want to touch all the waves. Let me cold down myself and let the sea realize how warm I am! I want to flow with you, don't hit me abruptly... please don't"

### "Yes, he is saying something" Mr. Pintu pinched Rishabh.

### "Yes, I am upset. I loved someone. Someone who was very pretty, very much adorable and simply she was my idol. I don't know where she is! I am wishing her a very good luck from the deepest core of my lonely heart. A girl who can change someone's mind and their soul. I am respecting girls by their attitudes."

### "Yes good," Mr. Pintu commented on Neelon's words.

### "It's true that I respect girls. By me, all girls before their marriage a predefined character and a predefined role of a mother. I salute all girls and lay down myself to their mother's role. In this whole cosmos, none can define absolutely the role of a mother .I like their simplicity and their duties to their children. They can easily sacrifice their smile and joys for the well being of their family. We should salute and respect all mothers. I dislike those who play with their heart and who play with their simplicity. I am requesting all our national and international governments to provide such an act, which will fight with those who play with girls, who torture their parents," Neelon had a repeated explanation.

### "Brother Neelon, it is really very much impressive. But, do you think they will listen your words," Rishabh argued on his words.

### "May be, I don't know but, I will try to maintain it. In our present society, we must need some reformers, who can at least reform our society. We are always lagging behind with money. I know, money is very essential, but sometime we should control our limitations and expectations. Limitations and expectations are such boundaries where everyone tries to crosses over it. Even I have my limitations, but it is very least. I do not think about myself, but surely I can think for others and will never stop it," Neelon explained soundly.

"Neelon, could you please answer my one question?" Mr. Pintu requested to Neelon.

### "Yes, surely," Neelon replied to Mr.Pintu.

### "Do you think that love can dishearten anyone badly," Mr. Pintu asked again.

### "You don't have to hesitate Mr. Pintu. See Mr. Pintu, it is very simple. Love cannot dishearten anyone but many one. See, we all human beings have desire for love. It just happens to any living and non-living entity. We human have a wish to share our joys and sorrows with some one whom we love most. It is the reality of our live, that some one may be your class mate, may be your childhood friend, may be your girl friend and may be your any family member," Neelon replied simply.

" Your toes are on the desert but I want to listen it from you," Rishabh was praying to Neelon.

### "Those are golden words," Mr. Pintu said to Neelon and fully supported Neelon.

### "Still you love her?" Mr. Pintu asked again.

### "Yes, Mr. Pintu," Neelon replied.

### "Did your love make you happy ever?" Mr. Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "Yes, Mr. Pintu. Truly speaking, I was very happy alone.... there was a day when I felt; I am the most happiest boy in that charming world. My toes were touching the cold winds and it happened with me when I was with her world, when she was in my life. It seemed one heart controlling two souls with a single mind," Neelon explained.

### "Brother Neelon, you are very much thoughtful," Mr.Pintu told.

### "I do not know whether it was my illusion or not, but still she is in me and with my mind. She had some pain inside, which she had never been disclosed," Neelon replied.

### "When did you meet her firstly," Mr. Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "I met her when I was studying my Engineering third semester at a Government Engineering College," Neelon replied.

### "Wow! So as a student you was a good enough," Mr. Pintu smiled.

### "Sorry Mr. Pintu, I don't know and I don't want to explain anything more about it," Mr. Pintu smiled.

### "During my studies at School and high school, my rank was among first ten students,"Neelon replied.

### "Good. Hmmm............" Mr. Pintu in an impressive way.

### "She was searching me here and there but, that time I was admitted into an Hospital and it was due to my abdominal pain and my pain was not being curable, as I used outside food during my first and second semester in my Engineering studies, "

### "But, you should at least take care of your health," Mr. Pintu advised to Neelon.

### "Please Neelon, tell us know about your Maya," Risahbh pinched Rohit.

### "Yes. Maya, it is a good name and I am really very grateful to you

### for the word Maya," Neelon suddenly replied.

### "I felt, she needed my help. She asked everyone. She searched me everywhere, but that time, I was staying at my home town near about a month," Neelon said to Rishabh.

### "What happened next?" Mr.Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "I visited their place when I back. She was looking so pretty with her long brown hairs and helpless eyes. I still remembered," Neelon explained.

"I do not know whether she remember me or not. I do not know where she is! What she is doing? " Neelon was explaining more and more.

### In an expressive way Neelon was saying..................

### "Oh! The destiny, only you can fill me,

### You can fill my all desire ness and my all wishes.

### You have already done it.

### You have showed your presence in me...

### You can shine, you can shy on thyself."

" Good lines," Mr.Pintu appreciated Neelon.

" Mr. Pintu, are you buttering on my words?" Neelon replied with his angry lips.

" Please Neelon, don't misunderstand me. Those lines were good enough to learn something new about a life," Mr. Pintu replied.

" But I think it was my mistake." Neelon was looking so upset.

"But how?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

### "I do not know why we do mistake. Sometime, our small mistake can misguide our life but, sometime, you can learn something once you did any mistake. In each moment, I did a mistake. You cannot share some sorrows with your family. I was the youngest son of our family. My sorrow turned into a smile whenever I remember my parent's helplessness and crying face. My soul did not even help me whenever I abruptly doing mistake, one by one." Neelon was explaining leaning himself by a wall.

" It was your good humanity," Mr. Pintu said to Neelon.

### "Mr. Pintu, I am asking you a very small question," Neelon requested to Mr.Pintu.

"Can I ask Mr. Pintu?" Neelon requested him again.

"Yes, you can ask whatever you want,"Mr. Pintu replied.

"You are sure?" Neelon asked him again.

### "Yes. Neelon you are too bore."

### "Okay."

### "Do you think making such a relationship with a girl is good at our ages?"

"May be! I don't know. Sometime, it is good and many times it hurt a normal life."

" Do you have any someone dear?" Neelon asked to Mr.Pintu

### "Yes."

### "So did you love someone?" Neelon asked him again.

### "Yes, I loved someone but I have no such much more expectation regarding that," Mr.Pintu replied to Neelon.

"Why?" Neelon asked.

"I was seeing you cry in the lonely places. You were in a mood to fall your tears. I observed some sadness on your faces." and at last Neelon disclosed.

"No brother, I was happy alone. I cannot rebuild my broken heart," Mr. Pintu replied.

### "See Neelon, I fell in love when I was just fourteen years old. As a student I was an average and it continued up to my twelfth

### Standard. "

### "What was her age?" Neelon asked.

### "She was in ninth standard"

### "After that."

" Both of our family knew about our friendship and one day, both the family clashed and by God, it was beyond the extreme. Me was being a cool fellow, but her parents were too cruel. Her family members tried to break our friendship and ultimately, the relationship had broken and now, she is a married woman. I still miss my love and still I remember her but it was my hard luck. I accepted my fortune. She was happy with her family members. They had a join family. I did not even study properly after that incident. My friends' circle was not good enough. They had a jealousy about my career. I even did not ask her why she did that. I knew, I am poor. She was a single child in their family. Everyone was going against our family. I was silent for a longer time and was searching her here and there. Nothing was there to be disheartened.

### They did not like our poverty. My hands were being up above my reading table. I had no way out because that was my first love at my ages. So, I engaged myself in a business. My fault was that, I loved her from the deepest core of my heart. Still I realized that what I lost. It had a great value in my lonely life. I was very much immature about such relationship. There was no way out to forget my past and my love. It is not an easy task to forget our some one, that someone whom you like and love most. She had a dream to touch the sky and she liked to live in a high profile societies. But, I was completely different from her self. Because, I come of a poor family. I had some burdens. We had to struggled each day for food and proper shelter, each an hour to make a smile on our faces," Mr. Pintu replied.

### "Did she ever apologize?" Risahbh asked to Mr.Pintu.

### "No, she did not," Mr. Pintu replied.

### "She was just happy at her world and I was just waiting to listen her words." Mr. Pintu was looking very unhappy.

### "I was not getting any things to concentrate myself in studies. My

### heart was so soft but I was being so coward. I did not want to hurt my parents. All of my friends tried their best to reconnect and rebuild our relationship and ultimately, I got myself very alone," Mr. Pintu was sharing his sorrows.

### "So sad for you," Neelon said to Mr.Pintu.

### "Hey Rishabh! What happen? Why are you crying my cute brother?" Mr. Pintu asked to Rishabh.

### "Why both of you are crying? Did I hurt you brothers?" Mr.Pintu was requesting.

### "No, we are not crying," both of them are jointly replied.

### "Don't cry, Okay. You can cry but, how long?" Mr. Pintu asked.

### "Please never cry, at least in front of me. We don't have to cry. We have to save our tears for someone who has a great role to our lives." Mr. Pintu requested to them to stop their tears.

### "You are really a man of honor," Neelon announced.

### "But what about you Rishabh," Mr. Pintu asked to Rishabh.

### "See, your explanation was so sound. I have no such any experiences

On such relationship. One thing, I often realize that we middle class members are the best. At least you can realize the word what life is! What is its meaning? Anyone can realize and feel about the word love. We do struggle. We do struggle for food, cloth and shelter in each moment but there is a peace behind those struggles. Our tomorrow is always uncertain. The word comfort is out of our dictionary. We always try to search that beautiful word. We are always innocent due to our poverty but we can never realize that we are happy. But, we always maintain a smile on our face. We can realize the warm of the Sun. We can realize how it is impossible to walk with necked leg. We can never asleep properly. We are always awakening," Rishabh explained.

### "You are simply genius. I salute you Rishabh," Mr.pintu was being appreciated.

### "Even I can realize the word love. I can realize how beautiful it is! It is beautiful when someone is there to walk with you and stand by your side but I don't want to taste such fruits," Rishabh said to Mr.Pintu.

"But why?"Mr. Pintu asked to Rishabh.

### "Because our family is ahead. I love my family. My mother is alone without me and my sister is still innocent. I have no such strength left to make such relationship and to make someone special.

### My mother is so special to me and I want to live with them always. I don't think that love can make me fill," Rishabh replied.

### ****************************

"It was enough today. So, let's enjoy. No more tragedy. Let's go somewhere"

### "Yes Rishabh, you are right. We must go somewhere. "

"Yes guys, we must enjoy, enjoy your youth...he he he.................," Neelon was cheering for the announcement.

### Neelon, Risahbh and Mr.Pintu were being good friends. They often visited lonely places and even churches and temples. All of them had some week ness on mythology. Neelon, was being a very unpredictable character and a fully determined fellow. His words were so rigid like iron. No one even tried to break his own words.

### All of their words were so common. All of them were maintaining a good humanity.

### "Neelon, did you ever enjoy your school life," Mr.Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "Yes, Partially," Neelon replied.

### "At my School age there was a lot of excitement."

### "Did you ever dream something special at your School age," Mr. Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "Yes, during my School age I just tried to touch and feel my goal, everyone must have some dream and me too had a dream," Neelon replied.

### "You are correct," Mr.Pintu replied.

### "Even my School age was going very smoothly up to my seventh standard," Neelon explained to Mr. Pintu.

### "Was they're being any such tragedies?" Mr.Pintu again asked to Neelon.

"We have almost a similar tragedy."

### "Yes, but almost different tragedy," Neelon replied.

### "What was the tragedy? Could you please explain to us?" Rishab asked Neelon.

### "The tragedy was that my own aunty was expired leaving her nine months old daughter and a three years old son. Both of them were being living with our family and my father was the eldest son of his family. I did not even see my grand father and my grand mother. My father was being too worried about my cousins. His income was too low more than needed."

### "And my uncle even expired when my sister was just three years old."

### "It was too pathetic." Mr. Pintu was looking very sad during their conversations.

### "I saw so many worries of my father and as the youngest boy, my hands were being locked. I wanted to help my father. I saw and realized the toughest phase of my father. He was just a Government clerk but he maintained his duties properly."

### "I really salute your parents because it was so difficult to face and maintain such a moment," Mr.Pintu replied to Neelon.

### "But, our almighty is everywhere. He saved them. One day, their maternal uncle agreed to look after my cousins," Neelon told to Mr.Pintu.

### "Hmmm..."Rishabh accepted.

### "It is the saddest moment when you lose your parents at the age of six. I was thinking about my sister. It was going very difficult to her to get the world's most nutritious food," Neelon replied.

### "I am saying about mother's milk. Her tears were asking to give her a single drop of milk. It was going difficult to give her a single droplet of mother's milk. She did not even realize what she lost. "

### In this cosmos, no one can fill such a lost. It is the saddest moment of your life. Nine months/ three years and three years, / six years are such ages of life where we can just work and play as beginners. At such moment and situation, we can just feel our all desire but, cannot utter the same and cannot demand anything.

### "Mom, why she is crying?" Neelon asked to my mother.

### "She is crying for that nutritious food. She is demanding. My brain is not working properly," his mother replied.

### "Mom, why are you not arranging such type of any other food? Will it harm if she takes some artificial food?"

### "No dear, she is denying every time. I tried several times." Neelon's mother replied. He was worried for her.

### "You know Neelon............"

### "What mom?"

### "She was searching something at night. I realized it yesterday night. I realized it when I observed her demanding eyes. She indicated something with her helpless eyes."

### "Yes Mom, I can understand what she is missing."

### "Mother's place is the best place to get a comfort. We all human beings still can realize. Even I realize at my fifty years ages. But, I am trying to fill her every wishes."

### "Yes Mom, you can try. You try your best." Neelon requested to his mother.

### "My innocent brother was seated beside me. My words became rigid. I had no words to share with him."

### "Brother, you are my best friend."

### "Yeas dear."

### "I can't live without you all...I never saw them earlier and their images still betraying with me. Everything seems like an illusion," his cousin told to him.

### "Don't worry brother. Everything will be fine. I will pray for you." just his sympathy was there.

"I have learnt something from your face and there are many things still left to be learnt," Neelon replied.

### "We will stay at our grand father's place. We have no destiny. I don't know how I will face my troubles; my fortune is very far away from me. "

### "See dear, you have to face, you have to stand against all those devastating moments. Don't feel alone. I know it is difficult but...no doubt you are so immature but you are more matured than me."

### "Dear brother, I will surely miss you but don't be restless you have to obey them and you have to listen their words. Try to be a good human being. See brother, there is none to help we poor. Just

### God is there to help us. Never think yourself as a failure. I want to say you many things but my throat is being functionless. You have to be a king maker of your own life and fortune. You have to look after your little sister. You have to fill her all wishes. The things you have lost are immeasurable. I will miss my sister. She needs we all. Now

### you are her own brother cum parent and an idol,"Neelon had no words to explain. He just advised to his brother.

### "Thank you brother, still I am very much immature, I am missing them..." Neelon's cousin replied.

### "But brother, I don't know how I can proceed myself. Let me start.

### Let me leave to crosses over all struggles and circumstances...bless me my mom...bless me dad...where are you? I am searching you my mom...you left me alone and alone a long time ago, everyone is saying that you had a tour...mom, are you all right? You told me a lie. I know that you will never come.... I will never talk to you. Your daughter is going to be very restless...you did not even come at my dream...please come back soon with our dad...tell him, I am missing you both...I don't have much more tear.... When you both will back? I will wait for you. You did not even ask how I am surviving my life alone with my sister...mom, I realized the taste of my life.... it's going very painful. " That was a feeling of a six years old boy. Neelon realized his feelings. His unrests droplets wetted his palm.

### I just realized his words...

### "I just wanted to realize how beautiful our mother is! How beautiful her care? My ears are not being allowing themselves to listen a single word other than Mom and Dad.... I wanted to realize your love, your care and your shadow..............dear dad, I am missing you very much. We are really very unlucky. I am feeling myself as I am becoming as a dad of my sister. I am missing an affection...here I am

### Realizing your presence.... not only dad, I am becoming her mother too. My load is going very tough.... my role is very difficult."

### "Dear god, did I hurt you ever? Why we are alone on your place? We are so helpless and immature to understand anything good or bad. I know, you will never answer my questions. It was fine with my life. But, don't worry; I will save your daughter."

### "After a few months, they started to live in another city. They left me one more shadow on my face at my fifteen years age. I wanted to help them but, as an immature boy, my words were being few but I decided to help them."

"You had a good thinking," Mr.Pintu replied.

### "See Neelon, sometime you cannot predict such a lonely life. Still I miss my dad and even I don't know whether my dad is still alive or not but, my all good wishes will be there with my father." Rishabh said to Neelon.

### "Such cases are very rare. I don't know where is almighty? Do you think god is still alive? I had to ask him/her something," Mr.Pintu became restless for a moment.

### *************************

# PART FOUR

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##### PART # FOUR

# They had a single big rented room. Each one had a troubled with their newly joined job. Me even visited their room very often to refresh my mind and obviously to learn something. Some lessons of our livelihood. I was the youngest one. They often called me a funny name " HERO". I enjoyed that funny name but I am not a hero. Please forgive me, if I do any mistake. I am totally new. Let's see..................................................................................

"Hi Hero, are you going with us?"

" Where big brother?" I often called Mr. Pintu as my big brother. Mr. Pintu was a latecomer at our boarding lodge.

### "We have a picnic party ahead......................be ready."

### "Are you serious big brother? I don't want to miss it any more but, it shall be possible if it is on Sunday."

### "Yes, dear brother. It is on Sunday. We are not a selfish at all," Mr.Pintu replied.

### "But I can't contribute anything. Month ending. So...hope you will understand."

### "Ever I asked you to contribute? Have fun. You don't have to contribute anything. I'm just like your elder brother. So, enjoy your study..................a life with me and with us and be prepare for Sunday. "

### "Big brother, you are so cute." I triumphed.

### We enjoyed fully. Our bachelor picnic was fine. We had two cooks. So, we had no work. Neelon, seated alone under a tree and on the other hand Rishabh had a fun with Neelon.

### "Hi, Neelon. What happen? Are you still sad?"

### "No, Rishabh; Nothing," Neelon replied.

### But truly speaking, Neelon was looking so dishearten.

### "Mr. Pintu, Neelon is still crying, come soon please," Rishabh shouted.

### "Please Rishabh, don't joke with me. I am damn serious. Leave me alone."

### Mr. Pintu pulled me up on his shoulder and dropped me in front of them. Mr.Pintu was a very thin fellow.

### "What happen Neelon? Is there any thing wrong with you?" Mr. Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "Nothing."

### "Okay, it is fine but, why with Rishabh only. You have to share your feelings with me and with our Hero too."

### "Okay then let me say you all.................................................."

### At last, I got a chance to listen something. Let's see....

### *********************

### "You all are going very serious but, truly speaking, I am remembering my college days."

### "First day at my college, during our lunch time, I observed some of my friends were teasing a girl by saying a funny name..."

### "Brother, is she a new comer?" Neelon asked one of his classmates.

### "Yes, she is!" his friend replied to Neelon.

### "She is so pretty," Neelon admired to that girl.

### "Hmmm............"

### "What happen Neelon? You too. "

### "Don't joke with me brother. I can admire at least a girl," Neelon replied to his classmate.

### "What happen Neelon? You looking romantic," Rishabh pinched to Neelon.

### "How romantic?" Neelon replied.

### "That was to keep myself chill."

### "First day, first class at my College days was so painful," Neelon told to Mr.Pintu.

### "Why?" Mr. Pintu replied.

### "Did any one torture you?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

### "No."

### "Then.................."

" I just disappointed and nothing else."

### "My rank was third or fourth among one hundred twenty seven students. My brother was being a College union Secretary. So, most of the Professors knew me well." Neelon focused to Rishabh.

### "But, why you were so disappointing?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

### "That day was my first day and a first class. Our first class was Chemistry. I seated in the last bench."

### "Why did you seat at the last bench? Why not in the middle or at first," Mr. Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "Mr. Pintu, you are really unbelievable and a confusing character.

### You are simply a thirsty fellow, who have so many queries." Neelon replied on Mr.Pintu's words.

"I felt myself very shy, when that Chemistry Professor asked my name and my marks and it was my first speech among one hundred twenty seven students."

### "Brother, I am eagerly waiting to know about the incident. What was the incident? Could you please explain it?" Rishabh requested to Neelon.

### "Yes, my Chemistry teacher."

### "Was she an unmarried girl or a lady?"

### "No."

### "Then......................"

"He was an angry young professor"

### "After that."

### "I did not know him properly but, he was so cruel at that time."

### "He gave us a few questions to solve. That day, I just enrolled my name there. So, I did not purchase any books for me. He was checking everyone's copy one by one. I was sure that it is impossible to check all our copies in such an interval although I seated in the last bench." At last Neelon replied.

### "I had a hearing from my back side and was astonished."

### "Did you solve the question?" that Chemistry Professor asked to Neelon.

### "No Sir," Neelon replied to that professor.

### "What? Did you ever check your Chemistry book? You don't have to study Science. This is not your School. Better you can study arts

### or Commerce.................I say, leave the Class right now."

### "Please Sir. Today is my first day. Sir, I don't have any book. Even I don't know which book I have to purchase........................."

### Obviously, it can disappoint anyone.

### "So, did you further attend his Classes?" Mr.Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "Yes, I attended."

### "But dears, I apologized in front of him like a beggar. But, it was beyond of my comprehension, why he was treating me like that and no doubt his words helped me to score the highest marks."

### "Good, good." everyone commented and even me.

### "But everyone was focusing to that new girl. They were crazy for that girl. She was like an angel."

### "When I reached at our place, I saw that pretty girl seated inside our room with one of her friends."

### "What?" I asked to Neelon. I just astonished.

### "Yes dear, even I became rigid." Neelon replied to me.

### "I had no way out to hide myself."

### "Did you talk to her?" Mr.Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "Brother, you should talk," Rishabh said to him and even I commented.

### "Yes, I talked but I had no more interest."

### "My elder brother was roaring by my name, when I just stepped inside my room."

### "Did they complaint any thing?" I asked to Neelon.

### "No."

### "Then..."

### "Neelon, do you know them?" his brother asked to Neelon.

### "Yes brother, I saw them at our College," Neelon replied to his brother.

### "So Neelon, at last you talked."

### "Yes, at last, I introduced myself."

### "By the way Neelon, what was her name?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

### "Yes, her name was Priti."

### "So Neelon, Priti was very pretty, am I right?" Mr. Pintu smiled on me.

"Next day, Priti came to our place with her friend. Not a single-family member was being shocked. They knew Priti very well. She was asking me regarding some books and she needed it, but I agreed to give those books to Priti. She had a regular visit to our place. I shared my studies with her. She had a beautiful smile on her face and me was crazy for her smile. She was from a different community and even her religion was different. My mother liked Priti very much. Simply saying, she was very cool and decent. As a different community girl, she often used English as her major language to communicate with me and with others. At our place, we enjoyed a few Hindi movies with Priti. No one had a doubt. "

### "So Neelon, what was your first sight to Priti?" Mr.Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "I always shy in front of Priti."

### "Really Neelon, you are very bore,"

### "No brother, I am not bore at all. I just felt that she want to say me something. I did not know whether she had any soft corner to me or not. All of my friends were being jealous on me. They thought that I love and like her. We usually used the same road to College. My friends and our surrounded people noticed my new relationship with Priti." Neelon just smiled.

### "Yes Neelon, you are right. Because you never hide our love and cough," Mr.Pintu replied.

### "It is a very common thinking. Sometime, we should avoid something. Anyway, let us know about the next," Mr.Pintu requested to Neelon.

### "Nothing was special to me. I was not being so serious to her. I assumed she like me. But, our friendship was lasted for a few months."

### "Why?"

### "Our final examination was knocking at the door. So, I was preparing myself for the final examination. My native town stills a small one. We had not much more books facilities. My main target was to get a seat into an engineering Institute.

### "I liked such relationship but had a soft corner to my dream and aim. It was a common middle class problem"

### "Did you ever approach to her?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

### "No brother."

### "Why?"

### "I was very shy at the age of seventeenth. I was very immature to that regards and like wise my life was going as usually..............

### My career was primary and that's why, I fully devoted myself in my studies. As a small town poor boy, I noticed something about our family needs and our dreams. I had to just fulfill it."

### My friends were enjoying their lives with lot of fantasies like moving pictures, cultural programmers, politic, college union, gossip on the road and even tea stall conversations..............I even attended sometimes when I got free. They had a lot of fun and which attracted me every time...and it was the second best phase of my life when I made a distant relationship with my all close friends and by me, it was a good enough. It helped me in my studies.

### "Let us know, what was your first best phase. But, Neelon you are very interesting. I am not buttering," Mr.Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "I never think myself as Hero.................he he...." Neelon replied.

### "You are very clever," Rishabh said to Neelon.

### "Not at all."

### "Yes, sometime I am clever. This is because, for a longer time, I am answering so many questions like how, where, when, what," Neelon mildly replied to Rishabh.

### "You know Rishabh that at the age of thirteen; I was being very restless and very demanding. I had no dream ahead except my career. From class II or III onwards, most of the classes I had scored 149 upon 150 in Mathematics. When I was in class VIII, I scored just 52 upon 150 in Mathematics. Our question paper was too tough and class highest marks in that particular subject were below 70 upon 150.

### My poor score helped me to change my life. My parents did not scold me even and neither utters a single tough word. I realized, my poor marks in Mathematics disappointed them and I promised myself to score more marks in that subject and will clear my concept as much as I can."

### "Neelon, that was good for you. At least, you have realized," Mr. Pintu commented.

### "Neelon, you know what?" Mr. Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "What?"

### "But, I am getting our modern world as a changed manner."

### "But how Mr. Pintu?" I asked to Mr.Pintu and was little bit confused.

" Our fantasy world," Mr.Pintu replied to me.

### "Yes big brother." I supported Mr. Pintu.

### "But big brother, we are changing with time. No one can change our lives," I replied to Mr.Pintu.

### "Neelon, did you meet Priti further?" Mr. Pintu at his onion smile.

### "Let me say. Christmas day was going around the world. I had not a Christian friend. Priti was a Christian girl. I thought, at least she will invite me. I was almost prepared."

### "So, did she invite you?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

" No, she did not invite me at all." Neelon replied.

### "Why?"

### "Why, why?"

### "She invited my all friends and even my elder brother whom she did not even talk ever for a moment."

### "Neelon, I am confused," Rishabh said to Neelon.

### "Leave it. Even I had an expectation. But, I did not take that matter seriously," Neelon expressed to Rishabh.

### "Just I can say, I was busy with my studies. A very good result was my target to fulfill my dream and was tensed about my career. And ultimately, I cleared my final examination with good marks and appeared for the Engineering Entrance Examination. And my happy day turned when I was selected for the Jorhat Engineering College, which was run by the Government of Assam."

### "After that."

### "Yes, after that I left the town and was on my way to fulfill my dream. Priti's friends were searching me around the town. I was completely uncertain."

### "During my semester classes, I had a small visit to our native town. My elder brother was asking me about Priti whether I met her again or not but he never doubted me."

### "She is searching you brother," Neelon's brother told to Neelon.

### "So what? I have to go back soon. Now I can't meet."

### "My life in Jorhat was going as usual."

### "During that same year and before the holy Christmas, I visited our native town one more time. I was enjoying my vacation with my School and College mates. They were teasing me about Priti whereas we had no relation ahead."

### "One day, during my vacation and just one day before the Christmas eve her one friend came to our place and was asking me about my address. I was cheering myself. I realized something. And I was greeted by her Christmas wishes."

### "My vacation came to an end. I was preparing on my regular class notes and specially engineering drawing notes. That was my first experience outside a native town at my age. No doubt, I was feeling too bore. And on the other hand our engineering drawing was too boring. I was very poor at drawing. When I back to Jorhat, I noticed all the rooms were vacant. Most of my friends left the College already. I had a few friends there. They did not want to study there. I was enjoying alone my college days with some ragging experience. Had some fun there. Most of my friends were being dishearten for ragging...our seniors played with us at night. It was going difficult to face our seniors after our classes and it was being a tough period to get asleep during ragging days and after some days, I decided to leave that organisational hostel and started living at a rented room with two more friends." Neelon was smoothly going on his conversations.

### "Let us drink a cup of tea," Mr. Pintu suggested.

### "Story was interesting. Let us listen more." Rishabh said to Neelon.

### "Life was going as usual and one day, our land lord was shouting by my name...........Neelon, where are you? Are you there at your room? One parcel is there for you."

### "Parcel!"

### "Who sent it?" I asked to Neelon.

### "But that time, I was in sound sleep and was really feeling very sleepy. Everyone was preparing themselves for 31st Dec' night. He gave me the parcel with a doubtful smile and look. I was just cheering behind him. I opened the letter with my smile as it was written on the envelope 'OPEN WITH SMILE.' "

### "So romantic."

### "Was there anything special inside the envelope?" Mr. Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "I was feeling so shy and even scared to open that exciting envelope. It was the first letter of a girl to me, which I ever received. I had an anxiety to know and realize a romantic love letter, as most of my friends were doing the same with their dear ones. Truly speaking, I did not even read such type of letter earlier. It was from Priti and I read her all tiny letters very carefully but it was not being as usual," Neelon replied to Mr. Pintu.

### "So Neelon, what she sent?"

" Why?"

### "Tell me, please," we just demanded.

" One big size Christmas card with a T- shirt,"

### "Wow!"

" Was there any lines which excited you the most?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

### "Yes, a very little," Neelon replied.

### "She left her tough and a vacant expression in that letter. It had a special meaning but I was not in a position to decide any thing. I was little bit bore. I was thinking about our cast and community. I was lagging with such worthless thinking. I was no doubt very young but was very worthless to my mind. She left some questions and which was unanswered. I decided to send her a letter and on the other hand, my college days were troubling me more than enough. There was lot of works for we fresher. Ragging was one more a new experience in my life. My seniors forced me to tell the name of my girl friend. I was little bit confused. I told them everything about my love life but there was not a single person to be trustworthy."

### "At last, I took a favor from my friend. He gave some ideas to overcome the situation and my second day night at the hostel, I disclosed her name"

### "Was that Priti?" I asked to Neelon.

### "No brother."

### "Then."

### "I just created a name, my one illusion. Still now, I don't hear such a name..."

### "Did they belief?"

### "Yes, they believed."

### "So, funny."

### "That same day night, our seniors ordered every junior to submit at least one love letter by the next day."

### "You submitted?" Mr. Pintu asked to Neelon.

" Yes, I wrote a very funny letter to someone. Ragging is a funny thing but I got a beautiful taste."

### "Did any one help you to complete the letter," I asked to Neelon.

### "No brother. Not a single one helped me. During our lunchtime, I wrote the complete letter and which was very romantic and even I mentioned one poem. God knows, the letter was so impressive. Trust me, all of them impressed on my love letter."

### "So, funny you are!" Rishabh smiled.

### "Yes, it was funny," Neelon, replied.

### "Among our a few new students, I lasted the most at that College. There were only a few friends to be left and I got confused totally," Neelon said to Rishabh.

### "I forgot to tell you one more thing." Neelon was in his smiling eyes.

### "What?" Suddenly I replied to him.

### "Priti gave me one of her photograph along with the parcel."

### "She was looking so cute with her formal dresses."

### "It is so romantic."

### "But I hid that photograph."

### "Why Neelon?"

### "I was thinking differently. I was missing my moments with Priti. No doubt we had no relation but she was a good girl and very helping handed. Still I remembered the last day at College. I realized her in front of me. Missing her lovely smile but my mind and my heart did not allow me to dig the relationship and was very scared for that."

### "Why Neelon?" Mr. Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "I just scared for my final examination because I had to revise and finish almost all my books."

### "But, it was good brother. You were very serious to your studies,"

### Mr.Pintu replied.

### "I had no other option."

"So, did you continue your study further at that college?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

### "I was unable to decide myself whether I have to stay there or not. My brain was out of my mind. I was thinking that once I not select in the forth-coming engineering entrance examination then I have to come back there again. Excluding me, just my two friends were continued their studies at that college but they had a plan to leave that college and on the other hand, they preparing themselves for the entrance examination but I had to ask my parents. "

### "After that...did your father scold you?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

### "I came home with an empty hope," Neelon replied to Rishabh.

### "I just scared to discuss about the matter with my family members but with a little bit courage, I told my parents and all other members."

### "But why Neelon?" His father asked to him.

### "Dad, I want to study Aviation technology."

### "See Neelon, I don't know what you want? Do you know properly that such course is available at our state Government colleges?"

### "No papa, I don't know."

### "Then"

### "There is no such college at our place which providing Aviation Technology."

### "Then, how you could go through?"

"With an immature mind...dad, I can appear in national level examination."

### "See, I don't have any idea. Do what is best for you. Just remember that your father is with you."

### "Dad, I will try to collect some information about that course."

### "See Neelon, being a small town boy, you have to try alone. Even I am busy with my office. My job is a very risky one. But, I can bring some national newspapers. Hope, it can help you."

### "So Papa, can I take a risk?"

### "Yes, you can take a risk." His family members supported him no doubt, but worried about his career. It was a common problem of our small town people. Now our present world is completely different. Now we are getting all our facilities through Internet, mobile technology and many more. Even such facilities are now available in our small villages. Being with such facilities, we are still careless."

### Don't mind. Let's see what happened in the conversation...........

### "Okay papa. I will try my best."

### "You don't have to try, but have to try more and more."

### "Sure papa."

### "At last, my father agreed."

### "Neelon, you have strong mind but truly speaking, I always avoid such risk," Mr.Pintu said to Neelon.

### "See big brother, life itself a risk. You can't say about tomorrow."

### "So, did you get any information regarding Aviation Technology?"

### "How Mr. Pintu? No Internet and mobile services was there. You can't go through only some local newspapers. Internet is very much essential to collect such information."

### "But I worked more and more and appeared for the engineering entrance examination and ultimately God saved me and was selected for an engineering college and choose electrical engineering and was partially happy with that department."

### "It was a good success," Rishabh said to Neelon.

### "Thank you dear."

### "You know?"

### "What?" Mr. Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "I saw Priti one more time during one of our religious festival. She was standing very close to me. I didn't even realize. I was being squeezed by my shy manners. She was with her Parents."

### "Wow!"

### "Did you talk to her?" Mr.Pintu asked to Neelon.

### "No."

### "You are too bore."

### "Neelon, you are so funny. You should leave some words to her." Rishabh said to Neelon.

### "I am a shy and a rigid fellow. Except my cousins, I didn't remember whether I ever talk to a girl or not. I didn't even talk whenever needed." Neelon replied.

### "No Neelon. You are not. You are always bore."

### "Trust me Rishabh. I afraid girls, but I like their simplicity."

### "Make it clear Neelon?" Mr. Pintu requested to Neelon.

### "There is nothing to say," Neelon replied.

### "But, there was a boy, who liked Priti very much. She was very pretty, but I had no any soft corner to her. I knew that boy well and that's why, when she was standing beside me, I stepped my legs behind and hid myself."

### "You are mad or what?" Rishabh said to Neelon.

### "Dear Rishabh, do you think I am your enemy?"

### "He he he he..........................." Rishabh smiled.

### "What happen Hero? Say something. Do have you any girl friend?"

### It was my turn to answer.

### "Oh God! Mr.Pintu....................................."

### I had a tied fun with Mr. Pintu.

### "He he.............................."

"Dear Rishabh, I am absolutely not a mad," Neelon told to Rishabh.

### "There was a reality behind it." Neelon said to Mr. Pintu.

### "What was the reality? It is going difficult to understand you."

### Mr. Pintu replied.

### "You are always welcome to advise we people," Rishabh said to Neelon.

### "That was too much buttering."

### "There is a reality behind the word Girl. All girls have a strong determination. They are still maintaining that same strength. I salute their strength and attitudes." Neelon replied.

### "How can you say, they are strong?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

### "Because an eighteenth years old girl, when she marries someone, she has to maintain a family and the whole family bounded by herself. They get the opportunity to act the role of a mother. They become reserve and very much responsible by all our family burdens and act differently. As a mother or as a bride, they devote themselves for the well being of her family and it is completely different in case of we boys," Neelon replied to Risahbh.

### "Neelon, you are very interesting." Rishabh supported.

### "But Neelon, why are you differentiating boys and girls?" Rishabh asked Neelon.

### "Yes Rishabh, it's very simple."

### "But Rishabh, I am here not to differentiate any girls and boys. But there is always a difference. As a boy, even I am supporting our role.

### We boys are so rigid like stone but we are softer more than a quiet lake. Boys are tough from outside but boys have a specialty. Boys can easily lay down themselves especially on some circumstances. For well being of others, boys can sacrifice their smiles even."

### "So, at last, you supported boys."

### "Am I a girl?"

### "He he he he............................................."

### "Let me finish first.... let me say something today...don't be restless."

### "At the age of 19 or 20 or...girls marry someone and it mostly happens at our small villages. Sometime, it may be due to illiteracy. Likewise, an eighteenth or nineteenth years old boy bear a very immature character (at such ages). At such ages, boys try to taste all the fruits of our life. At such ages, we boys laugh; cheers, very demanding and sometime we act as a newborn baby. But our maturity become mature when we just cross the age of 22, 23.

### Then we try to achieve all the good things of a life and start thinking about our future. So, you cannot say, at such ages we boys achieve a stabilized life. But at such ages, a girl can able to stabilize her well and become mentally matured and a married girl, at such ages, she has to faced many troubles and act themselves like above forty years women maturity. None w people can deny that they are not doing so. Truly speaking, it is simply the universal truth."

### "May I compliment you about your good thought and a good respect to all women," Mr. Pintu said to Rishabh.

### "Neelon, you a fully matured boy," Rishabh commented.

### "Yes brother, they are right enough." me even supported. At least, I had to learn something.

### "But dears, my mind stopped working when I think about priti. She should at least give her contact number."

### "Did you contact to Priti any more?" Mr. Pintu asked to Neelon again.

### "Yes, but.........................." Neelon replied.

### "What?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

### "A feminine voice was there when I made a call. Still I am confused about my conversation. Still it is a mystery, which was that girl whom I talked. She was speaking in Tamil. By god, speaking in Tamil was beyond of my comprehension. I tried several times to contact her but I had no other way to convince my lonely mind, a mind without a soul. And on the other hand, I was thinking about that boy who liked Priti as his soul mate. I didn't want to disappoint that boy by disclosing everything. Everyone in this cosmos must have some desire ness. I wanted to see everyone happy. It was just a wish from my lonely heart. So, I tried a vacant distant."

### "Your definition about a woman was very impressive and supportive," Rishabh agreed.

### "May be. I don't know."

### "Although I am a male but still I am supporting a woman. Being a male, I can understand our problems and duties. Sometime, we misunderstand a woman and their duties. Nine months ten days they look after their immature one. At their womb, they look after us more then she. It is the ultimate task of a woman by our almighty. From beggars to rich, all doing the same job. It make us hurt when someone leave a child at a dustbin or near at a temple or a Church or a Mosque. May be they hoping that our almighty can save their children, but god look after them? Everyone has some burdens.........my brain does not work, when I think such innocent ones."

### "Absolutely." Mr. Pintu supported.

### "I don't know, I am mad or not. Why I think so such? That is why; I did not allow myself to move with her. I did not want to disappoint that boy. Even my heart was not allowing myself to move with her. But I was happy more than earlier. That was about my first sight," Neelon expressed.

#  PART FIVE

##### PART # FIVE

### Our picnic in jungle was satisfactory. Mr. Pintu often shared their conversations with me. There was a lot of fun at the jungle. That same day night, we had a joint dinner at their place. They had a dream to make one documentary.

### And in the next Sunday, their topic was about our Almighty. I fully enjoyed and as the youngest one, I never argued on their conversations and even to them....

"I was under a shadow,

### She was saying me to come closer.

### I was taking a cold wind inside myself

### And the wind was so hot.

### Was puzzled on that.

### It was her warm wishes...

### I was asking the hot wind...

### Answer me on my restless thought.

### Was puzzled on her hot blow....

### She still ideal with her closed lips.

### I was at her womb.

### She was by my side and at a distant.

### That distant was filled by some thorns.

### It was tough being cross that distant

### I was asking the wind, how to crosses over it.

### I saw, you are trying yourself well...

### Ohhhh! I am not trying mother

### You yourself are trying to pull up your child.

### No one was there to irritate my lonely heart.

### Mother, I am going empty by you.

### I feel too cold when you stand

### by my side.

### It is me who can realize the cold

### And it was me, who can realize his loneliness.

### My days becoming a month, month becoming a year

### And year, becoming an era.

### I searched you everywhere

### In that deserted place.

### Sand was being very tough to walk.

### I got some mirages there.

### It was me, who respected your presence,

### It was me and my soul, who searched you for a longer time.

### It seemed, the place filled by deserts only.

### Was feeling very alone without you.

### Missing my lonely heart.

### I was becoming very restless.

### Was a good way to realize a real life?

### And was the best way to survive myself alone,

### And was the best way to move alone.

### But have to move on...have to move."

### "Love, love and love.....................it is too boring," Mr.Pintu said to Rishabh.

### "Yes Mr.Pintu, sometime it is really very boring," Rishabh replied to Neelon.

### "But Rishabh, love is not a boring word. The word itself has no definition. Our Almighty has created that typical word and he never stopped loving to us," Mr. Pintu defined love.

### "Yes Mr. Pintu, you are right," Rishabh supported.

### "We love God and he is still loving us. He forgives all our mistakes. God is always with his child and with every organism." Mr. Pintu replied to Rishabh.

### "Do you belief in God?" Rishabh asked to Mr. Pintu.

### "Yes, why not," Mr. Pintu replied to Rishabh.

### "I did not remember where I read that book. There was a saying that the whole cosmos is working by our Almighty and by him it is working and manifested again and again. It was the real meaning of his existence," Mr. Pintu defined about God.

### "Yes, God is so kind and omnipotent," Rishabh, said to Mr. Pintu.

### "Yes, Rishabh, we are working under by his rules and no one can overcome it," Mr. Pintu replied.

"He gave us all those sensations to know about all sources."

### But that time I was busy with a book at their room....

"He is the symbol of all sources and he is the source of all those sources. All physical objects in this universe have some physical properties. I realized it at our Almighty. No one can act like him," Mr.Pintu said to Rishabh.

### "It gives us and sensation when our elders bless us. We human beings are very much greedy. Sometime and somewhere we think, we are more powerful and more strengthen than God. By such ideology, we do mistake. We misguide our societies and misguide our innocent lives," Rishabh replied to Mr. Pintu.

### "That's great. I am giving you a good grade," Mr. Pintu fully satisfied.

### "We can just realize his presence and just can realize his powers,"

### Rishabh said to Neelon.

### "Neelon, do you have any opinion about our Almighty? Do you think, there has such an existing power where we can measure all the immeasurable quantities?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

### "Yes Rishabh. I have no words to explain but I can say that God is undefined and he is everywhere. He is so faster and he is above all sources and all sources are controlling by him," Neelon replied to Rishabh.

### "Hero, do you have any opinion?" Mr. Pintu pinched me to say something. I did not lose the opportunity to say something about our Almighty.

### "Yes big brother."

"See dears, there are some words which you can't express and give its actual meaning. My tongue does not work whenever someone asks me about why. It has no meaning. A single life is least to answer properly about 'Why'."

### It is so mysterious. Except our lord whom we trust more than anyone even sometime unable to answer about the word why. It is very tough to answer when someone mention such words. But I can answer a few when someone asks me about our lord, about Almighty. May be I can't answer appropriately. But I feel myself happy when I say something about our parents. I can define our parents as the source of all energies. I don't know how god made them? I tried to act myself like her, like my mother, before my maturity. She acted like lord Shiva. The lord Shiva had taken even poison for well being of we human beings. She also acts like that. For the well being of her children a mother can give up her all smiles and even happiness. They maintain the word forgiveness. And our parents are the best example of that word. Forgiving all our mistakes, they always care and hug us. They just expect our good fortune. They just want to see us very stable and happy. They just eager to see whether our own hands helping ourselves or not to help ourselves well and others.

### And for well being of her child, a mother can leave her status and in our tough time, they can even jump thy self on a fire and help us out. I don't know who is god? But I can compare our parents with Almighty. We are very lucky that we are still on this earth under their guidance. I can realize their golden tears, which reflect on us.

### Do you think that I am doing wrong? If I am not doing any harmful job then god must at least there to help me out. God created us like himself. He even fought many battles, killed and punished those killers and punishers. I can hope that he will at least help me to get a good position.

### Our parents have no demand. I am not mentioning those who demand more and more and I am saying such words in front of you because I am not even demanding. My mother taught me not to demand. Our parents are the pillars of our happiness. A mother can

### hold a family alone by giving up their lives even. It is called a real good parent, a real god, alive even after death. By me, there is nothing real more than our parents.

### From a lady servant to a lady queen, all are doing the same job. I want to explain you more and more but somewhere someone will think that I just supporting my mom and not my dad. But, truly speaking, we are simply incomplete without them. I am considering repeatedly that our mothers are the best. They may or may not be so much qualified, but they are much more qualified from inside, much more stable and much more understanding like our Almighty.

### They are much more understanding than to realize, they are much more adorable than to care.

### We know, newly born baby need good nourishment. If we consider a beggar's child, then my lips utter more and more to explain about our mothers.

### We know newborn baby need proper nourishment for their growth. Every mother tries to feed us by a healthy food. An unhealthy beggar woman even tries their best to feed her children properly. That is the ultimate creation of our Almighty. This is the god. You can judge his power through our parents. A mother's qualities are undefined.

### She can judge.

### She can punish us.

### She can tough to herself.

### She is never tough to us.

### She is tough for sometime.

### She is tough for we well being.

### It is she outside,

### It is her inside world.

### She melts easily,

### She is very soft.

### She melted more

### When we cry.

### Yes, she is ours,

### She is our goddess,

### Our beloved one.

### Mom, I love you,

### Missing you very much.

### "Oh no! You so matured. God bless you brother. May you live long, May almighty lives long your family with you," All of them appreciated me. They observed a shiny droplet on my face. No doubt I cried in front of them like a demanding child. Still I am crying with my pen.

### "Neelon, now its your turn," Rishabh said to Neelon.

### "What?"

"You have to say something about 'why'?" Rishabh requested to Neelon.

### "But I think our Hero is good enough to explain."

### "Me, no. Please..." Suddenly I shouted.

### "Can you answer me if I ask you all about how?" Neelon said to Rishabh.

### "No," Rishabh replied.

### "Then listen and let me ask first," Neelon requested.

### "If I simply ask you what is your father......................."

### "You will simply reply that your father is Mr....... and he is working there at..........................and nothing more than that."

### "Was that your Identity?" Neelon asked to Rishabh and it obviously confused Rishabh.

### "It was simply your father's identity."

### "If I ask you how?" Neelon was asking repeatedly.

### "Let me explain, whenever we get an opportunity to make a platform on this earth then we act like an innocent and has to learn many things and we are gather by new more faces. They just teach us about our origin, about all good and bad things. They just support us back to check our anxiousness to those good and bad evils. They help us to taste some good lessons."

### "So brother, it is very difficult to explain above those words. Our hero had a good explanation. I am giving my huge salutation to our cute Hero and I can consider himself as a real Hero."

### I just cheered from inside.

"Was it good to understand?" Neelon asked to me.

### "Yes brother. It was good,"

### "Neelon, can I ask you something?" Rishabh requested.

### "Yes sure. Don't hesitate. You can ask me anything."

"You were saying that you can define properly about the existence of god. So, could you please explain it one more tie."

### "Yes a little bit. I am not certain but have a faith on myself."

### I just shocked. What he is saying.............

" See Rishabh, I had a book, the scientific Basis of Krishna Consciousness....still I remembered a few lines. I am just going to say you some of it...

### We do complex number in our Mathematics. There is a very simple and small letter 'i','i' means imaginary and without the use of 'i'. It is now being tough to our Mathematicians to solve some numerical. So, you cannot deny that 'i' has no existence. Our god is like wise. This number 'i' does not figure among the natural number, but the theory of Analytical functions is based on this imaginary unit. Without the help of this branch, various complex theories cannot be solved, thus the existence of this number cannot be denied. So, we can just feel our Almighty. Simply saying...

### When we miss our mother's care

### We simply miss her (god/goddess).

### When we feel ourselves very helpless

### We simply miss his/her presence

### And we simply miss his/her powers.

### We worship our lord

### We follow the path, which he made for us.

### We obey his all rules and restrictions

### And the task he has left vacant."

### "Really Neelon, you are very fantastic. God bless you brother," Mr. Pintu complimented.

" Today, I have learnt so many good things from you all and feeling very happy to have a good and understanding friends like you," Mr. Pintu said to Neelon. Even Rishabh and me supported and blessed Neelon.

### "Thank you."

### "God bless both of you too."

### "Thank you..............yes, thanks a lot and my pleasure," Both Neelon and Rishabh replied.

### "Try to maintain the same spirit as long as you can. Now a day, a very few people have such thinking and they are being too busy with the modernization world that they don't have such time to look into on such matters. They just enquire themselves for a real life. How a real life is perfect? They simply familiar with some very common words like fantasy, style, new updates, new look and about updated world but they forget one thing that there is a supreme power who is updating our modern world by its day to day updating and he is simply the best designer and our beloved God, our Almighty, our lord Jesus, the Supreme power. Proud to be his child."

### "Really brother Neelon, it was super," I supported him.

### *********************

### In our endless conversations, there was one more character. His name was Rishu. For a fraction of minute, we become very silent. Neelon was attending a phone call. I had no words to say something

### and was thinking about our beautiful world and was thinking about those guys. May god bless them?

### Let me say about Rishu...

### "A couple of years ago, I was feeling very happy with childhood friend Rishu. He was younger than me and was feeling that I am the happiest fellow in this earth," Rishabh said to Mr. Pintu about Rishu.

"Who was Rishu?" Mr. Pintu asked to Rishabh.

### "Yes Rishu, my childhood friend. My cute friend. Rishu...I am missing you brother. Where are you?"

### "He is now very far away from me."

### "Why?" Neelon asked to Rishabh.

### "We had a quarrel."

### "Hmmm...."

### "Still I am missing Rishu. I am feeling very alone without him seems water stopped to flow."

" Don't worry Rishabh, we are with you always," Neelon said to Rishabh.

### "Do you want to listen what happened with Rishu?"

### "Yes sure." Mr. Pintu agreed to listen.

### "Was there any more love story?" Neelon asked to Rishabh.

### "Neelon..." Rishabh shouted.

### "Oh I see! Love story. Am I right? One more love story." we all were agreed to listen that story.

### "Yes, love story dear brother," Rishabh replied.

### "Wow!" Neelon laughed.

### "Brother, you yourself a story book." Neelon commented.

### "Oh really!..........................thank you Neelon."

### "Please Neelon, don't joke with me," Rishabh was being bit serious.

### "See Rishabh, in every love story there must some fun."

### "Please Neelon; let me share it with you all."

### "Yes brother. You can proceed."

### "One day, Rishu visited our place with an unwanted hope and a desire."

### "What happen Rishu? Are you all right Rishu?" Rishabh asked to Rishu.

### "Nothing brother," Rishu replied to Rishabh.

"Is there anything wrong?" Rishabh asked to Rishu.

### "Nothing wrong Rishabh, Me all right."

### "Rishabh, I need your help and suggestion," Rishu requested to Rishabh.

### "On what?"

### "Love matter?" Rishabh asked to Rishhu.

### "Yes, almost," Rishu replied.

### "Aunty... " Rishabh laughed.

### "Yes, you can laugh...but brother I am serious. Please don't laugh. Try to understand my condition," Rishu requested not to laugh.

### "Okay, I can try my best to help you, but what was the matter?"

### "Leave it Rishabh, you don't have to help or suggest me."

"Please Rishu, don't be shy and angry, just kidding dear," Rishabh requested to Rishu.

### "Rishabh, I am in love. I love someone, but there is a problem."

### "What? Are you serious?" Rishabh shocked.

### "Yes Rishabh, I am very serious. I love someone and I love her most."

### "Wow! It is a good news brother."

"What is the problem? You should at least cheer."

### "That is the problem. I can't cheer and laugh."

### "I don't have any mobile phone and other advantages to contact."

### "So what?"

### "We cannot meet outside home. She has some problems," Rishu said to Rishabh.

### "See Rishu, mobile text messages or frequent phone calls is a very fool concept of love. Just remember, you love that girl and you have to respect her and you have to understand all her troubles. Frequent phone calls or text messages have no value. It makes a hungry relationship. To get a pure love you must be very patience. It is very difficult. A good mutual understanding is very necessary. You know about me well. It can misguide your relationship further. Try to collect her regular schedule and try to listen her properly. Is she is your good friend then surely she will understand it."

### "Yes, you are right in this respect." Rishu agreed.

### "She said that she could talk only rather than meeting outside."

### "Don't worry, there must some way."

### "Try to contact her as soon as possible."

### "There is no way to contact. I tried several times."

### "Let me think, Rishu."

### "Love master," Mr. Pintu commented.

### "See Rishu, I am a human being, I can understand her situation and as a human being I can respect your love. I don't know her and has never seen her earlier, but you do one thing."

"What Rishabh?"

### "You can use my mobile phone for your convenience."

"What? Are you serious Rishah?"

### "Yes Rishu, you can use it."

### "But brother, don't misuse it. Use of cell phone is very harmful whenever you studies."

### "I swear Rishabh, I will never misuse it."

### "Please don't mind Rishu. I am not even too addicted to my cell phone."

### "But Rishu, there is a problem."

### "What Risahbh?"

### "You can use my mobile phone during evening time only."

### "It will be a great help and thank you very much Rishabh."

### "My pleasure."

### "See Rishu, remember one thing."

### "What Rishabh?"

### "Rishu is a good name," Mr. Pintu said to Rishabh.

### "Can I ask you something?" Mr. Pintu asked to Rishabh.

### "Yes sure Mr. Pintu."

### "Was he poor like us?"

### "Yes Mr. Pintu, he is too poor from his fantasies world but a rich by heart."

### "See Mr. Pintu, I treated him just as my friend. I had never asked him about their financial status."

### "You are going to explain about his love life. So please...."

### "Sure Neelon. Let me explain."

### "One day Rishu met me at my College with his tearing face."

### "After that."

### "See Rishu, you are a middle class boy by financially. We middle class boys have lot of desire ness and a dream. We wish to get so many good things."

### "That means?"

### "See, you are now a student and our student life is very difficult. We boys and girls at such ages want to taste so many good and bad things. We never ask ourselves about our fortune and at such ages only a few teenagers tries to know what life is actually and most of the few want to taste what fantasy world is!"

"But brother.........."

"I am supporting you Rishabh." Mr. Pintu said to Rishabh.

"But by me, you have to first make your career. See, do love is a good job. Never hurt your friend. Try to make a sacred relationship. Love can dishearten anyone."

### "Sure Rishabh. I will try my best if god helps me. Once again, thanking you very much."

### "Like other guys never think that you have just a girl friend. You have to think about your family too. Don't acts like a Hero? Be a good human being and adorable. Respect your love and to respect your love you have to love your love. Try to achieve all your dreams. As a good friend, I am always there by your side; likewise you're someone. See Rishu, Me even devoted myself in love. Me too a teenager but I don't know what I am? I don't know what I think! Sometime I think beyond extreme. One day I will die sure."

### "Are you mad Rishabh? Don't say like that."

### "Never be disheartening Rishabh."

### "No Rishu, I am always cool."

### "Me even sometime think about my fortune."

### "Being a poor society boy, our economic barrier is the ultimate barrier. Once you try to cross over it, you can shine your life. I think, I should not suggest anyone."

### "No, brother, I need your suggestion. I don't know what other think about you. Just I can say, I obey you like my parents."

### "So, do what your mind says. But never go with your mind. Listen what you're heart saying."

### "Okay Rishabh."

### "I am very happy to have such an adorable and helping handed brother like you."

### "My pleasure."

### Our conversations were continued even after our lunch.

### And after two months later, Rishu's and Anuska's love life was going happily with their warm feelings and with happy moments.

### "Rishu, can you visit our place at today evening?"

### "Is there any problem?" Rishu asked to Rishabh.

### "Yes, a problem." Rishabh replied.

"Please don't mind Rishu. Actually what happen, my vacation is going to be an end soon? So, I have to go back to join my classes."

### "So what?" Rishu asked to Rishabh.

### "No brother, actually I am saying because you have to face so many troubles."

### "What Problem?"

""Because, you can't use my number any more. So...."

"Actually, it was not a problem at all. Truly speaking, I trouble you. I know it myself," Rishu said to Rishabh.

### "Yes, I can face a trouble. But it's a life. Trouble is everywhere. I told her what I am! And my status."

### "Rishu, I think she will understand it."

### "May my Almighty help you,"Rishabh prayed for him.

### "Rishu, I can manage a cell phone for you."

### "No need brother."

### "Still I am grateful to you. Truly speaking, there is not a single salary paid income holder at our family and with my studies I am doing here a part time job. "

### "Yes Rishu, I am very proud of you. You are doing a good job. There is no way out. You know, at such ages no body will allow you to do a job. You already so sweet and innocent. I had to ask something to God. Don't worry, everything will be all right."

### "But Rishabh, there is nothing beauty in beauties. I just know one thing that beauty is not my quality. It is who, who gifted me."

### "I want to achieve all such good qualities in quantities," Rishu promised himself.

### "Yes brother. God bless. That's a good spirit. Keep it at your mind. "

### "Brother, do you think she will understand my trouble?"

### "Truly speaking, I can't predict anyone. If she a good friend, then she will understand it surely. Be optimistic. "

### "Rishabh, you are not my real brother, but I trust you more. I can share my feelings with you."

### "I think, there is no way to contact her," Rishu told to Rishabh.

### "Don't worry Rishu. There is one way out."

### "Phone is not necessary. Let me think...."

### "Yes brother, do something. I am going very restless."

### "Yes...do one thing."

### "What brother?" Rishu asked to Rishabh.

### "Do you have any concept on Internet?" Rishabh asked to Rishu.

### "Why through internet brother?"

### "So, you don't have any idea. It's all right. Good habit. Actually there are some social networks and email services through which you can share your feelings."

### "Okay Rishabh, I can try."

### "But Rishu do you know, is there any computer at her place?"

### "He he he...she don't have any computer at her place."

### "Oh!"

### "What a problem?" Neelon commented.

### "Don't worry Rishu, there must some solution. God will surely help us."

### "What is the solution? Do you think, there must some way to contact her?" Rishu was asking repeatedly to Rishabh.

### "Yes Rishu."

### "Do you know any her friend? I mean any of her close friends?"

### "Yes brother, I know one of her close friends."

### "Thanks God. Almighty saved him." Mr. Pintu said to Rishabh.

### "What was after that?" Neelon requested to Rishabh.

### "Dear Rishabh, Love itself a very difficult task. It is very difficult to maintain it. Sometime, it is very difficult if you don't have any proper source. Sometime I think, I am very happy alone. I have no such strengths to fight and face any troubles." Mr. Pintu said to Rishabh.

### "Yes, may be some extent." Rishabh replied to Mr. Pintu.

### And after one week.......................

### "Brother, her one friend agreed to help me. I told her everything and about my trouble," Rishu said to Rishabh.

### "Rishu, I want to say you something," Rishabh requested to Rishu.

### "Yes brother."

### "Don't think I am supporting you as your big brother. I even want your success. I even wish that you at least reached at your goal. Try to concentrate on your studies and career. Her family will even support you once you become established and a successful person and even she will support you more," Rishabh replied.

### "Yes Rishabh, you are right saying. I will try my best and it's a promise," Rishu promised.

### Rishu was very tensed about his frustrated love life and the boy agreed to help Rishu, was a very clever and selfish one.

### "Don't take your love as primarily whenever you look at your goal. All are trying to reach their goal and even me trying too. Remember, you are not a single one. Our life is very critical. So, try to face each your moment. Don't be a coward like me and move forward and make other happy. We need you," Rishabh advised to Rishu.

### "You are my world's best brother," Rishu commented.

### "My pleasure."

### "Don't make your love primary. Okay. Love your love more than yourself."

### "But Rishabh, I am very poor."

### "So what?"

### "Who said you a poor. Never think yourself as a poor. You are rich by your heart and by mind and remember you are not the single one who is saying him self as a poor. We all are poor. Do you think, a rich can win the whole world? No doubt, he can win the whole world but he/she never win to stay at people's heart and with their mind. It is very difficult to win over a heart." Rishabh said to Rishu.

### "Okay brother," Rishu replied.

### "Don't have faith on yourself? Are you a fool? " Rishabh asked to Rishu.

### "He he he.....be cool..............he he he." Rishu was smiling.

### "What?" Rishabh asked to Rishu.

### "Brother Rishabh, I feel myself very dishearten whenever I think about my present, a dream of career and my love life. I am going very restless." Rishu replied.

### "Don't think like that. Be strong. Even I think it sometime, but we can't do any things once we dishearten."

### "But brother..."

### "What happened now?" Rishabh asked to Rishu

"Nothing."

### "Oh no! Don't feel shy brother. Let me know what happened?"

### "Yes, I feel shy to explain," Rishu replied.

### "You don't have to explain. I can understand your problem."

### "But how?" Rishu asked again.

### "See Rishu, I even come of a very poor family and I know my limitations."

### "But, I was thinking differently," Rishu replied.

### "What? What differently?"

### "I was thinking about my family."

"Is there anything wrong brother?" Rishabh asked to Rishu.

### "No brother. Nothing wrong and nothing to be worried but.............."

### "What? Let it clear..."

### "I don't know whether my family members support me or not," Rishu said to Rishabh.

### "Support on what brother?" Rishabh asked again to Rishu.

### "Support on our relationship," Rishu replied.

### "Oh! You are very restless."

### "Oh My beloved god! Where are you? Please support your boy and save him. Save him for the sake of his family."

### "Brother, I have a few friends and no one elder brother. Only my parents and a little sweet sister," Rishu explained to Rishabh.

### "Don't worry. God surely help you."

### "How can I share so much such sorrows? No one is there to listen."

### "Don't worry Rishu. I am still alive. You can share it with me."

"See Rishu, if there is no one to listen then share it with our Almighty. He is so kind. He is there to help us. Remember, we are his children. He even loved his own enemies. He will never stop loving you until you try to cross your limitations. But by Almighty, you can try to cross over your all limitations and boundaries for well being of others and for well being of a society."

### "Okay brother."

### "It was well said by you," Mr. Pintu supported Rishabh.

### "Don't think so much about your life. Let it move like a clock. You are so young. You have a lot of time to make your own fortune. Never

### avoid your self. Try to taste the sweetness of your sweet life. For well -being of others, a living entity can do anything. Remember, the needles of a clock never listen your words. It not even stopped working. You should hope for the best," Rishabh replied.

### The couple was happy with their love life. But we cannot trust any one. There was one more face that loved Anuska. Let's see....

### "What happen Rishu? Are you all right?" Rishabh asked to Rishu.

"I am not happy at all. What about you brother?" Rishu replied to Rishabh.

### "Why? What happen again?" Rishabh asked to Rishu.

" Everything was going fine. I approached her father. He came to know about our relationship. Someone disclosed him everything about our affair."

### "But how Rishu?"

" We have exchanged so many love letters. That boy told every thing to her father about our relation, about our love letters and even outside meetings."

### "So cruel."

" But why?"

### "I don't know. He is now out of station. I am sure that he did it. I don't know, why he did such a job."

"Anyway, how is she? Did you meet her any more?" Rishabh asked to Rishu.

### "It is being now not possible to meet her and on the other hand, she already stopped attending her regular classes," Rishu said to Rishabh.

### "Some of her friends told me that he too loves Anuska."

### "So what? Any one can like..........be cool."

### "Really sad for him," Mr. Pintu commented.

### "It is really very difficult to trust a person,"

" But brother, I was innocent."

" I know it brother. You are! Let me think something. Be strong."

### "Do one think? Are you sure Anuska loves or likes that boy?" Rishabh asked again.

### "I don't know. Everything was going well. I met her more than six times and even she was happy with me but suddenly I got her changed attitudes...................."

### "I got confuse on one thing that I did not receive any single letter from Anuska. She always avoided such queries. It is going difficult to predict."

" As I heard from some reliable sources that her friends made some sympathy for me. She did not share such things. She suddenly changed her view. She did not even utter a single word whether she

### Love me or not. She was looking so sad at our last meeting and was advising me to work more and achieve all my dreams. I just puzzled and was thinking about my fortune. Is love a curse? Why people make such relationship? Why we are addicted to love affair?"

### "I already told you not to think so much about her."

### "Where he stays? You should visit his place" Rishabh requested to Rishu to visit.

### "That boy already shifted to another city. He knew her all contact numbers also. I am feeling like remote sensing toys. She played a nice game with me."

### "Come to the truth first." Rishabh said to Rishu.

### "No brother, I am very unlucky. I even called your numbers several times but it was being switched off."

### "Sorry Rishu, I was busy with my semester examination," Rishabh replied.

### "There was no way out to solve my matter. Lastly, I approached her and expressed my feelings"

### "After that."

### "She came to know that I am suffering from a non curable disease."

### "What? What disease? She should ask you. Is she a fool?" Rishabh asked to Rishu.

### "Yes, disease."

### "Tell me brother. What disease?"

### "Oh God!" Neelon was astonished.

### "Sorry brother. I can't tell you."

### "It will hurt you Rishabh. You have to leave me alone. I am going so dishearten. God did not even support me."

### "What was the disease?" Rishabh was lagged behind him.

### "That disease was a cancer."

### "Oh! No!"

### "Are you mad? Don't say like that."

### "Please Rishu, don't cry please....................." Rishabh was praying to Rishu.

### "See brother, everyone is waiting for you. Let me say something. Please listen to me. Please, stop crying brother............"

### Rishabh was praying to Rishu.

" Oh God!" Rishu was praying to the Almighty.

### "Do have you really that disease?" Rishabh asked to Rishu.

### "Where are you going guys? Seat beside me. Let me finish it."

### Rishabh requested to all of us.

### "Okay."

### "There is nothing at my chest. Check it brother. You at least know me very well. I am a fully cured boy. Yes, I have a disease..."

### "What!! What disease Rishu?"

### "A sacred love. Loves which can make me fill and it can fill to cure my all diseases."

### "Rishabh, everything was a lie. A huge lie. A big game was going around me."

### "Yes a lie."

### "God will punish him one day. Don't be sad," Rishabh said to Rishu.

### "Leave it brother. It was my one mistake. I tried to taste a real love. My job was very difficult. Help me my brother! I want to leave this place soon and I want to destroy myself."

### "Rishu, I say don't be mad."

### "I don't want any judgment from god."

### I was sad for Rishu. No words remain. In this short interval, one thing I have learnt that poor like us have no right to make such relationship. Others always dominate we poor. We can just lay down ourselves in front of high profile societies. But, we have a very strong heart. Money is not every thing. We are very simple and tied lips. She should ask him about the reality. I did not want to explain anything. I was shocked about her activities.

### Rishu had a good writing ability.

" Oh Almighty! What you did?

### It was beyond of my dream.

### I saw one banyan tree at a distant

### It was so wide and silent.

### Looking so innocent.

### Was feeling very so restless

### And wanted to fly here and there.

### I asked her what she desires.

### Wanted to move like others.

### It was difficult to move alone.

### I tried to close my eyes and it already silent.

### You were looking so beautiful there at your place.

### Don't try to move alone

### You will lose your identity.

### You are good enough alone

### By giving your shadow at least.

### We need you; we are vacant without you,

### Still I am moving alone,

### I am by your arm.

### You are the symbol of peace.

### You never argue with others,

### We are very cruel, we can destroy you.

### You are very pure.

### Don't go anywhere,

### Keep standing.

### You will suffer a problem,

### Please don't leave your place, please don't.

### "Brother doesn't be upset. Everything will be all right," Rishabh said to Rishu.

### "But brother, I am not feeling alone with you, but my life is going very alone without my love and without my soul mate."

### "You are not alone. I am with you always."

### "Leave it Rishu. Do you have any her contact number?" Rishabh asked to Rishu.

### "Her number is out of reached. I tried to make one call." Rishabh replied.

### "Listen it carefully. Do your work properly. Try to score good marks and come with me."

### "Where Rishabh?"

### "Delhi."

### "But it is difficult to do any more further courses. You can understand my condition."

### "I can understand brother, that's why I am saying to you. Leave the place as soon as you can. It will pain you brother," Rishabh suggested to Rishu.

### "But, three years later, he got a good job in Delhi. Salary was very satisfactory. His manager was impressed on his simplicity nature and was being very punctual. And the manager was a very kind hearted man. It was going difficult to him to stay alone with me in a single bedded room. And it was going very difficult to stay with one roommate. Rishu had so many objections, but a few months back, his manager arranged one room for Rishu and he started living there.

### His Manager had one single daughter. Rishu usually helped her at her studies. They had a child relationship. No one ever asked Rishu about his past life. Life was going well. He did so many courses on computer and on management, besides his studies. He was going far away from his family and a year later, he decided to leave that job."

### "So, did he leave that job?" Neelon asked to Rishabh.

### "No."

### "Then."

### "His Manager treated Rishu like his grand son."

### "A good fellow. Rishu was very lucky," Mr. Pintu said to Rishabh.

### "Yes, you are right. Now a days, it is very difficult to get such a good person," Rohit supported Mr. Pintu.

### That Manager offered Rishu to bring his parents at their place.

### But Rishu opposed him.

### "I am already a burden on you and on the other hand you are going to add more other burdens. As their loving son, I can look after them. I have a faith on myself," Rishu said to his Manager.

### "See Rishu, I already accepted you as my grand son. My parents expired fifteen years ago. They have to stay at my place once they alive," His Manager replied.

### "Don't worry Rishu, we will respect your parents and main thing is that my daughter will get one more a grand mother and a grand father."

### At last, Rishu agreed to bring his parents there.

### "See, my daughter did not even see her real grand father and her grand mother's face. I mean my mom and dad. She even lost her mother."

### And after that Rishu's family started living at that place. The whole converted to five member's family. The Manager's daughter was little bit happy after getting a good grand parent. His life was fine there and suddenly many doors had opened.

### "How?" Mr. Pintu asked to Rishabh.

### "He fell in love with a Delhi based Indian Girl. But, he did not forget his past life. Her name was Shruti, a pretty girl. Shruti was a software engineer."

### "A beautiful name," Mr. Pintu commented.

### "Brother Rishu, whom you like most," Tani asked to Rishu.

### "Rishabh, who was Tani? A good name," Mr. Pintu asked to Rishabh.

### "She was his new sister. That Manager's daughter."

### "Yes sister, my parents," Rishu replied to Tani.

### "Good," Tani replied.

### "But why not your Manager?" Tani was kidding.

### "What are you asking sister? You should not say like that," Rishu replied.

### "Sorry brother."

### "You should not ask like that," Rishu requested to Tani.

### "See Tani, your dad gave us all the three need of a human beings. I obey and respect your father and ever grateful to him. But I like my parents' lot for whom I am here, in front of you, my alive god and goddess."

### "Please don't mind brother. I am sorry again."

### "God bless."

### "So what happen next?" Neelon asked to Rishabh.

### "Rishu was a very lucky fellow. God does what is good for us and it was implemented to Rishu," Rishabh told me.

### "Both of Rishu's and shruti's family met each other and they liked the couple."

### "It was good for him," Mr. Pintu complimented.

###   
Just fifteen days before their weeding..............................

The couple was busy with their shopping at a shopping mall and was an incident inside the mall...

### "Shruti, you know what girl?" Rishu asked to Shruti.

### "Who?"

### "That white T-shirt one."

### "But Rishu, I don't know her. May be she knowing you."

### "I didn't remember. But, she is watching me for along time."

### "But, who is she?" Shruti was becoming very anxious.

### "Dear, I saw her somewhere and trying to remembering where I saw her last."

### "Can I help you Rishu?" Shruti asked to Rishu.

### "Dear, I am your life partner. Don't be so formal. So, you don't have to ask anything and being a life partner you are always permitted. Two hearts with a single soul. You are always in me and I am within you. Is it ok?"

### "Yes darling, me very happy to have such an understanding and an adorable life partner," Shruti replied.

### "We can make a good home."

### "See Shruti, she is still watching us.""

### "Let me watch her properly," Shruti told to Rishu and Rishu was watching her activities, standing near at the cash counter.

### Shruti took a risk and at last approached.

### "Excuse me!"

### "Yes."

### "I saw you somewhere?" Shruti asked to that girl. That was a big lie.

### "He he he...very clever," Neelon commented.

### "Sorry, but I don't know you," that girl replied.

### "Sorry."

### "Okay then look at that boy who is standing near the cash counter, wearing blue trouser and green T-shirt."

### "But why are you asking such question?" That girl asked to Shruti.

### "Don't mind. Actually he is a very shy one. As his good friend, I had to ask you and he is saying that he saw you somewhere and was asking about you."

### "Sorry for inconvenience," Shruti had an apology.

### "It's okay."

### "Truly speaking, your query was right. I know him very well. We are from the same School and same College and even, he know me well. But, my physical look completely changed after my graduation."

### "Hmm..."

### "So, do you know him?"

### "His name is Rishu. Am I right?" that girl asked to Shruti.

### "Yes you are!"

### "So, you know him very well."

### "Yes."

### "Let's come to know each other," Shruti requested. That girl even agreed.

### "Hi Rishu," Shruti at her mild voice.

### "She is saying that she know you."

### "Sorry, I don't remember."

### "Me Anuska, Remember?"

### He was being so confused and his blood pressure is being rising.

### "Yes," Rishu with a mild voice.

### "Are you all right now? Did it cure now?"

### "Hey you! What are you asking?" Shruti on her bulging eyes.

### "Nothing Shruti," Rishu told to him.

### "What she is asking then?"

### "Let you know later. Okay," Rishu replied to Shruti.

### "Okay but..............." Shruti replied.

" Can I ask you something?" Anuska asked to Rishu.

### "Yes sure."

### "But it's personal," Anuska requested.

### Shruti was being very angry and at a distant but at the same place,

### Anuska was asking about....

### "Rishu, still you like me."

### "Sorry Anuska, I am a cancer patient. Even she have too that disease. We are going to marry soon. Better you search a healthy and wealthy life partner. You are a good girl. Remember one thing that you should not take any promises when you are in joys. I wish you a good life ahead and a good partner too."

### And on the other hand Shruti was being exciting to listen their conversations and ultimately she interrupted the conversations...

" Rishu, we are going very late."

### In front of Shruti Rishu had a chance to burst himself....

### "See Anuska, we both are a cancer patient and we were expired a few years ago and we are now just a devil soul. So, don't think about me and never think about us. We are not a living entity but we want to fulfill our last wishes. We are going to marry soon and you are always invited to our place. May Almighty bless you? "

### That was his last conversation with Anuska and he was happy with a few words with Anuska and then the couple backs to their own place. Rishu told everything truly to Shruti about his past love. Shruti did not argue anything and after that they married and now they are enjoying their lives with their new born baby...

#  PART SIX

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###### PART # SIX

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###### They had often some trips during their holidays. During Christmas session they had a trip to Kolkata. I did not visit there earlier. I often

### Bored myself with them. I didn't comment on anything, but all of them were very funny and helpful. They loved me very much.

### Our tour was by a train. That single compartment was fully occupied by we five members. During our lunchtime, Rishabh suddenly very emotional. My head was on his shoulder. He was wiping my wetted hairs with an incident. That was a good lesson of a life but that was a half spoken conversation. Let's see........................

"You know Neelon; still I am confused about my future. Sometime it ruins me badly," Rishabh said to Neelon.

### "You are always emotional," Neelon replied.

### "Trust me; my life is a pre-written script. I am praising myself, but I don't know how my sixth sense works on me," Rishabh replied.

### "I had no plan to study an engineering course. Like you, we had a very few libraries at our native town and text books was not being so helpful to study but it was just good enough to clear our concepts."

### "You know one thing?" Neelon asked to Rishah.

### "What Neelon?"

### "Leave it. I don't want to explain," Neelon replied.

### "Besides me, I had some room mates. We had a big room. We had a good mutual understanding, but that new city was troubling me. I frustrated to understand about a new language. I had a very few friends circle in that college. There I talked only a single girl, Prerna," Rishabh on his explanation.

### "Oh no! One more love story," Neelon smiled.

"We were staying at a big size room and enjoying our studies at full extent and one day, prerna wanted to visit our room with her friends and we had not a single furniture besides our books. We had just three mattresses on the floor."

### "Why?" Mr. Pintu asked to Rishabh.

### "We rented that room just for our coaching classes."

### "Oh!"

### "Did she visit yours place?" Mr. Pintu asked to Rishabh.

### "Yes."

### "We had no single friend in that city. She came with her two friends. I did not explain her about our exact place and was waiting for her. Room was totally haphazard and on the other hand, I was being suffering from cough and cold. She was standing in front of our place near about half an hour."

### "You very cruel? After that," Mr. Pintu commented.

### "My all room mates were in a sound sleep. I didn't want to disturb them and was looking at her behind the curtain and feeling very helpless and was asking myself why I am so much shy."

### "But, it was too late and after that they back to their own places."

### "It was so sad. What type of boy you are! Shame on you," Neelon commented.

" But..............."

### "And next day I mentioned not a single word as if I did not see her that day before but she was as usual but I felt very shame."

### "Our studies were going well. Still I remembered that night, when we did not take a single piece of rice. There was not a single droplet of Kerosene oil at our place and in the next day morning, we become very hungry. All shops were being closed due to strike. We did not sufficient money at our hands. We had no such an amount to buy a railway ticked even. But, we took a risk and traveled without a ticket

### and our luck was being good. We had a four hours travel for our lunch. My other friends had a visit to our native town and we did not disclose anything to our any family members. We had just five more days to examination. Except me, none of them selected to any engineering colleges."

### "Yes Rishabh, student life is very tough," Neelon commented.

### "So Neelon, did she get any seat?" Neelon asked to Rishabh.

### "Yes, she was selected."

### "Hmm..." A crazy love."

### "But Neelon, my beginning at my college was being tough,"

### "How?"

### "I was being staying at a private hostel. A boring life was there. There was not a single friend of mine. All were new to me. I had lost all my books and even my cloths just before three days of my first semester exam. I had just saved my one vest and a trouser along with my purse," Rishabh replied.

### "How?"

### "That was due to one devastating fire. I lost my a year studies but our Principal sir allowed me for the second semester classes."

### "So sad...."

### "There I met one boy named as Leonardo. As a boy, he was very hard working and was being a student of engineering at the same college."

### How Rishabh introduced himself to Leonardo?

### "Hi Leonardo, how are you?"

### "Yea, I am fine."

### Rishabh had a conversation at their college canteen...

"Brother, I saw you along with our batch mates. I have noticed that you are the coolest one," Rishabh asked to Leonardo.

### "Me! Not at all."

### "But, one thing I can say you that you are a shy too," Leonardo told to Rishabh.

### "Yes, I am agreeing but I am not like you. I am a little bit smart."

" Did you ever talk to any girl?" Rishabh asked to Leonardo.

### "It is not my attitude and for your kind information, I don't know what is attitude and I dislike my attitudes. I am a simple village boy." Leonardo became angry during their first introduction.

### "See Rishabh, I am here just to complete my degree firstly. I have no big expectation. Just expecting a good result to do my further research. I don't want to misuse my time with any girls."

### "What type of research?" Rishabh asked to Leonardo.

### "It was my one childhood dream to me a good mechanical engineer."

### "It is a cool branch," Rishabh appreciated.

### "Yes, you are!" Leonardo agreed.

### "That's a good spirit. May god bless you brother." Rishabh supported Leonardo.

" I never wanted to be a topper but I wanted to keep myself on above those toppers," Leonardo replied.

### "But Rishabh, I am not a shy one, but my dream making me shy and with tough phases."

### "I come from a very small town and here I am not comparing myself with any city guys. You can't trust any one. I am not using a cell phone. I have a least demand. My status is very poor here and have a very few expectations. I don't know how I can achieve those expectations. So, never say me shy," Leonardo, requested to Rishabh.

### "You misunderstanding me brother," Rishabh replied.

### "See Rishabh, I am always a shy one because I know my all limitations. Yes, I am not at all cheering like you all."

" Leonardo, you are so boring."

" See, I am not an aged person," Leonardo replied.

" I know you are not an aged person. You are a growing younger and can cheer at least," Rishabh said to Leonardo.

### "Yes, I can cheer sometime."

" I locked my arms and my legs. I was very cheering one at my childhood. See, Rishabh, a burden free life is good and everyone expect it but such expectation is beyond of my expectation and now being out of my comprehension," Leonardo told to Rishabh.

### "Well said by Leonardo," Mr. Pintu commented.

" Yes Mr. Pintu, you are right enough. Actually now a day, our teenagers expect a materialistic life. Expectation is good but too much expectation can harm our normal life. It make our life very materialistic and with such an expectation, we forget to save many more things and we forget to save world's most powerful word, Reality and day by day, with such growing materials, we destroy a beautiful smile and a peace and we become worthless about our demanding life," Rishabh said to Mr. Pintu.

### "Yes Rishabh," Neelon supported.

### "Do you think our parents are destroying our normal lives?" Rishabh asked to Neelon.

" Yes, it may be at some extent. Every parent tries to give the best care to his or her children. I think, they should hide their kindness under the beneath of their kindness. Sometime, their children misuse a care and drop by drop it become an ocean and our parents even try to save us and they try not to make an ocean. It is not possible when some one crossed a distant and it hurt our parents and it lasted for a long time and be erased easily."

### "Dear Rishabh, where is Leonardo now? Do you have any more contact with him?"

" No big brother. I don't know about his new location. He e-mail me sometime and he did not disclose his new location but truly speaking, now I am very happy with you all," Rishabh said to Mr. Pintu.

### "Yes, you are right. Me too happy with you all beautiful guys."

### "Dears, we can do some good job to save our nation and our society and especially our growing youths. Our youths are the pillar of our nation and I want to leave a message through worldwide. It is being our one duty to save our youths. Don't let them motivate by any bad shadows. If our youths work under a bad shadow then we can't save our society and our nation. We will lose all our peace and harmony. We should maintain the spirit as our predecessor maintained. I salute our predecessors. I salute our great heroes. Not only our national hero but also worldwide. A big salutation to all of them. That time, we were being under developed but they struggled more and more to save their own nation. So, we have to struggle more and more to save our nations, to save our beautiful cosmos and all living beings. Let us try and let us try to save our motherland. It will become very easy if we go through modern and developed technology. We can now deliver a message within a fraction of second but it was being difficult in past. We don't have to lose our enthusiasm," Rishabh requested to us to co-operate.

### "It is a good thinking to save our nation and to develop a better society. We must deliver such messages worldwide through our scripts. We are still working under by his guidance," Mr. Pintu was saying to Rishabh and me.

### "We must work on it," Neelon was agreed.

" Firstly, we have to save our teenagers and we must teach them, how to move safely with all fantasies world," Mr. Pintu told Rishabh.

### "Yes Mr. Pintu, you are right. They are still destroying their peaceful life. They are working under some devil fantasies. We can consider a pollution free and a green nation once we can stop all non violence's and save our teenagers." Neelon had a suggestion.

### "But Mr. Pintu, who will help us?" Neelon asked.

### "We have to make such one society worldwide which will work for our youths and teenagers. We can send our requests to our union Ministers and Industrialists." Mr. Pintu agreed to help them all.

### "It will be the best way to understand our youths and teenagers. We can at least help our teenagers by sending such good advices. It not only helps our national youths but our international youths also," Neelon said.

### "Yes, we can do it. I am supporting you all," Rohit had a comment.

### "We have to help each others," Mr. Pintu requested.

### "Our thinking is good and we have to make a good understanding among us. Still I am confused, I don't know whether anyone will support us or not. Our concept was good. I know it very well that some of our friends will dislike it, but we have to move on. "

### "Yes brother, you are going to the right way. Everyone expect something rather than to rebuild a developed a good nation. We have least friends, they may be good or bad, we don't have to stop and we have to make an universal brotherhood through worldwide to remove and destroy all violence's, " Mr. Pintu requested one more time.

### "Our United States of America is too much advanced and developed." Neelon had a comment.

### "It's certain because Americans are very practical. It's a great work to save our nation and it's a good frame to be one national pride."

### "But Mr. Pintu, I don't know how our teenagers motivated by such blue waves, why they don't try to maintain their ideology?" Rishabh said.

### "It is unsolvable," Neelon commented.

### "Yes Neelon, you are right. From beggars to rich people, childish to old age, everyone can be motivated. All such blue waves erected as an illusion and by such activities we lose our all roots of peace and harmony. It gives us pain only and we are going to maintain a bad spirit. We think that we have a power to survive our own life along with all fantasies, but it is certainly not. And one day, we lose everything... we lose our family and society. It makes us very hungry, but it lasts for an interval."

### ********************

### One day, we had one more visit in Gangtok. It was a very cool and cold place. I had a sound sleep and I didn't remember what they discussed about our youths and teenagers and in the same evening..............

### "Rishabh, I am feeling very bore," Neelon said.

### "You are too boring by your self," Rishabh replied.

### "He he he...don't talk to me" Neelon smiled.

### "Not expected. Okay," Neelon replied.

### "Sorry Neelon," Rishabh apologized.

### "Okay Neelon. Let me tell you a poem."

### "Wow! Wow!"

### I was under by a shadow.

### And was looking very restless.

### A feminine voice which

### Enhances my heartbeats.

### I was searching that one

### Here and there.

### And was moving

### And they're restlessly.

### And was following that.

### That feminine voice was

### Asking for a help,

### And me puzzled.

### Her queries puzzled me,

### To move and leave that place

### And was looking her activity.

### "Was it a real fact?" Mr. Pintu asked to Rishabh.

### "Yes. Trust me, it was real. I didn't know who she actually was!!"

### "That voice was very common and I had an experience over it, my school days experience," Rishabh said to Mr. Pintu.

### "What?" Mr. Pintu asked.

### "Yes, it's true," Rishabh, replied.

### "Okay Rishabh, do have you any faith on such devil souls?" Neelon asked.

### "Yes, I can say you from my own experience that devil soul still exists. A devil is always a devil. Still they working and they work on devil works. A devil is always a devil whether it is a dead entity or a living one"

### "May be. I don't have such an experience," Neelon replied.

### "Trust me, I realized it and realized a devil soul during my school days. I saw such one devil soul three more times in a week. It was always hidden. I tried to saw his/ her complete appearance but that one wearing white cloths only and it was as white as snow. That image had a query. I did not explain it to any one. It was comfort near our entrance. I observed that during winter only. He/ she did not even disturb me ever. That one was very restless and looking very decent and it was very much ideal as if it was protecting and watching me by his / her restless steps."

### "I don't have much more experience on that. But one thing I can say that I afraid such devils," Mr. Pintu said to Rishabh.

### "I realized such devil souls several times and it was too horrible to see," Rishabh replied to Mr. Pintu.

" I realized it during winter only. At around 9to 9.30pm, after our tuition classes. Still I asking myself whether that was a male or a female but it was a dead soul. I had an experiment on it and it was in the evening time only, when I realized about the existence of such devil souls. I felt his/her presence and was alone in the room. I was preparing my daily class notes and all the doors were being closed. I heard a human walking sound all over the rooms. That day was a winter and everyone surrounded me were becoming deserted. I observed someone's presence at our place. I checked all the rooms properly and becoming very scared. I thought, it might be one of my

### family members, who is walking alone inside the room, but I did not notice whether all those doors were being locked or not and finally, I have decided to check all those doors. All those doors were being closed from inside and I had a full bucket of water at my right hand and suddenly it fell from my hand and scattered all over the room. My heartbeats stopped working."

### "It was so horrible. What happened next?" Neelon asked to Rishabh.

" I saw a deserted land outside of our place. I was fully scared to stay alone inside the room and there was no way out to wait out side our cottage. There I expected someone to whom I can at least explain about the matter."

### "Did you get there anyone?" Neelon asked again.

### "Don't say Neelon, no one was there and no one come? I knocked some doors and all are being closed. I had no way to leave the place and I ran towards my grandpa's place and I got there all our family members. That incident happened, when my grandpa expired. That night, I did not asleep properly with my elder brother. I told him about that incident but he had no importance about me. But during that same night, that sound was ringing repeatedly at my ears and there was someone who was calling from outside of our place and was asking for a help."

### "So, was there any sound in any other days?" Mr. Pintu asked to Rishabh.

""No, because after the funeral all our family members back to our place. So, I did not feel myself alone, but it troubled me lot during at night. That day, I realized a devil, a devil that was very close and horrible. But by me, there is no devil. They can't harm you if you are good. They afraid we human beings. We human beings can easily harm any one and we can do anything."

### That was about our Gangtok tour.

### I was bounded under pressure and by inner voice I had to hide my hobby and myself. There was a reality behind all those conversations. It was all about our human thinking. I am very young and immature in front of you. It was my dream to make our own nation a polluted and violence free.

### Although, we human beings have some burdens. We all have different opinions about our lives. Some are very realistic and struggling to get the purity of a life, some are materialistic and moving with fantasies and some are very usual, having a little expectation and some are live for themselves only. In spite of common origin, common sense of humor and common anatomical activities, we move with other's ideology. We try to be very unique, we try to be the best and we try to rule over others. Money and money, it fully scattered. We are going to forget the common source of origin. Money can do anything. It's power changing our life styles and even attitudes and we are becoming very demanding. We are always under gravity and it enhances our normal lives. A life, which is going to be vacant. We are forgetting others and concentrating ourselves only. Are we maintaining a good job? It is my questions to all of you people. Can we save others? Can we save our nation? Aren't we destroying our innocence lives?

Sometime, some justice fails in front of money. I am not blaming a judge and their real justice. My judge is my common people. Justice has its own virtues and it has no faults. There are so many molestation with our common people. A poor servant is being torture by food. We had no judge and there was not being a judgment, when I was troubling by our societies and by our relatives and neighbors. Do you think poverty is curse by itself? Justice should like our mothers. No mothers in this cosmos ever differentiate her care and love. They have the capability to balance their care. We should stop such injustice by our societies. We should adore all justices. Justice has a supreme power to teach us at least about our all-future footsteps and about our all mistakes. Here I have considered my society where judgment is not being doing properly. Yes, judge has a duty to judge on some devil works, but why judge will decide. We ourselves judge properly to save us and to protect others. No one is motivating, we ourselves motivated. Even a devil may some causes to devote themselves on some devil works. Not always for money, may be other reasons.

### We forget everything, when we get a power then we start working under those same bad shadows. Such blue and bad shadows destroying our normal lives and a nation. Never allow yourself in it, for your cloth, food and shelter. Remember, we all are human beings; we can do a god job. We can feed others and ourselves. Never be disheartened. You cannot realize it until it bites you. We have to prevent them and no one is there to prevent you. You yourself have to prevent from it. It is a message to all my elders, friends and my loving brothers and sisters. It is very difficult to begin such a holy work, but you can try. I am requesting to all of you guys that never be dishearten. You can do a good job. Try for it and save your origin and save your nation.

### How long you keep yourself upset? How long you keep yourself dishearten? Chewing of Chewing gum is sweet to taste but a bit later, it become bitter in taste. Never stretches your sorrows. It can pain you and become a shadow along with your all shadows. Try to live in reality and be practical. It is little bit bitter in taste and it is good ahead. Try to save your all tears and try to save it to get a comfort able life ahead.

### Never show your strengths to any worthless things. A good health is good for us. So, never indulge your strength. Awake that ideal soul which is working inside your self. So that you can at least work properly. Remember, you are not only the single one who is struggling but we are on the same track. Try to devote yourself on some good works.

### Try to understand, what is good for us and what is good for you and try to realize what is good for your societies. Don't think for yourself only.

### We are in trouble. Every nation has its own trouble. We are already late. Somewhere sometime, we are responsible for some burdens. We must solve our own burdens. All our higher officials can solve some our burdens and even our spiritual power can solve those burdens. But, why those higher officials, why our supreme power, why not you and me. We have that capability and let us do that work to make a good society and a good nation.

### ******************

### It seemed I was on the floated leaves,

### Hoped to touch and pull you back.

### It was too wide.

### All tiny droplets was moving along

### The stream was reflecting on me.

### I was feeling so fresh with it

### And hoped to stand on the droplets.

### It was looking vacant from outside.

### It seemed she was empty like me.

### She wanted too fill her empty spaces,

### But that was going very restless

### To keep she stable on it.

### She tried more and more

### My illusion was beyond expectation.

### All musical nodes indicating

### Her presence.

### She was on the edge of my goal

### And opened all my doors.

### She wanted to fill herself

### By everyone's sorrows.

### She was covered her face,

### Was looking very alone.

### She tied my hands with burdens.

### I was on the fire, she agreed to

### stand by my side.

### I forced her to back at her place.

### She was safe and she filled me;

### She makes me, my smile.

### She makes me, my style.

### You are in my soul and

### Your soul is alive.

### You are in me,

### You can fill me.

### I miss you every time.

### I am still alive,

### That was for you.

### No one can shine on our expectation,

### It helps us to shine and glow only.

#  PART SEVEN

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##### PART # SEVEN

### My single bedded room was being too small. They had often a visit at my room. That day, an earthquake occurred. We had a joint breakfast at my small room. I was writing a story, when they knocked my door but that door was partially locked. I tried to hide my all papers and by coincidence, I had to explain the whole story. I did not agree, but sometime we have to accept something.

### My friend 'Neeloy', we had our first introduction at our 'Surveying' practical. He was my classmate. There was a similarity between Rishabh and Neeloy. I am not going to introduce myself. May be later, if God help me to explain. Take a look at my College and office working hours..............

### That time was a mid day; I was reading a newspaper, leaning against a wall. I heard someone was knocking my door repeatedly. It was Neeloy, with a branch of roses.

### "What is this brother?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "Nothing brother. That is for you only," Neeloy replied.

### "Me! But why, I am not a girl," I had some fun.

### "I have learnt a good lesson. So.................." Neeloy replied soundly

" What you have learnt?" I asked with my funny teeth.

### "Nothing. It was for your intuition," Neeloy replied.

### "Intuition! How?" I astonished.

### "Your intuition has worked. I realized it very well."

### "No Neeloy. Actually, we sometime listen what our mind says but not our heart. In most of the cases, we don't want to be practical. Once you look your own troubles physically and very practically then you get your all answers but we never try for it and never listen our heart. We never are practical and all our faiths become fake. We think the path where we are going is the best."

### But Neeloy was looking so unhappy with his wedding face. I noticed it during our office hours.

### "What happen Neeloy?"

" I am very much disheartened. I want to escape from this place."

### "Escape from where?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "I want to escape from my soul and from this land," Neeloy replied.

### "Are you mad?" I asked to Neeloy.

" I am going to lose my love and my heart. It is not being so easy to lose someone. I love her very much," Neeloy replied.

### "You don't need to forget someone and don't need to escape. We need you and you have to rectify your all mistakes. We lose so many things in our first attempts and even our someone dearest and a good soul," I suggested to Neeloy.

### "Our hero is a good advisor." Mr. Pintu commented

### "That's why; I am giving all those roses to you. You were correct and by me, you are the real owner of those roses. You are a very realistic fellow by yourself and your determination is strong. You even lost your love, but it lasted for many more years than me. But, you are still strong and still doing well. Its how brother? Let me know," Neeloy asked to me."

### "How?"

### "Okay then let me explain," I replied.

### "See Neeloy, besides love we have many more things to live and joys and by me, love with a girl is too boring, simply a boring word. Still I love her, how can I forget to care thyself."

### "Yes, you are right brother." Neelon commented.

### "But why you saying such things?" Neeloy asked to me.

### "See, love has a good meaning. The whole universe and we all living beings are working under love and by love it is working but sometime, it pain us, we suffer, we cry and become very thirsty and

### you cannot imagine what I realized, what love is and what its affections."

### "Brother, you are a good orator." Rishabh commented.

### "No Rishabh, I am not an orator."

### He was on fire, anger, a pain, and a lost, lost an own soul and was becoming very adamant.

### "Why don't you understand? I am not mad. I made for someone."

### "What happen Neeloy? Did your love break?"

### "Please brother, don't ask me anything and please leave me alone."

### "No, it's not possible. I can't leave you alone. See Neeloy, I am neither your someone nor your own brother. I will stand by your side to save and protect you and will stay for the sake of our friendship. I can understand a pain."

### "Why are you doing so? Why don't you leave me alone? Do your own work. You have a live ahead," Neeloy requested me by several ways to leave him alone.

### "I am here to save a son and a friend of mine and a reformer."

### "Yes, I know, you are good. Please do your own task."

### During that incident, it was being tough to me to stand by his side. I had my bad days and on the other hand, my examination had already started. I was praying to Lord Jesus to do a miracle. I was alone at that place and unable to touch that 'Engineering Mechanics'

### Books during gap days. I had already lost two days to protect his life and he was adamant to suicide. My two city friends helped me to protect Neeloy.

### It was in the evening, at around 8.15 p.m. I was outside of my room for a moment to relax my brain and myself, whereas my brain was not working properly. I had just 12hrs at my hand to prepare and on my way to room, I met my one friend and he was also a student (my senior) of mechanical engineering. I explained a few lines about that incident and he agreed to give a book on Engineering Mechanics. It was around 9.30 p.m. I was thinking about my preparation. I was praying to god to give me at least a pass marks. I had a clear concept on that subject as I attended all the classes and lastly I had to adjust one more bed for Neeloy. Yes, I become selfish for the sake of my family, even they had an expectation but I tried my best.

### "Hi brother, is everything all right now?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "Miracle." Rishabh commented.

### "Yes." by his smiles teeth.

### "Good boy," I relaxed.

### "Neeloy, now let me know what was happened?" I asked to Neeloy,

### But he did not explain anything and on the other hand, I had to explain more words to them.

### "I usually afraid girls. I mean, I am very shy to any girls."

### "But dears, most of the boys are firstly shy to talk, but dears they are very simple by heart," I said it to my city friends and Neeloy was seated beside me.

### "May be they are simple but our way of thinking is different. We think differently," Neeloy explained.

### "Well said." Neelon commented.

### "Yes, you are," I replied.

### My working hours with Neeloy.................

### He was being my one colleague at the same office..................

### "Brother, do you have any idea................." Neeloy asked to me.

### "Idea on what?"

### "About love..............."

### "Hmmm.........."

### "I am not so much experienced but a little bit experience on that."

### "What was her name?" I asked directly.

### "Oh yes! Her name is Pratiksha," Neeloy replied.

### "Love is everywhere." Mr. Pintu commented.

### "A good name," I complimented.

### "Do you know its meaning?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "Yes," Neeloy replied.

### "It means 'wait' and that's why, still I am waiting for my love and waiting to fulfill my dream."

### "Yes, absolutely."

### "You don't know brother. I am waiting for a longer time. I have lost all my strengths. I am feeling myself very alone without her, a life which is going far too realized."

### "Remember Neeloy, the greatest people have stood alone. You are not alone. Every minute objects inside our bodies and surrounding world still working. The Sun even not forgets to scatter its rays. Remember, the Sun is even independent. Don't think so much. There must some way."

### "Yes brother, self help is the best help." Mr. Pintu commented again.

### He was just on fire. I tried my best. It is very common and it can happen to anyone. Some can tolerate and some are not. It is our determination. We have to make ourselves mentally strong. It is very simple to say and difficult to done. We human beings are very soft hearted. We are never tough. Everything changes with time but I think, we should not change everything with time and truly speaking we can't change everything with time. It's true. Firstly, we should not change ourselves, we can change a life but we can't change its life period, which is already fixed. We can change a life but we can't a desire, a desire to feed, a desire to live, and a life from sorrows, a cold to hot, a life without a soul and a life with ours.

### It gives us pain only, a pain, which lasts for a longer time, a pain, which you can't erase, and a pain that you can't change. You can't change which already changed.

Love at a party.......................

"I saw her at a marriage party. She was sitting beside the bride and was looking so pretty with her green sari."

### "Wow! A very romantic moment it was!" I was smiling.

### "All my friends were there at the party. We were from the groom side. They were busy with their marriage schedule and scattered here and there, but she was seated in a gathered room with her beautiful looks and smile and was covered by invitees."

### "So, did she talk to you?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "How? Are you mad? I never saw her earlier and moreover that place was completely new and each one was unknown."

### "So, how you approached yourself?"

### "Oh no! You are becoming very restless. Let me finish my words. It will take time. I am bursting myself."

### "Okay."

### "I am cool. You can proceed.............."

### "A hide and seek moment was going on. She seated there for a longer time. Everyone was looking at her. It made me jealous. I had a wish to enter the room but there were so many girls and even my sister was present there."

### "After that..."

### "I waited near about three hours and was praying to god to see her outside the room."

### "So, you were crazy?" Rishabh commented.

### "Yes Rishabh, a bit crazy." I replied.

### "So..."

### "And at last, I saw her outside that room with a young boy like me."

### "Oh no!"

### "But, I was happy at least. I was searching my friends but they had

### Their refreshment with cold drinks and with more Indian sweets and for a fraction of second, I felt myself very aloof and felt myself filled."

### "Neeloy, you are very interesting."

" Three hours seemed like a second."

### "But with someone only................"

### "He he......."

### "Yes Neeloy, you are right. It happens when our heart become energetic. It happens, when a girl is beside by you and tied your hands."

### "Energetic!! A new word." Mr. Pintu smiled.

### "Yes brother, you are right. I have noticed it earlier," Neeloy agreed.

### "Can I ask you something?" Neeloy requested.

" Yes Neeloy."

" You have much more concept, it's how?"

### "Trust me Neeloy; I have no more idea on that but can say that I feel very shy whenever I talk to a girl through my cell phone."

### "So you already have someone?" He questioned.

### "No Neeloy."

### "See Neeloy, I have a very few friends here and most of them are shy like me although all are boys. He he...."

### "Leave me Neeloy, say about that night."

### "So, Neeloy, did you get any source?"

### "Not a single source was there and was very upset for that."

### "Oh no!"

### "I saw her one more time with that boy."

### "Oh jealousy!!!"

### "Not at all. But it was looking so odd."

### "Why odd?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "Not so odd. But, that boy was leaned against her. That boy was very thin like a skeleton."

### "It's a jealousy." Neelon commented.

### "Neeloy, it was very funny at all."

### "But, it was my bad days; I seated there almost four hours and on the other hand a little bit bored alone on that same chair."

### "Neeloy, that was your desire ness and may be you become very excited,'' I commented.

### "Yes brother, a little bit excited and become very crazy but was an unlucky one," Neeloy replied.

### "Why Unlucky?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "I don't know brother. I can't explain it. May be later. You don't know anything about my past." I was little bit anxious to know about his past life.

### "Dear Neeloy, why are saying like that. Don't say you are unlucky. You are lucky to your family."

### "See brother, you don't know anything about me. I am not lucky at all. How I am lucky? You are saying because I am cheering, I have a pain, two dark holes and no one can fill it. A pain, which already dug myself."

### "But...you are still alive and you can win your battles," I tried my best to know about his past life.

### "But, I can't say whether I am lucky or not, but my friends were teasing when I was on that same chair alone for a longer time. I had to reply many more questions."

### "What happen Neeloy? Are you all right? Did anyone disappoint you?" his friends were asking to Neeloy.

### "Nothing dears, I am happy here alone."

### "We were searching you but you are still at the same seat. You should move with ourselves"

### "Yes, but I am very tired now and not feeling well. So." Neeloy told them a lie.

### "Did you follow someone?" One of his friends asked.

### "Not at all dear."

### "No... you are not!"

### "Trust me, I don't know anyone here," Neeloy replied.

### "How can I say?

### "May be someone, but you can at least enjoy the party, share a moment with us." one of his friends requested.

### "Let me say you..."

### "Yes, I am here for someone and watching a cute one, but I don't know whether I am a mad or not, but can say that I am going to be very mad."

### "Brother, do one thing. Try to visit that designed room. There is a girl with green sari. She is very pretty."

### "Neeloy, you very clever."

### "Okay brother, let me try but I am not sure."

### "So, did he visit that room?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "I don't know whether he visited that room or not because he was the most coward one in our whole communities."

### "Very funny."

### "Neeloy, I saw that pretty one, a decent one,"

### "Brother, do one thing."

### "What?" His friend asked.

### "She already visited this place three to four times with a skeleton. She can visit here one more time. So please, seat beside me. I need a courage," Neeloy requested.

### "Okay brother, don't worry. I am with you," his friend agreed.

### "Please brother, don't disclose it now. Otherwise they will laugh at me," Neeloy requested.

### "Neeloy, there is a way to approach," his friend suggested.

### But, there was a coincident. One of his friends noticed everything and was being very confused and had a fun with Neeloy.

### "Love and cough cannot be hid." Rishabh commented again.

### "Please, don't laugh. I'm here due to a reason," Neeloy requested to his friend.

### "I realized there must be some reason. But, what was the reason behind a chain. I was watching you for a long time," his friend replied.

### "There is not any reason. Here I am watching a pretty girl. I don't know her, but she is busy with someone, may be her brother or a cousin," Neeloy explained.

### "Where is she now? Can I see that pretty girl? Do you know her? Did you see her earlier?"

### "What are you asking? Are you mad or what? I didn't see her earlier," Neeloy replied.

### "Okay, that was good. You at last decided. You need someone." That guy had a fun with him.

### "Don't joke. I am not funny at all, I am damn serious," Neeloy replied.

### "Leave it Neeloy, let's enjoy. Where is she? Let me see her," one of his friends requested.

### "But, you have to visit that designed room. I mean, you have to visit that room where the bride is!"

### "How can I recognize her?" His friend asked to Neeloy.

### "It was almost 11.15 p.m. I was becoming very hungry and agreed for the dinner on request, but dinner was very much satisfactory."

### "Really! But how Neeloy?" I asked to know about the dinner.

### "She seated just very opposite to me and my blood pressure enhanced and my friends were helped me to slow down it and truly speaking, I felt myself very shy," Neeloy replied.

### "So interesting." Neelon had a pleasant smile.

### "It was good."

### "I was just watching her all activities. She was enjoying the party night with her dear and closer ones and on the other hand, my hide and seek moment was going to be an end."

### "Did there any gateway to share your words?"

### "No. After our dinner, she escaped that place and I did not asleep and was in an illusion, it seemed a new life, a life away from a life."

### "Who was that groom? Was he your elder one or a cousin?"

" He was neither my cousin nor an elder one. He was my neighbor."

### "You know brother? At last I got an easy path."

### "How? Did there anyone to help you?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "Yes, my younger sister, Priyanka helped me."

### "At last, she agreed to help me. I told her about my situation. I had no way to expressed."

### "Was there any objection from Priyanka?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "Why fear? She is still my idol. I don't trust any idol but I respect my sister and she is being my idol. I lost my parents at our childhood. I have no one to share my joys and sorrows. I trust and respect my sister more than anyone in this cosmos. Even I can die for herself."

### "So sad for Neeloy." They had a huge sympathy.

" I am sorry, but I can salute you Neeloy. God bless her and may you live long."

### That was a real life, a real love and affection. Love can change anyone, whether it is our parent's love or our some one's love. I realized it on his face. I realized a real desire and madness. Everyone is thirsty to taste their own life and an adorable affection. Those are unlucky, will miss it all time.

### That night, he was becoming very cheering and I had an advantage during that conversations. I had a chance to listen a poem from Neeloy.

" I got my angel in you, you looking so pretty

### and was feeling as I am in the heaven with an angel.

### I was feeling as everything being closer to me,

### I was alone, but felt very tied with someone.

### Those leaves became very cheering and restless,

### The night was becoming very long to stay.

### I became very careless about all around me.

### It seemed, she was beside me,

### was feeling Myself very cold and shy.

### That was not a mirage and

### That was not an illusion.

### It seemed as an angel's looks,

### You filled my lonely places.

### I did not realize my destiny,

### But had a dream ahead.

### You can fill me and can fill my dream.

### I am begging your support,

### You can stand by my side.

### I don't want to cry more, stand by my side,

### Be my friend and show my ways and my destiny.

### Want to move together,

### Let the night goes on and be my friend.

### A life with me and a dream of ours.

### It really hurt, when you lose everything, when you lose your dream, your someone dear. Those memories can never erase from our mind and heart, a heart, which is vacant. We suffer and we cry. We become very selfish. When we differentiate our status? Are we greedy?

### Sometime love is softer than cotton and sometime it become very harder than an iron. Oh God! It was your beautiful creation. But, love is always uncertain. The word itself a fear and very far apart from us. We forget something, when we are in joys and misguide ourselves by taking some worthless promises. Love is based on some trustworthy promises and it lasts a longer time when there is an understanding. I don't know how a relation breaks. No one can judge his or her own life. We should respect his judgment and listen what he judge. We can cure a pain but lost or failed in love, is such a pain, which you can't cure and you can't realize. Most of the girls can adjust themselves by their forthcoming situations. They can adjust any situation because they are the girls, one role of a mother. They have a strong power to handle any situations. You can't laugh when a child demands.

### Neeloy was becoming very demanding. It made me silent. I can understand, how long a love lasts and how it works on our mind. He was looking so wetted. God even want to fulfill our dreams. None but he can understand the load of a love. Sometime he acted very cruel. It is natural; when we cry, we feel bad. You can never deny his proper judgment. Sometime we forget something that there is a supreme power and who already wrote ours own script.

### Sometime his role becomes very mysterious and miraculous. How he can understand and define our feelings and a life? Our role is different in front of him. He is watching our roles. Sometime we think, we are the best and sometime, we want to achieve all powers

### more than our almighty. So, we don't need to take such worthless promises, when we are uncertain. You don't have to judge your love

### And if you have to judge then don't go through it. It can make a drop of tears. So, we should accept his judgment. He is always there to help us and to solve our all burdens. Overload of burdens can frustrate us. We should not think ourselves very weak. We should make a hope like a beggar.

### All the things around a beggar are always uncertain but till the last breathe of their lives, they struggles to feed themselves and their child. They beg here and there with their uncertain hopes. Today is not everlasting but you can make your tomorrow better. For a new dream, a new thinking and we human beings is very essential to move higher.

### Neeloy was like that. I am very happy to have a friend like him. He is a boy with an uncountable quantity. I don't know how god made him. He was becoming my idol. I often visit his room to learn something and on the other hand, my brain does not work whenever I think about Neeloy. Still there are some good souls among all our entities. He is too cool and never argued. He liked mostly those he

### dislikes. He really needed a good friend and one someone dear but everything was working by his laws and orders. That's a life.

### Let's see what happened in that party.................

### "At last, my sister Priyanka agreed to approach and was searching her here and there, but a bad day it was! And on the other hand we had to come back by time. "

### "It is not your fault. Sometime, we can't predict something and sometime our mind does not work on something. We become very lazy to move," I told to Neeloy.

### "My heart was under by my control but not my mind"

### "So, did Priyanka search her any more?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "We jointly searched her, but did not know where she escapes, but my sister had a very good job."

### "Dear Neeloy, you should be smart and bold. You should approach."

### "Priyanka and my friends tried for it, but a hard luck and on the other hand, our bus was almost ready to leave that place and I had huge tears. It was being very painful. I seated beside Priyanka, near at a window."

### "So.........."

### "When the bus was moving slowly through their lane, I saw her in front of her place and there was a crowd. She seated alone on a chair and my drowsy eyes did not allow me to take a look properly."

### "Cheers." All of them smiled.

### "Most probably, she was watching with her family members," I told to Neeloy.

### "At last, you had seen her."

### "Yes, ending was very fine. We together looked her."

### "Don't worry brother, there is a way to approach, but it is very uncertain," Priyanka said to Neeloy.

### "How Priyanka?"

" You have to wait just two days only," Priyanka replied

" Why two days sister? Why not earlier than that?"

### "Oh ho! After two days, there will be a reception at the groom's place. So, let she come and prays to god."

### "How can you say that she will surely come?"

### "Dear Priyanka, I understood that some feelings are really unspoken, you can't express it soundly and it only happened to me but my feeling was too pure." During one conversations with Priyanka.

### "Yes Neeloy, it's very common and unspoken. You don't know her well and on the other hand, you know nothing about her. It was a memory. Hope it will remind you later, but try to forget. It can pain you later."

### "Priyanka's intuition worked. Pratiksha came at that party with her mother and along with a gang of her friends and relatives. That boy was also present at the reception and I was almost happy to see her again in that party," A smile on his face.

### "I was very anxious to share a moment and Priyanka was present at that moment and she did a good job for me with her friends.............."

### "How?" I asked to know.

### "Let me explain brother.........."

### "Hi, It's me Priyanka. Can I ask your name please?" Priyanka asked her.

### "Yes, myself Pratiksha, but I don't know you."

### "Sorry, but I saw you at the bride's place. That day, you were looking so beautiful with a sari. Am I right?" Priyanka had an enthusiasm.

### "Yes, but....................."

### "Actually the bride is my cousin and I am even from the same place. I did not have any interest to attend that and today's party as my examination is knocking at the door," Pratiksha replied.

### "So, where you studying now and what?"

### "I am doing my MBA first semester."

### "That's cool."

### "So, how is your study going on?" Priyanka asked to Pratiksha.

### "It's as usual."

### "Good. Wish you all the best."

### "Can I ask you something?" Priyanka asked to Pratiksha.

### "Yes sure."

### "I have no elder sister. Could be my elder sister?"

### Oh God! What she asked.

### "Very interesting," I commented.

### "Yes, sure," Pratiksha replied.

"" She already accepted her. That was a good luck." Rishabh declared.

### "Thanks dear sister."

" Your sister is very smart," I said to Neeloy.

### "Did you ever visit this place?" Priyanka asked to Pratiksha.

### "No, never," Pratiksha replied.

### "Then, let's go to our place. I am only the single daughter," Priyanka replied.

### "Oh really! Me too a single child daughter and no brother and no sister," Pratiksha exclaimed.

### "I can go, but I have to ask my mom otherwise she will search me here and there. Please don't mind," Pratiksha requested.

### "Yes, you can ask. No prob. let me meet with your mother."

### And at last, her mother allowed pritaksha to visit Priyanka's place. Priyanka was very clever and she met her mother and on other side, Neeloy was becoming very restless and watching their activities. That groom was being their neighbor and they had a good relation with them, a part of groom's family and a moment later..........

### "Hi brother, what are you doing here? Are you busy now?" Priyanka asked to her brother (way to their place).

### "I was jumped by my an emotion and become speechless."

### "He he he...so, did you visit your own place?" No doubt a fun.

### "No Priyanka, I am not busy at all and just waiting for my friends."

### "It's good, then come with us," Priyanka requested to Neeloy by her twinkling eyes.

### "Wow Neeloy! At last god listened your prayer," I was happy for that.

### "Yes brother, he listened my prayer," Neeloy replied.

### "We seated on different chairs and were feeling very thirsty. I requested Pryanka to give me a glass of cold water; I was thirsty because of my restlessness."

### The couple at last approached. Let's enjoy the conversations.........

### "Pratiksha, He is my brother Neeloy."

### "Hi!"

### "Hi!"

### "Trust me brother, her a single word becoming very melodious."

### "So romantic it was!" I exclaimed.

### "See dear, we are very poor but, can offer you a cup of tea. So, please don't say not," Priyanka, requested.

### Priyanka had a good job and other hand a good friendship was ahead. They had a satisfactory moment for a while.

" What's going on.............hmm...my brother is good at studies and he have a dream to go abroad," Priyanka said to Pratiksha.

### "A very smart girl." Rishabh commented her as a smart one.

### "No no Pratiksha. She is lying. I am not good at all and I am good for nothing."

" That's a good spirit. All the best." she was on her exciting ways.

### "Yes Neeloy, that was a good choice, but you can appear in CAT."

### "Yes, I want to appear in CAT examination after completion of my engineering degree, but I will prefer a Government College," Neeloy replied.

### "Yes, you are right. It is being very expensive to study at a private college. It is just expensive," Pratiksha replied.

### "You have how many family members?" Pratiksha asked to Neeloy.

### "Our parents expired at our childhood. Now me, Pratiksha and my grand father."

### Neeloy was becoming very sad. I realized his pain, a pain from a soul.

### "Sorry, but how?" Pratiksha asked to Neeloy.

### "By a car accident."

### "I am really very sorry. Sorry for asking,"

### "It's all right."

### And Priyanka, on the other hand was indicating Pratiksha not to ask any more questions. He often cries if someone asks about that incident.

### "What?" Pratiksha had a sound reply but that was a fool one.

### For a while, Pratiksha become very astonished...

### "Nothing dear sister...." Priyanka left a vacant hope.

### "Let's take my tasteless tea," Priyanka smiled.

### "Oh sure!"

### "Nothing I can cook, other than tea and no coffee," Priyanka had a smile with her all words.

### It was looking very beautiful, when he was explaining.

### "It is really a good dream. Although you are good enough," Pratiksha told to Neeloy.

### "Thanks Pratiksha."

### "But Pratiksha, I am not expecting any foreign studies, but expecting a good job to help my sister and my grand father. So, just doing my best."

### "Don't worry, pray to god. You will get a good job." Neeloy was looking so happy.

### "Nice to meet you all. But I must leave now otherwise my mom worry," Pratiksha had a request.

### "Sure sure, we are going with you."

### "You know Neeloy; I am even expecting a good job."

### "Pratiksha, if you don't mind can I ask you something about your father," Neeloy had confusion.

### "Yes, he expired."

### "Sorry pratiksha."

### Way to groom's place...................

### "Neeloy, what's your hobby?" Pratiksha asked to Neeloy.

### "I have no hobby and boy like me, have no hobby ahead. I don't want to be a burden. My grand father is a retired person and I have to do something for him."

### "Yes, it is a good thinking. You should hope for the best."

### Neeloy assured her that he would work hard to achieve his dream.

### "I am very lucky. You guys are very trustworthy," Pratiksha commented.

### "Priyanka had some work at our place. She left us alone. I felt myself very soft and shy in front of Pratiksha. I seated beside her with one of my friends, I was scared about my grand father. Each one had a doubtful look to us. It was obviously looking so odd. I met her mother and she talked to me nicely."

### "At last...you won."

### "Oh no!"

### "It really looks very odd when a couple sits alone and enjoys their words."

### "Yes Neeloy, you did a good job. It really looks odd when you seated alone with an unknown one," I told to Neeloy.

### "One or two hours seem like a minute when you talk to a girl or seat beside your own someone dear."

### "Very romantic."

### "You know one thing............."

### "What Neeloy?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "With all such flowering moments, I was able to share my all sorrows and happiness. I had a very least time to share and she had a least time to hear, but it was good one. And my lunch was very drastic. I was completely alone on that tent."

### "Did she leave that place?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "Nothing I want to explain. I am too shy like you. I really afraid girls. Till now, I don't have much more idea how to approach a girl? How to talk first? I salute my friends. A courage is very essential."

### "No shame at love. Be bold." Mr. Pintu had one more comment.

### "I was very hungry by that time and was feeling very shy alone without my friends. I was bursting my feelings and expected at least a friend there."

### "Then..........what happened next?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "I was too unlucky. I was searching my friends for their lunch with me. The place where Pratiksha's family seated was completely vacant. As a groom's side it was being odd looking to seat alone beside them."

### "Yes Neeloy, you are right. I have such an experience."

### "I followed my one's Punjabi friend."

### "How? Was there any trick?"

### "Yes, there was a trick and I followed the same," Neeloy replied.

### "What was that trick?" I was asking repeatedly.

### "I had no other way to see her more. I did not want to lose such an opportunity. And you know what I did?" Neeloy asked to me.

### "With those caterer boys, I started to serve water and sweets to all those invitees. No doubt, it was being a good job to think."

### "Neeloy, you were very crazy to realize."

### "Yes, may be. There was one more interesting and funny event."

### "What was that?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "I gave her two pieces of sweets. I gave my ones also."

### "Oh no! It was so amazing." I exclaimed.

### "What after next?"

### "I almost searched her everywhere, but did not find her any where outside that place."

### "Priyanka, did you see Pratiksha?" I asked my sister.

### "No brother. But, what happen and why are you searching her now?"

### "Nothing sister."

### "But, you are looking so worry and disturbed? Let it clear," Priyanka requested to Neeloy.

### "She is going forever. I want to see her one more time. I am going mad. She is a good girl and a good friend of mine," Neeloy expressed.

### Neeloy was searching such a good girl like Pratiksha.

### "Be cool. Let me search her. I am always there to help my brother, a good father ahead.............."

### "You...."

### Priyanka even failed to find out Pratiksha and on the other hand, Neeloy was standing in front of their hired bus. His intuition worked and our Almighty listened his prayer. Lord Jesus saved his life and lord saved a life, which was out of mind and a mind without a soul.

### "Brother Neeloy, I salute you. Sorry, not to you but your love. It was a real feeling," I told to Neeloy.

### "Yes brother, my feeling was very real. Because, I can say at least that there was a reality and nothing was a fake and simply a purity."

### "Yes Neeloy, I am very much agreeing with you. Smartness is good but sometime some over smartness is very painful."

### "You know brother, with in a fraction of seconds I got the place very vacant and aloof. She suddenly escaped from that tent. There was gatherings inside that tent and the seat she seated was being unreserved, so I seated on that one for a while to feel myself with her, to feel what love is? I seated for a while to feel the charm of a lover and to feel herself broadly."

### "Yes, love bound us to become crazy." Neelon commented more.

### "Great. Brother, you know what...............you can write a book." I accepted all his good words.

### "I have never listened such type of love story. You are a crazy guy and you a mad lover."

### "Yes, I was being mad; I don't know how I was becoming a mad." Neeloy even puzzled.

" Yes brother, that is a pure love, a love of a lovers, a love which he made, a love which we desire and a pain when it lost."

### "All the bride's members were going prepared to step into the bus. I searched her everywhere inside and outside that place. She was being out of ours sight but I did not find her anywhere."

### "A mild feminine voice was there while I was standing near their bus. When I looked back, I saw a twinkling face and had a desire. She was offering a white paper, which was being blank from outside. Firstly, I hesitated to accept that letter but she becoming very adamant."

### "Hi Neelon, come inside," Pratiksha requested to Neeloy.

### "Firstly, my mind did not allow me to accept that letter as my one closest neighbor was standing beside me. I knew him very well and had an honor and became very tensed."

### "So, what you did?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "I had no other way out and decided not to go inside the bus to bring that paper."

### "I saluted on her strong determination and after that she came down from the bus."

### "Follow me, just follow, but not along with me," Pratiksha commended.

### "All right, I am already following the track." Neeloy had a hazy voice.

### "We walked almost a few meters. She had a letter for me."

### "What is this Pratiksha?" Neeloy asked to Pratiksha and he become very puzzled.

### "Nothing dear, just my mobile number. Don't forget to call me, at least once in a week," Pratiksha whispered.

### "A green signal." Rishabh had one more comment.

### "Brother, you had a good luck," I told Neeloy.

### "Yes brother, I even expected such an incident," Neeloy replied.

### "I completely silent and very deserted when she left and I had nothing to give her except a memory. Because that moment I became an empty minded."

### "Never try to be materialistic. It is not good and you should avoid that word. It has no meaning ahead. Give and take policy is one kind of business. One who does not expect anything by giving something is called a love, a real love never judged and expect," it bounded me to suggest.

### "A good definition." All of them supported me.

### A few months later...

### "My life is going very happily. 8 to 4 p.m. duty was not being good enough to me. It was beyond of my comprehension and I never wanted to lose Pratiksha by any cost. As a helpless and baseless boy, it was my duty to stable myself first. Without listening her melodious voice my days were going to be an era. I tried to contact her several times but my mind did not allow me to do so. I used one public phone to keep in touch with her. When she picked up the call, I didn't utter a single word. She received my call by a coincident. I heard a very small word, hello! And just a hello for a while. That was my first telephonic conversation with Pratiksha. It was just ideal."

### I was standing on the burned ashes.

### I was laughing on my shadows.

### I was feeling as I am on the top of the edges.

### I got nothing from that lonely world.

### She left me alone and never tried

### To cure my pain.

### Life itself was a pain.

### I got myself very silent and unknown.

### No one was there to understand my pain.

### No one was there to stand by my side.

### Stones on my way even closed my way.

### Why it happen to others.

### No one was guilty.

### It was to lean against wind.

### It was being difficult to survive.

### My creator was far apart

### And my life became very devastating.

### Why we live? Why we struggle?

### Why life is alone?

### Why it gives us pains?

### My almighty, you can

### Measure my pain.

### Help me to move alone,

### Alone with my all faces,

### And an endless desire

### To live with her,

### To make me fill and

### A life with her.

### "See Neeloy, it's our life. Here, our every step is unpredictable, but we measure our each steps. Our life can suffer us if we maintain uniformity. In the races of life, some steps are obviously painful; some are harder than our prediction." I just forwarded myself to help him and to support him.

### I realized that our life is very sensitive during at childhood, without any guidance, we may misroute at our ways, a way to dream and a way to live. We should protect ourselves from our all those evils, but we never do it anyways.

### "Pratiksha, I am feeling very alone here. Although everything is going above my expectation." telephonic romance started.

### "Yes, same is here. I was thinking about you and to meet. You are a good human being. What about Priyanka? It was a miracle," Pratiksha told to Neeloy.

### "She is all right here, but I am not feeling well and feeling very vacant without you," Neeloy replied.

### "Pratiksha, I shall call you once in a week. I even want a heart to heart talk, but I am very much worry about my empty pocket. I can call you once I save my pocket money otherwise it's not possible, but will call you sure. So, forgive for that." That was his truth. A truth of a pure heart.

### "It's okay dear. I can understand your problem. You don't need to call me once in a week. You can call me whenever you get free. I will wait for it, but don't forget to call." That was her desire to share her feeling with Neeloy.

### "She was very much understanding." Mr. Pintu commented again.

### "Okay, but I will miss you," Neeloy replied.

### "Don't worry dear and just remember that someone is here and here she is eager to hear your voice and eager to listen your few words." Romance started. Pratiksha was expressing more.

### "Yes..................." He became very cheering at that moment.

### "A green signal................that was good." There was a pleasant smile at my face.

### "Don't say, I had just Rs.15 in my pocket to call and wanted to talk more."

### "It happens," I said to Neeloy.

### "See Neeloy, I don't have any idea about love, a love with someone and in most of the cases girls do not offer firstly. I can say that you were so lucky. Really, you were very lucky. She will never forget you. Have a good life ahead."

### "I shared my feelings about seven minutes and it seemed like a few seconds but although I was happy with all those warm feelings. She wanted to suggest me something, but I had to stop my sharing by my condition. That moment was a good enough."

### "Brother, are you sleepy now?" Neeloy asked to me.

### "Not at all. You can proceed." I became sleepy with my drowsy eyes. He needed my help.

### "I had to wait one more week to share my feelings and was not being save my pocket money. It was looking so odd if I ask more to my grand father. He was even alone with us, but we had a good understanding."

### "So, when did you disclose it with your friends?" I asked to Neeloy.

''Firstly, I hesitated to disclose it with anyone."

### "Why?"

### "I don't know why they treated me differently?"

### "I don't know who I am! And my destiny." Suddenly he becomes emotional.

### "I expected a care, a care from my parents, a moment with them, a distance to walk, a shadow to live, a demand to fulfill. Besides me, I had two more lives. I had no faults."

### "But Neeloy, you should not disrespect our Almighty. He created us like himself. Not a single one is happy here, all have some burdens and all are unhappy. Our wants are unlimited. We human beings have a wish to rise above the extreme. Respect your Almighty, respect your life and love and accept what are you getting and move for the best for the sake of friendship." It was my duty to suggest and advise.

### "Hero, you had done a good job."

### "You know brother...as a baseless, I am still happy with my dear ones. I realized it inside and hid it from my present and hid it from my outside family and world. Everyone liked us and they liked and loved on our good mankind. We had a good formality towards them."

### "That was enough for a human being. Everyone expects it and we should maintain that spirit," I said to Neeloy.

### "What about your friends? What they said about your love life?" I asked him with an anxiety.

### "Everyone was cheering themselves. They triumphed, when I disclosed it. They clapped and dance. "

### "Neeloy, did they support you?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "Yes brother, all of them supported me on my condition. But how long? There was a big problem."

### "What was that problem?"

### "A communication problem, I faced one communication trouble. I had no cell phone. I will never deny, they offered their cell phone for my use. And I even agreed to use their cell phone whenever needed, but I was being very selfish. I didn't want to public my love. I had urged a favor to my grand father."

### "Grandpa, I got a part time job."

### "Job? Who gave you?"

### "Did I request you ever?"

### "But grandpa ... try to understand."

### "Better you concentrate yourself on studies. Cell phone is not necessary."

### "Neeloy! Now you become a young. You should at least consult. Moreover, I am still alive."

### "Grandpa I needed your permission. That was a surprise."

### "Okay okay, you can do it, but only at free time."

### "Thank you grandpa, thank you very much. Don't worry grandpa; it is just for two hours."

### "It's all right. But what about salary?"

### "Just fifteen hundred."

### "Okay, but care of your studies ahead."

### "He loved me very much and that's why he did not deny my proposal."

### "You know brother Rupees fifteen hundred was being sufficient to keep my contact with Pratiksha and to bear my educational expenses and even my daily expenses. I had no tuition teacher like my other friends. I often used older books for the same. It helped me on my side."

### "Neeloy, you are very much understanding."

### "Thanks brother. I was bounded by my some burdens."

### "There were so many girls in that institution. I was being a very funny young teacher and was very young. I was very shy at my classes, but that job was very satisfactory. The director of that institution fully impressed on my works. I extended my tuition classes from two to three hours in a day. I had no more interest to gossip with my friends. "

### "Yes Neeloy, gossiping is nothing but a useless and worthless job." I agreed with Neeloy.

### "Leave it Neeloy. Tell me what happened next?"

### "Sure brother. I am explaining...."

### "You know brother?"

### "What?"

"My love began on her 20th birthday."

### "Wow! She was very lucky and a good gift by the Almighty," I told to Neeloy.

### "But brother, I had a funny job............."

### "What and how?"

### "It was so memorable and my pocket was being empty. It was feeling very bad and was thinking about our poverty. Why I am poor? Why I am alone without them? Why they left me alone?"

### "Please Neeloy, don't say like that. Don't say poor yourself."

"She even invited me to visit their place on her 20th birthday. I was little bit confused because I had to ask my grandpa and on the other hand I had no one familiar there and it was going very difficult to me to stay at a hotel. With such circumstances I wanted to visit their place. I can say that I failed to attend her birthday party, with my empty hand and with empty mind and started to draw her one picture alone near a pond. I drew her one shaded picture and on that day I posted her picture with one birthday message and just after sixteen days, I got her one letter at my grandpa's hand. He did not ask me anything about that letter and didn't open it."

### "Wow! Poem! So romantic it was!" I had my support.

### "There were more enough words to realize how much she likes and loves me. That letter is still with me at my safety place. I received her letter just one day before of the Valentine day. It touched me very much and my heart. I realized, we are made for each other."

### "Dear brother, can I explain you about that letter?" Neeloy asked to me.

### "Why not. You can explain me. Don't you trust me Neeloy?"

### And was enjoying that letter...................

### "Hi Dear, how are you? Hope you all are all right there. We are pulling well and feeling very alone and even the rain did not stop. It's a rainy day and thanks for your message. I really appreciated your words and your expression. You know what? I did not expect it because I thought you are not seriously making it. But after my mother called me that I have a parcel then suddenly one name came in my mind. And it was you. I like true friends besides my someone. From today onwards, I don't want to keep any secret to you because you are my good friend. Okay, before we go to the serious relationship and a friendship, let's build a good understanding and get to know each other very well. I know that everything is possible, if you try to accept it by heart. I am a very typical one. I love chocolates, watching TV and reading pocket book. I am a dreamer and a keeper. Every time my friends give me a little thing. I kept it already. Neeloy, before I forget here's my picture, sorry if it is small. Next time I send a bigger size. I don't want to be a droplet but I can wipe your tears and can wipe your face but I am very unlucky."

### "She is in love." Neelon guessed.

### "It was a good and very innocent explanation," I told to Neeloy.

### "But brother, I was happy with her feelings. I had no tears on my eyes and it already dried by sorrows and let it wet again."

### "But Neeloy, one thing I can say, she was a good one, good at mind. I have no words. I don't know what my Almighty want?"

### Pratiksha's poem......

### The birds and the bees,

### The flowers and the trees,

### Are all the things I noticed?

### The day I feel in love with you,

### The life was a struggle,

### The heart was empty,

### Was filled with love and joys.

### The life, which blossomed into pure love for you,

### The pure love which blossomed into

### Eternal undying love for you.

### It's the reason, which keeps me going

### Through this life which lives for you.

### Through the rough patches of life,

### Never had I expected.

### A hand to lead me through,

### As a guiding light.

### The hand was yours

### And the guiding light was you.

### At a time, when there was none

### For me in sight, you were always the one who

### Made me laugh out loud.

### And it was then that I sighed.

### "Is this the god given love?"

### and now I know that is

### and will be forever,

### the god given love which the almighty

### bestowed on us.

### And today, on this day of love,

### I thank you my love;

### For being my best friend,

### My soul mate and my mentor.

### The person who made me know

### What true love is!

### And what loving means.

### And on this sacred day,

### I promise on my heart and soul,

### That through every phases of our life

### We will always be together

### And face every situation,

### Whether happy or sad.

### With this strength:

### Which makes us one!!?

### HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

### "Brother, my mind even expected to give her something and she impressed on my art."

### "Did you draw it yourself?" Pratiksha had a very funny question ahead.

### "Yes, it's true. I am very weak in drawing. I don't know how it becomes so good. There was a miracle," Neeloy commented on his art.

### "No Neeloy, trust me. It was good," Pratiksha replied.

### "No, I am not all. I think it was god's mercy and it was done by willing of god himself.""

### "You know brother, what I did?" Neeloy asked me again.

### Neeloy was being a new face to my life. I never saw such his smile earlier. Pratiksha was fully impressed. As a human being my voice choked with tears, when he was explaining about that new creation. It really good to see when an undemanding and unexpected object triumph. God even smile when such happens to his children.

### And by time, Neeloy became very busy. He gave his first salary to his grand father...

### "Grandpa, we are still using public telephone. It is really very irritating to disturb our neighbors, mostly night calls. Grandpa, if you have no objection then I had one suggestion."

### "What was that?" his grandpa asked.

### "One mobile phone."

### "Yes, my cute boy. But Neeloy, mobile phone is very much expensive."

### Neeloy almost convinced his grandfather.

### "No grandpa, I will bring one very simple handset. I swear that I will never misuse it." His grandfather, agreed on that proposal.

### "Yeeeeee......"

### "Love you grandpa...love you very much....muwahh......."

### "God bless you son."

### "But brother, suddenly my mind becomes changed. I was playing with my restless mind. I did not realize whether I can afford it or not and I hid it from Pratiksha and it is obviously more advantageous than a public one."

### "Yes Neeloly, sometime it is very expensive. It is very expensive when you make some worthless calls. Misuse of mobile phone can effect badly, but you can't disuse it." I had a comment.

### Use your handset whenever needed. With my salutation, that's my one humble request to our teenagers.

### "Yes, we should not misuse our handset." Neelon had an advice.

### "During my last conversation over a telephone, I disclosed her about my new handset. She scolded me like my mother. I expected such one soul mate. Even she scolded near about five minutes. I was not being upset and listened her all suggestions very respectfully and carefully."

### "And at last, she agreed to send text messages."

### "Wow! It's a good news."

### "We had exchanged near about five to ten text messages per day and love was completely sacred and satisfactory and touching the top."

### "So, when did you propose her?"

### "Brother, I was very much scared for my final examination."

### "My examination was going well and there was not a single second when I did not stop my breath and it was finished by time. No doubt my examination was over and on the other hand, oceans of burdens were suppressing me. "

### "But why? Why burdens?"

### "I was little bit sad for my sister. She just crossed her fifteen years of ages. It was being very difficult to my grandpa to bear our educational expenses owing to poverty and rupees fifteen hundred was not so much helpful."

### "Oh no! Don't worry. You have a good day ahead."

### "I was tense for my sister. We living beings have a dream and she had a dream too. She wanted to study a professional course and wanted to be a good doctor. She had a dream to help our poor societies."

### "I did not know, how it would be possible and how could I absorb myself into a job."

### "My grandpa was very old. He was eighty-six years old and very much alone. I did not realize what I had to do? And I needed a good job and was being fully frustrated."

### "I became mentally very sick."

### "Yes, Neeloy such crucial days often come. You have to face it."

### "And on other side, my love life. It was going very smoothly. We were very much happy and she was tensed for my conditions."

### "You know brother, what was happened?" Neeloy was eagerly asked.

### "What Neeloy?"

### "When my grandpa expired."

### "How brother?"

### "I was out of station and was searching a job."

### "Then...."

### "A railway train ran over him and on the other hand, my lonely sister was waiting for her lunch with my grandpa."

### "Then how she comes to know about his accident?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "My neighbors informed her."

### "It was very sad for you. Why such bad days come to our lives." I had my sympathy to his grand father.

### "My lonely sister becomes silent when she informed me."

### "Brother, my grandpa died and he is no more along with us...please come soon..."

### "What? Are you mad sister? Are you serious? Oh no! One more left."

### "Yes brother, he is no more with us. I am alone. Please do come. I am alone without him."

### "My pocket was almost empty. I came to my place by a goods train, but that train driver did not allow me to travel with them. I explained him about my sad moments and at last, he agreed."

### "And no one come forwarded. I requested some of my friends. And there was none to help me. No doubt, my all relatives visited our place and stayed with us to help me and my sister."

### I wiped his tears. I even cried with him. It is very difficult to smile and to stay stables when someone cries in front of you. As a boy, I am very soft hearted.

### "Neeloy, can I ask you something?"

### "Yes."

### "So, how did you manage the funeral expenses?"

### "God helped us."

### "How brother?" I asked him repeatedly.

### "Yes, my one neighbors helped us by Rupees fifteen thousands and before his funeral, with the help our relatives, I completely solved the bank's problem. That bank manager was a good human being. It was done well by his blessings and we were feeling alone under that roof and was feeling very baseless and support less, I was tensed for the funeral functions and by god, it was totally satisfactory."

### "A big salutation to you. God bless." All of them saluted Neeloy.

### "Neeloy, remember one thing."

### "What brother?" He asked me like that.

### "It is very tough to get such a good grand father. Because they must have some burdens and you were lucky. Your grand father will help you further. I have a faith on such things." I supported Neeloy on his crucial days.

### "Thank you brother"

### "One day, his sister was crying very loudly that what she had lost."

### "Don't cry sister. I am still with you and you brother is still alive. Don't wet your face by shiny droplets. It can hurt you and it can hurt your heart. Stop crying. I am with you."

### "Brother, my examination is knocking at the door and I had just one month at my hand to prepare myself." Priyanka was explaining it to Neeloy before her final board examination.

### "Don't worry sister. You just study. Try to work hard. You don't have to do any work. I will cook for you and will clean our cottage and will wash your cloths. I can do it for my sister. So please, don't hurt him and don't hurt our parents."

### "But brother, what will you do now?" She becomes very anxious to know Neeloy's future plans.

### "What plan sister?" Neeloy asked to Priyanka.

### "I am asking about a job?"

### "You don't have to think. You just study with full concentrations. There must some way," Neeloy replied.

### "It is fine brother, but how can I be a cool?" Priyanka asked again.

### "What do you mean sister?"

### "See brother, we have a very small family. Just you and me and you have to stay by my side up to the rest of our lives. I am very much alone without you.................."

### "Don't worry. I am with you always." They had a good understanding.

### "Dear sister, I want to tell you something, but you have to promise me that you will never cry."

### "It's all right brother." Priyanka promised herself.

### "See Priyanka, our grandpa is no more with us. We have to achieve all our dreams. We will fulfill all his wishes. We will never hurt him further and we will never differentiate our all feelings and will never allow any other third person to separate our feelings."

### "It's a good suggestion. Sure brother, I will always maintain it."

### "But brother, I am not concentrating myself on my books. I am feeling as if he is still alive, as if he is adoring me, as if I am hearing his loud voice."

### "Oh no Sister! Try to understand. He is still alive. He is still supporting me. Even I feel his presence."

### "You know brother; it was such an unforgettable and touchy moment which I ever faced." Neeloy had a great sympathy to his grand father.

### "Yes Neeloy, I can understand it."

### "Sister, do one thing?"

### "What brother?" She asked to Neeloy.

### "Draw some live picture of our beloved ones, make them alive and let us think they are with me." Neeloy requested to his sister and she drew three pictures.

### "Okay brother, I will try my best, but after my final examinations only."

### "But, why after exam? Why not before that?" Neeloy asked to his sister.

### "I can't draw it now. It will pain me; it will trouble me while I sketch."

### "Okay sister. Draw it later. Do your work now."

### "And at last, by Almighty, I managed one good job after completion of my degree at a constructional company at our own town and at least that job helped me to look after my sister."

### "It was a nice job by almighty." All of them blessed Neeloy.

### "Thanks god." I was grateful to god.

### It is very difficult to maintain a family and fulfill its daily requirements. I don't know how our parents do it very comfortably. Neeloy had sacrificed his smile for the well being of his own sister.

### I have my one big salutation to Neeloy and his sister.

### "Brother, I don't know how long my love lasts. I am not getting a single moment to share my feelings with her. I often observe her missed calls and text messages. So many burdens and good taste of a life."

### "Brother, I can understand your problem. I can feel what we have lost. My all good wishes will be there with you." Priyanka had her support.

### "Don't worry sister, my life is for you. No one can take me away from you. You are always so precious for me. I will try my best to give you all happiness." Neeloy blessed his sister for her forthcoming examination.

### "Brother, don't forget to bring it today?" Priranka suddenly asked to Neeloy.

### "What sister?" Neeloy become very confused.

### "Three pens, one pencil and an eraser." Priyanka demanded.

### "Sure dear. You are my cute sister. God bless you." Neeloy blessed his sister again.

### "Brother, let me hug you and let me fall my tears on your shoulder," Priyanka was missing her parents and her grand father.

### "Don't cry now. Okay. I have to go office. Okay sister...smile now. Click! Click!!!"

### Priyanka was demanding like a newborn and as a brother, Neeloy had no more objections on her chilly activities.

### "You know brother, the first three months was the toughest one," Neeloy said to me.

### "Yes Neeloy, you are right and by time, you can manage all circumstance, but don't fear your troubles. Even I cannot maintain my family very comfortably, but can suggest a good way. I am trying myself to help them financially. I hide my troubles. I understand their sorrows." I had my few explanations.

### "So Neeloy, how much you are getting?" I asked about his salary.

### "Not a huge. I am just getting rupees ten thousands. It is sufficient to help my sister. But, I am expecting a more for her further studies and I have a no dream ahead to MBA. We are almost happy." Neeloy had a dream to study MBA, but..............

### "Brother, after my high School, I want to appear in medical entrance examination,"Priyanka expressed.

### "Yes sister, that's good. Even I was thinking so. And after a few years, you have to marry someone." Neeloy replied.

### "No brother, I don't want to marry anyone. I don't like anyone. I have decided," Priyanka replied.

### "What you have decided sister? That's not good. Let's me do my duty," Neeloy asked to Priyanka.

### "No brother, I have decided to stay by your side always. I don't want to leave you alone." Priyanka loved him very much like an idol.

" My pleasure. But one day, you have to marry someone. There is someone, who is waiting for you." Neeloy had a fun with Priyanka.

### "Don't talk to me." She becomes angry.

### "I can understand brother, you want to stay alone. I am becoming a burden. I can understand it." She had a fun behind her closed lips.

### "Never say like that. You are my goddess. No doubt you are my sister, but I respect you sister. You don't have to worry. We will stay together, but you have to work hard to achieve your dreams, a dream that was incomplete. You must be a good doctor." Neeloy encouraged his sister.

### "We should respect our dears." Rishabh commented.

### "Yes sir! I will try my best." So cute.

### Both of them had a good love and care and they had a good understanding and on the other hand Priyanka's (10+2)th result announced. Her result was very much satisfactory. She scored 81% and it was being enough to appear in the state medical entrance examination. As a student, she was very sharp minded. She did not want to appear in the All INDIA INSTITUTE OF MEDICAL SCIENCE examination. She had a poor confident. She did not want to leave her brother any more. But Neeloy, suggested her to appear in AIIMS, AFMC, PMT entrance examinations.

### "No brother. I can't appear in those examinations. I can't leave you alone and moreover, if I not get a chance in any of those colleges then I will never allow myself to any private Institutions. As far as I know, it is very difficult to study medical at any private institution."

### Priyanka promised that she would surely get a chance to study her medical degree under a good university.

### "Don't be mad. Don't think about me. You can try once for my sake." Neeloy was requesting his sister to appear for those examinations.

### "But brother, I don't want to appear because those are very much expensive. Do you think you can afford my fees?"

### "Please, for my sake only." Neeloy requested her.

### "No brother, But, I can do one thing."

### "What Priyanka?"

### "Could you please allow me to appear in any engineering entrance examinations? Me don't have any interest to go outside the state. "Actually brother, I want to stay here by your side. So that, I can visit at least whenever needed."

### "It's really a very good opinion. Even me don't want to allow my cute sister far away from this hometown. One thing I can say, I will miss you very much."

### "Sister, I am very happy today and very pleased."

### "How brother?"

### "Obviously your result. Your result pleased a heart, a brother cum parent can realize. That day, I was very tensed and was waiting outside your college campus. I was waiting for the announcement along with a friend. One of my friends checked your number very carefully and he even blessed you. He was cheering inside the campus. I gave rupees five hundred to all my friends to enjoy and even distributed each Rupees ten to some beggars at the railway station. I had no control over my endless tears. All of them blessed you."

### "Good spirit." Rishabh commented.

### "Hi Neeloy! Why are you crying brother?" I asked to Neeloy during our conversations at our newly joined office.

### "No brother, I am missing my mom and dad."

### It was a real realization of a baseless heart.

### "You know sister what happened today?" Neeloy asked to priyanka.

### "What brother? Any thing wrong?" Priyanka asked to Neeloy.

### "Let me explain...."

" I saw there on old man, was waiting for a train with his family members. He noticed when I was distributing rupees ten to a few beggars." Neeloy become unanswered.

### "Then brother..."

### "Hey you young boy!"

### "What happen uncle?" Neeloy asked that stranger.

### "Why are you distributing money to these beggars? They will misuse your money. Don't give them money you can give them some food items instead of money. But why are you distributing?" That stranger becomes excited to know what was actually happened.

### "Dear uncle, my grand father expired a few months ago and I am baseless. We have no guardians. I am following my beloved ones, my elders. I am unable to give them any materialistic things, as I am a very busy fellow. My little sister is waiting for me behind our curtains. I have to go home soon and for your kind information, if my salary raise then I will give them some special items. I don't trust any god; I can realize my almighty in between them."

### That was very enough to that stranger. It was a good reply. Why people jealous.

### "That was a good job brother, you did a wonderful job. God bless you brother. You are so nice. Give me a hug. I am proud of you." Priyanka was looking very happy.

### "But there was quarrel at that platform."

### "How brother? Are you safe?" Priyanka asked to know about that quarrel.

### "I had a few friends along with me. One of them was a very tough fellow and a good friend of mine. He did not digest what was that stranger saying to me. So, he argued. His words dishearten that old man. I tried my best to cold down the matter."

### "Thanks god. I trust you brother. You are being my world's best brother," Priyanka told to Neeloy.

### "You want to know what happened next at our place." Neeloy wanted to say me something.

### "What brother?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "After the announcement of her result, my all relatives visited our cottage and even neighbors. I distributed them so many sweets."

### "That was good Neeloy." I had no more words ahead.

### "Priyanka, this is for you." One of their relatives visited their place with well-wrapped packet and was offering to give her something.

### "You know brother, that day I did not stop my tears and allowed them to fall more. One of our neighbors noticed that when I was offering a glass of water. A tiny droplet fell on to his glass. I felt very sad. I shared it myself only."

### "Sorry Aunty!"

### "It's okay Neeloy. But, why are you crying. It's not a time to cry. Stop crying for the sake of your sister," His neighbors asked to Neeloy.

### "I am not crying Aunty. It is some residues. I had lost its filtrate part a few months ago."

### "Don't worry dear. We are always there to help you," his neighbors assured them to help him further.

### "Thank you very much Aunty. Don't forget to bless us and please don't forget to bless my sister. We need it very much."

### "But Aunty, what you have brought along with you?" Priyaka asked to that lady with an enthusiasm. She guessed something.

### "Nothing Priyanka. That was for you. A small gift from your neighbors. There are so many gifts like...for you. Hope you will like it. "

### "Thanks a lot to all of you." That helpless was smiling.

### "Dears, we have to leave now," his neighbors said to Neeloy.

### "But don't forget to bless us Aunty. We need it very much," Priyanka had a request.

### "Sure Priyanka, you don't have to mention. We are always with you all and our well wishes."

### "Thank you Aunty." Priyanka had a huge salutation to all of them.

### "But one thing Priyanka?"

### "What aunty" Priyanka asked to that lady.

### "See Priyanka, we are from a very small village. We are very backward and you both have to help your neighbors and you both have to guide our children's," they had a request.

### "Sure sure. You don't worry. We will try to help them."

### "Let's go. It already late. God bless you both. "

### "Priyanka, let me see those gifts," Neeloy requested Priyanka to open those gift boxes.

### "No brother, you have to open it. I am dedicating those to my cutest brother." She had a demand.

### "Don't say like that. That was for you only," Neeloy replied.

### "Okay sister, we don't have to do any quarrel. We will together

### open those boxes."Priyanka agreed on that proposal.

### "Priyanka, it's a NOKIA handset, a cute key ring and many more............yes."

### "Really brother!" she triumphed.

### Their neighbors were very helpful. They gave her a new handset, key ring, one lord Ganesha statue and one statue of Lord Jesus, two tops and a big soft toy. It little bit disheartened Priyanka.

### "Hey Sister! What happen?" Neeloy asked to his sister.

### "Nothing brother. I am really thankful to them but they should at least give a single one to my brother."

### "He he...you so cute," Neeloy smiled.

### "Brother, take a leave on tomorrow," Priyanka requested to Neeloy.

### "But why sister?" Neeloy asked to his sister.

### "But sister, it's my new job. I have to ask my manager."

### "Then ask him now. I have a plan for tomorrow," Priyanka was requesting.

### Neeloy asked our manager to give him a leave for a day, but the manager did not allow Neeloy to take a leave. As a person, our manager was good, but he had a workload and some burdens. Neeloy realized about his trouble. Actually, Neeloy had one demonstration on the next day and that's why the manager disallowed him for a leave.

### "Neeloy, even I am blessing you and blessing your sister. I want to visit your place to bless your sister, but tomorrow's demonstration is very important. So, you have to be present and represent it alone. I can give you a leave on day after tomorrow." Neeloy's request disappointed our Manager, but he was bound by his duties.

### "Yes sir, you don't worry. I will represent the demonstration." He had no more objections.

### "Did I disappoint you Neeloy?" his manager asked to Neeloy.

### "No way.............how can I mind you Sir?" Neeloy replied.

### "God bless you Neeloy."

### "My demonstration was satisfactory. They fully satisfied on my demonstration and after that I came to home by an auto rickshaw with ½ kg chicken and some green vegetables."

### "Sister, tomorrow we are going to market and tonight I will prepare a special dish for you?"

### "Yee...I love you brother." Priyanka cheered.

### "By the way brother, what special dish you are going to cook?"

### "Nothing sister. Just my special chilly chicken, mixed salad and pumpkin fry."

### "Wow! Great brother." Neeloy and Priyanka were enjoying their homely party.

### I had to ask something about his love life...

### "Neeloly, did she call you further?" I asked to Neeloy about Pratiksha.

### "Yes She! Several times."

### "So, did you talk to her further?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "No."

### "Why Neeloy?"

### "I don't know."

### "You should attend her phone calls. You should meet her," I suggested Neeloy to save his love.

### "It was not being possible to contact her any more. I totally tied to my duties." He was angry on me.

### "Okay Neeloy."

### "Please don't misunderstand me. I can understand your troubles."

### "See brother, I don't not know whether she ever remembered me or not, but I can respect my love. I loved my love and was remembering it at my each step. My hands were being locked and no one even tried to open that lock. Still I don't know whether her family accepts our relationship or not. I am in a big dilemma. I am very much tense for my sister. I don't know how I can afford her studies alone." Neeloy had a brief explanation.

### "Brother, my entrance is on tomorrow and you have to go with me.

### "Don't you suggest anything brother?" Priyanka asked to Neeloy.

### "I have no words sister. I gave you a very little time. I am really sorry Priyanka."

### "No brother. You helped me lots. Your little help was sufficient to me. I wish all sisters have a cute brother like you, a cute and adorable brother like you." Priyanka was praising his brother.

### "Sister you don't have to buttering me and my words. You should concentrate yourself on studies and tomorrow I will wear that new T-shirt."

### "Yes brother you can check for a trial now," Priyanka was requesting to his brother.

### "Really brother, you are looking very young and very smart. Brother, girls can tease you. So, be careful brother," She had a fun with Neeloy.

### During her examination day, Neeloy stood alone near about six to seven hours and was very scared. That day was a Saturday. He took a leave.

### "Sister how was your paper? Did you answer correctly to all questions?"

### "Yes brother. I can score more than 70 in each paper." She is becoming very confident.

### "Are you sure sister?" Neeloy asked to Neeloy.

### "Yes sir. I can score. I answered correctly to all known questions but the boy seated beside me, disturbed me disturbed me lot."

### "Don't worry sister. It's very common. Try to score better in the next examination." Neeloy had an encouragement.

### "Yes brother. I am trying my best and I have to score good marks."

### "Yes sister, you have to score good marks. Try to attempts good marks on tomorrow's examination."

### "At last, god helped my sister. I was not sure whether she will select for a medical college or not." Neeloy had a pain behind, but had a positive confidence on. Priyanka.

### I noticed that he was acting like a guardian, a very responsible one. It is obvious. Once you maintain a family, you have to maintain so many responsibilities. I observed it on his face and was a good spirit.

### Her name was among the selected candidates. She was in a dilemma, whether have to chosen Engineering or Medical.

### "Brother, what to do? I am very much confused," Priyanka asked to Neeloy.

### "Yes sister, I am thinking about that."

### "See sister, you have to select either engineering or medical. I can just help in your studies, but you have to select. Remember, you have to fulfill your dreams. Think for it. We have enough time. I am with you."

### "Brother, Engineering."

### "Really Priyanka?"

### "Yes brother."

### "Sister, you are so cute."

### "But sister, before the class started, you have to clear your all doubts in physics, chemistry and mathematics."

### "But brother, you have to help me. I have no more interest to any tuition classes."

### "Okay sister, you don't have to go anywhere. I will help you. So, be cool."

### "Priyanka, please close your twinkling eyes?" Neeloy had a surprise gift for Priyanka.

### "Why brother?"

### "Oh! I can understand. There may be something for me. Am I right brother?"

### "Nothing."

### "Please close your eyes once..."

### "Nothing for you. Who said?"

### "Who said means? Am I not your mother? I am not your mother, but I am a sister cum mother. So, you have to respect and obey me."

### "Yes mom...you are right. I will obey you. He he..."

### They had a very friendly relation and on the other hand, they had a good mutual understanding. Priyanka was enjoying her new classes with newly making friends and both of them were becoming busy with time. Neeloy did not allow his sister to any homely works. He even washed their cloths and on the other hand, Pratiksha was searching a good job after completion of her MBA. First day at the college, Priyanka had a very formal dress. She was looking just like her mother.

### "Sister, you are looking like our mom. I am getting her smile in you?"

### "Really brother! I often miss my parents. Once they alive..."

### "Sister, don't forget to give your salutation to them before going outside and college. They will protect you."

### "Okay brother. How can I disrespect them?"

### Pratiksha was eagerly waiting to meet with Neeloy. She informed her mother about Priyanka's success. Pratiksha mother was very anxious to meet the lonely couple.

### She had a phone call to Neeloy.................

### "Hi Neeloy, how are you? We are coming on tomorrow at your place. Will you be there?"

### Neeloy was being very tensed and scared when he received her call. Next day was a Sunday. Both the couple was at home and enjoying their holiday.

### At Sunday evening, when the couple was alone...

### "Brother, Is there someone knocking the door?" Priyanka asked to Neeloy.

### "May be sister. You don't have to go. Let me see."

### "Hi! Please come. Please aunty..." Neeloy welcomed Pratiksha and her mother.

### "Priyanka come here; Let's see who has come to meet." Neeloy had a loud sound.

### But Neeloy did not disclose anything about his love life to his sister.

### "Hi."

### "Hi Aunty, how are you?"

### "I am fine daughter and congratulation Priyanka."

### "Thank you Aunty."

### "Brother, still you remember her? Till now? Why? Do have..."

### Priyanka had a doubt.

### "Yes sister. How can I forget her? I love her Priyanka."

### "But brother, you did not say a single word about your love life."

### "But Priyanka, I silent due to some circumstances. I will explain you later. Please don't quarrel now?" Neeloy had a request to Priyanka.

### "Take this Priyanka. This is for you." That lady offered a gift to Priyanka.

### "But Why?"

### "What is this Aunty?"

### "There are wrist watches for you both."

### "Thank you aunty."

### Neeloy was scared about their shelter for that night only and scared to share his trouble with his sister.

### "Yes Neeloy, you are right." I said to Neeloy.

### "Priyanka, I want to tell you something?" Neeloy asked to Priyanka.

### "What brother?"

### "See sister, she is my best friend and I love her very much, but it's being already late and I am not sure whether they will go back by tonight or not. There are no more buses at this time and tomorrow is a Monday and you have your classes too."

### "So, what can I do brother?" Priyanka asked to Neeloy.

### "What sister?"

### "Okay brother, the let them stay tonight at our place. I have no more objections."

### "Are you sure sister?"

### "Yes brother, I am serious."

### Actually that lady visited their place due to some reasons and she had a good proposal ahead.

### "Priyanka, I was eagerly waiting to meet you. You are really a very good girl. You are very much strong and adoring."

### "Thank you aunty."

### "You are my younger daughter. Now, I have two daughters." That lady accepted her as her daughter.

### "Priyanka, I want to ask you something?" that lady asked to Priyanka.

### "Okay aunty, you can ask me anything, but before that I want to say you something." Priyanka had a request.

### "What Priyanka?" that lady asked to Priyanka.

### "See aunty, it's already being late. Stay tonight at our cottage and let me cook for you all." Priyanka requested to that lady.

### "No cute, you don't have to cook. I will cook for you all," She even requested to Priyanka.

### "But aunty, you are our guest. Let me do. Let me do that holy work."

### "No Priyanka let me do it. Give a chance to serve and care my two daughters and a son." She already accepted Neeloy as her son.

### "Okay aunty." Priyanka agreed.

### "But aunty, it already late. She has to attend her classes on tomorrow. Please aunty, do it soon. We are very much hungry, I think you both too," Neeloy said to that lady.

" Let us talk and enjoy such a wonderful moment with Pratiksha sister," Priyanka said to that lady.

### "Okay Priyanka. You can enjoy."

### "Brother, she is a very nice woman and a good fellow," Priyanka was saying to Neeloy.

### "Hmm...."

### And by time, she had some nice Indian dishes and one Chinese dish. I missed it.

### "I think you are very hungry and sleepy," that lady said to Priyanka.

### "It's all right aunty. I am not sleepy at all but hungry."

### "But aunty, we will take our dinner together." Priyanka had a wish.

" Sure Priyanka, you are so cute."

### After their joint dinner, Pratiksha and her mother seated differently on a different chair, Priyanka was being busy with her books and Neeloy was leaned against a wall on their bed.

### "Dear, I want to give a good offer." That lady said to Neeloy.

### "What offer aunty?" Neeloy asked.

### "Neeloy, I can understand your condition. You are so young and still struggling and that's a good job."

### "But aunty, I am asking you something."

### "See Neeloy, me elder brother has a well established business in USA and he is still unmarried at his seventy years of ages"

### "So what Aunty?"

### "See Neeloy, you both are very alone here, at his seventy years of ages, he needs a support and care and he needs one helping handed person to handle his business. My mind strikes, when he was offering us and I have suggested your name. I trust you very much. Please, don't misunderstand me."

### "But why me aunty?"

### "Yes you, we have a distant relation with our relatives. I can offer you to go there. He will help you sure and even I am going with Pratiksha. He was agreed. I have no faith on my daughter. She is still like an immature and a very lazy one."

### "But aunty, I have to discuss with my sister. Although, she is very alone here. I am not sure whether she will agree or not."

### "Neeloy, I think you are very worry about her studies."

### "Yes aunty. She is alone without me. I can't leave her alone and she can't leave me alone. She already promised."

### "She has to give some English proficiency tests. Although, she is good at studies and a very serious student."

### "Yes, I know it very well. Let me tell her first, but I am not sure and let see, what she suggest."

### "Neeloy, you want to go there?" that lady asked to Neeloy, but that lady was not a selfish one.

### "Yes, I want to go there, but I don't want to go there alone." Neeloy had an objection.

### "But Pratiksha become silent, when we were discussing about that matter," Neeloy said to me.

### "How she can offer you? Try to understand Neeloy," I replied.

### "See aunty, truly speaking, I am very much happy here with my sister. I respect that offer but I don't know why are you giving me such an offer?" Neeloy asked again to that lady.

### "Dear son, don't misunderstand me and don't think that I am very selfish and greedy. I can give such on offer to our relatives and even to my cousins, but I have noticed that you are the only one who deserves that job, an offer. That offer was from my soul, not from my mind. So, you decide what to do next."

### "That lady cleared my misunderstandings and I can say that, a good luck," Neeloy said to me.

### "So, did you accept her proposal?" I asked to Neeloy.

### "I had to wait for her statement."

### "What did Priyanka suggest you?" I asked him again.

### "I just scared to disclose the matter," Neelon replied.

### "And at the same night, I seated on a floor, beside her bed. She had a sound sleep. My mind did not allow me to disturb her and priyanka was looking so innocent."

### "After that." I asked to Neeloy.

### "I softly touched my idol, gently touched her toes by my fingers. She awaken and very much scared at that dark"

### "What happen brother? What happen?" she was asking breathlessly.

### "Nothing. Be quiet sister."

### "Anything wrong with you brother?" Priyanka was asking to Neeloy.

### "Why are you on the floor alone? Come to the bed."

### "Sister, I am not here to sleep and close my eyes. Sorry to disturb you sister. I am feeling very bad for that." Priyanka become very demanding to know what actually going around.

### "Leave it brother and please let me know, what happened. Why you still awaken?"

### "Actually, Pratiksha's uncle is staying in USA. He is seventy years old and still unmarried. He is an established businessman in USA."

### "So what brother? Let him do his business," Priyanka replied.

### "They are also going there to help him. They suggested me to go there."

### "Then what about me?"

" See sister, I have to help her uncle as an employee. Even I mentioned your name."

### "So, what they said?"

### "They said you could go there along with us. You can study under a good university."

### "Are you serious brother?"

### "Yes sister. It's a big offer."

### "So sister, what to do?" Neeloy asked to Priyanka.

### "It's fine. Let me think tonight."

### "See brother, it's no doubt a good offer, but I don't know them very well. I don't know, what is happening with us?"

### "Yes sister, me too thinking the same."

### "You know brother, everyone want to shine his/ her career. It is a golden offer. But, still my mind is not working, why and how they agreed to help us?" Priyanka had a doubt.

### "It's obvious sister."

### "Actually sister, he is very ill now. He has no many diseases. No one is there to help me."

### "But why you?"

" He was asking her to visit USA. He will bear all the expenses. I don't know how much it was true. He want to meet her lonely sister last time, otherwise he will back from there permanently."

### "Hmm...I understand it now."

### "See brother, I don't that old man very well and you even don't know him. So, let me sure whether that man can arrange a good college or not." Priyanka had a question.

### "Sure sister, I will ask her mother."

### "But sister, you have to appear one more examination, which on English proficiency."

### "Oh I see! I heard about that examination."

### "Sister, it's too late now. Take rest now." Neeloy requested.

### "But, where are you going brother?" Priyanka asked to Neeloy.

### "I will sleep on the floor."

### "Huhh! You don't have to sleep anywhere. You can sleep beside me. Is it okay brother?"

### "Okay sister. But, I can sleep on the floor."

"Sister, do me a favor?" Neeloy asked to Priyanka.

### "What brother?"

### "Is there any important class on tomorrow?"

### "Yes, just one lecture."

### "Can you take a leave on tomorrow?" Neeloy asked to Priyanka.

### "Sure brother."

### "Thanks sister."

### "Actually, I had to discuss something regarding your admission."

### "Okay brother."

### "I am not going to college on tomorrow."

### "It's all right sister."

### "Next day morning I was totally bold. I had to clear my doubts, whether that person able to help my sister or not."

### "Yes brother, you are right. Sometime, we have to listen our heart," I told to Neeloy.

### "As a human being, it's our duty to help others. It's a holy work," Priyanka suggested.

### "May be I am wrong but it was my one inner voice."

### "I can say that you are a good human being. May god bless you? May god save your sister?" I was fully impressed.

### "May god bless you too?" He even blessed me.

" Next day morning, I had a special breakfast with Pratiksha. I seated beside her. She was whispering."

### "See aunty, Priyanka is not only my sister, a mother, a father and a grand father, what I have lost. I respect her more than myself and I love her more than anyone. I don't want to see her tears any more. I can do anything for her."

### "Yes Neeloy, I can understand your words. I know, why you are saying. I realized, how much you love your sister, how much sacred you are. Priyanka is a very lucky girl."

### "Truly speaking, I don't want to leave him alone and I love my brother very much, Priyanka said to that lady."

### "I can't go there alone. I can go only if uncle do me that one favor."

### "No Neeloy, you don't have to go alone. We all are going there and even Priyanka. Don't worry for her enrollment. He has must some way."

### "My brother is very sick now. Once we don't go there he will back to India. No one is there to maintain and handle his business." That lady said to Neeloy.

### "Aunty, I am not sure whether I can score a good marks or not, but I can try my best to score good marks."

### "Yes dear, you have to work hard. I know you can do it."

### "But Neeloy, there is a problem."

### "What problem Aunty?" Neeloy asked to that lady.

### "Right now, he needs a male person to handle his business. Pratiksha is very much alone with me. She is very much weak and she can't help her uncle. So, I want to suggest you to go there as soon as possible." That lady had a request to Priyanka.

### "But, how will it be possible now? It is very much expensive. I am financially very weak."

### "Don't worry Neeloy. I will manage everything."

### "But aunty, I don't know how can I recover it?"

### "Oh god! You are so childish. You don't have to repay it. My brother already sent a huge amount to make passport, visa etc."

### "So, let me sure whether you are going there or not. Otherwise I have to go there alone. Truly speaking, I can't speak English very well. And as a woman, I am very much coward."

### "It's a serious matter. I can declare my final decision by this evening."

### At same day morning, Pratiksha and her mom had some shopping. Neeloy got sufficient time to think and at last the couple decided to go there in USA.

### In the afternoon, there was dark shadow. Neeloy and Priyanka had a hope for a joint lunch and an empty stomach.

### "Priyanka, someone is knocking at the door." Neeloy requested to Priyanka to open the door.

### Priyanka did not notice anyone there. She become very puzzled and was thinking who knock that door. The couple observed a crowd in their locality. There was a banyan tree. Some of their neighbors were standing below the banyan tree. They had tearing face and there was a fearing look. During that time, there was not being a single phone call from Pratiksha.

### "Sanu, what happen?" Neeloy loudly asked to one of his neighbors.

### "Three serial blasts at a time. Don't go outside," Sanu replied.

### Everyone was shouting the same word all around him and it was also announcing the local TV channel. They become very scared. Neeloy made a call to Pratiksha number but it was being switched off. He tried several times. He did not even take his lunch. It was already too late. Priyanka was asking to make a call to that woman's number.

### "But sister, I don't have her number."

### "Sister, it's already late. Take your food," Neeloy requested to Priyanka.

### "Brother, I think, they already back to their city," Priyanka guessed.

### "But how they can go? It's not possible," Neeloy told to Priyanka.

### "See brother, it's now 7 PM. They should at least make one call," Priyanka replied.

### At around 7.45 PM, the couple was seated on their staircase with an empty stomach.

### "Priyanka, I think they have come."

### They noticed one government ambulance in front of their place.

### "Who is she?" Priyanka asked to Neeloy.

### "Oh god! She is aunty. Let's move. Where is Pratiksha? She is crying sister."

### "Do you know her?" A stranger asked to Neeloy.

### "Yes, yes, she is my aunty."

### "Listen, her daughter has seriously injured and admitted into a state government hospital."

### "Oh no!"

### "I even cried with my mates."

### "What?" Neeloy astonished,

### "Don't cry aunty. Everything will be fine."

### "I lost myself. I have lost everything." Pratiksha's mother was crying loudly.

### "Priyanka, I am going to the hospital with my friends and don't forget to take your food and don't let her hungry. I am going."

### "Due to blasts, it was being very difficult to go anywhere outside home."

### One of his friends, agreed to go with Neeloy. They faced lot of difficulties. There was a huge cry and crowd inside the hospital and by the help of one police officer, Neeloy entered that female word. There were nine stitches. She was crying, when she notice him with her drowsy eyes.

### "Are you all right?"

### "Did you take your lunch?" Pratiksha asked. Unanswering to Neeloy's question.

### It's pure and a sacred love. It's affection.

### "Take rest. Don't worry, I am here. You rest now. I am beside of you."

### "You have a little injury. Tomorrow I will talk to the doctor. He will discharge you soon."

### Next day, they discharged Pratiksha. That day, Neeloy did not take a single drop of water. After that, they started living at Neeloy's place until she becomes cure. And on the other hand, that old man going very restless and she had to attend his phone calls. Her mind was not working to control the situation alone. Her own daughter and another one to her own brother were blocking her two hands. She was in big dilemma and very much confused. She did not even forced Neeloy to look after her brother. Priyanka, allowed her brother to go there in USA to look after him and his business. And they started living at Neeloy's place to look after Priyanka's studies.

### "Aunty, I am leaving my heart and my soul at your hands. Take care her like your own daughter. Try to handle her with care." Neeloy had a request.

### "Sure Neeloy, I will try my best to look after my two daughters." That woman assured.

### Neeloy left his place for a couple of months to check the situation. That old man was being a good human being. She already arranged one seat for Priyanka into one good medical college under one good university in USA. Pratiksha was fully cured. And after that they shifted to USA.

### And after couple of years, that old man expired. Neeloy had to marry Pratiksha. Priyanka was being happy with her new city and new college. She is still an unmarried, as she promised that she would never marry anyone. Priyanka is now being a good doctor. Priyanka is being a showcase baby at their place. She was being a single heart.

### A year later, there was a newborn. The whole family was enjoying with the new one and three years later, Pratiksha had a car accident and she expired. Neeloy become alone and still alone with his daughter and with other members.

### His last e-mail to me-----------

## "Nothing I have expected, expected a dream to live and a hope to survive."

### "God bless you brother. May you live long?" Mr. Pintu had his last comment with one huge salutation to Neeloy.

### That was a real dedication. It is very difficult to dedicate and help others. We have to help all living entity. I am saluting Neeloy on his huge dedication. No doubt, the story forced my tears to fall endlessly.

#  PART EIGHT

###### PART # EIGHT

### At last, I have decided to explain them one more real story, which was so soft and touchy. It was about our all-physical boundaries. Even I had one best friend, named as Rakesh. His story touched my heart. Still I am remembering him and missing him very much. Such an incident with human hearts can dishearten anyone. I don't know about you all, but it touched my heart.

### I had one more Sunday, before leaving that shelter..............

### "Dear big brother, are you free today?" I asked to Mr. Pintu

### "But why? " Mr. Pintu asked to me.

### "It's already raining outside. So...."

### "Do you have any more work?"

### "No dear, but why are you asking. Is there any special program."

"It's all right. Yes, you can taste my new dish."

### "Yes..." Everyone agreed to taste it.

### "Don't be late. Brig it soon," Neelon requested to me.

### "So delicious!" they tasted my dish.

"See, you all are being my elders. I don't know whether you will mind or not."

### "Mind on what? Let us know." They requested.

### "I have one good story. It can help you. Can I explain?"

### "Sure, my cute brother."

### "Thank you guys."

### My friend, Rakesh was a very young and a good friend of mine. I liked his simplicity nature. He is so understood. I can't say him as a jack-of-all-trades. He always tried himself to help others. He often shared his feelings. He had one more closed friend, Anjali. She was being a student of Master of Science.

### My first visit to Rakesh's place was very thoughtful. I noticed Anjali at his place with a book. Half of his room was totally occupied by books. They were discussing regarding a project seminar. I felt very bad to my uncertainty.

### "Brother Rohit, you have to help me on some regards."Anjali was asking in front of me.

### "What kind of help?" Rakesh asked.

### "See brother, I come of a very poor family. My father has got to maintain a very large family with a very small income. He cannot bear my educational expenses owing to poverty," Anjali said to Rakesh.

### "How much you are getting from your family for your expenses?" Rakesh asked to Anjali with his dark look.

### "Me Rakesh?"

### "Yes, off course you," Rakesh replied.

### "See brother, I am just getting rupees five hundred. It is not being sufficient. I can't force my parents to add more."

### "See Anjali, it's all our middle class family burdens. It will never end. It is always elongating by our day to day life and will never end until we become established and until we try our best to stop it a little."

### "See Anjali, you have to manage your studies by this amount."

" But I have managed and now am getting rupees fifteen hundred. It is now sufficient for my daily and necessary expenses."

" How?" I asked her as a stranger. I did not mention her name. I did not know her well and she was a very cool girl.

### "It's a secret."

### "Please tell me sister. Let me know about it," Rakesh asked to Anjali.

### "It's very simple. I am helping two class eight students as their private tutor. It's really a tough job."

### "So, did you manage your schedule properly? I think it will badly effect on your studies." Rakesh did not support Anjali.

### "Yes Rakesh. My schedule is being tough now, but I have no more option. I have to study and I have to work hard to shine my career."

### "It's really a good spirit, but be careful sister," Rakesh said to Anjali.

### "Anjali, can I ask you something?" Rakesh asked to Anjali.

### "Sure Rakesh."

### "As a so called sister, you are always welcome at my place, but you have to mention the purpose of your steps at my places. Please don't mind."

### "Don't you trust me brother? Can't I come?"

### "Yes sure. Don't misunderstand me please."

### "Brother, you have to help me. I have a good proposal for you. I will never force you, but you can do it for your own convenience."

" What was that?" Rakesh asked to Anjali.

### "Nothing is serious. There is a girl, who needs a science teacher. Being an engineering student, you can easily help her. That helpless girl can bless you."

### "See Anjali, I have to ask my parents. Even I am not sure whether they will allow me or not. So, let me ask them first. I even come of a very lower class family," Rakesh replied.

### After their conversations, Anjali left that place with an endless hope. I was present there. Rakesh, was a very good cook. Actually that day, he invited me to taste some dishes he prepared. But, my breath stopped when I think about Anjali. I heard a few line about Anjali. She had to maintain her whole family rather than her studies. She was a very beautiful girl. All boys are crazy to her. Her undemanding and inactive attitudes helped her to achieve her dream. She had a comment, during their conversations. It obviously, touched my heart.

### "You know sister?"

### "What Rakesh?"

### "Some boys are crazy for you."

### "Yes brother, I can realize it."

### "You don't know our girls. Sometime girls are very tough," Anjali said to Rakesh.

### "How sister?" Rakesh asked to Anjali.

### "How means? You are very much foolish," Anjali replied.

### "See brother, it's very simple. Usually girls are very simple and never argue if not necessary. When a girl refuses any boy's proposal then that person at least realize how tough the world is! How tough to convince someone and on her refusal, he can realize a tough world. It can change a person and on the other hand, whenever mothers birth her child and through her, the new one can realize how beautiful and tough the world is! That is a girl;" It impressed me and still I remembered her all words.

### "Well said by Anjali." Mr. Pintu and Rishabh complimented.

### Three days later................

### "I have to visit his room again. That was very early in the morning. I was being from same engineering college. We had a joint study

### before our semester exam. That day, Anjali even visited with her same proposal. She promised that student's guardian that she would help her daughter. That doors were being closed from inside. She knocked twice."

### "Who is that?" Rakesh was shouting from inside. As a boy, he was very lazy.

### "It's me Anjali." A mild feminine voice had to be listening.

### "Wait wait...I am coming."

### "Brother, leave the bed soon. Do it soon. Dress properly. Let me open the door. I am going." Rakesh had a request to leave his bed.

### "Hi, how are you?" Anjali asked me on her pleasant smile.

### "Me fine, doing well," Anjali replied.

### After that I misplaced myself from that room and was being busy with studies in one another room. They day, Anjali stayed there just for a while. Rakesh did not disclose me about their discussion.

### "She is a very decent girl. Am I right?" I asked Rakesh.

### "Yes brother. You are absolutely right," Rakesh replied.

### "See brother, I have no sister, but I am very happy now to have a good and cute sister like her."

" Moreover she is beautiful too," I told to Rakesh.

### "Hmm..."

### "So, do you like Anjali? What happen? Can I help you?" Rakesh had a fun with me.

### "Not at all. You don't have to help me. I respect Anjali as my friend and nothing else."

### And after the semester examination, I had a tour there in Chennai with my parents and was out of contact from my all friends. I had a leave from my regular classes, but had a contact with Rakesh.

### Let's see how Rakesh managed his teaching and students life...

### "Rakesh, he is my daughter Riya. She is very weak in Science and Mathematics. So, you have to help her and you have to help her until her final examination." Riya's mother, at his first step at their place.

### "See aunty, I will try my best. I don't know whether I can help her or not, but will try." Rakesh promised.

### "Brother, I am now being a newborn teacher." Rakesh informed me via mobile text services.

### "So, you already started. It was good brother." I supported Rakesh.

### "Yes brother, I stepped into a new life's experience," Rakesh replied.

### "So, did you talk to her?" I asked him.

### "Yes, I talked."

### "You are a shy one. You are very shy and it is more than enough."

### "Yes brother, you are right. But brother, she is even a shy one. Seeming, she is very brilliant. But brother, there is a problem?"

### "What problem?" I asked him very suddenly.

### "Language problem?" Rakesh replied.

### "Oh my god! It's almost similar," Neelon shouted.

### "Her mother tongue is Hindi, but I cannot speak Hindi very properly."

### "Don't worry brother. I will help you." Rakesh was being worried about his new stepped profession.

### "Please come soon from Chennai, I have to explain you many things," Rakesh requested me to come back.

### "But brother, I can't come alone. It's possible whenever my father will be cured." I had a pain to my father.

### "I will pray for your father and for you too."

### "Thanks Rakesh."

### "Winter has already started here. Too cold to walk and move outside."

### "Really!!"

### "But brother, there was one more incident with me," Rakesh replied.

### "What incident? At college or at home?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "Nowhere brother. Our classes are going well. All of your friends are asking about you?" Rakesh replied.

### "Why Rakesh?"

### "How can I say?" Rakesh replied.

### "Do you know a girl named as Jannavee?" Rakesh asked to me.

### "Yes brother."

### "She was asking about you. Did you talk to her earlier?"

### Rakesh asked again.

### "What happen brother? You too...." Mr. Pintu commented me again.

### "Oh no!"

### "But brother, I did not talk to her earlier," I replied to Rakesh.

### "But Jannavee was asking about your new contact number and about your residential address."

" Say her that I am now in Chennai and I am now busy here with my parents and will come back soon and one more thing, don't give her my contact numbers," I requested to Rakesh.

### "Don't worry brother. I will manage it." Rakesh assured me.

### "How your classes going on? Is there anything new at your tuition classes," I asked to Rakesh.

### "Nothing is new brother. I don't know what I am feeling and within a while, I have changed myself. I have purchased some good books for her. I think it will help her further."

### "She is very lucky." I considered.

### "I want to tell you something. I can express once you don't laugh."

### He was requesting me many times, but I guessed, something is going on his mind. He was becoming happy. It was a smile of a poor heart.

### "Sure brother. I can listen it now comfortably," I replied.

### "Brother, she has long curly hairs. She is so cute and just like a doll. She is so cute."

" Again two hearts are going to be united," Neelon commented.

### "He he he..." I smiled.

### "Trust me brother, I have shared it with my mother,"

### Rakesh replied.

### "You are a mad." I was just kidding.

### "Her parents like me. Her father is a very mild and cool fellow and they have given me a good name?"

### "What?"

### "What name Rakesh?" It was being so curious.

### "That name was 'Baba'."

### "They added one...he he. After all a good name."

### "But brother, I am not being so happy at all; here I am feeling very alone without you." I hid my troubles.

### "Why brother? What happened?" Rakesh asked to me.

### "Nothing brother. All physicians are trying their best. A single cool breath is going difficult here. I love my parents very much, but I am very scared here. I want to give them all comforts. If possible, please pray for him. I am facing some difficulties here like blood bank problems, medicines purchasing and a lot. I don't know why god is punishing we poor. I want to smile and laugh."

### "Don't worry brother, you have a good heart. God Jesus will surely help you and I am always with you and with your shadow. I am with you in any circumstances. By the way, did you visit any Churches? Don't forget to pray our lord Jesus."

### "Yes brother, I am praying to god to cure him soon. Here I have a Bible. Can't I ever displace my shadow? I love you brother. Missing you very much." My heart was completely broken.

### "Don't forget to pray," Rakesh suggested.

### "By the way, what was your first lesson at your tuition classes?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "Optics."

### "Very good. You had a good concept on optics." I replied.

### "My first classes were fine at her place. She understood properly my all words."

### "Very good."

### "Now, I am going there three times in a week, but I think, just three days are not being enough to clear her doubts," Rakesh explained.

" As you know, I usually reach home from my college at around 5.20 pm. And I am always going late to their places. She sometime argue with me and moreover, she sometime laugh at my tongue."

### "I think you are very happy now, but brother don't forget to concentrate you on your regular classes and studies." It was being my one suggestion. He was too shy.

### "Brother, that girl is very understanding. Sometime she laughs at my dresses, as I am being so formal."

### "Why she laughs?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "She doesn't like my formal dresses, but she is more formal than me. She often suggests me to put on casual dresses."

### "So, you are being a good friend? Take care of her studies."

### "Her friends are commenting that I am very much young, a young teacher." We had a late night conversations via mobile texts. Some of her friends saw him at their places. But, Rakesh was a good fellow. I have realized it many more times.

### "By the way, I forgot to ask you about her name?" I asked to Rakesh to disclose her name.

### "Yes, her name is Riya."

### "So cute. May god bless her?"

### Her studies were going well. Riya was happy with her new teacher. In the selection test, she scored good marks in science and mathematics and even scored good marks at her elective subject.

### And on the other hand, my father was being cure. A few days were left to back from Chennai city. I was completely relaxed and the day before leave the Chennai city, I visited the marina beach with my parents. My parents were enjoying themselves near at sea shore. I saw there many young and old age couples. There was no roaring. They had a silent smile. I got my self very deserted against those strikes. I was feeling myself very alone on that desert. I was obviously missing someone, a hand to tide myself, that someone whom I love most, but I got no one to tie my hands and to feel mw warm. But, there was a girl whom I liked most, but my inner voice did not allow me to go through it. Like you all, I even come from a very small town, but my purpose was completely different to join into an engineering college. That's why, I had a silent smile and I hid my all sorrows in the beneath of my heart, depth was immeasurable. But, I never tried to pull over it. I can say that I adjusted it soundly with my societies. You people can laugh at me because I am very uncommon. It's true.

### A few days later, I back to that city where I was studying; all of them were waiting for me. I lost my mobile phone in the Chennai city. Out side home, it was being a good city. Our journey was lasted near about fifty hours. In that coach, I was the youngest boy and I got a very friendly relation with all those passengers. But, journey was too boring by myself. There was a fifty years old woman with her husband. Everything was fine there, but suddenly my mind focused on Rakesh's activities as I promised to his parents that I would look after their son.

### I got one from taste when I reached. Let's see..........

### "Did you visit anywhere today?" Riya asked to Rakesh. (During a Tiffin time)

### "Where Riya and why?" Rakesh asked to Riya.

### "I mean some parks or a restaurant with someone," Riya replied.

### "Sorry Riya. I don't understanding. What are you saying? Let it clear? Please...." Rakesh requested.

### "Today is a Valentine day." She had an onion smile on her face.

### "So what?" Rakesh replied.

### "Too boring." Rishabh commented.

### "Really sir, you very much bore, a boring fellow. Don't have you someone to whom you..." Her incomplete words touched his heart. He become very silent and fell a tiny droplet on her science book.

### "What happen Sir? Did I hurt you?" Riya asked with a fear and she become red faced.

### "No Riya. You are not. I am fine," Rakesh replied.

### "Then why are you crying? Wipe your tears otherwise someone will notice you." She had a request.

### "You are very young and you should not be disheartened on such things."

### "See Riya, there is not a single someone whom I like most, but many ones whom I likes most."

### "Hmm...."

### "I can't create such relationship with any one. It's not possible."

### "It's why?" Riya asked to Rakesh.

### "Riya, I am very poor. I am here at your place to help my studies and make my career; a dream is ahead to make a place among those toppers. As a boy, I am very much expensive and I have a bookworm habit. I am unable to taste that sweet one, which god has created."

### "Sir, I am very much immature and I am just three years younger than you, but I can understand your troubles. I want to see you laugh; they're having a dark shadow on your face. You have to smile and cheers like others." She had a silent reply.

### "See Riya, you are very younger than me. You have a strong family back ground, but I am from a middle class family. There was someone at my college days, Still I don't know whether that girl liked me or not. Now all my feelings have been squeezed. I don't want to public my feelings."

### He had a real feeling. I had to support him and truly speaking, studying such a professional course was not an easy task. He knew it very well.

### At last, she had cleared her all doubts, a distant feeling and a feeling for someone.

### "So, did you ever propose that girl?"

### "No. I never proposed anyone," Rakesh simply replied.

### "We had a good friendship and my all friends even teased me by her name."

### "Leave it. I am really sorry if I hurt you today," Riya requested to Rakesh.

### "Sir, how long have you studied before your final examination? Could you please explain?"

### "Yes, I almost studied 13 yrs per day. I had just two private tutors."

### "That was good. So, you are a hard working student." She had a comment.

### "Hmm.... I hoped for the best."

### "Sir, I have to work hard, but I am not so much brilliant like you and a very lazy one. Don't forget to support me."

### "Brother, Riya is a good girl and very decent and polite. But, Still I am shy in front of Riya. I am trying my best to guide and help her." I had a discussion with Rakesh at our college garden.

### "But brother, I want to ask you something?" I was very much worries about his career. I realized, he completely devoted himself to make her career best. As a boy, he was very much helping handed.

### "Brother Rakesh, are you studying properly? Hope you are attending your all classes. Don't mind for asking." That was one my humanity. I had to ask for the sake of good friendship.

### "It's okay."

### "Yes brother, I am studying properly and attending my all classes regularly," Rakesh replied.

### "See Rakesh, Don't mind for asking. You are being a good friend of mine."

### "My pleasure brother," Rakesh replied.

### "But brother, if you get a free time then visit our place for a moment. I have to discuss something."

### "Okay, I can try it today."

### "By the way, when are you going for the classes? Everyone is asking about you. You become very demanding." he had a pleasant smile.

### "Very soon brother. Let him cure first," I replied.

### And by time, he becomes fully cured. It pleased me very much. We had a huge expenditure there in Chennai. My father borrowed rupees twenty-five thousands and by time we had to repay it with a huge interest.

### Day was a Sunday; Rakesh visited our place to meet my father. He had a lot of questions. I had a separate reading room. My parents requested him for a lunch among us. Usually, I did not allow my friends at my place. I never a narrow minded. All of my friends had a different looks and ideology and I never accepted them as my idol. Almost all of friends were rich but a poor from hearts. They were not sometime. They often teased me on same regards. That was the only reason for not allowing my friends at our places.

### "What happen Rakesh? You wanted to explain me something? Am I right?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "Yes brother. Let me take a cold breath. I will surely explain it to you," Rakesh replied.

### "I have an assignment, part of which is about air resistance and gravitational force. I want to submit it into one good and well known university?"

### "Was it a thesis?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "Yes, may be."

### "One of my professors has advised me to contact the head of the department of Physics of a good university." At last, Rakesh explained.

### "Rakesh that was a very good job. Let me think. I know someone.

### He might help you." I become excited to know about the assignment.

### "Yes, got it."

### "What brother?" Rakesh asked me.

### "Yes brother, you can ask and consult my one professor. He is a good man and none but only he can help you. He is working under one good university. You can send him a letter." I wished to help him.

### "Brother, you are a good boy. God bless you," Mr. Pintu commented.

### "Yes, you are," Rishabh too.

### "Rakesh, can I suggest you something?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "Yes, sure brother," Rakesh replied.

### "Truly speaking, I respect your good work. I can try my best to help you, but by me, it will be better if you first complete your engineering degree and a get a job and then think ideas like these. I am sure that after your degree you will be able to get a good job and then will have developed better contacts with professionals in your field who can comment on your work."

### "But brother, I don't want to study here."

### "Then what are you expecting?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "I want to study aerospace engineering, but I am not sure. I am in a big dilemma," Rakesh replied.

### "Brother, it is being a good engineering department. Here, Indian Institute of Technology is providing such courses."

### "But brother, it is not being possible to appear in IIT."

### "Why impossible?"

### "There must have some criterion. Do you think is it possible to appear one more time with my added engineering studies."

### "But brother, I sent a letter to the University of Cambridge." At last, he was disclosing.

### "Wow!! It's great." I commented.

### "It was good. So, what they replied?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "There was a single letter from the university of Cambridge, you can read it."

### Listen what the director of research replied..........

### "Your letter to the department of physics was passed to this department, because you are currently enrolled at an engineering college. May I compliment you on your very god English?

### As I understand your letter, you wish to send a thesis part of which is about air resistance and gravitational force.

### I am afraid there is no real point in your sending your thesis to the Cambridge. Cambridge does not award degrees except to students who are studying here.

### If what you want is an expert opinion about your thesis, you should first get the help of the professors in your own college or the other excellent university professors in India, because it will be much easier and less costly to do this.

### Cambridge University cannot help you financially, either.

### I send you my good wishes."

### It was being one suggestion of an expert of the University of Cambridge, but by me, he was telling him the truth.

### "But brother, I got one more reply from one our Indian scientists," Rakesh was explaining about the tough phases.

### "So, did it help you either?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "Yes brother, he helped me."

### "As you are a student of Engineering, you could have referred to your professor from your college. I don't know why you are approaching me. Moreover at your place there is an IIT. You may contact a professor from IIT.

### After knowing the above details I would be pleased to help you if possible."

### "Truly speaking Rakesh, that professor was right," I commented.

### "Riya even read those letters and she was almost happy. She blessed me fully."

### "But brother, my path is being tough. Sometime I cry. I don't know whether I can reach to my goal or not. It is going tough for me. It was being my childhood dream to do something for my parents and for my nation."

### "Don't be disheartening brother. God will help you. No one is happy here, even a richest person partially."

### "Brother, I don't know," Rakesh replied.

### "But brother, I am feeling very sad. It is going very tough; No one is going to read the assignment as I am not a postgraduate."

### "There must some way. Be optimistic." I was trying myself to help Rakesh.

### "By the way, what about Riya? Are you going there regularly?" I asked to divert his mind for a while.

### "Yes brother. She is now trusting me more."

### "What about her final examination?" I asked to know about her studies.

### "She is very busy with her books."

### "Do you think she will get a good rank?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "I hope so. Her preparation is going good. She can score at least 80% marks."

### "Good."

### But Rakesh becoming very restless regards the submission of his assignment. He was completely determined and within a couple of

### Months, he had received many letters from some UK Universities.

### I was one such a lucky one, as I read a letter, which was being 10 Downing Street, London, from PMO.

" Dear Mr....

### The Prime Minister has asked me to thank you for your recent letter.

### The honorable Prime Minister would like to reply you personally, but as you will appreciate he receives many thousands of letters each week and this is not possible.

### The matter you raise is the responsibility of the foreign and commonwealth office, therefore he has asked that your letter to be forwarded to that department so that they also aware of your

### views. "

### I know how much he tried, but there was a barrier to make corresponds with those officials. It was going difficult to that middle class boy. He often saved his pocket money to make corresponds with those universities. He was in illusion. There was a reality at each letters. God saved him and at last, he got an offer from the University of Manchester, University of Surrey, University of Leeds and University of Hertfordshire. At last, these universities congratulated him and asked to tell him that they are offering him a place for the Aerospace engineering. He was almost happy, not a single one was being satisfactory. He became very tense for his career. He had no more interest to study at my college.

### "Rakesh, do have you her contact her?" I didn't know what I am asking.

### "Yes brother, she already started text messaging," Rakesh replied.

### "Love never await," Rishabh commented.

### "But brother, I don't know why I am thinking so much about Riya."

### "Be serious brother. Don't think too much. Do what your mind says." I had one suggestion. And a few months later, he becoming very serious to studies and it was looking good. I asked to know about the reasons.

### "What happen Rakesh? Anything serious?"

### "No brother, I am fine."

### "But you are looking so different."

### "Nothing brother. Actually, my father has just retired from his service. So, my tough time has come."

### "Everything will be all right. By the way, did you ever talk to Jannavee? She was asking about you?"

### "Yes Rakesh, I talked to her. I don't know what she want, but she like you very much, a crazy one."

### "What brother?"

### "Leave it. Take care of your studies."

### "Rakesh, I am very much worry about my family and I have no such strength to think about those friends. Me too thinking a good career. We having no permanent resident and have to leave that government quarter."

### "Hero, you had done a good job." All of them supported me.

### But on the other hand, his parents strongly supported him to make his career good. I realized a strong determination. I had to salute him and his parents. His mother was a very cool woman and a helping handed woman, but Riya's family was financially strong, but Riya

### was a girl of honor and one more time Rakesh become very cheering and visited during one holiday at our place.

### "Brother, I got it"

### "Read it, it is from Andrews University, Michigan, USA." We cheered.

### "I read his one more letter, which was from Andrews University, Berrien Springs, Michigan. They mentioned that they pleased to know that he has been accepted as an undergraduate student at Andrews University, beginning spring semester. In his application, materials he indicated that his major in Aviation Technology, but for some program he would need to complete an additional application process for full admission to that program.

### That University authority also happy to let him know that he qualified for an Andrews Partnership Scholarship (APS) of $4000 for each of his four years at Andrews University, as long as he is enrolled full time with 12 credit hours or more for eight semesters and maintain a satisfactory academic report, but to receive that scholarship at the freshman level, he would need to begin his freshman year on the Berrien Springs campus of Andrews University, but the APS for incoming freshman, having less than 24 college credits, is based on high school GPA and ACT/SAT scores. For transfer students, having more than 24 college credits, APS is based on a cumulative GPA of all college work. As needed, the APS will be adjusted and award to eligible students once they have received all final official transcripts and/ or test scores (If he plan to take his ACT or SAT again for a possible higher scholarship amount, those scores need to be submitted six weeks before his term of study begins) finally as he plan for his future studies at Andrews University, he can note that orientation program for spring semester.

### They look forward to welcome him to the Andrews University in few weeks. They wish that their prayers were with him as he prepare for the next step for his future. They know that Andrews University will be a place where he seek knowledge, affirm faith and changes the world."

### And it was certainly pleased him and even his family members, but I didn't know whether they accept their assignment or not, but heard that he received a certificate worth $16000.

### He was a miser at his career. He shared all his sorrows with me, but never about his career. Sometime it made me astonish.

### After that, we had a tough schedule. Rakesh was going regularly to the College. I faced one more girl, Jannavee. Rakesh was a few months younger than Jannavee. She was crazy for Rakesh. We usually shared our Tiffin during our lunch break. One day, Jannavee had to share her lunch with us.

### "You are not remembering me at all." Jannavee had a few words with me. We usually provided our College canteen.

### "How Jannavee?" Rakesh asked.

### "See Priyangshu, being a college mate, you should at least inform me."

### "Wow brother! It's a good name," Mr. Pintu commented.

### "Very clever. He hid it." Rishabh had a comment.

### "At last..."

### "I informed Rakesh only."

### "Dear Jannavee, I know it very well that you people are always beside me, but in some regards we are very helpless and ideal."

### "Priyangshu, I can understand it very well," She replied me.

### "There in Chennai, I needed a very helping handed person. I missed him very much and needed a person to help me. None but my parents understood but didn't disclose it too."

### "By the way Rakesh, do have you any elder brother?"

### "Yes, the boy seated beside you." Rakesh had a funny reply.

### "Oh Priyangshu!!"

### "Is it Priyangshu?"

### "No dear elder sister, we are just kidding."

### "Is it?"

### "Don't need to call me as your elder sister." Jannavee had a request.

### "Priyangshu, if you don't mind could you please go outside for a while?"

### "But Why? I have to listen."

### "Please.."

### "Okay. It's all right."

### "But why Jannavee? He can seat here."

### "Please Rakesh. Try to understand." She had a request.

### "Don't worry brother. Even I have to go to the office room. Enjoy."

### I did not comment anything on their conversations and was enjoying my lunch under the same roof. Jannavee was a very beautiful and a smart girl. She had a soft corner and I realized it from the beginning. They had a quiet moment and Rakesh was looking very serious inside the canteen. I just scared for a moment. As a boy, he was the best, but a sentimental one.

### Let me explain, what happened inside the canteen...

### "See Rakesh, I am very much weak in studies. I already lost my one-year engineering studies and you are being now a senior student. Our senior junior conversations may be odd looking by others, but we had a same birth year."

### "So what Jannavee?" Rakesh had a very tough look.

### "Yes Jannavee, you are right. I am thinking so. If you don't mind can we talk outside the canteen? Someone will notice it? "

### Rakesh was feeling very scared at the canteen. The canteen was just opposite to his department.

### "Yes, you are right," Jannavee replied.

### "But Rakesh, let me finish my Tiffin. You are very shy and childish. Be bold."

### "It's my own style. I like my simplicity, but I don't like my smartness."

### "It's all right. Don't be angry. I afraid you."

### "Rakesh do have you any other classes after the lunch?"

### "Yes one theory class and I have to attend it. It's my favorite one."

### "Which one?" Jannavee asked.

### "Digital system."

### "But, why are you asking me?" Rakesh asked to Jannavee.

### "This is because; I have no other classes after the lunch."

### It takes near about 1.30 hrs to reach at my places. I realized, she had a fear to share her feelings.

### "Rakesh, your brother is going towards the department. Did you notice it? Did I disappoint him?"

### "How could I say," Rakesh replied.

### "But Jannavee let me leave. I have to convince him. Like me, he is very sentimental."

### "Listen please......" Jannavee was requesting.

### "What?" Rakesh asked again.

### "Can I wait for you at the bus stand?" She requested to Rakesh.

### "But I am going late......."

### "Oh!"

### "Please Rakesh, Can I wait? Please."

### "A crazy girl. That's a desire." Rishabh had a comment.

### "Yes, you can wait. Let me go now. our Professor is very punctual."

### Actually he had to convince Priyangshu.

### "You love him very much?"

### "Whom?"

### "Priyangshu?"

### "Yes."

### "Yes, he is my idol."

### "Ba bye......, wait there, I am coming back soon."

### I observed her dried look. She was alone at the College bus stand and she did not catch a single bus. She waited more than one hour. That day, we had a class test, but we did not disclose it in front of Janavee and after the class, I had to come with Rakesh to the bus stand. He partially explained about that conversation. Jannavee had a dried smiling face when we reached near the bus stand. She had a hoped behind her looks. We were being out campus students. I caught my bus alone. That bus was fully being crowded by hostellers and outsiders. but the couple waited for one another bus. But they did not catch any buses. They walked together almost 2 kilometers. And in the late night, we had a mobile text messaging.

### "Brother, do you think we can be friends?"

### "But brother, we are already friends." I had a cleared reply.

### "I know, we are the best, but I am asking about Jannavee."

### "She expressed her feelings. She like me."

### "So, what did you reply?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "Nothing brother, a bit silent."

### "I was asking for a good friendship, not for a serious one, but she did not force me to reply soon,"

### "Then..."

### "But I realized, she love me."

### "Great brother. At last, you got someone to share your feelings." I had a fun.

### "Not at all brother. I have mentioned and cleared her one thing that I have no extra time for such relationship. Now my family is ahead and there is enough time ahead to make such a relation. It will hurt my parents. So..."

### "May be she a good and not being counted among others?" I had one comment.

### "Brother, I have no such interest to count her characteristics. By observing the morning you can't predict whether the day will be rainy or sunny," Rakesh replied.

"It's a universal truth. I don't know, who wrote such an wonderful line."

### "Yes Rakesh, you are right."

### "So, I can say that she proposed you first."

### "I don't know, but me not."

### "Great. Such cases are very rare."

### "See Priyangshu, I am not a romantic fellow. I am very much lazy and worthless and a boring too. I don't know my fortune. I don't know how long I can maintain such a relationship. I have no faith on myself."

### "But brother, let me know first, whether you like her or not."

### "I don't know whether I love her or not, but can say I like her as a friend."

### "But, one thing is striking my mind and heart badly." Rakesh had a trouble.

### "What happen Rakesh?"

### "A fear of love." Mr. Pintu commented.

### "Do you think, a single word 'yes' can change my life."

### "How brother?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "See brother, our status is completely different. I have so many burdens. I don't know what will happen after completion of my degree. My one job is very essential to help my parents. My parents are supporting me very much. They can realize my expenditure and I had a dream to study aerospace engineering."

### "Yes Rakesh, I can understand it."

### "But dear, there is a good news for you."

### "What? About someone."

### "Please Rakesh..." I was being very excited.

### "Anjali was asking about you. Hope she is too...I mean may be she like you....he he...and moreover she was asking about your contact number."

### "Did you give my number to Anjali?" I was happy for that news.

### "No brother. I didn't give it."

### "Good."

### "What you think brother? I would not give her your contact number, but I already given it to Anjali." Rakesh had a good job and she was very decent and at my first sight had a soft corner to her. I liked her all activities and as a girl, she was being very responsible. I was very much crazy for her, but not so crazy and disclosed it to my heart and hid it by my sorrows and tears.

### "Brother, you too." Neelon had a single comment.

### "Okay Rakesh, you can ask her, whether she is serious about me or not." I asked to confirm myself.

### "See brother, in my every text messages, I mention you name. She is becoming your second fan, but I can't say whether she love you or not, but she like and respect you. It has confirmed."

### "What Rakesh? Are you mad or what?" Rakesh helped me to express my feelings.

### "Dear Rakesh, I am very much shy. I don't know why I am shy. It's really a funny job when you express your feelings in front of a girl at least. It's not possible to express my feelings, but I can comfortably suffer a pain, even her refusal."

### "Yes, you a great man." Rakesh had a comment.

### "It is better to share your feelings with someone rather to live alone. It can make you an easy mind. A heart which is free from all woes has always a twin mind." Rakesh had a brief explanation about love. He wanted to see me happy, but I had not a single comment.

### "Yes Rakesh, I can feel at least what love is! I can just feel it, but not its taste."

### "Big brother, I even think that in this modern mechanization world, it is going difficult to trust someone and it is going difficult to get a someone trustworthy."

### "Yes Rakesh, you are right."

### "Some of my friends are still suffering. They are still trying to forget their past, but not a single one can get rid of. I don't know what is behind love. A human being always tries to realize how beautiful it is! Some are for sometime and some are forever. We always claim on love, but love does not differentiate on anything." I had a comment.

### "Please Priyangshu; say something about Anjali, something about your decision. Today she will ask me again and I have to reply her."

### "Trust me brother, my mind is not working. Let me think it tonight. I will inform you soon, may be tomorrow."

### "Sure?"

### "Yes brother, it's certain."

### That day, I did not asleep properly and was thinking about Anjali and I bounded to send her a message in the early morning.

### "Rakesh, are you sleepy now?"

### "No brother, but why?"

### "You still awaken? Ideal your mind and take rest," Rakesh said to me.

### "Rakesh, if you don't mind, can I ask you something?" I wanted to ask him something.

### "Nothing." I suddenly replied.

### "Please brother! Let me know it," Rakesh was requesting me.

### "Dear Rakesh, I had my past and a forgotten love."

### "So what Priyangshu?"

### "It's not an easy task to forget her. I can't forget. Still I love her."

### "Do you think, still she has a soft corner for you?" Rakesh was asking several questions.

### "Brother, what are you asking? I don't know whether she like or not, but still I respect her and yes, still I love her."

### "Yea Priyangshu, I can understand your feelings. I can understand your troubles. Sorry brother."

### "By god, still I am surviving and trying best to survive." I was being fully fossilized.

### "See Priyangshu, someone said, past is your experience, present is your experiment and future is an expectation. So, you should use your experience in your experiment to achieve your expectation. It will certainly help you."

### "See Rakesh, I am not going to do any experiment on my expectation. Still I am being confused about my love, a love, which has apart from myself, and better if I experiment on my expecting career. No doubt, it's now bitter in taste, but it has a sweet taste ahead."

### "Priyangshu, you are very much thoughtful."

### "No brother, I am not like that. I have learnt so many things from my past; I have learnt how to survive a lonely life."

### "Leave my past. By the way, how is your semester preparation?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "Yes brother, very much as usual."

### "By the way, still you are going there at your tuition places?"

### "Yes Priyangshu, I am still going there. She is cool now. Her examination has over."

### "So did you ask her about her examination?"

### "Yes, it was good."

### "She is now preparing for her joint entrance examination."

### "It's a good concept. Send my good wishes."

### "Sure brother." Rakesh was confident about her results.

### "But Priyangshu, I am still thinking about Anjali. She will ask me again. I don't know what I have to say her."

### "You can say her to meet me. Don't take any burden."

### I was praying to our beloved almighty. I have a faith on his judgment. So, to do any step before, I liked to inform my past girl girl friend and decided to send her a text message and I had to repeated my past again.

### There was a single text message from my side...

### "Hi, how are you? Hope you are doing well. Sorry if I rough sometime, sorry if I mistake. I don't know whether your mobile number still exists or not, but I am doing well here with my past memories. Still a portion is not being erased and it's not possible. Still I miss you, I am missing a smile, my life is not being alive without a smile, don't know it was a curse or not. Still I am alive for a hope, forget your anger and forgive me. I am very much safe. I have no words to explain. God bless."

### But there was not being a single reply from her side. I was waiting for a long, but there was not a single beep, but I had a nonsense job. I had sent her one more text messages and in the next day morning, I noticed one text message, which was unread. It was from my past.

### "See Priyangshu, I am now a married girl. I am very much happy with my husband and being happy with my new family. Please, stop sending text messages. Thanks for all."

### I had not a single word and not a single letter to type and become very unspoken. My tears even stopped. I tried to realize them on my dried face. I accepted the judgment and whole day; I was being alone at my dark room with my lazy mind. Anjali was beyond of my mind. That day, I had no lunch to prepare and I had to send some text messages to Rakesh.

### "Rakesh, I have decided."

### "What Priyangshu?" He was out side the college.

### "About Anjali."

### "Really!"

### "Thanks god. At last, you have decided. I just scared."

### "So brother, what have you decided?"

### "So sweet of you."

### "Priyangshu, you had done a good job."

### "Last day evening, she was asking about you."

### "See Rakesh, you expectation has worked, but the expectation you have expected is not so expecting."

### "Why Priyangshu?"

### "Yes."

### "Please tell me brother..."

### "See Rakesh, I am not a cruel one. What I am thinking is being good. I respect Anjali, but I have to live with my past. I can't displace my

Shadow, a heart away a heart. I don't have to expect anything from present. It's not possible to forget it and it's not being possible to change myself with time."

### "You are very mysterious." Rakesh had a comment.

### "So Priyangshu, you don't like her any more. It can heart her. You can talk to her. Please...."

### "Please Rakesh, try to understand me. I am not being stable by my mind and can't say anything right now. Let her talk to me."

### "Sorry brother. I will never allow her to talk. Let her stay alone. It will heart her more once I disclose. I am requesting to you...make a call."

### "Do what is good," I said to Rakesh.

### "Rakesh, I have no certainty. I have to fly here and there as birds do to feed, it seemed a lost origin."

### "Yes Hero, you are right. Our life is full of fun and tragedies. A twin smile is necessary to live. It can help us to survive." Mr. Pintu commented again.

### "Rakesh, self help is the best help. I am not a coward, but can try to achieve the best."

### "But brother, I can't tell and inform her anything. It's not only hurt her but me also."

### "I can say you that it can bound herself to rethink about me."

### A week later.................

### "Rakesh, did you inform her anything?"

### "Yes Priyangshu."

### "Please let me know, I am very much curious." I was requesting to him.

### "Brother Priyangshu, I told her nothing."

### "Priyangshu, you are being my one idol and I respect my idol."

### "Oh no!"

### "Rakesh, are you a mad or what?"

### "Don't worry Priyangshu. I can never hurt you and even Anjali. I will manage it somehow. No doubt, it's a difficult task, but she was mad for you."

### I did not ask Rakesh how to handle that situation. I was feeling myself very aloof and cool. A normal life was as usual. My smile was hidden, soul was empty and mind was filled up by my burdens. I asked my heart to touch my soul, how warm it was and how it was moving freely. Those touchy things touched my heart and dug a hole. I was feeling myself very alone among my friends and was being difficult to concentrating myself. I got Rakesh only to help me and support me.

### We were almost out of contact for a month and after the semester examination, I did not visit my native town. Rakesh parents had one outside tour. I had to stay at their place. We had lots of fun and enjoyments.

### "One paper was tough, but rest was good." I had a comment regarding my semester examination.

### "And what about you?" I asked to Rakesh.

### "So So."

### "Why so so?"

### "I became mad during my study leave. I didn't study properly."

### "Rakesh, was there anything wrong?" I asked to Rakesh.

" No Priyangshu. Nothing I got from my life and I lost everything. I wanted to study in IIT, but now I am here instead of IIT and even I selected for aerospace engineering. That was a worthless dream." I had no words to suggest Rakesh.

### "Really Rakesh, sometime we need money endlessly. It has a great value."

### "Poverty is a curse." Neelon commented.

### "You have to accept your present. Make your career good." I had only one suggestion.

### "But how long Priyangshu? I am struggling since my childhood."

### "Don't be restless, Rakesh."

### "Rakesh let us complete our degrees. Still we are doing our bests. We can help our parents. We can work anywhere in the world. So, be optimistic."

### "Yes Priyangshu, we can try. We will live together and fulfill all our duties."

### "Rakesh, you are so cute."

### "Yes Priyangshu, trust me. I am expecting a very prestigious job."

### "By the way Rakesh, what about Riya?"

### "Yes, she if fine."

### "Did I inform you about her result?"

### "I didn't remember, Rakesh."

### "Brother, she scored good marks in the examination."

### "I have noticed it. You even tried your best."

### "By the way Rakesh, what about Jannavee? Did you talk to her anymore?"

### "Yes, she often talks. Hope she understood what I want."

### "Okay Rakesh, How did you know about Jannavee?"

### "Leave it brother. It's too late now. Better if we take rest."

### And I become an idol mud and unspoken. My fortune was unpredictable, but I am struggling myself to face all troubles. Not a single one was there to help except Rakesh. He was just like my soul mate.

### After our semester examination, we decided to go for a regular morning walk. It was being fine and lasted for two months. We had to move with our busy schedule. There were some funny moments and by age we become an adult.

### Days were going by ups and downs. Sometime sad for career and sometime happy with all rich moments and as a middle class boy, I had to accept some circumstances and decided to move on. Rakesh was becoming very childish and only demanding in front of me and as a good friend of him; I had to accept some of his worthless jobs. Girls were being crazy for him and obviously, on his childish activities. I became jealous, but accepted my limitations. Rakesh's parents had a doubt on him and suddenly, his demands raised at the top. He was getting gifts from his friend's circles especially from girls. His mild and undemanding activities obviously impressed me too.

### Sometime it is very tough to maintain realities. But strange, how he was maintaining all and before the new semester, I left their place and started to live at my own place and was maintaining a boring life. Simply saying, I was too boring.

### When the new semester starts...

### There was an annual sports day. College was almost vacant. That day, Rakesh had a cricket match. I was the latecomer. His wristwatch and the cell phone were in my pocket. He had a foolish job. He did not switch off the cell. Three more friends and me were enjoying the match in a crowd. We seated on grass with crackers and musical instruments.

### During the second half, when the match started again, I noticed that his cell phone beeped and was vibrating in my pocket. That number was an unknown one. When I stood up to receive that call, strong electricity passed through my eyes and made me unseat. Anjali, Jannavee and two more college girls were there and just standing behind me. Anjali was looking so cute with her spectacles. I had to attend that phone call, but did not recognize his or her call and became very rigid and caught a bus to my room. Rakesh had a visit in that same evening.

### "What happened Priyangshu? Why you left the ground? I got my cell phone switched off. Are you all right?"

### "I am all right brother."

### "So why you left the ground without informing me. You should wait for me. By the way, we defeated the opponent one."

### "It was a good one."

### "But what was the reason behind your leaving the play ground?" he was repeatedly asking me.

### "Don't say brother, there was an incident. Let me handover your handset."

### "It's okay. But, what happened?"

### "Sometime, you are very much boring."

### "I noticed Anjali and Jannavee at the play ground."

### "Anjali and Jannavee!! But Anjali?"

### "I don't know, may be they know each other very well. They just standing behind us with a little School boy."

### "That was a big lie by you."

### "Trust me brother." I had to assured Rakesh.

### "Don't say like that. I trust you very much."

### "But, I never expected it from Anjali."

### "Now all things have come to the focus, but..."

### "Priyangshu, they must discuss regarding us."

### "I think so." It obviously puzzled me.

### "Let's see, what happen next. Enjoy life brother."

### "Priyangshu, now I have to go for my tuition classes."

### "But now?"

### "Yes Priyangshu. I have to give her some books."

### "It's all right brother. Take care. See you later."

### We had often-late night chat through mobile text messaging.

### "What happen? You suddenly escaped? I tried your contact number several times."

### "Yes Riya, I was busy with my college annual sports."

### "You..."

### "Yes me."

### "So, you are a player." She had a fun.

### "By the way, which sport you like most?" Riya asked to Rakesh.

### "Cricket and Table Tennis."

### "By the way, how was your annual sports day?"

### "Yes, fine."

### "Leave it. These books are for you. Remember you have just two years to prepare yourself for joint entrance examinations."

### "But, you have to support me."

### "But Riya, I am not sure."

### "So you are going to leave our city?" Riya asked to Rakesh.

### "I am still uncertain. Once I get a scholarship then I will surely leave your city."

### "Please stay here for two more years. I will miss you. Only you can teach me well."

### "Don't you want that I must get a good career," Rakesh replied.

### "Obviously. I can pray to god."

### "Am I disturbing you by sending text messages? If you have any problems then don't forget to inform me. Okay." She had her one more request.

### "No problem at all. You can send and please don't be formal."

### "Can I say you something?" He becomes puzzled on her question.

### "Can I compliment you on your brown eyes and silky hairs?"

### "Mine, I never noticed it earlier." Rakesh was bursting for his praises.

### "You so funny." She had a comment.

### "Yes, not very often Riya."

### "But, I like your curly hairs. You know my mom even having her curly long hairs."

### I don't know how god made them. The couple had almost similar characteristics. Almost similar and it was very rare.

### And a year later, Rakesh stopped sending text messages and I never asked it for the sake of our true friendship. He was apart from me, near about seven to eight months. Rakesh was being serious to Riya and the couple had outside meetings. He obviously shared his feelings before they're outside meetings. I saw her photographs. She was simply a cute girl, but as I noticed she must had some inner sorrow at face.

### The couple usually exchanged text messages. They become their own best friends. But, they were very unlucky. How they would know that crucial days are already dug and such bad shadows are on their top. It hurt him more, but I can say that god will sure punish him, who did such a devil work and for whom, they parted. We can't trust anyone. It's true. I often, not very often, still with my pen I am praying to almighty, to punish that person. Rakesh had a very good thought. He did not like any nonviolence. If he do not do it then me at least stop praying.

### "It's a miracle. Our all identification marks being similar." Riya's comment.

### "Yes Riya, you are right. May be it symbolizes a past life relation."

### "May be."

### "Riya, what are you doing right now?"

### "Nothing. I am busy with our guests."

### "And you."

### "Nothing. Just ideal at my bad and very sleepy."

### "It's not a time to take rest. Do your work. Don't have you study tonight."

### "Riya, I am very sick now."

### "You are very careless. Don't talk." She had a responsibility to care him. Why not!

### She stopped sending text messages for a while. But, how long? She had a very soft corner to Rakesh. He was a very formal. He never sent any single text until she send texts or phone call first and still he is maintaining it. Girls have some social troubles. We boys are easily convincing our family, but girls are not. Simply girls are very understanding.

### "Don't have you any medicine at your place?" Riya replied a moment later.

### "No."

### "I say, bring some medicines right now. Ask them what is good for you. One thing more, did you cook something for your dinner?"

### "Yes, bread and banana is there, but I don't want to go outside. Hope

### my parents are not coming today. "

### "It's all right, but you are too much. Don't talk and please stop sending texts. Just bread and banana, bye forever."

### She was being bursting by her anger. He was bound to visit the medical shop and at last he took medicine with bread and eggs. He was feeling very sad for his own activities. His father had a transferable job. Though he was very sleepy and sick, did not close his eyes and was eagerly waiting for her texts and in the late night he had to reply her endless texts and at last, he asleep and he listened a single beep.

### "Take care dear. Don't be restless. Sorry if I hurt you."

### "Riya, still you awaken?" Rakesh replied with his drowsy eyes.

### "No dear, I am not sleepy at all and was waiting for your reply."

### "It is being too late. Try to take rest. You should take care of yourself," Rakesh suggested.

### "Better if you ask yourself whether you are doing a good job or not." Riya had her warm reply.

### "He he he......"

### "Don't laugh. You are very self-willed." Riya had a comment.

### "Trust me Riya, I am feeling well now."

### "It really odds. I can understand how much you are!" she was sending texts to cold down her angers.

### "Riya, I want to ask you something?"

### "What?"

### "You are a good human being. I can respect you."

### "You don't have to buttering on my words."

### "Trust me Riya. You are really a good girl. So, can I ask?"

### "Now you don't have to ask anything. Tomorrow is a Sunday and I will be there at home. I will send a text, whenever I get time."

### "Please Riya, one more reply, please.."

### "No way dear...good night"

### His every morning started with her texts, but it was different in the next morning.

### "Hope you are all right. Have a good day." Her first text message on that morning.

### "Yes, I am now stable to walk and go outside."

### "Thanks god. You are always a lazy one." Riya commented again.

### "You know Riys, what happened on yesterday?"

### "What?" she was being anxious to know.

### "I met one astrologer and was asking him about my career and love life and etc."

### "So what did he predict about your career?"

### "In research works."

### "Great. You have such an ability to work hard."

### "But, what about your love life?" she asked to know. It was being her curiosity.

### "Sorry Riya, I can't tell you."

### "No, you have to tell me."

### "How could I explain? It's not possible Riya."

### "How means? You have to tell me and right now."

" Okay. It's all right. So, listen."

### "He said, my love is very uncertain. It can happen anywhere, even at a train or at college."

### "After that."

### "After that nothing. Sorry Riya, I can't express it nay more."

### "It's fine. You don't have to explain."

### "You know, even I am seeking and sick. It's fine, if you don't have any interest to share. I shared all my happiness and sorrows with my grand mother and I miss her very much. No body love and care me. Take care. Good night."

### "Please Riya, don't be so restless. Don't say, good bye, but let me know one thing."

### "What?" she asked.

### "May I be your friend?"

### "Really."

### "Why not. You are a good boy."

### "Cheers. Love has started. It's so nice. Come on brother." All of them commented.

### "Riya, are you serious?"

### "Yes, I am very much serious and I had disclosed it earlier."

### "Nice one." Neelon commented again.

### "Can I ask you something? Riya requested. A great surprise for Rakesh.

### "Can I call you by your name please?

### "Sure Riya."

### "So can I call you as Rohit?" She had given a good name.

### "Why not. It's a cool name.

### "Yeee...thanks.

### "Dear Rohit, you are very gentle. Anyone can safely stay by your side. I don't know about your background, but I know you very well. I respect you very much. You are my soul mate."

### "But Rohit, it's true that I am not good and not being a happy fellow, but as a person, you are so understanding and you are so much matured to judge a feelings, but I am not being a happiest one. My grandma leaves me alone. So, please, never leave me alone. Except you, there is no one to share my feelings and demands. I can't breath and survive properly."

### "Yes Riya, I am with you. I am with you up to the last breath of my life." Rakesh Promised.

### "Riya, I am the worst one. See, my fortune is very uncertain. I am not like other guys. I have to fulfill my dream. I don't know whether I will be succeeded or not. You have a strong background and have a good status. I don't know how you survive your life with me. But, I can promise that I can try my best."

### "Don't worry Rohit; you are always in me and in my heart. I can't displace my heart. We will struggle."

### "Thanks Riya. By my age, I become an adult. My father is the only salary paid income holder at our family and my mother is come of a very rich family. But, my mind does not work, when I think about my mother. Our mothers are really great. I can't tell you, how she is maintaining our family. It will hurt you. Truly speaking, I don't have any interest to impress you. I respect a girl, that's all."

### "Please Rohit, tell me please..."

### "Riya, why you like me? We are very poor."

### "My father is a government clerk. They didn't have a good cloths to attend parties and at all. They laid their lives for well being of their spouses. My father had to repay half of his salary to the borrowers. Those moneylenders often visited our places. I always salute my parents. Still I am struggling. Yes, I am shy and still too. I want to achieve all their dreams. I don't want to be cheering like others. It's not possible. They are expecting a good career. I don't know about my limitations and at these twenty-one years of ages, I have a good contact with some foreign universities and I faced many troubles. I know our troubles. I can't demand it. So, you have to respect them and still I am expecting my next life with those family members and obviously with you." At last, Rakesh explained it truly. That was a good job.

### "That was a good job by Rakesh. We should not play with our dear ones." It obviously pleased Rishabh.

### I tried myself to stop my tears. But, it was not being under my control.

### "Hello Rakesh! Are you all right?" She guessed that her heart is crying.

### "Riya, I am the worst one. I can't do anything."

### "Please Rohit, don't cry. Stop crying. I am with you always. See, we have a good family ahead. Feel my funny face."

### "No Riya, I am a worst one. Our neighbors don't like our parents. They had to nourish us, so they avoided all such luxurious life."

### "Rakesh, you are good. You don't have to cry and you don't have to forget your past. Do your best to give them all comforts. Think about me; think my life with your family."

### "Yes Riya, I will try. I will try to achieve my all dreams. I don't know what god want and now I have stopped praying to god. Your god is very cruel. My parents were being innocent. So, why he punishing us?"

### "No Rohit. Please, don't say like that. You have to promise me that you will worship him."

### "But Riya, how long? I can say that my parents can never hurt anyone. God support to those his children, having strong financial background. Just two or three pieces of sugars cannot satisfy him whereas he is being worshipped by healthy foods. So, he doesn't love us."

### "Hope you are very sleepy. Do rest. God bless u. I like to see you smile. I am with you always. You are made for me."

### "Not sleepy. Just worry about my future and career."

### "See Rakesh, your parents may have so many expectations. It can give them a real smile. So, do something and do something for their fame, not for money."

### "Yes Riya. But Riya, sometime I feel me very alone. I need a support, which can burn me at each moment to survive with all devastating winds."

### "Rohit, can I stand by your side?" she expected a positive response from Rakesh.

### "But Riya, I can't hurt you. My life is not good. It can trouble you. I can't share my troubles with my friends."

### "Don't worry dear. I will face your all troubles and will help you to overcome from such troubles."

### "Thanks Riya. You are still a good friend of mine. God bless you dear."

### "But you are not. You don't trust me any more. Still you are not disclosing what that astrologer said about your love life."

### "That was very simple to disclose, but I was waiting for your reply."

### "Can I express?"

### "Yes Sure."

### "Riya, do you trust me?"

### "He he he...yes more than myself. That's why I am asking you dear."

### "Thanks."

### "Riya, if you think that I am telling lies then you can stop sending texts messaging and even phone calls. But, it's a true and still I am hesitating."

### "Explain it soon. I have to enjoy it. So, please..."

### "That young astrologer said that her name starts with the letter 'R' and she is made for me and even her family members will like me."

### "Rohit, was it true?"

### "Yes Riya, it was true. Sorry if it hurt you, but I told you the truth."

### "May be he was explaining about myself. So Rohit, do you think I am the best one to support you?"

### "Riya, not only that, he said so many things about our families and about an appearance."

### "Is it?"

### "Trust me Riya."

### "See Riya, as far as I know you are a good one to whom I can trust and I don't want to experiment on any one. I had a past. Someone liked me, but still I don't know whether she like me or not."

### "So, did you talk to her further to raise her feelings?"

### "No Riya, I simply said her that I have no time to share my feelings."

### "Riya, she was a very critical one. She had a jealousy. Even my life is critical."

### "Don't say like that. Even, I can hurt you. We human beings have different ideology on love. Actually Rohit, there are some people, who don't want to look out about your troubles."

### "But Rohit, I am a very foolish one. My all friends say like that."

### "But bye me, you are very simple and cute and your hairs..."

### "Oh I see! My hairs are good but I me not."

### "When I said. You are too good."

### "Riya, can I ask you something?"

### "Yes sure. Don't be formal."

### "Riya, do you like me?"

### After that, she was being silent for a moment....

### "What happen Riya? Did I hurt you? I am really very sorry for asking. Please forgive me...I am sorry again."

### And a few minutes later...

### "Wait Rohit, my mom has awakened."

### "Rohit, still you awake?"

### "Yes, Riya."

### That season was being a winter, but the day was not so cold, but Rakesh was fully wetted under a single blanket.

### "Yes Rohit, I can say proudly that I don't like you as my friend."

### "Sorry Riya, Please forgive me. Good night and please take care of your studies."

### "Rohit, don't be restless. I just am kidding."

### "Dear, I don't like you as my friend. A real friend is very difficult to get and you are my best soul mate. You are not my friend cum soul mate, but a soul mate cum friend. Love you."

### "Yes.... i love you very much dear."

### "What !! Riya send your last text again. It has deleted by my mistake." He had a trick to listen that word one more time.

### "It's very much exciting." Rishabh commented.

" Nothing I had sent."

### No doubt, I cried more and more and blessed him. But, his judgment was wrong. He said that he has created us like him self shows that god is alive. You people decide, what he judged....

### "I love you too Riya and love you very much."

### "Rohit, I liked you from the beginning."

### "That's a good girl. God bless you dear." Mr. Pintu commented.

### "Riya, I am very happy now and very happy to have a good and adorable soul mate like you."

### "Riya, can I ask you something?"

### "Yes dear, sure."

### "Do you want to know, why I liked you?"

### "Why?"

### "You are very much understanding. Your way of expression is completely different from anyone. I can say it proudly that I love you and love you very much."

### "Love you too dear."

### "Yes Riya, I love and respect all human beings. I don't know about my life span and my existence is very uncertain. I can't say when I will die."

### "Please.....don't mention that word. I will die before you."

### "But Riya, we don't have to be escaped. We have to live together."

### "But Rohit, I don't have to live alone. I am very much alone without you and I want to live with your parents. I had expected a big family and god has listened it. Thank you Rohit."

### "God bless you Riya."

### "Love you from the core of my heart."

### "Riya, one more question, can I ask?"

### "Sure."

### "Don't be formal with me. You are now my soul mate."

### "Riya, will you marry me later?"

### Oh god! What he is asking?

### "Don't you trust me Rohit?"

### "Yes, I trust you more than anyone."

### "See Rohit, I am always with you and I am with you up to the last breath of our lives. Two hearts and one soul."

### "Thank you Riya."

### "Rohit, I want to say you something before making any serious relationship?"

### "I am not a free bird, who can fly here and there. There are so many restrictions and everything is not being personal here at my family. Even it may or not be possible to meet once in a year, but I can try my best to keep in touch and you have to accept all such circumstances."

### "Riya, I have no objection. You will stay with my each breath."

### "Rohit, a good mother always hugs her children irrespective of their mistakes. I will care you as my child."

### "You so funny...love you dear."

### "Riya, it's too late. Let's stop texts." Rakesh was requesting.

### "No way dear. I am not sleepy at all. I got a new life and fully fit now."

### "Yes Riya, it's a new journey. We have to crosses many more barriers."

### "Rohit, 31st August is being our anniversary. Don't forget it.

### "Riya, I already encircled it."

### "Rohit, do have you any questions to ask?"

### "Yes, before saying good night, you have to promise me that you have to take care of your health and studies."

### "Okay dear. I will try. It's a promise"

### "My sake."

### "Yes, my mom's sake."

### "Love you so much dear."

### Rakesh was being cheering around himself. He was cool with me. Everything was going as usual.

### "Brother, she is a very nice girl. I don't know, whether she will accept me or not once I fail."

### "He has thought something for you. You don't have to neglect his judgment."

### "Priyangshu, I have already so many burdens. It will hurt me more once she leaves me alone."

### "Be positive brother." I suggested.

### "Rakesh, I can understand, what love is? We are not going addicted. I don't know why some people hate to love others. God has created it, so he must have to solve it. If he judge improperly, then I will stop worship and faith."

### "No brother Priyangshu. Don't do such a mistake. He will judge properly."

### Except own burdens, he had to maintain some trustworthy duties. Like Friday: a veg. day to save his love alive, Saturday: stopped shavings, hair cuttings...still he often visits Churches, temples and never stopped to send his heartiest wishes to god to protect her life from woes and to stay her safe. That day was 30th September, when the couple had an opportunity to meet out side. They were agreed. She was attending her classes. Rakesh had to wait half an hour at a distant from her college compound. She came alone to meet. How she came alone? She was too shy. Rakesh was at his casual looks with his shiny hairs. He was watching her at a distant, but she was with her friend. She had a smile on her face.

### "Hi Rohit, sorry I am late. Any way, meet my class mate Radhika."

### "Hello!" Rakesh had just a single word with Radhika.

### After that, Radhika left that place. The couple was standing alone without expressing anything. That was their first outing. It's a time to burst and it's a tome to express feelings. Don't want to miss it. Let's go...

### "Rohit, you had to say me something. Am I right?"

### "What? I forgotten? Trust me."

### "Oh Rakesh! You are too bore." Neelon had a comment.

### "Rohit, you are so boring. Let me go. I have my classes. Better you go home now." Riya had expected something and she left the place, leaving him alone.

### "Rakesh astonished, what was going around him. Suddenly Riya left the place with her expectation and a desire and become broken hearted. After that Rakesh, caught a bus. When he was being half a distance, his cell phone beeped. That one being from his soul mate. She was requesting him to come back with a hope to burst her feelings. When they meet again they become silent again. At last, they agreed to visit at a lonely place. The couple was walking together with some worthless words and at last, they reached near a high-class restaurant and agreed to seat there. Riya was very much close to him on a chair. There was being another couple. They were discussing about the couple respecting their feelings and after light refreshment, they decided to leave the place. All feelings were in vacant."

### And out side the restaurant....

### "Rohit, what type of boy you are!"

### "Why Riya? Did I hurt you?"

### "So innocent." Mr. Pintu commented.

### "No Mr. Pintu, he was a shy one." I said.

### "Can't you say a single line, a single I love you?"

### "Riya, you already expressed it. He he..."

### "Oh no! You are so boring."

### "Love you my heart. Love you very much. My words failed. You are in me." Oh God! At last, he expressed.

### "Cheers Rakesh. God bless you both." We all blessed him.

### After the couple was being as usual. Everything was going fine by almighty. When our final examination over, Rakesh had a tour with his family members. He had to visit Delhi. He arranged one Delhi based prepaid number. His mother received many texts and those were from Riya and one day, they had an outing.

### "Rakesh, who is Riya?" His mom was asking.

### "Why mom?"

### "She is constantly sending texts. Better you handle your cell phone." She doubted on Rakesh.

### "She is my class mate."

### Actually, Rakesh had a tumor on his forehead. He was admitted at a private nursing home and on the other hand, Riya had her heartiest prayer to the almighty. Doctors had done a good job. And in the Intensive Care Unit, he was remembering Riya by her name. There one nurse noticed it that he is remembering someone. Next day afternoon, he shifted to a cabin. Day before his discharge from that nursing home, he was alone in the cabin for an hour and by coincidence that nurse was there and she had to visit his cabin. During her working hours at that cabin...

### "You name is Rakesh. Am I right?"

### "Yes sister." Rakesh was reading one outlook magazine.

### "Can you speak Hindi properly?" That nurse asked to Rakesh.

### "Yes sister."

### "Who was Riya?"

### "Riya!!! How would you know? Who told you?"

### He did not notice that the magazine is on the floor.

### "No one told me. It happened when you are completely unconscious."

### "What!!"

### "Yes, dear son."

### "Did any one notice it?"

### "No dear."

### "Thanks god."

### "But dear son, one of our doctors noticed it and was smiling in front of you."

### "By the way, who was Riya?"

### "Please don't say it to my mom."

### "Sure. I swear."

### "She is my best friend. I love her very much. She is being my soul mate."

### "God bless you. Wish you both have a beautiful life ahead."

### And a day later, he discharged from that nursing home. All incoming days, he had a fun with Riya. He had a bed rest at his hometown. He had a separate room. They usually talked in the night. He was feeling very bore at his hometown and during one Hindu festival; they had a lot of guests. So, his mom had to share his bed. He was almost in sound sleep and In the middle of the night, his cell phone beeped and it was lasted for a few minutes.

"......?" his mother did not utter a single word, when she received that call.

### "Rohit, are you awake?"

### "Who is this?" his mother replied.

### Suddenly Riya switched off her cell phone for a several hours and in the next day morning, his all-family members scolded him with some tough words. They made calls to Riya's number, but her number was being diverted. Rohit tried to convince his family members, but they were very unhappy. He had to face many troubles. He had no way to inform me. He was being closed in that boundary and it was lasted for couple of months. It was being a tough time for the couple, but he never blamed Riya and on the other hand, Riya was being half made.

### "Who was that girl?" His mother asked.

### "She is my friend. Just a good friend mom. Trust me mom."

### "So you are not concentrating in studies. You have to be stopped such friendship. Make your career. Remember, we are poor. You have to think about your future."

### "Was that being a good job to make calls during that time? Did you ever think about your parents? Did you ever think about us? How would you know? You are like a guest. Did you ever try to know about our troubles? Remember, we are still alive. Don't do like that. You are still very young and immature. We will never allow such things." Rakesh had a silent look with his closed lips.

### But one his cousin comes forwarded to convince his mother.

### "Leave it. May be that was a mistake by that girl."

### "I no need any justification. I am still his mother. I know him very well. He was at my womb."

### At last, Rakesh had to promise on so many things and a few months back, situation was being normal. I was anxious to meet him, but I had a little information about Riya and on the other hand, he did not disclose anything. My mother urged him to stay at our places. My mom was supported Rakesh and he agreed to stay at our place. We had a good family relation and I came to know about that incident. Not only that, for that incident he had to stay out of his place for a day.

### "Brother Priyangshu, life without Riya seems a lost breath. I don't know how is she? I want to s e her. Last seven months, was being tough to survive."

### "Don't worry Rakesh, everything will be all right."

### "I am going to be mad. She is a good girl and I don't want to lose her. I have to leave your city very soon."

### And by time, they again meet and it was being difficult to meet outside, but he never argued. He had no objection. Her family doubted on him about his relation with Riya. Riya was completely supported him to leave the state or somewhere for his better career. She had no words left. Riya's family had one devil neighbor. Her mother liked that boy very much and on the other hand, he totally

### Stop visiting her places. But as a boy, he was a vagabond. I can say a devil and worthless fellow and one bad social animal. Riya never talked to that boy. That boy had a soft corner to Riya. An illiterate person can be a good one, but that fellow was very bad. He was tasted all devil works, which I can't explain. He had a doubt about her relation with Rakesh and he able to caught Riya a month before of their second anniversary.

### My words are going to be ended. Let's see, how that relation ended. It's very difficult to trust anyone and to get a trustworthy person. We cannot judge anyone. It is not good to experiment on anyone's feelings, but in other sense it's good.

### Let's a look...

### "Aunty, if you don't mind can I say you something?" That was his first pinch. Riya was also present that time and by coincidence, their car driver had n accident at his knee and that boy was being very demanding and helping her parents.

### Everything was not being his expectation. Her mother had to visit out side the city. So, they needed that devil fellow to drive their car and he agreed to drive. That nonsense fellow often visited her places without any reason and except her mother, no one liked him. Her father was a very cool fellow. He did not have a single comment and just watching his activities.

### During that drive....

### "Aunty, my words can hurt you, but as your neighbor and well wisher, I must inform you something." He planned one devil job and described a devil script. Even her mother never expected it and it hurt her.

### "On Sunday morning, I saw Riya with some boys at an unsafe place."

### "What!! My own daughter!"

" She was enjoying a moment with some guys. There was one bad looking boy. She might love him."

### "Thanks. Let me go back home."

### There was a huge lie. I am telling you the truth. On that particular day, we had a twin shopping. She informed him about that boy and her mother back, she was asking several questions. Riya, told her the truth, but her mother had a huge trust to that devil. It was beyond of my comprehension. What was happening with my friend? I discussed it with my friends. All of my friends come forwarded to help Rakesh, but there was an objection. He had a request to us, not to take any further step otherwise her mother would punish Riya. We were being worthless and our hands being locked. That devil fellow was crossing his limit. I had to save and protect a life. Her cell phone was being seized and phone calls totally stopped. We tried our bests to contact her and we had a hidden anger to punish that boy. And on the other hand, that devil one with the help of Riya's mother being able to collect Rakesh's contact number. We got her cell phone switched off. By hand locking depression and with anger, he was listening a single song repeatedly for a week. It was a too boring. And on the other hand, Riya stepped at her second year at her engineering studies and by time, he was being cool and lagged behind with his project works. He had a dream to give a huge gift to his soul mate. The couple did not change their contact numbers.

### And one day, he received one e-mail from Riya. She needed some books and that day, he was very sick. He agreed to manage those books for Riya. He collected those books from Jannavee. Rakesh was asking for help, there was something different in his mind. Jannavee was ready to help Rakesh. She and some of her friends come forwarded to help Rakesh. But Rakesh, did not allow anyone to help. It was being very difficult to help that fellow. One day, I bounded to ask Rakesh.....

### "Brother Priyangshu, I don't need any help. I am very much thankful to all of you guys. Let me to talk to her first."

### That day, he was looking so handsome with his casual looks.

### "Rakesh, you are looking very handsome. She cannot recognize you." I had my as usual fun.

### "Priyangshu, try to be serious. I am not a joker."

### That day, I was present at their place. He was eagerly waiting for her phone call, but there was not being a single phone call from Riya. I saw his tearing face and I was beating myself.

### "Brother Rakesh, can I do something for you? Please don't cry. Please, stop crying."

### "See Priyangshu, I can even take a step, but once I take such a step devil step then her mom can punish her."

### "Did Riya receive your phone call?"

### "No, her mother."

### "Brother, I am not a coward. I can even ask her mother, but I don't want to lose my love. She is mine and my soul mate."

### One day, Rakesh had a strange visit and there was being a fear and tense. That devil fellow told him that he could kill Rakesh once he thinks about Riya.

### "What? Let him come." I was out of control.

### "Didn't you say anything? Do have you his contact number? "

### "Please Rakesh, give me her number. I want to talk to her."

### "Priyangshu, do you like me crying? Do you want to hurt me?"

### "But brother...." I had no words to say something.

### "See Priyangshu, she is being my soul mate. I know her very much. She is very helpless. I am praying to god to help her and you people have to do it. My hurt can go apart, but sometime we have to accept something. Try to understand her troubles. She must have some problems. She is totally different. May be she is praying for me. I can't say anything. Leave it to God."

### "Rakesh, who is god? He sometime very cruel. There is no god."

### "Riya is one of my goddesses. She must think something good for me."

### "Rakesh, I can just salute you."

### "No brother, you don't have to salute me. Salute whom who made me and by whom I am here."

### "Rakesh, you are really a critical one."

### "Priyangshu, I am not critical, but my feelings. I have never learnt to hurt anyone. Still I worship my love and I worship Riya. How can I hurt my goddess? Can I dishearten my parents? It will never be possible."

### I had to attend one phone call and my handset become wetted with my endless tears. Like wise, one more year passed. Her mobile number had no existence and even her all contact numbers. Rakesh requested to all her friends, but not a single one was there. They had a jealousy because some of them were very crazy for Rakesh. It made him very alone to breathe and survives his life and it made me silent and I was feeling myself very helpless.

### "Rakesh, you have to do something for my sake?" I requested to Rakesh.

### "No Priyangshu. I am stable on my decision."

### "But why?"

### "Brother, every living entity has so many troubles. Here no one is rich. Yes, not a single one. By achieving all joys and powers, we never are an immortal. My tears have wetted my idol. It's becoming muds itself and it will slowly escape with my tears. Girls are very soft. They have to accept their limitations. No girls are cruel. I have learnt many things from my mother. No doubt, we boys can struggle, but we cannot struggle like a girl. They have to accept some circumstances. They have a role to protect their family. They can sacrifice anything, even their smile."

### "But, you can try Rakesh...."

### "I don't want to justify my feelings. I will welcome all her decisions and judgments either good or bad and I shall wait for her and I will

### never stop my anxiety up to the last breath of my life. She can never hurt me "

### At last our judge, judgment properly. His goddess gave me a beautiful gift on his birthday, but the almighty had a mistaken. Riya was being the single wisher with small words....

" I broke up with you a few months ago. We can never compete our life together."

### How? Shocked!! It was the last text from her side. How she becomes so cruel?

### Sorry friends, I am not so much strong and stable to explain more. It is not being an easy task to express a reality. Here, we all are human beings. Like me, it can hurt you too. Don't make such relationship at our ages. Yes, we cannot judge our love. It can hurt you inch by inch. Let me finish the story and let my tears dry. Here, we all are broken hearted.

### "It's an excellent one. We should salute Rakesh." Rishabh commented on the story.

### "Oh no! Let me finish it brother."

### "Did Rakesh send any texts to Riya?" Mr. Pintu had a question.

### "Yes, he sent some texts."

### Actually, Rakesh was trying to send some texts, but....

### "Riya, I am accepting you r all judgments. No doubt, you can see me cry, but still I worship you and I can worship my goddess always. Wish you had a very beautiful and successful life ahead. My journey is going very boring and lengthy. You don't have to think about myself. I know, my goddess is always with me to support. I will try my best to achieve all those dreams. I will never forget all those promises. See me, I have no more tear. How can I cry? I am very soft. Your child has to live alone. I don't know how long your son can survive? So, you can never argue and even I can die, but will try. Your son can try for it."

### "Riya, my mom is sitting beside me and oiling my hairs. It seems, hands are yours. I don't want to miss my mom. I am going to lay down myself. Take care of your studies. Don't forget to take your food and medicines on time. You have judged me properly. May almighty help you to touch the sky, but I can't say you a single good bye---------DEAR, I WILL MISS YOU VERY MUCH. I'M MISSING MY SO HOPPED FAMILY. YOU DID A GOOD JOB. I AM REALLY VERY WORTHLESS. MY EXPECTING EXPECTATION HAD A GOOD END. I WILL ASK HIM...WISHING YOU A BRIGHT AND PEACEFUL LIFE."

### After that, I totally stopped praying to that rigid mud. Obviously his time was being very difficult, but still he not stopped to wish her at any occasions like birthday, Christmas day, New Year eve. She reactivated her same number. Even I experimented on it, but not a single reply was there from his soul mate. Very strange. All his feelings suppressed and being squeezed and on the other hand, that day his room was being filled by his family members and he was cheering with them.

### "He was so strong." All of them decided.

### "Yes Rishabh, it was beyond an imagination."

### And that fellow did not fall his single drop of tear. It is going very difficult to realize. Sorry friends, I can't explain it any more.

### "Please brother. Let it be finish."

### "Okay brother."

### After the conclusion, he left our city without informing me. It was very shocking news. I can realize his bad days and after that, I had no contact with Rakesh. My days were going as usual and I'm now here in front of you. I tried my best to contact him and a year later, I got one e-mail from Rakesh.................

### "What was that brother?" Mr. Pintu was asking again.

### "Wait Mr. Pintu. Let me show it. Still it is in my purse."

### "Brother, still you missing your friend?"

### "Yes Neelon, I am still missing him."

### Watch what he wrote....

### "Hi Brother Priyangshu, how are you? Hope you are all right. What about uncle and aunty? I am now in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, USA. Enjoying my life without you and Riya. Still it is going very difficult to forget my past. I had no mistaken. Do you think, worship one goddess is a sin? There is sad news. I have lost all her photographs in the Delhi Railway platform, but still one negative copy is there with me. I pasted her photograph on a wall. My salutation is always there to Riya's photograph. Seem, she is still with me. She was looking so beautiful with a crown. She will remain with me. I have decided not to marry anyone. I often feel her smile in any gatherings. She is still helping me, when I cross a wide road. She is still sitting beside me, whenever I visit a beach and rest is very as usual. Don't do like her otherwise I will die. Take care. God bless. I am missing you very much."

### "Don't cry dear guys. I am still alive. I am still praying to god to give him a smile." I have no more words. I can just pray to my almighty.

### "Yes Priyangshu, me too praying."

### "Me too Rishabh."

### "Thanks my dear friends. God bless you well. "

### Yes, he is now doing a good job and he is doing well. Money is not everything.

### "Wipe yours tear first and let me read his last e-mail."

### "Okay Priyangshu."

### "Brother Priyangshu, we do mistake and we mistake every time. It doesn't mean we can't judge our limitations. No one can judge properly at our ages. It's our one childish nature. We sometime very demand. We want to taste all fruits. Like me, thousands of Rakesh are still suffering; thousands of Riya are still suffering their troubles. Is there any medicine to cure it? No one can discover it appropriately. Our boundary is limited, but our limitations are beyond all limitations. We have to learn to live without any limitations, so that, we can write our own scripts.

### WISH YOU HAVE A GOOD LIFE,

### WISH YOU HAVE GOOD LIFE WITH SOMEONE....HE HE HE.

### Rose is beautiful to see, but we should handle it care. Hope I didn't handle it carefully. Blood is still flowing inside. Let me say a good bye. See you later. Love your love. I can't see you cry. God bless you.

### MISSING YOU ALL VERY MUCH. SHE WILL NEVER BACK."

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