Tadam! How was it?
ONE YEAR ON TESTOSTERONE
Hi, my name is Stan and...
this is my first video
I decided to record my transition updated
and how I manage
and where am I with all these stages
because I'm now at the stage that's the longest and most tiring
all I want is to die in frustration
so today is December 7, 2018
this is a very important date for me
because just a year ago I came out to my mom
and today I got a psychological opinion (a document confirming that I'm transgender)
a lot has changed over the past year
first of all it changed how my mom perceives me
it's really good
same thing with my family
few members knows about me
and I'm shocked that they reaction was so positive
I don't know, before it seemed to me that I would have to flee the country
and just... I don't know
break contact with everyone, but now
reactions are very positive
I don't know, I just want to go on testosterone
that's the only thing I want right now
I really want to start my hormone replacement therapy
but as you know, it isn't so easy, this is a lifetime decision
I'm about to go to my endocrinologist appointment
and there is a high chance that he'll give me hormones
or rather a prescription
so I'm very happy
I can't wait... if I get it at all
if I don't...
*I got my prescription*
soon I am going to the clinic for my first injection
I just have to wait a few days
I've already bought everything
and I would like to document my transition somehow
to know who I was before, to remember how I looked, how I sounded
so I could remember my past
but I'm also creating this video to help people who are before coming out
and don't have the opportunity to take hormones yet
to  let them know it's worth it
to be honest, I don't really know how to feel right now
I'm exited
a little scared
but defenitely happy
I just can't wait to see how I will look and sound
Hi, Stan here.
I'm just making a quick update
I'm right  after my first injection
and nothing has changed
I'm about four hours on testosterone
I know that absolutely nothing has changed
but it took a weight off my mind
I feel A LOT better
and that's enough for me right now
I'm very grateful that I've got this opportunity to have these injections at all
I've waited so long for it and I'm just glad of what I have at the moment
hi, my name is Stan and this is my one year on testosterone
365 days ago right after my matura exams (A-levels)
I immediately ran to the clinic
I got my first shot
and it was the best shot in my life
I wanted it so badly
now I'm less enthusiastic about these injections
but I have to remind myself that thanks to them I look how I look
I sound like I sound, and this is what I have fought for so long
because I'm telling you, it was worth fighting for
a lot has changed in just one year
I wouldn't say I've grown as a person, but
I have definitely changed, not only physically but also mentally
even though I'm still the same person
there are some things that definitely changed inside my head
I waited until I was one year on testosterone
now I'm looking for my top surgery
and to legally change my name
and it's really cool
it's unbelievebly better
without hormones, with no access to even have these injections
I think I wouldn't be here
now I can say that I am in a life phase where I finally feel peace with myself
thank you very much for being with me this year, for watching and supporting me
damn...
I still can't believe I'm already a full year on T
it's too surreal
at the end I would like to go back to the past
so that you can see what journey I went
to where I am today
take care!
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
*I got precription*
 
