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Heute treffen wir Robin Reinhard Rudi.
Robin hat sein Leben verändert.
Viel Spaß beim Interview.
I am called Robin. My real name is Reinhard Rudi.
I was born in Mannheim.
I was born 02/13/52, so I’m 58 years old.
And now I live in Zell, Hauptstraße 99.
How was your childhood?
How would you describe it?
So, I have to say that my childhood was pretty brutal, you know?
I grew up in a …
In inner-city projects, you know? That was here in Würzburg.
And, I’ve seen death and murder. I’ve seen
how my uncle was killed by his stepfather.
I’ve seen how people beat themselves up like animals.
You don’t see that anymore, today.
They've beat …
My father and his brothers …
They were also very, very aggressive people, right?
And my father has always said, and that’s true,
he instilled something into me …
“You’re a convict, you’re no good, you idiot!”
and as a little kid, when you’re told this …
What someone speaks, eventually that gets installed
in the existence of a kid. And that happened, yeah?
I never wanted to steal, I didn’t want to.
But I just went with the people …
Because they were my buddies somehow, I just wanted
to be part of it, too. But I never wanted to steal really, right?
And so I just got more and more involved in this, in this …
In this false life, you know?
Then I got to know the people, right?
Burglars, pimps, whores, right?
And this way you just get to know the people, right?
Yes, and then brawls.
That all went hand in hand with alcohol.
Yes, and then I went to prison. The first time I was 17.
In pre-trial custody for six months.
Probation.
A couple of months later I was back in.
I got two and a half years, custodial sentence.
Home for eight days, I got another 15 months.
And so I got 14 years together.
I have altogether …
I was married twice, I have altogether six children.
From the first marriage two, from the second marriage four.
I’m in touch with my children from my first marriage.
The boy from my second marriage is with me.
But my second ex-wife doesn’t let my three daughters
visit me, since the divorce, you know?
She didn’t let me see my children, and I was …
I’ve lived alone for a year, like a hermit.
I’ve prayed in the mornings, so that my tears fell into my
coffee mug, because I didn’t see my children.
You know, I was married for 14 years, and then from one day
to the next you don’t see your children again. Right?
And it was very bad for me. And then
I’ve learned something from God:
Not to give a person first place in my heart; only God.
And when I give God the first place,
no one can hurt me anymore.
This injury almost would have destroyed me.
Twice I wanted to kill her, twice. But not because I’m a killer.
But out of heartbreak, because she wouldn’t give me
my children. And whenever I drank alcohol …
Then this heartbreak got stronger and then I was
in front of her door with a big stick, yes.
Until God spoke to me,
“What are you looking for here? Just go home!”
“Leave these people in peace, right?”
and then I went home right quick, yeah?
That was the most important moment in my life, Jesus himself.
I can’t tell you anything different.
Because he’s just showed me my quality.
He shows me my true self, my identity.
And it’s splendid to be religious, and I’m sorry for every person
who doesn’t yet belong to this family, you know?
