Oh, [Slams research on the table, shaking the poor 20$ tripod]
Bonjour.
It's been a week and
this project, will take, probably, more than a year. I
Hope you enjoy it because I should do [stares in disappointment] and
It's gonna take a lot of effort and I'm probably gonna run out of everything, I've already run out of things. You're welcome.
This project came to me when one of my friends started compiling
Anatomical references and notes
And I was like, hey, that's cool. I've kind of done that before but I haven't done that in a while
I should probably step on that because I want to be a good artist again. Oh
Who cares about that who cares about looking at other people when you have your own face to look at and you look like this
[zooms in to show a wonderfully painted MUG]. So...
what's my verdict? I'm painting 52 versions of my own face. [music begins to cure tension]
Let's get st- So I'm kidding. When I said let's get started, I just wanted you to see this process.
The...
pre-shooting [zooms in on the journals I've printed out because my eyes are dumb]
Because I think this is quite fun [do I?]
And it's great I decided oh hey! I can't just do a bunch of
boring [I didn't mean white how dare you]
Artists that everyone talks about, you know.
So I started emailing my professors instructors,
because I like variety and I like to read.
Obviously [papers fling through the air, perhaps in rage, perhaps in anguish]
[Stares for a hard second] This is disgusting. [slams onto sketchbook] I asked
some of my... quite knowledgeable professors and
as you can see,  I've put them in a chart the MEME CHART.
Because their responses were all wild in their own ways.
However, the wildest one to me,
is a
simple response of: and I quote
"Ha!" Yes, ha, a laughing noise. "Ha," exclamation mark.
Decapitalized/(lowercased)" you'll never do it!"  exclamation mark. End quote.
No sign offs, no, "good luck!"
Just that. [Yes this entire project is named by one spite-filled email response]
After a
very good email that challenged me.
Eventually, I will end this bet and
I don't know if he's gonna give me money, but I hope he does
Cuz I want money not from you from him cuz he challenged me. Oh boy
let's-
Actually, no, let's not get started
I have to explain the rules [just read them and skip to 4:20 (I will hit blunt when I'm legally allowed to thank you.)]
So essentially every week I will be constructing at least one portrait of myself
and
I will...
almost I will try to only use I will try to only use mirrors and
If I have to, then I will use a camera (this is so I make it harder for myself).
So the first one so this one,
I'm making my own
Self portrait with my own style. I was show it in two ways, but that doesn't mean that
I will now have two self-portraits (completed). Instead,  I will keep the one I like more
and then we will continue.
After this one, the next 50 of them [zooms for emphasis] Yes, 50. Think about that for a second.
It's gonna be a great time? Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah.
So here's some necessary, but very boring colour theory things.
This part isn't really just for people who are starting out, but also those of us who are intermediate because
This is the best approach in saving money. It's doing the least to get the most.
As you can see there is a light in a dark
Quote unquote "dark" yellow (it's ochre, we can call it ochre)? and
You should possibly get that
When you're purchasing your paints, of course, you don't have to get exactly what I've got
However, it is a very good set of colours to start with
(titanium white, transparent yellow, yellow ochre, cadmium red, crimson, pthelo blue and ultramarine). and as you can see right now, I'm blending a black
because I don't want to purchase black. Black (as a "colour") dulls the image and if you
Use a blended version, it usually looks better. And now I'm just diluting it so that I can use it as a base.
Here, have me be a fool on cam. You're welcome.
This was my original
composition, because I wanted to talk about
the representation of
Female self portraiture specifically (don't worry we will).
And then... here's the second version that I ended up with.
it's more to my own style and
I
wanted to be more experimental I
ultimately ended up with
doing things my own way [well that was the rule of the challenge wasn't it??]
But in a bad way [oh okay.]
The reason why I use a lot of weirder colours or the faces because I like to find the local colour,
not
particularly in the skin tone sort of manner, rather the warm or cool tones. And
that is sort of following
Impressionists tradition, or actually even Fauvist by this point because of how
outrageously
far the colour palette is from a regular one. I've also put complementary colours next to each other,
usually of the same vibrancy so that the
Image could have more noise. By this, I mean that there's [it's there are you clown] more clashes and more
boundaries created by the separation.
There's very little blending. And even if there is it's usually in my images. It's usually a close
saturation or desaturation of the original paint colour and
That is partially on me for being lazy, but also because
I've fallen in love with the way it looks. The fact that you can
stand 20 feet away and even though the colours are weird. You can still tell that there,
It's a person.
Here's where Rhoplex [it turns out it's really hard to purchase so I didn't leave a link] for me becomes more important
where the highlights are. (You can just use a transluscent mixing colour such as zinc white)
I don't want them to be
strictly white, because white is also a colour but I think really flattens the image I
don't believe that anywhere should have
Just a shade (black) or a tint (white)
So I will blend the Rhoplex into a white or another colour
so it's more of a stain and then I
am allowed to
maneuver it around more and
Allow it to
drain into whichever crevice that it wants to. I'm still trying to play around with oil paint. So
when
the oil painting section comes in. It'll probably be very different of a colour palette as well as
technique. (Because I frankly suck at the medium)
However, everything
about my technique comes
explicitly from
the Impressionist movement [when they only had oils to play with] as
the
contrasting (complementary) colours are placed next to each other and
Everything's is coloured.
Which is from an earlier
artist (Delacroix who painted the Raft of the Medusa and the Death of Sardanapalus)
Is
implemented fully by the
Impressionist movement.
To demonstrate their power male artists usually used
sexual promiscuity, or placing themselves outside of the norms or morals of bourgeois men.
Female artists typically had one
style of
self-portraiture to prove that they were artists (because they were barred from becoming professional artists.)
Self portrait,
throughout all of its history and existence was also a very good and inexpensive way for
artists who practice portraiture and
technique;
because you could fashion yourself in any way or order and you didn't have to really pay anyone.
I'm also going to paint in my glasses as sort of a
direct sign of my personality as well as my presentation, as I (am queer, JK...unless?)
throughout this entire process try to
present myself as sort of a professional and an intellectual,
something that the Renaissance
artists also used in their works.
Their self portraits were not only a way to express skill for a
place in court or for commissions, but also "a self conscious process to
manipulate their identity to the general public." (Greenblatt)
There are definitely questions that everyone
will eventually ask about self portraiture ,as well as just portraiture itself:
"So how reliable are self portraits?" "Must a portrait include a physical likeness to the sitter?" and
"How many of us are willing to disclose our weaknesses or strengths to an anonymous crowd?"
According to Gottlieb, it(likeness) is not necessary.
"Likeness tells us that the artist is an unimaginative bore.
"Even when a self-portrait includes a counterfeit of the artist, this might need not be a self-portrait
"Although it is a document of the self."
and
I
Agree with them to a certain degree. I don't believe that
someone, an artist is boring for creating work that looks
like their subject. Rather,
their skills are in different
places.
"Should a self-portrait only be defined when it is an autonomous
self-portrait when the sitter is a most important piece of the work? or
Could it literally be any part of the painter?
(however treated with the same agency as
everything else ) For example, could a Rückenfigur, which is a figure seen from the back or
Parts of the artist that is not their face be considered a self-portrait?
There are two schools of thought with different answers. One
considers all self portraiture self portraiture
while, the other believes that a self-portrait is only a self-portrait when the
subject is autonomous.
Here's my final result I decided to keep the shirt white,
as it is. (We'll make the colours more arbitrary when we get to van Gogh)
And,
some details as you can see there are always the
duplicate colors.
That's how I wanted to keep them. It also brings a better relation between the image.
Hi! Welcome. So I know, the mirror, is not on the wall. So whatever you see "HI!" It's because I can't find nails in
this house and I don't want to. And you might be wondering: "Wait isn't this about self-portraiture? why it's there skull?"
I know I don't look like that, it's because I have this [baby wipe] [attempts to wipe and the easel falls a little] OOp.
[Whilst scrubbing] You just gotta...[looks at wipe to realize nothing has come off] [rubs harder]
This usually works I think I'm wrong...So this paint is dried. [horrible shrills of tight canvas being ripped]
[zooms into face for emphasis] LET IT RIP AMIRIGHT [Cuts canvas] Woo [Aggressive and loud tear, screeching into the void] yummy.
We got it! [feels down the canvas] (This is) pre primed canvas.
It's the one that's that I typically use for oil paint because I paint...
landscape.
Chinese' landscape paintings, with oil paint.
That'll come up some other time. I don't want to discuss it right now. There's an artist for this
Which by the way I don't know which side it's gonna be on but here's the list of artists that I will do (NOTLIKETHATHALFOFTHEMAREDEAD)
Oh boy. Look at them go. There's a lot of them. Please suggest more. I still have about 10 left.
If not, I'm just gonna do my own thing and then force you to watch.
I'm kidding please keep watching (thank you for sticking with me).
Yes. I know this (wax palette) is very bad for the environment.
But at the same time, I
don't like cleaning up. Fight me. So yeah, you know what? I'm like this .
[Whispers in poor and sad] Wow that's dried. I'm sorry that I'm bad. [Attempts to open the right capsule] I
know there's only two but yes, I got them mixed up. Don't worry about it. [struggles to push a piece of metal onto plastic]
Ohmygod yes. There's a lot of yellow, I was trying it out and
If you can see the yellow consistency is a little different. It's because I used to
expired turmeric and just regular linseed oil
and
I mix this sort of like paste and you can see...
this doesn't function the same way.
So it doesn't the actual colour itself is not the
colour it's like it more and less stains rather than (paints).
So that sucks.
But also I don't have yellow paint to begin with so this is what I'm using. I hope you're happy.
I
Like my base to be a little darker so I can outline.
By all means, if you have a better way of painting please do that, but this is what I like doing and
It's called "doing a lot of a line art before actually getting to the meat of it".
I know that's a very bad to use,
Especially with oil paint, okay?
But listen.
It's my channel,
It's my technique.
[TRIPOD SHAKING TIME] [could I have just brought the set up closer in a different way? yes. But I didn't.]
In modern to postmodern art,
self portraiture
Continues to be an important subject, just in different ways
Quote, "In the digital age. There is no one fix self to find...
"Self-portraits were used as tools of visibility a visual statement of I exist" (Avgitidou) end quote.
They are used now to explore beyond cultural societal and
stereotypical
understandings of the self and
they no longer serve as an individual tool as you
can see my
Style with oil paint is a lot more add on and then take off
There is a lot of erasure
Because I suck
Not only that. It's also just an easier way that I've learned to paint
That's the final product and here are some details
So I found I don't think I found any results as to if people actually
Responded to my contest last week. So this just means that you're all cancelled and
I hope you watch the other videos recommended
Goodbye
