 
After reading through Chapter 18 – SILENT ANSWERS – of this book it came upon me as being truthful in so many aspects of life, of living, of being what we are. Just trying to be human, to live the life God so preciously gave us... sometimes failing... But given the choice of starting over, it will always become what was, what is and what will become.

SONIA MEYER

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### THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE

Manie van der Westhuizen

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### Preface

22nd September, 2010

A year ago, on the 21st day of September, 2009, I had no idea that today, I will write this preface. My mind wondered up and down over all the fantastic time I spend with My Saviour during this time. All the Passionate Teachings of love, the indescribable emotional feelings, just to teach someone like me how much God loves his creation.

Just because it is my hearts desire to obey all the commandments of Jesus, Jesus trusted me to write this book. Today I gladly admit that this book was not edited. When I placed myself before the computer to write most of the time I did not even have the Chapters heading, I only trusted Jesus to place words into my heart.

All my thanksgivings to; my Redeemer, Jesus, for bringing peace into my life; all the 2872 regular readers and visitors on my sites; all the people who motivated me in the writing of this book; All the people I have dedicated chapters; Annemieke, Menorah, Blond Chic, The Poor Little Rich Man, Casper, Sky Leigh, Jan, Dolly, Judy Venter, Stan Craig BT14 6DF Belfast. United Kingdom. Michelle, Texas, United States. The Author of "THE KISS" on OPRAH WINFREY'S SHOW, Mio Amato, Anna-Marie van Staden, Bernie Louw and Sonia Meyer.

Manie van der Westhuizen.

Loyalty

This book is assigned to My Redeemer, Jesus for he was the inspiration for me to write this book.

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### Table Of Contents

Chapter Fourty - The Truth Will Set You Free

Chapter Thirty-Nine - Shepherd And Sheep

Chapter Thrity-Eight - The Biggest Idiot, Manie

Chapter Thirty-Seven - The Time Thief, My Best Friend

Chapter Thirty-Six - A Little Boy's Dream

Chapter Thirty-Five - God Is Not, Our Genie

Chapter Thirty-Four - Dear Lord, I Will

Chapter Thirty-Three - Not Peace But Division

Chapter Thirty Two - Mary's Song

Chapter Thirty-One - Obedience

Chapter Thirty - From The Depths Of The Grave

Chapter Twenty-Nine - Our Graves, Place Of Thinking

Chapter Twenty-Eight \- The Survivors

Chapter Twenty-Seven - The Rich Young Man

Chapter Twenty-Six The Gravedigger

Chapter Twenty-Five - At Jesus' Feet

Chapter Twenty-Four Accept The Unacceptable

Chapter Twenty-Three Everything Is Permissible

Chapter Twenty-Two The Sixth Day

Chapter Twenty-One Lovelust

Chapter Twenty He Walks Like Jesus

Chapter Nineteen - Come Walk With Jesus

Chapter Eighteen - Silent Answers

Chapter Seventeen - The Perfect Marriage

CHAPTER Sixteen - The Joshua Formula

Chapter Fithteen - As Long As He Keeps On Paying The Bills.

Chapter Fourteen - The Grieve Syndrome

Chapter Thirteen - The Separation Syndrome

Chapter Twelve - They Will Become One

Chapter Eleven - If They Want To Become One

Chapter Ten - God Is Love

Chapter Nine - Love Has To Come From God

Chapter Eight - Men Are Never Satisfied, Neither Are Their Eyes

Chapter Seven - If You Belong To Christ

Chapter Six - Do You Not Want To Leave Too, Do You?

Chapter Five - What Kind Of Man Is This?

Chapter Four - Nowhere To Lay His Head

Chapter Three - A Child Of God

Chapter Two - A Son Of God

Chapter One - As Jesus Commands

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Chapter Fourty - The Truth Will Set You Free

**(John 8:32b)**

21st September 2009

Jesus Said: _"If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."_ **(John 8:31b and 32).**

God Said: _"For the law was given through Moses: grace and truth came through Jesus Christ_ _."_ **(John 1: 17).** Jesus Answered; _"I am the way and the truth and the life."_ **(John 14:06).**

The Children of the Devil. **(John 8: 42 to 47).** Jesus said to them: _"If God were your Farther, you would love me, for I came from God and now am here. I have not come of my own; but He sent me. Why is my language not clear to you? Because you are unable to hear what I say. You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father's desire. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies. Yet because I tell the truth, you do not believe me! Can any one of you prove me guilty of sin? If I am telling the truth, why don't you believe me? He who belongs to God hears what God says. The reason you do not hear is that you do not belong to God."_

Manie's request. **(To everyone, the preachers, the ministers, the pastors, the teachers, the evangelist, every man, every woman, every child, anyone I have forgot to list, the devil's children, the devil himself, even myself.)** Let us empty our cup of knowledge now. Pour out all the crap, other humans, the devil, our parents, preachers, pastors, evangelists, ourselves stored in our cups. Let us stop pouring crap into other people's cups of knowledge.

Let us stop doing the work Jesus had already done. Let us stop attending religious organizations, created by humans. Jesus is not dead. His church, he has started still exists. Yet humans start their on churches and fooling people, telling them this is God's church. Let us stop demanding Jesus doing His work, our way. Let us stop doing God's work our way. Bear in mind God completed all his work in Six days. And on the Seventh day He rested. Jesus completed all His work on earth in thirty three and a half years. And his Body rested one day in His grave.

Let us stop to carry out our father, the devil's desire. Let us fill our cups of knowledge of what God says. Remember Jesus said: "He, who belongs to God, hears what God says." I demand let us fill our cups of knowledge with the teachings of Jesus Christ. Jesus Said: _"If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free_ _."_ **(John 8:31b and 32).** And you will have everlasting life, because, Jesus Answered; _"I am the way and the truth and the life."_ **(John 14:06).**

Jesus Comforts His Disciples. **(John 14: 1 to 3).** _"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am."_

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Chapter Thirty-Nine - Shepherd And Sheep

22nd September 2009

It amazes me tremendously to see how God simulates humans with Sheep and Coats, and the clergymen with shepherds. Do you know why? Maybe because God gave humans the authority over animals. **(Genesis 1:28).** Maybe because God commanded the Levite Clans to take care (Shepherd) the rest of the Israelite Clans. **(Numbers Chapter 3 and 4).** Maybe just to make it understandable for humans, because they behave similar to sheep and goats.

It fascinates me because The Holy Spirit wants me to write this book backwards, starting with Chapter Fourty; **The Truth Will Set You Free**. Maybe because God gave revelation to Jesus Christ before He created the universe. **(Revelation 1:1)**

It reminds me of something I wrote in Chapter Fourty; Let us not dump crab into other human's cup of knowledge. Maybe I wrote this, just to clarify my mind, because I also wrote; God finished His work in six days. All I know is that the Holy Spirit wanted me to Record **(Ezekiel Chapter 34).**

Suddenly I know the answer when the Holy Spirit spoke to me in His language, I named it, the language of knowledge: "Your work, Manie, is not yet completed on this earth, read John 14: 26 to confirm." And this is what I read. Jesus promised the Holy Spirit and He said: "But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you."

Now let me record **(Ezekiel 34: from verse1 to 13).** _The word of the Lord came to me: 'Son of man, prophesy against the shepherds of Israel; prophesy and say to them: 'this is what the Sovereign Lord says: woe to the Shepherds of Israel who only take care of themselves! Should not Shepherds take care of the flock? You eat the curds, clothe yourselves with the wool and slaughter the choice animals, but you do not take care of the flock. You have not strengthened the weak or healed the sick or bound up the injured. You have not brought back the strays or searched for the lost. You have ruled them harshly and brutally. So they were scattered because there was no shepherd, and when they were scattered they became food for all the wild animals. My sheep wandered over all the mountains and over every high hill. They were scattered over the whole earth, and no one searched or looked for them. Therefore, you shepherds, hear the word of the Lord: "As surely as I live," declares the Sovereign Lord, because my flock lacks a shepherd and has been plundered and has become food for all the wild animals, and because my shepherds did not search for my flock but cared for themselves rather than for my flock, therefore, O shepherds, hear the word of the Lord: This is what the Sovereign Lord says: "I am against the shepherds and will hold them accountable for my flock. I will remove them from tending the flock so that the shepherds can no longer feed themselves. I will rescue my flock from their mouths, and it will no longer be food for them. For this is what the Sovereign Lord says: I myself will search for my sheep and look after them. As a shepherd looks after his scattered flock when he is with them, so will I look after my sheep? I will rescue them from all the places where they were scattered on the day of cloud and darkness. I will bring them out from the nations and gather them from the countries, and bring them unto their own land. I will pasture them on the mountains of Israel, in the ravines and in all the settlements in the land._

Wow, what a revelation, God no longer Command humans to take care of His children anymore. The Holy Spirit replaces all the human shepherds and the prophesy as recorded in **(Ezekiel Chapter 34)** has been fulfilled. Yet, we humans ignore this, we still demand human shepherds. Worse, we as humans, we think we are shepherds instead of sheep.

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Chapter Thrity-Eight - The Biggest Idiot, Manie

23rd September 2009

Writing a book backwards! Reversing prophesies! Finding questions to answers! Writing down stuff from the Bible that's already written down! Trusting other people to change their lives on your input of noting down words. Can't you understand; over four thousand years people noted down God's words and their history in the Bible. The last two thousand years, people read the Bible and still, they do not change. Even worse they don't read their Bible, they rather go to Church. After the sermon they glorify the preacher, but they cannot recall the text scriptures from the Bible recorded in the sermon. When do you want to learn, Manie? You wasted your live. For fifty years, now, you note done God's words and your history. No publisher is prepared to print your books. You Created CD's and DVD's. You gave it free of charge to people. You preached to people. You gave your family back to God. God accepted them and granted you a divorce. As Jesus has sent his apostles to live with people in their homes. Educated them in His teachings two thousand years ago. Jesus has sent you. You tell people that Jesus is the only Shepherd and His Holy Spirit lives in every human being that loves Him. You tell them that your favorite scriptures confirm this; In **(John Chapter14verse23)** Jesus replied: _"If anyone loves me, he will obey my teaching. My Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him."_ Never ever have you taken any money or payment from people for spreading the gospel! Freely God gave it to you and freely you have given it to other people! You are a homeless old man. You have no place to go. Not even a place to hide. That's why, Manie, you are the biggest idiot. Come on, do what humans do. Don't be an idiot.

People say if you are in Rome live like the Romans do. Well you are on earth, go live like earthlings. Go, be a con artist, a thief, a liar, a murderer, a rapist, an adulterer, a seducer, seducing other people, spreading the gospel and demand payments, sell your books, CD's and DVD's. Go, be a businessman, open a shop and legally steal from your customers, they call it a profit. Go; serve a god that is depended on your money. Go, start a new religious organization, claiming tithes and offerings, it's for the Lord's work you know.

Preach **(Malachi Chapter 3verse 10)** to them. _"Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this way, "says the Lord Almighty, " and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and poor out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it."_ Don't record God's instructions concerning tithes as recorded in **(Deuteronomy, Chapter 14 from verse 22 to 29).** No, please, Manie, don't do it, preachers don't preach on this scripture.

Be sure to set aside a tenth of all your produce each year. Eat the tithe of your grain, new wine and oil, and the firstborn of your herds and flock in the presence of the Lord your God at the place he will choose as a dwelling for his Name, so that you may learn to revere the Lord your God always. But if that place is too distant and you have been blessed by the Lord your God and cannot carry your tithe (because the place where the Lord will choose to put his Name is so far away), then exchange your tithe for money, and take the money with you and go to the place the lord your God will choose. Use the money to buy whatever you like: cattle sheep, wine or other fermented alcoholic drink, or anything you wish. Then you and your household shall eat there in the presence of the Lord your God and rejoice. And do not neglect the Levites living in your town, for they have no allotment or inheritance of their own. At the end of every three years, bring all the tithes of that year's produce and store it in your towns, so that the Levites (who have no allotment or inheritance of their own) and the aliens, the fatherless and the widows who live in your towns may come and eat and be satisfied, and so that the Lord your God may bless you in all the work of your hands."

Please do not tell people that Jesus Christ never demanded tithes and offerings. Keep your mouth shut, don't tell them that Jesus only mentioned tithes once. Oh, this is what Jesus Said in **(Matthew Chapter 23: 23);** _"Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You give a tenth of your spices-mint, dill and cumin. But you have neglected the more important matters of the law-justice, mercy and faithfulness. You should have practice the latter, without neglecting the former."_ Luke confirmed this in **(Luke Chapter 11verse42).** Manie, you still don't want to listen, you keep telling people all the things they don't have to know. Reject Jesus the Christ; serve me I am Mammon, the god of money.

The rest of your life you will have all the money you need. Think about it, no religious organization can operate without money. Remember I am the god of money. Not even you can operate without money. Isn't it true that on this moment you cannot process this chapter on Peperonity? You have to wait for money. Even worse you cannot phone, sms or e-mail your dirty work to your friends! All because you reject me, the god of money. Don't open your Bible again. I know you want to quote **(Matthew, chapter 6verse:24):** _"No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Mammon."_ Until you reject Jesus, goodbye, Manie, you will always be, the poorest, biggest idiot.

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Chapter Thirty-Seven - The Time Thief, My Best Friend

29th September 2009

_(Ephesians Chapter 5 verses 14 to 17);_ _this is why it is said:_ _"wake up, O sleeper, rise from the dead, and CHRIST WILL SHINE ON YOU." Be very careful, then, how you live-not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is._

My biggest mistake ever was not to understand the time thief as my best friend. Be warned, the time thief make the unwise, wise. Making the most of every opportunity is the time thief's most powerful strategy. Therefore he robs all humans from the opportunity to make the most of every opportunity they have, to be with Christ, who lives within them. Paul warned the Ephesians thereof.

He repeated it in **(Colossians Chapter4 verse 5);** _be wise in the way you act towards outsiders; make the most of every opportunity._ O, the time thief has stolen every opportunity from me, yes every opportunity to understand what the Lord's will is. Think about it – I wasted my life – I used every opportunity to enrich myself. I spend all my time making money. I know you want to quote **(Matthew Chapter 6 verse 24):** _"No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money. (Mammon)._ O, how I served Mammon.

The time thief wasted my time making money. The time thief robs me from that money by granting time to my family to spend my money, while I worked and worked every day, my family went on holidays. O, how I remembered the words of my daughter: "I don't give one cigarette to my friends; everyday. I give them a packed of twenty cigarettes every day. There were only thirty friends in my class. Why not, my father is a rich man."

I spend hundreds of hours on my computer, playing games, chatting in chat rooms, wasting my time. I became addicted to computers, they ruled my life. The time thief wasted my time on computers. I was married thirty four years. I gave my wife and family back to God, due to my medical condition, I could not take care of them anymore. God granted me a divorce. A period of three years after my divorce I battled to help my family including x-wife. I wasted thirty seven years of my life on my family. I went to churches, spending hours and hours of my time being good to other people. Giving gifts to them, spreading the gospel of Jesus Christ. O, how the time thief wasted my time, because people don't appreciate gifts, not even the biggest gift of all.

I did not understand the modus operandi of the time thief. Let people go to church, teach them that God is there, and they will forget that God lives within them. They will become addicted to churches.

O, how I remember one Monday morning when I passed by a certain church. I saw Jesus Christ sitting in front of the church on the doorsteps. I stopped and went to Him. He was crying. I looked Him in the face; ouch the eyes, so much pain and tears. I heard Him say: _"If this is my house, why is it locked, why it is only opened two hours during the week?"_

Read this and understand. There are eight thousand seven hundred and sixty hours in one year. But the churches are only open one hundred and four hours per year. O, the time thief robbing people of being with God. It's Ok; spend only one hundred and four hours with God per year. The rest of the year, in total eight thousand six hundred and fifty six hours, God will be lonely within you.

I will waste your time, on your behalf. I am the time thief, your biggest friend. My friend you do not have to go to a church to be with God. He lives within you. He has waste six thousand years to be with his creation. He is prepared to waste His whole infinite life on you my friend. **This is why it is said: "wake up, O sleeper, rise from the dead, and CHRIST WILL SHINE ON YOU." Be very careful, then, how you live-not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is.** Making the most of every opportunity, wow, if only I could have known this, fifty years ago. I heard so many time people say; I do not have the time to do all the things I wanted to do. Most famous words, even I said it. My friend from this moment onwards I am going to make the most of every opportunity. When I sit at Jesus' feet I am going to make the most of it. When I am with my family I am going to make the most of it. When I am in love, I am going to make the most of it. When I spend time on my computer, I am going to make the most of it. When I am in my chat room I am going to make the best of it. When I am with you, I am going to make the most of it, my time thief, because suddenly I realized; **I am my own time thief.**

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Chapter Thirty-Six - A Little Boy's Dream

2nd 0ctober 2009

How can I forget; many years ago, how my late brother entertained me, I was still a boy in grade eight. He took me to go fishing in the famous Hartbeespoortdam. We traveled on his Lambretta Scooter. I dreamed of myself riding my own motorbike and I was hooked. While fishing I expose my dream to my brother. He wanted me rather to buy a car, motorbikes were bad things. My mind was set.

On 15th March 1967 I joint the old South African Police Force, another dream I had come to fulfillment. My salary was an astonishing ninety two rand fifty cent. I had to wait until end of April to receive my first salary. During these six weeks, daily I passed Club Motors. In the window was a beautiful blue 50cc Suzuki at a total cash price of R 203.00. On a Saturday morning, I bought my first motorbike, R 84 deposit and 12 monthly installments of R 14.

O, how happy I was, riding my dream, but not for long, the nature of human is to go faster and faster. Bear in mind that mankind are bounded to the human speed of not exceeding fifty kilometers per hour. Yet out of the body the human can travel at the speed of light, 300,000 km per second.

The following year I did my Basic training in the South African Police Force. February 1968 I imported a Kawazaki A7 and August, the same year, a day before my birthday I received my A7. O, can you imagine my pride; there was only one A7 in South Africa. Only to discover that humans are nasty thinks. My dream came to an end when my motorbike was sabotaged. August 1970 I bought another 50cc Blue Suzuki. The last brand new bike I ever owned.

May 1972 I got married not knowing my bride was afraid of motorbikes. As a man I started to dream again. I rode my bike only when I slept. During 1985 I was offered a Suzuki GS 1000G at a ridiculously low price of R150. I could not resist this offer. My wife terrorized me and the bike. Within one month I sold it for R 300. Once again I rode my bike only in my dreams.

Time passed; by May 2006 my wife granted me a divorce, for I was ruined financially. I still ride my bike only in my dreams. During 2008 I worked very hard I wanted to buy myself a bike. Yet my family came first. I supported them financially, not knowing that X still ribbed them off. May 2009 my children and I became enemies to my X. now she lives on her own.

Let me share with you my secret, a little boy's dream never ends, I rode my bike only when I sleep

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Chapter Thirty-Five - God Is Not, Our Genie

4th October 2009

I cry every time when I saw people with the attitude that God is their genie, their slave, demanding God to do everything they demand, even worse demanding God to it their way. I loose my temper when, I saw people do their own thing, in the Name of God, and then claim, it was, what God asked them, to do. I am berserk when I saw people, interfere with God's plan, all in the name of peace. I am a murderer, when I saw people who, think they are god.

July 1977, I asked God what I can do for Him. He requested me to ask every minister, pastor, preacher, evangelist, every worker who claimed he work for God, one question. What is the question, Lord, I asked? He replied: _"Who was the dead man, which I, God, authorized to raise, another dead man, from the grave?"_ I lowered my head in shame, not even I, knew the answer, and asked: "Please, God, give the answer to me?" God gave me the answer when He said: _"I am not your genie, go read my Word in your Bible, read and honored my word, in total from A to Z."_

In less than three months I read the Bible from **(Genesis Chapter1 to Revelations Chapter 22)**. I prayed the Holy Spirit to be my Mentor. Yet, within one month, I found the answer and in more than twenty years, thereafter, I could not find one minister, pastor, teacher, preacher, evangelist, doctor, professor, who knew the answer. They all counter questioned me with one question: "Is that really important?"

I do have a surprise for you, I answered them, it was important for God, and therefore He recorded it in his Word. You are the teacher of God's word and you do not know. Believe me, all of them hated me. Only an old woman working in a church bookshop and one old man I found who knew the answer. I cried many a times before God. O, before I forget, do you know the answer? Don't worry it is written in the Bible, just start reading from **(Genesis Chapter 1)** and soon you will know the answer. Remember, I am not your genie.

Currently in America there is a big religious organization, by the name; CUFI – Christians United for Israel – founded By Pastor John Haggae, who motivated people to unify for peace in Israel, to stop a war in Israel. O, how wonderful, how great, isn't this, everybody wants peace. Do you want peace in this world? Isn't this what God desires? No, this is what God requests. He authorized Zechariah to write this in his Word, **(Zechariah Chapter 14** ) records.

A day of the Lord is coming when you plunder will be divided among you. I will gather all the nations to Jerusalem to fight against it; the city will be captured, the houses ransacked, and the women raped. Half of the city will go into exile, but the rest of the people will not be taken from the city. Then the Lord will go out and fight against those nations, as he fights in the day of battle. On this day his feet will stand on the Mount of Olives, east of Jerusalem, and the Mount of Olives will be split in two from east to west, forming a great valley, with half of the mountain moving north and half moving south. You will flee by my mountain valley, for it will extend to Azel. You will flee as you fled from the earthquake in the days of Uzziah king of Judah.

_Then the Lord my God will come, and all the holy ones with him on that day there will be no light, no cold or frost. It will be a unique day, without daytime or night-time-a day known to the Lord. When evening comes, there will be light_. CUFI can you stop the coming of God by preventing a war in Israel? Why then are we waiting and begging, God to come?

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Chapter Thirty-Four - Dear Lord, I Will

October 6th, 2009©

(Dedicated to Annemieke)

Please, answer the following question honestly to yourself, are you prepared to do anything God ask of you? I remembered how I responded some time ago, when God asked me to do Him an act of kindness. O, how great I felt, you know, it is not everyday that the Lord needs me to do Him a good deed. God asked me: "Manie, do you love me?" Immediately I answered, Yes, Lord I do. He asked me another question: "will you do something for Me, Manie?" Even before He mentioned my name in His question, I answered, yes Lord, I will. Finally God asked me, please Manie, will you do me this favor, and can I borrow your wife to help another man to except me as his Savior? Yes, Lord you can have her, I replied. "But, Manie, will you forgive her and live with her in peace, thereafter? " I answer, yes Lord, I will.

Time passed and I forgot my promise to God. I gave my family back to God and he arranged for me a divorce. On my fathers' birthday, May, 9th 2006, we were divorced after a marriage of 34 years and 4 days. Month end October, 2006, my X asked me to go, only as a friend, with her to an occasion where she received a medal for donating 50 units of blood.

The following day, November, 1st 2006, I was sitting on a bed at my daughters' place, my x came and asked me to come and live with her in her flat just as a friend. I rejected her offer. Yet God granted me, once again, extra time on this earth, I owe him a promise.

Seven days later, on the eight day of November 2006 I received my third coronary 3 x bypassed operation .Veins were removed from both my legs and used to replaced damaged veins inside my heart. X met another man, terminal with cancer and she decided to take care of him. One year later, November, 8th 2007 he passed away. I lived in Nelspruit and on December 24th, 2007 X asked me to come back.

X wanted me to sleep with her on the same bed, but I couldn't and I preferred to sleep on the floor in the lounge. January, 2008 I left and lived with my late brothers' daughter in Breyten. She offered me some handyman's work around the house and I used the salary to pay the rent of X`s, flat in Ermelo. My grandson lived with her so I did not mind to pay the rent at all. Until December, 2008 X tried very hard, in different ways but I refused to take her back. We became enemies. Well sadly to say, I have to live with my broken promise to God. Me and my big mouth, yes Lord, I'll live with her in peace, thereafter. Can I ask you again, are you prepared to do anything God ask of you? Anything!!!!!!!!!!

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Chapter Thirty-Three - Not Peace But Division

October 7th, 2009

(Dedicated to Menora)

O, how many times in my life I have wasted the time of Jesus, praying Please Lord come. How many times I kept God busy with my own rubbish prayers. How many times in my life I have seen that we, human beings respect and appreciate nothing. How I hate the masks people dressed themselves with pretending to be holy and how many times I cried before the Lord because people making Jesus their fool. People pretending that everything is hunky-dory in their lives. O, their marriage is a happy one. As a family they are united and they cannot understand why my family and housekeeping is low in standard. My family was so bad we couldn't even live in one house anymore. In my household we were six people; a father, a mother, one son, two daughters and one grandson. Today we live in four different houses. How expensive, yet the best, because we learned the hard way; Jesus is not a hoax, everything he said is true.

When Jesus calmed the storm, the men were amazed and asked, _"What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!"_ **(Matthew Chapter 8verse 27)** did you hear; the wind and the waves obey him. Atheists are shock when I told them they proof God is a reality. They agreed that even their home affairs are a total mess. They do what Jesus said: _"Do you think I came to bring peace on earth? No, I tell you, but division._

_From now on there will be five in one family divided against each other, three against two and two against three. They will be divided, father against son and son against father. Mother against daughter and daughter against mother, mother- in- law against daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law."_ **(Luke Chapter 12verses 51-53).** Even atheists obey Jesus, not only the wind and the waves.

Not Christians, no our home affairs are great, we serve a wonderful God who cares about us. We live according to his Word. We are good, civilized people. We live in peace in one house.

Well, you want to know why I gave my family back to Jesus; you want to know why I will never marry again, why we as a family live in separate houses. Simply because we know we are bad people. _"Why do you call me good?"_ Jesus answered. _"No one is good-except God alone."_ **(Luke Chapter 18 verse 19).**

" _If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters-yes, even his own life-he cannot be my disciple. And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple."_ **(Luke Chapter 14 verses 26 and 27).** I still remember the day I quoted this text to my father; it destroyed our relationship for more many years.

" _I tell you the truth,"_ Jesus said to them, _"no one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God will fail to receive many times as much in this age and, in the age to come, eternal life."_ **(Luke Chapter 18 verse 29).** Even I have to obey Jesus. Only Christians don't have to obey Jesus Christ.

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Chapter Thirty Two - Mary's Song

October 8th, 2009

(Dedicated to Blond Chic)

Twenty five years ago I really wanted to write a book telling other people about my mother. She passed away June 1980 just before my 30th birthday. I failed to write due to lack of information. I was shocked in thirty years I never attempted to valuate my mother, I do not know my mother good enough to write a book. The only thing I knew was that my mother was the best mother on earth. She was good, very good. Ok I will recall Jesus words; _"Why do you call me good?" Jesus answered. "No one is good-except God alone."_ **(Luke Chapter 18 verse 19).**

O, how I believe Jesus, I know he knows something about my mother I don't know. Jesus Christ had to pay with his Life to save my mom, wow, isn't Jesus great, saving all my beloved ones. In My mind I still remember the photo, to show, what my father had to pay me, for stop breastfeeding on my mom, a tricycle and a wagon and me nearly five years old. Thanks mom for all the love you pored over me.

I believe the ultimate happiness in life can only be the first kick in your tummy. Mary was so happy she even wrote a song and this is what she wrote; _"My soul glorifies the Lord."_ Allow me to repeat this in Afrikaans (1933 vertaalde Bybel); En Maria het gesê: _"My siel maak die Here groot."_ My mind collapsed, can you imagine, how Mary felt when she realized; this kick in my tummy is the kick of Jesus Christ. O, my God, I am creating the body of Jesus Christ to come and live on this earth. "And my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, for he has been mindful of the humble state of his servant. _From now on all generations will call me blessed, for the Mighty One has done great things for me - holy is his name. His mercy extends to those who fear him, from generation to generation. He has performed mighty deeds with his arm; he has scattered those who are proud in their inmost thoughts. He has brought down rulers from their thrones but has lifted up the humble. He has filled the hungry with good things but has sent the rich away empty._ " **(Luke Chapter 1 verses 46 up to 53).**

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Chapter Thirty-One - Obedience

October 12th, 2009

Last week, I glorified the Lord, when I saw how my grandson obeyed his mothers' instructions. Don't take it wrong, my grandson grips the opportunity to ignore most of the instructions I gave him. Obedience is a human's worst enemy; it is our nature to disobey, we simply don't want to do as we were told. Adam had two choices; obey or die, well you know the story he accepted death. **(Genesis Chapter 2 verse 17)** _"But you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat of it you will surely die."_

Then God gave Adam two sons, Adam begged them both to be obedient, he told them the penalty for disobedience is death. Abel, the youngest, listened to his father; most of all Abel obeyed the Lord. Cain, the eldest son of Adam, rejected his fathers' teachings and disobeyed God. He became angry and jealous and killed his brother. Poor old Adam, felt the agony of death. Suddenly Adam knew how God felt, because he disobeyed God.

O, how I remembered the little boy who was only a shepherd caring for his fathers' sheep. Daily his mother warned him of the dangerous lions and bears. Please my son take care, don't fall pray to them, hide yourself, don't let the wild animals kill you. One day while tending his fathers' sheep, suddenly God spoke to him and said: _"David, don't be scared of the lions and bears, I am God and I am with you. If a lion or bear came to carry off a sheep from the flock, go and rescue the sheep from its mouth._ David had a problem, must he obey God, or must he obey his mother. Well think about it, he could not obey both. Who would you obey? Sad to say I will obey my mother and disobey God, simply because I am afraid to die by lions and bears.

One day David's father, Jesse called him and said: _"David, take this ephah of roasted corn and these ten loaves of bread for your brothers and hurry to their camp. Take along these ten cheeses to the commander of their unit. See how your brothers are and bring back some assurance from them. They are with Saul and all the men of Israel in the valley of Elah, fighting against the Philistines."_

Early in the morning David left the flock with a shepherd, loaded up and set out, as Jesse had directed. He reached the camp as the army was going out to its battle positions, shouting the war cry. Israel and the Philistines were drawing up their lines facing each other. David left his things with the keeper of supplies, ran to the battle lines and greeted his brothers.

As he was talking with them, Goliath, about three meters tall, the Philistine champion from Gath, stepped out from his lines and shouted his usual defiance, and David heard it. When the Israelites saw the man, they all ran from him in great fear. Now the Israelites had been saying, "Do you see how this man keeps coming out? He comes out to defy Israel. The king will give great wealth to the man who kills him. He will also give him his daughter in marriage and will exempt his fathers' family from taxes in Israel."

David asked the men standing near him, "What will be done for the man who kills this Philistine and removes this disgrace from Israel? Who is this uncircumcised Philistine that he should defy the armies of the living God?" they repeated to him what they had been saying and told him, "This is what will be done for the man who kills him." When Eliab, David's oldest brother, heard him speaking with the men, he burned with anger at him and asked, "Why have you come down here? And with whom did you leave those few sheep in the desert? I know how conceited you are and how wicked your heart is; you came down only to watch the battle."

" _Now what have I done?"_ said David. _"Can't I even speak?"_ he then turn away to someone else and brought up the same matter, and the men answered the same as before. What David said was overheard and reported to Saul, and Saul sent for him. David said to Saul, "Let no one lose heart on account of this Philistine; your servant will go and fight him." Saul replied, "You are not able to go out against this Philistine and fight him; you are only a boy, and he has been a fighting man from his youth."

David, not only disobeyed his brother, Eliab. No, he refused to obey King Saul, but David said to Saul, _"Your servant has been keeping his fathers sheep. When a lion or a bear came and carried off a sheep from the flock, I went after it, struck it and rescued the sheep from its mouth. When it turned on me, I seized it by its hair, struck it and killed it. Your servant has killed both the lion and the bear." So David triumphed over the Philistine with a sling and a stone._ **(1 Samuel Capter 17).**

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Chapter Thirty - From The Depths Of The Grave

October 13th, 2009

I was the first to travel into the depths of the grave. My name is Abel and I'll be your guide through the darkness you called the grave. I was killed by my brother and my soul traveled into a pit deep into the earth. surrounded in totally darkness I called upon the Lord: _"Lord why me, I did not ask to be here! Lord, remember, you favored my offerings."_ I was lonely; I was locked up with no one to talk to. I hated my brother Cain, it was because of him, I had to suffer in this place, that Jesus named Abraham's side. I longed for my father Adam to come and rescue me. Little did I know I had to wait close to eight hundred years for my father, Adam to come.

Together we waited another three thousand years for Jesus to come and rescue us. Let me tell you this; to wait for Jesus four thousand years, just to be with him, is time well spend.

Did you know that Enoch was the only man ever, who did not spend time down here at Abraham's side? God himself came and took him away in the year 987 after God created the earth. Come read with me in your Bible; **(Genesis Chapter 5 verses 23 and 24** ), altogether, Enoch lived 365 years. Enoch walked with God; then he was no more, because God took him away. Wow, Enoch, never walked alone on earth, he walked with God. God himself came and took him away, to paradise. Think about it; Enoch's body was never buried in a grave. God did not send his angels to fetch Enoch, no God, himself took Enoch away. Enoch, the only man, who did not, traveled the normal way to Abraham's side of hell.

Let's talk about people who refused to walk with God, but rather treated the Lord with contempt. Did you know God created a separate entrance to hell for them? Jesus called this place, Hell, place of torment, separated from Abraham's side by a great chasm. Come read with me once again in your Bible again;

**(Numbers Chapter 16 verses 28 to 34)** ; Then Moses said: _"This is how you will know that the Lord has sent me to do all these things and that it was not my idea: If these men die a natural death and experience only what usually happens to men, then the Lord has not sent me. But if the Lord brings about something totally new, and the earth opens its mouth and swallows them, with everything that belongs to them, and they go down alive into the grave, then you will know that these men have treated the Lord with contempt." As soon as he finished saying this, the ground under them split apart and the earth opened its mouth and swallowed them, with their households and all Korah's men and all their possessions. They went down alive into the grave, with every thing they owned; the earth closed over them and they perished and were gone from the community. At their cries, all the Israelites around them fled, shouting, "The earth is going to swallow us too!"_ The year was 2666 after God created the earth.

Did you know, poor old Jonah, traveled both these roads because he disobeyed the Lord? Did you know he was the only man who ever crossed the great chasm that separated Hell from Abraham's side? **(Jonah Chapter 2 verses 2 to 6)** Jonah said: _"in my distress I called to the Lord, and he answered me. From the depths of the grave I called for help, and you listened to my cry. You hurled me into the deep, into the very heart of the seas, and the currents swirled about me; all your waves and breakers swept over me. I said 'I have been banished from your sight; yet I will look again towards your holy temple.' The engulfing waters threatened me the deep surrounded me; seaweed was wrapped around my head. To the roots of the mountains I sank down; the earth beneath barred me in for ever. But you brought my life up from the pit, O Lord my God._ **(1 Samuel Chapter 2 verse 6)** Hannah prayed: _"The Lord brings death and makes alive; he brings down to the grave and raises up."_

Did you know Jesus teaches the people about Hell and about Abraham's side of hell? **(Luke Chapter 16 verses 19 to 31)** – _"there was a rich man who was dressed in purple and fine linen and lived in luxury every day. At his gate was laid a beggar named Lazarus; covered with sores and longing to eat what fell from the rich man's table. Even the dogs came and licked his sores. The time came when the beggar died and the angels carried him to Abraham's side. The rich man also died and was buried. In hell, where he was in torment, he looked up and saw Abraham far away, with Lazarus by his side. So he called to him, 'Father Abraham, have pity on me and send Lazarus to dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my tongue, because I am in agony in this fire.' "But Abraham replied, 'Son, remember that in your lifetime you received your good things, while Lazarus received bad things, but now he is comforted here and you are in agony._

_And besides all this, between us and you a great chasm has been fixed, so that those who want to go from here to you cannot, nor can anyone cross over from there to us._ ' He answered, _'Then I beg you, father, send Lazarus to my father's house, for I have five brothers. Let he warn them, so that they will not also come to this place of torment.'_ "Abraham replied, ' _They have Moses and the Prophets; let them listen to them.' "'No,_ father Abraham,' he said, _'but if someone from the dead goes to them, they will repent.'_ "He said to him, _'If they do not listen to Moses and the Prophets, they will not be convinced even if someone rises from the dead.'"_ **Are you convinced?**

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Chapter Twenty-Nine - Our Graves, Place Of Thinking

October 14th, 2009

Hi, it's me, Abel from the depths of the grave, again. Yesterday I highlighted my world just to let you know the inside of the grave is not what humans on earth think about it. On earth people are to busy doing their own thing, so God created this place to give people time, in my own case, just under four thousand years, to stand still, locked behind bars in totally darkness, time to think, time to listen, until you hear the voice of God. And then suddenly you learn the language of God again, the language we as humans refused to remember while on earth. The language of knowledge, wow, the most beautiful language ever, can you still remember it?

When I first enter the place, I moaned and complaint and cried and blamed my brother, my father and even God. I wanted my life back on earth, I didn't belong here, I wanted to make love, to have sex, to create earthly bodies for God to come and live within and most of all I wanted to enjoy life.

But, my Mom and Dad, did not want God to live within them in the Garden of Eden, no they preferred Lucifer to live within them, for that reason, God had to create the grave, my world, a place of thinking. O, how happy I was the moment I understood the language of knowledge, again, the truth set me free, I knew about Jesus, wow, he is the One who will release us from this prison. Believe me four thousand years waiting is not so bad.

In the 930th year after God created the earth my father came to my world. O, how can I forget the tears in his eyes when he apologized to me for being the reason we have to be in this place? Finally he calmed down and we have the most wonderful three thousand years ahead of us, waiting for Jesus to come. Next to come were Mom, Cain, my sisters and finally in the year 1042, Seth my brother arrived. Locked up in different sells, we were happy, because we were a family again, waiting for Jesus to come.

In the year 1140, Enosh, Seth's son arrived, he told us about Noah, the firstborn in 1056, after my father died in 930. One by one they came; 1235- Kenan, 1280-Mahalalel, 1422-Jered, 1651- Lamech, Noah's father. Remember, the only one that did not arrived in this place, Enoch, born in 622, walked with God for 365 years and God personally took him away to Paradise in the year 987. Just think about it, Enoch, the only one of my family, not to arrive in this place, not waiting for Jesus to come. Enoch, who lived with God and Jesus, in Paradise, in the centre of the sun, how privileged he is.

Lamech told us how crazy his old father, Methuselah is, teasing Noah because he is building a big boat. According to Noah, God will destroy all his people on earth with water falling out of the sky. Methuselah said to tease Noah: "I am already over 900 years old and never did I see water falling out of the sky, Noah you are wasting your time building that boat you called an ark.

And then Methuselah arrived, I never saw a man so heartbroken, a man crying nonstop for days. More and more people arrived daily. Down here in our world we never experienced such trauma, people crying and shouting: "why didn't we believe Noah!" Once Methuselah settled down we asked him to tell us everything and this is what he told us. "God himself came, after he commanded Noah and some of all the animals to enter the Ark. I wanted to enter the Ark, I wanted to be with Noah, but God himself prevented me.

Not only I but lots of people tried to enter the Ark. Then the Lord shut the ark himself. O, how will I forgot this day; THE SEVENTEENTH DAY OF THE SECOND MONTH OF THE YEAR 1656 after God created the earth, Noah six hundred years of age, turned back his face and I saw the tears falling out of his eyes as he entered the Ark. My God, how shocked I was when I looked in the eyes of God; I saw the face of a Father, destroying his creation, as he opened the floodgates of heaven.

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Chapter Twenty-Eight \- The Survivors

October 15th, 2009

Did you know I claimed to be an atheist? I believed all the clever humans with their brilliant stories of a Big Bang. I challenged God to proof me wrong. Only to discover myself, how big this bang really was. In six days God gave birth to this universe. Did you know although we claimed that God is almighty, there is things he cannot do? Yes God cannot be; A liar, Dishonest, A thief, Disobedient, yes not even God can create something out of nothing. And then God challenged me.

Can I ever forget his words when he said: "Manie, you do not believe me, your Creator? You rather put your trust in humans who claimed that the earth was just something out of nothing. Not even I, God can deliver something out of nothing. I GAVE BIRTH TO THE UNIVERSE. The whole universe came for within me. I, God removed so much of myself from within me, I became tired. That is why I had to rest on the seventh day. Proof me wrong."

I wasted thirty years of my time to proof God was wrong, but I failed. O, then I wanted to proof God to be a liar. If I can proof that not only eight people, the only survivors, survived the flood, o boy, them I can proof God to be a liar. Once again I challenged God, and then, one day, God gave me his calendar, and suddenly I knew the date of the Big Flood. Wow, God made it easy for me to proof him a liar; this is something great.

If only I can proof that one person was born before the seventeenth day of the second month of the 1656th year, but died after that day, God, them you got some trouble. I studied God's calendar and this is what I found. Noah was born in 1056; he lived for 950 years and died in the year 2006. Noah communicated with his relatives over 17 generations. Noah was the 10th generation and he spoke in person with Enosh, the third generation, born 235 and died in 1140.

Noah also spoke with, Abram, the 20th generation, borne in 1946 and died in 2121. All nine generations before Noah died before and within the flood, refer chapter 29.The first person who died after the Big Flood was Peleg, the 15th generation, born in 1755 and died in 1994, 338 years after the flood.

The second person who died after the flood was Nahor, the 18th generation, born in 1847 and died in 1995, 339 years after the flood. The third person who died after the flood was Noah himself, 350 years after the flood. O how great is God; he made it so easy for me to proof myself wrong. He made it so easy for me to proof all the clever people who believe in the Big Bang wrong. Who can blame me now for being a believer and no more an atheist?

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Chapter Twenty-Seven - The Rich Young Man

October 16th, 2009

(Dedicated to this poor little rich, most condemned young man)

Hi, it's me, Abel from the depths of the grave, again. Don't worry I'm just going to introduce you to Abraham, the father of nations. Its time for me to retire now, don't you think after more than 2,000 years of service as a Graveyard Manager, keeping register of all people, over 20 generations, down here is a hard work.

From now on this place is named; Abrahams' side, because he is the father of the next 42 generations to come. Till me meet in paradise, if we meet, to say, anyway, keep it safe.

Hi, I am Abraham, please to meet and I just want to give thanks to Abel for keeping my place in excellent condition. He also said what my duties are; therefore I am going to jump close to 2,000 years, and it is time for The Gravedigger, Jesus Christ to come. At this very moment, Jesus, and his disciples are with a very, very, o, very rich young man.

All my regards to Mark, the disciple of Jesus and the witness of this man, present at that very incident, who wrote one single verse to proof all the condemnators of this honest man wrong. Sadly to say, until the second coming of Jesus Christ, there will be those humans who judged this man to hell, but when they enter hell, they will not find this man, the only man Jesus has, invited to be crucified with himself, amongst themselves.

Enough, over to Mark to tell his story. As Jesus started on his way, a man ran up to him and fell on his knees before him. _"Good Teacher," he asked, "WHAT MUST I DO TO INHERIT ETERNAL LIFE?" "Why do you call me good_?" _Jesus answered_. _"No one is good-except God Alone. You know the commandments: 'Do not murder, do not commit adultery, do not steal, do not give false testimony, do not defraud, honour your father and mother,'" "Teacher," he declared, "ALL THESE I HAVE KEPT SINCE I WAS A BOY." Jesus looked at him and LOVED him._

" _One thing you lack," he said. "Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor, AND YOU WILL HAVE TREASURE IN HEAVEN. Then come, follow me."_ At this the man's face fell. He went away sad, because he had great wealth **. (Mark Chapter 10 verse 17 to 22** ).

Some days later, we, the disciples of Jesus, were with Jesus in Gethsemane, while Jesus, Peter, James and John prayed, we fell asleep. Judas Iscariot came, with him was a crowd armed with swords and clubs. The men seized Jesus and arrested him and we all deserted him and fled.

Some distant away I hide myself to look back and see what will happen to Jesus. And then I saw the young rich man, o, he was not rich anymore; he did what Jesus has told him to do. He sold everything he has and gave it to the poor. Now he was following Jesus, wearing nothing but a linen garment. Will this man proceed to be crucified with Jesus, to inherit eternal life by himself? O, no, when the crowd seized him, he fled naked, leaving his garment behind. **(Mark Chapter 14 verses 32 to 52.)**

(Manie's comment: "All my life while I am in the presence of people, clergymen, teachers, pastors, evangelist, graduated professors, when this story is addressed; I could not found one person, who did not pity and even damned this man to hell. I even attended church sermons where this man was used as a scapegoat to scare church followers, not to hold back their wealth and go to hell, but rather give it to the church and receive eternal life. Just because they did not understand, or blatantly ignore, **(Mark Chapter 14 verse 51),** to reap their own benefits. **A young man, wearing nothing but a linen garment, was following Jesus.** The one and only verse, that proofed, this man was serious with God. Are you serious with God?)

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Chapter Twenty-Six The Gravedigger

October 17th, 2009

(Dedicated to my new friend Casper)

I wish I could take your pain and sorrow away, dad, I wish I could take the spade out of your hand; I wish I could stop you to fill mom's grave with dust. I wish Jesus was here to call mom back to life again. Five years later, I filled my father's grave with dust. Thank you Jesus, I cried, dad is with mom. Most of all, they are with you, Jesus. How many times I prayed: 'Please, Jesus, help me to walk in your footsteps,' but somehow I never had the money go to Jerusalem to walk the Via Del La Rosa. And then my prayer was answered. I did not visit Jerusalem, but instead I traveled to Abrahams' side.

I was shocked when I met Judas Iscariot, the current Grave Manager, there and that the place has been renamed to Judas' side. Immediately I understand what was written in **(Acts1 Chapter 24and 25).** Show us which of these two you have chosen to take over this ministry, which Judas left to go WHERE HE BELONGS.

Time was of on essence; suddenly this place was full of people, 61 generations of people. Instantly I knew all of them by name and they were so happy. I asked them; "Why?" then Abraham explained: "It's time, son, for Jesus to come." It was midday, suddenly the place was full of light, as if the sun has arrived, and God the Father, himself was here. The people cried, tears were falling from every eye, people were rejoicing, singing, shouting. Really, I do not have words to explain this. Jesus was not there, where is Jesus? Abel responded: "In less than three hours Jesus will be here, he is still alive on the cross." And then I understand.

From the sixth hour until the ninth hour darkness came over all the land. About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?"-which means, "My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?" **(Matthew Chapter 27 vesrses 45 and 46).** I cried, o, my God, you did not have forsaken Jesus, you came yourself to welcome Jesus, your Son.

**(Matthew Chapter 27 verses 50 to 53).** And when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit. At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth shook and the rocks split. **THE TOMBS BROKE OPEN AND THE BODIES OF MANY HOLY PEOPLE WHO HAD DIED WERE RAISED TO LIFE. THEY CAME OUT OF THE TOMBS.** Still shock and afraid because I felt the earth trembled, I opened my eyes, just to see the body of Jesus Christ on the cross.

Somebody took my hand and I turn to look, it was Jesus. I looked back at the cross; his body was still on it. Slowly we start walking. We were surrounded by open graves, thousand and thousands of open graves all over the place. A thought came to my mind; what a privilege to walk hand in hand with Jesus, the Gravedigger, who has opened all the graves, and wow, 61 generations of people raised form these graves followed us, as we were walking, walking the Via Del La Rosa.

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Chapter Twenty-Five - At Jesus' Feet

2ND November 2009

Hand in hand we were walking the Via Del La Rosa, I looked back, wow, Jesus I cried, you are not only holding my hand, but you have multiplied yourself. Sixty-one generations of people and everyone were walking hand in hand with Jesus, and then I heard Jesus soft voice as he repeat **(John Chapter14 verse 15 to 20):** _"If you love me, you will obey what I command. I will ask the father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you for ever – the Spirit of Truth._

_The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you....20 ON THAT DAY YOU WILL REALISE THAT I AM IN MY FATHER, AND YOU ARE IN ME, AND I AM IN YOU."_ A tear dropped from my eye and I tried to catch it, with shock I realized we were walking in the air, the earth was gone. I looked down and saw the earth, millions of kilometers away. Then we entered the sun. Welcome to Paradise and I knew this is home.

Finally we came to rest at Jesus' Feet, I heart the people talk about the beauty inside Paradise, but I only wanted to be at Jesus' feet. Suddenly I saw two baskets in Jesus' hands. The one basket was full of my prayers and then Jesus gave me back all my selfish prayers he rejected. What a fool I was. All the requests in my prayers were just to enrich myself. O, how could I be so selfish, demanding Jesus to answer my prayers my way?

To claim all the glory for me and to believe that it was my prayers that changed the world. Shamefully I looked into the other basket, inside was only one prayer, **(Luke Chapter22 verse 42)** _"Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; YET NOT MY WILL, BUT YOURS BE DONE."_ I closed my eyes, thoughts entered my mind, and I promised myself never again to waist Jesus' time with my or any other person's selfish demands. I opened my eyes, just to find myself back on earth. I prayed, JESUS, NOT MY WILL, BUT YOURS BE DONE, and for the first time I mend my words to be.

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Chapter Twenty-Four Accept The Unacceptable

**(Accettare L'inaccettabile)**

7th December 2009

Dear Mom, today I just want to thank you and tell you how much I appreciated all the things you have done for me. You created my body and carried it for nine months in your womb. You shared your blood and your food with me. I was born naked because the only one I needed was you mommy. You produced my food I needed and for many years I was happy to feed from your breast. You hold me against your body when it was cold. You carried me because I couldn't walk. For thirty years you gave me your everything, no, you gave me you. O, mom, I still remember your last words you told me with love and sorrow in you heart: **"Son it's time for me to go."** All the things I needed in life, you gave me, and I accepted it, yet you, yes you, mommy, was unacceptable for me, because it was your way not my way, Mom. You always protected me, mommy, I couldn't do the things I wanted to do my way.

Today, thirty years after you have left, mom, I do understand why you cared so much for me, yes, simple because you know Jesus lived in me. I know now, it was you, who asked him to come and live within me and protect me. O, how I enjoyed life after you left, Mom, I did everything my way.

One thing I really hated was the little voice who reprimanded me when I committed bad things. I refused to accept the unacceptable and anything that was not my way was unacceptable. All I cared about was me. I misused everybody. I used Jesus as my genie. Demanded him to do things my way, I rejected and refused to do whatever Jesus commanded me to do. I even wanted to start my own church, and God clearly answered me in the Bible. I remembered when I opened the Bible, somewhere in the middle of it, both pages were blank, no bible verses were recorded, only the following written in big black letters over both pages: **"Manie, I do not need your help, I have completed my work on the cross!"**

**N** ovember 2009, was tough, Jesus sent me to hospital, simple to learn; **accept the unacceptable.** Bear in mind Jesus is the only Mentor who teaches with emotional feelings. While lying in bed I looked at the old man in the bed opposite me. He was like a baby, just lying and waiting to die. Depended on other people to change his nappies, to feed and wash him. And then the little voice reprimanded me. " **Do you want to learn to accept the unacceptable the hard way?** **The way the old man has to learn it."**

I turned my head away, and saw a young man battled to push him in a wheelchair, on his way to the toilet, both feet were black and I identified it as gangrene due to diabetes. My God, the doctors are going to amputate both his legs. No Lord, I cried, is this the way he had to learn to accept the unacceptable.

Two young people in the ward are mental, self afflicted due to drugs. The whole day they are walking up and down in the ward, harass the other patients. One of them repeatedly grabs his anus, he must go to the toilet, halfway to the toilet he forgets and turns around coming back, just to grabs his anus again. Until it is too late to go to the toilet, only then he goes and cleans himself.

Another patient seventy four years old walking on crutches, complaining about the pain in his right leg and blaming it on the hard life he had during the apartheids period of time. He told me the doctors want to amputate his leg, but he refused, because when they amputated his brother's leg he died shortly thereafter. I asked him if he smokes and he confirms for a period of sixty years. Well I tried to explain to him that gangrene is a negative effect cause by smoking and therefore the doctors must amputate his leg. I suddenly understand that I am not the only one who demands to do everything my way. Once again I prayed; JESUS, I ACCEPT THE UNACCEPTABLE, NOT MY WILL, BUT YOURS BE DONE.

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Chapter Twenty-Three Everything Is Permissible

4th February 2010

Jesus was the only Man that fulfilled the Law of Moses and then he made it easy for us. He combined the Law of Moses into one Verse. Friend do you understand this? Yes, forget all the complicated Laws of Moses; the Ten Commandments, tithes and offerings, do this and don't do that. Yes forget it and take note of the Good news. Just adhered to this, **(1Corinthians Chapter 10 verses 24):** _"NOBODY SHOULD SEEK HIS OWN GOOD, BUT THE GOOD OF OTHERS."_

Friend, if you are motivated to seek the good of others, then you will fulfill the Greatest Commandment. **(Mark Chapter12 verses 28 to 34).** _One of the teachers of the law came and heard them debating. Noticing that Jesus had given then a good answer, he asked him, "Of all the commandments, which is the most important?" "The most important one" answered Jesus, "is this: 'Hear, O Israel, and the Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with your entire mind and with all your strength. The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these." "Well said, teacher," the man replied. "You are right in saying that God is one and there is no other but him. To love him with all your heart, with all your understanding and with all your strength, and to love your neighbor as yourself is more important than all burnt offerings and sacrifices."_ _When Jesus saw that he had answered wisely, he said to him, "You are not far from the kingdom of God." And from then on no one dared ask him any more questions_. Let me tell you something about my own daughter, today is her thirty-seventh birthday, never ever in my life did I saw her reading the Bible, or speak about God. Yet everyday I saw her fulfill **(1 Corinthians Chapter 10 verse 24).** _"NOBODY SHOULD SEEK HIS OWN GOOD, BUT THE GOOD OF OTHERS"_

When she saw that her family do not have any medical aid she added them; her mother, her sister, her sister's two children and her brother's daughter onto her own medical aid. When somebody needs something she will supply their need. Due to the financial stress helping others, it took her thirteen years to obtain her degree. I wonder who taught her to seek the good of others.

What about the Bushmen? They lived in community of property. Always helping one another. They never knew Jesus, they did not even have a Bible, yet they always seek the good of others. Bushmen were sheep not goats. Who taught then **(Matthews Chapter 25 from verses 31 to 46)**? The Sheep and the Goats. _"When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his throne in heavenly glory. All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left._

" _Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I need clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.' Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or need clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?' "The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did it for me.'_

" _Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, I was a stranger and you did not invite me in. I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.' "They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?' "He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.' "Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life."_

Friend now you know the truth and the truth will set you free. Are you a sheep or do you prefer to be a goat? Let me end this chapter with a sad story of a young girl who lived in the days of the Judges, many years before the birth of Jesus.

This young girl who lived under the Law of Moses ignored it, yet she did not seek her own good, but the good of others, namely her father. **(JUDGES Chapter11 FROM VERSES 30 TO 39)**. _and Jephthah made a vow to the Lord: "If you give the Ammonites into my hands, whatever comes out of the door of my house to meet me when I return in triumph from the Ammonites will be the Lord's and I will sacrifice it as a burnt offering." Then Jephthah went over to fight the Ammonites, and the Lord gave them into his hands. He devastated twenty two towns from Aroer to the vicinity of Minnith, as far as Abel Keramin. Thus Israel subdued Ammon. When Jephthah returned to his home in Mizpah, who should come out to meet him but his daughter, dancing to the sound of tambourines! She was an only child. Except for her he had neither son nor daughter. When he saw her, he tore his clothes and cried, "Oh! My daughter! You have made me miserable and wretched, because I made a vow to the Lord that I cannot break_." "My father," she replied, "you have given your word to the Lord. Do to me just as you promised, now that the Lord has avenged you of your enemies, the Ammonites. But grand me this one request," she said. "Give me two months to roam the hills and weep with my friends, because I will never marry." "You may go," he said. And he let her go for two months. She and the girls went into the hills and wept because she would never marry. After the two months, she returned to her father and he did to her as he had vowed. And she was a virgin.

Friend would you give your life in return for the good of others. Isn't it what Jesus has done for us? **(1 Corinthians Chapter 10 verses 23 to 24)**. _"Everything is permissible"-but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible"-but not everything is constructive. "NOBODY SHOULD SEEK HIS OWN GOOD, BUT THE GOOD OF OTHERS."_

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Chapter Twenty-Two The Sixth Day

15th February 2010

(Dedicated to Blond chic)

**(Genesis Chapter 1 verse 31)** _God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning – THE SIXTH DAY_. ( **Genesis Chapter 2 verse 1).** _Thus the heavens and the earth were completed in their entire vast array._ **(Genesis Chapter 2 verse 2** _)_ _. By the seventh day God had finished the work he had been doing; so on the seventh day he rested from all his work_. The earth was spinning around its own axle to generate day and night. The earth was tilting on a 21 degree angle to generate seasons. The earth was touring on its track around the sun to generate years. The earth was obeying Gods instructions to produce vegetation.

The universe obeyed Gods instructions. Everything God has created obeyed his instructions. **(Genesis Chapter 2 verse 3).** _And God blessed the seventh day and made it holy, because on it he rested from all the work of creating that he had done._

The sons of God were discussing amongst them; HOW THEY ARE GOING TO RULE OVER ALL THE EARTH. Can you still remember that meeting? O, yes you and I were there, **(Genesis Chapter 1 verse 26).** And God Said, _"Let us (God, Jesus and Lucifer) make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground."_ And then the war started, believe it.

Allow me to repeat **(Genesis Chapter 2 verse 1)** as it is recorded in the Afrikaans Translated version 1933 edition. _SO IS DAN VOLTOOI DIE HEMEL EN DIE AARDE MET HULLE GANSE LEËRMAG_. An army ready for war. Lucifer was not prepared to rule over the earth according Gods instructions. He wanted to be god and does it his own way; therefore he demanded his share of Gods estate. Do you still remember how we turned our back on God and demanded our rights to choose who we want as god? BELIEVE IT!

When Jesus was on earth he used parables to learn his disciples. Jesus told them his parable of the Lost Son. Let us share Luke's version as he recorded it in **(Luke 15)** _Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them. "Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living._ Early the morning of the eighth day God traveled to earth to divide his property. He prepared an earthly body and put us, the man he created, within. Genesis 2: 7. He planted a Garden in the east, in Eden; and there he put us, the man he had formed. **(Genesis Chapter 2 verse 8).** _And the Lord God make all kinds of trees grow out of the ground – trees that were pleasing to the eye and good for food. In the middle of the garden were the tree of life and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil_. **(Genesis Chapter 2 verse 9).**

Do you still remember when God took our hand and walked with us in the garden? Do you still remembered when we arrived in the middle of the garden and we stop at the tree of life? Do you still remember when God told us that this tree presents Jesus? Do you still remember when God told us if we eat from this tree we except Jesus and we will live? Do you still remember when we turned away and walked to the tree of the knowledge of good and evil? Do you still remember God told us that this tree presents Lucifer? Do you still remember God warned us that if we eat from this tree we will surely die? **(Genesis Chapter 2 verses16 and 17).** Do you still remember how we choose to eat from the tree of knowledge of good and evil? Do you still remember how sad God was when he left our bodies and we died? Do you still remember how Lucifer enters our bodies? Do you still remember how God returned and banished us from the Garden? Do you still remember God placed cherubim and a flaming sword flashing back and forth to guard the way to the tree of life? **(Genesis Chapter 3verse 23 and 24** ). Do you still remember the pain in Gods heart when he left for good? Do you still remember how Jesus hold back God and offered to die in our place? DO YOU STILL REMEMBER THE SIXTH DAY? The day God has created us...

**(John Chapter 3 from verses 16 to 21);** _"For God so loved the world (his creation) that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son. This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light; so that it may be seen plainly what he has done has been done through God."_ AND THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE. Do you still remember the day Jesus conquered Lucifer when he died on the cross? Do you still remember how Lucifer left our bodies? Do you remember how Jesus entered our bodies? THE TRUTH HAS SET US FREE. Why? Why? Why? Why do we still want to choose, Lucifer? Why? Why? Why? Why do we still want to do our own things? Why? Why? Why? Why do we still demand our share of Gods estate?

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Chapter Twenty-One Lovelust

22nd February 2010

(Dedicated to SKY)

Love and Lust are my Friends. To be honest it is your Friends too. My life and your life, as a matter of fact every human beings life, are effected daily by them. Some people would deny this due to there profession. They pretend living with Love only. Let me teach you two new languages in seconds, because you know them already. We communicate daily with Love and Lust in their native language we call THOUGHTS. EVERY THOUGHT IN YOUR MIND IS NOT YOUR OWN. It is either from Love or Lust.

We are their genie, therefore, we only can respond with one answer; YOUR WISH IS MY COMMAND. Please, put this in your heart and live by it. Measure every thought with **(1 Corinthians Chapter 10 verse 24);** _"NOBODY SHOULD SEEK HIS OWN GOOD, BUT THE GOOD OF OTHERS."_ The thoughts of Love will always seek the good of others, and the thoughts of Lust will always seek his own good.

The second language I want to teach you are; THE LANGUAGE OF LOVE. Sorry to say, Lust kills this language in us; for he only seeks his own good, remember. O, how I wish I was with you at this moment. When our eyes meet you will know. Yes, recall all the moments you looked deep into other person's eyes. Were your thoughts to seek your own good? Was it Lust in you to take that person to bed? O how I remembered the last time I communicated in Love;

Last night around about 5pm I was the messenger to tell a mother her son 24 years old has committed suicide. I decided to tell her boyfriend, Spyker. I did not have the courage to look her in the eyes. I told Spyker strait well aware of the grief syndrome. I saw his heart falls through his Ass. And then our eyes met. Without words we communicated in Love. His eyes asked me: "Is he dead?" and my eyes confirmed it. And then my Friend Love embraced him and Spyker and I become friends in Love.

**(1 John Chapter 4 verse16** ) _And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. God is love_ , yet love hurts. I challenge you to look in the eyes of God right now. Let's go back approximately 4350 years. The date is the seventeenth day of the second month of the 1656th year after God created the earth. Noah looked God in the eyes.

In the language of Love he asked God: "please save my grandfather, Methuselah with me." God said, no. Noah without looking to his grandfather entered the ark and God shut them in. With shocked eyes Methuselah, 969 years old, looked in the eyes of God. He saw the teardrop in the eyes of God. As that teardrop splashed on his arm, Methuselah experienced for the first time rain in his life and he drowned. Yesterday, I did not have the courage to look a mother in the eyes, in the painful eyes of a mother who just lost her child.

All because God have two Sons; the one he called Love (Jesus) and the other he called Lust (Lucifer). Yet Love and Lust Hurts. Listen what Love (Jesus) says in **(Matthew Chapter 10 from verses 34 to 38)**? _Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to turn 'a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law – a man's enemies will be the members of his own household." Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me._

With all your loved ones against you, can you still love Jesus who has turned them against you? As a mother you lost a child, as a child you lost your parents, as a married couple you lost your partner, just because Jesus has turned them against you, can you still Love Jesus?

On the other hand Lust hurts for he has already murdered us. We as a human race voted Lust to be our father. Lust has turned us against Love. Can you turn yourself against Lust? Or do you simply prefer to be- **Children of the Devil. (John Chapter 8 verse : 42 to 47** _). Jesus said to them: "If God were your Farther, you would love me, for I came from God and now am here. I have not come of my own; but He sent me. Why is my language not clear to you? Because you are unable to hear what I say. You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father's desire. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies. Yet because I tell the truth, you do not believe me! Can any one of you prove me guilty of sin? If I am telling the truth, why don't you believe me? He who belongs to God hears what God says. The reason you do not hear is that you do not belong to God."_

As long as Lust is with us there cannot be peace on earth. Soon Lust will be bound for a thousand years. **(Revelations Chapter 20 from verses 1 to 3).** _And I saw an angel coming down out of heaven, having the key to the Abyss and holding in his hand a great chain. He seized the dragon, the ancient serpent, which is the devil, or Satan, and bound him for a thousand years. He threw him into the Abyss, and locked and sealed it over him, to keep him from deceiving the nations any more until the thousand years were ended. After that, he must be set free for a short time._

During this thousand years Jesus will turn everybody to everybody again. A son will not be against his farther. A daughter will not be against her mother. A daughter-in-law will not be against her mother-in-law. Love will teach us love. Satan's Doom. **(Revelation Chapter 20 from verses 7 to 8)** _When the thousand years are over, Satan will be released from his prison and will go to deceive the nations in the four corners of the earth – Gog and Magog – to gather them for battle. In number they are like the sand on the seashore._ Allow me to caucus on this. What is wrong with us humans? For a thousand years we lived in the presence of Jesus. Experienced his love, his mercy and his grace.

How merciful is God, to grand us a thousand years with Love (Jesus) and without Lust? But, within a short time, for a second time Lust (Satan) will deceive us again. In numbers they are like the sand on the seashore. DO YOU STILL REMEMBER THE SIXTH DAY? The day God has created us... **(John Chapter 3 from verses 16 to 21);** _"For God so loved the world (his creation) that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son._

Do you still remember? THE SIXTH DAY **. (Genesis Chapter 2 verse 1** _)._ _Thus the heavens and the earth were completed in their entire vast array._ Allow me to repeat **(Genesis Chapter 2 verse 1)** as it is recorded in the Afrikaans Translated version 1933 edition. _SO IS DAN VOLTOOI DIE HEMEL EN DIE AARDE MET HULLE GANSE LEËRMAG._ An army ready for war. Lucifer was not prepared to rule over the earth according Gods instructions. He wanted to be god and does it his own way; therefore he demanded his share of Gods estate. Do you still remember how we turned our back on God and demanded our rights to choose who we want as god? BELIEVE IT! **(Revelation Chapter 20 from verses 9 to 10).** _They marched across the breadth of the earth and surrounded the camp of God's people, the city he loves. But fire came down from heaven and devoured them. And the devil, which deceived them, was thrown into the lake of burning sulphur, where the beast and the false prophet had been thrown. They will be tormented day and night for ever and ever_. Goodbye Lust for ever and ever.

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Chapter Twenty He Walks Like Jesus

23rd February 2010

(Dedicated to Jan)

Saturday, the 1st day of April 2006, in a place called Longlands we were waiting in our car on a trip to buy and sell diamonds. My youngest daughter, Sue-Ellen, my son-in-law, Hansie and I were talking to kill the time.

I was due for my third Coronary Bypass Operation on the 26th day of May 2006 and desperately in need of three hundred thousand rand. I looked out of the window and saw a man walked away from us. Immediately a thought entered my mind; HE WALKS LIKE JESUS. His hair was long and it reminded me of the hair of Jesus on pictures. Hansie got out of the car and went to walk and talk with him. More than an hour later Hansie returned and told us this man stayed about one hundred meters from here. We waited until sunset but the owner of the diamonds never appeared. It was time to find a place to spend the night. Hansie mentioned this man offered us a place to sleep.

There are no hotels or guesthouses in Longlands. We met Jan at his place just after dark. The place was demolished; no windows, no doors and only a small section of roof over one room. There was no electricity, no stove and Jan prepared his daily food on an open fire.

No toilet, no bathroom and no running water. In the yard a very big hole where he was digging to find a diamond or two. Earlier that day we prepared ourselves for a braai and I removed the braaier from the boot of my car. What a braai to remember. In the dark with no electricity we enjoyed ourselves with coffee prepared on an open fire. Jan and I talked and talked through the night. Can you guess the topic of our discussions? Yes, it was diamonds and Jan knew a couple of diamond diggers. Jan needed two thousand rand to register his two diamond fields he put his claim on. Jan told me how he was ripped off due to the fact that he was not registered as a diamond digger.

I told Jan my story and how we ended up in Longlands. Longlands was not in our minds. Do you know where Longlands is? Neither did we, but, ja, we were in Longlands. I told him how my heart dropped through my Ass last Friday, the 25th day of March 2006, I was robbed of a 11 carat color code D clarity code IF diamond. Ok, I know you are not interest in that little stone, but the value thereof, somewhere between seven and ten million rand, depending on the diamond cutter's magic hand. Not to mention I lost all the money I paid for it.

Even worse I dropped my eldest daughter, Hanlie in shit of twenty thousand rand she borrowed from the Cash Loans. With no money to fill up my car to return to my hometown we had to wait until Monday, the 3rd day of April 2006. Monday I will withdraw all the money I am, a lousy R800 disability pensioner. Just to return to nowhere because I was homeless even in my hometown. How can we go back to face my daughter?

Early Sunday morning, the 2nd day of April 2006, Jan took us to his claims, he wanted to register on his name and we discover Longlands. Wow, what a place, right next to the Vaal River. A big Vaal river more than hundred meters broad and in my mind I compared it with the same river at Ermelo not even five meters broad.

During the early nineteenth century Longlands was the home of many a diamond digger. Old buildings build way back in the early nineteenth century surrounded us. The area Jan claimed was between the premise he lived and the Vaal River. Wow, Jan lived on the border of the Vaal River. Suddenly I realized I can write a book on this adventure, but that have to be next time. We were back at 7 o' clock and Jan left us alone at his place because he had to do something. When he walked away something fascinated me. A second time the thought entered my mind; HE WALKS LIKE JESUS. I looked at his shoes and discovered there were no heels on his shoes.

A funny way of walking when you walk with shoes without heels. Did Jesus walk barefoot, or did he walk in shoes without heels? Jan arrived in the afternoon with a bag filled with food. Two and a half kilogram super maize Meal, one kilogram sugar, a small tin of coffee and two tins mixed vegetables. We discovered he walked all the way to the N.G. Church, Delportshoop, some eighteen kilometers from Longlands, to beg some food because he had nothing to offer us.

Just before sunset someone delivered from Delportshoop a single bed for my daughter to sleep on. We were men and we slept on the ground. Jan was only one year and nineteen days younger than me and terminal due to cancer. Just like me he only received a disability pension of R800. He told me his life story. He work underground as a miner. There was an accident, the mine collapsed on them. In the light of his torch he was how three of his co-workers bleed to death due to severe injuries. Trap by rocks he was unable to help them.

Jan was an alcoholic and like the others he blamed God. Within hours one by one the torches ran out of power. They were surrounding in total darkness. One by one they became men not only crying of pain, but with fear. They lost track with time and their voices became less and less. More and more they start praying, those who blamed God started to promise him they will be good guys if he saved them. Jan promised he will never drink alcohol if God saved him.

Three long days and nights pasted, for them it felt like forever. More and more of them died of thirst. They cried without tears. On top on ground level the mine manager decided to stop all rescue attempts. History has proven there cannot be any survivor left. A woman gripped the mine manager begging; "Sir, I am a pastor's wife please continue, God showed me there is one man alive." "Ok" the mine manager said; "we will continue for another 30 minutes and that is final." 29 minutes later the mine manager reported to that woman;

"The rescue team has found him." Jan kept his promise never-ever did he used alcohol as a drink. When he returned to work it was impossible to go underground. They gave him a job on ground level but at the end he lost his job and finally his family. Monday morning we drove to Barkley West to withdraw our R 800. Jan came back with only two packets of cigarettes. He told us his sad story. He bought some stuff at a groceries shop on credit and now they kept his bank card as security.

I spoke to my children whether we are going to fill up my car and going back to Ermelo or are we going to stay and help Jan with food for this month. They agreed and Jan accepted our offer. With only R6.66 per person per day, something to think about, I told them cigarettes forget it. I went and bought three 100gram packets of tobacco and some basic groceries filled my car with R 50 fuel and we returned to Longlands. We had R 550 left. Our R6.66 per day per person has dropped to R4.58.

On our way back Hansie and my daughter begged for R20 each for dagga. We discussed it and grand then there requests. Love and Lust were in battle. By sunset Hansie had no dagga left. Everyday Hansie demanded R20 for dagga. Come Friday, the 7th day of April 2006, lust has caused real trouble for us. Our R 4.58 has dropped to R 3.38. Hansie smoked R 100 dagga and finished his second packet of tobacco. Jan and Sue-Ellen managed to control their smoking. Sue-Ellen never demanded Dagga until we left Longlands on the 8th day of May 2006. A match's box (R5) lasted her one week.

We also drove Jan to Kimberley for medical treatment and we sold my binoculars to cover that cost of R100. We stopped at the drive-inn at Kimberly to recover Hansie's dagga about R300 in Value he has left there to dry in the sun. Sadly to say there was less than R50 worth of dagga left. The balance was blown away by the wind. The weekend was hell.

Monday morning, the 10th day of April, 2006 Hansie packed his stuff and hiked back to Hanlie, his wife. Lust, stop writing this chapter on my behalf, you know I want to expose you in this chapter, therefore you keep on filling my mind with things I will note down in my next book; FIFTY DAYS OF HELL. This chapter is about how Lust murdered Jan, for he is a murderer from the beginning.

Do you still remember **(John Chapter 8 verse 44)?** _You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father's desire. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies_ **.** Every day Jan exposed me with his life's story. As we pass the cemetery of Longlands one day, Jan showed me the exact place he wanted to be buried. I already mentioned Jan has incurable cancer and for him to tell me where he would like to be buried was just normal.

He also showed me some old letters and one particular well know story of "Footsteps in the sand" he adjusted to fit the self destructive thoughts Lust filled his mind. He planned to walk into the sea and never return, but somehow he failed to do it. Time passed by and on Friday, the 28th day of April 2006 we talk about our planned trip back to Ermelo on the following Wednesday, the 3rd day of May 2006. Jan asked me if he can go with us. I answered him no. My daughter and I were homeless ourselves. My mind was troubled to get a place for her to stay in Ermelo, I bargained on her boyfriend to help.

Only then can I travel to Pretoria to stay there until the 26th day of May 2006, the day of my third Coronary Bypass Operation. Not even to mention we required R 600 to undertake this journey. With R 200 left how can I support three of us and still required that R 200 to travel to Pretoria. The Modus Operandi of Lust is to make you dependent on him, remember he is the god of money (Mammon).

In my need of three hundred thousand rand to live I forgot about Love (Jesus). I created my own fifty days of hell. Lust did not give me one sent for my operation to come, no, he even took everything I had. Saturday morning the 29th day of April 2006, Jan walked to Barkley West and back to collect his ID Book. As he walked away for the last time the though entered my mind; HE WALKS LIKE JESUS. He still wanted to go with us to Ermelo; therefore he went to collect his ID Book. He arrived back at Midday. He collected his two dogs and his cat to give them to someone who can take care of then.

Once again I told him, Jan you must stay, you cannot go with us. Jan turn to me and looked me in the eyes. For the first time in my life I saw the eyes of Lust. Jan turned away; took the rope he used to control his dog. He walked to the old unused bath on the ground climbed on it and throws the rope over the wooden pole attached to the roof. Twisted the lower end of the rope around his neck and jumped.

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Chapter Nineteen - Come Walk With Jesus

27th February 2010

(Dedicated to Dolly)

Come walk with Jesus as he traveled along the border between Samaria and Galilee. **(Luke Chapter 17 from verses 11 to 18** ). _Now on his way to Jerusalem, Jesus traveled along the border between Samaria and Galilee. As he was going into a village, ten men who had leprosy met him. They stood at a distance and called out in a loud voice, "Jesus, Master, have pity on us!" When he saw them, he said, "Go show you to the priests." And as they went, they were cleansed. One of them, when he saw he was healed, came back, praising God in a loud voice. He threw himself at Jesus' feet and thanked him – and he was a Samaritan. Jesus asked, "Were not all ten cleansed? Where are the other nine? Was no one founded to return and give praise to God except this foreigner?"_ Yes, the Truth will set you free. Correction; the Truth has set you free. The Truth just taught you the Jesus Formula. Only one out of ten will praise God.

**Only one out of ten people live according to (Matthews Cahpter 5 verse 16).** _In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven._ This Samaritan, hated by the Jews – a foreigner – came back praising God in a loud voice. WOW, WHEN HE SAW THE GOOD DEEDS JESUS HAS DONE, HE CAME BACK PRAISING HIS FATHER IN HEAVEN. Then he threw himself to the ground and on his knees he crawled to Jesus and thanked him. The nine cleansed men had better things to do; in a hurry they ran to entertain their woman with Lust.

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Chapter Eightteen - Silent Answers

09th March 2010

(Dedicated to All the Ladies with one interest only – Romantic Men)

(Dedicated to All the Men with one interest only – Romantic Woman)

A good title for this chapter could be – THE PERFECT MARRIAGE – but that would be my choice. Yesterday, early in the morning hours, while hovering at Jesus' feet, Jesus opened my mind to understand the main purpose of a marriage. Jesus started by asking me two very personal questions. I answered myself silently for there was no reason to answer Jesus; for he knew the answers since my birth six thousand years ago. O no, you want to know the two questions Jesus asked me. Just because, like me, you believe that you are the BEST partner in marriage. Ok, it is time for SILENT ANSWERS; I will ask you the same questions and you may answer yourself in silence. Who was you're best sex partner? Who gave you the best kiss? SILENCE BREAK - FOR ONE MINUTE; take you're time, be honest with yourself.

You want me to lift the silence on my answers to these questions. Are you prepared to lift the silence on your answers? Don't worry you don't have to, for Jesus knew them since your birth six thousand years ago. I looked out of my window; and what do I see? Yes two chickens. I can't believe my eyes, remember I do not have chickens and I do live in town and not on a farm. One big and one small chicken, presenting one big and one small question, just to recall two names.

Thanks Jesus, I got the picture; I am not a chicken, I will lift the silence on my answers. I am divorced and not afraid to reveal my deepest secrets. One reader will counter attack me with the following question; I serve a Loving God and Jesus will never asked me this sexual questions, how can you, Manie, address these issues in your book? Manie you and your book are a disgrace to God! Suddenly I knew and hereby confess; SORRY JESUS, I AM A CHICKEN.

Don't just give them the names, Manie tell them everything and then write chapter 17 THE PERFECT MARRIAGE, but first answers that one reader from my Word; **(Genesis Chapter 19 from verses to 38** ). _Lot and his two daughters left Soar and settled in the mountains, for he was afraid to stay in Soar. He and his two daughters lived in a cave. One day the older daughter said to the younger, "Our father is old, and there is no man around here to lie with us, as is the custom all over the earth. Let's get our father to drink wine and then lie with him and preserve our family line through our father." That night they got their father to drink wine, and the older daughter went in and lay with him. He was not aware of it when she lay down or when she got up. The next day the older daughter said to the younger, "Last night I lay with my father. Let's get him to drink wine again tonight, and you go in and lie with him so we can preserve our family line through our father." So they got their father to drink wine that night also, and the younger daughter went and lay with him. Again he was not aware of it when she lay down or when she got up_. Allow me to intervene; let's ask them the same question. Who was you're best sex partner? Both sisters will answer – My father. Lot will answer – I suppose my daughters but I was not aware of it. _So both of Lot's daughters became pregnant by their father. The older daughter had a son. And she named him Moab; he is he father of the Moabites of today. The younger daughter also had a son, and she named him Ben-Ammi; he is the father of the Ammonites of today._ Did you condemn them, I hope not please leave that to God.

Common Manie, don't be a chicken, tell your story and lift your silent answer. Suddenly I agree; I AM A CHICKEN – what about my children, o no, they will read my story and condemn me. O please Jesus, let me tell my story of my best kiss first. Let me found some courage for the big story.

My best kiss ever was not a romantic kiss; no it was just a common kiss by one of my co workers. How can I forget her name Patty Trutor? I did not like Patty due to her attitude at work. Never ever did thoughts enter my mind to like her or to be a friend to her. Sex or romance with Patty – NEVER, she was just not my kind of a girl. After all I was married and not on a girl hunting trip. August 1986, my birthday, Patty gave me one simple happy birthday kiss. Believe me there was no appreciation from my side. If I can ask Patty today don't be surprised to here I gave her a total disaster kiss. But some time later I realized that simply kiss was the best. Even now I can recall the soft tenderness of her lips touching mine, a kiss with indescribable passion. Romantic kisses, well x-wife is very, very good even in our biggest fights her kisses were pure her lips always soft and never ever did she gave me an obligatory kiss but somehow I never found passion nor love within it.

And now for the big one, well I am still a chicken and therefore I am going to keep the details for myself. Even from a very young age woman did funny things to get me in bed. Keep in mind I am not and angel therefore I did unbelievable things to get woman in bed too. To put it easy my romantic side of life was way above any expectations. These woman were driven by Lust, they only cared for their own benefit.

My modus operandi was to give devoted sex and not only to fulfill my own sexual demands. In my life time there was only one woman, Maria, who operated on the same operandi. We shared the ultimate intercourse resolution. This happened three months before my third Coronary Bypass Operation. And divorced for three months so don't worry, I was not married at that time. I was at risk of dying not capable of any physical exercise. It affected Maria to the level of resigning her work. We stayed in bed day and night and the moment she realized I am a dying man, Lust addicted her sexual behavior. Yet being with her day and night she accused me of adultery and betrayal.

Until yesterday morning, like all humans, I based a marriage on the romantic Key Prestige Area only; therefore Jesus addressed me with these two questions. I felt ashamed when Jesus opened my mind; o no, both questions required the same answer \- YOUR MARITAL PARTNER.

What were your SILENT ANSWERS? By the way Jesus, Please forgive me, because I (driven by Lust) wanted to rename this chapter – THE PERFECT MARRIAGE – just to please Lust to let the SILENT ANSWERS unnoticed. I realized to be an excellent lover does not make you an owner of a perfect marriage. He taught me why King Solomon had so many wives, but that I will record in chapter 17. Then Jesus gave me my score points of my marriage that lasted 34 years with one woman. Minus 4003 points; and I believed I am the Best marriage partner – SHAME!!!

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Chapter Seventeen - The Perfect Marriage

10th March 2010©

(Dedicated to Judy Venter)

Show me Love (JESUS) and I will show you THE PERFECT MARRIAGE. Do you get this? There is, can be, will be, only ONE PERFECT MARRIAGE. The only reason why God created the universe, the earth, the human creation, YOU and yippy (that's me) is to give his one and only adored Son a wedding Gift.

Early on the 7th day of the 1st month on the 1st year after creation God rested, he was very, yes very tired, and remember, he gave birth to his nuptial Gift. What did we do on that same day? "We?" You asked. Yes we (includes you and me) I said. Yes, we gathered with Lust (Lucifer) and we rejected to be the bride of Love (JESUS). We created our own Love tri-angle. Who is your matrimonial Partner? And we all answered with one voice; LUCIFER. Yes influenced by Lust we want to do it our way and not Gods way. Immediately God became angry uplifted his arm to destroy his creation, but Jesus cried out loud; "Please Dad don't do it!"

I looked into the eyes of Jesus and saw the tears and listened when he begged; "Father, please, give the humans there freedom, destroy me, let me received their castigation." I turned around and saw Lucifer joyfully jumped up into the air and received his thought; "Yes dad, destroy Jesus let him be castigated." DO YOU STILL REMEMBER THE SIXTH DAY? The day God has created us...

**(John Chapter3 from verses 16 to 21)** ; _"For God so loved the world (his creation) that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son._

_This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light; so that it may be seen plainly what he has done has been done through God."_ AND THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE. Do you still remember the day Jesus conquered Lucifer when he died on the cross? Do you still remember how Lucifer left our bodies when he died? Do you remember how Jesus entered our bodies? THE TRUTH HAS SET US FREE. Why? Why? Why? Why do we still want to choose, Lucifer? Why do we still want to do our own things? Why? Why? Why? Why do we still demand our share of Gods estate? I still remember some 60 years ago how I demanded my freedom to come to earth to do my own thing. **(Genesis Chapter 1 verse 26);** created in the images of Jesus, I also wanted to get married. Two days ago Jesus gave me my score points of my marriage that lasted 34 years with one woman. Minus 4003 points; and I believed I am the Best marriage partner – SHAME!!!

I believed I am the Best marriage partner, even better than Jesus – Shame. God gave me a suitable helper on earth and I yes me and only I ruined it. Do you also believe you are the Best? Silent Answer please. Adam was the first man who demanded his freedom, **(Genesis Chapter 2 from the last part of verse 20 to 25).** _But_ _for Adam no suitable helper was found. So the Lord God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man's ribs and closed up the place with flesh. Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to man. The man said, "This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called 'woman' for she was taken out of man._ Allow me to intervene. Woman do you get this, yet you were created in the Image of Jesus, but on earth while you are captured inside your earthly body you are captured in the image of man.

_For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one FLESH_. THE MAN AND HIS WIFE WERE BOTH NAKED, AND THEY FELT NO SHAME. Even after their first intercourse session. I, Manie have crucified my demanded claim of my share of God's estate, when I came to my senses. For some men it is hard to come to there senses. Poor old King Solomon it took an awful amount of woman to bring him his senses. Solomon's wives **(1 Kings Chapter 11 from verses 1 to 4).** _King Solomon, however, loved many foreign women besides Pharaoh's Daughter – Moabites, Ammonites, Edomites, Sidonians and Hittites. They were from the nations about which the Lord had told the Israelites, "You must not intermarry with them, because they will surely turn your hearts after their gods." Nevertheless, Solomon held fast to them in love. He had seven hundred wives of royal birth and three hundred concubines, and his wives led him astray._

As Solomon grew old, his wives turn his heart after other gods (Lust) and his heart was not fully devoted to the Lord his God, as the heart of David his father had been. When Jesus was on earth he used parables to learn his disciples. Jesus told them his parable of the Lost Son. I am also a lost son. At least I came to my senses therefore I will never marry a woman again. **(Luke Chapter 15 from verses 14 to 20).** _After he has spent everything, there was a severe famine (food shortage) in that whole country, and he began to be in need. So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything._

When he came to his senses, he said, "How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death!" I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: "Father I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men." So he got up and went to his father. "But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him."

You want to ask the lost son the question. Who gave you the best kiss? Soon I will get up and go back to my Bridegroom, Jesus and say; "Father I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men."

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CHAPTER Sixteen - The Joshua Formula

31st March 2010

(Dedicated to my new Friend, Stan Craig BT14 6DF Belfast. United Kingdom)

The name Joshua (Hebrew) or Yehoshua (Greek) was the most common name amongst the Israelites and is the same name Jesus (Latin) Josua (Hebrew). Joshua was born in Egypt but his father Nun named him Hoshea. Moses gave him the name Joshua. **(Numbers Chapter 13 verse 16).** _These are the names of the men Moses sent to explore the land. (Moses gave Hoshea son of Nun the name Joshua)._ Why do you think did Moses give him that name? Yes, Moses knew that Joshua will lead the Israelites into the Promised Land; Just like Jesus will do in time to come. God was preparing the Israelites to enter his promised land and he spoke to Moses. **(Numbers Chapter 1 from verses 1 to 3.)** _The Lord spoke to Moses in the Tent of Meeting in the desert of Sinai on the First day of the Second month of the second year after the Israelites came out of Egypt. He said: "Take a census of the whole Israelite community by their clans and families, listing every man by name, one by one. You and Aaron are to number by their divisions all the men in Israel twenty years old or more who are able to serve in the army."_ **(Numbers Chapter 2 verse 32.)** _These are the Israelites, counted according to their families. All those in the camps, by their divisions, number 603,550._ God's army was ready for battle. Ready to take their Promised Land. God prepared them in two years after the came out of Egypt.

Currently for Two Thousand years, Jesus is preparing his army, to take their Promised Land. Are you one of his soldiers? Are you sure? Don't forget these 603,550 soldiers walked dry foot through the Red Sea. Crossing the Red Sea **(Exodus Chapter 13 from verses 17 to 18).** When Pharaoh let the people go, God did not lead them on the road through the Philistine country, though that was shorter. For God said: _"If they face war, they might change their minds and return to Egypt." So God led the people around by the desert road towards the Red Sea._ The Israelites went out of Egypt armed for battle. GOD PREPARED A WAR BEFORE HE LED HIS CHOSEN CLAN INTO HIS PROMISED LAND.

Will Jesus prepare a war before he leads his chosen clan into his Promised Land? Yes, the Lord Comes and Reigns. **(Zechariah Chapter 14 from verses 1 to 4)**. _A day of the Lord is coming when your plunder will be divided among you. I will gather all the nations to Jerusalem to fight against it; the city will be captured, the houses ransacked, and the woman raped. Half of the city will go into exile, but the rest of the people will not be taken from the city. THEN THE LORD WILL GO OUT AND FIGHT AGAINST THOSE NATIONS, AS HE FIGHTS IN THE DAY OF BATTLE._

_On that day his feet will stand on the Mount of Olives, east of Jerusalem, and the Mount of Olives will be split in two from east to west, forming a great valley..._ and for a second time God Said: "If they face war, they might change their minds and return to Lucifer (Satan)." Do you still remember Chapter 21 LOVELUST? Let's read it again.

**(Revelations Chapter 20 from verses 1 to 3)**. _And I saw an angel coming down out of heaven, having the key to the Abyss and holding in his hand a great chain. He seized the dragon, the ancient serpent, which is the devil, or Satan, and bound him for a thousand years. He threw him into the Abyss, and locked and sealed it over him, to keep him from deceiving the nations any more until the thousand years were ended. After that, he must be set free for a short time._

During this thousand years Jesus will turn everybody to everybody again. A son will not be against his farther. A daughter will not be against her mother. A daughter-in-law will not be against her mother-in-law. Love will teach us love. **Satan's Doom. (Revelation Chapter 20 from verses 7 to 8).** _When the thousand years are over, Satan will be released from his prison and will go to deceive the nations in the four corners of the earth – Gog and Magog – to gather them for battle. In number they are like the sand on the seashore._

Allow me to caucus on this. What is wrong with us humans? For a thousand years we lived in the presence of Jesus. Experienced his love, his mercy and his grace. How merciful is God, to grand us a thousand years with Love (Jesus) and without Lust? But, within a short time, for a second time Lust (Satan) deceived us again. In number they are like the sand on the seashore. **(Exodus Chapter 14 from verses 10 to 12).** _As Pharaoh approached, the Israelites looked up, and there were the Egyptians, marching after them. THEY WERE TERRIFIED AND CRIED OUT TO THE LORD. They said to Moses, "was it because there were no graves in Egypt that you brought us to the desert to die? What have you done to us by bringing us out of Egypt? Didn't we say to you in Egypt, 'Leave us alone; let us serve the Egyptians'? It would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than to die in the desert!"_ Will we be terrified and cry out to the Lord when we see Satan's army one day? BELIEVE IT!

**(Revelation Chapter 20 from verses 9 to 10.)** _They marched across the breadth of the earth and surrounded the camp of God's people, the city he loves. But fire came down from heaven and devoured them. And the devil, which deceived them, was thrown into the lake of burning sulphur, where the beast and the false prophet had been thrown. They will be tormented day and night for ever and ever_ _._ **(Exodus Chapter 14 from verses 21 to 22).** _Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea, and all that night the Lord drove the sea back with a strong east wind and turned it into dry land. The waters were divided, and the Israelites went through the sea on dry ground with a wall of water on their right and on their left._

DEAR FRIEND, HOW STRONG MUST THE WIND BE TO SPLIT A SEA, THIRTEEN KILOMETERS LONG, MORE THAN ONE KILOMETER DEEP, WIDE ENOUGH FOR MORE THAN A MILLION PEOPLE WITH ALL THEIR LIVESTOCK AND PERSONAL BELONGINGS TO WALK THROUGH ON DRY GROUND, DURING ONE NIGHT?

Yet the wind was caring enough not to blow away one small child walking hand in hand with his mother. The men Moses sent to explore the Promised Land came back and reported on their Exploration and then all the Israelites started to grumble. DEAR READER, PLEASE READ **(Numbers Chapter14 all 44 verses)**. In **(Numbers Chapter 14 from verses 29 to 30),** THE JOSHUA FORMULA is formulated.) _In this desert your bodies will fall – every one of you twenty years old or more who was counted in the census and who has grumbled against me. Not one of you will enter the land I swore with uplifted hand to make you home, except Caleb son of Jephunneh and Joshua son of Nun._

ONLY 2 OUT OF 603,550 SOLDIERS, WHO WENT THROUGHT THE RED SEA ON DRY GROUND, ENTERED THE Promised Land. When Jesus comes again will you and I be the 2 out of 603,550 soldiers? IF NOT WE WILL BE IN THE GROWD OF GRUMBLERS.

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Chapter Fithteen - As Long As He Keeps On Paying The Bills.

4th April 2010©

(Dedicated to my new friend Michelle, Texas, United States)

We are living in a cruel world, a world where 99.99999999999999 percent of all marriages are based on one single philosophy. AS LONG AS HE KEEPS ON PAYING THE BILLS, our marriage will survive. Don't get me wrong, I am not here to condemn woman. Believe me I love them. God created them to beautiful to be describing in words. Daily, people asked me one question; are you a Christian? When I answered them NO, they think I am crazy. Christianity is based on the old Jewish Rules. AS LONG AS THE CHURCH MEMBERS KEEP ON PAYING THE BILLS, THE CHURCH SURVIVES. The Church Jesus has founded is still alive today.

One day while I rested at Jesus feet he asked me; Are you a Christian? Yes Jesus I answered in a hurry. Then Jesus said to me: **"Clever Humans Rest In Silence Till I Am Near.** " C=clever H=humans R=rest I=in S=silence T=till I A=am N=near. FOR I, JESUS HAS PAID THE PRICE IN FULL ON THE CROSS. There are no bills outstanding. No need to collect tithes and offerings to pay my bills. I told Jesus that day; Jesus, please forgive me because I am no longer a Christian, creating bills and demanding You to pay it. Attending a human created church to join those collecting tithes and offerings to pay their bills.

From that day onwards I am a CHRISTIAN - (SIMPLY A CLEVER HUMAN REST IN SILENCE TILL I AM NEAR.) Do you know I AM? Did I AM ever spoke to you face to face? Let's meet I AM; **(Exodus Chapter 3 from verses 13 to 14).** _Moses said to God, "Suppose I go to the Israelites and say to them, The God of your fathers has sent me to you,' and they ask me, 'What is his name?' Them what shall I tell them? God said to Moses, "I AM WHO I AM. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: 'I AM has sent me to you.'"_ Do you long for Jesus to speak to you Face to Face? O wouldn't be easy to believe in Jesus if he dares to speak to us face to face. Believe me; soon Jesus will speak to You and Me Face to Face Again. A couple of days ago while writing,

Chapter 16 THE JOUSHUA FORMULA I discovered the key if you want Jesus to speak to you Face to Face. **(Numbers Chapter 12 from verses 1 to 13** ). _Miriam and Aaron began to talk against Moses because of his Cushite wife, for he had married a Cushite. "Has the Lord spoken through Moses?" they asked. "Hasn't he also spoken through us?" And the Lord heard this. (Now Moses was a very humble man, more humble than anyone else on the face of the earth.) At once the Lord said to Moses, Aaron and Miriam, "Come out to the Tent of Meeting, all three of you." So the three of them came out. Then the Lord came down in a Pillar of cloud; he stood at the entrance to the Tent and summoned Aaron and Miriam. When both of then stepped forward, he said, Listen to my words." "When a prophet of the Lord is among you, I reveal myself to him in visions; I speak to him in dreams. But this is not true of my servant Moses; with him I speak face to face, clearly and not in riddles; he sees the form of the Lord. Why then were you not afraid to speak against my servant Moses?" The anger of the Lord burned against them, and he left them. When the cloud lifted from above the Tent, there stood Miriam - leprous, like snow. Aaron turned towards her and saw that she had Leprosy: and he said to Moses, "Please, my lord, do not hold against us the sin we have so foolishly committed. Do not let her be like a stillborn infant coming from its mother's womb with its flesh half eaten away." So Moses cried out to the Lord, "O God, please heal her!"_

When Jesus walked on this earth thousands of people followed him where ever he goes. 99.9999999999 percent just because he healed them from their sickness and filled their stomach with food. For them he was just the One who keeps on paying their bills. Once again do not take me wrong. There is nothing wrong with it to pray for the sick. Moses did that. Jesus did that. O, yes I did that, and I have seen miracles in my lifetime, until Jesus told me the Jesus Formula.

From Chapter 19 **Come Walk With Jesus** as he traveled along the border between Samaria and Galilee **. (Luke Chapter 17 from verses 11 to 18).** _Now on his way to Jerusalem, Jesus traveled along the border between Samaria and Galilee. As he was going into a village, ten men who had leprosy met him. They stood at a distance and called out in a loud voice, "Jesus, Master, have pity on us!" When he saw them, he said, "Go show you to the priests." And as they went, they were cleansed. One of them, when he saw he was healed, came back, praising God in a loud voice. He threw himself at Jesus' feet and thanked him – and he was a Samaritan. Jesus asked, "Were not all ten cleansed? Where are the other nine? Was no one founded to return and give praise to God except this foreigner?"_ Yes, the Truth will set you free. Correction; the Truth has set you free. The Truth just taught you the Jesus Formula. Only one out of ten will praise God.

Today I understand that sickness is part of our humans learning process on earth. And although my heart burns to pray; PLEASE JESUS HEAL ALL THE SICK PEOPLE. I simply cannot for I can only pray one prayer; DEAR LORD, JESUS NOT MY WILL, BUT YOURS IS DONE. I still remember the prayers of a mother when her only son was executed for the crime he committed; THANK YOU JESUS, BECAUSE IF MY SON DID NOT WALKED THE GREEN MILE. HE WOULD NEVER HAVE ACCEPTED YOU AS HIS SAVIOUR.

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Chapter Fourteen - The Grieve Syndrome

6th April 2010

(Dedicated to Tracy and her friend, Jasmijn, Bartman Gates)

All human brains operate exactly the same, it has nothing to do whether you are male or female, child or adult, nor does culture or religion affect it. The brain operates as follows; ONE PLUS ONE EQAULS TWO, no other way. This is the normal way of thinking by any human being. The Truth will set you free; or simply, the Truth will enhance your brain to escape from the normal way of thinking, to think like two out of every 603,550 (The Joshua Formula.) CHRISTIANITY is still based upon old Jewish (Israelites) rules prior to the birth of Jesus, therefore they keep on trying to do the work Jesus has already completed. Once freed by the Truth you will simply REST IN SILENCE TILL JESUS IS NEAR and take his hand and walk with him on the THIRD ROAD.

Because of the normal way of thinking humans are daily facing things and circumstances that upset them. Allow me to use as example one or two scenarios. ACCEPT When a person becomes very ill, loose his job, a divorce et cetera, the normal way of thinking is to blame someone; God, parents, employer et cetera. God, why me, I am still so young – My manager is crazy, I cannot work with him – My spouse stopped paying the bills; are only identification that this person is struggling through the GRIEVE SYNDROME.

The Grieve Syndrome has five main categories namely; 1 SHOCK, 2 REJECTION, 3 A GUILT FEELING, 4 ANGER FOR THE GRIEVE, 5 ACCEPT THE GRIEVE. The easiest method to explain the Grieve Syndrome is a scenario of death. Let's create one as follows; we are Brothers/Sisters and father lived with me. Father was a sick old man and passed away. When I entered his room he was dead. What a situation I was really shocked- (SHOCK step 1 of the grieve syndrome.) I ran out of the room shouting; NO, GOD THIS CANNOT BE TRUE, NOT MY FATHER! (REJECTION step 2.) Why, why did I not take father to the hospital on his begging last night? (A GUILT FEELING step 3.)

You on the other hand do not have a guilt feeling like me because father did not live with you. On the day of the funeral you asked me many things about father. And then you ask me this question: Why didn't you take father to hospital the night before he died? (ANGER FOR THE GRIEVE step 4). You only tried to understand the Grieve Syndrome and wanted to enter step 5 and accept fathers' death. Suddenly hell is loose for I am stuck in step 3 A GUILT FEELING, who the hell are you, you never even took care of father. Sad to say for years to come our friendship is ruined. Until such a day I meet the TRUTH face to face and he enlightens my Knowledge, for he is the father thereof. Suddenly will I realize I have assumed that you blame me of fathers' death? What a beautiful word assume; let us split it - ass/u/me. Yes who is the ass – u – or me? Now I can operate once again on the normal way; refusing to call you and ask forgiveness and wait until we stand before TRUTH.

During the 1980`s I was a burning Christian just trying to do the work Jesus has already done. My mother was crippled and it concerned me a lot. After her death in June 1980 Jesus taught me how to pray for crippled people and then he placed me in a position where I had no other choice than to pray. Wow I cannot describe how I felt thereafter each and every time a miracle happened. Let us think normal again; Why me, why did Jesus used me to pray for others? He does not need me. Jesus was just teaching me the Jesus Formula- (remember it Chapter 19) only one woman and the mother of a little boy praised Jesus after they were healed by Jesus from all the people I prayed for. At first I burned to pray for each and every person but as time passed I learned to REST IN SILENCE TILL JESUS IS NEAR. I have learned that there is only one way and it is Gods' way. Therefore I can only pray one prayer. NOT MY WILL, JESUS, BUT YOURS IS DONE.

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Chapter Thirteen - The Separation Syndrome

15th April 2010

(Dedicated to the author of 'THE KISS' on OPRAH WINFREY'S SHOW)

I was shocked as I watched the Oprah Winfrey Show about a woman who received her first 'French Kiss' at age twenty from her own genetic father. You can read her story in her book; THE KISS. Oprah asked her whether she still love her father after years of separation. She answered: "Yes I still love my father, I miss him, I curse him and I hate him. Wow! I said; what an eye opener, this explains the acts of God for he did the same, even more this proof that our souls were created in the image of God. How many a times do I listen to people saying; 'I serve a loving God'. God is Love, yes and we humans have each and everyone his/her own perception thereof.

**(John Chapter 3 verse 16)** **"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son..."** Is it love; to give your son to die? God demanded Abraham to offer his son Isaac and Abraham obeyed God. Do you love this world enough to give your child to die? **(Genesis Chapter 6 verse 6)** _The Lord was GRIEVED that he had made man on earth and his heart was filled with PAIN_. **(Numbers Chapter 12 from verses 9 to 10** _);_ _the ANGER of the Lord burned against them, and he left them. When the cloud lifted from above the Tent, there stood Miriam - leprous, like snow. God CURSED Miriam._

Yes the ANGER of God burns enough to CURSE. **(Malachi Chapter 1 verse 3** ) _"But Esau I have hated and I have turned his mountains into a wasteland and left his inheritance to the desert jackals."_ HATE - **(Hosea Chapter 4 verses 4 and 5)** _For the Israelites will live many days without king or prince, without sacrifice or sacred stones, without ephod or idol. Afterwards the Israelites will return and seek the Lord their God and David their king. They will come trembling to the Lord and to his blessings in the last days_. GOD SEPARATED HIM FROM MANKIND. Six steps to identify the SEPARATION SYNDROME; 1-LOVE, 2-GRIEVE, 3-PAIN, 4-ANGER, 5-CURSE AND 6 -HATE.

I prayed to God when I was lonely and needed a helper. I met my wife and LOVED (married) her, but over a period of 34 years she GRIEVED me and I was in PAIN. ANGER burned within me and I CURSED and HATED her. I gave her back to God and God granted us a divorce (SEPARATION). Do you still remember the SIXTH DAY? How God LOVED us and then we GRIEVED him that causes SEVERE PAIN to him. God became angry and cursed us. Finally he HATED us for we demanded SEPARATION to have Lucifer as our god. My parents did not believe in a divorce, they were married for 49 years and then my mother died (SEPARATION). My parents never showed their GRIEVE, PAIN, ANGER, CURSE and HATE to me, but believe me, it was there.

Do you believe that you will not experience the SEPARATION SYNDROME in your human marriage? Don't let this upset you for this is all in God's plan to prepare us for the PERFECT MARRIAGE (Chapter 17) with his Son. THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE. **(John Chapter 3 verses 16 to 21)** _"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not parish but have eternal life_ (THE PERFECT MARRIAGE). _For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son.This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the TRUTH comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God._

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Chapter Twelve - They Will Become One

8th September, 2010

(Dedicated to Mio Amato)

(For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one FLESH. **(Genesis Chapter 2 verse 25)**

Since the 15th day of April, 2010 I waited to continue my writing of this book, but I was not allowed to, for the will of Jesus was not mine. I left my sites on Peperonity because all the regular readers of my sites hazard me to continue my writing. My mind was empty and waiting was the game.

Three and half months of waiting, I offered my help to SonBesi Properties just to kill time. I was a happy man not interested in woman stories. Happy to be in friendship with my Savior, but little did I know, my Redeemer was smiling for he knew soon to come I will sing a different story. Allow me to refresh you with something I said in Chapter 17... **(** As Solomon grew old, his wives turn his heart after other gods (Lust) and his heart was not fully devoted to the Lord his God, as the heart of David his father had been. When Jesus was on earth he used parables to learn his disciples. Jesus told them his parable of the Lost Son. I am also a lost son. At least I came to my senses therefore I will never marry a woman again.)

I am also a lost son – that is true – At least I came to my senses therefore I will never marry a woman again – that is the problem – I admit I just came to my senses again; therefore I will marry Mio Amato, today.

As a matter of fact I already married her in my mind the moment I laid my eyes on her. OK, you want to know - did she except my marriage proposal? Well the answer is in the air, just follow my story, there is only eleven chapters left.

In chapter 24 I wrote (...Bear in mind Jesus is the only Mentor who teaches with emotional feelings. While lying in bed I looked at the old man in the bed opposite me. He was like a baby, just lying and waiting to die. Depended on other people to change his nappies, to feed and wash him. And then the little voice reprimanded me. "Do you want to learn to accept the unacceptable the hard way? The way the old man has to learn it." I turned my head away, and saw a young man battled to push him in a wheelchair, on his way to the toilet, both feet were black and I identified it as gangrene due to diabetes. My God, the doctors are going to amputate both his legs. No Lord, I cried, is this the way he had to learn to accept the unacceptable.)

Once again I experienced the teachings of Jesus, and it is full of emotions. I thought I understood the above mentioned; (For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one FLESH. **(Genesis Chapter 2 verse 25).**

I thought I understood the perfect marriage; I thought I understood the Joshua Formula; I thought I understood the separation syndrome, but I was wrong.

For a man is not a man without his helper. A Soul is not a Soul without his Soul mate. **(** Genesis Chapter 2 from the last part of verse 20 to 25). But for Adam no suitable helper was found. So the Lord God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man's ribs and closed up the place with flesh. Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to man.

I believed I am the Best marriage partner, even better than Jesus – Shame. God gave me a suitable helper on earth and I yes me and only I ruined it. I prayed to God for my helper. I believed it was my helper for life, but I was wrong. It took me 34 years of marriage plus 3 years of separation to learn with emotions the rules of the separation syndrome.

I still remember all the emotions that entered my mind when I took the hand of Jesus and walk the third road with him, especially when I realised how lucky I am to walk the third road while I am still alive. For the Joshua Formula clearly indicates that only 2 out of 603,550 people will have this opportunity. The rest will walk the third road after death.

Wow, them for the second time in my life I experienced the Joshua Formula. Only 2 out of 603,550 souls will find their soul mates while alive. Believe me. It happened to me. Suddenly I understood why God granted me, to date, 15 years of extra time on earth.

Interested to read my story, well if it is the will of my Redeemer I will tell you my story of how I met my soul mate in the next chapter of my book.

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Chapter Eleven - If They Want To Become One

10th September 2010©

(Dedicated to Ma vie)

Life is great, isn't it, I am writing chapter 11 on this day the 10th day of September 2010. Eleven days left to be on the 21st day of September 2010. On the 21st day of September 2009 I wrote Chapter 1 – The Truth Will Set you Free. Suddenly I realised, Manie you can make it come true, you can complete this book of 40 chapters in one year, if you want to. Yet I prefer to let it be according the will of my Saviour – Not my will, Jesus, but yours be done.

Before I tell you my story of how I met my soul mate, allow me to record a few verses from (John Chapter 14). Remember in chapter 38 and 37 of my book, yes I have touched some of the verses in (John Chapter 14), yet I must clarify the importance of it, because somehow this is the reason why so many people struggle to understand the essentalia of love. Bear in mind Chapter 12 – They Will Become one wed Chapter 11 – If They Want To Be One.

(John Chapter 14 verses 20 to 24) On that day you will realise that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. Whoever has my commands and obey them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him. Then Judas (not Judas Iscariot) said, "But, Lord, why do you intend to show yourself to us and not to the world?" Jesus replied, "If anyone loves me, he will obey my teaching. My Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him. He who does not love me will not obey my teaching. These words you hear are not my own; they belong to the Father who sent me.

Wow, let's read those verses a million times for it are the essentalia of love; YOU ARE IN ME, AND I AM IN YOU. Jesus clearly said this: "Whoever has my commands and obey them, he is the one who loves me," and confirmed it "If anyone loves me, he will obey my teaching."

Sadly to say that we humans rejected this essentalia of love, we accepted the essentalia of Lust. Please read Chapter 21 again. I believed that love is a gift, that I can give my love, I was wrong. Sadly to say we humans tie the knot, one with another because of the essentalia of Lust. My previous marriage was a disaster. For this reason I committed myself never to marry a woman again. But God knew a soul needs a soul mate. Early April this year he taught me Chapter 13 THE SEPARATION SYNDROME

Since the 15th day of April, 2010 I waited to continue my writing of this book, but I was not allowed to, for the will of Jesus was not mine. My mind was empty and waiting was the game. Three and half months of waiting, I offered my help to SonBesi Properties just to kill time. I was a happy man not interested in woman stories. Happy to be in friendship with my Savior, but little did I know, my Redeemer was smiling for he knew soon to come I will sing a different story.

On Saturday morning the 31st day of July 2010, I was standing inside SonBesi's office in front of the fridge, with my back to the main door when a woman entered the office. I heart her voice greeting the other people. I turned around and there she was with a smile on her face that irritated me. Immediately I asked her. That smile tell me for which person are you smiling.

My body was shaking, her sister, Bernie, tried to introduce her to me. I did not even hear her name. Bewildered I gave the kettle to Bernie and walked to my chair in the front of the office. And then Bernie played cupid, she shot me in my back with these words; SHE IS AVAILABLE. Anna-Marie (I learned her name later) went and sits on a chair, while I did the same on my chair and then I replied: "Bernie, your sister is lonely and so is I, but from this moment on the 2 of us will be together." I looked at Anna-Marie's body to read her body language, and I was happy to find that she was comfortable with how I answered Bernie.

Soon Anna-Marie left to visit her mother in the old age home. Later she came back and offered me some food she has bought for us. Every time I had the opportunity I looked at her. She was at ease and comfortable in my presence. She even promised to take me out on lunch on her next visit.

In the afternoon Bernie told me that I don't have to wait with them for her customer. I did not answer Bernie, but in my mind I knew that I wanted to be with Anna-Marie forever. I printed 2 chapters of my Afrikaanse Boek; Mens Wat Maak Jy Met my Hart. When I gave to Anna-Marie I asked her to read it when they left. I also asked her if I could send her e-mails. She said: "YES."

Time to say goodbye arrived, never ever will I forget Anna-Marie's words while she was standing at her car; "I will see you in 4 weeks time." When I arrived at my home five minutes later I went immediately to my bed. My heart was empty. I cried and cried. Then Jesus toughed me and I knew. Waiting sixty years on earth to meet Anna-Marie was not in vain.

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Chapter Ten - God Is Love

11th September 2010©

(1 John 4:16b)

God is Love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. Before proceeding with this chapter allow me to clearly declare that Jesus is the only mentor that teaches with emotions. I have highlighted that I had to wait from the 15th April 2010 until the 8th September 2010 to write the last 12 chapters of this book. During those waiting period I was taught with emotions by my Redeemer WHAT LOVE IS. God allowed Anna-Marie to walk into my life for he knew that no other woman will ever effected my emotions to understand WHAT LOVE IS so dramatically. And through Anna-Marie God Made me perfect in love by forcing me to remove my fears.

Thanks to Anna-Marie I experienced God's perceptions of Love for the first time in my life. My perceptions of love were different from God's perceptions. All my thanks to Jesus who granted me to date more than fifteen years of extra life, for he made it possible for me to hold the hand of Anna-Marie, just for a little while. This does not mean that Anna-Marie should have the same emotional feelings for me. She reserves the right to love or hate me. She is free and I hereby do not force her to love me.

The essentalia of love is – to obey the commands of the one who is loved. Therefore for me to declare my love for Anna-Marie it simply request that I obey her commands. Allow me to give the following 2 examples; - 1-today a week ago while sitting next to her in the presence of her family, I had the desire to hold her hand. Anna-Marie was not at ease with that idea and pulled her hand from mine. Then Jesus taught me this valued lesson for I wanted to hold her hand. This is what Jesus told me at that moment: "Manie, if you force her, to allow you to hold her hand, you are a rapist. At that moment I understand the essentalia of love and I immediately obeyed Anna-Marie's command. 2-The next day we were sitting on the same spot and we were talking to her sister's daughter. Anna-Marie asked me if she could go and help her sister to prepare food for lunch. Wow, Anna-Marie fascinated me, for without me saying a word she new I wanted her to stay a little longer. Believe me I do not worry about food when I am in the presence of Anna-Marie.

She obeyed my command. (Thanks Anna-Marie this one I will always remember). Within minutes Jesus reprimanded me and I felt like a bad, bad guy. I asked Santie, her sister's daughter to go and have a look and see if her mother was busy preparing the food. Anna-Marie immediate stands up and walked to the kitchen. Then Jesus gave me a hiding: "Manie if you love Anna-Marie, you must obey her commands. God's love and ours is best described by Apostle John. (1 John Chapter 4 from verses 7 to 21).

Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. This is how God showed his love among us; he sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love; not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.

Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us. We know that we live in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit. And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Saviour of the world. If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God. And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.

In this way love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the Day of Judgment, because in this world we are like him. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us. If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must love his brother.

Faith in the Son of God (1 John Chapter 5 from verses 1 to 5) Everyone who believes that Jesus is the Christ is born of God, and everyone who loves the father loves his child as well. This is how we know that we love the children of God; by loving God and carrying out his commands. This is love for God: to obey his commands. And his commands are not burdensome, for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith. Who is it that overcomes the world? Only he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God.

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Chapter Nine - Love Has To Come From God

12th September 2010

I wanted to name this chapter – **As Jesus Commands** – and then just rode down all the commands Jesus has given to his disciples. Oops, then I was stop to do that, for I never knew that, that is exactly the heart of this book. That is exactly why this book was planning to be written. Believe me, as it is first time news for you, so it is for me. Therefore chapter 1 will be named – **As Jesus Commands**. Suddenly I understand why Jesus wanted me to write this book backwards from chapter 40, all the way to chapter 1.

This book does not stop at chapter 1. It begins there. Once you have read all the chapters from 40 to 1, I urge you to put all the Commandments of Jesus in your heart and obey them, for only then do you love Jesus. Remember **(John Chapter 14 from verses 20)** ;On that day you will realise that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. Whoever has my commands and obey them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him.

Only then it is time to read this book, backwards from chapter 1 to 40, and believe me when you reached chapter 40 – The Truth Will Set You Free – you will confirm that you are free. Free in Jesus Christ. For a moment it worry me for I realised reading this book backwards sounds crazy. Well if it is crazy to obey Jesus let me be the biggest craziest idiot. Without knowing or thinking I started to read backwards, I wanted to see if it make sense, and then I received a hiding again. "Manie, when do you want to obey my Commands?" Jesus asked me. "I have said, 'Once you have read all the chapters from 40 to 1, I urge you to put all my commandments in your heart and obey them.' 'Only then it is time to read this book backwards. Just do it and don't you worry if it make sense. And Manie, stop worrying why you write so much about yourself in this book, for I granted you the opportunity to learn how to love for your heart has become loveless.' 'FOR LOVE HAS TO COME FROM GOD, Manie, for your love was just to enrich yourself, look back over the years and see, how many people you have misused. Manie you can not love another by your commands, you have to know their commands and obey it, only then you declare your love."

I bow my head in shame and asked forgiveness for I realised there is not much love in my heart for other people. No love at all, yet they are the creation of God. I fooled myself, make myself believe I love the other people, and that make me a liar to.

What about Anna-Marie I asked myself. Jesus you know how many a time over the last 44 days, since Ann-Marie walked into my life, I asked you to teach me how to love Anna-Marie exactly the way you love her. For I know your love does not hurt. Jesus, you know how many times I cried because I experience your love for Anna-Marie in my heart. I don't want to hurt her.

Suddenly calmness entered me. I know when people read this book backwards they will know that I was a loveless person, before Anna-Marie walk into my life. For my own love is useless and selfish. LOVE HAS TO COME FROM GOD

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Chapter Eight - Men Are Never Satisfied, Neither Are Their Eyes

12th September 2010

King Solomon wrote this in his proverbs – (Proverbs Chapter 27 verse 20 Death and Destruction are never satisfied, and neither are the eyes of man.

Allow me to reshuffle those words to suite my founding – NEVER SATISFIED EYES OF MAN CAUSES DEATH AND DESTRUCTION. If I have to choose the most beautiful thing God has ever created, immediately I would say – WOMAN – therefore I blame no man because their eyes cannot satisfy them. And the entire woman loves this, for they blame it on the men. But when woman caucus with woman they all agree that the most beautiful thing God created was man.

This is the essentalia of humans love. Humans only love what they see. This is the causes of death and destruction. When I looked back into my life's experience I saw all the deaths and destruction I have caused. Every time I loved someone I killed him or her. Every time I loved Jesus I crucified him. Because of that my heart became loveless. I preferred rather not to love than to destroy another love.

Remember my big mouth when I said in earlier chapters - At least I came to my senses therefore I will never marry a woman again. But God has mercy on me and only when I became loveless, he filled my heart with his love. Believe me this did not happen in moments, it took some time and this is how it happened.

More than two years ago I took my late brother`s daughter to a hospital in Trichardt to visit some ill relative on her husband side. There were only two men in the ward and while she attended her relative I went over to the other patient.

I met Danie Louw and we spent some time together. Danie told me that his wife, Bernie was at SonBesi Properties, couple minutes before the sisters took him to theater where the doctors would amputate his left foot due to diabetes.

For the next few months I did not think or care about Danie, remember I was loveless. About a year and three months ago I had to go to SonBesi for my daughter and I needed a place to stay.

Time past by and every month I paid my rental fee at SonBesi. Bernie and I became friends. Somehow every time I wanted to visit Danie on his farm something prevented it. Danie's health deteriorated and he not only became partially blind but he also had a stroke. During June Bernie appointed me to do some little work in the office for them. And so, it happened that I was standing in SonBesi on that Saturday morning the 31st day of July 2010, when Bernie's Sister Anna-Marie walked into my life. Little did I know on that day love has come from God into my heart?

Ever since I pray: "Please Jesus makes my eyes satisfied, let they lead me not into temptation. Fill my heart with your love. Let there be no place for my own selfish love. Help me to prevent myself form hurting other people. Not with words, not with deeds, for I am tired of death and destruction. Most of all help me not to crucify you again. Jesus, not my will but yours is done."

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Chapter Seven - If You Belong To Christ

13th September 2010

If you belong to Christ – YOU ARE NOT IN SLAVERY UNDER THE BASIC PRINCIPLES OT THE WORLD – You are Sons of God

(Galatians Chapter 3 from verses 26 to 29); You are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus, for all of you who were baptised into Christ have clothed yourself with Christ. There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus. If you belong to Christ, then you are Abraham's seed, and heirs according to the promise.

Dear friend, if you think I am marketing Christianity, you are wrong. If you think I want to guide you to a Christian Church, you are wrong. Proof to me that there is one Christian Organisation that does not operate under the basic principles of the world, I will consider my verdict. Any current Christian Organisation today was founded by a human. Jesus is not dead, the church Jesus has founded is still alive today, for Jesus' church is within him, remember (John Chapter 14 from Verses 20 to 24).On that day you will realise that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. Whoever has my commands and obey them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him. Then Judas (not Judas Iscariot) said, "But, Lord, why do you intend to show yourself to us and not to the world?" Jesus replied, "If anyone loves me, he will obey my teaching. My Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him. He who does not love me will not obey my teaching. These words you hear are not my own; they belong to the Father who sent me.

I still remember all the years I was bounded by a Church Denomination to be a child of God and not a son of God. (Galatians Chapter 4 from verses 1 to 3).What I am saying is that as long as the heir is a child, he is no different from a slave, although he owns the whole estate. He is subject to guardians and trustees until the time set by his father so also when we were children, we were in slavery under the basic principles of the world. Friend as long as you are a member of a church you are a slave under the basic rules and regulations of that church. Do you still remember Chapter 39 of my book – What I am saying is that as long as the heir is a child, he is no different from a slave, although he owns the whole estate. He is subject to guardians and trustees until the time set by his father so also when we were children, we were in slavery under the basic principles of the world. Friend as long as you are a member of a church you are a slave under the basic rules and regulations of that church. Do you still remember Chapter 39 of my book - ."

Now let me record (Ezekiel Chapter 34 verses 1 to 13). The word of the Lord came to me: 'Son of man, prophesy against the shepherds of Israel; prophesy and say to them: 'this is what the Sovereign Lord says: woe to the Shepherds of Israel who only take care of themselves! Should not Shepherds take care of the flock? You eat the curds, clothe yourselves with the wool and slaughter the choice animals, but you do not take care of the flock. You have not strengthened the weak or healed the sick or bound up the injured. You have not brought back the strays or searched for the lost. You have ruled them harshly and brutally. So they were scattered because there was no shepherd, and when they were scattered they became food for all the wild animals. My sheep wandered over all the mountains and over every high hill. They were scattered over the whole earth, and no one searched or looked for them. Therefore, you shepherds, hear the word of the Lord: "As surely as I live," declares the Sovereign Lord, because my flock lacks a shepherd and has been plundered and has become food for all the wild animals, and because my shepherds did not search for my flock but cared for themselves rather than for my flock, therefore, O shepherds, hear the word of the Lord: This is what the Sovereign Lord says:" I am against the shepherds and will hold them accountable for my flock. I will remove them from tending the flock so that the shepherds can no longer feed themselves. I will rescue my flock from their mouths, and it will no longer be food for them. For this is what the Sovereign Lord says: I myself will search for my sheep and look after them. As a shepherd looks after his scattered flock when he is with them, so will I look after my sheep? I will rescue them from all the places where they were scattered on the day of cloud and darkness. I will bring them out from the nations and gather them from the countries, and bring them unto their own land. I will pasture them on the mountains of Israel, in the ravines and in all the settlements in the land.

Wow, what a revelation, God no longer command humans to take care of His children anymore. The Holy Spirit replaces all the human shepherds and the prophesy as recorded in (Ezekiel Chapter 34) has been fulfilled. Yet, we humans ignore this, we still demand human shepherds. Worse, we as humans, we think we are shepherds instead of sheep.

(Galatians Chapter 4 from verses 4 to 7). But when the time had fully come, God sent his Son, born of a woman, born under law, to redeem those under law, that we might receive the full rights of sons. Because you are sons, God sent the Spirit of his Son into your hearts, the Spirit who calls out, Abba Father. So you are no longer a slave, but a son; and since you are a son, God has made you also an heir.

Yes this book is solely my personal experience with my Redeemer, for he lives in me and I live in him. For he is the TRUTH and he has set me free.

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Chapter Six - Do You Not Want To Leave Too, Do You?

13th September 2010

I regret to say many people will hate this book, even worst they will hate me. Then there are those people who will reject and refuse to read this book. You want to leave too, don't you? Yet I am glad, for these are only the people that used Christianity, for their own benefit. For Christianity forcing a heir to be a child - as long as the heir is a child, he is no different from a slave, although he owns the whole estate. He is subject to guardians and trustees.

(John Chapter 6 from verses 60 to 70). Many Disciples Desert Jesus. On hearing it many of his disciples said, "This is hard teachings. Who can accept it?" Aware that his disciples were grumbling about this, Jesus said to them, "Does this offend you? What if you see the Son of Man ascend to where he was before! The Spirit gives live; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life. Yet there are some of you who do not believe." For Jesus had know from the beginning which of them did not believe and who will betray him. He went on to say, "This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled him." From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him. You do not want to leave too, do you?" Jesus asked the Twelve. Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God." Then Jesus replied, "Have I not chosen you, the Twelve? Yet one of you is a devil!" (He meant Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot, who, though one of the Twelve, was later to betray him.)

I found it interesting how this version of the Bible softens it tremendously when quoting - Yet one of you is a devil - for I clearly want to record that Judas Iscariot is in certainty the Devil, Satan himself who came to earth via the wife of Simon Iscariot, like Jesus via Mary, to be the betrayal of his Brother Jesus. For Judas Iscariot was the only man who returned to his own place after his death, let us read from (Acts Chapter 1 verses 18 to 25). (With the reward he got for his wickedness, Judas bought a field; there he fell headlong, his body burst open and al his intestines spilled out. Everyone in Jerusalem heard about this, so they called that field in their language Alkeldama, that is, Field of Blood) "For, said Peter, "it is written in the book of Psalms, 'May his place be deserted; let there be no one to dwell in it,' and , 'May another take his place of leadership.' Therefore it is necessary to choose one of the men who have been with us the whole time the Lord Jesus went in and out among us, beginning from John's baptism to the time when Jesus was taken up from us. For one of these must become a witness with us of his resurrection." so they proposed two men: Joseph called Barsabbas (also know as Justus) and Matthias. Then they prayed, "Lord, you know everyone's heart. Show us which of these two you have chosen to take over this apostolic ministry, which Judas left to go where he belongs.

Where do you belong? Do you belong to Christ? Or, do you not want to leave too, do you?

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Chapter Five - What Kind Of Man Is This?

14th September 2010

(Matthew Chapter 8 from verses 23 to 27). Then he got into the boat and his disciples follow him. Without warning, a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. The disciples went and woke him, saying, "Lord save us! We're going to drown!" He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm. The men were amazed and asked, "What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him.

(Mark Chapter 6 from verses 34 to 56). When Jesus landed and saw a large crowd, he had compassion on them, because they were like sheep without a shepherd. So he began teaching them many things. By this time it was late in the day, so his disciples came to him. "This is a remote place," they said, "and it's already very late. Send the people away so they can go to the surrounding countryside and villages and buy themselves something to eat." But he answered, "You give them something to eat." They said to him, "that would take eight months of a man's wages! Are we to go and spend that much on bread and give it to them to eat?" How many loaves do you have?" he asked. "Go and see." When they found out, they said, "Five – and two fish." Then Jesus directed them to have all the people sit down in groups on the green grass. So they sat down in groups of hundreds and fifties. Taking the five loaves and the two fish and looking up to heaven, he gave thanks and broke the loaves. Then he gave them to his disciples to set before the people. He also divided the two fish among them all. They all ate and were satisfied, and the disciples picked up twelve basketfuls of broken pieces of bread and fish. The number of the men who had eaten was five thousand. (What kind of man is this?) Let us continue from verse 45.

Immediately Jesus made his disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to Bethsaida, while he dismissed the crowd. After leaving them, he went up on a mountainside to pray. When evening came, the boat was in the middle of the lake, and he was alone on land. He saw the disciples straining at the oars, because the wind was against them. About the fourth watch of the night he went out to them, walking on the lake, (What kind of man is this?) they thought he was a ghost. They cried out, because they all saw him and were terrified. Immediately he spoke to them and said, "Take courage! It is I. don't be afraid." Then he climbed into the boat with them, and the wind died down. They were completely amazed, for they had not understood about the loaves; their hearts were hardened. When they had crossed over, they landed at Gennesaret and anchored there. As soon as they got out of the boat, people recognized Jesus. They ran throughout that whole region and carried the sick on mats to wherever they heard he was. And wherever he went – into villages, towns or countryside – they placed the sick in the market-places. They begged him to let them touch even the edge of his cloak, and all who touched him were healed. (What kind of man is this?)

(Luke Chapter 23 from verses 32 to 34). Two other men, both criminals, were also led out with him to be executed. When they came to the place called the Skull, there they crucified him, along with the criminals – one on his right, the other on his left. Jesus said, "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing." (What kind of man is this?)

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Chapter Four - Nowhere To Lay His Head

15th September 2010

What kind of a man is this? Yet the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head. Dear friend the cost to follow Jesus is too high for many people. (John Chapter 6 from verses 60 to 70). Many Disciples Desert Jesus. On hearing it many of his disciples said, "This is hard teachings. Who can accept it?" Aware that his disciples were grumbling about this, Jesus said to them, "Does this offend you? What if you see the Son of Man ascend to where he was before! The Spirit gives live; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life. Yet there are some of you who do not believe." For Jesus had know from the beginning which of them did not believe and who will betray him. He went on to say, "This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled him." From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him. You do not want to leave too, do you?" Jesus asked the Twelve. Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God." Then Jesus replied, "Have I not chosen you, the Twelve? Yet one of you is a devil!" (He meant Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot, who, though one of the Twelve, was later to betray him.)

I discovered that poor people who have nothing to loose, for them it was relative easy to follow Jesus. Maybe it is just commonsense, what do you believe? Matthew recorded something of importance, at least it was for me, in his book; (Matthews Chapter 8 from verses 18 to 20). When Jesus saw the crowd around him, he gave orders to cross to the other side of the lake. Then a teacher of the law came to him and said, "Teacher, I will follow you wherever you go." Jesus replied, "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head."

Since I left my own home in March, 2006, I never had my own bed to lay my head. Yes I prefer sleeping on the ground, for I love and respect the Son of Man because when he was on earth he has nowhere to lay his head. For the next three years I was send out in the same way Jesus sent out his Apostles. Please take note during those three years it was not my accountability to do the work of the Holy Spirit, no it was purely for my own personal experience. Just to understand how Jesus has teach his disciples to spread the gospel to those people who were still alive but where born before Jesus was crucified. Just to understand that Jesus did not built churches and waited for people to come to church once to twice a week to listen to the good news of salvation.

No,Jesus sent his Apostles to live with the people in their houses. Apostle Luke recorded in his book how they were sent out to the people. (Luke 9 verses 1 to 6). When Jesus had called the Twelve together, he gave them power and authority to drive out all demons and to cure diseases, and he sent them out to preach the kingdom of God and to heal the sick. He told them: "Take nothing for the journey – no staff, no bag, no bread, no money, and no extra tunic. Whatever house you enter, stay there until you leave town. If people do not welcome you, shake the dust off your feet when you leave their town, as a testimony against them. So they set out and went from village to village, preaching the gospel and healing people everywhere.

Some of my experience was recorded in chapter 20 – He walks like Jesus. Believe me, it is hard to see a man takes his on own life, just because you were unable to take care of him. Very hard to look him in the eyes as he was dying.

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Chapter Three - A Child Of God

16th September, 2010

So often we heard people say I am a child of God. Are you a child of God? Or, Are you a son of God? You would asked me, Manie; "So what, for a son of God is also a child of God?" "Both belong to God," you would confirm. Ok I have addressed this in Chapter 7 – If you belong to God. And I duplicated a lot in this book, simply not out of freewill, but because I must obey the commandments of Jesus. Believe me, there is a big difference between a child of God and a son of God.

In the Garden of Eden, son of God became child of God, when God removed his Spirit from man. Do you still remember chapter 22 – The Sixth Day? Do you still remember when God took our hand and walked with us in the garden? Do you still remembered when we arrived in the middle of the garden and we stop at the tree of life? Do you still remember when God told us that this tree presents Jesus? Do you still remember when God told us if we eat from this tree we except Jesus and we will live? Do you still remember when we turned away and walked to the tree of the knowledge of good and evil? Do you still remember God told us that this tree presents Lucifer? Do you still remember God warned us that if we eat from this tree we will surely die? (Genesis Chapter 2 verses 16 and 17). Do you still remember how we choose to eat from the tree of knowledge of good and evil? Do you still remember how sad God was when he left our bodies and we died? Do you still remember how Lucifer enters our bodies? Do you still remember how God returned and banished us from the Garden?.Do you still remember God placed cherubim and a flaming sword flashing back and forth to guard the way to the tree of life? (Genesis Chapter 3 verses 23 and 24). Do you still remember the pain in Gods heart when he left for good? Do you still remember how Jesus hold back God and offered to die in our place? DO YOU STILL REMEMBER THE SIXTH DAY?

Do you understand now; a child of God still has the spirit of Lucifer inside him. The spirit of Lucifer is better known as demons. Now let as read another duplication this time from chapter 4.

(Galatians Chapter 4 from verses 1 to 3) What I am saying is that as long as the heir is a child, he is no different from a slave, although he owns the whole estate. He is subject to guardians and trustees until the time set by his father so also when we were children, we were in slavery under the basic principles of the world. Listen what Apostle Paul said in this three verses. He confirms that he was a child of God. He confirms he was a slave under the basic principles of the world. And who other than Lucifer was the ruler of the word. Do you know that his name was Saul when he was a child of God? The reason why he was a child of God was simply because he was born with the spirit of Lucifer like all the other humans were born before Jesus died on the cross.

Can you recall how Saul was converted to a son of God? Can you still remember how Saul persecuted Jesus? Can you clearly identify the murderous spirit of Lucifer in Saul? Read with me (Acts Chapter 9 from verses 1 to 9). Meanwhile Saul was still breathing out murderous threats against the Lord's disciples. He went to the high priest and asked him for letters to the synagogues in Damascus, so that if he found any there who belonged to the Way, whether men or women, he might take them as prisoners to Jerusalem. As he neared Damascus on his journey, suddenly a light from heaven flashed around him. He fell to the ground and heard a voice say to him, "Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?" "Who are you, Lord?" Saul asked. I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting," he replied. "Now get up and go into the city, and you will be told what you must do." The men traveling with Saul stood there speechless; they heard the sound but did not see anyone. Saul got up from the ground, but when he opened his eyes he could see nothing. So they led him by the hand into Damascus. For three days he was blind and did not eat or drink anything.

What really happened there? Jesus simple knock Saul down, removed the spirit of Lucifer from the child of God, Saul – filled the empty Saul with His own Spirit (The Holy Ghost) and later renamed Saul as Paul. And this is how it happened. (Acts Chapte 9 from verses 10 to 19). In Damascus there was a disciple named Ananias. The Lord called to him in a vision, "Ananias!" "Yes, Lord," he answered. The Lord told him, Go to the house of Judas on Straight Street and ask for a man from Tarsus named Saul, for he is praying. In a vision he has seen a man named Ananias come and place his hands on him to restore his sight." "Lord," Ananias answered, "I have heard many reports about this man and all the harm he has done to your saints in Jerusalem. And he has come here with authority from the chief priests to arrest all who call on your name." (Jesus and you want me to go him and heal him in your name. Would I obey the Commandments if I was in Ananias Shoes? Dear friend, would you?) But the Lord said to Ananias, "Go! This man is my chosen instrument to carry my name before the Gentiles and their kings and before the people of Israel. I will show him how much he must suffer for my name." Then Ananias went to the house and entered it. Placing his hands on Saul, he said, "Brother Saul, the Lord – Jesus, who appeared to you on the road as you were coming here – has sent me so that you may see again and be filled with the Holy Spirit." Immediately, something like scales fell from Saul's eyes, and he could see again. He got up and was baptised, and after taking some food, he regained his strength.

For this reason Jesus educated disciples and sent them out as Apostles. Just to convert all the children of God to sons of God, All the people who were born as children of God before Jesus was crucified.

Allow me once again to duplicate my writings from chapter 4 - (Luke Chapter 9 from verses 1 to 6). When Jesus had called the Twelve together, he gave them power and authority to drive out all demons and to cure diseases, and he sent them out to preach the kingdom of God and to heal the sick. He told them: "Take nothing for the journey – no staff, no bag, no bread, no money, and no extra tunic. Whatever house you enter, stay there until you leave town. If people do not welcome you, shake the dust off your feet when you leave their town, as a testimony against them. So they set out and went from village to village, preaching the gospel and healing people everywhere.

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Chapter Two - A Son Of God

16th September 2010

(Galatians Chapter 4 from verses 4 to 7). But when the time had fully come, God sent his Son, born of a woman, born under law, to redeem those under law, that we might receive the full rights of sons. Because you are sons, God sent the Spirit of his Son into your hearts, the Spirit who calls out, Abba Father. So you are no longer a slave, but a son; and since you are a son, God has made you also an heir.

Do you still remember how Jesus promised the children of God his Spirit, the Holy Spirit? (John Chapter 14 from verses 15 to 17). "If you love me, you will obey what I command. I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counsellor to be with you for ever - the Spirit of truth.

After Jesus was taken up into heaven all his disciples were waiting for his promise to convert them from a child to a son. The Holy Spirit comes at Pentecost. Today the Pentecostal churches build their religion on this. They still want to convert children of God to sons of God. Promoting that you will speak in tongues your own language that nobody else can understand, Yet the Language of God is Knowledge.

Please give attention that when the disciples were filled with the Holy Spirit they began to speak in other tongues (languages) as the Spirit enabled them. (Each of them spoke in the languages of the country they had to go to drive out all demons and to preach of the kingdom of God as Jesus has commanded them.) If only these churches will read and understand that Jesus has redeemed all those under the law on the cross, therefore all newborn babies that were born after Jesus was crucified were born with his Holy Spirit, as sons of God, and not as children of God with the spirit of Lucifer, as slaves under the Laws of this world.

Lets us once again read - (Galatians Chapter 4 from verses 4 to 7). But when the time had fully come, God sent his Son, born of a woman, born under law, to redeem those under law, that we might receive the full rights of sons. Because you are sons, God sent the Spirit of his Son into your hearts, the Spirit who calls out, Abba Father. So you are no longer a slave, but a son; and since you are a son, God has made you also an heir.

And now read this amazing story together with me. (Act Chapter2 from verses 1 to 17). When the day of the Pentecost came, they were all together in one place. Suddenly a sound like the blowing of a violent wind came from heaven and filled the whole house where they were sitting. They saw what seemed to be tongues of fire that separated and came to rest on each of them. All of them were filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues as the Spirit enabled them. Now there were staying in Jerusalem God-fearing Jews from every nation under heaven. When they heard this sound, a crowd came together in bewilderment, because each one heard them (the Disciples) in his own language. (no they did not hear the disciples speak in his (the Disciples own) language that nobody could understand). No bewilderment God-fearing Jew from Parthian heard a disciple that came only speak his native language from Galilee suddenly speaks in the language of the Parthians.)

Let's continue reading from verses 7 onwards. Utterly amazed, they asked: "Are not all these men who are speaking Galileans? Then how is it that each of us hears them in his own native language? Parthians, Medes and Elamites; residents of Mesopotamia, Judea and Cappadocia, Pontus and Asia, Phrygia and Pamphylia, Egypt and the parts of Libya near Cyrene; visitors from Rome (Both Jews and converts to Judaism); Cretans and Arabs – we all hear them declaring the wonders of God in our own tongues!" Amazed and perplexed, they asked one another, "What does that mean?" Some of them made fun of them and said, "They have had too much wine." Then Peter stood up with the Eleven, raised his voice and addressed the crowd; "Fellow Jews and all of you who live in Jerusalem, let me explain this to you; listen carefully to what I say. These men are not drunk, as you suppose. It's only nine in the morning! No, this is what was spoken by the prophet Joel; 'In the last days,' God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people.'

Dear friend, similar to the conversion of Saul Jesus converted and prepared his disciples to go and spread the Gospel to the Gentiles. Allow me to ask my question again - Are you a child of God? Or, Are you a son of God? Remember.

If you belong to Christ – YOU ARE NOT IN SLAVARY UNDER THE BASIC PRINCIPLES OT THE WORLD – You are Sons of God. (Galatians Chapter 3 from verses 26 to 29). You are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus, for all of you who were baptised into Christ have clothed yourself with Christ. There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus. If you belong to Christ, then you are Abraham's seed, and heirs according to the promise.

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Chapter One - As Jesus Commands

17th September 2010

Dear friend, when I started this book on the 21st day of September, 2009, I did have no idea whatsoever where this book will lead to. I was delayed for four months and about three weeks (15th April to 8th September) just to receive higher teaching from Jesus to clearly understand the theory {God is Love}. Then on the 11th day of September, 2010, with ten chapters to go, Jesus urged me to me a deadline of one year to complete this book. I agree, and as this book was not edited on a single line since way back from chapter 40.

I succeed to write the last ten chapters in seven days. On the last three days I will do the design of the cover of the book and wrote the introduction thereof

Allow me give my thanksgivings to all the people who motivated me to keep on writing. To some of them I dedicated chapters as thanksgiving, also my thanksgiving to all my regular readers on my site (all 2872 of them), sadly to say, sorry for I must remove this book now from my sites.

Allow me to duplicate again, this time from chapter 23 -Jesus was the only Man that fulfilled the Law of Moses and then he made it easy for us. He combined the Law of Moses into one Verse. Friend do you understand this? Yes, forget all the complicated Laws of Moses; the Ten Commandments, tithes and offerings, do this and don't do that. Yes forget it and take note of the Good news. Just adhered to this, (1Corinthians Chapter 10 verses 24): "NOBODY SHOULD SEEK HIS OWN GOOD, BUT THE GOOD OF OTHERS."

Friend it you are motivated to seek the good of others, then you will fulfill the Greatest Commandment. (Mark Chapter 12 verses 28 to 34). One of the teachers of the law came and heard them debating. Noticing that Jesus had given then a good answer, he asked him, "Of all the commandments, which is the most important?" "The most important one" answered Jesus, "is this: 'Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with your entire mind and with all your strength. The second is this: 'Love your neighbour as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these." "Well said, teacher," the man replied. "You are right in saying that God is one and there is no other but him. To love him with all your heart, with all your understanding and with all your strength, and to love your neighbour as yourself is more important than all burnt offerings and sacrifices." When Jesus saw that he had answered wisely, he said to him, "You are not far from the kingdom of God." And from then on no one dared ask him any more questions.

And from chapter 9 - I wanted to name this chapter – As Jesus Commands – and then just rode down all the commands Jesus has given to his disciples. Oops, then I was stop to do that, for I never knew that, that is exactly the heart of this book. That is exactly why this book was planning to be written. Believe me, as it is first time news for you, so it is for me. Therefore chapter 1 will be named – As Jesus Commands.

Suddenly I understand why Jesus wanted me to write this book backwards from chapter 40, all the way to chapter 1. This book does not stop at chapter 1. It begins there. Once you have read all the chapters from 40 to 1, I urge you to put all the Commandments of Jesus in your heart and obey them, for only then do you love Jesus. Remember **(John Chapter 14 from verses 20);** _-_ On that day you will realise that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. Whoever has my commands and obey them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him.

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### About the author:

A recording of my personal life experience with my Saviour, Jesus Christ. I do not promote any religious organization, nor do I have any attention to claim this book as a religious work of art.

It was my biggest privilege in life to utilize my time to read the Bible from Genesis Chapter 1 verse 1 to the end Revelation Chapter 22 verse 21. Thereafter I closed the Bible, took the hand of my Redeemer and walked with him. To hold and obey his commands is the essentalia of Life.

I am honored to know that my life was extended to date with more than fifteen years. Three Coronary Bypass Operations during these fifteen years were all for the good and worth it for granting me the opportunity to write this book.

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