At age 19, freshly graduated from high school,
I am 100% guaranteed that I haven't figured
it out, not at all, not by an inch!
I'd always adore my peers that seems to have
figured it all out, whether they're moving
out to their dream school of choice or finding
a job.
Three months before graduation, I had a ton
of time to think about it.
But I guess when you are in the moment, it
doesn’t knock into your head until the principal
hands in your diploma.
The realization of a new uncertainty awaits
in front of the infinite amount of opportunities
rushing into you.
Uncertainties are pretty common amongst us
teenagers.
We are bound to make decisions from time to
time and we’d love to act upon it as soon
as possible.
Uncertainties had lived amongst us since we
have been brought up to this world.
We were unsure of the idea of going to school
with a bunch of kids we have never met in
kindergarten.
We would have taught middle school was the
stepping stones to the real world.
Then we were introduced to high school.
If you're in high school, I hope you have
already humped over the uncertainties of what
you want to do, but if you haven’t, it's
totally fine.
I haven’t figured it out either, not any
time sooner.
But what most of us forget is how much we’ve
grown.
Try to observe your confidence and the state
of mind you have right now.
Would you have that confidence and state of
mind back in the first day of school?
We get so focused on “the next step” that
tends to leave us unnoticed on how much we've
grown.
“If you were to ask the tree if it remembered
when it was a seed, the tree would probably
tell you…
I’ve always been a tree,” Joshua Rodriguez
from TheJoshSpeaks/YouTube.
During my ups and definitely during my downs.
I always had the platform of YouTube in front
of me.
No, it is not a job and it will definitely
never be, at least for me.
For popularity?
Not in my recent interests.
A hobby would be more of an understatement.
I found myself pretty laid back when it gets
too high school circles and clubs.
Don’t even get me started with freshmen
year.
I did sign up to multiple clubs and groups
for the first two years, but I just couldn’t
commit to it.
It was a way for me to get more social beyond
social media, but it just didn’t feel right
for me.
That is why a camera became one of my greatest
companions in high school.
For every second it records me, it was the
only thing that didn’t tell me to shut up
for being a cringe-worthy individual.
The uncertainty didn't really hit me until
junior year.
There has to be someone in the high school
population that haven’t figured it all out.
The majority just felt like everything was
playing out perfectly in front of them.
Four-digit SAT scores, decent GPA’s, popular,
and a social media star.
I was so sick with the so-called “labels”
or the “high school dream.”
Like what dream are you talking about, will
that take you beyond high school?
Yes, I condone success and I congratulate
them for it.
But it seems like an individual’s achievement
is becoming something for someone to catch
up upon on.
Being pressured to have success with someone
success shouldn’t be a requirement.
I always believed in trusting the process
and doing it my own way.
The next transition awaits, it seems like
I won’t figure out what I really want to
do in life, at least at this time being.
I hope I will be able to answer these kinds
of questions sooner rather than later.
Whether to pursue to continue my love with
the camera or pursue my childhood dream of
being a meteorologist.
The uncertainties continue…
