so hey guys what's up
I'm really kind of nervous doing this
video because i've been promising if
we're so long but it's such a complex
video for me to make that i didn't and i
don't even know where to start so i'm
just gonna be if i'm all over the place
I apologize but I'm gonna try to be as
consistent as possible not consistent as
organized as possible in my thoughts my
train of thoughts okay so today we're
going to talk about something that's
very dear to me a very close to me which
is self-care well if you're if you click
the video you're probably in touch with
mental health awareness you probably
maybe have mental health issues yourself
in case you don't know me from before I
do suffer from depression and anxiety at
the moment I'm on medication for both
things and if you want to know more
about my relationship with depression
I'm gonna link two videos in the
description box that I kind of went over
everything I have started medications a
few months ago and I'm a lot better but
I still have a real long way to go and I
feel like more and more I realize how
this is gonna be something that's gonna
be with me for the rest of my life
even in the positive periods of my life
it's always gonna be a little bug like
in the back of my head that is sort of
gnawing at me and I'm always gonna have
to watch out to not let it get too bad
and sometimes I may need medication
sometimes I may not but it's something
that I know that I'm gonna have to deal
with for the rest of my life because I
have a very depressive personality the
ways to deal with it sometimes his
medication
all the times I think therapy is really
really helpful especially for me because
I feel like I have a lot of like
childhood traumas that I even never
realized until very very late in life
like it was really like this past year
that it all came rushing down into me
obviously if you can afford therapy
and counseling it's a really really good
tool for you and it's about finding also
the right you know therapist and the
right counselor for you some of them you
might not like as much but then when you
find the right fit I feel like it's
really really good for you too
honestly just to unload everything to a
person that doesn't have any judgment
does it have any reservations about you
and doesn't have any like expectations
as well it's pretty liberating and it
also helps guide you in the right
direction sort of and helps you
understand your actions your past
actions so you can learn from them and
do better in your future actions but the
main thing that is really really
important and not all that expensive is
self-care and self-care can be like a
million different things four million
different people self care is really
about what makes you you what makes you
comfortable what makes you healthy what
makes you happy what makes you get the
Machine going and push away the
depressive thoughts and there are so
many things to look into when it comes
to self-care I feel like I have my own
little niche of things but of course
it's down to you if you love to do
something I may not like so I'm gonna
list like some of the things that I have
been doing towards my self-care routine
and maybe you'll find helpful tips as
well that you may like to introduce into
yours so the first thing I'm going to
talk about is actually about my eating
habits just before I went on medication
I was really down in the dumps and I
feel like I had never experienced this
before previous episodes but in this one
I was really lacking appetite I couldn't
eat anything just a thought of food
would make me sick I couldn't when I was
chewing stuff it was like chewing paper
I couldn't feel the taste of the food it
was all very yeah and so I lost a lot of
weight I've always been around 50 kilos
and so I was now at 45 kilos which was
pretty scared for me my face was
starting to get something in and
actually at the time I wasn't feeling
too much but I did film one video with
that weight which was the ASOS haul
which I'm gonna link up here if you want
to see like my face it's really like
different than what it is now and I was
so tiny and so like I looked fragile
even and so one of the things that has
been most
to me is making sure I get all the
nutrition I need and mostly that I get
all the calories I need in my day now
this is gonna sound weird but I've
actually been using a fitness help to
help track that and the app I've been
using is called feet satchel actually
I've been doing a sort of self
journaling of my food to make sure I ate
at all the right times and make sure the
overall day of food looked great and
then this app actually reached out to me
and I thought this is such a good idea
such as ingenious idea and the app was
really like self intuitive and helpful
for example today is very unfilled
because I haven't finished today but for
example yesterday I didn't reach my full
calorie intake so I didn't eat that much
wasn't really a great day actually I was
moving the whole day and that's why that
happened because I have been trying to
keep it to the full so when you sign up
to the app you kind of put your weight
your height your definitions what you'd
like what are your goals what you'd like
to achieve and then they give you the
lengths of calories that you should
intake to you know make that happen
and mine are 2135 so yesterday that
didn't happen and you can see a huge gap
but if we go like before yesterday you
can see that I filled out everything and
went a little overboard which is great
you have like breakfast snack you have
lunch you have another snack dinner and
then another snack and workout I mean
you can have it can add every sort of
food that you want and I'm gonna show
you how I do it here for example for
lunch you can go here and you can even
go on scanner and you can scan your food
perfectly and it actually really shows
up it's really helpful and then you can
adjust the portions the grams you'll
find out calories you can also add stuff
of your own so for example if I go eat
out yesterday I went to joe & the juice and
I searched up online all the information
about the food that I was eating and I
just logged it into the app and I
created my own sort of food and so I
have it readily available if I do eat
that again it's gonna be there just
click Add and a lot healthier in terms
of weight right now and I am almost
my normal weight which I'm really happy
about I'm like ecstatic about not only
because it was I was afraid to go down
and get really sick but also because my
clothes weren't fitting I'm gonna leave
a link down below in the description box
for you to sign up to the app if you
want to partner with that I've also been
trying to hit the gym a lot more cuz I
was willing lazy about it before I had I
I was paying for J I'm like for months
and months and months I'm never going
not even once and now I've started going
again and I've been trying to do two to
three times a week and it's been a
challenge because I hate the gym I hate
working out but I'm doing it and it is
so helpful for mental health illnesses
for depression especially when you're
working out your body's just producing
serotonin which is what you lack of when
you're like in the depressive state and
so it just helps you get that motor
started it just helps you get a little
bit more free and also helps like free
your mind of stuff if you're like
running or weights we're dancing
whatever workout you want to do and
you're like listening to music and
you're thinking more about the action
than you're thinking about your thoughts
and I know like when you're very
neurotic like I am I'm always thinking
or always overthinking things and when
I'm at the gym I hate it but I hate it
so much that I focus all my energy on
getting through that it also really
helps my sleep pattern because when I
come out of gym I just take a bath got
really relaxed and then I sleep a lot
better and I fall asleep a lot faster as
well I don't know if that happens to you
and that's why I usually go out to the
gym at the end of the day I know some
people do morning but I really like to
go to the gym and then just come home
relax and lull myself into sleep and
that's are another thing that are real
real helpful baths candles aromatherapy
candles that are very sleep inducing a
real life as well because they calm
down I have like this neom de-stress bath oil and
I'm gonna put a picture up here that
before I go into the shower I just put a
little on my shoulders I inhale deeply
like just let it feel me
let it feel the room and you really
really calls me that especially if I'm
really anxious and my heartbeat is
accelerated I destroyed it deep breath
and smell really works in your mind and
kind of slows everything down a little
bit I find that super helpful
also the physical acts of lighting a
candle dimming down the lights it's just
very relaxing towards the nighttime and
I really like to do it another thing
I've been really really liking to do is
kind of taking care of my plants I have
some cactus and succulents and then I
just got a fern which I'm really excited
about and I think I'm gonna kill it but
I've never had a fern but I know
they're really complicated and but it's
really cute on whatever pictures I
bought my plants here because they're
really cute and I really like taking
care of them and like looking after them
nourishing them and while I'm doing it
it's just like I don't know it's sort of
uh um it does help kind of ease your
mind also taking care of your place and
making sure everything's like really
tidy I'm a really really messy person
and when my room is messy when my house
is messy I feel like it also interferes
with my mind like my mind gets a little
bit more messy if the house is super
clean and super tidy and super organized
I feel so much better like inside my head
it's a totally psychological thing but
you know that's what we're talking about
here and it does clear out the space in
my mind as well it kind of mirrors
itself in my mind I don't know if that
happens to you let me know in the
comment another thing that I really like
to do now especially now that I'm
working from home if I'm staying home
then I it's important to have like a
waking up routine it's important to wake
up semi early early depending on your
and I mean I know it's really hard when
you really depressed us to wake up but
it's important to wake up in the morning
to open up your curtains let the light
shine in it's really important for you
to do that and then also I try to do my
skincare routine right when I wake up
because it does wake me up a little bit
and I don't get as drowsy the water
splashing on my face kind of wakes me up
a little bit so I tried to do that as
well and most importantly get out of my
PJs when I'm at home if I'm working from
home I can't I have to switch into like
workout clothes or activewear something
that is not a pajama because if I stay
in my pajamas I literally get more lazy
and again this is all very psychological
but it's the little things that add it
up all together make for a clearer
headspace and a more
calm headspace I also really think it's
helpful to have a pet if you can pets
are the best and I obviously recommend
the cat because I love cats
dogs are also really good if you like
like the neediness of dogs that might be
a really good thing as well because they
take so much more care of you than a cat
does but to be honest I love cats and I
think that my cat really helps me
through a lot it was like bad moments I
just look at him and he's so cute he
instantly cheers me up a little bit and
he makes me so so like grateful that
he's in my life he's just a little ball
of fur and I love and I think yeah
having pets is really helpful as well
especially if you live alone if you
spend a lot of your time at home alone
I've also started journaling so yeah I
mean I don't do it every single day
because I feel like sometimes I don't
have stuff to say and that's fine but I
try to journal like regularly so I've
been doing at least once a week but
sometimes two to three times a week and
especially if I have a bad day and I
just want to get it out of my head it
also is a good aid to therapy or if
you can't afford therapy or if you don't
have the means to to go to therapy it's
a really good second option it's not
gonna substitute it but it's a really
really good second option that you can
sort of make work
I feel like letting the stuff out is
really good it even if you're just
writing to no one letting the stuff out
it's just really really cleansing and
purifying and it just gets rid of all
the nasty stuff that you're thinking
about one thing that you should always
always also do is reaching out to other
people I'm not saying like in a way of
help and if you do need help definitely
reach out to other people get help and
make yourself better but also if you are
very if even if you're recovering if
you're already healthy it's really
important to go out of the house to meet
people to socialize
I hate socializing it's my worst
nightmare and I don't have that many
friends so I try to like rotate between
my friends for them sort of babysit me
through the day and I know it can be
hard to make friends when you don't have
friends when you just moved to a new
place and you don't have friends you
don't know anyone but it really is
important to mingle and just have those
people that you know you can count on
and right now I'm trying to
organize my whole life and just reach
out to people that I haven't reached
that in so long because you know
depression kind of pushes everyone away
in the sort of unconscious involuntary
sense but now that I'm a little bit
healthier and I've also been I know that
is healthy I've been trying to reach out
to people make lunch today to make
tea dates make whatever dates but I
just can see people and talk to people
talk to different people because it
really nourishes the mind it also gets
you thinking about other things when you
talk to one person you kind of get that
person's perspective but if you talk to
like five people then you get five
people's perspectives they also talk to
you about their problems so you kind of
take your mind off your problems a
little bit talk to other people and kind
of engage in their problems and their
kind of concerns that the stuff that
they're going through it really does
help mix it up a little bit if you know
what I mean and finally I think this is
gonna sound really weird but one that I
really feel is really really super
helpful to me it's keeping my Instagram
updated when I'm not keeping my
Instagram updated you can tell that I'm
going through something through a rough
patch to a depressive episode because I
have no will to do it so I kind of force
myself to do it even when I don't want
to because I know that if I stop that
ball from rolling then it kind of
becomes a square and it's harder to roll
I think that was a really weird metaphor
but you know what I mean I mean it's
it's once I stopped posting for like a
week then it's so so so hard to get back
on that horse again so I really try to
update Instagram daily if not daily then
every two days or something like that
I've been trying to keep it going daily
because it really helps me just be
productive and feel productive as well
and I feel like when I feel productive
and and when I do like I make lists and
I when I do all the stuff in my list I
feel a little peace of mind that kind of
you know makes me motivate it for the
next day if that makes sense I do like
making lists a lot so that's another
thing I do like making lists a lot and
then when I check everything off the
list I feel so much so much more calm
somewhat less anxious so much less
paranoid about all the problems that I
have in my life
I think just kind of aligns for a brief
moment and it kind of makes me look
forward to the next day where I have a
different tasks to get through yeah
that's pretty much it that is sort of
what I go through with my self-care
routine it's more of a sit down video
I'd also want to make a more like guided
video where I actually you see me do the
stop so let me know down below if you'd
actually like to see me do a self-care
routine like when I get home from work
when I'm home working and when I'm doing
up until nighttime from morning to night
time what are all the steps that I do in
a regular normal day I think that would
be really fun as well let me know if
you'd be interested in that this video
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