 
You won't believe it, because it's...

A skeptically odiferous hysterical religious fable

Warning: Deeply held religious beliefs may be permanently damaged!

Rated M for Manure

By: Fool O'Flatulence
BULL POOP!?

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Copyright 2015 Fool O'Flatulence

By: Fool O'Flatulence

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## Contents

Introduction

### Chapters:

1: The Expectation

2: An Encore Performance

3: The Bull's True Nature

4: The Messenger

5: The Savior

6: The Spirit of the Number Null

7: Judgment Day

8: Unresolved Questions!?

### Appendices:

a: Tri-Truth

b: Rectumify!?

c: I-Holes!?

d: Wholly Human

e: Lighting the Lamp

f: The Orthod-Ox's Defense

g: Thyme for Karma's Sage of Curry

h: Western Beggars Hear that Beat

i: A Bit of Scripture

About the Author

"The truth is like gold,

it is not found by adding to it,

but by removing all from it which is not gold." – Leo Tolstoy

The crap in my brain smells like farts,

Cleansing the brain of poop,

Makes it come out in these arts,

Creative idols in alphabet soup,

Lowers poop from highest bench,

Becomes food for the living tree,

Formerly the source of wafting stench,

Can be overcome by spirits free

\- I.B. Farten
Introduction

In times of contemplation, many have sat wondering about the truth of life. Religions seem to offer the answers, but unfortunately, it doesn't take much research to find that religion has been corrupted long ago. There is a desire to believe in what the authorities say, but over time, through education and wisdom, most of them seem to be spouting ridiculous notions as truth, which needs to be accepted in blind faith. This leaves rational critical thinkers to ponder the questions of life through their own contemplative research.

Today we see religious motivation for hatred and war, which history reveals as nothing new. Religions and their constructs have been used as a tool for power over others for centuries. More and more people are walking away from blind faith, as they are no longer willing to blindfold their minds. Those who still cling to faith, run to something they wish to contain certainty. They find certainty by claiming holy books written by men are the words of God. They don't question the books, and resolutely believe the words within them emanate from God. Accordingly, they accept such books' rules for living, willfully blinding their minds with self-delusion so they may feel grounded in a sense of certainty gained from blind faith.

This would not be all bad if this delusionary blind faith was able to create a life of truthful meaning and purpose. Unfortunately, blind faith believers give a great deal of trust to otherwise precarious assertions so that critical-thinking skills are seldom employed, and even circumvented, for the sake of faith. This lack of critical thinking skills spills over into all other areas of their lives, providing master manipulators easy targets for unscrupulous political schemes. Many critical thinkers want the world to dismiss the subject of religion and consign it to the dumping ground of ancient fairytales. They seek answers in science and philosophy but find a system of relativity, leaving more uncertainty as they cling to nothing but subjective relative truths. Somehow they piece together meaning in their lives. Others are simply lost, trying to find meaning in whatever happens to make them feel good either sensually or egotistically.

Many don't recognize that the search for the meaning of life and the truth of the universe is how many religions were created. Ancient people formed religions to hold this information. In the earliest years, religious leaders were the wise men who gave all the answers and held most, if not all, a group's knowledge, including creating stories to answer everything that was unknown. They made calendars, logged the cycles of the sun, and charted the stars, so communities of faithful could better predict when to plant and harvest. The early priests healed the sick, helped birth babies, and buried the dead. They were the spiritual leaders who held a special place in society and commonly were believed to hold a special connection to higher powers.

Today we look at religions as communities of people of faith. They share beliefs and practices and often gather in special buildings for worship, prayer, and/or meditation. They live in a special way in the world because of these commonly held religious beliefs and practices. Every society and nearly all populations even today consider themselves somewhat if not very religious, and religions seem as varied as language. One religion might prescribe participation in sexual fertility rituals; another might require taking a lifelong vow of celibacy. Some practices require withdrawing into a peaceful silent meditation while others insist on speaking in boisterous tongues and seeking a euphoric high. Religion can inspire peaceful reconciliations, fine art, music, poetry, and paintings; at the same time, it can inspire holy wars, intolerance, hatred, and destruction.

Modern theologians such as Paul Tillich have redefined religion, so that wherever we find meaning in our existence, we are practicing a form of religion. This would include everything from traditional religious worship to modern-day consumerism worship of the latest creation of culture. In this definition, religion is what motivates us to any action, which includes watching a favorite sports team, choosing a meal, or how one grooms one's body. It would also include drug addiction as an idolatrous religious activity, because the habitual action does not deliver on a drug's perceived promise of a less stressful and more joyful life. But this is not a commonly held view of religion.

When looking up the etymology of the word religion, it seems to be derived from _relegere_ to "go through again" in reading or in thought. However, more common etymology associates it with _religare_ "to bind," "place an obligation on," or "bond between humans and gods." Another possible origin is _religiens_ "careful," opposite of _negligens_ origin of neglect. In many ways, religion does bind people together in a community of organizational common practices and beliefs. They are definitely repetitive in rituals, where a great deal of care is taken to ensure they are performed properly. Some see religion simply as recognition of the divine in various formats. However, this does not explain why people engage in its practices.

One of the more compelling arguments for religion considers survival. This argument proposes that religion is a cultural system that enables people to have normative means to raise children by preserving best practices for survival within its cultural religious symbols. The worship of gods was (and today still is) very important, because it provides a shared culture containing common beliefs in symbols and stories that embed the means for a community to survive and flourish. Religions, with their various patterns of belief and practice, were the earliest ways to encode these cultural systems, while they also gave people a sense of community amongst those who practiced the same religion.

A great deal of information has been communicated through the myths of religion. Over the ages, people learned to tell and re-tell legends, modifying them as they wove their own stories within the given stories. In time, these myths and legends stopped being modified by word of mouth, as they were written down and copied. The texted story then became the authority, and the storytellers could no longer update it to fit their times. This did not present a problem initially until various authoritative texts from various cultures were compared and could not be reconciled with each other. This, in turn, caused conflicts between real people holding onto the authority of a theoretical story. But why can't people recognize a story as just a story?

The problem arises because myths reflect a lot more than just a fanciful story. Myths are intellectual mechanisms whereby ancient people encoded a great deal of information through symbolic language. This symbolic language contains elements of a culture that includes its history, ethics, concepts of justice, and the divine. The language tells people how to live and what to expect when they die. These values embedded in myths, in turn define a people's identity and how they understand the universe. To accept that the myth is false is to accept an entire breakdown of how a people understand their lives and how they should function in the world. The purpose and meaning of people's lives are often tied to these encoded stories. Therefore, myths and holy books become extremely important and endure into modern times, even though these stories seem incredibly outdated.

As religion meets modern science and philosophy, those who are most religious retreat into trying to find ways to preserve their religion, especially those who have gained prestige, money, and power through it. Others are simply looking for certainty in uncertain times. This leads many into the irrational self-delusion of fundamentalism, whereby artificial clinging foments symbolic stories into literal truths, although the stories themselves are contradictory in literal form. This causes more distinct lines of contradictions within and between religions, whereby rational thinking becomes useless in trying to arbitrate between two sides both holding onto absurdities as absolute truths. Religious wars are bound to break out with this type of thinking, because there is no way to arbitrate peace if both sides insist on being irrational. By justifying everything through myth, and holding up holy books as an absolute literal authority, faith holders defend an impossible argument. To many rational people, it appears religion is simply a tool for creating self-delusion, which, in turn, is being used to manipulate the political landscape for power.

It is no wonder skeptical thinkers simply see historical religions as a clever way to manipulate others into the cage of an egotistical community leader's desired conformity, as religious opinion seems completely subjectively inspired by the leaders of any given time period. Religion offers such a variety that it has served as an inspiration to do both good and evil. Let's face it, religions all claim truth, yet they all resemble inspired mythological fairytales, oppressive arbitrary ruled dictates, and/or manipulation tools for those who can develop power through it. It's enough to make one want to shout " **Bull Poop!"**

Yet everyone finds meaning and purpose in their lives through some type of ritual practices. We are all religious on some level. We seek meaning and find purpose through different causes. This is all based on religious foundations, even though we might have lost touch or are only loosely familiar with them. But we still defend our foundations, even if we are not aware of it. Anytime we fight for justice or fight against injustice we are reconnecting to our cultural religious foundation. Religion creates the footing of a society's mores and norms; those who try to remove one religion must replace it with another. If the society's leaders impose a religion that is strict or authoritarian, the cultural leadership norm becomes tyrannical, demonic, and cruel, thus suffocating individual expression. However, if nothing is defined, no wineskins, the society becomes vulnerable to misleading egoism, debauchery, and addictions.

The push forward is to recognize religion as the ground upon which a culture is planted. By looking at roots we hope to rid ourselves of the absurd weeds of religious ills, while rediscovering fruitful nourishment that will lift up the less fortunate, refocus our lives on our relationships, and find long-term sustainable well-being on this earth for future generations. But in order to do so, we must find rational agreements on truth. We need a new understanding. If we fail to find truth, by redefining religious symbols and renewing a religious tradition in truthful rational terms, religion will destroy our children's future rather than secure it. Yet, in order to do this we must first separate the bull poop found in religion from the truth in it. This fable, and appendices, can hopefully expose some false elements within religion and also show some truth that will hopefully provide the reader an insightful understanding of the world of religion.

Fulfilling the concept of choosing the title "Bull Poop!?" Feel free to question everything in depth.
Chapter 1: The Expectation

Quietly grazing in a large grassy field amidst the pleasant aroma of wildflowers, with a gentle breeze cooling his body from the warm summer sun, a mighty bull was startled when a pack of wolves approached. Streams of wolves flowed into the meadow.

The bull thought he was finished—there were just too many wolves. The meadow, once filled with heavenly promise, would become the arena in which he would have to dance in his final bullfight.

As he lowered his magnificent horns, preparing to do battle, the bull became puzzled. Why weren't the wolves approaching him directly? Why weren't they circling him? Why weren't they attacking him?

The bull soon realized he wasn't in the fight he most feared. This pack of wolves was desperate; they were thirsty, beaten down, mangy, and emaciated.

The bull grazed in uneasy silence as he watched the wolves from the corner of his eye. Slowly moving to the edge of the field, he carefully studied their movements and social cues. Hoping to continue his meal undistracted, the bull devised a way to eliminate the worrisome stench given off by the wolves.

In the back of his mind, the bull imagined the limited risk of a hasty run from the hapless wolves as he kicked off yet another wretched lone wolf trying to nip at his heels. In a flash, a solution for the wolves' existence came as an expanding fantasy. Imagining a dance of charismatic manipulation, his mind filled with hope while his heart, bursting with anticipation, inspired courage.

The bull finished his meal and his plans for a loquacious choreography. He began his storied dance. Like a clever fox moving around the wolves' imaginations, the bull danced – circling, swaying, singing, and reciting his freshly created story about "divine truth." He explained to the wolves that they were seeking a discipline of rigor that gains favor from the great, mysterious, mighty, supernatural bull's truth. This would solve the wolves' problems and give them the life they desired.

With the natural digestive process taking place after the big bull's meal, he topped off the conversation, exclaiming a very special gift. He moved toward the center of the meadow and let go of a colossal poop.

The art of his charismatic dance slowly soothed the wolves. Unknown to the bull, the wolves were in retreat and simply gathering in the meadow, tired and beaten after a lost territorial fight. Easily head-spun from their desperation and physically exhausted from their recent contest, they began to circle and stare at the bull's gift.

The storied dance of the substantial bull convinced the wolves he had just marked a special place where they had understood something for the first time. Though their stomachs needed food, the wolves didn't see a potential meal but a spiritual clairvoyant truth teller.

As the wolves listened, the bull was aware of the potential danger: the wolves' mouths were filled with razor-sharp teeth, and they could easily create an enveloping net held together with organizational conformity. But the odds of this disorganized pack doing so seemed low.

The dancing bull, recognizing his unprecedented charismatic achievement, got caught up in the moment; he had won over the matadors without a scratch or having to lower his head. Picking up on some preconceived understanding wolves had of truth, the bull rhetorically wrapped up his gift. He embedded woven meaning on top of the mound as he told the wolves he had eaten some mysterious supernatural truth just the other day, and this special gift had some great mysterious bull truth in it.

The wolves enjoyed the bull's dance, and some liked the idea of a great mysterious truth. Many appreciated the bull's story well enough, but many believed only because their lives were filled with depressing anxiety. The daily hunt, which many times came up fruitless; the continued loss of territory their ancestors had once held; insecurity about their survival; and desperation made the bull's fabrication believable. For the first time, they had received a working story on which to base their lives – a ground of meaning for their existence.

The bull filled with confidence as he now had gullible minds believing in the truthfulness of bull poop. The wolves followed the bull, as they were weak and he was strong.

As the bull worked the tapestry of this myth for his amusement, many wolves became convinced their survival depended on mental submission and physical kneeling and bowing toward the most perfectly draped poop in all the land. This oratorical veil embedded great attributes into the bull's storied truth; adjectives describing the truth decorated the fringes, while rules to follow proper worship were layered in the fibers. The veil was sustained as long as an oath of commitment was established for continued allegiance to worship the bull's divine truth.

Stressing the importance of remaining committed to kneeling and bowing toward the poop every day, reciting the story and the properties, and following the rules, the bull promised to lead the wolves out of daily desperation into a more idyllic existence derived by the belief in the mysterious bull's truth.

The bull, satisfied with his meal, his elaborate story, and his charismatic performance, danced out of the meadow as he proudly yet privately giggled at what had transpired.

Once he reached a safe distance, the bull unleashed an uncontainable belly laugh. Nothing had ever reached this level of hilarity. With lingering outbursts of laughter, the mighty bull headed back toward his migration route, stronger, more confident, and joyful than ever.

After bidding the bull a respectful farewell, the exhausted wolves contemplated the bull poop story. It was worth a try, as nothing they had done before seemed to work. So, every morning, the wolves would wake up and kneel and bow to the poop. The wolves that remained skeptical were peer pressured to conform, until nearly every wolf obeyed and honored the poop. The faithful kept talking about their belief in the bull's truth, and they followed the bull's rules.

The individual wolves became more cohesive through their regular participation in worshiping the poop and obeying all the rules. Instead of constant pack infighting, they started getting along. This provided greater abilities to hunt as an organized pack, defend themselves against other wolf packs, and work together to become a community. They became stronger and less hungry. Good things started happening, just as the bull had promised. Many of the wolves became convinced the bull poop story was absolutely true.
Chapter 2: An Encore Performance

The bull didn't fare very well after he left the meadow, desperation, hunger, and thirst drove his flesh. As he returned, the bull had all but forgotten the wolves, his charismatic dance, and his poop story.

When he saw the lush meadow, he felt his prayers had been finally answered and he relished the idea of a full belly after many days of drifting across barren fields of dust.

The scene that greeted the bull was perfect, except for the wolves, gathered in impeccable formation around a small brown mound. "Maybe? Could it be? Holy cow, those mangy wolves aren't hapless anymore!" he thought.

Ambivalence swept over him. He was delighted at the wolves' continued willingness to accept his imaginative narration, but he also recognized a rising fear of the wolves as menacing obstacles to his long-anticipated meal in the lush meadow.

The devout wolves noticed the bull and came running toward him. Although the bull was unsure of their intentions, his hunger overcame his instinct to run. In desperation, the bull developed a stoic's courage and stood his ground.

With all the strength his withered body could muster, he closed his eyes and began to bellow, "I am the bull, creator of the great poop. I ate some more truth the other day!"

Exhausted and unsure of his fate, the bull waited for a response, while silently praying for his survival. The wolves stopped in their tracks, lifted their ears, and obediently sat as their remarkable worship story was reaffirmed as true. Their lives had vastly improved, although they were still far from perfect.

The wolves began to beg for more truth, because the original mound and the story had been eroded by time. They asked the bull for clarification. As the bull opened his eyes, he stood amazed at their gullibility.

Craving nourishment and rejuvenation from a long stay in this lush meadow, the opportunistic bull needed greater control. He already had influence from his previous imaginative dance. Now this pack of wolves would either submit to his will so he could eat without constant anxiety or they would kill him. Those were the stakes.

Believing in himself, the bull liked the odds of survival here rather than elsewhere. He saw potential with these wolves. However, due to his fear of being overpowered and killed, he routinely rationalized totalitarian rules for better control.

The resourceful bull told the wolves he would make another mound, but only if they first pledged their sworn allegiance as true believers in absolute obedience and submission to bull poop. Most agreed due to the bull's prior commendable guidance, so the bull grazed and provided new bull poop, accompanied by a multitude of new oppressive strict rules and punishments.

The bull was a clever spell maker, and he spoke with a forked tongue. The better-natured half provided moral guidance and attempted to describe truth, but from the other half slithered forth a dictatorial, fear-instilling horned beast. Feeding a lust for power and security, this half instructed the faithful to mete out violent punishments to nonconformists and disbelievers.

Through the talented use of his duplicitous tongue, the bull tricked the wolves into believing the spell came from a singular truth. The bull even designed simplistic defense mechanisms for the story: the wolves were told to get angry with anyone who disrespected the poop story and accuse them of blasphemy.

The bull taught them to deafen their ears and close their minds to all other stories, for only in the bull's story could bull poop contain the real truth. By keeping the wolves under a spell, the bull assured himself of sustenance and security. The wolves willingly agreed now that they were firmly under the bull's spell and overawed by the presence of his poop. The high-risk gamble paid off; the bull was now in control and being nourished in the meadow.

Unfortunately, the bull continued to worry; he never felt safe: he feared dissension could take root and other packs could come to attack. The bull sent his loyal and charismatic bully disciples out to perpetually recite the bull's poop message to all other wolf packs so they too would kneel and bow, be strong, become true believers, and no longer pose threats to his being.

He told his disciples all wolf packs in the world should be of one pack; one pack that believed in his bull poop. "Submission to bull poop is for every pack's own good," he promised them. If other packs did not kneel and bow voluntarily after hearing the narrative, they should be overpowered using all the forked-tongue coded cleverness, deception, and/or ferocity at their disposal, until others believed and did as the bull's spell would have them believe and do.

Though the bull never heard any dissension, he feared it, and worried about it all the time. By keeping the wolves preoccupied, reinforcing the spell through numerous daily prayers, reciting enchantments, pledging oaths of devotion and submission, and enlisting top secret dogma-bullies as ears and muscles in the meadow, he calmed his nerves considerably. Nevertheless, he still remained uneasy and his demonic tendencies, fueled by his fear, inspired terror in the wolves so they would not dare to rebel. In fact he commanded loyalty by threatening to personally kill any lone wolf that disobeyed his dictates. Being a quick-tempered bull, his judgments were swift and often violent; he doled out heavy-handed justice to keep order.

The bull could ill afford his authority to be undermined. His twisted spell would have to support him; if it didn't, the consequences were eternal death. But if the spell functioned as designed, it would grow like an irresistible computer virus, controlling the unsuspecting minds of faithful devotees. The afflicted would never know actual truth while they blindly believed they should struggle, sacrifice, and die for the bull's imaginary truth; while dissenters would stay silent in cowardly fear. In this way, the size of the wolf pack and the power of the fork- tongued bull would grow.

The wolves went out to convert other wolves and show them how to properly bow and kneel to bull poop. Those that didn't listen were strategically overpowered by the larger pack. Soon, giant crowds of wolves circled the mound. Bound by oath, they recited the bull's message, all kneeling and bowing to the bull poop. The bull comfortably draped his spiritual presence into the decorated right hand chair of authority coinciding with the mound, so he could clarify any terms of the spell the wolves didn't understand. The bull felt enormously powerful as he became increasingly confident in his ability to cast spells over any wolf that worshipped his bull poop. He also savored his growing muscle power from his code-blinded believers, who strategically bullied others into submission.

Amazed at the effectiveness of his spell, the bull naturally thought that eventually all wolves would listen to whatever he said or face his malevolently designed punishments. The spell was strong and the wolves feared any further oppressive clarification. Feeling secure in his power, fat from the meadow, and bored out of his mind, the bull began to visit neighboring lands along his old familiar migration route. He welcomed the change of pace, but the meadow provided the most food and security, assuring his eventual return. As he strolled, he secretly imagined his empire, creatively built by obscuring truth through his bull poop spell that would provide him with the ability to control all faithfully blinded subservient wolves forever!

As a new generation of wolves matured, the young wolf leaders noticed that the returning bull was not kneeling or bowing to the great mound. These young wolves commanded him to kneel and bow to the mound as the rules stated. The bull, brought out of a languid daydream, was flabbergasted at the request. He confidently boasted, "I'm not going to kneel and bow to my own poop!" The wolves, however, insisted, saying it would be good for him and bring him favor from the mysterious truth. The bull recognized his own story and laughed, stating, "Let me clarify the rules. You see, the rules are for wolves and not bulls." The wolves became angry at the bull's condescending tone and his unwillingness to obey the rules. They wanted him to submit the basis of his life to bull poop as did they.

The wolves insisted on the bull's submission, but the bull, self-assured in his security, confidently started to spin another poop tale. "Oh yeah, let me tell you about bull poop. You see, I'm a bull..." Unfortunately, nobody can spin a spell to angry beasts. The existing spell was working against him. Not realizing his error, he continued to spin, "I make truth poop and clarify poop truth. I'm a truth pooper. Would you like me to poop some truth?" This insult made the wolves angrier as they furiously began to chant, "Blasphemer!"

With resilient demands for submission, their lips curved upward in a collective display of carnivorous teeth. Eyes glaring, ears pinned back, the young wolves began surrounding the bull. Understanding the new, unexpected turn of events, the bull charged toward an opening before the encircling wolves closed the gap. Happy to get rid of the disrespectful and hypocritical bull, the wolves did not pursue him. Beyond the meadow, now well out of range of the threatening wolves, the bull believed he had barely escaped with his life. Confused and breathless from the confrontation, the bull reflected on his stubborn refusal to submit, concluding that had he done so it would have jeopardized the wholeness of his authority. He could ill afford equanimity, as he believed it would lead to his eternal death; and he despised being disgraced.

Believing they had just done their righteous duty by blindly following the mind code of a spell caster's truth, the young and dutiful dogma-bully wolves went back to kneel and bow to the great poop mound. Without an absolute authority, other than bull poop, the pack agreed the bull stories should be preserved and protected. Unfortunately, they hardly agreed on anything else. So day after day they kneeled and bowed, eventually finding something in the contradictory bull's truth to clash over.

A few started fighting for the dictatorship provided by the chair, as despotic bully leadership remained as the only understood style of authority. As various power-hungry wolves succeeded one another, they all failed to impose their oppressive authority upon the rest; none knew how to manage the spell like the charismatic bull. The large pack splintered apart as nobody could agree on the rightful heir to the chair. But each splinter group claimed to correctly understand the truth behind the oppressive recitation and romantic memories of the time the great bull provided poop. Many were convinced they needed another strong demoniacal bully to restore order.
Chapter 3: The Bull's True Nature

After being away for a long time, the solitary bull realized he hated feeling unimportant as if his life no longer held meaning or purpose. Anxiously facing periods of hunger wandering the plains for food didn't help his mindset. He convinced himself that the wolves needed him as their leader in the fertile meadow.

After entering the meadow and slinking past the dogma-bullies once under his control, he asked an ordinary wolf concerning the structure of the pack. The wolf simply replied, "Bow and kneel to the great bull poop!" The bull thankfully realized many wolves were still spellbound by his inherited narration of bull poop. In his absence from the meadow the bull had developed a strategic plan around this circumstance. The key was simply to convert the wolves' ultimate concern of his old hardened bull poop to his own flesh and blood. Once his presence became the ultimate concern of the wolves' lives, he would convince them to kneel and bow to him; in this way, no matter what he said or did, they would not be tempted to overpower him again.

He hid behind the tree line and waited for the wolves to finish a successful hunt. Bellies full, guards down, contentment found by a large meal, in this ideal situation, wolves would become slow to anger. Nevertheless, the bull needed a charismatic, tactful approach to shift concern, before the quick-tempered dogma bullies tried to overpower him, and enact the rules of his own punishing spell. So, on the evening of a celebrated hunt, the bull approached the campfire, and whispered in the wolves' ears, as if a spirit was speaking to them through the breeze. He hypnotically spun his new myth into the sleepy wolves' heads, carefully and purposefully repeating his preplanned mantra: "As all wolves know, the truth came from inside a bull. The bull made the mound special. Why then worship the mound, when you can worship the truth itself, which is the bull!" Unceasingly through the night, the bull softly whispered his coded mantra for the wolves' spider silk minds.

The bull repeated the script at every opportunity; the wolves slowly began to grow unconcerned with the mound of poop. The clever script slowly began the transformation. Many wolves had secretly prayed for the bull to return to restore order, and in so doing, made his return appear as divine intercession. The bull's supporters started propagating questions of why the pack worshipped poop, when worshipping the bull would make more sense. As repeated whispers eventually became declarations, enchantment with the bull became complete. The bull soon enslaved the pack with his preplanned authoritative spell and rules to impose a new order. A few wolves, strongly conditioned by the original bull poop spell, were forced into submission or driven away. The poop mound was buried and the chair of authority destroyed. Under his new spell, only the bull would hold and provide authoritative meaning.

Draped in divine supremacy, the triumphant bull loved the wolves' adulation, the way they served him, and his unquestionable power. He invented a new paradigm, a struggle, instructing the wolves to quest inward to the ultimate search for the bull's nature of truth. He taught them that bull nature, which he exclusively understood, was the highest achievement in life. All wolves should commit themselves to developing an awareness of their bull nature; they would then inevitably start to see changes in their day-to-day experiences. Things that used to trouble them would gradually lose their power to upset them. Wolves would become intuitively better behaved, less angry, more relaxed, and more genuine.

The bull's teachings proposed that in order to find bull nature, all the wolves had to do was to see their inner bull nature. True nature was the bull; and the bull was absolutely carefree. Those wolves that were free of plans, attachments, and desires could see the bull in everything they did because they would not find suffering in anything they did. They would begin to recognize obstacles as opportunities for further understanding.

If they didn't see the bull's nature and ran around all day looking, they would never find it; but they were to seek it in their moments of labor. Eventually they would discover there was nothing to find but what had been there all along. They would realize their beliefs had led them astray; as to believe something about the bull's nature would be to make it what it was not. When they found the truth, everything ordinary would become miraculous and everything miraculous would become ordinary. They might never achieve the bull's enlightenment in this lifetime but every bit of effort towards understanding it would earn merit, bringing them closer to the moment an elusive realization will occur. The wolves were to commit themselves to achieving the goal of finding the truth of being, as the bull had done. But, in order to understand and achieve valuable insights, they needed an authoritative bully teacher; and they needed to work hard and struggle to make themselves understand.

The bull shrewdly provided practices that were designed to give positive results nearing the truth, but which prevented the real truth from being discovered. The bull kept the wolves guessing; he knew if they found the actual truth, they would no longer do his bidding and would be set free from his domineering mind trap. In constant uneasy fear of being overpowered, the bull persuaded many presumably threatening wolves to become physically weaker, convincing them the real truth of bull nature was to be found in practicing hunger while imagining idols. Trusted submissive wolves worked to fully satisfy the bull's every whim. Enslaved to build projects, most of the wolves dedicated endless hours of labor, building palaces to gratify the bloated bull. Some worked as true believers, trying to stay relaxed, and not letting any hardships upset them. They were given favors and promotions. The others felt they had no choice but to obey the bull to avoid the unforgiving consequences for disobedience; either way, most were worn down by incessant labor, hunger, and oppression.

In his quest for security, the bull wasn't all bad, as he gifted quality time to the wolves so they could peacefully practice their inner quest. This time was earned through significant effort in laborious tasks or by entertaining the great bull. This was his magnanimous grace. The wolves were given more time for contemplation to seek the bull's nature and thus had less work in the fields. Many devoted wolves kept asking for new empowerment practices, as some of the given practices were proving ineffective. All practices promised a potential opening to truth but were ineffective, as they were designed to service the bull's needs. Keeping wolves humble in their confessed ignorance, and submissive in their questions, the bull kept the wolves fathoming the infinite emptiness of an abyss, while trying to achieve the bull's nature of being.

Most of the wolves were puzzled by the bull's teachings, but his biggest problem came from his most accomplished believers: they had worked, meditated, prayed, starved, imagined idols, pondered teachings, and/or gained divine promotions, yet they still yearned to find the elusive truth of being. If he was unable to design a new futile practice or teaching upon request, the bull would send the believers out as missionaries, promising a new practice upon receiving a number of new mentally enslaved refugees seeking the bull's truth.

With the bull occupying center stage, surrounded by minions bowing to his authority, the new spell proved effective in providing security and power for the bull. However, as time passed, the bull grew weary of the mindless wolves and their annoying questions. They were no more than hovering brownnosers and brainless conformists. They were aggravating in their constant pursuit of truth and new empowerments. They were like flies on his poop. Unbeknownst to the bull, the meditation practices did help the wolves develop deep insights into psychological motivations; they had become wiser. Some purposefully pestered and annoyed the bull to make him feel trapped inside a sycophantic bubble. The bull started to feel exasperated by the barrage of questions and requests, making him desire a holiday to stretch his legs and tell an equal of his great folly.

Impulsively concocting a plan, he told the wolves to build a statue of him and to kneel, bow, practice empowerment poop, and take good care of it. He was going on a missionary journey and they should use this statue in his absence. The bull statue looked exactly like him, and the divine bull assured the wolves that their luck and favor would not change by worshipping the statue instead of him. The few insightful wolves were delighted at the bull's departure. Watching the bull leave, they were filled with self-confidence. The bull had no doubt about his return, faithfully believing the wolves would recognize him and kneel and bow as before.

After a long vacation, the bull returned content and very pleased to see the wolves kneeling and bowing to his statue, which had been perfectly maintained, lifted on high, and freshly covered in gold. Although he had been unable to find an equal, the bull reflected on how nicely all of his vacation plans had unfolded. Now, relaxed and convinced of his inherent divinity, the bull prepared to go back to being the center of worship. He arrogantly dismissed the statue's meaning and purpose, as he thought, "Who would possibly continue to worship a statue ahead of a charismatic bull!?" But many wolves were not willing to dismiss the statue. Unwilling to face the oppression of the bull, they held on tightly to a new meaning.

Unfortunately for the bull, his spell had been gravely weakened. Many wolves liked kneeling and bowing to the new golden statue, they did not have to obey its commands or labor to serve its endless needs and desires. They simply kneeled and bowed, did their meditation and prayer practices, and waited for the good luck and favors from the bull's truth to continue. Like the bull poop mound before, the statue provided the central meaning for the wolves' lives instead of the bull's being. Therefore, some wolves saw the living bull as a threat to the ultimate meaning of the statue.

A rebellion began as a few insightful wolves attacked the bull. The bull tried to defend himself by bucking, thrusting his horns, and clamoring statements about being their divine ruler. But skeptical wolves joined the brawl and completely enveloped the bull, cutting and ripping him open. The bull had fought his final wolf fight. Now he was laid out, dead and bloodied in front of his very own statue, as the wolves prepared to feast on him. A carnival atmosphere prevailed as the wolves gouged into their former purveyor of truth, slicing out succulent steaks with their slavering, razor-sharp teeth. The wolves joked about the bull's inner truth being absolutely delicious. In one magical evening, all hunger was obliterated, oppression and slavery came to an end, new meaning dawned on the wolf pack, and the ritual practice of sacrifice became defined. The wolves began a new era in which the worship of the golden statue provided the ultimate meaning and purpose of life; all the wolves felt a deep, liberating gratitude to the great golden bull statue and the promise of making sacrifices to it.

In fact, the full bellies derived from their numerous sacrifices and their light work load made it easy to believe the truth embedded in the statue looked favorably upon their offerings. The pack slowly forgot all the weathered prayer and meditation practices. Rebellious attitudes, exemplified by the bull's demise, broke down rules and social customs given by the former oppressive bull spell caster. They solely focused on sacrifices as a form of worship in the wake of the bull's demise.

As the wolves' minds relapsed into their wild ways, they once again lusted after all sensual pleasures, coveted every possession and sought egotistical greatness. In pursuit of these desires, they started fighting amongst themselves. Pitting will against will in battles where might made right, wolves broke down every social norm, and life in the wolf pack deteriorated by the day. Chaos ensued, causing many wolves to become disillusioned. Even though countless sacrifices were being made, the statue no longer seemed to provide any favors for the pack. Wolves began to regret killing the great bull and went out to dig up history.
Chapter 4: The Messenger

As the wolves dug up many small pieces of hardened manure, they sought out new truths from the old fragments. From the unearthed clumps the wolves sculpted figurines that represented their hopes and desires from the great bull's truth. Each poop fragment was fashioned into a highly intricate symbolic representation of a bull to make them seem special; each detail provided another layer of meaning for interpretation. They attached stories to the various poops to help answer anything the wolves could not understand. The idols were used in various valued rituals and ceremonies: fertility, advantage in battle, removing obstacles, and other empowerment wishes.

A priestly class gained a footing in the wolf community, as it claimed power through the interpretation of idols and delighted in creating proper rituals and ceremonies. Some wolves reverted to worshipping the golden statue and claimed they should go back to worshipping it. But none of this poop worship could stop individual members of the wolf pack from trying to assert their superiority. The various poop leaders, wanting to become as haughtily divine as the bull, continued posturing with each other for power and control. They developed levels of divine achievement where their claims to status would cling and eventually solidify by being passed down along bloodlines to future generations. Although some leaders were sincere in seeking truth, they did not know the truth, and all blindly followed variations of what the bull had taught. Every variation became justified as a path to truth by faithful believers of every poop story imaginable. Nothing was being solved, as nobody knew which bull poop story to believe as ultimate truth.

A lone wolf, no longer under the spell of any bull, proclaimed, "The meaning of your lives is grounded in a false bull's premise. All bulls are just bull. Bull poop is just poop. You have been slaves to false, bully inspired spells." The lone wolf set about to free his peers from the slavery of the bull's spells, and claimed that true worship was not about a bull, but a singular all-powerful and unknowable divine mystery called Iam, with whom only he could communicate.

The lone wolf scratched a handful of new rules into the side of a tree, so they would not be confused; the main rules centered on concepts to stop fighting and find pack harmony. He insisted wolves should directly benefit from their own labor and not be slaves to a bully; and those who benefited most should help those who needed help. He told them, "The rules written on this tree are sacred as they came from Iam." He defined himself as just a messenger of Iam and did not make himself the center of worship. However, his authority allowed only his opinion to define the new singularity of Iam. Therefore, in all realism, he made himself into Iam, although he alleged it to be otherwise. He created a tent to house the singular Iam where worship was to take place. He claimed Iam told him sacrifices were not for statues, but for cleansing and atonement of their guilt due to their lustful sins and rule breaking.

Various wolves were unsatisfied with the new rules set by the lone wolf and his unknowable Iam. They started to claim they were better off with all the various bull poops as truth. Even the golden bull statue made more sense as it began to represent liberating rebellion over any authority, including a lone wolf and his unknowable Iam. However, there were many disagreements amongst the disciples of the old bull spells; they were divided over questions about the truth. The new lone wolf followers were plentiful and cohesive, thus better organized under a new belief of truth. Many believed the lone wolf because they desired a new order. Weary of all the infighting from conflicting truths and the chaos which came from the rebellious golden bull worshippers, the lone wolf followers forcefully coerced conformity and chased away those who refused to obey their authority, which they claimed came from the just wrath of the unknowable Iam. They destroyed all the physical idols of bull poop and the golden bull statue, and the wolves became spellbound by a wolf instead of a bull.

The lone wolf soon passed away, and left an unstable legacy surrounding the understanding of Iam. The wolves began reverting to wild animals, and new authorities were needed just to hold the pack together. Various wolves began to feel they had the authority to modify the understanding of Iam. The spell casters told the pack they were a special pedigree chosen by the unknowable Iam therefore should not act like sinful wild animals. The wolves tightly fashioned the pedigree of their pack to the spell. Authorities added many new subjective rules, and strict, oppressive penalties were imposed for breaking rules they claimed came from Iam.

Under various power-hungry wolves, the spell of Iam became stable as scribes eventually wrote it down. The spell governed the pack as it became part of their identity story. The wolves' belief in their alleged chosen pedigree gave them a culturally ethnocentric view of the world. Unfortunately, various malevolent wolves in power used the tight ethnocentric view of justice to manipulate pack members into doing many terrible things against other packs. They focused on helping each other, used outsiders as needed, while leaders worked to strengthen the cohesiveness of their identity spell by creating rules for the proper worship of Iam. Eventually, a distinct pack of wolves was manipulated by their tribal identity into a new, highly effective wolf spell.

As the spell matured, the authorities of the spell built a temple of poop to house the all powerful, all knowing, and unknowable. Furthermore, they demanded kneeling and bowing rituals, sin atonement sacrifices, and other practices at the newly constructed temple. For the most devoted wolves, the spell of the temple was not unlike that of the bull poop mound and the bull statue of old; therefore, they added some gold.

The clever wolf authorities created a multi-layered spell around the concept of a singular Iam. The pack held onto its original story of the lone wolf delivering freedom from the bull's spells. The new constructs concerning a chosen pedigree, the written stories, the worship rules, and a temple culminated in another artificially defined ground of meaning. The spell was very strong as the political authorities, acting like manipulative bulls, continually reinforced the concepts of pack cohesiveness, and influenced others through their identity spell to gain power, profit, and privilege.
Chapter 5: The Savior

Despite the authorities' imaginative and manipulative use of the Iam spell to control the wolves, some contemplative wolves actually sought out the truth through the concept of a singular Iam. The most obvious work evolved to represent the ideals of social justice, embodied in stories of the wolf pack's liberation from slavery and rules for helping the less fortunate among them. The other characteristic was more profound. The pack defined itself into a relationship with a singularity of conceptual pure existence. Through this pack's contemplative process, new relational insights were revealed. Over time, this process of considering social justice and relational understanding led slowly to refinements of thought concerning a relationship with a singular truth of Iam.

Seemingly out of nowhere, a small group of twelve stood up and said, "This one is Iam." All stood around and were puzzled. Before them stood a different type of being; he was loving and kind. He healed injured wolves. He did not punish or kill sinners who broke the rules, but forgave, and did not support authoritarian rule. He taught forgiveness over revenge. He knew true singularity and spoke of the truth in allegories. He did not coerce his followers into submission but was their servant. He cared for others both inside and outside his pedigree. He warned against all forms of false worship and said nobody can serve both the master of truth and the master of bull poop. A choice must be made. He illuminated the unknowable truth as love. He spoke against self-righteous and manipulative pack members who were leading the entire pack astray through their defined spell. He exposed leading members of the chosen pack society as frauds. These leaders used the governing spell to build up their own sense of self-worth and belonging by outwardly exemplifying the spell's defined piety, while maintaining ignorance toward the ultimate truth of love.

But the authoritative spell casters punished those who challenged the validity of their Iam spell, which they justified as traditional worship from the written spell. They branded this kind-hearted being as just another seditious spell caster. They knew if he were the true authority of Iam, they would lose all of their power and privileges derived from the spell. They decided to punish and kill him by accusing him of inciting a rebellion and labeling him a rabble-rouser. They used their clout given through the spell, to persuade other spell-blinded wolves to agree with their allegations. So they rationalized killing him as a sacrifice to Iam. Through justifications found in the governing spell, they claimed he was a blasphemer. The arrogant, obstinate authorities at the time showed their desired relationship with Iam through their actions against the consubstantial being of Iam. They thought all would soon forget about this kind-hearted healer.

But he was not forgotten. His followers were never fully sure what was meant by his teachings or why the enormous injustice surrounding his death happened. This injustice, the killing of a man who spoke the truth, clearly exposed the phony authorities and the falseness embedded in the spell they practiced. Many statues were made in his honor and many kneeled and bowed in remembrance of him. In time, a new spell was created in his name, giving authoritative power to a new, influential brand of imaginative supernatural spell casters, and the truth was buried inside a new spell that was attached to the spell of the unknowable Iam.

In the years that followed, many mischievous wolves tried to act like bulls. They used the clever tricks of the ancient bull. They arrogantly invented spells, using the constructs of the past to support their new spells. They pretended to have miraculous access, possession, or secret knowledge of the truth. They then assigned it the most powerful attributes to compete against other spells. They fashioned a story of poop filled with subjective rules to control wolves and coerce them to submit to their personal authority. Some created or used a complex physical idol, book, and/or poop mound, to worship. Others made themselves the special center of worship. They created artificial stories, causes, or struggles that served their beneficiaries' interests to gain and maintain power. They used the wolves' personal attachment to the spell, or pack identity, to manipulate and control group members. They sealed their spell with simplistic subjective statements such as, "this was the last spell caster" or "nobody could achieve the level of insight into truth as this spell caster did." These crudely designed defensive seals on the spells provided their manipulative beneficiaries with a seemingly unbreakable institutional authoritative control over large or small packs of wolves.

Power-hungry wolves and those highly susceptible to spells studied the old revered stories, repeated ancient spells, and manipulated others. Most wolf spell casters were blinded by the spell they studied. Unwittingly, they found a cause and sought status from their pack, so they recited the stories to justify every ridiculous primeval notion that could generate influence to manipulate wolves wanting or needing to believe in a truth. Through their insecure desires for pack popularity, acceptance, power, or profit, spell-casting wolves proliferated throughout the land. Every wolf seemed to justify its existence according to poop and the spells generated from it. Through the clouded minds of blinding spells, every pack of wolves claimed truth.

Chapter 6: The Spirit of the Number Null

Unfortunately, over the years there have been plenty of competing poop spells, given by numerous obstinate spell casters. None of the old stories was forgotten, and since these spells conflicted with each other, the wolf packs under different spells continuously fought amongst each other. These definition conflicts benefited the bull poop spell-casting leaders in their efforts to gain and maintain their manipulative power. Each pack claimed that the truth came from their culturally flavored poop spell. The wolf packs were all just faithfully blinded by poop they claimed smelled of truth.

The spells were filled with irrational bull poop. Some absurdities resembling poop were used to encode special hidden meanings into spells to protect their underlying truth; however, manipulative, self-serving spell leaders saw these absurdities as a way to gain power. Master manipulators learned that absurdities accepted as truth could be used to control unsuspecting minds, as rational thinking was abandoned for the sake of belonging to a desired spellbound group. Furthermore, once the wolf minds accepted the original premise of absurdity, they no longer questioned newly introduced irrational notions due to their strong desire for belonging to the spellbound group. The master manipulators thus opened the door to the irrational and deceptive psychic wonderland of faith.

Due to the manipulative spiritual leaders seeking earthly power through the absurdities embedded in their spells, the critical thinking majorities began to recognize the unbelievable and malevolent stench within the established spells of poop as the cause of absurd conflicts. As absurdity abandons reason, no rational arbitrator for peace can quell a conflict between opposing groups clinging to the absurd. Due to the subjective nature of irrational spells, which can ultimately be defended only by savage egotistical insistence upon faith-based opinion, many understandably became disenchanted with divine truth of any form.

Finally, many seemed clear-headed and free from the historical worship of poop given by manipulative spell-casting leaders. **Hurray!?** However, this effective loss of faith in anything unfortunately left the disenchanted wolves with faith in nothing. Faith in nothing brought its own devious faith spell, whereby anything and everything was justified for every idea or desire that came into the untamed minds of wolves. As no absolute truth could be found, all truth claims were rationalized as there was no basis to determine the validity of any assertions. All truths became relative and meaningless and the wolves were utterly adrift trying to find meaning to their lives.

Due to the faith in nothing, an opening was seen by the spirit of a sociopath, who set his sights on becoming the ultimate authority. As a cold-hearted machine blinding wolves with numbers, the spirit of the nihilistic bull found a fresh field in the yearning minds of gullible wolves.

This bull influenced the world with invisible hands, manipulating the rules and numbers within the oldest game in his arsenal. This very powerful, alluring spirit had been hanging around the wolves for a long time and had been scarcely restrained by older spells. He waited for wolf bellies to be full and then slowly untied the knots of regulation that held his spirit down. His game strengthened his spirit by giving power and prestige to any wolf that became its successful adoring worshipper. These wolves became spell-blinded to the extent that they would exchange anything for more advantage in the bull's game.

Egomaniacs found the gaming spell irresistible, as it encouraged self-worship and gave them power. The astute worshippers legally legitimized corporate ghosts they insisted were real living wolves. Those who worked in servitude through the corporations were required by newly minted laws to value the bull's number game ahead of any other perceived truth. Wolf leaders working through incorporated bully ghosts had no ethical restraints, as nothing seemed ultimately true. Therefore, growing the value of merit assigned by the game trumped every other life concern. Wolves would learn to work tirelessly to unchain the spirited bull because possessing more of his game's valuable poop to adorn their self-identity became their ultimate concern. Through the logic provided by the spell, the games and scorekeeping became a source of pride and power for all the wolves caught up in the gaming spell.

The gaming spell had a very effective built-in organizational system. Many wolves attracted by the logically designed number schemes worked the math and became entranced. Even-minded leaders used this spell to help others build new temples in which more gaming merit could be gained. But malicious fiends used the spell as an unyielding yoke to take advantage of and gain from the less fortunate. Eventually, everything became put at risk, as the loss of any belief in real truth created ideal conditions for the numbers spell to maintain supremacy.

The devotional promoters of the numbers spell encouraged nihilistic consumerism, greed, and religious piety to the bull's accounting rules. Selectively filtered faith-based notions of older spells raised moral indignation over the less fortunate class of losers as a divisive tool to help the frontrunners leverage greater control. The self-righteousness of the game's winners reinforced their moral superiority, which was confirmed by the merit they gained and banked through conformity to nihilistic bull worship.

As merit worshippers sought something to ground their search for meaning of their lives, they developed material idols and amusements to worship. As the meaninglessness of labels gained through material possession was realized, the wolves discarded the formerly prized idyllic poop into the waste stream. This pattern repeated itself endlessly, creating avarice for consumerism, the curse of wolves trying to define their lives through a nihilistic spell in a meaningless abyss.

The spell confused the gullible wolves, as the most conniving devotees worked liked clever foxes to convince others that spiritual greed was naturally kind and giving and would trickle down as good fortune for all. As the muck makers worked, swindled, lied, cheated, manipulated, made laws, stole, and created wars to gain and protect poop, they promoted only those constructs of other faith spells that helped reinforce the bull's number spell.

Privileged with loaded coffers, nihilistic game winners became bloated with their own pompous self-worth and power. The new pack alphas believed in self-greatness with no humility or reverence for anything but their own subjective views and ephemeral desires. Wolves learned to make worship poop out of anything to adorn their self-image. An entire system was set up to worship this spirit, and those who did not desire participation in this religious gaming spell were stripped of their resources and forced into the bull's servitude through the numeric minds of his highly merited game players. Once caught up in the system of nihilistic bull worship, many unfortunate or unskilled wolves struggled to gain merits from the bull's games for basic needs and freedoms. All resources were assigned numbers in the game and were quickly being depleted, while the costs of the gaming spell's toxic by-products were ignored.
Chapter 7: Judgment Day

All wolves used the numbered merits of the bull's nihilistic gaming spell as an effective organizational tool and efficient arbitration system. However, justification for merit had to be measured against an ultimately higher value or truth to regulate the spirit of the bull. If the wolves could not agree on a higher ultimate value, concern, or knowable truth to govern this numbers spell, powerful business clerics, blinded by their unregulated numbers program, ultimately became justified in depleting every resource, poisoning every well, and enslaving every mind for the sake of more numbers-based merit from this nihilistic religion.

Unfortunately, any truths to be found in old faith spells have been largely discredited because of religious leaders seeking power through manipulation. This process made it nearly impossible for any rational being, who claimed the truth of being, in terms of ultimate concern of truth, from falling into bull poop false traps. Those still under the historic spell of imaginary poop needed to wake up and realize the most demonic bull traps were created by a dictatorial, oppressive bull. This bull imposed his own highly subjective utopian views, rules, and practices as the ultimate analysis of truth; taking this path further into the demonic, one can then inspire coercive bully tactics to impose his view upon others through devoted, domineering, code blinded believers. Another trap created by an enlightened bull demigod who held himself up to be the epitome of mysterious meaning, in turn manipulated others into servicing his subjective desires in exchange for clarification of how to follow his spell path and learn more half-baked practices. One could go further into the demonic, by asking followers for refugees in exchange for merit gained from practices. The deviant third way was to simply gain influence and profit by charismatically blinding believers into the head-spun delusion that convinced them that the absurd was true and the logical and rational was untrustworthy. One would go even further into the demonic by trying to estrange followers from family and friends.

The open option was to humble oneself without need for coercion as there was only one kind-hearted servant whose prominence could not be logically overshadowed by a person's egotistical appraisals. Give credit in name to the one who did not fall into any bull traps. The one who warned against worshipping the nihilistic bull's spell of numbers, and insisted worshippers cannot serve two masters. The rest of the bull poop spell casters, who still protected the authority of their spells, needed to realize the blinding bull poop traps they served. Therefore, only in one being and ultimate sacrifice given did the wolves have hope of salvation in truth rather than manipulation. But even within the story of the kind- hearted servant, there are intimidating and manipulative spell-casting power-hungry wolves that spew ridiculous bull poop as truth to influence others into a shroud of falsehood. They are justified only by the faith constructs of an artificial poop spell. These talented wolves charismatically spew their opinions through the reading of a complex idol to manipulate others into a spell; yet they are still correct in whom they choose to worship, and all should be eternally grateful for their work in preserving and promoting his story. There is only one who gave freedom of speech by suffering the injustice of a bull poop-imposed penalty for simply speaking against blinded authorities and false premises within their spell. Only through the historical kind-hearted healer's sacrifice can the truth be clarified; otherwise, anyone who comes across the truth will be forced into bull poop or to stay silent. Upon recognizing the truth, all other teachers can be logically seen as potentially inferior to one's own ego, thus only through manipulative coercion can humility be found through other instructors of the divine. Your judgment is needed. Can you now accept an existential new being with Jesus as the Christ as your personal spiritual lord?

"Put it on the board... Yes!???"

If "No" there is still a whole chapter to go.
Chapter 8: Unresolved Questions!?

### Is there any truth in any of this "Bull Poop!?"?

### What is truth!?

THAT'S THE END OF BULL POOP. 

(Please proceed to the appendices, for a bit of veritas.)

### APPENDICES:

### No more Bull Poop!
Appendix A:

### Tri-Truth

Is there a highest concern every living being should hold above every other? This is God that ought to be believed as rational truth. Logically, there is an answer to this question, and the answer is as follows:

God is Life Force, Consciousness, and Divine Love, a Trinity of Truth wrapped as one Trinitarian energy form.

Life Force is the essence of life in the universe, providing the only truly importance of the universe. Without life there is nothing to concern oneself. Without life, who could care about what holds atoms together, electro-magnetic force, gravity, power, or money? Without life what would there be to care about? Life force has been the foundation of every spiritual practice of mankind since the beginning of time. The myriad creations of deities and myths for the purpose of spiritual practice all find their root in life force. Without life force there is nothing left to hold sacred. It is the one and only force that truly matters in life. Without being in harmony with the life force as a species, we would not exist for long. Life force is a universal force of utmost importance. One can view the universe but only within Alive Harmonious Energy.

Continuing along this truth, consciousness is the essence of mind. Consciousness is a force in the universe that can be recognized as entering and forming your mind. The origination of life force in the mind is consciousness. We identify ourselves as this very energy through self-awareness. Yet few of us take the time to identify or find purified originating consciousness as Christ found and instructed others to perfection. This can be perceived as the ontological argument for pure consciousness as an essence of mind. Like pure water flowing gently through a genetic structure, consciousness squeezes and twists through constructed beliefs and ideals to form our sense of self. But we do not create consciousness; it creates us. We all have God flowing in us, creating our lives. Consciousness created our memories of the past. Consciousness creates our dreams for the future. We are all a part of this same energy in God's image; we are consciousness. Think of God as the energy of life. All animals contain this consciousness, drippings of God, which is exactly what we are as people. Therefore, all life is divine. We are all drops in the Divine Ocean, or waves on top of the Divine Ocean. We all float in the mist of particles and we all flow this energy of mind and life through the energy of caring or what some might call Love.

Divine Love, energy of mind and life, is also caring or love at its root. What we think about, we care about. Where our attention goes our thoughts go, and we go also. We choose our paths in consciousness and we also have a predetermined environment in life. If we blindly allow our genetic constructs to flow as animals, we will be predetermined in many ways. If we stop, think, and flow in a heightened awakened state, we will experience a greater degree of free will. Yet somehow, we all create desires, expectations, and/or ideals that lead to frustration, fear, and/or anger when not fulfilled. The caring to create desires, expectations, and/or ideals gave seeds for the birth of the frustration, fear, and/or anger.

Pay attention to washing a car, and the car will become clean. If you care to hurt someone, someone will become hurt. If you care to create a belief, a belief will be created. If you care to use the intellectual "sword of the mind" to cut down beliefs, they will vanish from your mind. Yet the power of the sword is not its sharp edges (or intelligence); the power comes from the consciousness wielding it.

It all stems from how we habitually use the focus of mind. We blindly reinforce pre-built ideas and beliefs, and this process causes blindness. When we procedurally generate emotions through the underlying genetic form, we choose to develop these emotions and give ourselves over to the less controllable emotional state that was created. Your anger comes from caring about something to be angry about. Thus, everything stems from the root of caring or divine love. Where our mind is focused is where we care to go with it. The root of this focus or consciousness is caring. The root of suffering is the desires, expectations, and/or belief ideals created by the mind seeking things to be different from reality. In the same way, we create a sense of evil by caring to fulfill our desires and disregarding the suffering of others in the process of fulfilling these desires. But it is all created through love distorted through our mind and genetic form.

Thus, this energy described in a Trinity is the root of all existence; all the divinity in all creatures is formed by God (life, consciousness, and divine love). Be as sure God exists as sure as you are alive and share in life with others. Discovering the fountain source of Trinity as the pure beginning will reveal the perfection of spirit we have sought for many years. Through this basic beginning in the truth, the veil of blind faith will be lifted. Contemplate it with a foundation of inner peace and find an understood truth, rather than a belief, of God. Can you now see truth?

As this formulation can be defended logically as truth and as the highest value of any living being, we can find agreement on a truthful answer for God. If you are unsatisfied with this discourse of this truth of Trinity, please feel free to question everything in depth.
Appendix B:

### Rectumify!?

God must exist before we create a belief in the mind; otherwise, the concept of God is simply manufactured in the mind as potentially delusional and imaginary. Just like the "flying spaghetti monster" can be defined into almighty God, any spell-making deceiver can define God falsely. Historically, the concept of God has been defined by individuals, who have attempted to use the concept to improve the lives of others or entire societies. However, their egos created a permanent falseness, which cannot be overlooked, to manipulate others for personal gain. They created an agenda in pursuit of power, prestige, influence, money, and/or self-importance. Spell makers have derived power by claiming the truth of the divine to create legends. As time passed, the stories and teachings of the spell makers provided an idol, a holy book, as an ultimate authority to which future spell casters would cling. Once the premise of the authority of an idol was accepted, verses could be used to charismatically manipulate followers into believing nearly any interpretive bias; worse still, a holy book could be created by a charlatan who simply guessed and made a false claim to the truth of the divine.

Descartes reduced everything to thought; but don't we exist before our thoughts? If we stop thinking, do we stop existing? Of course not; and therefore "I think, therefore I am" is a manufactured thesis and not absolutely true. The energy to think exists, therefore you are. This is the "ground of being" as Paul Tillich describes in his Christian theological writings.

Base God as the Trinity of Truth doesn't ask for much belief other than an objective view of "the ground of being" as the highest value. This base understanding of God is simply saying Life Force exists as evidence of your own life and the life around you. This base life force is at its root a type of love, and identified as divine love since it is derived from the root of existence. This base understanding is not asking for belief in miracles; it is simply providing the truthful answer to the question "What is God?" or what is the most valuable thing in the universe in the most objective, rational, and philosophical sense.

By preserving the relationship with greater life force, we safeguard our relationship with the true God. We support this relationship by preserving sustainable well-being with our environment and/or monitoring our relationship with the environment so we do not destroy harmony with God for future generations. Likewise, maintaining personal bodily and mental health is also preserving a sustainable healthy relationship with God as life force. All people who argue otherwise are disciples of a false god, or put lesser gods (myths, idols, sensual pleasure, and/or money) ahead of the true God. Thus, they value another god ahead of the true God.

Likewise, the true God asks for empathetic relationships with other living beings in consciousness. If true God is the highest God, then the way we treat other life forms becomes of the highest importance. Here our relationships with and treatment of other human beings are brought to the forefront. Here social justice, in terms of governing authority, is brought forward in importance through an understanding of the true God. By understanding truth in God, false teachings of demonic justice corresponding to cutting off hands, the death penalty, stoning, and torture, can be juxtaposed to truth-based forms of justice corresponding to civil liberties, egalitarianism under the law, fair trials, and rehabilitation. Moreover, animal treatment and rights come into higher concern as animals are in God, unlike material objects. We thus put the treatment of other life forms' importance ahead of greed, sensual pleasure, and/or material values.

Finally, God intrinsically asks us to examine and understand ourselves. God is asking us to go inward and examine the inner working of the mind created from love. This is looking inward to see how we distort pure love in the mind into something different when it flows through and out of us. By seeing the false idols we have created in our minds, we see how we blind ourselves to the suffering of others. Here we seek to develop harmony with base love by developing clear sight with compassion, loving kindness, and self-control. God asks for the development of a deep sense of conscience through self-understanding of the truth. Empathy derived by divine love recognizing itself in other living beings, heightens one's conscience, helping find agreement in theories of justice.

Divine love is a free gift from God, it is how you choose to develop and harmonize with this love that will determine your infinite path. Everyone must consider their mental and physical assertion of their personality in social situations, causing a reflection of how they behave toward other life forms in everyday life and how to improve that behavior over time. Find a true reflection of your personal, subjective, and existential integrity in loving kindness and shine. Otherwise, a distortion can develop due to misguided faith, or unhealed emotional scars, creating false spiritual worship that potentially leads to an eternal demise.

False leaders, false teachers, and false elements within myths propounded in holy books are used to mislead and deceive. Know the truth. Understand the truth. Empathize with all living forms. Look within; understand how your own mind works as it originates from the ground of being of divine love. Understand how your mind generates emotions, desires, fears, and anxieties. Continually cleanse and heal the mind with loving kindness and consciously remove polluted paradigms, idols, and inspirations, while working to forgive others for their idol blockages. Work to reform political and spiritual houses by developing systems of governing social justice with philosophical foundations set within truth. Find compassion for all other living beings. Kindly serve others life forms within God. Respect the required harmony with the environment of the greater life force. Find the purity of loving kindness, again and again, as the beginning of mind and the highest truth of all existence.

Amen!?
Appendix C:

### I-Holes!?

By accepting love, we are able to open up and give love. Those who deny God's love, cling to beliefs that potentially blind the mind's eye from the truth. Justice is served to those who accept love and open themselves to a greater being. They will see the eternal light of heaven. Those who deny love will love a false idol, as the mind has no choice but to love something. Be sure the mind is made to love and will find something to love. Whatever the mind loves, be it a physical idol, a book, a story, an ideal, will become an idol to the mind. Whatever this idol may be, it causes blindness, darkness, and lost-ness. All justifications are bounced off the idol for decisions and actions, as the truth of all-encompassing love is dismissed.

If the idol is the egotistical self, this eventually will cause the mind to work for the image of the superior self and thus greed or desires for the self will be justified. If one cannot find humility when the truth is realized, a massive I-hole develops as one logically begins to believe in the self as the highest divinity. If the self becomes the highest divinity, love becomes directed inward creating a justification for an egotistical I-hole, or solipsism in the extreme.

I-hole worship causes the self to eventually collapse on its eternal emptiness, as there is no other choice in self-worship. Self-worship creates an internal falling in of the soul, a collapsing black hole, as the worship of the self draws love backwards toward itself creating a vortex. This vortex generates love but brings too much back on itself creating a collapsing phenomenon. This process can sustain itself through the living body; however, it cannot sustain eternal being through the passage of bodily death. Therefore, there is an intrinsic crushing death through self-worship.

For those who realize the truth, the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus as the Christ saves, from the rationalized I-hole of solipsism, as a humbling lord without bully coercion. By recognizing Christ as a higher divinity than the self, Christ replaces the self as lord providing restorative humility, thus he logically saves the soul from the self-worshipping collapsing vortex. Moreover, Jesus as the Christ being of highest divinity doesn't allow justification for bully coercion, as his legend provides no grounds for it.

Thus, by accepting Christ as lord and recognizing the truth of love, one recognizes the need to live for the sake of others in love. Giving love to others and respecting the sacred love in others is the only real choice. Thus, we clearly see that the false or destructive path is "everyone for themselves," "do anything you want," or "others do not matter." Because when God is love, others matter most and relationships with the sacred in others cannot be dismissed for the sake of an idol.

Realize love as expansive; genuine love is only a giving from oneself or from the source. Love cannot be bottled up or it will be polluted and destroyed in the process. Those who practice self-love destroy themselves for they receive love without the ability to genuinely share love, as primary love is the idol of self. This is a collapsing description again. Because of this collapsing self all relationships or what lies in between the self-lover and others tastes artificial and/or contrived. This is the taste of corrupted love, which can be made genuine only by letting go of self and caring for others.

Unadulterated self-love does not provide a complete understanding of the collapsing soul phenomenon. The mind can choose to love a defined social group that one identifies with the egotistically. Those who choose to love a group create bigotry, patriotism, ethnocentrisms, and/or tribalism as ultimate truth. They create false boundaries of love as divisions of love, and then worship group divisions. This is all based on self-identity to the group, creating yet another form of self-love. As these divisions are artificially created by the mind, once again a false idol is created, and it cannot be sustained. Group love delivers clouds of fear and suspicion from outsiders or individuals who threatening group cohesiveness. Though this love feels more genuine as it cares for others, the artificial idol of group identity can become the anchor that sinks the soul back toward the collapsing vortex. If group identity becomes the ultimate idol, it blocks the ultimate truth; if no true vision is seen, there is no guiding light home. Many false spiritual teachers use group identity, which hides ultimate truth from their faithful followers.

Moreover, when worshipping precious idols, beliefs, religious authoritative stories, or rules given by those who demand blind faith as adherence to spiritual piety, the mind fears those who may seek to shatter the illusionary idols. Through fear driven by protection of the false idols, the individual begins to justify anger, aggression, and/or hatred toward those they regard as threats to their idols, too often leading to anger, war, and death. This protection of the precious idols thus creates artificial divisions of love based on faith given to idol worship. Idol worshippers routinely accuse others of disrespecting their idols, as all idolatrous faiths need to be defended from free speech.

This same process can trick the mind into believing in righteousness as it creates evil. As love is ignored as the source, an ideal of "justice" can lead the mind to justify killing others, torturing others, and destroying others' lives, because the idol is only providing what the internal lost soul wants to justify with its precious idol. Therefore, by making justice an idol without the recognition of base love, love gets destroyed along with true justice. In this way, the mind can also use idols to justify self-righteousness.

However, true love opens itself up and radiates outward like a lamp. It does not shroud itself with false idols, which cause blindness or blockages of radiant love for other living beings. These blinding blockages (false teachings) cause people to believe in the administration of demonic justice such as cutting off hands, torture, the death penalty, punishing women to death, and/or working to pass self-righteous laws against women so they can be punished in the future.

Therefore, even though God is Life and God is Love this does not guarantee every soul eternal salvation. Quite the opposite: the acceptance of the truth of God of life and love allows God to harmonize your heart so that one can radiate love and caring for life and its relationships. Rejecting this truth, one becomes doomed by worshipping false idols created by the mind deluded by false beliefs or teachings. In this way, justice for every soul is served naturally by God based on the acceptance or rejection of the truth of the love of God.

Those who find themselves on erroneous paths, due to false teachings, take your guilt created from blindness to Jesus Christ and ask him for forgiveness with a sincere heart. Step away from the refuge promised by false teachers and texts. Escape the heavy yoke of oppression from a totalitarian's laws and dictates. Find salvation from the false teachings given by spell casters who shroud the truth by offering a lampshade of idols to worship. Think and stop going along with a manipulated group identity spell.

Wake up!
Appendix D:

### Wholly Human

Through the Holy Trinity of the almighty Father, as life encompassing the universe as God, Jesus as the Son who saves through forgiveness and restorative humility as God, and the Holy Spirit found in loving kindness as God, the three personas of one God, an individual can find a truly spiritual and existential path through mindful love in service to others.

Understanding the truth, but trying to replace Jesus or diminish his position as God in the Holy Trinity, becomes a choice of accepting a varying degree of artificial coercion to humility from religious bullies, who usurp the lord's title and obscure eternal truth and justice. These types of bullies find followers by creating an artificial religious trap of submission for group belonging, which propounds false teachings to satisfy the founders' powerful egotistical desires. Moreover, artificial causes are supported by egotistical thoughts of supreme insights into truth, when only partial insights were provided. The historical legend of the religious founder serves to replace Jesus as the Christ. The imperfections in the legend serve as justifications for the leaders of today: therefore, egotistical claims of superiority and bullying are justified. The historical imperfections found in the legend of the religion's founder often hide the justifiable traps within a religion.

Traps are found in all religions, including heteronomous forms of Christianity. This form pays lip service to Christ, but the bully at the altar manipulates his own ego into a position of holy authority, thus fully or partially usurping Christ's authority. Without providing explanations of what purpose the Biblical encoded structures serve, bully tactics are used for conformity to absurd dogma forced upon skeptical individuals whose questions annoy the great ignorant bully I-hole in charge at the altar. When a spell master bully dominates the pulpit as a living usurper of Christ and claims authority through absurd clichés, everything rests on blind faith and willful self-delusion, which can reduce Christianity to a lowbrow manipulative circus show. This false authority can grow into a demoniac I-hole that uses egotistical authority to prey on the vulnerable within the flock for a bully's own cravings. In this way, demons live as leaders in the church, believing in their own divine power over others instead of the power of Jesus as the Christ. They lack any sincere humility but cloak themselves in the prestige of their office and scribe-like knowledge of scripture, which becomes useless as their arrogance blocks any ability to find a spiritual understanding of Christ. Without restorative humility, such leaders stand eternally condemned as I-holes who only give lip service to Christ as lord.

If historical teachings and practices are valuable, rational explanations should be available to skeptical questioners. Here there needs to be an understanding of the interpretation or re-interpretation of the religious symbols, teachings, and practices to discover the inward journey that should be explored individually or with equanimity within a group. These practices should never be prescribed by an outright authority demanding the rigors of religious piety. Too many have coerced others to practice under the pressure of an artificial absurdity or authority, which creates a heteronomous and heretical religious form.

Religion must be philosophically existential, not manipulative, to preserve an individual's authentic meaning and purpose within a community. True faith in Jesus as the Christ serves as a foundation while the individual finds varying degrees of doubt and guidance through the provided belief paradigms. True existential faith fails without Jesus as the Christ, as justified despotic religious heteronomy materializes when Jesus is replaced with another human authority as God in the Holy Trinity. This replacement can occur by another famous religious leader, whose flawed legend acts as the ideal, or by a false authority claiming to serve Christ.

If a religion does not have a spiritual lord other than God the father, by default an individual, who wants to maintain existential faith, chooses the self as spiritual lord. With this choice, one goes it alone with the truth of God as a stoic self. This is an attempt to replace Jesus with one's own being in the Holy Trinity. This path cannot avoid the creation of an oversized personalized I-hole. It plays out in two ways: (first) through an accumulating sense of enduring internal guilt as nobody can live up to faultless Kantian universal maxims, and (second) an inability to find sincere humility.

To take life seriously, a continuous sense of guilt will arise due to unavoidable mistakes, as nobody can be perfect. Guilt deteriorates confidence and debilitates decision making by revealing the impossibility of living up to idyllic standards. Anything done in life carries with it potential for guilt or meaningful expression, many times a bit of both. Guilt often times causes an internal scourging over perceived mistakes; creating a desire for an existential retreat from the relationships in this world. Retreating is an attempt to minimize mistakes and avoid the potential of making future mistakes. This can cause a burying of talents, like a hermit, or any form of solitary life. This process, of retreating from others, maximizes the meaninglessness of one's life.

If one tries to dismiss guilt in order to live a more meaningful life within society, a stoic I-hole will have to be created as a defense mechanism against what hindsight reveals as an ill-advised decision and/or expression, despite trying to be virtuous. A stoic will either take on guilt and/or shield himself/herself against guilt.

The process of taking on guilt generates accumulating baggage due to failure to live up to one's standards of perfection. This feels like a heavy load upon one's shoulders or chest. The stoic cannot appeal to anybody else for relief, thus a stoic may learn to hate life and prefer death as did Socrates in his final hour. Plato attributed Socrates as saying "Now if there is no consciousness but only a dreamless sleep, death must be a marvelous gain." Socrates either felt worn down by a sense of guilty baggage, as some of his closest followers were members of the tyrannical thirty; or his mind grew tired of holding up an I-hole shield - the egotistical defense mechanism for a perceived sense of superiority.

In order limit this guilt baggage, an egotistical defense mechanism is often created by comparing ethical standards against others in society. One can always find someone of lesser virtue to defend against guilt, but this will always build up the sense of superiority over others creating an inflating I-hole. However, eventually the honest-thinking stoic will have to recognize his baggage of guilt, artificial ethical standards, delusionary dismissive defenses, and inabilities to control desired relational outcomes. This progression either leads to an elaborate hyper-inflated I-hole defense mechanism or to a sense of brokenness.

Feeling broken creates an opening for trusting something outside oneself, especially during difficult times. By revealing one's own philosophical failings, an individual creates the state of a lost or broken ego, where one becomes dangerously vulnerable to nearly any religious concepts. This usually involves finding a belief in forgiveness, to unload baggage, and humility, to deflate the recognized false sense of superiority of the I-hole. In order to find relief, the lost soul at its weakest point will seek new foundational beliefs or in extreme circumstances a loss of will to live.

Unfortunately, nearly all religious formulations provide a solution whereby the individual loses existential freedom to an authoritarian trap of submission to a group's defined conformity. This conformity can often require obeying completely subjective rules, in which an authoritarian gains power by regulating lives of members. The solution away from heteronomous subjective laws and authoritative tyrants claiming the divine is offered by personally accepting Jesus as the Christ. Here only Christ can preserve independent existential existence, away from authoritative group coercion, and still provide a means to humility and forgiveness. There really are no other truthful and rational existential choices.

Only by trusting Jesus as the Christ can liberating humility and forgiveness be found in truth, allowing one to live a more meaningful and purposeful life. Christ's legend preserves the ability to make those unavoidable mistakes, break down egotistical defenses, and accept life's imperfections in relation to others by being able to find his forgiveness through grace. At the same time, this trust avoids a personal I-hole, through rational humility to Jesus as lord, as one's own egotistical assessment will logically fall short of Christ. A new way of being in this world is thus found.

With Jesus as a personal lord, one is compelled by grace to love for the benefit of others and society as Christ would have one lovingly serve without coercion. The process of being accepted by Christ as his servant, removes the compulsion to prove oneself through works for egotistical merit, though being unacceptable due to an inability of being perfect, culminates in a philosophical foundation where one finds sustaining grace that relieves guilt. Doubt will always exist about any supernatural divine, and it cannot be avoided, yet despite doubt, one can still find faith in a robust life affirming foundation to help in difficult times.

Can you now accept existential new being with Jesus as the Christ as your personal spiritual lord and savior?

If you answered YES, please find an open-minded liberal church providing hope, purpose, and meaning to life, where useful spiritual practices, such as prayer and/or meditation, can help heal your internal being. Church brings individuals into communities that build meaningful healthy relationships. This enables individuals to organize into ministries of social services and just causes. Avoid all self-righteous, fundamentalists, and/or charismatic spell casters. Especially avoid heavy-handed egotistical bullies in charge at the altar. Shop around for a church community but don't expect it ever to be perfect. Become a part of the truthful visionary change a church and the world needs.
Appendix E:

### Lighting the Lamp

Through the Holy Trinity with the almighty Father, Jesus as the Christ as Son, and the Holy Spirit an individual can find a proper mindset to worship God. Now this concept has been marred in confusion for many years. The Father as life encompassing the universe is properly worshipped in respect of the environment and all living beings. The Father is also the universal ruler of justice, in which we worship through trust in sincere prayer.

Jesus as the Son who saves through forgiveness and restorative humility is properly worshipped through a humble heart while serving the needs of others. His worship is followed through his legend as being a servant by feeding, healing, and loving others. Therefore, anybody who reduces the burdens of another through service while maintaining a humble heart can be said to be properly worshipping the Son.

Now both of the above forms of worship are good but unacceptable without the Holy Spirit, which must be found internally by every individual. Here many people find disagreement on exactly what is the Holy Spirit, Holy Ghost, and/or Divine Soul. How can anybody know?

Without the understanding of the Holy Spirit, God the father can become nothing more than a bully tyrant to which one is commanded to obey and fear his wrath. Without the knowing the Holy Spirit, Jesus can easily be worshipped only with lip service and empty words. As an angry punishing self-righteous teacher, who dominates his or her will over others, can justify faith in service to others, yet clearly misunderstands the spirit.

A false spirit can allow scripture to become a demon's tool box, where beliefs are used as idols and the soul becomes lost to spirits of self-righteousness, fear, greed, vindictiveness, and anger. The mind may become judgmental that desires punishment for those who do not adhere to its idolatrous religious mind trap or faith cage. In this way, religious fundamentalists continually demonstrate their deception provided by their false spiritual worship.

As there clearly exists confusion over spiritual worship, included here is a practice for developing an understanding of the universal divine spirit or Holy Spirit. This practice is designed to help the mind find the essence of its beginnings. This practice can be modified to fit personal tastes, however, the key is to find the pure spirit of the divine love, so that the mind can see the essence of its own beginning, recognizing its truth more completely. Through practice the mind will more likely heal internal emotional wounds and find it easier to maintain the spirit. At least this is the transformation the practice hopes to achieve.

A practitioner should begin by finding a comfortable seat and sit with straight posture. Placing hands in the lap and taking three deep breaths with closed eyes, helps relax the body. Breathing slowly and purposefully focuses the mind on the breath, which calms the mind and body. Focus on deep breathing in and out. Let all tension out of your body and find relaxed peace. Find relaxed peace in your legs, stomach, chest, arms, and mind while you breathe slowly and purposefully.

Your minds waters should be calmed. Think of someone you care for deeply, perhaps a child. Cultivate this feeling that arises as a seed. Plant it in your heart. Grow this caring with each breath. Let it encompass your entire heart. Grow it slowly with each breath until your chest is overflowing. Continue to grow it, and let it grow into every part of your body. With each breath allow yourself to be immersed in peace and love. You should now be properly prepared.

Now imagine tremendous warmth. You feel this warmth from distance and can feel it as an incredible loving power. Imagine this incredible warmth radiating over the entire area as God's divine love. Breathe as divine love moves closer to you with each breath. Feel the strength of the radiant pure light beaming like the sun. Feel the light penetrating your body with its warm love. Focus on the tremendous loving warmth that is now in the vicinity, as you breathe calmly feeling the warmth moving closer. Breathe deeply as the light slowly approaches.

Now imagine the warmth as a large sphere that has moved directly in front of you. Feel the incredible penetrating love pouring over you. You are loved. Sit and breathe as the light no longer moves but only radiates love all over you and in every direction. Breathe.

Imagine the radiant light taking on your breath as it remains in front of you. Expanding and contracting as you inhale and exhale. Breathe calmly and purposefully. Let the light continually pour over you and through you, communicating to you that you are the beloved child of the one true God. As you now inhale, imagine inhaling a very small amount of the radiant warmth that is smaller than a tiny mustard seed. Feel the incredible love and caring enter your body. Feel the incredible transformation as your heart now radiating love and caring for all things from this incredible small amount received from the inhalation. Feel the incredible powerful sun like love radiating in front of you, while your heart radiates back with a small fraction of the power. Continue to breathe calmly as the light expands and contracts along with each breath.

Breathe and notice the incredible light once again moving toward you. Imagine the light gravitating toward the small radiating seed in your heart. Slowly moving closer and closer with each breath, the incredible power of infinite love is now entering your chest. Centering itself on your heart and engulfing your whole being. Breathe and give the light new life within your body. Feel your body radiating this incredible loving kindness. Feel the light healing and radiating from your hands. Feel the light healing and radiating through your legs. Feel the light healing and radiating in your eyes, mouth, and mind. Open your eyes and feel love healing and radiating to everything you see. Breathe and give this light life in your body. As you now radiate with the incredible warm love for all living things, find empathy by knowing all living beings' life force originates from the same source as your own. Breathe. The love you before felt radiating from a distance now radiates from you. The lamp should now be lit.

Sit, breathe, and radiate love from the light. Let this light heal emotional wounds helping you find forgiveness. Let this light heal feelings of resentment from broken relationships. Feel the incredible calm peace within. Feel the joy the light has given. Feel kindness. Feel love. Radiate God's love as a lamp peacefully, calmly, joyfully, and humbly.

Make the lamp the foundation of your being. Your goal is to make the light of the universal divine spirit, your lord. Every thought, word, and action starts first from radiant divine love. Flow forth purely from here and nowhere else; this is how you make the divine spirit your lord. Do not let the lamp become dark with rationalizations and teachings of con-men. Do not betray the lord by putting faith in something ahead of the light. The spirit is made lord by not allowing other spiritual powers to flow through you. Do not follow orders if the loving light must be darkened. Do not bend if the light must be removed from your heart.

This sounds easy but you will most likely fall back into a darkened pattern due to lack of ability to control emotions and desires. You are a broken and imperfect lamp of the highest divine spirit. When the spirit feels as if it is dimmed, renew yourself again through practice. Know this spirit can never leave you completely. Let this practice strengthen your luminosity by healing aspects of your brokenness so that you can maintain a new way of living within the light. Renew within the spirit and find the renewed you again and again. Transformation from a broken lamp with a shade of idols where the spirit can only shine brightly for short periods of time, to a more secure mended lamp that can shine love for longer and longer periods. Never expect to be perfect, the lamp of the underlying genetic form can only be imperfectly mended. Brokenness will always exist as unavoidable human imperfection. Healing of periodically arising guilt from this imperfect condition can be found through trust in the forgiveness offered by Jesus as the Christ.

Know if you do not feel peace you've diluted the Holy Spirit. Know if you do not feel joy you've weakened the connection with the spirit again. If you are judging others instead of loving you're lost in the darkness. If you start feeling superior to others, realize you're falling into an I-hole trap, find restorative humility by recognizing Jesus Christ as lord. Keep practicing and overtime being within the spirit and flowing love through your body and soul will feel more natural as the way of your new life.

Once the Holy Spirit is well established in the harmony of your being, you will become a new person making it able to take-in or inhale negative energy and exhale loving kindness while dealing with people. As broken lamps flow adulterated spirits through their lampshades, or belief filters, feelings of insult and anger should no longer arise. Instead the insults can be taken into the spirit of truth, dissolved or conquered internally, and given back as loving kindness. Giving spiritual healing back to misguided lamps takes practice.

No longer will greed dominate as loving kindness moves outward to helping ease the burdens of others, serving others, and guiding them to the truth. No longer will you hide behind beliefs and live through a cage of rules, designed for a wild animal or beast. Understanding of loving kindness will put scripture in context and calm the soul.

Therefore, only through understanding of all three elements of the Holy Trinity can one find truth. Only through respect of the Father as the source of all life can one learn to value the environment, social justice, and trust in sincere prayer. Only through Jesus as the Christ can one find restorative humility and existential courage. Only through the Holy Spirit can one understand spiritual truth. Only with all three in one, can an individual freely choose and know the true path without an awaiting false mind trap of submission to a false bully authority or to blindly follow subjective rules for tribal conformity.

Even if you have just one talent, you can share these teachings with the world. Light the lamp! Do not block love for others with false idols. Do not allow the lamp to go dark by following false guides. Stay true to the truth of the spirit of divine love.

Appendix F:

### The Orthod-Ox's Defense

The Apostles' Creed

(As understood by this author)

Truly we believe in One God, God the Father, the Almighty, creator of heaven and earth and of all things visible and invisible.

(This is stating that true Christian belief falls within the highest level of belief in God, which potentially can be defined into the absurd, but anything less could be overthrown as it would be seen as a weakened form of God.)

(Differentiating levels of God:

Base God as the Trinity of Truth is the base form of true God. However, this is also a weak form of God as it does not necessarily allow God to be universally present or the ability to act within the universe. Therefore, God can be given power through belief (the beginning of faith) by extending influence through other living forms. This once again is a weak form of God, as a stronger form can be present outside living forms and act. This is building from a base form to a belief in an almighty form. The reason for an almighty definition is religious competition against other incarnations of God. By claiming the almighty, Christianity is claiming the highest form of God, which unfortunately also allows for supernatural absurdity. Yet any other form would be easily challenged by another religious formulation, which may not be based on truth of love or the historical Jesus's legend.)

We believe in one Lord, Jesus Christ, the only begotten Son of God, born of the Father before all ages. Light of Light; True God of True God; begotten, not made; consubstantial with the Father, by whom all things were made.

(This is the seal of Jesus as the Christ; there can be no higher than God; there can be no man who can act as usurper of Jesus as the Christ. Though many try to usurp him, even within his church, he is the highest lord and God.)

Who for us and for our salvation descended from Heaven, and was incarnate of the Holy Spirit and of the Virgin Mary, and became man.

(Here is a continuation of the seal, "descended from Heaven" and "incarnate of the Holy Spirit" is recognition of Jesus as divine; our salvation given from Jesus' life story, and the Virgin birth coming to symbolize the break of "birth right" as justification for power.)

He was crucified for us during the reign of Pontius Pilate. He suffered death and was buried.

(Would anyone have liked to take the place of Jesus on his path? NO, because this is his gift, as nobody would want this experience, but it had to be done at some point in history in order to allow freedom from deceitful heteronomous bully traps in religion. He alone frees mankind from religious tyranny. No longer can guilt be used to forcefully coerce conformity, as Jesus forgives us for our sins. This statement also places Jesus within historical context as existing during the reign of a documented Roman governor.)

He arose from the dead on the third day, according to the Scriptures.

(Here is another seal of Jesus as the Christ. In order to dethrone Jesus, one must not only give profound truth of God but must also come back in three days after bodily death to prove he is at least equal to Jesus. Failure to come back after three days of bodily death is proof of any usurper's failure to dethrone the highest divine authority of Jesus as the Christ.)

He ascended to the heavens, and sits at the right hand of His Father. He will come back in His glory to judge the living and the dead; and His Kingdom shall have no end.

(The promise of the return of Christ will come back. "To judge the living and the dead," symbolizes his supreme governance. Having no end gives permanence to Jesus as the Christ. )

Truly we believe in the Holy Spirit, the Life-Giving Lord, who proceeds from the Father; we worship and glorify Him together with the Father and the Son, Who speaks through the prophets.

(Here the Holy Spirit, the third persona of the Holy Trinity, is defined as "Life-Giving Lord," which God has always been. Perhaps the fathers of the church needed to put this in somewhere to verify that God is the true God and not a god of the imagination.

The line of "speak through the prophets" gives credence to the poetic prophets of the Old Testament revelations, but more importantly this reinforces the seal of Jesus as the Christ as they prophesized the Christ story that Jesus fulfilled. )

We believe in one Holy, Universal, and Apostolic Church, (a move for the unification of the faithful) and we acknowledge one baptism for the remission of sins (defining baptism as a required ritual). We await the resurrection of the dead and the life of the world to come (defining the hope that remains even after bodily death).

Amen (truly)

NOTE: This is not a traditional decoding of the Apostles' Creed. For instance Christ's resurrection traditionally represents: Christ's defeat of death, as God cannot die so he took death into himself and destroyed it with proof coming in the form of his resurrected life. Moreover, the resurrection demonstrates Christ's victory over evil. The traditional decoding of the creed was not used here as it would not necessarily help the skeptically minded for which this writing is geared.
Appendix G:

### Thyme for Karma's Sage of Curry

There are two prevailing justice belief patterns in religion coming out of the East and West. The East's justice belief pattern revolves around karma and rebirth. Karma is the belief in the divine justice of God being played out, not only in this life, but also in all future lives. Many describe this as cause and effect, whereby negative actions eventually lead to negative outcomes – and positive to positive. Therefore, if someone was a bad person in this life they would have a bad rebirth in the next. If karma, all the generated causes still waiting for effects to play out, doesn't catch up with an individual during this lifetime, eventually karma will catch up in both negative and positive ways in another lifetime. Therefore, there is a treasure of karma being stored in both positive and negative accounts. This on the surface seems to carry wisdom, and the individual psyche is supported by this formulation of divine justice.

The karma paradigm does help one deal with life's circumstances in seeing bad or negative situations in life as simply karma playing itself out from a past life. If someone were being tortured for an unjust reason he could be steadfastly compassionate toward his tormentor, believing he somehow deserved the torture because of past life regressions. Through such a belief one can cope, and this coping is one of the psychological benefits of any type of divine faith. Moreover, one can be motivated to be good in order to receive a better rebirth in the next life. Also, one can be motivated to work off any negative karma by righting known wrongs caused in this life. In some instances, karma is just common sense: bad things tend to happen to unethical or cruel people because nobody wants to help these types of people. Likewise, people tend to give helping hands to those who are kind and ethical. These constructs provide mental and spiritual support with motivations to become a better person.

The flaw with this theory involves how the concept plays out into society's social justice formulations, especially when considering a royal birth. Based on the karma construction, clearly the aristocratic child must have had a good previous life, and thus is a prince or king in this life. He earned the title because of his past life; moreover, the peasants deserve their lowly life because they were clearly not as good as the prince in their past lives. This leads to the logical formation of a caste system such as the one that exists in India, where the poor are seen as logically deserving oppression as they need to work off their bad karma.

Moreover, when a person gets ill with cancer or experiences tough times, a bystander can easily think this person must have done something wrong in a past life and deserves the suffering he or she is now experiencing. Even the sick person who believes in karma would believe this. Therefore, this paradigm reduces motivation to help others or even to come up with cures for the disease. Also, it can reduce empathy for the plight of others because "they were clearly not good sometime in their past lives." Here the paradigm shows greater weaknesses. The less fortunate have to pick themselves up by their own willful bootstraps, as nobody in society has the motivation to care. Karma does not allow any unfortunate victim roles to be played, as everyone has earned what they deserve.

This also plays out in the desire to escape from karma or ongoing eternal judgment. This is accomplished by achieving enlightenment or finding the hidden knowledge of the universe. Many are trapped in a spell caster's practice regime trying to gain enlightenment to escape karma and find universal forgiveness or salvation. Luckily, everyone who has read Appendix A: Tri-Truth, and has given faith to Jesus as the Christ, now has this knowledge and forgiveness. They no longer have to deal with a meditative practice regime prescribed by a bull. Practice as you feel necessary to help with spiritual transformation, self-understanding, reflection, and/or listening for God's voice. But most trapped in this karmic paradigm are led to believe they can never really understand the truth, so they feel eternally trapped.

Unfortunately, this Eastern karma paradigm allows for a sense of disconnected neglect and lack of love for others due to the logical outgrowth of "everybody deserves what they get." The Eastern paradigm lasts, or has staying power; because it serves the rich and powerful, as upper-class priesthood most likely created the spell. They obviously have had a good rebirth, and thus good karma, and they earned every bit of today's inherited privilege from a past life, as will all their children and grandchildren. Thus the caste system entrenches itself over time, giving the upper caste a belief in their divinely given superiority over others. They act like arrogant pompous I-holes towards everyone everywhere they go. In addition, good karma has obviously flowed into any newly minted aristocrat who has earned every bit of his newfound privilege, but still cannot claim haughty divine birth status. Notice the similarities between the karma and rebirth paradigms and the nihilistic numbers bull's spell. Karma provides a form of divine justice for an individual's journey because the chosen journey holds consequences in the karma and rebirth paradigm, unlike worshippers of the nihilistic numbers bull. However, as demonstrated, karma grossly skews love for others and therefore the paradigm of karma and rebirth lacks ultimate wisdom and truth, as does any teacher of this paradigm. Therefore, the karma and rebirth paradigm should be rejected.
Appendix H:

The Trap of the Western Beggar

The Western Heaven and Hell constructed belief pattern doesn't have the same pitfalls as the Eastern constructed belief patterns when it comes to examining justice. In the West, justice prevails and someone doesn't deserve a crappy life for being born to a poor family; and no one deserved a prince's life for being born to royalty. There is no justification for not helping another person or dismissing the suffering of others. The individual will be judged on this life and his/her chosen journey. In this paradigm, the individual psyche is supported in life's difficult situations and this motivates individuals to be good, while providing a framework for social justice because there aren't any built-in reasons to dismiss the suffering of others.

There are obvious breakdowns in the Western belief patterns of justice, especially if people somehow magically absolve themselves of all personal responsibility for their actions by believing in personal forgiveness, no matter what they do or the kind of person they happen to be. Just believe the spell caster's spell and be magically forgiven of all transgressions against other living beings. Or believe in an extreme form of pre-determinism whereby anything done was pre-determined by God and therefore one bears no personal responsibility for any irresponsible actions. This is the fault of the spell-casting elements of Western religion, rather than the constructs of heaven and hell.

Another issue in the Western paradigm is that it can be easy to justify or create a victim's paradigm or internal paradigms of victimization in an individual's psyche. The poor don't deserve a beggar's life and the rich should help because they don't deserve an inherited prince's life. A logical outcrop is the role of survival pity strategy of victimization, begging for love and attention for survival, which seeks sympathetic relief from the powerful. This tests the given Western construct of justice; if it is believed as truth, then help should come. Notice there are no hapless victim roles to play in the spiritual East because everyone deserves everything they get; furthermore, no divine forgiveness is built into the karmic conceptual model in the East – individuals have no choice but to take personal responsibility for their own life and the karma, rightly or wrongly attached to it. This might include begging like a victim, but they are not a victim, they deserve the life of a beggar. There are some distinct similarities here between nihilistic numbers' priests and karmic gurus. Dealing with the paradigm of a victimized unfortunate is a byproduct of the Western, concept of heaven and hell, the model of divine justice.

This victimization paradigm creates a spiritual problem. Once the internal soul backs into this false trap, giving into stress from the hooves of society's bull worship, there is difficulty finding true existential being in Jesus as the Christ. Stress breaks down an individual to becoming a slave to the false god, hoping vainly for its unloving mercy. This is a nervous breakdown that turns to despair, a situation in which one is unable to find meaning, purpose, and/or hope in life. Through a lack of means, one is drawn into a sense of their life collapsing under stress. This causes many to give up on love and goodness; adopting a false god, some learn to play with the slippery tongue of deceit to hustle for gain or to deflect responsibility in the hope of momentarily alleviating the powerful grip of desperation; others turn to drugs or alcohol. Because of low self-esteem, many seek love through sexual lust, but fail at commitment due to impulsive emotional reactions leading life astray and creating broken families. The false god spirals a life into an abyss of empty promises. The most devoted worshippers of this fatalistic god adopt helplessness in their existential defeat and outwardly show a grim face with puppy dog eyes, while being internally deceitful, emotionally volatile, angry, deeply depressed, and self-obsessed. With their false gods, the scoundrels of the spiritual West try to test the validity of the Western paradigm of justice. They worship a nihilistic bull, justifying personal gain to outweigh any impact their actions may have on others' lives. Slaves properly worshipping a false god will accept immediate gratification for their desires but will see no hope for their lives; they put up egotistical walls to defend themselves, justifying anger and revenge, destroying their lives further, as they continue to worship down a suffocating false path.

However, these victim worshippers need real help in order to acknowledge a broken life and their false worship of an unloving god. Unfortunate people under stress need to understand they are beloved children of the true God, with spiritual arms waiting to embrace and accept them. They must recognize that the love of the truthful living God flows through them and dwells inside. Education and support are needed, as they help rehabilitate and build people up by teaching them about the love of God with Jesus as the Christ. Such rehabilitation can transform victim worshippers into virtuous and responsible active members of the church community. Civil disobedience is a proper response to the bull's oppression, as the true God seeks justice by recognizing the plight of his beloved children in their search for truth. Relief is not found in the gangland worship of an angry and vengeful god.

Culturally accepted people believe the poor deserve their fate because they do not behave and work according to societal norms. In some cases, these norms may be impossible to achieve, as wealth is required to live according to them. The culturally accepted see a false god being worshipped but do not acknowledge their false nihilistic numbers god as the cause. Many worshippers of the true God feel internally divided when they witness the worshipping of this false god. Yes, the victim needs and deserves help, but the victim worships a deceitful god, and the continued belief in false worship after help is offered by sincere hearts, creates an internal conflict in the victims. Yet, helping all misguided worshippers out of their erroneous faiths remains the responsibility of all those faithful to the truth.

The Western model does provide key strengths in that divine justice is ultimately upheld; therefore, the most wisdom exists in this belief pattern, despite any pitfalls. If one chooses to believe in karma playing out in this life, it can still be believed for this life and fit ultimate wisdom, but the belief pattern will have to ultimately start with this life and finish in the spiritual afterlife without rebirth. In this way, karma may be seen or redefined in terms of divine grace. Most importantly, concepts of social justice are upheld in the Western model whereby nobody gets a free pass to dismiss the circumstances of another. Therefore, the Western construct of heaven and hell carries the highest degree of ultimate wisdom, and thus should be believed.

With this comes the understanding that all men are created equal, and societal justice is based on giving no child a structurally unfair advantage over others. We must remove what John Rawls calls the "veil of ignorance." We must know how principles shape society without manipulating those principles for a specific position in that society, giving each member equal opportunities within it, regardless of the circumstances of one's birth. We should not look to favor a specific powerful group in society, because this will create future civil unrest and may lead to revolution if brought to an extreme.

There must be liberty for all children to grow, express themselves, and succeed within their talents. This does not mean equal pay for all, but equal opportunity for every child to rise and fall, regardless of his or her status at birth. As it is impossible for an individual to gain wealth or social status without society, it is impossible to suggest an individual does not build wealth and power based on society's principles to allow such wealth and power to be created. Nobody builds wealth on their own; a society is required. Therefore, to preserve society, which allows such principles to exist, principles of social justice must be understood in terms of the Christian principles of justice, which are not centered on the principle of absolute libertarian freedom in which "anything goes" in an individual's pursuit of wealth. Christianity implies a lack of inherited privilege; and a society no longer structured on the principles of nihilism that focuses the mind on the worship of a personal I-hole in flux. Nihilism leads to death, of the soul, society, and the planet. The only solution, which allows equality for the freedom of existential expression and true justice recognizes that the true Trinitarian God is alive with Jesus as the Christ!

"A person will worship something, have no doubt about that. We may think our tribute is paid in secret in the dark recesses of our hearts, but it will out. That which dominates our imaginations and our thoughts will determine our lives, and our character. Therefore, it behooves us to be careful what we worship, for what we are worshipping we are becoming." – Ralph Waldo Emerson
Appendix I:

### A Bit of Scripture

Good Friend, don't forget all I've taught you;

Take to heart my commands,

They'll help you live a long, long time, a long life lived full and well.

Don't lose your grip on love and dependability.

Tie them around your neck;

Carve their initials on your heart.

Earn a reputation for living well in God's eyes and the eyes of the people,

Trust God from the bottom of your heart;

Don't try to figure out everything on your own.

Listen for God's voice in everything you do,

Everywhere you go;

He's the one who will keep you on track.

Don't assume that you know it all.

Run to God! Run from evil!

Honor God with everything you own;

Give him the first and the best.

– Proverbs 3, The Message

39 But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what hour the thief was coming, he would not have let his house be broken into. 40 You also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him." – Luke 12:39-40

Are you ready?

Can you accept being the beloved of God?

Can you accept the role of servant with restorative humility, and the courage to face potential mistakes while finding forgiveness by making Jesus Christ your lord?

Can you find the Holy Spirit dwelling inside you?

### Dedication

This book is dedicated to all the people of the world and to Jesus as the Christ my lord and savior.

About the Author

Fool O'Flatulence was conceived in a legume field. His life consisted of surviving in the harsh outdoors. Finally, as an adult, he was picked out and joined others like himself in an overcrowded burlap flat. Eventually he made it to a loving family where he was dunked and warmed over by their love. He did very little with his life until he had a gastric breakdown. This event caused him to break out of his once comfortable environment into an existential crisis that produced his groundbreaking work.

