

Hook Line And Internetted

Stephanie M Turner

Published by Stephanie M Turner at Smashwords.

Copyright 2012 Stephanie M Turner

Based on true events. All names, addresses and other personal details have been altered.

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Table of contents

Month 1-Casting the line.

Month 2-The bait

Month 3-The bite

Month 4-Hooked

Month 5-Got the lunker

Month 6-Reeling in

Month 7-Netted

Month 8-Angry lunker

Happy Ending-Sweet revenge

# Month 1

So my name is Angela and I used to have two really good friends, Maggie and Phil. They were the perfect couple, or so everyone thought including me. Little did our close group of friends know that Phil was a serial cheat. The day Maggie found out (which incidentally was the same day I found out) she jumped in her car after an almighty row with Phil, drove like a bat out of hell and ended up underneath a bloody great arctic. Of course Phil had no idea I knew why she had driven off like that, and he the scum that he is came sobbing to us all that they had rowed over having a baby (Maggie wanted one, he did not. He already had his children from a previous disastrous marriage) which was partly true. Only what he didn't tell us was that she thought she actually was pregnant. Again I knew this. How? You may ask. Well I guess a little background is now needed to give you the know on what went on.

Maggie phoned me on the fatal morning just after ten in a flood of tears. Of course I dived right round to see what had happened. She met me at the door with coffee in her hands clutching the mug like a lifeline. The tears were still wet on her cheeks even though the actual crying had stopped. Walking and talking like a robot Maggie told me that she suspected she was pregnant but didn't know how to tell Phil. He was bound to accuse her of doing it deliberately, would not believe she hadn't stopped taking her pill. She had no idea what to do. I could only listen and try and tell her everything would be ok. She didn't believe me and of course she was right.

Well I stayed for as long as I could. I had to go to work. I could only get away with a certain amount of flexi time, but promised I would call round again during my lunch break. She rang me about mid day. This time she was totally hysterical. Phil had left his mobile at home. She knew this because she had phoned him and heard it ring from the pocket of his leather jacket. So without really knowing why she checked his inbox. Oh boy, she found text after text, really smutty stuff from not one, not two but several different women. It was obvious he wasn't just chatting. He had been having full blown sex with all of them and from the looks of it for quite some time. She told me she was going to confront him, that she would leave him, pregnant or not. She now knew all the stuff he'd told her about his ex-wife was a load of bull, that she had cheated on him, that she broke his heart. No wonder he never wanted Maggie to meet her.

So I tried to calm her down but she was already gunning for him. Nothing I said could change her mind. The conversation finished with me telling her I would get round to see her as soon as I could, and her telling me she was going to call him at work and tell him he had left his mobile at home. About half an hour after that Maggie rang me again. This time she could barely get any words out. Phil had caught on that she knew about the texts but tried to brush the whole thing off as nothing. Maggie then told him she thought she was pregnant and he did exactly what she expected. He told her she had done it on purpose or was lying, that he was coming home right away to make her take the test.

Of course that's when she rang me and I set off straight away. Only I didn't get there in time. Traffic was a bitch that afternoon and I worked a lot further away from Maggie's than Phil did. When I finally arrived I didn't see either of their cars in the driveway and no one answered the door. I tried calling her but her phone just went to voicemail. I didn't know what to do so I sat in my car and waited. I thought she would come home. That's when I got a call from Phil. Maggie had an accident. She was in hospital, the intensive care unit, she was in a serious condition. I don't really remember much about the drive to the hospital I just remember going into ICU and seeing Phil sitting with his head in his hands.

Of course he sobbed on my shoulder and told me his story about the baby row and I pretended not to know anything. I was furious with him inside, blaming him totally for Maggie's accident but patting him and murmuring words of sympathy. Then the doctor came and told us Maggie didn't make it and to top it all Phil had the nerve to ask if she had been pregnant. I looked suitably shocked. The doctor told us she had been and Phil sobbed hysterically that not only had he lost his beloved wife, but their beautiful baby too. Really I don't know how I held myself back. He hung onto me and cried and all the time I wanted to rip his head off his shoulders.

Somehow I got through the next few weeks. My husband Mike, and our friends supported me and I supported them. They gave Phil loads of sympathy but of course they didn't know what I did and I couldn't bring myself to tell them. I wanted to, but in the back of my mind I knew them turning against him just wasn't enough justice. But at that time I had no idea what to do that could punish him.

The four of us had always been close so I suppose it was natural for Phil to lean on us. He would come round after work and sit on our sofa and cry. He would tell us how depressed he was, how lonely he was. So many times I wanted to ask him why he wasn't screwing one of his other women but managed to hold my tongue. Then one evening, not three months after Maggie died he knocked on our door just as I was booting up the laptop. My husband resignedly let him in and gave him a false greeting, (wow my guy should be an actor). He came in all forlorn claiming he couldn't eat or sleep. That the house was too quiet. He actually looked like he had put on weight and he certainly did not look like he hadn't slept.

So he sat down and whilst Mike went and made coffee, he calmly told me that he needed to find someone else. I was flabbergasted. One because how soon it was, and two because he had a string of women to choose from. Then to make things worse he told me he wanted to find someone like me, strong, beautiful and independent. That Maggie, though he loved her was far too needy. I couldn't look him in the face, I was fuming, Mike brought the coffees in and from the glance he gave me, had heard everything Phil had said. Then as I glanced over at the laptop an idea popped into my head. It budded and flowered almost instantaneously and I knew this could be some sort of revenge for Maggie. Mike caught my glance and I don't know if I showed some of my thoughts through my expression, but somehow he seemed to know what I was thinking and a very small smirk came onto his face.

So putting on a vey false smile I lifted the computer onto my lap and told Phil that with my help he could find just the person he was looking for on a dating agency. Mike patted him on the shoulder and encouraged him to do just that.

With a lot of encouragement from me and after searching various sites we found one that was free. Now Phil you should know is not the brightest. Nor is he the most literate or computer literate. In fact he didn't even own a computer at that point but that played right into my hands. So with me doing all the typing and him telling me what to include we set him up a profile. For someone who had repeatedly cheated on his wife he was incredibly gullible. I created his user name and his password and when he wanted to extend his subscription to get more features he gave me his credit card details too. I never used them again though, it just showed how much he trusted me and I felt no guilt about what I was planning. All he kept doing was rabbitting on to Mike about how clever I was with the computer. Mike told him it wasn't that difficult and once again he started whining about how he didn't have one so didn't know how to use one.

So I talked him into getting his own computer and even went with him to help him buy one. He didn't have a clue about them so relied on me to get him a good deal. Then Mike and I had to set it all up for him, get him connected to the internet and teach him some basic computing skills, especially how to log onto his dating site and access his message box.

Of course then Mike and I set about making a fake profile for me on the dating site creating a woman I knew Phil would be interested in. I sent him a hello message and as expected waited for him to come round and tell me all about it. He sat next to me, asked me to log onto his account and show him how to write a reply.

hiya thanks for message im not very good with a computer only had it a few weeks. luv phil(04/09/2003)

I gave it a couple of days before I sent him a reply. The questions specifically thought out to see what he would say.

nice to hear from you I'm sure you will soon get the hang of it. I'd like to know more about you, like are you married, have you been, have you got kids, what do you do for a living?  
love (06/09/2003)

As expected he turned up on our door needing help to reply again. So although we were getting a bit pissed off with his constant 'I just need you to give me a bit more practise' I again sat with him and explained how to use the keyboard and send a return message. What I wasn't expecting was what he actually said in his message.

hi been married been single for 3 years. got 3 boys 18 15 13 live in loxham. work in r and d how about u. luv phil(07/09/2003)

Well I sat there furious that he had completely passed over his marriage to Maggie and only spoke of his first wife, but I hid it well. I think he caught a little of my feelings because he sort of shrugged and told me he didn't want to talk about Maggie to a stranger. I let it go but stored it as ammunition for later.

The next day I logged onto his account and re-read what he had sent. The night before I hadn't noticed because I was so angry about him overlooking Maggie. What jumped out at me was what he'd said he did for a living, 'r and d'. I sat there giggling and Mike came over to hand me a glass of wine and wanted to know what I was laughing at. I pointed to the screen and he was just as amused. Of course I had to message him back.

i have been divorced for two years and i am an educational psychologist. i have two children a son and a daughter who both live with me. what is r and d? (08/09/2003)

Thankfully, and maybe he kind of got that we didn't really want daily visits, he now calls me up and asks me to log onto his account and type a reply. I sat there trying not to giggle, typing exactly what he is saying over the phone and writing it as though it is him, so not grammatically correct. Like I said he's not so bright but he is cunning.

hi my boys live with me but sometimes wish they didnt r d u is research & development x(09/09/2003)

Of course I try to quiz him as much as possible knowing he's too thick to catch on and too conceited to even suspect he's being fooled.

what sort of R&D are you in? what did you major in? what kind of things do you like to do outside of work?(09/09/2003)

Then he somehow manages to actually get the hang of logging on and writing his own messages which for me is even more fun because now I get the real Phil, elevated ego and arrogance. But like I said, not too bright. He didn't even catch on that Briony (I hadn't given him her name at that point, but that is was I planned to call her.) was still interested considering someone who actually was in R&D would be both literate and computer literate.

hi im in engineering r& d .just started going jive dancing i go 2 or 3 times a week with friends from work. i think im hooked its great fun how about you.(10/09/2003)

Mmm yep the jive classes. Now there's something. Not only has he told Mike, (he still visits too frequently) that he's got this bird interested him online, but there's also a few of them who are chatting him up at the jive classes. Only he's so smarmy about it, making out the women are falling over themselves to get to him. So of course I play to that.

that sounds like really good fun i quite like rock and roll. what field of engineering are you in? i like to do all sorts of things. i enjoy going to the cinema and the theatre. i love dancing and used to go to modern dance classes but that was a while ago. i still practise at home sometimes just to keep supple. what sort of music do you like? do you have any favourite bands?11/09/2003)

yes its good fun going away in november. to a rock & roll & jive weekead for 3 days there is about 800 people going. i think you would like jive.stainles steel engineering .i like all kind of music but at the moment good dance music.x (12/09/2003)

Oh priceless. Stainless steel research and development. Of course I know this is a lie, he puts together stainless steel panels for kitchens in the catering trade, but I played along.

where is the jive weekend is it in england? i think i would like to try jiving it sounds like fun. what sort of things do you develop made from stainless steel? you will have to let me know what weekend you will be away so i will know why you are not writing. tell me a bit about where you live and your home.(13/09/2003)

hi the jive weekend is in weymouth.and its the first weekend in november.jive is good because you meet lots of people we might go together one day .i live in a village called loxham.in a three bed semi yust nr loxham school .i lived here with my ex wife but its mine now.so ive been doing lots of work on the house when ive got time.tell me more about you. phil x(14/09/2003)

Well that is sort of true. I mean he did have the house with his first wife, but my lovely friend Maggie used a hefty amount of an inheritance she got to pay a chunk of the mortgage off. He had to remortgage to keep the house and give his ex her share, this was before Maggie met him. But later, because he flipped from job to job, trying this and trying that, welding exhaust systems, painting and decorating, fitting bathrooms, and countless other stuff he failed at, he couldn't afford the payments. So lovely, sweet, generous Maggie stepped him and helped him out. They were married by then, and she thought he loved her exclusively. I mean considering how dense he is he managed to dupe us all. I guess some men have a knack of keeping affairs to themselves. So of course I have to really go more than one better regarding property.

i also managed to get the family home after my divorce I'm glad about that because i love my house especially my garden.i also managed to secure a lovely car out of him too. that took a bit of his bank balance but he deserved it. i have not been to weymouth since i was a child i wonder if it has changed much. i love the south coast of england where are your favourite places? (15/09/2003)

I knew that would raise his interest. My Mike has always had nice cars, not expensive but quite fast and sporty. Phil always had to try and go one better.

hi what make of car do you have.ive got a peugeot 306 turbo .ifancy a bmw but i might get the drive blocked paithed insted.i like the south coast has well my favourite is devon.i still dont no your name or where you live. but you dont have to tell me if you dont want to(16/09/2003)

Aha got him. Just knew he wouldn't be able to resist a bit of bragging. So Mike and me came up with the perfect reply.

your car sounds nice. i have a porsche boxster s 3 litre in silver. i love it it's really powerful. I'm not keen on beamas my ex had a couple of 700 series. guys who drive beamas always come across as big headed and uncouth. i don't want to say my name or where i live yet i would rather keep the anonymity at the moment. i love devon too especially the north lovely beaches and scenery. I'm going out tonight with some girlfriends, just a nice meal and some wine. treated myself to a new outfit today for the occasion. write soon xx(19/09/2003)

He loves BMWs. As long as we can remember he has gone on about owning one.

yes i think you are right about bmws because i dont want to be a bighead. i think i will get my driveway done instead. did you have a nice night out i was going to go jiving but stayed in instead with the cat. do you have any pets. your car sounds great its made me envious. your ex must have been very generous. love phil xx(20/09/2003)

i also have a cat a blue persian he's lovely. no my ex was not generous he was a control freak, bought me huge amounts of expensive things but never let me choose any of it myself. he was also buying his PA lots of nice things too until i found out then she got fired and i filed for divorce. i did choose the porsche though, he didn't have any choice about that. i had a lovely night out we had a good meal and some real girlie talk. it's been ages since i did that because i have been very busy with a lot of cases lately and i also like to try and spend a lot of time with my children. write soon xxx(21/09/2003)

my ex also left me for someone else in fact the next door neighbour but that's all in the past now although at the time it was very painful. i have now moved on and that's why i enjoy the jive so much because I'm meeting so many new friends. i went last night to daventry I'm getting quite good now. it gets difficult sometimes because of the boys but they are old enough to look after themselves quite a lot of the time. write soon love phil.(23/09/2003)

Of course that is a complete lie, but it's making me feel better already reading this stuff.

that must have been really nasty i think my ex probably had more affairs that i didn't know about especially at his club. my children are still too young to leave alone but i know a couple who used to be friends with both of us but now have stuck by me and they will look after the children for me. i don't go out very often without them and they don't see their father very much as he usually says he is too busy. the couple i spoke of have two children of their own so we quite often visit there for dinner or they come to us. i have to go to a conference in london next week for two days but i will have my laptop so i can still write. love xx (24/09/2003)

hi do you still speak to your ex.i have not spoken to my ex wife since she left the house.i dont even speak to her family. that would be nice if you still write when you are in london.because i like talking to you have a nice time phil xxx (25/09/2003)

yes we do still speak. usually only because of the children and although he doesn't see them very much he does provide for them very well. we get on very well with his parents and they see the children often and spoil them. they are very supportive and understand that it was all his fault. what have you been doing over the weekend? i am in london on tuesday and wednesday i am not really looking forward to it. i will miss my children and find hotels awful when i am on my own. write soon xx(28/09/2003)

hi you must be in london now hope you are not to unhappy.yes friday night i went to jive saturday night i went to a 50th birthday party it was a friend from jive.and monday it was daventry so i think i need to give it a rest because im all jived out.hotels must be awful when you are on your own. if you was a man you could go down to the bar.but wednesday night will soon be over then you can go home.write soon xxx(30/09/2003)

# Month 2

just a quick note before we go into conference. last night was not too bad as we had a social evening so all of us psychologists got together and swapped cases. it was quite late when i got to bed so i just fell straight to sleep. tell me more about yourself, what things you like dislike and so on. write soon xx(01/10/2003)

is something wrong? you haven't written back and your photos are gone from your profile.i wanted to show a friend of mine what you look like. i hope you are not getting bored with me. please write soon.xx(02/10/2003)

hi no im not getting bored i havent been very well.and because im not to good on a computer it takes me a long time to write a message but im geting better.ive taken my photos of because this woman who likes me sent me a message and wanted to know where i go to jive.but i can send you some more if you like.but i have to ask my friend to help me send pics she is a teacher and she is good on a computer.much better than me. i will write more tomorrow when i have more time.love phil xxx(03/10/2003)

Cocky lying git. I know he was out dating, he met a woman at the jive class and he's started seeing her. He rang us up and I answered, told me what a great time he'd had and that she had stopped over his. Oh and the woman supposedly hassling him on the dating site, well, he's been messaging her too and telling her how sexy she is.

I'm glad you are still interested. i have just updated my profile with a photo so you can now see who you are writing to. also my name is briony. i hope you feel better soon, it's awful being ill when you are alone. try and imagine me bringing you hot drinks and cuddles tucked up in a quilt, that's what i like when i am ill. i am taking the children to thorpe park this weekend as a treat for me being away in london. what are you doing this weekend? write soon love bri xxx(03/10/2003)

Ha! thought I would get all that mushy stuff in. I'm sure he will fall for it.

hi briony its nice to know your name i thougt you would never tell me.i looked at your photo i think you are so attractive i love blond hair and your not fat i hate fat women and smoking your ex must be mad.my mother and brother both died of lung cancer so you can imagine how i feel.i think that would have made me a lot better if you was giving me a cuddle. idont mind now getting ill.hope you and the children have a great day at thorp park ive been shopping to day and bought my self a new watch and the boys some new cloths.tomorrow i need to start to do some decorating the house is getting untidy.must go now my son wants to play his new game on the computer.love talking to you love phil xxxx write soon.(04/10/2003)

Whoo hoo yes yes yes it's working. Sucker.

hello phil. we had a fabulous time at the park the weather stayed dry and we just had lots of fun. I'm sorry to hear about your brother and mother that must have been awful. do you have any more family? how did the decorating go and what colours did you use. i love it when the rooms are newly painted it's like having a new house. what is your watch like is it a sporty one? I'm not looking forward to tomorrow as i have to be in court giving evidence on an abuse case. that's a part of my job i don't like as these things are really tricky and don't always go the way we hope. are you jiving tonight? you must be getting very good now, are you meeting lots of new people? girls especially i would think going by what i remember about your photos. write soon love bri xxxx(05/10/2003)

hi just a quick note just to say that i havent forgotten you only the boys have been on the computer. write more tomorow. love phil xxxx(05/10/2003)

hi briony. im glad you had a nice day at thorp park.i went there about seven years ago with my american friends.the only one left in my family is my dad and he's 84.the decorating didn't go very well because i had to buy a wallpaper steamer. my watch is realy nice its a Raymond wail i like to buy nice things but can't allways afford them. i think i was feeling down in the dumps.i hope the court case went ok i was thinking about you.yes the jiveing is going very well i can put about ten moves together witch is not bad.and there are lots of girls and i think some of them like me but i don;t ask them out im to shy.anyway i feel that i would rather talk to you.its hard to believe that you can get close to somone just talking on a computer. have you got any family. and i think you will have lot of men writing to you now your photos are on your profile.write soon love phil xxxx(06/10/2003)

TOO SHY oh that is rich for someone who spends half his waking time bunny hopping between God knows how many women. Jesus I just don't know what they see in him, but then I don't think any of them stick around too long. He's actually rather boring; he can't seem to do anything by himself.

hi phil god how i wish i could just talk to you by voice. court has been hell i swear i don't know why some people have children when they just abuse them so much and destroy them for life. sometimes i need retail therapy and i think i might just pick up the children tomorrow from school and go into oxford and shop. I'm lucky i still have both my parents they are sixty two and sixty five. i have a big brother too but he lives in london and is a barrister so i don't get to see too much of him. we do try to catch up on family birthdays and christmas if we don't see each other for a while. we do often speak on the phone and he understands the court thing well. you mentioned you had a teacher friend. is she single and is there something special between the two of you? i'm sure you probably could overcome your shyness to ask one of the jive ladies out. i have had quite a few messages but i just reply with a thank you not a conversation like we have. write soon love briony xxxxx(06/10/2003)

hi briony you seemed qiite stressed over the court case.i wish i could do something to help. there are some realy shit ipeople in this world my boys mean every thing to me.when my ex left and my brother died three monthes later i was realy depressed and so was the boys.but kept each other going.no my teacher friend is married to my best friend.last night i went to jive it was a moulinrouge night there was people from allover the place. and lot of the women was dressed in sexy clothes. and there was some great dancing. it was a realy good night. im glad your not talking to other men because you might start egnoring me. im not talking to anybody else its suprising how many women just want sex.if you want my number you only have to ask.but i still like the friendship we have together ithink we get on realy well and i feel realy close toyou. write soon lots of love phil xxxx(07/10/2003)

Well we thought we were all best friends. My husband and Phil used to go clubbing when they were younger and were together when I met my husband. Phil started off by seeing another of my friends, but she got fed up with him very quickly. All he did then was keep going on and on about having sex with her. She wasn't ready and in the end she finished with him. He didn't like that, and I'm not being conceited or anything, but he did tell my man that it wasn't fair because he got the best one. That if I had seen him first, I would have fancied him instead of my guy. Um, so untrue, never in any universe or time.

After my friend dumped him he would pester my guy to go out with him all of the time. Weekends would come and he would be nagging him to go clubbing, that he had no one and once he even whined to me that I had taken his friend away from him. Luckily for me, my now husband told him straight that he was spending his time with me. Eventually he actually went out with another mate and met his first wife. Now, we were already engaged by then and our wedding date was set and planned. We didn't see so much of him then, thankfully, but when we did he would complain how his girlfriend kept complaining that we were getting married and they were not. Then according to him, one night he got completely off his face and proposed to her. Within a couple of weeks their wedding was set for just before ours.

We weren't so close over the years when he married his first wife and we have never really known why she left him, well I think I can guess now, if he did to her what he did to Maggie. Oh and what an ego, he's the one always after women for sex. He's got another one on the go now, from the jive class. He met her when he first started going and hopped straight into bed with her.

As for me being a teacher, well maybe he just doesn't really know what to call me. I mean I go into schools and help keep a check on their IT departments, and show the children and teachers various new programs, but I'm not a teacher.

hi is something wrong have i upset you in any way.you have not sent me a message back.please let me know if i have upset you. Phil (08/10/2003)

hello phil no you haven't upset me i have just been helping a friend who had a crisis. her baby came a month early and her husband was abroad working so the children and me have stayed at her house to look after her toddler. i just haven't had the time to write. I'm back home now and so is her husband so everything worked out alright.  
love brionyxxxx(09/10/2003)

hi briony I'm glad you are ok i thought i had upset you.you must be a good friend to have in a crisis. i will try and take some photos this weekend if i have time. i will get one of the boys to help me.are you doing anything exciting this weekend.i might go to jive on saturday night if i can find somewhere to go. it wont be long before i go to weymouth I'm realy looking foward to going. i should be a good dancer by then hopefully.ive even bought myself a jive video but nobody to practice with.i:m glad we are still friends write soon love phil xxxxx (10/10/2003)

hi phil, well so far it has been a very nice weekend. i took the children shopping and spent a fortune on them, i love doing that. i bought myself a new suit shoes and bag for work and some perfume and lingerie for out of work. we are going for dinner at my parents tomorrow, the children love visiting, they get spoilt and my parents garden is so big they have fun playing hide and seek. we may even stop over for the night. i can take them to school from there on monday. i will be able to have a few drinks with them if i do that, mum loves me to have some wine with her then she takes the children off and reads to them while i chat and have whisky with dad. monday shouldn't be too stressful as i only have to see two children then the rest of the day will be writing up the reports with a lunch meeting in between. i have decided to have my kitchen refitted as i am getting bored with it, i think it is too old fashioned now so i am going to spend monday evening looking through brochures to see what i want. i know my little girl will want to have her say as she loves to cook with me, well both of them do really and we usually end up getting in a right mess but we have loads of fun. I have also decided to go back into private practice, that way I can work from home and choose my cases. well phil hope you have a nice evening write soon lots of love briony xxxxx (11/10/2003)

hi briony,i think it is good to spend lots of money i think it makes you happy.what make of perfume do you like.i dont think i should ask about your lingerie although it would be nice.i never went to jive on saturday because all the venues was to far away so we went to oxford on sunday instead.and we are going to a autumn ball on friday in oxford at the same place it should be a good night.i hope you never got to drunk at your parents house it must be nice to have your sunday lunch cooked for you.i dont normally cook sunday dinner it is easier to go down the village to the pub.must go now briony ive got somebody coming around about a new mortgage.love talking to you lots of love phil xxxxxx(14/10/2003)

Notice the 'we' in that last message. I didn't point it out in 'Briony's' next message because I don't want to rile him just yet. But we know he was out with Shelley, that's the name of the woman from the jive classes, because he asked us if we wanted to go with them. We didn't.

don't you go to your best friends for dinner sometimes? i would have thought one of your jive ladies would cook you a sunday roast. i like tommy girl or l'air du temps and i will keep the lingerie secret. i have decided to have my kitchen redone in oak it's a wonderful wood and i am going to have a complete refit. i had a super surprise yesterday. it was my birthday and the children have obviously been talking to their father because they bought me what i have wanted for a long time, a horse. he's magnificent. a 16hh four year old grey gelding. the children have their own ponies and i have been meaning to get myself one but now i have him we can all go riding together. have you sorted your driveway out yet and the decorating,what colours are you going to choose? tell me what your favourites are, such as food drink and so on, it's the little things that help to get to know someone. sometimes spending money doesn't make me happy as it is something i have a lot of, i would rather have someone to love me. i expect you will be too busy to write over the weekend but try and write soon love briony xxxxxxxxxxxx (16/10/2003)

so when do i get that photo or do i have to dream your image to keep it fresh. love brionyx (17/10/2003)

hi briony just a quick message to wish you happybirthday .im going to jive tonight but i will write much more on saturday.have you an email address so i can send photos to i dont realy want to put them on my profile.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (17/10/2003)

you can email me at rainbowbirdstar@locus.co.uk  
love brionyxx (17/10/2003)

hi briony i only go to my friends for barbecues and not sunday lunch,i will be going there on sunday and i will get them to take my photos so you should get them on sunday.most of the jive ladies are married so i dont think there partner would be to happy.its a shame about the lingerie i will just have to imagine.your horse sounds realy nice just be careful that you dont fall of.i;m not getting on very well with the decorating, i only have the weekend to do things but i have to do the shopping and the house work,im not sure about the drive now i dont think that i can afford it before christmas.my favourite food is chinese food,how about you.my favourite drink is whisky bacardi and jd all with coke and not in the same glass.i do like drink but im not a big drinker it makes me tired.what drink do you like.if i bought a new car i think i would choose black red or silver,and i would like an aston marton they build them just down the road from me, i see them every day driving around.so the beatles was right briony money can't buy you love,but i know what you mean i haven't found love yet and it makes me miserable, but we will both find love one day you never know it could be on love @ locus. can you send me some photos if i give you my email adress its philjive @oly . com . must go now briony the boys want somthink to eat. write soon lots of love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxx (18/10/2003 )

thank you for the photos they are very nice, so serious in a couple of them. i have something to look at now.my favourite drink is red wine and whisky especially a mature malt. i don't really have a favourite food i like most things except marrow and pumpkin. i will sort some photos out but i haven't any recent ones at the moment, i tend to photograph the children mostly.i always buy sets when i buy lingerie and i bought a black silk set with italian lace, a deep red set in satin and an ivory set in silk. i'm so looking forward to christmas it's just a wonderful time in our home i especially like the preparation. the children and i will be baking mince pies and a christmas cake like we usually do. i'm not religious but we usually all go to the church for the christmas mass and my parents and brother come as well, it is sort of expected where we live. i love the aston martin especially the vanquish sometimes i think i should have got that instead of the porsche but i love my car and do not want to replace it. i love your concern about me riding my horse but i can assure you i am an experienced rider and haven't fallen since i was a child but thankyou anyway. i must go now my daughter is calling for me lots of love briony xxxxxxx (19/10/2003)

Oh I notice he hasn't told her the photos were taken on our sofa and in our back garden. But, hee hee I really am so naughty. You see he's always on the phone jabbering on to us about Briony. Of course I very subtly ask him stuff that I then turn around to make him fancy her even more. Like the lingerie stuff. It did not click that one conversation I got out of him was what he likes women to wear. Wow I'm clever. My husband finds it so amusing too; he wants to see him tumble as well. He's got so sick and tired of his whining over the years he thinks this is definitely the way to go to get back at him. Oh and my dearest hubby has told me another reason he wants to get some revenge, which I didn't know about. Phil saw him in town a very long time back and they were chatting about the children and so on. Phil then said something very derogatory about my lady bits, I won't go into detail, but my dearest wanted to rip his face off, only he didn't want to end up in gaol.

you haven't written since the photos have you been ill or something? what have you been up to this week? i had to take sapphire to the vet today he was chasing a wasp in the garden and it stung his paw, he was like a little baby meowing and wanting cuddles, he's ok now though. will you be jiving this weekend? try and write even if you are because on monday i am taking the children to euro disney and we will be away until friday so i won't be able to talk to you all week. the fitters are coming to do the kitchen whilst i am away so at least i will be away from the noise and mess. I'm going to have an early night tonight as i am really tired so i think a glass of wine, a book and your picture nestled on the pillow beside me. it makes me feel you are close. so goodnight my sweet please write soon love briony xxxx (23/10/2003)

hi briony sorry i haven't written ive had two of the boys,not very well and ive been tired and a bit down in the dumps.but your message has made me feel much happier. thanks brionyxxxxx i need an early night as well i will write to you more on saturday i will have more time then.im glad you liked my photos and they are so lucky lying beside you. and dont worry i will allways write to you. goodnight briony lots and lots of love phil xxxxxxx dont spill your wine on my photos xxxxxxxxxxxx (23/10/2003)

hi briony thanks for your last message it realy did cheer me up,ive had such a bad week.you are a realy good friend.hows sapphire i'm shore after you gave him a cuddle he would be fine i know that i would.i'm not being grumpy but i dont realy like christmas any more, because i spend most of christmas day on my own i untill the boys get back from there mums house. but maybe you can send me some of your nice mince pies to cheer me up.your lingerie sound very sexy they are my favourite colours and especially in silk very nice.i hope you have a great time at euro disney.it must be realy nice to come back and have your kitchin allfinished i wish i could do that, i do all my own work my self because i;m realy good at diy.i think that was realy sweet that my photos are on your pillow it made me feel so good.i hope you haven't got photos of stag man.i went to jive last night but i'm not going on monday next week i need to cut down i'm geting realy tired,and we go away soon to weymouth.please try and write before monday if you have time, if not have a great time love phil xxxxxxxxxx (25/10/2003)

We can't stop laughing. First off he is hopeless at DIY. He never actually finishes anything. He has bits of stuff lying all over his house where he's started one thing then moved onto something else. Second, and this is really why our sides are splitting, my husband has joined in and guess what? Yep he's stagman. Good to introduce a little competition don't you think.

why have you had a bad week what has happened and why are you so unhappy? i suppose christmas must be awful when you are alone do the boys go to their mother every year? i always have the children at christmas and if we are at home lawrence comes around to bring their presents. if we go to my parents he comes on christmas eve and the children have their presents then. sapphire is just fine now in fact he's curled up on my lap as i am writing. so you are wearing yourself out with all those jive ladies are you? you will have to give me your address if you want mincepies sent at christmas it will be a pleasure. try and cheer up you know, a good way to keep happy is to smile and say hello to at least one person every day outside of your family, smiles are catching you will get one back and it does help. well goodnight phil think of me and you will smile love briony xxx (25/10/2003)

hi briony just a quick not to say that I'm fine now, i just get a bit down because of my brother.i think i am wearing my self out with the jive but i don't think its the ladies.i will think of you and it does make me smile, have a nice time on monday and write to me when you get back; give mickey mouse and donald duck a big kiss from me love phil xxxx (26/10/2003)

just a quick note as i need to pack. i am glad you are more cheerful it must be awful to lose someone close. have a good week and be cheerful. i think i would rather give you a big kiss so check out my photo album love brionyxxxxxxx (27/10/2003)

just a quick note as we are about to leave, have a great week see you at the weekend love briony xxx(27/10/2003)

Phew, had to have a break from this, so that's why 'off to Disney for a week'. My husband and I just need a bit of time away from the laptop. It's great fun but we still need our time. We didn't realise it was going to be so intense. Well I suppose I'm just so good at making it all so real. But I'm sure most men would not fall for this so easily. I suppose someone who is so used to telling his own lies cannot easily distinguish fantasy with reality. Or, as I suspect, he's just so egotistical and arrogant he just believes all women fall for him.

just a quick not to say thankyou for that lovely kiss'' before you left.hope you have had a nice time and hope you have been thinking of me hard at work. i really have missed you not writing to me,i dont think i could imagine what it would be like if you stopped.love phil xxxxxxx (30/10/2003)

As suspected he's been on the phone this week asking to come round and visit because his Briony is away and can't chat to him. Actually it was funny. My lovely, amazing and incredibly intelligent husband spoke to him. He, with a bit of quick thinking told Phil that we had the week off and were going to be out each day spending time together. Phil did not like that. He got very huffy and like a petulant child told my husband we were deserting him when he was lonely, that we had been friends for years and needed to talk to someone because he was depressed. My husband told him to talk to Shelley, his girlfriend.

ahh lovely to be home. we have had a fantastic time but it was exhausting, i think i need a break to get over the holiday. i have missed you too, it's strange how used you get talking to a person. what has your week been like? good i hope. i have told the children a little about you, just that mummy has a special new friend that she talks to and that your name is phil. my daughter thinks it's great my son is too interested in his toys and too young to have an opinion of someone he hasn't met. the evenings were a bit lonely after the children were in bed, it's funny i don't get lonely at home, i spent a few evenings in the bar and met some people to talk to but they were all couples, the only singles were a few women but they were definitely lesbians and one even had the cheek to come on to me. it wasn't very nice, i can handle guys when they come on to me and they back off without a grudge but this woman would not accept i was straight and got a bit stroppy. i'm going to go and have a long soak in my tub now with a glass of wine and some soft music, the children have crashed out completely so i can have a quiet night. i have candles around my tub and i will lie back in the bubbles and candlelight and think of you. goodnight my sweet love briony xxxx(31/10/2003)

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hi briony just a quick note to say that i will write to you later to day,i need to go food shopping and the boys need some clothes.its really nice to have you back.lots of love phil xxxxx (01/11/2003

Just had to get that bit in about the lesbians because he is always rabbitting on to us how he would love to have it off with a couple of lesbian women. I think he watches too many movies.

hi briony glad you had a lovely holiday. i know what it's like to be tired from your holiday. when we went to disney in america with all the walking and i had to do all the driving i was exhausted when we got back. I'm glad i am your special friend i think you are my special friend too. well you must be very attractive because the men and women are after you, normally they leave you alone if they know you are straight. perhaps you needed me there to protect you. did you stay in a hotel at the resort? how did you get there did you drive in your nice porsche? i went to bicester village today to get the boys some clothes and i saw two porsche boxters there one a silver and one a black one. i thought yours might have been the silver one. i went to jive last night and i have learnt some new moves. don't forget i am away on friday morning and come back monday night so i won't be able to write as i don't have a lap top. if i had one i probably wouldn't be able to use it anyway as it takes me so long to write these messages. was your kitchen finished when you got back? i have just started my decorating but i didn't get on well because my friends came round.i have decided to change the mortgage so i can borrow some more money because i would never save it up to do work on the house because it's starting to get a bit shabby. i like the house to look nice even with three boys. your bathroom sounds really nice esepcially with candles round it and red wine \---------- i ran out of space on my message so i had to start another one. it makes me feel happy that you are thinking of me because i do think of you a lot and i am always reading your messages over again. i must go now briony it's taken a long time to write this and I'm getting a bit of a head ache because I'm so slow at finding the keys. love as always phil xxxxxxx(01/11/2003

Likes to keep the house nice, hmm don't think so. Neither of us are keen to visit him often because the kitchen is usually covered in grease and crumbs and the bathroom, well let's just say public loos, you get the picture. Of course his excuse is there are four males living there and as a single parent he doesn't have time. Tell that to all the other single parents out there who keep their homes clean and tidy. It's not like the boys are little, they are all teenagers.

i know there is a lot you don't know about me but i need to be careful but i would still hope that we were becoming closer. when i was away and i saw the couples together in the evening i thought about you holding my hand or kissing me. lying in my tub with the spa on and the wine and candles i felt myself blushing because i imagined you in the water with me. why are you always so just friendly, are you seeing someone? write soon love briony xxxxxxxpsi will try and sort out photosxxxxxxx (03/11/2003 )

So now it's time to start pushing him. Really want him to start falling for this fictional character and see where it takes us. Will play to his ego that's sure to get him going.

hi briony just a quick note because i need to get some sleep.sorry about my response with your bathtub i thought it was very very very sexy,we are getting really close to eachother, its because i dont want you to think i'm some kind of pervert. i just didn't want to upset you but now i know how you feel i will be more open, because i do think you are a very sexy woman.and i'm not seeing anyone because you are very special to me. and i would love to hold your hand and kiss you allover my sexy lady. i'm of to bed now briony and i will be thinking of you has i do most of the day, i would love some photos of you so i can take them to bed with me.please write back soon just to say that you are ok with me my very special sexy woman.lots of love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (03/11/2003 )

just a short message to say how lucky i am to know you briony and i have been thinking about you today, so i thought i would send you lot of kisses xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (04/11/2003)

Yeah right so what is Shelley then?

darling phil that was a lovely message. i am just writing to let you know i have received it and that i have some photos of my house, not yet any of me though i have only the children to take them and they are not very good at it. will write again soon love briony xxxxxxxxxps i will send the pics to your oly account xxxxxx (06/11/2003 )

Hi Briony, Thank you for the photo's of your house, it is really fantastic! It looks more like a hotel.I think I would i would be embaressed to send a picture of mine after seeing the size of yours. I think my house would fit in your bedroom. By the way, which bedroom is yours? I cant write to much tonight, because im a typical man and have ironing to do.(dont I just love ironing!)  
Im leaving at 8.30 tomorrow morning. So I will not be able to write till Tuesday evening.have a lovely weekend briony i will be thinking of you all the time my lovely sweet briony lots and lots of love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (06/11/2003 )

dearest phil i would love to see your house the size of the place doesn't matter it is the love within its walls that is important. my bedroom is to the back of the house so you cannot see it from the photos. have a wonderful weekend and i will write again when you get back. i will miss your words over the weekend i will think of you all of the time. goodnight my sweetest love briony xxxxxxxxx (06/11/2003 )

just wanted to say goodbye one more time love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxx ( 07/11/2003 )

hello darling i saw you had been on line this afternoon. how was your weekend? did you find any lovely women to smooch with? it has been a bit lonely without you to write to. i didn't do a lot, went riding with the children and relaxed most of the time, drank wine and watched movies. write soon i miss you love briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ( 10/11/2003 )

hello my lovely lady. i had a nice weekend lots of dancing but i didn't do any smooching,all my kisses are going to be saved for you.just short message briony i'm just so tired.ive missed you to i think about you all the time it must be love.i will write soon lots and lots of love paulxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxsweet dreamsxxxxxxxxxxx (10/11/2003 )

hello briony how are you? i had a lovely weekend but i'm still really tired. there was dance workshops in the day time and dancing at night, one of the days we went to a cove near Weymouth and went fof a pub lunch it was a really nice day. i think you are so sweet what you said about my house because your house is so nice. i am still in shock. what movies do you like? try not to get to lonely just think about me, because when i get lonely i think about you. we have booked up again to go to weymouth in march for the jive weekend. please write soon because I miss you love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(12/11/2003)

I bet they have booked too for another raunchy weekend. No wonder he's tired. As soon as he got back he was on the phone to us delightedly telling all. After the dance session he went back to his chalet with a couple, a single guy and two single women. They all decided to play strip jack naked. He was the first to lose his clothes (he has as much skill with cards as he has with a computer) anyway, the couple go back to their chalet and single guy and the two women end up naked and rolling around his chalet. He wakes up in the morning on the sofa with one of the women but isn't actually sure she is the one he had sex with. The other two are sprawled on the floor. He told us all this with such glee, he's actually proud of it. When I ask him about Shelley he just shrugs and says there's nothing serious between them. Yet he's told us she spends most of her time at his house, cooking and cleaning.

I really want to tell her what he's like but I don't know her well enough.

darling phil I'm glad you had a lovely weekend although it sounds exhausting. i really like action movies and thrillers and sometimes a really mushy romantic one too. do you like to read, it's one of my favourite relaxers. right now i am sitting in bed with my lap top. i have been writing reports but am now finished with work so i can devote my time to writing to you. try and guess what I am wearing........i couldn't keep you waiting too long. well think about this a silk thong and me wrapped in my fur throw. i am typing with just one hand as i imagine you stroking me because i am using my other hand to pretend it is you. i don't think i am making much sense thought of you arouse me too much. i can't write anymoretonight xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(12/11/2003)

Well now we know he likes it dirty and has absolutely no morals we can't resist throwing in a few sexy bits. It will be interesting to see how he responds. My husband was peeing himself as he sat with me writing that last message.

darling briony thankyou for your last message, it was so so sexy it was so sexy that i couldn't sleep' i was thinking about you all night. i would have loved tobe your other hand.thoughts of you arouse me to. you must try and send me some photos even if it is photos of your bed, because you are sending me crazy but in a nice way. i am going to print your last message and take it with me, so i can keep looking at it. must go now the boys want there tea. please write soon sweet lovely briony and thankyou for making me very happy.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(13/11/2003)

Yuk not sure what he's going to be doing when he's alone but I sure can imagine.

darling phil with your picture by my side on the pillow i feel like you are my hand. i was thinking today about how good you make me feel. keep my message close to your heart. what i would really like would be if you waited until you have some private time when your boys are not around and you could tell me what you would like me to do to you. we could arrange a time on here when we are both on line and we could both tell each other our intimate desires. i expect you will be jiving this weekend but maybe one night next week? that could be so sexy almost like you were with me. what i miss most about my marriage is sex as i am not one to go with other men, there has not been anyone since lawrence and to tell you the truth i am a little afraid, so at least this way i can get some satisfaction, although i know it's not quite the same. i am going to take a bath now and i will put your picture next to the tub and talk to you, then i will take you to bed and lay you by my side. write soon my darling yours briony xxxxxxxxxxxxx(13/11/2003)

Now we are playing the perfect game. He is so bound sure to want to do this and yes you may think I am a total bitch for setting him up, but try and put yourself in my shoes. Over the years we have seen how he has become a lying cheating scumbag. He does not and I mean DOES NOT think of anyone but himself. He uses women, thinks he's a sex God and completely irresistible to all women. I'm not sure he can even separate the truth from his lies, maybe that's why it has been so easy to fool him.

hello my sweet i invited you into a chat room but it didn't work. do you still want mince pies at christmas? if so please send me your address to post them although it won't be for a few weeks yet. write soon love briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxx(14/11/2003)

just a short message briony because I'm surrpose to be going to jive, but i dont know yet i think I've got some flu bug.most of the jive group at the weekend has the same thing.what i need is you to cum.and make me better.briony i will do anything to satisfy you because you meen so much to me. maybe i can buy you a sex toy and you can think that it's me.and you can send me some silk underwear that would be nice.i will write more at the weekend.love you has allways phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(14/11/2003)

hello briony just writing to say i'm not neglecting you i'm just not feeling very well, i think it's the flu.i just feel so fedup, ive got so much i need todo. i had a big glass of glenmorangie whisky last night and i slept like a baby.sorry about the chat room i didn't realise.i would love your mince pies, i will send you my address soon.my son is 19 tomorow so i must try and go into town and buy him a present, and i need to go food shopping, i just dont feel like it at the moment.what are you doing this weekend?still thinking about you all the time briony.lots of love my sweet xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(15/11/2003)

Ah poor little Phil. He hasn't got flu just a little sniffle but he so likes to play on it. Any time he sneezes he thinks he's got some awful disease, probably has but more likely some nasty little STI because de doesn't use condoms. See how he likes to tell us everything! No as far as he's concerned it's the woman's responsibility to use contraception, he's so dumb he doesn't actually think of anything other than not getting them pregnant. No wonder our darling Maggie was out of her mind. So wind him up good and proper I think.

oh you poor darling you really should see a doctor because you are so often ill, you may be anaemic or have some immune deficiency problem. i bet you don't eat properly either, you know fruit and vegetables. what did you get your son for his birthday? are you doing anything special with him? last night i had to go to a formal dinner with some colleagues, it was a bit boring but the meal was nice and it gave me the chance to dress up in some elegant clothes. next weekend i have to go to scotland to my cousin's wedding. they have hired a castle for the event so all the guests can stay, the children are really looking forward to it. i will be away on saturday and sunday. i have also taken the rest of my notice time as annual leave and have given the cleaning staff two weeks off so i can go over my house from top to bottom. i think it will be very therapeutic. i think i will then ask mum amd dad to have the children for a couple of days and go away on my own for some quiet time. a friend of mine owns a little cottage in cornwall in the middle of no where, i might go there. try to get better soon phil and remember that evening online together, you didn't say when so i am waiting love as always briony x xxxx xxx(16/11/2003)

hello briony thankyou for your lastmessagejust a short one back because I'm going to a friends funeral today.i will try and set a time to be online but its just difficult with the boys.may be you can send your cleaning staff to me because my house is a mess.i have seen a doctor but he just gives me some pills and tells me its depression, i just have so much to do sometimes and just find it difficult. I've just been through so much in the last two years,but I'll be fine. any way i must cheer up because i dont want you to stop writing to me, then i would be unhappy. i must go now briony the funeral is at 10. and i just want to say that i think about you allday untill i go to sleep, and when i go to sleep i dream about you, because you are still a dream to me but one day my dream might come true. love phil xxxx(17/11/2003)

All he ever wants is sympathy. Not a friend's funeral, he actually hardly knew the person. I mean yes going to any funeral is not nice but he's the sort of guy that preys on other people's feelings. He likes to be the centre of attention and throws a tantrum when he's not. I'm so glad Briony is fictional otherwise I would be pitying the woman.

dear dear phil please don't be sad. you need to take your mind off your depression and anti depressants only make it worse once you stop taking them. first set yourself a target like blitzing the house and a set time to finish it. then go at it with full force and don't let anything deter you even if you feel exhausted. when it's done and you see the result reward yourself. not with anything big or expensive but say time for yourself. take yourself out into the countryside for a brisk walk or pack the boys off to the cinema or somewhere and totally indulge yourself in a bath with scented oils and something luxurious to eat and drink. it's not only us women who can luxuriate in scented water. i think lately you have so thrown yourself into the jiving that everything else is getting on top of you so take time out. too often we tell ourselves that we are too busy to fit everything in when we are really becoming lethargic. that is why you need to set yourself goals and stick to them. sorry if i sound like the psychologist i guess i never leave my job at the office even though the office is now at home ha ha. go on laugh with me it will feel good i promise. i also think your physical illness is related to your emotional state, when did you see your doctor last? sometimes a GP is not what you need, try a health spa and detox, remember i mentioned eating properly. i am running out of characters so i will write again soon love as always briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(17/11/2003)

Mmmm sorry, got a bit angry at his self-pity. More of the real me came out in that last message because he really is a self centred arrogant pig.

hello briony thankyou ror your report,please send me the bill.you see i can have a laugh.and you must have the most expensive office i have ever seen. i did have really bad depression it was so bad that i didn't want to live. but that all in the past thank god.don't get me wrong briony because i am a very happy person with a great sence of humour.you are so right about the jive and everything else. and i will make sure i do what you say.my problem is i think rome was built in a day.i think i'm just a bit down because the jive weekend was really tireing, then i cought this flu bug and then my friend dies, but I'm sure by the weekend i'll be ok.is next thursday ok for our sexy chat, because the boys are staying at there mums house.my address for your lovely mince pies is 26 conegrove road loxham nr banbury oxon ox00 4tp .and no driving past my house to see me in the flesh.must go briony I've got to go into town to take a DVD back.lots of love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(18/11/2003)

So damn cock sure of himself. Depressed my arse. He cried for like about ten minutes when Cassie left him and about five after Maggie died. There really is something inexplicably wrong with him. I mean I know he's a totally self-centred bastard but he's also so cold. Everything about him is so superficial.

I'm glad the therapy worked and the bill is in the post as we speak. do you mean thursday 20th? 9pm ok with you just to be sure my little ones are tucked up. i just want to add that suicide never accomplishes anything it only leaves loved ones feeling hurt, angry and wondering so no matter how bad anything gets life is still far more precious. lots of love biony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(18/11/2003)

i thought you wanted my address for my mince pies not my bill.sorry briony i mean the 27th is that ok with you? the boys are staying at there mums that night.i'm of to bed now briony i need to get some sleep, i haven't been sleeping well because i keep coughing. i would take your photos with me but i dont seem to have them yet. hint hint.lots of love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(19/11/2003)

well phil it looks like you can be a bit sarcastic when you want. yes the 27th is fine. when we write you will have to keep refreshing your page to see the messages do you know how to do that? as i told you on saturday i will be going to scotland, i am taking the car down to heathrow and leaving it there so on sunday when we fly back mum can take the children to her house and i can carry on and drive down to cornwall. i will be back wednesday afternoon. i will try and sort photos out so you can have them by thursday but i cannot promise. i hope you are looking forward to it as much as i am. I'm not taking the laptop with me so i will write tomorrow and when i get back. i have to go now my son is calling me and it sounds like an emergency (you know a child emergency) so write soon lots of love briony xxxxxxxxxxxx(20/11/2003)

The Cornish trip is just a ploy to take a break from him. You know like Disneyland. I know I started this but sometimes his constant droning just gets on my nerves. So my husband and I are going to spend a couple of days just watching TV and stuff and not have to think of anything to say to him. And yes, he can be sarcastic sometimes, usually when he can't have his own way, but it's not like wit, it's just mostly plain rudeness. He of course he thinks it's intelligent banter. Only those of us who are intelligent and witty can see what a complete plank he is most of the time.

sorry briony i was trying to be funny not sarcastic.i dont know how to refresh the page but i will try and find out.i dont use the computer very much, so i am still very slow at finding the keys. you will have to be patient with me, but I'm shure you will.i am really looking forward to talking to you, but it would be even nicer if we was talking on the telephone.have a lovely weekend in scotland and you never know you might meet the man of your dreams.i will be going to jive tomorow night and hopefully decorating on saturday. i will miss you. lots of love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(20/11/2003)

Yep as expected straight on the phone to me. 'How do you refresh a page' Well couldn't resist a little fun so asked him what he wanted to do. He skipped over the real reason and just said Briony asked him to do it, so I went over it with him and made sure he knew what to do. After all couldn't have our fun spoiled by his lack of basic internet understanding.

hello my darling i have had a wonderful few days. the wedding was very hectic but cornwall was relaxing. i have walked and slept and read and enjoyed the fresh air. i have missed you though and its great to be back to write to you. i can't wait until tomorrow night have you found the refresh button? what have you been doing this week? sorry this is only a short message but i need to spend some time with the children. until tomorrow then my sweet yours briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(26/11/2003)

hello my sexy lady just a short message back, i need to go to tesco.i have missed you to. i have been decorating and jiveing.and a party on saturday night and i wanted you to be there with me so we could dance together.i will find out about the refresh button.speek tomorrow i can't wait either love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(26/11/2003)

We know exactly what party he went to. A bunch of his jive mates had a bash and he went with Shelley. And he's already found out how to refresh a page, I mean it took him a few attempts (he kept closing the page down) but he got there in the end.

I have been shopping today for specials for tonight. i have black satin and lace bra and thong and a luxury vibrator that i can imagine is you so i hope you are ready for me. love briony xxxxxxxxxx(27/11/2003)

So it begins. This is going to be a blast.

hello my darling well i am ready are you? this is so exciting i am sitting here with candles lit and a glass of wine and guess what i am wearing(27/11/2003)

phil the chat rooms do not work we will hve to just write to each other as normal so tell me what are you wearing and are you ready? (27/11/2003)

phil don't you want to do this? (27/11/2003)

Probably can't work out how to reply.

hi briony what are you wearing(27/11/2003)

phew i thought for a minute you were not there. i am wearing the bra and thong i told you about and the vibrator is nearby what do you want me to do? (27/11/2003)

Phew is the right word. We both thought this was not going to happen and yes we were both very disappointed but it looks like it's all good to go. So here we are my husband and I sitting with a cup of coffee waiting to see what he actually does for cyber sex.

sorry i didnt know wot to do i want you to pull your thong to one side and put your vibrator inside you(27/11/2003).

Doesn't believe in foreplay does he. Bet he's just the same in real life. Maggie just used to say that he didn't take very long and more often than not she didn't come at all. But I didn't like to say anything to her because I knew it would upset her. Thinking back, and we can all look back retrospectively, I should have seen the signs and at least tried to do something. I mean we have both known Phil for so many years, we should have worked out what he's really like. But in our defence, we didn't see that much of him when he was married to Cassie, and totally believed him when he told us why she left him. I suppose not particularly liking Cassie made it easier for us to believe him. Anyway on with the cyber sex, funny cyber sex isn't even real but even more so when the actual participant isn't a real person either.

ok but as i am doing that i want you to take off your clothes and stroke your penis so i can imagine the vibrator is you and you can imagine putting your penis in me as i do it(27/11/2003)

i have dripped a drop of wine on my breasts and am running the vibrator up and down my body as well as in and out you feel so wonderful, so sexy tell me what you are doing please(27/11/2003)

Just imagine the scene, us sitting cosied up with hot coffee and watching TV whilst writing as Briony and him stripped off at his computer desk getting himself horny.

ok then but i want you to get my penis realy hard then i will lick your pussy(27/11/2003)

i am rubbing my cock up and down it is getting nice and big just 4 you

i am stroking it i have dripped it with wine and now i have your penis in my mouth and i am licking the sides and the head. i can feel your wet tongue inside my thighs and around my clit but stop or i will come ad its too soon wha are yu doing now tell me in detail(27/11/2003)

Notice the little writing mistakes to make it look like she is totally absorbed in the sex.

i am sitting over you now going up and down i am stroking my breasts with one hand and writing with the other tell me where your hads are(27/11/2003)

God it takes him ages to write back. We have changed channel and have now opened a bottle of wine.

i am playing with my cock it is really wet i just wood lov 2 lick your pussy and fuck you from be hind

my hands are playing with your clit and i am licking you(27/11/2003)

This is getting funnier by the minute.

nowi am on my hands and knees and have you in me from behind keel down and move with me tell me how i feel and how hard you are

Best of it is he is probably doing just what I have told him. So now the picture changes to him on the floor stark naked in front of his computer trying to type and wank at the same time. Priceless

you feel so wet and very tight my cock is so hard your pussy is so juicy i love sex from be hind(27/11/2003)

can fee you right in me tell me when you are gong to come i want to come with you(27/11/2003)

Well lucky she's not really waiting. It took quite a while for his reply. We chatted about our day, I had a particularly inexperienced older teacher who kept waving the mouse about in the air and couldn't quite get the hang of keeping it on the pad. My husband thought that was funny.

i can cum now briony i am so wet i hope you are as well i want to lick you you sexy lady(27/11/2003)

yes yes your in me deep i am coming come with me all over me wet(27/11/2003)

briony i wood luv to cum allover you and lick your juicy wet pussy untill you cum(27/11/2003)

Mmm I'm sure that's exactly what he would like to do. So best give him some flowery praise.

oh phil you were wonderful it was just like you were reallly here with me how was i for you was it good did i satisfy you tell me please my love(27/11/2003)

are you ok briony i hope you have cum(27/11/2003)

briony it was great i am glad it was good for you i would have loved to be your vibrator or even your thong just to be close to you. i just wish i was there with you xxxxx(27/11/2003)

Whoops, just needed to pee, but back now. Not a pretty thought but damn funny. Thought about ringing him about something irrelevant, but we decided we didn't actually want a blow by blow, (no pun intended) account of his self satisfaction which I'm sure he would have willingly divulged.

I'm feeling really terrific so satisfied, so warm and comfortable and relaxed all glowing all over how about you that was some orgasm i haven't come like that in ages in fact i don't think ever(27/11/2003)

yes that would have been wonderful well perhaps in the not too distant future it will happen please just be patient with me i have never had sex with anyone other than lawrence and i am a little afraid. i know i have been very forward tonight but over the net is different and you are the only one i have ever done this with(27/11/2003)

i feel really happy because i have satisfied you i think what you said about your orgasm was really sexy. i bet you thong was really wet(27/11/2003)

yes it was did you take all your clothes off and did you come everywhere(27/11/2003)

briony dont worry i will be patient you are worth waiting for. and this is the firt time foe me i was very nervous thankyou love phil xxxxxxxxxxx(27/11/2003)

yes i did cum but i was in my hand(27/11/2003)

Retch retch, a bit too graphic, not sure how we are going to be able to keep a straight face when we do see him though.

i m so tired know but in a relaxed way so i am going to bed to curl up with you so i will say a sweet goodnight my darling i will talk to you tomorrow yours always briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxx(27/11/2003)

i must be tired you bad girl. goodnight briony sweet dreams lots of love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(27/11/2003)

good morning my sweet lover how are you i have been on a cloud all morning. i slept really well all warm and satisfied how about? i was very hungry when i got up this morning and when i turned over and saw you on the pillow i got all horny again so i held you and used the vibrator it was lovely. i am going for a walk now and this afternoon i am going to do some christmas shopping. next week i have appointments most days so i will be very busy but hopefully i will be able to help some children feel better before the holidays. write soon darling phil yours briony xxxxxxxxx(28/11/2003)

Had to wind him up a bit today, keep the whole thing going and make him believe he really has scored well and truly.

briony you will wear that vibrator out if you are not careful.i am glad i made you happy, i think it's really sexy. i would love to be your vibrator.where do you hide your vibrator so that the cleaners don't find it? i will write more at the weekend I'm going to jive tonight so i haven't got much time. i got all horny this morrning i was thinking of you in your silk thong with your toy inside you. must go now i will write soon my lovely sexy horny sweet briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(28/11/2003)

Not much time! He's just spent twenty minutes on the phone to us telling us how much she's into him. And as predicted, couldn't wait to tell us about his new experience of having cyber sex. He told us all about her vibrator how she imagined it was him. We were preparing dinner at the time so had the phone on speaker. Apart from the grossness of it we were still in fits of laughter. Imagine this, the two of us peeling vegetables, especially the carrots, doubled over trying to laugh without making a sound, whilst he's going into detail about Briony and her vibrator. My husband, choking back a giggle, asked him what he was doing at the time, and he proudly announced that he was having a wank. If he hadn't finished the conversation to go jiving, I don't think we could have held off laughing out loud.

hello my special lady just a short message because I'm very tired. i tryed to write earlier but i couldn't sign on to my locus page. I'm going to jive tomorrow night but i will try and write soon. hope you have had a good weekend.ive been thinking about you all the time.please write soon goodnight briony sweet dream. love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxx(30/11/2003)

# Month 4

**So begins another month of fun especially as Christmas is coming up**.

hello my sweet i have had a busy weekend, mum and dad came to dinner on sunday and stayed for the evening. i too have thought about you all of the time i even had trouble concentrating today on one of my patients, a poor little lad who is hearing voices and is very damaged, he is going to take a great deal of work. you can look forward to the mince pies very soon as we will be cooking in the next couple of weeks i hope they haven't become over rated and you're disappointed when you eat them. i must go now and start the children's evening meal. write back soon love briony.xxxxxxxxx(01/12/2003)

Mmm no reply and no phone call, wonder what he's up to.

hello phil i thought maybe you would have written but sadly no message. i hope you haven't gone off me now because i think about you all of the time please write soon love briony xxxxxxxxxx(02/12/2003)

briony you must know by now that i would never go off you,i still think about you all of the time, it's making me feal randy just writting to you. it's because on monday i went to jive and last night the mortgage man was here so i didn't have time to write,but i know what it is like when you are waiting for a reply sorry briony xxxxxx i cant remember what your last message said and i dont know how to save this one to have a look, i think you said about the mince pies but i cant remember what you said, but when i do get them i will think of you with your hand down inside your silk thong so i will eat them really slow.did you have a nice weekend? oh yes you said you was going christmas shopping did you buy lots of nice things? i think i will go this weekend because i allways leave it to the last minute i hate christmas shopping i never know what to buy.maybe i wil buy some mistletoe so i can give you a big kiss xxx.please write soon yours forever phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(03/12/2003)

**Now that thought has got to be the most nauseating of all. Almost enough to put me off mince pies forever. More so because I can bet he will have his hand down his pants at the same time, sort of like a mini version of the movie American Pie. Maybe I should make him a large pie instead of little ones**. **And the only reason he doesn't like Christmas shopping is because he hates spending money on anyone but himself.** **Usually he just buys his children clothes, which he should buy all year round not just at Christmas.**

dearest darling phil it was so lovely to get your message especially today because it is our anniversary, we have been writing now for three whole months can you believe that? i did get most of the presents but i still have more to get for the children. the christmas trees are being delivered on friday and we will dress them friday evening, we put one in the entrance hall and the other in the main lounge. try and enjoy christmas shopping i love buying the presents but i know what you mean about not knowing what to buy. do you think out presents first or buy when you see something? it must be difficult having just boys girls are much easier but i get stuck on family presents they are always hard. i have to go to a masquerade ball this saturday it's usually fun as the children can come too, one of my parents' friends organises it each year and we all end up doing the conga around the village where they live. what are you doing this weekend are you going to jive? i must go now i have a patient at 10 so write soon all my love briony xxxxxxxxxx ps happy anniversaryxxxxxxxx(04/12/2003)

hello sweet briony i didn't know it is our anniversary, it doesn't seem possible happy anniversary , i will try to write to you every day but sometimes it will be a short message. just to show you how much you mean to me.it would have been my brothers birthday today so I'm going over to the grave, and he died two years ago on the 2nd december, two days before his 50th birthday. I'm going to jive friday night.i think i will buy the boys clothes for christmas and maybe some computor games.i will write more on saturday.happy anniversary briony and i hope we dont get bored with each other but i dont think we will do you? all my love to you phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(04/12/2003)

No he wouldn't have a clue about special dates, (more about that later) and he would have to be very careful not to get them mixed up with his other women. There's no chance he will get bored with Briony though because he thinks she's loaded and that's something Phil likes very much.

hello briony, i can't stop thinking about you so i thought i would send you lots of kisses xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxx(05/12/2003)

That little message was a direct result of a frantic phone call. He got himself into a state about the getting bored bit. So he rang us up and gabbled that he might have blown it with Briony by suggesting getting bored. Of course we know that he won't and definitely that she won't. So, I tell him to calm down and send her a little sweet message, hence all the kisses.

i know i won't get bored with you. lots of kisses and love as i am just off to bed vibrator and all. i will write tomorrow yours briony xxxxxxxx(05/12/2003)

A little teasing to keep him on his toes. He's always ranting about her vibrator and how much she uses it because of him. You really would have thought that he would catch on that something about all this does not sit right. But no, he is so up himself he believes all of it.

good morning briony hope you and your vibrator are ok? I'm goinr shopping know i will write more later love phil xxxxxxxxx(06/12/2003)

Time to up the ante I think.

just sneaked into the study to say i love you xx (06/12/2003)

briony that was really sweet what you said it made me cry,well all i know is that i think about you all the time.i will write more later. lots of love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(07/12/203)

Oh boy, hook line and sinker, or should I say netted, or better still internetted ha ha. And he did actually cry. He came right round to our house because he thought the news warranted more than a phone call. Sat on the sofa and blurted out that she loved him, tears dripping down his cheeks. I patted him on the back and told him we were very happy for him, trying not to laugh and show anger at the same time because he has forgotten all about Maggie. I never mention Maggie to him anymore because I think I would probably lose my temper and ruin the entire scam. So I bite my tongue and button up. I know my hubby knows how much it bothers me and he's always there to prop me up when I get down and remind me that we are getting back at him in a little way.

hello briony I'm still in a state of shock after what you said,it made me feal so happy and i think i love you because i cant stop thinking about you.did you have a nice evening last night at the ball?i can just see you doing the conga i bet you looked really sexy.i went to my friends house at Brackenley it was there daughters birthday.it was boring really just lots of kids runing around.i have just been into town to rent a dvd for me and the boys.its called what women want, so it might give me some idea. I'm jiving tomorrow night but i will still send you a short message.the boys have got the dvd starting so i must go now briony sweet dreams my love xxxxxxxxxxxx phil xxxxxxxxxxxx(07/12/2003)

Oh that takes the biscuit. What an absolute evil, lying prick and that is putting it mildly. My husband used a lot stronger choice words than me. Phil was ecstatic when we invited him and his children to the party. There were other adults there too and he was quite happy drinking and dancing with everyone. Not once did he stand to the side looking like he wanted to be somewhere else. Now I can see how he dupes the women in his life. His false front is very convincing. And now the true Phil is showing well and truly to us because he thinks he's talking to Briony. So, more ammunition for us. Just goes to show that he really has no scruples and only thinks about himself. So going to really give it to him now, all flattery and love punch.

the party was very good i feel all warm inside thinking you might love me too. it's amazing how i can feel this way but i feel as if i know you really well. i suppose it's a bit like being blind you can get to know and feel about someone just by what they say to you. i imagine you are a very loyal and loving man. I'm sorry you did not enjoy yourself at your friend's party why did you stay if you did not like it? did you not know it was a children's party? i have seen the movie it was really very funny but I'm not sure any man can ever know what a woman wants because most of the time we don't know either. i do know that i want you though i even get myself dressed up and made up in the evenings when the children are in bed and sit with your photo, it makes it feel like you are with me. i have a photo next to the pc with me and i talk out what i am writing to you. i talk about you to my close friends as if we are a couple it's cosy. write again soon your loved one briony xxxxxxxxxx(08/12/2003)

well i think when you talk to someone for three months you do get to know someone very well,we have told each other lots of things,so maybe this is a good way to meet and fall in love because people do fall in love on the internet.and about five months ago i couldn't even use a computer.but I'm really glad i bought one.did you tell your friends how we met and if you did what did they say? you are right about women not knowing what they want,i can never understand women.when I'm at jive the women who have been dancing for five or six years would never ask me to dance but when I'm really good i won't ask them.but I'm never short of dance partners so i don't mind.briony you know you said that you wanted me it just worries me a little that if oneday we meet you might not like me does that worry you a little? when you get dressed up do you wear your silk thong? I'm glad that i have made you happy it makes me feel good inside.i wiil have to go know briony because i haven't had my dinner yet. write soon all my love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxx(09/12/2003)

So more differing tales. He tells us that all the women at jive are falling over themselves to dance with him because he's getting so good. Shelley is practically living with him, at least she does all his cleaning and washing, but somehow he still manages to not let her stay over all the time. Some excuse about needing time with his children when most of his time he sits watching television or writing to Briony. One thing he's told us, he's getting bored with Shelley and wants to dump her because he's so in love with Briony. He was quite clear that Shelley could not compete with a millionairess. Ruthless huh?

dearest phil i have told my close friends all about you and how we met, they are not really surprised and give me only good wishes because most of my life men have tried to take up with me because of my looks and figure, so it is very nice to meet someone who feels about me the way you do because of who i am. why do you not answer my questions that i ask you? i only hope the dance partners are just that. most of my undies are either silk or satin and most are thongs so yes i do wear them when i get dressed up for you and i take them off very slowly in front of your picture and close my eyes and pretend you are with me, of course the vibrator comes out then. i have no worries about the day we meet i am confident that we will just slip into a conversation. i am looking forward to that day and maybe it will not be too far into the new year. i think our relationship will flow from what we have now, no awkwardness or shyness just love. trust me phil it will work. write soon your lover briony. Xxxxxxxxxx(10/12/2003)

Sometimes it is very hard to reply to him and pretend to be so in love when most of the time I just want to punch him in the face. But the end result will be worth it. We have a plan now that we hope will work and be like a punch in the gut. Something that will really knock some of that cockiness out of him.

sent you a message last night but it's not in your sent messages, so i will start again. I do trust you briony because i love you and you mean so much to me.iv'e been getting funny feelings in my stomach and thought it was because i had been doing lots of situps,but i know it's not the situps itsbecause I'm in love.i was driving to work today and they was playing a sexy love song on the radio, and i thought of you and it made me go all warm inside.sorry i didn't answer your questions,i did know it was a childrens party because it was my son that got invited but i told my friend that i would stay till the end.i am a very loyal and loving man and i am a very nice person,so you are a very lucky lady.and i am a very very lucky and happy man.the dance partners are just that i have got the woman that i want and thats you.and i know that you live in a big house and you have a nice car, and i don't have to be clever to know that you are very rich, but that doesn't bother me because i wouldn't care if you lived in a council house or a caravan, all i know is that you mean so much to me,but i want you to know that I'm not rich and i hops that doesn't bother you? i know that i will enjoy this christmas knowing that i will meet the only woman that i have ever loved in the new year.please write back soon your lover phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx love you(11/12/2003)

Oh the way he describes his feelings, so romantic, 'funny feelings in the stomach' and even then he has to try and big himself up, dropping into the message about doing sit-ups. He's about as sporty or physical as a wet sponge. He simply cannot stick at anything. I expect the jive will go out the window before long.

phil i am so glad that you are going to enjoy christmas and of course it doesn't matter that you are not rich. i have told you before money is not the be all and end all love is and we have that and that is so special. i think we should have a song that is just ours, what do you think it should be? i am really looking forward to touching you and i imagine you're all toned up and muscular if you have been exercising. i have made your mincepies today and i will send them tomorrow so be on the look out for a parcel. must go now the children need their baths. write soon yours as always briony xxxxxxxxxxxx(11/12/2003)

Have to keep up the flattery and love language. Now the mince pies. I made them and then carefully wrapped them in tissue paper and boxed them up in a beautiful gift box. Then we went to a post office well out of our area and sent them to him. Clever don't you think?

hello my princess how are today? do you still love me? i have never been so excited over eating mincepies in all my life.i am really looking forward to touching and kissing you.i have been thinking about a song today, how about love is all around, by wet wet wet. what do you think? i am quite toned up but dont expect arnold schwarzenegger. i got the spelling from a dvd because my spelling is terrible. I'm jiving tonight so just a short message. please write back soon love your sexy man xxxxxxxxxxxxx(12/12/2003)

No not Arnold Schwarzenegger he thinks he's more like Brad Pitt or Ben Affleck. And the song, well he had to ring me up and ask which song he should choose. We just happened to be watching Four Weddings at the time so I opted for that one.

dearest phil of course i still love you i don't slip in and out of love willy nilly. how are you this morning not too tired from jiving i hope? i don't expect anything other than what i have seen on your photo so don't be worried. your pies are in the post as i write you may even get them today. i am taking the children into the city today to see santa they will love that and we will probably end up in pizza hut or mcds have a very nice day all mylove and kisses briony xxxxxxxx(13/12/2003)

Well we know he does slip in and out of love, except I wouldn't call it love, just egotism.

I'm not religeous but i think you have been sent to me from god, you are such a lovely woman. I'm fine thanks but i am tired.we done a new move at jive it is really sexy.the pies have arrived thakyou they are so fresh that they are still warm.the only problem is i don't want to eat them.what did you think to the song?i am going to the works christmas party tonight i wish you was coming with me.i hope you have a nice day with the children. and is it the real santa? don't eat to many pizza's i don't want you getting to fat.i will write again tomorrow.all my love and lots more phil xxxxxxxxxxx(13/12/2003)

See what I mean. He's just the most obnoxious man on the planet. Don't get fat! That's what he used to say to Maggie all of the time. Only he would order take out pizza or Chinese, stuff himself but tell her not to eat too much because he didn't want her to get fat. I really am surprised that she managed to avoid getting an eating disorder. Maybe she would have eventually, something we will never know. His poor children only get to eat ready meals or packaged food. I don't know a lot about their mother or why she let him have custody, I think someone else we know once said she didn't want boys, she's got a girl with her partner now. But you would think one of them would be concerned about their upbringing. They are not neglected or abused, nothing like that, but they don't get a great deal of attention, like talking and doing stuff as a family. A bit dysfunctional I suppose. As for the song, what I really wanted to suggest was Carly Simon's 'Your So Vain' so much more appropriate, but hey, I need to keep him sweet.

we are obviously on the same wave length as i was thinking of that song too, it's a very good idea. you have to eat the pies because i want you to taste what i have handled. don't worry about my figure i can eat pretty much what i like without it affecting me. no it's not the real santa but i might take the children to lapland next year you could come too that would be wonderful. have a great time at the party i hope you don't get bored at this one , must go as we are just going out, write tomorrow your love brionyxxxxxxxxxxxxx(13/12/2003)

good morrning briony i couldn't sleep so i thought i would send you some kisses.this is what you are doing to me.write more later phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(14/12/2003)

ok then so that can be our song,have you got the cd? i have eaten two of your mince pies and I'm still alive.only joking i just felt that you was with me it was really sexy.i would love to go with you to lapland,but i would go anywhere with you.one of my jive friends has just been and they lost her luggage so she wasn't very happy.i had a nice time last night lots of drinking and dancing,i even danced with the girl singer with the band dont worry she was married.what did you do last night? did you see santa yesterday i hope you didn't sit on his lap? because i will get jealous.i'm applying for another job with suburu world rally team they are in banbury i worked there two years ago i was really stupid leaving.how is your job know? i want to buy you somthing for christmas but i dont know your address so i will give it to you when we meet is that ok with you? must go I'm putting the christmas tree up with the boys write soon briony all my love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxx(14/12/2003)

Yep that sums him up, he gets jealous but rolls around with all and anyone. Now the works do. What can I say? As usual he comes round and wants to have a few drinks and tell us all about it. Of course we don't refuse, could be good info for later. Anyway after a couple of glasses of red he spills all. The singer is married and he did dance with her, well dance is not really the right word, he held her hand doing the Okey Cokey, tried to get her number too. He says she was about to give it to him but the song ended and she had to get back to the stage. Umm don't think so. But there were a few other women whose numbers he did collect, some of them are married, so just as bad as him, and one he took home to his bed. And he's arranged a date with another of them the heel. Hope the husbands find out and get in his face.

darling phil yes i do have the cd. I'm so glad you are getting ready for christmas i was worried for a while that you would be miserable over christmas. a present is a wonderful thought but honestly i don't need presents, when we meet that will be enough. so will you be working on the development of better engines or aerodynamics if you get this job? my work is going very well now much better now i am not tied to the county. i am able to support my patients better this way. sorry to hear about your friend's luggage that must have been a nuisance. we saw santa and no i didn't sit on his lap, the children were exhausted when we got home and later in the evening i soaked in my tub with your picture close by, relaxed in front of the tv for a while then went to bed with you and the vibrator. what did you do in bed after your party? I'm glad you enjoyed the mincepies it's lovely making something and knowing it has given pleasure. I'm going to get some lunch now i have a full appointment list this afternoon. write soon yours as always briony

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Mmm wonder what answer if any he will give about after the party. Actually I sat on Santa's lap, but then I am married to that particular Santa. Explanation? Only that we went to a Christmas party with a Santa theme, so all the men and women in Santa suits. I must say it was a bit loud, all that red, not the music.

darling briony thanks for your message i get really miserable when i look on locus and there is no message from you.i still can't believe that i can feel this way over someone that i have never seen, there are so many good looking women at jive but they don't mean anything to me. I'm going to jive tonight but i will write more tomorow. lots of love and kisses phil xxxxxxxxxxxx(15/12/2003)

Yes and he tries to de-knicker each and every one of them from what he tells us. In fact the jive club really is just an excuse to hook up with more women.

good morning my darling don't be down i will always write to you. I'm glad you have no interest in anyone else because i am so excited that our relationship is now so close. i can't get you out of my mind. i spoke to peter last night and i told him about you he was pleased for me but has told me to be cautious. i have explained that i have been and that we will be meeting in the new year. i know i will be completely safe with you i feel like i have known you for ever. i don't want to tell my parents yet though, i want to keep that until we have met. i have an appointment in 15 mins so am going to grab a quick coffee. i will write again tonight, love you briony xxxxxxxx (16/12/2003)

Reeling him in now. If he thinks her family approve he will definitely believe he is well in. Now, he doesn't ring us or call round so much. Usual pattern emerging. He thinks he's onto something that will place him in a very good position, especially financially. He's expressed several times that he will be set up for life with this one. Well that just means the fall will be even harder, because our plan is taking on good shape and he will fall.

darling briony I'm glad you told peter that you would be completley safe, because you will be you could even leave your children with me and they would be fine.i wouldn't hurt anyone.but i know what he means there are some strang people in this world.i will make the most of christmas but i still get upset over my brother, he was a lovely person.thankyou for worrying but ill be ok.if i get the job at subaru i will be working on the front susspension.i thought your job would be ok because you are a clever girl.i wish you wouldn't keep telling me about your vibrator because it makes me randy but its nice.when i went to bed after the party i fell asleep because i was drunk.do you use your vibrator everynight? and you still havent told me where you keep it when it's not i action.(16/12/2003)

sorry i pressed the send key.i have eaten the last two mince pies last night before i went to jive.i need to do some jobs know i will write again tomorow.and i love you phil xxxxxxxxx(16/12/2003)

just some more kisses and to say sweet dreams xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(16/12/2003)

Actually that's true. He wouldn't hurt a fly, well physically that is. Only because he's too much of a coward. I remember once he had a proper bruised nose, he tells everyone that his dog bit him, but recently we found out that some woman's husband found him in bed with her. Phil up and runs trying to get his clothes on and trips over his jeans and sprawls over on the back garden patio face first. The husband, even though extremely angry, can't bring himself to thump him because Phil's curled into a ball holding his shirt to his bleeding nose and begging him not to mash his face. The person who told us, heard it from her husband after he heard it from a bloke who briefly worked with Phil. The bloke was some sort of sub-contractor and spookily knew the man whose wife Phil had slept with, so Phil couldn't tell him the dog story because he knew already what he had done. But none of us got to know about it at the time because none of us knew any of these people. It was only recently that we saw our friend and she told us the bloke had again done a job with her husband and they got chatting and it came out.

Oh and I expect he did eventually fall asleep after the party, but only after the sex he had with the woman he took home.

darling phil just a quick note to say goodnight and sleep well. i am very tired tonight it's been a hectic day, tell you all about it tomorrow. all my love briony xxxxxxx(16/12/2003)

good morning my darling i hope you slept well i have a special leather for the vibrator and no i don't use it every night but it gets plenty of use. i enjoy the thought of it turning you on what do you do when it does that. i told you i had a hectic day yesterday. i had appointments all morning and was just planning on going out after lunch to buy more presents when two of my friends turned up to surprise me. we had a silly afternoon chatting and then they stayed for dinner. they are both divorced and have some wicked stories about some of the guys they have been out with. corrina told us about this guy she met in london a real smoothie who turned out to be married with two mistresses and a boyfriend. she gave him the heaveho after letting him take her to an expensive restaurant, nightclub and pay for her taxi back to oxford. i don't think he will be ringing her. we spent most of the evening in fits of giggles. I'm going out for a stroll round the garden now with a mug of coffee for some fresh air before my next appointment at 11.15 so enjoy your day darling love you so much briony xxxxxxxxxxxx(17/12/2003)

Just a little dig at infidelity to see how he will react. And of course another little teaser regarding the vibrator. I know exactly what he does whenever she mentions it. Don't want to think about it mind, he's been a bit graphic when chatting about it to my man. But I have to laugh at the picture it conjures up, you know him getting all horny and pleasuring himself over a completely fake person. You can just see him on one of those telephone hot chat numbers doing the same thing.

darling briony yes it does really turn me on when you talk about your vibrator. i think it's because the thought of where it's going into.i think you can guess what i do when it turns me on. I'm turned on now just writing to you.the guy that your friend met sounds like a right pillock.i dont think I'm a smoothie and i dont fancy men, i just fancy you.i will have to buy you some coffee for christmas because you are allways drinking it.or maybe i will get you a new vibrator or can you wait untill we meet?i bought terminator 3 today to watch with the boys tonight so i will have to go. and i need to do somthing else before i put the dvd on.i know one thing i will never need viagra while I'm with you.i love you and i want you so much phil xxxxxxxxxx(17/12/2003)

Hypocritical bastard and yuk at the same time.

you sexy beast enjoy the movie it's great write tomorrow love briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxx(17/12/2003)

mornin briony i am a sexy beast and I'm all yours xxxxxxxxxxx(18/12/2003)

Oh so funny. Sexy beast and Phil are definitely not two phrases that ever go together.

hello briony it's your sexy beast here.just a quick note because i need to go out for a few hours, i will try and write later tonight if i don't get time i will write tomorow.love you more each day phil xxxxxxxxxxxxx(18/12/2003)

Know exactly where he's going tonight. After the message he sent to Briony hubby gave him a call to make out we were thinking of going round for a Christmas drink. Phil obligingly told him he had a dinner date with a woman from jive.

it's been a busy day so tonight i am going to relax and have a bottle of wine then an early night. the children are getting very excited about christmas now and wake me up quite early. still they are worth every minute. it's been so beautiful outside these past few days with the frost i try to get outside as often as possible. i do like my coffee during the day it helps me concentrate and think especially when writing up my notes. do you like coffee? i usually have coffee after dinner in the evening as well. I'm going now to read to the children so write again tomorrow yours lovingly briony xxxxxxxxxxx(18/12/2003)

darling broiny i've had a really busy day i have just got back from food shopping.and I'm tired and stressed.have you had a nice day?i was only winding you up about the coffee, yes i drink lots of coffee i drink it black and it has to be carte noire. how about you? briony has much as i love you i will have to go I'm falling asleep i promise i will write a lot more tomorow love you loads phil xxxxxxxxxxxx(19/12/2003)

Ha ha we told him about Carte Noir. He only has supermarket coffee at his house and when we drink instant we usually get Carte Noir because it tastes good. Phil wouldn't know decent coffee from a puddle of water, but as you see he has to live his life through other people. He is just not capable of making his own choices. He always wants what someone else has. And the only time he had black coffee was one day we were there and he wasn't going to make any because he didn't have any milk. But we drink it black all of the time so we get him to make some for us and just to keep up with us he had his black too. Should've seen his face when he drank it, don't think he's ever had it black again. But of course he thinks it makes him sound all sophisticated to Briony saying he does.

dearest darling phil why are you so stressed? i don't think i know that particular coffee, is it a type of bean? i usually buy the colombian beans and grind them myself. how come you didn't go to jive tonight i thought you went every friday. i have some friends coming round in a few minutes for drinks so i must go now yours as always love briony xxxxxxxxxxx(19/12/2003)

Thought I would throw in the little bit about coffee and see what he comes up with.

briony you made me laugh carte noire is out of a jar.but i do like ground coffee but i haven't got a grinder.i was stressed because a man driver hit my car on a roundabout on he said it was my falt and started shouting at me but it wasn;t my falt so i started shouting back, we was close to having a punch up but he backed away.i never went to jive last night because it was the last one with that jive group before xmas but i am going to daventry on monday and oxford just after xmas.did you have a nice time with your friends yesterday? they are so lucky because i have never seen you.i must go my dad is here and he wants a cup of tea speek soon love phil xxxxxxxxxxx(20/12/2003)

Well we got a frantic phone call after he hit the car on the roundabout, which incidentally was his fault as he didn't give way. The other guy came close to thumping him but as usual Phil cowed away from the confrontation. He just won't take responsibility for his actions.

darling phil i hope you didn't get hurt.this will have to be a short message, I'm laid up with the flu and mum's here looking after the children and me and i have been told I'm not allowed near a computer for anything. so i have to go and put the lap top away before she comes up. love you briony xxxxxxxx(22/12/2003)

Really really need a break from this, so Briony has the flu. I mean Christmas is just a couple of days away and I need to give my own family the attention. So we both decided that we would leave alone for a bit. Such bliss not having to suck up to him. I know we started this and kept it going and the end will be glorious, but every now and then his slimy chat gets a bit too much. So just a little internet dating holiday.

sweet darling briony i wish i was with you to give you a great big kiss and a cuddle.but i bet you still look lovely even if you have got the flu.and leave that vibrator alone untill you get better.i was getting worried because you hadn't sent me a message, and then i get thinking that something could have happend to you and that i would never see you.no i never got hurt in the car just a big scratch on the side. don't worry about writing back has long has i know that you are ok, but if you can send me a few kisses that would be nice maybe when your mum is making you a cup of coffee.i will write again tomorow get well soon because i can't stop thinking about you i love you so much phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(22/12/2003)

good morning briony get well soon love you phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(23/12/2003)

darling briony i hope you are feeling a little better? love you phil xxxxxxxxxx(23/12/2003)

goodnight briony sweet dreams love you phil xxxxxxxxxxx(23/12/2003)

good morning darling. thankyou for your messages. i am a little better. i am writing because mum has taken the children to her house with dad to get all the christmas things. we were supposed to go there this year but mum won't have me travelling at all. she gets a bit paranoid about the flu because when she was a child she lost a brother to the flu and though she knows she's not being very rational she still panics. anyway they have gone to bring christmas to me and to let everyone know. so i will not have to do a thing just enjoy the day. there will be mum and dad, peter, lawrence now it's here and both sets of my grandparents who are 85, 87, 89 and 90. i won't be able to write again until boxing day as mum will be watching me like a hawk and won't let me near a computer as she thinks i will be working. i have exhausted myself writing this so i am going to have a little sleep. have a lovely day tomorrow and think of me. all my love your briony xxxxxxxxxxx(24/12/2003)

Didn't want him to get too paranoid that Briony had left him so just sent him a little message to keep him on his toes. But more than that to let him see what sort of Christmas he's missing out on. I mean our own Christmas is kind of like Briony's except not in a millionaire's mansion, but with all the family and everyone having a great time. Now here's a snippet of information about Phil. His own family embarrass him. Well now there's only him and his dad left, but he's still the same. Years ago, when she was alive, his poor mum had a speech impediment and he wouldn't be seen with her. He wouldn't take any of his mates home and definitely not any girlfriends. I only got to meet her because my lovely man used to visit her and have a cup of tea with her, took me round with him one day. She was a real dear, had so many stories about the past to tell and just enjoyed having someone there to tell them to. Yes she had difficulty speaking some times, but all she needed was a little patience. Phil hated that, would never go out with her, never take her shopping or anywhere. Over the years and as our family came along and we moved we lost touch with her, but Phil knew our number. Yet he didn't even bother to tell us when she died. We found out a couple of months after it happened when I bumped into his dad in town. It was so sad, he thought we already knew, expected us to know. I don't think it even crossed his mind that his own son had not bothered to tell us and I didn't make an issue out it, he was grieving enough. Now Phil only tolerates his dad because he gives him so much money. He buys a lot of his shopping, bought him his car and pays for most things for the boys. But Phil never lets him into his life. He won't introduce him to any of his friends and only takes him to the local pub on a Sunday lunchtime if he's not with one of the women. Thing is, his dad is a real dear, getting on now but harmless. But to Phil he is an embarrassment. Just another reason to despise him don't you think?

merry christmas briony, all my love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(25/12/2003)

hello princess i hope you are felling much better? did you have lots of nice things? i will write more tomorow I'm going to a friends house for a few drinks.i do think of you all the time love you briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx phil(26/12/2003)

Better get back to messaging normally.

hello my prince yes i am feeling a bit better and we had a lovely time yesterday, tiring but lovely. i didn't have to lift a finger and i wasn't allowed to. i have been for a little walk in the gardens but mum's still watching me like a hawk, so i won't be able to write for long. they are staying on until i am fully recovered so i will write when i can catch a moment on the laptop. must go now mum thinks I'm getting changed love you very much have a nice time at your friends is it the ones in Brackenley? love you briony xxxx(26/12/2003)

I'm glad you are feeling better princess.i know what it was like when i had the flu but you have got your mum to look after you and the children, even if she does watch you like a hawk.you will have to play phil and bryony's love song I'm shore that will cheer you up.i had a nice time at my friends house, they are my friends from jive they are really nice people,but he got upset because his daughter is married to a kiwi and they are going to live in newzealand.we are all going to the jive xmas party tonight in oxford.and in june we are going to the isle of man motor bike tt on his motorbike but just the men, he has got a honda fireblade witch is the fastest bike on the road,but dont worry because he is really sensible.must go now i've got lots to do before i go out.i love you very much phil xxxxxxxx(27/12/2003)

Here's another thing you need to know about Phil. He picks up 'friends' like litter. He only has to meet someone once or twice and suddenly they are his very good friends. He gets into their life and next you know he's talking about them like he's known them for years. Take the friends whose daughter is going to New Zealand. He's known them for about a month yet already he thinks he's part of their crowd going on trips to the TT. Next month he will have another set of best friends and another plan to go somewhere. The last time Phil actually went anywhere apart from the jive weekend, was Tenerife with Maggie two years ago. Even back then he would tell us that this mate from work, or that mate from somewhere else had invited them to their villa in Spain, or weekend away at their country cottage and so on. Maggie used to laugh it off, but in a way that was quite sad because I knew she could see all the bull he kept coming out with.

You know, people like Phil often have a dodgy upbringing, or something in their childhood that makes them grow up lacking self esteem or confidence. They then have to exaggerate their lifestyle, give themselves self importance or over indulge themselves in various things to compensate for whatever was missing in their childhood. But Phil had a normal family life. His dad had a good job and his mum looked after him and his brother. They had clothes that were well kept, they were fed well and brought up in a nice comfortable home. So nothing to make him into such a selfish git and I would go so far as saying narcissistic.

hello darling i am feeling so much better today but still rather tired. i am glad you had a good time and have fun tonight but not too much fun if you know what i mean. have you fallen out with your Brackenley friends then since their daughter's birthday party because you used to talk about them but now you only mention your friends from jive? i often play our song before i go to bed it reminds me of how much i love you. write again soon your briony xxxxxxxxxxxxx(27/12/2003)

Thought I would get that in because of course the usual pattern is being followed. He will constantly try and involve himself in our life if he hasn't got someone else to annoy. At the moment we are safe because of the women he's seeing and the jive group he's attached himself to. But it will be interesting to find out what he says about us. This really is like a fly on the wall documentary.

hello darling briony I'm so glad you are feeling better.i didn't enjoy lastnight i think i was to tired.i haven't fallen out with my friends at Brackenley I'm going there tomorow.i play our song when i am in bed it's really sexy and helps me sleep.what did you get for christmas did you get some nice things?i will write again tomorow i got a dvd for xmas so i am going to watch it with the boys.love you phil xxxxxxxxx(28/12/2003)

Uh what a liar. He is not coming to see us tomorrow we have our own plans. We are taking our children out for the whole day. We both have time off and intend to spend it as a family. Which definitely does not mean including Phil. Bet he's told poor Shelley that too, no doubt he's off to meet some other poor unsuspecting female.

hello my darling i am feeling almost myself now. i had some lovely things for christmas, jewellry, perfume and lots more. I'm so glad you haven't fallen out with your friends because i think it is so important to keep friendships. did you have a nice time there today? i have been out on my horse today but only for a short ride it was lovely to get out in the fresh air. sapphire had us all laughing last night. i bought him a furry toy for christmas and he was frightened of it and kept hiding behind the furniture. i even felt well enough to take out the vibrator last night whilst i was playing our song. then i slept really well and woke up feeling so much better. write to me soon yours as aalways briony. Xxxxxxxxxx(29/12/2003)

hello my princess I'm glad you are feeling your self and feeling better,you must be ok if the vibrator is back have you got lots of batteries? i had a nice time at my friends house but i didn't stay long.it is important to have friends but you soon know who your friend are when you need them.you must have a big house if the horse hides behind the furniture or is sapphire the cat? i felt sad christmas day because i had a dog called tim and i had to have him putdown about three months ago he kept biting people.he bit me really bad on the nose and i spent two hours in casualty.i will write tomorow sweet dreams love you phil xxxxxxxx(29/12/2003)

Oh what a gimp, yet another insight into the personality of Phil. All this time he has been writing and supposedly getting to know Briony and he doesn't even know the difference between her horse and her cat.

oh you are so funny phil yes i meant sapphire my cat, my horse is called starlight. you sound a bit cynical about your friends, isn't the phrase it's good to have friends you can rely on? so has anything happened to you have any of your friends been disloyal? i hope your dog didn't scar you it doesn't look like it on your photo but even if it did it wouldn't make a difference to me i love you just the same. when i was a little girl a dog bit me on the arm and that left a scar but it has mostly faded now. I'm still a bit wary of dogs but i try not to be frightened of them. what are you doing new years eve? usually i spend it with my family and we have drinks a buffet and just be together to see in the new year. the children love it because they get to stay up very late and are usually the centre of attention. my daughter is very extrovert and will sing and dance to little songs she has made up. she likes to get all dressed up for it too. my son is not so outgoing but he's not really shy and will join in. write again soon my love yours as always briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(30/12/2003)

hello briony i am funny and you are very lovely.yes you are right about friends, when my friend died about three months ago i think i told you i am allways going round to see his wife,but when i had really bad depression the only person that helped me was my next door neighbour.but i've got lots of new friends now and you are top of the list.my nose is fine just a small scar, so if i had a big red nose like a clown you would still love me.i was very wary of dogs when i bitten by tim because it was so painful and blood everywhere i thought i had lost nose,but I'm ok with dogs now.i dont think i will be doing anything new years eve thats what i miss at xmas and the new year,is the family side of things.your daughter sounds like her mum because you like to dress up and dance and i bet you can sing.write soon love you phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(30/12/2003)

The wife of a dead friend? As I said before he didn't really know the person whose funeral he went to. He has though ingratiated himself with the widow. He told my Mike that at first he was always round there letting her sob on his shoulder, but it seems she's not as gullible as some of the women he gets to know because his visits have dropped off considerably. He told my hubby that she was coming onto him but that he didn't think he should go any further because it was so soon after her husband died. But a little bird told Mike that he did the coming onto and she told him no. Good on her I say.

i just woke up and thought i would write. no you did not tell me you visit your friend's wife that's a nice thing to do. i thought you might have mentioned though the dog bite since we have been writing now for over four months. i had a sudden thought when i woke up about us meeting but I'll tell you about it later. i must try and get back to sleep now so write to me soon love you briony xxxxxxxxx(31/12/2003)

He'd forgotten the dog bite story that's why he didn't mention it.

morning princess don't worry about my friends wife she is 63.i never told you about tim because i still find it difficult to talk about it.what is your thought about us meeting, I'm getting very excited but very nervous. we have been talking for a long time now and i never thought this day would come.please dont leave it to long before you tell me because I'm leaving it up to you when you want to meet.i must go I've got to take the boys to there mums house.write soon love you phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxx(31/12/2003)

Not 63 more like 36. As for the dog, it's not the first time he's got rid of a dog because he's bored with it. The dog did not bite him, the poor little thing wasn't too well and needed a lot of care and attention, something Phil couldn't dedicate his time too.

just a very quick note i thought we should meet on valentine's night the most romantic day of the year what do you think? write later love briony. Xxxxxxxxxxx(31/12/2003)

Here we go. Plan into action. Of course Valentine's night what other time would be more appropriate to bring down a guy who thinks he's Don Juan when in fact he is just a manwhore.

# Month 5

hello my darling a very happy new year to you I'm a bit drunk but i do love you so much write later briony xxx(01/01/2004)

hello princess happy new year.you are a very naughty girl getting drunk.i will have to smack your bum but i think you might like it.at first i was really disappointed about meeting on valentines day because it is seven weeks away,but it will be nice and very romantic.i will write more later and i love you very very much phil xxxxxxx(01/01/2004)

Oh my sweet lord. Perish the thought at what he has in mind. Smacking her bum and actually believing she would enjoy it. I can only imagine, no that's not true, he actually does like it kinky. In fact, I have just remembered a little story he told Mike when they were teenagers. Now this is going to totally gross you out so be prepared.

Phil was about seventeen and though Mike knew him then he was a year younger than Phil and hadn't started hanging around with him. Well Phil had a group of mates, a few of them worked at the hotel in the little town they lived in and had live in rooms. They would all go to one of the rooms and sit on the floor in a circle all with their pants down. Then together they would wank as fast as they could to see which one would come first. Takes normal male masturbation to a completely new level.

dearest phil hello how are you? i logged on this morning but there was no message for me you don't have to wait for me to reply, it would be nice just to get a message anyway. so you are keen on valentine's night then? that is good because i am already getting excited. we will have to sort something out quite quickly though because everywhere will get booked up early. i will have a think and talk about it later. what have you been doing these past few days? did you get that job you applied for? how is the decorating going? are you going to change the furniture as well because your sofa looks very comfy. i like leather it is so fresh. I'm looking forward to curling up on it with you. i have just realised that you have already painted your lounge.i was trying to remember what was different about the photos you put on your profile to the ones you sent me and suddenly it came to me , the wall colour is different. it looks very nice. what other rooms are you doing, what colour is your bedroom, i bet it's all black and grey, you know really masculine colours, strong and tough like you. write to me soon all my love briony xxxxxxxxxxxx(02/01/2004)

Couldn't help that little dig. Of course we know exactly what colours and style his whole house is. He hasn't decorated in years and it's not very clean. He claims he cleans every weekend but when we have been there it's obvious nothing has been done in ages. The only time it gets a proper going over is when Shelley does it.

darling briony I'm fine thankyou. i did try and send you a message last night but the boys was on the computer for about three hours and then i tryed to write and i couldn't sign on to locus so i gave up and went to bed sorry.do you get problems with signing on to love @ locus? yes i think valentines day is a great idea.yes we will have to sort where to go.do you live nr oxford? i've been decorating the hallway it's taken me a long time because the walls are so bad but i just have to choose the colour for the paint.i don't know about the job yet the closing date was the 20th of december so there is lots of time.briony i didn't want to give you the wrong idea and I'm sorry if i did but that was not my house, it was my friends from Brackenley.the reason they was taken there because i never had a digital camera but i've got one know.and i like leather and i am going to buy one in the sales.i hope you still love me because i haven't got a leather sofa? its made me feel really guilty.i am going to decorate all of the house but it's having the time i am allso putting in a down stairs loo on the end of the utility room.and sorry about the bed room but it's a red colour. i dont think i am doing very well i hope it hasn't put you off me.write soon i still love you xxxxxx(02/01/2004)

Finally had to come clean about something. He definitely slipped up there. Absolutely nothing to do with not having a digital camera. Absolutely all about us having a bigger house and garden. That's why he asked to take the photos here. Right from the beginning he intended to give a false impression. Unlucky for him we know pretty much everything about him so can play him like a fiddle. As for the downstairs loo, that's a job that has been left half done for months and months. He really does have issues finishing things. He gets all enthusiastic about a project and goes full pelt starting it, then gives up. Oh and his bedroom is not red, it is pink because that's what colour it was when he was married first time round and Maggie quite liked it so it never got changed.

good morning briony i've never said before but i think briony is such a lovely and sexy name xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(03/01/2004)

darling phil how many times do i need to tell you that possessions are not important. it doesn't matter that the photos were taken somewhere else so long as they were of you. it doesn't matter that i imagined your bedroom colour as different from what it really is so long as we love one another and do you love me really and trully you are not just saying it? I'm glad you like my name it was my great grandmother's my middle name is victoria do you have a middle name? what are you doing tonight? my house seems quiet now everyone has gone back home but it's nice to have it to myself again with the children and i feel all fit and fresh again, that flu really knocked me back. i think this is going to be a lovely year, did you make any new year resolutions? i didn't I'm just going to let the year take care of itself. meeting you is going to be the best part i can't wait can you? write to me soon all my love and kisses briony xxxxxxxx(03/01/2004)

princess i will write to you later I'm busy decorating. love you xxxxx(04/01/2004)

hello beautiful thank you for saying what you did about possesssions, and i won't bother me any more.i was in a funny mood yesterday.and i do really love you because i think about you all day and night.and i was getting very jealous over stag man and wanted to punch him and that is me in the photos.i do love your name and victoria is lovely has well.my middle name is eugene.i know what you mean about the flu it really is nasty but we have both had flu now.i didn't make a new years resolution,but i won't to meet the women of my dreams on valentines day.last night i went over to my friends at Brackenley.what did you do did the vibrator come out to play? i love you briony victoria please write soon phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(04/01/2004)

Now he mentions Stagman. Well we thought we should spice things up even more. So Mike sets up a profile, you guessed it, Stagman, and sends Briony some messages. After all she is a gorgeous blonde and it is an open dating site. I mean she has had quite a lot of interest from other men and has politely messaged them back, but of course Stagman could be seen by Phil as a real threat. Anyway, yes he did come over, excited as a puppy with a ball, and the first thing he tells us is about the meeting on Valentine's night. I think we should both get Oscars for our acting ability. We congratulate him and ask him where he plans to go and of course he doesn't have a clue yet, which of course we already know. Then he starts asking what he should wear and I tell him to ask Briony

dearest phil it's nice to know you are jealous but don't worry. no the vibrator has to stay packed away for a few days. what do you talk about to your friends? i have never asked you this but how did you get started with locus? i had a thought about our date, what do you think about the Winston manor at Winston on the green? i have been there a couple of times and it is very nice. it is also accessible to both of us. i have to go now i have patients coming i will write later love briony xxxxxxxx(05/01/2004)

briony i will write tomorow night I'm going to jive later.but Winston manor sounds really nice love phil xxxxxx(05/01/2004)

good morning princess love phil xxxxxx(06/01/2004)

hello my darling how are you today? I'm glad you are keen on Winston manor would you book a table? I'm a little old fashioned about who should make arrangements and when it comes to dining out as a couple i think the man should do the booking, is that alright with you? i am so looking forward to it a whole evening with you. how was jive last night not too tiring i hope? i had a couple of difficult consultations yesterday that left me quite drained but then after spending time with my own two i felt happy and relaxed again, sometimes i wonder why i keep doing it but then i think of the children i have helped and i think it's all worthwhile. i have two appointments this afternoon so i am going out on starlight in a little while. have you ever been horse riding? maybe we could go together some time. write later love you briony xxxxxxxx(06/01/2004)

hello princess i am going to see my dad tonight but i will write when i come back later love you phil xxxxxxxx(06/01/2004)

hi princess sorry but just a short message i've just got back from my dads house, and i need to do the sandwiches for school and iron there clothes.i promise i will lots more tomorow.love you lots phil xxxxxxxxx(06/01/2004)

hello darling just a short message just to say i got your message. did you have a good time at your dad's? have you been able to book the table yet I'm so excited write soon love briony xxxxxxxxxx(07/01/2004)

Hello princess how are you today? i'm writing you an email because i can't sign on to locus. The only problem is i can't remember all your questions.i have phoned the Winston manor hotel and it is booked up all day for a wedding.Do you know of some were else?i have been on a horse but a very long time ago it was a race horse it was in a village where i lived called hatton in the hedges,but i rode the horse under a tree and fell off, but i would love to have another go.Did you have a nice ride on starlight?why have you stopped using the vibrator have you broken it?I think you said something about your job is it getting you down or making you ill? i had a job working with MRI body scanners it was when i had bad depression and everything just got to much for me so i left.The job I've got now is not very good and the money is not brilliant but i'm happy and not stressed.i will try and sign on to locus but if not i will write tomorow. it seems really strange writing to you by email because i dont write many.i love you briony victoria xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx phil x (07/01/2004)

So now he's been riding race horses. Uh that didn't happen like he said. What actually happened is this. Phil was about fifteen and a friend of his whose dad owned the farm in the village where Phil grew up, was taking two of their horses back to the pasture that backed onto Phil's house. He was riding one and leading the other. Phil came out of his house as they were about to go past. Anyway his friend stopped to chat and then suggested Phil have a ride on the horse he was leading. Phil didn't have a clue about riding but agreed to have a go. His friend gave him a leg up and they set off down the lane, Phil being led. As they got near the entrance to the field the horse side stepped to avoid a large puddle. The horse went one way Phil the other. He simply slid sideways off the horse and yep you guessed it, straight into the very muddy rather deep puddle. He hasn't been anywhere near a horse since. Totally blamed the horse and didn't speak to his friend for about four months because he couldn't stop laughing at him. Probably because his friend couldn't help relaying the whole story at school. Well teenage boys will blab funny stories to their friends but of course Phil took it completely to heart and instead of joining in and laughing himself, he got all stroppy and sulky which of course made the other teens laugh about it more.

darling phil that's a shame about Winston manor. i am sending this message to both locus and your email i don't know why you have trouble signing on to locus i can always sign on straight away. i hope your fall did not make you afraid of horses it can do especially if you're young. they are marvellous animals when you know how to handle them and really race horses are not suitable for novices they are far too highly strung. for our date you could try the bigell park hotel at chasterton the number is 01869 320000 or the Kings arms at Mildon 01869 340000. one of my girl friends gave me these as she says they are very nice.i'm not used to dining out in this area of oxfordshire as lawrence used to take me further south and london. i'm not really having problems with work it's just nice to have someone close to you to have a moan at when it's been a stressful day and some of the patients i have have very difficult problems. write later all my love briony xxxxx(08/01/2004)

i hope you are writing a message to me i have been waiting all evening to hear from you. love you briony xxxx(08/01/2004)

darling briony i have phoned bigell park and it's a set menu but they couldn't tell me what was on the menu yet.and i phoned the Kings arms loads of times and its been engaged,but i will try later or tomorow.what do you think to a set menu? i looked on the internet at the Kings arms and i looks really nice.i am not afraid of horses but i think i would rather take a dog for a nice long walk across the fields, because i love walking.do you miss not being married to lawrence and do you still love him? i hope you dont mind me asking.i did really miss my wife but i dont any more.i must warn you that when we meet that i do talk a loti's not one of these boring people who don't talk.i must go princess I'm really tired.i overslept this morning so i need to get some sleep lots of love phil xxxxxxxxxx(08/01/2004)

Mmm another little nugget of Phil's self absorption and what he really cares about. When his wife left him he went straight out clubbing. Now some people do this with friends to drown their sorrow. But Phil went out with a guy we all know, Nick. He is married and has children, but ever since we have known him he has cheated on his wife. In fact he actually plans his nights out with the intention of finding a woman to sleep with as part of the evening. So, Phil chooses this man to have a night out with just so he has more of a chance of picking up a woman to shag on a one nighter. So much for being hurt and devastated about his marriage break up.

briony i only write to you one of my friend came round so i had to stop writing, but i was still signed on to locus.love you phil xxxx(08/01/2004)

sweet dreams princess xxxxxxxx(08/01/2004)

hello darling i really don't mind a set menu just as long as we can be together for a wonderful evening. the place does not matter. I'm glad you like walking it's something i do a lot of especially when i need to clear my mind. it took a long time to get over lawrence he meant everything to me but his affairs killed my feelings. we are still friends though and that is right because i would not want to alienate the children from their father even though he does not see them that often, when he does he makes an effort with them. i know though that he regrets what he's done and is still quite protective over me but he still has affairs even though he hasn't got a serious relationship. he is just one of those men who likes a lot of women and he is very charming.i trusted him implicitly but he let me down.now i have you and i know i love you and trust you. i like to talk as well but i am also a very good listener, comes with the job. make sure you are not tired for our night out i want you fresh and alive we have lots to discuss. write back soon and hopefully with a booking yours as always briony xxxxxxxx(09/01/2004)

Such a tiny subtle hint at what sort of man Phil is. Totally oblivious though as he just doesn't associate himself with Briony's ex-husband. Can't see she has just described him.

good morning princess just a short message.my dad is here and if i spend to long on the computer he starts moaning.and we go into town food shopping, i will write when he goes.i have booked the table for valentines day.i am so excited i just want to give you a big cuddle.love you phil xxxxxxxxxx10/01/2004

Again his poor father. He visits Phil, goes shopping with him and pays for the shopping too. Phil then discards him as quickly as he can.

hello princess how are you? i went out last night i went to see a friend from work,who was playing a horse in the wind in the willows,there was several of us who went it was really funny the tears was rolling down my face, my friend is a really funny guy he was a stand up comedian, we get on well together because we have got the same sence of humour.but when i am out with friends i dont fully enjoy myself because i keep thinking about you,i just want you with me.lawrence must regret loosing you,i know that we haven't met but you sound like such a lovely woman, i am very lucky.i don't know how i would feel if we dont get on, but i know we will.i have photocopied your photo from your locus page i keep it in my wallet,i have never told you this and I'm not being rude but i like women of your height,and with blond hair. don't worry about me being tired because i will be like a little boy with a new toy. what are you doing this weekend? must go know got lots to do wriye soon love phil xxxxxx (10/01/2004)

That is more comical than his supposed comedian friend. Phil likes any type of woman so long as he can get her in the sack. Usually he picks up women who are emotionally vulnerable with low self esteem and plays on that. I mean Shelley is about five ten and works as a bouncer at a club. She used to be a prison officer. But she has been badly hurt by men in the past and is also a lovely woman and completely taken with Phil. I hate not being able to tell her what he's really like, but I don't know her well enough to know how she will react.

darling it sounds like we are meant for each other. this will only be a quick note as we are going to mum and dad's for dinner and will probably stop over. so where have you booked and what time? you are not rude to say that i am your type of woman, is that what your wife was like? i will tomorrow night yours lovingly briony xxxxxxxxxx 11/01/2004

Just need a little break again from this. It can get a bit demanding, hence the stop over at mum and dad's. In reality, Mike and I just want some family time.

darling briony i really do hope we are meant for each other.i have booked at the Kings arms for 7.30 i hope that is ok with you? I'm shore it will be.i can't believe we are going to meet after all this time.do you remember the very first message you sent to me? i wish i still had that message. I'm really glad that you don't smoke,would you have written to me if i smoked? my wife was your height with black hair she was slim but started to put on weight, she hated smoking and geting drunk,but went off with an alcoholic who smoked.i hope you have had a nice day at your mum and dads, i bet they really spoil there little girl. I'm going to jive tomorow night but i will still try and write.good night princess xxxxxxxx(11/01/2004)

I know I didn't really like her but that is so Phil to describe his ex-wife in that way. Just like the rest of us women she gained some weight when pregnant but dropped it afterwards. As I said before, he was always on at Maggie about her figure and she was petite. I don't know much about his ex-wife's new partner but I have never heard his sons say anything bad about him. Oh and we got the over excited phone call gabbling on about the proposed date. You should have heard him. He couldn't stop going on about how madly Briony was in love with him and that this was the one. He even started going on about getting married to her.

just a short message just to say that i will write tomorow night. love you phil xxxxxxxxxx(12/01/2004)

briony are you speaking to me? because you haven't written to me for two days.you said you would write yesterday, i've been worried xxx(13/01/2004)

So self absorbed. We really did need a break from all the messaging and his phone calls, to devote time to each other and our children, but of course Phil doesn't know this. Still he makes it all about him. You know sometimes I want to just give this up and stop writing to him, but then I think of Maggie and Mike gives me a hug and lots of encouragement and reminds me of our plan, then I take a deep breath and think up the next lot of wind up messages.

darling of course i am speaking to you. we stayed over at mum and dad's until last night then i was so tired when i got in i had a bath and went straight to bed. i didn't have any appoinments monday and tuesday so after taking the children to school on monday we went into oxford shopping and had a lovely day and then yesterday dad and me took their horses out for a long treck. mum didn't feel like coming she wanted to bake some cakes for the children. then last night some old friends of theirs came round and stayed for dinner and we all got chatting and before i knew it the time had gone. the children were already asleep so mum put them to bed and i came home because i do have appoinments all day starting in about 20 minutes. mum and dad will bring the children back tonight. what have you been doing apart from jiving? do you have a favourite drink? mine is a black russian. i must go i need some coffee before my first patient arrives. if i can i will write tonight it depends on when mum and dad bring back the children and if they want to stay for a while. love you always yours briony xxxxxxxxxxx(14/01/2004)

Took a bit of thinking to explain where Briony had been because we need to keep him on his toes. Dropped that in about the drink, we know he has no idea what any cocktails are. He drinks lager most of the time and doesn't like to try anything different. Besides he's usually pretty much plastered after two pints.

princess I'm so pleased i thought you wasn't speaking .it will have to be a short message i have lots of paper work to do.i didn't know you could get black russians i thought they were all white.but what is a black russian?i like most drinks really.dont worry if you can't write tonight i know that you are ok and you still love me.love you phil xxxxxxxxxxxx(14/01/2004)

darling i can see that sense of humour of yours. a black russian is vodka tia maria and coke. i am taking a break so just a short message. what paper work did you have to do? i try to keep most of my records and business on the computer it saves so much time. i will write tonight love you briony xxxxxxxxxxx(15/01/2004)

Just a hint of sarcasm there. Phil has no sense of humour at all as you have probably found out by now. In fact I would go as far as saying he has a very nasty streak verbally that is.

hello princess how are you today? i've just got in from work, so i thought i would write early because I'm really tired and i've got a really bad headache. its not only women who get headaches.did you buy lots of nice things in oxford? have you had an argument with your vibrator? because you haven't mentioned it for a few weeks.i had to do paper work on my new mortgage.and sort out my tax for when i was self employed.i dont think you can call your drink a black russian, because thats colour prejudiced.how about a coloured russion? but it sounds nice anyway.i dont think you have ever told me the names of your children, just the horse and the cat, my boys are called aiden carl and lewis.and the cats are called coffee and cream. i will have to go know briony the boys want to do there homework.i might go to jive tomorow night instead of monday,if i don't go i will write tomorow.love you lots phil xxxxxxxxxxxx(15/01/2004)

Mmm as usual trying to be clever but he never gets it right. The way he talks sometimes you would think he is in his sixties or seventies. Well Briony puts him in his place.

dearest phil i don't like to have to correct you but it is not prejudiced to call the drink a black russian it is far more offensive to black people to call them coloured, they hate it and are proud to be called black. the idea of calling people coloured comes from way back when we were too ignorant and believed ourselves to be superior because we were white, it was carried on back in the 50s when the first migrants came here in large numbers and only older people call them coloured these days. i have not told you before what my children are called because i was protecting them but now we are so close and in love i can. my daughter is called fiona and my son is charles. you still haven't told me what your favourite drink is. the vibrator is not broken it is just that i cannot use at certain times of the month, I'm sure you know what i mean. it is in fine working order but not really a good substitue for the real thing. still that might be rectified when we meet. anyway what do you use when you are in bed dreaming of me? i have to go now the children want me to read with them. goodnight my darling yours briony xxxx(15/01/2004)

Well he gets straight on the phone to us after Briony's telling off. The first thing he asks is if I think he's blown it with her. Of course I tell him I'm sure he hasn't and suggests he apologise for offending her. I don't think for one moment that he will. He's not that big on taking responsibility.

darling briony thankyou for your history lesson, but i was only joking.i haven't really got a favourite drink i like most drinks but a do like j d and coke.what do you like to watch on tv and have you got sky tv? fiona is a lovely name for a girl, is charles a prince? did you tell me how old they are? I'm sorry it's the wrong time of the month, but im shore you will make up for lost time.so when we meet is that good by to the vibrator? but you might not find me sexy or fancy me.what do you mean when you say what do i use because i can only use one thing in bed, and its my hand. when i dream about you i dream that we are on a sandy beach with you kissing me and drinking black russians. would you like to live in a hot country?i would love to live in australia or some where hot.i will write tomorow.love you phil xxxxxx(16/01/2004)

Ta dah, no apology. About the JD and coke. He had it once at our house. I don't know how he even tasted the JD since he put about a pint of coke with it. I bet you are just as grossed out with his self satisfying antics as we are, but hey, it is amusing. Even more so when he gets on the phone and tells us all about Briony substituting him with a vibrator because she is so crazy about him.

hello princess how are you today? i've been really busy. i went food shopping this morning and bought lots of vegetables so when i got back i made lots of vegetable soup.and know I'm doing some decorating, I'm just waiting for the paint to dry.so i thought i would write to you, because you are my sweet heart. what have you been doing today? well i must get back to my decorating. write soon princess love phil xxxx(17/01/2004)

Ha ha the soup. So here is how it goes. We bumped into him in the supermarket, something that unfortunately happens occasionally. Anyway it was in the vegetable aisle and whilst Mike stood having a compulsory chat I carried on picking up the various vegetables that I normally buy. So Phil tries to be sarcy because there are so many different types and he only buys carrots and frozen peas. So I tell him our family love their vegetables especially the soup I make. So straight away he wants the same thing as we have. So I tell him he needs more than carrots and frozen peas and he asks me like what. Of course I tell him whatever he wants. So he goes around and picks up a bit of everything and I just nod and smile and say if you like. Now when I say a bit of everything that means everything. Both red and white onions, garlic, squash, sweet potato and ordinary potato, broccoli, cabbage, cauliflower and every other vegetable on display, including packets of ready chopped and prepared veg that he already has. Then I have to give him instructions on how to make it. Of course I tell him to chop it all up add seasoning and stock, cook it and there you have it, vegetable soup. Really he is so thick. Mike stood there trying not to laugh and doing a fabulous job. When we got outside he gave me a huge cuddle and told me I should get an Oscar for my acting.

dearest phil why are you making vegetable soup? i feel a bit put out that you are only writing to me tonight as a fill in whilst the paint dries. today i have been out riding with the children the fields look spectacular all covered in frost. then we came home and had crumpets and hot chocolate. fiona is seven and charles who is my little prince is five. yes i have sky i thought everyone had it these days, you know the full package it's not worth having just a few channels so everyone of us can watch something. I'm mad about movies, fiona loves the disney channel and charles really enjoys all the discovery stuff. he's a real little environmentalist.he's often outside examining the plants and looking at the soil and stones. i wouldn't be surprised if he grows up to be a scientist. of course fiona just wants to be a princess like snow white or cinderella or the fairy godmother and often watches whilst dressed up in one of her many disney outfits. then she comes to me and waves her magic wand and makes wishes. one of her favourites is filling her bath with bubbles and and calling it fairy snow because it's pure white but not cold. what are you doing tonight are you going out? I'm going to watch a movie with a bottle of wine. write back soon lots of love briony xxxxxx(17/01/2004)

Thought I would have a dig at his devotion and his decorating stretches to painting about two foot of skirting board. He hasn't even got around to the walls yet.

i noticed you opened my last message in the early hours of the morning but you haven't written back. did you have a good night out somewhere? write soon lots of love briony xxxxxxxxxxx(18/01/2004)

darling briony I'm making vegetable soup because i like it and it's healthy. please don't feel put out i didn't mean it to sound like it did. what i ment was i was painting and i kept thinking about you so i just had to write to you.i opened your message early because my lad had forgotten his key so i went down stairs to let him in, so i got myself a drink and opened your message,but i didn't feel like writing back that early.and I've been doing some painting up till now so i thought i would write to my princess.i did go out last night for a few hours to the pub in the village because i was here on my own. but all the boys are here today, and we are going to watch a dvd later.and i need to go and see my friend wife who died she has just been diagnosed with cancer,so as you can imagine she is not very happy.i'm glad you like movies because so do i . and i like crumpets and hot chocolate. so there are two princesses and one prince who live in your house. don't you ever loose the children in that big house? it must be great for hide and seek.i have got to make the boys tea know i will write to morow write back soon love you phil xxxxxx(18/01/2004)

Actually he was out with Shelley and she stayed over and he got up in the middle of the night to check his messages whilst she was still in bed. How do I know this? Because he rang me earlier all in a tis. Apparently Shelley woke up and realised Phil was not in bed and heard him downstairs. So she ventured down too and found him at the computer. He quickly shut it down with the excuse that he came down for a drink and found one of the boys had left it on. He was all excited that he got away with lying to Shelley. He's all buzzed up that he's planning on cheating on Shelley with Briony. So up himself that so many women want him at the same time. I feel a bit guilty because Shelley might get hurt, but then if everything goes the way we want it to only Phil will take a fall.

hello my darling i can see that you are on line so thought i would just send you a little love message. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU XXXXXXXXXX(18/01/2004)

**Just a little boost to his ego. I know it will go down very well**.

briony that was fantastic thankyou. i was writing to you I'm just not very quick at writing.and i will ask one of boys how you do that thankyou princess. i love you XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX(18/01/2004)

hello princess just a short message to say how much I LOVE YOU, and to say thankyou for making me a very happy man. sweet dreamsXXXXXXXXXXXX(19/01/2004)

See, I know him so. Just knew it would work.

hello my darling, i am so glad i have made you happy you mean so much to me. what have you been doing today.i went to the children's school this afternoon to view their work it's lovely to see what they have been learning. charles is very good at art he has an excellent style for one so young. fiona has written some wonderful stories and poems. i hope you don't mind me talking so much about them i am just so proud of them, they are my world. it isgetting so close to our date i think about it and you so much, i feel like a teenager I'm so excited. i think i will go shopping this weekend for an outfit, what colour would you like me to wear? i think i will go and soak in the tub so goodnight my darling sleep well your briony xxxxxxxxxx(19/01/2004)

good evening my darling what have you been doing today? i have been busy with patients all day two of them very difficult and exhausting. a girl friend is coming round this evening, she is getting married in august and we are going to go over the planning. i suggested she get a wedding planner but she wants to be totally involved so she won't let anyone else organise it for her. most of it is already sorted, was way back last year but she is beginning to panic even though it's still months away. anyway a couple of bottles of wine and some girlie influence should calm her down. i haven't got any consultations until tomorrow afternoon so i can have a few drinks tonight. have you any plans for this evening? well i must go now the children want my time so write soon all my love and kisses your briony xxxxxxxxxxI LOVE YOUxxxxxxxxx

(20/01/2004)

hello darling briony.of course i don't mind you talking about you children, your children will allway be there for you.but the man in your life like your ex is not there any more.our date is getting very close and i'm so excited, i can't believe we are going to meet after all this time.i don't really mind what colour you wear, but i do like red or black, i'm shore you will look beautiful what ever you wear.what do you like to see a man wearing.if your friend wants my advise tell her not to get married.and i think you and your friend going over the wedding plans, is just an excuse to get drunk.but it is nice to get drunk once in a while.briony i must sign of my ffiends from Brackenley as just knocked on door write tomorow princess love you very much xxxxpaul

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Yeah we decided to pay him a little visit and catch up on what he thinks is going on with Briony. So he tells us how much she is in love with him and of course emphasises how rich she is. Some of his mates at work are ribbing him about her, obviously they are far more astute that he is. Only Phil could be totally taken in like he has been, but that's because his ego gets in the way of his brain.

hello princess how are you today? just a short message because I've got lots of jobs to do.did you have a nice evening with your friend? and did you get nice and drunk?when you have a lot to drink do you get silly and giggly? or does it make you randy? I've rented a dvd to watch tonight it's called resident evil.sorry about last night but my friends from Brackenley turned up so i had to sign off quickly.write soon lots and lots of love phil XXXXX i love you XXXXXXXX(21/01/2004)

Oh my sweet Jesus. I swear all he can think about is sex. He hasn't a clue how to be part of a real relationship. No wonder they all fail and no wonder he doesn't rate marriage. I do remember Maggie telling me that any time she wasn't in the mood for sex he would get all moody and huffy. Then he would sulk for hours, sometimes days even until she gave him what he wanted.

hello darling yes we had a good time you are a bit cynical about marriage i would like to think that i would get married again one day and that my marraige to lawrence didn't spoil it for me for life. am i a big secret? don't you talk about me to your friends? we didn't get very drunk, i never get too drunk because of my children, but i do get very loving when i'm tipsy, so are you planning on getting me tipsy when we meet (i hope so). what are you doing this evening that is keeping you so busy? i have some reports to write up, they will take quite a lot of time so i will be on my pc probably until well after midnight. tomorrow i have early appointments so i will no doubt be exhausted by tomorrow night. i am going to have to go and start them now so i will write again tomorrow. all my love to you your briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(21/01/2004)

sorry i forgot to say that i like a man to dress smart but not to be over dressed. i also like him to have a neat haircut and be well shaven and wear cologne, especially masculine cologne. love briony xxxxxxxxxxxxx(21/01/2004)

hello darling briony.i would get married again but it would have to be the right women.no you are not a big secret, I've told lots of my friends about you, but you know what men are like when they get together, some of them wind me up and say that you are a hairy lorry driver. it's only because that the internet sometimes gets bad publicity.andit's only because they are jealous.but don't worry because i know that you are a really nice and lovely women and you are the women i love.so how many drinks do you need to get you tipsy or drunk? i think that i will get tipsy because i will be enjoying your company, i hope you don't mind? we can get tipsy together.what time did you get to bed last night after your work? i hope you don't get bags under your eyes.what cologne do you call masculine? i normally wear hugo boss or kouros by yves saint laurant.please don't worry about writing tonight if you are tired.just a few kisses will be lovely. you really made me laugh about being tipsy i think we will get on really well together.all my love your phil XXXXXXXXXX(22/01/2004)

Yeah I just bet he would get married again, well to Briony anyway, after all she has a stash of cash. Oh dear, I'm sort of getting into it here, my creation, got a bit carried away, but I'm sure you understand what I mean. He thinks she's real and loaded, so yes he would marry her at the drop of a hat. And once again the whole image thing coming out. I mean what a thing to say to any woman, 'I hope you don't get bags under your eyes' not exactly the most flattering thing to mention to someone who works so hard. If she were real of course. But again, I'm sure you get the picture. His work mates must be having a real laugh at his expense because they seem to have worked out what he's too stupid to, that Briony is really too good to be true. But so long as we can keep him suckered, then all is just good good.

hello darling just a short message because i am tired. no i don't have bags under my eyes i take care of my skin a great deal. well i'm sorry to disappoint your friends but i am not hairy at all. i can hold my drink quite well i don't get tipsy too easily what about you? i'm quite fond of bora bora. i will write more tomorrow all my love your briony xxxxxxxxxxx(22/01/2004)

Thought he needed a little nudge to grovel. I'm sure he will.

hello darling just a short message because i'm going to jive. i was only joking about bags under your eyes, i bet your skin is lovely and soft all over.i do get tipsy quite easily and when i drink red wine.iv'e never heard of bora bora who makes it? i will write tomorrow. lots of love and kisses phil XXXXXXXXXXXX(23/01/2004)

Yep got that right, creeping to keep her sweet. Now about the red wine, he actually doesn't drink it at all. It doesn't make him tipsy but totally hammered. I remember a long time ago before any of us were married. Mick and I were engaged and we were all at a house party. Phil downed a large glass of red wine and it went straight to his head. He got all bolshie and cocky and started pointing his finger in my face about something. So I tell him to stop or he will regret it, so he takes my jaw between his finger and thumb and squeezed and it damned well hurt. Mick was getting us fresh drinks and turned up just as Phil did it. Before Mick had the chance to stop him, and he would have, I swung my hand back and gave Phil an almighty slap around the face. Of course the music stopped at exactly the same moment so the sound of the slap really bounced off the silence. I think Phil would have preferred Mick to have thumped him he was so embarrassed. His cheek was bright red from the slap, redder than the rest of his face from the embarrassment. I don't think he has touched red wine since. I mean every so often when he comes round to ours we offer him a glass if we are having some, but he always declines and never once has he referred to that incident.

hello darling bora bora is produced by liz claiborne. well red wine is your downfall then we must make sure we order plenty of that with our meal. actually i only drink red wine i find white too vinegary. shall i meet you at the table or in the bar and will you have a black russian waiting for me please? i think tomorrow i will shop for black, do you like stockings? i find them very comfortable and sexy to wear, tights get too hot and confining. i do spend a lot of money on my skin. when i was seventeen i had an accident and cut my face close to the hairline. daddy sent me to a very good consultant and though i still have a scar it is very hard to see and i always wear my hair down. i am still a bit conscious of it but that is why i try to keep my skin healthy because it would show up more if my skin were dry. have a good night jiving and write soon. all my love brionyxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx 23/01/2004

hello darling briony how are you today? i have been busy working on the house allday, and i am really tired now.yes i do love red wine but it does make me drunk i mean tipsy.i think i would like to meet at the bar if thats ok.i will have a black russian waiting but don''t be late because i might drink it.i would love you to wear stockings i dont think the tops of tights are very sexy, not that i will see the tops unless i drop my spoon. don't worry about your scar i bet you still look beautiful.i have a small scar above my lip but i think it looks nice. i got mine when i was in my early twenties some one hit me.i had a good night at jive because i learned two more moves and another jiver said that he can't believe that i have only been jiving for about four months, he said that i was really good.i might be leaving my job and going back working with my friend, renovating houses and fitting bathrooms.he has got lots of money to buy the houses.i am all on my own tonight two of the boys are staying at there mums and the eldest is staying at his girl friends house.have a lovely evening my princess.write soon lots of love phil XXXXXXXXXXXXXX(24/01/2004)

**He just can't get enough of himself. When he came to our daughter's birthday party, you know the one he thought was boring, he tried doing some of his jive moves to one of the tracks the youngsters had put on. First he was completely out of time and he had no fluidity in his movements. You could tell he was a novice and thinking through each step making them very jerky. He actually looked like a constipated gorilla**. **Oh and about him changing jobs, well that's something else he cannot stick at for long. Phil has had more jobs over the years than women. Sometimes he just stops going and then resigns before they fire him, other times he just on the spot quits. But you know he's got to be one of the luckiest buggers in the world because he always manages to blag his way into another job. This one he's chatting about is not really a proper job, just this guy he knows, Mick knows him too, needs a hand renovating a huge old house. He reckons on about three months work so most likely Phil will do that and then get him to give him a reference when it's finished. Seems he's forgotten that he told Briony he was in research and development. I mean why would anyone give up a job like that to become a labourer, because that is all he will be. The only thing Phil actually had some training in was welding and that was not as an apprentice or anything official, just someone he worked for when he was younger showing him how to do it. But Briony of course will not question, at least not yet.**

hello darling i know you are on line so i thought i would write. what have you been doing today? i went shopping and bought a whole new outfit for our date, with accessories. the children were with me and fiona loves helping me choose. charles always just tells me i look pretty no matter what i try on but fiona is a proper little critic. i am going to watch a movie on tv tonight and relax, shopping in oxford city on a saturday with two young children is very tiring. what are you going to do tonight, are you going out to the pub or your friends? how is the decorating going is it nearly finished? write to me soon lots of love brionyxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(24/01/2004)

hello princess i was on line writing to you. i am sat here all on my own felling really sad and tipsy, because i have drank a bottle of red wine, and i just can't stop thinking about you.i dont care what you wear because i will still love you what ever you wear.but thankyou for making the effort for me, it means so much to me, and give fiona and charles my love for being good childred.the decorating is going reallly well but still a lot to do.love you so much briony and i can't wait till valentines day.and what do you mean about accessories? but i think i know.love you write soon phil XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX(25/01/2004)

He couldn't even drink a couple of glasses of white and still be coherent enough to write anything.

just a quick note we are going out on the horses. accessories are the little extras that go with an outfit, shoes, bag etc. have a nice sunday i will write later love you briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxx(25/01/2004)

hello darling briony .did you have a nice ride on your horse? i thought accessories was thongs and suspenders.i went shopping today and bought some clothes.did you enjoy the movie last night? i got really tipsy last night, i don't normally drink much in the house,but i just felt really lonely sat here on my own.i watched a movie called phone booth have you seen that one?i will write more tomorrow I've got to do the boys sandwiches for school. your one and only phil xxxxxxxx(25/01/2004)

hello darling yes the horse riding was fabulous so invigorating. i watched reign of fire on tv which wasn't very good and followed it with a dvd called basic which was excellent, you should get it, or maybe we could just swap as i haven't seen phone booth. i have to go now as i'm just taking a short coffee break before my next consultation so write later all my love briony xxxxxxxxxxxx(26/01/2004)

Well wonder if that was a slip the red wine making him drunk, covered quickly by the tipsy. Never mind and oh retch retch at the thought of him ogling the tops of any poor woman's stockings. Anyway, here is more about the real Phil. Remember, he and Mick have known each other for years me too I suppose, and yes he drives us insane with his whining and selfishness so we are not particularly bothered when he does something that I think is quite nasty. But we have been there for him when he comes sobbing or complaining about his life over the years and propped him up, so you would sort of expect a little loyalty to us, but no, not Phil. What am I talking about you ask, I will of course tell. Mick and I popped over to see him tonight, we had just bought a new bike and Mick wanted to show it to him. So we stand outside talking about the bike for quite a while. Then we go into the house and he tells us that he can't offer us any coffee because he has run out. We ask how come, 'cos he always claims he doesn't drink a lot because it keeps him awake, and he comes out with 'I had a dinner party on Saturday night and my guests drank it all'. Well as you can imagine, we were somewhat taken aback. We have always invited him to parties, barbeques, celebrations and so on so Mick asks why he didn't invite us. He comes back with, 'well it was for my jive friends.' I looked at him and he could see I was angry and of course he starts to whine as usual. 'Ang, don't look at me like that.' Well I look to Mick and he hands me my helmet and tells Phil we are off. Of course Phil protests but this time Mick's not having it. He reminds him of all the times we have invited him to our dos then he takes my hand and we leave with Phil bobbing about behind us trying to make excuses but with no apology. Wonder if he will tell Briony any of this, well his version of course. Oh hang on he can't, because according to him he was all alone Saturday night watching a DVD. Maybe you are getting a more complete picture of this man's character and why we are doing what we are to him.

hello phil i was hoping for a message but you haven't written since sunday why? love briony xxxxxxxxxx(27/01/2004)

hello princess sorry about not writing yesterday,but i got back from work and i had to make the boys lunch, and then go into banbury to buy some things for decorating,and in to morrisons to buy some food. i did sign on to write a message but i was so tired i couldn't think what to write.but i should have written something. even just to tell you that i love you. i do still think about you all the time. do you still feel the same about me? because you allways call me darling but on the last message you called me phil.was you angy with me? do you like going to the cinema to watch movies? we can swop movies and watch them together kissing and cuddling and drinking red wine, god thats got me all excited.i have got to make the lunch now but i will write later. love you briony XXXXXXXXXX(27/01/2004)

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH XXXXXXXXX(27/01/2004)

He didn't write because we were there. And of course he hasn't mentioned anything about either the dinner party or us. Probably got something to hide which I'm sure he would have divulged gleefully had we given him the chance, but Mick was kind of furious so we left before we got the full info on the dinner party.

hello darling no i am not angry i was just worried. watching movies all curled up sounds wonderful. yes i do like to go to the cinema but i haven't been for ages, i don't really like going with girlfriends, i think the cinema is for families or couples. i have a headache tonight, over worked i think so i am going to relax in my tub with the candles burning and the spa bubbling and then go to bed with you and the vibrator. write tomorrow and love you so much brionyxxxx(27/01/2004)

hello darling hows the headache? iv'e got one tonight because it has taken me two hours to drive six miles, and i am really tired. my eldest boy is still stuck on a road somewhere so he wont be very happy.how was the tub last night? i hope you didn't looseyour vibrator in the water.i am going to have a shower and relax and watch tv. i had a lovely dream about you last night, but i can't tell you what it was about because it's to rude. write soon .love you so much phil XXXXXXX (28/01/2004)

hello my darling how are you tonight? hasn't it been a wonderful day have you had much snow in loxham? we are in a winter wonderland the grounds are covered. the children and i spent ages outside building snowmen and having snowball fights. then we went in and drank hot chocolate and watched tv. they looked so gorgeous all wrapped up in hat scarves and gloves with their cheeks all glowing red from the cold. now they are all tucked up in bed sound asleep. they were quite worn out and so am i. hopefully that will be all of us soon phil i think we have a real future. just think of the spring going for walks hand in hand i hope your boys will like me. i hope they don't think i am trying to replace their mother. it's all so exciting thinking about a sunny future when for so long it has seemed bleek and lonely. only two more weeks and three days and then it's the rest of our lives. i hope you are looking as forward to it as i am. i have to go now and write up a report so write soon all my love briony xxxxxxxxxx(28/01/2004)

hello darling briony. how are you today? yes we had lots of snow in loxham, have you ever been to loxham? if you haven't then it won't be long before you do.i'm glad your children had a nice time in the snow.did they throw snow balls at you? it does make me feel really excited the thought of being with you, we can do so many things together. i am going to be so nurverous on the 14th how will i recognize you will you wear a red rose? and will you give me a big sloppy kiss? i just love the summer lovely warm days and the thought of being with you is just a dream come true. i will be like a kid with a new toy.and my boys will love you, but i will have to watch my 19 year old because he might fancy you, but he has got a really nice girl friend called sarah. i am going to jive tomorrow but i will still write.write soon all my love your phil XXXXXXXXX(29/01/2004)

hope you are writing to me XXXXXXXXX(29/01/2004)

We haven't actually spoken to Phil since the dinner party thing so can't check if what he's been saying is true. But we have had a lot of snow so we will wait and see what comes up.

hello my darling i need you to be hero for me some nasty man is leaving insulting messages on my guest book. check it out he is horrible. love briony xxxx(29/01/2004)

darling i won't need to wear a red rose you will know it is me. i am not that different to when i was young, not very tall even in my heels, long curly blonde hair and slim but with curves in the right place. i will be wearing a black dress and a long off white wool coat and black heels. i would love to give you a big kiss when i get there but i'm not sure if it would be quite fitting, we may have to wait until we are alone for that. yes the children did throw snowballs at me but i threw quite a few back and we all just ended up in a heap in the snow. i have driven through loxham i must confess i came by to take a look at the village you lived in but i only drove through the centre i was too nervous to try and find your street. it looks like a very nice place. write back soon lots of love your briony xxxxxxxx(29/01/2004)

I suppose it was only a matter of time that another person on the dating agency would pop up. Briony has had quite a lot of interest and that is to be expected. Her profile is very tempting. But this guy is a real menace. I am actually really glad that she is fictional because he could potentially be a problem. So we leave him a nasty message in the hope he will take the hint and leave well alone. But get this, he actually thinks he knows her, that she is someone named Diane. He claims he has her mobile number too.

darling i thought i would let you know that i have left some stern words in that creeps guest book. have a look because i think you might be proud of me. love briony xxxxxx(29/01/2004)

god princess you really told that nasty man, i dont think you need me, you have got quite a big punch for such a small lady.but i am very very proud of you. no body is going to throw sand in your face. do you think it's a wind up?by the way i am not just saying this but you are every thing that i fancy in a women. not very tall blonde hair slim and you dont smoke and you can dance, you are really a dream come true. and dont worry about nasty men because i wil be there to protect my princess i promise. good night briony i love you phil xxxxxx(29/01/2004)

Actually that is something he couldn't do, he is not very assertive and runs away from most challenges, especially threatening guys.

hello my gorgeous guy how are you today. it's the weekend i love it, so much time to spend with fiona and charles and the horses and everything. i feel in a really silly mood this evening. i think after dinner tonight when the children are asleep i am going to go out into the grounds and just walk about by myself with a very large whisky. i don't even care if it is wet and cold. i expect you will be jiving tonight i just want to be out in the air. hopefully it might clear up enough to see some stars i'm going to pick one out for us. have a great night write soon lots of love briony xxxx(30/01/2004)

i am really dissapointed that you write to other men, may be they can go out with you on valentinse day i really trusted you thaks a lot (30/01/2004)

what are you talking about(30/01/2004)

As usual he jumps to the wrong conclusion. But what a nerve. All the other women that he's been screwing around with and he jumps on Briony about a message she has sent to someone else. If he had any brains at all he would have worked out the 'love rainbow' with kisses was within the context of a sarcastic message to this bloke who has been bothering her. But no, straight away to him it means she's cheating.

you known i think the world of you, i did look in his guest book and it said love rainbow xxxxxx.do you allways send kisses to other men. how do you think i felt? inever check up on you but you was both on line at the same time.sorry to upset you but i love you so much, i do still want you (30/01/2004)

dear phil  
i usually only use this address for my work as it gives my full name but i thought i should write because of what you said on locus. i am stunned that you are being so harsh to me, i have done nothing wrong. write and let me know what is going on love briony xx(30/01/2004)

We thought it would add to the realism of the situation if Briony used another email address and not just communicate through the dating agency. Maybe reassure him a bit. After all we don't want him to dump her that would spoil the whole plan.

i am really sorry that i over reacted, but you are my life and i love you. i will write tomorrow i must go and have a shower i do still want you i just got upset. please be happy i love you xxxxxxxxxpaul(30/01/2004)

hello briony i am very sorry if you thought i overreacted, but i did look at his guest book i still don't know why you woulld want to send a complete stranger you love and kisses.its just that the same kind of thing happend with my ex wife, and the letter ended with love cassie xxxxxxxx.so when i read that with you it just brought every thing back to me. can you see how i felt when i read that message?ever thing came back to me and i do feel really sick and down and i dont want to get depression again. its only because you mean so much to me and i never thought i would love another women again but i do.i dont think i will sign on to love locus for a few days, but i will leeve the computer on so if you want to write you can.love phil xxx (31/01/2004)

First of all his first wife did not leave him a note like that. As I said before, we don't know much about her but we do know that she told him straight and to his face that she was leaving. She also explained to her boys that she was leaving and that because she could only afford a one bedroom flat that it would be better if they stayed in the house with their father until she had a bigger place. Phil did remortgage the house to give her the settlement and she did get a house. But by then he had spoilt the boys so much giving them all their own way and letting them do what they wanted they didn't want to go and live with their mother. As for depression, the minute he thinks anything is not going the way he wants he claims he's suffering from depression. Yet he can always find it in him to go out and enjoy himself, especially if there are women involved.

dear phil  
please don't be upset or feel down i am not your ex wife and remember lawrence did the same to me. it was not i who had an affair so it has taken a long time for me to trust someone again. locus was just a way for us to meet but now i feel we are a couple, so if you don't want to write through locus anymore that's fine, we can write through this address or my hotmail account just so long as we are still talking that's all that matters. i did go outside last night but only to sit huddled up in a big rug with a very large whisky and a box of tissues because i just cried and cried. i feel really miserable today but am putting on a good front for fiona and charles, the last thing i want is for them to see i am upset. we are going out today to buy them some dvds and then we are going to curl up this afternoon and watch them. i think i will order take out pizza tonight for our dinner and then have an early night, i didn't get much sleep last night, i thought i had lost you. write soon all my love and kisses for you alone briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(31/01/2004)

Kind of thought throwing in a little sympathy might give a bit of reassurance and playing the hurt tearful girl would boost his ego. Really need to pep him up this is going just where we want it to.

darling briony. i hope you didn't get to tipsy last night, i wish i was there to keep you warm.I went to jive only because that i was driving, but i never enjoyed it at all i just felt really sick, i just wanted to come home.i didn't get much sleep last night, and woke up really early and just cried my eyes out, i thought i had lost you, to a skinny little rock climber on holiday at buttlins holiday camp.i was going to stay in tonight because i am so tired, but my friend has just phoned and said that i can go over to his house, and have a chat because his wife is going to bingo with her mum, she is only 30 but likes bingo, ithink i just need someone to talk to. have a lovely night with the children.write soon lots of love phil XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX(31/01/2004)

**Well so not true. He finally rings us up all angry that Briony has upset him. So of course I chat to him and soothe him telling him he is definitely over-reacting. As expected he doesn't bring up the dinner party or apologise, no surprise there, but never mind. At any rate, he told me even though he was not happy about Briony he still had an absolutely brilliant time at jive because an experienced jive woman danced with him and gave him some great tips. I laugh it off with the usual 'oh Phil what are you like' when all I would love to do is strangle him**.

darling i am so so so glad you have written i was so scared that you would not. please forgive me if i upset and hurt you i never intended it. no one can compare to you so please do not be jealous there is no one else in this universe who could make me feel the way you do. i have just ordered the pizza and now i have heard from you i really feel like eating it. we have been watching disney all afternoon but my mind has been elsewhere now i can sit with the children and enjoy the films. have a good natter with your friend and sleep well tonight yours only for ever briony xxxxxxxxxxxx  
ps do you like my rainbows? Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx(31/01/2004)

darling briony enjoy your pizza i have't eaten all day, but i'm feeling really hungry now we are lovers again.i love your rainbows now i love two rainbows. you are so cleaver with a computer. i thought my eyes was going funny untill i read your message. i am going to my friends house now because i don't want to be late back.have a great night princess. and thankyou for making me the happiest man in the world. i really do love you so much sweat dreams phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(31/01/2004)

He's talking about a little bit of artwork with the email. Nothing difficult to most computer literate people, but rocket science to him.

# Month 6

good morrning princess how are you today? i am feeling much better happier.i don't want to get down like that again, i hate beeing miserable i just wan't to be happy again.what are you doing today? i was going shopping for clothes for our date,because i still don't know what to wear, but i think i will go next saturday or may be have a day off in the week. I've got lots of jobs to do in the house. like cleaning and dusting. ihave got a friend who is going to help me with the decorating, and another friend is going to help with the down stairs loo, i just want to get it all finished now.write soon your one and only phil XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX(01/02/2004)

What he means is if he can get out of doing any of it himself he will. He's always putting on other people to do stuff for him, and mostly whines and moans so much to his dad that eventually his father ends up giving him money to pay someone to do it.

darling phil  
how are you today? not too tired from your busy weekend i hope. we had a busy day yesterday. peter surprised mum and dad with a visit so the children and i went over to theirs and stayed for the night. i have just got back. i'm a bit rushed because i have a patient at ten so i thought i would write to you get coffee brewed and get myself sorted before the day ahead. i have several consultations today and my last one is at 5.00. then i will have to write up the reports. must go now write later all my love your briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(01/02/2004)

I like to remind him how busy and active Briony is. Of course it goes over his head. Doesn't get that (although she is fictitious) a person can do a lot for themselves. I mean even though she is made up there are millions of people out there doing what she is doing, working, raising children and running a home by herself. Not like Phil griping and complaining about how hard everything is and looking for pity at every turn.

hello darling just a quick note to say i love you as i have to bathe the children and put them to bed. love you write soon your briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(02/02/2004)

hello darling briony i'm fine thankyou, just a little tired i think it's because i can't think of any thing else but you.i hope you don't mind me saying this but i think i am more than just i love with you, i am besotted with you.and i'm finding it really scary because i have never felt like this before. have you got any more brothers or sisters? and does your mum and dad live far from you? the 14th is getting really close now briony i hope you are still just as excited as i am? i still don't know what to wear on our date.i think i will go and buy lots of clothes and take back the ones i don't like.i must go now and cook the boys tea. have a lovely evening princess write soon love you phil XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX(02/02/2004)

Actually that's him all over because he can never make decisions for himself. Always has to follow someone else. His dress sense is particularly boring. Mostly he wears stuff that is very conservative and better suited to someone twenty years older than him. But he's so annoying because Mick is always up to date with his style and Phil just has to copy him. So much so that we don't let him see any of Mick's new clothes and shoes if we can help it, because he will go out and try and get an identical item. Then the cheeky bastard goes 'it looks better on me than it does on you'

darling phil it's quite a quiet day today, i only have two patients and one has just gone. the other is due at eleven so i have time to write a long message. no i don't have any other brothers or sisters there is just peter and me. mum and dad live about forty five minutes away but if we go there at the weekend we sometimes stay because then the children can go to sleep when they are tired and i can spend time with my parents and my brother if he is there, which is not often. peter has a girlfriend he has been dating for nearly two years but as yet he hasn't taken the plunge into marriage. i think his work is so demanding that he has little time for a social life and to be honest i think he likes it that way. he doesn't even want to live with her, with peter it will be marriage or nothing so we are waiting. she is quite a bit younger than him and i do know he would like his own children one day but the time has got to be just right for him. he was also furious with lawrence for what he did to me and we knew each other for a long time before we got married so peter will have to be 100% sure. i am very very excited about our date it's the only thing on my mind and i have to keep forcing myself to concentrate on my patients. i'm sure you will look handsome and sexy in anything so don't worry, simple and smart is what i like, dark trousers, a nice masculine shirt and jacket. you will look gorgeous and i feel myself getting aroused just thinking about you, meeting you in the flesh for real. i have to go now it's getting close to my next appointment. write later and love you with all my heart your briony xxxxxxxxxxx(03/02/2004)

darling briony thankyou for your lovely message, i don't know how i would feel if i never had a message from you, because it has became part of my life.lawrence must be one of those men who is never satisfied with what he's got in life, because he had a lovely wife two lovely children and a really nice house, what more doe's he want?doe's lawrence live far from you?and when you was married did your mum and dad and peter all like lawrence or did they have there doubts about him?i hope you don't mind me asking?our date and you is the only thing on my mind, ever thing else just goes over my head, i watched a dvd a few nights ago and at the end of the film i couldn't remember a thing about it, my mind is in the clouds and I've got you to blame.i was going to buy black trousers a nice jacket and a sexy shirt. but i don't really like wearing ties unless i have to, i dont like things round my neck. it must be when they tryed to hang me.only joking.i know that you will look sexy, because you are every thing that i like in a women.i get aroused just thinking of your name, because i think your name is so sexy. briony victoria bladentemple.are you sure you are real? write soon princess love you more than ever phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(03/02/2004)

God this is so hard sometimes. But very educational. We have known for years that Phil is selfish but like anyone you know there are always things that you either overlook or mostly just don't see. By doing this we are actually seeing more of the real Phil than we have ever seen. Having to flatter and pander to him takes it out of me at times and thankfully I have Mick to boost me up and remind me that what I have to say to Phil as Briony is not me and not real, because the thought of what my poor Maggie had to actually live with is devastating and brings me to tears. So I hang in there and keep up the sexy talk and flattering comments. But bloody hell, how can he speak about Lawrence the way he does when in the real world he's worse than him and is still cheating whenever he can.

dearest darling phil yes i am very real all woman and just for you. lawrence lives in london now and my family were very fond of him, that is what made it so hard for all of us. we were to our families and friends the perfect couple, but he just wanted more. you don't have to wear a tie if you don't want to just don't have the shirt open too far and please don't wear a medallion ha ha. my name has a hyphen in it but you can't put that on an email address so it looks all in one it is in fact briony victoria bladen-temple, what is your surname? i'm going to relax with some wine and a novel now so write later my darling i love you your brionyxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(03/02/2004)

hello my goddes that is really exciting to think that you are all mine. do you mean it?so you don't want me to wear my solid gold neck chain then?and a gold ring on every finger, because i like to look like dell boy. how about my earring? and will i have to hide all my tattoos?ha ha. i did know that your name had a hyphen but i didn't know where it was on the key pad but i do now.briony vitoria bladen-temple very very sexy. i will remember that name for the rest of my life. i must admit i never thought you would have a name like smith.briony victoria smith, that doesn't sound right.my name is really boring phil eugene ayres.what are you doing tonight is it the night for mr vibrator?i might go to the Kings arms with my dad for a meal this weekend, just to make sure it's ok for my princess. write soon i love you your phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (04/02/2004)

Doesn't he come across as just a teensy bit insecure? Oh no no no, not at all. He is just making sure she is devoting herself to him only. And Del Boy actually has more class than he could ever have. Of course to him Briony would not be quite the catch with an ordinary surname so the double barrelled name was intended to impress and snare. Notice he has to bring it all back to the sex too.

darling phil how has your day been. i have had a quiet morning and a very busy afternoon. i went out riding this morning it was lovely and mild and had several appointments this afternoon. i think i will go and have a soak and then spend some time with mr vibrator. your photo will be right by my side all of the time. what are you planning this evening?perhaps some day you will have just a little tattoo with my name on it, i quite like a gentle romantic tattoo, do you have any already or are you only joking because if you do have them i don't mind. it is getting so close now to the big day and i am so excited. i am off to the tub now so goodnight my prince dream of me and enjoy your dreams. yours as always briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(04/02/2004)

darling briony just a quick note.i was only joking about the tattoo and the earrings, but i would love one with your name on.the big day is very close and i am very excited,my photo is very lucky, but did you know there is a hidden camera in the eyes.goodnight princess sweet dreams love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(04/02/2004)

Oh he so wishes.

good morning darling i woke up this morning thinking of you and feeling very very randy. have a nice day your randy boy friend phil xxxxxxxxxxxxx(05/02/2004)

Puke puke retch retch. Horrible horrible picture in my head. But Mick and I do find it hilarious.

good afternoon my darling. well did you do something about your randiness this morning? i am taking a long lunch break, that means i have no appointments this afternoon, so time to myself. i think i will go into the city and do some shopping, i would like a new bag and makeup. i like to wander around the shops on my own it's so relaxing. when the children are with me i get worried i am going to lose one of them so it can be a bit stressful. i don't want to tell you what you can or can't do but i'm not sure i like the idea of you taking your dad to the Kings arms. it's just that it's going to be our very special place and somehow it takes the romanticism out of it to know you have been there for a casual meal with your father, do you understand what i mean? i don't want to upset you. i want to think of the place as ours, all sexy and romantic where we get together in real for the first time. a place to cherish and remember as ours. have you anything planned for this evening? i am taking the children to a birthday party so that will be hectic. i like to stay and help out but it will be tiring, still the children will be ready for bed tonight. write back soon all my love and lots of kisses your briony(05/02/2004)

hello darling i never had time to do something about my randiness, because i was late getting up.you haven't upset me, and you are so right about taking my dad to the Kings arms. it was really stupid of me, i do want it to be really special.and i am sure it will be because you are a very special lady.did you have a nice day doing your shopping?who looks after the childred or are they at school?you dont need to buy makeup i'm sure you look beautiful without it.i bet you look really sexy wearing lipstick? I've got nothing planned for tonight i think i will relax and watch tv, i have got a bit of a head cold.but i'm glad its now and not on the 14th.i have got to go now and cook the dinner i will write later love you your phil xxxxxxxxxxxxx(05/02/2004)

Yeah we got a phone call about that. Apparently he got up early and was re-reading some of Briony's messages and the words went straight to his penis. But get this, Shelley was in bed so he goes back to bed and wakes her to get the sexual satisfaction started by Briony but definitely finished by Shelley. That poor woman hope she sees through him soon. He can't hide his real self forever.

i am going to bed now briony so goodnight princess sleep well love you very much phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(05/02/2004)

good morning briony have a lovely day love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(06/02/2004)

ps i did do something about my randiness this morning xxxx(06/02/04)

darling phil i am sorry i didn't write again last night i came down with a tummy bug and felt really awful. i have cancelled all my appointments today and though the pains have gone i feel really worn out i was up most of the night. i am going to do nothing today except drink water and sleep. i will try and write later but if i don't i love you very much and will write soon all my love and kisses your briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx  
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Just needed a night off and Mick and I have plans of our own to sort out which you will of course find out about later hee hee.

princess you poor thing i hope you get well very soon, i'm not very well either I've got a really bad head cold, but its a good thing its this week and not next week.wouldn't that be awful if one of us was ill.i think that you are so excited about meeting me next week it's making you ill. i am not going to do much tonight i have been down to the shop in the village to buy something for my tea so i dont have to cook. and when i was in the shop i had a nice compliment the lady behind the counter asked my 19 year old if i was his brother and she wasn't joking.i need a shave and i look terrible.i was a little disappointed that you never sent any kisses with my last message, but you have made up for it on this one.briony don't worry about writing later if you are not well. get well soon my princess i love you very very much your sexy man phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(06/02/2004)

**That man. He always does it. Briony can't even be sick without him having to be ill too. Actually I remember Maggie getting properly pissed off at him for always being 'ill' whenever she went down with something. So one day she tells him she had sickness and diarrhoea when she didn't and on cue he comes back with his tummy had been hurting all day and he felt sick and clammy, but hadn't been sick yet. She didn't even bother to have a go at him about it, she knew he wouldn't admit to lying. So as well as being a narcissist I believe he may have Munchausen syndrome too**.

dearest phil i am completely well again it really was just a tummy bug. i was just so tired yesterday that i didn't have the energy to do anything but now i have had a good nights sleep i'm fine again. what are you doing today? just one week away and we will be together. take care of yourself and drink plenty of liquids and take paracetamol for that cold. we are both going to be perfectly fit next week i just know it. anyway nothing could keep me away from you. i have never looked forward to a valentine's day as much in my life. even when i was with lawrence we always went out and bought presents and cards but it all seemed expected. we had some earlier romantic days but nothing as exciting and romantic as this. what about you, what were your old valentine days like with your wife? i am booking myself into a beauty salon for saturday. i will be there all day. i am taking the children to mum and dad's in the morning and leaving them there for the weekend. i have told mum and dad that i am going on a date with a wonderful man, they were surprised i hadn't mentioned it before but i told them i had been getting to know you for some time but wanted to find out everything before i got the family involved. they were great about it as i knew they would be. anyway that leaves me free all weekend, so saturday day is going to be spent being pampered at the salon. then all i have to do is come home and get changed ready for you. maybe we will have breakfast together as well as dinner would you like that? i don't feel i am being too forward because we have known each other for so long now and have been very intimate in a special way, it's not like sex on the first date because i don't really think of this as our first date do you? of course if you feel i am going too fast tell me because i don't want anything to spoil this valentine's night and i would hate for you to think i jump into bed at the drop of a hat. because i am not going to be with the children next weekend i am taking them out today so i had better go and round them up now. write to me soon darling all my love to you briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx  
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darling briony i am really glad you are better i will write later because i have lots to do before 7pm when i am going to my friends house for dinner.  
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darling briony i am really sorry but this is going to be a short messsage,i have been into town to buy some clothes for our date, and when i got back my friends from Brackenley turned up and they have just left i think i told you i am going to my friends house for dinner if i dont get back to late i will write later or tomorow morning. and i would just like to say that i would love to have breakfast with you. i will write more soon love you lots phil XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX(07/02/2004)

Well once again he's so nice, not, he's a prick. We didn't turn up, he rang and asked us to come round to check out the clothes he bought for the date. We spent an hour watching him prance up and down in a new suit, shirt and shoes. He wanted to know how he should wear it, like buttoned up with a tie, no tie or casually with the shirt lose and the jacket unbuttoned. We told him to ditch the tie but tuck the shirt in and button the jacket. Really I don't know how we pulled it off. Every time I looked at Mick I could see he wanted to burst out laughing and of course that got me too, but I managed to control it perfectly. Phil being so absorbed in himself as usual missed our little act and what an act it was, we both deserve Oscars for that performance. What he didn't tell us was that he was going out to dinner, something else we find out through Briony. She really is quite useful.

darling phil have a lovely time at your friends house and enjoy your meal. soon we will be able to go to places as a couple, that will be nice won't it. don't you get tired of being on your own when you get invited out i know i do. i know not all of my friends are couples but most of them are. enjoy yourself and write soon all my love just for you briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(07/02/2004)

hello princess i have just got back in the house and i am a little tipsy, i did enjoy  my self but i keep thinking about you, i want to be with you so much. but it's not long now and we will be together. i will write tomorow and answer all your questions from your last message. i love you and want you so much goodnight my sexy lady nxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (08/02/2004)

darling briony i had a nice time at my friends house, yes i do miss you not being with me but we will soon be together.i am very tired this morning i went to sleep as soon as my head hit the pillow last night but i woke up a few hours later thinking about you and the 14th.i would love to have breakfast with you and i don't think you would jump into bed at the drop of a hat, but i do think if we both want to have sex then that fine, but if one of us is not sure then maybe not. i just don't want to spoil things between us. but i am allways having sex with you and i hope you don't mind me telling you this but the reason why i keep waking up is because i can see you laid in the bed wearing your sexy underwear, and then i pull your thong to one side and lick you untill you are really wet and then you orgasm.valentines day was never like this with my wife it was just like any other day. i have never been so excited in all my life. but it has made me very tired and a little stressed because i am not sleeping very well and all i think about is you. i am really glad that you trust me enough to tell your mum and dad thankyou. i hope they like me.i hope every thing i have said makes sense to you. i am not very good at expressing my self when i'm tired i will write more later write back soon love you very much phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (08/02/2004)

He's no good at expressing himself ever.

good afternoon my darling we have been out on the horses all morning and have not been in long. i was up quite early and had breakfast on my own then when the children got up we all went out riding. the weather was all over the place, windy, sunny and then wet and back to sunny again. still it was exhilarating. sorry about the rainbows today but i have some business emails to write and somehow i don't think they would look too professional with pretty colours on them. i will put them back for my next message. i have to go now and get the children's lunch and then i must do some more work. love you so much your briony xxxxxxxxxxxx(08/02/2004)

good afternoon princess its funny you should talk about rainbows because there was a rainbow in the sky yesterday, and it made me think of you.what time do you call early?i have had my dad round for dinner and he has just left.i hope you didn't mind me talking about your underwear? only i do find it really sexy. i forgot to ask you where do you wan't to eat breakfast? and it's really lovely that you are going to so much trouble just for me, and i'm sure you will look stunning on saturday. i just hope that when i see you i can keep my hands off you.write soon love you phil XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX(08/02/2004)

dear darling phil how are you today. did you have a nice dinner with your dad? did you cook and what was it you had, a sunday roast? i was up at six this morning that is early for a weekend. what else have you been doing today? i was kind of thinking that my house would be an ideal place for breakfast since my children will be away but if you are not sure then don't worry it's not something i want to get into an argument about, i just thought you would be as keen as i am. i am going to watch a movie on tv tonight i don't know what yet i haven't looked to see what's on, i might just curl up with a dvd and a glass of wine. i'm really quite tired today it's been a hectic day. still now it's quiet and peaceful, the children are asleep and i can relax. so goodnight my darling write soon all my love brionyxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(08/02/2004)

A little teaser. He will sponge up the thought of going to her house.

darling briony i am fine thankyou but i'm going to bed early tonight.yes i did cook dinner and we had gammon steak and chips and veg.your house will be a fantastic place to have breakfast.you wouldn't believe how excited i am about next weekend.goodnight and sweet dreams my rainbow all my love phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(08/02/2004)

Cook, if that's what you call it. Everything straight out of the freezer, the chips and gammon in the oven and the vegetables in the microwave.

darling briony how are you.what have you been doing today?i have just got in from work and i don't know weather to go to jive. i don't think i will i have still got this cold.i dont want to be tired for the weekend, i am going somewhere very special to meet this beautiful women.how will you get to the Kings arms on saturday?i will write more later, i have got to cook dinner.write soon my little rainbow love phil XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (09/02/2004)

hello my darling. phew what a day it has been. i have had consultations all day and three referrals which i have had to find appointments for in the next two days. i have spent most of my lunch time on the phone and at one point nearly choked on my sandwich because i was trying to eat and talk at the same time. usually i don't have appointments after the children come home but occasionally i have to and today was one of those days. i always like to spend time with them before they go to bed so i have not had any time to myself until now. now the reports are out of the way and i can write to you. what sort of day have you had? i won't be driving on saturday because i want to drink and i won't drink anything at all if i drive myself so i will probably get one of the staff to bring me. if all goes well you will be driving me home unless you're not bringing your car, are you? i think in a little while i am going up to my tub for a long soak and some hydro therapy. the bubbling water is really very erotic, it will get me going just enough to then play with mr phil vibrator. i can spend quite a long time with it doing all sorts, i will tell you personally when we are together. maybe we will both play with it, it has quite a collection of attachments to give the utmost pleasure. of course the ultimate pleasure will be what you yourself can give me and i CANNOT wait. tomorrow is going to be busy too as i have to do an assessment consultation for one of the referrals. that usually means lots of little sessions which i have to fit in around my other appointments but i should get finished before the children are home, at least i am determined to be. i may be a working mum but they come first and though my job is important what sort of psychologist would i be if i didn't put the needs of my own little angels first? anyway darling, this body needs her enjoyment so goodnight and sweet dreams of your rainbow. write soon all my love for always briony xxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(09/02/2004)

goodnight briony i am going to bed now my head is thumping,and i am sulking because you have not sent me a message. love phil xxxxxxx(09/02/2004)

God what an immature arsehole. Obviously he didn't get Briony's message before he went to bed so sulked because he thought she hadn't written. He's worse than a demanding toddler.

darling i'm sorry i couldn't write sooner last night. anyway i am taking a very quick break it's another busy day that's why no rainbows i am in business mode. i will write tonight and i love you very much your briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(10/02/2004)

hello darling briony.how are you today?please don't worry if you don't write untill later in the day, i do understand that you are a very clever and busy girl, and very sexy.i had a bad day yesterday.i had a problem with the car but i had it fixed today. and i was going to have a small operation at the doctors surgery on thursday to remove a sist but the doctor cancelled it.i'm really annoyed because i'm a real baby where blood is involved. i had one removed about two years ago and i nearly past out.i will be driving on saturday to the Kings arms, but i would like to have a drink.so if thats ok with you we could get a taxi to your house.how was mr phil vibrator last night did it make you nice and wet?i have been called a few things in my time but never a vibrator.your vibrator is not the only thing i will be playing with.i will give you lots of pleasure.don't worry if you dont have time to write later. i am going to bed early tonight so goodnight princess i love you very very much phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (10/02/2004)

Yeah yeah a real sex God. I sometimes wonder exactly why his previous women haven't stayed. Maybe they find out about his cheating, or maybe they just find out about him. I mean he always says he's the one doing the finishing with the old cliché 'she never understood me' which I think actually means that the girl has probably dumped him. Once after a couple of glasses of wine, Maggie told me that as soon as Phil comes he stops and pulls out, and that it's usually very quick. She said he was never bothered about her, just his own satisfaction. Doesn't surprise me.

good evening my darling phil how are you tonight? well it has been another rather difficult day but i made sure i was free when the children finished school. we have had dinner, read together and watched tv. now they are tucked up snug and i have the evening to myself. what sort of day have you had? mr phil was extremely busy last night, i was so relaxed and aroused after my bath from the bubbling water and scented foam and mr phil just made my night. tomorrow will not be too bad i have two appointments in the morning and just a referral in the afternoon. potentially that could be tricky but until i see the child i won't know. only a few more days left and we will be together. what do you like for breakfast? we will have the whole house to ourselves saturday night and first thing in the morning and then there will just be a couple of staff from about mid morning but they will not be anywhere near to us, so we can indulge ourselves as much as we like. i am so excited i think i am going to explode. what are you going to do tonight? i am going to have a rest you know just tv and a glass of wine and then bed so i can build my energy up for the weekend. write soon all my love and all my kisses your briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx  
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**Thought a bit of sex talk was necessary so close to the 'date'**.

darling phil how are you tonight? well like i said the new child could be tricky and was. the child is extremely disturbed. it's quite complicated, he comes from a very good stable family so no abuse or neglect. it is going to take some work to unlock this little mite. where abouts is this cyst you have? i hope it is nothing sinister and don't worry about having it removed, be my big brave phil. maybe when you get your next appointment i could come along and hold your hand. saturday is so close now i am so looking forward to us meeting. how are you feeling, are you nervous, no second thoughts i hope, you would tell me if you had wouldn't you? have you decided what you are going to wear? there is a new series of footballers wives on tv tonight which i love so i will be watching that. have you any plans for this evening? write to me soon darling and keep loving me like i love you your briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(11/02/2004)

The problem child is very much a part of the plan not just conversation filler, so be ready for everything to fall into place.

briony did you get my email about 10 minutes ago iv'e had problems with the computer love phil xxxxx(11/02/2004)

hello darling briony have you had a good day? i have had trouble signing on to oly, one of the boys put a pass code on the computer, i have been trying for about two hours to sign on. so just a short message tonight princess.i really don't mind what we have for breakfast, but you will have to be careful because i might eat you.i really can't believe we are going to have the whole house to ourselves, it's making me quite nervous, but i'm sure you will calm me down.perhaps on sunday we can go for a walk and you can take me to see you horse, make sure that you have lots of batteries for you know who.goodnight princess it will soon be the weekend love you phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(11/02/2004)

Oh so that was what the phone call was about. We don't answer the phone in the evenings much nowadays in case it is him, so our daughter answers and if it is him tells him we are not available. He tries to get out of her where we are but she's like a doctor's receptionist, won't give anything away. He used to ask her how to solve his computer problems, mostly how to spell a word, but since she told him to go and buy a dictionary he hasn't bothered.

I think he might be missing the point here. Just because she mentioned the vibrator and playing with it together I would have thought that such a sex machine like Phil wouldn't need any toys, that he would be able to pleasure her all by himself. I wish you could see my face because I am genuinely smirking.

just a quick message my darling in between watching my programme. yes i got your messages. i'm glad your pc is ok i couldn't bear not hearing from you, but if you get stuck again don't worry i will know you haven't written because you had a problem. goodnight my darling love you always your briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(11/02/2004)

thankyou briony i was watching footballers wifes as well. i'm going to bed now feeling very randy because the girl in the red underwear reminds me of you. i will write tomorow goodnight sweet dreams love you very much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx)

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darling just a quick message.one of my new patients has had a major psychological event. this means I have to go to the child so if i don't write again today don't worry i will explain in detail when i write next. love you lots your briony

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We were rather busy that is why Briony couldn't write any more today, just pulling together the final part of the plan. Please don't think too badly of us, hopefully by now you realise what kind of man Phil is.

hello darling briony how are you did you sort out that child?i won't try and understand what a major psychological event means,i couldn't even spell the word.did you watch footballers wives last night?i did and i thought it was quite sexy,now i know why you like watching it you naughty girl.thankyou for saying that you would come with my and hold my hand when i have my cyst removed, that makes me feel really good, and thankyou for showing me how to spell it.the doctors surgery rang me today and said that they are going to make me an appointment at the hospital to have it removed.well it is in a nasty place and it's where men have a vasectomy., the doctor said it's nothing to worry about but i do wan't it removed because i am embarrassed about it.i hope it hasn't put you off me?no i

haven't got second thoughts about saturday i think it's very exciting, i have never felt this way about a women that i have never seen and never spoken to on the phone. but i would be lying if i said that i wasn't nervous, because i am very nervous.how about you? i think i will wear a suit with a very loose tie, but i have got a day off work tomorow so i might change my mind. don't worry if you haven't got time to write later. i will keep loving you princess with all my heart. phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (12/02/2004)

goodmorning princess just a quick message.i received a lovely red letter in the post but i wont open it untill tomorow.and i think its your hand writing.i'm just a little annoyed but not with you, because i don't know your address.iv'e had the impression that you don't want me to know your address, that doesn't worry me it's just that i can't send you a card. it just that i did wan't to send you a card.i just hope that you know that i love you. must go now darling have a lovely day your phil XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (13/02/2004)

Sending something physical to him keeps him on his toes. Keeps him believing in her and what better than a real valentine card.

dearest darling phil how are you this evening. it has been another hectic day. basically the child flipped out big time at home, i had to go and try and sort it out. because it is a child we have to take things slowly and patiently. however if after twenty four hours the child is still severely unsettled then we have the option of a committal. that is why i had to stay for as long as it took. it was a long day but luckily the child was kept out of hospital for now at least. thankfully these things only happen once in a while so i don't often have to deal with them. well to answer your questions yes i am extremely excited and nervous about tomorrow but i cannot wait. of course your cyst doesn't bother me but i hope it doesn't cause you discomfort. after tomorrow you will know where i live and it doesn't matter about a card i would rather have you in the flesh so i can touch you and kiss you and feel you. i probably won't get time to write tomorrow because of getting the children to mum's and then i'm off to the salon all day to get ready for you. yes i did watch footballer's wives i have watched the last two series and i enjoy it very much, not just because it is sexy though there is a lot of that in it. well i am off to have a relaxing bath with the bubbles and the wine then a dvd or a movie on sky and bed. of course mr phil will be out in full force tonight and tomorrow the real mr phil i hope. well my darling have a lovely evening and i will meet you in the bar where you will have my black russian waiting tomorow night and that will be the real beginning of our future. all my love to you your as always briony xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx  
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So writing that last message was a planning marvel. Why you ask. Well simply put we are in Los Angeles. We had to work out the time difference then hopped off to an internet café where we relaxed with great coffee, sunshine outside and wrote to Phil. Now you can see why we had to create the seriously disturbed child for Briony to treat. We had so much to do getting prepared for our holiday which by the way, Phil knows nothing about, that we had to have a very good excuse for her not to message him.

hello princess happy valentine's day. and thankyou for your lovely card.just a short message and maybe the last, that sounds really sad after six months of writing.i have been feeling really nervous today, but i'm sure i will be fine later when i meet my rainbow. so i will see you at 730 with a black russian on the bar.love you lots your phil xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(14/02/2004)

Ours is.

thankyou very very much that was very clever, have a lovely life(14/02/2004)

You guessed! Yes he was stood up. For the first time in his life someone did to him what he has been doing to women for years. Now comes the really good stuff. Remember Phil thinks this woman is a beautiful rich woman. He thinks she only knows what he has told her. Read on and you will see what is like a punch to the gut.

well you really had me fooled. i thought i was a good judge of character but you are one very good actor or maybe as you said you have a comedian friend and this is just your strange sense of humour. i believed everything you told me because i believed you loved me, how wrong could i get? it has taken me days to even think about writing. i have had to put on such a cheerful appearance with my children and patients when inside i have been crying and falling apart. now at least i feel ready to get angry. i went to my parents on saturday morning to drop off the children. what a day i was expecting, so excited and brimming with love for a man who just wanted to cheat on me. i was very surprised to find my brother there and even more surprised when he told me he was taking me out on our own. i argued that i had a fully booked day but he told me that was why he needed to take me out because he had to talk to me. mum and dad obviously knew something because they kept telling me the children would be fine and to go with peter. i was furious but confused, everything was planned and the day was going to be ruined but i had to go and just as well. as i have told you before, peter is a barrister and knows a lot of influential people who have other connections. what he told me turned my world upside down. unknown to me, for some time now peter has been worried about our relationship and decided to have the man he knew i had fallen for checked out and oh boy did he find out some things. obviously you were only interested in my money and must have thought you had landed well and truly on your feet. i forgave you when you told me the house in your photos belonged to your friends. that didn't really matter. i didn't even catch on when you kept telling me how you couldn't afford things, i was blinded by love, but when it was pointed out to me that you are not in research and development in engineering but a welder making catering equipment, somewhat different from the career you tried to get me to believe. you even tried to con me into believing the job you were applying for was high profile. it was so obvious i felt stupid. you know it would not have made any difference if you had told me from the beginning. that was not so bad but then i was told more. your are not even forty two you are forty six, that could have made a difference if i had know that, i'm not that into men so much older than me. the worst of all though was the cheating. you had the audacity to accuse me of writing to someone else on locus, even gave me the cheating wife senario to make me feel bad that i might have upset you, when all along you have been SLEEPING with other women one especially from your jive class, a woman called shelley. you see my brother was very thorough. i didn't want to believe it but all the evidence was there for me to see. one specific day sticks out. you wrote to me late one night and told me you had been visiting your friends, but you were with this woman. all of this has been logged. you told me you were not going on locus for a while so that i wouldn't either. i recently looked at your guestbook after what i have learned and there right in front of me was a message from a woman asking why you hadn't written, yet you told me a very long time ago that you were not writing to ANY other women.i wonder how many more there are that you have said the same things to on locus. there were also little things to gain my sympathy, the dog bite, you have not had a dog for nearly a year now so how could it bite you a few months ago? all the talk of depression no doubt that was a ploy too as you seem to have a very active social and sex life. what were you hoping for? a rich good looking woman to move in on. oh i bet you were rubbing your hands together when you knew how i had fallen for you. you knew i had not been with anyone else since lawrence and you used that. i bet you were curled up laughing on the night we had cyber sex, you're probably skilled at that too but made out it was the first time. i expect you have had a great laugh with your work mates. you really had me conned, you are undoubtedly very skilled at it. now i know i was right not to give you my address before, i don't want to be looking over my shoulder all of the time. well i have learned a very valuable lesson and i will not repeat my mistake again. maybe there is someone on locus who is genuine. there was one guy who wrote to me and i didn't carry on writing because i thought i was going to be with you and you were bothered by the fact that he and i had a locus date, but he has still sent me messages so maybe i will start to get to know him now and maybe what he tells me will be the truth. i will pick up my life and yes maybe soon i will have a lovely life it's not too bad now with my family supporting me, you however will have a sad life if all you want to do is con wealthy women and sleep around. maybe i am better out of it because i don't want to pick up some nasty sexually transmitted disease from a man who has no respect for women. you once told me you were loving and loyal, i really don't think so. love and loyalty don't correlate with what you have done to me. from briony(19/02/2004)

So there it is. Thrown right in his face. Of course Briony waited to haul him over the coals. We were still in Los Angeles and didn't want to waste anymore of our holiday spent in an internet café, but also we thought letting him stew a bit would wind him up even more.

briony i was quite distressed at the message that i received today .i need to iron out a ref slight deviations from the truth that may have misled you, to your verdict of me.i did twist the truth slightly, but i was going to tell you when we met face to face . but nothing i told you would have really mattered if true feeings were involed.  
point one. i have done r and d work before and as the job i am in at present will not be for long i intend to chang in the non distant future to bathroom fitting with a friend.but i told you that.i am not sure where you got this high profile commet from  
point two age i am not the only one in the world that fibs about their age and a 4 year gap is hardly a hanging offence i have been told i do not look my age  
point three cheating i admit that a friend from jive attached herself nicely to me. but as our relationship grew i knew that i had to end my friendship with shelley . shelley has always made the running, i did not love shelley she as had lots of family problems and i have difficult to break away i just wanted to help. but she fell in love with me. she thought there was more to our friendship. you can ask my friends and they will tell you all about shelley. and how i tryed to get away from her. she is very bitter and i was going to tell you about her.  
point four all the way through our contact i have told you that i dont care about money , i wated you because i really really fell i love with you, i told you that i didn't care if you lived in a council house. from your side i can see that a young women with money is a gold diggers challenge, but please please believe me that was not the case with me. and i can say that on my life. i was worried about the fact that you had money. your comment on rubbing my hands together has really upset me that you thought i was a gold digger . dont you understand i fell i love with you briony.not your money i dont give a tose about your money.i am very upset that you think i con wealthy women and that i sleep around if you really knew me at all you would know that is not the case. you can ask my jive friends.  
if you would really like to know more about me i can give you my friends names and numbers who would confirm that i am a genuine person and not the monster that your brother thinks that i am. unless he knows whats inside my heart.  
i am in reality a quiet man who only wished to get to know you better.i have had and will have for the rest of my life genuine feelings for you. you said that i had an entry from another women i had stopped writing to her because i fell i love with you.and my dog did bite me. ok it was about seven months ago.what more can i say.but i do want to say that the i have never felt this way about a women before in all my life i love you so much briony. i patiently waited for you on valentines day i was really devastated. the flowers that i brought for you are wilting, and i brought a teddy bear with princess on its chest and i want you to have that teddy because i dont care what your brother thinks because i really really love you so much briony and i will never never forget you. when i left the Kings arms i was really upset i was so upset that i cryed and cryed. i told you that i havent slept for weeks thinking about you and that is the truth and i cant sleep now. i know i have upset you and i am very very sorry please dont think badly of my because i am not a bad person. and i know you dont think this but i am very loving and loyal and i was going to tell you all this on our date because i did not want to hide things from you. and you say i sleep with lots of women if you remember i did not want to sleep with you on saturday because i wanted to tell you all about me first, you tell me how many men would turn down sleeping with you on the first night.i am really tired and i need try and get some sleep.briony i love you very much and i never ment to hurt you and please be happy. because i dont know how i am going to get over you.i will allways love you princess xxxxxx(19/02/2004)

briony i can't sleep please please would you meet me in person, i just want to see you and talk i dont think i can go the rest of my life without seeing you please i beg you.(20/02/2004)

briony please talk to me, i need to talk to you and explain things to you, i'm not a con man or a comedian. i am a 46 yaer old man who fell madly in love with you and not your money. i dont think you know how much i love you, i worship you and i just cant stop thinking about you.please talk to me.i really want to see you i person(20/02/2004)

very nice phil, flowery, romantic and almost believing except you forget my brother is very wealthy too and only hires the best. he has only provided me with facts not opinion, remember facts are his line of work, that is what he has to present in court so he is not going to tell me what he thinks of you he gave me the information to read, the photos to look at and let me make up my own mind. this poor woman must be totally devasted and i am not surprised she is bitter. who wouldn't be when they find out the man they have been having regular sex with and for a few months is cheating on her. don't try to pretend you have been doing the good samaritan bit again. why not come out with the truth for a change and admit you have been having sex with her, i know this and so do you why deny it. the information peter gave me tells me you have only recently finished this relationship, you have been telling me for months that there has been no relationships between you and the members of the jive club, yet shelley is exactly that. you could give me your friends names and numbers, but (unless you are lying again) you have only been going to jive for six months so how well could these people really know you and since it seems a relatively close knit group i'm sure they would tell me what you want them to. so you have had a career in research and development, a high profile career? i once asked you what field you graduated in, you didn't answer. so i ask again what field did you graduate in for your research and development career and why give up such a rewarding and challenging job to become a welder or bathroom fitter, that must be rather boring after seeing your ideas and innovations taking shape. i also had a little email chat with one of your locus friends. you know the one you haven't been writing to because you only wanted me. she seems a really nice person and obviously likes to have a good time. she didn't mind me asking about you but i did find out that although you don't write to each other all that frequently you do keep in regular contact, so just another little lie or as you put it ' twist the truth slightly '. i do happen to think that you being nine years older than me is important and you say you were going to tell me all of these things when we met and that they would not have been important. all i can say is it is just as well i found out first because had you have told me you were a forty six year old welder that has been sleeping with another woman you might have been eating the flowers and teddy because i think i would have rammed them down your throat. obviously your morals are far removed from mine if you think these things are not important. even now you feel no guilt and still try to pretend i have got it wrong. remember i deal with people's minds all of the time and delving for absolute truths is part of that so all your protestations of love and denial won't wash with me. from briony(20/02/2004)

briony you really dont think much of me do you? and i will not gloss the truth.it was really wrong of my to say that i was 42. and this was my first and last time i will use the internet to date. but i will go to love locus to delete my profile.and this was my first time on internet dating. and yes it was really stange for me and so many of my friends told me not to get in involved with the internet.dating.but i never made the first move when writing if you remember even you wrote first. and then you started writing to me. and i thought god this is really good.at the same time as i met shelley and another month went by and you was still writing to me.and i was coming home from work and on to locus and taking to you and i was still with shelley but just friends and one night i got this message from you telling me you love me. and i just did not really know what to think.but i was thinking how can she love me and i told a close friend this and he told me that you was winding me up. and i told him no she loves me.and i was getting feelings for you and the weeks went by and we was still writing to each other and i was getting more feeling for you.and i told another close friend about you and he said have you seen this women. and i said yes a photo when she was at uni i think she must be about 19, and he said well how do you know its a photo of this women. and i said well she has told me it is. and he said she can tell you anything and then i was getting really confused because i was getting more feelings for you, and yes still seeing shelley but i didn't love shelley i loved you, and i thought well do i tell shelley that i dont love her i love a women on the internet that i have never seen never spoken to on the phone and haven't got a recent photo and at this time shelley is going through a really bad time with her family and is very deprest and suicidal but as weeks passed i was getting to love you more and more and i was trying to move away from shelley without hurting her and my friends would tell you this and no my friend are not liers and they would tell you the truth.and then i was really getting to love you and i have never love a women like i loved you.so yes i did tell shelley about you and i do know that i should have told shelley her sooner.and briony i do feel guilty because i didn't want to hurt you because i loved you more than my ex wife,and i have never seen your face. briony dont worry i won't write to you again.but i just want to say that i am very very sorry that i hurt youand i really hope you find happiness in your life, and that i really loved you and i dont know how i am going to get over you. phil xxx(20/02/2004)

i see you are still glossing over the truth. you keep talking about his woman as only a friend making out that was the sum of the relationship. i cannot understand why you just don't admit that you were having sex with her when you were writing to me and telling me i was the only woman you wanted. so many messages saying there was no one else, that none of the women at jive meant anything, that they were just dance partners. you say this relationship was purely friendship because she was going through a bad time and was suicidal. so did you think sleeping with her would help? if as you say you loved me so much how did you manage to become aroused enough to have sex with someone you had no feelings for? please don't try to pretend that you had stopped sleeping with her once you realised you loved me because that was quite some time ago now at the beginning of december when i told you i loved you. you were still having sex with her up until fairly recently so a strange way of loving someone don't you think? if you could at least come completely clean about all of this i might be able to begin to forgive the betrayal but all the while you try to make excuses and deny you were cheating on me i cannot forgive, i just feel angry. i was totally loyal to you, all of the time i was getting some satisfaction from imagining you were my vibrator which i bought especially with you in mind you were getting the real thing behind my back. all i need is the total truth not an edited version to make you feel less guilty. Briony(21/02/2004)

briony please please believe me yes i did have sex with shelley, and the first time was about six months ago, and within those six months we never hade sex more than 4 times. because i was pushing shelley away from me, i only wanted to be her friend, even at jive i sat away from her and i would allways dance with other women, she was allways arguing with me because i wasn't showing her any attention.i never saw shelley more than once a week and that was at jive most of the time.she was allways asking me to go round her house, and i allways made an excuse and said that i was busy, even on the jive weekend i slept in a different room to shelley, she even accused me of turning gay because i didn't want to have sex with her.shelley was a big mistake and so was having sex with someone that i was not in love with,yes i should have made it clear to shelley weeks ago that i just wanted to be her friend, but if you got your imformation from shelley please dont take to much notice, because i have been told lots about shelley.when i said to you that no one else means any thing to me its the truth, you are the only women that as made me feel like this, i have never known what love is untill now, why do you think i feel so ill, i'm not eating my head is pounding my throat is inflamed with white spots and i feel really shit, and i have got no interest in anything.i know you are angry and hurt and that really upsets me, but just think about me i have been writing to you for six months now and i think the world of you, and i was so excited on the 14th i went in to the Kings arms at 6 45 and i waited and waited for you and ever time that door opened i was so excited because i thought it was you. and all these couples was walking in together, and i was at the bar untill 830 just waiting for you, and when you never turned up i was devastated, the only women that i have ever loved never turned up, i drove so fast coming home i was here in ten minutes.peter as only dug the dirt up about me but you can do that with anyone, he has made me sound like a convict, what about the good side of phil ayres, get him to ask my friends about me because i have got nothing to hide.how about ringing the police because he wont find a thing on me. i can imagine how you feel and i am so sorry, i am feeling very guilty i dont want to hurt you and i dont want to hide thing from you. i have messed up big time. but you have got to believe me iwill allways tell you the hole truth.i dont want your money i told you that all i want is to be with you.i love so much its hurting me.(22/02/2004)

goodnight briony, please forgive me (22/02/2004)

briony i can't sleep and i really need to talk to you, and not by writing (22/02/2004)

briony just a quick note before i go to work we have been writing now for over six months yes i have fell in love with you, you no every thing about me, but how do i know that you are 5.2 with blond hair you could be winding me up, you could be a man before all i know, all i have wanted from you is just that little bit more, like a phone call or a recent photo of you, i did ask you for photo why have you been hiding away from me.do you see how its been making me feel.i must go now phil xxx (22/02/2004)

hello briony how are you today? are you still talking to me, i really miss your lovely messages please write soon love phil xxxxxxx (23/02/2004)

i still love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(23/02/2004)

i once told you you had a sarcastic streak, well it is that or just down right nasty. maybe your friends have been chatting to you again, they once accused me of being a male lorry driver wasn't it? well i am exactly as i told you, it is not me who has been telling lies. if by protecting myself and my children by not giving out photos or phone numbers was so disconcerting then why keep the relationship going? i was all prepared for our meeting, by then stupidly i trusted you with all my heart, you ruined that by lying. so by your calculations then you have been seeing shelley for six months and slept with her for the first time six months ago. that means you were having a relationship when we started writing since we have not been writing for six months until the beginning of march. yet you claimed to be single. you made it very clear that none of the women at your jive class were anything more than dance partners. very strange though that i receive a message from you quite early one weekend morning not long before christmas when you were telling me i was the only woman in your life and your girlfriend was still there from staying overnight. what did you do leave her in bed asleep whilst you wrote to me? peter didn't dig up the dirt on you and believe me we know you do not have a criminal record. you don't just phone the police and ask there are certain procedures. obviously that was one of the first things peter had checked. all he did was make sure the man his sister fell in love with was what he said and luckily for me he did find out before i made a real mistake and allowed you in my home and near my children. but even now you won't tell the complete truth. why keep trying to make out it is someone else's fault? for your information none of what i know came from shelley. you are extremely cruel to try and tell me she is disturbed and to try and blame her how many times do i need to tell you, my brother doesn't need to rely on chitchat for information, he only deals with professionals. i am not sure anymore what sort of person you are. i have already discovered that you appear to have no conception of time in the real world as none of your dates match up. or maybe it's just because your living one big lie and cannot get the truth straight in your own head. i suppose the biggest and probably the sickest lie you have told so far is about your brother. you wrote me such a sob story of how depressed you were because your brother had died two years ago, not long in most people's eyes to begin getting over it, so looking for sympathy and i gave it. in reality though your brother died in december 2000 that is three years. how could anyone not know or forget the exact year their brother died if he meant that much to you. i know if it was peter that date would stick in my heart for ever. love me? i really don't think you know the meaning of love. to you it is a selfish act of self preservation, a way of achieving satisfaction just for yourself without a thought for who you are stepping on. you led shelley on, you led me on i just wonder how many others there are that have heard your flowery words and received your romantic gestures. i would have mailed you the vibrator but that went out with last weeks' rubbish with your photo and all of the underwear and other items i bought for our time together. any more excuses phil?(23/02/204)

**Then came the phone call. We have been waiting to see if he would tell us what happened and he did. I answered and straight away put it on speaker phone for Mick to hear too. Is first words were 'Ang I've fucked up'. Of course I ask what he's talking about. So he goes 'with Briony' and I ask what happened. He then comes out with 'her brother has had someone watching my house 'cos he knows everything about me' I mumble something because both of us are laughing so hard silently. Have you ever tried to do that? It's really difficult. Anyway he jabbers on and on about how Peter has found out all this stuff about him and about Shelley, he skips over the parts that involve us. What he hasn't caught onto though is that nobody has ever mentioned Maggie. But still he's proper freaked out that Peter has had him investigated.** **So I tell him to calm down and tell me everything. Of course he spills it all out. He tells me that he went to meet her on Valentine's night but she didn't turn up, the whining voice starts 'I had this little teddy bear and roses too, cost me a fortune' that he was so embarrassed sitting at the bar waiting. He says he got angry and finally went home and sent her a message. Then he gets all loud and tells us she messages him back and she knows everything. 'Fuck me Angie, her brother must have had someone sitting outside my house or tapping my phone because he's told Briony everything like when Shelley stayed over and where I went. It's fucking scary what people with money can do'. We are holding our bellies to stop ourselves from laughing out loud. He doesn't think for one moment that the real truth is so much closer to home. Then he goes on about how he's fucked up the best thing that ever happened to him. Outright he tells us that he could have been onto a really good thing with a millionairess with a huge house. That he would never have had to work again. That he had lost all the nice things he could have had, a fast car, nice designer clothes, but not once does he say anything about the loss of a love, the loss of Briony as a person. As usual it's the material things that matter to him. So anyway I manage to sound sympathetic when I can speak normally again and tell him maybe she will forgive him, knowing full well that will not happen. He says he's going to try and get her back but again, of course that will not happen, we have other plans for Briony. Eventually he runs out of moans and whines and gets off the phone. Mike and me properly burst out laughing then excited that our plan worked.** **We decide to keep a check on the website to see if he does try and get her back and what excuses he uses.**

briony it doesn't matter what i say any more i just think i am lying about everything, yes my brother did die in december 2000 the day before his 50th birthday,sorry if i told you wrong, but you are right i am not very good at remembering dates.but i do remember that one,it has really upset me because you think i am sick,and you think that i would hurt your children. all i have wanted for a long time now is to love a women like i loved you, and a women to love me like you loved me, and i found that love and i have completely messed up,briony i am vevy sorry i hurt you we had such a lovely thing going together. i just feel so bad and angry with my self.you are a really lovely women and iv;e lost you. briony do you want me to stop writing or can we be friends. phil xx(24/02/2004)

Thought we would lead him on for just a bit longer before the final blow.

don't know about being friends i need time to think this over. you broke my trust and my heart and betrayed me i cannot ignore that. i am going to need some space to think things through it has been a long time getting to know you and i thought i did know you, now i feel let down and hurt. as i said i will need time to myself . i will be in touch. briony (24/02/2004)

thankyou briony i swear on my life that i won't hurt you or let you down again, if you do write back, i know that you like dancing, and i would love to take you, and you can give me a big smack on the face because i deserve it. phil xxx(24/02/2004)

briony i'm still in love with you xxx (25/02/2004)

hello briony i hope you don't mind me writing to you?i hope you are feeling ok,i have been reading your old messages you know the nice ones with the rainbows, and i feel really angry with myself because iv'e hurt you.briony i'm really sorry. phil xxxx(26/02/2004)

hello briony i have just got back from london, i went to a food and drink exhibition, with some friends from work and i bought myself a bottle of black russian cocktail.briony i'm really missing you phil xxxx(27/02/2004)

briony i a m reallly missing you do you still wan't me , if you don't then please tell me, because i cant go on for to much longer i really love you phil xxxx(29/02/2004)

briony sorry about that last message i had been drinking, i am going to give you time to think, phil xxx(29/02/2004) 

# Month 7

hello briony i hope you are feeling ok, i just wanted say i'm feeling lost without you, and i'm missing you really badly love phil xxx(02/03/2004)

hello briony i know that you are not talking anymore, but i was just wondering how you are. phil x(07/03/2004)

hello briony i'm still missing you. i hope that you are feeling ok.love phil xxx(10/03/2004)

hello briony how are you? please can you just tell me how you are.and if i am wasting my time waiting for you. love you phil xx(12/03/2004)

hello briony i hope you are feeling well? i'm really missing you and your messages. please write back even if its just to tell me to get lost.phil xxx(17/03/2004)

**Now he's just getting annoying. So some biting sarcasm**.

so what have you been doing lately? have you met your dream woman yet? i notice you have not been on locus for some time. is that to just fool me into thinking you are not looking or more likely you have subscribed to some other dating agency and have started your stories up again to try and trap another vulnerable girl. you know phil you have to be totally honest with yourself before you can be honest to others. you need to take a good look at yourself and i don't mean look in the mirror and tell yourself how wonderful and young you look, but a really close look inside and decide what sort of a person you really are because i don't think you know yourself. you believe you are good and truthful but you have proven that is not so. so if you really want a relationship to last you have to decide exactly who you are. i don't know if you are just weak and go along with what others say just to avoid confrontation or if you are just lacking confidence and so have to make up stories in the hope that others will think that is the real you. either way no relationship you enter into is going to work until the real you stands up and admits who you are and that includes friendships because people are not blind they will realise that you are not genuine. i won't charge you the consultation fee. Briony(18/03/2004)

hello briony thankyou for writing to me. well i still go to jive on mondays,just to get myself out of the house, and at the weekends i stay in and watch tv . i haven't met my dream women yet, but i'm not looking.and it won't be on the internet.i won't ask if you have found your dream man because i don't wan't to know.well i have been looking in the mirror and i am starting to look my age,it has really upset me what happened between me and you because i really loved you and i still love you. but you are right i really need to look at myself i am a weak person and i do sometimes go along with other but its just to try and keep people happy.i have looked at life in a differant way in the last few years. and it was very difficult for me because nobody helped me, and i'm not looking for sympathy.i hope you have been feeling ok because i really didn't want to hurt you and i still think about you all the time. please write again phil xxx(18/03/2004)

He is I think just THICK. Well one last blast at his ego, but keep him on edge a little bit and wait until the new month.

# Month 8

hello briony i just want to say can you and your new boyfriend stagman stop slaging me off. i told you how sorry i was and i meant it, i know i hurt you and i'm sorry dont forget it hurt me as well because i fell in love with you, and lots of the things you said about me was not true and it still hurts me.i hope you and stagman will be very happy together , he must be so much better than the last lying cheat.phil(01/04/2004)

phil

how dare you write to me in this way.

for a start we are not slagging you off as you put it, if you had checked, the messages were left in your guestbook on the 18th and 19th of february, quite a while ago now and very soon after i found out about you. secondly he is not my boyfriend at least not yet, he is however becoming a TRUSTING close friend and you are quite right he is not a lying cheat. thirdly EVERYTHING i said about you was true. you did cheat on me and lie to me about a lot of things. as i said before until you can be whole heartedly truthful to yourself you can never be truthful to others. why do you keep denying the things you did? as for falling in love with me i don't believe you know what real love is and i don't think you will find happiness with any woman because you are too self centred. i don't think you have even ever been in love in your entire life not even with your wife. you were resentful about what she did and your pride was hurt as it is now not your heart. i think that is why you have written to me the way you have but you know you actually do not sound like you are a hurt adult but more like a spoilt little boy who cannot get his own way in the playground and so has to resort to cheap comments like the last sentence in your email.

Briony(02/04/2004)

briony the message wasn't that bad, but you are right i should not have written a nasty message, i know you think i am but i'm not a nasty person.briony please dont think that you know every thing about me because you dont.i did cheat and lie to you and i am sorry and i did love you very much. i have been very hurt over all this because i have hurt you. and i am not a spoilt little boy, you did say things that was not true you said that i was after your money and i wanted to sleep with rich women and thats not true. and you said that you was glad that i never got near your children. i would never hurt a child.briony i hope you dont mind me asking you this but why do need to find love on the internet. why dont you go dancing because you like dancing, dont you think it would be beter meeting the person face to face and not on a computer screen phil x(02/04/2004)

briony i love you(03/04/2004)

why do you look for someone on the internet?

i stumbled across locus when i was looking for something else and thought i would have a look. i don't want to join clubs or classes because that would mean too much committed time and i devote as much of my spare time as possible to my children and riding. i told you before that too many men hit on me because of my looks and figure so i thought the internet would give me a chance to find out about someone without all of that. my social world consists of people from my own background and i wanted something dfifferent, someone different. i might find what i am looking for now with this man or not but i won't make the same mistakes i made with you. you are now going to ask how i can trust this guy, well there are things about him which i am not going into but which i know to be true and i know he won't break my heart he will protect me. he knows all about what happened between us and we have a lot in common so we will see how it goes. one thing i know for certain is that he hasn't lied to me and he is not seeing anyone else so that is a good start.

Briony(03/04/2004)

thankyou briony that is all i wanted to know i hope you will be very happy with this man, i did love you very much and i am so upset but that life, i am sorry that i upset you, i wont write again goodbye princess love you phil xxx(04/04/2004)

GOOD

here is the rainbow for the last time.(04/04/2004)

Mike just had to have a dig.

what's this checking out the competition or do you swing both ways? (03/04/2004)

very funny have you thought about changing you name from stag man to the milk-man? and dont write messages in my guestbook(03/04/2004)

ahh you getting jealous? and yeah i could be the milkman if i wanted cos you know how the housewives go for them but no mate i don't need anyone else i've got the rainbows now haven't i ha ha(04/04/2004)

i have deleted your message from the guestbook because frankly it's pretty sick. it sounds like you're saying briony has relationships with children and THAT IS NOT ON so watch your big sick mouth. blokes like you don't deserve a good woman no wonder she dumped you.  
stagman (06/04/2004)

said she work with children dickhead dont you call me sick you are the one thats sick you just wont shut your big mouth will you so pissoff or i will shut it for you (06/04/2004)

ok mate any time briony said you could get aggressive when you don't get your own way and i can see she's right. oh and if i were you i would get some english lessons because frankly your spelling and grammar sucks. by the way piss off is two words not one and try and at least be original with your insults and don't copy mine.  
stagman(07/04/200

oh you really are a dosy prick all you have done is send my message back to me can't you think of anything to write yourself  
briony's stagman(07/04/2004)

just piss....off dickhead(07/04/2004)

and grammatically speaking you don't need the full stops in between the piss and the off. if you want to make a point either write it PISS OFF or piss off! so PISS OFF yourself ok  
stagman(07/04/2004)

ok stag the best of luck with briony(07/04/2004)

As usual he backs down from a confrontation even one over the internet. So we wait a little more and then...

# Happy Ending

phil

i am writing to you to say thankyou for being a lying cheat. the reason being that because of that i started writing to stagman (steven) who last night asked me to marry him. so i begin today as an engaged woman to a man who loves me deeply and who i love deeply back. no doubt you have already moved on to some other poor unsuspecting female and i hope she does not have to go through what i did, i wouldn't wish that on anyone. we are going to get married in june next year and i am very excited about arranging the wedding it's going to be wonderful. he gets on very well with all of my family especially peter and the children adore him. he's extremely handsome and tall and he makes me melt when i look at him. there is no one who could compare to him, so love at locus really can find the perfect partner. i now feel like my life is beginning all over again and i don't think i have ever been happier, not even when i was with lawrence at the beginning. maybe some day you will meet someone who you can be your true self with and so will find happiness but then again you may just enjoy stringing girls on with tales, i don't know. anyway i just wanted you to know that steven and i are soul mates and thankyou again.

Briony 13/06/2004

Good luck briony xxx13/06/2004

So there you have it. The whole story. We have managed to avoid having anything to do with Phil these days. We know he won't ever change and we know because of that we can never be friends with him again. We started out to get a little revenge and discovered more about the man we thought was our friend than we could have ever imagined. Just goes to show you don't always know your friends and what makes them tick. But because he believed he was interacting with someone we didn't know, we actually discovered more about him in these few months than in all the years we have known him. What an eye opener for us. Still it gave us lots of entertainment too. Hope the same goes for you.

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## Note from Author.

Writing has been my passion since I was a very young child. Most of my work is pure fiction and mostly I write for young adults. This story is somewhat different as it is based on real life events. I have taken part of a true story and added a fictional back story. What parts are true? You may ask. Well simply all of the emails are exactly as they were originally written, spelling and grammar mistakes included. I have changed names, email addresses and other personal details for obvious reasons. Phil, as I called him, is a real person. The woman he was internet dating was not but he believed she was. The things we discovered about Phil were true and certainly did give us an insight into the personality of a person we thought we knew and discovered we barely knew at all. I hope you enjoy reading it.

