hey loves what's poppin my name is Logan
and in today's video I'm gonna be
sharing another study with me this study
with me is from the first week of April
so it's been quite a while since I
posted my last upload where I finally
announced that I'm dropping out of music
school and switching my major to pre-med
health science was quite a huge
announcement for me and I want to keep
that video up for a little bit as my
latest upload before posting another
video so I hope you guys understand why
there wasn't an upload last week when I
first started making YouTube videos I
honestly had no idea how much time and
effort went into making them and I know
I'm just doing time lapses of me
studying and talking about my life
filming a voiceover but it honestly
takes a considerable amount of
preparation I really do want to start
producing more than one video a week
since the school semester is almost over
I've been posting every Saturday for a
while but I was thinking about maybe
doing a Wednesday upload as well I'm not
too sure what else I would really make
my videos on besides studying and
practicing guitar since I've been
leaning towards a lot of studying videos
and school won't really be in session in
the summer but I am signed up to take an
EMT training course that's about two
months long and I'm not sure if that
will continue happening because of the
virus
I sent the company an email about it and
they said that the class will continue
to be in session until stated otherwise
I really really hope that it does not
get cancelled because I am honestly just
going insane sitting in my house all the
time but I realize that it's not
exactly safe outside in America yet and
it probably won't be anytime soon and
the program starts in the middle of June
which is still a while away and I'm
really hoping that it will continue I'm
honestly just really paranoid that if I
don't do this course I'll be wasting the
entire summer away and it's not like any
of us have a say in the matter but it's
just really stressful for everybody I
have to really keep myself productive by
studying and filming these types of
videos but once school is
where I'm not going to have any
deadlines that I need to meet I'm going
to have to find ways to distract myself
until the EMT program possibly begins
I'm definitely going to continue
studying chemistry on Khan Academy and
will probably start doing biology and Pre
calc too so I can try to get a head start
on the fall semester I also would really
like to get my books early since it
would help a lot so I could preview all
of the material but I'm not sure if I'll
end up doing that because books are
really expensive
to be honest college books are mad
expensive for absolutely no reason and
I'm not sure if I can get them online or
not I'm going to have to email the
professors and see what they have to say
about online textbooks because I most
definitely do not want another situation
like my English class of this semester
where I bought the book online and then
found out that we're not allowed to do
that I was really not having a good time
with that whole situation and I ended up
having to print out the pages of my book
for every single class period since my
cheap ass refused to buy that physical
copy of the book and one good thing
though the one good thing about school
being at home is that I don't have to
keep printing out all those pages but I
would much rather prefer that to being
at home guys I miss school so much and
I'm really pressed that the one semester
in my whole life that I've actually
looked forward to going to school is the
one that got cut short if this happened
during my high school senior year I
would be so happy because I was a
depressed piece of shit that year and I
hated school so much obviously not every
high school senior feels this way and a
lot of people are really upset about not
being able to walk a graduation or to
have their senior prom and I feel really
bad for them I feel like my biggest
takeaway is to just live in the moment a
lot more because you never know when
everything is just gonna end suddenly
and next year I definitely want to join
a lot more clubs
I was only in one club this year mostly
because my guitar lesson was on Thursday
in the middle of lunchtime and that's
when a bunch of clubs met for some
reason I just finished making my
schedule the day that I'm recording this
voice over and I do happen to have a few
hours free during lunchtime every day
and I'm definitely going to use that
time to join a bunch of clubs when I
originally talked to my advisor I was
told that I was going to get some sort
of advanced registration since I have
good grades
which should have been around April
first but since the whole corona
situation happened everyone got preset
registration dates and I have the latest
registration day out of anybody that I
know today is April of 29th which is the
end of the freaking month and all the
other students have been able to sign up
for classes for a couple of weeks now
because my registration date was so late
a bunch of class times that I really
wanted were already taken and three of
my classes introduction to health
science biology and precalculus only had
one option of times left and luckily
they weren't too late or anything but I
just really really wanted to take all my
classes in the morning I've been trying
to wake up a lot earlier and testing out
my sleep schedule to see what I'm most
productive and I feel like the morning
is definitely the highlight time for me
and the afternoon and night are
absolutely horrible because I go to bed
really early because of this whole
corona situation I've honestly been just
going to bed at 7 p.m. like a little
five-year-old kid and it is kind of
depressing the class that I wanted to
have earlier in the morning the most was
chemistry because I feel like that's
going to be my hardest class but of
course the earliest class that they had
for chemistry was 2 p.m. and that's not
incredibly late or anything and I'm
really lucky that I was actually able to
even choose my schedule because I mean I
could have gotten an 8 p.m. class and I
would have literally wanted to kill
myself and I feel really bad for all the
incoming freshmen who don't get to
choose the class times because all the
classes that are left are night classes
from what I saw and I definitely would
not want to do any sort of 9:00 p.m. lab
in this clip I'm working on my weekly
Western art history paper and I actually
really like taking this class in person
but it's just not the same now that
we've all gone online since our exams
for that class we're identifying
pictures and matching them to the time
period in the artist it's not
we can really do that online because
it's just way too easy to cheat instead
of doing the exams we've been doing
weekly compare and contrast
essays on different artists work I think
that this is a pretty good substitution
for the exams and the teacher does
provide us with narrated slideshows and
I used to watch all of them when they
first came out but to be honest I've
been really slacking on that now I just
watch the narrated slides for the works
that we actually have to write about and
then take notes about them from the book
and I feel really bad because the
teacher took her time to narrate all
those other slides but just doing the
necessary slides can take me over an
hour just to take notes on them and I'm
sure that a lot of people are doing way
less than I am I've gotten so many
emails since quarantine has started from
all my teachers asking where everybody
went it seems like a lot of people have
dropped off the radar and I honestly
can't even blame them school is
incredibly hard to do at home and you're
just not in the same academic
environment where you're surrounded by
your peers to motivate you and many
people have houses that they can't even
focus in there are definitely times in
my own house where all the neighborhood
dogs would be barking for hours on end
and I definitely feel like ripping my
brain out but regarding my lack of
interest in art history I really used to
over study a lot for that class reading
taking notes on the book along with my
notes from class and it's kind of sad
that I'm not doing that anymore I mean
nothing is really stopping me but I'm
just being lazy
in all honesty our history has
absolutely nothing to do with my current
major and I was taking him back when it
was a requirement for classical guitar
and if it was something like biology I
definitely would put in way more effort
since it would actually correlate with
my major but I did really like our
history and the teacher for that class
was so awesome but it just isn't the
same as sitting in her class versus
sitting at my computer desk the next
thing that I was working on was my
research paper on international adoption
and I'm honestly thinking that I spent
more than 24 hours on this thing that
paper was the hardest I've ever worked
on any assignment that was not music
related in my life and I really put my
whole heart into that I'm so afraid that
I'm not gonna get a good grade on it
because the teacher for that class is a
really harsh grader and we'll probably
find 50 things wrong with my paper I
honestly don't think it's even possible
for her to give out an A and the fact
that this paper is 40% of our grade
really worries me I hope she does not do
me dirty and I don't want freshman year
English to be the class that ends up
ruining my GPA I've sent numerous emails
to my teacher which my friends think are
hilarious and that class gives me a lot
of anxiety and my teachers strict
instructions make me confused sometimes
so I get really anxious and ended up
emailing her and during one of our
office hours she really had the nerve to
tell me that my emails were giving her
anxiety I was trying so hard not to lose
it because I was about to say I give you
anxiety homie your class gives me
anxiety as of when I'm recording this
voiceover I just submitted my paper two
days ago and it's honestly haunting me I
don't think I'll be able to sleep at
night until it's graded and if I don't
get a good grade I think that will be
what tips me over the edge
I've been trying so hard to hold myself
together through all of this and I've
been surrounding myself with schoolwork
and I've even started doing chemistry on
Khan Academy that is the level of
boredom that I've reached guys but if
this paper that I've spent my blood
sweat and tears on doesn't get a good
grade I think it will really break me I
definitely have a bad habit of making my
grades define my self-worth which I
really need to work on but also the fact
that this paper is personal to me since
it's about Chinese adoption I think
plays a lot into it as well the grade I
think I deserve on this paper would
probably be between 94 and a 96 but the
grade that I think that every average
teacher would probably give me would be
between a 92 and a 94 but the grid I
think she'll give me is between an 86
and a 91 or 92 before this semester I
never used to revise any of my papers
when we were given the opportunity the
most I would ever do would be to run it
through grammar early again and check in
some of the synonyms around and I
actually edited my ideas for once I
cleared up the parts that were confusing
and I was taking her advice as well as
my best friend's advice who was helping
me so shout to the homie for helping me
by the way but the moral of this story
is that I spent so much time and effort
on this and I really think I deserve an A
as I mentioned before I recently started
studying chemistry on Khan Academy and I
remember chem being one of the hardest
classes I had to take in high school it
has been a few weeks since I started
studying it and I'm doing pretty well on
all of the exercises and it feels really
easy to me I'm not sure if it's the way
I was taught in high school but I
understood absolutely nothing in that
class I actually ended up dropping out
of honors chem in high school for the
lower level which was actually way worse
I've had a lot of social issues during
my time in that class and it caused me a
constant anxiety I wasn't even thinking
about chemistry because I was too
worried about all the social issues in
that class I hadn't had an issue like
that since my freshman year English
class and it was absolutely horrible I
would beg my parents to let me skip the
class which obviously wouldn't happen
and I feel like this added a lot to my
decision of why I want to graduate early
in the long run I don't think it was the
best idea and I think it might make a
video on it about why I graduated early
and why I kind of regret it but I don't
think I would have become the person
that I am right now if I didn't graduate
early I was so depressed at school and
it was honestly I'm very miserable time
for me there I wouldn't have the mindset
that I have now if I stayed so I guess
it was the right decision overall but I
guess I wished that my high school
experience was just different I'm not
going to go into too much detail about
the situation right now so make sure to
look out for a video on it in the future
I'm happy to announce that I've been
getting way more comfortable doing
voice-overs and I'm hoping that this
will help me produce better and more
frequent content for you guys I'm also
getting way more used to talking in
front of my camera for my sit down
videos and now is the best time of any
to film a bunch of them when I filmed my
why I'm dropping out of music school
video I didn't have to make as many
awkward pauses as I did when I first
started YouTube and I wasn't really
reading off a screen for the entire
video especially in the sit down videos
I'm so paranoid that I'm going to miss
an important part that I have to write
them down I'll plan on only writing a
few bullet points and then magically it
will just become a script I hope that
one day I'll be able to fully talk to
you guys without having to write any
sort of script for myself though but
those days are far from close for this
video I managed to study for 18 hours
and 58 minutes so let's just say 19
hours to make it prettier I think I was
pretty productive during this time and I
hope that this energy stays with me
throughout quarantine if not I really
think I'm gonna lose my mind
but I love you guys all so much and I
hope to see you guys in the next video
