hey guys i
personally love decor videos so i
thought it'd be really fun for me to
collect a bunch of my decorations
and put them up with you guys i feel
like they're the missing pieces
in my home so i'm really excited to put
them all together with you guys
as we begin to put all these decoration
pieces around my house
i wanted to share with you something i
read
imagine yourself as a living house god
comes in to rebuild that house
at first perhaps you can understand what
he is doing
he is getting the dreams right and
stopping the leaks in the roof and so on
you knew that these jobs needed doing
and so you are not surprised
but presently he starts knocking the
house about in a way that hurts
abdominally
and does not seem to make any sense
what on earth is he up to
the explanation is that he is building
quite a different house from the one you
thought of
throwing a new wing here putting on an
extra floor there
running up towers making courtyards
you thought you were being made into a
decent little cottage
but he is building a palace he intends
to come and live in it
himself
this quote reminded me of a story within
my life where i had to learn to trust
god even when i couldn't see
what he was doing
my junior year of college me and my best
friend at the time decided that we
wanted to study abroad
it was a rash decision but we both felt
eager and called to try our very best to
make this trip possible
we both thought when else are we ever
going to get the chance to do this
it's now or never so in faith we both
dropped out of our classes for the
upcoming semester and began applying for
the study abroad program
since the program we picked was a small
private school in israel
we weren't able to get financial aid it
was a major setback but we saw it as an
opportunity to believe boldly and ask
god to provide financially for this trip
we needed around fourteen thousand
dollars and our bank accounts had
zero we applied and both ended up
getting into the program
so all we needed now was the money
months passed and we tried to get
creative and being able to reach our
goals
we wrote support letters reached out to
friends and family
and shared why we wanted to go as time
continued to pass
it seemed very hopeless on both ends
since the payments deadline was coming
closer and
closer then a week before the deadline
was about to hit
my friend asked me to go out to brunch
we ate we laughed and had an amazing
time and the check came out to our table
as i reached to grab it my friend
stopped me and said
don't worry i got this and i said what
no it's fine we can divide it since we
both are trying to save
up for the trip she looked at me again
and said
don't worry ginny i got it i was so
confused as she put her card down and
paid for a meal
she looked back at me and said i have
crazy news to tell you
excited i said what happened tell me
then she proceeded to share with me that
god did a miracle in her life
she pulled out her phone and showed me
her bank account
someone deposited exactly 14
000 into her bank exactly what she
needed to make the full payment for the
trip
my jaws dropped and i looked at her and
said
you did it you're going on your trip
since the deadline was so near i didn't
know if i should feel
excited or nervous obviously this is a
miracle and it showed me what fate could
do
i thought okay god did it for her and
now i'm next
but when the deadline finally hit i
didn't end up having enough to go
it felt like god never showed up for me
just for
her eventually i found myself going to
the airport and saying goodbye
as she headed out to study abroad
that drive home was the hardest for me
because that's when i began
to compare and wrestle why would god
answer her prayer
and not my i felt like god didn't love
me as much as he loved her
going back to school that semester was
so hard
i really think this was the season god
grew my trust in him
even though i didn't feel god's love
provision or care
i had to choose to believe god was good
and he would still be faithful to me
even if
everything didn't seem to make sense at
the moment
every day that semester as i looked on
instagram and saw what a great time she
was having
the people she was meeting and
everything she was learning
i had to protect my heart from jealousy
and comparison
i had to remember that god kept me in la
for a reason
that semester is actually the time my
grandma passed away
if i hadn't stayed in la that time i
would have missed
everything because i was there i was
able to have my last sleepover with her
and share our last memory together
i was able to see my childhood prayers
come to life as she finally mended the
broken relationship she had with my mom
i was able to see god's faithfulness and
it was something i could have never
guessed would happen
as i'm decorating my house and seeing
this new season of life i'm in the
constant truth i always hold on to
is that god is faithful especially when
we might not be able to see it
if you're going through a season of not
understanding what god is doing i hope
my story was able to encourage you not
to give up
the story goddess writing within our
lives is far
greater than just us one day our
struggle
confusion and heartbreak might be used
to encourage
others going through something similar
i know we have all had moments of
feeling disappointed
and my hope today is that you are able
to hold on
even when you can't see what is
happening that my friend
is faith having confidence in what we
hope for
and assurance about what we do not see
by having faith and trusting in jesus
we will be able to overcome everything
that might come our way
it won't be easy but i promise you that
in every journey of life
jesus can be trusted because he will
always be faithful
