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Hi i'm FreeSpiritReenie, this is my channel
talking about manifesting a
multi-millionaire lifestyle
and the way i believe i'm going to do
that is by letting go all of the
negative
limiting beliefs that hold me back from
attracting money into my life and this
video is about why
i do not care what other people think
about me
there's a little bit of a backstory to
this because obviously i did use to care
what people think about me
a lot one time i decided to step out and
branch out and get a weave i was in
college but i had a part-time job so
it's one of my first
big expenditures i didn't go to some
small hairdressers and pay like really
cheap for a week
me and my big self went to a very
well-known hairdressers
especially for black hair who won awards
and whatnot and i decided to get my
weave there
by an award-winning weave artist here
got my hair done
and i felt like i was wearing a fairy
hat
but not just a fairy hat like a granny's
fairy hat
i felt hot i felt like all eyes were on
me
i felt like all lights on me when i left
the show i didn't want to leave the shop
but when i left the shop i felt like
there was a massive spotlight
following me home i felt so
uncomfortable and i remember
i had to go to work the next day and i
was on the bus
going back to my house and two girls
were on the bus two teenage girls it
must have been about
you know let's say i was 19 they must
have been about
14 14 15. and they were listening to
each other and chatting
and they were laughing and giggling now
they might not have been looking in my
direction but i remember getting off
that bus i think i got off the bus stop
all too early
and i hurried home and i
thought about it for a while i found the
hairdresser and told her that i wasn't
happy i spoke to my boyfriend
told him that i wasn't happy and then i
made the decision to take out that weed
take out that big money weave
cut it out on my head and i went to work
with a scarf on because
my hair was in no condition to go to
work listen i was so embarrassed
i i really felt that everyone could tell
that i was wearing this furry hat
basically it just didn't suit me you
know i had a i had a young face when i
was really young
and i had this big old big woman's weave
on it was like a big 40 year old woman's
weave one it wasn't no
young hairstyle and it just did not suit
me
at all i don't know how that hair just
let me walk out there with that hair
and i just wasted my money basically so
i used to care what people think
i remember caring deeply about what
people think
i remember it affecting my day
my life i remember affecting my actions
i remember it wasting me money
but the turning point came when i i
started practicing buddhism i started
chanting
i remember feeling the benefits of it i
remember remembering all the dreams i
used to have
about what i could do with my life
becoming a millionaire i would never
say out loud even back then but i
remember the feelings resurging
that anything was possible and it took
me three years to commit to buddhism
because i was so worried about what
people would think i'm a black girl
what am i doing practicing buddhism you
know people are going to think that oh
look at her she thinks that she
what what what are people gonna think i
don't know i made up all sorts of
stories about what i thought people were
gonna think if i was practicing buddhism
i don't even know what they are but i
remember after three years
of trying it testing it trying it again
testing it
trying it putting it down coming back to
it and it never failed every time i
chanted
those feelings with research that i
would have and be able to
do amazing things with my life and i
liked
feeling like that and i enjoy feeling
like that and eventually
i got comfortable feeling like that and
when i didn't chant
i wasn't enjoying the fact that i wasn't
inspired to do amazing things
anyway long story short i realized
this thing works for me it really worked
for me and
there's no way that i can not do it
because i'm so worried about what people
think or what people are thinking or
what they thought
so i said to myself you know what i have
to do it every time i chant
i remember that anything is possible and
i remember that i can do
anything i want why would i remove
myself from that
because i'm worried about what people
think
that that was the turning point i said
you know what i'm going to do what feels
good to me
i'm not going to give a shit about
anyone else
but even more recently building upon
that feeling
the reason why i now don't care about
what anyone
thinks is because i understand that the
only person that is important
is me the only person that i have to
deal with
in my day with my thoughts is me
i do not care what anyone else thinks
because
nobody else has to live my life nobody
else has to wake up with me
nobody else has to go to bed with me
nobody else has to convince me to do
xyz in each moment it's all me
so i can't be preempting and worrying
about what other people are thinking of
me
and trying to adjust my behavior based
on what they may or may not
want me to do it's just not going to
happen
but then lastly another reason why i
don't
care what other people think is because
i don't judge other people now as a
result of practicing buddhism as a
as a result of monitoring my thoughts as
a result of letting go of negativity
i now don't judge other people so
when those two girls were whispering and
laughing at me on the bus
i probably recalled the time when i used
to be with my friend and we used to
giggle and laugh at people
and i remember that we used to act like
that
so i felt that they were judging me
because i remember that i used to judge
people
back when i was 19. but now i don't
judge people
if i see someone doing something off
acting a bit mad acting a bit off-key
the most i'll say is hmm i wonder what
they're going through i wonder if
they're okay
i wonder if anyone's supporting them
that's the most i will think about it i
might be like
that was a bit left but i won't make a
judgment about them
i won't say who are they to be did i
won't
have a mini argument with myself or with
them in my mind
i won't kick off if someone's acting a
bit weird to me and i'm out on the
street
i don't kick off i remember one guy who
was driving i was crossing
a zebra crossing and he wasn't paying
attention he must have been on his phone
or something
and he almost knocked me over and the
most that came out of my mouth was
open your eyes be careful if that was me
10 years ago i would have been whatever
i wouldn't be up yeah
i don't do that anymore because i know
that people got lives
and things are busy and hard you know
who knows what he was go what text he
was dealing with
and i didn't die i didn't get knocked
over the crisis averted you know what i
mean
so there's no need to kick off and waste
all that energy so i don't i don't judge
people
and because i don't judge people i don't
feel that people are judging me
i know if something's doing xyz
so-and-so must have a good reason for
why they're doing it
or they must have experienced a lot of
heartache in their life why they're
doing that or they might have
gone through something especially that's
caused them to do that or that might be
exactly what they need
to learn what they need to learn so that
they don't do that anymore
i don't judge people anymore and i don't
expect people that are judging me
and that's why i don't care what anyone
thinks because i'm the only person i've
got to live with
i'm the only person i've got answer to
and i'm the only one that i have to care
about
and in my brain i love myself i
absolutely
love everything about me so even when i
do hear people commenting like
yesterday i heard people she's on a bike
wearing heels
i heard that so many times yesterday i
didn't even look back
number one that might be a compliment
just misplaced
number two you might just be thinking to
yourself i wish i could do that why
would i get upset about the fact that
you're commenting about me
to your friends it's none of my business
i made my choices i know why i made my
choices and i'm happy with the choices
i've made
that's my life i'll do what makes me
happy
that's the only person and the only
thing i have to worry about
so i don't care what anyone thinks
because as far as i'm concerned
everyone loves me as much as i love me
love you
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um i believe it's possible why not and
you know what it's just fun
that's all i can say i believe it's
possible and i know if i keep walking
down this road
i will get there but if i don't get
there
all i can say is it's fun it is
fun doing this it's what i've been
looking for i've always been wanting to
know
how to fill that void and i've realized
the way to fill that void
is to go for your dreams and in going
for my dreams every single step i take
has purpose and meaning and it's fucking
fun
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