

### The Human Soul:

### Emotions, Truth & Judgement

### By

### Jesus (AJ Miller)

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### This ebook is a transcript of a seminar delivered by Jesus (AJ Miller) on 25th January 2010 in Brisbane, Australia, as part of the human soul series of talks. In it Jesus discusses how judgement is created by resistance to feeling our emotions, how judgement gets created in our childhoods, the emotional reasons why we reject truth, and how truth can be delivered with or without judgement.

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Table of Contents

1. Introduction

2. The human soul contains truth and error-based emotions

2.1. Pain indicates the presence of error-based emotions inside of us

2.1.1. An example of an error-based feeling that we will die if attacked

2.1.2. Every time we experience pain we are ready to deal with the underlying emotion

2.2. God's Laws expose error-based emotions in our souls

2.3. Other ways that God shows our error to us

3. Reasons for rejecting truth

3.1. Our unwillingness to feel emotions causes us to reject truth

3.2. False beliefs need to be released to accept a truth

3.2.1. An example of a woman who is afraid of being attacked

3.2.2. Pain and suffering indicates we are blocking a truth

4. Refusing to feel our emotions creates judgement towards truth

4.1. An example of having judgement about receiving a gift

4.2. Personal truth may be error from God's perspective

4.3. Judgement is created by our refusal to feel and justification of our fear and anger

4.3.1. An example of judgement towards AJ's character

4.3.2. Judgement causes us to believe that truth is error

5. Judgment is an automatic consequence of suppressing emotions

5.1. The example of dealing with AJ's identity

5.2. An example of justifying pain and suffering

5.3. Judgement shows us that we are suppressing an emotion

5.4. Judging others vs. being judged

6. Judgement is a signpost to deeper emotions that we wish to avoid

6.1. Feeling emotions in the workplace

6.2. Dealing with abusive situations - an example of an Internet forum

7. Working through fear, and in harmony with God's Laws

7.1. Acting in harmony with God's Laws often creates outcomes that are better than expected

7.2. Acknowledging the truth of our Law of Attraction - an example of not getting stung by jellyfish

7.3. Truth confronts error - the example of being at-one with God

8. Working through being judged

9. Truth vs. judgement

9.1. How judgement gets created during our childhoods

9.2. Judging others is very degrading to our soul condition

10. Summary

11. Working through self-judgement

11.1. The origin of self-judgement

11.2. How judgement gets created during our childhood (continued)

12. Closing Words

1. Introduction

Today I want to discuss the subject "Emotions, Truth & Judgement." The reason why I wanted to talk about this subject is that many people become afraid of speaking truth because they then feel that they're judging people. Many people also become afraid of hearing the truth because they feel that the person who's telling them the truth is judging them. Truth and judgement are only going to enter us emotionally, and so this is why I wanted to talk about the relationship between emotions, speaking the truth and then the feelings of being judged or judging others.

Now in the first century I talked a lot about judgement because judgement is one of the main ways in which you get control. When you think about it from your childhood, sometimes you did things in pure innocence and then there was a huge amount of anger or rage or other kinds of emotions, such as sadness, projected back at you because of what you did. And as a result of that in your childhood, in many cases you then learned how to act. Many times you didn't need a belting to be controlled. What you needed instead was just to be judged, and then you learned from that judgement what was acceptable from a social perspective, or from a family perspective, or from a religious perspective, or from any of these other perspectives politically or economically and so forth. Once you receive judgement, you can have it enter you emotionally, and these emotions cause you to act in actually a very controlled manner; other people can now control you.

We can speak the truth to somebody and judge them in the process, and we can also speak the truth to somebody and not judge them at all. So we need to determine what's the difference between speaking the truth and having the feeling of judgement enter me, or having the feeling of judgement towards another person.

2. The human soul contains truth and error-based emotions

Now if we just remember what the soul is; we are half of a soul. I am a masculine half of the soul, which is the real me, with my spirit body and my material or physical body, which are just appendages to the soul.

The real us is a half soul, and we have a spirit body (SB) and material body (MB)

Many of you have been coming along now for a while know that there are two types of influences on the soul; there's the truth influence and the error influence, and these influences enter you as emotions. As they enter you, that then constructs within you a labyrinth of emotions, some of which are based on truth and some of which are based upon error.

Truth and error enters our soul as emotions

Let's give you an emotion based upon truth, where you have in yourself this thing that happens that if you lie you have this terrible feeling overcome you. That's an emotion based on truth because whenever I lie my conscience then bothers me. There's this soul feeling that comes up in me that I've done the wrong thing and I have this feeling inside of me that I need to correct that in some manner, and that's an emotion based around truth where I've got this moral compass inside of myself and that moral compass motivates me to live in harmony with the truth of it.

On the other hand I've got error-based emotions. One of the error-based emotions might be a 'truth' that I believe about myself, for instance, that I feel that I'm a bad person no matter what anybody tells me. For instance somebody can say, "You know you are not all bad, what about this? This is a good thing about you. What about that? That's a good thing about you." It doesn't matter what anybody tells us, we still feel like we are a bad person. That's an error-based emotion that I believe to be truth that's living in my soul.

So all of these emotions have now entered me. You can think of your soul as this container and the container is full of emotions, as well as passions, desires, intentions, all of those kinds of things, some of which of these things are based on truth as God sees it and some of these things are based upon error as God sees it. But from our perspective, most of the time they are all based on truth. God sees some of the things as error and some of the things as truth and a lot of the times we see them all, or think of them all, as truth otherwise we would never have allowed them into us. (00:21:03)

Our soul is a container of emotions, passions, desires, intentions and so forth

For example, if I have an emotion in me that I am basically worthless which I believe to be true, I'll believe that with all of my heart. It's actually an error from God's perspective, but I'll believe that emotion to be true. And I might have another emotion that it's wrong to lie and that emotion happens to be in harmony with truth, in harmony with the way God feels about how we live our life. That emotion then is harmonious with truth.

2.1. Pain indicates the presence of error-based emotions inside of us

The problem is that we think all of the emotions are harmonious with truth inside of us but often other people come along and tell us things and interact with us in certain ways that expose the fact that they are actually errors. Because the only way you can really tell that the soul is in error is due to pain. When I'm feeling pain, that's an indication that my soul is in error on that particular subject.

Pain is an indication of erroneous emotions within our soul

So pain is like this indicator. I'm not talking about physical pain, although physical pain is incorporated in it, but pain itself, emotional, physical, spiritual pain. All of those pains are an indicator that my soul has a belief, an emotion, a passion, a desire, an intention inside of it that is actually based upon error because if it was all based upon truth there would be no long term pain at all; there would be no suffering at all in my soul.

We know that's the case. So let's build on that now in terms of what's happening inside of us.

2.1.1. An example of an error-based feeling that we will die if attacked

Participant: How does that relate to the jellyfish that you were stung by today?

For me the emotion of error is this belief that I'm afraid I will die if I'm attacked. This comes from some first century stuff and in particular today the emotion for me was related to the feeling of being accused of arrogance. Lately a lot of people are accusing me of arrogance; they don't know whether I'm arrogant or not really, but they are accusing me of it. In the first century when I got accused of arrogance, seven days later I finished up dying from the accusation, even though it was false. And so I have a lot of this fear.

This morning when I started discussing it with Mary, I started feeling this real deep panic and fear come up but I couldn't actually access it fully. Instead of sitting there and staying in the emotion, because we had now spent three or four days at Mooloolaba and hadn't even got out of our unit because of emotional processing and stuff, we decided to go down the beach. And as soon as I got down there, avoiding that emotion, bang, there's a Law of Attraction event showing me what I'm avoiding. So the pain was a result of the emotion staying within the soul. It's a physical pain in this case and straight away I knew what it was about. As soon as I got it I went back into the surf and then, "Let's go home. I want to sit in some vinegar for a bit." As soon as I got it, I knew it was because I was avoiding this issue of being attacked. (00:24:42)

2.1.2. Every time we experience pain we are ready to deal with the underlying emotion

Participant: How does it go for errors and pains that you don't seem to be ready to deal with?

Every time you're in pain, the truth is that you are ready to deal with it. The way God created everything within you is that you are totally ready to deal with every single emotion that's within you, and if you allow yourself to be ready, these emotions will actually just flow out of you one by one. You'll never be committed to an asylum from doing it that way. The only time people get into a state where they get emotionally crazy is when they are actually heavily suppressing the emotional process, and the reason we heavily suppress the emotional process is that we have deep fear about being overwhelmed by our emotions. So we start shutting down the soul. Now as soon as we start shutting down the soul, the physical and spiritual bodies start having problems. The spirit body now starts having energy flow problems as soon as you shut down an emotion at the soul level and then the physical body will often start manifesting a physical ailment as a result of the soul shutting down that particular emotion. That doesn't mean though that you're not ready to deal with it; what it means is that you are totally ready to deal with it and you don't want to at some level. The "I don't want to" is usually "I'm terrified of dealing with that particular emotion." (00:26:26)

Pain and suffering, emotionally and in our bodies, results from our shutting down of emotions

Every bit of pain, and especially longer term suffering, results from our avoidance of the process of just allowing the full experience of our own emotion. So when we have pain or suffering, the key thing to focus on is not that you're not ready, because you are always ready; it's because you're unwilling. The truth is that you can choose to be ready at any point in time, it's a free will choice. The key is to acknowledge within yourself; "I am unwilling. I don't want to do this. I am frustrated with doing this. I don't want to do this. I think God should have made some other way of doing this," and just let yourself express the truth about how you really feel rather than saying, "Yeah I'm willing but I just can't seem to get to it." That's not a truth. The truth is that your soul has been built to access every single emotion inside of you and the only thing that's stopping that from happening is your own free will. And if you can bear that in mind, you then come to see that pain and suffering, even the type of pain that I had today, was my own creation. (00:28:01)

Participant: I think I was confused between unwilling and unable.

There is no such thing as 'unable', there is only 'unwilling'.

Participant: Unready I mean. I was confused about unwilling versus unready.

Yeah, and I don't feel there's any such thing as 'not ready'. The truth is that there is just 'unwilling'.

Now the key is to address the unwilling in terms of a fear, and this is where we need to start accessing our blockage type emotions, because all of the unwillingness of our soul to feel what it really feels is based around fear about experiencing those particular things. So we need to start acknowledging our fears. After we start acknowledging our fears, often the underlying emotions come up quite rapidly.

That being said, we've got this soul experiencing these emotions, passions, desires and intentions and the soul is just there feeling its stuff basically. Now some of that stuff is based on error and some of that stuff is based on truth, but from the perspective of the soul most of the time we begin thinking it's all truth, even the bits that are error.

2.2. God's Laws expose error-based emotions in our souls

So then God, through the way She has constructed Her universe, through the processes of all the Laws that She's created, starts exposing this soul's truth and error state. There are a number of different laws that do this.

One law you've heard of is called the Law of Attraction, which is like a messenger of truth that actually tells you when your soul is out of harmony with truth. (00:30:02)

For example, I'm driving along the road and somebody cuts me off. Now my soul in its pristine state would never create that condition and so if somebody is cutting me off and I'm starting to feel an emotion from it, I need to look at the emotion. What's the emotion? Well the emotion is an angry feeling of, "I'm angry that they've just cut me off." Straight away my Law of Attraction has exposed an emotion inside of me that's based on error. Anger is a suppression of fear and underneath the fear is obviously some grief that I need to experience in this state, and the Law of Attraction is demonstrating to me, in that particular moment, that my soul is in error right there and then.

The Law of Attraction is God's primary messenger of truth. There are also other laws. You have heard of the Law of Cause and Effect? I haven't talked much about that law, but I will do so in the future. The basic principle of that law is that if you try to change something at the effect level, you'll never be able to do it. It's only when you change something at the causal level that things will change. Now from the soul's perspective, the causes are the emotions, the passions, the desires, the intentions and so forth.

God's Laws act on our soul to expose error-based emotions

Let's say I'm driving along the road, and I get cut off. The Law of Attraction has exposed the emotion in me of anger. I could then realise, "Ah, I'm an angry person. Every time I drive, I seem to get angry. Every time I drive I seem to attract people treating me in an unloving manner and I get angry about that. So what I'm going to do about that is meditate for an hour a day and work my way through that issue using that." Now the problem with meditation is that it only addresses the effect because the cause is actually an emotion in the soul that needs to be experienced to be released. Dealing with the effect of trying to calm down my anger using meditation doesn't address the cause of my anger, which is an emotion that needs to be released.

I can try to deal with that for a year, two years, five years or whatever. I can even go down the road of trying to detune from all desires, but in the end my Law of Attraction won't change. My Law of Attraction will keep bringing me these events and all I do is I say, "Ah, alright, now I'm zenned out when I'm driving." The Law of Attraction is still bringing me the same event that it was bringing me before because I haven't changed the cause inside of me as to why the Law of Attraction is bringing me those events. I have only focused on the effect, which was my anger, and calmed myself out of my anger. The cause still exists in my soul and therefore the Law of Attraction will continue to operate upon my soul. You'll still have these events one after the other occurring until you address the cause at the soul level. (00:33:37)

And so the Law of Cause and Effect has many far reaching effects on our soul, aside from other aspects of our life.

Participant: AJ, can the Law of Attraction be something good? Is it always something in error?

No, the Law of Attraction will be always good in the end. As you release more and more of the error-based emotions, more and more of your life will be positive and good. You know how sometimes when we start we find we've got this nasty person in our life and that nasty person in our life, half the people that we know are nasty to us, and then once we get through these emotions, we start releasing them, all of a sudden things start changing around us and before we know it, every single person we meet in our life is pretty nice and things like that start happening to us.

Participant: Can it happen with an object?

Certainly it can, and also with animals and creatures and insects and everything. Even such a thing as getting bitten by mosquitoes is a Law of Attraction event and if you address its cause emotionally inside of yourself, you won't get bitten by mosquitoes any more. Just simple things like that.

Participant: Okay, well that's good because I was trying to go through an emotion today and I was sitting on the grass in front of the Mooloolaba Beach and there were ants everywhere, big ones, little ones and I was talking to someone for an hour about an emotion and not one ant bit me and I thought, "I think I must be on the right track."

Exactly. What happens is that everything starts to live in harmony with you. The fact that I got stung by a jellyfish today meant that I was out of harmony with everything otherwise it wouldn't have happened. And I can see why I was because in that particular moment I could feel the emotion that I was suppressing, and I'm still suppressing it, so obviously I don't want to go to that one. (00:35:36)

But understand that the Law of Attraction is like this messenger of truth, and the Law of Cause and Effect is showing us that if we don't deal with the cause and we just deal with the effect, then our Law of Attraction will not change. These are good measurements to see whether we are progressing.

2.3. Other ways that God shows our error to us

Now God has available to Her lots and lots of things to help you get out of the state of error and into a state of truth. God has all these laws; there are all these laws that help you do this. Every time you experience pain you know, "I'm breaking a law here. There's some law that I'm not getting here." And you can start to investigate that emotionally as to what's going on. And in the end they are all based around Laws of Love. If you break any Law of Love there will always be pain associated with it.

You know all the pain songs about love, which are most songs about love on the planet; well they are all in error obviously because if you experience any pain with love, then there is a lesson of love that you haven't learnt yet. So we could let ourselves confront all of those things. But God also has other things as Her disposal to be able to help us get out of this state of error and into the state of truth. (00:37:03)

God has all of these spirits in the spirit world who are already more developed more than you or I are. There are all of these spirits above the eighth sphere of the spirit world, and if you long for them to help you, they will come and help you. But a lot of their help is emotional so unless you're open to your emotions and your desires and your passions, it's going to be difficult for you to listen or hear what they are actually saying. (00:37:35)

What are other mechanisms? Well other mechanisms are people on Earth who have a connection to the spirits, or to God, who can tell you truth and that can happen any moment in your life. In fact, in most cases your own children are more connected to God than you are yourself because they have less soul damage and therefore less resistance to their emotions, and therefore less resistance to what anybody from external locations can tell them about the truth. Many times a lot of wisdom can come out of the mouth of your child to you, and the key is how you react to it.

3. Reasons for rejecting truth

This is why I want to get to the subjects of truth and judgement, because most of the time when we receive truth, through our ears or through our eyes, we judge ourselves with it. That causes us then to emotionally reject that truth from entering us. And this is a major problem of self-judgement.

It is common for people to judge themselves when they hear personal truth

Let's look at why we do that.

3.1. Our unwillingness to feel emotions causes us to reject truth

Of course everything begins at the emotional level. What emotion within us would we want to avoid that would cause us to reject truth? What kind of emotions would cause us to reject truth?

Participant: Shame.

Shame, but it's not the shame that is causing us to reject the truth. Isn't it my refusal to feel the emotion of shame that causes me to reject the truth? (00:40:08)

Our refusal to feel shame can cause us to reject truth

The emotion itself is shame, but it's not the shame that causes me to reject truth, because somebody could tell me the truth and all I need to do is feel my own shame. I won't reject the truth if I allow myself to feel the emotion of shame fully. It's actually not the shame that causes me to reject the truth; it's actually my refusal to feel this emotion of shame. It's the unwillingness inside of my own soul to feel the emotion of shame that causes me to then reject the truth when it's told to me.

Now we could rub out the word "shame" and put in any one of a number of emotions, we could put "unworthy" in there. And if I have the emotion of unworthiness am I going to reject the truth? No, unless I refuse to feel the emotion of unworthiness; then I will reject the truth.

Participant: Wouldn't fear come into it?

Yeah, there's obviously a reason why I refuse to feel this emotion, whatever that emotion is, and obviously that reason is based upon fear of something. Actually I would go further and say it's actually based upon terror of something and it's the terror inside of us of feeling these emotions that is our main problem. (00:41:56)

Fear and terror are the reasons we don't want to feel

Participant: What about denial?

Well all denial is based upon shutting down your fear. Every time you choose to deny something it's because you're shutting down your fear; your fear is the thing that causes you to shut down the actual experience of the emotion that causes you to reject truth. So no matter which way you look at it, the problem is not the emotion existing in me; the problem is my refusal to feel the emotion existing in me. As soon as I refuse to feel an emotion that exists in me, I will emotionally reject the truth that's coming to me. It doesn't matter what source it's coming from, I will reject it if I refuse to feel all of my emotion inside of myself.

3.2. False beliefs need to be released to accept a truth

3.2.1. An example of a woman who is afraid of being attacked

Participant: I am in terror with men. I realised a few weeks ago I was really angry with men, which I couldn't see before. I'm scared of them, mentally and physically, and my Law of Attraction is that nearly every day I go in terror. I'll be in my bed and really thinking I'm going to be attacked by men, and I can feel my body everywhere. I think I'm open to feel it because I don't even pray for them to stop and I don't even pray for some help, I just want to feel it. But it keeps coming again and again and again and I don't know if it's going to go away. That's what happened to me and I refuse to feel something when I think I'm opening myself to feel that.

Yes. Can I just explain that what we're often refusing to feel is actually a positive thing? I'll give you an example. One of the emotions I have had to process my way through is that love is a gift. Now that's a positive thing, isn't it? Love is a gift but you'd be surprised at how many emotions are involved in you thinking that love is not a gift and that love can be demanded and expected. (00:41:22)

Often inside of myself I'd be crying about not getting love from a certain relationship and the thing I needed to come to understand was that love was a gift. So my crying about not getting love was actually an error. Now I needed to cry about it but I could keep crying about it for a hundred years. I needed to accept some kind of truth into me somehow; I needed to see why I didn't want to believe love was a gift. I needed to actually deal with a totally different emotion than the emotion I felt was actually happening to me at the time, which was that I wasn't getting loved. And in many cases the emotion I had to deal with was that I had these beliefs inside of me about love that I was refusing to give up and in my refusal to give up these beliefs I would have huge amounts of pain because I just refused to give up the beliefs.

Now one of the beliefs that often affects us is this belief that we're going to be attacked all the time and a lot of times we refuse to give up this belief. Why would you refuse to give up a belief that you're going to be attacked all the time? Can you see there are some pretty deep psychological reasons that you might have? One might be: if I have a belief that I'm going to be attacked, then I can be hyper-vigilant; I can then prevent myself from experiencing life by being very choosy with what actually happens in my life. And the way I'll be choosy about it is, I can say, "If I go there, that might happen." So I will stop myself going there. Somebody invites us along to go out dancing but "If I go dancing people will laugh at me because I look funny or because I'm no good at dancing," or any of those kinds of things, and so I can go into this state of fear and say to them, "Ah, no I can't go. I'm afraid of dancing." And I'm not really afraid of dancing at all, I'm afraid of how people will view me when I'm dancing, which is a totally different fear. And so most of the time what we find ourselves doing in our lives is actually allowing things to happen in order to avoid other things.

My suggestion in this case for you is to allow yourself to have a look at what you get out of it if you believe men are going to attack you all of the time. What can you avoid by believing this? Because if you're processing an emotion over and over and over and over again then it's not the cause. (00:47:17)

Participant: Yes and that's what I believe because it's feeling the fear and nothing else happens.

So therefore it's not the cause of your condition. There's something else going on, so ask yourself, "What do I get out of holding on to my fear about this particular thing? What do I get out of it? What does it help me avoid? What can I get away with if I believe men are going to attack me?"

Participant: But the thing is usually when that's happening, it's not when I'm in a situation with someone, it's just comes.

Yeah you're feeling a lot from spirits, I feel. But it doesn't matter who it's coming from, the same question needs to be asked; What do I get out of believing that men are going to attack me? What do I get out of that? And what you can get out of it is this. I can avoid every relationship with a man, I can avoid being open and vulnerable to a man, I can use my fear to justify all of these other things. Sometimes that's what we do and we need to notice that happening within ourselves. However, I am getting off the topic of what I wanted to talk about which is this issue of why we reject truth and how this relates to judgement in particular. (00:48:36)

Participant: Can I just say there's a saying fear knocked on the door, faith opened it, guess what? There was nobody there.

And what's your point?

Participant: You've got the fear of the unknown until you face it, then it's gone.

That's very true, but all fear is emotional anyway, so you need to look at what's going on with your fears. But you certainly need to face them all. I'm not saying you don't need to face them.

3.2.2. Pain and suffering indicates we are blocking a truth

Participant: I'm just a bit stuck. If you're in your error emotions, how do you even recognise that there's truth out there. Like, you're rejecting truth, but how do you know it's truth?

The truth is always without pain. Whenever I'm in an error-based emotion there's always pain and suffering associated with it. As soon as I actually get into the truth phase there will no longer be the same associated pain and suffering.

Participant: So you're saying that whenever I'm feeling pain, then there's a truth I'm not seeing?

Yes, and the pain and suffering are telling you that. Now I'm not suggesting that it's the pain of the emotional release because when you're in an emotional release, you are releasing the pain, so obviously during that phase you will feel the pain. But I'm talking about where you stay in long term pain without getting release, long term suffering without it being released, then obviously there's a truth that you're refusing to face emotionally within yourself. (00:50:34)

Participant: And that would mean that your Law of Attraction wasn't changing?

That's correct. Your Law of Attraction is the measurement by which we know things will change. The issue that many of us face is that we start processing emotion but we seem to process the same emotion. You start processing one emotion, let's say it's an emotion of unworthiness or something like that, and every single day you seem to feel unworthy and nothing seems to change. Now if nothing is changing, you're not dealing with the cause. It's quite simple. If nothing's changing you're not dealing with the cause; you're dealing with the effect. So you need to look deeper into the cause. What I've had to do a lot is to look at myself much more honestly in those situations and I've found that we often use our fear as an excuse to not feel the cause, the causal emotion, whatever the causal emotion is. Remember it could be shame, it could be unworthiness. Let's call it the cause or the causal emotion, the causal emotion being the emotion that creates our Law of Attraction. If I refuse to feel that I will never ever release that emotion from me and that will be the creator of my Law of Attraction. (00:51:58)

The Law of Attraction will not change unless we feel our causal emotion

4. Refusing to feel our emotions creates judgement towards truth

So I could actually decide, inside of myself, that I can stay in this state and justify to myself the reason why I don't want to feel that, but that's a very damaging place to be. Never justify your own fear; never justify your own anger. If you justify your own anger and justify your own fear, you are never going to feel the underlying causal emotion that creates your Law of Attraction. And when I say justify, I don't mean don't feel it, I mean stop telling yourself that it's just; that's it's right to have this righteous rage. We need to stop doing this righteous rage thing. We need to feel that we are allowed to have rage, we're allowed to experience the rage and sometimes you need to because a lot of it is childhood buried rage and anger and also childhood buried fear that you need to release. We need to experience it but don't justify it and live in it. That's what we need to stop doing.

Often, because we are now in this state, and many times it's an intellectual denial, where we refuse to feel the causal emotion and we justify using some technique (which is really just covering over the emotional fear of the emotion) we reject the truth out of hand. Whenever the truth comes to us, it's just rejected, and when we're in this state, we're automatically going to feel that any truth that hits us is judgemental. So while we're in this state where we're refusing to feel our own causal emotion or justifying through fear, terror, anger or rage, or any of those other justifications that we might have to not feel this causal emotion, we are actually creating a permanent state of judgement towards every bit of truth that comes in our direction.

Refusing to feel and rejecting truth creates a state of judgement

This is a very dangerous place to be if you want to progress because in this state of judgement, you can turn anything good into something bad, and justify your not receiving it. You can turn anything.

4.1. An example of having judgement about receiving a gift

For example, somebody comes and gives you a gift; you have a causal emotion to feel about it and you don't want to feel about it, and so you have a judgement. The causal emotion might be, "Ah it's wonderful to receive a gift but I don't believe any gift is given unconditionally." Let's say that that's the emotion inside. And so I'm given a gift; the person who's giving it is giving it without any conditions and yet I get the gift and I go, "Mmm, I wonder what they wanted." How did I come to that conclusion? They might have had a pure desire to give me this gift and yet I'm going, "What do they want now from me?" What am I doing? I have just judged their action because I refuse to feel my causal emotion, which is my belief inside of myself that any gift has an attachment to it. (00:55:59)

Participant: And that's because one's making the external world responsible for the internal world?

Not just making it responsible, they are blaming it.

Participant: But one's not taking responsibility for what one's feeling, so they're making their external world responsible?

Yeah. So in the example I gave, my causal emotion is "No gift ever comes without attachment." In other words I have no belief in unconditional love inside of myself. Many of us grow up having no belief in unconditional love, and so what do we then do? We project to the world that nobody out there is unconditionally loving. We receive the gift and the person who's given it may feel total unconditional love for you in the gift and yet you're going, "I wonder what they want." You've got this negative judgement going back out at that person. It's a judgement of that person saying it's impossible for that person to be unconditional with this gift; that's what you're really saying. And that's a judgement of the person.

Participant: They're not understanding the Law of Attraction either.

Not at all, no. There are a lot of laws they're not understanding when they do it.

4.2. Personal truth may be error from God's perspective

Participant: Where does personal truth fit in with actual truth?

Well, the problem with personal truth is that it could be error, whereas actual truth is God's Truth, the Absolute Truth, which is never in error. Now so-called personal truth will often still cause no change in the Law of Attraction and cause pain to ourselves. We can live in personal truth and still be in a state of pain because that personal truth might not be truth from God's perspective; it may be error.

All the New Age philosophies say you've got to live in your personal truth, and my feeling is that you've got to live in your personal truth except when it's causing you pain because that's telling you that your personal truth is actually error. The only way to know the difference is to feel the pain, to feel the Law of Attraction and allow yourself to feel what's going on in your life, to feel what's happening. And if you understand the Law of Attraction like that, you'll see every event as a Law of Attraction. You'll sit down and have a chat with someone and get bitten by a mosquito and it's a Law of Attraction event right at that moment going on, something inside of you that you're denying. What was it? It's probably related to the discussion you were having, all of those things. The Law of Attraction is so precise and Mary and I often sit down and go, "Wow, how precise was that?" Right down to the specific details, the time, the actual moment we had a feeling pass through us many times the Law of Attraction brings us something. It's very precise and we need to understand that.

4.3. Judgement is created by our refusal to feel and justification of our fear and anger

But getting back to the judgement, can you see what the creation of judgement is inside of yourself? It basically comes from our refusal to feel the causal emotion, and the refusal to feel the causal emotion is then justified by using fear or terror. We justify our terror, we justify our fear, and then we often get into a state of anger, rage, resentment, hatred or whatever and then we project to the world that it's impossible for anybody to do anything nice. In the case of the causal emotion being, "I don't believe in unconditional love," we project that anybody who does anything nice for me always has an ulterior motive. (00:58:41)

Now in that state, I can use much intellectual reasoning to justify my perspective, most of which is totally illogical. I have heard so-called logical arguments over and over again and the total illogicalness, if there is such a word, of the "logical argument" is outstanding in many cases. The reason is that once we're in this state of judgement, where we're refusing to feel our own causal emotion, we are going to blame the world for everything that's going on in our own lives and not take any personal responsibility or personal acceptance of what is actually going on for myself.

4.3.1. An example of judgement towards AJ's character

So somebody comes along and says, "AJ's narcissistic." Now what does that mean? It means that I love myself at the expense of everybody else; that I am self-involved, that all I want is self-glory, people to notice me, and all of those kinds of things. This happened to me last week. A person emailed me telling me I was narcissistic because I was saying I was Jesus. Now that's a big logical step to make. Just because you're saying you're Jesus all of a sudden it means that you're self-involved? How did that logical step get made? That logical step got made because of the refusal to feel the causal emotion inside the person themselves. This person who emailed me doesn't even know me, has never met me, has never seen me personally interact with any person, aside from what they've observed in one or two DVDs, and they've made the judgement that I'm narcissistic. The truth is that I could be but they've made the judgement based upon this refusal to feel a causal emotion inside of themselves. Mary knows I'm not narcissistic; otherwise she couldn't live with me. So something's going on; there's obviously this presumption that just because I'm claiming to be somebody who they feel lives somewhere else, that means I must be narcissistic then. Straight away there's a big judgement coming out of them to me specifically. (01:02:41)

Narcissistic judgement results from a refusal to feel a casual emotion

Participant: And it doesn't really matter what's coming from outside. Is it more important for one to just feel what's happening within the self when somebody's projecting?

Yes, very much so. So when this person sent me this email, what do I feel? I go, "Wow, that's amazing. Let's go and look up narcissistic in the dictionary." (Laughter) "Ah yeah, that's what I thought it meant. Wow, the truth is at the moment I'm going through these terrible emotions of having no worth whatsoever and then somebody's telling me that I'm narcissistic. Wow, and it's just because of me saying I am Jesus. That's the only reason why they called me that, there's no other reason." So there's got to be emotions.

So what do I do then? Do I write back, "No, I'm not narcissistic." What's the point in doing that? This person is already making a judgement that I am. Do you think they're going to change their mind by dealing with their own causal emotion about my comment? When I first made the comment to you, "I'm Jesus," many of you felt your causal emotion which was, '"He's now saying that he's perfect," or, "He's now saying that I've got to listen to him," and so forth. There are a lot of things that we then assume, and I'm not saying any of those things, I'm just stating the fact that I am Jesus. I'm not saying what you've got to do with that. I'm not saying you must follow me or anything like that; all I'm doing is just stating a truth. And I'm not saying that you should follow me, do what I tell you to do, let's go and make a cult together and all of these other things. Many of you have learnt that over the two years of time you've known me, but initially when you heard those words, I bet those thoughts went through your mind. Of course many of those thoughts went through your mind.

4.3.2. Judgement causes us to believe that truth is error

The reason is that when we hear a truth (and let's say you don't know yet whether this is a truth or not, but I'll say it's a truth for the moment), my refusal to feel my own causal emotion about it and my desire to stay in fear and anger and whatever other emotions about it, which are a way to get away with not feeling this causal emotion, cause me to judge that truth as error, without having any evidence whatsoever that it is error. And we then start trying to construct evidence to support our opinion. (01:05:45)

Participant: And convince everybody else what we're saying is the truth.

Yeah, and that is one of the things that proves to us that we're still refusing to feel and are in a place of judgement. I'm not trying to convince you about the truth of my identity, you can believe what you want, and you don't have to believe I'm Jesus.

Participant: But then if someone gives you more evidence it's almost like they say, "Don't confuse me with the truth; my mind's made up."

Exactly, that's really what they are saying. "Don't confuse me with more truth; I have already got a refusal to feel my causal emotion. Don't try and make me feel my causal emotion, I'm not going to do that. I'm going to come up with all the reasons I possibly can to help myself avoid this causal emotion." And they'll come up with this evidence and after a while is there's not even enough evidence to stop them from feeling it. So then they start constructing evidence through lies and innuendo and other things like that and then there's all this stuff that goes flying out there as truth that when you trace it all back comes from nowhere.

Last week I read that apparently my father is dead and I wear his pyjamas. (Laughter) Now my father would be really interested in that because he is alive and he doesn't wear pyjamas. (Laughter) (01:07:23)

5. Judgment is an automatic consequence of suppressing emotions

Participant: AJ, taking that to another level, if our emotions are so suppressed and we are not having all of that anger and fear, so we're not throwing out judgement, does that mean intellectually we're accepting the truth but emotionally, at the soul level, we're not accepting the truth?

No, when your emotions are suppressed, you are automatically throwing out judgement. This is happening at the soul level whether intellectually you think you are or not. You see, this is the problem with the intellect: once we get to this stage where we want to reject the causal emotion, from that moment on, we are now projecting to the universe judgement of any truth that comes to expose that causal emotion. We are going to judge it even beneath our awareness, which is a very easy intellectual way of getting out of very deep emotions. (01:08:21)

Participant: But even if you don't make those judgements...

Can I just stop you for a second? Understand you are already making the judgements. They are already being made at the soul level.

Participant: And you don't know that you're doing it.

You don't even know that you're doing it. Judgement is not a voiced opinion. Judgement is an emotional feeling and you're already doing it when you're in a state of denial.

Participant: So is that why you made the statement that there was nobody on Earth at soul level that believed the truth that you were saying?

Yes, that's right.

5.1. The example of dealing with AJ's identity

When I say I'm Jesus, none of you have yet fully emotionally processed the causal emotions about that statement enough to not have judgement about it. All of you have judgement and the proof of the judgement about it is your Law of Attraction. When you say "I'm going along to these sessions," how many people do you get saying to you, "What's it like, what's the guy's name?" "I've got to tell you he's saying he's Jesus." Now can you feel your own judgement of that? How many of you feel lots of judgement in that? You're afraid of what that other person's going to think of that now aren't you? Most of the time, yes, there's very few of you yet who have actually dealt with that and that's saying that there's a causal emotion you are refusing to feel. It's got nothing to do with me being Jesus by the way, it's got everything to do in many cases of you feeling you'll then get judged or you will then get treated as if you're an idiot or whatever. It's got nothing to do with me making the statement, it's got everything to do with an emotion inside of yourself. And so we finish up responding in our own judgement and we do that by starting to tread lightly around the issue that we don't want to talk about.

So somebody comes along and says, "Why do you go Monday nights down in Brisbane?' "Oh there's this guy I see." "And what's his name?" "Oh his name is AJ Miller." "And what does he talk about?" "Oh, love and truth and all these other things." And then you start feeling, how much information should I give them? I don't know if I should give them much more now. I'd rather they come along for themselves and check it out for themselves before I give them much more information. Why is this? Because you are already in a state of your own judgement of what's going to happen, and that may not happen at all, but you are already in a state because there's a causal emotion inside that you're unwilling to address. And the causal emotion might be "They will think I'm crazy, they will think I'm an idiot, they're not going to listen to me now, they're not going to treat me now like I've got important things to say anymore just because I'm thinking this or just because I'm going along there." There could be fifty causal emotions or reasons why I can't state the truth. (01:11:33)

5.2. An example of justifying pain and suffering

Participant: In other words, we are extremely addicted to pain and suffering really and when we're not in truth, we are living in our addictions.

Yes, and unfortunately we are so addicted to pain and suffering that we justify pain and suffering. Quite often you hear people talking together, "How are you?" "Ah, I'm feeling really bad today. I've got this pain here and that pain there." "Did you go and see the doctor?" "Yeah, and it's this..." And whole conversations occur around pain and suffering, and many of you in the past may have been addicted to these kinds of conversations too. And why do those conversations exist? They wouldn't even exist if I were actually feeling all of my causal emotions. They exist because I am refusing to feel my causal emotion and I need something to justify that entire process. And so we finish up constructing a whole system of pain and suffering that we now accept as real and realistic and what do we call it? We think it's the "normal" thing on the planet and we even start saying to ourselves "No, what AJ's talking about is just a utopian dream and what is normal is what we've got." I quite often hear many still come up and say to me, "We've got to live in this real world." What real world? This isn't the real world, this is the world that we constructed to avoid our causal emotion. This whole world is like that; constructed to help us avoid this causal emotion. And while I'm in that state of avoiding my causal emotion, I have automatic judgement stopping any truth from entering my soul. (01:13:32)

Participant: Around that subtle area that you talk about where we're putting out judgement at the soul level, is this where autistic children pick that stuff up and really act out, and sensitive people pick all this stuff up?

Autistic children are antennas for this stuff . An autistic child is just sitting there getting huge amounts of judgement from the rest of its universe and because it's so sensitive it hasn't got enough space left inside to feel its own self. It's just feeling every single thing hammering it from its environment because we've constructed this environment and it's become "normal" that we now live in this place. (01:14:44)

Participant: There were a couple of things I wanted to ask you about and one was when people justify their illness and suffering, they say, "Oh it's genetic, my mum had it, my grandmother had it," and also with old age; "I'm just getting old; that's what happens when I get old."

Yes. And what's the question?

Participant: Actually my question wasn't really about that. Sorry. It's just something I've noticed a lot of clients say to me when they come in with a body pain. I start talking about emotions that are going on in their body and so on and it's difficult for it to sink in. Now with the judgement, I've got to a place where I think I can see myself where I almost judge without my permission.

You judge without your permission?

Participant: Yeah without my permission... my conscious permission.

Now, this is not true. You've got to stop telling yourself lies like this.

Participant: Well that's what it feels like to me.

You can't judge without your permission.

Participant: Without my conscious permission?

It has your conscious permission.

5.3. Judgement shows us that we are suppressing an emotion

Participant: Oh okay, so I judge all the time.

Well that's great to acknowledge. Firstly we need to acknowledge that we judge all of the time and of course all of us are judging all of the time at some level because whenever we refuse to feel one of our causal emotions, we are automatically judging everything around us. So understand that it is with your permission. At the soul level you don't want to feel...

Participant: Oh at the soul level, at the soul level.

No, no, no. Consciously as well you do not want to feel the causal emotion. The judgements that rise instantly in you - notice them.

Participant: Yes, that was my next question. That's a good way of working backwards. Notice a judgement and let me follow that back to the causal emotion. That's cool.

Yes, because when you have a judgement, that's an automatic sign that you have a causal emotion that you're in denial of. It's like a signpost hitting you.

Participant: Yes it's almost like one of those Law of Attraction events but it's quicker.

Yeah, that's right. Whatever you're doing, you might see somebody walking along the street, she's got a mini skirt on and her boobs are just popping out a bit. (Laughter) And you make a judgement. What's the judgement you make in that particular instance?

Participant: You're a strumpet.

You're a what? (Laughing) A strumpet? I don't understand that one. Is that a Queensland thing? It's old-fashioned, okay. Is that like an extension of crumpet? (Laughter) But yes, you make this judgement based on her appearance of her character and nature, do you not? Many times we do, right? We made a judgement; the judgement is already out of harmony with love, so let's trace it back. What causal emotion don't I want to feel in that judgement? You see that's what we need to go for. Well firstly, sometimes the way is to trace it back to the anger you had in the judgement and then trace it down to the fear that you had in the judgement and then you might get to the causal emotion. There will always be a path you can follow back to seeing that there's an emotion in you that caused you to make a judgement of that person. And by the way, whether it's a judgement of that person or yourself, it's still as damaging in both cases. So either way, whether you judge yourself or judge another you still damage yourself or the other. (01:18:54)

Participant: Is assumption the same thing as judgement? Is it the same, when you assume you know?

Yeah. In a minute I will talk about how you can know for certain, which is a whole different thing. What we want to do firstly is just look at this issue of judgement and see it as an emotional issue. We want to see it as an emotional issue because actually it's the effect of our denial of causal emotion. Judgement is always the effect of denial of our causal emotion. And so if we see it as such, we will then start seeing our judgements as not something to justify and laugh about but rather something to help us find our deeper causal emotions. (01:20:00)

5.4. Judging others vs. being judged

Participant: I find I catch myself out judging someone else for sure, but where I really struggle with is the feeling of being judged. I just sort of shut down. I feel that when anyone says anything to me and I'm feeling judged I go into defence, but it's a lot harder to go to the causal, to start to understand the causal emotions behind the judgement.

What I'd like to do is talk about that as a separate issue in this discussion because what I want to first look at is the emotional reasons why we judge others, and then you'll find linked to that is why we actually don't like being judged ourselves. There are very strong linkages between these two relationships, and so oftentimes we have very little resistance to judging others but we have huge resistance to somebody judging us. In this state, we want to actually stop having resistance to any of that and allow ourselves to feel the judgements we have of others, and start looking at the reasons why we do, but we then also want to feel why we think it's more important or more damaging when others have judged us than when we have judged others.

Now in the first century I said, "It would be better for you to not judge than to have a millstone put around your neck and cast into the sea," and what I was basically saying is that judgement is such a powerful tool of harming another person's free will that you can actually cause the death of other people just through judgement. (01:22:12)

Now I've actually been on the receiving end of that. I was told at one stage of my life by three men who met with me while I was going through some emotional experiences with my ex-wife, that it would be better if I killed myself than broke the marriage. That's what they said to me. Now that's a pretty big judgement isn't it? If I was in a worse emotional state than what I was and really feeling low about myself, I could easily have just gone and killed myself. That's how powerful judgement can be. You can actually cause people to die from it. It's such a damaging emotion.

In the first century, I also said, "Take care that you don't look at others and not see yourself," and then I gave an illustration of how we often try to help the other person take some fault out of themselves which is like a little piece of straw in their eye and all the while we've got a great big rafter in our own eye while we're trying to do it. In other words, you imagine this great big rafter coming out of your eye and you're trying to see the little piece of straw that's in Brian's. It's going to be a bit difficult to extract the straw in his. And the problem with judgement is that most of the time, when we are in a state of judgement; we are actually in a darker condition than the people we are judging. That's how powerful judgement is in your soul condition. (01:23:59)

6. Judgement is a signpost to deeper emotions that we wish to avoid

This is why it's very, very important to see judgement as a tool, a signpost, warning you that there is something inside of yourself that you're wanting to avoid.

Participant: AJ I'm just sitting here looking at the diagram. Can we avoid getting into the judgement by every little event that happens and our Law of Attraction? So, if someone gives you a gift, could you say, "Oh that's an interesting Law of Attraction, how do I feel about that?" and do that process first?

Well the truth is that if you choose to feel your causal emotions, you'll never judge no matter what emotions get triggered inside of you. But the problem is that all of us at some point have resistance to the feeling of our causal emotion, which creates automatic judgement anyway. The key is to notice it. You don't have to be perfect yet (laughter) because when I say "yet" there is a time when you will become perfect and that is when you become at-one with God. You will no longer judge and you will feel every single causal emotion that passes through you the moment it passes through you and you'll have no resistance to it. (01:25:17)

Participant: It just makes me think that we're looking for the big Law of Attraction events but not looking at our internal responses to the little Law of Attraction events.

Yeah, well I feel you should look at every Law of Attraction event. Your entire life is your Law of Attraction. So everything happening in your life down to stubbing your toe and cutting yourself when you're cutting up the tomatoes are all Law of Attraction events and each one of them has an emotion that's being denied. What we need to do is to allow ourselves to actually see those emotions.

But I'm bringing up this judgement issue because judgement is a very, very good indicator to you that you're denying some causal emotion within yourself and it's a very easy one to see.

For example, you could be driving along the road, you look at something and go, "Ooh that's a bit short," with regards to the dress or skirt or whatever, or you're driving along and you go, "Oh why are they like that?" or "Wow they're pretty fat, ugh." You make all these judgments and these judgements all come from unhealed causal emotions within yourself because when you become at-one with God, you will never judge again. And remember what judgement is: judging is a projection of my unhealed causal emotion on the world around me. Judgement is emotional.

This is why little children who can't even speak and can't even understand language still know what you feel about them. They know that because it's emotion that's coming from you to them and because of this, it enters them and then changes their behaviour as a result. And that, if you think about it, is the entire reason why we want to judge, is it not? The entire reason we want to judge is that we do want to change the external thing that we're judging. If I say, "Ah, the political system of this world is really up the shit, we need to fix that," I'm already in a state of judgement, am I not? I need to go straight into myself and go, "Alright, what's going on inside of me? I've got some judgement about the political system of the world. What emotions in me am I avoiding that cause me to have this judgement?" And I'll have some for sure and there'll be all sorts of things that I can access through this judgement. (01:27:56)

In the end we'll get to a state where we don't judge but we just speak truth. Now this is where it gets very tricky because at the start we're avoiding a lot of causal emotions within ourselves so we are in an automatic state of judgement most of the time. And so then we feel justified in saying the truth. We look at the person and they've got a mini skirt on and you can just see the bottom of their undies and you say, "That's just way too short." That's an automatic judgement coming from your soul. Now why are you saying that? Because there's something in that situation that triggers an emotion in you that you don't want to feel and you're perfectly happy now to make her make her dress length longer.

And do you know that this is how rules got established? You know in the 1950s and 1960s in the southern states of the USA, they made rules in all Christian churches about how long your dress had to be. And many of you know it happened here in Australia when you went to a Catholic school or something like that and even to a normal school, of how long your dress had to be. (01:29:16)

Now how did that happen? It happened because some people had a sexual response to the dress being shorter, that they then felt they couldn't deal with inside of themselves. They couldn't deal with the causal emotion, and instead they made everybody change the dress length to fix up the fact that they couldn't feel the shameful sexual emotion they had towards these girls. That's what happened. This happens all the time in so many ways and we've got to look at why this happens inside of us because in the end we want to stop controlling every single person on this planet, to give up control of every single person on this planet by our judgement; what we want to do instead is choose to feel our own emotional response to it. That's what we've got to do if we really want to progress. (01:30:23)

So someone gets on the internet and they just blast Mary out of the water, and half of you like Mary. Ah, all of you like Mary! (Laughter) Okay. So many of you would feel very, very driven to defend her. You're making some judgements, straight away. What kind of judgements are you making? Well there are all sorts of causal emotions you may be avoiding. Somebody you love is getting attacked. You then feel you need to rise to their defence but this attack is actually a Law of Attraction event for them or for you in order to help you to get access to a causal emotion and maybe the causal emotion is "unjustified attack." How does that feel for you inside of yourself? Doesn't that feel terrible when you're getting attacked for no reason? How does that relate to some events in your childhood? "Ah yeah, I remember my father came home one night and belted me with a stick because mum told him that I'd done something that my sister did and that felt pretty bad." Can you see that often we are not healing those kinds of emotions because of these actions? (01:31:50)

And so instead we feel drawn into defending our causal emotion, defending our castle. We feel drawn into it thinking that we are doing Mary a favour but you're not doing Mary or yourself a favour. In that particular moment all you're doing is avoiding a causal emotion from your own childhood. Can you see the relationship?

Participant: AJ, What I've found myself doing, when I come across a fat person or someone wearing short clothing or something, I know judgement is not good, but I can pretty clearly feel their emotions, so I go into sort of empathy or sadness for them. But is that just another way of me avoiding my own emotions to just sort of feel their pain?

Well empathy is obviously a really good emotion to have for others in the sense that you can feel compassion for another person's situation, but you feeling sadness is certainly something you need to look at inside of yourself. Why are you sad that they are making those choices? There's something going on for you that causes you to feel sad about that choice. The key is to allow yourself to access that sadness. So use the Law of Attraction event to access the sadness that you feel. Don't avoid the sadness.

Every single situation, when you think about it, is like a beautifully timed, beautifully constructed event that your soul has constructed for itself for healing its own causal emotion, including a lady walking along a road with too short a dress or whatever else that's one of those events, and we need to actually look at that emotionally. God created us all to walk around naked in the end didn't He? We need to judge why we can't do that. At the moment we can't do that because there are huge amounts of sexual projections coming out from everybody that are unhealed and hardly anybody wants to heal them. We all want to justify them or to say, "They are there because I am a male and I've got the King Kong thing going on" or whatever. Or "I'm a female and I'm sick to death of being pushed around by men and now I'm allowed to embrace my sexuality." And we come up with all these explanations but at the moment there are huge amounts of sexual projection on the planet and very few of us want to deal with the shame that's associated with the causal emotion of it, and we need to allow ourselves to get into it; we need to allow ourselves to be triggered through that. (01:34:43)

6.1. Feeling emotions in the workplace

Participant: AJ, I'm having a problem in my work job; how can I access these emotions after judging when you've got all these people around? I just block them and block them, I just can't feel them. I'd end up crying, I'd end up being a mess. So I don't know what to do.

My suggestion is to allow yourself to cry and be a mess. Now that is not what is classified by the world to be a very professional thing to do. So that's a judgement of the world that you're accepting. The truth is that anything that comes to me, including if I'm a practitioner, is a Law of Attraction event to help me access my own causal emotion. So if I'm having an emotional response to a story that's being told to me, there is something inside of me that is connecting here that I need to work my way through. And the best time and place to do it is then and there.

Now the problem that we face in today's world is that we're going to be terribly judged as a practitioner if we do that. But we could say to our clients, "I'm going to do this from now on. This is how I do my practice and if you can't cope with me being emotional, how are you ever going to help me help you be emotional? If you can't handle me being emotional, I can't help you be emotional. I can't help you to get to your causal emotions either."

I feel what is going to happen in the future is that these kinds of practices will change and instead of being under the guise of being a professional, where we suppress emotion, what is going to happen is that being professional is being in your emotions at all times. And once we get to that state, all the nurses in the hospital are going to be able to do that, all the doctors in the hospital will be able to do that, every single psychologist and psychiatrist and everybody else will be able to do that as well and in the end it will teach the entire planet that we are able to feel our emotions and that our emotions are the major cause of all of our distress and illness. (01:37:04)

So in this interim phase you have a decision to make, and it's a decision based around truth. If you feel the truth that emotions are the cause of all disease, illness and suffering then it's time to put that truth into action in your life, even if you're in a professional situation, and see where the chips fall. Allow it to change because at the moment what happens is that if we all just conform to the way the world has already created this system to be, it's going to stay the way it is. It needs people who are going to change it by leading their way through it. It needs leaders, people who will be examples in changing this whole system.

I understand the dilemma, but the feeling I have is allow yourself to feel your emotions, stop blocking the emotions. These are all Law of Attraction events bringing beautiful people to you to help you access some of your own emotion as well as helping them heal their emotion. In fact I feel that the more empathy that you have with them and the more you allow your emotions to flow because of what they're telling you, the more they will connect with their causal emotion and release it.

Participant: It does, but should I, at home, feel the fear of feeling the emotion that I'm going to have because I have hundreds of people that I'm in front of every day when I'm at work, not just a few. It's a huge amount of people. So that's the problem. I would have a lot of fear in the first place before even leaving home.

Yes, you certainly do need to feel that fear. The problem that we face at the beginning of any venture is that right at the start we're basically opening ourselves up to hundreds of people projecting emotion at us. And that, of course, is going to have some fairly large emotional impacts on us. What we need to do then is create a space for ourselves where we are able to feel that impact and able to feel that coming at us.

Many people who are in the professions of assisting others have learned to detune from their emotion in order to cope with the profession. The problem there is that, by our example, we are basically telling our clients that they need to detune from their emotion in order to cope with their situation. In addition we are also telling every single person that we live with that we can't cope with the projection of emotion coming to us, except by selection, and that is not the way to live our life. It's certainly not the way God created you to live your life. In the end you will be able to cope with thousands of people projecting emotion at you and every single one of those emotions will have no effect on you but that will only happen when you start allowing one, or two or three people to project emotion at you and allowing yourself to feel it. And then as you feel it, you release the causal emotion and after a while there's nothing to resonate inside of yourself with that. (01:40:33)

So instead of you having to block it you will absorb it and it will just pass through you, but there will be no response inside of you because there's nothing that it triggers inside of you. That certainly takes courage and there'll be fear; fear about being overwhelmed and fear about being manipulated and controlled even by other people's emotion. Lots of different fears will come up as a result and you need to give yourself the space to deal with it.

For many people in professional areas who are caring for others, we don't have the space to deal with it and that's one of the major problems. That's why there are high degrees of breakdowns in caring professions and so forth because none of them have the space to actually deal with their own emotional response to what's happening around them. And that needs to change, but it needs people like yourself who are willing to lead that change for it to change. It's not going to change by all the doctors and all of the nurses and everybody getting together and saying, "Oh we've all realised that we're doing this," because to be frank the majority of them don't realise they're doing this and they believe that this is the only way for them to cope. It needs people who are willing talk about it, talk about how to deal with it. And you'll find there's hundreds and thousands of people on this planet, hundreds and thousands of people in the caring professions who just want to do this. They want to be more open emotionally and everything but they just can't do it in the current environment. (01:42:34)

6.2. Dealing with abusive situations - an example of an Internet forum

Participant: This is a difficult question for me. It arises from what happened on the forum regarding Mary with a person attacking Mary where I made a judgement of abuse; that this was an abusive situation. After feeling the necessity to remove myself from the forum, I didn't attack the guy back, just took a stand and drew a line in the sand for myself...

Can I ask you though, did you feel anger?

Participant: Profound anger.

Well if you felt anger then you were judgemental even though you didn't answer him back.

Participant: And I went away and bashed the crap out of a pillow...

Good, good.

Participant: ... for quite some time and had a real scream but when I came back, the feeling of abuse, of having drawn the line in the sand, was still there.

Did you still feel angry about it?

Participant: No. I then watched the forum. I was asked not to make a new forum but then watched the forum for a period of time and the abusiveness didn't stop. My question is: when it comes to abuse, and I really don't know the answer to this question, you've got to make a judgement that someone is coming at you and they're going to hurt you; yes they're all feelings but you have to have some sense of self-protection surely and... (Sigh)

(Sigh) You don't have to have some sense of self-protection and this is one of the major problems that we face on the planet. Because I justify to myself that I have to protect myself, what extent will I go to in order to do this?

Participant: Well I removed myself and have had no more...

What if you can't remove yourself, Jen?

Participant: I don't know the answer to that, AJ. I don't.

Well, I will tell you. You have to do it from God's perspective and that is that the instant you try to defend anything inside, anything of yourself, including your own pain, you are straight away trying to prevent other people from doing what they want. And as soon as you do that, you are out of harmony with love. That's why I said in the first century, "Turn the other cheek." Now I meant that. What that means is that there are some situations you're just going to have to accept right the way through to the end. And the reason why is that you love and when you love yourself and you love everyone around you, you no longer try to prevent them from acting in the way they want to act. (01:45:42)

Now if you can remove yourself from the situation you would obviously do so, but you don't try to prevent them or stop them from acting the way they act because as soon as you do, you are harming their free will. They are allowed to act as badly and as evilly as they desire. You don't see God coming down and grabbing them by the throat and pulling them up in the air and shaking them like this and say, "How dare you act like that?" God doesn't do it, so why do we try? Remember, whatever God does is the most loving action. So the fact that God doesn't do it means that's the most loving action. As soon as I step in and try to do that, I am really setting myself up above God in my actions to this person who is also a child of God. And also, by the way, I don't have enough trust in all of God's Laws to correct the situation.

So all we need to do is to personally act in harmony with truth and love, and this is where I want to get onto the subject of truth because we need to talk about judgement with reference to truth compared to pushing out these terrible emotions to everyone in trying to control them. (01:47:13)

Participant: But surely in the case of abuse you remove yourself out of harm and then take responsibility for what's been triggered. Surely you get out of harm's way?

I'm going to put to you that there are going to be times in the future where people will not be able to remove themselves out of harm's way and have never even had a Law of Attraction event that would even encourage the thing to occur. Remember that whenever you are in a state of perfect truth, you are going to be in a state that everyone around you will judge as error and many of them may even attempt to kill you as a result of the truth you are in. And as soon as you try to act in a way that's defensive about it, you are now in error and this where everyone goes, "Oh this is so unfair. This doesn't feel like love to me." Do you see why a lot of people in the first century had a lot of trouble with my message? But my own example demonstrated exactly what I'm saying; there were times where you cannot get truthfully out of a situation and there will be times when other people will abuse you until you die, and yet you will still need to stay in truth and love and that's how much love will be coming from God to help you to stay in that place.

So whenever you choose to revile or to harm another person just because they are harming yourself or somebody else, we are straight away out of harmony with love ourselves. The truth is that the forum that you're referring to is at the moment being taken over by lots of very nasty spirits who are guiding people who are denying their causal emotion to say things to you in order to trigger your emotions. These spirits just laugh every time that you break one of God's Laws in your response. Every time you break one of God's Laws in your response, you just degraded your own soul condition and they go away and have a good joke about that. That's what is happening here. You need to see what is happening and as soon as they do that, you need to look at yourself and say, "Okay, what emotion inside of me did I refuse to feel that caused me to be drawn into this transaction with these evil characters, or evil spirits?" In the end that's what I'm getting drawn into, and I'm getting drawn into it because of an emotion in me that I don't want to face. And if I can face it, and heal that emotion, what will happen is that this whole forum will have done its good in at least healing a lot of emotions within each of us. (01:50:25)

Participant: After I had processed the emotions to do with abuse, I felt the desire to go to a new place, to not go back there to face whatever they continue to do. I said nothing to anybody about expressing my desire to create a new forum other than perhaps it's time for a new forum if you're interested and that desire didn't go away.

Jen, I was asked yesterday "Should a new forum be created?" My answer was "I don't feel so."

Participant: I have. I felt the desire to create a more loving space for myself in which to interact because I didn't feel it was right for me to go back to that place and interact with other people who were...

So the question we need to ask is "Why were you interacting with those who were like that anyway?"

Participant: Well, it...

There's a Law of Attraction event there for you.

Participant: I stopped talking quite some time ago.

No, but now what you're trying to do is control who you talk to and who talks to you.

Participant: But I have the right to do that. I have the right to control...

I know you have the right, you have free will but would you do this if you were at-one with God? Does God control all of those things? (01:51:57)

Participant: No, He doesn't.

Then why would you? Can you see the only reason why I'd want to control it is that I want to avoid an emotion inside of myself? What's the emotion you want to avoid? When you go to that forum what do you feel? You feel attacked, you feel you're not allowed to feel your emotions, you feel like you're going to be criticised all the time, so feel those feelings.

Participant: I just don't feel safe there.

You don't feel safe. Another one of the feelings. So feel those feelings. They are the causal emotions creating this attack. And as soon as you create another forum, what are you trying to do? To step out of your Law of Attraction and create another world that's not real. This is the world that's real, this is the world that's triggering you and you need to allow yourself to feel the emotion of that.

Now I know that sounds really confronting but that's what I do with my life and that's what I'm trying to encourage you to do.

Participant: What occurs to me with this too is that I can very clearly see the spirits influencing these people to come in and while we don't deal with our causal emotion, we're open to the same group of spirits to influence us, to buy in to the same party.

Totally. So when you're sitting down there and you're reading this email that somebody sent to you, or this post on the internet forum that somebody has sent to you that's really attacking and you're going into a reaction about it, what's actually happening inside of you is at that moment the same spirits who created that comment come to you. There's an energetic connection, an emotional connection, between you and these spirits and they project all this stuff at you that makes you feel guilty and terrible and angry and frustrated inside and everything else and we just go along with that. And then we take the next step, which is type up a response that's resonant with those emotions but they're actually emotions I need to heal inside of myself if I'm going to be loving. It's a beautiful opportunity to heal them but we just skipped over the whole thing. And every time I try to avoid my Law of Attraction on the issue, all that's going to happen from then on is that I'm going to get another Law of Attraction event to trigger this emotion at some point in the future. (01:54:22)

Participant: I've been caught up in this forum thing too and I try to access the emotions as they come up, but I still feel, "Is it loving to respond when there's really incorrect information going out there?"

How easy is it to get correct information? If a person really wanted to know correct information, for example about my life, what do you think they would do? Wouldn't they ask me perhaps, ask my mum, my dad, and my children? Wouldn't they do that if they really wanted to know? The fact that they're not doing that means what? They don't want to know. If they don't want to know, then why are you buying into it? There's got to be an emotion inside of you of wanting justice. Do you know what I mean? Firstly you're wanting justice, for yourself or for somebody else, maybe me, but in the end you are also now projecting at them that they've got to accept the truth and they don't have to. They're allowed to lie about me as much as they want. They're allowed to have all of this innuendo about me as much as they want and I need to deal with my emotional response to that. And when I'm in a state of complete love I won't feel an emotional response to that. I'll just feel compassion for them that they're in so much fear that they can go and believe a whole heap of untruths and just hold onto that and be in a rage about that for the rest of their life. (01:56:14)

I've seen people from my first century life in this state for two thousand years in the spirit world and I see the terrible results of what they're creating and all I need to do is deal with my emotions about it. As soon as I go to give the punch back in return, I now pull myself out of harmony with God, out of harmony with God's Laws. I'm no longer going to be at-one with God in that state, I'm no longer going to be in a state of bliss. I've just broken Laws of Love. I'm just harming myself. So can you see why I don't respond to everyone? All I need to do is feel my feelings about what's happening, that's all I need to do, nothing else. If I feel them and feel them fully and release them, I am going to get into a greater state of love with every single one of these attacks, every single one of them. Just like you can with every single one of them. But you see we get into this anger instead, which is a denial of some fears, which in turn is a denial of some causal emotions inside of ourselves and instead we judge them, "You terrible people, how dare you do this." To ourselves or to someone we care about and love, "How dare they do this?" and all of this kind of stuff comes up. (01:57:34)

Now these emotions need to come up and be felt, but what's the point in hooking back into the person who created them? All you're going to do is just multiply them and before you know it you've got this huge thing going on of fights and bickering and where is the love now between anyone? It's all just gone out the window which is exactly what these spirits want to happen. That's all they're doing, just hooking into us as soon as we do that.

So we're far better off just saying, "Ah, I feel like I've got to respond, I feel like I've got to respond," and stop myself. What am I refusing to feel? What am I refusing? I'm getting attacked or someone I love is getting attacked. You know this is bad, it's wrong, it's lies. What is it you're refusing to feel? With every one of those statements there's something that you're refusing to feel. Let yourself feel it, let yourself use it as a Law of Attraction event.

I get a myriad of unsolicited emails from people attacking me saying that I'm a self-delusional idiot who's narcissistic and unloving to everybody and all these other things, and all I do is let myself feel what it feels like to be attacked like that and let myself go into whatever emotions come up as a result of that. And if I can't feel it, I'll often engage so that some more attack comes so that I can eventually get to feel it. But aside from that I will just feel it as soon as I have it come at me. I feel it and things change a lot for me in that space and it will for you in that space too. (01:59:42)

7. Working through fear, and in harmony with God's Laws

Participant: I'm not really clear on my question but I keep wanting to ask about our willingness to process emotions. It just seems every talk and my Law of Attraction keeps coming back down to my willingness. When you're talking about these situations where all these projections are coming, it's just getting more and more and I feel like I have a fear that I'll be in a state where I haven't got to a point where I have confidence and that emotionally I'll just run away. Like, if people are going to kill me and I have the opportunity not to be in truth, it's like I wouldn't think about it, I would just run. And I feel like my life is a microcosm of that at the moment where it's much easier to just run away. I find at the moment I have the desire come up inside of me and the prayer goes up to God, "Okay what am I afraid of?" And then I'll start shaking and then the intellect goes, "Oh well you've been processing for a little bit now, maybe an hour, let's have some ice cream," (laughter) and it's just like... I don't know... I'm just saying stuff really... I wish I could put it into a question. (02:01:29)

Can I ask the question for you? Fear is dominating me, how do I get out of that state?

Participant: Yes.

Fear is the most difficult state to get out of I feel and there's only one way to get out of it. Your soul is full of fears and terrors, and my soul has got a lot of them too by the way too still; I've been dealing with fears and terrors for many years now and so I've still got many. I've found the only way that I can ever get out of this state of fear and terror is to actually allow myself to fully feel that fear and talk to God, pray to God, while I'm doing it. That's the only way I've been able to process my fears.

Praying to God while feeling our fear enables us to release fear

Participant: I have feelings of self-judgement about those type of fears and that they're being used as an excuse to avoid deeper things.

Well, Josh, there are two types of fears, and you're right, there are some fears that we use that we construct to avoid things. For example, let's say you have a fear of telling the truth; you know you're afraid of telling truth. So instead, and this is where your mind can be used quite powerfully, you start noticing every time you don't tell the truth and then you go back to that situation and tell the truth. So, say you walk away from somebody and you just realise, "Ah I didn't say the truth then." What you could do is turn around, go back and force yourself to say the truth and right at that moment feel the emotional response you have to doing that, because it's that emotion that you avoided in your fear of telling the truth.

A fear of telling the truth can be released by confronting and feeling the fear

Confront your fears directly, head on like that, and whenever you find you didn't do it, go back and do it. You're allowed to make mistakes, but go back and correct them. So when you find yourself running away from situations, turn around and run back into them. Now you may be afraid that if you turn around and run back into them things are going to get pretty bad, and they might because that might be your Law of Attraction that needs to happen to feel your emotions more fully.

But I feel at the end there is only one basic fear and do you know what that is?

Participant: I'm not sure.

It's the fear that you will be overwhelmed. In other words, we are often afraid that if we confront our fears and get into our causal emotion we will be so overwhelmed that we might go crazy or we'll go nuts or our whole life will get destroyed, or we'll die. But any one of those things is just a fear of being overwhelmed. So if you know that fear exists in you, start talking to God about those fears. As you receive Divine Love, many of these fears will go away; as you receive, you'll process many of these fears.

7.1. Acting in harmony with God's Laws often creates outcomes that are better than expected

Participant: A lot of times it seems I know what will happen if I take action and it's exactly what I don't want to happen, but I know it will happen if I say the truth or...

Can I just say something? Many of you have already found that while you thought you knew what would happen after you did something, afterwards you realise you didn't know it. Have you found that already? What I've noticed in talking to many people is that they "know" there's going to be a certain outcome, but they don't factor in the fact that every time you operate harmoniously with God's Laws and Principles, outcomes are usually much better than what you could ever predict. It's only when you operate out of harmony with God's Laws and Principles that outcomes get worse. (02:06:06)

Now the only way you can ever test it is by putting that truth into action, in other words taking actions that are always in harmony with love and truth and seeing what the results are. I've seen people totally surprised. They've believed with all of their being that if they took a certain course of action this result would happen and yet it doesn't happen.

I know a man for whom it looked like he was going to jail for a while because of some things that happened. He emailed me actually and he said, "What do I do?" And when we talked in the next group I just said to him, "Tell the truth." And he said, "What do you mean? I got angry with my mother." Yes, tell the truth. Say that to the judge, "I got angry with my mother. My mother was drinking with me and whatever happened..." I forget the exact circumstances that happened and Simon got angry and eventually got into this space and bashed the rear window of his mother's car in, and as a result his mother rang up the police and sent him to jail. Now I said to him, "Tell the truth and see what happens." Now he was firmly convinced that he was going to be put in jail for a period of time as were the police who were prosecuting him, as well as his mother who wanted him in jail. Anyway he wasn't put in jail. The judge was very surprised that he told the truth, so surprised in fact that he felt the truth from this man and in the end, as a result of feeling it, dismissed the case.

He thought that totally the opposite thing was going to occur. You see he was judging it through his own personal experience before of how everything would go; because of some unhealed emotion in him that he deserved to be put in jail, mum thought he deserved to be put in jail, the police thought he deserved to be put in jail and all these other things. But he just told the truth and all the things that he thought would happen didn't happen. But even if they do happen, at least you've told the truth, which is still upholding God's Laws.

You see, when you do anything different to upholding God's Laws everything in God's Universe is actually against you. This is very important to understand. God has constructed an entire universal system based around truth and love. Every time you avoid truth and love in your own life, every time you avoid living in that space, all of God's Laws are against you. Now I don't know about you but I'd rather have everyone on this planet against me and all of God's Laws for me. That's my personal opinion. (02:09:37)

And the way you can do that is by bringing yourself into harmony with God's Laws and Principles, not listening to your fears but rather confronting them and dealing with the underlying emotions. When you do that all of God's Laws are now working for you and in addition to that, every single one of the spirits who are connected to God's Laws in the spirit world is also now working for you. So it's like you've got this great army behind you, even though you're an army of one facing the world.

And we need to remember these things when we go into the soul battles that we go into. Because remember, right now on this planet a battle for your soul is happening. It's not a physical warfare that's happening, it's a spiritual one, a battle for your soul and how you respond is going to depend on whether you grow in love or degrade in your condition into fear. How you respond is just how you use your will in this process.

My suggestion is to understand, even though you may not completely firmly believe it at this point in time, that God is a God of love and She has constructed all of Her Laws and Principles to support you when you are in a state of love and truth. The only time that support cannot occur is when you're in error. That's the only time it can't occur. And that's the time when we have most of our most difficulties, honestly. So allow yourself to have some confidence in God and those principles. (02:11:32)

Participant: I was just going to say, it's just hard to see that where we are now, seeing the bigger things that we're going to have to face. So it's always just good to remember to just deal with what's going on now.

Yes. Go in the now, deal with the cause but understand "I am doing this because I am loyal to love. I'm doing this because I'm going to be loyal to truth, come what may. And if come what may means me dying, then that has to come what may. If come what may is me being tortured to death then that's come what may. I am going to stay loyal to this truth."

Obviously I'll have emotions come up when I'm in that state. With every one of these emotions that I release I'll receive more Divine Love and eventually I'll get to a state of at-onement with God and I will be able to do everything in harmony with God's Laws and Principles at that point, without fear at all. I will have no fear left within me. Just imagine that, it's an amazing place to be, to have no fear about any issue at all. You've got freedom when you're in that space. Remember that that's where the goal is and all this stuff that we're going through right now is just the way to get to that place. And so, yes, I'm going to have to confront this fear, and yes, I'm going to have some very unpleasant events through my Law of Attractions to confront some of my fears. Just like I got stung by the jellyfish this morning, which I felt was an unpleasant event. I'm going to have these unpleasant events continue to occur until all of these fears within me are confronted and released. (02:13:27)

7.2. Acknowledging the truth of our Law of Attraction - an example of not getting stung by jellyfish

Participant: Speaking of the jellyfish again, I was down Mooloolaba Beach this morning as well and was in the water and thought about the blue bottles and the onshore winds and every day I sort of think about it because I spend all of summer swimming there in the mornings and I haven't been stung and I hear everybody saying, "Ah you know, do you hear there are blue bottles in the water today and that?" And I just go, "Oh well." And I just keep going every morning for a swim and it comes up and I think about it and then I go, "Oh well" and keep going in the surf. But am I suppressing my fear and not letting...?

No. What's your Law of Attraction telling you?

Participant: It's okay.

So why are you worrying about it?

Participant: I don't know. There's still something every morning I go for a swim and there's boards with blue bottles, they're on the sand and I just still go, I still stop and think, am I going to get stung? But of course my first love is being in the ocean...

But obviously you also don't have fears about being attacked or other fears.

Participant: I do.

Well not from animals, obviously. Just enjoy your Law of Attraction. If your Law of Attraction isn't bringing you something, don't sit there and worry that it's going to. (Laughter) My Law of Attraction means that every time I drive in to town I have a nice smooth run. Enjoy it when it's there.

Participant: I will, I'll enjoy my swim tomorrow morning.

Yeah, and then you might get attacked by a blue bottle! (Laughter) No, no I'm just joking.

7.3. Truth confronts error - the example of being at-one with God

Participant: I hate to keep coming back to a point but it's just driving me crazy. You were saying that it's possible to be in perfect condition and still be attacked like you were in the first century. How does that fit in with the Law of Attraction? Does that mean the Law of Free Will is higher than the Law of Attraction?

Not at all. When I'm in a state of complete truth, what am I going to attract? I'm going to attract everyone who's in a state of error because they need to hear the truth. How that interaction occurs may at some point actually be what you may call physically damaging to me, but when I'm in the state of perfect truth I don't feel it's physically damaging even if I die.

Participant: I'm really blond now. I still don't get how, if a Law of Attraction comes to you to completely reflect back to you your internal condition and that creates all the circumstances around you, why does truth attract error?

Because truth confronts error every single time, and the problem with error is that it doesn't want to give itself up without a fight. The issue with truth is that it never wants to fight.

Participant: Right, so this is the one circumstance where being in harmony with God's Law can still cause the Law of Attraction to be negative.

You see, I didn't feel it was negative, only you do.

Participant: Did you not suffer at all?

No, of course I did not suffer. Can you suffer when you're at-one with God?

Participant: Well it's something I've yet to find out.

Well what do you think? What would you logically think? If you're at-one with God would you be suffering? Ever? No matter what is happening to you?

Participant: I guess not, if you say not.

I'm saying you won't. Other people will think you are and the issue that most of the planet faces is that we don't understand that when we're in this state of at-onement with God, and when we're in a state of perfect truth, we're not in a state where we'll ever suffer from anything. So everything that you judge as a suffering situation, you will eventually look upon as not a suffering situation at all, because you are now in a state where you are at-one with God; you are constantly connected to God exactly as God intended, you now know everything that's going on, you know all the truth of everything that's going on, you even know how to control your own physiological functions, everything. (02:18:35)

Many of you know that people in India can slow down their heart rate so much that they can be put under water for an hour and still come out breathing. You've heard of these things occurring. Many of you have also heard that you cannot eat for two years and still survive. Now most of us couldn't do that at this point because there are still emotions that prevent us, but when you're in this state of truth you will understand how to control all of your physiological functions, everything going on inside of your body, you'll know everything that's happening around you, you'll know who is dangerous, you'll know what spirits around you are dangerous, you can see them, you can see how they're influencing every single individual around you. Do you think you're going to be in a state of fear in this place?

Participant: Probably not, no. Thank you very much.

We're only in this state of fear because we're yet to release the emotions and we also believe this place is impossible. There's this deep belief inside of us emotionally that it's not possible to have what I just described. Intellectually we say that might be possible but emotionally we don't believe it's possible because if we believed it were possible, we'd already be in that state emotionally. (02:19:54)

What you see as a negative event, my crucifixion, and what was written in the Bible afterwards of all this suffering that I went through is all untrue, because it was all judged by the emotional condition of the people who wrote it and not by mine. So when you see someone hanging up on a stake nailed there and you then put yourself in that situation in your current emotional condition, yes you would go through a lot of suffering, just like I would right now. But when you're in a state of at-onement with God that's not the case at all. Can you see the difference?

Participant: Well now that you've explained it, yes I can.

When you're in this state of truth, you will want to confront the error that's around you. It's not like you're going, "Ooh now there's another situation to confront." It's not like that at all, you'll want to confront it because that's why you're even there, you know that's why you're there, you can feel that's why you're there because you want to confront the truth that's going on, and after a while you'll enjoy even that process. Instead of shaking in our boots like we do now, "Ooh no, there's another event I've got to confront," it's not like that at all, instead we have a joy about it.

Participant: Yeah, that comment brought up something that's been residing in me in the last little while. I would like to shine the light on some of the hidden errors in some of our desires because we're having a desire to be in truth and receive God's Love but we're still wanting that love and truth for the protection of our own pain and suffering. And that sort of resided in me, and is something I'm going through at the moment, so I felt to shine the light on those things. (02:22:08)

Yes, very good point. Why are we desiring a relationship with God? Is it for our own protection? Then it's a flawed desire. Do you desire your relationship with your partner just because she cooks your meal for you every night? Wouldn't that be a flawed relationship? Often we project to God these same kind of emotions and we need to understand that that'll be released from us too in the end; we won't love God just because of what God gives us anymore. Instead we'll love God with all of our heart because that's this feeling that we have within .

8. Working through being judged

Can I get though to this being judged? Most of us have terrible responses to being judged. Don't you feel just absolutely shocking inside of yourself when you've been judged? Inside of the soul I receive an emotion from my external world that I am lesser, because that's what a judgement is. A judgement is saying to you that you're not as good as that person, me, these other people, all the people on the planet, whatever. That's how we feel it enter us isn't it? (02:24:03)

Being judged is an emotion projected at us that we are less than others

Participant: But when you are judged, that is given to you as a truth.

Of course, yes, because anybody that judges you thinks that they're right. Everyone who judges you thinks they're right. So yes, of course every time you receive a judgement, it will always come at you from the person who thinks they are in truth.

Now the key thing to do is to go into the emotion that you feel as a result of that judgement.

We can work through being judged by releasing the emotion it triggers

Let's say the judgement is that you're a narcissistic person, that's the judgement coming at you. In other words you are self-involved, self-important, you have no care or love for anyone else, and you're just totally interested in your own welfare; that's what's being said to you. Now if there isn't any kind of emotion in me that gets triggered by that judgement, I'll just go, "Okay," and walk on by. It will have no effect on me whatsoever.

However if the judgement has an effect on me, then it tells me that I have an emotion inside of me to release. In other words, if my soul resonates in any way with the judgement that's coming to me then that means that there is an emotion inside of me that I need to address. Now it might not be the emotion that the person thinks is the truth; it might be a completely different emotion. In other words if somebody says to you you're totally selfish and you have an emotional response to that, it might not be that you're selfish, it might be a completely different emotion that causes you to respond to that statement, and you need to allow yourself to feel the response.

The problem is that most of the time we don't want to feel that emotion, that causal emotion, that my Law of Attraction has brought me and instead what do I do with that? I don't want to feel it so I don't feel it and what do I do instead? I then create a denial of the emotion. I then go on the defence or attack the person who's projecting that emotion. Straight away I'm out of harmony with love. (02:27:10)

Not feeling the emotion triggered by judgement is out of harmony with love

Participant: AJ, even in the denial there's a feeling there though.

There's always a feeling. The feeling's always there. My choice to deny the causal emotion is always caused by another emotion. The emotion might be that I'm ashamed of myself because in the past I was selfish.

Participant: There could be a pretence that I'm not feeling the emotion but the emotion is there.

Always. The emotion's always there and I need to allow myself to access it and be honest about it. When I try to attack what's coming in at me, now I'm no longer in this state. And again, remember this is happening emotionally and not intellectually or by words. The truth is that I can sit there and write nothing, say nothing and right at that moment I am doing as bad a thing as the person who just attacked me because I have this projection coming from me, and while I'm in this state I'm doing the same as what they're doing, which is projecting a judgement at them now for their judgement of me. So what's that doing? That's really getting out a hammer because someone knocks you on the knee with their hammer and then when they get out their machine gun you get out your bazooka and then when they get out their missile, you get out your nuclear warhead and all of it is just because we denied our emotion. (02:29:00)

Participant: And a lot of that denial of the emotion is that if there's not an expression of it then that's just seeds and seeds and that can go on for...

Forever actually, it possibly can. It doesn't normally of course because by the time we get to the spirit world we see them all and start addressing them.

9. Truth vs. judgement

Can I just state a few more things though about this being judged and the difference between judgement and truth? Truth is stated without an emotion of judgement. (02:29:33)

Now what does that mean? Someone can say to me, "AJ, you're selfish," and that person can have no judgement of me being selfish. They have to be in a pretty good state to do that emotionally but they could have no judgement of me being selfish. In fact they could have a feeling that they want to help me get through my selfish emotion. In other words they could have a feeling of love towards me and a desire to assist me to get through my selfish emotions. Or conversely someone can come up to me and say, "AJ, you're selfish," and really what they feel is, "AJ you're a selfish bastard actually," and they've got all this rage and anger coming at me. Both of them might be stating the truth verbally but what's actually going on is one person is stating the truth without judgement and the other one is just using the truth to judge.

Now both these states enter me. If I have an emotional response to whatever is coming at me, including the judgement, then I need to feel the causal emotion. It's the same thing; it's the same answer every time. I just need to address the causal emotion.

Both truth and judgement can enter our souls and trigger emotions

Now being judged is certainly a very harmful projection.

9.1. How judgement gets created during our childhoods

When I'm a child and I can't protect myself against these kinds of projections, and I'm shut down from feeling my emotions about these kinds of projections, these judgements build up inside of my soul. They get put one upon the other, upon the other, upon the other and before you know it you're a living judgement of everyone in your environment and you're now trying to pander to mum to do this and pander to dad to do that and pander to the law to do this and pander to the environment to do that and pander to your workplace to do this and you're making all these compromises because you're afraid of how you're going to be judged in the end, and you're afraid of the underlying emotions that these judgements from your childhood have created in you.

We need to release these emotions so that we become totally insensitive to judgement inside of ourselves. People will judge us and we go, "Okay that's an interesting statement about their own feelings; wouldn't it be nice if I could help that person get out of that state?" (02:32:34)

Now there is a big difference between truth and judgement, and it can be a big difference in exactly the same situation from an external perspective. What I mean by that is I can tell you the truth without any judgement whatsoever or I can tell you the truth full of judgement. For example, I could say to somebody, as I have stated in the past, that when we abort our child we are committing a murder. If I wanted to state the truth with judgement I could say, "Everyone here who has aborted a child put up your hand. You are all nasty murderers." And now what would that be? That is a terrible judgement upon you because inside of my soul I'm saying I'm better than you because I didn't do that. And I'm saying that all of those people who didn't do that are better than you and that's not the truth actually.

9.2. Judging others is very degrading to our soul condition

I've got to come back to looking at my reasons for stating the truth. If my reason for stating truth is to denigrate you and pull you down and make you feel worthless and make you feel terrible, then I am judging you and my soul is going to be judged in the manner in which I am judging. That's pretty harsh because if you think about it: if I'm going to be judged in the manner in which I judge others, if I go through others' lives with a fine tooth comb condemning everything that's in their life, that's going to be pretty harsh on me when it comes to me. And this is the problem with judgement; it creates such a poor soul condition inside of ourselves, our own condition gets degraded so much that we can end up darker than the people we're judging, and that's the problem. And in fact historically the people who judged oftentimes ended up in a darker condition than the people they judged.

You'll find in the future, when you get into a state of less judgement, people who want to know the truth will just feel drawn to you because they know they can say the truth to you about their life and you won't judge them for what they did. And that's a beautiful fact because God actually doesn't judge you for what you've done either. God does have compassion for you for what you've done. God's Laws have already judged you by the way. (02:35:45)

In other words you're already experiencing the negative effects in your soul right now of what you've done. Whatever I've done in the past I'm already experiencing the negative effects of it right now in my own soul. Does God need to do any more than that? Of course not. God has only compassion for the fact that we're in that state and all I need to do is have compassion for the fact that you're in that state and all you need to do is have compassion for the fact that I'm in that state. And when we do that we start feeling the truth enter us and we stop pushing truth away. That's often how we are with truth, isn't it? Sometimes I come around to some of your places and after a day you say, "Ah, boy I don't know if I want to cope with any more of this." And the reason is that we have this resistance to the truth and the reason we have this resistance to the truth is that in our own soul we have a judgement of ourselves of this truth that we are receiving. We'll get to a point in the end where we don't have that judgement of the truth and instead we'll allow ourselves to feel our own emotions about it.

10. Summary

So, in this discussion what I wanted to illustrate was three main things and that is: just because someone thinks they are telling you the truth about yourself, it doesn't mean it is actually the truth. That's number one. Secondly, when somebody does judge you, in other words when they have an emotion coming at you that you are lesser than they are, that's what a judgement is in the end, they are actually in a state where they are not loving. That is a statement of truth and not a judgement. And the third thing is that whenever you judge or are being judged, the answer in both states is to allow yourself instead to examine the emotion you are avoiding. So when I want to judge you and when I feel hurt by you judging me, in both states I need to go back to the causal emotion that exists in my soul. If I do that I will eventually get to the place where I will not judge anyone else and I will also finish up attracting quite a lot of people into my life who don't judge me. And the beauty of that is that you start living in a lot of joy then; a lot of your life is joyful as a result of it.

11. Working through self-judgement

So are there any more questions about this point of judgement and truth or do you think it's done?

Participant: AJ, could you speak about self-judgement?

Certainly. Self-judgement is just as bad as judging another person because from God's perspective you are just as valuable as another person is. So every time you go into self-judgement, you are actually still avoiding a causal emotion inside of yourself. Every time that you judge yourself, you are actually using that as an excuse to avoid a deep emotion inside of you. The same principle applies to everything else that we've discussed; that is, it's just as harmful to your own soul as judging anybody else is. (02:39:48)

Participant: Is it also possible that there could be spirits hanging around who are wanting that to happen?

It's not only possible; it is a certain fact that when you are judging yourself, you will attract a whole group of spirits who want to hammer you. That's a certain fact.

Participant: So is this a time for absolute will. Is this a time also for absolute will of going into that emotion?

Yes. If you find yourself judging yourself, "Oh boy I see what I'm doing now; I see what I'm doing. What I'm doing is I'm just falling into this trap of doing the same thing, what I always want to do and that is avoid my causal emotion. I need to go deeper than this." So instead of berating myself, punishing myself, doing all of these different things that prevent me from getting into the real emotion inside of me, sit down with that and stop yourself from doing that self-judgement and instead get to what's underneath that. Underneath that will be some anger with yourself and underneath that will be some fear about yourself and underneath that, of course, will be some causal emotion you need to feel.

Judgement of ourselves is an avoidance of anger, fear, and a causal emotion

It's the same process, whether you're judging yourself or judging another person, and it's just as damaging. And yes, whenever you judge yourself, you invite a heap of spirits in who judge you as well and whenever you judge others, by the way, you do the same thing; you invite a heap of spirits in who judge those people as well. So it's like birds of a feather do flock together, that is the Law of Attraction. (02:41:31)

11.1. The origin of self-judgement

Participant: In my own case, self-judgement feels so old, it's been with me since in utero maybe.

Well, self-judgement always comes from a parent's judgement of you. You actually accept the parent's right to judge you and then you feel you must have been to blame and so then you just start repeating the pattern that your parents repeated with you. In the end you become your own damaging parent and that is the whole role of judging you when you were a child; the parent wants you to damage yourself so badly that you then fall into the pattern that they've fallen into. That's the whole purpose of this in the end. It's to change your behaviour to suit the environment. We need to get into the deeper emotions of that and grieve the judgement of our self. Rather than being angry with yourself and all that, grieve the judgement of yourself and pray to release your judgement of yourself. As you release that and receive Divine Love to help you release it, you will no longer judge yourself and you'll have some worth. You'll feel some worth inside of yourself.

In the end you know, many of you don't realise this, but when you are at-one with God, many people around you will view you as arrogant because on this planet it is a very, very rare thing. In fact nobody on this planet has ever really seen a person who's at-one with God or a person who has a true sense of self worth. In the end many of you will have a sense of that self-worth and others will probably start judging you. They feel from your soul these beautiful qualities that come and overwhelm them and that then exposes the negative qualities inside of them. Then, because of their own judgement of themselves that they don't want to feel the causal emotion about, they will want to punish you for that exposure. But when you're at-one with God, it won't matter to you that that happens. (02:44:00)

Participant: AJ, a while ago as you were going through this starting to relate it to the effect on the child, I realised just how destructive this projection of judgement by adults is. It's perhaps the worst thing that can happen .

Can you see why in the first century I said, "It's better for you to have a millstone tied around your neck and get thrown into the sea than it is for you to judge another?" It's such a damaging emotion.

11.2. How judgement gets created during our childhood (continued)

Participant: With your help I managed to get beyond the walking around toddler stage to earlier memories. The earliest memory I had before was when I was a little toddler sitting there just doing my thing, whatever it was, and I've got a vivid memory of what it felt like, I felt pristine, completely spontaneous, just more or less how I was created. I was very close to that. And I've got a memory of feeling something coming at me and I would now call it judgement but it was an emotion; there were no words, I had no words, I could feel this and I can remember feeling, wondering what this was. It didn't feel good and I could feel myself coming out of this near pristine state into an ordinary state. So it was one of the first layers that I would later have to un-peel. (02:45:43)

Yes, you think about it, you think about your lives right now; the main reason why you are afraid to do exactly what you desire is that you're afraid of how everybody else around you is going to react. Isn't that true in most cases? We're just afraid. We're even afraid of how we'll react to following our own desires as a result of these projections. These projections are so damaging. They enter us at very, very young ages.

This is why it's so important to start reversing it by actually getting to the causal emotion rather than doing extra damage externally. As soon as I get into judging others, I'm just doing extra damage to them. So when I see that lady walk past me with her short skirt on and I project at her that she's a whore or whatever other projection that I have that comes to mind, I am just damaging that woman even further. Why would I want to do that? She has already obviously had enough damage, why would I want to do more damage to her? So I've got to look at what's going on inside of me instead of doing this damage anymore.

12. Closing Words

And this is why I wanted to have this discussion with you tonight. Because what I'm finding is that many progress to a degree on the Divine Love Path but then they start getting attacked, and when we start getting attacked what do we want to do in return? We just want to defend and attack in return and we want to judge the people who are attacking us, "Aren't they an idiot, aren't they stupid, oh look at them..." and we have all these judgements that are not coming from a place of truth but rather they are coming from a place of thinking they are lesser than us, and we are out of harmony with love as soon as we do this. We need to see that happening inside of us and when we see that happening we can correct it. So that's why I wanted to have this discussion with you.

I'll finish it now actually and hopefully that's covered a lot of stuff generally. Obviously there's a lot more to say about judgement that we could bring up. But what I wanted to talk about in the future are things like free will and desire, and how free will and desire can actually be enhanced and developed rather than us focusing on the negative stuff coming from us, focusing on our negative emotions all the time. We can start developing some of these really positive parts of ourselves in positive directions and still live in truth and in harmony with love doing that. That's what I'd like to cover in the future. So thanks for your time guys. (Applause)

