Acid is such a scary, scary drug.
It was the craziest feeling
I've ever had in my life and
most uncontrollable feeling
I've ever had in my life.
LSD is one of the most potent
and mood-altering
and emotionally-altering chemicals
that you can put in your body.
It's made in a lab.
It's some kind of a mixture of chemicals.
It is odorless, colorless
and has a slightly bitter taste to it.
It's packaged in different ways, like, you can
buy just a single piece of paper, one hit;
you can buy a sheet;
you can buy a book,
which is multiple sheets of LSD.
I've seen it come in gel tabs, in liquid.
Just a tiniest little bit of it
can last for 15 hours, 20 hours,
sometimes days on end,
depending on how much you take of it.
It's so dangerous and so potent,
and just sends you off into just
a completely different reality.
There's a few ways. I mean, it's basically
a liquid, so you can drop it on anything.
It's normally taken orally on the tongue.
You can use an eyedropper, put it in
your eyes, you can put it on paper,
you can put it in sugar cubes.
I always took it in tabs,
you know, like strips --
rip off a little piece of paper, and it'll have some
kind of pattern on it, and usually like a brand.
Little pieces of paper that then
you would put on your tongue,
and it just sort of like dissolves and
then ingests into your body that way.
Probably around the age of 12
is the first time I took acid.
I was 13 when I first did it.
-- About 14 years old.
-- 15, I'd say.
I took it first when I was 16.
I was 18.
I took it at a rock concert
in the middle of about 25,000 people.
A girl I had gone to school with,
she said, "Hey, look, I have this LSD."
"Let's skip school and go to
a laser light show."
My friends was like, "Look, I got this,
we have this -- we have some acid."
"Guys that I know take it and it makes you laugh
and it's just another thing to do." So that was it.
And they gave us a little piece of paper
and told us to put it on our tongue and
to suck on it for a minute and then chew it
up and swallow it, and that's what we did.
And then about 45 minutes later,
I thought I lost my mind.
It really takes you out of everything
that you know that's real
and puts you in this very surrealistic world.
I mean, your whole world is distorted
to where you don't even --
you can't even tell that you're
human any more, really.
You hallucinate and you think you
hear things, you think you see things.
And you would see stuff moving -- especially
when you was trying to drive or something,
and stuff going by real fast,
see tracers and stuff like that.
You know, trees waving, walls moving,
stars just, you know,
literally falling out of the sky.
People following you,
people talking to you.
I remember I was in the mirror and I looked
at my face, and my whole face was green
with spots on it, almost transparent.
I kept popping in and out of reality.
I didn't know where I was,
what I was doing, and how to operate.
You could kill yourself. Something might
happen while you're taking it --
you might not come back.
You might be stuck on that trip.
You get paranoia coming down off it.
You think really horrific things: your friends
hate you, people are talking behind your back.
You're not eating,
you're not really drinking
and you're just sort of out running around
with this chemical in your body -- for hours.
So I feel muscles real tight and
your back hurts and your bones hurt,
like somebody had snuck in your room
and beat you with a ball bat or something.
I had a hard time concentrating on anything.
It didn't matter what it was.
It was just completely beyond my control.
I was just like -- like a dead puppet.
I got to the point where it was just a part of the
social activity, where I was taking it
and just dreading the next 8 hours.
Dreading, "Okay, I have a lot of work
in front of me,"
"to survive again another 8-hour period
of where I lose all my senses."
I had a glass castle in my room.
And I had started to trip so hard, that
I sat down to look at that glass castle and
in my mind I was in that thing. I ended up in
that castle and I couldn't find my way out of it.
We got acid from this guy who was visiting
our college and it was blotter, and
basically, what I wound up getting
was not only LSD but speed,
because there was speed mixed into it.
And there was a whole group of us
that took that acid, that got very sick.
I just remember sitting there next to the
toilet in a stall, on the bathroom floor,
just in tears, wondering
when it was going to stop,
praying to make it just stop.
I was in that much pain.
I was at a concert and I had bought
a sugar cube with liquid acid on it
from a guy in the bathroom there.
And I had taken it, gone into the concert,
you know, I was having a good time.
And then all of a sudden it just,
it really kicked in.
I got maybe 10, 15 feet
and I just sat down in the middle of the
concourse area, 'cause I couldn't move.
I mean, I was -- I was scared.
And I sat down, and I didn't move
for probably an hour and a half, two hours,
'cause the whole world
was just a blur around me.
I was at a party one time --
I think I was about 15 years old.
And this guy had taken two hits of acid
and he never came back.
They literally had to put him into a
psych ward, 'cause he never came back.
Me and my friend, we had took
some LSD one night, and
I don't know, we'd took 5 or 6 hits a piece
and we was both way out there.
I had a sheet where I was selling
hits of acid, which is 500 hits and
he got wild and bit into the corner,
and bit the whole corner out.
Must have been 30 or 40 hits.
Well, he went crazy
and they put him in a hospital and...
I went to see him and stuff
and nobody could talk to him.
Every time you asked him a question,
he'd sing a song of a rock-and-roll verse.
This has been 20 years ago, and still to this
day he's not right -- he's not the same person.
I mean, I haven't taken acid in 7 years and
I still feel these effects
from time to time,
where I'm totally spaced out
or in a fog, or ill at ease,
unable to concentrate or,
you know, things seem superficial.
You haven't done a drug in years, and next
thing you know you're driving down the street
and you feel like nothing's real,
you feel like you're actually on acid again.
And all of a sudden you're seeing stuff,
the same stuff you used to see,
the same unrealistic things that you know
aren't there, the same hallucinations...
Once at work, too. I was helping out with
this shoot, this photographer guy.
And we had this whole band, this very
famous band, and we're shooting them.
And then he said something like,
"Can you hit the light?"
I mean, I don't even know what happened.
I just remember I hit the light
and the next thing I know I'm laying
on the floor, and everybody is looking at me.
It's taken me years after it
just to undo the damage.
So LSD just takes you backwards. It
closes doors for you. It just affects your life.
If you think that LSD
is going to expand your mind
and give you new insight on things
and give you a different outlook on life --
it doesn't quite do that.
It literally -- it literally cooks your brain.
It alters your senses, but in a very
harmful way. It's complete trickery.
If someone asked me,
"Should I take the drug?" I would tell them,
"It's your decision, because everything
that you do is going to be your decision."
"But I would definitely
not recommend doing it."
Talk to some people that
have been in your shoes before.
It's nowhere but down.
It creates the worst effect on you
as a person than any of the other drugs.
I've never had...
it's bad.
I can't really -- it's hard to put into words
what it does to you,
but it's horrible. I mean, it's horrible.
Every time that you take that drug,
it's like playing Russian roulette with your life,
because you never know
if you're going to make it out okay.
