 
CHANGE OF HEART

By Fran Shaff

A Fran Shaff Family Novel

Historical Romance for Everyone Who Loves a Love Story.

Change of Heart By Fran Shaff

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Copyright 2010 by Fran Shaff

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DEDICATION

For all of the good people of Nebraska, one of my home states, and, as always, for JC

### Chapter One

Marietta Randolf pulled her aching body from the stagecoach which had shaken her insides for the last two hundred miles. Her tired gaze drifted over the vast Nebraska wilderness. She didn't like it. She could scarcely believe _anyone_ would willingly live in the Nebraska territory, let alone her beloved sister Kathy.

The journey to Fort Kearney from Chicago had been a miserable one, especially since leaving the steamboat on the Missouri River south of Omaha. Stagecoach treks were not for city ladies; they were for mules and men and other wild creatures. Marietta found it amazing that in the modern age of the late 1850s, travel to the west was still so primitive.

She massaged the aching muscles in her back as best she could without drawing too much attention to herself. She doubted her body would ever forgive her for leaving civilization.

"Do you see your young man, Miss Randolf?" Mr. Henshaw, a fellow passenger, asked.

"My young man? Oh, you mean my nephew Zack."

"Yes, ma'am. I don't see any children."

"Likely he's inside the fort. However," Marietta said, looking around, "I am expecting someone to meet me. I don't see him yet."

Mr. Henshaw tipped the hat hiding his gray hair, smoothed a hand over his dark suit, and lit his deep-blue eyes the way he'd done numerous times on the ride from the river. "I need to board the stage once again, Miss Randolf. The driver has taken down your bags. He's ready to leave."

Marietta eyed the driver who'd refused to give a body two extra minutes to rest anywhere along his route. "It's been a pleasure to know you, Mr. Henshaw," she said, looking at him again. What she told him was a lie, of course. He'd been a bother since they'd boarded the coach. His annoying parlance had blown through the conveyance as constantly as the prairie wind. In an apparent attempt to impress her with his intelligence, he unceasingly misquoted the Bible, Ralph Waldo Emerson, and Charles Dickens.

Mr. Henshaw took Marietta's hand. "Again, Miss Randolf, I offer my sympathies over the loss of your esteemed sister. God be with you in your time of sorrow and always. He'll be with you in your new life with your nephew as well."

"Thank you, Mr. Henshaw," Marietta said, forcing a smile in the direction of the annoying man who was finally behaving in a gracious manner.

He released her hand and returned to the stagecoach. He waved from the window as the coach pulled away.

Marietta nodded and watched the violent vehicle shake and roll over the colorless prairie.

A sudden gust of late-November wind chilled her.

"God's Cathedral," she mumbled, repeating what Mr. Henshaw had called this barren wilderness. Marietta would never understand how he saw Heaven in the countryside which, to her, surely had to be a reflection of Hell itself.

"I beg your pardon?" A deep voice startled her.

Marietta turned and found a man staring down at her. He was covered in black from hat to boots, except for the red bandana around his neck.

"Did you say something?" he asked, fastening his dark wool coat shut over his black shirt and waistcoat. "I heard you speaking and thought you'd seen or heard me approaching. Were you talking to me?"

"No, of course not. Just thinking aloud I guess," she replied, slightly unnerved at being met by such an attractive man. She'd been afraid all men who inhabited the prairie were as old and annoying as Mr. Henshaw.

He nodded toward her. "Nothing wrong with that." He took off his wide-brimmed felt hat, revealing a mass of dark molasses hair. "I'm Jason Kent, ma'am. Zack's been staying with me on my ranch," he said, fingering the brim of his hat.

Another chilling breeze washed over her. Marietta shivered and pulled her wool cape tight around her. "Thank you for looking after my nephew, Mr. Kent."

"It's been my pleasure."

"How is Zack?"

"He's doing quite well, considering what he's been through. He wanted to come with me, but I thought it best for him to wait at the fort."

Marietta nodded and shivered again.

He reached toward her and tugged her cape tighter around her. "You're freezing," he said. "We'd best get you inside." He looked at Marietta's luggage and returned his hat to his head. "I'll have to make a couple of trips to take your things to the Carsons.'"

"I'm sorry to be such a bother," Marietta said as she watched the accommodating man easily hoist her heavy trunk on one shoulder while he picked up another of her bags.

"No trouble, Miss Randolf. You've had a long trip. It's cold this time of year, and you had to be prepared." He inclined his head toward the stand of buildings inside Fort Kearney. "Go straight ahead, ma'am. I'm taking you to Lieutenant Will Carson's quarters. His wife Amy has a place for you and Zack to stay tonight."

"How wonderful, and how kind of Mrs. Carson to take us in." The thought of being inside a real home again offered Marietta a great deal of relief.

"She's a fine woman, Miss Randolf. God-fearing and kind." He took a few steps in silence then asked, "Was your trip to your satisfaction?"

"Certainly not."

"Problems, ma'am?"

"I'm afraid a stagecoach rides nothing like the surreys we have in Chicago. But then, our streets are more navigable than these rutted prairies."

"Yes, they are."

She stopped and looked up at him. "You've been to Chicago?"

"Yes, ma'am. I was there when Clint met and married Kathy."

Marietta shunned the heartbreak which plagued her at the mention of Kathy's marriage. "You were there? At the wedding?"

"No, ma'am, I knew about the wedding, but I didn't attend. They eloped you know."

"You knew they were getting married? Why didn't you stop them?"

"Stop them?"

"Yes, you should have stopped them, _someone_ should have stopped them." If Kathy hadn't married Clint, she'd still be alive.

"I don't think anyone could have stopped them, Miss Randolf. They were quite determined and both of age." He stared down at her, shifting the heavy burden he carried on his shoulder. "Did you try to stop them, ma'am?"

"Yes, of course," she said on a sigh, "but, if I couldn't make it snow in July, I couldn't stop Kathy from leaving with Clint." Kathy had possessed a mind of her own. She'd often ignored even the teachings they'd been raised on and done as she'd darn well pleased.

"Exactly, Miss Randolf. I'm not sure if even God Himself could have kept Clint and Kathy apart. They belonged together more than any two people I've ever seen in my life."

"Mr. Kent, I'd rather not talk about Kathy right now, if you don't mind." Losing Kathy to Clint had been bad enough. Now that she'd lost her to death, Marietta could barely stand to think of the pain of the loss of her sister. It ate at her like a disease.

"I'm sorry, Miss Randolf. I didn't mean to upset you."

She took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "Let's find my quarters for the night, please, Mr. Kent. I'm very tired."

"Yes, ma'am. That way." He inclined his head toward the fort.

Upon entering the compound, Marietta took in the layout of Fort Kearney. Five unpainted wooden houses stood next to an open square. A large number of mud and sod buildings ran from the square out along the roads into the fort. Young cottonwood trees lined the borders, the only shrubbery visible for miles. A flagstaff rose in the middle of the square. Various guns and weapons stood within the fort. Marietta was unfamiliar with their capabilities, but they looked sturdy and reliable enough to protect the fort from hostile attack.

On the west side of the open area stood a large house, unpainted and rather unusually shaped. Opposite the large house was a long building which rather reminded Marietta of an eastern barn. The two-story dwelling was, no doubt, a barracks for the soldiers. All in all, the buildings of the fort seemed run down and in need of repair.

"The Carsons live in the wooden structure over there," Mr. Kent said, setting down Marietta's bag and pointing.

"Would you like to rest a minute, Mr. Kent? The trunk must be getting heavier with each step we've taken."

He smiled and shook his head. "No, ma'am. My burden is light compared to what I have to carry around at my ranch sometimes." He picked up her bag again. "Go ahead, Miss Randolf. I'll follow you to the Carsons' now that you know where they live."

When they arrived at the Carsons' tiny home, the door flung open, and a little boy darted from the doorway to Mr. Kent, grabbing his leg. Marietta thought surely the boy, whom she assumed was five-year-old Zack, would knock the man over, but Mr. Kent stood as firmly as a cedar in a storm.

"Jase! Why did you leave me, Jase?"

"I went to meet the stage, Zack. You knew your aunt was arriving today."

"But you shoulda taken me with you."

"You were sleeping, son. I didn't want to wake you."

"It was only a nap." The boy scratched through his blonde curls. "You could've waked me."

Jase set Marietta's belongings on the porch and scooped the boy into his arms. "This is your aunt, Zack. Marietta Randolf, your mother's sister."

Marietta smiled at Zack and moved closer to him. "Hello, sweetheart. Your mama wrote me many letters telling me about you."

Zack pulled away from her and hid his face in Mr. Kent's shoulder. "I want to go home, Jase."

"We've come to the fort to meet Aunt Marietta," he said, pulling the boy's face from his shoulder and forcing Zack to look at him. "I told you she was coming to take care of you. You and I talked about that."

Zack shook his head. "You told me, but I didn't want to hear."

"Don't worry, Zack, it will be all right. You'll like Chicago," Marietta said, reaching toward the boy and touching his cheek. "You'll go to fine schools and have all sorts of children to play with. There's so much to do in the city, you can't even imagine."

He pulled away from her. "I got plenty to do and a fine home here with Jase. I don't need no children to play with or no fine schools. I got Jase. He plays with me and teaches me all I need to know. I don't need anyone else."

Jase held the boy away from him. "I'm not your family, Zack. Miss Randolf is. She's your ma's sister. She'll give you a wonderful home and be a good mother to you." He set the boy down.

Zack stared at his feet. "My ma's gone. I don't need a ma anymore." He looked up at Jase. "All I need is you."

Jase hunched down next to him and took off his hat. "Son," he said, fingering the wide brim, "we talked about this. A boy needs to be with his family. It's God's way. Your ma wants you well cared for and loved. She wants you with your aunt."

The talk of Kathy's demise and her wishes for Zack grieved Marietta to the point of collapse. She moved next to the porch, steadied herself, and listened as Zack and Jase went on.

"I don't want to leave you, Jase."

He rubbed his hand over his face and focused on Zack. "I know, son, but you've got to be a man about this. Miss Randolf has traveled a long way to come for you. You belong with her. Believe me," Jase said encouragingly, "you're going to love Chicago. It's an elegant, wonderful city. I know. I've seen it."

Tears trickled from Zack's blue eyes across his rosy cheeks. "Jase," he said thoughtfully, "I don't understand why I can't stay here with you." He wiped his nose on his blue-calico shirtsleeve. "But I'll leave if you say I have to. I'll do anything you say."

He embraced the child. "You're a good soldier, son. You'll see. You'll like living in the city."

The boy pulled away from him and looked up. "If you say so, Jase."

He touched Zack's cheek and stood, glancing at Marietta. "Go inside now," he said, looking at Zack. "See if you can help Miss Amy."

"Okay, Jase." He shuffled up the steps and turned back to look at him. "I always do what you say, but I don't want to leave you." He quickly turned and went inside.

The second the door closed, Marietta allowed a few determined tears to trickle down her cheeks as she sat on the porch and dangled her legs over the edge. She pulled a hanky from the pocket of the coat she wore under her cape and wiped her face and nose.

Jase sat next to her, fingering the hat in his hands. "I'm sorry about Zack. He's been through a lot, but he'll be all right."

Marietta looked up at him.

"Zack will be all right," Jase repeated, "and so will you."

"Of course he will," she said, looking away. _Would either of them ever really be all right again?_ she wondered.

"Miss Randolf?" He paused. "Ma'am, if you're up to it, there's a bit of business we need to discuss."

"Business? What do you mean?"

"About your return trip to Chicago. I know the events of these last few weeks have probably made you feel like you're stuck in a whirlwind, and I'm sorry I'm about to make matters even more chaotic."

"I'm afraid I don't understand."

He twisted the brim of the hat in his hands. "You see, I've arranged for your immediate return, just as you requested in your letter. You'll leave in the morning with a caravan of three other wagons heading for the Missouri River. You'll board a boat at the river and take passage back to the city."

Marietta started to weave when darkness began settle over her. She nearly passed out at the thought of traveling again so soon.

Jase steadied her with a strong hand on her shoulder. "Are you all right, Miss Randolf?"

She rubbed a gloved hand over her face, hoping to wipe away weeks of fatigue. "I'm fine, Mr. Kent, but I'm afraid I won't be able to leave tomorrow. I won't leave until I've paid my respects to Kathy and Clint."

He let go of her shoulder. "But, it's all been arranged."

"Surely one day won't make any difference."

A peculiar look filled his eyes. "One day?" he said thoughtfully. Was that empathy she saw in his eyes? Understanding? Compassion?

"Yes, one day. Do you suppose you could talk the leader of the caravan into waiting a single day so I can visit the grave of my sweet Kathy?"

He raised his hand, and, for a moment, she thought he was going to touch her cheek. "Ma'am, refusing your modest request would be impossible," he said softly. "I'll arrange for your journey to be delayed a day or two."

"Thank you, Mr. Kent," she said, giving him a trace of a smile. "Could I prevail upon you with one more request?"

"Yes, of course."

She swallowed hard. He'd done so much for her already, but she needed his help. "Could you take me to Kathy?"

He issued her a comforting smile. "We'll go first thing in the morning, if you'd like. The Morgans were the closest friends I've ever had, and it would be my sincere pleasure to help Kathy's sister in any way I can."

She covered his hand with hers. "Thank you, Mr. Kent. You can take me any time you're ready."

### Chapter Two

"Welcome to our home, Miss Randolf."

Marietta stepped inside the modest quarters of Lieutenant and Mrs. Will Carson. "I hope I'm not imposing too much."

"You're not imposing at all. It's a delight to have your company." Amy looked at Jase who was standing on the porch behind Marietta. "Come in here."

He entered and smiled at her.

Zack ran to him, but Amy caught the boy in her arms before he reached Jase. He struggled against her hold on him. "Jase, save me," Zack said, giggling as he reached for Jase.

The big man took the small boy from Amy who looked like she wouldn't have been able to hold the squirming child much longer. "You cry now to be rescued from the arms of a pretty girl, but it won't be long before all you'll want is to be held by a lovely woman, partner."

Marietta could feel her face turn a crimson color.

Jase fidgeted. "Sorry, ladies. I shouldn't have spoken so audaciously."

"Nothing in the world to apologize for, Jase. No truer words ever spoken," Amy said.

Though Marietta was surprised by Amy's casual, undaunted response to Mr. Kent's boldness, she admired her for being so uninhibited.

Amy looked at Zack. "Say, young man, those gingerbread men we were working on should be ready now. I'd bet they're just waiting for a little boy to eat them up!"

"Yum!" He pushed out of Jase's embrace and bolted to the tiny kitchen off the parlor.

"I guess he likes gingerbread. I'll have to remember that." Marietta sighed. "That and about a thousand other things."

Amy put her arm around Marietta. "You'll do fine, honey. Zack's a great boy. He'll help you along the way."

Marietta was astonished at how comforting the words of this young woman were to her. Amy certainly was at least four or five years shy of her own twenty-nine years, yet she spoke with the wisdom and reassurance of a woman twice her age.

"Thank you, Mrs. Carson. Your words of encouragement mean a great deal to me."

Amy stepped back and pushed at a stray blonde strand which had escaped the hair arranged on top of her head. Her blue eyes softened, and she stretched to reach a five-feet, two-inch stance. "You seem a very strong woman to me, Miss Randolf, don't you think so, Jase?"

"Anyone who can make the trip from Chicago to Fort Kearney can handle one little boy," Jase replied.

"I hope you're both right." Marietta looked around. "Where would you like me to put my things?"

"You're going to bunk with me, sweetie," Amy said. "My husband will sleep on the sofa, and Zack can sleep on the floor next to him."

"And, if the colonel doesn't mind," Jase added, "I'm going to see if I can pull up a piece of wood in his quarters for the night."

"You're staying at the fort tonight?" Amy asked, surprised.

"I promised Miss Randolf I'd take her to Kathy and Clint's graves tomorrow."

"But, I thought you wanted to leave for Chicago immediately," Amy said to Marietta.

"I can't leave until I've told my sister goodbye, no matter how eager I am to return home."

Amy placed a hand on Marietta's shoulder. "Of course you can't." She looked up at Jase. "We should have considered that. How heartless of us."

"I'll change the arrangements as soon as I bring Miss Randolf's things in from outside," Jase said, straightening his stance. "I'll find Jackson and tell him the trip to the Missouri River is going to be delayed."

"That sounds good," Amy said. "Why don't you get Miss Randolf's belongings and take care of your errands while I tend to her needs."

Jase nodded toward her and did as she suggested.

When the ladies were alone in the parlor, Amy took Marietta's cape and coat and led her to the sofa.

"Sit, honey," she said. "If you don't, I'll fall over myself. I can feel your exhaustion clear down to my toes."

Marietta lowered her body to the softest couch she'd ever sunk into. "I think I'm sitting on a cloud."

Amy released a girlish giggle. "I understand completely. I remember the unbearable trip out here. We came overland from the Missouri River on a rig like you're going to take back. I think I turned the trail into mud with my tears. I had no idea how grueling the trip to Fort Kearney would be."

"Where did you come from?"

"Independence."

"It's civilized there. Not like St. Louis or Chicago, but civilized."

Amy smiled and shrugged. "More or less."

_Oh, my, she'd spoken thoughtlessly_ , she realized. "I don't mean to insult your home city. What I meant was how could you leave Missouri to live here? The idea of any woman wanting to live in this wilderness is unfathomable to me."

Amy's blue eyes sparkled in the gray light of late afternoon. "Have you ever been in love?"

Marietta shook her head. "I haven't had time for such things." Nor did she have the inclination to let any man influence her life. She'd considering falling in love a risky, even foolish thing for a woman to do. Her mother had preached against letting infatuation with a man cloud good judgment. A woman should lead her life conservatively and carefully, her mother always said. For Marietta, that precluded falling in love.

"When you're in love," Amy said, letting her voice drift to a heavenly softness, "you'll willingly live anywhere to be near your man."

Marietta looked around the tiny quarters, through the window at the desolate landscape and decided falling in love had to be the worst of all afflictions if what Amy said was true.

"When you fall in love, you'll understand what I mean." Amy looked at her carefully.

"Perhaps," she said, hoping to appease Amy with a noncommittal comment.

"Love is a very powerful emotion, but then I believe you already recognize that, don't you?"

"I beg your pardon?"

"Wasn't your traveling here an act of love? Hasn't love enticed you to do something you might not have done otherwise?"

"I'm not sure I comprehend what you mean."

"You traveled here because you loved your sister, and, because of that love, you want to care for her son, give him a good home."

"That's true enough."

"The power of love enables us to do many things we never thought we would or could do."

Marietta was letting Amy's words sink in when Zack burst into the room.

"Where's Jase?"

"He had some business to take care of, Zack," Amy explained. "Are there any gingerbread men left in the kitchen?"

"Some."

"Do you think you'll have room for beef stew and pumpkin cake come suppertime?"

Zack rubbed his tummy. "I better do something to work up my appetite again. Ma always told me work makes a boy hungry. You got work for me to do, Miss Amy? I want to get hungry for that pumpkin cake."

Marietta hid the tears Zack's reference to Kathy caused inside her.

"The wood's out back," Amy replied. "Bring some in for the stove, then get the bucket by the back door and fetch water from the well--lots of it. Fill the cistern full. You know where the well is."

"Yes, ma'am," Zack said, saluting Amy.

Amy returned his salute. "Hop to, soldier."

He dashed out of the room.

"We'll wear the boy out carrying water for us, Miss Randolf. I'm assuming you do want to take a bath before you do anything else. Am I right?"

Marietta was amazed by Amy's thoughtfulness. "How kind of you, and what a mind reader you are."

Amy sat next to her. "I'm no mind reader. I've been where you are now. The first thing I wanted when we reached the fort after the long journey was a hot bath. I'd expect you to want no less."

"Bless you, Mrs. Carson," Marietta said, hugging her.

"Not Mrs. Carson, Marietta. I'm Amy."

Marietta released Amy from her embrace. "Thank you for your kind friendship."

"Just so you know, Kathy was my friend too, and I miss her terribly. She was a wonderful girl." Amy wiped away a tear. "Not nearly as pretty as you, but sweeter than sugar."

"I'm glad to know Kathy had friends as kind as you in Nebraska."

"Everyone at the fort loved her, Marietta."

Tears slid down her cheeks.

Amy went to a rustic wooden stand near the door, opened the top drawer, and withdrew several hankies. She walked back to Marietta and handed them to her.

"I've got a feeling you might just need a good cry. You've been through more than a body should have to stand."

"I believe you're right," she said, wiping her cheeks. "I think I do need to cry, but I wouldn't want Zack to see me like this."

"Don't worry about him. He'll be busy hauling water into the house, and I'll try to heat it as fast as I can so you can have your bath. I've already set up the bathtub in the bedroom so you'll have all the privacy you'll need."

"Thanks, Amy, but I really shouldn't let you bother and fuss over me like this." She began to get up.

"It's all settled. You cry or rest or do whatever you want, and I'll call you in a little while."

Marietta could see Amy was determined. "Thank you."

"Don't mention it." She left the room, and Marietta lay back on the sofa. It wasn't long before she dosed and began to dream.

When Amy roused her from her nap, Marietta went straight to Amy's bedroom. There she found the luggage Jase had hauled to the house and a tub full of warm, inviting water. She bathed quickly because Amy had told her supper would be ready in less than an hour.

Seeing the alabaster color of her skin reappear once the trail grime had been scrubbed from her delicate, soft flesh helped Marietta to feel like a woman again. She was suddenly excited about wearing the best dress she'd brought from Chicago to supper.

It was unfortunate her black woolen dress with the full skirt and long, slightly puffy sleeves hung loosely on her, but it was impossible for a woman to keep a nice, full figure while living the rough life Marietta had experienced the past weeks. No woman could go through what she'd been through without losing weight, thanks to the meager, distasteful meals she'd eaten on her journey.

But, tonight she would eat well. She loved beef stew, and pumpkin cake was her favorite dessert. What a feast!

Marietta looked at herself in the large mirror in the corner of Amy's bedroom. Her dress didn't hang right, but her dark cinnamon hair was stunning against the black frock. A bath with Aunt Mamie's lilac soap and freshly washed and combed hair brought her femininity to the surface. She hadn't felt this good in a long time. She took a deep breath, full of womanly confidence, and smiled at her reflection before going to meet the Carsons and Zack in the kitchen.

"Look who's come to join us for supper," Amy said, delight in her voice.

Marietta's gaze lifted to meet Jase's. He seemed to freeze the second he laid eyes on her.

"Mr. Kent," Marietta said, "I thought you were joining the colonel."

"I... I was, but, when I brought the rest of your things from the stage, Amy asked me to stay to supper." He cleared his throat, but his eyes never left her. "I never turn down beef stew."

"I see."

"Miss Randolf..." Jase cleared his throat again.

"Don't be shy, Jase," Amy said. "Take the lady's arm and escort her to the table."

He hesitated a moment then moved toward Marietta, offering her his arm. She took it and walked the few feet to the table in the center of the kitchen.

He continued to stare at her. "You look absolutely lovely, Marietta."

Thick silence hung in the kitchen as they locked gazes. She felt the warmth of his eyes pierce her heart. Had he just called her by her given name? How very bold of him!

He held her chair for her. "Please sit down."

She complied, and he took his place next to her.

Will Carson had been standing since Marietta entered the room. "I'd like to second Jase's observation," he said. "You do indeed look lovely, Miss Randolf."

Marietta turned her attention to the soldier across the table from her. "Thank you."

"As I'm sure you've guessed I'm Amy's husband, Will Carson." The tall, uniformed man with wavy blonde hair, green eyes, and a bushy wheat-colored mustache turned to Amy. "Did I tell you, my dear, how lovely you look this evening?"

She touched her fingers to her disheveled hair. "Oh, my. You must fancy an un-coifed look," she said, laughing.

Will leaned over and touched her cheek. "You're beautiful."

In that simple exchange, Marietta understood what Amy had tried to tell her in the parlor. Will and Amy had found true love, and, for them, it seemed to have conquered even a desire for the comforts of a more civilized land.

The evening passed quickly. The conversation exchanged, the after-supper cleanup and almost everything else that happened seemed a blur to exhausted Marietta. As she lay in the first real bed she'd laid in since she'd left the boat on the Missouri, she thought it strange the only distinct memory she had of the evening was the comfort she'd felt in the presence of Jason Kent.

Wasn't it odd a total stranger would have such an affect on her? And wasn't it even more peculiar that his absence had left her feeling more lonesome than she'd felt on the trail between the Missouri and Fort Kearney?

Perhaps as she slept and dreamt on a real goose down pillow, she'd be able to figure out how Mr. Kent had seduced her into experiencing feelings entirely unfamiliar to her. Or perhaps not.

~ * ~

Jase arrived before daylight the next morning to take Marietta and Zack to Kathy and Clint's burial site. He wasn't pleased the outing forced him to change his plans for attending a business meeting, but he'd never shirk his duty to Zack or to Kathy's sister.

He loaded their belongings onto the buckboard he'd borrowed. When they finished paying their respects to the dearly departed, Jase would take them straight to the cabin where they'd stay until Sledge Jackson and his party were ready to leave for the Missouri River.

Zack did most of the talking on the twelve-mile ride to the Morgan ranch. He asked Jase over and over to tell him about all the adventures he'd had on the cattle drive from Texas in 1852. Zack knew his dad and Jase had been among the first men to make such a drive and bring cattle so far north. He loved to hear the stories of dirt, rivers, horses, and snakes.

Marietta seemed fascinated by the tales herself.

Jase's stories made it clear he had led a hard life, but a life he'd specifically chosen for himself. His life pleased him in a most fulfilling way, and he made no secret of that.

They reached the graves about noon. The bright sun of the morning had given way to clouds about half way through their journey. After Jase helped Marietta down from the buckboard, she took her cloak and walked to Kathy's grave. She laid the cloak on the ground and sat down.

"Kathy," she said, rubbing her hand over the brown sedge as tears began to pour from her eyes. "Oh, sweet Kathy."

Marietta lay prone on her sister's grave and cried harder than Jase had ever seen any woman cry. Nothing seemed to exist but her grief, her throbbing heart, the coldness of the earth.

"How could anyone hurt you and rob you of your life?" she said between sobs. "You were a flower among rocks in this harsh land. You should never have left me--blast your rebel ways! You should have stayed with me where you belonged. Chicago died when you left. We all died the day you left us behind, most especially me." Jase could hear her struggle to draw air into her lungs. "And now there will be no more letters, no more slips of paper allowing me to touch what you have touched. Oh, Kathy, take me with you! I can't bear to live without you."

Jase couldn't stand her pain any longer. He'd held Zack back, giving Marietta time alone to be with her sister, but she was only making matters worse for herself carrying on as she was. Her behavior prodded Zack to break free of his restraint and run howling to Kathy's grave, throwing himself on the brown sod.

"Mama, take me too! I want to go with you like Aunt Marietta."

Jase had set broken bones on men who weren't hurting as much as Marietta and Zack were. He knew how to ease the pain of a man with a cracked femur, but how did he stop the pain of death?

He rubbed his face with his hands as Marietta and Zack continued to beg Kathy to take them with her. When their agony overcame him, he closed his eyes and tried to think of something else. Minutes passed, but he couldn't fill his mind with anything but Zack and Marietta's cries. He raised his face to the sky, opened his eyes, and noticed snow was beginning to fall.

He looked toward Kathy's grave and found Marietta still prostrate with Zack pushed up against her. They held each other tightly and wept together. Jase walked to the buckboard and leaned against it. The snow began to come down a little more heavily. He didn't like the look of the snow or the sky or the open prairie prone to sudden, fierce storms. They needed to head back to Sledge Jackson's before the drive became dangerous, but how could he tear Marietta or Zack from Kathy and Clint?

He couldn't.

He could only hope the sky would hold tightly onto the wind long enough for him to be able to ensure the safety of his two charges.

He tried once more to put his mind on another subject. As Marietta and Zack's grief turned silent, he was able to think about his land project. Thinking about the development he intended to pursue would take his mind off the pain feeding on his two companions.

It had been just over two months since he and Zack's pa, Clint Morgan, had talked with a group of men interested in founding a new town along the Oregon Trail. The men had speculated the railroad might come through somewhere near the Trail one day. If it did, lots of money and plenty of glory would be available in towns which sprung up along the Trail. Speculators could garner both fame and fortune.

Not that Jase wasn't happy being a rancher. He was, but he wanted more. He wanted to leave his mark on the world. What better way than founding a new town? An entity he would establish along with his partners would live on long after he was gone.

He glanced at Marietta and Zack and found they were still huddled together on top of Kathy's grave. Jase felt his jaw clench. He'd already missed the first meeting of the land consortium due to his responsibilities since Clint and Kathy's barbarous murders. The next meeting was in two days at Red Rock Junction. He needed to get Marietta and Zack to Jackson's as soon as possible. He couldn't afford to miss another meeting. His chance at immortality was just too important. If he'd learned anything from Clint's death, it was that a man had to reach for opportunities when they came and not put them off.

The snow was getting heavier; they had to get moving. Jase took a few steps toward Marietta and Zack intending to attempt to hurry them along, but when he saw them cuddling and comforting each other, he knew he couldn't rob them of the time they needed, no matter how important it was for him to get to his meeting.

Another hour passed before Marietta and Zack were ready to leave. Their grief had consumed them so completely they hadn't noticed it had been snowing.

"Are you sure you're ready to go?" Jase asked as he helped Marietta into the buckboard.

She looked longingly at her sister's grave. "I'll never be ready to leave, and I can't stand to stay another minute." She gave him a painful look. "Does that make any sense?"

He lifted one corner of his mouth and touched her snow-speckled auburn hair as he stared into the most beautiful emerald eyes he'd ever seen. "It makes perfect sense."

He helped Zack into the rig, mounted the carriage and put the horse in motion. Three miles into their return trip, the wind began to whip the snow into a storm as thick as pudding.

"We're going to have to find a place to wait out the storm," he told Marietta.

Her face turned as white as the snowflakes on her cheeks. "Where?"

"If I haven't gotten us steered off course, I believe there's a shack about a hundred feet that way," he said, pointing.

"A shack? For the three of us? Alone?"

Her shocked reaction at the impropriety of their being alone would have made him smile if the circumstances hadn't been so grave. "I'm afraid we either take shelter in the shack, or we risk our lives heading to Jackson's or the fort."

Marietta looked down at her nephew who'd huddled between them when the wind began to blow harder. "We can't risk Zack's life. We have no choice."

"No, we don't." Jase couldn't help but notice the fear in her eyes. As he looked away, he decided the last thing she needed was more suffering, and the last thing he needed was another delay in reaching his meeting at Red Rock Junction.

He glanced again at Marietta's frightened face and found himself wanting to hold and comfort her. He wanted to ease the pain in her heart and erase the fear in her eyes.

Yet he couldn't help being angry with her for stealing his time. She'd asked him to take her west to Clint and Kathy's graves when he should have been riding east to Red Rock Junction to meet with the group of land speculators.

He closed his eyes and cursed his unfortunate circumstances. When he opened them again, he headed into the thickness of the storm hoping he could find his way to the safety of the secluded shack. The lives of two other people depended on him completely.

### Chapter Three

Snow stung Marietta's eyes. Wind-driven, individually innocent flakes felt like pin pricks in her cheeks.

Zack snuggled close and covered his face with his hands.

Marietta saw no sign of a cabin.

Jase guided the horse through the storm as though he knew exactly where he was going, but did he? Marietta couldn't imagine any man could be ingrained enough in his surroundings to find his way in white blindness to a specific destination. All she could do was hope he did indeed have them heading in the right direction.

A few minutes later the cabin came into view. Jase pulled up in front of it, got down from his seat, and secured the rig. He went immediately to Zack and Marietta and helped them out of the carriage. The three of them rushed into the cabin.

Jase lifted Zack into his arms. "Are you all right, partner?"

"I'm cold, Jase, and I'm hungry." He rubbed a hand over his eye which was still puffy from all the crying he'd done earlier.

"I'm hungry too, and so is your aunt. Aren't you, Miss Randolf?" He looked down at Marietta, his eyes filled with worry.

"I'm frozen and famished." She looked from Jase to Zack. "But we can take care of both of those problems."

Jase set Zack down. "In due time. I'll light a fire which will quickly warm the shack, but it may take me a while to find game in this storm."

"No need to wait until you fetch us game to eat, Mr. Kent. I have supplies in my bags," Marietta said. "Not a lot, but I do have fixings for biscuits and some jerky as well."

Jase's brows lifted. "You do?"

"Yes. I bought supplies before we left the Missouri. I wanted to be prepared on the trail to Fort Kearney in case we had unexpected trouble. Fortunately, nothing went wrong, and we had plenty to eat along the way."

"I'm impressed to find a city woman well prepared for wilderness travel." Was that true admiration she saw in his eyes?

She waved away his compliment and pretended she didn't enjoy his flattery a bit more than she should have. "If you'll bring in the bags, Mr. Kent, we'll have more clothing for warmth, food and perhaps Zack even has a toy or two among his belongings."

"I do," Zack said, "but I'm too cold to play."

"There are blankets on the bunks over there," Jase said, pointing toward the north wall as he looked at Marietta. "You'll find a few extra in the closet next to the fireplace. Wrap the boy so he doesn't get any colder, and wrap yourself as well. I'll bring in the bags and put the horse in the lean-to. When I finish, I'll lay a fire."

"All right, Mr. Kent."

Marietta took Zack's hand and led him to the bunks. She pulled off his boots and helped him get under the blanket. While Jase went about his chores, she found extra blankets and put them over Zack.

She knelt next to his bed and rubbed her hand over his curly blonde hair. "Is that better, honey?"

"Yes, thank you."

"You're welcome."

"Are we going to be all right?"

"I think so."

"When I got icy cold, I thought maybe Ma was coming to take me with her like I asked. When people die, they get very cold, don't they?"

"Yes, they do, but your ma can't come to take you away, Zack."

"Are you sure? You asked Ma to take you. If she could take a grown person with her, couldn't she take a little boy?"

Marietta bit back a tear and caressed Zack's hair again. "When people grieve, they sometimes say silly, impossible things. I asked Kathy to take me with her because it's difficult for me to be without her, but she can't really take me to where she is."

"I love Ma," Zack said slowly, "but I don't want to die, Aunt Marietta."

She took him into her arms and squeezed him tightly. "Neither do I, darling. We're going to be fine." She let him go and pulled the blankets up to his chin. "You rest now. I'm going to start laying the fire. Soon it will be warm as July in here." She kissed his cheek and touched his hair. "You'll see, Zack. We'll be fine."

He nodded and closed his eyes.

She went to the hearth and took kindling from the box near the fireplace. She put it in the firebox and lit it with matches she found on the mantel. The dry wood burst into flames, and Marietta added larger pieces of kindling. When she felt the door open behind her, she turned and looked at Jase. He'd brought in the bags while she took care of Zack, and now he was returning from stabling for the horse.

"You've started the fire," he said, coming to her. He crouched down beside her and took a small log from the wood box to lie in the flames. "Very nice, Miss Randolf."

His compliment and the warm look in his gaze toasted her insides, and all remnants of the chill within her were gone.

She looked into the flames. "I love the glow of a fire."

"It beautifies everything around it."

She glanced at her surroundings and smiled at Jase. "You're right. It even makes this humble home attractive."

He took her hand and stood, helping her to her feet. "I brought a bucket of fresh water in from the well. If you'd like to see to those biscuits you promised, I'll check on Zack."

"Sounds good, Mr. Kent. I'm surprised to learn this place has a well. I thought we might have to melt snow for our water."

"We needed a well to water the livestock we run in this pasture. Sometimes in July or August the streams dry up."

"This is your cabin?"

"Yes. It's at the far end of my property, near the Morgan holdings. I put the shack up for protection from sudden storms we might experience when we're working the cattle here. It's come in handy many times." He stopped talking and grinned at her. "Now, how about those biscuits? I'm hungry."

She returned his smile. "I'll have them ready before you know it."

He nodded and went to see to Zack.

Marietta worked quickly to prepare their modest meal. She was grateful to find all the utensils she needed to make a proper batch of biscuits. Soon the aroma of fresh bread filled the tiny home, and the three of them enjoyed a pleasant meal.

After they'd eaten, Jase took his gun and went to find fresh game. He tied a rope to a post on the lean-to outside the shack and held on to it as he went into the storm. It would be his lifeline to the cabin. He'd told Marietta, men got lost in blinding snowstorms and died if they weren't careful.

With Jase gone and Zack content to play with the few toys he had in his bag, Marietta took a book from her belongings and began to read. When an hour had passed, she went to the one window of the cabin and peered out. Jase was nowhere in sight, but neither was anything else. The storm was thick and blinding, and Marietta began to worry. What if Jase got lost? What if he never came back? Another hour passed, and her worries turned into extreme fear.

Thirty minutes later Jase finally returned with two rabbits.

"It looks like we'll have something real tasty to go with the rest of those biscuits," he told her pleasantly.

Thank God he was safe, but did he have to bring rabbits for their supper? Marietta knew she should be grateful for the food--rabbit was definitely better than jerky--but she'd eaten rabbit nearly everyday on the trail from the Missouri River, and she was tired of it.

"That's wonderful, Jase," she said, rising from the floor where she'd been reading. "I'll help you clean them."

~ * ~

Over the next two days, Jase and Marietta spent time reading and discussing the books she'd brought with her from Chicago. Such activities helped the time to pass bearably. She was amazed by his interest in literature. She'd never dreamed a rancher would enjoy books as much as Jase did.

On the afternoon of the third day, the storm had calmed, but it was still not safe to travel. Marietta stood by the window and gazed into the whiteness with Jase standing close behind her.

"Do you think we'll ever get out of here?" she asked drearily.

He placed his hand on her shoulder. "It won't be long now, Miss Randolf. You'll see."

"I don't know," she said hopelessly. "Things have been pretty bleak lately. Two months ago, except for missing Kathy, I was one of the happiest women in Chicago. I had a good job at the library, and I had access to all the social activities a woman could want." She glanced up at Jase. "Mother always told us social activities defined a woman's purpose in life." She looked outside once more. "Good advice is the one thing Mother left us before she died. I've always acted on what she raised us to believe, and I was happy to live as she'd said I should. But now..."

He squeezed her shoulder.

She found the gesture comforting. He'd comforted her often in the last two days.

She turned and looked up at him. "Everything in my life has changed. Sometimes, I don't know what I'm going to do. Will I ever know the happiness and contentment I knew before I lost my Kathy, my love and my life?"

He touched her cheek with his fingers. "It may take a while, but I have no doubt you'll be happy again, Miss Randolf," he said gently. "In a few weeks you'll be back in Chicago and everything will begin to return to normal. You've just got to hold on a while longer and set aside these hopeless feelings as best you can."

"No you don't understand." She stepped away and wrung her hands. "It isn't only the difficulties I'm facing here and now which have me upset. My life in Chicago is as dead as my sister. A week before I got word of Kathy's death, I was fired from my job at the library. My employer has a sister who was recently widowed and needed a job, and since she has three children and I had none, she got my job." She glanced at Zack. "Now I have a boy to raise myself and no job to support him or me," she said, looking up at him.

He rubbed his hand over his dark, unshaven cheek. "What are you going to do?"

"I'm counting on my aunt to take us in while I look for another job."

"Do you have sufficient money to tide you over until you find work?"

Marietta shook her head. "I used every cent I had left to make this trip, but a lack of money isn't the worst of my worries. I'm confident I'll acquire another job. I'm a skilled woman, and Chicago has much to offer. What frightens me most is my total unfamiliarity with being a mother. Mr. Kent, how will I ever be able to give Zack the motherly care he needs? I don't even know how to be his aunt. Though I'm quite fond of him because he is a part of Kathy, I barely know the boy."

Jase touched her chin and smiled softly at her. "You're already mothering him, Miss Randolf. I've watched the two of you the last few days. You knew how to calm him when he fretted, you fed him when he was hungry, cuddled him while he slept and kissed him and tucked him in. I heard you pray with him too." He touched her hair and drew back his hand. "Don't say you don't know how to be a mother. Whether you realize it or not, you're a gentle mother and a loving woman. Zack is very lucky to have you."

She gazed into the softness of his eyes and wondered how a man who had led such a hard life had managed to have a gentle soul.

"You're kind, Mr. Kent. Sweet...gentle...kind."

He reached toward her, almost touched her cheek with his palm.

Suddenly, she realized they were much too close.

"I'd... I'd better make fresh biscuits. I'm sure Zack is hungry again."

~ * ~

The sun shone brightly the next day, but the ride in the buckboard back to the fort was a rough one. Snow drifts fought the carriage every foot of the way. Dusk set in as Fort Kearney came into view.

Will Carson rode out to meet them outside the fort. "Thank the sweet Lord you've returned safely," he exclaimed. "Amy has been beside herself worrying you'd all perished in the storm."

"We took shelter in the shack near the edge of my property line." Jase gave Marietta a quick look before he turned his attention back to Will. "It was a rough few days, but we made out all right."

"That's good news, Jase," Will said. "You'd best take Miss Randolf and Zack straight to Amy. She'll want to feed them and clean them up and fuss over them. You know how she is."

Jase smiled. "It's been my pleasure to be fussed over by your lovely wife myself a few times."

"And don't think I've forgotten it, Jase."

The two men laughed at their secret joke, then Will's expression sobered, and he focused on Marietta. "Miss Randolf, I'm afraid we've got some bad news for you."

Her heart nearly stopped, and she swallowed hard. Bad news? Was there any other kind? "What is it, Lt. Carson?"

"When the sky turned gray and it looked to start snowing, Jackson and his party decided to leave for the Missouri River at once. I'm afraid you'll have to wait until the next stage comes through before you can return home. That'll be near the end of December."

Marietta's head began to spin, and she felt herself slump into Jase. An arm circled her just before everything went black.

### Chapter Four

Jase pressed Marietta close to him.

"Maybe I was too rough with the news," Will said.

"Is she dead?" Zack asked from his place in the back of the buckboard.

Jase turned around. "No, son, she's not dead. She just fainted."

"Why?" Zack craned his body to get a better look at his aunt.

"Because Lt. Carson gave her some bad news. He told her you've lost your ride to the Missouri River, and you'll have to wait several weeks for the next stage."

Zack stroked Marietta's cheek with his tiny hand and gazed down at her. "I hope she's all right." He lifted his eyes to look at Jase and added, "But it isn't bad news to me. It means we can stay longer with you."

He gazed at the beautiful woman wrapped in his arm and remembered the dozens of times her loveliness had stolen his breath during their confinement. "We'd better get Miss Randolf inside so Amy can take care of her," Jase said, ignoring Zack's conclusion. As he put the horse in motion, he tried to determine just what his own reaction was to Marietta's news.

Zack was happy to stay on in Nebraska, but the news of her delayed return had snuffed the breath out of Marietta. What did Will's proclamation do to him?

With Marietta pressed close to his heart, Jase was torn between hope that he'd have a chance to spend more time with the lovely lady and the resentment he felt toward her because her lingering at the Morgan burial site had caused him to miss his meeting.

It occurred to him then that perhaps the meeting hadn't taken place. If the storm had been as bad at Red Rock Junction as it was in the Fort Kearney area, no one would have been able to attend the meeting. The thought comforted Jase. Maybe his opportunity hadn't been lost after all.

Marietta stirred and moaned.

"Is she all right?" Zack asked as he continued to watch his aunt attentively.

"She's all right, Zack," Jase replied. "I told you she just fainted. She's probably exhausted. She's been through more than most women could take these last weeks."

"We should have sent a detachment to meet her at the Missouri River," Will said as he rode beside Jase's buckboard. "This wilderness is too harsh for city women. We might have been able to offer her more comfort than a stage could. I should have done more for her because of the Morgans. My Amy had a terrible time adjusting when she came to the fort. Kathy Morgan saved her life more than once, I can tell you."

"Thinking about what we might have done to make things easier for Miss Randolf is useless, Will. Let's concentrate on what we can do to make her life more comfortable now."

"You're right. We'll have to do whatever we can for her." He looked ahead at the fort. "Jase, I'm going on to tell Amy you're coming."

"That's a good idea. Miss Randolf will need prompt treatment to bring her around. We'll catch up as quickly as we can. We should be at your place soon."

He inclined his head toward Jase and urged his mount into a much quicker pace.

It took Jase longer than he'd expected to cover the last mile to the fort. He was pleased to see Amy standing on the porch waiting for them when he drove up to her home. She shivered in the cold despite the fact she had a heavy knitted shawl wrapped around her shoulders.

Jase got down from the buckboard, took hold of Marietta and marched up the steps carrying her in his arms.

"She fainted, Amy."

"I know, Will told me." Amy looked as though she hadn't slept in days. "Bring her in and lay her on the sofa. Will is fetching the smelling salts and a glass of water."

With Zack on his heels, Jase strode into the small living quarters and laid Marietta on the sofa. He stood back and gazed down at her, hoping she was all right.

Amy knelt beside the sofa and rubbed her palm over Marietta's forehead. "You poor dear," she cooed. "You've been through so much."

Will handed her the smelling salts and water. Amy set the water on the table next to the sofa and waved the bottle of pungent odors beneath Marietta's nose.

"What's that stuff?" Zack asked, sidling up to Amy.

"Smelling salts. They'll help her to come to."

"Do they smell good?" He removed his hat and coat and dropped them on the floor.

"No," Amy replied.

Zack grabbed the smelling salts away from her. "Then don't make her smell them. When I wake up, I like to smell stuff that smells good. When my ma fried bacon, that always waked me up. Why don't you fry some bacon, Miss Amy? Bacon will wake up my aunt."

The men chuckled, and Amy smiled at Zack.

Jase had to admit the boy made a good point.

Marietta stirred, lifting her hand and placing the back of it on her forehead.

"Easy, Marietta," Amy said soothingly.

She rolled her head from side to side and wiped her fingers over her eyes. "What happened?"

"Honey, take it easy," Amy said. "Don't get up just yet. You fainted."

"And Miss Amy tried to wake you up with some stinky stuff," Zack added. "I told her to fry some bacon 'cause that's good at waking a person up."

Jase crouched next to the sofa when Amy moved aside. "Are you all right?"

Marietta glanced to her side. "I'll be fine in a minute. I'm sorry to have worried you."

When he noticed her gaze had fallen to his hand, Jase saw he'd grasped her hand with his. He hadn't realized he'd taken this intimate liberty with her. He quickly released his grasp and stood. "She'll be okay now." What had just happened? Why had he taken her hand, and why had touching her set his heart pounding against his ribs?

Will nodded and gave him a peculiar look. Had he noticed what Jase had just learned himself? Were his suddenly-discovered feelings for Marietta written all over his face?

"You men go to the kitchen and have some coffee," Amy suggested. "Take Zack with you and give him a glass of milk." She turned toward Marietta. "We need a few moments alone."

Jase scooped Zack into his arms. "Come on, big fella. Let's see if Amy has any of her famous gingerbread men in the kitchen."

When they were alone, Amy bent next to Marietta. "Let me help you out of that cape and coat, honey. The men will be occupied for a few minutes, and you and I can have a little talk."

Marietta sat up and squirmed out of her coat. "I'm sorry to be such a bother. I remember now what happened. Lt. Carson told me Sledge Jackson has already left for the Missouri River."

Amy bit her lip and nodded. "I'm afraid they left when the skies turned gray. Mr. Jackson has a sixth sense about the weather and said they could be delayed another week or so if they didn't get started right away. He wanted to get as many miles behind him as he could before the storm caught up to him."

"But that leaves me stranded here until the stage returns weeks from now." Marietta rubbed her hands over her face. "What am I going to do?"

"You're going to stay with us."

"I can't. You barely have enough room for yourselves. Zack and I would be terribly underfoot."

"Nonsense," Amy said. "Will and I talked it over and agreed that if God spared you from the storm as we prayed with all our might He would, we would put you and Zack up here in our home until you can catch the stage back to meet the boat at the Missouri River."

"No. It will never work," Marietta insisted. "And what if the stage can't travel? Who knows what kind of winter this will be?"

Amy smiled broadly. "It's going to be a good winter, I can feel it. The snow is already half-melted, and it will melt some more tomorrow. We'll have a mild winter--a happy winter. I can feel it deep inside me." She paused and sighed. "I know your plans have been terribly upset, Marietta, but I feel blessed to have a new friend who is going to be able to spend more time with me. Our invitation to you is heartfelt and lovingly extended. I hope you'll accept it in that manner."

Marietta could scarcely believe what she was hearing. Amy barely knew her, yet she spoke to her as lovingly and sincerely as only Kathy had spoken to her before.

"I don't know what to say, Amy, except thank you. But how are we going to work this out? I won't consider staying in your room. That's yours and Will's domain."

"Will and I thought of that too," Amy said. "We'll section off the end of the parlor with the bookshelves next to the east wall. Will can get an extra bed for you, and you'll have some privacy in the space between the shelves and the wall. Zack can sleep on the sofa." She clutched Marietta's arm. "It will work, honey. We'll all be just fine."

The men and Zack returned to the parlor.

"Did you explain everything to her, Amy?" Will asked.

She stood and turned toward her husband. "I did and she accepted. She and Zack will stay with us until the stage comes."

"Not me!" Zack shouted. "I'm staying with Jase." He grabbed the cowboy's hand. "Jase told me I had a home with him. Didn't you, Jase?"

He squatted next to Zack and touched the boy's cheek. "I did, but that was right after your ma and pa died, son." He drew back his hand. "It was before I knew your aunt was coming to take you home with her. You belong with Miss Randolf now."

"Not yet," Zack said. "In Nebraska I belong with you." His lower lip quivered as he tried to convince Jase of his logic.

Will stepped next to them. "Zack, I've got a job for you to do while you stay here with us."

Jase stood and took a few steps back to give Will some space as he spoke with the child.

"A mare wandered into the fort during the storm," Will said, "and I'll be blasted clean to Pennsylvania if she didn't drop a foal. A filly it is. In cold weather like this, we have to take extra care in keeping a tiny bit of a horse like her warm, and we could use your help. Would you like to see the filly?"

Marietta could tell Zack was torn between wanting to see the horse and not wanting to leave Jase even for a few minutes. Her heart ached at the thought of taking Zack away from him. She could see how hard the separation would be for both of them. As much as she hated the delay in her return to Chicago, the postponement of their trip might possibly be better for Zack. He could ease his way into leaving Jase a little at a time.

Zack took his time making up his mind, but when he made his decision, he went with Will.

"I have a million things to do in the kitchen," Amy said when Will and Zack were gone. "I'll leave you two alone to work things out regarding Zack."

Jase walked toward Marietta who made room for him to sit on the sofa.

"I'm sorry about Zack's reaction to staying here with you, Miss Randolf. It isn't that he doesn't want to be with you."

"He's confused, Mr. Kent, but the boy obviously loves you. He's lost too many people he loves already. He doesn't want to lose you too."

Jase wiped his hand over his face and looked at the hearth on the opposite side of the room. "I've known him since he was born. Fact is I helped Clint bring him when Kathy's time came."

Marietta sucked in a frightened breath. "Kathy had no doctor?" Her sister hadn't told her about giving birth under such primitive conditions.

"There are no doctors out here, ma'am," Jase replied. "There are medics at the fort, but they don't know any more about delivering babies than the rest of us."

"Oh, my dear heaven," she said on a worrisome sigh. "Poor Kathy."

"No need to be upset, ma'am. Kathy came through everything with the strength of ten men."

"You and Clint took good care of her and Zack?"

"Yes, indeed. We did the best we could which I believe was real fine. My housekeeper, Mrs. Whipple, was supposed to help Kathy when her time came, but she was away visiting her son. Zack had a mind of his own even back then, and he came early. When Mrs. Whipple returned she told us we'd done an uncommonly good job handling everything."

Marietta gave Jase a smile of appreciation, but the thought of her sister's dismal life wiped the smile away as quickly as it had come. "Kathy had to give up so much to come here. She had a good life in the city." Marietta looked away. "I'll never understand why she left."

"Folks give up what they have for all sorts of reasons," Jase said. "You take me for example. I had a fine ranch in Texas, had everything a man could ever want, then Clint and me got curious about the Nebraska and Wyoming territories. We made a trip up here to look around, and once I laid my eyes on this part of God's creation, I knew I had to come here to live. Clint felt the same way."

"Did Kathy know you'd be settling in the Nebraska territory when she and Clint got married? She'd told me back then she'd be living in Texas."

"Kathy knew of our plans, and she was excited to come to virgin land."

Marietta shook her head. "I suppose she kept her secret because she knew I'd worry myself into a grave if I'd known about your eventual settlement in this God-forsaken land." She wrung her hands. "I don't understand why that girl was such a rebel. How could she allow herself to take such dangerous risks?"

"Kathy a rebel?" he said, grinning. "I never thought of her that way. She seemed like a real reasonable woman to me." The grin on his face turned into a look of affection. "I don't think Kathy ever saw going to Texas or coming to Nebraska as a risk. As long as she had Clint at her side, she had everything she'd ever wanted. She loved him in a most profound way, in an indefinable almost mystical way."

"And what did such foolishness and romanticism get her, Mr. Kent? Death at the hands of wild savages!"

"Love brought her immeasurable happiness, Miss Randolf. I wish you could have seen how happy Kathy was with Clint." He looked away. "As for the savages who killed her-- Savages are among us everywhere," he said, looking at her. "Would Kathy be any less dead if she'd fallen in with riffraff from a riverboat in Chicago or St. Louis or Omaha?" He squeezed her shoulder with his powerful hand. "There isn't anything foolish about the kind of love your sister had for Clint."

His words stung her to her core.

"We all miss Kathy terribly," he said sympathetically. "She was a shining light among us. It was a blessing to have her in my life and an even bigger blessing for Clint to have her in his. She changed him in an overpowering way. Kathy was a beacon of hope in the life of a man who'd lived alone since he was only a little older than Zack is now."

Marietta placed her hands over her ears. "Don't tell me any more," she said, lowering her hands. "Love destroyed Kathy. If she hadn't loved Clint, she'd be alive today."

"Maybe she would, but Zack wouldn't."

Marietta bolted from the sofa. She'd barely taken two steps away from it when her knees began to buckle.

Jase sprang to her side and held her arm to steady her. "Easy, Miss Randolf. You don't want to faint again."

She looked up into his coffee-brown eyes and was surprised at the concern she saw in them. "No, I don't want to faint again," she said, barely above a whisper.

"Please sit down." He helped her back to the sofa and took his place next to her. "Do you think you're all right now?"

She leaned back and nodded. "Yes, I think so."

"I'm glad to hear it because I need to get back to my ranch," he said hesitantly.

"But it's nearly nightfall. It wouldn't be safe for you to travel in the dark." The realization that she didn't want him to go struck her like a bolt of lightning.

"I'll stay with the colonel tonight, and I'll head back at first light in the morning."

"Are you going to tell Zack your plans? You should let him know what you intend to do."

He glanced toward the kitchen. "Don't worry. I know how to handle Zack," he said, focusing his engaging brown eyes on her. "I'll invite myself to supper with all of you before I see the colonel to make arrangements for the night. I figure if I can ease Zack into the idea of staying here while we're having supper together, he might raise less of a fuss about being away from me. After supper, I'll tell him goodbye and promise him I'll be back in a week."

"You'll be back in a week? No sooner than that?" Why did a week seem like too long a time for her to have to wait to see him again?

"Zack will need at least a week to get used to the idea that he won't be seeing much of me anymore. If my visits come too frequently, it'll only be harder for him to adjust to being away from me. He needs to begin to feel more a part of your family and less a part of mine."

"I guess you know the boy best. I'll rely on your good judgment where handling Zack is concerned."

"I appreciate that." He looked away. "I suppose I should leave," he said, gazing at her again.

"Already?" She didn't want him to leave.

"Would you like me to stay a little longer?" he asked tentatively.

She nearly cried a resounding yes before she looked away and refused to respond.

She felt him shift closer to her. His sudden movement caused her to inhale sharply as she looked at him again. "Mr. Kent... "

He reached toward her and cupped her cheek. "Miss Randolf... " He blinked, pulled his hand from her cheek, and wiped his knuckle over his lips.

Marietta took hold of his wrist. "Mr. Kent, thank you for taking care of us in the cabin," she said, taking his hand into both of hers. "I'll never forget our time together there."

"Nor will I," he said huskily.

She reluctantly released his hand.

"Miss Randolf..." He was so handsome, and the provocative look in his eyes stirred her heart.

"Mr. Kent, perhaps--"

An object crashed in the kitchen.

"I'm so sorry," Amy said upon entering the parlor. "Clumsy me, I dropped a cast iron skillet to the floor. You two just go on with what you were doing." She rushed back into the kitchen.

Marietta looked at Jase. "I'd better help Amy with supper. I'll tell her we'll need to set an extra place for you."

"I'd appreciate that." He stood, took her hand and helped her to her feet. "I'll go make arrangements for the night with the colonel."

"Of course," she said, clasping her hands in front of her.

"I'll see you in a short while."

"She nodded toward him.

He donned his heavy coat, put on his hat and went outside.

The instant he was gone a heaviness filled her heart, and she felt more alone than she'd ever remembered feeling. Strange Mr. Kent's absence should affect her in such an odd way.

But then she had no time to analyze another of the unusual emotions the handsome Jason Kent had evoked in her. She needed to be a proper guest and help her hostess prepare their supper.

As she headed to the kitchen Marietta realized her delayed return to Chicago may not be as bad as she'd initially thought. She didn't think she was going to hate having the opportunity to get to know Mr. Kent better.

Having finally found a bright spot in the middle of her bad news, she began to feel better.

### Chapter Five

Jase thought the week would never come to an end. Between waiting for word from the consortium, the anticipation of seeing Marietta again, and the emptiness in his house brought on by Zack's absence, the week since he'd left Fort Kearney moved as slowly as a steer stuck in a snow drift.

As he rode toward the fort, his heart began to beat a little faster. He nudged his stallion, urging it to pick up its pace. Suddenly, he couldn't wait to see Marietta. He knew he was behaving foolishly by allowing feelings for her to dwell in his heart. She'd be leaving in a few weeks as eager as ever to return to her city life. She hated the territory holding her captive. Yet, he couldn't help aching for another glance into her emerald eyes. He wanted to inhale the lilac scent of her. He needed to touch her.

The last time he'd seen her, he'd longed to lace his fingers through her cinnamon hair. When they sat closely together on the Carson sofa, when Marietta took his hand... If Amy's kitchen accident hadn't diverted their attention, he might have taken Marietta into his arms and held her as he'd wanted to hold her in the cabin.

"Blast it!" He desperately needed to put his mind on something else.

The land deal. He had business he needed to ponder, decisions to make. He hoped someone from the fort had word for him from the consortium. Had they met as scheduled, or was there another meeting date set? He could hardly stand not knowing what was going on.

He wished he could go on to Red Rock Junction from the fort and find out if anyone knew anything about the meeting, but he couldn't. He'd lost a number of cattle during the blizzard, and he and his ranch hands had had a huge job disposing of all the carcasses. Routine work on the ranch was lagging, and he needed to catch up on chores and duties at home.

As soon as he arrived at the fort he went to see the colonel. He was dying to know if Colonel Harrison had news from the consortium, but he didn't rudely rush into a litany of questions. He made time instead to accept the colonel's invitation to coffee and apple pie on the porch where they enjoyed the unseasonably warm early-December day. Once they'd covered the topics of the melted snow and the warm days over the past week and talked over the news from the fort, Jase moved straight on to the question burning in his gut. Had Colonel Harrison heard from anyone in the consortium?

He hadn't.

Jase politely stayed another few minutes before he moved on to the other urgent need burning inside him.

He was starved for the sight of Marietta, and he couldn't wait another minute to see her. He moved quickly to the Carson home. A thrill coursed through him when Marietta answered his knock on the door.

She wore the black woolen dress she'd worn the first night they were together at the Carsons'. It fit her better this time than it had the last. It had seemed a little large on her small frame before, but now it hugged her curves in a most provocative way. Her auburn hair flowed over her shoulders. The emerald-green eyes she cast up at him set his heart to beating wildly.

"Hello, Miss Randolf."

"Mr. Kent, won't you come in?" She opened the door wider, and he stepped inside.

"I hope I'm not intruding."

"Not at all. We were expecting you today." She waved her hand toward the sofa. "Won't you sit down?"

He took off his hat and coat and hung them on a hook near the door. He turned to her and slipped his hand to the small of her back. Perhaps he shouldn't have touched her as audaciously as he did, but he couldn't help himself. And she hadn't stepped away from him.

Now that he was with her again, he felt alive and satisfied. Once she sat down he made himself comfortable beside her.

"Any more fainting spells?" he asked.

She shook her head. "No, indeed. I'm fit and healthy. Amy has made sure I've had plenty of rest."

"I'm glad to hear that." He smiled at her. "Where is everyone?" he asked, looking around the room.

"Amy took Zack with her to pick up some supplies from the commissary. He didn't want to go because he knew you were coming, but when she bribed him with the promise of a candy stick he couldn't resist."

"She had to bribe him to go to the commissary? But Zack loves to go there. Gus always gives him a cookie or a pickle."

"Really?" Marietta raised her lovely brows. "Amy had to practically drag him out of the house until she promised him the candy stick."

Jase frowned. "I don't like the sound of this."

A look of concern filled her verdant eyes. "Zack isn't doing well at all, Mr. Kent," she said in a most disheartened manner. "His reluctance to accompany Amy to the commissary is only one example of the dreadful behavior he displayed this week." She wrung her hands. "The boy is nothing like he was when we were in the shack. Despite our difficult circumstances, he was happy there. Now, when his comfort far exceeds anything we had in our primitive cabin, all the life has gone out of him. I think it's because of you, Mr. Kent."

"But I've done nothing to harm the boy, Miss Randolf."

"No, of course you haven't. I think Zack is misbehaving because he's heartsick over not being with you. He's terribly fond of you, and he misses you something awful."

Jase looked away. "I know how he feels. I've missed him fiercely this week."

"This separation must be difficult for you too."

"My house has never been so empty," he said, looking at her again.

Marietta left the sofa and went to the window which looked out on the compound. He followed and stood behind her, inhaling her sweet scent, staring at the silky hair lying softly around her shoulders.

"Everything keeps getting worse," she whispered. "How bad must it get before things start to get better?"

He touched her shoulder and gently turned her to face him. "I don't know."

"I can't bear to see Zack suffering. I feel horrible for the poor boy."

"I know what you mean. You should have seen him when he walked in on his parents after they were-- " He cut himself off.

"Zack saw Kathy and Clint after those savages... " She started to weave, and he quickly took hold of her shoulders to steady her.

"No, Miss Randolf. He didn't see them. He was with me when the attack happened. When I took him home, he ran into the house ahead of me, but he stopped in the doorway when he saw blood on the floor. I made him stay outside while I checked on Kathy and Clint. Once I knew it was too late for me to help them, I took him back to my ranch and left him with Mrs. Whipple while I went to report the crime and tend to the bodies."

He took her back to the sofa. "Let's sit down. We don't need to talk about tragic things anymore."

"My God in heaven, dear sweet Lord, how could anyone hurt them that way?"

"Please, Miss Randolf. Don't think about Kathy and Clint. You'll make yourself sick, and you need your strength to care for Zack."

She nodded as she took a hanky from her pocket and wiped her eyes.

How he wanted to take her into his arms and comfort her!

"Mr. Kent, what am I going to do? Zack is so upset."

Jase couldn't say what he had to say and look her in the eyes at the same time. He needed some distance between them so he could speak as dispassionately as necessary to her. He stood and took four steps to the sideboard next to the wall. He leaned against it and folded his arms.

"The boy will adjust. He had a terrible time the first two weeks after his parents' death, but he came around. Not that he's completely gotten over what happened--he'll never get over that--but he did come around enough to get on with his life. He'll face this next challenge in his life just as bravely because he has to." He hoped his words didn't make him sound heartless, but life was hard, and even children had to learn to live with cruel blows.

"Do you really think he'll be able to adjust to being with me instead of you?" She didn't look anymore convinced than he felt.

"I do. Give him time."

He unfolded his arms and pressed his hands into the sideboard behind him.

With her gaze firmly attached to his, she walked toward him.

He swallowed hard as she crossed the room to be near him. "He'll be all right, Miss Randolf."

She stood two feet in front of him, looking up at him with eyes as verdant as a spring meadow. More than anything in the world, he wanted to gather her into his arms. Instead, he blinked and looked away. "I'll have another talk with him if you think it will help."

The front door swung open, and Zack flew inside like a bird lighting away from a cat. "Jase!"

The cowboy bent and scooped him into his arms. Deep, abiding affection poured from his heart. He loved Zack as though he were his own son. He hugged him with as much might as he could use without breaking the boy into pieces.

"How are you, Zack?"

"I'm happy now, Jase. I missed you powerful much. Can you stay here for a week this time?"

Jase set him on the sideboard. "I'm afraid not, son. I have a great deal of work to do on my ranch."

"Can I help? I'm good at ropin'--you said so yourself. And I can pitch hay or milk the cows or muck out the barn. I'll do anything, Jase. You need me."

Jase glanced at Marietta, certain Zack's words were breaking her heart. She couldn't help but feel rejected even though she'd not mentioned it. "I've got all the help I need, son."

"But Spike and Lone Wolf and Miguel might need me to make up fresh bunks for them. That was my job, you know."

"It was, but the boys are doing their own chores now."

Jase had never seen dejection hit someone as hard as it hit Zack. The boy's lower lip began to quiver. He looked down at his hands. "You truly don't need me anymore? No one needs me anymore." He slid off the sideboard and ran outside.

Jase looked at Marietta. "I'm sorry, Miss Randolf. It seems I've made matters worse."

She put her hand on his shoulder. "Go to him, Mr. Kent. Find the right words and set the boy straight."

Jase took her hand from his shoulder and wrapped it inside his fingers. He stared down at her intently, doubting he could do anything but hurt Zack even further. "I'm not sure I know the right words."

"You love the boy. You'll find the right words. I know you will."

He touched her hair with one hand as he squeezed her gentle fingers with his other. He gazed into two lovely emeralds set in perfect symmetry above her exquisitely shaped nose. "I hope your confidence in me is well placed." He withdrew his fingers from her hair.

"I'm sure it is," she replied, gifting him with a warm smile.

He let go of her hand and turned toward the door. Before he reached it, Amy came inside.

"Jase, what's going on?" she asked. "Zack ran toward the house like a bee was chasing him when he caught sight of your horse, and now he just took off lickety split toward the barn."

"We had some rough words, Amy. I'd better go after him. Miss Randolf can tell you what happened." He grabbed his hat and coat from the hook by the front door and turned to Marietta. "I'll see you later, Miss Randolf."

"Of course, Mr. Kent."

"You're staying for dinner, aren't you, Jase?" Amy asked.

"I am now." He grinned at her and tipped his hat as he went out the door.

A few minutes into his search he found Zack in the barn petting the filly born during the blizzard.

"She's going away," Zack said sadly.

"Who?"

"The filly. I finally thought up a name for her, and now she's going away. We learned at the commissary the man who owns the mare came to the fort today. He's taking the mare and filly home with him. The mare ran away during the storm."

"Oh." Jase acknowledged another of Zack's losses. "Well, it's a good thing the little foal has a home to go to with her mother. They must have felt lost being away from home."

Zack looked up at him. "I know how that feels."

Jase squatted next to him. "Suppose I talk to the man who owns the horses and ask if the filly can stay here. He could take the mare home, and you could keep the filly with you. How would that be?"

Zack furrowed his brows. "You mean take the baby away from her mother? But they're a family."

Jase shrugged. "So? The filly likes you too, doesn't she? Maybe she'd rather be with you. You want her to stay with you, don't you?"

"Yes, but she needs her mother."

"More than she needs you?"

"Well, sure."

"But why? You both love the filly, don't you?"

"I guess, but the mare is the filly's family."

Jase nodded his head slowly. "Oh, I see. So, even though you love the little horse and you need her, you're willing to let her go so she can be with her family?"

"I have to. I wouldn't want the filly to be away from her family."

Jase picked up Zack and walked over to the mare. The two of them stroked the horse's hide for a minute or two before they moved on to the baby. They gave her the same attention they'd given the mother. When they left the barn, Jase set the boy on the post of a hitching rail.

"I'm sorry I made you feel bad a little while ago, Zack. I do need you, son, and I love you very much. You know that. Ever since you were a baby, we've been real close friends, haven't we?"

Zack nodded. "But, if you need me and love me, Jase, why can't I stay with you?"

"For the same reasons you wouldn't let that filly in there stay here without her mother. Just as the baby horse needs to be with her family, you need to be with your aunt. It's what your mother and father wanted, Zack. They wrote it down on a piece of paper I found when I cleaned out their house. Your folks left word that if anything ever happened to them they wanted your Aunt Marietta to take care of you. She's your family."

Zack rubbed his eye and looked up at Jase. "Is it hard for you to let me go with Aunt Marietta like it's hard for me to let go of the filly?"

He cupped the boy's cheek with his palm. "It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do in all my life, but it's the right thing, Zack. You belong with your aunt."

Zack threw his arms around him. "I love you, Jase. No matter how far away I am from you, I'll always love you. I'll try to be happy staying with Aunt Marietta. I do like her, but I don't want to leave you."

The boy might as well have gone into the barn, picked up a pitch fork, and run it through Jase's heart. He'd found the right words to say to Zack, but Zack had some pretty powerful words of his own, words which could be as lethal as any deadly weapon. "We've each got our own lives, Zack. Yours is with Miss Randolf, and mine is here."

Jase lifted him from the hitching post and carried him out into an open area of the compound where he set him on his feet. "How about a foot race?"

Zack looked up at him. "You can stay and play for a while?"

"We have the whole afternoon," Jase said, smiling.

He let out a cheer. "Then let's go riding. I miss Beaumont almost as much as I miss you, Jase."

"All right." He inclined his head toward Zack. "I'll race you to Beaumont. The first one there gets to sit up front."

~ * ~

Two days after Jase visited the fort, a stranger stopped by the Carson home. The man introduced himself as James Richards. Marietta was in the middle of baking a large batch of sweet rolls when he came to their door. She had little time to talk to him, but when he said he was looking for Jase and needed to speak to him on a business matter, she invited him inside.

She gave him a cup of coffee and explained he needed to see Lt. Carson or Col. Harrison to get directions to Jase's ranch.

When she returned to the kitchen after Mr. Richards left, Marietta found Zack stuffing his fingers into the sweet roll dough and pulling out handfuls of the mixture which he promptly placed into his mouth.

"Zack! Don't eat the dough like that. It's much better after it's baked."

"I like it this way," he said, wiping his wrist over his mouth.

Marietta smiled and leaned over to kiss his cheek. The boy had spent most of his time moping since Jase had left, but he seemed to enjoy being in the kitchen while she baked rolls. Understandable, considering how he loved eating them before and after they were baked.

"What did the man who came to the door want?" Zack asked.

"Mr. Richards needs to see Mr. Kent on business."

"He's going to see Jase?"

"Yes. He went to find Lt. Carson or Col. Harrison in order to get directions to Mr. Kent's ranch."

"I could've given him directions. It's easy. You just ride a ways that way," he said, pointing west, "until you come to this big tree which fell over long before I was born. Then you turn toward the butte and go until you see a patch of wild roses. After that, you turn toward the Indian burial mound. Once you get to the burial mound, you can see Jase's place. See? Easy." He took another piece of raw dough, put it in his mouth and wiped his hands on his pants. "I'm going to find Gus to see if he wants to arm wrestle."

"Okay." Marietta's heart felt ten pounds lighter now that Zack's mood seemed happier. She was glad she'd let him help her with the rolls. "Button up your coat, and don't forget your hat."

"I will, Aunt Marietta."

Zack slammed the door on his way out, and Marietta hoped his noisy exit hadn't disturbed Amy. She'd lain down because she had a sick headache.

Roll baking was a time-consuming task, and, before Marietta knew it, twilight had descended on the fragrant kitchen. Hours had passed, and Zack hadn't returned.

Where could the child be?

Marietta went to Amy's room and asked her to watch the last pan of rolls baking in the oven while she went to find Zack. Once Amy agreed, she put on her coat and hat and went out to search the compound. She began to panic when she couldn't find her little boy anywhere. She located Col. Harrison and asked him if some of his men could assist with her search for Zack. He promptly granted her request.

Three hours later, Zack was still missing. The boy had simply vanished.

### Chapter Six

Jase hadn't had a visit from a stranger for quite some time. He finished brushing down his horse while the approaching buckboard covered the last mile to his ranch. The open countryside in the Nebraska territory made it easy to see approaching visitors from a long distance away.

Jase was inside washing up when his guest arrived. Mrs. Whipple greeted the caller and asked him to wait on the porch while she went to get Jase.

"He says he has business with you," Mrs. Whipple said in her warm, grandmotherly voice. "His name is James Richards, and he has news from the Red Rock Junction meeting."

Jase could have picked up the white-haired, sixty-something-year-old woman and spun her around the room.

"Invite him in, Mabel! Seat him in the library and give him coffee or pie or whatever he wants. I'll be with him shortly."

Her silver eyes twinkled. "It's good to see some life in your smile again, Jase. Things have been too sad around here since Zack left."

He couldn't argue with that. While this good news couldn't relieve him of his heartache over losing Zack, starting a new project would help his healing. He'd already spent too much time hurting over the loss of Kathy, Clint, and Zack. And, even though she was never his to lose, he felt in a way that he'd lost Marietta too. He had strong feelings for her which he knew he'd never be able to take any farther than they were right now. Having a diversion which could steer his mind away from his losses and on to future gains was just what Jase needed.

"Things have been sad here for a long time," he said, drying his hands.

"Indeed they have," Mabel said, unable to keep a disheartened tone out of her voice. "I'll make Mr. Richards comfortable at once."

Jase went to his bedroom and put on a clean shirt and fresh trousers. Once he was properly groomed he headed for the library. There he found Mr. Richards sitting in one of his high-backed red chairs. The tall, lean man dressed in dark clothes stood when Jase stepped into the room.

"Mr. Kent?"

"Yes, I'm Jason Kent, Mr. Richards. It's a pleasure to know you."

"Likewise." Richards looked around the library. "Impressive room, Mr. Kent. You have quite a collection of books."

"I like to have as much knowledge as possible at hand."

"A rancher and businessman needs all sorts of informative tomes, but you seem to enjoy fiction, plays, and poetry--Shakespeare, Hawthorne, Dickens, Greek classics and myths, even the bewitching Washington Irving and James Fennimore Cooper."

"You're familiar with American authors, Mr. Richards?"

"I prefer English writers, but then, there are far more of them. We're too young a country to have spawned many great writers."

"A man could disagree with that," Jase said, "but you aren't here to discuss literature."

"No, indeed. We have something great of our own to talk about, an opportunity to be a part of the expansion of this growing country, to make our own place in history."

"What news do you have from Red Rock Junction?"

The gangly man returned to his seat in the high-backed chair, and Jase sat in the matching chair next to him in front of the fireplace.

"You're still interested in being a part of our consortium, Mr. Kent?"

"Absolutely."

"Good. Then you and I shall be partners." Richards leaned back in his chair and sipped his coffee.

"Partners? Just the two of us? Aren't there any other investors interested?"

Richards waved a hand. "Of course, of course, Mr. Kent. Ten of us altogether. We're breaking into groups of two. We each have specific areas of the Oregon Trail to explore. We'll gather as much information as we can, then we'll meet to choose the location we believe will most likely best serve our immediate purposes as well as our future plans when and if the railroad is extended through the Nebraska territory."

Jase's eager heart thrummed at the news. "When do you want to get started?"

"The consortium agreed to begin our search in the spring." Richards sipped more coffee. "This unseasonably warm weather makes it tempting to start our search immediately, but a man wouldn't want to be caught in the wild with the nasty elements of winter."

"He certainly wouldn't." _Though I wouldn't mind being alone in a cabin with Miss Randolf during a blizzard once again,_ Jase mused.

"We hope to choose the location of our town by late May or early June next year, and we'll start constructing buildings in June or July. Our businesses should have their first patrons by August if all goes as hoped."

Jase slapped the arm of his chair. "I can't tell you how much I appreciate your coming here, Mr. Richards."

Richards stood as Jase got up from his chair. "Please call me James. If we're going to be partners, Jase, we need not be formal."

"Agreed. Can you stay for supper, James? My housekeeper is an excellent cook."

"Having eaten a piece of her apple pie I don't doubt her kitchen skills a bit. You're a lucky man to have such a capable cook. However, I want to head back to the fort immediately."

"But it'll be dark soon, and it's not easy to find your way around in the dark on the prairie."

James reached for his coat and slipped it on. "I don't plan to make it all the way back to the fort tonight. Col. Harrison told me he and his men were going out on maneuvers this evening since the weather is reasonably warm. He likes to keep his troops in shape and ready for action. I'm going to join them."

"Whatever you say." Jase led James to the door and shook his hand. "Thanks for bringing me the good news. I'll look forward to working with you in the spring."

"I'll contact you through the fort or the post with further information."

"That will be fine."

They exchanged a few more details and said their goodbyes.

Jase was happy enough to dance a jig. This new start would balance out a small bit of the losses in his life, and, if the speculation was as successful as he hoped, Jase would have the ability to set up a nice trust fund for Zack. After all, Clint had wanted to be a part of the consortium, so Zack was entitled to share in its success.

He went into the kitchen and found Mabel setting dinner on the table. When he smelled the fragrance of fried chicken filling the air, he wondered how James had torn himself away from such a heavenly scent to face soldier stew around a campfire.

"Sit, Jase," she said. "Everything is ready."

"This looks great, Mabel," he said as he sat down. "You know how much I love potatoes with cheese next to my fried chicken."

"Me too."

The little voice Jase heard certainly wasn't Mabel's. He left the table and went to the back porch to confirm his suspicions.

Zack stood next to the wash stand. "I like cheese on my potatoes and fried chicken too."

"What are you doing here? How did you get here?"

"I had to come, Jase. I belong here until it's time for me to leave with Aunt Marietta." He stated his opinion as firmly and decisively as any man had ever done.

"Zack," Jase said in his most demanding voice, "how did you get here?"

"I hid under a canvas in Mr. Richards' buckboard."

Jase swept the boy into his arms and stalked back to the kitchen. "I'm taking you straight to Fort Kearney."

"But, Jase," Mabel said gently, "it's getting dark. As much as the boy needs to be returned to his aunt, it really isn't worth risking his life by taking him home in the dark, is it?"

"She's right, Jase." Zack latched onto Mabel's words quicker than a mosquito bites a man walking through a slough.

Jase's stomach churned. He knew Marietta must be sick with worry. He wanted to throttle the boy for what he'd done, but that wouldn't make Marietta feel any better.

"Zack, sit down," he said. "We're going to eat then we're going to bed. We'll be on the road to Fort Kearney when day breaks."

It was obvious the boy wanted to protest, but he kept his lips silent. The only things which passed through his mouth the rest of the evening were two drumsticks, a chicken thigh, half a plate of potatoes, and a big piece of apple pie.

After supper, Zack went straight to his room while Mabel and Jase cleaned up the kitchen. Jase went to Zack's room to tuck the boy in once he finished helping Mabel.

"Did you wash up good, son?" Jase sat on the edge of the bed and brushed his hand over the boy's head. He'd missed being close to him. How was he going to stand taking him back to the fort in the morning?

"I cleaned both ears, inside and out." Zack twisted his head so Jase could see. "I washed all the way up to my elbows, and I got my feet clear up to my knees." He took Jase's face in his hands. "I can be a good boy, Jase. If you'll let me stay here until I go on the stage with Aunt Marietta, I'll be the best boy you ever saw in your life. I'll do anything you ask." He threw his arms around Jase's neck. "Please, please let me stay. I love you so much. I just want to be with you a little while longer before I have to go."

Jase wrapped his arms around him. He wanted Zack with him as much as the boy wanted to stay, but what could he do? Zack belonged with Marietta. The boy needed to form an attachment to her, and he couldn't do that if he stayed with Jase.

"Zack," he whispered into the child's ear, "I have to take you back to Fort Kearney in the morning. There's nothing else I can do."

He let go and pushed himself out of Jase's arms. He snuggled on his side under his quilt with his knees curled up. "I'm sorry, Jase. I want to go to sleep now."

He stood and stared down at the child he loved more than his own life. Why did doing the right thing have to be so blasted hard? "Good night, Zack," he said, kissing his cheek.

He left the boy's room and went down the hall to his own bedroom. He began to consider Zack's proposal. His request really wasn't unreasonable. The Carson house was crowded with two extra people. Maybe Zack _could_ stay with him until the stage came.

But, if Zack _did_ stay with him for another few weeks, would he be any more ready to leave when the stage came? As much as he wished he could give Zack what he wanted--what Jase wanted himself--he knew the boy needed to be with Marietta. He needed to gain the sense of family with her which would give him some security.

The next morning, as soon as Mabel had fed them a hearty breakfast, Jase and Zack left for the fort in predawn obscurity. Jase held Zack close in front of him as they cantered over the prairie, savoring what would probably be the last moments of closeness they'd ever have.

Zack was so innocent, a victim of injustice. Evil men with hearts dedicated to greed, selfishness, and violence, with hands doing the Devil's work, had murdered the boy's parents and caused him unbearable pain. Now, a woman as beautiful as a summer sky, with a heart warmed by love, would hurt Zack again by taking him away from the only land he'd ever called home--and Jase was helping her do it.

Whatever the intentions of those concerned, Zack was suffering injustice from everyone around him.

A few miles from the fort, they were met by several soldiers who were looking for the missing boy. Once they discovered Zack was well, the group of military men rode back to the fort in haste to report to Marietta that her nephew was in good hands and would be in her arms shortly.

Jase decided as long as Marietta knew Zack was safe, there was no need to jostle the boy with a hard gallop like the soldiers had been willing to make to give her the happy report.

He thought of Marietta the rest of the way to the fort. The idea of seeing her again quickened his pulse. He wished he had an opportunity to pursue a relationship with her, but he knew it was pointless. Her life was in Chicago; his was on his ranch. She'd never fit in with his way of living, and he'd choke in a city.

He'd have done anything to win Marietta's love if he'd thought he had a chance at enticing her to stay, but he knew such efforts would be wasted. He'd have to be content for the rest of his days with the memories of the gazes she'd given him, the words they'd exchanged, and the quiet magic of their moments together.

He guided Beaumont into the fort and urged him toward the Carson home. Marietta was on the porch sitting next to a soldier, smiling at him. The image ripped Jase through the gut like a knife through a vital organ.

His reaction to seeing her with another man surprised him. He tried to toss the nasty feeling aside, but it wouldn't leave. His head told him he had no right to feel the way he did, but his heart made it clear Marietta was special to him, and there wasn't a thing he could do about that.

The instant she caught sight of the approaching riders, she hastened to her feet and lit the entire fort with her smile.

Jase's heart beat even faster when his eyes locked on the most beautiful sight in five hundred miles. She was absolutely breathtaking.

The soldier next to Marietta stuck something in his pocket and came toward Jase when Beaumont reached the hitching post. "Let me take the boy," he said, reaching for Zack.

Jase handed Zack to the soldier, who promptly placed the child in Marietta's arms.

"There you go, right back where you belong," the soldier said to Zack. "Thank you, Miss Randolf. I'll be leaving now." He tipped his hat and strode off.

Jase dismounted and climbed the steps to the porch. "Hello, Miss Randolf."

"Hello, Mr. Kent."

Jase couldn't help but wonder if the delight in her eyes was solely a reaction to having her nephew back, or if some of her happiness was the result of seeing him again. He removed his hat and held it by the brim.

"The boy stowed away on James Richards' buckboard."

"So that's what happened. I was terribly worried." Marietta continued to hold Zack closely as she lifted her emerald gaze to meet Jase's. "I didn't know what had become of him. I thought maybe someone had..." She pulled Zack away from her and looked at him. "Don't ever do anything like that again, darling. I couldn't stand it if anything bad happened to you."

He looked down. "I'm sorry, ma'am. I missed Jase so much I couldn't stand it." He lifted his eyes and stared into Marietta's loving gaze. "Can't I please stay at Jase's until we leave for the city? I'll be good, I promise." Tears slid from the child's gloomy blue eyes. "I just want to be on the ranch. _Please._ "

She kissed Zack and squeezed him hard. "I'll talk to Mr. Kent about it."

The breeze from the wing of a gnat could have knocked Jase over when he heard her response to Zack's request. He'd have been less surprised to see his bull grow an udder than to hear her say she'd consider letting the boy stay on the ranch. In just a few words, she'd undone all the convincing Jase had done to make Zack understand he had to stay with her.

Zack pushed away from her and jumped down to the porch. "Talk to Jase now. I'll go inside and see if Miss Amy has any gingerbread men." He looked up at Jase. "You listen to her when she tells you how much I need to be at the ranch, Jase. She's my aunt, and I got to do what she says, so listen to her." He sped into the house before either Marietta or Jase could say another word.

Jase stretched to his full six-foot-two-inch height and folded his arms. "You'll talk to me about it?" he asked, lifting a brow. "What does that mean? The boy belongs with you, and we all know it. The two of you need to build family ties."

"I know."

"Then why did you speak as though you'd consider letting him come back to the ranch with me?"

"Because I can't turn down such a reasonable request. Zack has lost so much, and he doesn't want to lose you. He loves you, Mr. Kent, why shouldn't he spend time with you? He's happy when you're around, and he's glum as a beggar when you're not with him." She wiped her hands over her face. "Why can't we give the boy a little happiness?"

Jase stared down at her in disbelief. Refusing Zack's request had been difficult enough. He'd never have the strength to turn down Marietta if she flat-out insisted on his taking Zack home to the ranch.

"He belongs with you, Miss Randolf." His words were firm but gentle.

"He'll have his whole life with me."

"He needs you now. Even he understands that."

"Mr. Kent, the boy deserves some happiness. I know it's impossible to give him both what he needs and what he wants, so we have to choose. He needs to be with me, but he wants to be with you. I say let him be with you now and me later."

"You're only delaying the inevitable," Jase said, shaking his head. "The boy has to be with you." He looked out on the compound as he searched his mind for a solution to this latest dilemma.

"Surely we can come to an understanding, can't we?"

Jase fingered the brim of the hat he was holding. "There's a way, I suppose, to do what you're asking." He gazed at Marietta and wondered if what he was about to suggest was in Zack's best interest or his. "I'd consider having Zack come to the ranch with me if you came too."

"What?"

The shock on her face mirrored Jase's own astonishment at what he'd been foolhardy enough to say.

"I'll move into the bunkhouse with my ranch hands," he explained as one idea after another flooded his mind. "You can live in my house with Zack and my housekeeper, Mrs. Whipple."

"You want me to live in your house?"

"Yes. It's the only way. You and Zack can be together, and I can be with him as much as possible."

"But, to put you out of your own house... Mr. Kent, that wouldn't be fair."

"Do you think I wouldn't give up more than my house to make Zack happy? I'd give the boy my life if it were necessary."

She looked away. "You dearly love him, don't you?"

"You know I do."

She gazed at him once more. "Are you sure you want to do this? I know I was out of line giving Zack hope, but maybe you were right. Maybe he should just stay with me here at the fort."

"Naturally, I want to do whatever you think is best for Zack, but, if you decide it would be okay for him to come to the ranch, you now have a choice."

"Hmm, I wonder..."

"I swear I don't know whatever put such an idea into my head, Miss Randolf, but I'm glad I came up with it. If you think it would be good for Zack to spend more time with me, I truly believe the plan I outlined is the best solution for this situation."

She smiled up at him. "I'd love more than anything to see the life in Zack's eyes which I saw when we shared the cabin in the snow storm."

"Are you saying you want to come to my ranch?"

Her eyes turned softer than Jase had ever seen them. "Let's go tell Zack the good news. I can't wait another minute to see him happy again."

### Chapter Seven

It took only a couple of hours for Jase, Marietta, and Zack to load the things they needed onto the borrowed buckboard they took to Jase's ranch. As he sat next to Marietta driving over the beautiful open prairie on a warm December day, Jase's heart filled with gratitude. He was thrilled he'd found the right solution to his problems.

While it was true he could end up with a broken heart when Marietta ultimately left him, if he let himself grow even fonder of her, he'd gladly take the pain in order to give Zack a few weeks of happiness. The happiness he'd receive himself with Zack and Marietta nearby would be enough to sustain him the rest of his life. It had to be.

Matters of the heart always surprised Jase. He'd actually been jealous when he'd seen the young soldier with Marietta on the Carson porch. He had no right to jealousy. He and Marietta weren't even close enough to speak to each other on a first-name basis, yet he couldn't help how he felt.

He'd grinned at his foolish feelings when he'd learned the reason Marietta had been sitting with the soldier: she'd been helping the private write a letter to his sweetheart back home. And Jase had been jealous.

No need to ponder that now. Marietta and Zack were next to him for the moment, and he couldn't have been happier.

~ * ~

Marietta remembered Zack's directions to Jase's ranch home as they passed each of the landmarks the boy had described. The house was visible from a great distance away, and when they pulled up to the white clapboard building at sunset, she knew for sure it was indeed as large as it had appeared from miles away. She'd had no idea a rancher would live in such a fine home.

Jase helped her down from the buggy. "Let's go inside. I'm sure Mabel has our supper ready. I'll bring your things in later."

"And I'll help," Zack said, jumping down from the buggy.

"Yes, you'll help." Jase pulled the boy's knitted hat from his head and fluffed the blonde curls.

"Do you mind if we look around before we eat?" Marietta asked, looking up at Jase. "Your house is far more intriguing than anything I'd imagined. I'd expected to see something much more humble."

A light of pride shone in Jase's coffee-brown eyes. "We'll look around while Zack washes up. Right, Zack?"

"Yup, Jase. I'll wash up while you two look around, and I'll help Mrs. Whipple set the table or wash dishes or take out ashes or fill the cistern or anything else she wants." Zack was clearly intent on living up to his promise to be helpful.

Jase grasped Marietta's arm and urged her up the front steps. "I'm glad to see you being cooperative, Zack. Thank you."

"You're welcome." The boy rushed past them and ran inside, leaving the door open. "I'm back, Mrs. Whipple. And I brought my aunt!"

Jase chuckled. "I guess the news is broken."

He led Marietta inside, took her coat, and hung it in the front closet next to his own. They stepped into the kitchen where he introduced the two ladies.

Marietta was aghast at the modern kitchen Mrs. Whipple had to work in. A bright yellow warmed the walls, the latest in cook stoves heated the room as well as their supper, and the whitewashed cabinets looked more like they belonged in a Chicago mansion than in a home in the middle of a prairie. What a luxury it must be on baking day to have so much workspace on top of the lower cabinets.

After the introductions, Jase led Marietta to a smaller room across from the kitchen. "This is my library."

"A library! Mr. Kent, look at all the books!" Marietta scanned the wooden shelves filled with books. "You have a little piece of heaven right here in this house." She stepped close to Jase and turned her beaming face up to meet his gaze. "We'll have to read to each other as we did in the cabin."

The instant the suggestion crossed her lips she knew she'd gone beyond proper bounds by suggesting such an intimate activity. It was one thing to pass the time reading to each other in the cabin when they'd been held captive by the storm, but here in Jase's home... She'd been much too aggressive to suggest it.

Jase touched her shoulder lightly. "I can't think of anything I'd rather do, Miss Randolf."

Marietta felt her cheeks burning. His quick acceptance of her daring suggestion and the provocative gleam in his eyes led her to suspect Mr. Kent might be flirting with her.

"Would you like to see the parlor?" he asked, waving his hand toward the door.

"Of course."

He showed her his entire house, upstairs and down, and he promised he'd give her a tour of his outbuildings in the morning. Marietta was amazed at the beauty of his home. Its décor was simple, but the rooms were as homey and as comfortable as any she'd seen in Chicago. Staying in Jase's house would be as comforting as being in her own home. She knew it the minute she'd stepped into the radiant kitchen.

The first week on the ranch went by quickly. Jase spent most of his time working, and he took Zack with him everywhere he went. During the day, Marietta busied herself with sewing. Zack had nearly outgrown all his shirts and pants. She was pleased to have the opportunity to hone the seamstress skills she'd allowed to atrophy when she'd increased her hours of work at the library.

Jase gave her some of his old things to refashion into new things for Zack. Mabel gave her a bolt of goods too. In the evenings, Marietta would join Jase and Zack for a stroll or a child's story or game by the fire.

One afternoon during the second week of her stay, Jase came into the parlor where she was sewing. He held a sleeping little boy against his shoulder. "He finally wore out. He fell sound asleep ahead of me in the saddle. I was going to take him to see my favorite place on the ranch, but he just drifted off to sleep."

"We'd better lay him down in his bed." Marietta put her sewing aside and went with Jase to Zack's room.

Jase laid him on the bed and gently covered him with his quilt.

"He looks like an angel," Marietta whispered as she gazed upon the sleeping child.

"He's a great boy, Marietta. You're lucky to have him in your life."

She looked up at him and found a fatherly love radiating from his gaze as he stared at her nephew. "We'd better go before we wake him."

Jase pressed his hand to her back as he urged her out of the room. His warmth seeped inside her. She loved the touch of him, the sheer awesome masculine magic of him. She'd never known a more wonderful man.

When they were back in the parlor, he took hold of her arm before she could sit and return to her sewing. "Would you like to come with me since Zack can't? I'd love to show you the special place I intended to show him." Before she could reply, he added, "I know you don't think much of the prairie, but what I want to show you is an enigma in the vast openness. I think you'll enjoy it. We'll ride out on Beaumont and Fancy."

As Marietta stared into Jase's compelling gaze she realized he could have asked her to go just about anywhere and she'd have said yes. It seemed he had cast a spell over her, and she didn't mind one bit.

She cleared her throat and gave him a tentative look. "I'm afraid I don't know how to ride a horse."

He stroked his fingers along his jaw. "That could be a problem. We can take a buckboard part of the way, but the land gets too rough for anything but a horse, mule, or foot traffic before we reach our destination."

"Maybe I could ride with you?" The words were out of her mouth before she could censor the thought. Her suggestion hung in the air as thick as fog, and her cheeks began to warm with embarrassment over her shocking suggestion.

A grin played at the corner of Jase's mouth. "I don't see why not. Beaumont is a strong mount. He can easily carry us both."

As soon as her embarrassment over her outrageous behavior subsided she left the room and went to get ready for their outing. She met him in the barn momentarily. Within minutes, they were mounted on Jase's stallion, moving west toward a rise in the plain.

She sat ahead of Jase, his arms surrounding her as he effortlessly guided his stallion over the rough terrain. She could feel the heat of his body penetrate through her clothing into her back. She decided she could live the rest of her life inside Jason Kent's strong arms.

The thought had barely crossed her mind when her mother's oft-repeated warning intruded on the very pleasant notion: _Don't ever let infatuation with a man cloud your judgment._

It took twenty minutes to reach their destination--twenty minutes which passed far too quickly. When they reached the rim of the landform he wanted to show her Marietta's breath caught in her throat. She could hardly believe what she saw. She'd certainly never expected to find anything so beautiful in land she'd believed to be part of the underworld.

Where had such an oddity come from? Huge rocks lay everywhere. Pine trees, invisible during their ride, rose from the floor of the low-lying gully--but it wasn't really a gully. It was more like a big semi-circle of a hodgepodge of trees, rocks, and rises coming from the ground. A stream ran through the odd space as far as Marietta could see.

Jase carefully guided Beaumont downward into the midst of the unusual land formation.

"This truly is an enigma, Mr. Kent. I've never seen such contradiction in nature nor a sight more lovely."

"It's called Pine Rock Hollow." Jase dismounted near one of the large boulders and lifted her from the horse. When her feet reached the ground, he kept a tight hold on her hand. "Watch your step. The land is very uneven."

She stared at the sight around her. "You watch my step for me. I can't take my eyes off the rocks and trees." She took two steps forward. "And the brook, Mr. Kent. I want to go drink from it." She felt his grip on her hand tighten as she moved toward the stream.

He had to lift her a time or two as she tried to manage her long skirts over the rugged ground. When they reached the brook, she let go of his hand and dropped to her knees. She pulled off her gloves and dipped her cupped hands into the water. The second she touched the crystal liquid, she inhaled sharply and turned to look at Jase. "It's warm. Is this a hot spring?"

"Not exactly. It isn't as warm as you think; your hands are cold from the crisp air. It's warm for a spring which isn't a true hot spring, but it's still just a spring."

She dipped her hands into the water once more and raised them to her lips to drink. She stood and smiled at Jase. "It's sweet."

He nodded crookedly. "Like I said, it's a mystery place. Everything about it is strange and beautiful."

"Have you ever seen anything as beautiful as this?" she asked, looking around.

Jase stepped closer to her. He pulled off his gloves, shoved them into his pocket, and took her into his arms. "I've seen much greater beauty than this strange landform, Miss Randolf." He stared at her in silence. "I'm looking at that great beauty right now." He bent closer and pressed his lips to hers.

She wasn't expecting him to kiss her.

She had no idea he would kiss her.

She was glad he was kissing her.

She slid her arms around him to let him know it was all right to hold her and kiss her the way he was doing.

He held her closer, his kiss lingering on her lips until she was sure she'd faint from the sheer pleasure of their union. When he broke their bond and pulled away from her, he stared down at her and held her face in one of his hands. "Marietta, you are so lovely."

Her own words became lost somewhere between her mind and her throat.

It seemed an eternity passed before he pressed his lips to hers once more.

As he kissed her, touched her, held her as though she were the most valuable treasure on earth Marietta realized that, for the first time in her life, her world made sense.

Her rapturous discovery filled her heart with joy, and the burden of pain she'd been carrying disappeared.

She kissed him most fervently, clung to him and touched him. She'd never kissed any man before the way she was kissing Jase, not that she'd kissed more than one or two.

Was this what it felt like to be in love? Her head swam and her heart roared. She wanted more, and she let Jase know it.

When he abruptly pulled away, she felt her heart stop. He took two steps back; she took two steps toward him. She wanted him back in her arms. Now!

"Jase..." She searched his eyes hoping to find an explanation for the magic and mysticism which seemed to exist between them.

He looked away. "I'm sorry, Marietta. I've wanted to kiss you for a long time, but I'm afraid I've behaved inappropriately. You've got to know I didn't bring you here just to kiss you."

He gazed at her, his brown eyes wild with an emotion she'd never seen in a man's eyes before. Yet, somehow, she understood the strange emotion completely, because it coursed through her own body as well: the strange, wonderful emotion had to be the holy desire shared by people in love. Committed love.

But there was no commitment between them, and there never would be. That was why Jase had expressed regret over what he'd done.

She reached toward him and touched his cheek.

"You're a wonderful man, Mr. Kent. I'm glad for the time we've had together, but you're right. We mustn't indulge in this kind of behavior. It's not for people like us, strangers who meet then never see each other again." She glanced around the living mystery engulfing them. "Perhaps we should return to the ranch house."

He took her hand. "Not just yet, Miss Randolf... Marietta." He stared down at her. "Marietta," he said on a whisper as he trailed his fingers through her hair. "Let me call you by your given name. Let's have at least that much between us."

Her heart beat wildly. "Jase, I wish we could have more than that."

"Could we, Marietta?" he asked eagerly. He cupped her cheek with his palm. "Are you saying--"

She quickly placed her fingers over his mouth. "I'm saying we both know we can have nothing more than a stolen moment. But Jase..." She had to look away before she went on. "Jase, I'm glad you kissed me."

He touched her chin and turned her face toward him.

She looked up at him and smiled.

"One more kiss, Marietta, a kiss we can live on for the rest of our lives." His voice was low and husky. He gazed intently into her eyes and sweetly took possession of her lips once more. Her heart thundered in her ears as happiness coursed through her veins. She knew she would remember this precious moment for the rest of her life.

When he'd kissed her breathless, he pulled back and smiled down at her. He gave her another kiss before taking her hand and tugging her forward. "I have something I want to show you."

They walked twenty yards or so over more rough terrain. Jase held her hand the entire way.

Marietta loved the feel of her hand in his. She loved it so much she never wanted him to let her go.

Jase urged her toward an indentation in one of the large rocks they came upon and lifted her down to a hollow. He let go of her hand and knelt beside a piece of stone about three-feet high and two-feet wide. "I'm making this marker for Kathy and Clint."

Marietta knelt next to him and read the words etched into the stone slab. " _Kathy and Clint Morgan. Beloved mother and father of Zack Morgan."_

She'd never been so deeply touched by anything in her life. "Mr. Kent... Jase, it's beautiful."

"I intend to carve the Lord's Prayer on this stone too. Kathy prayed it often. She had a deep, abiding faith. I think that would be a fine tribute to a woman who gave us so much. I wanted you to know how deeply we all loved your sister."

Just when she thought she couldn't care for this man any more than she had as he'd kissed her and filled her with joy, he'd brought more happiness to her heart by showing tremendous kindness to the memory of her sister.

She stood and turned away from him before he caught her shedding the tears she was struggling to hold back. "Jase, your generosity overwhelms me."

He stood behind her and placed his hands on her shoulders. "I'm not generous, Marietta, but I've learned to be grateful for the comforts we receive in life. Kathy was a great comfort to Clint, Zack, and to all those who knew her. This marker is a token of my gratitude to her."

She turned and looked up at him. "Thank you, Jase, for loving and caring for Kathy and Zack." She kissed his cheek and pulled back.

He grazed her cheek with the backs of his fingers. "It's been my great pleasure."

She gazed into his eyes, unable to look away for fear she'd break the perfect bond between them. Beaumont whinnied, spoiling the mystical spell which had engulfed her. She turned toward the horse. "We'd better get back," she said, glancing at Jase.

"Are you sure you want to leave?" He touched her cheek and gave her another of his intense, irresistible gazes.

The last thing she wanted to do was leave. She'd suggested they return to the ranch because, if they didn't, she was afraid she'd throw herself into his arms and never leave. "I think we should go, Jase."

"I suppose all good things must end." He cupped her cheek with his hand. "And today, Marietta, has been good beyond anything I could have imagined. I'm glad you came here with me."

If they didn't leave immediately, she doubted she'd ever be able to leave at all. The magic of both the place and the man could easily steal all of her common sense if she allowed it. She'd never felt so vulnerable. "Zack is probably waiting for us."

"He probably is."

As Marietta stared up at him, she wondered if he'd take her into her arms again.

She was terribly disappointed when he didn't.

Jase took her hand and led her over the rocky ground to Beaumont.

He clasped his hands around her waist, and she hoped again he would draw her against him.

But he didn't.

Instead he hoisted her onto his horse. "Zack probably won't be too happy with me when we get back," he said as he got on behind her. "He'll be disappointed he didn't come along with us, but I can bring him here another time." He circled her with his arms as he took control of his mount. "I'm glad we came here alone, Marietta. I'll never forget this day."

"Neither will I, Jase." She closed her eyes and sank her back into Jase's chest. She knew she shouldn't let herself feel what she felt for him. She'd be leaving soon, and, if she let herself care too much, it would only hurt all the more when she had to go. But right now she didn't care about later.

No matter what the future might bring, she was going to let herself love being in Jase's arms, and she would allow herself to love him just a little too.

### Chapter Eight

The days following their trip to Pine Rock Hollow kept Jase on edge. How could he have taken advantage of Marietta the way he'd done? His behavior was despicable, yet she'd been kind enough to smooth things over for him.

He truly hadn't taken her to the isolated area to take her in his arms, no matter how much the thought of doing just that had taunted and tempted him for weeks. He'd taken her there to show her a beautiful spot on a vast prairie and to show her the stone marker he was making for the Morgans.

He shouldn't have held her; he shouldn't have kissed her. Staring at his land from the top of Beaumont, Jase pulled his glove from his hand and touched his lips. He'd never experienced anything so gut-wrenchingly wonderful as the feel of Marietta's silky cheek. He'd never tasted anything half as sweet as her rosy lips. The moment he'd held her close to his heart, he'd known he could never live without her again.

He kicked his mount and sent him into a frenzied run. Dust flew from hooves raising clouds of anger. Why did he have to care for her so much? If she'd stayed in Chicago, he'd have been so much better off. Zack would have become his son, and he'd never have known a love with Marietta he could never have.

Beaumont drove over the earth, grinding his shod hooves over rocks and dirt, throwing earthen powder into the air. Jase clung tightly to his mount, becoming one with the racing animal, moving gracefully with him, running with the steed--running away from the love in his heart. But he knew he couldn't get away from his feelings for Marietta by driving his horse to its death. He reined in the stallion until it cantered methodically over the earth.

Maybe he should ask Marietta to stay.

He dismissed the thought as quickly as it had come. She was a refined lady, a city woman. She hadn't made her distaste for the wilderness a secret. Few women could tolerate living in isolation. Kathy and Amy Carson had been extraordinary exceptions. Marietta would never in a hundred years consent to stay, even if she felt the same way about him as he felt about her.

Besides, he had his land speculation to tend to. He'd be gone a good deal of time with that project. It wouldn't be fair to Marietta for him to be away so much if she did agree to stay. He rode to the barn, checked in with the ranch hands, and decided to have supper with them.

He finished his chores early; he needed a good night's sleep. The next day he was taking Mrs. Whipple to her son's home for Christmas, and, on his way back, he was to meet James Richards at Fort Kearney to discuss their schedule for next spring's exploration.

When he returned, he hoped to spend some time alone with Marietta and Zack.

~ * ~

Marietta watched from the parlor window as Jase and Mabel rode away. The farther they went, the more alone she felt. Zack stood beside her, clinging to her skirt.

"I wish Jase and Mrs. Whipple didn't have to go, Aunt Marietta."

"Me too, but Mrs. Whipple wants to be with her son for Christmas." She crouched next to Zack and kissed his cheek. "Just like I want to be with you. You can't blame her for leaving, can you?"

He shook his head. "I know she had to go. Her son doesn't have anyone to make him Christmas cookies."

"That's right. And Mrs. Whipple couldn't go alone, so Jase is taking her. Her son will bring her back here next month sometime."

Zack scratched through his blonde curls. "Next month? We'll be gone before that." He twisted his face as he thought. "While we're here, you can cook for Jase and take care of him, but who will take care of him after we go and before Mrs. Whipple comes back?"

Marietta hadn't thought about taking care of Jase the way Zack had suggested since Jase had been spending most of his time working or in the bunkhouse with the ranch hands. The thought of doing things for him--cooking for him and caring for him--appealed to her much more than it should have. "Jase doesn't need someone to take care of him every minute. He will always be fine. He's a very strong and capable man."

Calling Jase by his first name sent pleasure coursing through her. What a wondrous time it had been in Pine Rock Hollow the day they became intimate enough to speak to each other on a first-name basis.

Marietta tucked the pleasure of her love for Jase deeply into her heart. She'd store it there and treasure it all the days of her life. Perhaps on cold winter days in the future--days filled with loneliness and loss--she'd be able to take out the day she'd spent with Jase in the wondrous, mysterious hollow and chase away the emptiness inside her. She'd be able to remember the heavenly touch of Jase's lips against hers and the beat of her own heart as he'd pressed her close to him.

She would always cherish the day she'd fallen in love.

Two days after Jase left with Mrs. Whipple, a snowstorm pummeled the ranch. Though the storm was nowhere near as bad as the one which had delayed Marietta's return to Chicago, it was serious enough to frighten her deeply. If it weren't for the concern and comfort of Jase's kind ranch hands, she would have spent every waking moment worrying about his safe return home and fretting about whether or not she'd be able to safely take her trip back to Chicago with Zack.

Spike Farley assured her Jase was one of the few men who could find his way around a prairie at night without moonlight. He promised her Jase would get home safely, and he'd get Zack and her to their stage in plenty of time.

While Spike's words did give her great comfort, his reassurance began to wear thin six days after Jase left since he'd said he'd be gone only three or four days. If the snow had delayed him a day, he still should have been home.

By late evening on the sixth day, Marietta was in a panic

It was difficult to reassure Zack everything would be all right when she was deeply frightened for Jase's safety herself, but she managed to do it anyway. She told him she was sure Jase would be home the next day.

In the evening she stayed with Zack until he fell asleep, then she went down to the parlor to worry all alone.

She stared out the window for hours, but she could see nothing moving, despite the fact that the moonlight reflecting off the snow made it seem almost as bright as twilight.

_Jase could travel at night if he wanted to_ , she remembered Spike saying. There was enough moonlight to make it easy to see. Mrs. Whipple's son lived only eight or nine miles northeast of the fort. Jase had told her he had a few other errands to attend to, but he still should have been back by now. Why wasn't he home yet!

Marietta moved away from the window and sat on the rich-green sofa. The flowered lamp on the stand next to the couch shone brightly, but its luminance did little to comfort her aching heart. She glanced at the timepiece hanging around her neck: it was past two in the morning. She laid her head back on the sofa, closed her eyes, and prayed for Jase's safe return.

In a little while, she fell into a deep sleep.

~ * ~

Jase saw a light burning in the window as he neared his ranch yard. He decided Marietta must be up early tending to his household. The thought of her taking care of his home warmed his half-frozen body. He'd forced himself to put thoughts of her out of his mind while making his trip. She'd be leaving soon. It wasn't safe to love her as much as he did.

The business complications of his meeting with James Richards and the other members of the consortium who'd traveled to Fort Kearney had helped him push daydreams about Marietta and Zack out of his mind.

He'd learned in the discussions with the consortium members the hunt for land where they could locate their new town was going to take much more time than Jase had thought.

He'd hardly be able to spend any time at his ranch during the upcoming spring, summer, and fall. He'd have to trust one of his men to manage his operation at home. Maybe he'd divide up the responsibilities according to each man's strongest suit: Lone Wolf could be in charge of the horses, Miguel excelled in money management. Stub was an expert in handling cattle, and Spike had a knack for the upkeep and care of the buildings.

The more Jase thought about his new venture the more excited he became. Every man at the meeting had been certain that building the right town at the right location along the Oregon Trail would bring them immediate returns on their investments. And, if the railroad eventually built along or near that route, the speculators would make a fortune. Jase would have a legacy to pass on to Zack, and his name would be remembered for all time as a founder of one of the first towns along a well-traveled western route.

Jase finally reached his house. He dismounted and tied his horse to the hitching post near his front door. He hurried up the steps to his house. He couldn't wait to see Marietta.

Once he'd hung his winter wear in the front closet, he went straight to the parlor. He stopped short when he saw Marietta sleeping on his sofa. His heart warmed at the sight of her. Dear heaven, she belonged in his house and in his heart!

She was a vision of exquisiteness. Her cinnamon hair lay over her shoulders, and she wore the flattering blue shirtwaist she'd made from goods Mrs. Whipple had given her. She lay as still as a slumbering kitten, and Jase could think of only one thing he wanted to do--he wanted to take her into his arms and tell her how much he loved her.

It didn't matter he'd slept little more than four hours each of the last few nights, or that the cold had wormed itself so deep inside his bones he felt as though he'd never be warm again.

To his utter amazement he realized even the land speculation meant nothing to him. Fame held no lure. Fortune was useless. Nothing in the world mattered but holding Marietta and telling her he loved her. All he needed or wanted in the world was her.

Slowly, ever so slowly and gently, he moved toward her, admiring her beauty as he made his approach. When he stood next to the sofa, he reached toward her. He wanted to touch her. He _needed_ to touch her.

He drew his hand away from her and reached for the quilt lying on the back of the couch. He covered her with it and turned to blow out the light in the lamp.

He fought the urge to kiss her sweet cheek until the craving to touch her again overpowered his ability to forbear his desire. Jase moved closer to her, bent toward her, anticipated tasting the sweetness of her cheek. Just one kiss...

"Jase!" Zack's excited whisper startled him.

He turned and signaled the boy to be quiet.

Zack ran to him, and he scooped him up. "Speak softly. Aunt Marietta is sleeping," he said as he hugged him soundly.

"She was worried about you, Jase," he whispered.

"She was?"

He pulled back and looked up at Jase as he nodded. "Yup. I saw her looking out the window all day yesterday. She kept saying, 'I hope Jase comes home soon'."

"She did?" Jase hadn't wanted Marietta to worry about him, but he appreciated knowing she cared enough to be concerned for his safety.

He carried Zack to the kitchen. "Are you hungry, son?"

He rubbed his tummy when Jase set him down. "I could eat a whole steer."

Jase chuckled lightly. "That's pretty hungry. How about some side meat and fried potatoes?"

"And flapjacks with apple jelly?"

Jase fluffed the boy's disheveled, slept-on hair with his fingers. "I'm not sure I can make flapjacks anywhere near as good as Mrs. Whipple's, but I'm sure I can handle the side meat and potatoes. Maybe we could make some beans too."

"Whatever you say, Jase. I'm just glad you're home. Aunt Marietta said you'd be all right, and you are."

"Did I hear my name?" Marietta leaned against the arch between the parlor and the kitchen.

Jase nearly dropped the cast iron pan he was holding when he looked at her. She'd been beautiful enough to knock a man over when she was lying on the sofa sound asleep, but awake and smiling at him, she was too lovely for words.

As he locked gazes with her, the grin left her face. She started moving toward him, and he handed the skillet to Zack. As though it were exactly what they were supposed to do, the man and woman wrapped their arms around each other and pressed their hearts together.

"I was worried about you, Jase." The whimper of concern in her voice set his heart on fire.

"I told you she was worried," Zack said smugly. He put the skillet on the table and threw his arms around the legs of the embracing couple.

"I'm sorry I was late," Jase said. "I didn't mean to worry anyone, especially not the two of you."

"Lift me up, Jase. I want to hug with you."

Jase reluctantly stepped out of Marietta's arms and happily lifted Zack to his hip. The boy wrapped one arm around Jase and the other around his aunt.

"Give us a hug, Aunt Marietta."

She did as he requested, linking herself with Jase and the boy on his hip.

"We're all together now," Zack said triumphantly. "It's just like we're a family."

### Chapter Nine

Jase was bone tired after traveling throughout the night to get home, but he couldn't fall asleep when he went to bed. Zack's words rolled around in his head. _It's like we're a family._ The boy was right. Jase felt it himself, and he wouldn't be surprised if Marietta felt it too.

But what was he to do? He'd never wanted a family. He'd always had everything he felt a man could want. He loved adventure and new undertakings like starting a ranch in Texas and another one in the Nebraska territory, and building a new town along the Oregon Trail.

He stood on the threshold of opportunity few men had ever known. He was becoming an integral part of a growing nation's advancement. It was only a matter of time before the railroad came through Nebraska and the territory became a state. His plans for the future had been made.

He left his bunk and went to the window. A light burned in Marietta's bedroom across the yard from the bunkhouse. He swallowed hard.

He'd never truly, deeply loved anyone before, not anyone. He'd been on his own as long as he could remember. When he became a man, he made good friends with people like Clint, Stub, Lone Wolf, Miguel, Spike, and, of course, Kathy, Amy, and Will. He'd grown terribly fond of them all, but he'd never lost his heart completely to another person until Marietta came into his life.

Not that Zack hadn't wormed his way under Jase's skin, but his feelings for Zack were entirely different from his feelings for Marietta. The light in her room went out, and he stared at her window a moment longer. When he turned away, he made his hand into a fist and slammed it against the wall.

He couldn't have it both ways. If he wanted to be a part of the land consortium, he'd have to forget about Marietta. He knew that was the right thing to do, or at least part of him knew it. If only he could squelch the part of him telling him he was a blasted fool to let a chance at love pass him by.

If he asked Marietta to stay--and in the unlikely event she took him up on his offer--he'd lose his one shot at immortality and financial success beyond his wildest dreams because he'd have to give up the land speculation.

How could a man choose between two perfect dreams?

~ * ~

Two days before Christmas, Marietta woke to one of the happiest days of her life. She'd promised Zack they'd make cookies together all day long. Zack had coaxed and cajoled Jase into promising he'd help with the tasty Christmas preparations. It would be a wonderful day.

The next two days with Jase would be bliss, and she'd have more sweet memories to tuck inside her heart for the lonely, hungry times in Chicago.

A knock sounded at her door.

"Aunt Marietta, I'm ready to bake cookies."

She smiled, went to the door and opened it. "Already, Zack? Don't you want to eat breakfast first?"

"I'll have cookies for breakfast, the kind with cinnamon on them."

She hunched down next to him. "Cookies for breakfast? I don't know. Don't you want some meat and potatoes?"

He shook his head until his brains must have started rattling. "Cookies--cookies with cinnamon on them."

She stood up and folded her arms. "Why not? It's Christmas. Little boys' wishes should come true at Christmastime. If you want cookies for breakfast, that's what we'll have." She unfolded her arms and pinched his cheek. "I need to get dressed and wash up, and so do you. I'll meet you in the kitchen, and we'll get started on the cookies."

~ * ~

Jase had tried all day to get his work finished so he could join Marietta and Zack in the kitchen, but there was just too much to do. Zack had begged him to help make Christmas cookies. Jase knew he'd be all thumbs trying to bake pastries--he could fry side meat, steak and potatoes just fine, but cookies were a little too delicate for his big fingers--but he'd do anything to spend time with the two most important people in his life.

When he'd finally finished the necessary work, he went to the bunkhouse to wash up and put on clean clothes, then he went to face what he expected to be one disappointed little boy in his kitchen. He was sure Zack would be upset he hadn't come earlier to help.

Jase went in the front door and wiped snow from his boots. As he hung his winter wear in the front closet, he heard laughter sing through his house from the kitchen. The warmth of it touched his heart and made him instantly regret not coming inside sooner.

Quietly, he made his way to the kitchen. Marietta and Zack hadn't heard him come in. He stood in obscurity watching a sight more heart-stoppingly beautiful than any he'd ever imagined. The woman and boy in his kitchen brought the entire house to life with a warmth that rivaled any known by any hearth.

"You're putting too much butter in the icing," Marietta warned Zack.

"You have to have a lot of butter, Aunt Marietta. I saw you sneak some carrot juice in there to make it yellow in color. If there's not enough butter, it might taste like carrots."

Marietta placed a hand on her hip. "It won't taste like carrots, but it _will_ taste like butter if you put too much in the icing."

"I like butter." He put another dollop of fat in the frosting bowl.

Marietta drew in an exasperated breath and smiled at Zack as she walked over to him. She hugged him and kissed his cheek. "Well, it's Christmas, Zack. A time when wishes should come true. You make the icing any way you like it."

He dropped his spoon into the frosting and threw his arms around his aunt. "I love you, Aunt Marietta."

Jase turned away and leaned against the wall. He thanked God for the love Marietta shared with Zack. This could have been a miserable Christmas for Zack without a woman in his life. Little boys needed loving women in their lives.

He took a deep breath and blew it out slowly. So did grown men.

The choice he'd been agonizing over was easy now. If Marietta would have him, he was going to marry her. He straightened up and walked into the kitchen.

Marietta caught sight of him the minute he entered the bright-yellow room. Her heart quickened when she saw his handsome face. "I'm glad to see you finally made it, Jase. Zack and I are icing the last of the Christmas cookies."

Zack put down his spoon and licked icing off his hands before running to Jase. "You got here at last. I shoulda helped you with the chores then you coulda come inside to help us sooner."

Marietta had been watching for Jase throughout the day. She wanted him with her every moment possible until she had to leave for Chicago. He was with her now, and that was all that mattered.

When the cookie baking was finished, she served the pot of stew she'd been simmering all day for supper. Jase ate heartily, but Zack only picked at his food.

"Too many cookies?" Marietta asked, teasing Zack.

The boy stirred his spoon around his plate. "I think I'm just too tired." He looked at Jase. "I think cookie baking is as tiring as rounding up cattle. What do you think, Jase?"

Marietta noticed Jase was holding back a smile. "Judging by how tired you look, son, I think you may be right."

"Aunt Marietta, would you mind if I went to bed?"

She reached toward Zack and caressed his cheek. "I think that might be a good idea."

He pushed out of his chair and walked slowly out of the room.

"When we've finished eating, Jase," Marietta said, "I sure would appreciate it if you'd take the rest of the stew and a basket of cookies to the men in the bunkhouse while I clean up the kitchen."

"They'll be grateful for your thoughtfulness. After eating with them these past weeks, I can tell you the cuisine they cook themselves leaves a lot to be desired. Although I will admit Miguel makes some excellent chili, and Stub is great with bacon and eggs."

She pushed herself away from the table and shook her head. "It's a good thing I'm leaving soon so you can have your house back. I don't know why you didn't eat with us. I told you it would have been fine."

"I didn't mind bunking and eating with the hands. They're more than employees to me; they're friends." Jase stood and wiped his mouth with his linen napkin. "Besides, we eat at such odd hours, and I didn't want to upset yours and Zack's timetables." He straightened to his full height before continuing. "Now, I've got something I'd like to ask you to do for me."

She tilted her head and sent him a grin. "What's that?"

He stepped closer to her. "Before I go to the bunkhouse, I'll lay a fire in the library hearth. When I come back inside, I want you to join me for some reading. You suggested we read together the day you arrived here, but we've yet to open a book besides the children's stories we've read to Zack."

Marietta was thrilled at the idea of having an intimate evening alone with the man she loved. "That sounds wonderful, Jase."

"Good," he said warmly, staring at her with gentle eyes. "I'll go tend to the fire."

While Jase built the fire in the library she quickly filled a basket with cookies and put the remaining stew in a bowl.

A few minutes later he came to pick up the provisions for the men in the bunkhouse.

While Jase was out, she raced to her room. She loosened her hair and let it cascade over her shoulders. After washing herself and putting on a clean shirtwaist, she hastened to the kitchen to finish her chores.

By the time Jase had returned from his deliveries, the kitchen stood in enough order for Marietta to leave the unfinished work for later. He offered her his arm and escorted her to the library. They took their seats next to each other on one of the small sofas next to the wall.

"You look beautiful tonight, Marietta."

She felt her cheeks warming due to the compliment he'd paid her. "And you look very handsome, Jase." His fresh, dark clothes emphasized his attractive masculine features.

"What would you like to read?" he asked softly.

The nearness of him tightened her throat. She wasn't sure if she would be able to speak clearly. "Something warm and lovely," she said softly. "Perhaps the book there on the bottom shelf." She pointed at one whose title she couldn't remember at the moment. "I tried to read it the night I waited up for you, but I couldn't concentrate."

He reached toward her and almost touched her cheek before he drew back his hand. "I love that you waited for me, Marietta, but I am sorry I worried you."

She smiled at him. "That's over now, Jase."

He moved closer to her on the little sofa and took her hand. "Marietta, I've loved having you here in my house. You're a wonderful woman and an exceptional mother to Zack."

"Thank you, Jase. You're very kind."

He took her other hand. "I'm not trying to be kind."

"You're not?"

He raised her hands to his lips one at a time and kissed her fingers. "No, I'm not. I'm trying to tell you that I've fallen in love with you. I'm trying to ask you to be my wife."

Nothing had ever shocked her so absolutely. "What did you say?"

He kissed her hands again. "I want you to be my wife, Marietta."

Even after he'd repeated his proposal, she could scarcely believe she'd heard him right. "You want me to marry you?" She closed her eyes to think. What should she say? How should she reply? Before her thoughts could clear, he pressed his lips to hers and stole what remained of her senses.

She basked in the bliss of his loving kiss. She'd never known anything so wonderful in her whole life.

After letting the kiss linger as long as she dared, she placed her palms over his smooth-shaven cheeks, pulled back and stared into the depths of his dark brown eyes. "Dear, Jase, I won't deny I have strong feelings for you. You know I do. I couldn't hide my feelings if I tried."

"Then you accept?"

The eager sound of anticipation in his words and the sight of it in his eyes was more than she could bear. She left the sofa. She needed to put some space between them if she were going to have the courage to give him her reply.

"No, I can't marry you," she said, turning away from him and staring into the hearth. "It's impossible."

A moment later he stood behind her. He touched her shoulder and turned her round to face him. "But why, if you care for me?"

"Because I don't belong here. My life is in Chicago. You know that, Jase."

He stroked his fingers over her jaw. "Your life was in Chicago, Marietta. You and Zack belong here with me now. We--you and I--belong together. I feel it with every fiber of my body. I love you with all my heart."

Marietta moved away from him, turning her head from side to side. "Jase, don't say that. You know I belong in Chicago."

He stepped behind her and took hold of her shoulders, pressing his lips close to her ear. "You need time to think."

The warmth of him penetrated through her. She knew if she didn't draw on every ounce of strength she had, she'd whirl around and press her heart next to his. If she let him hold her as she ached for him to do, she'd never leave him.

But she didn't belong in the wilderness. She had to return to Chicago. She couldn't let her feelings for this man cloud her good judgment. Hadn't her mother drummed that into her head until the gospel idea was firmly planted there?

She turned around slowly and looked up at him. She opened her mouth to speak, but words wouldn't come.

She shouldn't have looked into his eyes. Too much hope lay in the brown circles staring down at her. Too much anticipation, and far too much love.

"I'm very tired, Jase." She looked down briefly before lifting her gaze to meet his. She stiffened her spine and firmed her jaw. "I'm sorry, Jase. My answer is no. I can't be your wife."

"I'm sorry too, Marietta, because I won't take no for an answer."

His response to her refusal was nearly as shocking as his proposal had been.

"What?"

"We belong together," he said, pulling her into his arms and placing a sweet kiss on her lips. "You have no reason to return to Chicago. You told me you've lost your job; you said you'll have to move into your aunt's house and depend on her for your care as well as Zack's."

She pushed out of his embrace. "My life, such as it is, _is_ in Chicago. I'll find another job, and I'll support Zack and myself quite adequately, I assure you."

He smiled and touched her cheek. "I have no doubt of that. I didn't mean to imply you needed me for financial reasons. I meant to say you had a better reason to accept my proposal than to return to your life in Chicago. With me, you'll have something you've yet to find in the city, something far more important than anything else in all the world. Love, Marietta. Deep, abiding, everlasting love."

She moved away from him and wrung her hands. "You don't know what you're asking of me. What would I do without my social life? Mother always said a woman is defined by her place in society and her social activities." She turned back to face him. "You don't know the sacrifice you're asking me to make."

He moved toward her quickly and took her into his arms. "And you don't know what you're throwing away."

"Please," she said, fighting the desire to stay firmly planted inside his arms, "don't hold me so tightly, Jase. I can't think when you're arms are around me."

He let her go and took a step back. "Think, Marietta. Think about what you're throwing away."

She grasped her head with her palms and closed her eyes. "It isn't fair. You want me to leave my life. You want me to do all the sacrificing for us to be together. Jase, you don't know what you're asking." She looked at him and slowly turned her head from side to side. "I don't think I can do it, no matter how much I care for you."

"You think I'm not making changes in my life by asking you to be my wife?" His jaw hardened. "Consider this, Marietta. I'm in league with a consortium of nearly a dozen men to buy land near the Oregon Trail where we'll build a new town. We investors stand to gain a fortune in funds and everlasting fame should the railroad eventually decide to come through on land near our town. It's a dream for me, Marietta, something I've longed for."

"Then why would you ask me to marry you?" she interjected. "You'd have no time for Zack and me if you were taking on such a project. Between your ranch and your land project, you'd barely have time to eat and sleep."

He nodded and stared at her as his deep love for her returned to his eyes. "That's right. If we were to marry, I'd have to give up a dream." He moved closer to her and took her into his arms. "But I'll gladly exchange a lesser dream for a greater one, Marietta. I want you to be my wife."

She felt herself weaken. She closed her eyes and sank her cheek into his shoulder. She had to find the courage she needed to refuse him again.

"I'm sorry, Jase. My answer is no."

He kissed the top of her head, released her, and left the room.

### Chapter Ten

Marietta's sleep was fitful after turning down Jase's proposal.

Why did he have to ask her to stay? Surely he knew she'd turn him down. He knew she didn't belong in the wilderness any more than a mountain lion belonged in the city.

Why had he forced her to hurt him when it was the last thing she'd ever want to do?

Yet, his proposal required sacrifice from both of them if they were to be married. Was she being selfish by refusing to give up her established life the way Jase was willing to give up his land speculation for her?

Perhaps she was.

She turned from side to side in her bed, trying to clear confusion from her mind. She needed to think, to think clearly. She mustn't let her feelings for Jase cloud her judgment or interfere with making sound choices.

Sometimes, she wished she could be the rebel Kathy had been. No matter what Mother had taught them Kathy had always done as she'd pleased.

How she wished she had Kathy to speak with now. She needed her sister's advice so much. Even when she'd been hundreds of miles away, Kathy had continued to comfort and advise her through her correspondence. Now she didn't even have letters coming from her dear, sweet sister.

Marietta tossed inside her sheets and stewed in her troubles and in the teachings of childhood. In a moment of clarity she realized the only way she could have peace was by putting aside her feelings for Jase. Perhaps if she tucked emotion away and let logic and common sense dominate her thoughts she'd be able to make sound decisions.

She'd barely acknowledged the importance of eliminating emotion while making sound decisions when it occurred to her Jase had let his feelings rule the choices he made for his life. He'd let his love for her trump his plans for building a new town.

She demanded logical, emotionally-detached thinking to guide her in making decisions. Jase had let his heart steer him to the road he believed he wanted to follow. How differently two people in love could behave.

He was willing to give up a _dream_ for her. And she was willing to give up _him_ to return to her conventional life.

Damnation!

It was the first time such a word had ever crossed Marietta's thoughts. Life was suddenly far too complicated, and she was going to have to find a way to uncomplicate things very soon.

~ * ~

The next morning was Christmas Eve. By the time Marietta had washed and dressed for the day, Jase and Zack were dragging the Christmas tree inside.

"Aunt Marietta!" Zack squealed as she met him in the parlor. "Look at the tree Jase and I cut down! I got up very, very early today because it's Christmas Eve and time to get the tree. I woke Jase, and him and me went all the way out to Pine Rock Hollow to get it. Jase said that was the most special place in the whole world to him because he had a real special day there one time a couple of weeks ago." Zack looked up at Jase, whose face was turning an odd shade of red. "Didn't you say that, Jase?"

The cowboy cleared his throat. "I did, but, Zack, that was between you and me."

Marietta could barely look at Jase. She loved him so much. She'd loved him the day he'd first kissed her in Pine Rock Hollow, she loved him this minute as she stared across the room at him, and she would love him every day for the rest of her life.

"It's a beautiful tree, Zack." She folded her arms across her lavender shirtwaist. "Did you help cut it down?"

"Yup, and I cut my finger too, but Jase took care of it."

"You cut your finger? You must be very careful using tools, Zack."

"I know, Jase told me. Right, Jase?" He looked up at the man on the other side of the Christmas tree.

"You did fine, Zack. There isn't a man alive who hasn't cut himself on a tool at least once in his life, but your aunt is right. We all need to be careful using tools."

Marietta unfolded her arms and tucked away a stray hair which had escaped from the knot at her nape. "Did you two have breakfast yet?"

"I took some cookies to the bunkhouse for Jase and me, but I'm hungry again," Zack replied. "Are you, Jase?"

"I wouldn't mind some potatoes and side meat, or steak," Jase said, fixing his gaze on Marietta.

"And flapjacks," Zack added.

She smiled at her nephew, but when she looked at Jase, the smile slowly slipped away. With fifteen feet between him and his face half-hidden by the enormous fir tree he held on to, Marietta could see the love in Jase's eyes as well as the pain her refusal had put there.

She looked at Zack again and forced another smile. "One man-sized breakfast coming up." She quickly turned and walked out of the room.

She'd spent a lot of time in Jase's kitchen over the past few weeks, but this time the kitchen felt different to her. He'd offered to make his kitchen her kitchen. He'd asked her to make his parlor her parlor, his ranch her ranch, his library her library, and his bedroom their bedroom. He'd plainly told her he wanted her to share his life in every way, and she'd turned him down.

Had she done the right thing? She clenched her fists and whispered, "I don't know."

Marietta looked out the window at the vast emptiness of the Nebraska Territory prairie. She loved Jase's home. It was much lovelier than anyplace she'd ever lived, but there were no neighbors outside the front door except the ranch hands. Amy Carson and Mrs. Harrison, the colonel's wife, were the only women close to her age who lived nearby, yet they were a half-day's ride from the ranch, and Marietta couldn't even ride a horse.

Accepting Jase's proposal would be a huge risk, and she'd been raised to avoid taking chances. Her mother had told her to stay with the familiar, to keep close associations with ladies in the community, and to never, _never_ let infatuation with a man interfere with good judgment. Mother had insisted a woman without a full social life served no purpose. If Marietta married Jase, she'd have no social life at all. Jase, Zack, the ranch hands, and possibly Mrs. Whipple if she stayed on would be the only people in her life on a daily or even weekly basis.

She began to peel the potatoes and heat the skillet in which she'd fry them.

Kathy had found immeasurable happiness in Nebraska--her letters had made her feelings crystal clear--and Amy was as happy as any woman Marietta had ever met. Was love really enough for some women? It had been for Amy and Kathy, but could it be for her?

She shook the confusing thoughts from her head. She'd made the only decision she could have made. She belonged in Chicago, and she just had to accept that and forget about Jase.

When the potatoes, side meat, and flapjacks were ready to be served, Marietta called Jase and Zack to the kitchen. The three of them feasted on fine food and loving companionship the way they would if they were a real family.

As Marietta became a momentary part of domestic bliss, she began to wonder which would be the bigger mistake, leaving Jase or staying with him.

She had to stop thinking about staying with Jase. She'd made up her mind. She was returning to Chicago where she belonged.

The rest of the day passed quickly. By the time supper was over, Zack was falling asleep in his dessert. Marietta insisted he go to bed, and she promised she'd come to his room to tell him goodnight in a short while.

When Zack left the room, Jase helped her clean up the kitchen. As he handed her a stack of dishes, their hands met, and she nearly dropped the china. He stepped next to her as she set the plates in a basin of warm soapy water.

"Marietta, I want to apologize for being so abrupt with you yesterday with my proposal, and I'm sorry I tried to bully you into accepting me. I knew before I asked you'd most likely refuse me, but I had to ask. I love you too much not to have asked."

She turned and looked up at him. "Jase, I didn't want to hurt you."

He placed two fingers over her lips. "Don't say anything. I do understand. I can't give you the social life you need, and I don't have anything more to offer you than my love." He drew his fingers back. "I wish I did, but just as your life is in the city, mine is here on the ranch." He cupped her chin. "So, you see, I do understand."

He spoke as though he had a crystal clear comprehension of why she'd chosen to return to Chicago. As much as she'd strived to believe she'd made the only logical choice she could make, her heart had continued to confuse and contradict her. Why did life, choices and decisions have to be such a mystery to her sometimes?

"I'm going upstairs to see Zack," he said, stepping away from her. "He's pretty excited about tomorrow morning. I promised him we'd have Bible readings with the ranch hands when he's finished opening his presents, but I think he's anticipating the feast we'll have more than anything else. That child loves to eat."

His fondness for her nephew filled her heart. "He does for a fact. Tell him I'll be up in a few minutes to tell him goodnight."

Jase inclined his head toward her and left the room.

When she'd finished cleaning up, she went to Zack's room, half expecting to find the boy sound asleep. Zack was sitting on Jase's lap while they sat on Zack's bed. The two of them cuddled together was the most beautiful portrait Marietta had ever seen.

"Did you get a present for Beaumont, Jase?"

He kissed the top of the boy's head. "Beaumont's a horse, son. He doesn't get presents."

A giant grin spread over Zack's face. "But little boys do, don't they, Jase?"

"They sure do."

"And so do big men," Zack said slyly.

"They do?" Jase pretended to be surprised by the boy's statement.

Zack gave an exaggerated nod. "Yup. I saw Aunt Marietta making you a--" He slapped his hands over his mouth. "It's a secret," he whispered as he drew his fingers away from his lips.

Jase chuckled, and Zack threw his arms around his neck.

"I love you, Jase. I wish we could stay forever. I never want to leave you."

Jase let the embrace linger before he pulled the boy away from him. "You know that isn't possible. You and your aunt will be leaving in a week. You'll have a wonderful life in Chicago."

"If you say so. I promised I'd be good when it came time to leave if you let me stay here, and you did, so I will."

"I'm glad to hear that."

"But I still wish I could stay, and Aunt Marietta said wishes could come true at Christmastime."

"Little wishes can come true, Zack. I'm afraid this wish is just too big."

Marietta hastened down the hall to her room. She couldn't stand to listen to Zack's shattered hopes and dreams another moment.

Was she being completely selfish? Why couldn't she be sure of her decision? Why did so much doubt linger? She raised her eyes high above. If only she could find the answers to her questions. She had to be sure she was making the right decision.

She waited until she thought Jase was probably gone and went to tell Zack goodnight. She found him snuggled under the covers. He didn't see her until she was next to him. "Are you ready to go to sleep?"

"Yup. I'm ready to sleep 'cause I need to get up early in the morning. I want a long day to celebrate Christmas."

She smiled as she leaned over and kissed him. "Goodnight, honey."

He kissed her cheek in return. "Goodnight, Aunt Marietta."

She tucked in his quilt and left his room.

As she lay on her bed, she closed her eyes and prayed for the strength she'd need to live with her decision to return to Chicago. It was the only realistic, sensible choice she could make for her future as well as Zack's. And it was a decision she had to live with.

~ * ~

Jase stared at his home from his bunkhouse room. Marietta's light had gone out an hour earlier. She was asleep by now, dreaming, resting, looking beautiful with her auburn hair strewn on her pillow around her lovely face. He was going to miss her so much he didn't know if he'd be able to stand it. Living without her would mean terrible suffering.

Maybe he deserved the pain. He'd been a greedy man in his life, always chasing a new dream of wealth and success. He'd been blessed with a wondrous ranch in Texas, but it hadn't been enough. He'd wanted to be a new settler in a new land making his mark. That dream had prompted him to come to Nebraska to start one of the first cattle ranches. And now that his ranch was moderately successful, he still wasn't satisfied. He wanted to be remembered long after he was gone for both his wealth and his contributions to western growth, in the form of a new town.

He'd been greedy. He'd chosen to satisfy his thirst for new ventures when he'd left Texas, instead of marrying a woman who'd loved him deeply. He hadn't loved Louise, but he'd liked her very much. She would have been a good wife to him, and she'd have given him wonderful children. But he'd chosen a new challenge in Nebraska over a family and the love of a good woman.

It was only fitting that now, when he'd made the decision to choose Marietta over another new venture, she would reject him. He didn't deserve her love or the love of any other woman. He was being paid back for his selfish choices.

Now that he'd finally learned there was nothing greater in life than loving a woman, it was too late.

He stared at Marietta's window a little longer.

"Goodbye, my love. I'll never forget you."

~ * ~

Christmas came and went, and nothing of its magic helped Marietta gain any peace as she tried to squelch her nagging doubts about returning to Chicago. She was just as confused on December twenty-sixth, twenty-seventh, and twenty-eighth as she had been on Christmas Eve.

Two days before the stage which would take Marietta and Zack on their way to Chicago was due, Jase came into the kitchen just after Marietta finished washing up the breakfast dishes.

"Good morning, Jase. Can I fix you something else to eat?"

"No thanks." He took off his wide-brimmed hat and stepped closer until he stood next to her. He turned his hat in his hands. "I'm leaving tomorrow," he said on half-choked words.

"You're leaving? What do you mean? Where are you going?"

He glanced away briefly before he looked at her again. "I've got business to attend to. If I can't have you, I might as well go ahead with my plans for the land development. The consortium wants to have the town open for business by the end of next summer."

"So soon?" She was amazed at how quickly things could change in the West--from the weather to the landscape to the growth of new communities.

"Of course. Lots of folks use the Oregon Trail. People come through by the dozens needing supplies of all kinds. The sooner we can provide for their needs, the better it will be for all of us."

She hadn't thought about just how exciting this venture would be for a man like Jase. He had indeed been willing to make a huge sacrifice for their love.

Blast her for being so selfish and unwilling to compromise! Guilt stirred her insides.

"Miguel will take you and Zack to the fort. I'll meet you there before the stage leaves."

"Zack will be terribly disappointed about your departure." Marietta could feel her heart breaking. She'd thought she would have more time with him before she had to leave.

His gaze drifted toward the parlor where Zack was making noises as he played with his new handmade toys. "And what about you, Marietta?" he said when he looked at her again. "Are you disappointed I'm leaving?"

She felt her throat tighten. She rubbed her fingers over her neck as though the motion would loosen her constricting muscles. Caught in the grip of his penetrating eyes, she found she couldn't lie to him. "Yes, Jase. God help me, yes. I didn't want us to part yet."

His Adam's apple quivered as he took a step closer to her and stroked her cheek with his fingers. "I'll never be ready for us to part, but I can't stand for us to be so near to each other when I can't take you in my arms."

"Jase, please don't say that." She closed her eyes and turned around, leaning against the cupboards to steady her weakening body. She wouldn't be able to think straight if he did take her into his arms, yet she couldn't help but wish he'd do exactly that. Her heart wanted him to hold her and never let her go.

"I'm sorry," he said, fingering the hair she'd allowed to lay around her shoulders. "I didn't mean to upset you. What I'm trying to say is goodbye."

Her heart stopped beating, and she couldn't breathe. He placed his hand on her shoulder and pressed his lips close to her ear.

"I'll always love you, Marietta." He kissed her cheek, stood back from her, and left the room.

Marietta couldn't move. Cold air blew through the room when Jase opened the outside door. But it was the sound of the door closing that roused her from her unresponsive state of shock.

Jase was gone.

He'd never hold her again, never kiss her again, never share her life.

Could she live without him?

Heaven help her, she wanted him, but was it too late to have him? Now that she knew more about his land developing project and understood the dream he was willing to sacrifice to become her husband, could she change her mind and accept his proposal? If she did, she'd be asking him to make a monumental sacrifice in giving up something so important to him. If she truly loved him, how could she ask him to give up his dream?

Marietta watched Jase mount Beaumont and ride away from the house. As he moved toward the pasture, she envisioned him riding out of her life. She knew only too well the pain of losing the people she'd loved in her life; could she stand to lose love again?

### Chapter Eleven

As the first light of dawn filtered into the barn, Jase saddled his steed and loaded the last of the supplies he'd need to make his trip. He'd decided to ride to James Richards' ranch east of the fort to discuss their plans for the spring trip. It seemed like a good excuse to get away from his ranch.

No matter how much he wanted to spend more time with Zack, it was too painful to be with Marietta, knowing she'd never belong to him. He loved her more than he could have ever imagined loving anyone. If only his whole life could be as wonderful as the times they'd spent together since she'd come to his home. But it couldn't.

He was a coward for running out on Marietta and Zack, but he couldn't help it. The two of them would be fine without him. Miguel would take care of them until it was time for them to leave, and Jase would meet them at the fort to give them their final farewell. Their separation would then last forever, and Jase's heart would truly be dead.

When his horse was ready, he left the barn and walked ahead of Beaumont, reluctantly tugging the loyal companion away from the house. As he prepared to mount his steed, he heard his name screeched across the yard.

"Jase, wait!"

He turned to see Marietta standing on his porch with a shawl wrapped around her nightgown.

"Jase, don't go! Please!"

Something had to be terribly wrong. Was Zack sick? Had he been hurt? Jase jumped on Beaumont and hastened toward the house. As soon as he reached his porch, he dismounted and hurried up the stairs.

"What's wrong?" he said, grasping Marietta's shoulders. "Is Zack all right?"

"Zack's fine." She was out of breath, as though she'd just run the distance he'd covered across his yard.

"Then what's brought you out here in your nightclothes screaming at me so early in the morning?"

She stared up at him, her eyes glistening. "I've made some big mistakes in my life, Jase. The worst ones have been those where I've thrown away opportunities at happiness because I was afraid to take chances and venture into unknown territories. I've never been like Kathy."

"But what has that to do with anything? Why have you come out into the cold so sparsely dressed?" He took her arm. "Let's go inside."

"I'm fine, Jase. I'm not cold in the least. Please, let me explain. I have so much to tell you."

"You can tell me inside." He squeezed her arm and ushered her into the house.

She shivered when he closed the door. He guided her into the parlor where the embers of a fire remained aglow. "Now what is it you have to tell me? You were saying something about being afraid to take chances."

"Yes, I've never had the feisty spirit Kathy had, even though we were raised the same." She stopped and drew in a breath in an apparent attempt to calm down. "As I told you before, when Kathy left Chicago, I was devastated. She missed me as desperately as I missed her. She'd sent me dozens of letters begging me to come to Nebraska to stay with her and Clint. I didn't come, Jase, because I was afraid. For so many years, I was afraid to risk whatever lay on the path between Chicago and Kathy, so I lived without experiencing her love or the love of Zack or Clint."

Marietta tilted her head as she stared up at him, her eyes warmer than he'd ever seen them. "Jase, these last weeks have been the happiest of my life."

He wasn't sure what she was going to say next, but hope began to rise within him when he learned she'd been happy in his home. "Go on, Marietta."

A tear slid down her cheek. Jase pulled his gloves from his hands, wiped it away, and threw his gloves on the sofa.

"I don't want to be afraid anymore. I don't want to lose any more love because I'm afraid." She turned away. "I couldn't sleep last night, because all I could see was you riding away from me--leaving me. All I could feel was emptiness over another lost love, a chasm even deeper than the one which had grown in my heart when Kathy left me. I needed comfort desperately, so I went to my trunk, the one which held my letters from Kathy. I took them with me as I snuggled under my covers, hoping to find the answers to my great confusion."

She turned back to him and looked at him with tears shimmering in her eyes. "I didn't think I could stand to leave you, Jase, but neither did I have the strength to stay."

He'd never felt so helpless in his life. She was playing with his heart, his mind, even his life. If she didn't make herself clear in the next two seconds, he was going to explode.

"As I read Kathy's sisterly words, I realized how vital it is for a woman to follow her heart. Right or wrong, a woman will never have happiness if she isn't true to herself and her heart." She pulled her shawl closer around her shoulders. "As I read Kathy's letters over and over, I realized I had been wrong to refuse your proposal."

"Marietta--"

"Wait, there's more." She pressed her fingers to his lips. "I know I want to marry you, Jase. I know being together is the best thing that could happen to us and to Zack as well."

He pushed her hand away from his lips and let the joy in his heart light his face with a smile. "You'll marry me then?"

She took a step back and said, "On one condition."

Her regression and reluctance confused him once more. "I don't like ultimatums, Marietta, and I won't take them from anyone, not even you."

Despite his firm words, she grinned like a man ready to show a full house to an opponent who'd just laid down a King-high straight. "You'll like this ultimatum, Jase. I guarantee it."

He quirked a brow and folded his arms. "Anything's possible, I suppose."

"Yes! That's what I'm trying to tell you. Until last night I never realized it, but anything _is_ possible. It's possible for me to live here with you, it's possible for me to leave Chicago for good, it's possible for the two of us to find happiness and still live out our dreams."

He couldn't wait another minute. He scooped her into his arms and whirled her around. "And it's possible for a stubborn woman to finally come to her senses."

She giggled and pushed herself out of his arms. "Wait, I haven't finished saying what I have to say."

He set her down but didn't let her go. "There's more? What more can you give a man than the fulfillment of his most desired dream?"

She gazed up at him with eyes and cheeks and lips full of sheer delight. She was so beautiful he could hardly stand it.

"How about the fulfillment of his second-most desired dream?" Her gaze turned coy, then confident. "Jason Kent, you're going to go ahead with your land speculation, and I'm going to help you every step of the way. We're going to found and build that town, and I'm going to turn our new community into a civilized place fit for the best of society."

"What?" He could feel his eyes growing as he took in what she'd offered.

"It's the perfect answer for both of us. We both get what we want most--besides each other, of course."

"You're sure this is what you want?"

She stretched up and kissed him on the lips. "I've never been surer of anything in my life."

He crushed her against his chest and devoured her with a kiss he hoped expressed the love overflowing from his heart. He kissed her some more and more, until he wondered if he could separate from her long enough to take a breath. When she went limp in his arms, he pulled away to gaze down at her lovely face.

She smiled at him. "We'll never build a new town if you're going to kiss me like that, Jason Kent. I'll be too weak to work."

He lifted her into his arms and carried her to the sofa. "Then I'll carry you everywhere you need to go."

"Let's wake Zack and tell him the good news," she said excitedly.

"Zack will be awake on his own soon enough," he said, sitting next to her. Jase pulled her into his arms again. "I want you all to myself for a few minutes."

The sight of the shade of red filling her cheeks, the same vermillion color the dawn had painted outside the window, warmed him clear through. He thought of all the nights and dawns they would share together in the coming years, and he got warmer still. As he held her closer intending to kiss her again, he heard a crunching sound which caused him to stop his advances. "What's that?"

Marietta grinned, pulled away and reached into the pocket of her nightgown. "It's the last letter I received from Kathy, the one which opened my eyes completely and set me on the right path."

Jase tilted his head and quirked a brow as he reached for the letter. "Just what sort of magic does this paper hold?"

She blushed again and reached for the paper he'd taken from her hand. "Never mind," she said coyly. "You should never pry into sisterly secrets."

Her demure behavior roused his curiosity. He held the paper away from her and began to read it, but she grabbed it from him before he could read very far. All he had time to discern was one insignificant little phrase which had been underlined several times: _Mother was wrong._

Marietta stuffed the letter into her pocket and grinned at him seductively. "Wasn't there something you wanted before we were distracted by the letter, Jase?"

Pleasantly surprised to see she knew a bit about teasing a man, he grinned at her and took her into his arms. "What letter?"

He moved closer to her until his lips touched hers softly. He kissed her slowly, carefully, until he was sure she knew she'd be treasured for the rest of her life. Then he thanked God and Kathy for Marietta's blessed change of heart.

The End

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Just about all of us want to get away from the demands of everyday life from time to time. Unfortunately, most of us don't have the luxury of being able to take off to some new, exciting place whenever we feel the urge--unless we like to read.

A book can take us anywhere we'd like to go. For readers who enjoy living vicariously in pastimes or in modern times Fran Shaff provides a great escape in the more than twenty novels she's published over the years. Fran's fictional books have won awards from readers, reviewers and fellow authors, and her non-fiction has been acknowledged in this way too.

Love is the main focus of all of Fran's books, whether they're contemporary or historical, serious or humorous, written for adults or teens. Love between men and women and among friends and families is featured in her books because there is nothing most of us want more than to love and be loved. Happy endings abound, but the journey to reaching that joyful final moment is always a rocky struggle, just the way we want our fiction (even though we could do without the drama in our real lives).

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Fran Shaff has won the following awards and honors: Write Touch Readers' Award, More than Magic Award, Herbert W. Blakely Award, Golden Rose Award, EPPIE nomination for young people's literature, two Recommended Read Awards from Fallen Angel Reviews, Top Pick Award from Romance Reader at Heart, E-book of the Month Award from MyShelf.com, and two CataRomance Reviewers' Choice Awards, one nomination.

