hey my audience and other friends in
subreddit LGBTQ on Long time no see come on
let's get out of the closet
my name is Leah Chan if anyone remembers
my face that's because a year ago I
launched an AMA on here this loving
community because of my job I got a
chance to you know about reddit and
subreddit LGBTQ as well I knew the AMA is
a popular way for people to know each
other I stumbled upon this community the
idea of having AMA just came to me I
have to admit I did it on a whim never
expected it could be a hot topic
I still feel grateful because I met many
many many loving people here they
communicated with me they encouraged me
they some of them even worried about
my safety it's been a long time after
the AMA I got many messages in my
inbox that I haven't got much time to
reply because of work or firewall I'm
really sorry about it so this video is
made with the purpose of a short review
on this AMA and some small talks
the AMA started with a story of me
coming out to my mum my mum's a bit
shocked and and said to me How about asking
your cousin to recommend a doctor to you
She mentioned my cousin because my cousin
is a doctor as I was about to talk to
that being homosexual doesn't mean being
ill she kept talking a doctor as a
boyfriend
after finished writing a story I just
went to bed that's why I said AMA was a whim
I didn't know the next day I checked
this AMA again could be stunned by the
popularity but it came with awkwardness
it's been eight hours without any reply
to the questions
I even saw someone said AMA no one
answer laugh out loud I was speechless
with myself I do apologize but
thankfully some people explained for me
that there's there's time difference of
all the comments you must see this one
really humorous bring home a doctor
girlfriend for mum well I have a
girlfriend now she's currently working
in insurance so it's a bit health-
related industry my mentor who is also
my superior Dani commented under my
thread too here I'm gonna quote AHA you
suddenly took us all by surprise having
known you for almost a year
I'm so glad to see you change both
physically and psychologically the 23rd
23 year old you have been stunned by
these changes all this all these praises
and compliment the communities the best
don't get me wrong I know you're proud
to be gay but sometimes lack confidence
in yourself as your friend and personal
stylist I sincerely hope that you could
find your love and be loved
it's great feeling and you deserve it
that's sweet I love her oh wait there's more my
question for you how did you manage to
make yourself look so sane and smart in
this picture girls will fall for you
over this photo if they haven't seen you
drunk reciting poem or heard you
unreasonable giggles at work she gave me
away didn't she
I can explain that when we were having
a team-building I was a bit drunk
excited couldn't help the Dutch courage
I recited Spanish poem like ellas dices que las estrellas en el cielo son las
sonrisas de las personas muertas as for
the unreasonable kickers it usually
happened when I overheard overheard the
conversation between her and our boss
one day she said to our boss I just
found a question very suitable for you
to answer in ZhiHu What's the question how does it
feel to have a good looking subordinate
what's with the eavesdropping? I guess I can
answer the question like how does it
feel to have a good looking superior
good boy but we haven't talked for a
long time since she quitted the job I'm
a bit sad because we are not the keep-in-
touch friends let's move to the last but
not least part I'm gonna read your letter I
received in my inbox it's really
thoughtful respectful and kind so I
think it's ok  to read it publicly
because it's worth to share with you
hello Leah I'm not sure if you remember
me but I was one of the people who asked
you a question on your AMA I asked you
if you could would you leave your would
you leave China for more accepting
country at first you told me that you
would but you later edited your comments
to say that you wouldn't you stated that
you want to find a way to make your
country better your your optimism
and hope is inspiration and very
comforting to me as my country is also
doing things that I would like to see
changed I did not only  message you
to give you praise
though you do deserve it I wanted to
tell you about something that I saw on
on subreddit LGBT Here's link so you can
see it in its full context I'm not
trying to tell you how to live your life
nor what decisions
you should make I'm only trying to let
you know what options you have available
to you
I cannot personally tell you how
effective rainbow railroad is I felt it
is do something worth knowing about I
wish you the best in life  I hope
your decisions whatever they may be
bring towards happiness
bring you towards happiness and
prosperity yours sincerely Phoenix
I haven't write back I received it and
the feeling washed over me I never
expected that there's someone in the
world never met me but concerning about
me and sent me this message saying in
case I want to leave I I still did I
still don't know what to say to Phoenix
A thank-you wouldn't be enough but my
vocabulary is limited I clicked the link
Phoenix sent me it was about an
organization named rainbow railroad it's
for LGBTQ people who doesn't have rights in
their countries so rainbow rainbow will
do as much as they could to help people
to leave I don't need the help for now but
I know there's more option for me now so
I'm really thankful if you ever wonder
how LGBTQ people are doing in China you
can take me take me for example
regardless of being gay I'm extremely
ordinary I'm nobody no one will pay
attention to me I'm just like the most
common people they go to college they
they graduate they go to work maybe fall
in love
you can say there's almost no
persecution we are more likely to be
facing ethical dilemmas at home especially
of course in some way we are not allowed
to be too public like getting married
advocating for rights having a parade being
ignored by the authority is not a good
thing there's so much to be to be
improved but I but frankly I have to say
is not the worst I believe most LGBTQ
cover in China are leading not bad a
life they may choose they may choose to
hide themselves from the people who
might not understand them but still live
well me and my girlfriend living
together we plan for the future we make
as much money as we can Put efforts to
making a successful career to ensure a
better life when we are old I said to
Phoenix I hope to find a way to make my
country better this is my way there's an
old saying in Chinese 穷则独善其身，达则兼济天下 It means
fuck the world
if you reach otherwise go fuck yourself
wrong translation I'm kidding I prefer
this version take good care of yourself
in your obscurity and hardship and benefit
the rest in your prosperity and fame
there's good side and bad side of my
country but I still love China and the
world The world got many people nice
people like Phoenix like the people in
in this Subreddit I can't thank you enough
that's all for this video thank you for
watching these bye oh don't worry I
won't put you back to the closet
