If you've ever been on social media,
chances are you know our next guest.
On her outrageous YouTube channel,
she doesn't hold back, from binge eating,
to getting up close and very personal.
Tricia Paytas recently stirred up the online
community after posting a video revealing her
struggle with gender identity.
Today, I'm going to be doing a video
that might, people might think think is
I'm trying to be offensive.
(upbeat music)
I identify more as a gay man because
I like guys, but I also identify as a guy,
if that makes sense.
My head, I feel like I'm a transgender
female to male, but also like a drag queen.
Like a drag queen right, they do
like their full glam and everything,
but in their day-to-day, they're not,
they're very like low-key, whatever.
That's kind of me.
But, if you guys know me in life,
I just never wear makeup and so I've always
just kind of related to guys on that level
and I've always just been attracted to guys,
but not straight guys, I've always been
attracted to gay guys so that's why
I've like always thought maybe I'm a gay man.
Tricia later issued an apology and then tried
to clarify how she is questioning her gender identity.
I put out that video and in no way did I think
I would get so much backlash and hate and
I'm sorry if offended people with my language
and the way I said things and like I've always
been drawn to the transgender community.
I know maybe I created this for myself,
that when I used to troll years and years and years ago,
and I'm sorry if my confusion or my vocabulary
discredits me in any way, why I act like a female to you.
Let me just say that I'm a female
and just continue being unhappy.
I can't apologize for who I am and it sucks
that we live in this world and I'm just not
allowed to identify as a man because of how I look.
My story isn't meant to like offend anyone.
(suspenseful music)
It really has taken this weird, ugly turn.
Not the purpose of that video.
That purpose of that video was to just
show like, hey this is how I feel,
like on the inside this is who I've been.
I didn't see it as an attack on a community.
I've always have had confident gender,
I've always considered myself more than an ally
of the LGBT plus community, I've always considered
myself in there as bisexual, as transgender,
and now as questioning, I suppose,
because I, myself, am not sure.
A lot of people ask me,
"What pronouns do you want to use now?" and,
"Are you going to transition?"
I don't know.
I like who I am.
I'm not comfortable in my body, does that mean
that I'm going to be comfortable in a different body,
completely in a different gender body, probably not.
