Oswell! Come here.
He loves me to pieces.
He goes to the bedroom, 
 he's like my teddy bear.
I can't talk to my family 
 because we don't talk.
Sometimes you just need someone to 
 grab hold of you and just give you
a big old love 
 and a big old shake, and say,
"What the fuck are you doing?"
Hello. You all right?
You're not looking 
 for business tonight?
Are you sure? You have a good night.
I wish that I were 
 at the top end of it still.
You know, like the escort 
 in the better side of it,
than down here at the bottom.
I've worked in Next, 
 I've worked in Poundstretcher.
I've always done bar work, as well.
I've done work in the kitchens in 
 pubs, I've done door-to-door sales.
I've done cleaning. 
 I've done all sorts.
My childhood was perfect. My mum 
 did everything that she could.
She did the best that she could 
 for me.
You know, I didn't have 
 a bad childhood.
I don't have no dramatic stories 
 or anything.
I wasn't abused. I didn't get raped 
 by my uncle or nothing like that.
Just thought,
"I'll try it."
I just put myself on it, stupidly.
I did it to myself.
Nobody did it to me, 
 nobody offered me it.
I did it to myself, and two weeks 
 after, I had a habit,
I was addicted. So, yeah.
My drug use spiralled.
I lost my house, 
 by not paying bills.
And then, yeah.
My friend who I came to live with 
 lived in Holbeck,
and I moved in with her, 
 and that was, like, seven years ago.
How long have we been friends 
 for, Ceri? For a good ten year.
Just over ten year.
Yeah?
Wow. Time flies, doesn't it, 
 when you're having fun?
I wouldn't call it fun.
I never seen you in a dress.
You look lovely.
You look lovely, it's the first time
 I've seen you a dress-skirt thing.
Yeah.
Me and Ceri, we've had...
We've not always seen eye-to-eye, 
 but, yeah,
she took me in 
 and she's looked after me.
She's fed me and that, 
 do you know what I mean?
She gave me clothes and that, 
 so that I could get changed.
And do you know...
We are friends, 
 if you get what I mean.
Be careful, Amy, because 
 the fentanyl's back in Beeston.
So, just be careful 
 with the gear, mate.
You know that fentanyl stuff?
Few people have got that in Beeston,
 so...
You know, just be careful, Amy.
Yeah, yeah.
I got arrested because 
 I were wanted.
Over one of the other 
 working girls.
She's put a report in about me, 
 hitting her or something.
Which I didn't.
I could lose everything.
Everything.
I don't just mean the place, 
 I mean everything, again.
All my belongings, everything.
I can't understand it - it's saying 
 it's not available, the web page.
Wi-Fi's on, 
 it's saying I'm connected.
Connected, yeah.
Wi-Fi available now.
At last. What's this one say?
"Hi", it says me name, 
 it says his name.
It says where he's from. "I drive.
"Please check out me and my profile,
 and feed back what do you think.
"Fancy shitting on me?
"I look forward to hearing 
 from you."
Well, £120 for the hour, you see.
It's a lot safer - 
 I feel it is, anyway,
because I can pick 
 and choose my jobs.
Do you know what I mean? Like, say 
 that weeing, pooing and vomiting,
if I didn't want to do that, 
 which I didn't, the vomiting,
I said that to him, 
 then you don't have to.
Do you know what I mean? He can say,
 "Oh, well, it don't matter, then, 
 I'll go and see another person."
Do you know what I mean? You can't 
 really pick and choose your guys 
 out on the street.
My leg's fucked.
I've had DVT a few times.
But, fucking getting abscesses.
And it's just fucking sore.
It's, like, I did one in my ankle 
 last week.
I must've fucking missed in my leg.
I must've pushed it in 
 when it wasn't in t'vein.
I must've done, for it 
 to have swollen up like that.
This lad I know just says, "Oh, 
 can you watch my snake for a bit?"
and he hasn't been back for it.
The mice.
Three blind mice.
You just leave it 
 to defrost for half an hour
and then it fucking eats it.
Cute, aren't they?
Feel sorry for them. It died cute.
I'm going for the sports look today.
He's been driving around, though, 
 but he wants £10 for sex.
He just spoke to me earlier.
He was driving around up there,
and then he pulled up to me, 
 and I went and spoke to him.
And he was like, "Oh, £10 for sex 
 in your breast."
I says, "No, you're all right."
Wouldn't do that, 
 even when I'm rattling.
I'm worth more than £10.
I'm worth a lot more than £10, 
 I don't care what anybody says.
The first time I did it, it was...
I don't know, it was quite a buzz.
I'd done it after a night 
 at lap dancing.
And it was £200, 
 and it was 20 minutes.
And I mean, lap dancing 
 is good money, but I mean,
you can be all night long 
 for that money.
Or you can go to an hotel 
 for an hour, and it's never an hour.
20 minutes, half an hour tops 
 and you're gone.
It's very rare that it's an hour.
Who lasts an hour?
I could have loads of plans 
 in my head what I want to do
and what I'm going to do,
and then it just goes to pot, 
 like, I might have a Spice joint
and then that's it for me, isn't it?
I'm done for. I come 
 and seen you the other day,
and I don't think I left till 
 the next day, did I?
No. I only came for ten minutes.
I can't believe 
 you've been charged, Bee.
I don't, really don't understand it.
That won't come to nothing.
It wants to not, cos otherwise 
 I'm going to jail.
Fuck. So, you better 
 be writing to me.
I just... I don't understand it.
Well, whoever it was working at CPS 
 that day obviously got out on
the wrong side of bed, didn't they? 
 Do you know why they said it?
Yeah, that's all right for her, 
 isn't it?
But I couldn't do that cos the drugs
 have ruined my body too much,
and I'm covered in scars 
 and shit like that, so...
..it'd just be not appropriate.
I just wouldn't feel comfortable 
 doing it, and...
..I'm not much of a talker.
It just wouldn't flow out my mouth 
 smoothly, I feel.
Well, yeah. Yeah, yeah. I'd much 
 rather just fucking give a blow job.
If you don't want to have 
 a conversation with him
you don't really have 
 a conversation, do you, doll?
"Do you want me lay down 
 or bend over?"
After ten minutes, "Are you going 
 to come or what?"
We would be the only two girls 
 between four and six in the morning.
Anyway, every morning without fail,
there'd be no other girls, 
 would there?
And we'd be dead opposite 
 each other, on each corner.
And I found her a bit intimidating, 
 a bit scary.
That were the word, yeah.
No, but what it is like 
 with most of t'girls down there,
the heroin and crack can make 'em do
 things that they probably wouldn't
normally do, innit?
Well, with all t'girls in general,
I couldn't fucking have 
 owt to do with 'em -
they're not my fucking cup of tea.
It's not someone I'd choose to go
and have a coffee with. 
 Oh, thank you very much.
I wasn't talking about you.
What about me, then, 
 if you weren't on drugs?
Would you still entertain me, 
 do you think?
In small doses.
I thought so.
THEY LAUGH
I was getting complaints over 
 the dog barking and that all t'time.
It were pissing me off, it were too 
 big, it were making my house smell,
dog hairs all over.
Stinking my... 
 I didn't want it on my furniture,
do you know what I mean?
I said to her, "Don't have the dog 
 on the furniture."
I just got that pissed off.
I was like, "Look, you're going to 
 have to go and find somewhere else 
 for it to go, then."
And she was like, 
 "Oh, for fuck's sake" and that,
and she never came back.
Yeah, I'm a bit pissed off that you 
 haven't been to see me, though, Amy.
Since, you know....
Well, um... I'm a bit pissed off
that you haven't been up, 
 and I've tried ringing you.
Obviously you haven't had your 
 phone. Yeah. You could've called up,
or tried to get in touch with me 
 or whatever.
Do you know what I mean? Yeah.
I hadn't had your number, but, um...
People have seen you, though.
Yeah. On t'beat, and whatever.
I've been meaning to come up here 
 and see you,
but I've just been sidetracked.
Not been getting out of bed until, 
 like, six, seven o'clock.
Yeah, no, I understand it. I get it.
 I know where you're at.
Do you know what I mean? 
 I know where you're at.
But I didn't tell YOU to leave, Amy.
But I were getting in trouble.
Yeah. And like I said, it's not 
 worth losing my house over.
A dog's not worth 
 losing my house over.
You lot wasn't worth losing my house
 over. You're my mate - I would never
 seen you out on the street. Yeah.
But you could've come back.
Yeah.
The dog had fleas.
Do you know what I mean?
So, obviously, they've jumped 
 off out of the...
living in the carpet 
 and whatever else.
Look. Do you know what I mean?
They're flea bites. I can get rid 
 of them, I can get that home stuff,
but I'd rather just get the council 
 to come and do it,
and then just do it all 
 top to bottom.
Do you know what I mean? So, anyway,
while we're on the subject 
 of this fumigation thing, though,
I think that it's only right 
 that you should give me something 
 towards it.
Yeah. Well, I've just put a fiver 
 in your back pocket,
so you can get some stuff with that.
Have you? Yeah. Thanks.
I am ready to give it all up, 
 but, you know what I mean, but...
That's drug use, ain't it?
It's hard, it's a bad cycle, 
 it's a vicious cycle.
It is nasty, very nasty.
Very, very nasty.
But you can't help it.
You still do it, as much as 
 you don't want to be doing it,
you'll still do it.
It's not what we're supposed 
 to be doing, really, is it?
Standing on street corners 
 like pieces of meat,
waiting for men to pick us.
Do you know what I mean?
