So I love it
when people were like use
my songs for their own thing
and put their own creative spin on it.
I remember going through YouTube one day.
I looked up Death Bed.
Every video that was popping up was
made in the Philippines
and they're doing their own version.
It was just so many covers of it
and I was like, well, this is kind of cool
and I listen to them.
And they'd like the other
do their own twist on it,
which was sick.
Seeing it in different countries,
is crazy.
I watch a lot of romantic
movies like cringy stuff
that Nicholas Sparks writes,
but I love that stuff.
And I feel inspired by that.
And I'll write about
what the characters are feeling
and stuff like that.
Some of it is personal
things that've happened to me
with past relationships and stuff
and current relationships as well.
It was about over a year
ago when I found the beat.
I'll just surf and
SoundCloud like I always did.
I came across the beat by
Otter Pop who produced it
and a sampling Beabadoobee.
I was like, this sounds freaking sick.
I tried to write a rap for it.
I listen to the hook and
try to make the lyrics
sound like Rico with the hook.
Well, when I originally released it.
It took a while for it to gain traction.
So is about within five months I would say
is when it start picking up on YouTube
and it started getting a crap ton
of views.
I was like oh dang it's
actually doing something.
I find it easier when I
rap in the person's shoes
and pretend, it's me.
I'm just talking basically
from the standpoint of somebody
who's on their deathbed.
They wish that they weren't
and they wish they could
continue their life
with the person they love,
but it didn't end up that way.
I'm trying to tell you
that I wasn't perfect
in multiple ways, basically.
I might not be going to Heaven
for all the bad things I've done.
It could be anything.
It could be cheating, could be drugs,
could be alcohol.
So I'm just kind of apologizing for it.
I just kind of merged it,
into my own kind of life.
And what I would be feeling if
that situation was happening
in my life at this point.
I'm 20 years old and a
lot of my viewers are also
around the same age as me.
So I feel like the connect more with it.
I've been really blessed.
Basically, I grew up in a home
with three younger siblings
who all care for me.
I have two loving parents.
So basically that's like super blessed
compared to a lot of people.
So that's what I was
talking about in that point.
When a lot of my songs will talk about
flashbacks and memories,
'cause those things mean a lot to me
and I feel looking back on
things brings nice feelings.
And that I'm thankful for it.
I never heard of Beabadoobee
until I heard the beat
and then I looked more into her stuff.
And I realize that she
has some sick songs.
When I first heard it.
She was talking about--
It kinda just sounds like
her boyfriend, whatever is sleeping.
And she's getting him a cup of coffee,
which I feel like is the way
most people would look at it.
And that's how I looked at it first too.
But then I kinda want to
add my own twist to it.
And kinda make it a deeper meaning
and so I looked at it from the standpoint
of the person is dying.
I don't drink coffee too much.
I'll have it every so
often when I go to church,
but that's about it.
I actually don't tear up too much.
Before I had my girlfriend.
I didn't cry for like three
years straight probably.
I feel like when I'm with a girl though,
I get more emotional
and she kinda brings
out all the deep things.
Me and my girlfriend will just
film random stuff.
Make TikToks and stuff
and obvious think it's hilarious.
Me and my girlfriend will always
take her dogs for a walk.
So we'll go down to this big park
that's by her house whatever.
We'll walk through there.
Every time we hang out, usually.
So I grew up going to church.
Every Sunday, I'll go with my family.
And I actually met my
girlfriend at church.
So that's how we connected.
And then Monday is like--
Weekdays we usually just
chill watch movies together
and do all that stuff.
My favorite movie of
all time is Dear John.
Because it just--
The story is amazing.
I think as really deep
and emotional for me.
And he also has problems with his dad,
which is really sad.
Another good show that I would recommend.
I don't watch too much Anime,
but it's called "I Want
To Eat Your Pancreas."
And it's kinda has the same vibe
as they're in a relationship
and the girl ends up dying.
