It was a busy night,
and there was kind of a large-volume
that came in a fast period, and a
couple those patients were pretty active,
so it was stressful and I was tired and
overwhelmed, and another one comes in that I knew was going to be really complex, really difficult, and
I'm feeling angry at a system
where I felt like too much was being
asked of me. Nothing inside me wanted to be in there.
What the average physician today is struggling with is a sense that
she is caught as a cog in the machine of
American medicine. And I think for
Christians it's a shame to set out to
participate in God's healing work and
find yourself just going through the motions.
In the Theology, Medicine, and Culture
Fellowship, you learn to say with
Christians across the centuries why we
care for those who are sick.
We equip fellows to stop and pay attention, to attend as one who is called
to follow Christ.
Then I got to med school at UNC and all these kinds of questions are floating around. You know, what what does
it look like to be a Christian doctor?
What does it look like to be a faithful doctor?
I've been formed by folks at the TMC, and
books I was exposed to, the mentors that
I formed relationships with, communities
that I spent time with. The things that I
learned there, the conversations that I
had, allows me to be a better doctor.
Right when I got to his room, I stopped
took a deep breath and kind of said, how
am I called to treat this man? What am I
called to do? I was able to, you know,
listen to him, and look at him, and was
really convicted in that moment, and
thought, this person is a child of God.
It's easier to go through your day just
compartmentalizing and saying I gotta
get my stuff done; I can't let this stuff
sink in. I think those are the moments
that the TMC has formed me, having me
constantly step back and be reminded
that this is Christ that I'm
encountering. I would not have that
vision without TMC.
If you know that you're called to be a doctor but you find yourself perplexed about how you're
gonna do that faithfully in this world
and in medicine as it is today, know that
you're not alone, and know that this
program was developed precisely for
people like you, to stop and ask, "God give
me eyes to see; help me to see you
in my patients, and to trust and follow
you in this context of medical care."
 
