hi everyone so it looks like the video I
have I was recording just somehow God
deleted and I know the reason but
anyways I'll start again and try to make
this as short as possible
so my friend Victoria Everett has a
problem and I thought I would like to
address it because I think a lot of
people have this issue and the issue
stems from low self-esteem so there's so
much that I could say and I'm gonna let
you read this by the way I'm just gonna
read bit by bit and address each thing
as I come along now don't just to note
that I am NOT an expert in any way shape
or form but this is what I've learned
over the years I've had low self esteem
in the past and I thought or maybe it
was true that people were like talking
behind my back and I heard people
criticizing me way especially women
criticizing me about the way I looked
the way I addressed and just giggling
and laughing at me and now I understand
that they were really laughing at
themselves because they probably had low
self-esteem so I was in a relationship
not long ago where the person would roll
their eyes when I would say things they
didn't agree with I was often I was told
often I should do this or that or I
should have done this or that I never
felt fully accepted I don't think I
don't even think this person liked me
I tried not to take any of it on myself
and let that be their problem but
regardless I started feeling really bad
about myself and kept getting sick I
kept thinking I needed to talk more I
need to talk less I needed to listen
more I needed to listen less
I lost sight of who I was ended the
relationship after not too long but
still felt like I had failed
I felt I didn't do enough to work things
out again I could say so much just about
this one paragraph alone it could cover
a book probably so again I'll try to
keep this short so first of all if
someone is really criticizing you
harshly and they are trying to change
you first of all this is about the
person you should really be with that's
number one another thing is that
automatically before you go with anyone
and go on a relationship with anyone you
should be fully half full sell a high
self-esteem low self-esteem will totally
ruin you if you don't love yourself
fully unconditionally love yourself then
you're not gonna love others you're
gonna always think that oh do they
really love me and things like that so I
don't even think this person liked me so
maybe we don't love ourselves we don't
like ourselves enough and so that's the
thing now again going back to the story
I want to tell you is that when I was on
a bus or anywhere in school or wherever
was I always thought from time to time I
thought that girls were making fun of me
and I always thought that they were
laughing and making fun of me the way I
dressed or the way I looked or whatever
and eventually that after years of that
I got it got to the point where I got
totally crazy and I just told myself I
don't want to hear these voices any
longer so you know what I did I just
gave up I said screw what people think
of me or how I dress I'll be just who I
am because that's who I am now I
understand when I was younger of course
a lot of what my
appearance maybe my clothes or my hair
or the way I looked was a lot to do with
my mother because some way she kind of
dressed me or she kind of bought my
clothes for me and that's just how it is
but once I had the control of what I
wanted to buy what I wanted to wear and
how I wanted to look then I started to
appreciate myself more I then eventually
I don't not sure when it was but I
eventually turned on the radio one day
and this was actually several times so
there was this after-hours radio program
on there I think I was on the FM where
AM radio I can't remember and anyways I
and now I hardly ever listen to the
radio but there was this after our
program about this guy who basically was
teaching other guys how to get any woman
for a relationship or dating or
one-night stand how to get anyone and
the one thing he was teaching is to be
very high very high self-esteem
and to love ourselves as much as we
possibly can he talked about this and
this was the main premise and especially
this one this one time that I listened
to that program was I listened to it
several times at one time listening to
it basically I he said that he has a lot
of mirrors in his in this place where he
lives and that he always looks in the
mirror and says I love you I love you
like he really loves himself so he has
really high self-esteem and he's very
confident when he talks to women that's
another thing or when he talks in
general to anybody he has very high
self-esteem and a lot of confidence
so no matter and I learned this from
from vegan advocacy no and no matter how
your voice shakes or how you look we
have to advocate for non-human animals
for the environment and no matter again
no matter how we sound we have to
promote veganism so matter no matter how
I sound here no matter what it is and
even if I make mistakes with what I say
nothing is mistake because we all learn
we're all here together to try to bring
all of us to that source to love the
source is basically or God is basically
love unconditional love for all the
beings and so if we think we failed or
if we think we're not good enough or we
think you know we don't love ourselves
and we think we have anxiety and we go
into public and we have anxiety because
we feel we don't love we love ourselves
enough we don't love ourselves at all
that is something that we we learn from
and if we want to ever go beyond this go
beyond into improving or to eliminating
all these bad things like anxiety and
low self-esteem and so forth we gotta
just tell ourselves do we really want
this to go on and on and on and on they
really want to have low self-esteem do I
really want you know my if I have a
child for example if I really want my
child to have to grow up this way to
have low self-esteem so there's no magic
words then anyone can say to get people
to have start having high self esteem
when we start we have to start thinking
about these things and start
understanding that's what I want and I
need to
get there just like if somebody wants to
go vegan and for some reason they always
had these roadblocks and reasons why
they can't be vegan but they know they
want to get there they just have to keep
going further and further as far as they
possibly can to the veganism and of
course not stopping there but keep going
and you know past veganism because once
you're vegan you just don't stop you
keep going you keep reaching higher and
higher so anytime we are in a bad of bad
situation or bad event or maybe we think
we failed or something like that no it's
good situation every event every
situation is a good situation because we
can learn from that we can learn from
that and I don't see any situation of
the bad situation we learn from all our
situations so even if we have thoughts
that lead to a bad situation or
eventually to a bad situation or maybe
we think that that person is not loving
us or what-have-you
these are thoughts and thoughts can be
changed and a lot of times we tend to
because of our culture we tend to
because they of course our culture all
the institutions within our culture
older corporations all the governments
etc are programing fear and violence
into us and negativity and our
programming all this so they can
dominate and to enslave us
they are enslaving us we are slaves
essentially though a lot of us don't
know it and even though we may know it
we don't know to what degree of slavery
that this whole culture of ours is
programming into us
so we need to understand all these ideas
and we need to understand that no matter
how many times you fall down or how many
times they think we failed or whatever
the case may be if we think oh this huge
problem and how am I gonna get out of it
and and it keeps coming back and back
you know time and time again I
understand that we need to learn from
these things I mean to understand that
these are not problems these are
wonderful
learning lessons from the universe or
God and understanding that God is
testing us to see how strong we are
spiritually mentally and physically can
we cope it's I I like to visualize it as
a river a Rapid River and we need to
cross that river in order to get on the
same path we were and that we're in that
River can we get out of there River can
we get out of that storm if we think
that this is a big problem that we're
facing right now think about what comes
next in our lives all the so called
problems that we feel that we're gonna
have in our lives think about those
there might be things that are a hundred
times worse and we need to be challenged
with those things otherwise we're not
never going to improve ourselves we're
never gonna improve ourselves our lies
our futures and the state and the future
of the of the of the state of the world
so let's continue reading on here I'm
having trouble feeling confident and
liking Who I am as I am again again this
is confidence which stems from again
self esteem self esteem is basically how
you feel you are if you feel negatively
about yourself or positively about you
so how do you feel about yourself when
people wearing makeup people are wearing
perfume and people are
our I don't know are doing something to
try to make ourselves look better than
they then they truly are naturally
beautiful that is low self-esteem oh I'm
not good enough so I need to put
something on myself I need to make
myself look more presentable I'm not
good enough as I am already so when we
wake up in the morning we don't think
we're good enough we need to do
something in order to make ourselves
more handsome or beautiful this is low
self-esteem right away if somebody needs
to put makeup somebody needs to put fake
eyelashes somebody needs breast
enlargement whatever a case may be I
mean it's different if you need it for
for another reason other than vanity but
if it's for vanity if it's for oh
because I have low self-esteem and I
feel so much better when I've makeup on
we don't feel good about ourselves we
don't feel confident we have very low
self-esteem so let's see I felt like all
our problems were 100% my fault again
sounds from low self-esteem and not
lines most of us team stems from not
loving ourselves so really that's what
it is not loving ourselves I don't know
why I take that on
I D know it's because of my thoughts and
I'll get back to feeling good of myself
good about myself again and it is about
thoughts or thoughts and if we ever want
to really and it's hard to actually just
to talk about this because there are
sometimes no words that really describe
what I'm trying to say but basically if
we want to live mindfully and in the
moment
then we have to stop thinking about
negative thoughts about ourselves and
about others and and so forth now I just
let you know I am definitely not at all
perfect so I'm still learning myself
about this stuff here and I'm learning
about how to be less critical of others
and to not judge and all these things
but we have all this programming put on
us through our culture and institutions
and others in our culture that sometimes
even as vegans we kind of have these
things that are still hurting us in some
way so I don't know why I take that on I
do know it's all because of my thoughts
and I'll get back to feeling good about
myself again we need to get back to
feeling good about ourselves now you
know God our parents the universe
however you want to call that created us
our parents created us God created us
and we are unique no matter how we were
born or what talents we were born with
or how we were born or how we look we
are unique we are beautiful each and
every one of us now there's a good
motivational video that I have with
freelee the banana girl somewhere my
channel if I do find it I'll post the
link down below this video and there's
also one and I can't remember the
gentleman's name but he actually
basically lost both his legs and both
arms he's a very handsome gentleman now
yes short very short arms basically just
hands on the sides of his shoulders but
he goes around and talks about
self-esteem especially to women and
girls
and though I haven't saw the I guess DVD
presentation that he offers as of course
you have to pay for he has a short video
online that really does a good job it
kind of summarizes I believe everything
and that video too I'm if I find it I'll
post it down below but basically all I'm
saying is that there are so many people
out there then are worse off than us or
we think they're worse off than us
maybe they're blind or maybe they're
deaf or whatever maybe they'd lost their
legs maybe they're in a wheelchair for
the rest of her life whatever it is we
are so fortunate that most of us have
legs and arms and really can do what we
want with their lives we can be who we
want we don't have these disabilities
like some people we are the most
fortunate ones on earth we are vegans we
are the most fortunate ones that we have
and made the connection to other animals
and understand that these animals are
not for us to use and they're not
property we understand these issues when
it comes down to veganism and fruitarian
doesn't we understand these issues we
are so fortunate we are the most
fortunate ones on earth if we have a
chance to listen or watch this video we
are the most fortunate ones on earth and
no matter what no matter if five hundred
people say that they're not attracted to
us there's always somebody out there
that's to attractive to us and we are in
our bodies and in order to have a start
to have a good life anyways we have to
think good thoughts about ourselves
because we're not gonna have a good
relationship with ourselves we're kind
of like married to ourselves because
we're in our bodies and we have to if we
don't love ourselves then every little
thing is going to bother us we're gonna
have anxiety like crazy
and it's gonna bother us so fear for
example over weights and we don't like
being overweight and we don't feel good
about living in our bodies and all this
stuff that we want to have you know
hormone treatment and become a
transgendered person and go to the other
other like that's another thing
transgendered people from what I've
experienced what I've know from from
other people telling me and from
watching videos and from friends and so
forth it's basically from having low
self esteem thinking that oh I'm not
meant to be in this body I'm not meant
to be this sex sexual gender and I'm not
you know good enough or whatever the
case may be they think that oh if I get
sex change or if I get hormone therapy
or pills or take some kind of pills or
whatever I'm gonna like myself better or
whatever and if some women for example
they think oh my breasts are they're not
good the shape of them to size them
whatever I'm gonna get breast
enlargement and they feel like okay they
get breast enlargement and maybe they do
get a little bit better self-esteem of
themselves but in the end of it you
don't truly don't have good self-esteem
of yourself first of all you just had an
operation that totally was on as men
unnecessary you had an operation which
is totally unnatural you had an
operation which in the first place you
should have loved yourself instead of
having the operation because that's
really ruining the beautiful body temple
that we were born with we have this
beautiful body that essentially we may
be renting because if we pass on to the
next life maybe somebody will use this
body so we have to understand that you
don't want to ruin this precious temple
body temple that we are living in and we
were born with that's why I feel that
things like tattoos and piercings and
body modifications and all these things
are just because of the fact that we
have low self-esteem people are telling
us oh you know you're not worthy enough
or you don't look beautiful enough or
whatever the case may be we
to stop and think we live in our bodies
and no matter sometimes no matter how
many modifications we get done with our
bodies
we we may never fully love ourselves and
so we have to love ourselves before we
get all these modifications forget about
the modification and start to love
ourselves right now love ourselves right
this moment go to the mirror and say
this even if we don't agree or don't
want to believe or whatever have you go
to the mirror and tell yourself I love
myself I love you Michael I love myself
and you say it sincerely and you keep
saying it and you keep saying and you're
repeating it because affirmations are
the most important thing affirmations
are the most important thing
just like when you're learning a
language you're not gonna learn that
word if you don't consistently use it
just that simple so if you don't use a
language that long enough or enough
you're gonna lose that language or at
least most of it so let's continue I
know I am perfect as I am but I don't
feel it right now
so this is something similar that
happened to me so for example I believe
in God but not as most people view God
God to me is not a man because that
would be sexist
God is not white or Caucasian because
that would be racist and God is neither
human not human because that would be
speciesist so to me God is energy God is
energy goddess or Scott is universe God
is my higher conscience so even though I
trust God I trust the universe I trust
life processes to
guide me along my path an understanding
of course that there are going to be ups
and downs there are going to be pitfalls
and no matter how perfect we think our
lives are at every any given moment
there's always a chance that something
bad happens to you and that is only
learning lesson and a test so we might
think at times that all my life is
perfect but then when you get into a
so-called bad situation you get really
depressed and you get and you get mad
and you're trying to you cry and you try
nurse to understand like why is God
putting this on me and all these bad
situations one after the other and
what's happening in my life and I don't
like my life and all that stuff so what
happens essentially what happens we
start to disbelieve in God the universe
we start to think like oh he does
doesn't give me what I want what I need
and there are a lot of bad situations
that happen in my life but the thing is
we're not highly evolved enough
cautiously and spiritually to understand
what these bad problems are trying to
tell us what God is trying to tell us
sometimes God does speak to us sometimes
it's our higher consciousness that's
awakening and it kind of talks to us and
then we understand what God is saying
but then there may be other pitfalls
pitfalls and ups and downs in the future
and we got to understand that that's
what there is there is these ups and
downs because unfortunately we've sinned
we sinned if you want to follow Bible or
if you don't follow the Bible we sinned
at one point and so now we have this
concept of right and wrong but it's in
essence nothing is wrong nothing is bad
or at least no situation is bad I
shouldn't say that nothing is bad of
course something is bad if you kick a an
animal that is a bad thing of course but
what I'm saying is no situation is
ultimately bad because we can learn we
can improve that situation okay so let's
let's say so I am perfect as I am but I
don't feel it right now
so sometimes we might feel we love
ourselves or we're perfect or whatever
but then we fall down and that's okay in
some way we just have to learn about
this learn what happened we align our
thoughts with positivity and start to
love ourselves again and keep doing it
so no one is perfect
I'm not perfect and Victoria says I know
I am perfect as I am but I don't feel it
right now no we're not perfect but we
can start to love ourselves and I might
have imperfection on my body but that
doesn't mean I don't love that
imperfection and also to understand that
we can improve ourselves in every way
now for example let me give an example
let's say someone is overweight and they
love themselves dearly if they love
themselves dearly then they're gonna
think positive thoughts they're gonna
think things like I am fit I am slim I
am doing a lot of exercise and improving
my health by eating healthfully raw
fruits and vegetables that's
what you should say or someone should
say if they're if they're overweight now
on the other hand if you're overweight
and you are saying I hate the way I look
I don't love myself but I'm really fat
and I hate my body and all these things
and then you medicate that thoughts the
negative thoughts with eating junk food
and animal foods that's not going to
help you right that's not going to help
you so what you need to do is need to do
just what I said before understand that
you're overweight of course I understand
myself my body well understand that we
love ourselves and we're trying to
improve our souls and to think about
these improvements that we are so I'm
getting fit I am slim all these things I
am slim I am fit and I am eating
healthfully and I am aligning myself
with my true nature which is kindness
compassion and wisdom and love for all
beings and because so and we trust
nature and we trust the universe and God
and so forth we know everything will
turn out good and we understand also
that it does sometimes take time we've
been abusing our bodies for the longest
time eating unhealthily you know the
animal products the eggs the dairy to
meet the honey or whatever it is a junk
food processed foods all that we need to
get back to our true nature
this is an opportunity to heal this part
of myself but I feel so discouraged
right now please send big hugs my way uh
you're hurting and I can't imagine how
how you feel right now and I'll others
feel when they are committing so much
harm and violence to themselves
I remember my ex-girlfriend had a very
very low self-esteem and anxiety and
every little thing that I did she
thought that I didn't love her and she
thought anyways if she wasn't with any
something with someone she always
thought that her brother is I don't know
more important to her those are more
important to their parents than she is
so so many bad things she was thinking
about herself so many bad things that
she was thinking about herself and some
people say well it's harder to think
positively about yourself if you have
these deep thoughts about yourself now
everyone needs to heal and we all have
hurt within ourselves and that we need
to heal and some things are harder than
others to heal the biggest thing and the
most important thing I feel and the two
things that I've learned being a vegan
for all these years and even before that
is love now you can't love anyone before
you love yourself you can't help anyone
before you help yourself that's just how
it is if you don't eat how are you gonna
feed someone else if you don't have a
home how are you gonna give a home to
someone else if you're not vegan how
you're gonna get people going vegan like
all these things and so we need
to number one the first thing is to love
our soul now how can we start to love
ourselves well I've read a lot of things
in the past and there was this one meme
that somebody posted or something that
they posted which I totally forgot and
don't even know where it is I don't even
know how to find it but it was it was in
some way correct but how do you start to
love yourselves let me think
the only thing is to start to start
walking on that path to love that's all
we can do is to start start some works
take a small baby step closer and closer
to where you want to be now you have to
have thoughts of where you want to be
that's the power of Law of Attraction is
where you want to be what you want to
have now of course not in a
materialistic way but in a way that
improves ourselves that improves and
helps others to become their best selves
so that's all thing is really to become
our best selves to love ourselves and to
go from there
in our spiritual evolution evolutionary
journey please send big hugs my way so
I'd love everyone I love you Victoria I
love everyone out there I love myself
and I felt I found loving myself more
having very high self esteem and
confidence is really a beautiful thing I
feel so high like really just so joyful
like this so now we're gonna start we're
gonna go in front of a mirror and we're
going to look at ourselves
go to a mirror and somewhere where it's
brightly letting up so if you know if
you're if it's dark out and you're in a
dark room you know how many lights put
some lights on and look at yourself
right in the mirror look at yourself
tell yourself I love myself tell
yourself you're unique a unique and
beautiful being God and our parents gave
birth to us a unique beautiful being Who
I am I might have some faults but
doesn't matter I might have some things
that I don't like about myself it
doesn't matter we're all improving
ourselves we're all beautiful who we are
now I have a little something like a
cyst in a way all my skin I don't care I
love that part of me it's unique it's a
unique whatever it is oh my I can't
remember the name it's a long name but
it's a beautiful thing on my body now in
some way it might hurt me when I press
down on it hard or when I sometimes when
I I don't know when I'm doing
construction or whatever it is and then
my part of my skin like rubs on a
whatever it is rub on a piece of wood or
something whatever it may hurt a little
bit and that's probably the only reason
why I want to get rid of it like
surgically but otherwise unbeautiful Who
I am and how I am and everything about
me is beautiful and then of course there
are times I just want to change a little
bit the way I look maybe my beard you
know trim it or shave it or whatever
have you but if we truly truly truly
felt loved it wouldn't care really the
outer appearance of who we are
because that's all vanity that's all but
stems from materialism we live in a very
materialistic world I got at one point
in my life I didn't like women that had
hair on them they'd have been under
their armpits or in their pubic areas or
on their legs or whatever and I got to
actually really love women that don't
conform and actually have here I'm not
saying and I'm still learning of course
and I'm not saying like a baboon like
Harold that's growing out of out of
control but just hair there and even
that I I'm trying to improve myself to
learn that it's not the really the outer
appearance of the person but it's the
inner beauty and of course you got to be
attracted to the person on the outside
in some way but that all falls apart
when we start to understand that none of
this really matters and really this
spiritual love is the most important
physical love yes I mean in some way you
got a feel love for for the next for the
person that you're with physically but
that in the end doesn't really matter as
in the end it's the connection that
really matters the connection the love
between the two so again I'm sending big
hugs and big love your way and to
everyone who's facing this problem or
very similar problem again I'm not
totally healed from this and there's a
lot of hurt that still within me that I
need to heal and so I hope this has been
useful for you
I hope for Victoria and every anyone
else that's listening or watching this
at any time heals from this and at least
improves themselves but also
understanding essentially understanding
that
it is because of low self-esteem because
we're not loving ourselves and just to
continue walking further and loving
ourselves just that little bit more each
time and understanding also that there
is going to be somebody there somebody
for you in this world even if there are
50 people that find you unattractive
there might be others out there someone
out there that really finds you
attractive beautiful on the outer and
inner and really wants to be with you
and loves you wants to be with you for
who you are and not what other people
say you are that's why when I do my
videos I couldn't care less what people
say because I am since being sincere
being honest and being loving and being
caring and I am being truthful on the
videos that I create I stay there in
front of the camera and I'm like this is
what needs to be said if my voice shakes
or if I'm not wearing a shirt or
whatever have you I will do it because
the message isn't so important that
needs to get out now some people may
criticize that video or certain parts to
that video but that is only because we
are you know living in a materialistic
world and we vie and vanity is all about
all because of materialism vanity so we
think we need to put makeup on or I need
to put these types of we need to wear
these types of shoes or these types of
brand-name clothing or we're not going
to be good enough it's all vanity it's
all materialism and we are taught all
these things through magazines and
models and companies that promote these
types of things and the media that
promote these types of things it's
nonsense
we got to get away from all of that
I know this has been a long video but I
really wanted to put everything into
this video to get people to understand
the issues that we're really facing here
a lot of vegans are actually facing
these issues and others as well and we
need to address these issues now there
is no magic bullet on how we should
start to love ourselves but we should
take one step at a time one baby step in
and go from there
stop listening to all the people and or
or all the thoughts that we think we
might be having or people might be
saying to us we need to stop you know
worrying and we need to stop you know
living in the past or living in the
future all the time and start living in
the now in the being mindful and writing
and now there's no benefit to to living
always in the past and blaming and
shaming and and thinking negatively and
all these things these are not getting
us further cautiously and spiritually
it's not getting us anywhere
for that matter I mean yeah to
understand that certain things happen in
the past we did this and that but not to
blame and shame ourselves and not not to
you know we got this thing on our skin
or we got a little bit overweight or
something and no no no you are beautiful
you're your love your light we're all
lightworkers here what more can I say
everybody if you have anything you want
to add please post it down below or
share your video if you have any video
to add because I think this is a very
very important question here a very
important topic to address and I think
people people really need to be
addressing this because I have my own
way of explaining things which I hope I
explained it good enough and I know it's
this videos a little bit longer video
but I
think it's really important to get this
message message out however long it
takes to get it out in 30 and 40 minutes
or even an hour it really needs to be
said so thank you so much for listening
all of you I hope your lives and all
lives are better and I hope you learned
from this out you start taking those
steps towards more love for yourself and
that's less and less hate for yourself
and negativity and negative thoughts and
all these things so we need to strive
for to better ourselves to be the person
we really want to be me to change we
really want to see in the world if we
want everyone to have love for
themselves and love for others and high
self esteem and be very confident and
just confidence is really again its
stems from vanity stems from cultural
programming stems from materialism so if
you're not confident about who you are
your body that you're in then you don't
love yourself you seriously don't love
yourself at all or very little if that
if you need to put junk makeup on
yourself and fake eyelashes and paint
your fingernails and toenails and all
these things and get breast enlargements
and change your sexual orientation and
orientation but change your sexual
gender that's not love that's not love
so thank you again for listening please
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