This mad and sick society never want you to come back to your natural state.
Because, once you are in tune with your inner nature, then you cannot be ambitious, madly ambitious
And then they cannot use you.
They cannot make a slave out of you.
They cannot manipulate you.
And those people who are the guides of the
society, they are so much lost in extroversion,
in going out that to 
just have a little bit of taste of being away
from other people, being away from their madness,
of exploiting nature, of exploiting people...
The moment they are left alone or if they
accidentally close their eyes, they can see
all their madness.
Because they are the trainers, they have programmed
you, they have conditioned you, from the very
beginning even when the child is not born,
he is being programmed.
He is being conditioned by the disease of
this society, by the disease of his or her
parents.
It is all being automatically transferred.
And you have also your impersonal journey
of the consciousness.
You have been also running outside in all
your lives.
And you are always trained to be occupied
in something.
They said that empty mind is a devil's workshop.
So, when you are occupied with people, with
things, then you forget yourself.
You have become addicted to them.
But when you close your eyes, and if there
are no people, even if you are not closing
your eyes, if there are no people, then you
miss them.
No one, no boyfriend, no girlfriend, no mother,
no father, you miss them.
Because you have been not trained from the
very beginning, since your childhood to be
in tune with your nature.
So, when you are not doing all your mad things,
all your unconscious things, and when you
are with no one, there is nobody with you,
then you feel that....
So, what you are interpreting as loneliness
is because you are not going deep into it.
It is in reality, aloneness
or emptiness.
It is your very nature.
Because you have become addicted to be occupied
with others, and this has become your habit
and addiction.
So, just to avoid what you are interpreting
as loneliness, you are always running out.
Now, the real Sadhana is, that you face, you
encounter that which you call loneliness and
slowly, slowly, the cloud will wither away.
The cloud will scattered.
Then you will see, that it is not loneliness,
it is aloneness.
It is full of emptiness.
And which is the only thing which can give
you bliss and contentment.
Then you need not run for anything outside.
So, as you have trained yourself for millions
of years, for running out, now you have to
train yourself to come back to your real nature.
In the beginning, because you have collected
so much garbage, the house is so full of unwanted
things, so, by watching it slowly, slowly
they will disappear but you need patience,
tremendous patience.
That is why it is said that it is arduous.
If you are in a hurry nothing is going to
happen.
If you want a big banyan tree, you have to
be very patient.
So, whenever you feel like running away, don't
run away.
Whenever you feel like going for shopping,
first settle inside and see whether there is
any need or you are just out of habit, out
of addiction you are doing those things.
But if you love yourself, your real nature
then the urge will come.
Then the longing will come.
Face it.
But because this is easy to escape, it is falling down, it is like Jill came tumbling after.
So, everyone wants to tumble.
That is why Buddha says, truth is bitter in
the beginning and sweet in the end and lies
are sweet in the beginning and bitter in the
end.
Just to escape from yourself, you go on running
out.
When you go to the market, you don't have
to face all the unconscious things which you
have collected in millions of lives.
So, it looks very good, you forget yourself.
But, by forgetting yourself, if you have cancer
and you forget it, it is not going to disappear.
You need its remedy and you need to go through
the medicines.
The inner medicine is meditation.
Once you are cured of your disease, inner
disease, then meditation is also not needed.
If you are very impatient, then you will just...
after some time you will just go back to your
old world.
And these are the beginning of those signs:
You are interested in psychology, you are
interested in other idiotic things.
You should not have any time anymore to waste
for these idiotic things.
The real psychology, you 
can understand only by being more conscious,
not by what you will read in books.
Your psychology is inside your head, so if
you want to understand it you will have to
become more conscious.
That is bringing the inner light.
The thing is that, if you are a mediocre person,
then you will get back to your old stupidities.
Now, you have to decide.
I will have to increase my charges, otherwise you don't care.
Very few people have the priviledge of someone
coming to their very door.
The thing is that if you are an idiot then
you will waste that opportunity.
I think it has been answered.
Very lengthy answers are not needed.
Now, you have to work.
You are not even devoting one hour of your
life in meditation.
And now you think something will happen.
You have always excuses ready, "I am very
tired..."
Tired or not tired, dead or alive, meditation
has to continue.
You are not sharing anything, you are being
miserly.
You are just collecting things.
This was what Buddha said, whatever you get
in meditation, share it with other people.
Don't blame others for your misery and suffering
otherwise you will never become mature.
"My mother did this, my father did that."
These are all just excuses.
You are born in a certain family because your
karma was attracting it to that kind of family.
Whatever you have earned in many lives that
can grow into that kind of environment.
The seed you have already brought.
That is attracted to something.
Like magnet, you are attracted to a particular
womb.
So, if you want to change you will have to
become more conscious.
The thing is that after some time, everyone
wants to go to sleep.
In the beginning you will make a little bit
effort then you will try to bribe you will
send things so that by grace things will happen.
Nothing is going to happen like this.
You should not be in illusion.
You have to work hard.
You are not dead!
Work! Till you die!
Work on yourself.
Stop wasting time in stupid things.
If you want to change work on yourself hard
otherwise, time is running away.
No one can help you if you are not ready to
help yourself.
