my head and brain for a hot minute went
to a place so dark that I didn't think
that I was going to come back from
people always say that being a
social-media influencer is an easy job
and this is saying that I've talked
about time and time to time to get on
YouTube we get it but I don't think any
human being ever is prepared mentally or
physically to deal with the pain and
anxiety of what it feels like to have
millions and millions of people talking
to you at one time yeah for sure and
James Charles I can definitely relate to
that so in this video I figured it was
the perfect time to revisit my
controversy that happened a couple
months ago and spill all of the tea and
tell the truth what is up everybody this
is Chris from the rewired so where we
talk about the problem but focus on the
solution and if you lose my channel I
recently had to rebrand as a social
commentary channel because of my past
controversy but anyways make sure you
subscribe and bring that notification
bell because we are here to talk about
the truth about what really happened to
me all right so I'm gonna start off by
saying this I messed up there were
definitely missteps I took where my ego
got a little bit too big I was in a
cycle of just winning and winning and
winning my subscribers were going up
people loved me I was getting all this
positive feedback and I screwed up and
my whole controversy started out with
some leaked DMS where I said something
like along the lines of hey did you see
Trisha Paytas freaking out on me lol and
this started and it turned into this
whole narrative and all of these lies
started getting spread about me so I've
taken a bunch of notes I'm gonna do my
best to make this video not as long as
James calls but kind of break them down
piece by
he's and explain these things in
chronological order okay
so first let's start off a bipolar
corner bipolar corner has had a problem
with me for a very long time I think he
originally found my channel before I
started using youtubers to talk about
mental health issues but he hasn't liked
me for a long time we've had
disagreements but he has emailed me
multiple the time saying hey I know we
disagree and he wanted to do
collaborations with me which I was open
to but he kept attacking me so I'm like
okay no I don't really want to do that
anymore
and basically what happened was and the
reason I originally blocked him from my
channel and will keep blocking him from
my channel was this I was doing a live
stream and my audience my audience used
to be about 85% women okay and I have a
duty to my audience and I have a duty to
protect the people who are following me
right so I was in a live stream and I
think I was like reacting to Shane
Dawson's series or something like that I
forgot what it was and I actually
actually paid my editor Zack to go
through all of my live streams to try to
find the receipts on this but I couldn't
find them like we spent hours looking
for him I couldn't find them so you're
just gonna have to take my word for it
if you don't believe me that's cool well
anyways in my live stream which was
filled with women Gary from bipolar
corner was in there and he started
talking about his sex addiction and he
started asking the other women in the
live stream if they had experience with
a sex addiction as well all right and it
got to a point where it was completely
crossing lines all right he was telling
women in my live stream to DM him and to
talk about it and to open up about it
and things like that I personally found
this highly inappropriate and see how
Gary had a track record of blowing up on
me and everything like that I was like
you know what I'm just done with this
guy I'm not gonna I'm not gonna handle
it anymore like peace and that's what
happened that's what happened and since
then Gary has obviously had a vendetta
against me and the only videos that he
makes that get any kind of real traction
or about me
he's incentivized to keep talking trash
about me
so then leafy greens originally made her
video about me and it started to blow up
started get some traction okay and leafy
greens blew something out of proportion
where I said our podcast that I think
she has BPD okay the only reason I said
that the only reason I said that and
maybe I should have researched her
videos a little bit more but the only
reason I said that was because I looked
and she had dozens of videos about her
borderline personality disorder
diagnosis so in my podcast I was trying
to read her back a lot of my audience
who studies with BPD over to her channel
because she makes a lot of videos about
BPD and then she made like this whole
hour long livestream about how I
diagnosed her and that's part of what
started the narrative that I diagnosed
people you are not diagnosing somebody
if you say I think they have BPD
especially if it's based on their own
account I did not know at that time that
she rejected her diagnosis that is
completely up to her but I wish I would
have given more of context as to why I
said I think she had BPD I was in no way
shape or form trying to diagnose this
woman now once my DMS got leaked when I
was talking to other drama channels that
people I considered I don't even know
can't consider them friends or
colleagues or whatever leafy greens said
and she it's a quote in an article she
got interviewed for the same one I got
interviewed for in The Verge where she
talked about how all of these people got
together to do a coordinated attack
against me
okay and the fact that nobody sees a red
flag with that like blew my mind okay so
anyways let's talk about first Oh get
out of the way the viewers voice and
Dustin Daly Dustin Daly him and I had
talked a few times just like openly on
Twitter that was about it the viewers
voice at that time I respected what Nick
was doing with his channel and his
hustle and everything like that and
again I screwed up I was trying to get
the story out there about Trisha Paytas
attacking me
and it was so stupid and so dumb and I
wish I'd to take it back because it
would have just gotten out there anyway
so it was done with me to try to feed
that story to people especially
looking at how one tweet one tweet of
like less than ten words has been blown
so far out of proportion
okay but let's talk about petit page
penny page originally reached out to me
a while back and said hey that
background that you have that you use
like how'd you do it how'd you do it I
said my editor did it my editor Zack and
Zack is is a broke young dude I'm like
go talk to my editors out see if you
know maybe he can make one for you for
cheap so I linked those two two up I've
been nothing but kind and courteous to
penny page well when the story with
Trisha Paytas and I happen Petie page
approached me she approached me and said
she was thinking about making a video
about myself and Trisha Paytas and I was
like okay cool let me know if you need
any information about this still to this
day I haven't watched any of her videos
about me I don't watch any of the videos
Dustin Bailey Ashley Kyle or the viewers
voice made about me so full disclosure I
haven't watched those so I don't know if
she showed the DMS and like dove into
that but anyways she approached me now a
lot of you know I make a ton of content
I make a ton of content so I was
following up a penny page to try to find
out when she was releasing the Trisha
Paytas video so that way I could
organize my own content and figure out
what I was going to release at that time
alright but one of the main issues I had
was the whole narrative create about me
was how manipulative I am right like I'm
just nice to people I try to be nice to
people now don't get me wrong I call
people out on their BS and I give tough
look but I try to be kind and generous
and nice to people but that was spun
into this whole narrative of Chris's
only nice to people because he's trying
to get something and that's something
that I took a lot of offense to because
that's something that I've worked really
really hard to change since I started my
recovery journey almost seven years ago
so I didn't appreciate how people like
Penny page were saying I was only being
nice to try to get down to get me more
views and subscribers and things like
that next one that I'll shortly address
is siren Cove I didn't watch her video
about me
but I saw a bunch of comments that
I was getting hit with about how I
manipulated her as well
Simon Cove and I originally started
talking when there was some controversy
with Trisha Paytas and Simon Cove has
made a bunch of videos about Trisha
Paytas so that's how we started talking
so when Trisha Paytas came at me sorry
Cole and I were talking about that
situation as well and she was planning
on making a video about it so the same
thing with Penny page I was talking to
Simon Cove like trying to figure out my
own content strategy and following up
with that now in in these situations I
try to give people the benefit of the
doubt I think like what's this story
about me started to blow up I don't I
think that it wasn't malicious they they
legitimately felt hurt they felt like I
was manipulating them and this is why
I've been so against cancel culture and
being an independent thinker and I hope
this James Fowler situation is opening
all of your eyes to you need to be an
independent thinker don't let people let
tell you how to think about somebody
else so like I'm not trying to discount
anybody like Simon coves personal
feelings towards me but I can see how
once a narrative was created about me
she can relook at those messages and say
oh my god he was manipulating me
alright the last drama channel I'm gonna
touch on is Ashley Kyle that one hurt
that one hurt a lot okay and Ashley Kyle
made a video discussing her own eyes
relationship out of all the other drama
channels out there I felt like Ashley
Kyle and I were the fun minute friendly
yes like I I promoted her Channel and
her videos in my videos and things like
that we talked she you know gave me some
shoutouts and everything like we're
friendly okay and we had private
conversations which I'm not gonna bring
up fully but I was so hurt by it because
when this all happened with all this
happened so many people just threw out
everything they knew about me everything
they knew about me about being somebody
who is passionate about helping people
and sending out a message hey there's
hope get help for your mental illness
whatever it is right so when she did
that to me it hurts because we had a lot
of personal in-depth conversation
so when I was interviewed for insider
magazine I will instead but I left her
completely anonymous the fact that she
went out and she publicly talked about
it that's on her okay because she I'm
assuming she started to feel paranoid
and things like that so she wanted to
get ahead of it and address it at the
end of the day I'm glad she's getting
help but my experience was that somebody
who I talked to for hours upon hours
upon hours upon for you know the span of
I can't remember how long our
relationship was weeks or months to just
turn on me like that it really hurt and
that's why I empathize with James chose
so much because I understand what he's
going through the reason I've made so
many videos defending James house
because I get it people you thought were
your friends just turning on you okay
next I'm gonna talk about Primack okay
this is the biggest example about how
when canceled culture strikes and mob
mentality strikes people do not care
about the truth in any way shape or form
the reality is my relationship with
przemek started because he got butthurt
because I disagreed with him in a
comment on rep zilla's video and since
then he had a personal vendetta against
me and then when bobzilla stuck up for
me because he agreed with my point of
view przemek started a personal vendetta
against myself and RevZilla okay when
Primack made his video about me calling
me a fake therapist alright first off
let's address this real quick how is it
in any way shape or form to take
somebody like myself or there's not one
single clip out there of me saying I'm a
licensed therapist right how is it okay
for someone just slap the label a fake
therapist on me and then people come and
attack me saying I'm not even licensed I
never freaking said I was licensed but
anyways I made a response video to
przemek and like it just confused me
about human beings right like ID bump
every single point that he made and
people did not care people did not care
about the truth people
like I may just disproved everything he
said with facts but I still agree with
them like what what it reminds me of
like like there's cliffs out there of
people who were being interviewed about
Donald Trump and they were asked like is
there anything Donald Trump could do
that would make you not like him anymore
and they're like no and I'm like well
that's concerning right I don't mean to
compare per minute to Donald Trump but
like how do you not care that somebody
hey who has openly admitted to not
watching my videos has taken video
titles out of context me disproving
everything he said and just be like hey
I don't care but nobody cares nobody
cares the fact that pre-make has just
spread blatant lies like I think it was
RevZilla in his response to Prem Inc
exposing him like RevZilla showed a DM
from perming and I'm not here to defend
RevZilla that's his own thing right but
premix said I know you and the reward
soul are working on a video together
like what what like in no way shape or
form is that true and I guess I'll dress
the RevZilla situation really quick
rozilla tonight we were almost like
colleagues we just talked we talked
about stories we gave each other YouTube
advice you know what was going on in the
community that was about the extent I've
never talked to him on the phone we've
never met in person or anything like
that
and from being honest webs or hurt back
feelings because when all this stuff
happened RevZilla just turned his back
on me and just walked out he's like
you're on your own buddy and that's what
it felt like I felt completely deserted
not again
that's why I empathize with James
Charles because when stuff hit the fan I
felt completely deserted next let's talk
about T by Allie T by Allie made an
entire video talking about how my mother
my brother a woman who I respect who
saved my life who has been sober for all
these years
who got her PhD in psychology T by Audi
made a completely ignorant hit piece
against my mother about how what she's
doing is illegal and that turned into
this whole narrative I got into it with
John Swan because he promoted that
narrative as well
listen to me very carefully if what my
mom was doing was illegal then what dr.
Phil is doing is illegal as well dr.
Phil is an unlicensed psychologist okay
say it with me dr. Phil is an unlicensed
psychologist I even had dr. Todd grande
on my channel explaining what the
difference between licensed and
unlicensed mental health professionals
are and nobody cared because that's what
mob mentality and that's what cancer
culture does okay so now let's address
my deleted video okay I like I think I
mentioned this in an interview with Paul
Gross close eye baby people in because I
wanted the most views possible and it
was about 2:00 a.m. I just got off the
phone with somebody I was in Florida and
all the stuff was going down and I was
freaking out and my emotions got the
best of me and I was like I want people
to see this but at that time people in
my life were being threatened my mom was
being threatened there were lies about
me and meanwhile I was worried about the
well-being of leafy greens I was trying
to explain to the drama channels I
didn't want an apology from the drama
channels some reason they think I want
an apology I wanted them to chill
everybody out
kind of like what talk see what's
working Geoffrey Sardis did I wanted
them to publicly denounce what was
happening because a woman's life and her
baby were at stake
so I unblocked Gary from bipolar corner
that night and tweeted him said yo you
might want to do a wellness check on
leafy greens because I was worried
because this mentally unstable woman had
deleted her twitter okay I was worried
so I made that video telling everybody
they need to relax because everybody was
just trying to get views trying to get
views and keep making videos like you
guys know how many channels I saw making
videos about me just because they were
getting views and I get it I respect the
gay baby I respect the game but like I
saw people who were originally making
videos defending me just completely flip
the script but they were promoting this
and everybody was eating leafy greens on
and I was worried about her and no I
didn't call a wellness check on her I
didn't even know her real name at the
time or where she lived but somebody did
because they were worried about her
they were worried about a pregnant woman
who was talking about self harming and
having mental breakdowns they were
worried about her and called a wellness
check and for all of you other mental
health channels out there you know that
because all of you are now making videos
exposing leafy greens and being worried
about her baby but somehow I was the bad
guy in the situation all right so really
think about that for a second but also
at the point where I made that video I
was considering hiring a lawyer to send
a cease-and-desist letters because it
was affecting everything in my life like
I said people were getting threatened
obviously I was losing subscribers I was
losing money the money that I use to
support my son to keep a roof over my
head to pay my bills
all of those things I thought I was
doing well by trying to give back doing
a bunch of Giveaways charity livestreams
and everything like that but it was
hurting me financially it was ruining my
reputation and all that so I was gonna
send out cease and desist to all these
people to quit talking slander because
people were creating lies about me but
then I realized that if they called my
bluff I didn't have the money to take
him to court I was trying to make them
understand how serious this situation
was like you're seeing with James
Charles right now people have accused
him of slanderous things and James
Charles he has a lot more money than I
do and he can actually go after people
legally and the next thing we'll talk
about with leafy greens right everybody
was jumping on me and using leafy greens
clips about me and pretty much every
single one of those people have turned
against leafy greens and the it doesn't
it doesn't make any sense to me how how
what everybody was making these videos
calling out leafy greens
nobody said oh wait maybe what she was
doing that Chris was wrong to like
nobody's nobody's figured that out right
so one of the last things I want to
address is Creepshow art just to tell
just to tell you how ridiculous
everything god okay so here's the truth
about what happened with Creepshow art
my beautiful girlfriend Tristan is an
artist she loves watching art youtubers
she loves it she loves watching them and
she was a huge fan of Creepshow
I was to my girlfriend who watch scream
show art videos and she was having me
sit down and watch them and everything
like that and my girlfriend said hey
creep so art was talking about
depression of being hopeless over on
Twitter Oh dope because all of you know
I love having guests on my channel to
promote other channels and I think I
can't remember so don't quote me on this
I think at that time I had a larger
following than Creepshow are so cool
like my girlfriend likes crucial art you
know I think she's pretty cool maybe she
can come on my channel and share her
story alright
well unbeknownst to me she had just made
a comment on Prem inks video talking
trash about me so she made a whole video
about me saying how I was trying to
manipulate her by inviting her on my
channel now let's let's step away and
just use logic for just a second
by the logic of Creepshow art I would
have had two days or weeks later bid on
premix video refreshing the comments
let's think about that for a second I
would have had to be refreshing per
makes comments to see that she said
something about me over there and then
to tweet at her like do you know how
insane that sounds
and she made like what like a 20 or 30
minute video about how I was trying to
manipulate her like think about that for
a second like I'm a busy dude and like
what like refreshing somebody else's
page to read comments like what are you
talking about alright but anyways I
thought now is the perfect timing now
that you all see what cancel culture and
mob mentality just did to James Charles
now is the time for me to address this
yes I've lost 20,000 subscribers since
all this happened I was a hundred and
two thousand subscribers but that
doesn't matter well hurt me the most is
that people who I considered friends in
the YouTube community just completely
cut me off there are people that I have
done collabs with on my channel who have
met me in person who have met me seen my
character seen who I am as a person and
they refused to talk to me now because
of all the lies that were being spread
about me on YouTube now I'm not gonna
mention any names but there are other
YouTube creators who have been talking
to me by behind the scenes and they've
been a massive part of my support group
ever since all this happened but all of
them are afraid to interact with me
publicly because everybody out there in
the hate mob was attacking anybody who
defended me all right so I hope at the
end of the day this James Hall situation
teaches all of you to get that canceled
culture nonsense and mob mentality out
of your mind I'm not perfect nobody's
perfect I never claimed to be perfect
we're all gonna screw up but it is not
okay
to create a lies and narratives about
somebody and try to ruin their
livelihood that is just not okay
all right so huh whoo I've been waiting
to get all that out for a while anyways
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