I think might speak for both of us that the
Internet can be a cruel place.
I get all the sexist comments.
I don't know why.
I get all the racist comments.
I don't know why either, but it's tough.
I think when I first started it did really
get to me.
I think anyone who says hate comments do not
get to them is lying!
No matter how many years I have been on YouTube
and how many more years I will be on YouTube
or the Internet, there will always be someone
who says the right thing to really, really
hurt me but I have just learned two things,
one is that whenever you decide to do something.
You have to love what you do more than you
are scared of what other people and you have
to truly believe.
That's what makes it hurt less.
And the second thing  and maybe the psychology
degree will come in right now, actually.
It is that when people leave negative comments,
you really have to understand that they are
telling their story, not yours.
Happy people don't write mean things to strangers
on the Internet.
Sad people do that.
And that's the psychology of it.
They are insecure and unhappy and someone
who creates content, you really have to remember
that.
I think that Lilly might have a similar experience
with me.
It's already hard enough as it is for women
online.
Let alone for women of color, right?
So the typical abuses that we get and hate
comments aren't just the typical sexist ones
like the rape threats or the death threats
but they are twisted with some type of racist 
like some racism, right?
Like, for me, I always get stuff, like not
just rape threats but wanting to rip the scarf
off my head, like that type of violence, right?
If you went back to your country, would you
get stoned for talking about this.
Like, what is my country  I was born and
raised in Jersey.
Always mentioning a country that you are not
from is very, very common.
Exactly.
It speaks to  when we talk about people online
and especially for women of marginalized backgrounds,
the Internet a lot of times it's a double
edged sword because it allows us to create
this distorted lens and how we look at people
that are different from us as well.
That media misrepresentation of exceptionalism.
You know, violence abroad is different than
the violence here.
As if it's okay or something.
Yes, it gives us an equal footing too because
then we can counteract that with counter speech,
we will put our messaging out there and put
our authentic voices out there and really
push back against it.
