on this second day of vlogmas I'd like
to talk about how I have wanted to do
YouTube videos for years now like if you
if you go onto my youtube channel and
you look at the about page it should
tell you when I signed up and look it's
probably like 2012 but I've wanted to do
YouTube long before that like from I was
probably in like ninth grade and I saw
Ryan Higa videos and I was like yeah I
wanna I want to make cool funny videos
like that I want to I want to have I
want to just hang out with my friends
and make videos and we can make fun of
stuff and and joke around and have fun
and there is always an excuse every
single time I'm like oh I don't have a
camera then I get a camera it's like
this camera is not good enough then
something else come up like I don't want
to edit my videos because my voice and I
hate my voice and like I can't stand the
sound of my voice I don't wanna I don't
want to edit my videos and like if I
can't stand the sound of my voice then
other people won't be able to stand the
sound of my voice just the same so I've
always always come up with different
reasons why I should not start YouTube
and this year like earlier this year
like right around when I started like
uploading most of the videos like around
February and my sister-in-law was
talking to me and she's like I was
thinking about probably making a youtube
and you know just making YouTube videos
and and I was like yeah I'll do it like
I was thinking about that too but I've
always you know always said no it's not
for me I don't have that thing that you
need to be a youtuber like if you look
at all the youtubers they have what I
call the you factor you look at depaul
brothers you know they're they're like
loud and
frisky with their lives like they'll do
anything they're like yeah their
adrenaline junkies are you look at like
um Isaac oh she she's very lovable like
she has such a great personality
maybe even like I don't think that I
even have like that serious like focus
to to like make anything the way that I
want to make it like I don't have that
focus like a like a Philip DeFranco like
these are the people I've been watching
for years like I've watched people from
when they were in their bedrooms to
where they are now and I'm like like I
couldn't have been making videos but I
I've been just using all kind of excuse
in the book like I watched lovely tea
from when she used to sit on her bed and
make videos and now like lovely tea has
her her little studio section I'm like
oh that's really nice like I've seen
people even Philip DeFranco himself like
from in his room to now like he's done
so much great things and I'm always just
like I don't have that personality like
I I'm someone who my face doesn't always
show the emotion that I'm feeling like I
could be I could be I could find
something really funny and my face still
remains like this
alright I'll smile but it looks so
insincere because I'm like dead behind
eye but the thing is I've always wanted
to I don't know be more like that
outgoing bubbly type person like even
look around YouTube even the people who
are kind of like they're supposed to be
quirky their quirkiness is what makes
them the icons or make them iconic or
YouTube iconic and you look at them
their quirkiness that core Kunis comes
off it's like it's like a silent
charisma for example Emma Chamberlain
everyone loves to hate on him and my
Chamberlain for different reasons of
course but she
have that thing she has do you factor
the thing that makes her so perfect for
you too because people will see her and
you're like I can relate to that like I
understand especially teenagers and like
yeah I'm completely going through that
situation and she's kind of raw and and
just like saying whatever quirky thing
comes to her mind at the time and she
just and she's just like automatically
get a lot of people to pay attention to
her because of that
quirky edge or that you factor like I'm
sorry
I'm completely blabbing on but if you
understand what I mean a few weeks ago
or maybe it's been a month or so David
Stoll made a video about how about
confronting your fear when I watched it
I remember I wrote out a letter telling
David so thank you for his years of work
on YouTube that like just like inspire
me and how watching him from where he
started till now it's just been like a
great inspiration that makes you want to
keep going keep at it even when you
don't feel like it and I really wanted
to send him that message and I was like
instantly I wrote like paragraphs
telling him thank you and then I deleted
it because it was like probably never
gonna see this I mean no interests never
seen it okay
however the point that I'm trying to
make that it's taken me so long to make
even though I've been rambling on is
sometimes you got to do something even
if it makes you uncomfortable because
you want you want end goal and if you
know that you're that this thing can
lead in the direction that you want to
go don't be afraid of taking the steps
to go into the into that direction so
when my sister-in-law
told me she was like yeah if you do it
I'll do it like we
make videos together I was I was I
jumped at it I was like you know what
maybe this is the time maybe this is the
kick that I need in a but to actually
start a YouTube channel and even though
my sister-in-law didn't actually start
making videos on YouTube I'm still
making videos here but she was such a
motivation to start this and I'm glad
that I did and I'm glad I stuck to it I
feel like I've always have asked things
like I've I tried learning the guitar
I'm still not massive and I still have
not mastered the guitar I'm like I said
I've I passed everything I some chords I
didn't know how to play play some chords
and I know how to strum some stuff and I
know a few songs but that's it I've
never gone and like commit to one thing
and just say yeah I'm gonna do it I'm
gonna do it and this is the reason why
I'm vlogging this is vlogmas is kind of
important to me right now because I
wanted that challenge like I'm looking
for that challenge in my life to say
yeah I'm this is what I'm gonna do today
I'm gonna actually get it done I'm not
gonna slack on it I'm gonna see this
through I'm gonna make sure that every
day I put out a video even when I don't
want to even when I don't even have a
specific topic to talk about just come
on here and have a conversation maybe it
could be something from the heart like
this conversation right now or maybe
it's just the a video of outside and of
the different places I went to during a
day or how I'm feeling that at that
moment like I just want to do that I
don't want to come here and be fake with
anyone if you can find some sense in
what I've just said please just make
make a goal and try to stick with it
it's been very difficult for me
especially when it's just certain things
that it's not like a thing that's going
to give me an immediate payoff right
away I tend to back away from me
and I don't want to do that anymore so
this is a challenge for myself and I'm
and asking you what is the challenge
that you you have in your life where
maybe you've been putting off something
that you really want to do and you just
be making a whole bunch of excuses
here's the thing when you fail there's
always a lesson to learn so with the
listen learn so take the chance and fail
or take the chance and maybe you'll even
win you never know but I just want to
stick to it and I want to stick to
making videos for this what 25 days of
vlog mist I'm holding myself accountable
to stick to this stick to
