

Love Entanglement

Published by Jean-Nichol Dufour at Smashwords

Copyright 2011-2018 Jean-Nichol Dufour

Sunrise edition

TABLE OF CONTENT

DREAMS OF WOMEN

6-LOVE ENTANGLEMENT

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First things first

This is part 3 of a suite forming the book "A Flower To Life". I decided to make it available that way because it is too long or too big for most book sites on the net. I will eventually try to publish as paperback, again, but for now it seems it's not the style literary agents want to see, it's too long, too big, very bad english, not fitting their free market or what they like to read; I never got a criticism about content. In fact, after trying for a year I'm sure nobody in the publishing industry ever read it. Now that you know how bad it is since connoisseurs judged it so while complaining they get nothing special to read, I'll talk about the killing point; I want free digital copies available to anybody, and that is impossible, even if I let the publisher have all the profits they can manage to gain from selling it as paperback (and digital too). So I separated the book as a suite for free distribution on Smashwords, and nobody except me touches the text. I know literary agents are a bit right about my "very bad english", but it's part of their job to see potential and help, not push people to self-publishing, which it's sure not something I can afford. For now I don't take it too badly since my work is about starting a new reality from scratch, so I must cover a vast range of hard philosophical, spiritual, personal, psychological, political and fundamental universal matrix subjects, and gaining all round competence with all that will require lots of time and quite a few updates to get right, particularly with the casual style I have chosen. While some, I wonder who, will argue about my style, I believe I have chosen the fastest and best route to get my arguments read by a maximum of people, I want my work as the adventure of revolted person fighting hell in a realist way. As for the why I want an independent source free, it is because I know this will be a unique and rare artefact, and I don't want anybody to take control of it after I'm dead. I want a place where my profile and my work can remain available after my death in its integrity of form, even if a transfer of platform becomes necessary. I accept that people make any variation of it if it's not for bad intents or self-interests, but the original must remain integral. And one last thing, up to the flower edition, I swear upon all the entities I believe in that all my work is free of external influence that I know of (maybe except gods); it is all the invention, imagination and deductions of someone who was curious and interested in science when young, had to deal with religious resentment, did a bit of military, learned a bit of technology, discovered his inadequacy, got himself a spirituality, and finally a nice mentality, after losing all sociability.... All that has arisen from forming my opinions as I experienced reality and kept a general interest on everything, easily available to anybody, but TV, and I still manage not to read the bible, nothing on the mind, no book on psychology or philosophy in my library that don't exist, in my home that don't exist, and internet searches may be limited to a few details.

WOMEN

I met her in a dream where I visited a strange poor area in a vast city. The first time I went there I got lost and walked for days, always following the directions from people who sent me in all kind of places that lead to troubles before I finally ended up in a poor area with houses made out of garbage spread out in a big park for children in a street where no cars are passing. It is a gray, burning sunset, and a cataclysmic view, I meet her there but I know we are together from long ago as I'm not happy about the turn of events for us. We will have to make do with a garbage house, and that first dream is a struggle along with her to pass the winter in there, (we'll sleep enlaced in a bathtub for comfort).

In another dream I am in a cheap apartment in the same place, I can see it from my balcony. I won't see the girl but I know she is there in the adjacent apartment. I pass this dream preparing to move out and I do it by giving maximum troubles to the proprietor until he leaves me alone. When I finally get out, I see greenery for the first time in the place and there is a sign of life too in one of the garbage house as some gypsy family is starting a business. I turn around and see people in the apartment building and cars entering the parking lot. I feel the building is mine now, I know I can enter it and go anywhere I wish, and everybody will be very happy to receive me.

Next dream I pass the area in a car when I suddenly pop on a bench beside a super girl in front of a school. I know her from other dreams by my easygoing attitude toward her. She has changed her appearance but I know that not only she is my love but that she is love and it is my place to be with her. We are together on that bench for some moment before we both decide we have work to do. For now seems I have to walk around the place and see how it has changed, there are still a few garbage houses but the main and biggest new feature is the school. There are only two benches around the school, at one side of it, near the front entrance is the bench of my love, and at the other side, near the back entrance, there is my bench. I sit down a moment on mine, and watch kids and ado get out of school for home while darkness begins and rain starts falling. I go back to my love and observe her writing in a book while a girl talks to her; I leave them alone and come back later. When I come back I see she is sleeping under the rain while there is another girl talking to her anyway. When the girl is gone, I get near and take her book while she is still sleeping. I get away on my bench and open it to realize that every page is the story recorded like a movie of a girl. I go back to my love as she is waking up, I show her the last story of the book which she hadn't noticed. I explain to her that she was sleeping while it got recorded. She smiles while a big man suddenly pops on the bench. Upon seeing my love, he suddenly fall on his knees and start crying, she shows him the last story which bursts out of the book in 3D Technicolor as the morphing body and face of the girl; the mouth becomes a little hole, the eyes contorted, the legs become baby legs and it goes on until she is an horror. Then the man disappears and I wake up.

There are other girls I meet once in a while in dreams, we say hi and carry on with our seemingly super important tasks; it's hilarious, and it's weird, and it's the who sometimes that we chose to represent something that is supposed to be important but our mind just don't get it and shoot something surprising that you cannot undream, just for fun, and while we're at it go back to sleep...

Some girls have their own types of dreams and place like this one where a vast glass building, which is the home of some kind of organization, is one of the common thing attaching a couple of dreams together. I don't necessarily start there but I seem to be the boss of it (the organization). Yet, I leave the "boss" position to someone else who doesn't know, nobody knows. We are parts of some kind of unit dressed in black that do lone missions. They are action missions but I never go through them (or I don't remember),I just see an image of myself running with a gun in a dark alley, then another one while entering through a window etc, until I get back to the glass building, and somewhere around that moment I meet her. She seems to be my feminine counterpart and she has an almost extravagant look with her orange hairs, everybody respects her in awe but steer clear, she's always smiling and everybody do the same but there is a three meter aura around her that nobody seems to enter. Absolutely all eyes are fixed on her when she enters my dreams, I'm always in a clear and spacious area, my dream vision switches to her while I still don't know she's coming, I watch her never use her hands to open doors, they just open. One time she came to stand beside me until I woke up, but the last time she came straight at me to ask my name, I told her and asked hers, she told me and we both looked at each other uneasily before separating. I just have the time to watch the flabbergasted look on the people face as to what just happened, like it's a miracle.

I have regulars who are more interested in sex too, in other kind of dreams, but I should not describe those, don't you think? But why should I care? And anyway, only a fool would skip doing it today...But too bad, and yes I'll talk about sex, but definitively not to boast, or to sell, or to be in, or to show how open I am, or to make it banal, you know banal people. We should have a moment of silence for all the victims of banalities, it's just there, waiting to infest everything, it transform great things to junk or a fragile piece of art. Me I'm a bit banal just because I can, or is it because I have a banal non banal banality projector, I seems to be banal but I'm not, you see the non-banality by seeing the banal, and there is no hint, no artifice. No but it works, let's see your position now. One thing I've always been curious about though, I think it is natural to make erotic dreams, so do they make gay sex dreams? Like French kissing other men, and doing sex moves? That's what they have to deal with? Because it wouldn't work for me.

There is this place I just recently visited a second time, I arrive there as darkness falls, it's a jetty leading to the ocean, there are some shops to my left and a big glass restaurant to my right. The first time I entered the restaurant, I had a meal served by a beautiful shorter auburn haired woman and it was love at first sight. But we didn't exchange a single word, I ate, got out, everything is shut down, nobody anywhere anymore and I ended up in a vague, because I don't remember well, sneaking competition of killing in the dark with enemies I couldn't see; bombs made craters in the ground, things got destroyed, and I don't remember how it ended except that I walked freely in the place. In the second dream the place have changed, I get there while darkness falls again, the restaurant is still there, exactly the same, with the jetty made of exactly the same bricks ("z" bricks), but it is enclosed in city structures with high stairs and corners and flashing signs overhead, like the jetty is in a bubble entering a million years old city, very strange and high tech dirty. I enter the restaurant and there she is; the same. She gives me 3 white credit cards and I follow her to the cash register while her friend workers are all looking at me like I'm straight out of a dream. I give her back a card, she inserts it and ask my number, I give a letter while she whispers me the rest. Everybody notices it but they don't say a word. She gives me back the card and I get out of the restaurant walking fast. Once I reach a dark stairway to get lost in the city I start running. But turning around, still seeing the restaurant, I see the woman is running unbelievably fast to reach me, I wait for her and she jump in my arms, we embrace and kiss each other hard and crazily, I point to a place where I'm going, and she asks me "why are you doing all this?" I don't know what she's talking about but I answer "Because I have all rights". She takes the lead jumping and dancing in happiness overload.

I still make those 3 letter dreams, and following the "logic" of my funky explanation, it would mean I'm doing things right. It means it would be related to my crazy destiny dream too, but I'll write about that one at the start of the next chapter. It may be possible that the city is the city of the lake, there is that same "my place" feel to it. There could be a constant attaching most of my dreams together, like a key, or maybe I'm building a realm, it may be possible that each person got a dream net of some kind, a dream net in 3D, or a "matrix" of dreams, where all kind of forces, and emotions, and mind skills, and imagination create a realm of dreams that get some facets, developments or deductions, or memory of old mental momentum, transmitted through reproduction as dream form potential which would be the sphere where your destiny would be expressed best. That's far fetched, but the more dead center in the net you are, the nearest to your best. I say that because I think the constant is size, your view emphasis plays a big role in the limitations of dreams. But that's the top far I can go in dream possibilities for now. As for women, I met maybe a dozen very different ones I fell in love with in my dreams, not necessarily having sex, but I can tell you they really make my day, their presence intensifies, reveals, colors. And I can tell you that if I die to fall in some life equivalence to the reality related dreams I'm making, then I got my "heaven". Here are a few other ones I made more recently.

There is this other place I sometimes dream about, it is a town, the remains of an ex-vast city, there is a feel of old size to it, like an immortal soul, like the city survived a cataclysm to lose 9/10 its size, it is foggy and dark, in spirit too, I often meet old friends there, and lately I met a half black woman (half, like separated in two). We almost had sex from the beginning, but we took a stroll half nude instead, like Tarzan, and I visited a strange area I never saw in the city before, a place with almost permanent fog and abandoned homes everywhere. I went there to be explained that it was the site of a toxic accident and that the place was very long to heal. I looked around a bit, dug a few shovelful of dirt, almost had sex with the woman again, and maybe I did as I had to make another type of underwear with a piece of cloth, white this one. Then we are on our way to a school for old people, and I noticed something missing in there, color; the school is white all over. Then we are on our way again, to one of her black friend. I notice I have green underwear now. The guy is really strange and scary at first, and I'm supposed to get a treasure from him, by passing some test. We're sitting on the ground in front of each other, he's trying to approach my face but instead accidently strikes his forehead on a bramble sticking out from the ground beside me, drawing blood. He then takes a bramble from behind him and gives it to me, I plant it on my forehead but it breaks there without drawing blood. Then he turns around and gives me a long white tube, I take it and inside is a wooden banister full of engraved graffiti, he tells me the name of a teacher I had in youth (I remembered her name in my dream, but not upon waking up, strange), and that it comes from her, and I understand I must go back to the school I visited and replace the white banister there with this one. But my woman is tired so she wants to stay here, she gives me the keys of her luxury rose car but she understand it's been a very long time since I drove, so she points me to a gardener outside who can help me with that. The gardener has a quite strange way to grow his stuff, as I wake-up in front of his stash of seeds which are all dried things cut in 4 on the length side, a bag of dried carrots sliced in 4, dried flowers sliced in 4 etc.

There is a complex university I sometimes dream about too, and a hospital, and a castle too, but in that place (the castle), I always end up behaving badly with women. There seems to be quite a few Queens in there, I never meet the same one, sometimes two, and I always refuse to deal with them; I ignore them or don't shake their hand. I'm living there lately, and I'm inventing counter gravity. I think my first invention saved the world or something, but I mainly remember the fun I had building a 10 wheeler that jumped on its wheels always higher before almost flying away...I was experimenting with that while playing all kind of tricks on people around the castle, since everybody is too straight to my tastes (dangerous tricks where people die...), when I met a very beautiful Queen, with a crown and all. I was strolling about in the vast golden courtroom, and she called me from her throne which is on the west side of the place and facing a wall and a chair, there are other people on chairs some distance away too. I sit in front of her, totally flabbergasted by her beauty, and she tells me something to the effect that I don't read. I answer that I read every night, she answer that it's true, she say I only read crap books, I answer that she don't make the good ones available, she answer that it's true, she tell me some kind of insult I don't remember and I jump on her, squeeze her mouth, to tell her that if she continues I'll kill her. She runs away losing some jewelry, they're strange golden pearls, I take one breaking it between my fingers, the inside is white, but the gold is incrusted in the pearl so you cannot scratch it, I don't know why but it makes me very emotive, there are more of different size laying around where people are seated, they are looking at me while I collect them all, I put them in my pocket and I wake up.

Remember that woman dream I already wrote about? I met that woman again recently, I did not recognize her until the end of the dream though, I just fell in love with her all over again. It's been a long road under the sun and I somehow ended up entering a school class full of young ado. I didn't sit down at a desk, but on an elevated long counter in front of the windows at the back of the class; I waited and she entered, older, a bit taller but always as beautiful in all her ways. She came to me, climbed and sat with me, gave me some humoristic piece of paper from her pad, we passed some uneasy time there and she went away to bring back a language dictionary with pieces of paper sticking out. She gave it to me, and when I finally looked into her eyes, she backed up a little and pointed under my butt almost laughing, I didn't understand right away, but it was one of her magic trick; there was a piece of paper with drawings of some cute animals; it meant to go in the bathroom. I jumped on my feet and loudly said to the class "I love your teacher!" and from total silence it went to total crazy happiness like everybody wanted to talk to me at the same time, I turned around to face her and asked "what do you want me to do now?" I recognized her as she pointed at the piece of paper (go meet me in the bathroom), and I woke up.

There is this military shipyard place I dreamt about 3 times too, I'm usually working on a super frigate and there's always a nuclear submarine around, but I don't remember well. The last dream took place in a lake, a gigantic submarine was accosted to another docked ship, and the frigate was accosted to the other side of the submarine. I don't know what happened, but I know the submarine saved the other ship. But something was critically wrong and I had to take a quick decision about the submarine, I debarked on ite walked a little to and fro on it without entering it, then went back to the frigate and said "yes" as a decision. Then both the frigate and the submarine were in the middle of the lake and accelerating in synch while I was standing at the prow of the frigate, absorbed and concentrating on the prow of the submarine which was slowly lifting as both ships were accelerating tremendously fast, then I saw the end of the lake coming, the river was but a few meters deep and the hole in the forest was not large enough, but when we reached that point, the submarine was almost flying and we both zipped through the canal destroying some trees along the way, then we reached the ocean and the military base. There I continued dreaming of fooling around, visiting the place, doing deep diving through corals and colorful fishes. I eventually met the captain of the submarine who was not happy to see me; he complained that the engine of the submarine had lost 1/3 its power, I didn't seem to care. A little later I took a walk around, and sitting at the far end of the dock were 3 women. I sat beside the one with a sad look and took her hand in mine. All of a sudden, the captain of the sub appeared and pushed me aside to take her beside himself; I said, "Relax, I'm sorry" and I sat back. The 2 other women sat in front of us and said in unison, "she loves you" pointing at me (A hole in time here). Then I entered some kind of hospital and I saw her on a bed with a priest trying to make an exorcism on her. When he saw me, he jumped on her and I jumped on both trying to separate them. While doing so I removed the arms of the priest, they were attached together like an independent patent, so no blood, then I grabbed the priest by the leg and bashed his head a few times on the leg of the bed until I heard a loud crack, then I told him he was lucky I was not in the mood to kill and I threw him outside (A hole in time here). I went to visit the woman at the hospital again and I met her 2 friends there, they told me the priest was outside the door the whole night reciting stuff; I suddenly had a shotgun in my hands, but I woke up.

I met another one, that one was young and a little fat, living with some people. Her boyfriend somehow died, and I popped in her bed, what can I say. She wanted to have sex but I did not, she went away a little and came back dressed to go out. She waited after me but I was studying her from head to toe and all along I was impressed because I felt she would become a wonderful woman, and I was ready for it. She asked for me without a word, it seemed clear to her that I should be with her and I slowly got out of bed, but I woke up.

Another one is Japanese, I think, ballet dancer or something. I'm in a cemetery, it is dark and I suddenly spot her on top of a tombstone. She's dressed in a yellow robe, I approach but she jumps graciously on another tombstone, so I jump on the first stone, she jumps on another one, tip, toe, this goes on a few times as the difficulty increases, until I hit a stone that poses a real challenge. After some hesitation I somehow half jump half walk to the stone; for a moment my legs extended magically and I ended-up on the other stone at a ridiculous angle defying gravity, but I manage to gain back equilibrium. That totally lacked grace, to say the least, and the last part looked like cheating. I notice there is a old man with a beard watching me closely, and he says "interesting!"...next stone is as far away but this time I do a true jump, landing on it but almost loosing equilibrium, which I gain back with a strange yoga move. Next one is impossible, it is clearly evident I can't do it, but after some time I go for it and do a double flip in the air to land straight on it like a pro. The girl is waiting on the next stone not far away which is large like a table, and she got her small foot on a small rock protrusion in the middle of it, I jump and gently land my foot exactly on hers, unleashing an explosion of laugher everywhere, as there are thousands of people watching us now. We jump down under heavy applauding and I wake-up.

Next one is a special day at school where we only play games, but all men must remove their shirt. I enter and after some strolling around conclude that there are only boring card and dice games. People match themselves and play but I sit down alone in front of some dices doing nothing. I finally decide to get out only to see that the door is locked, but there is another one at the back of the class, unlocked, and leading to a parking lot where there is something like 10 desks with computers to play games. I sit down at the far right one while others join and start playing. But I'm not happy as my screen is defective and I'll have to do with a small 2cm screen on a device looking like a Kodak. The image is blurred at it so I refuse to play, but the teacher arrives and says he's sorry, he takes the scrap away, and gets the normal screen to work. But I still don't want to play because they are old Nintendo games. A minivan enters the parking lot, park right in front of my desk, bumping my screen which explodes on the floor (they are old screen). Nobody seems to notice the incident as they are slowly quitting for the main building; it's probably the end of the class. I'm last and about halfway there when a woman shouts for help, nobody cares except me, and I'm met with a strikingly beautiful, black haired woman. She lost a 2 liter of modeling paste in the previous incident, it probably rolled away when she opened the door of the minivan. I go ask my fellow students to help me find it but they don't care. So I go back to help her alone, she is with a tall man but that man does nothing and responds to nothing; he acts lobotomized. After some time we find her modeling paste which she gives to the man who looks way too happy about it. She invites me to sit with her in the minivan to talk, I do, and there she tells me she got a secret which is that she is still a virgin at 24 and that she believes in the story where a virgin meet a virgin and fall in love for life. I tell her I got a secret too and that it is that I haven't touched a woman in a very long time, like I'm interested. Then I go on with an explanation on why she had to drop her view, and why I may be the better option (I won't write about this as the dream is old and it would feel inadequate, but remember that there is no concept or speech beyond a guy that can make text speeches in his dreams, but I'll talk about the philosophy of that speech a little later.)

There is that tall blond woman I keep on meeting too, I'm always very occupied doing stupid looking but very important seeming things. I always end-up meeting her at a restaurant table telling her I'm too occupied. The last time she wanted to show me photographs, I took the first few ones before telling her I was too occupied, but I noticed she left her name and phone number behind one. Once alone, I said thanks looking at it while being sorry for my attitude, thinking that I would call her and pass some time with her, then I woke up.

This one starts me in a car with friends trying to find little fruits. I'm driving the car in a place I've been in another dream and I suddenly stop at a steep rising slope of sand; there are rows of fruit trees of all kind there, all mixed from ground level to small tree height, it's like bush rows upon bush rows of fruits growing under the sun on desert sand and climbing the slope to infinity. I fill my bucket with a few strawberries and blueberries as big as a fist. The bigger fruits are not ripe, except for a single strange one growing among pears, it got the form of a small white heart with the texture of a marshmallow, I collect it and I'm calling my friends to come, but they're on the side of the road collecting dusty little fruits, frustrated I stopped them there; they don't see what I'm seeing, or they don't want to see since they can't miss it, they're almost in it. So I go show them what I collected and lead them almost to touch their face with the fruits rows. Some of them start collecting but then I get complaints that the pears are not ripe, so I go show them a tree that got big ripe pears, almost brown, but they still say they are not, but I don't care anymore. I leave to explore a little and find half a gigantic pear on a kind of pedestal hidden within the bush, it even got a sticker on it, I remove it and eat the half pear. Suddenly I'm in a strange small room with bookcases all around and a desk full of drawers, there are books and paper everywhere, and I'm rummaging through the stuff in a quest to find something interesting. I find tweezers in a small transparent box, and upon touching them I get a flashback of a woman, but I seem to know she is dead. I continue trying to find something valuable while I hear my friends shouting that they're done collecting fruits, then I'm in a kind of panic digging through piles of papers and books until I open a small drawer full of postcards in their envelope, I quickly go through them like I'm seeking a page in a book until I find a sealed one that got nothing on it, I carefully open it very slowly, open the card inside, and all there is written is a big "I LOVE YOU", I pass my hand over the letters.

THE SHELLING PART 6

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LOVE ENTANGLEMENT

Did you read my previous chapter about the mind? I hope so because this one will plunge you deeper. Everybody likes to have a vision of love that probably justifies the sexual path they have taken in life, that's why the stance I take, which is the most difficult, will probably be a little frustrating for some, particularly knowing the importance I give love, so understanding how I see the mind can help. This is a fight for true love, you understand that? A fight! For true love! You know fights are not peaceful nice things don't you? And it is written by a young man, as always, I don't want old people who passed their life adapting to this reality to read anything of what I write, but I already said that, I write as a young person for young people. I'm looking 10 years younger, why do you think? I don't have an ego life, I don't run after stuff, I don't have a facelift, I don't wear make-up, I haven't had sex in more than 10 years, but I'm still more serious than anybody in what I stand for, so what's wrong? I'll be 50 and I'll still be young, it's in the mental, and why should my mental not be the default one? It could be...

This chapter will probably be the only real battle for true love that will come to exist, or the last one, or both. Will you write for true love too? I confess that I don't read harlequins, there's all kind of weird falling in love on TV lately too, but it always feels so far away. What side are you on? Do you think it's important? What percentage? Can you tolerate the gore? Sex is the most important thing to most people, and everybody thinks he's got the good view of love, often to justify their experiences or attitudes, whatever these can be. It is a sensitive subject but I will still explain a lot of what is a handicap to love, what's wrong with most other views. For now I'll just say it's traditional but different while being entirely logic, think about it, it's different, and it's logic, and it's a tradition, that should work! I doubt many readers will go to the end of this chapter, we're talking the elite of love, Jesus love is considered inappropriate here too. They'll say I'm sexist while it is not true, they'll say I'm against sex while it is not the case, they'll say my vision of love is retarded while it is idealistic, they'll say I'm violent because I'll be harsh with other views that monopolize the subject, they'll say I'm homophobic while I'm just exposing omitted factors, etc.

The first thing I remember of my life is a chocolate dream; I opened an empty old fridge and in the butter compartment was a half melted chocolate bar in a blue and white half opened wrapping. I stayed there not touching it until I woke up. I would never forget the image from my old dream, and as I gained consciousness of chocolate later in my life, I was never able to understand where I took that dream. Then I would ask myself why didn't I eat it like any child would do in its right mind. Still later in my life I would see all this publicity about chocolate being associated to sex like it's an aphrodisiac or a replacement for sex or whatever, and I would develop a pub war about it. As time advanced, the pub pressure, like any pressure, got the contrary effect in me, it revolted me and I stopped eating it. In my mind I came to associate the thing more to something brown and negative, tasting sugar, than anything else. The pressure increased, scientists got involved to find the positive property, and I dumped television, for more than that, evidently.

Pub made shit out of chocolate for me, I decided to never eat chocolate again; I don't eat shit, I don't eat chocolate, pub crackpots, I'll make stupid associations too! And I very well know that I'm the only victim of these battles, someone got to train I could say...As to the result of the training; you're reading it. So when I went to any kind of store selling food, and looked at their big display of chocolate, I saw wrappings, all kind of cute wrappings; little pub bars of shit. I absolutely know it isn't, it is food, it's just a chocolate story, and I prefer to define my reality than being defined by her. Particularly if feel that the reality take me for a fucking moron, or a robot with guaranteed reactions. There are people you wouldn't worry seeing them grab their chapelets and recite a rosary on the fly, it's the ancestor of the cell phone for some, but me it means something terrible is about to happen to the chapelet!! Ah, religious ceremonies, if he knew how much I change the messages of his prayers for something more satisfactory; some people react like that, they fight, they defend, they parry, they test, and it can take many forms and most end-up worse than wasted. I could have gone nuts about beer pub instead, little pub bottles of piss, but in the end I revolted against invading pub everywhere under all forms, chocolate was only fooling around, I knew it was not an aphrodisiac. It's just the principles that you must understand; public television is an horror to me because of pub and soaps full of PMBBD, and I can't accept to pay to remove pub, the default is supposed to be no pub, but we're in a free (Capitalistic) country... In fact, in my wrong mind, I believe we should be paid by publicists for watching enforced pub, we should be paid the wasted time in our life, for harassment through repetition, and for their brainwash and twisting of everything. I would say they owe me around a million bucks, just for my life and the little I've had of them everywhere, and I could ask the same of religions too, and singers... Bring me the money and I'll watch your next pub, or recite your prayer. And Google is lucky I didn't plug its internet full of pub (the cake was ready and now it's patching the pyramid time, compete, make it indestructible, eternal). I don't want to pay a cent to remove pub, and my mentality may have taken an irreversible path, I'll see about that later.

For years I made a funny bad trip about it, even making "chocolate can give you an orgasm" graffiti, I laughed, but many things become insignificant when view and time expand. One day I decided it was enough and I reconciled with chocolate. There are difficult moments like that where I have enough and sometimes I just believe it. I almost dumped my quest for this book a few times you know, and I'm not done, there are accidents that are critically hard on motivation too. But it's hard to know the best time to let go or choose fights or increase feeling of normality. Sometimes people walk a very thin line between success and failure, and failures sometime lead to the greatest successes... I believe in myself to some variable extent, but I don't much believe it will give a positive effect on this reality, so I'm sometimes torn between continuing or abandoning (goals or responsibilities), I don't much believe this will be a great success, present people would vastly prefer that I write sex, sorry "erotism" (A book or movie that got as a title "fuck me" is not about erotism...), but that's how things presently are, and the selection is final, particularly since women, who were supposed to do thing so differently, just embarked in the sex and ego competition and encouraged the best system's every twists with all their strength, like it was made for them, they adapted to this reality perfectly, so well in fact that today they are the ones encouraging the banalization of sexuality and exploiting love the most, including singers and the mountain of sex "erotism" books selling everywhere, and they want big profits, and you can bet they try to stuff the youth with their great vision of love.

What makes things worse is that I sometimes hit condemnations that tell me it is not worth the trouble, and working with a feeling of wasting one's life is not very encouraging, writing can take many years; expressing myself with a gun is infinitively more efficient in this reality, whatever some will say violence accomplishes nothing, the truth is that spending your life to grow a mind and write about your problems will accomplish nothing, worse if it's the system. What I did will probably be wasted, or exploited to grow more profiteers and better manipulators; I'm not an imbecile, this reality is condemned over and out. So even if people take what I wrote seriously, you still have to deal with a cumulated old momentum; it's hard to turn around a multi thousand years super indoctrination and selection, in a system grown to invincibility from billions of people with a dream all walking in the same direction while thinking themselves normal or good or modern, or not taking shit from nobody (only bullshit). A slow turn can be somewhat comfortable, a drastic turn not, a sudden stop can kill, think of a rebound back! We'll have to better define who does what in which order because the powerfully knowledgeable and expensive people we put in civilization survival critical positions, drove humanity to a precipice, in illuminated blindness, or just to show they have the skills to drive, or knowingly.

I'm sure there is a scientist that can justify this reality's associations of chocolate to sex, there must be an historic figure somewhere, or with a good slab of money (grant for research), why make a fixation? I eventually decided most publicity was no credibility PMBBD, and the rare adequacy is not worth the overwhelming mountain of crap. Today I can't believe chocolate has a single good property, except taste, and many candies taste as good. And I don't care scientists found the positive propriety, almost everything have one, I won't eat shit because it has a positive property whatever the pub campaign (tested on rats for the scientific methodology, or maybe they'll take the insect that eat shit and compare it to humans, because, you know, humans are animals they say, and insects should be too! Why not? Even microbes! What's a skeleton got to change in this? Just ask people (scientists among many) who compare themselves to animals what's having a mind got to change in this!). Maybe I'm a little hard on them scientists, making anthrax and all, but it's easy to carry the title of scientist when all you have to do is grab at something living and discover a property, and when that's done, why not start a selection for profits?

I tried different kind of chocolates, put some on my belly (probably never, that's what I forgot to do...) and I tried telling myself how good it was for some placebo effect, but no, all that chocolate is good to make an overdose of sugar though, which may be what scientists want to confound with sexual excitation... It tastes good, I upped the ante by buying black pure cacao and made thick hot chocolate with it, delicious, but no, and it's not the question of opening my mind to sexual pleasures from chocolate, no, it's more I don't care, I do what I do while drinking chocolate, but it doesn't work no magic, and I'm sure this applies to any food publicists want to associate to sex to get pub susceptible people to buy their products and provoke a little, and banalise? What's that? A concept they omit to mention at publicist school...All I found is that hot chocolate tastes good and it have somewhat the same effect as coffee, maybe you can easily attach a placebo (hardly) effect to it too. If I don't drink it for some time, I may get the same kind of headaches as coffee, just nagging for the whole day after if I don't drink another. I don't think it's dependence, some teas do the same, it's just my metabolism. I ended drinking lots of it, I wrote a big part of this chapter while drinking some, so I should write very horny stuff, love and chocolate... My recipe was simple and excellent, but nothing to do with the bunch of unknown ingredients they use to make the commercial quick hot chocolate recipe and the cost of it. But that ended with my spice drinks habit which I never end experimenting, there are a lot of cheap spices out there, even if I often hit batches that tastes transmission oil, or tire, not that I often drink transmission oil, and I decided to stop munching on tire and bullets long ago.

So, after my chocolate war ending-up in degustation where I probably ate more than I should, chocolate has become ordinary candy to me. But at the time you had women almost having orgasm out of seeing the thing (they do that with shampoo too but it's so stupid that I doubt it will stick), associated to rabbits and to valentine day, all this got the contrary effect on me; I saw little pub bars of shit everywhere I went, it's not, but is it worse than considering chocolate an aphrodisiac or a sex or an erotic thing? What's next, an ad on television that say that if I don't think it's erotic, or if I'm not sexually excited from eating it, or frustrated sexually, it's because I've got a problem in the head and I got to "consult" fast before it is too late? Everybody must "love" chocolate? Yet the pub is so successful that people have gone completely nuts over chocolate, and evidently you can't complete the show without a few women having it spread all over, or maybe that's just me that imagined this from some autosuggestion mechanism...

Next, science will tell me chocolate have big health advantages, I know, like almost everything comestible, it has little advantages, and little disadvantages, that's how life know things; it doesn't enforce a pure 99% thing all over the world because it have a positive propriety. So stop the bullshit and the pressure from finding an expanding source of profit you can encourage. Eat a tomato for some proven scientifically health benefits, then drink a coffee for more proven scientifically health benefits...Why aren't we living 1000 years eating all those benefits? I'll eat random nature production and I'll get as much benefits! Your benefits mania is better start having an effect, and not only on some rich, because I'm beginning to feel abnormal for not taking it all in while still feeling completely overclocked both in mind and body...And we take this research like truth to the point that at the first media affirmation or scientific study affirmation that a molecule has a positive effect industrials are out there creating a selection to grow it all over the world, destroying the more equilibrated product made by the work of nature in the way of their industries or plantations, in all its diversity, tested by life, for thousands of years.

For now, since we wouldn't survive the truth of ourselves, there is always an evil in line to feed us the illusion that evil is minimized and good is overwhelming, that way good people can continue to work for an evil reality, illusion, manipulation, television, news.

If you're intro the banalization of sexuality or a fuck all free for all member, if love is a word that means strong liking to you, if sex is entertainment or a deal to you, then you may be better not reading this chapter. Even if I'll still talk my mind adequately enough, it won't be all pretty because I'll be defending the truth of love, not the hype or PMBBD of love.

People who don't care about love through adulthood never learn it, or very rarely, they learn to have sex and manipulate, and it's a waste of time to try to change that, you'll be lucky they make the difference between love and affection, and you can bet it's what they give their children; "love"... Next, without talking reality's ways, I'll say that all those who had sex with more than a dozen different partners don't know love, or don't care about it. Or is it two dozen? Two dozen then? A dozen, or is it two? At what point do you lose track of whom you fucked with so much you care? I would say around a dozen, I'll set the limit because nobody will do it and a definition of something is made of limitation (like marriage), so if I want to define the truth of love while getting those that are after sex out of the way, then I'll have to set the limitations of the definition (set the limitations, don't let evil manipulators do it, they'll smear it with emotional bullshit to get advantaged). Ah, sex is not love, no connection, all those who dissociate sex from love, like priests, don't know love.

Now, I think most good intentioned people want love, the problem is the reality that will destroy love potential in many young people by seeing them as human resources, as a competition ground to profit from their growth to direct their sexuality by the structuring of learning institutions, often directly filling their head with philosophies that send them irreversibly on a life or love degenerating track. You can makes them ignorant, or not caring, you can push them to prostitution, or inadequacy, or self-esteem problems, or drugs, or even births before their time. People want and need love, they want to feel special to someone, and you sure don't get that by making them feel worthless or stupid because they don't fit your psychological standard (applies to me, not always succeed...). And that is particularly hard to me since I don't have a standard view of intelligence. Intelligence can be complex, it can be slow, it can hide, it can displace, it can feint. All that to say that I know people have been had or got hurt, and I don't want to add more with my fight for the ideal of love, it concern those who hurt others by their attitudes, those who don't care etc...So it's not everybody that should feel concerned, even if they fit my description, it's in big part a matter of realities.

So, why would you have sex with that many people if true love is your goal is what I mean, why don't you make a complete effort of judgment to choose a partner if true love is important to you is what I mean. Do you need a planet with billion people to find love? If so, you can't love humans truly, you can't like your opposite sexed human through time, a human is not good enough for you, only your ego "high" is important, the buzz you get when you have an orgasm, or when you "scored" your stereotype, maybe you're only capable of having sex with some caresses, or you're running after the "new" and "wow" stuff, contorting love along the way to create a massive industrial market in the back of it, that way you don't have or take the means to find love and preserve it. But that's only a few aspects here, people got to adapt to the reality, and does the reality do its best to create the situation for people to develop at their best and to make them meet appropriate partners free from pressures or profiteers?

After using your judgment to choose a partner in an optic of love around a dozen times, it means that your vision is either wrong, or you failed to understand it, or you don't have the qualities for it, or the reality failed you, whatever you use the word, whatever you suddenly decide it is fall in love time, whatever the arguments you find, whatever it is the reality or manipulators that pushed you to fail the definition of it, whatever the reality is crappy enough to make it a difficulty, and expensive at it, or maybe a luck thing you stumble on at a job, or a "hormonal" thing you lower your arms to after waiting for years in complex frustration. But nothing hormonal there isn't it?

Reality should systemize things around the ideal of true love, it's one of the greatest personal accomplishment that attaches 2 or more people together, but you must each carry it, and it's super touchy, highly dependent from the competence of both persons in a maximum of facets of living. And there's adequacy, we should never form inadequate couples, people are far better alone than being inadequate to their partner, and this is as much physical as mental; people must go well together understood? But there are exceptions, and that's not all for sure, I like complementarity too... It's not the quantity that makes a success, it's the quality (that applies to sperm, they say, the experts...I say a bit of both), so stop the paranoia about quantity and start fucking with quality people, and reality should permit people to gain quality without profiting from it, physical and mental quality, free; anybody who thinks the contrary don't understand life stuff right, wrong for profits probably...Why do we do things, what is our goal?

Love is something you must want and seek, and not because you're handicapped and can't fuck as easily, but because you believe in love. Your first sexual activities must be preferably done because you try to find love, you find someone interesting redundantly. Your sexual attitude defines if you can love the opposite sexed because love is all about this; proving you can live in relative happiness a long time with your contrary sexed human being, and the summum of a love victory is to do it as a family. Maybe I should repeat? The true definition of love is the capacity to be satisfied by an appropriate opposite sexed human being; and how do you know? By passing a lot of time with that person revealing the truth of both humans; the longer you are happy and satisfied by that person, the more you are proving you are capable of love, or if you prefer; you are proving you can like a human being as a whole as it develops through time in a vast majority of facets, and not only that, you are proving that you control your ego, that civilization principles mean something to you, and that you have the capacity to judge yourself well versus others.

You don't enter a scientific laboratory and mix things senseless for a fiasco and then boast to friends that you're a scientist; it is not true, you are not a scientist, you must do things in an optic of becoming one. You may have enough judgment to do everything right and become a scientist and succeed at doing valuable experiments without doing a fiasco the first time, but whatever you do, if you make a fiasco after another one for a dozen times without a success, you don't have enough scientific judgment or abilities, and no team of scientists will want you around dirtying the title, whatever you suddenly take the right attitude to succeed an experiment; your reputation is made, or it's too late, and too late is too late, if it's not too late then you were wrong.

The same applies to love, you must want it and you must take the right attitude, and part of that attitude is to see your deepest human interactions as more than just sex. What is it, you're just a bullshit? You're all big on social medias but it's all superficial, you know you'd fail the true thing, eh? Then stop boasting and taking the stage! Buzz off, get educated, or I'll kick your ass! There's nothing to you? Then you're supposed to disappear! But you don't, funny isn't it? That I feel such a minority.

In the ideal scenario of reality, using your judgment and skills trying and trying and trying, and if you failed to settle with someone, you are out of the love scenario and that's it, no paranoia about it, you're not evil for it, no jealousy, you just can't work toward an ideal of love, whatever it is luck or not, you can't preserve it. You need far more time and sex partners than true love requires, you'll reach your tomb without it in your hands the way you're going, it's like hyperactive people at school who can't keep concentration for long. And you'll not say others or me are the problem if the reality gives you every tools to find love; if you want to see it as a problem, you're the problem, I see no problem, only a limit at throwing love around like a garbage word that can mean anything, for us, love have a precise meaning, do with it, we won't align an infinity of people to fuck with you until you die in the name of love for sure, or until ugliness or lack of performance hit, using your "experience" as an evolution argument, or finding yourself an innocent to indoctrinate in caring for your ass through the twisting of every principles in PMBBD for a wisdom effect.

The same if you always try to find a justification to dump the other and start from 0 with someone else; when you seek to create the situation for love to fail, you are an enemy of love. Love don't concern people who think they should possess a perfect god either, and you'll always find someone different to have sex with, and I always think both sexes. If the condition of your love is that the woman always carries a perfect butt until she's 70, then you aint got the qualities for love, or minimal judgment. And that applies to all attitudes as well as physical attributes, nobody's perfect and nobody stays the same and nobody changes to reflect your changes; you love a human, and one selection facet of it is adequacy, so yes, someone that takes great care of his health should find love with someone with nice physical attributes too. Adequacy, well assorted couples with many exceptions...

So you enjoy others under the optic that a lasting relation is possible and then you try to preserve it, to some respectful extent (respect yourself, but understand). So I'm far from saying it's supposed to happen the first time, or that you're incompetent if it doesn't last, beginners luck is vastly overrated, except at casinos, so it's a very rare scenario, probably not the best one, in fact I'd place the ideal at around 6, in a "paradise", which would tend to coincide with its related adulthood age (around 25, in hell it's somewhere past 35).

I know talking about love like I do sounds bizarre or childish, but that's the price to pay for hyping it all over the place until it mean anything. And what about you? What is your vision? None? What do you stand for beside me? You know a lot? Show me your success! Give me a lesson on the positive of your love philosophy! Go ahead! Show life that love is worth it! You'll let me fight for my view whatever the way I sound, maybe you too will find back a bit of candor along the way, which you should consider precious, maybe you'll even start to act a little differently, that could happen! Never think you boxed intelligence. And not only that, but if you have so much better knowledge than me, then you should be capable of invalidating my vision with sound arguments, like I'll develop all along my description. Now, if my definition of love doesn't satisfy you, you should never have started reading this book. And don't twist my words, I didn't say people shouldn't have the liberty to fuck as much as they want, or that fucking anything you're criminal for it, I'm talking about true love and attitudes like pressure, like those who use love out of the "Adam and Eve" picture, these people can't be trusted and have no adequate judgment on the matter; they use it for profits and if they see somebody attractive sexually they dream of conquest immediately. No problem with it at this point, problems begin when they take the liberty to manipulate others to set their liberties, publicize their attitude to masses for their view to take over the world, compete and twist everything good because they can't tolerate a little pain to the ego. Many would need humanity's ass aligned to end up, after getting tired of "gaining experience", or feeling something is wrong with their attitude, choosing someone boasting they suddenly fell in "love". They're in a godhood power-trip defending their retards by twisting every good principle they can find around and publicizing their view all over the place and particularly young people, and I'll stop here to skip the inciting to beatings step.

Youth is where 90% of love potential is lost by watching television, or internet, or hardcore porno, or parenthood attitudes, or listening to the mountain of sex stupidities distributed by babbling pros including singers. There are a million ways to destroy love potential starting at 3 years old, you're lucky if there is still some left at adolescence, and don't twist love for affection or care or understanding or compassion or whatever.

Again, no problem if you're not trying to conquer the world, whatever your bad luck, you are not evil if you have it your way with people who like it that way too, but you do evil when you publicize or put pressure to create adepts, or destroy the good they still don't know how to cherish. Just a special love, sacred free of manipulators and profiteers, say Christ instead, yes we can do that, but that would stupidly badly work in this reality, so let's forget about it.

I want a definition of love, and I want this definition to make sense, and I want anybody that will twist this definition for profiting to be served an added shovelful on the wrong side. The farthest I can go in non-love encroachment is someone who use the verb while believing he is in the true love scenario. The definition must fulfill the conditions of the ideal. The definition is supposed to tend toward the ideal, what is the ideal of love? Realistically, personally, I would have needed a far better education system, better parenthood, and my initial instinct would have coincided well to make me fall in love around 22, which happened, and to me it was not even a question, as a non-Christian, it would be to last as long as possible, with children as a far goal. But things failed, in part because nobody was in a state to guide me or educate me adequately in these matters, and today I know the reality is just not helping, I know I would not have had the appropriate judgment before 35, so love simply can't work, I mean love is the test, and if you fail there is only life to save you, fail life and, well, you better be supper funny, or a grand exception. So it doesn't work because we're a bunch of innocents kept as such because everybody is suspect when everybody is masked, or I mean, the exit door of intelligence is its capacity to deal with this wall, evidently profiteers, manipulators and cheaters are already in the cake, so fooling the innocent is among the first steps, arrange the cake so we can as much be the innocent as we can be fooling the innocent, an innocent in the coat of an innocent that innocently do its things foolishly thinking he's innocent, but he's not! Yes he is, actually...

The simple definition of the ideal of love would begin by 2 people living a sexually involved story happily with the goal that it lasts and maybe culminate by the creation of a family. Love is the quest of reproduction for people. We're talking ideal and the culmination of the ideal, and that's what the reality should encourage, and if there must be imposed pub it must minimally interfere with the ideal, while not forgetting that pub may take any number of form. You take that and place it high, the highest you can attain, because you'll be decomposing all what makes not only people happy, but life too.

I like what the success of true love implies, it's at the height of a civilized human that tries to develop well his faculties. A nice story that is reflected through time by 2 people requires many good attitudes or qualities, with the potential to transform it all to a family as an ideal of reproduction, while staying relatively happy, I say it beats any socialization trip, for fake people, in fact piss off, it is the ultimate proof of competence in the domain, to the point that it may be a test step of life; love or die (fail), (different than babbling to death). For now, let's say it's not this reality that's making it a success, even if it happens once in a while, with lots of difficulties, and far from the ideal. It is my opinion that at the top competence and human understanding, of life and the universe, you find the ideal of love, in the sense that liberating ourselves of our imperfections, we would find ourselves with the story of 2 sexes as the ideal pattern of human development. I'm talking ideal and perfection, not a brothel of reproduction in the name of experimentation and to profit from youth as long as possible, and wake up as condescending adults in front of me, completely out of whack in your shit that you boasts yourself so good at getting together. So when did you reach adulthood? Say it if you don't want to become inappropriate to the age you'll be judged as such, but be careful, there's a trap, and there is evolutionary retards, willful retards, and there is failure of the process, too late...

In a sense, it amounts to say that by seeking the ideal of things we develop the human and life toward its perfection. In a reality that is akin to a paradise, a perfect man and woman (no physical or mental defects) would be able to make themselves the story of a big part of their life all the way to growing a family, while living very little bad feelings.

At the universal level and life processes of development, all developments that are supposed to repair handicaps to reproduction bases reflect evil effects. Reproduction works, you break reproduction with shitty attitudes, on whom you spend the means, your selection process, that's supposed to somewhere harmonize itself with how life works, if you are to survive, that is, always...The same if it's to settle interpersonal problems; let love do its work and get out the way, and if you're innocent or ignorant, wait (before reproducing, or just wait), it's super important. Organs ablation, psy or religious manipulations, in vitro reproduction, cloning, man and woman competing, the subjugation of one sex, deviation of sexuality (can become more easy with genetics), the more they are present the more it reflect failures to have encouraged or defended the ideal of love, for us.

It's just that love is kind of a civilized thing, a preparation for the sky, a test for it, it thrives with healthy people of logical understanding; in an uncivilized reality, defined by the proofs that it doesn't understand much about good and evil and life, it's mostly a manipulation verb, and ego people want their satisfaction quick, and humor between friends erases fears as quick, so they don't care to replace evolution with regression, because love is not the work of a thousand years in the right direction, but tens of thousands of years, just enough to quash your ego to insignificance, and it adjusts itself continually as much as to reality as well as to technology, in a reality that makes it a strong probability, until it's part of what defines humanity, like a dam defines a beaver, maybe less, encroaching, beaver love takes space and the fauna is changed forever...

Evidently I talked about a good reality, which at its ideal should be akin to a paradise if this place is hell to me, which implies a good understanding and respect of life, under all its aspects, a correct vision of good and evil related to all of it too, an advanced level of technology preferably, knowledge acquisition tools free and easy to access, and a no brainer environment that doesn't generate bad feelings to always fall back to, among other things. In such an environment, our couple would find itself living any life situation at its best. Bad interactions and feelings can take a panoply of forms, this reality is in big part built from negative feelings and those tend to affect others negatively, to say the least. Jealousy, wrong competition, injustice, all kind of pressures that attract our attention but that end-up to be deceptions, cheats, to manipulate, exploit, all kind of temptations to make the economy turn, garbage to prove we are superior or of a better taste, all that breaks tons of love potential, not just the ideal. But the greatest culprit is still manipulation and imposition; you're supposed to give a good base of education in a reality that reflects there's something good to it on all levels, and people do what's there to do and explore what's there to explore.

Is true love any relevant anymore, that is the question, it seems it's completely unrealistic, even utopist, for this reality, maybe 1% will live a sustained true love scenario, 20 or more years (the ideal includes growing a child), and it will probably quickly slip in a quest to surmount difficulties as a team while running everywhere burning fuel while discussing monetary limitations, like that's what's love is about...It's not, not relevant for life even if it is for humans as a kind of cultural folklore, that's the conclusion, and that's exactly what you work for and that's what you'll get so shut up with whatever romance that you try to confound with love or inadequate hope that the future is bright, and manipulate masses into lacking judgment like you; you failed love, as my life is a proof that you failed to be civilized, you just made a crap system of profiteers, to manage yourselves as a bunch of criminals, and traitors to life, as the state of life is a prof that you don't care about it minimally adequately. And I talk in the past because my epoch is the turning point, and sorry for you but I'm not included in the wrong mentalities that defines the failures of this humanity.

And it's not only because we're a bunch of uncivilized retards, and because people are under competition effects in the most parts of their life, but because for many people the exit to their mediocre interpersonal relations from their bad philosophy is more competence at work, and a more serious endorsement of the system in a personal way, a compensation of incompetence that the person will inflate itself with, maybe even consider a proof that he's good, better than most of his friends, minimally...It's like those who try to disassociate their sexuality from their person (personality), don't judge that, pffff! I judge whatever I want, including god, with my small judgment, that is a lot bigger than yours from what I see...Injustice reign too, because love is about justice; that's what the polygamists don't talk about. The logical principle here is that we should make it so there is one adequate woman for one adequate man to raise an adequate family; if one take all the girls or guys, then that person broke the sacred code of the ancestors and shall be punished severely, and that's not funny. It is valid for any cheat you'll use to create injustice, you are not alone, understand, that's why you ended-up with the super brain, so you witness as a sense and have a chance to understand sufficiently well to modify reality adequately enough to bring life to glory.

Respecting and trying to live love doesn't mean you go to hell if you don't, but the potential is there unless bad luck, and there are things that will forever stay out of your reach, even if you invent yourself a theater or cultural trait to superficially play your phantasm, with a violin, just don't be surprised if you're deceived by the result, I wouldn't hope for much better than a placebo...

Again, an ideal is not a condemnation, it's something to which you aspire, maybe personally, or as a society. I would say that in an ideal reality, maybe 10% of people will live the ideal scenario of love without feeling the need to run one way or another or to develop bad feelings, proportional to the ease of living of the epoch, without difficulties imposed by other people (shouldn't happen in a paradise, except familial matters, and the worth and extent of what affects reality is different, so whatever is seen as "difficulties" is probably part of the economy (seen as your job, your human responsibility, and we want you to know your explorations are backed by a humanity behind you, you are respectable, we are curious, tell us, and on the premise that we do everything for a reason, you shall be honored a valuable addition.)

That's not a lot you'll say, but those people are like your television stars, or porn stars, because they would be near the ideal human. I would say 60% will live an acceptable scenario strewn with disagreements while doing a boring job (the 1% of this reality). In the end, what's my thinking is that we must make our society with love in mind, because to develop the ideal of love is to develop the ideal of the human too. Or, if you prefer, all what makes love difficult reflects a problem, which may as much come from reality and its mass manipulations, as from your personal interactions. It's a way of saying that a big part of our difficulties are based on the breaking down of love. In other words, love is a collateral of the reality we built; you don't build hell with love, but with manipulators, cheaters and profiteers.

So you can say you love, like you got your suspenders, but is that person enough for you? Are you well with that person? Do you believe it should last? Do you try to always be at the top for that person? Anywhere else I see love or hear it I don't agree, even for innocents who use it unconsciously whatever I know the word is implanted as a fourre tout in languages, thanks in part to Catholicism that twisted it right from the start; is there someone that sing love more than priests? Is there someone that knows love less than a priest? Love was the power they should have protected the most.

A part of how I see love potential starts in genetic luck, to me everybody is born on a line from -100 to 100. -100 represent "pure" man attractiveness while 100 represent "pure" female attractiveness. Genetics will put you somewhere along that line with some luck influences, and I'd suppose it harder or rarer to be born toward the same attractiveness as your gender.

Once you're born, reality and experiences will move you psychologically along this sexual attractiveness line in one direction or the other. Family status, PMBBD, love experiences, sex experiences, socialization, dependences and many more will modify your position on the "line" over time. Someone that is born 50/50 is supposed to naturally go toward the opposite sex from visual evidence, and advance in that direction. This is the situation in a "good" reality. In an "evil" reality it will be around 50/50, half will turn around along the way for different reasons, like a badly gaged environment or needs, or pressures from inadequate women, and many will persevere simply because some egos insulted them. But this 50/50 example doesn't covers all options since I believe it possible that there is a "switching" process when you are under a majority in genetic attractiveness strength. Meaning that if genetics places you under 60-75% on either sides of the line (don't see it as a single line, there may be many factors involved), the "switching" takes place, and that situation may not be the only one where a "switching" happens; many facets of development could have specific side, skill or morphology dependent "switching" attributes to some extent, which could be anything physical or mental in your body. In this situation it may go to the extent of developing half a man's brain and half a woman's if the possibility is there. So no, everything is not a matter of hormones or chemicals, it could be possible that I'm half a lesbian "freak"; I could have half the brain of a man and the other half of a woman. All kind of things like that can be possible, and it's cool as long you don't try to crush or piss people off. I could be born big gay homo sado and I would still be proud to be human even if I'm not entirely normal (the norm) on some facets, I don't think I'd cry over it if I couldn't participate in some activities limited to people more standard that facet, or maybe I could envy them, to have access to an ideal unavailable to me, to the point of breaking the exclusivity of their ceremonies. That is, if I was not developing as deficient enough intellectually to understand basic concepts like normality, or that I can't do anything I want, or that I'm not supposed to act like a baby crying every time I'm not appreciated because of my sex ways. As for having a 2 sex brain, even if I doubt it is the case and believe I'm entirely normal, it was just from the duality in my head, the way I seem to ask myself questions to and fro, the hard time I'm having at finding the right answer or taking a decision. I hear differently from both sides and I've got 2 eyes that see colors differently too, I'm all weird, but no, I got a big spiritual and a big logical brain, or mix whatever, but there are hermaphrodites...(that's actually super cute as a long word, can I reserve it? The language evolved anyways, dick girls, ah, ah, you couldn't have it any other way, dick girls...

Life is full of tricks and jokes that have a tendency to be hard on the standard view, shouldn't we know that by now? Yet, if a man is at the far end of physical attractiveness toward the same sex, then that man will always be homo and I see this as bad luck because they have a bigger challenge from the start. But for a lot, I say there can be factors in the reality which makes them feel better with men than women, PMBBD can modify the attitude of both sex toward each other too. That's one of the many foul aspects of "divide and compete to reign", where bullshit is defended like facts, but lying to yourself can be costly to other too, everybody knows that genetics is just a part of the story, and it takes a bunch of ignorant in denial not to consider that society has an influence on our sexuality, and a fucking bunch of rotten minds to insult those with the right and most logical vision as homophobes, because no one homosexual ever gave weight to my argumentation, they all without exception end up telling me I'm homophobe like a shut-up argument, they stand for competition and conquest, not truth or good, and for that they failed life too. But I still don't like how some talk, is there a scientist to explain that? Still worse is that a lot of them talk like they "love" hearing themselves no end, while they sound insupportably bad, what is the speaking mutation causing people to sound like that? And then they want to sound like superior cultural intellectualities, or great knowledgeable people or artist, while they sound more like hissing serpents to me. Wooho, slippery... There are some heterosexuals that do things I don't like too, how about it?

I believe many situations can exist, that it can happen as much by genetic as by reality affecting people or by self-will. It means you can see homosexuality as a developed thing too, like a hate thing developing through time; ugly to talk about but possible. But the scientific way of seeing things will be that they will choose strongly homosexuals and strongly heterosexuals for their examinations, so they can easily spot a genetic difference, and when they'll spot the genetic factor they'll make a big show-off of their new findings, making an affirmation that homosexuality is a genetic thing, then they'll get recognition and make a party out of having discovered another grand truth about the human. Homosexuals will be happy to hear that; it's not their fault, it has nothing to do with how they act or became, or reality influences, it's a "normal" genetic "difference" nobody can do something about. This bullshit self-condemnation way of seeing it, which will be the logical extrapolation of the explanation of a "wrong" scientific interpretation, will become school brainwash and psy will write it into their books. Still, in the end, if it's genetic, like in genetics, like in identified genes, then I wonder why mothers are not told their baby is a homosexual in the womb, unless my vision is the right one...

I wouldn't skip the possibility of an effect from the visualizing of parents upon conception to birth. What I mean is that if the father and mother were wishing hard for a girl around fecundation all through to birthing, they could have an effect of moving the slider of attractiveness along with many others factors (sliders) toward that goal, whatever the initial given gender, meaning you don't do that, you don't wish for one sex or the other; in the name of fairness maybe? To get science off my back, I'll say the same thing I think for destiny; whatever I'm right or wrong, no negative effect can come from believing the idea, and science will never know everything. Your big IQ means nothing if you can't understand the need of spirituality in people, even life itself, to prepare for possibilities, and you're better doing something than nothing and profiting, and the farthest in time you try to see, the more spiritual support you need. And that's the greatest lesson history, in the end, will credit the Christ invention for; it proved without a doubt the need for spirituality in people, to the point they believed in ridiculous things (with some extraordinary efforts and PMBBD, but I make the difference between the Christ (Christianity), and Jesus...). Good spirituality is a rare and good thing and you must never discard it unless proven false without a single doubt, because that's where life truths dwells, in the last place you'll think of looking, the most infinitesimal possibility you didn explore. What invalidates spirituality is conflicting illogism and absolute proven facts, you must have solid proof against it (not a coincidental or exceptional one because that can be associated to luck (luck can have "spiritual" concepts I'll defend later). As long as those conditions are not met, spirituality gives more sense and value to life, a direction in darkness too.

If you want percentages, I'll say around (important) 40% homosexuality is decided genetically, 15% direct people's influences, 20% ego-gods ideology (ego competition), 10% parenthood pre-birth effect, the rest is divided amongst many other minor factors. We are at the "science for dummies" step evidently, since things are never that simple.

As for genetics specifically, when science will wake-up to the level of genetic morphing potential, the genetic argument will lose all value. Almost everything about life is genetics or end-up as genetics, or influences it, so what of it? A lot of genetic mutations or extreme modifications or expressions, have no use or worsen a specie, or they are transitory or transformation states, or they can even reflect war, hate or competition attitudes against life in humans. Most of the selection and competition of traits we made out of those minor things are life degenerating in all kind of slow ways, maybe even including a constant limitation of luck.

I say their "situation" is not an advantage, I say it is a disadvantage for themselves and if they act stupid, a disadvantage to civilization, presently they almost act like they are the "superior race" because they're cultural multicultural, only the baby making aspect is missing...

Is genetic an argument that make it "normal" to be gay? Knowing it just happens yes, but no need for genetics; I'm a homosexual, you? Me? I'm a bully (guy)! I mean, who needs a genetic test to prove he's sexual orientation (I'm north kind of oriented)? And it still change nothing if I should agree or not with the sex interface between reality and people, like its vision of love. The grave thing is that people become the machine, and the proofs are everywhere, but that does not discard the responsibility of their actions, and that's without saying that our actions, our thinking, even brainwash, can eventually affect genetics to the extreme of creating mutations...but more on that in Life Infinite".

I know I shouldn't be too hard on scientific affirmations, but they can miss things, their methodology is often mediocre, and it full of crappy characters who are there for the wrong reasons, or who will try to validate the way they like things (a frustrated homosexual scientist may not be the best person to make theories about it, but sex is taboo, you wouldn't dare ask about the sexual patterns of people for a job, it's personal, secret, "love", it's not part of what defines a person). That happens often, when you want so much to prove something closely you lose detail globally, or you stretch the elastic too far, or pour pure acid, or drink a cup of testosterone, or prove miracles, or find the first skeleton. Being a true scientist (not a political scientist or such things) is one of the most intellectually laborious passions someone can have, what's more, he must be a person with a good control of his ego, since his failures will be as painful as the greatness of his discoveries. But truth often needs a vast quantity imagination to explore details and be found; I am not a scientist and it permits me to be freer about what I say because people won't say "this scientist said that" about me, I'm just a fucking BS!

Media people put scientific studies behind every interesting new affirmations being made to give it credibility too, and that works well when we have a science about anything, even politics, with experts running not far behind trying to make themselves a name, while sneaky lobbyists and corporate spies are exchanging blood. Knowledge is truth, a good and competent scientist is a rare and careful animal you rarely hear about, you don't see snapshots of them everywhere as they don't pass their time showing off. Many scientists, psy and experts are "bad" ones that should find themselves another title. Yet, if someone asked me to work with scientists and doctors for a limited time, I'd do it right away, I can trust the good ones almost totally, if you knew all the "patents" I have in imagination, I like to know how things work so you understand that I have no choice but to like science and have a strong attachment to it.

The people themselves and their environment have an influence to what sex you are attracted to, I'm sure of that. So if you want to dissect a homosexual, you will have to study the reality too, find the totality of factors that can have an influence on how he came to be, only then will you have the right to make an affirmative theory with a "proven scientifically" sticker. Until that happens, you must say; "presently, we know that genetic is a factor for a lot of homosexuality" that's what I want to hear and it makes all the difference to me because it is truth.

And one last thing; what do you make of the placebo effect? You can lift or create many limitations with that, and the same for visualizing; the act of believing hard in something does have some, at least temporary, effect in many cases. There are more such mind effects and their meaning can invalidate many of our discoveries or truths, whatever we "tricked" those effects. Do we know the power and extent of them? All the different facets they may take that we may not be aware of? Maybe some other more global level of information than the evident molecule can be carried through the body to really have an effect; when a cell dies, it is not replaced without communication. I even made a stretch of mental dreams that eliminated a cold once; so I strongly believe there is more to placebo and visualizing than science thinks; maybe if we practice think positive, along with strong believing and willpower for thousands of years, with adequate knowledge of the needed information, we will be able to heal a lot faster or even change a lot faster to our desires as we grow. A lot of crazy extrapolations can be made from those effect; we may even communicate our feelings more easily, there are forms of empathy that are near that, like yawning; you know how good is the feeling of satisfaction and liberation is after a good yawn don't you? You can cry from it, some do, and it transmits to others. Those effects may have a glorious future, even presently many people make lots of money from them, all those charlatan who seem to be making "magic" are an example. But I wanted to say that because I believe inter sex hate and competition can have an effect on developing more homosexuality while true love (the sustained thing) and complementarity would do the contrary.

I must warn people that there are 7 more pages (on 1500, so don't say I'm making a fixation) that will switch to and fro between homosexuality and other subjects, so if you defend anything homosexual you may want to skip that part, there probably won't be anything else about it in all the rest of my writings, maybe a comparison or 2 when the sport can be used as an example of something, you don't talk sex and love without talking about these things. I'll write about all sexual attitudes in this chapter, and I fight for true love, so don't look for signs too hard, you'll find them everywhere, like if I talk about it it's a sign that I'm a homo, or a homophobe. And I'm talking attitudes, tranquil people who don't act like they have a world to conquer in a fun competition should not feel concerned, they pass. You understand? There are homosexuals who pass, other not. The same for true love, some pass, other not. Is that normal? Homosexuality gives you a free pass to have any attitude? Wrong! As for the hordes who think acceptance and tolerance is a sign of evolution, you are wrong too, you must have arguments, you can't say you tolerate or accept without reasons, unless you are evil. That's what I bring along my opinions, arguments, you want to exchange with me? Then tell me your opinion and bring arguments to defend it too, don't say "peace" or "tolerance" or "acceptance" unless you're brainwashed and deficient intellectually.

As the ideal of human reproduction, i see love as its evolution, or if you prefer, on top of the human success pyramid there is a baby, and you need love to have the strength to keep the baby there, if not you'll replace it by a person (competition to take the life energy to emancipate ego instead of life). That's an idea that fits well with the life reality, we do things for the future, we do things to grow people, and if we are to worship, we will worship what transcend the universe, life reproduction, that baby is your god and you better make sure to take care of it. So you see, I see making children as the result of an ideal love scenario, did I mention I fight for true love as an ideal? Sorry... But yeah, the ideal love scenario doesn't happen very often in this reality, so we kind of do our best with our mentality to raise children, but the result is not fitting with the reason we're supposed to reproduce, as a family, evolution is stopped in bullshit, no valid process of reproduction as an ideal works, reformulation to ant brains, the bottleneck of placing a person as your supreme entity instead of life. So love is vastly devaluated, because it's vastly overrated, boosted by manipulators, and it won't move from there because we now know the difference between TV and books stories and the most likely reality, all those exaggerators are a reflection of our broken hearts, used as source of profits, profits that will break another heart...Love is not working, and making truly successful life respecting human is starting to look like lottery in part because the idea of love doesn't work as advertised, or we lost track of the true definition of it, (let's say the definition got twisted by people who could not be a reflection of it, through their religious institutions, and transforming the possible reproduction connection, or the party of the story you are building, in a condemning contract, either attached to the reality or to a religion, sounds like servitude...).

Yes, more people is more money, so there is always a baby making competition going on, if not for nationalism reasons, it's simply to make bigger pyramids and richer people, until people are trade objects or tools, that you can possess for your enjoyment or your experiments. Whatever one of you do the woman and the other do the man, the child will come to the conclusion that something is not right with his parenthood and even if you limit the effect it will still affect his school experience and far more, but it is understandable that with the economy of the taxpayers so important, any birth way is tolerated and accepted because they all give the same kind of result or selection in the end, one got to wonder why polygamy is illegal, seriously, and why would it be worse raising a child as a polygam than as a loving couple?

Looks like the result of the failure of love, a result of an history of hate, superiority-inferiority, matriarchy-patriarchy, frustration and competition between men and women, old, visceral, retarded to the point that it shows in genetics, bringing it to reality for further work. Possible if our present philosophy about love is a façade to fit the reality, particularly if the competition is still there and more profound than ever, even if it's not all our fault.

But sorry, I have to justify this little bias I have, I don't know why the style is not more present than that in a reality that seems bent on going fuck all free for all multicultural, as an economic ideal... Our sex ways are as much a reality thing as a personal one, the reality and its science must preserve the integrity of what's good and make sense, one reason for having ideals, or pedophiles and weird people will jump on children and animals (innocence) everywhere; you're making actions, and the value of these is not an insignificant thing to discard as "love", they have tremendous value and signification.

I was saying that homosexuality can be seen as life diversion versus a psychological obstacle that we made invincible, there are a few things like that, and we could be just lucky the reality always imposed limits to their liberties, but I'll give it some good hate credit for once. A lot of this hate and frustration could come from a complex of inferiority of some men versus women and vice versa, and the same for lesbians, just inversed. And yes, some women attitude may have brought about such frustration upon themselves, but who can enslave women to inferiority with their strength? None is better than the other, as for jealousy (synonyms don't make sense), it is as much caused by men as women. Competition between sexes will always be a hate thing, and it is in this reality, getting both sexes to compete as equals is a hateful perversion. But it's still just some factors among many, hate and jealousy can develop if women have been seen as hunting rewards too, slaves or inferior, or as objects privileged to get fucked by tribal chiefs or rich people, or if one believe in true love while the other only think about sex, and I'm not talking about hate developing from rightful but never understood jealousy in a systemized unfair reality.

Now, I don't care some are an innocent result of history lost in PMBBD, there are many who are not, and they are embarked in a competitive hate game too, they got a world to conquer, and they need to raise children to their liberty ideals. And don't tell me you won't affect their growth negatively as they tag along your social circle an your gay parades, you want them very open in a reality where the best manipulators and profiteers systemize liberties to their ideals, ready to jump on anything that looks a bit innocent. I don't get this necessity for them to raise children, but I could have had gay friends if time didn't reveal attitudes I don't like, which is the case for most people with me btw. I knew one I could have appreciated, before he presented me his friends with a superior and well cultivated intellectuality who gave me farthing food (I swear!). Is all the showing-off, ghastly mannerism and associations to all kind of things absolutely necessary? Do you really need to have pub with adolescents homosexuals on television to show how good and "loving" it is and how proud you should be? Showing off in your gay festivities is not enough? Having whole parts of a city for your intolerance to heterosexuality is not enough? You need every homosexual to make a big proud coming out? You'd like to make homosexuals out of heterosexuals then surprise the world in a big coming out never ending parade? While the other side of the mouth is hissing that you're only 2%? Maybe I'll need I'll show you what is a coming out, it has nothing to do with knowing where one's dick genetically like to go by itself, you don't find the north by following your dick you know, you'll lose it instead, and you're guaranteed to end up in the wrong place... So you'll bug humanity no end with the coming out of your dick, and you need people open to it and following its direction, I should call my book "the coming out of man", and they don't come out like gay people for sure, and they don't end up in the same place either.

And since you're proud enough to go out worse than nude in colorful festivals with flags and all, maybe we should pass everybody a scanner to spot your small but incredibly noisy 2% minority and drop you somewhere where the majority will not be continually harassed as "bad" and "homophobe" because they don't "love" you! If only you could force the liberties of the rest of the world by making a law to make it illegal to express a negative feeling toward you, that way you'd have a monopoly, and retarded heterosexuals couples would still be more castrated by this reality...And I tell you, seriously, looking at you I feel ashamed, like I always do when I see people develop their lives as an idiocy, and this feeling is very real, as empathy is very real for me, as a sense connected to the whole humanity, and it is sometimes accompanied by creeping goosebumps, that's what you do to this sense of life, that's part of your effect too, take it into consideration, but it may by just me and my tendency to keep the shameful stuff contained where it doesn't spill to create hysteria....

Anyway, I'm suffering too much from that homophobia thing, got to find some serum to readjust my brain chemistry to acceptance, quick, tolerance and adaptation, sing with me, with a smile preferably... So true love is following a scenario akin to the best scenario of human reproduction, and this is very important for many reasons, one of which is to do things in their best manners as interfaces between all entities. The difference is gotten by the exception in this reality; true love. Love can make a difference in a reality that cares for it (different than profiting from it, or pressuring it), but it is very hard in this dividing and competitive reality, love stories is the best you'll get. Maybe one percent, probably less, will experience life as a fulfilling story of two persons truly loving each other through time to the point of making a family, without getting it invalidated, competed or severely reduced by reality pressures, particularly manipulators.

Presently the structure needs to show it can evolve and our mind is dwelling in enough PMBBD, conflicts and disinformation, we not only enjoy their parades and style that colors the reality, but the pressure from the media is strong enough that we are ready to "love" them; they find ways to look pitiful when necessary, they sure don't hurt others openly, they are praised like they are superior intellectually, and act like they have more sensitivity (the delicate aspect I'm missing). Oh, and my life is as hard as yours in the competition if you want to know, and I'm insane, and I've been bullied, how about that? But I didn't catch HIV I must say, not that it's generalized, but I only had sex with 5 girls, I wonder with how many people those 2% had sex in their lifetime, everybody "love" so much these days... No I don't "love" everybody, are you surprised? You won't find a more profoundly justified person than me, and I'm kind of worse than a minority, I'm extinct, not thriving, will you help me? Will you "love" me? But I wouldn't say they disturb me that much, there's drag queens too, it takes some, I mean balls, and they can make me laugh a little, but making family parades around the theme of homosexuality, really? That no. I wonder if all this positive attention we suddenly have for them will not backfire, let's say our defense mechanism are constantly on red alert, to go over all kind of irritating situations, we become more tolerant but at the cost of something else, let's say our ability to decide well, and we have this reflex of not looking at what we find disturbing, we block a lot of shit, but doing so we may push life to make a fixation on the subject.

They are probably the next step in the growth of the ego pyramids, they are in every gangs, in every media, they cumulated tons of PMBBD argumentation in languages, and they can almost fuck anything while keeping a better than good image. They have become experts at lobbying, they've been putting pressure for a long time, they influence all spheres of society, they are accepted, tolerated, pitied, compassionated, and now that the system needs to prove it is good and can change, it will make the most positive change it can find for itself; find some big egos to satisfy (stop a baby crying). So we'll start giving them all they want, and they are right on the spot of the vision of "love" everywhere this reality is implanting for sexually divergent people in a competition to spread their view and show-off. Sodomy is normal, look on the internet, and animals do it, and get those adolescent in it fast! Just tell them you "love" them and that should do the trick.

That was ugly, and it's not like I'm a homophobic moron, no, what's the word they are so fond on using on heterosexuals? Bigot...I have the right not to like their general personality, and I consider that the amount of media pressure and subjective bullshit is not far from being forced, nobody has the right to decide in my place who I should like or not, and sorry but I got a tendency to use what I don't like for a bit of humor. I'd even have a tendency to say that homophobia doesn't exist; I know there are people who truly hate blacks to kill them on sight, homosexuals too I guess, but I have the right not to like every differences in people, I generally don't like most of them and that's it, could apply to all humanity too, no homophobia there. It is as much the sex style that I don't likes, but the mind attitudes, and I have the right to hate some attitudes, and I make my emphasis around the ideals I defend, so sorry for you if our ideals diverge that much. Besides, what is your problem? Don't you have a brain? What do you think? Hate doesn't exist? Or everybody must "love" you, you're impossible to hate, you're "gods"? Not liking or hating is a phobia? Maybe you are the one making a true phobia. And sorry for the tranquil ones, (may be reflected as a difference between a reality or genetic emphasis), I can appreciate anybody, dependent on attitudes, you know I'm talking about the proud ones taking all the place, carrying flags, boasting, publicizing and hyping, making it as fun, party and colors as they can, making it a family thing, until it becomes the main event of their city, probably, I'm quite sure that in our Quebec province the gay festival is the biggest of the year, and the emphasis is to make it a family thing, a positive example to follow, kids running and bumping amongst the black strapped scrotums of politicians there to show they are proud while I feel shame, or is it for the votes? The votes? Or the cause? Both you say? Then wear the sado maso kit you have no place there "lover", is what I say, if you're to publicize something sad, good night...

So not liking something should not be seen as a phobia, that being said, I think the key mentality to please me is not outwardly be jerks in public about it, I won't care if they act normally, but if I feel you're trying to make it a show or to provoke then I'll kick your ass, and I'm very sensitive to bullshit.

And for all those phobias everywhere, phobia, any phobia, is a PMBBD association to tag people's fear as an inferiority thing or a grave handicap, it's thrown about like narcissism and carry strictly no better signification over previous definitions, only a more negative feeling applied to people, not an argument in nothing, it is used to manipulate others to discard their mind like they're handicapped. People fear and hate things to some levels, often both, that's the truth. People can surpass hate and fear, but make it a phobia and they become sick in the head, it's a big problem, and you're supposed to shout and panic and risk dying out of it; it will be a big challenge in your life and you may even need to pay a psy expert to live with it. So tell me, why maximize the effect of a fear by calling it a phobia if you want to minimize it? To transfer it to a market? How? We'll breed fear and we'll invent phobias so that people will want to feel brave confronting them by going to the movies, arachnophobia! Bedbugsphobia! Then you go buy soap that kills bacteria at 99.99% and you start to spend a lot of time to keep your house very clean, spend 50 000$ in cleaning stuff over 10 years to end up with cancer, so you can enrich a pharmaceutical company, and there's always alternative therapy, and it's at that moment that the mutation happens, the door of a bottle of kill bacteria at 99.99% opens, a super powerful bubonic aids bug debark and start exerting the ultimate revenge on the poor bedbugphobic girl.

But ok, it's unnecessary and expensive and I still think it's sick to transform a dislike or fear in a phobia where you imagine the person panicking blindly to run in a wall. And it applies to media people too, television, movies, internet, singers, writers, all in all, people in contact with masses, they're all on the same mental malady competition boat, and psy scientists are professionals at that. Just don't panic, I'm talking about masses interactions. Personal evils are an opportunity to select out at the source or learn to deal with it. The mass exceptions are necessary associations which may look like PMBBD but are not, like "ego reality", but even that one I'll tend to eliminate as i correct my work. And then there are these associations that are not transmitted as affirmations, opinions are different than affirmations.

Is it that I have a problem with anuses? I don't think so, it's just there, like a nose, it's a part of all mammals, it's the exit of a digestive function, and it can be sexy I suppose, I could touch it though, giggle a little, and I'm not beyond doing lewd things there, but it's not like a fascination, know what I mean? And I have eyes, I have feelings, preferences, I don't fuck any hole in the dark, so I surely don't have a preference for it, a vagina is more interesting, more complex, I would eat the thing, or better, fuck it! Yeah, I have grand plans for it, there is something hidden there, just waiting...well, as I already said, there's always one best way to go!

Maybe it's too boring for anal people, all they have to do is trying to make of sexuality a scatological activity only a frustrated introvert inhibited non-emancipated retard would miss enjoying...I'm going a little far, but I'm pretty sure there are more and more suspects, it's like the invasion of the sodomites, or is there a source like a city? Because sodomy is supposed to come from Sodom, no? And god razed the place to show Hibrahim his pectoral and abdominal power, and chuckle a little, surely, because, genetically speaking you're not supposed to fill a city with sodomites (a quest for sodomy as the emphasis of one's sexuality), so who did it? Then again, maybe it will happen to Montreal, it's almost at 100% there, Ville Marie it was initially called (Mariah City), I'm sure the pope would feel right at home there now...) I'm just stirring the oil a bit, seeing where I can go, didn't scientists discover sphincters had lots of nerves? We can erotize many parts of our bodies, maybe it's all a nerve thing, the more nerves, the more sensitivity, but in the end it's all a mind thing so leave me be. But that may be the next sexual revolution since every generation likes to think they're making one; after the biggest dick "love" competition revolution, it's the anal "love" competition revolution, and if the dick is not enough in it, we'll lick it and stuff our nose in it! Let's do it! Surely we can find argument to make it a must, until not participating is a sign of bad inhibition all the way to TV and movies, since connoisseurs at the forefront of what's good sexually discovered themselves a crave for ass licking, to go on par with their mentality I guess, so much it's become common knowledge. I don't understand this anal degustation thing, I swear you even hear bums in the streets boast about it, dirty kids having a discussion on how tired they are licking the ass of their girlfriend, and looking at them you really wonder what their girlfriend must look like, but I could be surprised in hell, there are girls who "love" their dog there, it's just me that's absurdly inadequate... It's expressed in a few movies for the general public too, it's the new in...

And sorry, but the how you like sex is one thing that comes with you that I may take it into consideration, I may not, I decide, but I don't like to separate the 2 like your dick belongs to someone else, and if you want people to ignore this factor then don't make a show of it... And I say we should not publicize sodomy it or implant it in language or spread it everywhere in pornography. Did I mention somewhere that I fight for an ideal of true love? Sorry but this is not it! In fact, trying to take or preserve a good ideal is always a part of taking or preserving in the best path, remember that one. So, is it the male person, or is it the female male person that you "love", nothing sexual style? ("female-male", the transfer step from women getting sodomized massively in pornography, and men getting in it massively between themselves, something like a hundred years away, just a few more stupid generations (a never ending roll...) adding their sexual revolutions with old things all have been initiated long ago, continuing old work of evil, like the Democracy as a tool to continue developing old pyramidal work, democracy is a concept or tool that can serve good or evil (you can have an evil system that democratically choses its boss by making an emphasis on a type of personality or attitude or goal through its media institution at the same time it's working on the other end to better adapt the approximate personality to its ways, just a behind the scene aspect, the direct front is well served too, all the while influencing the selection process, so the mass come to become a reflection of their realistic wishes). So if you have the wrong idea that Democracy is a synonym of good, it's because you're in hell, at your place probably, if fooling you is that easy, but you're lucky, this is the learning step of life, understand or disappear, in the best of scenario... And those Gladius people from the movie are just perfect, sword maniacs on steroids, they fight for an idea they boast, but they don't go past the surface, just degenerates justifying their bloodshed, while brandishing Democracy like a bump on the agenda of politicians, like they fucking had their say on the script, giving a bad aftertaste of manipulation to the rest of the movie. But my kind of critics on movies are rejected, I get banished for saying things like that, like that's fucking illegal, the same when I express any argument about a religion induced movie... So I'm very far from being an expert critic on movies, who are not even in harmony with the selection most of the time, those people must be disconnected like in a sect and they should all be flushed. I'm talking arguments here, not insults, this is a flagrant attack on intelligence by governmental institutions (has been, always will), and I refuse to bow to it, and I bet the worst the universe has to offer is for those people dealing with masses censoring respectful argumentation making sense. The reasons for this can only be evil, you understand what it means? Imagine all the people that got their minds limited or twisted, imagine the retard to evolution, sect and religions and media manipulators, and all the clique behind them, strap yourself with heavy armor and wear sunglasses, lots of flak coming your way...

Democracy as a tool from ancient Greece to condemn humanity to manipulators and profiteer, from the looks of it...The same place that grew an army of sodomites from those 2% genetic homosexuals, what did they do with people? The majestic city was like a light in the night for the whole continent of repressed homosexuals to come feel at home, even Ibrahim was there, wow, imagine the attraction, and profound discussions, even god made an apparition! But they were just a bunch of curious people wanted to try and study the new sex movement...

Me, I wouldn't want to be seen anywhere near Montreal, it's a good thing all the cameras are there, it attracts approbation seeking sexually divergent people who absolutely need to talk about this joy and pride they're having, and it's cultural too, the homosexual confound chopping for shopping, in fact he detests the forest, and it's politic too, he dream of a world free from heterosexual bigots, so they're never far from power, and they influence more and more society, like through the movie and music industry. Someday they may become a grave civilization problem, even cause wars, there seems to be more while they tell me not to worry, but even if the homosexual information center near me says that at 1.971416% stable that's unlikely to happen, yep, that's the climate of terror I live in these days, what if one grabs me?

Among the reasons why homosexuality is becoming such a globally widespread success, is the fact that the ego ideology may help the style by its mentality, particularly if you take into consideration that the language is adjusted to serve the ideology too, gay is joyful, equality, men and women as equal competitors (unconscious wish to obtain said result from pressures of a reality under an ego ideology, you consciously have to know it doesn't mean equality, but logically speaking something that is equal to another thing is the same in result) Then you'll reap all the elements of a successful hell if the thing could exist as reality, like everybody becomes a dick girl, that way no more homosexuality, no more irresponsible men and crazy women, no more competition on the base of sex, love works whatever the version.

Maybe some people should learn from the many other people who understood long ago that a genetic thing is not always positive, and they don't pass their time lamenting that they're not accepted at all parties. You'd be ashamed knowing what some are going through, going crazy to stay alive, beyond the maximum extent permitted by life, and they are far worse than alone at it, and they don't beg for pity in any way they can, they don't get HIV (why do they catch HIV so easily?) they don't try to be as ego and costly as they can, they don't act superior and carry flags like conquerors, and yes they explode dangerously and wrongly once in a while, anybody would in their situation, but don't worry, this reality will not make their life better for it, but worse, and you won't hear from them because most know better than you that their problem doesn't make them examples to follow. Maybe your problem is that you're masochists of the worst kind creating hate, discrimination, division all around while singing you're "lovely" superior intellectualities but you aint got a mind strong enough to tough some discrimination.

And even if they say they're only a steady 2% of the population, the noise they make makes me feel like they're 40%. When I moved to Québec there was 2 homosexual bars, not only that doubled, if not tripled, but I ended-up where I couldn't enter any bar anymore, without having one after me, and I aint got a womanized face, and that was some time ago. I'll add that the worse violence I went through have been done by them for trying to get rid of their friendship. Now there are homosexual bars in every town and soon there will be in every village, and they're made as the funniest places, why? Is it because they took possession of the gay word, like joy is a matter of having homosexuals clturalities designing your party? And since tolerance and acceptance is not enough, now they want everybody to "love" them, they want people thinking the contrary to be seen as criminals, they want to conquer the world with their big mouth, their "love" and "intelligence", their good genetic difference.

Sorry, it's the media presence? It's my city? There are native "genetic differences" that are almost extinct, some are, and those are infinitively more important to me, and they'd be damn happy to be 2% of the world. I don't even see Indians except when they have to fight to keep a bit of terrain, so why the big show? I know it's not the same, it's at a different level but 2% is not the whole picture. And stuff your charts, people throw charts as facts everywhere these days while 3/4 are made of manipulated numbers; there is a big difference between stability and increasing, one is tolerable if it is a minority, the other absolutely not, so we should be very watchful of that, after scraping the bullshit. And it is grave since we are talking about the most important thing to any civilization in the universe; its sex ways, how it reproduces.

And if you can't take a little discrimination, if you can't tolerate a critical explorative mind like mine that likes to laugh a little without crying and seeing homophobes everywhere, you're a...well, a fag. Do you think I aint got discrimination problems? I was bullied and laughed at school too, and listening to your lamentation you get the impression that only you commit suicide, every time one of your very critically superior and important minority suicide, the whole world must cry over it while homosexual defense organizations everywhere shout at homophobia; all kind of people suicide, you're not exceptional at that, sorry. Women get murdered and exploited and sold all over the place! Don't think you got a monopoly of suicide or discrimination to bug the world in your self-pity, all kind of people got as much problems as you, ask fat people, ask blacks, everybody, even the rich!

I'll blast absolutely everybody in this book, everybody will hate me, no discrimination going on, and you think I'll make an exception for you? You may be one of the less discriminated (best integrated) minorities on earth but doing everything to get on my nerves and doing so getting more discrimination. We should take you all, find you an island, and leave you there to develop inventions, ideals, a philosophy, and spirituality, a "modern" society to go in space! Since you like so much to use "modernity" to qualify the societies that bow to your demands! Go ahead, develop a country to compete against us, homophobes, win the planet! Show the result of your love if it's true!

But maybe this reality would crumble, they made themselves critical to our survival, they are "loved", and a lot of stupid or evil women want one like a handbag. I'm disappeared, extinct, it is them that are teaching humanity manners now, not people like me, culture, sexuality, love, they are successfully taking over the world those 2% stable homosexuals, they know what love is, they know how to behave and what's the best way of things, they're examples, parents bring their children to their festivals, soon they'll cry to go there...

I'm not even sure that's not realist, same for culture, there seems to be a weird emphasis to generally associate it to what gay people like, but culture can be a big man thing with hairs on the chest, it's not the same though, manners are different, colors are not as pastel, food is more satisfying (to man), and priorities are different than entertainment as cultural value while the façade is not that of mannerism...I still don't think I'm hateful in my opinions, it's more like don't piss in my niche (supreme insult among dogs), and don't tell me hate is evil, or you don't have the right to throw the first rock, or judging people is evil, and tons more of such bullshit I forget. You can twist anything to your own end in this reality, accept, adapt, tolerate, be peaceful, compassionate and "loving", let the world in the hands of PMBBD babblers, because they don't express hate the evident way at first but as a civilization condemnation to massive deaths from minds lost in PMBBD and superficial justifications they defend with their lives. And there's always a nice word to defend all aspect of evil depending if it is weak or powerful.

As for psy, pediatrics and their clique of experts; you think only you can have an opinion? You're superior too? If a minority with a genetic anomaly or problem creates lifelong hate in a population, we must tolerate and accept to infinity because you said so, until we lose abilities indirectly? Hate doesn't exist on your papers and in your beautiful reality? Go take a walk, this world is degenerating from people fighting for their ego to take over the world, and you're not done with hate, competition feeds from and on it a lot, but it's not how it works and life will prove it. We must do things for others, for the future, for life. Evil people must be discriminated to fear, with hate and guns if there is no other way to control their twisted stuff spreading. Hate can be a good thing, violence too, those who say the contrary are wrong, without these things we become deficient and humanity may become incapable to react to changes at the right time in the best manner. But like everything else they have a better and worst places, hate is meant to get good thriving, to eliminate evil, and the worst place of hate is competition of man against woman.

The best women (not on television, those are often the worst, their good facet is their image, good to watch...) are paying the higher price for this sex and ego competition. Now, I didn't write about women homosexuality, and since I shouldn't miss an opportunity to defend against the predicable use of any arguments this reality can always find in infinity to close my mouth, I'll have to justify, but my justification may not be much more than an opinion here, and a feeling ones at that. I think women control their ego better when they are sensitive which goes with their gay aspect, the result is contrary to what you get with men. The useful fact is that I rarely ever see them, they don't disturb me as much, they don't put pressure, they are far less into sodomy, they're more respectful of principles that make sense, they respect normality, I don't recognize their voice or ways, they don't show-off as much, in fact, they fit in my vision of having a basis without influences or pressures since they are good enough that I rarely notice them. All in all, they're not outwardly jerks about their difference. They're tranquil, they don't reap a sermon, keep your sexual "divergence" personal and I'll shut-up too. Anyway, do you think I'd like to form a family with lesbians? They're suggestions implanted in our unconscious by the pub, pornographic and the "star" industry, playboy, Hollywood and the likes, seeing men as having a permanent erection and who need throng of women rutting after them. And yes I can love or fuck 2 women, no problem, but I don't need them to be lesbians, and I'm not suffering from an erection complex, I bow to my version of love for as long as it will be hopeless, I don't run after everybody I can love to fuck more, I don't need any impulsion or fantasy satisfied.

That applies to all divergent sex, I'll be on your side as long as you're tranquil and understand you're never alone (I'm different, I ended up alone, but we are billions, we are potential, and I'm a sense of life, an extension of it). My problem is with those who carry a flag like conquerors, particularly a flag that is associated to rainbow colors, and try for their sexuality to be the theme of family picnics, like being a homosexual is a wonderful sparkling firework show of rainbow colors of the sky (the same rainbow that kids like so much...)

And another effect of this continual presence, or pressure or need for attention, of people with sex problems, is that it pushes the mind of those with less of a definite sexuality, or more vulnerability, particularly to PMBBD, to fear or question their sexuality or lose potential for the ideal, which lead, particularly if added to other factors like competition and whatever difficulty with the other sex, to abandon love and just go with the fucking flow... It is even encouraged greatly through different means, like the famous "trip a 3" for a start, which is the entry door to all kind of problems generating behaviors, for morons, or intelligent humorists and singers who like to boast so much about the throng of stupid women they "loved".

As you know I'm not strong on people who profit from emotions or feelings to spread their sex dreams to the whole world, and no, not everybody can take the place, only those who fit, it's the eternal selection process so that everything end-up serving the most willing to do anything, all the way to backstage fucking. You'll destroy love in your jealousy so the most appropriate can't live it, you'll make a parody of good with religions to make what I stand for meaningless, and I'll have to leave you to listen to your humorists therapy, but sorry, I won't encourage your contortions that pass well under the humor facade, everything permitted, you're supposed to laugh, or shut up and displace frustration. Stupid humorists, laugh at everything and are just waiting to respect nothing, and they think they're spreading intelligence... They are becoming a civilization anti-depressive, or a dependence? A condemnation. But it's allright, just be careful not to insult an alien that don't have the same kind of humor and view of life than your limitations in the name of liberty. Anyway, if good aliens see this brothel, they'll destroy us automatically, BLAM! you won't even have an explanation! They'll know from our priorities and leadership that it is worthless playing in such a mess, like I'll probably end-up proving with this book and my life, but I'll still do it, by respect for myself and life, I was there and signed with a unique contribution.

Now I think I'm done with my homosexual phobia mental sickness, it's genetic, sorry. But talking about head invasion, I've got a few shells for the normal and good people who make pornography too. If a "normal" person, which is becoming a rare thing in this ant society, wants to watch some good pornography, and I'm not talking sensuality, he ends up, even if it is just while searching something good, memorizing all kind of uninteresting content unconsciously. While I'm supposed to have a separated access to it as an adult, this industry out of control has become an abomination, and it is not parental responsibility when it is so widespread and easily accessible; it is a system responsibility.

Anyway this reality never tried to give people with good consciousness potential, a basis for sexuality from which they can extrapolate (Catholicism view of marriage is not a sane view of sexuality); it does exactly the contrary, using television PMBBD as soon as a baby is born, seeing innocence as a competition ground, manipulating them in all kind of ways long before they are adults, condemning them to extrapolations of their unconsciously "selected" "basis", their experiences they did as innocents. If we want more true love and not as a show on TV, then we'll have to act like we understand that it can't thrive under pressure or competition, or skills, or chastity, and all kind of views profiting one gang or another, particularly if you can "love" absolutely anything...

Now, the more we tolerate and the more we encourage bad traits on the basis that a genetic difference is a positive thing if it "only" twists sexuality (while in truth we act like a bunch of morons who only think about sex...), the more we grow that basis and the more it will be expressed strongly in genetics. We can choose to help develop or encourage any genetic mutations we want, and it will work to some environmental extent... It all depends on what are your priorities, but the way this "loving" reality is doing things, one got to wonder if it would not prefer homosexuals and weird sexualities to be the norm, it is normal, an advantage next, evolution? In fact it works well with multiculturalism, it may even become the only way, just before everything fails...

Next, the way pedophilia is getting accepted on the internet (with, as always, some money spent by the ten headed hydra to be able to say they're against it, and close the mouth of retarded people like me), I wouldn't be surprised to have a pedophilia festival in a hundred years. Surely scientists can find a genetic difference and tell poor pedophiles it's not their fault, we must show infinite compassion, it's natural, some animal do it, it's "love", they can be proud of it if they want, they "love" children. That could happen you know, the vampire way of sucking the life blood from innocence at all cost is somewhat of reflection of the size of the desire to profit from innocence sexually. If you aint got the consciousness to skip profiting from innocence monetarily, then you aint got it to skip doing it sexually is what I say, ask priests, only law (commandments) and friends (reputation) prevent you doing it. That is because they are the same thing.

There is physical violence and mental violence, there is physical pedophilia and there is mental pedophilia. In the end, whatever you say, whatever your problem, you profit from innocence one way or the other, you don't have enough consciousness or understanding or control of yourself to skip doing it, whatever the available psychology, or the this part of your brain that makes you a good person and an adult is not well developed or atrophied or missing, probably previously hurt badly, or your vision of being human is limited to stuff learned by heart that, and from bits of which you decide to defend or reinforce your problem, at the door of survival just so you're ready to fight to the death, broken heart, broken dreams, broken hope, broken mentality, under an emotive recipe to look good; or you're purely evil at the worst, only seeking to profit. I repeat, I don't care if you're sick mentally or suffering from a complex of inferiority or if it is written in your DNA, you have a problem if you profit sexually or monetarily from innocence (to do whatever you want to do, religions included, media people too, omission (forgot to mention) not accepted), yes monetarily, like in half this world, this whole reality steal and embark people before they have the information, information that is pushed away to high level specialization where the terminology is supposed to have greater signification. A competition of cheaters that feed off innocence, that's the selection we've been making for thousands of years, welcome to town! It's full of institutions and industries that profit from innocence, or worse, keep people innocent on purpose with disinformation, it's part of the competitive market and the recipe of success in hell...

All this innocence thing is childish to you? I bet it is...Some will even try to make us believe or suggest that adolescents girls are better gaining experience with older people, if you could see that as a goal for your version of "love", like men don't grow gaining experience along women, but for them it "appears" later in life while the saint girl never have sex to gain the same experience...I say they gain as much experience, probably more complete and in a growing optic of true love, by experiencing their sexuality around exponential their same age. And I say around exponential, the younger the less age variation, and once a full adult at around 24 there should be no limitations. And why am I saying this? What do pedopsychiatric do with their great knowledge? They're trying to sell us such stuff, like homosexuality is normal, animals do it, since we're animals with a big brain "they" say...Maybe you should pass less time manipulating the mind of children don't you think? That way I wouldn't pass my time spraying moralization on you and your selection...

I don't care there are a thousand pressure groups and sects and religions, pity, compassion, pardon, therapy groups or whatever; they are inefficient if the reality doesn't care. One got to ask himself if all those bureaucracies exist for image, or just to preserve jobs dependent from the government, so some crimes are better accepted, tolerated, pardoned, they are eternal, to protect a systematization of misery and sufferings too, so you can have a good show sitting in front of your screen, question of proving you still got some life somewhere in there. To divert attention, to spread and evacuate willpower gotten from expressions of consciousness. They exist so we can feel lucky too; there's always someone worse than us...They exist so their expression can be controlled and studied for as long as it will takes for successful implementation as a tool of control to get the economy turning. But don't worry, the most empathic end-up as patchers, pyramid repairing function, or at the worst they'll fight only to keep pointers to problems visible while the pyramid prepare the terrain for the next levels, bigger stashes of human life energy in the controlling hands of ego people, billions of dollars, and no choice, things are fair like that, we condemned ourselves, gave them our soul, and now "love" them, admire them, need them publicized. And even if we wanted to stop these pyramids growing, we're in country competition, so everybody must fuck like crazy, unless Africans limited only by famines overwhelm the world unfairly...we're contraceptive overloaded but we still churn out, AAah! Wow! "Lovely" babies at boom-boom rate, we control population number with bomb fun and we direct civilization by crashing its economy into the walls of our ego, or incompetence and lack of vision...

But I was saying that maybe we're slowly preparing the terrain for pedophiles by encouraging the competition for profiting from innocence, using more and more efficient PMBBD on the young and using the internet to instill compassion for "loving" pedophiles, in fact using the same path homosexuality have taken to get going; ganging and playing with sentiments. If this reality lasts sufficiently long, they'll eventually build enough of a good image to hide their weird sexuality behind.

Instead of fully or adequately developing their mentality in equilibrium as loving people, in part because of an under meaning push suggesting girls are better having sex with experienced adults, a lot of the prettiest young girls get in the sex business or passed over by a trolley of different adult pedophiles long before they are adults themselves. In fact, the pressure pushes people to have sex as soon as possible, maximal experience "philosophy" oblige, like the reality need so much fresh skin it can't wait until people develop consciousness or independence, in fact it will make believe that people got these qualities long before it is the case, to manipulate them. What's more disgusting is that those "adults" got enough control to behave like any civilized citizen of this reality, but they can't control themselves fucking young people (rape, mind and body). They'll even defend themselves with scientific arguments, and it proves that they consciously want to do it, it's like a competition or a game to them.

The most interesting girls to me will forever more rarely end up as adequate at the right moment. Adequacy, don't forget that one, you may have an over exagerated opinion of yourself which will make tons of things inadequate, but don't worry, you're never entirely responsible...It's just that the adequate thing for people like me is called true love, and that's why it is normal that I'm a little frustrated here, because of the assumption, because that's supposed to be me, so much that even if I know that it's become a bad idea to make a girlfriend where I am now, I still can't mind myself to just get sex. People like me are as well abandon finding true love, that's for sure, since the ones with the best potential quickly become a competition ground for the dickheads and "experienced" pedophiles of this reality who make it a personal challenge to scrap them until only the strongest recuperate themselves. But I don't fall in love with such women, no future matron either, I'm a sensitive (not delicate) person and kind of cute, and full of good surprises... Maybe that's part of the goal too; to remove love from people with class, good men and good women, to make it impossible to develop people as truly loving, by eliminating the good path right from the start, which is to experience sexuality with the opposite sex around the same age.

Without mentioning the recipe of success (the general direction kids are supposed to go, if they are to trust adults that the history of grown people made things with them in mind), which I'm sure not a reflection, and my means, and the my style that is complex and long to reveal, and all the stuff that I believe in, as an adult it is even harder to find those attractive women who have not been sexually manipulated in youth by "adults", because, let's say the market doesn't work for my situation. And don't twist my words, not being profited from or manipulated from pressures doesn't mean innocence or virginity, but sexual losing of innocence often starts a lot faster under pressure, and it's made so big by the pub and movie industry that many people stay all their life innocent of most things except their sexual performance, work and ego, even if they're big at parties (watch out for bullshit). And I'll be the "bad" man for it in this reality, and the less innocent I become, the less choice. But too bad, I still wish, I still dream, I still pray, I still hope, too positive. The will to profit from innocence is a condemnation too, we are pedophiles unconsciously, we use love everywhere at all sauces for profit, or manipulation too, like we're making love world. Ther's a competition is so good. war to profiteers from innocence, a war not profiting peaceful people are sure to never win...

The way I see sexual diversity is from the eyes of innocence or a child. I personally like to think that sex should be a no profitability land to express love. Next, I like to see it as a no show-off thing too. I want clothes (no exaggeration, I like sexy women without too much on too) and I want pornography to be available but hidden, like a body under clothes. The same for the paths sexuality may take, I want to know all these paths exist but I want to try the mom and dad path first because it's the ideal path for true love, family and sexual normality. I want a sexy reality, not a sexual one and definitively not a bizarre one with gays dancing almost nude on allegoric cars.

If I must be indirectly encouraged or pushed to take one path, I want the pressure to be for the mom and dad scenario. I don't want to be told others paths are "bad" or "good", I want to know I can explore them if I am not happy in the normal path. So I don't want them exposed, I don't want them suggested, I don't want pressure, I want to know they exist, and I want to know I can explore them if I want, and that's all, all of this because I'm an innocent. When I'll know the mom and dad scenario is not for me, I won't be as innocent, and I'll be old enough to explore other paths. Am I crazy to think like that? I even like to think it cool to have all possibilities opened, but controlled and hidden. As an independent adult, can I have a social place where I can smoke and drink beer if there is a toxic sign on the door saying "for smokers past 21 only, enter at your own risk"? I'd like that! Why does some group is more adult than me and decided I have no right to have such a place? Even if I know it contain many chemicals (artificially made molecules) that will interact with other molecules in me creating harmful mutations, I'd go there as an adult past around 21. Now, if this reality wasn't so scared of people ready to risk dying to escape it, or appease their mental sufferings, or tear themselves apart to get the "best system" destroyed by the conflicts it created in their heads, maybe we could legalize most everything for adults. But you can't do that in this reality as you'd pass your time inventing false laws to control those legal publicists with their gangs seeking to profit from innocence by making drugs big and wonderful thing with women all around and pushing that those are for young people making parties while the trick is to stay forever young and be of the gang that drink far too much teeth whitener. The same kind of attitude applies to homosexuals; I want to have a specific ceremony to praise the true love of heterosexuality, even if it becomes bigger than Christmas and lasts one week, can I? The only tentative we had for true love was tranquil marriage, not even a festival! Maybe the ego ideology through religions made bad with it, but at least it had all the element to be the ceremony praising the ideal of true love, marriage as a good luck by life...

Furthermore, even if you remove love from the equation, you are still left with a ceremony limited to man and woman love in its definition, so why remove that special effect from them and change the definition for anybody? Why heterosexuals are not permitted to receive gay awards? Not the same? Exactly the same! One is a ceremony to reward the success of heterosexuality, the other is to reward the success of homosexuality! The definition of Olympic sports requires that you fit in the definition; do you think they'll change it because obese people can't be part of it? If I place a sign over my house "smokers enter at your own risks" will you cry until the law makes it so that I can't smoke in my house in your presence? (You can replace house by bar) then you'll sing about liberty? Ah, I get it, nothing to do with doing what's right, and everything to do with money and the system, you want the advantages of this sexual style called heterosexuality, legal advantages like the marriage thing of Christianity, but not take the sexual ways that comes with it? Your bad judgment makes you consider yourself an equal sexuality? One thing's for sure, talking inadequacy, I won't get married if I'm to finish this glorious day doing party on the theme of homosexuality, doesn't work with me...

Remember that while everybody wants love, the truth is that in the very best of realities you'll be very competent if a majority of the population have a true experience of it reflected as happiness through time, so any opportunity to help it should be considered. All that while knowing that I don't want to be told through PMBBD, by friends, by movies, by pub, by children animation etc, that I look like this or that or that I'm this or I'm that, and to be pushed to try this or try that, that it is cool to be this or that; sexually divergent people try very hard to see any doubtful little clues in others as a sign, that way they can win them away from any possibilities at the true and normal loving scenario. There is always an attitude or a way that is better, that is more "normal" globally, that's supposed to end-up as the basis for building a lasting and good civilization, and it's the way we must educate people too, it's the way we must encourage and put our emphasis on. It doesn't mean everybody should act the same; there is a better place and way for everything even if all principles can be twisted to destruction, liberty have a place and limits, the same for fairness, ego, love, everything.

To succeed we'll need to eliminate monetary pressures in youth. If we manipulate the youth away from their independence of choice, the same if we let them do what they want, it means we think the human under this form is not even worth an ideal, or survival, it becomes a pyramidal anarchy controlled by ego gangs of all kind deciding our liberties by their priorities. Finally, whatever criminals like to separate every facets of their life, like their sexuality or work, to make it something apart and manipulate opinions, you stay one person, one historical total that will always be looked, and be judged, as such. There are not 3-4 of you, only one, and it includes your sexuality; make the best of this aspect of yourself too.

If we want to make of love transmitting through the mom and dad scenario the exceptional or rare thing, if we want fuck all free for all sex as the normal way, if we want to have children by fucking randomly, if we want girls to have sex with older people for the all-important sexual experience as an argument for a civilization of pedophiles, then go ahead, let everybody be adult at 16 and become prostitutes (escorts) and later in life choose a different path, let's put the emphasis on trading monetarily our bodies to older successful people, the path on which we put the pressure to teach our youth! What I want is a normal basic path to start with, and I'll deviate (yes deviate) as I get older if I must, that's how the mind works, it optimizes reality in the youth so we can live in the reality most people accept as "normal". And later, when we're adults, we use our consciousness ad comprehension to change options to our preferences, or change reality (with help).

Present people "love" innocence too much; they don't like as much the end result that spring from their way of "loving" them though, even if it is through the ways of the reality they encourage. Some "love" so much to see innocent things, they'd prefer them to stay forever that way, and the reality is a reflection of this; it uses tons of PMBBD to mix people in disinformation, divert their attention, hide stuff that could change their opinions, and more, all that to profit from them, connect their life energy to the machine while they learn to get an expertise, and a debt, while they run, and have entertainment, that way they won't get too educated, and only the most willing will go far; systemized profiting from imposed innocence... Yet, aren't we supposed to better like the result of what we do with innocence? The adults we produce? Maybe we are in such a fantastically evil reality that we prefer people to stay innocent as an unconscious form of protestation. As for love in all that, isn't it strange that love is highly dependent from innocence level to a certain point in this reality? What happens when we grow as adults? We become so twisted, perverse and innocent evil from encouraging the reality that we abandon true love, it becomes a fixation or fails? It end-up in conflict with our philosophy of profiting from life? Is it a waste of time and effort because the reality invalidates most of it through PMBBD pressures? So we "love" young innocence better because we still haven't proved our lack of judgment, our incompetence, our evils through them? They can become a president! Virgin lands are where potential reside, an independent being possesses these lands, you cannot steal or destroy in competition these of others for self-interests, you complement them and you teach the independent use of them, and for that you need more than example, you need a systematization that go toward the best or ideal path, the one with the most long term possibilities too.

That's why, at the ridiculous level it have become, I say sexual "divergence" is wanted and encouraged by the system as a critical economic function. Most people must become adept of something weird and defend it, until normality is seen as bizarre or monotonous. With sufficient media manipulation and pressure people now accept that kids have sex with adults at 14, (16 in retarded places, 18 you have to be an Inuit...), but to me it's not a question of "accepting" that my kid of 14 have sex with an old man.... It's like fucking aliens, I'm not interested in fucking any sexy alien I meet (I'm not talking about people painted blue or with a weird head), what is that? It's the same kind of weirdness as pedophilia and is related to the ego ideology where god in human image made everything, possess and control everything, and fuck everybody...

Anyway, he who desires to fuck with an alien is the same kind of weird as a he who desires to have sex with kids. I don't care movies make it acceptable, movies and TV will twist everything in this reality, even such qualifiers as disgusting and weird have their meaning twisted upside down by media manipulators (movies always included), and the cost of these conflicts (for the fun of evil at it) in the minds of masses is a handicap to life evolution as a whole too.

If the entertainment industry likes so much twisted sex it is because it is the most important, personal and valuable thing to most people, the thing that makes us live among the strongest emotions, and we can make all kind of sources of profits from these, in this land of opportunity... So let's make a big show of it, until superstars fuck and in movies or on stages if needs be, let's make sex books movies that can be watched under 18, and get those drag queens in it, it will impress the children, get the show going, there's still controversy to be found there! It will go on until most people have nothing left as special to themselves, nothing that really touches them with sustainability, we will be fake people seeking quick emotion everywhere, seeing life's basic needs as the last refuges of pride, and a fuck this way and that to feel alive as we sing about love.

This economy fares better with dysfunctional couples and peoples full of personal problems (FPP), think of all the industries involved; if we suddenly developed wisdom, the system would crash, and almost half people would lose their jobs. Long term relations are too boring for the system, unless you want babies in which case the system will make life more difficult for you, you need to be an extrovert running everywhere around spending money (get the economy turning) and fuck as much as possible while they can, nonstop make a market of our prettiest girls so the rich can fuck nonstop, when they'll finally get the cure of jouvence, and live eternally with "their" reservoir of life energy (money to buy the cure...) We're already prepared, the entertainment industry does its job of filling people's mind with its "education" and people become a reflection of it with lots of time. It made people dependent and by its manipulation goals it is slowly destroying everything good for it. It's almost a crap drug that don't give an effect anymore, but if the dosage is not strong enough, then people make a depression...

But we're controlling pornography no? It's totally under control! We build 1 mega server center every week to contain it, and it doesn't spill in the ocean! No, but the dam is dick erosion critical, soon it will unleash a torrent of porn...I mean, the façade of bullshit is starting to be quite thin, be careful or it will crumble to reveal the evil behind and it won't be pretty at all... But media people are slowly preparing humanity to it by banalising it, so go ahead, continue stuffing young people with senseless or crazy stuff on Viagra, ecstasy and chocolate aphrodisiacs overdrive, and you can throw in some energy drinks for good measure...you're bound to fuck any hole with that! Why is it so easily available? And why can't you better control the pub? You need it? Good people need this everywhere? Ah, sorry, it is "normal" like it is "normal" to have easy access to animal stuff...Where are the good people who are excited by this? None? Then why is it available so easily? There is a growing market for it? And a market is sacred and must forever grow? I guess I'm a retard, it's logical that we must fuck animals if we are to fuck aliens someday, like in all those movies where they seems to think racial harmony can only be attained by fucking. But, but, they're cute! They have a human feature! Like chimps? And don't bring me your stupid consensual argument to defend your crap.

Now, I can guess some will come at me saying all this porn is meant to eliminate the legendary "alpha male". I don't know what the definition of alpha male would be for us, but one way or the other it would be another load of bullshit since the reality is exactly the contrary; the internet is the most wonderful nest of pedophiles and sex weirdoes, and they reinforce their attitude and gain new members every day, as for rape, there is probably far more than before when you take all factors in consideration, like GHB which is cheap and easily available.

Now that we're deep in it, and in the name of simplicity, we're as well mostly accept it as it is, let's just say that the current generation did the biggest online porn pile, due to poverty and debt and drugs mostly, an after effect of any advanced civilization I suppose, they'll prove...

Then there's the big dick competition that is so intense lately it has become the main ground for racism, and the main criteria for women to choose a partner. I'm not sure I'm exaggerating, but it's understandable it's always been a source of comparisons, but really, you got to compete for women with the size of your dick? Stupid dickhead vs stupid dickgirl! It's the new superior race? Stupid Blacks dickheads boasting they got the biggest dick all over the world, then stupid scientist dickheads make a study measuring and categorizing dicks ending up proving scientifically the final truth which is that stupid white dickheads got the biggest dicks of the world, and then, stupid Chinese dickheads jump in the competition fray with videos of their biggest dick, but it was a falsified dick, little dicks cheated with Photoshop, and the whole world heard it in the news, and now they're disqualified from the biggest dickhead competition! And all this for who? Women, yeah, I guess it was too easy to learn how to make "love" to a nigger without getting tired...No, but where does that come from? Because you know, Hercules, they didn't sculpt him with the biggest dick of the world...Well, I guess that for Barbie material girls there is not much else to do than talking sex, but with your version of love? Guaranteed that I won't make a family in your reality, I'll let you continue your selection the way you like it until the day comes where women and men start respecting each other. And everything matters, including dick size, form, smell, so we'll have to do something that make sense to end all this hypocrisy. I guess that's what count in their matriarch dreams of an ant society, dicks, and slaves...Start to look at a mind first before looking in the pants, then maybe you'll find people like me and finally reproduce their rarity, they're surprisingly fun, and my dick is more than big enough btw, and I don't need pills! And I don't fuck whores and easy girls, I'll go for rubber instead, at least it's neutral... everything is about the mind, even sex, even if some say it's an animal out of control thing, for whatever manipulative reason, probably because balls tingle and it's a sign of sex, but I'm the beast here, caged at it, and I say it is mostly in the mind, so shut-up, and the best sex is with the best minds too, unless you confound best minds with incomplete or deficient minds.... But all that is probably too much for most gremlins who couldn't care less anyway, all they care about is adapting, copying, competing for more, enforcing the law, things like that; being a contributing part of whatever is pushed by the media industry...

What's more, even if porno movie may have good moments, I can get a lot hornier if I "watch" my imagination, and it's surely not you that will teach me the dangers of mixing too much imagination with sex. So I say this need for pornography is exaggerated by all kind of profit structures, and it represent a lot, and I mean a lot of sickness out there, the result of the rich monopolizing the prettiest girls, love unfairness, or adequacy too difficult, and I say twisted sexmaniacs who dream of having sex in front of millions are no better than pedophiles too. And systematic censorship is not an option as it does the contrary, it limits the liberties of those who don't abuse.

But I'm still frustrated, you're just lucky I understand my frustration with adequate intelligence so I can work on the source of the problem, not the same as the frustration of the brainwashed who refuse to take responsibility, too occupied inflating their ego and pride to survive until they are failed adults, frustration in the ego innocent tends to end in regrettable decisions, or to befall the sane, that's why some people feel me, they feel themselves wrong when I'm around, and that's how it should be when good people walk among gremlins. I guess people just reap the failures that they sleep with as evolution failures too...

So if you want to discard my opinion by saying I'm frustrated, then revise your bullshit psychology, everybody has frustrations, I know mine, that's the difference. And you don't have to go nuts because there's one guy in all the people you'll ever meet who believe too much sex everywhere is a bad thing, and who has the guts to explain why logically, that what makes a good civilization got a lot to do with the vision people have of sex and love. And by the way, I attract women, I got more than enough penis and balls, and I can be fun at the height of my imagination, I really connect intensive with some women, it's just that is particularly difficult in my situation, my place, my means, and there's always a problem. I can talk to people (but no need to), but someone I'm attracted to is more complicated, I hate showing off so what the fuck do I do? I hate competition (I like it for fun, but love is serious business...), and finding love in public like it's a social thing is too unlikely, even in a bars (the only option available to me, and yes I tried them all, my place is just too small and far to have a decent system for meeting people on the internet, I don't drink and I smoke a little so that's enough; I hate bars. Why not a bar for smokers only? And if it gets popular, open another one! And yes I can drink alcohol, heavily, but how can I afford anything in a bar anyway? And I never met someone my style, there was a telephone system that worked though, but that disappeared when media people of big cities publicized internet meeting as working for everybody (it works for the old, women and for sex, the rest (guys in their prime) waste their time and money to get rid of fake profiles and bots who are the biggest source of revenues for these sites (when they are not involved in online sex and sex scanners and pedophilia circles and human trafficking (I added "for politicians" but that sounded not serious, weird...) and drug...So I guess stalking in the dark with a rock is my best chance...

For some time I told myself it's because I'm in hell, and a good person would naturally feel uncomfortable in hell, nice, until you realize that bullshit makes people come to the wrong conclusions about this hell vision I'm having...I'm into religions is the fastest assumption, or I'm full of bullshit, then I have to explain worse stuff, like good and evil, sinking even more...Yes I do believe in things, in fact I believe that I believe in thing no human has believed in yet, probably, I challenged everybody, searched everywhere...

About the why, as a sensitive person (not just myself, don't worry...), why after passing 15 years devoid of human contacts, and maybe with half an hour total of expressing myself verbally (consisting mainly of "hi" "tank-you" and "have a nice day"), why without T.V. and internet (installed the internet lately), why with all this time of fantastic unsatisfied needs that should belongs to the worthy place of my soul, in a mind and in a body that is in shape, why the conclusion is that I wouldn't dare contribute? I can still have everything, everything is fantastic, life, love, stars, perfection, comprehending things as a free mind, but I still hate this reality, because it limits my thinking, because I know it is retarded, that it is evil, that it will condemns life to death. And that's the difference, you can give me or sell me the most beautiful, the dream, but I will not take it if it comes with evil machinations, and copying is never the original, and that's why I consider it the grandest privilege to live what I live, in face of success or failure, to live it with a head full of ideas, with all the feelings, to see the situation unfold, and to maybe have something to say in it. I'm tasting a bit the human dream...

My point is that living at a minimalist standard of living, becoming a monk or a beast, whatever suits my fantasies, I found another power , and no it's not survival, it is exploration, the unknown. Survival is kind of a top priority, but exploration is the fun part to me (to better survive). I believe that at a personal level you are rewarded in feeling of fulfilment and happiness based on the type of exploration you make and your discoveries.

I still could adapt to this "hell", but the more I look at it, the more I understand its history, the more it scares me. No, at the worst you can destroy my work and push me to suicide, because I have a blockage, I just can't, I'd feel like a traitor. But I'm trying to comprehend why, and I'm in harmony as soon as I disconnect, it's like the opposite away from where I should be, which has become inaccessible, it's too far away, half the resources are spent, what remains is more costly and polluting to extract, and all the biohazards, so what can I say? I'm just alone and I don't even want to breath this air, so far that I can only suppose that I'm here on purpose, it's like a whole world made just to piss me off perfectly, to minimize my type.

They say girls aint got the self-esteem to approach guys, and me I aint got the money to have the self-esteem to invite in my rat's hole. Or is it self-confidence? I think I have self-esteem, so it's self-confidence. But how can you write such a book without self-confidence? I have extreme self-confidence and extreme self-esteem, I believe in myself and in what I stand for, so it's all between me and the girls... or is it proportional to the feeling that I'm at my place? I would guess so, environment or situation dependent, but definitively not in the same way as most people; hell has me at my worst, I try to show my good side you're missing in my work, and I try to stay hidden like a rat, to prevent the black beast doing anything stupid, and I barely manage...

If I don't get the feeling that we are going to do something more than just sex, then I'm out. Next is a desire to place truth and bullshit at their right place, if you tell me lots of bullshit seriously I'm out, but bullshit as sarcasm is different, then there is always a floating level of bullshit, I'm aware of that, the same for seduction games, I was going to add prettiness and liking sex, but I can't even meet the mental parameters I desire which would make someone like me happy, unless, evidently, that I embark in the system and stop writing, which I will not do, because there are billions doing it for crap! Just like fucking, you think you'll impress me fucking? You're wrong, the internet is full of fucking, all sides all forms, one of the main reason bullshit is causing the decline of humanity is this competition of fucking. True love is what impresses me, but I'm ready to bet that I'm more competent sexually than most of the boasting continual fuckers of this reality!

Now, since everything got to be connected, I'll say that's why I'm against too much sexy visibility, because sex is the most precious personal attribute people have, and making it banal will just make the human more of an empty shell to me, less interesting, and I'll slip further away in inexistence, but at least I'll do it along with humanity, if that could be of some comfort... So how will I adjust reality for the likes of me? Effective violence is a property of the rich, and to them what can't be monetized (including love) cannot exist. My fight is lost in advance, unless I invent a new reality, and throw it on the pile of bullshit, for people without love judgment to reject it. (bulllshit and judgment, make the connection...)

Talking of judgment, you have to take mine with a grain of salt since the thing believe that humanity will fail and that I can prevent it, can you believe that? I would be inclined to keep such imagination to myself but I'm slowly passing from having faith in humanity to losing it. So you see, it's like karma, I'll still try to do it, I owe it to life, that way I can't be sorry, whatever or not people take the steps necessary to change things. People will have to drop their frustrations to succeed, frustrations I'm exposing but not responsible for (you can be frustrated of fighting for and believing in a system emotionally to the point of saying stupid things, and just because of the emotional reinforcement you'll never change the wrong belief, people build stuff and projects from their youthful judgment, and a lot of the more effective part of their life is trying to justify old decisions, but it is how you become a man or a woman, by breaking from the past, from innocence, by eliminating or compartmenting experiences that are a drag to the direction you want to push in...That's the bit I'm telling you, my specialty (taken out of context that's quite a common boast, why would you believe me? you take no shit from nobody now right? Well, unless you're too well brainwashed to egocentrism, then you, somewhere, as a normal person I like to think, do try to have notions of what's right or wrong, but that would amount to compare humanity to one person, so instead we'll call it good and evil. At the minimum.

You think a worthless fucker would write a philosophical and spiritual book like mine? Fight for true love? Or even take the time to read it? I think only those who really care for love and life will appreciate it. In fact, as I wrote the second version I came to feel extremely lonely, and I tried to get my ex love to help me. People can appreciate the end result, but I'm talking about the loneliness of writing my kind of stuff. It's like the apostles thing, there are no apostles that could have really helped me, they would have been a handicap one way or another, only love could have helped me, and it's not a matter of adding philosophy or spirituality, it's a matter of interest and exchange and feelings.

And I know what I write is far from all pretty, but you think I should write peaceful stuff? Or why should I fight for true love if it is fine to me? If reality is doing the right thing with love and sexuality to you then read something else, politely, but me I don't want this reality to impose me its pressures, or PMBBD over my sexuality, this may be interesting to dependent people with an atrophied imagination, but not me, I want the pleasure of discovering some things by myself, sexuality is one of those, I am creative and imaginative, nor prude or shy, and I don't need to go through your impositions, I'm not awaiting to be shown the next revolution. Do I have to repeat? I want the pleasure of discovering some things by myself, can I? Do I have to hide in woods? Sexuality is one of those, and yes I want pornography, but not as a pressure and full of evil behinds, I could even say it's one of the rare place where there should be no pressure to lose innocence, to some extent, but this reality works very hard to do exactly the contrary, making of it a banal, a free for all party. And, contrary to a lot of people, I can truly love a woman, even if I'm not currently sexually active. I want to understand and be with my girl through time, not as a temporary show-off trip, or to show her how PMBBD I am by PMBBD her in turn to what twists I endorse from the reality, falsifying the truth of me, or wear her like a dress to hide my mental incapacities, displacements or enslavement. Maybe I'll never have sex again but whatever; I'll always make enemies from being pushed or manipulated to it.

But I won't incite to violence (drop axe), you must write happy sexy books these days, so things change for the better, so I'll close my mouth and wish you worse than HIV instead. Maybe not, because it is too late, nobody is game enough to stop this craziness, most are members or defenders, they encourage it and the rest accept, tolerate and adapt instead of fighting it. It will take love intervention as an entity to wipe this machine off this planet. But it's not a very realistic wish, so continue doing your twisted hardcore porno overload revolution everybody "normal" should watch for their education. Anyway, these are personal things, disassociated so don't judge, and the producers don't try to embark others except everybody in the world, and no president except me would dare limit their liberties. Still, it's not because you successfully brainwash the whole population by manipulating its pleasure of sex through easy access hardcore pornography that it is the best path of sexuality or love, and I'll concede that's it's a bit unrealistic and wouldn't be very much middle line to interdict the filming of nude women, but again it's not a problem if it's at its right place, and if it's to become an inevitability, then you're as well quickly set the best path of it, before profiteers jump in the cake, but too late here...

The bigger the ego, the bigger the will to compete for control; governments, scientists, psy, publicists, artists, bureaus, they all control some of our liberties and they all think they make the world go round and that they're good and creating evolution with their manipulations. But I'm not supposed to decorticate everything to find the truth you know, I'll hate to be human if I must pass my time asking myself if I'm not being unconsciously manipulated, or if i'm doing the right thing. But I'll concede that it would look bad starting a movie with the truth about its main goal, like; "This is a movie made for adolescents in mind, not adults, it encourages fuck all sex, drinking of alcohol, competition for profiting and desecrating of love as the main emphasis, but we added a twisted morale so mothers think there's a lesson to learn, and some emotions so it pass better as artistry. The artists and producers like, encourage and endorse these as normal attitudes to grow young people healthily, or these are things exemplary adults dealing with masses encourage, and it is publicized to the maximum because we want to profit as much as we can, whatever the level of innocence." Cool, now I'd close my mouth reading that, even if it is too late for it. Want another one? ; "All women in this pornographic movie get sodomized by men on Viagra because the artists likes it and encourage it as much as possible as a good thing, and we call it anal love so we get more adepts and get it better accepted and make more profits". Maybe I'm exaggerating, but I could add a lot more, and it is not a warning, it is information about content and the philosophy behind the movie, every producer should start its movie by a message about his goals, how he's a good citizen, even what he likes. And you don't have to make it long, remove some end scriptures, or replace the copyright message with a personal message, you're sending something to masses, you got to talk a little about you, a page at the start of a book, a screen at the beginning of a movie.

People must know what kind of person is behind things affecting them, read this over and make a flag with it. And the more people you want to affect, the more must be known about you. I could add that evil likes to affect masses with PMBBD while hiding, but in this final reality, everybody got to hide like rich "gods" because it is too late, we are a condemned reflection of the dreams of the "gods" we created, and those are very fearful. So I guess me too should live in fear. And it doesn't have to be like that, it's just another condemnation which will lead to eventual massive or costly problems one way or the other. As for controlling content, except for children, you must put the control in the hands of the viewer, some excellent solutions are possible for that, like coded categorizing, but they are not used because it is a reality of profiteers and you don't remove the control off their hands, a market must grow, and too late, look! Ego is already in the cake, it is systemized, humanity is condemned to it...

Now, young people must have movies, even if I passed my youth without some and didn't die out of it. I think a lot is good except the vampire and the stupidity stuff. Vampire movies are a proof that twisted sexualities and love desecration for profit are encouraged in this reality; there are far too many movies for adolescents full of vampire love which is the worst perversion ever invented. The same for sex, some level of sex movies can be acceptable, but the youth only got one mess of a pile of hardcore pornography blown at them and they got to embark their need for affection and sexual urges in the free for all, and nobody is affected badly. And I don't like sex as a joke or a fun free for all libertine activity, if the movie industry can't skip distributing such ideals to young people, it should get reformulated with better minds, but it would be better if the reality stopped seeing the youth as a source of profit altogether. But go ahead, dismantle all the institutions that encourage or profit from innocence, including the learning ones, since many schools are not teaching a good way of things and life, some I would even qualify as evil institutions encouraging the destruction of all good principles of life and human values to provide jobs, institution specializing in the destruction of love too, worthless for learning something good except names, philosophy of stupidity, PMBBD, getting a job for money, team sports, stuff by heart etc, a lot of schools are not driven by good principles and ideals, you don't learn to become an independent good human there, you lean to become a gregarine dependent indoctrinated part of reality, how to fit in the system of superiority competition, how to enjoy money, alcohol, drugs, sex, party, all the "good" of this reality, and profiting from life as much as you can while you can for sure too. Many are places that develop evil brain-dead people with a specialty, encouraging and defending and working for this reality all their life guaranteed. But you'll end-up with far more worth of and education than me, don't worry, and I surely won't say you don't learn a job.

But I'm just a moralist party breaker, looking for his punisher powers... I don't want to generalize, but I still say that you gain more negative than positive as human value in many learning institutions. I like to be independent but I prefer to live in a prison with a good free mind than having it formulated to fit a comportemental pattern. And I say that you're in deep when you lose the liberty to be independent of evil from what you hear or see, when education is limited to serves the wheel of unfairness instead of growing better people, when love and society's sanity is not reflected by exemplary loving parents. Those who think current problems are because things are not like in the good old days should think about that too, good old day will never come back! Good old days led to the current days, be proud! But understand that it could be totally different.

Not everybody wants to accept and tolerate anything, some want the liberty to keep some sensibilities, and I'm not moralist, I want fairness, I want as much to have the right to not see some things as you have the right to impose your things! See the difference? You are the problem, not me! I want my liberty of choice, my memory would feel less invaded, or imposed or tricked, I can skip it, or stay innocent of some things by choice, or limit some things to develop other things; and the same for singers, all television shows, and all those cartoons targeting children. We need to better categorize content, no need for censorship, and only an evil manipulator would complain about his twisted stuff not being available to kids.

But some would lose a percentage of their profits, yes, and people won't have their liberties stolen or invaded by profiteers, they'll know, and be independent of decision, then they can light a joint and laugh if they want, and it will be all-right like that. Normal movies are not much of a problem, but the hardcore porno free for all need severe limitations, but maybe I'd ask too much of your liberties to ask you to eliminate porno pedophilia where all those adolescents are always 18 years old a few years later? Nobody should complain no? It is only a very small minority that watches it... Strange that at 8 billion I feel so lonely and crazy to suggest such things, and it's not even crazy.

I want to know what will enter my head, or I'll do as I've been doing in the last 10 years; watch practically nothing and listen to nothing and live alone my revolt against this reality as I fight for my free mind. People must have the independent choice of these liberties they can have by saying the truth.

Why are we are under so many different sources of pressures and autosuggestions if it has no effect? Because we all unconsciously know we become what we want, it's just unconscious evidence from our effects on reality, do an action, reap a reaction, and no amount on moron or means will contradict the fact that we change from the actions we take upon ourselves. We are stolen a big part of that capacity to become what we want by all kind of ways in youth, and we lose a lot more by interdependences, from all those gangs that control our liberties and make of us what they want with PMBBD, by pressure selection too, the older, the more condemned, and that's worse in a reality full of rutting profiteers who are in a competition to win people to their twisted mentality, sexuality, version of love, etc. And it is not done by a single movie or image, it is done by repetition, weeks, months, years, lifetime, civilization time, every one of these time slabs control and decide the tangent some of our developing facets take in the race to conquer the world, until we all become interdependent and attached together as an ecosystem following a global direction in all the vastness of its limited diversity, we end up condemned with scientists and psy to make final affirmations that we are like this and that.1/4

Love is the capacity of a person to appreciate another person through time, make an enjoyable story, maybe even a family. It is a test of your judgment, of your social skills, of what you are and how you develop (change). Evidently, it is unrealistic that this scenario work with innocents, that's in part why love is an adult thing, kids need to discover where they are comfortable, but the reality is biased toward the mom and dad scenario. I personally think the ideal is find love around 25, have children around 35, before 25 you find your path and you try to become good at love if possible. Like me, if after many tentative you can't live a long time with someone without turning frustrated, then it means you don't care that much about love, maybe you can't truly love, or you're unlucky, or the reality makes it too hard, or you still got to learn a lot concerning other peoples than yourself, because yes, true love is learning to be human, to be civilized. But you don't have to go crazy about it, they are very rare those who will succeed in youth, even at adulthood, particularly in this reality. And that's not all, true love to me is a developing human unique modifier, or a developing new truth (facet) if you prefer, an evolution step, something that will come to take a more physical form, some facet of developed for more ease through reproduction if we sufficiently care for it, appropriate to our complexity. That's why I don't have much respect for all those love failures who think they justify their twisted vision of love with manipulative books or videos, not a single one cares for the ideal of love, and I despise the forever growing mass of mentally handicapped people who embark in all those trends publicized like educational material by media manipulators.

Isn't it strange that with so much love thrown around these days we still don't see an effect on reality? What is the percentage of families that are a reflection of love? Something is wrong somewhere! Like for everything else, there is a best path of love and a worst one, or there is the truth of love and the bullshit of it (the truth is where it can't be replaced by another word). I will sound pretentious, but I believe I'm among the exceptionally rare to see how valuable it is in all its interrelations, and it lead me to better associate the right emotion to the right word, reinforcing my position on love, i try not to use it as a synonym of affection, strong liking, understanding, sex, etc, such things can form love but they aren't. So love is now my sacred word. Some people care about not swearing, they control their language by not taking what they consider bad habits, which it is if it works, with a few exceptions in the adequate context like hitting their little toe, but they don't like to hear others swear without thinking. Me I don't much care about swearing or dirty talking, I often do it, but I care about love more than swearing for sure...So when you use love out of its true context it's a bad habit of language, and I don't like it, even if I can tolerate it.

Love does not appear during rainbows with magic people flying in the air and happiness proportional to distance from Jesus, no, it's not like that, this vision is pushed by a media consortium full of industrial pedophiles who have no idea what love is, and they confound everything into it, I think it's Christianity, the industry of pedophiles that confound everything... When you are comfortable all the way to intimacy with someone, comfortable under a maximum of situations through time, then this comfort may be love, but sometimes you can be the greatest person and still never find love all your life, because that's the way of life. To have love you must accept the contract that you may never find it, and if your problems, whatever they are among the billions of problems, makes you twist the vision of love in others so you can have an emotional feeling that has nothing to do with love, well, sorry to announce the news, but that's evil.

I'm one of those who "lie to themselves" and can't look at women like pieces of meat, so when someone show me his new catch or present me a piece, I just say she's cute or something like that even she's not my taste at all. Women are complete complementary persons, a total I can't judge at first sight, but I got to say that lightning strikes happens, either this or I have to know the person very well. This illusory lack of interest for the social fish and my long time alone makes me abnormal, and so, for "normal" people, I'm gay, and the longer they know me without a woman, the more they believe it's the case; a few years alone and most of your "friends" think you're a "secret" homosexual, so that doesn't help me appreciate the concept of homosexuality much. Depending on the attitude of the person, I can say that I'm waiting for the good one, but true love is the ultimate taboo presently I'm less strange saying all kind of stupid sex thing and fucking mindless than talking about love.

If I get too many answers to the effect that my testicles will jam, or that I'll blow her to the roof, things like that, then I may answer that I would think about it if there were not so much stupid competition around the rare ones interesting to me, or instead of presenting me all those old "friends" he passed over, he could try to present me someone more my kind, which not many people are born to be the friend of. Some even boast their sexual exploits with their old flame, like I'm supposed to get an erection, but instead of upsetting the local populace directly, I become more romantic, so when people push too much I simply tell them to be patient, that my woman is coming, she just need a message from me and some preparations. Some laugh, some stupidities, some want more of the mentally sick or bizarre kind of fun, if only there were interesting girls around, but no, worthless troubles, unless there are too many rutting assholes strangely attracted to me while I'm a little drunk myself, happened once, then I may add some ugly things my love would do to some type of people... That was long ago, I wouldn't say things like that today, but I got all kind of reactions to such sarcasm tainted answers, all negative, I even got in a fight defending my "spiritual" love, but nobody got the complete story of how I see her.

Before falling asleep, I often invent crazy adventures, they're like movies I play in, I cumulated many of those with time and I fall asleep in them like someone would do in front of his television. I perfect and readjust them and sometimes develop different branches of the same scenario as I grow older. I have a few such women, some are more fantastic, some more sexual, some women from dreams too, but for my woman from the sky, I like to see her as an embodiment of love, life and good, and we are currently engaged in a galactic prevention campaign against evil.

As for socialization circles, the default lowest one is still the best I tried, even if I don't like its ways; gothic ways in "new" buildings, no wonder people dress so much in black, maybe with enough pollution it will become darker and vampires will start to fly, we'll finally be able to see and shoot them. Now, supposing you'd find me socializing, you'd probably judge me cold with people, I don't talk much, not shy but tranquil, but I'll take the mood to some extent; I'll help someone, I'll play a game, say this or that, no speeches from me, unless there are only women and no more than a few; most women like to exchange with me, but I banished serious talking when guys are around or competition shows its nose. This is the sermon of my life, even if I know how I am, my mind got a momentum, it will continue to elaborate, but at that point I'll see it as decorations. So I'll be done with my troubles expressing myself on subjects that touch me profoundly, I may even sign a peace treaty with this reality!

Now, I may be different today, but I still can't look at women solely as physical with some intelligence, whatever the alcohol, and I'm courteous with everybody, unless you're evidently disagreeable or ask my true opinion, which I may be more reticent to tell if you're a man; look in this book. It doesn't take me long to notice the girls who can interest me and once I know I'm totally hypocrite concerning the physical or beauty; it's a step, let's see attitudes now, I'll come back to the body only after gathering sufficient information about the mind. That doesn't help make me competent too because the no brain philosophy is concentrated on the body and sexual activities, and the selection sees it as the normal path, so I must continually show physical interest and I seem to be unable to do it again without feeling hypocrite unless the attitude step is passed, exactly the contrary of all the people I knew, but after that, within the love bubble, everything goes...

Now, all this is just a tentative at explaining, but any factor that I see as probably leading to future difficulties or conflict, I pass, I eliminate from attitudes, from boyfriends, etc. Now, as I'm not in enough troubles, I'll have to find something to say that she hadn't heard a hundred times, not some classic, no seduction (that's for love), a way to turn around the pot of misunderstanding to end up understanding each other. That's the point where this super sociable and turbo communicating humanity is with its words that means 3 different things, but too bad for me, too long to select and find the opportunity because I cannot do it when others are watching or turning around as I would want to grab them all by the collar to explain how they should mind their fucking business, until I feel I have sufficient intimacy to talk plainly. The justification must coincide with the opportunity, that's the only way I can approach someone publicly, but I'd have no problem if it was her that did it. Once this impossible step is passed, I'll quickly conclude, if love is possible. Now, that's a bit of an idealization, but I believe i behave as I should, whatever the results are nil in this reality. And even if I mentalise things today, making things more complicated or difficult (don't worry, the benefits far outweigh the disadvantages...), I've had a few opportunities to socialize with 3-4 women when I was younger, and even if my attitude was not entirely the same, I was still in control of my dick. I mean I enjoyed them, and I could have had sex, but I didn't because of all kind of details. So you see, I've always carried this selective sex attitude that is better adequate for true love, even if I failed in this reality.

At some point in my life I met the exceptional girl, made for the exceptional me, and she left me with that feeling that I'll always be happy and at my place with those people who can love. But today it is inexistent in my life, in part because of reality's ways that developed to work against me, but because of time too, and my complexity that increased tremendously. Writing has become a responsibility a top priority, and I wouldn't write this book as fast in love, unless I find someone that could be of help, so I'm like wanting, but I always end-up deciding I'm better to finish this to be in peace of my own pressures before doing so, not to feel bad passing some time in love or taking care of it. So I don't fear my lack of performance, I fear finding all my time available to make love perfect.

I do like to play games, so I sure wouldn't want to limit my sex fun, but in reality? Never appreciated the dominator concept that this reality is built upon, the competition of everything, all the way to our integrity; as we sing love we cement hell in competition... I don't see women or men as equal or superior sex, more like plug and play, so the right mathematics to word association is complementarity. I'll be against any form of sex competition except for games, and that shouldn't prevent me from trying to perform in whatever I chose to do, even becoming the best. That's another contortion of our minds encouraged by religions; competition of everything until only one winner, god, the center of the universe, so superior that women are automatically disqualified. Man and woman are complementary, and instead of building a reality around men, we should have built it around both, each with emphasizes, like women which are better at bearing child ("better" just to shut the mouth of people who think men and women should be equals, they are not and never will), and I like to think they got more sense with their ego too (better understand necessity).

Being at the bottom, I have come to better appreciate those people who are not attracted or impressed by the smell of money in people, or their size, or too much how they look. There are even people who make babies because they think they'll be good parents, not for their pleasure or for bosses or for the country, or for the economy, before they are old enough to understand all the implications (this is valid for the present not the past). Some people are attracted to others by simplistic clues, maybe out of fear of themselves or loneliness, whatever, for me it's more complex and I wouldn't take a single step on the ground of image in this reality, making love worse than hard to find and approach for someone in my self-imposed situation.

I got to say my limited experience is not sufficient to know them much too. I have experience with myself though, whatever some psy would want to turn that to a negative point and spread it. But in general what I say applies to both genders so it's no problem. The girl I loved most was very different from any others I have met, so I'll consider her as a rare exception. What's more, even if I'm supposed to be a rutting sexmaniac, and have everything to be, I had sex with 5 girls in a 4 year window of my life, and far from all pleasant. And since maximal sexual activities is proven as the good way by science because it gives bonus experience which in turn must be used to educate young girls with Viagra, learning sodomy and controlling their vomiting and things like that, which comes with the job, related to experience and evolution and "love", I'm kind of missing the boat for the future, so no, I truly don't know much about women. And I'm not ugly, it's just a confluence of factors. For years I was open to love, but the need is just as strong as my revolt, and given time, I needed more time, to the extent of dealing my sanity. But I won't skip my attitude that bought me to this point; my combination doesn't fit, I don't find socialization circles I like, and I can ruin my life for principles that mean nothing to this reality.

To continue on a more negative note, I'll say that I don't know on what qualities most women accept to get in bed with men but it simply doesn't make any sense to me, and it's quite well reflected by our phenomenal love failure, rate, there's really quite a chasm between the first impression and the failure moment, that I sure won't entirely put on the back of lack of judgment, let's say it comes with the ideology, the boasting, the competition for survival, for the male, for the female, but the survival epoch ended long ago, the only reason we are still under a survival system is that old ego people condemned life to it to keep an unfair situation going unnoticed, and the irony is that in the end it will cause our extinction, because survival is complex and involves a fantastic quantity of knowledge, and a tool that permits better survival in a situation is far from giving the same result in another one, and survival itself changes...

We're lucky old times are horrid, because I'm really not impressed by the quality of the offspring people bring to this world these days, and the increase degeneration of the strategies they use for care. There's a damning lot of kids who end-up dealing with the problems of their parents, or end-up more responsible than them, and what kid likes emotively unstable parents? (good to be emotive if it makes sense, but bad to make an incompetent show of it to your children). Weird sex parents anybody? That's the result of an inadequate love vision or relation, adequacy is a complex principle, but easy to understand, then there is complementarity... Baby churning out is not much of a good reproduction strategy too, the way I see life and the mind, you got to reproduce at the best of your intellectual abilities, which is around 35, more or less 10 years, which is absolutely not the philosophy of this reality that needs more people for more money, human resource, consumer...

The way I see things going with my bionic eyes, I wouldn't be surprised to see the Z generation hate a lot more openly their parents. Particularly their mothers if we continue this general ego trend, the clash is coming... Since women decided to embark in the equality competition, all is left is ego godhood ascension. And the worst is that they seem to be getting better adapted to this reality than men and they protect and defend it like their child, like men made it for them to eventually reign as religious Cleopatra or Princess Victoria. But out of control ego and lack of consciousness in women is a lot uglier and dangerous than in men is what I say, because they are still more profoundly in conflict with themselves, disconnected from these great qualities that make them as much women as able to bear children.

I believe good consciousness, strength of will and control of ego was stronger in women. But since they decided to compete with men on the ego reality, they are losing these differences and more. I wonder if soon we'll all be the same, everybody a dick girl! No, but someone that is the least observant can easily see that trend with superstars, you got to wonder if they're not pushing to enforce peace and acceptation by making of humanity a travestied and homosexual civilization where everybody meet in marriage to get its sex removed from love and smear the world in PMBBD "love"...

Wow, but more men are acting like women emotionally while women do more and more violent and ego movies, they try to be "bad" or "evil" like men are supposed to be in the vision of this twisted industry, like it is an advantage, like good humans are like that, but when this reality feels threatened by a book, you can bet it will attack it by qualifying it as "inciting to violence"... As for the women giving the example these days, they are the ones making a fantastic amount of money, we see them posing and showing-off everywhere on television, in every magazines, hell, you can't even buy food without seeing their manipulated to the bones images. I absolutely like to see womanly pretty bodies, but I don't like to be forced and brainwashed to accept mostly manipulated images that don't make sense in reality, and be overwhelmed in these.

Sorry to spill some dirt on your money black hole ego god or goddess, but can I have more diversity over here? I see beautiful women everywhere and the same for men, why do you always choose the same ones for so long? And why do they need so much money? Why give them that monstrous amount of pub? Why do you need to brainwash us to "love" your selection? Now, can I contribute to choose them or should I close my mouth and let you listen only to those who like your selection, those who like red carpets too much, where crazy fans give the impression that the world is on its knees before "gods" and divas? Why should I let the media and their hype machine create the selection and control and impose my liberties? But nothing can be changed to the television and movie industry in this reality and it is so powerful that any attacks I can make will blow back in my face, everybody is addicted, and I understand, but my minimal standards are higher.

So you'll change the world uh, but you're reinforcing it final instead, and making it far worse with what you think is your evolved minds of "love" men can't understand. And I can't be at a better place to know, in a matriarchal society where my mother ran the family at the stick...But no, nothing to show for it, I've seen how many women with a score to settle with men, or crappy attitudes, I'm waiting, things are so much better now, things are so different, competing men for equality in your feminism revolution... The truth is that things are worse than ever, as always it's because selfish reasons are first in this ideology. When you see an opportunity in the future will you take the lead or wait for men to decide? Only if it's to crush men in the competition, the way your mind is formed? You are half this world, even more, and all you have to reveal is that you want to embrace this reality wholefully and make it your hegemony? You had fantastic opportunities to shake the foundations of this reality to reflect your difference but you only think of competing to work on the pyramids, using your hands to clean the bombs and ammo used for killing what come out of you, competing with all your strength against men, to control others and make money as much as you can, you try hard to prove you "love" this reality to death, you have lost love, you have lost life, and you're not worth them because you don't care! But eh, we have many rutting singers on stages now, and an overload of hardcore alternative porn on the internet, anything to attract your attention, which is a sign that you're unto something requiring further investigation...

It's not your fault or you have no choice? This situation is valid for anybody who wants another way of doing things; they never seem to have a choice but it is not true, we have a choice, do you fight for true love? I do! But I already explained why you're not doing it, so instead of depressing on your self-accepted situation and ego mentality, I'm going to go crazy differently. So what will you do? Let a man fight for true love alone while you're making your pornographic revolution? Laugh like a moronic bitch?

No sorry, and to make myself comfortable I'll add that it's good to have something that can't be made a business out of, something valuable people are ready to fight to keep it that way. A body is perfect for that, and it's the perfect place for love too. But I'm an idealist, an extremely important quality, that is not appreciated in this reality (unless you are under the control of some profiteers). Pretty girl lately seems to be getting in the sex business pretty quickly, it seems, and the prostitution business diversification and terminology reformulation made a sufficient mess of prostitution to invalidate any statistic about it, sex working? Escorting? The bag is named prostitution and it is for people who trade their sexuality for an advantage. I wonder how many women are ready to open their legs to be with a rich, or to be immortalized in a movie or a soap or a magazine or to get money or to get popularity... I can't ask myself such questions? Illegal? Taboo? If what we know is just the surface then what we don't know should be quite impressive. Men do the same, and there are lots of homosexuals around the movie, television and magazine industry too, yes, it's full...

Women are the power transmitter of almost all mental attributes of evolution, almost everything comes from them because they cumulate to give birth, but they probably didn't develop well their best facets alongside men from the beginning of time by the situation and men's attitude of answering problems with physical strength, and women's attitude of fighting back, because things are of a different order of importance to them and they are nearer life. Evidently, with time in a competitive environment the goal has changed to protect an advantage. It seems both never understood each other from the beginning, women don't have the same kind of energy as men, and their sexuality is not dependent of an erection, and frustration in the simple minded can quickly degenerate to dangerous hate. It is easy for a girl to take a superiority attitude as soon as you remove strength from the equation because brain cells migrate to the penis when you laugh around... What if as soon as we stop controlling you, we become gaga and you profit from it to do the most profoundly hurting actions that completely invalidates your life caring reputation to sick hypocrisy? That happens when women become ego driven...The only advantage man may have seen over women in old time may have been brute strength, but what if this situation creates a long term competition of cyclic hate? One act superior with the other long enough for things to become senseless, then the other do the same for another stretch until things go insane, and the cycle is determined by the time it takes to desecrate history or important principles (civilizations are built from principles), and the more cycles you make the more you become an enemy of life, because it is all about life, what we are competing and hating is life.

Now that may be worth keeping to myself, but I see life as a pressure that form around the truth, where we want to go unconsciously is not the same than our conscious decisions. Don't forget I see unconscious actions as nearer life, and more logic based, even if the logic is far away or made a few detours. Detours that take mental and physical form, to the point of developing useless or energy hungry mutations. I could probably place homosexuality there, but if is really a developing genetic mutation, we may have created an invincible self-reinforcing wheel where they would become the cause of a development retard in both sexes as a backslash (without it, men and women would be more attracted to each other). The homosexual mutation, woops, genetic advantage, would be like a sickness on humanity, continually affecting intellectual logic development rewards (limiting the more true feminine wisdom part, not the "prostitution" PMBBD of television and internet) from successful completion of the loving scenario in women (and men too, but they are more independent in such manner, even if they still need to walk besides a woman, in "true" love, to do their best) meaning women absolutely need to feel true love (the profound thing!, and with some sex) to reach more of their best intellectual development way. And that may be the true reason why mothers have a natural tendency to give more affection to girls.

Gay continual presence around women could add mental twists limiting sexual performance and choices of partners, even creating fears, and leading many men on a quest to fuck that further reduce love potential. All in all, homosexuals would be among the best dividing people as an end result, and I guess they would be the best pyramid builders, with the pedophiles of the mind, and that's why they're continually turning around women; they unconsciously compete with women and men to win both sexes to their side by creating division among them, they make homophobes out of men and they manipulate women with all kind of PMBBD distributing wrong "feminine" association with their supposedly superior cultural intellectuality to men, but seen as appropriate to women.

Men are becoming a problem the way women and those sodomites get along, I let you in my home now get out, sorry for my lack of overture to your advantages, anybody else want to get out? Got to have respect around here if love is not possible... I know women are easier to open for you, got to have allies, a shield too, protection, a place to implant stuff, to learn manipulation, to apply influence measures. I don't like women who run after gay people, or who prefer them as friends, and you know which kind I talk about, they are degenerated and I wish them homosexuals partners because that's what they prefer in effective reality, in their conflicting unconscious, that's what they "love"; men are dicks.
Sex alone would bring most women in harmony with the ego ideology, the superior sexuality gets still more advantages while the inferior worsens things in the competition. And switching sex advantages while in ego momentum would create the worst possible explosion of ego superiority exacerbated by displaced intelligence. Separated by far extremes, a lot would become inferior stupidities, lost or frustrated and, for some, intelligent ego monsters with a set of super skills, like prettiness, and they'll become super pro diva if they mix that with erotism and plastic tits, thriving in infinite self-esteem and pride, their intellectual development overwhelmingly emphasized to stuff learned by heart as long as they pass a Turing test. Well, maybe I'm exaggerating a little, but dick girls are still around the corner.

I have already said too much they say, these are personal opinions I should say, wrong the opposite camp will say, I was not there a lobbyist will say, I don't have much of an education professionals will say, I don't know what I'm talking about too some expert will say, I'm a known homophobe too; I make a phobia of homos, I just hope they learned well their lessons of tolerance, acceptance, peace, compassion and pardon, I need a lot of this stuff.

So, probably, at the beginning, some men feared women would become superior at running things. It could have happened in part because they birth and lead around children, another part because women's sexuality have less physical limitations. Still to this day, in some places, they are so scared of women's sexuality that they cut away the "possessed by the devil" hated clitoris thing, and it is still accepted and tolerated today, we cannot drop a seal team to stop those people like Bin laden because we meddle in international affairs only out of ego principles, and killing out of good principles is too complicated. As for the evil clitoris, one have to wonder why no? Probably it's a place where it's too easy to make "love" to a nigger without getting tired, and a tribe is not a civilization, while true love requires civilized people. But did I really say the "N" word? Furthermore, I should not skip mentioning a little religious fact about "women possessed by evil"; until they recently modified their book to embellish their historical path to power, there's a religion that saw the first signs of a woman's capacity at bearing a child (menstruations) as the devil taking possession of the woman, and since every normal girl go through this, then it mean they saw all women as evil, only young innocent girls were not seen as evil; only virgins in their paradise... Furthermore, isn't it strange that only young girls are possessed in exorcism movies? And that comes from Hollywood (which does everything governments ask of them) not religion, and some of those stories are proven true they say... But don't worry; they will soon do one with a guy, to close the mouth of people like me, and one with a gay, in the name of equality...

As for civilized people, I make a difference between acting civilized which as a mentality need far too much of hierarchy and manipulation, police prisons, fear generation, entertainment, religions, sex, love, boosted, overcompensated, personal problems, psy, pharmaceutical industry, an aspect of evil, of incomprehension, of being lost, or frustrated, no matter; change something or die. Being truly civilized is another matter, you got a golden path in front of you, but gold attracts evil... A truly civilized person know there is a better way for people, they see accomplishment, they see history, they see people, strength, fairness, a successful civilization show fairness and an infinite future, and it make people flowers in their best ways. Civilization is not just organized people making buildings, wars and teaching each other, tribes do that, the Egyptians acted civilized but were not, they were more like an advanced big tribe of rock cutters upgraded to religiously self-accepted slavery. You are not civilized when you enslave people, whatever the fucking twisted form, physical or mental or by the intrinsic condemnations of the system. The Romans or Greeks, probably made the first tentative at true civilization, but even then Rome was not much better than Egypt of old, it was strong on slavery too, and orgies... I say that to develop civilization in social cohesion without the need to cheat or lie you need true love and fairness, which you probably didn't have much among the elite at the epoch, the other factor is that as you develop yourself for an amalgam of goals, you condemn yourself by interrelations to never consider or even see other options. You got to hate this reality to have your mind open to create another one with a minimum of credibility, if you don't want to abandon too fast...So you are unlikely to invent another way for different goals. All that means that civilization principles were invented by a philosopher not connected, a revolted person that had different goals. Civilization and love are closely intertwined, and I say both were twisted to appease the frustration of powerful people who could not fit the definition. As to the who, evidently Jesus comes to mind, but there's so much falsehood to make things coincide that it could be just anybody and they slapped him the story of a guy from another religion which was an amalgam of stories from another guy...

I say there's a guy that rose against the manipulative crap and they tortured, killed, and inversely intertwined a twisted but still credible vision that is a total repulsive perversion of what he stood for. They used (stole) the work of this fine mind, he probably had a super girlfriend too, stopped them before revolution, used their imagination and dreams as miracles, twisted their work to fit the goal of the powerful with Christianity while distancing themselves from it to cover all options. Then they made the first serious tentative at Civilization, an ego competition one with a contorted spirituality, and they reset time to 0. That's likely, when you have psychopaths in positions of power, you don't insult them or tell them they're evil, you have no idea what evil is capable of, he will push the self-destruct button before it even works, just because it could work...It means that if there is a way to fail everything then you must absolutely consider that it is part of an evil plan, and there's no question that you've been had, cheated, and there are no reasons to trust. These are reasons why I say it's too cute to reset time just because some kid is born, and if a religious backed super big story is not enough to cover the hole, then the sheer volume of insanity will do; imagine sane minds how they felt, to know that this would be used to educate, to know that this is backed by the elite of humanity...

Next, I could say women have a mind that gives them more control over themselves and their ego (which I suppose necessary to teach that control to growing humans, and to control their sexuality), added to that they got a superior sensuality, beauty and smoother energy line. So all this and more can easily scare or frustrate some men (older ones, ugly ones, fragile or weak ones, stinking ones, or those with a small penis or doubtful erection), and under such circumstances, ego competition can only thrive, and ego is first on the cake to systemize it...But the quest is impossible because no one is superior to the other, and no one is equal to the other either. Everything is based on principles, and principles have a best use, a best place and limitations so they have sufficient integrity to work in harmony unconsciously. Things need a definition and we must keep that definition as the realist truth within a schema of ideals, for greater harmony within our minds and to develop new or better skills; if you are to adjust it, it must be in that optic, not for any funky manipulative goal. Evidently some principles end up wrong or their definition become non realist or untruthful, so as it is the case for people, languages need some movement space to change.

Superiority is good if defined as a comparing tool of facets, but evil if seen as a totality or conflicting with what life developed as logic. Man and woman as complementary is forced to lead to a definition of love, while both can do most of the activities the other do; survival obliges. As for equality, if equal means the same end result in our unconscious (you have to make a conscious effort to see equality in its twisted form, and that effort is bad if it fights against fundamental logic in your mind), then you must limit your speech to those facets where it can be true, like salary, but you don't invalidate complementarity by saying family principles based on complementarity give equal result since it would invalidates complementarity notions needed for the man and woman scenario. A homosexual is not a woman, and when they have sex they don't give birth to babies, life (your deep unconscious) is sure of that, and life is not homophobic because of that. In fact, it made man and women, it know for sure that 2 men are not supposed to have babies. But it all depend on what definition you give to the principles, if you want homosexual in, you can remove complementarity from a woman and man thing to spread it to everybody, but you'll have to invent another word to skip man and woman competing against each other. It is exactly like love, it must have a limited definition; you got love for the man and woman level and you got "like" for the civilization level everybody can use. You got complementarity (you can choose a better word) for the man and woman level, and you can use association for the civilization levels, that way homosexuals can associate themselves and you can give them a baby. Everybody can associate themselves and like and befriend each other, and there is joy, and affection, and appreciation, and compassion, and all kind of adjectives to describe emotions, what a world! And yes, love at all sauces got its charms, but it's a legacy from Christianity that could have been avoided and replaced by something as nice. As for man and woman acting at civilization level, they act complementary while at a personal level, they fall in love, give birth to babies and form families. I may be stretching a little, but what if it's really that important to care?

So the competition and hate developed slowly, by steps, by games, by beliefs, like chopping clitorises; who know what crazy things our very old ancestors did, you think they were fair and good? Both sexes probably tried to prove themselves in all kind of ways, men surely competed with brute strength too, don't think competition is a fair thing, and with competition comes cheating, so they surely used it to compete and control women while embarking in a continual quest to prove they are superior intellectually (like keeping them ignorant at home, good to make them more manipulable...). And when things are good for scrap, women suddenly gain a lot of liberty and the most ego quickly jump in the cake (seize the opportunity) which is an immediate wrong.

The price paid by both sexes for this competition is unbelievable, maybe fatal. Instead of controlling our ego, we did exactly the contrary and invented a reality based on jealousy, division and competition, an ego pyramidal reality were strength, imagination and consciousness is spent to grow ego (self-pride related needs) without limits, where we compete to control others while not even controlling our own person, where we see the other sexuality as a matter of superiority-inferiority or a prize. And now that we lived thousands of years in the brainwash of the reality we slowly made, the final mistake will be done by women continuing the encouragements of this reality. And yes,we are still alive, our baby making extravaganza make us feel invincible, but who know where we'd be today if we acted complimentarily in a fair way from the beginning?

That's not all, but for now you know I'm against competition between sexes for a few reasons, if only that I like to have sex differences, and competition works toward homogenization on the long run. I know most people don't really care about the human as life or life altogether (only to boast, and consciousness is something bad to forget as fast as possible in this reality, too easy to sink your life in from all the total history of humanity not taking its individual responsibilities, such an accumulation of fears and cultivated failure has a price...) but the way life develops, it needs to separate sexes and make them mentally different while still keeping them evidently of the same species with a basis of independence; you think life is actually forced to use two different sexes? No need for two sexes, really, you only need seasons or any timed trigger to start a birthing process. You think it is because that's the way things work? Who made thing work like that? Who made the limitation or the obstacle that forces two different sexes? Some powerful entity that has very grand justifications for sure.

So do you think that if we are forced to reproduce by two sexes it is not important? Maybe our long term existence depends on it, and I don't see why it wouldn't be a good and evil factor, it's easier for good to destroy armies of clones than culturally complex and diverse independent people, there are advantages at doing good, but get tested first, in hell, to see how easily you sell your soul to the devil (whatever weakness you have)... Don't forget I see the whole universe as patented to develop and test life, to study the truth versus the falsehood of high consciousness and choose the best, so maybe our ability to live together is a condition to our survival, and true love as our best way of reproduction is critically important for that too.

But there are always exceptions, and life expressions of development are not a view of finality but a view of time; you got all kind of development and experiences of developing things in different environment through time, but you can see a difference globally; an evolution of life that goes on against a super complex net of critical species stagnated in the background. That's particularly evident And you can see expressions of it where the necessity of lifting limitation to make bridges make them exceptional in comportment, ants, bees, spiders, worms those are old exceptional things, it will always be interesting to see what will happen to them, hard to find replacements, they may stick to their basic job eternally while many others zip past them to become something (yes, that is in conflict with the view of life evolution we are served as final truth).

Life is full of all kind of things, some life-forms heavily morph through a lot of time, while others develop to find a spot and stay in it, you think a bee will someday decide to drop the flower and honey stuff to eat steak and forge metal? No, then who decide? There's slow morphing to fit a perfect spot, always, and I would say life systems mix stuff with the base of the bee, if a weirdo survives and make a family it may slowly morph into something else if it meet a use for the weird aspect. Evidently advanced genetic engenering could make a new life-form independent from the other, we can select evidently, boost, add genes, a big fat bee with triple stingers that can't reproduce with the original, it smokes and do honey by eating the whole flower. But if they don't get killed or starved to death the normal honey bees will still survive, gain efficiency with time. There are many species like that, at their place, critical to life, they are a bridge, a critical part of the life energy transformation process (probably 40% of the life energy production from matter is dependent of bees), and they permit the existence of a lot of life.

Most life-forms make of their whole life a big deal about their reproduction moment, all kind of fucked-up ways to mostly unconsciously select, and some are even developing a far better conception of love than many of us the way they're going. You see that will in life through the many species that reproduce by two sexes while there is no use for it, like death, it is a limitation to control it, to limit reproduction; generally, the more complex or bigger, or better, the less there is, resulting in increased life diversity and appropriate energy transformation from matter (see it as a pyramid meant to reach us, but we are not part of it, tremendous energy was invested to create us, and like any investment, the bet is that it was worth it and we'll produce far more energy than what was invested, but we must not confound the energy we produce and use to the energy produced by life. This difference can be seen as intelligence; we must get life to thrive and doing so we grow the energy capacity of life's intelligence, and as we do we grow human specific energy which mostly serves our intelligence even if both are ultimately meant to morph matter for life goals, and what is needed to succeed? Non-ego)

Humans got an independent consciousness for reproduction, we are not rutting social animals controlled by hormones or pheromones, we decide how, who and in what quantity we reproduce, and that can be to act like insect reproducing out of control, dumping our consciousness to create a selection from pressure to eliminate people thinking differently, self-condemning, like giving the most difficulties to those who reproduce out of true love, or making it more fun not to form long lasting couples. Yes we can do that, we can suicide individually, but we can arrange things to suicide globally from unconscious historically cumulated displaced frustrations too.

We are supposed to control our birth rate, and the best way to do it is to put an emphasis on the best civilization building principles concerning reproduction, and that is human true love. If you are attracted to the other sex without your consciousness fully developed, or as an innocent, then you'll act as such, but as you gain experience (not sexual), or become older, you won't do the same actions and choices. So it is always a mind thing, and if the reality pushes people to ignore the development of certain aspects of their minds, or to see everything as fun and entertainment, sex he too, and love means anything, and people must have sex as young as possible, then too bad, true love will disappear.

If we want love to thrive, we'll have to start a totally different pressure selection from different principles, not profiting from people. Stop the sex pressure, define what love is, and don't let young people make babies; encourage people who have been in a stable loving relation to reproduce more instead, and ease their life, reward them, and give them greater influence on the development of their kids instead of letting mass medias do it. Why? Because older people in a long term relation generally have a better developed mind and principles, a little positive may be transmitted immediately to babies, which don't happen when young people make babies as they just reproduce the race, said simply.

All that to say sex and love is always a mind thing, unless you don't have your mind developed past "animal under external control" standard in which case yes, it can be a hormonal thing, and in this reality there is a condemning weight of people who stay in this state all their life, and I don't have a good opinion of them, even if they can be very intelligent, my cat too is very intelligent...

I like to have complementary differences between sexes, on a similarity base (both can walk), and standardization for competition doesn't work toward that goal. When such possibilities exist, they add a lot of good complexity to a civilization. There are twice too many people on earth (remember how I see overpopulation mythology?), and I put the responsibility of this cataclysmic situation on lack of true love and exacerbation of ego (competition for profits). Human reproduction is supposed to be the most strongly associated to love, that's the basis from which we are supposed to make our selection, but you'll be lucky to transmit it to a majority in the best of realities and that make the true loving people on this earth a small minority under tremendous twisted pressures of all kind to replace it by an universal notion that is making it a placebo and that will eventually totally waste its value. You can use love to do good or evil.

I think association, not division and competition, would have modified reality to go somewhat toward an always better developing ideal, generally speaking, long ago if competition, then its systematization with human "gods", hadn't taken control with all kind of evil tools. Building a good civilization is not a man vs. woman thing, this epoch "should" have ended with feminism, or never existed altogether, it's a logical and survival thing. We have made the most formidable mistake by creating and enforcing this reality, and not because we are bad, but because ego is first, and it wins since without good and evil it is only limited by laws and it follows the easiest path of the destructive entropy of matter. But why is there a world then? Because ego enslaved both good and evil. Good then! No since it is a transformation process dependent on evil and evil is conflict with life all the way to its degeneration, so everything is temporary; a powertrip of tall buildings developing as a supreme failure, in 100 years? 1000 years? I believe humanity's potential (potential to expand in outer space) will not last another 100 years, then people will rot on earth until extinction. A few thousands years ago there was not much of humanity in all facets beside today, we exploded and I believe we are presently at the peak of the ego ideology, I could say we'll be 2000 years degenerating from now on, but what makes me very pessimistic is the fact that everything is pushed back; we don't work looking thousands years ahead, we work looking 10 years ahead, max 50, and that is the ego survival time lapse of those presently controlling things, so probably in 100-150 years it will be the end of humanity, not in a nobody left way, but in a no future way as we will be condemned to earth until we disappear because some resources will have been exhausted to satisfy wrong priorities.

It is true that there are all kind of differences between people but they are absolutely not meant to be considered a competition ground to what mentality will win. And the two sexes must work together giving an effect of growth through the birthing of always better individuals. They are meant to work together and build a reality together as one total. Giving the power to build a reality to only one of either sexes and actually building it is worse than a condemnation, it is an invalidation.

Think about it, you have women making the babies so where does the man come from? From the woman. But for the woman to have a man, you have to have a man having sex with a woman. So that initial man must come from the woman which cannot be possible. This dilemma can be mind boggling, particularly if the step of development you are in has no common measure besides what you can see as ancestors, and gorillas may disappear from your sight too. The "scientists" of the time were not able to explain that one fast enough and ego is first, and ego can't cope with such concepts as equality, equity, indispensability, complementarity, life altogether. As for the question, it is still not answered today, Darwin's evolution works, but the timeframe is short; it's too much like a recipe. I'm not even sure Darwin can explain two reproducible sexes "appearing" while being irreproducible to their ancestor, in fact, the whole evolving thing is not even a scientific fact as nobody ever seen a specie evolve in nature, (except forced mutations in laboratories, but even there they never made a male and female mutated that worked, so the level of bioengineering complexity is still far away, and we're running out of time, if we are to continue with this evil way of doing things we like so much). But you know how I see things, there are communication systems out of the reach of science, matter doesn't exist in all these forms for nothing, everything have a critical reason to exist, everything is invested for life and intelligence, but I'll talk more about these things later.

Next, probably a competition between consciousness and unconsciousness set up like a man versus animal complex as there was nothing equivalent or comparable to humans around; so here comes magic and man is god. All the religions ever invented are PMBBD to defend a fundamental wrong view; the ego-gods association which limits horizons by competing everything for a superior solution, the perversion of the survival principle to serve evil, like if I need the universe to survive then I must bow to my natural instinct to survive ant take possession of universe to guarantee survival, and nobody can stop me. But you don't survive alone! Then I'll keep it for a family hegemony or dynasty! No, your family is humanity, put your ego aside and drink this powerful...magic... God for ego people can be sculpted on the fly to explain everything or anything with finality while possibilities are discarded in the name of superiority competition. That is true for the primitive man that doesn't have the knowledge to understand evolution too (even today, anything is seen as evolution, as long as it is publicized on TV), so he invented the first science; explaining everything unexplainable with a superior final universal truth. The easiest path is god in man's image evidently, even if the initial view may have been fine (like god as the sun, just replace sun by god in a language, then think about all the powers of the sun, it gives life, life is dependent from it, all is missing is a manipulator that is sufficiently ego to say god is actually a guy and everybody is dependent from him...). Then absolutely everything became a lost in advanced competition against the universal unbeatable truth. They saw things in a flat earth way, woman against man, and then all human history became hell because they had chosen their way and worked with all their energy to make it become reality, closing their eyes and even raging war to other possibilities. To this day, religions continue to sing man supremacy, god as some kind of superior super hot guy like the pope or Stephen Hawkins, not me, I'm not rich, and you know there's a whole thriving category of women out there, the ego category, who prefer ugly or old rich pervert evil people than sane good looking people who prefer to be poor than to be evil... But then you have women who must burn themselves when their godly male die! In other places they hide and possess women like objects, in other places they are absolute slaves...

Sometimes I think all of humanity will pay the most formidable price for that religion mistake, strange, how we may have condemned ourselves to extinction at the moment we started worshipping ego people like gods, and there is no greater proof than this competition. There are people who don't embark for sane reasons, but they still got to work. Human have slipped away from itself, and love is worthless if women don't go back to their initial wisdom which they are entitled to call love (the couples that last the longest are the ones that control their ego the most, without this consciousness step there is no love.), women are supposed to transmit love a lot by example (love don't make "rose men" by the way, there are very "virile" loving men) to everyone and not accept the parody profiting people made of this word. And whatever many men want it, they will not make a reality around love without women helping them to it.

Men more easily develop love from women, forcing them to grow as more complete because love is the most complete feeling that encompass the most emotions and feelings in the mental; mental which controls in big part the physical, the physical formulation of reality, the set base for life. It is a great proof of social ability too, you'll need that if you are to succeed, but you don't need friends for that, only understanding as a life respectful adult. And I'm not talking about possessiveness, men who act possessively will in fact regress mentally, and the same for the woman if she stays in the situation; possessiveness is not love, it is in fact a lack of respect of the human being, minimally.

That's just a vague start of the life view, love is one long quest, but it is guaranteed that competition, or superiority, or unfairness, or profiting from innocence or out of control ego, all those are enemies of love. And I say that whatever we do, we are meant for true love, this association of 2 sexes has grown with us through all our history, yes, neantherdals were, without knowing it, living love stories, harsh little love stories that were consumed rapidly, for the best of lucks. We may even be still alive because some understood it was our best way, family and fair social dynamics around the fire, not necessarily always a success but it's invincible because it is how life was made to work, you must see it its power as proportional to mind ability and society evolution, most life will show facets of it, but at the top there is us, and that's where love takes all its meaning, if the civilization is civilized that is... The more you fight it, hide it, contort it, pressure it the more of a retard or a monster you'll become until you'll be crying on your bleeding knees for thousands of years to go back to it.

True love potential is directly proportional to control of ego, the big overwhelming amount of love we live in today is a big pile of PMBBD implemented right through the language by profiteers and their work to cumulate or stash it under the form of an easy package (happy self-accepted slaves who think they are free and good and agglutinate and act like the police when one falls out of line. I could limit the hate with a touch of understanding, by saying they're indoctrinated self-inflated condescending ignorant, what Jesus probably thought when he said that we don't know what we're doing, but these king of caring speeches are so inappropriate that once people have become gremlins of hell, they are seen as an introductory due... But sorry, no nice understanding with gremlins around here, I'll give you a severe beating because that's all you understand, hierarchy and the law, and if you present your other ass cheek to get a respectful diplomatic lick from my part, be prepared that your ass will never be the same again after you land back on what's left of it. Sorry for you, self-accepted slave, but here, at my epoch it's the end of innocence, all the tools are there, you chose your master, fed him the whole world, put life on critical, you're a traitor to life, a loser, now deal with the consequences, which are far worse than just not taking your minimal responsibilities as a human that respect itself, and life, and gods while we're at it!

You think I'm not nice? Just wait, this is the extreme most nice me you'll have, because you have the advantage of the benefit of the doubt, and I leave a chance; when I'll see the truth of history, when my words will be backed by it, when I'll see the true extent of evil in undeniable facts, then I'll express more appropriate feelings and use more appropriate problem solving tools, ok? Yes I sometimes speak like that, it goes with my spirituality and philosophy, I find a way to tell you I'm not happy by your attitude for this or that reason, and if I can I'll readjust things or get revenge, or at the minimum I'll try to make you feel bad, ok? With credible argumentation at it.

Many powerful "gods" of antiquity, and even some retarded rich people to this day, thought that sexually submitted, or brainwashed to admiration, women, could be stashed or called upon for an orgy of cumulated "love", you can ask some dead popes, or the Romans, or the Greeks, and many rich emirs and all kind of such powerful people who still believe cumulated women is cumulated love, since love can be anything, and the women are no better, sorry. All the lot is tremendously expensive in all kind of ways.

However, this love destroying attitude of love as an object that can be cumulated is successful since there is an explosion of cheap orgies houses and brothel burgeoning everywhere under all kind of façade names. You could extrapolate that to the planetary wide free sex emphasis and "love" spread everywhere we have today, to have a hint of the future. And since two of the goals of religions is to pacify people and make money through lies and manipulation, they strongly contributed to the degradation of love, a lot out of jealousy in their self-condemnation to do the exemplary for the many "poor souls" they exploit. Some of the worst sexual degradations practiced to this day were done by religious and sect bosses in association to rich people invading civilizations and kneeling the population.

But, yeah, it's a bit logic that religions take the peace flag, develop their spirituality around acceptance, tolerance, adaptation, compassion, pardon, since what they defend, and the contortions they made out of good spirituality, will forever cause war, violence, hate, death, torture, division, competition, sexism, language twisting, etc.

And I'm not talking about those who try to repair wrongs, there are tons of very good hearted people from the bottom to the top, but are they defending or working for evil? You can live a personal life of a saint but if you work for an evil institution, then you got yourself a bundle of black stuff hanging over your head, be careful where you're going with that...Lucky you, personal wrongs are nothing besides their worth concerning masses; reality is the greatest mass, what do people make of it proportional to the means they took? Did the rich made themselves worthy of the money (life energy) by making a fairer world? It is the fundamentals that count the most, always.

As for popes, present ones may really not be that bad and their institution got better with time, but there will always be a pope to boss the religion whatever or not it stands on a mountain of historical manipulations and fundamental wrongs, there will always be a pope to defend or arrange the story, it is better if it is a good pope, that's all. Now, how do religions use love? Do their priests are exemplary lovers or are they twisting the word for manipulation, confounding liking or peace or affection or understanding or compassion or care into love? Everything? Anything? If you've been had because the goal of your life was to be the strongest religion guy of the world because the pope said its book is what you should follow, then too bad for you if you were wrong, you just had to be less of a blinded believer, to use your judgment better. Maybe you were raised like that, fell to the emotivism of it, but if you spread or defend a version of love that stink of bullshit or conflict, then you can be a saint all you want, I'll make you evil even if you believe you're good, and too bad if you've been had by old momentum from the past. So yes, sexually twisted or repressed people are perfectly at their place as religious bosses when you think about it. Personally, if I am not in love today it's in part because a religion was becoming a dividing factor in our couple.

As for gay love, sorry but that doesn't work to me, you still can have all the parts extirpated from love though, like physical attractiveness, sensuality, attention, affection, understanding, etc. I don't mind the little blasphemy, it's just that true love as an ideal can only exist with a certain level of complementarity which is not there with homosexuality because it fails at the most basic level. In a sense you prefer to have sex and other emotional activities with the same sex as you, since you failed loving a woman (or man). It is a love failure, natural or artificial, you can still have children, in a reality of love failures, but how many of you will live a long story anyways? I'm curious about the percentage and the ratio... And it's not the end of the world if you can't live true love, so stop the pressure and competition, stop doing the jealous baby, almost nobody lives true love in this reality, are you happy? I say that while repeating again, that everything is a question of attitudes to me, I have nothing against those who accept well their difference without messing everything around, I'll defend them anytime. And I have the same attitude with anybody that doesn't control his ego, no discrimination, you think I'll leave the world in your hands because you're offended? As for animals, I like my cat, I don't love it (there are people who fuck with animals, I know, but don't follow the example).

The best for this reality is to have divided people trying to stay together and failing, for consumption (sex competition and love failures get the economy turning more; the more personal troubles on the verge of death, the better the economy, and the better the entertainment). People are not encouraged in complementarity but in competitiveness, even of differences, with an avalanche of PMBBD from psy and scientists saying we are gregarious animals with a big brain that have no use except to learn stuff by heart since it can't even control us, since they say we are controlled by this or that and we are supposed to be at our best while having an orgy of talking and physical contacts with as many people as possible. Social animal, we want you well tamed and talking, if you don't want to discover you have a mental social disorder, you know, they say social and intelligence are closely related, and emotions too, so express yourself, join the community, your mouth is our source of profits, buy a telephone forfait, meet a psy, talk to your taxi, anything that can generate communication is good for the economy, become dependent, your mouth has become the mental malady, it even generate more jobs to build all the necessary infrastructures...

I'm not an antisocial, even if I have 0 at friends, but I do believe too much socialization divides, selects on bad bases, limits and even makes most people more violent in displaced unconscious ways. Socialization is a complex subject I touch every now and then, so for now, since it's worthless to suppose this reality will slack on all the babbling going on, I'll just say we are under PMBBD influences from invincible structures controlled by profiteers and manipulators, and they want people used to having a hard time living in couples since they'll overload the planet for profit and sufficient science have been cumulated on the subject, to refute the notion of "normal" happy couples forming a stable family, and displace any emphasis for love so as to fully open the market to human prostitution then trafficking altogether. We must not forget that all this acceptance revolution marks the beginning of a technological explosion that will sure need people on a "change is the new in" trend, that will need more malleability on ethical questions, to continue the work of the ego god ideology, so anything that will happen will be used as an opportunity to better fool people. For now, with love to qualify anything, and as a synonym of a strong liking or affection, everything goes well in that direction, the selection continue like they want it, with girls rutting after the rich with manipulative love stories like 30 shades of grey publicized like the most important book in the history of humanity, apart the bible (the books by which we'll be judged the most? Proportional...Me, I'll be judged by my books).

And it's an unconscious thing; nobody make a big meeting about how to destroy love or profit from it as the order of the day (maybe so, like at the beginning, who knows?). It is a developing effect, like a vendor of antiquity thinking that making his stok sexy with a touch of love would be a good selling strategy, a little chocolate love first, then thing spread and grows to the point that a thousand years later, a publicist conglomerate of image reformers in Montreal find it totally logical, appropriate and good in its mind of deciding the liberties of others, that making and publicizing shirts with "I love Montreal" on them with a cute red heart, would help the city image and attract tourists and thus money, particularly if you get some profoundly stupid artist admired as a diva to wear it.

We didn't fight or really care for love since it is not in our mentality to develop an independent fighting consciousness; we're all in this together. Many singers are an example among the many using PMBBD on admiring people for profits, particularly the Peace and "love" batch. Ego systemized love for profit, it has become one of the primarily manipulative term of languages, a self-imprisonment and condemnation term; when you hear love, it mostly means you're being exaggerated something, manipulated in making a costly decision probably, and the one using it is not necessarily the manipulator, he may just be the transport.

Now, love may have gone through many influences to become the current view, but it was probably a straight definition originally, interrelating many principles composing a philosophy, including good and evil, reproduction, society, everything to piss off powerful manipulators and profiteers, not only because they didn't have the type of creativity or intelligence to produce such visions, but they couldn't like their place within the philosophy too, and since writing was very controlled and limited, they could twist it to fit their view, twisting it right from the start, then he spread the twisted view as the philosophy and spirituality of evil, stolen, copied, twisted, with hidden intentions that are not good for life. Supposing the religion took care of love adequately, as the best path of human reproduction and evolution, then its smearing was done by imbeciles in the institution, then everybody embarked in the free for all, love became the victim of all kind of unconscious displacements, excellent for profiting or frustrated people. It's like a frustrated religious boss with a chastity belt using it to manipulate someone else for his profit, then a few imbeciles admirers without judgment wanting the same result or more will spread it, but while describing an apple instead of a person, and the twisting get slowly bigger through hundreds of years, even thousands, until it becomes so widespread it is reflected in our attitudes, it serves the ego ideology, nobody in billions question it, you're weird, even stupid if you do, scientists make the discovery that we are like this and like that, and psy write it in their final book. PMBBD often starts as a very subtle thing, but the tendency is that the more effort are involved to hide the truth, the worse the evil behind the lie... I'll see when I'll watch history I guess. Evidently the mentality is always given its ultimate extrapolation by the ultimate extrapolation of the ideal of a civilization.

That would be like an unconscious scenario, just love in this reality, while not forgetting that it was not called love initially, but since I believe it was invented as a civilized way to deal with reproduction and populations, then the true scenario is most likely conscious, it got willfully reworked for different goals, because it's not something yet, just a vision. Even today the pope say his friend god, last time he went to the confessional, said to tell people that "god loves everybody" you know, wow, that should do it, and the pope transmitted the best wishes, because god is far too important to ever show himself, or is it because people would freak out? No, but, you can't write the bible and spend countless lives building cathedrals all over the place in your certitude without ever talking to the guy in which honor you're supposedly doing all that? And you think I should trust your judgment? (life systems work automatically btw, can be influenced by gods, but direct intervention should not be made without UI input, granted rights on that can be dangerous for the UI itself, and it means nobody in human history should have been dictated by god himself and it means the bible is a pure human invention, it's a person that take himself for god that said "god loves everybody", probably with a shameful sexuality. If god needs a direct link to dictate the workings of humanity then it prove life is not working as it should, but yes god is there to help save or crush things, taking notes, but you don't have to die splattered, experience can be gained and automatic revenge scenarios experimented). And the pope is a fucking impostor if he say god loves everybody, who is he to decide that? God? Oh, we're supposed to believe all what you say? God? Oh, and BTW, your god that loves everybody I kick his ass! I say they are rumors spread by evil to confound good and evil, by subjugating people's mind with PMBBD to invalidate the concept, while perverting love au passage...

God says a lot of stupid things if I'm to believe religiously, maybe he was young? I said a lot of stupid things when I was young too, all the way to today, the ratio is very much different though, and comprehension is just the first step of change, it's 10 years, as the event unfold in your life, to place you face to face with your beliefs, continue the process or stagnate, fight or become a loser, and let's hope god didn't do a stupidity with life here on earth...

That is, if I'm to let some space to the view of god of this reality, just to have an appropriate enemy, because if I'm to believe in myself, if my path is good and the schema of my thinking is logic and in harmony as far and deep as I can see, on as many aspects as I can imagine, as this top level sense of life, and religious gods persist to exist, then I must enter into conflict with him, or religions are a joke, particularly if he "loves" evil people, or people who do massive evils.

For a start I'd use compassion or cherish instead of love, "understanding" I'm not sure, and I'd be very careful with the words always, never, nobody, everybody, if you doesn't want to sound extremist or totalitarist, little dictator, and get yourself well informed about what people are capable of imposing to life, before babbling stupidities that can lead to its extinction, if not piss off, life will fare better. Did you read the instruction manual? No, eh? It was too thick, and we pay the price, eh? Supposing you're still out there and we're not doomed from the incompetence, supposing you didn't cheat your place in, who knows, in this view of god... Loving everybody means what it means, btw, in case you thought otherwise, if I have to interpret that differently it means you're not worth talking to, your speech is no more than background chimpanzee noise, so wake-up retard, learn to speak coercively. But I understand evil need it vague and prone to interpretation, to confuse and embark a maximum of people, make himself vast armies, while keeping them divided depending on the interpretation, so that they play all kind of competition and bitching games among themselves instead of really questioning with a good heart, as steps and facets, all the way to the bottom of the inversed evil pyramid, where the ego god ideology is most well protected and hidden, in its subterranean bunker or funeral chambers...

So what's the use of languages god? To understand what the mouth is doing and control it (not scientifically correct, but ok), and that's the point of giving a word or verb signification to thing, so we understand what we're talking about, I understand it's easier to stay an innocent or ignorant, but that a ticket for oblivion. We all stay ignorant of many things proportionally to many other things, and it's allright like that, interdependent expertise oblige, but our quest to get out of it is in big part what gives us valor.

A god like that, that "loves" "everybody" (as long as they kneel and kiss his hand), is developing a recipe to asserve life to evil and his name is Lucifer, and his type of love he can choke himself with it. I will never accept to be a part of his innocents, or his good servants, I will prefer oblivion that to be touched by his love, as a default preset at it, deal with it. It's a perversion I will fight, whatever the extent his regents will work the image to keep him reigning on hell, or the schema of injustice that makes it so he got no choice but to love the interdependence he's dependent from, or the process of selection that makes it so those he doesn't love disappear or die young or have no credibility, so in the end, yes, he may be left with only people he loves, which, in the state of the current selection amounts to practically everybody, with some exceptions (sell your soul to the devil, get yourself cheated, make deception a normal state of human interactions, embark in irrationality, encourage it, defend it, etc.). everybody, it's just that me I don't feel flattered at all, in fact knowing what effect his hegemony has had on life, I can't have a more affirmed enemy than him, particularly in front of the UI, it's him that's gonna kneel, and he'll be better with some practice at crying, and at imploring pardon too, as master manipulator it will take a lot of profound expertise to gain credibility there...

Sorry if I'm a little hard with god, it's him that's hard to understand, old popes think they think like him so they do, but me it's more complicated. I sometimes thank my version to make me live like that though, don't worry, and having a life of bad luck with my quality is a sign that I work correctly, in harmony with life, and I'm privileged to be the chosen one to live these difficulties (put myself into, candidly (not really knowing what I'm doing, just exploring and ending-up finding), even if the path to comprehension can be quite frustrating and revolting, in my environment or situation that is not very motivating. It's just that hell can be a bit submerging, on the problem side of things, their complexities, and hidden properties. But I'll try to make the best of it all.

All these are just probabilities, there is no way to know, even if some will say popes never lie, particularly to masses, but this is not an insignificant detail, it is in fact civilization defining, and I say that whatever consciously or unconsciously, those who control and impose liberties, whatever the way, desecrated love for their interests or view and when they'll realize it was critical to the health of civilization, they'll dump responsibility on others, put the fault on innocent shoulders or a fact they invented through PMBBD. They wanted us under their control, "naturally" seeking sex as either entertainment or competition, or anything else but the boring, standard and not working "couples" thing, a concept that probably showed its force in a costly uprising. Those who want life association will get it as a condemning contract with reality, with the feeling that they owe something, we'll exploit your love force, embark you on a bet of a relation under a contract that is non-realist and sure to generate tons of personal problems, and entertainment, to divert attention from where the real evil is. And stay a virgin before signing your condemnation, and make 10 children, 20 is better, 30 is the record! And move your ass, and do something, and get your shit together, and compete for Christ's sake, you'll see if it's not you it's your children who will drop this love ideal thing...

Don't forget that everything happens hypocritically with subtle touches, twisting and under meanings, the true goal is different than the one projected, and this must work at all possible levels, even the pope has no idea, there must exist nothing that could put the institution at risk. Everything is falsified, and the goal is sure not to make you think like me. So get your mind and energy diverted, have fun, work for some time, get frustrations, think children, get the hype money back on the economy, end up divided through a panoply of ways to prove, again and again, that it doesn't work until they win with a majority who think like them, with scientists and psy to make charts as "evolution" develops proving with numbers that the human is like this and like that in final truth.

You'll be better settling for the boring couple and more appropriate love when you'll have crushed it for years (don't forget the fairness principle exists all the way, and again it is related to the type of ideology you encourage, in an ego god ideology the proper way of reproduction is unfairness, where as an example, a guy with any kind of trendy advantage will find himself with far more choice than a guy with far more worth of qualities. It may be acceptable at that level, the ways of life, if we make abstraction of media manipulations, while we're still supposed to strive for ideals, which includes fairness, but it's different for someone in a position of power, or prestige, like an emir higher than a super star, who not only takes money unfairly, but will use the money to make himself a harem, where all the prettiest girls of the kingdom will end-up, forging their minds in a direction, removing these girls from the pool of adequacy, reproducing the god unfairly, and now a sane and healthy guy has difficulties finding someone for a nice love story, then, for the cherry on the sundae of irony, he meets a banished princess, with a baby that's not royal blood...Or not, and settle to make a family with an ugly old hag, or a mentally deranged blonde that after marriage revealed to be a dick girl, because there was too much reproduction involved in the royal family, with a growing touch of pedophilia and co-sanguinity, so most babies ended up dead. Anyway, you understand the idea, and it applies to polygamy, advocates never mention the unfairness effect of the style, or they'll cover it with bullshit and more divergent or alternative sexual ways involving children), on your quest for sexual experience, tiring yourself of a batch, dealing your perfect dick or butt for stability or fun possibilities; you're going to be old someday, and monotony always come back to get you until your life is so monotonous it is dead. Some will absolutely want to make children no better than themselves, made to discard bad feelings, or from pressure and "love" for sure, which will become booster, porn and perversion dependent, something like that; choose your manipulative form of love.

It's not monotony in itself that kills love; it is attitudes, and PMBBD and profiting and pressures and more. But sure, attitudes that we don't like are supposed to end-up in non-flattery vocabulary, just so you know and avoid, unless you're Christianity, with its destiny of reaping its worse nightmares (revelation of bad intents (intents that are very far from the best for the emancipation of life, the machination reveal the intent, which may be a diversion, and backlash when logical extrapolation from condemnation of form forces revelation)), and make the mistake of crossing Quebeckers; good and evil is different around here, filles de joie, criminals and Indians, you debarked on difficult terrain, but yes, number, means, and traitorous actions win wars and change populations, but telling us that pronouncing the name of sacred apparatuses from your doctrine is a sin, that was too much man, we'll do like everybody else and go to your fucking church (don't believe the manipulative statistics that say a majority of Quebeckers are Christians, they are because they were baptized as babies to the religion of the place, but in reality churches are empty, we're non-practicing it, it's just decoration and pardon effects to feel no worse than anybody else), but we'll unconsciously implant your sacred garments right through our language to express negative feelings.

All that to say you don't associate monotony, a negative word, to couples stability and comfort leading to family principles without getting bloody wishes from me. Stop the autosuggestion and PMBBD, leave love alone. True loving people are among the most valuable people of humanity, and you won't succeed if you can't tolerate a certain level of monotony. The pressure selection should be meant to encourage love, not the contrary for profits. But this reality need well controlled excited people always ready for Wow! New! People! Social! Show! The principle is simple; if you truly love someone and got a minimally sane mind and body, there is no monotony. If you can't get an erection then it's hard on love if sex is important to you (it is to me), and it can lead to monotony, but what is the problem? The erection or monotony? And never underestimate intelligence, sure that if you're a moron passing 12 hours a day 7 days a week in front of his TV, then monotony will really be a problem; there is a basic attitude necessary to make love succeed, but if you like to think, then some level of boringness, or monotony will give the exact contrary result of increasing love potential as imagination, creativity and uniqueness (independence) will increase as well as your enjoyment, if you remember how I see the mind working, but you need time without external influences, or time thinking without pressures, and this is dependent from not having too many activities; the middle line. Always the middle line; the best lovers are those who are capable of regularly passing an hour stretched on grass while looking at the stars (figure of speech), but that's probably too monotonous for most people these days, self-justified slaves to PMBBD, they need heavy fun, socialization, and stimulation, probably proportional to money... You can't talk about love as monotony (look at synonyms), where there is monotony there is no love, if love became monotonous in your reality, it is because you wanted it, you made the situation come true by taking too much of people's energy, by destroying love, or making system people, or you stripped love of sexuality which you embarked in the ego-gods competition, you defended evil instead of fighting it, and now women are in a line salivating at people full of money and it is just fair and normal, because where are the proof that you're different? Fight evil, help life, it's just bullshit? If you are no better than my boss, then why shouldn't I switch to a more advantageous situation? So you see, it's hard to blame women alone, I try, but they deal with more stuff too, their situation is always more understandable. Maybe it's because it's no good to judge by comparing sexes, it goes wrong with my no competition no equality mentality. Sometimes I'm so sorry for myself that I failed my love adventure, you have no idea, and I'm sure my best friends should be couples, but nothing of that, and I'm there talking love as your usual incompetent, maybe not...

The greatest creations are made by patient people who carried the same brick all their life, you'd tell me that I'm stupid if I made the association than finding yourself a steady job in life and be done with it is finding yourself a monotony? The same with love you don't associate it to monotony because you're someone that likes to run everywhere driven by hype and a continual desire for action or fun, or a profiteer that got too much money to spend. This book you're reading is written by one of the most monotonous person of this earth, but I'm worth nothing if I'm not running everywhere dealing money, and I'm better be running in front of cameras to increase my worth, I'm even too monotonous to be worth love, too monotonous, yet, I'm absolutely certain that when I'll be done and have free time and sufficient means for love I won't be monotonous, but maybe I'll be too old...One thing's for sure, my will is there and I got many things I'd like to do, many activities that I find interesting, tons of imagination and creativity, I'm still healthy, I'm ready to explode, but I'll do it slowly, under control, while jubilating all along; you have no idea how I feel powerful under my calm demeanor. It is incredibly depressing for me to just barely have the means to write this book.

For now I'm living a normal situation of poverty I guess, nothing of value, visibility is better avoided, or too costly, nobody cares, and a girlfriend would be inappropriate in my situation, even if I leave the door open. I have to prove my worth to this reality by encouraging it, like it's a fucking privilege, and compete my friends at it, and women if that's not enough, to add bricks to something I'm revolted against and which I believe will carry life to its tomb, while I can envision a very different development? What is my responsibility in this? And what is my responsibility in life?

I'm a weight on a system that I'm forced to since if I'm forced to follow its rules while not contributing to it I die. As simple as that, I'm condemned on the assumption that it is the best system of the universe, nobody on earth can act to just survive upon the conclusion that the system is fundamentally flawed (in many aspects from what I see). The counter weight of taking this fantastic power is that you provide the fantastic amalgam of complexities necessary to make people fully aware of the reality while they still got the potential to change their minds to change reality. It means simplification of system basis, reformulation of education, sustained feeling of fairness, that should put back true adulthood on track (age at which I would leave money to my children, supposing it was a fair concept...Or, if you prefer, age at which the majority of the population is at its optimal ability to fend off manipulators, profiteers, and cheaters, and eventually act upon it (comprehension and action); around 15 in old cavern times, 25 in a good reality, and 35 in hell, too late, wanted as such, exploitation and diversion of time, energy, mentality, overload of options, disinformation, manipulation, etc, etc, etc. the pile is high, and the predetermined path sure won't bring you against your employer, I mean, pay, you're an investment, your studies too if it's not too much to ask... you can subtract a few years for girls, if you are ready to accept that they are not the same as men...). Everything is there, but the system doesn't provide those tools in an adequate fashion (just keep the appearance, to serve itself first or protect itself). Personally, my horizons expanded after I flushed this reality (complexities, investments, needs), but still, with all the aleas of my situation, I found it sufficiently difficult to comprehend my place in the universal schema of things, which is quite simple when you think about it, that I ended up way past 35 to reach my optimal capacity to avoid the traps of hell, let's say...But I meant gaining sufficient data about the liberty limits of my soul, or if you prefer, having a good idea of the workings of things generally speaking, good and evil too, maybe, that way life around me fares better, a baby is in order...But I'm too monotonous, the economy doesn't turn around me, car and gadget pubs aint got an effect so I'm nothing in the reality of this world. I could cry over it more than that, talk about how I'm lacking, but at the worst it's like an investment that goes way beyond death, so I always gain. To take things philosophically; my resource input is minimal, my pollution output is minimal, my true value of evil is minimal and the quantity of good I'm trying to accomplish is maximal. Soothing, but it's not enough, I'd gladly increase my pollution output for some comfort.

You don't think someone who takes control of everything got to permit someone to live decently whatever he is revolted? Either they lobotomize people like me, or they kill them, or build institutes (religious and psy), or they permit people to minimally survive, which is the least expensive solution. So yes I'm permitted to survive, thanks, that's what's less costly, taking image into consideration. If I wanted the reality to invest more on me I'd just have to do any stupid thing except writing a serious book in peace about saving things, which is getting quite eroded as a fighting tool in my hands; maybe I should drop it for something more efficient, I'm cumulating discouragements, because yes I may feel powerful, but reality is not a feeling and my situation is depressing. So yes it is in big part for ego reasons, I'm not really surviving in the forest with a knife, and my ego is my self, and I'm supposed to at least try to reach a value that I fairly think I'm worth, it's even a responsibility to do it, it is worthless to do things if it's for nothing, and this will for continuity we live it through our friends and offspring, love, family, and so they are one entity (the size of the survival ego). What's the worth for life to evolve to high consciousness if it's for nothing, to suffer and be exploited and die for nothing, if I'm nothing, it may be understandable for animals and innocents, the void of innocence, but it's not for conscious people who seek to understand. In the end we always do things for a reason, these can be unconscious, like chemical effects in the groin (brain, whatever...), or effects that look like egotism, but the more you're conscious, the more you understand, the more these reasons become precise, and the more you must care for principles, if not things degenerate in unfairness. Yes I do what I do for life, but I would be incompetent to see things as a matter of sacrifice as much as I would be to see them as a matter of competing to take as much as possible, the 2 are bad visions for advanced life, so I do things as a matter of being worthy, of all what compose creation, to have valor, to be valorous, and all these life respectful things I do they form my sacrifice, so I try to not be too expensive to the planet while I'm an innocent, but I want to bring something of valor to life, and I am life, so I must feel this increase my valor too, somewhere...That's risky business I'm talking about here, because not doing things fairly you can easily slip in an extremisation of a vision of blind sacrifice (strong with religions and sects...) as well as an extrematisation of an ego competition vision of existence (strong with market people..), the 2 result in an inadequate mental development that can become a degenerative genetic aberration where your brain stinks and become the same as a crocodile.

Maybe I don't do things for profits, fame, or glory, but I could still use a better chair, and an adequate apartment, and a car and a girlfriend, and a competent doctor, just for the minimal sane health with my intents, or grand plans. Everything is scrap around here, so yes my ego is too minimized, I passed too many years without sufficiently caring for myself. I say I write as a responsibility, but it's not entirely true, I write for myself too, to discover why I hate this reality so much, and I want to do something, so I have chosen the best path for me in this reality (what else? Killing my enemies? Destroying all what I hate? Take tolerance spirituality or adaptation pills?); you'll understand what I mean later. So yes I may go from feeling euphoric to feeling discouraged, but it's not because I'm manic-depressive (that may be valid for many people who are more sensible and still dare look at the reality in the face), and if I make a depression someday, then maybe I'll be right making one, not wrong in my head, and maybe I'll want to act upon reality to feel better instead of bowing to it...And yes manic-depressive people do really exist, I never said the contrary, I'm saying a change of mood is not a proof, neither a slightly abnormal chemical change, the same for depression, there are excellent justification for feeling depressed, whatever the time it lasts.

And the worst is that all those excited think they're making a better world for their children, they are the realists they think, that way nothing will truly change in their order of things, it's their reality after all, and I'm an utopist or idealist, like it's something negative, but there is more mentally degenerative, I can be a psychopath too, or sociopath, or a psychotic, or a borderline since I can't adapt to reality. But ok, I'm just a guy trying stuff, I'll go back to my monotony brandishing an honor finger with a smile because even if I feel like it's worthless, as this reality makes me feel worthless presently, I still believe in people's potential.

The ultimate success of love is the whole family picture with a smile, that you can get on the internet, but the behind the scene is quite a mess, and I think it's in big part related to the disconnection of education from where it stop profiting the reality, beyond that innocence or ignorance is preferred, except to continue research and technological advancements, it's a question of marketing too, everything must be dismembered and made available for sale. Not much wrong you can do in the first years, unless you're too intolerant, incompetent or evil, education works and there is only so much time, then things go sideways as soon as sex show its nose, because we are incompetent on purpose at that step. So schools should ditch a few geography or history courses (can be a later specialization, but I understand that it's critical in a nationalism divided world...) to do a life course, like in life like in living, a strange world where everything and everybody have weird sex. Sure that I don't have the privilege to know what I'm talking about since I don't have kids, because some people are churning them out like industrials not caring about the planet, to cut the discussion short, but I'm sure I can come up with something better than stupidities to answer his simple existential questions., I wouldn't go crazy babble or laughs stupidly if my kid asked about his erection, I'd tell him it is his body that is starting to work better, the same for the girl. Maybe I'd add that it is used for love and sex. Sex is having fun in love, it is between a grown boy and a grown girl and it serves to make babies and families too. Love is when you are strongly attracted in emotions, mind, and body to someone a long time. When you are in love with the same person for a long time, you can have sex, and when you have sex a long time, you can make babies to form families for society to continue working well or to discover and invent new and good things. And if you have sex with others when you're too young, you become bad because you didn't develop your brain enough. That should be it, maybe I could go more complex depending on the personality of the kid, like saying that sex, love and family are sacred things that go together, if you break that in others people, the world will eventually stop becoming good, and after a long time everything breaks and humans can even disappear, no more families, no more children. You need others all your life, it's with them that you build, invent and discover things, if you do stupid things to them they'll hate you and come back to destroy your beautiful inventions and things you like, until humanity is in war and pain because everybody is all mixed up playing in other people's things, protecting stuff taken or exploited from others who have become enemies, competitors.

Does that sound good? I'd probably tell the kid to ask my love for her opinion too. And you can go simpler if they don't understand, and do I need to tell you where a penis fits in the story? A "vagina"? Or can you do it yourself? You don't need to build an university and an army of pedopsychiatric (psy for children) to teach what a child needs to know about sex and love, only a little effort, and a good reality. And don't tell me evil don't exist; Santa Claus he too. And a child don't need to "empty" his testicles to be healthy, and you don't tell him like that, you don't talk about it, I'm writing this just to prevent stupid people spreading PMBBD, I didn't say to force this into their brains; I said if they asked me questions about it, I'm an adult and I'm supposed to have something to say on the subject that makes minimal sense, surely not stupidities.

You don't teach sex, you explain love attitudes, the path of love, the why it is important, even life spiritual possibilities for love. As for sex, you tell them where it goes and what's the use of it, the body transformations and that's it, you don't make autosuggestion, like you're protecting them from fun, you tell them that they are better appreciating someone, find the person good and attractive, be old enough to understand the other, want to pass lots of time with the person, be somewhat of the same age, like to be touched by the other, and both must be in this spirit. And when these things happen, it means love is possible, and that's the best place for sex, and I said best, not the only place. You tell them that they must both want it and that everything concerning sex will develop from there, alone. Anybody who tries to push or suggest sex things and talking is telling lies or is evil, it is something you discover by yourself, it will provide you with pleasures but it is made to form a family, mother and fathers making new children and it is what the love word is for. I think kids are supposed to seek better understanding from their parents if they trust them, so a few speeches like that should come to happen naturally, and from there I have not a word to say about his sexual activities, I'm an example of what I say, I explained my view a few times, and the reality endorses it creating no conflict, division and competition.

At adolescence, you have to acquiesce that parents are inadequate except as a love example, teachers too. The problem is people, adolescents don't want a teacher or parent talking about sex things, but they still need some extremely trustable information, and that must be provided by a few good entity under the form of educational books that makes sense, not a throng of those at all twisted sauces on love illumination from the 60's, or an internet free for all full of people saying stupidities, or a classroom full of discriminatory or not serious students where you wouldn't dare ask a personal question. Competent sexologist are important there, but this reality doesn't seek excellence on the subject... So you still need a few books on sexual development, to set the bottom line, scientifically based, but simplified and made enjoyable, to complement human work, explaining the situations, pitfall, stupidities and mistakes a young person may meet, along with the way love develops and its pitfalls too. I'm ready to bet the documentation already exist in a most ideal fashion, somewhere, and making life ideology versions, or love integrated, wouldn't be that much of a problem, but you still need a reality that doesn't profit from innocence or put pressure, particularly with publicity and PMBBD (I see nothing wrong with some sane pornography of and for adolescents, but I said sane, exemplary, some (not a ton, in an optic of education as much as enjoyment) available not imposed, and out of adult hands).

Now, you'll sure have sexual education problem if you don't even have credibility to a child, or if the reality don't want to take the means to teach them such simple things...But I don't think there should be a problem if you live in an adequate reality with an adequate attitude, like developing a love philosophy. But that's far from present preoccupations, and there's so many people who reflect bad parenthood that you got to say people don't really care, they mainly do it by accident or as incompetents, or for ego reasons, I don't know but love doesn't work. I think there's a big set of unconscious after effects from all the different pressures of reality too, and I understand that people only have the provided paths of raising children within the net of all the batch of other unnecessary difficulties. System people make better system babies, some even do them to get rid of a bad feeling or to boast around, while other pop them at the chain like industries because there is never enough for the country and exponential growth philosophy.

Many will even condemn their child to a shitty path, or let the parenty (anybody) profit from them, than to truly make a better world for them, that's what they want, keep them innocent and full of twisted beliefs heard all around, from religions too. As for me, I could end-up reproducing something good, think about it, but it would be worthless in a reality that doesn't work alongside me. I should cut the whole kit just to be sure accidents won't happen; who knows, I could meet a crazy bitch with a syringe...Strange how it's part of my identity though, it really feels bad imagining the finality of it...Anyway, there are millions watching PMBBD campaigns who will make some while hardly thinking seriously about it and no worse than what I could do in this reality. It's not me that will stop the population rising, that's for sure...Oh! I almost forgot my nationalism lessons, I must embark in the racist country competition unless some other race overwhelm the world unfairly...

We can grow a big head full of conflicts, ambivalences and inconsistencies we won't notice in the vastness of complexity and PMBDB, a brothel so big you don't even want to think about thinking about exploring in superficiality; because that's what I do, no? I don't know what I'm talking about, no expertise, no diplomas, no book case at home about no philosopher or genius or whatever, I just watch things generally, like everybody else, far less in fact, it's just that I care more, as a person that cares about everything, with life behind my mind, in a universe made for it. Like many people i only live 100 years, so I look at the tangents of this reality to know if I'll live a safe life, if it's worth it to make a family, if things will be better, to choose my battles, how I can contribute. But sorry, you can sing technology extraordinary all you want I don't see much good when I look at those 100 years, and tangents don't go in a direction that feels sane or good to me, in the way I understand things, I bet I can take 20 years off to write my comprehension, while you adjust your tangents with the result of your comprehension...

So it seems profiteers and manipulators succeed at scrapping everything good with PMBBD, a bit like hockey succeeded at becoming, in Quebec, part of our culture to the point that they make the affirmation continually and directly; hockey is part of our culture. And one day they'll make these kind of affirmation to describe the transformation they succeeded at making out of everything, like love; we will be "loving" hypocrites who can "love" anything, anyway, anyhow, anytime, any long, any many, and you'll defend the transformation, or you won't care since the more you advance toward this goal, the more true love will be difficult, and the more justifications there will be for love a la fuck all free for all, no?

Competition, pressures, jealousy, unfairness, profiting, exploiting, manipulating, feeling cheated, parts of the normal daily package that comes with this reality, it's normal for the selection, or people who don't care, to me it's where a competition of taking as much money as possible leads, or it's an ego ideology (mentality) thing, and I have no choice, because in the schema of my mentality there is love, and all that and more I forget is hard on love, and this reality is condemned to them. Along with its adaptation in language, and how the future looks as we walk on each other's foot, well, it's hard to believe we'll ever go beyond the show...

Yes this reality can take the means to increase love potential, but everything is interrelated, and it's all a matter of the true intents behind every actions, within a process of unknown actions that started thousands of years ago, and now love is in place to give its best effect toward these intentions. What can I say? New reality? But if we take hockey as an evident example of the efficiency of the television PMBBD machine, close the television and hockey will very slowly almost die from lack of hype or pressures, but for now there is so much publicity, songs, debates about it in a week it's absolutely ridiculous. The same with love, all communication devices, including languages, are spread very thick with "love", shut them up big mouths who profit from love! Maybe not, there's no shame to be had being well rewarded spreading good feelings, there are many critical jobs that do it, which should be paid far more probably, it's just that things don't take their best forms in hell... And never shut down television, the internet and the pub machine, since the PMBBD, the limitations they profit from, and the needs they create is so intense that violent uprisings all around the world would start causing a worldwide civil word war z, the death of half the population from telephone disconnection and widespread destruction. Just wait for the next big flare... Humanity has become that much dependent from its PMBBD machines, thanks "gods"!

Competition in "love" will always grow back this reality's version since it's all based on intents, it's too easy to manipulate, or cheat, and it all become a money thing. Evidently there's always a little competition as I always make a difference between social circle level of effects, and the massive one propagated by governments (mainly big corporations) and media industries, and don't worry, you can all find yourself a way to discard responsibility in hell, what life is responsible for never disappear...So again I talk generally, the emphasis of society, the ideals, you compete with your girlfriend if that's what makes both happy, in fact bring competition everywhere it makes people happy, without hypocritically making them unhappy, which can be the result of unfairness. Competition needs should be inversely proportional to maturity anyway, so yes it is important for young people, to compare themselves, to measure themselves, to find their place; always the middle line and everything has a best place, judgment, you don't make a family without some rough competition, neither a system of education, particularly if it's fun like games.

So, true love between two people (tolerating each other to keep a couple is not love by the way) is already a rare thing in this reality, whatever the efforts made to mix this verb with a maximum of activities and the wishes to marry everybody for the show, to get the marriage business thriving, and it's a big business. Love has become the vaguest notion, a fourre tout, a cheap paint that the reality throw everywhere, so in the end everybody will say the word, which is already difficult in its true meaning, to have an illusion that they know what love is and that they are living in a "loving" reality. We need to say we "love" things in this reality to have a placebo effect to mind ourselves to appreciate it more...

There are languages which have the ideal words to describe the difference between liking and loving and the PMBBD machine makes its usual job of not caring, they need a show and good pronunciation. English is an example of that, it separated the two and it's a reason why I like this language, but instead of protecting its best part, people just inflated love out of proportions. There are languages where it's more difficult to express strong liking since they were invaded by the love revolution before they had time to develop their languages better or more, so they painted everything with love and have nothing as appropriate as a "like", they have old ugly words like "appreciate" which is less appropriate for a flowing language (it's easier to say you like violence or shit, than to say you appreciate it), yet the problem would not be that big if hype makers were not willfully desecrating it; you could say "je suis en amour" (I'm in love) for a little crack at keeping a part of it limited to expressing the feeling between 2 opposite sexes, but then hype makers would say people are in love with a burger, even if the true definition was minimally meant to include a sexual relation between opposite sexes; do you have sex with a burger? No, but it is important for hype makers to put sex everywhere.

I understand languages develops in strange ways but I still find it weird to hear people "love" thing, that's why I'll add that all is needed when you have a verb like "like" is to use it, love is absolutely not a synonym of strong liking, or affection, or compassion, or understanding, (twisted too, caring or empathy is the good definition, understanding or comprehension have nothing to do there, do I need to explain their place? I'm French, arrange your mess of a language yourself, get some expertise that is competent in your universities, stop hiring syntax and grammar purists and start hiring people who care about signification, and who have a sufficiently large vision to understand possibilities beyond language itself, that way you'll stop producing high ass literary agents who pout at the first mistake! Call me and I'll do the hiring if you can't make the difference, and I'm not saying grammar is unimportant). Being careful of one's talking is always important, to some extent, mainly dictated by situations, always a good idea to have a maximum of judgment too. So why do we have to use that single verb in particular for so many situations? Because we are in a boiling stew of PMBBD and it shows in our languages in many facets for many words while we are defined by our language, and readjusting can take thousands of years, while everything is a matter of time.

The problem is that I believe continuing as we are will end life's potential soon, if we are to give some credit to my argumentation, and I'm generous here. We don't have a thousand years, love is a reality condemnations (condemned by), too long, complex, costly for this reality, who cares. I've enumerated a few ones already, condemnations, and when taken together the ego reality will not be able to make things right for half of them even if it lasts forever. When I say the birthing of another reality is the best solution to a problem, I mean it is the solution that can repair the problem along every other reality condemnation before 100 years, I may be biased by my unwillingness to explore all the complexities of hell though, and the fact that I made-up all this new reality and ideology and UI stuff, that's what my brain think and it doesn't even exist! It's like I've got a full mind of interrelated stuff that is simply not even an option, wtf, we missed all that? And it's not like it's out of reach, it's more like at the opposite of what is most evident, it's the last thing you'll see because it's the last thing you want to see.

As I already said, probably love started as a wish for a better systematization, but one reason for its deviation is probably that for ego gods, those who took the means to control things and make the world in their image, love created a conflict between their brains and their groins, they want orgies like the Romans, they want to be gods served in admiration, they must control sex, plunge in it like money, they want it cumulative, exchangeable, marketable, more money equals more love, they want everything to become money and if it can't it shouldn't exist since gods are supposed to have the best of everything in exaggeration. You wouldn't dare define an activity where their type get no more than anybody else for the money, particularly if the thing could be refused to some of them. So today we have the luxury prostitution market, or escort market for some others, or luxury manicure and massage institute markets for many others, all on their knees serving the rich as a priority, and many of the "women" we see that supposedly "love" and defend a powerful man are in fact prostitutes who live rich lives, and they'll be still richer when he'll die, no love there. Then they think everybody is like them since they formed their minds, they are superior, any vision of love that limits their liberties is wrong, or for inferiors to indoctrinate, and they must spread their view. They know how image work, how to get admiration, and they're supposed to be the most exemplary people, in the logical mind of life, so the world have become what they wanted of it (get used to life as an intelligent entity, unless you want an explanation about the ways of the unconscious, or about the UI everytime I talk about a life process. The Seat Of My Mind was an introduction, there will be Life Infinite and Lift-Off, where I'll explore many weird possibilities, from particles to the creation of the universe passing by life, to come to the conclusion that there are many things going on that can only be explained by another form of intelligence taking some decisions).

No love with deluxe prostitution or sex escort glamour or sugar daddy affectionate mentality, what is most strong between a man and a woman became an image, or sexual, or profiting, or hormonal thing; love as something that can mean anything, justify anything, even violence, you can do anything to anybody then say you did it because you love. And it slowly works since we can be what we want and most people are their reflection, their historical selection, they all want to be rich, win at lotto or control things. For those rich exceptions knowing true love can be the greatest joy, they won't encourage it if they miss their shot since people seeking to become rich or powerful are supposed to end-up having everything in exaggeration, so they surely won't complain being frustrated of a thing anybody can have (even them) if lucky (in this reality). They all work toward (consciously and unconsciously) destroying the only thing they can't possess (stash).

At least being that rich mean you don't confound love for compassion, or fairness, no love is possible where there is no empathy, compassion and altruism for the people globally, the same when you exploit people or create unfairness, or profit from innocence among many other things ego people "love" to do.

Anybody that profit from love to make money is a traitor to love and will eventually propagate hate, which can be displaced anywhere, even in people you don't know about. That applies to distributors of love, like the pope and such slow motion saintly superior "loving" people; you can distribute affection, not compassion, not empathy, and surely not love. Distributors of love are PMBBD profit machines or indoctrinated people. And who widespread all this love everywhere philosophy? Surely some slow motion love distribution machine that travestied compassion or appreciation for love, and don't worry, it's not Jesus that did it, it's more like an institution that needed peaceful and "loving" citizens. Jesus has defined some human virtues is more like it.

It's like those people with big hands and they are in admiration of their own hands and they do the apposition of the hand thing? And they think that gives them the right to caress everybody like they are a Jesus, and after fucking (loving) a lot because they have big hands they become pedophiles because only innocent girls are impressionable enough to fall for the big hands style (style, woodcutter's hands are big but they lack style...)? Or big people with a weird manipulative air who insist on hugging everybody, damm I hate huggers, but that's just me. I keep such expressions and feelings more measured vs people I don't know, and the result, depending, as often with my counsels, on your vision of life, is a stronger bond when I'm in love, stronger expressed feelings, and more trusty social behavior. But it's all in the brain, bad brain bad result, all in the reality too, bad reality bad result, unless brain (and body) overpowers reality, but I'm the only one to do that stuff...(no your drugs won't cut it, glimpsing what it is to have a brain is not the same as actually having one...and what you steal from the beautiful to twist for ego you reap a fraction of the benefit, and a maximization of potential inconveniences, often taking the form of the total loss of the initial beautiful (whatever that is, often a principle or an idea or a genuine feeling...).

I'm diverging, but the other thing i find annoying is that the most common "vulgarities" of most languages are sexually associated, that's a bad ground from which to grow love, when sexuality itself is ridiculed, twisted. When I hit my finger with a hammer I prefer to shout tabarnac than fuck, one make much sense, the other is a totally twisted, evil and wrong association. Apart from fucking fuck-all and things like that, we got so many fecal and anal associations it's hard to skip stumbling on one by inadvertence. No wonder this reality work so hard associating sex to love, it is disrespectful and degrading of the greatest part of love, right through its language.

That's how you implement PMBBD strongly in the unconscious, by letting all kind of ego overwhelmed people manipulate languages, making vague scrap out of it, a hell of a language. I even have an afterthought problem when writing "he'll" as I traduce it to "hell"; add be or have or see or eat and many more for some interesting effect. I know it's ridiculous, but I wonder...you know the think positive big things...you know placebo effects...I know I'm exaggerating, yet, when you says and writes it trillions upon trillions upon trillions of times for eternity, I wonder if it can have a measurable effect.

Still, most expressions and manipulations of language don't disturb me that much, I will even use them as the negative twisting they are under make them neutral in negative PMBBD signification versus the positive true signification. Even if I don't like those, the many fecal and anal associations are still endurable; the main exception to this is love. Liberty is not much better, but that one got a large meaning by definition, and it is not in a conflict of definition, even if it is often twisted and used for manipulation too. Yet whatever my bad trip about it, my justifications are still personal since I'm the only one in the world to see things this way, yes my ideal of it will make me revolt and fight any desecration of it, but people can still make the difference between I love a cat and I love a person, even if it doesn't mean much anymore. And you can live in a world without true love, but the notion of loving anything will eventually eliminate the worth of true love, meaning the civilization will have to accept that true love is temporary bullshit, losing one of the strongest and best, probably critical systematization "tool" (for this reality, love is a tool, but the truth is that it's a principle as much as an ideal that can contribute to form the foundations of civilization).

The other thing is that the priority of the principles forming communication, which are different from species to species, make it so it is another aspect that will naturally develop in an ego (survival) competition manner. So again, who am I to blame somebody? I will though...I suppose you can't much notice these things from inside, or they may seems irrelevant, or their control can be invalidated by other tools, like a dictionary that change day to day. So everything seems to point in the same general direction, survival as a priority, everything patented perfectly so they coincide to make us learn life by passing the logical lessons of an ego ideology which is the logical next association step from immediate survival adapted to family vision, and those lessons we ignore, refuse to learn, or forget, is what makes us bad, evil, not our best, and the more we advance in life understanding the more we switch to a life ideology and everything would be allright, resources, time, potential, understanding, if Catholicism hadn't existed. Sorry but that's the conclusion, if we start the countdown at the moment we have a seriously noticeable effect on the planet. In a window of 3000 years I say Christianity, whatever it may have prevented people from revolting against unfairness, an inevitable evolution step, cost us 1000 years, minimum, their crime so big that it may have cost us survival, if we are unable to change our attitudes and our ways with everything (take the life ideology, start better caring for all what is life related). And seriously, I'd replay the same thing while lowering the chances for things like Christianity to 0, just to see where we'd be today. Maybe not 0, but low, just for the troubles, or evil diversity in the universe, you don't want to meet the style too often. Or it may all be normal, every civilization at some step must chose itself a big freaking malus or it crumble, you'll compensate it so it is as advantageous as possible, but you signed a contract with the devil, which includes that all traces of said contract be destroyed. I doubt it, but then I left a crack for the god of religions to exist, and here he would find his place as a nice fellow within my schema of probabilities. Competition, cheating, profiting, lying, all those are tools for evil to manipulate people, so god could really influence the world through religions, but as a simple selection tool to remove those who are too easy to manipulate or cheat, because this aspect is the most important one for high consciousness to succeed in the universe, the strongest tool of evil is manipulative intelligence. Which is a bit reflected by our capacity to keep languages integrity. And the pope is the freaking turkey of the farce, he think he's big, god's lieutenant, for whatever promise, probably a bunch of virgins. He thinks he's doing the right thing, as always, but he just passed the hierarchy system that guarantee he's a sufficient fool to spread god's manipulations. As for god, he's just doing his version of his job, with the help of the UI.

It is my belief that if people didn't feel cheated jealousy or envy would be limited to understandable aspects acceptable for everybody, but that's like an ideal, because it implies that you got a sufficiently good judgment of yourself, which is not available to ignorant gremlins, or very rarely in hell, because the amount of thing you need to understand the right way as society take you in its whirlpool, is unrealistic...At the other end of the spectrum, a worldwide competition of everything is guaranteed to finish in destructive revolt in face of a sufficient intellectual unclogging or adequate understanding (probable logic used by religious manipulators to predict that everything will explode someday, not only are they part of the cause, but they want to profit from the event to gather more sheep, by saying they predicted it because they're in god's secrets, sacred book to prove it...), whatever the artifices and manipulations used to win more time, which will render the destruction all the greater, and messed-up at the height of the bullshit used to manipulate (including religions, which will all associate to enter in holy war like in bloody good old times, while singing god loves everybody, we pardon anything, just pass to the confessional to be a part of our army, to fight intelligence and life. Evidently I always take Christianity as an example, the religion that attempted to entrap me, if I'm not talking about Islam it's just to skip the pursuits and probable attempts on my life, but all religions serve the same god, the same ideology, it's not for nothing that the pope approves of the Coran, a nice association that one, one that has become the peaceful hand of god, the other its wrathful hand, god loves everybody, but god will chop your head right off if you criticize him or don't do what he says, kneel or kiss the floor for a start, and obey.

And offended Catholics beware, Catholicism was even worse than Islamism in its time, the story of Islamism should definitively be studied and used as a comparative for some facets of how Catholicism was birthed, and how Islamism will develop, since they were paid for by politicians as tools for mental subjugation and war (their soul, their intents, intents, the biggest evil of this world are religions from their initial intentions (apart from politicians who kill masses hypocritically, which is worse than directly as it removes the potential for the population to fight back through all kind of mentally incapacitating manipulations, all along the forming of a 50/50 division all the way to extremism on both directions with everybody cumulating frustrations...), and yes they'll adjust their stories over millennia until they become peaceful hypocrites, but in the spiritual universe they are the cause of the most massive amount of resentment, from all the souls they condemned with them to worse than failure... And the Jesus here is probably the guy that see through their games, and their worst horror would be to get their fantastically expensive grand plans scrapped by a single exception, who's probably a weirdo besides the rest of their selection, so it is logical that he is implanted to serve them in all their stories in advance, because there is always the risk one debark to bring understanding to their selection, so the understanding must be hidden under such a pile of bullshit complexity that everybody get the impression they are not intelligent enough to understand, and going to the extreme, you can actually remove all the basic level of understanding, so the necessary logical connections are missing, just to worsen the effect that it's outwordly understanding; after reading the bible many times, how can you not be a slave to it? Because it's the same phenomenon as people reading my work, at some point you just follow the lead because your mind gets overwhelmed by a piece of work that englobes a life of deep thinking, and that's why I made an emphasis right from the beginning to use your critical thinking while reading me, it may be harder for me because people will criticize more, but that's the good way. In fact, as I already mentioned, the ideal would be for people to actually modify every paragraph I write with their touch, like just adding a word or reformulating a phrase, and just that action will reward your mind with 10 times the understanding and evolutionary effect. My point is, where is the fundamentals principles of good and evil? You didn't notice they just used what everybody dislike as a tool to put a dictator god in position, the same for money, another critically important vision that is quite simple understanding too, but no word about the fundamentals of this absolutely critical aspect of good and evil...

And don't think it's easy to do, being convincing while saying at the same time not to give me total credibility. But seeing that big people are all trying to convince everybody else of their final truths in big wisdom competition with singers as "gods" of supreme of wisdom, while religions are an evident example of all the evil it can cause, I can say I have a vast head-start at having a good philosophy with my beliefs, in part by placing spirituality at its logical place right from the start; I don't use it as a tool for my final truth by twisting it to all sauces. That places me in a totally different situation than all those spiritual leaders using it for profiting (self-interests), and this may sometime place science in my gunsight too, and sorry if your message started well to end-up contorted by media people, maybe you should create a site compiling the name and the sentences of those media experts who contorted scientific affirmations, then give them, well, a troubled life, because what is hard on science are people who act like television is god and truth and people profiting from that; it's easy to make any profession a superior one with people who eat hype like truth. Television about science try to show its best facet, or manipulate to make things bigger or smaller, or twist for some hype or relations, and the scientists involved show the most recent view but not all its old interrelations, they won't say they're actually doing research to repair a wrong science of old. People may totally change the way the lands in an ecosystem work from a scientific studies on a single facet of things, like growing fast crops by changing irrigation, while one working on another facet will invent more efficient fertilizers, while another one will make more powerful soap to kill bacteria. And people must follow their advices and discoveries, they are forced to do it, if not, nothing would make sense. Yet, when the ecosystem will be scrap with bubbling green lakes all around, it is agriculture people that did it all wrong, scientists are good and working to repair things, and they have no choice to do it, who will? Who is supposed to do it? The farmer that work all day long to make food for people? Yes some may exaggerate the dosage, but science is not just the pretty facet of television, many are proudly working on thousands of things that will be very negative to life, humans and the planet. The thing to remember is that the more you advance in knowledge the more things are supposed to become interrelated and so science must be well associates and free of any, any, evil pressures, or pressure altogether, unless they spend the means to develop scratch ass algorithms...

That being said, the ego-god (s) ideology is perfect to learn all what you must not do, while trying to comprehend how to do things right, worsening things while always finding all what's necessary to continue answering problems, only to reap worse, somewhere along the way you became evil out of frustration, but good and evil doesn't make sense all of a sudden, and after comprehending all that you come to the conclusion that you've been had from the beginning, fundamentally, and now wow, surprise, you're left with this looming fear that you made the gravest mistake, and that everything has gone to hell, but there's always the media industry to propagate denial... One way or another at some point we'll have to reconsider our vision of the world and work to change it, because if we don't do it while all these hints pass in front of our eyes and there are still resources, it means we're not good enough, we don't care about life enough, we'll reach the end , and no you won't get away with it, you'll reconsider your vision of the world and life more than ever before, only without hope, in a world that will leave no place for such reconsiderations, and you'll fight like never before, to go back to the roots of humility.

What if "life" is stuck with logical love for us because it is the only viable option for itself, all other options fail, the recipe is invincible, like two sexes are necessary, determine by our potential in many things and involving lasting feelings between 2 people. The recipe is the situation where this attachment is best expressed for us, not as a beaver's dam, but it will include reproduction for sure. Do we know what is the worth of life development, in time too, to develop the ideal of reproduction for the human? We want to destroy all that with PMBBD or work with it? I prefer to find its best form, make it exceptional because the human is exceptional, call it love, and if you are to profit from it, do it to encourage it, strengthen it, make it truth. If it can be sustained, then it becomes a power, if you believe in it as such then you can use it as a systematization basis to permit civilization to exist under the associated form; you can make your civilization dependent of these things.

This may lead to mind problems and civilization stagnation, not only from conflict as you grow an unconscious competition between forms, but because of the too vast differences of values accorded to it too; a vision that makes it the most valuable human thing, and a vision that's just air, a bit valuable as strong liking, affection, sex, but nothing to do with civilization systematization, or the best path of human sexuality and reproduction, true love, which works a bit like destiny; there is a better path for everybody, a better way for everything, and the civilization best path will permit to optimize the use of the best path in people, turn around it, and so love can be made to contribute to the formation of the human general best path; systematization of civilization, and I said "contribute" by the many idealistic and spiritual principles that can be attached to it. There's a religion that use that to its own end with marriage, and that religion is very good at providing bad examples...).

Then you got your unconscious that can work in that direction too, we may be at a turning point where either we chose a form to decide it or it gets destroyed as a valid concept, it doesn't work, and the ratio of success is too low, people are not happier or more life caring when they say they act in love versus not, it's not worth the energy and complexity to make it work, or after 2000 years it shows worse than nothing for it, or a ridiculous aversion of what it's supposed to be versus what it is, how much we sing it versus how much there is, so let's put it in the funny things category, it just doesn't make sense, and watch humanity become a soulless entity, stamped evil with finality.

So, do you want the best path or do you want competition with PMBBD? The default path of love is decided by the reality so no problem as long as you don't care or don't want to evolve past that point or change some mentalities. If you start caring too late, and it is, then I don't believe the path of love can be changed, unless you plant it on growing protected lands and include it as a civilization value; another reality. In this reality, we condemned ourselves to love hype, struggles and some jackpots.

Family people who are competent in this reality are among the people I respect the most. Lone people who raise kids too, it's not easy. The same for those who had a lot of difficulties in life but succeeded at keeping a good attitude, I admire that, particularly toward others. Then there are the sensitive people, and those with a lot of good empathy, emotional intelligence, they reap the worst in hell.

Loving couples history, something that is rare today in its complete non frustrated by external forces form, with their ideal of maybe forming a family, can be the most fundamental building block of a whole society. But there's a problem, profiteers enlarged the definition to infinity, so evil can have the advantage using it, choose how you "love" love on the moment, to talk about a human, an animal or an object. But in this vision animals are in love too, humans have no reproduction best path, they have a job and make babies from pressures or when their hormones kick-in, worms do it that way too, and someday we'll replace all that crap by machinery, just so that finally, everybody can become a dick girl.

I'm exaggerating, it's not a superb analogy, hormones don't kick in, and we have all this culture around sex, we rut a lot in hell, and the hype, oh, wow, the hype...while my other brain tells me everything turn around sex for ego people, so it's not surprising...

The other thing I seems to believe is that true love as a mass is a civilized thing, not much love where there is no civilization, and neither where people are not civilized. Civilization may be dependent from love, and love may be dependent from civilization (lasting civilization, billion years), and civilization can't spring from people who act or see themselves as animals. Civilization principles arose because minimal notion of systematization appeared that started separating people who wanted to act like stagnated animals and people who wanted to act in an always evolving manner. If a certain level of systematization didn't appear, there would be only tribes at best today. So, the survival-ego-gods association permitted a certain level of systematization, but it was not necessary to form civilization, it appeared first because ego is first in the cake and systematizes it for himself. The fundamental need is systematization, but any combinations of things, like an economic system, ideals, principles, can permit civilization principles to form, and crumble when they become invalid, love is one of those and one of the best civilization builder because of all the principles that form it.

As a powerful civilization building principle, among many, and among many tools too, love has been used from the beginning to control and profit. The survival-ego-gods association is a detail that can be discarded, but since it is the first to control and systematize things enough to start forming civilization, it then used love as a tool since it's evident that it will permit higher systematization in an exploited population at a more massive level. But the true power is love, not ego gods, love is eternal, it can't be replaced, it is a fundamental or top principle; an ideal, while ego gods die all the time. Love is critical to a lasting civilization, for civilization to be worthy of the name.

There are many ways to start forming civilization, and to date those appeared by inadvertence, by accident, from following the wishes of leaders, which, even to this "evolved" day, is the fundamental drive that permits some races to believe they are superior because they are the most ego, the first on the cake, or the best at taking control of something, and keeping this control by limiting others (like the democracy-capitalism business). From that sprang the ego competition, and so the competition stole the privilege of a chance at forming any other kind of civilization from others because they believe they are superior, they are good and competition proved it. Ego systemized things first and their attitude and fight to keep control invalidated self-forming of civilization principles for others, and that's still true in totality to this day, everything is in a competition of superiority, different mentalities have been savagely competed, eliminated, entombed, or assimilated, other mentalities that are not ego ideology that is, an insignificant percentage, it is the ego competition all over and the cake is half eaten, and gargantua is accelerating the cadence out of fear, he's a giant now, he got atomics, and he knows all your tricks...

But it was supposed to be like that, no? For a time yes, but we should have steered in a different direction at some point, but it didn't happen. So while it is the normal path, the ego-gods association is not the only way a systematization can come to exist to start building civilization, any level of whatever systematization can start forming civilization. In fact, the ego-gods association is probably the worst philosophical base to start as it condemns the civilization to fail right away from all kind of manipulations, lies and illogism, I'm explaining a few of those as I write, but yes, you got to start at the bottom, but we're stuck there, refusing to use our intelligence the right way, maybe we're retards?

The fast track to extinction. Then what? Good and evil, best and worst, love and hate, logic, morphing, life, independence, justice, and many, many more. What builds a successful civilization that will last an "infinity" of time is a maximum of principles and ideals that are all held together logically, simply and efficiently while keeping integrity through history. To forever last, those must last in truth (integrity), with an effect tested through reality. Evidently, it's a bit necessary to have civilization goals with a priority level that are logically possible in the unconscious and in harmony with the principles you define, which a vast majority of people believe as good. People must witness those goals advancing, goals that must be of all kind of sorts, from short term to unbelievably far away long term but still believed possible, and the most important point; the reality must be able to change dynamically as it advances toward those. The thing that will fail a civilization is the unconscious belief, from witnessing reality, and from logical brain modifiers extrapolations of philosophy, that things are illogical, or worsening or more evil or twisted, or conflicting, or won't last, or that you're cheated, etc.

Love ties together many good principles and I believe it absolutely necessary for human healthy civilization. Love should have been a barrier against too much unfairness, against the lack of respect for life of those unfair brain malformed psychopaths, everything now is based on the economy, capitalism, profiting from each other, competing each other for money and popularity, make everything complex or sick to create markets. But I'm just showing a path since this economy was meant to fail from the beginning, want it or not, it is wrong in principles, it is unfair, too much hype and PMBBD, it is evil, even invalid, retarded in mentality, based on condemning future people, so many patches it is a mummy...to count all the laws of it you need a lifetime...But people have been had through time, selected, pacified, misinformed, and now they hide their fear behind cultist's bravery...

Parts of what form the systematization of civilization can be compensated, easily removed or replaced if based on possibilities and not implanted as final truth (unless they become), but when all there is is an economy that is born to fail, well...pray life and grow potatoes... Now you begin to understand what I mean when I say that true love is critical; it forces us to a basic situation of self-respect that is totally different from current reality; it forces us to take a step up. And I didn't say no love scenarios are possible without civilization, I said it is a necessary part of civilization, love does not mean civilization, it means that if you systemize it along with other principles that form a civilization, with it, you have a far higher potential to develop a civilization that will reach other stars. If you make vague crap with it, or if you don't see sexuality and couples as an important part of your view, you'll meet some other limitations that will make it harder for you to become a successful long lasting civilization, even if you're billions attached to an economy and stroll through light effects and gadgetry.

Love at a personal level can exist anywhere, someone in a tribe can fall in love without knowing the word by fulfilling the definition of it, but to have civilization you need far more, not only love. Love as a foundation of civilization, a necessary part of it is what I say, and you aint got much of that in tribes, the principle hardly exists, and love don't thrive in survival difficulties either, it needs a minimum of comfort and exploration time.

So now you understand why love is a civilized thing to me, unless you sacrifice the word to mean the reproduction way of any living being, but then you'd be left with nothing for the high consciousness aspect of it, and what happens with love at all sauces? Don't forget, god loves everybody, pass by the confessional and you can be part of his army, anybody, and I'm the only one on the planet to be worried by this type of paradise vision where you realize good and evil didn't exist after all, as I shake the hand of the killer of my child. No, I don't like this kind of god...

True love is an evolution thing, civilized people see true love around them, and the positive is reflected in the reality of their life, or life altogether. People who only think about sex? Depends on the situation of their life, but they are mostly retarded, not civilized, but keep a bunch together like that and you can condemn your civilization to never go far by stagnating its development on critical facets, everything as steps, they are there and they can apply their pressure, in perfect harmony with their need to boast and confound humor with stupidity, spreading their view to whomever is insecure sexually; they think that being libertine or seducing is all about love, they made of sex a competition, a stupidity, and those people are everywhere in the medias because it serves them well in this reality. And with the need for show and cultural coloration in the name of a country competition that is losing its use, and the glorified future of AI robotics, and 3D printing of babies, and nanotech construction of replicas from scratch, and vats full of bioengineered porcupine placentas to produce fetuses at the chain in vast factories, and mega big fucking brains connected to internets working day and night with quantum computers to create the singularity of bullshit, with all that it's pretty much guaranteed we'll get along just fine whatever people do, so I don't see why the future of sex and love and intelligence wouldn't be all messed-up...

As long as we won't fight those libertine show offs retards pressuring the mass, we'll be limited in our development and true love will not thrive. We should take better care of those principles that makes a civilization better, keep their fidelity through time or morph to become better, if not you don't care enough, for a true civilization see no end to its existence, it see fairness, it see good, it takes the means to do things in the best fashion, not the worst or easiest.

And don't come to me with natural selection, trying to say I'm against natural evolution by deciding different things than what have been decided; humans do consciousness selection, it is our choice to decide what we are to become, not some funky natural selection, you think media people are doing natural selection? No, we have chosen to give (sell) them liberties and they use these liberties to manipulate and put pressure to get a result. And letting human things to themselves, or entropy, is still a human choice; for humans not choosing is choosing. Humans have nothing to do with natural selection, there is nothing natural in technology, some categories of attitudes have been given advantages and this is the result, I want to give advantages to a different set of attitudes and I have different priorities, and more, lots more...Furthermore, I use the mind life made for me, do I have that right? Why do some type of people think they should have the liberty to use PMBBD on masses (It doesn't work, they spread bullshit and they manipulate just for fun they'll say, to color the reality) to steer things and change minds their way, and if I want things differently then I'm against evolution or natural selection? Anything can be twisted...

Pressure selection works by forcing genetics to human laws, and by making people feel good or bad doing this or that. These laws don't have to be written, they can come with the system, like adjusting where the means go, by twisting principles to serve a category of people, by hiding facts that could modify masses judgment, by using PMBBD on masses, by limiting the exposition of unwanted opinions, by pooling a limited fan base to make affirmations, by creating hype on a facet of something to grow a fan base, by rejecting what differ from the fan base, or those who couldn't be manipulated, by twisting principles to sell your "product", by creating pariahs of people not eating your stuff, by adjusting language so evil pass for good and sound good when he has public relations. There are many more, but in the end there is always someone with a different view of thing or attitude that is disappearing in frustration from others having the liberty and means to manipulate, and even if you think you're fair by giving them view proportional to their number, you're not, an idea is not weighted by how many people know about it, or even the opinion people have of it, I know it goes against the ideology but sorry, but by its sound logic first, its potential, what it involves, while testing it, without cheating, which should be hard for a manipulative competition of cheaters profiteers, with a history of making your army, everything well biased so that my ideas just end up in the garbage. God is that powerful, with his selection of liars who believe in lies, and the rest can die, or you'll make them quaint like they belong in a museum, or you'll give the feeling they're a load of troubles, unpopular for sure, maybe good to pass in the news to pool your selection of news fans, or make a pub campaign to alienate them still more, send them to the psy before it's too late since they don't fit your view of happiness...

Presently, the reality with us and life are adjusting to different optional scenarios of reproduction where we can be happier than this love bullshit. Forming a strong family from love in this reality on love fumes is a feat. For most, instead of love growing and developing in peace through time, it will be a continual struggle to find a twisted recipe between all what you're supposed to do as a good citizen, particularly money, or worse, it will be war, hate and competition in the house after some time from external PMBBD pressures and encouragements to competition or from work influences. And for a lot of competitive people, as soon as they can feel a little change, they'll start acting like it's a sign that a different superior intelligence is appearing, and they must win something, everything becomes a competition, love takes the toilet in favor of a twisted ego vice of attacking or ignoring the other.

But at that point, you failed your love adventure, both lost some sexual attractiveness to each other, and surely one is going to develop worse, for whatever reason. The reality pressures will always force some win-lose or superiority reaction to appear in one or the other, some deal with it easily, particularly if they fit in well, but attrition will affect most love scenarios to not much. You can try to persevere, but it will never be half as good while you'll probably lower yourself to still worse, you must end this quickly before fat or something else cumulates, better luck next time. Something like that, I didn't include external pressures fetishes. We don't use this fantastic thing standing on our shoulders that makes us human like we should, to control ourselves, to choose good attitudes, to understand, to "brainwash" ourselves to like adequate comportments etc, we used it like it doesn't belong to us. We seems to not care for this big powerful mind that is supposed to make us independents as much as civilized, we are slaves to laws of comportment instead, laws that are good for the economy; how much did you spend doing what to meet someone? We can't even use our mind seriously to choose correctly because we are castrated by the financial ways of the reality, we must pass by implanted profit systems to end-up in vague guessing and lotto opportunities passing too fast, at best we must have a job, or go to school to learn how to fit in.

Now, if I start explaining our selection ways I'll have to write a lot of more negative words and I'm probably already far out of the "pessimism tolerance against stuff" standard that's supposed to start annoying people. I'm starting to understand how lucky I am to still be alive, whatever the life, but I'm far from the end of my quest, this is just a fraction. Yet, thinking about it and the opinion I'm forming of this reality, I'm as well abandon, but I won't because the weight of good people is tremendous, but they will have to understand that they have been deceived by all kind of twisted principles and philosophies that profiteers developed through time.

And I know many are not far away behind me, waiting for the right moment to get out of this mixture, I know many don't have the time to think like me, I know they've been pushed by the ways of this reality from birth, I do all this in your name too, why should I do it only for me? You think I want slaves? I absolutely believe a "paradise" is within the grasp of humanity, but I can't see it as changing this reality, it will have to be a new birth that includes all the attitudes, actions and principles necessary to stand in the light, right down to our soul, no hidden bad intents or machiavelic plans.

But things are worse than I thought, I didn't imagine life in as much troubles. So yes I'm discouraged, and I can't encourage this reality that revolts me, so no way out of it. So I point fingers at people, many of them, if not, things would be all-right, no? Evidently, for me most of the problems come from ego people and their view of gods and all who defend it, so I'm born to have troubles with many attitudes and people. All these negative opinions have changed me, maybe I'm more mature in my own way, maybe I'm less innocent of things, maybe it's necessary for my project too. It's not like in old times when I imagined with candor, people would just embark in my project happily, it was a game, then I realized that view was too simplistic, I listened to my past, how people dealt with me, I understood I'd have to fight, but now I understand how innocent I still was, and how painfully difficult my quest is.

Things have taken such a scale, where are my allies? And I'm so far away! Who writes about love like that? Fighting for my ideal of love, describing what I don't like of its ways presently. More things and concepts are storming in my head, is it proportional to mind complexity? Kind of interrelated with all the rest of what I stand for? It's like struggling to climb a mountain to describe your vision, imagining that your fight was climbing it, but once there you realize it was just to have a view, of the mess all around to the end of sight. You sit down, depress some, but you got good armor, good weapons so what can you do? Fight for space and chance for your vision to make things more beautiful. So I'll demolish all the foundations of this reality if I have to, shake the love out of this box, see if I'm left with something when I'm done.

For now I don't like to love anything and everything, that's my point of view, and I think we are at the first step of the result of the failure of true love, and yes there are people responsible for it, so don't think I'm not supposed to point a finger. And the more people will sing love, the more they'll throw it everywhere, profit from it in all kind of ways, the worst it will get. The more you dissolve love to everything, the more free for all sex you'll have, the more twisting, the more gay, bisexuals, travesties, pedophiles, prostitutes, polygamists, nudists and "stars", all people you shouldn't judge from their sex, it means nothing they'll say, but they like getting others in on it for sure...

Love has taken a final place to the point that you sound strange not "loving" things that are not supposed to be loved, seriously, the language is morphed, the signification too, try, just try to change that; you'll sound strange a long time, you'll have to think of everything you say. But I'll still fight for true love; I want the ideal of it to have power, tremendous power, as much as possible, so I'll say that all is needed is good sustained will and understanding of all its facets and motivated people. One effect of sounding strange putting love back at its right place is the direct translating of the twisted phrase. If you traduce it directly to remove wrong love associations, it will sound bizarre because the phrase was meant for PMBBD uses. So, you're forced to change the phrase to an appropriate version that will be out of love desecration range while still carrying the meaning, whatever it was PMBBD. As a simple example, instead of saying "everybody loves it", if your language can't say "everybody likes it", then you can say "everybody is crazy about it", or "everybody is nut over it", all kind of options are possible so you don't sound strange, or you can totally change the phrase. But in this precise situation, you know right from the start that there are already 2 manipulations out of 3 words to occupy your unconscious; first; "everybody" and then; "love".

To change subject, I'll say that I believe this reality to be in big part the evolution of competitive fears in both sexes, except good people who are out of evil space because they don't want to become evil and they don't like to use evil tools, which is perfect like that for evil. One of the main goal of all the religions that were invented was to put man in a position of superiority, but to do things differently you got the monarchy, so I guess both are supposed to compete against each other in the ego pyramids...The goal of a matriarch or a patriarch society is not better kids, it is the result of a competition to select, control and tame the opposite sex like pets so one can feel superior, while singing equality evidently, and this competition is totally useless except to grow hate, since the reality will work with whatever result of the superiority-inferiority competition, be it controlling men or women. The difference may be in the extrapolated form of the resulting failure, men would make a civilization that would quickly die as a mess of exaggerated perversions, women would last longer as a kind of ant society. But I'm just supposing weird results, one thing's for sure, all societies based on one sex having control or decision power will fail lamentably, in shame.

Women competing against men on the pyramids is a sure way to increase planetary heat, to worsen this hell. We will have to invent another reality and not a feminine one either, since we are complementary; an equilibrium basis reality for both sex to express their difference without the need to compete each other's space. I can invent the basic idea of such a reality, even if I'm only a man and my other loving part that could help me in this quest is not there, a reality based on love, where no sex systemize or control things. You do what you want at home, I'm talking governments and all systems and institutions, a system where there is no superiority-inferiority competition for the boss position, because there is no boss position for neither sex to compete over.

And you woman? Will you drop feminism? Your unfinished business with men? Will you help another way of doing things? I'll even try to extrapolate the basis of a life spirituality to complement the reality I talk about, but everything will be basic even if it a lifelong quest to me. There is a lot of work and perfecting that must be bought to everything I write, but I already need a long vacation of all this. You must understand that I do not write this from stuff I learned by heart at school, it's a decantation of a vast and boiling work in my head. My ability to reduce all of it to its simplest expression of this writing is a proof that I'm not crazy, but my quest broke my heart I could say. I should have been with a woman while writing all this, but I'm alone, and not only doing more that I should, but doing double at it, doing the woman's part from man's stuff. Now, even if it all seems to be a bad trip about ego competition, I'm sure many can understand all what I'm talking about, still, there is no use to my battles if I can't bring people to look at their soul.

I remember a school trip where the driver was drinking from a bottle of soda all along the trip (he knew from the beginning his actions was troubles since he hid it), until we had an incident where we lost a mirror, it took the police to get him out of the bus and it was a load of troubles finding another driver to go back home. When you're not appreciated at school but got a good mind, you don't pass your time jumping, talking and laughing; you are alone, apart, looking through windows and imagining. You don't integrate with others; you watch, listen and judge. This trip was kind of a revelation for me even if I had no idea of what I was observing, and I would memorize it for the rest of my life. What I saw at the time was a difference of attitude between man and woman. All in all, the only ones truly scandalized, or that sustained an opinion or feeling or emotion all along the way were a few women that seemed quite frustrated and a few girls that acted like their whole trip changed signification passing from fun to understanding, like they were the only ones learning something from their trip and it seemed more important that their whole year of school. Men and boys simply didn't care or laughed about it. For me, it is a very big difference and the end result is an extrapolation of ego attitudes.

"Never" (always exceptions) would a woman drink while driving with children aboard, I think they would hardly even drive while uninhibited, and it mean their consciousness have more strength, it can affect their unconscious more deeply, it mean they are born with more control and willpower, they think more of others, I may even go to the extent of saying that their mind have more potential to work better and more fully with a vision of love as a no competition ground. But in the end, cumulated potential is the same in both, even if this potential is different, I mean, when a woman reverts to ego attitudes, she completely losses it. They like to stand for something, and when they have a minimum of class, I find them most agreeable to exchange with, you rarely hear psy tags, they are far more respectful of others than men, even if they have stronger opinions. Their mind is craving for true intelligence, particularly if it is well reflected in a sexy person, that's what impresses them the most, they'll make a fixation, beware!

But men in this competitive world have a serious jealousy problem, and they are destroying everything in evil because of it, acting like brain-dead insignificant because they are frustrated, they can't compete media "gods", they can't compete the big penises of pornography, they can't compete with intelligence, so they take the ego and possessiveness track, and they want subjugated slave women, if not they are un-respectful. Everything is emphasized on people with a superior skill, because we don value people as people, but as results, as production tools, which can be entertainment, and since the whole money moving mechanism is a cheat, then why wouldn't people have exaggerated envy? While it is a bit normal and a facet of fairness, envy is quite exacerbated with competition. Present people feel things are wrong, but they are playing in the mess of both the result of their attitude and the PMBBD mess that is this reality. They should fight the true causes like ego competition. We should limit ego and not value people proportional to ability to get at money, but half from what they bring versus difficulty toward civilization goals or life's advancement, and the other half from taking care of themselves, or following good ideals, which will be reflected in less needs for related infrastructures to manage bad stuff. So people are right to be jealous, but they don't fight the sources, they prefer to displace to make things worse...even become an obstacle to those who can change things for the better...

A new reality is a thousand years away quest to see success, if and only if, we bring love to its glory, and you guessed it, it is impossible in ego reality; love have already lost all true signification, or more like never had it, and that's reflected in the how most "loving" relations start; in lies, bullshit and sex...No need to drool on about ultimate extrapolations of the destruction of the "spice" of the mind in women by the jealousy of people who can't, or don't know, love.

Science or reality can select for their goals, but the tool of selection of life for humans is love, accept it or die. And you will not destroy the other sex intellectually without exterminating humanity. Pressure selection to make intellectually inferior (like bullshit to control) or superior people is one of the stupidest thing we can make to intelligence, exponentially costly, since intelligence will always contort and displace itself to keep on trying to exist within truth parameters, causing more problems, more sicknesses, it will even grow some low IQ people more intelligent globally just to spit in your face. Intelligence is always there, intelligence always grows (not in a "think big" way), whatever the form or direction, through life, as different facets that can be seen as "evil" or "good", through response to pressures and displacements. I'm not talking lifetime time lapse, which can squish your brain to slurry through reality, but global time lapse in a scenario where "life" is still seeing the specie as worth it and the body carrying it as valid for it. And yes, you can create thousand years retards, but it will always come back, and with a vengeance.

Intelligence presently is greatly reduced by a panoply of stupid PMBBD, false principles extrapolated from science like the human is a gregarine animal with a big brain or only the strong survive because they spotted some animals fighting in their competition at all cost ideal. It is not the "strongest" that survives, strength is a single skill, it is the best that should and will survive in the end, but in this reality they wouldn't develop as the "best"...In fact, it is a lot of the "worst" that thrives in hell because they have no "good" principles and strength of will to be the "best"...

Soooo, yeah, I think a woman will always need less laws to live, unless she's become half-crazy or too stupid or she copy and compete the attitude of a man or she got too much stupid tattoos (personal tastes, many tattoos make me feel like the person belong to a specific mentality, like we are a super production of lobotomized innocent produced at the chain for money and that absolutely need to stamp themselves with a stencil graffiti as trade goods possessed by some unconscious gang's ideals, innocent manipulated carrier of logos or signatures, soon we'll be stamped with Adidas tattoos, or the name of our admired "gods". I may be exaggerating and I like some tattoos, mainly on adults and as artistry, done as a painting is better, but I don't want nobody in my bed with a sticker or a stamp, and I don't like any "classic" stuff of ego reality; forget about animals, bones, guns, names, messages, hearts, roses, particularly gothic stuff. A whole piece of arm tattoo is pretty, fantasy can impress me too, a siren enlaced in roots brambles and leaves, magic effect, savage flowers...)

Soooo, no, I don't hate this reality because I "love" it, that's so twisted it's inversed. When I hate I don't throw flowers or be respectful; if I had to respect every attitudes I hate, I wouldn't write this book. It's like that policeman that told me I had the right to be angry but not to kick things and insult people, he was joking, but I don't know what is a joke or not anymore, and you wouldn't risk insulting a policeman, so I told him if I had to sit down and be peaceful and respectful I wouldn't be angry. Oh, and being angry is not an opportunity to interrupt me with a freaking smile and ask my name like it's the time for presentations and friendship, damm I hate that...Or is it because they think they're good, they've been there, they know how it works, yeah, this here fist will prove you still got a lot to learn...You're lucky the strategy always leaves me sufficiently baffled to completely short circuit the anger I was having, and everything is going nominal in hell, why don't you go present yourself to some TV show my good man...

I'm not an amateur of happy or respectful angry, I know you don't say the most profound and intelligent things, but it doesn't exist for nothing, and it can be very well canalized or displaced, like hate; if you don't decide things consciously, or your hierarchy, it's you following the PMBBD mess in this reality. If you don't find good places to spill some, it may very well get displaced in actions you'll truly regret personally later, and people with hate who don't spill it on stronger people have a tendency to do it on the weaker ones. In the end you'll feel better and be better if you fight bigger and truer, and losing versus a bigger is more normal and understandable, while there's nothing worse than losing versus a weaker, or be seen as a loser from doing it. Yet, the bigger the enemy, the more intelligence and the more people are needed since evil got more means and is easily associated in powerful gangs.

So for me hate is not an unconscious laughable concept, it affects me so profoundly that it incapacitates or modifies my actions for life, think of my life, what it is, you want it? What can push someone to live such a life? For how long have I been against this reality do you think? You think I "love" this? That I'm a "loving" masochist? Hate is not a joke, it's a damning weight you don't want, a chore, it saps, it's bad, you think you want to kill because you love? You think it is fun to have the weight to do their part on my shoulders? You think i "love" deducing and finding my enemies? You think it would not be simpler to just blow their head off? I'd be depressed by the wasted life and resources, but I'd be jubilating at the same time, done! And I would feel responsible and good at it, because I absolutely don't believe everybody is worth living past a certain cumulated point of unfairness or evil actions, and I don't lie to myself, and I believe in myself, and everybody dies, I don't pass my time crying, and if your attitude is worth it then too bad for you. But as an end result, my life is not better because I hate, and love is nowhere to be found where I hate.

Hate is a continual fight to control, to canalize, who is worth your hate? You must have reasons? What are these? What can be done? Are you mistaken? Think! Feelings are not enough, find ultimate sources, justify, prove, become a poet or a monk trying to understand! And you must do it because in this reality your hate can expand and grow in you until it encompasses your whole life to death or insidiously get diverted on everybody around you. So you must limit it, and one day, the sooner the better, you must get out of it, but if your revolt is justified you may have to stop cold and forget a lot of what you stand for.

Luckily there's always a principle to manage risk or intensity, so I hate constructively, as I write these lines, and I give people a chance or 2, the benefit of the doubt, even if I have nothing to lose, even my computer is old and continually failing, you want it? Things would be so simple if I found a single big enemy to destroy, grab a gun and fight. But it's not the case, this reality put a gun in my hands as a young man, and I found no valid justification that pleased me for its use so I quit. Today, I could use it and make disappear lots of people without feeling bad about it and I'd give my life helping others. Writing is the only peaceful way I found to do something effective in reality about it, and people have no idea what I went through to write without spilling in psychosis, so you better not lament for compassion over my choice of words; I'm finding justifications for tolerating everybody in a situation where tolerance is a proven failure by all the reality condemnations I find. I should be giving orders of exterminations, but instead, while I seems to be condemning everybody and should truly name this book "condemned humanity", I'm in fact opening exit doors for all, and you wouldn't believe the extent of it, it's just not evident and you'll qualify it wrongly as some mental problem probably... I deal my hate while this reality had the whole history to prove how good it is, it is war time, extermination time, too late time, not tolerance and compassion and acceptance and trying to spare susceptibilities time! But I'm not stupid enough to make war, the planet can't take it, so I'm stuck, I'm forced to tolerance, acceptance, like everybody, it's just that someone gave birth to a kid that won't have it this way, and i hope to bring back light to everybody. So I'll continue the "peace" and "love" and "pardon" and "tolerance" and "patience" and "faith" and "hope" and "positivism" and "trust" stuff, that should be enough to compensate darker desires... Anyway, I don't want my face to become a reflection of hate but maybe one of love.

When you hate true and big, you need years to manipulate yourself and learn everything not to explode, find ways to be peaceful, and it's far more complex than that, you just can't understand how that can carry someone deep in the abyss, the only and sole option you have in this reality is to shut your mouth, buy a wheelchair and become your own battleground if suicide doesn't work with you, because you can't let it free (or rent it by going military) without comprehending all what's involved, which will bring you to adulthood with a far different opinion, so emotive anger is not the ideal option, but people must still know the truth that concern them as soon as possible, so they can work on it. Evidently, there are very despicable actions that better justifies immediate emotive response, and you can push problems until people just explode in random destruction... My personal problem is that all what I built of thinking, the uniqueness of the path, makes it so my kind of hate can only grows in this reality, so I grow a competitor and it never ends. You have to canalize it to victims, and while you imagine how you'd eliminate the source, you must write about it respectfully, find all kind of ways to suggest your way peacefully, you are forced to bow to and respect people you don't care seeing dead, and you continually need to find and justify enemies unless it displaces and kills anything human in you.

That's hate man, not a fucking "loving" thing joke you throw about for supper, the same way you do with love. It's a power, particularly when motivated by jealousy or envy. When you truly hate the last thing to cross your mind is to have fun or forget about it, hate is a fire that consumes and it bring you to extremes no "normal" person can understand, when you flush everything to pass your life alone in poverty, you don't do this for entertainment or to profit from the system, and the last thing you want to hear are insult or jokes about it, you'd easily decapitate but no, you imagine bloody revenge for weeks instead. Hate is not a joke you can twist enough it becomes love, you'll reap death, and you don't find friends, you eliminate them to find enemies instead, you don't see love and pardon and compassion and things like that, you see death destruction armageddon, and you better not get out because you'll find justifications; that's what hate makes you think about, love and hate are not the same or "near", ok kid?

They are two independent driving powers, powers which can be profited from, and one way to do it is to connect both with PMBBD, like seeing one as a negative thing and the other a positive thing, like there is a connection between the two, that they must confront, compete, while discarding one or the other systemize hell eternal. You must encourage the best philosophy as unconscious, not the worst, which ego has a strong tendency to develop.

When you walk a path, you don't like turning around, whatever the form, with some exceptions like nascar races. I fix a point and reach it; I don't want to come back to the start. Connecting love with hate invalidates both in an explosion, you don't short circuit power sources, something will overheat and you'll lose power or worse. It's a transformation process, the power must be used in its best way, a flow that grows love and makes the place where it can be expressed.

You can't transform all hate to psychiatric problems, hate is as important as love, going only for one is an intellectual failure, it is going against evolution and life. That's the impossible quest, even equilibrium between the two is impossible. There may even be a phenomenon of pressure and counter-pressures associated to love and hate, like another power thing, phased in people in a multitude of ways and steps, phased in races, phased planetarily. That's why world domination is impossible, you must use the tool (hate) powerfully to change things but temporarily so that the rising PMBBD counter-pressure does not grow too big, get contorted for increased power, or expanded to totally overwhelm the good in the original spending of energy and resources.

I'm going a little far with this theory on love and hate, 2 independent things connected by their contrary signification, we're tlking hate at all sauces the same way we're talking love at all sauce, but both here have "nothing" to do with the ideal of human reproduction. But this definition connects them, that way, you can use PMBBD in either to depress, overheat or explode people. I see the phenomenon as interacting counter pressured bubbles. Communication devices increase the potential size of these, while PMBBD insufflate them faster and can switch energy anywhere. If you've got an international language containing love PMBBD, you'll be affecting love planetary wide; some will express stronger hate as a counter balance, and some will express more "love", and it is all mixed-up and stepped, but hate will eventually explode in violence since both are independent.

The variable here would be PMBBD. You can contort both love and hate and how you do it and to what extent will contribute to dictate the coming counter pressure, and how the reality will get modified from it. Everybody may use love everywhere in languages to describe anything that is not concerned by love, and it will be spread upon reality, filling gaps with the twisted version of it until you have a monstrously big bubble of love with just a little true love in it. The love everywhere revolution would create a "quickly" inflated gigantic false bubble of it, and it will have to go through the equivalent powerful expending of hate. It can be done slowly but it will grow a still bigger bubble because people will think the solution to stop the hate is "love", while hate is just an independent tool of change and love is an ideal of reproduction.

The trick is to pop the bubble, create a fantastic explosion of hate canalized to something evil, a free slot that can take lots of hate, preferably PMBBD sources. But giving direction in such a scenario is very hard, you must have enough cumulated data to create a directed wave that will reach its goal decisively, surprisingly, and quickly reach back a tangent of calm before hate dwindle too much, particularly in a situation where people see "love" everywhere, or more appropriately, where people are blindly illuminated by PMBBD love. If not, the size of the expending of hate, and the pressure added to it with PMBBD, will somewhat dictate the size of the next bubble of PMBBD "love". In the case of a traumatic long war, the "love" bubble with all its variations and twists, particularly if true love is rare, can expand for more than a thousand years which will eventually create a potentially bigger bubble of hate (hate doesn't necessarily lead to war by the way, it can be displaced in many places, like human relations, and let's say there are some ways of hating that are as constructive as some ways of loving are destructive). It would be interesting to study the peace and love revolution under that optic.

If you want to stop it, then eliminate PMBBD on love and hate, as simple as that, stop the philosophy that make them interact. In that case they become independent things having their own definition. The truth of love and hate should lead to "somewhat" controlled phased "equilibrium". That is acceptable since neutrality is impossible and doesn't accomplish much. You need them unconnected by PMBBD and moving to increase evolution rate while keeping steering potential, if not, you get traumatic, hardly controllable, wild reactions.

Wrong love, or uncontrolled pressure from heavy mixing with PMBBD, can end up growing a bubble of unexpressed hate that can have a devastating effect like war (indirectly), then if you don't change the version of love, it will grow another one until humanity end up in a never ending hateful situation of incomprehension while thinking they know love, that love is everywhere, they're full of love, or worse, that love will be victorious in their PMBBD vision of it while they're spreading hate in truth, just more hypocrite, until no other factors can precipitate civilization destruction except hate.

Presently, you think you're living in a reality full of love, but the truth is more that you're living in a control for ego pyramidal reality of repressed and displaced hate, because hate is cultivated at the highest level that make the civilization; the country competition of profiteers, manipulators and cheaters. One way or the other we are in face of a reality where love doesn't work, and this is a result, so your usual defense won't cut it, so I'm exploring territories where people don't go, I'm good at that, and you continue dividing people for competition, and inflate yourself some love bullshit because you don't have the attitude to care for it. Throw love everywhere, grow an extraordinary bubble façade, one of the biggest sources of hate is competition and unfairness, this world is made from it, no wonder we need to throw PMBBD love everywhere!

That's what the good morons are doing with their war against hate and violence instead of making a good reality, and the result will be more hidden and hypocrite hate that will create more violence than what you get expressing it with a few ugly paroles or limitations. People need to express what they don't like unless you create a pressure selection and end-up genetically breaking your ideal human. But sure, you have them the way you want, me, I prefer when they works as intended...

Life got tolerance as a function of survival, and this reality sure requires tons of it to work, but maybe we should better prioritize where we want to be tolerating because expressing hate is as important for sanity as expressing love, so people should be capable of tolerating a bit of bad feelings, not only that, but people will have to reject the idea pushed by the media that your sexual activities are not part of yourself; you are one person, and if I don't like your sexuality because I don't like it like you, then you'll have to accept that it contributes to my appreciation or not of your whole person. Media people can't say you have no right to hate a child killer because it's a secret or personal part of his life, and the level of hate is different for everybody. Presently a big quantity of people are not expressing their hate because it is seen as terrible, or even terrorism, by media manipulators, and the world will just become more violent for it.

The harder you try to inflate love, the more you contort it, the worse it gets until you get homosexuals, prostitutes, industrials, publicists, singers and priests strapped on their chastity belt, to sing love like pub machines. And it's not you that reap the worst results, it's your children for the near future, and humanity in the far one.

For now, I see the false bubble of love at its maximal expansion potential, meaning it is under tremendous pressure and ready to explode in mass hysteria, but it can tough this way for many more years (I'll say 50), while the bubble of hidden hate is shrunk disproportionally smaller under an image of a disproportional quantity of love, even if the truth is exactly the contrary. And if you deflate or pop the PMBBD love bubble, the hate one will suddenly grow disproportionally big and will be expended so both bubbles fall back under sense (after bowing to the truth in hard bloody dark evidence, you'll finally say we're not that much full of love after all, and maybe you'll stop the love illumination and use love at its true right place, giving it back its power by removing it from the hands of profiteers).

That makes 2 different bubble scenarios that end-up with the same solution, hate is meant to destroy obstacles bluntly and quickly when the opportunity arises, it is always waiting around the corner with a revenge, that's what all this mean, you can forget all this complicated bubble thing if you stick to this, but I needed it to explain the importance of PMBBD in everything, wrong hate or wrong love is just a temporary thing that will create more destruction in the end, that's what I mean.

If you start a competition of PMBBD in either hate or love, you'll grow unconscious PMBBD hate you think is inexistent, slowly along with PMBBD love you think is everywhere. You can't grow a single one forever so everything will get diverted at the wrong place and in everything until all is left that can be destroyed by its contrary is PMBBD in hate and love, it's like a mathematic formulae.

The power of hate is mainly conflicting differences, conflict generates hate, and the power of love is mainly complementarity, you love to complement. Both are necessary for evolution, both seek to reach medium proportional to externals bubble size as they race through all their facets on the evolution line. Consciousness or reality can add air as much as it want, push them, or pop them, they grow back from within, and with the help of consciousness, understanding or reality. Evidently, this is totally mixed-up through all the facets of life and reality, and it is impossible to have much of a track of hints to follow through all the displacement effects of it.

Well, that looks like it, and evidently, you can easily destroy a lot using them without caring, or for the wrong goals. You can be driven by love, you can be driven by hate, but the most powerful drive is both (you don't fight evil by "loving" it in your version of love).

You could somewhat see this as Newton's law too, that says for every action there is an equivalent opposite reaction, it's just too bad it's wrong since the reaction can be anything, not its opposite (like with luck or any force transfer), and it would mean we are living in a condemned universe without external variables. Or you could see it as the yin yang, but it's too easy to invent spirituality with any life facets, like contrary facets that need to be in equilibrium, sorry it doesn't work like that, good and evil is your value toward a goal, there is only one best path, and equilibrium is the path of perfection, the middle line you try to walk between extremes, and you sure don't walk this line by being half evil with its preference for doing stupid mistakes as a best way of learning...You got to be good to walk the middle line while still have unique, new or radical opinions and ideas... There are a hundred facets of life's ways that have been stripped and twisted wrongly applied or at the wrong place or at the wrong intensity, to build spirituality around the ego-gods ideology, there are excellent principles and ideals everywhere, but I prefer the global thing, the life spirituality as a shiny guide made of all the aspects we could deduct of its ways. Why can't we make a book as important as a bible with a good life spirituality? With the most wonderful worshipping places and ceremonies...

I know I'll be 'll be flying straight into humorists with all that, but hey, I got a vision... And while we're on equality, totality, complementarity, I should seize the opportunity to repeat that we should be careful of which associations we make, like for equality, people are not a negative or positive thing, even if you can associate some hate and love facets to mathematics; a man's sex is not positive and a woman's sex is not negative. Finally, the power transmitter of hate is a vision of conflicting difference, you hate something that conflict, and if you want a mathematical vision, it is division and subtraction. The power transmitter of love is a vision of complementarity, you love something that complement, and its simple mathematical vision is addition and multiplication. Now, you can contort that and empower love and hate all you want with PMBBD. Apart from that, hate is a global material temporary thing, you can hate anything and when you hate someone or a part of, you see it as a bugging thing you'd discard, replace, or reinvent or more likely use as a thing from which you can profit, and you can't stand hating for too long. While love is an individual human and lasting thing, you love a person, you want to often be around this person and you want to have a history with this person.

If you want love to thrive as a genetic factor easing our lives you must have a version of it that gives a maximum of chances for people to live it individually. But yes, you can live a civilization placebo of love, like 2 enlaced skeletons that inspire you, hype effect on innocence, even if you think you're full of it to explode in your intelligent psychological scientific superior and powerful modern updated mind full of life and human understanding. I see love a step to reach lasting civilization, we need to develop our best reproduction way before even having a chance at taking our place, every life species works like that, they find their reproduction strategy that bring them in harmony with their place. Maybe life won't have it complex for most of its forms, the first or strongest, but it will have it more complex for its ultimate form; appropriate to its potential and complexity, we have the most wonderful mind, we can have the most wonderful reproduction culture, do things with class and aliens will stop eating (hating) humans.

Superiority, competition, division, injustice, ego, all in all, the things on which stand this whole reality, all that is mostly inappropriate for love. And you must hate too, no paradise if you can't hate, you're putting your children and life in troubles if you take care of those you hate with good justifications, or if you keep stuff you hate around. And that can go to the extent, as an example, that if a woman hates men, that hate will affect them negatively before they're born, and probably after. A good reality is one that puts its energy on loving people while minimizing, not eliminating, energy spending on hated things, evidently there are many forms and levels to that, and evil is not the same thing as what you hate.

Love doesn't flows, its sources are too insignificant or transformed, and so it's 99% dead. We have to sustain such a thing, keep it true, defend it, encourage it, and you don't do that with sparks, batteries and St-valentine on chocolate, too much pollution or PMBBD for the effect, you need clean systemized big power.2/4

Now, be sure that if you grow fat at the ton, whatever the bad luck, whatever you're tired hearing about it which I understand, you are not in the best loving scenario, the same for many unlucky people, whatever the form. There are always exceptions, but love is like civilization; the prettier the history from which it starts the higher the chances for it to thrive and have the momentum to last, to become true. And think adequacy, do you fit with your partner? (I'm not saying there aren't many exceptions) The same if your frustration makes it harder for adequate couples to form. And you don't jump in a pile of fat that hardly moves because of a pheromone or hormone that kicked in, or because you got an affection or misery disorder or something, or because of PMBBD, then call this love and make it "big"! Take care of yourself! It's always good to do it, all life long, whatever you never live love, whatever happens, you'll never regret doing it, and that won't stop you from sometimes eating too much, or smoke, or drink alcohol, but whatever your "trip" you can't let things degenerate, it's there that a lot of regrets, wrong frustrations, hate and jealousy start. You got a mind; use it. You got independent control of yourself (your ego); show it.

Too many people are suffering mental or physical ugliness too, mainly from an inadequate reality for love (too young parents, single, unloving, uneducated, frustrated, uncaring, violent, overworked, separated, moved about etc) are ideal victims for the ego pyramids that need people who don't have too much self-esteem so they feel bad more easily, or are more susceptible to PMBBD. And we must not forget that in the land of opportunities, your problem are opportunities for new markets, and your fight against your problems are opportunities to make money. More good people with needs working, more pollution, more exploitation, etc... We could skip a lot of that if we really wanted to teach and learn better principles and ideals, but most problems are very appreciated by industrials.

Me too I don't live love, it's reciprocal, are you happy? We can't have everything, failing living love is big for me, I was made for it, and what was my reaction? Did I develop a batch of bad habits, a little a the personal level, but I accepted it because that's how life works, and today I fight for true love by working in a way that can give a positive result toward life's advancement. I don't fight life, I fight its enemies, its parts who refuse to understand their stupidity, because that's how it works in my ideology, and this book I'm writing is to automatize the activity. And this instinct I developped is far more precious than it looks...Some people are born autistic, are they in the best scenario of living love? Absolutely not, so what do you do? Twist everything so they can think they know what love is, priest style? Many rich can't fit an ideal scenario of true love either, and they are supposed to have everything in exaggeration, that's kind of unacceptable for such people, so what do they do? They have the means to do a lot you know, they are the ones making the reality in their image, in part by creating unfairness, or doing everything possible to make people jealous or in admiration, and many other reasons. So you can try making it a big life and death thing if you want, spread "love" everywhere so everybody says the word, but the fact remains that it is impossible for everybody to live the best scenario of true love, maybe half the population can't fit a scenario of love. And people don't necessarily absolutely have to live it to feel well, there's lots of good feelings to be had by going more social, and it removes nothing to all the feelings you can live with someone while having sex the way you like it, even then, I haven't had friends nor sex for a dam long time, there's a world of reasons to care about life, I did it by flushing all pressures about it, I didn't die, I don't need to go in social places to look at asses or get an erection or fuck someone as a proof that I'm a man! I have no sexual problem and I can talk about love, I can go alone like that to the end, even if I'd prefer to be in love, what I absolutely need is to know it exists, I'll make a depression and die when I'll see nobody have a chance to live it anymore, when there won't be hope except as a low chance bet.

The same for others, be careful not to transpose your inabilities in bad pressures on others (applies to me vs where and how I gained experience, but that's ), people easily fall in that trap of not looking at themselves before asking unrealistic things of others, or having unrealistic expectations of who should fall in love with them, adequacy, remember? It's a question of fucked-up judgment and false intents (like the satisfaction of bullshitting yourself a non-ego personality...sounds like my problem, but in my case it's not bullshit, and I do the introspection step. What I mean is that your boyfriend won't become me whatever the sick manipulation a woman is capable of putting a guy under. Many controlling people see the other sex as dogs, your fun if you limit it at that, but dogs never become like me, in fact, if you have to direct your boyfriend to action then he will never be a fraction of me. Except if he has what it takes to be me but lives in ego reality. I mean most of the women I met confounded the fantastic work going on in my brain for laziness or being self-centered, then they tried manipulating me in totally inadequate directions for me, out of willful innocence, hate too, or from too much bullshit in their head if that sounds better...and this is still going on all over my life, all the system women deciding things about me like I'm standard or a classic type, or a number or something! But yes, their decisions may be adequate for the accepting and tolerating selection, or those who don't care, but not me, sorry. I know this kind of attitude doesn't work with profiteers the hand on a control lever, but too bad, I have nothing, so fuck you with your spite for my needs, I'll endure to the end of my life and I'll die great in my soul, as I was great in life, whatever your opinion that you somehow believe more good or fair or sane or logical or worthy than mine, whatever, choose one, or all if you're minimally fair...

The goal is not to obey orders, it is to understand and find a way to act like you do, at some point you're supposed to take the initiative with your life, unless you don't care, or you're all messed-up. That's what love is about, growing independent humans that can change from understanding, and have the initiative to do actions to change reality to reflect if they're wrong or right, and that applies to civilization too. To reach that goal a hierarchic system is important for many aspects of life, but when you can remove this need without growing evil, then both the individual and society gains in efficiency somewhere else, and we become more human. To raise a family in love you don't much need a hierarchic system, if you see thing as a matter of complementarity instead of equality (which is more related to a competitive attitude to reign), in love you just do what you have to do in the best way that satisfies everybody, with emphasis from how the play of our life and what we like versus what we don't like evolve with time; the ability to change and stay appropriate.

Hierarchic needs reflect the difference between understanding and becoming independent, or being dictated stuff and remain dependent. Again, both are important so the trick is to walk the middle line. We all grow listening to authority, but the goal is that at some point your supposed to do that yourself with some competence, drive your life, which is supposed to happen at adulthood. That's why children don't piss me off, they have potential, while if you're past 35, supposedly an adult, I'll be harder because the potential is half gone, or squarely hostile if you give me troubles, which seems like the common denominator of all the adults I deal with lately, they are authority and hierarchy dependent, pathetically condescending in their lacks of judgment, while they barely know how to live, I live in the bullshit they project as the contrary with axe and hair care, works on lots of girls from what I see...It's your judgment girls, I could say who cares, one goes with the other, until you meet the new roommate, this one lost it all when he found out he had a kid of 10 years old...fucking self-made and accepted moron that passes his time pissing me off because he think he's a good person with his new kid and responsibilities, while he is the one that probably lived a life of wrongs, but writing is not like a serious job, so I'm just a fucking BS that profit from the system, to give you all a lesson that will reverberate through all strata of existence. Their common denominator is that they think they're good or do their best, to handicap my work greatly probably, they don't respect me, get me angry, understand nothing on purpose to keep their preconceptions, copy superficially what they admire of me to get themselves quick airs and advantages akin to placebo effects, but it add to their personality, since image is what counts most for manipulators in hell... I could say they don't know what they're doing giving me hell, but that's not the kind of thinking that goes through my mind when they laugh like psychopaths of the troubles they're giving me, and no comprehension works here, my sleep is completely fragmented, can't sleep more than 2 hours without some event happening, I'm stressed to the bones and ready to explode, but don't tell evil, it will use it as an opportunity to worsen things; I should violently kick them out of my environment, but I have to pay 400$ a month for their company, while some of them make me fear for my life. To tell you I'm revolted is an euphemism, the story of my lodging difficulties will trace the path to my wrath, this fucking hell of lodging is how I came to rise, and if there is a system by which I'll expend my will for revenge, it will follow the system by which people choose how to settle, which in this reality is one fucking dirty industry, corrupt and evil to the bones. All those who steal the lands to enslave people, who take possession of space to condemn it eternally, that manage people like numbers that must be stashed in rooms and extirpated of a maximum possible of money, only the law to set the limits, all those who make money from fundamental needs, all those who took possession of survival to manipulate and pressure people, society of little shitty dictators and profiteers and slaves, that are so out of their minds and sick in their vision of good and evil that there is no argument to be had, the end of innocence, too much rocking, it's time to get these heads rolling.

Evidently, I'm not talking about all the interdependent bundle of relations between jobs that is intrinsic to the functioning of the system. That's in part why I write, because following examples is not enough, or copying, even if it can be a shortcut to obtain a result or be credited good manners of living; you need to explain, so people understand well why and the importance of what you're doing, at the source, because copying from a copier that copied, each with his own agenda, without caring to understand, degenerates and twist the original good to invalidation, and then if things crap out what happens? The whole concept takes the dump, and you'll be lucky if you don't reap exactly the contrary of the ideal of the original author, not only because it got tainted by evil, but because of a natural reversal effect too, which got a tendency to happen when people discover something is bad, then they must expend a particular effort to free themselves from the gravity of it (their attraction, pattern implanted or dependence), and so they swing themselves to the contrary extreme and fall in austere intolerance. I explain it in my words, but it's a well-known phenomenon, and it should be part of any manipulation plans to profit from such opportunities (watch out if you don't create the situation to open the door to evil, always, all what happens is opportunity, which are directly and intrinsically related to the battle of good and evil, cakes, what you do with them). And since the mentality that serves evil the most is that good and evil doesn't exist (absolute entropy, but it doesn't work, because existence happens as much as inexistence, so good always win, there's always something going on that will lead to intelligence and life, make the best of it, unless you don't care about life, then die, get served your own philosophy!), then you see the tendency of language to morph to reflect it, normalizing the mentality (evil likes to normalize his bad traits or evil attitudes, and make people like me abnormal versus his gremlins, to the point of decapitating the human from the aspects he can't exploit, or that are irrelevant in his profit structure, depending on the environment or situation, like sex, or good and evil (people don't exist anymore, all their aspects are competitively charted and can be traded, people become resources, that way everybody can boast himself a genuinely good person, there are only bad results of actions, that merit punition, to set the example, the hierarchic mentality in action...)

This dependence to hierarchy for a population that aint got time or will to think of these matters can become systematic to the point of condemning the intelligence of the whole agglutination that boasts itself a civilization, leading to an ant (god) society, where nobody has responsibility, because of a persistently protected blocus caused by denial of the truth of good and evil and love, what we are currently doing with our pressure selection, creating the ultimate hypocrisy, to end-up proving that we are like this and like that, and it's not our fault, see, what can you do other than what we're doing with these people? Eh, god? Sorry, man, what you did go on par with genocide.... Thanks to pressure selection, you can go to the extent of losing the possibility of going back (genetics is often a one way ticket), forgetting the foundations of the process of comprehension, but that's a bit extreme (genetic success, final system intrinsic to the living form, even if the performance of its aspects can change). Here I could take the example of a guy I knew that couldn't stop stealing my food even if I caught him many times and explained the situation. No argument, no anger, nothing work, but a call to the proprietor and suddenly he completely stopped stealing. No respect for me, whatever the effort I made, but hierarchic authority worked immediately, maybe if I had been a TV personality he would have had a different attitude, ass licking probably... It's more complicated than that evidently, let's say there are not many psychologically sane people around me lately, and I attract evil, as I should, and here the ways of reality, and its love version, make it so people develop like that. But I'm the member of a different ideology, I have nothing to do around these irremediably broken people, and you won't make me feel bad if I defend myself, I'm the only seed of sense that I know of, and I had to make it, with their stressful and disrespectful attitudes around, I've been dealing with this kind of shit all my life, and I won't die without preparing the terrain for the end of it. Furthermore, they're everywhere, a success, I'm an infinitively small minority, I'm on survival in a survival situation, worse than most of them, and I won't have your fucking selection whatever the shit you plunge me in, you want to give your gremlins the advantage? But whatever my anger I'll manage, retain and refrain, for the source, there are many reasons why, because it's here that I am, for a start, but those people have had it harder, they haven proven themselves with the means in equivalent situation, they have more potential to move or change (less mental physical, and material limitations and condemnations), less negative effects on life (their means invalid monetary unfairness and gives them added value (2 for the price of 1, for economism people, but I was talking life value), they are less would they do better than a politician? Oh god no, or maybe, the system is supposed to have the competence to save the appearances, or there could be is a kind of hidden leadership developing amongst the virulence, who knows...You think that's my place? Ok, it's kind of fitting in hell with its fantastic irony, but all the elite? You failed to stand for what's good, and now protect your poor like you're supposed to. But, but, but, we're profiteers, how are we going to deduct the coming of assholes like you to immediately place them in a superb environment to skip all the troubles? That's it, you don't, the earth is my environment, and people like me can happen anytime among your low level population, and it mean what's wrong is your profiting attitude that you not only consider normal, but a must. It means it's the whole mass that must enjoy living not me specifically, I'm just there because you made hell, I'm just a logical apparition, nothing personal, remain calm, but if you are to take the space arrange your things so your population don't feel cheated (manipulated, or infantilized among the panoply), with appropriate tools for healthy development versus available mass technological advancements (no fighting to get your basic needs out of your mind, which includes the need to understand reality, a prerequisite to make adults worth the name.), freedom and easily accessible knowledge (digital freedom but well categorized), and all kind of other things.

So don't give me shit that I'm harsh with your gremlins, and be very careful they're not just waiting for the right stuff to show you, and me, what they've been thinking and feeling all along. For now I feel so alone and repressed that I wonder if this whole reality is not built as a prevention against my style of intelligence growing aplenty and taking over the world, seriously, is there a sect somewhere I can participate in, a feeling of belonging to my culture? Something? Someone? It's super being independent and all, maybe not in hell, but it's a bit extreme and super frustrating, even insulting, the torrent of feeling is hard to manage I tell you. I'll fantasize that it's because we're the only one capable of building a competent argumentation against evil, at risk of ending its hegemony, think about it, just one is too much! You can't embark me, no place fit, you have to crush me, break me, in the most deeply hypocrite and extended way, you can't absorb me, I'm your worst fear, your worst nightmare, you choke all over because I'm a reflection of all the aspects of life that you choked on, which is almost all what's important.

Just saying, to interested parties...Contraries attract each others, they say, could be manipulative confusion concerning the complementarity effect of love, for evil to make a good girl fall in love with him, because they're "attracted" you know...Lucifer will point at god and ask him to take any of his champion human, and he will prove he can corrupt him as a proof you're wrong and to say he can do what he want, it's just his job, oh, and he can do that massively on many aspects simultaneously, so you better have your mind open to all possibilities, including all conspiracy theories with bonus extrapolations. That's about it with my problem with evil, the dynamic in reality is mostly that we want to convert each other mutually destructively, evil is jealous of people who stand strong, it wants to corrupt the style, asserve, imprison, alienate, anything to prove you're no better or different, and it's somewhat true; we are not born good or evil we become by accumulation of bad effects, it's our choice to fight those who cheat us, wrongs or not, and if you've been cheated, then learn and spill your frustration at the source, not me. Understand that getting cheated is normal business as usual in hell, the level you need to steer through the traps of hell is top level, because manipulation and deceit is top level there.

To go back to love, we preserve something that is precious to us, your loving relation is precious to you? Then don't reduce it, you know many enemies of love, this reality is made so love is exploited or compressed, you must repair the problem of the reality if the problem is reality related, not displace its problems in your love relation. And when you're angry, you're angry, it is no place for love unless it is the cause, you don't put love on the line of anger like it's supposed to destroy it, too stupid, you'll destroy love instead.

Anger is expressed and then it dies in thinking, and you're better alone to think better. Your loving counterpart must not get in it like a competition, close your mouth and stay not too far away, this reality is the cause of all kind of displacements effects and frustrations in people, you'll regret it if you play hate and anger. Don't be shy on compliments instead, at the right moment, or replace the compliment by a "I love you" if it is too complicated to say, it happens; many people supposedly in love pass more time insulting than complimenting. The same for attitudes, always be at your best, whatever the invested effort, and don't await a reward for it. Feel, what you say, what you do, and never forget caresses, different levels of touching. Be attentionate too, without overwhelming the other in gifts or sticking like glue, or doing the slave. The best of you is for you, your love, your family; give the best of you for your boss or your job or prostitutes (escorts) and you'll lose, whatever you're still in a couple or a family. You give your best for love and if the other is with you because of your money or your job, then stop it and forget religious and psy counsels, you're in a prostitution scenario, far from an example to follow, you're an example of exactly what kind of attitude to have with love to slowly destroy it; love is not a money or advantage thing, and sorry for you if you're in a prostitution dependent reality.

You want a reality where love will thrive? Are you capable? Then let's do it! Big mouth, big mouth, show it, before it becomes the most taboo subject of this reality, like an old nightmare everybody wants to forget existed (I'm not talking about love at all sauces). That is so because evil people and religions mixed love with their perverse hands, after removing them from their asses, without cleaning them, and it lead to the bubonic plague, but they didn't understand...Maybe not, took hold. When you'll stop associating love to things or sex or Montreal, I'll start to believe there is a chance for love emancipation and a better future to humanity.

As for the ideal scenario of love, it is becoming very difficult because it's omnibulated by the more show off vision of the media industry, there's a growing slab of women who become either super self-inflated because they're cute, or downright crazy from breaking their mind to manipulators, they have become adepts and defender of the whole world wide wild sex web debilities package, they think only of money, not caring about their effect on others or the youth, and the prettier they are, the more it is the case and the less I trust them or like their attitude, the way this looks headed, we could almost attach a bundle of money in front of some and they'd be running in circles salivating at it. They've just decided to profit at as much as they can, why should they strive for something different? Beauty is just a tool for profiting, some embarked in the sex business and have fun getting fucked while making money, a lot can't control their irresistible urge to have sex in front of the world on the internet, other have been profited from in youth and they never got out of it, they became hell's pretty sex gremlins, other are happy to be pretty and see it as superiority, good to get a job and switch through the many inferior males they meet, and most of the rest is under all kind of crap spiritual PMBBD, even if the fault is always the reality. That's how many women succeed today, any mean is good to gain money and popularity, the best manipulators want their name eternal, and the best way is to continue in the historic path the rich made, reinforce the selection, and people like me can do nothing except compete with them on the same ground which is ridiculous.

You think I'll teach Lady Gaga some manners? (I initially wrote "Celine" the love distribution machine, but I'll give her a break since she seems to be living a true love story, Gaga it is then. Yet, Celine, GaGa, Madonna, Rianna, and a million more, made a fortune from love, and while it is understandable to be justly rewarded for one's skills, what we have today is a sad tangent where love seems solely used for the money aspect. So while they sing love songs, songs written by other people most often at it, the rest of their attitude and the general effective message is not encouraging good ideals and they pollute far too much music for the rare string of sensible thinking. But now Lady Gaga got the world to back her up, media people, the selection is already made to absorb her sexy paroles, me? I try to laugh, as I envision better...one song she's saying that people should stop thinking, that love is a game and people should do like her and jump on a disco stick, next song she say love aint fun if it is not rough stuff, like she's trying to make a sado-maso heavy metal lover revolution, next she's doing like Madonna in her "Like a virgin" song and sing how extraordinary it is to have a monster of a dick in her bed. Then in an interview she'll say sex have been a traumatic experience, somebody scratched the fragile uterus, almost rape, I guess to manipulate those who don't like her; it's not her fault, leave her alone, her life have been traumatic, and her fans can see her in any way they want, day to day. Anyway, it's not her fault if she is like that since she was born this way. We must do something that will inspire new songs for her now, so she can climb another step of womanhood, something like gang bang love, she's tired of the disco stick, poor her! It's fame man! Not her fault! So she defend her gang of unfairly rich beyond evil, she sings love like she invented it, and if famous people have troubles falling in love, it's not because of their view of it, it's not their fault, poooor them, it's because they're too good, they're famous!

As for rape, it seems most women singers get raped in their youth these days, a prerequisite to sing love? And aren't we supposed to call the police or something when we get raped? What is it? Someone is not competent, or doing his job, serving and protecting, to the point that it's better to get raped than to call the police... And isn't it strange that those singers wait so long before saying it to the whole world? Maybe they don't have the same definition of rape than me, if they were born this way and acted like they do on stage and like it rough and big, then maybe it was more a misunderstanding than real rape...) I'd rake in the load of bullshit in some dump or hole, there goes your dreams of fame and endless fortune... it's just a shame the music is often excellent, and all those singers have superb voices, and English is good for singing, it all go together...Ego-gods ideology oblige, those singers are the most popular, the industry is on its knees giving pub to encourage the whole world to see them as divas...

Love is not dependent from sex, sex can be a part of love, I can have lots of fun playing sex games (you can play sex games, but love is not a game.), and I don't need to fuck rough to have fun in sex or to be in love, and sex is not "fun" to me, it is a pleasure thing, not a fun thing. Finally, I'm proud of my dick, I don't want to make a competition or a paranoia out of it because some stupid singer and women of the pornographic industry that have nothing else to do with their insignificant lives want to give a signification to it or gain money by trying to make a sex revolution, and then they'll complain about discrimination! Me I won't spend a minute watching their super international funeral when they'll be dead for sure, I've had enough of Michael Jackson, watching the gremlins of this world cry no end out of losing one of their ego god (diva), we're lucky the planet is not twice as big, we'd have enough of a production of superstars to have one die of overdose every week, plunging the world in an infinite depression of super international funeral super stars, and there are more and more politicians doing shorter and shorter terms, imagine the fucking paradise when every country and every city will have a batch of competing democratic businessmen to satisfy, and since they decided it's the best system of the universe because it serves well the mentality they developed, then you can imagine the tremendous cost their competition have they have to keep things going on automatic, adjustable austerity, artificial challenge to generate pride and to occupy our minds, and an explosion or a wars this way and that to keep the illusion that it's dangerous out there, fear, a mega ton of complexity to sit any family member on the throne of power, until the failure of life.
I'm just jealous, they're so cute when they go to their Oscars...It's a shame they don't give an Oscar for exemplary paroles. And why do governments don't spend to emphasize non manipulative language instead of spending billions to jerk off in front of their spying programs? (I'm joking, it must be quite hard actually, but too bad, it's a fucking spying program, and in all the game I played (program) I had the right to kill spies, they're like international, no law applies, it's like diplomatic immunity inversed, that's why diplomatic spies are so popular among the high caste). Why do schools don't start hiring language teachers who are better at explaining all its manipulation tricks, science teachers who make their students sweep the net for bullshit, to grow their critical thinking and judgment as they are explained things as a matter of possibilities and probabilities.

I'll let manipulators arrange Lady Gaga's face and work her voice so she can sing visionary stuff on good addictive music, I'm just exercising my liberty to complain about the noise. She is surely not the first singer to manipulate to get at the fame or the money, this craziness really started with the peace and love revolutions, hippies on drugs suddenly unlocked the "Recycler" part of their brain that was full of bullshit and they started singing it, then it never stopped. I could cite the not so old, and evidently popular, "love shack" song, which is on par with Gaga's repertoire. Why do you think the singer used love? To get popular, to make money, to pass a message. The truth of what people understood of this song was not a "love shack" like some beautiful place where people fall in love, no, it's a "fuck shack" or party shack if you really want to see it otherwise. So why did the paroles ended-up as a "love shack" instead of a "fuck shack salad"? It sounds better, it is less offensive, people will think it is good because of the "love" word, if they have to choose they'll prefer the nice view, everybody must have a little love shack full of babes behind the house, it's so cool, and the singer will get more popularity, make more money, fuck around a lot more too probably, and the attitude of the mass of PMBBD eaters will change a little (0.01% is gigantic) toward his opinion of "love". And it is mostly unconscious, singers don't really see farther than their own profits even if they sing at fund raising events, (they do it as an investment, in pub and popularity) so they surely don't think they have bad effects, they spread love, so they are worth trillions, maybe not, just as much as what can fit their bank accounts, "as much as possible" is bigger than any number, and it sounds better. They don't see themselves as unfair, they are just part of the selection, they follow the laws of the system, they pay their fair amount of taxes, while trying to legally pas as little as possible, since that's smaller than any number...

But yes, I could believe it logical that famous people have more difficulties in understanding or living love since they developed their mind around manipulation as an emphasis, and i guess saying it is because of the fame aspect is exactly that. It's like all those rich that complain that money doesn't make their life easier or better or more enjoyable, they say it is a load of troubles, then why, please tell me why do you take it like it is the most important thing of your life? Why don't you leave it in the hands of those who need it more than you? Or simply change your job if it is such a load of troubles! Fuck! As for Gaca, why do you think she got there? Because she is among the most ego of this world, she's ready to do anything to become rich, contrary to 99.9% of this world...She go hand in hand with pussy riot, next she'll make a sex tape in a supermarket to get at more fame, and it will work with this stupid indoctrinated selection of gremlins that have totally lost their mind to PMBBD, just tell them it's artist's stuff, it has the same effect as diplomatic immunity, and don't forget liberty, and free speech, freedom! Next they'll say the world is going to hell because good people do nothing! Depending on what your definition of good and evil stands, all what they can do is work on the pyramids, isn't it? And if they try to comprehend they so good people are manipulated, and evil people think they're good, I'm a good person, who the fuck are you to say I do nothing? Let my version of good people have their reality, run things, manage, then we'll see...And yes there will still be dance music and singers, but PMBBD will be categorized, not forced to my hears, music will be available free or with paroles, and women emancipation won't be a sexual thing. Good people will be effective, but not in your environment, except to be your usual worker, in their own environments. Too late for this reality, the environment is done and guaranteed unchangeable, just ask politicians, people are shot weird music paroles at repetition until they know them by heart more than a prayer, and sex sells, goods for the economy, publicists are sex hungry, they think the measure of human evolution is proportional to sexual banalization, as the sperm and erection degenerate with the quality of our love stories...

So she grabbed the Madonna mentality, got rich while sings sex and love bullshit on dance music, and since she always got a sexy secret on hand to provoke a little, now she reveals how singing nude is important for her pure voice, I'm sure not, it is a pub stunt between two albums, money, it is because people imagine...

We'll have to stop this public sex banalization, is it another ego thing? You won't die, or you won't get atrophied testicles and penis, or lose the map for the G spot! Penises have always been there, their existence and erection is not dependent on your reality, exactly the contrary in fact; you'll destroy everything by putting too much of an emphasis on sexuality, the same with entertainment, or competition, the middle line remember? Do I have to untangle the load of bullshit again? We don't need to put sex pressures and we don't need to profit from innocence for people to develop an enjoyable sexuality.

That's the critical aspect of the new reality idea, new ideology new selection, it will permit the super rare opportunity to do like we are a continuastion of an history of reproduction that went relatively well, as we part ways, so yep, we will select people who fit our ideal, who have something to show for it, some pass, other not, the same kind of business going on all over the place all over the world, selecting, from whatever principles that fit our view of good and evil. My vision sees people having a choice of 2 realities where things works very differently, but this reality need to take a break and clean up a bit, put its energy to arrange things for the long run, resize itself with media institutions explaining the situation. This reality should be proud to have this option to surpass itself, we'll make sense, and we definitively won't invent a new reality for people to fuck with goats or an army. And sorry if I'm not an amateur of your style, I act from principles, that's how I form my mind, and I don't have the attitude of sex people or porn "stars" that are fantastically more valuable in this reality than me, I don't pass my time growing that skill until that's all I am, a dickhead in a stash of "women" enslaved to money, I'm not talking about Lady Gaga evidently, but she could be a dick girl, we'll wait her next revelation, probably as under meanings in one of her songs.

When was the last time a rich spent a thousand dollars on me? I'm not even talking about an investment here, but you understand that they'll spend billions on prostitution while forming the future selection of women to their standard, but they won't spend a cent to develop my creativity...I should pass my time growing that skill until that's all I am, a dickhead making a collection of fucking, or getting an app to select from a stash of sex ready "women". Maybe I'm going too far with some people, but I have a problem with human self-accepted sex dolls, particularly when they act like they are superior or when the system makes it so they have more worth than me. In fact, this is worse than any slavery in history, worse than rape, it is the regression of everything that a human stands for; it is the failure of standing as a successful human. If women find it normal to get money from fucking, then they never believed or understood love.

A lot of the most beautiful adult women (around 25-35) are becoming another class of people, apart, incredibly costly in all kind of ways, they have the worst attitude that can exist, strictly no notion of love, but they'll want "their" baby that's for sure, and they recycle, don't worry, one got to give itself some worth; a semblant of consciousness. But I should concede that maybe they have no choice, even if I don't believe it. One thing's for sure, among respectable men we're not supposed to try to put women in a position of weakness, but whatever the equality revolution, they are more than ever by entering the ego competition. You think you're free and powerful now because you can compete for top positions and top salaries, with the advantage that your beauty that makes you almost untouchable, added to men's disadvantage to just choose the stupid or gamble option, but no, this is only a proof that you're getting terminally adapted, you made of your beauty a defensive structure for the system, you're an armor no man affected by your beauty would dare attack, and you grow evil, and you defend hell, and you will rule over it, and you will suffer more than most for it, it's just written, somewhere...

Ambitious women are so funny, fixed and driven, all self-inflated with the seriousness of their certitude, on their path to success, or to change things, in this reality I mean, me too I have ambitions, and I'm so funny he too...There's a lot of me too in my life too, but it's for different goals. You could develop another different ideal in fairness, I'm sure you could, but that's the last thing you're supposed to do, no "sane" man would believe a woman developing an ideal and philosophy to be a possibility; you're supposed to take that in Walt Disney, chatelaine, vogue and the likes from 0 years old to 100. Or you could do a hashtag thing reproduction strike, but no "sane" man would believe you to be able to quit the bitching and associate to stop reproducing, particularly now that you're in an orgasm competition, they accepted to be dependent so sure they are, the notion is simply alien, and the greatest gangs would be so flabbergasted they would be unable to decide if they must stop beauty products production and burn your magazines, or strip you of your voting right, or ignore your examples, or even manipulate genetics to grow industrial clones. Many "wow" sexmaniacs will go crazy bloody rapist so much their erection have become critical to their life style, thanks to yourself too, and with all the pub pressure and Viagra, they're not far from thinking that being a man is a question of having an erection and plant it anywhere.

I'm exaggerating but you are defenders of hell now, and since you don't want different, then compete, hate and love, until you control this world one way or the other. You adopt and encourage the exact actions that will always end up making a travesty of your best form, whatever you make the biggest power-trip, and you can plant granite blocks in positions of power all you want to prove you're "equals". Instead of developing and helping love, we destroy it, and women are becoming far worse than men in this business.

Since we don't much care about this thing that all our life turn around, we're as well carry on with the "be open" hardcore sexual performance competition on Viagra and dugs of all kind porn revolution. Young men fucking girls on Viagra as young as possible to impress, or to get a good score, and through the batch the girl will gain experience, as an adult, which begins at 16, but in truth the push is for far lower than that, got to gain experiences at "love", which is a good view in a good reality, but not here. Drugs and sex extremisation are destroying lots of people, the same for those rabbits who jump from girl to girl or on any disco stick they see, these attitudes are destroying a lot of natural sexual capacity in men for whom erection is critically important, the way we're going sex will soon become dependent from drugs, and it will be called love, couples will be held together by "love" pills, scientists will have bottled "love", creating the most wonderful dependence to reality, your erection, your "love", your couple, is dependent from reality's ability to produce pharmaceuticals, and with in vitro reproduction, who cares about this love chore... With sexuality bottled and marketed, and love out the way, we can finally legalize the oldest trade of the world, the mentality will be ready.

Today, population has reached an unbelievable scale, and we're on the verge of losing everything from competing and conflicting attitudes, our responsibility was to select the good or best path and systemize it as the default path encouraged by reality, and for that we had love selection to go with civilization.

Fighting for true love as a concept is different than describing a beautiful love story isn't it? I've got every reason to depress, and probably not many people will enjoy my battle, but what can I say? There are tons of people who try their best, but it's just all patented so they very rarely develop at their best, and people try to do what they can from how they were raised within a technologically and molecularly advancing reality, that is patented with its own priorities, and comprehending takes time, and outside the usefulness of the system the pressure is for anything but deep introspection, leave that to psy sciences and religions, it's a question of sanity too, people work hard, and they are rarely satisfied, ant there are so many things to do to succeed socially, there are many reasons, it's complicated and there is so many things to do and there is only so much time. In front of the size and complexity many people embark or form families for exactly this reason; to skip going crazy and wasting too much time, they know their thinking will bear no value, so let's concentrate on adjusting this destiny thing, and it's allright like that, it's just that as they grow older comprehending settles in, the best will take it humbly and readjust as much as they can within the parameters of their situation, the rest will develop regrets, frustrations, bad attitudes, bad philosophy.

I don't think I'd make a better family than most people in this reality, maybe a bit different, but that's the worth of love, many children are raised by parents that are hateful, perverse and twisted senseless and you don't see the difference in the children they made so creepy things are, and that is because love doesn't work. And loving your children and shouting it in every song and associating it to everything and distributing it like machines will just more profoundly condemn it, and the more money is made from it the more irreversible.

Presently love potential is too affected by money, that's why we see all the rich boasting their love stories, which still end badly, in secret deals preferably... A normal man can hardly fall in love with a sexy and pretty woman long enough to form a loving family through time, as prettiness and being sexy is more than ever seen by women as a manipulation tool, to get more money, advantages, profiting, to go high, or to fuck hard Gaga style. Anyway, to raise a family safely in a semblant of sense, women got to run after money, and "experience" money will do. The best women are attached with a hundred ropes, every generation is pulling with justification, but the biggest piece is torn off by money, the rich. So most of the good men who want to form a family have to settle with women inappropriate to them but who can raise children for this reality, at least, and then we're all impressed at the violence and divorce rate.

A lot of the most attractive women completely reject the path of true love by a sick selection culture going on right through the education system, they sniff money and status like evolution and admire slick tongue manipulators. If they are not pretty enough to fit in my previous scenarios, dolls, porn "stars", "super" "stars", slut machines, things men compete to get with money, meaning status, power, prestige, then they must work like crazy, or be ambitious, or they are nothing. And you won't make a better world with that, particularly the prettiest ones who mainly just follow the wave with important cosmetic differences, pretty object that contain some pre-recorded stuff, plastic dolls, barbies on cocaine men carry around under their arms to show their standing, but I'm bad, yes they can get a big education, learn many scientific things fitting their mentality. The exceptions are lost, and the most pain is for the most loving and sensitive. Maybe I'm a bit negative, it's true that many are fighting all that crap, maybe their number will grow someday, I wish them luck and strength, and love for sure too, persist, my opinions may be ugly for the present, but I fight for the future.

As for men, there are not many capable of loving in this reality, and while competence in bed is truly an important factor, the attitude of most of the prettiest women doesn't make things better. It's 50/50; the attitude of women make it so that there are not many loving men, and the attitude of men make it so that women abandon love fast, until you end-up with most pretty women running after money or serpent tongue word manipulators because influence, money, prestige, becomes more of a priority if they never end meeting stupid or incompetent men. It applies to men too; most of the attractive men end-up as manipulative fuckers in this reality, but all those don-Juan and James bond who know so much about love simply know nothing, like priests, they are after seduction and sex, and they should be a hidden minority, not super heroes of movies.

As for couples abilities in bed, if partners can't give each others pleasures with all what's avaliable, places, objects, visual artifacts, paroles, porn, pills, dresses, ambiances, etc don't limit your options, except if they if they have a bad effect on others (can be to profit from innocence, like grooming for the sex version), then it is understandable that love fails, or that they seek other ways, or sources of deep feelings. And never underestimate intelligence, I know that the general consensus is step on it unless it serves the cause, so there is like this that intelligent are bad lovers and that's why they're loner? (I'm not talking about the IQ thing, a facet of intelligence, I'm talking general mind), fuck you, the truth is exactly the contrary, unless you don't care for your body or sex (as an intelligent person, I do care for my sex and my body, the erotisation of my mind too), the truth is that the less competent lovers are the less intelligent people, generally, money is a factor too, and fuck-all free for all people are the least capable of true love because they're lacking in mind abilities, or their mind is not well equilibrated, maybe they have strictly no imagination, or maybe they lack life intelligence, and it is allright like that, let them fuck like they aint got a brain, only a sex, social animals with manipulation as the emphasis of their mind. The problem is that they are the ones that are encouraged even glorified by this reality, and they reproduce more easily, they dirty everything good around them in the name of liberty, they desecrate love and destroy it in others, and you can bet they like to profit from innocence.

Maybe I'm exaggerating and generalizing, maybe I'm frustrated, what can I say? I'm disappointed to be such an idealist? I'm not made for this, I like women you know, but I realize I'll write a lot more of this kind of stuff. Every morning these days I hear people outside, they do their things, all kind of activities, I hear women laughing, bulldozers working, children playing, and I'm here writing this stuff, is this really what I think? It seems it's the case. I want to end this but I continue because I want to go to the end of it, I think I'm scared to regret not doing it, but the more I advance the darker it becomes, the more work I see, the bigger the hurdles, the bigger what I reveal, and it may be lost as an impossible project, big hype, and me too. But maybe I'm taking the means to reach my ends, and those are big ends, so maybe everything fit instead.

But people, they don't care about these things, they found ways to be as happy as they could. Ah, why don't I go sit with that man and watch the hole they're digging? Or go on a fishing trip with my father. Another beautiful day will go by while I suffocate and sweat inside writing this stuff at 35 degrees in smog, what a life! Hope it doesn't influence my judgment too much; I could vote differently...I should get a driver's license and make a voyage out there, there is all kind of pretty places I should go see, I should get a job at a supermarket just to talk a bit, insane isn't it, my only mean of communication with the outside world is this book, it feels like I'm the captain of a vessel taking notes, while my crew sleeps, we're going to colonize. Why do I care so much if everybody believes things are not so bad? Why don't I do like them? Have faith that things will get better whatever times are risky, and if things crap-out, I just did like everybody else, I'm just human, and I do my best. But that's what I'm doing "my best"! And I'm human not "just" human!

Now, with all that, you think I hate women and that I'm against sex but it's absolutely not the case, but I'm against the emphasis of this reality about it as love. As for sexmaniacs, I know I'm tiring you, I understand very well, but I am too, are you happy? Find a difference other than that ok? You know we are defined by our actions and effects on others, the ideals we pursue. This reality succeeded at making of sex a competition thing like everything else, I don't want or like that, I want sexy girls who have not been profited from sexually, who don't "deal" their body. And I like sex, but I don't try any pretty girls because that's what we are almost brainwashed to believe we are supposed to do, and I'm not supposed to be under pressure to go in a drinking fishy spots to catch a new one as soon as I find a little justification, even a doubtful one, or if I'm under erection proving pressure. And I don't want to live in a world where no girl approach me because I'm not in their industrial systematized fishing spot, it's not because I have no money or will to pay for an internet full of pub, or alcohol or whatever that I'm not supposed to meet sexy girls.

I may sound childish, yet, without the external pressure from television, Internet, socialization, competition etc, I have come to be able to live a very long time without sex, and I'm in shape, and the penis is very annoying and insistent, more after more than ten years, even if I had opportunities. Of course it is not something I wish or like, quite the contrary, and what I've come to miss is not only the sex, but all what a woman could add to my life and the best way to describe what that means for me, is like telling a story with half the story missing; I can complete the story but it's a lot harder and more boring. I need a woman that complement me well, to be with me and walk an accepted path to the end of a story.

I'm made for love, and for as long as I can still minimally fit the ideal of it I'll put this body and mind in its service, then I'll see. I had my chance though, but I was not patient enough, I was on the track of ego at the time, and she was religious, something I was fighting without adequate intelligence. I didn't wake-up besides a temporary piece of meat, I woke up like she would always be there, like she was a part of me, she was a woman I would have wanted alongside me for a long story. We were far from having the same opinion on everything, but she was able to live love, I'm just saying so you know, it's not because I write a book to tell and fight for my opinions that I can't accept or tolerate different views, I can even tolerate this reality, in the name of life and survival, I mean life and survival on asphalt and concrete. Knowing how love can be a rare and strong and good thing, I can live the rest of my life without sex if I don't feel love, it doesn't mean I will, but I won't force things, and I'll reject your pressures, so shut down the fucking algorithm that you like far too much to confound with Artificial Intelligence, that's supposed to detect my clicks to better manipulate me, it seems it decided that flooding my internet with faces of rich people and superstars and entertainment stuff is the top priority for me, particularly this wheel of superstars forever falling in love and breaking-up... I never click on rich faces, but I suppose this big AI thing decided some probabilities that I'll eventually click, and it got like a ratio in its algorithms that say a after 100 clicks I'm like supposed to pass level 2 crap loaded internet.

Maybe I unconsciously added that to my responsibilities; arrange things so I can have the means to live love longer and if I fail, I can have another chance since these are too rare for someone like me, and the tangent of things is bleak. It a shame a lot of what I like in women get twisted to troubles, I could say I like their more natural candor, added to their way of being passionate, but since it is more natural to them it have a tendency to get exacerbated by de-inhibition, and that's in part why they're supposed to have more control of their ego too, but in this reality it causes more problems than the worth of its good.

Maybe I'll never again meet a girl I can love, but I won't replace it by sex and pseudo baby affection, those are poor replacements for love; I prefer to die alone than to have it this way. If love is worth saving then let's make it something more than television soap, bullshit love stories that are pretty and all but are based on acting, that are too limited to be any better than stories for "children". Or manipulative stuff where fantastic hurdles bring people together, I know that, no need to make it a brainwash to accept your reality. And "superstar" "gods" are exactly the kind of example nobody should follow, whatever they're "hot"... You don't need rich "super" "star" "gods" to have quality entertainment anyway; you're just pressured to believe so. And if you're looking for "super" "stars", even a baby with a skill can be a rich "super" "star" in this reality, you don't need much intelligence or consciousness, only publicists and innocents on hype overdrive and ego dreams.

I should add that for many women, you're not supposed to absolutely care for babies whatever their age, there are too many people on this planet; they can stay alone. The younger we are the more care we're supposed to need, and the old to some extent, socialization is supposed to work like that too. We must not take that away from youth to give it to adults, a baby adult is a failed human, don't continue on this track of creating a wheel of not giving enough of your energy to your offspring that will themselves grow as baby ego adults that other women will sink their energy in, that same energy you spend more and more for yourself and the encouragement of this reality.

Adults are supposed to know better than children what is the best way of things, and that is becoming hardly the case today; we are playing with fire by not teaching young people an ideal making sense. Without love, decent parenthood, or system integrity, they will take places inappropriate for them if the basic unconscious we gave them don't make enough sense, or not anymore, then the conflict in their thinking, between themselves, between generations, and their developing frustrations may very well transpose itself in reality and they may start destroying globally without an afterthought since they can't find a path in the scrap of our PMBBD and dependences, and they may set back a lot of very useful developments that can be critical to the growth of a better ideal. Uncontrolled and without goals destruction will only grow back stronger pyramids, and maybe it's exactly what the powerful want. Then as a counter pressure, you'll have the other inappropriate extreme; children more adult than their parents, even if they do stupid actions, they'll start moralizing and teaching them manners too, and nobody will say a word, it's children! Pure! Innocence!

It is not preferable but it is more understandable that an old person ends its days alone, what is unacceptable is for people in their prime to be alone, or for people to "reduce" themselves not to be alone, and that comes from many sources, mostly from divide and compete to reign, ego or PMBBD; you can be manipulated in a false love story, then flushed, degraded health from bad food habits or lack of exercise, inadequate parenthood, limited interactions (paying to meet people is inadequate, to say the least, whatever it is beer or an internet service), banalization of sex (it's easy to have sex, it's even too easy for animals; when you aint got the brains, you make of your whole life a game that turn around sex.), too much pressures to go in all kind of directions.

There are many valid justifications in this reality to fail living true love, but all those should not bring someone to live alone, there is something incredibly wrong to push for heavy socialization while tons of people end-up at that final extreme, and I'm not talking about the feeling of loneliness, you can have many friends but still feel lonely, so what do you do? I say we're not supposed to feel alone, we're supposed to understand and feel and be happy for others, nobody wants to live alone, so the only conclusion is that reality is crap and we know it, it's just too deep and complex, too late when we want to explore it, not enough time, always interrupted, fear of facing the truth of the lies of one's past, momentum of environment and needs, habits, condemnations, competition. So we encourage heavy socialization all lifelong and we do it superficially like believers going to church, then we end up alone and lament over our dependence. It is a selection tool too since the justifications of someone that is not much sociable will always be reality related, even if those who don't want to become "gregarious animals" can find all kind of valid justifications to be living peacefully in love in their corner; not everybody want tons of friends, love is ultimate socialization, some may even need nothing else as a human contact than love expressions exchanged between two people, taking a stroll seeing some people, and having a few friends. They are not crazy, they don't need heavy socialization, human contacts, red carpets and orgies, and it's ok like that, they could start making a selection by putting pressure and applying negative tags to sociable people, add some help from some proven scientifically sticker until heavily social people become a rarity.

I know that it is not everybody that understands what I mean by selection, but it exists, it's like natural selection, it's the process that gets a kind of people or mentality to thrive at the price of another type of people or mentalities until they disappear. Pressure selection always exists, but you don't let the tools in unfair hands or to one type of people, like those with the most means. The selection we have today will be a failure because it is meant to fit an unfair and illogic systematization based on ego competition and growth, better serving the best manipulators and profiters, full of cheaters and laws, 10% productive toward noble goals, and the different mentalities that are disappearing have strictly and absolutely not a single tool to defend themselves, all stolen with slick tongues making the laws of our liberties, they can't even express themselves except as a waste on inadequate internet systems, garbage cans, but yes, you always find something interesting in garbage, often related to sex... There is no serious place for the best mentalities, their worth is totally devaluated in favor of limited expertise, particularly people who are expert at using PMBBD and creating hype on masses, who got sufficient means to invalidate any possible tentative of a different path. And there can't be competition because even the minimal value of principles is out of their reach since evil twisted all those to its own end, like liberty, or fairness, or competition, while they sing continually that people have the liberty to fair competition with them while it is a disgusting bunch of lies. Liberty is a manipulation lie in their mouth, fairness is a manipulation lie in their mouth, competition is a manipulation lie in their mouth, love he too, and every single one of all the good principles that have been invented have become a travesty in the hands of rich communication manipulators, slowly, continually, funny, tolerable bits by bits, they create the selection that will fit their view of humanity and the future of it.

The good way of selection is the way of good principles, and the absolute best selection creation tool is true love, PMBBD and hype is the worst. So, why do I carry all those negative tags? Am I evil because I need almost no socialization? Am I retarded? Am I sick? Am I ugly? Why should my situation not permit me to meet sexy girls and find love? What am I? And that is a powerful argument, put pressure on peaceful not social people like they're probably dangerous sociopaths, or limit people who don't encourage your view, who are not part of your selection, to nothingness until they think of suicide, take their soul away from them, make them feel inhuman, invent psy warfare qualifications, or make it a struggle to find love and you'll truly reap explosive actions that are displacement effects reflected by their amalgam of beliefs, food for media manipulators and psy, or they will end alone in frustration or they will embrace hell. But whatever the choice, the result is that the attitude gets weakened, getting fewer people to take it until we are like this and like that, the selection is done. This is an extreme, and guess what, very rare situation today (not social people that don't want to encourage the present way of things), the chance for such a person to find and live true love to its conclusion are infinitively small, it's a selection tool against independence too, as he will only meet people with a conflicting philosophy and the reality will continually put all kind of pressures to invalidate the situation; they want gregarious people to fill their reality and vision of love, and if you don't have a cell phone to keep your mind updated it's a disadvantage and you'll probably develop as a dangerous sociopath, those don't live peacefully in their corner, and they don't get the economy to turn as fast...

As I see it, a couple is a lone entity too, it is not meant to live alone either; it is no better for a couple to pass its time alone than to dwell in heavy socialization, the middle line, know what it means? Use your brain, love is a high consciousness thing, you don't lock yourself in a box for symbiosis to take place, or you don't pass your time babbling because a psy told you communication is important. After a few years you start knowing the person instinctively, you feel the person, that's very advanced communication, that's love too, you don't need someone to tell you to communicate, you know something is wrong, you know there are things both need to say, if you want to close your mouth until you meet the pope, your choice. The main problem is growth; you condemn yourself to ideals at the start, then change, both change and they grow in a self-conflicting hard to endure situation, or one find himself a boring recipe the other don't want to say he doesn't like anymore. That's a simple view and you can't discard the reality pressures, but it means some dealings and adequate change of attitudes, love may fail there or finally take an adult path, and this path is usually some kind of equilibrium, you don't babble continually, you don't see the other continually, you don't socialize continually, you don't work continually, you're not angry continually, you're not cheap continually, and on and on and on you go. All that while making the other feel he is important to you; if you look for trouble or seek godly perfection or compete or bitch the other; you lose love, the same if you're on an excited quest seeing monotony everywhere, the same if you're always there sticking like glue.

Still, the absolute worst thing is for someone to pass his time alone, and that's quite an unacceptable situation for a reality that thinks itself evolved and full of love. Everybody must have interactions with living people regularly; not necessarily sex and bars, but friends or family minimally. Being alone is a war; you can be a good fighter at it, for some time, but most people simply go crazy, and pressures don't help, particularly PMBBD which creates hype and a magic feeling of love. And when a lot of them (peoples with difficulties meeting a partner) finally have emotional and physical relation with someone that reveals himself to not be a loving (love capable) person, they go crazier, they twist the other into something he's not, they twist themselves, get fat, repress, frustrate, endure, displace, because they are ready to go to any extent not to be alone again, and that's without talking about their unconscious that knows our vision of love must fit our complexities and ways of reproduction, what true love is, and this hellish reality profits from that to sell more stuff under an infinite panoply of different forms, as it profits from the fact that people are not made to be alone, they should not be and can't be, and not only it profits from it but it is in a vast part the cause.

There are so many ways to fail at love, luckily, there are many people trying to do things well, they seek love, they want to make the world better, they respect others, they care for life, they are not ego overwhelmed, etc. And you don't have a to be a saint to impress me, far from it, I could distribute tons of medals of human sense to, less as we evolve it seems, even if many young people are on the right track. But it's not enough to affect the momentum of this reality and it will never be unless an exponentially bigger confluence of pushed back critical expert incompetence explodes, because you refuse to reconsider the fundamental system you bet planetary life on.

So you mix cement and plant bricks to make your condemnations and your failures more irreversible, even the current protesting strategy is no more than a vaccine forcing the reality to develop better tools to repel any risk or attack. The main changes that are happening, apart tech, cosmetic and "candy" ones, are changes to make the system invincible until the end of humanity, for one type of attitude that fits it well to decide until the end. So you understand that I can't let that happen, thus I won't concentrate my energy congratulating everybody or every minority, saying that things are not that bad, that the future will get better, etc. Furthermore, even if a lot of what I write about is based on feelings and personal experiences, I still believe I'm grasping the momentum of this reality well enough to generalize, and what I believe we have encouraged as attitudes, whatever the hypocrite, conscious or unconscious way, and what are currently developing as future attitudes, will lead to the end of our potential. I could have become a politician to do my things, but I would have ended-up absorbed and directed to inefficiencies or I would never develop my comprehension in an adequate way, or I could pass my time protesting to make this or that better in this reality, no, when you miraculously obtain a mind like mine(willfully or by accident, but I'm working hard transmitting it, love would have helped for that, I would totally write in love with some level of kids needing my attention), you are condemned to be a writer or go live in the woods, that's your destiny man, take it or leave but, but anything else will make you smaller. So I fight, I fight for big things, critically important things, but I feel so alone...

I believe the best option is another reality, learn from the past to better help life and love, and all what's important, the tools of technology are appropriate, it can be done, peacefully or violently. I see it as a step, and I believe we must take that step, and I believe the rewards will go far beyond pride. A new growing reality can be made so life won't be condemned to a single systematization and the selection coming with it. All that minimally means that I must repel those attitudes I believe wrong, and if I'm to believe myself then I must be extremely serious, like austerity level, I'm stuck with my mind and the conclusions it comes to, and as the initial spark my power should be unequalled, I mean, it multiplies the effect of what I say and what happens to me.

As for the "candy" changes I wrote about a little earlier, the fundamental principle is that sexual pressures can be used to serve agendas, and all our problems that we're supposed to have the experience of a million years dealing with, are still there because they serve an agenda, this reality will even create new useless problems intrinsicated into itself to keep on having people complaining and good rich politicians to glorify themselves a philanthropy doing leadership while proving that the system work. They will make it big like it's an extraordinary thing, evolution, modernity, but it's just an illusion of human evolution to grow evil; the monster got many things like that, candies awaiting enough crying from minorities or gangs, while the monster becomes invincible. The same for love, the system don't care about it. How often do you hear the true love definition from either governments or religious bosses? They don't know or defend what true love is so they just use the word without a definition, yet the contract of marriage is related to true love no? Then why don't they explain what is true love and its relation to marriage? Isn't marriage the ultimate, top, supreme ceremony of love between man and woman? Or did I miss the point?

There is still some love, whatever I say, but it's hard to find or live since it's more complete and includes many human qualities and more evolved principles better carried by civilized people, more brains and control of ego attitudes too (not ablation or altruism I should mention for extremists and manipulators. Control of ego attitudes mostly means fairness and not having a negative effect on others). One of the rewards is to have a profound complementary history with someone.

It seems love between people have become any action that ends up in bed for some time since the formulae is accessible to almost everybody, like a systemized aftertaste of the "peace" and "love" revolution; the failure of love. With Darwin's help it has become an animal-hormonal thing based on competition, and we chose the social animal option, in part to compensate our inability with true love. (Maybe we'll learn from their example (animals) and stop brainwashing our children, exploit them or profit from their innocence, and hormones are a fraction of what can influence our thinking; we are controlled by our deductions of what we should do, conscious or unconscious, hormones grow men or women and trigger things.).

Presently we're ripe for more blatant genetic engineering, after that it will be clones. That's the ideal for ego maniacs, with rich scientists continually putting pressure in that direction, so someday those "gods" are truly going to become immortals, their family dynasty eternal. At least there will be no more ruining national funerals for a chance at change.

What's is the science of love again? Not much of a science you'll say, it is a "magical" concept for them, you got political science though, so wait until I get there before showing your expertise with terminologies. Some people can die controlling their body or mind, I can, so stuff your phantasm of control,because yes, you can influence lots of things by using chemicals and hormones as tools, just try the pure stuff....But you don't care developing pharmaceuticals dependent people, business opportunities, so they can survive, you know, to fit a universal truth you proved by some experiment on animals in your laboratory. Maybe you are stuck in the Darwinian tree with the human as the top animal? You want clone dogs out of people, your perfect selection? Chemicals and hormones and pheromones have all kind of uses, no doubt about it, but they don't decide things over here, I'm doing the thinking, you know, this ego thing that says I trust myself with good food? You want to control people by overriding the work of the mind with your "superior" mind, you want to be the decider of chemistry? If one day, after eating your chemicals I become "normal" enough that I will fit your vision, I will use the last bit of my independent consciousness that have not been taken possession of by the medias, scientists and psy to lock myself in a prison and I'll eat the key just to spit in your face and have the last word, to prove my human mind always take the ultimate decision of its actions (in a sense maybe I'm doing it with my life within this reality).

I guess that it's a bit normal too that in a competition of profiteers, manipulators and cheaters doing their selection, it's a bit normal that the cream rise to them, and that mindless sex eventually become the norm, and you don't have to be very old to have mindless sex....there are already vastly more pedophiles than we think, repressed in many more others, and there's a lot of potential in people profiting from innocence monetarily...But don't worry, the hydra will protect us (he is god in ego people, the rich conglomerates controlling things, unconscious profit seekers and people full of money and never finding enough to make good because they use most of it, or it is directed to, or stashed by "friends" with the same attitude), so the PMBBD façade is ambivalent to satisfy everybody, while in truth it is encouraged like any market, like drugs, like racism, and many more. Human "gods" "love" cultivated innocence, they're so inferior, just look in their accounts for some proofs...

I should put a reminder here, I use adjectives to weight my words, I try to walk the middle line and have judgment, even in my worst moment, as a human, not a machine or as a media parrot, sometimes with a form of humor or 2, it's important, and put the hat when it fits, remember? So when I talk about scientists or powerful people, understand that I don't believe everybody in such positions are ego mindless perverts, not at all, I believe there are many excellent scientists or governing people full of good intents, some are even living exemplary love, but that's definitively not the case for most; for one good politician there is one full of shit and a traitor that can be bought, and I suppose it represents the population...

Now, even the best intentioned government can't control the Democracy-Capitalism monster, they are even a coat on the monster to protect it, that's why I say it is a hydra, the system is a whole, and the system will defend almost any market, even hypocritically, because all there is to it is the economy; people are nothing, they are food for the monster, and it is evil unfair beyond any sense, even if people are lobotomized to think it is fair and good, the best, and they'll pay dearly this belief like they'll do for their religious beliefs which are defenses for the monster too.

As to why it is like that, it is competition division, meaning it is 50/50, while you got some powerful people wanting to do good, there are other people controlling other parts of the system that are as powerful in effect and who only think of filling their pockets for their evil activities worth death, and they got to be satisfied because they have been made a hegemony, some through media and learning institution which sells them as extraordinary things with well raised facet expertise; people have been made dependent of a thousand of such pyramids. And who is disadvantaged? The good ones have fare more difficulties because they stand for something while the ones who only think of profiting are only and hardly limited by fear of prisons. And what is the source of the problem? PMBBD, people never had their say in things like the budget, only to elect some bosses to run the business, and that's totally inadequate, even if you call it Democracy and want to believe that's the best way of things, it is still the same thing humanity have always been under from the beginning; being bossed around by gangs and most members can't skip profiting from their situation to systemize anything that will bring them money or admiration, it is an eternal wheel, and the only way out of it is to make a system where it is truly people who are running things, where nobody can boss or profit from a controlling situation, and yes such a system is possible, particularly with technology, but did you ever try to removing control from the hands of a controlling gang?

To go back to my things, even if I feel some young women know love, most won't truly live it in all their live because young men that are receptive to develop a potential at it are rare and becoming rarer with the television and internet emphasis on heavy sex and pornography (kisses or sensuality or seduction are not love either, they are parts of love, like sex) and older ones learn manipulative love (manipulating a woman to "fall" and stay in pseudo-love). For a man to learn the love a woman wants and needs, generally speaking and supposing they're not evil, he needs to be an evident male while having a good start at understanding and respecting others; call it a start at wisdom, but if he can get that in this reality, he will generally be quite older.

For those girls who have the "initial wisdom" to gain a good idea of what true love is, depending on the type of character and parenthood (destiny data), they'll end-up falling on this avenue or that which will forward their innocence in traps to profit mentally divergent people (can be capitalists, or a sado maso fraternity, this is a learning process in hell, where you mostly learn by taking risks, another way to profit from your curiosity or candor, by being had, and you'll feel bad about it at it, and you'll learn, and it will change your mentality, your life, maybe it will disgust you to the point that you'll lose curiosity and candor, maybe make a depression, or become a big adult self-important that knows better, maybe you'll even open a brothel where you sell related stuff, embark and become a specialist sado masochist!). What I mean is that it's easy to crap your minds with PMBBD ideals, then revert too strongly to the extreme contrary, because an ideal is an extreme, or go too fast, ending-up losing it totally and forever because of a too vast self-investment on a bad choice of partner early in life.

My guess is that the internet will finally destroy all potential for love, even in women, only the most willfully strong (not physically) complete and equilibrated women will be able to keep it surviving, but those in this reality will be at high risk to end-up cynic, cold, religious or revolted because of the PMBBD everywhere, including love; they won't thrive for sure, nobody will fight for them or defend their ideal, they must close their mouth and die in frustration, so true love will die with them in favor of those who eat PMBBD and hype, those you can easily manipulate with slippery craniums, glasses, and special techno effects.

As for "initial wisdom", it is a girl only unconscious thing that pushes them to express love more easily, I think it makes them more conscious too and it is necessary to control their person better, with more empathy. It is the initial spark they must heed to become complete women. This initial spark is inappropriate for raising children, they need to develop themselves from it before doing so, and it is hard to do in this reality. At the minimum, nobody should have a child before 21. Personally, I say around 18 (15-21) in cavern times, a time when your understanding is very limited, around 25 in a paradise where the basis of reality is simplified, and around 35 (+-5years) is best for hell, a place of deception, of manipulation, where your energy is required as young as possible, where doing introspection and forming an adequate judgment of reality is the last priority, with publicity asking for your attention, and all that social to participate in, and school to go and drugs to try, and sports and television, and all what turn around sex, and cleaning, and children, it never ends, there are lots of priorities here.

And it is wanted like that, so people don't question the system, so they care at the minimum, barely enough to vote, we're advanced too, top tech, soon we'll merge with the machine, they say, the experts, so if there was a better way we'd know and care to be interested, the same for spirituality and views of the universe, with all these sects and branches, and astrophysics and with Stephen Hawkins's astral genius on our side it's all done! And the internet know it all, when this thing becomes omnipotent watch out for the singularity, it will become a religion...

Apart from school, it happens as you experience your favorites activities, and now and then willfully and so you end-up having your minimal capacity to generally comprehend the fantastic package of useless and cheating complexities of the reality you want to make your children in, the how things work behind the facade, quite late, and would you dare to explain the logical extent of the process of how you came to endorse the package of beliefs that drives you by writing a book like mine about it? If you really comprehend and how?

It's a matter of logical evidence too, there are billions of people, big science going on that's barely imaginable, who are those geniuses? Imagine the education, there are all kind of philosophical branches and people go bald just trying to study them; what makes you think you have abilities to take an uncommon path? Your school scores? How you differentiate among friends? So people fall back to the default path, and even then I shake people as the selection every now and then, I know they do what they must do, for a lot, to some extent, so the problem is always the control structures we made, our amalgam of limitations and liberties, what we want versus how we can get it; who can blame someone to want to make a nice family as a life priority? That's a lot of abilities to develop you know, including brains, and society should be just nice to unload their lot of complexity proportionally...

Let's say people reach minimal defense or judgment ability with PMBBD and cheaters at around 35. Or if you prefer, I wouldn't leave my secret millions to my children under that age, if it was a fair concept.

Believe it or not it goes with the ideology too, and time too, it all work together as it was meant to be, and I still haven't explained the extent of my view how I see life systems. To me there are many forms of selection, and there is slow morphing that always requires my attention. How you arrange your mind in youth will have an effect all the way to reproduction, and I believe the strength of the effect is proportional to integrity of belief and intents, so yes how I develop my mind have an effect, but this genetic effect is probably small and unlikely, one thing that look like a mutation, in an environment that provides tons of mutation possibilities, like smoking, breathing city air, 99% kill cleaning products, all the while the scientific methodology talks mutations like it's bad stuff, but in fact they're dealing with a life system, a tool of evolution, it may be insignificant but 0.01% influence on evolution is gigantic, and this thing can works exponential with the help of reality. It goes with love too, all what it encompasses to make it true form our mind, that's why late reproduction is the way, you don't raise humans as an experiment, like it's time to settle the fuck and make a family, you raise them as a success of understanding, a success of love if possible, because you can help them with existence and show So scientists want to reproduce the pure race, and for that their vision requires people to reproduce as young as possible, to skip gaining mutations, fetuses reproducing would be best for their planet laboratory, with clones, which is definitively important research for this reality, since seeing sex everywhere and making sexual associations everywhere may do exactly the contrary of producing better reproduction, from too much twisted pressures.

The same for the rich who control the unfair economy, they don't want critical thinking people, except to spread the news, they want to reproduce and grow the amalgam that serves the wishes of the rich. As for time, for as long as people can't live in society comfortably with some technology, then love will be particularly difficult, proportional, then it's a matter of taking the mentality, or the best path. So we gain maturity around 35 presently (in hell it's more like never), and we reproduce far too young versus complexity. In a paradise you're supposed to do that around 25, you just understand that things work and that you're entitled. But there are more steps to this, at around 50 (advanced adult? pre-old? golden age some say, creep?), then at around 75 (65-85) I suppose you're old, probably not that bad an idea to die about it. There are exceptions evidently, but to me it goes on in after death as something else, as I'm faced with the truth of myself as I lived, and go through the truth of history, then another step, and on, and on, until I'm so far away that I would regret dearly falling for the ego ideology, not doing my story with love and friends, I can imagine the longing, to go back to my home now out of my reach, how I would do things differently, looking back at myself.

So it is preferable that couples be some years together having children as a decision, rather than as an innocent who have them from rutting or out of self-justification, or for ego reasons or to settle the fuck but not the boasting, or out of thinking they are adult enough to raise them or who immediately think their relation will last. But that's not a problem for this reality to have a majority of children in the world raised by far from ideal parenthood.

The problem here is that I don't believe it possible to truly love when one is too young, the ideal scenario, again, as there is always one, would be for young people to experience sex and love between themselves, exactly like true love with the exception that they should look at it in the optic of losing innocence, experiencing love with a few partners while supposing it should last in case it does, because that's the way, losing innocence is a whole, you lose some before morphing reality, and love is a selection tool that morph reality and that's particularly true when giving birth.

To know what I mean, I could put you in command of a flying copter an tell you to land it, an adult would land it with some experience at it, but an adolescent without experience would probably crash it, even if some would succeed.

The same with love, you must experience it, touch it, feel it, and that's already a lot of learning to do. As for giving birth; is an adult thing, you must not be learning love, you must know you're living it because you can't make an experience out of it, you don't "try" a baby, you don't have a baby for your enjoyment like so many lone women like to do; when you give it birth, it must be in the loving scenario, not while experimenting it, the father must be there, the couple must know they'll be together a long time, not take a bet that they'll be, and that is so because the baby is not the experience of love, it grow from it, 18 years.

You don't grow a baby to know how to make a baby, and you can't experience growing a baby before having the baby. And that makes it quite an adventure; not something you do as an innocent of love; what proof do you have, what experience do you have that make both of you believe that you're truly living love and not an idealization of it? I'd bet many people who think they're good for making a baby aren't even capable of being responsible for a pet. If you stay with the same partner in stability for a few years, I may start believing that you got what it takes as a couple to make a family. But in this reality it changes nothing if you make a baby out of love or if it gets out of a sewer pipe as they are not born for good ideals like love and independence, they are born to find and bring profits, whatever the form, whatever they are saints. It's not you that raise them it's the system; you just keep them alive for 18 years, do the hard part of the job, which I can understand very well can be seen as an enjoyment, transmit social skills, a little affection I wouldn't dare otherwise, a net of security, and you're responsible if the kid dies, while reality morphs them with pressures; there's a use for any result and that's all.

Yet, in today's state of things, raising children should be a privilege. We are assured to be the last living thing standing on earth (yes, apart microbes and birdies), and there are far too many people on it, so it is imperative that we better precise the selection, whatever the eternal panic of governments to have more people; there will never be enough people in this reality until the mania ends-up in disaster. Human reproduction should follow a global ideal making sense, not a free for all ending up profiting all kind of legal criminals, gangs and people on wow hype. I tell you they'll even inseminate prostitutes artificially if they ask, even men, they want money bad, and they'll destroy all life for profits.

We could slow down a bit, experiment that without a risk to our survival, we can easily lower today's population by half for a good thing and tremendous benefits for the environments (except for those who seeking profits at all cost). Only people in a proven stable loving situation should give birth, that's my opinion; there is enough pressure for failure at transmitting love as it is. Even in the best of realities, many couples will separate, add many children born with bad lucks, and that will give enough children with love flaws, and they won't have much chance to live the ideal of love, we can do without prostitutes (escorts), gay, sexmaniacs and bizarre people making or raising them. (Love flaws? What the heck is that? Relax, don't worry, those don't exist in this reality, are you happy? You need a reality with true love as a driving force; no love flaws where there is no love to know if those flaws exist. Another way of seeing it is that everybody got some in this reality...).

Even without the internet and television, love is not transferred well enough by parenthood. To have more loving young people you must have parents who did not fail in their symbiotic convergence, it must be proven in the strength of their attachment to each other that resist time. This reality have formed a wheel of destruction of this situation (divides and compete to reign) and it has become a rarity. Love (different than sex) can be learned by anybody starting young and trying to understand everything rightfully, but those having a stable parenthood will have a fantastic head-start at it. I'm not talking about baby making industrials here, who have something to prove and a too strong a weird tendency to like to play with and control innocent things, and preserve these from evil...If you want long lasting love in the future, you need stable long lasting loving parenthood. The rest, who are a majority of today earth's population, will hardly succeed at getting a few years' worth of an illusion of it, even with lots of work. But an illusion of love, if it is well done, will still have a strong effect on children.

Love transmission to children is not a kissing or harassing or over protection thing, it is, in big part, an availability and example thing. Both parents must show they are well together most of the time, the father must have time for his boy and he must act and be a man; ideally, not a gay or a child. A woman does the same thing with her girl and both parents care for them. We must be the example, parents must be the exemplary people for children, their leader, not television, and we must tell and show them we like them and give them some affection while not going overboard, particularly the father. We must be strict when it is time, without exaggerating, we must not create competition with them, except for fun, no competition of traits or skills or unfairness while they build their basis, since that will put them on the track of the ego-gods ideology (superiority and inferiority), let them choose the way to their rewards once they've developed their judgment.

Presently kids are under a constant competition of pressures starting with T.V. internet, pub, school and parenthood that pushes them in direction that are often far from the best or ideal for them, mainly, they encourage ego growth instead of control; take in a way that satisfies you and watch out for the law. By the way, the worst way to teach ego control to the youth is to tell them to control their ego, this is the kind of lesson for adults that will give contrary results on young people and that's how many people "educate" children; by being moralist (in the negative sense where they're not an example or when they do it like an easy discarding of their responsibility), when they're not educating them like animals or "gods". They need straight simple truth with explanations and examples, the more they grow, the more moralization or complexity or vague notions can be exposed.

Your entourage should be made of people who can bring a good example to your children (specifically), if you like evil people, whatever you think you are good, you're living an accepting and conflicting state that will be sensed by your child's intelligence, and when they will become adolescents they will lose respect for you unconsciously because they always felt you were lying to yourself, you didn't stand for what you preached, and it will worsen the "grass is always greener on the neighbor" principle. And I'm not talking children frequentations, children deal between themselves, to some extent, and adults deal between themselves, and not in an inferiority and superiority manner, but in a necessity one.

If the people you like seem only to think of fucking with any pretty somebody they see, or take drugs, or talk ugly or gay, or insult, or manipulate, or exploit others unjustly etc, all in all, people who live by their ego or unconsciously, they will transmit some of their attitude to others, particularly young children since many will see it as "only me counts" or "my parents are too straight" or "I can do anything I want"; it can only be in conflict with any good basis they should be getting. And a basis is imposed, it say you can't do what you want, you must think of others, or life etc, while those negative attitudes are free and spread by people supposedly adults.

Everybody wants to always be freer and decide his things, and that's how it look in the eye of a child, he passes lots of time with its parents and when his simplistic mind catches on liberty, you'll become jailers, as an after effect of an unsafe reality. Everything in this reality will start adolescence already strongly encouraged in an ego situation by many such examples, particularly the movie and television industry starting in infancy, while it should be the contrary; we are supposed to help the adolescence waking-up of consciousness so they can act positively upon it instead of out of frustration from imposed, whatever the form, innocence, doing stupidities. All this will mostly grow all kind of sufferings and bad personality traits, twists and displacements, and evidently, that's a nice soil for opportunists. You don't want children to be a competition ground as to what philosophy is best since you're in a reality based on the ego ideology and young people have a natural tendency to take the attitude for better survival reasons (our natural place in the schema of life, the qualities that makes us its champion). The side of ego almost always win with (I could call that the "stranger giving candies" principle) until adolescence, where their consciousness with the help of the "initial unconscious" (life natural play of pressures) will try to gain more independence. Evidently, there are always exceptions.

The natural way of life's development is full survival ego. From that point to adulthood, at least 3 intermixing steps have a chance to bring a person to some level of control; there is love transmission from parenthood, there is the initial unconscious (life growth formulae) that will start pressuring the person for it around adolescence, and there is the reality. All 3 must work in harmony in the best scenario. The initial unconscious (life) will to express it is a given (just do with the results, which you can interpret as messages). Parenthood, and particularly reality, are the deciding factors (there are always exceptions). If parenthood fails at love, it will somewhat lower chances of success or capacity, if the reality wants the contrary, it will be a failure in most cases or a very low level capacity (of control of one's urges), or a heavy, late consciousness "fight" to have it. In this reality, you'll start full driven by life, go through some frustration or revolt in adolescence and slowly climb back to a manipulated version where the life drive, which you can see as survival, is confounded into ego desires, rendered unconscious but always in conflict with the initial unconscious (life). Rare are the people who will walk this earth in full control of their person, free of PMBBD.

As always, you can discard the initial unconscious (life systems) and it changes nothing to the idea; I see much of the reproductive and growth system as an initial formula for people, a life path that gives us, along the way, a best use for our life. That's a personal view of life's interactions through our reproduction and nobody will take that away from me without scientific proof, it is my miraculous thing, even if it is not miraculous at all, and I won't replace it with some PMBBD invention for profits. And that applies to scientists "gods" who supposedly know everything about life who will make the affirmation that it doesn't exist because their view is limited to microscopes; it's my global and spiritual view of reproduction connected to life systems.

Now I'll go to another level and add a basic pre-birth preparation I would personally do; I'd choose the date I want the baby to be born, I'd do it around 25-40. One month before fecundation (yeah!) I'd start taking great care of my health, drink lots of water, no smoking, no caffeine or any boosters or chemicals and pesticides, fungicides, etc, no steak on steroids, and I wouldn't "de-inhibit" myself during that time too. Let's say I'd increase the rate of my clean-up as I advance toward the time. I'd have sexual activities no more and no less than once a week. I'd eliminate any chemicals, disinfectant smells, industrial breathing, creams, smoke, chips, gum, toothpaste, wine etc; those can be a cause of reproduction problems. I'd start a visualization process by thinking of all kind of positive skills, which the child would gain, like I'm making an ideal out of him, but no emphasis on one sex, I would imagine fairly between the two options and I would not wish a boy or a girl. I'd believe it and do it as much as I can, without exaggerating, like before falling asleep. That would go on until a few months after the child is born then I would forget I ever did it, no hype, I don't dictate life for sure. Even if such actions do nothing, when you do all kind of things like that it proves that you really want a child, you're already making efforts for him, you do not react, you take the lead, you want something, there is a will, there is already action, you want to care for him ahead of time and you want him to have the best possible chances. And guess what scenario has the most potential at doing such things? True love. Evidently, you don't have to be crazy about it, caring about your child takes all kind of forms as he grows, an incompetent will care the wrong way in the wrong matter, but who's to say little attentions and care is bad for a baby? When you have the wisdom to adjust as he become older?

You can be careful of your talking too, you like your children, you care for them, you give them attention and affection, but you don't "love" them, maybe if we stopped loving children there would be less pedophiles... If you want a boosted word in this language that got cute names at the height of their twisting, use adoration, yes sir, it would work to qualify adorable relations. But you'd still need to use it enough in the wanted context to remove some "bizarre", as I already explained. Presently, parents "love" so much their child that they put their incompetence, from "loving" their reality with all their strength, on their shoulders, the most innocent. They permit extraordinary unfairness in admiration of their "gods" while indebting and condemning their children they "love" so much. And if there is a problem, it is in the child; reality is good, parenthood is following the wave, it's the child that's the king, it's the child that is this or that. We even dump our responsibility for developing future ideals and philosophy, we dump everything on them, they'll reimburse our debt, stop overheating and pollution, even recycle radiation, make a better world, take care of us when we'll be old, so we go ahead full pressure twisted cartoons, kids of the future are so tomorrow they'll build the smarter planet thing for apple too! What is this shit anyways? That's super twisted as a concept is, you're not god, the planet is already built, you live on it, and you won't associate me with your discarding of responsibility for not developing your smarts on the back of the planet itself, or maybe you're not smart enough to see things the way I do...

I guess that's why we see more and more movies and comics with children acting more adult than their parents, the use of parenthood is too devaluated and there is not enough true love. But yes, parents mostly care for them well for their first years, they do the hard part as they adapt them to the reality, where they'll be good to encourage things as they are, consuming more, polluting more, indebting more, while living less true love, making more "superstars" too, discarding bad feelings or responsibility in cheap attitudes, cheap protests, proud of more superficial or entertainment changes, and more in your face sex for good measure.

Children are the future, but who made the present that will lead to the future? A too big an emphasis for people to find themselves a job, too many useless activities made big by media people, everything is all wrong in the name of the economy, as people jump in too fast and work hard to encourage the invincibility and finality of the reality their future children will live in.

I think the real condemnation started with the "peace" and "love" and the church inflated baby-boomers generation, they upped the ante at profiting physically and monetarily from the young and life they "loved" so much, they made our path final, we're in a wheel of troubles with a momentum, and the Z generation will worsen things still more, is the Z generation the last one with hope (Z gen are really weird people)? We sing that we "love" the youth while our actions prove exactly the contrary, we are plunging them in forever more troubles, until they'll be in a cataclysmic situation where people will die en masses. And while we'll cry about the economy as more women become prostitutes (escorts), we'll believe to the end that sex attitudes have nothing to do with a sane civilization, that it's not important, that people like me are wrong and crazy.

Love in not something that can be described in a few words, it is a whole mentality, a whole of facets. And while physical contacts are a part of it, too many pressures destroys love quickly, the same if you fear your couple is held by the image you project of yourself, liars, cheaters, copiers, weaklings, they'll reveal with time how much they stand for what they preach, as you learn and lose candor. It's like why continually put external pressure on people if it causes no problem for people to live or love without it? Are you a stupid if you don't take Viagra? Pharmaceutical publicists seem to think so; did you notice how they make the guy not taking Viagra look stupid and impotent? And why do they absolutely need to pressure publicize Viagra everywhere? But they have the liberty to brainwash masses to their view, they'll even change your mind with their vaccines, and they'll tag you as evil if you take the liberty to use censorship on their liberties, they want massive sales of Viagra, people not having sex are stupid! Nobody makes more profits from people needing pills than pharmaceuticals...

Since it is unrealistic to like every aspect a person develops through time, there is no love without control of one's ego, and it is better if you don't grab at everything before thinking, meaning you don't have to be as costly as you can while you form your opinion of existence, but it doesn't take much of a drive to not wish to go for better than survival, comfort, security, which is one of the tools evil will use to better keep you on the ego ideology path, by putting your survival at risk, it's a fight to make a family comfortably, or if you don't get a job you'll fall back to survival (social survival), so survival, the lacks and the needs it creates, is used as a tool to exacerbate ego attitudes, which is exacerbated by the desire for both confort and security, so you dream the other extremity, infinity, as you watch superstars and lottery.

The first ground for love to grow is within oneself; a reality must give every chances for people to like themselves, but it is important not to see it solely as an individual thing, be it physical or mental. Like ego, there is a global vision that goes with love and you don't get it with bad food, or bad parenthood, or pollution. Furthermore, love doesn't thrive on the cheap, and it need people who want and seek good knowledge and experiences, losing innocence if you prefer. It got a general order and direction, it is closely associated to wisdom and you have many kind and levels of wisdom making it almost longer to describe than love.

So, to transmit a better adequate form of love, or for love to have a better effect, the parents would be better to cumulate some wisdom. Wisdom is not a recipe; it is an amalgam of everything you are positively, and consciously, in relation to reality, added to time, strong principles of life and the associated wheel of consciousness, understanding and control of ego etc. Wisdom can only start around adulthood and it is supposed to continually grow until you're old. Now, everybody sees it differently, like it's supposed to be in hell, so those who have no idea can act like they do. So let's involve judgment as much as we can while not forgetting that for a child, an adult is a size and impressiveness thing, and most are encouraged to keep that mentality with think big; impressive buildings and high standing people on their podium (look at synonyms). For me though, an adult is a lot more than that, and strangely, my last criteria defining what it is would be tallness or podium position (pyramid); the same for wisdom; some sees it as a white beard, probably the same white beard they use for god, and Ibrahim, or it's just me (and I have no idea who planted that idea there), but I guess the complexity of your definition of wisdom increases proportionally to how much you gain of it. Now, wisdom can increase for a long time or disappear quickly, but for most people of this reality it will never exist, they'll even have trouble becoming adults with the amount of PMBBD and dependences they live in. The main transmitter of love, though, is control of ego (not minimization or elimination or altruism, but you can see it as fairness and standing for what you preach, some pride, make your mark and don't let evil cause pain without at least planning adequate vengeance...), where there is the best transmission of love globally is where the global ego equilibrium resides; the best love is not in the poorer families, and neither in the richer, it is somewhere between the two, in comfort and not much stress, but this cannot be determined here since the concept is rarely even expressed, and the methodology would require a whole different set of mentalities, with somewhat of a schema of principles making sense defining your ideal human versus the emancipation of life.

Probably the ultimate step in the destruction of love will take place by the logical continuation of the selection of women with a diminishing capacity to truly love through direct bioengineering. Leaving bioengineering in the hands of ego people controlling the means in this reality is a sure way to crap in our pants. You don't put choices of modification, of either humans or animals, in the controlling hands of some ego gang, any more than you put it in the brainwashed to competition masses; it will eliminate any chances at justice, equilibrium and more. Even doing this for vegetables or cows is risky.

Ego people are always using the power tools of this reality for themselves first, and often they will keep these tools for themselves for a maximum of time to profit from keeping people innocent, and to prepare them in the way they want for maximum sustained exploitation, and to test and adapt these tools for use in the reality their way.

One of the effects of having men in control for so long is to give them a superiority advantage versus women, evil influence and encroachment through time, and I guess the winner give himself a cheating advantage in a sexist competition, even though the line is blurred because of the continually ongoing pressure selection that is bringing together man and woman as equal competitors. But the work to make the man superior and the woman a wanting sex object for the man to play with will always continue to insanity, unless women get widespread power in which case things will probably end.

The "equality" "revolution" was a temporary illusion of the contrary for frustrated women who thought themselves superior. In fact they worked toward the "free" implementation of all women by themselves in the actual workings of the exacerbated ego reality while they were, and still are, fighting for an equality that cannot and should not exist; fight bad and unfair attitudes, everybody should be seen independently and that's it, and yes there are jobs better suited for one sex or the other and that's all. Women were manipulated into a competition for equality with the help of publicists and newsmen, who in turn were encouraged by learning and governmental institutions and stupid signers, profiteers, poets, humorists and the like while the true goal for most was to fuck as much as they could, and the intents surfaced, as it always should. So if you want me in your next love revolution, you'll have to do it in the name of complementarity, in fact, if you look at the synonyms of it, you'll discover that love would fit very conformably in that spot; balancing, opposite; do you want that balance of opposites? Harmonizing; do you want harmony? Matching; do you want to be well matched? Paired; do you want to see pair of people in love? But you don't have to see it as a law dictating your comportment, you can easily love someone that is mostly the same as you, except for fundamental things like having opposite sexes complementing each other for the ideal of birthing a new human being, it's the principle that count, it must exist and keep integrity as it evolves.

The emphasis should have been put on salary equity (salary proportional to work value efficiency) and a readjustment of mentalities versus life in general; that would have severely shaken, maybe even crashed the pyramids instead of reinforcing them. Fucking feminism scrapped everything because it is a product of this ideology. That doesn't means man and woman can't exist from the same basis independently, but it does mean that in this reality based on primitive survival transformed to a view of the universe (because it's super easy, the fastest way for a primate, as it should be, so those behind learn from your stupidity...), there are complementary differences that have been minimized, atrophied or erased over time, in both sexes. But we could not see things that way because of the pressure against it from the beginning of time, and all those religions and "gods" that kept us indoctrinated under control etc, so we "decided" women and men had to compete instead of reaping revolt, that way the ego-gods ideology was reinforced with a stronger competition of traits while the economy got better.

This equality of genres things is perfect for many gremlins for whom the greatest pastime is bullshit and bitching competition though. The message I understands is this: "we don't care things are unfair, we accept that people are dying of poverty, that big businessmen are criminals, that life is dying all over the place, what we don't accept is to not be the equals of men; we accept the ugly competition but not the cheating", at least it shows how feeling cheated generates immense frustrations and inadequate judgments... It's better to fight for fairness, not over a super divisive thing like gender, for a fair salary for everybody. And you don't have to bitch about it, women have nothing to prove, everybody can do anything at different efficiencies, with exceptions, like that guy that was tied up on a train track? It should not even be a fight, what's this fight thing? You have to fight for a more appropriate reward or environment for your gender? It's 2 genders on earth ok? And you will fucking do with it to the end of your days, you understand? So act like you understand! And if men are not happy about their salary or environment, then, instead of starting to bitch women like the system wants you to do, you fucking request a better salary or environment and leave gender (women) out of it. You understand? The way we do things presently increases sexism instead of reducing it (yeah, let media manipulators make a pool of opinion and realize that everybody likes gay people, or that sexism is a thing of the past, you know, with the media bananalisation of sexuality in full swing...). It increases sex competition and weirdness too, but it's good for the economy, or the rich if you prefer, or is it the most ego people? The most successful ones? The ones people can't stop talking about in their admiration of those who exploit them, because, you know, they'd like to be as "successful" and do the same kind of thing themselves, just a bit differently. Or they squarely think they are better in their well encouraged self-importance or pride, or maybe they want to be a part of the non-expendable gang, to have their name in some historical book...

What will we do in our sex competition when someone or some group start to secretly implant bioengineered men and women? It takes only one ego out of control to do it when the possibility presents itself. Knowing how evil thrives in secret, lies and PMBBD, I wouldn't be surprised to learn that some scientists are being paid to do it right now with so much sexually perverse people with mega stashes of money waiting for the next opportunity to reach new levels of profiting. Their hard working earned money they'll say, which is true in the sense of this reality since you let them take it, is in big part spent in luxuries and luxury prostitution (escorts). It is easy to see where a big slab of the money is going by witnessing the size of this supposedly illegal market, illegal like pot, but when it's too widespread then it's time to legalize, until a sane man have the hardest of time getting in a true lasting love scenario...

Anyway, with tons of money you can buy secrecy, they have the liberty to do what they want with it, drug women and experiment with scientists, how many people disappears from the streets? They want every cute girl in their market, the cutest more expensive evidently, end they don't want normal people to dirty their selection...Easily fucked, with an intelligent brain that can be easily manipulated into sex, submission, admiration or baby making or a laborious boring work if or when she looses too much sexual attractiveness. But we'll do that slow because we have to move the whole world with our ideal by hiding our intents, things just happen... Show me all you can do my fine scientist, and we'll do just a little change in someone every now and then, just to somewhat accelerate what we're already doing with selection and standardization (not of appearance, too boring...). Just don't forget that the ones possessing the means to change things and do a world in their image are the ones who took those means, by whatever means we gave them. Be scared because a lot of what you can do with fruits, like giant fruits, or animals parts, the cow with the giant dick, or the slave taming of animals, can apply to humans too, and in this reality, it is guaranteed that the most evil vision will thrive as good because weird is the new, well...I don't know. You "love" monsters and freaks? Good entertainment? Yes, you'll become it. And you'll be lucky they won't make people live eternally, you could win that at lotto in this reality you know (eternal life).

While I wouldn't argue it's a normal attitude, exacerbated by pressures and the need for attention of ego people, exacerbated by overpopulation, exacerbated by a competition of manipulators, most of the prettiest of girls see themselves as superior from beauty immediately in life, and for it they'll drag a weight of crappy philosophies and attitudes, all life long. A lot becoming prostitutes as they try to erotize everything, their sexuality becomes a tool to get advantages (means), evidently we all do it indirectly and of some intensity one way or the other, interpersonal heathy and necessary complexities, it's your choice to minimize or stop it when you gain consciousness of it, maximize it, not care, not develop the capacity to care, and where-what. One thing that proves it is the quality and fantastic quantity of prostitution under all kind of cute corporeal care names and the same for the drugs they consume for some submission even without knowing it. And it's not someone like me that will enter such a place or have the money to pay for deluxe prostitutes, I wonder who have? And who has the right to remove these women from my market? I want them out there growing their capacities to understand things in an appropriate way like everybody else too, and you'll find me a name for businesses that provide massages without any affiliation to prostitution; I'll never put a feet there for as long as they are a synonym of prostitution.

I'm still a fervent amateur of sexy people, sexualized only in my bed, or in places. It's like the open tits liberty thing some women fight to get? It should be a priority that women show their tits when they want, nothing sexual, it's like a moon for men, nothing sexual but an opportunity to criticize sex tastes...let's see what happens when bunches of babes with fake tits run about everywhere, you know, when they'll escape your love shack, in slow motion...And why wouldn't men do the same? An unerected penis is pretty uninteresting, nothing sexual here, let's make it legal, you can imagine the rest...

Sometimes I wonder if it's not part of how the system work, make people sick, like love sick, for all kind of evil reasons, the intents behind, it just disgust me so much.

When the ideal will be too far out of reach I'll see if I'll start the fuck, since it's become easy with women fully embarked, and I'll be old someday, let's be realist, but then I'll probably be so frustrated and revolted that I'll be living in the streets... They are top producers of pornography now, magazines and books included, and they think they're spreading love... So maybe I should be "in", encourage the new fashion where the most important thing in life is to fuck as much as possible, preferably in front of people, or at the worst, I could get sleep drugs and Viagra, they are now everywhere; I could have bought some when I was socializing and that was almost 10 years ago. But contrarily to a lot of people (they were selling lots of it) I'm not fond of fucking an uncontrolled brainwash, a drug addict, a drunk, a doll or a cadaver for that matter, whatever it is cute.

The prostitution market would be the perfect place for such implementation of women with a "hole in the brain" as a new trait, as there are already tons of young girls encouraged to be slave from drugs there, but the world is open with so much drug "lover", it is sex and prostitution dependent, and so it means we are, we like it, we want more and we will have still more, for those neutrals that are on the tolerating, accepting and adapting momentum...Anyway, people are embarked in the free "love" revolution, most are members or defenders now, they're on a quest for more like themselves to encourage it. This reality gave sex people all the positive attributes it could find, to the point that you have porn representants publicized like "stars", we made of sex the most important human attribute, and while it is very important, after developing an adequate mind, we made it a joke, we made it a competition, we used our lack of it to justify our personal failures and evils.

People who like to have sex with many different partners are sex people, nothing to do with love. And their actions are most probably the results of PMBBD, inferiority complex, animal complex, ego, jealousy, and all kind of mental displacements effects. Most absolutely need to prove and show themselves sexually, they don't have the comprehension and social abilities necessary to love a single person humanly for a long time for whatever reason, making a story with someone is of no interest to them, what they want to look upon when they die is a never ending stretch of fucking, maybe not, they'll be serious later, for now let's fuck things up, and that's what they do, they scrap people, hope, candor, love potential. You could just give them rubber dolls and they would be happy, but not because they wouldn't desecrate something human, "it's not living!" or "I didn't win it in competition!". The man probably can't be excited by the same woman for a long time without taking drugs, while the woman can't drink a glass of wine socially without thinking of trying someone. Such people compose a big slab of the population today, to the point of becoming the norm and imposing their point of view to everyone else through media PMBBD. Lack of physical attractiveness could be a counter argument, but the reality is that the situation of less attractive people makes them more able to know and transmit love than the publicized ones who should give the example, which should be the ones creating the best situation for the thriving of love, but they do the contrary; they are the ones having the worst attitude (in general). That leaves the woman working at a store or having a "normal" job, those are the ones I prefer I think, a beautiful moment of life, not exaggerated, there may be still some love there, if there are not too many parties around.

Sex friends, and social sex, and internet sex, and sex competition and school sex experience immersion etc etc, those are all ways to profit from or exploit or direct innocence to try and make them members of more exploitable sexualities. But still, anybody who put pressure on sex or use it for manipulation is wrong in his notions of love. The trick to skip my hate, for people who only think of fucking around, is to hide your problem, not show it to everybody and be proud of it and try to give it to everybody by eternally knocking on the door for an opportunity (pressure), it takes one bunch of ego brain-dead erotized assholes to be proud of their sexual deviances or anomalies enough to try to culturally brainwash the whole civilization to their image. You can have as much sex as you want between the likes of you, whatever the form you want it, and I don't care and I won't blast you, any monster can exist for all I care, the key is always to control your fucking attitudes, or ego, you're human or not? You think nobody is not manipulating nothing nowhere? Just watch your effect, and you know your intentions, so don't piss me off! No publicity, no manipulations, under-meanings in films, no profiting from pressuring, drugging for the de-inhibition of unsuspecting people, no recruiting etc, etc, and particularly, no fucking stupidity! If you can't do that then I can't control myself any more than you, why should I? Because of liberty? Because I'm good? But I can't control myself! My hormones, they, they, I don't know, they kicked in! AAAaaaaa! I'm out of control, my emotions, I'm an animal, I'll seek your social place, for some audience, and...and...suppose you'll disappear.

I understand that there are many people who can't fit the ideal of love; do they have to live lives without having sex? You know that's not what I think, and you know what I think, do I have to repeat it again because people see everything as a competition? Do you want true love to exist and have its best place in a society or not? That's the question. For now not it is competed to elimination so much that it's mostly TV hype (should be wary of those love soaps, all types of love soaps, television is a superficial device and when people copy it they take the superficial step of copying, and another step of by copying superficiality...). Do I have to explain how and why? You want true love to exist? To be a power? To be the strong base of a civilization that it should be? To have the best?

I often repeat what I write under different forms, I know people on hype got their memory manipulated and quick to forget what doesn't fit. I should add it comes with the death of true love too, love is dependent on time and good memory, but today, people are after quick soap emotions, like they're running after those to write a future biography of how their life have been a never ending succession of emotions, how they've been alive and all, while the memory is just a hype bloated artifact, I'd bet you'll read the word love a hundred times in there, and never the truth of it...

My book is meant to be read slowly, not diagonally or for entertainment, you're supposed to think, being active, not passive. If I asked you to add a phrase in every paragraph you read, what would you do? Read it over slowly, taking your time to understand well what you're reading, and it means you could read better, you automatically know that you missed elements that could modify your judgment. You'd be forced to stop reading like you don't have time or like you're watching a movie, you'd judge everything a lot better, skipping your default unconscious opinion pressures, and you'd spread a truer opinion of it, not a fast hybridization prioritizing your lifelong accumulation of "experience" in this reality.

So I'm sorry but I'm not a James bond or a don Juan that has a never ending flow of fuck activities to boast about, like the attitude is supposed to be a competitor for love, while it only creates displaced frustration division and hateful attitudes, as well as disgusting the whole humanity of true lovers living in peace. You're a proud heavily publicized and encouraged brain-rotten reflection of the evil part of this reality, and I'm sure you think you have an ideal of "love" to talk about. Can you stop boasting around (it's not the same without the boasting?) and publicizing your attitude? Like a fucking train invading the world? Can you do without publicity? That's all what is needed.

And don't tell me I'm jealous, you know the reasons I'm revolted, so get your empty arguments out of your dickhead, I'm not someone that believes in love or that don't like sodomy or that don't fuck with any pretty because I'm impotent, or because I got a small dick or it's twisted or it stinks or I got small or only one testicle! I aint got nothing to prove, women can have lots of sex fun with me, don't worry, any position and I got imagination. You're the ones that is deficient, sick and twisted, a reflection of your reality, you destroy love and you're proud of it, you're an evil crap and you're proud of it, you cause hate, even death around you and you're proud of it, you spread sicknesses and degenerate the human race and you're proud of it, you'll lead it to war and you'll be proud of it, you're an animal on a complex of inferiority competition and you're proud of it, you laugh at everything, you have no sense, no value, and it is too late to do the good dog, it is easy for evil to switch attitude temporary when good people get angry, to manipulate, and to save your far worse than worthless skin! But in your reality, it's me who is reaping the troubles, who is frustrated, who got a knot in the dick, who is sick, who need a psy!

And it is guaranteed that you're looking for troubles if your reality creates the situation for good and healthy people to have a hard time finding a partner or having sex in an adequate manner for themselves. Next, not everybody can keep sane without sex, that's in part why prostitution can exist, but that kind of situation cannot compare in any way with what we are currently living as a prostitution (escorts) market. Yet, it is exactly like the rest; there are evil people desecrating love by the hundred, while there are many that never had sex with someone, and many other with a broken heart from never feeling exceptional to someone all their life, and they all take their pill in silence, or frustration, while manipulators, profiteers and the most fuck all have the liberty to boast around and create a selection in their image, even the psychology defends their view. Some are so rotten manipulative they'll say we just have to compete, good do nothing, but in fact it is the Democracy-Capitalism business of profiteers and cheaters that is setting the liberties of the competition, and to stay the system in place, it must adapt and defend itself.

This world is getting destroyed by people who have the right to conquer it with their twisted views, they spread it big, at too many sauces and too thick, and exaggerating love and sex is part of their repertoire for sure too. Hype, pressures and PMBBD is excellent for mindless destructive exaggeration, particularly in this reality which only thinks of profiting. And I'll accuse anybody I want, the whole of humanity if I want, I have that right, I never accepted or tolerated any of this to the point of flushing this reality as a young man, I've never played your game, I hated it from the beginning, I quickly felt used, and I felt manipulated, school was wrong, religion was wrong, I felt like I was forced hypocritically into a machine that I sure couldn't trust if it permits a religion to make me sing its prayers of bullshit, and if I don't like it what do I do? And this feeling of being cheated I really lived it, to the point that I would join the army, but it only worsened, I explored and wanted to believe in other avenues but no, you know what it is to choose the worst life just because you stand for your opinions? Dump all the good because you have no price? I don't like to be a traitor to myself.

One thing's for sure, except for concentrating profits this reality really have a problem good ideals and visions of things, it thrive and grows on the back of the troubled people it produces is more like it. Publicists even court people now, like they want to fuck them, that's how those PMBBD machines continue their work to arrange languages, courting is associated to true love, it is a good word. The true action publicist (of this reality) do to get people to "love" what they try to sell is PMBBD, not courting. Publicists and the people needing them are, in vast proportion, the ones that twisted love and use it for profit, and who controls publicity? Who need to absolutely push us to buy things? Ego people only thinking of profiting.

And you don't even notice it so much the division for competition is well implanted, they sell condoms for his fun, and they sell condoms for her fun, you can't just have sex in peace, they're right on your dick with competition condoms, drawing pandas for women and wolves for men. But I say it changes nothing to her pleasure that I put a condom named my pleasure, and if I need to replace my dick with a ultra-sensitive turning dildo full of studs which I penetrate to permit my "woman" to have her pleasure, then I'll get a tool to penetrate the mind of all those manipulators publicists instead; my pleasure. And if I prefer the condoms for her pleasure, am I gay? And do I have to get the dick of a monster, a Viagra shot erection, full of skin spots, scars, bumps, motives, tattoos, cocaine and ball bearings so that my woman can have her pleasure? If not, she'll be off a bigger dick? Yeah, that's probably what was missing in your pheromonal attractiveness... And a condom is not my possession, whatever I buy it, so you don't say his or her or my. Condoms are condoms, no need to add more, don't try to make the association that man is supposed to control the other's sexuality, or women. It encourages the idea that sexuality is the decision of one sex, which is sure to affect love negatively, and that there are no barriers of age to have sex either. You don't even need to talk about gender, you say super-size and hyper sensitive purified condoms if you want, or recycled and lubricated with walnuts, which smell tea and taste candy with colorful frogs, now if you need more to get an erection, you got a problem. Whatever scientists have spent years fucking women in line to prove their condoms are super-hot, whatever they called all around to know how people like having sex; give me different condoms, I'll try them, and shut your fucking pub machine (mouth), I don't want your associations. And a condom is not a fun flashing thing that is surrounded by candies, and it is not supposed to be something I step on while walking on a sidewalk, I don't like to imagine children getting better educated and adapted sexually to this reality by playing with those they find around, and I don't want to eat fishes that have eaten condoms, just saying, not that it happened often...

Anyway, I heard some science guys cry that we won't make "love" anymore in a decennia, so I guess all these contraceptives industries will close down, and we'll finally be rid of all these condoms ads and sex related problems, finally... I don't know where they take their data, some lies to push us to fuck as much as possible I suppose, either that or they live in grottos worse than me and are completely disconnected from reality or any sort of methodology. We make babies at the tons on the surface here, and yes eventually we will reproduce a lot more, but I don't see humanity's survival as dependent from in vitro reproduction within 10 years. So how can they come to this conclusion? Or is it that they were talking about true love? That would be the most unlikely reason...

Concerning sex and groupings of people having fun, it's the spirit that comes with it that is important to me; shows are shows, most shows do an excellent job, but there is a throng of singers and musicians that are drugged brains definitively not worth the profits they make, far from it, and they profit from the hype machine to fuck their manipulated groupies backstage, raves too have become an argument to mess-up the youth of many people in drugs and sexual insanities, and the problem is not adults, or raves in sense, it is publicity and the emphasis of trying to get young people around 15 in it at all costs while calling raves a love thing, and that could apply to many bars. And socialization is good, we have throng of examples of how it can work in sense, many bars are good examples, but many would be far better if they didn't exist to get people together to self-boost and influence each other to take drugs and alcohol as young as possible. Why are there none to provide socialization services as a better view? It doesn't fit the view of people seeking profits? Bars with cool music and sound effects can't exist if everybody is not getting drunk? People don't have the right to cool ambiances for meeting each other if they don't get the economy turning along the way? We have no rights if we don't buy something?

And I didn't say to eliminate it, I said minimize the pressure and competition against a good view of it in others. Since you use the word, you got to have a good view of it no? Where it is? Dead? Destroyed? Forgotten? In harlequins? With all those people singing love everywhere, where is it? Let poets, singers, religions and profiteers do it in your peaceful accepting place? Making of love an extraordinary thing where you fly in the air? Or do stupidities and fuck like crazy? Or take love pills and ecstasy to go get all excited? Then you'll lament when you'll be back to reality that couples are boring because you're making a depression after your over hyped placebo excitation you took in movies and pub. You started as a failure of realism and will end-up judging a slowdown in your fucking or social activities as monotony?

But I repeat a third time that I have nothing against dancing or a good rave, I'd have participated myself if I hadn't heard so much stupidities about them, the same for parties, I like a party, but I'm out the door as soon as people are fucking together or end-up sniffing cocaine. We're probably ready for another social malady, since the appearance of these diseases seems to always coincide with new peaks in group fucking, or fuck all free for all in blunt words, but don't worry, not your fault, never, poor victim, it will be the ostrich that will pass it to you! Still, it's the end result that counts, us, it stop at us and it will affect us. Like the crazy cow thing; don't you think there was a message there? No? I'll let you deduct it, but for now, I'll add that these maladies are already many, and they don't disappear, they cumulate, whatever science "gods" are so advanced in their knowledge of life, whatever they say most sicknesses have almost disappeared thanks to them. It is a load of PMBBD, lies, there are more than ever for their profits, this world is loaded with sex viruses and maladies, life is giving us a war on our vision of sex and love.

Ah, but such sickness are not sex activities related some Don-Juan scientist will answer, yeah, you're so infested and virulent I catch it on apples and in water, so loaded with medication I drink it too. You're a walking infection seeking to plant it in everybody, but nothing sexual, it's just the nature of things, it happens, nothing to do with attitudes, it's a DNA thing. Ok, ok, go fuck a chimpanzee, and don't you ever touch another human, they're not of your race. So if a rave of "love" gets truly atomized in its disco effects and techno music, don't worry, I won't cry, it's just a skin spot that have popped off mother earth, it's important to pop those, they're full of infection and they risk spreading new diseases. But I'm bad, it's just me that made myself like that, I could throw in some pity, try to make understand better, but it's worthless.

And don't come at me with your arguments that your generation made a sexual revolution, you're so brainwashed to it that it's become a cultural thing for everybody to boast itself on sex or make that stupid claim of a sexual revolution. There is always an adequate push from tech and comfort to develop sexuality and that's how it should be, imagination and creativity take the lead within consciousness limitations. Most people will try to have more fun in their sexuality and that's a good thing if you mostly stick to individuality. If we start making claims of revolutions from every logical reaction to a change of situation, we'll pass our time revolving and everybody will be very proud! Which is good, right?

Besides, in my head, a revolution is supposed to bring a lot more positive results than negative ones in the end, which is absolutely not the case in all those sexual revolutions and activities. Those people who claim they did or do a sexual revolution are only profiting from a better expression of sexuality to try imposing their vision of things to others. The sexual evolution is already there, just slower, not accelerated on PMBBD and hype by profiteers wanting it their way. The "peace" and "love" revolution, among others, mostly came from women rediscovering their sexuality and bringing men along. Yet it marks the start of more violence, sicknesses, ego, war, prostitution, stupidities etc, than ever before, and it came from all the people who profited from it. That's the part of the "revolution", because some ego gangs exaggerated, or manipulated, or hyped, or twisted, or pushed the evolution to their own end with PMBBD. They destroyed any chances at seeing the best expression of it becoming mainstream. You love free sex? What's next? The democratization of prostitution revolution? One thing's for sure, you'll have to impress me a lot more positively if you want to boast around your revolutions...

The "peace" and "love" revolution was just another nail in the coffin of love, maybe even its final desecration, a big party made by unconscious ego people on the back of love, preparing the terrain for bigger hate and profiting from innocence. They failed all philosophy that made sense about life and raising a successful civilization, they twisted liberty, love, life, consciousness. They talked about changing the world without direction or goals and the result was a batch of gregarization sicknesses, as much physical as mental ones, with hepatitis C and HIV among other. That's my opinion, even if some say HIV was created by blacks trying to rewind evolution by fucking with our ancestor the chimpanzee in Africa, or exchanging blood with them, something they've inadvertently been doing since the beginning of time. What I mean is that it changes nothing to the result and fact that life is life, maybe fucking with or eating the chimpanzee or exchanging blood with it, was a bad idea...

You know how I see life and its communications strategies, you can't have a human if it's not meant to be there is my belief, and why do viruses exist if they have no use? Everything have a reason to exist in the universe. Finally, what absolute proof do you have that it was not born in humans first then transferred to the chimpanzee? After all, chimpanzees are in many scientific laboratories these days, and you know how evil people like to manipulate history. But the end result is the same, you need to do something to get it, and it is not chimpanzee that are dying, but humans, is it the chimpanzee that has a problem with it or is it the human? And a virus have a goal, a use, no virus exist for the fun of it, even if you need a combo of actions to mutate them. Finally, why did HIV appear right at that moment while we've been far dirtier in the past? We waited until now before fucking the chimpanzee?

As for the peace and love revolution, it was too twisted by PMBBD, an exutoire for sexually frustrated people, a party on the back of true love, it was helped by poets, singers, publicists and many other industries, all seeing an opportunity to profit or grow their ego, whatever the form, whatever they succumbed in their "love" trip and only wanted to have sex and be praised for eternity if something good came out of it, that's what it was, an ego powertrip with gurus running everywhere fucking who they wanted because they profited from the sex development wave to write a book like they were inventing it, some even actually think they invented sex and love! Furthermore, the exacerbated ego competition we have today mostly come from that time, and in the end, they'll be the ones that profited the most from everything, included innocence, they are the ones finishing their shift at deciding how the world should be and they just unconsciously continued, more like amplified, the irreversibility of the ego ideology.

Did I mention drugs? I should be careful to not sound too austere, it makes me laugh how people sniff cocaine, but I'm not an expert. My general philosophy is that everything that doesn't create dependence or minimally impede the capacity to perform at one's standard, should be legal, all the rest obtainable under prescription as medical or research options. So LSD should be legal then? Why not? What's so bad about LSD? The bullshit? Maybe, good spirituality and big imagination or creation is not dependent from using drugs for sure, so I don't like when people try to make this association, like LSD unlocks their transcendental powers or unconscious, in an illumination of colors and disco, and after understanding a few connected thing, here it is, everything is connected! That seems like what the general concensus, everything is connected, it all work together, wow! I understand the feeling, but what about the content? I'm sure there is a chemical effect that may help make connections, added to the effect of removing time and pressures limitations (you got to be a moron to understand some things, in fact it's often better to be a moron to learn anew, like when people are born, a pure little moron, or a little pure moron for others, that can take a path where he will become like me, and no need for LSD, but you may need to knock yourself out la little...) that make it so people got a better attitude to let new concepts settle in, or understand things more deeply, but what do LDS bring to the table of creativity, sense, and connected logic? It should probably go with a kind of intern placebo effect too, different from person to person, that makes it so a pope on LDS will interpret Jesus in a more satisfying way, but he doesn't have the mind to produce adequate changes or creativity from it, while not forgetting that it's easy to confound a pleasurable vision or activity to justify a positive effect that happens at the same time, by limiting possibilities...(we like to judge things generally, where the details of what pisses us off get better lost in the background...) So my theory is that a stupid (or manipulator) on LSD will develop stupidities with a renewed intensity (do not underestimate the "new" effect), that he will confound with quality intelligence (think himself intelligent, which he is...). The conclusion is that I should take LSD, with my way of thinking the effect could be very interesting, and I could actually make something useful of it by writing in sense about it, yep, and magic mushrooms, and peyote, while munching on that tree bark, and having sex, as the shaman of humanity...

Have a party, get high, talk funky, I may leave when you'll start to fuck, but don't spread the notion that you are good for it, that it helps you think better or straight, and that's one thing I hate about the peace and love "revolution", the boasting about the great stuff they thought about while on LSD; I say all the philosophy that developed at the time was crap, or sick; you want spirituality and imagination? Read my books, no drug was used...

Yet, I won't discard the true good efforts some communities tried to do, working hard to succeed at something, with a strong tribe or sect ideal at it. But in the end their ideal or system had nothing to it, it was wrong and it ended as such. So for those people who never end praising how proud they are to have formed a community for a few years, I'll add that my grandmother raised a family, yes, a family of 15. They stayed together not a few months, but their whole life. Even if they are not an example I would follow either, they didn't switch partners at the first opportunity, even if they had far more difficulties. So go fuck yourself in your community of hippies, there are tons of examples that succeed at working together for a long time, you're one of the worst among many, and growing a civilization is one. Maybe you'll finally slow down idealizing your great epoch and generation, stop boasting your generation's super sex fun as evolution and write books upon books of how hot and sexually evolved you are. We all know, the world over, that you did it all, inside out over and out at the mass and at the chain, like many failed tribes did before yours, you'd want the next generation that you "love" so much up the ante of your degenerated mind, so you put pressure for competition?

But I'll try not to be too hard, there are always good people believing in ideals, whatever they are only surface ideals, or wrong through PMBBD, or solely used as a way for some to profit from good people; without good people to profit from and cheat hell wouldn't exist...Nobody got the time to understand everything globally, which makes people innocents or poor judge of the understanding, and often on purpose, of many things. Then it is easy to fool people, because without good and true spiritual concepts, direction, or ideals, or principles, people are lost, and the worst desecrators of the good path are those who use liberty or love to manipulate others.

For now the peace and love batch inflated themselves so much, made so much noise, that we are still under the effect of its bullshit to this day, and they still sing how they had it all, we almost got to thank them humanity is still alive, they even stopped the Vietnam war (why not?). Still, I say they were just frustrated people at a moment of a technologically advancing inadequate reality, a steam-off that went all wrong because the system is too rotten, people were under too much twisted pressure and manipulations, at a moment of history where some philosophical and comfort notions were in a position to better develop. Yes they did lots of good things, like protesting against ugly violence, but that always happened through history, nothing extraordinary there, people just had new tools, and it goes with the job, they had to stand for something no? They stood for what they thought was the good way, and it is evident that free killings is not the good way. Not much for the rest, and we are still stuck with this crap to this day, with media people and historians to glorify it, like we should do it again, as an opportunity for those in control to adjust things, while people are different now, the reality is different. So, what did you learn about love? And how about peace? It seems all I hear about is the mindless sex, lots of details and stories there, but for the rest? They made a big party while trying to profit from any opportunities to gain credit or to justify, and they are still doing it to this day, all we hear about that generation is about those that made the party, so noisy we never hear about the people that were not a part of the trip, they are lost to oblivion, never could say a word. And after it you passed your time embellishing your trip, writing books and manipulating footage, to the point that one got to wonder why we're not living in a paradise presently with that many great geniuses that knew so much.

As for HIV, I know you can get it from syringes, but the vast majority of cases are gotten from fucking mindless without love. The reason for HIV is lack of love, or mindless sex. And people are supposed to have better things to do than exchanging syringes, no human is supposed to prefer life like that, violently fighting is better than this! Losers are those who abandon; no fighting, no chance to win. But I understand that society won't make you heroes for it, and me I shouldn't incite to violence, powerful people have the monopoly of it, and the police defends those who took the most means against those who have the less, the revolted victims of their unfairness too, while the economy will profit where it can, a turn of the crank you'll be, with them lawyers, judges and prisons...

The monopoly of violence, this idelogy historically took the means to win, how many people died out of country competition? Everybody who died in a war died in the name of this competition, most poverty is because of it, even religions made holy wars for competition, and this reality continues to take the means to persevere and reach its ultimate form, whatever these means are more twisted now, like PMBBD to prevent you from killing while it passed its history killing to come to the present and still have vast armies and all kind of mass death machines and devices, ready to kill any competition that got a chance; in the egg. This reality's existence is based on killing, violence, and destroying competition, how are people going to get out of it? Peace, tolerance acceptance? They say violence and hate is evil and should be illegal? They're the first that would kill if you took your just place, place they stole by continual historical violence and death. Whatever they put you in prison, whatever they say you're a criminal or a psychopath, you can't be worse than an army of killers. What is evil? Who is evil?

This reality isn't full of anti-depressive and drugs of all kind for nothing. The worst in that is that I think it's kind of normal, or a sign, I don't know, why does it happens? Because everything is fine? Maybe those people would have grown as the most life sensitive, maybe they understand this hell in feeling more than most, I don't know, but how they act as they grow-up won't help things for sure.

As for people who get HIV from getting too fast in sex with some random somebody with a nice ass, then maybe you're worth it! Maybe you're the reason why it exists. I'm almost happy life made such a creation, it's the only fighter for true love that exists, and sorry if it is a virus; not a chance humans would do something like it. But in this reality, poor HIV has become another profitability sphere, an opportunity for profits, scientists are successfully passing their whole career studying the thing, it's becoming a science, there are many thousands of such tremendously expensive scientists with their laboratory and all the people working for them. And don't cut their funding, they're always on the verge of healing it, for 25 years they've been saying that every occasion; it's becoming pathetic. But you can't cut their funding to put some on other sicknesses without being tagged as evil. And I don't say stop the research, it's not a virus traveling around singing "I'm defending love, la, lala, la, la." it's a sickness we must eventually heal, what I say is that it has become an industry and it got a reason to exist. Maybe someone already got a cure hidden somewhere, but for now, the best we're doing is to control it with incredibly expensive and hard to produce medication that ends-up pissed everywhere, and don't forget expired medication fly away in smoke, Poof! It disappears...

And for people who supposedly know so much about cells and DNA and chemicals and life's functioning like you're gods playing with life, you're starting to look quite imbecile, worthless expensive and insignificant not being able to stop a virus after so much time and money spent to the task. And you simply can't explain how it "appeared" either, all you gave is a resulting theory as an embellished view from microscopic observation of mutations discarding human responsibility, that way you are fighting a hostile alien invader trying to destroy the human race, good to get funds... Furthermore, the crazy molecules you are expending everywhere to slow it for worse end results are just more on the fantastic pile scientists have created for pharmaceuticals industries, all those bizarre chemical medications didn't exist 50 years ago, they are beginning to be widespread, and I tell you life will protest, I guarantee it, someday we'll literally have to declare war to life, life may even take your batch of expensive strange molecules you're making to slow down HIV, and make something worse, a super resistant HIV. And the worst is that the best system don't want to pay me a 20$ medication for an infection that may lead to new viruses without a cent of research on it, but it would probably pay me a 10 000$ pot of HIV retardant. So while you make yourself an image of saint saving poor people on HIV, I can't get appropriate health care, even the cheapest one, while you'll pay expensive medication if I get HIV in your ego competition of the greatest good, or of who will save a billion lives, or who will bring the sexmania and baby making extravaganza to new levels.

I know there are many good people getting sick, but you know what I think, it's still a love thing, and love is a civilized thing. If we are not capable of being civilized enough to act fairly and to control our fuckin, to spread love attitudes, then we will disappear like many forms that disappeared because they failed or were not satisfactory, and life is not like me, it doesn't try to spare susceptibilities. Life systems may have "deducted" we are at risk of killing it because of our lack of consciousness or love version (genetic triggers). HIV may be the last warning we'll have so it's time to wake-up. That is, whatever it is a coincided thing coming from blood or not, the result is the same; if logical evidence is no argument to you then know that life or gods too want to preserve people who control their contacts with others in the human race, everything is against the gregarine animal dreams of scientists and powerful people (some, those who lost their senses), we must act with consciousness, from understanding, and we must use love as an ideal as much as we can, without looking silly, we must develop civilization with these things in mind, and more evidently.

That may be far-fetched to you, but you'll better understand next chapter. The people who help life are those who live from consciousness, and the reality of true love is part of an action reaction system. That's my way of seeing it, and scientists and media people and the rich, those who took the means to influence aspects of society, who refuse to have a spirituality about life and fight to persevere in their disrespect for it, at whatever cost to humanity, we don't fight them, history and reality is a proof that we have become irreversibly incompetent with extreme (condemning) evil, and that all the pretty we sing in the wind has been proven manipulative bullshit with time through life, then we may have condemned life to take more drastic measures to protect itself.

Personally, I'd put less resources and energy playing with HIV and put the means on other fights, like putting down pharmaceutical industrials and their system of dependences to reap profits while creating tons of misery and suffering, big bonus on the side of good if anybody is interested...Or spend it healing other things, there are many "bad luck" maladies that have strictly no research done on them while you're making your ego competition of who will get its name forever remembered as the one who cured HIV and saved a billion people; I don't like the attitude. For you that's what's important; your name, the planet can die in overpopulation from fucking mindless, not important, your name and your account is all what counts. 20 billion a year for this sole sickness! And they're always on the verge of healing it, they'll succeed if you added 2 billion a year, 17 billion a year for eternity should be enough, but let's make HIV day, that way the pressure will forever go on, and that's without taking about the price of the medication to retard it. Not a chance you'd put this kind of money to create a better reality... Go research cures for maladies that are bad luck things, or the result of vaccines, and stop putting all your energy to save the worst examples of love and consciousness that exist because you're a perfect fit for them with your profiting attitude.

The same for media manipulators who put all the focus on the accidents of HIV, trying to make it as emotive as possible to raise funds, manipulating the judgment of masses is their greatest skill after all, why don't you put 90% of the emphasis on wrong view of love and sexual activities? You can do that, it's not a credibility question, in fact their constant bias completely invalidate any credibility for media people, and there are many examples how you completely perverted facts to work with governments and lobbyists from rich corporations, like war on drugs and mass vaccination, and I'm not talking about the fucking publicity! And then you'll talk neutrality? Fuck you! In fact neutrality is bullshit, like being neutral is bullshit for governments, it's judgment your job, you are as powerful as governments and so you'll have to choose an ideal and work toward it, which you're doing, hypocritically, for evil, because it's too well represented, always the deep intent, which usually takes visible form as a fat bank account...I'm talking general TV, not specialized niches, btw. Why don't you focus on bad sex attitudes? You successfully demonized pot after all, why don't you say there is far too much spending on that malady? That it got an impossibly unfair and ruining quantity of means while other sickness got almost no funds? Why don't you say that the greatest help is achieved with a good attitude in sex? Did you ever let someone emit the doubt that maybe you are developing a wrong view of love? Or maybe if true love would have worked as something good for people (in reality, always think genetic, we're not supposed to live unhappy lives generations after generations, and if people in love fare no better than the rest, then love doesn't work versus the idea that we have of it, and I'm not talking about the life logical definition of the best scenario of reproduction and socialization for us) Because you're a rich manipulator with a self-esteem dependent from the certitude that your mental package justifies your hidden side? And sorry for you if it fits well in my vision of life, and I'll always defend it unless proven otherwise, the only HIV victims I'll ever help are good people who were unlucky to get it, I'll pay them all their needs, adequate medication, but I will never do it for people who fuck mindlessly; try to know the person a minimum if you want a minimum of my respect, and I don't hate you, I just don't care about you, I will use my selection power to help someone else, unless you try to spread your attitude, then I'll definitively want to take care of you, but I'll be happier if HIV spares me the time in prison...

So yes HIV is my friend, and I hope there is more to come, and it's not me that decides so to hell with collateral and susceptibilities and defenders of ego liberties that don't care to scrap everything good. And if good people are too peaceful, tolerating, accepting and "loving" to help life, then they'll be in the collateral too, neutral people are always useful as buffers.3/4

Another problem is that if people stop working or lose their job they fall back to almost nothing, automatically affecting true love. When the rich get too rich from people working like crazy to enrich them, the system stall and people lose jobs and homes and then they are seen as lazy while the rich lose nothing to their standard of living. Now, if you don't have a job you must bum the "best" system which won't want to feed inferiors profiteers like you, or barely, in the name of survival since it's the less expensive way, but you'll feel bad for it, don't worry. So, if you got a family and some indebting, you're in trouble and everything becomes a paranoia about money. It forces division and encourages prostitution, just perfect for "some".

One of the facets of true love is the continual growth of people; you don't stay a young adult, if you do love won't last. It is very important as adults to have an opinion of the reality we live in if we want love to still work at adulthood, and that means we need a basis where we're not under pressure to see our responsibility in life as getting a job. Women who are ready to flush their man because he can't sustain the family have no minimal notion of true love; love is not dependent on having a job, that's ridiculous. If your couple or family is dependent from your job, then quit it, no true love there, only prostitution; love is not a contract, love is not a business. If the reality forces you to misery if you don't have a job, then your responsibility, particularly to future children, is to arrange things so the situation is repaired, not to sell yourself. Are you good or evil? Fight! If the reality makes things unbereable for your love relation, then find a way to fight it in the name of a better future for your children and in the name of love, whatever you die for it, whatever your child end-up alone. You fight evil or you lose good on the whole planet, you lose the potential to make a paradise out of it, you lose everything. You fight evil, even if evil people will tell you only their police have the right to do it; your mother, your home is this earth, defend it or disappear! And sorry if I'm hard with the police, you're just stuck in the system and only succeed at imprisoning a facet of evil with some rare top fishes successes, you work by the letter of the unfair system, and all these prisons you fill everywhere just fire criminals from a job to get the spot quickly filled by new ones, and I understand your situation, you can't truly start gunning without getting yourself in prison, so you grow a vast pile of crappy legal characters who have a tremendously negative effect on others, but what a clean-up it would be eh!

I like to think that there are valuable things people should be ready to fight to protect as a no profitability place; living sexuality is perfect for that. You're starting to know my opinion of those who make of their sexuality a business or a trading ground, but I understand that in the widespread and overwhelming, whatever the form, prostitution situation of this reality, most of them have been manipulated one way or the other to it, I have a hard time believing young girls dream of becoming prostitutes but it may come the way we're going, since the structure of the system encourages people to profit from innocence in all kind of ways. That's why I try to shoot the highest or biggest targets first and watch the repercussion to the lower pyramid (pyramid implosion), but my lack of "respect" extends to all who profit from the lack of means in others.

And those women who "love" prostitution, who are proud to be, who want it legalized, who want to make parades of the prostitute pride, I say you want to be exploited, you're masochist who "love" their pitiful situation, you're a whole with your other necessary part. So go ahead, show yourselves, make publicity, but you won't get no respect from me neither, I'll respect you when you'll stop defending your "profession", but you protect your evil clients, you "love" them enough to sacrifice love and humanity for them, so you can complaint all you want that you are treated badly or cheaply, you're just reaping what you're spreading, if you want out of your shit, then fight evil or rot in your fun and reap what you sow. And stop saying your beloved clients are the problem to discard your human responsibilities. And don't tell me you had a difficult youth, it is not a justification to perpetuate evil, to "love" it, sleep with it, have sex with it, cherish it, profit from it and systemize it, it is a justification to destroy it, end it, you are at your place, take it and shut–up or take your responsibilities if you're good. I just don't understand how a woman can be so stupidly low, what happened to you? You want to become a good to be traded on the commodity market? And what your fucking feminist friends doing? Dancing on lady Gaga's disco stick? And your manipulation groupings for the brainwash of innocent women to your ways make you an evident enemy of love, you destroy the most basic spark of love, you invalidate the possibility! Are you so ugly and hateful in your soul that you want to displace your frustration and ugliness to the whole world? Make it a profession learned at school and publicized on television? You're not far from that with all the pub on newspapers under 10 different façade names. Well, I almost forgot I was living in hell and one way or the other it will become accepted because there is tons of profit there that can be made more open, and the market grows in size with the diversity of fetishes, so let's encourage it! And it's a market under heavy pressures with so many vampires, gremlins, monsters and "gods" developing "divergences" around...

Since everybody is responsible enough to do its job, prostitute's job include putting pressure on people to have sex, and they'll happily sell themselves worse than objects on display if they have the opportunity, and they'd like very much to be totally nude at it. The internet is good for them, it is full over the top with sex people trying to spread their view, while they strictly have no consciousness except for themselves at a tremendous negative effect on others and love, but what can I do to stop their show-off when women are so beautiful and sexy that I can't stop the erection? Imagining your life and your mind works, I use the greatest of skills, judgment, in the best fashion, through consciousness and by trying to imagine, and I end up totally disgusted when I look at the image that simply doesn't fit, the ugliest things are often hidden behind the prettiest of facades, like priests, and that is when the image doesn't make me laugh before any attempt to imagine...

Again, it's the visibility and interplay of hypocrite pressures that complexities everything (hell is in the little characters, hidden intents, deception) that mainly pisses me off, and their negative effect affect everybody; I'd personally like to have a massage once in my life, but I'll never ever set the foot in a massage institute whatever the name, for the single reason that those have become synonym of prostitution, and apart from fear of diseases, I'll never want to take even the risk of giving them my selection making money. Escort houses are more glamour prostitution, and sauna houses are more like low level perv places. All these places are full of prostitutes and perverts (look at synonyms), but don't worry, they're clean and good people, it's just that my experience in hell taught me to never trust its adult participant, they fail good at their level of psychological integrity, love was the easy way out people, those who twisted the logical definition of it and used it as a tool to encourage unfairness will be severely punished, somewhere, someday, a I'll be there, to add my weight...

As a mentally healthy and strong man (I'm the psy of myself so fuck-off), I never even thought of paying for sex so what is my problem? I am a problem because it's not imprinted in my mentality? Soon we'll have robots for that, a perfect job for some scientists who "love" so much playing gods, controlling and having just enough money...So do as we say, then you can go get your orgasm, here, I've got a robot with a full button high tech dildo and selectable attitude or personality, it looks so human you will not believe it, and next you can seek orgies or super sexual experience and performance and wake up in "love"!

Anybody in the sex business competition is totally oblivious to the negative effect they have all around them. You think we need all that crap to have sex shops full of weird or interesting stuff and the same for porn? Not at all, there is a best place and way for everything. Yet, I don't like to put the fault on the result of those who create the selection by distributing the means to their preferences, or those who make the laws and want people who can be easily manipulated, and deluxe prostitution...They have been given advantages and you don't ask profiteers to let go an advantage, they'll protect it instead (giving legality under an illegal façade to criminal activities is giving advantages and making PMBBD). They're everywhere under all kind of names, massages institutes full of them, saunas, bars, escorts houses, etc. Prostitution is legal and encouraged, even glorified, it's the oldest trade of the world after all, like it justifies something, some even emanate weird pride so much the argument have been twisted, like it adds some glamour or something...and the next to get indirect publicity will be all those orgies houses and brothels burgeoning everywhere. Me I say that when "civilization" is dependent of prostitution in its vision of love, then it is too late; how can you stop this? No way, it's eternal and most politicians are happy and people don't care, tolerated, accepted, adapted, and interdependent, and the police is in. All is left is another reality where the situation is taken in consideration from the start.

Sex develops slowly in comfort and right mentality, true mental health, so jerk-off your pressure on yourself, we got examples at the tons of everything possible and we got imagination for the rest, you can relax your erection, humanity won't die out of it, but maybe near, since it is dependent from it and it works on chemicals, heavy visuals effects and full blown super pornographic encouragement. The erection is broken from long ago, old pop is invalid too, and some cancer on the love gland (their brains?) didn't help. And when the old ego god exploiter that didn't have the appropriate intelligence will die, "their" women will stand on the cadaver for some time, then dirty children will arise in wastes, hell on earth is successful. Wake up now woman, stop fucking with the devil, you fucked with him to his death, all you know now is how to manipulate and profit and cheat like him, and you'll finish off everything if you don't stand for the way of life. So if you have not been stripped of your mind, turn to something else or you'll be demonized forever by your condemned children, demons you'll become to your gremlins, or rule over hell woman raised from the death of the soul of life you helped destroy!

Lucky violence goes all wrong, in an explosive reality, full of susceptible people, with the end of the world itching their intelligence full of bullshit, but do go ahead, crush, kill and destroy with good intents, why should someone be against the idea? I can't imagine how I would have turned though, if at some point I hadn't decided to pass from changing reality that revolts me, to remaking a reality, work constructively on that aspect instead of ridicule violence, but me too I'm extremely frustrated, and I do explode too (which I always regret), so everything is super unstable and ready to explode. Everything it's super inappropriate, I don't know how to explain but I don't connect in the way I need, nothing is as it should, everything is wrong, and it's not a question of adjustments, it's a question of failure, this reality is a perversion, there is no place for my type here, no place for my mind, no place for my ideas, my ideals, my work, what I value, fuck you, too late, I should burn all this and go do my shit on another planet! I'm talking reality, I'm no different than most, after all I've been through I'm still here, if I write all this it's because I'm a person too, and if I can take this attitude in my situation then people can do it too, probably far better than me if I provided some missing comprehension, it's an attitude thing, and the reality become a reflection of how we think, our intents, that's why it got a pretty facade and so much ugly behind, manipulation, deception, exploitation, cheating, you wouldn't have it otherwise in hell, all is missing is the heat... But I still got to take a stroll in it to form my opinion, and I do it in invincible armor while carrying unavoidable armaments, once that's done I'll see about the new reality idea, maybe I'm completely crazy, that's what I'm doing with this book, verifying if I'm crazy and this reality really exists, because you have no idea the insult. But ok, I'm an earthling, I'm not in god's secrets, my certitudes are very thin, and I prefer peace, and evil doom itself in the most stupid ways, so I write, but I will not forget, and it changes nothing to my unexplainably disproportional revolt for this reality, and it's important because as I grow I'm supposed to discover people are my friends, but I discover I've been had from youth, I'm supposed to feel like the people I meet, I'm supposed to understand their frustration, but it's like we're all enemies here, and it's reflected in my interpersonal relations, people piss me off so much, it's me? I had everything to become the most sociable person why is it that the older I get, the more I comprehend things, the more I'm revolted, as I fight in the opposite direction by writing respectfully, while I long to just grab a sword and go for simpler expressions, and death. It's a shame I must always priorities peaceful options, good write serious books while evil fucks everything while laughing, they write their visions, while evil will twist everything because it is not represented as the most powerful force, so if people want to fight a little over it, it's ok, just win and be careful not to kill everything, we still need a healthy life and a fully functioning high tech system, concentrate setbacks from violence on crap attitudes.... At least I should thank the leaders of this reality for removing this responsibility from me by taking the monopoly of it, because my war would be quite different than anything that ever existed, not a country war, not a civil war, not a racial or language war, a war to attitudes, for truth. It almost makes sense, the last war to ever exist, a war that will be remembered for eternity, and you won't need a remembrance day every years to boast military people while condemning a flower for an association, no, the flower association will be one of life...Luckily too, I've got plenty of stuff to learn and surprises to discover by solidifying or settling or understanding what my mind throws at me by writing about it, instead of just taking the throne in bullshit competition, the richness, as a due, a finality, then develop all kind of shitty attitudes and systems to keep my family (gang) there...I wouldn't underestimate the possibility that the throne is another trap to catch inappropriate people for god in this reality btw, get them out the way, because you got to be of inappropriate judgment to consider it's a good way for life. It's just to mention that I expose who I am as I write my visions and opinions, my level of understanding, to what extent I can go in the magic domain of thinking, as I should, because that's the way in the perfection of everything, and I know that the way things work at this level of existence is that there is no political system of leadership that can be good for life here. Again it's part of the educational system at this step of existence I could say, it makes my job so fake sometimes, and I'm not even sure what to do here, because you got to stand for life, but whatever you do it's always on the verge of total catastrophe, we'll do it ourselves if necessary, there are plenty of examples, and because life as a sense like sniffing around to know its environment and find treasure (learn stuff, gain information, better survive), so let's make hell for troubles... But what would I learn from a good vision that fails because it is meant to fail eh? That just doesn't work man, luckily "room for improvement" is a required concept for perfection, but it's a shame there is not really a complaint system that goes direct to the UI, bypassing god and all steps of existence (don't define, you don't know, you don't even know if there is a first step you know, it's just me, advancing toward the UI which I don't know, which I sense and deduct as an intelligent sense of life), or maybe my life is the message, the trigger...

If people can't control themselves except for their job, then they are meant to be controlled and forget it, you're not worth existence, no love, no complementarity, and you're lucky to still be alive. That applies to women, I absolutely don't believe most women are like that as I already explained quite the contrary, but I may be completely blind and stupid so I'll add this part so you don't get away with it since I know there are some who fit this description. If you got a sexuality that grow frustration as soon as notions of control are applied, then reap my hate since whatever the fights to make a world in sense, it would have been a failure from the beginning and because in this reality, it is rarely the best that win the competition. If that's the case, then you'll reap men's jealousy forever, and it is in your hands that this world will end, man would have just been a transition, a tool to make a world for you to have ant fun selecting your slaves.

If that's what women do, then men will have to control them to the end of humanity because they'll never be the right examples to grow young people, no judgment, no love principles will ever hold, the same for family principles wathever you think you're a good mother yen, it will forever be a struggle of competition, jealousy and hate, you'll continually take the means to destroy love in sex frustrations while babbling intellectual libertine superiority with homosexuals if necessary, the version of man your judgment will see as the best, the rest will be those dicks you "love" so much.

I'm slipping, but be careful not being the cause of your problem with men, and you can try to make them evil all you want, aren't they the one hiding their dicks while you are the one with the butt and tits in the air nagging? I won't make another reality with your butt dancing in my face, game over from the beginning. If men have nothing to do with your problems, then they are collateral in your out of control sexuality and someday you'll have to replace us with plastic, when you'll have broken your beloved dick trying so much to get fucked, while the selected out can go to prison for trying to reach your butt.

If most women can't live love, then they're worth such ugly theories, they're reaping what they're sowing. If a couple is a challenge to you, if it's too hard because you're always frustrated, if you're a saint that do everything possible to make man evil, then you won't find answers in this book because with men's different timings in their emphasizes of developments, you'll just grow hate, envy and competition, and there will be no solution to this incomprehensible failure of a displaced at all sauce mess no explanation can fit, there will always be a contrary wrong vision as valid and both will compete with different psy understanding of life, humanity will be lost in the sex and psychological-spiritual mess.

I could have skipped that last part but I fight for love so I'll explore all possibilities that may work against it. But I won't play anymore in that because it is worthless. People must control their sexuality by themselves or forget it; if people can't love, if they're just after sex, money and power and luxury, then we are not a high consciousness specie, we won't escape dust to dust, no other stars for us, we can be slaves to a superior specie at best but they wouldn't need us for that. The same for the cost of competing and hating each other.

For now there are all kind of crappy attitude that can start troubles, like giving troubles to those we're supposed to love, or when boasting for competition, because this childish attitude is the troubles start, it start there, in the cavern, don't look somewhere else, humanity's attitudes start at sex, it's the absolute most important thing of humanity. Sex competition is one of the most direct causes of this mess, but there's nothing worse than the matriarch-patriarch society philosophy, this attitude of who controls things works against the most basic concept about love, and people are not a ground for the most stupid sex visions because they can fit and it sound cool, and you can PMBBD them to it, I prefer loving couples and beautiful things, full of signification yes, but at their right place. Be careful with all these weird sex attitudes, shaking butts around for the goal of provocation, or the biggest dick competition, pedophilia, hypocrisy, lies, pressure to gain adepts of any sexual insanity, all these things and far more are the source of heavy problems when many people are in it or encourage it or laugh about it or ignore, accept, tolerate...Religions exist because of such attitudes, because some people have no respect for others, or sex or life and no notion of love.

Now, since you have the liberty to overwhelm the world with hardcore videos of your sexual activities, since you got the liberty to stuff the youth with it while the serpent say it is against it because it put a stupid message asking if you are over 18 before access (while clicking NO shoots a video of sodomy...), and since the selection is used to it, happy about it, and even participate in it, then I guess it is too late. But never put me in power, because even if I know it too late for this reality, I'd still manage to severely reduce its momentum, we have a million tons of it anyway, the internet is full. I'd make minimum laws to equilibrate liberties; you want to be free to spread porno videos of yourself to the public? Then you'll lose all law protection from the system, you are free to spread pornography, but if something bad happens to you the system don't care, people will have the liberty to do what they want with you, it's just a liberty I'll add to yours, no money will be spent for an investigation on whatever bad happens to someone that took the liberty to have sex in front of masses; you want to be free to make this world in your image? You are free now. And I should add that I have nothing against pornography when it is not a pressure I have to work against to remove, or when it doesn't affects the liberties of others or get available to young people, but this reality fails on all points, but if I was evil and wanted to try for show, that's what I would do, I mean shoot videos of sodomy when you use your judgment as a good young man to say the truth about your age, particularly concerning sex.

And don't think I'm a sick crazy that's at risk of killing women, for whatever reason. I do have a temper, and while I don't hit people I still hate to get angry, it's so much an opportunity to destroy, just fucking destroy, even if it doesn't exist, destroy! And the line is fine between keeping control and losing it, particularly when you have to construct yourself to protect your soul, everything is more intense to me; don't piss off a mother birthing a baby is what I say, consider yourself lucky to still be alive, maybe not, you're permanently on her bad side now...Did that sound killer? Seriously, getting angry has become a rarity as I grow older, and it's not because I fucked, some sex therapist will say, it's just that I always regret my incompetence, it's so fucking hard to be angry competent! It's just unrealistic and dangerous to gain competence there, in the way I value my person or what I do; it's the extreme rips as I walk the middle line, all my nerves strung to their limit...I don't have the monopoly of love, and sex can be a justification for leaving me, what I'm against is fuck all libertine sexual competition and banalization attitudes. And you got to remember that everything is more important for someone that envision the possibility of a new reality, I must care 100 times as much as you about the importance of shit, and that's for someone that got an exaggerated life sensibility, I care about things, so I like to live in a reality of people who care too.

Just give me a sane reason and off you go, and don't think I should fight or compete, I'm way beyond that, we're supposed to know each other, I sure won't start to beg, but you could do it in a relax moment, because while anger may be a tool to quit someone, in my experience, using it to leave someone you loved leaves you carrying a bad feeling for the rest of your life... My woman can tell me she does not like something in me anymore that has become too important to her, and from the status of her decision and my psychological state, she can go further so I see what I can do realistically. But any reason will do, sex, or the evolution of my character or my smell or because she was mistaken, or I changed too much, or I did a stupidity, I just won't play the game of how I'll become the ideal you're seeking now, I won't manipulate to worsen things, and who am I? And who are you? You don't need more than that, I'm sorry it didn't work and that's it. And if children are in it, you have priority of judgment because you are the maker and carrier, and I'll do what I can to help, if things are minimally fair. And if you make me evil, like so many women like to do, then I'm out until they're independent, you tell them I'm bad? Then why should a bad person get near your children? And whatever my judgment tells me those children would be better with me, I surely won't start raising hell in ego reality; I'm not a competition maniac, I'll never put children on the competition line. But if you are incompetent with them don't come to me, you rejected me as not good enough, you scrapped my reputation, then repair what you did or forget it. Particularly once they're past 10, get away, my care didn't affect them when it was necessary, I'll see them as system children, they lost my association, no daddy helping, no grandpa telling stories (not that I'd have much stories to tell).

And they are not necessarily worse than what I could have done in love, but I could replace them with any other one giving me as much troubles, and I have preferences for a start in life, even if anybody willing strong enough and taking the right attitude could surprise me in human behavior. What I call system children is not necessarily a negative thing either, but I like to give more chances to attitudes I like to develop is the way to see it. I don't want them struggling 10 years for a chance to find a path of life that make sense, and not in a dictatorship sense, I want them to explore life themselves. Still, my way includes adolescence under my grip, so no butt provocation or they'll reap one long speech on evil and hell and liberty and all, and if she thinks she's bigger adult than me, then the door will lock behind her, and only by a change in attitude will it open again. However, that doesn't mean I don't want her to dress pretty or even somewhat sexy, but one thing for sure, no ado will pass over my judgment, unless I'm not an example. If I don't stand for what I preach then let me reap equivalence and I hope I'll have the decency to say it so I don't send them in a path I can't follow myself as an adult.

If my ado is under so much PMBBD influences from TV or internet to dump my judgment, then the best I can do is close the door, and you can cry to come back, and repeat or persist, but you'll eventually be out of my life if you don't respect me, I explained my view, I gave you chances, I decide if you show your butt as an adult understanding things better than you whatever your ado hormones are supposed to think about it. You don't want your parents to do their job? You think your judgment is better than mine? Then get away from my sight. One of the job of parenthood is to permit a good civilization to exist, I care for my children, I care for what they become in life, and if I have to fight for them all my life, I'll do it if they show a will to act good, you can insult me, I'll insult you, but past a certain point you won't set foot again in my home if you don't respect me and the job I have to do. As for sex, it is the most fundamental thing to me, the thing that decides in most instances, it is where everything is played, so I would be quite incompetent to ignore my kid's attitude about it.

I know it is your choice to see sex as something banal or party or show-off, disassociate human value from it, yes, you do what you want, but it is my choice to see you differently than the good person you seems to think you are, particularly if i can explain myself, and the result of jumping on any cute dick or twat because of social pressure makes it so that evolution stagnates at the place where you act like a mentally retarded ape. Me I decided to care for sex as I care for love, and I act so, and I'm persuaded that any sane female could have had a lifetime of enjoyable sex with me.

If you don't care about sex, if you don't know the name of the people with whom you supposedly gained your exemplary experience, then I'll try not to care about you when I can. So stop fucking with anybody, for a chance at my benediction evidently, or gain the intelligence to discern too limited minds and gain the ability not to fall for looks only, or innocence or their random spike of creativity or whatever illusion! Have the strength because you guarantee my advance, and where I stop is when I conflict another principle, which are well defined for me and go deep, we're talking walls here, not your flimsy bullshit. Want a principle? What you do that doesn't affect life negatively is not my concern, and I'll even defend anybody on that matter (yes running nude does affect other people negatively, unless you do it alone or with people who like it...) I will use any tool I want to keep clear of interacting with mediocre people, particularly sexually, I even sometimes regret not being a virgin, but I loved for real, so whatever...(reminder, there are lovely people), it's a shame, there is always a feeling in that box, but I close it rapidly...

I have to save the freaking world! Which doesn't care, or am I the missing drop, thing? But seriously, why should I do something about it? And my advantages, wow, where did that shriek come from, my soul? I had emotional confusion there, I just wanted to say something sarcastic but something else almost knocked tears out of me when I realized I didn't even consider how I could appreciate living, and just imagined some celestial buffet, it's too late I guess, I consider that being happy is a sure fail for me in this reality, I can't be satisfied in my vision of existence, I'm really frustrated and pissed over here... But I'm not important some manipulator will say, the world will continue if I die... We could say that about all the exceptional people who existed, would the world be the same? No, so it is bullshit, there are people who are critical, who change things or the perspective on things civilization wide. Still, why should I sacrifice my life, my good, my heart, my love, to develop as the necessary person just to express my revolt? Because I must, that's all, even if it is not a rewarding quest, except mentally, and too much of a responsibility, as life I owe it to life, as I regret my wrong judgments and weaknesses with this great mind and body, even if I stretch and damage them excessively.

This is forced hate, this whole world is waiting in entertainment, someone, something, and that can only be a human. It's like the selection unconsciously think they'll do nothing if nobody do something, the equilibrated or better human is forced to start because he understands that if he doesn't use his capacities nobody will do something, profiteers and manipulators will condemn things more, and things will degenerate still more. You fucked things up so much waiting for a savior or a divinity that you made it so you are impossible to save by not taking your human responsibilities versus life, becoming adequate of judgment, thank to your religions, and fuck you, I just want to bring good creativity like everybody else, I never wanted to battle like that as a life goal, maybe I wanted to fight evil at some understanding point, but what I really wanted was to create good things for people to appreciate me, I just very quickly came to the conclusion that everything I'd want to do would take inappropriate form in this reality, so it became more important that I use my powers to understand this mess that call itself a civilization, comprehending wtf is wrong and create the environment where my mind can be free (of profiteers and cheaters among many things) so I can do what I like to do in peace and love.

Evidently, everything had to fit into place, I couldn't become a TV expert of everything, read every serious books; with understanding I had to develop an independent mind to have the imagination to see things differently. All the rest became secondary, even money and love become insignificant when you take on things like that. No time for tenderness, the end is coming, I can do something, and, if I'm to die because of the incompetence of this selection, I'll do it gunning at this hell, and if you think I'm terrible, or violent or revolted, you're not out of your surprises, I'm capable of raising these things to inexperienced levels in human history, reality oblige, and there won't be cheap racism in it.

Racism wars are cheap and worsens things since the end result is never fair in this reality, they are done by failed leadership on a power-trip. You're supposed to do attitude wars, they are glorious battles that reward the mind, after the pain, but they are the most fantastic as the enemy is everywhere there are people, people you can relate to, and it can easily make one shameful, shameful of the battle, and shameful of letting thing reach that shameful point. While everybody do it with some intensity, consciously or not, independently or not, but it is understandable nobody dares the style in an open way, it would be too ugly and painful for this reality, particularly if the mother of all wrong attitudes is comfortably at the top, and everything has been twisted and enlarged to defend it, with all the means including the violence monopoly, is there something worse than asking for your arms, as the only weapon in the fight, to punch your own face, as the only enemy? Yes I guess, tell your arm to kill the brain controlling the gun because it won't let go what it developed itself to run after, generations after generations, in the competition. Yeah, and you'd have to do it decisively for some efficiency, involving all facets of society for a concentrated effort. Nobody will ever want to do it and surely not me, but if I don't explore the situation, as the only person I know that think good and evil like me, the ugly possibilities, then I leave the job to inappropriate people, I even give the advantage to evil to develop insidious plans of development to corrupt everything, and on top of that I'll be surprised when all hell break lose instead of being prepared. Then there's the intent too, if your intents don't harmonize with life then you'll eventually grow problems, so people doing things on a facet for personal gain will probably worsen things. And also at some point, before you let evil reign comfortably to critical failure, giving it everything, including your soul, you have to think of destroying it for survival? Pffff, you sold my survival to remain a fucking stupid!

So I'll continue justifying each time I'll slap in a new magazine, my blood spills with yours, and that means we are no different, that in truth I don't really hate you sexmaniac, I could easily be in your place, sorry for both of us. The difference is something I'm inventing with my life, which I believe is the way to go, and I take it at heart because it is based on non-conflicting probabilities. But you believe in other things contrary to me and that's where we divide, you have the liberty to spread your view and I don't, you don't make sense to me and I have to find something on which to base my judgment; who is right?

There is only one best way whatever some twisted spirituality will try to prove the contrary, and so I look at attitudes and their relations to reality, find important human goals, like survival, and see where these attitudes lead toward them. What I believe leads to less survival potential, or unfairness or less good judgment, or bad mind developments, or attacks on important civilization building blocks like love, or PMBBD on masses etc, I see that as evil, proportional to people affected. Attitudes and actions I see as leading to added human or life value I value greatly. It's not a precise thing I do evidently, I don't imagine balances and good and evil weights and measures, it's a matter of speaking of what direct my general attitude with people, it may not work, but I walk like it should, because I'm the first test.

To do that I try to find arguments, I have to understand things, I'm not born with your recipe, I'm born a killer, liar and thief, my rights to survive, I had to comprehend life to change attitude, the good way, frank explanations, why exactly; I don't say I hate blacks, I say I hate an attitude for this or that reason, and when I feel interrelations everywhere in my judgment, I battle more virulently. If someday I decide fuck all free for all multicultural sex banalization orgy is bad and my enemy, I'll cumulate enough worthy arguments against its adepts, then my language will degenerate, far-fetched arguments may appear, and those can be used to discredit my battle. But too bad, I'll spit any ugly stuff I can at my enemies, I want to break their moral, I want them to disappear, to stop contributing to the evils of this world, stop limiting my options or liberties.

The visual principle is simple; if you weight too heavy on the evil side, you become low enough to be an easy target and I'll shovel all the crap you put on my side back on your head. I want you to get so overwhelmed from the shit I'll throw on you that you'll debark, suicide or die choking. But the balance is not an infinite process evil would want to make us believe in to make the effort worthless, like saying you shall not judge people, or don't throw the first rock unless you're a saint. The limitations are resources, human and space potential, someday the balance stays in one side and that's it forever, whatever the war; it stays stuck. And this is coming fast is what I believe, how will we reverse this momentum while billions people were made to encourage the continuation of it? It's a shame the fight in people is going away, exploited, canalized, cheated, manipulated in awe, I feel like a whole slab of humanity is missing, the best, and we'll (you'll) reap the worst for that! Let's say if life fails. Best, worst, size of perspective, as I am human with an ego, I'll take justifications to defend the stuff I'm made of, with my responsibilities toward life, but don't worry you won't bring me with you, I'll live the sorrow of watching you become a skeleton, then I'll run away, but I'll remember, through these eyes I'll know, that in fact I proved, that I had nothing to do with you, to fight the irrepressible pain to my soul, and nostalgia, and my teeth will clench at the corruption behind the beautiful all around this lonely person, that dream of the sky and escape, instead of embracing the earth.

What revolts me more is that there should have been thousands of books like mine, I don't have magic powers, so what happens? Writers don't fight in an appropriate way? They have a wrong view of competence, their professionalism and reputation among the spheres is an handicap? Media people don't publicize what's important adequately, wrong priorities? I'm the first and only then, or is it that people with the means control writing, and still do, so they hide or destroy the work they fear, no publicity for sure, but a book on spiritual twisting meant to profit from people will get publicized 10 times the world over, particularly if it contains the "L" word 200,000 times, it's free distribution, free like the sun... When you can love anybody you're in hell among clones, and they try to "love" the same thing, they compete each others on who will gain the most love for things, on their facebook. Love power is worse than wasted when you can love anything or anybody, it is made evil. And don't justify, I'm not done; you want to protect your little hell and laugh because I can do nothing about it? Put the hate on me while I defend life, good, love, the mind, even humanity?

There are no people born evil, no bad seed, they start neutral and become evil from the ways of reality; what we made with our understanding and consciousness, our intents, which include parenthood attitudes that developed from the reality too. Unloving or not caring or libertine parenthood can create 10 years old evil people; you learn a lot of stuff within 10 years. So you can bet I'd be watching how they develop their attitude about sex, it is my responsibility, if not there is no love and no need for loving parenthood; everything stand on this, the kind of parenthood that produce porn "stars" and all the crappy characters of this hell is exactly the parenthood that got inadequate judgment, that is not exemplary and the highest probability is that it will affect their sexuality, which will perpetuate and displace etc. And its gone far enough that the main emphasis of talent developing for the prettiest girls is becoming butt shaking, interesting, but not the ideal for love, or making a better world, find yourself a stupid job or shake your butt in underwear in front of people woman! Or do the pretty.

I don't like this tendency to monopolize the best developing girls as future pornographic or erotic talent, but it's normal, got to satisfy the most critical dependence of this reality; stop pornography, particularly youth pornography with adults, and all kind of troubles will start, you want a proof? Go ahead, I tell you it's a reality condemnation; stability is dependent from it. These condemnation I talk about all somewhat do the same thing as an end result from something that is free, then systemized or twisted for profits in a way that will eventually lead you to massive death or severe setbacks, even if it could be otherwise, they are the result of human decisions, the ultimate part of life, if life doesn't go through it with us I don't know what it can do.

It's strange how I often think I'm exaggerating only to understand that it's probably worse than I think, all what I write s just a very small fraction of the evil behind in hell, the deception past the pretty, often used to manipulate, since evil got to look good. I still got to be careful not to push people to hysteria or revolt, but I assume that we're a reality of cheaters and profiteers, and I'm not exaggerating, because fear it will be far worse when I'll look at the truth of history, to what extent innocence have been profited from, including the tools to form it, censorship, disinformation, patent protections, market limitations, and details omissions. Don't worry, there are worse extrapolations, I wouldn't dare imagine the troubles if we created a selection of unconscious pedophiles that will forever grow in reality because it's been made intrinsic to the way it works...

It's not the same! I don't care, people who profit from innocence, except in a fun or educational way (like among kids, always make the difference between the interpersonal relations level of effects and the massive one, and that applies to good and evil, the place of evil that can be compensated is the personal or familial level, you taste and experience evil there, the less possible, because isn't it why it's there? So a slab of the population that work well this way can experience reality in a more independent as well as social way. Or if you prefer, it's like you talking at home versus the way newsmen talk, down to earth local efficiency versus global ideal efficiency. If fun exist you got to consider that trying to manipulate or trying to gain advantageous deals are necessary human attributes too, sex too, you don't eliminate evil tools, you gain experience using them, with evil I suppose... And where do you take this ability to experience it? And don't forget it's possible to mix yourself a soup of justifications with survival...

So you see, that's one of the difference between copying and understanding, the reasons, the justifications, where they keep integrity deeper, understanding reproduce the good stuff while copying reproduces the bad stuff. I'm personally not much different in my human interactions than most, I regret things I say, I can be super competitive, I lie now and then, I can steal too, shout insults to people, let's go, but the evil is minimized because my intents are proven by the integrity of what I understand. Anyway, there's a whole chemistry to human interactions, an ideal if you prefer, and it works by itself if the mass level is free of evil, and never underestimate thinking alien, this is one of the fundamental drive of life, going higher, trying to reach the stars, discovering what's behind stuff, can't be alone, so never ignore the importance of alien intelligence, and you got to be prepared to deal with the worst you can imagine, which is probably not a nuclear missile pointed at your face, but devious hypocrite machinations going on behind the scene where they end-up governing indirectly by offering bullshit advantages, and you are better be extremely, supremely competent at fighting evil in all its twisted forms and machinations, put your mind to it, because anybody that can be cheated easily won't make it, and it's on this basis that you must select, not the contrary that is this reality (I'm not talking into account the forced learning strategy of living all the frustrations of hell, if you want more than one person to pass super rarely, by accident probably...); the ability to fight manipulators and cheaters, because if you can't you eventually, one way or the other, directly or indirectly, consciously or unconsciously, end-up in the service of evil. The other thing is, supposing assholes ET debark with their ugly ego ideology and hive mentality, with big god ordering the functioning, wouldn't you want to impress them with something totally out of their reach?

But I was saying that profiting from innocence, or ignorance, can be seen as a form of pedophilia, and this reality does it in an incredibly complex way by all kind of hypocrite interrelations, it's not for nothing that most people barely have adult level of judgment well past 35 years. All the while the monstrously big market for youth pornography continue its growth, whatever they'll say they're 2% stable... So why don't you truly eliminate youth pornography? Are you really a civilization of pedophiles? It is not because it's is impossible to eliminate, it is because it is a gigantic market in hell, excellent for a reality that see things as a matter of profiting, and what is the best ground for profiting? Innocence, ignorance. Those are easier to stuff with PMBBD, hype, and all kind of excellent principles they don't understand yet, but twisted by evil people for exactly that, manipulate and profit from the disinformation they create to enforce innocence through conflict, and love is the perfect example of that.

This battle for true love and good have begun long ago, it's just that evil cheated everything right at the beginning, so much that it completely destroyed good, so evil ran alone, made itself a final system, and it will die there, and then meet their historical hierarchy of cheaters who are paying their price, and piss in your pants. Evidently you start the battle where most troubles start, sexuality, expanding a vision that make of it a competition that better serve manipulators and cheaters, a profit thing, until you're so twisted that your ridiculous infinite growth vision is doubled by a dependence to problem generation as a way to get the economy turning faster and divert people's attention from systemized unfairness, until parenthood is a love failure all over the place but still believe great versus the lot of problems.

And women who think their gender is better should close their mouth, love includes you, that produces hell's gremlins on full pride, that endorses this reality fully, many think they don't need a man for successful parenthood, many play with innocence like it's their toy, more think they're "giving" birth to a friend that will always be there, all kind of things like that. If that's how you see giving birth, then you aint got respect for life whatever you spit that man is the evil one that don't understand life.

If you think you're a saint that can't be blasted, if you think you have the liberty to do what you want, if you think you possess the secret of life in your superiority, that you got a business to finish with men, that you can raise children alone, that men don't understand you, that you're in god's secret; then take the heat. Your secret is that there is none, a load of bullshit; there is no good secret if nobody is capable of talking about it, so stop this. And when it's not the secret it's the women power thing, like the power of women lies in their ability to either work until crackdown or manipulate men with sexuality, women are almost untouchable in my corner, I mean literally, and they want immunity like gods, the same mentality all over. There are rights that everybody should have, and if I can't touch a woman on the shoulder without getting to court, then I want the exact same for women; you won't touch me anymore! And you just had to find another target than me to emphasis your bitching stupidities! And I tell you to be very careful of the attitudes you take and encourage, the reality may have made some of you evil, but the reality is made by human attitudes, yours included, never forget that.
Many women are sexist as a counterbalance of seeing sexism everywhere, almost a paranoia, they're very strong on the superiority thing too. But many men lack the middle line of class or worst, and in the past they were probably controlling everything with their strength, but still, women were around and in some way they maintained decency, so they were running on other aspects of things, and gained pride, so men lost their sexism fights one way or the other, or they made it an important pride and honor thing among guys, because they know instinctively that the one that got it more instinctively is the woman, but men have advantages and genetic potential that could be destroyed by a history women leadership...So everything is perfect.

And you got to think of such possibilities as a phase effect on certain aspects too, both sexes giving their worst in superiority competition, among themselves and between sexes, phased hate and jealousy until irreversible hell is created, done through all kind of levels, couples, family, gang and country, all within different phases of it until the ultimate planetary form. As to what sex start it, it is both, it is superiority attitudes that start it, unfairness, cheating, woman or man can start it by any insignificant action and the phasing unconsciously grow until it take whole country leadership form and last thousands of years. If man strength rule as a systemized unfair, a counter pressure view will eventually happens, as much unfair, involving women, on a displaced aspect, and the problem grows in time and proportions, a king will rule, then a monarch, every country its twisted form, until you drop the competition for love, which requires a new reality...

Maybe I'm overstretching my insight modifier here, but the logic is that women will win such a god competition, because they reproduce and can transmit morphing to offspring through thousands of years, and feelings do transmit, but then everything will crap out genetically speaking, and you'll end-up so low it will be hive reality without hope, because in the end it is the harsher or more ego women that will win in an ego ideology, probably just after the perfectly Democratic system women gain power all over the place. And we are at that point, men have done their shift, women are coming to end things, even if men do no better, hell is hell. That's kind of a "on the spot" personal theory but I wouldn't be surprised to learn that while we think ourselves very evolved of which I never end proving the contrary, we are dwelling in the worst possible hell of sexism that don't make sense raised at a planetary scale, and I'm scared of the present attitude of many women, and you wouldn't ask women to stop their evil colleagues, good men will have to grow an evil and violent reputation by taking the responsibility. It was half a joke but it feels like not, but yeah, maybe I'm a little bit too much scared for nothing, or for a lot of things.

As for the pile of problems I have exposed, it's not an evil man or woman thing, together they're perfect in a fair situation, even if there is always some level of frustration, the problem is the reality, the attitudes some gain from living in it (like a savage nature), the aspects it prioritize which better serve one sex or the other where it should not, the ego-gods ideology, superiority, liberty PMBBD, competition, religions, unfairness...Nobody is born evil, the reality make evil people, right down to genetics if you persist.

For now know that for the few I had sex with, I found love in their spirit, maybe except the big city one. Presently most of its power is lost very fast because of the banalization of sexuality pushed by media people, like we've become a bunch of perverts that await every newborn to see and influence how they'll emancipate sexually, just waiting for their ass to start flashing "Open for exploration".

And giving birth absolutely don't make you a good life "giver", it is what you do with the baby in the next 18 years that will prove if the baby was not better raised by a robot with an algorithm of fun and affection. And that doesn't remove the fact that you are the bearer and maker, you got some time to show you are an example that is striving for humanity and life advancement, think about it before doing the flabbergasted as you give birth, that baby is a decision, not an easy one, your responsibility starts there, it doesn't end there, you've got a long road ahead, if you can't think about that, and only do babies out of a life "giving" argument for self-importance, or because you prefer innocence, then please don't do it.

I could extend some thinking on this vision by saying that women have the ultimate power of morphing humans in function of the thinking of man, with a million exceptions...Not his desires, but what she desire in her head (often filled with bullshit in ego reality, I shouldn't fail to mention...), versus reality; we come to optimize repetitive necessities as reflexes, and the process is done all the way from a man's desires (like thinking into how to relax more and do things more efficiently, and try to have fun, etc. women too, adds her desires and priorities...), his success at doing it in reality, or the deepness of the non-conflicting state of the belief versus reality and all other already existing belief or data in the whole brain (conscious, unconscious, whatever the vision). Evolution under this form happens with the repeated success of the whole process all the way to reproduction (it can very rarely succeed in this reality, which is why we evolve so slowly, even if the reality we build seems to change fast, it's just building stuff that's fast, in our minds we are superficial, and in the situation we are we may never again witness human evolution). I know all that doesn't mean much to most people, but to me harmony of thinking is one of the biggest drive of evolution. But don't bullshit yourself into thinking you have it because of a few interrelations, it's life systems you're dealing with here, you got to go back to what's in a whale's brain, not yours, a whale's brain, logic, flow, you must be able to deal with new factual data in a way as to fit it logically within your mental construction, never reject data that has a possibility to be true, once you have knowledge of that data you may think you can ignore it all you want, that you forgot about it, but it will always be there and it will reinforce or conflict all kind of things, some of which can become a genetic facilitator. And the greater the language in itself is non conflicting in meaning associations, the more successful the phenomenon, but it's still, in itself, insufficient to transform reality, everything must work together, that's harmony, disharmony will have a negative effect on language related evolution, but with lots of care you can still keep a good principle quite good. For the principle to thrive you need it to be in harmony with reality as much as possible (the same applies to evil principles, evil principles work best in hell...)

The whole humanity stands in the balance of our sexual attitudes, so that gun is my most powerful, it's got quite a sight, and the most satisfying bang too. And my sight can't do otherwise than being attracted to publicized shaking butts, publicity oblige, minimally; even if I'd prefer to shoot dicks, but those have more respect; I don't see them everywhere on magazine stands... Just don't think I'm fighting sex, I'm fighting attitudes concerning masses, those who try to get the whole humanity in their sex style. So I'm not against sex, I fear how much I could like it, and my worst horror would be to discover loving couples are ashamed of their sex ways, you respect the other the way the other can like it, embark others if you want, evil is when you manipulate or put pressure on them, or giving abnormal examples to innocence. Have it the way you want, I'm not in your bed for sure, but that's the ideal. The same for your place, what you do there is not my concern, I may be on women's underwear in my apartment and not a single person in this world have a word to say about it, I can be as bizarre as I want if it is not an open door to other people; am I a criminal or not? Then your judgment does not enter my personal place, which include my body, my mind, my apartment, my T.V. and my computer. Anybody trying to give me shit from stuff that's solely affecting me is evil, fuck you. And don't think I hide some big bomb; my place is the most un-stimulating boring place you can possibly believe someone could live in; whole white from floor to roof, I'd feel right at home in a psychiatric institute, is that saintly white enough for you? The only feature are red curtains and a few very old things I long to dump in a fire, my computer got a few games on it and that's it, as for my mind, you got this book and you have nothing to do in there, whatever you're a lie detector or a scientist. So don't bring your dog nose around my personal life, I you do, it probably mean you got far more things to hide than me, or things to prove...

As for those women who say they're poor victims of men's brutality, that everything is the fault of men, I'd be very careful challenging gods as to who is worse than the other, and not only on sex, women's brutality and harshness can be very hard to surpass, and I very well know what I'm talking about. Furthermore, most are not very strong on putting water in their wine, and when they take the ego track, they got this tendency to become far more costly and evil than men in the same situation. Next, they are surely no better on sexism than men, and they use their prettiness as a tool for profiting more than anything else, so shut your mouth before choking on your tongue turning it. Women are 50/50 responsible with men for this hell, both worked hand in hand, both sexes always did equivalent harm to each other, and don't think homosexuals are too intelligent to be out of it, everybody is very intelligent, me he too. Lucky there are many exceptional women frustrated in this hell, like me, far more than men probably, and I wish them an adequate reality someday, somewhere.

And nobody will tell me women did a perfect system in the past, I heard that one a few times and I say it's bullshit. You must have proof of that, so where are they? It is easy to invent an ant civilization, women "gods", then say the dictatorship was a perfect system but it's not true; no dictatorship will ever be a good system, it's an action state and any form will end badly as a permanent system. There are some media manipulators who will idealize a matriarch tribal village as an example, which is laughable to me. First I deal with civilizations, not villages. Second, I deal with civilizations taking the means to advance technologically, not stay stuck at an epoch. Third, a perfect system reaches other stars, it is not solely a sexist vision of living that would go to hell as soon as you add a bit of complexity to it. And finally, that village is dependent from tourism, both for money and to admire their "perfect" society, ok? Even the attitude of tourists plays an important role in preserving the retarded "system", if deferent tourists act like they suddenly found utopia, then they may condemn this village to stagnation since they'll fear change.

Then you got to ask yourself where your philosophical books are. Did you ever write one to describe your ideals? Because from what I see, if you think you'll make a better world running things, you're completely off track the way you're going, and the proof is in how you are acting in the current reality, so don't dream too much of sitting on god's throne, but you're lucky, me too I do off track, and the world is not getting better... No sex should have monopoly of the throne (deciding) anyway, and things have a place, not a throne. For now, what your mind doesn't acknowledge is the fantastic effort of men, as much as you, to make this reality, whatever I see hell and spit on the effort, and whatever I'd want to believe man is the culprit of all wrong because women attract me, that men are ego out of control doing a world for themselves, the truth may as well be that they did things with you in mind from the beginning, for you more than for themselves, or a mix of both for invincibility, the illusionned versus the disillusioned, and your present attitude makes me believe you're just waiting to take control of everything to play ants of destruction. We have to stop this competition mentality, we have to limit manipulators and profiteers, ego people in competition always start the troubles, and both sex got their slab of this retarded emphasis of intelligence.

Everything has a best place, I'm not at war against prostitutes and porn people, I don't say they have no right to exist, I say good and love have a right to exist as civilization goals as a priority, and I say that nobody, not a single person needs an orgy or a brothel, you hear that? Nobody! Only sick minds. And to turn the knife in the wound, I could say that the only competent fighter for love that existed, HIV, is failing because the whole scientifically sex brainwashed world made it the supreme enemy of humanity with heavy PMBBD publicity of poor families crying. I say it's our responsibility to select, we do it one way or the other, this planet is overloaded, we do it on a good basis now or the human race go back to almost nothing.

Life systems works action reaction, you unlock the form of your destruction by breaking life's perfection, and you have no idea the possibilities there, you may start a multi-step process, giving humanity a benign infection we won't notice, and when we'll become the appropriate kind of stupid it will unlock something with another thing, maybe even a consciousness thing, for a sudden mighty strike of death! I may be going too far but we got to stop this one way or the other as people, since the best system people will probably never say they were wrong, or that it's irreversibly corrupt, or that it is evil unfair beyond any sense, or that it is not the best, condemned and dependent it will continue its selection process to still be more defended by its members, after all, this reality still pressure people to make more babies, it will probably have a big party when we'll be 10 billion on earth...

Presently we act with the pornography industry like the people who run it and its actors are untouchable saints needing protection and that we should be privileged to get fucked by them. Those people are not examples to follow, we should remove them all protection from the system if they want the liberty to spread their view, whatever publicists have Hollywood "super" "stars" to represent them. And this big push to make a pornographic reality comes directly from mentally decomposing unfairly rich family dynasties who don't care about good or the future, they want profits and sex and that's all. You have another solution? Fight to the blood? I'm not against, but you'd quickly hit the wall of infinite compassion and infinite pardon, and infinite tolerance, and infinite peace, and infinite "love", and infinite "liberty" philosophy PMBBD some benevolent gang believe should lead to a great future in their limited vision...This mentality has been implanted in people in the name of peace after violence systemized the planet, to make a hell of a world is what I say. Evidently you can find contrary notions to divide and create conflict in the mind.

With our current attitude I doubt we will last another 100 years without dying massively, and life too, even today it is losing value like never before in history, and it will worsen in death (a human is still and always tremendously valuable to life in its potential, if we use this potential to take a different possible path without massive death, then part of the reward is in the saved life) and love is just one big problem in the pile. What I'm I to do? Does it make me responsible as everybody else if I'm powerless? With a decennia long sigh of discouragement, I had to finally decide that, well, I have to do it, just do it, just like that, start, because everybody knows things go terribly wrong for everybody who think they can do better than this reality, and we're not in old simpler times here. It's a niche magique though, the start button of the chosen one, who is not a trained warrior or genius of this reality, but a poor innocent, and today I still have a smile, candor, and you have no idea the rewards. It was a trap, the trap of taking on the whole world, or is it faith in myself? The problem is that everybody know that you don't survive long by pushing this button, it's just supposed to be a joke on ignorant who think they can replace the system, or change the world; it's just that I managed a way, and now I'm super dangerous, harmonized or not with the UI, because now with me stand fairness place within good and evil, I'm at the root, any interaction with me bears catastrophic weight, beyond your imagination. But I'm just a guy fooling around with crazy buddies who do all kind of wrong things, like stashing billions in their wardrobes (bank account), so wtf? I call that celestial incompetence, no, the path is supposed to be perfection so that means it's a trick, probably. Anyway, I'm taking the challenge, as I write my mind, liberty of expression here I come! I do stupid but that's super scary, to understand that what's in my mind has been going on hidden from humanity for thousands of years, and now I feel so lonely writing this...but I shouldn't and I won't have it that way, we're on earth and manipulation here go large and deep, so I have to consider that considering my path as a victory would be a mistake of judgment, the last trick of evil before his death will be is to graciously offer his throne, it's even his goal, and try to make you feel bad for chopping his head, but that's normal.

So I guess I'll be there specifically to chop his head off and destroy the smelly throne, who in his right mind would want to sit there except Lucifer eh? No, no talking, no justifying, too late the gun is in your face, you invested everything and now you lose it all, nothing emotional, the anger has been replaced by resolve, I just terminate your insanity, reap in the good on my balance and send you through appropriate judgment procedures, no time or memory to waste with you, lessons learned and let's do the best we can with what's left, oh, and fucking die, if I'm to choose a feeling concerning you it will be spite, as I spit on your cadaver while thinking of your effect on life.

My initial point was that for me the possibility is high that we'll hit very big troubles, I explore these possibilities while knowing that I don't like random death, I prefer evil people to disappear and good people to live, so I divide good from evil in my opinion of it and I explain why I think this attitude or that belief generates evil; I give arguments.

What I wish is for attitudes to change, that's the idea for battles no? Are people massively capable of that? You'll have to understand and appreciate people like me, people who do what you don't, young people and all those who will want more than status quo, you'll have to believe, yes that, you'll need some touch of a life spirituality and philosophy along with science. I'm a science guy, really, but I would never have fought and stood-up for anything for nothing, I'm a part of something, if all I am is a source of creativity or profits, if I'm cheated of my life or my thinking, then when I'll gain consciousness of it you'll be lucky if my revenge doesn't reach all the way to all the fucking interrelations that produced this injustice, and nobody as powerful as it is, that is involved will continue existing without me to nag their intelligence, I will be the source of your destruction, in your prisons or in oblivion, erase and forget until you are served your own truth and cry in your favorite position, submission. As I read these lines, as I write my mind I won't forget my enemies, even if they're so moronic I sometime pity them, for me, for humanity, for life.

I still have faith, I just try not to be a fool, even if I sometimes look the contrary, what am I supposed to do when I can't know for sure what's going on? That's the reality on earth, I'm no fool, so I prepare for all options, and this feeling of being stolen, of being cheated, I carried it from youth, and it is not related to people directly, but to the feeling that I have nothing to do here, that's what's wrong, me! I feel is super bad like evil has been laughing at me all my life, I was tired before I even started, and it took such rage! I'm not a dictator, but my spirit is taking form in my work, what potential lays inside of me, behind the ugly I serve this reality as I savagely reject its pressures...

Humanity needs people who are not scared of a little spirituality, when I'll be done you'll find stuff to better kick evil spirituality in my work too. Life needs people who care for the signification of things, however maladroit, the more you care with profound logic, the more reality will transform itself to reflect it because it is made of people, and what people admire is strength, whatever the form, the seat has been stolen by cheaters and manipulators, but show you stand for something all your life, as humans with emotions, and eventually you'll gain respect and pride from the best people. This is the best path to transform reality, but getting out of hell is a long quest, and everybody must do its part, media institutions, big businesses, governments... Still we're talking a slow process here, from logical deductions that should have happened long ago, but logical thinking lost it and from then on everything is hell, even if yes, we made a retarded tech civilization successfully spread planet wide, I wouldn't imagine humans doing otherwise, that you're proud of without comparatives, so I don't know what makes you think you're hot, mirror, mirror, but we need an immediate readjustment of everything fast just to stop the earth and life degeneration process that came with your illogical ideal, under all the heavy opposition of a systematization of means and people that goes in the wrong direction? Good luck, how long have we been lamenting about climate change? If that's an example, it will take a thousand years to start seeing this reality change, so I stand by my conclusion that the way out of this mess is a new growing reality.

Good hasn't had much success against evil yet, all it does is spend its energy patching the wrongs of this reality it seems, encouraging it as it is to the end, but I'm not sure that's what good's supposed to do, you're supposed to work against evil, and I'm not sure that's what you're doing here.... This mentality doesn't work, and the work you do for evil weight on your evil side, that's how good is worthless in this reality. Too many people think their responsibility is limited to a job and looking good, everybody have the right to bring more people to this overloaded planet as life degenerates, it's your choice to follow logic and truth or illogism and falsehood, but don't be surprised if you end-up dead or a fraction of yourself if your realm is bullshit. It's like the emphasizes of learning (the strategy to grow one's intelligence and develop the person) that are different for good or evil, or you develop your intelligence and your person from the intentions or dreams you have in life.

There's got to be a selection made and my selection is for good people and true love since it grows the best people, all round, in a successful situation; they may not make the best profit stashers or money stealers, they may not want to work like crazy, they may not want to develop as "gods", they may not "love" violence and war, they may not want competition at all cost, they may not want to fuck any pretty, in fact, they may be totally inadequate for this reality, but they'll have a chance at escaping "dust to dust". And I'll add another thing, those people, they have been tricked into thinking that life's unfair, but the weapons that attract their hands the most is justice among humans, this is their power, stolen, displaced and thrown about in frustration, and when they'll brandish at its rightful target this world will immediately tremble, but you're better brandish it if it is to free potential for something better.

What I do is good since I take every necessary step and attitudes to make it so. When I see a condemnation I explain why, what, who and how, it can lead to a catastrophic situation. I know that random death, which is a very positive view for evil since it mostly concerns poorer people, and it is my opinion that it will only come back to the same situation, since I see the life ideology as an evolutionary step-up, it's technology, or adequacy dependent to make it short, inadequate species don't make it that far if you prefer, there is worst all over the universe though, it's not bad what we have going on here, and I'm hard because I'm human, what else? We need another reality with a different civilization basis to skip making the same mistakes all over again and to cut short because we can and it's necessary, because of the environment, and because of the , and because critical resources need to be better prioritized, and to jump start selection in another direction (I said that!), or it goes with the babies if you prefer, you want them born in the best environment for the ideal, the best place or niche principle, and it's our adult job to use our capacity to do it, where do you want your baby born? You believe in the end of war? In better happiness? In love? In an infinite future to humanity? Where you grow nearer your best because you understand better and earlier while developing more adequate attitudes and better self-esteem from your human interactions with others and life? Get rid of these thoughts that you're not up to the task and just give hell the honor finger? Do you think we can do better? Do you feel we can do better? I do, and while it doesn't mean I should work like crazy, like my parents that should have worked a lot less, it means I do it differently and on different priorities, and what's the goal again? We don't just throw ideas in the air here, we're talking a whole interrelated continuation of a process that goes from nothing to everything, a fundamental ideology and what kind of results are anticipated. I work with that in mind, so yes I'll point fingers and I'll say what is evil and what is good, and yes people die whatever I do (I shouldn't tell my opinion, people could die!). And yes I will profit from this opportunity of probable coming massive troubles to show how a different view can be systemized, and punch all those problems in the face, particularly those created by crappy human attitudes, and more. But a new reality needs expanding space, a tremendous quantity of it, and since the starting ideology took the whole earth with its ridiculously inappropriate economy, I have the right to do it too, so I'll think as big! And you can say I'm inciting to violence all you want to force censorship while the other side of the mouth sing liberty of expression; the truth is that I'll be inciting people to take a path to save themselves if I'm to believe myself and still believe in their potential.

The type of situations and machinations and attitudes that make some end-up stashing mountains of means (human life energy), to develop as perverse manipulators, cheaters, profiteers and control maniacs, control and systemized things, are the most responsible for the future troubles of humanity, but there's nothing like denial obstinacy, this is the enemy on which I'll always walk without an after thought, the ultimate destroyer of history, of the truth, this fucking horror of an attitude to use means specifically to defend evil instead of good, to believe that what the means accomplish means the truth, as a way to discard, forget, ignore, reject, facts or truth. Many lawyers should fucking kill themselves here, but I tell you, your victims are just waiting, and your history is inevitable. Me I specifically target evil, that way I don't have to see the faces it took ever again, I like to put reincarnation pictures there, worm, or a void picture can do too, or you can consider yourself part of a selection process to forward living consciousnesses in a convenable way for the UI and its experiments, we all learn to do things better, and we all have hidden things we're very not much proud of, the evil side of the balance has things that are better forgotten, but still it can't disappear, and it's part of your recipe, evidently you can see them as untasteful ingredients that you remove if you're good, or spread if your evil, and to me here and now? The whole fucking meal is distasteful! And never underestimate evil, it will profit from the mass random death caused by its effects to reinforce itself, make itself irrevocable to the point of putting the responsibility of its failures on the shoulders of the ones who tried to repair things before too late, with the tools at their disposition versus destinies. All what I write about are opinions, as strong as they are, and you can discard anything you want once I'm finished, and I won't be frustrated, unless my work is censored, which wouldn't surprise me since the controlling people of this reality are all fearful manipulative liars and cheaters who prefer to defend the end of humanity than to give a serious chance to a different option. Do I control something? No! I control nothing! And I didn't take no means except survival. The superiority or ego-gods ideology led humanity to this situation, not me! But I'm trying to stop it however little and inferior I am. And if you're stupid evil enough to be the cause of massive death, then you can bet I'll try to stop you rising again; you won't get out of your hole to take control of things again until the end. And don't think I'm making mistakes everywhere, that I don't know what I'm talking about or that I should not talk like that or that I'm stupid, or that I don't know how to live, or that I should respect authority, bla,bla,bla, I know what you think, too easy and predictable, this whole book is a big mistake, I make a mistake every phrase, your indoctrinated limited mind of psychological PMBBD is the one that can't understand nothing anymore! I'm in my world, you're in yours, we see things totally differently; you may think my way of expressing myself or my attitude or my psychological is wrong, but your truth may be in for a surprise.

And I'm supposed to talk about love here, so leave me be with the revolutionary stuff. The question was love implementation in reality, I think, or is now, how we call our sexual consummation, dependence or brainwash, "love" while sex is a bonus to love, not the contrary or the animal thing some are trying to sell as love; while I would say animals all have their version of love appropriate to their niche and complexities, they mostly do things in function of their offspring (don't confound dependence from humans to love), and if you "love" so much to compare yourselves to animals, I'll say that a lot of people are not even able to care for their offspring any better than animals. Stop your fucking competition mentality, skip the flabbergasting thing and the forever eyes contact of television, find a fit and attractive contrary sexed human that have many good facets and live with him or her, if he or she is worth loving then it's a crime to leave him or her alone because he-she is not a publicized stereotype, yes adequacy is of tremendous importance, but you know what I think of "gods" and their "lovers", running after those is an attitude that destroys love.

Couples failures happens and it is normal but not that catastrophically, what's that? I do catastrophically with people who attack me, not my love, do you actually know who you're sleeping with? Or is it because you don't really like the other, but you have faith you'll change him to your liking with the power of love? It's cuteness that you confound with loveliness. It's understandable that when one idealize or twist love too much then things go kaboom in hysteria, but not with the regular predictability of this reality, which is almost making it a cultural thing by pushing for sex every corner. Learn to love your human counterpart and complement yourselves, stop the admiration godhood effect on hype and maybe in a thousand years love will start to truly become a reality. And yes it is normal that we fail in our judgment of a person a few times and that's the right excuse; we failed in our judgment, I did and I may do again, but failing every year throughout adulthood is another matter entirely and it is a proof that something is wrong somewhere. Do we create the possibility for this judgment activity to develop? No, we're doing exactly the contrary, creating disinformation, and the notion doesn't even exist because "love" is made out of PMBBD for business and the best help to capitalism is gotten from division and competition on verge of suicide. Divide and compete to reign, in the can of sardines, whoah, the energy, and needs...

And yes you can truly love many people, your love is not the only one you can love, the question is; are you with an adequate person for you that loves you? You know it's easy to be impressed by a "new" or "wow" sticker and hype, this reality does everything possible to create hype and encourage you to go "new" and "wow", just say you don't "love" your "love" anymore and you're justified to go "new" or "wow" full blown hype. But when you get tired of admiring the facet or when the godly facade is gone you are often deceived by the truth, then you'll cross some more "new" or "wow". And you got to know what you want, if you don't know you'll start a competition of traits, probably becoming fishing spot dependent, until you find somewhat of a reflection of what the reality wants of you with some "personal", or cosmetic, variation; a chain of hype adventures that get the economy turning and polluting a lot. It wants you in conflicting competition of traits with an exutoire in sex and entertainment, maximum profit oblige. And yes you can work hard to find a super sex performer, but you'll do it at the cost of many good traits, and that applies at a civilization level too.

As for me, I understand adequacy is bit special, adequate love is rarer for me... The one I most loved was well equilibrated, on the advantageous side physically and mentally, womanly stature, medium height, she liked reading and she was hard to please. She was an incredible writer too, even if she didn't much use her skill. She had small, very habile hands and she was not scared of a backpack either, we could take a day trek through hard thick forest to a lost fishing lake and I never heard a complaint, she would be pleasant all along, maybe not illuminated, but a bit like a spirit, she fitted, she had the spit, like she had made the forest and she was visiting it, no way something bad could happens to her, I bet animals would take care of her.

Too late I understood that's what she would have needed to harmonize herself with the developing me, and that's one thing I regret, apart my own self imploding in inadequacy (I would never heal totally from the frustration of looking at myself, but I would discover it went back a lot farther, I would say my past was a fraction, even if i don't think my parents were really bad intentioned with me, adjusted at their level of comprehension, christianity was another fraction, I will put munching on a lead bullet there too, probably busted something, school social difficulties due to poverty and bad luck, but faith in my future is infinite, and I can't stand anything no more, I'm becoming violent locked in that room, so let's go to the army before I punch family or set the school on fire, a good place to test myself against the looming prospect of the psychiatric institute(the story(other) of my life)... The first time I had a violent outburst was in the army, that's where I started walking alone and thinking of my future, but I didn't live anything traumatic I had consciousness of, I even consider they were acting relatively well, maybe a bit harder with me but I think it was still appropriate, so while the frustration from my youth may have contributed to start my glass half full with frustration, I say they didn't raise it raised it much beyond that, it's an institution serving a system I'm supposed to trust after all, even if the conclusions of my night walks would eventually contribute to my frustration, it's just my nature to question things I guess, that expands as I grow older. I put the ability to initialize my quest on the batch of vaccines they gave me, I fell super sick, I really thought I would die, and I was super strong, superman like, I think it knocked something out, or overloaded something else, which gave me the potential go sufficiently psychotic to believe completely invraisempblable ideas, as a young man without judgment, maybe they tested a soldier drug to make me more violent? It's a confluence of factors, but I say you made a grave mistake by planting your syringes in the innocent me, stuffing my blood with your products and viruses and DNA shit and now I'm supreme commander of life! Masticating ammo like bubble gum...

Never set your mind about such a girl, never think she can't do something, you'll lose her, she do what she want; cold to death, she can fight to the blood for any justification, but hot like a fire in her controlled emotions. She is so beyond that there's 2 of them; one for you and one for her. Small but powerful frame, no abs, curly ginger hairs, a perfect body with a perfect musculature made of long small muscles. She was beautiful and sensuous with an easy way of carrying all her expressions.

Humble and simple with a good start at wisdom, she was a charm with children. She could take a curtain, wrap herself in it and I could go anywhere with her, certain she would be the woman of the place. And no boosting and garments of all kind, her own unique maquillage, her own attitude, bare foot self-accepted as such and no competition; taller women felt disadvantaged besides her, particularly with her disconcerting attitude, and no superiority there.

Every man tried itself at her and with time that made me a bit jealous. Everybody was just flabbergasted about her; yet, I never felt she was impressed by tallness or handsomeness or money; she was like me in the way she put her heat where she wanted. She had control of her ego a lot more than me at the time and she made me understand this by her simple attentions.

She had the mind, the body, the imagination, the heart and a mix of those for sex. I felt good with her, no show-off, no competition, no manipulation, and no pressure to get money, she said often that she loved me, and I never felt I had to compete to gain an attribute that someone else had better than me, she loved me like I was and I felt like I was enough for her. She had more sex experience but that was not a problem, I didn't feel like I had to deliver a performance and she was not a training or proving ground. We both liked sex and the more I was with her the more I wanted her and the more pleasure we had.

She was independent and she chose her own ways. The only way to influence her was with propositions and arguments. For the few times where we had tensions and even insulted each other, I would almost always regret what I said as I would later come to realize everything was my fault for failing to see through her. We both had the same age, born the same day, at exactly the opposite end on the horoscope and we both knew that this world was not good for us, that it would separate us. One thing's for sure; I still believe I was meant for someone like her, that we should have both lived an ideal life in its totality. I believe we both had everything to be the happiest people, but I understood too late how much this reality was meant to separate people like us.

So, before some Christmas, her only brother died. After 2 weeks of intense Catholicism, I had just had enough of that institution that profit from the death of people for perpetual harassment. I said stupid things in front of her family and it was the end; as simple as that. I later tried to get her back but I'm not the kind of person to confound myself in excuses or insist no end. Then there was the fact that I was on a track of questioning everything, and Christianity just freaked me out, so things kind of coincided badly.

I was already "limit", and losing her increased the storm in my head to the point of going crazy. Psychotic kind of crazy and it is no joke, it was like the world revealed itself every morning with the stab of a knife to guarantee me one hell of a day. I woke up with phrases in front of my eyes, crazy notions, you wouldn't even want to know the color of. But never a bad dream; dreams were apart and much appreciated, even when I lead seas of people dressed in black to war. The "text" was a continuation of something that went on during the day, like my head never stopped working, you know like you play a game too intense for too long and it continue playing in your sleep? I didn't know what it was thinking about until the morning where I half woke up for half an hour with notions or philosophy which seemed to make genius sense until I totally woke-up and there; it lost all sense. I eventually started decanting the stuff I thought about in my sleep in pieces of writings I cumulated, I knew it went hand in hand with the path I had already chosen, but it was totally out of context, totally psychotic, totally leave me alone, rven suicidal. But writing reversed the "bad" effect of the text in my sleep, it was like decanting bizarre phrases until I woke up, almost ran to write about it, only to realize it was a pseudo genius effect, like bad game strategy. Still, writing about it developed all kind of ideas and philosophies, and maybe that was the idea behind the whole deal; just writing my mind. I was half asleep and flabbergasted about it and when I woke up it didn't seems intelligent at all, very ordinary, but as soon as I started writing, I'd get like possessed and write whole pages totally out of the initial subject.

So yes it was my fault, but strangely I think it was meant to go this way, like a coincidence of many factors, in me, a clash of reality that would have made things far worse had I fought to keep her, like borrowed luck, if that could fit, or an investment? Better, a bet? Probably...

I had unsatisfying sex 2 times with a girl not my type immediately after our separation, and I never "touched" another woman after, not because I didn't want, even if I imagined that I would never again fall in love, but because I had known true love and the life track I had chosen made it increasingly difficult to meet someone I could love.

I still tried to get her back, but I was too messed-up and I needed her more than ever, I needed her so much...but I was unable to make her understand the depth of that need because of myself, and because she was not in a state to be receptive to my ways of expressing it. What happened to her, and what was happening to me, made it impossible for both of us to reach back each other, and that was particularly true for me I think; I was just not there anymore, I put myself in all kind of troubles, insulted people, got in fights a few times, and I started to play with friends to provoke and dump them, I was a traitor to everybody until my revolt became like a rocket pointed to the sky leaving everybody blasted black behind, and I started floating...

I met her a few times over a period of 3 years, but I only understood how she was critical to me when I started writing seriously. I wrote in French at the time, and she was great at that, I thought I would get her back by getting her to work with me but I failed. Then I started writing in English, and I developed my lesbian side I called it, to do her part of the job. I believed, and still do, that we completed each other's well, and she would have made me twice as competent, while adding a lot of mind effects. That was my ideal for the book. Today I wouldn't even dare do such a piece of work again, and I knew right from the beginning that it was too big for a single person; I saw it as a work of love, because to me the ideal of a human is not a single person, but an entity composed of 2 people, which I see as love. And you can say what you want, but this feeling transcend sexuality and hormonal and pheromonal stuff, to me at least, my life is twice as hard because I'm not with someone that is appropriate to me, but yeah, with someone inappropriate things could get worse...Another argument why competition between sexes is the most evil view you can encourage for human relations.

I stopped wanting to see her when she said she was in love with a new guy, I think she had sex a lot before that but I felt like I had no place in her life anymore, even for the random encounter. That made me a little jealous, yes, and insignificant, but I'm not a competitive man, I can love another woman, she can love another man, I have nothing to prove, I'm not superior, I'm not an animal, I don't compete, so good bye. Not trying to reach her I totally lost track of her. She became the story of another man, another life, and what I carry of her is not how she is now. So that's the "simple" way it ended, death, religion, lack of respect from my part for her family in pain.

Even though I'm a poor replacement to her for expressing love in writing, she visited my life at a critical moment and completely changed the man I was becoming. As I would later come to believe in gods, I better understood why people embarked in religions; people don't have time to do much philosophical and spiritual introspection, it's a long and hard quest, and religions profit from that to manipulate people to their vision, but there is the fact that they use all kind of events and situations that could have happened to their own ends too.

So to me that girl was like Eve, and me Adam, and I like to imagine we were living a super love story. The strange thing is that I wrote what would be love as an entity, my love story, star love I called it, at a time I didn't believe in god except as life, and almost 10 years later, St Valentine day at noon, a vision of Adam and Eve came to me within a short dream. Do you think I have to swear? Yes I swear upon all the entities I believe in, but I'm past the swearing part of things...I may add this small star love story here in a future update, but you should know that I see nothing wrong if there's an equivalent feminine counterpart to Jesus, and the same could apply to god, differently. In fact, this whole reality of sex competition, and patriarchy and matriarchy, and kings and monarchy, may have arisen from these "simple" "omissions" of an ego-gods ideology...

It's a shame though that such cute stuff must belong to perverse minds, like good music often belongs to crappy singers, as it should in a possessive reality, I hate these condemnations, can someone stop them? Particularly in the current state of the religion which is not at its best, yeah, I wonder if they would just disappear I completely ignore them...But no, they're a critical part of history, and still critical to condemnation state today, they have been forced to humanity and so anybody dealing with human attitudes is forced to deal with them, and in my situation, it would be very irresponsible to not explore all these twisted manipulations that degrades the soul of people so much.

Personally I've been seen as the antichrist quite a few times, I take it like an insult, don't worry, that last girlfriend? One of the last thing that she told me was a matter of fact sentence that I'm the antichrist, like a shut-up argument, and that was before I had started to write, so what was it? A kind of undercover revenge to the fact that I failed her at a particularly difficult moment of her life while insulting her religion? She understood some secret functioning of mine and decided I'd waste myself taking the challenge? Because I know today that I was a total moron at the time, with absolutely nothing to prove any competence in antichrist stuff, apart maybe some twisted prayers and a dislike for Christianity when I was younger, and a few pokes on her about it as I was beginning to nag her on that. And me? I have no souvenir of deciding to this stuff as a revenge, I knew I had stuff in me that could crush her beliefs, but nothing precise, and I was inadequate to express it, and how do you know that my weak spot is religions? Christ, I was already pissed off enough to pass my birthday attending midnight masses (I'm a little fucking devil, you think that's funny? At the exact moment your mother birthed you you're on your knees reciting a prayer! This fucking religion completely fucked up my life!) and she is born a 24 of June, and she's like eve and I'm like Jesus and it's love and there's this religious friction between us to envenom our tranquility, and now her brother dies for my fucking birthday at the exact moment I enter in a crisis of consciousness, when I need her the most? Yeah, you can say love do weird things, and I don't mind role playing for fun, but who kills a fucking brother for Christmas? And who is punished? It was like mind implosion losing her, seriously, I'm certain that I should have ended in drugs right there, I went completely off with the stuff my mind shot at me. I was punished, but it's nothing besides how she was punished. And now it's like I'm doing antichrist stuff forming my judgment in part from my experience about them because I'm forced to! Fuck you, it's just patented so that people with my kind of potential get rejected, I'm the most dangerous thing around, like the antichrist I guess...And then I got to ask myself if I don't do all that as an unconscious revenge, ok ma belle, I love you so much that I'll take the challenge of your insult, I'll come back when I'll be the antichrist, and I'll free you from your religious chains my love, and I'll offer you this time in peace to comprehend that you've been seeking for so long.

Is it kind of romantic being the antichrist? So many question, I'll have to come back to this later, for now I have another theory on the subject, which is that they have already been manipulated by an antichrist kind of person long ago as a result of their own manipulations, like someone finding out the truth and deciding that the religion was a traitor to its own beliefs, and the guy further twisted everything. The result is that they have lost too much credibility from it and that's why the religion is in such a state, why would the antichrist destroy a religion with bomb rain spells? It makes far more sense to attack the institution from the inside by perverting the story to insanities until they lose all credibility and churches are empty, but it doesn't remove the mind pollution from the spread ideology...

A divine intervention on an institution that perverted the truth of Jesus, maybe even his girlfriend, to guarantee the failure of the evil institution. That's unlikely, but they could have gotten in such a scenario if they are or defend the ones that tortured Jesus and probably his girlfriend too; you manipulate my story, I manipulate yours, you infiltrate his circle of friends to steal his work to make your perversion of it, I infiltrate your work too, you destroyed his work, I destroy yours, you kill the result life of thousands of years of proud work, I kill the result life of thousands years of your proud work. And so the religion may have been infiltrated by a bad person (easy to get) as an antichrist, let's say 100 years after the religion took final form with the truth of Jesus and his girlfriend completely messed-up, in whatever way.

One thing's for sure, I can't trust their stories, and I don't like them. It's quite intense actually, and frustrating because it doesn't take that much of an effort to understand the possibilities, limitations and mentalities of this epoch, the problem again is TV and movies, media people, who, like Christianity, paint a false and biased vision of history, and if it doesn't sound credible, so be careful with the flying people and commandments, then in I immediately switch to logical patterns of thinking to form my own opinion, to see if I can make something more credible or satisfying out of the magic moment, but I'm still careful about the premise that where's there's a magic moment, there got to be evil involved in hell...

Thankfully people are stuck with cameras and mikes everywhere now so they can't completely pervert the truth of history, and there's all these school books too to keep a semblant of continuation to the story, because I can guarantee you trustable history can easily hover around half bullshit too, we got attacked by the English, they won, and they wrote history to the point that the authors of French Quebecker's history are English people, oh-yeah, but English people are good at these games, it's their emphasis of intelligence, and I don't necessarily see this as a negative cultural trait, but one that can easily, very easily, spread evil everywhere under the radar... Making history is in big part a matter of means versus environment and situation, and I say the 0 point of history doesn't hold to the reality of the epoch, I say things took a very very wrong turn and in the name of peace, maybe even survival, they controlled and erased or arranged the scene of the crime (you do something so horrible all your friends either turn on you or leave, me personally I wouldn't crucify people to make my city tourist friendly...That's so weird, to know it was entertainment at the time, and education, with fucking people morons like the whip is the only option! I tell you, freedom is a long quest...Yet, if people get crucified for doing stupid shit, and you even got a part of your population that's blatantly enslaved, then what you'd have is a climate of fear and paranoia, you'd be forced spectators, doing like everybody else to not get noticed as a rebel. Probably the level of respect for the lower classes by the elite was extremely low to go to this extent, behind the politic facade, and the intelligence of a big slab of the population probably worked with slaps behind the head, and who can contradict authority? If you get raped by a soldier you manage the baby secretly... In the end I say the whole thing doesn't hold fart, in fact the whole social dynamics of the bible doesn't hold fart, that I did not read (I threw it in the fire, remember?), just deducing and assuming stuff from a general background of priest extracts and prayers and manipulation style, just a feeling ok? But it's worth mentioning that things like that happens all around the world now every day, under the radar in hell, and concerning trustable history, the worst evidently is the super limited and manipulated reality of movies, even if they base their stuff on a true story.

I say no miracle was ever an argument to get the powerful people to start (pay for) Christianity and reset time, the powerful didn't sing the hand on the heart that the messiah debarked, let's make a party of the day! And then we'll make a whole fucking bible of contortions to block the logical evolutionary process of the mind (bullshit overload, surface bottleneck from conflict, fake comprehension, a drop is illumination), all lies, so people become self-slaves, as a pyramidal system of liberties proportional to means, where the means write history, proof are made with Christianity, they make the selection too, where a type of mentality get the vast majority of the means, as a vision of an eternal god, as a tool for the most greedy to get all what they want, that's how you develop your social intelligence in hell.

Now the question is what kind of form that took, and the time slab of the event, which may be carried on for as long as you can do your things in peace, so maybe a prevention campaign of austerity is in order, I would say anywhere between 100 and 200 years. 100 because you can't redirect inquiries and manipulate and do fake diplomacy for much longer if you're a friend dependent empire (rich people move about slowly with big horse carriages, and messengers disappear all the time doing these 500 miles treks between nations, just knowledge you can use...). But if you totally control the place, or if you're the strongest, then you can go to 200 years at the slow pace technical innovation spreads, knowledge you gain through science, exploration, diplomacy and war, through the history of your empire. I would say you need a process of continuation for the plan to start well, which may take the form of a sect, that got a pre-determined lifetime, who may or may not destroy the truth, seen as a super powerful artefact, that succitate paranoia; nobody get out the sect alive... Twice enough space in this hole of history, to fit the cadavers of civil wars and massacres all over the place and the final nail on the cover up is marked by a ceremony to remember the birth of the terrible problem, or you can interpret it as an insult too.

And so they started the hell on earth counter, or the plan to make a paradise for evil was unleashed upon life. In fact you got to consider what can be accomplished within those years, to what maximal extent the readjustment (selection) could have taken place, now that you know who can be dangerous or costly (people with ideas like me? Is everything patented against me? I'm the antichrist after all, they say...). That would be a proper initiation to hell on earth, because just the selection made at that moment could have condemned the life ideology out of our grasp. But I'll look into that in the next step of my education, when history will be a show...That's some big conspiracy theorizing right there, with nothing provable, just logical hints, as everything is meant to coincide "almost" perfectly (I wonder what that "almost" can be...), so these are just probabilities.

Following this religious line we could say we went at it a bit strongly, I mean you couldn't start hell in a more grandiose way, by the biggest lie of history, probably hiding horrors beyond imagination, if we are to believe all those books about official capacities at delivering pain and torment as a cultural trait under all kind of forms appropriate to the mood of the epoch, like crucifixion...So now we're embarked in a very scarily fitting developments, or is it me that doesn't interpret right? Conspiracy theory, ok, I don't see that like that, to me I follow a logical process of thinking that goes far deeper and larger while leaving space to my sensibilities, in the way I see good and evil and love, which to me is irrefutable, gods, UI, life spirituality, nothing or not. And what does evil do? Hi is disrespectful of life, of others, of their needs, he takes unfairly, causes problems massively, make life suffer, more difficult for fun, and what's the result of ultimate evil? The failure of life. It came to me recently that judgment day (last judgment) would find a more appropriate explanation here, it would be a thing that happens when life (planet, reproduction process, its senses, people) gains the knowledge that long term survival is at risk because critical resources are expanding at a rate that clearly doesn't hold-up to the development of its capacities to emancipate among the stars. Evidently Christianity, which is meant to reap the result of its own evil, by becoming their own worst fears, perverted it to god selection to better fit their pyramidal ideal, and so god is an all-powerful guy that possess the land and select his workers with time, and in a sense they threw themselves into a trap so that them, and even life, and the whole hell, will have to wait for god to debark with the whip if not it will just protect itself in its obstination until no human is left or some catastrophic degeneration ends it all.

So they had started the counter of judgment day too, which in a sense is a step of life, the moment where it passes or it breaks, the last chance, gain judgment over the cake or die, change your priorities or die if you prefer (on a planet with anti-Christianity aliens, judgment day is different, they make what they want with it, the form is different and they react their own way to the knowledge of resources expenditure rates, here we don't care, but the idea is the same if we are to keep the signification and word "judgment" have judgment or die, it's your last chance and then some guy just happens to miraculously appear, poof, hey, I hate your fucking reality. But then yeah, that's not enough, gotta do something about it or I mean nothing. For now I say reap an honor finger, you do that you, living with this frustration, my best years with my imagination and health, but I'll be back someday, and I'll show you what it is to have faith in what lays in one's soul.

Judgment day is irrelevant when you willingly do things like Christianity, you just fucked the timeline irreversibly, and it's worse when all the mechanics of human and life planetary interactions are geared in the wrong direction, or when humanity find itself so far away from its best place that people have become just plain inappropriate. We're not talking a deviation from normal pressures and influences we're talking an opposite break, or something else. But yeah, the judgment day counter got room for that too; dramatically quickly change the situation, like with the project of another reality...

All that is just adequately ridiculous in hell, with its gut wrenching irony, encouraged by the extremes between its facade and its behind the scene, a reflection of the falsehood of its soul; evil walks whole and proud, because it's at the moment of judgment day that he will have hidden the truth most profoundly, in a dark, damp, smelly place you wouldn't want to explore too closely, nobody will know anything, the pope has no idea, the rich got their CIA, women go strong on the mascara, and for media institutions and all experts at manipulating the truth and history, anything not getting out of the mouth of a politician manipulator is conspiracy theory, since the public must be protected from things that could hurt their feelings, unless there's a revolt, but there's diversion, so let's legalize something to show things are getting better...

Christianity perpetrators may have known it all, and decided it could grow evil freely, they'll know when to stop and change, it will be on judgment day! Party! But it doesn't work like that, you were supposed to be at your best and if you're really good, you could totally skip it...Now you have to redo half the work, while working another hard stretch with me at the whip, to finally have this reality where it's worth it to finally relax and do our things safely, with our bad feelings minimized, but history is never forgotten, and there's a blood and indoctrination debt to pay in blood as time and evolution. The good side of the medal is that if we get out of it alive we'll have the nomenclature and history to stay expert on the domain of good and evil, profiting manipulation and cheating, deception and a lot whole lot more of unspeakable stuff, for a long time. I could say it's not worth the price, but in the perfection of the universe, it may end-up making the difference, because leadership that understand and use those in their good way will fall on a path to reap the best the universe has to offer.

The other thing is that this judgment must take form somewhere, as automatic processes, action reaction, but as understanding within its most capable senses too, in a not too hopeful scenario, so we're talking a process of revelation starting at the same time as both life judgment as a global entity, and which may have started at the moment we gained expertise at calculating resources expenditures, or some natural phenomenon marked a turning point, like half the forest mass not regenerating, starting a different process, forcing different mentalities, I would say that happened in the 70's, life could have switched priorities there, but whatever the moment, it could be the marker for another great invention; the end of innocence. If you have the capacity you have the tools, we have all the tools to know what we're doing and to have far better judgment, for Christ sake I just watch the news and get interested a little in everything and I come to be revolted and this is the result, because I decided life was the priority, not your fucking god, ego. You don't want to take the means to heed sense? You want to systematize those tools to manipulate and serve your inadequate mentality? If you don't want to understand, if you don't seek understanding, then go to hell, it's not far, you'll feel right at home, but you won't go any farther than that...

As for human adequate judgment, it can work in a not too messed up reality, but forget about that in hell, it is logical that you can't know everything, particularly the truth of history, in the simple way people interact between each others, and with religions, you can wave good bye to adequate interpretation, so nobody can be competent doing the prophet of judgment day since we can't have the adequate knowledge and understanding to form judgment, and so it is logical that there is an aspect missing, in the hands of "gods", and it's called the truth of history, and you'll be faced with it in part to learn how you can be manipulated is my opinion too.

I'm just religiously interpreting stuff, while practicing blasphemy, but god in all that, isn't he concerned? The way I see life, the UI, gods, and the type of intelligence that we are supposed to develop (sensitive emotional intelligence) then I would say those beings are the most sensitive and emotional you could find, big tempers, big emotions, at the extremes you can find in a human, even more, but they are at the extreme of intelligence too, so they have the capacities to control their emotions. Added to that is the way of creation, you may have some level of medicine, but the genetic work must in big part be made following the laws of life, and so we're talking thousands of years of care and emotional involvement if you're doing the Jesus thing, which is one fucking lack of judgment if you want my opinion, I'd never send my precious children in a situation like that, and the technique of introduction leaves much to be desired, while the guy didn't much exist except the part where he dies horribly for a vision he seems to never have expressed in writing, or stuff that never happened can work too. And I'm just trying to understand how the heck one come to boast himself as the son of god, it's parabolic? It's like e when I say I'm an extension of life? Life as god as I initially saw it in my simpler (my regroup point, my god is life, as I explore the probable forms intelligence and gods can take, I always come back to what started it all, and today my view of god changed to become a dynamic of living leadership connected to a supreme logical intelligence). So the most probable truth, or the initial one, is that Jesus had had it quite hard and either his father didn't exist or he rejected the guy acting as his father, something like that involving shameful sexual activities. His mother probably not knowing who the father is, he see himself as the son of life because it's a good vision in many interrelation, he's the son of both life and living, a romantic way of saying shit happens. But frustration is a special thing from what I understand, it's super hard to discard or not displace wrongfully, if it's justified it always come back to make you feel like a loser, for being that powerless against an obstacle that's just some other guy's large ass. I'm bizarre too when I say I'm one of its senses, but reproduction build permanent realities, so let's not keep it at sensing stuff, let's make the thing that can connect with all what is known of reality, and to top it off, let's make it at a loss, let's bet everything, this one will use rarer non regenerating resources (imagine all what you'd need to know to make me, yet, here I am, and I look around and nobody seems to know, the chimpanzee is my friend though, as long as I don't come back to him for sex, in which case I'll get HIV) and when I look at the simplest aspect of life in all its interrelations, it's just extraordinary, to witness with what abandon she sacrifices itself too.

The catholic view would go about him being the son of god in the sky, but it changes nothing to the fact that whomever birthed him, if he carried a unique gift then the grandeur of the task to reach genetic success would probably be quite impressive, if you think that life systems can take thousands of years to express itself, and a god in the sky would have to work through the same kind of steps, so the task has no common measure with what is done on earth. And then you send your greatest pride, what you nutured as your own children for so long, to show life's glory, but they fare worse than everybody else, and not in an accidental way, but in a consciously evil way. They were a gift of life or god (one life the other god?), with rare qualities that would help life and humanity to better work together for glory, and instead of caring those with the means see them as an opportunity; they don't believe, they have their own vision of love, and they wouldn't accept to be given directions by poor bastards.

Still people like them, but all that is laughable to the elite who see things down to earth profiting, nobody know more than them, nobody has the means to move people like them, and they can prove the contrary of anything you say with those means, they can make you bullshit. So I guess they laugh at them among themselves at their orgies of "love", and bored evil decided to compete them by paying a bunch of spies to infiltrate as what the bible describes as apostles (good condemned word). I'd say half the people close to him (what the bible used the word apostles for) were spies, not only one, but you only need one to take the blame for the rest, a classic manipulation, and Jesus was only a human developing his thinking and making mistakes after all, why would you believe him?

Jesus here is a human born from the pool of possibilities available at the time, so he can as well be an exceptional genetic coincidence as the son of god that can take any number of form, and it changes nothing to the interest of entities, everybody is interesting appropriately to its potential, even insects have jesuses, special in an attractive way, but it usually ends badly, just so we don't derap too much, by showing how much so we can derap in the presence of special things... But the most worthy show that make special sparks in the sky is a great love story between 2 exceptionally life transcended people. Aren't we are all the sons of everything, if there's something to what LSD people discovered (are you a LSD person? I'm just fixating on LSD, I'd partially legalize it and most of its derivatives or evolutions, not meth and crack and high dependence stuff though, except as exceptional medicinal solutions. Cocaine maybe, under prescription for older people and special work related situations that may benefit; I don't know what I'm talking about evidently, but to me it's the same as steroids; it inflates a lot and degenerates quickly... Anyway, we're already caffeine dependent almost for fun, cultures do that too; they take a thing and develop its wonders, in the best of scenario...Anybody that lied to masses about vaccines for self-interests (you go do that vaccine...) should reap the worst in existence, the same kind of speech I have for those who create problems as opportunities to profit from, and at the personal level I'd be specially critical about the guy that prescribes super dependent drugs for ridiculous things, I've got an eye on you, and one on psy, and one on Christianity, and many more, eyes, they travel the currents.

Evidently this is laughable stock for people at the other end of the spectrum, those transcended by self-inflation, who have access to anything available to live their life at the top in their vision of success and joy, but it's not enough, and where's the joy? How can you end-up so perverted that your joy becomes evil? Because people don't understand your superiority? Because you think that by possessing the lands and means you possess the people too? You can't stand rumors about the evil stuff you're planning? You want to be seen as saints? Conspiracy theory is severely punished? I have no doubt it would be bad omen a Jesus strolling around making a fan club of everybody pissed off at the injustices caused by the pseudo elite system, and taking the form of a leadership group, at it, developing a serious philosophy of good and evil and human interactions.

Nothing is natural behavior for the most probable situation of the epoch, and you can say I don't know what I'm talking about because I don't have a diploma with the related ideas (like history, if it is invalid then I'll get better interested when I'll have the truth of it, but that doesn't mean that I shouldn't care, I care at the intensity that's worth it in my situation, if I can have a direction in my judgment it's because I care as I care for the rest, generally, as I pull the whole package together (getting my shit together for initiates) and lift it on top of my head), but what you're missing is the interrelation strength and the multitude of high probabilities here, while each one is like a reroll of the luck factor, it's like debating if the earth is round or flat, I trust that there are enough probabilities and ways of reality coinciding to just assume it's round, and that's a lucky break for my poor mind that is so sad to have to consider everything under the manipulation aspect first, but that's how it is in hell, where evil reach glory by gearing its intelligence toward manipulation, while good as a step up, must both develop the intelligence to manipulate to protect from evil, but all the set of qualities that comes with minimizing its use makes good better develop the key attitudes that permit long term survival.

So you can bet our character, particularly if he's emotive about things, alienated himself a few big shots, and a few "apostles" too, because this story is super hard to gobble-up, I just can't imagine this apostle dynamics working in reality, so the truth was probably that he was a revolted loner of exceptional quality kicking stuff while shouting insults, explaining why he's entitled to kick your stuff; he attracts attention, the ego god ideology makes people discover their chosen one, all in all, people just put all their weird fixating on him because he's too hot, and his apostle are nobodies he just met that supposedly wanted to help him, maybe running errands, but the pool of his close followers who saw something or wanted to really know him, was probably changing regularly, 12 apostles is 12 numerology bullshit, and Christianity tried to make big with it, maybe his trip, who knows, I like numerology too, but he acted like a newsman, did he really need these guys? No, just ask questions, and at night respectfully let a selected bunch that's been around a long time pay for your food and wine, and while drunk you show your weaknesses, like going crazy over stuff, or at least that you're human like everybody else, probably not worth the displacement...As a love story it would probably change the dynamics though.

And the rich? What if some of their women defended or wanted to meet him? What if some killed themselves because of him? As I know it within myself, I know that revenge can lead to terrible results, comprehension or not, worse if you add insults to injury... And those with thing to prove? You think they wouldn't want to ridicule this bum and its overrated philosophy and spirituality that's nothing beside the complexity of the system they are on top of that's been built by a history of people dedicated to it? You're just giving evil something interesting to do here, is it intentional? You're suicidal? They'll make entertainment with you! Maybe even the biggest joke in the history of humanity! They are not all mature you know...You only need a few of them jealous and frustrated, those who like to push people just for evil fun without good intents, just to provoke and prove they can, they are the worst, put a few together with enough means and things can degenerate quick, piss them off too seriously and you'll reap a machiavelic plan of death...I wouldn't discard anything, imagine that you had a Jesus making fun or getting angry at a few evil rich people (a fundamental right, and it's nice that this expression actually exists, evil rich, it's like I've found illusionary forgotten friends all of a sudden) who had contact among his "apostles", then the little traitor would run at his source of money and those reaping the bad joke or angry paraboles would develop revenge...

As for the supposedly true historical facts, I don't see them as anything else than low probabilities mixed with historical events gathered from exploring and diplomacy, used in a way as to coincide with bible miraculous stories, like it's an argument for credibility, as they continue growing the list and the size of their crimes, while nurturing their vilified mentality along the way, and slowly building the reality to live in luxury while fucking top quality. Manipulation here is far worse than lying, imagine, life will fail, it's sickening that's how I see things, just more of a crime , the whole history of Christianity, from whatever source, is probably bogus, and just imagine the literature and thinking on the subject! It's just unbelievable! Imagine means invested, the opinion it takes of life and humanity to do something like that, this is pure psychopathy! My heart is so broken it just can't manage to measure an adequate feeling.

So don't tell me this guy did this or that like it's a proof, powerful people, particularly in old times, manipulated history beyond recognition, even if science still provides a vague schema of historical events that were used by the manipulators of the time. Christianity is a shield, a tool evil can use, which changed form as history developed. If Rome prosecuted Christians, it was because it was a calculated manipulation for pacification, entertainment, and selection, and that applies to all those who were hungry for power and ended-up in contact with Christianity. It's not how it happened! Look in the bible! Look at what historians found! You bet! The rich of the time and the makers of the bible were saints of good intents that never manipulated people and history!

So probably, as his process of thinking developed, a batch of rich were making their own version in parallel, completely perverting the truth of everything, and not only for revenge, but to get the contrary result of his goal too; instead of more fairness they would seek more unfairness through logical unconscious interrelations to the fundamental philosophy, ego ideology (not seen as such), instead of caring more for life they would seek to exploit it like a resource, instead of having love as a specific meaning, they'd make love at all sauces, instead of being born out of life, or as a life extension, or from 2 celestial beings, he would be born from a single superior, instead of not causing pain they would make a specialty of it, instead of using spirituality to fight evil, they would use it to pacify the population to it, instead of seeking life's advancement, they would seek the advancement of those in power, and all that was hidden under a multi-level manipulation story made to fit with some historical events.

I say they stopped him because he started becoming far more dangerous as an adult. He may even be the one that put an end to the expansion plans of the roman empire, and their plan was to take over the world, and they may have made Catholicism as a vengeance on the only aspect of their plans that made them fail, since the romans were the grand masters of developing evil plans... Then they tortured him at the most extreme level imaginable, the crucifixion is probably only the start (he asked for pardon at that point, what happened after...), a little show full of lies, the truth is probably that they kept him in a dungeon and tortured him 10 more years, a constant cycle of different tortures, a batch healing, torturing other places, etc, etc, etc.

Now, I'm the kind of person that can believe some level of reincarnation can exist, Adam and eve is another story, but there is a few strange things that started happening when I lost my love and I started writing, there I saw that the "black beast" within me was far worse than predicted. I discovered I was really psychotic hateful, at around 30 I would have razed almost the whole humanity given the means, and as I tried to understand I didn't find enough justification for such level of personal hostility against people, particularly since I could easily shed tears just thinking about a girl getting insulted, or watching a movie, or seeing an animal in pain. With time most of that hate switched to this inadequate reality that doesn't help most people develop in their best manner, and religions for sure too, and personal grudges too, so the longer I live, the more people survive, or the more I accept to understand their evils...The other strange thing is religion; the subject makes me really emotive, but was it that bad? I mean yeah, it's bad that I should attend midnight masses for my birthday, but I went to church like a lot of other kids in my time, so what? I just had other explorations to do, and fuck Christmas, if it was not for incoming new year, and that's what intensifies everything, the closeness of those 2 big ceremonies, and the stretch of cultural rigodon that comes with it, and the same song lap 2500 shit good year tires. The strange thing is, the little devil feels an inside connection with this Jesus, behind the masquerade that is this whole reality, and I gotta say that without this regular intake maybe I wouldn't be able to talk about it. As I wrote I had all kind of really weird scary pains, until many years later when I made the connection that I have Jesus pains (I'm surely not alone at that...) probably because of this unconscious connection I always felt, as it seems to happens solely while I'm deep into religious questions (I'd get seriously tortured reading the bible then? As an antichrist should?), proportional to feeling or something (getting over excited, angry, holding my breath without noticing), and it can be really intense, even incapacitating like getting my breath limited to a fraction of its capacity by a pain that looks like a sword planted in my chest. So between around 30 to present time all kind of pains appeared, lots of burning, in eyes, ears, heart, testicles, shoulders, intense and everywhere, maybe the result of old vaccines finally clearing my system that surface when I'm over stressed, if we are to take things methodically, but I had this vision of myself completely destroyed, regularly, and I mean destroyed like spread parts everywhere. I don't take that extremely seriously because there are a few possibilities that could explain the phenomenon, but I wouldn't doubt a single moment that if you can plant someone on a cross he struggled with his life to carry, then you can torture someone far beyond that, and what about a girlfriend? Why wouldn't be a woman around? Because she would be a traitor sent by the rich most probably, if he was a true lover like me and against all the pretty girls ending-up whoring themselves in front of gods full of money (legalization of prostitution, I hate leftovers and traitors, and since I learned to trust nobody and evil got a cheating system built in advance, then that applies to my ex love too, she won't get a free pass from me with Christianity as I live, but the Gaia aspect she expressed a few times hit a sensible cord, her quest I suppose, her Cassandra syndrome, which makes it so I hold to the belief that she loved me, that we were made to advance in life together. Yet, there is no end to the deception I live as I experience hell, and it seems the goal of many people I meet in my life is to provoke me to explode in violence to prove something, they're good psy, or it's bad to be a loner, what I do makes people crazy or something twisted like that, so I prepare for all options, while evil cheaters psychopaths push the most sensible people (the best senses of life) in corners until they go back to hysteric animal reactions, to reflect their evil on the other extreme, to say they are out of control and destroy their future, since they can't keep their wits about themselves...) Anyway, it seems women didn't get crucified that much; what did they do to women that they didn't like at the time? Before the witch craze from Christianity? Knowing the publicized medieval apparatuses for torture, I'm sure extraordinary torture and desecrations happened to her too if he had a girlfriend, but like me today, it is unlikely on that aspect too, since if he was a sensible man of fine intellect like me, then he would have come to the conclusion that she would be at a very high risk of becoming a tool used against him, that's why I'll probably chop my dick, after almost 25 years of my best years lacking to tears, I definitively don't want my exceptional health on that aspect and my physical capacities to become an argument that I'm on the verge of rape, while all the proofs are made that a fine mind can deal with it, contrary to all those people who absolutely need a systematization of whores and even worse... So you can bet they kept him alive, after quashing the civil uprising that probably happened (caused it, causing it, or getting it caused at the whip, since we're in slaves times, democratically (good tool in the hands of evil)), ugly proportionally to the machiavelli (evil potential, let's show our worst, since we'll erase history and we have an embargo on people). So you can bet the uprising was squashed in the most horribly degrading way, with Jesus and maybe his erased girlfriend to bear witness, and once they had done their worst they probably threw both of them in a fire as a final torture, together at it (The power flashed for a whole second when I typed fire, never happened like that before, in the world of coincidences, and there's something about that fan that I like a bit too much... the world is starting to dance with me, it's a shame I'll have to leave these spirits behind...). The superior elite? It lost control in evil, couldn't manage good so it started laughing and fell back to old guarantees, like today this reality can't manage me, my standard requires better, whatever I have the best of mentalities, I'm too expensive whatever my cost in life energy and my needs are minimized.

The "elite" bossing the population probably didn't fit "Jesus" view, or they fitted his view of evil (it applies to fairness and love minimally), so they twisted his work to keep their hegemony. They may they may even have studied his work for a hundred years to perfect their vision of it while hybridizing with their project of masses indoctrination and they reset the time to 0 to hide the price of the whole transformation. Then they made a few actions against their own institution to confound, in case the religion failed or people revolted, like their books. They twisted his spirituality to strengthen their superiority, they probably twisted almost everything and the result is what we have today, a civilization that is on the verge of failure. In this scenario, what they didn't understand is the importance of what he did; that civilization success and wellbeing was all interrelated to the principles he explained, and that by contorting a single one they failed the whole thing. So until now, that's all there is; a tentative of true civilization, since neither fairness nor a bright future is evident, and we profit from innocence more than ever, and that's why love means anything; we are not civilized enough, we're just fake people who use bullshit arguments to ignore or adapt to all kind of massive wrongs, like systemized unfairness with poor to the bones and rich senseless, and many other life disrespectful attitudes that should be fought instead of encouraged).

So they probably proved Jesus further than the truth of their own self, if we are to make abstraction of possible bad jokes and weird effects among immature leaders doing philosophy and spirituality (I had a thought for myself there...), along the way, and they may even have been further frustrated not only by the power of love, but to be described how the bloodbath would develop with extreme detail the way they would manage opposition to their mentality, and to be proven far worse than anticipated.

Worse, if they fitted his description of evil, and the guy said good always win, even under torture, and those frustrated superior and intelligent assholes couldn't see farther than their nose, then you may have embarked their brains in a wheel of self-reinforcing evil with no way out except to devise a machination to win against all odds, or all the different scenarios you can imagine.

Worse, supreme insult against the G nation, the guy is boasting that if you raise civilization by treating people like inferiors or slaves you always end-up in a fight with your population, and at the extreme, you'll fight against intelligence, you will make it not worthwhile enough to care, you'll grow waves after waves of degenerates whatever the quality of education, your authority and the cost of staying on top will forever increase, until you are overwhelmed by authority dependent morons you created that have all the reasons to hate you, as a kind of "love" relation that ends super badly in destruction...

These are only probabilities, blasphemy, at the other extreme you got Jesus that may never even had existed, choose one; why should I trust the words of a religion? I believe in gods, I don't believe in religions...

I'm too fucking big for hell, can't take me up to the challenge seriously without cheating, Lucifer failed, long ago by cheating at his cheater's rules, but right here too, trying to corrupt my life too much backfires, and I tire easily of cheater's tricks (yes you can grab me and do it easily...). Too big with my minimally sane existential needs, I'm not ready to do anything to be a part of your condemnations, or you can't provide my needs within your condemnation without generating bad feelings, as you manage your condemned human resources economically like a freaking hysteric psychopath gone paranoid, you're ready to do it again aren't you? I'm just too much, and it goes together with all my vision of everything, including this rip of extremes between me and reality, living it while living for something else, further exacerbated by opposite ideologies, with a past of not funny, and the wild savage within me. At my first step I almost plunged to oblivion, but I managed to stay on the line, with some weird unacceptable moves depicting sexual attributes in difficult situations, then I managed to stay in equilibrium and endure the wind, then I started walking, and then looking back I saw in me, so now I dance the line instead of fearing it, and just right now I'm doing a show of Olympic pirouettes to entertain all these entities I respect greatly, including humanity, and I'll try to get away with it successfully, as I continue my business with evolution.

To go back to my religious interpretations, of a Jesus and possible girlfriend, tortured at that epoch in a non-glorified or purely imagined scenario, where they probably had to watch it all while being accused of being the cause, considering the effort involved or rarity of exceptional developments, and the attention they generate (tends to moves slowly, it's a big investment of energy, like for people when something attracts their attention, but far worse as it adjusts its systems to a new schema of probabilities. In a sense life and gods connect more strongly to some senses and mentalities, and doing so they become their son, because the attention they spend is like an investment. It's like when god razed Sodom because Ibrahim couldn't find a good person there (I know that's not how it went, the truth is "out-there"), I could be that special guy that's saving stuff by his simple existence, interesting, but what's actually super rare is what I do from my deductions. But really? My life is a show and a test of all aspects of my mental, it's like evil continually manage to surpass itself in bringing me lower, it's a mega battle where I jump from one inacceptable situation to a worst one each time I try to stand for sense, to the point that the place this society pushed me to, as I write about love and making sense and good and evil, the only one I know about doing it with some competence, to make a show of the irony of hell, or to prove that everything is normal and that's exactly where good should find itself in hell, I find myself surrounded by roommates of the worst kind, a changing show older weird and sick adults on the lower end of the means spectrum, and I get continually angry, I'm stressed, that's the reward I get for fighting valiantly an unacceptable attitude from my lodging institution (yes we should reward people in their fights against evil, but it's normal in hell that you get punished instead...) only to come face to face with my city as a show of corruption (evil). I tell you I'm going nuts, if I don't get killed, it's me that's gonna finally kill somebody here, and everything in my life as you'll read these lines will have been explained and ignored, that I die or that I kill, what you're making yourself responsible for has very few equivalent in human history. I will survive, and write my life to explain the wonders of experiencing your reality and mentality, but I'm so angry that I don't think I'll ever be able to pardon this insult. Because I tell you one thing, it is a miracle that I lived to this point doing practically no violence, I even think I may be developing a problem from always succeeding at controlling my anger, it's not normal that people should experience my life without having fits of rage or violence, you understand that? And one more thing, fuck pity when it's always you that eat the shit, and double fuck pity when you are the only one with an adequate mentality around; fuck you and suffer!).

Now, a lightning strike could cause serious undeniable deception, but unbelievable evil done on the most beautiful soul and the ensuing horrors and machinations? You could really infuriate big here (that's one thing I finally understood about my white light experiences, don't fake the thing, make it worth the displacement. Oh, it take a little while sometimes, it's as near as you're ready to have it, and atomics will just propel you a bit faster so don't worry about that, the sun is atomic too, everything is gonna be allright for you).

Gods in the sky? Their son? (as being fond on someone, but it can take the form of genetic supplementation if it's within the pool of possibilities, but it would still take the form of living the process of genetic influence, which mean that there really may be a fundamental son of god, god would be the result of what it takes to succeed in the universe, perfect in his way, but not in earth's way, a loner champion of a different mentality dealing with bisexual equivalence, who knows...It's just an option, I prefer a kind of family dynamic, and you could very well have the same genetic initiated as your son that you raise and live with, and the same as a baby born on earth, that you willingly put in a disadvantageous situation, to grow even more fond seeing him getting a kind of education no paradise can provide, or it does? Isn't it?...Whoever gods are, they are still supposed to live emotions and frustrations, appropriate to how much they care, which is probably a lot, now let's test what you are ready for...).

Sure that when the super emotional and caring parents saw how humanity cared for the best life has to offer, and the interpretation options of the message, you can bet they lived the trauma too, in an extreme way, the pain of gods, the rage of gods, the crying of gods, the violence of gods, a red sky was just the start... of hell. I'm making connections where there are probably none, just to check versus my net, because you got to wonder what would be his interactions with the UI aspect of things, if god felt betrayal because we're not dong as we should, then the way I see family dynamics up there it could really mess up the universal order of things, that much, a crime like I'm describing? I have no doubt it can change the way the universe works, yes that little thing in the expanse of the universe, that single atom on the planet could have changed everything, and it's always like that that everything starts; just a flash created by a situation, make the situation true and unlock the related possibilities that someone will eventually pick-up upon and manage as an opportunity for profits in hell. So don't think nobody learned something new, and don't think nobody knows, we are all a processes of intelligence, and as senses we are witnesses. And don't think you are spied upon by some pervert, the parameters are yours up to a certain point, the way I see it, it is proportional to people affected, in fact I personally believe the next step is the history of the universe, or your history in it depending where you stand, but your personal stuff in it is yours, it's where you're from in truth, and you know how you can lose it. Then there's the global view too, where you can see the history of life on the planet under all angles, almost, you can't penetrate the lives of those who you were not concerned personally with while living, no problem there, but you still need to know where things go, so you know from where you come from, the inside of your mind, that's UI domain, a level that doesn't judge life the same way as living entities do. Then I would guess you can watch how things are going or went in other places of the universe where life is learning the benefits of fooling itself...

Me? I would regret not killing myself at the moment those assholes touched me, that's why life gave me death genetic, I can die when I want, Ah ah ah... And this humanity? My experience is that it is no different, why do you think I'm a loner, because I like it? I've been served, what superior people think of me, and with my experience, you think I can trust people? Also, you must take into consideration that we're talking gods here, a critical link for the existence of the whole humanity, and a guy that's supposedly taking great care of its "creation", if the rich people of the time and their religion did the greatest crime you could imagine, they may have marked him for shame, it's like spitting in the face of your girlfriend at her birthday party, humanity through its leadership that represents them, versus god, the hate story. It's possible there is no worse insult in the whole universe; you attacked the fundamentals of your own existence, and now you are alone, under universal very basic tutorship, a crap planet good for experiments, on the brink of condemning itself to disappear.

Looks like year 0 marks the level humanity will go back once things have settled, or been equilibrated, a pain equivalent to what has been caused, and a long struggle or regrets and shame. For religions, I had this idea of a flaming place with pyramids of evil people dying and falling in it again, where did that come from? Did Jesus or god describe hell as a lake of fire? Because if evil got its paradise on earth, then where does it go? I mean to go get hell? Evil is supposed to end in a lake of fire from what religious people understand, but this lake of fire is not nowhere nearby on earth. Neither is the grotto that lead to the 7 levels of hell, they built a pyramid over it they say, heavy enough to contain those who end-up there, but someday it won't be enough and on that day the 7 plagues of hell will unleash, they say, folklore people... And they are the ones that most contributed to made a paradise for evil out of the earth. I guess in doing so they invented their own hell too. But I don't know, I'm just a guy living somewhere on earth having that thing they call an opinion? You don't have to strangle people for their opinions you know...

But I wouldn't like humanity to go back gorilla level (there is worse, as human low level...), and torture is not my style, I'd even fill up the hell levels with cement, it's better than spending a whole civilization cutting rocks, or I could extinguish the lake of fire place if I saw it and was given that right, maybe not, depends, I just think that's a bit ridiculous, but well, who know what invention the UI likes... I'd even shut down hell if it had as a sole goal to add suffering, but as I understand all what life went through as sufferings and horror, and the insignificant fraction we witness as a civilization, then this aspect is not much of an argument. The thing here is the usefulness of a after death retribution system, to have my approbation it should have a positive effect somewhere, but when talking after death I always think of life as the extension of the UI, an aspect of an intelligence, and that intelligence faces the unknown of all possibilities, with life as its developing creativity. So, as suffering is an emotional part of life, then and a retribution system may exist where suffering is involved as a logical good and evil aspect of life (like limitations to your "spirit", and a UI would augment its chances of survival by showing that it can have that fire. What is a person who can't experience emotions?

All that should work in relation with other principles, like your effort at wanting to persevere from the possibilities you have open. Personally, I have come to the conclusion that I can only describe a new reality, and give a flower to life, and describe peaceful options I see for the creation of it all. I have all the attributes to make war plans, but there are a few factors that made me decide otherwise.

Spiritually, by attacking Jesus and probably his girlfriend and gods, you proved you wanted to play who's boss on the planet, that you saw god as a competition to attack and destroy (the universe and life), without a notion to understand the process of intelligence you're part of; gods are not around to play who's boss, stupid, with your commandments, they're here to help life develop, they're here to care, because they have a great heart and life need some on the spot nudging, to give a chance (we all make mistakes, learning from them is another matter, just don't forget mistakes can become opportunities, even systems, for profiteers and manipulators) a critical principle (like giving the benefit of the doubt), that I apply, and that evil likes to profit from... And now look at yourself in your bossing competition, you are failing both humanity and life while you wear the god coat to qualify your idols! And me neither I'm not here to boss people around, so have fun, prove your philosophy. Then I got this tendency to believe uprisings are coming along massive troubles if we don't take the life path, so I don't need to kill people, you'll battle without sense when it will be too late, when you'll finally be at the end of your life profiting and ego competition party. Finally, my preferred vision of afterdeath is not one of revenge and punition and throwing people in lakes of fire at the first frustration, or dipping them in out of boredom, it's one of education; I'm rewarded from what I learn and do to the level I can expose my soul (my true pride), and in how I stood for life while living too. So the revenge is distributed by the person itself, limiting its options (you won't want to be proud of your evil if you still want "friends"), so yes there is a form of social retribution, in the sense that all those assholes that pissed me off with their money or machiavelism, may as well end-up worthless, their existential options limited to serve me as I continue doing good work like I've been doing while living, but there is the global aspect too, the value of the best versus the worst in the perfection of everything, a logic to follow that end-up as an end result, so I got this tendency to imagine there is a value for each ideal and if you take them all together you get a universal value, and to me that's the minimal background you're supposed to carry as visible under one form or another.

Added to that is war which is simply not an option in the current situation; the oceans are limit, land life is limit, old nuclear reactor ready for meltdown everywhere, oil rigs ready to spill everywhere, massive toxic dumps everywhere, environmental instability. I wouldn't risk a war that could degenerate in the war machine rolling at a planetary scale in this situation, unless you do it the old way, with kitchen knives; I would approve of such a war, but evil would cheat...Particularly when you know how the rich reacts when they're indoctrinated to their system, and they're all cheaters and bad losers, and bad winners too, so they'll do like Sadam Hussein and light all petroleum and explode all atomics, and spread all anthrax and bacteriological and fungicides and insecticides and genetic crap, and blow-up all hydro barrages, and cause the meltdown of all nuclear reactors if they are proven wrong, big ego babies.

Finally, the selection have their minds handicapped by too mush PMBBD, they can't take the truth behind the façade of their reality because they have been "protected" (so you don't revolt and they come to enrobe it in a delivery medium that is acceptable to you) from it by manipulators and profiteers for all history, they need conflicting disinformation and conspiracy theories, and media people made their brains too delicate; if the truth is insulting they go hashtag and start a crying revolution that bored media people and some politician will encourage or profit from to "change" things, or to make things "evolve", now that they successfully demonized hate and violence if it's not done by armies or policemen. I guess that criticizing if it is not done by media people or politicians is the next step of this façade robotisation of humanity, where every ugly feeling must be hidden, or diverted, in the family preferably, to protect the best system of the universe, not perfect, just the best...Among what ideology gave a chance to. Maybe I'm exaggerating a little, probably not, but the selection will need to see massive death around them to question their certitudes it seems, proportional to the day to day extent of their empathy... Maybe we'll need to go to the end of humanity to get the proofs that we are wrong, but that doesn't bring back truth, and there is always denial to go through, and there is always a religion to provide a semblant of eternal hope until there is not a single human being left on earth. But that can take a long time, loss of potential (to show you're good enough, or for space expansion) may happen within the next 100 years, but it may take another 500 years before a meteor finishes the last rich family dynasty that survived in their bunkers with the help of their admirers. So in the end I had to write how much I despise this reality, and if there is something to it act constructively by creating a possible solution. But, well, as it should be, the timing couldn't be worse, just in the pile of confluence of top level problems, and I must make my world turn around all that, as I embark in the dance and manage to graciously save the extrapolations of my ambitions (I'm actually ambitious, the image is just different).

This dance is our test, and until now I'm given hell instead of harmony, and I answer in understanding, but since my lifespan is limited versus a system, then I have to do a lot of prevention, by having a developing and futuristic vision that stays realistically attainable for humanity, within a few advancing time windows of events, determined by my opinion of reality, down in writing philosophies and mentalities with all other credible spiritual probabilities (writing these subjects in a well interrelated manner is the second step to proving if there's something to what you use as knowledge to direct your life, like at school.).

I may not be ready to destroy the earth and everything for my ideas, the total entropy tendency of evil, (reminder, learn how to walk the line while kicking evil extreme, ah, the line is a rubber band, that was the messed-up pirouette, I'm a ninja now, nobody and nothing is out of my reach...). Since it is a weighty possibility that things degenerate in massive revolt of war, I mean "naturally" or not, then I must describe how I'd like things to go my way if I believe in my stuff, in fact I should even describe war plans for my side as an option, why not? Who makes war plans? Who uses media liberty censorship to incite people to go to war? That's part of my rights and responsibilities versus the possibilities attached to me, in fact, I have the right to be invincible and destroy whoever doesn't have the right attitude with what's left of the cake, that's what happens right now (it's just a cake...).

Continuing this god and sons business, you don't have to see Adam and Eve as consanguine. Living gods would be like you and me, probably bigger or smaller, different too. The life god is another matter, I see it as an extension, an integration, a transformation of the UI that lives its emotions through the people around it, including gods. One can die, the other is invincible. As for gods, I don't know, I have a vision of a woman looking like a human with special features, but she could be different. I don't understand how my imagination could invent her though, but she emanate so much good that I become emotive every times I think of her, knowledge, pride, understanding. Then there is this vision of a kid smiling and sticking its tongue out too...So to me god can be a guy as well as a girl, or even a couple, or a whole party of weirdoes, I don't know, and the life god is like machine intelligence with emotions related to people around it.

Now for the crunchy part of the story, if there's not enough crunch for you at this point, then I would say that the emotive effect of the crime humanity did on Jesus could have caused the removal of gods too, if you want to do your worst megalomaniac show of evil by attacking, torturing, desecrating, destroying and burning people having the greatest value to life or gods, or living the most extraordinary love story, then you may as well kick god too since the life god lives its emotions through family, which could have caused it sustained or exponential style sufferings, but let's birth another son first... Spiting in the face of god by evil sarcasm seems like a very bad idea in itself, but causing his death or exile may doom your chances too, at that point without knowing it evidently, we became a quarantined planet, a source of experiments, because but you may actually need him to pass a future step, and you have no idea of the quality of the entity you're dealing with, pure crap shit brains wins, illogism, I'm not sure god paid for this level of randomness and insanity too, so he may have gotten really angry and just quit, condemning humanity to extinction right there along your stupidity, but these possibilities are a little extreme, or is it blasphemy? Opinions, possibilities, probabilities, what's that got to do with blasphemy? It's not even in the synonym dictionary!

I should mention that I made 2 dreams of giants I remember in my life, there is one I made long ago, you may have read about it, but I didn't think much of it until recently, in it I was following and spying a giant who had its feet hurt by hiding behind my personal boulder moving with me in a mostly desert land, then we meet, then we walk together, then I steer him away from dangerous people. And I recently made another dream with giants, and in this one I was being accompanied by my father to a place in the forest full of them, maybe a dozen, relaxing and doing fun things, very big guys, twice my height, I'm going to a big wooden beam camp. I don't remember what's going on in there, but back outside there is a blond girl doing construction work, the only other person my size there, I ask her how is it here, she answer "ordinary", and I wake-up. I don't know why but I associate those dreams of giants to gods, but that may be a twisted view from the ego-gods ideology association of gods to people, so go figure, because let's say I lived in a small universe created by an extraterrestrial super civilization of big guys who's seen it all, they just tower above the universe laughing at people fighting their Christianity stuff, then the dream could take a totally different meaning...(btw, in such a scenario , I'm total war and destruction to the end of the universe if I must, I will push the terminate universe button, let it be known.)

I try to work, in my work and in reality, in function of keeping myself available to the best of possibilities, which mean I must explore and adjust in function of them so I'm dragged toward my destiny. What many people adequately interpret inversely proportionally to the level of their understanding, or understand wrongly proportional to societal bullshit constraints, if that's better...You got it all wrong because you're not bright enough, simple and logical enough? Luckily it doesn't always apply to this whole reality, everything is a process, some aspects of we can steer in condemning ways, we don't know shit, we have to explore shit, learn shit, eat it, just don't drown in it. All the aspects of my mentality versus my interaction with people and reality, make it so I should prepare myself for all possibilities, including being worthy of any position of authority, in the schema of my spirituality, that is still far from exposed appropriately, so don't jump to concussions too quickly, like I'm Jesus because of religious stuff and me; I know myself to be human, no magic powers, what I have is available to other people, and I refuse to bear the name of another person, so I`m not Jesus and I'm not the antichrist, ok? I'm just a guy! Fun at it, not crazy, I explore life and humanity and the universe, and too bad if I don't fit your stereotypes of human sanity, I feel far saner and better in my mind that anybody I ever met so let me live the pleasures of my mind.

But to tell you that I'm scared of Christianity is an understatement, and now this religion needs something big, and I don't see why they wouldn't try to repeat the same feat of attacking a Jesus style guy to steal and desecrate his vision in the name of defending the backbone of their institution, or putting all their wrongs and failures on the back of an antichrist, while their churches are already empty.... If the guy finishes them off he was the antichrist, if he embark he saves them as the messiah and they keep on with their story. I wouldn't choose any of those options, I'm independent, and my vision of life is not compatible. What would you do in my place? If they refuse to take the responsibility for their failings, then the solution for me would be to become a street fugitive. For now I'm forced by belief incompatibility to at least disassociate myself as much as possible from religions. And in a sense that's what I've always been doing; I don't know much about religion, only bits and pieces from the one of my country, but in fact I have Indian blood, I'm a savage, I have the right to be born on a planet or country without religion, ok? And I have the right to an opinion, ok? I owe nothing to any religion. What is important to me is that that I care about things, that I seek the betterment of life, and of love too.

There could be even be bigger possibilities than that; what if I'm interesting to the point that the story I'm living has become part of a of a test? Then with their antichrist story and manipulations, this religion would have almost caused the failure of this by playing in my life with its incompetence. Sure that I'm going a little far with myself here, but I can't remove their relations.

The way this looks I would say that humanity made a mess out of itself naturally, by its pretentions, reaping what it is sowing, and there is no need for a living god if he can't interfere in something living, so I would say his minimal power is selection, but it would work as a manner that is fair, meaning a selection based a lot on bad luck, or evil effects. It's a matter of giving another chance or another run to special genetics to better see their expression, but you can't force things to unfairness, and attention is always an investment (for us we make the bet that we'll be advantaged by where we apply our attention) as I explained previously.

One of the goals is automatic life systems as further genetic work develops, until the human and life recipe proves adequate to grow on a planet without UI or gods intervention to intersidereal point, developing independent creativity, beautification projects, exploring possibilities and more. If a species exploits sufficient resources to guarantee solar life failure then you embark on a different pattern of judgment before you have the gun in the face. There is a chance to still take the star trek trail, even if we are proving a failure right down to earth , and that is by proving in advance that the species is just temporary sick or wrong and that there is potential for a better way. But how do you do that? By finding or producing exceptional genetic in random population, and things continue for as long as they exist, or the reality is adequate for them to stand proud in integrity, but when you got the best all round mind and body failing, when the reality rejects them or make their life a hell, then you lose that option and you fall back to automatic life systems laws.

Any of these possible options would be different from the epochs at play, but presently I'd guess true love would be important (success on the spirit, but failed on the result...), good empathy and emotional intelligence too (successful from the amount of hostility I reaped in life while still being touched, as I continue to seek understanding and the betterment of life), pardon (yeah, unless you repeat the same evil too often), adaptation (no problem, but not anything, like evil, I decide), spirituality (my independent vision of the mind, life, UI, gods while never embarking in religions), a test of philosophy (deep stuff in minimal conflict within all what I believe in and understand), mentality (proven all over the place), strength of will and life constructive work (this book), integrity (that I pay dearly), humor (a must), add judgment, independence and or truth too (the tools I use to form my general judgment (how), to reach independent conclusions, and expose them with frankness), (in a in a reality of deception I should add (failed at the opposite), while the truth and sense of everything is perverted to the point that I decided to put manipulation as the top brick of this pyramidal reality, it hides all the most logical things under tons of super developed manipulations. Almost nothing of this reality works the way it should, no fundamental science, no fundamental principle, belief is twisted and perverted, love too, the signification of money, "nothing" and nobody can be trusted, "nothing" makes sense, that's why I say I work blindly). There could be more, like patience (that one is quite relative though), etc.

The story goes quite differently for the reality, it is failing quite nicely across the board, which grows the worth of my efforts a lot, because it's super rare and unique. The proof of that is within my writings; all the troubles I went through, I'm even living in the streets as I write this, as a result of fighting for one of my most fundamental liberty, I lost all my material possessions; how can you say that your reality is good a success or that your religion is good if 2000 years later bundles of shit like that happens to your citizens, if you can't write without fear, if you need that much police to control people, "protection" cameras, entertainment to divert them, if you need that much of a PMBBD machine, if you got a million suicides every years that you don't dare put in the front page of the news because you fear it could degenerate exponentially to reveal all the wrongs of your best system of the universe; I bet you'd have to change a lot of things for the better to stop those people you protect from the truth making a depression too...But you prefer to hide it, to justify with bullshit, to continue your selection, to provide your illusion.

As you can see, there are two sides to this vision; the person and the reality. The person learns, mature and passes tests as competence, which may include influencing reality, with your hands or with your mind, your beauty too, when possible, while reality (system) tries to make the person mature adequately. The vision of this is again a kind of good and evil balance, and it happens naturally, unknowingly, logically, as someone that inadvertly represent these virtues, or you could debark (implant) your most fond son as your most perfect genetic, for religious people, and if the reality is half competent and the genetic of the population not too twisted, then a vast majority of people should be naturally happy, and our mister should live a great destiny just doing stuff like a nobody. If most people are unhappy, or if they need direct intervention to reach unnatural "happiness", or if he reaps a bad life, whatever the way it happens (a good source of knowledge though), then it means the reality is gravely incompetent, or squarely evil, if it must create a constant pressure selection to keep on having happy people while its systems cause the special genetic to die or live a miserable life.

We should not forget that even if some aspects of special or perfect or shitty genetics can be transmitted to offsprings, they are still variable in strength and quite a quest to become the norm in a population (shitty genetics comes a long way...). A gyneticist scientist could do lewd things evidently, trying to act as gods to make a perfect genetic (in fact, to be perfect it would have to be variable in function of time to fit within life systems laws, like the genetic garbage, life does its things, some things are temporary, other under construction, other waiting for the last piece of a puzzle, other waiting for enough pressure, other are developing truths, etc, etc.).

Now, if our guy is living a hell of a life but still got the strength and mind to do something constructive, then the person would try to follow a generally positive path toward competence in different aspects of life proving herself, failing on some aspect, unconsciously, becoming mature as she consciously work to become better, maybe even gaining the abilities to modify reality where it failed. Sure that if the reality decides you can't express yourself with an effect, then the possibility of successfully gaining competence is quite limited; the reality will have failed its most basic test. And that applies to any limitation or trauma the reality impose to our especially valuable genetic. As for me, I don't precisely know what are all the factors, that's too variable, so I'm just inventing stuff, as I witness my own life happening; I definitively don't think I'm perfect as a total notion, but I tend to think I have a lot of good genetics (medium cooked, not extreme, if you remember), and I developed many qualities, and this is what happened to me, while I passed my tests.

If you want gods to do the job, then you would need a few Jesus type to always exist at all epochs, for all valid cultures who have sufficient mass (millions), which may mean that if you make a reality bow to too much complexity while seeking to make it standard, you would eliminate the possibility; you'd end-up with one last "apparition" before your end, it's like inversely proportional to some complex phenomena of population interaction and standardization.

Now I know some will want to identify them, for manipulative reasons probably, but you can't because the genetic aspect is just a fraction, you won't have it as a god that hoover around some special kid like in a sect of the chosen one, and completely fuck-up his life. Freedom, independence, your effort is the most part of the job, you think you got what it takes because you're a saint with infinite motivation so it shouldn't be a problem? Then go ahead, but know that its best if you find this special you by looking at your youth, there should be hints that something is going on there, and it's still better to fall into it as an innocent that's just too curious and brave, and then wrestle with the disaster, it's good for authenticity. Anyway, you'll most likely confound a bad trait for a good one in this reality. There may be qualities or personalities more prone, but these are in big part developed too, and it's certain that, again, bad parenthood can scrap whatever potential in the egg, or a that you can create an ideal environment for it, like a different reality. Their success or failures and the way it happens and the related loss of potential prevent further rewarding developments, which can take genetic form; go get a virus instead...Evidently, one of those people who come to represent the tests will eventually catch on the evident resource situation and develop opinions that can be seen as judgment day viable.

That's how dangerously stupid it is to play with people's lives, to manipulate people, to profit from them, to systemize unfairness, country competition wars, you could mess-up all potential Jesus or eliminate a necessary facet of intelligence or life sensibility and end-up responsible for the end, and the more risky it becomes as time advances because humanity it's supposed to develop forever more toward an ideal of life appreciation, at the same time it is condemning itself to the historical path it took, through more defense and complexity among a few factors. So yes there may have been a few "Jesus types" who pissed on the grand plans of the best manipulators and profiteers through history, and they may all have died from it, or been used to create religions serving evil. What all this means is that we should systemize things for everybody to feel good and fairly treated as a simple basis of reality.

To go back to Adam and Eve, I do not see them in the biblical way, if it was the case things would have started as a gorilla holding the hand of a chimpanzee, not very much like the pictures. I see it as the start of work on the love possibility at some point and situation of adequacy, don't forget I see love as a civilized thing. But that doesn't explain all those pictures Christianity got of Adam and Eve, while the vision I had doesn't seems to exist, and it's the simplest view of a guy and a girl holding hands, no apples around. First they are paintings, not pictures, and I would say the first one was a painting of Jesus and his girlfriend when they were young, maybe 20 years, and the religion stole it and perverted its true meaning, evidently, but again I wouldn't dare finish a paragraph without mentioning it's just an opinion...nothing else.

As for my Jesus style looks and pains, that could be weird hypochondria or an effect from emotional intensity as I tried to judge Christianity positively which has been extremely difficult; I wanted and I truly tried to justify the institution (you have no idea...), but my opinion only worsened, and if I don't take my conclusion as much more than probabilities, the fact remains that it affects me. And like that's not enough, I'll have to justify how I could permit their existence in the life reality too, because they're history, this is really like wow! Why do I have to put up with this shit? But ok, in the name of peace... So yeah, the pains may not necessarily be a transfer from life systems (reincarnation), and there is always the possibility that "someone" dressed in black tortured a baby by planting needles everywhere, even in heart and lungs, so that I'm suffering from a kind of arthritis. And they showed a picture of Adam and eve on St-valentine day while playing with a little penis all day long, priests always do that (Impostors under a religious coat could do the job too...) I'll keep it at that with the scary possibilities, I think I prefer to be a reincarnation of Jesus...The fact remains that whatever proofs a religion could have of their involvement, they can't implement my work and vision with a syringe, and that applies to any crazy possibility you can think of trying to become the supreme entity on earth with the rich by developing the grandest machiavelic plan of perverting their own vision all the way to the whole humanity then save their own mess with another machiavelic plan, that could as much be the result of an antichrist guy non-believer that hated the religion, or the work of a gang of rich people that didn't believe, or the work of star beings that punished humanity. Any possibility can be thrown on the table and it will change nothing, I could even be a baby passed from the super popular rock band "The Kennedishes", to a religion! LOL, AhAhAh, but you never know, no crazy idea is too big when you lobotomize your own kid, and get your 2 sons assassinated...then they gave the baby to the pope with a case full of dollars because they can't be baby killers after all, and the religion messed him further. Or they dropped the baby in front of a church and ran away laughing sardonically, then an exchange of babies, then my mother didn't like me much, then I got touched by life and by god, as I was ready to die at 12, the epoch where I cannibalized all the top of my fingers. I don't know what I did, probably that story where my mother caught me trying to kill my brother, she probably talked about it to the priests and they went wild, finally some action, a demon has been sighted near the north entry to the village, it's time to put on the black robes and start caressing the golden chaplet, we have prayers to do... I'll know when I'll be dead, but I suppose it's possible; is choking a kind of instinct? You're born knowing that to get rid of a competitor right in the belly? But, yeah, it's a secret of the trade that pillows can be dangerous implements in the hands of motivated babies, happens all the time... and I don't know how I was born, maybe I got out of there, cut the line, and walked straight out the door with plans of kicking asses...No, but the pillow option is still there, and I was older. Or did my mother made me feel tremendous guilt without the capacity to understand? The other option is that she could have done it and that's why I have this ease to stop breathing, worse, I'm not far from making the relation that the slap in the face that I talked about? What if she crept in during the night and slowly choked me, and removing her hand I didn't start breathing again so she freaked out and slapped me. She would be the source of my first white light experience when I was young too. That's not super cool thinking about one's mother, but it makes me curious about that big secret that her mother wanted to tell me on her death bed. the other thing is that I have known quite well (visited once every 2 weeks for years) one of her sisters, and I know that there was a lot of weird things going on in the darkness in that Christian family of 17 without electricity or psy or telephone, and she gets marriage and kids while she's barely out of adolescence, nobody to express it, so I wouldn't be surprised if she got out of it with some weird bouts, some trauma that never completely healed, at an epoch where men were a lot wilder.

So yeah, I'm not nice with my mother, I think it's mostly an epoch thing, and I always end-up admiring both my parents, and I always failed to see the hate, so really I think they've been some of the greatest and strongest people around, it's ambivalent things eh? And it's not only their strength, I have souvenirs of how beautiful my mother was, particularly when the sister of my father came from Montreal to make her shine, but I never saw a picture, and I think it's a shame, because she gave me the nicest picture of me you know... So maybe there is a lot of frustration from misunderstanding and expectations from both sides, and what can I say? My mother actually became a minecraft addict...Who knows the bottom of her soul, so yeah, between all what I learned not to trust, she may actually be among the rare to pass, and whatever people think today, to me my whole family, all of it, is made of exceptional people, and I definitively see it as something sacred, even if I'm disconnected, and anybody that attacks them is in deep troubles with me too.

I've had a lot of accidents and extreme bad luck, my pride, so it's not surprising that I'm special, with special hypochondria, or I'm a reincarnation of Jesus, or the son of gods, or all that together, your choice. Me? I'll chose the more down to earth as the most probable; a bit of special hypochondria, with a touch of arthritis, and a mother that didn't like me much; my mother hates men, and I've seen her lose it at a real scary extent, the pencil planted in my hand, if you remember, is just one example, what if she couldn't manage my crying as a baby? What could she do when I was little if I pissed her off? I'm sure I can throw shit at people! Blue satin gift shit if you can't take the blunt truth, but then the reaction of my mother traumatized me for life, she completely lost it, she almost killed me right there by choking it in my face until I almost blacked out... She had affection for everybody but me, none ever, and she was my mother you know, what will the people of this world do? What will be their reaction when they'll get the blue satin version of the ugly shit they refuse to look at that they put me in? Where is the affection, where are my friends, why I pass my life incarcerated in the worst environment around? Wow, I'll end up crucified, or manipulated, because in hell it never ends, and I fight, only to fall lower, and I fight, only to fall lower, and I fight, and it never ends, it's all my life, that's what I am, and I can't stop, and they are so many and I'm so tired, and so deceived, and revolted, only the contrary of happiness is available to me, and I'll never stop until I put an end to this torturous insanity.... And you may think I was a terrible kid, today I would even like to boast I did it on purpose, but the worst is that it was the result of her locking me up and having nowhere to shit, you can retain shit for days and go to school while stinking shit, that's very bad for nicknames and being picked for sports, so her wonderful satin shirt that she gave me for Christmas was the only piece of cloth around that I didn't use, so fuck you!

But nothing explains the Adam and Eve special of St Valentine day, which I'll place in the pile of weird coincidence in my life, good to ignore, but not to forget, particularly since I've never been an amateur of St-Valentine, so I have no idea what Adam and Eve got to do there, or why they ended up there...To fool me probably...

As I made my way in life, my love got manipulated by some other rich institution, maybe monarchy, and ended-up in British Columbia, at the other end of Canada, a world apart, but we would eventually meet by extraordinary coincidence some time after she came back.

All of this is just to explain that I can invent whatever crazy story to bring back the old days of monarchy and Christianity, or let them take the hits as the antichrist shakes the hands of the rich, but whatever the story it changes nothing to the fact that I independently passed a lot of human tests.

The other reason for this story is to say that I thought about it, it's a possibility I explored so no surprise; you know how the rich are, they have tons of secrets that they'll only tell if it gives them an advantage or a better image or if it doesn't cause hysteria in their fragile minded population, but disinformation and fear is good. Even the secrets they hide are often just diversions to clean their image, like revealing a bunch of crap documents just to say "here, no more secrets, we're clean, we had nothing to hide after all!" Just hiding an investigation to open it back 20 years later sounds bad on credibility, why? What was so clean? Explosive stuff that would change the opinion of people, it could change the vote? Yes, then the more you retard truth, the more people forget, the less people have judgment, the less they trust for good reasons (they trust blindly like a news indoctrinated horde of frustrated zombies...), the more they unconsciously feel cheated, or prefer to simplify their opinion radically, and the more it becomes insignificant too, to the point of becoming entertainment.

Particularly for a family that lobotomized one of their kid (adult), I'm sure there is as much secret there as there is about John... Big secrets they'll reveal to the world someday, me? I have my theory, like everybody I guess, something like an ultimate insult to life and intelligence perpetrated by jealous people. One thing's for sure, I don't think revealing a bunch of meaningless papers that everybody played with before the big revelation proves there was nothing, the ugliest secrets die with the perpetrator, only the nice remains, so you can idealize them for eternity...

History proved that someone like me must cover a maximum of possibilities in advance in a manipulation competition reality, I'm not saying it should be the case for everybody, but let's say I took a job that can reap mountains of resentment and my experience is that I don't even need to write a line or say a word in this reality to reap bad feelings, so it is a guarantee that some level of paranoia is justified, and I wouldn't want the manipulators of this reality to condemn me or decide my path before I'm born, or use it as an argument over which I'm totally powerless. In fact, in the worst scenario where powerful people are making an experiment or trying to get rid of a genetic particularity, then, if they are not pleased they could associate me to some evil character to sway opinions. As long as I behave adequately then nothing get out, but if I step out of line then they suddenly discover that I'm the son of Hitler, or whoever you decided represent the devil himself. And yes, it would have a tremendous impact. Never underestimate a reality of competitive, manipulators, profiteers, cheaters and bad losers...So I'm doing prevention against evil, I defend my creativity with spikes, and it will take very careful hands to touch me after all what this reality put me through.

There is enough weird for me to consider these possibilities too, and it means that whichever association of person involved is not only guaranteed evil by its secret manipulations (cheatings) but the level I would be dealing with is the topmost, the ultimate evil (with the most means). Considering this, it would be a bad idea of my part to consider that I successfully gained a general idea of the goal of the whole manoeuver. If my girlfriend, which was very much too perfect and fitting very much biblical stuff and born at the other solstice, if she saw me as the antichrist, then the whole situation, from our meeting to our separation, which involves the death of her brother btw, may have been a manipulation involving billions of dollars spread over hundreds of years. The goal of evil here is not only to manipulate humanity, but to create the greatest deception ever while keeping a form of control over people like me (I'm out of control, once I've been made crazy). Even the fact that I end up totally alone in life could have been an optional path in their manipulations, because there are many strange things and people I noticed that all seemed to work to break my life as soon as I started my fixation on manipulators. I won't know the story of all this hypocrisy for sure, but since I can't trust anybody, then I won't take it badly, I could as well unconsciously self-trick myself into making a story to justify that my brain deducted the future and created the situation for me to change that future by provoking related situations, as a weird way of life to go over reality limitations, it's like life is mirror reverse engineering brains in 3D. Anyway, do stupid shit all you want, I'll wait after I'm dead to check-up on that, because you can't trust someone in hell, or I'll seek the truth with the UI, and as a living sense of life, I'll continue my way and fuck you all, and I'll describe evil under all its facets, at its best and at its worst, explain it, constructively at it, whatever people do, whatever evil stop me from succeeding, allright?

In the Eve aspect of things my girlfriend made me believe in, no amount of sex, money or drugs could have brought about the man I am today, only love and spirituality, and you may judge me negatively in any way you want, but there is only me to have an idea of where I would be today without that bit of love. She motivated me to care far more, she was on my side, she encouraged my new direction, and even if you're not satisfied with it; I am. If this reality is too much of a mess to care minimally for the best potential, if they can't live an adequate love story because of all the crap of reality, like religions and incompetent parenthood, then I will change it so it can happen more frequently and last longer. At some point I understood that my mentality was inadequate, so I passed from changing the world to making a new reality, because it's there that most potential for success reside when you understand that you're seeking is the success of a different fundamental ideology; fundamental stuff grows best on new ground, and each tool to help success must be considered at its appropriate level of sustainability, all what's good and useful, people and things. You're anti violence because you think you have brains? Your politicians are brains? We have all the brains necessary, and the sensibility, and the strength, to do it surprisingly, doing it with heathy good intents will make all the wrongs of our history not only insignificant in the eye of the universe, but we'll have a bundle of experience with evil and manipulators, and we could even get back god on our side, or a new one, if the other one is busted or inappropriate for us, just saying...

And whatever happened love succeeded with me, if not I wouldn't fight for it, and I still have her around to represent something, and not only her, because you know what I find super nice? It's that it sometimes happens when I live something heavy that I dream of her, why, it's like the last thing I should dream about, but there she is in its simplest form in my arms turning and commenting about our clothes that didn't change, I like it so much. I know things would be different in reality, but sometimes I think that I left her my heart, as a reward for her rarity and quality, and that's why after all this time without touching a girl she still visits me, to remind me of love. Even though I decided to reject all contacts with women because I can't trust anybody and my situation is too much of a magnet for troubles, there she is, her presence is a result of love, it's good, love as a veto over my bad feelings. She is not the only one, I have adventures with unknown girls too, and there is another girl that I loved too that sometimes make an appearance, but nothing beats that day when I dreamt of one, simply slipping in my arms in bed, all feelings, and the next day it is another girl I have known that does exactly the same in another dream! And you know what I remember first when I wake-up? Their voice!

Now, if you don't care I won't appreciate you around, you're not necessarily evil, but you're not worth the attention, and that applies to love; the woman I loved was great at that, which made me love her more as time advanced for it, until I entered my consciousness war phase. And I knew I caused her troubles, and I knew I was changing too, but we listened to each other, even if I was not always caring. It's a shame I was too young, or retarded in my destiny, so I could not explain well my developing problems and visions, I asked her to be patient too, she had no idea of the many things I made efforts on. But still the conflict grew, religion was like an untold unconscious little war between us two, some lack of respect sipped in along our little sarcastic revenge games, we both pointed stupid little fingers at each other, but she won when she told me I was the antichrist, or maybe not, oh yeah? We'll see about that! And it all ended when priests got around at a funeral, it is there that the conflict was exposed, she had a world on her side, a book already prepared, ceremonies, cathedrals, I had nothing, just feelings ready to explode, I had to build my world from the hate and frustration energy. I made efforts, but I was going crazy and it was right to end, but I still regret deeply, particularly since I had somehow chosen the worst moment to show what the future would be with me. I tested her there and I still think that's me that got away with the most lasting pain, and not only from the shame of how selfish I had acted in the moment she needed me most.

After that I still thought it was worth a try to find her back but I was on my crazy track, I couldn't love her anymore, and she didn't help by her attitude either. She really pissed me off when she openly told me I was the antichrist too, stupid words thrown in a fight, she became a duality in my head, I wanted to piss her off and I wanted to be with her. I continued to "magically" meet her once in a while, I started this book on paper in part because I knew writing was a fantastic skill in her, squarely extraordinary, and I thought we could get back nearer if we worked on it, but I eventually abandoned because I understood love was not possible anymore.

Last time I met her she said she was in love, she didn't have time for me, I felt like I had only been an ordinary guy in her life while she was the most exceptional woman to me. Anyway, my tentatives at having new philosophical discussions, something we could easily do before, all failed lamentably. I felt she never quite accepted my inability to get her back too, or I've become a deception, it's so easy that one; people project their ideal on me, and I never have the competence to explain my mentality in the situations of this reality, particularly at the worst epoch, where most people are overly susceptible, with the whole humanity living the golden age of where it invested its energy, everybody in harmony walking in the same direction brandishing flags of gay liberty, with media pools to discover that people do it in happiness at 75% nominal, in their recipe of happiness, which is as encroaching as their recipe of good and evil. So people are deceived, that I'm not at the height they thought I should be in their implanted vision of what's the right attitude to have that they don't have, that they would have if they were me, so they end-up deceived at the height of their lack of judgment, but nothing new in hell, people get deceived regularly, get used to it. So I abandoned, but I loved her, and I carry this pain to this day because I knew how unique she was, that she was meant to be beside me.

Instead, when I thought about her I imagined she was having sex with another man while I was busting my head in 4 doing her part of the job, then the fact that she was a convinced Christian slowly traded nostalgia for resolve. Still, it would be nice to see her again someday, for now I locked her away in a place inaccessible, I got things to learn...I'd still wish to help her in any way for the love she had for me at the time; that part of my life is the nicest, and I gave her some troubles I regret. I have a few regrets for the great girls I've known, they are still there within me, maybe I wouldn't recognize them, but their worth to my heart is still there. Regrets can be compensated! There's pardon involved too, so I have no problem compensating the stupidities I did. And I don't say that in this book as something people should do, it is personal to me, I like rewards and punitions, I like fairness, I like people to have their worth. But I wouldn't reward as an obligation or as a friendly manner, it would be a surprise. So you never know, don't think you'll receive something, you're the last one that will, and not because you're bad, and don't think it is me that gave you a gift, it is life through me, because you connected with me and brought this sense good feelings, it is life saying thanks through me that got the means, but I'll have to work on that last part... And I like to do exactly the contrary too, don't worry, this book is an example of this, a big kick on everything I don't like, while winking to what I like, everything appropriate to size, and my preference is always to do thing anonymous, forgetting about it, thrown behind me like I never did it, other things to concentrate on ahead of me, and there's me too that I must remember to not to forget, and I'm bad at the receiving end of gifts...

At least I can say it was good to meet them in this reality, they are a proof that there is still some hope, and that it is worth working toward. My last one still haunts me sometimes but I think of something else when that happens, to keep my mind and my heart open. She can be very different and I won't pass my time comparing, as I'm older and comparisons don't fit anymore. For now, I'm living in a "cheap" situation out of self will and, I like to think, in part out of necessity for writing this book of my "cheap" adventure in life. You know that I don't take much pleasure from doing things cheaply, and that is enough to stop me completely on my track of approaching girls, I will have to be freer.

Yet, in all these years I'd have made an exception right away, if an interesting girl had approached me, while I live a particularly horny situation that just worsen in time, while I look 10 years younger, and with my imagination that can lead to particularly perverse scenes (I tend to believe my sex drive is my weakness, but I refuse to be driven by my dick). I think they fear for whatever reasons, and the first contact thing is very hard for me, it's a matter of conflict with reality that forces me to inadequacy I could say. Approaching straight people is already hard, no money or status is harder. People are deathly scared of first contact in normal life, literally; they prefer to die of loneliness than to try! And what can I say, it is so for me too, and I tried, with regrettable results. Apart from the cultural brainwash that we are supposed to spend money to meet someone, or get a job, anything for the unfair and condemning economy, there is the fact that women are still often enough suffering physical or mental violence by men to influence negatively the feeling of security of a big slab of the population, which is exaggerated by media people and the news that make an emphasis because it's interesting like entertainment while helping the pacification goal of the elite. Then there is the fact that many people don't reveal appropriate, me I show inappropriate but I reveal...a prince, an angry prince...Many men are still acting like adolescents while they're past 25, making stupid sex jokes, competing, insulting while sucking beer with friends etc. For different reasons, I think girls are supposed to be the one to approach guys, but it doesn't happen much around here, except in bars.

And I'm not supposed to play the manipulator or uninhibited or big ego or the sure of himself game to meet someone, I'm a human, did you notice? I'm not an animal, I'm not in a competition for the female, I'm not supposed to be a Hollywood "super" "stars" or a singer or someone with a monstrous complex of inferiority, I'm not supposed to create admiration hype on billions to imprint history with my ego forever either. I don't like people who need massive or constant publicity and attention to brainwash us of their superiority, extrapolating their egos to the "stars" (well, the space station should be enough, people all around the world should be enough, no need to impress the universe with their need for attention, how baby they are (babies are out of control infinite egos that have some potential at controlling it, among other things. You could say they are dependent beings who need a lot of attention). You know what we say in my Quebec corner to people who constantly bugs us for attention? Va te faire voir! (Go get yourself seen! (Kind of), many do, like Celine, and you know what we say to people that look at us constantly? Shu pas a vendre! (I am not on sale!). Attention seeking people and their admirers we see everywhere are not loving people, they are show-off people who need an army of manipulators for their images, even smoking or taking drugs is part of their publicity and manipulation, love desecration too, but they get pub, admiration and money from those who fit the system well and that's what is important to them. Anyway, I'm not like that, I'm an adult with needs, and they are not godly, control, competition or manipulation needs. I don't want to pressure people to like me, I want it to come naturally from knowing how I am, that way true love have a chance (I hope superstars understood that last part...).

The parents of my love lived in an ordinary house but it radiated more heat and well-being than a big castle for sure, there was a heart in that house, understanding, care, affection, love, all in all, life; even though there were not many. No show-off, no visual or speech mania there. At least a normal house demands less work and resources to either build or to take care of too. I don't say they were a bunch of saints, but no boss, not a chore taking care of the place, at the worst you just asked for help and if it comes then good, if not, nothing forced. I still know almost nothing of them, so I won't advance myself too much, what I know is that there is a difference between raising 2 and 5 children, growing 5 children is quite something, it's enough to warrant big differences of attitudes, but even if you are pushed to raise 5 children, you got to realize the implications. Evidently, there are people who can raise 5 or more children without problems, but growing children is not a job and neither necessarily a responsibility; my parents had a hard luck at that, they were too strongly influenced by the catholic enforced through fear colonization push. But the "peace" and "love" revolution didn't reach either family because they both were very near nature and life, but they were still both Catholic mentality families, and for my parents, it has been quite a fight to "smolder" this mentality, and they lost many feathers along the way.

What I found is that family principles are the most critically important fundamental pillars of a good civilization, and as a conclusion to this, I'll say that you don't grow children for any other reason than giving a new human being the way to independently live in a potentially always better reality, developing advancing civilization, or for strict basic species survival.

This kind of humble family made the girl I loved, but I know it wasn't easy for them, and her, too; they worked hard for not much money and they didn't escape the smoking and drinking "wave". One day we'll have to bring together both end; the people more responsible, taking more care for themselves and the system taking better care of people, all this physically as much as mentally (I'm not talking about psy). But there's nothing like personal will with intelligence and consciousness to grow a person and my love had that, her part in being herself was impressive.

But such girls are sinking themselves, without a choice, in the throng of dickheads that populate hell (when you make stupid sex jokes, you're a dickhead). I never like the principle of making of sex an insignificant activity, or laughing about it like it's some kind of joke, for me it's more deep and intense even if I still see it as a pleasure, accessories, vulgar language, no problem, but humorism? It's the party and pressure philosophy I have trouble with, and all those PMBBD stupidities like the man have two heads or that we lose mental capacity when we have an erection, that we're rutting all year round, that we are some kind of dirty animal that need women to do our sexual hygiene, or that if we don't fuck we get atrophied testicles or suffer from testicles cramps or get prostate or testicles cancer (when we'll stop fearing to lose these testicles things or our erection, maybe we'll feel less pressure to fuck continually and we'll have a chance at making better people, anyway, since we're supposed to be animals, do they get testicles maladies if they don't do it? Some pass whole years without doing it and it still works very well!). Prettiness, body forms, even sensuality have no reasons to be associated to an explosion of testosterone that transforms us into dogs or rabbits or wolves, this is PMBBD, maybe with a placebo effect to satisfy some behavioral scientists. Besides, there was a time when fat women were the sexy ones; I say a lot of people have things to prove.

And women must understand what is an erection, as a man must understand what is a menstruation, for those women who think they only have to open their legs, it's easy to base love on sex when that's all you have to do, you can even say I love you while opening your legs and then judge the man as not loving you if he doesn't get an erection; you can be as big as an elephant and ugly as a crocodile with such a philosophy, then you'll say he's gay because he have no desire anymore for you, or you'll be jealous when he gets an erection from seeing a woman who take care of herself.

What was that religion that enforced men to always "honor" "their" women? It's an honor thing, do you want the honor my love? Oh, yes, it would be an honor! Formulated in a different emballage you could get me horny here... Anything goes for your sex games, but I won't condemn myself to any stupid honor code of this reality for it, like people who condemn themselves to peace because someone said good is being "peaceful" then added that it was an honor code, break the code and you're no good. To be good, you must defend something good or fight evil if you're good enough, no peace in that, peace exist to say you want a situation or an attitude you don't like to end. Stop twisting everything, ok? I say you either stick to the above definition, or you stick to the nonviolence using definition, even if there is not much of a conflict there, the problem is manipulation to eliminate options from the pool of mental capacities of humanity (limitation of exploration, imagination, our mind is limited in a thousand such way so we function well in our limited environment and mentality, and then people go wow when they take drugs like LSD...)

If you have lost the good you were supposed to defend, then you'll have to find a way to get it back. That's your only option, you can make an emphasis on nonviolence, but you won't win against evil with that if they're armed to the teeth and use it, like all those policeman criminals we have at G summits, where they push nonviolence using protesters with violence and incarcerate them when they got out of the pre-determined zone, hurrah Democracy and "peace"; those people protest with the last crappy argument invented as an expression; protest nonviolently. What do you want more? Ah, no protests at all, accept, adapt, tolerate, sit in a chair in front of the fence, attend the fuck outside until we're gone, and your slogan better be peaceful...I'm curious though, of what would have happened without fences and with minimal security, nothing good in this reality, just a major scramble of politicians, while doing diplomacy.

Policemen these days act like they're an army against people, mercenaries always there to protect the rich, making prisoners of war and all, and we will be justified to fight them because they are an enforcement tool, the whip of politics, to keep its exploited population in the wanted direction. They stand at the last possible frontier of human dignity and they desecrate it, I'm not far from saying they are an evil institution paid to protect the most ego people, systemized unfairness, and when they attack people at the platoon, they are a dividing line that should be battled, they are more armed and protected than an army assault team, while the other side got nothing, bare skinned, their biggest weapons are rocks, I want them as well armed, protected and organized, in the name of fairness! But you can stick at nonviolence while getting a violent beating if you want, self-accepted victim, and someday near, it will be too late because evil unfair people will have ruined everything for their extravagance, twisted all the good principles until they mean nothing good, because from what I personally deduct, I would definitively not discourage people from fighting violently for another way (the condition), in minimal destruction (the other condition), we sure don't want to finish off mother earth, so nobody overreact, and you know how governments can overreact, to prove things and seize opportunities to further develop their personal agenda (the agenda of rich businesses and pharmaceutical corporations).

To go back to women being honored with sex from their partner to keep on fueling the marriage (manipulate for more babies in those times), I'll use honor as another example of how manipulation can break the validity of a principle in our unconscious (conflict states (unknown contributor to whatever frustration, stagnation, true danger of violence explosion), filling head with bullshit makes superficial people that throw themselves in whatever indoctrination that better suits their path, the system for system people). Honor is useless for a good life effect; is it a state of mind? Like a relation with pride, where it is an honor to be with someone? Is it related to ego satisfaction like a gift you give someone? Is it a code of conduct? Or does it means "giving" sex to a woman? Or is it an honor finger to it all? Your choices, but it's not too grave as long as there is no conflict between meanings; everything is there, and here you can very well see that the most evident conflicting meaning have been spread by a religion ("evidently" because the optimization process is based on justified complexity, evident conflict stops the whole process immediately because it always require an intellectual effort or investment of energy to intervene and decide what's that honor we're talking about (multiple meanings can have a bit the same effect, but the meaning is more intrinsically deduced with the context). Insignificant, yes, particularly at the personal level, but it's the multitude and spreading, these stagnations of the process of evolution by manipulators are many and spread by people dealing with masses like a free tool, they are continually going to adjust the language to get the wanted feeling from the population on a subject, or just to create entertainment).

What the heck did I get myself into, don't think making your language better is supposed to be my job, and why in hell do I talk about all these things like that? Why don't people do this? It's other people's job to understand their own mind so ego or scared they are? And I'm learning English, it's already too much for me, if you think I'll rewrite your dictionary as I write this book you're mistaken, so don't worry, you'll find examples of misuses of words and principles on my part, but the most important and evident ones attract my attention. Again, you could see it like swearing, you can take the lead and decide what's sacred, or let society or religions do it for you. And again, remember that I talk about ideals, and finally, again, my situation, or destiny, makes it so that I must care particularly, but it very much doesn't mean I have a broom up my ass, even if I stand tall, and I can play dirty you have no idea about.

I already talked about the need for stable truth, life develops from verifying reality as a reflection of its philosophies and previous results, and if it is verified and stable for long enough, then things happens. That's in big part why it is tremendously important to have many languages while none overwhelm the others with its meanings, unless all the meanings are well defined and good while not removing the birth languages themselves; that's the definition of a good international language, but it cannot remove a single language or contain unacceptable or evil conflicting twisting, and that mean no language should be spoken by an unfair quantity of people as a birth language. That is quite contrary to the competitive mentality of this reality which twists every good definition, often to conflicting meanings, and act like having many languages has no use; if it has no use then why not eliminate all languages and just keep one? Because you'll be missing the way life work, would you like everybody on earth to be Chinese? Then a big part of successfully doing it is to get everybody to talk Chinese, that is so because the stable not conflicting meanings and truths of the language transform the mind of people to some extent, a big part of our diversity is created by the ways of languages. That's important for an international language; it must be simple, pure and unmistakable, it's like a fundamental base of everybody, it must always and forever strive to be perfect, whatever its vastness, without conflicting meanings. But it's an ideal, you don't have to go crazy about it. Furthermore, learning an international language a little later, like around 16, removes most of the strength of its effect, truly becoming an international language. As for birth languages they can be as bizarre as you want them, and as different as possible. That's my belief, and I'll add that I wouldn't give the contract to make a good international language structuring solely to the ones from which the basis is taken, you'd need some level of global association for it.

Anyway, sex is not love or a proof of it. Love is not erection dependent and external pressures are not good on erection, nobody should tell me to "honor" my love. As for pills, it may be a good thing or not, depending if the goal is to bring profits to pharmaceuticals multinationals, and in what optic you use it; you're not supposed to be old with the sexuality of a young person, forget it, women must understand that too. In the end, the better care a couple takes of itself as a single total entity, in the ideal scenario, the longer they'll have sex, and there will be high and lows of it all through one's life, changes too, and it doesn't mean there is no love anymore.

To have a world with more love, you need a reality where survival needs are not a matter of competition (don't have to compete for), and where people better care for their effects, or better control their ego tendencies, which can be done through understanding and consciousness; authority doesn't much work here (authority has critically important uses, everything has a best place), it breaks the evolutionary process like copying, it doesn't reward adequately. Sex has nothing to do with that except that it's one of many facets of love. Love should not be an expression for sex, we should stop associating love with sex, fucking would be perfect if it was not thrown about negatively everywhere, particularly in association with assholes which are anuses, and a lot of fucking is expressed in conflicting meanings to say the very least, but that's a domain where . Anyway, you can find many others words for having sex, again the bad effect is gotten with mass manipulators, because our courting strategies are ours, life do all kind of weird noises and stupid things to get itself horny there, but be careful of religions and their god, they don't respect your intimacy, they will invade your liberty, limit your psychology, and get yourself married for eternity, and don't have sex before or you go straight down to hell... Minimally, having sex is more appropriate, erection speaking, than "making love" which can encompass any sexual activity. I don't know who decided to merge everything in a single activity, and you see and hear this PMBBD continually. I want sex is not the same thing as I want love. But I guess it's just me that is more touchy on that, because I care (your human job), it's a bad habit of language I tolerate it in the name of social peace...

For adult human beings, not animals or even adolescents, I have no problem seeing sex as a serious game of ego satisfaction. It is supposed to be a game played between two people, one that is spread over a long time strengthening the history of the complementarity between the two, developing more complete sensitivities through life, and leading to the possible creation of a loving family. All spilling from intelligence, imagination, creativity, emotions etc, unless you have none of these, can be used or displaced to, or transmuted for this activity under ego control, and there lies (I should say "resides" instead of "lies") one of the helpful contribution to true love; a secret treasure shared between 2 people. If you can't find enough sexual pleasures with this, you have a contorted psyche created by a sick environment, personal problems like fat, "bad" basic philosophy like competition etc. And it's not because I'm not a masochist that it is illegal or evil, you do things the way you like it, that's all, just don't put pressure on others or try to publicize it.

Love is the place where sexuality must be expressed at its strongest, but sex is still apart, and if you try to implicate all kind of saintly principles in there, or make it a frigid thing, or worst, a twisted symbiotic patent of affection, you'll fail sex, and then you'll fail love. You don't make love if you want sex, you have sex, love is a whole of everything between 2 people, you can use it while having sex but it doesn't mean the same.

And it is guaranteed that if the reality grows fat people easily, people will have a lot more troubles living love, so watch your fat, even if it is not necessarily all your fault. And growing fat is not a justification to profit from innocence or have jealousy related attitudes, you'll reap hate after a few years, and it will be you that is responsible, don't try to displace your problems on others. People have a natural tendency to dislike fat after some time, not all, but most, and the reason thin men often end-up with fatter women is not a contrary attract each other scientifically proven things people fit anywhere as an argument, it is a misery of the soul thing in lots of cases, probably the fat woman can spot a lack of sexual contacts a thin man may often be under while the thin man is really lacking, both are, but many ugly or fat women, some of which can easily scare a thin man shitless with a face, will profit from that to condemn the other with herself, it is the most hateful thing a woman can do, and some will go to the extent of hating men to the point of displacing their fat, frustrations and mental problems on them.

Some will force (through hypocrite sick pressures) the man to say "I love you", if not, she'll manipulate in crying or explode that men are all hateful craps, some will even try to condemn the man in her version of love by manipulating him to make a baby, while the new being will be born out of manipulation, negative feelings, or hate, not love, born as a tool for a sick evil brain of the worst kind. What they do is mental torture, physical condemnation, they develop hate and perversions, and you can bet the children won't grow happily, some will even be fed to become fat out of hypocrite hate and jealousy on a quest to make everybody evil, everybody must feel bad, until nobody make sense anymore.

I don't know if that applies to the gigantic sumo with the minuscule Japanese woman, that seems even more twisted, but my opinion applies to skeleton women too; I'll stumble into you the next time you say you are a skeleton because men don't "love" you, fat women are not my type, and neither are skeleton women (bony, not thin). Adequacy, remember? But these are personal widespread tastes and don't you ever make me evil for it, the evil ones are those who can't endure their "status" without making others feel bad about it. You will never force people to love you, whatever you invent popes to strip humanity of it and dump it on objects or everybody like affection to destroy it, you'll just create more hate and more evil and so on until war to protect your sicknesses with your version of love. You want to strip this world of love out of jealousy?

One thing's for sure, you will never force me to love someone that doesn't fit with me, and fat or ugly women thinking they're worth a "Brag Pit" are wrong, it would be inadequate. And a difficult youth doesn't mean humanity owe you love or a Brag Pit. If you believe it does, then write a book like mine to describe your vision of life and love, justify yourself in sense. That's not what I'm doing by the way, don't you believe I'm writing this out of self-interests, my youth is just an argument I may use among many, and my revolt against this reality comes from deducting its eventual failure long ago from its condemnations and failures out of evil monopoly of means and preventive language manipulations, like saying a possible project is something unrealistic called a dream. You can't trust someone that describes his dreams to describe something realist, and so a dreamer is some kind of person you hardly can trust, while dreams are solely an activity happening in sleep and nothing else, they may signify something, but they are not reality. Again, some manipulator twisted that to serve his view, and now it means either hype, if publicist and singers need to create some they can make something fantastic by calling it a dream, like love, or you can use it to discredit someone actual imagination workings as a dreamer's thing if you want, or you can put pressure on people by telling them to produce dreams, there are more, like wishing or praying for something which can be replaced by dreaming of something which is all wrong, and what is the straight truth in all that? A dream happens in sleep. The problem is associating it to unrealism; I can dream of realistic things as much as unrealistic ones, and since everything starts as imagination, you cannot say a project is a dream because it starts as imagination; everybody is a dreamer, and if I use my imagination to create, I make something, a project, which can either succeed or fails, depending on my judgment. As for the inspiration, it can come from anywhere, dreams are good for inspiration. Now, as I already explained, having many definitions for a single verb or word is not the worst problem, the real bad is gained from the ideal scenario of mind development where truth is a whole, your definitions must not conflict each other, minimally. They never do when they are invented (I know most of a language evolve from morphing), they gain conflicting meaning with time, as manipulators twist them to mean something else, even boosting is not that bad, as long as the boosting don't conflict the definition. I could say that extrapolations are mostly good, but different definitions of the same thing are mostly bad. A good example of what I mean would be the French word "écoeurant" (disgusting) which mean in its right and good definition something that would make you vomit out of horror, but we twisted it to exactly the contrary, now if you go in a restaurant and say your food is disgusting it doesn't mean you're on the verge of vomiting from eating it, it mean it is delicious instead, so this word and its unconscious power to eventually evolve the human is effectively eliminated. The other thing about stable truth is that it's a prerequisite to have the optimizing effect I talked about in the previous chapter, and to grow more powerful modifiers too. Something disgusting is disgusting and should stay that way, as soon as you fool with the definition, you eliminate all the work that have been made to transform it as something unconscious, you complexify the mind, and create conflicts (battlegrounds) that will stay as long as the conflicting definition exists. I know nobody cares, I'm the only one on earth, but if you understand what I mean, then you understand that a stable language with a minimum of multi definition words and verbs and principles will become easier to use for any related life system, and people will learn it forever faster, and I wouldn't be surprised if after 100 000 years it became a genetic thing, a fully transmitted modifier, yes we could be born knowing a language very easily! Other crazy extrapolations; some forms related to feelings could be transmitted to some adequate animals, or we could tremendously increase the signification of dreams to the point that they could lead our lives, and finally, and not the least, it could lead to a new communication strategy with life systems. These are the possibilities we will never explore because we let people twist everything, we don't care about how languages develop, it's totally fine if we make a big pile of bullshit with them, as long as we know the pronunciation of bullshit. Even if what is involved is different, the same kind of thinking can apply to divisive words, particularly if they help unfairness, an example of that would be corruption. Why are poor people described as thieves when they find a way to steal money? Why rich people are seen as corrupt if they do the same, almost like it's normal? When was the last time you heard media people describe poorer people as corrupt? It doesn't mean the same depending on your revenues? Prisons are inadequate for corrupt people but they are allright for thieves? What is this corruption stuff anyway? Why is it a calculated normal factor of governments? There shouldn't be corruption! None! If someone steals or makes a criminal or illegal action, then his place is in prison, not on some statistics about corruption! Someone is not doing its job somewhere (police and FBI, serving and protecting the rich and powerful) if statisticians can quantify corruption and nobody gets to prison!

So, do you wish for something or do you dream of something? What's the difference? What's the truth? You can wish for something a long time you know, if you want to boost, and yes it could be a dream come true, supposing dreams are always extraordinary things, and they are for me...I have a big project for humanity, but I don't call it a dream. I wrote that part mainly as a prevention against manipulators, my defense made of spikes, I'm not a dreamer, and I'm am imaginer, ok? So I have a project, but as I'm developing a visceral fear of humanity's present ways and self-created limitations because my project is not for self-interests or profits or sex or admiration, nothing new on the market, it is to offer a flower to life and far more, it's a love story, the grandest of the galaxy, but that will be the matter of the Life Reality chapter. No unfair ego being can imagine and want such a thing, the best such people can do is grow their intelligence to possess and stash stuff like a Brag Pit, and nothing to do with love or humanity or life, everything to do with ego, hate and death. What would you do with your Brag Pit eh? Some kind of robot? Or you'd take a facet and dump the human? Dump him because you were lost in open mouthed stupid hype? Ah, but he won't be available to you the way this reality is going, soon presidency will be a "super" "star" thing, to end things in grandeur. Maybe I'm exaggerating, it's supposed to be women doing the last stretch of representing life in hell anyway, one thing's for sure, it's not me that will stop the "everything PMBBD" momentum, whatever I write a never ending masterpiece, while an open mouthed stupid on hype that almost caused my death have more value than me in deciding the future of humanity.

More of the many reasons why the true love ideal is so rare and difficult to achieve are all kind of limitation from language and nationalism to money and mentalities from PMBBD. To increase the chances and potential for love you need a free, intelligent, efficient, lie and bullshit free way for people to initiate contact with each other. This retarded 2000 reality have not even a start at this since communication is a business and people can say whatever bunch of lies about themselves to masses, there is no way to have a hint of truth through the pile of PMBBD. I could even say that most "loving" relations in hell start in lies and bullshit since ego rules and there is no way to find some truth about the people. Apart from that, true love which should not be much dependent from money as anything else, is pushed into sexuality which is a monstrous money making industry.

The monster wants the biggest possible base for his pyramid so the emphasis is on making low end people with an expertise, and drinking alcohol while meeting people at night in the dark where we can't see for shit, gives the best all round results at that, and while nobody born to consume would argue against the pub and pressures his's born in if he's to believe his parents are minimally evolved human beings worth the cars and cities, there to perpetuate the fun and good of life, the result is that the best minds reap top insatisfaction. So people base their judgment mostly on visual clues, not always and completely in the dark while drunk evidently, but almost, figuratively, as the image someone tries to project, and the truth and history of the person, which you should know first, which is kind of necessary to know who you're dealing with and form adequate judgment, will come last, often months after you had sex with that person, and nobody complain about the bad stuff because we're not proud of our bad selection, and we try to justify, often if the price is to become mentally or sexually deranged while extrapolating or displacing our frustration anywhere there is a hint of a relation, because there is no rapist to blame, only our bad judgment.

It's like we're in a quest where sex is separated from innocence and where you need to discover the truth of people, lose innocence, through sexual performance, where intelligence reflects manipulability and falsehood, a systemized wheel where sex from innocence is forwarded to older people from heavy pressure too.

So bars are critically important because alcohol in moderation boosts the speed of first sex contact through de-inhibition, in part; when you're older, if you make it to dependence with all the pub, alcohol will become your "love"...I wonder what strip bars looked like without the alcohol during prohibition. So lots of people drink, take drugs, fuck, meet stereotypes and match themselves with their good judgment flushed in the toilet, but don't worry, nothing to see here, it's just an aspect, of the many ways that a mentality can transform reality institutionally if things are left to themselves to develop around the ideology forming the structure of reality, and here it is to make of humanity a pool of misinformed innocents, or wrongly emphasized mentalities, that you must compete in and profit from to raise to the surface (profit from whatever lower step produces).

As for love, most people will use their judgment as an extension of the wishes of the system if it simply provides them with minimally competent parenthood, which may be a rarity, and the misjudgment here is to see it as a proof that things are allright, and that applies to me differently, my life is not a proof that things are bad, but I will definitively use the crap in it as an example of how things can go wrong, how, since we're evolved and I exist so someone did a bad job somewhere (yeah my leg went a little weak imagining the vastness of the bad job, to the point that I felt like alien, alienated? I did that yes, and fuck you for not doing your most important job, oh yes that I will let my experience influence my judgment, but you won't make a business with it, and for all the crap I'll get you, remember how I see pardon? Yeah, I decide weighting what's important, and nobody get away with it, nobody forces me to pardon, maybe in the name of preventing social hysteria, or life if you prefer, but I found quite a few that will have a weird stretch of babbling to do when I'll confront them with the truth of their actions, and my presence won't bode well for their order in the hierarchy of things, over here, in this other side of things...Just saying, in case you didn't know, but you can go tell your secrets to your religion, it pardon everything, free "love" for everybody!

I was saying that we select partners a lot based on what's projected socially, whatever it makes sense or not, and who would want to prove sexuality can be anything? A marketable good? You can prove a lot of bullshit at the top of your selection (where you can't see or you ignore people like me), only to end-up crying on your knees in front of my existence, as I foil your plans, because it's not a question of what you can do with the human, for ego ideology people, but how to develop it at its best potential toward life's advancement. So fuck you, hope you're happy to force me to your style of reality, profit from it while you can, but don't think I don't think exponential factors can't come into play, on both side of my effects and potential, versus your effects and potential, and cheating put the maximum you can go at 0, it can only go downward from there, no true happiness, you'll have high and lows under 0, but that happened long ago, this whole reality is a cheat in itself, but ok, you want to make it a competition and make the rules to unfairly advantage inadequate mentalities? Allright, but cheating your cheaters' rule is top at the palmares of stupid evil, for high consciousnesses, it's just too shameful. That's why I say that all people involved in cheating humanity massively should kill themselves immediately to limit the shameful crap their consciousness will have to deal with, you have an opportunity in understanding here, and this is very serious, don't wait, violently regret now, every day you persevere is a ton more of misery you'll have to account for, and next it's the gun in the face! Cheating is not a sustainable long term survival strategy in the universe, it invalidates critical aspects of its work and evolution, and you have to deal with entities that can ridicule any amount of obstination you have, because wheels of obstinations from twisted mentalities it's a force known to be as infinite as entropy, but don't worry, who dares take this shit seriously? And the universe, while trying to be fair, is not punishing as a mentality, it's probably just you, in what kind of trap you'll find yourself, and your quest to get out of it, which become more difficult and out of your reach the more you think you can get out of it easily, sorry, welcome to the bullshit in your head.

Humans do selection consciously while animals do it because they are following mostly "hard coded" laws, they say, but I'm not sure it's the right vision, I don't see animals as robots, I see them as having a safe basis from how "love" works for them, and from that they do what we do, explore and try to understand while keeping their place (through their reproduction ways), and since brain size is not a reflection of adequate intelligence, it is certain that many animals understand stuff and behave far more intelligently and yes, consciously, than a big slab of the human population that managed to stuff themselves an expertise...I would say it's proportional to a species capacity at optimizing consciousness and the capacity of the unconscious versus consciousness and body capacities too; hands work alone or do they work under control? We are hard coded too but our mind and body capacities can overwhelm everything easily, unless we are under too much PMBBD. We can optimize consciousness to the point of bringing our selection to almost all levels of our unconscious, but it's like inversely exponential to the ultimate truth of everything, or existential facts, I mean, the more you want to make the human great, the more you need adequate complexity and understanding to let life express itself within that space, existence of which must be verified as facts, we're supposed to use our intelligence as a logical tool for that, with the forefront easy principle that the path is the best way, not much logic involved here, but many people fail right from the start from not caring about these things, as they become big condescending adults with experience at behaving in hell... don't do it and everybody and everything pays the price, and evidently there are all kind of bad (evil) ways, and you can destroy the whole thing by stagnating it or by selecting people for profits (make the system in a way that they are seen as worthy only if they turn the crank...

As is the case for most things, there are good ways and uses to selection and bad ones, and a maximum sex at all cost philosophy sure helps keep the base of the pyramid large, and ego powerful people hope, forever growing... This base will go to school to learn one or two specialties, and often the reality will condemn them with a debt by forcing them to learn a vast amount of stuff and PMBBD (not necessarily at school) that is of no use, so their thinking become more limited and easier to control, occupied somewhere else too, party too as you can't ask people to never have fun, while the reality imposes itself in their unconscious more strongly than necessary as they rise and fall with the flow of their work of pride to be a part of something. They become lacking specialists, (lacking in sense or large truth basis), with all kind of problems, which makes them gullible to be profited from by the higher levels of the pyramids...

So a lot of couples are formed by external brainwashes, the result of an ego competition of brawn and brains, all the way to the structure of the educational system, and take a drink to mess that up some more, since it kind of makes the brain lazy and gives predominance to the "social" or "collective" brain, which in this reality, is made of a lot of PMBBD. Now the question why people are that much easy to influence in their sexuality (because people do try things), but the why this reality needs a maximum of sex and babies are many, and mostly wrong. Maybe it's normal, as a far-fetched theory for such panicked pressure for sexual activities, it could be that that our unconscious, with all its modifiers, deducted that our "love" ways will bring us to the end. It tries to make us "feel" it, and because we never learned well the use of our consciousness, in big part because we failed to let men and women judgment act complimentarily, we react to that feeling like animals, even insects (under governmental control by the use of contraceptives).

I'm thinking of something crazy following that line. Since the rich are at their position because they are unconsciously the stronger defenders of ego-gods ideal (the most willing to do anything for money or fame, politicians would be the most believing in the workings of the system, when you're lucky, and it's a shame for the good ones who genuinely believed the hype, like good hearted religious people who sacrificed it all in the name of the institution (Christ-inanity)...) which is probably the philosophy that our unconscious deducted from time immemorial that would lead to grave troubles, the condemnations they were now facing in a system where a type of mentality will always reign because they made themselves dependent, so they cannot lose their place, nothing can better than their system with the like of them as top "god", ask the Egyptians, no vision can be better, nobody can tell them what to do. Following that optic they'll try to prove they are right, superior, they must survive (since the system is dependent from them which is true), so they'll prepare for all options in a fantastic panoply of ways, so much that if total war explodes, they must be the winners, the last ones standing, and they have the means, to destroy everything. Except some of themselves, evidently, and they will get out from somewhere when things get better, and restart exploitation of resources and people all over. They will fight to win like that to the end of time if they must, civilization may crumble 10 times, and there are many that already did, but they'll still believe they are good and doing the best for humanity, humanity is "their" thing, they made it, selected it from the beginning, unconsciously, simply by their attitude and the life energy they need, exploit and control, systemized through mass death; ego is first on the cake and systemize it by immediately by giving a chunk for some mercenaries (media, police, army), and friends (pushers) evidently.

So we are probably in part in a panicked (unconsciously) animal loop of overcopulation from justified fear of death from our attitude, in part, and the unconscious indoctrination of powerful people makes them use it to their own ends in their racist country competition. In their panoply, it may be one way they can use to win, brainwashing and encouraging more sex indirectly, like religions saying thou shalt honor thy woman. Governments and all the ego conglomerates (wow! I've found an ego conglomerate!) of all kind who need more people for more money, whatever the HIV overload, which is guaranteed to be their worse enemy. The result is that we are pressured to have sex like crazy so much that all those contraceptives are barely enough to control the population. Too many people in turn lowers quality (more poor) making more easily manipulated workers and soldiers since a job is critical to one's survival in this reality, unless you depreciate rapidly in misunderstandings and bad habits to tough the day.

If the population realizes civilization survival is truly at risk, then people may decide to develop a lot more their consciousness and do drastic things, but even if widespread civil war starts, governments can always shut down contraceptive production and the momentum from sexual activity would overwhelm the world with young unconscious needing peaceful parenthood and leadership; people would need to relax their protests or the new youth would be easily manipulated to take the side of ego, like they do in war indoctrinated countries (did you ever notice that protests are almost only money related in this reality? Yes, and if you paid them enough, most would stop protesting...).

I will add that independent understanding and consciousness in adolescents will start expressing itself with lots of difficulties in a situation that leaves them the opportunity and time to do some thinking, but even if that will hardly give results in this reality, it is totally invalidated if you put a powerful adult tool in their hands, particularly if this tool got easy power of life and death on others; a gun. The associated power of holding such a weapon at that age overwhelms everything, some will think they're suddenly adults with a worthy responsibility, but most unconsciously know that they have not developed the judgment to use it from their own consciousness, so they becomes a weapon under someone else control, thus dumping the responsibility of their actions which they logically cannot hold.

So, in a war not only most children will work and survive on the wrong side, but if lots of adults die it may become a children war, and who will win with starving children? Now don't think this is necessarily written on paper somewhere, a lot of what I write about is unconscious battle; systemized unfairness is automatically seen as an evil thing in our mind whatever we are saints, the conflict is everywhere and fundamental, it's like saying it is impossible to do a good reality out of an unfair one, unfairness is unfairness, it is not good and never will be whatever you fight to eternity to make it a good thing, and so whatever we fight like crazy to make things good, we'll forever sink ourselves in more troubles unconsciously because the logic is invincible and beyond consciousness, meaning our conscious deductions and actions cannot covers all what our unconscious can cover by itself, probably because consciousness got to work with the infinite useless complexities of reality in part, imaginative entities too, and time power may not be the same, and modifiers are in it, and non-conflicting logic is all interrelated. Making unfairness a good thing is fighting against the whole mind, it is fighting the whole life creation made through trillions of years. And thus, while we think we are so good, we are only tricked into believing we are, our unconscious continually work against us, or if you prefer, life want us to fail this view, we are battling life's will, and we probably did from the moment we started competing over stuff.

Alcohol is one of many tools (an adequate drug they'll say) used to create adepts and defenders of this easy sex business, lowering independent willpower along the way by creating dependence. Manipulators, psy and publicists will almost praise alcohol for its de-inhibition properties, like de-inhibition is something positive, to push you to more sex. We have to minimize (not make evil) this cultural drinking of alcohol, and we only have to stop publicizing it, but psy, publicists and manipulators make less money from inhibited (full brain functional) independent people I guess... Personally I do like to drink some alcohol but I choose my moments, even if that is not much valid anymore.

I think that living in a reality where love, life and good can thrive would lower population to equilibrium levels, maybe half of what it is today, and, as a bonus you'll get a lot less nonstop talking, continually recruiting, big shot divergent sexualities, transmitting psy PMBBD as a proof of their superiority or good; maybe such minorities will find themselves a more appropriate "niche". Love is hard in a reality where it is hidden under PMBBD; you're as well throw a dime to choose a partner and hope. Presently love is almost becoming a global systemized and legal pedophilia rape from using PMBBD on the youth, and you either endorse it and become a member or you'll end up truly betting on sex, being extremely lucky if you live true love. You'll probably settle for a more calm sexually tired dickhead at best (I include women in most of all I write, you are not far from becoming exactly the same as men, mentally, and that includes profiting from innocence and pedophilia with young imbeciles that are guaranteed to be proud of it in this reality, there are many female pedophiles and they are no better than the male version).

As for internet sites, they had everything to help love, but they have become the one profiting the most from it presently, I wasted tons of money there, as a young and cute guy (specifically the type most targeted by love profiteers), and I never, ever met someone, while with 50$ in an old phone system I could meet 2-3 girls. And I wouldn't even trust someone there among the trillions of fake profiles with a bot behind, I'd have to force her to give me a blood sample so I can test if she got sexual diseases apart from the suspected mental ones. In fact, the internet will be very good at spreading sexual viruses and sicknesses, mental ones too, I wouldn't be surprised to see another sexual malady appear, something worse than the HIV, more scary and ugly, big, with eyes, like a beholder, appropriate to limit reproduction of fuck all free for all people (FAFFAP for acronyms and hashtag and me too people), select them out, and maybe after 3-4 of such maladies, the world will be ruined from trying to fight love. But people like me will become still more paranoid of human contacts, and we'll be the bad ones for it...

A lot of people in this reality will never understand or know true love. Some will give it attributes of a romantic undertaking (romance can be cool once in a while but it is not love), while many will think of it as impulsive sexual consumption and training thing, thinking of themselves as some Don Juan with a placebo drive to stay forever young as they distribute their experience. Others can't live with the same person long without making a depression, or without seeking the ego boost they get from impressing a new person again and again. They will wait after they're past 40 before considering that they're getting old enough to consider sex as something else than competition ground; in their head they'll have a little chance that a spark will finally form in a virgin place, to get them to understand that one of the critical aspects of love is time; quite late to start loving! They will still have a brain to control themselves enough to live a lasting relation, but they will still be very rare. After fucking a lot they'll have gained a lot of manipulation skill, something they'll throw about as wisdom, but now that they're getting older, they'll have fewer chances to find younger girls, so they'll settle, it will be love, and the manipulator will get still more admiration for his 20 years experiencing at fucking around. It's just a scenario, and it may apply to women too; differently.

I think I expressed relatively well what I think of sex and love, now you can be an adept of any philosophy that fits your view all you want, but my view is on the pile too. There is a hundred books defending this sexual view or that, and they all think they spread love, where is this big love I'm missing? They are not cumulative I guess, or they are all wrong, or meant to profit from love, or to make adepts of some sexual activity. So I don't have much of a good opinion of all those "philosophers" and gurus, residues of the 60's era for most. And even if the guru proudly boast fucking a thousand women, in his "love" version, and then writes a bible saying the human is like this and like that from the observations of his manipulations, he just successfully fucked only those who fell for his manipulations, he made his selection, within what the reality permitted, and he will probably use that to further influence reality toward his conclusion, which is normal behavior, if you understand all what's involved and if you're acting around the best possible manner (with good intents). So it mean nothing good to me that you succee at inflating your head beyond the atmosphere by getting the whole planet to become a reflection of your vision, you'll "just" have used enough tools, like PMBBD, to create a systemized unfair selection fitting your view. It can proves the extent of your stupidity though, be aware of that, your weaknesses, they can and will be used by the enemy, it can be used by the enemy. But yes, your selection will defend you, and he will use PMBBD to make those against it insignificant, like ego people did with gods.

All those guru books are good to make sects, because they are written by the most perverse and twisted people around, and guess which one is missing? It is the one about the truth of love, which defends good and truth, which tries to find the best path of things. Such gurus will even say that their kind of women are the most intelligent of the world, you know what I think of the intelligence compliment, not much...The truth is more like both the guru and his women are the most retarded of this world, even if one got some intelligence facets developed, and the other shows a sign of intelligence. Does a pretty woman with an ugly nose exist? Yes? Then a pretty woman with an ugly mind exists too. You may have succeeded at manipulating people to accept your view, but your effect on others is tremendously negative, there are people that will never be with a woman, thank to you. And if prettiness is a synonym of intelligence, then I'm far more intelligent than you and my opinion is far more valuable. I say shut-up, fuck the women that are like you and stop trying to transmit your crap to the whole world like you've found utopia, and get the word intelligence out of your mouth fucking moron, intelligence is variable as life advances, it is not quantifiable, it have nothing to do with beauty or the size of the brain, intelligence is not a single thing, it is a thousand different facets (take notice that I never qualify someone as lacking intelligence in all my books, but there are many moronic people...). And the pretty women you get by saying they are intelligent as a compliment are the most moronic ones, in fact, all what you want is their beauty near you, and boasting around how hot you are.

As I already said, I aint got much sex experience, and I'm not a woman so all this is just a guy fighting for true love, what about you girl? Where are you? I need you! So if you're frustrated or a feminist granite block that has a score to settle, shut-up and go back to some emplacement on a competition pyramid, I have a vision, what's yours? I can compare the battle of good vs. evil as the battle of love and life spirituality vs. ego and the human "god" "spirituality" in much of its facets. So for me, it is no love no sex, at least until a love story becomes too improbable. I passed a few opportunities already, just because manipulating others is not my strong, it got to go through my mind and my heart before sex, in truth, and that doesn't work at all in this reality. But I'll see in the future. Finally, I'll add this; many things can give willpower, individuality, money, global self-valorization (this can work in an ego sense and is used by manipulators to take more energy from you), but nothing can beat love for a loving person, and it's another reason why a lot of people won't live it; true love will always make people jealous, and frustrated, but in the end, you have love in your reality, or you let it be destroyed by jealousy and competition of all kind including PMBBD, and particularly profiteers and cheaters, because this is where evil depresses humanity the most; good people shouldn't feed on the leftovers of evil if they don't want to spread the bad aftertaste, that applies to people as well as reality. One reason why I became such a nice guy even if I lived a poor and hellish life, is that I limited my interactions with what evil corrupted. Music, TV programs, money, you could take friends as an example too, women too, I could have had a harem, tons of wild dirty sex or reproduce more than most, but I refused, to the point where I would only accept the most rare and unlikely scenario of love in the name of authenticity, one that would disappear as I grow older to no contacts at all, whatever my sex drive or the power of the feeling. I'll live my life frustrated of all the best that should be mine, while you fight over the remains, and I'll just shed tears at the desecrate, at the lack of life understanding, of the value of things, all the spirit that has been remove from good, that should be reflected as a glorious civilization, but in fact will require a restart from clean stuff evil didn't manipulate.

There are not many people who will understand what it is to feel and know and to have the capacity to live my power but not doing it because I reject the way I would both live these things and the rewarding effect I would gain from these, to the point where I live exactly the contrary of what I should in good logic. It's not like you can't do something and you develop the goal of doing what someone else can do to prove something, no, you become a fraction of yourself out of spite, because you fight for your mind, like my chocolate fight.
