blah blah
all right let's watch this
hold on
I got notes on it
wanna make sure I don't forget my points
while I tear this bitch a new asshole
give me a second
alright two times speed yeah we're
gonna watch this two times speed because
first of all, I always watch two
times speed but this is like I would
watch this
eight times speed if I could have if I
you could because my fucking god oh
the fact that she got this to forty
minute blows my fucking mind
if you
yeah fuck this guy
matter but if you make a video and you
can't keep it under 40 minute blows my
fucking mind if you are a youtuber I I
mean I'm live now so it doesn't really
matter but if you make a video and you
can't keep a concise message and get
that fuck outta here get the shit out of
here
don't waste my goddamn time 16 times
speed 32 times speed blep get through
that shit I ain't got all day
40 minutes nah nah I don't think so I
think it's worth noting that this video
is as well heavily monetized you don't
see it now but I remember seeing like
being BAM boom boom boom boom boom mid-roll
mid-roll mid-roll and she says
that all the Adsense is going to this
like charity about spiritual awakening
whatever that is I don't know I feel
like I kind of want to dig into a little
bit what this charity is what do they do
they're a nonprofit dedicated to helping
underserved youth and children in
juvenile justice system to realize their
spiritual identity
it might be good it might be terrible
I'm not gonna bother finding out just it
just seems so--just don't put ads on it
okay if you're making an expose video
don't put ads on it I remember also in
her original video
she had ads in it and she spent a good
portion a good-ass big-ass portion
talking about her own fucking brand it
was so annoying spirit ranch you're
going through the spirit ranch now I do
feel like spirituality teaching that to
kids could be a positive thing depending
on how it's very very much in the
details on that one alright so I gotta
watch this are you guys ready two times
speed let's do this
"It's been a long time coming for me to share with you some--"
actually there was so much in those
second thanks let me go through that
again "it's been a long time coming" get
like borderline crying face and we are five
seconds in just start off the video
another time please don't do it like
that and the timing of this is
interesting as well you know as soon as
the narrative that I haven't followed
this good at all by the way but the
narrative online was sort of shifting a
little bit that the Shane and Jeffree Star was more of the problem
like they
are the ones behind the video and now
are behind the video, she makes the video like a year later
the timing of that is worth noting "for
me to share with you some very very
important things and I am gonna be
reading from what is approved by my
legal team so I am once I start getting
into what I need to show" of course she's
reading a legal script that her lawyers
approved she should be glad that James
Charles didn't sue her she should be so
lucky so to come out now and reading
some legal script there's like dude like
I'm glad I'm glad she and James resolved
it but man
sorry I know I'm really slow I just got
my-- I'm not used to streaming like this
alright "what I feel is
important to share with you I won't be
deviating and it's at the advice of my
legal counsels so there's so much going
on on YouTube and in the world and I
just first off I do want to request
something actually before that I just
wanted to tell you guys I missed you guys" oh my
god she uploaded like a month ago "I
missed you guys"
I miss you so much she up looks like
five times a month and then she takes
like a month break (she actually use to daily upload but go off lol)
oh I miss you yeah 2x speed I agree
I'll do 1.75 "and I'm sorry that you
haven't seen me in a while and I'm
hoping this video clears up a lot of the
reasons why I felt I could not be online
over the past couple of months
um I've missed making videos I've missed
you so so much a month" it's been a month" I wanna ask anyone watching this who believes in anything higher than themselves- who believes in any higher power
um, you know all higher power, all God" oh it's about God now. How
did we get here? What are you talking
about? Get to the point  "all God is love and the root of love and I am a woman of faith and I have been praying every day
over this event/scandal whatever
you want to name it and I just ask that
you press pause for a moment and even just" 
okay now what what they do instructions
not clear Tati, be more
specific "for 10 seconds just cover this
in prayer because there's so much
healing that needs to take place there's
a lot of injustice and there's a large" 
bitch it was all your fault
it was all your fault stop talking like
you are some sort of bigger person you
caused all of this literally all of it
there's a higher power of healing it's like
pouring gasoline on a house and and
turning it on fire and then afterwards
going we must heal there is higher power
everyone, everyone just take a moment take a
moment everyone sit down. Who lit the house on
fire everyone just sit down and
spiritual awakening because higher power
I need to preface this video with a
bunch of fucking irrelevant topics "truth
that needs to come forward it is not
gonna be easy and it's very painful and
I don't wish harm or hate on anyone and
I just wanna make that very very clear"
it wasn't clear last video I saw on you Tati
, I would say it was the opposite
you seem very mean-spirited
spirited oh man "I'm an imperfect person
and I do my best to be caring kind and 
loving and I screw up and I make bad choices
and I think that we all right now go online and it's really easy to make choices, how we cast a vote on what your opinion is on someone" alright, some acknowledgment, I appreciate  that about on
your what your opinion is of someone's
"you know a news story or you know whatever
is going on in the world or just
anything you see in the media right now
be mindful
you know we're made to feel like we have
to follow the herd and there are so many
AI bots and accounts that aren't even real that
influence your opinion on whatever
narrative is out there and it is just
left me feeling really" Russian Bots guys
that was the real reason James Charles
was cancelled
I understand now my higher being has
been elevated Thank You Tati
it all makes sense it was damn Russians
again. I knew it
confirm it was Russian bots guys you
gotta be careful
sheesh we walk into that one those AI
Russian BOTS Putin must have sat there like sheesh did we walk into that one
those AI Russian Bots be like it's time to cancel
James Charles I want him gone gone
forever that two-faced bitch. You know like- like aren't they against homosexuality
in Russia? (Not Russians, but the government is) okay I think all the pieces
fits perfectly in this narrative that's
just not my opinion however that's just
a fact "heartbroken um
if enough people have one opinion about
something it feels like the mass is
turning the tide really quickly and I
witnessed that and I feel like I
experienced that was my own scandal but
it's even worse like stepping back from
the picture talking like so close that's
way that she's stepping back and with
all the stuff is going on in the world
you see how quickly the tides turn and I
just want to inspire you guys or just
empower you actually to feel empowered" I feel empowered
"look at yourself and your own opinions and don't
follow the herd follow your heart really because I
thought I was following mine I was
listening to the wrong people so if you" Ooo
what does it mean when she was listening to the wrong
people blehh
a little foreshadow sprinkle there pshh pshh  it
was all Shane Dawson's fault just say it
"anything from this it is listen to
your heart first and always and don't
bend on that I feel like we sometimes
we're afraid to be ourselves in this
world like our freedom of speech is
expanded in areas and limited in
others because the second that someone
jumps and disagrees it feels like so
many jump with that and you feel
voiceless than afraid to speak up and I
think that's a scary part of the world
right now that's some of the good is
suppressed and voiceless and I'm not
here for that and I want to speak as
much of my truth as I legally am
permitted to do and so I'm going to share what I can"
oh there's the mid-roll oh nice nice nice nice well done Tati it's
all for the spiritual awakening guys I'm
very happy to be providing for this my
little treat to the spiritual awakening
hey you want to find out what I said
about this person
spiritual awakening first bitch "I am grateful
for anyone that has come here to hear my
experience of 2019 so talking publicly
about one in my heart that I don't think
will ever fully heal is not something I
ever wanted to do I have waited it even
though I felt the heaviness of so much
disappointment
until today I made no comment I have
made every effort to move through this
with dignity the reality is every day I
struggle quietly trying to rebuild my
now poisoned reputation the heartbreak
that was born from the scandal still
lingers" okay yeah what do I get
why am I getting labor ads what the fuck
she's not pregnant, no, no
oh no what the fuck no no I'm shutting this down she's not
what the fuck "I feel like I won't ever fully have the
opportunity to completely heal until I
uncover the truth from all parties
involved and their motivation of it all
for over a year now
every time now that the scandal is revisited" oh I just
noticed the t-shirt it's just says peace on it
that's amazing
"either the mainstream media or through"
social platforms" my mind is spirtually awakened
"I've become an object of hate while remaining voiceless. I've lost over a year at my life
terrified of social media and terrified
of speaking up against the people that
used coerced I manipulated me and
uploading my video in May of last year as a
result" oo she was coerced she was
manipulated it was all Putin I guarantee
you that's what the outcome of this
video is "damage to my health,
relationships, reputation, business and
general well-being have been enormous
the platform that I love this platform
that saved my life and that changed my
life has become toxic and what it means
now more than ever are peacemakers we need
to find our way back to the beginning
through forgiveness and leading with
love we need to rebuild a safe place to
escape again" I want her to quit YouTube
so bad it's so embarrassing looking at
this how old is she
like bruh 38 you're 38 just you're done
you fucked up so bad you're done I don't
want to cancel her I just want her to
realize how embarrassing this is 38
she's almost 40
it's her network six million she'll be
okay
"our world seems to be falling apart all
around us" Keemstar is 47- no way "the last thing I want to do is release my receipts
and voice memos but I know many
of you were needing some answers as well
as a long-overdue apology for the role that I played, also by the way these are my
words I did write this and this is from
my heart but I am being careful here and
I think you guys understand why. Back in December of 2019 after Shane and Jeffree's
series ended James Charles came to my LA
home and we compared DMs texts and
stories about what had happened behind the
scenes we apologized to each other,
forgave each other and agreed to wait
patiently until it was safe for me to
share my story since that night" I'm glad
they made up though that's that's nice
of James to be honest that speaks more
of him than anyone I'm really glad James
came out of this on top those are
some serious allegations towards him
being a predator and some sort of yeah
that's it that was a narrative wasn't it
James Charles is a predator he's coming
for your children boy you better lock
them up
so yeah "James Charles has repeatedly said
that he wanted to be beside me where for
this video but I felt it was important that I do it
alone because he deserves my first
apology and I gotta- I know I'm sorry
James and I've said that privately but I
want you to hear it publicly" I'm sorry
James for trying to ruin your career
forever indefinitely over some vitamin
gummy bears oh man I would stay as far
away I would forgive her but I would
stay as far away as possible from her
she's crying again
"I'm sorry. To provide some context it is
important for you to know that I love
James Charles, he has a special place in my
heart and that never changed" except that
one time "even when I was hurt. I promised my Dad I wouldn't cry"
she's crying, the vitamins! the vitamins! She was so upset that she had to remove her
bracelet my god I can, I relate, can relate
"I wanna feel strong, I don't feel"
I wanna feel strong wahh, I'm so strong I know that I'm a role model so I have to
"any of this without getting emotional so forgive my emotions this is really difficult stuff" no not forgiven "I was always more of a
mentor than friend to James Charles"
which makes it old-old the weirder that
makes the whole situation weird you were
supposed to be his mentor
if you think he'd done something wrong
publicly shaming him about it over
rumors it's so fucked up
he's 21 he was what was he? 19 when it happened
"I was somebody he could lean on when he needed advice he came into my life after he had sent me a tweet in
2016 and I met him in person for the
first time at a Generation Beauty Event
in New York. Not long after that his covergirl deal was made public
It was off to the races. I was a proud friend
and I wanted nothing but good things for him a few
months later he was a guest at my
wedding where
did my makeup for my wedding day it's
still my favorite memory of us as it was"
Wow I remembering her original video
when she brought up the wedding she she
said that she was ashamed and that was
like her biggest regret thant James
Charles I don't remember exactly what what she
said but it was something like 'I really
regret that he was in my wedding photos
cuz now I can never take that back' and
now she's saying the opposite okay
whatever it's convenient I suppose "It was a gift getting to know him before all his success
James Charles has made his fair share of mistakes he's been in scandals we all have
I always believed in him as he had a
rare ability to improve himself through
any situation. In the past if I was upset, it never lasted long he's gifted
with turning pain and strength and I've
always admired that however prior to the
scandal last May I started growing
frustrated with what I perceived as a
progressing sense of entitlement and I felt"
so I reached out to him and I've talked
to him about it because that's my role
as a mum mentor and I'm 20 years older
than him nothing adds up so far I got
nothing bad things to say about this "made some detrimental choices that could jeopardize his career but none of my
concerns became overwhelming until I met Shane Dawson
when I made my video I expressed my
opinions about James Charles's behavior
I expressed how much a specific decision
he made" wait sorry, did she mention Shane? "Until after I met Shane Dawson"
Shane Dawson's fault, it was all Shane Dawson's fault guys this
okay this is Putin behind Shane Dawson and then behind Tati, that's how that happened
"when I made my video I expressed my
opinions about James Charles's behavior
I expressed how much a specific decision
to me that I perceived as betrayal
hurt me I was very worried and heartbroken
but I didn't lie in that video
I never called James Charles a predator. I never said that James Charles was a danger to
society my video's"
I never I never specifically
it's important to say this in front of
the camera so that the jury can hear that
sentence it's such a clear myself from a
meal I got legal the legality of
lawsuits I never actually called him a
predator I never used those exact words
you said that he was trying to trick
guys straight guys into being gay you
may have not used the word predator and
that was something that spiraled out of
control afterwards but you definitely
helped contribute to that it would not
have popped up out of nowhere "it was not made with any malice, I did not publicly air" she said with no malice, she said that with a straight face can you
believe it?
"accusations that were made behind the scenes. While I was definitely upset that he had
accepted a sponsorship from the biggest rival with my brand Halo Beauty
I did not make my video because of vitamins"
oh god I got another fucking ad (ad plays)
(ad plays)
I made it as a result of all the poisonous lies that were fed to me by Shane Dawson and Jeffree Star James
Charles' Sugar Bear Hair sponsorship"
it's so boring to listen to that it's
not even registering is she blaming
Shane again? "and all the drama that kicked up
afterwards? That was just my breaking point.
yes I'm a grown women I'm smart" you don't act like it
saying I haven't seen any of that it's
funny because I remember in my original
video I was like it seems like she knows
how to manipulate her own audience and
since this became so much bigger than
her own audience they became open to the
whole Internet it was so easy as an
outsider to look at what she's saying
and just and just with a more critical
eye and pick apart and being like I can
tell you're not being sincere I can tell
you're trying to what you trying to do
here bringing up your brand I can tell
what you're insinuating by making these
claims she's trying to act smart but
she's really not and the fact that she's
doing the exact same thing it's this
crazy to me it she says she's learned
nothing "I can usually spot deceit and manipulation a mile away but my guard was down from being heartbroken
and I allowed myself to be worked by Shane, Jeffree, and others"
so she allowed herself to be
what did she say worked? worked by Shane
and others there are others involved oo
"my video went up I was never served
a lawsuit or any cease and desist
letters"
another legal letter when it
happened I was never actually sued so
you can't sue me in the future
"I only privated my video at the
request of YouTube because YouTube said
it was a bad look for their platform
james i-"
bitch I'm sorry I need to stop calling her that, it's rude but she believed--I hate her so much
can we play that again what did she say
I'm sorry I was like slow or not
"I was
never served a law suit or any cease and desist letters I only private in my
video at the request of YouTube because
YouTube said it was a bad look--"
you should have private it you should
have private it because you spread a
bunch of lies about someone that you
were a mentor for not because YouTube
said you should have done it the fact
that she mentioned it like as a way to
absolve herself a little bit from drama
or trying to clear it up it's like
that's not helping that is not a good
excuse to private that video that was the
worst excuse
"James I'm so sorry that I allowed myself
to be poisoned and weaponized against
you I'm sorry that I bought him to any
of their lies
believing those lies and allowing myself
to be gaslit into making that video is
one of the biggest regrets of my life"
uhh that is not an apology that is
shifting blame an apology is owning up
to what you did I would never accept
this apology makes me so angry I hate
her so much saying I'm sorry because
other people made me do this thing
that's shifting but that is not an
apology an apology at all
and my god a matter where times I heard
the word gas-lit the past fucking week
"James I am so sorry that I allowed
myself to be poison-"
'James I am so sorry
I upload that video I was angry and
upset and I would never realize how much
how much impact it would have had if I
knew I would never have uploaded that I
was angry and I was upset and I was hurt
but it's something that I should have
resolved with you privately and not made
public to the Internet I am ashamed that
I made this decision out of anger but I
hope in forward we can move forward with
love' No? is that so fucking hard?
I'm
sorry I was being gas-lit by other
I'm so sorry that's not excuse but it's
not a sorry come to me all right
no one has reached out not a single
fucking person and Shane's apology video
was so fucking bad - why does no one
listen to me? An apology should be short
simple and sweet
unless you got receipts yeah that is the
rhyme for a good apology boom remember
those words short simple sweet unless
you got receipt
uh short simple sweet unless you receipt
uh short simple sweet unless you receipt
uh short simple sweet that is how you make an apology
ain't that fucking hard we don't need to
hear it 40 minutes
"I'm sorry that I bought into any of their lies
believing those lies and allowing myself to
be gaslit into to making that video is one
of the biggest regrets of my life"
that's her regret that's what she took
unironically I am smart (prissy fart noises)
that's what I got on that okay
"I should have tried harder to reach you over
those concerns in person"
yeah try harder he called you
literally have to go 'Oh James is calling
hello' 'I should have tried harder oh how it
work ah I tried so hard I must try
harder oh it's too difficult how it work?'
goddamn she said in her video she admitted
it herself
hey snake I call her snake man cuz
that's what she is sssss
reptile she said in her video that or
maybe it was James that said that he tried
calling her but she didn't pick up the
whole the biggest drama that had we've
ever seen online could have been avoided
if she just answered the fucking phone
instead of saying no I'm gonna make a
video exposing this guy and
"I'm sorry
for giving up the
information they were giving me was
terrifying I thought your career and
freedom were in jeopardy I was trying to
get you to put your phone down and seek
help because I was told there were a lot
of victims that were going to come
forward to destroy you"
'so I did the
job for them'. What the fuck? 'I heard a bunch of rumors about you and
I was so worried it was gonna damage you
and destroy you so I made a video
exposing all of it'. What the hell she's not making any sense
I understand her
perspective I really do cuz it's like
when you hear stuff about a person from
other people a lot of times it seems
really bad before you heard their own
perspective and she refused to do that
she refused to listen to his side so he
instead she bought up all this stuff
that people told her and she was like oh
he's bad and he did me wrong so I have
to make this video to destroy him bye
James bye sister
what's that
yeah alright let's keep watching
"I was foolish for believing them
I thought if I called you out, you would put your phone down and stop the detrimental
behavior"
you would put your phone down
he called you, we know this this is a fact
"I was made to believe was true
James I apologize for uploading that video"
good
I should know better than to fall for their lies and manipulation"
god dammit god fucking damn
it you were so close it's not so hard! Just own up to what
you did it's not difficult she was so
close so close to an actual apology so close
I am so sorry that other people did the bad thing not
me I'm strong woman
Adult. 47. Thank you
"and I failed.
and instead I let Shane and Jeffree put a wedge between our friendship"
It was Shane and Jeffree's his fault
they gaslit me to do it reporting live
here
"Jeffree Star first contacted me early
in his youtube career wanting to meet but it
wasn't until 2017 when we started speaking
I knew that Jeffree had a lot of trauma in
his past but when he came to me he
presented himself to someone who had changed
Who was trying to be better I was --"
Jeffere Star is like the-- I was surprised
he got away cheap out of that whole like
drama that happened cause he made a video
afterwards just because he's-- Jeffree
really attacked James he's he he's
so I think he's the one that called him
a predator technically (yes) and you know
said that he was banned from his house
and shit like that and I'm not sure
exactly. I don't remember
he was involved with kind of like
spreading the narrative that James was
bad. This is Jeffree Star
he's like the keemstar of the beauty
community because he apparently knows
always like drama around people and he's
kind of using that as a weapon to be
like I'm gonna expose what I got on you
"I felt that I could be positive
influence as time went on I learned that being friends with Jeffere Star was like being
friends with a Lion yes he may have been
dangerous but he was always really kind
to me from time to time I would see
improvements which were followed by
setbacks thereafter but overall I
thought he's growing as a person and
again I thought I could be the example
for him"
'I tried so hard to make him pure
my goodness in my heart was not enough I
was foolish I was such a fool'
we're never gonna get through this video
"I even tried to get them involved with
my favorite charity diverting from script PS I am going to be speaking on--"
'she tried
so hard making him donate to charity'
I've seen you know-- I don't like
Jeffree Star but I've seen him donate
to charity he doesn't need you to do
that in his defense like what the fuck
are you on about?
to me he seems like the kind of person that's just like
I don't know if insecure is the right
word but worried that it doesn't it
doesn't he doesn't know how to have
real connections with people so he
leverages like drama and tea as a way to
kind of control them that's what I got
out of him I have no idea that's my
armchair psychology immersion of
Jeffree Star
"-my real life more freely I hope
in the future on the things that I think are important
I have participated in this charity for
years on end now and--"
I don't care about
your charity. Jesus oh God mid-roll. Oh I guess Marzia is getting a new mobile data plan guys
Jackie Aina, Jackie the moment that Jeffree
went off"
I don't know who this is at all
"and I regret any
of the pain that I may have caused you"
I think
we can kind of forward a little bit
"-- but I always heard from him when he was involved in drama or when he had a new launch about to happen
Although I recognize this pattern any suspicion
that I had of being used was clouded by
the hope that he actually cared for me"
she is talking about Jeffree
"-- on how much dirt he held on other members of our youtube community--to understand that we
need to forgive the people that he's holding
hostage with--"
he's holding them hostage
guys. What is she referencing? There must be
more tea coming up
"--with veiled threats of
exposure--they're trapped people and I
more tears, more cry cry "-- James was all he wanted
to talk about. I met up with Jeffree in his
Killer Merch Offices in March to discuss Jeffree developing and managing my merch
and as we were touring his
warehouse that was filled with Sister's
Apparel it seemed like all he could do was to speak poorly about James Charles over the next
few weeks Jeffree began talking about
how Shane Dawson was a big fan of mine
and wanted to meet me and how I should
be involved in their docu-series
eventually Shane reached out to me by
text and started DMing me on Instagram
Shane said I was the queen of make up reviwes on youtube
that I was his favorite
beauty channel and he wanted me to teach
him all about makeup I didn't know much
about Shane Dawson I knew that he was
viewed as the King of YouTube, he had done
amazing series with Bunny-"
well not
anymore
Shane is canceled okay mmm Poppy Gloria queen of youtube say it ough
king of youtube get the fuck out
"--watch much else of anything else other than
Jake Paul series and of course the series
of Jeffree in all honesty I was looking
forward to meeting Shane
I'd actually hoped he'd want to help and
tell my personal story one day about all
the pain and heartbreak in my life that led
me to wanting to start my own YouTube
channel back in 2010 I wish I researched
him better I wish I had watched his old
videos I wish I had educated myself so
I was aware of his earlier content" nice throw him under the bus, do it
"so I invited him over to my
home to play with make up and get to know
him Shane came over one afternoon in
April and I opened up and shared things
that I only share with my closest of
friends I shared that I had in the
victim of sexual assault I spoke about
my faith and told him how deeply I felt for others he shared with
me that he was an empath and he could
feel all of my pain he pledged his
unending friendship and loyalty forever
in this life and the next he told me
that God called you to be a beacon of
light for the world"
wow
"so it could be a better place he also shared that Jeffree had wanted me to have a small role in their
docu series but the entire series was
quickly changing because there was something
horrible happening in our community with James Charles
he said that James Charles was a monster
with many victims. Yes I knew that Shane
was friends with Jeffree and they were
working together but I thought to myself
why would Shane Dawson, the king of
truth on YouTube"
'the king of truth?' who's
ever called Shane Dawson the king of
truth? That's me! I'm the king of truth
-queen I spit fact no one else (spit x3)
spit left them right on the walls the
fuck
bish what the fuck "-if they were not true? Why would Shane stay in my home and
spend so many hours telling me whose
horrific allegations if they were not
true? Shane said that Jane Charles was a 
monster and that James Charles was
hurting minors Shane said he was planning
to interview victims for his docu series" why am I laughing sorry
"he told me that something needed to be
done to stop you from hurting more
people over the course the next few
weeks he and Jeffree fed me so much
information-" okay
armchair psychology on Shane Dawson I
believe I believe her when she says that
Shane like spread all this tea
around James Charles like oo-cause at the time he was getting into the beauty community
'and all the tea and like we're so
vicious'
I feel like Shane still has that
insecurity- definitely for this this one he
has that insecurity where he has to like
talk shit about other people I'm sure
he's nice face-to-face but he seems like
the kind of person that talks shit (disclaimer) I
never met him I don't know anything how
he communicates behind closed doors but
he seems like that I believe it--that
Shane talks shit about James I definitely
believe that
That is not an excuse to make the video though
"--that I felt sick. Almost every day there was more
information and new allegations
eventually I started believing what they
were saying because they said they have
evidence by the time - drama around
games Charles's promotion--"
and to Shane's
credit and in a weird way I mean the
whole internet bought it - for a while
until they heard James perspective
everyone was on board so it wouldn't be
that weird to be part of that tea you
know 'oh my god we know this' you know?
It's not a good excuse but I can at
least understand it
"By the time Sugar Bear Hair reached it's peak, I was beyond gaslit" gaslit?
"Shane Dawson didn't just know about my bye sister's video, he offered to help edit
it he even offered to design the
thumbnail and help title it. I declined his
offer but his gesture of support
reinforced for me that he was telling
the truth why else would he jeopardize
his career? So surely Jeffree was telling
the truth too keep in--"
making a thumbnail for someone is not a jeopardy of
career what are you talking about?
"--keep in mind up until this point I didn't even know
I was making a video so how is it that
so many editorial outlets knew
something was coming before I had even
made a decision to film?"
Cause you said
that you were going to you said in your
video that you reached out to two drama
channels she literally went full
disclosure I spoke to two drama channels
that's why were you gaslit to forget
about it maybe?
"I struggled with the decision to film my video for days
the night before I did film, Jeffree sent
me what he claimed was an audio file
from an alleged victim and told me to
listen to the pain in their voice the
audio was clearly a small portion of
a larger conversation-it wasn't enough
for me to contact the authorities- it was
enough to scare me"
so I made the video
"as a victim of abuse myself I know how
terrifying it is to think of facing
public humiliation and legal proceedings"
I feel nothing "it wasn't my place to
contact--" You would think that watching someone- a woman
cry would make you feel like ah alright I
feel bad no nothing I got nothing I'd like to
think i'm somewhat empathetic yeah? No? I feel 
nothing watching this even when people
are too dumb for their own sake and they
kind of mess up at least then I can
sympathize I still I can't I physically
can't got nothing
"it was not my
place to contract authorities or the
alleged victim and I made no mention of
it it's like playing Last of Us again with Abby yeah
"the night before
posting my video bye sister I texted
Shane sharing my concerns for James
Charles that he was out of the country
on the high floor of hotel and I was
afraid for him hurting himself Shane
texted me back and said that I should not be
nervous about the 50th floor and that James
Charles was a narcissist and he
would never do that. The day that the video went up, Shane requested to come over to my home and film
and document what was happening. I declined" sheesh "after a few days of Jeffree
flaning the flames on Twitter no victims appeared as
they had stated would happen and no evidence came forward as they
had stated would happen.The last time I spoke with
either" it's their fault guys  "Jeffree or Shane on the phone was the night before Jeffree's 'Never Doing This Again'
video shortly after the relationship
dissolved entirely and I was so confused
I bought into the conspiracy theory that
what happened was all just a social
experiment that maybe James Charles was
even involved
that there would be a big reveal in Shane's docu-series"
yes that would be so good
"and I would be the fool who fell for it. Shane never reached out to check on me"
oh shame, shame that would be so good
"and he never shared the trailer with me. The last time we spoke on the phone was before
Jeffree's apology video and I asked him
to not include the drama in the series
he only texted me after the trailer
was live with an audio message telling
me to not worry about it. 
The drama was only gonna be one episode
for the next few months, I was tormented with subtweets an innuendo that
there was a huge drama around corner I
felt that I was a liability to them and
I knew too much so I put all of my text
messages and other files on a hard
drive and told a few people that I was
afraid for my life"
Ooo afraid for her life? What the fuck
I mean it was a big thing, people get crazy
never never underestimate the things people do when they're angry
"--everything - I
was hoping that information would leak
as I thought it might keep me safe
my mental and physical health suffered my
business' suffered it's all good I could do-"
oh what
a shame
you did such a good plug in the other
video
"--pull myself together for the
launch of Tati Beauty and that night helped me so
much to everyone that came because I
felt like I didn't have community anymore
and I was too ashamed about letting anyone from my community
and I was so grateful to my subscribers who showed up for me" what the fuck? "--and I just don't think you're still there"
no nope they all left "I think I'm gonna have a heart attack
Jesus. Stop filming my God. 'I wanna be strong. I have a heart attack' That's a little dramatic don't you think? Don't want to be mean or anything
but don't you think that's a little dramatic? don't you think? alright we are almost through
"--last fall I became so afraid to stay in my LA home that I
bulk filmed a lot of videos
and I left home in October to get away
from it all I was so upset that I
continued to loose weight, I couldn't sleep
and slowly I became--"
I don't think that she's fake
crying I think she sees herself as a
victim it's very easy to cry if you
think you're a victim you don't even
have to try it all it just comes
naturally 'Oh boohoo me'
"--became a shell of my former self
I'd intended know pursuing fertility
treatments the 2019 but my mind body was
too frail my mind and body were just too
frail to support a pregnancy it wasn't
until the series ended in December when
James Charles and I met that I had started to
realize what had actually happened over the
next few months a few people bravely
came forward with more information and
the pieces of what we believe actually
happened are coming together make no
mistake this is far from over
I've been terrified for a very long
time so much so that I had to relocate
again two months ago and I've taken
serious security precautions to ensure my safety--"
The day of reckoning will come guys
"From the advice of my attorney's I can not share with
you right now the evidence that we have
accumulated of the events that have
occurred however there will seem come a
day where we will be able to resent this
evidence and you'll be able to see why
it is we believe that Jeffree and Shane
are responsible for so much of the
damage that has been caused"
damn
"I can tell you this, it is my opinion that Jeffree and Shane were
both bitterly jealous of James Charles'
success"
so were you (2x)
"Jeffree resented that so much of his business was centered around his biggest rival and Shane did not like that
James Charles wanted to make a documentary
neither of them were happy was standing
in a shadow on YouTube anymore I believe
James Charles was getting more followers
were seeking more views and more press
faster than anyone in history on the
platform and it's also my opinion that
Jeffree and Shane needed James
marginalized and out of the way for their  November launch of the conspiracy palette and
Shane's merch I've also recently been
informed that Jeffree is allegedly a
co-owner of Morphe , before this scandal ocuured, I'd also been told that
James Charles was about to develop an
entire cosmetics line with the owners
of Morphe. This entire situation
opens up a Pandora's box of speculation"
ha she's going full conspiracy
"I'm just not sure--it's my opinion that everyone
involved got scared and their plan
changed multiple times as I refused to
play along or engage the drama over the
next several months a year later it is
no my opinion the James Charles was not
their only intended target I believe
that there are many different people
with unclean hands in
all of this and there was coordinated
plan to keep me quiet and push me out of the
way for other business reasons I do not
think it's a coincidence that Morphe is
about to launch their own brand"
ohh "of hair, skin, and nails vitamins. I do not think--"
It's not a coincidence that they're
doing this generic beauty product this
this big company- it's not a coincidence
guys
Putin is behind all of this guys it's
not a coincidence what the fuck?
"-- was just Shane and Jeffree that stood
the benefit for my being silenced this
is just too big I think there were many
players and I have every intention of
getting to the truth"
well we know who's
on top mother fucking Putin
"In early May Jeffree went on a podcast and denied
responsibility for his involvement and
placed blame on me it was those cowardly
and defamatory last week when Shane
issued his statements about his
involvement in all this I also perceived them as
cowardly and defamatory as for
everyone else involved that did anything
underhanded or defamatory over the last
year I'm still--"
is she talking to herself
or someone else? I'm so confused
we're almost through. I'm not gonna watch it till the end.
"I'm within my statue of limitations to bring
civil action to seek recovery 
for my damages"
another one. I need a Mercedes okay
my attorneys will be deposing all
witnesses with information on the truth about what happened"
I'm going to do some closing thoughts on this as well
"-so for everyone else whose hands are dirty that
have not yet come forward be careful of
your allegiance you don't want to be on
the wrong side of the truth I'm sorry I
was unable to provide you with receipts
that I'm sure you want I told you
everything that I can right now the
remainder will be handled privately or
at a time that I choose just be publicly on it again the incredible people--"
how convenient I can't listen
anymore
all right so Shane did a live reactions
let's watch that it's a classic that's a
classic video
what the fuck was he thinking who would
let him go live
"this is insane, this is insane! This woman is a fucking-- I'm gonna wait until as many people get in here as possible.
Keep playing it (2x)"
he's going through her like a panic
attack and he decides 'I'm gonna go live
right now' no don't do that that is not how you respond come to me I'll help for a
decent amount of cash of course
Tati: "--making a video. So how is it that so many editorial outlets knew that something was coming before I even knew--"
Shane: "BECAUSE YOU MESSAGES DRAMA CHANNELS! OH MY GOD (2X)" Pewds: True, true. Tati: "--an audio file from an alleged victim
and listen to the pain in their voice" Pewds: Why Putin did it all. Yeah his fiance is it a co fiance? Should have just
Tati: "not enough to contact authorities but it was enough to scare me"
--should have just stopped him
stopped him he's in the background
Ryland: "Then why would you make a video on the matter claiming these allegations"
Shane:"because she is a FUCKING (Pewds: say the B word, say it, say it)-- I can't I can't I don't want to say mean things about people (pewds: damn it) this is insane"
shane: "this is insane, this is insane, this person oh my god, oh  my god I keep pressing play. I need to get through this video so I can fuckin oh my god" Pewds: Stop
Tati: "as a victim of sexual assault" Shane: "oh my god you are so manipulative!" 
Pewds: I'm glad Shane is doing well he's
keeping it keeping it nice in the
quarantine I'm glad he's looking healthy
Jesus Christ dude do you think he'll make
a documentary about himself? That's the
only thing that can save Shane at this
point that
Shane: "no you're fake crying, you're fake crying, you are fake crying. That is not real oh my gahh oh my god x4. No I was molested I have been--
oh my oh my god. that is not oh my god"
Tati: "The night before I uploaded 'Bye Sister' I texted Shane about my concern for James Charles, that he was out of the country, on a high floor of a hotel and I was afraid-" Ryalnd: "Get off!"
Thank you, I'm glad he went off
oof Do you think Ryland pulled the rafter? 'No you're not doing this'
Where was I? okay that was not an
apology from Tati that was just
shifting all the blame to Shane and
Jeffree Star and I don't doubt the
fact that they told her like oh he did
this or is spilled a bunch of tea around
him behind the scenes I don't doubt that
at all
but the thing is what you upload on your
channel is 100% it's your responsibility
the fact that she put that on someone
else blows my fucking mind she calls
herself a strong woman and all these
words and she's fucking 37 or whatever
and she's still shifting blame and when
it's convenient as well like now that
people are already buying into this idea
oh we was Shane and Jeffree's fault then
she comes out out of nowhere and it's
fucking bullshit you know it blows my
mind I just can't imagine uploading a
video saying words that comes from my
mouth and then blame it on someone
else even if I heard someone tell me
it's still of me what I say on my own
channel that's on me and no one else you
know even if Sive or someone makes like
an edit that puts me in trouble
that's still mine responsibility I would
never I would never blame my editors
for that it's complete bullshit there's
no way around it you can talk about it
as much as you want, you can shift blame
all you want but we saw what happened
and nothing's gonna change my mind on
that this is just for the people that
you help thank you for donating all this
money bro I don't donate a super chat
bro I'll refund it thank you
unbelievable unbelievable be an adult
own up to what you did that's all you
have to do it's not hard but I guess it
is hard for people because we see it so
rarely
all right that's my thoughts on it I hate her I
can't believe she's still trying to pull
the same sort of manipulation they
should be in last video I'm glad people
are seeing through it like it's got a
lot of dislikes good I think there's a
dumb idea to upload this video you
should not have done it you could have
been an adult and just moved on but you
just had to shift blame you have to quit
YouTube now this is so embarrassing
I know I said not to bully people off the
platform but I'm not meaning
bully I'm like this is the worst thing
I've ever seen an adult do online
oh my that's not true it's just so
embarrassing
I can't fathom you're done not
canceled she's not canceled I'm not
canceling I'm just saying it's so
embarrassing I cannot imagine continued
YouTube if I did something like this I'd
be so ashamed with myself because she
hasn't owned up to anything and it's
been a year
I'm not disliking that's not my style
doctor disrespect next next news next
news and yeah
I feel like this is such a redundant
message because it doesn't do anything
but I don't support any harassment over
anyone unfortunately that's a product of
the internet I wish it wasn't like that
I can tell people as much as possible
not to do anything and I'd be ashamed if
I see you guys write a bunch of shit
I'd be really fucking disappointed
because it doesn't do anything good
there's one thing me criticizing and
there's another thing fans being toxic
and I don't support that whatsoever
there's some acclaim
does anyone know what happened we doctor disrespect? I want to know so badly
let me see. I'll pull it up
the fact that there hasn't been an
update is kind of concerning
that makes me think is really bad
okay was this the last stream?
