Cassie, you're at a point right now where
you couldn't stop drinking on your own if you wanted to.
Yeah, correct.
Because you've tried that before
and went cold turkey, had a seizure.
Can you see where it was from?
Right here on my lip.
Almost--
Died.
Had a serious injury to your face,
almost penetrated your brain.
So if you have any chance of getting clean--
I'm getting clean.
You're obviously going to have to do it
with medical supervision.
And you're gonna have to do it to criteria,
which means you don't do it for 28 days,
you don't do it for 45 days, you do it to criteria.
You do it until you get it right,
and you change your lifestyle.
And what I'm interested in is whether or not
you have any interest in doing that.
I literally prostituted my body to get money
to go get help because they said
it was a dual diagnosis program in Corona, California.
Explain that.
What drug addict, I would fall asleep with drugs,
crack, heroine on my body in hotel rooms.
I didn't need to go do that.
I wanted this for me,
not because I wanted to disappoint you.
I'm always trying to look for exceptions,
but this is for me.
They kept threatening to leave
'cause I'm acting coo-coo
and I feel like a nutcase right now,
and I mean, good because then no one will recognize me
when I'm normal, but whatever.
But I want this please.
You've been to treatment before.
Never works. They always put me on a substance.
And I want that, but whatever.
You stayed for a month and you relapsed pretty quick.
You wanna know why I stayed?
'Cause he said I wasn't gonna do it; he said it was a scam.
I wanted to prove to you that I was gonna do it.
You went in in 2016, you stayed for two weeks.
You're kind of motivated in the beginning,
Motivated?
and then you bail out,
and don't really make a commitment.
So why should we spend a resource on you?
Don't, I don't care.
I need this for myself.
You know what, I don't want you to.
But I don't wanna disappoint my family for nothing.
I need this for me.
I have said goodbye to Jace yesterday,
I'm done with everybody in my family.
We're distant because I know you guys love me,
but we have a really bad dynamic.
I need this for myself.
This is not even about them.
I'm telling you, I'm going to die otherwise, but I'm trying.
Why would it be any different?
I love you guys so much, but like, it never works.
