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Heute treffen wir Slim.
Slim kleidet sich gerne schwarz.
Viel Spaß beim Interview.
So my name is Salim Abou-Taha, I’m 24 years old.
Come from Hannover, in fact lived for a while in Lehrte,
but I moved back now to Hannover-Garbsen again.
And yes, just call me Slim.
My father, yes, he comes from the East.
Lebanon, Beirut to be precise.
My mother is German, grew up here too,
also in Hannover, as far as I know.
And, yes, nothing that exciting.
So, I can remember the divorce itself very well, because …
It hit me a lot, since at that time I already felt, so, that I would
never see my father again, that it would be really a final break.
I was totally down and devastated.
I can still remember how I talked with my mother, and
said to her, “Now I won’t see my father ever again.”
And I was totally angry with her, because I just
couldn’t understand why she would throw him out.
She had good reasons, which I don’t want
to talk about now. But in any case …
Back then, that had been really bad.
So my youth I’d describe as stressful,
just because it’s a time when …
People began, or rather the other students began,
to harp on about it,
when you were fatter or when you were different, and so on …
And because I was a lot fatter,
Because my father’s philosophy was
that “only a fat child is a healthy child.”
There was a gigantic stress, so, on account of that I really
was beaten every day until the 8th grade, and so on.
When I entered the classroom, first thing I saw
was a fist that came toward to me.
Up to that they would put a chair on me,
in order to fix me on the ground.
Chairs even that my mother had donated for the class.
Irony, I know.
And, I was beaten up for that,
simply because I was fat.
Because I was different, because I was like that.
Because I also was the only one they knew, who was like that.
On account of this experience I had a
psychological problem in my youth, certainly.
So that I really didn’t know how to cope. Which was also
characterized by borderline, that is self-cutting, and so on.
Pain is honest. From this philosophy I developed it.
No matter how often my friends messed with me or whatever, pain
is simply the thing that’s honest, honest to me, that’s really there.
That’s no cheating or anything.
It’s a strange philosophy, but most people see it like that, too.
That simply, only pain is what they yet feel.
Then at the time. And pain is the only thing that they yet feel.
And then they know, ok, they feel something.
The only faith that I’ve found until now, that has no direct claims.
No church, nothing, is simply the pagan faith, the old Germanic.
And that’s the only one that I’ve found so far. I certainly wouldn’t
confess to that religion, but that’s the only one that attracts me.
Simply a faith based on honor, pride, honesty …
That only requires from you that you be honest …
Treat your wife honorably, be honest with the people that you like,
or also that you don’t like. Even with your worst enemies, be honest.
I honestly hope that there’s more than
what we see here, so, because …
Some day the earth will be completely discovered, eventually
the universe will be exhausted, too. And maybe there’s …
And then, what’s then?
And I hope that there’s just more after life.
