
# **Contents**

Title Page

Copyright

Introduction

Week One

Week Two

Week Three

Week Four

Week Five

Week Six

Week Seven

Week Eight

Week Nine

Week Ten

Week Eleven

Week Twelve

Week Thirteen

Week Fourteen

Week Fifteen

Week Sixteen

Week Seventeen

Postscript

THIS HAPPENED TO ME

Mark Lee Danielles

This Happened To Me

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**Introduction**

**Beginning**

This Happened To Me.

A texting guide on how to not treat a woman.

This happened to me a while ago. It still haunts me most days.

I didn't give what she was saying proper attention. I didn't heed her warnings. I didn't hear her urgency. I didn't hear her needs. I didn't hear what she said or I ignored it. Both are as wrong as each other.

I should have been present, I wasn't.

It's embarrassing, and heartbreaking, reading the silences, trivial replies or digressions on my side of these conversations. And my childishness and the jealousy in person were worse.

So much more was said, felt and done in person but that has gone, there is no record and memory is unreliable. Strong emotion clouds the clearest mind. The messages are all that is left, and they're partial evidence at best. But yet, they are real, concrete evidence, they are what was communicated.

That I kept these conversations could be considered abhorrent. Are they? That's up to you to decide. But they are the only tangible things I have and I don't want to rely on memory.

Memory is inexact. All memories are distorted, either perfected or made into nightmares.

Sharing these conversations is important. I believe so. It's an apology of sorts, although it's a selfish apology, as many are.

However, I don't expect my apology will help her much.
**Week One **

**Monday 18 August**

Me - 9:01:45 am

Hi Diana. It was great to meet you last Friday at the gym. That was an awesome introductory session. You were really strong. Let's get the "before" photos done tomorrow. Ok?

Diana \- 4:58:08 pm

Ok sounds good, after all the crap I've eaten over the last few days I'll look bloated and gross, it'll be perfect ;) It's sinful how a few bad meals can do so much damage! I'll have to use my photoshop skills :)

Me - 5:26:20 pm

I DID warn you about desserts haha. No photoshop :-)

Diana \- 5:32:16 pm

You did! But did you warn me about the breads and wine??? Isn't that your job? ;) looks like it's time to dust off the old lighting text books!

So me, my pot and my renewed and somewhat guilt ridden determination will see you tomorrow at 1030 :)

**Tuesday 19 August**

No texts

**Wednesday 20 August**

Me - 7:55:08 am

All set for the training session today? What time are you coming in?

Diana \- 7:56:16 am

Nope! Feel kinda sick at the thought of doing the timed workout but luckily the mad morning rush is keeping me distracted. Should be there around 945

Me - 7:58:54 am

You'll be great! See you then.

Diana \- 11:23:12 am

Hi, I've hightailed it to go sit down the beach with a coffee, I figured you were ashamed of my training as you didn't come back? Just kidding, I practiced those choking squats from yesterday and the Achilles exercises and then I was about done! See you at the session tomorrow? I'm wondering if I'm strong enough but I'll give it a try

Me - 11:27:05 am

I'm sorry about not coming back immediately. I had some major computer problems in the office. All fixed now. Sorry, I wanted to make sure I got your results entered. All good now. It was a great time for that session!!

Diana \- 12:37:52 pm

Ok no worries, was it an ok time? thanks for making sure the results got in. Have a good weekend if I don't see you :)

Diana \- 12:45:32 pm

Thanks heaps for today :)

Diana \- 5:15:12 pm

Sorry to bother you but I've just downloaded the training manual and it says I have to have submitted paperwork including body composition measurements. And that I have to attend the group training sessions and have my name signed off! Is that right?

Me - 5:21:01 pm

Nope. You're all good. You're in the system and your first timed workout is all loaded. No need to do the sessions either.

Diana \- 5:21:45 pm

Check! Thanks! I will do my best to not bother you again until Monday :)

Me - 5:29:19 pm

Bother away! That's the beauty of texts as opposed to phone calls. Just answer when convenient. If you need help with stuff I'm always available.

Diana \- 5:40:44 pm

Hahahaha! Thanks! I need to get seriously more disciplined with food... and chill out with the workouts but I'll get there. Hopefully! Also I have passed on your number to my cousin, she is intending on joining the gym in September if she don't get onto biggest loser. Both my cousins have applied. Hmmm pasta ;)

**Thursday 21 August**

Diana \- 4:17:36 pm

Hi, my little girl has conjunctivitis so I will need to go to the gym early to be home by 830 when she gets dropped off. I know you don't go in that early so would you suggest I just try the workout on my own and then run for a bit?

Me - 4:23:01 pm

I'm free from 6:40 ish. Is that OK?

Diana \- 4:38:56 pm

Ok cool, I'll be in around 630, see you then

**Friday 22 August**

Diana \- 2:20:16 pm

It looks like the Whitsundays holiday is happening and I'll be flying out early Monday and not back until Saturday so would it be possible to practice the workout this evening, I can do that on my own and maybe time it on Sunday afternoon after I drop the kids to their dads?

Me - 2:54:39 pm

We'll work something out. What time do you want to train?

Diana \- 3:02:32 pm

Around 6?

Me - 3:05:29 pm

Cool. See you then.

Me - 4:18:29 pm

Just checked the online state results. Great result Diana!

Diana \- 4:28:16 pm

Thanks, I'm old and only been training since October, if I stay in the top half I'll be happy :) Especially since I'm a sleep deprived, exhausted and spent mother of 2 ;)

Diana \- 4:32:32 pm

Ahh excuses excuses

Me - 5:05:48 pm

Exactly! And we're only competing with ourselves, remember? Haha. But I understand. Can't help competing even though most others are half your age. On Sunday you'll be awesome! Get ready.

Diana \- 5:06:40 pm

Get ready? My hamstrings are killing me and I'm stuck at a desk :( there should be age groups, really. If only I was in charge ;)

Me - 5:11:21 pm

Go to your "happy" place Diana. Haha

Diana \- 5:12:22 pm

You said I couldn't have wine anymore. You took my happy place away!

Diana \- 5:12:43 pm

I'm doing my list of things to take on holiday. That's happy enough. Protein powder and cameras :)

Me - 5:13:43 pm

:-)

**Saturday 23 August**

Me - 7:46:41 pm

Are we still ok for 1:30pm gym session tomorrow?

Diana \- 7:46:40 pm

Yep I'll be there. I'll see you Sunday. I'll txt once I've dropped the kids, should he between 3-330

**Sunday 24 August**

Diana \- 2:45:52 pm

I've just dropped the kids so will be at the gym around 3

**Week Two**

**Monday 25 August**

No texts

**Tuesday 26 August**

No texts

**Wednesday 27 August**

No texts

**Thursday 28 August**

No texts

**Friday 29 August**

No texts

**Saturday 30 August**

No texts

**Sunday 31 August**

Diana \- 3:04:05 pm

Hi, will you be at the gym tomorrow?

Me - 3:13:45 pm

Welcome back Diana! Yep, I'll be there. See you there.

Diana \- 3:20:00 pm

Thanks :) ok I'll he there after school drop off, can I try some of that pre workout? I've got 2 kg of cocktails to work off

Me - 3:21:47 pm

Hahaha. No probs.

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Thanks
**Week Three**

**Monday 1 September**

Me - 4:12:56 pm

12th!!

Diana - 4:13:17 pm

Really? I'll have a look. Must be the pre workout ;)

Diana \- 4:13:20 pm

I'm hungry! And struggling to make a friend of it!

Me - 4:16:17 pm

Drink water. Eat some fruit.

Diana \- 4:18:19 pm

Fruit is calories! 70 for a bloody pear!

Me - 4:25:50 pm

Give in just a little bit. You've had a week of indulgence, you can't fix that with one day of suffering. But no more cocktails will help haha

Diana \- 4:30:08 pm

I did some exercise in the Whitsundays. Just not much.

Diana \- 4:30:14 pm

I met someone when I was there. Can I count that as exercise? ;)

Me - 4:38:24 pm

Moon light walks? :-)

Diana \- 4:40:24 pm

I wish that's all it had been. He became annoying.

Me - 4:41:33 pm

Why are you telling me this?

Diana \- 4:42:32 pm

Why not? You're my coach, aren't you?

Diana \- 4:42:35 pm

Does it bother you?

Me - 4:43:25 pm

Yes.

Diana \- 4:43:32 pm

Why?

Me - 4:44:16 pm

I thought we were getting along really well. Before you left.

Diana \- 4:44:32 pm

Yeah, we did. But you're my coach, not my lover!

Me - 4:45:16 pm

Obviously.

Diana \- 4:45:32 pm

Are you disappointed?

Me - 4:46:16 pm

No. Well, maybe.

Me - 4:46:36 pm

You didn't mention anything during our session.

Diana - 5:05:14 pm

230 calories left for today and not had dinner!

Diana - 5:05:23 pm

I'm going to white knuckle it though

Diana - 5:06:50 pm

Wow have you seen the scan barcode on the calories app? It's very cool

Me - 5:07:24 pm

Nope. You been scanning the pears? :-)

Diana - 5:08:24 pm

It's fantastic! Scanned in protein powder blueberries soy milk even the salmon I'm having for dinner. It recognised the label and then you put in your serving size

Me - 5:09:33 pm

Awesome! What does it say about serving size? Cups/grams/ etc?

Diana - 5:10:30 pm

It has all of it then you just put in your serve, for me it was a piddly 40grams of salmon.

Diana - 5:10:32 pm

Even my kids get to eat more!

Me - 5:11:25 pm

It's all good practice come the revolution! Haha

Diana \- 5:12:32 pm

Why? The zombies won't want to eat me cause I'll already look dead? But they'll eat you?

Me - 5:13:16 pm

If you succeed in the challenge then you'll be all muscle.

Diana \- 5:13:48 pm

Succeed? I though I was successful for being a part of it ;)

Diana \- 5:13:48 pm

After this I'll try trail running and get really mankey

Diana \- 5:14:04 pm

I might try chromium it's supposed to kill hunger. That, pre workout and coke zero. Good bye clean eating ;)

Me - 5:14:42 pm

I also hear that heroin is great for hunger suppression. There are lots and lots of options.

Diana \- 5:20:12 pm

I'll pop some into the pre workout Wednesday

**Tuesday 2 September**

No texts

**Wednesday 3 September**

Me - 9:55:07 am

Coming in this morning?

Diana \- 10:00:00 am

Yep, Imogen is sick so taking her to her dad's for the morning, then Joel is booked in to crèche at 1030-12

Diana \- 10:00:00 am

Got my pre workout? ;)

**Thursday 4 September**

Diana \- 10:40:28 am

Now I'm paranoid. Did you count the reps right?

Diana \- 10:40:32 am

Don't make me do it again!

Me - 10:58:14 am

Trust me! I counted right!

Diana \- 11:10:24 am

Ok.....

Diana \- 11:25:20 am

So why do I feel sick?

Me - 11:49:35 am

You tell me.

Diana \- 11:50:47 am

Nerves about expectations I guess. I'm dropping back to mid field and using the pre workout for school pick up instead ;)

Me - 1:08:22 pm

Let's have a chat tomorrow about this stuff. Expectations are good, if they're controlled.

Diana - 2:10:21 pm

Ok

**Friday 5 September**

Diana \- 1:56:48 pm

Seen the workout for this week, what do you think? I can't think, I'm off my head with this stuff ATM.

Diana \- 1:58:56 pm

I'll cancel dancing and go and do it anyway, I'd rather do that. Sick I know

Me - 2:00:18 pm

It looks tough. Want to meet up on Sunday?

Diana \- 2:01:04 pm

I'm going in, probably more for my head than anything. It's cool if you're busy, I can buy some pre-workout on the street ;)

Me - 2:01:51 pm

No, I'll come in and help you. What time?

Diana \- 2:02:58 pm

830? Shouldn't take long? I'll have to leave for NSW around 11

Me - 2:03:15 pm

Ok. Text me if things change.

Diana \- 2:03:12 pm

Ok

**Saturday 6 September**

Me - 4:58:22 pm

Are we still OK to meet up after you've finished work?

Diana \- 5:04:38 pm

Sorry. Problem with a dad. I can't.

Me - 5:59:23 pm

OK. Still going to the gym at 8:30am tomorrow?

Diana \- 6:01:30 pm

Sure am, are you coming?

Me - 6:02:31 pm

Yep, I am now :-) See you there, probably as you're finishing your warmup.

Diana \- 6:29:43 pm

If you're busy I am happy to go on my own

Diana \- 6:30:02 pm

It is Father's Day after all, you should be enjoying it instead of yelling at me

Me - 6:31:44 pm

It's not a problem. Let's do it! I like yelling at you haha

Diana \- 6:51:12 pm

Ok sounds good. My pre-workout has arrived so careful I might yell back!

**Sunday 7 September**

No texts
**Week Four**

**Monday 8 September**

No texts

**Tuesday 9 September**

Diana \- 5:25:52 pm

Will you be at the gym tomorrow? Or can I stay at home and wallow in my exhaustion and red wine

Me - 6:22:37 pm

I'll be at the gym. Up to you. Do you want to come? Or leave it until Friday? Let me know what works. I'm so glad your mum will be ok, and she's in remission. It was a useful couple of days off, don't you think? Yes, lurking on social media again ;)

Diana \- 7:07:42 pm

Lurker ;) I have my cousin at my dining table talking to my friend who just had his stomach stapled. I'll be there, albeit a little under the weather.

Diana \- 7:35:05 pm

Hey you actually liked the status, no longer a lurker

Me - 7:36:04 pm

Part time, occasional lurker...

Diana \- 7:48:48 pm

We all have occasional Lurker tendencies.

Diana \- 7:48:48 pm

The creche is booked for 1030, I'll be in then.

Me - 7:49:37 pm

Ok. Looking forward to it!

**Wednesday 10 September**

Diana \- 8:11:12 am

Morning, I'm coming in but I don't feel up to doing the timed workout, I thought I might just do the circuit you showed me last time, so if you don't need to hang around for a client that's cool

Me - 8:12:42 am

I'll be there. I'll wait for you.

Diana \- 8:13:20 am

Ok. We can do the workout on Friday? I don't feel so well today think I'm just a bit run down

Me - 8:13:40 am

Friday's good. What's the problem?

Diana \- 8:13:55 am

A little but more just tired, relentless kids and a sick mother is worrying me

Me - 8:14:48 am

Maybe have a day off?

Diana \- 8:15:20 am

I want to come in, I think it'd do more good than harm.

Me - 8:16:12 am

It will be good to see you Diana. We could talk about your mum. After you've done a bit of a workout. If that will help.

Diana \- 8:19:44 am

Sounds good, I just need time to process information.

Diana \- 8:19:46 am

Anyway, playgroup and then we will come in

Diana - 11:59:28 am

Thanks for today. Thanks for letting me talk. I'm going to come in again tomorrow around lunch time.

Me - 12:29:45 pm

Anytime. Just let me know when.

Diana \- 5:53:31 pm

Sorry to bother you again but it turns out there's a curriculum day on Friday and they're not running anything at the school. I'm trying to sort grandma out ATM but at best I won't get to the gym until 11

Diana \- 5:53:36 pm

If you can't be there then I can miss this week's workout

Me - 6:13:33 pm

Stop it! Stop worrying. I'll fit in with you.

Diana \- 6:18:44 pm

Thanks so much. I have the Chinese doctor tomorrow at 10-11 I usually have acupuncture in my head and body but I should be ok to do it after, but I wouldn't get there until maybe 1130-12 cause she is always running late. Maybe we could do the workout tomorrow? Instead of Friday?

Diana \- 6:19:48 pm

I'm happy to skip it if it's too much of a hassle

Me - 6:25:27 pm

You decide. Let me know. Either is fine.

Diana \- 6:27:44 pm

Ok, I'll come in as soon as I can after the doctor. I can't change that appointment, it's too hard to get in, then I can re-try Friday, if we need to. I'll see if I can get grandma to come at 1030 for an extra school photo or some such other thing grandmothers like

Me - 6:29:02 pm

Just let me know what you decide.

Diana \- 6:29:44 pm

Will do

Diana \- 6:34:08 pm

Ok I've just sent a message to grandma embarrassingly admitting I'm in a competition at the gym and need to have a circuit done by 12. Now I'm looking for the rope and the rafters

Me - 6:36:07 pm

Rusty razor blades and a hot bath is more dramatic in my experience... ;)

Diana \- 6:40:32 pm

Attention seeker ;)

Diana \- 6:40:32 pm

I'll let you know if she can come early but I'll go tomorrow anyway

Diana \- 7:14:40 pm

So my admission has made the gym feel like less of a guilty secret and grandma will be here at 1030 Friday, I'll come as quickly as I can after that

Me - 7:24:07 pm

Ok. Friday it is then. Not tomorrow?

Diana \- 7:29:09 pm

I'll be in for both, happy to do whichever suits you better

**Thursday 11 September**

Diana \- 3:49:52 pm

687 calories burnt in today's session! That's about 6 glasses of wine I can have right ;) that should get me through tonight's school production. Seriously though thanks for today it was good

Me - 3:52:45 pm

I really enjoyed it. It was nice having a buddy to train with.

Diana \- 3:52:50 pm

Yea for sure, I've never trained with anyone before.

Me - 3:56:00 pm

It's always nice to share with others. And especially with those you consider a good friend. You did an amazing workout Diana. I was so happy after the session. Unbelievably so. Just from the simple joy of another person doing well too. I loved it!!

Diana \- 4:02:40 pm

Check :)

**Friday 12 September**

No texts

**Saturday 13 September**

No texts

**Sunday 14 September**

No texts
**Week Five**

**Monday 15 September**

Me - 4:23:55 pm

12th place!

Diana \- 4:28:16 pm

Yea I'm smashing it ;)

Diana \- 4:28:16 pm

Just trying to figure out a way to come in during school holidays

Me - 4:43:38 pm

Yeah, I guess it's tough. Let me know what you're up to. And how I can help.

Diana \- 5:34:24 pm

Ok

**Tuesday 16 September**

No texts

**Wednesday 17 September**

Diana \- 9:46:28 am

Morning. I'm coming in but is there a chance we can do the workout tomorrow if you're around? I was up with kids all night who made claims of nightmares being had after having people over for dinner and I'm fat and tired.

Me - 10:12:47 am

Ok? I'll see you soon.

Diana \- 5:12:41 pm

Done

Me - 5:16:20 pm

Let's run along the river, say 30-40 mins. I'll come with you.

Diana \- 5:21:36 pm

Sounds good. Don't feel bad if you need to bring your bike, I'm pretty fast ;)

Diana \- 5:21:36 pm

Obviously, I'm kidding.

Me - 5:24:54 pm

Yes, I think I know that... ;)

Me - 5:25:23 pm

Or do mean you want me to carry my bike while I run with you? Eh?

Diana \- 5:40:37 pm

Yes of course that's what I meant. Sheesh. With an extra seat on the back for me for when I get tired

**Thursday 18 September**

Me - 2:47:24 pm

Would you like to run this Saturday? Is 10:30am too late? We'd be finished before 11:30am.

Diana \- 3:27:32 pm

Yep that would be good. :)

Diana \- 3:34:56 pm

Actually I'm going to need to pick up kids around 1030, so I'll have to give it a miss. So I'll go into the gym early am.

Me - 3:35:40 pm

Ok :(

Diana \- 3:34:56 pm

I'll still run. Run on the treadmill

Diana \- 3:39:12 pm

If it's a nice day I'll run early to the beach and clock it and let you know the time. Otherwise I'll run treadmill.

Diana \- 8:01:09 pm

And I can run Sunday afternoon. Not giving you my whole timetable just sayin..

Diana \- 8:01:56 pm

And did you see my email? Not your thing huh?

Diana \- 8:02:29 pm

Ok can you tell the kids are in bed? This is exactly where wine should come in. Much better than over texting

Me - 8:03:02 pm

I could run with you on Sunday arvo.

Me - 8:04:40 pm

Pretty good to have kids all tucked up by 8!!

Me - 8:04:55 pm

Stories all told?

Diana \- 8:05:02 pm

Oh I can't believe you just said that to me!!!!!!! :-) :-)

Me - 8:05:08 pm

Said what?

Diana \- 8:05:12 pm

They're always in bed by 8 at the latest except for weekends. Yep books and cuddles done

Diana \- 8:05:24 pm

I can't believe what you said today, that you can't put on weight!!! Man I'd kill for that problem!

Me - 8:07:02 pm

I'm trying... But I just can't eat anymore... I went on holiday in June for 2 weeks, no training, eating out every night, big lunches, big breakfasts, snacks and...

Me - 8:07:11 pm

I lost 2 kgs!!??!!

Me - 8:08:00 pm

Maybe I need to put my genes in a bottle and sell them ;)

Me - 8:08:38 pm

But... I used to love whiskey. That put on weight.

Diana \- 8:09:15 pm

Hahaha! Oh shut up!!!!! I have one bad meal and I put on 2 kilos! Seriously. I'm first in line if you start selling, I'll put it in my pre-workout

Diana \- 8:09:42 pm

Whiskey is good, I just bought my gardener a nice bottle because he kept doing my gardens the whole time I was up at mum's in NSW

Diana \- 8:09:54 pm

Then I found out he doesn't drink! Duh!

Diana \- 8:10:08 pm

You can have my genes, clean swap

Me - 8:12:28 pm

I remember when I decided to stop. Drank that last half bottle in a night, just to get rid of it hahaha. It got rid of me.... I should have just poured it down the sink.

Diana \- 8:12:46 pm

But it's the BBQ shapes that call me from the cupboard. Oh I'm such a sad case!

Me - 8:13:13 pm

Kids cause that problem. They need treats, and they're hard to resist aren't they!

Diana \- 8:13:46 pm

Haha! My great grandfather chopped off my great grandmother's head with his tree chopping axe cause she tipped his alcohol down the sink one day after he finished work. #truestory

Diana \- 8:13:56 pm

Yes, kids are the problem. I'll get rid of them tomorrow ;)

Me - 8:15:03 pm

Really? True story about your great grandfather? Book required! You should start writing.

Diana \- 8:15:24 pm

Hahaha! Oh my book would be pure horror ;-)

Diana \- 8:15:34 pm

True story though.

Me - 8:15:52 pm

Horror = $

Diana \- 8:16:10 pm

Yes best seller, then I could buy your genes ;)

Me - 8:16:17 pm

Haha. You win!

**Friday 19 September**

Diana \- 12:08:00 pm

I'm buzzing from that deadlift this morning

Diana \- 12:08:00 pm

Or maybe it's the caffeine

Diana \- 12:08:00 pm

Most likely both.

Diana \- 12:08:00 pm

Gee I talk a lot

Me - 12:15:23 pm

You should be really proud of that lift. I am!! (Yes. Really). Now, to get your 10km run time under 40 mins is the next task

Diana \- 12:16:06 pm

Haha!! That's only gonna happen on horseback!

Me - 12:17:19 pm

I've heard your complaints before!!

Diana \- 12:18:13 pm

I'm not fast, I'll have a go though. Anyway I've declared tomorrow a day of rest, I'm going to struggle to get through work, rest muscles for practice on Monday. Ok I promise to shut up now

Me - 1:19:07 pm

What if I like you talking to me? ;) Save your energy for Sunday, and then Monday. But, always here to listen so, text away (if you want)

Diana \- 1:30:44 pm

Thanks :) now the only reason I can think that it's ok to text is that you're writing a dark comedy and using me for inspiration

Me - 1:32:41 pm

It's tempting :-) I've already written books, I've got a few more ideas before I get around to your story haha. But... It's tempting ;)

Diana - 1:39:44 pm

You've already written books?

Me - 1:40:41 pm

Yep, on amazon. You can buy them if you like haha

Diana \- 1:41:44 pm

I'm looking for a wheelchair to help me get out of the house to the car

Me - 1:42:41 pm

That means it was a great session, right! Just stay awake through work, if possible haha.

Diana - 1:45:41 pm

Will you sign it ;)

Me - 1:45:58 pm

A bit hard. Digital only

Diana \- 1:47:08 pm

Oh ok no signature. I'll have a look at your book after work. I was considering the movies but Friday night movies alone is real loser territory. That's a step up right?

Me - 1:48:56 pm

Movies alone are a bit strange, I don't think I could do it.

Diana \- 1:48:16 pm

I love it. Just not on couples night. Front centre with a coffee is heaven.

Diana \- 1:49:46 pm

In all seriousness though I feel sick, is that normal after lifting heavy?

Diana \- 1:49:48 pm

Like I can't eat kind of sick

Me - 1:51:38 pm

It was a heavy demand on your body. When do you have to drive to work?

Diana \- 1:54:40 pm

Now

Diana \- 1:54:40 pm

I'll be fine, I'll put my work mojo on. Not being able to eat is a good thing :)

Diana \- 1:54:40 pm

Feeling like I'm going to chuck, not so much fun

Me - 1:55:56 pm

Ok. I guess. Just be aware. I'm a little worried.

Me - 1:56:35 pm

Maybe a bit too much today.

Diana \- 1:56:48 pm

Not too much, today was good. As soon as I can stomach coffee again I'll be back to normal.

Diana \- 1:56:48 pm

Ok time to work, have a good afternoon

Diana \- 2:26:27 pm

I got side tracked at a patisserie

Diana \- 2:26:40 pm

Just looking

Diana \- 2:26:40 pm

:-)

Me - 2:30:22 pm

WTF are you even doing in a place like that!!! ;)

Diana \- 2:28:48 pm

Hahahaha!!! Nature vs nurture ;)

Diana \- 2:31:28 pm

Just thought I'd get coffee, I really need a spike to get to work. Coffee and Panadol

Me - 2:32:26 pm

Well, I guess, you've earned it. Ok then, go for it. I'll make sure you pay for it on Sunday evening haha

Diana \- 2:32:38 pm

No I've left

Diana - 2:32:42 pm

Didn't buy a thing

Diana - 2:32:47 pm

Except coffee and Panadol

Me - 2:33:13 pm

Strong woman!! Good stuff. Love it.

Diana \- 2:34:23 pm

I've made salad for dinner at work. Staunch. Just for today ;)

Me - 2:35:27 pm

Ok, sorry, strong and staunch woman. Need to change your name to Gertrude or something similar ;)

Diana \- 2:39:03 pm

Iron warrior

Diana \- 2:39:15 pm

That's the name of my sequel ;)

Me - 2:40:08 pm

Great name. Just got to write the first one, first haha

Diana \- 2:41:15 pm

Pffft you and your practice sets

Me - 2:44:27 pm

Don't diss the technique haha. ;)

Diana \- 2:51:47 pm

Nope, it's a good way to work, just hard for someone with no patience. That's why I'll write the sequel first

Me - 2:52:28 pm

I guess the sequel is what is happening now. Just take notes haha

Diana \- 4:47:28 pm

I think I'm blushing from your lovely words on social media.

Diana \- 4:47:28 pm

Oh wait, it's probably my fourth coffee flush

Diana \- 4:48:35 pm

But thank you, that was nice of you to say.

Diana \- 4:48:46 pm

Now let's get back to giving each other shit

Me - 4:56:41 pm

Why not both? ;)

Diana \- 5:08:36 pm

I guess I can give it a try.

Diana \- 5:08:42 pm

It's a bad news day.

Me - 5:11:35 pm

What's a bad news day?

Diana \- 5:14:42 pm

Just the general sadness of human beings and what we do.

Diana \- 5:15:08 pm

A grandfather killed his daughter and 6 grandchildren before killing himself. I mean why didn't he just kill himself?

Me - 5:25:03 pm

So sad. And absolutely pointless. I don't read, watch the news much anymore. That exact reason. People are, generally, too depressing. I can see where the wine would come in handy!

Diana \- 5:40:05 pm

That or BBQ shapes yes :)

Diana \- 5:40:36 pm

I feel a social responsibility to be across this stuff.

Diana \- 5:50:29 pm

And at least my dad isn't killing my kids ;)

Me - 5:51:12 pm

You ARE in a cheery, positive mood, aren't you ;)

Me - 5:52:36 pm

How are you feeling, physically I mean?

Diana \- 5:55:41 pm

I haven't been able to eat but I'm holding down the shake and coffee ok

Diana \- 5:55:44 pm

Light headed

Diana \- 5:55:44 pm

I'll stop complaining now

Diana \- 5:55:44 pm

Might just be I don't want to be at work ;)

Diana \- 5:55:44 pm

And I am in a good mood. That's me being positive!

Me - 6:01:18 pm

I understand perfectly. I've spent my life being told I'm a pessimist. And I keep saying they are the happiest people! Never disappointed. Haha

Diana \- 7:24:46 pm

Yes. Now is when wine would help.

Diana \- 7:25:05 pm

Pessimists aren't happy, they're just afraid to be happy in case it doesn't last

Me - 7:28:01 pm

Sunday looks good for a run. Good weather

Me - 7:30:16 pm

You finished work now?

Diana \- 7:33:52 pm

I'm nearly done and it's home time

Diana \- 7:42:15 pm

I got a lot of shit today at work, even got asked if my arms were photoshopped!

Me - 7:43:29 pm

What does it matter? Those that know, know how good you are! Did you roll up your selves and show them they're real!

Diana \- 7:53:04 pm

Haha! No way

Diana \- 7:53:04 pm

I guess they know me as manky and arty

Diana \- 7:53:04 pm

They need time to adjust ;)

Diana - 8:48:32 pm

I was expecting something scientific not romantic

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Is it autobiographical?

Me - 8:52:32 pm

It was the first book I wrote, and usually through lack of confidence in invention you steal stuff from life. Everything's romantic in the end, isn't it? Even, or especially, tragedy.

Me - 8:55:55 pm

It's about broken people. The characters aren't that nice. That's been a criticism of readers. But... Tough.

Me - 8:57:32 pm

I'll understand if there's an embarrassing silence from you from now on ;) I'm used to it haha

Diana \- 9:21:29 pm

Ok I will have a read.. And then annoy you With questions to see what is real ;) I'm going to pass out now. I feel drunk I can't even walk straight!

Diana \- 9:21:50 pm

Hahaha! Ok thanks, I'll feel ok about thinking you're a weirdo now you've given me permission. That's like me with my photography. I just think it's all shit

Diana \- 9:22:01 pm

I'll be ready for Sunday though :)

Me - 9:23:29 pm

Good. Glad you got through today's session ok. Probably should have been 95, but it's hard to resist a round number.

Diana \- 9:24:11 pm

No way, it was always gonna be 100!

Diana \- 9:24:15 pm

Totally worth it

Me - 9:33:28 pm

Your photography's awesome!

Diana \- 9:34:17 pm

I guess very few people are nice, and none all of the time. We are all stuffed really. It's just about which stuffed works together

Me - 9:35:28 pm

Yep, everyone is broken (From a Radiohead song)

Diana \- 9:35:47 pm

Oh Radiohead. I haven't heard that since I had kids!

Me - 9:35:58 pm

Absolute favourite of mine.

Me - 9:36:28 pm

I like good music. It's why the gym drives me nuts. Good music or silence

Diana \- 9:37:07 pm

It's shocking at the gym

Diana \- 9:37:48 pm

I listen to commercial radio now cause the kids like it, they get sad as soon as I put my music on

Diana \- 9:38:21 pm

Fair enough it's pretty slash up in the bathroom-ish

Me - 9:38:59 pm

I don't think there's been more than 1 Radiohead album since you has kids!

Diana \- 9:39:32 pm

The bends was my favorite

Diana \- 9:39:44 pm

I love Dinosaur jr

Diana \- 9:39:56 pm

The National are my new favourite band

Diana \- 9:40:42 pm

I saw them last year. They're heavily produced but brilliant

Me - 9:41:58 pm

You went out and saw a band???! A scheduling nightmare with kids!! Haha

Me - 9:42:09 pm

Too much of a social life I reckon, you should slow down

Diana \- 9:42:35 pm

Ha! It was the biggest gig I've ever been to

Diana \- 9:42:43 pm

Yes I really should

Diana \- 9:42:52 pm

Even my mum made me promise to go out

Diana \- 9:43:05 pm

I know I'm a loser

Diana \- 9:43:48 pm

I'd rather get up early and train or go to the beach

Me - 9:44:08 pm

I saw Jethro Tull. Twice. And Yes. In Boston.

Diana \- 9:44:20 pm

I got stoned for a few years listening to them, does that count

Diana \- 9:44:22 pm

And iron butterfly :/

Diana \- 9:44:48 pm

Jethro Tull! I haven't even heard that name since I was in my 20s

Diana \- 9:45:31 pm

I don't have big names to throw around but I went on tour around Australia with a band so that was my hay day I guess

Diana \- 9:46:02 pm

Super fuzz big muff electro-harmonix pedal. I had one for my bass. With my valve amp made in 1964

Diana \- 9:46:13 pm

With my EH 2 toned station wagon from 1964 called Harold

Diana \- 9:46:20 pm

Should have kept it! I wish I had.

Diana \- 9:46:25 pm

And my fridge speaker box taller than me. And my burns bass with a wild dog switch!

Diana \- 9:46:34 pm

Should have kept all of it

Diana \- 9:46:54 pm

But sold it all for drugs. Loserville

Diana \- 9:47:10 pm

I had a partner who had more pedals than me :) it was heaven!

Diana \- 9:47:21 pm

I threw it away for drugs and then he died.

Diana \- 9:47:25 pm

Epic loserville

Me - 9:47:55 pm

That's really sad

Diana \- 9:48:15 pm

What's sad is that I didn't know any better but to throw it away

Diana \- 9:48:32 pm

That's sadder than his death

Diana \- 9:48:45 pm

I talked to him dead more than to those living for years until I had the kids

Me - 9:49:15 pm

Died through drugs?

Diana \- 9:49:32 pm

No, cancer

Me - 9:49:45 pm

Really sad

Me - 9:49:51 pm

Sorry

Diana \- 9:50:10 pm

All the good ones die young

Diana \- 9:50:23 pm

It's ok, really

Diana \- 9:50:29 pm

But thanks

Diana \- 9:52:32 pm

You know how I feel now? Happy with kids, training, work, but there's this intense sense of loneliness.

Diana \- 9:53:52 pm

I'm stuffed!

Me - 9:54:34 pm

But are you Ok?

Diana \- 9:54:58 pm

Yeh.

Me - 9:55:26 pm

Ok. Nighty night!

Diana \- 9:55:55 pm

See you, have a good day tomorrow :)

Me - 9:56:12 pm

See you

**Saturday 20 September**

Diana - 11:57:02 am

Hi, it turns out I can't run until about 430 tomorrow, if that's too late I can go to the gym instead, also I'll need to be out by about 10 Monday morning but can go in early. Yes, annoying you with my schedule again, my apologies. I'm just trying to reaffirm my commitment to health as I make a barrage of pasta and cakes and bread for the kids party

Me - 12:02:55 pm

No problem! Let's do this! Just text when you're leaving. See you tomorrow.

Me - 12:03:25 pm

And it's not like I have other plans... ;)

Diana - 12:10:08 pm

Well me running is sure to give you a good laugh

Diana - 2:58:40 pm

I've been inspired and had the whole Radiohead discography on high rotation all day, the kids are in foetal position under the trampoline and I've just had a third parent tell me they are bringing beer. Ah sweet sadness!

Me - 3:00:56 pm

Glad it's turned out a good day. Was the music any good? Danceable?

Me - 3:01:27 pm

BTW I hate dancing haha

Diana - 3:02:50 pm

My 4 year old and I slow danced to Creep. That's about the extent of my dancing unless it's a comp on the Xbox ;)

Me - 3:04:14 pm

Great song, but never thought of dancing to it haha. I'll think what other music I can re-introduce you to. Recent Radiohead is just as awesome. At home? So you can have a few beers without concern?

Diana - 3:05:11 pm

I can but I bought wine and will only have 2 at the most. I prefer to wake up feeling good. And I bought red. Queen of Loserville.

Diana - 3:05:44 pm

I downloaded the whole discography

Me - 3:06:30 pm

Compulsive! I like that! Haha.

Me - 3:06:55 pm

Enjoy your wine. Now and then is fine. Once we get you running, you'll HAVE to drink to bulk up haha

Diana - 3:07:32 pm

I've made two bowls of roast vegetable and seed salad hoping to stay somewhere near my allocated calories.

Diana - 3:07:47 pm

Having to eat, now that sounds like heaven :)

Me - 3:09:12 pm

Stress not! Go for it. One day is fine. And I'm convinced we'll see that six pack, running and training will do it. I'm confident. I'm actually looking forward to having someone else to do long runs with. Aaaaand, your it haha

Diana - 3:09:22 pm

Hahaha! I'll go shopping for a pack ;)

Diana - 3:09:33 pm

The bottle shop have them!

Diana - 3:12:01 pm

My friend has just asked me to go to NZ with her in March for a week in a camper van, I can't leave the kids so soon again really, not after the Whitsundays, for that long but I saw all the trails they have over there

Diana - 3:12:22 pm

There I go with the sequel again

Me - 3:14:11 pm

Do it, it's only a week, kids are resilient, it's parents who can't spend the time away haha

Diana - 3:15:10 pm

No I want to save my child leave for Vietnam. I'd rather do longer in nz and not in a camper van

Me - 3:15:22 pm

Vietnam?

Diana - 3:16:13 pm

Yep my cousin who took me to whitsundays wants me to go to Vietnam with her

Diana - 3:16:19 pm

Must be a good travel companion ;)

Me - 3:17:53 pm

You must be awesome!! Everyone wants you on their holiday!! Party girl??

Diana - 3:19:34 pm

Not at all, I think it's the opposite. They want to get healthy

Diana - 3:22:24 pm

Pre workout wasn't made for use to deal with kids end of semester parties was it? ;)

Me - 3:23:05 pm

Haha. That requires stronger "blunting" powers. Pre workout to get it organized, alcohol afterwards :-)

Diana - 3:23:50 pm

Speaking from experience ;)

Me - 3:24:34 pm

Yep. No pre workout then. Just good old coffee. Lots

Me - 3:24:45 pm

I still have that habit

Me - 3:24:58 pm

My one bad habit

Me - 3:25:10 pm

Enjoy your wine!! We'll have a great run tomorrow.

Diana - 3:26:39 pm

Ok thanks, I'll need some Dutch courage

Diana - 3:26:58 pm

I'm about to make a coffee on the machine we've established isn't as good as yours

Me - 3:29:43 pm

It's all done isn't it? Just the cleaning up and the "easy" slide to bed time haha. I know, I know...

Diana - 4:15:28 pm

Glass of wine no.1

Me - 5:02:24 pm

Yard arm passed? Haha

Me - 5:02:53 pm

I have an 8am on Monday. Can I teach you to clean in an hour? Is 8:30am-ish too late for you? I'll move the 8am if you wish?

Me - 5:03:30 pm

I'm getting the questions in now, before all sense leaves you. After no. 3+ Haha

Diana - 5:04:29 pm

830 is fine. I'll come in and warm up at 8

Diana - 5:04:45 pm

I'm still on one, the benefit of having to organise it all

Diana - 5:04:56 pm

somehow I've started a tradition of parties to end each semester!

Me - 5:31:18 pm

You're a bad influence Diana! ;) Have no. 2 for me haha

Diana - 6:32:00 pm

I'm having no 2 did I mention they're 1 litre glasses almost?

Diana - 6:32:51 pm

I won musical statues. Holding my title :)

Diana - 7:01:03 pm

No turning back. Going for no.3

Diana - 7:01:40 pm

I'll let you know If I can't make tomorrow

Me - 7:06:26 pm

Don't disappoint me :-) I'm counting on you coming running tomorrow. Organized my day around it.

Me - 7:06:44 pm

No pressure... Haha

Diana - 7:14:30 pm

I'll be there

Diana - 7:14:41 pm

Spewing but I'll be there ;)

Me - 7:16:53 pm

???!!

Diana - 7:18:54 pm

Well I won't be spewing

Diana - 7:18:59 pm

Just a bit ill

Diana - 7:19:04 pm

It's a long day

Diana - 7:19:20 pm

Why don't people know when to go home?

Diana - 7:19:31 pm

Now I'm being rude

Diana - 7:19:34 pm

It's the wine talking

Diana - 7:19:47 pm

My apologies

Me - 7:20:08 pm

Keep talking hahaha

Me - 7:20:27 pm

I might learn something ;)

Diana - 7:33:48 pm

I doubt it

Diana - 7:33:51 pm

Not much sense now

Diana - 7:33:59 pm

Coffee and cheese cake?

Diana - 7:34:09 pm

Argh

Me - 7:34:50 pm

Just go with it! Haha. At least you're "confessing", as you're doing it. Soul is cleansed haha

Me - 7:34:58 pm

Shall I prescribe some penance? ;)

Me - 7:35:08 pm

Just to make you "feel" better? Haha

Me - 7:35:31 pm

Can you still read? :-)

Diana - 7:35:50 pm

Yes! The guilt is killing me

Diana - 7:35:56 pm

fucking catholisism

Me - 7:36:48 pm

Even your spell checker can't keep up haha

Diana - 7:37:07 pm

As the ans disappear into the long distance future

Diana - 7:37:23 pm

Hahah! No of course not

Diana - 7:37:28 pm

Stupid technology

Diana - 7:37:40 pm

Oh oh I'm on a rant ;)

Me - 7:41:12 pm

New Diana tomorrow! Under my closer supervision. My personal goal to get you that 6 pack. Enjoy your freedom tonight haha. Patience! Next year will be easier for us to work on you. Once you're ok with all kids at school.

Me - 7:41:56 pm

Every day training...

Me - 7:42:13 pm

Drink up!!! Haha

Me - 7:42:33 pm

Surfing, running, gym, sleep.

Diana - 7:55:12 pm

Oh and I better fit in work somewhere

Diana - 7:55:39 pm

You know, to feed the kids

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

6 pack sounds good though

Diana - 7:59:28 pm

Argh it's hard to eat bad food and feel ok when you get to this point :/

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Ok I just walked into a wall

Diana - 9:29:32 pm

Run is looking really good

Me - 9:31:08 pm

;) Right now??? You know it's not tomorrow yet, right? Haha

Me - 9:58:01 pm

Everyone gone?

Diana - 10:00:56 pm

No!

Diana - 10:01:20 pm

One family left

Diana - 10:01:40 pm

Waiting and drinking coffee

Diana - 10:01:53 pm

I'm totally going to pay for tonight

Me - 10:06:10 pm

Sleep in tomorrow? Apart from multiple children in your bed.

Diana - 10:08:05 pm

Hmm I don't like my chances :/

Diana - 10:08:23 pm

I'll drink a gallon of water

Diana - 10:08:28 pm

I'm totally soft!

Diana - 10:08:34 pm

One extreme to the other, I used to be hard core

Diana - 10:08:50 pm

C'est la vie

Me - 10:09:21 pm

Soft is good, better for everyone, in the end. As long as you're not with people who take advantage of that. Know all about that!!

Me - 10:09:43 pm

Do whatever it takes to get here at 4:30 tomorrow! Counting on you.

Diana - 10:09:58 pm

I'll be there

Diana - 10:14:56 pm

Is it ok to go to bed before 4 year olds?

Me - 10:15:31 pm

Haha. Probably not. Might be time for "grumpy mum" to arrive.

Diana - 10:22:24 pm

I'm still waiting for people to leave so Id better stay up

Diana - 10:22:49 pm

I'm ready to pass out

Me - 10:28:40 pm

It's pretty late. I've already been asleep once haha. You're too much of a social butterfly haha

Diana - 10:30:56 pm

Yea, I seem to have sucker written on my fave

Diana - 10:30:58 pm

Face

Diana - 10:31:13 pm

They're nice people, I love them really

Me - 10:34:00 pm

It's hard to get the balance correct with people, even when you love them.

Me - 10:34:10 pm

Too much time together or too little.

Diana - 10:43:30 pm

It is

Diana - 10:43:43 pm

Especially when they live far away

Diana - 11:08:21 pm

Finally they're gone

Diana - 11:09:02 pm

I feel sick and tired

Me - 11:10:50 pm

Go to bed. I hope you get a reasonable time to sleep.

Diana - 11:11:22 pm

Ok. I'll text once I've dropped off the kids

Me - 11:11:45 pm

Great! Looking forward to it

Diana - 11:14:41 pm

Really shouldn't go too hard tomorrow and save my myself for wow yeah?

Diana - 11:14:56 pm

see how i sneakily tried to get out of going hard? ;)

Me - 11:15:48 pm

Easy, long run tomorrow. Not hard. Got to build up. I've got you covered.

Diana - 11:17:29 pm

You know what tells me I've crossed the line. Is I feel terribly sick from the bad food and wine and everyone else is fine

Diana - 11:17:45 pm

Ok, I'll let you lead the way.

Diana - 11:18:08 pm

With the run atleast!

Me - 11:19:23 pm

It'll be nice to actually talk to you without typing haha.

Me - 11:19:48 pm

Although we could text on the run haha

Diana - 11:21:00 pm

Haha! It could be a new aport

Diana - 11:21:02 pm

Sport

Diana - 11:21:12 pm

You're pretty fast for someone pre technology era

Diana - 11:21:33 pm

Well so am I

Me - 11:22:42 pm

Thank god for auto correct.

Me - 11:23:31 pm

Novel experience this texting really. Like a considered conversation, allowing for editing before you say something out loud.

Me - 11:24:02 pm

I tend to say the wrong thing, so this is good, in a way.

Me - 11:24:23 pm

Anyhow, go to bed!

Me - 11:24:51 pm

And I'll go back to sleep. Again. #dedication!

Diana - 11:25:11 pm

Yep ok

Diana - 11:25:29 pm

Next end of semester party is going to be during the day

Diana - 11:25:34 pm

At a park

Diana - 11:25:41 pm

With no wine or bad food

Diana - 11:25:55 pm

Catch you tomorrow

Me - 11:26:30 pm

;)

**Sunday 21 September**

Diana - 1:09:39 pm

My head hurts :(

Diana - 1:09:45 pm

Imogen spewed :(

Diana - 1:09:57 pm

And lost a tooth in her spew. I had to look for it

Diana - 1:10:10 pm

Just general Sunday morning cheeriness really

Me - 1:11:05 pm

Oh Diana! Did you sleep much?

Diana - 1:11:37 pm

Midnight to 5am

Diana - 1:11:48 pm

Panadol and pre workout - I'll be there

Diana - 1:11:59 pm

Just thought I should let you know of my condition

Me - 1:12:10 pm

If you really aren't up to running, then we don't have to run!

Me - 1:12:36 pm

But you should come over anyway. My fingers are getting tired from typing haha

Diana - 1:13:22 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 1:13:50 pm

I'll try to run. If I feel no better by 3 I'll let you know

Diana - 1:14:33 pm

I'm just drinking as much water as I can

Diana - 1:14:49 pm

So soft, it actually gets harder every time I go out

Diana - 1:15:39 pm

It's an extreme world the gym world

Me - 1:16:20 pm

Yep. Taking care of yourself is hard. Knowing when not to do stuff is just as important. We've got lots of days to run, if today isn't a running day. At least you know you'll get a good sleep tonight. Hang in there.

Diana - 1:20:32 pm

I just set my kitchen on fire!

Diana - 1:21:12 pm

Yes knowing when not to do stuff is the key!

Me - 1:22:39 pm

It's all happening at your place!!

Diana - 1:23:01 pm

I think getting outside and some fresh air will be good for me. If you need a serious run though I'd say go without me. I'll be like forest gump today

Me - 1:23:44 pm

I'm doing this for you!

Me - 1:23:57 pm

Bring you heart rate monitor!!!

Me - 1:24:12 pm

And forest gump ran for months haha

Diana - 1:26:56 pm

I'm trying to make them lemonade

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

I should know better than to try to be domestic

Me - 1:27:55 pm

That's like a simpson's episode. Making lemonade and burning the house down!! 😬

Diana - 1:28:08 pm

Yep, it's a worry

Diana - 1:28:48 pm

We found lemons in the backyard so what else do you do?

Me - 1:29:13 pm

And sugar cane too?

Diana - 1:29:46 pm

Bees

Diana - 1:29:58 pm

:p

Me - 1:41:54 pm

Given how today is going, don't try and gather your own honey haha. Anaphylactic shock time!

Diana - 1:42:37 pm

True

Diana - 1:42:49 pm

But there's good drugs at the hospital

Diana \- 1:44:29 pm

My nana was the only healthy one I've ever met

Diana \- 1:45:07 pm

Kept all the island traditions and didn't eat bad food

Me \- 1:46:01 pm

Island??

Diana \- 1:46:17 pm

Lipari

Me \- 1:47:10 pm

??

Diana \- 1:47:35 pm

That's where my family are from

Me - 1:47:53 pm

Is your surname your family name? Or your husbands?

Diana \- 1:48:12 pm

Mine

Diana \- 1:48:22 pm

I never got married

Diana \- 1:48:33 pm

Left while engaged

Me \- 1:49:50 pm

Ok. Where is this mysterious island then?

Diana \- 1:50:33 pm

Italy. That's where my dads side is from

Diana \- 1:50:48 pm

My dad got off the boat and was given cadburys for the first time, the sugar burnt his insides he said

Diana \- 1:51:07 pm

Then it was a block a day from then on in!

Me \- 1:52:10 pm

Wow! Lots of mistakes in hindsight. You're an interesting woman Diana!! Conversation always comes up with some revelation. Haha

Diana \- 1:52:39 pm

And you were either a Shephard or fisherman, so you worked off your pasta

Me \- 1:53:12 pm

I'll bring the tape recoder

Diana \- 1:53:40 pm

They came cause they were literally starving

Me - 1:54:01 pm

Story time haha

Diana - 1:55:22 pm

They were interesting

Diana - 1:55:41 pm

I'm not particularity

Me - 2:01:23 pm

You inherit interesting... It's the stories we are involved with thy make us interesting. We don't need to always be the central character.

Me - 2:01:37 pm

Thy = that. Biblical speak coming out haha

Diana - 2:03:12 pm

Old Skool :)

Diana - 2:48:44 pm

It's rare that I renege ok commitments but can we postpone the Everest training for a day? I honestly believe Id be a danger to not only you but the wildlife too

Diana - 2:48:58 pm

Sorry :(

Diana - 2:49:04 pm

I hope I haven't stuffed your day around

Me - 2:52:15 pm

Do you feel up to coming over anyway? Unless you're too unwell, of course. Save cooking a meal and save texting. I have an early start tomorrow now. Come over for a little while, if you're up to it (or don't have a better offer, of course.)

Diana - 3:00:48 pm

Offers? Me? Only to listen to people's problems!

Diana - 3:01:28 pm

I'll come if you make one of those coffees you go on about ;)

Me - 3:05:02 pm

Of course! Do I go on about it do I? I thought I mentioned it once. Haha

Me - 3:05:29 pm

No problems to listen to. Not tonight.

Me - 3:06:09 pm

I might head out on that run now. What time-ish? Whenever is ok, just make sure I'm back from running.

Diana - 3:08:10 pm

I'm dropping the kids at 4 so after that, maybe 430 I can come later though

Me - 3:08:41 pm

ASAP is good. I'll run now.

Diana - 3:09:48 pm

Have a good run Forrest

Me - 3:10:40 pm

:-)

Me - 3:10:45 pm

See you later

**Week Six**

**Monday 22 September**

Me - 7:27:24 am

My 8am cancelled (late last night Sigh!).

Diana - 7:49:29 am

Ok, I'll be in around 830

Diana - 7:49:29 am

Have you got the stuff? Or should I bring in my own

Me - 7:57:15 am

Got the stuff hahaa

Diana - 7:57:15 am

Ok

Diana - 11:46:40 am

I'm so

Sore that Everytime the kids say mum it hurts

Me - 11:56:15 am

Shoulder?

Diana - 11:56:15 am

Yep, and legs

Diana - 11:56:15 am

And head ;)

Me - 11:56:15 am

Legs and head, from what? Today's circuit?

Diana - 11:56:15 am

Yep. Head is from kids most likely

Diana - 11:56:15 am

I'll stop whinging now

Me - 11:56:15 am

I love your winging ;) It's my main human contact! Haha

Me - 11:56:15 am

Left shoulder is really bad?

Me - 11:56:15 am

Whinging (spell checker)

Diana - 12:04:50 pm

Yes, and now I'm kicking the footy with the kids

Diana - 12:04:50 pm

I'll take some nurofen when I get back

Me - 12:04:50 pm

I have real reservations about this wow. My son would kill me, he (and his coach) hate military presses. Dumbells are ok, but barbells no.

Diana - 12:04:50 pm

That's kinda sad that my whinging is your human contact, my apologies

Diana - 12:04:50 pm

Hmm I hate them too.

Diana - 12:04:50 pm

Mostly because it reveals how weak I am!

Me - 12:04:50 pm

I'd like to not do this wow. Or, put in a low score for the overheads and still do the cleans. Reckon? I don't want you getting injured.

Me - 12:04:50 pm

Maybe I enjoy your whinging. Thought of that? ;)

Me - 12:04:50 pm

Maybe like 15kg overhead.

Me - 12:04:50 pm

I know you'll hate it, but ask yie shoulder first!

Me - 12:04:50 pm

Your

Diana - 12:04:50 pm

Not a chance

Me - 12:04:50 pm

Plenty of time to get you stronger overhead. But not if you do serious impingement dam age.

Diana - 12:04:50 pm

Of you liking my whinging or going light

Me - 12:04:50 pm

Haha

Me - 12:04:50 pm

Let's see how you feel tomorrow. If it's still sore Wednesday then we'll have to postpone or make changes.

Me - 12:04:50 pm

I hate it how I always seem to be the responsible one. I guess that's the relationship dynamic of coach/athlete. I'm not such a party pooper really...

Diana - 12:22:55 pm

Your just doing your job

Diana - 12:22:55 pm

But I'd reconsider your definition of athlete

Me - 12:25:49 pm

Everyone's an athlete. Didn't you read the board at the gym? haha

Diana - 12:25:49 pm

Maybe I'm older than I want to believe!

Diana - 12:25:49 pm

Wednesday will be fine

Diana - 12:25:49 pm

There's pre workout, nurofen and nurofen plus for after

Me - 12:30:53 pm

I hope I'm doing a bit more than my "job" with you. Anyway, off to the hospital before visiting hours so I can get a park. But I'm always on the end of the phone.

Diana - 12:37:28 pm

Did you see it?

Diana - 12:37:28 pm

I'm so slow, over 100 reps less than Becca. Maybe I can give up and just do deadlifts to help my self esteem

Diana - 12:37:28 pm

Hope your mum is well, she should get onto you about your body fat % ;)

Me - 12:50:39 pm

I'm not getting into this "esteem" argument again. For the millionth time I'll repeat, you're brilliant. You're in the top few percentile, of all ages. Have you seen Becca?? You're fitter and better than nearly all 20 somethings. But not all of them.

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

The tough love approach Huh

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

I'm going to have a sulk anyway

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

I need a little indulgence before going tadpole hunting

Me - 1:18:38 pm

Haha. A bit unfair on the tadpoles eh? Do they have any chance of fighting back?

Diana - 1:18:38 pm

We return them

Diana - 1:18:38 pm

After we've picked all their limbs off

Diana - 1:18:38 pm

Now I'm being evil. Of course we don't do that.

Me - 1:21:18 pm

You have a 4 year old boy with you? Right? Natural behavior ;) Although, not to be condoned, of course. Great day to get outside. After the hospital I plan on another run.

Diana - 1:21:50 pm

Now you're just showing off

Diana - 1:22:40 pm

He wouldn't harm a fly, he is actually the kindest person I've ever met

Diana - 1:22:40 pm

Once he was being looked after by grandma while I took mum to hospital and she gave him chocolate which he kept unopened for 3 days to share with me and Imogen

Diana - 1:22:40 pm

3 days is an eternity for a 4 year old

Diana - 1:22:40 pm

I could go back to the gym this Afternoon during kids fit and run on treadmill?

Me - 1:26:08 pm

Can you leave the gym at all? I'm sure you could. I could meet you and we could run along the bike path? Too nice for treadmill. But, up to you.

Diana - 1:41:52 pm

The kids will have the gym that's why that's doable

Me - 1:44:27 pm

Ok. Treadmill if you can stand it haha. No lifting ok?

Diana - 1:44:27 pm

No lifting

Diana - 1:44:27 pm

I might give it a miss and just enjoy the sun instead

Me - 1:46:22 pm

Sounds like a sensible plan. We'll run in the hills this weekend, if you want.

Diana - 1:46:22 pm

Yep that sounds good

Diana - 2:22:24 pm

The wetlands could be a good run too

Me - 2:33:17 pm

Infinite possibilities. We just need to do it!

Me - 3:19:21 pm

WTF are you going on about? :) You came 11th in this wow!! And nearly top 10 overall???? Reality check necessary. Haha BTW, so proud of you (pat on back, but from outside "personal" space haha)

Me - 3:19:21 pm

Just checked the result now BTW

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

That's your favorite emoticon isn't it

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Pfft I'm in bed waiting for the day to end :(

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

I'll get up to feed the kids

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Really? Problems?

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

I'd much prefer to be a horse

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

No, I'm just having a sook!

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Nothing real

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Totally self indulgent tripe really

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

I'll make a coffee and do another load of washing. Woohoo

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Sarcasm. That was sarcasm.

Me - 3:24:16 pm

I need more emoticons. Lack of imagination.

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Sarcasm meter is running

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

No no that one is fine

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

It kind of suits you

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Meaning?

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Crooked?

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Haha

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Sook? Just depression?

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Just... Haha

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Just a flat day.

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Not depression

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

I'm weak and old and wasted my youth. I need time to grieve

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Can't find a good emoticon for that one... Disagree. Lots to look forward to.

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Stop living I the past... Haha

Me - 3:24:16 pm

In

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Now. Don't you know your Buddhist philosophy?

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Pfft

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

It works if you sit on a hill your whole life

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

But if you participate in life you got to feel it out

Me - 3:24:16 pm

You like Pfft, eh? Good "word".

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

I'll take Joel to karate and Imogen out for a walk and a milkshake. They're life sustain gin

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Not gin

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Sustaining!

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Yes Pffft and meh

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

My two faves

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

475 reps!!!

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Now does work, when now is hard. But, yeah, easy to sit cross legged and pontifiTe.

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Pontificate

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Jesus i couldn't do that on the best cocaine in Columbia

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Exactly

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Real life includes all emotions just got to allow them

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Remember, I know. There's light at the end of the tunnel.

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Easier said than done!

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Yep, lots of reps. But... You came 11th.

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Appreciate

Me - 3:24:16 pm

If you want, we can train ALL summer to get you better. How boring!!! Just joking, of course. Don't do FFS Again. We can do other stuff

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Out of bed yet?

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Nope

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

No more ffs

Me - 3:24:16 pm

I'm about to go for that run. Got to fit for the weekend.

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

I just need to compete with myself

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Who's wining?

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

What??

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Well it's not about winning then. It's about being better than you were last week

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Or not being better

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Can't keep up with you haha

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Either or

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Each week is different.

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Seriously 11th is great. I've only been trainin a year

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

It's prob more about mum and accepting mortality and this makes it more real

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Ffs makes it more real

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

You know, dying

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

I'm so effin positive!

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Understand. Make what you have count.

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Seriously though there's always beauty in these realisations

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Go run Forrest ;)

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Of course

Me - 3:24:16 pm

You're not spirlalling down are you?

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Nope I've got kids to look after

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Enjoy your run :)

Me - 3:24:16 pm

Ok

Me - 3:24:16 pm

I'll try

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

You'll feel great after :)

Me - 3:52:25 pm

I feel great now, it's you that's lying down ;) Ok, really going now...

Diana - 4:06:30 pm

Yoga courses are over 5k! I just sank deeper into depression! No business partner in me I'm afraid ;)

Diana - 4:06:30 pm

I copied your emoticon

Diana - 4:06:30 pm

Just to see what it felt like

Me - 4:39:36 pm

I'm back. Feeling euphoric (sorry). Almost high. Well, not almost haha

Me - 4:55:47 pm

Gave up on an awesome band when I was 22, because I thought we weren't good enough live. But we were awesome Sigh! Even the drummer from Split Enz thought we were going to be the best ever band from NZ. Sigh! Didn't tell me that until I saw him again when I was 40. Damn!

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

Ah see, the regret stings

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

I was in a good band too

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

But heroin killed us

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

Literally, some of us

Me - 4:55:47 pm

REGRET. Notice capitals

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

The rest are still using in the city

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

I'm going to do a yoga course

Me - 4:55:47 pm

Awesome!!!

Me - 4:55:47 pm

I need yoga... Haha

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

Well, it's not locked in b

Me - 4:55:47 pm

Role reversal right?

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

I need to check timing with kids

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

And whatever real work I can get

Me - 4:55:47 pm

Let's have a music night soon-ish. Listen to each other's contributions.

Me - 4:55:47 pm

Whatever, it'll be fun and a little embarrassing haha

Me - 4:55:47 pm

We could listen while doing yoga!!!

Me - 4:55:47 pm

I've recorded some ambient stuff too haha

Me - 4:55:47 pm

That would work

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

I don't have any of mine anymore

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

I threw it all out when my dog died

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

Every single thing I owned

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

Except a photo of my dead ex

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

Extremes Huh

Me - 4:55:47 pm

You said reel tape?

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

Yes 4 inch

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

The drummer has it in Fitzroy atm

Diana - 4:55:47 pm

I meant we have it

Me - 5:02:17 pm

Admitedly I only have a tiny fraction of stuff

Diana - 5:02:17 pm

Do you have a 4 inch player??

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Sad

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Nope. Do they exist? Haha

Me - 5:02:20 pm

We could get it transferred to cd.

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

I'd be too embarrassed abyway

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Don't know how

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Hum me a few of your tunes haha

Me - 5:02:20 pm

I've got a lot of stuff I did in the 90's and 2000's. Mostly it's me doing everything. But did an ambient thing with the drummer mid 2000's.

Me - 5:02:20 pm

He helped me on the farm. Haha

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Farm hand music

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Have that up too

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Gave

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Didn't think we were good enough

Me - 5:02:20 pm

But...

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Haha

Me - 5:02:20 pm

I don't stick with things

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Things I love

Me - 5:02:20 pm

As you said to me. Too scared

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Of failure

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Hahaha.... Sigh!

Me - 5:02:20 pm

People too, probably.

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Especially wen I was younger.

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

Me too

Me - 5:02:20 pm

You should read that book haha. Probably won't talk to me again

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

I will

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

;)

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

When I don't know

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

I quit everything too

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Prefer you talked to me than read the book haha

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Time is precious

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

But on the up side I've done lots of really cool stuff

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

A big mix

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

I've lived on the streets I'm pretty sure whatever you've written won't shock me

Me - 5:02:20 pm

All 4 minutes per week you have free

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Not shock! Disappoint.

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Not a nice character in the book. Not all autobiographical

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Well...

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Haha

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

Of course it is :)

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

We're all shitheads at the end of it all ;)

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Nice

Me - 5:02:20 pm

:-)

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

I'm not going to make enough out of teaching yoga to support the kids but it'll give me clarity to what I do need to do

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

Well you know what i mean

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

We all have years where we are learning what's important in life

Me - 5:02:20 pm

I've done the exact same

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

And generally we can be awful people during those years

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Doing stuff is good

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Especially if you enjoy it. Yoga is you.

Me - 5:02:20 pm

You'd be great.

Me - 5:02:20 pm

But not rich haha

Diana - 5:02:20 pm

If I wanted Rich I would have stayed with Imogen's dad I guess

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Yeah. I did that. Well, not just money but keeping the kids all under one roof. Absolutely, did not work!!

Me - 5:02:20 pm

For the kids yes

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Me, nope

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Best result really

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Boy, we need to get back to jokes and putting shit.

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Enough of the past

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Except...

Me - 5:02:20 pm

Music haha

Me - 5:17:42 pm

Still, it's fun finding stuff out about people you like

Me - 5:17:42 pm

We all work differently. It's cool to try to understand

Diana - 5:21:04 pm

I've no idea about thay

Diana - 5:21:04 pm

That

Diana - 5:21:04 pm

I'll find anatomy tricky enough though I've done lots of evolutionary biology

Diana - 5:21:04 pm

Mostly invertebrates though

Diana - 5:21:04 pm

Yes let's get light again, though I don't know any good jokes

Me - 5:24:14 pm

Anatomy is easy. Ive got an app!! Haha

Me - 5:28:03 pm

Really it is, because you've always got it close to study.

Me - 5:28:03 pm

You can just feel where things join up. It's pretty unique that way. Astronomers can't do that haha

Diana - 5:42:17 pm

Two kids gone to karate for pizza and movie! It was only supposed to be one!

Diana - 5:42:17 pm

I'm having wine, stuff the abs

Diana - 5:42:17 pm

I'm a terrible student

Diana - 5:42:17 pm

Really, terrible

Me - 5:46:02 pm

Another evening alone? Hmmm. Not good.

Diana - 5:46:02 pm

Argh I've already been accosted by another mother

Diana - 5:46:02 pm

Otherwise it'd be a tough call between wine or a run

Me - 5:46:02 pm

Accosted?

Me - 5:46:02 pm

Explain.

Diana - 5:46:02 pm

Pulled aside and being spat at

Diana - 5:46:02 pm

You know

Diana - 5:46:02 pm

Upside is she's taking me for a wine ;)

Me - 5:46:02 pm

Awesome!

Me - 5:46:02 pm

I guess...

Me - 5:46:02 pm

Do you want to go?

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

Not really

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

She is drinking bourbon!

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

Ha! The wine makes it ok

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

She's nice enough

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

A bit rough but nice

Me - 5:53:36 pm

Driving?

Me - 5:53:36 pm

God! I sound like your dad. Haha

Me - 5:53:36 pm

Can't help it. Need to fix that tendency. Haha

Me - 5:53:36 pm

Dad mode is on for just about everyone.

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

Ha!

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

Me or her?

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

We are both driving. I'll have one wine. Dad ;)

Me - 5:53:36 pm

Well, my concern is for you. I don't know her haha

Me - 5:53:36 pm

Food?

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

You know when people talk at you, like spurt at you and because you go into a kind of stunned silence they interper that as though you're really listening and interested while internally you feel like you're being assaulted?

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

It's exactly like that

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

Yep I'll eat

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

Better get back to her

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

It's a nice sunny day atleast

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

And I've decided to do yoga.

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

I'm a loser at the wow and weak but that's ok :)

Me - 5:53:36 pm

So, a Dear Diary day! Mark it down. I'm ignoring the last text. Already deleted.

Me - 5:53:36 pm

Enjoy!

Me - 5:53:36 pm

I don't have an early start tomorrow. So 11pm texts are ok (well, ok-ish haha). If taking is really required.

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

And I've just said yes to taking the kids to the drive in tomorrow

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

;)

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

No 11pm texts I promise

Diana - 6:11:59 pm

The ply date has now migrated to my place!

Diana - 6:11:59 pm

I'm a sucker!

Diana - 6:11:59 pm

Caesar salad clean enough?

Diana - 6:11:59 pm

Sorry, I'm annoying as hell. I'll leave you to your evening! See you Wednesday :)

Me - 6:15:39 pm

You're not annoying. I enjoy our chats. Prefer the spoken word but the nature of the beast dictates written. Go for it! I even don't mind being woken up

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

I know it's not clean enough

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

I'll get something else

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Do what you want!!!

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Just do it

Me - 6:15:39 pm

You realize I don't do this with all my "clients" right? Or do you think I'm texting all evening to everyone. Haha

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

Of course you are

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Sore fingers

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Battery life ghastly recently become an issue. You're the problem haha. Good problem ;)

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

I'm sorry

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

You don't need a narrative of my life

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Whoops

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

I'll stop

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Did you read the above?? Do I need to spell it out!

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Dinner time. Stir fry tonight

Me - 6:15:39 pm

With rice hahaha

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Stodgy eh?

Me - 6:15:39 pm

My wine

Me - 6:15:39 pm

And this is my problem...

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Just realized I haven't eaten today

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Coffee and a shake

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Hmmm not good

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Maybe monk is my calling ;) I can do the non-eating part haha

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

You sure can

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

You're not feeding yourself

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

That's a kind of morbid deprivation

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

Much like gluttony

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

But punishment in reverse

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

I hope your stir fry is nice

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

I've gone for flathead and salad

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

Clean

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

As lean as pub meals and wine get

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

Set an alarm to eat. Seriously

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Maybe I should start drinking. If you can't beat them, join them haha

Diana - 7:04:00 pm

It is easier than the fight ;)

Diana - 7:04:00 pm

It's over

Diana - 7:04:00 pm

Now, back to breathing

Diana - 7:06:08 pm

I don't even need to say it do I. I ate too much! Arghh wish I had your eating issues!

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

Ricky Gervais just said, remember Monday's are fine, it's your life that sucks! Very cool.

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

Ok so the waiting has begun. I'm sitting out the front of karate waiting for my kids to finish partying

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

I'm a total total loser!

Me - 7:33:52 pm

He's good I follow him on twitter

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

He is good

Me - 7:33:52 pm

Normal parent behavior

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

Are you on Twitter?

Me - 7:33:52 pm

Yep

Me - 7:33:52 pm

I spent hours and hours in the car park at the golf course

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

That's where you get all wordy?

Me - 7:33:52 pm

Waiting for my son to finish

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

Oh god

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

Imogen's dad is crazy about golf

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

The whole family

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

My mum is too

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Shit

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

;)

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Heaps of hours waiting. In winter, in the dark. Not a loser! You're an awesome parent I reckon.

Me - 7:35:52 pm

You get a bit of a life next year.

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Big difference to what you can do with your own life.

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Patience

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Wordy? Moi?

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Had a German girlfriend once who tried to teach me French! Haha

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Failed at the French.

Me - 7:35:52 pm

She was a professor at a German uni. Did not for the life of me know what she saw in me! Haha

Me - 7:35:52 pm

In London.

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Where I lived, that is

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

French is a beautiful language

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Have never been particularly fond of Germans

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

I had an affair with one once who was German but raised in Brazil, he was kinda nice

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

You seem to have a thing for intellectuals though

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Strong women!

Me - 7:35:52 pm

As you are...

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Did I say I've eaten too much?

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Strong willed I mean

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Fat and strong ;)

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Hahaha! Ah yes I've heard that before

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Good thing

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Too smart for my own good, and is survive a holocaust.. Lalala on it goes

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

All useless without discipline however

Me - 7:35:52 pm

I need to be argued with. Need to be disagree with

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

That's what I lack

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

I'm good at arguing :)

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Even when I'm wrong!

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Haha

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Not good haha

Me - 7:35:52 pm

I have up the German girl

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Wanted to go surfing through Europe

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Have up? Wtf?

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Gave up

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Needed Spanish

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Learnt it from an Argentinian girl

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

I have forgotten a lot now but I lived in French speaking Belgium so was so fluent I dreamt in it

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Haha

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Ha!

Me - 7:35:52 pm

She wanted to take me home

Me - 7:35:52 pm

HHaha

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Nothing like a personal tutor

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Went surfing for a year

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Ireland and ended up in morocco

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

That's a nice way to spend a year

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Skiing too

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Cervinia

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

I haven't been to Ireland or Morocco

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

:(

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Cheap

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Spent about $10 a day

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Well you eat nothing I can see why ;)

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Haha

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Travelling life is easy

Me - 7:35:52 pm

And in cheap places

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Life is easy when you're young

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Maybe not, doesn't feel it at the time I guess

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Exactly

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Worry free, almost

Me - 7:35:52 pm

I ended up in London and I had $10.

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Total

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Then got a job offer paying heaps

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Worked for a year then took a year off to surf

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Have thy up too

Me - 7:35:52 pm

That

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Gave?

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Why?

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Came back to be a musician.... A fucking gain. Haha

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Bad penny etc etc

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Then spent 10 years trying to be a business man Ina suit

Me - 7:35:52 pm

I looked good! Haha

Me - 7:35:52 pm

But didn't suit (haha) me

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Couldn't remove the hippy

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Not totally

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Took 10 years though

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

Wow 10 years to realise?

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

My phone is gonna die

Diana - 7:35:52 pm

:(

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Still going really ;)

Me - 7:35:52 pm

I know!!! I've had to recharge mine already! Haha

Me - 7:35:52 pm

Go recharge

Me - 7:35:52 pm

And phone too haha

Diana - 8:01:36 pm

Chargers at home

Me - 8:04:00 pm

You mean I might not be in contact with you for a short while?? Withdrawal haha. Write it down, and we'll "talk" when you get home.

Me - 8:04:00 pm

Got a pen?

Me - 8:04:00 pm

;)

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

Still going with what?

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

I guess life is one realisation after the next until you die

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

Kids in bed

Me - 8:22:56 pm

Life is good!

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

Unpack groceries time. My life is so unbelievably interesting

Me - 8:22:56 pm

Haha. You like complaining don't you! Haha

Me - 8:22:56 pm

Do you think it will reduce my interest? Nope

Me - 8:22:56 pm

It's cool

Me - 8:22:56 pm

It's all normal stuff

Me - 8:22:56 pm

You need to just chat to me, normal life with kids is exactly what you do

Me - 8:22:56 pm

It's awesome

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

It is awesome

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

When I get a break ;)

Me - 8:22:56 pm

It's over too quick

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

No seriously having kids made it all make sense

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

Sort of

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

More than it ever had

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

But it's hard work to be loving and kind and not lose your shit

Me - 8:22:56 pm

Well then, it's perfect

Me - 8:22:56 pm

Of course you lose your shit!

Me - 8:22:56 pm

Then you find it

Me - 8:22:56 pm

Then lose it

Me - 8:22:56 pm

Ad nauseum

Me - 8:22:56 pm

No, I didn't have a Latin girlfriend haha

Me - 8:22:56 pm

More wine?

Me - 8:22:56 pm

;)

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

No more wine

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

I had my fix of dates at the supermarket

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

Now I feel sick

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

How sad am I, my treat is dates!!

Me - 8:22:56 pm

A treat is a treat, whatever it is! At least it's cheap haha

Me - 8:22:56 pm

Could be diamonds haha

Me - 8:22:56 pm

THAT would be sad!

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

That would be great, give me something decent to hoc and go travelling ;)

Diana - 8:45:26 pm

Well I might keep a couple

Diana - 8:45:26 pm

I found a 6 month course

Diana - 8:45:26 pm

Half the price

Diana - 8:45:26 pm

Need to figure out if its properly accredited

Diana - 8:45:26 pm

Blah blah

Diana - 8:45:26 pm

You do the nutrition :)

Me - 8:45:26 pm

Sounds good. Want me to look too?

Diana - 8:45:26 pm

No, it's cool

Diana - 8:45:26 pm

I don't pay you enough as it is!

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Yeah, well. Might have to revise payment down to zero.

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Not happy accepting money, from you.

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Ha! Yep I'm only coming 11th

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Yeah! Terms of service

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Win or no pay haha

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

That's right

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Or deadlift 112 :)

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Is that 2x?

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

I'm disappointed with my upper body strength. It's kind of made me angry

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Yep

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Unless I lose weight which isn't likely

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

I don't think the shorter course is accredited with the major body achool of yoga whatever it's called Argh

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Really?? Easier to do something about it than just be upset.

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Argh!! Haha

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Let's not give up on the "goal" yet. Maybe, the more time you spend with me, the more of the non-eating germs might spread haha

Me - 8:50:07 pm

112 is shit heavy!

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

You saying I'm fat????

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

;-)

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Hahaha

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

I've emailed them to

You

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

You have a better brain than I do

Me - 8:50:07 pm

I've been married for years, forgot?? I know those questions.

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Unanswerable.

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Silence required

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

And there's the crazy place run by the cult leader. Not sure about that one

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

I'm kidding

Me - 8:50:07 pm

No cults

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

I know I'm fat

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

We both know my %

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Fuck off! ;-)

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

No hiding going on here

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Hey, check your emails and stop being rude

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

How long have you been divorced?

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Maybe you did forget :p

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Did I say anything about successfully married? Hmmm?

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Interesting stuff

Me - 8:50:07 pm

I don't know if accreditation is required. Maybe insurance?

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

What is?

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

I think it's like the trusted body...

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

And a six month course doesn't qualify

Me - 8:50:07 pm

All those bad backs you'll cause

Me - 8:50:07 pm

It's only a 24 day course

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Over a year

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

You get professional indemnity insurance qualifications with the other one

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

The year long one

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Important

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Huh? Numbers ? What did you say

Me - 8:50:07 pm

1 weekend a month for a year = 24 days

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Hmm it's looking like the year long one Huh?

Me - 8:50:07 pm

It's made for working people

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Or every Sunday for 6 months?

Me - 8:50:07 pm

But a long time

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

350 hours

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Each Sunday works better than a whole weekend really

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Insurance and recognition I reckon

Me - 8:50:07 pm

But... What would I know

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Need to talk to a few people

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

School of India looks bodgy

Me - 8:50:07 pm

In the yoga business

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Yes

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Accredited is good

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Long time though

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Between us we'd be good. Fitness, yoga, massage.

Me - 8:50:07 pm

And uplifting talks

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Haha. Marvin like...

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Hitchhiker Guide. Know it?

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

No

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

You're a nerd ;)

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

I don't want to do massage

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Not an insult haha

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

That's your domain

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Touching people and their energy getting on me ... Eeww

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Nerds are good

Me - 8:50:07 pm

You break 'em il fix 'me haha

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Always wanted to be one

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Energy = what? Sweat?

Me - 8:50:07 pm

I thought I'd hate it too!

Me - 8:50:07 pm

But no. Can be cool

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Although haven't done a fat person. That would be yucky

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Oh!

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Sports massage

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Hahahaha!

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

No, not my thing.

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Fat or skinny

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Kinda creepy

Me - 8:50:07 pm

What about receiving?

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

I take on energy to easily

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Receiving is ok

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

But I only ever go to women

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

I'm quite a prude Huh

Me - 8:50:07 pm

Really? Wouldn't have guessed it. Seriously.

Me - 8:50:07 pm

I guess personal space yada yada

Diana - 8:50:07 pm

Not in a relationship but I'm not fond of random people getting in my space at all

Diana - 9:09:47 pm

I find clubs horrible for that

Diana - 9:09:47 pm

Men think they can touch you cause you're standing there? I mean wtf?

Diana - 9:09:47 pm

I've actually had a go at a couple :)

Me - 9:09:47 pm

Don't go

Diana - 9:09:47 pm

Of men that is

Me - 9:09:47 pm

Scary! You're strong

Me - 9:09:47 pm

I'd be scared of you!

Me - 9:09:47 pm

But I like strong haha

Me - 9:09:47 pm

You're both. Physically and strong willed. Too powerful! Haha

Diana - 9:09:47 pm

Yeah.. most people see my guns and run

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Deadlifts aren't guns!!

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Except now I know I'm a light weight I no longer respect my guns

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Because a fit 22 yo beat you?

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Even one of the mums grabbed my arms to say goodbye and then kept touching them cause she thought they were cool :)

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

No, not at all

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Because I can't lift more than 25 kilos

Me - 9:12:07 pm

They are cool

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Wear a t shirt then, if it bothers you haha

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

deadlift is back right? Cause that's what was stiff on Saturday

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Not only back.

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

It doesn't bother me. I work hard

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Not back?

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Not only but it's important. Legs, glutes etc

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

School of India is out :/

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Why?

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

It just looks dodgy

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Is that the non accredited 6 month one?

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

I want to be accredited or what's the point?

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Yes

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

You skimmed

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Sensible

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Skimmed? You lost me

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

I should start your novel

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

You skimmed the emails

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

I'm taking $10 off your fee ;)

Me - 9:12:07 pm

I had 1 minute!!! Of course I skimmed! Want a treatise?

Me - 9:12:07 pm

That means I owe you $10 haha

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Seriously, don't pay me anymore

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

What are you Talking about

Me - 9:12:07 pm

We have a text-only relationship. Might be unethical haha

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

You're coaching me

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

I already pay you too little and hate it

Me - 9:12:07 pm

I find it hard taking money. Not just you. Need to fix that. How, I don't know

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Easier when you just submitted invoices and accounting departments paid you. Not personal.

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Yes

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

I found the same with photogrpah

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Photography

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

I would charge nothing compared to what I could

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

And I wouldn't deliver until it was prefect

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Impossible when you're not business orientated

Me - 9:12:07 pm

There's a real pleasure in someone else valuing what you do.

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Hard to also take money for it.

Me - 9:12:07 pm

But, food is required etc

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Well not so much for you ;)

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Haha

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Very funny, mum ;)

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Soi does give professional indemnity blah insurance

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

I'm a skimmer too

Me - 9:12:07 pm

My Daughter's going away all summer.

Me - 9:12:07 pm

No children at all this year, probably. First time.

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Ahh that's why you're adopting me as your running partner. Getting desperate

Me - 9:12:07 pm

I've been desperate for ages haha. Well before you ;)

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Years and years

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Oh please

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

I'm awesome at walking out

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

How long have you been desperate for?

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

There's something called the yoga alliance it may give credits for.. Bodgy India

Me - 9:12:07 pm

And... Not desperate, not really. Disappointed is probably a better description.

Me - 9:12:07 pm

"Walking out" ??

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Of exams

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Oh

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

It's good you're crazy about your kids

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Gotta leave sometime hahaa

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

That's how it's suppose to be

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Kids come first

Me - 9:12:07 pm

But aren't everything

Me - 9:12:07 pm

But everything is subservient to their valid needs

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Understand?

Me - 9:12:07 pm

No pampering

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Makes having your own life difficult.

Me - 9:12:07 pm

At your stage it's hard

Me - 9:12:07 pm

At mine it's easy

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Yea I get it. I haven't been good at much but I'm ok at this. My kids are really nice people with kind hearts

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

It's hard yes.

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Oh well. It'll pass before I know it

Me - 9:12:07 pm

I've got heaps of time, too much now. You've got bugger all

Me - 9:12:07 pm

Kids, family, work, alone time. Anything left over? Not much!

Diana - 9:12:07 pm

Well it's limited that's for sure. I remember having all the time I wanted in my self centered world and I wasn't very happy

Me - 9:35:27 pm

We never are! Not like that. We need others to care for.

Me - 9:35:27 pm

At least the nice ones are like that

Me - 9:35:27 pm

And they're too busy usually

Diana - 9:35:27 pm

That's where the diamonds came in handy

Diana - 9:35:27 pm

Come in

Diana - 9:39:44 pm

I found one close. Hmm

Diana - 9:39:44 pm

You're asleep! I'll let you rest

Diana - 9:41:58 pm

I'm going to keep researching

Me - 9:41:58 pm

Not asleep. Warching tv

Me - 9:41:58 pm

Because I didn't answer immediately? Haha. Demanding, aren't we?

Me - 9:41:58 pm

Tell me what you find. I'm interested. Although I'll probably only skim your text ;)

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Nope

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

I've lost it

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

I'm watching Olympia

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

See how I walk out of exams?

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Negative again?

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Huh?

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

No negative

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Just short attention span

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

They're so overly tanned

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Positive walk out haha

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

You got to know when to hold em

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Know when to fold em

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Know when to walk away and know when to run :)

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Which song is that?

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Kenny rovers

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Rogersd

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Arghhh

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Effin iPhones

Me - 9:48:16 pm

What are you doing with the kids during the holidays?

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

The gambler

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Talking is easier

Me - 9:48:16 pm

But impossible

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Type away...

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Haha

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Have you watched the girls routines?

Me - 9:48:16 pm

What girls

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Holly put a link on fb

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Olympia

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Oh

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Nope. Voyeristic.

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Not my thing.

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

It's not particularly graceful

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Prefer ordinary women. Ones to talk to not look at

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Not ordinary...

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Before you say something

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Haha

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Just normal looking

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Wasn't going to... Not judging. I'm not doing much, we did the snow. Tomorrow we have another play date and they're doing the over night safari at the zoo Friday night

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Joel has appointments tomorrow, Imogen and I will hang out and drink coffee

Me - 9:48:16 pm

With you Friday night?

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Next week Imogen is with her dad and I'm working 4 days straight

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Gonna kill me ;)

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

All 8 hour shifts!

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

No Imogen's dad is taking them

Me - 9:48:16 pm

I thought you did weekends?

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

He asked if I'd like to go but it'd be weird and I have to work

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

No, I do weekdays too, just usually 4 hours not 8

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Wanna do something? That doesn't involve typing. Haha

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

now you know why I'm tired!

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Sure, but we have to train Saturday :)

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Running right?

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

If the weather is good?

Me - 9:48:16 pm

What time are you "free" Friday?

Me - 9:48:16 pm

But, I'm respectful of alone time requirements too

Me - 9:48:16 pm

You need them

Me - 9:48:16 pm

But not too much

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

I work until 830 it's pretty late

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Running doesn't need good weather!

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Sometimes around 745

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Yea it does

Me - 9:48:16 pm

I could have a nap I the arvo so I could stay awake! Haha

Me - 9:48:16 pm

But you'll need your sleep.

Me - 9:48:16 pm

But it would be cool. Let's see how you feel.

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Big lifting day Friday again?

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

So I might be wrecked if that's the case

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Well, no lifting then haha

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Coach says

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Squats this week?

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Heavy?

Me - 9:48:16 pm

De-load day haha

Me - 9:48:16 pm

I'm not getting the vibe that you like that standard program.

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

I'll do it

Me - 9:48:16 pm

I can change it. Just need to know more about what you like

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

I liked todays circuit

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

But I get I have to do standards it's cool

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Yeah, loved it too

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

They almost look drag

Me - 9:48:16 pm

I'll have a think but the standard lifts are needed. And we need the rehab stuff. Single leg, single arm.

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Well, I can't actually see what you're seeing. Right?

Me - 9:48:16 pm

So I'll tKe your word for it

Me - 9:48:16 pm

You need to show me how to do the illegal stuff.

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Next time you're over. Wear a burglars suit haha

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

It's easy and totally necessary for viewing pleasure

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

They're intense.

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

The women

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Anyway those standard moves only take 1/2 hour

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

I can do them no worries

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Like the 100 kg deadlift was no worries. Right? Haha

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Easy peasy

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

I've got another year before I have to stop

Me - 9:48:16 pm

We need to periodise your training. Vary the weights etc

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

I need to get to 112%

Me - 9:48:16 pm

What's happening I a year?

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Yea yea that's why I need to keep paying you

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

My body will not want to lift that heavy

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

It's ok, I'm prepared for it

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

I was Always prepared for a Segway into yoga and running

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Maybe compromise? Lift 107 and get weight down.

Me - 9:48:16 pm

We won't lift 100 again for a little while

Me - 9:48:16 pm

You'll love running. I'm sure. At least together. It's cool having a companion

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

So you were calling me fat ;)

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Silence. Remember!

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Haha

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Long runs

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

Just get your weight down isn't silent!

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Maybe need less muscle?

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Maybe that's what I meant

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

I Hardly have any now

Me - 9:48:16 pm

Hahahahahaha

Diana - 9:48:16 pm

I'll do 200 % my body weight then retire

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

Retire lifting heaven

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

Heavy

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

Or I'll end up in heaven!

Me - 10:11:44 pm

I think we go straight to the hills this weekend. Only do the river mid week when you don't have time

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

Straight to the hills?

Me - 10:11:44 pm

Every 2nd weekend

Me - 10:11:44 pm

As you suggested

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

Ok

Me - 10:11:44 pm

Just take it easy

Me - 10:11:44 pm

I'll drive back haha

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

Heavy squats on Wednesday then

Me - 10:11:44 pm

Not saying anything ;)

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

We're not running there?!?

Me - 10:11:44 pm

Funny story...

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

Squats are legs not arms, what's the issue with my legs?

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

I'm resting my shoulder only right

Me - 10:13:55 pm

We used to visit my wife's parents place. She'd drop me 20 kms out and I'd run there. Tough hills. No wasted time. Yes, I'm odd.

Me - 10:13:55 pm

Wednesday will be after the wow anyway.

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

Yea heavy squats after the wow

Me - 10:13:55 pm

No arms for a week after, probably

Me - 10:13:55 pm

Do you mind me training too, with you? Seriously. I feel funny doing my own thing when you're the "client".

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

No I don't mind at all

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

It gets you out of my personal space :)

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

You have to keep up next time though ;)

Me - 10:13:55 pm

Haha. I'm still in that crowd am I? Long way to go haha

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

I'm going crazy looking at yoga schools

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

I'm going to go to try to meditate and then sleep

Me - 10:13:55 pm

Ask the teacher you like at the gym

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

I'm trying to meditate everyday -unsuccessfully

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

No.

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

I admire her from a distance

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

I've never said anything to her despite her asking me how I am!

Me - 10:13:55 pm

Me too. And got an app for it hahaha

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

An app for admiring people???

Me - 10:13:55 pm

Meditating

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

I know, I'm being silly

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

I don't like Tuesday's

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

Forced day off

Me - 10:13:55 pm

Wrong song haha

Me - 10:13:55 pm

What do you mean?

Me - 10:13:55 pm

You can't meditate now. You'll just go to sleep.

Me - 10:13:55 pm

I guess that's good.

Me - 10:13:55 pm

I should do that too

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

Tuesday's I'm not allowed to train

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

Sleep

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

Yes.

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

The cat is already on me

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

I hate cats

Diana - 10:13:55 pm

No doubt I'll annoy you again tomorrow :)

Me - 10:13:55 pm

Looking forward to it

Me - 10:13:55 pm

Nighty night

Me - 10:13:55 pm

It's not "annoy" though.

Diana - 10:27:53 pm

Close enough :)

Diana - 10:27:53 pm

Night

**Tuesday 23 September**

Diana - 8:41:04 am

It doesn't matter that I woke up with pain in my shoulder blade and down the inside of my arms to my fingers...?

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I'll buy some nurofen plus today. And I've been watching videos on how to lift heavier on military press

Diana - 8:41:04 am

All good. :)

Me - 8:41:04 am

Really?

Me - 8:41:04 am

Apart from the pain, did you sleep ok?

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Yep, usual 3am wakefulness but good.

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Yep serious about the pain :(

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Now I remember why I've only done body weight upper body stuff

Me - 8:41:04 am

This is everything I hate about these wow's. I REALLY don't want you to do the overheads.

Me - 8:41:04 am

What can I so to convince you?

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Yea I knew you'd be like that, that's why Inwasnt sure whether to tell you

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I'm doing it

Me - 8:41:04 am

Maybe I'll be "sick" on Wednesday. Can't count haha

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I'm sure I can grab another trainer to count :p

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Hang on. Prob not. They're not such good counters

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Then again maybe one that can't count will get me in the top 10 ;)

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I'll be fine. No upper body for the week after

Me - 8:41:04 am

Maybe the year after!!! I won't get to see you because you'll be too injured.

Me - 8:41:04 am

Maybe just running

Me - 8:41:04 am

No upper body

Me - 8:41:04 am

Seriously, pain = stop!

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I know

Diana - 8:41:04 am

And I'll know when to stop

Diana - 8:41:04 am

You need to get through your trust issues :p

Diana - 8:41:04 am

It hurts but it's manageable.

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Some yoga stretching will sort it

Me - 8:41:04 am

"It doesn't matter that I woke up with pain in my shoulder blade and down the inside of my arms to my fingers... "

Diana - 8:41:04 am

And anyway I might sack you if you don't let me do what I what

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Want

Diana - 8:41:04 am

That's right

Me - 8:41:04 am

Know when to stop?? I don't think so... Jags

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I'm just saying I'll watch it

Me - 8:41:04 am

Haha

Diana - 8:41:04 am

It hurts but I'll watch it. Im actually being responsible by telling you

Me - 8:41:04 am

Ok. Let's be really careful. We'll discuss it tomorrow and see if tonight is still sore

Me - 8:41:04 am

Yeah, trust is a fine line

Me - 8:41:04 am

I have to listen to you

Me - 8:41:04 am

You know your body

Me - 8:41:04 am

But

Me - 8:41:04 am

You're very competitive haha

Me - 8:41:04 am

And shoulders are delicate things

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Im not that competitive

Me - 8:41:04 am

Hahahahaha

Diana - 8:41:04 am

It's more about me against me

Me - 8:41:04 am

That's what I mean!!!

Me - 8:41:04 am

That's competitive

Diana - 8:41:04 am

It really hurts. If it hurts this much tomorrow I won't do it. There is a numb pain down my arm, I know that's bad news but Steve is good, and he will push it back like after Spartan if it goes out again

Me - 8:41:04 am

Ok-ish

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Cool sorted

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Phew

Me - 8:41:04 am

Except I'm worried now.

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Arghh

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I didn't tell you to create a scene

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I just thought I should let you know

Me - 8:41:04 am

A text scene

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Ha! Yes! Tcene ;)

Me - 8:41:04 am

Don't stress, no scene. Glad you told me

Me - 8:41:04 am

Important

Me - 8:41:04 am

But what did you think my reaction would be? As above I guess

Diana - 8:41:04 am

And no saying anything in front of other people at the gym ok?

Me - 8:41:04 am

Of course

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Well I thought you'd say, ok see how you are tomorrow

Me - 8:41:04 am

That too. But...

Me - 8:41:04 am

Not with radiating pain

Me - 8:41:04 am

Numbness

Me - 8:41:04 am

= impingement

Me - 8:41:04 am

= long rehab

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I used to get it all the time that's why I stick with chin ups and push ups, they don't cause it

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I did that without even realising it

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I remember waking up with pins and needles and pain so bad, Steve said it was cool and could be fixed thouhj

Diana - 8:41:04 am

So it's all good

Me - 8:41:04 am

Actually I'm going to try and see Steve now myself

Me - 8:41:04 am

About the massage

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Do it!

Diana - 8:41:04 am

It'll get you more pt clients too

Me - 8:41:04 am

Maybe. Might be too many women like you haha

Me - 8:41:04 am

Don't like male massage therapist

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I think you're safe

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Most women prefer it

Me - 8:41:04 am

Just not you?

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Prefer men I mean

Me - 8:41:04 am

Need to tell me something? Haha

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Skin hunger

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Ha!

Diana - 8:41:04 am

No.

Me - 9:04:28 am

Your skin is well fed? From what? ;)

Diana - 8:41:04 am

No it's not

Diana - 8:41:04 am

But I cope with it better than most

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I've been single most of my life.

Diana - 8:41:04 am

It's not so hard

Diana - 8:41:04 am

And I get lots of cuddles from kids

Me - 9:06:47 am

Hugs are awesome!

Me - 9:06:47 am

Best

Me - 9:06:47 am

Still hug my kids

Me - 9:06:47 am

Even my manly 24 year old hugs me if we haven't seem each other for awhile

Me - 9:06:47 am

Great to have

Diana - 9:06:47 am

That's nice

Diana - 9:06:47 am

I'd rather go without than be touched by someone I have no real connection with. I tried to change it but I can't

Me - 9:06:47 am

Yeah I know

Diana - 9:06:47 am

Except on the holiday I had a little affair. Very unexpected really I don't think I've done that since I was a teenager

Me - 9:06:47 am

It reduces the importance of human contact

Me - 9:06:47 am

Young?

Diana - 9:06:47 am

Yes young

Diana - 9:06:47 am

And consequentially annoying

Diana - 9:06:47 am

He was the photogrpaher on the reef boat he wants to fly me back up for a weekend. I politely declined

Diana - 9:06:47 am

What happens on holiday stays on holidays

Me - 9:06:47 am

I've made a few mistakes too

Me - 9:06:47 am

First separation. Lots of mums were "interested".

Me - 9:06:47 am

Haha

Me - 9:06:47 am

Slept with a few

Me - 9:06:47 am

But always annoying I the end

Me - 9:06:47 am

You're right. Need a connection

Me - 9:06:47 am

Rather not have anything

Diana - 9:06:47 am

Me too.

Diana - 9:06:47 am

I kind of enjoy being alone

Diana - 9:06:47 am

Which is sad

Diana - 9:06:47 am

The guy in the gym offered to take me shopping for perfume and clothes and to Vegas, that was my last chance at a sugar daddy :)

Me - 9:06:47 am

Haha

Diana - 9:06:47 am

Besides young kids, work, training.... What's left

Me - 9:06:47 am

I don't see you as that type of person haha perfume, clothes, Vegas

Diana - 9:06:47 am

No not at all

Diana - 9:06:47 am

Well I like perfume and clothes but in balance with adventure

Me - 9:06:47 am

Not much time left. You're right. And most people are demanding

Me - 9:06:47 am

Become selfish in a relationship

Diana - 9:06:47 am

Yes, and I would rather train than be with people

Me - 9:06:47 am

In your case, they'd want more time than you can give

Diana - 9:06:47 am

Is that fucked up?

Diana - 9:06:47 am

Don't answer

Me - 9:06:47 am

I'm people!!! Or am I an honorary non person haha

Me - 9:06:47 am

Unfortunately, I fell exactly the same!!

Me - 9:06:47 am

Feel

Diana - 9:06:47 am

You're a trainer so you get through the gate :)

Diana - 9:06:47 am

You shouldn't, you have time for someone

Diana - 9:06:47 am

Though you're not long separated right? so maybe you need time alone?

Me - 9:06:47 am

I think that's our connection really. Pretty strange not liking people and yet spending all this "time" together

Me - 9:06:47 am

Well, not you. The phone. Haha

Me - 9:06:47 am

It's easier writing stuff. You probably wouldn't say in person

Me - 9:06:47 am

Sort of cool

Me - 9:06:47 am

Barriers down

Me - 9:06:47 am

I like it. Sort of

Diana - 9:06:47 am

It is

Diana - 9:06:47 am

It can be a trap

Me - 9:06:47 am

At least we do see each other, in person. It would be odd otherwise.

Me - 9:06:47 am

But

Me - 9:06:47 am

Talking is good to

Me - 9:06:47 am

With words

Me - 9:06:47 am

*too

Me - 9:06:47 am

Grammar

Me - 9:06:47 am

Haha

Diana - 9:06:47 am

We can put a max rep limit on texting ;)

Me - 9:21:23 am

Not a chance!

Me - 9:21:23 am

I'm enjoying this

Me - 9:21:23 am

And I'm not "demanding" haha

Me - 9:21:23 am

I understand your time commitments

Me - 9:21:23 am

Been there

Me - 9:21:23 am

Too tired, often, even for those you love

Me - 9:21:23 am

Had a wife that didn't understand that haha. Although that's not a good thing probably.

Me - 9:21:23 am

So, I'm happy texting

Me - 9:21:23 am

And when you've got time (after family, work, sleep, alone time) we can actually do stuff together

Me - 9:21:23 am

All 5 minutes per fortnight haha

Diana - 9:21:23 am

Ha! That's a quick km right?

Me - 9:21:23 am

Yep

Diana - 9:21:23 am

We are off to the speech pathologist

Me - 9:21:23 am

I'm off to Steve. Then accountant. "See" you later haha

Diana - 9:27:27 am

No training?

Me - 9:30:01 am

I haven't done any serious training since last week. Consequently, I've dropped 2 kg!!

Diana - 9:30:01 am

Wow it's a glorious day.

Me - 9:30:01 am

We should be at the beAch

Me - 9:30:01 am

unfortunately

Diana - 9:30:01 am

Oh man you've dropped 2 kilos! I've been trying to do that for 3 months!

Me - 9:30:01 am

Next year Diana. It all changes next year (for you)

Diana - 9:30:01 am

Yea, I have to find a new job!

Me - 9:30:01 am

You will

Diana - 9:30:01 am

I'm afraid this is my self indulgent year

Diana - 9:30:01 am

Next year I'll have to go into serious mode

Me - 9:30:01 am

And surfing between 9 and 3 haha

Diana - 9:30:01 am

Why haven't you trained?

Diana - 9:30:01 am

I'd be there all day if I could

Me - 9:30:01 am

With that music?

Me - 9:30:01 am

Other stuff.

Me - 9:30:01 am

And visiting mum

Diana - 9:30:01 am

Headphones

Diana - 9:30:01 am

I don't have to train anyone

Diana - 9:30:01 am

Fair enough

Diana - 9:30:01 am

Mums are important

Me - 9:30:01 am

Yep

Me - 9:30:01 am

Mine is so undemanding

Me - 9:30:01 am

She really independent

Me - 9:30:01 am

Have to book a time to go see her.

Me - 9:30:01 am

Hospital means she always available haha

Me - 9:30:01 am

Gotta drive...

Diana - 9:30:01 am

That's awesome

Diana - 9:30:01 am

I wanna be like that

Diana - 9:30:01 am

Ok catch you later

Diana - 11:44:32 am

So when do you start massaging? Do I get mates rates ;)

Diana - 11:44:32 am

We are having lunch in the park, about to do some cartwheels as you do :)

Me - 12:33:47 pm

Still in St Kilda. Just finished with the accountant. No massage with Steve.

Me - 12:33:47 pm

But...

Me - 12:33:47 pm

Meeting tomorrow about massage at the gym

Me - 12:33:47 pm

I was going to talk to you about massage

Me - 12:33:47 pm

I've organized my daughter to practice on, since it's been months since I've done a massage.

Me - 12:33:47 pm

Are you available for a free massage? It would help me.

Me - 12:33:47 pm

Probably only worth the free amount haha

Me - 12:33:47 pm

It's been awhile

Me - 12:33:47 pm

About to drive again. TLk later

Diana - 12:33:47 pm

No worries

Diana - 12:33:47 pm

I can get you a barrage of school mums :)

Me - 12:33:47 pm

Just massage, right? ;)

Me - 12:33:47 pm

Ok driving now

Me - 1:22:14 pm

Sorry. Inappropriate text. Has a drive to think about it. Need a delete option haha. Can be a bit too much like the spoken word

Me - 1:22:14 pm

Problems because of the whole massage connotation thing

Me - 1:22:14 pm

Creepy guy massaging women. What I'm trying to avoid but have now reinforced. Sigh!

Me - 1:22:14 pm

Need to think more before talking

Me - 1:22:14 pm

Especially with that stuff. It's trying to be humorous that's the problem. It too easily falls flat and then just looks strange or creepy.

Me - 1:22:14 pm

Hmmm. Anyway, home now.

Diana - 1:26:49 pm

Whether it's a massage or more is up to you :)

Diana - 1:26:49 pm

I'm juts saying I can send people your way :(

Diana - 1:26:49 pm

:)

Diana - 1:26:49 pm

Wrong button!

Diana - 1:26:49 pm

Enjoy your run, our appointments are almost over, poor Joel long day

Diana - 1:26:49 pm

Promised him a massive ice cream filled milk shake

Me - 1:26:49 pm

Sounds awesome!! What I need too. Haha. You know, to bulk up haha

Diana - 1:26:49 pm

Yea, it's tough making them and not drinking them

Me - 1:26:49 pm

Oh! Home made? Even better.

Diana - 1:34:52 pm

Yep home made today

Diana - 1:34:52 pm

I've got to save for yoga!

Me - 1:34:52 pm

\+ meditation teacher? I was going to do that

Me - 1:34:52 pm

Just too much to do with the other stuff

Diana - 1:34:52 pm

Mediation is part of the yoga one depending on where you go

Diana - 1:34:52 pm

In a couple of weeks I won't be able to do Monday mornings at the gym. I need to take Joel to a school readiness program, but I can run while he is at it, and maybe get to the gym from 11-12

Diana - 1:34:52 pm

Argh

Diana - 1:34:52 pm

I need a degree in logistics

Me - 1:34:52 pm

We'll find a way around it. 2 minds, and all that stuff

Diana - 1:44:00 pm

Hmm

Me - 1:44:00 pm

Pfft

Diana - 1:44:00 pm

And Wednesday around 1045 after school

Holidays

Diana - 1:44:00 pm

That'll give me 15

Mins coaching

Diana - 1:44:00 pm

Meh

Me - 1:47:57 pm

Stress not! Next year will be (relatively) a lot easier. Let's just "survive" until then. FFS isn't that important. And I'll always work around your timetable. My star athlete ;)

Diana - 1:47:57 pm

Sarcometer just skyrocketed

Diana - 1:47:57 pm

These are real kid needs though, come before fitness

Me - 1:47:57 pm

Meter's busted!

Me - 1:47:57 pm

Not working

Me - 1:47:57 pm

;)

Me - 1:47:57 pm

Yeah, kids come first. That's why I said "survive" until February. Your time will come. And soon.

Me - 1:53:54 pm

Let's sit down and work through all this scheduling stuff this weekend.

Diana - 2:09:36 pm

Ok

Diana - 2:09:36 pm

I'm going to try the dodgy Indian yoga Sunday morning

Me - 2:09:36 pm

Where is it?

Diana - 2:09:36 pm

And now is my time, the best use I've been put to since birth

Diana - 2:09:36 pm

Caulfield

Me - 2:09:36 pm

Time?

Diana - 2:09:36 pm

It's a bit of a shit, I'll have to come home then drive back into southbank to work

Diana - 2:09:36 pm

I think it's 9, I'll have to check

Diana - 2:11:38 pm

I got quite a passionate email from them about not being affiliated

Diana - 2:11:38 pm

I'm still undecided

Me - 2:11:38 pm

You working Friday, Saturday, Sunday right?

Diana - 2:11:38 pm

I'll do classes at a few centres and see

Me - 2:11:38 pm

Worth trying

Diana - 2:11:38 pm

Yep working Friday Saturday Sunday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday

Me - 2:11:38 pm

Times?

Diana - 2:11:38 pm

Friday 1530-2000 Saturday and Sunday 1530-1930 Tuesday 1200-1930 Wednesday 1530-1930 Thursday 1200-1930 I think haven't got roster here

Me - 2:11:38 pm

Ok. Let's maximize the time together this weekend, after sufficient alone/detox time.

Me - 2:11:38 pm

Massage is good for detox. Although not alone time haha

Diana - 2:11:38 pm

Alone time is perfect for detox

Diana - 2:16:11 pm

So is wine :)

Me - 2:16:11 pm

I know! Not good for catching up haha

Me - 2:16:11 pm

Don't need wine anymore do you? Got your texting buddy. Haha

Diana - 2:16:11 pm

I'm always looking for ways to get a higher high :)

Me - 2:16:11 pm

You've got it!

Diana - 2:16:11 pm

I'm going to ignore the loads of washing and rest in the backyard for a minute. Tired all the time, kinda sucks. Not complaining

Diana - 2:16:11 pm

Kinda complaining

Me - 2:16:11 pm

Creatine haha

Me - 2:16:11 pm

Or sleep

Me - 2:16:11 pm

;)

Me - 2:16:11 pm

February!!

Diana - 2:16:11 pm

Creatine. I need that.

Me - 2:16:11 pm

I'm going to need a bigger gym bag haha

Diana - 2:16:11 pm

Stop building up February, I told you I'm going to have to work!

Me - 2:16:11 pm

I know

Me - 2:16:11 pm

But it's different.

Me - 2:16:11 pm

I'll stop

Diana - 2:16:11 pm

I'm going to have a little nanna nap

Diana - 2:16:11 pm

We have people coming over in 2 hours

Diana - 2:16:11 pm

Me and my people pleasing :/

Me - 2:16:11 pm

Ok. Go for it

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

No such luck, my sister is popping over

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

Arghhhh

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

For someone who hates people I sure get a lot of visitors

Me - 2:35:12 pm

I reckon!!

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

I'm totally using preworkout for this one

Me - 2:35:12 pm

I guess my best contribution to a relationship would be to stay away! Haha

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

Haha!

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

If only you could teach others

Me - 2:35:12 pm

Best relationship ever!!

Me - 2:35:12 pm

Never actually see each other...

Me - 2:35:12 pm

But boring

Me - 2:35:12 pm

A bit

Me - 2:35:12 pm

Text is good too

Me - 2:35:12 pm

Pure communicTion

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

I'm trying to become more open to people as I get older. Apparently I'm quite friendly despite what my head says

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

Text is quite terrible really

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

But it's good for banter like this

Me - 2:35:12 pm

I've just been politely texting my 5:30pm mum, about holidays being a hard time and it's ok if we miss out session. Nope! She's pumped!! Good, in a way.

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

That's great

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

Really it is

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

Take her for a run outdoors?

Me - 2:35:12 pm

Haha. She can't run. Too big

Me - 2:35:12 pm

She loves lifting though. I pulled her out of pump class because she was injured lots and too tired.

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

Oh poor lady

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

This is where nutrition would be good

Me - 2:35:12 pm

Got her dead lifting. She loves it haha

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

You should totally study it ;)

Me - 2:35:12 pm

Wants more

Me - 2:35:12 pm

Why not you?

Diana - 2:45:52 pm

I would if I was good at studying and had more time

Diana - 2:45:52 pm

the only way I'll be able to stand yoga is because it's practical

Me - 2:45:52 pm

Fair enough.

Me - 2:45:52 pm

Why can't you get more editing work somewhere?

Diana - 2:48:07 pm

I'm going to do some stills editing from home for appas

Diana - 2:48:07 pm

I lined that up last week

Diana - 2:48:07 pm

It'll be intermittent work though

Diana - 2:48:07 pm

Anything arty is

Me - 2:48:07 pm

Might lead to something. Never know. Good people are usually found

Me - 2:48:07 pm

By referral I mean

Diana - 2:48:07 pm

I'm open to something different

Diana - 2:48:07 pm

It'll work out

Diana - 2:48:07 pm

I don't have much ego around what I do for work

Diana - 2:48:07 pm

Just what I lift ;)

Me - 2:48:07 pm

Haha

Diana - 2:48:07 pm

Anyway thought you wanted more clients why are you trying to get this woman to stay home and fat?

Me - 2:48:07 pm

I'm not. Jut me being unbusiness like. Giving her the option of canceling easily. As you said, fear of rejection, so I give them the easy way out

Diana - 3:41:20 pm

You're a good trainer

Diana - 3:41:20 pm

Don't give them an easy out

Diana - 3:41:20 pm

Guilt them up :)

Diana - 3:41:20 pm

I'm making my sister her second cup of coffee

Diana - 3:41:20 pm

Yep... Sometimes I think about throwing it out

Me - 3:59:26 pm

Thaaaaanks Diana! It's nice to be appreciated

Me - 3:59:26 pm

Actually, it's exactly what my accountant said today haha

Me - 3:59:26 pm

Known him for 30+ years.

Me - 3:59:26 pm

Make your clients do the advertising. Get them to convince friends and family.

Me - 3:59:26 pm

And he said move to a more affluent area haha

Me - 3:59:26 pm

I have a car. I could drive

Me - 3:59:26 pm

I hate driving

Me - 3:59:26 pm

Teenage kids killed it for me

Me - 3:59:26 pm

Great day outside. Running to Radiohead. About to eat my second meal today! Bulking!!!

Diana - 4:04:48 pm

I just had my second protein shake :)

Diana - 4:04:48 pm

He's right about a more affluent area

Diana - 4:04:48 pm

You like rich women :)

Diana - 4:09:04 pm

I'm working for you as much as I can

Diana - 4:09:04 pm

My cousin and sister and friends

Diana - 4:09:04 pm

I'm just not much of a seller

Me - 4:13:16 pm

I don't like rich women!! What?

Me - 4:13:16 pm

Strong women.

Me - 4:13:16 pm

And you have both meanings haha

Diana - 4:13:16 pm

We'll find a way to like driving again

Me - 4:13:16 pm

Actually, we need to get onto more cool functional traing for you

Me - 4:13:16 pm

And me

Diana - 4:13:16 pm

Get some brighton clients lined up for my yoga classes :)

Me - 4:13:16 pm

Cool!!!

Me - 4:13:16 pm

I reckon we might be a good double! Haha Between us we make a whole person ;)

Me - 4:13:16 pm

Small steps though. Massage and maybe an outside Bootcamp thingy. I'm over qualified for bootcamps haha

Diana - 4:25:55 pm

No outside boot camps

Diana - 4:25:55 pm

Would be my advice

Diana - 4:25:55 pm

Keep it classy with real equipment

Diana - 4:25:55 pm

What's more cool functional training anyway? Back to me ;)

Me - 4:29:48 pm

Oh no! I haven't fallen for another one have I? Haha www.functionalpatterns.com. Supremely cool. Where I got the BOSU jumps from, and other stuff

Me - 4:29:48 pm

Video at the bottom of the home page

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

I'll check It out soon

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

My sister has just gone

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

I have under an hour before the next lot arrive

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

Wine.

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

There's beer in the fridge too from the other night

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

I'm exhausted

Me - 4:40:53 pm

You're too much of a socialite for me

Me - 4:40:53 pm

Early night though?

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

I hope so

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

I'm having 3am wake ups so I really need a good night sleep

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

I'm still managing to ignore the mountain of washing though :)

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

How was your run?

Me - 4:40:53 pm

Great. Felt fast for the first time in forever.

Me - 4:40:53 pm

Got to go to work again soon

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

Cool

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

Smash it ;)

Me - 4:40:53 pm

My mum might be home on Thursday.

Me - 4:40:53 pm

Amazing recuperative powers

Me - 4:40:53 pm

Stairs today

Me - 4:40:53 pm

Awesome

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

Where does she live?

Me - 4:40:53 pm

Hastings

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

You'll have her this summer even if your kids are gone

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

See things always work out :)

Me - 4:40:53 pm

Kids have been "gone" for ages

Me - 4:40:53 pm

I'll have work

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

Wish I was going to the gym

Me - 4:40:53 pm

Like you haha

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

I'd need a shit load of ore workout

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

Instead Joel and I are having the nana nap your mum doesn't need ;)

Me - 4:40:53 pm

That's great. Stop texting this random guy then! Haha

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

Ok I'll stop texting

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

Enjoy your session

Me - 4:40:53 pm

Ok. I'm here later if required.

Diana - 4:55:18 pm

I'll give you a night off

Diana - 5:08:48 pm

I'm giving you an out the way you give your clients :)

Diana - 5:08:48 pm

I'm going for coffee and wine

Me - 5:15:42 pm

Is that what I need to do too!!? Text more, and yet here I am.. Haha. No pressure, it's all cool. Off to work.

Me - 5:15:42 pm

But

Me - 5:15:42 pm

Leave me a bit of time this weekend right?

Me - 5:15:42 pm

Every 2 weeks is ok by me ;)

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

For sure

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

Mountains here we comed

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

Come

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

Argh

Diana - 5:21:32 pm

Hopefully the weather is nice

Diana - 5:21:32 pm

You know I'm slow right?

Diana - 5:21:32 pm

I've got weighted gloves to run with

Me - 5:24:18 pm

Not just running. But maybe also.

Me - 5:24:18 pm

About to go inside the gym. Talk later

Diana - 5:24:18 pm

Yea I'm slow at more than running ;)

Diana - 5:24:18 pm

Enjoy :)

Me - 6:24:53 pm

Home.

Me - 6:24:53 pm

A really crowded gym with lots of tradies. Haha

Me - 6:24:53 pm

Going to try eating again. 3 times today haha. Still really full!

Me - 6:24:53 pm

Anyway, have a good sleep!! Important. Becca was there tonight practicing for the wow. I saw her overhead weight

Me - 6:24:53 pm

Not saying

Diana - 6:24:53 pm

Wow you like rubbing it in don't you :)

Diana - 6:24:53 pm

You have to tell me!!

Me - 6:24:53 pm

Why do I?

Me - 6:24:53 pm

You don't listen to my advice haha

Diana - 6:24:53 pm

You're horrible

Diana - 6:24:53 pm

You have to tell me

Diana - 6:24:53 pm

To tell me you know and not tell me is just plain wrong

Diana - 6:24:53 pm

I'm drinking wine

Diana - 6:24:53 pm

If you don't tell me I'm pulling out

Me - 6:24:53 pm

I like empty threats.

Me - 6:24:53 pm

Pulling out if this wow? Not a bad idea. Why didn't I think of that haha Joking

Diana - 6:24:53 pm

I mean pulling out of the whole thing

Me - 6:24:53 pm

27.5 overhead. Left before the cleans

Diana - 6:24:53 pm

And it's not empty!

Me - 6:24:53 pm

Stopped typing eh?

Diana - 6:24:53 pm

What was I going to lift?

Me - 6:24:53 pm

Enough

Diana - 6:24:53 pm

I bet magically somehow she gets a higher score?

Diana - 6:24:53 pm

Seriously I was going to lift 25 right?

Diana - 6:24:53 pm

I'll have to go through all the pages and pages of texts to see!!

Me - 6:24:53 pm

Of course! She's half your age. And fit!

Me - 6:24:53 pm

Yes 25

Me - 6:24:53 pm

But then we has the shoulder issue

Me - 6:24:53 pm

Argue now or in front of everyone tomorrow?

Me - 6:24:53 pm

You like arguing...

Me - 6:24:53 pm

I won't stop you doing what you want. Just point out the silliness of it ;)

Me - 6:24:53 pm

Enough said, I reckon

Me - 6:24:53 pm

You decide

Me - 6:24:53 pm

The weight I mean

Diana - 6:44:13 pm

Seriously was I only doing 25?

Diana - 6:44:13 pm

Or are you being a smart arse?

Diana - 6:44:13 pm

And stop telling me I'm useless cause I'm 40

Diana - 6:44:13 pm

If you what to work for rich brighton women you need to stop that so practice with me

Diana - 6:44:13 pm

And I'm fit too

Diana - 6:44:13 pm

Argh

Diana - 6:44:13 pm

Seriously only 25?

Diana - 6:44:13 pm

I have no memory for numbers but something is telling me you're not telling the truth

Me - 6:46:55 pm

Wine talking? Yes, 25 overhead. 35 clean. They are good weights!

Me - 6:49:33 pm

I do sets of 10 at 25. All I can do! Calling me weak?

Me - 6:49:33 pm

Actually I am haha

Diana - 6:49:33 pm

Nope

Diana - 6:49:33 pm

Calling me weak :(

Me - 6:56:23 pm

Serious bulking time! A BIG bag.

Diana - 7:04:48 pm

That looks delicious I

Diana - 7:04:48 pm

I want some recovery powder

Diana - 7:04:48 pm

I wish you didn't tell me about Becca

Diana - 7:04:48 pm

Now I'm going to have to try to lift that

Me - 7:04:48 pm

Sorry. My bad

Me - 7:04:48 pm

Of course... That could have just been her warm up...

Me - 7:04:48 pm

Do what you can and wait for deadlift day!

Diana - 7:04:48 pm

You really are horrible

Diana - 7:04:48 pm

Go and get some whisky and talk to me when you're in a nicer mood

Me - 7:04:48 pm

No I'm not. I'm an angel hahA

Me - 7:04:48 pm

Don't like drinking alone.

Me - 7:04:48 pm

I just go to sleep

Diana - 7:16:48 pm

Well atleast asleep you wouldn't be mean

Diana - 7:16:48 pm

And sleep isn't so bad

Diana - 7:16:48 pm

I actually think on some level you told me so I would lift heavier tomoorw

Diana - 7:16:48 pm

Tomorrow

Me - 7:20:45 pm

No.

Me - 7:20:45 pm

Just telling = sharing.

Me - 7:20:45 pm

Probably not there yet

Me - 7:20:45 pm

Need more time with spoken words

Me - 7:20:45 pm

I am the most un-mean man I know! ;) Don't know where you get that from haha

Me - 7:20:45 pm

Probably my bad communications

Me - 7:20:45 pm

And slopping typing

Me - 7:20:45 pm

:-)

Diana - 7:20:45 pm

No

Diana - 7:20:45 pm

No problem in Comms

Diana - 7:20:45 pm

You meant to tell me

Diana - 7:20:45 pm

It's ok

Diana - 7:20:45 pm

You're right

Diana - 7:20:45 pm

She is young and fit

Diana - 7:20:45 pm

And it's silly for me to try to keep up

Me - 7:20:45 pm

You'll beat her in some!

Diana - 7:20:45 pm

And I'm bringing up kids.. It all adds up I guess

Me - 7:29:24 pm

I keep telling you. You're awesome. But you don't believe me! What can I do to get through to you? Why would I say it otherwise? Look in the mirror, it's a good sight!

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

You'd say it to keep me training???

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

I look in the mirror and all I see is fat :(

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

Even my arms today I noticed fat!!

Me - 7:35:19 pm

Sigh!

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

I know I'm terribly frustrating!

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

Imagine living in my head!

Me - 7:35:19 pm

= interesting

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

But you know what i mean

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

You said you see fat and you're 5%

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

You'd be in hell at 22%!!

Me - 7:35:19 pm

I know. I know.

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

Ok.

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

Sorry

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

I'm shutting up

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

What did you buy abyway

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

Was that protein powder?

Me - 7:35:19 pm

Yes. Big packet. Expensive. But cheaper

Me - 7:35:19 pm

But I don't think it's helping. Not that I want to be bigger really

Me - 7:35:19 pm

Stronger yes

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

You don't?

Me - 7:35:19 pm

I can't work any harder at the gym

Me - 7:35:19 pm

And I love running

Me - 7:35:19 pm

It's slow. Not enough testosterone probably. Need a dealer haha

Me - 7:35:19 pm

What time you coming tomorrow?

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

1030

Me - 7:35:19 pm

And, what time are you dropping the kids off on Friday?

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

The kids are being picked up around 1030

Me - 7:35:19 pm

So you have until 3pm?

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

I'm supposed to see tom around 1 for nutrition help

Me - 7:35:19 pm

Tom?

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

What's not enough testosterone? Running?

Me - 7:35:19 pm

Reduces as you age. Normal.

Me - 7:35:19 pm

What are you doing after 10:30 and before work?

Me - 7:35:19 pm

Friday

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

Training

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

That's all I do

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

Oh and seeing tom

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

I think

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

I haven't confirmed

Me - 7:35:19 pm

Who's tom?

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

He's the pretty boy who gave me the protein powder

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

Said he would write me a meal plan

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

Prob just being nice

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

I can have all the plans in the world

Diana - 7:35:19 pm

They won't work if I don't stick to them though ::

Me - 8:10:49 pm

I was hoping to spend friday with you but I've got a client at 11:30am and then eye appointment at 2pm. Scheduling issues. Damn.

Diana - 8:18:24 pm

I can still do your program

Diana - 8:18:24 pm

I should be able to get through it without you ;)

Diana - 8:18:24 pm

Maybe

Diana - 8:18:24 pm

Only heavy on squats right?

Me - 8:18:24 pm

That's not what I meant!!

Me - 8:18:24 pm

Not gym stuff

Diana - 8:18:24 pm

Running?

Diana - 8:18:24 pm

What's wrong with your eyes?

Diana - 8:18:24 pm

I found a yoga course that starts in October in frankston

Diana - 8:18:24 pm

May be personal loan app time...

Diana - 8:18:24 pm

I don't want to get into debt but you have to spend money to make money right

Me - 8:22:44 pm

1. Not even running. Just not texting

2. I have horrible eyes. Can hardly see. Contacts, glasses.

3. Local is good

4. Tough call. Want to see return on investment.

Me - 8:22:44 pm

What are your Saturday plans?

Diana - 8:32:29 pm

We are running aren't we?

Diana - 8:32:29 pm

Saturday is training whatever we do

Diana - 8:32:29 pm

We can stop texting if you like?

Diana - 8:32:29 pm

It's possibly a tad obsessive

Diana - 8:32:29 pm

Bad eyes is no good :(

Diana - 8:32:29 pm

Return on investment for sure. Ahh decisions

Me - 8:43:08 pm

Texting isn't obsessive. Texting and nothing else is. Running is good for Saturday. Wherever fits in.

Diana - 8:43:08 pm

Do you have clients?

Diana - 8:43:08 pm

Texting is really all I have to stay in contact with the outside world a lot of the time

Diana - 8:43:08 pm

I'm free, I have to be at work by 330

Diana - 8:43:08 pm

And I'm an early riser so that's heaps of time

Diana - 8:43:08 pm

If I don't mean tom on Friday on going to train all fucking day

Diana - 8:43:08 pm

I need it

Me - 8:46:30 pm

Cool. Block out the time. Let's do this. Running, massage praccy. Eating (if you want, I probably won't want haha).

Me - 8:46:30 pm

No clients Saturday. Dedicated to you and my mother

Me - 8:46:30 pm

I moved the one I had

Diana - 8:46:30 pm

Maybe I'll finally get to 18% body fat if I hang with you

Diana - 8:46:30 pm

What time was she?

Me - 8:46:30 pm

Mid morning

Diana - 8:46:30 pm

Have you already moved her?

Diana - 8:46:30 pm

I'm happy to train in the gym while you do that

Diana - 8:46:30 pm

Then we can go

Diana - 8:46:30 pm

I can go straight to work from run and shower there

Me - 8:46:30 pm

Yes! I've moved her. I want to spend the day with you! Ok? Then go and visit my mother when you go to work.

Me - 8:46:30 pm

Do I have to spell it out? ;)

Diana - 8:46:30 pm

Ok ok

Diana - 8:46:30 pm

Most likely yes

Diana - 8:46:30 pm

I'm fairly stupid

Me - 8:46:30 pm

It would embarrass you, probably

Me - 8:46:30 pm

And you wouldn't believe me

Me - 8:46:30 pm

;-)

Diana - 8:46:30 pm

Now you're scaring me. You want to hang with me cause it helps you realise life isn't so bad after all ;)

Me - 8:52:57 pm

Ha! Can't win can I? You forget I've played these games with others before. Not your ordinary guy haha

Diana - 8:52:57 pm

I don't know what you mean

Diana - 8:52:57 pm

I think texting is confusing us

Diana - 8:52:57 pm

My friends have just gone

Diana - 8:52:57 pm

And I ate bbq shapes. Obviously I need to leave society to reach my goals

Diana - 8:52:57 pm

I just took a test, says I'm going to die at 83

Diana - 8:52:57 pm

It was on fb so must be real

Me - 8:52:57 pm

Bundle of joy haha

Me - 8:52:57 pm

Maybe get a long sleep? Big day tomorrow.

Me - 8:52:57 pm

But happy to keep talking if you wish. Check out functionalpatterns if you're not doing anything

Diana - 8:52:57 pm

Yes I forgot

Diana - 8:52:57 pm

I will

Diana - 8:52:57 pm

Better than fb

Diana - 8:52:57 pm

I'll sleep soon coach

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

He's rowing on a ball

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

I'm totally trying that tomorrow

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

Boxing on a ball!

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

I'm gonna freak the whole gym out tomorrow :)

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

It'll go viral!

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

Ie. Me face planting

Me - 8:59:12 pm

Ha. Probably. Even kneeling on the ball is hard

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

Notice how I didn't read a thing and went to the pics?

Me - 9:01:28 pm

The video is all you need. Just wanted to show you

Diana - 9:01:28 pm

I used to rhys boxing class each Sunday and combat but it really bothered my shoulder :(

Diana - 9:01:28 pm

I liked it though

Diana - 9:01:28 pm

It's pretty insane

Diana - 9:01:28 pm

We should do this stuff

Diana - 9:01:28 pm

Just practice

Diana - 9:01:28 pm

Right?

Me - 9:01:28 pm

Exactly!

Me - 9:01:28 pm

I already do a few things

Diana - 9:01:28 pm

Bit of balance and lots of pre workout ;)

Me - 9:01:28 pm

They're tough

Diana - 9:01:28 pm

I'm kidding

Diana - 9:01:28 pm

Of course they're tough

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

We need to get on the cable machines

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

My friend was selling trx I should have got those

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

They were only $60

Me - 9:11:22 pm

I used to. Doing the twirly ones

Me - 9:11:22 pm

I've got a TRX

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

Why don't you use it with your training?

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Haha. You're probably the only one it would benefit.

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Others just need simple stuff

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Moving, with weights, is plenty

Me - 9:11:22 pm

But it's cool

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

Now you're just trying to make up for calling me weak before ;)

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

There's heaps of cool stuff to try

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

Around midday when no one else is around ;)

Me - 9:11:22 pm

You're the only one functionaly strong. Others just lunges are tough enough. Or squats. Or deadlifts

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Probably my problem. Need to attract attention instead of giving people what thy really need haha

Me - 9:11:22 pm

I've used TRX at home a bit.

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

I don't even know what functionally strong means

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Got a chin up bar too

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

They're not fond of crossfit are they

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Nope

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Like me

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Not most of the famous coaches

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Nor

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

I've got a chin up bar on my bedroom doorway I have to do one every time I walk in there

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Toilet stop at 2am included? Haha

Me - 9:11:22 pm

We need to get your body in balance.

Me - 9:11:22 pm

But fixed first

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

No toilet stops included

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

It looks interesting this stuff

Me - 9:11:22 pm

More fun than wows

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

But my short attention span has already made a Segway

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Let's do it over the coming weeks

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

You said to do the ffs!!!

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

Argh!!!

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

We should have done the transformation

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

We could have done all the cool stuff and sculpted my fat arse

Me - 9:11:22 pm

I know I said it. It's better than transformation. Waste if money

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Of

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

Of course I'd need some kind of help to stop eating BBQ shapes!

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Just training is all you need

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

No it's not, not to me.

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

Transformation is self against self to feel better

Me - 9:11:22 pm

I'm here to help, if you'd let me

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

That's no waste of time

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Why do you need to pay $100's to a corporate entity to do that?

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Not if you've got a trainer

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

Well I didn't have a trainer

Me - 9:11:22 pm

If you want we can do what I do with other clients

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

I was coming in just doing what I felt like

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

What do you do with the others???????

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

Sheesh I'm getting ripped off ;)

Me - 9:11:22 pm

The ones that need to lose serious weight

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

Well that's me!

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

I'm really tired of not being taking seriously when I say I need to lose weight! People have actually started laughing at me!

Me - 9:11:22 pm

I take you seriously!

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

No you don't.

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Ok. I really will now. Not that I wasn't.

Me - 9:11:22 pm

What I do with others is

Me - 9:11:22 pm

They email every day everything they eat. Absolutely everything and we discuss what's necessary and what's not.

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Over time they understand they need to reduce portion size. That's it

Me - 9:11:22 pm

And scales are not scary. They're just indicators of the success or otherwise of the last week. Go up, no probs. We just need to do better next week and don't stress about it

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Takes a month or two before they understand, they're frustrated to begin with but I just cajole them along. Eventually, they have all started to lose weight. Only little bits buir it's a start

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

That would be rather confronting emailing food

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

Especially to you whom eats nil

Me - 9:11:22 pm

Small steps

Me - 9:11:22 pm

It is confronting.

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

Oh! I've been stuck between 56-58 forever

Me - 9:11:22 pm

I don't tell them what I eat. That's only you

Me - 9:11:22 pm

18 months right?

Me - 9:11:22 pm

The emails a aren't really to me, but to themselves

Diana - 9:11:22 pm

18 months of what?

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Since Michelle bridges right?

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Before Michelle bridges

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

November last year

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Nearly a year

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

I've been training at the gym since March

Me - 9:31:13 pm

I can help you help yourself if you'll let me. It gets a bit private, I guess. But that's a trust thing

Me - 9:31:13 pm

You probably know too much about me now.

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Don't take me seriously haha

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

I don't know anything really until I read the book

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

And you know just as much about me

Me - 9:31:13 pm

I know.

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

I don't have any photos of you in your undies on my phone :p

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Haha

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

So starting tomorrow I just email my food?

Me - 9:31:13 pm

I'd forget

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Everything I eat?

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

You'd want to forget

Me - 9:31:13 pm

I really should check those eh?

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Good reference

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Delete them

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Let's talk tomorrow about seriously losing some weight. But little steps over a longer timeframe.

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Didn't I already say I want to see you with a 6 pack?

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Yes, but I'm pretty sure it was in the context of dan Murphy's

Me - 9:31:13 pm

It's doable. Even with a little wine

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Sometimes

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

This week has been unusual

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Once I start yoga seriously that'll have a big impact

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Why? Why not now?

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

No reason

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Good reason haha

Me - 9:31:13 pm

I want to help you.

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Ok, I'll start emailing my food. Anything else?

Me - 9:31:13 pm

We can do what the others do, if it will help

Me - 9:31:13 pm

You've got the app right?

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

God now I'll be texting and emailing!

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Myfitnesspal?

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Yep

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Yep

Me - 9:31:13 pm

The others don't know how to scan for calories

Me - 9:31:13 pm

You do

Me - 9:31:13 pm

We can work around those. And just see what the scales say. That's the only real measure

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Body fat is isn't it?

Me - 9:31:13 pm

I mean 1300 may be too few for you.

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Yep, but you won't put on much muscle

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Cause I'm weak?

Me - 9:31:13 pm

So weight should go down

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

1400?

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Because you'll be losing bidy fat.

Me - 9:31:13 pm

We don't really know the calories

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Only the scales tell us how much to eat

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Goes up, to much. Goes down, too little

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

So where do I start?

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Now. Why not

Me - 9:31:13 pm

I mean tomorrow

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Calorie wise I mean

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Tomorrow?

Me - 9:31:13 pm

It's only a rough estimate. It's not exact science but stick to similar meals and amounts and we'll know what's working Ina few weeks or so

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Weigh yourself each morning S soon as you get up and have been to the bathroom

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Ok so between 1300-1400

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Then NEVER again, that day!!!

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Myfitnesspal measured

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Weight varies by more than 2kg during the day

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Yep. That's a good starting point

Me - 9:31:13 pm

But slow steps

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

I bought seriously skim almond milk so coffee is now down to 40 calories a cup instead of 100

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Big win!!

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Don't want you too hungry

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

No, I get grumpy and blind

Me - 9:31:13 pm

That may be enough

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Don't do everything in a week!

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

And it's your job to choose a route for the weekend ;)

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Your kids are grown up ;)

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Foods you like. And let's measure over the next few weeks. As I said, the scales are the meSure

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Ok.

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Lysterfield, the dandenongs, fire trail, 1000 steps

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

I eat foods I like

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

I'm lucky I like healthy food

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

I just binge at night

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

That's the only time

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

It sucks

Me - 9:31:13 pm

You might have to navigate first time. 1000 steps?

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

I've done it, it's fun

Me - 9:31:13 pm

You binge while texting me?

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

No

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

http://www.dandenongrangespoint.com.au/1000-steps/

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

But I can't rely on you to stop me

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Don't make me come over after your kids are asleep to lock the fridge! Haha

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

I need to deal

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Hahaha!

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Exactly, you've got to figure out what is sustainable

Me - 9:31:13 pm

It will take time

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Patience

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Ok I'm going to go to bed. Tired is another trigger to eat too much

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Pffft

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Patience

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

I'm running out of time!

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Ok see you tomorrow.

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Yep 1030 ish

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Effin wow

Me - 9:31:13 pm

Okely dokely

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

I'm going to get drugs on the way

Me - 9:31:13 pm

I've got workout

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

And take pre workout

Me - 9:31:13 pm

You mean real?

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

Not your sons shit

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

I mean nurofen plus

Diana - 9:31:13 pm

I've got my own pre workout though I need to order more soon

**Wednesday 24 September**

Diana - 12:27:12 pm

I'm sorry for being so grumpy this morning, it's a bad head day

Diana - 12:29:20 pm

No excuse for being rude.

Diana - 12:29:20 pm

Anyway hope the course goes well

Me - 2:48:30 pm

No problems. Understood!

Me - 2:53:49 pm

Getting old. My eye appointment is tomorrow not Friday. If you want to something at or away from the gym I'm finished a bit after 12.

Me - 2:53:49 pm

On Friday I mean

Me - 2:53:49 pm

A run, a paddle, a massage, etc etc

Diana - 2:53:49 pm

Are we running Saturday still?

Me - 2:53:49 pm

Yes, if you want

Me - 2:53:49 pm

Saturday morning probably

Me - 2:53:49 pm

You've got work

Me - 2:53:49 pm

Need to recover haha

Me - 2:53:49 pm

No stress if not though. I probably need to research functional training for someone haha

Diana - 2:53:49 pm

I want to go Saturday, it's going to be a nice day

Diana - 2:53:49 pm

Just not sure what time I can get to the gym Friday at this stage

Diana - 2:53:49 pm

Might not be until later in the day

Diana - 2:53:49 pm

I don't want a massage, I want to practice military presses

Me - 3:00:40 pm

Then use dumbells. Not the bar

Diana - 3:00:40 pm

The kids are not getting picked up until about 11 on Friday and I have an app at 130 before work. I haven't heard from tom so I'll leave that for another time

Diana - 3:00:40 pm

Yep I will

Me - 3:00:40 pm

Not more bb military presses

Me - 3:00:40 pm

Ok. Leave it for Saturday. Too easy. Friday sounds complex. (Or just normal haha)

Diana - 3:00:40 pm

Not until the shoulder gets stronger then I'll do it

Me - 3:00:40 pm

Meeting...

Diana - 3:00:40 pm

Yea things are tricking with school holidays

Diana - 3:00:40 pm

Good luck

Me - 3:41:47 pm

Massage is happening. Yay. A couple of weeks or so. I'll have to organize a few bodies to practice. It's not the massaging, it's just getting the draping perfect. After a hard, long run is good! (Hint) 😬

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

The draping?

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

That is great, seriously offer them during kids fit

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

I was going to go back to the gym today but I'm on the couch grumpy watching scooby Doo instead

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Kids fit is a great idea!

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Draping...

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Making sure nothing is seen at any time haha

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Or exposed

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Draping? I don't know what that is

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Oh!

Me - 3:47:44 pm

It's tricky

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Needs practice

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

I thought you were talking about after the run

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Massage after the run. Yes

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Get a blow up doll?

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Give her a name

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Could be lots of fun ;)

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Hard to get feedback haha

Me - 3:47:44 pm

And it's not about the masseur's pleasure it's about the clients pleasure.

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Best not, you may get a slap if you don't drape properly

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Hence the practice required

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Right, in which case a lost drape would be ok

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Yes even my Chinese doctor made that mistake last week :/

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

With a load of pins in your head it's not much fun

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Scooby Doo is ok. Sponge bob is better hahaa

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

My kids have never got into it thankfully

Me - 3:47:44 pm

It's awesome! Haha

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Draping for Chinese stuff? Don't understand

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Acupuncture and cups all over kidneys and other body parts

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

It's quite excruciating

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Ok. Painful.

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Does it work?

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Or just feel better after. Like normal again

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Haha

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Well my sinus are improving but it's not overnight and it's expensive

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Very expensive

Me - 3:47:44 pm

How much?

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

But I don't want more surgery so I'm giving it a try

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Joel wants to go to kids fit

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

I can't get off the couch

Me - 3:47:44 pm

I can't breath either

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Stay there

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Sponge Bob movie!!

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

I've had two scrapes there's not much skull left in my face the idea of more surgery frightens me

Me - 3:47:44 pm

I think I've still got it recorded. Might watch it later haha Nostalgia

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Sponge bob sucks

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Get over it ;)

Me - 3:47:44 pm

I had scrapes as a kid

Me - 3:47:44 pm

No anasthetic

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Still remember it

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Shudder

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Argh! Ate you serious? In your head? Sinus?

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Still can't breath

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

My last one was 4 hours :(

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Straight home to look after kids

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

It nearly killed me!

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Spoken to some surgeons at golf, and they shake their head when I say that. Haha. 1960's torture medicine haha

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

I can't breath well either, that's why scuba diving is good, have to breath through your mouth

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Yes that's the shit nightmares are made of!

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

No anaesthetic! Insane

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Yep! Still have em

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

I'm going to make more coffee. It probably makes me grumpier but it works while it's going down

Me - 3:47:44 pm

BIG scar on the leg. 4 years old. Ripped open at kindy. Stitches and... No anasthetic

Me - 3:47:44 pm

More nightmares

Me - 3:47:44 pm

I'll show you. It goes all the way across

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Oh dear.

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

That's hideous

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

The scar I'm sure is cool

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Yeah, scars are coooool

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Still, try having a baby ;)

Me - 3:47:44 pm

In soMe places haha

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

2 in one year even

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Yeah. Caesar?

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

No both natural

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Well with certain drugs!

Me - 3:47:44 pm

My daughter was emergency Caesar

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Ripped out

Me - 3:47:44 pm

I was the first one to hold her

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Bond haha

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

You ripped her out?

Me - 3:47:44 pm

No.

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

I hated that the midwife was the first person to touch my kids

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Hated it

Me - 3:47:44 pm

Handed her to me, so they could look after my wife

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

I almost reached over and got Joel but couldn't quite make it

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

I'm glad everything worked out, I am sure it was scary

Me - 4:05:01 pm

She was face presentation. Both would have died in old days. Funny, she slept like that for years. Face looking up

Me - 4:05:01 pm

What time is kids fit? Which days?

Me - 4:05:01 pm

I guess I could look it up

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

Imogen turned half way through the birth, that's hideously painful

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

We would have died too

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

Just from blood loss alone Id say

Me - 4:05:01 pm

Yeah

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

Monday's and Wednesdays

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

That works for you

Me - 4:05:01 pm

Time?

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

Then you still get Tuesday and Thursday off

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

4-5 I think

Me - 4:05:01 pm

Need to work

Me - 4:05:01 pm

More

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

I've only been once

Me - 4:05:01 pm

Paid I mean

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

I know but it's a good start

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

Get the ball rolling with mums

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

Advertise saying kids free in kids fit

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

Perfect for mums and you

Me - 4:05:01 pm

Good idea

Me - 4:05:01 pm

Maybe a marketing job for you next year haha

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

Your daughter's arty get her to do you some flyers

Me - 4:05:01 pm

Too busy. You're kidding

Me - 4:05:01 pm

Exams

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

I'm good at ideas, not much else

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

Oh they only take a few minutes

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

She'd be quick

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

A pretty picture and a good don't

Me - 4:05:01 pm

Can you design a poster for me?

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

Font

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

Use your logo

Diana - 4:05:01 pm

Keep it simple

Me - 4:09:08 pm

I need an A1 size.

Me - 4:09:08 pm

I'd pay you

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Has to be good

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Haha

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

I'm no good at graphic design

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Me neither

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

I used to be in charge of the graphics at work

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

Not doing them but criticising them

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

Perfect Job

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

We can have a play

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

Come up with something maybe

Me - 4:09:08 pm

You need to tell me what you do at work. I have no idea. Not texts though.

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

Cards are the way to go

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Playing??

Me - 4:09:08 pm

HHa

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

People like to have soenthing to keep

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

Especially when it looks good

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

That's the key

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Your help would be awesome.

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Time will be an issue

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Your time I mean

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Maybe multi task. You can help design, while I masaage you. Haha

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

Oh god I got to cook Joel some dinner

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

I hate cooking

Me - 4:09:08 pm

I like it, if it's appreciated

Me - 4:09:08 pm

And not in a hurry

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Like we did the other day

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Although that was easy

Me - 4:09:08 pm

And stodgy

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Curries are cool

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Go cook dinner. We'll talk later

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

She doesn't eat curry

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

Going through that annoying stage

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

Imogen's gone to dinner with her dad

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

Which makes it slightly easier

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

Coffee will spark my thoughts

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Imagine life without coffee? No, me neither

Diana - 4:09:08 pm

We'd prob feel great

Me - 4:09:08 pm

HHaha. But getting there would be hell.

Me - 4:43:12 pm

This is cool. Have a read. http://bretcontreras.com/ten-worst-types-personal-trainers/

Me - 4:43:12 pm

Hopefully, I'm none of them Haha

Me - 4:43:12 pm

Although I can see bits of me in all

Diana - 4:46:21 pm

Not more bits of you in a couple ?

Me - 4:46:21 pm

:-)

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Well I'm not taking the bait

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Though it's tempting ;)

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

The yoga is frankston starts in October. That's very soon

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Humph

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

I'm too tired for decisions.

Me - 4:49:36 pm

$'s?

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Oh yes

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

There's that too

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Big decision? Right?

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Yes

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

It's sooner than I was thinking

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Can you wait until after Saturday?

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Good long run topic

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

You think I'm going to be able to talk and run???

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Ha!

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Yep. Heart rate monitor

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

I need to do a class at each place

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Sunday morning first

Me - 4:49:36 pm

If course. Plenty if time

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Of

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

You should start massaging at your house

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

You could make it really nice with the lake out the front

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Is the Sunday morning one for advanced people?

Me - 4:49:36 pm

I need advice

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Then you could claim your rent etc

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Woman's touch haha

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Or mortgage or whatever

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Rent

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Yes it needs to look better

Me - 4:49:36 pm

I have no idea

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

But wouldn't take much

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Then, help me?

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Sunday morning is beginners

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Then 1/2 hour chant meditation I think

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

I need a yoga mat

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Could I come? Or is that too "intrusive"? I've been meaning to try yoga, and can't to 11 Thursday

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Just buy a few Buddhas and incense from the $2 shop ;)

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Could you come next time? I think I need no distractions to see whether the energy feels right and if I want to study there

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Ok

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

That's not rude is it?

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Nope

Me - 4:49:36 pm

haha

Me - 4:49:36 pm

I would be in the way

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Not in the way

Me - 4:49:36 pm

But that's just me all the time

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Annoying

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Just harder for me to gage whether I want to spend 5k there

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

If I was a normal person I'd want the support

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Support and space! I can support you from here haha

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Far enough? ;)

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

You're offended?

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Not at all!!!! Joking.

Me - 4:49:36 pm

But

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Be nice to get passed the "space" stuff at some stage.. ;)

Me - 4:49:36 pm

No stress

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Can I go without dinner and just drink wine?

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

The space stuff!

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Haha

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

It's how I live

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Weren't you like this when home with young kids

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Unfortunately, exactly!!!

Me - 4:49:36 pm

Last thing I wanted was someone of the opposite sex bugging me.

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

There you go. It needs to be that way to survive. Anyone entering my space frightens me like I can't breathe

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Short term stuff, was sort of ok. But I allways got annoyed with the intrusion. Sigh!

Me - 5:02:32 pm

I know where you're at

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Never lasted

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Which was a good thing

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

They take everything, the kids

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

And that's how it supposed to be

Me - 5:02:32 pm

But

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

I can't get my head around anything else

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

It's survival mode

Me - 5:02:32 pm

You do need to grab a little bit back

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

And I'm ok with it

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

Comfortable with it

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Can be an excuse, sometimes

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

Even like it

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Not to get close again

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Makes it easier to handle

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Being alone, I mean

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

Have you been alone since your kids were my kids age?

Me - 5:02:32 pm

From 5 yo and 3yo to 10 yo and 8 yo. 5 years.

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

Yeah I reckon my kids will be about that age before I'm ready

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Then "alone" but married haha

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Yeah, I know. Timing! Haha

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

Alone but married? I don't get it did you remarry?

Me - 5:02:32 pm

No same woman

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

Oh that's right

Me - 5:02:32 pm

She asked me back

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

Maybe that'll happen again :)

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

I don't wanna go back ever!

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Not a chance!!!

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Things were done and said

Me - 5:02:32 pm

By her

Me - 5:02:32 pm

She was right though

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Best option

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Kids say we're both happier

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

That's a good thing then

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

Haven't you been with anyone else since though?

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Maybe you don't have to wait 5 years. Long time

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

I'm happy to wait

Me - 5:02:32 pm

No one else. Turned off women haha

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Burnt too many times

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

I've been alone since Joel was 3 months, I had one long Termish relationship since then, we are still friends but it just didn't work out

Me - 5:02:32 pm

I couldn't imagine living with someone again. Even if I loved them. Need alone time

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

That's kind of 18 months on and off

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

Yes that's how a lot of people feel I think

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

I would want to when the time is right

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Don't you?

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

In 5 years ;)

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Sigh!

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Haha

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

Don't go wigging me out

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

I'll have to do a runner

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

I'm really good at those

Me - 5:02:32 pm

Wigging?

Diana - 5:02:32 pm

Too good

Me - 5:10:56 pm

Wigging???

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

Haha! Freaking

Me - 5:10:56 pm

English

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

You need an urban dictionary

Me - 5:10:56 pm

Oh

Me - 5:10:56 pm

No chance. I fall for people really easily. Unfortunately. But then fall our really easily. So... I'd probably out run you

Me - 5:10:56 pm

Out

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

Ok

Me - 5:15:18 pm

Don't stress out. It's all good! ;)

Diana - 5:18:02 pm

Too much texting? It's easy for me to do cause I don't get out much but I can see it's not necessarily a good thing

Diana - 5:20:27 pm

I feel like I've fucked this up too.

Diana - 5:20:27 pm

Glass of wine

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Agree. But it's the only option, right? I think it's cool, learning about someone new. I mean learning intimate stuff. In person, it would be too hard but with texts we probably say too much, because we're only talking to the phone.

Diana - 5:20:27 pm

Should I bother emailing my food?

Diana - 5:20:27 pm

Yea so it's tricky

Diana - 5:20:27 pm

Saying stuff we normally wouldn't right

Me - 5:20:27 pm

I know you don't believe me, but do. I think you're the coolest woman I've met in a long time. But then, I like complex! Bane of me existance haha

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Source of all my problems gaha

Diana - 5:20:27 pm

It's just cause you don't go out enough

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Failed relationship city haha

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Nope

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Not many like you

Me - 5:20:27 pm

I've been out

Diana - 5:20:27 pm

Are you serious? You were married for years.

Diana - 5:20:27 pm

I'm the queen of not even staying in relationships! Just over 2 years is my longest!

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Still met people. Talked with them. Not a hermit

Diana - 5:20:27 pm

So you see I'm made for being alone

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Unless with someone who also likes to be alone? Haha

Me - 5:20:27 pm

There I go

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Wouldn't say that in person

Me - 5:20:27 pm

This is getting a bit embarrassing

Diana - 5:20:27 pm

It is!

Me - 5:20:27 pm

I'm saying too much

Diana - 5:20:27 pm

And you haven't thought it through

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Also my problem haha

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Impulsive scientist

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Not possible

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Haha

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Silence is good too

Diana - 5:20:27 pm

I'm 20 years younger with very young children, no time and not much to offer. You want a short affair to get it out of your system which is fine, but in my world I think why bother? It'll be 2 months of confusion and emotion and then back to homeostasis

Diana - 5:20:27 pm

See, I'm really quite sad.

Me - 5:27:53 pm

I can see why you think that. Not true. Not interested in short term. But, I guess, most men are. Let's leave it. Happy to continue as "buddies"

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

And 2 months is a stretch I know!

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

But seriously

Me - 5:27:53 pm

2 months = 3 days haha

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

That's right

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Yeah go back to yelling at me at the gym

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Confusion. Emotion. Haha of course! What else? That's true all the time. Even the good ones haha

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

No listening to radiohead tonight either ;)

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Yeah, but you yell back

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Sorry

Me - 5:27:53 pm

I'm still interested, and you can't criticize. It's like criticizing someone's choice of music or art. I don't like easy, that's why I used to be a scientist I guess. Easy is boring.

Me - 5:27:53 pm

But I'm not in any hurry. Not for anything. Cool to carry on, on my own

Me - 5:27:53 pm

That's enough...

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Silence time.

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

I've got a bar here practicing military presses

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Check that link I sent you. It's cool

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

My silence

Me - 5:27:53 pm

No bar!!

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Ok have some silence

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

You at the gym tomorrow?

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Shoulder sore?

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Yep, morning

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Yes, it's sore but not as bad as I thought it would be

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Good

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Then I still have codeine in my body which is prob why I'm grumpy

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Big rest before overhead again

Me - 5:27:53 pm

And slowly

Me - 5:27:53 pm

And low weights

Me - 5:27:53 pm

And dumbells

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Maybe even bands

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Yea captain ;)

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Did you read the part about functional trainers ;)

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Yeah?

Me - 5:27:53 pm

But I do deadlifts remember?

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

It's in the top 10 ;)

Me - 5:27:53 pm

I want you to book Tina.

Me - 5:27:53 pm

And, maybe, I come along too

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

I have no money. I want to sort out yoga first. Then I'll think about those things.

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

It's fine for now

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Ok

Me - 5:27:53 pm

-ish

Me - 5:27:53 pm

You in tomorrow?

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Yep Imogen is booked in for 1030 session

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Should I run on treadmill and then yoga?

Me - 5:27:53 pm

I'll see you then. I have an 11am and that's all. We won't be embarrassed will we? After tonight's "talk" haha

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

no arms right?

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Avoid eye contact haha

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

I don't think so

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Will you?

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Not at all!

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Ok cool

Me - 5:27:53 pm

I don't do embarrassment

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

I may be a little angry

Me - 5:27:53 pm

I wrote a book about that haha

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

That's how I respond to things

Me - 5:27:53 pm

I do depression

Me - 5:27:53 pm

And callousness

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Depression is anger turned inwards

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Not malicious

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

I lash out

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Callous isn't malicious?

Me - 5:27:53 pm

I just ignore people because I have truly out them out of my mind. Don't even know I'm doing it Sigh!

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Sad really

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Ok well I know what to expect tomorrow

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Haha

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Beauty is I don't mind being ignored

Me - 5:27:53 pm

I know!

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Well tomorrow should be fine :)

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Of course. Just don't be grumpy with me every day we train. Haha

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Remember, I assume your emotions

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Grumpy rebounded haha

Diana - 5:27:53 pm

Good then I won't feel bad for being grumpy

Me - 5:42:48 pm

Haha

Diana - 5:42:48 pm

I can just run on the treadmill then do yoga

Diana - 5:42:48 pm

Problem solved

Me - 5:43:07 pm

I'll be there. I'll come and yell at you haha

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Avoiding eye contact

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

I'm angry cause you weren't supposed to want more than being my trainer

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

And my training buddy

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Sorry

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

It's ok

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

It's my texting that did it

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

I should know better

Me - 5:43:07 pm

I replied!

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

It's lonely so texting is too easy

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Yeah

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Humph well I'm lost for words now

Me - 5:43:07 pm

You still ok to run? And massage?

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Ok if not

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Run for sure

Me - 5:43:07 pm

I'd like to

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

I don't want massages

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

I'm emotional and touch will make me cry. That's why I stay staunch

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

I just need time to process

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

And lift heavy again ;)

Me - 5:43:07 pm

No probs

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Not about this, just mum and stuff

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Sure

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Life where to next etc etx

Me - 5:43:07 pm

She ok? You going up next week?

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Kids at school next year I have to sort shit out

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Taking up a lot of my head space

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

No, I told her I can't

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

And I can't

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Sorry I got in there. My bad

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

It's ok

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

I like talking to you

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Not your fault at all

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Let's go back to coach/athlete

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

My lack of boundaries s

Me - 5:43:07 pm

And my choices in women haha

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Coach /fat middled aged women

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Bad mix

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Woman

Me - 5:43:07 pm

No. Generic type. You're not that unique

Me - 5:43:07 pm

I've met a few like you

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Fell for all of them Sigh!

Me - 5:43:07 pm

All failed in the end

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Oh gee thanks

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Still in love with one if them. Kate, in the book

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Long time ago

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Shit. Enough!!

Me - 5:43:07 pm

I need weights every day

Me - 5:43:07 pm

And food diary

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Every day

Me - 5:43:07 pm

I need guilt city happening

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

You're still in love with kate?

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

A few like me, well now I'm generic i don't feel so bad

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Well, 28 yo Kate! Yes. Aren't you still on love with that guy? As he was, I mean.

Me - 5:43:07 pm

You need to get out more

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Haha

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Lots of complex people

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Or maybe I attract them

Me - 5:43:07 pm

;)

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

I do need to get out more

Me - 5:43:07 pm

No time

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

I'm not still in love with him

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

But I love him and miss him

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Yeah

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Exactly what I mean

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Don't want to meet tem again. Even if possible

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

You're telling me I'm not special cause you're being callous

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Words

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

And it doesn't even bother me so there

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Twisted

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Cool

Me - 5:43:07 pm

I should write that down

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Not callous yet

Me - 5:43:07 pm

That takes a failed relationship

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Ok well it's good we aren't going there

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

The gym is my sanctuary

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

I don't want callousness there

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Not from me

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Callous is probably too harsh

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Being nice but forgotten

Me - 5:43:07 pm

I don't know

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

The shunt

Me - 5:43:07 pm

No that means you mean it

Me - 5:43:07 pm

I still like people, even when they've shafted me.

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Hard to explain.

Me - 5:43:07 pm

And not by text

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Wow we are discussing the bad end to a relationship that didn't even happen

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

We are fucked up

Me - 5:43:07 pm

And that was in the past. Don't was I the past

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Haha

Me - 5:43:07 pm

I always start with the worst case scenario!

Me - 5:43:07 pm

That's where depression comes in hahaha

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Odd, I know

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

I do too, that's why I don't go there in the first place

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Avoidance. Know all about that.

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

It could be avoidance

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Or just smart

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Safe too

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Especially when you need your energy for little people yeah!

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Like self preservation

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

If you want to raise the best little people you can

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Like its a responsible life duty

Diana - 5:43:07 pm

Not that Joel will think that when he eats my cooking ;)

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Haha

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Just being fed is good

Me - 5:43:07 pm

We can still do stuff right? Hang out a bit every 2 weeks? When there's no kids and your alone time has been replenished. That's enough for me. Probably more than enough

Me - 5:43:07 pm

I've got books to write

Diana - 6:04:07 pm

Yes that would be good

Diana - 6:04:07 pm

You still want to train me?

Diana - 6:04:07 pm

I'm happy to pull out of the wows

Diana - 6:04:07 pm

If not

Diana - 6:04:07 pm

I'm depressed as hell about them

Diana - 6:04:07 pm

More than enough hey?

Diana - 6:04:07 pm

Especially with someone as common as me ;)

Me - 6:07:56 pm

1. Love to train you. It's a pleasure.

2. Wows. Your choice. I'd stick with them though. Finish what you started.

3. Common? Spell check error, right? Complex. ;)

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

I'm taking the piss out of you saying you've met many like me

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

Many complex

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

Anyway

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

Training is a go

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

I'll email my food soon

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

This time don't say I'll look at it later and never get back to me about it!

Me - 6:07:56 pm

Or text a note

Me - 6:07:56 pm

When did I do that?

Me - 6:07:56 pm

Email is better

Me - 6:07:56 pm

Text would be lost in our incessant conversations. Haha

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

The first time I emailed my food

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

Ok email it is

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

Argh let the shaming begin

Me - 6:07:56 pm

It works

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

I bet!

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

Now go write

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

I'll need another book soon

Me - 6:07:56 pm

Years away

Me - 6:07:56 pm

I'll finish my books and then you might be "ready" haha. Sorry.

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

Just make it a picture book ;)

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

Ha!

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

I'll start the one with kate

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

I'm a slimmer though

Diana - 6:18:05 pm

Skimmer

Diana - 7:49:52 pm

Everything is ok right?

Diana - 7:49:52 pm

It's just silent time

Me - 7:53:40 pm

Haha. Yep all fine. I've picked up a client with cerebral palsy. Tough ask. Lots of research and I need to invent exercises haha That's what I've been doing tonight. Still need to workout about 10 functional training circuits for us, there's that too. And I've got my intermittent client on Friday who really needs knee replacement. So much work and research for almost no money. Sigh! Lucky I like helping people haha

Diana - 7:53:40 pm

I might have to do out of the shopping trolley under a bridge though haha

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

We have a shed ;)

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Is that the guy I was talking to today?

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Were you? Yes, today

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Yes he stopped and talked to me

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Fucking pre workout

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

He seemed nice, needy but nice

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Anyway I'll leave you to your work

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

I'm going to watch the bachelor half drunk after one glass of wine

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Yep, such is life

Me - 7:57:20 pm

He was cool

Me - 7:57:20 pm

He saw me doing my single leg stuff

Me - 7:57:20 pm

And was impressed haha

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Yea he asked me about yoga

Me - 7:57:20 pm

We did a few exercises together

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

After my pathetic attempt at downward dog

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

That's cool

Me - 7:57:20 pm

He has a really strong core

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Him and the fat couple are the most important people at the gym

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

You should get onto them

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

I talk to them a bit

Me - 7:57:20 pm

I think he was trying to impress me

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Oh

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Well he's bound to come with some issues I guess

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

I hope you played :)

Me - 7:57:20 pm

All other trainers couldn't do his core stuff

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Unfortunately, I could haha

Me - 7:57:20 pm

I think he liked that

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Yea you were impressive with the ball and weight

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Let's pretend i never said that ;)

Me - 7:57:20 pm

The fat couple are too odd

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

I like them

Me - 7:57:20 pm

And they do wheelbarrows

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Worst. Exercise. Ever.

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

They're just forced into intense codependency Because of their weight

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

I don't even know what they are

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

It's seriously raining

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Maybe they need to email me haha

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Ha!

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Yep,here too

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Can you forward them to me, that'd be a good read

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Oh my god we are being horrible

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

And I'm the worst foodie ever

Me - 7:57:20 pm

They don't seem to be achieving results rh?

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Eh?

Me - 7:57:20 pm

If they WANT to lose weight

Me - 7:57:20 pm

That is

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Not really. You should approach them maybe

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

It's not that easy, not when you're addicted

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Funnily enough most of my long term friends and family are seriously obese

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

It's very hard

Me - 7:57:20 pm

The tight pants though!! Haha

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Filling the hole with food

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

We all fill it with something

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Yea I still won't wear certain tights I have cause I'm too fat

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

They're brave

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Maybe they're happy doing what they're doing?

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Just fun at the g

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Gym

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

No, they're just too scared

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Can you imagine?

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Really?

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Why?

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Of what?

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

I was scared walking in until a few months ago

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

It's terribly intimidating

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

They just need someone to reach out to them

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

They have the cutest little kid

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Haha Hormones still flooding?

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

No, just let themselves go

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

They're the most important people in the gun

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Gym

Me - 7:57:20 pm

No, I mean you haha

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Cute kids

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

And everyone, especially the trainers are too busy looking at themselves

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Ok. Didn't pick that up

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Oh for sure! If I was 10 years younger Id love more kids!

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Can't wait to be a grandmother!

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

I love babies

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

No one more suprised than me!

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Got to be over 4 for me

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

I never really liked people until I met my kids

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Got to be old enough to answer back

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Haha

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Yea my dad has young kids, the last one at 60 I think, he has severe autism

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Too old

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Unfair on the kids

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

I'm too old too

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

No more

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Very unfair

Me - 7:57:20 pm

20 and an 80 yo dad

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Even at my age it's a little unfair

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Yes!

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

That's the main reason I got fit

Me - 7:57:20 pm

Got to shut the windows. Rain coming in. Back in a tick

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Now we do cartwheels and jump on the trampoline together instead of me making excuses

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

I'll leave you to work

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Just wanted to make sure everything was ok

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Actually I was a bit down today. Realized I probably won't make it ($) as a trainer. I really like days like tomorrow. One really good, appreciative client (not you, I mean) and time to train myself. I just can't get enthused about crap clients. Although they're the ones that pay the mortgage. Don't know I can do it. Got a crap one on Friday and it's bumming me out already.

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

That's hard. I guess if you can't find a way to 'sell' your service to people who don't feed your soul then it won't work. Can you seperate? I couldn't from

Photography but it's a shame, it could have been a good money earner

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Find a way to put your heart somewhere else

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

And I'm appreciative

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Yeah? Suggestions? I have no idea.

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Just find it hard to show it!

Me - 8:17:24 pm

I know you are

Me - 8:17:24 pm

I've got a few who are awesome

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Good thing is you don't have a mortgage ;)

Me - 8:17:24 pm

I feel bad asking them to pay

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Sell yourself to the ones who are a drag, and enjoy the ones who aren't

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Food. Shelter. Etc haha

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

What else are

You going to do?

Me - 8:17:24 pm

?

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Work wise?

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Can you retire?

Me - 8:17:24 pm

?

Me - 8:17:24 pm

No money

Me - 8:17:24 pm

I got screwed

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Totally

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Your wife was super Rich I don't get it

Me - 8:17:24 pm

She was earning $1 million per year. And spent it all, plus some

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Wow

Me - 8:17:24 pm

I used to earn $100k back in 1983

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

That's insane

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

What happened?

Me - 8:17:24 pm

More than 1mill now

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Spent it all

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Sorry none of my business

Me - 8:17:24 pm

On crap

Me - 8:17:24 pm

On trips to NZ

Me - 8:17:24 pm

stuff

Me - 8:17:24 pm

No idea

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Didn't you get a pay out with the divorce?

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Arguments

Me - 8:17:24 pm

And then I just gave up

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

You raised the kids

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Now I feel bad for paying you so little!

Me - 8:17:24 pm

I got a few $100,000. For 30+ years work. Spent 2.5 years trying to get a startup going

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Kids are expensive

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

It'll work out

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

I don't know I'm in the same predicament, probably worse!

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Yea I get that. Imogen's dad always offers me money but there's always strings so I decline

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

It'll be ok

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

I'm trying not to stress

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Stress doesn't help

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

My kids are already smarter than me

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Firstly they know how much they're loved

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Important

Me - 8:17:24 pm

That's the best head start anyone can have

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Yeah. My kids know that.

Me - 8:17:24 pm

I was smart but naive

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Lost the smart. Kept the naive

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

I was smart and naive and ignorant

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

:(

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Now I'm still naive and somewhat ignorant

Me - 8:17:24 pm

One up manship?

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Upmanship

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Up-manship? How do you spell that?

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Naive is ok.

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Well, no, not really

Me - 8:17:24 pm

I wish I picked up on things better

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Project my own feelings onto others and are surprised to be wrong. Often when others are annoyed

Me - 8:17:24 pm

I get annoyed and are then asked why I'm annoyed

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Judging another's outsides by your insides

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

A trap for young players

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

;)

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Young! Yes that's right

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Not one man upmanship for me

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Just hurt badly as a child

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Had no idea about the world

Me - 8:17:24 pm

I didn't have that

Me - 8:17:24 pm

It must have been tougher than I can imagine

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

I had lots of violence and abuse

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Mine was all internal angst

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Really rough!

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Even a gun to my mothers head after a night of bashings at 5

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Holy shit

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

It's taken a long time to find peace

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Meh

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Lots of people have worse

Me - 8:17:24 pm

And better

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

I'm trying to get someone to mind my kids so I can get to a yoga class at that frankston school tomorrow.. Cousin is a no go. Sister next

Me - 8:17:24 pm

I can understand your reticence about relationships. I wouldn't trust anyone

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Pressure works on her?

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Pleeease sis!

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

No my sister is a delicate flower with mental health issues

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

She's 10 years younger with a different dad

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Good childhood but delicate

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Well yea I guess I leant relationships were about control

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

So I've a natural diversion

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

But don't go pitying me

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

I've done a lot of work to get through it

Me - 8:17:24 pm

No pity

Me - 8:17:24 pm

That asumes superiority. Not good.

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Assumes

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Spell checker is funny

Me - 8:17:24 pm

My errors are coming up a real words now

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Our conversation has rewritten my spell checker

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

You know the irony, my dad was the abuser,but when I was last in icu literally dying no one else would come besides him. He sat by the bed for hours and slapped me on the face as directed by the nurse to keep me conscious

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Ha! Yea it does that

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Spell checks new words!

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Yeah, you told me that. Over dinner

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Getting old

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Sign of age, repeating myself

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Funny story

Me - 8:17:24 pm

In the UK my dad kept telling all the same golf stories

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

You've done it too, I'm just too nice to say it to you!

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Someone said he doesn't need new stories just new people haha

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Well, tell me.

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Oh gold stories

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

They're boring the first time!

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Haha

Me - 8:17:24 pm

I've heard then 100 times

Me - 8:17:24 pm

He keeps telling me haha

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

My mum is crazy about golf, when she got cancer she gave me a set of clubs and I tried to learn so we had something to share

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Poor dad //

Me - 8:17:24 pm

If you played golf you'd be irresistible. Haha.

Me - 8:17:24 pm

Perfect!

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

Please!

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

I go to dunes? Is that what it's called?

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

With Joels dads mum, she's a member down there

Me - 8:48:34 pm

The Dunes?

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Yep

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I go and have a hit with mum when I take her to chemo

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Golf is awesome

Me - 8:48:34 pm

We should so play some time!

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Yea I kinda like it but let's never speak of that again

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

No. I'm terrible

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Honestly terrible

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Not a chance!!

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Everyone is terrible

Me - 8:48:34 pm

That's the attraction

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

However the competition woman at dunes told me I should go practice with her when she saw me play, she smacked me on the bum and told me I had potential!

Me - 8:48:34 pm

You MIGHT get better haha

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Well the upper back

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Bum? I can't imagine

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Pfft after I lift 116kg I'll look into golf

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Your reaction to thy

Me - 8:48:34 pm

That

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

She was incredibly down to earth given she's a golfer

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Next month then?

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

The whole family are local champs

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I've got a set of clubs in the shed

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Seriously, no golf! I really couldn't resist you then

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I'm supposed to be practically my pitch

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Pfft

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Shut up

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

You're my trainer

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Remember?

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Golf trainer

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Golf is hard

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Golf is hard

Me - 8:48:34 pm

And it's mostly mental

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Mentally more than anything

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Yep

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Oh shit

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

My mum told me to not hit the ball in the lake and from that moment all I could see was the Effin lake!

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Even the sky

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Was reflected in the Effin lake!

Me - 8:48:34 pm

That's exactly golf

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Of course I hit it into the Effin lake!!!

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

She had of been quiet I wouldn't have noticed the lake!

Me - 8:48:34 pm

And I'm your coach, not trainer

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

My sister is a go! Yoga tomorrow night for me

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Don't like trainer

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Good sis

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Coaches train athletes I'm not an athletes

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I'd prefer trainer

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Pfft

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Something else to argue over

Me - 8:48:34 pm

I like arguing

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Good arguing, I mean

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Difference of opinion arguing

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I like arguing

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Any arguing

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

;)

Me - 8:48:34 pm

No you don't!

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Haha

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Cerebral palsy is hard

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Boy, that's bad

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I don't?

Me - 8:48:34 pm

It's hard for me?? Haha

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

It is hard

Me - 8:48:34 pm

I'm arguing...

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I worked with disabled people for years

Me - 8:48:34 pm

No I'm not

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

It's very rewarding

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Tough

Me - 8:48:34 pm

I'm sure

Me - 8:48:34 pm

No real exercise guidelines

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

His legs need strengthening

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Specifics I mean

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Start with those

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Duh!!

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

On machines

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Shut up

Me - 8:48:34 pm

I've got a better way. I invented just now

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

And rowing

Me - 8:48:34 pm

With bands

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Yeah, rowing

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

He can fall over too easily

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Be careful it's about his ego too

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Duh!!

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

He wants to look good

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Shut up

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

You may be old but you don't know everything

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Side lying and supine leg stuff with bands

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Nope

Me - 8:48:34 pm

I didn't know that haha

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

In fact I reckon I'd be better at reading people's emotional needs than you

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

And that's what is gonna drive them in the door at the end of the day

Me - 8:48:34 pm

I project remember?

Me - 8:48:34 pm

I need a translator.

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Emotional translator

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I project?

Me - 8:48:34 pm

No, me

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I'll shut up

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Bands on the floor it is!

Me - 8:48:34 pm

You say that, yet you never do haha

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Haha = joke. Right?

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Yes well you've got me there

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Maybe I should chat about clients more with you. Probably very unethical though

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Extremely unethical but then so is a lot of what you tell me ;)

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Touché

Me - 8:48:34 pm

No more. Just coach/trainer speak from now on

Me - 8:48:34 pm

And putting shit on, too

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

You keep saying that but..

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Touché 2

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

:p

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Don't make me touché again!

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Tell him yoga would be helpful ;)

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

My yoga

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

That'll happen in 6 months

Me - 8:48:34 pm

In a years time?

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I'm going to need pre workout to do my marketing

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Seems to be working at the gym ;)

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I'll hire your front yard on the lake

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

That'll help with rent ;)

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Nope. Yoga's different. Need new age speak.

Me - 8:48:34 pm

I've got a shed too haha

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

No shed

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Softly and intently

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Just some big outside heater action

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Pfft I'll be hopeless at that

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I'll say get your shit together

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Stop lying to yourselves

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Going to cancel foxtel tomorrow. I've got you instead. More entertaining haha

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Haha!

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Piratebay

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Internet is going up 20%!! Who do you use?

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Tpg

Me - 8:48:34 pm

My ISP that is

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Unlimited

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Just give me a hard drive

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Ok.

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I'll download it all for you

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

All the stuff that I like anyway

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

So I imagine you'll have nothing new to watch ;)

Me - 8:48:34 pm

No I need to change. It's expensive, because I pay for mum's as well

Me - 8:48:34 pm

I won't have time

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Just need unlimited texts haha

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Yeah it's expensive

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I use the wifi when home

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Is this costing? He worries all of a sudden...

Me - 8:48:34 pm

iMessage

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Of course

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Not if you have wifi

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

When you're out and about it is

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Yeah I know

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

No texting when out

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Save money maybe

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Depends on your limits

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I'm not going to take a loan for yoga

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

It's crazy

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Exactly

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Do you need much?

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Is it $5k

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Yep about that

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

They'll have payment plans

Me - 8:48:34 pm

I know you'll say no, but if you really need the money... I have $5k.

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

And if it's meant to be it'll work out

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

You know right

Me - 8:48:34 pm

And a little more too haha

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

You've been saying you're broke all night!

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

And even if you weren't I wouldn't

Me - 8:48:34 pm

I will be broke

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

But thanks?

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Different

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Yeah, I wouldn't wait her

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Either

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Wow! Spell checker went nuts

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Wait her? In lost

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

I'm

Me - 8:48:34 pm

I wouldn't either.

Me - 8:48:34 pm

Phew

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:48:34 pm

Check

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Argh

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

I downloaded that app and it won't even open

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Even after a reboot

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

I think you and your son are tripping ;)

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Green background? Mnf?

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Don't know. I've hD it for ages

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Yep

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Obviously I'm not meant to meditate

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Already too much inner peace

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Look up Stephan Bodian.

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Too much, yeah

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Overflowing in peace

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Haha

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Tpg looks good. Naked DSL unlimited $70, right?

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Mines not naked

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

I kept the phone line as its a rental and once they pull it it can't be reinstated

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Didn't know that

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Same problem then

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

The technology may be different now

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

I got mine years ago

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Can I ask? How much rent do you pay? My accountant says I should move, it's too expensive. Aargh! The thought of it.

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

1650 a month

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

What are you paying?

Me - 9:29:04 pm

2200

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Moving would be easy it's just you

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

That's a lot

Me - 9:29:04 pm

And stuff!

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Lots of stuff

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

But it's a lovely spot

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Haha

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Why don't you rent out a room

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Or get a student

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Haha

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

International ones are good and they pay well

Me - 9:29:04 pm

It was hard enough when you came over! Have someone everyday? Not a chance

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

I had japanese students here while the kids were really young so I didn't have to work

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

really! Wow you're full of compliments! Thanks

Me - 9:29:04 pm

That's an idea

Me - 9:29:04 pm

I don't think I could live with strangers again

Me - 9:29:04 pm

How many rooms don you have?

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

3 bedrooms

Me - 9:29:04 pm

I need 3

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

It's an old house but in a really large block

Me - 9:29:04 pm

I have 25 guitars too haha

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

I'm paying for the space so the kids can run free

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Well, that's a tad excessive

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Tell me

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Collectible

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Old

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Like me haha

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

You realise now I'm never coming over again

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Coach! Online training haha

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Yea well can't you keep them at your mums and downsize?

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Or do massage and claim rent

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Mum has downsized already

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Yeah. That's an idea

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Well I'm going to the gym you won't get me out of there no matter what you say

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

But if you tell people it's hard enough when they come I'm afraid you'll have no visitors ever - then that's your aim

Me - 9:29:04 pm

But worried about masageing here and if it's a bit creepy

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

It's not creepy unless you're a creep

Me - 9:29:04 pm

True

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Adsl2 $60 right?

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Yep

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

59

Me - 9:29:04 pm

59.99 ;)

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Probably

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

I'm hopeless at keeping track

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Is it good? Realiable?

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

I've never had a single issue with it

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

But I've heard of people that have

Me - 9:29:04 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:55:48 pm

There's a balloon in my bed

Diana - 9:55:48 pm

Bloody kids

Diana - 9:55:48 pm

Helium too ;)

Me - 9:58:57 pm

Haha

Me - 9:58:57 pm

That's great

Me - 9:58:57 pm

Love it

Diana - 9:58:57 pm

Hmm

Diana - 9:58:57 pm

They certainly think they're funny

Diana - 10:05:20 pm

I know you're off duty on me tomorrow but I'm thinking I'll do some of your program with some of the circuit stuff you did with me, just mix it up the things I like. I'll go pretty hard and skip yoga cause I'm doing it tomorrow night.

Diana - 10:05:20 pm

That way we don't have to talk tomorrow and you can ignore me and focus on your client and I will get to have some fun with lots of personal space :)

Diana - 10:09:36 pm

Bosu jumps

Pistol squats double on bad side

Turkish get up each side

Those one leg dead lifts 10kg

Jump lunge things

Medicine ball slams

Plank row thingys with 8kg

Kettle bell clean press double on bad side

Hip thrusts

Push-ups on bench and bosu

Medicine ball rollout and medicine ball plate twists things

Pfft perfect program!

Me - 10:13:16 pm

Perfect. But no KB clean and press. Even if your shoulder feels ok. Just leave it until next week. No overhead just yet. Go for it! Don't need me at all. But I'll have stuff for next week

Diana - 10:13:16 pm

Ok cool

Diana - 10:13:16 pm

Night

Me - 10:13:16 pm

Might

Me - 10:13:16 pm

Night

Diana - 10:13:16 pm

Me and the balloon are getting some rest :)

Me - 10:13:16 pm

;-)

Diana - 10:13:16 pm

You can have the cat :/

Me - 10:18:07 pm

Not a chance

Me - 10:18:07 pm

Never having pets again

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

Haha!

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

You know you only started Talking to me after I lifted 100

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

Do you realise that?

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

Ok I'll keep the car

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

Cat

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

I let Imogen have it

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

I hate them

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

But she was 18 months holding a cat on its way to the pound and well I'm at sucker

Me - 10:18:07 pm

How many years left in the cat?

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

Too many

Me - 10:18:07 pm

Might run away?

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

But her dad would take her anytime

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

He loves cats

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

I made sure that was in place before I got it

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

I want to travel

Me - 10:18:07 pm

Travel? Ha!

Me - 10:18:07 pm

Dream on

Me - 10:18:07 pm

$

Me - 10:18:07 pm

And school

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

You really are horrible

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

Do you know that

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

It'll happen

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

Despite your pessimism

Me - 10:22:19 pm

We travelled. But organized stuff and within time frames

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Can be done

Me - 10:22:19 pm

But has to be scheduled

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Life in many ways is just beginning for me. I can feel it

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

I know you travelled

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Kids have their own lives

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

They don't have to come

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Enjoy it now

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

They can stay with their dads

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Not long before you move down the list

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

What's the point of taking kids on a holiday they don't want to go on?

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Dads?

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Yea they have different dads.

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

I've told you that but you don't often listen

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Don't remember. Sorry

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Born on the same day to 2 different dads

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

And we all live within a few streets of eachother

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Do they see them both?

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

And get along quite well

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Yea they have sleepovers at both dads

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Imogen's dad is taking them on the safari at werribee zoo and Neil had them last Sunday night

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Crazy but kinda functional

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Extra helping hands

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Your flabbergasted aren't you

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Yep

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

It hasn't always been smooth sailing but mostly

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

It's a long story needless to say Joel was unexpected and I couldn't fathom abortions

Me - 10:22:19 pm

I can't believe I didn't pick that up. Amazing. Has me worried now that I'm missing lots of stuff with lots of people

Me - 10:22:19 pm

I thought I was a good listener

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Can you hear the rain? It sounds great

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Aparently not

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Rain is soothing

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

I even told you at dinner in your kitchen but you spoke over me telling me about Debbie

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Anyway it's ok

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Sorry

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

That doesn't bother me anymore

Me - 10:22:19 pm

I hate it when that's done to me

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

People talk over me a lot

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

I realise it's not me, it's just people like to tell their own stories

Me - 10:22:19 pm

I'll just listen from now on. My stuff is boring

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

I used to think it was cause mine was boring but then I found some good listeners

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Pfft

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

No ones stuff is boring

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

It's just hard to listen

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Ha! That's exactly my complaint with people but I'm the same. Didn't know

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Sad

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Especially when you're passionate about something

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

We are all the same

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

I do it too

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Though not as much as most ;)

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Sorry

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

I didn't mean to make you feel bad!

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Did you sort your internet?

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Surprised, not too bad. I thought I was a bit different.

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Not listening sucks

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

You had a lot you wanted to say

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

That's a good thing

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Should be able to do both

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

I don't think you do that a lot

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Have a lot to say

Me - 10:22:19 pm

I didn't. Very sorry

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

So I didn't mind

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Kinda cool you wanted to share stuff with me

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

So I really didn't mind

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

I prob cut you off repeating the same story ;)

Me - 10:22:19 pm

Still do. But more listening required

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Sheesh give yourself a break

Me - 10:22:19 pm

I'm listening haha

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

You're worse than me with military presses ;)

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

I'm going to go listen to the rain

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

And try to sleep

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

My head is on fire

Me - 10:22:19 pm

See you tomorrow. From a distance ;)

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Haha

Diana - 10:22:19 pm

Ok

**Thursday 25 September**

Diana - 9:22:58 am

Change of plans. Light weight high rep deadlifts then yoga and yoga again tonight. Tomorrow circuit. Next Friday go for 105

Diana - 9:22:58 am

Just letting you know as we aren't speaking at the gym today ;)

Diana - 9:22:58 am

Go for 110 but happy with fail at 105

Diana - 12:29:20 pm

This morning was weird. We aren't talking?

Diana - 12:29:20 pm

If not I'll go for a run instead of coming into the gym tomorrow. Give us some space for a few days

Me - 12:54:50 pm

I was simply doing as you requested, I thought. Look back at the texts. Text only is too weird. It should be exactly the same in person. I'm not embarrassed by anything I've said to you, I don't embarrass easily. Let's just be normal, I really can't see the problem. I enjoy talking to you, I enjoy your company more and I enjoy coaching/training you. If you need to train alone that's fine, let me know. Otherwise, let's enjoy the training or whatever we do together. You've only got a narrow window of time, it's hard if we don't talk then. But I'm happy to do whatever. Your wish is my command ;-)

Me - 12:54:50 pm

And.... Weight?

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

Well I didn't like this morning

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

You're the one who said you act like people aren't there, I thought that's what you wanted to do.

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

My weight?

Me - 12:54:50 pm

Good! It was crap haha

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

Argh 56.6

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

I want to train together

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

Of course I do

Me - 12:54:50 pm

Ok. Let's be normal then haha

Me - 12:54:50 pm

Easy Peasy

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

Ok cool

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

And besides who else is going to teach me cool stuff without their egos filling the room!

Me - 12:54:50 pm

I don't know you well enough yet to ignore you haha. That's only AFTER. Haha Just joking. I'm a teddy bear really

Me - 12:54:50 pm

Except during wow

Me - 12:54:50 pm

Haha

Me - 12:54:50 pm

Bec wants a session with me too. Haha

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

Well you're setting up trust issues, so maybe you have them :p

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

That's awesome

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

Stick with it, you'll get more and more clients

Me - 12:54:50 pm

Trust? Hmmm. Kettle. Black. Etc haha

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

I'm almost famous around the gym for my lift now

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

I'll make you a star ;)

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

Yea well I don't really want to test the waters with being ignored. I've been hurt enough in life. Training it is.

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

And Everest of course

Me - 1:04:34 pm

Ok. Deal.

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

Ok well have a good afternoon. I'll miss texting you! But I can see we need to pull up.

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

And the sun is out so life isn't so bad :)

Me - 12:54:50 pm

Why stop texting?

Me - 12:54:50 pm

I do have to go in 20 though

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

I just thought you were wanting that?

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

Eyes? I hope they're ok

Me - 12:54:50 pm

This is the problem with texting

Me - 12:54:50 pm

Haha

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

Yes you're right

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

Aren't enough emoticons

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

SpOken word is better but not possible with you. Take what we get

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

It's easily misconstrued

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

I can hardly walk after yoga today, she smashed us, like she was angry

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

Some people even refused to do the poses

Diana - 12:54:50 pm

I'm off to buy a reasonable but cheap mat if I can find one

Diana - 1:28:26 pm

Sitting in a car waiting for a 1D song to finish for the girl. Mother of the year awards are no open

Me - 1:54:00 pm

Got a way to go yet before you get your award. Haha. Try a few years of freezing golf car parks in the evening dark, every night of the week haha

Diana - 1:57:03 pm

There you go being encouraging again ;)

Diana - 1:57:03 pm

Did you read it. 1D!!!!

Me - 1:57:03 pm

Didn't say you won't get an award! Just not quite yet haha Don't know 1D. Bad?

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

I sing along now

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

If you can't beat em...

Me - 2:01:04 pm

I want to hear that haha

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Harmony?

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Or unison?

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Haha

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

I was just in rebel aport and there were these young guys skinny talking weights and I actually thought.. Shut up I can lift heavier than you!

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

I have serious issues

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

I do solos and harmonies

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

:)

Me - 2:01:04 pm

It's cool to know that about yourself eh?

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

Ha!

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

It didn't take long to figure out :p

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Get your mat?

Me - 2:01:04 pm

I'm sitting in a waiting room. Not even in the reall waiting room yet

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Sigh! Long afternoon ahead

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Entertain me. Hahaha

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Actually, been re reading our texts. They're interesting to read over, outside of the urgency to reply.

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

Got my mat

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Entertaining

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

Haha! Urgency of reply is intense Huh

Me - 2:01:04 pm

I'm getting better

Me - 2:01:04 pm

At typing

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Thumb typing

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Haha

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

Even here, at the farmers market, waiting for the balloon artist to make Imogen a deer the random weirdo decides to talk to me

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

Why?

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

Why? Oh why??

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Every one here is soooo old haha

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Frankston?

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Saw the sign

Me - 2:01:04 pm

I'm just up from PARC

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

What's Parc?

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

Yep came here to get yoga mat

Me - 2:01:04 pm

train station ish

Me - 2:01:04 pm

New swim center

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

I hate it, I asked Imogen to never come here to hang out

Me - 2:01:04 pm

And gym

Me - 2:01:04 pm

And other stuff

Me - 2:01:04 pm

We've got to try swim training too haha

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Random weirdo?

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Don't want to inflate your ego too much, but you are attractive. Got to expect attention, infortunatley.

Me - 2:01:04 pm

And (some) guys will be guys

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

Pfft

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Meh

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

I'll warn you about swimming

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Why?

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

I tend to practice swimming like different fish and people get s little freaked out

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Won't freak me out, that's all that counts. I'll train you correctly. What fish? Octopus? Haha

Me - 2:01:04 pm

But not a fish

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Cephalopod

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Sea squirt?

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Grouper?

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Shark?

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Yes?! Definitely shark haha

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Lithesome and dangerous haha

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Unless gummy shark haha

Me - 2:01:04 pm

This is boring here!!!!

Me - 2:01:04 pm

Should have bought a book

Me - 2:01:04 pm

A long book haha

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

Read your own?

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

I love diving with sharks

Diana - 2:01:04 pm

I've done a lot of it :)

Me - 2:18:39 pm

I remember seeing one with my daughter in Fiji. She was 12. So excited!

Diana - 2:18:39 pm

They are quite special

Diana - 2:18:39 pm

You wouldn't believe what I have to do next

Me - 2:25:41 pm

What next?

Me - 2:25:41 pm

I've moved into the real waiting room yay

Diana - 2:25:41 pm

Progress!

Me - 2:25:41 pm

??

Me - 2:25:41 pm

"Move forward"

Me - 2:25:41 pm

??

Me - 2:25:41 pm

Haha

Me - 2:25:41 pm

This stuff, texting so much, is oddly compelling. Like being inside someone else's head. Do you, have you done this before? It's a new experience for me.

Me - 2:25:41 pm

Cool

Diana - 2:25:41 pm

I am about to go and be a guinea pig for a friends niece who has just done her thingy in beauty and she is giving me eyelash extensions

Diana - 2:25:41 pm

Texting j have none before

Diana - 2:25:41 pm

But this???

Diana - 2:25:41 pm

Argh I'm such a sucker

Me - 2:25:41 pm

None or done?

Me - 2:25:41 pm

What does "but this???" mean?

Diana - 2:25:41 pm

Done

Diana - 2:25:41 pm

Sorry

Diana - 2:25:41 pm

I got to drive

Me - 2:25:41 pm

Ok

Me - 2:25:41 pm

I've got to wait

Diana - 2:25:41 pm

But this as in eyelashes

Diana - 2:25:41 pm

Sheesh

Diana - 2:25:41 pm

Texting before yes, but not so frequently

Diana - 2:25:41 pm

It's like texting thoughts Huh

Me - 2:25:41 pm

Yeah. Super cool

Me - 2:35:51 pm

The book I'm writing at the moment has this exact sort of thing. Except the guy is from the first race in the universe haha. I figured this "inside your head" is more intimate than anything physical. Of course, the guy (with the human woman) is really inside her head haha. Sharing every thought, sensation, etc. He's an alien after all. Haha

Me - 2:35:51 pm

BTW I'm not an alien haha

Me - 2:35:51 pm

;)

Me - 2:35:51 pm

Although in one if the books in he series, he doesn't know that...

Diana - 2:35:51 pm

And she's totally amazing ;)

Me - 2:35:51 pm

Strong, awesome woman

Me - 2:35:51 pm

First homo sapien

Me - 2:35:51 pm

It's an archeology book too haha

Me - 2:35:51 pm

I started a phd in archeology

Me - 2:35:51 pm

Lasted months. Then wife happened haha

Diana - 2:35:51 pm

Couldn't do both?

Diana - 2:35:51 pm

I'm about to go under

Me - 2:35:51 pm

Was concerned about $'s

Diana - 2:35:51 pm

Giving phone to Imogen

Diana - 2:35:51 pm

Wish me luck!

Me - 2:35:51 pm

Did the technology startup thingy

Me - 2:35:51 pm

And THAT really worked haha

Me - 2:35:51 pm

Good luck

Me - 2:35:51 pm

Keeping them for tomorrow I hope!

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Well thats two hours of my life ill never get back

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

I look ridiculous

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Selfie? And share with me? Haha

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

No way

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

You know the fake eyelashes from the 60s

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Well it's worse than that

Me - 4:56:00 pm

You'll have fluttering eyes tomorrow right? ;)

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Got to look good for lifting heavy hah

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Am I going heavy tomorrow?

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

I thought next week

Me - 4:56:00 pm

No

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Curcuit tomorrow

Me - 4:56:00 pm

We need to talk about that

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

I can't go heavy on deadlifts until next week

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Heavy I mean

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Talk about what?

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Why?

Me - 4:56:00 pm

I don't like your plans for next week

Me - 4:56:00 pm

I'll get you to 110+ quicker if you do what I suggest

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Not just going for it all the time

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Trust me

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

What's wrong with my plan?

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Too heavy

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

5kg in 2 weeks is ok?

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Yes

Me - 4:56:00 pm

At 100

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Nor ok I mean shops

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Whoops

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Not ok

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Go backwards to go forwards quicker! The science has been done. Just trust me

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Which circuit? Do I need a new one for tomorrow?

Me - 4:56:00 pm

10:30 right?

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Oh, no kids I forgot

Me - 4:56:00 pm

What time again?

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Kids are being picked up at 1030 so Id say 11

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Got a client at 11:30

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Then free

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

I know you'll be gone im happy to just play around though

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Or... Cheapish

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Haha

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Ha!

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

I have to be gone again by 1230

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Why?

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Appointment before work

Me - 4:56:00 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

And I need to get more Chinese Herbs for my sinus

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

Busy day tomorrow

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

Work will be the easy part ;)

Me - 5:10:56 pm

Circuit sounds best

Me - 5:10:56 pm

Same one maybe. I'll tweak it, if I get time.

Me - 5:10:56 pm

No standard lifts at all

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

It's cool, don't soend any time on it

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

I'm happy to play

Me - 5:10:56 pm

No overhead. Unless it's feeling awesome

Me - 5:10:56 pm

Shoulder I mean

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

No overhead

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

I need to try to squat heavy again soon

Me - 5:10:56 pm

Meh

Me - 5:10:56 pm

Heavy single leg is better

Me - 5:10:56 pm

I'm still sore from 2 days ago

Me - 5:10:56 pm

40kg haha

Me - 5:10:56 pm

Slider squats

Me - 5:10:56 pm

I'll show you one day

Me - 5:10:56 pm

Those 80 kg squats hardly helped. Just ego and a number

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

Well it's a little satisfying too

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

Show me single legs when we have time next week

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

I have long work days next week and kids

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

It's going to be tricky

Me - 5:19:28 pm

I know

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

Oh I'm repeating myself again!

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

Unless we do gym Saturday instead of run???

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Sigh!

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Really?

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

I'm just giving options

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

I did lots of reps of 60 and 70kg today to get ready for next week

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Good

Me - 5:19:28 pm

But I need to oversee exactly how many reps and sets at weights. I've been a bit slack with you. You need that too, to advance further

Me - 5:19:28 pm

You're passed the "just add weight" stuff

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Periodisation

Me - 5:19:28 pm

What it's called

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

Right

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

Well j can tell you

Me - 5:19:28 pm

I want to meet this j person!

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Sounds nice

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Haha

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

60kg x 6 reps 6 times

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

70 kg x 5 reps 4 times

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Woa! Squats? Too much

Me - 5:19:28 pm

If deads, ok

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

Deads

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

What person sounds nice??

Me - 5:19:28 pm

J

Me - 5:19:28 pm

See above

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Your text

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Humour haha

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Bad humor

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Very bad humor

Me - 5:19:28 pm

Etc

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

Oh j

Diana - 5:19:28 pm

Check

Me - 5:33:12 pm

So, you really won't help me out with the massage? I need to practice. I know you said you'd cry with the touch, but really you'll only be crying because of the pain haha (good pain). I need feedback and you would the best (because of your space issues). I'd want to sit down after and make notes of how I could do it better. There'll be absolutely nothing sensual about it. I need to practice making sure nothing like that is even partly misunderstood. And draping? I'm good, but I need feedback to be better. Remember, I've already seen you in your underwear. And it would be nothing like that at all!! Maybe a .5 second slip of a towel. Anyway. Saturday after the run would be best. Your only time really. No probs if you really can't/won't.

Diana - 5:41:33 pm

Argh my sister is coming now, I have to cook something real quick!

Diana - 5:41:33 pm

People I hate them!

Diana - 5:41:33 pm

And you're getting me at the dinner routine, good tactics ;)

Diana - 5:41:33 pm

Well I don't think there'll be enough time saturday, seriously, a run, an hour to travel there and then back, shower, food, get ready for work, drive to work

Diana - 5:41:33 pm

All by 230?

Diana - 5:41:33 pm

Is it a short massage?

Me - 5:41:33 pm

An hour

Me - 5:41:33 pm

Let's talk after bed time

Me - 5:41:33 pm

Go cook

Diana - 5:41:33 pm

Ok

Diana - 6:55:28 pm

I can't believe I'm going to yoga again, I'm wrecked!

Diana - 6:55:28 pm

It's called power yoga :/

Diana - 6:57:36 pm

Still I guess I'll get an indication of whether I want to go with this school

Me - 6:57:36 pm

Got to find out, yeah! If it excites you in this state, then it'll be good. Right?

Me - 6:57:36 pm

Once you're there I mean

Me - 6:57:36 pm

Going is hard

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Yep

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Just got

To push through ;)

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Eh??

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

I'd make a good pt ;)

Me - 7:06:24 pm

You would

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Better than me

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Pfft

Me - 7:06:24 pm

People like talking to you

Me - 7:06:24 pm

And that's the important bit haha

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Aren't you going??? Gaha

Me - 7:06:24 pm

When?

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

I'm leaving now

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Had to dash and get the kids snacks for tomorrow's adventure

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

I have an idea brewing

Me - 7:06:24 pm

I love ideas

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

I need to sort this out first

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Haha!

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Ideas are good, life affirming

Me - 7:06:24 pm

This?

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Yoga?

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Snacks?

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Your hand?

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Well if I did manage to somehow start this frankston one in October, next year there is a year long pilates course at tafe part time, I could mix the two

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

I have a terrible tendency of taking on too much

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

And not following through however

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Long run conversation topic again

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

On top of that I now have a ridiculous set of eye lash extensions

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Need a list haha

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Bet they look cool!

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

No they just look ridiculous

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Where a dress tomorrow to go with the lashes haha

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Seriously

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Meh

Me - 7:06:24 pm

And makeup

Me - 7:06:24 pm

And a handbag

Me - 7:06:24 pm

;)

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

To the gym?

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Yep

Me - 7:06:24 pm

And we'll deadlift heavy haha

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

And lift heavy??

Me - 7:06:24 pm

High heels too

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Great photo op haha

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Even an instructor came up to me today and said congratulations on the deadlift!

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

You're right though it's all ego

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Dolled up at the gym?

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Nope

Me - 7:06:24 pm

What time you home? If I'll be awake or not.

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Ha!

Me - 7:06:24 pm

I guess that doesn't stop you

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Haha

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Not til about 940

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

You should hit the sack ;)

Me - 7:06:24 pm

7:16?

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Why don't you ask your other clients for massage practice

Me - 7:06:24 pm

You're a client. But yes

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Just run on Saturday

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Yes I know I'm a client

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Too problematic

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

It'll be too rushed to do one on Saturday

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Masaage I mean

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Yes

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Sunday?

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Or kids back

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Yoga and work

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Work again I guess

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Kids not back until Monday

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

And only one kid next week

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Easy city haha

Diana - 7:22:35 pm

For sure

Diana - 7:22:35 pm

Ok I'm here

Diana - 7:22:35 pm

Yikes

Diana - 9:00:57 pm

Help I can't walk

Me - 9:02:57 pm

Legs day at yoga? Haha Good enough for you to train there?

Diana - 9:02:57 pm

Not sure... It's hard to tell after one class. I'll do sunday at dodgy India and take it from there

Diana - 9:02:57 pm

Head stands and 3 minutes of crow pose

Diana - 9:02:57 pm

Ouch

Diana - 9:02:57 pm

How did your son go?

Diana - 9:02:57 pm

Let's just say I was in a sweat the whole time

Diana - 9:02:57 pm

I don't think I sweat easy?

Diana - 9:02:57 pm

Im going to write a little program for myself to do tomorrow tonight, so I don't waste time in there

Diana - 9:02:57 pm

That's if I'm strong enough to pick up a pen

Me - 9:09:35 pm

Nice people? That'll be the difference probably.

Me - 9:09:35 pm

Yoga program you mean? Do they have such a thing? I thought you just wrapped yourself in random positions until the time was up... ;)

Diana - 9:09:35 pm

You better go through that list again

Diana - 9:09:35 pm

The my way or the highway pt may have been you

Diana - 9:09:35 pm

No circuit at the gym tomorrow

Me - 9:09:35 pm

Too sore?

Diana - 9:17:05 pm

I'll write a circuit at the gym to do tomorrow so I don't waste time when I come

Diana - 9:17:05 pm

No overhead I know

Diana - 9:17:05 pm

I'm incredibly sore, sheesh seriously jelly legs but some magnesium and pre workout and I'll smash it ;)

**Friday 26 September**

Diana - 9:38:29 am

I got set free early so am heading to gym now

Diana - 12:01:36 pm

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=MMdvmOMDlb0

Diana - 12:05:52 pm

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wg5geyUlU4Y

Editor: The National "Conversation 16"

Diana - 12:11:25 pm

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Zz5pskaTNJU

Editor: The National, "Slow Show"

Diana - 12:12:09 pm

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Jpz_gUyImhw

Editor: The National, "Graceless"

Diana - 12:12:40 pm

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=7UcUBmlcrZc

Editor: The National, "Pink Rabbits (Trouble will find me)"

Diana - 12:13:34 pm

These are some of the national songs. They've been my life theme band for about the last 4 years

Diana - 12:22:56 pm

Have you seen it! More overheads!!

Diana - 12:29:20 pm

One more... https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=eZlM6dIny0o

Editor: The National, "Slipped"

Diana - 12:29:20 pm

Then I'll send another band another day

Diana - 12:29:20 pm

It's good loud in the car on a road trip

Diana - 12:29:20 pm

Or at home

Diana - 12:29:20 pm

Or anytime really ;)

Diana - 12:29:20 pm

Especially with wine

Diana - 12:29:20 pm

Maybe I should pull a sickie and drink and listen to music :-)

Me - 12:37:42 pm

Ha! I'm off to the hospital now, I'll listen when I get home. Sickie sounds awesome! Haha. Wine, sigur ros, and whatever other band you can extend my tastes. I haven't had alcohol since.... Well... I guess a few pints in the uk. Gotta go.

Diana - 12:45:28 pm

Yea but I need the cash. Shame we're too old for late starts. Hope your mum is good

Diana - 2:58:40 pm

Pink rabbits is my favourite, heart hurter to listen to

Diana - 2:58:40 pm

On my way to work yay

Me - 3:00:46 pm

Just got back. Listening to 2nd one. Sigh! Music compatible too. Love it. But need a few listens. Good music always does. Drive carefully.

Diana - 3:05:04 pm

The moments of my life that are the most important are smothered in great music

Diana - 3:05:04 pm

This band included

Diana - 3:05:04 pm

Happy listening

Diana - 3:05:04 pm

I've got the bass shaking my car :)

Me - 3:14:13 pm

I can't listen at times to certain music because it's able to exactly recall intense emotions. It's a dangerous tool to have, and I don't believe too many have it, to be able to fire up intense emotions almost at will. For me, it's mostly sad, self induced depression or in love. I use it frequently when writing intense scenes. But it's really emotionally draining. Also, long runs and Sigur Ros is my go to music. Sad but oddly uplifting. That's what minor keys do to you.

Diana - 3:18:51 pm

Diminishing minors are my favorite

Diana - 3:19:21 pm

And yes, I've had to watch what I listen to since having the kids, a little indulgence is beautiful though. There is of course, a time for sadness

Diana - 3:19:59 pm

What are you up to?

Diana - 3:20:00 pm

Unfortunately most of my music is sad

Me - 3:20:15 pm

Graceless

Me - 3:20:25 pm

While checking golf scores

Diana - 3:20:29 pm

Ah that's a fun one

Me - 3:21:01 pm

Video could have been better. Music is great

Diana - 3:21:23 pm

Pink rabbits!!

Diana - 3:21:33 pm

Well you shouldn't be watching on first listens anyway

Me - 3:21:57 pm

Someone sent me a YouTube link. Haha

Diana - 3:22:48 pm

Well it was the easiest way to get music to you

Diana - 3:34:13 pm

And what are you talking about compatibility, just cause we like deadlifts ;)

Me - 3:34:25 pm

Diminished minor? Haha. I had a piece I performed a few years ago called "Locrian". It was free jazz/ambient but just playing it made me cry haha. Same scale just an extra flat.

Me - 3:34:39 pm

Flat 2

Me - 3:34:59 pm

Deadlifts are COOL. Haha

Me - 3:35:16 pm

Aren't you working? Any bad news?

Diana - 3:34:56 pm

So you have to tell me how your heart got broken. Everyone that likes this music has a broken heart.

Diana - 3:34:56 pm

Mine was in my childhood

Diana - 3:36:45 pm

Oh and it's pre lovers heart break.

Me - 3:37:41 pm

Going to take a few long runs before I tell you THAT much about me. ;) Pretty boring, really. But it still feels the same. It's all relative to each if us. Angst, I mean.

Diana - 3:37:04 pm

I've saved 200 calories for wine :)

Diana - 3:37:04 pm

Bloody running

Me - 3:38:08 pm

Paying guitar now. Locrian mode. Haha Id forgot!

Me - 3:38:14 pm

Sad tonight haha

Diana - 3:37:04 pm

;) ok tomorrow it begins

Me - 3:38:33 pm

Keep saving the calories

Me - 3:38:40 pm

Money in the bank haha

Me - 3:38:51 pm

Inches off your waist haha

Me - 3:39:57 pm

"Oh and it's pre lovers heart break." Translation?

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Heart ache as a child

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Before girls broke your heart

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Sad tonight?

Me - 3:45:52 pm

Ah. Ok

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Not after 3 wines ;)

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

2 I mean 2!!

Me - 3:46:12 pm

Asleep after 3 wines

Me - 3:46:16 pm

After 2

Me - 3:46:27 pm

After 1 probably hahA

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Ha!

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Chatty after one asleep after 2

Me - 3:46:57 pm

if you cut back on wine you may not need to work!! Haha

Me - 3:47:24 pm

How much do yiu have in the house?

Me - 3:47:37 pm

Or do you buy each time?

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Just half a bottle of red left

Diana - 3:47:47 pm

I don't drink that much

Me - 3:48:21 pm

Sad from Locrian mode. Diminished minor with flat 2

Me - 3:48:52 pm

And my lovely guitar, it's great to just hold and hug

Me - 3:49:10 pm

1937 Gibson semi acoustic

Diana - 3:49:34 pm

Wow that's an old guitar

Me - 3:49:35 pm

I could just hug it all day! Haha

Me - 3:49:53 pm

And, I get to at it too! Haha

Me - 3:50:42 pm

I can create my own emotions. Choose a mode, and change emotional state haha. Don't need to listen haha

Diana - 3:50:43 pm

That's lovely and sad at the same time

Diana - 3:50:58 pm

Want to do a night run? 10km?

Me - 3:51:02 pm

To other music I mean

Diana - 3:51:06 pm

Victoria trail running festival

Me - 3:51:11 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:51:17 pm

Well then decide to be happier

Me - 3:51:29 pm

Book it Danno!

Diana - 3:51:41 pm

It doesn't come that easy for me, exercise helps and minimising my time with my music

Me - 3:52:05 pm

I course. You're stud is real. Mine is self induced.

Me - 3:52:16 pm

Stuff! Haha not stud

Diana - 3:52:51 pm

I think yours is real but maybe you don't know it

Diana - 3:52:59 pm

Wow that was brave of me to say ;)

Diana - 3:53:06 pm

Check out the night run

Me - 3:53:50 pm

If it's real that's scary. Easier to say/think otherwise. Lots of long run topics!! Haha. Going to run for hours haha

Me - 3:54:28 pm

Night run is late right? What about bed time? Haha

Me - 3:54:39 pm

Too late for me maybe haha

Me - 3:55:06 pm

Its for a young person, like you

Me - 3:56:40 pm

Now Slipped.

Me - 3:58:36 pm

Which The Nationals album should I buy first? I'm on iTunes now

Me - 3:59:35 pm

Looks like you like Trouble Will Find Me. Right?

Diana - 4:02:27 pm

Yes

Diana - 4:02:32 pm

Don't buy it!

Diana - 4:02:35 pm

Pirate it!

Diana - 4:02:40 pm

Ok no night run :/

Me - 4:02:48 pm

I need to be shown by an expert

Diana - 4:02:40 pm

I'm not doing it on my own

Me - 4:02:59 pm

I'll do it with you!!

Diana - 4:02:40 pm

When's hailey coming over ;)

Me - 4:03:08 pm

Praccy tonight? Hahaha

Me - 4:03:11 pm

Joking

Me - 4:03:23 pm

She's not

Me - 4:03:26 pm

Going away

Diana - 4:02:40 pm

Yep after the wine ;)

Me - 4:03:35 pm

For a few days

Me - 4:04:05 pm

Ok I'll wait for the music

Me - 4:04:12 pm

You need to show me

Me - 4:04:16 pm

And movies

Me - 4:04:18 pm

And shows

Diana - 4:04:29 pm

Ok I'll do it

Diana - 4:04:32 pm

It's very easy

Me - 4:05:58 pm

I might go for a run. Listen to sigur ros. Locrian scale is not sitting well. Reminds me of failed music a few years ago.

Me - 4:06:11 pm

Or maybe try ABBA! haha

Me - 4:06:29 pm

Bounce on the run

Diana - 4:06:34 pm

Yea go for a run and cheer yourself up

Me - 4:06:39 pm

I hate abba

Me - 4:06:44 pm

Btw

Diana - 4:06:44 pm

Life really is too short to have prolonged sadness

Me - 4:06:54 pm

Tap needed

Me - 4:06:56 pm

Haha

Diana - 4:06:56 pm

Tap?

Me - 4:07:05 pm

Turn stuff off

Diana - 4:06:56 pm

Right

Diana - 4:06:56 pm

No, just make the decision to stop wallowing!

Me - 4:07:33 pm

= tap

Diana - 4:06:56 pm

Or come in to my work and see people with real problems

Diana - 4:06:56 pm

Well atleast the vision

Me - 4:07:50 pm

Exactly

Me - 4:08:00 pm

Why I said I was boring

Me - 4:08:05 pm

Self induced

Me - 4:08:23 pm

Enough

Me - 4:08:54 pm

Got programs to write for this client that is catching up to me!

Me - 4:08:56 pm

Haha

Me - 4:09:54 pm

Pre workout time

Diana - 4:10:42 pm

Who?

Diana - 4:11:12 pm

You mean me?? Ha!

Diana - 4:11:12 pm

I'm going for a coke zero

Diana - 4:11:12 pm

I want to eat

Diana - 4:11:12 pm

Arghh

Diana - 4:11:12 pm

My friend wants me to get chips! Surrounded by evil people

Me - 4:15:35 pm

You have too many friends. They'll lead you astray! Haha

Me - 4:16:14 pm

Going for a run. Hold on and try not to eat crap! Hard, I know.

Me - 4:16:33 pm

Your text buddy distraction will be back soon haha

Diana - 4:17:36 pm

Dangerous territory

Diana - 4:17:36 pm

My legs are jelly after this morning

Diana - 4:20:12 pm

Run Forrest run

Diana - 4:20:27 pm

Sorry my music depressed you

Diana - 4:20:29 pm

No more for you

Diana - 4:55:14 pm

Did you see the weather for Sunday! It looks beautiful

Diana - 4:55:17 pm

I haven't eaten

Diana - 4:55:25 pm

She went to the vending machine without me

Diana - 4:55:38 pm

I bought coffee and will eat my salad soon. God I'm lucky :/

Me - 5:20:44 pm

Back from the run. You're right. I looked at it through your eyes this evening. Visually it's uninteresting, I'm just used to it. But it's all about the running itself tomorrow. We'll find better places. Dandenongs occasionally, but better locally. You're challenged for time so we need to make the organizational complexity = zero. And so I can run with you most times. It's so much easier to get out if there's others to go with. And full marks on the food restraint! Way to go!!

Me - 5:21:22 pm

Sunday? I thought you had "stuff" to do before work?

Diana - 5:22:03 pm

Yes I have yoga, that finishes at 1030

Diana - 5:22:25 pm

Not sure if I'll stay in town rather than drive home and come back in again

Diana - 5:22:42 pm

I really feel you're making a trip to the dandenongs sound so much more complicated than it is

Diana - 5:22:53 pm

What time is our run finishing tomorrow?

Diana - 5:23:03 pm

Or starting

Diana - 5:23:10 pm

I've got a friend asking me for coffee

Diana - 5:23:15 pm

You're right I have too mbau

Diana - 5:23:17 pm

Many

Diana - 5:24:35 pm

I'll just say no. I think I already do too much

Diana - 5:24:44 pm

I may need a nap after our run ;)

Diana - 5:25:48 pm

Flinders, we could run around the golf course and back up, there's even a hill down to the pier

Diana - 5:25:52 pm

Not necessarily tomorrow but that's a good spot

Diana - 5:30:08 pm

There you go, I just shunted my coffee friend so I could run! Sheesh who am I?

Me - 5:34:19 pm

You absolutely do too much!!

Me - 5:34:40 pm

I feel bad even suggesting the run now.

Me - 5:35:07 pm

Have coffee with your friend, if you'd rather.

Me - 5:36:04 pm

Flinders, yes, is awesome

Me - 5:36:20 pm

And we could have a paddle too/instead of

Diana - 5:36:32 pm

No I want to run

Diana - 5:36:32 pm

Unless you would prefer I didn't

Me - 5:37:49 pm

I've shuffled Saturday, for you. I'm willing and able.

Diana - 5:38:10 pm

Ok then stop telling me to do other stuff

Diana - 5:38:25 pm

Northerly tomorrow morning

Me - 5:38:26 pm

I suggested less.

Me - 5:38:41 pm

Good for the beaches

Me - 5:38:46 pm

But Saturday

Me - 5:38:51 pm

Crowds

Diana - 5:38:40 pm

I need to buy more pre workout

Me - 5:39:36 pm

Well, what time do you want to start the run and when do you want to leave to do your "stuff" before work? Tomorrow

Me - 5:39:40 pm

I have heaps

Diana - 5:38:40 pm

It's expensive this gym life

Diana - 5:38:40 pm

I don't have stuff to do tomorrow

Diana - 5:38:40 pm

Just run

Me - 5:39:57 pm

I have blue workout

Diana - 5:39:58 pm

Sunday is yoga

Me - 5:40:02 pm

Pre workout

Diana - 5:40:01 pm

That's it

Diana - 5:40:09 pm

I should clean

Me - 5:40:46 pm

Ok. Then tell your friends to piss off tomorrow. ;) Run and hang out until you have to get ready for work.

Me - 5:40:55 pm

No fucking cleaning!!!

Me - 5:41:10 pm

Cruise time

Me - 5:41:24 pm

For half a day!

Me - 5:41:30 pm

Can you do it?

Diana - 5:40:48 pm

Cruise time? Easy

Me - 5:42:06 pm

You can use the mediation app on my phone haha

Diana - 5:40:48 pm

I'll do anything to avoid cleaning

Diana - 5:40:48 pm

I have it

Me - 5:42:12 pm

Meditation

Diana - 5:40:48 pm

I've used it every day

Me - 5:42:20 pm

Doesn't work?

Me - 5:42:35 pm

Ok

Me - 5:42:37 pm

Then

Diana - 5:42:49 pm

Yes I got it to work

Me - 5:42:50 pm

What time tomorrow morning will you arrive?

Me - 5:42:58 pm

Cool voice eh?

Me - 5:43:05 pm

I want a voice like that

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Haha

Diana - 5:42:56 pm

I don't know, what time do you want me there? And where?

Me - 5:44:18 pm

As soon as you can, drive to my place, park in the driveway this time, and stay as long as you can! Too easy!!

Me - 5:44:45 pm

MUsic on mediation sucks

Me - 5:45:40 pm

If you can stay. Bring clothes and you can use the shower in the spare room. Up to you. Smelly is good too. Haha

Diana - 5:45:04 pm

Some is ok. I really like Chinese mediation music. I don't use a voice with that

Diana - 5:45:04 pm

Eww

Diana - 5:45:04 pm

I'll go home and shower

Me - 5:47:00 pm

But will you come back?

Me - 5:47:24 pm

Ok if not. No lessors

Me - 5:47:30 pm

No pressure

Diana - 5:47:12 pm

Yep. As long as you make a decent coffee ;)

Me - 5:47:40 pm

Well

Diana - 5:47:12 pm

I may not even sweat ;)

Me - 5:47:49 pm

I guess it's your place then haha

Diana - 5:47:12 pm

No, if I stay home I'll need to clean

Me - 5:48:06 pm

Bring your heart fate monitor

Diana - 5:47:12 pm

I can't find the strap! Haven't used it all week

Me - 5:48:38 pm

I have the chest strap

Diana - 5:47:12 pm

I want to eat the cake that's in the office. All of it. Every little bit of it.

Me - 5:48:43 pm

Should work

Diana - 5:47:12 pm

Mine is somewhere at home. Hence needing to clean

Me - 5:49:03 pm

They're standard

Me - 5:49:10 pm

Bring your watch

Diana - 5:49:15 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:49:20 pm

I want to buy a new one

Diana - 5:49:20 pm

Maybe santa will bring it

Me - 5:49:25 pm

Then decide if you want to wear the strap

Me - 5:49:41 pm

Been told about Santa yet?

Diana - 5:49:20 pm

I'm being taken to the vending machine

Me - 5:49:50 pm

Might not actually be true

Me - 5:49:55 pm

Resist

Me - 5:49:58 pm

!!!!

Me - 5:50:07 pm

Coffee only haha

Me - 5:51:22 pm

So... Then... What time in the morning. Just tell me what works for you.

Diana - 5:55:12 pm

Santa is real

Diana - 5:55:44 pm

I didn't eat anything

Diana - 5:55:44 pm

Just went along for the ride

Me - 5:56:04 pm

Strong woman!

Diana - 5:56:18 pm

Yea I can be staunch

Diana - 5:56:26 pm

For a few weeks but then I fold

Me - 5:56:51 pm

Old days!

Diana - 5:57:06 pm

I don't know! I'll need coffee, then pre workout, that'll take 2 hours to Leave my stomach then I'll be ready for a run :)

Me - 5:57:13 pm

You've now got your text buddy to help

Diana - 5:57:23 pm

What time? You tell me you're the trainer

Me - 5:57:35 pm

9am?

Me - 5:57:49 pm

Too late?

Diana - 5:58:49 pm

That's fine

Diana - 5:58:57 pm

You need your sleep ;)

Diana - 5:59:47 pm

Some people at work squeeze my arm when I walk past. Weirdos Huh

Diana - 6:00:00 pm

I'm going to drink a glass of wine when I get home so 9 is good

Diana - 6:00:00 pm

And it'll be warmer by then too, though windier

Me - 6:02:44 pm

SoUnds like a plan then

Me - 6:02:54 pm

See you here at 9am

Me - 6:03:12 pm

I'll be much prettier too. So much beauty sleep haha

Diana - 6:19:12 pm

Ok 9 it is coach

Diana - 6:46:56 pm

A Haigs chocolate frog literally just jumped in mouth

Diana - 6:46:56 pm

Seriously of its own volition

Me - 7:00:33 pm

Hahaha. Put it in the food diary! I'll expect to see it there in tonight's email.

Me - 7:01:41 pm

Do you have a fit ball at home? Been working on kneeling on it, for your next progression

Diana - 7:01:47 pm

It's in and delivered already. No wine now :(

Me - 7:01:56 pm

Why not?

Diana - 7:01:52 pm

Yes I have a fit ball

Me - 7:02:07 pm

Got to finish the half bottle!

Me - 7:02:16 pm

Be yuck tomorrow!

Diana - 7:01:52 pm

You mean one of those big balls?

Me - 7:02:26 pm

Yes

Diana - 7:01:52 pm

I've used all my calories so no wine

Diana - 7:04:00 pm

Ok I'll kneel on it

Diana - 7:04:00 pm

Weirdo ;)

Me - 7:06:49 pm

Wait until I show you!!!! Sigh! Let me coach haha

Diana - 7:08:06 pm

Ok. I'll let you coach.

Diana - 7:08:16 pm

But I'm in charge of everything else :)

Diana - 7:08:16 pm

I know I know, you need a texting break!

Diana - 7:08:16 pm

I can hear your relief!

Diana - 8:01:12 pm

I've finished

Me - 8:01:26 pm

I watched.

Me - 8:01:53 pm

You need to tell me what you do.

Me - 8:02:00 pm

Maybe tomorrow

Diana - 8:02:15 pm

There's a lot to talk about on this run!

Diana - 8:04:53 pm

Yes my never ending wasted potential

Diana - 8:05:15 pm

Too afraid of commitment to commit to anything long term and worthwhile

Diana - 8:05:18 pm

You know....

Me - 8:05:29 pm

I do know!!! Haha

Me - 8:05:36 pm

Can be fixed

Me - 8:05:36 pm

Slowly

Me - 8:05:40 pm

Very slowly

Me - 8:06:07 pm

Qui is good

Me - 8:06:12 pm

Qi

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

What's that?

Me - 8:06:21 pm

Might keep watching

Me - 8:06:26 pm

Show

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

Oh!

Me - 8:06:32 pm

Haha

Me - 8:06:36 pm

Don't know?

Diana - 8:06:51 pm

No

Me - 8:07:10 pm

Smart and funny, if you're smart

Diana - 8:07:10 pm

I only watch downloaded series. And offspring ;)

Me - 8:07:13 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:07:19 pm

Then I wouldn't get it

Me - 8:07:22 pm

Steven Fry

Me - 8:07:49 pm

Yes, you would

Diana - 8:07:55 pm

I'm a loser. Kid free night, shouldn't I be going out and doing stuff?

Me - 8:08:11 pm

If you're 25!!!!

Me - 8:08:25 pm

Don't get depressed...

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

Isn't 40

The new 25?

Me - 8:08:38 pm

Not for going out

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

And I have the metabolic health of a 25 year old ;)

Me - 8:08:47 pm

Enjoy your own company

Me - 8:08:58 pm

If not, come here for a short while

Me - 8:09:11 pm

Relax!

Diana - 8:09:19 pm

And watch Stephen fry?

Me - 8:09:26 pm

Too late by then

Diana - 8:09:29 pm

Relaxing is over rated

Me - 8:09:34 pm

Haha

Me - 8:09:55 pm

I've got lots of science programs recorded!

Diana - 8:09:56 pm

You'll need to sleep by the time I get there

Me - 8:10:00 pm

Cool stuff

Diana - 8:10:04 pm

Hahaha! Kill me!!!

Me - 8:10:06 pm

Nope

Me - 8:10:16 pm

Better than texting at 11 haha

Me - 8:10:22 pm

2nd sleep

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

Unless it's evolutionary invertebrate biology ;)

Me - 8:10:42 pm

Come, if it will help

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

We only texted that late once, now your being like me with the coffee machine ;)

Me - 8:10:56 pm

See me wearing glasses

Me - 8:11:03 pm

A sight to see

Diana - 8:11:10 pm

You're wearing glasses??

Me - 8:11:12 pm

Prof. Mark

Diana - 8:11:14 pm

To watch TV?

Me - 8:11:24 pm

To see 1 foot!!

Me - 8:11:30 pm

Really bad

Diana - 8:11:41 pm

What do you do at the gym then?

Me - 8:11:54 pm

I wouldn't recognize you on the couch next to me

Me - 8:11:59 pm

Contacts

Diana - 8:12:08 pm

Haha! That could make for some fun tricks

Me - 8:12:15 pm

Oops

Me - 8:12:18 pm

Worried now

Me - 8:12:30 pm

Maybe that's why I ignore people

Me - 8:12:35 pm

Can't see them haha

Diana - 8:12:16 pm

Nope I ignore them and my eyesight is good

Diana - 8:12:16 pm

You're an arse just like me, stop looking for excuses ;)

Me - 8:13:26 pm

If you want to be alone go home, if not come here. Simple!

Me - 8:13:38 pm

No need to be alone anymore

Me - 8:13:44 pm

Unless by choice

Diana - 8:14:00 pm

What about you though

Me - 8:14:03 pm

We could talk coaching

Me - 8:14:06 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:14:23 pm

I'd like that ;)

Me - 8:14:29 pm

I WOULD LOVE YOU TO COME!

Me - 8:14:36 pm

get it?

Diana - 8:14:24 pm

Uhmmm I think so

Me - 8:15:01 pm

Text me what you're doing

Me - 8:15:07 pm

Just to be difdernt haha

Me - 8:15:12 pm

Different

Diana - 8:15:57 pm

You're not really going to make me watch a science show if I come are you?

Me - 8:16:04 pm

Haha

Me - 8:16:08 pm

Spoilers

Diana - 8:16:09 pm

I really like to play dumb

Diana - 8:16:14 pm

Don't take that away from me

Me - 8:16:42 pm

Come and we'll find something silly to watch

Diana - 8:16:32 pm

Ok I'm leaving now

Me - 8:17:13 pm

Cancelled foxtel in 3 weeks, got to use it now haha

Diana - 8:16:32 pm

We'll have to have an early night for our run though

Me - 8:17:31 pm

I'll leave the door unlocked

Me - 8:17:40 pm

Just come in. No doorbell

Me - 8:17:54 pm

Run can be later

Diana - 8:18:22 pm

I can knock right, don't need a doorbell for that

Me - 8:18:33 pm

Yep.

Diana - 8:18:40 pm

Ok

Me - 8:19:04 pm

Drive!!

Diana - 8:18:40 pm

I'll be there soon

Me - 8:19:09 pm

Go

**Saturday 27 September**

Diana - 8:31:42 am

I didn't sleep so well, can you hit me up with some of your sons poison?

Me - 8:31:58 am

Of course.

Me - 8:32:08 am

Didn't sleep too well either haha

Diana - 8:32:27 am

Ok double scoops for both of us

Me - 8:32:42 am

Already on my adding coffee

Me - 8:32:47 am

Second

Diana - 8:33:30 am

I can't drink before running I get stitches. I had one at 6 now just going to have some seeds for fuel

Me - 8:34:03 am

We'll have to fix that

Diana - 8:34:15 am

My legs are killing me after yoga and your circuit yesterday, I hope you're ready for a snail pace

Me - 8:34:20 am

Everest base camp. Have to eat in the way

Me - 8:34:32 am

Ready for whatever

Diana - 8:34:39 am

You can go ahead and do burpees til I catch up :)

Me - 8:34:56 am

Just time running is all today is

Me - 8:35:01 am

Pace irrelevant

Me - 8:35:06 am

Weight?

Diana - 8:34:40 am

55.9

Me - 8:35:30 am

Cool

Diana - 8:34:40 am

I'm losing 300 grams a day

Me - 8:35:35 am

!!'

Diana - 8:36:01 am

But I haven't had a single rest day

Diana - 8:36:05 am

Sustainable?

Me - 8:36:12 am

Rest day?

Me - 8:36:30 am

What do you mean?

Diana - 8:36:48 am

Well I'm losing 300 grams a day while exercising pretty hard, I wouldn't lost that much on a rest day

Diana - 8:36:48 am

I know you think yoga is a rest... But it's not!

Me - 8:38:03 am

No I don't. Stop texting and come here!!!

Diana - 8:38:12 am

I did half an hour this morning cause I was so sore

Diana - 8:38:15 am

Didn't help

Diana - 8:38:24 am

Yep just need to have some seeds and I'll be there

Diana - 11:12:32 am

Just got to hang the washing out

Me - 11:13:08 am

Ok. See you soon

Diana - 11:12:32 am

I'm just going to sleep by the lake :)

Me - 11:13:30 am

Promise I won't talk

Diana - 11:31:24 am

Ok on my way, want me to get anything?

Me - 11:32:08 am

Like what? Food? Wine? Chocolate? Haha. Nope all fine unless you want something

Diana - 11:33:31 am

Well you may have needed milk or something?

Diana - 11:33:39 am

In any case a simple no would have done :p

Me - 11:33:47 am

No

Diana - 11:33:52 am

No thank you ;)

Me - 11:34:05 am

No thank you

Me - 1:31:37 pm

You can save iMessage texts from your computer. Not all our earlier conversations are there. But, still, over 100 pages. Phew! Seriously cool.

Diana - 1:37:36 pm

Oh gee

Diana - 1:37:36 pm

I think the delete button needs to be employed

Diana - 1:38:44 pm

Are we doing your head in?

Diana - 1:41:52 pm

Is this I mean

Me - 1:46:24 pm

Been driving. Just arrived at the hospital

Me - 1:46:44 pm

My head is fine. Better actually than it has been I years

Diana - 1:46:08 pm

No worries, see your mum

Diana - 1:47:13 pm

That's a worry :p

Me - 1:47:51 pm

I see a Guiness Book Of World Records entry coninf up. Let's increase the pace haha

Me - 1:48:03 pm

Don't underestimate yourself.

Me - 1:48:45 pm

I didn't say my head as BAD before. Better now. Haha ok I'm going inside

Diana - 1:48:16 pm

It's doing my head in :/

Diana - 1:48:16 pm

A little

Diana - 1:48:16 pm

Ok catch you later

Me - 1:50:17 pm

Really? I hope not too much. Anyway, another topic for discussion during runs haha

Me - 1:52:31 pm

You've got a lot more to deal with than me. I'm a minor distraction. I understand. We'll keep it cool. Ultimate cool!! See you soon-ish, whenever.

Diana - 2:18:05 pm

Wow you've managed to figure out my problem and fix it for me too.

Me - 2:18:51 pm

If only! ;)

Diana - 2:28:48 pm

All without asking a question!

Diana - 2:28:48 pm

Your totally underpaid

Diana - 2:28:48 pm

All jokes aside, you really are

Me - 2:29:38 pm

Under qualified too.

Me - 2:29:44 pm

Paid enough

Me - 2:30:51 pm

From you, anyway. Just need more but then I may not have the time to focus on the good ones. Small problems, in comparison.

Diana - 2:30:56 pm

In comparison to whom?

Me - 2:31:49 pm

Like the grammar! Perfect. Haha

Diana - 2:30:56 pm

And you totally missed my snide point about you assuming you know my problem :p

Me - 2:32:07 pm

Got the snide!

Diana - 2:30:56 pm

Well then exquisitely ignored. I'll pay that

Diana - 3:23:37 pm

Already people have gone to get me coffee

Diana - 3:23:48 pm

Does that mean I'm incredibly nice or incredibly cranky?

Me - 3:24:22 pm

You want ME to answer that? Haha. Too biased.

Me - 3:24:28 pm

Nice?

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Hmm

Me - 3:24:48 pm

Hard day ahead?

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Or they know I'm an addict

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Could be

Me - 3:25:07 pm

Haha

Me - 3:25:25 pm

Isn't that you?

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

I actually tell her to breathe. She specifically asks for me because I keep her 'call'

Me - 3:25:27 pm

Haha

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Calm

Diana - 3:25:41 pm

Never mind what it does to my nerves ::

Diana - 3:25:44 pm

:/

Me - 3:25:51 pm

Must be all the coffee...

Diana - 3:26:05 pm

She smokes aswell

Me - 3:26:11 pm

Oh no!

Me - 3:26:15 pm

Tough

Me - 3:26:25 pm

Have to go outside?

Me - 3:26:38 pm

To make decisions with her

Diana - 3:26:24 pm

I don't, I get to gather myself for the next round

Me - 3:27:59 pm

I'm working on your programs for October. Tough. Need to design a new format. Onto my 3rd coffee already haha

Me - 3:28:10 pm

Hang in there

Diana - 3:28:20 pm

I had one on my way in and now another is coming

Diana - 3:28:25 pm

I'm going to be off my head!

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

Not good for my calorie intake either

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

I want to eat everything! It's all about feelings really isn't it

Me - 3:28:51 pm

Sleep issue solved haha

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

Don't spend time on my program I don't pay you enough

Me - 3:29:00 pm

Yes, feelings

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

Just give me one new trick each week

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

Like the medicine ball one this morning

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

That's all my little brain needs

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

How's your mum

Me - 3:29:34 pm

Nope. Love doing stuff for you.

Me - 3:29:55 pm

Mum's better. May go home tomorrow.

Me - 3:30:06 pm

She's had enough of hospital.

Me - 3:30:09 pm

Fair enough

Diana - 3:30:34 pm

For sure

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

Especially when the weather is nice, hospitals suck

Me - 3:30:50 pm

We need to program you around wow's and lifting and running

Me - 3:30:58 pm

Tough ask

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

Or quit the wows?

Me - 3:31:04 pm

Haha

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

Not kidding

Me - 3:31:28 pm

Nope. Challenge!! I love challenges

Me - 3:32:08 pm

Formatting is hard. About to give up. No. I won't...

Me - 3:32:17 pm

Hard to find what works well

Me - 3:32:31 pm

I'll use it with other advanced clients

Me - 3:32:35 pm

Eventually

Me - 3:32:49 pm

When I get another one, that is

Diana - 3:32:48 pm

Experiment on me

Me - 3:32:59 pm

I am

Diana - 3:32:48 pm

I like trying new things

Me - 3:33:14 pm

I thought you knew? Haha

Me - 3:34:07 pm

Humour right?

Diana - 3:34:56 pm

Yes of course

Diana - 3:34:56 pm

I'm laughing on the inside

Diana - 3:34:56 pm

Staunch on the outer

Me - 3:35:26 pm

Haha

Me - 3:35:32 pm

I know THAT!!

Me - 3:35:38 pm

humour again

Me - 3:36:48 pm

Looking at Trigger Bros site. Distraction. We need to go on a surf trip! Impossible I know.

Diana - 3:34:56 pm

Yes, in between reading about beheadings! Ha!

Diana - 3:34:56 pm

Impossible? More for you than me

Me - 3:37:10 pm

Together....

Diana - 3:37:16 pm

I think I've been away more than you even with little kids!

Diana - 3:37:31 pm

You're scared of the dandenongs :p

Me - 3:37:35 pm

Thanks for the reminder/lesson

Me - 3:37:39 pm

Haha

Diana - 3:38:03 pm

We are we going?

Me - 3:38:04 pm

I'm going out there this week. Just for you. To scout sites

Me - 3:38:17 pm

My need a compass

Me - 3:38:24 pm

May need..

Me - 3:38:28 pm

Hahaa

Diana - 3:38:48 pm

Oh my god are you seriously going to prepare?????????

Diana - 3:38:51 pm

No.

Me - 3:38:52 pm

Although it will be 2 weeks before e go

Diana - 3:39:00 pm

We will go and find a spot spontaneously ok?

Me - 3:39:02 pm

Of course!

Me - 3:39:09 pm

That too

Me - 3:39:13 pm

Fall back plan

Me - 3:39:42 pm

I might try and remember where I used to run every Sunday when I was fit

Me - 3:39:53 pm

Marathon fit

Me - 3:40:08 pm

Mountains have probably moved in the meantime haha

Me - 3:40:13 pm

So long ago

Me - 3:40:16 pm

;)

Diana - 3:41:20 pm

The national parks website has a list

Diana - 3:41:20 pm

We just choose one each fortnight

Me - 3:41:42 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:41:20 pm

Stop complicating it

Me - 3:42:07 pm

Ok. You're the boss. As I've been told

Diana - 3:42:15 pm

Now, how are you going to handle a surfing trip?

Diana - 3:42:19 pm

You've got me worried

Me - 3:42:22 pm

Easy

Me - 3:42:45 pm

No planning except starting direction, right?

Me - 3:42:54 pm

Or is that too much? Haha

Me - 3:43:24 pm

I've got a land cruiser, we could go anywhere

Me - 3:43:33 pm

On land

Me - 3:43:37 pm

That is

Me - 3:44:09 pm

New name for you: Spontaneous Woman. Haha

Me - 3:44:18 pm

Like it

Me - 3:44:32 pm

Need it too

Me - 3:44:38 pm

;)

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Coffee has arrived

Diana - 3:48:47 pm

Yes closing eyes and pointing to a random spot on the map works well ;)

Me - 3:48:50 pm

That took awhile. Must be good!

Me - 3:49:01 pm

Beachside required though

Me - 3:49:11 pm

;)

Me - 3:49:35 pm

Before or after Everest?

Diana - 3:49:45 pm

Well if it's surf of course

Diana - 3:49:49 pm

Before

Diana - 3:49:52 pm

I'm going to need time to save for Everest

Diana - 3:49:52 pm

And it'll be a good practice run to see how quickly we want to kill eachother

Me - 3:50:25 pm

Haha

Me - 3:50:39 pm

That's what I though we were doing already!

Me - 3:50:59 pm

And...

Me - 3:51:11 pm

No murder planned yet

Diana - 3:54:08 pm

Hmm early days

Me - 3:55:16 pm

100 pages = early days? You're a tough woman

Me - 3:55:24 pm

Sorry, staunch haha

Diana - 3:55:28 pm

Do you have a teepee for me to sleep in

Me - 3:55:42 pm

Early days... Haha

Diana - 3:58:24 pm

I'll need a double blow up mattress too

Diana - 3:58:24 pm

And a percolator ;)

Diana - 3:58:24 pm

Otherwise I'm good to go :)

Diana - 4:15:21 pm

And so this is an example of how we are incompatible. I've got young kids, you've done your time and ready to travel

Diana - 4:15:28 pm

Very different places in life hey

Me - 4:15:58 pm

Never say never

Diana - 4:16:28 pm

You know it makes no sense

Diana - 4:16:42 pm

You've said it yourself, you just fall easily. And out just as easily

Me - 4:17:51 pm

Don't read too much into that. I'm enjoying you. I like being with you, stop putting roadblocks when there isn't even a road yet

Me - 4:18:12 pm

If it's important enough then a way will always be found!!

Me - 4:18:31 pm

Early days...

Me - 4:18:44 pm

Compatible!!!

Me - 4:18:57 pm

Haha. I think we're perfect!

Me - 4:19:08 pm

Logistics are just logistics

Me - 4:19:16 pm

Need planning...

Me - 4:19:18 pm

Hahaha

Me - 4:19:27 pm

Like you don't like ;)

Me - 4:19:32 pm

Early days

Me - 4:19:42 pm

Go with the flow, man!

Diana - 4:32:27 pm

Don't minimise

Diana - 4:32:30 pm

That's annoying

Diana - 4:32:32 pm

There's too much flow for me already

Diana - 4:32:32 pm

It's not like I have time for a summer romance

Diana - 4:32:32 pm

Argh

Me - 4:33:05 pm

Ok. Sorry

Me - 4:33:30 pm

Not interested in summer romance. No need to worry about that.

Me - 4:34:42 pm

My bad. I do tend to break things down to smallest issue and treat them separately. Bad habit. It's the scientific method. Doesn't work for people

Me - 4:34:54 pm

Complex systems

Me - 4:34:57 pm

Sorry

Diana - 4:34:40 pm

Right well. It's not a road block its a reality check. And right at this time I need to keep shit real and not get lost in some ludicrous imagining.

Diana - 4:34:40 pm

It's not that scientific.

Diana - 4:34:40 pm

It's just avoidance

Diana - 4:34:40 pm

You're older and your kids are grown up

Diana - 4:34:40 pm

I have young kids no energy and no time and I'm frustrated

Diana - 4:34:40 pm

And well I don't know much more than that

Diana - 4:34:40 pm

It's all quite preposterous

Me - 4:36:26 pm

Ok. I had no intention to complicate your life. I'm really sorry

Me - 4:37:06 pm

Last thing I wanted to do

Me - 4:37:18 pm

Opposite really

Diana - 4:36:48 pm

This is my point you now have time and space and you're just riding the wave and seeing where it goes, you have the ability to do that now. Though you said you would have hated it being in my position a few years ago

Diana - 4:36:48 pm

You say you fall for people easy, you've met a lot of women like me and it's gone nowhere

Diana - 4:36:48 pm

I mean what's your message?

Diana - 4:36:48 pm

You've got no time or energy but just hang about while i have a play Diana?

Diana - 4:36:48 pm

Argh

Diana - 4:36:48 pm

Shouldn't txt this stuff

Me - 4:38:53 pm

Hard to answer all that in a text.

Diana - 4:39:42 pm

And did you want more than a summer romance have you thought it though! Kids, young kids. You're at the North Pole I'm at the South. Which would be nice cause I'd love to go there.

Diana - 4:40:00 pm

And I want the whole thing, when I'm ready. I want to live with someone and share families.

Diana - 4:40:05 pm

You're over it been there done it

Diana - 4:40:09 pm

Quite simple

Diana - 4:40:12 pm

Argh

Me - 4:40:17 pm

Who said I'm over it?

Diana - 4:40:17 pm

AnywAy you're right

Diana - 4:40:20 pm

No good for text

Diana - 4:40:25 pm

I'm in a state

Diana - 4:40:32 pm

See what coffee and no sleep does!

Me - 4:40:35 pm

Stop reading stuff into what I say.

Diana - 4:40:38 pm

I need another

Diana - 4:40:48 pm

I'm not, I'm taking it at face value

Diana - 4:40:56 pm

Perhaps you should think before you speak

Me - 4:41:08 pm

Ah, face value. Through texts? Hard

Me - 4:41:32 pm

Well, a lot of what we do here is banter

Diana - 4:41:36 pm

You said that stuff in your lou he

Diana - 4:41:42 pm

Lounge

Me - 4:41:48 pm

Ok

Diana - 4:41:59 pm

Anyway I better work

Me - 4:42:03 pm

Ok

Diana - 4:42:04 pm

Sorry for the outburst

Me - 4:42:22 pm

No problems. Sorry I causes it

Diana - 4:42:35 pm

I'm not really in a place to just cruise and chill and go along for the ride like you suggest

Diana - 4:42:41 pm

I'm already overwhelmed

Me - 4:42:46 pm

I know

Diana - 4:42:59 pm

Ok.

Diana - 4:43:09 pm

We shouldn't do this through text

Diana - 4:43:12 pm

It's kinda unhealthy

Diana - 4:43:34 pm

Now I wanna eat cake

Diana - 4:43:38 pm

And chips

Diana - 4:43:40 pm

And pizza

Me - 4:43:42 pm

Noooo!

Diana - 4:43:45 pm

And drink cider!

Diana - 4:43:50 pm

Heaps and heaps and heaps

;)

Me - 4:44:09 pm

I've really stuffed up then

Diana - 4:44:35 pm

Not at all

Me - 4:45:17 pm

Today was fun though.

Me - 4:45:31 pm

Don't want to give that up

Diana - 4:46:40 pm

I know

Diana - 4:46:51 pm

But I don't know how to

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

We need a banner for the Hawks plasma

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Think of anything?

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Are you pissed off with me?

Me - 4:56:41 pm

Not at all!!!!

Me - 4:57:12 pm

I really wNt to find a way out of this. I just want you to be happy!

Me - 4:57:17 pm

Really!

Me - 4:57:25 pm

Really really

Me - 4:57:43 pm

and you're probably right. I'm not the one for you

Me - 4:58:02 pm

I think I am, but that makes things too hard for you

Me - 4:58:09 pm

I understand

Diana - 4:58:08 pm

You what to find a way out of this?

Me - 4:58:24 pm

Forward out!!

Me - 4:58:30 pm

Not back out haha

Diana - 4:58:08 pm

You don't think our ages and positions in life are an issue?

Me - 4:58:52 pm

But I can't see it either

Diana - 4:58:08 pm

Seriously?

Me - 4:59:05 pm

Yep, you're right

Me - 4:59:32 pm

I just turned the footy on

Me - 4:59:40 pm

Unexpected result

Me - 5:00:40 pm

Got a banner? Must be heaps around.

Me - 5:00:52 pm

At least you know the result early haha

Diana - 5:02:24 pm
Can't see what?

Diana - 5:02:24 pm

And what am I right about

Diana - 5:02:24 pm

Fuck the banner

Me - 5:07:14 pm

I dont want to complicate your life. Last thing on my mind but I can't help how I feel. You're possibly right about everything you said, I guess I'm just hoping you're wrong but not based on any real data.

Diana - 5:06:40 pm

Data. Right the lacking data!

Me - 5:07:43 pm

Ha

Diana - 5:06:40 pm

Should we talk like humans

Diana - 5:06:40 pm

Or shall this suffice

Me - 5:10:06 pm

Humans is better, but this method is the only way at the moment. I think it causes problems when you try and say "real" stuff. Eg data above, that was the smallest part of what I said and was a poor choice of word.

Me - 5:10:30 pm

But the intent was still there

Me - 5:10:35 pm

Shit!

Me - 5:10:40 pm

This is hard

Diana - 5:10:43 pm

We can leave it as the relationship that didn't happen whose most important words were sent by text ;)

Me - 5:10:48 pm

And too easy to say too much

Me - 5:10:55 pm

Haha

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

Yes

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:11:07 pm

It's good to be honest though

Diana - 5:11:13 pm

Can you do that in person?

Me - 5:11:20 pm

It's REALLY intimate I think

Me - 5:11:44 pm

Easier by phone, so I think more is said

Me - 5:11:52 pm

As I said, I quite like it

Me - 5:11:53 pm

But

Me - 5:12:03 pm

I don't want to complicate your life

Me - 5:12:24 pm

We need to talk more in person to decode what's said by text

Diana - 5:12:41 pm

Yea

Me - 5:12:48 pm

I think it can happen! Eventually! Slowly!

Diana - 5:12:57 pm

Talking?

Me - 5:13:00 pm

Just be mates and see

Me - 5:13:53 pm

It = big complex thingy, we don't talk about

Me - 5:14:11 pm

I don't wNt to lose you as a friend if the other thing stuffs up

Diana - 5:14:20 pm

Back to go with the flow

Diana - 5:14:22 pm

Exactly

Diana - 5:14:30 pm

So isn't it better to just be friends right

Diana - 5:14:35 pm

It's bound to stuff up

Diana - 5:14:38 pm

Even you've said that

Diana - 5:14:43 pm

Everything does!

Me - 5:14:45 pm

I'm wrong then

Me - 5:14:50 pm

I may

Me - 5:14:55 pm

It may not

Me - 5:15:09 pm

Depends on soooo many things

Diana - 5:16:00 pm

Ok so lie around in the sun as mates and not touch ever and see how it goes

Me - 5:16:08 pm

Stream of consciousness texting doesn't always guarantee what is said is what someone really thinks

Me - 5:16:20 pm

Nope. Gotta hug! Haha

Me - 5:16:30 pm

That's all I want

Diana - 5:16:48 pm

That's all you want?

Me - 5:16:53 pm

Yep

Me - 5:16:56 pm

For now

Me - 5:17:03 pm

Absolutely

Me - 5:17:21 pm

Not all men are like other men haha

Me - 5:17:47 pm

I talk too much

Me - 5:18:00 pm

I'll just listen from now on

Diana - 5:18:10 pm

Sex does tend to complicate things

Diana - 5:18:17 pm

Haha! As if you will!

Me - 5:18:19 pm

ABSOLUTELY

Me - 5:18:34 pm

tends to stop things progressing

Me - 5:18:55 pm

Sexual tension, unresolved, is the best!

Me - 5:20:09 pm

Maybe I said too much and was, unconsciously, showing off. Just like men do. Sigh! And I thought I wa different.

Diana - 5:20:19 pm

Showing off what?

Me - 5:20:24 pm

Showing off by being vulnerable

Me - 5:20:36 pm

Which I am, btw

Me - 5:21:45 pm

Still can't get the formatting right for you. Argh. Too hard

Me - 5:21:55 pm

Your program, I mean

Diana - 5:23:41 pm

Well then focus ;)

Diana - 5:24:55 pm

Oh dear someone else is going to get me another coffee

Me - 5:24:58 pm

Ok mum. Just been busy, that's all. Trying to sort out my life. But, ok then. Formatting it is

Diana - 5:25:09 pm

I don't think unresolved sexual tension is the best

Me - 5:25:13 pm

Coffe is ok

Diana - 5:25:18 pm

Do both :)

Me - 5:25:35 pm

What? Doesn't make sense.

Diana - 5:25:35 pm

Coffee is not ok, I'll struggle to sleep badly after all this caffeine!

Me - 5:26:00 pm

Yeah, you need to sleep

Me - 5:26:06 pm

Got to fix that

Me - 5:26:11 pm

Somehow

Diana - 5:25:52 pm

Do both as in fix your life and my program

Diana - 5:25:52 pm

What's your sleep fixing idea

Diana - 5:25:52 pm

Don't offer my more drugs

Diana - 5:27:14 pm

Btw I totally want the poison for the next wow

Me - 5:27:20 pm

No idea. Use the baseball bat over the head? Haha

Diana - 5:27:58 pm

Yes ok, I'll give that a go

Me - 5:28:00 pm

Reduce stress? Haha Sorry, couldn't resist. Inappropriate.

Diana - 5:28:00 pm

The baseball bat or the stress reduction is inappropriate

Diana - 5:28:00 pm

Both would work

Diana - 5:28:00 pm

Yoga should do it also

Diana - 5:28:00 pm

Incorporate it into being my way of life

Me - 5:29:17 pm

Swami Diana!

Diana - 5:30:08 pm

Better than smami

Diana - 5:51:15 pm

To the important stuff

Diana - 5:51:18 pm

Star signs

Me - 5:51:53 pm

When IS your birthday?

Me - 5:52:38 pm

Is star signs a big news item? Haha

Diana - 5:54:38 pm

No but I read them just for fun

Diana - 5:54:44 pm

When is your birthday

Diana - 5:54:48 pm

Mine is March

Me - 5:54:56 pm

November

Me - 5:55:12 pm

What does March mean you're like?

Diana - 5:55:11 pm

I can think of a few things ....

Diana - 5:55:18 pm

November when?

Diana - 5:55:21 pm

I'm a Pisces

Diana - 5:55:25 pm

Hopeless really

Diana - 5:55:40 pm

What are you? Please don't say Sagittarius

Me - 5:55:48 pm

Scorpio

Me - 5:56:05 pm

Sexual tension city haha

Me - 5:56:26 pm

Why not Sagittarius?

Diana - 5:59:28 pm

Sting in your tail Huh

Me - 6:00:10 pm

Not me, what scorpio's are supposed to be like. Move to where/what?

Diana - 6:00:00 pm

Don't know

Diana - 6:00:00 pm

That's the interesting bit

Me - 6:01:27 pm

But relationships aren't like that?

Me - 6:01:34 pm

Sorry, again

Me - 6:01:39 pm

In advance

Diana - 6:02:08 pm

Apparently Ice sums up your emotional stance

Me - 6:02:19 pm

Be nice to me, I'm writing your circuit next week

Diana - 6:02:08 pm

As a Scorpio

Diana - 6:02:08 pm

No you're not

Diana - 6:02:08 pm

Not sorry at all

Diana - 6:02:08 pm

Therein lies the sting

Me - 6:02:53 pm

So, really a Scorpio then?

Diana - 6:02:08 pm

http://www.astrology.com.au/astrology/12-signs-of-the-zodiac/scorpio.html

Diana - 6:02:08 pm

You over do it to feel alive

Diana - 6:02:08 pm

Sound familiar?

Me - 6:04:13 pm

I'm reading... You get pissed off at me when I don't read your links

Diana - 6:04:16 pm

Though it says you are the silent type... May need a rewrite ;)

Diana - 6:04:16 pm

Hahaha!

Me - 6:05:09 pm

Silent is me, when not with you haha. Water sounds good and right. Still reading

Diana - 6:04:16 pm

Constantly seeking to hurt others??

Diana - 6:04:16 pm

Fixed water

Diana - 6:04:16 pm

Ice actually

Diana - 6:04:16 pm

I'm water

Diana - 6:04:16 pm

You're not as fluid as me

Diana - 6:04:16 pm

I tip into other people's buckets too easy

Diana - 6:04:16 pm

I don't think you do that

Diana - 6:06:01 pm

It takes everything I have to keep boundaries in place

Diana - 6:06:06 pm

Your fixed I sense

Me - 6:06:39 pm

All that from star signs? Phew!

Me - 6:07:11 pm

See...

Me - 6:07:19 pm

I'm just listening...

Me - 6:08:13 pm

I like passionate and resolute.

Diana - 6:06:24 pm

It hurts though doesn't it ;)

Me - 6:08:22 pm

The rest not so much

Me - 6:09:04 pm

Tomorrow is my lucky day, apparently.

Diana - 6:08:32 pm

What's happening tomorrow?

Me - 6:09:57 pm

Star sign says Sunday is my lucky day. Don't know yet haha

Diana - 6:08:32 pm

What day are you born?

Diana - 6:08:32 pm

That's busy speak

Me - 6:10:42 pm

"You give 100% to those you love"

Me - 6:11:09 pm

"Loyal"

Diana - 6:10:40 pm

Until you ignore them ;)

Diana - 6:10:40 pm

Which day???

Me - 6:11:48 pm

"Turn heads when you walk into a room" 13

Me - 6:12:03 pm

And give me a break! I wa in my 20's!!!

Me - 6:12:39 pm

"Magnetic power" Cool!

Me - 6:13:02 pm

"Amazing eyes"

Diana - 6:13:13 pm

Oh god

Diana - 6:13:17 pm

Settle down!

Me - 6:13:44 pm

You started it! It cool!

Diana - 6:14:12 pm

Remember the grain of salt ;)

Me - 6:14:22 pm

"Never a dull moment"

Me - 6:14:58 pm

I never realized how awesome and complex and all round great guy I was! Thaaaaanks Diana!

Diana - 6:15:24 pm

hahahaha!

Diana - 6:15:34 pm

I like to help others

Diana - 6:15:41 pm

It's one of my faults :p

Me - 6:15:58 pm

Swami Astrologist

Me - 6:16:28 pm

Do like being helped yourself though?

Diana - 6:16:39 pm

You know you should confer with me re my program sometime

Diana - 6:16:43 pm

No, I don't

Diana - 6:16:51 pm

I wish I did

Me - 6:16:51 pm

Ha

Diana - 6:16:58 pm

Too independent

Diana - 6:17:04 pm

And help always comes at a cost

Me - 6:17:29 pm

Not necessarily, but yes, usually

Diana - 6:17:41 pm

Yes

Diana - 6:17:49 pm

I'd like a piece of cheesecake

Diana - 6:17:51 pm

Or pizza

Diana - 6:18:03 pm

Everyone is eating all around me

Diana - 6:18:09 pm

And I'm drinking a protein shake

Me - 6:18:24 pm

Good girl! Keep texting

Me - 6:18:31 pm

Take your mind off it

Diana - 6:20:31 pm

Good girl???

Diana - 6:20:36 pm

It's mixed with water

Diana - 6:20:40 pm

Hmm delicious

Diana - 6:20:53 pm

Pat is having twisties

Diana - 6:20:56 pm

Yum!

Me - 6:21:55 pm

You were going on about the age difference! Just thought it might fit. It doesn't though, does it haha

Diana - 6:21:20 pm

And now you have to read the Pisces one

Diana - 6:22:06 pm

We are the most advanced spiritually ;)

Diana - 6:22:12 pm

Hopeless on earth however

Me - 6:22:14 pm

Send me the link

Diana - 6:22:20 pm

No

Diana - 6:22:24 pm

Argh I'm at work!

Me - 6:22:27 pm

Ok

Me - 6:22:31 pm

I'll find it

Me - 6:22:35 pm

Work away

Me - 6:24:02 pm

"Spiritually developed character"

Me - 6:24:30 pm

"Unconditionally loving"

Me - 6:25:23 pm

"Second nature for you to care"

Me - 6:25:51 pm

"Avoid making hard decisions"

Diana - 6:25:36 pm

Ha!

Diana - 6:25:36 pm

Nothing about my eyes ;)

Me - 6:26:30 pm

"Sacrificial lamb in reLroonships"

Me - 6:26:35 pm

Not yet

Diana - 6:26:38 pm

Or my strength and character when I walk into a room??

Me - 6:26:43 pm

Ha

Diana - 6:26:53 pm

Sacrificial lamb - see why i wanna run???

Me - 6:27:21 pm

So we DO have a relationship do we? Haha

Diana - 6:27:42 pm

Yea, you're my trainer :p

Me - 6:28:01 pm

"Wonderful works of art and music"

Diana - 6:27:44 pm

My trainer who wants a hug

Me - 6:28:06 pm

Hahaa

Me - 6:28:56 pm

"Hypersensitive, absorb the negative emotions around you"

Me - 6:29:27 pm

"Love fine furnishings" hahaha

Me - 6:30:07 pm

"You have to learn to accept the world with all it's faults" hmmm?

Diana - 6:29:52 pm

Yea well hiding from it doesn't work

Diana - 6:29:52 pm

I tried that

Me - 6:30:40 pm

"You need loving friends"

Me - 6:31:06 pm

"Enjoy you own company"

Diana - 6:31:26 pm

When I'm on pre workout at the gym I do ;)

Me - 6:31:33 pm

"And comfortable is Social situations"

Diana - 6:31:44 pm

So you see, fairly hopeless on earth

Me - 6:32:11 pm

"Sometimes you feel isolated and a little disconnected from the world around you"

Me - 6:33:39 pm

"Destiny is Wisdom, self knowledge and compassionate service to the world"

Me - 6:34:26 pm

People are "lucky who come into contact with you"

Me - 6:34:36 pm

Sounds pretty good!

Me - 6:34:46 pm

Maybe not as good as Scorpio

Me - 6:35:04 pm

Lighting up rooms etc etc

Me - 6:35:06 pm

Haha

Me - 6:36:01 pm

I've got to do some work argh

Diana - 6:36:16 pm

Mine is less egocentric that's for sure

Me - 6:37:37 pm

Again...

Me - 6:37:49 pm

Thaaaaanks Diana!

Me - 6:37:55 pm

;)

Diana - 6:38:24 pm

Ha!

Diana - 6:38:24 pm

Sorry

Diana - 6:38:24 pm

I'm being a bit of a shit aren't i

Diana - 6:38:24 pm

Lack of sleep and too much coffee and stressful work?

Me - 6:40:14 pm

Listening... Not talking...

Diana - 6:38:24 pm

No excuse but it's kinda fun ;)

Diana - 6:40:22 pm

Haha!

Me - 6:40:30 pm

Love it, to be honest

Diana - 6:40:32 pm

Don't try to be something you're not

Diana - 6:40:32 pm

You save me having to talk, I like that

Me - 6:41:31 pm

Thanks. It's cool, and really intimate while not being intimate.

Me - 6:41:44 pm

If that makes sense

Diana - 6:47:48 pm

I'm not sure if you mean texting or talking

Me - 6:48:15 pm

Texting

Diana - 7:27:07 pm

Finished my program yet?

Diana - 7:27:16 pm

Or am I distracting you too much

Me - 7:27:16 pm

Week 3

Me - 7:27:26 pm

Going to eat now

Me - 7:27:42 pm

Week 3 is heavy again

Diana - 7:27:28 pm

Oh!

Diana - 7:27:28 pm

Week 3

Me - 7:27:49 pm

1rm

Diana - 7:27:28 pm

Let me get this straight, 3 weeks from now???

Diana - 7:27:28 pm

What's for dinner?

Me - 7:28:16 pm

Leftovers. Want some?

Diana - 7:27:28 pm

I had a mandarin and protein shake :( I have 200 calories left

Diana - 7:28:28 pm

I was thinking pizza ;)

Me - 7:29:19 pm

Strong winds tomorrow!

Diana - 7:29:28 pm

Very Strong

Diana - 7:29:33 pm

Like me ;)

Diana - 7:29:36 pm

I mean you

Me - 7:29:44 pm

Haha. Both?

Diana - 7:29:36 pm

So what are you having for dinner?

Diana - 7:29:36 pm

No pizza im guessong

Diana - 7:29:36 pm

Guessing

Diana - 7:29:36 pm

And did you even have lunch?? Huh??

Me - 7:30:38 pm

Aahhhh

Me - 7:30:41 pm

Well

Diana - 7:29:36 pm

Finished!! Woohooo

Me - 7:30:49 pm

First meal now

Diana - 7:31:01 pm

Omg that's terrible

Diana - 7:31:05 pm

Really terrible

Diana - 7:31:15 pm

That's like chronic self deprivation

Me - 7:31:34 pm

I'm thinking monk could be my calling haha

Me - 7:31:42 pm

Didn't feel hungry

Me - 7:31:56 pm

Had a shake, bNana and lots of coffee

Me - 7:32:17 pm

I need to eat more

Me - 7:32:21 pm

I know

Diana - 7:31:44 pm

Monks don't need hugs

Me - 7:32:35 pm

Haha

Me - 7:32:40 pm

Neither do I

Me - 7:32:49 pm

Therefore, monk

Diana - 7:33:26 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:33:36 pm

Then let's get the focus back on training :)

Me - 7:34:04 pm

What do think I've been doing all afternoon??

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

Talking about hugging ;)

Me - 7:35:12 pm

Haha. Can't win, can I. ;) But then I'm not supposed to, am I.

Diana - 7:35:32 pm

No. Nicely said

Me - 7:36:17 pm

WhooHoo! Something I said that was right!! Dear Diary entry time.

Diana - 7:36:00 pm

Hold onto it

Diana - 7:36:00 pm

It may never happen again ;)

Me - 7:37:11 pm

Exactly!!! It needs to be recorded for posterity.

Me - 7:37:19 pm

Duty

Me - 7:37:29 pm

To future generations

Me - 7:37:39 pm

See how it's done! Haha

Diana - 7:38:01 pm

It's a nice night

Diana - 7:38:08 pm

Lots of people out

Me - 7:38:13 pm

You outside?

Diana - 7:38:08 pm

Yep walking to my car

Diana - 7:38:08 pm

Pretty city this one

Me - 7:38:40 pm

Going straight home?

Me - 7:39:42 pm

South bank is awesome. Yeah, agree

Me - 7:40:09 pm

I used to run along there

Me - 7:40:20 pm

There wa just a biscuit factory

Diana - 7:46:40 pm

Sorry had a FaceTime from Imogen

Me - 7:47:17 pm

No need to apologise

Diana - 7:47:31 pm

No I guess now

Diana - 7:47:33 pm

Not

Me - 7:49:02 pm

Going straight home?

Diana - 7:49:40 pm

Don't know

Me - 7:50:07 pm

Options? Better?

Diana - 7:50:35 pm

Not going out on the town if that's what you're asking

Me - 7:51:54 pm

I wouldn't talk. Promise! Or not. Or straight to sleep. Or whatever.

Me - 7:52:26 pm

Food?

Diana - 7:52:40 pm

Straight to sleep?

Diana - 7:52:48 pm

Food? Under 200 calories?

Me - 7:53:00 pm

At your house!

Diana - 7:53:04 pm

Right

Diana - 7:53:04 pm

Ok

Me - 7:53:13 pm

Something is 200

Me - 7:53:32 pm

Splurge! 210!

Me - 7:54:00 pm

Or here, of course. Or not.

Diana - 7:54:33 pm

Sheesh this is a confusing conversation

Diana - 7:56:14 pm

We're both not ready to say what we want. That's an indication for me to go home I think.

Me - 7:57:51 pm

I would like you to come here, but if you're tired then yo should maybe sleep. But if you're going home and nit sleeping, come here.

Diana - 7:59:28 pm

Ok I'll go home and sleep

Me - 8:01:06 pm

:( ok

Diana - 8:01:36 pm

We both need sleep

Diana - 8:01:36 pm

Right?

Me - 8:02:56 pm

Nope.

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

I don't think I'll be able to get up again if I stop

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

I'm pretty tired

Me - 8:07:28 pm

Ok

Me - 8:07:42 pm

Or the spare room bed?

Me - 8:07:51 pm

Wake up to the lake

Me - 8:08:00 pm

Adventure

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

Are you serious?

Me - 8:08:19 pm

Why not?

Me - 8:08:53 pm

Anyway, you decide obviously. Maybe tomorrow night...

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

You want me to sleep over but not with you?

Me - 8:09:39 pm

Yep, why not? But I it's weird, then go home. Sleep well. Maybe see you after work tomorrow.

Diana - 8:10:02 pm

Why would you want thay?

Diana - 8:10:05 pm

That?

Me - 8:10:54 pm

Just to talk with you. Is that too weird? Not ready for physical stuff, no way. Maybe, hugs haha

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

I mean why wouldn't you want me to sleep with you?

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

Wow ok

Me - 8:11:30 pm

Top and tail? Haha. Like a sleepover...

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

I'm going home

Me - 8:11:34 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

Have a good night

Diana - 8:32:54 pm

Full metal Joelet is on

Me - 8:33:27 pm

?

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

Kubrick

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

Never mind

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

I told myself I wasn't gonna text you. Should have stuck to it :(

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

Sticking to it now

Diana - 8:37:52 pm

And I didn't mean sleep with I meant sleep next to.

Diana - 8:37:52 pm

Anyway

Diana - 8:37:52 pm

I needed to say that for clarity's sake

Me - 8:40:33 pm

I know I went too far. Trouble with texting, for me anyway. I need to engage my brain more. Always trying to find the middle ground, to upset no-one and end up upsetting everyone. And I've pissed you off now. Really sad. Just got your text. That was my preferred solution, actually, but didn't know how to say that. Too embarrassed probably, trying to not suggest that because I thought you would think I was expecting more. Really sorry.

Diana - 8:42:08 pm

Remember how I said our inability to say what we want is a sign I should go home

Diana - 8:42:08 pm

Now I feel hurt and want to run and leave the gym and get a new trainer

Diana - 8:42:08 pm

I always over react

Diana - 8:42:08 pm

I feel sad

Me - 8:43:54 pm

I should have stopped then

Diana - 8:42:08 pm

It doesn't help being tired

Diana - 8:42:08 pm

See it's already messy

Me - 8:44:11 pm

I thought so at the time

Diana - 8:44:15 pm

Can we stop it all and just go back to training

Me - 8:44:21 pm

Sure

Diana - 8:44:16 pm

I'll miss you but i can't do this

Me - 8:44:36 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:44:16 pm

We already have lost honest

Diana - 8:44:16 pm

Honesty

Diana - 8:44:16 pm

I wanted to lie next to you and I couldn't say it either

Diana - 8:44:16 pm

I think when you said you don't need hugs I took it personally and couldn't say what I wanted

Me - 8:45:54 pm

So why is it too late?

Me - 8:46:14 pm

Why react to a mistake?

Me - 8:46:23 pm

We all make mistakes

Me - 8:46:37 pm

And we don't really know each other yet

Me - 8:46:45 pm

Just texting

Me - 8:46:52 pm

And this morning was awesome

Me - 8:46:58 pm

On the grass

Me - 8:47:02 pm

Non grass

Me - 8:47:13 pm

Learn?

Me - 8:47:36 pm

But yes, texting should be just insubstantial stuff

Me - 8:47:53 pm

Leave the "talking" for in person

Me - 8:48:38 pm

I'm really sorry for the misunderstanding

Me - 8:49:05 pm

We learn best from

Mistakes

Me - 8:49:15 pm

Anyway...

Me - 8:49:30 pm

I talk too much

Me - 8:49:36 pm

Big problem

Me - 8:49:47 pm

I talk crap

Diana - 8:51:42 pm

No you don't. I like talking with you. And We do learn best from our mistakes. But I am sitting here sad and wrecked and my heart hurts and it's not because of you but because of everything atm. And there's no comforting. I need to survive the kids and my mum with as much sanity and as little heart ache and confusion as possible

Diana - 8:52:25 pm

You read my stars a lot of it is crap but I'm a fucking emotional sponge and I wanted to just be held and comforted tonight

Diana - 8:52:31 pm

It's my own fault

Diana - 8:52:37 pm

I should know better

Diana - 8:52:48 pm

And You told me to sleep in your daughters bed

Diana - 8:53:17 pm

I'll see you Monday morning for the wow practice

Diana - 8:53:29 pm

I don't know what time but I'll let you know as soon as I do

Me - 8:54:13 pm

I'm son sorry Diana. I don't want you to be sad.

Diana - 8:54:14 pm

I'm not saying it's your fault at all

Diana - 8:54:20 pm

It's mine for not being able to ask

Me - 8:54:23 pm

It is,

Diana - 8:54:30 pm

There's no bad feelings at all towards you

Me - 8:54:48 pm

Don't stew then. Come over now

Diana - 8:55:43 pm

I'm not stewing

Diana - 8:55:47 pm

I'm in my pjs

Me - 8:55:51 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:55:54 pm

I'm better off alone

Me - 8:55:59 pm

Comfy

Diana - 8:56:13 pm

Heavy

Me - 8:56:22 pm

Do you want me to come over there?

Diana - 8:56:32 pm

No

Me - 8:56:35 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:56:37 pm

I'm afraid now

Me - 8:56:42 pm

Don't be

Me - 8:56:47 pm

Just cuddles

Diana - 8:56:49 pm

Let's just let it be ok

Me - 8:56:53 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:56:53 pm

No

Diana - 8:57:04 pm

I'll let you know about Monday

Diana - 8:57:04 pm

It's been really lovely and fun texting you but I'm going to have to stop now

Diana - 8:57:52 pm

Bye xx

**Sunday 28 September**

Diana - 7:49:52 am

I need to know everything is ok, you are ok, we are ok?

Me - 7:56:54 am

Absolutely! Can't get rid of me over one problem. I want to keep texting but we should reduce the frequency (I love it but I'm not getting work done, just looking forward to your texts) and the subject matter should stay lighter. Exercise,food, general stuff, funny stuff, banter, putting shit on each other. We should keep any real subject matter for in person. Are you ok with that? The texting is working, I believe, just a tad too intense sometimes. Let's find a good balance between texts and face to face. Ok?

Me - 7:57:47 am

Did you sleep?

Me - 7:58:04 am

And weight and food diary to continue right?

Diana - 7:58:19 am

Yes no and yes

Diana - 7:58:24 am

Though I didn't lost any yesterday, too much coffee and dairy :(

Diana - 7:58:24 am

Being tired always gets me

Me - 7:59:10 am

Sigh! We've got to get you to sleep better. Don't know how

Me - 7:59:24 am

So, all good?

Me - 7:59:33 am

Good-ish?

Diana - 7:58:24 am

Stop fighting with you would be a good start :p

Me - 8:00:07 am

Only in person, from now on! Haha

Diana - 8:00:16 am

Much better ;)

Me - 8:00:21 am

Agree

Diana - 8:00:32 am

Alright then go and do some work

Me - 8:02:19 am

Last night i even composed an email to send you this morning with your program. Saying I wasn't disappearing. Don't need it now. So glad!! I'll send your program later today. Still working on a few circuits. Have a great yoga!

Me - 8:03:17 am

Mum might be going home today, so I'll be with here most probably this morning. Hopefully. She's going nuts haha

Diana - 8:02:40 am

Cool, I'll print it out later at work

Diana - 8:02:40 am

That's good, I'm glad she's getting out

Diana - 8:02:40 am

I won't text too much

Diana - 8:02:40 am

And thanks re yoga

Me - 8:04:51 am

Text when necessary. I'll do the same. I reckon, maybe, 2 or 3 A4 pages a day will be enough. ;)

Diana - 8:06:56 am

I've just finished wrapping birthday presents now heading out the door, I'm nervous!

Me - 8:08:21 am

Enjoy! I'm thinking of you.

Diana - 8:06:56 am

I might go to the gym and train after, or go train with the melbourne calisthenics crew, I've been meaning to go there for months

Diana - 8:06:56 am

Ok thanks

Diana - 8:06:56 am

Have a good morning

Diana - 8:06:56 am

I'm hitting the road :)

Diana - 8:15:28 am

And I want to read the email anyway

Me - 8:33:46 am

Ok. I'll send it. Later, when I've done your program

Diana - 10:23:01 am

Oh man I'm jelly

Diana - 10:23:03 am

Need coffee!

Me - 11:45:45 am

Just got mum to her home from the hospital. She's so happy to be here. Did a quick food shop on the way. Sore from yoga, eh? Does it look promising?

Diana - 12:12:16 pm

That's great news about your mum :)

Diana - 12:12:16 pm

I just finished a bar session with the Melbourne calisthenics crew

Diana - 12:12:16 pm

Oh my arms!

Diana - 12:22:56 pm

The guy that ran it, talked about Turkish get ups with only 2 points of contact, what are you thoughts?

Diana - 12:22:56 pm

No rush I know you're busy wi your mum

Diana - 12:25:04 pm

And shows my some exercises for my rotator cuffs.

Diana - 12:25:04 pm

Anyway I'm about to

Go out for lunch with my friend. Hope all is well :)

Me - 12:29:35 pm

My mum is awesome. I've been dismissed, she wants to potter around at home on her own. Haha. It's great! Been driving, home again now

Me - 12:30:10 pm

I've got a program to write for an unfit 19 yo distracted girl. Haha

Me - 12:30:50 pm

Don't know the 2 point get ups. Sounds tougher. Hard enough already I reckon haha

Me - 12:31:25 pm

Add more weight, that will test rotator cuff tendon strength haha

Me - 12:31:37 pm

He have you band face pulls?

Me - 12:31:46 pm

With external rotation?

Me - 12:32:16 pm

I'd rather you saw someone competitant before prescribing exercises.

Me - 12:32:23 pm

Tina

Me - 12:33:24 pm

It's only $79, maybe I could give you a loan? It would make my job, with you, a lot easier and give me peace of mind.

Me - 12:35:23 pm

And... Yet another friend giving you food! Haha

Diana - 12:35:23 pm

I'll go once I've made a decision about yoga

Diana - 12:35:38 pm

But yes I need to get it seen its still quite painful

Me - 12:36:08 pm

Let's book it this week. You won't get to see her for months.

Diana - 12:35:44 pm

I'm in Brunswick lots of good good :)

Diana - 12:35:44 pm

where is she?

Me - 12:36:28 pm

Coburg

Diana - 12:35:44 pm

Argh

Diana - 12:35:44 pm

Steve's good enough ;)

Diana - 12:35:44 pm

And close enough

Diana - 12:37:35 pm

Can I tell you where working with you has taken me??? To a plastic cup in my cup holder in my car and my pre workout in the boot :)

Diana - 12:37:49 pm

Mixed with nurofen plus :)

Me - 12:37:56 pm

We'd go together. I'd drive. I'd like to get the info from her after your appointment. No, you should see Tina. Best there is!!

Me - 12:38:25 pm

Tina will fix you.

Diana - 12:37:52 pm

Let's see... Tina or more pre workout ?? Hmmm

Diana - 12:37:52 pm

Easy decision :)

Me - 12:38:43 pm

Both?

Me - 12:38:50 pm

Run out yet?

Me - 12:39:01 pm

Need me to bring some this week?

Diana - 12:37:52 pm

Nearly, I am going to need to spot some of that smokin shit ;)

Me - 12:39:20 pm

4 scoops! No way!! $$$$

Diana - 12:39:21 pm

I'll order some soon

Diana - 12:39:38 pm

I only used 2 this morning

Me - 12:39:43 pm

Smokin shit, coming up

Diana - 12:39:51 pm

Didn't get more chin ups out of me though

Diana - 12:40:00 pm

I did a few flip overs which were fun :))

Me - 12:40:17 pm

Do we need to detox on pre workout now? Haha

Me - 12:40:28 pm

What have I done!!!!

Diana - 12:40:00 pm

Ha!

Diana - 12:40:00 pm

No, only 2 scoops and a coffee

Diana - 12:40:00 pm

All good

Me - 12:41:50 pm

I need to clean my coffee machine but that would mean no coffee while it dries. Sigh! First World problems.

Diana - 12:42:08 pm

Get a take away

Diana - 12:42:08 pm

Ok I'll leave you to write your program

Diana - 12:42:08 pm

Make her row and do deadlifts

Diana - 12:42:08 pm

Aren't you glad you have an expert to confer with ;)

Me - 12:43:30 pm

Haha. Decided I'll make more bread. Home maker still needs satisfying haha

Me - 12:43:44 pm

Thaaaanks Diana!

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

Eeww I'm not into home making! I'd totally rather someone do that stuff 8 was hoping the kids would domesticate me but nope

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

Not a chance

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

Ok looking for 300 calorie meal. Wow I really know how to live it up

Me - 12:50:07 pm

2 lattes! Haha

Diana - 12:48:32 pm

It just hit me

Diana - 12:50:44 pm

You actually offered to drive somewhere!

Me - 12:51:16 pm

I know!!! Supreme sacrifice. And not to hockey or golf practice haha

Me - 12:52:05 pm

I see Tina every few months. Regular checkup, like car service haha

Me - 12:52:15 pm

Always work needed too

Diana - 12:52:40 pm

Oh so it's not a real offer, you're just dragging me along with you

Diana - 12:52:45 pm

That makes more sense ;)

Me - 12:52:52 pm

No no no

Diana - 12:52:48 pm

Ok there is little kids calling out my name

Me - 12:52:59 pm

I know the way

Me - 12:53:03 pm

That's all haha

Diana - 12:53:03 pm

I'm being called!

Diana - 12:53:09 pm

Write your bloody programs!

Me - 12:53:14 pm

Ok mum

Diana - 1:05:36 pm

Uh!

Diana - 1:05:36 pm

I think I'm going to order duck. I've not eaten duck since I was 8

Diana - 1:05:36 pm

Guess that's what 17 years of being vego does

Me - 1:09:11 pm

Never had duck.

Me - 1:09:25 pm

Is it like chicken? Haha

Me - 1:09:31 pm

Had chicken

Diana - 1:09:48 pm

Frog is like chicken

Me - 1:09:52 pm

Haha

Diana - 1:09:52 pm

I'm still deciding

Me - 1:09:58 pm

Too much garlic

Me - 1:10:05 pm

Frogs, I mean

Diana - 1:09:52 pm

Yum garlic

Diana - 1:09:52 pm

Snails gave too much garlic

Me - 1:10:19 pm

Yeah, never too much garlic

Me - 1:10:48 pm

Swim sessions at 5am, uses to know who had garlic for dinner haha

Me - 1:10:54 pm

Used to know

Me - 1:11:07 pm

Triathlon training

Me - 1:11:39 pm

Buying bath sheets online. Exciting!

Me - 1:11:43 pm

For massage

Diana - 2:36:40 pm

Yeah what happened to my massage??

Diana - 2:36:52 pm

I love bath sheets, buy nice ones it says a lot about a masseur

Me - 2:37:03 pm

Done!

Me - 2:37:13 pm

Set up the table today!

Me - 2:37:20 pm

Just waiting for you.

Me - 2:37:42 pm

Nice duck?

Me - 2:38:39 pm

Massage might help you sleep.

Diana - 2:43:05 pm

Do you have a table?

Me - 2:43:17 pm

Of course

Me - 2:43:20 pm

Oil

Diana - 2:43:20 pm

Or am I going to have to lie on that non grass

Me - 2:43:23 pm

Towels

Me - 2:43:27 pm

Everything

Me - 2:43:47 pm

Ha. No dirt masaage

Diana - 2:43:44 pm

The duck salad was nice

Diana - 2:43:44 pm

I love it around here

Me - 2:44:20 pm

Brunswick?

Diana - 2:43:44 pm

Walk past houses with people playing guitar out the front

Diana - 2:43:44 pm

I should be living around here, I lived on this side of town for years

Diana - 2:43:44 pm

Yep

Me - 2:44:47 pm

Off to work?

Diana - 2:45:31 pm

Yep

Diana - 2:45:36 pm

Leaving now

Diana - 3:09:20 pm

Parking is getting harder by the week!

Me - 3:10:04 pm

What! You don't have a named parking spot! As important as you are?

Me - 3:10:23 pm

Haha

Me - 3:10:55 pm

Written heaps of programs... Tired now

Diana - 3:11:06 pm

Oh well that's good and good

Diana - 3:11:14 pm

You can have a nana nap ;)

Me - 3:11:20 pm

Tired if writing programs

Me - 3:11:27 pm

Not tired

Diana - 3:11:27 pm

I love siestas one of my favorite things in the world

Me - 3:11:44 pm

I have them when I'm working evenings too

Me - 3:11:50 pm

As well as mornings

Me - 3:11:57 pm

But middle of day off

Me - 3:12:08 pm

And have trained hard

Diana - 3:11:28 pm

So rarely then ;))

Me - 3:12:52 pm

Very funny!!!!

Diana - 3:13:12 pm

My arms are pretty sore from hanging on bars this morning doing monkey tricks

Diana - 3:13:36 pm

All of us lovely ladies trying to lose weight

Diana - 3:13:36 pm

Throw in a massage

Me - 3:14:50 pm

Anytime!!

Me - 3:14:57 pm

For you

Me - 3:15:21 pm

Massages are hard work

Me - 3:15:48 pm

Hand, finger, arm and shoulder workout

Me - 3:16:01 pm

Forearms get sore

Me - 3:16:05 pm

Tired

Diana - 3:15:44 pm

For sure

Diana - 3:15:44 pm

It'd be hard work

Diana - 3:15:44 pm

I'm not expecting one

Diana - 3:15:44 pm

You know that right?

Me - 3:16:48 pm

You should

Me - 3:16:54 pm

I want to give you one

Me - 3:17:12 pm

There're awesome

Me - 3:17:25 pm

Haha not just my massages I mean

Me - 3:17:35 pm

All massages

Diana - 3:17:52 pm

They can be

Diana - 3:17:52 pm

A lot of varying factors

Me - 3:18:27 pm

Of course

Diana - 3:17:52 pm

I may be a little more reserved on my massage-ability than you

Diana - 3:17:52 pm

You sound a bit lose ;)

Me - 3:19:14 pm

All the more reassign the sample mine. Criticism required

Me - 3:19:19 pm

And wanted

Me - 3:19:25 pm

Only way to get better

Diana - 3:17:52 pm

The Malthouse make good coffee. I've over done coffee again, no weight loss for me today

Me - 3:19:46 pm

Damn! Haha

Me - 3:20:03 pm

Are you coming here tonight after work? Please.

Diana - 3:20:00 pm

I have to do some grocery shopping

Diana - 3:20:00 pm

There is seriously no food in the house

Me - 3:21:24 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:20:00 pm

Have you seen your star signs today?

Me - 3:21:42 pm

They change?

Me - 3:21:47 pm

Day by day?

Me - 3:21:55 pm

Shows what I know

Diana - 3:21:57 pm

Humph

Me - 3:22:27 pm

Hahahaha

Me - 3:22:44 pm

But revise may be forward not backward ;)

Me - 3:22:54 pm

Odd eh?

Me - 3:23:04 pm

I guess it's so general

Me - 3:23:12 pm

It has to right for many

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Forward not backwards?

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Of course

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

It's all crap but fun

Me - 3:24:36 pm

Exactly

Me - 3:24:49 pm

The "suckers" kids are paying outside

Me - 3:24:52 pm

Noisy

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Little buggers

Me - 3:25:37 pm

Ok. Just printed last program for today Phew

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Even though you did not ask about mine here they are

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

You've 'smashed' it ;)

Diana - 3:26:30 pm

I'll print mine out so I can go in anytime

Diana - 3:27:01 pm

Lemons and toothpaste

Diana - 3:27:05 pm

I can't forget

Me - 3:27:27 pm

That's so perfect! The horoscope! I agree. Do it!!!

Diana - 3:27:41 pm

Ha! Oh you're a believer now

Diana - 3:27:46 pm

Pfft

Me - 3:27:46 pm

Yep

Me - 3:27:53 pm

As long as it's right

Me - 3:28:02 pm

And what I want haha

Me - 3:28:07 pm

To happen

Me - 3:28:10 pm

Haha

Diana - 3:28:29 pm

I hope you're outside getting some daylight now and off the computer

Me - 3:28:33 pm

Lemons and toothpaste are related?

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

It's beautiful in the city

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

Yes, grocery shopping

Me - 3:28:46 pm

I'm on the phone chatting. Shhh.

Me - 3:29:01 pm

To you

Me - 3:29:13 pm

Windy though

Diana - 3:29:20 pm

I could go tomorrow but that'd mean less time in the gym :/

Me - 3:29:22 pm

Might do our run

Me - 3:29:49 pm

Go tomorrow. Just going with what your horoscope says ;)

Me - 3:30:07 pm

Got to do what the stars have decided haha

Me - 3:30:39 pm

Although it's a bit windy to run

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

It is

Me - 3:30:45 pm

Like hills

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

Just lie down on the lake

Me - 3:30:58 pm

And downhills

Me - 3:31:03 pm

No grass

Diana - 3:31:05 pm

That's what I'd do

Diana - 3:31:15 pm

New towels ;)

Me - 3:31:19 pm

Towels need a wash haha

Me - 3:31:28 pm

Each time after

Me - 3:31:36 pm

Need grass

Me - 3:31:41 pm

Hey!

Me - 3:31:47 pm

Plastic grass!!

Diana - 3:31:54 pm

No.

Diana - 3:32:02 pm

Oh geez are you serious???

Me - 3:32:06 pm

Nope

Diana - 3:32:20 pm

You live on a lake, with real water trees and life and you want plastic grass

Diana - 3:32:28 pm

Let us pretend that was never said

Diana - 3:32:32 pm

Right.

Diana - 3:32:47 pm

Well I'm at work lucky me. Atleast they're paying me double time.

Me - 3:32:48 pm

Hahaha. I didn't say it! Joking. Too slow with emoticons

Diana - 3:32:48 pm

Enjoy your not lie down not run afternoon ;)

Me - 3:32:57 pm

&$$$$

Me - 3:33:02 pm

Ok

Me - 3:33:06 pm

You try

Diana - 3:32:48 pm

I think I'm going with dodgy India achool

Diana - 3:32:48 pm

School

Diana - 3:32:48 pm

I will, I like this job.

Me - 3:33:21 pm

The vomiting one?

Diana - 3:33:33 pm

4 hours with an intense bottle neck. It's exactly suited to me

Diana - 3:33:39 pm

Yes, the vomiting one

Me - 3:33:39 pm

Haha

Diana - 3:33:46 pm

I just need to ask one question

Me - 3:33:51 pm

Go ahwad

Me - 3:33:54 pm

Ahead

Diana - 3:33:59 pm

Who's the hirer or the yoga teacher at our gym?

Diana - 3:34:15 pm

I want to ask if he /she cares about affiliation with yoga Australia

Me - 3:34:20 pm

I know her. She's nice

Me - 3:34:28 pm

I'll ask her tomorrow

Diana - 3:34:36 pm

That's nice. But what is her name???

Me - 3:34:39 pm

We get on well

Diana - 3:34:40 pm

I can ask her myself

Diana - 3:34:46 pm

That's even nicer

Diana - 3:34:52 pm

Now can you give me her name?

Me - 3:34:55 pm

Can't remember at the moment

Me - 3:35:05 pm

I'll text when I remember

Me - 3:35:10 pm

Indian lady

Diana - 3:34:56 pm

She's your bestie and you can't remember her name????

Me - 3:35:31 pm

Am.... Something

Me - 3:35:43 pm

Yeah. I remeber your name

Diana - 3:35:49 pm

Don't worry I'll call the gym in the morning

Diana - 3:35:55 pm

Actually I'll be there!

Me - 3:35:56 pm

Honoured you should be haha

Me - 3:36:04 pm

Amrita?

Me - 3:36:25 pm

Just ask for the group fitness manager

Diana - 3:36:45 pm

Who is that?

Diana - 3:36:52 pm

Right sorry

Diana - 3:36:55 pm

Got it

Me - 3:36:57 pm

The lady that does all the hiring

Diana - 3:37:02 pm

Check

Me - 3:37:04 pm

And managing

Me - 3:37:11 pm

Of all the classes

Me - 3:37:16 pm

Yoga too

Diana - 3:37:04 pm

Yes ok

Diana - 3:37:04 pm

What time are you going in tomorrow?

Me - 3:37:50 pm

Eaten twice today. Feel fat and sick. Too much food

Diana - 3:38:01 pm

Jesus you have issues with food

Diana - 3:38:04 pm

You really do

Me - 3:38:05 pm

I've got an 8am then I'm yours until 11

Diana - 3:38:19 pm

Are you going in at 8?

Me - 3:38:26 pm

Yep

Me - 3:38:33 pm

But client at 8

Me - 3:38:40 pm

Finished at 8:30

Me - 3:38:44 pm

-ish

Diana - 3:38:48 pm

I know you have a client at 8

Diana - 3:39:12 pm

I meant 6am ish

Me - 3:39:46 pm

No way! Why?

Diana - 3:39:12 pm

I'm supposed to help my little girls friends dad get his hard rubbish out and then he is going to come help me with mine

Diana - 3:39:12 pm

Big day tomorrow

Diana - 3:40:25 pm

Lots of lifting

Me - 3:40:29 pm

Thanks for reminding me. I've got that too. Shit

Me - 3:40:46 pm

I haven't decided what to throw out

Diana - 3:40:56 pm

Neither have I

Me - 3:41:38 pm

Coffee (yet again) then maybe a run for me.

Me - 3:41:46 pm

No gym today

Diana - 3:41:20 pm

I miss the gym

Me - 3:42:07 pm

I was going to muck around with the TRX for stuff for you but I haven't

Diana - 3:41:20 pm

It's been 2 days!

Diana - 3:41:20 pm

It's cool

Diana - 3:41:20 pm

I'll print program now

Me - 3:42:48 pm

I already have, but go ahead. I need to show you a few of the exercises

Me - 3:43:03 pm

Before you do them.

Diana - 3:43:07 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:43:15 pm

I'm saving for yoga as of this minute

Diana - 3:43:21 pm

Now I've bought my coffee :)

Me - 3:43:29 pm

Ok haha

Me - 3:43:33 pm

Good start

Me - 3:44:10 pm

Maybe reduce lemon and toothpaste consumption too, to save money. ;)

Diana - 3:45:35 pm

I have warm lemon water every morning

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Can't get through the day without it

Me - 3:45:47 pm

Like my mother

Me - 3:45:51 pm

So does she

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

That's a lot of program

Me - 3:45:55 pm

Every morning

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Thank you very much

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

She's a good woman ;)

Me - 3:46:08 pm

3 weeks

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Knows her stuff :)

Me - 3:46:37 pm

Then we'll need an updated program

Me - 3:46:43 pm

Programs

Diana - 3:47:20 pm

It's too much work

Diana - 3:47:22 pm

Seriously

Diana - 3:47:35 pm

Save this energy for the clients who pay you more than $1 an hour

Diana - 3:47:38 pm

Seriously

Me - 3:51:30 pm

I love seeing you (and other clients) happy. I receive from giving too. Love seeing you reach goals. We need to run more though. For the weight thing. And that's a scheduling issue we need to sit down and plan face to face. Let's do that real soon, so we can get going this week.

Diana - 3:51:43 pm

Ha! How's the optional extra in week 1!

Me - 3:52:02 pm

And a massage, to hopefully, help you sleep better

Me - 3:52:17 pm

Optional is because we haven't done the scheduling yet

Diana - 3:52:00 pm

I can always do a combat or attack class for cardio also

Me - 3:52:29 pm

I don't know how much time you have available

Diana - 3:52:00 pm

Yep there's some stuff I don't know I'll need you to explain

Me - 3:52:49 pm

I run most days

Me - 3:52:56 pm

May as well run together

Diana - 3:52:00 pm

Wow my upper back is super sore now :/

Diana - 3:52:00 pm

I may have overdone it this morning

Diana - 3:52:00 pm

Yep I'm happy to run when it's possible

Me - 3:53:12 pm

Upper back? Why? What from?

Diana - 3:52:00 pm

From hanging out on bars in the park this morning

Me - 3:53:31 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:52:00 pm

Lots of chin ups and dips

Me - 3:53:40 pm

That'll do it haha

Me - 3:54:00 pm

You need more rowing motions.

Me - 3:54:06 pm

In your program

Me - 3:54:20 pm

Inverted rows are good

Me - 3:54:24 pm

I've put them in

Diana - 3:54:08 pm

Week 2 workout 2 is looking good :))

Me - 3:54:45 pm

I've noticed that your upper back is weaker

Diana - 3:54:08 pm

Go for your run, I've got a conference call

Me - 3:54:54 pm

Haha

Diana - 3:54:08 pm

Yes I'm weak

Me - 3:54:57 pm

Heavy

Me - 3:54:59 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:54:08 pm

I know, I was told today

Diana - 3:54:08 pm

Some part of my shoulder

Diana - 3:54:08 pm

I can't remember which bit

Diana - 3:54:08 pm

Ok, I'm going in. Enjoy your run :)

Diana - 3:57:05 pm

I'm going to buy some bands so I can practice at home

Diana - 3:57:12 pm

That'll help right?

Diana - 3:57:15 pm

Ok going in

Diana - 4:36:45 pm

Sunday is afternoon tea day

Diana - 4:36:48 pm

There is a table the size of 6 desks covered in evil and delicious food!

Diana - 4:47:28 pm

So when I'm sitting at my desk, it actually hurts to move my left arm.

Diana - 4:47:28 pm

I better get to a chemist too ;)

Diana - 4:53:52 pm

Scrap that pain in my back sharpening down my arm! Yikes what have I done!

Diana - 5:08:20 pm

Cancelled hard rubbish tomorrow, pick up isn't until week 5, October 13, give my shoulder a rest after the wow and do the shopping

Diana - 5:08:25 pm

Argh

Diana - 5:08:33 pm

I'm shutting up now!

Me - 5:19:13 pm

Just back from the run. My hard rubbish isn't this week either. Haha. Bummer about your shoulder. We've got to get that sorted. Coach says! :-)

Me - 5:22:02 pm

These wow's are a real problem. I don't think I'm going to let any one do them again. Just too injurious. Let's have a re think about what you do in the next 3 weeks tomorrow. Especially about any shoulder stuff. The radiating pain worries me.

Diana - 5:21:36 pm

The injury was there before the wows

Diana - 5:21:36 pm

I don't think they're related

Diana - 5:21:36 pm

You're over reacting :)

Diana - 5:21:36 pm

How was your run?

Me - 5:23:03 pm

Windy run

Me - 5:23:19 pm

hard out, easy back

Diana - 5:23:23 pm

The codeine in the pain killers is bad news, after today I'm going to normal nurofen. I'm getting bloated

Diana - 5:23:27 pm

That's good

Diana - 5:23:34 pm

Wind tends to make people angry though

Me - 5:23:58 pm

Functional Patterns on Instagram posted a great trail running video this morning. Totally going to do that!

Me - 5:24:09 pm

I'm not angry.

Diana - 5:23:44 pm

I saw a post of theirs in Venice but not the trail run

Me - 5:24:56 pm

Cool stuff. That's us for sure!!

Me - 5:25:09 pm

No shoulder issues haha

Diana - 5:23:44 pm

Us? Hahaha! Well I did exceed your expectations ;)

Me - 5:25:30 pm

Reckon

Me - 5:25:36 pm

You're ready

Me - 5:25:40 pm

Good pace

Me - 5:25:45 pm

Good time

Me - 5:25:54 pm

Just build it up

Me - 5:26:01 pm

Won't take long

Me - 5:26:12 pm

2 weeks, trail running starts

Me - 5:26:42 pm

Looking up shoulder Pina online

Me - 5:26:49 pm

Shoulder pain

Me - 5:27:00 pm

Can't go wrong eh?

Diana - 5:35:05 pm

No way

Diana - 5:35:15 pm

Whatever is on the Internet must be true and reliable

Diana - 5:35:19 pm

That's why it's there

Diana - 5:35:27 pm

Trail running, you're on

Diana - 5:35:40 pm

Though it should have, nay could have started last week :p

Me - 5:36:03 pm

Touché

Me - 5:36:15 pm

But I'm adventurous only now

Me - 5:36:26 pm

You've converted me

Me - 5:36:38 pm

Quick process really

Me - 5:36:52 pm

Bread turned out nice

Me - 5:37:05 pm

About to tackle cleaning the coffee machine

Me - 5:37:19 pm

I need a good apron for birthday present haha

Diana - 5:40:40 pm

An apron?

Diana - 5:40:44 pm

Are you serious?

Diana - 5:40:48 pm

I'm not buying an apron

Diana - 5:40:48 pm

Ever

Diana - 5:40:48 pm

What's for dinner?

Diana - 5:40:48 pm

Speaking of aprons

Diana - 5:42:08 pm

I've got a mandarin and some protein powder, they're eating PIZZA

Me - 5:43:46 pm

Going to eat a lot of rice. And some roast veges from the slow cooker the other day. And protein shake. And bread. Feed part of Africa with that.

Me - 5:43:55 pm

Still full

Me - 5:44:06 pm

I'll have wait for a bit

Me - 5:44:32 pm

Cup of tea now. Coffee machine is in bits haha

Me - 5:44:48 pm

I have too much caffeine. Sigh!

Me - 5:45:04 pm

No wonder I haven't slept properly since I was 19

Me - 5:45:34 pm

I still remember the last night I slept all the way through. I was 19 haha

Me - 5:46:11 pm

Youth hostel. New Zealand. Surfing trip before university

Diana - 5:46:58 pm

Wow

Me - 5:46:59 pm

Spent $110 in 10 weeks. Hitch hiked, camped in the open. Didn't eat much

Diana - 5:47:09 pm

No wonder you don't know how to fix my sleep ;)

Me - 5:47:16 pm

Airfare was $55, one way

Diana - 5:47:12 pm

Well you don't eat much!

Me - 5:47:21 pm

Student deal

Diana - 5:47:12 pm

Now you're showing your age ;)

Diana - 5:47:12 pm

Looks like I'll have the kids Wednesday and Friday mornings

Me - 5:48:49 pm

Well, offer's open here. Anytime.

Me - 5:50:40 pm

Massage maybe

Me - 5:50:48 pm

See if it helps sleeping

Me - 5:50:59 pm

Worth a try

Me - 5:51:06 pm

Not much else is working

Diana - 5:51:26 pm

Offers open for what?

Me - 5:52:57 pm

Coffee machine is pretty yuck

Me - 5:53:13 pm

Maybe that's why it tastes bad

Diana - 5:53:14 pm

I don't even want to look at mine!!

Diana - 5:53:27 pm

I'll just buy a new one when it dies rather than clean it

Me - 5:53:32 pm

I think I need gloves haha

Me - 5:53:42 pm

Toxic

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

You didn't tell me what the offer was open for?

Diana - 5:53:36 pm

I'll book the kids into the crèche Wednesday and Friday morning tomorrow

Me - 5:55:29 pm

A visit any time! What else. But let's not repeat last night's effort on my part.

Me - 5:56:03 pm

Do you really have all this free time before 7? I thought it was panic

Diana - 5:55:44 pm

We aren't talking about real stuff over text

Me - 5:56:12 pm

Nope

Diana - 5:55:44 pm

I'm very quick ;)

Me - 5:56:23 pm

Haha

Diana - 5:55:44 pm

It'll get heavy soon

Me - 5:56:28 pm

Ok

Me - 5:56:50 pm

Listening to sigur ros while I clean

Me - 5:57:03 pm

Makes the coffee yuck bot too bad

Me - 5:57:08 pm

Not

Me - 5:57:25 pm

And drinking tea

Me - 5:57:38 pm

With the smell of fresh baked bread

Me - 5:57:44 pm

Mmmmmmm

Diana - 5:57:52 pm

That sounds lovely

Diana - 5:57:52 pm

Not my thing but lovely :)

Diana - 5:57:52 pm

Well it'd be nice to visit but not have to do personally ;)

Me - 6:08:27 pm

It was green inside. That can't be good right?

Diana - 6:08:32 pm

Haha

Diana - 6:08:32 pm

Calcification

Diana - 6:08:32 pm

You should know that

Diana - 6:08:32 pm

I talk too much obviously

Diana - 6:08:32 pm

I'll stop that

Diana - 7:27:28 pm

Theoretically I could have a snickers bar for dinner and still be under my calorie count

Me - 7:30:16 pm

It's not all about the calories you know haha

Me - 7:30:21 pm

Good food too

Me - 7:30:47 pm

Have a night lemon drink

Diana - 7:29:36 pm

Yes... I know

Diana - 7:29:36 pm

Eeww

Diana - 7:29:36 pm

You're not much into comfort are you

Diana - 7:29:36 pm

Except for bread :p

Me - 7:31:13 pm

Ha

Me - 7:31:23 pm

Bread is comforting.

Me - 7:31:30 pm

Making bread is

Me - 7:31:51 pm

Why aren't you working.

Diana - 7:31:44 pm

You seem to worry a lot about my job

Me - 7:32:26 pm

Conversation...

Me - 7:32:38 pm

Interested...

Diana - 7:40:12 pm

All clean

Diana - 7:41:40 pm

I even got a particularly loud thank you

Diana - 7:41:48 pm

All whilst talking to you

Diana - 7:41:55 pm

See, you needn't worry :p

Diana - 7:42:07 pm

And emailing Imogen's dad, he's offered to pay for my yoga course

Diana - 7:42:11 pm

I won't accept

Diana - 7:42:16 pm

Always comes with strings

Diana - 7:42:20 pm

I believe

Me - 7:43:06 pm

Multi talented.

Me - 7:43:23 pm

Dexterous to do all that at once

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

Pre workout before work! Now that could be fun ;)

Me - 7:51:48 pm

+coffee during! Buzzing!

Me - 7:52:43 pm

Spoke to my sister earlier. First time for a few months. Picking her up to take to mum's on Tuesday.

Me - 7:52:59 pm

Family reunion haha

Me - 7:53:17 pm

A bit sad that we're located so close

Me - 7:53:26 pm

All good though

Diana - 7:53:04 pm

That'll be nice

Diana - 7:53:04 pm

For your mum

Diana - 7:53:04 pm

She doesn't drive or get pt?

Diana - 7:55:12 pm

It's quite nice outside

Me - 7:56:53 pm

Just spoke to her again

Me - 7:57:03 pm

Organizing train timetables

Me - 7:57:22 pm

Pick up in frankston Tuesday morning

Me - 7:57:32 pm

No, she won't drive

Me - 7:57:42 pm

Too stressful she reckons

Me - 7:58:00 pm

Only to the local shops

Me - 7:58:23 pm

She's really nice but really anxious

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

It can be if you don't do it often I imagine

Me - 7:58:31 pm

About everything

Me - 7:58:47 pm

The world is scary for her

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

It is for all of us

Me - 7:59:07 pm

Yeh

Diana - 7:59:20 pm

Just some have better coping skills

Me - 7:59:32 pm

But she won't gonout of the house unless it's really important

Me - 7:59:43 pm

You're right

Diana - 7:59:28 pm

It's sad Huh

Me - 7:59:58 pm

Less you do, less you able to do

Diana - 7:59:28 pm

Sad for her kids too

Diana - 7:59:28 pm

For sure

Me - 8:00:11 pm

Kids ok

Me - 8:00:21 pm

24 yo left

Me - 8:00:38 pm

27 yo major heart issues. Still at home

Diana - 7:59:28 pm

It would he hard having a mum scared of life done you think?

Me - 8:00:53 pm

Yeah

Me - 8:03:41 pm

If you're scared all the time, then routine is all you have

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

Chronic anxiety abolishes one of ones responsibilities

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

For sure

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

It's sad

Me - 8:04:14 pm

Wasted opportunity of life

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

I hope she finds freedom sometime :(

Me - 8:04:19 pm

One chance

Me - 8:04:34 pm

I should do more

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

It's not up to you

Me - 8:05:04 pm

Always feel so down

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

Give what you can and walk away

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

It's hard im still learning that

Me - 8:10:37 pm

Yeah

Me - 8:15:07 pm

Ok. More food. Shake time.

Me - 8:17:20 pm

And my 8am hasn't replied to a text asking if she's coming. Sigh.

Diana - 8:17:27 pm

A shake isn't food

Diana - 8:17:32 pm

I love warm night

Diana - 8:17:35 pm

S

Diana - 8:17:40 pm

Argh

Diana - 8:17:50 pm

So will you go incase she shows up?

Me - 8:18:02 pm

Yeah. T shirts only. Cool

Me - 8:18:11 pm

I have to go. In case

Me - 8:18:40 pm

I'll train if she doesn't show

Me - 8:18:48 pm

But she's a paying one

Me - 8:18:53 pm

Bummer

Diana - 8:18:40 pm

Yea that's a bummer

Me - 8:19:16 pm

She's distracted during the sessions. Hard to get enthused

Me - 8:19:23 pm

Probably won't stay

Me - 8:19:27 pm

Only 19

Diana - 8:19:41 pm

I'll come help

Diana - 8:19:48 pm

Your clients like me ;)

Me - 8:19:59 pm

Slap the 19 into sense! Haha

Me - 8:20:06 pm

19 yo

Me - 8:20:33 pm

Yeah. You need to be the face if my training

Me - 8:20:40 pm

I'll write the programs

Me - 8:20:47 pm

You do the banter

Me - 8:20:57 pm

and be liked

Diana - 8:20:48 pm

I thought you wanted to make money ;)

Me - 8:21:13 pm

Some

Me - 8:21:30 pm

Who said id pay you? Haha

Diana - 8:20:48 pm

I'm saying I'll drive clients away

Diana - 8:20:48 pm

Rather than draw them

Diana - 8:22:13 pm

I'm of the attraction rather than promotion variety

Me - 8:22:18 pm

Really? Just lift in front of them. Role model

Diana - 8:22:20 pm

But I'm poor so...

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

I'm coming in early tomorrow

Me - 8:23:00 pm

Glamour model only right?

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

I don't care if you're busy

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

I just don't want to wait until 930 cause I don't have kids

Me - 8:23:23 pm

We need to practice the wow

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

Id rather get it done earlier

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

Or spend longer doing it

Me - 8:23:40 pm

Do it on Thursday I guess

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

Meh I'm over the woes

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

Wow

Me - 8:24:04 pm

Woes haha true!!

Diana - 8:25:04 pm

I won't be in outrageously early

Diana - 8:25:04 pm

We can do the wow after your client

Diana - 8:26:48 pm

I want to do a long session

Diana - 8:27:03 pm

I can rest tomorrow afternoon after I do some housework so I can smash myself

Diana - 8:33:34 pm

It's always weirdos this time of night at the supermarket

Diana - 8:33:35 pm

Especially on Sunday :)

Me - 8:34:07 pm

Is that why you are there? Haha.

Me - 8:34:18 pm

Never been Sunday night

Me - 8:34:50 pm

Weirdo's? Tracks pants guys? Axe murderers?

Me - 8:35:28 pm

My 8am just cancelled.

Diana - 8:36:21 pm

:(

Diana - 8:36:31 pm

Well on the upside you get to sleep in

Me - 8:37:13 pm

I might go in and train and wait for you

Me - 8:38:14 pm

Don't forget lemons and toothpaste haha

Me - 8:38:25 pm

Done my job now

Diana - 8:38:27 pm

Shit thanks

Diana - 8:40:59 pm

Yes

Diana - 8:41:06 pm

You can now rest

Diana - 8:41:34 pm

What did you have for dinner?

Me - 8:42:17 pm

Rice. Heaps. Veges and tofu thingy. Bread. and finally, protein shake.

Me - 8:42:32 pm

3rd big meal today

Me - 8:42:46 pm

It will be a late night digesting haha

Me - 8:43:07 pm

Got to slice and freeze the bread anyway

Me - 8:43:31 pm

Excitement city here! It's all happening hAha.

Diana - 8:44:02 pm

I was just thinking that

Diana - 8:45:32 pm

Snickers for dinner?

Diana - 8:45:44 pm

Please??? :p

Me - 8:45:46 pm

It annoys me how people don't reply to texts. 8am asked for another day, have her options, then silence. Sigh

Me - 8:46:02 pm

Snickers?

Diana - 8:46:03 pm

It's very disrespectful

Diana - 8:46:19 pm

Really, calling is the only way to go. People feel a sense of responsibility then

Me - 8:46:24 pm

You haven't had dinner yet?

Diana - 8:46:24 pm

No

Me - 8:46:39 pm

Wow

Diana - 8:46:24 pm

Well I had a mandarin and protein shake around 4

Diana - 8:46:24 pm

That should do it really

Diana - 8:46:24 pm

My food hasn't been good this weekend

Me - 8:47:13 pm

Tough to do on so few calories

Me - 8:47:30 pm

More running = more food, maybe

Diana - 8:47:37 pm

And Ijusy bought Imogen her bbq shapes' argh

Diana - 8:47:41 pm

No, that's not the answe

Diana - 8:47:44 pm

Answer

Diana - 8:49:31 pm

It's just about moving slowly towards a new way of living

Me - 8:49:54 pm

Yeah

Me - 8:50:38 pm

But running will help. A little bit, if it's done regularly.

Me - 8:50:42 pm

It's raining

Diana - 8:54:56 pm

Yep and it smells great

Diana - 8:54:56 pm

And it's still warm

Diana - 8:54:56 pm

Shopping done

Diana - 8:56:21 pm

Dates and fish

Diana - 8:56:25 pm

No snickers :(

Me - 8:56:30 pm

Haha

Me - 8:56:33 pm

Sadness

Me - 8:56:45 pm

I can feel it through the phone

Diana - 8:57:04 pm

The sorrowful victory

Diana - 8:57:04 pm

The sorrow of the prolonged bust!

Me - 8:58:28 pm

And I had another guy who wNted a session tomorrow afternoon. I texted him. And... No answer. Sigh

Me - 8:58:49 pm

Prolonged bust? What?

Me - 8:59:03 pm

He was hours ago

Me - 8:59:29 pm

I answered immediately. People, eh?

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

I would suggest calling

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

Bypass text completely

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

And it's bin night

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

It never really ends does it

Me - 9:00:48 pm

Nope

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

The list of things to do

Diana - 9:00:58 pm

Something's gotta give

Me - 9:01:07 pm

I got through about half of my weekend list

Me - 9:01:26 pm

The important things get done

Diana - 9:01:20 pm

Yea and your kids are grown up

Me - 9:01:43 pm

The really important

Diana - 9:01:20 pm

And you didn't have to work

Diana - 9:01:20 pm

Well I do soend a lot of time at the gym

Diana - 9:01:20 pm

That's just for this year though

Diana - 9:01:20 pm

I always knew that

Me - 9:02:15 pm

Don't be tough on yourself

Diana - 9:03:28 pm

I'm not

Diana - 9:03:28 pm

But I also know it's a luxury

Diana - 9:03:28 pm

Like you said, it's not going to feed the kids

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

And pay for Everest!

Me - 9:07:13 pm

I've also found you can really only focus on the important task that's right in front of you nose. Your heath and habit of fitness is important to your own family. I did that wrong. It's important for everyone's happiness that mum has some degree of fulfillment. And be a role model too. But it's hard, yeah.

Diana - 9:16:16 pm

For sure

Diana - 9:16:16 pm

It's always a balancing act

Diana - 9:17:02 pm

I'm not interested in being a martyr

Me - 9:17:03 pm

You're doing great!

Diana - 9:18:24 pm

You're my coach, you have to say that ;)

Diana - 9:20:27 pm

Bet you wish I'd stop texting and some of your paying clients would start!

Me - 9:22:19 pm

iPhone's are pretty good with concurrency. Haha. Can receive multiple, simultaneous texts. ;) I used to write iPhone software, I know haha

Diana - 9:22:40 pm

Maybe you should get back into it

Me - 9:26:29 pm

Tried for 2 years. Hated sitting down all day. I love what I do now. Just need more "good" clients. Just have to be patient. I'm not a salesman, I'll just be really good at what i do, but I have heaps to learn. And training you helps me too. More advanced stuff.

Diana - 9:26:32 pm

We came up with an idea today. You have a screen on the table at the cafe with the menu, you press on the items you want and PayPass it then and there, no waitress needed except to deliver the food

Me - 9:27:07 pm

Some places have a similar thing I think.

Me - 9:27:25 pm

Waiter has iPad or similar

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

Well you training me helps me too, and I'm due to pay you this week, and at the rate you eat you're right for the month off that. For petrol too most likely ;)

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

Yea but the waiter still need to come to the table

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

This way you avoid all conversation

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

Except for actual meal delivery

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

You also avoid counter time

Me - 9:28:03 pm

Sounds good

Me - 9:28:26 pm

Not me though. There is sooooo much work doing that stuff

Me - 9:28:32 pm

Getting it right

Me - 9:28:42 pm

And I'm too far behind now

Me - 9:29:03 pm

Changed heaps

Me - 9:29:12 pm

Hard to stay currant

Me - 9:29:16 pm

Current

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Yea, it's not for me

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

I've committed internally to do yoga. That's enough to scare the shit out of me.

Me - 9:30:31 pm

How much? $

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

I don't have the energy to get into my pjs!

Me - 9:30:39 pm

Haha

Diana - 9:30:45 pm

The Indian one is 2800

Me - 9:30:48 pm

Clothes sleep yay

Diana - 9:30:50 pm

Much better

Diana - 9:31:04 pm

I just needs to talk to gym lady before I make a final decision

Diana - 9:31:11 pm

No sleeping in clothes eeww

Me - 9:31:15 pm

If you're so tired, I hope you can sleep a but better

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

A but better would be great ;)

Me - 9:31:40 pm

Haha NZ accent

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

I do; until about 2 then the thinking cap comes on

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

Or it doesn't and I just like pics in Insta

Me - 9:32:09 pm

Tough

Me - 9:32:15 pm

I'm the same

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

Meh

Me - 9:32:21 pm

Wake up heaps

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

A 3 year old is missing, that is tough

Me - 9:32:57 pm

Yeah. Brings it back home eh?

Me - 9:33:08 pm

It's close when you have kids too

Diana - 9:33:20 pm

I called it as an abduction from the start

Diana - 9:33:20 pm

I should have been a detective ;)

Me - 9:34:00 pm

Fun job Not

Diana - 9:33:20 pm

Better as a vet really

Me - 9:34:16 pm

Too sad

Me - 9:34:21 pm

I was a farmer

Me - 9:34:32 pm

The deaths really got to me

Me - 9:34:39 pm

Take them personally

Diana - 9:33:20 pm

Well the vet is trying to prevent them, that's a good thing. Or atleast make it nicer for them if it has to be

Me - 9:35:04 pm

I'd look I to their eyes, knowing they'd die. Probably

Me - 9:35:15 pm

Hard with the babies

Me - 9:35:27 pm

Really really tough

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

I got to hold my only lifelong friend truck, and tell him how much I loved him while he choked on his own bloods and died in my arms

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

I didn't let him go until he went hard and began to smell

Me - 9:35:51 pm

Wow!

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

It was honourable

Me - 9:36:00 pm

Double wow

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

An honour for me I mean

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

He was all I cared about

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

Dean my dead ex gave him to me

Me - 9:36:36 pm

There is so much that comes out with you. So much hard stuff

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

It wasn't hard

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

It was at the time but I knew not to fight it

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

It was his time to die and all he asked of me was to be ther with him

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

Not panic or call the vet just be with him

Me - 9:37:40 pm

Yeah

Diana - 9:37:42 pm

What an honour Huh?

Diana - 9:37:54 pm

He woke me at midnight and died at 6am

Diana - 9:38:27 pm

I remember trying to lift him after he went hard off the floor we were lying on and I dropped him and blood fell out of his throat all over the place!

Diana - 9:38:30 pm

Yikes ;)

Diana - 9:38:48 pm

People used to say he had a better vocabulary than most humans

Diana - 9:38:54 pm

He did. It's true

Me - 9:39:03 pm

I think they know when it's time

Diana - 9:39:05 pm

I spent every moment of my life with him

Diana - 9:39:10 pm

He got me through heroin

Diana - 9:39:16 pm

Of course they do

Diana - 9:39:18 pm

So do we

Diana - 9:39:23 pm

We just get scared

Diana - 9:39:33 pm

Attachment eh?

Me - 9:39:47 pm

Yeah. It's tough not to be

Me - 9:39:55 pm

Human

Diana - 9:40:17 pm

I went bad after that, with grief. Really bad. That's how the whole Mess with Imogen's dad started. Anyway

Diana - 9:40:27 pm

What happened to nothing intense via text?

Diana - 9:40:33 pm

8 am tomorrow?

Me - 9:42:15 pm

I really want to hear all this stuff, but yes, it's not a text conversation. And not a running one either I think. We'll get around to it. It's important sharing stuff like that. It will happen.

Me - 9:42:44 pm

8am arrival?

Me - 9:42:50 pm

For you?

Me - 9:44:01 pm

If you're up at 2am liking Instagram posts (and I hope you're not!), you can like mine.

Me - 9:45:11 pm

I'm going to slice and freeze bread then off to bed

Diana - 9:45:18 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:45:21 pm

Night

Me - 9:45:37 pm

Night

Diana - 9:56:48 pm

There you go, I liked it

Diana - 9:56:48 pm

And it's not even 2 am

Me - 9:57:56 pm

I noticed. I was going to wait for 2 am

Me - 9:58:00 pm

Haha

Diana - 9:56:48 pm

Maybe I'll start reading your book and get off Insta

Me - 9:58:17 pm

Good idea

Me - 9:58:22 pm

Put you to sleep

Diana - 9:58:27 pm

Why don't you sleep well?? What's eating your soul?

Diana - 9:58:31 pm

Hahaha!

Me - 9:58:36 pm

Pick it up again at 2am. Straight to sleep

Diana - 9:58:47 pm

Ok I'll give it a try! :p

Me - 9:58:53 pm

Not in texts, right!

Me - 9:59:13 pm

If you want to hear all that stuff, in person.

Me - 9:59:19 pm

Book is a good start

Diana - 9:58:56 pm

Humph ok

Diana - 9:58:56 pm

Not even a taster?

Me - 9:59:32 pm

You know too much abut me

Diana - 9:58:56 pm

A texting taster?

Diana - 9:58:56 pm

Well it's not like I'm gong to use it against you

Me - 9:59:59 pm

The book will be odd. Too private.

Diana - 9:58:56 pm

And really I know nothing

Diana - 9:58:56 pm

Too private?

Diana - 10:00:31 pm

But you don't mind the general public knowing, jus don't want me to know? :p

Me - 10:00:46 pm

Because you know stuff. You'll know what I've said to you.

Diana - 10:01:00 pm

And?

Me - 10:01:16 pm

Well, fiction or parts of it. And you'll know which parts are real

Me - 10:01:32 pm

Others I could deny, I guess

Diana - 10:01:04 pm

I'll know little bits maybe

Diana - 10:01:04 pm

Yes you could

Me - 10:01:50 pm

Of course! It's been how many weeks??

Me - 10:01:53 pm

That's all

Diana - 10:01:04 pm

And I won't ask questions if you don't want me to

Me - 10:02:44 pm

Love to ask questions!! And I've got heaps!! But... We all ready had our fight over text misunderstandings

Diana - 10:02:56 pm

So, you want to spend time talking instead of texting but you don't really want me to know anything about you

Diana - 10:03:12 pm

I meant I won't ask you questions if you don't want me to

Me - 10:03:27 pm

Hard to text that stuff. Don't you agree? Or do you find it easier?

Diana - 10:03:12 pm

Looks like it's back to talking about training then :) luckily we both like training

Me - 10:03:42 pm

More impersonal maybe

Diana - 10:03:12 pm

It's not satisfactory as a real source of communication

Me - 10:04:07 pm

No

Me - 10:04:18 pm

Saturday was good!

Me - 10:04:23 pm

I mean early

Me - 10:04:29 pm

Not the evening

Diana - 10:03:12 pm

Ok, so next time your non sleeping demons are the topic

Diana - 10:03:12 pm

No the ending was hideous

Diana - 10:03:12 pm

Evening

Me - 10:04:55 pm

I might need help to know what they are

Me - 10:05:07 pm

Morning was awesome

Me - 10:05:15 pm

Good word! Love it haha

Me - 10:05:26 pm

Washed the towels

Me - 10:05:38 pm

Ready to go again haha

Diana - 10:05:20 pm

What do you mean? Need help! As if you have heaps more life experience than i do

Me - 10:06:01 pm

Don't know about that

Diana - 10:05:20 pm

and if you've already washed the towels you have too much time on your hands!

Me - 10:06:08 pm

Haha

Me - 10:06:16 pm

Washing machine right?

Me - 10:06:21 pm

Push button

Me - 10:06:24 pm

Wash

Diana - 10:05:20 pm

I'm seriously thinking about quitting the wows. I'd rather be doing training I like. But we can talk tomorrow

Me - 10:06:45 pm

Ok

Diana - 10:05:20 pm

Yea kinda, but in my world is seems so much more complicated! Even that button is hard to find ;)

Me - 10:07:04 pm

I don't like this weeks one

Diana - 10:05:20 pm

There hasn't been a good one for a while

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

It's the same shit recycled

Me - 10:07:42 pm

You don't quit, you just don't do them

Me - 10:07:50 pm

Heaps did it last time

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

Well it's the same thing

Me - 10:07:56 pm

No score entered

Me - 10:08:04 pm

Yes. Same

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

Ok, sleep.

Me - 10:08:17 pm

Ok

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

See you tomorrow

Me - 10:08:35 pm

Bread in freeEr. All is well with the world

Me - 10:08:40 pm

See you

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

Ha!

Me - 10:09:14 pm

You just wait. Come the nuclear war, I'll have bread!! And you won't haha

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

All I'll want is your sons pre workout

Diana - 10:09:37 pm

:p

Me - 10:09:38 pm

Ha

Me - 10:09:41 pm

Night

Diana - 10:09:47 pm

Night

**Week Seven**

**Monday 29 September**

Me - 7:06:27 am

One seriously clean coffee machine

Diana - 7:09:20 am

Good work

Diana - 7:09:20 am

I'll have a soy flat white now you've woken me up

Me - 7:10:33 am

Did I wake you? Sorry. I thought you were going early to the gym?

Diana - 7:11:28 am

I was

Diana - 7:11:28 am

I woke at 3 and only got back to sleep around 530

Diana - 7:11:28 am

It's cool

Diana - 7:11:28 am

I was having a weird dream anyway

Diana - 7:11:28 am

I'll have coffee and shower and come in

Me - 7:12:36 am

Shit! I've failed again.

Diana - 7:12:58 am

Failed at what?

Me - 7:13:07 am

Turn of phrase

Diana - 7:13:16 am

Oh ok

Diana - 7:13:30 am

I'm still coming out of an American horror story dream

Diana - 7:13:36 am

I'll see you in the gym soon

Me - 7:13:44 am

Interesting. Love to hear it

Me - 7:13:48 am

See you

Diana - 7:17:52 am

Just google an American horror story

Diana - 7:17:52 am

Mine are like that

Diana - 7:17:52 am

But with a little of the deliverance and deer hunter thrown in

Diana - 7:17:52 am

And some snippets of real life

Diana - 7:17:52 am

Anyway

Me - 7:18:42 am

Whoa!

Diana - 7:17:52 am

I better get out of bed!

Me - 7:19:22 am

You might go back to sleep Nd the dreams will get you. Ha

Diana - 7:21:55 am

Like in the one just gone, while the 2 creepy country men were driving up the dirt road in their old car coming into the house for all kinds of sordid activities, and the woman in the house was angry at me because I was looking out a window after being trapped and she wasn't allowed to hurt me, Ian Henderson was texting me

Diana - 7:22:07 am

of course they're so much more involved texts can't justify

Diana - 7:22:08 am

Neither can words really

Diana - 7:22:08 am

Ok shutting up

Me - 7:22:29 am

They scare you?

Diana - 7:22:08 am

Getting up!

Me - 7:23:02 am

Another topic for in person talking.

Me - 7:23:12 am

Got to make a list. Hahaha

Me - 7:23:22 am

Like my task list

Me - 7:23:35 am

See you soon

Me - 7:25:54 am

Oh. It's a real tv series. I thought it was a genre. Reading on...

Diana - 7:26:24 am

Watch a short video of it on YouTube

Diana - 7:26:24 am

It's a good show

Diana - 7:26:24 am

I can't watch it but I wish I could

Me - 7:27:03 am

Do you have it?

Diana - 7:26:24 am

Just a season 1 snippet should do it

Diana - 7:26:24 am

Piratebay has it

Me - 7:27:17 am

Haha

Me - 7:27:22 am

Need lessons

Diana - 7:29:51 am

I've put on a kilo this weekend!!

Diana - 7:30:30 am

And I've been texting you the whole time! So that's obviously not working ;)

Me - 7:30:40 am

my fault?

Me - 7:30:48 am

More texting?

Me - 7:31:06 am

A kilo doesn't sound right.

Diana - 7:31:45 am

Of course it's not your fault

Diana - 7:31:48 am

It's mine

Diana - 7:31:51 am

And it's right

Me - 7:32:00 am

Duck?

Me - 7:32:19 am

And what? I thought you were starving this weekend.

Diana - 7:32:22 am

It always happens, I was losing too quickly

Diana - 7:32:29 am

300 grams a day is too much

Me - 7:32:45 am

Hang in there.

Diana - 7:32:48 am

Then when I eat anything more than the minimal my body hangs onto it

Me - 7:33:07 am

Ok

Diana - 7:33:32 am

I'm always starving! Don't take that seriously

Me - 7:33:47 am

I've put on a kilo too. Almost.

Diana - 7:33:53 am

It'll come off again, it always does

Me - 7:33:57 am

A few meals

Diana - 7:34:01 am

Yea but you seriously need to!

Diana - 7:34:14 am

This is the yoyo plateau I've been at for months

Me - 7:34:18 am

Really? What are you saying?

Diana - 7:34:18 am

Can't get it right

Diana - 7:34:24 am

Lose to quick put it on to quick

Diana - 7:34:30 am

I'm saying you are too skinny

Diana - 7:34:49 am

Just as I am too fat

Me - 7:35:30 am

Ok. Then we've both got work to do.

Me - 7:35:49 am

Whiskey for me

Me - 7:36:25 am

But couldn't type then. And then where would we be? Haha

Diana - 7:36:58 am

You'll be a great Typer on whiskey ;)

Me - 7:37:13 am

Would say too much

Me - 7:37:23 am

Saturday night every night

Me - 7:37:29 am

Last Saturday I mean

Me - 7:37:53 am

And I talk too much anyway as it is hahahaha

Diana - 7:37:59 am

Well I'll transcribe it for your next book ;)

Diana - 7:38:04 am

I didn't have any meal plans on the weekend, ate shit and drank shit and too much of it.

Diana - 7:38:09 am

So it's good I went shopping

Me - 7:38:21 am

Job done I guess

Diana - 7:38:26 am

I'm going to stay at 1400 until I lost the kilo then go up to 1500

Me - 7:38:33 am

Ok

Diana - 7:38:35 am

I'll keep emailing as of today

Me - 7:38:56 am

That's great.

Diana - 7:38:58 am

It's a lovely morning

Me - 7:39:06 am

Lake is great

Diana - 7:39:07 am

Why are we going into a dingy dark gym??

Me - 7:39:21 am

I'm only going in for you!

Diana - 7:39:12 am

I can't lift my arms up without pain!

Me - 7:40:02 am

We need to talk. Yet again about your arm

Diana - 7:40:18 am

You can drink coffee and have an easy morning

Me - 7:41:05 am

Really? I don't think so

Me - 7:41:19 am

Wow?

Me - 7:41:24 am

Or not?

Diana - 7:41:20 am

I mean the wow before he come then?

Diana - 7:41:20 am

I need another shaker

Diana - 7:41:20 am

One for pre workout a

Diana - 7:41:20 am

And one for protein

Diana - 7:41:20 am

Wow, what a loser I am!

Me - 7:42:09 am

The gym have them I think

Diana - 7:42:28 am

Oh we got to shut up, all I've done is drink coffee and sit in the sun

Me - 7:42:29 am

Not a loser, not even a tiny bit!

Me - 7:42:42 am

Stop it

Diana - 7:43:07 am

Stop what

Me - 7:43:18 am

Saying you're a loser

Me - 7:43:24 am

Too early for that stuff

Me - 7:43:57 am

Are we wow practicing?

Me - 7:44:08 am

Or not this one?

Me - 7:44:15 am

All shoulders

Me - 7:44:23 am

That's a lot of reps

Diana - 7:44:47 am

I'll see you at 830

Diana - 7:44:55 am

I'm doing it

Diana - 7:45:02 am

You got me into this mess ;)

Diana - 7:45:30 am

I can't even find my gym gear! Good start ;)

Me - 7:45:54 am

One more coffee and then I'm going haha

Diana - 7:45:36 am

It really is a lovely morning

Me - 7:46:10 am

I know!!!

Me - 7:46:18 am

Tarts lotto ticket needed

Me - 7:46:26 am

Tattslotto

Diana - 7:46:52 am

Haha or maybe you just need tarts ;)

Me - 7:47:02 am

Tarts?

Me - 7:47:12 am

Jam? Haha

Me - 7:47:25 am

To put on weight?

Diana - 7:47:31 am

Ok I'll be there around 830

Diana - 7:47:38 am

No girls duh!

Diana - 7:47:42 am

Ok Shoosh

Diana - 7:47:44 am

Getting ready

Me - 7:47:56 am

Sugar girls right? Lots of $$$$

Me - 7:48:00 am

Haha

Diana - 7:47:44 am

Yes you could totally get some through the gym

Diana - 7:47:44 am

You'll be set up there :)

Diana - 7:49:33 am

You may need to get over your aversion to fat, but it'd be worth the moula ;)

Me - 7:50:36 am

Haha. It's the insides that count! Don't you know anything? Haha

Diana - 7:51:54 am

Well then the world is your oyster!

Me - 7:52:57 am

But, in my case, you've got to get past the ordinary outside to appreciate the inside. :-) A task too difficult for most.

Diana - 8:07:39 am

It's not such a bad idea

Diana - 8:07:57 am

I'm going to start going to the gym in the afternoons and get this yoga course paid for

Diana - 8:08:09 am

I told you I do all my best thinking in water

Me - 8:09:02 am

How does going in the afternoons get yoga paid for?

Diana - 8:10:05 am

Find a sugar daddy

Me - 8:10:51 am

Oh!

Me - 8:10:57 am

Strings?

Diana - 8:11:12 am

Well obviously there'd be some

Diana - 8:11:12 am

But less messy than Imogen's dads strings

Me - 8:11:52 am

What are his?

Diana - 8:12:16 am

Ok I'm getting ready for the gym now

Me - 8:12:29 am

Leaving now

Diana - 8:17:36 am

He would say none

Diana - 8:17:36 am

Everything is subjective

Diana - 8:17:36 am

Ok see you soon

Diana - 8:17:36 am

I'm going to need a seriously long stretch before I start today

Diana - 10:25:36 am

The way you spoke

To me in the gym was disrespectful, inappropriate, embarrassing and lacking in professional boundaries. If this is how it's going to be I want to quit the wow and go back to training on my own. Maybe that's best anyway.

Me - 10:41:46 am

It was not my intention at all. However, I'm your trainer and I know all good trainers would be horrified that I'm letting you do barbell overheads with your shoulder injury. That is my dilemma. I want what is best for you but these wow's are a problem. My son, and his coach, would disown me with what I am doing with you. Sorry if I sounded rough, I didn't mean it in any way other than what's best for you and your shoulder injury. I'm sorry that my frustration is showing, it's difficult with the pressure of fixed workouts that I have no control over. I would not program heavy or high reps overhead for you, maybe dumbell or kettle bell allowing range of motion. My son's coach, one of the best in the world, abhors barbell's overhead.

Me - 10:44:50 am

I want to help you with your training. Look what I've done with your programs!!

Diana - 10:51:07 am

The gym was my place of retreat away from the madness of life and now it's become messy. And I need it to not be because right now it's the only thing that keeps me sane. The way you spoke to me is a derivative of us having contact outside of gym hours. It needs to stop, I need the gym to feel safe more than anything else. You can have professional concern and have it come out as that, not the way you did it today.

Diana - 10:51:12 am

I respect you as a trainer, but I'm not going to compromise on integrity.

Diana - 10:52:39 am

Let's just get through the wows as best we can.

Diana - 11:01:52 am

If it upsets you to take me through the wows then let me know. You don't have to compromise on your integrity either

Diana - 11:40:46 am

And I apologise for my lack of boundaries.

Me - 11:53:01 am

Actually, I agree with you. It's just after all that happened on the weekend that today felt a little odd. Close but remote. This is all learning, and that's good. Your remoteness during the sessions has worried me, but now I understand. Like our texting issues, that were resolved, the training and gym issues have now been resolved, I think. At the gym, I'll be friendly, helpful and trainer-like. It's all good, issues can be resolved by good communication. And at the gym, I prefer to be just friendly and trainer-like and leave any outside gym stuff outside the gym. Ok?

Diana - 12:20:18 pm

No more outside gym stuff.

Diana - 12:20:42 pm

Just a professional relationship at the gym.

Diana - 12:20:48 pm

If you don't want that I'll see if one of the other trainers can get me through the wows.

Diana - 12:22:44 pm

I mean there is 20 years difference between us, what were you hoping would happen?

Diana - 12:22:56 pm

Let's try the gym with nothing else. If that's still not working then we can sort that out then.

Diana - 12:22:56 pm

We've taken things too far out of loneliness. It's been innaproporate the whole time. I knew it but failed to change it. This morning has instigated the change for me.

Diana - 2:12:17 pm

I don't Have a score for the last wow on the results sheet

Me - 2:12:51 pm

Really? I'll check it out

Me - 2:18:59 pm

I'm going back into work to see what the fuck they've done.

Diana - 2:19:04 pm

Well unless I lifted nothing and came 89th?

Diana - 2:19:22 pm

They have a link on fb they say to email

Me - 2:19:23 pm

No. 0 means nothing entered

Diana - 2:19:34 pm

Ok

Me - 2:19:34 pm

You do that, ok?

Me - 2:19:42 pm

I'll go back to work

Diana - 2:19:43 pm

Ok

Me - 2:19:51 pm

I've sent a text, no answer

Diana - 2:23:49 pm

Call

Diana - 2:23:56 pm

I've sent a pm on fb

Diana - 2:24:05 pm

Giving them all the details

Me - 2:33:24 pm

All sorted. Or it will be.

Diana - 2:33:04 pm

What happened?

Me - 2:36:00 pm

It wasn't entered by the manager. He'll organize opening it up again to get your score in. Worst case, at the end of the comp it will be entered then. All good, eventually. I'm so sorry!!! My fault expecting others to do stuff. The trainers can enter the data but I've been leaving it in the tray. No more. I'll always do it myself.

Me - 2:36:48 pm

He is contrite.

Me - 2:37:01 pm

I called him :)

Me - 2:37:16 pm

Calling is MUCH better haha

Me - 2:37:28 pm

Going home again now

Diana - 2:39:28 pm

I just posted that my score was missing in the comments page, nothing like some public shaming to get things done

Diana - 2:53:35 pm

Thanks for sorting it

Me - 5:22:05 pm

Just spoke with the manager, they'll adjust your score for last week's wow tomorrow.

Diana - 5:22:59 pm

Will he throw in 3 months membership? ;)

Diana - 5:23:08 pm

Thanks for sorting it

Diana - 6:40:14 pm

I apologise for being rude earlier, I was angry and my delivery was pretty awful. You've been always very kind and thoughtful towards me, so I'm sorry.

Diana - 6:42:40 pm

I still feel our relationship should be in the confines of the gym, but should have spoken to to you in person.

Diana - 9:33:14 pm

I just finished your book. Did Joan really die?

Diana - 9:33:20 pm

I'm not emailing my food. It's been a bad day. Tomorrow is a new one.

Me - 9:36:13 pm

Yes

Diana - 9:38:30 pm

That's terrible, I'm sorry

Diana - 9:39:34 pm

And I'm sorry you didn't spend your life with 'kate'

Diana - 9:39:44 pm

Ok I'll shut up now

**Tuesday 30 September**

Diana - 8:38:56 am

Do we need to talk before gym tomorrow or is everything ok?

Me - 8:41:39 am

Everything is ok. But. Yes. It would be good to talk. With real words. But whenever you have time.

Me - 8:42:04 am

I think I've come up with a simple in gym solution that could work really well.

Diana - 8:41:04 am

I'd feel better talking before we go in.

Diana - 8:41:04 am

Hahaha! An in gym solution!

Me - 8:42:42 am

Sitting outside in he sun! It's nice here. Haha

Diana - 8:42:43 am

I don't have the kids tonight I can meet you after work, or if that's too late I can just call

Me - 8:42:55 am

Tonight would be great

Diana - 8:42:59 am

Yep, it's a good spot

Diana - 8:43:12 am

2 things, can we leave the wow u til Friday?

Me - 8:43:29 am

Ok

Me - 8:43:44 am

Of course

Diana - 8:43:12 am

Because a) Ian said that Id need more recovery time, I'm not sure I do but he planted the seed of doubt in my head

Diana - 8:43:12 am

B) it's the time of the month and I'm bloated and emotional

Diana - 8:43:12 am

Coaches need to know that stuff don't they?

Me - 8:44:27 am

Ok. Completely understand

Diana - 8:43:12 am

2) what was my score so I can see where I will land, further from 19 or in front

Me - 8:45:12 am

I've lived with women for many years. I know more Bout that that I probably want to haha

Diana - 8:45:20 am

I'll see how I feel, if I have pre workout and feel able to smash it out I will, it's much better to get it over and done with, under my arms are hurting thouhh

Me - 8:45:26 am

Score is at the gym

Diana - 8:45:20 am

Yes. Well I'm not living with you so it's prob unnecessary for you to know!

Me - 8:45:56 am

It will be there later today, probably. Your score

Me - 8:46:03 am

Coach

Me - 8:46:18 am

Needs to know, probably

Me - 8:46:24 am

It helps

Me - 8:47:17 am

I can't remeber your score sorry

Me - 8:47:29 am

And I'm spending today with sister and mother

Diana - 8:47:28 am

That's fine

Diana - 8:47:28 am

It doesn't really matter

Diana - 8:47:28 am

Hope your day goes well

Me - 8:48:05 am

Text later about tonight?

Diana - 8:47:28 am

Yep, I finish work at 730

Me - 8:48:24 am

Ok

Me - 8:49:17 am

And the odd text now and then is a good idea. I think. Still friends, no matter how this all ends up.

Diana - 8:55:06 am

Sounds like you've concocted a certified solution!

Diana - 8:55:15 am

Just got off the phone to the club

Diana - 8:55:27 am

The manager called to apologise

Me - 8:55:33 am

That's nice

Diana - 8:56:00 am

He said the score will e updated next week, and then told me I was doing well and to not be so hard on myself. Just what have you told him?????

Me - 8:56:09 am

I was worried, yesterday, that he was going to be a prick about it

Diana - 8:56:00 am

Then I asked when the deadlift one was :)

Me - 8:56:29 am

Haha

Diana - 8:56:34 am

He was nice, said it was miscommunication between you and him

Me - 8:56:40 am

It was

Me - 8:56:49 am

and my fault too, a bit

Me - 8:56:56 am

I should have checked

Me - 8:57:01 am

Re checked

Me - 8:57:22 am

Won't happen again

Diana - 8:57:47 am

Anyway it doesn't really matter.

Me - 8:57:54 am

It does

Me - 8:58:33 am

But it's been fixed now, time to focus on the next thing

Me - 8:58:44 am

Wow

Me - 8:59:08 am

Can't be too late on Friday

Me - 8:59:19 am

Got to be enters by 12

Me - 8:59:23 am

Entered

Diana - 8:59:49 am

Yep

Diana - 8:59:56 am

If I feel up to it I'll do it tomorrow

Diana - 9:00:13 am

He said it hadn't been entered for 2 weeks I was just checking

Me - 9:00:45 am

What hadn't been entered?

Me - 9:00:48 am

?

Diana - 9:01:30 am

My score

Diana - 9:01:33 am

It's not the case

Diana - 9:01:47 am

I don't think he actually really ever focuses on any one thing!

Me - 9:05:27 am

Another coffee. I might buy a tent and just live out here on the non lawn. Nice. :)

Diana - 9:07:54 am

It really is new to you isn't it!

Diana - 9:08:09 am

I live on my lawn

Diana - 9:08:48 am

I found a yoga school, affiliated thus more expensive, in Hampton will classes on Monday which means no missing out on kid time. It's perfect really.

Me - 9:09:00 am

Yes. Relaxing is good. Always felt I should be working, or doing something. Thanks for giving me this.

Diana - 9:08:48 am

I didn't give it to you!

Diana - 9:08:48 am

It was always there

Me - 9:09:26 am

Open the door

Me - 9:09:32 am

Literally hah

Diana - 9:08:48 am

And seriously if you move out and I'm earning more I want to move in with the kids.

Diana - 9:08:48 am

I'd get out on the water every day!

Me - 9:10:15 am

Your kids would be too nice for here

Me - 9:10:24 am

No calling people suckers

Diana - 9:10:42 am

I lived in a shed on the beach for a year. With no running water or electricity. It was one of the most interesting times of my life!

Me - 9:10:49 am

I'll let you know when I'm moving out then

Diana - 9:10:56 am

My kids would just ignore them

Diana - 9:10:56 am

Well Joel mightn't :)

Diana - 9:10:56 am

Cool :)

Diana - 9:10:56 am

It's too expensive for me, but it'd be nice to do small yoga classes from

Me - 9:11:39 am

Tax right off

Me - 9:11:53 am

Write

Diana - 9:10:56 am

Hmm

Diana - 9:10:56 am

I'd better do a course first

Me - 9:12:14 am

Haha

Me - 9:12:18 am

It would help

Me - 9:12:25 am

But dreaming is awesome

Me - 9:12:56 am

I wrote a lyric to that effect years ago

Me - 9:13:21 am

"The expectation is always better than what you end up with"

Diana - 9:13:04 am

You seriously need to play music again. Just make it a part of your day and stop the reminiscing already!

Me - 9:13:33 am

I'll play it to you one day

Diana - 9:13:04 am

And I totally disagree by the way

Me - 9:13:42 am

Haha

Diana - 9:13:04 am

I thought about how you said you'd rather not meet the current version of the person you remember

Me - 9:13:59 am

Depends on mood and what's happened

Me - 9:14:03 am

:-)

Diana - 9:13:04 am

I'm actually the opposite

Diana - 9:13:04 am

I'd do anything to see some people now.

Diana - 9:13:04 am

No matter what they'd become

Me - 9:14:33 am

I feel like that with some

Diana - 9:14:54 am

Reality is far more love worthy than memories

Diana - 9:15:12 am

I'm packing stupid healthy food so I don't eat crap at work

Diana - 9:15:12 am

argh

Me - 9:15:22 am

Good

Diana - 9:15:12 am

The pressure!

Me - 9:15:34 am

Self pressure right?

Diana - 9:15:12 am

Right

Me - 9:15:59 am

That's ok then

Diana - 9:15:12 am

Not really! My head is worse than any other I know!

Me - 9:16:35 am

Haha

Me - 9:16:41 am

Read my book?

Diana - 9:15:12 am

I'm not kidding

Me - 9:16:48 am

Sub texts

Diana - 9:15:12 am

Yea I read it yesterday

Me - 9:16:58 am

We DO need to talk haha

Me - 9:17:12 am

More has happened to you

Me - 9:17:19 am

More "stuff"

Diana - 9:17:20 am

somewhat hedonistic

Diana - 9:17:20 am

But not self hatred

Me - 9:17:36 am

Yeah exactly

Diana - 9:17:20 am

Mines hate.

Me - 9:18:03 am

This is for in person

Diana - 9:17:20 am

Fucking seeds

Me - 9:18:36 am

Got to find something other than seeds, don't we?

Me - 9:18:44 am

I know!

Me - 9:18:49 am

Save dollars

Me - 9:19:02 am

My wife had a enormous avary

Diana - 9:17:20 am

It's not jab yourseld in the arm with heroin hate, so a lot has changed. It much milder.

Diana - 9:17:20 am

I know you told me

Me - 9:19:14 am

Used to buy bird seed in bulk

Diana - 9:17:20 am

I hate birds in cages

Me - 9:19:27 am

I know how to get it haha

Diana - 9:19:28 am

And yes I know it was big

Me - 9:19:42 am

Cage was bigger than a big house!!!

Me - 9:19:56 am

Like healsville

Diana - 9:19:28 am

Cage is a cage

Me - 9:20:08 am

Cost $10,000!!!

Me - 9:20:13 am

Holy shit

Diana - 9:19:28 am

You can make it pretty but it's still a cage

Me - 9:20:22 am

Yes

Diana - 9:19:28 am

That's fucking preposterous

Diana - 9:19:28 am

There are children starving!

Me - 9:20:50 am

Exactly

Me - 9:20:56 am

My thoughts too

Me - 9:21:04 am

Did not go down well haha

Me - 9:21:15 am

Still got it built

Me - 9:21:23 am

And I had to look after them

Me - 9:21:32 am

Daily grind

Me - 9:21:53 am

Just too damn nice, I reckon :-)

Diana - 9:21:55 am

When people are unhappy they spend to alleviate it I guess

Diana - 9:22:06 am

Same as drinking

Diana - 9:22:10 am

Or codependent :p

Me - 9:23:03 am

Off to work soon? It's a long day for you, isn't it?

Diana - 9:23:28 am

Yep up at 5, playing with kids, getting them ready now and all of our lunches

Diana - 9:23:33 am

Drop them off then go to work

Diana - 9:25:51 am

I'm making a second coffee

Diana - 9:25:52 am

It's too early but stuff it

Diana - 9:25:52 am

I have to get a move on

Diana - 9:25:52 am

I'll speak to you later

Diana - 9:59:53 am

It's going to drop to 12 around 5!

Diana - 10:00:00 am

Maybe we can have our chat over smoke signals

Me - 10:00:30 am

Rain too?

Diana - 10:00:45 am

I'd assume so

Diana - 10:00:56 am

Fire inside?

Me - 10:01:13 am

Got heating. All good!

Diana - 10:01:17 am

It'll be a 5km walk to my car! Argh

Diana - 10:01:23 am

Yea well you're staying home!

Me - 10:01:24 am

What!!

Diana - 10:01:33 am

We can leave the talk until the gym!

Diana - 10:19:12 am

First shift of the day down now to head to work

Diana - 10:19:12 am

I really could love on Pre workout

Diana - 10:19:12 am

Live

Me - 10:23:32 am

We need to get you a sponsorship with Optimum Nutrition. Save heaps. Maybe get you lifting heavier and send them the picture. :-)

Me - 10:24:29 am

Have a great day!

Diana - 10:38:24 am

I'll be 50 but the time you let me lift heavy enough for that

Diana - 10:38:24 am

Thanks you too

Me - 1:08:56 pm

Why did you delete the instragram comment? I thought it was cool.

Diana - 1:09:31 pm

Innapropriate perhaps

Me - 1:10:07 pm

It was fine. But it's ok.

Diana - 1:11:59 pm

Of course it's ok

Diana - 1:12:00 pm

My comment I can do what I want with it ;)

Diana - 1:13:03 pm

Is this my first time in the top 10?

Diana - 1:13:11 pm

How's your mum fairing?

Me - 1:13:39 pm

Top 10? I should check, that's awesome!!!

Diana - 1:13:43 pm

I just need a deadlift wow now

Me - 1:14:05 pm

Mum's ok. A bit tired. Understandable.

Me - 1:14:12 pm

Blood pressure again

Diana - 1:14:08 pm

Yea maybe you'll have some faith in me now and stop telling me how limited I am cause of my age!

Me - 1:14:38 pm

Hahaha

Diana - 1:14:08 pm

Yea but I bet being home is worth the blood pressure upset

Me - 1:14:51 pm

Yep. Sure is

Me - 1:15:15 pm

Daughter is here. That helps too

Me - 1:19:32 pm

Yeah!!! 9th! Wow!! FFS presentation dinner here we come! :-)

Diana - 1:20:32 pm

God I hope it's clean ;)

Diana - 1:24:40 pm

The dinner Id for the top 5 right?

Diana - 1:24:48 pm

I don't want to finish in the top 5, but top 10 would be good

Diana - 1:24:48 pm

Doubtful but

Me - 1:26:06 pm

Dinner is for everyone. You'd get on stage for top 5, probably. I didn't go last time. Had a course to go to.

Diana - 1:24:48 pm

One can hope

Me - 1:28:01 pm

Well, you've done well with the overheads. And they potentially were a problem.

Diana - 1:26:56 pm

Yea I had to fight you and get tormented by you thouhh

Diana - 1:26:56 pm

Though

Diana - 1:29:04 pm

I'll skip the dinner, I've got nothing to wear

Me - 1:29:13 pm

I've heard unofficiially, that you get to repeat your worst score if you want. At the end. Don't know if it's true

Diana - 1:29:04 pm

Top 10 finish

Me - 1:29:29 pm

No more fighting in the gym!

Me - 1:29:45 pm

Suggestions, then acceptance. On my part

Diana - 1:29:04 pm

I'll be slow this week cause I'm not fast but I may be able to lift heavy enough to secure a place

Me - 2:19:09 pm

Home again. Leaving to two ladies to catch up. And gossip about me probably haha

Me - 2:19:25 pm

Mum and sister I mean

Diana - 2:19:33 pm

Jesus! You're pretty into yourself!

Me - 2:19:34 pm

Haha yeah

Me - 2:19:51 pm

Not really haha

Me - 2:20:05 pm

They like to worry!

Diana - 2:20:08 pm

Oh did you hear marks just discovered he has a no lawn on the lake..

Diana - 2:20:15 pm

I can hear it now

Me - 2:20:24 pm

Veeeeery funny!

Diana - 2:20:16 pm

What's to worry about?

Me - 2:20:49 pm

Nothing. Which in itself is something to worry about!

Me - 2:20:56 pm

For a mother

Diana - 2:20:16 pm

Hmm

Diana - 2:20:16 pm

I'll see if that rings true for me down the track

Me - 2:21:33 pm

What don't you know. What has been withheld. Etc etc

Me - 2:21:44 pm

Normal stuff

Me - 2:22:17 pm

My grandmother told me, just before she died, she worried about my mother

Me - 2:22:32 pm

She was 93 and mum was 70-ish

Me - 2:25:19 pm

Got to try and design a massage handout at the gym. Hmmm. This could be a tricky afternoon

Diana - 2:24:32 pm

Parking meters payable by card. Gotta love it

Diana - 2:24:32 pm

Just use a lotus flower ;)

Me - 2:25:55 pm

Good idea.

Me - 2:26:12 pm

Google image search coming up

Diana - 2:26:36 pm

I was kidding

Me - 2:28:11 pm

Need something soothing, reassuring though. I'll look. But got to eat first. A bit windy outside!

Me - 2:28:32 pm

Wind surfing on the lake

Me - 2:28:41 pm

Another idea! Yeah!

Diana - 2:28:48 pm

Change the image arouns

Diana - 2:28:48 pm

Or buy it from photo stock

Diana - 2:28:48 pm

else you'll have copyright issues

Diana - 2:28:48 pm

Ok I'm back to the grind

Diana - 2:28:48 pm

Car has been moved

Diana - 3:08:10 pm

The winds have hit! Q

Diana - 3:08:10 pm

Love a good storm

Me - 3:10:49 pm

The lake looks seriously cool.

Me - 3:10:49 pm

Gusts steaming across it

Diana - 3:17:52 pm

Bloody storms and dictator captures, they always happen when I'm rostered on!

Diana - 3:17:52 pm

Argh

Diana - 3:17:52 pm

Stop trying to sell me your lake ;)

Me - 3:18:37 pm

Haha

Diana - 3:17:52 pm

I saw it first!

Me - 3:18:54 pm

Too late, already done I think :-)

Diana - 3:20:00 pm

Not today

Me - 3:22:11 pm

Massage images are pretty boring. All very similar. Half naked smiling women. Not appropriate.

Diana - 3:22:08 pm

Haha! For an afternoon alone it might be

Me - 3:22:50 pm

Haha

Me - 3:22:59 pm

I am, but it's not

Me - 3:23:24 pm

Got some legs only ones

Me - 3:23:31 pm

They look ok

Diana - 3:24:05 pm

Go symbolic

Diana - 3:24:10 pm

It's much more effective

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Look for a symbol or thing that represents how you want people to feel

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

Don't be so obvious

Me - 3:24:32 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

I really should be paid for this ;)

Me - 3:25:14 pm

Yoga teachers get paid heaps! I saw a brochure a mum's. $18 per session.

Me - 3:25:27 pm

Is that right?

Diana - 3:25:57 pm

That's what people pay per session YeP

Diana - 3:26:04 pm

Are you being sarcastic?

Me - 3:26:24 pm

Not if you have 20 in a class, regularly

Me - 3:26:35 pm

One, not so good haha

Me - 3:27:02 pm

Found a lotus

Me - 3:27:04 pm

Haha

Diana - 3:26:24 pm

I'd need you to move to a bigger patch of the lake ;)

Diana - 3:26:24 pm

Well is it therapeutic, relaxation remedial etc massage

Diana - 3:26:24 pm

Choose that and move on from there

Me - 3:28:12 pm

Sports, deep tissue and relaxation.

Me - 3:28:21 pm

Mixture

Me - 3:28:29 pm

Ok will do

Me - 3:29:15 pm

Argh! More happy women!

Diana - 3:51:33 pm

You know Men get massages too right?

Diana - 3:51:55 pm

Just got a text about a fun run Saturday and a motivational talk Thursady night

Diana - 3:51:58 pm

Pffft

Diana - 3:53:25 pm

It's international day of older persons tomorrow

Me - 3:53:25 pm

I was going to do the run, about 4 weeks ago. But I haven't been able to train (run) enough.

Diana - 3:53:31 pm

I'm on the intake desk today

Diana - 3:53:45 pm

You could pop out 10 km easy

Me - 3:54:29 pm

Not to my satisfaction. If there's anything in the world, there are plenty of 10k races :-)

Me - 3:55:03 pm

I found an appropriate happy woman.

Diana - 3:54:08 pm

And you call me competitive

Me - 3:55:15 pm

That may be my market, anyway

Me - 3:55:21 pm

At this gym

Me - 3:55:29 pm

Don't know

Me - 3:55:35 pm

Suggestions?

Me - 3:55:40 pm

Maybe later

Me - 3:55:47 pm

When you have time

Me - 3:56:09 pm

Like you exactly. Self competitive

Me - 3:56:21 pm

Hate losing haha

Me - 3:58:38 pm

It's really windy! I remember doing a triathlon once, strong winds. I actually felt sea sick during the swim!

Diana - 3:58:24 pm

There are lots of road closures accidents and trees down

Me - 4:06:34 pm

A good companion and a stormy lake.

Diana - 4:09:04 pm

Well play it don't take photos of it

Me - 4:09:35 pm

:-)

Diana - 4:09:57 pm

Be careful with your logo choice, you don't want to be changing looks once the business is up and running

Me - 4:11:42 pm

Yeah. Help needed! If and when you have time, just a little editing advice would be appreciated. Thanks. Please?

Diana - 4:12:48 pm

Sure

Diana - 4:13:08 pm

I've printed out eveything about this new yoga school now all I have to do it read it

Diana - 4:13:14 pm

And we know how I feel about reading

Diana - 4:13:17 pm

:/

Me - 4:13:34 pm

Want another set of eyes?

Me - 4:13:48 pm

Help if you want

Diana - 4:14:05 pm

I'll do a class and see how it feels

Diana - 4:14:18 pm

I'm more of a feeling based decision person

Diana - 4:16:30 pm

But yep you can do all the study for me and give me the short version ;)

Me - 4:17:57 pm

Précis! No probs.

Me - 4:19:20 pm

I'm not that keen on the diminished minor key too much. I like my perfect fifths. :-)

Diana - 4:24:00 pm

Yea you have to be kinda fucked up to like them

Diana - 4:24:00 pm

the walk has fallen again

Diana - 4:24:00 pm

Same spot

Me - 4:25:26 pm

I like them. Just like some resolution some of the times

Me - 4:25:40 pm

Engineers. Pfft

Me - 4:25:55 pm

Like it's not that windy

Diana - 4:26:08 pm

Swanston at walk

Diana - 4:26:08 pm

Street wall

Diana - 4:26:08 pm

Same place it came down last time

Diana - 4:26:08 pm

Teenager burnt in house fire

Diana - 4:26:08 pm

Wanna know anything else!

Me - 4:27:44 pm

Ahh! Good news eh? Sigh!

Diana - 4:27:48 pm

No Injuries on wall

Me - 4:27:52 pm

Good

Diana - 4:28:16 pm

If you'd prefer to know about the children being tortured and stolen from their families in gaza instead I can fill you in

Me - 4:29:47 pm

Sigh!

Me - 4:30:08 pm

It's so sad. All that stuff. And will last generations.

Diana - 4:32:32 pm

I can do the cert for 3.5k or the diploma for 6

Diana - 4:32:32 pm

Hmm

Diana - 4:32:32 pm

Start with feet

Diana - 4:32:32 pm

Very

Diana - 4:34:37 pm

Cert!!!

Me - 4:36:45 pm

You usually do a cert on the way to diploma. So, I guess, start with cert and see. Ask, if it makes a difference to employment?

Me - 4:37:13 pm

Want me to ask tomorrow?

Diana - 4:38:24 pm

No, I'll do it

Diana - 4:39:46 pm

I've decided to do the certified one regardless

Diana - 4:40:25 pm

It's more suitable to being with the kids, and Hampton is a good place to start off near the beach and with a lot of paying potential clients

Me - 4:41:36 pm

Good plan. It's what my accountant said I should do. Go where the disposable income lives.

Diana - 4:42:23 pm

Wall is a non story

Diana - 4:42:51 pm

Yea and I'll get back into photography eventually, those kind of people like photos of themselves

Diana - 4:49:04 pm

Faaaark it's so busy!!

Me - 4:50:29 pm

It's the weather stuff, is it?

Diana - 4:53:52 pm

It's everything

Diana - 4:53:52 pm

It's just a busy day

Diana - 4:55:40 pm

If we do the wow tomorrow I can try out the yoga studio on Friday

Diana - 4:55:51 pm

They only have classes at 10 :/

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

But I could go to the gym and train after

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Really need the world to slow down so I can sort out my own life ;)

Me - 4:56:21 pm

Thursday?

Me - 4:56:32 pm

For the wow?

Me - 4:56:46 pm

I thought tomorrow was a bad time?

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

No can train Thursdat

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Thursday

Diana - 4:56:00 pm

Early start at work again

Diana - 4:57:33 pm

Tomorrow is the Only time so I'll have to suck it up and do it I guess

Diana - 4:57:40 pm

Or try out the studio next week

Me - 4:57:41 pm

Evening?

Me - 4:57:52 pm

More time?

Me - 4:58:08 pm

More people though

Diana - 4:58:08 pm

Kids

Me - 4:58:40 pm

Sleep in a bit

Me - 4:58:50 pm

Do it a bit later

Diana - 4:58:08 pm

Tomorrow?

Me - 4:59:02 pm

Yes

Diana - 4:58:08 pm

Yep when the gym is quiet

Diana - 4:58:08 pm

I don't start until 3

Me - 4:59:36 pm

I have an 8:30am, after that I'm free all morning

Me - 4:59:54 pm

My cancelled Monday, re sxheduled

Me - 5:00:14 pm

Like 11am??

Me - 5:00:18 pm

Or whenever

Me - 5:00:29 pm

Suits you

Me - 5:00:59 pm

Decide later. I'll fit in

Diana - 5:00:16 pm

The cert doesn't enable me to teach, only practice

Diana - 5:00:16 pm

Arghhh

Me - 5:02:05 pm

Shit

Me - 5:02:17 pm

How long?

Me - 5:02:23 pm

For diploma

Diana - 5:02:24 pm

They're both a year long

Me - 5:02:47 pm

Ok. Choice made :-)

Diana - 5:02:24 pm

You can do the cert followed by advanced diploma but it's 2 years

Diana - 5:02:24 pm

Not decided, it's nearly 3k difference in price :(

Diana - 5:02:24 pm

Loan time maybe

Me - 5:03:23 pm

Bummer!

Me - 5:03:40 pm

Strings eh?

Me - 5:03:46 pm

Damn strings!

Diana - 5:21:36 pm

I guess it's about which strings are the most palatable

Diana - 5:32:16 pm

Kit Kat to my left, snickers to my right

Diana - 5:32:16 pm

It's ok

Me - 5:33:37 pm

Good song! Haha

Diana - 5:32:16 pm

I really couldn't think of anything worse than teaching people to run!

Diana - 5:32:16 pm

I'd just tell them to do an obstacle race ;)

Me - 5:34:07 pm

I'm doing it with you!!

Diana - 5:34:22 pm

I'm not used to sitting all day, my bum hurts

Diana - 5:34:24 pm

Again information you don't need!

Diana - 5:34:24 pm

Sorry

Me - 5:35:55 pm

No office job for you then! Negative descions are still decisions

Me - 5:36:01 pm

;)

Diana - 5:36:32 pm

What's negative?

Diana - 5:36:32 pm

Do the course

Diana - 5:36:32 pm

Seriously

Diana - 5:36:32 pm

What a great way to get new pt clients

Me - 5:37:46 pm

No! Not to sit on your bum all day!

Me - 5:38:00 pm

No job like that!

Me - 5:38:08 pm

That's all I mean

Me - 5:38:38 pm

Poor car though :-)

Diana - 5:38:52 pm

If I did Id have to go for a run or do yoga at lunch

Diana - 5:38:58 pm

No break on this shift thiugh

Me - 5:39:10 pm

Tough, no break

Me - 5:39:30 pm

I thought there was a 5 hour limit or something?

Diana - 5:39:47 pm

Pfft

Diana - 5:39:51 pm

Of course there is

Me - 5:40:34 pm

I'd still do massage. Massage is cool.

Me - 5:40:49 pm

Helping hands and all that stuff haha

Me - 5:41:07 pm

Soothing for the masseur too

Me - 5:41:28 pm

For non smelly clients, of course haha

Diana - 5:42:00 pm

Non smelly and Non fat

Diana - 5:42:08 pm

You won't really be able to choose :)

Me - 5:42:26 pm

No. But the location helps

Me - 5:42:53 pm

Smelly... Yes

Me - 5:42:56 pm

Haha

Me - 5:43:26 pm

Essential oils. Strong ones!! :-)

Diana - 5:45:04 pm

She's gonna let me do the cert then cross over to the dip

Diana - 5:45:04 pm

Woo fucking hoo

Me - 5:45:32 pm

1 year still?

Me - 5:46:14 pm

1 year before you can teach?

Diana - 5:48:12 pm

Yes

Diana - 5:48:25 pm

But it's 500 hours and certified level 2

Diana - 5:48:42 pm

I'd feel better teaching knowing I wasn't doing a few days of a course

Diana - 5:49:20 pm

They're eating they're snickers and picking on my seed and sweet potato salad ;)

Me - 5:50:10 pm

Do it. Sounds great. Bring stuff around for me to read, if you want me to scan for odd clauses/fine print.

Me - 5:50:23 pm

Be brave, Diana!

Me - 5:50:30 pm

Sticks and stones...

Diana - 5:50:33 pm

I think they're more likely to come with the loan

Diana - 5:50:49 pm

Meh I just call them fat it's all good :)

Me - 5:50:55 pm

How many $ required?

Diana - 5:51:02 pm

Remember I've been here 14 years it's all in jest

Diana - 5:51:12 pm

6k for the full year

Diana - 5:51:20 pm

3.5 for the first six

Me - 5:51:28 pm

Seems ok price

Diana - 5:51:28 pm

Yep

Diana - 5:51:28 pm

It's the going price for a certified body certification ;)

Diana - 7:38:08 pm

It's freezing

Diana - 7:38:08 pm

Really really cold

Diana - 7:38:08 pm

Can we just text our gym protocol so I can go home and get warm

Me - 7:39:10 pm

Up to you.

Me - 7:39:36 pm

It's not a big "protocol".

Diana - 7:38:08 pm

Ok cool

Diana - 7:38:08 pm

I'm really cold and pretty exhausted

Me - 7:40:04 pm

Ok

Me - 7:40:15 pm

Sleep in a bit?

Me - 7:40:21 pm

Before wow?

Diana - 7:40:16 pm

Yep if I can't sleep atleast stay in bed for a bit

Diana - 7:40:16 pm

So...

Me - 7:41:12 pm

Good idea

Diana - 7:40:16 pm

No. 1 treat me like any other client

Me - 7:41:38 pm

Of course

Diana - 7:40:16 pm

No. 2 give me my personal space

Me - 7:41:50 pm

Yep

Diana - 7:40:16 pm

Ie no grabbing me on the arm

Me - 7:42:01 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:40:16 pm

It makes me retreat and you don't even notice

Me - 7:42:15 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:42:28 pm

Don't ask me what do you want to do, you're the couch

Diana - 7:42:32 pm

Coach too ;)

Diana - 7:42:39 pm

I'll tell you if I don't want to do something

Me - 7:42:45 pm

Ok

Me - 7:42:49 pm

Also

Me - 7:43:17 pm

I need to know (in a nice way) when I'm not quite doing it right.

Diana - 7:43:17 pm

Don't treat me like I'm an idiot, I know my body and what it's capable of

Me - 7:43:31 pm

I make mistakes, although I'll try hard not to

Me - 7:43:55 pm

Ok. I'll suggest and them leave the decision up to you

Me - 7:44:03 pm

Coach = suggest

Me - 7:44:08 pm

But not dictate

Me - 7:44:13 pm

I agree

Me - 7:44:17 pm

I did that wrong

Diana - 7:44:32 pm

It's ok to tell me what to do, that's what you're there for

Diana - 7:45:24 pm

Don't put me down even in front of others bexauae of the decisions I make

Me - 7:45:31 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:45:51 pm

You're supposed to support me in the wows not criticise me

Me - 7:46:27 pm

I thought I was supportive

Diana - 7:46:32 pm

And encourage me in the wows but don't go over the top, you go over the top whenever another trainer is there

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

Training is my only outlet at this point in my life I need to look after it

Me - 7:49:33 pm

I understand now. I didn't on Monday

Me - 7:49:41 pm

I just need to be told

Me - 7:49:55 pm

If I'm doing the wrong thing

Me - 7:50:08 pm

I'll treat you like the others

Diana - 7:50:35 pm

Exactly that. If another client was telling you what they needed would you interrupt them with a story about your son?

Diana - 7:50:38 pm

I think not

Diana - 7:50:47 pm

You need better boundaries with training

Diana - 7:50:56 pm

I sound like a bitch but my sanity depends on this

Me - 7:51:49 pm

Ok. I cN do all this

Me - 7:52:06 pm

Just let me know if I'm not

Me - 7:52:12 pm

I'll be trying

Diana - 7:52:18 pm

Just think. Would I do this for / to other clients

Diana - 7:52:23 pm

Would I say this to other clients

Diana - 7:52:28 pm

Etx

Diana - 7:52:51 pm

In the context of our personal programs of course

Diana - 7:53:04 pm

Ok. Now your turn

Diana - 7:53:04 pm

It'll be good practice for your with your other female clients I think

Diana - 7:53:04 pm

Boundaries may be an issue for you

Diana - 7:53:51 pm

They are for me

Me - 7:54:06 pm

No. I'm all good. I agree with Ll you've said. Professionalism with everyone.

Me - 7:54:43 pm

Professional but friendly and chatty.

Diana - 7:54:52 pm

Argh are you being a people pleaser?

Diana - 7:55:02 pm

I don't care Id you say what you think

Diana - 7:55:06 pm

If

Diana - 7:55:12 pm

I can take it

Me - 7:55:34 pm

I'm good.

Diana - 7:56:11 pm

For me time in the gym used to be time to myself, I've lost that so I'm struggling a bit

Me - 7:56:31 pm

It. An still be time alone

Diana - 7:56:37 pm

Sometimes after a wow if would be good for me to workout on my own but just ask questions If I need to

Diana - 7:56:49 pm

Or do a heavy deadlift day together

Diana - 7:56:53 pm

But schedule it

Me - 7:57:30 pm

I'll give you programs, like I've done, and if you want to do a circuit together then, if I'm available, we can. Other days just do your program

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

I don't think home visits are a good idea until we see if we can sort this?

Me - 7:57:56 pm

I'll show you the new exercises

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Ok cool

Me - 7:58:32 pm

Ok. I think it's better to talk I person. But this is working, sort of

Me - 7:59:26 pm

Let's see how the gym stuff pans out

Me - 8:00:30 pm

What time tomorrow? Roughly?

Me - 8:00:42 pm

Let me know if you're up to doing the wow

Diana - 8:01:36 pm

It's pouring and I'm driving

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

I don't know and I will

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

You have to be there anyway for other clients right

Me - 8:04:41 pm

Yeah

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

I'm going to say please, try to read the personal space thing

Me - 8:04:58 pm

I will

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

I feel like i want to scream my head off when you come into that

Diana - 8:05:36 pm

I know you think it's weird and it's something I need to work through but I actually think it's fine

Me - 8:05:49 pm

I understand

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

That people don't know how to read it and respect it is The problem

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

It'll make me run though

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

Before anything else

Me - 8:06:23 pm

I don't want that. It will be done!

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

I would never touch someone without asking

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

Cool thanks

Me - 8:07:00 pm

I do. It's a problem, I know

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

Most people do and I fucking hate it

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

I feel trapped and so angry at the same time

Me - 8:07:36 pm

Ok

Me - 8:07:40 pm

I get it

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

Anyway I'll think of a discreet symbol to do when it's happening

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

Like screaming fuck off ;)

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

Did I tell you I'm in the top 10? ;))

Me - 8:08:30 pm

That will do it haha

Me - 8:08:49 pm

We discuses it earlier today!!

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

Argh I know

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

I'm being silly

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

Ok is there anything you want to say?

Me - 8:11:19 pm

Not as far as gym goes. And that's all there is at the moment. All good. Let's see if I can get this gym coach stuff right. I'll be trying.

Diana - 8:12:16 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:12:16 pm

I'll be trying to

Diana - 8:12:16 pm

Very trying ;)

Diana - 8:12:16 pm

I have to embellish my placing this week cause I'll lost it again after this weeks WOw

Me - 8:13:50 pm

? 9th not good enough?

Me - 8:14:03 pm

Burpees as hard yes

Me - 8:14:08 pm

Are hard

Diana - 8:12:16 pm

No that's good!

Diana - 8:14:28 pm

I'm not fast enough to keep it is what I mean

Diana - 8:14:38 pm

I have to hope for deadlifts

Me - 8:15:10 pm

Well, that's why it's fitter, faster and stronger. All 3 count

Diana - 8:15:28 pm

Hmm

Diana - 8:15:39 pm

There should be age categories

Me - 8:16:12 pm

I agree.

Diana - 8:16:22 pm

Shit

Diana - 8:16:29 pm

We got along for a moment then ;)

Me - 8:17:13 pm

I mean, I would have loved one for me last time.

Me - 8:17:25 pm

Not about you

Me - 8:17:53 pm

I came 30+

Diana - 8:17:59 pm

Wtf?? I souks totally have one

Diana - 8:18:02 pm

Should

Diana - 8:18:22 pm

You're always going on about how I shouldn't compare myself to the others cause they're on their 20s

Me - 8:18:37 pm

Not a Anymore

Me - 8:18:47 pm

Top 10!!

Diana - 8:18:40 pm

And you're supposed to say I can totally be fast enough to stay in the top 10

Diana - 8:18:40 pm

You're a shit coach

Diana - 8:19:17 pm

Still I should be in an over 49 age group

Diana - 8:20:18 pm

I never thought it was such a bad issue until you pointed it out so much! Now when I call myself old you take the piss! So you can call me old but I can't!

Diana - 8:22:32 pm

Man it's so cold in my house! ⛄️

Me - 8:24:10 pm

I don't talk about your age anymore. I haven't for ages. It's a non issue, as fr as I'm concerned. You're in the top 10! I'm not a shit coach, I'm just trying too hard and I'm too concerned for my clients well being both physical and mental. Sorry if that comes across as being shit!

Diana - 8:25:04 pm

That's the thing with text is you can't include the sentiment behind the words

Diana - 8:25:04 pm

I wasn't saying shit as in shit

Diana - 8:25:56 pm

Never mind

Diana - 8:26:05 pm

But yes you're overly concerned

Diana - 8:26:13 pm

Are you like this with all your clients?

Diana - 8:26:22 pm

And I already told you I respect you as a trainer

Me - 8:26:47 pm

Yes, the same.

Diana - 8:27:12 pm

Shit

Diana - 8:27:12 pm

That's a lot of energy

Me - 8:28:05 pm

I know! and many I don't charge because thy can't afford

Diana - 8:27:12 pm

You'll have to take one of my restorative yoga classes ;)

Me - 8:30:37 pm

It's why I do it!! Help people!

Diana - 8:30:37 pm

Ok good

Diana - 8:30:44 pm

I'm glad to know I'm not special

Diana - 8:30:47 pm

Really I am

Me - 8:31:55 pm

and I touch all of them on the shoulder. I'll realaly try hard to stop that with you.

Diana - 8:31:28 pm

Ok Id appreciate that

Me - 8:33:13 pm

I suggest and I ask

Diana - 8:33:13 pm

So you really don't think you treat me any different?

Me - 8:33:30 pm

Of course I fucking do!! Did.

Me - 8:33:41 pm

Not anymore

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

Are you going to need to turn into an arsehole to have these boundaries with me?

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

Serious question

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

Sometimes people need to do that

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

Or be angry

Me - 8:34:33 pm

No. Of course not

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

Anger is my method

Me - 8:34:46 pm

I've never been an arsehole, ever

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

anger then physical removal

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:35:05 pm

Well don't forget ive read your book

Me - 8:35:12 pm

Yeah, well I know that now

Me - 8:35:20 pm

Book isn't me

Me - 8:35:30 pm

I'm

More Michael than Euan

Diana - 8:35:44 pm

Bahahahahaha!

Diana - 8:35:44 pm

Yea whatevs

Diana - 8:37:43 pm

Can I ask a serious question

Me - 8:38:12 pm

Via text? Can I answer quickly?

Me - 8:38:24 pm

Yes

Diana - 8:37:52 pm

That's up to you

Diana - 8:37:52 pm

You're not expecting anything to happen between us are you?

Diana - 8:37:52 pm

Cause the idea of an expectation makes me wanna run

Diana - 8:37:52 pm

I lose a lot of male friends that way

Me - 8:43:46 pm

Expecting? No. That's what I wanted to talk about tonight. On person. Exactly that. Not throw away what we've reached so far (good friends I think, who connect) because anything further doesn't work out. I know you have age difference issues. That's fine. One small step at a time with no expectations. At any time a real road block may happen but that's no reason to discard the journey so far. Does that make sense?

Diana - 8:45:04 pm

You don't have any age issues?

Diana - 8:45:28 pm

How would you feel if your daughter started seeing a 40 year old?

Diana - 8:45:42 pm

But yep, we can have a decent friendship I think

Diana - 8:46:24 pm

But if I know you're wanting more I'll never be able to relax and I'll always feel like I have to protect my boundaries against you

Me - 8:47:00 pm

Relax.

Me - 8:47:18 pm

Saturday was cool though. Right?

Diana - 8:47:18 pm

Don't tell me to relax, it's condescending.

Diana - 8:47:28 pm

I'm establishing the boundaries you failed to establish

Me - 8:47:35 pm

I was quoting you!!!

Me - 8:49:04 pm

Let's stick with the gym. There's a bit to get right there.

Diana - 8:49:30 pm

It's part of the gym.

Diana - 8:49:34 pm

You don't get it

Diana - 9:01:20 pm

I'm saying I'm not interested in small steps towards anything more than friends. I'm serious. If my behaviour says otherwise then I will stop it. I need to know you don't want anything either, small steps or otherwise or I'm unable to continue even a friendship with you.

Diana - 9:01:20 pm

And yes, I know you'd be disturbed if it was your daughter seeing a man 20 years her senior.

Diana - 9:02:46 pm

It's the ongoing hypocrisy of men with their daughters and other women

Me - 9:02:52 pm

No further steps!

Me - 9:04:11 pm

And don't lecture me! I'm not, necessarily, the same as your stereotype for men. It's insulting. You have no idea what I'm

Like. Without a doubt, no more steps.

Diana - 9:05:33 pm

Well you didn't answer the fucking question

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

So why wouldn't I fill in the blanks

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

And you are always derogatory towards other men

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

To be honest I haven't had men who want short term things

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

They want relationships that I'm not ready for

Me - 9:06:24 pm

It would not bother me at all! If she was happy.

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

I'm not lecturing you I'm telling you how I feel and what I'm afraid of

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

What boundaries I need to be in a friendship

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

It's got nothing to do with lecturing you

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

Don't be so fucking childish

Diana - 9:07:14 pm

Shit we've gotten no where

Diana - 9:07:17 pm

Fuck it

Diana - 9:07:27 pm

I'll get someone else to get me through the wows

Diana - 9:07:44 pm

This is bukkshit

Diana - 9:16:53 pm

Just help me think of something to tell the gym

Me - 9:17:08 pm

Come in tomorrow in the morning and we'll record the wow, and you can do the program I've written for you. It's a good program for you, it's challenging. If you want to change trainers for next week, for the wows, that's ok. Have a think after tomorrow. I'm happy to keep providing programs for you.

Me - 9:18:31 pm

They are what you need, insead of doing you own thing all time. That's ok sometimes but you need balance in the exercises. And the circuits are good for weight stuff.

Diana - 9:18:57 pm

You don't need to sell me your training

Diana - 9:19:00 pm

I already like it

Diana - 9:19:18 pm

It's not about the training

Diana - 9:19:24 pm

You know that

Me - 9:20:11 pm

Ok. Then let's let time pass so I. An show show you there's nothing other than a professional relationship.

Diana - 9:20:11 pm

You're right

Diana - 9:20:17 pm

We should have spoken in person

Me - 9:20:26 pm

Text sucks

Diana - 9:20:32 pm

Then I could have smacked you across the head

Me - 9:20:44 pm

Except for simple stuff

Me - 9:20:53 pm

Good! Haha

Diana - 9:20:53 pm

Yes

Me - 9:21:13 pm

Just do the wows and do my programs

Diana - 9:21:19 pm

I'm going to feel weird tomorrow

Diana - 9:21:24 pm

I don't want to come in

Me - 9:21:31 pm

I'll help when and if required

Me - 9:21:43 pm

Come in. It will be ok

Me - 9:22:18 pm

It's difdernt in person. This texting stuff is disjointed and remote, like we're difdernt people

Me - 9:22:33 pm

Than reall, live peole I mean

Diana - 9:22:40 pm

Yes

Me - 9:22:46 pm

Gym is cool.

Diana - 9:22:40 pm

It's made me feel fucking worse

Me - 9:23:03 pm

I don't want to wreck it for either of us!!

Me - 9:23:18 pm

And it won't

Me - 9:23:36 pm

You'll be too tired anyway haha

Me - 9:23:40 pm

Wow is tough

Diana - 9:23:54 pm

Yep it's a hard one

Diana - 9:24:02 pm

Maybe do it Friday?

Diana - 9:24:07 pm

I feel kinda fucked ip

Me - 9:24:12 pm

Up to you

Me - 9:24:38 pm

Tomorrow will be fine, for me. But Friday is good too. What about yoga class?

Me - 9:26:11 pm

The last thing I want is to make thjngs harder for you. Please unsestand that! Let's trIain, have fun, watch you collapse :-) and get on with it. No reason to feel odd.

Me - 9:27:24 pm

Let's get the wow done so you have the rest of the week to do your own stuff on the gym. Ok?

Me - 9:27:44 pm

Let's cut back on texts. But not out.

Diana - 9:28:14 pm

We need to talk

Diana - 9:28:29 pm

I can't sweep shit under rugs

Me - 9:28:49 pm

I think the boundaries are all set.

Me - 9:28:59 pm

Coach and athlete

Me - 9:29:21 pm

Maybe a run now and them, for extra weight loss

Me - 9:29:37 pm

Otherwise, do the great programs I've given you

Me - 9:30:09 pm

And sell me to the rest if the gym haha. Even though you've done it yourself

Me - 9:31:06 pm

Let's get the wow done tomorrow.

Me - 9:31:20 pm

But later in the morning

Me - 9:32:37 pm

There's no shit under the rugs. Tonight has clarified it as well as if you'd been here. Let's move on with the friendship we have now

Me - 9:32:49 pm

But

Me - 9:33:29 pm

Only time, will prove that this friendship is fine by me. So give it time.

Me - 9:34:40 pm

And be awesome at the wow's. Just as you've been already.

Me - 9:34:48 pm

Ok?

Me - 9:35:00 pm

Yes, it is cold eh?

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

Ok if you don't think talking about it is necessary then what choice do I have

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

I'll see you tomorrow

Me - 9:35:43 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:37:36 pm

I'm not coming

Diana - 9:39:13 pm

I'll go after you've finished

Diana - 9:39:17 pm

Sorry

Diana - 9:41:52 pm

I'm not doing a gym session with you until we've had a talk face to face

Diana - 9:41:52 pm

If you don't want to do that I'm prepared to walk away

Me - 9:44:25 pm

When do you want to talk?

Me - 9:44:59 pm

Come later morning to the gym and we could have a coffee downstairs

Me - 9:45:04 pm

Them do the wow

Me - 9:45:39 pm

I'm ok to talk if you want

Diana - 9:46:18 pm

What time is your client

Me - 9:46:34 pm

8:30 til maybe 9:15

Diana - 9:46:41 pm

I don't want to have coffee and talk in front of the whole gym

Me - 9:46:42 pm

My client is fine

Diana - 9:46:53 pm

What do you mean?

Diana - 9:47:10 pm

He's your client you need to be there for him

Me - 9:47:13 pm

I mean he hAs his own program to go on with

Me - 9:47:21 pm

Not all the time

Me - 9:47:45 pm

I have clients sometimes when he's training

Diana - 9:47:56 pm

Meet me before your client, we will only need a few minutes right? But not at the gym cafe. Tell me is easy for you and I will meet you there

Me - 9:47:57 pm

He gets heaps for little cost

Diana - 9:48:12 pm

I will stretch and warm up while you have your client and process stuff

Me - 9:48:39 pm

Come here then? Then go to the gym. Is that ok?

Diana - 9:48:41 pm

And Listen to music and give out my fuck off vide which doesn't seem to work anymore

Diana - 9:48:46 pm

no.

Diana - 9:48:54 pm

I don't want to come to your house

Me - 9:48:57 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:49:03 pm

There's a cafe close by isn't there?

Me - 9:49:04 pm

It will be cold outside

Diana - 9:49:11 pm

In the shops at the roundabout

Me - 9:49:14 pm

At 8?

Diana - 9:49:20 pm

It'll take 10 mins max

Diana - 9:49:22 pm

Yep

Me - 9:49:43 pm

If it's open, non problems

Me - 9:50:11 pm

Cafe at shopping centre 8am. Ok?

Diana - 9:50:20 pm

Yep

Me - 9:50:33 pm

Ok. See you there.

Diana - 9:50:42 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:51:17 pm

The maccas will be open for sure

Diana - 9:51:21 pm

Maybe that's better

Diana - 9:51:29 pm

Oozing style and all

Diana - 9:51:37 pm

Then you're closer to gym too

Me - 9:51:40 pm

Where is it?

Diana - 9:51:42 pm

?

Diana - 9:51:55 pm

Seriously? 15 metres up from the gym

Diana - 9:52:00 pm

On the left

Diana - 9:52:02 pm

Yes

Me - 9:52:04 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:52:09 pm

It'll be open and warm is all

Me - 9:52:09 pm

I'll find it

Diana - 9:52:30 pm

Gps - good luck ;)

**Wednesday 1 October**

Diana - 6:01:04 am

Don't worry about the coffee it's cold and yukky have the extra time at home in the warm and I'll see you at the gym. It'll be fine. Hope I haven't woken you.

Me - 6:04:38 am

Ok. See you soon

Diana - 6:11:44 am

Unless you think it's necessary?

Me - 6:13:50 am

No. It's fine. Let's smash this wow today.

Diana - 7:02:43 am

I don't feel so great my shins are sore and I've caught a cold. I'll see how I feel after a stretch and some pre workout, otherwise is it ok to do it Friday?

Me - 7:03:47 am

Friday is fine, if you wish. Let me know how you feel later. What are the shins from? Yoga?

Diana - 7:02:56 am

I think the box jumps

Me - 7:05:19 am

It's a lot of jumps!!

Diana - 7:05:04 am

I'll wear different shoes today. I had shin splints before Steve gave me the exercises for my broken foot

Me - 7:05:33 am

Ok

Diana - 7:05:04 am

I've not done them for a month or so

Me - 7:06:43 am

If your cold is mild, it should be ok. But raised temperature then it's not worth stresing the body further with a tough workout.

Diana - 7:07:47 am

My sinuses are clogged badly.

Diana - 7:08:10 am

It's an emotional reaction, I get it all the time. My mind can withstand virtually anything but my body caves.

Diana - 7:08:22 am

I'll see how I go after some pre workout

Me - 7:10:08 am

Is that because of me? I'm so sorry if it is. New day today.

Diana - 7:11:00 am

No it's because of me. I get sick the minute I'm not practicing self honesty. It's a fucking curse.

Diana - 7:11:53 am

I can't breathe so well, I'll wash my nostrils out and see how I go. It mayb be better to leave the wow for today

Me - 7:12:09 am

Ok. You know your body best

Diana - 7:12:57 am

I'd rather just get the fucking thing done as I'll only be more tired by Friday after another 2 days of work but atm it hurts to move my head

Diana - 7:13:11 am

Thank you for introducing me to pre workout!

Me - 7:13:39 am

The strong stuff will be in my bag if you want it

Me - 7:13:57 am

Just grab some if I'm busy

Diana - 7:15:18 am

It's ok, I'll use the normal stuff. I've noticed I always come down really badly after the strong stuff

Diana - 7:43:23 am

I'm not coming in.

Diana - 7:43:28 am

I just can't deal with it today

Diana - 7:43:28 am

I'll see you Friday morning

Me - 7:43:59 am

Ok. I'll see you then.

Diana - 7:45:19 am

I hate you for taking away my safe place. But I hate myself more.

Me - 7:45:58 am

I hope I can make it safe again.

Diana - 7:46:46 am

I'll go in once you're gone

Diana - 7:46:52 am

And rest until then

Me - 7:59:55 am

Come in whenever you want. It won't be awkward. Let's get this wow done today.

Diana - 8:00:32 am

Why do you want to get it done today

Me - 8:01:11 am

The sooner to move on and get the training back on track.

Diana - 8:00:32 am

I'm all fucked up and overwhelmed emotionally which means physically also for me.

Me - 8:01:22 am

Ok

Diana - 8:00:32 am

I'll take a bunch of pills

Diana - 8:00:32 am

But I want to do my best

Diana - 8:00:32 am

And I feel like crying not training

Me - 8:02:00 am

A light workout?

Me - 8:02:10 am

Maybe an easy circuit?

Me - 8:03:20 am

I've found moving and doing stuff works best for me when I'm overwhelmed. Even jut a little bit. But you know what works best for you

Diana - 8:02:40 am

Bed is good right now

Diana - 8:02:40 am

And sulking

Me - 8:05:40 am

Don't not come in because I'm there, please! No awkwardness.

Diana - 8:04:48 am

There is awkwardness

Diana - 8:04:48 am

Why do you like to pretend things don't exist

Diana - 8:04:48 am

I like to revel in them, the opposite and it's just as defective

Me - 8:08:29 am

Any awkwardness would only be very short lived. Then the sooner we get back to the normal trainknf thing.

Me - 8:08:51 am

And gym becomes safe again

Diana - 8:10:20 am

So push down my emotions with exercise you reckon?

Diana - 8:10:35 am

Pushing them down is gonna make me sicker but ok

Diana - 8:10:52 am

Has your clients canceled?

Me - 8:13:09 am

No. I've got to go in a minute. And exercise can also make you think clearer, and the endorphins are good. We could modify one of your circuits. Eg remove get ups.

Me - 8:13:33 am

Let me know or just show up. I've got to go in now

Diana - 8:14:21 am

I'll come in and do a light circuit

Diana - 8:14:32 am

don't modify anything

Diana - 8:14:43 am

I'll just bum around

Diana - 11:28:44 am

They've got new protein bars with chocolate on them!!

Diana - 11:59:28 am

I didn't get one

Diana - 12:24:46 pm

Ok no texting it is

Me - 12:44:24 pm

Just finished training now. Hard session! Yeah, I saw them this morning. I might try one on Saturday after my session.

Me - 12:44:48 pm

Normal day at work? Tomorrow is the long day right?

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

You can't have one! That's not fair

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

What did you do?

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

Yep I'm hanging at home Until work, don't need to start until 330

Me - 12:45:32 pm

Upper body and core stuff. No legs.

Me - 12:45:43 pm

Really tired now haha

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

Yea me too

Me - 12:46:10 pm

Sleep well tonight haha

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

I'm lying on the couch under a blanket with the heater on

Diana - 12:46:22 pm

Thanks

Me - 12:46:26 pm

Sunny here!

Diana - 12:46:24 pm

Sunny here too but cold

Me - 12:46:41 pm

But I'm still warm from training

Me - 12:46:54 pm

Hot shower is good!

Me - 12:47:05 pm

I sometimes have one to just warm up

Diana - 12:46:24 pm

Yep I should do that

Me - 12:47:28 pm

Then put heaps on, keep heat in

Me - 12:48:07 pm

Going to try eating. Again! Hah

Diana - 12:46:24 pm

I just had a spinach omelette

Me - 12:48:45 pm

Home made?

Diana - 12:48:48 pm

You should have that and some of your bread

Diana - 12:48:51 pm

Of course

Me - 12:49:03 pm

No spinach

Me - 12:49:23 pm

Too much effort

Me - 12:49:26 pm

Too tired

Diana - 12:49:27 pm

Was it ok this morning

Diana - 12:49:34 pm

Omelette too much effort??

Me - 12:49:47 pm

At the moment, yes

Diana - 12:49:49 pm

Wow i hate cooking but can manage that!

Diana - 12:49:55 pm

Fair enough

Me - 12:50:01 pm

Toast and peanut butter

Me - 12:50:06 pm

Shake

Me - 12:50:12 pm

Coffee +++

Diana - 12:50:26 pm

Yum! If I ate that Id put on 10 kilos!

Me - 12:50:35 pm

I'm trying!!

Diana - 12:50:40 pm

I don't even feel like coffee so I am sick :/

Diana - 12:50:40 pm

Eggs were hard enough

Me - 12:50:52 pm

Did higher reps today, trying to add bulk

Me - 12:51:05 pm

That's why it took so long

Diana - 12:51:12 pm

And eat every 2 hours

Me - 12:51:26 pm

Too sick for coffee!??? Call the doctor!

Me - 12:51:31 pm

Now!! Hahaha

Diana - 12:51:37 pm

I did 18 deadlifts at 80kg!

Diana - 12:51:40 pm

I know!

Diana - 12:51:44 pm

It's awful

Me - 12:52:13 pm

Tension stuff? Or the coldy thing?

Diana - 12:52:20 pm

I saw Becca in the cafe so Introduced myself

Diana - 12:52:23 pm

both

Diana - 12:52:29 pm

Tension causes illness for me

Diana - 12:52:32 pm

For everyone

Me - 12:52:37 pm

Becca's nice

Diana - 12:52:44 pm

She seems very nice

Diana - 12:54:01 pm

So this morning? Ok?

Me - 12:54:14 pm

I thought so. Did you?

Me - 12:54:28 pm

Good friends training

Diana - 12:54:56 pm

I didn't see it as good friends training but it's the best I could do

Diana - 12:54:56 pm

It'll get better

Me - 12:55:04 pm

Ok

Me - 12:55:43 pm

But that was enough space, without leaving you alone? I still checked up on you. Just like a coach would

Diana - 12:55:50 pm

Do you think we should talk face to face or just let it all go

Diana - 12:55:53 pm

Yep good space

Me - 12:55:58 pm

Cool

Diana - 12:55:59 pm

:)

Me - 12:57:06 pm

Let's see how it goes from here. I'm happy with today.

Diana - 12:57:04 pm

So no talk

Diana - 12:57:04 pm

?

Me - 12:59:33 pm

I like talking, so talking would be awesome! But I don't think we need to "talk" to sort things out. I think that's been done. But if it will make you feel better in my continuing company (as your coach), then "talk" is fine.

Diana - 1:00:30 pm

Righteo

Diana - 1:00:40 pm

If you don't think we need to that's fine.

Me - 1:02:21 pm

Ok. As long as you are too.

Diana - 1:03:20 pm

I feel empty and unsettled after all the texting, but obviously that is just me so I will sort through it on my own.

Diana - 1:03:28 pm

Have a good afternoon and evening

Me - 1:03:48 pm

Ok. You too. See you Friday!

Diana - 1:03:28 pm

You're an arsehole

Diana - 1:04:38 pm

See you Friday

Diana - 1:07:14 pm

You know if you said you'd felt unsettles about it Id meet with you to talk

Diana - 1:07:18 pm

You're so fucking selfish

Diana - 1:07:24 pm

Just like in your book

Me - 1:07:52 pm

What?

Diana - 1:07:44 pm

Worse cause you're older now and no better

Me - 1:08:35 pm

Do you want to meet talk?

Diana - 1:07:44 pm

Are you fucking serios asking me that now???

Diana - 1:07:44 pm

After I told you I felt unsettled and you didn't give a fuck??

Diana - 1:07:44 pm

Jesus mark

Me - 1:11:45 pm

Honestly, I thought today had sorted stuff. Obviously, I was wrong. I just want to help!! How can I do that? Really, I thought you'd prefer not meeting outside the gym. Wrong again, I guess. Let me fix this

Diana - 1:12:00 pm

Why don't you stop trying to do my thinking for me and actually listen

Diana - 1:12:00 pm

to what I'm saying

Diana - 1:12:00 pm

The whole thing has been done by text

Diana - 1:12:00 pm

It's so fucked up don't you realise?

Diana - 1:12:00 pm

You must be so removed from yourself and me to think that's ok

Diana - 1:12:00 pm

it's kind of frightening

Me - 1:13:42 pm

When can you meet to talk? I'll fit in.

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

Sorry I was in the shower

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

You don't need to

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

Now I feel like a loser for needing to

Me - 1:38:51 pm

I'm here. Follow the little dirt road to the end. On right side of the river rd

Diana - 1:39:09 pm

Ok I'm on my way

Diana - 2:39:28 pm

Thanks

Diana - 2:39:28 pm

I needed to see you.

Diana - 2:39:28 pm

In the lightest way :)

Me - 2:40:03 pm

That was good. You were so right to make us meet.

Diana - 3:11:16 pm

And no more texting music either right?

Me - 3:19:07 pm

Ok. Just had that long warm shower! Although, I guess, I could turn the heater on haha.

Me - 3:22:09 pm

On Friday, if possible, after the wow and any training you'll do, we could go down stairs and try the protein bars and do the (running) scheduling for the next 2 weeks.

Me - 3:22:49 pm

Food now...

Diana - 3:36:33 pm

You've sent 3 texts and not answered my question

Diana - 3:36:41 pm

Yes anything with food and I'm in :)

Diana - 3:37:04 pm

Though I'm

Pretty sure those protein bars would equal a whole meal for me calorie wise

Diana - 3:37:04 pm

I love the feeling after deadlifts

Me - 3:37:30 pm

I agreed, I said 'ok'.

Diana - 3:37:04 pm

Stand so tall with good posture

Me - 3:37:38 pm

Worth trying the bars once

Diana - 3:37:04 pm

Right ok

Me - 3:38:00 pm

Splurge. Live dangerously haha

Diana - 3:38:13 pm

I can't show you new music! Oh well, you'll have to stick with led Zeppelin :p

Me - 3:38:42 pm

In person. You can hum them first.

Me - 3:38:51 pm

See if I like them

Me - 3:38:57 pm

Haha

Me - 3:39:20 pm

Radiohead will do me, fit now

Me - 3:44:05 pm

If there's a long silence from me later, it's because my hands will be oily from massaging.

Diana - 3:43:28 pm

I'm sure your daughter would know, she could do it for you tonight

Diana - 3:43:28 pm

Yep I know

Me - 3:44:34 pm

Yeah, I could ask her.

Diana - 3:43:28 pm

I'm happy to, just thougt youd get the results quicker that way

Me - 3:45:25 pm

How many coffee's so far? Big work night ahead?

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

I'm looking into a shift swapping scheme

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Well I'm doing The scheming

Me - 3:46:11 pm

Haha

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Did I tell you two of my long term

Ex's were in jail for quite long periods?

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Hmm that's for in person!

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

We've got

A lot

Of stories to share don't we

Me - 3:47:07 pm

Yes

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

100 years between us

Me - 3:47:25 pm

Those runs are going to have to be veeeery long!

Me - 3:48:05 pm

I was thinking id need to take my phone. GPS, etc

Me - 3:48:22 pm

After that lost mountain biker last week

Me - 3:48:36 pm

Just on case we make a wrong turn

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Oh geez

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Let's just take the risk

Me - 3:49:24 pm

Yeah, probably. Houses everywhere up there

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Make a good story for your next book

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Or mine ;)

Me - 3:49:34 pm

Just ask for a lift haha

Me - 3:49:52 pm

I've written more books already

Diana - 3:49:52 pm

I know..

Diana - 3:49:52 pm

There's always a next tbough

Me - 3:50:14 pm

Of course

Me - 3:50:26 pm

I'll take notes from here on haha

Me - 3:50:32 pm

Or record

Me - 3:50:38 pm

Conversations gaha

Me - 3:51:12 pm

Joking!

Diana - 3:49:52 pm

Dictaphones

Diana - 3:49:52 pm

Remember them?

Me - 3:56:59 pm

I give up!! I'm turning the heating on again.

Me - 3:57:14 pm

Thought it was over until next year. Sigh!

Diana - 3:58:11 pm

I have to do conference call syndication

Diana - 3:58:15 pm

Enjoy heating :)

Me - 4:11:55 pm

And, not 100 years between us. 98.

Diana - 4:36:48 pm

Precious ;)

Diana - 4:36:48 pm

Here's a story for you

Me - 4:37:04 pm

And, while texting music won't work (hard to find again), emailing music links will.

Me - 4:37:14 pm

Will work

Me - 4:37:20 pm

Searchable

Me - 4:37:32 pm

Once upon a time...

Diana - 4:38:56 pm

A dog, tied to the back of a car, dragged at 75km/h for over 5 km, the was thrown in the ocean and then had ti tree oil smothered all over his wounds

Diana - 4:38:56 pm

And survived.

Diana - 4:38:56 pm

Oh fuck I hate people

Me - 4:39:25 pm

WTF?

Diana - 4:38:56 pm

Right ok

Diana - 4:38:56 pm

Emailing music

Me - 4:39:33 pm

Did they catch them?

Diana - 4:38:56 pm

Yes.

Me - 4:39:43 pm

Good

Diana - 4:38:56 pm

But he will prob get 3 months tops

Me - 4:39:53 pm

Slap on the wrist

Diana - 4:38:56 pm

Wtf is wrong with people!

Diana - 4:40:00 pm

Now I really wanna cry :/

Me - 4:40:13 pm

Don't!

Me - 4:40:33 pm

But, you really need to be a yoga teacher don't you!!

Me - 4:40:41 pm

Much easier on the soul

Me - 4:40:50 pm

Choose the news to read

Diana - 4:41:04 pm

Yes!

Diana - 4:41:04 pm

I won't cry don't worry

Diana - 4:41:04 pm

I'll wait til I see you and do it ;)

Me - 4:41:38 pm

Great!

Me - 4:41:49 pm

Sarcasm meter reading high!

Me - 4:42:20 pm

Otherwise... No other bad news items?

Me - 4:42:30 pm

I like my news fresh! Haha

Me - 4:43:48 pm

But I've got a client back tomorrow that went missing

Me - 4:44:05 pm

Nice lady. Silence was a death of a close friend

Me - 4:44:11 pm

Sad

Me - 4:44:21 pm

But she's training again tomorrow

Me - 4:44:27 pm

Been a few weeks

Me - 4:48:58 pm

Just sent you an email. Look at your leisure (another day is fine). My crappy massage brochure for reception to hand out when enquiries come in. I don't know how to best approach this.

Me - 4:49:08 pm

The brochure I mean

Me - 4:49:38 pm

Smiling woman... :-)

Me - 4:49:49 pm

But appropriate

Me - 4:50:32 pm

Not suggestive appropriate I mean. The whole concept may be crap though.

Me - 4:52:24 pm

First there was none, then one, now two. Son coming for dinner too. Crowded! :-)

Diana - 4:53:43 pm

That's great

Diana - 4:53:46 pm

Have fun :)

Diana - 4:53:52 pm

My shift swap scheme didn't work :/

Me - 4:54:06 pm

Try again?

Me - 4:54:34 pm

Different scheme, just a little haha.

Diana - 4:53:52 pm

No, I was trying to swap the long shift for the short shift tomorrow

Me - 4:54:41 pm

Oh

Me - 4:54:43 pm

Hard

Diana - 4:53:52 pm

I could swap it for next week but delaying inevitable really

Diana - 4:53:52 pm

I could pull a sickie but then there's money

Me - 4:55:00 pm

Need to find someone desperate for $

Diana - 4:53:52 pm

So you'll be doing 2 massages tonight

Me - 4:55:08 pm

No

Diana - 4:53:52 pm

I could get someone to cover it

Diana - 4:53:52 pm

But I'm desperate for money ::

Me - 4:55:24 pm

Why not work tomorrow?

Me - 4:57:56 pm

My towels came

Me - 4:58:03 pm

Exciting!!! :-)

Diana - 4:58:17 pm

Just in time!

Diana - 4:59:11 pm

Cause I'm exhausted and a day of rest would be good

Diana - 4:59:33 pm

Do you really want brutal feedback?

Diana - 4:59:44 pm

Maybe ask your kids first and see what they suggest

Me - 5:01:34 pm

Yes. Brutal. I can take it. (Takes deep breath)

Me - 5:01:50 pm

In will ask then too

Diana - 5:01:51 pm

Seriously ask your kids first

Me - 5:01:55 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:02:24 pm

Firstly though, the shattered font doesn't suit anything else on the brochure, nor the feel of what you're trying to offer or portray

Diana - 5:02:24 pm

If you get my drift

Me - 5:03:08 pm

Yeah. Cracked font jut looks cool. But not right. Ok

Me - 5:03:27 pm

Soft and yielding right?

Me - 5:03:32 pm

Nit threatening

Diana - 5:03:34 pm

Not cool and not right

Me - 5:03:36 pm

Relaxing

Diana - 5:03:41 pm

Always go with simple fonts

Diana - 5:03:46 pm

Just simple

Diana - 5:03:58 pm

Rely on the image and design to draw the eye

Diana - 5:04:05 pm

Then the eye will find the text last

Me - 5:04:06 pm

Thanks. I'm crap at this

Diana - 5:04:09 pm

That's the brain at work

Me - 5:04:26 pm

Ok. That's good stuff

Diana - 5:04:27 pm

See how scientific I sound ;)

Me - 5:04:37 pm

When you want to be right??

Me - 5:05:09 pm

This is good texting! Just making reference. Love it!

Me - 5:05:38 pm

I'll have another go at he brochure

Me - 5:05:47 pm

My daughter is good at visual stuff

Diana - 5:06:20 pm

Well then stop hasslin me!

Diana - 5:06:28 pm

Check copyright on the image

Me - 5:06:34 pm

Haha. Get to work then!

Diana - 5:06:40 pm

I'm working don't worry

Diana - 5:06:40 pm

I'll have a proper look later

Diana - 5:06:40 pm

Have you got your hours of operation etc

Diana - 5:06:40 pm

Anyway I'll leave you to your kids

Diana - 5:06:40 pm

Enjoy your night together

Me - 5:07:21 pm

Thanks. See you later.

Me - 5:07:53 pm

Text after work, if you want to. I'll be here.

Me - 5:08:30 pm

Thom Yorke released a new album.

Diana - 5:15:12 pm

Is it any good?

Diana - 5:15:12 pm

You'll have visitors

Diana - 5:16:42 pm

I'll go through withdrawals but there's always food ;)

Me - 5:18:06 pm

Haha. Haven't download the album.

Me - 7:36:24 pm

Did work go well?

Diana - 7:37:06 pm

Yes all done and dusted :)

Diana - 7:38:08 pm

Humph

Diana - 7:40:16 pm

Humph I really should be governor

Diana - 7:40:16 pm

:p

Me - 7:41:23 pm

Governor means lots if dinners and shaking hands and back slapping. Not so good :-)

Diana - 7:42:12 pm

Mmmm dinners

Me - 7:42:30 pm

Lots of smiling at idiots

Diana - 7:42:24 pm

Well I do that everyday anyway

Me - 7:42:58 pm

You need to be dictator! Much better!

Me - 7:43:12 pm

Everyone up against the wall! :-)

Diana - 7:44:32 pm

Dictator, governor, mayor... Wherever the dinners are ;)

Diana - 7:48:46 pm

Shoah and help your daughter ;)

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

Sturt st

Me - 7:50:02 pm

She won't let me! Right choice!!

Diana - 7:50:37 pm

Did she give you a massage score

Diana - 7:50:41 pm

Haha!

Me - 7:50:58 pm

No! She got a free dinner!

Me - 7:51:13 pm

She said it was nice being cooked for again haha

Me - 7:51:26 pm

I said I'm still waiting for that! Haha

Me - 7:51:41 pm

Have been for many years :-)

Diana - 7:50:56 pm

You'll have to move in with your mum

Me - 7:51:53 pm

Haha

Me - 7:52:04 pm

I'd be fat.

Diana - 7:52:35 pm

You totes should

Diana - 7:52:47 pm

The kids and I will house sit for you ;)

Diana - 7:52:55 pm

Bout time ;))

Me - 7:53:37 pm

You just want my lake!

Diana - 7:53:04 pm

Not true

Diana - 7:53:04 pm

I also want you to get fat

Me - 7:54:48 pm

I'm trying to! My daughter bought chocolate cake!!!

Diana - 7:55:12 pm

Thanks. For. Telling. Me. That.

Me - 7:55:50 pm

Haha. Haven't eaten it yet. She's busy designing

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

One of my favourite things

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

Driving with incredibly loud bass

Diana - 7:59:26 pm

When you don't care if people see you singing :)

Me - 8:00:07 pm

Singing to what music?

Diana - 7:59:28 pm

Tonight it's a mix off sad songs for dirty lovers

Diana - 8:01:36 pm

I got to stop texting or I'm gonna crash

Diana - 8:01:36 pm

Look up available by the national

Diana - 8:05:43 pm

Maybe don't listen to it straight away :/

Diana - 8:10:59 pm

And then look up lucky you

Diana - 8:16:32 pm

All dolled up in straps and about today from cherry tree

Me - 9:17:37 pm

Downloaded the national discography, 2001 to 2013. Where should I start and in what order?

Me - 9:17:42 pm

Chronological?

Diana - 9:18:24 pm

Oh that's tricky

Diana - 9:18:24 pm

Start with my playlist

Diana - 9:18:24 pm

It half worked. Grandma folded one of the two baskets of washing I left out ;)

Me - 9:19:30 pm

Sent you an email too. New brichure

Me - 9:19:35 pm

Brochure

Diana - 9:19:35 pm

So you're all pirated up???

Me - 9:19:48 pm

Apparently, yes!

Me - 9:19:53 pm

Feel naughty

Me - 9:19:58 pm

Shhh!

Me - 9:20:18 pm

What's your playlist?

Diana - 9:20:32 pm

I texted them as i listened to them on the way home

Diana - 9:20:32 pm

That's good you're all sorted

Diana - 9:20:32 pm

Daylight savings starts this week!

Diana - 9:21:55 pm

Listen to available on sad songs for dirty lovers

Me - 9:21:58 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:22:27 pm

Then go to lucky you and 90 mile waterfall

Me - 9:22:28 pm

I'll go back over the texts

Diana - 9:22:40 pm

Skip over to cherry tree and listen to all dolled up and about today

Diana - 9:22:40 pm

I think that was most of it

Diana - 9:22:40 pm

By then you'll be ready to slash up

Diana - 9:22:40 pm

Oh also listen to val jester followed by city middle off alligator

Diana - 9:22:40 pm

Got all that?

Diana - 9:22:40 pm

And loud

Diana - 9:22:40 pm

Ly

Diana - 9:24:00 pm

Loudly :)

Diana - 9:24:12 pm

I've eaten way to much. :( argh I hate food

Diana - 9:24:43 pm

I just said no to doing head shots

Me - 9:25:05 pm

Been writing that down

Me - 9:25:13 pm

Do the music tomorrow

Me - 9:25:20 pm

Early start

Diana - 9:24:48 pm

Ok! Forever studious

Diana - 9:24:48 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:24:48 pm

Just listen to one!

Me - 9:25:44 pm

Whole album?

Me - 9:25:49 pm

Which one?

Me - 9:26:29 pm

I'll listen in rhe gym

Diana - 9:26:48 pm

Check out this video on YouTube:

http://youtu.be/WIq9PEWa7tQ

Editor: The National, "About today ('Warrior' music video)"

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

Just that song

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

Don't watch the vid

Me - 9:27:09 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

Or not

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

Sleep well

Me - 9:27:22 pm

I'll listen in bed in a minute

Me - 9:27:27 pm

See you!

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

See you

Me - 9:29:35 pm

Night

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Check out this video on YouTube:

http://youtu.be/Ipx8qWt2fVA

Editor: The National, "About today"

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

That's a better version

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

That's the trouble with my work, take so long to wind down

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

See ya :)

Me - 9:30:58 pm

Will I have bad dreams now? :-) hope not. See you

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

Maybe

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

Don't listen

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

Do it tomorrow after the gym

Me - 9:56:39 pm

I listened. Twice.

Me - 9:57:17 pm

Good lyrics...

Diana - 9:56:48 pm

Yea it's beautiful

Me - 9:57:53 pm

Simple. I like that

Me - 9:58:07 pm

In construction I mean

Diana - 9:56:48 pm

I've never found a band whose lyrics I relate to so much since I was about 30

Diana - 9:58:25 pm

Yea, simple is best

Diana - 9:58:33 pm

You're going to have the best fun

Diana - 9:58:41 pm

I'd love to be starting from scratch with them again

Me - 9:58:54 pm

Second time was better

Me - 9:59:21 pm

Third time will be later. In the car maybe. Or at my desk.

Me - 9:59:30 pm

New writing music I think

Diana - 9:58:56 pm

It's a beautiful Album

Diana - 9:58:56 pm

Now for a laugh

Me - 10:00:37 pm

:)

Diana - 10:00:52 pm

I'm going to listen to it and go to sleep

Diana - 10:00:57 pm

Melancholy is the best

Me - 10:00:58 pm

Night

Diana - 10:01:03 pm

Night

**Thursday 2 October**

Diana - 6:56:28 am

Ok so I'm on the website I'm almost completely out of pre workout, should I get that muscle recovery stuff you spoke about? Or can you tell me what it's called so I can have a look at whether it's worth putting even more chemicals in my body?

Diana - 6:56:28 am

Hi too :)

Diana - 7:05:02 am

Oh my god and there's a world of fat burners!!!

Me - 7:48:22 am

Been working. But my 8am cancelled. Sigh!

Me - 7:49:00 am

ON Platinum Pre

Me - 7:49:06 am

That's the strong one

Me - 7:49:23 am

You know the amino energy one.

Me - 7:49:59 am

All you need is pre workout and whey. No fat burners haha.

Me - 7:50:11 am

And, hi! Good morning!

Diana - 7:53:55 am

You're on you're sons one??

Diana - 7:54:08 am

Joel just said she wants to play that national song lucky you to Imogen for her birthday. He's incredible, really listens to lyrics.

Diana - 7:54:08 am

Fat burner would be good, so far I have over $150 worth of stuff but haven't checked out

Me - 7:57:42 am

Save your money. You don't need the fat burner. Theres no research saying that stuff works. Amino yes, whey yes.

Me - 7:57:54 am

Awesome your kids likes the same music

Me - 7:58:28 am

I remeber introducing my kids to the music in liked. Radiohead mainly.

Diana - 8:15:28 am

We just had an impromptu dance party

Diana - 8:17:10 am

I was doing swirls under their arms and I think I put my shoulder out! I'm short, they're even shorter to do swirls under!

Diana - 8:17:23 am

But the advertising says its works!!! ;)

Diana - 8:17:36 am

They don't like most of my music, even with the national I'm careful which songs they heat

Diana - 8:17:36 am

Hear

Me - 8:18:52 am

Still a bit young. They will like it. Careful with the dancing. Dangerous stuff!! :-)

Me - 8:19:32 am

Going to workout. Long one. Sigh! Next client at 11am.

Diana - 8:19:44 am

Oh that sucks

Diana - 8:19:44 am

Well it's good for a workout I guess

Diana - 8:19:44 am

You could go

Home and drink coffee ;)

Diana - 8:21:52 am

Why are you on the intense pre workout?

Diana - 8:26:08 am

I'll just buy the small pre workout, I'm saving for yoga, and I won't need it for that

Diana - 8:26:08 am

Enjoy your workout, if I didn't have insane tummy pain Id be jealous ;)

Me - 8:29:35 am

What's caused the tummy pain?

Diana - 8:44:31 am

I have an implant to prevent any further babies, that stops periods for a few months but then it'll all catch up in one swoop.

Diana - 8:44:34 am

Well you did ask ;)

Diana - 8:45:20 am

I always get bloated and want to eat heaps, especially meat, but I haven't eaten meat in about a month so I prob should have some soon

Diana - 8:45:20 am

Are you going heavy today?

Me - 9:03:02 am

Yes, I did ask. I'm not embarrassment with knowing that stuff. It's normal human functioning. And if you're in discomfort I like to know. Not heavy today. More upper body I think, and maybe some single leg work.

Me - 9:03:10 am

Pre workout is kicking in

Me - 9:03:20 am

On top of a coffee too haha

Me - 9:04:09 am

I hope you feel better soon

Me - 9:04:26 am

How long does the discomfort usually last?

Diana - 9:04:32 am

Discomfort and sitting on a chair all day today :/

Diana - 9:04:32 am

A few days

Me - 9:04:56 am

Started today?

Diana - 9:05:07 am

It's ok, I want the implant so it's worth it

Diana - 9:05:11 am

Wednesday

Diana - 9:05:16 am

It'll peak tomorrow then wain

Diana - 9:05:22 am

Pre workout ordered

Me - 9:05:59 am

No more kids is a a good idea :-)

Me - 9:06:30 am

Worth it. Although I don't know how you feel, of course. But I can sympathize

Me - 9:06:52 am

Get better soon

Diana - 9:06:40 am

Not as bad as childbirth ;)

Me - 9:07:00 am

Haha

Me - 9:07:05 am

I've seen that

Me - 9:07:21 am

Looked bad enough without experiencing it!

Me - 9:08:28 am

Going to start working out

Diana - 9:10:05 am

Enjoy :)

Diana - 9:10:56 am

Ok so I may have bought a small, cheap and natural little fat burner helper :p

Me - 9:17:10 am

:-)

Diana - 9:33:00 am

4 hours and 26 minutes

Diana - 9:33:11 am

Japanese Man sets new world plank record

Me - 9:40:09 am

Yeah. I saw that. Finctional patterns guy said a few things about that. A long time!!!! I have a client who says he gets too bored doing planks for 30dsecs!!! Haha.

Diana - 9:42:56 am

You know what I tell my kids

Diana - 9:43:53 am

Say that to him

Diana - 9:50:58 am

Ok kids fed dishes done, washing folded pre workout bought one kid gone the other about to go then to work. Long day!

Me - 9:51:16 am

Tough day for you!

Diana - 9:51:28 am

I've decided to do the diploma. Even without seeing the school yet. I'll go tuesday to yoga and mediation there. But I already know.

Diana - 9:51:28 am

Long day yeah and I have no food sorted for the day... Ahh logistics

Diana - 9:51:28 am

All while dodging hot wheels cars! Bet you don't miss it!

Me - 9:53:12 am

Good. Bring descisive is great. I think you will be the defining thing about yoga, not rhe school so much.

Me - 9:53:26 am

And you'll be great!

Me - 9:53:41 am

Just need to get a bit of paper and get going.

Diana - 9:53:36 am

Paper?

Me - 9:54:17 am

Qualification

Me - 9:54:38 am

Texting huh? Hah

Diana - 10:03:23 am

My coffee date with my friend just got cancelled, I'll have time before work

Diana - 10:03:32 am

I'll go get something healthy to eat for lunch atleast

Me - 10:07:38 am

Remember yesterday. If you're hungry then eat.

Me - 10:08:18 am

Tough long day at the desk. At least not too long with the radio types :-)

Me - 10:13:37 am

It's hard working out at the gym. It's so social! I know too many people. It's fun to chat but a 30 minute workout takes 90 minutes.

Me - 10:14:17 am

Not a bad idea sometimes I think to train at other gyms

Diana - 10:14:27 am

Yea the pts I know train at other gyms

Me - 10:14:29 am

Just to get consistency

Diana - 10:14:56 am

I was seeing a pt for a little while and he couldn't work out at his gym for the same reason. Even with head phones

Diana - 10:14:56 am

But I guess it could be client building

Me - 10:15:19 am

It's also fun haha

Me - 10:15:25 am

Balancing act

Me - 10:15:38 am

It's nice to be Ble to do both

Diana - 10:14:56 am

That other trainer does that a lot when I'm working out

Me - 10:15:57 am

He LOVES to talk

Diana - 10:16:01 am

I had to tell him to go away yesterday!

Me - 10:16:06 am

Haha

Me - 10:16:37 am

Bench pressing now. Like a real man :-)

Me - 10:17:06 am

About half way through the workout and I've got a client at 11.

Me - 10:17:23 am

Finish it tomorrow

Diana - 10:17:04 am

Then stop texting and get into beastmode ;)

Me - 10:17:28 am

Haha

Me - 10:17:33 am

Raaaar!!

Diana - 10:17:04 am

I won't be able to do much after that wow

Me - 10:17:41 am

Resting

Me - 10:18:25 am

Yeah, with how you feel. We'll get a choccy protein bar. You'll deserve it!

Diana - 10:27:44 am

No!!

Diana - 10:27:44 am

Don't start treating me through food

Diana - 10:27:44 am

That's how this whole disaster began

Diana - 10:27:44 am

Way back when Id get a lolly for doing well

Diana - 10:27:44 am

Wow child care centres are loud

Me - 10:33:28 am

Ha. Protein bar = muscles! A bit difdernt than lollies. But, I guess, slippery slope, etc etc

Diana - 10:36:44 am

Wow I'm exhausted and only just left for work! I miss the kids but they'll be back for the week tomorrow

Diana - 10:37:19 am

Thinking about it I def use food for energy when rest is what's really needed

Diana - 10:37:44 am

It's just for now though, won't always be like this

Diana - 10:37:46 am

Which got me thinking

Diana - 10:38:24 am

You should really push the massage and pt thing next year then the year after take a guitar and a board and go back to Europe for a tour

Diana - 10:39:04 am

You're free to do those things now

Diana - 10:39:21 am

So now I've sorted out your Life I might have a go at mine ;)

Me - 10:39:29 am

Haha

Me - 10:40:43 am

We can sort yours out. But talking, not 2 texts like my life's been fixed. I feel sooooo relieved now!! Thanks. :-)

Me - 10:40:52 am

Maybe I'll sleep tonight!

Diana - 10:40:32 am

No worries

Me - 10:41:02 am

First time for years

Diana - 10:41:12 am

It was pretty easy really ;)

Me - 10:41:57 am

My turn on yours soon. But not text. Non grass required :-)

Diana - 10:44:22 am

Oh come on

Diana - 10:44:26 am

Give me the short version

Diana - 10:44:48 am

Sugar daddy to pay for me to train and do yoga and get me a house on the beach?

Me - 10:48:57 am

Strings!

Me - 10:49:26 am

Didn't say I knew the answer yet! Work in progress.

Diana - 11:14:04 am

Well I'm on a schedule first payment due next month!

Diana - 11:14:04 am

Focus ;)

Diana - 11:53:04 am

I just paid you that measly amount for next month. Still, I expect you to keep me in the top 10 :p

Me - 11:56:15 am

Quotas? Pressure! Like being a salesman. You're only paying monthly right? Seems too frequent.

Me - 11:57:05 am

Just finished training. So happy

Diana - 11:57:09 am

That's cause you're having so much fun :)

Me - 11:57:20 am

Home. Eat. Go and see mum.

Me - 11:57:38 am

Time flies?

Diana - 11:57:20 am

Yes

Diana - 11:59:03 am

You know I'm dumping you after the challenge right?

Diana - 12:01:36 pm

Only to save money for yoga

Diana - 12:01:36 pm

Not cause I don't love your service

Me - 12:18:08 pm

I'll train you for nothing then.

Diana - 12:18:36 pm

No, you resent clients for not paying

Me - 12:18:47 pm

No

Diana - 12:18:40 pm

I can just play for a few months, I don't mind

Me - 12:18:59 pm

I make fun of it. Not resent

Diana - 12:18:40 pm

You've taught me enough new stuff to play around for a bit

Me - 12:19:16 pm

Marketing budget!

Me - 12:19:49 pm

If I'm seen training people like you, then I look good too!

Me - 12:20:08 pm

Need you to grunt louder on heavy days!! Haha

Me - 12:20:40 pm

And pointedly say, "couldn't have done that without you, Mark". :-)

Diana - 12:20:47 pm

Hahaha! Maybe I can just drop the weights real loud

Me - 12:20:57 pm

As good

Diana - 12:20:48 pm

But nope. I wouldn't feel right about that. Maybe we can still run together though?

Me - 12:22:43 pm

Of course. Whatever feels ok with you but I'd prefer to train you. Or at least provide your programs and give assistNce when needed.

Me - 12:22:56 pm

Gym time is space then anyway.

Me - 12:23:08 pm

Space time, I mean

Diana - 12:22:56 pm

Oh I still be asking questions :)

Me - 12:24:08 pm

Gym time is space time.

Diana - 12:24:19 pm

You'll wish you hadn't offered! ;)

Diana - 12:24:38 pm

Catch kneeling on fitball is next

Diana - 12:25:04 pm

Apart from headstand on sup of course, that's why I need your lake ;)

Me - 12:25:08 pm

Damn! Hahaha. More social time while I'm trying to train right? :-)

Me - 12:26:18 pm

More work needed on kneeling, for sure. Me too. Saw a great exercise with a wobbly stick while kneeling in FB. Maybe try sometime.

Diana - 12:25:04 pm

I won't interrupt your training, I know how annoying that is

Me - 12:26:42 pm

Joking

Diana - 12:26:50 pm

Ok my briefing is over, time to start :(

Diana - 12:26:54 pm

Shoot me now

Diana - 12:27:12 pm

Money think of the money... That's all I'm chanting to myself ;)

Me - 12:27:13 pm

Am I really allowed to do that?

Me - 12:27:28 pm

Can I save it for a another day? Shot you?

Diana - 12:27:12 pm

Yea of course

Diana - 12:27:12 pm

Just let me lift 110 first

Me - 12:28:20 pm

Ok. Of course. Next week, maybe?

Me - 12:28:29 pm

See how 105 goes

Me - 12:28:38 pm

And 107.5

Diana - 12:27:12 pm

Oh god

Diana - 12:28:55 pm

I'll be exhausted if I have to go up that slow

Diana - 12:29:02 pm

There's no way I'll make it

Me - 12:29:07 pm

What? 3 reps?

Diana - 12:29:08 pm

Each lift takes everything I have

Diana - 12:29:15 pm

If I can't do 110 we drop back

Me - 12:30:33 pm

I think we'll go: 90, 105, 110, 110. Maybe drop one or both the 110's. Depends how the warmup goes and how 90 feels.

Me - 12:30:56 pm

Big rests between

Me - 12:31:17 pm

But yeah, fucking heavy!!!!

Me - 12:31:54 pm

105 is awesome!!! 100 is awesome!!!

Me - 12:32:18 pm

With this stuff it really depends on the day and how you're feeling

Me - 12:32:46 pm

Live to fight another day. Good motto with heavy lifting

Me - 12:32:59 pm

Going to eat. Then drive.

Me - 12:37:15 pm

But we'll talk about the lifting next week. I tend to get carried away. No intention to push you past your capacities. Just so you know.

Diana - 12:38:17 pm

You have to push me to see what they are

Diana - 12:38:31 pm

If it's the wrong day then it's the wrong day

Diana - 12:38:40 pm

Yesterday felt like the right day but you said no

Diana - 12:38:53 pm

And I listened

Diana - 12:38:55 pm

:p

Diana - 12:39:00 pm

Enjoy lunch and drive

Diana - 1:22:40 pm

I'm educating myself on IS

Me - 1:43:44 pm

Pretty depressing, I imagine? although, information is good. If you find stuff, I'd like to know. Things like that are included in my "avoidance" list. Probably not healthy.

Me - 1:44:39 pm

People are hard to understand. Like the dog guys yesterday.

Me - 1:44:53 pm

Leaving for mum's.

Diana - 1:45:56 pm

Just found Mohammad elomar on Twitter holding some of the 7 heads of the people he beheaded

Diana - 1:46:07 pm

It's so fucking interesting and frightening

Diana - 1:46:08 pm

Enjoy your arvo

Diana - 2:28:48 pm

A colleague has just gone to get me phernergan !

Me - 2:39:16 pm

?

Me - 2:39:29 pm

I thought that was for kids? Wrong?

Me - 2:40:11 pm

Phernergan Forte! Get the good stuff at least :-)

Diana - 3:04:40 pm

Yeaaaaaaa

Diana - 3:04:42 pm

How's your mum?

Me - 3:06:28 pm

Filling out home help forms. Haha. Underestimating how hard things are, just so she doesn't look bad. :-) Good I'm here.

Me - 3:07:22 pm

Phernergan puts you to sleep, right?

Diana - 3:13:57 pm

Oh that's tricky :/

Diana - 3:13:57 pm

My drugs have arrived

Diana - 3:14:10 pm

Phernergan and olive leaf extract

Diana - 3:15:41 pm

On the intake desk I get all these passes to go see preview screenings of movies

Diana - 3:15:42 pm

And what do I do??

Diana - 3:15:44 pm

Say no cause I'm a loser :/

Me - 3:17:14 pm

I thought you liked sitting alone in a movie theatre with a coffee? :-) Or is it because you don't have good dress (as you told me)?

Diana - 3:17:28 pm

Look what you've done to me, I just bought another book!

Diana - 3:17:46 pm

No, it's a Monday night and j have the kids

Me - 3:18:06 pm

Whoa now. Be careful! Time consuming reading.

Me - 3:18:10 pm

:-)

Diana - 3:17:52 pm

I like it a little lower key than preview screenings too. The dress I wouldn't wear to the movies anyway

Diana - 3:18:50 pm

Buddhist boot camp, the guy that runs that is smart. Not brainy, though he has that too. Integral smart, all the important parts combined

Diana - 3:18:57 pm

Too often people are only smart in one

Me - 3:24:03 pm

What's the Buddhist boot camp idea? Yoga teacher and a nun? :)

Diana - 3:27:56 pm

It's the book

Diana - 3:28:06 pm

I'm already practically a nun

Me - 3:32:00 pm

Well, you read books really quickly. Probably need to get a few. :-)

Diana - 3:32:09 pm

It's time for another coffee.

Diana - 3:32:18 pm

I'm a bit of a skimmer

Me - 3:32:19 pm

Tea here

Me - 3:32:33 pm

No coffee!!! Horror!

Diana - 3:32:40 pm

I just had a phone call from hell, coffee with scotch would be better

Me - 3:37:24 pm

Tough job. Hassly!

Me - 3:37:30 pm

Stressful I imagine

Diana - 3:37:04 pm

Did you indirectly say I could have a snickers this morning??

Me - 3:39:11 pm

Snickers, protein bar, all the same. :-) But, I would not be so presumptuous as to suggest one way or the other :)

Diana - 3:39:12 pm

I'm pretty sure you did ...

Diana - 3:39:12 pm

Which makes it ok ;))

Me - 3:39:47 pm

If it's in a text, it happened :-)

Me - 3:39:58 pm

Need search capability

Diana - 3:39:12 pm

No counting.. Eat If I'm hungry...

Diana - 3:39:12 pm

It's all coming back to me now

Me - 3:40:15 pm

Yep

Me - 3:40:54 pm

Go for it, within reason. Or, fuck reason, go for it :-)

Me - 3:41:34 pm

Hoe many bars on offer? One, hopefully :-)

Me - 3:41:43 pm

They have seeds in then right?

Me - 3:41:46 pm

:-)

Me - 3:41:57 pm

All good haha

Diana - 3:44:05 pm

Nuts

Diana - 3:44:59 pm

And there's 2 vending machines and a whole cafe full of pastries down stairs

Diana - 3:45:15 pm

My sister is getting me to check out her next potential date

Me - 3:45:30 pm

In person?

Diana - 3:45:31 pm

And my colleague hasn't arrived to begin the next shift so now I'm doing that too

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Good thing I've had coffee and sugar Huh???

Me - 3:46:02 pm

Wow! You gotta get through somehow.

Me - 3:46:33 pm

Seeds ain't gonna do it, right?

Diana - 3:46:40 pm

Photos of him

Me - 3:47:16 pm

Ok. That will REALLY show what he's like as a person. :-)

Me - 3:47:47 pm

Look good? Nothing else needed. We know that ;)

Diana - 3:47:44 pm

Not quite

Diana - 3:48:15 pm

You can tell a lot actually

Diana - 4:06:56 pm

I even guessed his name right

Me - 4:07:26 pm

Character too?

Me - 4:08:08 pm

Nice guy you think? Good enough for your sister?

Diana - 4:06:56 pm

Nope

Me - 4:08:35 pm

We're waiting for the physio

Me - 4:09:11 pm

Leg raises, half squats and bended knees coming up

Diana - 4:09:04 pm

I've just watched hours of IS blowing up school children

Me - 4:09:48 pm

You'll be a barrel of laughs tonight. :-)

Diana - 4:09:04 pm

Well I know some people would rather avoid it but I think that sucks

Diana - 4:09:04 pm

It keeps one grounded and grateful to be aware of what others are experiencing

Diana - 4:09:04 pm

Makes deadlifts seem quite ridiculous

Me - 4:10:58 pm

Agree

Me - 4:11:07 pm

And money issues

Diana - 4:11:12 pm

Well... Let's not take it too far :)

Diana - 4:34:40 pm

You know sitting for so long actually hurts

Diana - 4:34:40 pm

I have all day tomorrow free without kids, and I'm gonna need it

Diana - 4:34:40 pm

Well j have to do drop off and pick up but that's it

Me - 4:53:26 pm

Don't need to tell me about sitting! I spent 70+ hours a week, for 2 years, in that little office at home, writing code. Wrecked both body and mind.

Diana - 4:57:32 pm

Well I'm giving you my version

Diana - 4:58:08 pm

And unless you were in heels then you don't really know the pain

Diana - 4:58:08 pm

So there

Diana - 4:58:08 pm

I've hit a wall. A hard cold brittle wall from which I'm unsure I can bounce back from

Diana - 5:00:01 pm

I think the strings of a sugar daddy would be easier than this. Let's get back onto losing body fat to make that happen

Me - 5:19:17 pm

You're going to be a rich and famous yoga teacher. All problems solved. :) The problems of what we plan are smaller than what we suffer now.

Me - 5:20:30 pm

At home. Listening to the national. Writing exercise for people that may not turn up.

Me - 5:21:38 pm

Decided on chronological order. Too predictable? I'm commited to listening to the lot, may as well go on the journey too.

Me - 5:22:33 pm

And. Heels?

Diana - 5:25:52 pm

Yes heels

Diana - 5:26:44 pm

Chronological order?

Diana - 5:26:54 pm

Hmm how very systematic of you

Me - 5:27:10 pm

It's the order in iTunes

Me - 5:27:22 pm

Niw I've uploDed it all

Diana - 5:27:26 pm

I don't want to be famous. Rich would be ok

Me - 5:27:30 pm

Haha

Me - 5:27:34 pm

Don't we all

Diana - 5:27:38 pm

Wow I actually understood that text

Me - 5:27:53 pm

Who needs engrish

Me - 5:27:57 pm

:-)

Me - 5:28:19 pm

I like this one

Me - 5:28:23 pm

First one

Me - 5:28:37 pm

Tiny tiny but like early REM

Me - 5:28:43 pm

bit

Diana - 5:28:00 pm

Hmm no

Diana - 5:28:00 pm

Which album?

Me - 5:28:55 pm

The National

Me - 5:29:07 pm

First listen. Give me a break

Me - 5:29:15 pm

:)

Diana - 5:29:24 pm

I'm not big on breaks

Diana - 5:29:37 pm

The self titled album?

Me - 5:29:41 pm

Yes

Me - 5:29:48 pm

2001

Me - 5:30:00 pm

First one I have

Me - 5:30:05 pm

Is that right?

Me - 5:30:16 pm

It's the first one?

Me - 5:31:44 pm

Guitar and drums are like eArly REM. Voice, lyrics no

Diana - 5:32:16 pm

they weren't completely formed for that album

Diana - 5:33:41 pm

I think the phernergan is really affecting me

Me - 5:33:48 pm

I'm going in their journey

Diana - 5:33:49 pm

I'm falling asleep at my desk!

Me - 5:34:05 pm

Bring a sleeping bag to work?

Me - 5:34:25 pm

Why did you take it now and not when you got home?

Diana - 5:38:40 pm

Cause that's just the kind of girl I am

Diana - 5:38:40 pm

And I had coffee and sugar to even it out :)

Me - 5:39:10 pm

I'm getting to know that :)

Me - 5:39:33 pm

Drugs -drugs = 0. Right? Hahaa

Diana - 5:40:24 pm

Well it an altered state of equilibrium

Me - 5:43:07 pm

Epiphany!! Let's find some really rich couple and ruin their marriage! You can have the husband and I'll have the wife. Too easy! Know any? :-)

Diana - 5:42:56 pm

Not really

Diana - 5:42:56 pm

Do you?

Diana - 5:42:56 pm

Then we have to wait for the divorce though

Diana - 5:42:56 pm

I'm going to start scouting next week

Me - 5:44:25 pm

Scouts are no good! :)

Diana - 5:42:56 pm

Ha!

Diana - 5:42:56 pm

Practice?

Me - 5:45:01 pm

Wrong sex

Me - 5:45:04 pm

:)

Diana - 5:45:04 pm

I see why a lot of office people are so unhealthy

Diana - 5:45:04 pm

It's impossible to feel good and do this full time

Me - 5:46:31 pm

Snickers?

Me - 5:46:36 pm

Oh

Diana - 5:45:04 pm

It's nearly killed me and it's only been 3 days

Me - 5:46:48 pm

It's draining yep

Me - 5:47:07 pm

But don't you do this every 2 weeks?

Diana - 5:47:29 pm

Not usually this many hours

Diana - 5:47:36 pm

Not the long shifts

Diana - 5:47:39 pm

I hate them

Me - 5:48:18 pm

Well, you're going to be sacked anyway. Problem goes away. Also $'s, unfortunately

Me - 5:49:03 pm

I think office stuff numbs you

Diana - 5:49:08 pm

They don't wanna sack me which is nice

Me - 5:49:19 pm

Makes it hard to make life changing decisions

Me - 5:49:28 pm

You just keep going in each day

Me - 5:49:34 pm

Then you get old

Diana - 5:49:40 pm

Exactly

Diana - 5:49:45 pm

Frightening Huh

Me - 5:49:50 pm

Yep

Me - 5:49:58 pm

Glad I got out

Diana - 5:49:59 pm

Not really in my case

Diana - 5:50:03 pm

I've left twice

Me - 5:50:11 pm

Kids got me out

Diana - 5:50:16 pm

Now they really give me what works with the kids

Diana - 5:50:23 pm

I'm lucky like that

Me - 5:50:28 pm

Good stuff really

Diana - 5:50:32 pm

You're wife got you out really right

Me - 5:50:39 pm

Just hard to do

Diana - 5:50:41 pm

I mean she could afford for you to be at home

Me - 5:50:45 pm

Yes

Me - 5:51:12 pm

I still worked hard. No daytime tv. :)

Me - 5:51:26 pm

But not in N office

Me - 5:51:36 pm

Same every day

Diana - 5:51:47 pm

If I can keep a couple of shifts here while I study it'd be great. They'll try to do that for me

Me - 5:51:58 pm

An photos?

Me - 5:52:06 pm

Sell soul?

Me - 5:52:12 pm

For $

Diana - 5:52:16 pm

But yeah hard to do

Diana - 5:52:19 pm

I'm exhausted

Diana - 5:52:30 pm

Yea that'll happen as yoga unfolds I believe

Me - 5:54:02 pm

It's a pity that what you're good at drains you so much. And that's what usually stops decisions happening. You're good but really, you have to get out.

Diana - 5:54:14 pm

So I think I've sorted you out though?

Me - 5:54:15 pm

Not just you, lots of people

Me - 5:54:25 pm

Haha

Me - 5:54:29 pm

No way

Diana - 5:54:38 pm

Yea they keep getting me back! I've quit twice. Once for 2 years! They kept my position

Me - 5:54:40 pm

Not even a small %

Diana - 5:54:46 pm

Pfft

Diana - 5:54:51 pm

All you need is a trip away

Diana - 5:55:08 pm

Reignite you so you stop reminiscing and start living ;)

Me - 5:55:17 pm

Run away? Hmmmmm

Diana - 5:55:36 pm

Not at all

Me - 5:55:38 pm

I can go to gynnamattta

Me - 5:55:41 pm

Haha

Diana - 5:55:44 pm

It's not running away it's running to

Diana - 5:55:44 pm

Big big difference

Me - 5:56:09 pm

This is talking stuff!

Diana - 5:56:28 pm

Yesum ok

Diana - 5:56:45 pm

It's keeping me awake though

Me - 5:56:51 pm

Last song

Me - 5:57:18 pm

Next is sad songs for dirty lovers

Me - 5:57:24 pm

You like that one

Me - 5:57:32 pm

Next album

Diana - 5:57:41 pm

I like most of it

Diana - 5:57:52 pm

I find with all their albums their are songs they could have left off as b sides

Diana - 5:57:52 pm

I like 90 mile waterfall

Diana - 5:57:52 pm

Available I love

Me - 5:58:28 pm

We need a listening session.

Diana - 5:57:52 pm

And lucky you

Me - 5:58:41 pm

So I can take notes :-)

Diana - 5:58:51 pm

Yes one afternoon on the non grass

Me - 5:59:00 pm

Hot afternoon

Diana - 5:59:00 pm

Me with wine and you with protein powder ;)

Me - 5:59:04 pm

You're on

Me - 5:59:10 pm

I've got wine

Me - 5:59:22 pm

Ben in the cupboard for a year

Me - 5:59:33 pm

Will power eh?

Me - 5:59:55 pm

And now a gormet chocolate bar in the fridge

Diana - 6:00:00 pm

Well if it was whiskey maybe?

Diana - 6:00:00 pm

You're not a foodie though

Me - 6:00:12 pm

Mum was given it i. Hospital

Diana - 6:00:00 pm

You're a deprivator

Diana - 6:00:00 pm

I just made up that word

Me - 6:00:23 pm

Sorting me again?

Me - 6:00:30 pm

Labeling me too

Diana - 6:00:00 pm

Sounds kinda Frenchy Huh ;)

Me - 6:00:52 pm

Frenchy gets the girls! Haha

Me - 6:01:03 pm

Sugar mummy

Me - 6:01:18 pm

But a nice one

Diana - 6:01:28 pm

Well do it

Diana - 6:01:31 pm

Seriously

Me - 6:01:32 pm

I've hD a crap one already :-$

Diana - 6:01:35 pm

Get a really good one

Me - 6:01:36 pm

:-)

Me - 6:01:49 pm

Oh. It's that easy???

Diana - 6:01:52 pm

And then you can pass the money onto me for yoga

Me - 6:01:57 pm

Haha

Diana - 6:01:58 pm

Cause you'll have so much :)

Me - 6:02:01 pm

And wine

Me - 6:02:07 pm

And choccy

Me - 6:02:25 pm

Ok. $75 per month

Me - 6:02:32 pm

For yoga. :-)

Diana - 6:02:08 pm

Pfft

Me - 6:02:40 pm

Live it up!!

Diana - 6:02:08 pm

You'll have to get out of your suburb

Diana - 6:02:08 pm

You're quite into te idea aren't you

Me - 6:03:25 pm

Going to try closer to the city next week

Diana - 6:04:00 pm

Try what?

Me - 6:04:19 pm

Groups

Me - 6:04:31 pm

Need to see the gym first

Me - 6:04:38 pm

$ in town

Diana - 6:04:16 pm

For sure

Diana - 6:04:16 pm

Good luck!

Me - 6:05:09 pm

Well, I'm not leaving this exact minute... :-)

Me - 6:05:24 pm

So you can keep talking if you wish haha

Me - 6:05:35 pm

Big news night?

Diana - 6:05:47 pm

Not after you've been going over it for 6 hours

Me - 6:05:54 pm

:)

Diana - 6:06:05 pm

Why don't you try sandy?

Diana - 6:06:10 pm

There's money there too

Me - 6:06:16 pm

Already has someone

Me - 6:06:24 pm

Has 2 I think

Me - 6:06:41 pm

Town is the best

Me - 6:06:46 pm

Really!!

Me - 6:07:01 pm

Easy drive at 5am! Haha Sigh!

Diana - 6:06:24 pm

Fair enough

Me - 6:07:34 pm

Listening now...

Me - 6:08:10 pm

This guy has had problems with women. I'm guessing. :)

Diana - 6:08:32 pm

I wouldn't mind having a problem with him ;)

Me - 6:09:04 pm

Calm down!

Diana - 6:08:32 pm

He wears a suit so well

Diana - 6:38:17 pm

Ok.. Home stretch

Diana - 6:42:40 pm

If I stay away im winning :)

Me - 6:44:40 pm

:)

Me - 7:39:28 pm

Big day, finally over :-)

Diana - 7:42:24 pm

Almost

Diana - 7:42:24 pm

Got to go get Joel and bring him home, Neil has an early shift

Diana - 7:42:24 pm

Once he is in bed snug it's my turn

Me - 7:43:52 pm

Finally! Haha

Diana - 7:44:10 pm

How does she find the energy to go the wows I hear you wonder ;)

Diana - 7:44:28 pm

Especially at 40! ;)

Me - 7:44:58 pm

Yes, I'm always impressed!

Me - 7:45:11 pm

Hope you sleep tonight

Diana - 7:44:32 pm

Sarcometer skyrocket

Me - 7:45:20 pm

No!

Me - 7:45:49 pm

Phernergan worn off? More?

Diana - 7:44:32 pm

Yep slowly

Diana - 7:46:40 pm

Prob by the time I need it to kick in ;)

Me - 7:46:53 pm

Got any more?

Me - 7:47:10 pm

Although, it's probably not the way to go

Me - 7:47:17 pm

But it works

Me - 7:47:25 pm

Quandary

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

Dangerous territory

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

I don't want to rely on pukka to sleep

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

Pills

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

Joel will sleep with me to ugh

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

Tonight

Me - 7:51:00 pm

It's periodic with you isn't it. Some weeks are ok, others tough? Or are they all rough? I remember you saying it isn't always bad (sleeping)

Me - 7:51:23 pm

Can you sleep with Joel there?

Diana - 7:54:16 pm

Def periodic

Diana - 7:55:47 pm

And Joel needs cuddles

Diana - 7:55:51 pm

So do I really

Diana - 7:55:59 pm

So it'll be nice

Diana - 7:56:39 pm

I'm pretty sure the cycle is on its way out too

Me - 7:56:41 pm

Yeah, cuddles are nice :)

Diana - 7:56:47 pm

And tomorrow is all mine :)

Me - 7:57:59 pm

What time do you drop Joel off? I have (I think haha) a 7:30 and an 8:30. That's all.

Diana - 7:59:00 pm

I can drop her off anytime

Diana - 7:59:13 pm

But it'll be a late night for her so I'll let her sleep in

Diana - 7:59:28 pm

Any favourite songs after your listen?

Me - 7:59:48 pm

Ok. You know my availability. I'll be there in the morning

Diana - 8:00:15 pm

I'd say by around 9 to warm up hopefully

Me - 8:00:25 pm

Great!

Diana - 8:00:27 pm

930

Me - 8:00:37 pm

Great-er

Diana - 8:00:49 pm

I don't want to push Joel to hard she has a big day at day care

Me - 8:01:08 pm

Of course!

Me - 8:01:27 pm

Still going on sad songs...

Me - 8:01:39 pm

Too early to call, favorites

Me - 8:01:49 pm

Needs a few listens

Me - 8:02:10 pm

I can't decide on good songs until after quite a few listens

Me - 8:02:36 pm

Often the ones I end up loving, didn't sound so good first time.

Diana - 8:03:31 pm

Ok

Me - 8:03:41 pm

I may need to "run" on them :)

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

I fall instantly in love with songs.

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

And then grow to love others

Diana - 8:03:44 pm

And some I skip over forever

Me - 8:05:10 pm

There are a lot of albums... This might take a while!

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

For sure

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

Maybe get to know one album at a time

Me - 8:06:17 pm

And often, for me, too much of a good thing can sour things. Need to go slow with music

Me - 8:06:29 pm

Like overdosing

Me - 8:06:46 pm

Too rich food, too much at once

Me - 8:07:38 pm

Fries me inside (metaphorically). Too much externally generated emotion, I find tough

Diana - 8:07:38 pm

Or a person

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

I tend to over do it then retreat but then find the same emotion is there after some respite

Me - 8:08:42 pm

Not many people are like good music though :)

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

That's true

Me - 8:09:19 pm

And you can press stop/pause/replay with music :)

Me - 8:10:00 pm

I like the slower ones, so far

Me - 8:10:18 pm

I prefer, I should say

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

Yea music is much easier to control

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

But I guess it's the stuff that can't be controlled that makes the good music

Me - 8:11:26 pm

I've finished all my programming. Just listening now.

Me - 8:14:46 pm

And that's why it takes me a few listens. Too complex for one take and you miss stuff. Too much to take in, and that makes the song confusing. But once it's a bit familiar you can take in the extra complexity. Works for me. I like complex stuff but with emotion. Sums me up really.

Me - 8:14:57 pm

Lucky you is good

Diana - 8:16:32 pm

Yep I think so too

Me - 8:17:14 pm

Needs a few more listens

Me - 8:17:31 pm

As well as the hundred other songs :-)

Me - 8:17:40 pm

Loooooong night

Me - 8:17:52 pm

Haha. Nit really.

Me - 8:17:58 pm

A few days

Diana - 8:16:32 pm

All the time in the works really

Diana - 8:16:32 pm

World

Me - 8:19:47 pm

Cherry Tree

Diana - 8:18:40 pm

It's a good one

Diana - 8:18:40 pm

Not my fav but good

Me - 8:20:52 pm

I should set up the sound system in he lounge

Me - 8:21:04 pm

Not this little cupboard haha

Me - 8:21:25 pm

Stop me watching tv when I'm tired

Diana - 8:39:31 pm

I like tv

Diana - 8:39:35 pm

It has its place

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

But good speakers in the lounge would be good for the non grass area

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

:)

Me - 8:42:10 pm

Yeah. Loud. So the neighbours complain. :)

Me - 8:42:44 pm

I like cherry tree!

Me - 8:43:06 pm

Great live song

Diana - 8:42:08 pm

All dolled up in straps and about today are my faves

Me - 8:44:18 pm

I like murder me Rachael. Not that I don't like the others. Yeah, about today is powerful.

Diana - 8:46:18 pm

I liked it and then went off it

Diana - 8:46:24 pm

Each song has its own life I guess

Me - 8:48:38 pm

It's cool how the life is subtly different in each person that listens to it. You write a song but the listener owns their own version of it. I've always thought a songwriter discovers music, doesn't really create it.

Me - 8:48:50 pm

3 albums is enough for one night

Me - 8:49:12 pm

Bed. Read.

Diana - 8:52:48 pm

Ok enjoy

Diana - 8:52:48 pm

Night

Diana - 9:04:35 pm

My little girl is sound asleep :)

Diana - 9:04:48 pm

Ahh the end of the day is near

Me - 9:04:53 pm

Already?

Me - 9:05:13 pm

In your bed?

Me - 9:05:41 pm

What do I mean already gaha it's 9pm!!! Way late for a 4 yo

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

Exactly

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

That's why I need to let her sleep in

Me - 9:07:23 pm

I've got all morning free. No hurry or restrictions

Me - 9:07:36 pm

To doing the wow I mean

Diana - 9:08:57 pm

Cool

Diana - 9:09:02 pm

I'll get in as soon as I can

Diana - 9:20:32 pm

Ok I'm gonna crash, I'll come in and warm up between 9-930

Diana - 9:20:32 pm

See you then

Me - 9:22:31 pm

Night

**Friday 3 October**

Diana - 12:33:34 pm

Frankston is nearly as depressing as next weeks wow

Me - 12:34:16 pm

Just shop and get out of there. Quick escape!

Diana - 12:35:10 pm

Even as a junkie I never came here

Diana - 12:35:15 pm

Weird junkie pride ;)

Me - 12:35:29 pm

High class junkie!

Me - 12:35:39 pm

Standards! :-)

Diana - 12:36:39 pm

Exactly

Diana - 12:37:03 pm

Only Collingwood and Footscray for these veins

Me - 12:37:20 pm

:-) Expensive now!

Me - 12:37:47 pm

Toy shops should be ok? Even in frankston.

Me - 12:38:46 pm

I want to hear the story of the junkie years! Long version. (Not now, not via text)

Diana - 12:42:07 pm

Really?

Diana - 12:42:08 pm

it's not that interesting

Me - 12:42:54 pm

That's for the listener to decide :-) It's nothing like I've experienced.

Diana - 1:00:04 pm

I found berry :)

Diana - 1:00:08 pm

And a black shaker

Diana - 1:00:29 pm

And I got a dinner invite from my cousin

Diana - 1:00:36 pm

Lucky we're not counting calories

Me - 1:01:25 pm

All round perfect expedition to frankston then.

Diana - 1:01:20 pm

Hmm

Diana - 1:01:48 pm

Except for the fact it's frankston yes

Diana - 1:02:00 pm

And all so quick!

Me - 1:02:11 pm

I was born there!

Me - 1:02:20 pm

Frankston hospital

Me - 1:03:11 pm

Must have gone downhill after I left :-)

Diana - 1:03:28 pm

Wow really?

Diana - 1:03:28 pm

So was my sister

Diana - 1:03:28 pm

But back when you were born frankston was cool

Diana - 1:04:09 pm

There was a great drug art culture here

Me - 1:04:21 pm

Which sister?

Diana - 1:04:27 pm

It's got an interesting history frankston

Diana - 1:04:33 pm

The one on my mums side

Diana - 1:04:38 pm

She's my half sister

Me - 1:04:42 pm

It wasn't too bad. Pubs were dangerous

Me - 1:04:58 pm

Especially for a 14 year old! Gaha

Diana - 1:05:12 pm

I have 3 half brothers and another half sister I've never met from my dad, and a few ex step brothers/sisters

Diana - 1:05:36 pm

Yea no rules about age back then!

Diana - 1:05:36 pm

I used to get in cause I had big hooters when I was young

Me - 1:06:03 pm

Rules, yes. Ignored yes

Diana - 1:05:36 pm

Easy to get in anywhere

Me - 1:06:07 pm

Haha

Me - 1:06:22 pm

Had?

Me - 1:08:29 pm

How big?

Diana - 1:09:29 pm

Shut up

Me - 1:09:38 pm

:-)

Me - 1:09:49 pm

Pictures? ;)

Diana - 1:09:52 pm

Boys are always boys Huh

Me - 1:10:32 pm

But. Hooters!! :)

Diana - 1:09:52 pm

Pfft

Me - 1:10:46 pm

Ok, enough about hooted

Me - 1:10:54 pm

Hooters

Diana - 1:10:56 pm

It's like tom says gravity always wins

Diana - 1:11:15 pm

Especially after breast feeding

Me - 1:11:38 pm

Yeh. They can get big then.

Diana - 1:11:43 pm

There is surgery for that though right

Diana - 1:11:53 pm

Another reason to find a sugar daddy

Me - 1:12:13 pm

You think they're too big niw?

Me - 1:12:17 pm

Now

Diana - 1:12:00 pm

As far as nature is concerned my hooters have done their job. They attracted a mate, 2 actually and fed the babies

Diana - 1:12:00 pm

They're of no relevance now

Diana - 1:12:00 pm

Yes they're still too big

Diana - 1:13:13 pm

But whatever really

Diana - 1:13:25 pm

Even if I had the cash to change it Id travel instead

Me - 1:15:03 pm

How can I say this without sounding weird? I think they're fine :) Not that I've spent any time noticing. But none of my business.

Diana - 1:15:24 pm

Totally enough about my or anyone else's hooters

Diana - 1:15:28 pm

No I know you haven't

Diana - 1:15:34 pm

So let's not start now

Me - 1:15:39 pm

Cool

Me - 1:16:03 pm

Home now? Frankston finished?

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

Off to go food shopping

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

Amazing life I lead

Me - 1:16:36 pm

Normal

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

Pfft

Me - 1:16:45 pm

Gotta eat

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

Boring

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

I'm pretty sure I got switched at birth

Me - 1:17:05 pm

With what

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

And was supposed to go home to a wealthy family who had servants

Me - 1:17:17 pm

Didn't we all???

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

Who shopped and cleaned and brushed my hair for me

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

No. Not all of us. Just me ;)

Diana - 1:18:02 pm

Work with my sister is locked in

Diana - 1:18:06 pm

Starting 2 weeks from today

Me - 1:18:27 pm

One day only right?

Diana - 1:18:24 pm

I kind of like I have enough humility to know I'm not above cleaning but it kind of disturbs me aswell

Me - 1:18:30 pm

Per week

Diana - 1:18:24 pm

One day a fortnight

Me - 1:19:18 pm

Cleaning sucks! But it might be ok, I it's not your house and it's for money. Worth trying, at least

Me - 1:19:26 pm

Social experiment :-)

Diana - 1:18:24 pm

I'll be able to go to the gym after the shift

Diana - 1:18:24 pm

I'd rather do that than get into debt

Diana - 1:20:00 pm

I'm not into debt too stressful

Me - 1:21:17 pm

If there's one thing I know about is debt stress!!!!

Me - 1:21:26 pm

Just had a door knocker

Me - 1:21:33 pm

Real estate agent

Me - 1:21:36 pm

Sigh

Me - 1:21:54 pm

$ stress sucks!

Me - 1:22:12 pm

Debt is even worse than not having enough

Me - 1:22:26 pm

Your life in others hands

Me - 1:22:31 pm

Others'

Diana - 1:22:40 pm

Exactly

Diana - 1:22:40 pm

4 hours hanging out with my sister listening to music and cleaning, could be kinda fun and reduces my need to get into debt.

Diana - 1:24:34 pm

I don't want streas

Diana - 1:24:38 pm

Stress

Me - 1:24:51 pm

That I know :-)

Diana - 1:24:48 pm

I'll get some imaging work soon when wedding season hits

Diana - 1:24:48 pm

I can do that home

Me - 1:25:27 pm

Sounds pretty good really! Better prospects than me!!

Diana - 1:24:48 pm

It's good to know ones limitations

Diana - 1:24:48 pm

Pfft

Diana - 1:24:48 pm

You could go back to your wife and live it up!

Diana - 1:24:48 pm

Then again I could go back to Jarrod I guess :/

Me - 1:26:26 pm

No. She wouldn't have me! And I don't wNt her. Complete rejection

Me - 1:26:43 pm

Not compatible

Me - 1:26:47 pm

At all

Me - 1:26:56 pm

Never was really

Diana - 1:27:01 pm

Well then it's massage for you

Me - 1:27:08 pm

Yep

Me - 1:27:19 pm

Sweaty people

Diana - 1:27:24 pm

and you got two beautiful kids out of it

Me - 1:27:30 pm

Of course

Diana - 1:27:31 pm

That's what I'm forever grateful for

Me - 1:27:37 pm

They're awssome

Me - 1:27:46 pm

Yeah. Kids are great

Diana - 1:27:50 pm

I think I chose mine purely for their mating capabilities, if I was to be so bold to say that

Me - 1:28:00 pm

Really??

Diana - 1:28:00 pm

The dads j mean

Diana - 1:28:05 pm

I chose them genetically

Diana - 1:28:12 pm

I didn't realise it at the time

Me - 1:28:17 pm

Gut feeling!

Me - 1:28:24 pm

No logic?

Diana - 1:28:31 pm

Biology is bigger than us

Diana - 1:28:40 pm

It's perfect logic, it's nature

Me - 1:29:04 pm

Well, there's after kids too

Diana - 1:29:13 pm

And I really have the most beautiful kids, I know every mother says that but really, they're quite incredible

Diana - 1:29:22 pm

The after kids part is of no consequence

Me - 1:29:31 pm

I've net Joel. At the gym

Diana - 1:29:34 pm

It's the new life you made that matters

Me - 1:29:42 pm

Really?? No consequence

Me - 1:29:54 pm

Lesser consequence maybe

Me - 1:30:01 pm

Still important

Diana - 1:30:04 pm

If you strip it right back

Me - 1:30:12 pm

You can't

Me - 1:30:27 pm

Not with that stuff

Diana - 1:30:36 pm

No but from an evolutionary biology perspective

You can

Diana - 1:30:43 pm

Selective genetics for survival

Diana - 1:30:53 pm

Simple Pro creation

Me - 1:30:58 pm

Maybe, but we have minds to help control that

Diana - 1:31:07 pm

It's animalistic

Me - 1:31:09 pm

Overcome urges

Diana - 1:31:12 pm

Minds only get in the way

Me - 1:31:17 pm

Nope

Me - 1:31:20 pm

Help

Diana - 1:31:27 pm

Hmm

Me - 1:31:32 pm

Pfft

Diana - 1:31:38 pm

Total disagreeance there

Me - 1:31:44 pm

I know

Diana - 1:31:45 pm

That's my word

Diana - 1:31:49 pm

Ok I have to shop

Me - 1:31:50 pm

Cool eh?

Me - 1:31:54 pm

Ok

Diana - 1:31:55 pm

Yes

Diana - 1:32:03 pm

You'll come round ;)

Me - 1:32:25 pm

Hahaha You'll have try harder than that! :)

Diana - 1:33:56 pm

No I won't :p

Diana - 1:45:23 pm

There's Xmas stuff everywhere!!

Me - 2:01:28 pm

I should be preparing massage stuff. Designing documents, reviewing, etc etc. Can't be stuffed though. It looks nice outside. Might try relaxing haha

Me - 2:01:40 pm

And making more bread :)

Diana - 2:03:39 pm

Ha!

Diana - 2:03:48 pm

Swinging pendulum huh

Diana - 2:03:52 pm

No grass then all grass

Me - 2:04:14 pm

Ha. NOW you're getting me! :)

Me - 2:04:36 pm

Not a big Xmas fan. Now the kids have grown up

Diana - 2:11:44 pm

I hate it

Diana - 2:11:44 pm

But I bung it on as best I can for the kids

Diana - 2:15:04 pm

It really is a lovely day

Diana - 2:15:08 pm

Nap in the sun material

Me - 2:18:00 pm

It's awssome for young kids. Revel in their excitement. Even though it is so materialistic. But later? Not so much, if at all. It's a really small thing here, just a lunch that's all

Diana - 2:18:08 pm

Do you all have it together?

Diana - 2:19:54 pm

My mum is coming down this year, and my sister is coming over. Humph I had it here last year and preparing the food nearly killed me! Not my strong point

Me - 2:21:16 pm

No. One child is obligated to go to New Zealand and the other has a lunch with me and mum. Low key. It's good. Just a good lunch. And mum does most of the cooking.

Me - 2:21:46 pm

Used to be a really big thing!!! Family in NZ. Drive me nuts!

Me - 2:21:53 pm

Drive me nuts

Me - 2:21:57 pm

Drove

Diana - 2:21:59 pm

You and your ex don't get together for it?

Me - 2:22:03 pm

No

Diana - 2:22:13 pm

Ok

Me - 2:22:16 pm

Haven't seen her for 4 years

Me - 2:22:21 pm

Good!

Me - 2:22:34 pm

No contact at all

Diana - 2:22:24 pm

Oh my god

Diana - 2:22:24 pm

Ok

Diana - 2:22:24 pm

So your daughter has lunch with you

Me - 2:24:09 pm

Her or my son

Me - 2:24:36 pm

He's usually around this part if the world at xmS

Me - 2:24:40 pm

Xmas

Diana - 2:24:32 pm

Is this too heavy for text?

Me - 2:24:53 pm

No

Me - 2:25:04 pm

Easy for me. But

Me - 2:25:23 pm

Was totally difdernt when the kids were young

Diana - 2:24:32 pm

I've had the kids every year for the morning wake up so they get to have it together but Jarrod and Neil always come over and be a part of it, then the kids go with their dads for the afternoon

Diana - 2:24:32 pm

This year will be reverse I think so they have the afternoon wih me and my mum

Diana - 2:24:32 pm

It'll be weird being alone Xmas eve

Me - 2:26:19 pm

Was similar with me

Diana - 2:26:29 pm

I usually go the movies Xmas day afternoon rather than do stuff with other family

Diana - 2:26:40 pm

There's always my cousins and dads house to go to but...

Me - 2:26:45 pm

Spend half of Xmas together as a "family"

Diana - 2:26:40 pm

It's Only our expectations of what we think it should look like that make it hard

Diana - 2:26:40 pm

Still it can hurt

Me - 2:27:53 pm

I usually don't do anything xmAs afternoon. Mum goes home. Child goes off with friends

Me - 2:28:13 pm

I used to feel bad about being alone

Diana - 2:26:40 pm

I totally recommend the movies :)

Me - 2:28:21 pm

Not so much anymore

Me - 2:28:36 pm

And a coffe right?

Me - 2:28:40 pm

Coffee

Me - 2:31:04 pm

It's nice outside but those kids are there haha. But quite today.

Diana - 2:33:26 pm

Holidays are over soon

Diana - 2:33:31 pm

And it'll be quiet again

Diana - 2:33:34 pm

Yes coffee

Diana - 2:33:40 pm

And cheesecake

Diana - 2:33:47 pm

Well that hasn't happened for a long while

Diana - 2:33:49 pm

But yes!

Diana - 2:34:02 pm

Ok shopping is put away

Diana - 2:34:13 pm

It takes quite a lot Just to stay alive

Me - 2:36:41 pm

Yes. A lot of our time and energy is taken up by just getting to tomorrow. That's always worried me. Seems to waste a lot of time we could be spending on real things. But we seem hard wired to get enjoyment out of completing mundane tasks. And they are easier, of course.

Diana - 2:38:06 pm

I'm not hard wired like that at all

Diana - 2:38:17 pm

I find them Infuriating

Diana - 2:38:24 pm

And struggle with them everyday

Diana - 2:38:37 pm

That's why yoga and meditation will be good for me

Diana - 2:38:47 pm

Teach me that I don't have to nearly be dead to feel alive

Diana - 2:38:58 pm

That ordinary moments are worthwhile

Me - 2:41:21 pm

Yes. That seems more like "you" than sitting at a desk with pressure stuff. I was going to do a mediation teacher course, did I tell you? Did the intro course. But just too much to do with everything else. Would be good. Someday.

Diana - 2:42:41 pm

I work very well and accurately under pressure that's the trouble

Me - 2:43:00 pm

Not "you" though

Diana - 2:43:00 pm

I would have been good in an emergency dept

Me - 2:43:16 pm

I was good at what I did too

Diana - 2:43:21 pm

But you need to rely on a lot of defects to be in that environment and hence spiritual development is stunted

Diana - 2:43:44 pm

Yea I may have grown out of it

Me - 2:43:50 pm

Yes. and you have to interact with A lot of idiots haha

Diana - 2:43:44 pm

And into cleaning. :/

Me - 2:43:59 pm

I used to :)

Me - 2:44:09 pm

Just yourself with cleaning

Me - 2:44:13 pm

Meditation

Diana - 2:43:44 pm

You don't have any rich sugar daddy material friends ;)

Me - 2:44:29 pm

Broom meditation ;-)

Me - 2:44:58 pm

Too old! You don't like old! Apparently :-)

Diana - 2:45:26 pm

Depends on their sugar

Me - 2:45:31 pm

Ha

Diana - 2:45:52 pm

Cmon old red hill merricks men?

Diana - 2:45:52 pm

I'm advertising for you

Me - 2:46:05 pm

I know the surfers!

Diana - 2:45:52 pm

You should advertise for me

Diana - 2:45:52 pm

Some of them have money

Diana - 2:45:52 pm

And yoga is so good for the ageing surfer

Me - 2:50:17 pm

I'm saving the "grass" for when you're here :)

Diana - 2:48:00 pm

Would they all want sex? Or would they be happy hanging out?

Diana - 2:48:00 pm

ok enough nonsense

Diana - 2:49:32 pm

I could do it when I was 25 I certainly can't do it at 40

Me - 2:50:18 pm

This is talking stuff. Getting a bit close :)

Diana - 2:50:08 pm

Looks nice

Me - 2:52:08 pm

I used to be rich. Haha. Before wife earned lots. I used to earn even more.

Diana - 2:52:16 pm

I'm going to get my little girl early I've missed her like crazy

Diana - 2:52:16 pm

Really?

Me - 2:52:33 pm

You get used to having things

Diana - 2:52:16 pm

I've never been rich

Me - 2:52:39 pm

But only thjngs

Diana - 2:52:16 pm

Probably smart enough to be

Diana - 2:52:16 pm

But never wanted the responsibility

Me - 2:53:07 pm

I used to earn 2 houses in fiztroy equivalent each year haha

Diana - 2:52:16 pm

And afraid of success

Me - 2:53:35 pm

Got spent, while I worked by arse off

Diana - 2:52:16 pm

Wow. Why don't you have anything now then?

Diana - 2:52:16 pm

That's insane that you let that happen

Me - 2:53:55 pm

I've got a bit. Not enough to retire

Diana - 2:54:01 pm

We've all been insane at times though

Me - 2:54:02 pm

With servants haha

Diana - 2:54:24 pm

Well no sugar girls for you then ;)

Me - 2:54:44 pm

Haha

Me - 2:58:38 pm

I could certainly afford to loan you a little, but I think that would compromise this friendship. Kids borrow all the time! That's fine.

Me - 3:01:04 pm

I understand strings! That's what I'm saying.

Diana - 3:07:12 pm

I agree

Diana - 3:07:12 pm

That's why I asked if you had any friends

Diana - 3:07:12 pm

;)

Me - 3:08:03 pm

Married. Happily. Unfortunately for you :)

Diana - 3:08:28 pm

Does that even exist? ;)

Me - 3:08:43 pm

Yes

Diana - 3:13:36 pm

I put forth that we speak no more of sugar daddies or mummies. I wouldn't go there and if you happen to Id prefer not to know about it

Diana - 3:13:36 pm

Check?

Me - 3:14:11 pm

Agree

Me - 3:14:31 pm

In person, maybe. Texting, no.

Diana - 3:19:11 pm

Coolio

Me - 3:19:37 pm

Imogen home?

Diana - 3:21:35 pm

Just got her and finished cuddling :)

Diana - 3:21:45 pm

She's exhausted going to have a rest before her party

Diana - 3:21:56 pm

I'll finally get to shower then help her get ready

Me - 3:22:34 pm

Cuddling is great. Still do it, when appropriate :), with my kids.

Me - 3:23:09 pm

My son is good haha. He's away so much and then returns! Quick cuddle time!

Me - 3:23:34 pm

Never hD that from my parents. Probably over compensating

Diana - 3:24:01 pm

Haha! Needy dad!

Me - 3:24:10 pm

Actually had a girlfriend, years ago, Nick named me "teddy bear". Because I liked cuddles

Diana - 3:24:16 pm

My dad was cuddly my mum only started recently, shit sometimes she doesn't let go!

Me - 3:24:27 pm

And I had long hair and a beard too haha

Me - 3:25:17 pm

You try to not be your parents, don't you. Especially with important stuff like Humana contact, talking etc

Me - 3:25:40 pm

That's great with your mum

Me - 3:25:54 pm

I hug mum each time is see her

Me - 3:26:05 pm

Dad. Never!

Me - 3:26:10 pm

Not manly!

Diana - 3:26:17 pm

I cuddle my kids heaps, that's why I still let them sleep with me

Diana - 3:26:24 pm

It propels the ageing process but...

Diana - 3:26:24 pm

Worth it

Diana - 3:26:24 pm

Big bear cuddles are good

Me - 3:26:58 pm

Can you sleep with the 2 of them?

Diana - 3:26:24 pm

Kids can't really do that

Diana - 3:26:24 pm

No of course not!

Diana - 3:26:24 pm

Just recently I made a new rule, one a night

Me - 3:27:21 pm

Didn't think so

Me - 3:28:02 pm

Is there a race to your bed? Or a roster? Hahaha

Diana - 3:26:24 pm

Roster

Diana - 3:26:24 pm

There is a roster for eveything

Diana - 3:28:21 pm

And all 3 of us have equal footing

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

Even down to what we do each day, we take turns being boss of the day

Me - 3:28:48 pm

Ok

Me - 3:28:58 pm

Going back to above...

Me - 3:29:23 pm

I thought you hated "contact"? How could you have bear hugs?

Me - 3:29:31 pm

Space etc

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

I love contact

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

Once I've let someone in

Me - 3:29:56 pm

Ok then.

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

I just don't like it with randoms

Me - 3:30:02 pm

I get it

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

There needs to be a crossing

Diana - 3:28:32 pm

From outer to inner

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

Even my girlfriends, it's taken 2-3 years to let them hug me ;)

Me - 3:31:06 pm

Wow

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

I think that's what I needed last week

Me - 3:31:18 pm

It's a real girlfriend thing to do

Me - 3:31:43 pm

From who though? Got anyone? Without strings

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

Not close by

Me - 3:32:00 pm

Problem

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

My cousin would

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

But she speaks so loudly

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

It ruins the moment ;)

Me - 3:32:35 pm

No words required eh?

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

A horse is good. But I don't have one of those either ;)

Me - 3:32:46 pm

Hug is enough by far

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

No words

Me - 3:32:52 pm

And they kick

Me - 3:33:02 pm

As do men haha

Me - 3:33:19 pm

Metaphorically

Diana - 3:34:28 pm

Allof my close long term friends both male and female live on the other side of town

Diana - 3:34:42 pm

I don't have that many friends but the ones I have are very close

Diana - 3:34:49 pm

Where do you go?

Diana - 3:34:56 pm

To your kids only?

Me - 3:35:09 pm

For closeness?

Me - 3:35:19 pm

Only kids at the moment

Diana - 3:35:22 pm

Should we even be having this conversation?

Diana - 3:35:26 pm

I suspect not

Me - 3:35:29 pm

Probably not

Me - 3:35:38 pm

Let's leave it

Me - 3:35:46 pm

We keep straying

Diana - 3:35:51 pm

Go write a program

Diana - 3:35:57 pm

I'll have a shower I'm smelly

Me - 3:35:59 pm

Nope

Me - 3:36:09 pm

Smelly? Probaby

Me - 3:36:11 pm

Haha

Me - 3:36:21 pm

See you later

Diana - 3:36:24 pm

I broke a sweat this morning!

Me - 3:36:33 pm

I'm relaxing

Me - 3:36:38 pm

Non work

Me - 3:36:43 pm

No work

Me - 3:36:54 pm

This is new

Me - 3:37:04 pm

See what you've done!! :)

Me - 3:37:18 pm

It's great

Diana - 3:37:28 pm

Haha

Diana - 3:37:32 pm

Early retirement for you

Me - 3:37:37 pm

$

Me - 3:37:44 pm

Lack thereof

Diana - 3:37:45 pm

That European trip may happen early

Diana - 3:37:54 pm

Oh just lower your spending you'll be fine

Me - 3:38:29 pm

One servant only? No way!! :)

Me - 3:38:36 pm

Might write

Me - 3:38:44 pm

and listen to the national

Diana - 3:39:51 pm

Look at this hideous beast

Me - 3:40:42 pm

Tough life!

Diana - 3:42:08 pm

We're hanging on the grass

Diana - 3:42:13 pm

I'm trying to get up!

Me - 3:42:26 pm

Sigh! I wish I had grass ;)

Diana - 3:43:15 pm

Why just a few days ago when I suggested it you said what for?

Me - 3:44:23 pm

See above text. I'm a changed man. Grass-lover now. Just not the effort required to actually do something about it

Me - 3:44:58 pm

Inside now anyway. Playing guitar

Me - 3:45:17 pm

Plain minor key haha

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

Play outside

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

You'll get rid of the kids ;)

Me - 3:46:04 pm

Thanks!!!!!

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

I'm actually laughing at my own text!

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

I'm kidding of course

Me - 3:46:28 pm

I used to be really good haha

Diana - 3:45:36 pm

About your playing not the laughing

Me - 3:46:36 pm

I know yore kidding

Me - 3:48:06 pm

Then I did an ulnar nerve, playing in the free jazz band. About 2008? Had to relearn to play

Me - 3:48:15 pm

With just 2 fingers

Me - 3:48:55 pm

Maybe 2006?? Can't remember

Diana - 3:49:52 pm

Hmm

Diana - 3:49:52 pm

Jazz'll do that to your nerves

Me - 3:50:31 pm

Hahaha

Me - 3:50:37 pm

Real nerves

Me - 3:50:45 pm

Physical ones too

Me - 3:50:48 pm

Haha

Diana - 3:51:14 pm

I forgot to buy seeds!!!

Me - 3:51:28 pm

Holy shit!!

Me - 3:51:34 pm

Starvation

Diana - 3:51:43 pm

no laughing matter

Diana - 3:52:00 pm

You remember the effort required to go shopping with kids?? Argh

Diana - 3:52:00 pm

Ok I need a shower to clear my head

Me - 4:08:47 pm

After your shower: Did you really think the new massage brochure was ok? Seems very feminine, but I guess that's the better option. I'd like a brutally honest opinion.

Diana - 4:17:36 pm

Well to be honest I'm too scared to criticise anything your daughter has done!

Diana - 4:17:36 pm

but yea it's fine

Diana - 4:17:36 pm

It'll do the trick for sure

Diana - 4:17:36 pm

It's very feminine but your clients are going to be mostly female so that works

Diana - 4:17:36 pm

I see you slipped into work mode :)

Me - 4:21:43 pm

Yeah. I need more time with you, for the relax stuff to rub off. Still, pretty good to relax for this long I reckon. :-)

Diana - 4:21:52 pm

Next time wine must be included and music listening :)

Me - 4:22:17 pm

I've got wine

Diana - 4:21:52 pm

I'm not that good at it you know

Me - 4:22:21 pm

One

Diana - 4:21:52 pm

The water is really all that helps me do it

Diana - 4:21:52 pm

It's ok I only need one glass

Diana - 4:21:52 pm

I'll have to drive

Me - 4:22:44 pm

Yeah! A surf works for me

Me - 4:22:47 pm

Bye

Me - 4:22:54 pm

Have a fun party

Diana - 4:21:52 pm

No I mean one glass will be enough cause I'll have to drive

Me - 4:23:06 pm

Oh ok

Me - 4:23:29 pm

Otherwise you have to drink at home

Me - 4:24:36 pm

So, really, brochure is ok? Criticism is ok. Didn't mean I'll necessarily agree, but another opinion is good

Me - 4:24:54 pm

But don't want to bother you

Me - 4:24:59 pm

You're busy

Me - 4:25:17 pm

It's cool. It's good enough

Diana - 4:25:38 pm

I think it's fine

Diana - 4:25:40 pm

Really

Diana - 4:25:47 pm

Just put it up and see how you go

Diana - 4:26:07 pm

I could drink at home and we could text eachother what we're listening to

Diana - 4:28:16 pm

I would say just start massaging

Me - 4:36:35 pm

I agree. With the massaging advice.

Me - 4:37:54 pm

I don't agree with the music. Got to be together to listen to the music. We'll have to make do with just one glass. Somehow.

Diana - 4:38:56 pm

I could prob drive on two

Diana - 4:39:45 pm

Or sleep on your couch

Me - 4:39:48 pm

After 2, you'd have to let yourself out. I'd be asleep

Diana - 4:39:49 pm

But I'm not sure about that

Diana - 4:39:57 pm

We seem to be regressing

Diana - 4:40:00 pm

Haha ok

Diana - 4:40:03 pm

I'll let myself out

Me - 4:40:44 pm

I have 26.8 days of music on my iPod! Enough?

Me - 4:40:57 pm

Just transferred the national

Diana - 4:41:04 pm

Pfft beginner status ;)

Me - 4:41:13 pm

Haha

Me - 4:41:54 pm

Ok, deal! I have wine, you bring your iPod.

Me - 4:42:19 pm

Next week! A night with no kid responsibility

Diana - 4:42:19 pm

I don't have much on my iPod

Me - 4:42:28 pm

Computer

Diana - 4:42:32 pm

It's all on my phone and computers

Diana - 4:42:36 pm

Randomly placed

Diana - 4:42:44 pm

That's why I ran out of iCloud storage

Diana - 4:43:05 pm

I'll bring my phone, that'll be more than enough to get through a glass of wine

Me - 4:43:22 pm

Ahem! One glass. Haha

Me - 4:43:34 pm

Slow glass. Haha

Diana - 4:43:12 pm

Yes.

Diana - 4:43:12 pm

I think one glass should suffice

Me - 4:43:57 pm

Let's do it!

Diana - 4:44:03 pm

Actually lets knock it back to none

Me - 4:44:34 pm

Yeah, I have chocolate too. Did I mention? Haha

Me - 4:44:46 pm

Swiss or something

Me - 4:45:19 pm

I'm allergic to wine anyway. Now. :-(

Me - 4:45:47 pm

When's the party?

Me - 4:47:03 pm

Starting, Alligator

Diana - 4:47:24 pm

Oh man

Diana - 4:47:28 pm

You're becoming one of my food enemies!!

Diana - 4:47:28 pm

Why oh why do people want to please me through food??????????

Diana - 4:47:28 pm

Look up Ryan Adams also if you don't already know him

Diana - 4:47:28 pm

And one of my favorite junkies Mark Lanegan

Diana - 4:49:11 pm

Mark Lanegan the grave diggers song

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=zP5GWYXp4d0

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Do this and tell me what you think

Diana - 4:49:36 pm

Junkies are mostly always geniuses

Diana - 4:50:53 pm

Too hurt geniuses

Diana - 4:51:44 pm

Of course some are just complete vampiric arseholes

Diana - 4:51:44 pm

It's generally a mix of the two

Me - 4:52:02 pm

Shhh. Listening :)

Me - 4:58:12 pm

That's fucking awesome! Love dark music like that. The video is stark.

Me - 4:58:46 pm

If you like dark them I've got dark...

Me - 4:58:59 pm

Finding link...

Me - 5:00:16 pm

http://www.endsongs.com/music/GoodbyeIsForever.mp3

Me - 5:00:16 pm

Be nice.... I was your age (exactly)

Me - 5:02:24 pm

back to the national...

Diana - 5:02:24 pm

I have to be careful with dark

Diana - 5:02:24 pm

Especially around the kids

Diana - 5:02:24 pm

That's why the national were a good compromise

Diana - 5:02:24 pm

Really the most 'up' I get

Me - 5:03:23 pm

This one is me dark. Maybe listen later

Diana - 5:02:24 pm

Apart from 1D and the kids make me listen to

Me - 5:03:57 pm

Now, that's dark!!! :)

Me - 5:05:46 pm

Haven't looked at that web site for years. Lots of music there. I even did a video. "37 minutes if nothing" haha And it was !

Diana - 5:05:47 pm

Looking in the revision mirror seeings kids singing and dancing is what life is made of

Diana - 5:05:55 pm

Much more powerful than dark

Me - 5:06:09 pm

Yeah

Diana - 5:17:20 pm

Imogen and I just listened to it

Me - 5:18:11 pm

:-)

Me - 5:18:32 pm

So cool sharing music with your kids

Me - 5:19:40 pm

I'm watching my 37 minutes of nothing video. Haha. Exciting! I saw a duck!! Wahoo!

Diana - 5:20:41 pm

Good evening to paddle

Me - 5:21:12 pm

Suggestion or order? :)

Me - 5:21:23 pm

Good here

Me - 5:21:32 pm

A bit cold now

Me - 5:21:39 pm

Sw wind

Me - 5:24:03 pm

I need a house by the surf! Walk to a break. Had a house like that once. Put your wetsuit on in the lounge and walk to the surf. Awesome feeling. And come home freezing and take the wetsuit off in a hot shower. Bliss!

Diana - 5:27:56 pm

You reminisce a lot

Diana - 5:28:00 pm

Do you know that?

Me - 5:28:13 pm

Stories

Me - 5:28:20 pm

Stories are good

Diana - 5:28:00 pm

Joel's dad just invited us all to his 40th in a fortnight

Diana - 5:28:00 pm

They are

Diana - 5:28:00 pm

But just get out on the lake and make some new ones

Me - 5:28:46 pm

It's how you share stuff

Me - 5:28:52 pm

I am

Me - 5:29:16 pm

Not necessarily out on the lake tonight

Me - 5:29:19 pm

:)

Me - 5:32:33 pm

We make new stories every day, but it's only later when we find out if they are good, worthwhile ones.

Me - 5:32:43 pm

Philosophizing over :)

Diana - 5:38:53 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:39:03 pm

I wasn't meaning to be rude

Diana - 5:39:05 pm

Now

Me - 5:39:21 pm

I know

Diana - 5:39:31 pm

If you do get a house on the beach will you get a spare Room? ;)

Me - 5:39:39 pm

Never thought you were :-)

Me - 5:39:55 pm

I'd need 3 wouldn't i?

Me - 5:40:01 pm

:)

Diana - 5:40:17 pm

I didn't want to be greedy

Diana - 5:40:21 pm

The kids and I can share

Diana - 5:40:38 pm

One of the mums is dropping Imogen home so I can now have some wine :))

Me - 5:41:09 pm

No comment :)

Diana - 5:42:05 pm

About the kids or the wine

Me - 5:43:09 pm

Both.

Diana - 5:43:39 pm

Pfft

Me - 5:43:49 pm

Maybe I should open that bottle I have? You know, if you can't beat them join them.

Me - 5:43:53 pm

:)

Me - 5:44:17 pm

No work tonight then. A god thing

Diana - 5:44:22 pm

Best we don't drink I think

Me - 5:44:24 pm

Good thing

Diana - 5:44:26 pm

Nope day off

Me - 5:44:45 pm

Just don't text and drink haha

Me - 5:44:55 pm

Say inappropriate things

Diana - 5:45:04 pm

Exactly

Me - 5:45:32 pm

It's not my bottle anyway

Me - 5:45:37 pm

It's my son's

Diana - 5:45:04 pm

That's why we shouldn't drink on our music night either

Diana - 5:55:44 pm

You know when people talk at you?

Diana - 5:55:44 pm

That's happening to me now

Me - 5:56:28 pm

With who?

Diana - 5:55:44 pm

My cousin

Me - 5:56:47 pm

Cleaning cousin?

Diana - 5:55:44 pm

I escaped to the toilet and now Joel is calling my name.

Diana - 5:55:44 pm

Too much info ;)

Diana - 5:55:44 pm

My sister is cleaning

Me - 5:57:05 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:57:16 pm

My cousin is the Italian japanese teacher

Me - 5:57:30 pm

Sorry, forgot. So much family ;)

Diana - 5:57:37 pm

Doing the masters instead of Losing weight

Diana - 5:57:42 pm

It's totally cool

Me - 5:59:04 pm

You really need my lake don't you! Just paddle out into the middle and sit there. Or hand stand there :)

Me - 5:59:26 pm

It's cold again!!

Me - 5:59:36 pm

Heater again. Sigh

Diana - 6:19:12 pm

Yea I do

Diana - 6:19:12 pm

I've already downed one glass

Me - 6:20:49 pm

So, why can't I have one too?

Diana - 7:08:16 pm

You can

Diana - 7:08:16 pm

Let's go :)

Diana - 7:08:16 pm

I've almost finished my second glass!!

Diana - 7:08:16 pm

You've got some catching up to do :)

Diana - 7:11:05 pm

I'm heading home in a bunitj

Diana - 7:11:08 pm

Minute!

Diana - 7:11:15 pm

You're too have caught up by then

Me - 7:30:35 pm

Am I really doing this!!

Diana - 7:29:36 pm

Are you asleep or lost on the lake?

Diana - 7:29:36 pm

Yes!!!

Diana - 7:31:04 pm

Cmon 2 back to back :)

Me - 7:31:25 pm

Slippery slope, Diana!

Diana - 7:31:28 pm

How's the wine glass?

Diana - 7:31:34 pm

Haha! Exactly!

Me - 7:31:36 pm

Whiskey tomorrow.

Me - 7:31:49 pm

Don't have any I think

Diana - 7:31:44 pm

Cocaine day 3 ;)

Me - 7:31:54 pm

Glasses

Me - 7:32:04 pm

Acid day 4

Me - 7:32:21 pm

No wine glasses

Diana - 7:31:44 pm

Haha! Mushrooms :))

Me - 7:33:07 pm

Wait on! Let's get though 1 glass of wine first

Me - 7:33:12 pm

:)

Diana - 7:33:22 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:33:39 pm

There I go again with the sequel

Me - 7:34:02 pm

I used to have a problem with this stuff. Although, little problem

Me - 7:34:16 pm

Helped me too much get through the evenings

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

Well you don't have the same stuff to get through anymore

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

So it'll be fine

Me - 7:34:57 pm

TV or music?

Me - 7:35:04 pm

TV at the moment

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

I used to use stuff to get through life too

Me - 7:35:21 pm

It's easy isn't it

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

Tv for me too

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

Until Kids are in bed

Diana - 7:33:52 pm

What's easy?

Me - 7:35:44 pm

Using stuff to get though

Me - 7:35:47 pm

Through

Diana - 7:35:55 pm

Not when its actually killing you

Me - 7:36:01 pm

No

Diana - 7:36:00 pm

Or making you live on the streets

Me - 7:36:08 pm

No

Diana - 7:36:00 pm

It's one glass

Diana - 7:36:00 pm

Relax

Diana - 7:36:00 pm

Enjoy it

Me - 7:36:59 pm

I need to hear the "street stories" too. Sometime.

Diana - 7:36:00 pm

Pfft

Diana - 7:37:59 pm

Not that interesting

Diana - 7:38:02 pm

Not that long

Diana - 7:38:07 pm

That's the reason I got clean

Me - 7:38:13 pm

You say that about everything

Diana - 7:38:08 pm

I couldn't do serous crime or sell my arse on the street

Diana - 7:38:08 pm

Cause it's true about everything

Diana - 7:38:08 pm

Especially me

Me - 7:38:46 pm

Talk, not text for this

Diana - 7:38:08 pm

I want a pic of the empty glass!

Me - 7:39:05 pm

You've got a lot of talking to do!

Me - 7:41:16 pm

Progressing...

Diana - 7:40:47 pm

Ha!

Diana - 7:40:53 pm

I prefer not to reminisce

Diana - 7:41:05 pm

Surely you've picked up on that by now

Me - 7:41:56 pm

Yes, I have. That's why I keep asking. :)

Me - 7:42:31 pm

Forgive me for whatever I say the rest of the evening.

Diana - 7:42:37 pm

Me too!

Diana - 7:42:49 pm

Let us present the disclaimer from this moment forth!

Me - 7:42:53 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:43:24 pm

I have to decide

Me - 7:43:30 pm

But! I'm still watching a science program

Diana - 7:43:34 pm

Do I have another glass now I'm home

Me - 7:43:37 pm

Sigh

Me - 7:43:41 pm

Yes!!!

Diana - 7:43:44 pm

Well I'm still waiting for a child

Me - 7:43:55 pm

Ok. Wait for a bit

Me - 7:43:58 pm

No hurry

Diana - 7:44:11 pm

That's another 80 calories!

Diana - 7:44:14 pm

Ah fuck it

Diana - 7:44:17 pm

I'm pouring it now

Me - 7:44:20 pm

Fuck the calories

Me - 7:44:24 pm

I agree

Me - 7:44:28 pm

For now

Diana - 7:44:32 pm

I'm fucked for next weeks wow abyway

Diana - 7:44:32 pm

I swear when I'm drinking

Me - 7:44:46 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:44:32 pm

I take a perverse pleasure in it

Me - 7:44:51 pm

Ok

Me - 7:44:57 pm

I say ok

Me - 7:45:00 pm

Haha

Diana - 7:45:13 pm

You always do

Diana - 7:45:18 pm

Peace keeper ;)

Me - 7:45:28 pm

Is that good or not?

Me - 7:45:45 pm

I do try to avoid conforontarion

Me - 7:45:54 pm

Is that a word? Haha

Me - 7:46:03 pm

New word discovered

Diana - 7:46:20 pm

My goldfish bowl

Diana - 7:46:20 pm

Yes it is now!

Diana - 7:46:21 pm

No it's not good!

Diana - 7:46:24 pm

I thought you liked an argument!

Diana - 7:46:40 pm

But worse still, it causes you to be untrue to yourself

Diana - 7:46:40 pm

And not trust the universe with the relationship

Diana - 7:47:06 pm

You're trying to control outcomes

Diana - 7:47:11 pm

So my guess is no

Diana - 7:47:16 pm

But it's hard not to go

Diana - 7:47:18 pm

Do

Diana - 7:47:32 pm

I people please too sometimes cause well, you've got to pick your fights

Me - 7:48:04 pm

I'm not just agreeing with you, but I know you're right and it drives me nuts

Diana - 7:48:05 pm

But what do I know

Diana - 7:48:08 pm

Nothing really

Me - 7:48:14 pm

You do

Diana - 7:48:15 pm

Especially about relationships

Diana - 7:48:27 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 7:48:39 pm

I drive you nuts or that I'm right drives you nuts??

Me - 7:48:46 pm

Not you

Me - 7:48:49 pm

Me

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

My poor phone can't keep up!

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

Really?

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

I do?

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

Oh dear

Me - 7:49:15 pm

I drive me nuts trying to please all the time

Me - 7:49:28 pm

Not you!!!

Diana - 7:49:39 pm

Then why do you do it?

Me - 7:49:48 pm

I usually run away to avoid scenes

Me - 7:49:50 pm

No

Me - 7:49:53 pm

Actually

Me - 7:49:59 pm

To avoid rejection

Me - 7:50:09 pm

There i said it!!!

Me - 7:50:17 pm

What keeps me awake at night

Me - 7:50:34 pm

Not rejection from ransoms

Me - 7:50:39 pm

Randoms

Me - 7:51:00 pm

From those I open up to

Diana - 7:50:56 pm

Avoidance of rejection keeps you awake at night?

Me - 7:51:13 pm

I really don't talk

Me - 7:51:16 pm

Really

Diana - 7:50:56 pm

But you were in a relationship for so long

Me - 7:51:26 pm

And that's the reason

Diana - 7:51:47 pm

From lovers or friends

Me - 7:51:56 pm

Pleasing and avoidNce

Diana - 7:52:09 pm

Hang on Imogen is here

Me - 7:52:13 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:52:13 pm

I'll out her to bed

Diana - 7:52:24 pm

Drink more while I am gone and so will I :)

Me - 7:52:29 pm

Ha

Diana - 7:54:15 pm

You fear rejection because of your wife?

Diana - 7:54:20 pm

I don't believe I am loveable.

Me - 7:54:21 pm

No

Diana - 7:54:25 pm

I don't believe I am enough

Diana - 7:54:30 pm

So I never stay to find out

Diana - 7:54:34 pm

So why?

Diana - 7:54:39 pm

Why do you fear it?

Me - 7:54:40 pm

Long history of rejection

Diana - 7:54:53 pm

Really? Starting with dad Huh

Me - 7:55:01 pm

ProbBly

Diana - 7:55:06 pm

Hmm

Me - 7:55:07 pm

Not mother

Diana - 7:55:12 pm

Hmm

Diana - 7:55:12 pm

I think some more history is required for me to assess that ;)

Me - 7:55:32 pm

A few women that I really cared for

Diana - 7:55:12 pm

Ok

Me - 7:55:44 pm

Most

Me - 7:55:48 pm

If not all

Me - 7:55:50 pm

Haha

Me - 7:55:52 pm

Sigh

Diana - 7:55:12 pm

But I thought you left 'kate'

Diana - 7:56:18 pm

So you left before she could reject you

Me - 7:56:23 pm

No. Fiction that bit

Me - 7:56:28 pm

Yep

Me - 7:56:39 pm

BeChse I wa sure she would

Diana - 7:56:43 pm

And that is why we both get along so well

Me - 7:56:47 pm

And she did

Diana - 7:56:48 pm

We are frightened souls

Me - 7:56:54 pm

Exactly

Me - 7:57:07 pm

See why I was so upset at last weekend now?

Me - 7:57:11 pm

Rejection

Me - 7:57:19 pm

After opening up

Me - 7:57:23 pm

Talking

Me - 7:58:12 pm

Even as Good friend

Diana - 7:58:46 pm

Yes I see

Diana - 7:58:54 pm

It wasn't meant as rejection

Diana - 7:58:58 pm

But that doesn't make it ok

Me - 7:59:01 pm

I know now

Diana - 7:59:07 pm

Just let me put Imogen to bed

Me - 7:59:12 pm

Ok

Me - 7:59:21 pm

I'll get glass 2

Me - 8:02:43 pm

No. 2

Diana - 8:01:36 pm

How's it going down?

Me - 8:03:14 pm

Feel odd! Haha

Me - 8:03:19 pm

Drunk already

Me - 8:03:24 pm

:)

Me - 8:03:36 pm

One glass and I'm anybody's

Me - 8:04:49 pm

I remember this feeling :)

Diana - 8:05:34 pm

Haha! Anybody's Huh!

Me - 8:06:26 pm

Low battery solution

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

I felt rejected too last week

Me - 8:06:26 pm

Did you?

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

You told me to come over but sleep somewhere else!

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

Imogen is a little wound up but in bed

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

I used my serious voice

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

We have a big day tomorrow

Me - 8:06:36 pm

That was embarrassment

Me - 8:06:47 pm

And trying to please

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

I just had to do the same thing

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

Plug in

Me - 8:07:12 pm

I wanted you to come here

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

You were smart though

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

You wanted me to come without risking rejection

Me - 8:07:31 pm

Yep

Me - 8:07:40 pm

Planned to fail

Me - 8:08:47 pm

Every time, after a similar thing to Monday I would have run away.

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

Monday? After training?

Me - 8:09:14 pm

This time, it seemed important to not

Me - 8:09:21 pm

Yes after training

Me - 8:09:30 pm

Not run away

Me - 8:09:37 pm

Wow. Wine!!!

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

Well where could you run?

Me - 8:09:54 pm

avoidance

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

We have a lot of pressure from everyone to finish this really don't we

Diana - 8:10:02 pm

I wanted to run too

Me - 8:10:10 pm

Pressure?

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

I wanted to run Saturday night after you told me to sleep in the spare bed

Me - 8:10:49 pm

And you didn't! That was a BIG mistake

Me - 8:11:01 pm

A sorry that was wrong

Me - 8:11:15 pm

Let me say it again!!!

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

A mistake that I didn't run?

Me - 8:11:30 pm

You didn't run away. That's good

Me - 8:11:47 pm

That I asked you to stay in the spare bed was As mistake

Me - 8:11:49 pm

Phew

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

Oh right!

Me - 8:11:57 pm

Fingers too slow

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

It worked out for the best though

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

Don't you think?

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

Really

Me - 8:12:20 pm

Really?

Diana - 8:12:35 pm

Well yes

Diana - 8:12:46 pm

You said you weren't ready for anything physical

Me - 8:12:51 pm

I guess. Expectations are zero

Diana - 8:12:56 pm

I would have come knowing it was not the right thing to do

Diana - 8:13:19 pm

So your boundary stopped something from happening that shouldn't happen

Diana - 8:13:26 pm

It was a blessing reply

Diana - 8:13:28 pm

Really

Me - 8:14:14 pm

Yes, I'm not quite ready for that. I think. But, for me, it's a bit scary.

Me - 8:14:28 pm

I'm not that different from you in that regard

Me - 8:14:48 pm

It's dangerous really opening up

Me - 8:14:55 pm

Really opening nip

Me - 8:14:58 pm

Up

Diana - 8:15:11 pm

Nip ;)

Diana - 8:15:24 pm

I think it was for the best

Diana - 8:15:47 pm

I think I would have wanted to sleep with you but then regretted it

Diana - 8:15:52 pm

Do you know what I mean?

Me - 8:15:59 pm

Yes

Diana - 8:16:00 pm

Not regretted it cause I don't like you

Diana - 8:16:07 pm

Regretted it cause it's not right

Me - 8:17:51 pm

I wanted/still want to be really close to you. I think sex is the absolute last thing. Only works, for me, once everything else is really solid. Old fashioned? Maybe.

Diana - 8:18:13 pm

Haha yep old fashioned

Me - 8:18:19 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:18:28 pm

It's right though

Diana - 8:18:36 pm

Can't say I've ever done things that way though

Me - 8:18:37 pm

I know it is

Diana - 8:18:40 pm

But I can't go there you know that right?

Me - 8:18:56 pm

Yes

Diana - 8:18:40 pm

I kind of thought in a way, that we would fuck maybe and then it would be out of our systems

Diana - 8:19:15 pm

On Saturday night

Diana - 8:19:33 pm

Anyway it didn't happen

Diana - 8:19:39 pm

Then all that shit happened

Diana - 8:20:04 pm

And I came to realise that if you were 20 years younger Id fall for you in a heart beat

Diana - 8:20:24 pm

But that it's not sustainable with the age difference

Me - 8:20:30 pm

That's awesome to know. Thanks. Seriously

Diana - 8:20:36 pm

So you were right to not let anything happen

Diana - 8:20:44 pm

Hahahaha! What's awesome to know

Me - 8:20:48 pm

Sustainable?

Diana - 8:20:48 pm

We shouldn't be doing this over texting

Diana - 8:20:48 pm

But it's the only place well have the balls to do it I guess

Me - 8:21:12 pm

That you "would" fall for me. The real me

Diana - 8:21:32 pm

Now you can let it go right?

Me - 8:21:35 pm

No

Diana - 8:21:39 pm

You have the 'badge'

Me - 8:21:43 pm

No

Diana - 8:21:52 pm

It's ok

Diana - 8:21:56 pm

I expected that

Diana - 8:22:10 pm

Once i told you it would be a win and you could walk

Me - 8:22:15 pm

Expected what?

Me - 8:22:16 pm

No

Me - 8:23:16 pm

I haven't changed in that regard.

Me - 8:23:31 pm

I'm not interested in a badge

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

In what regard?

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

And what's changed?

Me - 8:23:47 pm

Interested in you!

Me - 8:24:10 pm

Typing is hard now haha

Diana - 8:24:16 pm

Hahaha

Me - 8:24:19 pm

But keep going

Diana - 8:24:18 pm

Use Siri

Me - 8:24:27 pm

A woman?

Me - 8:24:32 pm

No way!!

Me - 8:24:34 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:24:35 pm

Whoa I've eaten and texted too much

Diana - 8:24:39 pm

And said

Diana - 8:24:42 pm

Too much

Me - 8:26:04 pm

Why is 18 years too much? I can sort of unsestand. But tell me. Other than simply "complex"

Me - 8:26:26 pm

Whatever you say won't change things

Diana - 8:26:34 pm

Are you serious?

Me - 8:26:37 pm

Still want to hang out

Me - 8:26:41 pm

At least

Diana - 8:26:41 pm

Tell me what you think they might be

Me - 8:27:01 pm

What? Problems?

Me - 8:27:13 pm

Heaps of problems

Diana - 8:27:12 pm

Well for one night there wouldn't be ;)

Me - 8:27:29 pm

Maybe impossible

Me - 8:27:37 pm

Not one night

Me - 8:27:51 pm

At the moment looks impossible

Me - 8:28:10 pm

But i always think solutions can be found

Me - 8:28:18 pm

Problem with me haha

Diana - 8:28:23 pm

If it looks impossible why would you go there?

Me - 8:28:28 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:28:37 pm

I'm being serious

Diana - 8:28:47 pm

Kind of setting yourself up

Me - 8:29:01 pm

Because it may not be impossible until you try to solve individual problems

Me - 8:29:36 pm

Too many things in the future anyway!

Me - 8:29:49 pm

Just getting to Monday is "impossible"

Diana - 8:29:20 pm

Ok then

Me - 8:30:33 pm

My wish is to just go slow. See how far it gets and stop at the actual impossible problem

Me - 8:30:51 pm

Then leave "reLtionship" at that stage

Me - 8:31:01 pm

Whatever that is

Diana - 8:31:04 pm

Wow that's calculated

Diana - 8:31:20 pm

You are able to walk when you think a problem is coming?

Me - 8:31:30 pm

apart from the age difference we're perfect I reckon.

Me - 8:31:34 pm

Walk?

Me - 8:31:43 pm

No walking

Me - 8:31:55 pm

Just stop and stay at that place

Diana - 8:31:28 pm

Perfect?

Diana - 8:31:28 pm

Compatibility is good

Me - 8:32:06 pm

Yes

Diana - 8:31:28 pm

Right ok

Diana - 8:31:28 pm

It's never that simple though right

Me - 8:32:31 pm

Of course!!!

Me - 8:32:35 pm

:)

Me - 8:32:51 pm

Smiley face assumed with everything I say haha

Me - 8:32:56 pm

:)

Diana - 8:33:15 pm

Ok!

Diana - 8:33:24 pm

Let me go back and read everything with a smiley face attached!

Me - 8:33:31 pm

I'm not running Away

Me - 8:33:49 pm

Somehow. You're difdernt

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

There's no where to run, we're stuck in the Same gym ;)

Me - 8:34:00 pm

I don't know why yet

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

Haha! Different as in fucked ip?

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

Up

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

Just as much as you ;)

Me - 8:34:29 pm

Compatibly fucked up.

Me - 8:34:38 pm

And that's it

Diana - 8:33:36 pm

Ha! We've solved it!

Me - 8:35:04 pm

Yep!

Me - 8:35:06 pm

See

Me - 8:35:13 pm

Science works gaha

Diana - 8:35:19 pm

As we sit here simultaneously drinking wine in our own homes

Me - 8:35:25 pm

Well

Diana - 8:35:30 pm

We've found the compatibility aspect!

Me - 8:35:38 pm

That's the necessity

Me - 8:35:47 pm

and I'm happy with thAt

Diana - 8:35:44 pm

We're both damaged fucked ip people totally fearful of rejection!

Diana - 8:35:44 pm

Who like deadlifts and music!

Me - 8:36:17 pm

Don't make it sound "too" bad hAha

Diana - 8:35:44 pm

I think it sounds cool

Me - 8:36:40 pm

I'll tell you my next big "step"

Me - 8:36:45 pm

With you

Me - 8:36:48 pm

Simple

Diana - 8:35:44 pm

Please??

Me - 8:36:53 pm

Hugs

Me - 8:36:56 pm

That's Ll

Me - 8:36:59 pm

All

Me - 8:37:04 pm

Cuddles

Diana - 8:35:44 pm

Haha!!

Me - 8:37:20 pm

I know

Diana - 8:35:44 pm

You've planned it all Huh?

Me - 8:37:21 pm

Big step!!!

Me - 8:37:33 pm

Takes 2 to 3 years I've heard

Me - 8:37:37 pm

HHa

Diana - 8:37:40 pm

That's a bigger step than a fuck

Diana - 8:37:50 pm

Requires more intimacy

Me - 8:37:57 pm

Haha Lofty heights then

Me - 8:38:02 pm

I know

Me - 8:38:07 pm

That's why I like them

Me - 8:38:18 pm

Anyway

Me - 8:38:24 pm

I can dream

Me - 8:38:29 pm

:)

Diana - 8:37:52 pm

Why don't you like sex?

Diana - 8:37:52 pm

What's the aversion?

Me - 8:39:37 pm

That needs talking. Had a wife who didn't like sex. So, it's been a while

Me - 8:39:42 pm

I love sex

Me - 8:39:53 pm

It scares me though, at the moment

Me - 8:39:59 pm

It won't

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

Why?

Me - 8:40:03 pm

:)

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

We aren't having sex

Me - 8:40:12 pm

Intimacy

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

I'm just asking why

Me - 8:40:17 pm

I know

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

Can i tell you why it won't work with us?

Me - 8:40:35 pm

Why?

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

Precisely because we are both damages

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

Damaged

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

And I want the dream that's what I'm working towards

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

Self reflection years of therapy

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

It's been a long road from needles in my arm to yoga!

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

Lots of self harm along the way

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

I'm preparing for the dream

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

I want the life partner

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

The family

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

To live together

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

To have not more but share the children's we have together

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

To travel together

Diana - 8:42:08 pm

And be a family together

Diana - 8:42:11 pm

And be inloce

Diana - 8:42:17 pm

Love and be married

Diana - 8:42:22 pm

You're past all that

Diana - 8:42:25 pm

You've done it all

Diana - 8:42:29 pm

Had it all

Diana - 8:42:33 pm

Been there before

Diana - 8:42:36 pm

It's my turn now

Diana - 8:42:39 pm

Well soon

Diana - 8:42:43 pm

I believe

Diana - 8:42:56 pm

You're ready for Soneonw who has done it all too

Diana - 8:43:09 pm

So you Can reap those benefits of free time

Diana - 8:43:16 pm

To travel and be together and enjoy life

Diana - 8:43:22 pm

I'm not at that place

Diana - 8:43:28 pm

I'm in the midst of it all still

Diana - 8:43:36 pm

And I need someone at that same place

Diana - 8:43:48 pm

To be with me and me with them in it completely

Diana - 8:44:01 pm

All the annoying shit and the good shit

Diana - 8:44:13 pm

I want to be part of a family

Diana - 8:44:15 pm

A good one

Diana - 8:44:16 pm

Like one I've never had

Diana - 8:44:26 pm

And I want that for my kids

Diana - 8:44:38 pm

And I think soon I'll be ready to believe I'm worth it

Diana - 8:44:42 pm

That I deserve it

Diana - 8:44:57 pm

And that I'm not or never have been as fucked ip as I was told I was as a child

Diana - 8:45:04 pm

But wasted my whole life believing

Diana - 8:45:07 pm

Wow

Diana - 8:45:17 pm

That was more tiring that this weeks wow ;)

Diana - 8:45:22 pm

Have I put you to sleep?

Me - 8:45:27 pm

No

Me - 8:45:36 pm

Been listening

Me - 8:46:01 pm

I'd never want to upset your dreams

Me - 8:46:03 pm

But

Diana - 8:46:17 pm

There's always a but!!

Me - 8:46:31 pm

I don't know how you don't know I don't aNt a similar thing

Diana - 8:47:28 pm

Well for a start you told me you didn't ever want to live with someone again

Me - 8:47:40 pm

But you can't decide how you feel about someone

Me - 8:47:50 pm

It happens

Diana - 8:48:12 pm

That is fatalistic

Me - 8:48:15 pm

And "you" includes your kids

Diana - 8:48:24 pm

I want someone who wants what I want

Diana - 8:48:31 pm

That's the only way it would work

Diana - 8:48:32 pm

Can you really see yourself hanging with young kids again?

Diana - 8:49:00 pm

And besides I think your son gave me a weird stay away from my dad look today ;)

Me - 8:49:19 pm

Raeally?

Me - 8:49:35 pm

I didn't see that

Diana - 8:49:46 pm

It was probably the pre workout affecting my brain

Me - 8:50:35 pm

I have no answer to what you've said. Not immediately. Other than I feel we're good together.

Me - 8:50:51 pm

And I know that's not enough for you

Diana - 8:50:40 pm

Exactly

Me - 8:51:19 pm

But do we need to reach the end point of the journey even before starting?

Diana - 8:51:27 pm

I have little little kids

Diana - 8:51:29 pm

Yes

Diana - 8:51:44 pm

You're the scientist you know that

Diana - 8:51:50 pm

And you know it won't work

Diana - 8:51:59 pm

You just have some fairytale in your head

Diana - 8:52:01 pm

Maybe

Me - 8:52:26 pm

I don't think so. But emotions are hard to understand

Diana - 8:52:33 pm

I don't know what to do

Diana - 8:52:37 pm

We get along so well

Diana - 8:52:43 pm

And I like talking to you heaps

Me - 8:52:55 pm

Exactly!!!!!

Diana - 8:52:48 pm

But we struggle to keep it as friends don't we

Me - 8:52:59 pm

Me too

Me - 8:53:17 pm

Don't give up on me!!

Diana - 8:52:48 pm

Even the texts stretch the boundaries

Diana - 8:52:48 pm

I'm not giving up on you

Me - 8:53:44 pm

Glass 3? Yes or no?

Diana - 8:53:49 pm

Like I said I'd jump you if you were younger ;)

Diana - 8:53:52 pm

Of course

Diana - 8:53:54 pm

:)

Diana - 8:54:04 pm

Though I think I'm going to be sick

Diana - 8:54:07 pm

Music?

Diana - 8:54:15 pm

What are we going to listen to?

Me - 8:56:01 pm

You don't know me yet. Not really. If it's just the age difference then I think that's wrong. I'm not sure what I want really. If I fall in love with you then anything is possible.

Me - 8:56:26 pm

Of course $ is an issue haha

Diana - 8:56:36 pm

Haha!

Diana - 8:56:52 pm

We both have places to go if it was really a priority

Me - 8:57:17 pm

Getting wine....

Diana - 8:57:04 pm

It's not wrong if it's about the age difference, it is realistic

Diana - 8:57:04 pm

You've got your head in the sand

Diana - 8:57:04 pm

In the nicest easy

Diana - 8:57:04 pm

Way

Diana - 8:57:04 pm

You should have just fucked me Saturday night and got it out of your system

Diana - 8:58:10 pm

I've had too much wine

Diana - 8:58:31 pm

Just think of your gains after 3 wines!

Me - 8:58:48 pm

I can hardly see straight haha

Me - 8:59:05 pm

I think you're wrong

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

Do you know I spend most of my time lying on floor boards rather than the couch

Diana - 9:00:24 pm

I'm often here on the hard surface and wonder why

Diana - 9:00:29 pm

:/

Me - 9:01:10 pm

I think you're making decisions for me based on little information. We need to talk more before this issue can be solved

Me - 9:01:34 pm

I dont want you making decisions on a series if texts

Diana - 9:01:20 pm

Making what decisions? That we are at different places in life? Seriously?

Me - 9:02:02 pm

No

Diana - 9:01:20 pm

When I'm ready to chill like you are now you'll be 80 and I'll have to put you on the front of my paddle board and take you out to the waves ;))

Me - 9:02:17 pm

That's just an age thing

Diana - 9:01:20 pm

What else then?

Diana - 9:02:44 pm

Bahahahahaha! Oh we are deleting these... Promise?

Me - 9:02:45 pm

80. I'll still be faster than you! Haha

Diana - 9:02:56 pm

You're not faster than me now!

Me - 9:03:05 pm

Race?

Me - 9:03:13 pm

Where? Haha

Diana - 9:03:17 pm

Sure lets time you on today's wow

Diana - 9:03:25 pm

Monday morning

Me - 9:03:34 pm

20kg?

Diana - 9:03:28 pm

Do you think that's fair?

Diana - 9:03:28 pm

Whatever weight you think is fair

Me - 9:04:00 pm

Not 50

Diana - 9:03:28 pm

You decide

Diana - 9:03:28 pm

Are we really seeing whether there's grounds for a relationship through a wow??? Oh my god what has my life become ;))

Me - 9:04:43 pm

:)

Diana - 9:05:27 pm

What are you going to do if you fall for all of your clients?

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

You're going to be busy texting that's for sure

Me - 9:05:43 pm

Haha

Me - 9:06:13 pm

I don't "fall" easily.

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

Well get a crush on then

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

I didn't mean you fallen for me

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

Just a crush is what I meant

Diana - 9:05:36 pm

Did you write that song when your wife left?

Me - 9:08:17 pm

From my perspective, I don't want to lose you. I haven't connected like this with anyone for a very, very long time. I understand your problems with all of "this", and yet the feelings remain.

Me - 9:08:28 pm

Wrote lots of songs

Me - 9:08:54 pm

I work best in the depths of depression

Diana - 9:07:44 pm

All artists do

Me - 9:09:12 pm

If I'm happy I can't write anything

Me - 9:09:20 pm

Even books

Diana - 9:07:44 pm

Comfortability kills creativity

Diana - 9:07:44 pm

Don't you know that?

Me - 9:09:37 pm

You're stuffing up my writing hahaa

Diana - 9:09:52 pm

So you want to make a mess with me so you can get creative again?

Diana - 9:09:52 pm

Seriously?

Diana - 9:09:52 pm

Atleast partly

Me - 9:10:06 pm

Haha NO!!!!!

Me - 9:10:22 pm

Don't read stuff into things!

Diana - 9:09:52 pm

Hmm subconsciously maybe

Me - 9:10:28 pm

:)

Diana - 9:09:52 pm

I'm not

Me - 9:10:42 pm

God. I hope not

Diana - 9:09:52 pm

Well maybe I am

Me - 9:10:53 pm

How awful

Diana - 9:09:52 pm

But it's how I live

Diana - 9:09:52 pm

I don't know how to change it

Diana - 9:09:52 pm

It's who I am

Diana - 9:09:52 pm

I wish I could live on the surface more

Diana - 9:09:52 pm

Life would be a lot easier for me

Me - 9:11:51 pm

And that's why we get on, I think

Diana - 9:12:00 pm

Cause I'm difficult?

Me - 9:12:11 pm

And better in person

Diana - 9:12:00 pm

Intense hard work?

Me - 9:12:20 pm

Haha

Diana - 9:12:00 pm

In person is better I agree

Me - 9:12:48 pm

No. Superficial is boring and unimportant

Diana - 9:12:00 pm

You never answered my question about deletion

Diana - 9:12:00 pm

And yes I agree

Diana - 9:12:00 pm

Shit that's two in a row

Me - 9:13:30 pm

Haha! I'm changing you!!

Me - 9:13:39 pm

Works both ways

Diana - 9:12:00 pm

Pffft

Diana - 9:12:00 pm

Good luck with that

Me - 9:13:52 pm

That's what I said

Me - 9:13:55 pm

:)

Me - 9:14:05 pm

Or you said

Me - 9:14:10 pm

Or someone said

Diana - 9:14:15 pm

Who knows after wine?

Me - 9:14:20 pm

Exactly

Diana - 9:14:20 pm

You're anyone's

Diana - 9:14:23 pm

;)

Me - 9:14:53 pm

Lots is words

Me - 9:15:00 pm

Lots of words

Diana - 9:15:05 pm

I need someone to get me some water and help me to bed

Diana - 9:15:13 pm

So we are deleting

Diana - 9:15:16 pm

Promise?

Me - 9:15:23 pm

and I think I'll be upset once I think about it

Diana - 9:15:32 pm

Think about what?

Me - 9:15:36 pm

Us

Me - 9:15:42 pm

And the texts

Me - 9:15:45 pm

Tonight

Diana - 9:15:45 pm

Why?

Diana - 9:15:51 pm

I thought you liked them

Me - 9:16:02 pm

You think there's non future

Diana - 9:16:07 pm

Do you wish we hadn't of spoken tonight

Me - 9:16:12 pm

No

Diana - 9:16:15 pm

You knew that already though

Me - 9:16:19 pm

Difdernt result

Me - 9:16:28 pm

No I didn't

Diana - 9:16:33 pm

Yes you did

Diana - 9:16:39 pm

That's why you said juts friends

Diana - 9:16:43 pm

And at the gym

Me - 9:16:44 pm

You keep telling me that!

Diana - 9:16:48 pm

You agrees to it

Me - 9:16:50 pm

No

Diana - 9:16:54 pm

Agreed

Me - 9:16:56 pm

at least friends

Diana - 9:17:01 pm

Yes you did! You told me

Diana - 9:17:11 pm

Friends who run and hang out sometimes

Me - 9:17:13 pm

Friends as base line

Diana - 9:17:24 pm

And at the gym trainer client

Diana - 9:17:29 pm

I'm sorry

Me - 9:17:34 pm

In gym, yes

Diana - 9:17:43 pm

Do you want to not hang out at all then?

Me - 9:17:44 pm

I understand that requirement

Diana - 9:17:46 pm

And stop texting

Diana - 9:17:51 pm

It's ok if you do

Me - 9:17:53 pm

No no no no

Me - 9:18:10 pm

I want cuddles hahA

Diana - 9:18:14 pm

I don't want more than friends

Diana - 9:18:21 pm

I realised that after Saturday night

Diana - 9:18:24 pm

I mean I think about it

Diana - 9:18:56 pm

But then the age and where we are at In life kicks in and I realise its kind of crazy

Diana - 9:19:23 pm

If you had of let me come and stay and we fucked Saturday it could have got seriously messy

Me - 9:19:30 pm

yes

Diana - 9:19:35 pm

That was a good time for the 'dad' mode to come out

Me - 9:19:44 pm

That would have been difficult

Diana - 9:20:00 pm

So it is all for the best

Me - 9:20:18 pm

I really don't know that the stage in life is an issue.

Me - 9:20:26 pm

I don't know yet

Diana - 9:20:28 pm

Now you're only focus is keeping me in the top 10;)

Diana - 9:20:32 pm

It's not for you

Diana - 9:20:32 pm

But it is for me

Me - 9:20:45 pm

We don't know each other well enough

Me - 9:20:50 pm

All right

Diana - 9:20:32 pm

It's not about knowing

Diana - 9:20:32 pm

It's about facts

Diana - 9:21:04 pm

Cmon physicist

Diana - 9:21:11 pm

You've got your blinkers on

Me - 9:21:32 pm

Well, I disagree. But I'm. It going to argue after 3 wines

Diana - 9:21:47 pm

That's the most fun time to argue

Me - 9:21:51 pm

Haha

Me - 9:21:56 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:22:06 pm

We will both think we are right and then end up laughing

Diana - 9:22:17 pm

Well I hope that's what happens!

Me - 9:22:47 pm

I think it could work. But I don't know yet because we haven't explored the options. That's the physicist.

Diana - 9:22:40 pm

What options?

Diana - 9:22:40 pm

You're funny

Me - 9:23:12 pm

One step at a time.

Diana - 9:23:39 pm

Maybe you just like a chase? Being a runner and all ;)

Me - 9:23:52 pm

Instead of looking far in the distanxe and deciding it's impossible and not even starting

Diana - 9:23:59 pm

A hug would be nice now

Diana - 9:24:04 pm

And a glass of water

Diana - 9:24:14 pm

Cmon you're so logical

Diana - 9:24:27 pm

I find it incredible that you argue with me on this

Me - 9:24:30 pm

It's what you need!

Diana - 9:24:40 pm

Run it past one other person, any other person

Me - 9:24:45 pm

Logic

Diana - 9:24:48 pm

And I guarantee they will agree with me

Diana - 9:24:48 pm

What's what I need?

Diana - 9:24:48 pm

And pizza

Me - 9:25:28 pm

Logic in problem solving.

Diana - 9:24:48 pm

Pizza water and a hug

Me - 9:25:35 pm

Big problems

Me - 9:25:41 pm

Complex problems

Me - 9:25:49 pm

Impossible problems

Diana - 9:25:54 pm

You won't run it by anyone cause you now I'm right

Diana - 9:25:59 pm

Right?

Me - 9:26:02 pm

No

Diana - 9:26:17 pm

My dad is married to someone 20 years his junior

Diana - 9:26:29 pm

A young Philippino girl

Me - 9:26:33 pm

Ah! Now it comes out!!

Diana - 9:26:42 pm

Her choice was to starve or be controlled by him

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

I have a slightly better Base to begin with

Me - 9:27:01 pm

Do you think I would be controlling?

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

Both in you and the starvation ;)

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

No manipulative maybe

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

But not directly controlling

Diana - 9:26:56 pm

Do you think I'd be controlling?

Me - 9:27:52 pm

Really??? You do not know me haha. It's always been the other way for me

Diana - 9:28:02 pm

Hmm

Diana - 9:28:08 pm

Are you sure?

Me - 9:28:12 pm

Yes

Diana - 9:28:18 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:28:33 pm

You sulked when I didn't want you to go to yoga with me

Diana - 9:28:38 pm

That was manipulative

Me - 9:28:57 pm

It's not controlling if you want to share and modify your behaviour to please

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

You even used words like 'I'll get in the way' I always do' that's manipulative

Me - 9:29:09 pm

Yoga? Sulk? Nope!

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

It can be

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

If you're compromising on your true self

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Again, people pleasing

Me - 9:29:30 pm

Pleasing problem

Me - 9:29:33 pm

Yes

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

That's manipulation!!!!

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Arghh

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Don't you see that?

Me - 9:29:53 pm

No

Diana - 9:29:04 pm

Manipulation to achieve a certain outcome

Diana - 9:30:13 pm

Pleasing is a form of manipulation

Me - 9:30:17 pm

I really don't see it like that

Me - 9:30:21 pm

Opposite

Me - 9:30:30 pm

Complete opposite

Diana - 9:30:36 pm

It's a different manifestation of control

Me - 9:30:47 pm

I really want the other person to be happy

Diana - 9:30:52 pm

Fear- control- manipulation- manifested differently

Diana - 9:30:57 pm

At the cost of yourself

Diana - 9:31:01 pm

Martyrdom

Me - 9:31:08 pm

Yes at the cost to me

Diana - 9:31:10 pm

Oh we have so much to talk about!!

Me - 9:31:14 pm

I know it's a problem

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

That's Manipulation

Me - 9:31:30 pm

I think I'm getting better at it

Me - 9:31:36 pm

No it snot

Me - 9:31:39 pm

Haha

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

My defects are horrendous

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

Yea it is

Me - 9:31:47 pm

It's not

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

You just have to be open to seeing it differently

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

The word

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

And not take offence to it

Me - 9:32:11 pm

And yet, with the defects, here I am

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

You're manipulating outcomes

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

Mine are worse

Diana - 9:31:12 pm

I'm self centered

Diana - 9:32:32 pm

So so self centered

Diana - 9:32:35 pm

Insecure

Diana - 9:32:37 pm

Jealous

Diana - 9:32:44 pm

Afraid of rejection

Diana - 9:32:47 pm

I'm hideous

Diana - 9:32:54 pm

And passive aggressive

Me - 9:33:07 pm

Are we having a defect competition now?

Diana - 9:33:20 pm

And manipulative through my passiveness

Diana - 9:33:20 pm

No competition

Me - 9:33:26 pm

Trying to scare me away?

Diana - 9:33:20 pm

Just being honest

Diana - 9:33:20 pm

Not at all

Diana - 9:33:20 pm

Just revealing stuff

Diana - 9:33:20 pm

I'm getting better too

Me - 9:33:58 pm

What if attracted to defects? ;)

Diana - 9:33:20 pm

Then you're sick and need therapy :p

Diana - 9:33:20 pm

Its all about the 6th and 7th steps in na for me

Diana - 9:35:03 pm

List of character defects

Diana - 9:35:10 pm

And become willing to have them removed

Diana - 9:35:21 pm

I mean we hold onto them cause we think they're serving us

Me - 9:35:25 pm

6 and 7?

Diana - 9:35:27 pm

Even when they no longer do

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

And even harm us and our relationships

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

There's an embedde belief system that tells us they're still serving us

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

It takes so much courage to let them go

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

Anyway blah blah

Me - 9:36:17 pm

Well, then, let's help each other!

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

I'm talking too much again

Me - 9:36:36 pm

I talk too much in person. Go ahead

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

Always with the angle with you ;)

Diana - 9:35:28 pm

Nope I've said it all

Diana - 9:37:07 pm

Now I just want a hug and a lie down not on floor boards

Me - 9:37:35 pm

And yet, after all that.

Me - 9:37:41 pm

I still disagree

Diana - 9:37:36 pm

With what?

Diana - 9:37:36 pm

You make me laugh

Me - 9:38:02 pm

Everything negative, almost

Diana - 9:37:36 pm

I wrote nothing negative

Me - 9:38:24 pm

The optimist ( who is a pessimist) haha

Me - 9:38:31 pm

Yes you did

Diana - 9:37:36 pm

I didn't see it

Diana - 9:37:36 pm

Only being honest about my defects

Diana - 9:37:36 pm

And the age difference

Me - 9:39:07 pm

"I'm hideous"

Me - 9:39:14 pm

Negative?

Diana - 9:39:27 pm

I can be hideous is what I could have written

Diana - 9:39:32 pm

I really can be

Diana - 9:39:44 pm

I can also be incredibly loyal and loving

Diana - 9:39:44 pm

I'm ok with knowing my shit bits

Me - 9:40:02 pm

Like calling calling me. Fucking arsehole? :)

Diana - 9:39:44 pm

Yea see

Diana - 9:39:44 pm

I can be hideous

Diana - 9:39:44 pm

I am sorry for that

Diana - 9:39:44 pm

Feel free to pay me back

Me - 9:40:49 pm

It's not just pleasing that I'm here

Me - 9:40:56 pm

No pay back

Diana - 9:39:44 pm

I'm sure you will

Me - 9:41:07 pm

I don't do payback

Diana - 9:39:44 pm

I reckon you have a vault ;)

Me - 9:41:21 pm

I'm. It like that

Me - 9:41:36 pm

You really don't know me, not yet

Diana - 9:41:47 pm

Of course I don't

Me - 9:41:50 pm

I'm awesome!!! Haha

Diana - 9:41:51 pm

How could I ?

Diana - 9:41:52 pm

Hahahaha!

Me - 9:42:07 pm

I'm drunk too

Diana - 9:41:52 pm

Awesome and drunk!

Me - 9:42:20 pm

Another glass

Me - 9:42:24 pm

Lost count

Diana - 9:41:52 pm

Lucky it's not a kid free night!

Diana - 9:41:52 pm

You're up to no. 4

Diana - 9:41:52 pm

But they're small glasses ;)

Me - 9:42:46 pm

Well, no driving now

Me - 9:43:01 pm

Walking maybe

Me - 9:43:05 pm

:)

Diana - 9:41:52 pm

You're a runner ;)

Me - 9:43:26 pm

How far away are you? I could run. But if get lost hHa

Diana - 9:41:52 pm

Isn't it fun to run drunk

Me - 9:43:47 pm

And spend the night in the gutter

Diana - 9:44:03 pm

Oh why would you do that?

Me - 9:44:17 pm

Lost on the way to your place haha

Diana - 9:44:18 pm

There's a caravan park down the road ;)

Diana - 9:44:21 pm

;))

Me - 9:44:30 pm

More wine...

Diana - 9:44:38 pm

Do it

Diana - 9:44:40 pm

I can't

Diana - 9:44:49 pm

I can't drink anymore

Diana - 9:44:59 pm

Unless I start on tequila

Me - 9:45:17 pm

I nearly fell over

Me - 9:45:24 pm

Sitting now

Diana - 9:45:26 pm

Bahahahahaha!

Me - 9:45:28 pm

Safe haha

Diana - 9:45:31 pm

Wish I'd seen that!

Diana - 9:45:39 pm

Music?

Me - 9:45:52 pm

Week after next. Maybe

Diana - 9:46:02 pm

You're going to sleep like a baby tonight

Me - 9:46:11 pm

Drink baby?

Me - 9:46:15 pm

Drunk

Diana - 9:46:16 pm

What's week after next, me seeing you drunk?

Me - 9:46:25 pm

No kids week

Diana - 9:46:28 pm

You'll sleep like one

Me - 9:46:44 pm

Or has tonight killed that? I hope not.

Diana - 9:46:51 pm

Nope

Me - 9:47:06 pm

I really really like being with you

Diana - 9:47:08 pm

But we've established I need to come home I think

Diana - 9:47:15 pm

It's nice isn't it

Diana - 9:47:17 pm

Easy

Me - 9:47:20 pm

Fuck home

Me - 9:47:30 pm

I'm here already and it's boring

Diana - 9:47:37 pm

Haha! That's the spirit :)

Me - 9:49:01 pm

Let's see where this goes. My prefernce. If it stays at friendships, then that's ok by me. But let's nit kill things before they begin.

Diana - 9:49:10 pm

Want to hear a really really beautiful love song?

Me - 9:49:12 pm

Good typing

Me - 9:49:18 pm

Yes

Me - 9:49:23 pm

What is it?

Me - 9:49:36 pm

Love sad love songs

Me - 9:49:50 pm

I've written too many

Me - 9:49:53 pm

Haha

Diana - 9:50:01 pm

It's not a sad one

Diana - 9:50:05 pm

It's beautiful

Me - 9:50:12 pm

Ok

Me - 9:50:17 pm

Go on

Diana - 9:50:24 pm

Stop texting and I'll sent it!!

Me - 9:50:30 pm

Do I have to get up?

Me - 9:50:42 pm

That would be a problem haha

Me - 9:50:53 pm

Zzzzzzzz

Me - 9:51:17 pm

Bathroom break

Diana - 9:51:19 pm

Check out this video on YouTube:

http://youtu.be/6fVoN1bXOsU

Editor: Bright Eyes, "First Day of My Life"

Diana - 9:51:31 pm

Too much information

Diana - 9:52:14 pm

Then the break up song. Another raw and beautiful song

Diana - 9:52:32 pm

Check out this video on YouTube:

http://youtu.be/Me85PztkYP0

Editor: Bright Eyes, "Land Locked Blues"

Diana - 9:52:32 pm

Listen to them in that order

Diana - 9:53:13 pm

Then we've had our relationship ;)

Diana - 9:53:22 pm

Tell me when you're listening and I will too

Me - 9:54:29 pm

Going to computer

Me - 9:54:44 pm

Harder than you'd think gaha

Diana - 9:54:40 pm

Listen on your phone then

Me - 9:55:04 pm

Sound system

Diana - 9:54:40 pm

Oh it's not that kind of music

Diana - 9:54:40 pm

But ok

Diana - 9:55:30 pm

This is where I sing!

Diana - 9:55:34 pm

It's the right key for me

Diana - 9:55:59 pm

Ready???

Me - 9:56:02 pm

Ok phone then

Diana - 9:56:09 pm

Nope do it

Diana - 9:56:12 pm

I'll wait

Diana - 9:56:18 pm

2 songs the bedtime?

Me - 9:56:21 pm

Ok first one now

Diana - 9:56:34 pm

Ok are you on tour phone

Diana - 9:56:38 pm

Or stereo

Diana - 9:56:45 pm

Pressing play now

Me - 9:56:50 pm

Ok

Me - 9:56:48 pm

listening

Diana - 9:58:56 pm

I love the line ' I could go anywhere with you and Id probably be happy!

Diana - 9:58:56 pm

Hahaha probably :)

Diana - 9:58:56 pm

Next one?

Me - 10:00:17 pm

That was awesome

Me - 10:00:23 pm

Yes ok

Me - 10:00:45 pm

listening

Diana - 10:05:20 pm

So...

Me - 10:05:20 pm

40 sec

Diana - 10:05:20 pm

We've lived out it all and not a single hug ;)

Me - 10:07:04 pm

Yes. But there's still more. Didn't you listen? Don't walk a away?

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

And he shot me dead :p

Me - 10:07:47 pm

That last glass has gone already

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

Wow

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

You're smashing it

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

I've unlocked a beast!

Me - 10:08:26 pm

Hahaha...... Zzzzzzz

Me - 10:08:35 pm

A sleeping beast

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

Really?

Me - 10:08:37 pm

Haha

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

That's good then right?

Me - 10:08:50 pm

Now I have to move

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

Big nights sleep

Diana - 10:07:28 pm

Tell me about it

Me - 10:09:06 pm

A want to be with you though

Diana - 10:09:08 pm

I'm still on a hard wooden floor!

Diana - 10:09:25 pm

Well we can text until we sleep

Me - 10:09:27 pm

Sharing that stuff is SO important

Diana - 10:09:36 pm

Music?

Diana - 10:09:36 pm

Or other stuff

Me - 10:09:47 pm

I wish you were here or me there

Me - 10:09:58 pm

Music is SO important

Diana - 10:09:36 pm

Really?

Me - 10:10:08 pm

Yes

Diana - 10:09:36 pm

Do you need a hug? ;)

Me - 10:10:35 pm

I really want to hug you, yes!!!

Me - 10:10:46 pm

And another bottle

Me - 10:10:48 pm

Haha

Diana - 10:09:36 pm

Oh you're funny

Me - 10:11:08 pm

Hugs are awesome! Did I say that already?

Diana - 10:09:36 pm

You really just want someone to help you get up ;)

Diana - 10:09:36 pm

Yes you're a fan of the Hug

Me - 10:11:26 pm

Always the excuse

Me - 10:11:44 pm

Escape from real stuff

Me - 10:12:02 pm

I'm getting another glSs

Me - 10:12:06 pm

Glass

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

Haha!

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

What Do you need to escape from?

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

You've got a great life

Me - 10:12:42 pm

But no love

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

Hahaha! You rebel ;)

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

I'm not a fan of it

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

No love?

Me - 10:12:54 pm

And no hugs

Me - 10:13:01 pm

Non child hugs

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

You'd just hug me and send me to the spare room or the couch!

Diana - 10:11:44 pm

Much prefer my own bed

Me - 10:13:36 pm

Bottle finished

Diana - 10:13:46 pm

Wow I'm impressed!

Diana - 10:13:52 pm

Seriously!

Me - 10:13:55 pm

Nope. Not anymore

Diana - 10:13:52 pm

And a little worried ;)

Me - 10:15:10 pm

TV went off

Me - 10:15:17 pm

Damn power saving

Me - 10:15:48 pm

But, own bed is good. Even better sharing

Me - 10:17:33 pm

You awake? Or are you crashed on the floor?

Diana - 10:17:45 pm

Totally awake

Diana - 10:17:54 pm

My bones are numb

Diana - 10:18:05 pm

Just wondering if we are going to regret saying anything

Me - 10:18:06 pm

Really?

Me - 10:18:12 pm

Never

Diana - 10:18:08 pm

Then we have the disclaimer

Diana - 10:18:21 pm

Never?

Me - 10:18:21 pm

Saying is important

Diana - 10:18:27 pm

Yes

Me - 10:18:32 pm

Even bD stuff

Me - 10:18:42 pm

"Bad"

Diana - 10:18:50 pm

Nothing bad was said

Diana - 10:18:59 pm

I don't think?

Me - 10:19:01 pm

It's how we get to know each other

Diana - 10:19:08 pm

Yes

Me - 10:19:31 pm

We've sorted out this texting stuff. We're stars at it

Diana - 10:19:31 pm

I'm still texting but I'm hopping into bed

Diana - 10:19:34 pm

It's so cold

Diana - 10:19:41 pm

We are !

Me - 10:19:50 pm

We need to do the same in person

Me - 10:20:02 pm

Lots of catch up work

Diana - 10:20:03 pm

Though we did say nothing heavy we didn't say nothing heavy whilst drunk!

Me - 10:20:18 pm

Nothing we'll regret

Diana - 10:20:16 pm

yes

Me - 10:20:36 pm

I think we both know how we feel

Me - 10:20:46 pm

It's just this damn age thing

Diana - 10:20:49 pm

Though I don't think I could have said what i have texted in person

Me - 10:21:04 pm

Want me to change my birth certificate?

Me - 10:21:13 pm

I will! Haha

Diana - 10:21:18 pm

Ha! Yea that should do it ;)

Me - 10:21:42 pm

Still haven't finished wine

Me - 10:21:50 pm

Holy shit!!

Diana - 10:21:59 pm

What's wrong

Me - 10:22:02 pm

Can't see properly

Me - 10:22:07 pm

Haha

Me - 10:22:25 pm

It's been a very long time

Diana - 10:22:24 pm

Ok the way I see it there are two options

Me - 10:22:34 pm

And a whole bottle

Me - 10:22:39 pm

2

Me - 10:22:47 pm

That's progress!

Me - 10:22:54 pm

It was 0

Diana - 10:22:59 pm

Cause besides the age thing, I haven't got time or energy for anyone and you know that already as you've acknowledged it

Diana - 10:23:09 pm

This is going to be brutal

Me - 10:23:12 pm

Ok

Me - 10:23:19 pm

Sitting down

Diana - 10:23:33 pm

Or fell down ;)

Me - 10:24:51 pm

and...

Diana - 10:24:32 pm

1. We both put boundaries in place for friendship. We both minimise texts, keep them appropriate and stay within the confines. Or 2. We wait until the wows are over, spend a night cuddling and optional fucking then walk away completely.

Diana - 10:24:32 pm

Jesus take a chill pill

Me - 10:25:09 pm

Haha

Me - 10:25:52 pm

2. With not walking away. Didn't you hear the song!

Me - 10:26:44 pm

See? I'm arguing.

Me - 10:27:23 pm

I might go to bed too. If I can find it :)

Diana - 10:27:40 pm

Ha!

Diana - 10:27:49 pm

2 is on the condition we walk away

Me - 10:28:00 pm

Fucking wows

Me - 10:28:03 pm

Nope

Diana - 10:28:06 pm

Stop using my music against me or I'll stop sharing!

Me - 10:28:07 pm

Disagree

Me - 10:28:14 pm

Too later

Me - 10:28:20 pm

Already shared

Me - 10:28:22 pm

Haha

Diana - 10:28:25 pm

Ok before the wows but we will walk away once they're done

Me - 10:28:31 pm

Nope

Me - 10:28:35 pm

Not me

Diana - 10:28:35 pm

They're my options

Diana - 10:28:37 pm

Argh

Me - 10:28:42 pm

Too bad

Diana - 10:28:45 pm

Cmon

Me - 10:28:46 pm

I disagree

Diana - 10:28:48 pm

You know 2 young kids no time exhausted

Me - 10:29:06 pm

Long term

Diana - 10:28:48 pm

You already say how exhausted I must be!

Me - 10:29:14 pm

I'm

Happy to wait

Me - 10:29:25 pm

No hurry

Me - 10:29:35 pm

Slow is good

Diana - 10:28:48 pm

Long term is over rated

Me - 10:29:40 pm

Right?

Diana - 10:28:48 pm

You know that

Diana - 10:29:45 pm

I don't know

Me - 10:29:46 pm

Nope

Diana - 10:29:49 pm

I've never done slow

Me - 10:30:00 pm

Try it!

Me - 10:30:05 pm

Exciting

Me - 10:30:08 pm

Haha

Diana - 10:30:15 pm

And already hhis isn't slow

Diana - 10:30:19 pm

Far from it really

Me - 10:30:34 pm

Yes, it's not slow. I agree

Diana - 10:30:45 pm

Just if you were younger we would have fucked Saturday night ;)

Me - 10:31:02 pm

Stop saying that!!! I know

Diana - 10:30:56 pm

I'm being awful, I'm sorry!

Me - 10:31:20 pm

And that's good thing we didn't

Me - 10:31:24 pm

Long term

Me - 10:31:32 pm

And slow

Me - 10:31:35 pm

:)

Me - 10:32:21 pm

I'm still stronger and faster than you! Stop using the age thing :)

Diana - 10:32:26 pm

I gave you my options

Me - 10:32:39 pm

Need more options

Diana - 10:32:40 pm

You have to decide

Me - 10:32:44 pm

Nope

Diana - 10:32:53 pm

And you should be! I've been trainin for one year of my whole life

Diana - 10:33:02 pm

Still Id give you a run for your money ;)

Diana - 10:33:04 pm

Training

Diana - 10:33:04 pm

2 options

Diana - 10:33:04 pm

Decide and tell me

Me - 10:33:37 pm

No, I don't accept

Diana - 10:33:04 pm

Not straight away

Me - 10:33:47 pm

I'll tell you now

Diana - 10:33:04 pm

You don't really have a choice

Diana - 10:33:04 pm

But I love your audacity

Me - 10:34:16 pm

Love? Haha! Half way there!

Me - 10:34:30 pm

Just got to love the rest

Me - 10:34:33 pm

:)

Diana - 10:34:49 pm

Wow I never knew it could be this easy

Me - 10:34:55 pm

Haha

Me - 10:35:04 pm

It's not!

Me - 10:35:13 pm

I don't give up

Me - 10:35:24 pm

Ever ready battery commercial

Me - 10:35:33 pm

That's me! Haha

Me - 10:35:49 pm

Unless you call me annoying

Diana - 10:35:12 pm

So you're a pink drumming rabbit

Me - 10:35:54 pm

I get rhat

Diana - 10:35:12 pm

You're not annoying

Me - 10:36:14 pm

Good

Diana - 10:35:12 pm

But you need to choose one of the options

Me - 10:36:44 pm

No. We agree to disagree

Diana - 10:36:54 pm

They really are the best I can do with what I've got in my life right now

Diana - 10:37:00 pm

Sincerely

Diana - 10:37:05 pm

That's the best I can do

Me - 10:37:17 pm

I know

Me - 10:37:34 pm

But I don't accept it, sorry

Me - 10:37:46 pm

Friends at the very least

Diana - 10:37:20 pm

Well then that's annoying

Me - 10:37:54 pm

Maybe more

Diana - 10:37:20 pm

Yes friends was the first option

Me - 10:38:23 pm

Insufficient time has pAst

Me - 10:38:33 pm

In talking

Me - 10:38:36 pm

For real

Diana - 10:37:20 pm

But you have to help with the boundaries of friendship ok?

Diana - 10:39:06 pm

Ok talking for real is part of our friendship

Diana - 10:39:12 pm

That's the easy part

Me - 10:39:20 pm

Of course. Boundaries until next step is taken/ acceptable

Me - 10:39:44 pm

Acxeptable for both sides

Diana - 10:39:28 pm

You promised no expectations

Me - 10:40:39 pm

I refuse to accept "final" boundaries at this moment. We need more time together

Me - 10:40:48 pm

Yes, no expectations

Diana - 10:39:28 pm

You're very stubborn mark

Me - 10:40:59 pm

Plenty of desires though

Me - 10:41:09 pm

Difdernt

Me - 10:41:19 pm

I agreed to expectations

Me - 10:41:24 pm

Not desires

Me - 10:41:29 pm

Ok?

Me - 10:41:34 pm

:)

Diana - 10:41:36 pm

Ok I'll try that

Me - 10:41:48 pm

Note smiley face again

Diana - 10:41:36 pm

Noted

Me - 10:42:06 pm

Il reeeeeealy pissed hahaha

Me - 10:42:24 pm

Don't know I can get up from the couch

Diana - 10:41:36 pm

Hahahaha! I really want a hug

Me - 10:42:33 pm

Me too!!!

Me - 10:42:53 pm

Virtual hug? Haha

Me - 10:43:13 pm

Hug your phone. It's me!!

Me - 10:43:22 pm

Sigh! Unfortunately

Diana - 10:43:37 pm

I have a pillow?

Diana - 10:43:42 pm

That'll do

Me - 10:43:46 pm

Ok

Me - 10:43:57 pm

Child soon, I guess

Me - 10:44:03 pm

Roster tonight?

Diana - 10:43:44 pm

No it's my night child free

Me - 10:44:19 pm

Ok

Diana - 10:43:44 pm

Not even the cat

Me - 10:44:55 pm

We're still good for Monday right?

Diana - 10:43:44 pm

Lucky I'm so staunch ;)

Diana - 10:43:44 pm

Monday wow practice?

Me - 10:45:16 pm

I'm soooooo glad we did this tonight!

Diana - 10:43:44 pm

Better be, you've got to Find a way to get and keep me in the top 10

Diana - 10:43:44 pm

I'm not sure I'm so glad!

Me - 10:45:45 pm

Even though we seem to have reached an impass

Diana - 10:45:52 pm

We have indeed

Me - 10:46:00 pm

Don't know how

Diana - 10:45:52 pm

Pfft

Me - 10:46:21 pm

But an impass is not an end

Me - 10:46:25 pm

:)

Diana - 10:45:52 pm

We've said a lot tonight

Me - 10:47:28 pm

But we'll remember right?

Diana - 10:45:52 pm

Well I will

Me - 10:47:45 pm

I'm glad we've said stuff

Diana - 10:45:52 pm

I think

Diana - 10:45:52 pm

Yes

Diana - 10:48:08 pm

But you have to still choose an option ;)

Me - 10:48:11 pm

Let's try and keep this relationship level for in person ok?

Diana - 10:48:25 pm

And if you vary it it needs to be approved by me

Me - 10:48:31 pm

I don't accept the options.

Diana - 10:48:38 pm

Let's Let it be whatever it will be ok?

Me - 10:48:40 pm

Approved by both

Me - 10:48:44 pm

You mean

Diana - 10:48:44 pm

In person

Me - 10:48:49 pm

Right?

Diana - 10:48:54 pm

It may take a while to get to this place

Diana - 10:49:07 pm

Yea that's what I mean

Me - 10:49:09 pm

And not in rhe gym!!

Diana - 10:49:37 pm

Of course that's the best place to have our first Hug ;)

Me - 10:49:52 pm

Where?

Diana - 10:49:59 pm

The gym :p

Me - 10:50:00 pm

Need to prepare

Me - 10:50:04 pm

:)

Diana - 10:50:07 pm

I'm kidding of course

Me - 10:50:12 pm

Audience?

Diana - 10:50:08 pm

Need to prepare

Diana - 10:50:08 pm

Wtf are you taking about??

Me - 10:50:26 pm

I don't know

Diana - 10:50:27 pm

Serios and professional in the gym

Me - 10:50:32 pm

I don't know anyrbing

Diana - 10:50:34 pm

We are still just friends

Diana - 10:50:37 pm

Option 1

Diana - 10:50:45 pm

Got it?????

Diana - 10:51:02 pm

Go to bed

Diana - 10:51:13 pm

It'll all make sense tomorrow

Me - 10:51:18 pm

I should

Diana - 10:51:52 pm

Bed is good

Diana - 10:51:56 pm

Soft and warm

Me - 10:52:07 pm

It may make sense, but I will still disagree with only the 2 options :)

Diana - 10:52:13 pm

I'm sleepy

Diana - 10:52:16 pm

Shoosh

Me - 10:52:32 pm

Want me to sing?

Diana - 10:52:16 pm

You can choose either but you have to get me through the wows

Me - 10:52:48 pm

Haha of course

Diana - 10:52:48 pm

Sure ;)

Me - 10:52:55 pm

Always

Me - 10:53:05 pm

No matter what happens

Me - 10:53:16 pm

I'll get you through the wows

Me - 10:53:34 pm

Sleep well! I hope

Me - 10:53:37 pm

But

Me - 10:53:43 pm

I wish I was ther

Me - 10:53:47 pm

There

Me - 10:54:02 pm

Hugs gAlore

Me - 10:54:11 pm

Night

Diana - 10:54:17 pm

Ha!

Me - 10:54:19 pm

I might move now

Diana - 10:54:19 pm

Ok

Me - 10:54:25 pm

Don't know how

Me - 10:54:30 pm

Sigh

Diana - 10:54:24 pm

Alligator crawl ;)

Me - 10:54:47 pm

Haha

Diana - 10:54:24 pm

Hugs galore eh?

Diana - 10:54:24 pm

Ok

Me - 10:54:56 pm

Walking is too hard!!!

Diana - 10:55:12 pm

Good night

Me - 10:55:17 pm

Night

Diana - 10:55:19 pm

Have water before bed!

Me - 10:55:35 pm

Thanks mum!

Diana - 10:55:43 pm

Argh

Diana - 10:55:51 pm

I won't make that mistake again

Diana - 10:56:00 pm

Have more wine before bed!

Me - 10:56:06 pm

A whole bottle!! What have you do e to me!! Haha

Me - 10:56:13 pm

None left

Me - 10:56:18 pm

All gone

Me - 10:56:30 pm

Need to buy more

Diana - 10:56:31 pm

I don't know what have I done?

Diana - 10:56:32 pm

More??

Diana - 10:56:32 pm

Why?

Me - 10:56:48 pm

Run out

Me - 10:56:56 pm

What about tomorrow?

Diana - 10:56:32 pm

But you don't drink it

Diana - 10:56:32 pm

What about tomorrow?

Diana - 10:57:15 pm

You want another session ;)

Me - 10:57:49 pm

Texting session? While drunk! What could possibly go wrong? Haha

Diana - 10:58:07 pm

Nothing that can't be deleted ;)

Me - 10:58:15 pm

:)

Diana - 10:58:26 pm

Good night hugger

Me - 10:58:34 pm

Zzzzzzzz

**Saturday 4 October**

Diana - 7:51:46 am

Wow what a morning

Diana - 7:51:46 am

Is your head ok?

Me - 7:52:31 am

Still in bed :)

Me - 7:52:57 am

Alcohol is a poison right? I read that somewhere

Me - 7:53:01 am

Haha

Me - 7:53:09 am

You all good?

Me - 7:53:19 am

Or ok?

Me - 7:55:22 am

Tough night for me, no sleep. Almost threw up a few times and I had you in my head all night. (We kept on talking haha)

Me - 7:55:37 am

Should get up, I guess

Diana - 7:58:24 am

I'm ok

Diana - 7:58:24 am

I'm just getting up now too

Diana - 7:58:24 am

Woke at 5 but couldn't get out of bed

Diana - 7:58:24 am

I hope the conversation in your head wasn't as crazy as the texting one we had ;)

Me - 8:00:47 am

I'm really glad for last night.

Me - 8:03:18 am

In the middle of the night I remembered I never sliced and froze the bread I made. Last night was really great! Thanks.

Diana - 8:02:40 am

Sarcometer skyrocket??

Me - 8:04:08 am

No

Diana - 8:04:48 am

Then good wine?

Me - 8:04:59 am

And company

Diana - 8:04:48 am

I hope your bread didn't go to waste

Me - 8:05:08 am

Who cares

Diana - 8:04:48 am

I was just trying to be nice ;)

Diana - 8:04:48 am

Do you have any clients this morning?

Me - 8:05:38 am

No

Me - 8:05:51 am

I was going to do a circuit

Me - 8:05:55 am

Not now

Me - 8:06:18 am

A little sore from lifting yesterday too

Me - 8:06:29 am

Just a run. Much later

Diana - 8:07:01 am

Yes rest on your non grass today?

Me - 8:07:47 am

I couldn't do the circuit

Diana - 8:08:54 am

No way

Me - 8:09:36 am

What day do you have planned?

Diana - 8:11:37 am

Drop Imogen to a play date take Joel to our parent child karate lesson, get Imogen feed them go to my sisters help her Carry out her hard rubbish then go to the sky deck with her and the kids on the train.

Diana - 8:11:40 am

Her request

Diana - 8:11:48 am

I hate public transport and heights

Diana - 8:11:57 am

And moving hard rubbish!

Diana - 8:12:02 am

Karate however I love :)

Diana - 8:15:23 am

Apologies for the detail, I imagine you were after a more 'ah not much' reply ;)

Me - 8:16:30 am

I always want to know what you're doing. Really. Sounds like a (normal) busy day with kids.

Diana - 8:19:33 am

I have a couch in the sun, I could easily spend an hour on

Me - 8:36:46 am

I'm all showered up, almost feel human again. Outside with coffee #1 soon. Bliss :)

Diana - 8:48:33 am

Imogen just ran up to Joel and said Joel wait! We haven't had our morning cuddle!

Diana - 8:48:35 am

Cute

Diana - 8:48:48 am

I'm trying to psych myself up for push ups on my knuckles

Diana - 8:48:55 am

I feel toxic!

Diana - 8:49:06 am

Fat and toxic

Me - 8:51:02 am

Don't start that! :) It was totally worth it. And you have a new drinking companion haha. Although, we'll make sure it's infrequent.

Me - 8:51:10 am

The drinking

Me - 8:51:18 am

Not the companion bit

Me - 8:51:55 am

You've taught your kids well!

Me - 8:56:50 am

I drank ALL of that last night. Wow!

Diana - 8:56:00 am

Don't start what?

Diana - 8:56:00 am

I've eaten badly the last few days and topped with it too much wine last night, it's gonna take its toll. Not saying it wasn't worth it. Still bleeding and tired

Me - 8:57:06 am

'Fat and toxic' :)

Diana - 8:56:00 am

I'm going to try to eat some red meat today

Diana - 8:57:28 am

I love the music to the wolf blass ads

Diana - 8:57:54 am

The MSO rehearse at work and I love it

Me - 9:00:35 am

Mornings are good too!

Me - 9:00:35 am

It's sunny at the outside table and chairs

Diana - 9:02:22 am

Cutest kids ever

Diana - 9:02:23 am

I know you can't agree

Diana - 9:02:24 am

Are you trying to lure me with your lake? ;)

Me - 9:03:18 am

Mine aren't "cute" anymore, so I do agree

Me - 9:03:35 am

I'll lure you with whatever works ;-)

Me - 9:04:13 am

You've got lots of grass

Me - 9:04:22 am

I need some haha

Diana - 9:06:40 am

We do have lots of grass

Diana - 9:06:40 am

And a gardener thankfully

Diana - 9:18:03 am

One child is dropped

Diana - 9:18:08 am

It's dojo time

Me - 9:18:20 am

Smash it!

Me - 9:18:34 am

Or whatever you do at karate :)

Diana - 10:29:52 am

Lots of push ups

Diana - 10:31:29 am

While you're up the kids crawl under you

Diana - 10:31:35 am

While you're down they jump

Over you

Me - 10:33:43 am

Sounds like a great time was had.

Diana - 10:34:04 am

Oh my head :/

Me - 10:34:20 am

Mine's not too based

Me - 10:34:23 am

Bad

Diana - 10:34:08 am

Drop and do some push-ups and get back to me ;)

Me - 10:34:46 am

A bit tender

Me - 10:35:08 am

No :)

Me - 10:35:14 am

Not doing more

Diana - 10:34:08 am

In a room full of kids!

Me - 10:35:28 am

But sounds like fun!!

Diana - 10:34:08 am

It is

Diana - 10:34:08 am

I love karate

Diana - 10:34:08 am

If I could fit it in I would

Me - 10:35:53 am

Are you good at it?

Diana - 10:36:14 am

Of course not

Diana - 10:36:16 am

But I still like it

Diana - 10:36:16 am

I already told you

Diana - 10:36:16 am

im not good at much

Me - 10:37:31 am

Pfft

Diana - 10:36:16 am

Now to pick up the little lady

Diana - 11:54:00 am

Morning shift is done

Diana - 11:54:08 am

It's gonna be a loooong day!

Me - 11:54:46 am

At least it's going to be a nice afternoon

Me - 11:55:06 am

Good for rubbish and train rides :)

Diana - 11:55:12 am

Hmm easy to say

Diana - 11:55:12 am

When you're relaxing by a lake!

Me - 11:56:00 am

Not relaxing

Me - 11:56:37 am

Working on the one thing that might, just might, make $'s.

Me - 11:56:53 am

And is fun to do too

Diana - 12:01:36 pm

So are you going to tell me what?

Diana - 12:01:36 pm

Or play mysterious

Diana - 12:01:36 pm

Hang on...

Diana - 12:01:36 pm

Wow Mark that sounds interesting, what is it? ;)

Me - 12:02:49 pm

Hahaha. Veeeery funny. Just writing my series of books. Re-writing

Diana - 12:03:13 pm

Ha! I thought you said it could make money ;))

Me - 12:03:31 pm

CHANCE of $

Me - 12:03:42 pm

It's science fictiony

Me - 12:03:46 pm

Sort of

Me - 12:04:17 pm

Main character has an uncanny resemblance to you :)

Me - 12:04:29 pm

Like I made you up and you appeared haha

Me - 12:04:50 pm

Am I dreaming all this?? Hahahaha

Me - 12:05:19 pm

Slumped over my computer dreaming of the perfect woman hahaha

Me - 12:05:30 pm

Enjoy the afternoon

Me - 12:05:39 pm

Keep me informed.

Me - 12:05:58 pm

Good to know what the rest of the world is doing :)

Me - 12:06:28 pm

Alligator (extra disk)...

Diana - 12:08:00 pm

I don't know if I've heart that

Diana - 12:08:00 pm

I have a following of mums at the school im not supposed to know about ;)

Diana - 12:08:00 pm

They keep an eye on where I'm at in the challenge

Me - 12:09:46 pm

That's awssome!

Diana - 12:08:00 pm

Yea with us!

Me - 12:09:53 pm

You're a star!

Diana - 12:09:53 pm

Have you bought your ticket yet though ;)

Diana - 12:10:08 pm

I'm kidding about the following, though they do seem to know where I'm at

Me - 12:10:09 pm

No. I need advice

Diana - 12:10:08 pm

Ok and in regards to the perfect woman, in your own words the fantasy is better than the reality

Me - 12:11:20 pm

Damn! My own words come back to bite! :)

Me - 12:13:37 pm

Later, sometime, let's talk about the warrior challenge and what I should do. Not now.

Me - 12:14:14 pm

The extra disc is remixes and live stuff

Me - 12:14:31 pm

Only 1 or 2 new songs

Diana - 12:15:27 pm

Just grab a ticket from the website

Diana - 12:15:33 pm

Ah my sister is coming noe

Diana - 12:15:35 pm

Now

Diana - 12:15:40 pm

I want to go to bed

Me - 12:16:14 pm

Unplanned visit? I thought yiu were going to town.

Diana - 12:17:00 pm

We are but we were supposed to meet at 2

Me - 12:17:24 pm

Poor Diana! Such a social butterfly.

Me - 12:17:51 pm

Did I tell you? There's a lake here! :)

Me - 12:18:11 pm

No one out there... ;-)

Me - 12:18:57 pm

Do they come around because they think you're lonely and need extra company?

Diana - 12:19:43 pm

I don't think so

Diana - 12:19:48 pm

They know I'm happy

Diana - 12:19:53 pm

I don't know why they come around

Me - 12:21:31 pm

You should bring the kids around here one sunny day. Play on the lake. Seriously.

Me - 12:22:35 pm

Mistaken for strangers

Diana - 12:22:55 pm

Seriously?

Diana - 12:22:56 pm

Mistaken for strangers is great

Me - 12:23:04 pm

Absolutely

Diana - 12:22:56 pm

Maybe it's my coffee

Diana - 12:22:56 pm

People come around for my coffee

Me - 12:23:22 pm

Haha

Diana - 12:22:56 pm

I think that's it!

Me - 12:23:28 pm

Not you at all

Me - 12:23:49 pm

Want to swap coffee machines? Scare them away haha

Diana - 12:24:03 pm

Oh the coffee I could make with yours!

Me - 12:24:12 pm

Go ahead

Diana - 12:24:13 pm

Theyd be lined up down the street

Me - 12:24:20 pm

My pleasure

Me - 12:24:33 pm

Show me how the master does it

Diana - 12:24:37 pm

Then what happens to the quiet lake lure??

Diana - 12:24:42 pm

I'm not a master

Diana - 12:24:46 pm

Let's not be silly

Diana - 12:24:56 pm

You've got to get to know a machine

Diana - 12:25:02 pm

It takes a while

Diana - 12:25:04 pm

Mine is on its last legs

Diana - 12:25:04 pm

It was a cheapy to begin with

Me - 12:25:23 pm

Push button. What's to know? Haha

Diana - 12:26:16 pm

And that's why you have no visitors!

Diana - 12:26:22 pm

Except me and your kids ;))

Me - 12:27:07 pm

Well I think I'll keep the coffee simple

Me - 12:27:16 pm

Worth it

Me - 12:27:29 pm

Only attracts the right people

Me - 12:27:31 pm

:)

Diana - 12:27:12 pm

Haha! Sure

Me - 12:28:38 pm

Come and hide here. Bring swimming stuff, sand buckets, etc. seriously.

Diana - 12:29:14 pm

You're not really serious

Me - 12:29:20 pm

Yes

Diana - 12:29:20 pm

You're just in a semi coma from last night

Me - 12:29:27 pm

Why not?

Me - 12:29:34 pm

Hahaha

Me - 12:30:07 pm

My head does feel a little woozy

Diana - 12:30:26 pm

Mine too

Diana - 12:30:37 pm

And now I've had too much coffee it's worse

Diana - 12:30:43 pm

Back on the water for me

Diana - 12:31:02 pm

I'd like to take a couple of phernergan and sleep away the afternoon

Me - 12:31:09 pm

Ok. Maybe not this weekend, it's too late to change. But I'm serious about bringing your kids here

Me - 12:31:35 pm

They can compete with the neighbours kids for noise :)

Me - 12:32:13 pm

I've had about 6 coffee's already

Me - 12:32:23 pm

About to get another...

Me - 12:32:59 pm

Boxer

Diana - 12:33:04 pm

Jesus

Diana - 12:33:10 pm

Boxer is one of my favourites

Me - 12:33:42 pm

Say you're busy

Me - 12:33:47 pm

And you are

Me - 12:34:13 pm

My calendar is empty

Me - 12:34:34 pm

Just work stuff and a run, maybe

Me - 12:35:02 pm

And I do like kids. Just not babies.

Me - 12:35:12 pm

Definitely not babies

Me - 12:38:02 pm

It will be cool, but kids don't care. At least it will be sunny! And something different to do.

Me - 12:38:02 pm

Anyway...

Me - 12:38:42 pm

Back to writing (and listening)

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

You don't like babies??

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

I love babies

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

My sister has another new man for me to assess

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

I couldn't quite pick this one

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

I don't know what to wear

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

It'll be cold in the city?

Me - 12:46:20 pm

How many men does she have???

Diana - 12:44:16 pm

See everything is too much when you're tired!

Me - 12:46:26 pm

28 today

Diana - 12:46:33 pm

They're just dates

Me - 12:46:36 pm

But windy

Diana - 12:46:40 pm

Men she goes on dates with

Me - 12:46:47 pm

So yes, light jumper

Me - 12:47:13 pm

Colder late tonight

Me - 12:47:35 pm

Now I'm your weather man too! :)

Diana - 12:47:50 pm

Jeans?

Diana - 12:48:04 pm

We will be home around 5 I think, she has a date

Me - 12:48:13 pm

You'd look cool in jeans! So yeah!!

Diana - 12:49:17 pm

That's what I am after

Diana - 12:49:22 pm

Looking cool ;)

Me - 12:49:51 pm

Just got to stand there to do that.

Diana - 12:50:26 pm

Wow you are in writing mode ;)

Me - 12:50:30 pm

Why train? Kids like it, is it?

Me - 12:50:44 pm

I'm stuck with writing

Diana - 12:50:40 pm

Yes kids like it

Me - 12:50:49 pm

Tough part

Me - 12:51:05 pm

Not sure how to proceed

Me - 12:51:15 pm

Coffee Sigh!

Me - 12:51:28 pm

It's like the old days Arghh!

Diana - 12:51:48 pm

I'll help

Diana - 12:51:53 pm

What's happening?

Diana - 12:52:07 pm

I need to have a quick shower

Diana - 12:52:13 pm

Then I'll read :)

Me - 12:53:02 pm

That would take talking. Billions of years have passed and I'm stuck with 2 brothers fighting.

Me - 12:53:37 pm

Will, eventually, cause the asteroid of 65 million years ago

Me - 12:53:53 pm

But hard to get there

Me - 12:54:15 pm

Actually, I've been stuck here for about a year! :)

Me - 12:54:44 pm

I'd love your help! But in person.

Diana - 12:59:12 pm

Wow stuck for a year!

Me - 1:00:15 pm

With distractions

Me - 1:00:33 pm

Easy to be distracted when you're stuck

Diana - 1:00:40 pm

I've been stuck for a year with photpgrpahy

Me - 1:00:41 pm

Tolkien was too haha

Diana - 1:00:45 pm

Distracted with fitness

Me - 1:01:05 pm

Good distraction

Me - 1:01:30 pm

Boxer is really good

Me - 1:01:43 pm

I love that guitar sound

Diana - 1:01:20 pm

Yes

Me - 1:01:50 pm

Mild distorted

Diana - 1:01:20 pm

It's the one that got them known

Diana - 1:18:02 pm

Ok and we are off

Me - 1:18:13 pm

Have fun!

Diana - 1:18:33 pm

Hopefully my phone won't run out of batteries

Diana - 1:19:03 pm

Battery

Me - 1:19:03 pm

I won't misinterpret silence then. :)

Diana - 1:19:31 pm

Good

Diana - 1:19:51 pm

Btw the 2 options, they're real and not forgotten

Me - 1:20:16 pm

And my answer stays the same. Also not forgotten :)

Me - 1:20:31 pm

We need to talk about stuff, in person

Me - 1:20:38 pm

Enjoy the afternoon

Me - 1:20:48 pm

Looks great out there

Me - 1:21:02 pm

Might bike ride. Maybe

Me - 1:22:47 pm

Boxer Extras

Diana - 1:37:36 pm

No we don't

Diana - 1:37:36 pm

Stop trying to drag it out ;)

Diana - 1:37:36 pm

It is nice out here

Diana - 1:37:36 pm

But windy

Diana - 2:51:21 pm

Look at all the people in love

Diana - 2:55:01 pm

Or the locks of those in love

Diana - 2:55:17 pm

The Paris trend is taking off all around the world apparently

Diana - 2:55:51 pm

I'm doing my upmost to remain positive about where the lovers are now ;)

Diana - 3:00:48 pm

Help me please

Diana - 3:28:04 pm

I'm

Off my head

Diana - 3:28:13 pm

We just left the Lindt shop

Diana - 3:28:23 pm

I don't even remember what I ate

Diana - 3:28:29 pm

All j know is I can't see

Me - 3:39:10 pm

I've been bike riding. Lovers and chocolate. Great afternoon! :)

Diana - 3:49:52 pm

It was intense chocolate

Diana - 3:49:52 pm

Windy for a bike ride?

Diana - 3:49:52 pm

Or good?

Me - 3:53:28 pm

Slow-ish bike ride. Not pushing things. Hard going out, really easy coming back. It's a nice thing to do in the wind, you can cruise along with no effort and just look at things.

Diana - 4:30:24 pm

I just Carried Joel through southbank

Diana - 4:30:56 pm

Good training for going heavy this week

Me - 5:29:32 pm

High Violet

Me - 5:29:55 pm

Not too keen on The Virginia

Me - 5:30:16 pm

Demos and live stuff

Diana - 6:14:08 pm

Maybe you need to listen to something else for a bit!

Diana - 6:14:09 pm

?

Diana - 6:14:12 pm

We are home

Diana - 6:14:25 pm

I'm wrecked but just got offered a long shift for next Thursday

Diana - 6:14:38 pm

So I can only do an early run on Thursday

Diana - 6:14:49 pm

And tuesday I forgot, I have to try the new yoga place

Diana - 6:14:56 pm

But I still have Friday all day to go heavy on deadlifts

Diana - 6:14:56 pm

It's been a quiet day for us

Me - 6:15:39 pm

It's all good. We'll work around the scheduling snafoos

Diana - 6:14:56 pm

I'll need all the extra cash for birthdays and Xmas coming up

Me - 6:15:49 pm

Tired?

Diana - 6:14:56 pm

Snafoos

Diana - 6:14:56 pm

Yes tired, are you?

Me - 6:16:13 pm

A bit. Not like you I imagine

Me - 6:16:53 pm

One hour less sleep tonight, potentially

Me - 6:18:22 pm

I think hard running early this week may be problematic. This wow is tough. Being too busy this week may be a good thing (in a way)

Me - 6:19:11 pm

New yoga place? That's rhe one you've decided to train at is it?

Me - 6:19:43 pm

And I need to check out the town gym too, sometime

Diana - 6:19:12 pm

Ok so no run

Diana - 6:19:12 pm

Just a small practice Monday and the real thing Wednesday

Me - 6:20:12 pm

Yes

Diana - 6:19:12 pm

No training Tuesday or Thursday and I'll see you Friday if you don't go to town

Me - 6:20:33 pm

Just working out the treadmill mostly.

Diana - 6:21:08 pm

Ok cool

Me - 6:21:54 pm

Want company on Tuesday? You mentioned something like that lSt night

Diana - 6:21:20 pm

For yoga?

Diana - 6:21:20 pm

No, I need to do these things on my own

Me - 6:22:38 pm

Cool

Diana - 6:23:28 pm

I don't know if I've booked Joel in for Monday morning

Diana - 6:23:28 pm

Do we need to practice the wow or can we juts do it Monday and then be done for the week

Diana - 6:23:28 pm

Then I'll only have to come in Friday

Me - 6:24:26 pm

I was thinking along those lines

Me - 6:24:45 pm

So, yes

Diana - 6:25:36 pm

Cool

Diana - 6:25:36 pm

Then you can get to town

Diana - 6:25:36 pm

And I can just go in and play

Diana - 6:30:27 pm

I can do deadlifts on my own too

Diana - 6:30:30 pm

I don't mind

Diana - 6:30:43 pm

I don't want you to feel like you have to be there for my training

Me - 6:30:47 pm

No. I'll be there

Diana - 6:30:50 pm

It's better you go where the money is

Me - 6:31:17 pm

Thwe town gym is just a drive and a look. No hurry when.

Diana - 6:33:49 pm

Alright

Diana - 6:36:16 pm

Now to make dinner for the beasts

Diana - 6:36:16 pm

I've had another day of eating badly :(

Me - 6:36:58 pm

What's for dinner?

Diana - 6:37:07 pm

I wish there was a meal prep Delivery service

Me - 6:37:18 pm

Servants...

Me - 6:37:24 pm

$$

Diana - 6:38:00 pm

no just meal prep

Me - 6:38:01 pm

It's tough when you have to do it all on your own

Diana - 6:38:06 pm

Like what the app has

Diana - 6:38:14 pm

The kids are having Tuna pasta

Diana - 6:38:24 pm

I don't need anything after chocolate and chips today

Diana - 6:38:24 pm

I'll have to make a meal prep day

Diana - 6:38:24 pm

What are you having for dinner? Have you been writing all afternoon? Come up with your ending?

Me - 6:39:16 pm

You sound a bit down. Or is it just tired?

Me - 6:39:37 pm

I don't feel too hungry

Me - 6:39:55 pm

I've eaten earlier and it didn't feel too good :)

Me - 6:40:04 pm

No ending

Me - 6:40:11 pm

It's the middle anyway

Me - 6:40:17 pm

Need help

Me - 6:40:21 pm

Help!!

Me - 6:40:23 pm

:)

Diana - 6:40:32 pm

I think I'm a bit down

Diana - 6:40:32 pm

But it could be because I'm tired

Diana - 6:40:32 pm

And it always gets me down when my food is off track

Diana - 6:41:36 pm

We should do yoga together, once I've felt out this school and made sure it's where I want to head

Diana - 6:42:25 pm

I didn't mean to sounds rude, I'm just easily affected and distracted and need absolute focus to make a decision about this

Diana - 6:42:40 pm

Though I believe it's already made I need to complete the process

Diana - 6:42:40 pm

Blah blah blah

Diana - 6:42:40 pm

Sorry

Me - 6:43:36 pm

Would you like me to come around? I don't like it when you're down.

Diana - 6:48:39 pm

If the kids weren't here maybe

Diana - 6:48:44 pm

But no

Diana - 6:48:49 pm

But thank you

Me - 6:50:24 pm

Ok. No problems. But kids there is ok.

Diana - 6:51:12 pm

How do you figure?

Me - 6:53:38 pm

You have friends and family there after bed time. Just thinking. And if you need someone at any time, then any time should be ok.

Diana - 6:53:20 pm

I know logically it makes sense

Diana - 6:53:20 pm

But as you've still not given me your choice of options I can compartmentalise this, us, and therefore am frightened by it

Diana - 6:55:17 pm

Besides phernergan's just as good as a hug right?

Me - 6:55:24 pm

Haha

Me - 6:55:28 pm

Nope!!!

Me - 6:55:33 pm

:)

Diana - 6:55:28 pm

Besides I always get melancholy after a late night and want to cry. It's just caught up fatigue I guess

Me - 6:57:13 pm

Exactly why I want to be there. But, that's ok. Early bed time may be the best thing.

Diana - 6:59:21 pm

Meh

Diana - 6:59:26 pm

I'm tough ;)

Diana - 6:59:41 pm

Early bed time for you! That would be the best thing

Diana - 6:59:54 pm

Are you training tomorrow?

Me - 7:00:05 pm

Don't know yet

Diana - 7:03:04 pm

Are you ok?

Me - 7:03:49 pm

Yes, I'm fine.

Me - 7:09:15 pm

I might not eat tonight either. Got a few strawberries, that's about all I can stomach I reckon.

Diana - 7:09:32 pm

Not bread?

Me - 7:09:44 pm

Frozen now

Diana - 7:09:45 pm

You should eat

Diana - 7:09:55 pm

I've been eating all day that's why I'm not going to eat

Diana - 7:10:03 pm

Taking pills now :/

Me - 7:10:12 pm

Which ones?

Diana - 7:10:24 pm

Phernergan!

Diana - 7:10:24 pm

Kids are fed and bathed and happy watching bugs bunny

Diana - 7:10:24 pm

My duties for the day are done

Diana - 7:10:24 pm

I want to check out this app and get my head around it

Diana - 7:11:24 pm

Maybe try to do some prep tomorrow

Me - 7:11:51 pm

What are your plans for tomorrow?

Me - 7:15:34 pm

Dinner.

Diana - 7:14:40 pm

Nothing really, I need to do some washing, get Imogen's uniform ready blah blah

Diana - 7:14:40 pm

Make some healthy food for them and I was thinking of going getting those containers and trying to do serious meal prep for the week

Diana - 7:15:57 pm

I'm struggling with it badly

Diana - 7:16:14 pm

Are those seeds???

Diana - 7:16:41 pm

I need to buy some scales

Diana - 7:16:44 pm

Again ;)

Me - 7:17:13 pm

How about I help! I don't really want to make our first meeting after last night, in the gym. With the space requirements.

Me - 7:17:18 pm

Muesli

Me - 7:17:27 pm

Gluten free muesli

Me - 7:17:31 pm

Home made

Me - 7:17:41 pm

With home made yogurt too

Diana - 7:16:48 pm

Made in your home?

Me - 7:17:57 pm

Yes

Diana - 7:16:48 pm

Help me what?

Me - 7:18:03 pm

Real homemaker

Diana - 7:16:48 pm

Meal prep?

Me - 7:18:06 pm

:)

Diana - 7:18:10 pm

You are aren't you!

Diana - 7:18:48 pm

You think I won't have the same space requirements in my home?

Me - 7:19:11 pm

Do you?

Me - 7:19:49 pm

Maybe not text material. Sorry

Diana - 7:18:56 pm

It's not where

Diana - 7:18:56 pm

It's about proximity to the person

Diana - 7:18:56 pm

Comfort sokoto

Diana - 7:20:31 pm

Comfortability

Diana - 7:20:33 pm

Trust

Diana - 7:20:58 pm

And besides what would I tell my kids about this strange man coming into their home and helping their mum?

Diana - 7:21:04 pm

Role reverse for a moment

Diana - 7:21:04 pm

Imagine it's your kids at 5

Me - 7:21:52 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:21:04 pm

No really

Diana - 7:21:04 pm

Tell me how you would handle it

Diana - 7:21:04 pm

I'm genuinely interested

Me - 7:22:35 pm

Ok.

Me - 7:29:14 pm

I would be ok about it. What I wouldn't be ok about is displays of affection. It's like introducing a new friend. I don't think it would be hiding anything from your kids because nothing has actually happened. If you were worried about deception. I would not be ok about deception, kids pick that up. But, maybe, through the texts stuff has happened, so maybe the kids would pick that up. And that wouldn't be good. So, you're probably right, I've changed mind :)

Me - 7:30:28 pm

"Dinner" is over :)

Diana - 7:30:59 pm

Right

Diana - 7:31:04 pm

Ok

Me - 7:48:16 pm

No more the national tonight. Watching tv. Then early night probably. Might go to Glen Iris tomorrow. No traffic. I've got a good friend and his wife who lives close. Might see what they're up to. He's really fit too :) And his wife is heavily into yoga haha

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

Cool

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

Sounds good

Diana - 7:48:48 pm

We are watching scooby Doo 2

Me - 7:49:47 pm

Double cool!!

Me - 7:50:53 pm

I'm watching the comedy channel. Stand ups in Ireland. Nothing serious tonight haha. Not even a science program :)

Diana - 7:53:04 pm

A laugh is in order im sure

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

It's nearly bed time

Diana - 7:57:20 pm

I'll turn scooby off then

Me - 7:59:26 pm

For everyone? :)

Me - 7:59:46 pm

Pherneegan working yet?

Diana - 7:59:28 pm

Not yet for me

Me - 7:59:49 pm

:/)

Diana - 7:59:28 pm

But soon

Diana - 7:59:28 pm

I need more than 2 to put me down now I've developed a tolerance ;)

Me - 8:00:21 pm

Ha

Me - 8:00:38 pm

Too strong constitution :-)

Diana - 8:02:23 pm

Not really just enjoy feeling altered

Diana - 8:02:34 pm

You should know that by now ;)

Diana - 8:02:45 pm

My new pre workout addiction

Me - 8:02:56 pm

Yes I know

Me - 8:05:00 pm

I'm pretty tired myself really. You must be really tired after a big day following a big wine night.

Diana - 8:05:06 pm

Was that in a disapproving tone?

Diana - 8:05:10 pm

I'm tired

Diana - 8:05:18 pm

Feel flat too

Me - 8:05:27 pm

Tone? Via text? HahahA

Diana - 8:05:52 pm

Tell me something, how far back do you think I'll drop with this weeks wow?

Me - 8:06:06 pm

No tone. But I wish we could add that somehow!

Me - 8:06:19 pm

Not far, if at all

Diana - 8:06:30 pm

Can you please be serious

Diana - 8:07:22 pm

I'm being suckered into letting them stay up!

Me - 8:07:31 pm

It's tough for everyone. And the difference in running over 1.8kms may not be too much. Your burpees are good, so it's just the running. Maybe A few minutes??

Me - 8:07:54 pm

It's Saturday night muuuuuum!!!

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

A few minutes is a lot of points

Me - 8:08:36 pm

But over 9 wows.

Me - 8:08:48 pm

So percentage may not be too much

Me - 8:09:16 pm

Just do your best. That's Ll you can do!

Me - 8:09:57 pm

Don't worry too much. Some wows are harder for some and easier for others. That's why there are 12. :)

Diana - 8:10:06 pm

Don't be condescending

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

I know I can only do my best

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

It's just a question

Diana - 8:10:08 pm

Wanting a realistic estimate

Me - 8:11:45 pm

I don't know the other competition, so I can't give you a real number.

Me - 8:12:47 pm

Let's not argue over wows. Ok?

Diana - 8:14:18 pm

I'm not arguing

Diana - 8:14:23 pm

I just wanted to know

Diana - 8:14:24 pm

After the first wow I was in the 30s cause it was running

Diana - 8:14:24 pm

And was wondering if Id end up back there

Me - 8:15:36 pm

No. Even with a no score (ie don't do it) you won't drop back too far.

Diana - 8:15:47 pm

Why do I feel sad?

Diana - 8:15:52 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:15:57 pm

No worries

Me - 8:16:00 pm

Lack of hugs haha

Diana - 8:16:08 pm

Hmm

Me - 8:16:13 pm

Pfft

Diana - 8:16:13 pm

Or lack of sleep ;)

Me - 8:16:17 pm

Both

Me - 8:16:29 pm

Powerful combinAtion

Diana - 8:16:32 pm

Indeed

Me - 8:19:44 pm

Do you have kids Thursday night? Is it Friday you drop them off with their dads?

Diana - 8:20:48 pm

Friday morning to school and day care then they are with their dads until Monday

Diana - 8:20:48 pm

But yes I will have Joel Thursday night, I'll have to go grab him after I finish work

Me - 8:21:55 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:20:48 pm

Why?

Me - 8:22:05 pm

Just asking

Diana - 8:20:48 pm

Yea but why????

Diana - 8:22:24 pm

Too much time around kids ;)

Me - 8:22:32 pm

Potential availability

Me - 8:22:58 pm

Working Friday?

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

Nope

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

Off working

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

Not training

Diana - 8:22:56 pm

We going heavy Wednesday or Friday?

Diana - 8:24:39 pm

see how it feels I guess

Me - 8:24:43 pm

Yes

Me - 8:25:02 pm

I might lift heavy with you

Me - 8:25:06 pm

If that's ok

Diana - 8:25:04 pm

If I do it Wednesday I'll have Thursday at work to recover

Diana - 8:25:04 pm

Totally Id like that

Me - 8:25:22 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:25:04 pm

Well I think I'd like it

Diana - 8:25:04 pm

One really can never tell ;)

Me - 8:27:20 pm

We can decide on the day if you want "company". I lifted heavy yesterday

Me - 8:27:28 pm

Heavy-ish

Me - 8:27:46 pm

Sore back today

Me - 8:27:49 pm

A bit

Diana - 8:27:12 pm

Whatdya lift????

Me - 8:27:58 pm

110

Me - 8:28:04 pm

That's heavy

Diana - 8:27:12 pm

Deadlifts this week, squats next week

Me - 8:28:12 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:27:12 pm

It is very heavy

Diana - 8:27:12 pm

Depending on the effin woes of course

Diana - 8:27:12 pm

Wows

Me - 8:29:14 pm

And the woes too :)

Diana - 8:29:19 pm

Imagine we go heavy this week and then it's deadlift week next week!

Diana - 8:29:20 pm

Arghh

Me - 8:29:33 pm

You'll be recovered

Diana - 8:29:20 pm

Yes but I need to figure out the next goal once this is done

Me - 8:29:54 pm

Yes. Need a goal

Me - 8:30:16 pm

Kids still up?

Diana - 8:29:20 pm

Next ad is bedtime

Diana - 8:31:32 pm

I'll have to make room for lots of yoga

Diana - 8:31:49 pm

I need someone to do my nutrition and meal prepping

Diana - 8:31:56 pm

I'll google that tomorrow

Diana - 8:32:15 pm

And really focus on the 18% body fat goal

Diana - 8:32:18 pm

Maybe

Diana - 8:32:30 pm

Xmas will be a tricky time of year to do it

Diana - 8:40:00 pm

I found some very old scales, I need a 9v to see if they still work

Me - 8:41:03 pm

Scales are good to have

Diana - 8:42:08 pm

Ha!

Diana - 8:42:08 pm

Yea

Diana - 8:42:08 pm

Thanks for that insight

Me - 8:42:36 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:42:08 pm

I'll stop bothering you

Diana - 8:42:08 pm

Have a good night

Me - 8:42:48 pm

Not bothering

Me - 8:42:53 pm

You ok??

Diana - 8:50:40 pm

Yea

Diana - 8:50:40 pm

Just talking texting too much again

Diana - 8:50:40 pm

Have you seen empire of the sun?

Diana - 8:52:39 pm

It's just started

Me - 8:52:43 pm

Yes a long time Go

Me - 8:52:46 pm

Ago

Diana - 8:52:47 pm

Wish I was less tired

Me - 8:52:55 pm

Record it

Diana - 8:52:48 pm

I should go to the movies soon

Me - 8:53:08 pm

Go to bed is probably best now

Diana - 8:52:48 pm

And there I go again

Me - 8:53:32 pm

What?

Diana - 8:52:48 pm

I'm sorry

Diana - 8:52:48 pm

I'm shutting the fuck up

Diana - 8:52:48 pm

I'm not ready

Diana - 8:54:56 pm

Need some time when no one is talking to me

Me - 8:55:02 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:54:56 pm

Or wanting to be carried

Diana - 8:54:56 pm

Or asking me questions

Diana - 8:54:56 pm

Just need time before sleep

Diana - 8:54:56 pm

I hope

You have a better nights sleep tonight though

Diana - 8:57:04 pm

Wow it's beautifully shot

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

Are you pissed off?

Diana - 8:59:12 pm

With me?

Me - 9:01:30 pm

No! Of course not.

Me - 9:02:09 pm

I'm wTching too now

Me - 9:02:20 pm

The ads are good! Haha

Diana - 9:01:20 pm

Infuriating Huh

Me - 9:04:43 pm

I just get worried (when you're sad) but it really is no business of mine and I know it could be annoying.

Diana - 9:05:24 pm

You worried your annoying me and I'm worried I'm annoying you

Diana - 9:05:29 pm

We're hopeless

Me - 9:07:54 pm

Friday, we can annoy each other maybe. In person. Maybe movies or something or whatever.

Me - 9:08:17 pm

I'm going to bed in a minute. But this movie is cool

Me - 9:08:27 pm

I saw it at rhe cinema

Diana - 9:08:40 pm

I should follow suit really

Diana - 9:08:53 pm

Soon

Diana - 9:08:58 pm

Sleep well

Me - 9:09:04 pm

You too

**Sunday 5 October**

Me - 11:06:19 am

Ok. I'm really doing this. Heading off to check out Glen Iris gym. Then hang out for a bit with the second fittest guy I know :) Still not feeling 100% after Friday night (no stamina eh?) so I think I'll just do one of my circuits. Hope you have a great day with your kids.

Diana - 11:14:56 am

Who's the first?

Diana - 11:14:56 am

Sounds like a good day.

Diana - 11:16:28 am

Imogen was up spewing all night, j think she may have caught gastro from the party Friday night, she's sleeping now which is great and has been since about 5. Not sure if I'll make it to the gym tomorrow at this point I'll see how she recovers today

Diana - 11:16:34 am

hope glen iris goes well

Me - 11:59:12 am

I hope Imogen recovers quickly, they often do with that sort of thing once it's out of their system. So, another sleepless night. Bummer!

Me - 11:59:30 am

Glen Iris won't work I don't think.

Me - 12:01:24 pm

Lots of space here to do stuff though

Me - 12:02:11 pm

Could really do the functional training. Lots of room for those rotational plyometric lunges :)

Me - 12:03:19 pm

Downstairs. 13 treadmills in the functional training area.

Diana - 12:03:43 pm

Why not design a new program?

Diana - 12:03:53 pm

Specialist program only 10 at a time

Diana - 12:03:56 pm

For endurance

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

Or older people

Me - 12:04:07 pm

Good idea.

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

Or make something else up

Diana - 12:04:21 pm

An older persons running group would be good

Diana - 12:04:29 pm

Especially in that area

Diana - 12:04:53 pm

I think that may have been where they filmed one of the wows, I remember seeing the floor surface and taking note

Me - 12:05:00 pm

There's a cafe too! :)

Diana - 12:05:09 pm

I've got the ideas ;) they come with strings though ;))

Diana - 12:05:15 pm

Imogen is still aslepp

Diana - 12:05:38 pm

I'm going to get someone to drop around some Panadol, I'm out and don't want to take her outside today

Diana - 12:05:46 pm

I'm doing washing, lots of it.

Me - 12:05:52 pm

The more ideas the better. Thanks.

Diana - 12:05:58 pm

I'm even cooking a roast and doing some meal prep

Me - 12:06:08 pm

Yay! Domesticated!

Diana - 12:06:07 pm

I'm not innately domestic however

Diana - 12:06:08 pm

It's a real effort

Diana - 12:06:08 pm

I just want her to feel cosy

Me - 12:06:30 pm

Enjoy it. It's cool "providing"

Me - 12:06:35 pm

I think so

Me - 12:07:04 pm

I used to love that feeling of domestic satisfaction

Me - 12:07:13 pm

Everyone happy and safe and sound

Me - 12:07:18 pm

Washing done

Me - 12:07:25 pm

Yogurt made

Me - 12:07:31 pm

Bread made

Me - 12:07:40 pm

Alpacas fed :)

Me - 12:07:51 pm

Birds fed

Me - 12:07:57 pm

Dogs fed

Me - 12:08:02 pm

Phew!!

Diana - 12:08:04 pm

The animals I could do

Diana - 12:08:10 pm

It's the cooking and cleaning I hate

Me - 12:08:11 pm

Exhausted even remembering haha

Me - 12:08:22 pm

Yeah cleaning sucks!!

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Give me animals anyday horses and dogs

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Yea there's a lot of bedding to wash

Me - 12:08:41 pm

Horses are too big

Diana - 12:08:51 pm

Horses help me breathe

Me - 12:09:05 pm

Farm girl really?

Me - 12:09:09 pm

:)

Diana - 12:09:14 pm

I'm cooking up some brown rice. I think one of my dieting issues is removing too many carbs

Me - 12:09:41 pm

Complex carbs are good. I believe anyway

Diana - 12:09:54 pm

From a young girl I lived on land and rode horses

Me - 12:09:56 pm

Really?

Diana - 12:10:03 pm

Only about 10 acres but it was still cool

Me - 12:10:14 pm

10 acres is enough

Diana - 12:10:22 pm

10 acres is perfect

Me - 12:10:25 pm

On tv looked good

Me - 12:10:43 pm

I guess that's tv though

Diana - 12:10:24 pm

Check ;)

Diana - 12:10:24 pm

Do a rehabilitation running group.

Diana - 12:11:06 pm

You've got Cabrini nearby

Diana - 12:11:11 pm

And other hospitals

Diana - 12:11:15 pm

It would be perfect

Me - 12:11:15 pm

Haha yeah!

Me - 12:11:27 pm

Not joking

Me - 12:11:35 pm

That would be good.

Diana - 12:11:40 pm

No I'm not joking

Diana - 12:11:43 pm

Why would I be?

Diana - 12:11:54 pm

Oh you're not on the Sarcometer?

Me - 12:13:35 pm

No sarcasm. You're the ideas person. I have trouble thinking like this for work related stuff. I can implement but need ideas to try out. Want a (very) low paying job as ideas executive :-)

Me - 12:16:47 pm

Gojnf to train now. But seriously, write down some ideas for me. That would be awesome. Thanks! Or send them in an email, texts will get lost. See you later

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

Pfft

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

My little girl woke up. I'm running a bubble bath!

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

Think of your own ideas!

Diana - 12:34:49 pm

And break a leg

Diana - 12:34:53 pm

Seriously :p

Me - 12:54:55 pm

:-) Searching through texts it is then haha. About finished the workout. Nice gym here. But then, there are always ideas :-)

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

Yes just what I need, to put more energy into things that don't benefit me or the kids :/

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

I'm on my big computer

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

For the first time in a year

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

There are no batteries for the keyboard and j can't leave to get any

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

But just working on a photo makes me want to cry! In a good way

Diana - 2:49:58 pm

A zillion loads of washing done and food cooked. Surely it's grass time

Me - 3:26:55 pm

Just got home. I ate half a packet of chocolate covered teddy bear biscuits! I can see why having that stuff in the cupboard would be dangerous :-)

Diana - 3:26:40 pm

Thank god theres anti nausea medication for adults or it'd be a real mess over here

Me - 3:27:33 pm

Steve and Vicky helped with the gym selection. There are better options than Glen Iris

Diana - 3:26:40 pm

Oh yum!

Diana - 3:26:40 pm

They were my favourite when I was a young stoner listening to Neil young ;)

Me - 3:27:56 pm

Throwing up still happening?

Diana - 3:28:21 pm

No, she hasn't thrown up since this morning

Diana - 3:28:40 pm

Glad I'm off the suggestions hook, what are their suggestions?

Diana - 3:28:48 pm

I'm taking maxalon to stop throwing up

Me - 3:29:22 pm

Are you throwing up niw?

Diana - 3:28:48 pm

No, I took maxalon as soon as I felt sick

Diana - 3:30:53 pm

I have it on hand, I usually end up on hospital with gastro so docs keep me supplied

Diana - 3:30:53 pm

I don't think I'll be up for the wow though

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

So are you fired up? Workwise?

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

I'm out of pegs! Now that's a lot of washing :)

Me - 3:36:52 pm

So gastro affects you that bad? That's horrible. Good you have stuff on hand, I guess. As long as it works.

Me - 3:37:45 pm

I've had a new towel washing weekend. Filled up the dryer lint trap many times haha

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

It might not now, but when the kids got it when I was younger I was hospitalised both times

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

Just from being run down

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

I'm much stronger now

Me - 3:38:07 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

Getting sleep now they're older

Me - 3:38:35 pm

Sleep is the key. Hard to get enough

Me - 3:38:48 pm

Good sleep

Me - 3:38:55 pm

Contiguous sleep

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

I'm just taking whatever j need to get what needs to get done done, her bedroom and mine really needed some work and they need healthy food

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

Lucky it's a short day today :)

Me - 3:39:45 pm

Done your hard rubbish?

Me - 3:39:51 pm

Doing mine now

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

Uhm no

Diana - 3:41:54 pm

Don't have the energy for that today

Diana - 3:42:07 pm

Normal bins out will do me

Me - 3:42:11 pm

Can you put our cardboard boxes? Doesn't say you can't. Hmmm

Me - 3:42:56 pm

I've got lots. From workout supplements :-)

Diana - 3:44:13 pm

So you're keeping your work stuff secret Huh?

Diana - 3:44:32 pm

You have a not so discreet way of avoiding questions you don't want to answer

Diana - 3:44:45 pm

Why don't you put the boxes in normal recycling?

Diana - 3:45:01 pm

I want to go out and shoot

Diana - 3:45:15 pm

I have no idea why or what but I think I feel like it

Diana - 3:45:23 pm

This week if I find time

Me - 3:45:30 pm

No. We just went through the east side of town gyms. And had a good look at what they have. Vicki is much better than me at figuring stuff out

Me - 3:45:53 pm

Shoot?

Me - 3:46:52 pm

Hmmmm?

Me - 3:46:52 pm

Something else new? I don't know :-)

Diana - 3:46:27 pm

I'd ask you to come but it always involves a drive ;)

Me - 3:46:54 pm

Ask, I can only groan :-)

Me - 3:47:09 pm

Seriously what is it?

Me - 3:47:24 pm

I drove today!!!

Me - 3:47:31 pm

Wasn't too bad

Me - 3:47:48 pm

What music solution do you have for in car?

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

Shooting isn't new

Me - 3:48:18 pm

I only have one of those radio thjngs that pick up from your phone

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

It's just coming out of dormancy

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

Maybe

Me - 3:48:33 pm

When and where?

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

Plug my phone in

Me - 3:48:44 pm

And who? Hahaha

Diana - 3:49:04 pm

I don't know. Let me get through the rest of the day being the best mum I can, creativity comes after that

Diana - 3:49:33 pm

I want to shoot bodies, as macro level of fitness

Diana - 3:49:43 pm

But j need to get back into the swing of things first

Me - 3:50:47 pm

I've never shot

Diana - 3:51:31 pm

As in photography

Diana - 3:51:38 pm

What did you think I meant?????

Me - 3:52:59 pm

Hahahaha. I REALLY thought you meant shoot a gun!!! And I was thinking, like, WOW!!! :-)

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

Bahahahahahahahaha!!

Diana - 3:53:17 pm

You're hilarious

Me - 3:53:43 pm

Even when I'm not trying to be

Me - 3:53:56 pm

That's mostly when I am :)

Me - 3:54:08 pm

Hilarious

Diana - 3:54:24 pm

Me, the hippy that struggles to eat meat! What did you think I'd shoot?

Me - 3:55:28 pm

Ok. I feel much safer accepting your photographic "shoot" invitation :)

Me - 3:55:48 pm

I had no idea!! Hence the worried WOW. :)

Me - 3:56:32 pm

Ok. No cardboard boxes then

Diana - 3:58:30 pm

I'm going for more coffee

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

And phernergan to stop tummy pains.

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

She won't be ok for school tomorrow the poor little poppet

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

I mean I could send her but she is weak and rundown and it would just be mean

Me - 4:00:24 pm

Yeah. It's the stuff you have to do. Your plans cone second.

Diana - 4:00:31 pm

You don't have to come shoot, I can be pretty annoying with a camera in my hand

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

Yes it's ok. It's my role and I don't resent it

Me - 4:00:53 pm

Really? Just like normal than right :)

Me - 4:01:00 pm

Then

Me - 4:01:04 pm

Joking

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

Yes.

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

And no you're not

Me - 4:01:28 pm

I've love to come and watch

Me - 4:01:35 pm

At least once

Me - 4:01:40 pm

See what it's like

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

It's like watching a girl with a camera be bossy and annoying

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

Nothing special

Me - 4:01:59 pm

I can carry stuff

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

Haha!

Me - 4:02:18 pm

I can be annoying, if you want balance haha

Me - 4:03:09 pm

Ok. So no gym tomorrow. Right?

Me - 4:03:17 pm

I'll go in later

Me - 4:04:02 pm

I'll have a little play with the treadmills, get ready for the wow

Me - 4:04:21 pm

You're no supposed to touch the treadmill during the wow

Me - 4:04:30 pm

A bit odd really

Diana - 4:02:56 pm

I might come in, but I won't know until later, so just do whatever you need to

Me - 4:04:45 pm

Ok

Diana - 4:04:48 pm

What do you mean you're not allowed to touch them?

Diana - 4:05:02 pm

There's nothing in the world like clean sheets

Me - 4:05:06 pm

You aren't supposed to touch the contrails

Me - 4:05:10 pm

Controls

Diana - 4:05:04 pm

It's something I'm still grateful for after all these years

Diana - 4:05:04 pm

Right so you just choose your speed and hope to god you can keep up?

Me - 4:05:38 pm

No

Diana - 4:05:04 pm

I dont get it

Me - 4:05:44 pm

Trainer can adjust

Me - 4:06:02 pm

But, apparently, not you.

Me - 4:06:10 pm

As I said, a bit odd

Diana - 4:05:04 pm

they're trying to give the trainers a bigger role ;)

Me - 4:06:38 pm

Maybe

Me - 4:06:51 pm

Push buttons!! Yay!

Diana - 4:07:01 pm

I'd like to come in and move a little, or else I won't have been to the gym for 5 days and that's too long

Me - 4:07:06 pm

About the level of most trainers

Me - 4:07:16 pm

Oh!! Did I say that?? Haha

Me - 4:07:29 pm

Delete delete

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

Why yes you did!!!

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

Worse case I could go in on the afternoon and put the kids in kidsfit

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

Serious question, are you resentful at me, in any way after out drunken slather?

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

Just be hard to hang out in the gym without knowing first

Me - 4:16:36 pm

Are we back on serious stuff texting? I think we've worked out that that mostly causes problems. But, the answer, is no. Friday night was great. Not up there with Saturday non grass but really good. It was good having the excuse of wine to say some heavy stuff that shouldn't (really) be said via text. The answers to various questions/options/where we go from here stuff are not for texting. Let's hang out when we can and have fun. Those issues will be sorted out over time doing stuff together. Is that all right? Texting is for the intimate connection we have sharing our lives but not too serious. Let's leave non-gym times for working stuff out and enjoying each other's company. Is that ok? Although, I've been the worst culprit in making texting something it's not. I'll get better. Promise.

Me - 4:18:07 pm

Essay over. Phew

Diana - 4:18:45 pm

Cool

Diana - 4:18:49 pm

That's all fine with me

Diana - 4:19:20 pm

I just wasn't sure and because I'm tired I'm easily confused and misinterpret stuff

Diana - 4:19:36 pm

So I'm glad for the clarification that all is well

Me - 4:19:40 pm

It's all good. It always has been

Diana - 4:19:55 pm

And I agree.

Me - 4:20:02 pm

Perfect!

Diana - 4:20:00 pm

:)

Diana - 4:23:43 pm

Maybe Imogen will be well enough to go into the gym crèche for an hour tomorrow with Joel. I'll see how she is

Me - 4:25:36 pm

Ok. Just let me know if you want any assistance from me. I might go in after 10, if I don't hear from you.

Me - 4:27:38 pm

Steve and Vicki (friends today) and I have a funny relationship. Steve and I were (are) best mates through work. Then Vicki and I became best mates through play dates, etc with young children.

Diana - 4:27:51 pm

I wouldn't put them In u til the 1030 session anyway

Diana - 4:27:54 pm

Oh that's the couple

Diana - 4:27:58 pm

You told me about that

Diana - 4:28:06 pm

So who are you best friends with now?

Diana - 4:28:18 pm

And how did steve handle that?

Me - 4:28:57 pm

Hmmmm. Probably Steve. We just spent a few years together trying to get the software company running

Me - 4:29:15 pm

Steve was absolutely fine. Secure in relationship

Me - 4:29:41 pm

And Vicki and I really are just great friends.

Me - 4:31:17 pm

It's unique for me, at least, having both people in a relationship as good friends in their own right. Not just because of the relRionship and you know one of them well. Do you have any like that?

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

No not where I'm good friends with both

Me - 4:32:19 pm

They're both really smart too.

Diana - 4:32:34 pm

Neil and I are close, we will always love eachother but it just didn't work. We tried twice since we were 25. Sharing a child and talking or texting most days is the best way for us

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

He actually just gave up ciggies and did the 1000 steps with his girlfriend! Just told me, it's really great cause he has hepatitis c

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

He would take the kids tomorrow, I'll ask

Me - 4:33:52 pm

Hep c is really tough

Me - 4:33:58 pm

Dangerous

Me - 4:34:03 pm

Potentially

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

I know

Me - 4:34:20 pm

That's great that he's doing that

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

I've lost people to it

Me - 4:34:42 pm

I guess you would. Comes with the territory

Diana - 4:34:50 pm

He's done interferon twice

Diana - 4:34:53 pm

I never got it

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

I never ever shared a needle

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

I did but I always used first

Me - 4:35:09 pm

He was a junkie too?

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

Yes

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

We met when we were young and crazy in a half way house and fell madly in love!

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

As you tend to

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

Sorry I didn't mean to take away from your story

Me - 4:36:08 pm

My story is over

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

I'm not friends with both partners of any couple I know though

Me - 4:36:40 pm

Nor am I. Except Steve and Vicki

Me - 4:36:55 pm

And never have been before either

Me - 4:37:05 pm

It's just interesting

Me - 4:37:21 pm

I don't know if it's that frequent

Me - 4:37:27 pm

I guess not

Diana - 4:37:04 pm

Maybe when couples have been friends for so long it is

Me - 4:38:20 pm

Maybe

Diana - 4:37:04 pm

Imogen has a friend who's dad I am good friends with because he is the stay at home parent

Diana - 4:39:07 pm

In fact it's hard for a week to go by without them dropping in

Me - 4:39:20 pm

Yeah. I had lots of mum friends

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

His wife is nice too but I'm more connected with him.

Me - 4:39:39 pm

After school play dates Nd cups of tea and a chat haha

Me - 4:40:02 pm

It was nice

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

But I would say real friends, the kind that keep you going, all of mine but 2 would be females

Me - 4:40:11 pm

Just friends

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

Was infidelity a part of why your relationship fell apart with your wife?

Me - 4:40:55 pm

No!

Me - 4:41:02 pm

Absolutely not!!

Me - 4:41:35 pm

Not on my part anyway.

Me - 4:41:58 pm

I lost a lot of friends through the breakup

Me - 4:42:11 pm

They took sides or were embarrassed

Me - 4:42:33 pm

Easier for them, I guess, to not see either of us.

Me - 4:42:37 pm

A bit sad

Diana - 4:42:49 pm

Embarassed?

Diana - 4:42:57 pm

It is sad

Me - 4:42:58 pm

Some of the mums were really good fun to hang out with

Diana - 4:43:05 pm

It would be tricky

Me - 4:43:20 pm

Yes. That's why they stopped I guess

Diana - 4:43:28 pm

Do you have many male friends? Apart from Steve and his wife?

Me - 4:43:30 pm

And moved away

Me - 4:43:40 pm

A few

Diana - 4:43:46 pm

Or are

You predominant drawn towards women as friends

Me - 4:43:48 pm

Close friends I mean

Me - 4:44:02 pm

Probably 2

Me - 4:44:07 pm

Close

Diana - 4:44:18 pm

The mums were your close friends?

Me - 4:44:24 pm

Known one since I was 14

Me - 4:44:31 pm

Good friends

Me - 4:45:02 pm

But we "talked" about stuff. At play dates eyc

Me - 4:45:13 pm

Just like I was another mum

Me - 4:45:23 pm

It was cool to be accepted like that

Me - 4:45:33 pm

No other dads like me

Me - 4:45:58 pm

I think some husbands were threatened, a bit

Diana - 4:45:59 pm

And your wife? What did she think?

Diana - 4:46:20 pm

You would have enjoyed that though. I imagine

Me - 4:46:24 pm

She was jealous I think. It was hard working full time

Me - 4:46:38 pm

And feeling guilty

Diana - 4:46:42 pm

You think? You didn't talk about it?

Me - 4:46:43 pm

About being absent

Me - 4:47:00 pm

I tried to :-)

Diana - 4:47:13 pm

I would be jealous too

Diana - 4:47:20 pm

And I'd hate to be away from my kids

Me - 4:47:46 pm

Best decision i ever made! Stay at home.

Me - 4:47:57 pm

My wife wasn't the stay at home type

Me - 4:48:06 pm

It's what she wanted

Me - 4:48:14 pm

But still conflicted

Diana - 4:48:23 pm

You didn't long for male company?

Me - 4:48:40 pm

I had male company!

Diana - 4:48:42 pm

Or did you just enjoy the attention of the women?

Me - 4:48:46 pm

I surfed.

Me - 4:49:00 pm

I get on better with women

Diana - 4:49:01 pm

Fair enough

Me - 4:49:12 pm

Haven't you noticed?

Diana - 4:49:21 pm

Yes it's easy to see

Me - 4:49:24 pm

How unmanly I am haha

Me - 4:49:42 pm

Don't like talking crap and showing off

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

That's not what real men do

Me - 4:49:59 pm

I know

Me - 4:50:02 pm

Just most

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

That's what young boys do

Me - 4:50:05 pm

Haha

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

You have a pretty terrible view of men

Me - 4:50:22 pm

Men are still young boys unfortunately

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

And an idealised view of women

Me - 4:50:27 pm

Yes

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

I would say

Me - 4:50:29 pm

Yes

Me - 4:52:15 pm

But I still judge people as individuals. Maybe I've just met a better class of women than I have of men :-)

Diana - 4:52:00 pm

It's astonishing that one can live a whole life and then die still reacting to ones experiences of the past, and never quite rewriting their story to reclaim their lives and create their own truth.

Diana - 4:52:00 pm

I'm trying to not do that

Diana - 4:52:49 pm

I have so much work to do

Diana - 4:52:55 pm

To rewrite my story

Me - 4:54:14 pm

Can you really competely rewrite it? Isn't that trying to forget stuff that makes you what you are?

Me - 4:54:48 pm

Tough stuff should be forgotten. Really toght stuff

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

Your relationship with your father and their impacts still affects your day to day life, as does mine. I'm doing everything I can to ensure the pattern doesn't repeat into the next generation. I work so hard to create a new and close and beautiful relationship with Imogen, totally unlike like what my mother gave me, but I watch, as though I'm a third person, myself have inbuilt reactions and tendencies on how to behave towards a daughter

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

It's so discombobulating

Me - 4:55:21 pm

I understand completely!!

Me - 4:55:35 pm

I did, am doing, the same rhing

Diana - 4:55:39 pm

You see it for what it is and you don't react from that place. It's not a literal rewrite

Me - 4:55:44 pm

Determined to not be my father

Diana - 4:56:01 pm

Yes I see the difference in the relationship between you and your son compared to that of your daughter

Me - 4:56:03 pm

Hugs from an early age!! Haha

Diana - 4:56:12 pm

It's not easy to change

Me - 4:56:14 pm

Really? What?

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

You're much more distant

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

Like you're not quite sure what he wants

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

You try to read him first

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

Whereas with your daughter you're not afraid of rejection

Me - 4:57:10 pm

No

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

However I should shut the fuck up

Me - 4:57:18 pm

You're probably right

Diana - 4:57:27 pm

Because I've only seen you with your son once and briefly and in a gym

Diana - 4:57:40 pm

so I'm sorry for saying anything

Diana - 4:57:44 pm

Shit

Diana - 4:57:58 pm

I've totally overstepped a boundary and I'm real really sorry

Me - 4:58:28 pm

No boundaries overstepped with me

Me - 4:58:32 pm

I'm fine

Diana - 4:58:24 pm

Of course, that's the dynamic. It couldn't be anything else with the way you feel about men

Diana - 4:58:24 pm

You couldn't have created that with your son cause it wasn't safe

Diana - 4:58:24 pm

Maybe

Diana - 4:58:24 pm

It's like me with Imogen

Diana - 4:58:24 pm

I feel so easy and safe with Joel

Diana - 4:58:24 pm

I have to really work at it

Diana - 4:58:24 pm

And think hard of ways to connect and move through my fear and change with her

Diana - 4:58:24 pm

So that we can find that place of fearless love

Diana - 4:59:44 pm

I shit myself everyday with her

Diana - 4:59:46 pm

Honestly

Diana - 5:00:00 pm

And some times I juts want to give up cause I don't know what the fuck I am doing

Diana - 5:00:13 pm

Then I remember why I'm here and why she chose me to be her mum

Diana - 5:00:30 pm

Fuck me! Where did all that come from????

Me - 5:00:34 pm

I don't think we ever know what we're doing with raising kids

Diana - 5:00:32 pm

Sorry :/

Diana - 5:00:32 pm

See what fatigue does to me!!!

Me - 5:01:28 pm

I was always scared with my kids and wether I was doing enough or too much.

Me - 5:02:44 pm

Text can't keep up with these conversations. And they should be one sided. The other person is listening. I've been listening.

Me - 5:03:34 pm

It's times like these when the barriers are down that the important stuff comes out.

Diana - 5:04:28 pm

Yes

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

I always seem to attract me who have issues with men and get along better with women.

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

It worries me.

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

This in itself

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

Of itself

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

It can mean that the man is more emotional that most so seeks out female company

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

Or it means that the man isn't quite grown up and doesn't know how to be a man due to a lack of decent role model

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

And thus seeks female attention for mothering and or egotistical reasons

Diana - 5:06:56 pm

Yesterday at Imogen's play date I saw Fred, baking as husband showing his son how to make a vegetable patch, then Lucas just pulled out his doodle and weed and Fred and him laughed their heads off. It was so beautiful it nearly made me cry

Diana - 5:06:56 pm

And there was a dad showing a little boy how to be a man in the house

Diana - 5:09:02 pm

It was so simple and yet so incredible

Diana - 5:09:04 pm

Is this heavy?

Diana - 5:09:04 pm

Have I lost the plot? T

Diana - 5:09:04 pm

Too much medication ;)

Diana - 5:09:04 pm

Sorry again

Me - 5:10:51 pm

Its a bit generalized. Maybe true in some cases. Not all men are like that, I'm sure.

Diana - 5:11:12 pm

Now you're defending men ;))

Me - 5:11:34 pm

Ahhh, in case you didn't notice, I am one!

Diana - 5:11:44 pm

Hahaha!

Me - 5:11:59 pm

Is it the soft hands?

Me - 5:12:15 pm

The gentle voice?

Me - 5:12:22 pm

:)

Diana - 5:13:30 pm

Yes I noticed

Me - 5:14:13 pm

:-)

Diana - 5:16:04 pm

Haha!

Diana - 5:16:13 pm

Nope the calves

Diana - 5:16:17 pm

I have calf envy

Diana - 5:16:35 pm

And your body fat

Diana - 5:16:40 pm

I am envious of that also

Me - 5:16:50 pm

Wit and intellect?

Diana - 5:16:58 pm

I've eaten like a pig the last few days, directly correlated to us im sure

Me - 5:17:00 pm

Don't forget those :)

Diana - 5:17:09 pm

Wit and intellect don't discriminate sexually

Me - 5:17:33 pm

Women have calves :)

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

Nice

Diana - 5:20:20 pm

I'll hire a macro lense and shoot them

Me - 5:25:22 pm

Oh! Ok. This is all becoming clear now. You're only interested in the calves. :)

Diana - 5:27:24 pm

Clearer. Only interested in shooting the calves ;)

Me - 8:05:59 pm

All quiet on the home front? I hope you get a good sleep tonight.

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

They just wanted to see the brothers 3 sing the justice crew song

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

Bedtime now

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

They're tired, straight to sleep I imagine

Me - 8:12:57 pm

And all night too, we hope :)

Me - 8:13:10 pm

Imogen ok?

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

We do indeed :)

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

Yes she hasn't been sick again, just the other end. I've given her Panadol, I think she will be ok tonight

Me - 8:13:41 pm

Do you feel sick?

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

I'm ok

Me - 8:14:21 pm

Sounds like it was something she ate.

Me - 8:14:33 pm

That's good, in a way

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Maybe

Me - 8:14:44 pm

Once it's out :)

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

I've felt nauseas but I have pills to stop it

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Either something she ate or something She picked up at the party

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Either way we're on the home stretch

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Unless Joel catches it and oh my god he is such a sooky sick! Talk about hard work! Imogen is a trooper luckily

Me - 8:16:06 pm

Like mum! :)

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Joel or Imogen ;)

Me - 8:16:27 pm

Imogen

Diana - 8:16:43 pm

How's your night been?

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Did you eat?

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

God ignore that

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

I sound like your Kym

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Mum

Me - 8:17:30 pm

Embarrassingly easy! Relaxing. No work.

Me - 8:17:42 pm

WRching the surfing on tv

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Not embarrassingly

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

You've done the hard yards

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

It's your time to rest

Me - 8:18:13 pm

Compared to you, yes

Me - 8:18:31 pm

Sounds like I'm ready for the grave! :-)

Me - 8:18:40 pm

Not THAT old haha

Diana - 8:18:59 pm

Not what I meant

Me - 8:19:05 pm

I know

Diana - 8:19:13 pm

Cool

Diana - 8:20:30 pm

Neil will have the kids so I can come into the gym for a bit

Diana - 8:20:42 pm

I'm glad otherswise I couldn't come in until Wednesday

Diana - 8:20:50 pm

That's a long time between drinks

Me - 8:20:51 pm

Wow or no wow?

Me - 8:21:00 pm

Tomorrow

Diana - 8:21:21 pm

Wow you always want definitives don't you?

Diana - 8:21:32 pm

Can I say I don't know?

Diana - 8:21:38 pm

See joe tonight goes?

Diana - 8:21:45 pm

Am I frustrating to work with?

Me - 8:22:18 pm

Let me know, in the morning is ok, if you want me in there before 10am.

Diana - 8:23:12 pm

No you're fine

Me - 8:23:17 pm

I'll come in then anyway, do a little workout before my 11am

Diana - 8:23:12 pm

Enjoy your morning

Diana - 8:23:12 pm

I'm dropping the kids around 10

Me - 8:23:44 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:23:56 pm

You need your sleep ins ;)

Diana - 8:24:03 pm

Now you've discovered the lake

Me - 8:24:52 pm

Big waves in France today! Triple overhead

Me - 8:25:01 pm

And a beach break

Diana - 8:25:20 pm

See your frothing for it

Diana - 8:25:20 pm

I want you to book a trip

Diana - 8:25:20 pm

Just do it

Diana - 8:25:55 pm

What have you got to lose?

Diana - 8:26:40 pm

Imagine the fodder for new books

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

Well I hope the silence at this end of the phone is due to the noise of you booking a trip on that end ;)

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

I'm off to bed incase it's another busy night

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

See you tomorrow

Me - 9:11:55 pm

Or watching Dr Who :-) See you tomorrow.

**Week Eight**

**Monday 6 October**

Me - 9:32:01 am

Did you have a busy night?

Diana - 9:34:05 am

No it was good, the kids were in with me for most of the night but they only woke at 9 so they're well rested. I should be there between 10-1030. I don't know about the wow, I feel weird saying this to you but I'm still bleeding and it's making me a little tired. Took a vitamin though and after pre workout anything is possible ;)

Diana - 9:34:18 am

Sorry that's the long version.

Me - 9:36:19 am

I'm glad it was an easier night and I hope you got some sleep too. I'll see you later this morning.

Me - 9:40:21 am

I've got a client at 11, but that's all this morning

Diana - 9:43:12 am

No worries I'll just do my own thing.

Diana - 10:36:32 am

Extremes with you Huh. You don't think as your client you should take me through the circuit? You tell me you have an 11am as though you don't have time for me as your client. I really don't think this is working out.

Diana - 1:40:00 pm

I busted my guts and still in same position :( I'm going to drop back badly this week, all I can do is hope deadlifts are part of next weeks so I can get back in top 10.

Me - 2:21:43 pm

I was told there will be deadlifts before the end. I guess, we'll just have to wait and see which WOW it is. Of course, there might be 2 with deadlifts! That would be cool.

Me - 2:22:55 pm

9th is awesome

Me - 2:24:10 pm

Just got home from training myself. Offered another guy who needs my help a free session. Sigh! :)

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

Oh dear.

Diana - 2:27:04 pm

What are you doing?

Diana - 2:27:14 pm

I want to finish in the top 10

Me - 2:28:02 pm

And you are

Diana - 2:28:13 pm

Finish!!

Diana - 2:28:23 pm

Seriously what are you doing?

Me - 2:29:04 pm

Doing? Now you mean?

Diana - 2:29:58 pm

No, giving away more free time

Me - 2:30:01 pm

Oh

Me - 2:30:11 pm

He needs it.

Me - 2:30:25 pm

It will just be a sit down and advice thing

Me - 2:30:37 pm

Probably an hour or so :)

Me - 2:30:59 pm

He does good stuff but is floundering with planning

Me - 2:31:14 pm

He's a fit young guy

Me - 2:31:16 pm

Strong

Me - 2:31:23 pm

But has been injured

Me - 2:31:31 pm

Is doing rehab

Me - 2:31:43 pm

But just needs some assistance

Me - 2:32:09 pm

I'm happy to help.

Me - 2:33:04 pm

Do think that's wrong? Seriously. I don't know. Maybe giving stuff away makes me the "free guy".

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

I don't know

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

Are you just being nice

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

Or does it stem from not believing you're worth money?

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

Or do you think you need more practice

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

I do the same thing with photography

Diana - 2:41:08 pm

I should be charging 8k a wedding, I charged 2 for the last one I did :/

Me - 2:43:24 pm

This is why I like talking to you!! No bullshit and straight to the "real" problem. :) Of course I don't (deep down) think I'm really worth it. Although, in my head, logically, I do.

Me - 2:44:07 pm

And I like to be nice too

Me - 2:44:52 pm

I really do like to help people who appreciate my help and don't expect my help

Me - 2:46:25 pm

I get a lot of pleasure out of that. Maybe that's (also) why I give stuff away. The $ make it a bit sordid. Sort of. Bad word. But do you know what I mean?

Me - 2:47:41 pm

It'll only be one session. I wouldn't give away a whole series

Diana - 2:48:08 pm

Yea I totally get it

Me - 2:48:13 pm

And it may help me, because he's one of the muscly guys

Me - 2:48:26 pm

Knows lots of other muscly guys haha

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

It hard charging for what makes you feel good and you see as a service that's win win

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

Still, it's a service I guess

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

Do it juts try to make a deal with yourself and him that you'll give him x number of sessions before he has to pay

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

Still the point is to get paid for what you love right?

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

Easy to say, still learning to do it

Me - 2:49:48 pm

I think just one session

Diana - 2:50:01 pm

That's why exhibitions were good for me, but I only over covered printing costs

Me - 2:55:44 pm

I'd love to go through some of your photos sometime. Or is your web site the best place to see them? I've seen them. They're great.

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

I really need to check that site

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

I have no idea what is on there anymore

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

I have zillions of photos on hard drives

Diana - 2:57:12 pm

The person I edit for keeps telling me to go through them, he thinks I could sell a bunch

Diana - 2:57:23 pm

It's a lot of work for income that may never come

Diana - 2:57:38 pm

I prefer to have a glass of wine put on music and play with an image.

Me - 2:57:46 pm

Gotta do it though.

Diana - 2:57:49 pm

Sometimes I play for 3 hours then delete the whole lot!

Diana - 2:57:56 pm

It's very therapeutic

Me - 2:58:00 pm

You never know what might happen

Diana - 2:58:09 pm

Indeed you don't ;)

Me - 2:59:06 pm

Maybe you need to set a time limit on how long you work on the photos so you don't give up.

Me - 2:59:34 pm

Then save them somewhere you can't delete and look again another day

Diana - 2:59:42 pm

It's more about experimenting with looks

Diana - 2:59:50 pm

The deleting is part of the process

Diana - 2:59:57 pm

But yea I probably need a manager

Diana - 3:00:11 pm

Well that's what I've been told ;)

Diana - 3:00:35 pm

It's more just playing though that I enjoy. And I've not been inspired to shoot anything for a while

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

I'd like to do some liquid style b&w muscle shots. It will be a process getting to that point and getting the lighting, and then the people and the location.

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

Maybe the gym manager would let me use the gym at night

Me - 3:01:47 pm

Well, you have access to calves now :-) Feel inspired!!! :-)

Me - 3:03:28 pm

Gym at night would be good, but late. Doesn't it close at 10pm?

Diana - 3:03:53 pm

Well on the weekend after close would be best

Me - 3:03:57 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:03:58 pm

Don't want people watching

Me - 3:04:15 pm

That's 5 isn't it?

Diana - 3:04:16 pm

And I'd want to do nudes

Diana - 3:04:31 pm

But I'd need lots of practice before getting to that

Diana - 3:04:35 pm

I've done them before

Diana - 3:04:56 pm

But it's a specific shadowed look Id want

Me - 3:05:40 pm

I've heard it's tough doing nudes. Both for artist and model. Physically tough. Lots of holding position.

Me - 3:06:29 pm

A good static, bodyweight workout

Me - 3:07:38 pm

Do you want to do both sexes?

Diana - 3:09:01 pm

I guess so

Diana - 3:09:15 pm

I haven't thought about sex as much as muscle

Diana - 3:09:28 pm

I've done nudes before, I'm ok at making people comfortable

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

Usually the type of people who want to pose are pretty into themselves and if anything need toning down

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

And to let go of what they think it should look like

Diana - 3:10:46 pm

I haven't thought about it for months

Diana - 3:11:25 pm

I really think yoga, whether I do it as a course or not will move me back in a creative direction

Diana - 3:24:32 pm

These are screen shots of the last shoot I did

Diana - 3:24:32 pm

That was over a year ago now

Diana - 3:26:36 pm

It really takes forever to set up!

Diana - 3:26:36 pm

They look terrible as shots taken with the phone off the computer screen :/

Diana - 3:26:37 pm

I've just drawn more rainbows unicorns love hearts and racing car drivers on podiums than I care to remember

Diana - 3:26:37 pm

Argh my arm! :)

Me - 3:31:15 pm

Great photos. At first glance I like the 2nd one better. Great lighting and with the face barely discernible.

Diana - 3:32:26 pm

The face is more hidden in real life

Diana - 3:32:37 pm

It's all reflected and blah off screen

Me - 3:33:23 pm

It might turn it into something else, but the 2nd one would be great without the dress. I guess lighting and shadow could be used to not make it too obvious.

Me - 3:33:37 pm

Great stuff

Me - 3:33:59 pm

Last one is really cool

Diana - 3:35:06 pm

My

Lecturers favourite was the third the oranges need knocking back though

Me - 3:35:25 pm

3rd is blurry. The phone.

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

Anyway they're from a long time ago now

Diana - 3:36:30 pm

I think the skirt works in the 2nd, it'd be too obvious with nothing.

Diana - 3:36:40 pm

Still everyone's tastes are different

Diana - 3:36:50 pm

No one has seen these photos

Me - 3:36:52 pm

Yeah. I wouldn't reLly know

Me - 3:37:04 pm

Really? They're good

Diana - 3:37:09 pm

Except the lecturer and a few other students

Diana - 3:37:18 pm

And of course the model, she is one of my oldest friends

Me - 3:37:26 pm

Is this stuff you would sell?

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

I was told to use someone younger whose boobs were perkier

Me - 3:37:44 pm

Hahaha

Me - 3:37:53 pm

That's too obvious!!

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

I get what he is saying, but we worked really well together and that was more important at that point

Me - 3:38:28 pm

She has real character, you can see that

Diana - 3:38:41 pm

Well he was coming from an advertising perspective. He was a genius with lighting. And he worked with me well and often late when the studio was empty

Diana - 3:38:50 pm

I didn't like shooting when others were about

Diana - 3:38:56 pm

Yep she's a good one.

Me - 3:39:30 pm

It's tough with nudes isn't it? Doing it with lots if people about?

Diana - 3:39:28 pm

As soon as I stopped doing na she started doing aa! So we haven't had a drink together since I was 25! Hilarious really

Diana - 3:39:28 pm

I was after a certain feel, couldn't get it with inteference

Me - 3:40:01 pm

Tea, coffee.

Diana - 3:39:28 pm

I need a lot of space to do photpgraphy

Diana - 3:39:28 pm

Bet you'd never guess that ;)

Me - 3:40:32 pm

How long does A shoot like that take?

Me - 3:40:46 pm

Space? I get the space :)

Diana - 3:40:55 pm

About 3 hours

Diana - 3:41:02 pm

To set up backdrops and lighting

Me - 3:41:06 pm

Need summer or a heater!

Diana - 3:41:25 pm

I'd want to start with someone I knew to begin with

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

If holly was leaner she'd be prefect and i reckon she'd be into it

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

Practice for her

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

And Michael

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

They both want to get ready for comps

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

Anyway I'm busy enough!

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

Last coffee for the day time

Me - 3:42:56 pm

I'm still going with coffee. And I've put the heater on again! Sigh!

Diana - 3:43:44 pm

Our heater is on too

Me - 3:44:18 pm

I don't think Michael is doing any comps.

Diana - 3:43:44 pm

And scooby Doo

Me - 3:44:28 pm

1 or 2?

Diana - 3:43:44 pm

http://www.strengthsensei.com/10-deadlift-trade-secrets/ what do you think of this?

Me - 3:44:31 pm

Or tv

Diana - 3:43:44 pm

Oh ok

Diana - 3:43:44 pm

Holly said her and Michael were thinking about comps

Me - 3:44:48 pm

Oh

Diana - 3:43:44 pm

There's one in March she is thinking of prepping for

Me - 3:44:55 pm

I knew holly was

Diana - 3:45:02 pm

But I could have misheard

Me - 3:45:42 pm

I'll ask Michael. Just out of interest. I didn't know.

Me - 3:46:09 pm

And you've got my calves to shoot! That will keep you busy enough right? :)

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

I'm probably wrong

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

I usually am

Me - 3:46:23 pm

Holly is, do sure

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

She said she was 24% body fat

Me - 3:46:27 pm

For sure

Me - 3:46:34 pm

Raeally?

Me - 3:46:46 pm

She needs to drop that

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

And she classed herself as athletic from the tanita machine

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Said I should class myself as that as well

Me - 3:46:56 pm

Wow

Me - 3:47:00 pm

We did

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

I'm not so sure

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Yea it's high Huh!

Me - 3:47:10 pm

Remeber we odd both

Me - 3:47:15 pm

Did both

Diana - 3:47:37 pm

we decided to go with standard in the end

Diana - 3:47:41 pm

Which left me at 22

Diana - 3:47:45 pm

18 at athletic

Me - 3:47:49 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

Don't worry I remember every number on those bloody printouts!

Me - 3:48:06 pm

Haha

Me - 3:48:26 pm

I'd be higher if I used standard

Me - 3:48:37 pm

Not sure which to use

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

I have these women that tell me theyd be happy to look like me yet I'm

Miserable

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

Life I guess

Me - 3:48:44 pm

But you looked it up

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

You're totes athletic

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

Don't go near standard

Me - 3:49:07 pm

Yeah! You're everything Donna wants to be

Me - 3:49:17 pm

She's told me that many times

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

You can't be fucking serious

Me - 3:49:34 pm

Weight wise

Diana - 3:50:00 pm

I told her she'd get here

Diana - 3:50:05 pm

And then be unhappy like me ;))

Me - 3:50:25 pm

Dissatisfied is a better word ;)

Diana - 3:50:08 pm

But seriously I told her it's taken a year and she needs to be patient

Diana - 3:50:08 pm

They never believe them when I tell them I was a tubber

Diana - 3:50:08 pm

Not even Bec

Me - 3:51:14 pm

Got pictures? However, I know you wouldn't share them :-)

Diana - 3:50:08 pm

I don't

Diana - 3:50:08 pm

I really don't

Diana - 3:50:08 pm

I wish I did in a way

Me - 3:51:55 pm

Were you thin as a junkie?

Diana - 3:52:03 pm

It'd be good for me to see

Diana - 3:52:12 pm

Well, I was dying from malnutrition in the end

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

So yeah

Me - 3:52:34 pm

Rehab put on weight then.

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

That's why I can't go starving myself to lose weight

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

It's a form of self harm

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

Didn't do rehab

Me - 3:53:18 pm

Just stopped then?

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

Straight out of st vinnies up to Kakadu

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

Anyway

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

Long story

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

Long and boring

Me - 3:54:25 pm

You must be strong. Changing your life like that

Me - 3:54:48 pm

I'd like to hear the long version. One day.

Diana - 3:54:24 pm

I found God ;)

Diana - 3:54:24 pm

I'm smashing today, already made dinner

Diana - 3:54:24 pm

Coffee and scooby Doo and the samurai sword :)

Me - 3:55:29 pm

Haha

Me - 3:55:43 pm

I'm behind schedule...

Me - 3:55:58 pm

Haven't done my massage paperwork design

Me - 3:56:03 pm

Too boring

Me - 3:56:10 pm

But impoetant

Me - 3:56:42 pm

This is client intake forms and treatment records

Me - 3:56:47 pm

Boring

Me - 3:57:13 pm

Will take an hour, tops! But life is too short! Haha

Diana - 3:56:32 pm

Think of the money?

Diana - 3:56:32 pm

Doesn't get me moving either ;)

Diana - 3:56:32 pm

Hey have you even practiced on anyone yet?

Me - 3:58:26 pm

My daughter last week, that's all

Me - 3:58:35 pm

Offering?

Me - 3:58:56 pm

Maybe Michael and holly next week

Me - 3:59:16 pm

But once the crèche is set up and ready

Me - 3:59:22 pm

Trial run

Me - 3:59:26 pm

Or two

Me - 3:59:36 pm

Or three

Diana - 3:59:48 pm

Yep you can have a practice on me

Me - 3:59:57 pm

When?

Diana - 3:59:58 pm

I'll try to be more annoying than normal

Me - 4:00:12 pm

Constructive criticism

Diana - 4:00:15 pm

Just so you practice tolerance

Me - 4:00:19 pm

Hahaa

Diana - 4:00:27 pm

And practice massaging fat people too

Me - 4:00:29 pm

Tolerance I have :)

Diana - 4:00:35 pm

We know you have a phobia about that ;$)

Me - 4:00:55 pm

So, when suits you?

Me - 4:01:30 pm

Maybe Friday is the earliest? Right?

Me - 4:03:01 pm

Want to try trail running on Saturday? Weather looks good.

Me - 4:03:55 pm

Or beach. Paddling and running maybe.

Diana - 4:04:05 pm

Yea the weather looks great

Diana - 4:04:17 pm

Did you read the link on deadlifts

Me - 4:04:33 pm

Not yet I will now

Diana - 4:04:36 pm

If I get 110

Up do j have to drop it gently or can I juts drop it

Diana - 4:04:45 pm

I mean it's about lifting it right?

Diana - 4:04:48 pm

Not getting it back down

Diana - 4:05:04 pm

Dropping it gently was one of the hardest parts I found when going heavy last time

Me - 4:05:13 pm

Yes and no. Lowering it will help you get to 115 quicker

Diana - 4:05:04 pm

Friday or Saturday yes

Me - 4:05:28 pm

Friday is ok?

Me - 4:05:36 pm

After gym maybe?

Diana - 4:05:42 pm

Are we talking deadlifts or massage

Diana - 4:05:48 pm

Or can we juts play it by ear

Me - 4:05:51 pm

Or running

Diana - 4:05:55 pm

I know you don't like to do that

Diana - 4:05:59 pm

Or Friday for sure

Diana - 4:06:08 pm

Saturday could he rest day

Diana - 4:06:15 pm

Especially if doing heavy Friday

Diana - 4:06:29 pm

Hey, so if I lower it at 100 can I drop it at 105?

Diana - 4:06:34 pm

I'm talking to make it count

Me - 4:06:36 pm

Ok. Play it by ear. I'll try it and see how it feels :)

Diana - 4:06:44 pm

Not building strength for next

Time

Me - 4:06:59 pm

Lift it and it counts

Diana - 4:07:11 pm

Try what? Massaging me? And then stop cause it feels shit ;))

Me - 4:07:15 pm

Personally, I don't like dropping it

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

Ok lift and it counts

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

Good.

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

I know it's not ideal but we are talking 110

Fucking kilos

Me - 4:07:42 pm

I know lots

Me - 4:07:56 pm

It's heavy!!!! Ducking heavy

Me - 4:08:55 pm

We might do deads on Wednesday? It's a faster wow, you might be ok. Perhaps

Me - 4:09:08 pm

Tired Wednesday night though :)

Me - 4:09:24 pm

Ok reading

Diana - 4:09:20 pm

I don't think I'd be able to go heavy after that wow

Diana - 4:09:20 pm

Maybe you forgot I'm 40 ;)

Diana - 4:09:20 pm

Enjoy reading

Diana - 4:10:14 pm

And do your bloody work ;)

Diana - 4:13:36 pm

Did you really just suggest trying to lift 110 kilos after 105 burpees!

Diana - 4:13:36 pm

Maybe you really hate me

Me - 4:15:15 pm

Yeah, all this time talking together is a sure sign of hate :-)

Me - 4:15:28 pm

105

Me - 4:15:47 pm

Article is good. I've shown you most of that stuff

Me - 4:16:08 pm

Even if I haven't explained it in those terms.

Me - 4:16:43 pm

Back straight. Keep back angle. Don't lever the back. Grip tight.

Me - 4:16:53 pm

Caffeine we know about :-)

Me - 4:17:07 pm

Stance is good.

Diana - 4:17:49 pm

And right

Diana - 4:17:52 pm

Tight

Diana - 4:17:52 pm

Keep everything tight

Me - 4:18:09 pm

Fewer reps.

Diana - 4:17:52 pm

I might try the bench jumps to get my stance though

Me - 4:18:32 pm

I suggest now, only 1 rep per set

Me - 4:19:24 pm

Anyway... Need to show you, not tell

Diana - 4:19:28 pm

He doesn't say to do 110 burpees first though ;)

Me - 4:19:33 pm

Haha

Me - 4:19:42 pm

Probably not Wednesday then

Diana - 4:20:00 pm

Anyway I'm distracting you, do you work :)

Diana - 4:20:00 pm

Not Wednesday

Me - 4:20:14 pm

And it will depend, partly, on how your sleep has been eyc

Diana - 4:20:00 pm

Im not feeling very strong atm

Me - 4:20:25 pm

Not the one rep

Me - 4:20:33 pm

That's other guys

Diana - 4:20:00 pm

Oh ok

Me - 4:22:39 pm

Maybe a really light practice on Wednesday

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

Yea for sure

Me - 4:22:51 pm

Practice dropping

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

A light practice at like 80 ;)

Me - 4:22:58 pm

And getting stance

Me - 4:23:02 pm

No

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

Sounds good

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

Ok

Me - 4:23:09 pm

Maybe 97.5

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

Work

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

Do some

Me - 4:23:12 pm

Hahahahahaha

Me - 4:23:20 pm

Joking

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

I know you are

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

Maybe at 50

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

60

Me - 4:23:35 pm

Probably 40 or 50

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

That's it

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

I'll have Thursday to get stiff sitting at a desk all day

Diana - 4:23:56 pm

Then ready to go Friday

Me - 4:24:03 pm

Ok I'll do some forms design

Diana - 4:24:06 pm

May not be able to run after

Diana - 4:24:15 pm

Ok I'm having a bath

Me - 4:24:17 pm

Run Saturday

Diana - 4:24:16 pm

Scooby Doo sucks ;)

Diana - 4:24:16 pm

I'll try to run

Me - 4:24:26 pm

Masaage Friday

Diana - 4:24:16 pm

Deadlifts usually kill me

Me - 4:24:31 pm

Or Saturday

Me - 4:24:48 pm

Play it by ear :-)

Diana - 4:28:32 pm

Yes. It's quite possible I'll collapse for 48 hours

Diana - 5:58:08 pm

Special

Me - 6:02:13 pm

Hmmm?

Diana - 6:02:42 pm

Wanna give it a try?

Diana - 6:02:57 pm

New goal

Me - 6:03:42 pm

Which is? Confused here.

Diana - 6:04:48 pm

Did you get the pic?

Me - 6:04:55 pm

No

Me - 6:05:17 pm

No pic, not yet

Diana - 6:05:21 pm

Now?

Diana - 6:05:31 pm

It's saying delivered at my end

Diana - 6:05:33 pm

Never mind

Diana - 6:05:19 pm

Diana - 5:58:08 pm

Me - 6:09:14 pm

Just got it

Me - 6:09:21 pm

2

Me - 6:09:37 pm

Tough!

Me - 6:10:14 pm

Noble goal! :-)

Me - 6:10:57 pm

Well

Me - 6:10:57 pm

We've got the overhead squats

Me - 6:10:58 pm

And that's only 5kg

Me - 6:11:03 pm

And the kneeling on the FB

Me - 6:11:16 pm

Just standing left :)

Me - 6:11:41 pm

I've tried standing once. Won't do it again for awhile. :-)

Diana - 6:12:39 pm

Pussy ;)

Me - 6:12:45 pm

Haha

Diana - 6:13:03 pm

I'm going to try it

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

Once the wows are

Over

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

When there's no one at the gym

Diana - 6:14:47 pm

I have to work on posture on those squats, and yoga should help

Me - 6:16:10 pm

It would for sure. Can't have forward movement if you're standing on a FB. And strong core, obviously.

Diana - 6:17:14 pm

I'll keep practicing with the kneeling for now

Me - 6:17:55 pm

And the overhead squats are an awesome workout. Tough to do

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

They really are

Me - 6:18:16 pm

Micheal has told me he won't do them

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

Trickier than I though

Me - 6:18:28 pm

Can't do them

Diana - 6:18:32 pm

My back hurts from today, so they're def something I need to keep up

Diana - 6:18:43 pm

Really? Is he too meaty?

Me - 6:18:46 pm

Lower or upper back?

Diana - 6:18:55 pm

Or just a whoos ;)

Me - 6:18:57 pm

Lack of flexibility

Diana - 6:18:57 pm

So?

Diana - 6:19:05 pm

Fair enough

Me - 6:19:26 pm

Bend over too much and lower back takes a hit

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

That should make him want to do them right?

Me - 6:19:36 pm

Why I suggested really light

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

Yes light was good

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

Even light was hard

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

I have a bar here I can practice with

Me - 6:20:25 pm

It was the bar. Dowel is enough too. I'll show you against the wall next time

Me - 6:20:52 pm

They are THE major test used for mobility

Diana - 6:20:57 pm

Ok cool. That and the deadlift thingy

Diana - 6:21:14 pm

Don't forget ok?

Me - 6:21:18 pm

Got to have good ankles, knees, hips, shoulders

Me - 6:21:25 pm

I won't

Me - 6:21:28 pm

Forget

Diana - 6:21:36 pm

Cool

Me - 6:21:51 pm

Wednesday after, right?

Diana - 6:21:36 pm

Check

Me - 6:22:05 pm

If you get off the floor again of course ;-)

Diana - 6:21:36 pm

Haha!

Me - 6:22:14 pm

Tough day!!

Diana - 6:21:36 pm

Double dose of poison

Diana - 6:21:36 pm

Seriously

Me - 6:22:57 pm

Do you want to try pushing the buttons yourself? On the treadmill?

Diana - 6:23:13 pm

Sure but I thought it wasn't allowed?

Me - 6:23:38 pm

That's what it says but I can't really see why I have to do it.

Me - 6:23:47 pm

Anyway we'll see

Me - 6:23:59 pm

I guess it helps most

Me - 6:24:06 pm

But may hinder you

Diana - 6:23:44 pm

I don't know, I imagine most people don't but we should do what they say to do

Me - 6:24:23 pm

Ok

Me - 6:24:56 pm

I'll figure out a quick exit from pushing buttons

Me - 6:25:30 pm

Still haven't finished my forms haha

Me - 6:25:38 pm

Hot shower

Diana - 6:25:38 pm

Huh?

Me - 6:25:41 pm

Dinner

Me - 6:25:44 pm

TV

Diana - 6:25:51 pm

Ok well get to it!

Me - 6:26:00 pm

Booooooring!!

Me - 6:26:17 pm

But I feel bad not doing it

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

You should be open for business by next week

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

No excuses

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

That's like me with housework

Me - 6:26:35 pm

Hopefully. Yes, ok. Sigh!

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

Or anything that has to be done really

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

Go do it

Me - 6:26:46 pm

Anything is a good enough distraction

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

Stop procrastinating

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

God, know I feel like your mother

Me - 6:27:14 pm

My, what you say is interesting. Tell me more.. :-)

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

I'll be like that If I start yoga

Me - 6:27:28 pm

That's a good teacher

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

I'll be cleaning to avoid homework

Me - 6:27:41 pm

Sparky home haha

Diana - 6:27:41 pm

The only time my house is clean is when I'm avoiding study

Diana - 6:28:00 pm

Go on. Just finish one

Me - 6:28:09 pm

Done one. Almost

Diana - 6:28:00 pm

Don't text me until you're done

Me - 6:28:27 pm

Whoa! Too extreme!

Diana - 6:28:00 pm

Now you've got an excuse not to text me for days :)

Me - 6:29:13 pm

Plenty of excuses to not text you. And yet, here I am :-)

Me - 6:29:27 pm

Ok

Me - 6:29:32 pm

I'll do one!

Me - 6:29:36 pm

Ok?

Diana - 6:28:00 pm

Yes

Diana - 6:28:00 pm

You have my complete support

Me - 6:30:07 pm

Sigh! Client Intake Form. Watch out!

Diana - 6:30:08 pm

As long as you help me stay in the top 10 ;)

Diana - 6:30:08 pm

Ewwww

Diana - 6:30:08 pm

Good luck!

Me - 6:30:18 pm

I am trying!

Me - 6:30:26 pm

I'm very trying :)

Diana - 6:30:08 pm

Indeed you are!

Me - 6:31:02 pm

:-)

Diana - 6:32:11 pm

I'll do some homework too.

Diana - 6:32:16 pm

The kids shift is nearly done

Diana - 6:32:16 pm

I'm going to look at personal loans. Arghh

Me - 6:32:29 pm

Homework?

Me - 6:32:34 pm

Really?

Diana - 6:32:16 pm

Still, need to have a look

Diana - 6:32:16 pm

Yes

Me - 6:32:41 pm

How much?

Diana - 6:32:16 pm

If I do this course it's 6k

Diana - 6:32:16 pm

It's the best course around

Diana - 6:32:16 pm

I won't need to borrow all of it

Diana - 6:32:16 pm

But some would help

Diana - 6:32:16 pm

Anyway go do your stuff

Diana - 6:32:16 pm

I'm going to try to read stuff I have no idea about!

Diana - 7:12:48 pm

We could start a business, your fictional form stuff and yoga combined for athletes who wanna lift heavy

Diana - 7:12:48 pm

Or do some other athletic thing that's not quite as cool as lifting

Diana - 7:12:48 pm

Like golf ;)

Me - 7:17:48 pm

I agree 100%. Have a place with free weights and a few rooms for yoga and other stuff. And maybe do meditation as well. Seriously, I have given this some thought before. Paul Chek is one of my idols (although he's a little too holistic for me). It's all about treating the whole body and the mind as one unit. And between us, we'd cater for just about everyone. It's something to explore seriously

Me - 7:18:04 pm

And your photos could be on the walls :-)

Me - 7:18:20 pm

And my books for sale at reception :)

Me - 7:19:09 pm

I could lend you Paul Chek's book. Or just check him out on the web

Me - 7:19:46 pm

Are you for real about this? It wouldn't be for another year anyway :)

Diana - 7:20:35 pm

I could also do nutrition

Me - 7:20:42 pm

Yes!!!

Diana - 7:20:49 pm

Yogic nutrition is one of the subjects

Diana - 7:21:01 pm

a holistic approach

Me - 7:21:08 pm

Paul Chek is heavily into nutrition stuff

Diana - 7:21:15 pm

Mediation is also one subject

Me - 7:21:20 pm

He loves poop analysis haha

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

Along with chanting

Me - 7:21:31 pm

Seriously

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

It could seriously be a goer

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

A holistic style gym

Me - 7:21:36 pm

I know!!

Me - 7:21:56 pm

Gym/retreat

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

Hahaha

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

I hope you've finished your paperwork before texting me back ;)

Me - 7:22:38 pm

I did one! That's pretty good right?

Me - 7:22:41 pm

One more

Diana - 7:22:42 pm

Yes

Diana - 7:22:46 pm

That's a good start

Me - 7:22:51 pm

But that will take tomorrow

Me - 7:23:03 pm

To finish

Diana - 7:23:03 pm

Another subject is starting up the business

Diana - 7:23:05 pm

How to find a space

Diana - 7:23:11 pm

Insurance

Diana - 7:23:13 pm

Yaddie ya

Me - 7:23:35 pm

Pity it wasn't 2 years ago when I has heaps more money

Me - 7:23:56 pm

Damn software company

Diana - 7:23:28 pm

Oh well

Me - 7:23:59 pm

:)

Me - 7:24:14 pm

It's do-able

Me - 7:24:25 pm

Start small

Me - 7:24:30 pm

And build up

Me - 7:24:47 pm

In an area with $'s

Me - 7:25:20 pm

Then move to a beach location once we've got a name and reputation

Me - 7:25:31 pm

Surfing yoga!

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

Need a bay for sup yoga

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

Stay focused!

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

You can surf on your days off

Me - 7:27:47 pm

Ok. Thanks. :-)

Me - 7:28:03 pm

Boy! Tough business partner already :)

Diana - 7:29:33 pm

So functional movement strength training, yoga, mediation, nutrition and massage?

Diana - 7:29:52 pm

Basic health and then goal specific training also

Diana - 7:29:52 pm

Weekend trail runs

Diana - 7:29:52 pm

And sup yoga

Me - 7:31:10 pm

Perfect!

Me - 7:31:20 pm

And we sleep when? Haha

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

Well there'd be consultation times and group classes. Choose your hours

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

I'm used to no sleep

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

youre gonna have to toughen up a little ;)

Me - 7:33:08 pm

I used to be

Me - 7:33:34 pm

It's a hard thing once you get it back, to lose it again. I can be tough!

Me - 7:33:52 pm

I've git a 6am tomorrow. That's tough! :)

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

Yea I get all stuffed up now after a few nights of no sleep, I have no idea how I did it when they were babies

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

530 get up, best time of the day to be awake I think

Diana - 7:38:13 pm

And it's my upper back

Diana - 7:38:17 pm

And down my right side

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

The upside is now we have a third option :)

Me - 7:40:11 pm

Might have been compensating for weaker left side. Overused the right side. Maybe. Need a professional to look at it. And if we're to be partners I have a vested interest in you being uninjured. Tina-time? :)

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

Haha!

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

Have you done any of cheks courses?

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

My left shoulder is killing me actually

Diana - 7:47:59 pm

I'm in the bath and considering tiger balm!

Diana - 7:48:27 pm

Level 1 holistic life couch this weekend

Diana - 7:48:28 pm

You should do it

Me - 7:52:05 pm

I've thought about it. This weekend? Nope! No way.

Diana - 7:52:45 pm

Why not?

Diana - 7:52:49 pm

It's in the city

Diana - 7:52:53 pm

Meant to be :)

Diana - 7:53:18 pm

You're not really one for spontaneity are you

Me - 7:53:45 pm

Not without a little thought. No.

Me - 7:54:09 pm

It's on the Chek web site is it?

Me - 7:54:21 pm

You can do all hi course on line too

Diana - 7:53:20 pm

Yep

Diana - 7:53:20 pm

It's mostly advertising

Diana - 7:53:20 pm

I saw that

Diana - 7:53:20 pm

I'm not so good at self directed study

Me - 7:54:40 pm

I am

Diana - 7:54:49 pm

It's a tax write off for you

Me - 7:54:59 pm

I've downloaded a lot of it

Me - 7:55:20 pm

My trainer was a fully qualified Chek practitioner

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

It's a lot of money for a weekend though

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

Why don't you do it?

Me - 7:55:40 pm

How much?

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

Seriously?

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

A holistic practitioner cwet

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

Very

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

Cert!! Argh iPhone

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

It would look good on your thing at the gym and your massage flyer

Me - 8:01:27 pm

How about this for a deal. You enroll in your yoga course, we discuss some business options and I'll do the Chek course. There will be others, and really, we've got a year to be ready.

Me - 8:02:16 pm

Fuck me!

Me - 8:02:21 pm

The price !

Me - 8:02:33 pm

2620!!!

Me - 8:02:59 pm

Fuck spontenaity

Me - 8:03:03 pm

:)

Diana - 8:01:52 pm

Not for the holistic one, it's 900 for the weekend

Diana - 8:01:52 pm

I'd do it if I had the cash and didn't have to work

Diana - 8:01:52 pm

It's always interesting to learn right

Diana - 8:03:46 pm

But yes there will be others

Diana - 8:03:52 pm

The holistic one would be good

Me - 8:04:05 pm

March too

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

Thouhh I find him rather annoying he is prob less disturbing in real life

Me - 8:04:31 pm

Very American

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

And In yoga pants

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

I hate yoga pants

Me - 8:05:10 pm

Golf performance specialist in May

Me - 8:05:18 pm

$$$

Me - 8:05:21 pm

:)

Me - 8:06:14 pm

He likes not wearing a shirt too

Me - 8:07:06 pm

This weekend is full. Checked it

Me - 8:07:31 pm

March could be good

Diana - 8:22:55 pm

Wow you actually contemplated going?

Diana - 8:23:06 pm

A golf specialist performance? Pfft

Diana - 8:23:12 pm

He only does that cause that's the sport where the money is

Diana - 8:23:12 pm

I had tears from the little man tonight :(

Me - 8:23:46 pm

Why the tears?

Diana - 8:27:28 pm

He doesn't want to go back to swimming

Diana - 8:27:28 pm

But really I think it's an accumulation of life and it's changes

Me - 8:28:29 pm

Swimming is with dad, isn't it.

Me - 8:28:50 pm

Is just too much happening?

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

Yea with his dad and sometimes me

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

Well he is anxious about starting school

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

He had those tests and isn't stupid, knows there's areas he needs to work on

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

Lacks the self belief that Imogen has so needs extra encouraging

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

His dad recently got a new girlfriend who seems to be there most of the time now so the dynamic has changed

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

It's all a lot to take in when you are 4

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

I'm going to cuddle him to sleep

Diana - 8:31:18 pm

He likes it when I sing to him as he falls asleep

Me - 8:31:30 pm

Sounds like a great idea.

Me - 8:31:43 pm

I'm going to bed soon too. Early start

Diana - 8:31:44 pm

I really wanted to see the start of that new series

Diana - 8:31:44 pm

C'est la vie I suppose

Me - 8:32:10 pm

Good luck tomorrow. Keep me informed, partner. :)

Me - 8:32:15 pm

New series?

Me - 8:32:55 pm

I have foxtel for a bit longer. I could record tonight's episode if you want

Diana - 8:48:12 pm

He has calmed down poor little poppet

Diana - 8:48:31 pm

He takes after me so much I'm genuinely frightened for him

Me - 8:49:18 pm

But he has a great mum. It's a big difference.

Diana - 8:48:48 pm

And he's been bought up in a house with nothing but love, even though his dad and I have been separated he has mostly been consistently connected to both of us

Diana - 8:48:48 pm

There was a short period where Neil went awol but that's it

Diana - 8:50:12 pm

That's the frightening bit! I see how I never had any hope! I give him everything I can, but sometimes it's nature no matter what

Me - 8:51:04 pm

He's only 4. And he's only half you. He will be different somehow

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

Anyway he is so sensitive, so so sensitive. He is going to have a harder time than most in life. Yet he is so Charming people are drawn to him, hopefully I can teach him to draw the right kind of people

Me - 8:51:09 pm

We all are

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

Argh anyway sorry

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

blah blah blah

Diana - 8:52:13 pm

I'll shut up now!

Me - 8:52:38 pm

Everyone is worried about their kids. I was really worried about mine

Me - 8:52:58 pm

When they were younger

Diana - 8:53:04 pm

Yea I got to remember they have their own lessons in life to learn

Diana - 8:53:04 pm

And really my job is just to love them as best I can

Me - 8:55:52 pm

I always thought you can just show them how to live the best life, by example, and love them unconditionally. The rest is up to them.

Me - 8:55:53 pm

It's tough

Me - 8:56:10 pm

Fucking internet. I really have to change. It's so slow

Diana - 8:58:51 pm

Really?? Is that why yours kids went to a school where a pilots license was part of the circiculum??

Diana - 8:58:52 pm

yea upgrade

Diana - 8:58:57 pm

Slow internet sucks

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

He's sleeping now. Oh it hurts my heart when they hurt :(

Me - 8:59:49 pm

Still problems. Still worried

Me - 8:59:56 pm

Yeah it's hard

Me - 9:00:28 pm

He's 4, he still needs lots of tlc.

Me - 9:00:51 pm

It's confusing growing up.

Diana - 9:01:09 pm

I wonder if I spent too much time at the gym?

Diana - 9:01:16 pm

And should dedicate more to him

Diana - 9:01:18 pm

To them

Me - 9:02:10 pm

You're a better mum, for spending some time to yourself. Don't underestimate that. It's important.

Diana - 9:01:36 pm

I know. Just questioning whether I have the balance right

Diana - 9:03:20 pm

Endless mother guilt!

Me - 9:03:27 pm

Yeah

Diana - 9:03:30 pm

And maybe he just needed a cry

Diana - 9:03:36 pm

I get that

Me - 9:03:46 pm

Hard to know. Sometimes too much time with them

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

I prob do too!

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

We all prob do!

Me - 9:03:52 pm

Other times too little

Me - 9:04:31 pm

No one can be happy all the time. Although that's what we want for our kids

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

Yea I'm looking forward to the weekend, well to Friday. First day no kids and no work for a while

Me - 9:06:11 pm

I'm in bed now. I might go to sleep soon. Good luck tkdmorrow. Let me know how it pans out.

Diana - 9:05:52 pm

Ok good night

**Tuesday 7 October**

Diana - 8:30:40 am

How was your 6am?

Diana - 8:30:40 am

Joel has caught the bug and was up all night, I think I've got it too for real this time. No yoga. I need to go though, I may have to miss a gym day this week :/

Me - 8:33:41 am

They loved it. They took photos tondo again haha

Me - 8:34:05 am

That's really no good about the illnesses. But you've got to do what's necessary. Are you throwing up?

Me - 8:34:45 am

Can you do it next week?

Me - 8:35:41 am

Gym stuff can be caught up in the next few weeks. No problem missing a session or two.

Diana - 8:35:59 am

Just do the wow maybe

Me - 8:36:52 am

A few in today's session said they'd missed a few weeks from illness

Diana - 8:36:58 am

I've taken pills to not throw up but it feels like Freddy krugers nails are going through my tummy :/

Diana - 8:36:58 am

I wish I did your circuit instead of the wow ;) was that for the transformation people?

Me - 8:37:09 am

Yes

Diana - 8:37:43 am

I haven't done mountain climbers in forever, won't we need those for Everest ;)

Me - 8:37:53 am

Pretty easy, but a solid effort for them. I did it at home on the weekend and took less than 15 minutes each round.

Me - 8:38:44 am

They all did 3 rounds! Stayed overtime to do it. I love it when they enjoy it so much

Me - 8:39:00 am

But, again, all done for free :-)

Me - 8:39:42 am

Yeah, just get through the wow this week. Sounds like a good plan. Live to fight another day :)

Me - 8:40:53 am

I've got better stuff for us for Everest! :) pull up mountain climbers haha

Diana - 8:41:15 am

Why is it free? I don't get it?

Me - 8:41:46 am

I offered to do the Tuesday sessions for the 12wc

Diana - 8:41:20 am

I'll see if I can go into work a little late Thursday and do yoga on the way in.

Diana - 8:41:20 am

The owner of the school takes Thursday sessions

Me - 8:42:18 am

If you're sick, first priority is to get better

Diana - 8:42:22 am

Argh unpaid though? Do all the trainers do them unpaid?

Me - 8:42:27 am

You're body is sending you a message

Me - 8:42:44 am

Paul Chek would agree haha

Diana - 8:43:03 am

Yes it saying why the fuck did you have kids!

Me - 8:43:04 am

Free just for those 12wc sessions

Me - 8:43:10 am

Hahaha

Me - 8:43:35 am

I'm afraid it's a bit too late now haha

Diana - 8:43:28 am

I will be ok to do yoga on Thursday

Diana - 8:43:28 am

Not sure about the gym tomorrow though

Me - 8:43:49 am

Cruise today. Sounds good

Diana - 8:43:28 am

Which only leaves Friday and Id need to do the wow

Diana - 8:43:28 am

It's def too late

Me - 8:44:21 am

If you're really sick, don't push it tomorrow

Me - 8:44:30 am

See how you recover today

Diana - 8:44:37 am

I won't, I may not even come in

Me - 8:44:52 am

Friday is fine. We've done Friday before. All good

Diana - 8:45:08 am

I need to go get almond milk for coffee. That's about the limit of my capabilities today :/

Diana - 8:45:15 am

Yep wow Friday I guess

Diana - 8:45:21 am

Meh

Me - 8:46:15 am

If you need assistance today let me know. Eg buy stuff. I'm just doing some shopping for massage stuff and finish forms

Me - 8:46:34 am

And play with TRX maybe

Diana - 8:46:35 am

Wow you've got the life ;)

Me - 8:46:40 am

Haha

Me - 8:46:48 am

Don't make fun! :)

Me - 8:46:59 am

It's a good life haha

Me - 8:47:24 am

Got to do boring stuff sometimes

Diana - 8:47:28 am

No more clients?

Me - 8:47:34 am

None today

Diana - 8:47:37 am

It's looking good from where I'm sitting

Diana - 8:47:39 am

Laying

Diana - 8:47:43 am

Feeling sick

Me - 8:48:05 am

Snooze time?

Me - 8:48:16 am

Where is Imogen?

Diana - 8:49:07 am

I have one of her friends coming to pick her up to take her to school so Joel doesn't have to get out of bed

Diana - 8:49:16 am

I've just made her lunch

Diana - 8:49:26 am

Then I'll try to sleep for a bit

Diana - 8:49:31 am

Joels in my bed

Me - 8:49:32 am

Good

Diana - 8:49:46 am

I've got another tonne of washing to do! Arghh

Diana - 8:49:52 am

Just when you thought winter was over...

Me - 8:49:57 am

That was quick

Diana - 8:49:52 am

Worst horror movie yet ;)

Diana - 8:49:52 am

Spew and bedding

Diana - 8:49:52 am

Doesn't take long

Me - 8:50:14 am

Oh

Me - 8:50:47 am

And that means you really do have to do the washing. Can't leave that lying around

Me - 8:50:55 am

Not too long anyway

Diana - 8:51:35 am

No

Diana - 8:51:38 am

Yuk

Diana - 8:51:48 am

I take it outside and hose it down as it happens

Diana - 8:51:57 am

Spew makes me feel really really ill

Me - 8:52:32 am

It's tougher when you feel sick yourself

Me - 8:53:03 am

Dog spew on the bed is tough too :)

Me - 8:53:13 am

Done that. Haha

Me - 8:54:26 am

I hope Joel and you get better soon. Lots of snoozes and cuddles will work.

Diana - 8:55:50 am

and washing powder

Diana - 8:56:16 am

Which ice just discovered we're out of :/

Diana - 8:56:16 am

Imogen has gone to school that's a good start!

Me - 8:57:34 am

Just let me know if you're really stuck. I can leave stuff outside if you're contagious.

Diana - 8:56:16 am

Well enjoy your shopping, buy some nice oils. Olfactory glands are of the utmost importance

Diana - 8:56:16 am

Especially when massaging ;)

Diana - 8:58:19 am

Haha! Thanks. There's a white suit and helmet hanging on the fence :)

Me - 8:58:55 am

HHaha. All prepared eh? Need to be with school age children :)

Me - 8:59:55 am

I was sick for years when they started going to school. One thing after another. At least it felt like that.

Diana - 8:58:24 am

I'm going to Have some nurofen plus, hopefully it sits ok in my tummy

Diana - 9:00:23 am

Yea, it's been a long haul with sickness since they started daycare

Diana - 9:00:30 am

This has been my best year yet

Diana - 9:00:32 am

I think getting fit really helped

Me - 9:02:30 am

I tried to do too much. Kept up endurance training for awhile, always run down. That didn't help. I Gave up in the end.

Diana - 9:02:40 am

All or nothing eh?

Me - 9:04:05 am

Surprisingly, although it feels like it's going on forever, this period is over quickly. Easier once both are at school and have brought home the majority of new bugs

Diana - 9:02:40 am

Yes it passes too quickly

Me - 9:04:37 am

I still ran

Diana - 9:02:40 am

I'm going to really grieve when Joel goes to school

Me - 9:04:45 am

Didn't train anymore

Diana - 9:02:40 am

I've loved the baby years more than I could have ever imagined

Me - 9:05:04 am

It won't last long. The grief.

Me - 9:05:13 am

I felt the same

Me - 9:05:21 am

Especially with the second

Diana - 9:05:39 am

It didnt for you but it might for me ;)

Me - 9:05:53 am

Yeah. Perhaps

Diana - 9:06:34 am

It's the closing of a chapter another one opens yaddie ha but this period has been the only thing that ever made sense to me in my life

Diana - 9:06:40 am

I'm so grateful for it

Me - 9:06:40 am

Let's revisit this conversation next March :)

Me - 9:07:11 am

It's not lost. Changes into something else, just as great. Just different

Diana - 9:07:43 am

Yes yea another chapter begins I know

Diana - 9:07:47 am

Anyway

Me - 9:07:56 am

Washing time

Diana - 9:08:04 am

Ok

Diana - 9:08:08 am

Enjoy your day

Me - 9:08:25 am

You try to. :)

Diana - 10:22:52 am

Why do people call once I've fallen asleep?

Diana - 10:25:52 am

Why do I drink coffee when I know it will make me feel worse?

Diana - 10:27:23 am

These are just a couple of the many many questions left unanswered in my head

Me - 10:34:25 am

That's why I love texting so much :) Not intrusive and not demanding of immediate attention

Me - 10:35:07 am

Had a very successful (=short) foray into Office Works. Got everything I need there.

Diana - 10:34:24 am

Now if only I could get it to answer my questions ;)

Diana - 10:34:24 am

Oh j thought you meant you were going shopping for nice stuff

Me - 10:35:50 am

Ahh. You need an oracle! :)

Diana - 10:34:24 am

Washing powder is bout to be delivered

Diana - 10:34:24 am

And I'm opting for tea instead of coffee

Diana - 10:34:24 am

As for the phone calls well the oracle is still required for that one

Me - 10:37:41 am

This is the place where real nightmares reside! I hate these places. About to venture forth. Send out a search party if I'm nit heard from soon :)

Diana - 10:38:08 am

Spotlight!!

Diana - 10:38:10 am

Towels?

Diana - 10:38:27 am

Wow you are brave! May the force be with you

Diana - 10:38:35 am

Or if not, may it just kill all the randoms

Me - 10:40:51 am

Pillow, pillow cases, small towels, a big bag sort if thing (carrying towels). These places really depress me for some reason, I feel almost claustrophobic inside and want to run screaming to the exit and breath fresh air again!! (And that's the first 30 seconds haha)

Diana - 10:45:04 am

I get it

Diana - 10:45:04 am

There are times when I love shopping

Diana - 10:45:04 am

In certain places

Diana - 10:45:04 am

But generally I feel as though every sense I have is being assaulted

Diana - 10:45:04 am

And really it is!

Diana - 10:46:32 am

First load of washing on. Is it cold outside? I'm too scared to go out to hang it out!

Diana - 10:47:08 am

It's nice when someone knows you so well they know you'll want the hippy biodegradable packaging laundry powder. It just sucks that you have no excuses to put off the washing once it's here ;)

Diana - 10:47:12 am

I'm rambling deliriously

Diana - 10:47:12 am

Sorry

Me - 10:48:19 am

Cool-ish and windy. Perfect drying day. Yep. Go outside

Diana - 10:48:49 am

But I'm cold and it hurts to be upright

Me - 10:49:02 am

Got my stuff. Really quick yay! Just need a big bag. Better ask someone

Diana - 10:49:10 am

Did you see lynch and frost are remaking twin peaks?

Me - 10:49:14 am

Heater and lie down haha easy fix

Diana - 10:49:17 am

Yes asking is good!

Me - 10:49:55 am

Twin Peaks. Never wTched it. Know about it

Diana - 10:50:25 am

Oh, I'm a lover of lynch films and series.

Diana - 10:50:32 am

Blue velvet?

Diana - 10:50:50 am

Lost highway

Diana - 10:50:56 am

You would know of him

Diana - 10:51:17 am

He did mull holland drive but that was silly

Diana - 10:51:28 am

Eraserhea

Diana - 10:51:28 am

Wild at heart

Diana - 10:51:28 am

Ahh so so many greats

Diana - 10:51:28 am

The elephant man

Diana - 10:51:28 am

Dune

Diana - 10:51:28 am

I've not seen all of dune yet

Diana - 10:51:28 am

I need to do that

Diana - 10:53:36 am

He's mad on transcendental mediation, reckons he gets all of his creativity through that. He's my chek ;)

Me - 10:54:41 am

Sounds like some educTion on my part is required. Serious tv time required! I've read Dune, does that count?

Me - 10:54:42 am

:)

Diana - 10:54:59 am

No

Diana - 10:55:05 am

Reading does not count

Diana - 10:55:13 am

You've not seen any of the above films?

Diana - 10:55:18 am

Let us begin with Dune

Diana - 10:55:24 am

Lost highway is my favourite

Diana - 10:55:44 am

And twin peaks, I re began that journey early last year and went through it all. He really is a genius

Me - 10:55:49 am

Let's do it! You've got downloaded copies?

Diana - 10:55:44 am

No, I don't keep copies of anything

Me - 10:56:05 am

Twin peaks was 80's right?

Diana - 10:55:44 am

It's better off in space

Diana - 10:55:44 am

Yes

Me - 10:56:25 am

No cheap bags here

Diana - 10:55:44 am

Morning tv is sooooo bad!!

Diana - 10:55:44 am

What kind of bag?

Me - 10:57:28 am

Haha Housewife city!! I can see you like that! Not!!

Me - 10:57:28 am

Dirty laundry and carrying towels too and from the gym

Diana - 10:57:27 am

They're selling weight rapid loss for a bargain! But wait there's more! Free 16 day trial!

Me - 10:57:32 am

And other stuff

Diana - 10:57:52 am

A santa sack :)

Me - 11:06:33 am

I survived spotlight. Breathing fresh-ish air again :) Home to pre wash the purchases and play with TRX and maybe, just maybe, finish another massage client form.

Me - 11:06:57 am

No big bag. Got A laundry bag for now, that will do

Me - 11:07:24 am

Better than going into another shop like that!! :)

Diana - 11:06:24 am

I'm Gonna try to stand on my fit ball sometime today. After I find the courage to go outside and hang the washing out

Diana - 11:06:24 am

Order online maybe?

Me - 11:08:13 am

Maybe. Once the stress from today has subsided :)

Me - 11:08:27 am

I don't like shopping, get that? Haha

Me - 11:08:37 am

Stand?

Diana - 11:08:38 am

Yes I get that.

Me - 11:09:07 am

Lots of space around required. Not that I'm saying you won't do brilliantly!

Diana - 11:09:17 am

Of course you are

Me - 11:09:25 am

Just in the remote case you fall :)

Diana - 11:09:29 am

You always doubt me, always have. It's ok. Really.

Diana - 11:09:51 am

I'll do it on the grass outside. And my ball is kind of flat so it makes it lots easier

Me - 11:10:33 am

Everyone fails (falls haha). It's how we learn! Yeah, grass is good. And the Baal won't roll too much

Me - 11:10:44 am

If I had grass I might try that too :)

Me - 11:11:53 am

Actually, I do have grass on the side. And I could hold onto the shed. Thinking.... That's a great idea Diana. Seriously.

Me - 11:12:03 am

Maybe this arvo.

Diana - 11:12:19 am

That wasn't really an idea...

Diana - 11:12:28 am

It was just common sense :p

Me - 11:12:41 am

They're the best ideas!!

Me - 11:12:49 am

:)

Me - 11:13:25 am

Ok. Driving now. Spotlight car park is nice and all but... :)

Diana - 11:27:42 am

That wind is icy

Diana - 11:27:44 am

I'm exhausted after hanging out one load! Using the dryer for the important stuff, conserve my energy whilst wasting the universes

Diana - 11:29:52 am

I had a dream last night you were getting me to teach you how to use eharmony. The ad just came on and I had a flashback

Diana - 11:29:52 am

Oh my tummy hurts.

Diana - 11:29:52 am

It's the pills talking

Diana - 11:29:52 am

I don't think I'll make it onto a fitball today

Me - 11:33:27 am

Haha. Nice dream. Possibly, subconsciously, that's how you feel. I need education :)

Me - 11:34:04 am

I need "Diana" education :)

Me - 11:34:27 am

It's just the assignments that are so damn hard! :)

Me - 11:35:19 am

Yeah, easy day for you today. Body says stop!

Me - 11:40:18 am

Soon! After a coffee and some washing

Me - 11:40:19 am

I'll see what I could incorporate into a circuit for you (and me)

Diana - 11:40:50 am

Cool

Diana - 11:41:03 am

And I don't think you need an education

Diana - 11:41:08 am

Eharmony is a dating site

Diana - 11:41:19 am

Maybe you just need help to find someone ;)

Me - 11:41:27 am

I know what eharmony is.

Diana - 11:41:44 am

I'm downloading the entire series of Seinfeld

Me - 11:44:19 am

Got the dvd's. No, only got season 3 and 8. Just checked. We were big Seinfeld fans in days gone by.

Me - 11:45:00 am

Donnie Darko. That was good. Got the DVD

Diana - 11:45:17 am

I never got into it when it first came out, it's only in recent years I've connected with it

Diana - 11:45:21 am

Yea that was ok

Diana - 11:45:32 am

I thought

Me - 11:46:18 am

12 monkeys

Me - 11:46:44 am

That was good. I'm looking at the dvd's while drinkninf coffee

Me - 11:47:24 am

Groundhog Day. Simple but great feel good movie. I thought.

Me - 11:47:28 am

Memento

Diana - 11:47:54 am

Seriously have you never seen blue velvet?

Diana - 11:48:00 am

Imogen Rossellini

Me - 11:48:00 am

No

Diana - 11:48:24 am

http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blue_Velvet_(film)

Diana - 11:48:32 am

Mark that frightens me ;)

Diana - 11:48:37 am

Where have you been?

Diana - 11:48:47 am

It's very intense

Diana - 11:48:50 am

And dark

Diana - 11:48:53 am

And confronting

Diana - 11:49:04 am

But it's his first and arguably his best

Diana - 11:49:04 am

Though I argue with that ;)

Diana - 11:49:04 am

I think you should down load it today and watch it this afternoon

Me - 11:50:01 am

Probably working my arse off! Haha That's where I was

Diana - 11:50:12 am

What are the muscles at the top outer part of your arm? Mine are hurting, would that be from those push-ups?

Me - 11:50:49 am

Front or back of your arm

Me - 11:51:01 am

Deltoids probably

Diana - 11:51:12 am

Yea fair enough

Diana - 11:51:12 am

Well now it's your time to play :)

Diana - 11:51:12 am

The outside of the arm

Diana - 11:52:41 am

Yea deltoid

Diana - 11:52:45 am

I just looked at a picture ;)

Me - 11:52:55 am

They are used lifting your arms overhead. Maybe the overhead squats. Holding the weight overhead

Diana - 11:53:07 am

Ok

Diana - 11:53:15 am

They were very tricky

Diana - 11:53:20 am

I'm going to master them now ;) new goal

Me - 11:54:08 am

I'll pay more attention to you next time you do them. Also, need to check ankle mobility and get the yoga block into your back

Diana - 11:54:43 am

It's ok there's heaps of YouTube clips

Diana - 11:54:54 am

And Donna actually pays you

Diana - 11:55:06 am

Yoga block into my back? How does that work

Me - 11:55:14 am

Who needs a coach when you have YouTube? Right? :)

Me - 11:55:38 am

I'll show you! Enough coaching via text!!! Hahahaa

Diana - 11:55:28 am

But but but!!!

Diana - 11:55:28 am

Ok

Diana - 11:55:28 am

I'm going to try coffee

Diana - 11:56:45 am

And some food

Me - 11:57:24 am

How's Joel feeling now?

Diana - 11:57:36 am

He's been sleeping since about 930

Diana - 11:57:36 am

I laid with him until he went to sleep

Diana - 1:45:37 pm

Now we are watching starksy and hutch :)

Me - 1:50:49 pm

Cool! I'm working with the TRX. Done one shoulders workout and I'm rooted. Doing a chest and back workout now. I'd forgotten how hard these can be. Totally going to program this for you in a few weeks time. :)

Me - 1:51:55 pm

Almost forgot I have a 5:30pm client today. Lucky she texted to ask if it's on. Haha. Phew!

Me - 1:52:57 pm

So Joel's feeling a bit better I assume? That's great. Just got to get mum feeling better too. :)

Diana - 1:54:29 pm

Like what kind of stuff?

Diana - 1:54:46 pm

You're rooted? That's so old school haha!

Diana - 1:54:56 pm

He still can't eat but he has stopped spewing and has a little colour in his cheeks

Diana - 1:54:56 pm

Let's do the 1000 steps on the weekend maybe, it'll be good practice for lake mountain, climbing hills

Me - 2:26:05 pm

Just TRX stuff. Done the upper body workouts. Simple flys, presses, rows but hit the muscles in a different way. I can feel it. About to move onto lower body stuff and core.

Me - 2:26:27 pm

1000 steps sounds good.

Me - 2:32:15 pm

My solution to not forgetting tonight's session at 5:30pm. Prominent place, kitchen bench. :)

Diana - 2:33:20 pm

That won't help

Diana - 2:33:20 pm

You never eat ;)

Diana - 2:33:20 pm

Put an alarm on your phone

Me - 2:37:48 pm

Really cool thing happening tomorrow night. Pretty rare. Full lunar eclipse. Starts at 8:30pm, totality at 9:30pm. Should definitely check it out. Might even be worth while the kids staying up. I did it with my kids. But then I'm a science nerd :-)

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

We stayed up for the red moon a month or so ago

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

I'll see how they're feeling

Me - 3:55:11 pm

Been out running. Got wet. It's cold out there :(

Me - 4:17:22 pm

Just invented a great core, anti-rotational strength exercise! :) kneeling on FB, toss 5kg dumbbell side to side and catch it. Great core workout. I saw Paul Chek do a kneeling, side moevement thing but with a wing. Dumbbells are easier to find.

Diana - 4:24:16 pm

I have no idea what you're talking about but ok :)

Diana - 4:25:01 pm

Not good about getting wet hope you've warmed up

Diana - 4:25:21 pm

Need a photo of the move

Me - 4:26:13 pm

After the FB exercise,yes :) Tough workout. Sigur Ros today. I look forward to runs as much for the music as the running :)

Diana - 4:26:24 pm

It just took everything I have to get through a prep reader :/ I think I'm going to cry!

Me - 4:26:50 pm

Working tomorrow?

Me - 4:26:59 pm

Hopefully not

Diana - 4:26:58 pm

You know you can drink wine and listen to sigur Ros right?

Me - 4:27:03 pm

Haha

Me - 4:27:42 pm

Drink bottle with wine, while running,listening to sigur ros. Bliss! :-)

Me - 4:28:36 pm

Still listening, actually. Don't want to stop.

Me - 4:28:56 pm

A shower will stop the listening

Diana - 4:28:32 pm

Well we don't have to run with me, keep sigur Ros, it's obviously your mediation time

Diana - 4:29:21 pm

I get it

Diana - 4:29:31 pm

You just need to turn it up for the shower :)

Me - 4:29:39 pm

Haha

Me - 4:30:03 pm

Meditation in nature with runs with you. Different beast.

Me - 4:30:11 pm

I can do both, you know

Me - 4:30:19 pm

Multi talented :)

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

Ok we will run together with head phones on

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

I don't see the point but you're the coach

Me - 4:31:11 pm

No headphones

Me - 4:31:17 pm

Commune with nature

Me - 4:31:23 pm

And each other

Me - 4:31:41 pm

We could hold hands and skip merrily too :)

Diana - 4:32:32 pm

Yes for sure after we've sipped our magic mushroom tea

Me - 4:32:58 pm

No. Wine from my drinks bottle :)

Me - 4:33:16 pm

Writing a program for my 5:30

Me - 4:33:23 pm

She loves deadlifts

Me - 4:33:35 pm

Women love lifting stuff

Me - 4:33:39 pm

Apparently

Me - 4:33:42 pm

:)

Diana - 4:34:10 pm

You're living in a very narrow control group

Diana - 4:34:14 pm

But yes ok

Diana - 4:34:24 pm

Enjoy your evening

Me - 4:34:44 pm

Joel ok-ish?

Diana - 4:36:18 pm

Yep fine thanks

Me - 5:52:56 pm

Arrrrgh!! No show. And no call/text. Home again, a complete waste of time.

Diana - 5:58:46 pm

That sucks

Diana - 5:58:58 pm

After a text to co firm and all

Diana - 5:59:02 pm

Sorry :/

Diana - 6:08:48 pm

If it's any consolation I just put the milk in the oven

Diana - 6:08:48 pm

While it was on :/

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

I know you're resentful I don't pay but atleast I show up ;)

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

Can't have it all

Me - 6:29:46 pm

She did show up, just as I was leaving :). Have her a session anyway. Too nice again haha

Me - 6:30:14 pm

And... Not resentful you don't pay. You're my advertising :)

Diana - 6:31:24 pm

Hmm well it's coming out sideways. On Monday you said to me what did I expect I wasn't paying you anyway. It's ok and youre right I should be paying

Diana - 6:31:32 pm

I'm glad she showed up

Diana - 6:35:31 pm

And the milk is fine ;)

Me - 6:48:42 pm

Monday was humor. My humor (=not funny). I'm sooooooo glad the milk is fine. I was really worried (See! Humor!)

Me - 6:49:06 pm

Home again now. Might even eat something :)

Me - 6:49:29 pm

Aaaaaand my 7:30am tomorrow just cancelled

Diana - 6:49:20 pm

Hmm

Diana - 6:49:20 pm

Not sure it was a joke

Diana - 6:49:20 pm

Anyway there I go looking deeper

Diana - 6:49:20 pm

Why don't you have the day off then

Me - 6:51:20 pm

Subtleties of humor don't really work with texts, do they?

Me - 6:52:04 pm

I might just train in the morning. My 7:30 wants 4pm instead.

Diana - 6:51:28 pm

I think especially not today when I'm tired overwhelmed and sensitive

Diana - 6:51:28 pm

Sounds good

Diana - 6:51:28 pm

Enjoy

Me - 6:52:54 pm

Are you feeling any better at all this arvo?

Me - 6:53:34 pm

I hope you have a better night tonight

Diana - 6:53:38 pm

Oh my god are you actually asking me how I am?

Diana - 6:53:48 pm

I'm doing ok thanks

Diana - 6:57:06 pm

I think I'm hurt that you want to text and have coffee yet in the gym you acted like I was the least important person in there.

Diana - 6:57:12 pm

I think we should stop texting

Diana - 6:57:18 pm

For the time being

Diana - 6:57:33 pm

Until we can sort stuff out in the gym

Diana - 6:57:45 pm

Today I feel like you've just bantered your day at me

Diana - 6:57:52 pm

I already have kids doing that to me here

Diana - 6:58:16 pm

I think the gym needs to come first for both of us.

Diana - 6:59:14 pm

And I feel all fucked up sensitive and fragile

Diana - 6:59:25 pm

It's not good texting like that

Me - 7:03:04 pm

Ok. I understand. If/when you need to talk I'll be here. I hope you get some sleep tonight.

Diana - 7:57:00 pm

Thanks for understanding

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

And I apologise for saying you were bantering at me today. Not that it's an excuse but I'm tired. So sorry.

Me - 8:18:20 pm

No problems, Diana. Thank you. I really do understand, no need to say anymore.

Diana - 8:18:56 pm

What do you understand? Now I'm worried you're pissed off :/

Me - 8:23:16 pm

No, not pissed off at all. Everything is good. :) I understand tiredness and illness. Let's chat tomorrow or whenever you need to. :)

Diana - 8:23:12 pm

God I wish you'd stop being so nice and tell me to fuck off!

Diana - 8:23:12 pm

But ok. Thanks. Enjoy your night

Diana - 8:28:11 pm

And the eclipse :)

Me - 8:28:43 pm

Tomorrow night.

Diana - 8:29:06 pm

Oh!

Diana - 8:30:20 pm

Well then enjoy the normal moon ;)

Me - 8:31:26 pm

:)

**Wednesday 8 October**

Me - 9:02:24 am

Are you feeling any better today?

Diana - 9:13:20 am

Yep I'm better, still feel a bit run down but on the mend. I'm going to go in at 1030 and do some stretching, I'm all stiff and want to limber up.

Diana - 9:13:20 am

Did your client show?

Diana - 9:13:20 am

It's a beautiful morning :) sunshine is a good thing

Me - 9:18:59 am

She transferred to 4pm. Glad you're feeling a bit better.

Diana - 9:40:58 am

Thanks

Diana - 9:41:01 am

Are you ok?

Diana - 9:41:04 am

Will you be at the gym?

Me - 10:11:59 am

Sorry. Been working out. Yes, I'm at the gym.

Me - 10:20:22 am

I've been doing random exercises. It's quite liberating, isn't it. No plans. Are you still coming in to stretch? I'll be leaving soon-ish, I was escaping the cleaning lady at home today. She should be finished soon

Diana - 10:21:25 am

Yes it is

Diana - 10:21:28 am

And yep I'm coming in now

Diana - 10:21:36 am

I guess I'll see you Friday then

Diana - 11:50:53 am

I know you didn't hang around for me at the gym but thanks for hanging around :)

Me - 11:52:48 am

Glad to see you're on the mend :)

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Yea it's been a rough few days

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

The upside is I haven't felt like eating ;)

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Though I'm sure I'll make up for it rather quickly

Me - 12:10:46 pm

You need *some* energy for Friday :) So, eating may be a good thing. :)

Me - 12:12:17 pm

So glad Joel is better, it makes it a bit easier to concentrate on getting yourself better. Get well quickly!

Diana - 12:14:01 pm

I will, it'd be good to be able to rest tomorrow but every cent I earn means the Need to borrow becomes less and that's a good thing.

Diana - 12:14:32 pm

Hopefully it might be an easy day

Me - 12:15:18 pm

Cute, cuddly, cat stories maybe? :)

Me - 12:18:25 pm

Although, I'm sure there will be some crisis, somewhere.

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

Unfortunately yes :/

Diana - 12:20:44 pm

Anyway I better let you get your massage homework done :)

Diana - 12:21:04 pm

Don't want to enable your already present procrastination skills ;)

Me - 12:22:55 pm

Damn! I'm counting on you, Diana! Keep me away from the boring stuff :)

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

You've got science docco's for that :p

Me - 12:31:39 pm

Aaaand, there goes the 4pm. Cancelled :( At least lots of massage homework can be done.

Me - 12:42:00 pm

Just sent a text about the wow cutoff time. Their information on the wow score card is wrong. Someone doesn't understand daylight savings! It's 12 AEST which means 1pm AEDT. They need to post something on the Facebook page.

Me - 12:42:40 pm

The gym manager has forwarded it to head office

Me - 12:43:10 pm

So, potentially, more time available on Friday. If you want it, of course.

Diana - 2:22:40 pm

Of course I do :)

Diana - 2:22:40 pm

What would the manager do without you???

Diana - 2:22:40 pm

Bummer about your 4pm

Diana - 2:22:40 pm

They're lucky they can even afford it, then they throw it away. Stupid really.

Me - 2:28:52 pm

Second worst place, after spotlight :)

Diana - 2:42:39 pm

Bahahahahaha!

Diana - 2:42:39 pm

Hair cut???

Diana - 2:42:44 pm

Do you even have any?

Diana - 2:42:48 pm

;)

Diana - 2:43:07 pm

I just got

Off the phone to my

Mum. My step dad is 3 weeks of cigarettes :)

Diana - 2:43:10 pm

Now he's just an alcoholic

Diana - 2:46:04 pm

Arghh the Effin pre workout isn't in the flavour I want and they're just telling me now!!!!!!!!!

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

Can I borrow some of yours?? Pleeeeease?

Diana - 2:56:17 pm

Is holly ok?

Diana - 2:56:27 pm

I've got to go up to my mums

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

Does it ever end??

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

How's your hair!?

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

I think I'm having withdrawals ;))

Me - 3:04:03 pm

It appears that it doesn't end, you're right. Is your mum ok, or is it your step dad?

Me - 3:04:10 pm

Plenty of pre workout here

Me - 3:04:24 pm

Multiple flavored too

Me - 3:04:32 pm

I'll bring a selection :)

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

Ha! Thanks

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

I guess death is the end

Me - 3:05:01 pm

I don't know about holly.

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

Mum wants me to go play golf

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

There's something up with her big time

Me - 3:05:22 pm

Nice! Comforting thought ;)

Diana - 3:05:27 pm

Her energy is all skewiff

Diana - 3:05:50 pm

I just have to sort it out so it works with kids work and wows

Me - 3:05:53 pm

Golf would be good. I guess. At least it's outside

Diana - 3:06:14 pm

Yes she likes playing with me, we both smash my step dad ;)

Me - 3:06:40 pm

Not. Competitive. At. All. :-)

Diana - 3:06:42 pm

That's not hard. I'm totally hopeless

Diana - 3:07:19 pm

I bought him a golfing hip flask to drown his sorrows during the games ;$$

Diana - 3:08:08 pm

Well now im confused, the email just came saying there was no apple and then the package just arrived.

Me - 3:08:43 pm

Get your mum down here sometime. Tell her you can get her a game at Peninsula County Club!

Diana - 3:08:59 pm

Is that a good one?

Me - 3:09:12 pm

One of the best in Aus.

Diana - 3:09:12 pm

I've only ever played flinders and st Andrews

Diana - 3:09:17 pm

Oh ok

Me - 3:09:27 pm

St Andrews is nice

Diana - 3:09:28 pm

It's not the Cape shank one? Sp

Me - 3:09:43 pm

No. In karingal

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

Flinders is nice. Well the view don't know about the golf

Me - 3:10:02 pm

Yeah, plYed flinders a few times

Me - 3:10:35 pm

Good course.

Diana - 3:10:47 pm

Up there, we play on a course where people stand around a bonfire at the end getting drunk! It's nothing like the courses you're used to im sure

Me - 3:11:03 pm

No right

Diana - 3:11:22 pm

She gave me a set of clubs, I'm supposed to have been practising my pitch. With all my spare time ;)

Me - 3:11:55 pm

Not much spare time, true

Me - 3:12:21 pm

I did that at a really fancy course in the USA a few years ago

Me - 3:12:30 pm

With the owner of the course

Me - 3:12:44 pm

Had a special cart brining drinks out to is

Me - 3:12:47 pm

Out to us

Diana - 3:13:03 pm

I told my mum that when I get to a decent handicap, any handicap actually, that I'm donning traditional tartan golfing jodhpurs and shirt.

Me - 3:13:06 pm

a glimpse of how the rich live

Me - 3:13:23 pm

Haha

Me - 3:13:23 pm

Love to see that!!

Diana - 3:13:22 pm

The owner of the course can do that to me once I'm in my getup ;)

Diana - 3:13:33 pm

I'm serious

Diana - 3:13:44 pm

It's the only reason I want to play

Diana - 3:13:44 pm

For the fashion

Diana - 3:13:52 pm

And to have something in common with mum

Me - 3:14:03 pm

Got to dress well at peninsula

Diana - 3:13:52 pm

That's the only reason I started to learn, so we had something to bond over

Me - 3:14:08 pm

Dress rules

Me - 3:14:19 pm

That's good.

Me - 3:14:26 pm

Finding a common thing

Diana - 3:14:33 pm

I didn't really start to learn, just started to hit it like a hockey player ;)

Diana - 3:14:38 pm

Yea it's better than wine

Me - 3:14:39 pm

Doing stuff together makes talking easier

Diana - 3:14:53 pm

Exactly! And we spend time together which is important

Diana - 3:15:04 pm

So you get all dressed up when you play?

Diana - 3:15:15 pm

Or do you only play with your son when he's down?

Me - 3:15:18 pm

Dressed well, yes

Diana - 3:15:23 pm

I'm a good person for doing that eh?

Me - 3:15:26 pm

No, always

Diana - 3:15:30 pm

I hate golf

Me - 3:15:36 pm

Haha

Diana - 3:15:38 pm

It just occurred to me ;$)

Me - 3:15:41 pm

Everyone does!!!

Me - 3:15:50 pm

Frustrating!!!

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

I don't mind it act silly

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

Actually

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

I like it more than I thought I would

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

Not to be taken too seriously

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

Which is hard ;) like wows

Me - 3:16:49 pm

Good golfers don't take it too seriously

Me - 3:16:58 pm

Bad golfers do

Me - 3:17:19 pm

But good golfers worlk hard at it too

Diana - 3:17:18 pm

Well I'm taking it too seriously then ;) I've only played a handful of times

Diana - 3:17:28 pm

Lillian likes it when I play with her

Me - 3:17:35 pm

That's great

Me - 3:17:42 pm

Keep it up

Diana - 3:17:47 pm

Pfft

Diana - 3:17:52 pm

When I'm 60 maybe ;))

Me - 3:17:56 pm

Haha

Me - 3:18:12 pm

You'd be good. You need to be strong

Me - 3:18:17 pm

To be good

Me - 3:18:23 pm

And fit

Diana - 3:18:08 pm

For now I got weights to lift

Me - 3:18:32 pm

It can be tiring

Diana - 3:18:08 pm

I'm not very good at any ball games

Diana - 3:18:08 pm

I see a ball and run- that's my general reaction

Me - 3:19:01 pm

No netball at school?

Me - 3:19:04 pm

Soccer

Diana - 3:19:09 pm

Hockey

Me - 3:19:22 pm

I know hockey. Know not well

Diana - 3:19:22 pm

But I stopped aport and discovered drugs at about 13

Me - 3:19:26 pm

Can't play it

Me - 3:19:30 pm

Ok

Me - 3:19:37 pm

I stopped footy at 13

Me - 3:19:43 pm

Surfing only

Diana - 3:19:50 pm

Well I gave up everything Except horse riding

Diana - 3:20:13 pm

maybe if I win lotto I could have a horse and land sometime by the beach

Diana - 3:20:15 pm

Hmm better buy a ticket ;)

Me - 3:20:19 pm

Hey!!

Me - 3:20:28 pm

Just bought a ticket!

Me - 3:20:37 pm

First time in forever

Me - 3:20:48 pm

Means I've won, right?

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

Of course!

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

And you can let me live in the shed ;))

Me - 3:21:30 pm

I'll even build another shed for you. :)

Diana - 3:21:50 pm

See!

Diana - 3:21:56 pm

That's what makes you so nice!

Me - 3:22:23 pm

Sheds for everyone! Too nice! :)

Diana - 3:22:24 pm

Hope you win!

Me - 3:24:06 pm

You "sound" a lot better today. Glad you're recovering.

Me - 3:24:23 pm

Even with all the extra stuff that's hit you.

Diana - 3:41:33 pm

What extra stuff?

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

Had school pick up

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

Now snacks before dropping Imogen to her dad

Me - 3:42:14 pm

Mum. Visit. Step dad. Golf expectations.

Me - 3:42:29 pm

Do you stay and chat at school pickup?

Me - 3:42:39 pm

I used to love that

Diana - 3:42:40 pm

That's not extra, that's been going on all year

Diana - 3:42:53 pm

I get afraid before going to see mum though

Diana - 3:42:58 pm

I don't really stay

Diana - 3:43:02 pm

Not really my thing

Me - 3:43:23 pm

You going up to see her next week, are you?

Diana - 3:43:28 pm

There are a couple of moms but that's it. I'm not really a social person though Imogen likes it when I make an effort

Diana - 3:54:24 pm

Haven't sorted the week yet, I need to see the next months rosters at work tomorrow, then see whether Imogen can stay with her dad

Diana - 3:58:03 pm

Now you can see why I find pleasure in something as simple as grass ;))

Diana - 3:58:12 pm

And not the kind you smoke ;)

Me - 5:17:55 pm

Yep. They've acknowledged their mistake. WOW cutoff is 1pm.

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

That's good news. Thanks coach

Diana - 6:12:47 pm

We just had dinner at my dads

Diana - 6:12:54 pm

How lovely to not cook :)

Diana - 6:13:18 pm

And the company of course ;)

Me - 6:15:07 pm

But. Did you have to clean the dishes? That's the real test of "not cooking" :)

Diana - 6:18:38 pm

No! But I always help clear up anyway. It's just good manners

Me - 6:24:05 pm

David Lynch's competition for this evening's entertainment.

Diana - 6:25:49 pm

What is that???

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

Dad is about to show Imogen a photo of me doing calisthenics when I was her age

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

This is going to be a laugh ;)

Me - 6:32:25 pm

It's homework. All the muscles of the body and their attachments. Exciting!! :)

Me - 6:32:40 pm

Old photos can come back to haunt :)

Diana - 6:34:24 pm

You can totally do my anatomy subject for me :)

Me - 6:36:30 pm

:)

Me - 6:36:42 pm

I like anatomy, actually

Diana - 6:38:40 pm

I would never have guessed ;)

Diana - 6:40:45 pm

And you say you don't like biology? It's virtually one and the same

Me - 6:42:39 pm

You can grab anatomy, it's immediately practical. And you've always got a model - yourself. Biology is cells and more abstract.

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

You just need a microscope

Diana - 7:22:11 pm

Dad has been scanning in all the old slides

Diana - 7:22:24 pm

We just had a serious trip down memory lane

Diana - 7:22:54 pm

It was quite beautiful

Diana - 7:23:00 pm

My mum was so beautiful

Diana - 7:23:03 pm

And the cars

Diana - 7:23:05 pm

And houses

Diana - 7:23:08 pm

And all the animals

Diana - 7:23:23 pm

I'm kissing animals in almost every photo ;)

Me - 7:24:26 pm

Can you remember much of the stuff in the photos? Sometimes it can be like looking at someone else's life.

Diana - 7:25:26 pm

I have flash memories of lost of the stuff

Diana - 7:25:33 pm

Especially our trips away

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

Seeing mum was king is surreal though

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

she always said how miserable she was but she looked so beautiful and young and happy

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

In the early photos atleast

Me - 7:26:43 pm

Sometimes misery can be projected backwards

Diana - 7:27:04 pm

By the time I was born I think he had started to get bad

Diana - 7:27:15 pm

I totally agree with you

Diana - 7:27:26 pm

I'm looking at that atm about myself

Me - 7:32:06 pm

The unreliability of memory and emotion, especially when the emotion is strong. Sub theme of my book, it's always fascinated me, how a revised past lives inside us. And it's constantly being revised. It must be great seeing those old photos of your family.

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

It's very fitting given everything that's going on with mim

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

Mum

Diana - 7:33:28 pm

And dad spoke so lovingly of me to Imogen

Me - 7:33:38 pm

That's awesome!

Diana - 7:33:42 pm

It was very confronting

Diana - 7:33:51 pm

But YeP you're right

Diana - 7:34:04 pm

We are always free to remake our history in a sense

Me - 7:34:06 pm

Good grandparents make a big difference to kids. I think

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

Yes, at this point I still govern it somewhat ;)

Me - 7:35:08 pm

But, often we don't know we're remaking our history. That's the real issue.

Me - 7:35:48 pm

What I tried to get across in that book.

Me - 7:36:01 pm

Perhaps not very well :)

Diana - 7:36:16 pm

The book I read?

Me - 7:36:53 pm

Yeah

Diana - 7:36:16 pm

I believe most people do it in order to survive

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

Without even knowing

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

I better re read your book

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

I'm going to take a bottle of red to dads one night and go through the photos and choose some to keep

Diana - 7:40:20 pm

I'm very good at photo restoration. I'll get them all colour corrected and blemish free

Me - 7:40:59 pm

That would be a great thing to do!

Me - 7:41:14 pm

Are they digital though?

Me - 7:41:24 pm

Scan, I guess

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

Actually maybe we can just drink wine and you can explain your book to me, we know how I feel about reading ;)

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

He's scanned the slides in

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

I'll rescan the ones I like at a higher resolution

Me - 7:41:47 pm

That is a much better idea!

Me - 7:42:03 pm

I'd better buy another bottle!

Me - 7:42:15 pm

2 in one year! Wow! :)

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

Yea but what will I drink ;$

Diana - 7:42:32 pm

;)

Me - 7:42:36 pm

Ok. I'll buy 2 bottles

Diana - 7:42:37 pm

Now you're on a bottle a night

Me - 7:42:40 pm

Haha

Diana - 7:42:40 pm

I'll bring tequila ;)

Me - 7:43:12 pm

One particular nights, yes, I'm on one bottle haha

Me - 7:43:51 pm

I'm not too keen on tequila

Me - 7:43:52 pm

Got badly drunk as a kid

Me - 7:43:52 pm

Still remember the taste

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

Fair enough

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

I'm like that with vodka

Diana - 7:47:09 pm

And gin

Diana - 7:47:23 pm

It's just that it has less calories than wine ;)

Me - 7:47:53 pm

Good reason :)

Me - 7:48:34 pm

I'll try it again. I'm adventurous now, remember? :)

Diana - 7:48:57 pm

Well you're yet to start ;)

Diana - 7:48:59 pm

I just have a shot

Diana - 7:49:02 pm

Or 2-3

Diana - 7:49:04 pm

I never mix it

Diana - 7:49:04 pm

Or I'm pretty much a 2 glass of wine tops person

Me - 7:49:40 pm

No. Never mix good alcohol! Agree. Shock. Horror :)

Diana - 7:49:43 pm

It's incredible really given what I used to put in my body

Me - 7:49:57 pm

That's a good thing right?

Diana - 7:50:02 pm

Let's not go agreeing on too much

Me - 7:50:20 pm

Except pre workout :)

Me - 7:50:24 pm

Haha

Me - 7:50:39 pm

Agreeing is good! Didn't yiu know? Haha

Diana - 7:51:42 pm

Pfft

Diana - 7:51:47 pm

Totes over rated ;)

Diana - 7:51:56 pm

All ready for your eclipse?

Me - 7:53:17 pm

Yep. I'll just go for a wander to the river

Diana - 7:56:53 pm

Why don't you drive down the coast and watch it?

Diana - 7:56:58 pm

That's what I'd do sans kids

Me - 8:09:47 pm

Yeah, well, I'm not *that* adventurous yet. Need more lessons :)

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Oh come on

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Get out of that lounge room ;)

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

It's the perfect night for it

Diana - 8:18:35 pm

It's started

Diana - 8:18:56 pm

Social media will be flooded

Diana - 8:18:56 pm

What the cause of this one?

Diana - 8:20:20 pm

Earth is passing between sun and moon

Diana - 8:24:34 pm

I just got the kids out of bed to show them and did an extremely terrible job of explaining what's happening :/

Me - 8:25:41 pm

Yes, moon is passing through earths shadow

Me - 8:25:55 pm

Leaving now.

Diana - 8:26:15 pm

Ok enjoy :)

Diana - 8:26:37 pm

I'm getting in the water, best place to be for an eclipse ;)

Me - 8:30:12 pm

Are your kids watching? It's seriously cool now

Me - 8:34:09 pm

But, not now. Clouds :(

Diana - 8:33:52 pm

Nope I had to put them to bed

Diana - 8:33:52 pm

It's late for little ones

Me - 8:34:29 pm

Yeah

Diana - 8:33:52 pm

Clouds :/ im in the bath will have another look when I get out

Diana - 8:35:26 pm

I'm watching a vid on kettle bells in an attempt to improve my relationship with them

Me - 8:35:37 pm

I woke my son up once at 2am to see something. He didn't remember it the next day. So sleepy. Haha.

Diana - 8:35:48 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 8:35:59 pm

I hope he was older than 5 ;)

Me - 8:36:12 pm

A little bit

Me - 8:36:18 pm

At school

Me - 8:36:45 pm

And my daughter would have been too young otherwise I would have got her up too :)

Me - 8:37:02 pm

Clouds gone

Diana - 8:36:00 pm

Yea I think it's worth them being tired for this stuff

Diana - 8:36:00 pm

And adventures

Diana - 8:37:35 pm

We just have a super early morning tomorrow

Diana - 8:37:48 pm

If I get out and they're still awake

I'll take them out

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

Imagine how it would look over flinders

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

You totes should have hit the road

Me - 8:39:22 pm

It's ok here. I have grass!! :-)

Me - 8:39:45 pm

Up near the river

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

One of the most beautiful nights of the year

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

Especially for a celestial nerd like you

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

And you spend it at Patterson river :op

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

;;)

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

Seriously when did it stop

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

Your sense of adventure

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

You did Europe and America surfing and road tripping

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

What happened?

Diana - 8:42:24 pm

Anyway I'll leave you to gaze :)

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

I wasn't meaning to be rude asking that. Just to clarify

Me - 9:00:07 pm

Not by text, that one. We've both got sore points. Mine doesn't come any bigger than that one.

Me - 9:00:11 pm

:)

Diana - 9:05:52 pm

Ok sorry

Diana - 9:05:52 pm

Won't bring it up again :/

Diana - 9:05:52 pm

Enjoy your eclipse and I promise to shut up and not ruin it :)

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

Except for Bulgarian jump squats, I want them in my next circuit. You know how you love explosive movements :)

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

Ok totes shutting up now

Me - 9:12:06 pm

I love it when you talk!

Me - 9:12:22 pm

Just the odd subject is not for texting.

Me - 9:12:39 pm

I did them today! Haha

Me - 9:12:46 pm

Before you arrived

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

Pfft

Me - 9:13:32 pm

Single leg box jumps. Tough as!!

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

If there's no photo is didn't happen ;)

Me - 9:13:47 pm

Reebok step is enough

Me - 9:13:53 pm

Haha

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

He used a bench

Diana - 9:14:11 pm

They look tough but fun and good for balance

Me - 9:14:12 pm

Must be powerful guy

Me - 9:14:25 pm

Even more than me. :)

Diana - 9:14:24 pm

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=iBkuw-uTvbY

Diana - 9:14:24 pm

Haha! Impossible!

Me - 9:17:22 pm

Ha. That's crap! I've got much better ones than that. Haha

Diana - 9:16:32 pm

Did you watch the multi plane ballistic kettle bell workout your friends did? Look like bad dancers ;)

Me - 9:17:40 pm

Yes

Me - 9:17:50 pm

Going to do that one. Already mDe a note

Diana - 9:16:32 pm

Yours are much better eh?

Diana - 9:16:32 pm

I'll be the judge of that :)

Me - 9:18:04 pm

Yes. Harder too

Diana - 9:16:32 pm

Hahahaha! They don't count until I've tried them ;))

Me - 9:18:35 pm

Ok. Next week

Me - 9:18:54 pm

Or Friday, if you smash the wow and have energy ledt over

Me - 9:18:56 pm

Or

Me - 9:19:05 pm

During the trail running

Me - 9:19:07 pm

:)

Diana - 9:19:16 pm

Done

Diana - 9:19:21 pm

Easy peasy

Me - 9:19:23 pm

Onto a fallen tree

Me - 9:19:33 pm

Over a fallen tree

Me - 9:19:42 pm

:)

Diana - 9:19:59 pm

Cloudy

Me - 9:20:23 pm

I do a version of that ballistic stuff already. Lateral lunge jumps

Me - 9:20:26 pm

Tough

Me - 9:20:34 pm

Yeah. Home again

Diana - 9:20:43 pm

With kettle bells?

Me - 9:20:56 pm

Got an osteoporosis lady at 9:30am

Me - 9:21:09 pm

Working on her program while it's cloudy

Diana - 9:21:13 pm

You better get to bed ;)

Me - 9:21:18 pm

Haha

Me - 9:21:28 pm

Why are you early tkmorrow?

Me - 9:22:04 pm

Early start

Diana - 9:22:31 pm

Got to get Joel to day care before Imogen's school drop off to get to yoga on time

Diana - 9:22:36 pm

Logistically that's a night mare

Me - 9:22:41 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:22:56 pm

Packing bags for each child to go to their dads then me gone all day.

Diana - 9:23:28 pm

Then pick Joel up at 830, so he will need a sleep in Friday morning

Diana - 9:23:33 pm

Wow that's detailed

Diana - 9:23:35 pm

Sorry

Diana - 9:23:40 pm

I totes talk too much

Me - 9:24:00 pm

Tough day! And morning especially.

Me - 9:24:29 pm

Good luck with yoga. Let me know how it goes.

Diana - 9:24:59 pm

I'm starting to wonder whether it's just a whim

Diana - 9:25:04 pm

But people that know me well, not many, seem to think it's a good fit

Me - 9:27:17 pm

Try it tomorrow. Leave the doubts until after you've seen the school and the teacher. They might excite you.

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

Yea.

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

More will be revealed.

Diana - 9:58:00 pm

Me - 10:09:15 pm

:)

Me - 10:09:31 pm

Clouds gone now

Me - 10:09:49 pm

Night

**Thursday 9 October**

Diana - 7:54:43 am

Oh I really want to pull a sickie :/

Me - 7:56:30 am

How about this. If yoga looks really good, celebrate and take just one day off work. One day won't matter in the scheme of things.

Diana - 7:56:32 am

I need to make sure the shift is covered, I can't leave them with no one

Diana - 7:56:32 am

I spewed again this morning :/ this thing is hanging around

Me - 7:58:04 am

:(

Me - 7:59:02 am

That's no good. You've also got to take care of yourself. A cruisy evening may be what's required.

Me - 7:59:36 am

It's not a "sickie" if you're really sick!!

Me - 8:00:15 am

And spewing = sick.

Diana - 8:02:56 am

I could take some pills and make it happe

Diana - 8:02:56 am

Gallen

Diana - 8:02:56 am

Happen!!

Diana - 8:02:56 am

I'll see if someone can cover it

Diana - 8:02:56 am

I reall want the cash

Me - 8:04:42 am

Good idea. Health comes first. It's only one shift.

Me - 8:10:01 am

And. Are you really well enough to properly evaluate yoga?

Diana - 8:09:20 am

No but if I don't I'll be cutting into the weekend

Me - 8:10:57 am

Next week? Or the week after?

Diana - 8:17:52 am

I know you're speaking sense but...

Me - 8:19:28 am

Only you really know if it's a "soldier on" illness or not.

Me - 8:20:10 am

Tough decision to make in the heat of battle (kids!) :-)

Diana - 8:20:00 am

Actually I'm not so good at that

Diana - 8:20:00 am

I tend to push

Me - 8:20:21 am

I know

Diana - 8:20:00 am

I got the shift covered

Diana - 8:20:00 am

What about yoga then nothjng?

Me - 8:21:01 am

Yoga? Still ok with that?

Me - 8:21:22 am

Is there a hurry, that a 2 week delay is impossible?

Diana - 8:21:54 am

For some reason yes

Me - 8:21:55 am

It is a rush

Me - 8:22:05 am

Today I mean

Diana - 8:22:06 am

There's a sense of urgency

Diana - 8:22:08 am

No. Argh

Diana - 8:22:08 am

You're a pain :(

Me - 8:22:31 am

Course starts?

Me - 8:22:37 am

When

Diana - 8:23:08 am

Yoga or gym ;)

Me - 8:23:15 am

Not gym

Diana - 8:23:18 am

How am I going to do 105 burpees tomorrow?

Me - 8:23:37 am

Ignoring that :)

Me - 8:23:50 am

Go to yoga or nothing

Me - 8:24:39 am

Yoga might help?

Me - 8:25:51 am

Get in the car and get the kids done then spend 1 minute before you go to yoga. Clearer head for decision.

Diana - 8:32:48 am

Yes

Diana - 8:32:48 am

One child is gone

Diana - 8:32:48 am

On my way for the other

Diana - 8:32:48 am

I don't feel well :/

Diana - 8:32:48 am

But I'll go crazy at home

Diana - 8:37:04 am

At day care and got asked to go to a cold chisel night

Diana - 8:37:04 am

Do I look like a bogan??

Me - 8:51:10 am

You won't go crazy at home! Sickness will keep you occupied. :)

Diana - 8:53:01 am

And Hence why Id prefer the distraction.

Diana - 8:54:08 am

And you avoided my bogan question ;)

Me - 8:56:19 am

Neatly, I had thought :) No. You don't look like a bogan!

Diana - 9:26:01 am

So I'm home and feeling sorry for myself

Diana - 9:26:08 am

And it's your fault ;)

Me - 9:28:19 am

How about this then. I'll come and look after you this arfternoon, if you stand the company. I've got a 9:30 client then an 11. That's all. Have a think.

Diana - 9:29:33 am

You want to come into a gastro infested house?

Diana - 9:29:41 am

I was thinking maybe yoga at 11?

Diana - 9:29:53 am

If I'm up for it of course ;))

Diana - 9:29:54 am

Happy training

Diana - 9:30:07 am

I'm jealous. :( I hate being sick

Me - 10:31:24 am
Yeah, didn't really think before that offer :-)

Me - 10:31:47 am

Any way I can help, let me know.

Diana - 10:38:40 am

Have you grown any grass yet? ;)

Diana - 10:40:29 am

I'm not coming in for yoga, don't think I'm up for much but resting today

Me - 10:54:34 am

If you get too bored, I could pick you up and you could sit on my couch and stare at the lake all afternoon. Sorry, no grass yet :)

Diana - 11:02:08 am

As long as you promise not to put on any science doccos ;)

Diana - 11:03:34 am

I'm worried about the wow tomorrow.

Diana - 11:04:00 am

It's a shame you can't mainline pre workout, at this point drinking it isn't looking good

Me - 11:40:14 am

Just finished my 11am. When do you want me to pick you up? I could go home and change and do it soon-ish. No science docos, there is an anatomy video to watch :)

Me - 11:40:39 am

And rather worryingly, I don't know where you live.

Diana - 11:42:26 am

Argh no study! Well you can it'll just help me pass out :)

Diana - 11:42:35 am

I can drive you don't need to get me

Diana - 11:42:40 am

How is it I'm worse today than yesterday?

Diana - 11:42:40 am

I just took 11 pills things should be looking up soon no?

Me - 11:44:22 am

Sure you ok to drive? If so, I'll let you know when I'm home. Will be soon.

Diana - 11:46:56 am

Yea I'll be fine

Diana - 11:46:56 am

Adding coffee to the mix now

Diana - 11:49:12 am

Are you sure? What if I'm contagious?

Me - 12:07:15 pm

Just come. Come now. I'm home.

Diana - 12:19:31 pm

Ok with my personal space issues you should be fine

Diana - 8:24:59 pm

Thank you for today. I hope I didn't make you waste your day away.

Diana - 8:25:20 pm

I'm going to go to bed and hopefully be ok for the morning and get a good nights rest.

Me - 8:27:01 pm

I really enjoyed today. I hope you sleep ok. I'll see you tomorrow.

**Friday 10 October**

Diana - 8:24:16 am

Are you going in soon? Can you find out Becca's time so I have a benchmark to work towards? I need that this morning

Diana - 8:24:16 am

And hi of course :)

Me - 8:43:34 am

I'm here now, I had a 7:30 client and I've stayed. I'll ask Michael between his clients. Glad you're feeing better. I have a selection of 3 pre-workouts :) See you soon-ish

Diana - 11:21:20 am

It just took me 15 minutes to get home :/

Diana - 11:21:20 am

You didn't really ask holly did you, you just wanted to shut me up

Me - 11:22:33 am

I asked Michael. Holly wasn't there. I won't lie to you.

Me - 11:22:42 am

And Michael knew

Me - 11:22:52 am

He'd seen Becca doing it

Me - 11:23:07 am

Traffic?

Me - 11:23:18 am

Or so tired you got lost? :)

Diana - 11:23:28 am

Almost ;) just couldn't start the car

Diana - 11:25:03 am

Coffee should do the trick

Me - 11:25:11 am

Ok

Me - 11:26:21 am

Relax for a bit. Come here later, if you want. That should also keep you away from any (potential) visitors :)

Diana - 11:27:26 am

Or housework

Diana - 11:27:30 am

It's all I can see

Me - 11:27:38 am

:)

Me - 11:27:52 am

Get out now!!! While you still can ;)

Me - 11:28:22 am

Day off = housework? Hmmmm. Really?

Diana - 11:27:44 am

Haha!

Diana - 11:27:44 am

I know :/

Me - 11:31:45 am

We could drive to pines this arvo, if you wish. A gentle walk and fresh sea air could do the trick. As well as sleep in the car on the way :)

Diana - 11:36:55 am

Guess I'm driving then? ;)

Diana - 11:37:16 am

Ok, and maybe we could go heavy tomorrow?

Me - 11:37:20 am

I'm driving,you're sleeping

Me - 11:37:38 am

I'll check the tide

Me - 11:37:56 am

Sure, heavy tomorrow is good

Me - 11:38:20 am

Should I text Chris to see if he's available? :-)

Diana - 11:42:15 am

Yes if you don't mind

Diana - 11:42:20 am

Or give him my number

Diana - 11:42:36 am

Maybe your client is free for you to go lift with ;)

Me - 11:43:34 am

Haha

Diana - 11:43:53 am

I said something on the fucking ffs post. More Effin overhead!!

Diana - 11:44:01 am

That's a lot of swearing!

Me - 11:44:02 am

Next high tide is in 2 hours

Me - 11:44:22 am

Overhead? Again? I'll check

Diana - 11:44:24 am

Are you going to take a board down?

Me - 11:44:32 am

No

Me - 11:44:48 am

We need to get there after high tide

Diana - 11:44:48 am

Yes, that's low tide right? ;)

Me - 11:45:05 am

It's a 1.52, so it will be high

Me - 11:45:30 am

Tide going out wil be ok to walk around the cliffs

Diana - 11:45:33 am

Why don't you take your board?

Me - 11:45:46 am

I'll check the swell

Me - 11:48:35 am

1.2m, 10sec. Not enough swell inside the bay. Tiny, tiny waves.

Me - 11:48:47 am

And is rather walk with you

Diana - 11:49:04 am

I don't know how far I can walk :/

Diana - 11:49:04 am

Seriously my legs nearly gave way at the gym.

Me - 11:49:40 am

Ok

Me - 11:50:25 am

Sit in the car then sit on the beach. Or just stay here. Whatever you prefer.

Me - 11:51:07 am

But I'll pick you up, whatever you decide

Diana - 11:52:28 am

No I like th idea of getting out of these stupid suburbs

Diana - 11:52:39 am

I'll walk as far as I can

Me - 11:52:56 am

And I'll carry you back :)

Me - 11:53:00 am

Piggy back hahaha

Diana - 11:53:08 am

Not on your life

Diana - 11:53:12 am

Or your 12 kilos ;)

Me - 11:55:10 am

How about we leave in an hour or a little more? Is that enough time for you?

Diana - 11:55:28 am

130?

Diana - 11:55:28 am

I have to go down the post office quickly to fax some stuff so maybe 2? Is that ok?

Me - 11:56:03 am

Fine

Me - 11:56:11 am

I'll pick you up

Me - 11:56:20 am

Your address is?

Diana - 11:55:28 am

Hahaha! You just gotta come to my house don't you??

Me - 11:56:43 am

Well, eventually, I assume.

Diana - 11:55:45 am

Editor: Her address was given here

Me - 11:56:52 am

Haha!!! Got it!!!

Me - 11:57:01 am

:)

Diana - 11:57:05 am

You think you do ;)

Me - 11:57:36 am

I'll text before i leave

Me - 11:58:14 am

At 2pm

Diana - 11:57:36 am

Ok. But imagine how you house might have looked with toddlers and no cleaner after a bout of gastro before you judge

Me - 11:58:56 am

Meet me outside then. :)

Me - 11:58:56 am

No judging on

My part

Me - 11:59:37 am

But inside is fine!

Diana - 1:21:56 pm

Ok I confess. I got a snickers at the post office

Me - 1:22:07 pm

Ha!

Me - 1:22:28 pm

Ok, no sitting on the beach for you! Walking! :)

Diana - 1:22:30 pm

KING size!!

Me - 1:22:49 pm

Actually, you need the energy! Good stuff!

Me - 1:22:58 pm

Did you buy 2?

Me - 1:23:05 pm

One for me? :)

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

Pfft

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

I don't share chocolate

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

Ever

Me - 1:23:29 pm

Worse than space issues? :)

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

You can't imagine

Diana - 1:24:02 pm

Seriously though my body hurts

Diana - 1:24:10 pm

And i hoovered it down!

Me - 1:24:39 pm

Maybe tonight should be a carb night. Let's talk.

Diana - 1:24:59 pm

Only if I lift tomorrow

Diana - 1:25:04 pm

Besides I've been living on bread all week

Diana - 1:25:04 pm

Toast :/

Me - 1:25:32 pm

GOOD toast though :)

Diana - 1:25:04 pm

I can't stomach protein yet, chocolate yea but protein no

Diana - 1:25:04 pm

Ha only yesterday's was good

Diana - 1:25:04 pm

I have nothing to wear.

Diana - 1:26:13 pm

Literally none of my clothes fit me.

Me - 1:26:38 pm

Pines is not a fashion place :)

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

I have one pair of shorts

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

I know that

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

I'm not talking fashion

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

I'm talking something that doesn't fall down when you put it on

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

14 kilos is a couple of dress sizes

Me - 1:27:54 pm

It's only going to get worse, isn't it?

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

I haven't been shopping for new clothes

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

What is?

Me - 1:28:19 pm

Your dress size decreasing

Diana - 1:28:36 pm

Do you really think I'll lose more? I thought I'd put off shopping until I do, but now after all this time I'm not sure I'm going to.

Diana - 1:28:58 pm

Have you seen the stupid Effin wow???

Me - 1:30:54 pm

Just looked. Pretty easy weights for you. You'll get high reps

Me - 1:32:52 pm

If you're ready, I'll come over in a minute?

Diana - 1:33:24 pm

What about coffee?

Diana - 1:33:35 pm

Get a take away for the drive?

Me - 1:34:17 pm

Ok

Me - 1:42:10 pm

Leaving now

Me - 1:54:08 pm

I'm here

Diana - 1:54:56 pm

Ok I'm coming

**Saturday 11 October**

Diana - 11:31:20 am

Whoa I'm feeling it now

Diana - 11:31:29 am

Think I need some food

Diana - 11:31:46 am

Notice how Michael and holly don't hang together anymore?

Me - 11:31:56 am

You've earned food

Me - 11:32:08 am

Hadn't noticed Michael and holly.

Diana - 11:32:00 am

I can never earn food!

Me - 11:32:34 am

Haha. 105kg?? Bullshit! Just refuel

Diana - 11:32:59 am

Yep I'm heading home now

Me - 11:33:22 am

Home to housework! Yay! :)

Me - 11:33:45 am

It's gotta be done, eh? At sometime.

Diana - 11:33:47 am

Thanks for reminding me

Diana - 11:34:08 am

Tomorrow ;)

Me - 11:34:32 am

Not feeling as tired as after the 100kg PB?

Me - 11:34:50 am

I guess it was later in the arvo last time you felt it

Diana - 11:35:00 am

It seems to hit me a few hours after but I don't think so

Me - 11:35:11 am

That was pretty amazing Diana!!

Me - 11:36:00 am

Very amazing!

Diana - 11:36:09 am

Pfft

Me - 11:36:12 am

I think Holly is pretty sad, most of the time. Probably wants space

Diana - 11:36:16 am

I wish j knew how to enjoy it better!

Me - 11:36:31 am

No dancing!

Me - 11:36:38 am

:)

Diana - 11:37:20 am

I guess she has lost a partner and potentially a friend in Michael if their relationship had anything to do with it, it must be very hard for her.

Diana - 11:37:21 am

No dancing

Me - 11:38:44 am

If you're not completely buggered, I've got half a bottle of wine that probably needs drinkninf tonight, after work :) Are you really going to make me drink it all myself? ;)

Diana - 11:40:06 am

Haha! That's just starters for you these days ;)

Diana - 11:40:32 am

If I'm not too smashed after work I will, but I'm not sure I should drink anything before driving with my head being this light headed already

Diana - 11:40:32 am

Going to have some watermelon for sugar now

Me - 11:43:00 am

Sure. See what sort of day you have.

Diana - 11:46:56 am

What are you going to do this afternoon? The weather is so nice, it's hard to go to work on days like this

Diana - 11:46:56 am

I wish Chris hadn't said I could have got to 110, it's done my head in

Me - 11:49:02 am

You tried 110! Don't let someone like Chris get to you. Nice guy but!

Me - 11:49:56 am

I have a list of boring, work related stuff I was going to do. Are you going to save me from it?

Me - 11:50:11 am

All inside stuff.

Me - 11:50:45 am

Maybe, perhaps, a run later. But I'm a little tight in the back.

Me - 11:52:05 am

You'll get 110, once your body has adapted to the 105 and made it even stronger. And then

Me - 11:52:23 am

Leave something for later :)

Diana - 11:53:20 am

Ok

Me - 11:53:51 am

Let's move onto squats for a week or so

Me - 11:54:01 am

Adaption

Diana - 11:53:20 am

I can't save you from your boring work, I have to go do mine

Diana - 12:46:40 pm

Sorry had a suprise drop in

Diana - 12:46:40 pm

You know how I love those :)

Diana - 12:48:24 pm

I did the hard sell, tried to get Greg who just popped in to give you a call.

Diana - 12:48:46 pm

He just had his tummy stapled, he was a champion surfer way back

Me - 12:49:45 pm

:) Thanks

Diana - 12:50:46 pm

I told him youre a surfer too, but I don't think he is ready

Diana - 12:50:50 pm

Haha! Pfft

Me - 12:55:06 pm

Dunno

Me - 1:08:41 pm

Laminating is fun. Might laminate every document I have haha

Me - 1:10:36 pm

It's smelly though

Diana - 1:18:10 pm

Ha!

Diana - 1:18:12 pm

You're nuts

Me - 1:18:51 pm

Office nerd, as long as I'm not actually in an office. :)

Diana - 1:20:48 pm

I hate office equipment

Diana - 1:20:48 pm

I'm going to do the dishes then go help my sister carry her hard rubbish out

Diana - 1:20:48 pm

I got to do mine sometime, are they coming Monday?

Me - 1:22:35 pm

I thought it was last week here, but no-one's come.

Me - 1:22:55 pm

Your area may be different

Me - 1:23:48 pm

Most of mine went during the week. Someone likes broken chairs! Haha

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

They're scavengers scouring around here too

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

I think it starts Monday in this area

Diana - 1:38:32 pm

Are you sure you don't have any rich lonely male friends? I need a nap not work this afternoon :/

Diana - 1:38:58 pm

I'm willing to learn how to cook

Diana - 1:39:02 pm

Maybe

Me - 1:39:13 pm

Haha

Me - 1:40:43 pm

You've got one already, almost. :) Or not that rich, but rich enough if you don't want anything too exciting :)

Me - 1:41:56 pm

Perfect guy really. Too tired and absent to bother you :)

Diana - 1:42:08 pm

Ha!

Diana - 1:42:08 pm

Ok draw up the documents :)

Diana - 1:42:08 pm

That's great news about the gyms

Diana - 1:45:50 pm

In our agreement, can you continue to cook if I plant and maintain the grass?

Me - 1:47:05 pm

I've always cooked. Even with wife at home pre children and me working long hours. So, cooking is ok. But you'll have to cook the meat for the children :)

Me - 1:47:17 pm

I had a dream about you last night

Me - 1:47:22 pm

A nice one!

Me - 1:47:50 pm

I saved Joel when he was stuck in a tree haha

Me - 1:48:41 pm

No gardening for me. I hate gardening.

Me - 1:48:42 pm

I like looking at gardens though

Diana - 1:50:40 pm

Easy

Diana - 1:50:40 pm

So you had a dream about Joel?

Diana - 1:50:40 pm

Just lifted for my sister.

Diana - 1:50:40 pm

I'm going to do mine early morning

Diana - 1:52:37 pm

And anyway I'm serious about a lonely old man. Unless I withdraw some super, and I don't really want to do that

Diana - 1:54:31 pm

You dont count, you're easy to hang out with

Me - 1:55:04 pm

I don't count? Thanks. :)

Diana - 1:54:56 pm

I need someone that's willing to pay

Me - 1:55:19 pm

Makes me feel REAL special :)

Diana - 1:54:56 pm

Is what I mean!

Me - 1:55:33 pm

How much?

Me - 1:55:40 pm

A zillion?

Diana - 1:54:56 pm

Do I seem like a person that needs a zillion?

Diana - 1:54:56 pm

I better get to the gyms in town too then ;)

Me - 1:57:49 pm

I don't know how serious you are or if it's the post deadlift fatigue that's talking.

Diana - 1:57:04 pm

The scary thing is, I don't know how serious I am either

Me - 1:59:22 pm

I don't want to share you with some lonely old man. You can do a lot better than that.

Diana - 1:59:12 pm

It would just be good, to get some money to get things done and not have my conscious involved. I tend to make life so hard for myself. Do you reckon I could do it? Get one?

Me - 1:59:57 pm

Nope. Over my dead body :)

Diana - 1:59:12 pm

Share me?

Diana - 1:59:12 pm

Pfft

Diana - 1:59:12 pm

We could still hang out

Me - 2:00:08 pm

Meh

Diana - 1:59:12 pm

I'll have the time :)

Me - 2:00:30 pm

:)

Diana - 1:59:12 pm

In all seriousness, where would I go?

Diana - 1:59:12 pm

Just say I was being serious?

Diana - 1:59:12 pm

How would I go about it?

Diana - 1:59:12 pm

Maybe I'll ask my sister

Diana - 2:01:39 pm

I'm so naive I don't know about this stuff, I don't even know when someone is flirting most of the time

Me - 2:02:18 pm

Really?

Me - 2:02:36 pm

It's fatigue talking. Don't be silly

Me - 2:03:58 pm

You need to just tease out one problem at a time, and solve that. "Your" way of looking for a complete solution won't work with this stuff. Too complex

Me - 2:04:24 pm

Talk to me. Seriously. One small step at a time to fix big problems

Me - 2:05:21 pm

Boring I know

Diana - 2:09:37 pm

I don't know how to work like that

Me - 2:09:56 pm

A couple of weeks ago you were telling me how you were finally getting self belief that you deserved a proper, loving, family sharing, long term relationship. You're right!!

Diana - 2:11:20 pm

I still believe that

Diana - 2:11:26 pm

It's not either or

Diana - 2:11:35 pm

It's merely a means to an end

Me - 2:11:44 pm

I can help you with that. As you can help me with what I can't do. Win/win.

Diana - 2:11:47 pm

Better than cleaning right?

Me - 2:11:58 pm

The means will destroy the end

Diana - 2:12:00 pm

No

Diana - 2:12:00 pm

I'm not ready for the big thing yet

Diana - 2:12:00 pm

The interim will have finished before that presents

Me - 2:13:23 pm

Ha! Spent all the old guy's money. :)

Me - 2:14:12 pm

Why aren't you "ready". You're ready when thjngs are presented to you, or you miss out.

Me - 2:14:25 pm

That was a question

Me - 2:14:34 pm

Sorry forgot the ?

Diana - 2:16:16 pm

You know why

Diana - 2:17:37 pm

My health food shop just dealt me a new bar to tru

Diana - 2:17:38 pm

Try

Diana - 2:18:07 pm

For free. How could I decline?

Diana - 2:18:10 pm

I needed seeds

Diana - 2:18:24 pm

Seriously back to the readiness, you have the answers ive spoken them.

Diana - 2:18:24 pm

So you gonna help me or what?

Diana - 2:18:24 pm

No. You be my lifting coach, I'll sort out the rest :)

Me - 2:21:49 pm

Let's have a "serious"'conversation about this stuff, in person. When it's possible and appropriate.

Me - 2:22:10 pm

I'm not your coach anymore, I was sacked. :)

Me - 2:22:17 pm

I'm your friend now

Diana - 2:22:27 pm

Another 3 weeks remember

Me - 2:22:33 pm

Pfft

Me - 2:22:37 pm

Wow's

Me - 2:22:42 pm

Meh

Diana - 2:22:40 pm

But I'll need a coach to lift

Diana - 2:22:40 pm

And another reason I need a sugar daddy!

Me - 2:23:17 pm

Sure, I'm going to help you

Diana - 2:22:40 pm

To pay for my next coach!!

Me - 2:23:25 pm

I'm your gym buddy

Me - 2:23:36 pm

Next coach???!!!

Diana - 2:22:40 pm

Well you won't coach me you said

Diana - 2:22:40 pm

I'll need help

Diana - 2:22:40 pm

You're my gym buddy!

Me - 2:24:01 pm

Not for $'s

Me - 2:24:22 pm

Don't you become a twister ;)

Diana - 2:24:27 pm

That's an option I didn't even think of! You're def the brains of us

Diana - 2:24:30 pm

Ok cool

Diana - 2:24:34 pm

Cause I need your help

Me - 2:25:04 pm

What option? What did I say?

Diana - 2:24:48 pm

Gym buddies

Me - 2:26:13 pm

If I'm the brains (but I'm not really), them listen to me on the other stuff too.

Me - 2:26:16 pm

Ok

Me - 2:26:25 pm

Like the pretty boys haha

Me - 2:26:33 pm

Train togerher

Diana - 2:26:42 pm

What pretty boys?

Me - 2:26:51 pm

Almost hold hands as they do it

Me - 2:26:57 pm

At other gyms

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

Oh

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

No hand holding

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

But lifting yes

Me - 2:27:23 pm

Good looking boys who train together.

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

Side on

Me - 2:27:39 pm

Ha

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

I don't care about pretty boys

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

I look at them now and think I can lift heavier than you

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

That's all I think

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

:)

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

I'm kinda kidding kinda not

Me - 2:28:54 pm

And you can.

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

Like that guy grunting next to us today he was just annoying

Me - 2:29:34 pm

He was impressed though. Said so to me

Me - 2:29:43 pm

Although why he would I don't know

Me - 2:29:55 pm

I mean say it to me not you

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

Why he would be impressed?

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

Oh right

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

Yea that was weird

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

Mayeb he's scared of strong women

Me - 2:30:31 pm

Maybe "little woman" syndrome :)

Me - 2:30:37 pm

Haha yeah

Me - 2:30:40 pm

I am

Me - 2:30:42 pm

:)

Me - 2:30:50 pm

Well, you anyway :)

Diana - 2:31:12 pm

Yea sure

Me - 2:34:52 pm

I think I know you better now, well I would hope so. And I'm sure you're "ready" for that relationship thing. You just have to accept that, and that's the hard final step, I know. Not saying with me, you do deserve someone better than me. But, I'm sure your ready now or really soon.

Diana - 2:36:09 pm

What are you talking about?

Diana - 2:36:14 pm

Better than you?

Diana - 2:36:39 pm

You're ace, you're just 15 years out of time. Or I am.

Diana - 2:36:47 pm

Either way I wouldn't go there

Diana - 2:36:51 pm

I'm still too scared

Diana - 2:36:53 pm

Not ready

Diana - 2:38:54 pm

Or id go there then sabotage

Diana - 2:39:03 pm

Typical Diana style

Diana - 2:39:13 pm

That's why the sugar daddy is better

Diana - 2:39:16 pm

Transactional

Me - 2:39:53 pm

Yeah, but you forget it's me (potentially) on the other side.

Me - 2:40:02 pm

Hard to sabotage

Me - 2:40:31 pm

I figured that out after that Monday at the gym

Diana - 2:40:31 pm

Seriously I can't do it

Diana - 2:40:39 pm

Don't want to do it

Diana - 2:40:55 pm

It would take so much energy for me to be in a relationship

Diana - 2:40:58 pm

And be sane

Diana - 2:41:06 pm

Energy the kids need at this point

Me - 2:41:24 pm

Ok. I fully unsestand.

Diana - 2:41:40 pm

Im damaged goods :)

Diana - 2:41:51 pm

Really, quite insane in a relationship

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

I have to work hard to not run

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

Or push the other person so far they have to run

Diana - 2:42:39 pm

There's no space or time for me to work on that atm

Diana - 2:43:01 pm

And like I said we are 15 years out of sync

Diana - 2:43:49 pm

Now we've sorted that can we get down to business? Lifting and sugar daddy sourcing, your new jobs ;)

Me - 2:43:55 pm

Haha

Me - 2:43:58 pm

Sure

Me - 2:44:52 pm

Enough texting about those issues. We're straying again.

Me - 2:45:22 pm

Lifting I can help. Being your friend, I can help.

Me - 2:45:44 pm

Sugar daddies? No fucking way. :)

Diana - 2:45:56 pm

Really?

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

Even as my friend you won't help?

Me - 2:46:23 pm

Don't know any, anyway

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

Pfft

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

You'll meet some in camberwell :)

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

Ok I'll do it alone

Diana - 2:47:20 pm

I'm sensing your lack of cooperation

Me - 2:47:26 pm

Eharmony. Want old and $'s. Will that work as an ad?

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

Possibly

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

And my sister just sent me some websites

Diana - 2:50:00 pm

I need to lose a bit more fat first

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

The bay looks beautiful today

Me - 2:50:27 pm

Last text on this, for the moment. Let me help you, as a friend, with the short term $'s. It's only a small amount and you'll have to pay it back eventually from profits. As a friend, no "strings"

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

Busy but beautiful

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

Pfft

Me - 2:51:01 pm

Think about it! No Pfft

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

There's always strings

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

I'm not that naive

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

Just the stupid kind of naive ;)

Diana - 2:51:46 pm

But you're right

Diana - 2:51:49 pm

No more texts

Diana - 2:51:54 pm

About that

Diana - 2:52:05 pm

I won't bring it up again!

Me - 2:52:21 pm

In person yes.

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

Ok

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

I'm going to do cartwheels up the stairs to work and wear a tshirt saying beastmode

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

;)

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

And on the back no you can't touch my guns

Me - 2:57:53 pm

Haha. I think 105 might scare them off, right?

Me - 2:58:24 pm

But be prepared for touching today :)

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

Or draw them in ;))

Diana - 2:58:43 pm

Haha! I wore a shirt so no one could see or touch them

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

I forgot the emoticon

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

;)

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

But I really did

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

Otherwise people walk past my desk saying stuff

Me - 3:01:35 pm

I've been sitting at the desk all afternoon, really stiffening up now.

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

Run time

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

Or nap time ;)

Me - 3:03:06 pm

Not nap. Maybe bike ride or more work. Maybe run with pre workout :)

Me - 3:03:13 pm

Still early though

Me - 3:03:22 pm

Day light savings yay!

Diana - 3:04:18 pm

Yea it's great leaving work with a little daylight left

Diana - 3:04:31 pm

Not much but the sunset atleast

Diana - 3:05:20 pm

Man you're gonna push yourself after those deadlifts?

Diana - 3:05:56 pm

I've got the headache light headedness happening, maybe it's a blood sugar thing

Me - 3:06:17 pm

Yeah, you don't eat enough after going heavy

Me - 3:06:34 pm

Got to replenish glycogen stores

Me - 3:06:38 pm

Carbs

Me - 3:06:44 pm

And protein

Me - 3:06:51 pm

Not choccy :)

Diana - 3:08:57 pm

I had a spinach omelette on pumpkernickel

Diana - 3:09:02 pm

And a mandarin

Diana - 3:09:23 pm

THEN the choccy ;)

Diana - 3:24:32 pm

I would suggest coffee and non grass time

Diana - 3:24:32 pm

I'm at work :(

Me - 3:29:41 pm

You really should plan spending some days here, when you can. Not doing anything particularly exciting. Just hanging out, relaxing, talking, paddling on the lake, etc. I'll keep renting this place if you make that a regular-ish habit.

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

You are keeping it anyway!

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

I just said good morning to the chief of staff

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

Off to a good start?

Me - 3:32:25 pm

Just trying to make you feel important :)

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

She has literally gone to get me coffee, she says I need it after lifting all that weight!

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

Don't do that. I don't need to feel important

Me - 3:32:51 pm

Sucking up for next year? Well done!

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

I need honesty and that's about it

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

Not intentional at all!

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

Just kind of off my head those lifts do that to me :/

Diana - 4:05:26 pm

Looks like weekend work is staying atleast until next financial year

Me - 5:05:18 pm

Ok, it seems that I'm doing this then. I really don't know when to stop. But, then, you already know that about me :)

Diana - 4:14:18 pm

Well then just have fun

Diana - 4:14:28 pm

I'm trying to pick dates to go see mum

Diana - 4:14:32 pm

Going to miss some gym

Me - 5:07:06 pm

Well, I felt stronger than I expected. Pay for it later I guess. Good news about the work. That's awesome. And you've just got to do what you have to for your mum.

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

You're totes gonna pay for that run ;)

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

Atleast there's wine :)

Me - 5:23:07 pm

:)

Me - 5:24:34 pm

Cup of tea. Nine Inch Nails playing in the headphones. Writing a circuit for Tuesday morning. And exhausted!! Does it get any better?

Me - 5:24:47 pm

Well, with selected company, maybe :)

Diana - 5:25:57 pm

Yes

Diana - 5:25:58 pm

Grass

Diana - 5:26:08 pm

Grass would make it better :)

Me - 5:27:18 pm

If you want left over curry after work give me half an hours notice and I'll cook some rice.

Diana - 5:27:38 pm

Half an hour eh??

Diana - 5:27:41 pm

You're so funny

Diana - 5:27:47 pm

I've got a beetroot salad

Diana - 5:27:56 pm

Fucking calories

Diana - 5:28:16 pm

Why can't I be bigger and taller and need more food??

Diana - 5:28:16 pm

If I eat your cooking I have to start planting grass right?

Diana - 5:28:16 pm

What curcuit for Tuesday?

Me - 5:30:16 pm

Not too hard. They're not super fit. And I don't have time to teach them much new stuff. But I'm putting in at least one fitball exercise. Still thinking. On to Radiohead now :)

Me - 5:30:30 pm

Seriously, you should eat tonight

Me - 5:30:48 pm

Just give me warning to fire up the rice cooker

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

I'm eating beetroot salad!

Me - 5:35:43 pm

Yum

Me - 5:36:19 pm

Sorry. You're being really strong

Me - 5:36:37 pm

That's good. Go for it. Seriously

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

I'd rather pizza :/

Diana - 5:44:17 pm

And the beetroot salad has too much beetroot and is kind of sickening

Diana - 5:44:24 pm

And stop trying to lure me with the lake

Diana - 5:44:36 pm

Though that's preferable over food

Diana - 5:44:44 pm

Salad is in bin

Me - 5:45:29 pm

Starvation it is then?

Diana - 5:46:20 pm

Pfft

Diana - 5:46:26 pm

I'm hardly about to starve!

Diana - 5:46:43 pm

It's going to be hot tomorrow

Me - 5:47:23 pm

I'm not going argue via text. But you should eat something. After today, yesterday and last week.

Me - 5:47:31 pm

Working tkmorrow?

Diana - 5:49:36 pm

Yes

Diana - 5:49:36 pm

Working

Diana - 5:50:28 pm

I might go for a sup in the morning if the winds stay away

Diana - 5:51:19 pm

And I glad you don't want to argue :)

Me - 5:52:04 pm

If it's windy, I have a lake. Did I mention that? :)

Me - 5:52:45 pm

Sigur Ros now

Me - 5:53:02 pm

2 cups of tea consumed

Me - 5:53:05 pm

And

Me - 5:53:23 pm

I'm tired now :)

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

Yes you did

Diana - 5:55:09 pm

But I have to go get a board off dan so it's easier to go out at the beach

Diana - 5:55:27 pm

I just had to take a quick selfie of me with big ted for the kids :)

Diana - 5:55:36 pm

I bet you're tired!

Diana - 5:55:40 pm

Early night Huh?

Diana - 5:59:44 pm

Spartan super in melbourne announced 8th March!!! You jn???

Me - 6:00:09 pm

Ok

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

Sheesh don't get too excited ;)

Me - 6:01:02 pm

:)

Me - 6:01:23 pm

Yay!!!!!!!! Spartan Super!!!!!!!!

Me - 6:01:30 pm

Better

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

Actually it's the 7th

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

Ok... What's wrong?

Me - 6:01:54 pm

Do I get a singlet like you?

Me - 6:02:10 pm

Wrong?

Me - 6:02:18 pm

Text issues maybe?

Diana - 6:02:24 pm

Didn't you see my cool finisher Tshirt? You'll get one of those and a super cool medal

Me - 6:02:27 pm

Lack of emoticons.

Me - 6:02:36 pm

Yeah, I saw it

Me - 6:02:51 pm

Well, I noticed you weRing it

Diana - 6:02:24 pm

It's $90!

Diana - 6:02:24 pm

Would we be beginner or intermediate?

Diana - 6:02:24 pm

There's advanced too

Diana - 6:02:24 pm

Maybe intermediate?

Me - 6:03:59 pm

Want sugar daddy Mark to pay? :)

Me - 6:04:18 pm

Intermediate

Me - 6:04:28 pm

That's enough

Me - 6:05:12 pm

We really need a music night here

Me - 6:05:29 pm

It's awesome listening to music and warhxinf the lake

Me - 6:05:39 pm

Watching

Me - 6:06:03 pm

I might move my speakers into the lounge room.

Me - 6:06:19 pm

Scare the neighbours

Me - 6:06:23 pm

:)

Diana - 6:06:40 pm

What's enough?

Diana - 6:06:40 pm

And you do need music on the lake for sure

Me - 6:07:17 pm

Intermediate level is enough. Right?

Me - 6:08:06 pm

If they played this at the gym is stay there all day.

Me - 6:09:43 pm

I really owe you for this Diana. Sitting here is great. I really never thought about doing it. A bit odd, I know. Lack of imagination.

Me - 6:10:11 pm

Although it's getting cold and windy now :)

Me - 6:10:40 pm

I guess I should shower and get ready to watch the news right?

Diana - 6:10:51 pm

It'd be worth getting one of Those outdoor gas heaters I think

Diana - 6:11:05 pm

Don't watch it

Diana - 6:11:27 pm

The sunset is much better

Diana - 6:11:53 pm

And what do you mean by do I want sugar daddy mark to pay?

Diana - 6:12:01 pm

Are you pissed off?

Me - 6:12:17 pm

No

Diana - 6:12:22 pm

I'm confused and convened

Diana - 6:12:24 pm

Concerned

Me - 6:12:29 pm

You read too much into texts :)

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

Hmmm

Me - 6:13:05 pm

Attempt at humor. I guess I'm not going to have a career as a stand up, right?

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

No I don't

Me - 6:14:05 pm

Back on Radiohead now

Diana - 6:14:15 pm

Hmm

Diana - 6:14:26 pm

Are you going to talk to me about this?

Me - 6:14:50 pm

What? I'm not upset about anything, really.

Me - 6:14:59 pm

Truly ruly.

Diana - 6:15:42 pm

Ok

Diana - 6:15:46 pm

Well then no

Diana - 6:15:54 pm

I don't want you to pay for it

Diana - 6:16:00 pm

I don't even really want to do it

Me - 7:31:39 pm

All done?

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

Yep :)

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

Apart from my FaceTime duties

Me - 7:34:29 pm

:)

Me - 7:35:36 pm

Am I drinkning this wine on my own or not? :)

Diana - 7:36:16 pm

I can't

Diana - 7:36:16 pm

I'm wrecked

Me - 7:37:07 pm

Ok. I start drinkning :)

Diana - 7:36:16 pm

Well then there's not enough for me anyway

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

I think I'd fall asleep after one glass

Me - 7:40:48 pm

If you need to sleep you should go home. If you need to detox after your big day you can either come here or text.

Me - 7:41:06 pm

It's too cold outside now.

Me - 7:41:11 pm

And windy

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

To detox?

Me - 7:41:43 pm

Unwind

Me - 7:41:53 pm

Better word

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

I can't deal with settling then having to get up to resettle.

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

I'm old too :)

Me - 7:42:20 pm

:)

Diana - 7:43:48 pm

Besides I don't want you to think I'm just trying to shaft cash out of you

Me - 7:43:55 pm

Hahaha

Me - 7:44:46 pm

There's two thirds of a bottle left. We didn't have much last night did we. Ok. Here we go. Wish me luck.

Diana - 7:45:53 pm

Good luck

Diana - 8:19:25 pm

How's it going down?

Diana - 8:19:36 pm

Maybe I could have a shot of tequila

Me - 8:20:02 pm

There's nothing on tv and I've got another full glSs to drink

Diana - 8:20:46 pm

You should be listening to music and looking out over the lake

Diana - 8:20:49 pm

Not watching TV

Me - 8:21:06 pm

I need my muse :)

Diana - 8:21:50 pm

I'm sure your anatomy book is within reach ;)

Diana - 8:22:36 pm

I always like to drink and then walk

Me - 8:23:03 pm

Are you at home now? Drink and stumble maybe :)

Diana - 8:23:12 pm

Yep just got here

Diana - 8:23:12 pm

I don't know that I could stomach tequila though

Me - 8:23:55 pm

No. Save it and bring it over here one day

Diana - 8:24:07 pm

No, I usually have a glass or two of wine then go walking, but that was when I had Larry. Amazing how a dog makes you feel safe

Me - 8:25:29 pm

Ok. One of the nights you're here next, let's do that. The lake is safe

Diana - 8:26:17 pm

But I can't drink and drive

Diana - 8:26:28 pm

Not even that short distance

Diana - 8:26:41 pm

I'll drink here you drink there and we will meet in the middle :)

Diana - 8:26:49 pm

It's a nice night isn't it

Me - 8:26:55 pm

Yep

Me - 8:27:37 pm

If it wasn't so cold id go outside

Me - 8:27:44 pm

Maybe I should

Diana - 8:28:38 pm

Yep you should just for a minute :)

Diana - 8:28:43 pm

Look up, it's clear

Me - 8:28:46 pm

It's bit so nice drinkning so much on your own

Diana - 8:28:56 pm

You're into all that starry nonsense

Diana - 8:29:03 pm

No it's not :(

Diana - 8:29:19 pm

Texting is ok?

Me - 8:29:20 pm

Outside now

Me - 8:29:47 pm

I used to know the names if many of them

Me - 8:30:37 pm

Let's work out a platonic option so you can stay here sometimes. This would be fun with company.

Me - 8:31:28 pm

It's not really dark enough to see lots if stars though

Diana - 8:31:44 pm

Stop being positive ;)

Me - 8:32:33 pm

See scorpio?

Diana - 8:31:44 pm

Do you think that would work? A platonic option?

Me - 8:32:53 pm

Yes

Diana - 8:33:05 pm

Have you ever heard of lifting making women bleed? It's still going and reall

Diana - 8:33:09 pm

Really making me tired

Me - 8:33:23 pm

See your doctor

Me - 8:33:33 pm

It's been going for weeks

Me - 8:34:00 pm

I have heard if women bleeding for weeks. Can't remember what they did though

Me - 8:34:11 pm

Don't leave it too long

Diana - 8:33:52 pm

Maybe it's an internal protest about Joel starting school next year ;)

Me - 8:35:26 pm

Maybe. I don't know. Talk to me about how you really feel about that stuff. It might help.

Diana - 8:35:26 pm

I should have got a bottle of wine on the way home

Diana - 8:35:35 pm

What stiff?

Diana - 8:35:38 pm

Stuff?

Me - 8:35:50 pm

I thought your were exahaustwd?

Me - 8:35:59 pm

About Joel going to schlock

Me - 8:36:02 pm

School

Diana - 8:36:00 pm

I am. Wine is a nice way to end the day

Me - 8:36:09 pm

Lasts child

Diana - 8:36:00 pm

I tried to but you shut me up saying Id be surprised and the grief won't last long

Me - 8:37:08 pm

Not now. I talk too much. No more. I promise!

Me - 8:37:34 pm

That's with everything I mean

Me - 8:37:40 pm

Not just Joel

Me - 8:37:46 pm

My wine is inside

Me - 8:37:57 pm

And I'm worried about bull ants haha

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

Get outta there!!

Me - 8:38:31 pm

Need grass

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

Those bullants are hard core!

Me - 8:38:35 pm

:)

Me - 8:39:17 pm

If you come I've more, I'll move the music into the lounge. That would be good

Me - 8:39:29 pm

No foxtel soon anyway

Me - 8:39:42 pm

Not that there's anyrbing to watch

Me - 8:39:58 pm

I'm talking again. Sorry.

Me - 8:40:06 pm

(Zips lip)

Me - 8:40:10 pm

:)

Me - 8:40:19 pm

I'm drunk Dian!

Me - 8:40:25 pm

Diana

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

If I come you'll stay at the house and put the speakers in the lounge??

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

The pressure!!

Me - 8:40:40 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

You should do that for yourself!

Me - 8:40:49 pm

Yes

Me - 8:40:52 pm

I will

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

And besides I give you practically all my spare time, I have no more

Me - 8:41:04 pm

I know

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

I've spent the last two days with you and my house is yuk!

Me - 8:41:23 pm

I appreciate it

Me - 8:41:35 pm

Really appreciate it

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

I'm not complaining

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

I'm juts saying I don't really have any more

Diana - 8:42:22 pm

Some of us don't have cleaners!

Me - 8:43:11 pm

This is time together is ok. I enjoy it. Short and sweet :)

Me - 8:43:30 pm

I know it's probably more than you can spare

Me - 8:43:53 pm

That's why the texting works for us

Me - 8:44:07 pm

Still together

Diana - 8:42:24 pm

Yea I think I'm gojnf to need some time to myself, but it'll be uncomfortable cause we've spent so much time together

Me - 8:44:31 pm

Meeting of minds

Me - 8:45:26 pm

Not a problem. Go for it. I'll still be here. Just let me know when you need more time.

Me - 8:46:16 pm

I think there's a good friendship base now that can sustain absences. If you need them.

Me - 8:46:33 pm

Ok. Last glass

Diana - 8:46:55 pm

Enjoy

Diana - 8:47:02 pm

I'm jealous!

Diana - 8:47:10 pm

It's exactly what I need to fall asleep!

Me - 8:48:26 pm

Just let me know if I'm asking for too much of your time. I'm a big boy and can handle it if you tell me nicely :)

Diana - 8:48:36 pm

Ok so in a fortnight we can get drunk and listen to music and I'll sleep on the couch

Diana - 8:48:40 pm

Ok I will

Me - 8:48:56 pm

Ok. Cool. It's a date! Haha

Me - 8:49:10 pm

The couch is nice

Diana - 8:49:13 pm

Actually you can sleep on the couch! ;)

Me - 8:49:21 pm

Hahaha

Me - 8:49:35 pm

Whatever you want :)

Me - 8:50:52 pm

I've had a few naps on the couch. After early mornings and hard workouts.

Diana - 8:51:56 pm

Good, you're used to it then ;)

Diana - 8:52:06 pm

There's a spare bed anyway isn't there?

Me - 8:52:24 pm

I'm not making THAT mistake again :)

Diana - 8:52:35 pm

Ha!

Diana - 8:52:39 pm

It's different now

Diana - 8:52:45 pm

We've chosen an option

Diana - 8:52:52 pm

There are clear boundaries

Diana - 9:08:00 pm

Have you passed out?

Me - 9:11:10 pm

Nearly. In bed, wishing I hadn't drunk that wine :) Hard to read stuff. Each sentence needs 4 times through haha

Me - 9:11:23 pm

Talking would be better :)

Me - 9:12:17 pm

I'm not a very good solo drunk :) Probably a good thing haha

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

I'll leave you to it

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

Save your eyes

Me - 9:12:49 pm

Night

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

Or are you avoiding agreeing with the above texts?

Me - 9:14:03 pm

Boundaries texts?

Diana - 9:14:17 pm

Yes

Me - 9:17:27 pm

I agree. We've chosen boundaries for sure. In the short to medium term I'm 100% in agreement with the really close friends thing.

Diana - 9:18:24 pm

You're twisting again

Diana - 9:18:40 pm

Or about to ;)

Me - 9:18:47 pm

Am I? What is wrong with that?

Diana - 9:19:16 pm

Short to medium term...

Me - 9:19:19 pm

Oh

Me - 9:19:27 pm

Well, scientist

Me - 9:19:32 pm

Never say never

Diana - 9:19:43 pm

Pfft that's got nothing to do with science!

Diana - 9:19:49 pm

It's just your catch cry

Me - 9:20:54 pm

You're safe with me. Is that enough? But I can't say how I'll feel in a years time

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

Ohhhh I've eaten too many seeds

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

Yea that's good

Diana - 9:21:11 pm

Thanks

Me - 9:21:11 pm

Don't sprout haha

Diana - 9:21:23 pm

You'll be sick of me in a year

Diana - 9:21:29 pm

That'll take care of itself

Diana - 9:21:40 pm

Seeds and pumpkernickel

Diana - 9:21:44 pm

Argh

Me - 9:21:46 pm

I'm only interested in a "relationship" if there's live on both sides

Me - 9:21:51 pm

Love

Diana - 9:22:40 pm

Well there's like on both sides. And friendship and safety. That's all one needs really

Me - 9:23:19 pm

Yes, there's "only" like at the moment. I agree. Strong like though :)

Me - 9:23:21 pm

And

Me - 9:23:52 pm

Don't put yourself down. I can't see me being sick of you

Me - 9:24:06 pm

It will, if anything, be the other way round

Diana - 9:24:14 pm

I'm not, it's my tactic to make you sick of me ;)

Me - 9:24:31 pm

Oh. Tactic too thin then haha

Diana - 9:24:31 pm

You know it, I'm a runner

Diana - 9:24:39 pm

Well not your kind of running ;))

Me - 9:24:48 pm

I know your address now

Diana - 9:24:52 pm

Friendship like

Diana - 9:24:57 pm

And friendship it is

Diana - 9:25:04 pm

And lifting non coach ;)

Me - 9:25:31 pm

Gym buddy. Great friends.

Me - 9:25:38 pm

For now... Hahahahaha

Diana - 9:25:50 pm

See, that's the bit that does my head in

Me - 9:25:59 pm

Sorry

Diana - 9:26:07 pm

That I'll have to keep my guard up

Diana - 9:26:14 pm

It's like that's what you want me to do

Diana - 9:26:21 pm

You set me up for that

Diana - 9:26:29 pm

By saying that stuff

Me - 9:26:34 pm

Don't do your head in. I don't want that

Diana - 9:26:36 pm

You set me up ready to run

Diana - 9:26:41 pm

Then say you're safe

Diana - 9:26:45 pm

It's not ok

Diana - 9:26:54 pm

So really you're untrustworthy

Me - 9:26:59 pm

No

Diana - 9:27:00 pm

And that's how you want to be portrayed

Me - 9:27:05 pm

No

Diana - 9:27:12 pm

Cause you feel like you have control then

Diana - 9:27:12 pm

Argh

Me - 9:27:24 pm

I have zero control

Diana - 9:27:12 pm

All that texting gone to waste!!

Diana - 9:28:02 pm

Because you have to end it with a 'for now'

Diana - 9:28:13 pm

Or 'who knows how I'll feel in a year'

Diana - 9:28:29 pm

It's a set up

Diana - 9:28:38 pm

Fuck it

Diana - 9:28:51 pm

This is when i just want to wipe it

Diana - 9:29:03 pm

It seems futile

Diana - 9:29:14 pm

Like an understanding has been reached

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

And then ridiculed

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

Too gamey for the life I want

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

And not safe at all

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

In any regards

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

Argh

Me - 9:37:54 pm

Ok. It's important to you. Then, quote me from now on, a real relationship will never happen. Just and only friends and at the gym. No twisting. I value your friendship more than any potential thing that might happen some indeterminate time in the future. Seriously. Save this, it's for real. I value your friendship. I'm as not ready as you are for a real relationship, really. Probably never will be with anyone.

Diana - 9:42:05 pm

Me neither

Diana - 9:42:08 pm

And thanks

Diana - 9:42:08 pm

Really. Thanks.

Diana - 9:42:08 pm

I could almost cry with relief!

Diana - 9:44:16 pm

Don't take that the wrong way!

Me - 9:44:59 pm

Last text ever on that stuff!

Diana - 9:44:16 pm

But I feel like I have to run from any kind of pressure at this point

Diana - 9:44:16 pm

Ok last ever text!

Diana - 9:44:16 pm

I saved it

Me - 9:45:30 pm

How do you that?

Me - 9:45:47 pm

Oh. Copy

Diana - 9:44:16 pm

I photographed it

Diana - 9:44:16 pm

I like pictures remember ;)

Me - 9:46:08 pm

Copy and paste too

Me - 9:46:14 pm

Filter it?

Me - 9:46:16 pm

:)

Diana - 9:46:26 pm

Ha!

Diana - 9:46:54 pm

Are you training tomorrow?

Me - 9:46:57 pm

Good night. All good? You can sleep?

Diana - 9:47:05 pm

Yep ok

Me - 9:47:16 pm

Going to camber well

Diana - 9:47:34 pm

Ok good luck I hope it goes well

Me - 9:47:34 pm

Camberwell gym

Diana - 9:48:52 pm

Good night

Diana - 9:49:02 pm

Hope you sleep well too :)

**Sunday 12 October**

Diana - 7:03:05 am

How's your head?

Diana - 7:03:12 am

I had the worst night sleep ever

Me - 7:03:47 am

Really? Why?

Me - 7:04:03 am

I feel shit

Me - 7:04:20 am

Wasn't me again was it?

Diana - 7:03:12 am

When I did eventually sleep we were in some weird Eastern European country scoring some amazing new protein powder and Pre workout from this weird building after saving these animals from a mentally disturbed rapist

Diana - 7:03:12 am

Then we got back to your place and your daughter was there waiting for a massage!

Diana - 7:05:25 am

I'm certified insane ;)

Diana - 7:05:35 am

Why do you feel bad?

Me - 7:05:54 am

That's an awesome dream!! Lynch movie.

Diana - 7:06:11 am

They're all like that

Me - 7:06:40 am

The wine. I should have tipped it out.

Diana - 7:06:51 am

I did my grocery shopping at about 330 when I realised I couldn't get back to sleep

Diana - 7:06:58 am

Bad wine or juts too much?

Me - 7:07:04 am

Diana!

Diana - 7:07:18 am

Online! Still in bed!

Me - 7:07:22 am

Ok

Me - 7:07:36 am

Not bad wine

Diana - 7:07:52 am

Lots of water

Diana - 7:08:04 am

When are you going to the gym?

Me - 7:08:29 am

I'm still in bed, been dozing for hours

Diana - 7:08:38 am

Maybe it's the moon? I've been bleeding really heavily all night.

Diana - 7:08:44 am

It's a beautiful morning

Diana - 7:08:57 am

I don't want to get up but I don't want to waste it either

Me - 7:09:15 am

You've got to see someone about the bleeding, right

Me - 7:09:50 am

I have to food shop then I'll go to camberwell

Me - 7:10:03 am

Might stay here for a bit longer :)

Diana - 7:10:13 am

Def

Diana - 7:10:24 am

Are you meeting the manager?

Me - 7:10:33 am

No just looking

Diana - 7:10:37 am

I don't think I'm going to paddle

Diana - 7:10:47 am

I kind of feel like going to the gym

Diana - 7:10:59 am

Just doing something small

Diana - 7:11:14 am

But you're right

Me - 7:11:16 am

Do you want to come here this morning? Canoe in the lake

Diana - 7:11:24 am

Not getting up yet is a good start!

Me - 7:11:39 am

I could go this arvo

Me - 7:11:49 am

Might go much later anyway

Diana - 7:12:11 am

Really?

Me - 7:12:46 am

Of course. It's what friends are for, sharing their lake to friends who had a bad night

Diana - 7:13:01 am

Ha! Not when they have plans!

Diana - 7:13:08 am

Are you going to canoe too???

Me - 7:13:18 am

Only 1 canoe

Diana - 7:13:52 am

I could borrow a sup and come around but I can't be bothered putting my soft racks on and lifting it!

Me - 7:14:36 am

Just come over. We'll commiserate on bad nights sleep

Diana - 7:14:47 am

Let's rest for an hour. All I have to do today is carry my hard rubbish out.

Me - 7:14:53 am

You go to work and I'll go to town

Me - 7:15:03 am

Yep

Diana - 7:15:04 am

Let me know what time you want to leave I don't want to stuff up your plans

Me - 7:15:11 am

Ok

Diana - 7:15:30 am

Ok rest and coffee :)

Diana - 7:15:39 am

Coffee after the rest of course ;)

Me - 7:15:51 am

Text me when you're leaving

Diana - 7:15:56 am

More non grass

Diana - 7:16:00 am

You know I'm going to fall asleep right??

Me - 7:16:19 am

Good

Diana - 7:16:00 am

On the non grass

Diana - 7:16:00 am

Atleast you'll get some work done :)

Me - 7:16:39 am

Done most of it yesterday

Me - 7:16:54 am

It was a productive day, for that

Diana - 7:16:56 am

No gym then, day of rest

Diana - 7:16:59 am

Pfft rest days

Diana - 7:17:03 am

That's good

Diana - 7:17:10 am

Productive is good

Me - 7:17:11 am

For me, yes,rest

Diana - 7:17:44 am

Ok

Diana - 7:18:01 am

Back To sleep for an hour

Me - 7:18:06 am

K

Diana - 7:18:08 am

Shit

Diana - 7:18:08 am

You do your thing

Diana - 7:18:08 am

I've got to do housework

Diana - 7:18:08 am

Really

Diana - 7:18:08 am

Can't put it off

Diana - 7:19:09 am

Argh I'm mad from lack of sleep! ;)

Me - 7:19:15 am

Ok whatever

Diana - 7:19:18 am

The mother guilt has kicked in!

Me - 7:19:22 am

Ha

Me - 7:19:52 am

Housework needs to be done sometimes

Diana - 7:20:16 am

Even on no sleep?

Diana - 7:20:16 am

I should do washing and clean the house. I'll feel better for it

Me - 7:21:00 am

I'm not going anywhere this morning other than maybe the supermarket. Come here if you want.

Diana - 7:20:16 am

Take hard rubbish out

Diana - 7:20:16 am

Then ready for another week

Me - 7:21:17 am

Yes that would be sensible

Diana - 7:21:19 am

Ok, if I get it all done I'll see where you're at

Diana - 7:21:29 am

Next time take me to camberwell

Diana - 7:21:36 am

On a training day though

Me - 7:21:38 am

Minimalist clean and tidy

Diana - 7:21:50 am

Yep but it needs to be done

Diana - 7:22:09 am

If I get it done I'll just go for a walk maybe clear my head a bit

Me - 7:22:10 am

Go for it!! Put that apron on. :)

Me - 7:22:29 am

Walking is good

Diana - 7:22:24 am

Pfft

Diana - 7:22:24 am

I'll be lugging broken toys from the back yard mostly

Diana - 7:22:24 am

Anyway it needs to be done

Diana - 7:22:24 am

I'm trying to be more domestic

Diana - 7:22:24 am

Not very successfully but nonetheless I'm trying

Me - 7:24:40 am

Ok. Just do it. You might feel better about going to the gym tkmorrow if it's done today. And a walk before work.

Me - 7:24:47 am

And coffee

Diana - 7:24:32 am

yea there'll be less guilt about gym for sure

Diana - 7:24:32 am

Heavy squats maybe?

Diana - 7:24:32 am

Or am I saving my legs for wow

Me - 7:25:39 am

Wow is short

Diana - 7:25:59 am

Maybe a wow practice then one of your curcuits? I like your curcuits

Me - 7:25:59 am

I'm getting up. See if a shower helps

Diana - 7:26:05 am

Sp*

Diana - 7:26:13 am

No!!!

Diana - 7:26:25 am

Ok talk later. Hope it works :)

Diana - 7:49:50 am

Was last night Halloween

Diana - 7:50:03 am

Oh man i was off my head yeaterday!

Diana - 7:50:08 am

We ran a zombie closer and I didn't even realise

Me - 7:56:32 am

31 October

Me - 7:56:48 am

Halloween, that is

Diana - 7:56:32 am

Oh ok

Diana - 7:56:32 am

Told you you're the brains

Diana - 7:56:32 am

Feel better?

Me - 7:57:51 am

Yeah. Hot shower is good

Diana - 7:58:35 am

I'm going to try coffee maybe

Diana - 7:58:40 am

My tummy hurts

Diana - 7:58:40 am

I may need to eat some cow

Me - 7:59:26 am

I think I also feel a little bit odd that I sat drinkning so much on my own last night. As well as the dehydration :)

Me - 7:59:47 am

Disappointed with myself, for some reason

Diana - 7:58:40 am

Dehydration sucks

Diana - 7:58:40 am

Why?

Diana - 8:00:27 am

You didn't drink that much really a couple of glasses

Me - 8:00:45 am

I used to drink whiskey on the farm. To cope. Especially when Debbie was there (when she was)

Diana - 8:00:48 am

Gee I hope I don't take you back to that place

Diana - 8:00:48 am

Of needing to do that

Me - 8:01:25 am

Haha Nope

Me - 8:01:36 am

It was the old miser coming out

Me - 8:01:55 am

Can't throw out a bottle if wine

Me - 8:02:01 am

:)

Me - 8:02:14 am

It cost $20!!!!! :)

Diana - 8:00:48 am

You helped me realise something. My strict boundaries, and the physical ones are about being afraid someone wants something from me I don't want to give

Diana - 8:02:41 am

The minute you wrote that last text I realised I didn't feel it with you anymore

Diana - 8:02:53 am

That I could relax

Me - 8:03:19 am

So glad

Diana - 8:02:56 am

I'm not saying I'm going to run up to you and cuddle you! But I felt the tension in my body leave almost immediately

Diana - 8:02:56 am

Are you a miser eh??

Me - 8:03:45 am

Awesome! Even better friends

Me - 8:03:55 am

Poor parents

Diana - 8:02:56 am

I need to be more like that

Me - 8:03:58 am

Hate waste

Diana - 8:02:56 am

It's a good thing

Diana - 8:02:56 am

We all consume way too much it's quite appalling

Diana - 8:02:56 am

Except you. And food. You don't ;)

Me - 8:04:46 am

But I still can't stand in front of you in the gym, right? :)

Diana - 8:05:02 am

My friend wants me to gp for a paddle with her

Diana - 8:05:04 am

No

Diana - 8:05:04 am

That really does my head in

Diana - 8:05:04 am

The energy of someone immediately in front of me

Diana - 8:05:04 am

Even when having Coffee with people I sit side by side

Diana - 8:05:04 am

It's much more conducive for intimacy and honesty

Diana - 8:05:04 am

I think anyway

Diana - 8:05:04 am

I need someone to bring me coffee in bed

Diana - 8:05:04 am

I need maids

Me - 8:07:09 am

Haha. Just turned my coffee machine on

Me - 8:07:28 am

I could describe how nit tastes?

Me - 8:07:38 am

Near enough :)

Diana - 8:07:12 am

Eeww not yours ;))

Me - 8:07:53 am

:)

Me - 8:08:00 am

Ok

Diana - 8:07:12 am

I'll get up and make one and sit in the sun and dehydrate some more ;)

Me - 8:08:16 am

What milk should I buy?

Me - 8:08:24 am

For coffee

Me - 8:08:29 am

Supermarket

Diana - 8:07:12 am

It's really hard to find the right one

Diana - 8:07:12 am

I always buy unsweetened but most people don't like it

Me - 8:08:57 am

Soy, almond, ...?

Diana - 8:07:12 am

Soy milk is sweeter than almond milk naturally I find

Me - 8:09:05 am

Hate sweet things

Diana - 8:07:12 am

It depends on your taste

Diana - 8:07:12 am

You can get almond with coconut now too

Diana - 8:09:30 am

For a good basic soy buy bonsoy

Me - 8:09:31 am

Ewww!

Me - 8:09:44 am

BOnsoy, ok

Diana - 8:09:47 am

I drink light milk to save on calories but that's not a concern to you

Diana - 8:09:54 am

Make sure it's organic

Me - 8:10:09 am

It's on the list !!

Diana - 8:10:11 am

Try the organic almond too, see what you like better

Me - 8:10:18 am

$?

Me - 8:10:29 am

Powder is cheap :)

Diana - 8:10:37 am

Ha! I couldn't get any pumpkernickel online I'll have to go in for that so annoying

Diana - 8:10:55 am

It's expensive, around $4,5 for a litre

Diana - 8:11:00 am

It's expensive to eat well

Diana - 8:11:06 am

Or drink well

Diana - 8:12:33 am

I need a new polar watch

Diana - 8:12:41 am

Ok coffee

Me - 8:13:58 am

Save your money. You don't really need a hr monitor.

Diana - 8:15:30 am

I'm not going to buy one

Diana - 8:15:38 am

I just NeEd one ;)

Diana - 8:16:18 am

I'm trying not to buy anything until I sort yoga, it's not working out so well ;))

Diana - 8:16:47 am

Got to eat I guess :p

Me - 8:16:56 am

Powdered milk, not soy milk haha. Cheaper

Diana - 8:17:09 am

Hmm

Diana - 8:17:12 am

Yea

Diana - 8:17:14 am

Na

Diana - 8:18:51 am

The farmers market is on today

Diana - 8:21:58 am

So many things to do

Me - 8:22:24 am

One at a time! Listen to your friend :)

Diana - 8:22:08 am

It's a beautiful morning

Diana - 8:23:30 am

This is henry

Diana - 8:23:31 am

He has come for food and cuddles

Me - 8:24:20 am

:)

Diana - 8:24:16 am

Cats always look angry!

Me - 8:25:09 am

That's impatience :)

Me - 8:25:19 am

Resignation

Me - 8:25:31 am

That it's not happening quickly enough

Diana - 8:26:24 am

Damn right it's not

Diana - 8:26:24 am

And the longer he annoys me the longer it's going to take!

Diana - 8:26:24 am

I'm in my nightie about to do the hard rubbish :)

Diana - 8:26:24 am

Haha!

Me - 8:28:00 am

Good look. The neighbours will love it :)

Diana - 8:28:04 am

It's good to be silly for sillys sake sometimes

Me - 8:28:08 am

Curlers still in :)

Diana - 8:28:32 am

ha! No

Diana - 8:28:32 am

And it's a cool stripey nighty

Diana - 8:28:32 am

Not at all suggestive

Diana - 8:57:40 am

I have an antique bike from Cheltenham with a carved leather seat, time to throw her out

Me - 8:59:17 am

And I'm actually eating!

Me - 8:59:18 am

Look out 100kg, here I come :)

Me - 9:00:33 am

Maybe sell the bike? Might pay for a hr monitor :)

Me - 9:00:39 am

eBay

Diana - 9:00:32 am

Nope it's on the street

Diana - 9:00:32 am

And I found a yogurt maker unopened in my shed

Diana - 9:00:32 am

Ah the things we find

Diana - 9:02:40 am

And well done on the eating :)

Diana - 9:02:40 am

I've thrown out all I can without asking the kids about other stuff

Me - 9:04:05 am

I like eating, once I start. It's just the starting that's hard :)

Diana - 9:02:40 am

Actually I may already get into trouble for some train action

Me - 9:04:27 am

Maybe the collection will be late in he week

Diana - 9:04:31 am

Oh how I wish I struggled to start!!

Me - 9:04:37 am

Can ask the kids

Diana - 9:04:48 am

I keep spare bikes and stuff for when they have friends over

Diana - 9:04:48 am

And the shed is like another lounge with the wii in it, it gives them their own space with no adults around

Diana - 9:04:48 am

Yep I will

Diana - 9:04:48 am

Time to make a shake

Diana - 9:04:48 am

I feel terrible :/

Diana - 9:04:48 am

Too cold for the water I'll just walk up and say hi

Me - 9:05:48 am

How can we address your sleep issues?

Diana - 9:04:48 am

Phernergan;)

Me - 9:06:15 am

It's no 1, on Paul Chek's health list

Me - 9:06:19 am

No drugs

Me - 9:06:31 am

Probably stress

Diana - 9:04:48 am

Yea

Diana - 9:06:42 am

And yoga will help that

Me - 9:07:01 am

Am I making it worse or better?

Diana - 9:06:56 am

It's also the moon, it's been a big one right? No sleep, bleeding.... Just like a werewolf ;)

Me - 9:07:06 am

Stress I mean

Diana - 9:06:56 am

No stress from you now right?

Diana - 9:06:56 am

Am I stressing you?

Me - 9:07:37 am

No

Me - 9:07:40 am

No

Diana - 9:06:56 am

Are you telling me you want to walk away if you're a source of stress?

Me - 9:07:55 am

But you still didn't sleep last night

Me - 9:08:04 am

I thought you might

Me - 9:08:13 am

No walking

Me - 9:08:25 am

Fix stress, somehow

Me - 9:08:53 am

Any ideas at all about how to sleep?

Me - 9:09:04 am

Who could you see?

Diana - 9:09:04 am

Don't stress about my stress :))

Me - 9:09:17 am

Not stressing

Me - 9:09:21 am

:)

Diana - 9:09:04 am

It's been a tough year

Diana - 9:09:04 am

That's all

Me - 9:09:37 am

Ok

Me - 9:09:47 am

Sort itself out, I guess

Me - 9:09:58 am

Just hang in there?

Diana - 9:09:04 am

One doesn't go from not lifting to lifting 105 kilos in a few months and not be driven by something right?

Me - 9:10:30 am

Yeah

Diana - 9:09:04 am

You can quote that when I win the power lifting championships ;))

Me - 9:10:58 am

:) Will do!

Diana - 9:11:45 am

I don't need to see anyone

Diana - 9:11:50 am

It's got to come from within

Diana - 9:11:58 am

I need to learn to quieten my mind

Diana - 9:12:02 am

That's the draw to yoga

Diana - 9:12:12 am

Every woman I know is like this

Diana - 9:12:16 am

Especially my mum :/

Me - 9:13:18 am

Yeah, you've got to figure it out yourself if it's not a physical problem. I was only suggesting to see someone to make sure it's not a physical issue

Diana - 9:15:13 am

My shake is more like a thick shake :)

Diana - 9:15:13 am

I don't think it is, though my upper back is killing me! I've taken heaps of magnesium

Me - 9:16:07 am

Spoon required. :)

Me - 9:17:38 am

Diana - 9:17:36 am

Yep :)

Me - 9:18:53 am

But don't call her mobile number. You probably shouldn't have that :)

Diana - 9:19:15 am

I'll call tomorrow

Diana - 9:19:25 am

You say it takes over a month to get in yeah?

Me - 9:19:38 am

Ask to get on the cancellation list

Me - 9:19:52 am

Possibly 2 months

Diana - 9:20:32 am

That's enough time to finish the wow and get some squatting done

Diana - 9:20:53 am

How many places do you estimate I'm going to drop back this week?

Me - 9:20:57 am

She doesn't just do elite athletes. Also pregnant ladies, etc etc

Diana - 9:21:37 am

Oh phew cause it'd be the wrong place for me if she only did elite athletes!!!

Me - 9:21:52 am

Ignoring that last text. I hAve non idea if you'll drop

Me - 9:22:06 am

Wait for tomorrow

Diana - 9:21:52 am

Ignoring what text???

Diana - 9:21:52 am

And you do have an idea

Me - 9:22:30 am

Do you crèche restrictions to training tomorrow?

Diana - 9:21:52 am

Come on

Diana - 9:22:48 am

Coaches are supposed to keep it real

Me - 9:23:32 am

1 or 2, maybe. Not much I think.

Diana - 9:24:00 am

Seriously?

Me - 9:24:19 am

Tomorrow? If my backs not too sore still, I might do the running class at 9:30. If it fits in with you.

Diana - 9:24:00 am

I think I'll drop to like 15 -16

Diana - 9:24:00 am

You do whatever you want

Diana - 9:24:00 am

I'll be in at 930

Diana - 9:24:00 am

Rmembee I don't pay

Diana - 9:24:00 am

You sure keep reminding me

Me - 9:25:47 am

I can leave the running class to Wednesday or another time. We'll practice the wow first up, then you can do your thing after that.

Diana - 9:25:57 am

It's cool

Diana - 9:26:00 am

So running class

Diana - 9:26:02 am

Do

Diana - 9:26:08 am

I'll do my own thing

Me - 9:26:14 am

Sore back though

Diana - 9:26:08 am

Then we can practice after

Me - 9:26:20 am

Ok

Me - 9:26:33 am

I'll see how I wake up tomorrow

Diana - 9:26:08 am

You really aren't my coach anymore are you

Diana - 9:26:08 am

Ok,

Diana - 9:26:08 am

No worries

Diana - 9:26:08 am

In going to shower

Diana - 9:26:08 am

Catch you later

Me - 9:27:02 am

Ok

Me - 9:27:09 am

Supermarket for me

Diana - 9:36:44 am

Fuck me. You've got someone who despite your initial blatant lack of any faith in her ability is in the top 10 and current club champion and you can't be fucked practicing the wow.

Diana - 9:36:46 am

Fuck you

Diana - 9:36:48 am

I'll get someone else

Me - 9:38:17 am

Read my text. I said we'd practice the wow first. What's the matter all of a sudden?

Me - 9:47:42 am

And what you just said is the opposite to how I've acted and felt!

Me - 9:56:45 am

Diana? You've got me worried.

Diana - 9:59:40 am

Worried about what?

Diana - 9:59:44 am

How you'll look?

Diana - 9:59:57 am

That I won't be advertising for you?

Diana - 9:59:59 am

I'm sorry I said fuck you

Diana - 10:00:03 am

That was terribke

Diana - 10:00:08 am

Terrible and I apologise

Diana - 10:00:16 am

Why is it the things that are important to me are such hard work for you?

Diana - 10:03:57 am

Just do the running class. It depresses the fuck out of me thinking you feel like you have to train me when you'd rather be doing something else.

Diana - 10:04:03 am

I'll sort out the wows

Me - 10:04:14 am

No!

Me - 10:04:46 am

The running class was just a suggestion if you were coming in at 10:30!!!!

Me - 10:05:24 am

I want to do the wow practice with you.

Me - 10:06:06 am

"How I'll look"? Holy fuck! Do you know me at all!

Me - 10:07:23 am

I'm just talking with you, telling you what I'm thinking and what I might be doing. I will always fit in with you at the gym.

Diana - 10:06:40 am

You're right, you're not being paid so why the fuck would you

Diana - 10:06:40 am

Seriously

Diana - 10:06:40 am

Do the class

Diana - 10:06:40 am

I don't even want to train with you

Me - 10:07:36 am

The money has NEVER been an issue!!!!!

Diana - 10:06:40 am

It's ALWAYS been an issue

Diana - 10:06:40 am

I'm upset and don't want to talk

Diana - 10:06:40 am

Do the class

Diana - 10:06:40 am

You need to to be able to take the class

Diana - 10:06:40 am

I know that

Diana - 10:06:40 am

I'll sort something else out

Diana - 10:10:56 am

You always made getting through the remaining wows sound like a drag anyway

Me - 10:19:01 am

You're making stuff up now. Reading something into thjngs that were never said.

Diana - 10:34:24 am

Maybe

Me - 10:34:55 am

One of the few real joys I get from the gym is training you. I can't see why you can't see that!

Diana - 10:43:28 am

Ok

Diana - 10:43:29 am

I'm sorry

Diana - 10:44:29 am

I'm going togo on the water and clear my head a bit

Diana - 10:44:35 am

I've over reacted and I'm sorry

Me - 10:45:46 am

:) The water sounds like fun.

Me - 10:49:43 am

I really want to be a source of strength for you, not someone adding to your stress. Please understand that no matter what you think my texts may be implying, I want to help you, be the best friend possible and be there for you whenever you need someone to talk to, text with or sit silently on a beach with you.

Diana - 11:50:33 am

You are too kind and I don't really know how to accept that

Diana - 11:50:34 am

Have you finished your shopping?

Me - 11:53:09 am

Off to Camberwell.

Me - 11:53:15 am

Get in the water?

Diana - 11:53:58 am

I went for a paddle

Diana - 11:54:07 am

And met a children's yoga teacher

Diana - 11:54:19 am

They are going to do some yoga now on the boards but I need a rest

Diana - 11:54:24 am

And coffee!

Diana - 11:54:29 am

I have only had one all day

Me - 11:54:53 am

Withdrawl? I've had 3! Haha.

Diana - 11:55:16 am

Yep totally

Me - 11:55:19 am

About to drive to town. We'll talk later this arvo

Diana - 11:55:28 am

Are you leaving now

Diana - 11:55:28 am

Ok

Me - 11:55:36 am

I'll send you some photos of CMberwell if it's ok

Me - 11:56:03 am

Yep. Music chosen for the trip, engine running. Just got this text to finish :)

Me - 11:56:08 am

See you

Diana - 11:56:31 am

You should have taken me with

Diana - 11:56:34 am

Bye

Me - 11:57:33 am

Really? I can wait if you wNt

Me - 11:58:28 am

In 2 cars? Or one?

Me - 11:59:00 am

I guess it's only a 30 min trip. One hour driving. Half hour there. Want to come, right now?

Diana - 11:59:44 am

I don't want to make you rush

Diana - 11:59:44 am

You might need more time there

Me - 12:01:13 pm

I don't think so. Just check the treadmills and have a look around. Shall I come to yours now?

Me - 12:01:13 pm

Let's do it. You're good at observing stuff

Diana - 12:01:35 pm

Ok I'll get changed quickly

Me - 12:01:40 pm

I'm on my way

Diana - 2:18:24 pm

You've got it made! Rocky is on TV this afternoon. Couch and rocky and coffee, now that's a good life.

Diana - 2:18:24 pm

Remind me again that I need money

Me - 2:20:46 pm

You need money

Me - 2:20:48 pm

:)

Me - 2:21:04 pm

Bringer of sober tidings. That's me :)

Me - 2:21:57 pm

You love Rocky? I loved that when I saw it at the cinema.

Diana - 2:27:36 pm

I loved it as a kid, I'm sure I'd still love it now

Diana - 2:28:04 pm

Im leaving dishes in the sink

Diana - 2:28:08 pm

I don't really like that

Diana - 2:28:25 pm

But I neeeed to stop for coffee

Diana - 2:32:48 pm

And food? Meh who needs it

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

It hurts to concentrate! The cars are bright and fast!

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

And if you're having a snooze don't tell me that when you wake up

Me - 2:45:15 pm

Concentrate!

Me - 2:45:22 pm

No snooze here

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

If you can and you have the inclination listen to the self titled album by all india radio

Me - 2:51:27 pm

Ok

Diana - 2:54:21 pm

I only text at lights

Diana - 2:54:25 pm

Just so you know

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

I think I need a snickers to get me through

Diana - 3:09:02 pm

So I was waiting to hear back and as it turns out I need to take Imogen to school. So what about I go in after and do a curcuit or squat and we meet after the running class for the wow practice? I know you need to do the class and I have no right to demand your time. Seriously it's cool

Me - 3:10:57 pm

I'm pretty sore. I doubt I'll do the class tomorrow. I'll go in after 9am and be there for you.

Diana - 3:11:20 pm

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=CxkB_SMPFkY

Editor: Mogwai, "Sine Wave"

Diana - 3:11:25 pm

No

Diana - 3:11:28 pm

Do it

Diana - 3:11:40 pm

I'm sorry I was being a petulant brat

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

I often am

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

That songs a pearler

Me - 3:12:49 pm

Listening...

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

Me too

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

It's shaking my car :)

Diana - 3:13:16 pm

I don't know what you'll think of this

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

Check out this video on YouTube:

http://youtu.be/Mgq_EhrWvGw

Editor: Mogwai, "Take Me Somewhere Nice"

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

Follow immediately with this if you can

Diana - 3:27:45 pm

Check out this video on YouTube:

http://youtu.be/Wp0kObKszGI

Editor: Mogwai, "You Don't Know Jesus"

Me - 3:28:05 pm

I'm lying on the couch. That was awesome! I was going to study S and C. Can't now. I love that music.

Me - 3:28:41 pm

I'm really going to set up the speakers

Me - 3:29:03 pm

Moving onto 3rd one.

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

Cool :)

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

I have endless supplies of music that kills you :)

Diana - 3:31:48 pm

Turn the last one up really loud

Me - 3:31:54 pm

Bring it around

Me - 3:31:58 pm

Ok

Me - 3:32:20 pm

Moving to speakers... :)

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

See, I give you stuff too

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

Just not physical stuff

Diana - 3:34:01 pm

More like pain

Diana - 3:34:12 pm

In the arse ;)

Diana - 3:34:21 pm

That's kinda physical

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

Check out this video on YouTube:

http://youtu.be/nqh1S87pwlQ

Editor: Mogwai, '2 Rights Make 1 Wrong"

Me - 3:35:38 pm

You give me heaps. Probably a lot more than you think. And it's mostly really good stuff!

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

And finally this heart

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

Beauty

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

2 rights make one wrong

Me - 3:36:29 pm

Listening. And it's loud

Diana - 3:36:37 pm

Apart from the tantrum this morning

Me - 3:36:51 pm

Forget it. I have

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

Well that's the end of the musical interlude

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

I've arrived

Diana - 3:38:37 pm

And put my shoes on the wrong feet ;)

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

Well caring about someone is supposed to mean putting their needs in front of your own if it doesn't bring harm to yourself or others right? So I'm going to try to practice with you, I'm not particularly good at it apart from my closest friends family and children. I see you need to do the running class to get where you need to go. I'd actually really like to do that curcuit we did together that day, the one where you couldn't keep up ;) can you help me write it out and I'll do rounds of that while you run. Then a quick wow practice then done.

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

I talk way to much

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

Breathe too much air too!

Me - 3:46:11 pm

The class is 3 times a week. I have until November. And, really, I don't think I could do HIIT training tomorrow. My back is sore. Practice on me? Please, go right ahead. I'm moving into the closest friends bracket anyway, right? :) Have a good work, but sure we'll text during it.

Me - 3:46:17 pm

Back to listening

Me - 3:48:00 pm

Glad you said "caring about". That means a lot. Thanks.

Me - 3:49:36 pm

We can work on the circuit in the gym tomorrow. I can't remember it at the moment, but it will be written down somewhere

Diana - 3:50:08 pm

It was bosu t jumps, kettle bell something's, bar squat to overhead then roll out, sumo squat ball slams, push ups on bosu ball, one arm kettle bell suitcase deadlifts, and something on a bench I can't remember

Diana - 3:50:08 pm

I'll fuck up heaps, you should know that. I'm not good at stuff

Diana - 3:50:08 pm

At anything

Diana - 3:52:10 pm

Back to the previous texts, not your curcuits, I'm great at those ;))

Me - 3:55:36 pm

We all make mistakes. And you're not "not good at anything". Far from it. And I've made a promise, I'm your friend and close friends hang around and forgive and forget. I vaguely remember the circuit. I'll have a look

Diana - 3:56:48 pm

No rush

Diana - 3:56:59 pm

Well until the morning ;)

Diana - 3:57:07 pm

And your view on mogwai??

Diana - 3:57:18 pm

I'm hungry!

Me - 3:57:28 pm

Great. It's one album right

Me - 3:57:40 pm

Might attempt to download

Diana - 3:58:30 pm

Do it

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

Though downloading music is terrible quality wise

Diana - 3:59:04 pm

Then by the time the digital product passes through our speakers it's all in bits really

Diana - 4:02:09 pm

Oh my god you should see the afternoon tea table!!!

Diana - 4:02:28 pm

Cakes biscuits, dips chips, Tim tams, pastries

Diana - 4:02:34 pm

It's the devil himself

Me - 4:05:46 pm

Yeah, I remember public service tea times! Awesome if you're a marathon runner. Haha

Me - 4:06:05 pm

2.08 gb of mogwai, downloading :)

Diana - 4:06:36 pm

Everyone brings something in

Diana - 4:06:43 pm

They don't pay for anything here

Diana - 4:06:49 pm

That's a lot of mogwai

Diana - 4:07:02 pm

You don't do things in half

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

Maybe download one and get to know it!

Me - 4:07:12 pm

Don't have to listen to then all. My guru (you) cn point me in the right direction and I'll have it immediately ready

Me - 4:08:29 pm

And all ready for music listening nights :-)

Diana - 4:09:20 pm

Ha! I can barely get through one album of a band let alone a discography!

Diana - 4:09:20 pm

But Yep ok :)

Diana - 4:09:20 pm

It's star sign day

Diana - 4:09:20 pm

All my answers coming straight at me

Diana - 4:37:04 pm

They're teasing me with the Tim tams

Diana - 4:37:04 pm

Bringing them over to me

Diana - 4:37:04 pm

I might just fold under this pressure ;)

Me - 4:39:19 pm

I ate half a packet of choccy biscuits the other week, they're hard to resist. :)

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

The other week!!

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

I don't have any dinner to have here so...

Diana - 4:40:23 pm

3 would equal about 300 calories yea?

Me - 4:40:47 pm

Dunno.

Me - 4:40:58 pm

Google

Diana - 4:41:20 pm

Diana - 4:41:20 pm

Ok no more texts

Me - 4:44:18 pm

:) And yours?

Diana - 4:43:28 pm

Diana - 4:43:28 pm

I better make some friends

Me - 4:44:51 pm

Control my temper. Haha. Have you ever seen me with one? :)

Me - 4:45:28 pm

And yours could be the Tim tam problem? :)

Me - 4:46:13 pm

Your horoscope is excellent!!

Me - 4:46:39 pm

Mine is bullshit this week :)

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

they're telling you to do yoga :))

Me - 4:52:31 pm

Well, then, if stars are telling you, what else can you do? "More thought" sounds interesting :)

Me - 4:53:46 pm

Or meditate. "What scares me". Interesting

Me - 4:54:36 pm

For yoga, I'm waiting on a good teacher :)

Diana - 5:09:04 pm

Ha!

Diana - 5:10:48 pm

What are they telling me?

Diana - 5:10:51 pm

I forgot!

Diana - 5:10:59 pm

And there's a good teacher at the gym

Diana - 5:11:12 pm

It's looking further and further away for me to be honest

Diana - 5:11:12 pm

When I'm not in sugar daddy fantasy and in reality

Diana - 5:13:20 pm

Some chips and beetroot dip?

Diana - 5:13:20 pm

Better than Tim tams?

Diana - 5:14:48 pm

No. I've got to get my weight down and stable at 55 Max for my deadlifting

Me - 5:16:48 pm

Eat something.

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

Hang on

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

You're supposed to tell me not to

Me - 5:23:04 pm

No!! I'm supposed to keep you healthy and fit and strong!

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

Bad weather coming

Me - 5:24:20 pm

Thin comes after the above are satisfied :)

Me - 5:24:41 pm

Doing the weather?

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

No it doesn't! Fat does. Lots and lots of fat :(

Me - 5:25:51 pm

We should discuss a food pact, together.

Me - 5:26:23 pm

We could get a session with Bec, maybe.

Me - 5:26:35 pm

She wants to pay me for a coaching session

Me - 5:26:45 pm

We could do a contra deal

Me - 5:26:55 pm

Remove the tax man :)

Diana - 5:28:34 pm

Well you could

Diana - 5:28:39 pm

But what do I have to offer her?

Diana - 5:28:52 pm

And our needs are pretty much exactly opposite!

Me - 5:29:50 pm

Still have needs. Just a possible thought

Me - 5:30:02 pm

Options

Me - 5:30:15 pm

Lots of options are good, for some things

Diana - 5:30:16 pm

Yes I like the thought

Diana - 5:30:18 pm

Let's do it

Diana - 5:30:24 pm

I'll jump on the band wagon ;)

Diana - 5:30:39 pm

Though she was asking me what I eat so that's not a good sign ;)

Me - 5:31:19 pm

Our needs aren't that different. You need to eat a bit more, probably. Bed could work it out and give a meal plan

Diana - 5:31:39 pm

Bed would work it out for sure ;)

Diana - 5:31:43 pm

I have half an hour free

Diana - 5:31:56 pm

To think about the afternoon tea table ;)

Me - 5:36:27 pm

All my hard rubbish has gone. I must have good quality crap :)

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

Either that or humans are the new seagull

Diana - 6:06:21 pm

Now I've found a course that's a little more expensive but the advanced diploma rather than just the diploma

Diana - 6:06:34 pm

The diploma one is still my fav for some reason though.

Diana - 6:06:40 pm

Are you working?

Me - 6:07:02 pm

Moving the speakers

Diana - 6:06:40 pm

Good work!!

Me - 6:07:12 pm

About to listen to Mkgwi

Me - 6:07:18 pm

Mogwai

Me - 6:07:39 pm

Are you working? :))

Diana - 6:07:56 pm

Music party at yours!

Diana - 6:08:04 pm

Soon Yep

Diana - 6:08:48 pm

Have an update

Diana - 6:10:02 pm

Lucky for me it's a slow day

Diana - 6:10:05 pm

And double time

Diana - 6:10:10 pm

My kind of work :)

Me - 6:10:55 pm

Every day should be double time! Solve some of your problems :)

Diana - 6:10:56 pm

Exactly

Diana - 6:10:56 pm

I'll give my boss your number

Me - 6:12:01 pm

Do you reckon I could charm her, do you? :)

Diana - 6:14:58 pm

No

Diana - 6:15:07 pm

But you could use your reasoning perhaps

Me - 6:21:37 pm

Rock Action playing. Can you hear it? :)

Diana - 6:31:07 pm

No! When can I?

Me - 6:31:35 pm

ASAP

Me - 6:31:51 pm

It's really cool! :)

Me - 6:32:11 pm

But I couldn't have done it until now

Diana - 6:32:54 pm

Of course not ;)

Me - 6:32:57 pm

Just made bread. Now making yogurt. :)

Diana - 6:34:24 pm

Can you make soy yoghurt?

Diana - 6:34:24 pm

For when I come listen :)

Me - 6:36:59 pm

Dunno. I can try.

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

I confess

Me - 7:57:13 pm

Hmmm?

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

2 Tim tams

Me - 7:57:13 pm

:)

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

I broke on my way into work

Me - 7:58:47 pm

On your way yet?

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

Yep just leaving now

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

It's a long bulletin Sunday nights atm

Me - 8:00:15 pm

I noticed

Diana - 8:02:40 pm

You watched?

Diana - 8:02:47 pm

I told you the sunset is better

Diana - 8:27:19 pm

You can smell the rain outside

Diana - 8:27:22 pm

It's beautiful

Me - 8:28:48 pm

Really? Not here

Me - 8:28:49 pm

You at home?

Me - 8:29:01 pm

No clouds here

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

Yep just got home

Diana - 8:34:52 pm

Well given I wasn't invited over for any of this bread yoghurt or music listening im going to find some miso soup and head to bed.

Diana - 8:35:14 pm

Can you just leave the circuit out near the rack tomorrow if I don't see you before the class starts?

Me - 8:35:34 pm

:) You're always welcome! I'll come and get you if you want.

Me - 8:36:33 pm

I'll see you.

Me - 8:36:54 pm

Well? I offered to drive again! :)

Diana - 8:37:06 pm

No I'm home now

Diana - 8:37:15 pm

And you're only asking cause of what I said

Diana - 8:37:55 pm

Anyway whatever

Diana - 8:37:55 pm

I'll see you tomorrow

Me - 8:38:08 pm

I thought of asking. Wasn't sure if the response. My fault. Please come over. I'll drive

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

Just leave the circuit or email it to me tonight so I can just get to it tomorrow

Diana - 8:38:29 pm

Like I said, whatever it's cool

Diana - 8:38:31 pm

Don't ask cause I bought it up

Diana - 8:38:50 pm

You've been busy doing stuff all day

Diana - 8:38:59 pm

It's ok to not want my company!

Me - 8:39:21 pm

Let me come over! I want your company.

Me - 8:39:29 pm

Please?

Diana - 8:39:41 pm

No

Diana - 8:39:42 pm

I'm home

Diana - 8:39:49 pm

I'm hungry

Diana - 8:39:53 pm

Don't do this

Diana - 8:40:09 pm

It just embarrasses me

Diana - 8:40:15 pm

It's ok I wasn't trying to make you feel guilty

Diana - 8:41:38 pm

I'd like it if you could email the circuit though so I could just go in and start

Me - 8:41:59 pm

Ok

Me - 8:43:38 pm

The suitcase kettlebell deadlift one, Turkish getup, etc, right?

Diana - 8:43:48 pm

Yep

Me - 8:44:27 pm

I have to type it in, may as well text it? Or prefer email?

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

Wow I had to invite myself to camberwell, accept you want to do the running class instead of train with me tomorrow and then you don't want to hang tonight. I'm starting to think you are doing the shunting already?

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

Whatever, whatever is easier

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

I can just take a photo of whatever is easier for you to do

Diana - 8:45:55 pm

I guess I should expect some shunting or at minimum withdrawal after the just friends discussion

Diana - 8:46:06 pm

I'll sit with it all tonight and process

Me - 8:49:09 pm

It's not true and you know it's not true. You're trying to read stuff that just isn't there. You're tired. I asked last night for you to come here. You were too tired. You're more tired today, nearly asleep in the car to town. That's why I didn't ask tonight.

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

Well thanks for doing my thinking for me

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

Cause I don't do enough of it :/

Me - 8:51:36 pm

I made a promise about the friends stuff. It will be kept under all circumstances. You're perfectly safe with me.

Me - 8:52:01 pm

No shunting!

Me - 8:52:19 pm

You know I'm not like that.

Diana - 8:52:45 pm

You told me you were

Diana - 8:53:04 pm

Anyway I've got my miso soup now

Diana - 8:53:04 pm

And crap tv

Diana - 8:53:04 pm

Pjs soon

Diana - 8:53:04 pm

It's all good

Me - 8:54:10 pm

Temporary and physical relationships. I did in my 20's. Never with real friends.

Me - 8:54:19 pm

Still have the real ones

Diana - 8:54:37 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:54:49 pm

Well I'm

Prepared and waiting for the shunt I guess

Diana - 8:54:52 pm

Expecting it?

Me - 8:55:35 pm

I'll be at the gym at 9. Let's practice the wow and then you can play with the circuit. I'll be there waiting for you.

Diana - 8:55:12 pm

I have school drop off I can't be there at 9

Me - 8:56:23 pm

There will be no shunting. Get used to it. I know it worries you. It won't happen.

Diana - 8:55:12 pm

Don't worry about the wow

Diana - 8:55:12 pm

I can practice it on my own

Me - 8:56:52 pm

After 9! I'll be there waiting for you at 9:30.

Diana - 8:57:09 pm

You shunting me doesn't worry me as much as wasting my time on someone who shunts does

Diana - 8:57:19 pm

Just do the class

Diana - 8:57:20 pm

I'm gonna feel shit if you stay to train me

Me - 8:57:32 pm

Too sore for the class

Diana - 8:57:20 pm

Well then there's no need to come in

Diana - 8:57:20 pm

Just stay home and rest

Me - 8:58:04 pm

We're doing the wow. It will take 13 minutes or so. Then you did the circuit. Ok?

Me - 8:58:14 pm

I have an 11am

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

I don't know why, I don't really want to train with you tomorrow

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

Today I got myself all upset

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

Need time to level out maybe

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

I think that's what I was hoping to do tonight

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

Anyway

Me - 9:00:49 pm

It's been a great weekend and more together

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

Please do the class

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

It hasn't felt that great for me

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

It's been emotional and tiring

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

And upsetting

Diana - 9:01:25 pm

Even if I did run with stuff

Diana - 9:01:29 pm

I feel upset and sad

Me - 9:01:52 pm

We had a great time!

Me - 9:02:01 pm

But tiring yes

Me - 9:04:13 pm

I really enjoyed spending this time with you. It's been enjoyable! And I know you have too, when we've been togerher. It the times texting that you seem to process stuff that comes out the opposite of what is really happening. PleAse don't be upset

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

when Harry met Sally is on, old Skool

Me - 9:05:04 pm

Do you really want the circuit now?

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

Not if you can't be bothered

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

I remember it anyway I think

Diana - 9:06:10 pm

I'm tired and emotional and think I just wanted some company and you didn't want me to come so I feel hurt

Diana - 9:06:13 pm

I'm a big kid really

Diana - 9:06:20 pm

Anyway do whatever tomorrow

Diana - 9:06:33 pm

I'll take enough pre workout to push anything down :)

Me - 9:08:03 pm

5 Slams

5 barbell clean, row, push-up

5E kettlebell suitcase deadlift 20kg

5 BOSU t jumps

5 goblet squats 20kg

1E Turkish getup

10 Landmine plyometric lunges

Diana - 9:08:46 pm

It wasn't 5 of each!!

Diana - 9:08:51 pm

It was 10!!

Me - 9:09:28 pm

And I wanted nothing better than for you to come here tonight, but I really thought it best you went to sleep. Sorry if that was presumptuous on my part.

Me - 9:09:36 pm

I've got 5 written here

Me - 9:10:11 pm

Missed the BOSU bench push-ups

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

Cool well I'll try 10

Me - 9:10:43 pm

I'll bring rhe piece of paper and you can use that.

Diana - 9:10:43 pm

I've rewritten it with bosu bench push-ups

Diana - 9:11:45 pm

It's cool

Diana - 9:11:50 pm

How much weight on barbell

Diana - 9:11:54 pm

And which ball?

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

Well you took away my freedom of choice

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

And made a decision for me

Me - 9:12:31 pm

It was 25kg wasn't it? And there is only the 3kg am ball

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

It's always a boundary issue

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

Ok cool

Diana - 9:12:50 pm

The blue ball yea?

Me - 9:12:55 pm

Yeah

Diana - 9:13:15 pm

Cool thanks

Diana - 9:14:02 pm

And the 15 bar for the lunges?

Diana - 9:14:12 pm

Or I'll just do Less if the 20 is on

Me - 9:14:19 pm

Yeah that's good

Diana - 9:16:32 pm

Ok well I'll see you tomorrow

Me - 9:17:30 pm

Yes. I'll be there.

**Week Nine**

**Monday 13 October**

Me - 7:55:28 am

Did you sleep last night?

Diana - 8:17:26 am

Yep I slept ok

Diana - 8:17:42 am

child bombardment happening :)

Diana - 8:17:48 am

How are you this morning?

Me - 8:19:35 am

That's absolutely awesome that you slept! Im so glad. Me, not so good haha. Sore back.

Diana - 8:20:00 am

What from?

Me - 8:23:09 am

Saturday. Funny story. I'll tell you at the gym this morning.

Diana - 8:30:40 am

I'm taking nurofen for my tummy before I come in and have pre workout ready ;)

Diana - 8:30:56 am

Ok tell me at the gym

Diana - 8:34:56 am

Do you feel well enough to go to the gym?

Me - 8:44:06 am

Yep. Just no training today. Looking forward to seeing you there.

Diana - 9:11:02 am

I'm going to be a little late, waiting for shopping to arrive

Me - 9:12:05 am

No problems. I'm just leaving now. I'll see you soon

Diana - 11:59:44 am

Oh god I just agreed to a play date

Me - 12:01:40 pm

With Donna and her daughter? :) That's great.

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

Yes

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

I blame the stepper

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

And fatigue

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

I think she must be lonely

Me - 12:03:21 pm

Donna is nice. Don't know what her daughter is like.

Me - 12:03:31 pm

I don't think she's lonely.

Me - 12:03:42 pm

You're just a nice person!

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

Pffft

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

I think she wants a workout buddy

Me - 12:04:54 pm

How did your bench presses go?

Me - 12:05:01 pm

Sore at all?

Diana - 12:06:13 pm

They were fine, I did 50 just with the bar

Me - 12:09:00 pm

You know you're always welcome here, when you don't have kids or if you want to stay between pickups etc. Just so you know, there's an open invitation.

Diana - 12:09:32 pm

Ok thanks.

Me - 12:11:06 pm

I know your schedule can change often and quickly. I may not know when you're free, so just invite yourself if I'm unaware of your availability.

Diana - 12:11:33 pm

Ok.

Diana - 12:11:58 pm

I have kids all week this week, and on the weekend and next week so it may be a while

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

I have to stop eating seeds

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

They're too high in calories

Me - 12:28:34 pm

I think you need a plan, for your eating.

Diana - 12:29:10 pm

I don't know

Diana - 12:29:36 pm

Really I already have all the information I need

Diana - 12:29:36 pm

I just need more willingness to be disciplined

Diana - 12:29:36 pm

And 30 grams of seeds is 144 calories. It's too much

Me - 12:32:49 pm

I think a plan would take into account your calorific needs on your lifting days and running days, etc. so you have enough energy to do them well. That's more than I know how to do.

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

https://www.ted.com/talks/sandra_aamodt_why_dieting_doesn_t_usually_work?utm_campaign=&awesm=on.ted.com_i0WSy&utm_medium=on.ted.com-facebook-share&utm_source=lm.facebook.com&utm_content=awesm-publisher&language=en#t-6853

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

Oh ok

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

Yep that sounds good

Diana - 12:33:41 pm

But I imagine it costs a lot of moula

Me - 12:34:17 pm

Let's corner Bec one day and ask. Asking is free.

Diana - 12:46:13 pm

Yea ok.

Me - 12:52:39 pm

Just watched that video. That's what you should do (in my uncredentialed opinion). Mindful eating. I think you'd be happier and have more energy. Eat enough to sustain your current lifestyle (kids, gym, work). It may even help with your sleeping, who knows. That's a great video. What do you think?

Diana - 1:20:17 pm

It's a common and somewhat old philosophy for yoga nutrition, it's a good video, she articulates it well

Diana - 1:20:33 pm

Harder to do in real life as with mediation.

Diana - 1:20:48 pm

Little man just got home

Diana - 2:12:00 pm

I'm out of the top 10 :/

Diana - 2:20:32 pm

Hello?

Diana - 2:21:33 pm

IM OUT OF THE TOP 10

Diana - 2:21:38 pm

That's me shouting ;)

Me - 2:22:15 pm

Yeah just looking. 1 or 2 spots someone said. :)

Me - 2:22:26 pm

11 is just outside

Diana - 2:22:40 pm

Yep but I'll be slow with this weeks one also

Diana - 2:22:40 pm

And if I get back to 13-14 it'll be impossible to get back up in 2 weeks

Me - 2:23:34 pm

Not this week. You'll smash it.

Diana - 2:24:21 pm

You're not serious are you?

Diana - 2:24:25 pm

It's a faster one

Diana - 2:24:39 pm

All my faster ones I'm lagging behind

Diana - 2:24:44 pm

It's only the weights ones I do ok in

Diana - 2:24:48 pm

Oh the pressure ;)

Me - 2:25:39 pm

I can only go on the score card. You're going to run past the rep numbers they expect.

Me - 2:25:51 pm

Going on today

Diana - 2:26:55 pm

I really need a deadlift one if I'm going to finish anywhere satisfactory

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

Otherwise top 20-25 is the best I'll get

Me - 2:28:37 pm

On a related matter, you're still club champion. The manager will be hassling me tomorrow about the filming. What do you want me to tell him?

Me - 2:29:44 pm

I've been lying down this arvo. Pretty sore :(

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

Oh shit is it that bad?

Diana - 2:30:29 pm

Why don't you get an emergency app with Tina?

Diana - 2:30:39 pm

I'm sorry, it's kind of my fault!

Me - 2:30:56 pm

Ahem. Filming?

Diana - 2:31:12 pm

I'm not really into it

Diana - 2:31:12 pm

It was a request right? Not a demand

Me - 2:31:53 pm

Want me to make an excuse, so it goes away?

Me - 2:32:20 pm

Sort of request/demand to trainer

Diana - 2:31:12 pm

Like what? I'm a vampire and don't show up on camera?

Me - 2:32:41 pm

Ha

Diana - 2:31:12 pm

Request to trainer?

Diana - 2:32:52 pm

So you'd be filming?

Me - 2:32:57 pm

Yes

Me - 2:33:05 pm

I think so

Diana - 2:33:06 pm

I wouldn't get away with those box jumps if we were filming

Me - 2:33:42 pm

I could just say you really don't want to. And leave it at that.

Me - 2:33:49 pm

A privacy thing

Me - 2:33:53 pm

Reckon?

Diana - 2:33:20 pm

I don't know

Diana - 2:33:20 pm

I feel bad if it's good for the club to not do it

Diana - 2:33:20 pm

And it would be good advertising for you too right?

Diana - 2:33:20 pm

Can I edit the video? Keep the box jumps out?

Me - 2:34:47 pm

I could say I won't press you as to why not. Just said no.

Me - 2:35:34 pm

Don't worry about me. I don't think it will make any difference

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

Just say it would make me nervous and I wouldn't be able to do the wow properly, kind of like how I don't like anyone around me in the gym when I do them

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

You could tell him about my personal space issues ;)

Me - 2:35:54 pm

Perfect

Me - 2:36:01 pm

Ok

Me - 2:36:17 pm

And it's true. Even better

Me - 2:36:31 pm

I'll tell him tomorrow

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

Tell him I've actually stopped in a wow because someone came into my space

Me - 2:36:42 pm

We're meeting about massage

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

That's true too

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

Then he will get it

Me - 2:36:56 pm

Ok

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

Well tell him after your meeting

Me - 2:37:03 pm

Yep

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

Besides it's quite possible Becca will still be club champion

Diana - 2:37:36 pm

So back to your back

Diana - 2:37:36 pm

Tina?

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

Look, I'll do it if it's really necessary

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

If the manager looks like he is going to have a cow tell him you'll talk to me again about it

Me - 2:40:18 pm

Filming conversation is over! All settled!

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

Don't wan to stuff up your massage chances!

Me - 2:40:28 pm

Stop talking ;)

Me - 2:40:50 pm

It's all good

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

Back?

Me - 2:41:40 pm

No such thing as emergency Tina. = November haha

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

I really want to get back in the top 10!

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

Sorry, back to me ;)

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

Seriously?

Me - 2:42:01 pm

Booked her yet for you?

Diana - 2:42:05 pm

Nope

Diana - 2:42:16 pm

I've even cancelled Chinese doctor

Me - 2:42:21 pm

I'm fine. A few days and I'll be 100%

Diana - 2:42:54 pm

I have the best massage woman in the world, do you want her number?

Me - 2:43:06 pm

I've booked one for tomorrow

Me - 2:43:17 pm

At peninsula sports medicine

Diana - 2:43:26 pm

Cool

Me - 2:43:54 pm

Still, might try your lady as well. Deep tissue?

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

Just need pills til then :)

Diana - 2:44:29 pm

I don't know the technical terms for what she does, but it hurts like hell after and feels amazing at the same time

Me - 2:45:22 pm

I know you hate me when I suggest this stuff, lack of boundaries etc, but please book Tina. It will be months before an appointment. You can back out later

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

I really need to sort out whether I'm doing yoga or not first. I'm not spending a cent on myself until then, in case I need money quickly for a deposit

Diana - 2:46:34 pm

I need to see the Chinese doc too, but I won't die in the meantime

Me - 2:46:59 pm

Ok.

Diana - 2:47:13 pm

I know it must sound insane

Diana - 2:47:24 pm

But you said you were poor for a few years

Diana - 2:47:33 pm

Would you have spent money on Tina back then?

Me - 2:47:54 pm

Your decision, I understand.

Me - 2:50:36 pm

I'm only trying to help. Sometimes I over step the mark in my enthusiasm :) I know you hate offers to help with $'s, so we'll leave it.

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

Well what would you do?

Diana - 2:51:13 pm

Role reverse and ask yourself if you'd accept cash from me?

Diana - 2:51:19 pm

I like your enthusiasm

Diana - 2:51:29 pm

I just really need to prioritise stuff

Me - 2:51:33 pm

I'll tell you a little story. Shall I?

Diana - 2:52:00 pm

Id go in a heart beat if I had the cash, I'm in constant pain with it!

Diana - 2:52:02 pm

Yes tell me

Diana - 2:52:13 pm

You want me to service the single mums?

Diana - 2:52:16 pm

;)

Me - 2:52:18 pm

It was during the poor times.

Me - 2:52:41 pm

I wrecked my 8ft mal. No money

Me - 2:55:04 pm

My best friend Alan, leant me $500 to pay for a board. I paid him back about a year later. Traveling together in our 20's he knew the relative balances of petrol, meals, etc down to a single dollar haha. That was really tough to ask. But he did it in a flash.

Me - 2:57:02 pm

I'm your friend. And Tina is $79. And I will learn stuff from it too. Still, we're all different. I'll leave that topic now. Onto everything else :)

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

It always rains before school pick up!

Me - 2:57:48 pm

Yeah, I remember

Diana - 2:58:00 pm

And yours was a long term relationship, not like you'd juts met like we have

Diana - 2:58:19 pm

Like I said, role reverse and tell me honestly whether you'd accept

Me - 3:00:41 pm

But will you believe me if I say yes? Let's leave this to in person talking. You can't look in someone's eyes, if you're texting, and know they're telling the truth. Ok?

Me - 3:01:08 pm

Status quo for now

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

That's crazy

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

I trust you to tell the truth

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

Anyway yes

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

Done and dusted :)

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

Let's think about how to get me back in the top 10 and staying as club champion

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

I may need some of that hard core pre workout

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

and I better carb up ;)

Me - 3:02:19 pm

Maybe save it for wow days

Diana - 3:02:36 pm

Yes of course

Me - 3:02:43 pm

Yeah! Carb up the morning before. Good idea. Seriously

Diana - 3:02:43 pm

It is terrible stuff!

Me - 3:03:49 pm

And if you're worried about weight gain. We'll go for a run after the wow. Jut to burn all the carbs off

Diana - 3:05:20 pm

Like what?

Diana - 3:05:20 pm

A piece of bread?

Diana - 3:05:20 pm

I'm not really worried, I think the wow will burn it off! I'll have Joel too and then I've got to go to work.

Diana - 3:05:20 pm

If I can find someone to have Joel!

Diana - 3:07:28 pm

And I think you're supposed to carb up the night before?

Me - 3:10:03 pm

No. Half or quarter a cup of oats in the morning. 1 or half a cup of "milk". 2 to 2.5 mins in microwave. An hour or more before training.

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

Ok so not normal shake, just the oats?

Me - 3:11:02 pm

Shake is protein

Me - 3:11:22 pm

Whole grain rolled oats

Me - 3:11:31 pm

Not quick oats

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

I know, what I'm saying is do I not have the shake and just eat the oats

Me - 3:11:46 pm

I've got heaps here

Me - 3:12:00 pm

Both is fine

Me - 3:12:07 pm

I have both

Me - 3:12:13 pm

Before training

Diana - 3:12:34 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:12:44 pm

Maybe half the shake

Diana - 3:13:01 pm

Can I just put the oats in the shake?

Diana - 3:13:05 pm

You know, lazy version ;)

Me - 3:13:28 pm

I could drop some around today if you like. Try it tomorrow morning. Just to make sure. Save shopping

Me - 3:14:12 pm

The shake would be like concrete

Diana - 3:14:55 pm

No, I did it once ages ago. I was eating carbs in the morning back then, 1/4 cup raw in the shake

Diana - 3:15:13 pm

I should prob do it again, might help me out a bit during the day to have some carbs

Diana - 3:15:24 pm

But there's carbs in soy milk I guess

Diana - 3:15:32 pm

How are you finding the soy in coffee?

Me - 3:15:34 pm

Not enough

Me - 3:15:48 pm

Saving it for when you're here

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

Try it!

Me - 3:16:04 pm

Do you want me to drop some oats around

Me - 3:16:16 pm

Bring them

Back on Wednesday

Me - 3:16:28 pm

What's left over I mean :)

Me - 3:16:49 pm

Back to the g on Wednesday

Me - 3:16:55 pm

Gym

Diana - 3:17:24 pm

Hang on I'll see if we have any

Diana - 3:20:01 pm

There's a bit left, as long as Joel wants Weetbix tomorrow instead of porridge it should he enough

Diana - 3:20:09 pm

Another thing I forgot on the shopping list :)

Me - 3:21:01 pm

You'll need a practice run tomorrow as well as wednesay

Me - 3:21:30 pm

I can be there in 10, if you're not absolutely sure

Diana - 3:24:32 pm

I have to go get Imogen from school

Diana - 3:32:32 pm

Why do I feel nervous about you meeting my kids?

Me - 3:35:31 pm

Yeah, probably says more than you want to say :) I can text you and you can meet me at the gate, if that's easier (and you need the oats). BTW, I'd love to meet your kids but only when you're ready. And I'm good with kids, just not babies :)

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

You can come, but just remember it's our first time together since Friday morning all three of us so we are still getting our sync on

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

If you want to

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

Oh and we are making cup cakes

Me - 3:38:53 pm

Ok. I'll be there soon. Bringing oats. Just tell me, politely, when you think I should leave. (If I can't sense it correctly that is)

Diana - 3:39:28 pm

And I've spent all my time with you so my house is still messy

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

Thanks for dropping over the oats

Me - 5:05:47 pm

Thanks for letting me meet your kids. They're fun kids.

Diana - 5:10:56 pm

That's ok

Diana - 5:11:04 pm

I like them ;)

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

Here's the photo of Donna in case you want to post it. Maybe you should to get the ball rolling

Me - 5:12:33 pm

Thanks

Diana - 5:17:06 pm

I know what you're thinking, how can someone lift so heavy and make such amazing cupcakes.

Diana - 5:17:16 pm

I'll give you some time to digest it all ;))

Me - 5:24:17 pm

Those cupcakes did look good didn't they? However, it's a bit presumptuous on your part to take all the credit. You had 2 extremely talented helpers.

Diana - 5:26:08 pm

Yes but I was an integral part in creating them so it follows that the credit a appropriate bestowed on me

Me - 5:27:58 pm

Agreed. Master chef and 2 assistant cooks. All credit rightly belongs with the chef.

Me - 5:28:02 pm

:)

Diana - 5:30:24 pm

Joels masterpiece

Diana - 5:32:32 pm

Diana - 5:32:32 pm

Imogen's masterpiece

Diana - 5:32:32 pm

We found some m&ms

Me - 5:36:00 pm

Wow! And they look so proud! :) They should be. Awesome job.

Me - 5:37:33 pm

They're cute looking kids. I guess happy kids are :)

Diana - 5:38:45 pm

No, they're particularly gorgeous

Diana - 5:38:56 pm

It helps hide their discontent ;)

Me - 5:40:58 pm

They're nice kids Diana. You can tell some of that from how welcoming they are of strangers (me).

Diana - 5:41:04 pm

I told them you were dropping by

Diana - 5:41:04 pm

They'd be more reserved if they were unaware of a visitor

Diana - 5:41:04 pm

I hope!

Diana - 5:41:04 pm

But yea they're nice

Diana - 5:41:04 pm

They said thanks

Diana - 5:41:04 pm

Imogen said she thought you were nice too. Joel was opinion less at this point

Me - 5:42:36 pm

Haha.

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

I'm really pissed off I've fallen out of the top 10. I didn't think I was but it keeps coming back in my mind!

Me - 5:43:17 pm

That's nice. Tell Imogen (and Joel) that I think they're nice too.

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

They're out the front waiting for Anita

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

Ok :)

Me - 5:43:48 pm

One thing at a time. Dinner

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

I'm putting them on brown rice tonight, wish me luck!

Me - 5:44:12 pm

Will they not eat it? Good luck

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

I think I've eaten my calorie allowance just prepping the food!

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

I don't think they'll eat it

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

I've got egg noodles as back up

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

Maybe I'll go straight with the egg noodles!

Me - 5:45:07 pm

Brown rice for you though?

Me - 5:45:14 pm

And your friend

Diana - 5:45:20 pm

Yep

Diana - 5:45:20 pm

Though I'm sure I don't need it!

Me - 5:47:42 pm

Try eating a bit more tonight, as an experiment at least. To see how you feel tomorrow. One meal is neither here nor there

Me - 5:48:12 pm

And how you sleep tonight

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

Anita just told me I inspired her and she has just joined the gym :)

Diana - 7:12:48 pm

And I've eaten way too much

Diana - 7:12:48 pm

Now how am I going to resist a cupcake

Me - 7:14:45 pm

Good. :) Now let's see how you sleep and how you feel tomorrow.

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

Huhummm the cupcake issue???

Me - 7:42:20 pm

There's no human willpower strong enough to resist them. :)

Me - 7:42:36 pm

Prove you're human and have one. :)

Me - 7:51:41 pm

Although, it's not my call, of course :)

Diana - 8:03:12 pm

The trouble is stopping at one!

Diana - 8:03:15 pm

Anita just left

Diana - 8:03:20 pm

With all of my fat clothes

Diana - 8:03:27 pm

I feel frightened now that they're gone

Me - 8:04:00 pm

How did the cupcake choice pan out? :)

Me - 8:04:35 pm

You won't need the "fat" clothes again. Not with me helping :)

Diana - 8:09:46 pm

Pfft

Diana - 8:09:52 pm

You're telling me to eat cupcakes!!!

Me - 8:10:22 pm

:) Experiment. Not every day haha.

Diana - 8:11:51 pm

Well you watched that video even my brain wants me to be fat!

Me - 8:12:29 pm

Set point. Who said fat?

Diana - 8:14:13 pm

I was fat

Diana - 8:14:25 pm

That's the weight my brain likes me at

Diana - 8:14:33 pm

I'm not fat now. But I could easily be again

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

I still have fat to lose though

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

I'm not fat but still have fat to lose. That's my line!!

Me - 8:17:53 pm

But we need to figure out a few things first, don't we? The sleeping issues. The bleeding. The overall energy levels, which may just be sleeping. We can make sure the weight doesn't increase, can't we? Not that I really know. We need to talk to someone.

Diana - 8:24:21 pm

I've maintained now for 6 months, it should be ok as long as I continue training and committing to eating healthy

Me - 8:24:33 pm

Yeah

Diana - 8:24:34 pm

The energy is just a single parent thing I'm sure.

Me - 8:24:41 pm

Probably

Diana - 8:25:00 pm

I mean I work, train, raise kids and try to keep the house from looking like a train wreck

Me - 8:25:13 pm

It's tough

Diana - 8:25:16 pm

And that's not even the friendships I'm Trying to maintain

Diana - 8:25:20 pm

It's not that tough, I'm not in Syria atleast

Me - 8:26:20 pm

There's always lots to do and what needs doing, that's what I mean. :)

Me - 8:26:50 pm

And on your own is difficult

Me - 8:30:08 pm

Friendships are important.

Diana - 8:27:28 pm

It is difficult

Diana - 8:30:11 pm

You know they say that some combinations of fat and sugars in food are more addictive than crack cocaine. For someone like me, it's a shit fight.

Diana - 8:30:22 pm

I mean like me, addictive personalities

Diana - 8:30:40 pm

So, who are we going to see?? Bec? I'm not sure she is that across it to be honest

Me - 8:34:26 pm

I'll see if I can find out who is best. Word of mouth will be best.

Diana - 8:36:00 pm

I've just seen someone who lifted 3x their body weight!!

Diana - 8:36:00 pm

Yea that'd be good and seriously expensive!

Diana - 8:36:00 pm

Atleast I won't have Joels daycare to pay next year

Me - 8:36:43 pm

Not necessarily. One step at a time, remember. :)

Me - 8:37:02 pm

Let's find who's the best and work from there

Diana - 8:37:10 pm

Nutrition warehouse has free delivery for this week

Diana - 8:37:14 pm

If you need anything

Diana - 8:37:20 pm

Yea yea one step at a time

Me - 8:37:25 pm

It's always free if you buy heaps

Diana - 8:37:32 pm

If only I could make money from lifting!

Diana - 8:37:44 pm

I don't buy heaps but there's some fat burners I'm looking at

Me - 8:39:09 pm

I can get you cheap optimum nutrition stuff. If you want an order, we can do it in 2 weeks time. It's how my daughter can afford protein and pre workout.

Me - 8:39:56 pm

I usually just buy when I need it and don't wait for it to be cheap. I probably should do that :)

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

Do they have any dairy free protein though?

Me - 8:41:26 pm

Look online. I don't know

Me - 8:42:05 pm

But. Pre workout at least.

Me - 8:42:05 pm

And that's expensive

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

Yep for sure

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

As long as it's not a bother

Diana - 8:27:28 pm

Oh for sure!! This is the pile I have to attack tonight!

Me - 8:46:41 pm

Of course not! We just have to be quick :) He's not in the country much. Although next time he's here for a few Australian tournaments I think. He's like his father, loves to help :))

Me - 8:47:07 pm

Washed or dirty?

Diana - 8:46:40 pm

Are you sure?????

Diana - 8:46:40 pm

Washed

Diana - 8:46:40 pm

And while I'm texting I can't fold it so it's all good

Me - 8:47:32 pm

One step. Just start with one and fold that one :))

Me - 8:47:38 pm

Ok

Me - 8:47:54 pm

I'm going to bed soon. Sorry :) Early start

Diana - 8:46:40 pm

No you're right of course it's not going to do itself

Diana - 8:46:40 pm

Arghhh

Me - 8:48:26 pm

I'll go now. To relieve you of the task of texting! :)

Diana - 8:48:30 pm

Are you going to do the running class?

Me - 8:48:37 pm

Not this week

Diana - 8:48:39 pm

Ok see you

Me - 8:48:42 pm

Back

Diana - 8:48:48 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:48:48 pm

I hope your back is better soon

Me - 8:49:23 pm

Enjoy the washing. Meditation or good music. It will make it "fun".

Me - 8:49:35 pm

You're not ironing are you?

Diana - 8:48:48 pm

I'm watching the new australian series

Diana - 8:48:48 pm

No, I don't iron

Diana - 8:48:48 pm

Unless absolutely necessary

Diana - 8:48:48 pm

So once a month or so ;)

Me - 8:50:17 pm

Good! Ironing sucks

Me - 8:50:36 pm

I used to do my business shirts. That's all. Hated it

Me - 8:50:46 pm

Ok. I'll leave you to it.

Me - 8:50:53 pm

I hope you sleep well.

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

Thanks you too

Me - 8:51:07 pm

Night

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

Hope your client shows!

Me - 8:51:28 pm

6am circuit.

Me - 8:51:37 pm

Sigh! Free again

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

Oh of course! Ok have fun atleast, makes earning no money easier

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

You'll make heaps soon through the running class don't worry

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

I'm worried like hell about what I'm going to do though!

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

Anyway catch you tomorrow

Me - 8:53:05 pm

Wait on, wait on.

Me - 8:53:08 pm

Worried?

Diana - 8:53:51 pm

Go to sleep!

Diana - 8:54:03 pm

And don't show off in front of the transformers and hurt your back!

Diana - 8:54:08 pm

More

Diana - 8:54:11 pm

Night

Me - 8:55:02 pm

Ok. Worried question for another time. You're not going to answer. Night.

Diana - 8:55:52 pm

Are your suprised I'm worried about what I'm going to do over the next couple of years to make sure the kids and I are ok? Given Joel starts school next year?

Diana - 8:56:07 pm

I would have thought it would be self evident

Diana - 8:56:21 pm

It makes me feel sick sometimes despite knowing worry won't help

Diana - 8:56:48 pm

Anyway I'm sure it's what every parent goes through when their kids are all at school

Diana - 8:56:57 pm

So there that's all, quite normal

Diana - 8:57:08 pm

Now sleep or you'll be grump and sore tomorrow

Me - 8:59:33 pm

Oh. I understand. I thought it was something about training. Something small. Something will work out, it often does. Just get through the washing for now and get to tomorrow.

Diana - 9:00:08 pm

Yes capitan!

Me - 9:00:27 pm

:)

Me - 9:01:14 pm

At least, and I know it's not much, you've got friends you can talk to about this. That helps, a bit.

Diana - 9:02:14 pm

Yea, everyone has problems. It's just part of being alive

Diana - 9:02:18 pm

And something will work out.

Diana - 9:02:24 pm

I just wish I knew what!

Diana - 9:02:35 pm

Cmon it's 9pm!

Diana - 9:02:43 pm

You'd best get some shut eye ;))

Me - 9:03:10 pm

Yeah, I'll turn into a pumpkin. Night.

Diana - 9:05:09 pm

Night :)

**Tuesday 14 October**

Diana - 8:27:54 am

Oh the last thing I feel like is getting in a pool!! It's freezing. And even though the little man said I don't have to hop in if i don't want to I told him I would last night

Diana - 8:27:55 am

Argh

Diana - 8:28:08 am

How'd your back hold up in the curcuit

Me - 8:28:38 am

How did you sleep? Did you try the oats?

Me - 8:28:58 am

Home now, about to go back to the gym.

Me - 8:29:23 am

Had to do a few slams to demonstrate. Haha. Back is ok

Me - 8:30:01 am

They loved the circuit. A bit different than what they're used to.

Diana - 8:30:31 am

Cool

Diana - 8:30:40 am

Haven't eaten yet

Diana - 8:30:40 am

Back to the gym already thankfully you live close

Me - 8:31:50 am

Sleep ok?

Me - 8:32:16 am

And I have a 10am session.

Me - 8:32:52 am

Have a good swim. Wetsuit maybe? :)

Diana - 8:32:48 am

I have a rashy

Diana - 8:32:48 am

In the wave pool

Diana - 8:32:48 am

I guess I could do laps while he has his lesson, not particularly inspired though!

Diana - 8:34:56 am

I'm going to throw he protein powder, it's terrible!

Me - 8:36:27 am

Good idea. We'll get you some good stuff soon. Heading out now.

Me - 8:36:49 am

Meeting with the manager about the massage room and storage options

Me - 8:37:04 am

And where I can put my brochures on the wall

Diana - 8:37:04 am

Hope it goes well

Me - 9:12:30 am

Story of my life! Sigh. Even the manager doesn't show up for me. Something about how I look maybe? Says, walk all over me. :)

Diana - 9:12:56 am

Really???

Diana - 9:12:59 am

Fuck

Diana - 9:13:02 am

Where is he?

Diana - 9:13:20 am

He is a loser

Diana - 9:17:36 am

http://www.hindawi.com/journals/ije/2010/270832/

Diana - 9:17:36 am

Can you read it and give me the short version?

Diana - 9:19:52 am

It's prob more of the same.. No sleep means fat gain

Diana - 9:19:59 am

Pfft tell me something I don't know

Diana - 9:20:16 am

Looks like the jerky manager may have showed up ;)

Me - 9:21:06 am

Nope. Chatting with the new trainers. I'll have a read in a minute

Me - 9:26:51 am

Oh! A real paper! I'll have to concentrate :)

Diana - 9:27:21 am

Yea I read the abstract

Diana - 9:27:32 am

That is all you ever need to read in a science paper

Diana - 9:27:56 am

Hey what do you know about met rxl carnitine?

Diana - 9:28:06 am

That's more important than Tina ;)

Me - 9:28:10 am

And the conclusions

Diana - 9:28:16 am

No point

Diana - 9:28:16 am

They're never conclusive ;)

Me - 9:28:38 am

Called science ;))

Diana - 9:28:16 am

Exactly

Diana - 9:29:05 am

Drive it up your funding body's desire in other words

Me - 9:33:35 am

It doesn't say anything "new". It's about major problems caused by sleep deprivation and also too much. Diabetes and obesity are linked via hormonal changes caused by bad sleep rythmns. But, no suggestion on how to get "good" sleep.

Me - 9:33:47 am

The manager js here. Gotta go

Me - 9:57:06 am

I'll need some A1 poster design help. Just overseeing and design suggestions. Know anyone? :)

Diana - 9:57:23 am

Yep your daughter ;)

Me - 9:57:59 am

Haha. I see you more than I see her :)

Diana - 9:59:19 am

Probably!

Diana - 9:59:36 am

Me!!!

Diana - 10:00:16 am

Just use the same design bold it up a bit and Simplify the cursive font

Diana - 10:00:16 am

Would be my advice

Me - 10:52:36 am

Thanks.

Me - 10:52:48 am

Love the picture. So true! :)

Me - 10:53:40 am

Just finished. Home to prepare for my afternoon massage :). It's been a while. Looking forward to it.

Me - 10:53:51 am

How's your day working so far?

Diana - 10:54:27 am

Are you giving one or receiving one?

Diana - 10:54:37 am

Good, I just got out f the pool and am watching Joel

Me - 10:54:56 am

Receiving

Diana - 10:54:56 am

He was scared to come but is doing amazing

Me - 10:55:12 am

That's great. Swimming is good

Diana - 10:55:12 am

He has a weird relationship with water

Diana - 10:55:16 am

But like me ;)

Me - 10:56:10 am

He likes it sometimes and not others right?

Me - 10:56:10 am

Is the teacher nice?

Diana - 10:56:32 am

She is new he has gone up to courage 3

Diana - 10:56:56 am

The shark time is great for him, he throws himself around and tried stuff to show off in front of me

Diana - 10:57:02 am

I think it's all totally amazing of course ;)

Diana - 10:57:23 am

By then he is confident enough to go for it

Diana - 10:57:43 am

I just die of hypothermia ;)

Diana - 10:57:52 am

Or is it hyper? I've always gotten those confused

Diana - 10:58:20 am

Was the manager ok re filming

Me - 11:02:18 am

Yeah, absolutely fine about the filming. Did not bat an eyelid. It's all good.

Me - 11:03:06 am

Swimming is tough if you're cold. I hated that when I trained and the pool temperature was buggered.

Me - 11:03:35 am

and boys love showing off. :)

Diana - 11:27:44 am

I want to cry I'm so proud of him. Last night he was crying saying he didn't want to come so I promised him the shark game and he asked me to go into the lesson with him. But by the time the lesson was on he didn't need me and he has just swam about 3 metres all by himself and torpedoed and dived to pick up 3 hoops out of the bottoms of the pool!

Diana - 11:28:13 am

I know food shouldn't be used as a reward but hot chips and chocolate milk here we come!

Me - 11:31:25 am

That's great. It's so good he didn't need you in the end. But it's only because he had mum there, I'm sure. Hot chips sound awesome! I haven't had those for ages! Enjoy :)

Me - 11:31:39 am

And it's pretty cold outside too

Diana - 11:36:16 am

Oh they're for Joel, I'll just charge my usual junk food tax ;) a bite or two

Diana - 11:39:46 am

Enjoy your massage

Diana - 11:39:48 am

Totes jealous

Me - 11:41:24 am

Yeah. Looking forward to it too. Hopefully I can stay awake this evening. :)

Diana - 11:44:48 am

Do you need to?

Me - 11:46:27 am

Ha. Maybe not. Just got to prepare for my Wednesday morning lady who often has to work. Still, got to do it.

Me - 11:47:18 am

Rick's giving me the name of his local publishing guy to produce a few A1 and A3 posters for the gym.

Diana - 11:46:56 am

Cool

Diana - 11:46:56 am

It's best to get it done in after effects and professionally printed

Diana - 11:46:56 am

Looks really are everything

Diana - 11:46:56 am

Atleast initially

Me - 11:48:32 am

What's "after effects"?

Me - 11:48:42 am

Me no understand :)

Diana - 11:48:45 am

Maybe try to bring in a complementary colour to the beige

Diana - 11:48:53 am

discretely

Diana - 11:49:04 am

I'm going to buy some protein powder.

Diana - 11:49:04 am

Cheap pea stuff from somewhere

Diana - 11:49:04 am

After effects or illustrator

Me - 11:49:40 am

Just buy a small one.

Diana - 11:49:04 am

Software professional printers use

Diana - 11:49:04 am

Yep no make a soy one

Diana - 11:49:04 am

I had a look when I was looking back at fat burners this morning

Diana - 11:49:04 am

ON make a soy one in trying to say

Me - 11:51:13 am

The brochure is beyond me. Beige? Complimentary? Should I just take all the files to the printer?

Diana - 11:51:12 am

Really get your design as best you can before sending it to printers

Me - 11:51:21 am

Ok

Diana - 11:51:12 am

It's like a book, it's never perfect just the best you can get it before you give up

Diana - 11:51:12 am

Argh they'll charge you a fortune

Diana - 11:51:12 am

But maybe not if they're a friend of ricks

Me - 11:52:30 am

Maybe a tiny bit of advice from you? It doesn't have to be much.

Me - 11:52:39 am

Hey! I could pay you!

Me - 11:52:43 am

Let's do that

Me - 11:52:48 am

Want a job?

Me - 11:52:51 am

:)

Me - 11:52:55 am

Seriously

Diana - 11:51:12 am

You don't need me

Me - 11:53:11 am

Cheaper and better than a printer

Me - 11:53:14 am

Yes I do

Diana - 11:53:15 am

You just need to work it a bit

Me - 11:53:24 am

I have no idea

Diana - 11:53:20 am

Ring the printer and ask them what format they want the files in

Me - 11:53:44 am

How about I buy your protein, etc?

Me - 11:54:05 am

I know you don't have time

Diana - 11:53:20 am

Ring the printer and we will take it from there

Me - 11:54:20 am

Ok

Diana - 11:53:20 am

I have every night free really

Diana - 11:53:20 am

That's when I do editing

Me - 11:54:36 am

No. You're texting all night

Diana - 11:53:20 am

I should call Robert and see if there's any work actually

Me - 11:54:43 am

So I've heard :)

Diana - 11:53:20 am

What printer is it?

Me - 11:55:25 am

Rick did say. Got to call him after 12

Diana - 11:53:20 am

Whatever they say call another one in the industrial area of frankston or seaford and get a comparison

Me - 11:55:31 am

Get the details

Me - 11:55:44 am

Ok

Diana - 11:55:54 am

Well ring one now and ask

Me - 11:56:06 am

Ok

Diana - 11:56:43 am

Email me the artwork

Me - 11:57:11 am

Not until we work out payment. :)

Diana - 11:57:13 am

I think I am going to buy a bottle of wine

Diana - 11:57:23 am

Just send it I may not be able to touch it

Diana - 11:58:41 am

Protein powder and wine

Diana - 11:58:48 am

Staples of any gym goers diet

Me - 11:59:09 am

Why are you buying wine?

Me - 11:59:39 am

I thought that was something we were saving for music night? :)

Diana - 12:03:04 pm

Just one glass is ok?

Me - 12:03:39 pm

Do I have to buy one too? So we "drink" together?

Me - 12:03:46 pm

Got the quote

Diana - 12:03:26 pm

Diana - 12:03:26 pm

I found this

Diana - 12:03:43 pm

It's still whey but it has carnitine in it

Me - 12:04:08 pm

And carnitine is?

Me - 12:04:20 pm

I don't know this stuff

Me - 12:05:18 pm

PDF is ok. 300dpi. $100 for 2 posters. $40 for 6 A3. I'll see what Rick's guy says.

Me - 12:05:36 pm

PDF seems a bit too easy.

Diana - 12:06:08 pm

PDF will be ok for what you are doing

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

I also want to buy carnitine and kre alkalyn

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Oh so many supps

Me - 12:08:49 pm

Protein, pre workout, stop :)

Me - 12:09:29 pm

But the smallest ON protein. Try it before we buy in bulk.

Me - 12:09:48 pm

Pre workout you know. Save that for the big order

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

They don't have your brand

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

I just bought vital pea

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

The vegan ones are better for me

Me - 12:15:33 pm

Is that the flavor?

Me - 12:16:08 pm

What's the protein source?

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

Pea!!

Me - 12:25:34 pm

Can you help me with the brochure design? Please. Paid work. If $ is uncomfortable, let me keep you supplied in protein, pre workout, etc.

Diana - 12:25:56 pm

I'm the poorest person I know and I just gave the kids at surf life saving $20!

Diana - 12:25:58 pm

Insane?

Me - 12:26:13 pm

Kind heart

Diana - 12:26:47 pm

They are all volunteers

Diana - 12:26:52 pm

And save a lot of idiots

Me - 12:30:02 pm

Normal hourly rate

Diana - 12:34:33 pm

I am not a graphic designer

Diana - 12:35:01 pm

I thought you were happy with the design?

Diana - 12:35:13 pm

I've never even heard of pages before!

Me - 12:35:40 pm

Word processor on Mac

Me - 12:35:47 pm

I like the design

Me - 12:36:09 pm

You just said bold some things and I wondered what to bold :)

Me - 12:37:47 pm

But, yeah, I'm ok with the design. Maybe I'll put it on the other side of the room and see what needs to stand out

Me - 12:38:28 pm

Home from swimming? It's windy and cold here.

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

We've just finished getting some groceries you can bring it over if you like

Me - 1:11:29 pm

I've got my massage at 2. Maybe after school pickup? If you're ok with that.

Diana - 1:12:16 pm

We have karate

Diana - 1:12:16 pm

Just email it

Diana - 2:16:16 pm

Ok

Diana - 2:16:16 pm

I can't believe I have done this

Diana - 2:16:16 pm

My sister and I have just put a profile up on a sugar daddy website!

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

And no cleaning work Friday, damn ;)

Me - 3:03:45 pm

Sitting in the car after massage. Don't know that I really should be driving :)

Diana - 3:05:57 pm

Oh dear

Diana - 3:06:01 pm

Sit there as long as you need to!

Diana - 3:06:15 pm

Maybe go get a coffee and sit for a bit in the cafe first

Me - 3:18:10 pm

Home now. Safe and sound. Tired and sore :) Good sore

Me - 3:18:10 pm

Sugar Daddy site? They have such a thing?

Diana - 3:19:59 pm

I had no idea but Yep, my sister showed me some

Diana - 3:20:15 pm

School pick up time

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

Glad you're feeling better

Me - 3:29:15 pm

Mogwai. Rock Action. Loud. On the couch (it's cold and windy outside), looking at the lake. Coffee in hand. Might be here for awhile :)

Me - 3:30:02 pm

Love you don't know Jesus. The 3/4 4/4 mix was what I used to write all the time. Love it.

Me - 3:31:35 pm

You can see the strong gusts of wind coming straight at the house over the lake.

Diana - 3:54:08 pm

The wind is icy cold!

Diana - 3:54:09 pm

It's awful

Me - 3:54:39 pm

Not on the couch looking at it it isn't :))

Diana - 3:56:28 pm

No, I've got the heaters on already

Diana - 3:56:32 pm

No karate now we can do it Friday

Diana - 3:56:32 pm

And we got home with no one coming for a play :) despite a child following us half the way. I was staunch!

Me - 3:57:53 pm

Well done! :)

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

Thanks it was hard

Me - 3:59:09 pm

Tears?

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

I nearly said do you want to come over a thousand times

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

But stopped

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

I've had a shocking headache

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

No tears, Imogen wouldn't do that

Me - 3:59:42 pm

Oh no? Is that normal? (Headache)

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

I said if you're going to have a sulk shake it off at the front door before you come in ;)

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

I couldn't deal with Karen, not after an hour of my sister!

Me - 4:00:38 pm

Her daughter is a friend of Imogen's?

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

Kind of, she isn't in the same prep class

Diana - 4:03:01 pm

But met at a play group last year

Diana - 4:03:08 pm

They don't play together

Diana - 4:03:23 pm

But have swimming at the same time Wednesday evening

Diana - 4:03:57 pm

Where are you at with Rick and printing?

Me - 4:11:13 pm

Got another quote, as you suggested. I've spoken to the printer and he said email him the file and he'll give me a quote. I've been playing with changing some of the text to bold.

Me - 4:11:49 pm

Changing to bold is the extent of my design talents :)

Me - 4:12:51 pm

I'll have 2 versions. The big, printed ones with no price. The small a4 ones (which ill print Nd laminate) with the (current) prices.

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

Fair enough

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

Pull back and prioritise your words too

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

Too wordy

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

And gym and massage all in on doesnt belong with the tyoes of massage you're offering

Diana - 4:35:08 pm

I feel asleep on the couch

Diana - 4:35:17 pm

Better get up and cook

Diana - 4:35:18 pm

Argh

Me - 4:35:24 pm

Headache better?

Diana - 4:35:40 pm

Yep

Diana - 4:35:45 pm

But I'm out of codeine :/

Diana - 4:41:53 pm

It's probably what's causing them ;)

Diana - 4:41:58 pm

I'm ready for bed now though

Me - 5:03:01 pm

I just had as de-oil shower. Best thing after a massage. Glad you're headache is better.

Me - 5:03:20 pm

I should cook too

Diana - 5:02:40 pm

Really?

Diana - 5:02:40 pm

I like leaving the oil on

Me - 5:03:38 pm

Slippery haha

Diana - 5:02:40 pm

Not as much as I like staying salty after a swim though

Diana - 5:02:40 pm

You didn't send the poster through?

Me - 5:04:02 pm

Yeah. That crusty feeling is nice

Me - 5:04:31 pm

I don't want to bother you. You're more than busy already.

Me - 5:04:51 pm

Did you find an option for Joel in the morning?

Diana - 5:05:09 pm

Wow you're making decisions for me again

Diana - 5:05:29 pm

Yes he is going to my dads while I work. With me in the morning

Me - 5:06:00 pm

Ok. I'll email what I've done for the brochure. Took your advice

Diana - 5:06:49 pm

What advice?

Diana - 5:06:56 pm

I'm reading about carnitine

Me - 5:07:02 pm

Too wordy

Me - 5:07:38 pm

Gym in the morning?

Me - 5:07:51 pm

What is carnitine?

Diana - 5:07:53 pm

Pairing it with omega 3 seems to be the go

Me - 5:08:10 pm

Brochure gone

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

And I'm not sure about secure your place? That's more for a position in a course maybe?

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

And a border to contain it all. That's possible where to bring in some colour?

Me - 5:19:10 pm

Ok. "Make a booking"?

Me - 5:19:14 pm

Thanks

Diana - 5:23:10 pm

I think so?

Diana - 5:23:32 pm

When do you have to get them printed?

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

And you're going to offer weekends? Are you sure?

Diana - 5:26:08 pm

Of course instead of taking carnitine I could eat less ;)

Me - 5:31:01 pm

Printed soon-ish. No real hurry. I'll be massaging staff for free for a bit :)

Me - 5:32:09 pm

I was thinking every second weekend or so. Not all day every day. Depends how busy I get during the week. If I'm busy enough I'll close off weekends.

Me - 5:32:50 pm

Maybe I should take weekends off. Just add it privately, if there's a need. Good idea

Me - 5:33:34 pm

Afternoon and evening could be on weekends too :)

Me - 5:35:00 pm

Weekends are gone

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

Wow you didn't need anyone for that conversation ;)

Me - 5:36:09 pm

You were in my head :)

Me - 5:36:09 pm

You spoke beautifully and logically :)

Diana - 5:42:22 pm

Ha! Of course! Perfectly controlled by you!

Diana - 5:58:08 pm

I've cracked the wine

Me - 6:00:19 pm

Oh! You got some.

Me - 6:01:12 pm

I should have got some too

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

I got two!

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

They were on special, this organic wine I've wanted to try

Diana - 6:10:03 pm

Have you read the posturology blog, they talk a lot about the condition and stability of the feet being the base of getting to squat heavy

Diana - 6:10:08 pm

It's a pretty cool blog

Diana - 6:10:28 pm

Of course I mostly skin

Diana - 6:10:32 pm

Skim

Me - 6:11:44 pm

I haven't. I haven't tried them.

Me - 6:12:35 pm

How did dinner turn out?

Diana - 6:17:09 pm

Good, done and dusted. Now bath time for Imogen.

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

I think feet mobilisation is something that'd be good for me given one foot has less bones than the other

Me - 6:19:13 pm

I can't remember you telling me that! Tell me again if I missed that (sorry if I did)

Diana - 6:27:49 pm

I have had the sesamoides out of my left foot removed

Diana - 6:28:00 pm

I broke my foot when I was using but kept walking on it and never had it looked at. By the time I got clean it was so damaged they could only remove the bones.

Diana - 6:29:49 pm

There's a scar on the soul of my foot from the surgery and there's a bit of nerve damage also. I over compensate on the side of my foot as the ball has no bones to take impact. Thus my whole leg, muscles knees to hip is out, they said eventually I would need a hip replacement but I think I could possible correct it before that's needed

Diana - 6:29:54 pm

Long story!

Diana - 6:30:08 pm

I've got to go to Neils mums to take photos and sell stuff for her on Saturday, the kids are going to have a sleep over and I'll meet them at Neils bday lunch Sunday, which I think I'm not going to go to

Me - 6:33:28 pm

I didn't know that. I should look up corrective exercises for that for you

Diana - 6:32:16 pm

Diana - 6:32:16 pm

I have told you

Diana - 6:32:16 pm

When we started I explained it, before the running wow

Me - 6:34:11 pm

Ok. Sorry.

Diana - 6:34:23 pm

It's constantly painful, that's why I wear those hideous asics

Diana - 6:34:24 pm

They're the best cushioning for it when I jump or run

Diana - 6:34:24 pm

http://www.foothealthfacts.org/footankleinfo/Sesamoid_Injuries.htm

Diana - 6:34:24 pm

This explains it well

Me - 6:35:24 pm

already looking

Me - 6:35:33 pm

I'll look at that one too

Diana - 6:36:32 pm

Remember the whole foot pain, tendon stretching conversation we had, when I started to see Steve??

Diana - 6:36:32 pm

Maybe you have altzeihmers ;)

Me - 6:36:53 pm

I do now

Diana - 6:36:32 pm

Or maybe you just weren't interested!

Me - 6:36:59 pm

Remember I mean

Diana - 6:36:32 pm

I told you you had no interest in my ability in the beginning!

Me - 6:44:00 pm

With the kids sleeping over on Saturday, are you working that night?

Diana - 6:45:57 pm

No, and I told Neil I don't want to go to his birthday lunch, I think it would make it weird for his new girlfriend

Me - 6:46:30 pm

It might. What does he think?

Me - 6:48:11 pm

Would you like to do something together on Saturday evening (or whenever you're dropping the kids off)?

Me - 6:48:30 pm

Weather is supposed to be warm

Me - 6:50:03 pm

And if Charles Poliquin says carnitine is ok, it must be. He's the go to strength and conditioning coach.

Me - 6:52:07 pm

And you've got to take it for a long time and always with carbs, it looks like. If it's expensive that may be a limiting factor.

Diana - 6:52:57 pm

Good cause I've started taking it

Diana - 6:53:05 pm

I saw with fish oil not carbs

Me - 6:53:24 pm

Insulin levels need to be raised for it to be effective

Diana - 6:53:26 pm

Prob re Saturday but can we wait and see?

Me - 6:53:32 pm

Of course

Diana - 6:53:36 pm

Sometimes as you know I get grumpy and tired as you know ;)

Me - 6:54:03 pm

All the more reason to hang out :)

Diana - 6:53:36 pm

And if you already a high level it won't do any good

Diana - 6:53:36 pm

It is outrageously expensive

Me - 6:54:21 pm

The science looks good

Me - 6:54:32 pm

But only small increases

Me - 6:54:41 pm

In performance etc

Me - 6:55:00 pm

Like 11% over months

Diana - 6:55:01 pm

And fat loss

Me - 6:55:05 pm

Yeah

Diana - 6:55:44 pm

11% is a lot

Diana - 6:55:44 pm

I've been eating badly and too much today and yeaterday, forever yo to

Diana - 6:55:44 pm

Yoyo

Me - 6:58:20 pm

Yeah, I know it's tough with the kids meals and timing and planning.

Me - 6:59:15 pm

I'll chase that nutritionist

Diana - 6:59:40 pm

Id be smashing it nutrition weights and wows if I was in a different place.

Me - 6:59:56 pm

Place?

Diana - 7:00:00 pm

Do you know how hard it is to find the mechanical function of a rabbits hop online????

Diana - 7:00:00 pm

Place, not geographical

Diana - 7:00:00 pm

Situational

Me - 7:00:58 pm

Yeah, I thought that was what you meant

Me - 7:02:59 pm

It's funny, but I sort if miss the chaos of small kids dinner, bath, story, bedtime. There is no other feeling of satisfaction like when it's all over, everyone is happy And in bed and you can sit there thinking, for a moment, that everything is perfect.

Me - 7:03:39 pm

Rabbits are homework I guess

Diana - 7:03:55 pm

Sure it's beautiful

Diana - 7:04:16 pm

I'm just saying without it the gym and nutrition stuff would be much easier

Diana - 7:04:16 pm

Yes homework

Me - 7:04:49 pm

Can you draw? I can't draw a straight line :)

Me - 7:10:08 pm

Sitting watching tv, filing my nails :) Massage preparedness!

Diana - 7:10:47 pm

Oh dear! When are you doing one?

Diana - 7:11:04 pm

The trick with a straight line is to look where you want the line to end up

Diana - 7:11:09 pm

Not at the line itself

Me - 7:11:42 pm

Just getting ready.

Diana - 7:16:56 pm

Rabbit anatomy

Diana - 7:16:59 pm

Well I never

Me - 7:17:07 pm

I'm glad I had that massage today. It was ok, but not great. I'm at least as good as that guy. Reassuring

Me - 7:17:24 pm

Induced ovulation right?

Me - 7:17:49 pm

Like alpacas, I think

Me - 7:17:56 pm

Or is that cats?

Diana - 7:20:26 pm

Not sure

Diana - 7:20:34 pm

We are looking at mechanics of hooping

Diana - 7:20:36 pm

Hopping

Diana - 7:20:50 pm

And now distracting by watching bunny jumping shows

Diana - 7:21:12 pm

you're as good as the guy you got a massage off today? I better book one ;)

Me - 7:22:26 pm

It will have to be before next Monday. I'm taking the table to the gym and storing it there.

Me - 7:22:49 pm

Yes, induced ovulation. Cats, rabbits and camelids.

Diana - 7:23:28 pm

Wow you should check out the Danish championships in rabbit hopping

Diana - 7:23:28 pm

It's amazing!

Me - 7:23:34 pm

Haha

Diana - 7:23:28 pm

We could do it at the gym if we can't have one before Lindsay

Diana - 7:23:28 pm

Monday

Me - 7:23:59 pm

Do they allow hares?

Diana - 7:23:28 pm

Would it be weird though? It kind of would, wouldn't it.

Diana - 7:23:28 pm

Nope no hates

Me - 7:24:13 pm

Massage weird?

Diana - 7:23:28 pm

Hates

Diana - 7:25:30 pm

Now we're on to miniature horse jumping in the us!

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

My kids haven't got a hope with me helping them with their homework

Me - 7:26:03 pm

You have google!

Me - 7:26:07 pm

:)

Diana - 7:26:55 pm

Now zebra!!!

Diana - 7:31:45 pm

Now we've digressed to World Cup vaulting

Diana - 7:31:47 pm

It's amazing

Diana - 7:31:59 pm

I can't help but wonder about the horses happiness

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

Still better for them than trail riding ;)

Me - 7:33:21 pm

I hear people saying the horses love it (Nd racing too). But I doubt it really. It's all about $, isn't it?

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

Vaulting is a little different to the racing industry I think

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

No where near as many horses churned out for torture or dog meat

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

I worked for a race horse trainer as a kid, it was hideous

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

He was hideous

Me - 7:36:01 pm

That's what I've heard

Me - 7:36:24 pm

10 fingers all filed :)

Diana - 7:36:16 pm

Wow you're ready for the ball

Diana - 7:41:42 pm

Joel and I went and saw cavalia it was amazing

Me - 7:43:42 pm

Was that recently?

Me - 7:44:20 pm

There's a place in NSW that my parents used to go to. Cool horses doing cool stuff. Is that like cavalia?

Diana - 7:44:34 pm

I think fairly early this year? It late last year

Diana - 7:45:08 pm

Cavalia has the worlds best horses bred for obedience and strength, it's really truly an amazing show.

Diana - 7:45:29 pm

I don't know if it's like your parents, cool horses doing cool stuff

Me - 7:45:47 pm

I just looked it up. Looks similar.

Me - 7:46:26 pm

But on a much smaller scale

Me - 7:46:55 pm

I mean, cavalia is bigger :)

Me - 7:50:55 pm

Just watched a video of it. Amazing what horses can be trained to do.

Diana - 7:57:31 pm

Well they were a weapon of war, at that stage they needed to know what to do with minimal effort from the rider so they could concentrate on drawing their weapon

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

But yea it's mind boggling

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

And those horse whisperers, the real ones, they're phenomenal

Me - 7:58:33 pm

Have you seen them in action?

Diana - 7:59:03 pm

No, my cousin who lives in the country goes and sees them

Diana - 7:59:11 pm

My mum and dad have bought me books

Diana - 7:59:17 pm

Which I haven't read

Diana - 7:59:29 pm

And movies, I've watched those ;)

Me - 8:05:20 pm

I'm organizing end of year company tax stuff. And super fund returns. Putting me to sleep :)

Me - 8:05:55 pm

What time might you be in the gym tomorrow?

Me - 8:06:41 pm

My 7:30am hasn't cancelled yet. That's positive :)

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

Necessary evil

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

Don't forget to claim your preworkout;)

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

I'll be in for the 1030 crèche session

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

Oh I hope she delays to 930 so you don't have to wait around!

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

Are you watching the 60s on sbs?

Me - 8:10:04 pm

Warchjng now

Me - 8:10:29 pm

Kids asleep?

Diana - 8:10:24 pm

I'm watching foreign correspondent but I thought you'd be into the space stuff

Diana - 8:10:24 pm

Yep kids asleep

Diana - 8:10:24 pm

Big day

Diana - 8:10:24 pm

Bigger one tomorrow

Diana - 8:10:24 pm

You're surrounded by strong women Huh

Me - 8:11:44 pm

Yep. Wouldn't have it any other way! :)

Me - 8:11:48 pm

I looked at your Instagram photos the other night.

Me - 8:11:54 pm

Cool ones.

Me - 8:12:17 pm

Funny how one of your earliest ones is of my daughter.

Diana - 8:10:24 pm

Lurking Huh?

Diana - 8:10:24 pm

Is it?

Me - 8:12:46 pm

Yeah. The mud, electric one

Me - 8:12:55 pm

She loves that photo

Diana - 8:13:08 pm

You know Italy is going in to rescue refugees

Diana - 8:13:16 pm

We could Learn a lot from them

Diana - 8:13:23 pm

Oh that's good I'm glad she likes it

Me - 8:13:34 pm

Australia sucks, at refugees

Me - 8:13:48 pm

One great thing my ex wife did

Diana - 8:13:55 pm

That obstacle gave my kids nightmares. So it's good someone got something out of it

Me - 8:14:20 pm

A lot of pro bono stuff for refugees, fighting the Howard govt.

Me - 8:14:40 pm

She did Tampa

Me - 8:15:17 pm

That photo was my daughter's profile pic for ages

Me - 8:15:59 pm

It's an awesome photo!

Diana - 8:16:15 pm

Cool

Diana - 8:16:19 pm

And cool

Me - 8:16:35 pm

I thought those obstacles were just plain mean!

Me - 8:16:39 pm

And dangerous

Diana - 8:18:04 pm

That one was for sure

Me - 8:18:26 pm

I got up at 4:30am but I feel quite good tonight. I slept not too bad last night. Big difference.

Me - 8:19:13 pm

This Apollo stuff hS been seen a zillion times. Foreign corespondent eh? I'll change

Diana - 8:21:04 pm

I have had 3 potential sugar daddies send emails. Do I really want to get into this?

Me - 8:21:51 pm

absolutely not

Diana - 8:24:57 pm

It's all very weird

Diana - 8:25:17 pm

That people would be so forthright with their needs wants and demands

Me - 8:25:53 pm

On the internet, to strangers. Yes.

Diana - 8:27:02 pm

One earns over 200k annually and spends his time yacht racing

Diana - 8:27:08 pm

I mean this info is readily available

Diana - 8:27:13 pm

How much they earn!

Me - 8:27:40 pm

It's not you

Me - 8:28:33 pm

Is it a real thing appropriate to your sister?

Me - 8:28:49 pm

Although, I can't see how it's Ppropriate for anyone

Diana - 8:29:31 pm

I don't know how she knows about it

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

She has a tendency to make up stories my sister ;)

Diana - 8:35:47 pm

What is me? Being poor having a kind heard and giving money I don't have to surf life saving rescue?

Diana - 8:35:49 pm

Yay for me

Me - 8:37:03 pm

Giving yourself to strange men. That's not you.

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

Well technically, it's not giving ;))

Me - 8:38:27 pm

:))

Me - 9:02:55 pm

In bed already. Too early? Sick of tv, so I'm reading. How did the wine go down?

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

The wine went down well. :)

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

It's not too early if you need the sleep

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

Staying up late is over rated

Me - 9:04:51 pm

Organic wine tastes better? Or just is better for you?

Diana - 9:08:00 pm

I don't know

Diana - 9:08:00 pm

I just like the idea of it :)

Diana - 9:08:00 pm

No doubt better for you rather than having your wine filtered through fish scales

Diana - 9:08:00 pm

Ok I've turned the computer off

Diana - 9:08:00 pm

With a mix feeling of morbid curiosity

Me - 9:09:27 pm

Been researching have we?

Diana - 9:09:57 pm

Well I had a few emails

Me - 9:10:11 pm

Pictures?

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

Yea they have pictures

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

All except one did anyway

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

And they have to be verified

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

So does their income status

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

It's mind blowing

Me - 9:11:42 pm

What do you need to do to post?

Me - 9:12:04 pm

Other than be female, I assume

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

You don't even have to be female!

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

Transsexual mangina dogs are all the go ;)

Me - 9:13:40 pm

Cool!

Me - 9:13:47 pm

:)

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

You totally want the site link don't you?

Me - 9:15:01 pm

No. I'm good. Although I can understand curiosity

Diana - 9:15:07 pm

What do I do? If they want to meet?

Diana - 9:15:19 pm

You could get a young sugar babe

Me - 9:16:08 pm

Well, if they want to meet you either meet or don't :)) Simple options.

Diana - 9:17:17 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:17:26 pm

Got it

Diana - 9:17:39 pm

Goodnight Grump

Diana - 9:17:43 pm

See you at the gym

Me - 9:18:10 pm

Do you really want to talk about this?

Me - 9:18:34 pm

I remember us arguing last time we did.

Diana - 9:19:07 pm

No that's why I said goodnight :)

Diana - 9:19:13 pm

I am sorry

Diana - 9:19:22 pm

I forgot we said no more texts about it

Diana - 9:19:31 pm

I shall discuss it with you no more!

Me - 9:20:16 pm

Via text, that is. I'm keen to discuss, if you want, in person.

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

Keen? Really?

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

You don't find it a tad morbid?

Me - 9:22:37 pm

If it's something important to you, I want to talk about it. That's what we do right? Share stuff with each other.

Me - 9:22:49 pm

In person :))

Diana - 9:22:50 pm

Yep

Diana - 9:22:55 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:22:56 pm

One wants to meet when he gets back in November

Diana - 9:23:45 pm

Let's talk before then! I'll need some Dutch courage and coaching!

Me - 9:24:24 pm

Hopefully we'll talk heaps of times before November! Haha

Diana - 9:24:47 pm

I mean in person ;)

Diana - 9:24:50 pm

Atleast once

Me - 9:28:44 pm

Night

**Wednesday 15 October**

Diana - 12:12:32 pm

Did you get some food? Are you ok?

Me - 12:14:04 pm

Oats! :)

Me - 12:14:39 pm

Full now, can't move. I had too much.

Me - 12:14:53 pm

That was a great WOW!

Diana - 12:15:19 pm

Hmm we will see when we have something to compare it to

Diana - 12:15:57 pm

I was just talking to this trainer at the gym who was benching over 100 kilos, he wasn't egotistical at all which was good.

Diana - 12:16:09 pm

I'm glad you ate heaps you looked really tired this morning

Me - 12:20:22 pm

People say that to me often. Must be just how I look. I hope it's not how I act. Didn't feel too tired. I've been told I look even thinner, maybe that's it. It's been said said I look like an escapee from a concentration camp! Wonderful :))

Diana - 12:22:21 pm

Oh dear

Diana - 12:22:29 pm

You do look drawn

Diana - 12:22:46 pm

Maybe early days in a concentration camp ;)

Diana - 12:23:12 pm

My heart rate hit 190 in that wow

Me - 12:26:39 pm

Really? That's good to know, for when we do the running stuff after the wow's are done. I'd worked stuff out for you based on 180. You looked like you'd maxed out at the end. That was a solid effort!!

Diana - 12:31:01 pm

Yea I was shaking at the end

Diana - 12:31:07 pm

Karen said she'd never seen me sweat before ;)

Me - 12:32:45 pm

You think the oats might have helped? So glad, if that's true.

Diana - 12:35:34 pm

Prob more so the bbq shapes last night ;)

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

I had half the usual amount of shake with 1/3 cup oats in it and pea protein this morning

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

It tastes awful!

Me - 12:37:29 pm

Is that the oats or the pea protein that tastes bad?

Me - 12:37:53 pm

Like your Chinese herbs? :))

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

I don't mind the taste of the pea protein

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

It's more the consistency with the oats in it I guess

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

The other protein makes for a much nicer shake consistency wise

Me - 12:39:18 pm

I keep them separate

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

Possibly all the chemicals in it

Me - 12:39:31 pm

Porridge and shake

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

I don't have time for one breakfast let alone 2

Diana - 12:44:32 pm

I feel a bit dodgy.

Diana - 12:44:32 pm

I mean those box jumps?

Diana - 12:44:32 pm

And some of those squats?

Me - 12:49:41 pm

All good. I was watching. The squats were good, and the box jumps too. You only need most of your heel on the box Nd you did that and more. It was a good wow, rest assured.

Me - 12:50:17 pm

Hopefully something heavy next week!

Diana - 12:50:48 pm

Knowing my luck it'll be bench :/

Diana - 12:51:30 pm

Do you think I'll get back in the top 10 with that wow or am I going to need a heavy wow

Diana - 12:51:41 pm

I know you can't say definitively but...

Me - 12:54:25 pm

They only printed space for 6 sets, you did 10+. I would expect so.

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

That's what makes me think I must have done it dodgy!

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

Anyway letting it go....

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

It's looking like tomorrow is going to be too complicated to get to yoga on time, I will have to go Friday morning instead

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

Atleast the wow is done

Me - 1:01:25 pm

This is the place you're thinking of training at, right? And yep,wow is done.

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

Yep, but Jarrod hasnt a car tomorrow so I need to go pick up him and Imogen drop him at station take Imogen to school and get Joel to daycare then get to Hampton by 10

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

I think I'll leave it to Friday when everything is a little simpler!

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

I can go to the gym after trying the class friday. No rush

Me - 1:13:51 pm

You know don't you, that if you're really stuck and need to be in 2 places at once, I'm glad to assist (if I'm available). I'm not saying I can help tomorrow, just in general.

Diana - 1:14:24 pm

Thanks, tomorrow wouldn't be good to get Joel to fay care early cause he will have a late night at dads tonight. So if I can let him sleep as late as possible before picking up Imogen and Jarrod that would be good

Diana - 1:14:24 pm

Then I can come into gym workout then do the yoga class

Diana - 1:16:42 pm

Fuck life is busy isn't it

Diana - 1:18:55 pm

Entering gym comps doesn't help I guess ;)

Me - 1:19:05 pm

Yep. And you can't plan too far ahead either. Just too many variables. Each day is it's own lifetime. That's why I used to really enjoy the satisfaction of after bed time and everyone was happy and that day negotiated.

Me - 1:19:29 pm

Absolutely worth it!! You met me! Haha :))

Diana - 1:20:33 pm

Of course!

Diana - 1:28:20 pm

Oops double dose!

Me - 1:29:29 pm

Did you buy it, not order it online?

Diana - 1:30:39 pm

I got the herbs one when I bought the pre workout out

Diana - 1:35:29 pm

Man I'm smashed work is going to be hard

Me - 1:38:39 pm

Did you do much after I left?

Diana - 1:42:08 pm

I practiced those overhead squats with the practice bar and wooden pole and just did core

Diana - 1:42:08 pm

So nope nothin really

Diana - 2:31:05 pm

Hi ho it's off to work I go

Me - 2:36:00 pm

Have a good one!! :)

Me - 2:36:44 pm

Cloudy, cold, windy. No sunset tonight. I'll watch you.

Diana - 2:37:07 pm

Hmm

Me - 2:37:29 pm

Yeah! Performance pressure :))

Diana - 2:37:36 pm

There's a sup yoga class Sunday morning I might try

Diana - 2:37:36 pm

It's $30 but it'd be good to so one

Diana - 2:41:48 pm

Do you think I'll need to redo the wow?

Me - 2:42:34 pm

No. That was fast!!

Me - 2:42:35 pm

Recover for next week. Heavy. (Hopefully)

Me - 2:43:15 pm

Everyone loves me only for the pre workout. :))

Diana - 2:43:56 pm

I've made a point not to get it off you

Diana - 2:43:56 pm

Hadn't you noticed?

Me - 2:44:15 pm

Yes.

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

I'm seeing shit that isn't there. I don't know about these pills

Me - 2:44:42 pm

What are they for?

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

Hmm I don't know if I want to drive all the way to st Kilda for sup

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

And then have to pay

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

They're those carnitine pills

Me - 2:45:45 pm

Ok

Me - 2:47:03 pm

I could drive to St Kilda, if you really want to go. Like you offered to sit on the beach while I surfed, I could sit and watch yoga. Supposed to be a nice morning.

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

I'm sure you have many better things to do than drive to st Kilda and watch yoga

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

Isn't my English fab after a wow

Me - 2:48:51 pm

Offer stays open. Discuss later.

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

Why wouldn't you just do the yoga instead of watching it?

Me - 2:50:11 pm

Drown risk :))

Me - 2:50:35 pm

But, yeah, if it's not advanced. I'd love to

Diana - 2:50:59 pm

https://supb.rezdy.com/book

Diana - 2:51:03 pm

Not advanced

Diana - 2:51:14 pm

You book your spot and I'll book mine once I get to work

Me - 2:51:26 pm

Ok

Diana - 2:52:47 pm

I feel

More drained now than I do after lifting heavy

Diana - 2:53:01 pm

Maybe it's the ore workout come down?

Diana - 2:53:10 pm

Need to find one you don't come down from

Me - 2:53:20 pm

I'll book 2 spots. Make sure we get in. Is that ok?

Diana - 2:53:21 pm

Though what goes up must come down I guess

Diana - 2:53:38 pm

Ok, I'll give you the cash when I see you

Diana - 2:54:25 pm

I've checked the winds, it's going to be a good day for it

Me - 2:59:55 pm

All booked. 9am Sunday.

Diana - 3:01:02 pm

Awesome!

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

That'll be 3 sessions of yoga for me this week, I've missed it!

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

Was there a booking fee?

Me - 3:01:48 pm

That'll be one session, ever, for me haha

Diana - 3:02:00 pm

Good way to start

Diana - 3:02:07 pm

Why don't you come to tomorrow at 11?

Me - 3:02:12 pm

Donna

Me - 3:02:27 pm

Is love to

Diana - 3:02:28 pm

Donna coukd do her session at 1030 then do yoga with us at 11

Diana - 3:02:37 pm

Tell her I suggested it ;)

Me - 3:02:48 pm

I'll call

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

You should be paying me ;))

Me - 3:11:55 pm

Donna is in! 11am yoga, the 3 of us.

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

Ha! I don't mind if you need a payment plan ;))

Diana - 3:15:50 pm

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=yIWmRbHDhGw

Editor: The National, "Sea of Love" video

Diana - 3:15:55 pm

It's a good summer son

Diana - 3:15:58 pm

Song

Me - 3:35:51 pm

Ok. It's official. Massage starts Monday. Finally!!

Me - 3:41:06 pm

Ha! Awesome video.

Diana - 3:43:44 pm

That's awesome congrats

Me - 3:44:29 pm

Homework now. Watching "body parts" tv haha

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

Riveting ;)

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

Sheesh everything has changed, would it matter if I couldn't come to yoga tomorrow?

Me - 4:36:05 pm

What's happened?

Me - 4:38:35 pm

Of course. Do what you've got to do.

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

Why does the guy in the cafe always ask me if I'd like a muffin or pastry??

Diana - 4:41:07 pm

Jarrod has now asked his mum to take him and Imogen straight to school which means I'll have time to drop Joel and go try out the yoga class in Hampton.

Diana - 4:41:20 pm

Friday I'll have both kids and be tied to school and day care drop off again

Diana - 4:41:20 pm

I'm sure Donna isn't gonna really care if I go, you prob didn't even tell her I was going?

Me - 4:42:11 pm

Go for it! It is the opportunity you've been waiting for.

Me - 4:42:21 pm

That's great it's worked out

Diana - 4:41:20 pm

Are you sure?

Diana - 4:41:20 pm

I feel bad

Me - 4:42:55 pm

You say that too much :)

Me - 4:42:59 pm

Just do it!

Me - 4:43:27 pm

I want to know too, about the new yoga

Diana - 4:43:28 pm

What about Donna? Will she care?

Diana - 4:43:28 pm

I will go to the gym after

Me - 4:44:06 pm

I'll take care of Donna.

Diana - 4:43:28 pm

Tell her to book it in next week?

Diana - 4:43:28 pm

Ok well you two can do it anyway :)

Me - 4:45:10 pm

Yep

Diana - 4:45:36 pm

Will you send her a txt apologising for me please?

Me - 4:47:04 pm

Of course. But, it's all fine. Don't worry.

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

Ok just let her know though? Sorry!

Me - 4:51:45 pm

All done. All sorted. All good :))

Diana - 4:52:00 pm

Thanks

Diana - 4:56:49 pm

Works looking very scarce for me November December

Diana - 4:57:06 pm

Lucky one of the sugar daddies told me I'd never have to work again ;))

Me - 4:58:04 pm

Text? Hmmm. On Saturday's agenda :))

Diana - 5:02:01 pm

Ok ok

Diana - 5:02:19 pm

I'm not really taking it too seriously

Me - 5:02:58 pm

Lower legs and feet are seriously cool!!

Me - 5:03:31 pm

I quite like this stuff

Diana - 5:13:20 pm

Yes the body is amazing

Diana - 5:13:20 pm

You really are a biologist at heart

Diana - 5:13:20 pm

Just in denial

Me - 5:15:41 pm

Maybe I just like people. When they're silent and lying on a table ;-)

Me - 5:16:11 pm

But, yeah, you're probably right

Me - 5:16:21 pm

Next life. Biologist!

Diana - 5:15:28 pm

So who's your first client?

Me - 5:18:15 pm

I'm doing some of the staff first. For free. Email just went out to all this arvo. I'll chat with some tomorrow.

Me - 5:18:44 pm

So, answer is, don't know yet

Me - 5:19:19 pm

The staff, and especially the sales staff, should be good for referrals

Diana - 5:19:44 pm

Fair enough

Diana - 5:38:47 pm

Have you finished your posters?

Diana - 5:38:56 pm

You're going to be busy!

Diana - 5:38:56 pm

It's good

Me - 5:40:38 pm

Yeah. Just did what you said :)) Still waiting for a quote.

Diana - 5:41:04 pm

Did what I said?

Me - 5:43:05 pm

Removed text. Got rid of the price, since it may change. Different font. I can send it later tonight, if you're really interested.

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

No it's fine

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

Just didn't know what you meant

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

I'm sure it looks dazzling.

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

What am I gonna do when you're so busy?

Diana - 5:49:11 pm

I'll have to find a new texting buddy

Me - 5:49:30 pm

I'll always have time for you.

Me - 5:50:06 pm

Middle of the day. And nights free

Me - 5:50:24 pm

Weekends too, probably

Me - 5:50:29 pm

Heaps of time

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

Well hopefully kill get busy too

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

I'll

Diana - 6:06:30 pm

Stuff isn't coming in

Diana - 6:06:35 pm

I'm going to get smashed

Diana - 6:06:40 pm

Wish my brain was in better form ;)

Diana - 6:06:40 pm

You should see the weather presenter filling in

Diana - 6:06:40 pm

Busty blond in hot pink

Diana - 6:07:26 pm

Fucking so channel 10

Diana - 6:07:31 pm

You'd love her ;)

Me - 6:07:32 pm

Old school

Me - 6:07:48 pm

Complex, strong woman, is she? :))

Diana - 6:08:14 pm

Hooters

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

Did you say my heart rate should be at 180 for our runs?

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

180 should be my max

Me - 6:13:22 pm

No

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

Isn't it 220 minus your age?

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

Theoretically I went over my max today.

Me - 6:13:36 pm

Yes. In general

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

Could have suffered cardiac arrest ;))

Me - 6:13:44 pm

No it's individual

Me - 6:14:03 pm

190+ is your real max

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

Imagine my boundary issues if someone had to give me cpr!!

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

Argh!

Me - 6:14:15 pm

You'd be unconscious

Me - 6:14:20 pm

Case solved

Me - 6:14:24 pm

:)

Me - 6:14:50 pm

And mouth to mouth :))

Diana - 6:14:53 pm

Yea I used to fluctuate from 160-190 in combat depending on the track

Diana - 6:14:56 pm

Eeww

Diana - 6:15:05 pm

Id better be unconscious ;)

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

Depending on who of course :))

Me - 6:15:39 pm

Otherwise called kissing :))

Me - 6:16:04 pm

We can work out you hr for runs

Me - 6:16:11 pm

Now we know the max

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

Dmtry is unhappy with Abbott, no kissing going on there

Me - 6:16:17 pm

I should do mine too

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

190 nearly made me unconscious ;)

Me - 6:16:38 pm

Yeah abbot is stupid

Me - 6:16:50 pm

Diplomacy? Fuck no!

Me - 6:16:58 pm

Local voters only

Diana - 6:16:59 pm

As stupid as Rudd?

Me - 6:17:06 pm

A similar

Me - 6:17:22 pm

Rudd was smarter but couldn't lead

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

Hmm

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

Not sure I agree

Me - 6:20:01 pm

Endurance run HR around 150 bpm.

Diana - 6:29:44 pm

For you or me?

Diana - 6:29:54 pm

Steps next week?

Me - 6:31:49 pm

HR is for you. Steps sound good.

Diana - 6:33:50 pm

The steps are HIIT

Diana - 6:47:12 pm

Especially if you do them twice!

Me - 6:48:55 pm

Ok.

Diana - 7:14:27 pm

Oh I'm hungry!

Me - 7:14:45 pm

You've got oats at home :)

Diana - 7:14:56 pm

Everyone is heating up dinners

Diana - 7:14:56 pm

It's torture!

Me - 7:16:25 pm

Let's cook up a storm on Saturday. Next week's dinners.

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

Oh my god

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

One night in 14 away from the kids and you want me to cook!!

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

Meh

Me - 7:22:45 pm

Haha. Yeah. You're right

Me - 7:23:03 pm

Waiting for the weather :))

Diana - 7:23:27 pm

I knew you'd be into hooter action

Me - 7:27:03 pm

I'm sure her mother is very proud

Me - 7:27:09 pm

:)

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

Cmon, don't pretend you're not a man

Me - 7:27:55 pm

Don't worry! I'm a man ;)

Diana - 7:27:44 pm

Yea unfortunately

Me - 7:30:12 pm

Home now?

Diana - 7:30:43 pm

Nope to my dads to be get Joel

Diana - 7:42:40 pm

My dad had all his guitars and amp out this afternoon it'll be interesting to see what he's done with his day

Me - 7:45:41 pm

Old guitars are seriously cool!

Diana - 7:46:26 pm

Yea he has his original maton electric from when he was 11

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

He's played in bands most his life, we used to go see eachothers bands :)

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

Not my usin mg band, the one j was in when I got clean

Me - 7:47:22 pm

:)

Diana - 7:48:47 pm

What about you cook our meals Saturday night and I just drink wine and show support ;)

Me - 7:49:35 pm

That's what I reckon. :)

Diana - 7:49:04 pm

I'll show my aporeciation by telling you whenever hooters is going to be on TV

Me - 7:50:17 pm

Yeah, I'm "only" a male. Easily distracted :)

Me - 7:50:46 pm

We'll buy some more organic wine! Healthy and drunk. :))

Diana - 8:00:37 pm

I'm trying to make up an excuse to to not have a play date sleep over Friday night

Diana - 8:00:41 pm

im not very good at it

Me - 8:01:44 pm

What have you got so far?

Diana - 8:02:42 pm

Nothing

Diana - 8:02:51 pm

Except I don't want to

Diana - 8:03:04 pm

And that I want time alone with my kids

Diana - 8:03:14 pm

But in reality I have all next week

Diana - 8:03:21 pm

I'm just tired and grumpy

Diana - 8:03:24 pm

And I'll say yes

Me - 8:03:32 pm

You shouldn't need an excuse. Just say you can't do it

Diana - 8:03:43 pm

Cause I'm a fucking life saving donating child sponsor sucker

Me - 8:04:01 pm

"Some other time"

Me - 8:04:30 pm

That works

Diana - 8:04:30 pm

Too late

Diana - 8:04:59 pm

She even asked if her weirdo on and off again partner could drop her daughter off to me

Diana - 8:05:03 pm

Uhm no!!!

Diana - 8:05:23 pm

Anyway I've got her for the night. It's good to help out other single parents

Me - 8:05:34 pm

She probably has plans for the night

Diana - 8:05:36 pm

She has a good heart

Diana - 8:05:55 pm

Yea she has to go to a production she has been working on

Me - 8:06:45 pm

You can snooze here in the afternoon

Diana - 8:06:55 pm

No I can't

Diana - 8:07:18 pm

I have to drive to St. Andrews and take photos for Lillian and her friend

Diana - 8:07:34 pm

They're trying to sell a bunch of stuff and need me to do it online for them

Diana - 8:07:49 pm

She is going to have the kids overnight thiugh

Diana - 8:07:58 pm

I won't leave her place until after dinner

Diana - 8:08:03 pm

I'll have to make sure the kids are settled in

Diana - 8:09:32 pm

I'll try to get away early

Diana - 8:11:22 pm

The sugar daddy stuff is staffing to make sene to you now huh?

Diana - 8:48:14 pm

Dinner and wine time

Diana - 8:48:48 pm

Do you have any clients Friday? Want to go train at camberwell?

Me - 8:54:59 pm

I have a 7:30am, that's all

Me - 8:55:57 pm

Sounds good but what times do you have?

Diana - 8:57:20 pm

I have to do school and day care drop offs

Diana - 8:57:20 pm

Could go there and not lift heavy I guess?

Me - 9:00:29 pm

We could decide Friday morning even.

Diana - 9:01:33 pm

I have the whole day

Diana - 9:01:36 pm

I'm happy to go up to camberwell on my own

Diana - 9:01:36 pm

I'm always happy on my own :)

Me - 9:02:44 pm

Camberwell then. Meet at yours?

Diana - 9:01:36 pm

Yep ok, are you sure?

Diana - 9:01:36 pm

We can go around lunch time if you want

Diana - 9:03:53 pm

I don't have time restraints

Me - 9:04:21 pm

Are you getting the kids back later on?

Me - 9:05:12 pm

Let's go outside rush hour. Maybe 9? What do you think?

Diana - 9:09:23 pm

I have to do school drop off! And day care drop off

Diana - 9:09:30 pm

Do you read any of my texts??

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

I can't go until 930-10

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

You should see the new Chanel no 5 movie with gisele, it's stunning

Me - 9:12:52 pm

That time's even better. I did read, didn't think :) Give me a chance to eat something beforehand.

Me - 9:13:37 pm

Exciting for tomorrow eh?

Diana - 9:15:55 pm

What's tomorrow?

Diana - 9:15:59 pm

God I think I'm drunk

Diana - 9:16:01 pm

Yoga yea

Diana - 9:16:05 pm

Exciting?

Diana - 9:16:25 pm

Except I am going to need to fuck some random dude for the cash ;)

Diana - 9:16:30 pm

Sorry that's for in person!

Me - 9:17:29 pm

Texting and drunk. That'll work every time (sarcometer sky high)

Me - 9:18:15 pm

I guess we now have in car time on Friday to chat about stuff.

Diana - 9:18:40 pm

Yes

Diana - 9:18:40 pm

Talk about 'stuff'

Diana - 9:18:40 pm

That's always good :)

Diana - 9:20:17 pm

Classias!! He is the South Australian one telling me to bottle my genes and that I'll never have to work again

Diana - 9:20:21 pm

Well that'd be nice

Diana - 9:20:41 pm

But I imagine he doesn't consider holding your eyes as closed as possible while they touch you as work!

Diana - 9:20:47 pm

Oh dear, too much wine!

Me - 9:21:51 pm

Keep texting if you want. I just won't respond via text. But you can tell me whatever you want. I'm here.

Diana - 9:22:20 pm

No response is no fun

Diana - 9:22:38 pm

You're gonna be touching random people for money, it's the same thing really

Diana - 9:22:47 pm

Hopefully I'll get paid more ;)

Me - 9:22:50 pm

Ok. As long as we don't get angry with each other. Right?

Me - 9:23:20 pm

There's touching and there's fucking. A bit different

Me - 9:24:28 pm

Have you always required your eyes closed tightly?

Diana - 9:24:57 pm

Only when it's someone I don't love

Diana - 9:25:00 pm

But mostly yes

Diana - 9:25:04 pm

Touching and fucking is the same thing

Diana - 9:25:04 pm

Really

Diana - 9:25:04 pm

In my opinion

Diana - 9:25:04 pm

I'm kind of drunk and replying to old men who use their money and women like me who allow it

Me - 9:27:29 pm

I disagree about the touching and fucking, but I can understand that they are closer things for you.

Me - 9:27:39 pm

Now that I know you better

Me - 9:28:20 pm

But yes, touching can be really intimate I agree

Me - 9:28:32 pm

It's what makes it so cool!

Me - 9:29:08 pm

"Simple" touch giving so much pleasure.

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

Yea, I could never be with someone who does massage, it's so intimate

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

I think

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

I'm glad you get me

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

So many people don't

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

Then they're numb and stupid

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

Most of them

Me - 9:32:35 pm

How many people in your life now do you enjoy touching you? (Kids and immediate family excluded)

Diana - 9:31:28 pm

No one unless they are my lover

Diana - 9:33:41 pm

Maybe Monica but it's therapeutic not so much touch

Me - 9:34:25 pm

Then why have you offered to let me massage you? At some times only, I know.

Diana - 9:40:41 pm

Well i always pull out tight?

Diana - 9:40:42 pm

Right?

Diana - 9:41:36 pm

I don't know

Diana - 9:41:39 pm

Cause we're friends

Diana - 9:41:49 pm

But it's a new agreement

Diana - 9:41:59 pm

That's why I asked wouldn't it be weird

Me - 9:42:12 pm

Yes. But the offer is made. I know what a big thing that would be for you (now I do).

Diana - 9:42:08 pm

But if we are only ever friends then why would it be weird... Is what I ask myself

Diana - 9:42:08 pm

But I can't help what I feel

Diana - 9:42:08 pm

That massage Is for lovers

Diana - 9:42:47 pm

Expcept it's not

Diana - 9:42:50 pm

I'm fucked up

Me - 9:45:05 pm

We could just see what you feel like. Being massaged by me. It might clear things up, it might not. We could always stop after a few minutes, no need to do a whole hour. Especially if you're feeling uncomfortable.

Diana - 9:45:55 pm

Nope it would be weird

Diana - 9:46:10 pm

If you never wanted more than friendship it might have been ok?

Diana - 9:46:24 pm

But somehow I would feel like I was giving you mixed message a

Diana - 9:46:24 pm

Although I'm sure you're way too professional for that

Diana - 9:46:24 pm

Like i said

Diana - 9:46:24 pm

I'm fucked ip

Diana - 9:46:24 pm

Up too ;))

Me - 9:47:23 pm

Ok. Your call obviously. Subject dropped.

Diana - 9:48:15 pm

Wow we are totes running out of subjects!

Diana - 9:50:40 pm

Pumpkernickel seeds and wine

Diana - 9:50:40 pm

I'm the saddest person in the world!

Diana - 9:52:14 pm

Ok you've fallen asleep

Diana - 9:52:23 pm

Enjoy yoga tomorrow

Me - 9:52:39 pm

Let people in, and you won't be :)

Diana - 9:52:48 pm

I like being sad

Diana - 9:52:48 pm

And I've let you in?

Diana - 9:52:48 pm

How could I have let you in any more?

Diana - 9:52:48 pm

Sheesh I talk to you more than anyone

Me - 9:55:04 pm

Yeah I know. And I appreciate it.

Diana - 9:54:56 pm

And I didn't mean sad in literal

Diana - 9:54:56 pm

I meant as in loser

Diana - 9:54:56 pm

And that wasn't at all what you really wanted to write

Me - 9:57:12 pm

Yeah, there was more but of no consequence to now.

Diana - 9:57:04 pm

Pfft

Diana - 9:57:04 pm

Jesus

Diana - 9:57:04 pm

Spit it out

Diana - 9:57:04 pm

I love a bit of criticism

Diana - 9:57:04 pm

Thrive on it :)

Me - 9:58:36 pm

Ok. No attempted sabotaging after I say this...

Me - 9:58:41 pm

Right?

Diana - 9:58:52 pm

Yes ok

Diana - 9:59:05 pm

I won't bite

Diana - 9:59:12 pm

As in text

Diana - 9:59:12 pm

React

Diana - 9:59:12 pm

Well I'll do my best

Me - 10:04:01 pm

I know it's too difficult for you, but even with the "promise" it seems there's no meeting part way in this "thing" we have, which is really one of the most intimate relationships I've had (non physical). I know touch means less to me than you but it really does mean a lot to me, in a positive way. I know it's too hard for you and I wouldn't want you to "close your eyes tightly", just to hug or touch now and then. So I get it and accept it.

Diana - 10:03:28 pm

Wow glad I got the bbq shapes out ;)

Diana - 10:03:28 pm

We have a good thing don't we

Me - 10:05:14 pm

Yes

Diana - 10:05:43 pm

And you're comfortable with non physical right?

Me - 10:05:51 pm

Read it a couple of times

Me - 10:06:12 pm

That's what I said

Diana - 10:06:17 pm

Most intimate non physical relationships

Diana - 10:06:25 pm

One of

Diana - 10:07:29 pm

So what I read is we have a good friendship and you don't need to hug or touch me cause you know it'd make me uncomfortable

Me - 10:07:56 pm

Yes

Diana - 10:08:31 pm

I got it right?

Diana - 10:08:37 pm

Easy then :)

Diana - 10:09:01 pm

Why would I sabotage that?

Diana - 10:10:38 pm

Bedtime?

Diana - 10:10:54 pm

I hope you enjoy yoga tomorrow

Diana - 10:11:01 pm

I'll give you the cash Friday for Sunday

Me - 10:11:11 pm

Night

Diana - 10:11:20 pm

Night

Diana - 10:11:43 pm

Even good night!

Diana - 10:11:45 pm

;))

Diana - 10:12:00 pm

Are you ok?

Diana - 10:12:58 pm

I haven't missed anything have I?

Me - 10:14:42 pm

Goodnight

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

Oh I've done something bad and not meant to

Diana - 10:18:08 pm

Night

Diana - 10:28:43 pm

And by the way in regard to massage, you offered 5 minutes before dinner was ready by saying, 'you don't want a massage do you?'. Even those desperate for touch would be hesitant to accept such a back handed offer

Diana - 10:28:44 pm

Argh

Diana - 10:29:04 pm

Whatever

Diana - 10:29:04 pm

If you need to let go of our friendship, do it.

Diana - 10:29:04 pm

Just try to stay until the wows are done.

Diana - 10:29:04 pm

Night.

Me - 10:33:58 pm

You promised no sabotage. You're again reading all kinds of stuff into silence. Argh!! I'm really tired, not pissed off. You fill vacuum's With stuff that's not there. As far as I'm concerned everything was good. And then you go and say the above. Sigh! At least I know you must have a lot of affection for me, otherwise you wouldn't be trying so hard to sabotage this.

Diana - 10:33:20 pm

I'm not sabotaging

Diana - 10:33:20 pm

I'm not pissed off

Diana - 10:33:20 pm

I'm just saying, if who I am bothers you, and not being able to touch bothers you then maybe you should walk

Diana - 10:35:32 pm

You always sound frustrated with me

Diana - 10:36:22 pm

And the massage stuff is true, I'm just making a point and sometimes you need to own your shit in stead of making out im the only one with issues

Diana - 10:36:26 pm

Cause I'm totes noe

Diana - 10:36:28 pm

Not

Diana - 10:36:52 pm

You're just as fucked up as me, you just don't come out with it as readily as I do

Diana - 10:36:57 pm

So there ;))

Diana - 10:37:02 pm

Get some sleep old man ;)

Me - 10:37:23 pm

Good night, nearly old woman ;))

Diana - 10:37:29 pm

Pfft

Diana - 10:37:46 pm

I feel about 20 right now ;)

Diana - 10:37:48 pm

Night

Diana - 10:38:45 pm

See how you tried to make me out to be the one with the issues, instead of saying yea that was a fucked way to offer a massage and look at why you might have done it??

Diana - 10:38:52 pm

I won't let you deflect like that into me

Diana - 10:39:01 pm

Not now we are friends!!

Diana - 10:39:04 pm

You're in for a ride!

Diana - 10:39:08 pm

Ok

Diana - 10:39:11 pm

Over and out!

Diana - 10:39:44 pm

I'm about to reply to a German skier! Wish me luck :)

**Thursday 16 October**

Diana - 7:16:00 am

Watch this when you have a few minutes

Diana - 7:16:00 am

http://trailrunnermag.com/people/video/1510-mountain-running-with-anton-krupicka-video

Diana - 7:18:08 am

The narrative is a little annoying

Me - 7:18:55 am

How are you this morning? All go for yoga?

Diana - 7:18:08 am

I'm tired, didn't sleep well. And Jarrod has stuffed me around so I'm not sure I'll make it on time... Argh

Diana - 7:18:08 am

Still waiting to hear back

Diana - 7:20:03 am

How are you this morning?

Diana - 7:20:16 am

Yep, looks like I've been stuffed around. I'll still try to make it I guess

Me - 7:21:14 am

Compared to you, pretty good :)) That's a real bummer about the yoga.

Diana - 7:20:16 am

Glad my situation could bolster you

Me - 7:24:21 am

You have to do all the drop offs now, do you?

Me - 7:47:40 am

Great video. Looks like a lot of fun but not those really long distances. 100 mile races look tough! :)

Me - 9:07:34 am

Ok. Just saw the Chanel No 5 video you mentioned. So powerful. Strong emotionally. Amazing!

Me - 9:08:04 am

I hope you make it to yoga on time, and enjoy.

Diana - 9:09:04 am

Joel seemed a little under the weather and I wasn't sure whether to take him to day care at all

Diana - 9:09:04 am

Neil said he would get him at 2 so hopefully he will be ok

Diana - 9:10:03 am

Such a stressful morning

Diana - 9:10:42 am

I have to pick them both up tonight after work but if I let them sleep with me they will have a good sleep in

Diana - 9:12:39 am

I hope you and Donna enjoy yoga too

Diana - 9:19:17 am

AND my blender blew up!

Diana - 9:19:44 am

Ready to dig a hole and hop in it at this stage

Me - 9:24:38 am

It's all happening at your household! Maybe we need a shopping trip on the way on Friday. I need a new blender too. Exciting! Shopping! :))

Me - 9:25:22 am

About to head to work. Got a 10am

Diana - 9:26:08 am

Don't forget to enter my score

Diana - 9:26:08 am

And check out hollies

Diana - 9:34:40 am

I've got a lunch and coffee date today after yoga and before work, I'll see if I can check out blenders in between

Me - 9:39:22 am

Let's buy together though.

Me - 9:39:35 am

Might be cheaper with 2

Diana - 9:41:04 am

I have a feeling you'll want to spend more than I do

Diana - 9:41:04 am

Let's buy separately ;)

Diana - 9:41:04 am

Ok I got here

Diana - 9:41:04 am

Dishevelled and busting for a pee but I made it ;)

Diana - 9:41:04 am

I can't believe you're doing yoga without me

Diana - 9:41:04 am

It's a milestone

Diana - 9:43:12 am

Ok I'm going in

Me - 9:43:51 am

Good luck!

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

It's my school

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

Then I knew that all along really

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

How was your yoga? Have you got a crush on my teacher?

Diana - 12:26:59 pm

I'm willing to fight for her ;)

Diana - 12:27:27 pm

Now I need to find cash. Pay the deposit and find a way to get the rest.

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

I'm excited

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

Very fucking excited

Me - 12:49:07 pm

That's awesome. When do you need the deposit by?

Me - 12:50:20 pm

Didn't do yoga. I want to wait and do it with you. Donna was keen not to do it as well and have a long training session instead. Smashed her, she loved it.

Me - 12:50:56 pm

Looking forward to a full run down on the yoga school.

Diana - 12:52:21 pm

Now I feel bad!! I didn't mean don't do it

Diana - 12:52:31 pm

I meant do it but it's a bummer I'm not there

Diana - 12:52:36 pm

Well I'm sure it didn't matter to you

Diana - 12:52:41 pm

I have some of the cash

Diana - 12:52:51 pm

I'll sort it

Diana - 12:53:01 pm

I always do somehow :)

Diana - 12:53:04 pm

I did however forget an umbrella and I will be out in the city for the next few hours. Cold and flu here we come :)

Me - 12:54:08 pm

Just finished at the gym. Heading home. Got my first massage booking haha. 1pm

Me - 12:54:12 pm

Monday

Diana - 12:53:04 pm

That's great

Diana - 12:54:43 pm

Fat?

Diana - 12:54:46 pm

;)

Me - 12:54:49 pm

Trainer

Me - 12:54:58 pm

New one. Muscly

Me - 12:55:01 pm

:)

Me - 12:55:18 pm

Let's talk about the deposit tomorrow!

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

Good practice

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

What's to talk about?

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

We already discussed money between us

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

It's a no go zone

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

There's a boxer on the website who wants to meet

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

He looks a little scary

Diana - 12:56:50 pm

Let's discuss that tomorrow

Me - 12:57:18 pm

Sure. :))

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

It's exciting. It's the right school.

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

Did you enter my score???

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

What did holly get??

Diana - 12:59:18 pm

If you were rich Id have you as my sugar daddy for sure ;))

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

But then you could have anyone cause you'd be rich so I'm sure I'd be at the end of the list

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

Let me know how I went??

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

Ok I'm going to lunch

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

I'm starving!!

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

Boxer man emailed me and asked me what I want? Can you help me with a reply?

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

Later, whenever

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

Ok good

Me - 1:20:24 pm

Just got home. Been doing the rounds at work talking up massage next week.

Me - 1:21:55 pm

The manager was in, so he took the form off me and said he'd enter it. I couldn't see what Becca had done. Maybe Becca hasn't done it yet

Me - 1:32:31 pm

Ok. More sugar daddy stuff. Sigh :)) We can discuss this tomorrow and Saturday and Sunday (hmmm. Lots of time together it looks like. Great!). I can help you out with no touching involved at all. (I know what you'll say, no need to say it again). The reply for the boxer? My recommendation is silence. Let's talk tomorrow. There's no hurry, these guys are desperate for anything female. Sigh! I really don't get it, it's gone from a joke to almost real. But that's for tomorrow and other days.

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

So consider it in the cone of silence category

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

Ok

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

I'm not going to talk to you about the sugar stuff anymore

Me - 2:33:18 pm

When I suggested silence that was with the internet guys, not me.

Me - 2:33:27 pm

Work soon I guess?

Me - 3:29:59 pm

So, then, you been rained on?

Diana - 3:28:48 pm

I just got to work

Diana - 3:28:48 pm

My phone died

Diana - 3:30:18 pm

Not rained on :)

Diana - 3:30:40 pm

Of course the walk back to the car at the end of the shift will be interesting

Diana - 3:30:50 pm

And I must remember to buy milk

Me - 3:31:01 pm

Real milk?

Me - 3:31:34 pm

I'll remind you. Finished at 7:30 as usual?

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

Yep

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

I am exhausted

Me - 3:32:04 pm

Tough day. But a good one, it seems

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

I'll do the conference call then get some caffeine and sugar

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

Mummies little helper ;)

Diana - 3:32:55 pm

Yep

I just caught up with my friend nick. I've know him since I was about 17, he used to mix and record our band

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

Now it's time to enter the serious world ;)

Me - 3:33:21 pm

Unfortunately :))

Me - 3:33:50 pm

Just 4 hours. Smash it!

Diana - 3:39:28 pm

We just went to the ngv, the gaultier exhibition was opening, I'm going to try to get to it

Diana - 3:39:28 pm

Yea just 4 hours then no work for over a week

Diana - 3:39:28 pm

Don't know whether to laugh or cry ;)

Diana - 3:45:12 pm

I just got told to buy new clothes

Diana - 3:45:19 pm

That the ones I have are falling off me

Diana - 3:45:43 pm

I might leave before you tomorrow and go to the salvos near the gym in camberwell!

Me - 3:45:53 pm

That's good right?

Me - 3:46:12 pm

Ok.

Me - 3:46:30 pm

Aren't we going up together?

Diana - 3:46:59 pm

Yes I mean I'll leave 20 minutes before you finish your workout

Diana - 3:47:19 pm

It's good, but I don't have money to buy new clothes, especially if I'm going to try to drop more weight

Diana - 3:47:30 pm

Op shop is good middle ground maybe

Diana - 3:49:01 pm

Shame I can't go to the gaultier exhibition and swipe some stuff ;)

Me - 3:51:17 pm

Want to go together? If that's logistically possible. I haven't done that sort if thing for ages. I used to go to the gallery all the time (on my own), when we had that place in south bank. Having parking made it easy.

Diana - 3:51:54 pm

Yes sure

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

I usually do the arts centre before work cause I'm here anyway, of course I have no pay for parking like other normal people

Me - 3:53:08 pm

I used to drop in and see the impressionists for a short while, to refuel the soul ;))

Me - 3:55:34 pm

We're going to allieviate the money stuff. But not remove it entirely. But no more on that now.

Me - 3:55:54 pm

Thinking I might go for a run. Haven't been for a week.

Diana - 3:56:29 pm

Do it, it's very cold though

Me - 3:56:34 pm

Donna was really appreciative today

Diana - 3:56:32 pm

If you're a bit run down mightne be a good idea

Diana - 3:56:32 pm

That's good

Me - 3:56:47 pm

I'm in an awesome mood :)))))

Diana - 3:56:32 pm

You like appreciative women ;)

Diana - 3:56:32 pm

Conference call time

Me - 3:56:56 pm

Ok

Me - 3:57:00 pm

Enjoy! Haha

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

Have you seen the space walk vision from today?

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

It's quite cool

Me - 4:34:09 pm

No. Been working, paying bills. Boring stuff

Me - 4:34:19 pm

Is it on the web site?

Me - 4:34:30 pm

I read the news item this morning

Me - 4:34:42 pm

2 mins to spare or something

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

Haven't read it yet

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

Just saw the vision

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

It's coffee time

Me - 4:41:35 pm

It's ALWAYS coffee time haha

Me - 4:42:56 pm

Which reminds me. It's been 20 minutes :) Time for another one

Diana - 4:44:00 pm

And again I was offered pastries

Diana - 4:48:25 pm

I bought a but bar instead

Diana - 4:48:31 pm

Prob the same amount of calories

Diana - 4:48:37 pm

Should have gone for the pastry!

Me - 4:50:32 pm

A but bar? Hmmm. Nut I assume. No seeds?

Diana - 4:53:16 pm

Ha! Yes nut

Me - 4:53:19 pm

You're busy with kids tomorrow night, aren't you? My understanding was that you were.

Diana - 4:53:27 pm

I didn't have time to bring anything in

Diana - 4:53:54 pm

Yes I even have an extra child tomorrow night

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

What do you think is happening with Michael and holly... I was on the money Huh?

Me - 4:54:26 pm

Could well be, I reckon

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

Daniel forgot his client Wednesday too, she came and told me, it's not good

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

She goes to him 3xweek

Me - 4:54:55 pm

Strange timing for the two to be away, if not

Diana - 4:55:26 pm

Hopefully they're sorting stuff out

Diana - 4:55:41 pm

And they haven't shat in their own backyard

Me - 4:55:42 pm

More practice I mean.

Diana - 4:55:55 pm

Weighing and measuring macros

Diana - 4:56:07 pm

You need to get onto that

Me - 4:56:15 pm

They've been friends for a long time

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

None of this one pan cooking nonsense ;)

Me - 4:56:35 pm

I pan is all I do now

Me - 4:56:42 pm

No washing up

Me - 4:56:58 pm

Maybe 2, with company :))

Diana - 4:57:35 pm

Then you'll have to make some kind of stew with the right macros?

Diana - 4:57:41 pm

Per serve

Diana - 4:57:56 pm

Bodybuilding.com has good ones

Diana - 4:58:05 pm

Yours would be different from mine though

Diana - 4:58:10 pm

Hence the 2 pans :)

Me - 4:58:50 pm

What does "shat in backyard" mean. In English :)

Diana - 5:00:02 pm

You know, you don't shit in your own backyard

Diana - 5:00:15 pm

People always say that about work etc and relationships

Diana - 5:00:28 pm

though I've had a couple here and we all get along really well

Me - 5:02:48 pm

They're both on the rebound (and recently), and are great friends. I guess it maybe hard to not "console" each other. Regardless of consequence. And if Hollie's husband is still at home, then going away (if they've done that) is the only way.

Diana - 5:02:40 pm

In my experience consoling is best done with the same sex

Diana - 5:02:40 pm

Grief, mixed with attraction, tut tut tut

Me - 5:04:06 pm

Well, they're not as wise and experienced as you I guess. :))

Diana - 5:04:12 pm

Anyway I hope they are better than ok. And thus life knocks us around and that's how it's supposed to be

Diana - 5:04:23 pm

Sarcometer mark Sarcometer

Diana - 5:04:36 pm

I'm starting to think you're harbouring resentment

Me - 5:04:53 pm

Nope. I agree actually

Me - 5:05:13 pm

But can't resist a good opportunity for a sharp response haha

Me - 5:05:28 pm

I do that

Me - 5:05:32 pm

It's my thing

Me - 5:05:41 pm

And it's a bad thing

Me - 5:05:44 pm

:)

Diana - 5:06:30 pm

Well it's coy

Diana - 5:06:43 pm

And is a way of saying what you think without accepting responsibility for it

Diana - 5:06:56 pm

In that way it's bad yes

Diana - 5:06:56 pm

But we all do it

Me - 5:07:24 pm

Agree

Diana - 5:06:56 pm

I think you have stuff you want to say that don't say to me

Diana - 5:06:56 pm

Thus it comes out like such

Diana - 5:06:56 pm

It's cool

Diana - 5:06:56 pm

Arsehole ;)

Me - 5:07:50 pm

Haha

Me - 5:08:22 pm

I was going to make another sharp remark, but refrained. :))

Me - 5:08:45 pm

It was a good opening you gave me. But i was strong

Diana - 5:08:53 pm

Case in point even more so! Thanks for the refrain

Diana - 5:09:03 pm

And not so cleverly side swiping the real issue

Me - 5:09:28 pm

Damn!

Me - 5:09:44 pm

We've all got stuff that's hard to say

Me - 5:09:50 pm

Me too

Me - 5:09:57 pm

Not impossible

Me - 5:10:34 pm

But it's only been 10 weeks. Got to leave some stuff for the next 10 weeks

Me - 5:10:44 pm

It will all come out

Diana - 5:11:11 pm

You don't think it'll stop with the challenge?

Me - 5:11:14 pm

At the accelerated rate we're doing this

Me - 5:11:18 pm

No

Diana - 5:11:12 pm

We have to go to the dinner :)

Me - 5:12:01 pm

Ok. I thought clothes were an issue. I'd love to go. Go in a limo again

Me - 5:12:10 pm

Although I missed out last time

Me - 5:12:58 pm

Joking or for real about the dinner?

Me - 5:13:10 pm

Lots of Lcohol, apparently

Diana - 5:13:46 pm

I won't go in the limo

Diana - 5:13:49 pm

But you go

Diana - 5:13:59 pm

I will go if I end up in the top 10

Me - 5:14:36 pm

Ok. Deal. We'll get a taxi to and from. My treat if we go.

Diana - 5:14:44 pm

No way

Diana - 5:14:48 pm

You've trained the others

Diana - 5:14:52 pm

I don't know any of them

Diana - 5:14:58 pm

That's why I don't want to

Me - 5:15:02 pm

You're the only one

Diana - 5:15:05 pm

You have to youre a trainer

Diana - 5:15:13 pm

Bukkshit you run a group every Tuesday!

Me - 5:15:22 pm

None if my clients

Me - 5:15:31 pm

All trained by others

Me - 5:15:43 pm

I do it for nothing

Me - 5:15:53 pm

Not even a client fee

Me - 5:16:05 pm

And they're trainers don't help at all

Me - 5:16:12 pm

Their trainers

Me - 5:16:16 pm

Sigh

Me - 5:17:36 pm

Ash is supposed to help, but usually finds something to stop him coming.

Me - 5:18:28 pm

It's my frustration that they love the circuits I do, but they pay someone else.

Diana - 5:18:49 pm

That's insane mark

Diana - 5:18:55 pm

That's literally insane

Diana - 5:19:13 pm

He is a nice kid but he will take any short cut he can

Diana - 5:19:18 pm

From my observation

Diana - 5:19:44 pm

He made a mistake on Karen's deadlift pb and then in front of me pretended he did it on purpose. It was degolce

Diana - 5:19:44 pm

Disgusting

Me - 5:20:12 pm

That's not good

Me - 5:21:21 pm

I do that stuff for others because they get a lot out of it. It's great to see. But, yes, unsustainable.

Diana - 5:21:36 pm

That's even more reason for you to go with them

Diana - 5:21:46 pm

I'll come if I get in the top 10

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

I should have a dress that won't fall off somewhere in my mess of a room

Diana - 7:23:22 pm

My dad wants me to go to the movies tomorrow

Me - 7:23:53 pm

Ok. Are you going?

Diana - 7:24:28 pm

It depends on how Joel is, and what time we get back from gym

Diana - 7:25:03 pm

If Joel isn't so well I'll have to just go to the gym and put him in the crèche for an hour rather than day care all day

Diana - 7:25:14 pm

Sorry... Life with little kids

Me - 7:25:51 pm

Let me know when you know :) I'll fit in.

Me - 7:26:27 pm

Fully understand. We'll still get some time

Me - 7:27:25 pm

Windy Sunday

Diana - 7:27:44 pm

Windy?

Diana - 7:27:44 pm

Bugger last time I looked it was mild bortherlies

Me - 7:28:12 pm

North, should be ok

Diana - 7:27:44 pm

I don't mind if you go to camberwell without me

Me - 7:28:30 pm

I'm going where you're going :)

Diana - 7:28:34 pm

North is fine, that's why I thought it would be a good day to go

Diana - 7:29:09 pm

Really? Why?

Me - 7:29:19 pm

Just tell me in the morning. I have a 7:30am

Diana - 7:29:28 pm

I don't know whether to go heavy or so a circuit

Diana - 7:29:34 pm

Guess I'll see how I am in the morning

Diana - 7:29:42 pm

Don't want to go heavy incase it's a heavy wow

Me - 7:30:05 pm

Maybe 80% 1RM? Perhaps?

Me - 7:30:35 pm

I can set reps and sets for you

Me - 7:30:49 pm

Hard but not too taxing

Me - 7:31:04 pm

A work in not a work out :))

Diana - 7:33:05 pm

No no

Diana - 7:33:12 pm

You're not my coach tomorrow

Diana - 7:33:25 pm

We can both put in headphones and train

Me - 7:34:34 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:36:16 pm

Is that cool?

Diana - 7:36:16 pm

I mean is that want you want to do too?

Me - 7:37:38 pm

Yeah. It's easy. If we stay at the local gym I may already be underway when you arrive.

Diana - 7:38:04 pm

Would you prefer to just got to the local gym then?

Diana - 7:38:21 pm

I just don't want you to feel like you have to look after me

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

I mean it's nice having you around but so many people already take up your time I don't want to be yet another one of them

Me - 7:40:18 pm

No looking after. Gym buddies tomorrow. Car trip to Camberwell would be awesome but the local gym will be fine. Let's just see how easy it is for you in the morning. We've got Saturday Sunday as well, so it's all good.

Me - 7:40:24 pm

Driving now?

Diana - 7:42:40 pm

What's this about Saturday?

Diana - 7:42:40 pm

I have my kids

Diana - 7:42:40 pm

No getting milk

Me - 7:44:46 pm

Night. Right?

Me - 7:45:05 pm

You need milk, don't you

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

Yes I'm getting milk

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

I won't be free until after dinner Saturday evening you know that yeah!

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

?

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

And even though we aren't

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

Talking about it I'm going to need time to meet the sd

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

I'll try to make it while you're managing

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

Massaging ;))

Diana - 8:24:29 pm

Let's go to the local gym

Diana - 8:24:36 pm

You need to enter my adore

Diana - 8:24:36 pm

Score

Diana - 8:24:49 pm

And check Beccas

Me - 8:25:33 pm

Score already entered. But I might be able to check Becca's

Me - 8:26:04 pm

I'll be at the gym already. I'll stay after my 7:30

Diana - 8:30:22 pm

Ok I'm about to get Joel now I'll see how he is

Diana - 8:31:00 pm

I'll let them sleep in doesn't matter if they're late for school

Diana - 8:52:07 pm

Glass of wine time?

Me - 8:52:44 pm

Don't have any. Bedtime over, I guess :)

Diana - 8:55:12 pm

Yes it was pretty much a throw them into bed night

Diana - 8:55:31 pm

Imogen's in my bed

Me - 8:55:42 pm

Joel ok?

Diana - 8:55:53 pm

Joel slept with me last night

Diana - 8:55:59 pm

He has a cold and a runny nose

Diana - 8:56:08 pm

I'll see how he goes throughout the night

Me - 8:57:13 pm

No wine, but I have bread to slice and freeze! Wahoo!!

Me - 8:57:33 pm

Should I buy wine for Saturday?

Me - 8:57:46 pm

I probably should have some here anyway

Diana - 8:57:59 pm

What's happening Saturday???

Diana - 8:58:24 pm

It's going to be late by the time I get back

Diana - 8:58:29 pm

Then we have an early start

Me - 8:58:34 pm

Sorry. I thought you were coming over after dinner. No probs

Diana - 8:58:51 pm

Well late night visits?

Diana - 9:35:44 pm

I love how you don't reply to certain stuff

Diana - 9:35:44 pm

It's mildly petulant ;)

Me - 9:39:23 pm

Were you waiting? :)) Hard to reply to the above without sounding provocative. I was going to say that "you're always welcome here at any time, you know that". But then wondered if that might be a bit suggestive. Yes/No? It's true in any case.

Diana - 9:40:00 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:40:00 pm

Hard to reply

Diana - 9:40:00 pm

I get it

Me - 9:41:34 pm

What do you get?

Diana - 9:41:59 pm

That it's hard to reply

Diana - 9:42:08 pm

That it could have been a hole to fall into

Diana - 9:42:08 pm

But isn't that precisely why a late night visit is innaproporate?

Diana - 9:42:08 pm

If it can't even be spoken of!

Me - 9:44:14 pm

You suggested coming over on Saturday, remember? You were going to supervise dinner with wine in hand. I guess I missed the changed plans that it got to be too late.

Me - 9:46:19 pm

Would you like to come over on Saturday night?

Diana - 9:46:24 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 9:46:24 pm

It depends on the time!

Diana - 9:46:24 pm

Remember I said I have to settle the kids in?

Me - 9:47:11 pm

Yes

Diana - 9:46:24 pm

It depends on how they go

Me - 9:47:35 pm

Dinner? Or will you have eaten with the kids?

Diana - 9:46:24 pm

I know you go to bed early, and if I left there at 730-8 I wouldn't get to yours until 9 and I just thought...

Diana - 9:46:24 pm

See I don't know what the kids will want

Diana - 9:46:24 pm

You so often want definitive answers I can't give

Me - 9:48:08 pm

Making decisions for me?

Diana - 9:48:10 pm

You remember having kids this age??

Diana - 9:48:30 pm

Not really, just thinking why would I come over at 9pm?

Diana - 9:48:32 pm

You tell me?

Me - 9:51:04 pm

9 isn't too late for me, but it's up to you, of course. I'd like you to come but we can play it by ear on Saturday evening.

Diana - 9:50:40 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:50:40 pm

I can't believe you won't let me talk about the sugar daddy stuff!

Diana - 9:50:40 pm

Let's play it by ear

Me - 9:51:59 pm

Talk

Diana - 9:50:40 pm

It's just if I'm tired...

Diana - 9:50:40 pm

And sometimes I just need time to myself

Me - 9:52:23 pm

But I have strong opinions on the "sc"

Diana - 9:50:40 pm

You remember??

Diana - 9:50:40 pm

I know!!

Diana - 9:50:40 pm

So can I?

Me - 9:52:45 pm

When did I say otherwise

Me - 9:53:16 pm

Different opinions don't mean the other person can't also have them

Diana - 9:53:31 pm

One has contacted me for an arrangement, a few discreet meetings a month and an allowance. Another has asked me if I could be a travel buddy, which of course I can't. And another is a boxer who wants to meet

Diana - 9:53:47 pm

There are lots of married men who I am deleting

Diana - 9:53:54 pm

I can't go there

Me - 9:54:50 pm

Are you ready for my answer? You're going to get upset at me. But I guess that's what friends are for

Diana - 9:56:32 pm

Cmon then give it to me

Me - 9:56:48 pm

Firstly, are you serious?? This isn't just some thing to test me and my responses is it? To see if I'll actually sit by and let you do it.

Me - 9:57:00 pm

Or another sabotage thing?

Diana - 9:57:04 pm

No, I considered that and no

Diana - 9:57:04 pm

I don't know if I will go ahead with it

Diana - 9:57:30 pm

It's never even been like anything I would ever do before

Diana - 9:57:38 pm

It frightens me

Me - 9:57:42 pm

Stop let me talk

Diana - 9:57:47 pm

I spoke to Robyn about it today for about an hour

Diana - 9:57:50 pm

Ok sorry

Me - 10:01:21 pm

Given the last 10 weeks and what we know about each other, we know a lot of intimate stuff. Still more to go if course but more, I think, than normal friends. I think it's between friends and lovers, as you say. It's pretty intense. And everything you have told me about yourself is the opposite of this insane idea! Saying you're almost believing in yourself deserving of a real, loving relationship and family thing. If you really go ahead with this, and I can't believe you will, it will destroy you totally. You won't be able to live with yourself afterwards. Don't reply more to come...

Me - 10:04:49 pm

You say to a guy like me who genuinely has affection for you, as you do for me I know, that you can't think about touching without it making feel disgusted. And then you think about fucking random guys from the internet for money??! In what planet does that make sense? It's not you Diana. It never will be. It's fucking stupid. Delete the entry and don't reply!! More still...

Me - 10:08:42 pm

I can help you a bit and you say you won't even consider it because we're too close? Fuck! Isn't that what closeness means? Helping each other out at times the other really needs it? I can help pay for some of the extras, I would love to, no strings. And for the life of me I can't see how that's even 1% as bad as fucking some idiot a few times a month. Get a grip on yourself! Ok. Finished now. Go ahead.

Diana - 10:09:29 pm

I've got nothing

Diana - 10:09:52 pm

I'll talk to you in the morning and let you know how Joel is if that's cool

Me - 10:13:07 pm

Sleep on it. That's good. Know that it's a heartfelt response. I genuinely care what happens to you. You asked, I replied. Please don't be angry. It's what I think.

Diana - 10:13:26 pm

I'm not angry

Diana - 10:13:52 pm

Though I wonder if you could think about it without yourself and your emotions at the centre of it

Diana - 10:14:02 pm

Anyway I'll see you tomorrow

Me - 10:14:58 pm

Emotions are at the centre of everything. Can't be helped. Ok. See you tomorrow. Hope Imogen isn't a kicker or a turner-overer.

Diana - 10:14:08 pm

Is there anything else you want to say?

Me - 10:15:30 pm

No. That's probably enough. :))

Diana - 10:14:08 pm

Ok

Diana - 10:15:43 pm

See you tomorrow then

Me - 10:15:51 pm

See you

Diana - 10:20:32 pm

You know maybe asking me what is behind it and knowing enough about me to know it'd have more to do than just money would be a better way to go about it than yelling get a fucking grip

Me - 10:23:08 pm

Ok. What's behind it? I thought it was the money? Tell me

Diana - 10:22:40 pm

You see mark, you got back with your sugar mummy ex for more than 10 years, then whored yourself out to lonely single mums yet you have the audacity to tell me who I am and place moral judgement

Diana - 10:22:40 pm

You see my friends, the people who care and who aren't chasing their own egotistical agenda know me well enough to trust that there's something deeper going on.

Diana - 10:22:40 pm

You, don't even know how to see it let alone ask.

Diana - 10:22:40 pm

Just shut the fuck up

Diana - 10:22:40 pm

Get off your high horse

Diana - 10:22:40 pm

Because you have done what I am considering. In a sense we all have.

Me - 10:25:01 pm

Nothing like it!!

Diana - 10:25:21 pm

Like I said, shut the fuck up

Diana - 10:26:07 pm

Again you are taking what you think you know of what I'm feeling and considering and comparing it to yourself, your knowledge your experience which has no insight into mine

Diana - 10:26:10 pm

And for the record

Diana - 10:26:27 pm

All of my friendships have this level of intimacy

Diana - 10:26:33 pm

That's why I have so few

Diana - 10:26:56 pm

So please refrain from judging and try to turn it into curiosity to get the full picture of what I'm doing

Diana - 10:27:09 pm

Robyn said i shouldn't discuss this with you

Diana - 10:27:22 pm

I didn't want to believe it but she was right

Diana - 10:27:36 pm

It's time to sleep

Diana - 10:27:48 pm

Anything further will be nonsense

Diana - 10:27:55 pm

Goodnight

Me - 10:28:04 pm

Not going to tell me what's behind it then?

Diana - 10:28:34 pm

No. Im not. You claim to know me so well and didn't even think to ask.

Diana - 10:28:37 pm

I'm tired

Diana - 10:28:40 pm

Goodnight

Me - 10:28:49 pm

Night

Diana - 10:30:09 pm

I think I need some time to myself

Diana - 10:30:14 pm

Night

Me - 10:31:16 pm

Nope. You go, it's your thing. I'll stay away. Your name is on the ticket too.

**Friday 17 October**

Diana - 8:23:53 am

Hi Joel is ok, a runny nose but I think he will be ok to go to day care. I have to get a few things but I can do that here after the gym or in camberwell of you want to go there, I don't mind. I just need to clean up this afternoon.

Diana - 8:23:53 am

If you still want to train that is?

Me - 8:30:40 am

Just got home from the gym. I'm going to eat something. And last night? Please re-read what I said, no skimming and picking out words. I did ask if there was something else going on with all the sc stuff but, admittedly, did cut you off. I want to spend as much time with you as you can stand! At the gym or any where else.

Diana - 8:30:40 am

I really, don't ever want to talk with you about that stuff again. Ok?

Diana - 8:32:17 am

And if you've had an early morning maybe just staying there is easier. Whatever, you decide

Diana - 8:34:56 am

Did you see Beccas score?

Me - 8:36:57 am

No. The office was being used by one of the sales staff.

Me - 8:39:29 am

I don't feel like going back to the gym today, it looks like a beautiful day coming up. I might go to the beach or maybe try and play golf.

Diana - 8:41:20 am

Ok no worries

Diana - 8:47:44 am

Have a good day then

Diana - 9:06:56 am

Just so you know, I've taken on what you've said. It was somewhat aggressive and loaded though with what I'm not sure. I need time to process what you wrote and asses what I'm doing. I understand you don't want to hang out, that's your choice. Anyway I needed to say that and will now leave you to your day.

Me - 9:15:30 am

My affection for you Diana has not changed. But we need to be able to talk about all the big things. I want to hang out with you, but not at the gym, today only because of last night, because I know that time is special to you. Am I making decisions for you again? I don't think so, I'd love to see you but not at the gym. I'm glad you're thinking about this stuff. I want to be involved in your life so let me know your thought processes.

Me - 9:16:44 am

That sounds very clinical. On second reading. Sorry.

Me - 9:16:56 am

It's not meant that way

Me - 9:18:37 am

I still haven't decided what I'm doing today. I'm sitting drinking coffee in the (cold) sun.

Diana - 9:18:51 am

I need to go and lift

Diana - 9:19:08 am

That sounds ridiculous

Me - 9:19:09 am

Do it!

Diana - 9:19:11 am

But I need to

Me - 9:21:34 am

I could come to gym. Am I indecisive? Hmmm. I could play golf this arvo. We couldn't talk, because it's the gym, but we could train together. Would that feel odd?

Diana - 9:22:26 am

Yes

Diana - 9:22:29 am

You're right

Diana - 9:22:36 am

The gym isn't the best place for us today

Diana - 9:22:47 am

Maybe the drive to camberwell would have worked

Diana - 9:22:51 am

It's doesn't matter

Diana - 9:23:10 am

I'll do the gym and you decide what you need to do

Diana - 9:23:21 am

Sounds like gold is a good idea

Diana - 9:23:30 am

Golf too :)

Me - 9:23:41 am

:)

Diana - 9:31:51 am

110 here I come :)

Me - 9:32:14 am

Good luck!

Diana - 9:32:14 am

I'll tell you first!

Diana - 9:32:18 am

If I can ;)

Me - 9:32:24 am

Thanks

Diana - 9:34:40 am

I don't know if today is the fay, I feel a little off but you never know until you start lifting do you? It's interesting like that

Me - 9:35:42 am

The warm up sets tell you everything you need to know. :))

Me - 9:36:18 am

I hope you can do it. Keep your back straight. :)

Diana - 9:36:48 am

ok coach ;)

Diana - 9:36:48 am

Enjoy your coffee in the sun!

Me - 9:37:21 am

2nd now :))

Me - 9:37:46 am

When are you going in to the gym?

Diana - 9:38:47 am

I just pulled up

Diana - 9:38:53 am

I got the sup email

Diana - 9:38:56 am

I'll put the cash in your account or would you prefer cash?

Me - 9:43:22 am

I'd prefer nothing, if that was a third option :)) Don't pay, something will come up that you can pay for later on.

Me - 9:43:46 am

NGV maybe??

Diana - 9:45:20 am

Oh money is going to be an issue for us we need to sort!

Diana - 9:45:20 am

I just spoke to Bec she speaks very highly of you

Diana - 9:45:20 am

You should know that :)

Me - 9:47:07 am

That's nice. It's great to be appreciated. Thanks for telling me.

Me - 9:47:34 am

And yes, money is high on the discussion list :))

Diana - 9:50:27 am

She says best trainer she's seen here in 7 years!!

Diana - 9:50:33 am

Ok I better shut up and warm up

Diana - 9:50:38 am

You can borrow that line ;)

Me - 9:56:31 am

Copyright? Thanks :)

Me - 9:57:11 am

Go for it! (If it feels right haha)

Diana - 10:20:09 am

I've got to 105 and I don't think I can go any heavier

Me - 10:21:06 am

105 is awesome!! How many sets of 1 rep?

Diana - 10:21:28 am

Just one

Diana - 10:21:33 am

I've put 110 on

Diana - 10:21:36 am

I don't think I'll get it though

Me - 10:21:49 am

Have a go

Me - 10:22:16 am

Rule 1. The lift is complete before you start!

Diana - 10:22:15 am

Yea I'll have a go

Me - 10:22:25 am

Confidence is heaps!

Diana - 10:22:45 am

Haha!

Diana - 10:22:53 am

I don't know that my brain works like that

Me - 10:23:34 am

2 to 3 mins rest, but no more. You'll start to cool down.

Me - 10:23:42 am

Do it!

Diana - 10:26:22 am

Nope I can't get it up

Diana - 10:26:33 am

It's amazing, that extra 5 kilos

Me - 10:28:20 am

Ok. Rest for 2 to 3 mins. Go for 2 more sets of 1 rep at 100. Doing those will help get to 110 (or 107.5) next week. Just 100!!! No more

Me - 10:29:21 am

2 to 3 mins rest between those 2 sets

Diana - 10:40:48 am

I'm done

Diana - 10:40:48 am

Doing bench with dumbbells a bit of core then I'm out

Me - 10:41:17 am

Great!

Diana - 10:40:48 am

Becca is here doing her wow next to me, I feel like I should walk away

Me - 10:41:52 am

Surreptitiously time one set. Use the clock. Go on!

Me - 10:45:13 am

Time?

Diana - 10:52:06 am

I don't know

Diana - 10:52:14 am

I think 6 rounds at half time

Diana - 10:52:23 am

But she just let out a yelp

Diana - 11:06:24 am

Anyway I'm done

Diana - 11:06:24 am

She has gone to enter the score

Diana - 11:14:56 am

How many rounds did I get?

Me - 11:15:43 am

10 rounds plus 5 reps. 395 total

Diana - 11:14:56 am

So a drifting to the maths Becca did about 468!!!

Diana - 11:14:56 am

That's so fucked

Me - 11:16:27 am

That's bulkshit.

Diana - 11:14:56 am

I'm seriously pulling out if that's the case

Diana - 11:14:56 am

I'm not kidding

Diana - 11:14:56 am

They can fuck themselves

Me - 11:16:43 am

With a note!

Me - 11:16:52 am

A reason why.

Diana - 11:16:59 am

And if management don't care then fuck this club

Diana - 11:17:04 am

The Asian trainer, the nice older one said my back was a little curves on my second last lift just during the lift part

Diana - 11:17:04 am

I'm going to have to use a mirror maybe next time

Me - 11:19:23 am

I have an app I used to use on the iPad. Can draw lines etc on a video

Me - 11:19:39 am

Let's do that during the warm up net time

Diana - 11:19:12 am

I don't need an app I just need to see my form

Diana - 11:19:12 am

Argh I'm so pissed off

Me - 11:20:07 am

You can see the video!

Me - 11:20:25 am

In slow mo. Perfect for form analysis of deads

Me - 11:20:47 am

We'll do that next time

Diana - 11:21:23 am

Whatever

Diana - 11:21:26 am

I need coffee

Diana - 11:21:36 am

Fuck this shit

Diana - 11:24:10 am

This is a fucked club

Diana - 11:24:45 am

Even the fucking carpet is shit

Me - 11:24:50 am

I think it's these gyms

Diana - 11:25:12 am

I don't

Diana - 11:25:36 am

The trainers have affairs don't show up for their clients and fucking cheat in wows, and that's just the ones who have read the fucking rules

Diana - 11:26:06 am

The others don't even give enough of a fuck to cheat

Diana - 11:26:40 am

I'm managing kids work and real life and fucking up my gym time to do these stupid fucking wows

Diana - 11:26:43 am

For what?

Diana - 11:26:49 am

I'm obviously the dick head

Diana - 11:27:05 am

And you don't think it's worth saying anything?

Me - 11:27:16 am

I didn't say that

Me - 11:27:29 am

I said it probably won't make a difference

Diana - 11:27:44 am

Well you wouldn't say anything. Not peace keeper mark

Diana - 11:27:44 am

I'll fucking say something

Me - 11:28:29 am

Ok. On Monday?

Diana - 11:28:58 am

Don't jump on the band wagon cause I'm on it

Me - 11:28:59 am

I'll say something to the manager on Monday.

Diana - 11:29:03 am

I will handle it on my own

Me - 11:29:20 am

I'm trying to help

Diana - 11:29:28 am

Don't

Diana - 11:29:33 am

I don't want it or need it

Diana - 11:29:52 am

Fuck you should be caring about the integrity of the club you work at

Diana - 11:29:52 am

not doing it out of 'helping' me

Diana - 11:29:52 am

Go play golf

Me - 11:33:00 am

Again, you're lashing out at the person who cares not at those who are causing your anger. I'm getting sick if being sworn at.

Diana - 11:33:42 am

Fair enough

Diana - 11:33:47 am

I'll stop texting

Diana - 11:34:08 am

But I am angry at you

Diana - 11:35:08 am

You say you want to spend time together then on the one day I have with no kids you don't even ask if I want to have coffee

Diana - 11:35:13 am

And email me the sup tickets

Diana - 11:35:23 am

Talk about a mixed message

Diana - 11:35:25 am

It's exhausting

Diana - 11:35:31 am

And it makes me angry

Diana - 11:35:39 am

Please don't say come over noe

Diana - 11:35:41 am

Now

Diana - 11:36:04 am

Or that there's an open invitation cause open invitations are lazy and ridiculous

Diana - 11:36:16 am

So yea I'm angry at you

Diana - 11:36:16 am

and I'll try not to swear

Me - 11:36:54 am

Bullshit! Last night you specifically said you wanted time alone. I can only go on the words you've written.

Diana - 11:36:16 am

Yep I said sunday I want time alone

Diana - 11:36:16 am

This morning I asked to train and you said you didn't want to

Diana - 11:37:27 am

So it's not bullshit mark

Diana - 11:37:33 am

and now look who's swearing

Me - 11:43:26 am

We talked about this first thing. We agreed the gym wasn't the best place today. And yes,open invitation is lazy but it respects the dynamic of your life. I accept your anger, it's nearly all justified. But this is tough for me too, although not as stressful as it is for you. I get that, or try as hard as I can to get it.

Diana - 11:44:48 am

It doesn't respect me at all

Diana - 11:44:48 am

And the gym wasn't the place but I left the gym an hour ago

Diana - 11:44:48 am

Whatever Mark

Diana - 11:44:48 am

This is too tiring

Diana - 11:44:48 am

We were supposed to drive to camberwell

Diana - 11:44:48 am

That would have given us the time we needed before training

Diana - 11:44:48 am

You pulled out not me

Diana - 11:44:48 am

So ffs own it

Diana - 11:46:44 am

And stop making out you're trying to be respectful of me

Diana - 11:46:56 am

You've completely deflected and accepted no responsibility

Diana - 11:46:56 am

I really can't stand that

Me - 11:47:17 am

Ok. I did say your anger was justified

Diana - 11:46:56 am

Wow is that your feeble attempt at accepting some of the responsibility?

Diana - 11:46:56 am

You really don't like owning your shit do you

Diana - 11:46:56 am

It might be best we have a break from eachother

Diana - 11:46:56 am

I don't want to go sunday

Diana - 11:46:56 am

Keep the tickets transfer them and give them to some one else

Diana - 11:46:56 am

I'm sure someone would enjoy it with a friend

Diana - 11:48:51 am

Please don't ever tell me you would like to spend time with me

Diana - 11:49:04 am

It's really a load of bullshit

Me - 11:58:56 am

It's not bullshit. I can't understand how one refusal can mean that. Accepting responsibility? I thought I was, although I say and do the wrong thing at the wrong tkme at every turn. I'm constantly trying to please you, I think I am, but it turns out that I'm annoying you with every action and every non action. I'm hopeless at this, I get it.

Diana - 12:00:30 pm

Well that must feel shit

Diana - 12:00:49 pm

Why didn't you go to camberwell with me?

Diana - 12:03:58 pm

And why didn't you ask me for coffee after the gym so we could actually talk instead of this mind numbing and frustrating texting

Me - 12:04:01 pm

Because I, again, made a decision for you. I fucked up. I assumed after last night that you hated me and would prefer to not spend time with me. Even though you offered a again this morning. I keep trying to anticipate a smooth path and fuck it up every rkme. I need to learn to stop doing that. I can, I hope. I know it's annoying. And, it's dishonest.

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

it's control freak stuff

Diana - 12:05:14 pm

That's why I specifically said I've taken on what you said but I'd prefer not to talk about it. To let you know. Then I specifically offered to train. Jesus what more can I do.

Me - 12:05:15 pm

Yes. Probably, but not specifically to my advantage. As this all shows

Diana - 12:05:36 pm

It's so upsetting

Me - 12:05:44 pm

I know. I fucked it up again

Diana - 12:05:51 pm

And it's so conflicting

Diana - 12:05:58 pm

I don't know what I'm doing

Diana - 12:06:08 pm

Like im spinning in circles and can't stop

Diana - 12:06:08 pm

And so you tell me about how you're having your second coffee in the sun

Diana - 12:06:08 pm

And specifically not inviting me

Diana - 12:06:08 pm

You're a real head fuck mark

Diana - 12:06:08 pm

Sorry but I'm swearing again

Me - 12:08:04 pm

I know. I wish I was better at all this. I really do. The intent is always good, the execution is always crap.

Me - 12:08:35 pm

I haven't felt like this for someone for 30 years. It's a bit overwhelming for me too

Me - 12:08:58 pm

Trying to not stuff things up, causes then to be stuffed up!

Me - 12:09:50 pm

I need to leRn to trust and let go and let stuff happen.

Me - 12:11:17 pm

I've had a sheltered emotional life for so long, this is tough for me. I know yours is tougher. And that's why I keep trying to control, to shelter you, but it does the complete opposite.

Me - 12:12:06 pm

And then my attempted recoveries just perpetuate the problem I caused in the first place.

Diana - 12:12:20 pm

Do you think it would be good for us to have a break for a bit

Diana - 12:12:29 pm

Take some of the intensity out?

Me - 12:13:17 pm

No. But I think texting the whole relationship is getting way out if hand.

Me - 12:13:46 pm

I'd miss the texting, I look forward to it so much

Diana - 12:14:26 pm

I wanted to talk. Then train. That's what I wanted this morning. I feel so upset I wanted to speak with you about it. I feel like bursting into tears. Instead you shut me out and now I'm struggling to not want to run.

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

I think I need to have a good cry and let it out

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

And it's ok, you were looking after yourself in not saying it to make you feel bad

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

I'm just letting you know where I'm at

Me - 12:16:18 pm

Inside me, I desperately want to make your life easier and happier. But I seem to be doing the exact opposite. It's killing me!

Me - 12:17:25 pm

I didn't sleep for minute last night. I was so worried about what happened.

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

Nothing happened

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

You spoke your mind is all

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

I told you I was thinking about what you said

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

I'm not a baby mark

Diana - 12:18:41 pm

And this is why we needed to drive to camberwell

Me - 12:19:24 pm

Yes, you're right.

Diana - 12:25:00 pm

What do we do?

Diana - 12:25:08 pm

Are you going to play golf?

Diana - 12:25:15 pm

I think it'd be good for you

Me - 12:34:02 pm

Yeah, I'll go to the range later. I want to be with you Diana, not carrying on a text-only relationship. That's getting out of hand. I want us to have fun together, part of that can be by text. Also, there is, at least, one real positive from all this angst and that is it hasn't made me change how I feel. Before you, I would have thought it would, but no, I still want to be around you. This is special for me.

Diana - 12:37:31 pm

Well then start inviting me over for coffee

Diana - 12:37:42 pm

I need a cry.

Diana - 12:37:54 pm

I'm so overwhelmed

Me - 12:37:59 pm

Start now. It's cold here but sunny

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

I don't want to cry in front of you. Let's leave it for today ok?

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

I'm all twisted and contorted and confused about everything

Me - 12:38:57 pm

Please?

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

Yoga sugar daddy stuff you

Me - 12:39:02 pm

Talk is best

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

What the fuck I am going to do

Me - 12:39:25 pm

Do you want me to come and pick you up?

Me - 12:39:39 pm

Get out of the house

Me - 12:39:47 pm

Let's go

Diana - 12:40:02 pm

I'm supposed to be cleaning

Me - 12:40:07 pm

We can talk this through

Diana - 12:40:10 pm

And you're going to the range remember

Me - 12:40:17 pm

I'm on my way

Diana - 12:42:24 pm

What are we going to do?

Me - 12:43:31 pm

Talk

Me - 12:43:42 pm

Too late. Driving...

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

Is it too early for wine?

Diana - 2:45:16 pm

Poor Joel he has just fallen asleep! I'm going to have to wake him to go get the girls!

Me - 2:45:26 pm

Ha! On your own, perhaps :)

Me - 2:46:00 pm

Do you want me to come over while you get the girls?

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

No you have dinner to prepare. I'll ask Karen to pick them up, she will have to be late

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

If I ask another parent their kid will want to stay too!

Me - 2:47:12 pm

Ok. Mexican? Prepare? Ha. Nothing to do haha

Me - 2:48:23 pm

Good idea getting Karen

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

Thanks though. I don't know how Joel would handle it either, should he wake. He's only met you once

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

God I want wine and pills!

Me - 2:48:24 pm

I know. Not yet. But a few more vista and that sort if thing becomes possible

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

If you do the circuit tomorrow you could ask holly Beccas score?????

Me - 2:48:24 pm

Visits

Me - 2:48:44 pm

If I do. I need to start running more

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

What do you mean?

Me - 2:49:34 pm

I need to be a better runner, I think.

Me - 2:49:45 pm

But I could go anyway and ask her

Me - 2:49:56 pm

Consider it done

Me - 2:50:07 pm

If Hollie is there

Diana - 2:50:08 pm

What are you talking about???????

Diana - 2:50:13 pm

Oh ok!

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

If you do what do you need to start running more?

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

Hanging out with my kids?

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

Ok completely seperate thoughts

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

In one text

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

I've sorted it ;)

Me - 2:51:28 pm

Ok

Me - 2:51:39 pm

Cool.

Me - 2:51:53 pm

How long before the horde arrives?

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

Yes I need to run more too, once wows are done

Diana - 2:52:13 pm

330 now cause Karen has to go

Diana - 2:52:30 pm

It was going to be 430 but I think waking up Joel and taking him out of the house is a bad idea

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

I'll order pizza for them

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

And try not to eat any

Me - 2:53:39 pm

Yep. They don't need you to play with them do they?

Me - 2:53:40 pm

Sit back and let it happen around you :))

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

The gala dinner details are out

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

It's expensive! Not for me I guess

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

No they don't

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

They're fine

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

Maybe I'll make pasta, I'll see what they want

Me - 2:54:39 pm

Do you want me to come back? I could stay until 5:30 ish

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

No it's cool. Thanks though

Me - 2:55:17 pm

Ok

Me - 2:56:07 pm

These times, in the future, are perhaps good opportunities for us. You bring your own friend over too :))

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

I wonder if you've really thought it through, being around young kids again? Anyway that's for in person aswell

Me - 2:56:43 pm

In person

Diana - 2:56:44 pm

What will I do if they have another running wow?

Diana - 2:56:46 pm

Oh man

Me - 2:56:47 pm

And yes I have

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

I've got to finish in the top 10!

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

Just cause!!

Me - 2:57:36 pm

Stop it! That's why you need me!! You're already thinking 2 weeks ahead and you've just got to get through tonight first

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

Top 10 and club champion!!!

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

I need Beccas score that's what I need! ;)

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

I'm quite the animal really aren't i?

Me - 2:58:50 pm

Ok. Enough texting now. If you keep texting I'm driving over there ;))

Me - 2:59:38 pm

Texting just this minute I mean

Diana - 2:59:55 pm

You can't come over

Diana - 2:59:57 pm

Kids and kids friends

Me - 3:00:02 pm

I know

Diana - 3:00:02 pm

It's not time

Diana - 3:00:06 pm

I'm hungry

Diana - 3:02:23 pm

I have no butter

Diana - 3:02:39 pm

My life is completely unmanageable!

Diana - 3:02:50 pm

I wonder if Michael will be there tomorrow?

Me - 3:02:56 pm

I can help fix it

Me - 3:03:12 pm

Little things make a big difference

Me - 3:03:24 pm

I wonder about Michael too

Diana - 3:04:14 pm

I'll ask Karen see if she has time

Diana - 3:04:23 pm

Kind of a disappearing act Huh?

Me - 3:09:11 pm

Yeah. I can't help just yet but it's A work in progress. I will be able to

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

What is?

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

Be able to what?

Me - 3:10:50 pm

Help you out. Are we at cross purposes again? :))

Me - 3:11:06 pm

Imesaage is reLly slow at my end. Takes ages to deliver a text

Me - 3:11:54 pm

I think that causes us to be talking about difdernt things at times

Diana - 3:12:50 pm

Oh ok I get it

Diana - 3:13:52 pm

Have you heard of the compound in tuerong?

Me - 3:14:34 pm

No idea

Diana - 3:13:52 pm

Have a look, it's an obstacle course

Diana - 3:13:52 pm

You and me could do it on Saturday

Diana - 3:15:23 pm

It's not as far to go and it's only $20

Me - 3:15:32 pm

Ok. I'll look

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

It looks like it'd be lots of fun

Me - 3:16:13 pm

Cool

Me - 3:16:51 pm

No electric wires? :))

Me - 3:17:01 pm

That text took a minute to send Sigh

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

http://thecompoundtraining.com.au

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

No

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

And you just go around them

Me - 3:17:13 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:17:41 pm

I just got a ticket to the dinner. The least the club can do is feed me after all this effort

Diana - 3:17:45 pm

It is on a work night though :/

Me - 3:18:50 pm

I think alcohol is extra :)

Diana - 3:18:08 pm

Not when you take your hip flask

Me - 3:20:05 pm

Sly!

Diana - 3:22:24 pm

I better coffee up before the troops hit

Me - 3:24:16 pm

That soy coffee was great. I might open the packet I've been saving for you. And buy more

Diana - 3:40:29 pm

Haha!

Diana - 3:40:33 pm

Yes you do that!

Diana - 3:40:41 pm

Your soy is much nicer than mine

Diana - 3:40:49 pm

I go for the low calorie option though

Diana - 3:40:52 pm

You don't need to

Diana - 3:43:22 pm

Becca just friended me on fb

Diana - 3:43:33 pm

What's the saying? Keep your friends close but your enemies closer???

Me - 3:44:23 pm

:))

Me - 3:45:02 pm

She hasn't friended me

Me - 3:45:49 pm

But I'm probably different

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Yea dad germs

Diana - 3:54:01 pm

It really may be a case of keeping the enemy closet

Diana - 3:54:02 pm

Closer

Diana - 3:54:14 pm

Yay for me hanging more washing out

Me - 3:57:04 pm

At least you can leave it on the line for a few days :))

Me - 3:57:19 pm

Great weekend coming up. Except maybe Sunday pm

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

I just deleted my profile

Me - 4:01:21 pm

:)))))))))

Me - 4:02:57 pm

I'm so glad.

Me - 4:04:22 pm

Between us we can tackle problems. And find solutions.

Diana - 4:04:41 pm

You talk like we are already in a relationship

Me - 4:07:27 pm

It's not there yet, that's right.

Me - 4:07:56 pm

Let's not pursue this by text eh?

Diana - 4:08:36 pm

Eh?

Diana - 4:08:40 pm

Ok :)

Diana - 4:08:46 pm

Then stop talking like that :p

Me - 4:09:28 pm

Haha Good point! Point taken.

Me - 4:28:57 pm

How's the mayhem?

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

It's not as easy as I thought

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

But manageable

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

Poor Joel just woke

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

I'm lying with him again

Me - 4:32:27 pm

It's a horrible feeling of helplessness when young kids are sick.

Diana - 4:38:36 pm

All you can do is lie with them and tell them you love them really

Diana - 4:38:45 pm

And Panadol and icypoles

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

How is it we have been to the moon yet still not developed a calorie free chocolate

Me - 4:56:35 pm

Some things in life are just unknowable :)

Me - 4:57:14 pm

Ordered pizza for everyone?

Me - 4:58:29 pm

I'm reading a paper on the effects of protein supplements

Me - 4:58:43 pm

I'll let you know :)

Diana - 5:00:32 pm

Joel is in bed watching scooby Doo

Diana - 5:00:32 pm

I'm about to cook pasta for the girls, they want that not pizza

Me - 5:01:20 pm

They love watching the same thing over again, don't they.

Me - 5:01:38 pm

Is Joel any better?

Me - 5:02:11 pm

Does he have an appetite?

Diana - 5:02:47 pm

No he doesn't want donner

Diana - 5:02:49 pm

Dinner

Diana - 5:02:59 pm

I'll see if he wants some ice cream later though

Diana - 5:03:10 pm

He is ok, doesn't want to get out of bed

Diana - 5:03:15 pm

He has good instincts on self care

Diana - 5:12:23 pm

I need to start myfitnesspal again. My food has been so bad I think I'm back up to 57 atleast :(

Diana - 5:12:27 pm

Argh stress

Diana - 5:12:33 pm

I will start tomorrow

Me - 6:07:30 pm

Surviving?

Diana - 6:28:00 pm

Yep dinner and ice cream has been had

Diana - 6:28:00 pm

Girls are now in bubble bath

Me - 7:30:44 pm

Tacos are messy! She's doing the 7am circuit tomorrow with Becca and I've asked her get her wow score and text me, in case Hollie isn't there tomorrow.

Me - 7:31:17 pm

Is it late bedtime at your place tonight?

Diana - 7:31:45 pm

Oh no! You've got your daughter in on the act!!!

Me - 7:31:55 pm

Just asking her

Me - 7:32:07 pm

It's all good.

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

But Becca is her friend!!

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

They're watching the wiggles

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

Joel said his head is hurting so I gave him some more medicine

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

I'm working on an image

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

I need to clean up my computer it's too slow

Me - 7:35:03 pm

It's a Mac isn't it. They should be ok. Disk fragmentation is taken care of automatically

Me - 7:35:39 pm

Unless the disk is really full

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

These images are massive raw files

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

And there's thousands of them

Me - 7:42:29 pm

Raw, ok I get it. They're big. We can move those I guess. Do you have a time capsule or something for backups? If not, I can help you with that. It's what I used to do.

Diana - 7:43:08 pm

No just iBooks and hard drives

Diana - 7:43:19 pm

I need to clear the cache and get more ram

Diana - 7:43:34 pm

Wow all my old clone and patch and mask skills are coming back

Diana - 7:43:42 pm

And it's glass of wine no. 2!

Me - 7:44:49 pm

Glad you're doing photo stuff

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

I'm going to ask Robert for work I think

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

Yeah thanks :) it's a good outlet for me

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

Given I didn't beat my pb today ;)

Me - 7:47:18 pm

PB will be beaten. Probably 2 weeks. After the next wow.

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

Me after a wow

Me - 7:58:53 pm

What's the image you're working on

Me - 7:58:54 pm

Ok

Me - 7:58:59 pm

iMessage is sloooooow

Diana - 7:59:12 pm

No I'm just flicking through old stuff

Me - 7:59:32 pm

Don't delete! As you say you usually do :)

Me - 8:01:07 pm

More photos?

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Check out this trickster

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Delete button is getting a smashing!

Me - 8:01:51 pm

Pines?

Me - 8:02:13 pm

You or someone else surfing?

Diana - 8:01:40 pm

Look at this dude lying down

Diana - 8:01:52 pm

Yep

Diana - 8:01:52 pm

It's a good spot to shoot with the sun on the water

Diana - 8:01:52 pm

Well I took the shot

Diana - 8:01:52 pm

You figure it out :p

Me - 8:04:01 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

Oh dear

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

I have had too much wine again ;)

Me - 8:04:52 pm

Sparkles are amazing eh?

Me - 8:05:15 pm

How many bottles did you buy? Just 2 I thought.

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

Yes they are

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

Yes just two

Me - 8:05:38 pm

Must be nearly finished?

Me - 8:05:59 pm

Or just 2 half bottles drunk

Me - 8:07:30 pm

Bed time soon for the kids or do they get to stay up on Friday night?

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

No nearly bed time

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

Cause it's a special sleep over the girls can stay up

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

Joel is Going to bed

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

Don't know about the sleepover tomorrow

Diana - 8:10:34 pm

Will have to see how is he in the morning

Me - 8:10:35 pm

So he got out?

Me - 8:10:55 pm

Of bed

Diana - 8:12:11 pm

Yep he got out for ice cream

Me - 8:50:22 pm

Still git awake kids?

Diana - 8:53:04 pm

Argh they're all brave and want to watch scooby Doo until it's bedtime right?

Me - 8:54:11 pm

Scooby Doo is getting a lash today. :)

Me - 8:54:50 pm

How's the wine going?

Me - 8:56:19 pm

I'm watching Derek for the first time. Have you seen it?

Diana - 8:56:43 pm

Yes it's wonderful

Diana - 8:56:54 pm

I've not seen the second season yet

Me - 8:57:08 pm

I think this is it

Diana - 8:57:12 pm

I watched it when my nana was admitted to a nursing home

Diana - 8:57:20 pm

I'm having a candle lit bath

Diana - 8:57:20 pm

No more wine

Diana - 8:57:20 pm

I'm already affected. :)

Me - 8:57:54 pm

Awesome! You have lots of baths don't you

Diana - 8:59:04 pm

Yes I do :)

Me - 8:59:12 pm

I had a few during winter. First time for ages. Quite nice aren't they. Although not enough room really

Diana - 8:59:18 pm

They're good for a water person

Diana - 8:59:26 pm

Not enough room?

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

You're not that big!

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

The ones with the claw feet are awesome

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

I used to have outdoor baths on the farm

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

On mushrooms ;)

Me - 9:00:00 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

Why do you get me to do overhead squats

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

What's the point of them?

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

Wow this bath is hot!!

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

I think the wine misread the temp :)

Me - 9:01:29 pm

Derek is good. Second episode starting

Me - 9:01:55 pm

Overhead squats are supreme test of whole body mobility.

Me - 9:02:15 pm

Hot baths are the best. Just too hot, right?

Me - 9:02:21 pm

Not scalding

Diana - 9:01:36 pm

Just too hot

Diana - 9:01:36 pm

Derek is very moving

Diana - 9:03:26 pm

I remember it quite affecting me

Diana - 9:03:39 pm

You really dropped a bombshell today huh

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

Not that we are talking about it

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

Texting about it ;)

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

Yes derek is good

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

I'll go back to that ;)

Me - 9:04:17 pm

They're at he zoo

Me - 9:05:26 pm

Do you keep topping up the bath with hot water or are you, once it's cold you get out?

Diana - 9:07:58 pm

I don't even think I'm going to last until it cools down

Diana - 9:08:00 pm

I'm breaking a sweat!

Diana - 9:08:00 pm

It's just the girls are in the lounge and Joel is in my bed so where am I to go?

Diana - 9:08:00 pm

The front porch maybe

Me - 9:09:53 pm

To be on your own you mean?

Me - 9:10:12 pm

Derek is really good

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

No I mean there's no other room in the house to hang out

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

Yes it is

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

I thought we established that already :p

Me - 9:10:48 pm

You could watch scooby and the wiggles? :))

Me - 9:11:02 pm

Or mums not allowed?

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

No I've put them to sleep

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

It's after 9!

Diana - 9:12:25 pm

Hopefully Joel is well enough to go for a sleep over tomorrow otherwise I'll need to call and postpone our sup unless you want to go and I can go another time?

Me - 9:12:57 pm

Together

Diana - 9:13:42 pm

You have to go to the dinner you know that right???

Me - 9:14:21 pm

With you right?

Diana - 9:14:24 pm

With all of your clients :)

Diana - 9:14:47 pm

What's the 7am circuit tomorrow?

Diana - 9:15:04 pm

I'll help you network

Me - 9:15:07 pm

It's Nither transformation circuit

Diana - 9:15:26 pm

You did throw a bombshell out there today didn't you.

Diana - 9:15:28 pm

Oh ok

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

I've not been to one

Me - 9:15:40 pm

Same as what I do.

Diana - 9:15:42 pm

I should try to get to one though shouldn't i

Me - 9:15:48 pm

No

Diana - 9:15:54 pm

No?

Me - 9:16:17 pm

Too easy for you. And Saturday one has a lot of running

Diana - 9:16:32 pm

So isn't that why I should go???

Me - 9:16:55 pm

Yeah. But it's burpees and crap

Me - 9:16:58 pm

Usually

Diana - 9:16:59 pm

What if the last wow is running... I have a feeling... And I know it won't be a stronger wow

Me - 9:17:05 pm

I went to a few

Diana - 9:17:13 pm

They advertised this as the last one

Diana - 9:17:18 pm

Ok crap :)

Diana - 9:17:31 pm

It'd be hard to sort the kids for it abyway

Me - 9:17:53 pm

Yeah. Not worth he effort I think

Diana - 9:18:00 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:18:12 pm

Then why are your daughter and Becca doing it, they're fitter than me

Me - 9:18:23 pm

Social!

Me - 9:18:35 pm

Running and burpees

Me - 9:18:58 pm

It's tiring! But not hard. See the difference?

Diana - 9:18:40 pm

Eeww

Diana - 9:18:40 pm

Yes capitan I see

Me - 9:19:54 pm

I did it a few times, and would them go and do a hard normal workout

Me - 9:20:11 pm

Recovers totally in 10 mins

Diana - 9:20:17 pm

Did you get your verbs and adjectives mixed up then?

Diana - 9:20:20 pm

Are you drunk?

Diana - 9:20:29 pm

:)

Me - 9:20:32 pm

Thumb typing haha

Me - 9:20:50 pm

Derek just finished. Sad at the end

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

Well I guess I'm going to get out and hang out on the porch

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

The end of season 1?

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

It's a heart breaker for sure!

Me - 9:21:19 pm

Cold outside?

Me - 9:21:46 pm

No, end of one episode in Series 2

Me - 9:22:12 pm

If the kids are asleep what's wrong with the couch?

Diana - 9:22:14 pm

Oh I've not done season 2 yet

Diana - 9:22:17 pm

Turn it off!!

Diana - 9:22:24 pm

Download season 1

Me - 9:22:25 pm

It's finished

Diana - 9:22:36 pm

You need to do them in their order in their entirety

Me - 9:22:42 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:22:54 pm

Well I can't watch TV on the couch if they're in the room so I may as well sit outside

Me - 9:23:31 pm

Oh! I see. Asleep on the couch. Hangout in Imogen's room :))

Me - 9:24:11 pm

Do you want me to come and sit on the porch with you?

Diana - 9:24:13 pm

Yea there's some cool barbies in there

Diana - 9:24:23 pm

I might act out my hopes and dreams :)

Diana - 9:24:37 pm

It's late you should sleep

Diana - 9:24:46 pm

Are you training tomorrow?

Diana - 9:25:04 pm

And I'm a little bit drunk

Me - 9:25:23 pm

Yes/No. Come over?

Me - 9:25:29 pm

Yes?

Diana - 9:25:04 pm

I might say stuff and you'd know doubt fine me annoying!

Me - 9:25:35 pm

Just the porch

Diana - 9:25:04 pm

You're going to do the 7am?

Me - 9:25:49 pm

No

Diana - 9:25:04 pm

After telling me it was shit!!!

Me - 9:26:02 pm

Maybe 10:30!!!

Diana - 9:26:18 pm

His circuit is no good

Diana - 9:26:30 pm

I'm not being mean but it's worse than the bloody wows

Me - 9:26:30 pm

Do I need wRm clothes to sit outside with you?

Diana - 9:26:37 pm

And even less well thought out

Me - 9:26:54 pm

I'm going to get changed now

Diana - 9:26:54 pm

Bec was telling me about the guy who creates the wows today

Me - 9:27:11 pm

Save it and tell me in person

Me - 9:27:26 pm

Putting long pants on

Diana - 9:27:12 pm

Well I'm staying in my pjs

Diana - 9:27:12 pm

I can't make coffee the machine is too loud

Me - 9:28:21 pm

Ok cool

Me - 9:28:31 pm

No coffee

Diana - 9:29:16 pm

Tea? I can boil the kettle

Me - 9:29:27 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

And you have to talk quiet

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

And don't knock

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

Just text

Diana - 9:29:20 pm

Are we teenagers?

Me - 9:29:54 pm

:))

Diana - 9:37:52 pm

Do you have sugar in your tea?

Diana - 9:39:52 pm

Or milk?

Me - 9:41:14 pm

Just milk. I'm here

Diana - 9:40:00 pm

Ok I'm coming out with tea

Diana - 9:42:50 pm

I wonder if any gay people have ever said thay

Diana - 9:42:51 pm

That

**Saturday 18 October**

Diana - 8:28:32 am

Pancakes toast and porridge! I'm exhausted and the day has only begun :)

Diana - 8:30:40 am

Any word on any scores???

Me - 8:39:52 am

Good morning!

Me - 8:39:53 am

Sleep much?

Me - 8:42:00 am

BTW the delay was a shower, not still sleeping :)

Diana - 8:43:28 am

You should be!

Diana - 8:44:15 am

I woke to an ambush!

Me - 8:45:08 am

Haha. Direct jumps to the body from kids?

Diana - 8:45:17 am

Are you going to do the circuit?

Me - 8:45:22 am

No

Diana - 8:45:34 am

Yep! And I even set them up with the remote telling them to watch TV as soon as they woke!

Me - 8:45:48 am

What time?

Diana - 8:45:36 am

Nope attacking me was much more fun :)

Diana - 8:45:36 am

6:38

Me - 8:46:35 am

!!!

Diana - 8:47:17 am

Well that was always gonna happen :)

Me - 8:47:47 am

Yeah. Mums are there to bre jumped on! Job description haha

Diana - 8:47:44 am

They're on the trampoline playing now, it's second coffee time for me hopefully a quiet one in the sun

Me - 8:48:56 am

I'm going to make your 300 calorie frozen dinners this morning. I'll go down and get some containers. Then probably a run.

Diana - 8:49:25 am

Oh that's an awful way to spend a Saturday morning!

Diana - 8:49:34 am

Lie about in the sun and enjoy the quiet!!

Me - 8:50:21 am

Won't take long. There'll be plenty of lying about time

Me - 8:50:29 am

Lake is dead glassy

Diana - 8:49:52 am

It's too early for a second coffee for me, I'm going to pay for it!

Diana - 8:49:52 am

I bet it is, the beach would be amazing this morning too

Me - 8:50:47 am

Just don't count then haha

Diana - 9:02:40 am

dehydration counts them!

Diana - 9:02:40 am

Ok the sleepover is gone, it's my shower time

Diana - 9:15:28 am

I'm spinning a bit

Diana - 9:15:28 am

We kissed.

Me - 9:16:22 am

Ah. You noticed :)

Me - 9:16:48 am

It was great last night. I love that porch.

Me - 9:21:11 am

I was pretty cold when I got home. I got into bed and couldn't really warm up for ages. Totally worth it, though :)

Me - 9:23:36 am

Just opened the soy milk

Me - 9:23:52 am

Soy coffee coming up.

Me - 9:25:29 am

Are you ok? Not spinning too much?

Diana - 9:30:24 am

Yes it was a cold night that's for sure

Diana - 9:30:24 am

Spinning enough to be dizzy but not enough to be sick ;)

Diana - 9:32:32 am

Be gone forever hideous milk powder!

Me - 9:34:08 am

I might have to agree, this soy coffee is a lot better.

Me - 9:34:24 am

Although, I don't like full cream normal milk

Me - 9:34:31 am

Too buttery

Me - 9:34:40 am

But this stuff is nice

Me - 9:34:54 am

Can you get it in a powder? :))

Me - 9:36:24 am

How's Joel this morning?

Diana - 9:37:27 am

Well he said his head doesn't hurt anymore, he had Panadol at about 2am when he woke saying it was still hurting but hasn't had any since. Ate pancakes and oats for breakfast and so far so good

Me - 9:38:42 am

That's great. 7 hours the panadol should have worn off by now.

Diana - 9:40:19 am

Yep it would have for sure

Diana - 9:44:22 am

Have you watched the deadlift video on form from ironedge that's on fb?

Me - 9:44:44 am

No.why?

Diana - 9:44:56 am

Mayeb we can just go super light on Monday and film my form, terrible idea but I want to make sure I'm doing it all right

Diana - 9:45:00 am

It's a good video

Me - 9:45:48 am

Ok. I'm working out calories in your meal at the moment. But I'll have a look in a bit.

Diana - 9:46:14 am

You can use calorie king and my fitness pal?

Diana - 9:46:53 am

Will you tell me Beccas score if you find out? Or are you going to try to protect me from the heart break?

Me - 9:48:07 am

No. I won't do that.

Diana - 9:48:38 am

I feel bad involving your daughter!

Diana - 9:48:45 am

Don't worry, it'll come out Monday

Me - 9:49:13 am

Don't feel bad. I wouldn't ask if I didn't think it was ok.

Me - 9:50:05 am

Ok. She said "like 9 rounds".

Diana - 9:49:36 am

But Becca is her friend and it puts her in a weird position

Me - 9:50:09 am

:-)

Diana - 9:50:33 am

Hmm

Me - 9:50:36 am

Not at all

Diana - 9:51:02 am

Becca liked my deadlift photo on fb, totes keeping the enemy closer ;)

Diana - 9:51:07 am

9 rounds?

Diana - 9:51:13 am

She's playing it down i reckons

Diana - 9:51:15 am

Reckon

Me - 9:51:28 am

Ok. Let it go.

Diana - 9:51:30 am

How's my form... Now I have the info I don't believe it ;)

Diana - 9:51:44 am

Having my shake. Blood sugar levels are shot and I'm tired

Diana - 9:51:44 am

I've let it go

Diana - 9:51:44 am

Nope, it's back again ;)

Me - 9:52:53 am

:)

Me - 9:52:58 am

Haven't used emoticons for awhile. Forgot about them.

Diana - 9:53:40 am

Me either! They're simultaneously super annoying and fun

Me - 10:02:34 am

Ok. About 1300 calories in the meal. So, about 4 or 5 containers should be enough. I'll head down now and buy them and cook it up.

Diana - 10:04:32 am

Seriously, why are you doing this?

Me - 10:09:34 am

I should ask that you don't mind: tofu, brown rice, onions, tomatoes, green beans, broccoli, carrots, garlic, marjoram, oregano. All good for you?

Diana - 10:10:56 am

???

Diana - 10:10:56 am

Yes all good

Diana - 10:11:11 am

Now answer my question

Me - 10:12:09 am

Because I want to. It will give me pleasure helping you in some small.

Me - 10:12:17 am

Small way

Me - 10:13:35 am

Just some frozen meals for when you're rushed. That's all. I have the time.

Me - 10:23:38 am

Is the So Good soy milk any good? It's in the fridge at the supermarket

Diana - 10:23:44 am

It's ok

Diana - 10:23:44 am

It's got added cane sugar so I don't buy it

Me - 10:24:31 am

Ok

Me - 10:33:12 am

Aaaand 2 bottles of wine :)

Me - 10:35:22 am

It's getting warm outside

Diana - 10:53:36 am

Really?

Diana - 10:53:36 am

Wow you're getting amongst it

Diana - 10:53:36 am

It's warm but the wind coming off the bay is fairly cold

Diana - 10:57:52 am

It's going to be even windier tomorrow Huh?

Diana - 10:57:52 am

I'm going to have to pay you for the meals

Diana - 10:57:52 am

It's getting complicated!

Me - 11:02:34 am

It's not complicated. I do things like this because it really gives me great pleasure. It's not only you. Let me explain it in person. I understand how it may feel overwhelming or presumptuous. It's not, it's just me doing what I enjoy. :)

Diana - 11:21:05 am

Hmm

Diana - 11:21:20 am

To be discussed

Diana - 11:25:36 am

It's looking windy tomorrow Huh?

Diana - 11:25:36 am

Should I try to cancel?

Diana - 11:25:36 am

Should you? ;)

Diana - 11:25:36 am

We could use Joel being sick as an excuse, had to wait until this morning to see how he was blah

Diana - 11:25:36 am

Blah blah

Diana - 11:29:18 am

We're only an hour late

Me - 11:30:18 am

The sup yoga you mean? Don't worry about it, it's my responsibility. We'll wait and see how the day Pans out. Just do your stuff.

Me - 11:30:37 am

But, yeah, 50km/hr winds :))

Diana - 11:29:52 am

You're supposed to give 24 hours but if we call now we could reschedule I texting

Diana - 11:29:52 am

Think they'd be ok with it

Me - 11:30:59 am

Ok

Diana - 11:29:52 am

Do you think?

Me - 11:31:16 am

Yeah, I think so

Diana - 11:31:38 am

I don't want to go out in a hurricane

Diana - 11:32:00 am

Should I call?

Diana - 11:32:00 am

Up all night with kid yaddie ya

Me - 11:32:21 am

I'll take care of it

Diana - 11:34:08 am

Are you sure?

Me - 11:35:22 am

Yep. Looking into it now.

Me - 11:40:46 am

All sorted. No problems. We'll get a voucher to use within a year. The guy was fine about it.

Diana - 11:41:20 am

That's great

Diana - 11:41:40 am

Thanks

Diana - 11:41:48 am

For the best yea?

Diana - 11:41:58 am

Wind on the water sucks

Diana - 11:42:09 am

Unless you're sailing of course

Diana - 11:55:28 am

Diana - 11:55:28 am

This is a little bit exciting

Me - 11:58:07 am

To do them all? ;)

Me - 12:08:04 pm

I must do the spartan entry. Talk to me about it again, next time we're together

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Just the melbourne ones

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

The beast and ultra would be good

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

And I want to do the super in March

Me - 12:09:32 pm

What's the lake mountain one?

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Warrior challenge

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

You should do it before the price goes up

Diana - 12:10:24 pm

The 930am start time

Me - 12:10:43 pm

Just enter the race on my own right? And then we just do it together. There's no team I have to join?

Diana - 12:10:24 pm

I'm going to need to start running as soon as the wows are finished

Diana - 12:10:24 pm

Hill running

Diana - 12:10:24 pm

Let's do the obstacle course next weekend, maybe, the compund one and see what you think

Me - 12:11:35 pm

Ok

Me - 12:11:47 pm

Sounds great!

Diana - 12:12:41 pm

I'll book that

Diana - 12:12:46 pm

Saturday?

Me - 12:13:13 pm

Let's do it together.

Me - 12:13:33 pm

I'll book it. Send me a link

Diana - 12:15:49 pm

Stop being greedy ;)

Diana - 12:20:41 pm

http://thecompoundtraining.com.au

Me - 12:26:04 pm

Ok. So we just want to do our own thing, or have a training session?

Diana - 12:26:45 pm

Our own thing? Though a training session could be good for rope climb tips

Diana - 12:27:10 pm

I did a few at the indoor climbing centre but it was much tougher on the actual course

Diana - 12:27:14 pm

up to you

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

Wow I'm tired

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

The kids are having a rest and watching the jetsons im going to have a little lie down before heading to St. Andrews

Me - 12:28:57 pm

Ok. Do you want me to help at St Andrews? Even just drive.

Me - 12:29:25 pm

I have a big car!

Diana - 12:29:36 pm

I have to take the kids

Diana - 12:29:36 pm

Car seats

Diana - 12:29:36 pm

Do you really want to meet Neils mum?

Me - 12:30:07 pm

They'll fit. Up to you. But you could snooze in the car.

Me - 12:30:17 pm

Wouldn't matter to me

Diana - 12:29:36 pm

Wow you're brave

Me - 12:30:33 pm

I'm your driver ;)

Diana - 12:29:36 pm

She's a mad Irish woman who wears hot pink and bright blue eyeshadow!

Me - 12:31:00 pm

Awesome!!! Let me do this

Diana - 12:31:01 pm

She's got a good heart though

Me - 12:31:20 pm

When are you leaving?

Diana - 12:31:39 pm

No, thanks but I don't think it's the right time for such introductions

Me - 12:31:44 pm

Ok

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

Do you?

Me - 12:31:59 pm

Why not now?

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

I mean she'll wonder how I'm according a driver ;)

Me - 12:32:10 pm

It will happen sometime

Me - 12:32:19 pm

Your coach!!!

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

Oh really?

Me - 12:32:35 pm

Why not

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

I can introduce you as that

Me - 12:32:40 pm

Yep

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

Can I say my 'power lifting ' coach????

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

:-)

Me - 12:32:54 pm

Yep

Me - 12:32:59 pm

When?

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

And you're driving me why?

Me - 12:33:14 pm

To help

Me - 12:33:22 pm

And be with you

Diana - 12:33:38 pm

Thanks but

Diana - 12:33:41 pm

Not yet

Me - 12:33:43 pm

Ok

Me - 12:33:48 pm

No probs

Diana - 12:33:52 pm

It would be nice

Diana - 12:33:52 pm

And you must be tired too!

Me - 12:34:12 pm

Nope

Me - 12:35:01 pm

Not 6:38 for me haha

Me - 12:35:02 pm

Don't make excuses for me. I'd live to do this. But your call.

Diana - 12:33:52 pm

Ok

Me - 12:35:23 pm

When?

Diana - 12:33:52 pm

I can't accept

Diana - 12:35:56 pm

When what?

Me - 12:36:06 pm

Ok

Me - 12:36:18 pm

Imesaage slooow

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

You're being with me like I am with wows again

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

Let it go didn't you say?

Me - 12:36:42 pm

;)

Me - 12:37:04 pm

Keep me informed of your afternoon!

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

I'm just going crazy with the emoticons now....

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

Yes sir!

Me - 12:37:16 pm

Yeah. Too much

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

Are you going to play golf?

Me - 12:37:26 pm

I'll do my laminating then

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

Maybe we can train tomorrow

Me - 12:37:36 pm

Sigh! Exciting

Diana - 12:37:47 pm

Yea laminating sucks

Me - 12:37:55 pm

Is Joel at home tonight?

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

Now I am going to lie down for a few minutes so I don't kill my kids or someone else's on the road

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

No Joel

Me - 12:38:17 pm

Ok

Me - 12:38:38 pm

Maybe I'll see you later. Drive safe

Diana - 12:47:40 pm

I'll text you

Diana - 12:47:49 pm

And when I'm leaving Lillian's

Diana - 12:48:07 pm

I really am just there to take photos for her to sell her stuff

Me - 12:48:13 pm

Great

Diana - 12:48:21 pm

We need some sleep tonight though yea?

Me - 12:48:36 pm

Let's chat later

Me - 12:48:50 pm

See how you feel

Diana - 12:56:05 pm

Ha!

Diana - 12:56:11 pm

You need sleep too!

Diana - 12:56:20 pm

But ok....

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

Ok its time to get up and pack some bags

Me - 1:11:06 pm

Adventure time!

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

Oh my head :( so sleepy! I'll have some of those pills

Diana - 1:16:04 pm

So we training tomorrow?

Me - 1:16:59 pm

Whatever we do, we're doing something together :)

Diana - 1:25:04 pm

You're not going soft are

you?

Diana - 1:25:04 pm

;)

Me - 1:26:05 pm

Veeeery funny!

Diana - 1:52:38 pm

Why does everything feel so much harder when you're tired?

Diana - 1:52:48 pm

And everything is so much louder

Diana - 1:52:48 pm

Like kids

Me - 1:53:26 pm

Biological answer or philosophical answer? :)

Diana - 1:53:30 pm

My sinus is shot, I'm going to have to see my Chinese doctor

Me - 1:53:34 pm

Kids are amwYs loud!!

Me - 1:53:45 pm

Always loud

Me - 1:54:06 pm

Have you arrived?

Diana - 1:54:22 pm

Just about to leave

Me - 2:16:35 pm

Going running. No comms for awhile...

Diana - 2:17:44 pm

Check

Diana - 2:52:05 pm

You know once upon a time I would get the silent nod acknowledgement of junkies and dealers, and now I seem to get it from muscle heads.

Diana - 2:52:15 pm

Unless a lot of them have nervous twitches?

Me - 3:03:32 pm

Haha Which class of people are better you reckon? And, when you can lift heavy, you have that look about you (and the body too, of course).

Me - 3:03:37 pm

Great run

Me - 3:03:51 pm

Felt strong and it's been over a week

Me - 3:04:11 pm

Tina is a fucking magician! Haha

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

That's good

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

Did you see Tina?

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

I don't have the body atm my tummy is huge from over eating

Me - 3:10:58 pm

No, just commenting. I see her again next week I think

Diana - 3:11:13 pm

And they're the same class of people- all addicts

Diana - 3:11:30 pm

Just a random Tina is a magician comment- gotcha

Me - 3:11:45 pm

Photos going well?

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

Post me saying that stuff about lifting dudes

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

Interesting

Me - 4:42:28 pm

The result of my afternoon labors

Me - 4:30:44 pm

where are you?

Diana - 4:36:26 pm

Leaving St. Andrews and heading to roaebud

Me - 4:42:28 pm

I've left a message with the compound training guy to book a trainer to instruct for a bit and then let us go around the course.

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

Listen I'm a bit tired so it's possible im off but I'm not usually ever off. I can smell games and toxicity from a Mile away and frankly I'm

Not interested in engaging or being any part of it

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

Your incessant need for female company and validation is not for me

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

I never even wanted a relationship

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

And def not one where a partner needs that as their sustenance

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

And the dynamic of doing stuff for me as a hook, will backfire

Me - 4:57:03 pm

Wow! You are absolutely, completely and totally wrong about me. It is impossible that you could be more wrong. How could we be communicating so much for this time and you come out with that. More sabotage, I'm guessing. Perhaps I'm not like any man you've known before and that's the problem, you're trying to pigeon hole me into something you already know. I'm not like that at all. Repeat, at all!

Me - 4:57:58 pm

I guess you are so tired. I understand. It's been a big few days.

Me - 4:58:22 pm

Nothing has changed on this end.

Me - 4:59:08 pm

Believe it, accept it and be happy that someone loves you.

Me - 4:59:21 pm

Regardless of what stuff you throw back at them

Diana - 5:00:15 pm

Don't assume to know anything about the men I've spent time with please

Diana - 5:00:32 pm

And you all think you're different

Diana - 5:00:32 pm

We all think we are different

Diana - 5:01:26 pm

You going to throw the sabotage line at me Everytime you don't want to explain or look at your own behavior

Diana - 5:01:58 pm

Because despite what you think that's not new either

Me - 5:02:12 pm

Why not tell me this to me person?

Diana - 5:13:20 pm

Because you're not here

Me - 5:15:20 pm

Where are you? Rosebud?

Diana - 5:15:28 pm

Yep

Diana - 5:15:28 pm

Just finished everything thankfully

Diana - 5:15:28 pm

I am exhausted

Me - 5:16:55 pm

When will you be home? Do want to talk later today?

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

I'm going home now

Me - 5:18:36 pm

Why not come here and eat.

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

So I guess about 40 minutes I don't really know

Me - 5:19:11 pm

No cooking.

Me - 5:19:46 pm

No cooking for you I mean

Me - 5:20:25 pm

You can see if what I made for you is ok

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

Because your Tina comment made no sense

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

And I feel like I need to protect myself from you

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

And I don't want to be cared for through food

Me - 5:22:43 pm

It's only a dinner

Me - 5:22:50 pm

300 calories

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

Wow you're amazing

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

At avoiding the elephant

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

And I hate it

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

I don't give a fuck about the calories right now mark so please don't ridicule me

Diana - 5:24:33 pm

For someone who is always going on about how smart they are you sure leave some big gaps

Me - 5:24:43 pm

You're reading meaning into texts again. Let's talk not text

Diana - 5:25:30 pm

again throwing it into me

Diana - 5:25:35 pm

I don't have the energy for this

Diana - 5:25:42 pm

For people who don't own their shit

Diana - 5:25:48 pm

Or need me to drag it out of them

Diana - 5:25:57 pm

It's so so so fucking exhausting

Diana - 5:26:04 pm

Have some self awareness.

Diana - 5:26:08 pm

And be honest

Diana - 5:26:08 pm

It's just too hard

Diana - 5:26:36 pm

I don't read too much into thigs

Diana - 5:26:38 pm

Things

Diana - 5:26:55 pm

I see the truth people don't want to see so they criticise me instead of looking in

Diana - 5:27:08 pm

And I can't do another relationship like that

Diana - 5:27:24 pm

That wkhld destroy me just as much as fucking for money would

Diana - 5:32:26 pm

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=E5WNqvdIfJ8

Editor: Perfume Genius, "Dark Parts"

Me - 5:33:12 pm

I have self awareness Diana. I know exactly where I'm coming from for you. And it's selfless affection. Don't tell me to own my own shit. I do that, I know that. You don't see the truth in me, its a simple (and it is simple) affection that you say is too frightening and exhausting. Rhere is nothing I ask of you, I don't require you to sort anything out for me.

Me - 5:35:57 pm

I'm not critising you. I haven't done that. And I look in, I really look in. I know what that is. My motives and what I do are under constant scrutiny.

Diana - 5:36:20 pm

Ok I'll come over

Me - 5:36:32 pm

Great!

Diana - 5:36:34 pm

And say how I don't want to be in a relationship

Me - 5:36:38 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:36:41 pm

That will make you happy

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

No texting

Me - 5:38:15 pm

Son you're leaving rosebud soon?

Diana - 5:38:37 pm

I left ages ago

Diana - 5:38:41 pm

I'm almost home

Diana - 5:38:52 pm

If it's not convenient we can make it another time

Me - 5:39:37 pm

Now is good

Diana - 6:40:48 pm

You should have hugged me

Diana - 6:57:18 pm

I wish you'd hugged me.

Diana - 7:01:42 pm

I want you to hug me

Me - 7:02:15 pm

Already driving..

**Sunday 19 October**

Diana - 1:01:36 pm

Eat

Something

Me - 1:04:34 pm

Ok :)

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

http://edition.cnn.com/2014/10/16/health/dying-regret-body-hate/index.html?c=&page=1

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

This is a beautiful read

Me - 1:24:08 pm

Looking now

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

I follow this movement called death cafe on fb where they talk about all things to do with dying and often people who are dying write the articles. It sounds morbid but it's beautiful.

Diana - 1:25:04 pm

This is good too

Diana - 1:26:54 pm

http://www.strengthsensei.com/the-five-habits-of-successful-lifters/

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

Ok sorry, I'm sure you have your own nerdy stuff to read :)

Me - 1:30:37 pm

That first one is beautiful. As a man I have to acknowledge that I can't really know the body image problems some women have. But it is everywhere isn't it? Even if it's covert by showing what it's thought women are supposed to look like.

Me - 1:32:20 pm

I don't think it's morbid. We're all going to die sometime and the people who have really come to terms with that (often when it's imminent) often are the wisest.

Diana - 1:31:28 pm

I see it in Imogen already

Diana - 1:31:28 pm

She says stuff like ' such and such will think I look pretty in this..' And other little signs of body image stuff

Me - 1:33:28 pm

I have no idea how you counter that.

Diana - 1:33:32 pm

She's only started watching commercial tv this year too.

Diana - 1:33:47 pm

I never speak of weight with her but of health

Me - 1:34:21 pm

But the weight stuff (via shape) is everywhere isn't it

Diana - 1:34:32 pm

One morning I was going to the gym and she said I know why you're going, you're going so you can live a long time to watch us grow up and meet our children

Diana - 1:34:38 pm

She is perfect

Me - 1:34:55 pm

That's perceptive eh?

Diana - 1:35:00 pm

It's in everything. Every single ad on TV is about food or losing weight

Me - 1:35:15 pm

Ha And they are the opposites

Me - 1:35:25 pm

Food excess and weight loss

Diana - 1:35:37 pm

I tell her continually it's about being healthy. And that she can be the prettiest girl in the world but if she isn't kind of heart it really means nothing

Me - 1:35:53 pm

She has a great mum

Me - 1:36:10 pm

That's the important thing for kids to know

Me - 1:36:17 pm

Kind heart

Diana - 1:36:23 pm

The truth is beauty is only borrowed, I tell her that, that she doesn't own it, it's her heart that will make her beautiful

Diana - 1:36:45 pm

Anyway I'm combatting consumerism and I'll no doubt lose but I'll give it my all ;)

Me - 1:37:27 pm

All you can do! Instil the seeds of doubt that you hope will lead to rebellion against consumerism when they're older

Diana - 1:37:33 pm

And now there are 3 baskets full of washing! Argh.

Me - 1:38:30 pm

When they're really young, peers are too important and the opinion of others is way too impoetant to them.

Diana - 1:38:51 pm

Yea I tell her there's always going to be more, I explain ads and how they work, and that there always someone with more and always someone with less. Ouybileg has been good for that, when she sends letters and pictures the kids and I talk about how she has to get water from the well etc

Me - 1:39:20 pm

The sponsored girl right?

Diana - 1:39:20 pm

Yea, sometimes they don't grow out of that! Especially if their parents aren't available

Diana - 1:39:53 pm

I have to drive to Jarrod and get Imogen's school jumpers! I'm going to re sudafed up :)

Diana - 1:39:58 pm

Yep she is in Mongolia

Diana - 1:40:00 pm

I've always wanted to go to Mongolia :)

Me - 1:40:52 pm

You can only do what your can do with kids. Same for both my kids but one is consumer king Nd the other doesn't care at all. Same upbringing.

Me - 1:41:12 pm

Get Jarrod to drop them off

Me - 1:41:21 pm

Dad's duty

Me - 1:42:39 pm

Do you have to take the kids with you to get the jumpers?

Diana - 1:43:19 pm

He would but he doesn't have his car, it's getting worked on for the week

Me - 1:43:31 pm

Is it far?

Diana - 1:43:36 pm

Yep I think they'll be home soon, I'll wait for them then go

Diana - 1:44:16 pm

Nope

Me - 1:44:42 pm

Good

Diana - 1:50:40 pm

You going to take your massage stuff in?

Diana - 1:50:40 pm

I can't get to the other side of the room to Fold the clothes ;)

Me - 1:53:42 pm

Not today. I'll take it in the morning. I'm not going anywhere this afternoon :)

Diana - 1:54:56 pm

Smart ;)

Diana - 2:11:22 pm

The good thing about public schools.... You hang the uniform on the line on a hanger and it's considered ironed

Diana - 2:15:14 pm

I'm going to have a go at benching tomorrow I've decided, and see what weight I can get.

Diana - 2:15:29 pm

Then start at 90 on deads but I'll do some light, really light ones tomorrow

Diana - 2:16:16 pm

Well I might try one set of 3 reps at 90

Diana - 2:16:16 pm

Just so when I go in Wednesday im confident knowing my minimum max on this wow

Diana - 2:18:12 pm

Then I can try again Friday perhaps

Diana - 2:18:12 pm

Body intelligence strength Sensai calls it :)

Me - 2:19:31 pm

That's a good idea. Let me be there for you. And maybe one set of 5 for the bench.

Diana - 2:19:31 pm

Of course tell me your opinion please

Diana - 2:19:49 pm

Yes def a set of 5 for the bench

Me - 2:19:57 pm

What weight?

Diana - 2:20:04 pm

I really don't mind if you do the running class

Diana - 2:20:13 pm

No, I just meant tell me if you think it's a bad idea

Diana - 2:20:22 pm

But it feels like the right thing to do

Diana - 2:20:32 pm

Just see my Max and do one set of each bench and dead

Diana - 2:20:32 pm

Then rest tuesday

Me - 2:20:49 pm

Great idea. But just one set of each. Plus the warm ups

Me - 2:21:00 pm

Was it 35 for bench?

Diana - 2:20:32 pm

I think so, not sure I can do 5 though

Me - 2:21:33 pm

Warm up sets will tell. 9:30-ish?

Diana - 2:20:32 pm

I'm going to fix that

Diana - 2:21:39 pm

Until I can bench 60

Me - 2:21:56 pm

Great weight!

Diana - 2:22:36 pm

Seriously I really don't mind if you do the class.

Me - 2:23:08 pm

What did we say today? :)) No more descisions for the other

Me - 2:24:21 pm

I'd like to help. And it will help me on Wednesday if I've seen how you handle those weights on Monday.

Me - 2:24:51 pm

It makes sense to do both sessions together.

Diana - 2:24:48 pm

But I need to lock in club champion on this wow atleast if I can't lock in top 10

Me - 2:26:51 pm

So, about 9:30.

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

If I had of known the kids would be this long I would have gone and got the jumper! I guess I could buy them tea out save me cooking, though it's all junk

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

Yep I'll be in around then

Diana - 2:26:56 pm

I'll let you know if anything changes

Me - 2:27:56 pm

Ok. That's great

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

I think, that I could lift heavier enough than Becca to lock it in hopefully more than she could outrun me should the next wow be a faster one

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

If that makes any sense

Me - 2:31:27 pm

Yeah, it does.

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

http://www.fhfn.org/after-you-saw-this-you-will-never-look-at-your-food-the-same-way-again/

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

This is cool

Diana - 2:44:50 pm

I heard that, that the next generation is the first to have a shorted life expectancy than the one before it

Me - 2:50:01 pm

That's so true. Michael Pollan is my nutritionist hero. He makes so much sense. I think there's a beginning push to treat added sugar like they did with tobacco.

Me - 2:50:58 pm

"Eat (whole) food, mainly plants, not too much". Michael Pollan

Diana - 2:51:50 pm

You just like the people I like

Diana - 2:51:54 pm

Copy cat :)

Diana - 2:52:07 pm

What's the strength dudes name, he always has so many good articles

Me - 2:53:33 pm

"strength dude" Hmmmm. More info required

Diana - 2:53:56 pm

I sent you one of his articles and you said you read a lot of his stuff

Me - 2:54:10 pm

Bret contraras?

Diana - 2:54:14 pm

Kids still not back! Gone to Neils for a play in heading to go get Imogen's jumper

Me - 2:54:28 pm

Ok.

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

Charles poliquin?

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

Something like that

Me - 2:58:12 pm

Oh. Yeah. Top Stength and Conditioning coach. That's him.

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

He wrote that article I just sent you, about the top 5 things to do to lift heavier

Me - 2:59:48 pm

Ok

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

And body intelligence

Me - 3:00:36 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:05:20 pm

It's s good day for an ice cream /)

Me - 3:07:19 pm

The wind just changed. It might be colder soon. Better hurry :))

Diana - 3:10:56 pm

Wow it sure did

Diana - 3:15:50 pm

Research time, Imogen said she wants a computer for her birthday, I'm going to see if I can make it happen :)

Me - 3:16:25 pm

MacBook. Only way to go

Me - 3:17:01 pm

I can help, I just had to buy one

Diana - 3:17:51 pm

Everyone needs a little pop in their lives

Diana - 3:17:55 pm

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=H4GAK92u_f8

Editor: Big Scary, "Leaving Home" Official Video

Diana - 3:18:08 pm

I'm not sure I agree re computer

Diana - 3:18:57 pm

She is 5, it's life span no longer than hers. Anyway I'll look

Diana - 3:19:20 pm

No longer than hers thus far !!!

Me - 3:19:32 pm

Got it :)

Diana - 3:21:15 pm

And they're too expensive for me, maybe a reconditioned desktop for her could work... But then there's Joel! Ahh it's got to be fair :)

Diana - 3:23:52 pm

I had two kids born on the same day one week away from Xmas because....

Diana - 3:23:57 pm

A)I'm an idiot

Diana - 3:24:07 pm

B) I'm an imbecile

Diana - 3:24:20 pm

C) I'm part of a miracle

Diana - 3:24:25 pm

D) all of the above

Me - 3:24:32 pm

C

Diana - 3:24:32 pm

D :)

Me - 3:24:49 pm

None of the others

Me - 3:26:07 pm

All your gift expenses come at once. At least you save shopping time :)

Diana - 3:47:43 pm

Yes true

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

Still no kids

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

Rocky 2 is on though

Me - 3:53:41 pm

Kids still playing?

Diana - 3:53:55 pm

Yep

Me - 3:54:14 pm

Have a snooze?

Diana - 3:54:21 pm

Have you eaten? You should have eaten twice by now

Me - 3:54:27 pm

Once

Diana - 3:54:24 pm

Nope folded most of washing

Diana - 3:54:24 pm

Put some on line

Diana - 3:54:24 pm

Really exciting stuff ;)

Me - 3:54:45 pm

Necessary

Diana - 3:54:24 pm

There's still a basket here next to me, I'm going my best to pretend I can't see it ;)

Me - 3:55:24 pm

Hahaha

Me - 3:56:08 pm

Kids can just get their clothes from the basket! I've done that quite a few times :)

Diana - 3:56:32 pm

I've done their clothes, it's just sheets and towels now. Enough housework for one day for me!

Me - 3:59:25 pm

The couch is winning here. Lying down feels gooooood.

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

Yep me too

Me - 3:59:54 pm

:-)

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

Doors and windows open with a cup of tea and rocky :)

Me - 4:00:39 pm

I have the tea too. Rocky is on tv? I'll look

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

It's no.2 but there's nothing else on and I've done Seinfeld already

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

I need to go to the movies soon. Once wow is over maybe I'll have a week off gym and do normal things again

Me - 4:05:08 pm

Me - 4:05:09 pm

Movies sound like a reasonable thing to do. If I'm not working I'd love to join you :)

Diana - 4:20:52 pm

Nice cup ;)

Diana - 4:21:02 pm

Movies are reasonable yes ;)

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

I have been happily ambushed

Me - 4:30:27 pm

Great to have the family together again eh?

Me - 4:30:31 pm

I fell asleep

Me - 4:30:34 pm

:)

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

Yea it's nice

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

I'm glad you had a nap

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

Neil was a little upset I didn't go today. It was a bit weird for me too, it's the first time we haven't shared an occasion like that

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

Still, hopefully it was for the best

Me - 4:41:35 pm

If you felt it was the thing to do, I'm sure it was.

Me - 4:43:51 pm

You have great instincts for that stuff

Diana - 4:49:33 pm

Hopefully

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

Maybe just the grief that it's the end of an era. Not our relationship but that the friendship dynamics are now changing too

Diana - 7:53:51 pm

Are you sleeping or just ignoring me

Diana - 7:54:12 pm

Now you got well,close enough to a fuck I suppose

Diana - 7:54:18 pm

Anyway I'm going to bed

Diana - 7:54:24 pm

Thanks for the follow up

Diana - 7:54:32 pm

Really sweet

Me - 7:55:23 pm

I've been asleep. Sorry

Me - 7:55:40 pm

Can I come over for a few minutes?

Me - 7:56:09 pm

Please don't be upset

Diana - 7:56:15 pm

No you can't

Diana - 7:56:20 pm

Goodnight

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

Wow not even a goodnight

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

You do know how to treat a lady

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

I'll do the gym on my own tomorrow. You'll just head fuck me more.

Me - 8:15:01 pm

Diana! After everything of the last 24 hours you're saying these things? What's the matter?

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

For the first time in 10 weeks you don't text for 4 hours and it happens to be immediately after we've spent the night together

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

And you fucking ask me what is the matter??

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Are you fucking serious mark?

Me - 8:15:57 pm

I was asleep. Sorry

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Are you fucking serious?

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

You're not asleep now and couldn't say goodnight?

Me - 8:16:52 pm

Can I please come over to say goodnight?

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

All the shit you say to my face, which is supposed to come across as you actually caring, this is what proves its bullshit

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

What you say is bullshit

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

No Mark. I was looking after children while you were sleeping

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Now you're rested and want to keep me up cause it suits you?

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Fuck me

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

I hate this shit

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

I really fucking hate it

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Why couldn't you fucking text goodnight ?

Diana - 8:18:59 pm

What is wrong with you?

Diana - 8:19:22 pm

You know something

Diana - 8:19:31 pm

To show you fucking cared?

Me - 8:19:32 pm

Because I was going to leave it for a few minutes and then try and talk to you again

Diana - 8:19:42 pm

Instead of fucking me off then sleeping then not a word

Diana - 8:19:48 pm

Wow you really make me feel special

Diana - 8:20:04 pm

Seriously atleast with a sugar daddy Id know where I stand

Diana - 8:20:10 pm

No you weren't

Diana - 8:20:19 pm

You just don't really give a fuck

Diana - 8:20:22 pm

And that's ok

Me - 8:20:31 pm

How can you say that???

Me - 8:20:54 pm

After today? All of yesterday and today.

Me - 8:21:13 pm

I've given you love all that time

Me - 8:21:47 pm

All I did was fall asleep.

Me - 8:23:13 pm

If you really don't want to see me again to night, then I'll say goodnight.

Me - 8:24:01 pm

Goodnight

Me - 8:25:12 pm

I'll see you tomorrow. And again, hopefully later in the evening. Goodnight Diana. :)

Diana - 8:25:20 pm

A smiley face

Diana - 8:25:20 pm

Whatever Mark

Me - 8:26:43 pm

Yes, a smiley face.

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

You're nuts

Me - 8:30:51 pm

Maybe. But I don't think so

Diana - 8:31:44 pm

And you liked my post which in itself is creepy enough but you did it 2 hours ago so you weren't asleep

Diana - 8:31:44 pm

So you're a liar and nuts

Diana - 8:31:44 pm

And you've slept and I haven't and now you want to come around so that makes you selfish as well

Diana - 8:31:44 pm

:)

Diana - 8:32:53 pm

Appropriate huh

Me - 8:35:36 pm

Yeah :) I didn't sleep all the time, you're right. Just most of the time. And when I did wake up once or twice I again made a descion for you, to leave you to your kids. I thought you'd be too busy and would be pissed off with me. Sorry. I did it again.

Diana - 8:36:00 pm

This is really so hard

Me - 8:36:28 pm

But rhat mistake doesn't mean I feel any different and it doesn't negate the last 24 hours. One of the days I'll remember for ever.

Me - 8:37:02 pm

Let's try and make it easier.

Diana - 8:37:26 pm

I don't want to feel abandoned after I have been with you

Diana - 8:37:37 pm

I don't want to have to pull you up on your lies about sleeping

Diana - 8:37:47 pm

I don't want to do any of it

Diana - 8:37:53 pm

I don't want to feel like this

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

I don't want to feel like this ever

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

I'm so tired and feel like I've just been left

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

You didn't even text once you woke

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

The first time we've spent the night together and you stop texting

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

This isn't an accident

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

This is what hurts

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

And don't tell me I'm reading too much into stuff

Diana - 8:39:44 pm

I'm not

Diana - 8:39:54 pm

I don't believe it's a coincidence

Diana - 8:40:04 pm

You woke and chose not to contact me

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

I don't want to feel hurt I don't want to feel abandoned and I don't want to fee like this

Me - 8:41:10 pm

You're not abandoned

Me - 8:41:18 pm

Far from it.

Me - 8:41:35 pm

But we can't be togerher all the time. Or can we?

Diana - 8:41:55 pm

Please don't fucking twist it

Diana - 8:42:00 pm

It's not about being together

Diana - 8:42:10 pm

Ffs mark atleast acknowledge what I'm saying

Diana - 8:42:24 pm

That this is the first time you've not texted for that long ever

Diana - 8:42:24 pm

And it's the first time we've spent the night together

Diana - 8:42:24 pm

Atleast fucking acknowledge that! W

Diana - 8:42:24 pm

Why do you act like the truth isn't there

Diana - 8:42:24 pm

And say stupid shit like we can't be together all the time; like that's what I'm asking for

Diana - 8:42:24 pm

that's so toxic

Diana - 8:42:24 pm

You know that's not what I'm asking for

Diana - 8:42:24 pm

Yet you twist it to avoid the truth

Diana - 8:42:24 pm

This is what I don't have energy or time for

Diana - 8:42:24 pm

Honestly

Me - 8:44:06 pm

Yet in person this stuff doesn't happen

Me - 8:44:20 pm

Only in texts

Diana - 8:44:25 pm

I am exhausted and instead of going to sleep feeling relaxed I'm upset and anxious

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

Again you're avoiding the truth the reality

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

And talking about texting

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

After sleeping with me for the first time, you chose for the first time to not communicate with me for the longest time we've ever not communicated

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

After sleeping with me for the first time, you chose for the first time to not communicate with me for the longest time we've ever not communicated

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

After sleeping with me for the first time, you chose for the first time to not communicate with me for the longest time we've ever not communicated

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

Do you hear what I'm saying now?

Me - 8:45:49 pm

Yes

Me - 8:46:14 pm

I'm sorry.

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

Why? Why did you choose to do that?

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

Don't say fucking sorry

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

Don't say fucking sorry

Diana - 8:46:40 pm

Think about it and tell me why

Diana - 8:46:40 pm

And be honest

Diana - 8:46:40 pm

Cause right now this is such a massive head fuck I can't cope

Diana - 8:53:04 pm

Ok

Me - 8:53:11 pm

I was tired, I know that's no excuse. I really thought you'd be better off if I left you alone until later in the evening. When we could spend a few minutes in person before going to sleep. Honestly, the fact that we didn't communicate for a few hours I thought was a good respite from each other. It's been an intense day and I really thought you'd prefer to not have me in your face. I did sleep most of the time. But the few times I woke up I didn't contact you. I really thought you'd be busy with feeding and bathing. I misread the situation.

Diana - 8:53:51 pm

Goodnight Mark

Diana - 8:54:16 pm

Take all the respite you need

Diana - 8:54:22 pm

I won't bother you again

Me - 8:54:44 pm

Goodnight. I'll see you tomorrow.

Diana - 8:55:12 pm

I'm not coming in

Diana - 8:55:12 pm

Goodbye

Me - 8:56:16 pm

Please Diana. Go in and practice the wow.

Diana - 8:56:39 pm

Fuck off and get your respite mark

Diana - 8:56:47 pm

I'll get someone else to do the wows

Diana - 8:56:56 pm

I don't want to be near you again

Me - 8:57:30 pm

Ok

Me - 8:57:41 pm

Goodnight

Diana - 8:57:20 pm

I hate you

Diana - 8:58:45 pm

You should have had bounds it's

Diana - 8:58:49 pm

Boundaries

Diana - 8:59:03 pm

But not to worry, you can juts hook up with your next client

Me - 9:00:32 pm

You think that's going to happen?

Diana - 9:00:41 pm

Of course it is

Diana - 9:00:48 pm

I'll give you 2 weeks

Diana - 9:01:00 pm

I can't sleep in the middle of a fight like this

Diana - 9:01:10 pm

And I'm exhausted

Diana - 9:01:36 pm

Isn't that why you have all female clients and want to massage? You'll have an ongoing feed of women to fuck and fall in and out of love with in a nano second

Me - 9:02:14 pm

Although you say you hate me, I still feel the same. But we should stop texting for the moment.

Diana - 9:01:36 pm

I don't want to fight with you

Diana - 9:02:33 pm

I don't want to leave it like this

Diana - 9:02:36 pm

I won't sleep

Me - 9:02:55 pm

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me - 9:03:36 pm

Go to sleep. Believe it! It's not changing. Through my mistakes and all.

Me - 9:03:55 pm

Don't be anxious.

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

I can't help it

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

I'm sorry

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

My heart feels like it's in my throat

Me - 9:04:46 pm

5 minute hug, right? That's all. Then you'll be asleep by 9:30

Me - 9:05:08 pm

I'll come over now. Quickly

Diana - 9:05:52 pm

It's going to be very cold

Diana - 9:05:52 pm

You don't have to

Diana - 9:05:52 pm

I'm sorry mark

Me - 9:07:02 pm

Driving...

Me - 9:14:45 pm

I'm here
**Week Ten**

**Monday 20 October**

Me - 8:09:36 am

Good morning. How did you sleep? (I know, no texts, but I just wanted to know how you are)

Diana - 8:26:24 am

Sorry I only saw it now! I don't bother to have my phone on me now we don't text :)

Me - 8:27:27 am

Ok. See you in the gym! Looking forward to it.

Diana - 11:40:32 am

I know there's no texting Except for important things and this is important- please go downstairs and get food and coffee before you start the massaging

Me - 11:44:08 am

Ok I will. Promise.

Me - 11:44:42 am

Putting up signs at the moment. I'll do it about 12. Thanks for thinking of me :)

Diana - 11:44:48 am

That lady, indirectly asked me to asked you to teach her to used the foam rollers

Diana - 11:44:48 am

Sorry that could have waited until we see eachother

Diana - 11:44:48 am

Ok over and out

Diana - 11:54:59 am

Ok.. What if there something one of us needs to talk about? Like the 'shopping'. Should I juts do what I think is right with no discussion and then explains stuff later?

Me - 12:00:24 pm

Yes. I think so. There's no rush with the shopping stuff. If you don't think it's right at the moment then you should do what you prefer. We can talk about it tonight.

Diana - 12:01:47 pm

Ok. Have a good day xx

Me - 12:04:14 pm

Protein bar! About to be eaten. See you later. xx

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

That's not enough

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

Argh!

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

See ha

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

You I mean!

Diana - 3:22:24 pm

Hi I know no texting but I just wanted to say if you're too tired to come tonight that's ok, or if you'd like to come earlier for a quick coffee that's ok too :) Im not doing your thinking for you but I imagine it's been a big day

Me - 3:48:03 pm

I just went for a run trying to distract myself from texting. But, I decided it's too hard! And was going to text you now! I'll come over both times!!! When's good? I'm home now, but very sweaty

Diana - 3:49:59 pm

Well we are about to make our amazing cupcakes again

Me - 3:50:29 pm

Ok. On my way, but quick shower first. xxxxx

Me - 3:55:02 pm

Leaving home now

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

Can you come back?

Diana - 9:25:04 pm

I know... No texting but have you seen this??

Diana - 9:25:04 pm

http://cleanhealth.com.au/poliquin-klokov/

Me - 9:29:30 pm

That would be amazing. The price is alot!

Diana - 9:33:18 pm

How much? I didn't even look

Me - 9:33:42 pm

$2000+

Diana - 9:33:36 pm

Shit!!

Diana - 9:33:36 pm

Wow, it'd be amazing though

Me - 9:35:14 pm

Yeah. You would learn so much. Maybe when I'm earning real money with training and massaging I'll think about it.

Me - 9:35:30 pm

Next time, I mean

Diana - 9:35:30 pm

I guess the kind of people that would go would be lifting champions, I would like to even go watch a competition at some point

Me - 9:36:11 pm

And top strength and conditioning coaches too!

Diana - 9:35:44 pm

Of course!

Diana - 9:35:44 pm

Imagine what your page at the gym would look like with that workshop attendance on it!

Diana - 9:35:44 pm

You'd get all the steroid meathead clients :)

Me - 9:38:46 pm

Haha I'd charge $100's for a training session :)

Diana - 9:37:52 pm

Except for me of course ;))

Me - 9:40:22 pm

Of course!

Diana - 9:42:27 pm

Qanda is your thing tonight ;)

Diana - 9:42:51 pm

Hey, thanks for being so cool with my kids.

Me - 9:44:01 pm

It wasn't an effort. I loved it. They're great kids and a pleasure to be around. Like their mum.

Diana - 9:45:05 pm

It means a lot to me, so I want you to know I appreciate it.

Diana - 9:45:10 pm

Eat and sleep xx

Diana - 9:45:22 pm

Totes not telling you what to do!

Me - 9:46:28 pm

Thanks for that. And thanks for the opportunity to be a closer part of your life. It means a lot to me too.

Me - 9:46:39 pm

I'm eating! :)

Me - 9:48:38 pm

Have a great sleep! See you tomorrow xxx

Diana - 9:48:32 pm

I'm going to sleep, good night

Me - 9:49:30 pm

Night

**Tuesday 21 October**

Diana - 7:18:08 am

Me - 7:37:32 am

Thanks Diana! I'm so glad she feels like that. I just had the best sleep I've had since I can remember. All because of you! Thank you. xxxxx

Me - 7:40:07 am

See you at lunchtime.

Me - 7:56:04 am

How was your night? Not too bad, I hope.

Diana - 8:10:15 am

I seem to be worrying a lot, but I have had enough sleep to have a good day

Me - 8:11:21 am

Is it something we can talk about in a text?

Diana - 8:28:32 am

Just general worries really, feeling a little overwhelmed

Me - 8:34:09 am

I'll make sure I'm around for you on. Thursday. And any other time too

Diana - 8:34:27 am

No I'll just go to the doctors. It'll be fine, I'll let you know anyway.

Me - 8:36:33 am

Anything you need, I'm here. Materially or emotionally or talking. If you need to text then please go ahead.

Diana - 8:39:12 am

Thanks. It's such a beautiful morning, and how evolved am I to be able to experience it even without my beloved shake ;)

Diana - 8:39:48 am

It's scooter time. I'll see you later :)

Me - 8:39:56 am

Ok see you

Diana - 9:15:28 am

I just saw Karen and she has a spare booster seat I can borrow for a bit so I'll do that, I was wanting to get the car serviced at mums but she wants me to drive her around and do a bunch of stuff so I'm going to try to get it in this Thursday and I can't pay for that and the seat.. Yaddie ya anyway no need to go shopping is the short version

Me - 9:17:06 am

Still need a blender don't you?

Diana - 9:17:36 am

Yes I guess

Me - 9:18:28 am

Let me buy that. And let's see how you can cope with a small thing being paid for. Ok?

Me - 9:19:00 am

I need one too

Diana - 9:19:03 am

I feel like jumping into a hole for the overwhelmed

Diana - 9:19:23 am

You see how a sugar daddy could have been the answer? Me and my stupid fucking conscious

Me - 9:19:44 am

Want me to cancel my sessions this morning and come over?

Diana - 9:21:25 am

No way! You do what you need to

Diana - 9:21:52 am

I also need to buy a birthday present for a 6 year old boy. I must not forget.

Me - 11:55:04 am

I'm on my way

Diana - 11:55:28 am

Don't you want to go home and shower and eat?

Diana - 11:55:28 am

It's cool if you do

Me - 11:56:12 am

Done it. Driving now

Diana - 11:55:28 am

We are almost home

Diana - 11:55:28 am

A couple of minutes away

Me - 11:56:42 am

Ok

Me - 4:16:17 pm

This is, partly, the reason why I want to help you. Being generous produces generosity in others. http://instagram.com/p/uXvhX9Mxdd/

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

I saw that it's a cool quote

Diana - 4:31:37 pm

Karen and her daughter are still here and I juts got off the phone to my mum.

Me - 4:31:57 pm

How is your mum?

Me - 4:32:07 pm

Looking forward to next week I guess

Diana - 4:32:14 pm

I'm feeling a little weird about you buying that stuff, like now I'm indebted to you and can't say what I want

Diana - 4:32:28 pm

Yea she is, she rang to tell me she was looking forward to us coming

Diana - 4:32:42 pm

Her red and white blood cell count is almost back to normal :)

Me - 4:32:52 pm

That's great

Me - 4:34:57 pm

And, you should always be able to say what you want. It's the honesty thing. And the quote (which I know you liked) is just showing you that I enjoy giving because even though it's my son who says that, I believe it works for everyone. And it's who I am, and not something new or different with you.

Me - 4:39:28 pm

The money is gone as far as I'm concerned. No longer exists! No debt and I would be sad if you repaid it. I'm hoping accepting my generosity, and carrying on as normal, is something we can do. We give what we're able to give. Your generosity is more than mine, I believe. I know how hard it is for you accepting other people into your life and yet you've accepted me! Mine is just money.

Diana - 5:22:36 pm

Sorry they've just gone

Diana - 5:22:39 pm

I imagine you're at the gym now

Diana - 5:22:43 pm

We can chat later

Me - 6:11:46 pm

I just got home from the gym. I'd like to come and see you, if you want me to, that is.

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

Are you too tired to come once the kids are in bed?

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

I just think we need to be together for a couple of hours. They were away Saturday night and we had visitors last night and Imogen's gone tomorrow night

Me - 6:20:24 pm

Of course. Spend time with them now. Text me when you're ready. I'll be waiting. xxx

Me - 6:22:11 pm

I'll do something different, like eat :))

Diana - 6:21:36 pm

Ha! That's good news

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

Oh my god you need a degree to figure out this car seat!

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

The kids are in bed though not asleep, I'm going to try to put this thing in the car ;)

Me - 7:45:49 pm

Ok. Let me know if you need help. And when to come over.

Diana - 7:46:40 pm

Well I thought he would be ok in booster mode but he doesn't reach the height requirements on the seat itself, so I'm trying to restrap it to its original state ;)

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

I think I've got that sorted... Now for the installation, in all the car seats I've done never have I found one so complicated ;)

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

Or maybe my brain is just older :))

Me - 7:48:11 pm

:)) Don't know about that. Im sure you'll get it done.

Diana - 7:48:38 pm

They've added their own 'sash' seatbelt to add to my pain!

Diana - 7:48:55 pm

How was dinner?

Me - 7:49:17 pm

Ok. It was ok. :)

Me - 7:52:02 pm

Rice, veges, dhal.

Diana - 7:59:41 pm

Woohoooo

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

I did it!

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Drink holder attached and all!

Diana - 8:00:57 pm

Dinner sounds good :)

Diana - 8:01:02 pm

I ate too much

Diana - 8:01:17 pm

I'll pretend I was carbing up for tomorrow ;)

Me - 8:01:21 pm

Success!!

Me - 8:01:49 pm

You are carbing up! Need lots of endurance to get through the workout

Diana - 8:02:38 pm

Joels down, Imogen is saying she can't sleep

Diana - 8:02:43 pm

She always fights it

Diana - 8:02:53 pm

Pfft the workout isn't that hard

Diana - 8:03:14 pm

Sheesh I'm giving myself a hard time about the wows

Diana - 8:03:24 pm

Easy way to avoid the big stuff I giess

Diana - 8:03:26 pm

Guess

Me - 8:05:09 pm

Focus is a good thing. You need to be psyched up to do well at hard, strenuous things. Even non-physical things that are hard and strenuous too.

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

I think I feel more defeatest than anything, knowing it's unlikely I'll get in the top 10 or be club champion. But I've learnt heaps, you've taught me heaps, more in 10 weeks than a whole year of going on my own

Diana - 8:09:16 pm

I'm trying to replace the batteries in Imogen's night light with a screw driver that's the wrong size. A woman's work is never done ;)

Me - 8:09:49 pm

Yes, the work never stops!

Me - 8:11:14 pm

And let's not be defeatist. There's still 2 to go. Who knows what will happen. But, thanks for the praise. Still more for you to learn, after the wows

Me - 8:11:23 pm

Had a difficult session tonight

Me - 8:12:04 pm

She did quit. Remember I said she would.

Me - 8:12:21 pm

At least she came and paid for one last session.

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

Really? I thought you said she looked like she might recommit?

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

Come over I'll put the kettle on- yes I realise how old I sound ;)

Me - 8:13:23 pm

She was I tears near the end. Not from me, stress at home. I took her for a walk along wells rd for 30 minutes to let her talk.

Me - 8:13:30 pm

Ok on my way

Diana - 8:14:35 pm

Mark you seriously need to work on your professional boundaries

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

They're kind of out of control. On the wrong woman they will backfire badly and destroy your career

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Ok see you soon

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Does it count If you break something whilst trying to fix it, fix the initial problem and though it's now in working order it's still broken?

Me - 8:24:42 pm

Here

Diana - 10:48:16 pm

The sexual chemistry between us it terrible isn't it, I mean we couldnt have sex Saturday night and then in then tonight mid kiss you pull away to ask about Karen. Your thoughts obviously elsewhere, both are telling signs really. Anyway leaving that aside I just wanted to say thanks for taking me shopping for everything today. It was very kind of you. See you tomorrow at the gym.

**Wednesday 22 October**

Me - 7:24:26 am

It's a beautiful day outside. You're going to do great this morning! See you soon xxx

Diana - 8:08:32 am

I had a shocking night and have been up since four. I'm tired but I'll have a go rather than leave it until Friday or I won't get a chance to go heavier. Yep it's certainly a nice day

Diana - 8:39:12 am

Well I don't know what to do and given you're ignoring both what I said last night and this morning I'm going to leave the wow for another time

Me - 8:45:34 am

I've been putting up the posters and haven't had my phone.

Me - 8:46:30 am

Why don't you come in and do a warm up and then see how you feel? You have often done well when you're tired.

Me - 8:49:33 am

How about I come around and we can talk about it?

Diana - 9:08:15 am

I just got back from school drop off

Me - 9:08:46 am

I'm coming around now.

Diana - 9:08:55 am

I'm not going to playgroup, I'm going to let Joel play on the iPad and have half an hour rest. I'll do what you say and come in and see how I feel, I have a shocking headache and earache

Diana - 9:09:04 am

Please don't come over, Joel is here and it's too much

Diana - 9:09:04 am

I'll rest and come in

Me - 9:09:17 am

Ok

Diana - 9:09:04 am

Sorry to have bothered you

Me - 9:09:24 am

That's great

Diana - 9:09:04 am

I really want this all to be over

Me - 9:09:59 am

We're going to make your tiredness out no. 1 priority.

Diana - 9:09:04 am

Then I can just go back to training with no pressure

Me - 9:10:15 am

And after today only 1 left

Me - 9:10:45 am

We'll sit down and work out rest strategies for you to sleep better

Diana - 9:11:12 am

I'll just take pain killers and pre workout, it's so fucked for my body it's what's making me more tired even though it has a quick fix

Me - 9:11:58 am

Last time today to force stuff to happen at the gym

Me - 9:11:59 am

We'll work this out

Diana - 9:11:12 am

Not stressing about us, what we are, whether i can do it blah blah would be a good way for me to start sleeping. All I seem to do is stress about us and money

Diana - 9:11:12 am

Ok I'm going to try to rest my head

Diana - 9:11:12 am

I'll see you at 1030

Me - 9:12:42 am

Ok. Rest. See you soon.

Me - 9:13:09 am

You'll do great, I'm sure

Me - 9:13:19 am

Ok. See you xxx

Diana - 9:13:20 am

There's one thing though. I don't think it should he sexual between us. It hurt last night that you pulled away from kissing to talk about Karen

Diana - 9:13:20 am

There obviously isn't the sexual connection between us

Diana - 9:13:20 am

Last night or the other night

Diana - 9:13:20 am

So I don't want to go there again

Diana - 9:13:20 am

Cuddling is fine

Diana - 9:13:20 am

But I don't want to have anything more than that.

Me - 9:14:53 am

Let's talk about that. And I hear you.

Diana - 9:15:16 am

I don't think it needs speaking about

Diana - 9:15:19 am

I've made up my mind

Me - 9:15:26 am

Ok

Diana - 9:15:28 am

I've never had someone do that before

Diana - 9:15:28 am

It's always been passionate and intense

Diana - 9:15:28 am

With us it isn't

Diana - 9:15:28 am

You're literally thinking about other women

Diana - 9:15:28 am

Anyway it's a good boundary for me to have with you.

Me - 9:16:25 am

Let's not argue over this now. I hear what you're saying

Diana - 9:15:28 am

Fuck this is why I can't sleep, it's totally doing my head in

Diana - 9:15:28 am

See you later

Diana - 9:15:28 am

Im not arguing

Me - 9:16:38 am

Ok see you

Diana - 9:15:28 am

I'm telling you how I feel and what I want

Diana - 9:15:28 am

Bye

Me - 9:17:04 am

See you at 10:30

Diana - 11:57:36 am

Eat :)

Diana - 11:57:36 am

And Thanks for today

Diana - 11:57:36 am

And I'm glad stuff is happening for you even if it means I'll miss you

Diana - 12:00:49 pm

Really thanks for today, you were really helpful and I don't think I would have even come in without your help

Diana - 12:01:19 pm

And for saying to make eveything tight and the grip it really was awesome

Me - 12:07:51 pm

You were absolutely amazing!! You did more than we had hoped for. What a great Wow! Thanks for saying thanks. I know I got a bit grumpy at the end. I'm sorry for that.

Me - 12:08:22 pm

I don't really want to spend Saturday with others but I couldn't really say no.

Me - 12:09:18 pm

I'd rather spend it with you, but we're both busy (you much more than me) and I guess sometimes we'll miss out seeing each other.

Me - 12:11:28 pm

Is like to see you again today (or this evening), when and if you're able to. If you're way too tired then I totally understand.

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

It's fair enough you got grumpy I behaved like a twat

Diana - 12:16:21 pm

I think you pushed me really well today though

Diana - 12:16:44 pm

And in a way it's good for me to catch up with some other people while you are busy

Me - 12:17:03 pm

No, I shouldn't have been grumpy. You've been worked up about this wow for awhile. I should have been better

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

I was struggling with the people around

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

Really does my head in

Me - 12:17:46 pm

I could see that

Me - 12:17:53 pm

All the trainers

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

And Michael and holly really should have given me some space

Diana - 12:18:15 pm

Then the world doesn't revolve around me :) as much as I think does

Me - 12:19:34 pm

I think only Hollie (and Karen) were paying that much attention to how much you were lifting. In any case, even with the eyes if the world in you, you excelled!

Me - 12:19:57 pm

Eyes of the world on you

Me - 12:20:32 pm

You must be exhausted now!

Diana - 12:21:04 pm

I am wrecked

Diana - 12:21:04 pm

My legs are kind of shaking

Me - 12:24:41 pm

You maxed out today. Could not have lifted another kg! You should be really proud of your effort, I know I am.

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

I should be but I keep wondering if I could do 100 if I was less tired ;)

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

Maybe one day I can try it :)

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

Did you eat?

Me - 12:26:33 pm

We could keep that workout ( all the lifting in the whole session) and try it again in 6 months, maybe. Perhaps. :)

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

6 months!

Me - 12:26:49 pm

About to eat now

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

I got a protein bar from miss maggys, they've changed the recipe :(

Me - 12:27:21 pm

Not good?

Me - 12:27:59 pm

Lodge a complaint. Or get rhe old recipe :))

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

Not good

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

Just tasted like muesli

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

I'll just save the $4.50 from now on

Me - 12:29:19 pm

Maybe rhat was the one I had. I thought it was ordinary

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

If I've slammed myself I usually buy one

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

Yea it wasn't good

Me - 12:29:50 pm

Play date now? Park time?

Me - 12:30:00 pm

Sleep on the grass time? Haha

Diana - 12:30:05 pm

Yep just getting changed

Diana - 12:30:12 pm

You're sleeping on the grass?

Me - 12:30:20 pm

No. You.

Me - 12:30:26 pm

I don't have grass

Me - 12:30:33 pm

Remember? Haha

Diana - 12:30:45 pm

Well then sleeping on a towel?

Diana - 12:31:10 pm

No sleeping for me, watching kids at the park.

Diana - 12:34:58 pm

Are you back at the gym this evening?

Me - 12:35:21 pm

No

Me - 12:35:36 pm

Maybe massaging Michael tomorrow evening

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

What are you going to do this afternoon?

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

Bummer I wanted to see what Becca lifted :)

Me - 12:36:11 pm

Don't know

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

Well I wanted you to see to tell me :)$

Diana - 12:36:28 pm

The $ was an accident

Diana - 12:37:08 pm

I have to go to waves to take Imogen swimming, Chris also just texted saying he'll come along and bring his kids

Diana - 12:37:19 pm

Looks like a pool party

Me - 12:37:51 pm

Just need alcohol, right? :))

Me - 12:38:26 pm

Sounds like a great thing to do today

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

Kids water and alcohol... Never

Me - 12:38:40 pm

Joking

Diana - 12:38:44 pm

Great thing to do if you haven't been deadlifting all morning

Diana - 12:38:57 pm

I really think a glass of wine would be nice this evening though

Me - 12:39:02 pm

Sit on the edge and slash

Me - 12:39:11 pm

Splash

Diana - 12:39:14 pm

I don't know if I can handle a bunch of kids in a wave pool

Diana - 12:39:41 pm

Yes I'll splash on the edge and squeal like a girl :)

Diana - 12:39:50 pm

I hope you have a nice afternoon

Me - 12:39:55 pm

Thanks

Diana - 12:39:58 pm

It's a beautiful day

Me - 12:40:10 pm

You too

Diana - 12:44:02 pm

The posters looked good too!

Me - 12:46:48 pm

Yeah, don't they! and thanks for suggesting less wordy. It makes such a difference

Me - 12:47:07 pm

And the font changes

Diana - 12:52:46 pm

No worries :) ht

Diana - 12:53:04 pm

Maybe if tonight is no good to catch up and you have time tomorrow afternoon we can hang out

Me - 12:53:39 pm

How about tonight AND tomorrow afternoon? :)

Me - 12:54:33 pm

My mothers busy schedule has opened up, so I'm going to see her this afternoon for a short while

Me - 12:55:35 pm

Amazing genes I have. Haha. 4 weeks after knee replacement we're going for a walk and coffee!! She is amazingly resilient.

Me - 12:55:41 pm

And determined

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

That's awesome

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

And how I feel about my mum with the way she has recovered after all that chemo

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

It's amazing the human body

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

And spirit

Me - 12:56:39 pm

Yes, it's both

Me - 12:57:09 pm

And yet, many people just give up

Me - 12:57:44 pm

When all it's takes is a bit of determination

Me - 12:58:07 pm

To push through the hard parts

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

I actually feel like I could spew from Fatigue! Is that normal?

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

A fighting spirit!

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

I totes know I have one :)

Me - 12:58:40 pm

Yes, nausea can be a side effect.

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

Just a little too keen to fight sometimes ;)

Me - 12:59:31 pm

You probably did more than your body could do today. The spirit pushed it further! Yes, determination in you too is awesome!!

Me - 1:00:24 pm

Time to back off. Substantially. Git to let your body recover and grow stronger.

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

Like our mums ;))

Me - 1:00:48 pm

Yep

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

Yea after the next wow I'm taking some time

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

I'll do your curcuits and light weights on your programs

Me - 1:01:43 pm

Yeah, that's good. Maybe 3 or 4 weeks before we do some heavy stuff again.

Me - 1:01:57 pm

A compete recovery cycle.

Diana - 1:02:17 pm

Yes captain :)

Me - 1:02:20 pm

You didn't answer the tonight and tomorrow arvo suggestion :)

Diana - 1:02:27 pm

Ok I have to go down the slide

Diana - 1:02:30 pm

Without spewing!

Me - 1:02:31 pm

Haha

Me - 1:02:37 pm

Nice

Diana - 1:02:40 pm

Tomorrow is good can we see about tonight

Me - 1:02:41 pm

:))

Me - 1:02:45 pm

Ok

Me - 1:02:47 pm

Of course

Diana - 1:02:48 pm

I'm just not feeling great

Me - 1:02:56 pm

I know.

Me - 1:03:02 pm

Good sliding!!

Me - 1:03:14 pm

I'll be driving for a bit. To mums

Diana - 1:48:32 pm

We have retreated to my place, the sun at the park was so intense!

Me - 1:50:37 pm

Haha. Just got mum, about to do the opposite. Out into the sun. Then a cafe by the waterfront.

Me - 2:13:06 pm

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

Being on one of those yachts would be nice :)

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

I have people here who won't leave again

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

Help

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

;)

Me - 3:00:59 pm

Haha. Diana the socialite! If they only knew what was being said inside your head :))

Diana - 3:18:08 pm

Exactly!

Diana - 3:18:08 pm

I was literally putting on Joels shoes to go pick up Imogen and they still weren't budging!

Me - 3:28:02 pm

That's tough!

Diana - 4:45:11 pm

Have you eaten? ;)

Diana - 4:45:21 pm

Feel free to go to the gym and spy on Becca ;)

Diana - 4:45:32 pm

She has an advantage, Hollie knows what I got

Me - 4:47:12 pm

You'll be happy, I had a big muffin with my coffee with mum. As well as lunch and breaky. Haha. How are you holding up?

Me - 4:47:51 pm

I called the manager to make sure I can enter the score myself in the morning. So I can check on Becca's score.

Me - 4:49:06 pm

Hollie was saying earlier today that Becca was worried about this wow. She can't lift anywhere near what you did. I would be very surprised if you didn't win this one, in the state.

Me - 4:49:14 pm

Fatigue level?

Me - 4:50:00 pm

If Hollie hasn't entered the score I'll ask her myself.

Diana - 5:09:57 pm

Win the state? You're not serious. If my bench was 20kg heavier maybe

Diana - 5:10:37 pm

I'm wrecked just leaving pool now and leaving Imogen with her dad, he is such a sap I feel bad for her.

Me - 5:10:52 pm

Why a sap?

Diana - 5:11:02 pm

Ok Joel and I - homeward bound in 5 traffic argh

Me - 5:11:27 pm

Drive carefully

Diana - 5:11:34 pm

He just has one of those life sucking personalities

Me - 5:11:40 pm

Oh

Diana - 5:14:24 pm

You know lifting 95kg is nothing compared to carrying a 4 year old who thinks he is dying from a sore foot, a 5 year olds school bag and school hat, slater bug show and tell tank, a scooter and helmet in a rush to get to swimming on time. That's the real test of strength!

Diana - 5:14:31 pm

I'm glad you're mum is doing well

Me - 5:19:31 pm

Hahaha. That's awesome. You should post that!!

Diana - 5:19:44 pm

If I had a photo to go with it maybe :)

Diana - 5:20:54 pm

Looks like my phone charge is damaged so if you don't hear from me for a while that's why!

Me - 5:21:01 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

Got half battery left, I'll see if I can fix it at home

Diana - 5:46:34 pm

I am a terrible mother and have just allowed my son to eat the worst type of food on the planet, the thought of cooking made me want to cry!

Me - 5:47:25 pm

Terrible mother?? I don't think so!! Macca's?

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

Yes maccas

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

Chicken nuggets- and I've seen the clip on how they're made

Me - 5:48:21 pm

Everyone does it. Everyone has eaten Maccas.

Me - 5:48:37 pm

And, not dead yet. :))

Diana - 5:48:53 pm

Close

To it! ;) the walking dead

Me - 5:49:35 pm

Living on it, yes. Occassionally? Nope.

Me - 5:49:38 pm

:)

Diana - 5:49:36 pm

Once a month Id say

Me - 5:50:45 pm

That's fine, I think.

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

Yea to not give it to them at all is worse... I'll pump his veggies tomorrow night

Diana - 5:57:35 pm

Shit!!

Diana - 5:57:43 pm

I forgot the no texting rule!

Diana - 5:57:50 pm

Sorry. Stopping now!

Me - 5:58:14 pm

No. Texting is awesome! Today has been great!!

Me - 5:58:28 pm

Revised rules of play :)

Me - 5:58:43 pm

I missed texting you

Diana - 5:58:08 pm

But it's been good right?

Me - 6:00:10 pm

Yeah. I love it!! It's like being inside each other's head. Soooo intimate.

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

No I mean the break, ythe last couple of days, that's been good

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

We didn't really have a break today :)

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

And I just realised I actually grunted during those lifts today didn't i?

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

How embarrassing

Me - 6:01:26 pm

Hahah. Yes, you did! It's was cool!!!

Diana - 6:13:02 pm

Oh dear :/

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

Only on the deads right?

Me - 6:13:57 pm

Yes. They were tough. Only a little grunt, I don't think others heard them

Diana - 6:14:05 pm

Imogen and her dad guys stopped by to get her reader, she looks so miserable when she goes with him. It makes me sad but I really don't know what to do about it. :/ she has to go see him.

Diana - 6:14:22 pm

Good, atleast they

Weren't listening and looking!

Me - 6:14:41 pm

Yes. He's always going to be her dad. Got to spend time

Diana - 6:14:46 pm

Bet the lake looks nice?

Me - 6:14:51 pm

Calm

Me - 6:15:03 pm

But kids canoeing

Diana - 6:15:10 pm

I just got inside: my god I'm going to collapse!

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

Cool! I'd be out canoeing too!

Diana - 6:15:29 pm

Actually Id be on the non grass drinking a glass of wine

Me - 6:15:49 pm

Yes, I guess you would :)

Diana - 6:16:22 pm

Just one glass, exactly what I need this evening ;)

Me - 6:16:47 pm

Got some?

Diana - 6:17:05 pm

I think there's some white

Diana - 6:17:11 pm

Or red vinegar :(

Me - 6:17:37 pm

Oh, rhe stuff from days ago. Yuk!

Me - 6:18:16 pm

Disenfect with it instead. :))

Diana - 6:19:27 pm

Well I used to dry out the crud from a bong and smoke it if I was seriously desperate so nothing is beyond me ;)

Me - 6:19:36 pm

Haha

Me - 6:19:49 pm

Good old days.

Diana - 6:20:22 pm

Yep! Don't long for them so much though

Me - 6:21:07 pm

Old bongs are not that nostalgic

Diana - 6:30:08 pm

I can't get off the couch

Diana - 6:30:08 pm

To run the bath.

Me - 6:31:20 pm

Is he dirty enough? Just this one time?

Diana - 6:31:32 pm

He's been in the pool

Me - 6:31:40 pm

Ok

Me - 6:31:48 pm

Gotta do it!

Diana - 6:32:02 pm

I'll try grunting ;)

Me - 6:32:04 pm

Squeeze the glutes, push through the floor

Me - 6:32:13 pm

Tight!!!!

Me - 6:32:16 pm

:))

Diana - 6:46:53 pm

Ha!

Diana - 6:51:13 pm

It's still warm isn't it

Me - 6:51:37 pm

Yes. And no wind. Why?

Diana - 6:51:28 pm

I just thought a cool change was coming

Me - 6:52:38 pm

Still says that. Chance of thunder

Diana - 6:53:08 pm

If I had more energy Id be silly not to go for a sup but I think passing out is a serious option

Me - 6:53:47 pm

No more exercise today :)

Diana - 6:53:36 pm

Nope I'm on the couch in front of the aircon

Me - 6:54:29 pm

Good!

Me - 6:54:50 pm

I wish I had aircon. Today is ok, but on hot days

Diana - 6:55:33 pm

I got a great portable de longhi, it's worth the investment, some days we need both cause the wall one isn't so good

Me - 7:00:55 pm

Your designer guy is on 7:30 tonight

Diana - 7:02:08 pm

My designer guy?

Me - 7:03:57 pm

Gautier?

Diana - 7:04:05 pm

Oh right ok

Me - 7:08:10 pm

I assume you've had enough of talking to people today. How about a quick, quiet hug just before bed time?

Diana - 7:17:04 pm

I just put Joel down

Diana - 7:17:27 pm

Would you be ok if I said no? I seriously am going to go to bed now

Me - 7:17:44 pm

That's even better!!

Me - 7:18:04 pm

Have a great sleep! xxx

Diana - 7:18:03 pm

You know what I love? How veins stick out after you lift

Me - 7:18:36 pm

Yeah. Lots of blood flow, and high pressure.

Me - 7:19:01 pm

It looks cool. But I've had comments from people at the gym who think it looks gross

Me - 7:19:16 pm

Mine stick out heaps on my arms

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

Yours are quite intense

Me - 7:19:28 pm

Is yours on your arms?

Diana - 7:19:39 pm

Cause you have such low body fat I guess

Me - 7:19:41 pm

Great addict potential :))

Diana - 7:19:59 pm

Yay ;)

Me - 7:20:48 pm

Have a great sleep, Diana. You've really deserved it today.

Me - 7:21:25 pm

Text me at any time. Even if you wake during the night and start "worrying".

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

Thanks. I don't know if I'll sleep straight away but I def need to get horizontal

Me - 7:21:37 pm

Any time is ok

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

No way! You don't sleep either

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

I can see it

Me - 7:22:08 pm

I still have a lot more than you

Diana - 7:22:30 pm

I'm looking forward to yoga tomorrow

Me - 7:22:34 pm

Text me if you need to! I mean it. It may settle you to stop thinking about stuff

Diana - 7:22:50 pm

No, I wouldn't but thank you

Me - 7:22:55 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:23:19 pm

Maybe I could do a little workout after yoga

Me - 7:23:25 pm

Haha

Me - 7:23:46 pm

Do your warm up and your stretches

Me - 7:23:50 pm

That's enough

Diana - 7:23:28 pm

I'm not kidding

Me - 7:23:53 pm

Really

Me - 7:23:59 pm

I know

Diana - 7:23:28 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:24:16 pm

I'll train Friday then

Me - 7:24:41 pm

Maybe do your warm up 2 or 3 times. That's all. If you feel awesome

Me - 7:24:57 pm

But you'll be tired, physically, tomorrow

Diana - 7:24:59 pm

Depends what time I finish at docs I guess

Diana - 7:25:08 pm

And I have to get car to service

Me - 7:25:11 pm

Good luck with the doctor

Diana - 7:25:12 pm

I'll see how I go

Diana - 7:25:18 pm

Yoga is the most important

Me - 7:25:33 pm

Need help getting home from the service?

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

Nope I've got to meet Karen and drop it at 9

Me - 7:25:59 pm

Ok

Me - 7:26:20 pm

Hope the doctor is ok.

Diana - 7:26:34 pm

Me too. I'm sure it'll be fine

Me - 7:27:03 pm

Let me know, either way. Or when we hang out in the arvo, right?

Diana - 7:27:14 pm

Yep

Diana - 7:27:34 pm

Are you and Donna going to do yoga?

Me - 7:27:45 pm

No. Just training at 11

Me - 7:27:57 pm

I forgot to ask her

Me - 7:28:06 pm

One day :))

Diana - 7:27:44 pm

Ok well I'll see you in the gym at some point

Diana - 7:27:44 pm

If you leave before i get out of yoga I'll text you and see what you're up to

Me - 7:28:34 pm

Yep. I'll be there from before 10

Me - 7:29:07 pm

Ok. Nothing is happening for me in the arvo. Except you.

Me - 7:29:16 pm

Got to go back at 7pm

Diana - 7:29:28 pm

Circuit?

Diana - 7:29:37 pm

And get Beccas numbers ;)

Me - 7:29:42 pm

No. Massage Michael

Me - 7:29:52 pm

Yeah. The numbers

Diana - 7:29:52 pm

Oh I think he'll show, he seems more respectful than most

Me - 7:30:15 pm

He is. Or will text if not

Me - 7:30:20 pm

He's good

Me - 7:30:30 pm

Are you horizontal yet?

Diana - 7:29:52 pm

Yep

Me - 7:30:46 pm

In bed?

Diana - 7:29:52 pm

I have lots of bruises

Me - 7:30:52 pm

Where?

Diana - 7:29:52 pm

Still on couch

Diana - 7:29:52 pm

Shins

Me - 7:31:08 pm

Go to bed. Text from there

Me - 7:31:22 pm

Shin bruises are good technique

Me - 7:31:35 pm

If from deads

Diana - 7:31:58 pm

I feel like a little escapism through crap tv. Today has been intense and I realised I have to wait to see if Imogen is going to FaceTime

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

Yep from deads

Me - 7:32:08 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:36:16 pm

My wifi isn't working properly! Argh

Me - 7:37:48 pm

Restart it?

Diana - 7:36:16 pm

Bloody reset buttons ;)

Me - 7:38:37 pm

Mine fails regularly, each day. Got to make a change. And the equipment is really old too

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

I'll give it a few minutes.

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

Really? That's terrible

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

This is the first time this year Id say

Me - 7:39:36 pm

Ok. Good old 3G eh?

Me - 7:39:56 pm

Often when we're texting I turn off wifi, it's too slow. Like the last one! Took ages to send

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

Tpg

Diana - 7:40:31 pm

Imogen calling in 10

Me - 7:40:32 pm

Yeah. I am. Got to do the same for mum. I'm paying for hers too

Me - 7:40:36 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

Then bed time

Me - 7:40:53 pm

3G? For FaceTime?

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

I've turned wifi off

Me - 7:42:51 pm

FaceTime should be fine with 3G

Diana - 7:44:55 pm

4g

Diana - 7:45:00 pm

It depends where I am

Diana - 7:45:08 pm

Sometimes it works sometimes it downs t

Diana - 7:45:11 pm

Doesn't

Me - 7:45:24 pm

Yeah. Only 3G around the lake :))

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

Wifi fixed

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

Had to reconfigure

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

Argh

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

First time in a year though so I guess I shouldn't complain

Me - 8:13:56 pm

I'm taking your advice. Sitting outside watching it get dark. No wine though

Me - 8:14:24 pm

Change is here

Diana - 8:14:38 pm

That sounds like a nice way to pass the evening

Me - 8:14:53 pm

Sans wine? :))

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Except with wine might be a tad better ;)

Me - 8:14:57 pm

Haha

Me - 8:15:22 pm

I'll save the bottle I have left

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

I'm hanging out in singlet and undies and just realised the blinds were open :/

Me - 8:15:48 pm

Haha

Me - 8:16:10 pm

In bed yet?

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Sheesh you're pushy

Me - 8:16:23 pm

Haha

Me - 8:16:35 pm

Sleep after a hard day :))

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Didn't you organise with Donna to go yoga while I was there?

Me - 8:16:53 pm

No

Diana - 8:17:04 pm

Yea yea steady on

Diana - 8:17:24 pm

I'm pretty sure you did!

Me - 8:17:56 pm

We talked about maybe organizing it. Saw her on Tuesday, non yoga

Me - 8:18:13 pm

Maybe next week. We'll chat tomorrow

Diana - 8:18:41 pm

Oh ok

Me - 8:18:54 pm

Donna and I will chat, I mean

Me - 8:19:27 pm

She prefers training. But trying yoga once would be good.

Me - 8:19:36 pm

Mozzies!!

Me - 8:19:40 pm

Damn

Me - 8:19:58 pm

They like phone lights

Me - 8:20:00 pm

:))

Diana - 8:20:14 pm

Ok let's stop texting so the mozzies don't ruin your night

Me - 8:20:32 pm

Have a great sleep!

Me - 8:20:37 pm

xxx

Me - 8:21:13 pm

But I might go in anyway.

Diana - 8:21:46 pm

Ok good night

Diana - 8:21:54 pm

Not sending kisses

Diana - 8:22:00 pm

We don't kiss anymore

Me - 8:24:51 pm

Ok. But I don't think that stuff should be the subject of texts. It's possible to misconstrue meanings, etc. Today has been great!

Diana - 8:25:19 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:25:20 pm

Good night

Me - 8:25:27 pm

I'll see you tomorrow. Bright and fresh :)

Me - 8:25:51 pm

Night

**Thursday 23 October**

Me - 8:38:41 am

How did you sleep last night?

Me - 8:38:52 am

How did you sleep last night?

Me - 8:38:59 am

Good morning

Diana - 8:42:37 am

Morning, I slept well. I've woken really flat though, coming down after the build up to yesterday I guess

Diana - 8:42:40 am

How are you?

Me - 8:43:42 am

That's great you slept ok. You'll be tired for a day or two after yesterday's physical effort. Just need to take it easier

Diana - 8:43:45 am

You know if there was one person I could wish out of my life and it have no consequence on Imogen it would be her dad. He was upset I didnt check with him it was ok for Imogen to stay at Lillian's. Lillian is like a grandmother to her and has been since she was born.

Diana - 8:44:02 am

Yep today is a day to hop in a hole and bury myself.

Diana - 8:44:26 am

Or clean the house. Both are like black holes really

Me - 8:45:36 am

That's really sad about Imogen's dad. Something more to stress about infortunatley

Me - 8:45:36 am

Your house is fine. It's not dirty

Me - 8:46:09 am

Need to take today easy. Recovery is really important

Me - 8:47:12 am

I'm fine. Didn't sleep that great though

Me - 8:47:58 am

Come over here this arvo and relax by the lake. 23 degrees, should be pleasant.

Diana - 8:49:13 am

I will, I won't have much time though prob just enough for a coffee

Diana - 8:49:46 am

Yea he is hard work, and I've done really well to not tell him to go fuck himself these last 6 years.

Diana - 8:49:52 am

It's taken every spiritual effort I can muster

Diana - 8:49:52 am

Why didn't you sleep?

Me - 8:51:41 am

That's hard if the relationship is like that. He's going to be in your life, in a small way, until Imogen is an adult. Just got to tough it out. Like you're doing

Diana - 8:52:00 am

It'll be better when I'm not financially dependent on him too.

Diana - 8:52:00 am

I hate that he has that.

Diana - 8:52:00 am

Anyway, mostly it's ok. Just the occasional hick up like this morning

Me - 8:52:35 am

You're not dependant

Me - 8:52:42 am

He's paying for Imogen

Me - 8:53:04 am

As he should and must

Diana - 8:53:07 am

Hmm well that's what I try to tell him. I don't think he sees it that way though.

Diana - 8:53:22 am

He has always said he would stop paying when he cracks the shits

Diana - 8:53:37 am

He always recovers and apologises but uses it as a weapon

Me - 8:53:41 am

He can't do that

Me - 8:53:45 am

Legally

Diana - 8:53:44 am

And he pays heaps more than he needs to really

Me - 8:54:04 am

Stop paying I mean

Me - 8:54:10 am

Oh ok

Diana - 8:54:08 am

Ok it's school drop off time

Me - 8:54:34 am

Ok

Diana - 8:54:08 am

Then I have to take Joel to doctor too, that little sore on his face isn't healing, it needs to be looked at

Me - 8:54:49 am

I'm going to the gym

Me - 8:55:07 am

Ok hope it's ok

Diana - 8:55:31 am

He'll be fine, prob some thing from daycare

Diana - 8:55:37 am

Have a good morning at the gym

Diana - 8:55:42 am

Text me Beccas score :)

Me - 8:55:58 am

Haha ok. When I find out

Me - 9:54:21 am

Becca's score hasn't been entered and Hollie isn't here yet.

Diana - 10:20:42 am

I won't make it to the gym

Me - 10:29:34 am

Too tired? (Just finished with one client). Too busy?

Diana - 10:33:38 am

Had blood tests and they told me not to go to even do yoga

Diana - 10:33:56 am

And I don't really feel like it.

Diana - 10:34:24 am

Joel can't go to day care either and it's too late to get him in. We just want to go home

Me - 10:35:00 am

Do you want me to call you to talk about this?

Diana - 10:34:24 am

No but it's not good news

Diana - 10:34:24 am

I need some time

Me - 10:35:38 am

What's the problem?

Me - 10:36:26 am

Is it depletion from yesterday? Or more than that.

Diana - 10:36:30 am

I'll talk to you later today

Me - 10:36:37 am

Ok

Me - 10:37:18 am

I'll text when I've finished my 11pm client and we can work out what works for you.

Diana - 10:40:48 am

Ok

Diana - 11:24:03 am

The place I get my massages are looking for another therapist, if you think that might work

Me - 11:33:27 am

I've just finished. I'm at your disposal for the rest of today. What do you need?

Diana - 11:35:48 am

Nothing, but thanks

Diana - 11:36:04 am

We are just lying on the couch watching a movie

Diana - 11:36:16 am

I am going to have Joel today and tomorrow as he would be infectious to other kids.

Diana - 11:36:16 am

And I'll take Imogen to the docs after school and get her checked also before I go away to make sure she is ok

Diana - 11:36:16 am

I should have taken him to the docs earlier but the chemist said the cream would work

Diana - 11:36:16 am

Anyway never mind

Diana - 11:36:16 am

How was your session?

Diana - 11:36:16 am

Any scores in?

Diana - 11:37:50 am

My car needs stuff but they said I'll get away with it for another month. That's a bit of good news ;)

Me - 11:43:11 am

So what did the doctor say about you? And what does Joel have?

Diana - 11:42:40 am

Joel has a school sore, when I took him to the pharmacy Monday they said they cream I bought would do the trick but it hasn't, so now he has anti biotics. I should have just taken him to the doctors in the beginning. Bad mum

Me - 11:45:49 am

You can't go to the doctor everytime for everything. It's happened to all of us. I've done much worse! And you? Blood test said what?

Diana - 11:46:56 am

And me? Well you'd better go get tested. Are we texting this? Ok. So it looks like I have an STD.

Me - 11:46:56 am

Which one? We should talk about this right? Don't think texting is great. Agree?

Diana - 11:46:56 am

I haven't had unprotected sex since I was in my 20s, the doctor says stress, physical, or emotional can cause the immune system antibodies to lose resistance. I'm so so sorry mark but I had no idea. I'm literally going to hide from you for the rest of my life.

Me - 11:46:56 am

Treatable or not treatable?

Diana - 11:46:56 am

Haven't got results of blood tests.

Diana - 11:46:56 am

So again, I am sorry. I honestly had no idea.

Me - 11:48:20 am

It's not a problem! I'd like to come and see you, if it fits in with Joel.

Diana - 11:46:56 am

Seriously I'm bathing in shame and depression

Diana - 11:46:56 am

I don't think I can see you

Me - 11:49:27 am

Best thing for it! Don't wallow!

Me - 11:49:31 am

Let me come now. I'm in the car at the gym.

Me - 11:49:49 am

Even if only for minutes. Don't let this stew

Diana - 11:50:01 am

I can't

Diana - 11:50:04 am

Really

Diana - 11:50:14 am

I'm sorry if I've stuffed your afternoon around

Diana - 11:50:25 am

If I see you and talk I'll lose it and cry

Diana - 11:50:34 am

I'm just holding it together in front of Joel now

Me - 11:50:45 am

Ok. Not in front of Joel. I get it

Me - 11:51:02 am

Tonight then. After bed time

Diana - 11:51:05 am

And I won't not have him until tomorrow evening

Diana - 11:51:10 am

And then I have to work

Diana - 11:51:12 am

And you're gone saturday

Diana - 11:51:44 am

It's prob best to have some time to digest it all anyway

Me - 11:53:15 am

Don't do it on your own. Let me come over tonight. How about I cancel Saturday?

Me - 11:53:38 am

This is too big to try and work out yourself

Diana - 11:54:01 am

No way!

Diana - 11:56:18 am

You said it the other day, that the stress would come out in my body

Me - 11:55:09 am

I'm here to help. However you want me to.

Diana - 11:56:18 am

I can't believe it. I can't believe this would happen. I've been so careful since I got clean

Diana - 11:56:25 am

You need to make a docs app asap please

Diana - 11:57:28 am

I'll be ok, and you need to do the running class.

Diana - 11:57:36 am

I hope you're not angry at me though I can't blame you if you are

Diana - 11:57:36 am

Anyway no texting real stuff remember.

Diana - 11:58:51 am

I feel so depressed I can hardly lift my head. Lucky I know this too shall pass.

Diana - 11:59:01 am

Please eat. And call the doctor.

Me - 12:00:15 pm

If I can't see you then it has to be texts. No blame, no ill will. I feel the same about you. Nothing has changed. I want to help, I wish you'd let me. Being depressed on your own is not a good thing for you.

Me - 12:00:34 pm

Maybe I can help with Joel? Let you have a snooze

Me - 12:00:48 pm

Just this time

Me - 12:02:34 pm

It would let you digest the information. You've got to get through today. I can help with that. I've cancelled the massage for tonight, just in case you needed me

Me - 12:03:44 pm

And on Saturday I'll be back by 12. I could be with you, drive you to work, hang around south bank and drive you home. If you wish.

Me - 12:04:48 pm

Ok. I'm going home. Let me know. I'm here for you. Always.

Diana - 12:10:24 pm

Thanks

Diana - 12:12:08 pm

Don't cancel your massage please

Diana - 12:12:13 pm

Or your day

Diana - 12:12:20 pm

It'll just make me feel worse

Diana - 12:12:32 pm

I seriously know how to cope with stuff

Diana - 12:12:32 pm

I want you to make sure you are ok

Diana - 12:12:32 pm

That will be a relief

Diana - 12:12:32 pm

Please rebook the massahr

Diana - 12:12:32 pm

Massahr

Diana - 12:12:32 pm

Argh massage!!

Diana - 12:12:32 pm

I have to take Imogen to the doctors anyway, so I won't be home

Diana - 12:12:32 pm

And I'll try to make them a healthy dinner before we even leave

Diana - 12:12:32 pm

But please don't change your plans I feel bad enough about everything

Me - 12:17:02 pm

You've got the dinners I made in the freezer. Maybe use them.

Me - 12:18:18 pm

I don't think you really get this love stuff. Times like these are when it counts. When it's needed. You have it. You just need to use it. That's what it's there for.

Me - 12:21:19 pm

I'm just going to do stuff around here today. I'll be here whenever, of if, you need me. The massage was just with Michael, I rescheduled for tomorrow.

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

You're prob right

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

I don't get it

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

I've always handled things on my own

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

One of the things I saw mum do I guess

Me - 12:36:44 pm

Try something difdernt this time :)

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

And not let herself be taken care of

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

Have you organised a doctors appointment?

Me - 12:37:58 pm

No, but I will

Me - 12:39:26 pm

There's no need to handle this on your own. With someone sympathetic, it is always better.

Me - 12:40:21 pm

And losing it in front of the kids is not a bad thing. Do my kids look damaged? It's fine, I promise you.

Me - 12:40:46 pm

And sometimes losing it means quicker recovery.

Me - 12:41:01 pm

Then the kids are better off.

Me - 12:41:42 pm

We could swap cars next week, if you'd feel safer

Diana - 12:41:53 pm

Sheesh you should have been a politician ;)

Diana - 12:42:02 pm

No it's fine, the car is all good

Diana - 12:42:08 pm

I'll get it later today

Diana - 12:55:39 pm

Did you eat?

Me - 12:56:12 pm

Yes. How are you now? Your silences worry me.

Me - 12:56:46 pm

Still on the couch?

Diana - 12:58:04 pm

I just made Joel some lunch

Diana - 12:58:10 pm

Back on the couch

Diana - 12:58:18 pm

You don't need to worry

Diana - 12:58:21 pm

Really

Me - 12:58:29 pm

Coping?

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

I'd almost prefer it if you were angry at me

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

I always cope

Me - 1:00:09 pm

Raaarrrrr!

Me - 1:00:13 pm

Better?

Diana - 1:00:15 pm

Survive a holocaust my dad reckons

Diana - 1:00:59 pm

I'm doing what I need to do

Diana - 1:01:31 pm

I'll let myself lose my shit once the kids are in bed asleep

Diana - 1:01:36 pm

You remember that Huh?

Diana - 1:01:36 pm

How are you?

Me - 1:03:52 pm

I'm fine. Why wouldn't I be? It's happened, nothing I can do about the past. I'm only worried about you. And that maybe I've caused all this stress for you.

Diana - 1:14:22 pm

Why wouldn't you be?

Diana - 1:14:24 pm

Because it's possible I've infected you that's why.

Me - 1:15:15 pm

I know.

Diana - 1:37:52 pm

What's this about? He is my friends trainer. Kids playing tricks I guess

Me - 1:42:18 pm

Don't know anything about it.

Me - 1:43:05 pm

It would have to be true if it's posted by him, right? Or can you do that in Facebook

Me - 1:43:22 pm

Richard has never looked happy

Me - 1:44:07 pm

Grumpy old guy, mostly. He had a go at me once, for no real reason.

Diana - 1:44:16 pm

Really?

Diana - 1:44:16 pm

He's always been nice to me, he trains my friend Katherine every week

Diana - 1:44:16 pm

Someone could have done it as a joke

Diana - 1:46:24 pm

Coffee time

Diana - 1:46:24 pm

I'm going to buy wine tonight

Me - 1:47:44 pm

Haha. Me too! Exactly now

Diana - 1:48:18 pm

I was given pill for pain too, that'll make for an unconscious night, exactly what I need

Diana - 1:48:32 pm

Of course I'll have to get off the couch. That's going to be tricky

Me - 1:49:12 pm

Another hour before school pickup. Where's the pain? The sore?

Diana - 2:02:33 pm

I think maybe she suggested them to just help me relax a little

Diana - 2:02:40 pm

Shouldn't asked for Valium ;)

Diana - 2:02:52 pm

Hey did you end up getting the score?

Me - 2:03:28 pm

No sign of Hollie today, by when I left. And nothing entered into the system.

Diana - 2:03:28 pm

Ok

Me - 2:04:04 pm

There is another staff member doing standard women. I looked at her score

Me - 2:04:14 pm

290, for standard

Diana - 2:04:26 pm

290kg??

Diana - 2:04:36 pm

What do you mean? Who is doing that?

Diana - 2:04:42 pm

What was my score?

Me - 2:05:01 pm

Standard!!! Different category. The next level up. You did 300

Diana - 2:05:22 pm

Who is doing that?

Diana - 2:05:34 pm

None of the staff look that strong

Me - 2:05:38 pm

A staff member, don't know her

Diana - 2:05:36 pm

Then I don't look strong either I guess

Me - 2:06:21 pm

There are some part time weekend only staff women. Could be one of them.

Me - 2:07:00 pm

Staying on the couch until 3?

Diana - 2:07:07 pm

Yep

Diana - 2:07:25 pm

getting up only to get kids and go to the docs

Diana - 2:07:37 pm

And buy Birthday card

Diana - 2:07:42 pm

Then back home into a coma

Me - 2:08:05 pm

Oh yeah. We forgot the card the other day when shopping

Diana - 2:09:52 pm

Sheesh I'm glad I have time to process all of this before going to mums

Me - 2:11:20 pm

Can you talk to her about this?

Diana - 2:11:46 pm

I wouldn't

Diana - 2:11:51 pm

She has enough to deal with

Me - 2:13:53 pm

Yeah, you're right.

Me - 2:14:44 pm

But you need to talk about it. Often just having someone listening helps order your own thoughts

Me - 2:15:17 pm

It's different having to use words than just thoughts

Me - 2:18:58 pm

How's the blender?

Diana - 2:18:24 pm

Yea I usually need time on my own before I can talk to anyone

Diana - 2:18:24 pm

It's great

Diana - 2:18:24 pm

Though I've eaten porridge for breakfast these last two days

Diana - 2:18:24 pm

Not sure why

Me - 2:19:56 pm

Just taking it out of the nice

Me - 2:20:05 pm

Of the box

Diana - 2:18:24 pm

Subconsciously trying to give myself more energy I think

Me - 2:20:18 pm

Oats are the best!!

Diana - 2:20:32 pm

I still have blueberries and protein powder on them

Me - 2:21:13 pm

You'll have to give me some good smoothy recipes

Diana - 2:20:32 pm

I used to eat them all the time until I started to try to lose more weight

Diana - 2:20:32 pm

I think anything with banana is good, I can't eat them anymore but you can't go wrong with bananas

Me - 2:22:17 pm

Maybe we should switch you to running for a little while. Lots of goals there.

Me - 2:22:30 pm

Lots of thinking time too

Diana - 2:22:44 pm

Banana smoothies with yoghurt and honey and soy milk with a sprinkle of cinnamon on the top are the best

Diana - 2:22:46 pm

My kids love them

Diana - 2:23:22 pm

I don't really need to run to lose weight, I just need to eat less but Yep Id like to learn to run longer for sure

Diana - 2:23:27 pm

Trail running

Diana - 2:23:36 pm

I still want to lift heavier though

Diana - 2:23:41 pm

That's important to me

Me - 2:25:21 pm

You/We can do both. The running will be a "rest" from lifting heavy, which may allow you lift heavier quicker. More muscle recovery time. I need to work out programs like that

Diana - 2:25:27 pm

And I like the shape my body is getting from lifting

Diana - 2:25:38 pm

Yes trail running :)

Diana - 2:25:43 pm

A mix would be good

Me - 2:25:46 pm

I like the shape too :)

Me - 2:29:25 pm

I need to do a supplements order (protein, pre workout, etc). I'll get you that ON soy protein if you like. And what favour pre workout do you prefer?

Diana - 2:33:20 pm

Do you use creatine?

Me - 2:33:43 pm

Have done. But expensive

Me - 2:33:54 pm

Only supplement known to work

Me - 2:34:05 pm

Scientifically tested I mean

Me - 2:34:17 pm

Except protein, of course

Me - 2:35:58 pm

I could get you some, if you want

Diana - 2:36:58 pm

What does it do?

Me - 2:37:11 pm

Looks like nutrition warehouse doesn't have the soy ON protein

Diana - 2:37:15 pm

No don't get me anything, I'm just asking

Me - 2:38:06 pm

You don't need it. Allows for a more sustained physical effort. But you need to take it for a while before the effects kick in. Weeks I've heard

Me - 2:38:39 pm

Don't need pre workout? I don't believe you :)

Diana - 2:38:55 pm

Ha! I did have a few scoops yesterday ;)

Me - 2:39:12 pm

What flavor?

Me - 2:40:08 pm

They have red back soy, pure wellness soy

Me - 2:40:28 pm

Want to try one? Just see?

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

Ok

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

What's red back soy?

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

Sounds poisonous

Me - 2:41:11 pm

Ha. Out of stock

Me - 2:41:40 pm

Pure wellness out of stock

Me - 2:42:58 pm

They have Designer Physique soy protein. "Natural" flavor. Whatever that means

Diana - 2:43:39 pm

Designer physique that's what I'm after ;)

Diana - 2:43:48 pm

All soy is out of stock?

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

That's a good sign people are giving the cows a rest

Me - 2:44:48 pm

Ok. I'll get a designer physique one for you. Pre workout flavor?

Diana - 2:45:44 pm

Is it expensive?

Diana - 2:45:51 pm

Silly question they're all expensive

Diana - 2:46:01 pm

I've got some pea protein left

Diana - 2:46:05 pm

Green apple

Me - 2:46:11 pm

Ok

Me - 2:54:22 pm

All done. Might even be shipped this afternoon

Diana - 3:05:20 pm

Ok cool thanks very much.

Diana - 3:05:20 pm

Maybe I should have a scoop to help me with school pick up ;)

Me - 3:06:13 pm

I don't think so. You need to sleep more.

Me - 3:08:44 pm

While your getting up to go, get your bank details and text them to me. Let's get this done. Reducing stress is really important :)

Me - 3:16:09 pm

Going for a run. No comms for a bit. Hope the doctor visit goes ok.

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Thanks

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Enjoy your run

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Just got Imogen from school

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Didn't use pre workout

Diana - 4:24:16 pm

Cheap and nasty but a sweet escape sounds good :)

Me - 4:31:51 pm

:)) Just got back this minute from my run. An evening of forgetfulness coming up Huh?

Me - 4:40:13 pm

How was the doctor?

Diana - 4:51:39 pm

Ok, but Yep she has school sores too. Doctor said its ok for her to go to school as they'd be covered

Me - 4:52:34 pm

She feels ok?

Diana - 4:52:00 pm

Yep she feels fine

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

She just got barbie bandaids so is quite happy ;)

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

And I remembered the card

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

And I got the wine

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

And the car back

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

See, there's no time for depression

Me - 5:02:38 pm

Busy is good at these times. If there's responsibility for others you can't afford it.

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

How depressing, I can't even afford depression ;))

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

How was your run?

Me - 5:06:38 pm

I'm doing the class in the morning, just wanted to get out and turn the legs over before it. Good. Nice and easy, listening to music.

Diana - 5:08:25 pm

That's good

Diana - 5:08:47 pm

I may not make it to the gym in the morning but I'll go in around 1230 if I can't get there earlier

Me - 5:10:43 pm

Don't rush the gym. Still need recovery from yesterday. It will take longer than you think. You'll try and lift and just not have it. Go in with the mind set to do lighter weights and you'll be fine.

Me - 5:11:49 pm

And the recent stress will have taken its toll too. No pre workout. Listen to your body tomorrow.

Diana - 5:14:34 pm

I'm not going to lift heavy

Diana - 5:14:47 pm

I'm going to have a play date that's all :)

Diana - 5:14:55 pm

Before work, I don't start until 3

Me - 5:15:07 pm

Ok

Me - 5:17:58 pm

Going to eat tonight :))

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

Actually looks like Jarrod is going to do the very hungry caterpillar trail with Imogen in the morning so I will book Joel into the 1030 session and just go in and play anyway

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

Wow! Miracles do happen

Me - 5:22:05 pm

Finished product.

Me - 5:22:24 pm

Ok. That's good for the morning.

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

Yes I feel a little guilty but really am not in the mood for a Prep excursion

Diana - 5:23:46 pm

Good, now eat atleast half of it ;)

Me - 5:24:23 pm

Wow! Half? I'd explode! Haha. I'll see how I go.

Me - 5:25:19 pm

I have lost a lot of weight over the last few weeks. Need to train more (not running) and eat more. If I don't train I just don't feel hungry at all.

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

Have I caused you to lose weight?

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

Is it stress?

Me - 5:26:42 pm

Stress-ish :)) Mild case compared to yours.

Diana - 5:26:08 pm

From me Huh?

Diana - 5:26:08 pm

Or am I being grandiose?

Diana - 5:26:08 pm

And the wine is open and poured

Me - 5:30:29 pm

Filled the plate. Ok? :))

Diana - 5:30:34 pm

I feel terrible for not going on the excursion now! bad mum

Me - 5:30:52 pm

Diana!! Stop it!

Me - 5:31:14 pm

Dad is doing it! It's good to do that.

Me - 5:31:23 pm

You said she prefers you

Me - 5:31:39 pm

So the more time with dad doing fun stuff is good

Diana - 5:31:42 pm

She does, she is happy her dad is doing it but wished I was going

Diana - 5:31:50 pm

Ok yes you have a point

Me - 5:32:09 pm

Yeah. Fun stuff. Not just sleeping over

Me - 5:32:17 pm

With peers

Me - 5:32:45 pm

Who may mostly have mum's. But she'll have her dad! Awesome!

Diana - 5:33:14 pm

Yep ok cool

Diana - 5:33:40 pm

Thanks

Diana - 5:33:53 pm

You didn't answer the question about your stress

Me - 5:34:18 pm

No I didn't. Haha. Non texting subject :)

Me - 5:34:29 pm

But don't stress about my stress

Diana - 5:34:32 pm

Seriously

Diana - 5:34:37 pm

It is me isn't it

Me - 5:35:14 pm

The "situation", perhaps. A little :)

Diana - 5:35:19 pm

It wouldn't be irresponsible to drink a bottle of wine tomorrow night when I don't have the kids would it ;)

Diana - 5:35:25 pm

The 'situation'?

Me - 5:35:31 pm

Us

Me - 5:35:42 pm

Drink it over here

Diana - 5:36:29 pm

Which bit of us?

Diana - 5:36:32 pm

All of us?

Diana - 5:36:47 pm

You have to get up early I don't want to make you have a late night

Me - 5:37:27 pm

Stop it! My descision. I invited you. Please come.

Me - 5:38:20 pm

And the other stuff is for talking. After sleep time tonight, if you're not comatose by then :))

Me - 5:38:58 pm

This is a lot of food!!!

Diana - 5:38:56 pm

One can only hope

Me - 5:46:16 pm

Holy shit! I'm going to have to lie down :))

Diana - 5:45:20 pm

Eat!!

Diana - 5:45:20 pm

I've had one glass, getting the kids to bed is going to be fun ;)

Me - 5:47:01 pm

Sing old sea shanties together! Works well when you're drunk haha

Diana - 5:47:02 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 5:47:20 pm

One big meal a day is almost the worst thing you can do to yourself!

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

Apart from no big meals a day ;)

Me - 5:47:43 pm

Can't win! Sigh! :))

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

Ha! Atm I'm cooking dinner, washing clothes to add to the never ending pile, sorting out fruit for the hungry caterpillar trail and drinking wine. :)

Diana - 5:48:51 pm

I don't mean to make you feel like you can't win, sorry

Diana - 5:49:03 pm

Your relationship with food is shocking though ;))

Diana - 5:49:28 pm

So is mine

Diana - 5:49:36 pm

So we are causing eachother stress huh

Diana - 5:49:36 pm

That's not good

Me - 5:49:58 pm

It's fine!

Me - 5:50:23 pm

Don't make any decisions based in that.

Diana - 5:49:36 pm

No it's not, but you don't feel like you can say anything

Diana - 5:49:36 pm

Haha! You've gone back to telling me what to do

Diana - 5:49:36 pm

I honestly feel like I could collapse on the kitchen floor under me ;)

Me - 5:51:27 pm

Tough night. Deep breaths. Nearly there.

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

Dig deeper ;)

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

Or drink deeper :)

Me - 5:52:20 pm

"Not us" is more stressful. But I shouldn't be texting that

Me - 5:52:30 pm

Yeah. Both will work

Me - 5:52:44 pm

Especially drink deeper

Me - 5:52:52 pm

Git to time it right though

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

I don't think I have drunk a whole bottle of wine since I was in my 20s

Me - 5:53:07 pm

So kids are in bed, at least haha

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

Yep, I'm stopping now until I get them sorted

Me - 5:53:27 pm

Except Saturday!! Forgotten already?

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

What's happening Saturday?

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

Oh that's what I mean

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

Last Saturday night was the first bottle I have drink

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

you know, not us would only be more stressful in the short term but much less stressful in the long term

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

I have a feeling you know that already

Diana - 5:56:00 pm

Do you have massages tomorrow

Diana - 5:58:08 pm

Well god knows how but I've managed to sort something relatively healthy and actually put it on a plate! :)

Me - 5:58:24 pm

No. Disagree. Feeling is wrong. We've come such a long way, we're so close to working out what will work. Just a few tweaks is needed I think

Me - 5:58:46 pm

Michael at 5pm. That's all.

Me - 5:59:02 pm

Glad the kids won't starve tonight :))

Me - 5:59:46 pm

Ok. Shower after run time. The phone would get wet, so I won't be texting for a little while :)

Diana - 6:00:48 pm

You know Karen came to me asking for parenting advice this morning, and I'm half drunk, too late to the doctors for my child and not going on the excursion with my daughter. I'm going to hand her the number to parentline next time

Diana - 6:00:53 pm

Enjoy your shower

Diana - 6:01:09 pm

I've figured out the needed tweaks too ;)

Me - 6:01:37 pm

You're an awssome mother! You're kids are happy and you're coping. That's it

Me - 6:02:09 pm

Well, I think your tweaks are difdernt from

Mine. We'll need to compare tweaks and compromise :)

Me - 6:02:16 pm

Ok. Getting wet niw

Me - 6:14:12 pm

Refreshed. Back again. :)

Diana - 6:16:21 pm

They just kissed me and called me the best mummy in the world

Diana - 6:16:47 pm

But I think it's cause I let them leave dinner to go dance to a 1D song

Diana - 6:16:56 pm

Or that I bought them a special desert

Me - 6:17:12 pm

Or maybe everything you do.

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

Pffft ;)

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

Somehow dinner has turned into a desert Dance party

Me - 6:22:04 pm

And that's, partly, why you're kids are so happy. They have a mum who's there for them. Even if she's partly drunk :)

Diana - 6:23:15 pm

And it's just awful they don't like the desert and so I can't bare to see it go to waste ;))

Me - 6:23:59 pm

Save it! I'll help you out later. But, of course, I'm guessing it's a all gone by now :))

Diana - 6:23:44 pm

It sure is!!

Diana - 6:23:44 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 6:23:44 pm

Now I'm a half drunk whale :)

Diana - 6:23:44 pm

Skipping in the back yard

Diana - 6:23:44 pm

Back inside for dishes. Argh

Me - 6:26:52 pm

Hot soapy water. Yay! Play time. Make bubbles or something

Diana - 6:28:00 pm

No she is practising her skipping and Calls me out to watch with each new success

Diana - 6:28:00 pm

Bit like me with you when I lift ;)

Me - 6:30:00 pm

:)) That's cool

Diana - 6:30:08 pm

Yea I just get to turn the tap on before I have to go back out ;)

Diana - 6:43:52 pm

So I just realised I could go to the gym in the morning then once Joel has been picked up go back and smash myself again

Diana - 6:43:58 pm

Not going heavy of course

Me - 6:45:22 pm

Ok. Smash yourself? :)

Diana - 6:45:04 pm

Yes, anything to avoid housework ;)

Me - 6:46:12 pm

Haha Good choice

Me - 7:02:20 pm

Bath time, I'm guessing?

Diana - 7:10:40 pm

Yes

Diana - 7:10:40 pm

So that's time to have a second wine right?

Me - 7:11:47 pm

Yeah. Go for it!

Diana - 7:20:54 pm

Ha!

Diana - 7:20:57 pm

Enabler ;)

Me - 7:21:55 pm

Conscience? :)

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

Pfft I have way too much of that already!

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

Wine.. Not so much ;)

Diana - 7:36:57 pm

They really are happy kids

Diana - 7:37:18 pm

Joel is counting out aloud and asking Imogen if its right from seperate bedrooms

Me - 7:37:36 pm

Yes, they are. You should be proud!

Me - 7:38:00 pm

Are they in bed?

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

Can you be proud of people being who they intrinsically are?

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

Yep its sweet nothings time

Me - 7:38:48 pm

But you bring that out.

Me - 7:52:59 pm

Status?

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

Boy is sleep

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

Asleep

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

Just left girl

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

She needed some time

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

And I won't have time with her again until Monday morning before school no real time until

Thursday

Diana - 7:59:26 pm

My status, glass of wine no 2 almost done

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

With a smidge of dimetap and a washing basket that never empties

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

If only my wallet would do that ;)

Me - 8:00:08 pm

Company?

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

I don't have any

Me - 8:00:57 pm

I mean, can I come over?

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Unless you count henry

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Give Imogen some time to get to sleep?

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Are you sure you want to?

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

I mean seriously

Me - 8:01:23 pm

Of course

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

After the news today?

Me - 8:01:34 pm

Yes

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Or maybe you just want to hit me ;)

Me - 8:01:46 pm

Just text me when Imogen is asleep

Me - 8:02:03 pm

Do I need long pants for the couch?

Me - 8:02:48 pm

I hope the "yes" arrived in the right sequence

Me - 8:03:10 pm

To "after today's news"

Me - 8:03:28 pm

Making yogurt, then I'm yours

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

I'm a bit of a train wreck

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

Prob not great company

Me - 8:05:21 pm

Just text me when.

Diana - 8:07:43 pm

Imogen just came out asking if she could sleep in my bed

Diana - 8:07:52 pm

Of course the little poppet can

Diana - 8:08:03 pm

I'm the luckiest mum in the world really

Me - 8:08:11 pm

Yep

Diana - 8:08:13 pm

I know I know

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

Every mum think fat nay

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

That!

Diana - 8:13:12 pm

I just told her you were coming over to talk about the gym comp so come whenever you like

Diana - 8:13:39 pm

I'm warning you though, it's dark I'm grumpy and half drunk

Me - 8:13:58 pm

On my way

Me - 8:25:22 pm

I'm outside

**Friday 24 October**

Me - 7:58:49 am

Good morning. How did you sleep?

Diana - 8:02:52 am

Really well, even woke at the usual 520 and fell back to sleep until 7 :)

Diana - 8:02:54 am

How about you?

Me - 8:04:00 am

That's awesome. Same here, slept pretty well. The power of the hug, I reckon :)

Me - 8:05:37 am

The lake is dead calm and it's misty. Looks beautiful this morning.

Diana - 8:22:08 am

Silly me thought the codeine and wine was to blame :)

Diana - 8:22:08 am

Misty lake, go for a morning paddle!

Me - 8:24:08 am

Haha. Maybe a combination of all three, perhaps.

Me - 8:24:47 am

Going into the gym soon. But I am outside enjoying it. :)

Diana - 8:26:24 am

Oh yes

Diana - 8:26:24 am

Enjoy the running class

Diana - 8:26:24 am

It is a good morning for a paddle

Me - 8:28:02 am

Hopefully tommorow morning will be as good, so you can go for one.

Me - 8:29:00 am

The sun's breaking through now. Still misty.

Me - 8:29:19 am

What are you planning after Joel and before work today?

Me - 8:29:48 am

Don't say housework! :) It's supposed to be 30 degrees

Me - 8:32:53 am

Come here, if you like, and we could go for a (double) canoe. Or a canoe and a paddle, or a paddle and a paddle.

Diana - 8:36:17 am

Ha! Wow the options ;)

Diana - 8:37:04 am

I don't know, but I kind of feel like I need to just chill and give my mind time to catch up to everything

Me - 8:37:46 am

Yeah. I understand. And it's only a few hours, I guess.

Me - 8:38:14 am

Maybe a rain check until Saturday afternoon?

Diana - 8:40:04 am

It's not really that long, by the time I have a shower etc

Diana - 8:40:20 am

Yes, you need an early night tonight

Diana - 8:40:56 am

I'm not sure what I'm going to do tomorrow yet, I am catching up with my cousin for a beach dog walk and would like to go to the gym also

Me - 8:42:49 am

Ok. I thought you were going for a sup in the morning? But we can play the afternoon by ear. That's fine. I'll be back by midday or so.

Diana - 8:42:58 am

What is it with kids socks and the Houdini factor?

Me - 8:43:02 am

Probably no more running though haha

Diana - 8:43:13 am

I don't know what I'm doing

Diana - 8:43:19 am

I don't really like planning stuff for my days off

Diana - 8:43:28 am

When I have no kids I like to just see what I feel like doing otherwise it's like having the kids and having to do stuff

Me - 8:44:31 am

Yeah. That sounds fine. We'll be in contact anyway, I'm sure.

Me - 8:44:54 am

Still going to the early crèche session at the gym today?

Me - 8:45:20 am

If so, I might see you, if you're still there after the class.

Me - 8:45:41 am

Anyway, I'm sure it's busy at your house

Me - 8:46:06 am

School time. Talk later

Diana - 8:51:55 am

Just had to say goodbye to Imogen, her dad came to get her

Me - 8:52:28 am

Oh yeah. Excursion morning.

Diana - 8:52:00 am

And Joels booked into 1030 session

Me - 8:53:34 am

Housework now? Haha

Diana - 8:54:03 am

Well not all of us are retired with cleaners

Diana - 8:54:08 am

Getting kids bags ready for their dads

Diana - 8:56:16 am

And Yep housework

Me - 8:58:16 am

And I'm going to run on a treadmill, inside a gym, on a beautiful day like today :)

Diana - 9:00:32 am

Yes it's insane

Diana - 9:00:32 am

I'm sitting here literally questioning why I'm going

Diana - 9:00:32 am

Diana - 9:00:32 am

I've never done lunges with the bar

Diana - 9:03:37 am

Is the first one a sprint?

Me - 9:04:15 am

?? Floor to overhead, 3 times?

Me - 9:04:54 am

I just had a great idea

Diana - 9:04:48 am

The first one?

Me - 9:05:08 am

Yeah first one

Diana - 9:05:13 am

It's a pic of a wall isn't it?

Diana - 9:05:18 am

X2?

Diana - 9:05:28 am

Ok

Me - 9:05:49 am

Yeah x 2

Diana - 9:05:52 am

What's your great idea? I score some speed for this one?

Me - 9:06:08 am

Not about the wow, sorry. I interrupted

Diana - 9:06:56 am

Oh

Diana - 9:06:56 am

I'll row today

Me - 9:07:23 am

Looks like cleans, lunges, push-ups, lateral burpees, rowing

Me - 9:07:51 am

You reckon?

Diana - 9:09:04 am

You'd know better than I would

Me - 9:09:15 am

Actually, a row may be all you need today. Plus your warm up stuff

Diana - 9:09:04 am

With fairly light weights

Diana - 9:09:04 am

Ok so what was your great idea?

Diana - 9:10:06 am

You'll check Beccas score? That's a great idea :)

Me - 9:11:09 am

Before you go Sunday, let's go to Peninsula. The driving range, the awesome short game area for chipping and the putting green. Get some practice in before you see your mum? Maybe an hour or two. Good idea?

Me - 9:11:22 am

Got to go in 4 mins :)

Diana - 9:12:56 am

Hmm

Diana - 9:13:13 am

Atm I don't feel like doing much before driving to mums on Monday, but maybe?

Diana - 9:13:17 am

Enjoy the class

Me - 9:13:24 am

Ok thanks

Diana - 9:21:39 am

I'm not meaning to not be enthusiastic, I need some time to process stuff though. I think it's been nearly 3 weeks since I've had a moment to myself, so I don't want to say yes to doing something I'm unsure I'll want to do just yet

Diana - 9:21:47 am

Are you ok with that?

Diana - 9:21:52 am

I really need some time to catch up with everything that's happened recently

Me - 9:23:06 am

Yeah. Totally understand. Got to run. Literally haha

Diana - 10:49:20 am

Did you see what Becca was lifting?

Diana - 10:49:20 am

Was it 87.5? On the deads?

Me - 10:50:05 am

No didn't see

Diana - 10:49:20 am

She asked me if I was going to the dinner and if we would like to go together

Me - 10:50:17 am

I checked the computer

Diana - 10:50:34 am

She just did it now

Me - 10:50:38 am

Ok

Diana - 10:50:49 am

I only saw 80 on the bar

Diana - 10:50:56 am

But Michael yelled something like 87.5!!!

Diana - 10:51:03 am

Or maybe it was 37.5

Me - 10:51:28 am

I doubt Becca could do 87 deads.

Me - 10:51:44 am

Maybe 80, at a stretch

Diana - 10:55:38 am

Can you ask Michael? He just came up and talked to me about lifting and asked what I got and if I was going to do the next round of 12 week ffs

Me - 11:00:36 am

Just ask yourself. Or ask Hollie or Becca. They'd tell you. You're there. I'd have to make another trip into the gym.

Diana - 11:00:00 am

I just thought text

Diana - 11:00:00 am

Don't worry

Diana - 11:27:44 am

What are you doing this afternoon?

Diana - 11:27:44 am

I think I'm nearly done here

Me - 11:29:28 am

Nothing. I'm sitting outside eating, thinking about having a shower.

Diana - 11:32:00 am

I'll text you when Joel is gone and see if you're still home

Me - 11:33:12 am

Yeah. He texted me to say he'd be too late today.

Me - 11:33:24 am

Want me to come there or you come here?

Diana - 11:34:08 am

Maybe I can come there and we can go for a walk or something

Diana - 11:34:08 am

If you want to go out and do stuff that's cool though

Me - 11:35:40 am

Ok. I'll go and get some soy milk, after a shower.

Me - 11:35:55 am

Just text and come over

Me - 11:36:18 am

Bring a change of clothes. If we decide on a canoe or something

Me - 11:36:34 am

A paddle

Diana - 11:44:48 am

Ok I'll bring work clothes to change in to and just come in my gym gear, I didn't break a sweat

Diana - 11:52:32 am

I think I went too heavy or too many on those hip things with the bar

Diana - 11:54:40 am
When the wows

Are over is it cool to take me just once through the program so I lock in the form

Me - 11:58:08 am

I'll take you through heaps of programs.

Diana - 11:57:36 am

Yep 87.5 for 3 reps

Me - 11:58:16 am

Becca?

Diana - 11:57:36 am

I wonder if it was both times ?

Me - 11:58:22 am

Bench?

Diana - 11:57:36 am

Yep holly has put it on fb

Diana - 11:57:36 am

I don't know about bench

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

You have to find out her bench!!

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

Or not ;)

Me - 12:06:18 pm

I'm, probably, massaging Michael this evening. I can only ask.

Diana - 12:10:10 pm

Neils running late

Diana - 12:10:40 pm

Well unless She beached more than me I should be ok, and by the results of the other wows she's not strong overhead

Diana - 12:12:32 pm

If Neil is running too late for me to come over I could maybe come tonight just for a quick visit and make sure you get a good nights sleep for tomorrow?

Diana - 12:13:10 pm

Should be practice wow sunday?

Diana - 12:13:20 pm

Try it monday? And redo it Friday?

Diana - 12:13:22 pm

Or Thursday?

Diana - 12:13:28 pm

I won't be around to do it Wednesday

Diana - 12:13:56 pm

Just think this is the last time I am going to hassle you about wows ever!

Me - 12:15:05 pm

Been in the supermarket. Let's talk about this when you get here

Diana - 12:15:11 pm

I can hear your thank god from here!

Me - 12:15:15 pm

Late is fine by me

Me - 12:15:56 pm

Just come over when you can

Me - 12:15:56 pm

Got almond milk too :)

Diana - 12:16:26 pm

I mean too late for me to get there before going to work today

Diana - 12:16:36 pm

He didn't say how long he will be, I'll text and ask

Me - 12:17:13 pm

Oh ok. What time would that be? You've got until 2-ish right?

Diana - 12:17:40 pm

Yep kind of pushing it

Me - 12:18:20 pm

Let's see what what happens with Neil

Me - 12:25:58 pm

If Neil is running really late, I'll come over while you get ready for work. We can talk about the above stuff

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

It's not looking like he is going to get here before 1 atleast

Diana - 12:26:41 pm

Some old person died at the home

Diana - 12:26:52 pm

I can come tonight for a bit after work?

Diana - 12:27:11 pm

But I might just have a shower and chill and go slow, rather than rushing to get to yours

Diana - 12:27:24 pm

If tonight is no go then maybe tomorrow night?

Me - 12:27:45 pm

How about this option for tonight?

Me - 12:30:16 pm

Come here after work, sleep the night and stay here in the morning. Go for a canoe, chill, drink coffee with almond milk, go for a walk. Give yourself time to think about stuff and in a different location. I won't be back until 12:30 or so. You can be here for that, or you could leave before I return. Good option, potentially. Good for your head space.

Me - 12:30:53 pm

No visitors too!

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

Ha!

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

It's nice of you thanks

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

I actually want to be home though, it helps me process stuff

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

And Becca said I should go to the 7am group atleast once for the challenge, though I don't think she will be there

Diana - 12:33:35 pm

For someone who said they'd understand that Id need time and space on my own given there's so many demands on my life you sure push!

Diana - 12:33:52 pm

Everything been a whirlwind, please let me take the time to settle down

Me - 12:34:16 pm

Ok

Diana - 12:33:52 pm

I mean I have one spare hour in between Joel and work and you want me to rush over

Diana - 12:33:52 pm

Sheesh it's not really fair

Me - 12:35:23 pm

Sorry, I thought you suggested it.

Diana - 12:35:48 pm

I did

Diana - 12:35:59 pm

But Joel is already supposed to be gone

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

This is what I mean, I can't really commit to anything

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

Everything changes at the last minute with kids

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

I'm sorry

Me - 12:37:06 pm

It's fine. Don't worry about it. Drop by after work, if you're not too tired. That would be great.

Me - 12:37:42 pm

The kids come first everytime. I known that. It's fine with me and it's how it should be.

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

You know they were both in the toilet with me this morning

Me - 12:37:56 pm

Haha

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

I felt like screaming

Me - 12:38:11 pm

Now, I wouldn't do that!!

Diana - 12:38:15 pm

Seriously, no break from Joel for ages cause of no day care

Diana - 12:38:19 pm

It's hard work

Me - 12:38:32 pm

Yeah. Take your time Diana

Diana - 12:38:35 pm

You see how demanding they are!

Me - 12:38:41 pm

Get ready for Monday

Me - 12:38:51 pm

Chill out for a bit

Me - 12:38:56 pm

No plans

Diana - 12:38:59 pm

Yea it'll be nice to go to mums

Me - 12:39:01 pm

Sounds great

Diana - 12:39:12 pm

We will hang out

Diana - 12:39:24 pm

Tonight might not be a good idea though Huh?

Diana - 12:39:27 pm

Seriously

Me - 12:39:27 pm

If you feel like hanging out just text and see if I'm around

Diana - 12:39:34 pm

What do you think

Diana - 12:39:40 pm

Ok I will for sure

Me - 12:39:41 pm

Tonight is fine by me

Diana - 12:39:54 pm

Ok well a quick visit and in bed by 1030

Me - 12:40:00 pm

I like seeing you in person

Diana - 12:40:04 pm

You've got to be at your best in the morning

Diana - 12:40:08 pm

Yea in person is good

Diana - 12:40:11 pm

And not at the gym

Me - 12:40:17 pm

Not gym

Diana - 12:40:16 pm

How was the class? What did you think of it?

Me - 12:40:27 pm

Wrong space for that

Diana - 12:40:28 pm

Except sunday can we train sunday?

Me - 12:40:52 pm

Sure. Let's discuss the timing tonight

Me - 12:41:07 pm

Is the wow out?

Me - 12:42:16 pm

No

Me - 12:42:22 pm

Just checked

Diana - 12:53:04 pm

I haven't looked

Diana - 12:53:04 pm

I'll look now

Diana - 12:54:20 pm

Neil is here, Joel is showing him all his new marbles

Diana - 1:01:19 pm

https://fbcdn-photos-d-a.akamaihd.net/hphotos-ak-xpa1/v/t1.0-0/10374495_687921754638458_3162130906798033022_n.png?oh=aaf2e84a9645b690752fdccc4b65df97&oe=54B2EF8F&__gda__=1425515831_69d76ec614b0ed18069ce240d0531b95

Diana - 1:01:36 pm

Fuck

Diana - 1:01:36 pm

Diana - 1:01:36 pm

That's total cross fit

Diana - 1:03:44 pm

I just got my letter of acceptance :))

Me - 1:06:23 pm

That's awesome news Diana. That will be a good path for you.

Me - 1:06:58 pm

And, yes, the wow is tough. But you can get a good score.

Diana - 1:05:52 pm

Joel has just gone

Diana - 1:05:52 pm

Do you think?

Diana - 1:05:52 pm

It's a real tough one

Diana - 1:05:52 pm

And I've never done lunges before

Diana - 1:05:52 pm

I'm excited about the yoga :)

Me - 1:07:56 pm

Yes, yoga is great. Starting a new thing is so exciting

Diana - 1:08:00 pm

I'd post a pick of it but it has my address and everything!

Me - 1:08:28 pm

Put a piece of paper over the address

Me - 1:08:38 pm

Or strips of paper

Diana - 1:08:00 pm

I don't need to post it

Diana - 1:08:00 pm

I've told you :)

Me - 1:08:51 pm

Send it to me. Via text

Me - 1:08:58 pm

It's so cool!!!

Me - 1:09:27 pm

And I know your address already :))

Diana - 1:08:00 pm

Ha! Yep

Diana - 1:11:08 pm

And I'm going to enjoy it before I start worrying about paying for it!

Diana - 1:11:14 pm

We should have a celebratory coffee :)

Diana - 1:11:21 pm

#hardcore

Me - 1:11:48 pm

Haha

Me - 1:11:53 pm

For sure!!

Me - 1:13:53 pm

When do you want the celebrations to begin? :)

Diana - 1:16:09 pm

I can get ready for work now quickly? It'll be a quick coffee

Diana - 1:16:16 pm

Or should we leave it for tonight?

Me - 1:16:43 pm

Up to you. Either or both :) It's a big celebration

Me - 1:17:00 pm

It's worthy of a big celebration

Diana - 1:17:57 pm

Now I'm getting nervous!

Me - 1:18:53 pm

That was quick. Try not to be, it's a great thing to do

Diana - 1:18:40 pm

I have to go op shopping

Diana - 1:19:25 pm

I'm not just being a girl saying I have nothing to wear

Diana - 1:19:30 pm

I literally have nothing to wear!

Diana - 1:19:43 pm

Yea the nerves came in quick!

Diana - 1:20:48 pm

Jeans and a Tshirt it is!

Me - 1:21:18 pm

Sounds cool, and sexy :)

Me - 1:21:47 pm

T shirt is good. Non groping at work haha

Diana - 1:21:49 pm

Pffft

Diana - 1:22:00 pm

Can't really wear tshirts to work

Diana - 1:22:04 pm

Not on a week day

Me - 1:22:17 pm

I have a suit. :)

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

I found an old dress

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

Ready

Me - 1:23:27 pm

Coming here on the way to work?

Diana - 1:24:26 pm

I'll let people touch my guns today to celebrate ;)

Diana - 1:24:34 pm

Meet me?

Me - 1:24:45 pm

Where?

Diana - 1:24:44 pm

Ok I'll come there

Diana - 1:24:55 pm

But I have to be done by 230 at the very latest

Me - 1:25:15 pm

Want me to come to yours?

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

No I don't want coffee here

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

I have to make it! That's not a celebration

Me - 1:30:15 pm

Ok

Diana - 1:31:21 pm

I'm trying to get ready and texting is not helping!

Diana - 1:31:27 pm

Meet me in chelsea is that ok?

Diana - 1:31:28 pm

Apple and mint

Diana - 1:31:28 pm

It's a little cafe

Diana - 1:31:28 pm

On the Main Street

Me - 1:31:44 pm

Ok

Me - 1:37:21 pm

Don't forget to take your dinner

Diana - 1:37:46 pm

Oh shit!! Thanks!!

Me - 1:45:22 pm

Skinny Soy latte right?

Diana - 1:45:44 pm

You're there already? Yes please I'm on my way

Me - 1:50:22 pm

Out the back

Diana - 2:37:36 pm

Thanks for meeting me for coffee

Diana - 2:37:36 pm

Enjoy the bar :)

Diana - 2:37:36 pm

I hope you do all raw ingredients :)

Me - 2:40:19 pm

Thanks. It was a great idea going to the cafe. Something different. And enjoy work, I you can

Me - 2:40:34 pm

Thanks for the bar. I'll try it at home

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

Work will be good

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

It always is once I get there

Me - 2:42:03 pm

Yeah, hardest thing is often just getting started

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

It's just such a nice day getting on the water would be much better ;)

Me - 2:42:38 pm

Not summer yet. Plenty of hot days yet

Me - 2:42:51 pm

And surfing too.

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

True

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

You know what would be my preference? That Becca and I get exactly the same scores and both win

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

But if that can't happen I want to win ;)

Me - 2:43:56 pm

Haha.

Diana - 2:44:09 pm

It's a beautiful day along the bay today

Me - 2:44:22 pm

I noticed going the othe way

Me - 2:44:25 pm

Calm

Diana - 2:45:49 pm

Sunset paddle would be the bomb :)

Diana - 2:46:03 pm

Now for some celebratory music

Me - 2:53:00 pm

The bar is (was haha) awesome. Might have to buy a box next time :)

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

You know I really think you'll be great at the running class

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

Rick is right to be excited

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

Mans he won't exploit you

Diana - 2:53:23 pm

They're good Huh!

Me - 2:53:25 pm

Thanks Diana. It means a lot coming from you

Diana - 2:53:32 pm

And that's not even he good one!

Diana - 2:53:59 pm

The coconut one is awesome and they've just made a paleo variety

Me - 2:54:14 pm

Says this one is Paleo too

Diana - 2:54:17 pm

Pfft don't give my opinion too much weight

Me - 2:54:21 pm

Paleo friendly

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

I don't know much about fitness but I think you'll be good at it and find it more rewarding as people are coming of their own volition

Me - 2:55:16 pm

I know you'll only give it if you believe it. That's important to know in someone else

Me - 2:55:23 pm

Yeah. I agree

Me - 2:55:42 pm

Enthusiastic people are great to train! :))

Diana - 2:56:20 pm

Just don't go offering to take people for runs

Diana - 2:56:23 pm

Or write them programs

Diana - 2:56:28 pm

Especially for free!

Me - 2:56:33 pm

Not for free yeah

Me - 2:56:44 pm

No more free stuff

Me - 2:56:49 pm

Except you of course

Me - 2:56:53 pm

:)

Diana - 2:58:44 pm

I just got a call from chis he has locked himself out of his house and needs party clothes for kala, I told him to go in throught my bedroom window and grab some of Imogen's stuff :)

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

I really am the go to am I not? ;)

Me - 3:00:44 pm

Super mum, without a doubt! I know, inside you don't think so, but from outside you really are. And holding it together and being like that is the definition is a super mum

Diana - 3:00:53 pm

You know I realise you'll be away more as you do the running class, if you show me through the program's you've written Id be happy with that

Diana - 3:00:55 pm

Don't need any more

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

I can ask the meat head around the gym about lifting stuff

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

How about this? I'll agree that I'm super mum if I beat Becca in this comp!!

Me - 3:02:08 pm

I'll be there to help you. All good. You won't need advice all the time and when you do I'll be there

Me - 3:02:27 pm

No. You already are. Nothing to do with lifting

Diana - 3:02:39 pm

It's interesting hearing other people's opinions though, not necessarily taking them on

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

Nope only if I beat Becca ;))

Me - 3:06:24 pm

Boy. You thrive on pressure don't you. Self flagellation I reckon :)) Super mum has to do with kids and coping (at least giving the appearance). Not about barbells. That's the easier part of what you do. You can't deceive me, I've been the "mum", I know all about it. I know what's hardest. :))

Diana - 3:07:28 pm

Yes but if I win the Competition and can do the hardest parts of it then I truly am a super mum

Diana - 3:07:28 pm

Don't get me wrong, it's all bloody hard!!

Diana - 3:07:28 pm

I was on such a cloud I forgot my car needs petrol to go ;)

Diana - 3:07:28 pm

Amending that now

Me - 3:16:54 pm

Tried the steamer. A bit of a disaster haha. Milk everywhere. You can't put he steamer in while it's going right? :)) And it frothed it way too much. I think I'll watch you closely next time in at your place. Doing something wrong. But it tastes nice :))

Me - 3:17:45 pm

So, barrista careers are not an option :)

Diana - 3:19:35 pm

Haha! I was the barrista in a cafe at the pass in Byron so I've had a little practice

Me - 3:21:05 pm

Ok. New Super Mum task in your life. Teach me yoga (eventually) and how to make coffee. *Then* you'll be a real super mum :)) And lift heavy!

Diana - 3:22:10 pm

And work

Diana - 3:22:24 pm

But lifting comes first ;)

Diana - 3:23:11 pm

After the kids of course!

Me - 3:23:44 pm

Well, that's where the "mum" bit comes in :))

Diana - 3:23:48 pm

I posted on fb about the course

Diana - 3:23:56 pm

I should have said donations accepted ;)

Me - 3:30:23 pm

I just got a "reverse dinner" invitation for Sunday night. It never grows old knowing your children want to spend time with you, without asking or pressuring them.

Diana - 3:30:39 pm

That's cool

Diana - 3:30:43 pm

Your daughter?

Me - 3:31:01 pm

Yes.

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

You've stopped lurking and started liking

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

I could start a fund raiser :)

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

You're not going to indulge me at all are you

Diana - 3:37:12 pm

You know why I can't accept money from you. In 3 months I'll want to run. If I even last that long. Or just be friends or whatever

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

And so it won't work

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

Unless we have a payment plan

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

Maybe

Me - 3:48:03 pm

Ok. One "relationship" text then. Just one. This (us) is an adult relationship, where we work things (differences, problems, misunderstandings, issues, etc) out between us. We don't run away, we stick at it. That's what you do (I think anyway). And we assist each other in the ways that each of us are able to be of assistance. We have different skills, abilities, assets and we give what we're able to give to a relationship. And, as importantly, we accept the gifts of the other person when they can supply things to the relationship that we can't. This works both ways and giving is not something that needs to be reciprocated immediately. And not with the same thing, it would usually be something completely different. That's a real adult relationship. Deciding it's worth while, giving and receiving love and sticking at it. No running away.

Me - 3:49:45 pm

Deciding it's worth while is the step you need to make. Once that's done, it's easy (-ish) from then on.

Me - 3:50:21 pm

Have a think. Take your time. That's 3 texts, I lied :))

Me - 3:51:04 pm

I'm going to wack some golf balls. Then home to a canoe, maybe.

Me - 4:16:01 pm

Me - 4:20:56 pm

How's work so far?

Diana - 4:21:34 pm

Yellow balls!

Me - 4:21:43 pm

Going to be busy?

Diana - 4:21:52 pm

I'm talking training with the director John

Me - 4:21:53 pm

Yep your favourite I know

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

Kalas dad just called me a legend face!!

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

And Andrea who works at Morrisey just found the dress I need for the dinner!!!

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

http://morrisonshop.com/dresses/indian-dress.html

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

How amazing is it!!!

Me - 4:40:56 pm

Checking....

Me - 4:51:16 pm

Yeah. Awesome dress. You'd look even more stunning than you do normally

Diana - 4:51:58 pm

She's evil

Diana - 4:51:58 pm

I told her not to show me but she literally put it in my fave

Diana - 4:51:59 pm

Face

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

Oh you're smooth ;)

Diana - 4:54:50 pm

She told me the price after she showed me the dress however

Diana - 4:54:55 pm

That's pretty mean

Me - 4:56:27 pm

But it's true, you are. Price isn't over the top, it's about right isn't it?

Diana - 5:02:22 pm

Hang on, on my fb page is the original dress I wanted to lose weight for

Diana - 5:02:27 pm

I'll find it and send it to you

Diana - 5:02:40 pm

I forgot about it until now talking with Andrea, it's really similar to that one but olive green

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

Hahaha! I needed it! October 27, that's pretty much the day I started training

Me - 5:09:50 pm

Cool dress too. Both would look great on you

Me - 5:09:51 pm

How much for the green one?

Me - 5:12:12 pm

Wow. You've come so far so quickly.

Diana - 5:11:12 pm

Diana - 5:11:12 pm

This is it on the cat walk

Diana - 5:11:12 pm

It's burberry, so very exsy

Diana - 5:11:12 pm

I knew I wouldn't ever afford it but it was still good motivation

Me - 5:14:26 pm

Wow! Seriously sexy!!

Me - 5:14:51 pm

And the $'s?

Diana - 5:21:19 pm

I don't even know if you can get it anymore

Diana - 5:21:38 pm

I found that one second hand but it was a size 8 I wouldn't have fitted into it then

Diana - 5:21:43 pm

I would now :(

Me - 5:22:25 pm

What was the price then?

Diana - 5:22:37 pm

What do they say, wine taste on a water budget ;))

Diana - 5:23:01 pm

It was about 4-500 I think, second hand

Me - 5:25:23 pm

That's not much. Find it. Buy it. I'll pay for it if you promise to go to the dinner with me (and others eg Becca). I'll wear a suit if you buy the dress :))

Diana - 5:26:56 pm

You're not serious

Diana - 5:27:03 pm

And how could I try it on?

Diana - 5:27:21 pm

Honestly I don't think it can be found now, I'll check ebay though ;))

Me - 5:27:49 pm

Yep serious. Buy it and get it adjusted

Diana - 5:27:58 pm

And that's a ridiculous amount for a dress. 1/6th my whole yoga course

Me - 5:28:04 pm

And I look seriously cool in a suit haha

Diana - 5:28:09 pm

Ha!

Diana - 5:28:16 pm

Do you like the green one more than the blue one?

Diana - 5:28:16 pm

What colour is your suit?

Me - 5:28:43 pm

They're both awesome. Not my decision

Me - 5:28:50 pm

Black, of course!!

Me - 5:28:58 pm

Double breasted

Me - 5:29:18 pm

Italian wool. Cost a fortune

Me - 5:29:24 pm

A long time ago

Diana - 5:29:34 pm

Double breasted?

Diana - 5:29:41 pm

Italian wool is good

Diana - 5:29:49 pm

I have a wool dress and I love it

Me - 5:33:14 pm

Diana - 5:30:08 pm

Do you prefer the green or blue one?

Diana - 5:30:18 pm

I'm not asking you to wear it ;)

Me - 5:33:14 pm

Let me have another look

Diana - 5:31:37 pm

65 people have liked my post! Now if only I could get them to donate $50 a pop ;)

Me - 5:33:24 pm

Green one

Me - 5:36:47 pm

Although the other one is great. But a black suit and a sexy green dress would be hard to beat.

Diana - 5:45:20 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 5:45:20 pm

There aren't any online

Diana - 5:45:20 pm

There is one but it's black, and the detail would be lost in a black one

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

And can't try it on, it's size 6

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

That's too small I think

Me - 5:52:11 pm

Ok. Back to option 1. It's a great dress too

Diana - 5:54:29 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 5:54:32 pm

I love it

Diana - 5:54:36 pm

But

Diana - 5:54:55 pm

Only the rich spend that kind of money on dresses

Diana - 5:55:01 pm

could be fun to go and try on

Me - 5:55:58 pm

Just fucking do it, Super Mums deserve it at least once.

Me - 5:57:21 pm

I can give you the money beforehand to buy it. And I promise to not give you the yoga money until you give me the ok to do so.

Diana - 5:59:54 pm

Diana - 5:59:54 pm

See the detail gets lost

Diana - 6:00:08 pm

And it could look a little 'old'

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

I'd have to use big accessories to work it and I'm not really into big accessories

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

Andrea is on the phone to them now!

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

I could come in early tomorrow and try it on before work

Diana - 6:01:11 pm

Or go in tonight after work, could be a bit rushed though

Me - 6:03:50 pm

Tomorrow, I think. Don't rush the choice. But whatever works for you. Accessories?

Me - 6:05:11 pm

Looks really cool, even though it's not green! Seriously!!

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

Yes I love that it's sheer and silk

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

If I could get the other in green I would but I prefer this one

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

It's booked im coming in to try it on tomorrow

Me - 6:21:45 pm

That's awesome! I'm so glad!

Diana - 6:25:37 pm

Accessories would be either nude shoes and clutch, though I don't have any and cheap shoes would ruin the dress

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

Or black strappy shoes and a blue black clutch

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

Not sure

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

Why am I doing this?? It's insane!

Me - 6:26:08 pm

Just do it. Got to complete the look.

Me - 6:26:27 pm

Stop it!!!! Do it!

Me - 6:28:16 pm

Ok? Don't over analyze this. This is good to treat yourself.

Diana - 6:33:24 pm

Yes, for one year of intense training

Diana - 6:33:33 pm

They have layby

Diana - 6:33:36 pm

When is the dinner

Me - 6:33:38 pm

Exactly!

Me - 6:33:58 pm

Pay for it tomorrow. No layby.

Me - 6:35:39 pm

Use my CC or I can transfer money. But that may take a few days to clear. Or I can pay using paypal. Whatever works

Diana - 6:38:02 pm

Hmm

Diana - 6:38:05 pm

I don't know

Diana - 6:38:40 pm

Those texts before that you tell me I need to think about....

Diana - 6:38:40 pm

I have to think about them right?

Me - 6:42:18 pm

Yes. But spending this (small) amount of money will help with decision making. And if you're able to work through what concerns you. And if you want to work through it. Got to do it to find out. And it's a seriously sexy dress!!!!

Diana - 6:45:04 pm

I have to lose weight for it!

Me - 6:45:34 pm

Get it adjusted

Diana - 6:45:04 pm

I just said that and Andrea just yelled at me that I have issues ;)

Me - 6:45:35 pm

Easy

Diana - 6:45:04 pm

Duh!

Diana - 6:45:04 pm

I won't need it adjusted

Me - 6:45:53 pm

You look fantastic!!!

Diana - 6:45:04 pm

I'll just need to get rid of my soft bumps ;)

Diana - 6:52:11 pm

My friend grows grapes and he has just given me a bottle of his wine to taste, it's his first season! That's what we will drink if I make it as club champ and top 10 :)

Me - 6:52:57 pm

Ok Deal

Diana - 6:53:22 pm

He's a graphic designer and studies viticulture

Diana - 6:53:24 pm

Pretty cool

Diana - 6:53:36 pm

Thanks for dinner :)

Me - 6:53:48 pm

Viticulture is hard!

Me - 6:53:56 pm

Was dinner ok?

Diana - 6:54:07 pm

Starting now

Diana - 6:54:18 pm

Only 300 calories with all that rice?

Me - 6:55:07 pm

Yes. Worked it out. Don't worry.

Me - 6:55:07 pm

1216 calories for the 4 meals

Diana - 6:55:19 pm

It's good thank you

Diana - 6:55:26 pm

I'm eating and looking at the dress

Diana - 6:55:30 pm

Counter productive ;)

Me - 6:57:17 pm

Aren't you on in 5 minutes?

Diana - 6:58:23 pm

Nope on 730 tonight

Diana - 6:58:29 pm

Story on Rodriguez

Diana - 6:58:44 pm

I used to listen to him and smoke pot when i was a kid

Diana - 6:59:25 pm

77 likes at $50 a pop! That's nearly my course paid for

Me - 6:59:49 pm

If only Facebook worked like that :)

Diana - 7:02:08 pm

You know the producer and presenter of the show found out today through an article in the age that this show wasn't happening next year

Me - 7:04:10 pm

Wow. That's such bad management.

Diana - 7:04:16 pm

It happened to ausnet also

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

I've given my credit space to an extra cameraman

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

We don't usually run them

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

It's more important he has it he is young and trying to start a career as a cameraman

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

It'll be good for his show reel

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

Ok I'm heading into the studio

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

I'll catch you soon

Me - 7:20:04 pm

See you

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

And you know my answer, about respecting this as an adult relationship

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

We never even discussed it being a relationship

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

Did we?

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

Ok I better head in

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

I like hanging out and it having no label

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

I don't want a relationship

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

I know that

Diana - 7:21:15 pm

So let's not call it that?

Me - 7:21:25 pm

Ok

Me - 8:16:53 pm

All done?

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Yep just got off the phone to Imogen

Me - 8:18:40 pm

What are your plans now?

Diana - 8:18:56 pm

Don't have any

Diana - 8:18:56 pm

It's gotten quite cold!

Me - 8:19:59 pm

Coming here in your way home?

Diana - 8:21:04 pm

Are you up for a visitor?

Me - 8:21:53 pm

Yes

Diana - 8:21:04 pm

Ok I'll come by :)

Me - 8:23:08 pm

Ok

Me - 8:23:15 pm

See you soon

Diana - 8:23:12 pm

Up to 82 at $50 each

Me - 8:24:32 pm

You've hit a chord with that post

Diana - 8:23:12 pm

I wonder why

Diana - 8:23:12 pm

Guess it's a good sign

**Saturday 25 October**

Diana - 5:15:37 am

In all honesty I don't want to be any more than friends now I know you've been thinking about another woman every day we have been developing whatever it is we have. In my mind thinking and longing for other people is cheating. If you know this and still want to pay for the dress then I'm juts going to let you because fuck it, I need something beautiful in my life. I hope this morning goes well for you.

Me - 5:28:17 am

Not true. Again you've gone off and added stuff. It's not the old girlfriend that I think of, in isolation. It's the time I had. It began when my marriage failed. It was nostalgia. It still is. You're real!! About to leave. Talk later

Diana - 5:29:20 am

It makes sense why you can't make love to me or concentrate when we kiss. You're in love with someone else. Don't twist it, you told me you think about Kate everyday, not reminisce about a period in your life.

Diana - 5:29:20 am

I don't even care anymore.

Diana - 5:29:20 am

I feel despondent.

Diana - 5:29:20 am

just let me know about the dress and I'll email my bank details. If not then that's cool too of course

Diana - 5:30:44 am

I really hope today goes well for you. And you're not too tired to run.

Diana - 5:30:55 am

Talk later

Diana - 5:33:36 am

Hey, and you're going to to be great at this. I really think so :)

Diana - 5:33:36 am

Ok bye!

Me - 6:10:58 am

You know I have trouble explaining myself. I've proved that over and over. I've been damaged by marriage, you know that too, so events in my 20's are given too much weight and emotional importance. While I do think of the past and people in it for a very small part of each day, I think of you all the time, all day and night. I can't concentrate on things because I'm thinking of you. These last 11 weeks have been the best thing that has happened to me. For the rest of my life, it will be you I'll be thinking of every day.

Diana - 6:09:52 am

They're saying it is my mum

Diana - 6:09:52 am

It can't be true

Diana - 6:11:52 am

I would have been told directly

Diana - 6:12:00 am

Someone has their wires crossed

Diana - 6:12:00 am

I will call at 8 and make sure she is ok

Diana - 6:12:00 am

I don't want to wake her in some stupid panic

Diana - 6:12:00 am

I can't sleep and al panicked internally though!

Diana - 6:12:00 am

I can't sleep

Diana - 6:12:00 am

I want to pull a sickie and hang out with you today.

Diana - 6:12:00 am

I know, I need to work.

Diana - 6:12:00 am

I'm sorry, I'm not ignoring what you said

Diana - 6:16:31 am

But in regards to that, you need to go on new adventures and find a new Kate, it's really time to let that one go so you have room for a new one. I know how to hold on to people to prevent new ones coming in to avoid heart ache. It serves it's purpose but it's your time. I'm not your new Kate but I can help you move on to the next step maybe

Me - 6:20:38 am

I hope your mum is ok. And it's all wrong. I'll be home at 12:30 or so. If you need to hang out I'll be there. The money can be overcome. Do what's important now.

Me - 6:22:44 am

I'll need to think about the last part of your text. Not just now, we're on the freeway to Geelong. I do think you're the one.

Diana - 6:26:10 am

I'm not the one, or you wouldn't still be in love with her and thinking about her everyday

Diana - 6:26:12 am

And thanks re mum

Diana - 6:26:34 am

I will see if I can get someone to cover the shift later

Diana - 6:26:56 am

No need to text anymore I know you're busy

Diana - 6:29:04 am

And I'm also not the one because I have an expiration date. A memory doesn't and is much safer :)

Diana - 6:29:04 am

My heart hurts this morning. I'm going to take some panadeine and try to sleep

Diana - 6:29:04 am

I need to figure out the dress too

Diana - 6:29:04 am

I'd rather just be back in bed with you sleeping

Me - 6:47:30 am

Let me know what's happening. I may not answer immediately if we're setting up or running. But I'll keep checking the phone when I can. And remembering the past with fondness doesn't make the feelings of the present any less important or strong. Take care.

Diana - 6:52:07 am

Don't twist thinking about another woman everyday into thinking about the past with fondness Mark. If you think im smart then please don't treat me like an imbecile

Diana - 6:52:16 am

Enjoy your run.

Diana - 6:52:32 am

And give me an answer about the dress so I know whether to cancel going in

Me - 6:53:07 am

I'll pay. Go for it

Diana - 6:53:07 am

And run Forrest run ;)

Diana - 7:13:52 am

Really? I can't really justify a day off in that case

Diana - 7:13:52 am

I just came fantasising about a time when maybe we do get to fuck.

Diana - 7:13:52 am

I'm truly delirious

Me - 7:17:41 am

That's great. Really. Are you taking the afternoon off? I'm missing something that me offering to pay means not taking the day off.

Me - 7:18:56 am

I hope we do fuck. Eventually. And it will be awesome.

Me - 7:19:12 am

Just arrived in Geelong gym

Diana - 7:19:34 am

I figure I should work rather than spend your money

Diana - 7:19:46 am

You sure it would be awesome? ;)

Diana - 7:19:57 am

Have a good run, I hope you feel ok

Diana - 7:20:01 am

I'm lost and confused

Me - 7:20:10 am

Yes. Done with love it will be.

Diana - 7:20:16 am

And don't know whether to have the day off or man up

Diana - 7:21:03 am

Itll be better once I speak to mum and know she is ok

Diana - 7:21:12 am

We could sleep all afternoon and watch crappy movies

Me - 7:21:17 am

Day off. And send me bank details. We can celebrate this afternoon

Me - 7:21:26 am

Exactly

Me - 7:21:30 am

It's what we need

Diana - 7:21:36 am

Sleepy celebrations :)

Me - 7:21:44 am

Sleep is all I has planned anyway :)

Diana - 7:21:51 am

Hahaha!

Diana - 7:21:56 am

Go run :)

Me - 7:22:03 am

Not until 8

Me - 7:22:15 am

Then at 10 again

Diana - 7:22:22 am

Oh ok

Diana - 7:22:24 am

Eat in between ok?

Me - 7:22:44 am

Ok

Diana - 7:22:50 am

Sorry

Me - 7:22:53 am

Coffee at least

Me - 7:23:24 am

I feel a little "odd". Lack of sleep. Sort of a good feeling

Diana - 7:23:25 am

No, coffee dehydrates and offers a short high that's why I'm having one now :)

Diana - 7:23:29 am

Eat

Diana - 7:23:38 am

Yea you can kind of get off on it

Diana - 7:23:49 am

Except when you're in a newsroom and need to be on the ball

Diana - 7:23:57 am

And getting paid penalties

Diana - 7:24:05 am

Are you sure I should have the day off?

Diana - 7:24:21 am

Shit it seems irresponsible

Me - 7:25:06 am

Yes. You'll have the money of you send me the details. Just do it and get it over with. Then we can move on from this.

Me - 7:26:31 am

And too tired to work effectively. And drive safely. And, whatever else.

Diana - 7:26:40 am

Haha!

Diana - 7:26:40 am

Not too tired to drive for a dress?

Diana - 7:26:40 am

Just for work?

Diana - 7:26:40 am

Ha!

Me - 7:28:07 am

Or... We could do the dress together and then come home. With the dress!

Diana - 7:28:24 am

No you've done enough today

Diana - 7:28:34 am

Well will have by then

Diana - 7:28:48 am

I don't know how to justify driving for a dress and not for work

Diana - 7:28:48 am

I'm happy to do it ;) just trying to justify it

Me - 7:29:08 am

I'll drive

Diana - 7:28:48 am

And we juts need to hang out and relax don't you think?

Me - 7:29:23 am

Don't justify. It's an adventure!!

Me - 7:29:48 am

Let's see when I return. I'll be pumped after running

Diana - 7:29:58 am

I can go this morning while you're in Geelong

Diana - 7:30:02 am

Maybe

Me - 7:30:10 am

Then on the couch by late afternoon

Me - 7:31:08 am

Have a think. But find out about your mum first. Then decide

Diana - 7:32:31 am

Of course

Diana - 7:32:45 am

And the sense of irresponsibility?

Diana - 7:33:04 am

Spending your money whilst not earning my own?

Diana - 7:33:04 am

How's the gym in Geelong anyway?

Diana - 7:33:04 am

I love Geelong

Me - 7:34:15 am

The gym is ok. Clean. Better layout. Upstairs. Nice big bank of treDmills

Me - 7:34:43 am

Diana - 7:35:12 am

Heaps nicer!

Me - 7:36:01 am

And stop the guilts :) it's only one day, not the rest of your life

Diana - 7:51:05 am

Ok one day

Diana - 7:51:10 am

The shift is covered

Me - 7:51:17 am

Great news

Me - 7:51:50 am

Shall we do the dress together? A joint adventure?

Me - 7:52:10 am

Shopping, yay :))

Me - 7:52:30 am

Going to run soon

Diana - 7:53:53 am

I was wondering if maybe I could get them to hold it tomorrow and do it before work?

Diana - 7:54:04 am

Save the trip in?

Me - 7:58:48 am

Ok. You decide. This afternoon will be awesome. Can't wait.

Me - 7:58:58 am

and the running begins...

Me - 7:59:01 am

Talk soon

Diana - 8:09:20 am

I think tomorrow, rather than make a trip into the city when we don't need to. Unless you really feel like it.

Diana - 8:09:20 am

I'm going to go train.

Diana - 8:17:52 am

Or a walk along the beach

Diana - 8:17:52 am

Train tomorrow morning with you for the wow

Diana - 8:21:25 am

Mum is fine

Me - 8:43:15 am

Me - 8:43:53 am

Great news about your mum. Just finished first one. Phew

Diana - 8:43:28 am

How are you feeling?

Me - 8:50:20 am

I'm feeling great. At the moment :) may not after doing it all again.

Me - 8:50:48 am

Have a great morning whatever you decide to do!

Diana - 8:51:21 am

I'm going to have coffee with dan but i think I'll give paddling a miss

Me - 8:51:58 am

Sounds like a great idea. A catchup and take it easy

Diana - 8:52:55 am

Save training for tomorrow

Diana - 8:53:18 am

Eat something

Diana - 8:55:40 am

And I thought for the calorie count on the row we could use my polar? Most accurate reading you'd thjnk

Diana - 8:55:51 am

Anyway not thinking about the wows :)

Me - 8:59:15 am

I'll find out about the rowing on Monday. Going to eat :))

Me - 10:14:23 am

At Pt Cook. Nice compact gym. Good gear. Good layout.

Me - 10:15:28 am

Me - 10:15:38 am

Me - 10:15:44 am

How are you?

Me - 10:16:06 am

About 10 minutes until we do it all again. :))

Diana - 10:15:12 am

Very bright

Diana - 10:15:12 am

I'm good downing pre workout heading to gym

Diana - 10:15:12 am

Didn't feel like socialising

Me - 10:16:34 am

Lots of windows yeah

Me - 10:17:10 am

Have a great workout.

Diana - 10:17:20 am

It's good for a paddle tomorrow but we need to go through the wow

Diana - 10:17:20 am

Paddling can wait

Diana - 10:17:20 am

Have a good run

Me - 10:18:33 am

Got your email. What do you mean "I think", for your account?

Diana - 10:17:20 am

Cause you know me and numbers

Diana - 10:19:28 am

It's right

Diana - 10:19:28 am

Else work has been paying a random person for that last few years

Me - 10:20:18 am

Haha. Ok. I'll do the transfer after the run.

Me - 10:20:30 am

Enjoy your workout. Gotta go

Diana - 10:24:11 am

Check

Diana - 10:24:24 am

I'm off my head after 3 scoops today :)

Me - 11:28:55 am

Just finished

Diana - 11:48:32 am

Cool

Diana - 11:48:33 am

Was it good

Diana - 11:48:42 am

I've hammered myself

Me - 11:49:36 am

Yeah. Pt cook is a good gym. What did you do to yourself?

Me - 11:51:28 am

Where are you now? We're in the car on the way back.

Diana - 11:51:12 am

I'm still here

Diana - 11:51:12 am

I've done some mad stuff :)

Diana - 11:51:12 am

With super loud music :)

Diana - 11:51:12 am

It's been fantastic

Diana - 11:51:12 am

I'm leaving soon

Me - 11:53:05 am

Great!

Diana - 11:53:10 am

Just having a quick roll but need to go shower badly

Me - 11:53:26 am

I'll tell you when I've arrived back

Me - 11:53:43 am

Yeah. Me too with the shower

Me - 11:54:06 am

2 very sweaty sessions. The air con was not good.

Diana - 11:58:13 am

There's some serious lifters here at this time of day

Diana - 11:58:15 am

It's inspiring

Diana - 11:58:21 am

But not much aircon here either

Diana - 12:00:36 pm

I could just finish with smashing myself on the stair master Huh?

Diana - 12:00:48 pm

Do the job good and proper

Me - 12:01:39 pm

You feel the need to be smashed?

Diana - 12:03:02 pm

Yes

Diana - 12:03:14 pm

Just for a few more minutes

Diana - 12:03:30 pm

Will I just meet you at yours once I've showered etc

Diana - 12:03:33 pm

Text me when you're home

Me - 12:03:55 pm

Ok I sure will.

Me - 12:04:05 pm

Almost at the city

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

Yep that did the trick

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

Can't feel my hamstrings at all now :)

Me - 12:27:40 pm

Pity the massage table is at the gym. But, maybe, a floor massage this arvo?

Diana - 12:28:32 pm

You've had no sleep either

Diana - 12:28:36 pm

And run for two hours

Diana - 12:29:02 pm

my legs are falling out from under me :)

Me - 12:29:39 pm

:) Almost on east link. Soon.

Diana - 12:31:27 pm

Im heading home now

Diana - 12:32:14 pm

It's fining up

Diana - 12:32:29 pm

Was it a success?

Diana - 12:32:47 pm

I need a sponsorship to just train :)

Me - 12:34:18 pm

Yes. It went well. Geelong was a waste of time, but Pt Cook was organized and had a few from the gym doing it.

Diana - 12:40:16 pm

That's good

Diana - 12:44:07 pm

You know when you train so hard your ears ring louder than normal?

Me - 12:44:57 pm

Really? You'll have to tell me what you did. Almost at the gym

Diana - 12:46:17 pm

Am I really going to ignore housework and come to yours?

Diana - 12:48:48 pm

Maybe it's just harder on the body after little sleep

Me - 12:55:31 pm

Just got home now. I'm jumping in the shower, the doors open. Come over.

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

I need to eat some seeds

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

Still haven't showered

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

You're so much faster than me :)

Me - 12:56:17 pm

Haha. I haven't done any of that yet either

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

Except for circuits, I leave you for dust ;)

Me - 12:56:40 pm

:)

Me - 12:56:43 pm

Agreed

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

Wow you are tired

Me - 12:57:25 pm

Nearly fell asleep in the car. Come quick :)

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

Eat something

Me - 1:00:43 pm

Going to. After shower.

Me - 1:01:56 pm

I've transferred money for your dress and accessories. I said I'd ask before I transferred money for the rest. I'm asking now. Can I transfer money for the rest?

Diana - 1:02:57 pm

What's the rest? Do you want me to get a boob job before the dinner too?

Me - 1:05:10 pm

Yoga

Me - 1:05:13 pm

Boobs are beautiful already :)

Diana - 1:05:29 pm

97 people!! At $50 a pop?

Diana - 1:05:31 pm

Pfft

Diana - 1:05:40 pm

They're done and dusted served their purpose

Diana - 1:05:52 pm

I think I want to get into body sculpting :)

Diana - 1:05:52 pm

There was some amazing physiques today.

Me - 1:06:08 pm

Answer the question

Me - 1:06:11 pm

Then tell me stuff

Me - 1:06:34 pm

Internet banking will time out

Diana - 1:06:40 pm

It's so much money Mark

Diana - 1:07:09 pm

You still want to help me out knowing about the expiry date?

Diana - 1:07:14 pm

Take some time and think about it

Diana - 1:07:17 pm

You're tired today

Me - 1:08:32 pm

Done

Me - 1:08:32 pm

Yoga and a smidge more paid for. Eg car service

Me - 1:08:52 pm

That should sort you for a little while

Diana - 1:09:07 pm

I don't know what to say

Diana - 1:09:10 pm

Or how to be

Me - 1:09:16 pm

Don't say anything

Me - 1:09:28 pm

The money's gone

Me - 1:09:31 pm

What money?

Me - 1:09:34 pm

:)

Me - 1:09:45 pm

Just be normal

Diana - 1:09:45 pm

It scares me

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

Let's shower and see eachother so I can suss out if anything has changed

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

I mean thank you

Me - 1:10:16 pm

We'll talk about fear this arvo, if we stay awake :)

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

We have to go to the gym early is that ok?

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

Tomorrow I mean

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

We are going aren't we?

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

Just for a short while?

Me - 1:10:59 pm

I thought so. Didn't know the time

Diana - 1:11:31 pm

I need it to be kind of early to get home and do some stuff before heading in to try on the dress before going to work

Diana - 1:11:55 pm

Or I can do it now but I'm tired and really just want to come over and rest

Me - 1:12:26 pm

Come over now. Enough texting. Talking

Diana - 1:12:16 pm

I have a new singer for you to try. I love her, I saw her last year at the corner. I love going to gigs on my own

Diana - 1:12:16 pm

Ok I'll shower

Me - 1:46:39 pm

Long shower :)

Me - 1:47:02 pm

I'm having a coffee without you. Can't wait :)

Diana - 1:50:17 pm

I'm leaving now, I juts have to run to the supermarket to get some food for the cat while I'm away

Me - 1:50:34 pm

Ok see you soon

Diana - 1:50:40 pm

Do you want anything from the supermarket?

Me - 1:51:15 pm

Just you, out of there :)

Diana - 1:52:48 pm

Ok neglecting domestic duties and leaving home now

**Sunday 26 October**

Diana - 7:58:20 am

Eat

Me - 8:01:19 am

Ok :)

Me - 8:07:09 am

We broke the bed :))

Diana - 8:07:12 am

Hahaha! I thought I heard a few thuds and bumps yesterday :)

Diana - 8:07:12 am

Are you sheet washing already! You're a machine!

Diana - 8:07:12 am

Put it down and eat some breakfast

Me - 8:08:47 am

Ok will do

Diana - 8:32:48 am

I'm heading in now

Me - 8:47:34 am

See you in a minute

Diana - 9:47:28 am

Are you ok?

Diana - 9:47:28 am

You seem a little out of sorts?

Me - 9:50:17 am

Yeah. I'm fine. Really fine :)

Me - 9:50:47 am

Do you want conpany this arfternoon? The drive, the dress, etc

Me - 9:51:01 am

I've lost a lot of strength

Me - 9:51:36 am

Struggling at the gym. Lost too much weight. Have to build up again.

Diana - 9:51:44 am

Yes I really struggled this morning too

Diana - 9:52:34 am

I feel weak and haven't even lost any weight!

Diana - 9:53:14 am

I already miss you and want to hang out but I would be really self conscious trying on a dress in front of you

Diana - 9:53:29 am

Let's have the day apart and process everything that's happened

Diana - 9:53:34 am

I like having you to miss

Diana - 9:53:47 am

I feel kind of in a state of semi consciousness

Diana - 9:53:52 am

You should go and have a big breakfast

Diana - 9:53:52 am

Eggs and avocado and beans on toast

Diana - 9:53:52 am

Really fill yourself up and rest and think of me ;)

Diana - 9:55:05 am

Sorry I don't mean to sound like I'm telling you what to do

Diana - 9:55:25 am

If I could Id wag work and hang out with you and go for a drive somewhere

Diana - 9:55:38 am

Today I must be an adult ;)

Diana - 9:55:50 am

Boring!

Me - 9:59:17 am

You should go to do the dress at least. And since you're there you may as well work. :) I feel the same, I watched you walk out of the gym and wanted to run over to you. Let's text later about staying over tonight. I'd love you to, since I won't see you again until Thursday. Love you. Send me a picture of the dress!

Diana - 9:59:51 am

Uhm ok I will

Diana - 9:59:59 am

I may not be wearing it though :)

Diana - 10:00:16 am

You know what we should do? Get in the car and just drive somewhere down a Coast, any coast and sleep in the back of your car overnight then when the sun is coming up get coffee and drive back!

Me - 10:04:49 am

Deal!

Me - 10:05:17 am

Struggling to front squat 60. That's all today

Diana - 10:04:32 am

Haha!

Diana - 10:04:32 am

Leave it to tomorrow

Diana - 10:04:32 am

Listen to your body that's why I walked out too

Me - 10:07:01 am

I want to try all the "big" moves. I need to wake my body up to lifting again. But low weights and not much work for sure. I'll be gone in 30 mins

Diana - 10:06:40 am

Yea but you'll just lose more muscle if you burn it and don't replenish it

Diana - 10:06:40 am

Anyway you know what you're doing

Diana - 10:06:40 am

Enjoy xx

Me - 10:09:50 am

You're right. Going now. Tried one more rep at 60 and that's it haha

Me - 10:11:19 am

I could go with you and wait outside the dress shop. Or is it better to spend the afternoon apart? Confused man here ;)

Me - 10:11:31 am

Anyway, off home

Diana - 10:19:07 am

I think some time apart would be best for us both.

Diana - 10:19:28 am

Know that I'm going to spend that time thinking about how you felt inside me

Me - 10:24:03 am

I'll be thinking the same. And you're probably right about this afternoon. You're going to look great in that dress. I'm getting excited thinking about it :)

Diana - 10:24:39 am

I'm nervous to even try it on!

Me - 10:25:55 am

It'll be great. It's a little adventure, embrace it.

Diana - 10:32:16 am

Yea I just need to let go of the sense of feeling unworthy

Me - 10:37:20 am

I know how you feel. The dress is a good step. And the accessories :)

Me - 10:38:47 am

And don't forget to take dinner!

Diana - 10:50:36 am

Check

Diana - 10:50:40 am

And thanks xx

Me - 10:58:14 am

If you want to come here after work tonight it will just be me here.

Me - 11:04:37 am

Having kids is awesome! Couldn't be happier. Having you and having loving kids too. :)

Diana - 11:04:16 am

That's awesome

Diana - 11:04:16 am

I was feeling bad about you postponing her!

Me - 11:05:57 am

Now I get 2 visits!

Diana - 11:06:24 am

But do you mind if I wait and see? I'm going to be sleeping at mums for 2 night and was at yours last night I may just need a night at home

Me - 11:06:48 am

Of course

Diana - 11:06:24 am

If I wasn't going to mums I would def

Me - 11:07:09 am

Just wanted to leave the option open

Diana - 11:06:24 am

But I feel a little scattered and need to do some washing before I go

Diana - 11:06:24 am

Ok cool

Diana - 11:06:24 am

My house is like a brothel

Diana - 11:08:12 am

But fuck it in going dress shopping :)

Me - 11:08:12 am

Housework is good mindless stuff to allow you to think

Me - 11:08:21 am

Haha

Diana - 11:08:32 am

If you have time for it!

Diana - 11:08:32 am

Or are at home to do it!

Diana - 11:08:32 am

A few other priorities atm :)

Me - 11:10:32 am

Remember, life is pretty short. There's only so many hours available to do boring stuff :)

Me - 11:10:45 am

Some needs to be done

Me - 11:11:52 am

Yes, priorities :)

Diana - 11:12:48 am

I'll need to be well rested for the drive tomorrow too

Diana - 11:12:48 am

It's a long one

Me - 11:13:04 am

Good point

Diana - 11:12:48 am

So I come to yours and sleep maybe amongst other things or i go home and not sleep thinking about what I'd be doing if I was with you ;)

Me - 11:14:08 am

Haha. Obvious choice :))

Diana - 11:12:48 am

They're all good problems to have :)

Me - 11:14:37 am

But no worry right? At least about "us".

Me - 11:14:58 am

You've got enough already with your mum

Diana - 11:15:11 am

No worry

Diana - 11:16:02 am

You'd better air the house out before your daughter comes Haha. No seriously! We made a real mess didn't we?

Me - 11:16:03 am

Maybe, just maybe. If you come here you could model the dress?

Me - 11:16:12 am

Good point

Diana - 11:16:13 am

Haha!

Me - 11:16:15 am

:)

Diana - 11:16:21 am

I'll have to layby it

Me - 11:16:32 am

Why? You've got the money

Me - 11:16:47 am

Well, when it's cleared

Me - 11:18:21 am

Pay by CC and pay it off on Tuesday or so

Diana - 11:22:21 am

Hey when is your birthday again??

Me - 11:23:03 am

November

Diana - 11:23:28 am

Diana - 11:24:34 am

Duh when??

Diana - 11:25:09 am

99 likes for my yoga post!

Me - 11:27:16 am

Good stars! 13th

Diana - 11:27:44 am

Maybe I'll get you some cups ;)

Me - 11:28:32 am

:))

Me - 11:28:53 am

And hugs on the day too :)

Me - 11:30:20 am

You know what? We're not very good at being apart from each other are we? This is our "time apart", and what do we do? Talk to each other. It's fucking awesome!!

Diana - 11:29:52 am

Hahahahaha!

Diana - 11:31:08 am

Ok want to try to stop for an hour?

Diana - 11:31:12 am

Let's see if we can do it

Me - 11:31:15 am

Fuck no

Diana - 11:31:25 am

Hahaha!

Diana - 11:31:32 am

I'm actually laughing out amour

Diana - 11:31:35 am

Aloud

Me - 11:32:03 am

Haha. Good humour is based on truth. :)

Diana - 11:32:00 am

Can I ask something?

Diana - 11:32:00 am

Trainer ish?

Me - 11:32:32 am

Ok

Diana - 11:32:00 am

Why does my head pack it in like it did this morning?

Diana - 11:32:00 am

When j feel like my body could do more

Diana - 11:33:34 am

Despite the muscles under my shoulder blades burning ;)

Me - 11:36:56 am

I don't know, but it happens to all of us when we're maxing out. But, seriously, I think you spend too much time at the absolute max effort for you. Good training minimizes those max efforts to every few weeks or so. The wow's are a problem. We need to get you lifting a lot more at your 70-80% 1RM level. That will still give you the gains, and I would expect even more. And with less chance of injury.

Diana - 11:36:16 am

Yea I know and I agree, the wows have kept me pushing too hard

Diana - 11:38:13 am

But I really felt like I could have gone to 45 but somewhere along the line the doubt kicked in and then the body refused to do it.

Diana - 11:38:24 am

Atleast I think that's what happened

Diana - 11:38:24 am

Did you see, I could hardly lift the last one of the ground

Me - 11:38:44 am

You're seriously fucking strong!!!!

Diana - 11:38:24 am

It's like a complete system shut down

Diana - 11:38:24 am

I wasn't really happy with that result, that lift is really all legs and I know I could have gone heavier

Diana - 11:38:24 am

I guess it comes down to the psychology of the lift?

Me - 11:40:00 am

I did some cleans today and struggled to get 40kg up. No way I could have gotten them overhead. And look at the muscle difference between us. More than for your weight, you're seriously fucking strong!!

Diana - 11:40:32 am

Are you seriously saying that? Or just strong for a 40 year old non athlete?

Me - 11:41:42 am

Look at the above!! 40 kg overhead is incredible! 40 kg cleans are incredible.

Diana - 11:40:32 am

I really like that lift though, I want to get good at it

Diana - 11:40:32 am

Ok

Diana - 11:40:32 am

In all seriousness I want to bring it in to the dead and bench routine

Diana - 11:40:32 am

It's a very satisfying lift

Diana - 11:40:32 am

Don't you think?

Me - 11:44:05 am

Yeah, great lift. I do cleans at 30kg at rhe start of most sessions. And one of my aims, along with 140kg deads is to get 60kg over head. About 40 is all I can do now. It's fun doing those standards.

Diana - 11:45:44 am

Yes I am going to aim for 60 also

Me - 11:45:54 am

Joint goal

Diana - 11:45:56 am

And 120 dead

Me - 11:46:12 am

Squat?

Diana - 11:46:14 am

140 is too far a reach for me from 104

Diana - 11:46:18 am

105

Diana - 11:46:31 am

Squat 80 for now

Me - 11:46:37 am

And bench 60 right?

Diana - 11:46:38 am

90 -100

Diana - 11:46:45 am

Bench 60

Diana - 11:47:12 am

Maybe squat less but with ass to the grass

Me - 11:47:21 am

Our night time wrestles would be potentially dangerous :))

Diana - 11:47:37 am

I'm going to do some reading about psychological blocks when lifting

Diana - 11:47:47 am

Maybe Sensai has some insight on his blog

Diana - 11:47:52 am

Haha! You betcha

Diana - 11:47:55 am

Good training

Me - 11:48:12 am

Not for the bed though! Haha

Me - 11:48:22 am

Broken each morning haha

Diana - 11:48:57 am

We'll need a concrete slab ;)

Diana - 11:49:27 am

I want to go to a power lifting Comp

Me - 11:49:29 am

Now THAT would be an awe inspiring Facebook post eh?

Diana - 11:49:32 am

I really do

Diana - 11:49:42 am

A concrete wrestle?

Diana - 11:50:02 am

I want you to film my clean and press on my phone

Me - 11:50:08 am

That we need a concrete bed to contain our lovemaking. :)

Diana - 11:50:10 am

I think I'm going to get serious about this

Diana - 11:50:14 am

Hahaha!

Diana - 11:50:30 am

Some things fb doesn't need to know

Me - 11:50:40 am

After the wow, we'll use the iPad app I've got.

Me - 11:50:48 am

Not before.

Me - 11:50:54 am

Just get this done

Diana - 11:51:09 am

Just film the 3x40

Me - 11:51:21 am

Ok

Diana - 11:51:12 am

Then j can start studying form

Diana - 11:51:12 am

Same with deads

Diana - 11:51:41 am

And j think squats are my worst form

Diana - 11:51:50 am

I'm never sure I go low enough

Diana - 11:51:53 am

Anyway enough

Diana - 11:52:06 am

Thanks heaps for coming into the gym his morning

Me - 11:52:16 am

Glad to help

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

https://m.facebook.com/events/1528700904042608?acontext=%7B%22ref%22%3A5%7D&aref=5

Diana - 12:17:51 pm

I think that's the same day at the dinner?

Me - 12:18:45 pm

Is it? We could do both. Drive back and then into the dinner.

Me - 12:19:30 pm

No driving after the dinner :)

Me - 12:20:24 pm

Where is ASPC? Which suburb?

Diana - 12:20:25 pm

I want to go

Diana - 12:20:28 pm

Let's go

Diana - 12:20:41 pm

Melbourne Brunswicky area

Diana - 12:20:52 pm

That's where Sensai whatever his name is did his sessions

Diana - 12:21:04 pm

There's a 20 minute clip on purine

Diana - 12:21:04 pm

Youtube

Diana - 12:21:34 pm

I'm not really into markets but the one out the front of the arts centre always has good stuff

Me - 12:22:16 pm

You're there now? I used to browse that market, the one underneath and next to the river.

Diana - 12:26:29 pm

I'm on a tram now heading to emporium

Me - 12:27:05 pm

Good luck. Be brave. And BUY IT!! :))

Diana - 12:27:17 pm

Watching power lifting videos of that Olympic champion that did sessions with poliquin

Diana - 12:27:20 pm

Hahaha!

Me - 12:29:43 pm

Maybe we need to go somewhere together and get some proper lifting coaching. Just a few sessions with a "real" lifter.

Diana - 12:31:41 pm

I def think so

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

I want to

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

So we have an action plan

Me - 12:32:38 pm

I'll try and find out who is good

Diana - 12:33:52 pm

Maybe that gym is a good start?

Diana - 12:33:52 pm

They're going to be expensive

Diana - 12:33:52 pm

Let see what we pick up from there first maybe

Me - 12:35:17 pm

Sounds good.

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

Ok cool

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

I better get heavier before we see anyone decent

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

I mean lift heavier

Diana - 12:40:16 pm

Wow there are so many beautiful things here

Me - 12:41:25 pm

We need correct form before we lift really heavy

Me - 12:41:33 pm

Clothes are good?

Diana - 12:40:16 pm

Beautiful shops, Zimmerman willow Saba

Diana - 12:40:16 pm

Yes

Me - 12:41:43 pm

Oh

Diana - 12:40:16 pm

Correct form

Diana - 12:40:16 pm

Let's get on it

Me - 12:41:59 pm

Yes sir!! :)

Diana - 12:42:01 pm

I'm about to head in to THE shop now :)

Me - 12:42:11 pm

Good luck!

Diana - 12:42:24 pm

I'll have to take

November 8 off work too

Diana - 12:42:24 pm

We can go to open day for a few hours then come back get ready

Me - 12:43:18 pm

Concentrate on the task at hand! The dress now!!

Me - 12:43:37 pm

Keep me informed

Diana - 12:44:32 pm

Now tell me

Diana - 12:44:32 pm

Do you think I'll be able to stay club champion or am I going to loss it this wow cause Becca is faster

Diana - 12:44:32 pm

You can be honest

Diana - 12:44:32 pm

And I know I know

Diana - 12:44:32 pm

All I can do is my best :p

Me - 12:46:24 pm

Club Champ. End. Do the dress!

Me - 12:46:59 pm

With pictures, if possible

Me - 12:47:11 pm

Selfie

Diana - 1:12:16 pm

Oh my god

Me - 1:17:20 pm

Yes?

Diana - 1:21:03 pm

I have a new dress

Me - 1:21:36 pm

:) !!!!!! The one you thought?

Diana - 1:22:52 pm

Yes

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

I think I'm about to pass out

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

It's so beautiful

Diana - 1:23:16 pm

I don't think I'm doing it justice

Me - 1:27:05 pm

I'm sure you are doing it justice. Just look at yourself. You're beautiful.

Me - 1:27:08 pm

Selfie or picture of dress alone?

Me - 1:27:11 pm

I'm so glad you bought it Diana!

Diana - 1:54:13 pm

Sorry my phone died then came Bach

Diana - 1:54:15 pm

Back

Me - 2:45:54 pm

Picture?

Diana - 2:56:47 pm

Argh

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

I've just plugged it in

Diana - 2:57:12 pm

It's dying when it has half battery left stupid thing

Me - 2:58:12 pm

So, the dress is awesome?

Diana - 2:58:31 pm

It's amazing

Diana - 2:58:36 pm

Maybe not on me but it's amazing!

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

Of course now im panicking! The lighting in the store wasn't that great, it's so annoying how they do that

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

How has your afternoon been?

Me - 3:01:00 pm

Great. Been eating a lot :)

Me - 3:01:14 pm

Did you buy the dress outright?

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

Yes I did, rent will have to wait ;)

Me - 3:01:48 pm

Great!!

Diana - 3:01:51 pm

I've juts been asked to work next Friday and Saturday afternoons, if I can sort the kids that will be great

Me - 3:02:38 pm

Yeah, it's great they're asking for more shifts, right?

Diana - 3:02:54 pm

It's not the company just other people needing days off

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

I don't want to leave the dress in the car incase it gets stolen!

Me - 3:04:36 pm

Is it that unsafe? Bring it into work maybe? But then you'd have to talk about it.

Diana - 3:05:00 pm

Exactly!

Diana - 3:05:08 pm

No it's safe im just paranoid

Diana - 3:05:17 pm

It's worth more than my car :)

Me - 3:05:49 pm

Really? What dress did you buy??? The gold leaf one? :))

Me - 3:06:12 pm

I thought it was like $500?

Diana - 3:07:07 pm

It was, I'm kidding

Diana - 3:07:26 pm

I don't even have that much money in the bank to cover it!

Diana - 3:07:28 pm

Neil will take the kids for both nights!

Me - 3:08:08 pm

You do now. Or at least will in a few business days :)

Diana - 3:07:28 pm

I'm going to miss Imogen like crazy, I'll only have one night with her but I should take the work

Diana - 3:08:46 pm

Thank you so much

Me - 3:08:49 pm

You said Neil was like a dad to her

Me - 3:08:56 pm

Should be all good

Diana - 3:09:33 pm

He is, she loves spending time with him

Me - 3:09:41 pm

There you go then

Me - 3:09:46 pm

Sorted

Me - 3:10:12 pm

Except for mum missing daughter :). Daughter will be fine

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

Yep :)

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

Yes she will be

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

I'll juts let her sleep with me the days i have her

Diana - 3:10:58 pm

Especially since I missed yesterday it's great to get a replacement

Diana - 3:11:16 pm

I'm going to take the dress up, I don't want to leave it in the car

Diana - 3:11:30 pm

I'll go in and start looking up powerlifting around melbourne

Me - 3:11:35 pm

Plain bag?

Me - 3:11:50 pm

For the dress at work

Diana - 3:13:16 pm

Don't have one

Diana - 3:13:20 pm

It doesn't matter

Diana - 3:13:29 pm

No one is that interested in me

Diana - 3:13:33 pm

Only my guns ;)

Diana - 3:13:47 pm

Hey you know you can't see the dress until the night

Diana - 3:13:52 pm

Well you can see it but not on

Diana - 3:13:52 pm

And I'm coming for a visit tonight

Diana - 3:13:52 pm

I'll be hot and smelly though after running around the city in the heat

Me - 3:17:46 pm

All the better :)) Already can't wait!

Me - 3:18:37 pm

I'd better buy a ticket for the dinner then. And chat to Hollie about the best way to organize transport.

Me - 3:19:38 pm

Maybe even just a taxi from one or our places. And pick up Becca on the way, if she still wants to come with you/us.

Diana - 3:18:08 pm

Yes she does

Me - 3:20:02 pm

News tonight?

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

A taxi will be outrageously expensive

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

Just wait and see what the others do

Me - 3:20:35 pm

Good idea to wIt and see

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

I mean Michael etc will go too yeah?

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

Double time makes it easy to tolerate

Me - 3:21:08 pm

Haha Always does

Diana - 3:30:53 pm

I'm reading about that place in the city, they're really big on the psychology of lifting

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

I wonder if it's just a lot of website phaff to get people in

Me - 3:31:56 pm

I don't know. But some psychology must be involved.

Diana - 3:32:12 pm

They look like they do amazing things

Me - 3:32:33 pm

Like?

Diana - 3:34:45 pm

The clean and press isn't considered a power lift?

Me - 3:35:02 pm

Olympic lift

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

They claim they can do spot fat removal via biopronting

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

Bio printing looking at hormones

Me - 3:36:16 pm

Haven't heard of it

Diana - 3:36:32 pm

Looking at everything from thyroid to androgens to growth hormones

Diana - 3:36:48 pm

It sounds fantastic but then it is juts words

Me - 3:38:09 pm

Aren't we just going for the lifting coaching?

Me - 3:38:14 pm

Although

Me - 3:38:26 pm

Being exposed to other stuff is always good

Diana - 3:39:04 pm

I'm just reading their website

Me - 3:40:34 pm

You know what I really hate. Putting doona covers on

Diana - 3:39:28 pm

Unbelievable!! Read the par In black!

Diana - 3:41:04 pm

Hahaha! Me too! Not as much as vacuuming though

Me - 3:44:12 pm

Good quote. I'll go and have a rummage through their web site in a minute. It's exactly what you were talking about, isn't it.

Me - 3:44:38 pm

Raining here

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Raining?

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

It's hot here

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

That quote isn't from their website I just did a random search for psychological barriers when lifting

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

She's at the exact same weight as me

Me - 3:47:05 pm

No. She's doing a snatch. Different thing

Me - 3:47:32 pm

I can't snatch a barbell. Dumbell yes.

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

Clean and snatch

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

Or just a snatch

Me - 3:54:48 pm

Snatches are tough

Diana - 3:54:51 pm

Straight over head in squat?

Me - 3:55:21 pm

Yes. The overhead squats I showed you, but pull straight up from the floor

Diana - 3:55:42 pm

They're insane!

Me - 3:57:30 pm

Yeah. I can't do them. Although I haven't really tried many times with a barbell. But single arm dumbell snatches are seriously cool and a lot easier. I'll show you next week. Although maybe after your shoulder has been looked at. Tough on shoulders

Diana - 3:59:01 pm

I'm going to try one with the pole tomorrow!

Me - 3:59:52 pm

Ok. Just the pole.

Me - 4:26:53 pm

How's work going?

Diana - 4:45:36 pm

Hey did you want to catch up with your son tonight?

Diana - 4:45:36 pm

It's totally cool if you do

Me - 4:46:53 pm

No. I'll see him later in the week.

Me - 4:47:44 pm

I'm with you tonight

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

Are you sure?

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

Especially if he is going to be in the area

Me - 4:50:43 pm

Yes.

Me - 4:50:47 pm

Yes

Me - 4:50:50 pm

Yes

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

I know you've said it many times... Your kids come first ;))

Me - 4:52:29 pm

Well, maybe not so much eh? I postponed my daughter for you, for tonight. Let's not text about this. I can't wait to see you!

Diana - 5:04:05 pm

I'm just teasing

Diana - 5:04:21 pm

But in all seriousness Id understand you postponing us to see your kids

Me - 5:05:15 pm

No. And in any case, I've got a dress I'd like to see too.

Me - 5:06:29 pm

Raining again

Me - 5:06:36 pm

And sunny :)

Diana - 5:10:37 pm

You really want to see the dress?

Diana - 5:10:41 pm

You don't want to wait?

Me - 5:11:37 pm

I can't wait. I'd love to see you in it.

Me - 5:12:16 pm

Impatient, aren't I

Diana - 5:14:47 pm

I'm not putting it on tonight!

Me - 5:15:24 pm

I'll have to imagine then :))

Me - 5:16:52 pm

But seriously, if you'd rather I didn't see it until the dinner that's fine. I understand it's supposed to be seen for the first time on you.

Me - 5:17:09 pm

Actually, that's probably better

Diana - 5:17:18 pm

You can see it out of the bag if you want to

Me - 5:17:23 pm

Keeping the expectation

Diana - 5:17:24 pm

But I'm not wearing it til the night

Me - 5:17:30 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

No!!

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

No expectations!

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

Oh my god what if I look awful???

Me - 5:18:31 pm

Impossible

Diana - 5:19:44 pm

Please don't have expectations

Me - 5:21:55 pm

Sorry, bad choice of word. Excitement.

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

You mightn't like it at all!

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

My phone keeps dying mid battery

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

I better call and see if I can upgrade yet

Me - 5:25:30 pm

Good idea. It's used a lot!!

Diana - 5:28:53 pm

Haha! It sure is :)

Diana - 5:28:59 pm

I'm going to eat im starving!

Me - 5:29:30 pm

Did you remember to bring your dinner from home?

Me - 5:29:50 pm

I've eaten heaps today. About to eat yet again

Me - 5:30:09 pm

I hope you like fat guys haha

Diana - 5:35:14 pm

I do :)

Diana - 5:35:20 pm

Yes and thank you very much

Diana - 5:41:04 pm

I'm even staying away from the junk table... So far ;)

Diana - 6:23:44 pm

46 items tonight

Diana - 6:23:44 pm

Outrageous

Me - 6:25:25 pm

Wow! Tough to organize

Diana - 6:57:52 pm

Ebola has landed

Diana - 7:02:46 pm

Check iran rvo

Me - 7:05:41 pm

Yeah?

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Next item

Me - 7:06:55 pm

Oh ok

Diana - 7:08:30 pm

I was completely smashed today!

Diana - 7:08:32 pm

I love it

Me - 7:08:43 pm

:))

Me - 7:08:59 pm

Same

Me - 7:09:10 pm

Smiled all day

Diana - 7:09:28 pm

You smiled all day?

Diana - 7:09:32 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 7:09:44 pm

Work was so intense tonight

Diana - 7:16:11 pm

I ate a mint slice

Diana - 7:16:13 pm

Or two

Diana - 7:16:28 pm

In the heat of the moment ;)

Diana - 7:17:04 pm

The adrenalin rush really takes it out of you

Me - 7:18:08 pm

I imagine it does. And you've done quite a bit of aerobic exercise in the last day. You've burned the mint slices :))

Diana - 7:21:01 pm

Yes, I'll need a good nights sleep tonight :)

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

100!! I can't believe it got to 100!! I better do the course now :)

Me - 7:22:13 pm

Of course you're doing the course!!!

Diana - 7:29:52 pm

You know how I feel about commitment ;)

Diana - 7:38:23 pm

What time are you getting to the gym tomorrow?

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

I think we should practice with the bar need the tower

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

Rower

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

And try the transition

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

I don't give a shit about people

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

Not now I want to win ;)

Me - 7:39:29 pm

I'll be there for you. Give me a time. My first session is 10:30.

Diana - 7:44:16 pm

I'll be in after school drop off

Diana - 7:44:30 pm

I'm thinking I should try 3x40?

Me - 7:45:03 pm

That's what we decided I thought.

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

I mean tomorrow

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

Just to be sure

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

Cause I only did 1 rep today

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

Or did we decide that and im losing it?

Diana - 7:45:51 pm

Quite possible :)

Me - 7:46:06 pm

We decided.

Diana - 7:46:19 pm

To do it tomorrow?

Diana - 7:46:27 pm

I thought you said only light tomorrow

Diana - 7:46:36 pm

Like just the bar

Diana - 7:46:51 pm

With the reebok steps or something

Me - 7:47:16 pm

We decided to not go heavy. But it's your wow. You can change your mind.

Me - 7:47:43 pm

Come here.

Me - 7:48:18 pm

We can chat about wows, if you want to

Diana - 7:48:52 pm

You always sulk when I talk about training

Diana - 7:49:02 pm

You can't be my coach ;)

Diana - 7:49:04 pm

Wow what a beautiful night

Me - 7:50:11 pm

Nice and still and red here too

Me - 7:50:43 pm

The doors open. Just come in.

Diana - 7:51:12 pm

It's a glorious sunset

Diana - 7:52:52 pm

Why are you too tired to get up?

Me - 7:54:32 pm

Haha. No. Just so you're not kept waiting. But knock and I'll come running :)

Me - 7:55:14 pm

Actually the wind is a bit gusty here

Diana - 7:55:21 pm

I'm not really ready to just walk in

Diana - 7:55:26 pm

It's s little too familiar

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

Ok?

Me - 7:55:43 pm

Sure.

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

And lazy

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

Cook

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

Cool

Me - 7:56:52 pm

Next door is still banging away!!

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

Maybe we should have really loud sex and record it and put it on a loop and play it out the window

Me - 7:59:45 pm

Haha.

Me - 8:00:54 pm

Might require a number of takes to get the right mix :))

Diana - 8:05:34 pm

Ha!

Diana - 8:10:24 pm

I just remembered the cat is inside I'll kisu quickly drop in and let him out

Me - 8:11:07 pm

Ok. And rubbish night?

Diana - 8:11:21 pm

Yes! Did that though :)

Me - 8:11:59 pm

Do you want me to stay at yours tonight?

Diana - 8:13:24 pm

No it's cool

Me - 8:13:29 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Check out this video on YouTube:

http://youtu.be/64IJv6fJonQ

Editor: The Hold Steady, "The Weekenders"

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Too Rock and roll?

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

I won't be long I'll just feed the car

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Ce

Me - 8:18:05 pm

Haha cat, right

Diana - 8:18:13 pm

Cat and grab my toothbrush

Diana - 8:18:25 pm

I'll come home and shower and get ready at mine in the morning

Diana - 8:18:39 pm

Unless I smell tonight you can throw me in the shower :)

Me - 8:19:30 pm

See you soon

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

I forgot to grab your jumper I'll get it for you in the morning

**Week Eleven**

**Monday 27 October**

Diana - 8:22:08 am

Sheesh terrible weather for a road trip!

Diana - 8:22:08 am

All I did when I got home was try on the dress for an hour, still haven't packed :)

Me - 8:24:43 am

It will pass soon. Have a look at the radar, it should be fine for your trip. That's awesome about your dress. I just had one of those shivers of happiness I said last night :))

Me - 8:25:08 am

Yes, I've eaten :))

Me - 8:26:11 am

Looking forward to seeing you soon, even if it's just at the gym

Diana - 8:26:24 am

Just at the gym??? It's where it all began ;)

Me - 8:30:18 am

Haha. You're so right!

Me - 8:31:16 am

Are you feeling ok? Not too tired? I slept for another hour after you left. A lonely sleep though

Diana - 8:31:17 am

I feel very tired, not sure if I'll try for 40 again, I'll see how the pre workout kicks in. I read some articles this morning about overcoming different barriers when lifting, psychological mechanical functional and biological and how the nervous system shuts down affecting all these areas in order to protect itself for fear of injury. The only way they say to overcome it is to knock back the max only by a tiny percentage and work with that until the body feels it's literally no effort to exert. They discussed it as sprinters slowing a tiny amount to almost their max adding 2 degrees of incline onto their fastest sprint

Diana - 8:31:21 am

It was very interesting

Diana - 8:32:12 am

I thought about how nice it would have been to stay lying in bed listening to the storm :(

Diana - 8:32:17 am

Yes I'm quite tired

Me - 8:35:56 am

You'll be great today in the gym. We're not going fast just steady to get a rough idea of your potential score. And work on transitions. We'll do an overhead warmup and just see how you feel. But every time you've been really tired you've smashed it. Maybe, we could do the 40's then have a long break before doing the speed stuff?

Diana - 8:36:21 am

Yes, ok

Diana - 8:36:35 am

I'm just mindful I have a big drive to get through too

Diana - 8:36:42 am

But you're right lets just see

Diana - 9:06:08 am

Ahh right on school drop

Off!

Diana - 9:06:08 am

We should be cuddled up on the mattress in the lounge drinking coffee

Me - 9:12:03 am

I'm in the car park at gym, out the back and wondering how to get inside without getting soaked. Lounge, mattress, coffee, perfect!

Diana - 9:13:20 am

Ha!

Diana - 9:13:20 am

I just made a run for it

Diana - 9:13:20 am

Am here now

Diana - 9:14:40 am

#drenched

Diana - 11:10:40 am

I know you think I'm silly but I'm really upset about not being able to lift heavier anymore. I wish we'd planned a quick cuddle time before I leave :(

Me - 11:36:08 am

You'll be great on Thursday. Put gym out of your mind until then. The break will make you stronger, your body will be adapting while resting and 40 kg will be doable.

Me - 11:36:45 am

Yeah, never enough cuddle time. Drive carefully. Let me know you've arrived safely, ok?

Diana - 11:59:44 am

Just got Joel

Diana - 11:59:44 am

Going to get coffee and head off now

Me - 12:01:27 pm

Drive carefully

Diana - 12:01:49 pm

I will

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

Are you going to train?

Me - 12:02:25 pm

No

Me - 12:02:38 pm

Driving to Osteo

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

Oh that's nice :)

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

I miss you

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

Talk later xx

Me - 12:04:29 pm

Xxxxxx

Me - 12:53:16 pm

Just arrived at the Osteo. Couldn't text on the freeway. I miss you too. Horribly. And I guess you can't text now :) Talk later. xoxoxo

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

We have just stopped for coffee and snacks

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

The easy part of the drive ahead :)

Me - 1:30:23 pm

Are you tired?

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

Did you have your app?

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

Yes pretty tired

Me - 1:30:37 pm

Still waiting

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

I'm too afraid to look at ffs results!

Me - 1:30:58 pm

She's only 45 mins late :) Pretty normal

Diana - 1:31:10 pm

Argh annoying thoug

Me - 1:31:15 pm

They weren't there half an hour ago

Diana - 1:31:18 pm

Though

Me - 1:37:25 pm

9th!! Awesome!

Me - 1:37:36 pm

Overall I mean

Me - 1:38:17 pm

Becca is 11th

Diana - 1:37:52 pm

She's hot on my tail

Diana - 1:37:52 pm

Do you think she can catch me next wow?

Diana - 1:40:20 pm

Would that mean she has to do an extra 30 reps than me to catch up?

Me - 1:41:21 pm

Doubt she can catch you, she's a long way behind in points. But you're only 2 points behind 8th

Diana - 1:41:40 pm

Really?

Diana - 1:41:53 pm

I bet the woman ahead of me is faster

Diana - 1:41:57 pm

I've got to get back on the road.

Diana - 1:42:44 pm

I'll have to smash myself to make sure Becca doesn't catch me

Diana - 1:43:31 pm

Which partly means not drinking and eating too much bad food at mums

Me - 2:28:39 pm

Just finished at the Osteo. Have a look at the results later. You're 30 points ahead of Becca, and only 2 off 8th.

Me - 2:29:00 pm

Driving back home now

Diana - 2:30:52 pm

How's your body holding up osteo wise?

Me - 2:33:13 pm

Getting there slowly

Diana - 2:33:20 pm

Getting where? Are you ok?

Diana - 2:35:16 pm

I know you're driving whenever is ok

Diana - 3:21:16 pm

I've stopped for caffeine and sugar, my eyes were getting tired

Diana - 3:21:17 pm

Any excuse ;)

Me - 3:23:30 pm

Just got home from the Osteo. Leaving soon to do Camberwell. Make sure you eat enough this week at your mum's. Don't try and diet yet. You'll need energy for Thursday, need glycogen stores to make sure you can power through.

Me - 3:24:16 pm

I was getting tired driving back through the traffic. Something to eat and coffee before I go again :)

Diana - 3:26:01 pm

And the osteo? Are you ok?

Me - 3:27:52 pm

Yeah fine. Just chipping away at back and hip problems. Getting there slowly. She gave me special socks to wear to help with rotation control. And a different hamstring stretch. Back in December.

Me - 3:28:26 pm

Are you ok? Not too tired? How much further to go?

Diana - 3:32:53 pm

Are they those compression socks?

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

I'm have those to wear but never do

Me - 3:33:13 pm

Yeah

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

I'm wrecked but getting some chocolate to help me get through :)

Me - 3:33:25 pm

Wearing one now

Me - 3:33:30 pm

Good

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

Snickers :)

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

I wore them in the spartan race I think they helped but I really don't know ;)

Me - 3:34:20 pm

Buy a few. In case you're so tired and still driving

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

When j was running 6km at a time I used them

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

Hahahah! Yea right!

Me - 3:35:24 pm

Maybe you should start wearing them again. Let's compare notes when you get back.

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

I felt a little silly in long socks and short shorts ;)

Diana - 3:37:04 pm

Ok I'm hitting the road, enjoy your food and rest

Me - 3:37:15 pm

These are really short.

Me - 3:37:28 pm

Half foot length to low ankle

Me - 3:37:35 pm

Must be different

Me - 3:37:48 pm

Ok drive carefully

Diana - 3:55:44 pm

This may be the longest we've ever been apart in 12 weeks ;)

Me - 3:57:15 pm

Yes. I'm going to find it hard, especially after the last few weeks together. Thank god for texts eh?

Diana - 3:57:55 pm

Indeed

Diana - 4:02:56 pm

Almost at chiltern my fav town, on the home stretch :)

Diana - 4:04:52 pm

I had a look did you see the winner of this wow got over 600!

Me - 4:06:00 pm

I have trouble believing that

Me - 4:06:06 pm

I really thought around 300 would win

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

Yea there are some serious athletes in the novice section!

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

Seem to be anyway

Me - 4:13:22 pm

The 600 has to be a mistake. No 2 was 380.

Me - 4:14:22 pm

The top standard men in vic did less than 600.

Diana - 4:11:28 pm

Diana - 4:11:28 pm

Diana - 4:11:28 pm

Shitty photos taken while driving but super cool town

Diana - 4:15:39 pm

Mistake then

Diana - 4:15:42 pm

380 is amazing

Diana - 4:15:44 pm

Now that woman has a career in power lifting

Me - 4:22:01 pm

It's what you will be doing soon. 2 x 100, 3 x 60

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

It doesn't look like that extra week will happen if the dinner is on the 8th

Me - 4:23:28 pm

Don't know. I'll ask the gym manager if it's still true. About to head back to the gym to go to Camberwell

Diana - 4:24:16 pm

I'd almost rather it didn't ;)

Diana - 4:28:32 pm

The river has a good amount of water, happy fish :)

Me - 4:30:55 pm

So you're almost there! Great news. I was worried about you driving tired. My fault for keeping you up last night. Gotta go

Diana - 4:32:20 pm

Diana - 4:30:42 pm

Me - 4:39:05 pm

I love those really old houses and shop fronts.

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

Ian just checked my ranking and messaged me ;)

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

Yea it's a really beautiful town, a lot like tassie

Me - 4:40:27 pm

Good to know you've got a fan club :))

Diana - 4:58:24 pm

Of one :)

Me - 5:00:01 pm

No, two now :))

Diana - 5:32:32 pm

Ok the lecture about how tired and exhausted and whether I've lost more weight has finished d

Me - 5:33:54 pm

With your mum? Is she good?

Diana - 5:34:06 pm

I must admit I feel exceptionally tired

Diana - 5:34:21 pm

She is great already getting out the wine and telling me how tired I look :)

Me - 5:34:24 pm

You'll be able to sleep long tonight won't you

Diana - 5:34:32 pm

She is in fine form!

Me - 5:35:08 pm

Must be a nice feeling being there

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

It's always harder when you're not in your own bed and there's a kid but I think I'll crash for sure!

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

Yes she is all over us :)

Me - 5:35:45 pm

Almost at Camberwell gym.

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

I've juts whipped up the street to get soy milk and coffee

Me - 5:36:07 pm

It will be great not I your house. No work to do

Diana - 5:36:28 pm

Have a good session

Me - 5:37:38 pm

Feeling tired. Don't feel like running. Are you going to have a few wines tonight?

Me - 5:38:14 pm

Lots and lots of traffic

Diana - 5:38:56 pm

There's a cider and a wine waiting for me for when I get back!

Diana - 5:38:56 pm

Yea bad time of night for traffic

Diana - 5:41:04 pm

I'll try not to send drunken inappropriate texts

Diana - 5:45:20 pm

Ian sending more messages! Reckons I can go for top 8 for sure! He saw my form on the 40 today, in suprised he is saying that

Me - 5:54:35 pm

You're awesome, we know that! This gym is pumping niw. Really busy. Hardly a treadmill vacant.

Me - 5:54:53 pm

And the weights area is full

Me - 5:55:16 pm

And they have different music! Still not good, but not too loud

Diana - 6:47:12 pm

Gym is pumping :) hahaha

Diana - 6:47:12 pm

What are people lifting?

Diana - 6:49:39 pm

I meant I'm surprised Ian has any confidence in me given my form this morning -it was bad

Me - 6:55:34 pm

Me - 6:56:55 pm

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

Joel and I are practicing our swing ;)

Diana - 8:18:56 pm

He's booked in another game withe me first thing in the morning

Diana - 8:21:04 pm

You've forgotten me already :(

Me - 8:22:26 pm

That's great! Just got home from Camberwell. About to eat and shower. Sounds like you're havinba great time!

Me - 8:22:47 pm

Been driving. Havent forgotten you. And talking to the Camberwell people. Just home literally 3 mins ago

Me - 8:24:04 pm

Tired and sweaty :) How's things with your mum. Had any heart to hearts yet? Apart from the welcoming Grilling? :)

Me - 8:26:20 pm

I've still got the glass you used last night by the bed side. Going to leave it there to remind me of you.

Me - 8:28:44 pm

Ok. Food in the microwave, shower time.

Diana - 8:39:58 pm

Yep we are just chilling out

Me - 8:40:09 pm

What did you eat?

Diana - 8:40:10 pm

Glad camberwell went well

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

Fish and salad

Me - 8:40:46 pm

Is it cold? It's cold here

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

Cheesecake now

Me - 8:40:51 pm

Haha

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

And wine

Me - 8:40:55 pm

Awesome!!

Me - 8:41:02 pm

Of course wine :))

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

I thought you'd think the pic of Joel was cute and reply

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

Anyway I'll leave you to it

Diana - 8:40:16 pm

Good night

Me - 8:41:52 pm

Never got any picture

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

Oh well

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

Doesn't matter

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

Have a good night

Me - 8:46:25 pm

Really? Try sending it again. But I understand you're busy with your mum. Goodnight. I hope you have a great sleep!

Diana - 8:57:47 pm

Thanks you too

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

So have you sorted yourself for camberwell?

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

I wished you'd texted me back

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

It seems you do this after we get close

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

Manage to not reply

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

Anyway I want to focus on mum

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

Not games or insecurities with you

Me - 9:03:53 pm

It was only a short time and I was running and talking to the fitness director at Camberwell. We're (you and me) solid! There's nothing to worry about here. You know that. Focus on your mum, that's why you're there. All the while knowing you've got me thinking about you. Sleep well tonight.

Diana - 9:11:13 pm

Diana - 9:11:44 pm

Me - 9:14:41 pm

I love that he keeps his head down! So important :)) Awesome big back yard!

Me - 9:15:10 pm

Thanks for sending the image.

Me - 9:19:08 pm

The glass is still there! I'm about to go to bed. A 4:30am start tomorrow and another evening session. Phew! I'm thinking of you, I love you. xxxxxxx

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

Good night

Diana - 9:50:40 pm

Sleep well xx

**Tuesday 28 October**

Me - 8:07:46 am

Good morning. Sleep ok? I'm home after the 6am group session. They loved today, and didn't want to leave. Kept going for nearly an hour. It's great to be a part of that enthusiasm.

Me - 8:07:55 am

Late night for you?

Me - 8:09:32 am

What I had them doing this morning :)

Diana - 8:41:20 am

That's great

Diana - 8:43:08 am

And look how neat your writing is :)

Me - 8:44:19 am

Ha. Had to concentrate! It's hard to rub off that board. Did you sleep ok? With Joel?

Diana - 8:43:28 am

Slept well and with Joel :)

Diana - 8:43:28 am

And you?

Me - 8:46:56 am

Pretty good, for being alone :) Just not enough. Up at 4:30. Thought about going back to bed after the session but now I'm thinking of grocery shopping and then a workout before my 1pm client :)

Me - 8:47:12 am

Big golf day coming up, I assume?

Diana - 8:45:36 am

Mum is asking me about dairy alternatives so I got her some soy milk to try and some coconut yoghurt :)

Diana - 8:47:57 am

She has finally realised dairys cancer implications :))

Diana - 8:48:13 am

Then yes golf with Joel in the backyard before going to corowa

Diana - 8:48:29 am

No workout, eat and rest ok??

Me - 8:48:36 am

Do you take Joel to the golf course to play?

Diana - 8:48:37 am

You need to get the weight back on

Diana - 8:48:51 am

Hang on be back soon :)

Diana - 8:48:53 am

Go to sleep xxz

Me - 8:49:05 am

Great about your mum and dairy

Me - 8:49:34 am

It's good being a positive influence on your parent, isn't it.

Me - 8:49:41 am

A chance for role reversal

Me - 8:50:04 am

I tried almond milk this morning. Couldn't finish my coffee haha

Me - 8:50:10 am

First time ever :))

Me - 8:50:16 am

Maybe it's the brand

Me - 8:50:57 am

What does Joel do when you llay golf with your mum?

Diana - 8:51:41 am

We are playing golf this afternoon across the road

Me - 8:51:46 am

And I think an 80% 1RM workout will help me increase weight. I need to lift! You know how that feels :))

Me - 8:52:01 am

So what's at corowa?

Diana - 8:52:00 am

Hahaha! Ok

Diana - 8:52:23 am

We spent a lot of time there as kids

Diana - 8:52:34 am

We are going out for lunch and I'll do some shopping for mum

Me - 8:52:42 am

Oh ok

Diana - 8:52:41 am

Have you eaten?

Diana - 8:52:48 am

Eat before you lift!

Diana - 8:52:50 am

Ok?

Diana - 8:52:53 am

And sleep

Me - 8:52:54 am

A family outing :)

Diana - 8:52:59 am

Leave grocery shopping

Diana - 8:53:08 am

I'm totes telling you what to do aren't i !

Diana - 8:53:10 am

Sorry :/

Me - 8:53:12 am

Yeah. I've had breaky

Diana - 8:53:35 am

Almond milk takes time, let me buy one for you to try

Me - 8:54:00 am

I need something before Thursday. I've literarily nothing to cook

Me - 8:55:17 am

Have a great day with Joel and your mum. Sounds like fun!!

Diana - 8:56:16 am

Maybe Wednesday night?

Me - 8:56:48 am

As well as !! :)

Diana - 8:57:07 am

Ok have a good nap then xx

Me - 8:58:36 am

Haha. And I'm cool with you telling me what to do. With that stuff at least. I probably do need some reminding from time to time. Have a great day, but I'm sure I'll be talking to you at some stage. xx

Diana - 8:59:24 am

Well unless you'd prefer Id leave you to it

Diana - 8:59:28 am

I can do that?

Me - 9:02:04 am

No. Of course not. I love talking to you. But I'm mindful of not interrupting you too much when you're with your mum. Is that ok? I'll wait until you text me to reply. I know your focus is on your mum this week, as it should be.

Me - 9:15:16 am

I'll have to buy you a pair of these, compression socks, to see if they help your foot. I ran better last night while wearing mine.

Diana - 9:13:20 am

Thanks Mark

Diana - 9:15:21 am

You're one of the good ones xxz

Diana - 9:15:28 am

For sure Id love to try one!

Me - 9:15:46 am

:) As are you!!

Diana - 9:15:28 am

My foot was cramping like mad last night

Diana - 9:15:28 am

My mum is so kind and loving towards me, it's very uncomfortable, cancer has changed our relationship so much, I'm grateful for it for without it this would not be happening

Diana - 9:15:28 am

I miss you.

Diana - 9:15:28 am

And I like you lots.

Diana - 9:17:36 am

Ok it's time for my golf game with Joel. We see who can hit eachother in the shins with the practice balls, the first to 7 wins

Diana - 9:17:36 am

It's the new golf ;)

Me - 9:18:47 am

Haha. Have a lot of fun. But hard not to when you're with Joel and your "new" mum! Enjoy! Thinking of you.

Diana - 9:17:36 am

You know, if what is happening is real, perhaps mum really did love me the whole time and I'm not as unworthy of breathing air as I thought.

Me - 9:19:33 am

Ask her

Diana - 9:17:36 am

What a beautiful thing, yet what sadness that I spent my life wishing it away

Me - 9:19:38 am

Maybe after a wine or two

Diana - 9:17:36 am

She is already telling me

Me - 9:19:52 am

It's never too late to find stuff out

Diana - 9:20:02 am

Just through her actions and telling me I'm the only one who doesn't see her as a duty

Diana - 9:20:13 am

And she is right I don't, I love her like crazy!

Me - 9:20:27 am

If you need the words to be said, then don't leave them unsaid

Diana - 9:20:41 am

Now to ask her what she thinks about me dating a 60 year old man ;))

Me - 9:20:51 am

I'm not 60!!!!

Diana - 9:20:53 am

I don't need the words, my heart is bursting.

Diana - 9:21:17 am

Bahaha! Soon to be 59 then ;))

Me - 9:21:45 am

Big difference. Only one decade between us :))

Diana - 9:21:52 am

She told me my legs looked muscly even through my jeans ;) #gains

Diana - 9:21:52 am

Hahaha!

Diana - 9:22:09 am

One year shy of 2 decades?

Diana - 9:22:13 am

That's how I'll sell you to her ;))

Me - 9:22:19 am

2 years shy

Me - 9:22:28 am

Not that I'm counting hahaa

Diana - 9:22:40 am

I better run, I've been in the shower texting you a little too long :)

Me - 9:22:57 am

Sell me as me! The man who makes you happy :)

Me - 9:23:06 am

Ok. Have fun!

Diana - 9:24:00 am

You do x

Diana - 11:21:20 am

Nom nom

Me - 11:38:38 am

Haha. Looks good. At the gym starting a workout. How was golf? Did Joel win?

Diana - 12:12:32 pm

Of course he did :)

Diana - 12:14:01 pm

Look at this old oroton bag I got from the op shop :))

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

We are in the old pub now ordering lunch, I love old pubs. Mums having a ouzo and coke to celebrate! Never too early huh?? ;))

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

Have a good workout

Me - 12:17:21 pm

Is the bag an "accessory"? :) Nothing to drink for you? You didn't mention :)) Workout is going really well, feeling stronger today. Enjoy your lunch.

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

Coffee for me :)

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

Glad you're feeling stronger xx

Diana - 2:43:26 pm

So did you make some gainz ;)

Me - 2:49:11 pm

Haha. Actually yes :) Did a Diana workout, just what I felt like but covering all movement patterns. Plus lots of shoulder and upper body stuff. Just had my third meal for the day (yes! I know!) Including a protein smoothie. Just hanging until 5pm. Have you played golf on the course yet? Or just the lunch trip to corowa so far?

Me - 2:50:13 pm

Getting sunny-ish here now but still cold windy.

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

Third meal of the day?!!

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

Wow what's happening to you?

Me - 2:52:07 pm

Training, perhaps. Contentment, perhaps :)) And there'll be, at least, a fourth haha

Diana - 2:52:25 pm

Did I totally freak you out when I said I was going to her about you?

Diana - 2:52:31 pm

Sorry if I did I wasn't meaning to

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

I hope it's contentment :))

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

We are heading over to hit some balls down, got a new wood to try, they're my favourite. Very sexy clubs

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

I can't believe I just said that either

Me - 2:54:40 pm

Haha. Golf IS sexy haha. Sort of. Maybe not. :)) Enjoy hitting your driver. Hitting it hard and long is one of the cooler aspects of golf.

Me - 2:56:01 pm

And did you mean about telling your mum about us? That doesn't bother me. If you think it's right.

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

Oh dear she is making me wear a glove!!

Me - 2:56:49 pm

Gotta wear a glove!

Me - 2:57:14 pm

Necessary. Absolutely. I agree with your mum. :)

Me - 2:58:53 pm

But it's got full fingers? That's not so good. Need the ends of your fingers free to "feel" the club. Wow. Maybe getting a bit too technical. Sorry. :)) Just enjoy!

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

Ha!

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

I better get a lesson from you

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

Let me know when you have time :)

Diana - 3:01:08 pm

And cut the fingers off the gloves mum gave me. ;)

Me - 3:01:16 pm

Actualky that's completely wrong haha. All golf gloves have fingers

Me - 3:01:41 pm

I was thinking bike, for some reason.

Me - 3:01:54 pm

Keep the fingers :))

Me - 3:02:27 pm

Are you playing a round or going to the range?

Me - 3:34:37 pm

Sorry about the glove's fingers. I don't know what I was thinking. Not about golf gloves, that's for sure. Enjoy your golf. It's an awesome (and frustrating) game.

Diana - 3:44:38 pm

It's ok :)

Diana - 3:44:51 pm

Lucky I don't take everything you say as gospel ;))

Me - 3:49:19 pm

Thanks. And good advice ;)

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

Most of what you say but not all

Diana - 3:52:16 pm

:))

Me - 4:10:15 pm

I'm exhausted, but still have a session to do. How is your tiredness? Ok?

Diana - 4:24:16 pm

I feel fairly tired, I really need a night in my own bed but I'm doing ok

Diana - 4:24:16 pm

Will you take some pre workout?

Me - 4:25:51 pm

Already had 2 scoops to do my gym workout. I don't think so, I'll try without it.

Me - 4:26:48 pm

Got to go again in about 15 minutes. Sigh! The couch looks REALLY awesome atm. :))

Diana - 4:26:24 pm

Yea I could handle your couch too :)

Diana - 4:26:24 pm

Enjoy running, big sleeps tonight

Me - 4:28:39 pm

Thanks.

Me - 4:56:56 pm

You know, it almost reminds me of being on tour again. Another day, another car trip, another venue, another show :)

Diana - 5:14:50 pm

Just with dud music ;)

Diana - 5:15:03 pm

This time I mean, with running class

Diana - 5:15:15 pm

And no exotic locations.

Me - 5:15:54 pm

Fountain Gate!! Exotic plus!! Haha

Me - 5:16:36 pm

In the car, on east link. The journey continues.

Diana - 5:17:09 pm

Let's go on a road trip

Diana - 5:17:12 pm

We both need an adventure

Diana - 5:17:24 pm

Not to fountain gate

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

And while we are at it we can stay away from eastlink ;)

Me - 5:20:20 pm

Haha

Me - 5:24:21 pm

Road trip sounds awesome. Just drive, any direction along a coastline. Turn back when kids need to be picked up again.

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

Perfect

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

So I hit a ball 350 metres at the range

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

But apparently I only half swing

Me - 5:25:14 pm

!!! WTF???!!

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

I tried a full swing but it doesn't feel right

Diana - 5:25:28 pm

Yep measured by the flags

Me - 5:25:48 pm

That's awesome!! Must be the deadlift strength :)

Diana - 5:26:08 pm

Most of them were around 300 metres

Diana - 5:26:08 pm

And I tend to hit them a little to the right

Me - 5:27:54 pm

To the right is normal. It's called a slice. Everyone does that.

Me - 5:28:36 pm

Definitely need a range session together. It'll be fun. And short game. And a coffee in the clubhouse

Diana - 5:28:16 pm

Actually a little to the left!

Diana - 5:28:16 pm

And my pitch was terrible so I went back to driving :)

Diana - 5:28:16 pm

I'm really bad

Diana - 5:28:16 pm

I don't think you'd enjoy playing with me

Me - 5:29:34 pm

Left is better but harder. It's called a draw

Me - 5:30:06 pm

I just enjoy playing. And being with you. Perfect combination :)

Diana - 5:30:09 pm

My alignment is out, or I'm just stronger in the right shoulder maybe

Me - 5:30:26 pm

Probably alignment. Most are

Diana - 5:30:24 pm

Ahh so I've got a strong draw ;)

Me - 5:31:36 pm

Haha. Yeah. Good thing to have. Golf wise :)

Diana - 5:30:24 pm

Really?

Diana - 5:30:24 pm

I kind of went into some trees with it today ;)

Me - 5:32:43 pm

Ahh. Don't aim at the trees. :)

Diana - 5:32:32 pm

Well as long as you don't mind someone totally missing the ball altogether at times lets make it part of our road trip ;)

Diana - 5:32:32 pm

I have a terribly upset tummy, I've become so soft and healthy that any normal food now makes me ill!

Diana - 5:32:32 pm

Anyway I imagine you're about to run. Talk later

Me - 5:33:58 pm

Really? What did you eat?

Me - 5:34:16 pm

Nearly at the gym. Running in 30 or so

Diana - 5:32:32 pm

I had flathead tails and vegetables for lunch

Diana - 5:32:32 pm

So I'm not sure

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

But mum just gave me an anti nausea tablet so I should be fine soon

Me - 5:34:52 pm

Maybe the fish?

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

They're out the back having a drink, I can't stomach alcohol tonight

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

Yea maybe the fish

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

It'll pass soon

Me - 5:35:47 pm

I hope so. You deserve a good sleep

Diana - 5:37:33 pm

Yea I'll be fine. Cancer anti nausea tablets, I'll be ready for another game of golf with Joel in no time :)

Me - 5:38:44 pm

Great! Also, I confirmed us in the limo or whatever transport they book for the dinner.

Diana - 5:39:19 pm

Really?

Diana - 5:39:22 pm

Ok cool

Diana - 5:39:47 pm

Nothing less than a chopper for me ;)

Me - 5:40:25 pm

Haha. Of course.

Diana - 5:42:18 pm

Did you get a ticket?

Me - 5:45:42 pm

Not yet. And apparently you have to do something on the web site and print something to take to be scanned. We'll figure it out when you come back.

Me - 5:59:28 pm

Arrived. Setting up.

Me - 6:00:30 pm

Fountain Gate cardio area

Me - 6:13:49 pm

About to run. Talk later.

Diana - 6:21:36 pm

Ok have fun

Me - 7:31:31 pm

Just finished. I'm absolutely buggered :)) Went a bit too hard haha. Glad I'm not driving. How's your nausea? Feeling better?

Diana - 7:43:19 pm

Yep the tablets have worked and I even managed to eat a little dinner so mum was happy

Diana - 7:43:19 pm

I bet you're tired

Diana - 7:43:50 pm

Do you have another early start? Did running goes well at heartbreak lake?

Me - 7:43:59 pm

That's great.

Diana - 7:44:33 pm

There something wrong with something I've eaten but the pills are masking it well ;)

Me - 7:44:42 pm

Yeah. 7:30 first session. And fountain gate went really well. Best of all of them.

Me - 7:45:02 pm

Food poisoning?

Diana - 7:45:24 pm

Maybe

Diana - 7:45:33 pm

That's great about fountain hate

Diana - 7:45:42 pm

When do you start?

Me - 7:47:13 pm

Not until after the course in November. I'm undecided now. Maybe I can ask your opinion when we're together?

Me - 7:48:53 pm

I hope you feel better soon

Diana - 7:52:00 pm

I'm worried I won't be better for Thursday is it ok to do the wow Friday if not?

Me - 7:52:01 pm

Hmmm. Maybe. Part of the undecided part :)

Me - 7:52:17 pm

Friday is fine

Diana - 7:52:19 pm

Not wont be better but may not be able to perform my best

Me - 7:53:00 pm

You'll be fine. You always have been on the day.

Me - 7:53:04 pm

Maybe not so fine the day after though :)

Diana - 7:53:20 pm

Well I don't want you to do both ;)

Diana - 7:53:20 pm

But of course I'll remove selfish motives when we talk about it for real :)

Me - 7:54:31 pm

Yeah, time with you is part of the thinking.

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

And I want to be better than just fine, I have a young gun champion hockey player to make sure I beat and a top 10 position to uphold, to be honest I'm shitting myself.

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

Oh really?

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

You've warned me about how you will become less available, I get it

Me - 7:56:19 pm

Try to relax about the wow.

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

You need to do what you need to do, I understand

Me - 7:56:56 pm

Only one gym I think. Too much time away from you I think

Diana - 7:57:00 pm

Ok I better get back out to mum, I'll text soon though but let me know if you're going to sleep so I don't wake you.

Diana - 7:57:08 pm

Let's talk about it

Diana - 7:57:15 pm

Of course I'm going to agree ;))

Me - 7:57:29 pm

Ok. See you. Have fun this evening

Diana - 7:57:29 pm

Just kidding, my heart will agree but my head will know you have to work

Me - 7:57:44 pm

Talk later

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

Thanks, we are just chilling, mum is still tired from radiation

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

And upset I hit the ball so far ;)

Me - 7:58:05 pm

Haha

Me - 7:58:09 pm

Jealousy

Me - 7:58:12 pm

;))

Me - 7:59:25 pm

Tell her you can lift 105! You can hit a little ball a long way!!

Diana - 8:18:53 pm

A mix of jealousy and pride maybe ;)

Diana - 8:18:56 pm

That's why she is trying to fatten me up with wine and cheesecake ;)

Diana - 8:21:04 pm

Meal No5 for you now? :)

Me - 8:31:30 pm

Yep. Eating now. Glad I had some leftovers in the freezer. Cheesecake? Haha

Me - 8:50:13 pm

How are you feeling now? Is the wine working? ;)

Diana - 9:00:55 pm

I'm glad you're eating

Diana - 9:01:05 pm

Mum and I have been laughing so hard she wet herself and I can really close ;;)

Diana - 9:01:10 pm

Too much info! Sorry :)

Me - 9:01:12 pm

Haha

Me - 9:01:24 pm

Never too much :))

Me - 9:01:53 pm

That's so good to hear.

Diana - 9:05:42 pm

No I just had half a glass to please

Diana - 9:05:45 pm

No wine

Diana - 9:05:52 pm

I'm taking it easy

Diana - 9:05:52 pm

Going to make a hot chocolate though

Diana - 9:05:52 pm

I'm going to come back fat and I know how you feel about fat people ;)

Diana - 9:05:52 pm

Are you having a nice rest?

Me - 9:07:37 pm

My son's popped in to stay overnight. Catching up and watching crap tv. Just like old times haha

Diana - 9:09:56 pm

That's great!

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

Ok so... Lifting heavy and nutrition, they're the two you need to hassle him about ;) cause it's all about me ;)) oh and how to get stronger for my wow on Thursday

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

I'm kidding, have a great night xx

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

Good thing you aired the house out :)

Me - 9:16:38 pm

Haha. House aired.

Me - 9:19:39 pm

He reckons Tina would know. He'll ask her tomorrow. About a nutritionist

Me - 9:20:06 pm

Is it too early (or embarrSing) to mention us to my kids?

Diana - 9:37:52 pm

I don't know

Diana - 9:37:52 pm

You need to know it's the right time

Diana - 9:37:52 pm

Hey, I am looking forward to seeing you :(

Diana - 9:37:52 pm

Oops! I mean :))

Diana - 9:37:52 pm

Sorry typo!

Me - 10:06:45 pm

Just had a long chat with my son. He already knew :) He said he saw it in the gym. He's so happy for me. He thinks you're awesome, from what I've told him and the little time he spent with you. :)

Diana - 10:24:48 pm

Oh wow really?

Diana - 10:24:48 pm

He already knew?

Diana - 10:24:48 pm

That's a pretty switched on kid :)

Diana - 10:24:48 pm

Sorry he's not a kid but you know what I mean

Me - 10:25:36 pm

Sure is :)

Diana - 10:25:40 pm

Sheesh that's kind of confronting

Diana - 10:25:51 pm

Nothing had really happened at that stage

Diana - 10:26:04 pm

Had it?

Me - 10:28:44 pm

No. He said he saw how comfortable we were together.

Diana - 10:29:04 pm

Oh, well yea I think that was happening :)

Diana - 10:29:04 pm

How do you feel?

Diana - 10:29:04 pm

About telling him?

Diana - 10:29:04 pm

Has it made you anxious?

Diana - 10:30:07 pm

Is he the first person you've spoken to?

Diana - 10:31:12 pm

I told mum some stuff, not everything. I know she would want nothing more for me than to let someone love me

Diana - 10:31:12 pm

Anyway I'll leave you guys to hang out, I'm heading to bed to try to get some rest before the drive back

Me - 10:36:52 pm

No not anxious. Far from it. Yes he's the first I've told. I hope you have a great sleep. Off to bed myself, early start again. Love you xxx

Me - 10:37:01 pm

Goodnight

Diana - 10:37:36 pm

Thank you, I hope you have a good sleep too. Xx

**Wednesday 29 October**

Me - 8:04:04 am

Good morning. Just finished my 7:30 client. How did you sleep?

Diana - 8:05:00 am

Very well, just in bed cuddling Joel

Diana - 8:05:01 am

How are you?

Diana - 8:05:04 am

Ok so I was up at 5 comparing scores on the other women on the 4th and 8th wows for about an hour

Diana - 8:05:04 am

But mum wasn't up so stayed in bed

Me - 8:06:14 am

Feeing good this morning. Slept ok. What time are you leaving to come back?

Diana - 8:05:04 am

I know... You think I'm mad :)

Me - 8:06:35 am

What did you find out?

Diana - 8:05:04 am

I'm going to get up mum just woke. I think we will leave about 10

Me - 8:07:04 am

Ok

Diana - 8:05:04 am

Maybe 1030 ish

Diana - 8:05:04 am

Are you around this morning?

Me - 8:07:40 am

Yes. I might do a workout then hang at home

Diana - 8:07:50 am

Eat

Diana - 8:09:06 am

I was thinking I might go do kidzfit but I'll see how I feel when I get back.

Me - 8:09:23 am

Ok

Diana - 8:09:57 am

I need to book in your friend straight after the wow, my shoulder is bad and my middle and ring fingers are getting pins and needles again

Diana - 8:10:01 am

Anyway coffee!

Diana - 8:10:23 am

And eat :)

Me - 8:10:28 am

Good idea to see Steve. After Thursday.

Me - 8:10:38 am

I will eat! Promise :)

Diana - 8:13:36 am

And I will tell you my findings as soon as j get a chance :)

Diana - 8:13:36 am

Enjoy your workout

Diana - 8:32:48 am

Oh I just saw it was the 80s day at the gym today on fb, so what are you wearing? ;)

Diana - 8:39:22 am

Well I was tagged in a workout of the day thing with 12 weekers

Me - 8:46:57 am

Just wearing a bright yellow top. Don't want to go over board :)

Me - 8:47:06 am

Tagged?

Diana - 8:53:51 am

Yes they tag me in their notifications, this morning was about the challenge today

Diana - 8:54:08 am

They tag all challengers

Diana - 8:58:24 am

Anyway seems like you're having such a great workout you can't be bothered chatting, despite spending your life working out

Diana - 8:58:24 am

I'll see you at the gym tomorrow

Me - 9:05:03 am

No. I'll see you tonight.

Diana - 9:09:40 am

I don't want to see you tonight

Diana - 9:09:53 am

Just do the gym.

Diana - 9:10:15 am

It's so nice to think you've missed me enough to spend a little time texting instead of working out

Diana - 9:10:22 am

Wow you know how to make a girl feel special

Diana - 9:10:30 am

Stay home tonight

Diana - 9:10:39 am

Rest so you can workout again tomorrow

Diana - 9:10:48 am

And leave me alone

Me - 9:12:13 am

I was cornered. Complaining about the 80's day at the gym and how much money they waste

Diana - 9:12:22 am

I hope you told your son about the expiry date

Me - 9:12:34 am

I text you at every opportunity!!!

Diana - 9:12:34 am

Yep I know it's so hard at the gym and all that socialising

Diana - 9:12:40 am

Whatever

Diana - 9:12:43 am

See you tomorrow

Diana - 9:12:47 am

I'll leave you alone

Diana - 9:12:55 am

Then you can concentrate on what you care about

Me - 9:13:09 am

Don't do this, please?

Me - 9:27:11 am

Look at the timestamps of the messages. I didn't reply to your text for 10 minutes only.

Diana - 9:44:43 am

Look at the texts since Monday mark, it's like replying to me has been a laboured chore

Diana - 9:45:06 am

And I've felt it

Diana - 9:45:09 am

And I don't want it

Diana - 9:45:20 am

One reply to my 5 texts

Diana - 9:45:20 am

I get it, you feel like you have me now so why fucking bother putting any more effort in

Diana - 9:45:20 am

Anyway get back to training

Diana - 9:45:50 am

It's seriously all ok

Diana - 9:46:00 am

In fact it's better

Diana - 9:46:09 am

I'm reminded why I don't want to be with anyone

Me - 9:46:13 am

I've left training, left the gym. Can't train anymore, too upset

Me - 9:47:56 am

It's not true.

Me - 9:48:21 am

What you said about laboured texts. I love hearing from you and talking to you.

Diana - 9:49:15 am

Yea well I'm upset too, only im not leaving something as insignificant as the gym Im leaving my mum who has cancer in another state

Diana - 9:49:17 am

So don'took for sympathy from me

Me - 9:49:42 am

Not looking for sympathy.

Diana - 9:49:36 am

Have a look trough the tesxts mark and see if what you say is really true

Me - 9:50:09 am

This all came out of nowhere. I thought it was all fine until 9am.

Diana - 9:49:36 am

You've friended a bunch of women in fb yet can't even like my post about my mum

Diana - 9:50:31 am

Yea just like your marriage ended out of nowhere

Diana - 9:50:34 am

Jesus

Me - 9:50:41 am

I did in Instagram

Diana - 9:50:43 am

Awareness is not underrated

Diana - 9:51:00 am

Whatever Mark

Diana - 9:51:16 am

Even last night your son was over and you don't tell me u til I text you

Diana - 9:51:27 am

Yet you want to know my every move

Diana - 9:51:44 am

Go flirt with your 12 week challengers and leave me the fuck alone

Me - 9:52:07 am

Because you're with your mum!

Diana - 9:51:44 am

I don't want to be a chore

Diana - 9:51:44 am

Oh fuck off

Diana - 9:51:44 am

You're giving me space ??!?

Diana - 9:51:44 am

Even when I'm texting you you're giving me space???

Diana - 9:52:41 am

Are you fucking serious

Diana - 9:53:02 am

If I am texting you do you think j want space or do you think I am trying to connect with you???

Diana - 9:53:11 am

Fuck where is your degree when it counts??

Diana - 9:53:43 am

So I want to chat cause j miss you and you don't chat back because you're trying to give me space? You're an idiot

Me - 9:53:52 am

All right, I hear you

Diana - 9:53:52 am

I'll tell you what it is, you've got yourself some pussy and you feel good about yourself so you're confident and eating well and flirting and feeling like a king meanwhile ignoring the person who makes you feel like that

Diana - 9:53:52 am

Fuck ylu

Diana - 9:53:52 am

Go to hell

Me - 9:55:16 am

Really? After all this time you can say that and mean it?

Diana - 9:55:18 am

Go fuck one of your 12 week gym challenger fb firiends

Diana - 9:55:26 am

They're closed to your age atleast

Me - 9:55:33 am

Tell me again that you mean it!!

Diana - 9:56:00 am

Don't expect me to Include you in my life when you treat me like shit

Diana - 9:56:00 am

You haven't given a fuck about me since I left

Me - 9:57:19 am

I have no idea how you can say that.

Diana - 9:57:25 am

You even know how hard it is for me at mums and you still left me for dead

Diana - 9:57:28 am

Fuck you

Diana - 9:57:37 am

You're just happy you got pussy

Diana - 9:57:55 am

Now go get some more mark, you're always reminding me how easy it is for you to pick up

Me - 9:59:17 am

All right. You've told me to fuck off enough now. And I'm an idiot and I don't care for you at all. It's not true but not need to keep reminding me.

Diana - 10:04:32 am

Yea my delivery is terrible

Diana - 10:13:53 am

I don't know if I mean it. I feel hurt yet I know I'm overreacting

Diana - 10:14:22 am

And I don't think it's good for me to be with someone who spends all their time with women

Diana - 10:14:36 am

I'm heading home

Me - 10:14:51 am

Drive carefully.

Diana - 10:15:05 am

You know ever photo you sent me while I've been away has been of women

Diana - 10:15:12 am

It's fucked up

Diana - 10:15:12 am

I will drive carefully

Me - 10:15:37 am

Women are by and large the only ones who train.

Diana - 10:15:39 am

I don't think we are going to work

Diana - 10:15:43 am

I know

Diana - 10:15:58 am

And I don't think that's good for me

Diana - 10:16:04 am

Well I know it's not

Diana - 10:16:22 am

Especially when you think it's best to give me space

Me - 10:16:25 am

Why not? Don't trust me? You know you can

Diana - 10:16:35 am

It's just not going to work

Diana - 10:16:38 am

I don't trust you

Diana - 10:17:02 am

And when you frind people on fb ignore my post and give me space

Diana - 10:17:05 am

It's not good for me

Diana - 10:17:19 am

I need a little more than that

Diana - 10:17:20 am

And someone who enjoys women's company a little less than you

Diana - 10:17:59 am

Even your best friend, you can't decide if he is your best friend or is wife is

Diana - 10:18:10 am

I need a man who is more into men than women in that sense

Diana - 10:18:20 am

To help me with my

Trust issues

Diana - 10:18:34 am

I can't work on them with someone who spends every waking moment with women

Diana - 10:18:37 am

I'm

Sorry

Me - 10:18:44 am

You help issues by working through them

Diana - 10:18:44 am

I can give you your money back

Diana - 10:19:01 am

Or choosing people who aren't going to trigger them as much

Diana - 10:19:28 am

It totally feels like you abandoned me these last couple of days while you were on your high

Diana - 10:19:28 am

It hurts and I don't want to feel like this

Diana - 10:19:28 am

And I don't want to feel insecure either

Me - 10:20:03 am

Let me help with that. I can

Diana - 10:20:11 am

So while you're high enjoying life that's how I have been feeling

Diana - 10:20:18 am

Help with it? You're the cause of it

Diana - 10:20:29 am

This is how I go down while my partners lift up

Diana - 10:20:32 am

It's all wrong

Diana - 10:20:44 am

I'm stronger healthier and happier single

Me - 10:21:54 am

It's something we can work on. If you want to do that. You said you were nearly ready. This could be the final step to getting this right

Diana - 10:21:36 am

I know you can't get well in the lions den. And you are the lions den in this regard

Diana - 10:22:32 am

I don't want to be with someone that spends all their time with women, training them, massaging them, hanging out with them.

Diana - 10:22:39 am

It's not what I want mark

Diana - 10:22:53 am

I need more of a mans man to feel secure

Diana - 10:23:03 am

And someone who enjoys male Company

Diana - 10:23:12 am

Even touch and you managing

Me - 10:23:16 am

Ok. Well that's not me

Diana - 10:23:17 am

It's too much for me

Diana - 10:23:25 am

You know how I feel about touch

Diana - 10:23:39 am

I know it's not you

Diana - 10:23:44 am

You don't enjoy male company at all

Diana - 10:23:44 am

That's a big issue for me

Me - 10:24:46 am

Ok. If that's how you really feel.

Diana - 10:24:50 am

I really feel like you couldn't be been fucked with me these last couple of days

Diana - 10:25:03 am

That mixed with these issues is too much for me

Me - 10:25:05 am

But it's the first I've heard you need a man's man

Me - 10:25:35 am

If that message as felt by you it was never felt or sent by me

Diana - 10:25:38 am

Well someone with balance

Diana - 10:25:52 am

I don't understand that text

Me - 10:28:50 am

That I couldn't be bothered with you. Not felt by me and not sent by me. Couldn't be further for the truth. I've thought of you constantly. I hardly spoke to people in the car because I was texting with you. And that's all I wanted to do, I had my phone in my hand all rhe time.

Me - 10:29:19 am

We can work on the insecurity. You can trust me completely.

Me - 10:29:34 am

I would have thought you'd picked up on thy by now

Me - 10:29:50 am

Once I'm involved I'm all in.

Me - 10:30:04 am

And I'm all in with you.

Diana - 10:30:08 am

I'm scared and I want to run

Diana - 10:30:08 am

I don't know how to trust

Me - 10:30:39 am

Seems like this conversation is a another step on the way to is being together

Diana - 10:30:08 am

Even myself

Me - 10:30:46 am

Us being together

Me - 10:30:54 am

We CAN do this!!!

Me - 10:31:00 am

Trust me!!!!

Diana - 10:30:08 am

This isn't a wow

Me - 10:31:07 am

I know.

Me - 10:31:17 am

Of course not!

Me - 10:31:48 am

It's not empty stuff to make you go faster. This is us, it's important and it's real

Me - 10:32:07 am

But it can't be something done individually

Me - 10:32:21 am

It can only be done together

Me - 10:33:04 am

Because it's together we're stronger than individualjy. Or we will be once we can figure this stuff out together

Me - 10:33:49 am

I know you want to run. I know how frightened you are. And it's always when we're not physically togerher that these issues arise

Me - 10:34:26 am

We need to be together to sort them out.

Me - 10:34:58 am

Can't do it on our own. The "old" ways will always try and reassert themselves.

Me - 10:35:22 am

We have to fight that. For something that can and will be amazing!!

Me - 10:35:49 am

Us. We can be amazing. Given time, effort and love.

Me - 10:37:04 am

I know it's tough. I think I understand. Or I'm trying to understand.

Diana - 10:38:40 am

It's all very nice what you're saying

Diana - 10:38:40 am

And I always knew it would be work for me to be happy in another relationship

Diana - 10:38:40 am

And that brings me back to finding the space and time to do it

Diana - 10:38:40 am

I'm scared and it brings out qualities in me I don't like and would like to leave dormant as the effort required to sort through them seems insummountable

Me - 10:42:59 am

In really believe we should face these togerher. And now is the time to do it. There's enough space and time to sort things out. It doesn't have to be a rush. And I think we are sorting them out. Even right now!!

Diana - 10:45:47 am

Then why do I feel like crying and running away!

Me - 10:46:05 am

This is a good thing. We're a good thing. Not perfect, but then nothing is. You've been able to sleep better not worrying too much about us and that can get even better. Having someone you can always rely on is a great thing to have!

Me - 10:46:18 am

Why? Because it's what's you've always done

Me - 10:46:36 am

But finally you have a guy who loves you and won't let you run away

Me - 10:46:46 am

Time to work this out

Me - 10:46:47 am

Now

Me - 10:46:55 am

We're really close

Me - 10:47:04 am

Them the crying and running will stop

Me - 10:48:30 am

I guess it's a relationship thing. Mum, dad, etc. But the past doesn't always have to determine our future behaviour

Me - 10:49:02 am

If we don't like how we feel and act then we can change it. Or work at changing it.

Me - 10:49:24 am

You've changed me! I didn't like how I was

Me - 10:50:02 am

I feel a better person because of you. That I can be with someone I want to be with 24 hours a day

Me - 10:50:52 am

I was even wondering in the gym today how I could not work at all so I could spend all day every day with you. I've never felt like that with anyone before in my life!

Diana - 10:50:53 am

How have I changed you?

Diana - 10:51:03 am

You always seemed happy enough

Diana - 10:51:08 am

Ha!

Diana - 10:51:28 am

I have to start driving, I've got to do the 4-430 session on the treadmill

Me - 10:51:49 am

Not happy enough though. Until you

Diana - 10:51:28 am

Can we talk more later?

Me - 10:52:03 am

Of course!

Me - 10:52:17 am

Talk later

Diana - 10:52:44 am

I'm sorry

Diana - 10:52:49 am

And thank you

Me - 10:52:57 am

Just ask if you want me to go back to the gym at 4pm

Diana - 10:52:59 am

For eveything you are saying

Me - 10:53:24 am

Thanks

Diana - 10:53:36 am

It's ok Joel is going to stay with Helen for a while u til kidzfit opens and I'm on the treadmill for the Shayla fundraiser

Diana - 10:54:37 am

Figure I should do something good for someone

Me - 10:55:09 am

You're doing good for me :)

Diana - 10:55:44 am

That you can say that after all the horrible texts I've sent is remarkable

Me - 10:59:20 am

And why do I say that? Because you can trust me completely!

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Coffee stop

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

And snack. I didn't eat breakfast

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Maybe Joel and I can come for a visit before we go to the gym

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

If you're not busy

Me - 12:09:41 pm

That would be awesome!!! Show him the lake.

Me - 12:09:53 pm

No breakfast?

Me - 12:10:25 pm

How far away are you now?

Diana - 12:12:32 pm

About 100km out of melbourne

Me - 12:15:00 pm

Ok

Diana - 12:17:06 pm

If you have plans it's cool, we can hang at home

Diana - 12:17:20 pm

I need to go home to get into gym gear abyway

Me - 12:17:30 pm

No. I'd love you and Joel to come here

Me - 12:17:43 pm

Is this the first coffee break?

Me - 12:18:17 pm

No plans.

Diana - 12:18:23 pm

Nope second

Diana - 12:18:32 pm

I don't think I can have more coffee

Diana - 12:18:44 pm

We need to stretch our leave tbough

Me - 12:18:53 pm

Swishy with too much coffee? :)

Me - 12:19:40 pm

I remember trips across the state delivering animals. Always had to stop to stretch. Best way to stay awake, I reckon

Me - 12:20:07 pm

And breath fresh, non car, air

Diana - 12:21:00 pm

I don't like to stop once I start but I get an i credibly sore bum

Diana - 12:21:04 pm

Too much info ;)

Me - 12:21:40 pm

Haha.

Diana - 12:21:54 pm

No coffee just a bit headachy after getting myself into such a state this morning

Diana - 12:21:58 pm

Back on the road

Me - 12:22:17 pm

Ok. See you soon.

Diana - 12:22:23 pm

Protein bar

Diana - 12:22:32 pm

Shit food but a good hit :)

Me - 12:22:40 pm

No nausea? All gone?

Diana - 12:22:51 pm

all gone

Me - 12:22:56 pm

Great

Diana - 12:23:08 pm

Mum thinks it was the milk in the coffee at the hotel

Me - 12:23:22 pm

Hard to know eh?

Me - 12:23:39 pm

I've had 2 meals you'll be glad to know :)

Diana - 12:23:12 pm

It was the only thing I had that she didn't

Me - 12:23:44 pm

About to be 3

Diana - 12:23:12 pm

That's great

Diana - 12:24:01 pm

Protein shakes don't count btw

Me - 12:24:14 pm

Damn!! Haha

Me - 12:25:18 pm

Protein shake plus banana? :)

Diana - 12:28:58 pm

Still considered a snack in afraid

Diana - 12:29:06 pm

On the calories you need anyway

Me - 12:30:00 pm

Should have a nutritionist's contact details soon. Maybe for both of us?

Diana - 12:31:44 pm

Well for me spending money on Tina is prob the priority

Diana - 12:33:52 pm

Let's see what we learn at the seminar

Diana - 12:33:52 pm

It's lifting focused we might find the right people there

Me - 12:35:11 pm

Sounds like a good idea. We'll see what eventuates

Diana - 12:35:21 pm

Atleast I'm acknowledging my shoulder is a priority

Diana - 12:35:56 pm

I can really feel it's not right, almost feels like it's off my back, like a seperate limb

Me - 12:36:23 pm

Seeing Tina is great, she's long term (she's booked out for awhile).

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

I'm really terrified about this wow

Me - 12:36:48 pm

Don't be. You'll smash it, you always have so far.

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

Yep for sure

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

I am, I feel sick in the stomach

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

How am I going to be club champion or stay in the top 10? I'm old and tired

Me - 12:37:50 pm

One more day, hang in there. We can talk about it today and tonight. Help relieve the stress

Me - 12:38:32 pm

You'll do both. I'm sure. This is not a running wow. You'll do at least as well as Becca.

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

I can tell I'm run down because every little cut I have becomes infected

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

Hmm I wish I could believe you!

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

Ok I better drive

Me - 12:39:13 pm

Ok see you

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

110 is just a suggestion isn't it :)

Me - 12:40:28 pm

That's after wow. You'll get more than 110, with patience :)

Diana - 12:40:16 pm

I meant speed limit ;)

Me - 12:42:25 pm

Haha. See how fixated I am too :))

Diana - 12:42:24 pm

I'm

Going for 140!

Diana - 12:42:24 pm

Deadlift not speed!

Me - 12:42:34 pm

And texting ??

Diana - 12:42:24 pm

Stopping to drive

Diana - 12:42:24 pm

See you

Me - 12:43:13 pm

Good deadlift, bad speed :))

Me - 1:08:54 pm

Look what's arrived :)

Diana - 1:22:00 pm

Wow what is all of that?

Diana - 1:22:19 pm

Creatine?

Me - 1:22:55 pm

That came free because of the order. The rest is yours and mine

Me - 1:23:05 pm

Protein and pre workout

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

We just got through melbourne and managed to skip some serious traffic thankfully

Me - 1:24:17 pm

Final leg. Yay!

Diana - 1:24:46 pm

That's a serious order!

Me - 1:25:15 pm

Yep. You like fat guys! Gotta do it. Haha

Me - 1:26:12 pm

I stopped casein ages ago and that, I think, was what helped put on weight. I'll try again.

Diana - 1:26:16 pm

Hopefully my diet pills will arrive soon ;)

Diana - 1:27:05 pm

I know how you feel about fat girls ;)

Diana - 1:27:10 pm

Casein?

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

Is that the big black one at the back?

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

Did the creatin come free?

Diana - 1:28:07 pm

That's usually quite expensive

Me - 1:29:08 pm

Yep. Casein at back. Creatine was free, I don't really need it. And diet pills? Nutritionist for both of us. And the sooner the better

Me - 1:29:56 pm

We're both floundering a bit with diet. Some good qualified advice would be worthwhile

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

It's supposed to be the best fat burner that stuff

Diana - 1:30:19 pm

It would for sure

Diana - 1:30:24 pm

Creatine I mean

Diana - 1:30:32 pm

I'll have it ;)

Me - 1:30:36 pm

You can have mine

Diana - 1:30:45 pm

You don't want to burn fat!

Me - 1:30:48 pm

I have some leftover still

Me - 1:31:10 pm

From earlier this year. It's yours!

Diana - 1:33:36 pm

You could prob sell it down frankston station ;)

Me - 1:36:08 pm

Haha

Me - 1:36:59 pm

I'm decanting whey protein into tubs. There's so much if it!

Diana - 1:37:16 pm

Is it a 1kg bag?

Me - 1:44:25 pm

Haha. It's 4.5 kg!!

Me - 1:46:28 pm

Yours must be close to the same amount.

Diana - 1:46:24 pm

Oh my god

Me - 1:48:19 pm

I know!!

Me - 1:48:37 pm

Serious supplier, I am haha

Diana - 1:48:41 pm

Don't you think you should be at the gym getting your head in all the posts?

Diana - 1:48:52 pm

Seriously? You should go down there

Diana - 1:49:07 pm

It's good advertising for you to be with the other trainers

Me - 1:49:44 pm

I really don't think it would make a difference. Just one face among many.

Diana - 1:49:44 pm

You are a good supplier and in doing to beed a payment plan

Me - 1:50:21 pm

No payment, plan or otherwise, needed.

Me - 1:51:24 pm

I think the dress ups are rather silly

Me - 1:52:07 pm

And when I was there it was only staff involved. No clients seemed interested at all.

Diana - 1:52:13 pm

They are I agree but it's all advertising

Diana - 1:52:24 pm

Well they're very segregated

Diana - 1:52:48 pm

I have to stop and get supplies for Imogen's lunch tomoorw

Me - 1:53:20 pm

Yes, it's activity for activity sake. Just to be busy. Not really helping the gym.

Diana - 1:53:36 pm

But still

Diana - 1:53:58 pm

If you want to go we can catch up later

Diana - 1:54:14 pm

It might be fun

Me - 1:54:15 pm

No!! Please come as soon as possible :)

Diana - 2:02:41 pm

Ok I've just got to grocery shop and unpack then we will be over

Me - 2:03:01 pm

Can't wait

Diana - 2:33:20 pm

Wow I'm well and truly wrecked

Diana - 2:34:35 pm

It'll be good to move this afternoon but I'm taking preworkout for sure

Me - 2:34:57 pm

Tough driving all that way. Twice in a few days

Me - 2:35:28 pm

What are you planing on doing at the gym?

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

Especially with a kid that wants to count to 100 1000000 times

Me - 2:35:41 pm

Hahaha

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

I already told you what I'm doing at the gym!

Me - 2:35:56 pm

Gets past 42 now I assume :)

Me - 2:36:09 pm

Trendy I know

Me - 2:36:15 pm

Tready

Me - 2:36:27 pm

Wondered if you were going to do more

Me - 2:39:46 pm

If you're tired, I could come in and do some of your tready time, if you wish

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

It's only half an hour I think? And you can walk right?

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

We are on our way

Me - 2:43:16 pm

Yes, walking is ok

Me - 2:43:26 pm

See you xxx

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

I should be ok to jog slowly after some preworkout

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

In all seriousness I want to walk after the wow tomorrow

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

I'll go to the dinner with you as my trainer

Diana - 3:36:58 pm

I'm not interested in fitting in between your clients who are all female and whose names you specifically withhold

Diana - 3:38:42 pm

You say you want to work on stuff then tell me you've got a massaged booked in tomorrow with a woman whose name you won't tell me but to make sure you're finished with me in time

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

What a dick I am for letting you into my kids life

Diana - 3:56:09 pm

Nothing back Huh

Me - 3:58:59 pm

What do you expect me to say to the accusation that I'm such an incredibly horrible person and so untrustworthy that I must be discarded?

Me - 4:00:22 pm

I'm not texting about this anymore today

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

So is there nothing more to say?

Me - 5:05:20 pm

There's a million things to say.

Me - 5:10:31 pm

And if you can't trust me working around women, which I find strange now that you know me, I'll quit the gym and massage in a heartbeat and go and get some "normal" job.

Me - 5:10:59 pm

I'm going for a walk. Time to move and be outside.

Diana - 5:13:20 pm

We both know you don't mean that

Diana - 5:13:20 pm

Enjoy your walk

Diana - 5:38:12 pm

I don't want to leave cause I think I actually love you but I can't handle the feelings im having. I'm not a bad person but im behaving badly. Saying you'd get a 'normal' makes me realise how it's not possible for me to do this. I always knew it was going to be hard, I think these circumstances makes it impossible for me to be who I want to be. We can talk later if you like. I feel so sad and heavy but each time I have these feelings and then attack you drives me and you further down

Diana - 5:40:19 pm

It never works one person changing for the other. Pattie always told me when the right person came these feelings wouldn't be so intense, hopefully she is right. At any rate, I'm ok with being alone.

Me - 5:50:41 pm

You're leaving because you love me? I'm not ok with being without you. I'm ok being alone but not now I know you exist. The walk has helped clear my mind. It usually does, I should do it more often. I'm going to quit the gym. It's causing too much angst, with me too. I'm crap as a trainer and it's costing me money, even after 6 months, to go to work. How crazy is that! I'll sell guitars for awhile, write, and see what turns up. You've changed me, for the better, I can't be stuck in a rut. I want you involved but if you can't be then, somehow, I'll try and manage. Time to turn around, otherwise it will be dark before I get home :)

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

You're acting on impulse

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

Stop it

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

You're an awesome trainer

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

Look what you've done for me

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

And you love it

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

You've told me a million times

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

Don't be crazy and reactive

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

We can't both be like that

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

Friends will be fine for us

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

We'll never fight that way

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

It'll take a while to adjust but we will get there

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

You want to do massage also

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

Don't cut off your nose to spite your face

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

You knew I was damaged goods

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

Now you've experienced the damage

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

It's awful and heart breaking

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

That's what my mum said to me. Don't break another heart.

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

I'm not meaning to sound egotistical it's not at all where I'm coming from

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

I just hurt people because I'm hurt

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

Hurt people hurt people im sure you've heard that before

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

It's better for both of us

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

I don't want to hurt you

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

And I don't want to go insane

Me - 5:59:56 pm

That's bullshit. Hurt people can also be mended. But thy have to want to be mended first. You're really close to accepting that. I'm not totally naive, why do you think I've stuck around through all the horrible thjngs you've said? You're worth it and I can see that you almost think you are. Youre so close!! And I want to be there when you're ready.

Me - 6:00:10 pm

Still quitong the gym.

Diana - 6:04:32 pm

You're insane and need a night to reflect on what you're saying

Diana - 6:04:32 pm

Jarrod just bought pizzas home with Imogen, and I have wine

Diana - 6:05:13 pm

Looks like I'm giving up on the wow tomorrow

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

Seriously your whole life is about training

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

Don't be insane

Me - 6:21:51 pm

No it's not. And even if it was about training, it's not necessarily about being a trainer. I have zero people skills, I know that. I feel much better having made the decision. Home again now, made it well before dark :) Enjoy your wine. You can still do the wow tomorrow. You'll smash it even better, relaxed after a night of wine and with pre workout. I'll bring the strong stuff, just in case :)

Diana - 6:29:58 pm

Mark your frightening me

Diana - 6:30:02 pm

It's way to compulsive

Diana - 6:30:08 pm

And that's exactly what you're trying to stop

Diana - 6:30:08 pm

Not sticking at things

Diana - 6:30:08 pm

Remember?

Diana - 6:31:13 pm

I've juts eaten way too much pizza why can't I be like you and go off food?

Me - 6:32:12 pm

It's stress with me that stops me eating. Maybe it's happiness with you that'll stop you eating :)

Diana - 6:34:24 pm

Well it'll be losing the need to have to protect myself

Diana - 6:35:03 pm

Which is why when I'm single I'm always thinnest

Diana - 6:35:21 pm

And when I come home from mums or in a relationship I go into eating disorder mode

Diana - 6:35:42 pm

And don't ignore my comment about wanting to stop compulsiveness in your life

Diana - 6:35:48 pm

And finally sticking to something

Diana - 6:36:12 pm

And admit you're being compulsive and reactive

Diana - 6:37:19 pm

You're totally being silly

Diana - 6:40:48 pm

You know Bec spoke to me the whole time she had her client tonight

Diana - 6:42:10 pm

I told her I want to see a nutritionist and she didn't understand why and said she thought I was 'perfect'.

Diana - 6:42:27 pm

We've become friends in fb and she is going to send me some stuff

Diana - 6:42:49 pm

Where have you gone? I can only assume you've disappeared cause I'm speaking the truth in regards to the gym

Me - 6:43:40 pm

You can't keep doing stuff that you're not good at, just to not be compulsive. I'm spending hundreds of dollars a week to go to work. I seriously doubt I have the energy to build a business from nothing. Better to not disappoint people

Diana - 6:44:56 pm

You've been so excited about the running class

Diana - 6:45:04 pm

This about face is too much

Me - 6:45:45 pm

To be good at stuff you have to have a real passion. I enjoy training some people, but most of them I don't. To make a career of it you have to enjoy it all. It's a good decision to leave.

Me - 6:46:18 pm

Ok. Shower time. More thinking time.

Me - 6:47:11 pm

I'm not pursuing my passion. You reminded me of that. Life's too short to not be doing what's important. And too short to be doing crap.

Diana - 6:47:11 pm

I thi k you should come over so i can knock some sense into you

Me - 6:47:33 pm

Nope. You need to sleep.

Me - 6:47:45 pm

Ok. Getting wet now...

Diana - 6:47:12 pm

Oh you know what I need to

Diana - 6:47:12 pm

You really are remarkable

Diana - 6:51:05 pm

If you don't want to come then say so

Diana - 6:51:14 pm

But don't pretend it's about looking after me

Diana - 7:42:34 pm

Wow maybe I am really just your stepping stone

Diana - 7:42:37 pm

Ok see you tomorrow

Me - 7:43:37 pm

Can I come and see you, please? I really want to talk to you.

Diana - 7:46:33 pm

You're insane

Diana - 7:46:52 pm

You say you don't want to come then ignore me when I say it's what I want

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

You really have me stifled

Me - 7:48:13 pm

Can I come over, please?

Diana - 7:49:04 pm

Why did you ignore my texts?

Diana - 7:49:04 pm

Until now?

Diana - 7:49:04 pm

What games are you playing?

Diana - 7:49:04 pm

You're frightening me

Me - 7:52:41 pm

I was scared you'd try and talk me out if my descision. I needed to think more. I have and I need to talk. Not that I've changed my mind. Can I come over?

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

Yea once the kids are asleep

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

I'll text you, shouldn't be long

Me - 7:57:04 pm

Thanks

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

I'm going to have a quick bath and wash off this day

Me - 7:57:42 pm

Ok.

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Imogen is still awake but jus come, I told her you were coming to talk about the competition cause the last one is tomorrow

Me - 8:18:08 pm

On my way

Me - 8:27:54 pm

I'm outside

**Thursday 30 October**

Diana - 12:11:43 am

That's a late night!

Diana - 12:11:43 am

I'm so glad you came

Diana - 12:11:43 am

Sweet dreams xx

Me - 12:12:20 am

Night. Sleep well xxx

Me - 12:16:22 am

And I'm really glad you let me come over. Thank you.

Diana - 12:17:00 am

We're crazy about eachother :)

Diana - 12:17:32 am

I can't wait to be naked in bed wrapped up in you all night again

Diana - 12:17:47 am

I'm going to think about that as I drift off xx

Me - 12:18:04 am

Sure are! And about everything about you. You're the best thing in my life.

Me - 12:18:42 am

Wish I was there. Night!

Diana - 12:19:18 am

Night xxxx

Me - 7:39:41 am

Good morning. I can't wait to see you again, even just at the gym. I slept ok. And you? I'm guessing just 5 hours?

Diana - 7:43:44 am

I slept ok too, but too short :(

Diana - 7:43:44 am

I have been thinking about you even in my sleep

Me - 7:46:58 am

I regularly dream about you or you're in there somewhere when I dream.

Diana - 7:48:00 am

I have a tired head ache, do you still think we should just get the wow done? Or should i come home after school drop off and get naked in my bed and roll around and think of you instead

Me - 7:52:14 am

It's not until later this morning, go back to bed if you want for a little while. We should get it done today, I think. I've never cancelled A session with Donna, I could do that today. I'm sure it would be ok. I could spend the morning before the wow with you. What do you think?

Me - 7:53:33 am

The more I think about it the more that sounds like a good idea. It's a big day for you, let me be there for you

Diana - 7:52:16 am

No don't cancel Donna

Diana - 7:54:34 am

She is really the only one who's doesn't stuff you around

Diana - 7:54:49 am

I'm really shitting myself I won't lie but I'll be ok

Me - 7:55:27 am

I can give Donna a circuit to do. She loves them

Me - 7:55:33 am

I can email her one

Diana - 7:55:36 am

Hopefully I will be able to get some rest before I come in

Diana - 7:55:43 am

Don't, there's really no need to

Me - 7:55:47 am

Ok

Diana - 7:55:58 am

I don't want you to muck other people around because of me

Diana - 7:56:55 am

Do you think I should leave it for tomorrow

Me - 7:57:06 am

You're important. And today is an important day. If you need me I'll be there.

Me - 7:57:58 am

No, let's do it today. But only you know how exhausted you are. Ask yourself if you'll be that much better tomorrow?

Me - 7:58:51 am

I know you'll do a good time today, once you're at the gym and fueled up

Diana - 7:59:11 am

I think that we are doing it so late in the day isn't a great thing after only a few hours sleep

Diana - 7:59:19 am

But yea lets just get it done

Diana - 7:59:29 am

I guess if I lose my place it's not the end of the world

Diana - 7:59:39 am

Though it'll feel like it

Me - 7:59:45 am

Want to change the time? No problems. When?

Me - 8:00:38 am

You could have a point about being later in the day.

Diana - 8:00:48 am

haha! I could have a point :)

Diana - 8:01:17 am

Let's just leave it

Diana - 8:01:27 am

I kind of feel like I'm going to fuck it up abyway

Diana - 8:01:37 am

They day and time isn't going to matter much

Diana - 9:03:21 am

Ok one child down one to go

Diana - 9:03:26 am

My kids sing slot

Diana - 9:03:28 am

A lot

Diana - 9:03:46 am

And now, we have a recorder in the house also

Diana - 9:03:47 am

Heaven

Me - 9:04:11 am

Isn't lots of noise wonderful? :)

Diana - 9:04:42 am

Yes especially high pitched recorder hot cross buns on a loop

Me - 9:04:52 am

Haha

Me - 9:05:09 am

But... Good distraction material :))

Diana - 9:06:56 am

Ok I'll let her know that's how you feel about it ;)

Diana - 9:06:56 am

And that you're happy for her to play at your okace!

Diana - 9:06:56 am

Place

Me - 9:07:43 am

Haha. I'd love it.... To star with :)

Me - 9:07:49 am

Start with

Diana - 9:08:18 am

I remember doing a bunch of recordings with a melodica

Diana - 9:08:44 am

Thankfully heavy drugs were involved ;)

Me - 9:08:45 am

In the band? Did I tell you I play flute?

Me - 9:08:58 am

Played flute

Me - 9:09:06 am

Still got one somewhere

Me - 9:09:21 am

Probably all rusted up by now

Diana - 9:10:38 am

Argh I hate flute!!

Diana - 9:10:42 am

Especially pan flute

Diana - 9:10:50 am

I played clarinet as a kid

Me - 9:11:18 am

Love clarinet. But oboe was/is my favourite sound

Diana - 9:11:12 am

Karen is off her head with stress and coming over for coffee in 15 minutes

Diana - 9:11:12 am

Why oh why

Me - 9:11:43 am

Good haha More distraction

Diana - 9:11:12 am

Double bassoon is mine

Diana - 9:11:12 am

No just tiring and exhausting

Me - 9:12:18 am

I noticed you like the MSO. We should take you and the dress to a performance some time

Diana - 9:12:26 am

Double bassoon and strings heart hurting material

Diana - 9:12:33 am

I used to go every fortnight :)

Me - 9:12:43 am

That's why I love oboe

Diana - 9:12:43 am

They rehearse at my work

Me - 9:12:45 am

Makes me sad

Me - 9:13:46 am

Yeah, they moved from malvern didn't they

Diana - 9:13:20 am

I used to go to their rehearsals and performances at the iwaki auditorium all the time

Diana - 9:13:20 am

So beautiful

Diana - 9:13:20 am

Don't know about Malvern, they've been downstairs at me work since j started there

Diana - 9:13:20 am

I've not been for years though :(

Me - 9:14:44 am

I used to go to the concert hall on my own sometimes when in town. Never had anyone interested enough in music to go with

Me - 9:15:41 am

I even went for a whole week on my own to Adelaide to see the Ring Cycle. Now, that was an amazing experience!

Me - 9:15:57 am

About 2002 or 2004 I think

Me - 9:17:50 am

Just stayed on my own in a B and B, walked every day and totally immersed in the music. Listened to it during the day and watched performances at night. If you want to know about sore bums from sitting for a long time, then Wagner is your man haha

Diana - 9:19:44 am

That's awesome

Diana - 9:19:44 am

I'd totally do that :)

Diana - 9:19:44 am

I have to also get a Halloween costume

Me - 9:21:00 am

Slow morning here. You know I sort if miss that regulated business of getting school age kids off to school. There's a real sense of achievement of having successfully negotiated the morning and a definite end point if 9am

Diana - 9:19:44 am

I better put a reminder in my phone

Diana - 9:19:44 am

Hmm

Diana - 9:19:44 am

Wanna swap?

Me - 9:21:43 am

Yeah, I remember feeling like that too haha

Diana - 9:21:52 am

Halloween and Joels school transition documents

Diana - 9:21:52 am

First Karen

Diana - 9:21:52 am

Fucking God help me

Diana - 9:21:52 am

I have a head ache from hell

Me - 9:22:56 am

Relationship advice coming up I guess? Dr Diana :)

Diana - 9:21:52 am

We shouldn't have stayed up so late

Diana - 9:21:52 am

No Id say parenting

Me - 9:24:10 am

Ok. Is coffee helping at all?

Me - 9:25:20 am

Shouldn't have stayed up so late. I sort of agree. But last night was super important. Lots resolved.

Diana - 9:24:00 am

Well I've only had time for one, mornings are a rush

Me - 9:25:50 am

Get into the coffee!

Diana - 9:26:08 am

That's just going to make me crash and dehydrate more

Diana - 9:26:08 am

Totally not a coach thing to suggest!

Me - 9:27:15 am

Ok. You know best what works for you. Just enough coffee then. Sip it, maybe? :)

Diana - 9:26:08 am

We didn't resolve anything we just cuddled and decided we didn't want to let go :)

Diana - 9:26:08 am

I've not eaten it'll help once I do that

Diana - 9:26:08 am

I'm trying to postpone it so I don't burn it too quickly

Me - 9:29:06 am

Yes, we did the cuddling that's for sure. And to "not give up". Important stuff, I think

Diana - 9:29:22 am

Yes important

Diana - 9:29:26 am

Ok Karen time

Diana - 9:29:28 am

Wish me luck

Me - 9:29:31 am

Good luck

Diana - 9:29:36 am

And a pink bubble to surround me :)

Me - 9:29:41 am

Dr Diana :))

Me - 9:50:03 am

Just checking through my emails about the dinner. I've got a note from the manager that it's the 15 November. It also says you should get an email on 17 October. Did you? I never got one. I'll check today at the gym.

Me - 9:50:23 am

Cut off for tickets is 5 November

Me - 9:50:48 am

I mean, booking/confirming them

Diana - 10:15:12 am

Oh shit I'll have to get a babysitter then

Diana - 10:19:28 am

Shit I got someone to cover my shift on the 8th!! Arghh what a waste of money!

Me - 10:21:09 am

It was an old email from the manager. Don't do anything until I confirm it at the gym today. He's been wrong before. And I don't seem to get all the 12WC emails for some reason.

Me - 10:21:45 am

I'm heading into the gym in a few minutes

Diana - 10:21:36 am

No he is right I juts checked

Diana - 10:21:36 am

Told you I'm hopeless with numbers!

Diana - 10:21:36 am

I can't get the shift back but atleast it means it's not on the same day as the lifting seminar

Diana - 10:21:36 am

I'm sooooo tired :(

Me - 10:25:12 am

You're still ok to do the wow? Or do you really want to leave it until tkmorrow. Maybe come in and warm up and see how you feel. I think getting it done today may help you sleep better tonight. Do you think?

Diana - 10:25:52 am

Yea most likely

Diana - 10:25:52 am

Depends if you come over ;)

Diana - 10:25:52 am

Argh I'm an idiot for losing that shift :(

Diana - 10:25:52 am

I'll drink some water and come in

Diana - 10:25:52 am

I really do feel terrible

Diana - 10:28:00 am

But yep let's see how I feel after a warm up

Diana - 10:28:00 am

Right now though I feel like sleeping

Diana - 10:30:10 am

We can do it tomorrow yeah?

Diana - 10:30:13 am

If need be

Me - 10:30:44 am

Remember that money is not the same intense problem it was last week. And it's only one shift. And I think do a warm up and see.

Me - 10:30:45 am

Yes, of course, tomorrow again is possible

Diana - 10:31:40 am

Ok if it looks like it's better to leave it to tomorrow lets do that

Diana - 10:31:44 am

My head is really hurting

Diana - 10:31:48 am

Warm up and see

Diana - 10:31:55 am

See you at the gym a little later

Me - 10:32:11 am

Ok. Leaving to go in now

Diana - 10:32:15 am

I just ate so maybe I'll pick up

Me - 10:32:24 am

Good

Diana - 10:32:28 am

I'll take some pain killers now too

Me - 10:33:31 am

And grab the special pre workout out of my bag, even if I'm doing Donna's session.

Diana - 10:33:53 am

Ok

Diana - 10:34:11 am

I'll do the lifting on mine and drink that one during the lifting

Diana - 10:34:24 am

My honest feeling is leaving it to tomorrow is a good idea

Me - 10:34:55 am

Ok An easy warmup then

Diana - 10:34:55 am

ITs just been such a big few days and then us last nght

Diana - 10:35:01 am

And my body is tired

Diana - 10:35:06 am

Anyway enough sorry

Diana - 10:35:09 am

See you there

Me - 10:35:22 am

We'll talk soon xxx

Diana - 10:49:20 am

Gee I hope there isn't the extra week

Diana - 11:00:00 am

Oh my god I just saw my bank account, are you serious???

Diana - 11:00:00 am

What do I do??

Me - 11:21:53 am

Come in

Me - 11:22:01 am

Training Donna ATM

Diana - 12:18:10 pm

So you're happy to hang out and the gym and chat to Donna for 45 minutes after your session is over but when I'm there and walk over you basically tell me to fuck off and go sleep

Diana - 12:18:21 pm

You need to keep me awake at night only?

Diana - 12:18:26 pm

Despite knowing I was exhausted

Diana - 12:18:40 pm

Selfishly getting your own needs meet

Diana - 12:18:41 pm

Met

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

And when I actually have time spare tell me to fuck off and go sleep

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

You're a hurtful fucking idiot

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

Go fuck your clients

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

Service them the way you did the school mums

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

I can't believe you know I have time free and you tell me to go sleep

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

You're really a dick

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

A stupid dick

Diana - 12:21:04 pm

That'd be right

Diana - 12:22:27 pm

Have nothing to say

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

Don't want to hang out and now completely ignored

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

Ok Mark if that's how you want to play it

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

Have it your own way

Diana - 12:29:36 pm

And thanks

Diana - 12:29:36 pm

Thanks for keeping me awake before the most important wow of them all

Diana - 12:43:43 pm

Don't go

Me - 4:47:34 pm

I'm sorry Diana, I did it again. I should have asked if you wanted me to come and pick up Imogen with you. I, again, assumed you wouldn't want that. I'm getting closer :) At least I'm realizing I'm doing it soon after the fact. Not long, hopefully, until I'm not doing it at all. Have patience. See you later xxx

Diana - 4:48:20 pm

I love you

Me - 4:49:25 pm

I love you too :)

Me - 4:50:39 pm

That was a happy smiley face!

Diana - 4:51:35 pm

Don't let go ok?

Me - 4:54:02 pm

I won't

Diana - 4:54:58 pm

Good

Diana - 4:55:12 pm

Have a lovely Dinner xx

Me - 4:56:21 pm

Thanks. And have a great fish and chips with your kids. Text me when I can come over. xx

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

Check :)

Me - 5:20:42 pm

I'm cooking a quinoa and sweet potato risotto tonight. Same as the first meal I cooked for you.

Diana - 5:46:01 pm

Yum

Diana - 5:46:36 pm

How does a simple Halloween buying costume task turn into an hour long excruciating exercise

Me - 5:52:58 pm

Infortunatley, too easily. :)

Me - 5:53:56 pm

Started cooking. Risotto is good like that.

Me - 5:54:51 pm

Did you get a witches hat?

Diana - 5:55:43 pm

Yep we got a whole costume and make up

Diana - 5:55:47 pm

4 shops later!

Me - 5:56:04 pm

Wow

Diana - 5:56:00 pm

Karen and her daughter are going to take her trick or treating then drop her to Neils

Diana - 5:56:00 pm

It's cool, a bunch of school kids are going

Me - 5:56:56 pm

It's better with peers, probably.

Diana - 5:58:08 pm

Yep

Diana - 5:59:19 pm

And Joel got a Monster mask and sword for kinder dress ups

Me - 5:59:43 pm

And mum got a headache :)

Diana - 5:59:48 pm

I don't need a costume im naturally a monster :)

Diana - 5:59:52 pm

Haha :)

Me - 6:01:37 pm

But it's what you do, eh? :) And although I'm not a big fan of bringing USA stuff here, the kids really love it. They do it around here. I have to buy treats each year

Diana - 6:02:24 pm

Yea for sure

Diana - 6:02:24 pm

Life loses its magic quickly enough no need to rush the process

Me - 6:15:16 pm

I know we all love our kids unconditionally but she is such a positive, happy, loving and enthusiastic person I often wonder how I could have possibly produced someone like that. Maybe a switch at the hospital :)

Me - 6:17:25 pm

I shake my head sometimes wondering where she came from. It's a great feeling knowing for all your stuff ups, problems, angry episodes, etc, etc someone good can survive through it all. Both kids actually.

Me - 6:17:39 pm

Ok she's just arrived

Me - 6:18:02 pm

xxx

Diana - 6:31:44 pm

Enjoy xx

Diana - 7:08:32 pm

When you're finished can you please tell me what this means for me specifically- how heavy and how frequently j need to go

Diana - 7:08:32 pm

Diana - 7:08:32 pm

Also, deadlift on plates, I need to start that asap, how many plates and how high

Diana - 7:08:32 pm

I know you're busy, just later when you have time

Me - 7:09:40 pm

Ok. We'll have a chat soon

Me - 7:54:26 pm

Can I come over?

Diana - 7:57:02 pm

Has your daughter gone already?

Me - 7:59:35 pm

Just leaving.

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

I've put the kids down but they're not asleep, I'll have a quick shower and text you is that ok?

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

I'm exhausted, quick good night yeah?

Me - 8:01:03 pm

Yeah quick

Diana - 8:01:43 pm

Have you seen your friend the osteo post functional movement stuff, he posted some roller stuff for rotator cuffs i might do them tomorrow before wow

Me - 8:03:03 pm

Yeah, I saw it. He's giving a course soon that I'm thinking of doing

Diana - 8:22:20 pm

Really? What is it?

Diana - 8:22:30 pm

Imogen is still awake, shouldn't be long

Me - 8:23:50 pm

It's for osteo's, physio's, therapists but he thinks it would be good for the functional stuff I do.

Me - 8:24:13 pm

It's about assessing people's movement patterns and dysfunctions

Diana - 8:27:19 pm

Sounds good

Diana - 8:27:24 pm

Imogen says her bum is itchy :(

Diana - 8:27:28 pm

Looks like another trip to the docs but she is sure she can wait until Saturday so she doesn't miss out on Halloween!

Me - 8:28:29 pm

What do you think it might be?

Diana - 8:31:27 pm

I have no idea

Diana - 8:31:36 pm

Perhaps the medicine she has been on?

Diana - 8:31:44 pm

Best to not guess and pay the professionals when it comes to itchy bums :)

Me - 8:33:28 pm

You're right

Diana - 8:33:52 pm

I think she is nearly off, do you want to come still?

Me - 8:35:14 pm

Ahh, actually, im outside :) in the car

Diana - 8:35:29 pm

I just saw my back when I got out of the shower! It's muscly!

Diana - 8:35:34 pm

Really? Hahahaha!

Me - 8:35:47 pm

Come in? Or wait a bit

Diana - 8:36:00 pm

We can sit out the front for a bit maybe? Shall I make tea?

Me - 8:36:37 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:36:00 pm

She's almost down I just went in, eyes open but nearly closed

Diana - 8:36:00 pm

Do you want tea?

Me - 8:38:20 pm

Yes. I'm on the couch, with Henry

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

Ok! I'll put the kettle on

Diana - 8:38:08 pm

What kind??

Me - 8:38:44 pm

Not strong

Me - 8:38:59 pm

Herbal ish?

Diana - 8:39:49 pm

Peppermint chamomile or plain tea with soy?

Me - 8:40:01 pm

Peppermint

**Friday 31 October**

Me - 7:09:05 am

Good morning :) I hope you slept ok. You're going to be great this morning! I'm about to head into the gym now. I'll see you there a bit later on xx

Me - 8:17:39 am

I've chatted with Hollie about what Becca did yesterday. You've got this wow!

Diana - 8:24:16 am

Really? What did she say??

Me - 8:26:44 am

She told me the score. How many rounds, 4+, the calories, 45, the overhead weight, 35kg. And how she did it, just using the timer on the rower. We'll do the same.

Diana - 8:30:40 am

Do you really think I'll go faster than that?

Me - 8:32:51 am

Yes. We did it in practice, going steady pace. Relax. You've got this one! Although, the burpees will still hurt :)

Diana - 8:32:48 am

4 + what for the rounds?

Me - 8:33:47 am

The 3 sets of 10 is one round

Me - 8:33:48 am

Overhead, lunges, burpees

Diana - 8:34:19 am

Yea I know but you wrote she did 4+ rounds

Diana - 8:34:28 am

I'm wondering what the +is??

Me - 8:35:14 am

Just more than 4 that's all

Diana - 8:36:27 am

Ok thanks for letting me know

Diana - 8:36:38 am

I had to go look at a worm!

Me - 8:37:04 am

Haha. See you soon

Diana - 8:37:04 am

Does the timer also count the calories if you change the menu?

Diana - 8:38:49 am

Is the gym busy?

Diana - 8:38:53 am

I'm shitting myself

Diana - 8:39:03 am

Literally I don't know whether to poo or spew

Diana - 8:39:12 am

And can you film the ground t overhead on my phone so I can watch it back

Diana - 8:39:12 am

Just the first bit for weight

Me - 8:50:55 am

Sorry been in the loo

Me - 8:51:39 am

Not busy at the gym. And let me worry about doing the wow. The calories are just a measure of distance, that's all

Me - 8:52:05 am

It's an odd thing to use

Me - 8:52:44 am

You'll be great!! The practice has shown you can do this.

Me - 8:52:58 am

Once you start it will be fine

Me - 9:18:22 am

Sorry. I've been condescending again. The calories are just a fixed number, doesn't change if you're heavy or light. But I'll check again

Diana - 9:23:38 am

Me - 9:27:45 am

How cool!

Diana - 10:51:00 am

Where are

You

Me - 10:51:11 am

Ok. Coming

Diana - 10:51:18 am

Where are you?

Diana - 10:51:21 am

I'm at the gym

Me - 10:51:30 am

Staff room

Diana - 10:51:38 am

Oh ok!

Diana - 10:51:47 am

Do you want to have coffee downstairs?

Diana - 10:51:52 am

I'm outside

Me - 10:53:10 am

Ok

Diana - 11:40:32 am

It was obvious the trainer wanted a chat that's why I left

Diana - 11:40:32 am

Wasn't meaning to appear rude

Me - 11:42:12 am

Do you want to hang out together for a time before work?

Me - 11:42:25 am

Thanks. He did want a chat

Me - 11:44:12 am

He got to see Tina the Osteo yesterday. She's identified his back problem. He's pretty excited.

Diana - 11:44:45 am

That's great

Diana - 11:44:48 am

I don't really have time I need to shower and eat and be at app at 1 in mordy

Me - 11:46:12 am

Ok. "Enjoy" your wax :)

Diana - 11:46:56 am

Ha!

Diana - 11:46:56 am

2pm next Friday to see Stephen

Diana - 11:46:56 am

I can't go earlier in the week cause I have Joel

Diana - 11:49:04 am

I told him you sent me, maybe he'll give you a free session :)

Diana - 11:49:04 am

Could you send me Tina's number again?

Diana - 11:49:04 am

I found it don't worry

Me - 11:50:51 am

Ok.

Diana - 11:54:15 am

7th January and on the cancellation list

Me - 11:54:41 am

That's great.

Diana - 11:54:59 am

I named dropped ;)

Diana - 11:55:06 am

Well she asked who referred me

Diana - 11:55:26 am

She asked if it was a sporting injury

Diana - 11:55:28 am

I said I wasn't sure!

Diana - 11:55:51 am

But I said you were my coach

Diana - 11:56:30 am

Is that ok?

Me - 11:56:30 am

I'll come with you on the day, if that's ok with you

Me - 11:56:48 am

Yes. It's great you said I was your coach

Diana - 11:57:36 am

I should've said arghhhh yes mi dear its a lifting injury ;)

Me - 11:59:16 am

Doesn't make a difference. She'll figure you out on the day. And I'll pay, if you're ok with that

Diana - 11:59:37 am

You don't need to pay

Diana - 11:59:44 am

You've given me more than enough to pay for it

Diana - 11:59:44 am

Vegemite

Diana - 11:59:44 am

I can't get enough of it

Me - 12:00:15 pm

I think Steve is about $79. Tina is $150 or so

Me - 12:00:41 pm

Yeah, Vegemite toast is on my menu for now

Diana - 12:00:41 pm

Ok

Diana - 12:01:43 pm

Vitamin b

Diana - 12:01:46 pm

Or salt?

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

Maybe for all the cramps!

Me - 12:01:57 pm

Maybe salt

Me - 12:02:02 pm

That helps

Me - 12:02:28 pm

Lick a bit of salt and see how you feel

Me - 12:02:45 pm

Don't need much

Me - 12:02:51 pm

To replenish

Diana - 12:03:57 pm

The vegemite should do it

Me - 12:04:05 pm

Yep

Me - 12:04:49 pm

Hot shower will feel great too

Diana - 12:06:08 pm

Doing that now

Diana - 12:06:08 pm

It's over :))

Me - 12:07:37 pm

No wonder your phone is fucked if you text in the shower :))

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Ha!

Diana - 12:24:26 pm

It's over

Diana - 12:24:35 pm

Thank god it's over!

Diana - 12:24:41 pm

Are you going to hit some balls?

Me - 12:26:59 pm

I can hear your sigh of relief from here! Haha. Thinking about golf but leaning towards a long run. Not sure. Still haven't showered or eaten anything. I've been doing my exercises to relieve my back after the deads today.

Me - 12:27:05 pm

Still sore calf?

Me - 12:27:21 pm

You probably need a good massage.

Diana - 12:30:55 pm

Wow you're worse at resting than I am!

Diana - 12:30:59 pm

Don't run and not eat

Diana - 12:31:15 pm

Id kill to have a relaxing afternoon with no work!

Diana - 12:31:27 pm

Id eat and lie around in the sun :)

Me - 12:33:12 pm

Next Saturday, after the S and C open day, and Xmas shopping, we can sit around and eat while the sun sets. I know, it's a long way off but it's something

Diana - 12:37:05 pm

Haha!

Diana - 12:37:19 pm

I'm really tired

Diana - 12:37:33 pm

It's been a long 12 weeks!

Me - 12:37:42 pm

I bet you are!

Me - 12:37:58 pm

Over now. Recovery week. Bask in glory :)

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

We don't know we have any glory yet

Me - 12:38:31 pm

Club Champ glory, at least

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

I literally just fell over! :)))

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

Do we know that for sure?

Me - 12:38:46 pm

Ha

Me - 12:38:52 pm

Yes we know

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

Fell out the front door

Me - 12:39:08 pm

You ok?

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

Are you aure? Mayeb someone in the other categories will win

Diana - 12:39:15 pm

Yea I'm fine

Me - 12:39:34 pm

Sure.

Me - 12:40:11 pm

It's a category thing

Diana - 1:01:36 pm

That's cool then

Diana - 1:01:36 pm

Did you ever think I'd be club champ???

Me - 1:02:47 pm

After a few weeks in, and I saw that incredible determination you have, yes

Me - 1:02:48 pm

Champ or die! :)

Diana - 1:02:48 pm

Neil will have the kids the night of the dinner

Me - 1:03:25 pm

Great! Make sure you confirm your ticket and I'll buy mine

Me - 1:04:05 pm

I'm eating now. Leaning towards both golf and long run :)

Diana - 1:33:20 pm

Ha!

Diana - 1:33:33 pm

I've never met someone who finds it harder to stop than me before

Diana - 1:33:36 pm

I have been determined haven't I, if only I could put it towards good instead of evil ;)

Me - 1:35:11 pm

Evil? Haha. Fitness and physical improvement isn't evil.

Me - 1:35:52 pm

But you do find it hard to know when to stop. And I think we're pretty similar in that regard

Me - 1:36:11 pm

It's a better thing to be than the opposite

Me - 1:36:24 pm

Stopping far too early

Me - 1:36:47 pm

As I think most people do

Diana - 1:39:27 pm

Either way is avoidance ;)

Diana - 1:40:00 pm

Wow and wax on the same day, I really am a fool

Diana - 1:40:00 pm

Coffee Time

Diana - 1:40:00 pm

I have a whole hour! Wow!!

Me - 1:41:28 pm

But, on the positive side, they're both done now :) Pain, for today, is over haha

Me - 1:42:12 pm

Don't forget your dinner. And, how many do you have left? I should pick up the containers and make you another batch this weekend.

Diana - 1:42:08 pm

This is the second last one

Me - 1:44:22 pm

Ok. Next time I'm over (tonight, tomorrow) I'll pick up the three and do some more cooking. Are they ok? Do you want something different? However, they're easy to make and very nutritious and only 300 cals.

Diana - 1:46:24 pm

They're great

Diana - 1:48:32 pm

Maybe and im not complaining but maybe a little less rice as its a lot of carbs for the last meal of the day?

Diana - 1:48:32 pm

Just maybe

Me - 1:49:43 pm

Ok. I'll do that. I like lots of rice, but I'll reduce it for your ones.

Me - 1:50:10 pm

about half as much do you think?

Me - 1:50:35 pm

I could do quinoa instead?

Me - 1:50:57 pm

Protein overload haha

Diana - 1:50:40 pm

You need the carbs for weight gain and running and you train twice as much if not more than me

Diana - 1:50:40 pm

And my body turns them straight to fat especially if I'm cutting back on weights

Diana - 1:50:40 pm

Do you think?

Me - 1:53:03 pm

Ok. I'll try quinoa on your next one. Or would you rather just a straight stir fry, with tofu

Diana - 1:52:48 pm

Remember according to nature I've done my job now I'm really just wasting food :)

Me - 1:54:27 pm

Nope. Wrong :) Studies have shown the importance of grandparents in hunter gatherer societies haha. Sorry, your usefulness is not over yet :)

Diana - 1:54:53 pm

Damn :)

Me - 1:54:57 pm

So, straight stir fry instead?

Diana - 1:54:56 pm

Neil said to me before if only you'd discovered lifting 10 years ago! He is right still I guess you have to trust the timing in your life

Diana - 1:54:56 pm

Some carbs are ok?

Diana - 1:54:56 pm

I don't mind

Me - 1:56:38 pm

Yes. Exactly about the timing. We can't choose what we find and wen we find it. The time chooses us, I think

Me - 1:56:43 pm

Lifting

Me - 1:57:06 pm

And the people we meet and love :)

Me - 1:57:49 pm

Shouldn't look back too much ( although a little is fun).

Diana - 2:31:40 pm

Wow you say that?

Diana - 2:31:48 pm

You're the reminiscing king!

Me - 2:33:01 pm

Ha I know. But I know it's not the best thing :)

Me - 2:33:27 pm

Well, I know now.

Me - 2:33:46 pm

Didn't know that 12 weeks ago :)

Diana - 2:34:18 pm

Well it's a very important part of life

Diana - 2:34:26 pm

Maybe just not everyday like you do?

Me - 2:34:44 pm

Like I "did" :)

Diana - 2:34:49 pm

Anyway it was just Neils way of saying he wishes I found something that made me this happy a while ago

Me - 2:35:06 pm

That's great. It's great he noticed too

Diana - 2:35:12 pm

You still do, you don't have to hide it from me

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

yea he's a good stick

Me - 2:35:46 pm

Of course I still do, just not as much

Me - 2:36:39 pm

When the present and future is better the past doesn't need to be lived in.

Me - 2:36:57 pm

Big change. And... Thanks Diana :)

Me - 2:37:45 pm

Ok. Can't decide for the afternoon. So, will do both. Golf and a long run after.

Diana - 2:39:03 pm

You're mad

Diana - 2:39:08 pm

Why don't you relax

Diana - 2:39:20 pm

And bask in the glory of your champion wower ;))

Diana - 2:39:44 pm

It's really quite hot too

Me - 2:40:22 pm

Ok. 3 things to do this arvo then. Overall basking. Plus golf plus run. :))

Diana - 2:40:59 pm

rest day

Diana - 2:41:05 pm

You did your pb deading today

Me - 2:41:08 pm

I only did deadlifts today, nothing else. Don't feel "complete". You know what it's like

Diana - 2:41:10 pm

You really are over doing it

Diana - 2:41:18 pm

Why don't you want to sit still?

Me - 2:41:33 pm

Good question

Me - 2:41:44 pm

Wish I knew the answer

Me - 2:41:47 pm

I can't

Me - 2:42:02 pm

If I'm siting still, I have to study or work

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

Why don't you meditate

Me - 2:42:24 pm

I do most days

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

You've been saying you need to do that

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

Then decide about the day

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

Ok

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

I'm shitting up

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

Shutting up too

Me - 2:42:49 pm

Haha

Me - 2:42:56 pm

Driving now?

Diana - 2:43:05 pm

Tell me something

Diana - 2:43:25 pm

Are you still thi king about your long lost love Kate everyday?

Diana - 2:43:33 pm

I want you to be honest with me please

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

Ok I'm hitting the road

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

Work time

Diana - 2:49:53 pm

You're not going to answer?

Me - 2:50:04 pm

No. I'm not. And I think I only thought of her so much the longer I had no one I was in love with (minus children). She became better in retrospect than when I was actually with her. That was a big theme of my book, the refining of memory over time. No I don't think of her like that anymore, more like just one of the few people I was in love with. Does that make sense? When you aren't in love, the memory of it is all you have. But the real thing is unimaginably better than any memory. I'd forgotten that, it had been so long.

Me - 2:50:39 pm

Long answer. It's tough typing with thumbs. Too many mistakes :)

Me - 2:51:23 pm

Do you understand what I'm saying?

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

Yea

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

I had to move through glorifying dean too

Diana - 2:52:09 pm

I made him perfect

Diana - 2:52:14 pm

And he was

Me - 2:52:16 pm

Exactly!

Diana - 2:52:26 pm

But the memory became literally un real

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

It was my way of keeping others away

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

No one could come close

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

It was the perfect way to stay closed to someone new

Me - 2:53:15 pm

A memory can be made perfect while a real person makes mistakes

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

But to still believe in love

Me - 2:53:43 pm

And now?

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

I don't know

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

I believe in love

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

I haven't used dean like that for quite a while

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

He told me he would help me find the right person when I am ready :)

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

From the grave ;))

Me - 2:56:18 pm

It's probably hard to trust your judgement even when the right person does come along.

Diana - 2:56:47 pm

Me specifically or people in general?

Me - 2:56:52 pm

You

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

I'm prob more in tune with my gut than anyone I know

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

Not rocking my own boat but most people aren't

Me - 2:57:44 pm

I agree. I've learnt heaps from you

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

My friend Robyn said it to me the other day

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

Trust your gut it's never wrong

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

And she has known me for 15 years

Me - 2:58:21 pm

I thought I was pretty good, but I'm not anywhere near you

Me - 2:58:28 pm

As good as you

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

Good?

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

Pfft

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

It's a painful way to live

Me - 2:58:58 pm

At listening to instinctive stuff

Diana - 2:59:24 pm

Yea I need to listen to my head more

Diana - 2:59:40 pm

Get a balance just with worldy stuff

Diana - 2:59:51 pm

Like career and money and practical stuff

Diana - 3:00:59 pm

Can I be brutally honest?

Me - 3:01:14 pm

The balance is hard, if not impossible to get competely right all the time. I think erring with going with your gut is better, but maybe only bexuSe I've been too much with my head for too long

Me - 3:01:31 pm

Honest? Do I need to sit down?

Me - 3:01:38 pm

Yes go ahwad

Diana - 3:01:39 pm

Def for me I need to go with my gut

Diana - 3:01:54 pm

My head is not a good place it's answer was heroin

Diana - 3:01:56 pm

My gut is all I have

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

Well.. I think we are eachothers stepping stones. I think we have things to learn from eachother and then it will be time to let go. I'm not being dramatic or sadist, j think the time we have together is going to make both of our lives amazingly better

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

Hence why I spoke of the expiry date

Diana - 3:03:46 pm

You're going to teach me that I'm loveable and that its ok to trust

Diana - 3:03:56 pm

And I'm going to bring you back to life

Diana - 3:04:01 pm

Back to living from your heart

Diana - 3:04:10 pm

Maybe ;)

Diana - 3:04:27 pm

Maybe I'm just an arrogant arse

Diana - 3:04:32 pm

And know nothing

Me - 3:08:16 pm

We're both making big changes to each other's lives. You're right about that. But I'm a bit more optimistic about where that will leave us. I think, really I do, both gut and head, that after this changing process we'll be so close and in tune with each other that "moving on" to someone else will be impossible. We'll be the perfect companion/lover/everything for each other.

Diana - 3:09:13 pm

Ha! You're a hopeless romantic xx

Me - 3:09:34 pm

Well, not perfect. As close as two humans can be perfect

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

I hope you're right

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

And I'm wrong

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

Hey, the wows are finished! And I'm the club champ :))

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

Do I get free membership for a year?

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

I'll ask the manager ;)

Me - 3:12:29 pm

Haha. Not a chance

Me - 3:12:50 pm

I think you get free entry to do it again hahahahahaha

Diana - 3:13:24 pm

You're not serious!

Me - 3:13:29 pm

I am

Me - 3:13:38 pm

Ian did from last time

Diana - 3:15:02 pm

Oh well maybe I can give it away to someone who wants to do it

Diana - 3:15:56 pm

You?!!

Me - 3:17:46 pm

Thanks. But. No thanks :)

Me - 3:17:52 pm

Karen?

Diana - 3:20:01 pm

I doubt it

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

I'll see how the lifting goes, if I'm no good at that maybe I'll do it again ;)

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

Transformation though

Me - 3:26:33 pm

Leaving to go to golf. It's freeway. Be patient if I don't answer :)

Diana - 3:28:48 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:28:48 pm

I just got to work

Diana - 3:28:48 pm

Enjoy

Diana - 3:28:48 pm

It's pretty hot!

Me - 3:40:48 pm

This is the little golf ball bag you're thinking of buying for Xmas. I can bring it one time for you to look at.

Me - 3:43:12 pm

And this is the area just for practicing chipping etc. pretty cool eh? :)

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

It's a cool bag

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

All golf courses are the same to me

Diana - 3:47:08 pm

Really depends on the view ;)

Diana - 3:47:24 pm

Better than a computer screen though!

Diana - 3:47:28 pm

Tatts ticket!

Me - 3:47:37 pm

Haha

Me - 4:05:17 pm

I'll walk down tomorrow and buy a ticket. We'll go halves when I win :)

Diana - 4:36:45 pm

When!!

Diana - 4:36:47 pm

Haha!

Diana - 4:36:56 pm

I'm going for coffee

Diana - 4:37:04 pm

I'm getting pastry too! :)

Me - 4:42:18 pm

Why not? Tough day.

Me - 4:43:27 pm

And I bought a tatts ticket a few weeks ago and didn't win. Have to win the best time :))

Me - 4:44:15 pm

Just got back home from golf

Me - 4:47:36 pm

My back is feeling it :(

Me - 4:49:17 pm

This compulsion to train to exhaustion is a problem, I know.

Me - 4:50:06 pm

I really really feel I should go for a run. But that would be stupid. I still have energy left, so I think I should use it.

Me - 4:50:30 pm

Used to do the same with triathlon training. It's nothing new.

Me - 4:50:43 pm

But going to resist it today. Shower and relax time

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

Don't go for a run

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

I know.. I have the same compulsion with food

Diana - 4:51:31 pm

I just got free pastries :) he's been waiting to give me one for 12 weeks, apparently my nickname is ninja in the cafe! I had no idea

Me - 4:51:45 pm

Haha. Classic!

Diana - 4:51:48 pm

Yes rest and look up uni courses maybe?

Me - 4:52:16 pm

Or... Rest and watch the lake :)

Me - 4:52:49 pm

But I'll probably do something.

Me - 4:53:24 pm

On another note. Almond milk isn't too bad in it's own. Just crappy in coffee :)

Me - 4:53:37 pm

Just had a glass

Me - 4:54:29 pm

Is work busy tonight? Or busier?

Diana - 5:04:05 pm

Busy

Me - 5:08:38 pm

Yes. I am :))

Diana - 5:15:28 pm

You are what?

Me - 5:19:10 pm

Eating (or having a smoothie)

Diana - 5:25:59 pm

Oh good!

Diana - 5:26:08 pm

Lillian wants me to go play golf with her next week

Me - 5:27:48 pm

That will be fun, won't it? Or not?

Diana - 5:34:53 pm

Yea that'll be fine

Diana - 5:34:58 pm

I just need to find a day!

Diana - 5:35:08 pm

My week of rest is filling up very quickly!

Me - 5:35:33 pm

But not with training. Other activity is good

Me - 5:36:30 pm

If you need an extra golfing buddy, you know where to find one :))

Diana - 5:36:42 pm

Ha!

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

I'm pretty sure you don't want to meet Lillian

Me - 5:37:03 pm

Why?

Diana - 5:37:07 pm

It'll most likely be Thursday

Diana - 5:37:28 pm

It's the only day I don't have Joel as Friday I'm seeing steve

Diana - 5:37:30 pm

You have Donna

Diana - 5:37:45 pm

Cause I don't know if meeting Neils mum just yet is the way to go!

Me - 5:38:19 pm

Haha. Maybe not :)) at least not quite yet.

Diana - 5:38:51 pm

Steady on

Diana - 5:38:56 pm

Oh why did I eat that junk???

Me - 5:39:50 pm

You've got a good dinner coming up :)

Diana - 5:42:12 pm

Yep that's true :)

Diana - 5:42:21 pm

How's life on the lake treating you?

Diana - 5:42:25 pm

No run?

Me - 5:43:28 pm

No run. I'm being strong and resisting. The lake and I wish you were here to enjoy both of us :)

Me - 5:43:42 pm

Northerly, so it's calm

Diana - 5:44:06 pm

Kayak?

Me - 5:44:55 pm

Maybe

Diana - 5:46:11 pm

Beach would be nice

Me - 5:46:58 pm

Anywhere but work, eh? Still, gotta do it

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

Work is ok

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

I was more thinking wind wise

Me - 5:49:30 pm

Yes, it's a good wind for the beach.

Me - 5:50:39 pm

Reading an article about saturated fats. Not so bad anymore. Original research may have been flawed

Diana - 5:51:04 pm

Yea they've been saying that for a while

Diana - 5:51:09 pm

Sugar is the baddy not fats

Diana - 5:51:13 pm

Good fats

Diana - 5:51:19 pm

Bring back butter yaddie ta

Diana - 5:51:22 pm

Ya

Diana - 5:51:43 pm

Having said that if I had a choice I wouldn't be working!

Diana - 5:51:44 pm

I just got photos of Imogen dressed up she looks awesome

Me - 5:52:33 pm

I'm sure she does.

Me - 5:53:55 pm

I'm feeling pretty tired, you must be exhausted!

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

Exhausted is the new black ;)

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

And Yep!

Diana - 6:12:11 pm

It's the calm before the storm here

Diana - 6:12:24 pm

I wouldn't mind a quick nap :)

Me - 6:12:42 pm

Can you do that??

Me - 6:13:53 pm

I might have a shower so I don't fall asleep :)

Diana - 6:14:56 pm

Ha! Uhm no!

Diana - 6:15:04 pm

Why don't you have a nap?

Me - 6:15:37 pm

Too late. May as call it bed time haha

Me - 6:16:38 pm

It is a nice idea though :)

Me - 6:31:02 pm

Just checked Instagram. Did you really eat all that?? Haha

Diana - 6:39:04 pm

Nope it was juts for shoe

Diana - 6:39:06 pm

Show

Diana - 6:39:14 pm

My friend and I ate it

Me - 6:40:00 pm

That was a lot of food!

Diana - 6:48:47 pm

Pfft 2 pastries

Diana - 6:48:59 pm

Just cause you don't eat!

Diana - 7:18:39 pm

I didn't get dinner :(

Me - 7:21:12 pm

Damn! Car trip dinner then

Diana - 7:23:28 pm

Still after those pastries who needs it

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

Leaderboard is coming out monday

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

Final one on Thursday they have on fb

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

It's still lovely outside it was freezing in the office

Me - 7:34:40 pm

That's great news about the leaderboard

Me - 7:34:55 pm

Got time for a visit tonight?

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

I have to run and pick up the kids

Me - 7:35:17 pm

Just checked FB

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

I should have seen if they could stay the night

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

At Neils but I need to take them shopping in the morning before work

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

Or I could take them sunday maybe

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

Checked the gym?

Me - 7:35:58 pm

Yes

Me - 7:36:16 pm

Just after what you said. Great that it's Monday

Me - 7:36:30 pm

So, when can I see you?

Me - 7:37:06 pm

I need to get into the habit of checking more often

Diana - 7:36:16 pm

Checking what?

Me - 7:37:33 pm

Facebook, Instagram

Diana - 7:36:16 pm

I don't know.. I have the kids tomorrow then work then kids again

Diana - 7:36:16 pm

What do you think?

Me - 7:38:51 pm

No goodnight time at all? I understand if you're tired. It's been a hard day. But I'd like to see you. Somehow. Sometime.

Me - 7:40:02 pm

I have no plans for tomorrow. If you wanted to include me, I'm available. If you want, that is

Diana - 7:40:51 pm

Is tomorrow better than subday?

Me - 7:41:46 pm

It's your weekend with the kids. I'll fit in with you. I have no plans for either day.

Diana - 7:42:31 pm

I don't know

Diana - 7:42:33 pm

I can't think

Diana - 7:42:40 pm

Id like to just wake up and see how they are

Me - 7:42:52 pm

Ok.

Diana - 7:42:40 pm

Rather than rush them about to shop before work if they're not up for it

Diana - 7:43:01 pm

It's a lot of pressure

Diana - 7:43:22 pm

They're having a late night maybe they will need a pj morning

Diana - 7:43:31 pm

Maybe I will! ;)

Diana - 7:43:41 pm

Sunday is usually quieter to shop too

Diana - 7:44:00 pm

It's going to be freezing they say

Me - 7:44:39 pm

Change at 1am

Me - 7:44:40 pm

And freezing

Me - 7:47:14 pm

Maybe have a think and let me know when or if I can fit in. No pressure.

Diana - 7:48:05 pm

Sometime over the weekend for sure

Diana - 7:48:26 pm

I'm thinking the kids will need to chill tomorrow morning, just let them watch cartoons and hang out

Diana - 7:48:36 pm

I need to do some housework blah blah

Me - 7:49:10 pm

Sure :)

Diana - 7:52:37 pm

I'm totally wrecked

Diana - 7:52:43 pm

Need some mindless tv

Me - 7:53:24 pm

Ok

Me - 7:53:24 pm

Don't want company? I understand if not

Diana - 7:54:38 pm

I think tonight I need to be a zombie

Diana - 7:54:42 pm

Do you mind?

Me - 7:54:53 pm

No. It's ok

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

Are you sure?

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

I don't remember the last time I had time to myself :/

Me - 7:59:38 pm

Of course. I'd rather see you but understand your need to be alone. I know you still feel the same about me. I get more alone time than you do.

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Loads more

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Still you did your time

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Honestly though I don't remember the last time I was alone

Diana - 8:03:39 pm

I've had 6 Panadol trying to get rid f this headache

Diana - 8:03:58 pm

I think this morning really stressed me out

Me - 8:04:20 pm

It would have for sure

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

Are you going to punish me indirectly for wanting time alone?

Me - 8:04:37 pm

Give yourself time to recover.

Me - 8:04:49 pm

Punish? Nope. Of course not

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

React or do something to make me feel insecure

Me - 8:05:06 pm

No

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

So that unless I do what you want you will do something to hurt me

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

Indirectly even?

Diana - 8:05:57 pm

That tends to happen

Me - 8:05:58 pm

No, I won't.

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

Then I go into fear of abandonments and stop taking them time I need

Me - 8:06:14 pm

With me? Or with others?

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

For fear of upsetting you

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

It's a pattern

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

I'm just wondering if you will do that

Me - 8:07:50 pm

No. I love you and I know the importance of alone time. And don't forget, I've been through what you're doing with the kids

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

Normally I wouldn't say I need time to myself for fear of upsetting the person or being manipulated

Me - 8:08:14 pm

So I know what it's like

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

I'm just going to be different with you

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

Cool

Me - 8:08:27 pm

Good

Me - 8:08:38 pm

I am different :))

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

And if you abandon me then so be it

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

Atleast I've stuck to my triuth right?

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

truth

Me - 8:09:31 pm

No abandonment.

Me - 8:10:02 pm

This is real. And honesty is so important

Me - 8:12:49 pm

If you or I need time for other stuff, we need to be able to say we do. And know the other person will feel the same way about us. Of course, sometimes you'll want to be together but understand that temporarily it's not possible. It's trust, and this will only work long term with trust. Ok?

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

I'll do what I can

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

As best I can

Diana - 8:14:40 pm

Ok?

Me - 8:15:14 pm

Yep

Me - 8:15:16 pm

Just keep talking, that will work

Diana - 8:15:28 pm

The beach looks amazing

Diana - 8:15:34 pm

We better get a tatts ticket

Me - 8:15:45 pm

I will tomorrow

Diana - 8:15:44 pm

Your place is a bit small for all of us ;))

Me - 8:16:25 pm

Yeah, the 4 of us and 25 guitars. Haha

Diana - 8:16:42 pm

And Henry

Me - 8:17:01 pm

Oh yeah

Diana - 8:17:29 pm

Unless you want to conveniently run him over

Diana - 8:17:40 pm

And have Imogen resent you forever ;)

Me - 8:18:36 pm

That won't happen. We've got to get Joel swimming first.

Diana - 8:18:50 pm

Have bo idea where I'm going to get the energy from to put the kids to bed

Me - 8:19:01 pm

Mum energy

Me - 8:19:08 pm

Unlimited store :)

Diana - 8:18:56 pm

Somehow I don't think Joels swimming ability is going to be the determining factor in whether we live together

Me - 8:19:49 pm

Haha.

Diana - 8:20:36 pm

I can't believe I failed on the third rep of 40

Me - 8:20:37 pm

You're right. But it's a little one, and it's fixable. Remember? That's how I tackle big problems :)

Diana - 8:20:41 pm

Arghh

Diana - 8:20:51 pm

Ha! Yep :(

Diana - 8:20:54 pm

I mean :)

Me - 8:21:28 pm

You still talking about wow's? Really? Haha

Me - 8:21:41 pm

They're over, unless you forgot

Me - 8:21:45 pm

:))

Diana - 8:21:04 pm

Well I've failed every single lift now

Diana - 8:21:59 pm

Lifting isn't over

Diana - 8:22:05 pm

It's only just begun

Diana - 8:22:15 pm

Break out into carpenters tune

Me - 8:22:45 pm

Those dead lift variations look good. The email I sent tonight

Me - 8:23:08 pm

Deficit deadlifts. That's what they're called

Me - 8:23:25 pm

And only a small step too. Check the image

Diana - 8:43:43 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:43:43 pm

I printed it out I will check it tomorrow

Diana - 8:43:43 pm

Kids are high on sugar!

Diana - 8:43:43 pm

Joel has stumbled into bed

Diana - 8:43:43 pm

Imogen is fighting it as usual

Diana - 8:43:43 pm

It's hot enough to swim!

Me - 8:43:43 pm

It's nice here. Still warm. But rhe water would be cold for a swim. Maybe a paddle

Me - 8:43:43 pm

Give it a month or two. Then swimming

Me - 9:15:34 pm

I've been thinking. I would like to do a nude photo shoot. It might be cool. But it might have to be soon, if I put on weight with all this eating :))

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Really?

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Just got

Imogen down

Me - 9:15:34 pm

That's late for her

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Yes

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Big night trick or treating

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Def slow morning tomorrow

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

I laid down and now can't get up

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Well, stay there then haha. Unless it's on the floor :)

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

It's jn bed

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

But the lights are on

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Pfft

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

And I need water

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Ok this is going to take eveything I got!

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Why do you want todo a nude shoot?

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Good luck haha

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Just thinking it could be a cool thing to do. Something totally different

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Only with you, I mean

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Yep lets do it

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

When you think you've bulked enough I guess

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Where?

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

I made it

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Back in bed

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Phew

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Your the photographer. Location and lighting is your thing

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Great

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Lights out?

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Well you must be visualising something

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Have something in mind

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Being naked with you haha

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Yep lights out and water beside bed

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Ha! That's some serious flexibility required if im to shoot that ;)

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Haha.

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Maybe afterwards :)

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Might not be all full body. There's some cool muscle angles and shadows.

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Anyway, something to think about. And do together sometime.

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Sleep time?

Me - 9:15:34 pm

If so. Good night. xxx

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Me too soon

Me - 9:15:34 pm

It's been a remarkable day for you. Something to remember.

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Remarkable?

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

I failed 40!

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

:p

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

It's been a good day though yes

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Thanks for putting up with me through all these wows

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

I hope if nothing else I can be good advertising for you ;)

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Let's do some photos of you just doing some stuff you enjoy and take it from there

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Work towards other stuff

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Of course we need to find time

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

I'm going to sleep

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Time is difficult, yes

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

I'm ruined!

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Night

Me - 9:15:34 pm

I hope Imogen sleeps in

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Me too

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Thanks

Diana - 9:15:34 pm

Goodnight xx

Me - 9:15:34 pm

Sleep well xx

**Saturday 1 November**

Diana - 8:54:05 am

Gym?

Diana - 8:54:05 am

What a miserable day!

Me - 8:54:05 am

How long have you been awake?

Diana - 8:54:05 am

So far I've done washing dishes got the kids ready put together a hotwheels track which has a missing piece explored the baby snails with Imogen and now wiping bathroom down quickly!

Diana - 8:54:05 am

Since 530

Diana - 8:54:05 am

You?

Me - 8:56:33 am

Wow. That's one busy morning.

Me - 8:56:33 am

I slept pretty well, woke up heaps though. Did you get enough?

Diana - 8:56:33 am

Nope :) it's never enough

Diana - 8:56:33 am

Why waking heaps? The wind?

Me - 8:56:33 am

Don't know. It's what I used to do.

Me - 8:56:33 am

There won't be much outside stuff done this morning

Diana - 8:56:33 am

What do you do that's outside?

Diana - 8:56:33 am

Not gymming it?

Me - 8:56:33 am

Thinking about it. But if I go before 10, I'll feel like I should do Michael's circuit. And I don't want to

Me - 8:56:33 am

Outside stuff is running and golf

Diana - 8:56:33 am

Yes it's a woeful day isn't it

Diana - 9:02:32 am

I'm about to brave outside with the kids

Me - 9:02:32 am

Doing what?

Diana - 9:02:32 am

It's juts started pouring

Diana - 9:02:32 am

May give it 10

Diana - 9:02:32 am

I want to take Imogen to the docs for her itchy bum

Diana - 9:02:32 am

Even though she says it's not itchy anymore

Me - 9:02:32 am

Oh yeah

Diana - 9:02:32 am

And then we have to run around and do stuff

Diana - 9:02:32 am

Groceries and other shit

Diana - 9:02:32 am

I really just want to relax at home

Me - 9:02:32 am

Just started pouring here too

Diana - 9:02:32 am

But then he house needs a clean too :/

Diana - 9:02:32 am

Argh it never ends!

Diana - 9:02:32 am

I promised them a milkshake after the docs

Me - 9:05:18 am

You know, if there's anything I can help with just ask. I sort of feel bad having such a cruisy morning

Me - 9:05:18 am

I only had one group of trick or treaters last night. Usually have quite a few

Diana - 9:05:18 am

Don't feel bad

Diana - 9:05:18 am

Feel lucky!

Diana - 9:05:18 am

Whenever I complain about being busy to my cousin she says she would kill to have people to care for

Diana - 9:05:18 am

Grass is always greener I guess

Diana - 9:05:18 am

Besides I'm used to this it's just I have to fit it all in before work

Me - 9:05:18 am

It's a nice busy, most if the time with kids.

Me - 9:05:18 am

So it doesn't make you feel bad if I text how relaxed I am? :)

Diana - 9:05:18 am

Not at all

Diana - 9:05:18 am

Just understand that on the weekends I don't have the kids I'll need to be on my own sometimes to get that for myself

Me - 9:05:18 am

Yep, got it.

Me - 9:05:18 am

I know how important that is

Me - 9:05:18 am

And I have felt a little guilty grabbing all your spare time over the last few weeks. Even though it's been awesome spending all that time with you.

Diana - 9:05:18 am

I guess that's part of what I mean about us being in vastly different places in our lives

Diana - 9:05:18 am

Your time is yours now

Diana - 9:05:18 am

Mine rarely is

Diana - 9:05:18 am

Yea I've enjoyed it too but I think it has affected me having no time alone

Diana - 9:05:18 am

I've been with you or at work or with the kids for weeks now

Me - 9:05:18 am

Work and kids are fixed. I can fit in. We can do that.

Diana - 9:05:18 am

I think we got here in the nick of time :)

Me - 9:05:18 am

I think it's a special point to be at, to be able to sustain this while allowing time alone. It's good!

Diana - 9:05:18 am

Then to mordy for milkshakes and canvas and paint shopping

Me - 9:05:18 am

Enjoy! :)

Diana - 9:19:44 am

Doctors done already

Diana - 9:19:44 am

We are smashing today :)

Diana - 9:19:44 am

Just the medication but worth a check

Diana - 9:19:44 am

Can't take chances with bubbas

Me - 9:33:01 am

Saturday morning at the doctors, over in less than an hour?? Unheard of!! :)

Me - 9:35:25 am

How's your sore calf feeling?

Diana - 9:43:12 am

It was over in 5 minutes!

Diana - 9:45:20 am

It looks like it's fining up

Diana - 9:45:20 am

You're going to do the circuit aren't you :)

Me - 9:45:20 am

No

Me - 9:45:20 am

Eating :)

Me - 9:45:20 am

I'll in this afternoon

Me - 9:45:20 am

Maybe backup immediately with a run

Me - 9:45:20 am

The run I didn't do yesterday

Diana - 9:58:08 am

Wow! You're really focused

Diana - 10:02:01 am

And you're recovery days will be?

Me - 10:02:01 am

Recovery mornings :)

Diana - 10:02:01 am

You're not setting a good example coach

Diana - 10:02:01 am

With food or rest days ;)

Me - 10:05:51 am

Food is getting better. I ate a lot yesterday. And I really haven't done regular training for weeks. I'll do some volume training today. Not hard just tiring. :)

Me - 10:08:55 am

And I don't think I'm too good at sitting still for too long. I spent those years writing software in that little room and now I feel the need to keep moving.

Me - 10:08:55 am

And I've got lots of paperwork to do. Moving let's me forget about it haha

Me - 10:15:49 am

In a way I think being so physically active is my kind of laziness. It allows me to ignore the stuff I don't want to do or is really hard. Business stuff, and even writing, because I'm stuck with that too. It's procrastination but being really active.

Diana - 10:30:08 am

Yea I've used the gym to neglect other stuff too

Diana - 10:30:08 am

Good old avoidance :)

Me - 10:46:20 am

Editor: Image of a tattslotto ticket

Me - 10:46:20 am

Done! Start packing for that bigger house on a beach :))

Diana - 10:50:07 am

Haha!

Diana - 10:50:07 am

Can't we just buy everything new ;)

Diana - 10:50:07 am

We have done everything

Diana - 10:50:07 am

All we need to do now is go shopping for a few things tomorrow but all our chores for the day are done

Diana - 10:50:07 am

That's if I choose to further ignore housework which I am

Me - 10:54:51 am

That's an awesome accomplishment. Done before midday Saturday. Super Mum!!!

Diana - 11:02:08 am

Yes.

Diana - 11:02:08 am

Now you want to hear about procrastinating,... I'm watching barbie with the girl and drinking coffee instead of cleaning

Me - 11:04:37 am

Editor: Image of lots of papers spread over the floor

Me - 11:04:37 am

This is what I've been avoiding. Coffee brewed, comfy place on the floor. Here I go

Me - 11:04:37 am

Barbie and coffee sounds better. With my kids, I just had to watch the Simpsons with them. Even if it was the 20th time :)

Diana - 11:04:37 am

I saw paper and print and couldn't look any longer

Diana - 11:04:37 am

It was Imogen's turn to choose a movie

Diana - 11:04:37 am

Joels playing with his new racing track that had a missing piece

Diana - 11:08:28 am

I really should clean but I figure rest before work is a good thing

Diana - 11:08:28 am

And this week there's no wows ;)

Diana - 11:08:28 am

One wows worth and Id get the whole house done

Me - 11:08:28 am

Haha

Me - 11:08:28 am

Here's a suggestion.

Me - 11:08:28 am

Would you like me to ask my cleaning lady to come to yours too? I probably need less cleaning now. Don't say no immediately, think about it. Cleaning makes life a lot easier.

Diana - 11:13:11 am

How much is she?

Diana - 11:13:11 am

I can't really afford it

Me - 11:13:11 am

$0 for you

Diana - 11:13:11 am

And it doesn't take that long

Diana - 11:13:11 am

It's just I hate it!

Me - 11:13:11 am

Let me talk to her. I'll pay. Although the total cost for me may stay the same.

Me - 11:13:11 am

I'll ask if she can do your place too.

Diana - 11:13:11 am

You're not serious

Diana - 11:13:11 am

How could the cost for you stay the same?

Me - 11:13:11 am

You say that a lot :)

Diana - 11:13:11 am

You're avoiding your paperwork again ;)

Me - 11:13:11 am

Haha

Me - 11:13:11 am

It is quite boring

Me - 11:13:11 am

But incredible sense of achievement when it's done

Me - 11:13:11 am

She'd probably come to your place every 2 weeks or so. So you may have to do a little cleaning, perhaps but leave the big jobs.

Me - 11:13:11 am

She won't tidy up the whole house for you, you'd still have to do that.

Me - 11:24:38 am

Actually with the paperwork, once you get started and are in the zone it's not that difficult to knock it over.

Me - 11:24:38 am

Maybe 2 to 3 coffee's worth and it will be done :)

Me - 11:24:38 am

Coffee 2 coming up

Diana - 11:24:38 am

I wouldn't know ;)

Diana - 11:24:38 am

Imagine the feeling once it's done!

Diana - 11:24:38 am

Bit like how I remember housework feels like once you've done it ;)

Me - 11:27:38 am

Maybe I'm being a bit pushy again with cleaning stuff. I do that :) The offer is there, have a think. Let me know next week or whenever.

Me - 11:27:38 am

Back to accounts and financial returns. Sigh!

Diana - 11:27:38 am

Good luck!

Diana - 11:27:38 am

I'm going to have a nap on the couch

Diana - 11:32:00 am

Well as much as one can with one child on my legs and the other on my arms

Me - 11:32:00 am

Haha. It's called lying down, not sleeping :)

Diana - 11:32:00 am

Thyyve let me go to bed until the end of the movie

Diana - 11:32:00 am

Wow that's freedom ;)

Me - 11:32:00 am

Turn your phone off too!! :) This is when someone will call wanting a chat :)

Diana - 12:06:08 pm

Well that was a nice and short rest

Diana - 12:06:08 pm

The troops wants lunch!

Me - 12:10:32 pm

Did you sleep at all?

Me - 12:10:32 pm

Editor: An image of a single, large sealed envelope

Me - 12:10:32 pm

The result of my morning's effort. Yay!

Me - 12:10:32 pm

Working on a program for you now

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

Wow already done?

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

Why a new program? I haven't even done your old ones yet

Me - 12:18:56 pm

I think more single leg stuff to get you stronger quicker without putting all that load through your body.

Me - 12:18:56 pm

It works

Me - 12:18:56 pm

Or so I've read and heard

Diana - 12:24:40 pm

Sounds good

Diana - 12:24:40 pm

And those deficit deadlifts

Diana - 12:24:40 pm

That's all I wanna do :)

Me - 1:32:32 pm

Ok. I've broken the back of your November training program. We'll go over it and tweak it. I'm going to rhe gym and I'll finish it off when I come back.

Me - 1:58:36 pm

And don't forget to take dinner. And maybe eat it tonight :))

Diana - 2:03:28 pm

Thanks heaps

Diana - 2:03:28 pm

Will I be able to figure it out or will you need to take me through it?

Me - 2:09:40 pm

We'll need to go though it together, but just to explain the exercises. Then you can do it on your own. All sets, reps, weights are specified. But you can "play", of course. Some days you'll want something else, or a circuit.

Diana - 2:09:40 pm

Awesome thanks

Diana - 2:09:40 pm

I have that curcuit we have done together I can always do that too

Me - 2:09:40 pm

There were a couple of more circuits I did for you in that last program too

Me - 2:09:40 pm

The gym was pumping when I got here. Just started exercises and everyone has gone. I must have scared them off haha

Diana - 2:09:40 pm

Yep

You and all your weird functional movements ;)

Diana - 2:09:40 pm

I'll look through those circuits later

Diana - 2:09:40 pm

Just dropped kids

Diana - 2:17:33 pm

I feel so worn out

Diana - 2:17:33 pm

Guess it always hits once you know you can stop and I had to keep going until the challenge was over really

Me - 2:20:58 pm

Your body won't recover for a few days. Even just from Friday's effort. I know I felt tired and down after my FFS finished. Even though I was glad it was over. But, you need more sleep. Somehow. In Paul Chek's world, enough and good quality sleep is the very first thing.

Diana - 2:24:42 pm

Well in my world coffee and sudafed are the first things

Diana - 2:24:42 pm

Just for today :)

Diana - 2:24:42 pm

What are tou training today?

Diana - 2:24:42 pm

I just got coffee heading up beach road the bay is wild

Me - 2:27:58 pm

I'm doing a few thjngs from your program. Testing them out. Single leg, mainly

Diana - 2:27:58 pm

Is it a program geared toward lifting?

Me - 2:27:58 pm

Yes. Getting stronger without wrecking your body by maxing out on 2 legs all the time.

Me - 2:27:58 pm

There is 2 leg stuff too, of course

Me - 2:27:58 pm

And deficit deads :)

Me - 2:27:58 pm

We can tweak it of you want to try different stuff

Me - 2:27:58 pm

And after you've seen Steve it may change too

Diana - 2:27:58 pm

So leaving bench until I see steve

Diana - 2:27:58 pm

?

Me - 2:27:58 pm

Maybe, I've put dumbells in there instead of barbell

Me - 2:27:58 pm

Onto Bulgarians now :)

Diana - 2:27:58 pm

As bench?

Diana - 2:27:58 pm

But I'll do Bulgarians with a barbell please

Me - 2:27:58 pm

Ok

Me - 2:27:58 pm

Yeah, bench with dumbbell

Me - 2:27:58 pm

You know how bad I am? I went to open your protein powder and on both arms the muscles seized and I dropped it

Me - 2:27:58 pm

Needless to say the powder went everywhere

Me - 2:27:58 pm

Would have made a great instagram post ;)

Me - 2:27:58 pm

I look forward to trying out this program :)

Me - 2:27:58 pm

I better stop eating Imogen's lollies

Me - 2:37:47 pm

You really are totally exhausted aren't you! Maybe I'll change week 1 to "walking". :))

Me - 2:37:47 pm

Were you able to salvage the protein?

Diana - 2:37:47 pm

Yea it was fine

Diana - 2:37:47 pm

Id just swept the floor

Diana - 2:37:47 pm

And yea my back is constantly burning atm

Diana - 2:37:47 pm

In my shoulder blades

Diana - 2:37:47 pm

Anyway I'm in recovery no

Diana - 2:37:47 pm

Now

Me - 2:37:47 pm

Yeah. We'll monitor how you feel for the next few weeks and back off when necessary.

Me - 2:37:47 pm

Somehow, and I don't know how, we need to get more sleep into you.

Diana - 2:37:47 pm

I was researching women lifters this morning, the woman who holds the deadlift world record isn't that big, and another woman is actually a fitness model also so a work horse physique isn't necessary at all

Diana - 2:37:47 pm

Sleep will start with peace of mind

Diana - 2:37:47 pm

The kids aren't interrupting it as much as they used to

Diana - 2:37:47 pm

The world record is 240 btw

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

I'm not Looking at that! Even im not that delusional Just wanted to check the physiques of the strongest women

Me - 2:44:00 pm

Ok. And piece of mind? Is that getting better? Is better?

Diana - 2:44:00 pm

How heavy are you going with Bulgarians

Me - 2:48:08 pm

Two 20kg kettlebells

Me - 2:48:08 pm

Really tough!

Me - 2:48:08 pm

And keeping good form, I mean

Me - 2:48:08 pm

Single leg is hard. I'm puffing and sweating

Diana - 2:53:19 pm

That's with one leg up on the bench yea?

Me - 2:53:19 pm

Yeah

Me - 2:53:19 pm

Onto Zercher lunges now

Diana - 2:53:19 pm

Cool

Diana - 2:53:19 pm

Looking forward to losing leg fat and getting muscle def

Diana - 2:53:19 pm

Barbell? How much weight?

Me - 2:58:03 pm

Barbell. Trying 40 kg right now

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

Drop back

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

I'm lifting whatever you lift

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

Maybe not as many reps

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

But I'll try!

Me - 2:58:03 pm

Fuck me. 40 kg is tough :))

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

Of course it is

Me - 2:58:03 pm

Also, battery less than 10%. And I'm at the gym. If I disappear you'll know why :)

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

The weight is right out front right?

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

Hurts my back thinking about to

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

Ok

Me - 2:58:03 pm

In the crook of your arm. And you lunge

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

Hey strength Sensai is all for the belt

Me - 2:58:03 pm

I'll show you, of course

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

Yea I know what they are

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

Just can't remember the name ;)

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

They were in that article you sent

Me - 2:58:03 pm

Yeah

Me - 2:58:03 pm

Never done them before

Me - 2:58:03 pm

They're cool

Me - 2:58:03 pm

I should do more lunges

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

Now get off legs and start some weighted chin ups

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

Can you email me the programs while I'm at work so I can print it?

Me - 3:06:00 pm

Ok. I've still got to put in the Periodisation stuff. If I finish tonight I will. But I have a printer too.

Me - 3:06:00 pm

Yeah, I've got chins in every second day

Diana - 3:06:00 pm

Ok should I start Monday?

Me - 3:06:00 pm

Probably

Diana - 3:06:00 pm

Ok I'll have to have tuesday off anyway

Diana - 3:06:00 pm

I'm going to read up on belts when j get to work

Me - 3:06:00 pm

Weight belts? Hmmm. Ok. You read and tell me what you find out.

Me - 3:06:00 pm

Battery jut about gone...

Diana - 3:06:00 pm

Ok see you :)

Me - 3:06:00 pm

At work yet?

Me - 3:06:00 pm

Try and eat dinner tonight :)

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

I ate last night

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

And will eat again tonight

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

Eating isn't an issue!

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

Why are you against belts?

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

Editor: An image of a deadlifting competition notification

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

Not to enter obviously to watch

Me - 3:20:15 pm

Looks good! And you get a show bag too!!

Me - 3:20:15 pm

I've only heard that belts shouldn't be used. All the guys I read say not to. Surprised Poliquin says they're ok. I've heard you should "grow your own belt" by having strong core.

Interested to hear what you find out

Diana - 3:24:04 pm

Well then why are Olympians using them?

Diana - 3:24:04 pm

Would be my first conjecture

Diana - 3:24:04 pm

Obviously not my last ;)

Me - 3:27:25 pm

Really heavy weights. And they're competing.

Me - 3:27:25 pm

Battery non existent :)

Me - 3:27:25 pm

Almost...

Diana - 3:27:25 pm

Getting my cardio in walking a km to work in the rain

Diana - 4:06:59 pm

Have you see the way power lifters arch their backs when benching

Diana - 4:06:59 pm

And yes the concensus Is to use belts on heavy loads only, 90% plus off your pb, when you're holding your breath which you do when deading, your abs contract against the belt causing a stronger force from which to lift with

Diana - 4:06:59 pm

And more stability in the back which also produces more froze

Diana - 4:06:59 pm

Force

Diana - 4:06:59 pm

Every single website ive read has said the same thing

Diana - 4:06:59 pm

Only a powerlifting belt, the same width the whole way around, with buckle although that is not as good for you as the Velcro as it can cause more damage but will produce better results

Me - 4:06:59 pm

Just got home. And plugged in. That's what I've heard about belts too. Only for extreme efforts

Diana - 4:06:59 pm

Do you think I should have a rest day Monday and Tuesday

Diana - 4:06:59 pm

Yea, the Velcro ones seem to be just for show essentially

Diana - 4:06:59 pm

Though psychologically they've proved to achieve results

Diana - 4:06:59 pm

The same has been said for those knee night compression socks

Diana - 4:06:59 pm

Which I was given

Me - 4:15:37 pm

I think we'll play it by ear. There's no hurry, and a few extra days of easy training won't harm your progress. I think you should do something though. Not sit on the couch. But maybe a half hour workout?

Me - 4:15:37 pm

I'm buggered. That was an extreme workout. Everything except hip dominant movements, because I did deads yesterday. I'm shaking all over haha

Me - 4:15:37 pm

But, I feel awesome. I love this feeling. Still thinking of a run after I've eaten something :)

Me - 4:15:37 pm

How's work?

Diana - 4:15:37 pm

Any wonder you have no body fat!

Diana - 4:20:07 pm

And I don't really sit on the couch

Diana - 4:20:07 pm

Maybe I'll go for a paddle

Diana - 4:20:07 pm

Sounds like a good workout

Diana - 4:20:07 pm

I'm working on boring stuff atm

Diana - 4:20:07 pm

Kill me ;)

Me - 4:20:07 pm

Haha

Me - 4:31:25 pm

It's great bring comfortable with your kids.

Me - 5:07:50 pm

Just emailed the first draft of your program for November.

Diana - 5:13:20 pm

Thanks

Diana - 5:13:20 pm

I'll start googling ;)

Diana - 5:27:06 pm

I've juts finished writing

Diana - 5:27:06 pm

There are a lot of things I'm not sure of in your program but I've printed it anyway

Me - 5:27:06 pm

Some of it is shorthand for exercises you probably know. I'll explain, obviously.

Diana - 5:27:06 pm

Obviously

Diana - 5:27:06 pm

As long as I understand enough to be able to do it when you're not there

Me - 5:27:06 pm

Yeah, that's the idea of giving you 8 days of exercises.

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

Ahh I'm getting coffee delivered

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

life has improved :)

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

There's an old friend in graphics who when works on the weekends always gets me a coffee

Diana - 5:43:12 pm

It's the little things in life :)

Diana - 5:45:20 pm

What time are your clients Monday?

Diana - 5:56:44 pm

Our lead is xxz

Me - 5:56:44 pm

I have 7:30am

Me - 5:56:44 pm

9:30am and 10:30am

Me - 5:56:44 pm

What's xxz?

Diana - 5:56:44 pm

Xxx

Diana - 5:56:44 pm

In other words we don't have a lift

Diana - 5:56:44 pm

I mean a story!

Me - 5:56:44 pm

Oh

Me - 5:56:44 pm

Can you make one up? Haha.

Diana - 5:56:44 pm

You don't have time to take me through the program Monday abyway

Diana - 5:56:44 pm

I'll let dan know I'll go paddling

Me - 6:04:29 pm

Ok

Diana - 6:04:29 pm

I could do with some time off anyway

Diana - 6:04:29 pm

And I can't really do the program without you showing me how

Diana - 6:04:29 pm

I can't get in until school drop off

Me - 6:04:29 pm

This coming week could be better just as a "do what you feel like" week. Even minimizing time at the gym may make the enthusiasm for the gym increase later in the week or next week. You deserve a break and just being active may be enough. What do you think?

Diana - 6:10:56 pm

Well I'm kind of keen to try stuff, Rick the new trainer said he'd be happy to do some training with me maybe I can see if he is free?

Diana - 6:10:56 pm

I don't really want to have to fit in around your other clients Id rather get on with it

Diana - 6:10:56 pm

What do you think?

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

Do you have newbies?

Diana - 6:10:56 pm

It'll be weird, you won't be able to stick your nose into what I'm doing ok?

Diana - 6:10:56 pm

And I'll stay out of your way too

Me - 6:20:28 pm

I think it's a crap idea. But if you want to be trained by someone else, then Rick is certainly available. If you want to do the program I've given you then I'd have to explain it all to him. I may as well explain it to you. He wouldn't know some of the things in your program. But, it's your program I've given you.

Diana - 6:33:03 pm

I wouldn't do your program

Diana - 6:33:03 pm

Id train with him

Diana - 6:33:03 pm

Just to fill in time while you're busy

Diana - 6:33:03 pm

Do you have newbies?

Diana - 6:33:03 pm

It's not such a bad thing if I train with other people

Diana - 6:33:03 pm

You do it all the time

Diana - 6:33:03 pm

I don't get why you think it's such a 'crap' idea

Me - 6:36:13 pm

I didn't understand. I thought you wanted Rick to take over the program I gave you. I couldn't see how that would work. Of course, doing a normal training session with others is fine.

Me - 6:36:13 pm

It's probably good to see how others do stuff. Just be prepared to say no to some exercises if they don't fit in with your goals and rehab stuff.

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

Yea I thought it would be good too

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

You never answer my questions about your clients

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

Mark I really want to take this Back to a friendship

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

If you don't mind

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

And can do it

Me - 6:36:13 pm

What?

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

I asked twice about who you were training and you ignored me

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

Same way you did with the massaging

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

You keep stuff sexret

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

And you only ever have women clients

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

And I could feel you get jealous when I was going to train with someone else

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

So don't say you don't understand

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

I just don't think it's going to work for us in a relationship

Me - 6:36:13 pm

I disagree.

Me - 6:36:13 pm

I wasn't jealous of Rick. I didn't see how he could train you with my program.

Me - 6:36:13 pm

A misunderstanding

Me - 6:36:13 pm

And the clients?

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

You tell me you get jealous when you see me chatting with men at the gym

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

And the clients you're never transparent with

Me - 6:36:13 pm

For a milli second!!

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

i asked twice if they were new

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

And you ignored me

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

It's not going to work

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

I don't have the energy for it

Me - 6:36:13 pm

But we've come so, so far.

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

You know it's an area I struggle in and when I ask questions you ignore them

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

That's not coming far

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

That's stagnating

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

I want to go back to being friends

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

If you can't do that then I am willing to walk away

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

It's not just me that needs fixing

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

And you can't find it in you to meet me on this

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

Still, after sayin this you don't explain why you ignored my question

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

Twice

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

Ask yourself and then let me know

Me - 6:36:13 pm

What about "don't let go"?

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

Again

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

You're not answering

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

Fucking unbelievable

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

Again

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

You're not answering

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

Fucking unbelievable

Diana - 6:36:13 pm

And the energy this takes

Me - 6:36:13 pm

I didn't ignore your question intentionally. I was answering other questions.

Me - 7:43:42 pm

You need to make a choice. Do you want me in your life? Yes or No. Once that decision is finally made the energy required to sustain either choice will be minimal. Think deeply about it. I'll wait until you're ready to answer that question. No more heart wrenching text conversations.

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

Are you offering lover or nothing?

Me - 8:01:51 pm

Friends only would be difficult. Too difficult in the short term for me.

Diana - 8:01:51 pm

So, lovers or nothing

Me - 8:01:51 pm

Yes

Diana - 8:01:51 pm

Are you sure?

Me - 8:01:51 pm

Yes

Diana - 8:01:51 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:09:50 pm

Then you're going to make me walk. I'll return the dress, you go to the dinner I won't go, and I've paid for yoga but I'll find a way to pay you back

Diana - 8:09:50 pm

I have your account details no need to talk to me again

Diana - 8:09:50 pm

I'm

Not leaving the gym but I will always be polite

Me - 8:14:17 pm

I'm not going to the dinner. You go if you want. Any money you return I'll send back to you. Know that I love you. Bye.

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

I'm not doing

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

Going

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

You are the only reason I did well

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

I'm not going without you

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

You trained more people than me it's more important for you to go

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

Why does it have to be black and white

Me - 8:14:17 pm

I trained no-one other than you. You're the only one, the circuit people all have their own trainers.

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

Well then neither of us are going

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

I don't want to go without you

Me - 8:14:17 pm

Because that will make it easier. One way of the other. Then a decision is made, the wondering will stop, it will be easier

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

Why do you have to throw away the bond we have completely?

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

That's bullshit

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

Childish

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

We tried and it didn't work

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

We shouldn't have to throw the lot away

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

I just can't do the relationship side of it

Me - 8:14:17 pm

Who said it didn't work? It was great all this week. Forgotten already?

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

That shouldn't mean I have to lose you as a friend too

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

It's like you're punishing me for not being able to do it

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

A great week? We alredy had one cycle of me leaving then coming back

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

Don't you see I just am not able

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

I'm just no good at this

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

I come and go

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

And dance around one moment with confidence the next terrified

Me - 8:14:17 pm

You don't let yourself believe.

Diana - 8:14:17 pm

Don't make me lose your friendship because of that

Me - 8:26:42 pm

The terror can be helped. It's trust. And making a descision will consolidate that trust. In the middle, just friends, there will be too much tension. At least for me. I'm not in love with my friends and if you were really telling the truth when you said you loved me, then i can't see how you could say just be friends. But, maybe I just don't understand.

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

Because I love you and don't want to lose you but being with you causes me so much inner turmoil

Me - 8:26:42 pm

Then let me help you!!!!

Me - 8:26:42 pm

Even if you think I'm a stepping stone, we need to work on this.

Me - 8:26:42 pm

It won't happen without working at it. Nothing useful ever does!

Me - 8:26:42 pm

You won't just meet someone and it will magically be perfect for no effort.

Me - 8:26:42 pm

You've met the right person. Now we need to work at it.

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

You are amazing it's true

Me - 8:26:42 pm

You do have the energy, because you can draw it from me!!!

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

But when stuff like today happens I lose all hope

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

Do you understand what I mean?

Me - 8:26:42 pm

Yes. But why give up? It's just not perfect yet

Me - 8:26:42 pm

It has to be fixed Diana. And you've got the perfect guy to help you with that. Stepping stone or not.

Me - 8:26:42 pm

It's like learning a new skill. It's hard and you fail, often

Me - 8:26:42 pm

That's no reason to stop. Unless you no longer value the skill

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

Why? Why do you want to do this?

Me - 8:26:42 pm

And I know you really value this skill. It's important for you. Really important

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

Especially if it's a stepping stone?

Me - 8:26:42 pm

I don't believe it a stepping stone. Not for me.

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

I'm so confused

Me - 8:26:42 pm

Let's work on strategies to minimiZe the inner turmoil

Me - 8:26:42 pm

It's like meditation

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

And sad and frightened and unsure

Me - 8:26:42 pm

You fail but carry on

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

The last few week I've been feeling like my heart is literally in my throat

Me - 8:26:42 pm

I know. And that's why the black or white decision

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

Yep I'm failing at everything lately

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

What's why the black and white decision?

Me - 8:26:42 pm

Commit to one way or the other. Then turmoil will reduce, Eventualy.

Me - 8:26:42 pm

But I know the answer should be yes. That's the right one

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

I think friendship would reduce turmoil

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

What answer?

Me - 8:26:42 pm

The question, in or out

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

I can't even answer whether I'm going to let the kids stay up and watch wonker

Diana - 8:26:42 pm

I'm a mess

Me - 8:40:59 pm

It's time to reduce that mess. I can help and I'm willing to help. But I need a commitment too. I can't be a friend and be so in love with you. It would destroy me. Sorry.

Diana - 8:40:59 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:40:59 pm

And I feel like being in a relationship is destroying me

Me - 8:40:59 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:40:59 pm

But I don't want to not have you in my life

Diana - 8:40:59 pm

We have something way too cool for that don't you think?

Me - 8:40:59 pm

What we have is amazing. We're a perfect fit.

Diana - 8:40:59 pm

I don't know about perfect

Diana - 8:40:59 pm

But I know I don't want to be in life without you in it at all

Diana - 8:40:59 pm

I guess I was willing to have something over nothing

Me - 8:51:12 pm

I know you've said many times about the timing being wrong but we don't have control over that. We've met now, we're in love now. And I guess it's my lack of understanding that having and being in love isn't something solid to use to overcome whatever problems there are.

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

It wasn't enough for you last time

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

If it's lovers or nothing then I'm not going anywhere

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

Come over for a cup of tea, the kids are up but a cup of tea is ok isn't it?

Me - 8:51:12 pm

Of course. See you soon

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

P

Diana - 8:55:09 pm

My house is messy

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

And my kids are overtired

Diana - 9:09:33 pm

Bit like me

**Sunday 2 November**

Diana - 8:10:56 am

Good morning

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

How are you?

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

I hope I'm not waking you

Me - 8:51:12 pm

Good morning

Me - 8:51:12 pm

No, not waking me. I never really slept :)

Me - 8:51:12 pm

Did the kids sleep in at all?

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

You didn't sleep????

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

Imogen slept until 630 Joel until 730 ish

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

I'm trying to get out of bed for coffee :)

Me - 8:51:12 pm

That's great you got a bit of sleep. I'm so sorry for keeping you up so late

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

Don't be sorry

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

It's not your fault

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

I didn't want you to go

Me - 8:51:12 pm

I couldn't sleep. I think I dozed sometimes but it was one of those tossing and turning nights they have in movies :)

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

Oh one of those!! ;)

Me - 8:51:12 pm

Couldn't stop thinking, etc etc etc

Me - 8:51:12 pm

Worrying, sadness,frustration and just about every other emotion :)

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

Any good ones at all?

Me - 8:51:12 pm

I'm feeling pretty drained. Probably how you've felt the last few weeks :)

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

Maybe it's a sign of being truly fucked up but I still feel warmth and happiness and softness when I think about you

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

Amidst all the above mentioned

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

Yes the last weeks have been draining but there's been a lot going on

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

What do you need today?

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

Do you want me to just leave you be?

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

Have some time apart?

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

Just let me know what you want

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

Gee I wish my kids knew how to make coffee ;)

Diana - 8:51:12 pm

I know we have the lifting thing this Saturday but my Friday show ends in December and I was thinking maybe we could go on that adventure, take off Friday sometime go stay somewhere overnight and come back Saturday before I go to work

Diana - 8:22:04 am

If you want to

Diana - 8:22:04 am

It'd be good for us to do that maybe

Diana - 8:22:04 am

Ok I'm going to get out of my warm comfortable bed

Me - 8:22:04 am

I feel like I want to run away. It's so embarrassing, frustrating. But I can't and don't want to. I want to be with you. Today especially

Diana - 8:22:04 am

My need for drugs is greater ;)

Diana - 8:22:04 am

Ok

Diana - 8:22:04 am

I want you to do what you need to do. I don't want you to run away from me though

Diana - 8:22:04 am

And Id like to hang out too

Me - 8:22:04 am

I feel the warmth and happiness too. And the trip would be cool.

Me - 8:22:04 am

Let me know how and when I can fit in today. If you want me too, that is. You haven't said what you'd prefer. I understand that you will need time alone.

Diana - 8:28:26 am

We are just hanging here until we get to the shops

Diana - 8:28:26 am

You're welcome to come here and hang or come out

Diana - 8:28:26 am

We have to get a few things at the shops but it might be an assault on your senses given how tired you are, so come here if you prefer. Once we are ready we will go though maybe the earlier the quieter

Diana - 8:28:26 am

As you can see nothing has been thought out ;)

Me - 8:28:26 am

I should go grocery shopping. Maybe I'll do that now. Then a bit later see what you're up to. Is that ok?

Diana - 8:33:51 am

Yep no worries

Diana - 8:33:51 am

It's all still cartoons here :)

Me - 8:45:12 am

I don't want to shower. I can smell you on me, my skin smells like you :)

Diana - 8:47:19 am

I went to reply and my phone died! I'll call Telstra today

Diana - 8:47:19 am

Don't shower, be smelly :)

Me - 8:47:19 am

I'm a bit sore from yesterday's gym session. That was a tough one.

Diana - 8:47:19 am

Would it be better if the kids and I got the shopping done as early as we can?

Diana - 8:47:19 am

Then we can just hang here? I don't know how quick we can be

Diana - 8:47:19 am

They're like black holes :)

Diana - 8:47:19 am

Yes it's sounded tough. I'm really looking forward to trying some stuff out

Me - 8:50:48 am

You do what you need. I'm not going grocery shopping, I cant be fucked. I'll eat something have a few coffee's and then follow you around whever you are. The location doesn't matter Diana. At home, shopping, anywhere. It's where you are that counts.

Diana - 8:50:48 am

We can do your grocery shopping too then?

Diana - 8:50:48 am

And drop it to your place on the way back

Diana - 8:50:48 am

Easy peasy

Me - 8:50:48 am

Ok. I'll shower and eat and come over. Ok?

Me - 8:50:48 am

But I love your smell on me. Wish I could bottle it :)

Diana - 8:50:48 am

My bedroom smells of it too

Diana - 8:54:20 am

None of us have eaten or are dressed but just come whenever

Diana - 8:54:20 am

I'm going to call and see if I can get a new phone

Diana - 8:54:20 am

I have to sit here with it connected to make the call! It's ridiculous

Me - 8:54:20 am

We could do that today maybe

Diana - 8:54:20 am

I can't buy one, I need to see if I can get an upgrade with the plan im on

Diana - 8:54:20 am

Hopefully two years has passed

Diana - 9:02:14 am

My contract ends in March but they're going to let me out with a small fee :)

Diana - 9:11:01 am

Still on the phone argh!

Me - 9:14:55 am

That's good. Let's do it! All showered, feeling partly human again :) smelling oddly stale and uninteresting. Forgive me if I feel like rolling around in your bed for a bit :))

Diana - 9:14:55 am

Ha!

Diana - 9:14:55 am

Well it isn't made

Me - 9:19:54 am

I'll eat, then text when I'm leaving to come over.

Diana - 9:19:54 am

I still have t showered or eaten

Diana - 9:19:54 am

Neither have the kids!

Diana - 9:19:54 am

Just got off the phone

Diana - 9:19:54 am

I should have gone with Samsung but it wont sync with anything on my computers

Diana - 9:19:54 am

I'm so over apple

Me - 9:23:56 am

It's just a phone. It's just a thing to communicate and work with. It's good enough. And the upgrade is easy.

Me - 9:23:56 am

I'll come over and help soon. Don't hurry

Diana - 9:23:56 am

Yea but it apple still have an 8mp camera Samsung have 12

Diana - 9:23:56 am

It's a massive difference

Diana - 9:23:56 am

The upgrade really is a waste, nothing new

Diana - 9:23:56 am

Maybe I should have juts taken this phone to get fixed

Diana - 9:23:56 am

I get another free upgrade in 12 months

Diana - 9:23:56 am

The guy I was talking to said he'd rather go back to a tin can and string than get an apple, we had a big bitch about it

Diana - 9:23:56 am

I'll give this one to mum

Me - 9:23:56 am

Can you change to a different phone? The cheap upgrade is only for apple I guess

Diana - 9:23:56 am

She doesn't even have a phone

Diana - 9:23:56 am

I could change to Samsung but it won't apple propriet everything like images and music and won't convert it back to it works on the Samsung again

Diana - 9:23:56 am

It's really quite mean what they do!

Diana - 9:23:56 am

I'll just have to get my good camera out more :)

Me - 9:23:56 am

Yeah. Could be a good thing :)

Me - 9:57:52 am

Leaving to come to your place now

Diana - 6:24:58 pm

You know Sensai doesn't believe in using percentages to train? He says there are too many variables but to me they seem like a good guide to go by

Me - 6:24:58 pm

Yeah, I think percentages are a good guide. And it's only ranges of percentages.

Diana - 6:24:58 pm

I forgot to give you your containers

Me - 6:36:47 pm

I kept thinking today that I should put them in the car so I don't forget them.

Me - 6:36:47 pm

Thanks for today. It would not have been a good day for me to be on my own. Thank you for tolerating me.

Diana - 6:46:07 pm

It wasn't really pulling back was it

Diana - 6:46:07 pm

Are you going to let me get to know you as your friend and not your lover?

Diana - 6:46:07 pm

I like hanging out

Diana - 6:46:07 pm

And it's not at all tolerating

Diana - 6:46:07 pm

It's nice having you around

Diana - 6:46:07 pm

Although I felt very scared today and vomited as soon as you left

Me - 6:46:07 pm

I thought today was that. It wasn't? Why scared? You've got me worried now.

Me - 6:53:21 pm

Having me around makes you sick? That's not good.

Diana - 7:00:00 pm

No!!

Diana - 7:00:00 pm

Seriously don't turn it into that!

Me - 7:00:00 pm

Why scared?

Diana - 7:00:00 pm

I purge when I'm afraid

Diana - 7:02:08 pm

I guess I'm not sure what's going on

Diana - 7:02:08 pm

Scared, vulnerable

Diana - 7:02:08 pm

I really enjoy having you around

Diana - 7:02:08 pm

I found today hard purely because I was so tired

Diana - 7:02:08 pm

And we were in frankston ;)

Diana - 7:02:08 pm

So today was just us hanging out as friends?

Diana - 7:02:08 pm

For you?

Me - 7:02:08 pm

I thought so. Isn't everything supposed to be the same except not sleeping together? Have I got that completely wrong?

Me - 7:07:17 pm

I'm sorry that I make you feel scared and vulnerable. I thought this was supposed to fix that. It's the only reason we're not being lovers, isn't it?

Diana - 7:14:56 pm

What you think is right, I guess I just needed to make sure

Diana - 7:14:56 pm

Sorry I had to read bedtime stories

Diana - 7:14:56 pm

I could barely see the print!

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

I think it's juts a build up

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

I struggle when I come back from mums at my best

Me - 7:29:13 pm

So it's just too much happening in too short a time? You need extra time to process it all? I'm a little confused, but if you're ok with things then it's good. Are you ok?

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

Yes I'm good with things.

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

Are you ok with things?

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

Im actually excited to be hanging out with you

Me - 7:34:47 pm

I'm glad you're happy about things now, hopefully, you can get some good sleeps and we can see the non exhausted Diana :)

Diana - 7:34:47 pm

I think it was just the anxiety of the last few days, and being so tired. And I've been thinking about us so much I haven't processed mum.

Diana - 7:34:47 pm

Are you ok with how things are?

Diana - 7:34:47 pm

You know, the whole day I was just thinking that you were wishing you could get away from me and the kids

Diana - 7:34:47 pm

I think I was scared of that

Diana - 7:34:47 pm

That you were judging me for my parenting and my house and my lack of money and comparing it to what you had

Diana - 7:34:47 pm

it was really doing my head in

Diana - 7:34:47 pm

I'm sure it was all in my head

Diana - 7:34:47 pm

Cause when I looked at you you were being so kind and caring towards the kids it almost made me want to cry

Diana - 7:34:47 pm

You're such a beautiful person

Me - 7:42:01 pm

There was no judging, it never crossed my mind until you just said it now. I love being with you and your kids. And I was worried today that you were only tolerating me and really wanted to be alone but didn't know how to tell me to leave. But I didn't presume, I'm learning, I stayed until I thought it was a good time to leave.

Me - 7:42:01 pm

And am I ok with thjngs as they stand now?

Me - 7:42:01 pm

No. But I'll survive. This is better than having you stressed out and exhausted. I'll try to cope the best I can.

Diana - 7:42:01 pm

Ok, let's keep talking though

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

Keep talking about everything when we can

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

And if you hate it we will find something else to try

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

But you promised not to walk, remember?

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

Don't walk.

Me - 7:44:48 pm

Ok

Me - 8:36:14 pm

Goodnight beautiful woman. I'm exhausted, I'm turning in.

Diana - 8:54:52 pm

Ok goodnight

Diana - 8:54:52 pm

Sleep well

**Week Twelve**

**Monday 3 November**

Me - 8:15:56 am

Good morning. I hope you slept ok.

Me - 8:19:21 am

Are you really busy this afternoon? If you want to, I could spend it with you.

Me - 8:37:20 am

Somehow I wasn't your friend on Facebook. I don't know how that happened. I thought I was. Strange.

Diana - 8:37:20 am

Sorry it's a mad morning!

Diana - 8:37:20 am

I don't know about fb I thought we were too?

Diana - 8:37:20 am

I've just made an app for Joel this afternoon back to the docs

Diana - 8:37:20 am

Those sores on his face don't seem to be getting better, I think he needs another dose of antibiotics like Imogen did

Diana - 8:37:20 am

Otherwise she'll just catch it back off him

Diana - 8:37:20 am

Argh

Diana - 8:37:20 am

How did you sleep?

Me - 8:39:10 am

Want me to come with?

Me - 8:39:10 am

I slept well. Did you? 5:30 again?

Diana - 8:39:10 am

Yes I slept well, up early

Diana - 8:41:16 am

Didn't get off the phone until late but I feel ok

Me - 8:41:16 am

How was your cousin's scan result?

Diana - 8:41:16 am

Shit I forgot to ask!

Diana - 8:43:46 am

I think the kids and I should hang together today, I didn't have them Friday or Saturday and tomorrow Imogen is going back to her dads in the afternoon for his birthday. I wouldn't mind juts hanging with them

Diana - 8:43:46 am

Is that ok?

Diana - 8:43:46 am

How has your morning been? Is the gym quiet?

Diana - 8:43:46 am

I better run its nearly school time and I've got to get Joels stuff ready for his group

Me - 8:43:46 am

No problems about today. See you later

Me - 8:43:46 am

At home having a coffee before returning to the gym. Have a great day xx

Diana - 8:43:46 am

You too :)

Me - 8:43:46 am

Gym was empty this morning. About 6 people haha

Diana - 8:43:46 am

Sounds like heaven :)

Me - 8:48:52 am

Looks like Creatine, among other things, can also help with depression. Seems like it does lots of good things, not just increase energy levels. I'm going to start taking it again.

Me - 9:09:52 am

And don't forget to confirm online your dinner ticket. Only got until Wednesday to do it. I'll buy mine today.

Diana - 9:09:52 am

I saw that I had a quick glance I'll have a proper look later

Diana - 9:13:20 am

I got a ticket emailed to me, I just need to print it

Diana - 9:19:10 am

Are you at the gym? Can you pull out a reebok step before the pump class starts?

Diana - 9:19:10 am

I'm on my way but will be too late to get one

Diana - 9:19:10 am

Please??

Me - 9:19:10 am

I'm going now. Will do

Diana - 9:24:00 am

Cool thanks

Diana - 9:24:00 am

Im almost there

Me - 12:16:15 pm

Just finishing at the gym. Yes, one of THOSE sessions haha. I'm shaking all over. Don't know that my arms will have strengrh to hold the steering wheel :)

Me - 12:16:15 pm

Definitely going for a long run later. Great day outside!

Diana - 12:25:02 pm

What can I say?

Diana - 12:25:02 pm

It's not very healthy but I get it :)

Me - 12:39:40 pm

Although, now that I'm home, I'm having second thoughts :))

Diana - 12:44:06 pm

It certainly is a beautiful day

Diana - 12:44:06 pm

Maybe rest and enjoy it ;)

Me - 12:47:44 pm

I wish I knew how. It's a problem, I know. I find it hard to sit still for long on my own.

Me - 12:47:44 pm

They're noisily renovating across the lake again today. Sigh!

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

Well it's your first year without kids

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

It's bound to be hard

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

Big change

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

Escape through exercise is the healthiest :)

Me - 1:05:45 pm

Maybe, but I'm not convinced. I haven't had any real child responsibility for years. I've always "escaped through exercise", even running and triathlons was to escape horrible day time jobs. I think it's me now. It's how I am. I don't feel "right" unless I'm at least a bit physically tired.

Me - 1:05:45 pm

When are you paddling? Wind doesn't look too strong on the lake. But is SW.

Me - 1:12:04 pm

Just reading a recent study that finds that strength gain is increased if lifters "avoid maximal loading and sick to sub-maximal loads, staying shy of failure. This allows for greater training frequency, less injuries, and better recovery."

Diana - 1:16:32 pm

That seems to be the consensus Huh

Diana - 1:16:32 pm

I went down to dans and just had coffee

Diana - 1:16:32 pm

It was too chilly to paddle

Diana - 1:20:48 pm

I find it hard to be still also

Diana - 1:20:48 pm

that's why I think yoga will be a good discipline for me

Me - 1:23:29 pm

Yeah, being still but actually doing something :)

Me - 1:23:29 pm

Any idea when you're going to start doing classes there before your course starts?

Diana - 1:23:29 pm

And being i touch with the body but in a gentle way

Diana - 1:23:29 pm

I think I'll start next week

Diana - 1:23:29 pm

It's a bit hard as I only have Joel free days 2 days a week

Diana - 1:23:29 pm

There's no crèche obviously

Me - 1:23:29 pm

A local crèche maybe?

Me - 1:23:29 pm

A babysitter at home?

Diana - 1:27:31 pm

I can't really justify spending money to go

Diana - 1:27:31 pm

I'll have to figure out a lifting/yoga/Joel routine this week

Diana - 1:27:31 pm

Thursday and Friday he is in daycare but their Thursday yoga is pretty soft, still Might be worth me doing

Diana - 1:27:31 pm

And I'll have the weekends I work too

Me - 1:32:58 pm

8th. Becca is 11th. I told you you would be. Congratulations! Fucking awesome!!!

Diana - 1:35:44 pm

Wow! Really?

Diana - 1:35:44 pm

I forgot all about it again!

Diana - 1:37:52 pm

Wow champagne tonight at your place :))

Me - 1:37:52 pm

Well, not without you. It's your celebration :)

Me - 1:37:52 pm

I'd better get that ticket for the dinner eh?

Diana - 1:37:52 pm

Yes :)

Diana - 1:37:52 pm

Well I could come for champagne too :) with kids one glass and be ok to drive :))

Diana - 1:37:52 pm

I just got to docs

Diana - 1:37:52 pm

I'll check it out now

Me - 1:37:52 pm

Or I could come to yours with the champagne and leave the bottle for you to finish.

Diana - 1:50:40 pm

I'm not finishing the bottle!

Diana - 1:52:48 pm

I've put on a kilo just from eating badly over the weekend!

Diana - 1:52:48 pm

8th is the highest I've ever been right?

Diana - 1:52:48 pm

Can you tag me on the fb photo?

Me - 1:58:20 pm

Yeah, finished with your highest result

Me - 1:58:20 pm

I'll have a go at the FB tag

Diana - 1:58:20 pm

Maybe leave the champagne till the dinner

Diana - 1:58:20 pm

That's cool :)

Diana - 1:58:20 pm

I'm happy with that :)

Me - 2:02:00 pm

Ok. A quiet and separate celebration then is it?

Me - 2:02:00 pm

I tagged Becca and Hollie in the Instagram post, and added you in the FB post. At least I think I did. :)

Diana - 2:09:02 pm

You @ them, if you want to tag them or me you hold your finger on the image and can tag them on Insta

Diana - 2:09:02 pm

Ha nope

You didn't tag me you mentioned me in a photo, go to edit photo and you'll see a tag option

Diana - 2:09:02 pm

You can tag Anyone you like

Diana - 2:09:02 pm

I'll send you a tag request when I get home

Diana - 2:09:02 pm

Effin cream is $50 for Joels face stupid doctor could have given us $7 anti biotics

Me - 2:09:02 pm

I think I did it.

Diana - 2:09:02 pm

You mentioned me in a comment

Diana - 2:09:02 pm

That's not a tag

Me - 2:09:02 pm

Just now

Diana - 2:09:02 pm

Oh ok

Me - 2:15:24 pm

Just did the Instagram tags too

Diana - 2:15:24 pm

Maybe tag the gym too :)

Diana - 2:15:24 pm

Ah see you're a pro already ;)

Me - 2:19:16 pm

Ok. This makes sense now, why I never saw the photo of your mum and Joel on Facebook, while I did see it on Instagram. For some reason, we weren't "friends".

Me - 2:23:52 pm

It was only after I searched for you, found your profile that I liked the coffee and cake post. Nothing had appeared in my feed. Makes sense why now.

Me - 2:23:52 pm

So I've tagged you ok on Facebook?

Diana - 2:23:52 pm

Really?

Diana - 2:23:52 pm

That's weird cause you've liked all my other posts

Diana - 2:23:52 pm

Anyway I'll check in a sex

Diana - 2:23:52 pm

Zex

Diana - 2:23:52 pm

It's funny it's the one week I wasn't checking whether the scores came in every few minutes ;)

Me - 2:31:02 pm

Maybe, deep down, you had confidence that you'd do well. Or it was just the relief that it was over and you were already looking to the next thing :)

Me - 2:31:02 pm

I think I've only liked your coffee and cake post on Facebook. On Instagram I've liked them all. Instagram needs to allow likes to be posted to the Facebook post automatically. That would be cool.

Me - 2:31:02 pm

Walk to the post office to send off my accounting stuff. Then to think about a run or not.

Diana - 2:35:23 pm

I can't really post anything cause the official results don't come out until Thursday

Diana - 2:35:23 pm

That's so weird about fb I was sure you'd been liking the posts

Me - 2:47:00 pm

Yeah maybe stay cool until the results are official. But it's really exciting!! I'm excited for you, after all the effort you've put in.

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

Yep ok

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

And It's a good result but without having to do any more wows

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

You did say that only the top 5 in the state do the play off thing yeah?

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

I'm happy with that :)

Me - 2:47:00 pm

Those compression socks I ordered for you to try have arrived.

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

What?

Me - 2:47:00 pm

As far as I know it's only the top 5 get to do more stuff. Maybe check on the FFS web site, I'm not totally sure

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

I don't know what you're talking about? When did we say I would try them?

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

No I don't care. I don't want to do more!

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

The school say is nearly over already. I'm just home with shopping unpacked ready for a nap!

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

Coffee time I guess

Me - 2:47:00 pm

I thought they might help your sesamoid stuff. Tina sold me a pair and they're awesome. Worth a try I thought for you.

Me - 2:47:00 pm

But you needed a smaller size

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

Wow thanks very much!!

Me - 2:47:00 pm

Always thinking of you :)

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

Thank you

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

I really wasn't expecting to even try them

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

The kids want to do kidzfit

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

I want to sleep

Diana - 2:47:00 pm

Conundrum ;)

Me - 2:56:01 pm

Let me know if I can help

Diana - 3:05:08 pm

I don't want to go back to the gym!

Diana - 3:05:08 pm

I'm putting my foot down :)

Me - 3:05:08 pm

Haha. You tell them!! Show them who's boss. At least at the moment :))

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

Yea I don't think I can do much besides tell Imogen there isn't going to be any play dates and try to make something for dinner

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

Shame the wind has picked up

Me - 3:09:36 pm

It's not that strong here but it's the wrong direction for the beach.

Diana - 3:13:45 pm

It is a cold wind down the beach

Diana - 3:22:24 pm

Did you get a ticket for the dinner yet?

Me - 3:22:24 pm

About to head out on that run. A 2 scooper :)

Me - 3:22:24 pm

Oh no!

Me - 3:22:24 pm

I'll do it now

Me - 3:22:24 pm

Before running

Diana - 3:22:24 pm

You're really over doing it especially given how little you eat, I thought you were bulking?

Diana - 3:22:24 pm

Anyway enjoy :)

Diana - 3:22:24 pm

No champagne then?

Me - 3:22:24 pm

On my own? What's the point.

Diana - 3:28:07 pm

No with me!

Diana - 3:28:07 pm

I guess we should wait until Thursday though

Me - 3:30:18 pm

Ok. Got my ticket for the dinner

Me - 3:30:18 pm

We could celebrate on both nights of course. Tonight for initial notification of results and Thursday for confirmation of results :) But I thought you wanted me to stay away today and tomorrow? I'd love to come over.

Me - 3:35:33 pm

Ok. I heading out on the run. Let me know if you want to see me. I'll be back soon. I'm all yours, if you want.

Diana - 3:35:33 pm

I thought I could drop over to yours with the kids rather than you come here?

Diana - 3:35:33 pm

But go on your run, it's cool

Me - 3:35:33 pm

Want to come now? I'd have to go and get champagne.

Me - 3:35:33 pm

I can run tomorrow

Diana - 3:40:41 pm

It's cool

Diana - 3:40:41 pm

Sorry just had mums talking to me

Diana - 3:40:41 pm

Thuraday is fine

Diana - 3:40:41 pm

Go for a run

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

I feel really tired

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

I'm happy to stay home

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Kids are playing outside so I can start dinner and have a rest

Diana - 4:09:20 pm

Are you ok?

Diana - 4:09:20 pm

You just disappearred

Diana - 4:15:44 pm

Guess you went for a run

Diana - 4:15:44 pm

Have a good night mark

Me - 4:40:13 pm

Just got back from the run. I went as soon as you said "go for a run". Are you ok?

Me - 4:43:49 pm

Do you want me to come over for a bit? You're not answering your phone.

Diana - 4:43:49 pm

I'm on the phone

Diana - 4:43:49 pm

I'm fine

Me - 4:43:49 pm

Sorry

Diana - 4:43:49 pm

Hope you're run was good

Me - 4:43:49 pm

Offer still stands, if you want. The run was great, but pretty tired by the end haha

Diana - 4:43:49 pm

What offer?

Me - 4:43:49 pm

To come over, if you want

Diana - 4:43:49 pm

It's too late now

Diana - 4:43:49 pm

I've started dinner

Me - 4:43:49 pm

Ok

Diana - 4:43:49 pm

I'll catch you Wednesday

Me - 4:43:49 pm

Ok see you then

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

You know really instead of always saying you would come here you could invite the kids and I over, I had to suggest that, I had to suggest celebrating, and all you fucking wanted to do was run.

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

You really are totally addicted to avoiding any emotion. Thanks very much for the post, that's a great public display of your coaching

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

The only professional act you've done

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

And I worked my butt off and you still think it's worth nothing

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

Anyway thanks, thanks for all your coaching.

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

Obviously it only means something to me, and I've placed way too much importance on myself

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

Again.

Diana - 4:58:20 pm

I will Learn eventually

Me - 5:02:11 pm

I'm finally getting close to really understanding Diana. Really close. I won't react anymore, I know where it's coming from. And it's coming from affection and vulnerability and fear and confusion.

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

No Mark, there's real stuff in there

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

Don't give yourself a psychology degree

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

And don't be so fucking condescending

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

You're not really as smart as you think you are

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

It just would have been nice if me coming 8th had of meant some thing to you also, and you thought it worth celebrating

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

More fool me to think that the case

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

But don't get on a pseudo spiritual high ground of 'finally understanding' because it's really quite simple

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

I wanted to mean enough to you to want to celebrate

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

But it just became about you wanting to be in my space again and when it couldn't be that all you could think of was to run

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

And so once again you've actually missed the mark, not come close to finally understanding Diana.

Diana - 5:12:19 pm

You even forgot

To get a ticket to the fucking dinner until I reminded you

Diana - 5:12:19 pm

You're the one who is supposed to care and show interest

Diana - 5:12:19 pm

Anyway like I said more the fool me

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

Nice tactic

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

I feel hurt and express myself and you disappear

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

Well done

Diana - 6:00:16 pm

You really sorted me out

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

Obviously

Not even a friendship is going to work for us

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

I'm sorry I called

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

I will walk away and leave you be

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

I'll find a way to give you your money back too

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

Then you can have a clean start and I can have a clean slate

Diana - 6:18:44 pm

And I'm sure we can go to the dinner as adults and respectfully ignore eachother

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

Certainly finished the wows with a bang

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

And well done on not giving a fuck.

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

You really do know how to switch off

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

Kudos to you

Diana - 6:20:46 pm

They say depression is anger turned inward

Diana - 6:20:54 pm

Maybe you should look into that

Diana - 6:21:36 pm

I can't believe you're ignoring me

Diana - 6:21:36 pm

It hurts so much

Diana - 6:21:36 pm

I think It's going to make me hate you

Me - 6:23:51 pm

You're right. A friendship is not going to work because it isn't one. I thought being friends would stop these heart wrenching texts. They're something you need to own, which you don't, and stop them before you spiral and say really nasty things. I don't believe you mean them, although you do at the time you send them. We're more than friends, that's obvious now. We need to sort this out. It can't go on like this. I want all in, but these hurtful conversations have to stop.

Diana - 6:23:44 pm

Hang up on me to send a text? Seriously? Why can't you just say it??

**Tuesday 4 November**

Me - 3:58:15 pm

Are you ok? I know no texts, but I've left 2 phone messages and have heard nothing.

Diana - 5:17:36 pm

I know no texts but I'm stuffed, my head is killing me, I've already fallen asleep so I'm just going to crash when Joel does. Can we postpone the massage?

Me - 5:19:17 pm

Of course. Sleep well. I'll see you tomorrow.

Diana - 5:19:44 pm

Thanks. This is my third lot of panadeine poor Joel is getting noddles for dinner

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Not even noodles! Haha

Diana - 5:19:44 pm

Oh dear. Poor kid :/

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

Hey I just had a look at the scores properly and I came 5th yet scored 1 point higher than the woman who got 4th

Diana - 6:47:12 pm

Sorry about that, I guess that's what drinking cider during the day does to me, wants me to give away my position in the top 8 ;)

Me - 6:49:11 pm

It looks fixed Diana. It's no problem asking me, I'm here to help.

**Wednesday 5 November**

Diana - 8:22:16 am

Hi how are you this morning? Are we still ok for 1030 this morning?

Me - 8:23:28 am

I'm ok, thanks. I'll be in the gym at 10:30. How are you?

Diana - 8:32:44 am

I'm good, I feel constantly tired not sure why. I need to start eating well again, more nutritious foods and put more effort in

Diana - 8:32:48 am

Check out this video on YouTube:

http://youtu.be/cXFLOJPkAYA

Diana - 8:32:48 am

This is good I've only listened to a few minutes in between kids though

Diana - 8:34:13 am

Oh and I finally folded that washing :)

Me - 8:35:09 am

Ah, well, then, all's right with the world then :))

Diana - 8:35:58 am

Well it atleast makes room for the next lot

Diana - 8:36:24 am

Anyway enough texting!

Me - 8:36:27 am

And on a food note, I've put on over a kg in the last few days. Yay! Bulking. I'm eating the casein and training lots. Seems to work

Diana - 8:36:28 am

See you later :)

Me - 8:36:36 am

Ok see you later

Diana - 8:36:39 am

That's great!

Diana - 8:36:43 am

So have I!

Diana - 8:36:47 am

Just from eating crap ;)

Me - 8:50:51 am

Somehow on Instagram, I was no longer following you and now it won't let me. Keeps reverting to not following. You haven't blocked me have you? I can't see any of your posts, it says you don't have any posts at all.

Diana - 11:57:36 am

We just waved as we passed your house :) another birthday present to shop for!

Diana - 11:57:36 am

Not sure what's happening on Instagram but dan said the same thing so just reloaded the app

Me - 12:00:14 pm

Thanks for the wave. Somehow, I missed it :))

Diana - 12:01:29 pm

Are you ok?

Me - 12:02:24 pm

Fine, except haven't seen you for a bit :)

Diana - 12:04:37 pm

You just saw me at the gym

Diana - 12:04:45 pm

I'm glad you're well

Diana - 12:04:56 pm

And I know we're not supposed to be texting sorry

Me - 12:05:44 pm

Pfft. Gym isn't seeing you :)

Me - 12:19:00 pm

I miss the intimacy of texting with you and if I'm not texting, I'm thinking of you too much. But the angry conversations caused by stuff I've done, without knowing I've done it most times, make texting problematic. Do you think? It takes me more than a day after those episodes to be able to fully concentrate on normal things. And I know they affect you as well.

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

Yes

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

But it seems really hard to find a balance

Diana - 12:25:20 pm

I guess this is working better, yes

Diana - 12:30:01 pm

Shopping done :)

Diana - 12:30:07 pm

I'm getting good at this :)

Me - 12:33:49 pm

You're getting quicker. Which is better. Getting out of those places is the aim. I really don't understand those people who love shopping for shopping's sake. I wasted every Friday night for years (it felt like an eternity) tagging along to some mall or some place to "shop". I still shudder at those wasted hours :)

Diana - 12:35:00 pm

Alright well I guess it's time to stop texting

Diana - 12:35:03 pm

Have a good afternoon

Diana - 12:36:27 pm

Thanks for your time this morning

Me - 12:37:03 pm

Glad I could help.

Me - 12:38:13 pm

Have a good afternoon. Looks like it's going to be a fine one.

Diana - 12:41:49 pm

I'm still no good at it

Diana - 12:42:03 pm

We drove past and you didn't ask us in for coffee and I didn't want to ask

Diana - 12:42:11 pm

You really shut people out

Diana - 12:42:20 pm

And I don't know how to be included

Diana - 12:42:24 pm

Maybe a friendship is too hard too?

Me - 12:44:00 pm

How could I have possibly shut you out? I didn't know where you were driving to and from? You've just got to ask Diana.

Diana - 12:48:48 pm

I guess if you knew we were driving past and you said you were ok apart from not having seen me I would think you would ask

Diana - 12:48:48 pm

But yes it's my fault for not asking

Diana - 12:48:48 pm

Oh well done now

Diana - 12:53:04 pm

Next time I'll ask :)

Me - 12:55:25 pm

You're right, I think, about the friendship but you're looking at it from the wrong direction. A "simple" friendship won't work, it will never be enough because we will always be more than that. Please don't throw this away. When you're not quite as tired, or you feel up to it, let's have one more "talk" and then get back to having a great time together.

Diana - 12:55:12 pm

Just tell me though, why you didn't ask us over? Why you just said I'm going at the gym? With no interest in spending time together?

Diana - 12:57:11 pm

It just seems so hot and cold

Me - 1:11:31 pm

You're not going to be rejected by me, if you ask. I thought I'd proved that last week with the Chinese Doctor. I cancelled everything to be with you.

Diana - 1:12:16 pm

I know

Diana - 1:12:16 pm

It's my fault

Diana - 1:12:16 pm

I should just say I want to hang out for a bit

Diana - 1:13:06 pm

It was awkward for me at the gym

Diana - 1:13:15 pm

I'm just unpacking

Me - 1:13:17 pm

Yeah, the gym is hard

Me - 1:14:27 pm

Do you want to bring Joel over here later this arvo? I have to go back to the gym soon but I'll be finished at 4pm. I could organize some dinner

Diana - 1:48:32 pm

Hi I meant ask, do you want to do the 8 week challenge? Give us a real focus and goal around nutrition?

Me - 2:04:06 pm

I'd have to think about it for me. But it might be an ok thing for you. Having a schedule on your eating.

Me - 2:04:15 pm

Are you going to do it?

Me - 2:04:36 pm

There's literally 6 people training in the gym. I counted :)

Diana - 2:05:00 pm

It was so quiet this morning too

Diana - 2:05:13 pm

Maybe everyone is recovering from yesterday

Diana - 2:05:36 pm

What are those discs called?

Diana - 2:05:36 pm

Slider disc?

Diana - 2:05:51 pm

They have them for $25 at Hallam

Diana - 2:06:04 pm

They have bulking health challenge too no?

Me - 2:13:48 pm

There's lots of different sliders. I've even seen on the internet guys using ordinary furniture sliders

Diana - 2:14:08 pm

I'm just looking for a name to search on the website

Diana - 2:14:08 pm

Sliders doesn't come up with anything

Diana - 2:14:08 pm

You have to buy something with the challenge?

Me - 2:14:45 pm

Super sliders. That's these ones

Me - 2:15:18 pm

About to begin massage. She was late. Sigh!

Diana - 2:15:34 pm

Cool

Diana - 2:15:38 pm

Have fun

Diana - 3:10:35 pm

No gym friday morning

Diana - 3:10:55 pm

I have to go to the langwarein office to see steve because I've been asked to go into work early

Diana - 3:11:16 pm

I'll go see steve then hopefully be able to work out for a bit before heading in

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

You know, in regards to the massage, I really don't care now we are just friends, please don't feel like you have to hide it from me ok?

Diana - 3:58:17 pm

I just totally lost my shit with the kids. :( I know they'll forgive me but it sucks. I want to run away from them!

Me - 4:17:10 pm

You're allowed to lose your shit, but I know exactly how you feel afterwards. It's a horrible hollow, drained feeling. But your kids know how how much you love them, it's fine. My kids turned out ok, and I lost it with them from time to time :)

Me - 4:17:33 pm

Just got back home from the gym. Still sitting in the car in the garage :)

Me - 4:18:42 pm

As far as Friday goes, just let me know if or when you have time and I'll do my best to fit in with your schedule.

Diana - 4:21:22 pm

I hope the car is turned off ;)

Diana - 4:21:50 pm

It's cool, I can do the program on my own at the gym.

Me - 4:22:27 pm

Yep. Car is off but it's getting hot in here haha. I'll go inside :)

Me - 4:25:16 pm

A quiet evening of "force feeding" coming up :)

Diana - 4:25:33 pm

Force feeding?

Diana - 4:25:56 pm

I am struggling with these kids!

Me - 4:26:01 pm

Eating when not hungry

Me - 4:26:08 pm

Problems?

Me - 4:26:15 pm

At karate?

Diana - 4:26:18 pm

I just mean I'm sure you don't want to spend all day at the gym, and I am happy to work out on my own

Diana - 4:26:24 pm

How did the massage go?

Diana - 4:26:24 pm

I just have bad headaches and they are tired and demanding

Me - 4:27:26 pm

Massage was surprisingly good. She seemed to think it was ok. She booked a paying one for next week. She does cross fit and has a comp that weekend.

Diana - 4:28:18 pm

That's good news

Diana - 4:28:29 pm

What kind of comp?

Me - 4:28:33 pm

Just ask me about Friday! Don't try and make it easy for me. If I can, I'll help

Me - 4:28:39 pm

A cross fit comp

Diana - 4:28:32 pm

I think it'd be good to work out on my own

Diana - 4:28:32 pm

There's a zillion kids and adults here and the noise is deafening

Me - 4:30:19 pm

Not good for a headache. And Imogen is complaining in full voice I assume? :)

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

She isn't complaining at all now I lost it with her

Me - 4:30:42 pm

I feel bad that it's so quiet here and you're having a hard time

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

You don't need to feel bad!

Me - 4:31:06 pm

It seems unfair

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

It's funny though you want the action and I want the quiet

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

You know, I'm happy the massage went well for you

Me - 4:31:28 pm

Thanks

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

It's something you've looked forward to doing

Me - 4:31:46 pm

Still doubt I'll continue

Me - 4:31:58 pm

You can't do it with only one client

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

And it's put the nail in the coffin for us in all regards except for friendship so it's clarified for me what I want. I think it's all win win

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

And if you want to take the kids and give them dinner you're welcome to :))

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

Happy to swap!

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

;))

Diana - 4:32:41 pm

You'll get more clients

Me - 4:32:48 pm

If the nail is in the coffin, then there's a problem for me.

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

Especially If she recommends you through crossfit

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

Crossfit have heaps of injuries so the saying goes :))

Diana - 4:34:43 pm

Can I get them takeaway?

Diana - 4:34:48 pm

Argh it's too slack

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

Why don't they have drive through home cooked meals??

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

Where you can drive through and pick up freshly roasted vegetables

Me - 4:35:32 pm

Probably have that in the USA.

Me - 4:35:45 pm

They have some really healthy take away stuff

Me - 4:35:56 pm

But nothing like that here

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

Nope, there is one shop but it's in Ormond

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

Believe me I've looked :)

Me - 4:41:13 pm

It's not "win win". It's you win, I lose. And "just friends"? Sorry, I don't think so. I can't do that. The last few days have proved that to me, while the opposite seems to have been proved to you. I know, not a good time, it never is, and, again, via text. Sorry, but I couldn't leave it unsaid until Saturday or whenever we get to see each other again. I'm sorry.

Diana - 4:47:30 pm

So what are you saying?

Diana - 4:47:39 pm

If it can't be a sexual relationship you want nothing at all?

Me - 5:02:16 pm

I don't love my friends in this way. And sex is a necessary part of this kind of love. So, yes.

Diana - 5:10:33 pm

Ok. Well I guess you've given me an ultimatum. Can we just go to the dinner together and then that be it? Do you think you can do that? Or do you want to walk away now

Me - 5:13:15 pm

Let me think about it

Diana - 5:16:21 pm

You know I was thinking, the whole time I knew I just didn't have it in me to be in a relationship, and the jealousy stuff was a way to keep a boundary by being angry. It's just not my time to be in a relationship, and I knew it and tried to go against it and in that process fucked you around. I didn't mean to, I wanted to be in a place i am not because I didn't want to let you go, you're the best person I've met in so long, and so I went against what I knew to be the truth to try to be with you. I am sorry I fucked up, I never meant to stuff you around.

Diana - 5:16:41 pm

I hate we are doing this by text but then perhaps it's the best way.

Diana - 5:17:12 pm

Let me know about the dinner, I'll respect what you decide either way and won't contact you before I hear from you.

Me - 5:21:22 pm

It can't be that Diana. You were in a long-ish relationship with Dan and the kids were babies. That would have much harder to maintain and yet you did for something like 18 months. And that was recently. It's something about me that repels you, I wish I knew what it was so I could fix it. I love you like I can't remember being in love before and being "just friends" would destroy me, eventually.

Me - 5:23:51 pm

Breaking with you will also destroy me, maybe just a little less in the long term.

Diana - 5:27:35 pm

I always had one foot in and one foot out with dan also, and knew it wasn't right and we both took it too far and hurt eachother trying to make it work when we knew it wouldn't. We broke up and got back together so many times in that period it was quite ridiculous. With us, the age is my only issue and it plays on me consistently. And yes, what I did say is true. It's really not my time and I know it in my gut. I just need to get Joel in school, that's my next task. And I feel like I can't do much more than focus on that until then.

Diana - 5:28:16 pm

I don't want to do abut in to destroy you, though I'm fairly sure I won't have that affect. I want you to do what you need to do. I wish it didn't have to be black and white but I don't want to do anything that is going to hurt you. I really wish I could be what you want me to be. Im sorry.

Diana - 5:30:24 pm

I can't be more than friends. I mean for a short period or a night or two I could, but eventually my stomach would churn and I would know it wasn't the right thing to do. I don't want to let you go and I wonder if I am a stone and will remain like this forever and the idea terrifies me but I can't shake it.

Diana - 5:30:24 pm

Ok I'm babbling

Diana - 5:30:24 pm

Sorry

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

And in all seriousness what do I do about the money? You've given me so much and I've given you nothing. It's karmic ally fucked and I need to repay you

Me - 5:36:28 pm

I'm sorry, but I really don't understand. Deep down, it doesn't make sense to me. To have someone in love with you, and say you love them but throw it away because you're worried and terrified. That's pretty normal! The only thing missing is a willingness to work at the things that terrify you and, eventually, overcome them.

Diana - 5:36:34 pm

I will find a way, I won't be able to do it straight away but I'll find a way ok?

Me - 5:37:46 pm

The money was a gift freely given! It would be extremely rude to give it back. Pay it on to someone else, not in money but what you do have to give.

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

I do love you, but I'm not in love with you. I don't think I've been in love with anyone since I was 19. And hence I wonder if I am made of stone because apart from the age thing, you really are perfect.

Me - 5:38:22 pm

What's the difference?

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

Seriously Mark, it's not ok for me to take your money. I will sort it out.

Me - 5:38:52 pm

If you return it, I will re return it. Pass the kindness on to others!!

Diana - 5:38:56 pm

The difference is someone who is ready for it and someone who isn't. That's the only thing I believe.

Diana - 5:38:56 pm

I don't feel like I have anything to pass on to others

Diana - 5:38:56 pm

I feel empty

Me - 5:40:17 pm

That's crap. You just don't want to believe you're ready.

Me - 5:41:38 pm

Still, you can't talk someone into love. If you really believe it then it will always be true.

Me - 5:41:57 pm

And.... Multi tasking. It can be done :)

Me - 5:42:31 pm

You just need help with the little things that are overwhelming you.

Diana - 5:44:12 pm

What can I do when I tell you how I feel and you tell me it's crap?

Me - 5:51:21 pm

I think it's mistaken. You've talked yourself into it. That's what I mean by, crap. I don't want to you to regret this decision. I think we'd mostly be the best of friends even as lovers. We have something that's a lot more than either of those things. I've shown I have the patience for you, I really expected you to make use of me.

Diana - 5:53:19 pm

Make use of you?

Diana - 5:53:23 pm

That sounds terrible

Me - 5:53:28 pm

And there is no "instant karma". You'll eventually find someone worthy to receive whatever it is you have to offer them at the time

Diana - 5:53:50 pm

You can't be serious?

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

You want me to use you and then move on?

Me - 5:54:13 pm

No, of course not!!

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

You're willing to go through that yet not be my friend?

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

Oh god now you've got me in tears

Me - 5:54:31 pm

Use me so we can move on.

Me - 5:54:39 pm

I'm sorry

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

I'm sorry I have to feed the kids

Diana - 5:54:56 pm

Can we keep Talking later?

Me - 5:55:06 pm

Yes

Diana - 5:55:25 pm

What do you mean by I'll eventually find someone then if you don't think I'll move on?

Diana - 5:55:35 pm

Sorry I better feed them they're hungry and waiting for me

Me - 5:55:55 pm

I'll just keep texting,you can read them later :))

Me - 6:01:22 pm

In a perhaps odd way, I'm really going to miss this texting. It's so incredibly intimate, it's like we're standing naked in front of each other telling each other all our thoughts and worries and fears. It is one of the coolest things I've ever done. And I've missed that intimacy the last few days. That's what decided me, I can't be casual and occasional with you. I miss you as soon as you're gone. That's not friendship, although it's built on a wide base of friendship.

Me - 6:03:02 pm

I really wish I could convince you. I feel the inadequacy of words. Sometimes I think when we're silently hugging that doing that in itself is enough to convince you.

Me - 6:03:31 pm

Don't answer, do the kids :)) I'll just keep rambling on.

Me - 6:06:35 pm

I really want to understand what it is that's causing this fear now. And I'm worried that, really, November is not much different to March. And after that date, you'll find some other important landmark in the kids lives to wait for, until you feel "ready".

Me - 6:08:51 pm

I'm cool with slow. It doesn't have to be all in by Friday :) There's a trust issue to be sorted out with being involved with the kids, and that can only come about through time. There's alone time, but that's not an issue because we both understand the need for that, and that wanting to be alone doesn't mean you no longer love someone.

Me - 6:11:27 pm

My thoughts are we work towards March, and when you're "ready". I'll stop doing the things that worry you (eg massage and even one on one PT) and we can talk through the times you feel vulnerable and worried. You've finally got someone who can bear the brunt of your anger, that's what I mean by "use me".

Diana - 6:13:15 pm

Maybe you're right

Me - 6:13:17 pm

You've sworn at me so many times. Really nasty some of them, and yet, here I am still wanting to be with you. I know you don't understand that, but it's a fact.

Diana - 6:13:21 pm

I'll find another excuse come March

Diana - 6:13:38 pm

But I can't be in this with you now

Me - 6:13:45 pm

So, don't run away

Diana - 6:13:48 pm

And the massage and pt stuff is who you are

Diana - 6:13:58 pm

So don't even say you'll stop that for me

Diana - 6:14:33 pm

I can't do it, I keep saying it and you keep persuading me otherwise and then I end up swearing at you and treating you badly

Diana - 6:14:38 pm

Don't you see?

Diana - 6:15:02 pm

I've just told you what I'm capable of and then you've told me that's crap and sorted a solution that suits you

Diana - 6:15:08 pm

And the same pattern will repeat

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

I'll treat you badly

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

And eventually wear you out

Diana - 6:15:31 pm

I can only offer friendship

Diana - 6:15:39 pm

With no long term goal of being together

Diana - 6:15:44 pm

That's the best I can do

Diana - 6:15:52 pm

I need you to hear me this time

Diana - 6:15:56 pm

I really do

Diana - 6:16:14 pm

It's so hard not being heard unless I'm yelling abuse

Diana - 6:16:21 pm

There's the age thing

Diana - 6:16:29 pm

There's the massage and touch thing

Diana - 6:16:38 pm

There's the timing thing

Diana - 6:16:40 pm

The big one

Diana - 6:16:54 pm

Cause if the timing was right the age and massage would be workable

Diana - 6:17:02 pm

I don't want to lose you

Diana - 6:17:10 pm

As a friend I can keep you

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

Any more than that and I will sabotage it to extinction

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

Yes our hugs are amazing

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

They feel safe and warm and so loving

Diana - 6:17:55 pm

I don't know what that means

Diana - 6:18:01 pm

And maybe you're right

Diana - 6:18:15 pm

Maybe I'm throwing away something I'll never have again

Diana - 6:18:26 pm

But all I know, is right now I don't have it in me

Diana - 6:18:33 pm

And I'm going to go under trying

Diana - 6:18:46 pm

I really fucking hope you can be my friend

Diana - 6:18:56 pm

And not punish me for not being able to do more

Diana - 6:19:18 pm

Though that's not what it is you say it's self preservation and I will respect that

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

I don't want you gone from my life

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

And I don't want to be in a sexual relationship

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

They are the only two things I know

Diana - 7:45:05 pm

So... You want me to disappear? Until you're ready?

Me - 7:45:54 pm

Ready for what? Aren't you the one not ready?

Diana - 7:46:21 pm

Ready to tell me whether you want to have a friendship or nothing

Diana - 7:46:33 pm

Or have you made up your mind?

Diana - 7:46:49 pm

If you want me to I will disappear

Diana - 7:47:13 pm

I'd like to go to the dinner with you but if you're not going I won't go either

Diana - 7:47:27 pm

I'd feel stupid I don't know anyone and we really did it together

Diana - 7:47:39 pm

And at the end of the day I guess it's not that important really

Diana - 7:48:04 pm

Let me know and I will respect what you say

Me - 7:50:40 pm

I can't think straight at the moment. I'm too distraught. I can hardly type my hands are shaking. I hate this feeling, but I always seem to end up like this. The rejection is killing me, and even as friends I've still been rejected.

Diana - 7:55:12 pm

What do you mean even as friends?

Diana - 7:55:16 pm

That's not the truth

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

You were talking about working towards more, and I said I can't do more

Me - 7:56:09 pm

And that's rejection...

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

I've said over and over I don't want to lose you from my life, you're the one putting the ultimatum of it being sexual or not at all

Diana - 7:56:17 pm

You said you can't do it

Diana - 7:56:22 pm

Can't be my friend s

Diana - 7:56:30 pm

You said relationship or nothing

Diana - 7:56:40 pm

You couldn't even wait util we were face to face to say it

Diana - 7:56:47 pm

So don't twist things mark.

Diana - 7:56:57 pm

If you don't want a friendship then own it

Diana - 7:57:05 pm

Don't say I'm rejecting you

Diana - 7:57:25 pm

I will say it again I want you in my life but I can't be in a relationship

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

You said you don't want friendship

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

You're rejecting me as a friend

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

Don't turn in around please

Me - 7:58:03 pm

And that's a rejection. You need to own stuff too.

Me - 7:58:28 pm

We're both making ultimatums

Diana - 7:58:34 pm

I feel like I have. I've owned I can't be in a relationship

Diana - 7:58:40 pm

I'm not making an ultimatum

Diana - 7:58:48 pm

I'm telling you my truth

Me - 7:58:54 pm

As am I

Diana - 7:59:14 pm

I have owned I've mistreated you in order to put up a boundary and used anger to do that

Diana - 7:59:29 pm

I've owned I knew all along I wasn't wanting to be in a relationship

Diana - 7:59:39 pm

I've owned I treated you badly to try to create distance

Me - 7:59:41 pm

You can't be in a relationship but can be in a friendship. I can't be in a friendship but can be in a relRionship.

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

I've owned I can't go on like that

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Ok then I guess we have our answer

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Tell me what you want me to do and I will do it

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Unfriend you?

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Ignore you at the gym?

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Act like we don't know each other

Diana - 8:00:52 pm

Tell me, and I'll do whatever you want

Me - 8:02:33 pm

I don't know

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

Ok well you can email me maybe when you do so its more comfortable at the gym etc. I'll try not to come when you're there but often I'll have no choice. Other than that I will respect your wishes and stay away.

**Thursday 6 November**

Me - 6:52:49 am

I'd like to take you through the exercises in the rest of your program. It's a good program that could see you through to Xmas. Today or tomorrow would be best. Let me know what time you can be at the gym and I'll make sure I'm there.

Me - 7:39:11 am

I'm sorry. I can't not see you. I really love hanging out with you, we get on so well when we're not arguing :) If you can forgive me let me know and we can figure out something that works.

Diana - 8:05:04 am

There's nothing to forgive. I think though that we should have a few days to process everything. Well that's what I need. My head is spinning.

Diana - 8:05:04 am

I don't know really what to do.

Me - 8:09:14 am

Ok. I'll respect the few days off.

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

Hi, I think the time apart is good for us but I just want you to know I hope you're doing well and having a good day.

Me - 4:44:39 pm

Thanks for the thoughts. Yeah, pretty good day. Really, really hard training session this morning after a client session. Then birthday shopping for my mother, then more upper body training instead of going for a run :)) Relaxing at the moment (because I can't move haha) and thinking of a sunset river walk. So, as usual, escape through exercise haha. And you're ok? I hope your "play" session was fun :)

Diana - 4:47:30 pm

Yea it was fun, and the gym was beautifully quiet. Just chilling out before heading out to dinner. I'm glad you're well.

Me - 7:58:05 pm

Good news for you. Just spoke to my son and he was at Tina the Osteo today. He was asked if he knew you, said yes, and they said they'd move you close to the top of the cancellation waiting list. Just thought I'd share it with you. It's always who you know, right? :) Sorry to interrupt your evening.

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

Oh wow really?

Diana - 8:08:32 pm

I feel bad about that!

Diana - 8:08:39 pm

I'm about to leave

Diana - 8:08:49 pm

I've eaten too much bread and bad french food

Me - 8:10:38 pm

I'm walking along the river (along with a million bugs), otherwise I would have fallen asleep at home :))

Diana - 8:25:20 pm

We are now going for cake :(

**Friday 7 November**

Me - 12:25:42 pm

You look really tired. Are you ok?

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

You ask now I've left? After yelling at me that j only came in for a warm up?

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

Yep I'm fine

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

Just saw steve and yeah I am really tired

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

He said my body would be exhausted after pushing for personal bests for 12 weeks

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

He is right

Diana - 1:17:09 pm

Why would you ask how I am and then not respond.

Diana - 1:17:22 pm

I think it might be best if we cut ties all together.

Diana - 1:17:47 pm

I won't go see Tina, we have no other ties, you've said you're already not going to the dinner.

Me - 1:20:45 pm

I have only got home now after training my very occasional Indian guy. He arrived just after I sent that text. I couldn't respond, and I couldn't even check if you'd responded

Me - 1:21:08 pm

I was intending going to the dinner.

Me - 1:21:23 pm

I don't know where you got the impression i was "yelling at you".

Me - 1:21:48 pm

And I'm really interested to mnow what Steve said about your shoulder

Diana - 1:21:47 pm

Then why send a text to begin with if you don't have time to reply

Diana - 1:21:58 pm

You said you weren't going to the dinner

Diana - 1:22:06 pm

Don't worry about what steve said

Me - 1:22:11 pm

He walked in as I sent it

Diana - 1:22:11 pm

This is all too hard

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

But my point is you were expecting him. So you asked a question seconds before that, knowing you'd be too busy to reply or read it. You, after all your issues with texting.

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

Why begin a conversation when you're about to start another with someone else?

Diana - 1:22:56 pm

My shoulder will be fine.

Me - 1:25:07 pm

Do you want to go to the dinner? I'd like to go with you.

Me - 1:26:59 pm

Also, he was early.

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

Im not interested in smart arse voice mail messages or texts

Diana - 1:30:48 pm

You go to the dinner

Diana - 1:30:53 pm

I won't go

Diana - 1:30:56 pm

Goodbye Mark

Me - 1:31:05 pm

Goodbye

Diana - 1:31:28 pm

And it seems even though I've changed time I can't get to the gym without you being there

Diana - 1:31:28 pm

As soon as March hits I'll join a new one

Diana - 1:31:28 pm

Oh and fuck you.

Me - 1:35:06 pm

Don't bother. I'm going back now to quit. The gym is all yours. Oh and really nice language Diana.

Diana - 1:35:44 pm

Sure you are.

Diana - 1:35:44 pm

And get over it.

Diana - 1:40:00 pm

We really spiralled into hating eachother didn't we

Diana - 1:59:12 pm

Well yes we did Diana, it's quite a shame.. 'Said in male Mark voice

Me - 2:05:29 pm

There's no hate on this side Diana. It's only coming from you

Diana - 2:05:36 pm

No hate just feels awful

Me - 2:06:22 pm

It's all done. The gym is yours. There's no need for us to ever see each other again, if that's really what you want.

Diana - 2:07:44 pm

What do you mean it's all done

Diana - 2:07:44 pm

What are you talking another

Diana - 2:07:44 pm

About

Diana - 2:09:52 pm

Listen if you've quit, it's got nothing to do with me. It's something you've decided is what you want anyway, else you wouldn't have done it.

Diana - 2:09:52 pm

I know you wouldn't throw something you believed was good for you away

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

Are they begging you to stay?

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

Is that what you need?

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

You already know you're a good coach

Me - 3:29:39 pm

Low tide is at 7am but it's a "high" low tide. Probably need to get there after 9am. Low tide in at 6:26 tonight, so no afternoon surf. I'd love you to come tomorrow. And we could walk (bushranger's bay maybe?) and maybe see a movie later. All or some of the above could be done together. I have no plans for the weekend until lunch on Sunday with my mother (she's too busy socially on her birthday on

Monday to see me haha. I think that's awesome).

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

The morning sounds good

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

I'm just going to grab a coffee

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

To take with panadeine

Me - 3:34:16 pm

Well, listen to the advice. My massage table is back home now. Let me give you a massage this weekend!

Diana - 3:49:43 pm

What are lats

Diana - 3:50:03 pm

And what is a lat spread?

Diana - 3:50:34 pm

Did you take your massage stuff home from the gym?

Me - 3:59:35 pm

Yes, massage stuff is at home now

Me - 4:00:37 pm

Latiisimus Dorsi. Big muscle from your arms, scapula's and down your back

Me - 4:00:58 pm

Don't know what a lat spread is.

Me - 4:01:49 pm

What is it about lats?

Me - 4:02:31 pm

Walking down the street to buy a birthday card and, probably, some "bulking" wine :))

Diana - 4:19:34 pm

It's a sign!!!

Diana - 4:19:53 pm

Will you have a drink with your mum?

Diana - 4:20:00 pm

I don't know, the only other guy who bulks here told me to do a lat spread

Me - 4:20:18 pm

No, she doesn't drink at all

Diana - 4:20:31 pm

We have Mary and Jenny coming into the studio to discuss child abuse

Me - 4:20:36 pm

Wine is just for me

Diana - 4:21:03 pm

Do you know the incidents reported on babies and toddlers under 1 has increased 47% since funding has been cut!

Diana - 4:21:13 pm

Oh it's going to be an intense debate tonight

Diana - 4:21:23 pm

I just got out of the studio, ready to watch

Diana - 4:21:44 pm

You know you'd be a great foster carer and they are desperate for people

Me - 4:21:49 pm

That's horrible! I didn't know. And I guess that's only the reported stuff too

Me - 4:22:18 pm

Foster? Hmmm. No! :)

Diana - 4:22:47 pm

People are reporting more, which is a good thing, but babies being abused :(

Diana - 4:22:47 pm

And sex racquets targeting children's homes :(

Me - 4:23:47 pm

What's that? A group of people targeting children without parents?

Diana - 4:25:17 pm

Why not you'd be great

Diana - 4:25:21 pm

I'd like to do it, but I struggle with the ones I've got

Me - 4:25:26 pm

It must be tough in among the real people being abused. It's easier when it's remote and just "news". I guess you see all the footage and reportage that can't be aired too. Tough

Diana - 4:26:16 pm

Yea I saw more than enough when I was using

Diana - 4:26:24 pm

This is my way of being informed but with distance

Me - 4:29:09 pm

I get angry and frustrated, but then if I was really involved id do more to help. I guess that says a bit about me. Eager to help but mostly only with the people I care for.

Me - 4:33:35 pm

On a more mundane note, now looking for wine

Me - 4:41:19 pm

And I bought beer too :)

Diana - 5:13:20 pm

Wine and beer!

Diana - 5:13:20 pm

Looks like you're in for a good night :)

Me - 5:15:28 pm

Haha. Well, not all at once :))

Diana - 5:15:28 pm

My boss juts bought 2 bags of chips, 2 violet crumbles and a massive bag of nuts and put them all on my desk!

Me - 5:16:47 pm

All for you?

Diana - 5:18:36 pm

This one is a good boss

Diana - 5:18:42 pm

But a bad influence

Diana - 5:18:46 pm

Wants me to drown too!

Me - 5:19:20 pm

Exactly. Killed by kindness :))

Diana - 5:20:04 pm

Kindness or sabotage??

Me - 5:20:27 pm

Haha. Both, perhaps

Diana - 5:20:30 pm

Charles has just uploaded an article about ankle flexibility and deadlifts

Me - 5:20:54 pm

That's why I have you the wall touches in your program

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

His are using machines, I'm not reallt into that

Diana - 5:22:08 pm

Oh I feel sick already!

Diana - 5:22:15 pm

Have you started on your beer?

Me - 5:22:33 pm

It's only 5pm! :)

Me - 5:22:44 pm

If I start now, I'll have too much

Diana - 5:27:16 pm

Pfft

Diana - 5:27:22 pm

It's a perfect afternoon

Diana - 5:27:24 pm

Start now

Me - 5:28:37 pm

Perfect weather wise, yes. But there are 8 extremely noisy children playing the water at the house directly across :))

Me - 5:28:55 pm

But, a cold beer would be nice

Diana - 5:29:05 pm

Alcohol helps with noise :)

Me - 5:29:34 pm

And I have the music in the lounge now. Revenge!! :))

Me - 5:30:05 pm

Maybe the first track of OK Computer on 11. Haha

Diana - 5:31:42 pm

And you can celebrate no more gym :)

Me - 5:32:39 pm

Celebrate and stop trying to think "what's next". Use alcohol to live in the moment.

Me - 5:33:08 pm

And I'm really tired from a few days hard training. Maybe asleep by 7pm haha

Me - 5:34:50 pm

I was really tired this morning. I had a 7:30 client then came home and slept again for an hour before going back to train. And I had 9 hours sleep last night.

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

Especially after wine

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

Yes you looked wrecked this morning, really drawn

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

Under armour have a sale at rebel

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

I need a new top :)

Diana - 5:34:40 pm

Shopping online at work, bad news ;)

Diana - 5:35:53 pm

Now the eating has stopped ;)

Me - 5:36:03 pm

How much did you have?

Me - 5:36:22 pm

And I'll have beer first, then wine, maybe. :)

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

How much?

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

Food?

Me - 5:36:57 pm

Yeah

Me - 5:37:05 pm

Chips etc

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

Well a handful of chips but they're not my thing the wheat almost makes me choke

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

1/2 violet crumble and some nuts

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

Too much

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

Especially given I've put on over a kilo since the wows ended

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

Need to lean up for my dress

Me - 5:37:54 pm

How did you stop after 1/2?

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

I didn't really even have half

Me - 5:38:11 pm

I'm looking forward to "the dress" :)

Diana - 5:38:14 pm

Cause I feel awful

Diana - 5:38:32 pm

I won't fit into it at this rate! Maybe I should go to gnc and get some fat burners

Me - 5:39:37 pm

Haha. I don't think so. Just eat good food. You'll be awesome.

Diana - 5:40:50 pm

And eat leas

Diana - 5:40:52 pm

Less

Me - 5:40:57 pm

You'll look awesome

Diana - 5:41:02 pm

Would you believe they've gone to get more!!

Me - 5:46:41 pm

Ok, here I go. Cheers Diana! Wish you were here. Ah, that's what I should do. Play Pink Floyd! Haha

Me - 5:49:39 pm

I've now told 5 people I've quit the gym.

Me - 5:50:14 pm

Ok. Have beer, not thinking about that :)

Diana - 5:53:52 pm

How have people responded?

Diana - 5:54:14 pm

Enjoy!!

Diana - 5:54:20 pm

My cousin lost her baby :(

Me - 5:55:15 pm

Oh no! That's so sad. Tell her I'm sorry, if you see her

Me - 5:56:53 pm

Everyone has responded now. Kids positive, they just want me happy.

Me - 6:04:01 pm

I told you so! I've had one beer and I'm fucked!

Me - 6:04:05 pm

:))

Diana - 6:04:07 pm

That's good news about kids!

Me - 6:07:23 pm

My son was cautious while my daughter was supportive. Sums them up really.

Diana - 6:19:28 pm

Why was he cautious?

Diana - 6:22:45 pm

I think he is right to be cautious

Diana - 6:22:57 pm

A little caution is good?

Me - 6:23:06 pm

No running class. That option is dead. I did think deeply about it.

Diana - 6:23:18 pm

Why???

Me - 6:25:09 pm

I did think about it :)

Diana - 6:25:44 pm

Wow ok

Me - 6:25:54 pm

Gotta move on. I've learnt heaps, just mostly what not to do haha

Diana - 6:38:40 pm

Fair enough

Diana - 6:38:40 pm

I just thought you were looking forward to the running

Diana - 6:38:40 pm

They'll think I'm the worst client ever! Making you leave the gym!

Diana - 6:38:40 pm

How's the beer??

Me - 6:39:46 pm

You didn't make me leave the gym!

Me - 6:40:07 pm

Beer is good. Should I have a second? Feeling sleepy :)

Me - 6:41:26 pm

I was looking forward to the running thing, but It's not "me".

Diana - 6:52:43 pm

And of course you should have another one

Diana - 6:53:00 pm

Me and my friend just bought a gym top each

Diana - 6:53:06 pm

See work is soo bad for me

Diana - 6:53:21 pm

Food and spending money!

Me - 6:54:41 pm

Are you going to come and talk to me after work? I have crap tv too, you know :)) And yes, I've started the 2nd beer.

Me - 6:54:55 pm

Gym tops are necessary though. Don't forget. :)

Diana - 6:55:14 pm

It really is, I need new tights too

Diana - 6:55:20 pm

Mine have holes now!

Me - 6:55:36 pm

Under armour tights?

Diana - 6:56:43 pm

The ones I have or the ones I want

Me - 6:57:12 pm

Need to match your top, right? All one company

Diana - 6:58:31 pm

Haha!

Diana - 6:58:40 pm

How do you know I bought ua top?

Diana - 6:58:50 pm

How's the second beer going down?

Me - 6:58:55 pm

You said you were

Me - 6:59:16 pm

Texts may he a little less sensible haha

Diana - 6:59:21 pm

I need long rights for yoga

Diana - 6:59:26 pm

Tighta

Diana - 6:59:29 pm

Tights!

Diana - 6:59:35 pm

I don't care about the gym really

Diana - 6:59:50 pm

Really? Are the beers hitting you?

Me - 6:59:57 pm

Don't wear shorts for yoga?

Me - 7:00:05 pm

Yes, I reckon

Me - 7:00:24 pm

Tired and beers. Feeeeeling gooood haha

Me - 7:00:43 pm

At least I'm cheap

Diana - 7:00:43 pm

Long tights for yoga I think is best

Diana - 7:00:46 pm

Hahaha!

Me - 7:00:47 pm

2 beers haha

Diana - 7:00:50 pm

Sounds like fun

Diana - 7:01:07 pm

I'm here being badly influenced and spending whatever money im earning

Me - 7:02:24 pm

Well, you've got to work there. At least at the moment. And it would be impossible to resist all that food. Shrug your shoulders Nd move on.

Me - 7:02:35 pm

That's beer speak

Me - 7:02:59 pm

You worry too much Diana

Diana - 7:03:08 pm

Shoulders can't be shrugged im food stoned ;$

Diana - 7:03:13 pm

Oh I worry too much!!

Me - 7:03:16 pm

About things you can't change

Diana - 7:03:16 pm

Yes I do

Diana - 7:03:31 pm

I can change what I eat!!

Diana - 7:03:37 pm

And that's what I'm worries about

Diana - 7:03:39 pm

Worried

Me - 7:03:45 pm

Too hard in their circumstances

Diana - 7:03:49 pm

Argh anyone would think im the one drinking

Me - 7:03:55 pm

Haha

Me - 7:04:02 pm

Sounds perfect to me haha

Me - 7:04:12 pm

But then I am drunk :))

Me - 7:04:28 pm

On 1.5 beers! Sigh!!!!

Diana - 7:04:16 pm

Too hard in their circumstances?

Diana - 7:04:16 pm

You can't be drunk, tipsy maybe ;)

Me - 7:05:04 pm

Those circumstances

Diana - 7:04:16 pm

Go for a kayake ;))

Diana - 7:05:19 pm

I'm going hard core cut this week

Diana - 7:05:22 pm

Starting tomorrow

Me - 7:05:34 pm

No don't do that

Diana - 7:05:34 pm

Ahh tomorrow :) where would we be without tomorrow :)

Me - 7:05:40 pm

Get not tired first

Diana - 7:06:11 pm

The bad food makes me more tired

Me - 7:07:03 pm

My fault for not making your dinners. I'll do that on Sunday evening

Diana - 7:07:30 pm

Oh my god!! How is my bad eating your fault!????

Diana - 7:07:35 pm

You have issues :)

Me - 7:07:58 pm

We all have "issues". :))

Me - 7:09:18 pm

You never answered my question. Don't be embarrased, no is an ok answer :)

Diana - 7:09:47 pm

What question?

Diana - 7:09:50 pm

Sorry

Diana - 7:10:16 pm

Come over?

Me - 7:10:17 pm

Talk after work

Diana - 7:10:40 pm

Is it going to do more good than harm?

Diana - 7:10:40 pm

We have done well today

Diana - 7:10:40 pm

We don't want to ruin it do we

Me - 7:12:45 pm

Ok

Me - 7:13:04 pm

I'll leave it up to you

Diana - 7:12:48 pm

Well I'm asking you what you think

Me - 7:13:35 pm

I'd asked. So, I would like it.

Diana - 7:14:45 pm

Ok I'll come for a talk

Diana - 7:14:50 pm

Nothing heavy though ok?

Me - 7:15:02 pm

No. I agree

Me - 7:15:10 pm

Just a chat

Diana - 7:14:56 pm

And you have to keep drinking or you will fall asleep before I get there!

Me - 7:15:23 pm

Wow! Really?

Me - 7:15:26 pm

Ok haha

Diana - 7:14:56 pm

Well if you're going to fall asleep let me know and I'll go straight home

Diana - 7:14:56 pm

You must be wrecked

Me - 7:16:05 pm

Will do

Diana - 7:14:56 pm

Save a beer or wine for me :)

Me - 7:16:15 pm

I've got heaps

Me - 7:16:21 pm

Beer or wine?

Diana - 7:16:40 pm

Maybe wine

Diana - 7:16:47 pm

Beer has heaps of calories

Diana - 7:16:59 pm

I'm going to cut calories strict next week

Me - 7:17:02 pm

Ok. I'll stop beer and start wine

Me - 7:59:42 pm

That was a sad story.

Diana - 8:01:17 pm

Yep I'll need a bottle!

Me - 8:01:46 pm

I have heaps

Diana - 8:05:42 pm

Great! More calories :)

Diana - 8:06:00 pm

I've got to meal prep for this week. On my list of things to do this weekend

Me - 8:06:38 pm

And shopping too, I imagine :)

Me - 8:07:17 pm

I'm feeling pretty relaxed haha

Diana - 8:16:25 pm

That's good :)

Diana - 8:16:35 pm

Just face timed the girl

Diana - 8:16:39 pm

Are you on your second wine?

Me - 8:16:45 pm

Yep

Me - 8:16:56 pm

Better hurry :))

Diana - 8:21:04 pm

Oh you're going to be plastered!

Me - 8:22:16 pm

I'm going slow on the second one

Diana - 8:27:44 pm

Pffft

Diana - 8:27:47 pm

Pussy

Me - 8:28:12 pm

:))

Diana - 8:39:53 pm

The bay is like glass

Me - 8:40:29 pm

Yeah, it's hot and still here

Me - 8:41:13 pm

And oddly blurred too hahahaha

Diana - 8:46:26 pm

Fuck the moon

Me - 8:47:04 pm

Yeah it's beautiful. I saw it last night on my walk

Diana - 8:46:40 pm

But it's a completely new moon tonight!

Me - 8:47:57 pm

I'll go outside an look

Diana - 8:46:40 pm

You simply can't compare a moon on two different nights

Diana - 8:48:29 pm

Wow I'm driving right into it

Diana - 8:48:42 pm

Why are you inside anyway???

Me - 8:49:02 pm

Watching tv and drinkning wine.

Me - 8:49:06 pm

Outside niw

Me - 8:51:00 pm

It's nice here. Outside. Text when you get here, I may not hear the door :)

Me - 8:51:06 pm

But. Bugs

Diana - 8:53:04 pm

Here

**Saturday 8 November**

Diana - 9:26:52 am

Oh dear I hope this isn't going to be a big walk!

Diana - 9:26:53 am

How are you feeling?

Me - 9:36:39 am

I'm ok ish :)) I'm leaving now to get petrol and come straight to your place. We can just drive and see how we feel about walking

Diana - 6:38:40 pm

I've slumped on the couch already and watching the office and reading the body building website. I've really enjoyed hanging out with you this weekend. Thank you

Me - 6:40:57 pm

Thank you Diana! It's been an awesome night and day together. Really a lot of fun.

Diana - 6:47:12 pm

Ok I need to get batteries for my scales, some containers and a bucket load of free range chicken and tuna. Foam roller, slider and band. Then I'm ready to hit the next phase :)

Diana - 6:47:43 pm

See you're gone a minute and I'm hassling you already!

Diana - 6:47:45 pm

Sorry :/

Me - 6:49:04 pm

Yeah, I know. I'm indispensable :))

Me - 6:49:30 pm

Hope you have a good long sleep tonight!

Diana - 6:49:20 pm

http://www.musclemealsdirect.com.au/our-mission

Diana - 6:49:20 pm

Yes you too!

Diana - 6:49:20 pm

And totes indispensable

Diana - 6:53:00 pm

They deliver

Diana - 6:53:36 pm

They have women's meals for $7 each

Me - 6:54:19 pm

Ok. So no business for us then. :(

Diana - 6:54:36 pm

Well I don't see why not?

Diana - 6:54:45 pm

Just because one person is doing it

Me - 6:54:58 pm

Just do it better

Diana - 6:55:07 pm

It would be a good start for meal planning, nutrition yoga and your strength and fitness stuff

Diana - 6:55:16 pm

We should order a couple and see what they're like

Me - 6:56:07 pm

The whole package yes. And good idea to check it out. Want me to do it, or you? Need some cash?

Diana - 6:55:44 pm

Have a look at the meal plans and tell me what you think?

Me - 6:56:34 pm

Be good to see packaging etc

Me - 6:56:57 pm

Ok I'll have a look

Diana - 6:56:57 pm

They have gluten and lactose intolerance range too

Me - 6:57:45 pm

Emily just ran passed in the beach :)

Diana - 6:57:52 pm

The lake?

Me - 6:58:16 pm

I have an awesome gluten free muesli I made up

Me - 6:58:29 pm

It's really nice

Diana - 6:57:52 pm

It's $168 for 4 meals a day, they're really just meat and brown rice

Me - 6:58:33 pm

Yes the lake

Diana - 6:57:52 pm

I can't have muesli, it's too sugar and carb loaded

Diana - 6:59:15 pm

I wish I could, I used to love it!

Diana - 6:59:25 pm

Bircher and toasted hmmm

Me - 7:00:21 pm

Yeah, carb loaded but mine has no sugar, other than a little dried fruit

Me - 7:01:04 pm

We could really do this. My kids have been telling me for years I should open a restaurant haha

Diana - 7:00:00 pm

100g protein and 100g carbs

Diana - 7:00:00 pm

In the form of veggies and brown rice etc

Diana - 7:01:38 pm

I don't know how much protein etc I need, I'll have to find a way to figure it out

Me - 7:01:41 pm

Henry is cold? Or a thirst for knowledge haha

Diana - 7:01:55 pm

Then it should be a matter of weighing and measuring

Diana - 7:01:59 pm

Shouldn't be too hard?

Me - 7:02:23 pm

No. Keep it simple but good to start and build from there

Me - 7:03:04 pm

Will be some trial and error

Me - 7:03:28 pm

And we'd get to spend time together. In the kitchen! Haha Sigh!

Diana - 7:02:08 pm

I'll google how much protein I should be eating

Diana - 7:03:47 pm

Yay time in the kitchen

Diana - 7:03:54 pm

All my dreams come true ;)

Me - 7:06:24 pm

Or maybe you could do the delivery runs. Haha. Our lives in the kitchen and as delivery drivers haha

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

Kill me!

Diana - 7:06:24 pm

There's 4 days worth of meal plans on bodybuilding.com

Diana - 7:10:40 pm

It's so much protein though!!

Me - 7:12:12 pm

Even for women? And your bodyweight?

Me - 7:12:26 pm

About to look at stuff now. Been eating

Diana - 7:15:17 pm

Yes well according to a protein calculator I only need 1.6g of protein per kg of weight, yet bodybuilding. Has around 350g of protein per day

Diana - 7:15:23 pm

What did you eat?

Me - 7:17:24 pm

About 150+ grams per day made a difference for me

Me - 7:17:32 pm

2g per kilo

Me - 7:17:55 pm

The meals aren't cheap

Diana - 7:19:02 pm

No they're not

Diana - 7:19:06 pm

Not for what you get

Diana - 7:19:12 pm

Ok, I guess all I can do is give it a try

Me - 7:23:14 pm

The meals look simple. You could do stuff a bit different by doing a Paul Chek bio type questionnaire, to see how much protein etc is best for you. And only use organic, grass/grain fed meats. And some different carbs than rice or pasta, eg quinoa, couscous etc And the (organic) veges in season. I think all organic could be a good point if difference

Diana - 7:25:20 pm

Definately

Diana - 7:25:24 pm

Grass fed and organic

Me - 7:25:32 pm

So, $200 a week for 4 meals a day

Diana - 7:25:32 pm

Free range etc

Me - 7:25:37 pm

Yes!!

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

Bump the price up

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

Seeds ;))

Me - 7:26:07 pm

Haha. Fucking seeds!!

Me - 7:27:21 pm

All calorie and weight based per macro nutrient. No confusion over how much of everything. Lots of numbers :)

Diana - 7:27:44 pm

Yea

Diana - 7:27:44 pm

That sucks but better we do it and save them doing it

Diana - 7:29:52 pm

Let's figure out the numbers for you and for me, do a cook up trial it for 2 weeks?

Me - 7:32:18 pm

Ok. Let's get together early this week and thrash it out. And just check the numbers for each other.

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

There's also the bodybuilding diet app

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

That app has me having around 100g protein a day

Me - 7:35:34 pm

Hmm Confusing eh? We'll need to sort this out somehow.

Diana - 7:35:54 pm

I'm looking at a different transformation meal plan to compare

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

Nope it's the same, the main meals are about 16 ounces of protein from meat then eggs and protein Shake on top of that

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

Then the meal plan you can buy has around 100g protein per meal too

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

Looks like around 300g of protein just in main meals per day

Me - 7:39:22 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

Seems like a lot!

Me - 7:39:36 pm

That is a lot. Need some research

Me - 7:39:49 pm

Maybe I haven't been having anywhere near enough!

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

It doesn't look like it

Me - 7:40:17 pm

That's for you bodyweight?

Diana - 7:40:26 pm

They're the numbers for female

Me - 7:40:28 pm

What does mine suggest?

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

It doesn't have an option to put in body weight

Me - 7:40:50 pm

That doesn't sound right

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

Just around 1.6grams per kilo of body weight

Me - 7:40:56 pm

Ok

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

Perhaps they mean for each meal rather than a day?

Me - 7:41:09 pm

That's not 300!

Me - 7:41:31 pm

That's only 80g or so for you

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

1.6 x 56 x 3 times a day

Me - 7:41:56 pm

I've heard around 2g per day per kilo

Me - 7:42:11 pm

But need to check

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

I'll have a look at weight loss mode

Me - 7:42:55 pm

Go for it! I thought you were exhausted? You haven't had a pre workout have you?? Haha

Diana - 7:44:16 pm

Ha!

Diana - 7:44:22 pm

Nope but I need to figure it out

Diana - 7:45:13 pm

If 4 ounces is 100g then according to all the plans on bodybuilding there are 3 meals with 4oz of protein and 3 protein snacks in between

Me - 7:45:39 pm

Ok

Me - 7:45:52 pm

Heaps of protein

Diana - 7:46:00 pm

Wow yea

Me - 7:46:06 pm

But for weight loss?

Me - 7:46:15 pm

Less protein right?

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

Then the app says only 95 grams a day

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

Argh

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

Weight loss and bulk have the same protein

Diana - 7:47:28 pm

Just different amounts of fat and carbs

Me - 7:47:39 pm

You're right. 4 ounces is 113 grams

Diana - 7:47:58 pm

Yea I know ;)

Diana - 7:49:41 pm

Protein calculator says 128-192g per day for my body weight

Me - 7:49:43 pm

I'll dig through some research papers tomorrow and find out about protein requirements for bulking and for maintenance

Me - 7:50:03 pm

Ok. So I need well over 200

Diana - 7:50:15 pm

However this rda isn't suitable for people who exercise, they need a ahitload more

Me - 7:50:27 pm

Ok

Me - 7:51:38 pm

I really need to do this better I think

Me - 7:51:46 pm

More protein

Diana - 7:51:50 pm

Do what?

Diana - 7:51:54 pm

Yea you need a program

Diana - 7:51:57 pm

So do I

Me - 7:52:14 pm

Makes sense given how much I train but still aren't big

Diana - 7:52:48 pm

Yea you need to be eating heaps

Me - 7:52:50 pm

Mauve type of protein really makes a difference?

Diana - 7:52:56 pm

If they have me on 300g!

Diana - 7:53:15 pm

Yes of course, animal is 100 while soy and bean can reduce to 54%

Me - 7:53:20 pm

And I'm half more than you

Me - 7:53:27 pm

Oh really?

Diana - 7:53:20 pm

Yes, theres protein quality

Diana - 7:53:20 pm

Atleast you're having whey powder

Diana - 7:54:08 pm

Soy and pea rate well behind in that

Me - 7:54:32 pm

But no meat for me

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

No, so I'd say you'd have to eat even more to make up for it

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

So far I'm seeing 1.5-2g for men to build mass

Me - 7:56:18 pm

That's only 150g, not 300+

Diana - 7:56:44 pm

Yea it's only the bodybuilding site that has those enormous amounts of protein

Diana - 7:56:57 pm

But I'm thinking that's to make up for the lack of carbs

Me - 7:57:07 pm

Makes sense

Diana - 7:57:09 pm

Cause the first meal has carbs and no where near as much protein for

Me - 7:57:14 pm

Still need energy

Diana - 7:57:35 pm

Last meal is 4-6oz of protein and 1 cup of green veggies

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

No rice nothing

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

So basically I think replacing carbs with protein to keep caloric intake up

Me - 7:58:09 pm

Yep I agree

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

Wow I sound so onto it ;)

Me - 7:58:38 pm

But so much protein must tax the body. All those ketones!

Me - 7:59:06 pm

Yep, you're our expert now :)

Me - 7:59:19 pm

And with numbers too :))

Diana - 7:59:38 pm

It is too much for me

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

I think 90g a day would be enough

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Up it on heavy training days but a shake should do it

Me - 8:00:16 pm

Ok. 2g tops then for you

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

Then maybe I just try it and see?

Me - 8:00:19 pm

Sounds good

Me - 8:00:38 pm

Means weighing and measuring

Me - 8:00:46 pm

And calories too

Diana - 7:59:44 pm

If I follow body building im eating 300-350g of protein a day!

Me - 8:01:06 pm

Too much

Me - 8:01:18 pm

I reckon that could be toxic

Diana - 8:01:19 pm

But they're all the same

Diana - 8:01:22 pm

I don't get it

Me - 8:02:10 pm

Maybe stick to the 2g per kilo per day. And work out a calorie intake?

Diana - 8:01:52 pm

Download the bbdiet app and tell me what you think?

Me - 8:02:27 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:01:52 pm

Can still meal prep using that app

Diana - 8:03:31 pm

Shit weather for paddle tomorrow

Diana - 8:03:36 pm

Maybe a run?

Me - 8:04:03 pm

There's heaps of apps. Which one?

Me - 8:04:22 pm

Maybe a walk?

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

This one

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

You don't want to run?

Me - 8:05:51 pm

I've got lunch but I could go as long as we're back by say 11am.

Me - 8:06:02 pm

That would be cool. Yes

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

Yep early so I can get back and shop before work

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

Or maybe I should just meal prep

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

I think 40inutes exercise would be good

Me - 8:08:12 pm

The app costs $12. Is that it?

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

Yes :/

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

I think it'll be worth it

Me - 8:08:30 pm

I agree. Where do you want to run?

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

I got it

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

Somewhere easy

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

I want to follow the meal plan on there

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

And do your workouts

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

The bodybuilding ones seem like they're just too much

Me - 8:10:10 pm

Ok. I'll download the app. And we could run from the end of beach road along the beach front path, maybe?

Me - 8:10:25 pm

Nice and flat

Me - 8:10:39 pm

Run for 20, turn around

Diana - 8:10:24 pm

Where? Beach road?

Diana - 8:10:24 pm

Up at mordy?

Me - 8:10:54 pm

Yeah

Me - 8:11:11 pm

Bike turnaround car park :))

Me - 8:11:38 pm

On that corner where beach road turns before the roundabout

Me - 8:12:11 pm

I'll pick you up. Say, 9-ish?

Me - 8:12:31 pm

Depends on headaches maybe?

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

Or we could just do the back path and head to mordialloc? Rather than run on concrete?

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

Yep let's check in in morning

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

Even earlier is fine with me if headache free

Me - 8:14:40 pm

Ok. Sounds better

Me - 8:14:50 pm

What time then?

Diana - 8:15:02 pm

I don't want to run on hard surface with the front of my leg hurting the way it is

Diana - 8:15:14 pm

Maybe 830? Then you'd be sure to be back in time

Diana - 8:15:21 pm

Up to you?

Diana - 8:15:26 pm

Why don't we text in morning

Diana - 8:15:34 pm

Go to bed soon and even do a 7am

Me - 8:15:38 pm

Ok.

Diana - 8:15:44 pm

Always feels good to get it done early

Me - 8:15:47 pm

Why so early :(

Diana - 8:15:58 pm

Haha!

Diana - 8:16:01 pm

Soft ;)

Me - 8:16:06 pm

Sleepy

Me - 8:16:09 pm

:)

Diana - 8:16:10 pm

Ok let's just talk in morning

Me - 8:16:26 pm

Had a hard night last night, forgotten already :))

Diana - 8:17:03 pm

Ok

Diana - 8:17:09 pm

Let's talk in morning

Me - 8:17:17 pm

Cool. Night.

Diana - 8:17:55 pm

Good night

**Sunday 9 November**

Diana - 7:03:12 am

I hope I'm not waking you, but I'm going to go for a long beach walk now and skip the run. The front of my leg is hurting and I think a walk would be better. I'll go in tomorrow and do your program though, well what I can of it.

Diana - 7:03:12 am

I hope you slept well

Diana - 7:03:12 am

Or are still sleeping well :)

Diana - 7:05:22 am

Oh and in the night I found this website, it's the best it has everything and it calculates your macros for you for any given purpose

Diana - 7:05:26 am

http://iifym.com

Me - 7:05:30 am

Sounds like a sensible plan

Diana - 7:05:40 am

Check it out :)

Diana - 7:05:40 am

Oh did I wake you?

Diana - 7:05:43 am

Sorry :/

Me - 7:05:47 am

Slept well

Me - 7:05:53 am

Did you?

Diana - 7:06:11 am

And what are you doing for your birthday? Imogen is with her dad but do you want me and Joel to bring a cake around? :)

Me - 7:06:11 am

Still in bed but staring out the window :)

Diana - 7:06:24 am

I slept well until 3 then I found that website :))

Diana - 7:06:30 am

Bed is good!

Me - 7:06:45 am

3? Sigh!

Me - 7:07:14 am

Il check the web site this morning sounds good

Diana - 7:07:21 am

I went back around 5 not too bad

Diana - 7:07:36 am

Cool :)

Me - 7:07:49 am

Thursday would be nice to see you and Joel. Thanks.

Me - 7:09:21 am

Let me know if you want me to show you more of your program. I can come in especially. I have no real plans for this week.

Diana - 7:09:58 am

I thought you wanted to stay away?

Diana - 7:10:28 am

I can make do with the things I know

Me - 7:10:36 am

I do. But you need to have your program explained. There no problem coming inn

Diana - 7:10:37 am

You've taught me heaps already

Diana - 7:10:52 am

And when you're ready you can come in?

Me - 7:11:13 am

Just let me know. Even Monday is ok

Diana - 7:11:21 am

I can also redo the first two

Diana - 7:11:22 am

Ok

Me - 7:12:11 am

Is it cold outside? For your walk

Me - 7:12:26 am

Enjoy!

Diana - 7:11:44 am

Check the surf first ;)

Diana - 7:12:47 am

It's 11 degrees

Diana - 7:12:55 am

I'm just going to have coffee first

Diana - 7:18:08 am

It even has a 1rm calculator!

Me - 7:19:33 am

Looks like it costs, right? I'm up now

Diana - 7:22:24 am

No, just use the macro calculator

Diana - 7:22:24 am

They're all free

Diana - 7:23:58 am

It'll even calculate them for the amount of meals you want to have in the day

Me - 7:24:34 am

That's great. Have you worked out a program for you?

Diana - 7:24:32 am

Yes and then you can enter them into that body building app

Diana - 7:24:32 am

Overriding the ones they suggest

Diana - 7:26:01 am

With that you eat 5 times a day

Me - 7:26:54 am

Starting today? You'll have to go shopping

Diana - 7:26:40 am

I don't think I'll start today

Diana - 7:33:04 am

You know it really hurts to walk on that muscle! Tiger balm?

Me - 7:34:43 am

I don't know. I wonder what it is? It can't have been the massage, I don't think, I didn't go hard at all

Diana - 7:35:12 am

No it was niggling the last few days

Diana - 7:35:12 am

Some tiger balm and a walk should do it

Diana - 7:35:12 am

I've got food here, I'm going to prep what I have and make salads etc

Diana - 7:35:12 am

Then work up towards what we're looking at

Me - 7:37:16 am

They don't have much fruit do they. I noticed that

Diana - 7:37:30 am

No, not much fruit at all

Me - 7:37:51 am

My mother would be horrified haha

Diana - 7:38:02 am

It isn't good

Diana - 7:38:25 am

It's for cutting or bulking though no long term

Diana - 7:38:50 am

In my calculation they said only diet for 3-5 weeks

Me - 7:39:09 am

Oh. That makes sense then

Diana - 7:40:06 am

That's why I think eating clean but 'normally for a week or two is a good stepping stone to go into that

Me - 7:40:28 am

And that's all about planing isn't it

Me - 7:40:40 am

Having good stuff on hand and ready

Diana - 7:40:48 am

Yep

Diana - 7:41:02 am

I'll make some roast vegatable salads and stuff today

Diana - 7:41:21 am

Can freeze them but that's fine with an omelet for a couple of days

Diana - 7:41:36 am

Get off the pumpkernickel bread for a bit ;)

Me - 7:42:03 am

Haha sounds good

Me - 7:42:14 am

Anyway to have the protein always ready too

Me - 7:42:27 am

Even an omelette may be too much sometimes

Diana - 7:44:26 am

Too much protein?

Diana - 7:44:53 am

Id like to go off eggs altogether to be honest

Me - 7:45:04 am

No. I mean even having to make an omlette may be too much effort at times

Diana - 7:45:18 am

and it's trying to fit protein into a salad that's tricky, chick peas are ok but not really enough

Me - 7:45:26 am

Include something protein in your frozen salads

Diana - 7:45:26 am

Protein shake on the side maybe?

Me - 7:45:37 am

Tofu?

Diana - 7:45:38 am

I don't freeze salads

Me - 7:45:50 am

Chick peas aren't complete protein

Diana - 7:45:52 am

No I know

Diana - 7:45:52 am

I think for now a shake will be fine

Diana - 7:45:52 am

And I can start putting some meat in them cause I can't do cheese

Diana - 7:46:56 am

Anyway I know how to do it, I lost 14 kilos just need to stick to it! And no afternoon tea at work!

Me - 7:47:14 am

Maybe a roast and freeze chunks of meat if the right size

Diana - 7:47:28 am

I'll eat clean for the next few days and see if I lose any, I may need to up the anti and do one of those bb plans

Diana - 7:47:38 am

Yea I think that's the way to go

Diana - 7:47:47 am

I might do a massive cook up this week

Diana - 7:48:00 am

The only day I'm working is tuesday and I don't even know if I can do that at this point, though I'm considering taking Joel in for the shift, it's only 4 hours and scooby Doo goes for nearly two ;)

Me - 7:49:35 am

Haha. It would be cool to hang out if you want, at any time. And it would be nice to see Joel, if he's with you, that is.

Diana - 7:53:26 am

Are you going to go to that store tomorrow? I have to see steve but would you get me a roller? I will give you the cash. Half ones are cheap and that's all I need. And a slider and a band that shouldn't cost too much, I'll pay you back. I want to make a serious start on your programs this week. They're not that intense that' they'll kill me but I feel like I need to make a start before I lose momentum

Diana - 7:53:45 am

If you want to do a cook up together we can? But ill be cooking meat

Diana - 7:54:16 am

And you're having a family dinner on your birthday right? So maybe Joel and I can come earlier with a cake :)

Me - 7:55:43 am

I'll go to the store tomorrow. Love to see you (and Joel) any time.

Me - 7:56:24 am

I'll let you know how successful the store was and drop stuff over.

Diana - 7:58:40 am

I don't need any of that stuff for program 2 so maybe I can do that tomorrow?

Diana - 7:58:40 am

Joel has day care Thursday but we can pop in before your dinner

Me - 8:00:58 am

That would be great, for Thursday. And about the program, just let me know if you need any explanations.

Diana - 8:02:56 am

No doubt I'll be texting questions!

Diana - 8:02:56 am

Maybe you can come in to show me the last 2 sometime this week if you're not too busy golfing and surfing ;)

Diana - 8:05:00 am

I'll look through them today too

Diana - 8:05:04 am

My early walk isn't happening! Ok shower time :)

Diana - 8:05:04 am

Music first

Me - 8:06:06 am

Sure. Just let me know and I'll come into the gym and demonstrate the exercises

Diana - 8:05:04 am

Shame I have steve Id like to check out the store

Diana - 8:05:04 am

Maybe next time

Diana - 8:05:04 am

Ok cool

Diana - 8:05:04 am

I'll have a look and see what bamboozles me

Me - 8:07:20 am

What time is Steve?

Diana - 8:07:12 am

1340

Diana - 8:07:12 am

It's wack in the middle of the day

Me - 8:10:20 am

How about a morning trip with Joel to the store? I'm meeting a trainer at 9 for coffee and was going after that.

Me - 8:11:32 am

It's inly a 20 minute trip, apparently

Diana - 8:12:02 am

Hallam? 20-30, I used to ride horses through the paddocks :)

Diana - 8:12:08 am

I need to train though

Diana - 8:12:18 am

Unless I train during kidzfit

Diana - 8:12:24 am

But isn't it super busy then?

Me - 8:13:00 am

If you're going to be there at 9, so will I. I could finish showing you stuff then

Me - 8:13:27 am

Yeah, 4 to 5pm is busy

Me - 8:13:33 am

Tradies

Me - 8:15:10 am

Ok shower time for me now. You finished? Will there be hot water still? :))

Diana - 8:15:23 am

Yea but when you show me I don't acuality train properly, I really feel like I need a good session.

Diana - 8:15:44 am

I can do your first 2 and then maybe we can go in on Wednesday

Diana - 8:15:44 am

I haven't even got in yet!

Diana - 8:15:44 am

Put washing on and fed the cat and watered the plants

Me - 8:16:30 am

Ok. I'll look at them now

Me - 8:16:36 am

Programs

Diana - 8:17:11 am

Why?

Diana - 8:17:16 am

What do you mean?

Diana - 8:17:30 am

You wrote them! You know them ;)

Me - 8:17:39 am

Slider squats

Diana - 8:17:48 am

I will do the 2nd one tomorrow

Diana - 8:17:52 am

I don't have the gear to do the first one

Diana - 8:17:52 am

The second one needs no equipment

Me - 8:18:08 am

Do reverse lunges with a barbell

Me - 8:18:38 am

Ok

Me - 8:19:01 am

Haha you just want to do deficit deads again :)

Diana - 8:19:00 am

Or I can do the first one and do reverse lunges like you said

Diana - 8:19:11 am

I don't have the band though

Diana - 8:19:15 am

Nope I'll do the 2nd one

Diana - 8:19:51 am

How come I have deficits and rdls on the same day, is that cause it's single leg?

Diana - 8:20:00 am

Yep I'll do the second. I know what all those exercises are

Diana - 8:20:00 am

And I can just go for it

Me - 8:20:26 am

Single leg RDL's

Diana - 8:20:00 am

Workout then get out of there before Joel comes back

Me - 8:20:42 am

Week 2 workout 1

Diana - 8:20:00 am

Yep I know I just wondered why they're on the same day as deficits

Diana - 8:21:08 am

Still need bands

Diana - 8:21:23 am

Take me through week 2 when we see eachother mayeb

Me - 8:21:25 am

Ok missed them

Me - 8:21:30 am

Ok

Me - 8:21:43 am

Just do your thing tkmorrow then

Diana - 8:21:50 am

And sumo deadlifts I want to be taken through properly

Diana - 8:22:08 am

My own thing? Why can't I do workout 2 which I've said 1000 times??

Diana - 8:22:08 am

Week 1 workout 2?

Me - 8:22:36 am

If you want, you could mix up some of the thjngs from both workouts 1 and 2

Diana - 8:22:08 am

Stop!!!!!

Me - 8:22:59 am

That's what I mean. Workout 2, do your own thing

Diana - 8:22:08 am

What is wrong with workout 2?

Diana - 8:23:18 am

Oh me wanting to do that is my own thing?

Diana - 9:12:40 am

The cook up has commenced!

Me - 9:13:57 am

?? I thought you were waiting until later on in the week? But, awesome!! Get it done now.

Diana - 9:14:41 am

I'm just cooking up whatever I already have

Diana - 9:14:50 am

Which is heaps of sweet potato, zucchini and chick peas

Diana - 9:14:54 am

Throwing them all in salad

Diana - 9:14:59 am

And some free range chicken

Diana - 9:15:06 am

Do the kids dinner tomorrow night also

Diana - 9:15:19 am

I really need to go through this house and clean out the cupboards

Me - 9:15:21 am

No carbs at all?

Diana - 9:15:28 am

Yea I'll do some brown rice

Diana - 9:15:28 am

I think that's all I have

Me - 9:15:46 am

I did that recently. Found expiry dates from the 1990's haha

Diana - 9:15:28 am

And sweet potatoes are carbs

Diana - 9:16:18 am

I mean throw out old pans and clean the cupboards and really get this kitchen happening!

Me - 9:16:51 am

I love how you are!! You go for it 100%, don't you haha

Diana - 9:16:56 am

Finally clean out my and the kids wardrobes eye

Diana - 9:17:04 am

Get the house ready for a new year

Diana - 9:17:23 am

Well I do this gun hoe for a couple of weeks then lose momentum

Diana - 9:17:30 am

Hopefully I'll be able to keep it up

Me - 9:19:58 am

The meals will be a good idea, but it does mean taking quite a few hours to plan and cook. That may be the hard point, finding that time means not doing other stuff. But, maybe, out hanging out time could be cooking time. Kill two birds.

Diana - 9:20:43 am

Yea

Diana - 9:20:59 am

Killing a bird is how I like to consider our hanging out time ;)

Diana - 9:21:52 am

Really we need to do it for a month ourselves to see if we can even do it effectively

Me - 9:29:04 am

I'm still itchy from being bitten on Friday night.

Diana - 9:30:24 am

My back has bites all over it! Did you notice them when you did the massahr?

Diana - 9:30:24 am

Massage?

Me - 9:31:29 am

No I didn't

Diana - 9:30:24 am

I only saw them this morning when I got out of the shower

Me - 9:31:36 am

Strange

Diana - 9:31:59 am

Just around the shoulder blades

Diana - 9:32:32 am

Ok oven is roasting sweet potato zucchini and mini Roma tomatoes. Chick pea time.

Diana - 9:32:32 am

Or coffee

Diana - 9:32:32 am

;)

Me - 9:32:53 am

Or both

Me - 9:32:55 am

:))

Diana - 9:32:32 am

I don't like freezing stuff

Me - 9:33:04 am

Always coffee time haha

Diana - 9:32:32 am

See that's my issue

Me - 9:33:11 am

Freezing is ok

Diana - 9:32:32 am

I can do a massive cook up but don't want to freeze things

Diana - 9:32:32 am

It's just icky

Me - 9:33:30 am

Why?

Diana - 9:32:32 am

Just the dampness of defrosting I guess

Diana - 9:32:32 am

Sogginess

Diana - 9:32:32 am

Lack of freshness

Diana - 9:34:17 am

But it's impossible to not do it and be practical

Me - 9:34:40 am

Of course. You'll only cook once a week. Gotta freeze

Diana - 9:34:40 am

And it's an Incredible waste of food

Diana - 9:34:40 am

yea I'll get used to it

Me - 9:34:55 am

Waste, why?

Me - 9:35:04 am

You'll eat it

Diana - 9:34:40 am

If you don't freeze it

Me - 9:35:13 am

Oh

Diana - 9:34:40 am

Heaps goes to waste

Me - 9:35:22 am

Don't waste it

Me - 9:35:32 am

Do the delivery sites freeze?

Diana - 9:34:40 am

Yes

Diana - 9:34:40 am

They all do

Me - 9:37:50 am

I'm going to sit down this arvo and plan all my stuff out. Maybe shop and cook stuff tonight. But I like fruit and tofu and eggs and shakes are all I've got for protein, I guess

Me - 9:37:52 am

Maybe yogurt

Me - 9:38:00 am

But that's not very sense

Me - 9:38:05 am

Dense

Me - 9:38:51 am

Should I give up being a veggo for a bit? To test this stuff out. Big choice

Diana - 9:38:56 am

It is a massive choice

Diana - 9:38:56 am

I still struggle but I can actually feel the energy from the meet when I eat it

Diana - 9:38:56 am

It's hard, it's the cycle of life but so much cruelty

Diana - 9:38:56 am

I found that if I buy the most ethical meat I can then it's ok enough to shut out the truth

Diana - 9:41:13 am

I'll go fishing with my dad and get you some fish

Diana - 9:41:58 am

I'll kill them using the iki jime method

Me - 9:43:30 am

What? Iki jimi?

Me - 9:44:09 am

Where do you get organic grass fed, etc etc meat?

Diana - 9:44:37 am

There's a little deli close

Diana - 9:44:41 am

Or red hill meats

Diana - 9:44:45 am

They're the best

Diana - 9:44:57 am

Very expensive but if you eat it right you don't need much

Diana - 9:45:15 am

And there's free range chicken and kangaroo available at supermarkets

Diana - 9:45:20 am

It's a japanese method of killing fish instantly with a pin through their brains

Diana - 9:45:41 am

I learnt it so the fish don't suffer and slowly drown

Diana - 9:45:48 am

I believe in hunter gatherer

Diana - 9:45:58 am

I believe we are supposed to eat meat

Diana - 9:46:04 am

I just hate the industry

Me - 9:46:22 am

I've heard of that killing method. Didn't know the name

Me - 9:46:43 am

Red hill meats. Online? Or a trip

Diana - 9:46:52 am

Look online

Diana - 9:47:00 am

But you'd need a trip down to get it fresh

Diana - 9:47:17 am

You know, dairy is possibly the worst animal industry

Me - 9:47:56 am

Yeah, I know. But I drink soy milk now. Remember? :)

Diana - 9:49:36 am

How do you make yoghurt

Me - 9:50:12 am

I'll have a think about meat. But I'll need advice on what to buy and how to cook it. I'll have a look online and also see what Paul Chek says about types of meat

Diana - 9:50:27 am

You should

Me - 9:50:29 am

Ah, yeah. Yohurt. Oops

Diana - 9:50:42 am

The first time I ate it I was really sick

Diana - 9:50:50 am

I was sick that's why I was told to eat it

Diana - 9:50:53 am

And then I stopped again

Diana - 9:51:13 am

Then when pregnant I started again, advice form the doctor yet again

Diana - 9:51:24 am

I'll stop again at some point I know it

Me - 9:51:46 am

It's been nearly 30 years, this time, for me as a veggo. I'll probably be sick. Just a tiny bit to start

Me - 9:51:56 am

If i do, that is

Diana - 9:51:44 am

And I want to stop eggs too

Diana - 9:51:44 am

Yep small amounts

Diana - 9:51:44 am

If you do

Diana - 9:51:44 am

There's lot of vegan body builders

Diana - 9:51:44 am

It's not necessary to eat meat

Me - 9:53:00 am

But it would be an "interesting" experiment. For me and my body type

Me - 9:53:09 am

See if it makes a differnce

Me - 9:53:31 am

And if we do this meal thing, I'd have to cook it

Diana - 9:53:31 am

I think it would for sure

Diana - 9:53:52 am

I remember the moment I walked out of the gym went and bought steak and ate it like an animal

Diana - 9:53:52 am

Like my body finally woke up and realised how much I needed it

Diana - 9:53:52 am

It was very powerful

Diana - 9:53:52 am

And I can cook the meat of we do the meal thing

Diana - 9:53:52 am

That's a long way off I wouldn't use that as a reason

Me - 9:55:24 am

Not as THE reason. But one of many

Diana - 9:56:00 am

I think it's ok

Diana - 9:56:00 am

Buy smart and have a prayer of thanks to the animals

Diana - 9:56:00 am

My two rules

Diana - 9:56:00 am

But then I pray everyday anyway

Me - 9:59:32 am

Really? We've never talked about stuff like that, have we. Odd that we've skirted some topics. But, it means even after thousands of texts and hours of conversation we're still finding stuff out about each other. Seriously cool! :)

Diana - 10:02:09 am

Ha! Yep true :)

Diana - 10:02:21 am

It is funny we've never talked about that.

Me - 10:02:46 am

And it's important too

Diana - 10:02:24 am

It was a prayer that saved my life

Diana - 10:02:24 am

Quite literally

Diana - 10:02:24 am

Anyway another time :)

Me - 10:03:12 am

Not by text for sure

Me - 10:03:27 am

Maybe after a wine or two even :)

Diana - 10:02:24 am

I don't think you and I drinking is very clever :)

Me - 10:03:59 am

Haha. Maybe

Me - 10:04:10 am

But fun though :)

Diana - 10:04:32 am

See back to the freezing, you can really only freeze the roasted veggies

Diana - 10:04:32 am

Then add fresh spinach cucumber etc

Me - 10:05:09 am

So you need to prepare each day anyway

Me - 10:05:29 am

But only 5mins I guess to chop

Diana - 10:04:32 am

But that's easy

Me - 10:05:49 am

Or just throw them in while and munch

Diana - 10:04:32 am

Just add fresh leaves really

Me - 10:06:05 am

and munch on a cucumber :)

Diana - 10:04:32 am

I'm going to start a herb garden

Diana - 10:06:16 am

Or celery

Me - 10:06:20 am

You already have one don't you

Diana - 10:06:24 am

It just gives it that fresh crunch

Me - 10:06:48 am

Might have to move snails!

Diana - 10:06:40 am

I'll do it on the front porch in pots

Diana - 10:06:40 am

On that little side thing

Diana - 10:06:40 am

Leave the snails alone ;)

Me - 10:08:00 am

Yeah, you've got plenty of spare time :))

Diana - 10:06:40 am

All they need is water

Diana - 10:06:40 am

But true

Diana - 10:08:33 am

But you buy 3 leaves for $3 at the supper market

Diana - 10:08:36 am

Supermarket

Diana - 10:08:42 am

It's outrageous

Diana - 10:08:48 am

I'm considering going to the gym for a roll

Me - 10:10:27 am

Could be a good idea.

Me - 10:11:04 am

And roll your tibialis anterior too. The side front of your leg

Diana - 10:10:56 am

Yes ok

Diana - 10:10:56 am

I'll finish my cook up and do that

Diana - 10:10:56 am

And shop tonight after work

Me - 10:12:46 am

I could leave my foam roller in the garage and you could borrow that to foam roll tonight after work and in the morning. I use lacrosse balls mostly anyway.

Diana - 10:10:56 am

And maybe just do my warm up with one of your warm ups

Diana - 10:13:08 am

It's ok I will be at the gym in the morning I can roll again then

Diana - 10:13:16 am

Tonight I'll be too tired to care :)

Me - 10:13:20 am

Just come by before it after gym and take it if I'm not here

Me - 10:13:38 am

Ok cool

Diana - 10:13:59 am

I'll shop tonight anyway

Diana - 10:14:07 am

Then I don't have to tomorrow when I have Joel

Diana - 10:16:16 am

This is still the bruise from the last wow! When I disnt make the last ground to overhead!

Diana - 10:16:16 am

Editor: An image of Diana's bruised shoulder

Diana - 10:16:16 am

Yuk!

Me - 10:17:07 am

Serious stuff. But it looks a good colour now

Diana - 10:17:20 am

Yea my kind of yellow :)

Diana - 10:34:24 am

No to seperate and freeze

Diana - 10:34:24 am

Editor: An image of a big bowl of cooked food

Me - 10:36:58 am

Hmmm. Yum. But I see seeds! Haha

Diana - 10:36:32 am

Of course

Diana - 10:36:32 am

You need fats

Diana - 10:38:40 am

One little container of this mixed with greens and there's a 300 calorie salad

Me - 10:41:09 am

You've got me on it too. I'm going out soon, but I've filled up the slow cooker with veges. and I'm soaking chick peas.

Me - 10:41:19 am

And meat?

Diana - 10:40:48 am

Not sure about the meat

Diana - 10:40:48 am

Thinking of protein shake on the side until I sort thay

Diana - 10:40:48 am

A Thai beef salad maybe

Diana - 10:40:48 am

To be thought about

Me - 10:41:59 am

Oh yeah, you said that

Diana - 10:40:48 am

Carbs are sweet potatoes

Me - 10:42:27 am

Sweet potatoes are really good

Diana - 10:40:48 am

Super healthy and vegan with soy protein

Me - 10:42:31 am

Better than spuds

Diana - 10:40:48 am

Heaps better

Diana - 10:40:48 am

It's all low gi

Me - 10:42:59 am

Maybe some silkien tofu thrown in?

Diana - 10:43:04 am

And roast vegetables have olive spray on them so heaps of fat too

Diana - 10:43:14 am

Silken doesn't keep well

Diana - 10:43:38 am

The one with the batter like skin would be best I think

Diana - 10:43:41 am

Marinated in something

Diana - 10:43:55 am

And use that to replace chick peas

Diana - 10:45:45 am

I think chicken breast would be the easiest and well kept for freezer life

Me - 10:45:54 am

Yeah. I meant just throw the tofu in as you walk out the door to work. Or as you take it out of the freezer

Me - 10:46:18 am

Roasted meat is best?

Diana - 10:46:17 am

Yea that could work too

Diana - 10:46:32 am

Pan fried chicken is the most practical

Diana - 10:46:41 am

Fish also works but can be smelly

Diana - 10:47:04 am

I won't eat pig and I think too much red meat makes you feel terrible

Diana - 10:47:12 am

Meat including fish 3-4 times a week max I think

Me - 10:47:21 am

Can you cook meat in the slow cooker? Just a bit of oil?

Diana - 10:47:33 am

Yes it's the best way to do it

Me - 10:47:40 am

Like veges

Diana - 10:47:45 am

Then the most part of the 'digestion' is done for you

Diana - 10:47:52 am

Slow cooker red meat especially

Me - 10:48:08 am

Just on it's own?

Diana - 10:48:13 am

It can take literally 3 days for my body to digest if I don't slow cook it

Diana - 10:48:25 am

You could put a small roast in there

Diana - 10:48:31 am

And cut it like you said

Me - 10:48:49 am

Ok. Might shop this arvo, after grandma

Diana - 10:48:56 am

Generally people do casseroles

Me - 10:49:13 am

Yeah, but want the meat separate

Me - 10:49:25 am

So can combine it later with other stuff

Me - 10:49:42 am

And freeze small chunks

Me - 10:49:52 am

Probably should get scales too

Diana - 10:50:15 am

Yep If you're going to get serious :)

Diana - 10:50:19 am

Scales are needed

Me - 10:50:48 am

I'll see what the supermarket has for now. and have a play

Diana - 10:54:35 am

Ok

Diana - 10:54:52 am

I'm going to get a 9v and see if my old ones still work

Me - 10:58:04 am

You know what? I just scanned through today's texts only, looking for that link again, and I think thousands of texts over the last 12 weeks is a gross underestimate! It's pretty amazing what he have going on here, when you think about it and how long it's been sustained. As I said before, seriously cool stuff Diana :)

Diana - 10:59:03 am

Hahahaha!

Diana - 10:59:19 am

No wonder my phone is dead Huh?

Diana - 10:59:27 am

I've had to restart it 4 times this morning alien

Diana - 10:59:29 am

Alone

Diana - 10:59:37 am

http://iifym.com

Diana - 10:59:41 am

There you go

Me - 10:59:45 am

We killed an iPhone!

Me - 10:59:53 am

Yeah, I got it

Diana - 10:59:52 am

Seriously we did

Me - 11:00:37 am

And my battery doesnt last like it used to. I think mine's on it's way out too :)

Diana - 11:00:00 am

Not good is it

Me - 11:01:27 am

Well, you mean the phone's right? Not our relRionship :)

Diana - 11:02:08 am

Yes the phone!

Me - 11:02:34 am

Present wrapping time. That'll take, like, 2 minuets

Me - 11:02:44 am

Minutes

Diana - 11:02:08 am

Ok over and out ;)

Me - 11:02:53 am

No minuets here haha

Me - 11:04:15 am

BTW, did you roast the seeds or just throw them on afterwards?

Diana - 11:04:16 am

I put them in raw

Diana - 11:04:16 am

Too much roasting otherwise

Me - 11:04:51 am

Ok thanks

Diana - 11:04:16 am

All the vegatables are already roaster

Diana - 11:04:16 am

Roasted

Diana - 11:04:16 am

If they were pine nuts Id roast them

Diana - 11:04:16 am

But the oils in the seeds are damaged when heated

Diana - 11:04:16 am

Best raw

Diana - 11:06:00 am

It's sunny

Me - 11:06:01 am

Yeah, I only hVe raw almonds when I buy them, for that reason

Diana - 11:06:10 am

The gym is going to be dark and dreary

Diana - 11:06:17 am

Hmm I like them smoked :))

Diana - 11:06:24 am

But I can't stop when I start so I stay away

Me - 11:06:45 am

I bought a soppy card :)

Diana - 11:06:24 am

Plus I can't digest nuts very well

Diana - 11:06:24 am

You sure did!

Me - 11:07:17 am

Come buy and pick up my foam roller and take it home! Or foam roll on the beach haha

Me - 11:08:23 am

We're going at 11:30. I'll leave the outside door unlocked and the roller in the garage. Up to you. I'll just bring it in when I get back if you do t take it

Diana - 11:08:32 am

It's cool

Diana - 11:08:32 am

I don't know if I go into the gym but I can wait until tomorrow anyway

Me - 11:09:25 am

Up to you

Me - 11:09:25 am

Editor: An image of a foam roller resting against the wall outside Mark's house

Diana - 11:08:32 am

What's the photo for??

Diana - 11:08:32 am

Bahaha!

Diana - 11:10:40 am

I'll go do the shopping now

Diana - 11:10:40 am

Then I can rest tonight

Diana - 11:10:40 am

If I have time I'll do gym aswell

Me - 11:11:33 am

Rest? You mean until 3am?? Sigh!! Double Sigh!! :)

Diana - 11:15:02 am

Huh?

Diana - 11:15:10 am

I was only awake for 2 hours

Diana - 11:15:13 am

Settle down

Diana - 11:15:27 am

I don't want go out and shop after work, it'll be cold

Diana - 11:17:04 am

It really hurts to walk

Diana - 11:17:26 am

That muscle is fucked!

Diana - 11:19:06 am

Anyway have a good lunch, I bet your mum will love the card :)

Me - 11:20:30 am

Thanks. Have a good day at work. Bad news about your leg. Maybe some ice? And elevation.

Diana - 11:20:33 am

Do you think I could postpone Steven

Me - 11:20:42 am

Of course you could

Diana - 11:21:20 am

It's not that, I'll go back just maybe later in the week

Diana - 11:21:20 am

Ok have a good lunch :)

Me - 11:21:56 am

Thanks

Me - 11:22:08 am

Why postpone then?

Diana - 11:54:55 am

Nope my scales are kaput too

Me - 1:02:24 pm

Ok Bummer! I ate heaps and heaps for lunch! And with chips too. And mum's sandwich :)

Me - 1:02:37 pm

And coffee 2 just arrived :))

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

I just finite workout no. 1

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

It kind of took off from the stretch ;)

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

And finishing salads doesn't count, it's calorie-less for you ;))

Diana - 1:30:33 pm

My legs are shot!

Me - 1:32:11 pm

Squats?

Me - 1:32:25 pm

Did you do the reverse bit?

Me - 1:32:39 pm

Just has a chat with the chef at the cafe

Me - 1:32:43 pm

Nice guy

Me - 1:32:57 pm

Says frozen meat really tenderizes it

Me - 1:33:05 pm

Ice crystals

Me - 1:33:16 pm

And frozen bananas too haha

Me - 1:33:30 pm

Did you get through the workout?

Me - 1:33:44 pm

And what about your sire leg?

Me - 1:34:00 pm

I might to do a workout later on

Me - 1:34:27 pm

And not just salad. Had a big foccacia thingy

Me - 1:34:35 pm

And with chips!!! Haha

Me - 1:36:56 pm

And I can see, I think, that your phone is fucked haha. No delivery of messages :(

Diana - 1:51:43 pm

Yep reverse with bar at 40kg

Diana - 1:51:53 pm

Then normal lunges with kb

Diana - 1:57:04 pm

Dad won't look after Joel on Tuesday cause it's a good fishing day. Jesus.

Diana - 1:59:12 pm

Oh I just got them!

Diana - 2:00:05 pm

I got through it

Diana - 2:00:26 pm

No bands though so did extra core

Diana - 2:00:31 pm

And 3x8 inverted rows I found them hard

Diana - 2:01:20 pm

Have you made a decision about meat?

Me - 2:22:47 pm

Probably will try meat, as an experiment.

Me - 2:23:00 pm

Just got home from lunch

Me - 2:24:11 pm

And I don't know if you're (we're?) ready for this. But if you're stuck on Tuesday, I know a guy who quit his job last Friday and has some spare time.

Me - 2:25:07 pm

Been thinking about, maybe, setting up a bare bones gym in the garage. What do you reckon?

Me - 2:25:15 pm

Probably don't need too much

Me - 2:27:58 pm

Kettlebells, bands, some dumbells, fitballs, barbell, weights, a minimal rack. Some flooring. Slam balls, box jumps. Probably could do it for not too much. Hmmmm. What do you think? I'd need to possibly have client's already interested.

Diana - 2:28:10 pm

I said that yesterday

Me - 2:28:17 pm

I know

Diana - 2:28:17 pm

You just need reverse cycle aircon a

Me - 2:28:30 pm

Expensive

Me - 2:28:39 pm

How much was your little one?

Diana - 2:28:39 pm

You need paying clients

Diana - 2:29:04 pm

I got it off gumtree for $100

Diana - 2:29:56 pm

To be honest I think working out of the $5 gym makes more sense for 1 on 1 sessions until you have a client base that would follow you to a home gym

Diana - 2:30:21 pm

From a making money perspective

Me - 2:30:28 pm

Yeah, if they'll let me do that. I'll ask

Diana - 2:30:31 pm

Otherswise I'm happy to come workout ;))

Me - 2:31:24 pm

I've got the bike too. And the lake for swimming in summer. And the river front for running is really close

Me - 2:31:48 pm

Endurance and gym.

Diana - 2:32:01 pm

Cool

Me - 2:32:02 pm

Slowly, slowly I guess. That's smart

Diana - 2:32:05 pm

Do it then

Me - 2:32:31 pm

I'll check prices tomorrow. And do a rough budget

Me - 2:32:41 pm

Absolute minimal

Me - 2:33:17 pm

Only real equipment is for back squats I reckon. Need a rack of some description

Me - 2:33:33 pm

You off to work soon?

Diana - 2:33:20 pm

Sounds good

Diana - 2:34:19 pm

You can also combine massage and do it all from home

Diana - 2:34:27 pm

Swim run train and massage

Diana - 2:34:31 pm

Save on rent too

Me - 2:34:34 pm

Exactly

Me - 2:34:57 pm

And claim rent on tax

Me - 2:35:06 pm

Just need clients

Me - 2:35:08 pm

Haha

Me - 2:35:16 pm

And a crèche

Me - 2:35:21 pm

:))

Diana - 2:35:23 pm

Well you can take your ladies from the gym

Diana - 2:35:27 pm

The manager one

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

And Donna

Me - 2:35:39 pm

No crèche for Donna

Me - 2:35:50 pm

Wouldn't work for her

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

Well good luck with it

Me - 2:38:19 pm

Tired from your workout? Still feeling the effects of 12 weeks, when you're training I mean?

Me - 2:39:10 pm

What will you do about Tuesday?

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

I feel jealous that now you're having women in your house to swim with and massage

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

I'm going to fuck someone

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

To move on

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

Then I'll be able to be a real friend

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

And support you with what you want to do

Diana - 2:43:28 pm

I don't know about tuesday

Diana - 2:43:46 pm

I've messaged Karen hopefully she will be able to help out

Diana - 2:43:54 pm

I asked her before you offered

Me - 2:46:27 pm

Diana!!!

Me - 2:46:44 pm

That's not moving on!

Me - 2:46:57 pm

Don't do it! Please???

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

Yes it is

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

It'll be good for is

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

Us

Me - 2:47:15 pm

No it won't

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

You should do it too

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

Do you touch everyone's cunt when you massage them?

Diana - 2:48:00 pm

I'm doing it, there's a party in a fortnight

Diana - 2:48:04 pm

I'll fuck someone then

Diana - 2:48:08 pm

I want you to also

Me - 2:48:18 pm

Please? Let's talk about this

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

Then there'll be a clear boundary

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

We need that

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

We really do

Me - 2:49:20 pm

Do you think I massage everyone like yesterday? Not a chance!! It's you

Me - 2:49:44 pm

You need to have a real, long deep think.

Me - 2:50:07 pm

If you fuck someone that would absolutely destroy me!!

Me - 2:50:14 pm

I could not stand it!

Me - 2:50:18 pm

!!!!!!

Me - 2:50:51 pm

You're seriously mistaken if that's you're "moving on".

Me - 2:51:15 pm

There are plenty of other options to work this out

Me - 2:51:42 pm

We just need to talk and WORK IT OUT!

Me - 2:53:12 pm

How I feel at the moment, if you just fucked someone, and not in love with them, I couldn't see you again. Just seeing you would be too much to stand.

Me - 2:53:36 pm

I'm shaking all over just thinking about it

Diana - 2:54:17 pm

So it's about you being destroyed

Diana - 2:54:20 pm

By my actions

Diana - 2:54:29 pm

But fuck how your actions make me feel?

Diana - 2:54:34 pm

It's always about you isn't it

Diana - 2:54:40 pm

What would destroy you

Diana - 2:54:53 pm

What about your actions and me needing to protect myself from you?

Diana - 2:55:06 pm

Fuck me for someone so kind you sure are self centered

Diana - 2:55:14 pm

What If that's what I need to do

Diana - 2:55:17 pm

To move on

Diana - 2:55:20 pm

To be your friend

Diana - 2:55:29 pm

So I can truly support you to become what you want to be

Diana - 2:55:48 pm

Which happens to be something that means you're forever in women's company and now at your house

Diana - 2:56:01 pm

What if juts what if that is what I need to move on???

Me - 2:56:11 pm

And all this stuff, this jealousy, etc really shows we're not "just" friends but we don't have to be more than that at the moment. We can work stuff out.

Me - 2:56:35 pm

It's not about me, it's about us.

Me - 2:56:59 pm

and us is both of our needs

Me - 2:57:31 pm

We're friends in love. And that needs something different thN normal

Diana - 2:58:01 pm

I've told you I'm not in love with you

Diana - 2:58:13 pm

I love you

Diana - 2:58:15 pm

It's not in love

Diana - 2:58:22 pm

I think we need a boundary

Diana - 2:58:35 pm

It would make both of us let go

Diana - 2:58:41 pm

And kill any potential jealousy

Me - 2:59:05 pm

No!!!!

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

I don't want to feel this way

Me - 2:59:20 pm

That's not how you work I things

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

And I want to support you to do what you need and want to do with your life

Me - 2:59:28 pm

That's just running away

Diana - 2:59:44 pm

You don't know how to work things out any better than I do

Diana - 2:59:49 pm

It's not running away

Me - 2:59:52 pm

Well don't bother supporting me. I don't want it if that's what's needed to get it

Diana - 2:59:56 pm

It's establishing a boundary

Diana - 3:00:06 pm

Stop being a child

Me - 3:00:10 pm

By doing something artificial

Me - 3:00:15 pm

You're the child

Diana - 3:00:24 pm

What are

Diana - 3:00:28 pm

Whatever

Me - 3:00:35 pm

What an idea? Go fuck someone and it will all be good?

Diana - 3:00:41 pm

You're filled with jealousy now

Diana - 3:00:49 pm

Wouldn't you rather it be gone?

Me - 3:00:51 pm

Yes

Diana - 3:00:52 pm

I know I would

Me - 3:00:53 pm

No

Me - 3:01:04 pm

I want to work on it

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

Again

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

It's always about how you want to do things

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

How things will work for you

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

What will make you feel better

Me - 3:01:34 pm

And who wouldn't be jealous if the person they love was fucking some one else?

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

And j have to do all the fucking work

Diana - 3:02:03 pm

It would clear things up for me if you fucked someone else

Me - 3:02:07 pm

What work?

Me - 3:02:19 pm

I won't fuck someone else

Diana - 3:02:20 pm

Id rather that than having to deal with you bejg all over women in your house all day

Diana - 3:02:29 pm

Just fuck them and get it over with already

Diana - 3:02:34 pm

Seriously

Me - 3:02:54 pm

I won't!! Not interested. Why can't you see that?

Diana - 3:03:11 pm

You will

Me - 3:03:13 pm

I'm interested in you. That's all

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

It's how you get your who fed

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

Being around women

Me - 3:03:29 pm

I don't just fuck people

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

It's kind of pathetic for an old man

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

Yet so common

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

Why won't you work alongside a sporting team?

Diana - 3:04:05 pm

Because you like and only like the company of lonely women

Diana - 3:04:19 pm

Women with needs you can fulfil

Diana - 3:04:26 pm

That's your ego fix

Me - 3:04:28 pm

I've had enough of this jealousy. I thought being friends and not fucking was supposed to fix this. It hasn't at all

Diana - 3:04:40 pm

And now they're coming into your home so you can swim with them

Diana - 3:04:46 pm

Oh right, Yep it's all me

Diana - 3:04:54 pm

Well I'll fuck someone and it'll be gone

Diana - 3:05:04 pm

Now you've had enough im sure you'll agree it's the best thing

Me - 3:05:18 pm

Goodbye Diana. Don't contact me again

Diana - 3:13:52 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:16:00 pm

Really?

Me - 3:19:27 pm

I love you. I want to be with you in whatever capacity you're able to give. But I'm not putting up with this shit anymore.

Diana - 3:18:08 pm

Ok then

Diana - 3:18:08 pm

I won't contact you again

Diana - 3:18:08 pm

Goodbye

**Week Thirteen**

**Monday 10 November**

Me - 7:16:38 am

You're vicious and you're nasty when you have a jealousy episode. It's impossible being the focus of those attacks. People interact with others in lots of ways, even with touch, but that doesn't have to mean anything sensual. You had the opportunity, with someone who loves you and would not have provided substance to your jealousy, to be able to begin taming those feelings. I don't know why that's not a good thing. I want to be with you but not as the one you lash out at, and not by attempting to tame those jealous feelings by fucking random people, or any other way than by trust.

Diana - 8:47:44 am

I can't reply to that in the middle of the morning rush, if you are even wanting a reply. Good luck this morning

Me - 10:32:15 am

Thanks. Had a nice chat

Diana - 11:19:12 am

I haven't had a phone all morning. I'm glad it went well

Diana - 11:46:13 am

I don't know whether you want me to talk to you or not

Diana - 11:46:20 am

My mum is in remission!

Me - 11:48:45 am

That's really awesome news. I'm so happy for you.

Diana - 11:49:04 am

The one morning she rings with the best news ever my phone decides to completely die!

Me - 11:52:54 am

Yes, I want to talk to you. But we have to talk in person sometime before this party you mentioned, in 2 weeks. And about my text this morning.

Diana - 11:53:20 am

I'm just going to call my mum back

Diana - 11:53:20 am

Then we can figure out a time maybe?

Me - 11:54:36 am

Sure. No particular hurry. But sooner is better

Diana - 11:57:28 am

I don't have any child free time until Thursday

Diana - 11:57:36 am

Mum must've gone to work for a couple of hours

Me - 12:00:22 pm

Thursday's ok.

Me - 12:00:43 pm

You must be in such a great mood at the moment, about your mum.

Me - 12:01:06 pm

I'm glad.

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

Yea it's great news

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

It's been a long and hard year for her

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

All that chemo and radiation

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

She's a trooper

Me - 12:02:38 pm

And you too

Me - 12:03:05 pm

It's hard worrying when you have no control

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

Yea but I didn't have cancer so I had the easy bit

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

Some people came up to me this morning and questioned why you were leaving

Me - 12:05:50 pm

It's hard worrying for loved ones, even if they have the hard part of doing everything. In a tiny, tiny way compared to your mum, I know what it's like when kids are going through rough times (as adults). Of course, your mum's problems are/were life threatening, so much worse

Diana - 12:06:48 pm

Yea you're right. You can't compare but it's been a hard year, driving back and forward and the effect it's had on our relationship, it's a great great thing but so challenging

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

I burnt almost 680 calories doing your circuit this morning

Me - 12:18:28 pm

It's interesting that you mentioned working with sporting clubs last night, in the middle of everything else. My daughter suggested the same thing at lunch yesterday. I hadn't thought of that option. I've just got her to send some info.

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

We spoke about it s couple of weeks ago.

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

You said it was too hard and that's what started the whole going back to uni discussion

Me - 12:19:36 pm

You probably need a few more circuits. To keep the interest up. I should write some more.

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

Remember on the beach?

Diana - 12:18:56 pm

Same as we had discussed you doing home gym

Me - 12:20:01 pm

I remember the uni discussion

Diana - 12:20:04 pm

You don't seem to remember our conversations

Diana - 12:20:28 pm

You said it was too hard to get attached to a club

Diana - 12:20:28 pm

That some people even have to pay

Diana - 12:20:33 pm

Cause they're such sought after positions

Diana - 12:20:37 pm

Don't you remember that?

Me - 12:20:49 pm

That's for "real" clubs, I remember that

Me - 12:21:01 pm

I hadn't thought of the "tiny" clubs

Diana - 12:21:04 pm

Oh I didn't know there was a difference between real clubs and clubs

Diana - 12:21:04 pm

My apologies

Me - 12:21:54 pm

The ones with no money but the players are amateurs and working in jobs so could maybe afford s and c

Me - 12:22:21 pm

I was talking about the footy clubs etc. can't get into them

Diana - 12:22:22 pm

I suggested the home gym and the clubs, yet you make out those conversations never happen and say your daughter came up with the ideas. I don't understand why you do that

Me - 12:22:23 pm

Need to pay

Diana - 12:22:33 pm

Anyway that's good

Diana - 12:22:35 pm

I hope it works for you

Diana - 12:23:12 pm

Anyway I told the trainers you'd still be training but wanted a more specialised field

Diana - 12:23:12 pm

So the truth really

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

We seem to be in a bad dynamic

Diana - 12:36:35 pm

Perhaps we should do the dinner, to get closure on the journey we have had together, cause it has been amazing and then walk from each other's lives.

Diana - 12:37:00 pm

I'd like to go to the dinner with you, because you've been my world for 3 months.

Diana - 12:37:04 pm

I hope you want to also.

Me - 12:56:34 pm

"Bad dynamic"? That's usually caused by misunderstandings and a lack of talking. Pretty normal part of the ups and downs of any long term "relationship", even one as unique as ours. Do we just walk away? Or do we try to find a way through? Walking is the easy option, but you can't walk from every relationship that has a hard time. That gets pretty lonely after a while. It's a part of my text this morning. Decide if there is trust, and build on that. But it needs a decision as to if it's worth it. I think the last 12 weeks says yes. I don't think it would take too much effort on your part once you believe it's worth while and can trust.

Me - 1:17:40 pm

Just tried the suit on and it still fits perfectly. But I may need advice on tie selection :)

Diana - 1:18:40 pm

That's a shame! No new suit buying ;)

Diana - 1:20:01 pm

I just spoke to Neil re work, he is going to swap to morning shifts so I can do afternoons. It's going to still be tricky until Joel is at school but it should pan out ok after that

Me - 1:20:39 pm

That's great. You're pretty lucky having him. Now to just sort out Jarrod. :))

Diana - 1:20:48 pm

Jarrod is sorted as far as looking after Imogen is concerned, he's easy and flexible

Diana - 1:20:48 pm

It's the lobotomy that's the issue ;))

Me - 1:21:24 pm

Haha

Me - 1:24:12 pm

And I don't mean your lucky to just have Neil, you deserve the best. Just lucky in that it could be much worse :)

Diana - 1:25:04 pm

It really could be couldn't it

Diana - 1:27:12 pm

Ok I'm going to see Steve, Joel has his sky landers cards. This is the last time I'm going to go though

Me - 1:28:51 pm

Ok. That's good. And I'm off to wait at the Medicare office in frankston. They've stuffed up my address change (4 years ago!!) and I have to do it in person.

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

Oh bugger

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

I just totally creeped out Imogen and the kids at school by honking as I drove past

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

She's gonna kill me

Me - 1:31:28 pm

Haha. The embarrassing mum! Don't worry, I did that stuff too. :)

Diana - 1:31:28 pm

She ran to say hi but when she saw the nigger kids looks on their faces she became all embarrassed!

Me - 1:33:44 pm

"Nigger kids" ??? Wtf?

Diana - 1:33:36 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 1:33:36 pm

Bigger!

Me - 1:34:33 pm

Oh! Phew. Haha

Me - 1:35:51 pm

It's a bit sad how that peer pressure changes kids so quickly. That may be the last time she'll do that at school. Or at least check that no one is watching when she does.

Diana - 1:35:44 pm

All good there's no niggers at the primary school ;)

Diana - 1:35:44 pm

I know :(

Diana - 1:35:44 pm

Got to happen though I guess

Me - 1:37:01 pm

Yep. Part of "growing up". Good and bad. It's both.

Diana - 1:40:22 pm

I just got suckered in to a milkshake after doctors

Me - 1:46:02 pm

Joel's smart and a good negotiator :)

Me - 1:46:15 pm

Knows when to bargain

Me - 1:51:44 pm

This shows my hatred of shopping malls. Parked on the street at the back of the cinemas and walked to the mall haha

Me - 2:15:26 pm

Hmmm. Not in the mall. Moved to near the primary school. No updates on the web site, of course. Haha. Still walked here though. Now sitting and waiting...

Diana - 2:16:16 pm

I just remembered

Diana - 2:16:16 pm

I did the same thing a few months ago

Diana - 2:16:16 pm

Medicare have combined with Centrelink

Diana - 2:16:46 pm

Sorry I didn't think of it earlier

Me - 2:16:48 pm

Yeah. I know

Me - 2:17:02 pm

Lovely place to sit and wait :))

Me - 2:17:34 pm

No problems. I didn't really explain. Nice day for a walk anyway

Me - 2:17:40 pm

Even in frankston haha

Me - 2:19:05 pm

And on a side note. How can we "walk" from what we've done this arvo. Relating stuff. So cool. Anyway, that's for Thursday, I guess :)

Me - 2:29:41 pm

All done. Not so bad in the end. The queues were for centre link. It's an odd sensation of escape and freedom having done tasks like those and be driving away. Like running from claustrophobia.

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

Centrelink is a hideous place

Diana - 2:56:48 pm

We are almost home

Diana - 2:58:03 pm

Time for school pick up

Diana - 2:58:26 pm

Neil is taking Joel swimming so I get to go to the gym tomorrow

Diana - 2:58:55 pm

Which is good cause Thursday and Friday need to be yoga days

Me - 2:59:13 pm

That's great about gym.

Me - 2:59:37 pm

I'm "safe" at home now :)

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

Steve is getting foam rollers in on Friday

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

I'm going to grab one

Me - 3:03:51 pm

What did he do today?

Diana - 3:03:12 pm

They look good and they're half size which suits me

Diana - 3:07:28 pm

My necks getting better, I forgot I wasn't supposed to do anything overhead and did some today. My feet and calves are a mess and he wants to come into the gym with me to see me squat and deadlift

Me - 3:09:16 pm

Are you going to? I thought today was going to be the last appointment.

Diana - 3:13:19 pm

I don't know

Diana - 3:13:49 pm

I can't afford to see him this frequently that's for sure

Diana - 3:14:08 pm

Then I feel rude just cancelling too

Me - 3:15:13 pm

I think it's a mistake to ask clients to come back so quickly. They need to work on corrective stuff for awhile and then make changes after you see the results

Me - 3:16:05 pm

If you're not comfortable. Just call reception and cancel. And if you see him in the gym, tell the truth. Too expensive to see too often.

Diana - 3:17:17 pm

He said after the next time we would slow down visits

Diana - 3:17:45 pm

The frequency is due to him suspecting I have disc damage and needing an mri

Diana - 3:18:37 pm

But with the improvement he saw today he doesn't suspect it as much but wants to see me Friday, I made the appointment for next Monday though so I get paid first

Me - 3:19:09 pm

Really? But it's great it may not be disc

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

Yes, he suspected disc damage in my neck but it's improved enough for him to think it may just be joint damage

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

So no mri at this point

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

Then the feet is another issue I guess

Me - 3:20:59 pm

That's awesome. I guess. Still damage though. But fixable

Me - 3:22:01 pm

Just rolling made all that difference? Has he said anything about massage? If so, what areas?

Me - 3:23:11 pm

If he tells you which cervical vertebrae I could do some stuff around that area. If he thinks that's advisable

Diana - 3:45:21 pm

I've been doing exercises too

Diana - 3:45:37 pm

I don't know about the vertebrae

Me - 3:45:51 pm

Ok

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

Just got off the phone to mum

Me - 4:02:21 pm

How is she?

Diana - 4:02:23 pm

I don't think it's that serious

Diana - 4:02:27 pm

Well I hope not

Me - 4:02:29 pm

Must be feeling good

Diana - 4:02:30 pm

She is good

Diana - 4:02:41 pm

Wants me to book a Xmas dinner so no one has to cook

Diana - 4:02:56 pm

She thanked me for going down all year

Diana - 4:02:56 pm

And for sticking by her

Me - 4:03:02 pm

That's nice. Easy I guess.

Diana - 4:02:56 pm

That I was the only one

Diana - 4:02:56 pm

Yes easy

Diana - 4:02:56 pm

I'd like to cook for her though

Diana - 4:02:56 pm

Try to ;)

Me - 4:03:31 pm

So good for you to get that from your mum

Me - 4:03:42 pm

Appreciation is worth it

Me - 4:04:04 pm

She still has much treatment to go?

Diana - 4:02:56 pm

Nothing until February

Me - 4:04:36 pm

And maybe nothing again?

Me - 4:05:02 pm

That's such a relief. She must be very happy too. Did she sound it?

Diana - 4:05:04 pm

More down the track

Diana - 4:05:04 pm

But nothing until then

Me - 4:05:38 pm

Going to cook anyway :))

Me - 4:05:48 pm

I mean with a ?

Diana - 4:05:04 pm

With a?

Me - 4:06:41 pm

Are you going to cook Xmas dinner anyway?

Diana - 4:06:49 pm

There was a coffee machine in the op shop, I should have got it, I thin mine just made its last one :/

Diana - 4:06:56 pm

I think so

Diana - 4:06:59 pm

I'll think about it

Diana - 4:07:04 pm

Easy would be good

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

But.. It'd be a nice thing to do

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

I can't cook s pig though

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

Maybe Turkey

Me - 4:07:48 pm

Maybe cook something's and order others. Maybe?

Me - 4:08:02 pm

Cook the special stuff?

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

Don't know

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

I'll think about it

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

It's hard with the kids birthdays being so close to Xmas

Diana - 4:07:12 pm

It's a tricky time of year

Diana - 4:09:20 pm

Did you just get a text about dinner?

Me - 4:10:31 pm

No. You did I assume?

Me - 4:10:32 pm

What was it?

Diana - 4:09:20 pm

Just about whether I was going and if I needed transport

Me - 4:11:12 pm

You do don't you?

Me - 4:11:40 pm

Do you want me to contact him? Because it's both of us, isn't it?

Diana - 4:11:28 pm

I've replied

Diana - 4:11:28 pm

Maybe send him s text confirming you are going though

Me - 4:13:33 pm

And you told him about transport too?

Diana - 4:15:44 pm

Yep

Diana - 4:16:10 pm

I'm pretty sore after today's workout

Me - 4:16:43 pm

Sore where?

Diana - 4:17:09 pm

Bum! And whatever the front of legs are called

Diana - 4:17:19 pm

I did 60kg hip thrusts

Me - 4:18:41 pm

That's awesome if your bum is sore! Haha. It's what we want :)

Me - 4:18:46 pm

Quads at the front

Me - 4:19:43 pm

Both get a workout during hip thrusts. Might change them to glute bridge thrusts instead, to just target the glutes

Diana - 4:20:31 pm

I think the quads might be sort from deadlifts?

Me - 4:21:33 pm

Ok. I'll text him back. I just told him to make sure I get on the transport too.

Diana - 4:21:43 pm

Cool

Diana - 4:21:52 pm

Why do we have 'guests'?

Diana - 4:21:55 pm

What is that?

Me - 4:22:05 pm

No idea.

Me - 4:22:14 pm

I'll ask

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

Doesn't matter

Diana - 4:22:46 pm

I'm pretty sure it'll be Adhoc

Me - 4:24:32 pm

Michale said he'd work it out. My guess is that you could bring husband/wife/partner to the dinner. Maybe they stuffed up and put someone down in the wrong column, next to your name. It's sorted now. :)

Diana - 4:36:39 pm

Did you tell him I didn't have a guest?

Me - 4:37:12 pm

Yes

Diana - 4:37:04 pm

I've been busy making s slater bug enclosure

Me - 4:37:40 pm

So, farming then. :))

Me - 4:42:24 pm

I'm going to try eating a meal now. See if I can squeeze one more in today.

Diana - 4:57:17 pm

We just found a leech!

Diana - 4:57:30 pm

Black and yellow striped leech

Me - 4:58:28 pm

Wonder what it's feeding on in your garden?

Diana - 5:00:32 pm

Worms

Me - 5:02:54 pm

Oh. I didn't know that. I thought they needed bigger stuff. Cool.

Me - 5:04:01 pm

I've walked through forests with literally hundreds of them waving away in branches looking for something to latch onto. Was me quite a few times :)

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

http://www.natgeocreative.com/comp/RF4/494/1084679.jpg

Me - 5:08:17 pm

Cool.

Me - 5:08:56 pm

Did you take a picture of your one?

Diana - 5:08:59 pm

It looked like that

Diana - 5:47:33 pm

Ok I'm going to do workout 3 tomorrow, I just went through it

Diana - 5:47:48 pm

I'm not supposed to do any upper body stuff though so I'll leave that out

Me - 5:48:03 pm

Everything else is understandable?

Diana - 5:48:24 pm

Yep

Diana - 5:48:34 pm

It's going to kill with how sore I already am :)

Me - 5:49:08 pm

I'll check, I have it here

Diana - 5:49:11 pm

No chins :( no deltoid blaster routine?? Whatever that is and no one arm rows

Diana - 5:49:15 pm

The rest is fine

Me - 5:49:42 pm

Don't do deltoid blaster, it's all shoulders

Diana - 5:50:00 pm

No I'm not doing any upper body stiff

Me - 5:50:00 pm

Do you know elephant walk?

Diana - 5:50:01 pm

Stuff

Diana - 5:50:06 pm

I already got told off today

Me - 5:50:25 pm

Steve just messaged me in FB

Me - 5:50:30 pm

About leaving

Diana - 5:50:37 pm

Yes I told him

Diana - 5:50:45 pm

Sorry if I wasn't supposed to

Diana - 5:51:09 pm

He asked if you were taking me through stuff and I said you were leaving

Diana - 5:51:29 pm

He said you'd already told him you were going to

Me - 5:52:03 pm

Can't remember telling him. And his message was of surprise

Me - 5:52:20 pm

I only told you and the kids beforehand

Me - 5:52:32 pm

When it was definite

Me - 5:52:45 pm

Maybe I looked unhappy haha

Diana - 5:53:00 pm

Oh well

Diana - 5:53:08 pm

He said you'd told him you were thinking of it

Diana - 5:53:22 pm

Just didn't know it was happening so soon

Me - 5:53:49 pm

Ok

Diana - 5:57:17 pm

And Daniel was arrogant as hell about it too when I saw him

Diana - 5:57:42 pm

Just before that smarmy Michael showed up asking if I wanted to do his circuit

Diana - 5:57:44 pm

Arghh

Me - 5:58:12 pm

And that's a large part of why I'm leaving

Me - 5:59:42 pm

What was Dan saying that was arrogant?

Me - 6:01:02 pm

Just did an online fitness test. To get "age". Haha. I'm the fitness level of a 24 year old

Diana - 6:01:23 pm

What website?

Diana - 6:01:54 pm

Is the running class still an option?

Diana - 6:02:02 pm

I think you would have been good at that

Me - 6:02:11 pm

World Fitness Age. Through the Precision Nutrition Facebook post

Me - 6:02:31 pm

Post from 9 hours ago

Me - 6:02:49 pm

Yeah, thinking about options elsewhere

Me - 6:02:53 pm

Maybe

Me - 6:03:27 pm

I want to talk stuff through with you though. As my sounding board. Maybe Thursday?

Diana - 6:03:55 pm

Joel went to Maccas on the weekend and got given s girl toy. Instead of exchanging it he kept it because he knew Imogen would love it.

Diana - 6:04:00 pm

He really is a killer

Me - 6:04:13 pm

He's a "keeper" :))

Diana - 6:04:13 pm

He actually makes my heart hurt

Diana - 6:04:28 pm

But all the good ones die young

Diana - 6:04:32 pm

I know that sounds weird

Diana - 6:04:32 pm

But I've always had this fear Joel will die young

Me - 6:04:56 pm

Nice guys can still enjoy their lives!!! They get enjoyment from giving

Diana - 6:04:32 pm

He won't be able to be on the earth long

Diana - 6:04:32 pm

I know it sounds insane

Me - 6:05:11 pm

and it's your experience

Diana - 6:04:32 pm

I'm not saying he isn't enjoying life

Me - 6:05:17 pm

Not the same for everyone

Diana - 6:04:32 pm

He is one of the happiest people I know

Diana - 6:04:32 pm

But

Diana - 6:04:32 pm

Just a feeling

Me - 6:05:35 pm

But with your history it is

Diana - 6:05:53 pm

Maybe

Diana - 6:05:56 pm

Hopefully

Diana - 6:06:00 pm

God willing

Me - 6:06:04 pm

There is hope

Me - 6:06:33 pm

If I saw Joel, and knowing him, I'd think he'd end up really happy

Me - 6:06:56 pm

It's the simple things that there are lots of, and he'll enjoy those

Diana - 6:06:40 pm

And he has so many people who love him

Me - 6:07:20 pm

But he'll be different from you, and his sister too

Diana - 6:06:40 pm

Why do you say that?

Diana - 6:06:40 pm

Of course he will be?

Diana - 6:06:40 pm

Sometimes I feel like you think I'm an idiot

Diana - 6:06:40 pm

Especially when I talk about parenting

Me - 6:08:32 pm

No. Of course not. I'm just saying my experience. That's all

Me - 6:09:14 pm

May be right or wrong. It's just what I know worried in the end with my kids and the ones I've known. No reflection on your parenting.

Me - 6:09:20 pm

You're one if the best I've seen

Me - 6:09:36 pm

It's the love and the time that counts

Me - 6:09:48 pm

The time togerher with your kids

Me - 6:10:39 pm

I don't think you're an idiot. Not about anything. Just saying different stuff.

Me - 6:10:43 pm

Ok?

Me - 6:12:11 pm

Maybe it's because I can remember stuff that my kids did at this age and then what happened next with them. And I tell you that. But it's not a reflection on you. It's just talk.

Me - 6:12:27 pm

Every kid is different

Me - 6:13:12 pm

But there are patterns, but you can't parent to a pattern.

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

But saying he will be different from me and his sister? I mean that's obvious I don't understand where you're coming from

Diana - 6:15:12 pm

They're running around smacking me on the bum cause they know it hurts!

Me - 6:15:49 pm

Ok. Just trying to allay fears. I've known kids like Joel, and they've turned out great teenagers and young adults.

Me - 6:16:33 pm

Like Joel, not the same, obviously

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

Ok

Me - 6:35:42 pm

Going for an evening stroll again. Very European. I like it :)

Me - 6:35:50 pm

And very windy too haha

Diana - 6:47:12 pm

Editor: An image of the fitness test Mark took, showing Diana had a fitness age of a 20 year old

Diana - 6:47:12 pm

I think Michaels machine is probably more accurate

Diana - 6:47:12 pm

And I have a naturally low resting heart rate

Diana - 6:47:12 pm

Enjoy your walk

Me - 6:48:11 pm

That's pretty cool none the less.

Diana - 6:47:12 pm

It's the right season for it

Diana - 7:23:23 pm

Wow my legs and glutes are really sore

Me - 7:24:35 pm

Really? Want me to bring over a towel and some massage oil and fix them?

Me - 7:25:06 pm

Massage is good for DOMS.

Diana - 7:26:26 pm

Doms?

Diana - 7:26:42 pm

Jesus you wouldn't believe public school school fees!

Diana - 7:27:21 pm

I just opened the letter! Seriously they may as well go to the local catholic school if it wasn't full of mind washing bigotts

Me - 7:30:29 pm

Delayed onset muscle soreness

Diana - 7:29:52 pm

Well I just tried to get up off the couch and yelped in pain :)

Diana - 7:30:37 pm

Tomorrow is going to be fun :/

Me - 7:31:25 pm

What is the cost of school?

Me - 7:39:47 pm

Good show on sbs now. Michael Mosely on meat consumption.

Diana - 7:51:20 pm

We just had a massive lesson on Anzac Day

Diana - 7:51:34 pm

We watched a clip and Imogens eyes filled with tears

Diana - 7:51:38 pm

She's so beautiful

Diana - 7:51:59 pm

I love war stories I think she is going to love them with me

Diana - 7:52:19 pm

And that was after a massive lesson on the reproductive cycle of slater bugs

Diana - 7:52:25 pm

Or pill bugs

Me - 7:52:41 pm

I didn't know you liked war stories.

Diana - 7:52:40 pm

Or roly polys ;)

Me - 7:52:59 pm

Big night of learning :)

Me - 7:53:40 pm

The clip was Gallopolli?

Diana - 8:03:34 pm

Sure was

Diana - 8:03:52 pm

Yes a short 10 minute clip explaining Gallipoli

Diana - 8:04:00 pm

She bought a poppy today at school and it was important for her to know why and what it meant

Me - 8:05:35 pm

And that's why you're a good mum. Taking the time to explain and follow up, even though you can hardly move :)

Diana - 8:05:45 pm

I must remember the tooth fairy coming tonight too!

Diana - 8:05:53 pm

Haha!

Me - 8:05:56 pm

Who?

Diana - 8:05:57 pm

Yes moving is an issue

Me - 8:06:10 pm

Imogen lost the wobbly one?

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

Yes today at school

Me - 8:06:29 pm

Find it?

Diana - 8:06:08 pm

Yep her teacher wrapped it for her

Me - 8:06:44 pm

Haha

Me - 8:07:22 pm

You may think this weird, but I still have a couple of my kids lost teeth. Kept some of them :)

Me - 8:08:22 pm

For nostalgia time in the old folks home :))

Diana - 8:12:15 pm

Ha! As long as you don't put them in thinking they're you're own ;)

Diana - 8:12:21 pm

I don't think I'll keep them

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

I kept a lock of hair from their first hair cuts but teeth.. Don't know

Me - 8:12:56 pm

Better decide soon :))

Me - 8:13:02 pm

Limited supply

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Nope

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

A little too human for me

Diana - 8:16:48 pm

Besides im trying to forget I went though spew looking for the last one

Me - 8:18:11 pm

Haha. That's a memory that will be hard to lose.

Me - 8:18:36 pm

I've got the teeth in a few envelopes in the back of a cupboard I never use

Me - 8:19:27 pm

I kept them, then couldn't really throw them out

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

$4 and a passion fruit flower should do it

Me - 8:53:29 pm

$4. Wow! Inflation and the tooth fairy. :)

Me - 8:54:09 pm

The look on their faces in the morning eh? You want to bottle that to have over and over again

Me - 8:54:19 pm

Enjoy!

Diana - 8:57:18 pm

She's in my bed

Diana - 8:57:20 pm

The flower and money are in her room where she left her tooth

Diana - 8:57:49 pm

God willing I won't see her face in the morning ;)

Diana - 8:58:29 pm

Did you get to that gym supplies place?

Me - 8:58:31 pm

You've got it easy then, not trying to remove the tooth from under the pillow she's sleeping on

Me - 8:59:01 pm

Gym supplies tomorrow I think. Still need that stuff?

Diana - 8:59:02 pm

Haha! Nope we always put them in a glass of water

Diana - 8:59:10 pm

I have no idea why!!

Me - 8:59:29 pm

Tooth fairy likes to swim :))

Diana - 8:59:58 pm

My mum did it with us when we were kids

Diana - 9:00:02 pm

I may have to ask her!

Diana - 9:00:28 pm

I just did it automatically without even thinking

Me - 9:00:47 pm

We follow our parent's tradition

Me - 9:00:53 pm

We put it under our pillows

Me - 9:01:16 pm

And I never thought there was another way

Diana - 9:08:00 pm

Did Steven have any leads?

Diana - 9:08:00 pm

Wow they're eating cane toads now!

Me - 9:09:27 pm

Haha. Are those 2 texts related?

Me - 9:10:19 pm

Just had a sentence or two with Steve. I'll chat in person when I see him next. Maybe next week. And WTF about cane toads? Haha

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

The program is kinda short if I don't do any upper body

Diana - 9:10:08 pm

They're eating them as a solution to over population

Me - 9:10:50 pm

Do lower body 2 days then

Me - 9:11:07 pm

I need to change it really

Me - 9:11:21 pm

To add more stuff without upper body

Diana - 9:11:21 pm

I did Sunday and today, I'll just do as many reps as I can and spend longer stretching

Diana - 9:11:31 pm

I got to get on the rollers more I'm told

Me - 9:11:48 pm

Do you want me to buy stuff tomorrow?

Diana - 9:11:55 pm

And I've got yoga Thursday and Friday

Diana - 9:12:00 pm

Not if you're not going

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

I won't be up to day 1 again until Thursday or Friday

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

Steve has cheap rollers coming in so I can get one off him

Me - 9:12:47 pm

Ok. Let me write you a new 2 day program for in rhe meantime

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

The slider and bands though but there's no rush

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

I don't need a new one

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

Seriously

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

It's too much

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

I would like to do them all more than once

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

Until they're integrated and I find out what I like

Me - 9:13:26 pm

Ok

Me - 9:13:35 pm

That's easy then.

Me - 9:13:38 pm

:)

Diana - 9:13:43 pm

All these moves are familiar to you but I'm still learning them

Diana - 9:13:58 pm

So it's good to have time to get my head around then

Diana - 9:14:04 pm

I'm dumb remember :)

Me - 9:14:14 pm

I should really watch you for a bit, to check form

Me - 9:14:33 pm

Agh, remember what you said to me?

Me - 9:15:05 pm

That you like me because you don't have to dumb yourself down? So don't do it :)

Me - 9:16:46 pm

I'm a lazy housekeeper. Only got to washing sheets today. Even after rhe weekend. Putting them on now and I just want to get I to bed haha

Diana - 9:16:32 pm

I did 3 loads and put two away the basket is full again and there's another load wet in the machine :(

Diana - 9:16:32 pm

The floors still aren't mopped

Diana - 9:16:32 pm

It's totally depressing!

Diana - 9:18:15 pm

I hate being at home cause all I'm reminded of is what needs doing!

Diana - 9:18:17 pm

Argh

Me - 9:19:13 pm

You'll really be in trouble if the Queen comes to inspect tomorrow, won't you? Haha

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

It's not really about that

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

It's about how it makes me feel

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

Anyway

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

I'll catch you tomorrow

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

Night

Me - 9:25:40 pm

Night

**Tuesday 11 November**

Me - 10:05:05 am

Arrived! Now for some real shopping :))

Diana - 10:19:28 am

I didn't get a picture

Diana - 10:19:28 am

Are you at the craft shop again? ;)

Me - 10:21:02 am

Nc fitness

Me - 10:21:22 am

I'll try the picture again :)

Diana - 10:19:28 am

Cool

Diana - 10:19:28 am

I just finished training

Diana - 10:19:28 am

There's no squatting except for pistol squats?

Diana - 10:21:52 am

I just did practice bar over head for form and workout 3

Diana - 10:22:02 am

I've been rolling for 10 minutes in serious pain!

Me - 10:23:09 am

That's the glutes, yes? DOMS is supposed to be even worse the 2nd day, but then get better quickly

Me - 10:23:34 am

Just have to back off a little bit

Diana - 10:23:44 am

Yep I only did 40kg hip thrusts today Instead of 60

Me - 10:24:01 am

I got you some bands, but they don't have sliders

Me - 10:24:15 am

That's a good weight

Me - 10:24:28 am

Especially if 60 did that much damage

Me - 10:24:40 am

And only pistol squats sometimes, yes

Me - 10:25:15 am

That program won't last too long. I only meant it to be for those few weeks after the challenge

Me - 10:25:27 am

It should be changed regularly

Me - 10:25:37 am

Like a real coach would do :)

Me - 10:27:02 am

Let's try and figure out a way I can do that but not be at that gym. Maybe every 2 weeks at another gym down the road? Don't know.

Diana - 10:31:50 am

Editor: A random image of a couch

Diana - 10:32:03 am

Sorry I don't know how that sent :(

Diana - 10:32:16 am

Grabbing Joel and leaving gym and somehow a button was pushed

Me - 10:35:38 am

Haha. I watched it a couple of times before I read your text trying to figure out what it all meant. :))

Diana - 10:40:48 am

Thanks for getting the bands

Diana - 10:40:48 am

Did you get much else?

Diana - 10:40:48 am

I just ran into Donna

Diana - 10:40:48 am

She wants to catch up and train

Diana - 10:40:48 am

I don't want to train with her

Diana - 10:40:48 am

Or anyone

Diana - 10:40:48 am

She only knows you're having s week off?

Diana - 10:42:21 am

I didn't say anything else

Me - 10:43:43 am

I'll chat with Donna, if you like. And tell you prefer to train alone. And really, you're far too advanced for anything Donna does. Let me know and I'll take care of it

Me - 10:43:48 am

Yep. Spent toomuch :)

Me - 10:44:37 am

Ab wheel, kettlebells, mat, spikey foam roller. Cool stuff haha

Diana - 10:45:04 am

I don't need you to take care of Donna

Diana - 10:45:04 am

At most I'll do yoga with her

Diana - 10:45:04 am

That'd be fine

Diana - 10:45:04 am

Sounds like a good spending spree

Diana - 10:47:12 am

Now you have all day to try them out :)

Me - 10:48:38 am

Yeah I will! I wanted to be able to do a serious workout at home. I can now

Diana - 10:49:20 am

Maybe rebel have sliders

Me - 11:17:26 am

How cool is this? All set up :)

Me - 11:22:15 am

And inside. Great little functional training setup. Nothing really heavy, but the gym is for that stuff. It would be great when I get into 2 sessions per day. One at the gym, the other at home :))

Diana - 11:46:56 am

I can't see any pics for some reason

Diana - 11:46:56 am

Twice a day!

Diana - 11:46:56 am

Intense

Me - 11:54:14 am

Editor: Images of kettle bells, bands and a foam roller

Me - 11:56:00 am

Tried the images again

Me - 11:56:05 am

I'm going to need a new phone soon. All our texting has ruined this battery. It's almost dead by midday now. When we started it lasted all day. :)

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

Yea iPhones suck

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

Still those pics won't download

Diana - 12:04:54 pm

Come through now

Diana - 12:05:07 pm

That's a tiny roller! Cute

Me - 12:06:12 pm

Tinier the harder it is :)

Me - 12:06:40 pm

Who did you get for Joel this arvo?

Me - 12:08:03 pm

Or is scooby Doo going to work :)

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Karen is having him

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

I'm trepidatious but was out of options

Diana - 12:35:16 pm

We were fighting so I couldn't say yes to your offer

Diana - 12:35:28 pm

Though I'd feel more comfortable with him being with you

Diana - 12:35:42 pm

Anyway I'm going to have s rest before heading into work I'm exhausted

Me - 12:36:19 pm

I understand about Joel. Maybe, next time. Have a good rest

Diana - 2:34:59 pm

How did your workout go

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

I'm heading into work

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

Bus is $30!

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

Classy :/

Me - 2:36:06 pm

Really really good :) It was hard. And I finished it off with a few 250m sprints. Tired now :))

Me - 2:36:23 pm

Yeah a bus!! But too many I think for a limo

Me - 2:36:41 pm

Anyway, it's the company not the transport, right? Haha

Me - 2:37:07 pm

Have a good afternoon at work. It's a short session isn't it.

Diana - 2:37:21 pm

Yep 4 hours

Me - 2:38:33 pm

You can do heaps with kettlebells. Even decline presses! Saw them online yesterday and modified them for a single kettlebell. Tough anti rotational and chest exercise. Haha

Diana - 2:39:14 pm

I did the suitcase deadlifts today with them too

Me - 2:39:31 pm

Oh yeah. I forgot them

Diana - 2:39:35 pm

Just looking for extra stuff cause I couldn't do upper

Me - 2:40:19 pm

Decline presses might be good. More lower chest than shoulder. Maybe.

Me - 2:40:37 pm

I'll show you and you can decide

Me - 2:41:17 pm

Coffee time (I just got back and ate). Sitting outside. I'm really weary. Haha.

Diana - 2:41:23 pm

I like the Bulgarian squats too

Diana - 2:41:28 pm

Couldn't go too heavy cause so sore

Me - 2:41:37 pm

Soreness reducing?

Me - 2:41:49 pm

Hopefully tomorrow

Diana - 2:41:52 pm

Tomorrow I'm going in to do workout 4

Me - 2:43:43 pm

Just checked. I haven't shown you glute ham raise yet. Maybe fitball leg curls instead? For now?

Me - 2:44:12 pm

And I've got some new, harder crunches too :)

Diana - 2:45:40 pm

I did fb leg curls today

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

Mickael keeps coming over asking me about my program and what I'm training for

Diana - 2:46:08 pm

I told him the special Olympics ;)

Me - 2:47:13 pm

Haha

Me - 2:48:14 pm

Then try single leg FB leg curls then :)

Diana - 3:19:52 pm

Ok I'll give them a try

Diana - 3:20:07 pm

I just said a quick prayer to my car park God and drove straight into a park :)

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

Now I've got to try to get out of the car

Me - 3:20:58 pm

Haha. I was so lucky to have you in the car at the movies. We'd still be looking now, if not :))

Me - 3:21:15 pm

Need a sun roof!

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

And I forgot my dinner!

Me - 3:21:27 pm

For tight fits

Me - 3:21:34 pm

Did you cook some?

Diana - 3:20:16 pm

Oh well I ate way too much lunch

Me - 3:21:49 pm

During the prep right?

Diana - 3:21:50 pm

I had some roast vegetable salad

Diana - 3:22:07 pm

A sun roof?

Diana - 3:22:16 pm

You're a bit past mid life crisis ;)

Me - 3:22:39 pm

No. To get out of tight car parks! Haha

Me - 3:22:55 pm

Climb out! Joke!! :))

Me - 3:23:21 pm

You need a good reminder option to not forget dinner.

Me - 3:23:42 pm

Maybe set an alarm on your phone for each shift?

Diana - 3:22:24 pm

I just left it in the microwave defrosting

Me - 3:24:18 pm

Well, it close to being taken haha

Me - 3:24:24 pm

Maybe a late night snack

Diana - 3:24:32 pm

Stop trying to fix things!

Diana - 3:24:32 pm

I'm just text thinking and you're always trying to fix things

Diana - 3:24:32 pm

Like yesterday talking about Joel

Diana - 3:24:32 pm

Stop!

Diana - 3:24:32 pm

Ok I'm on my way in

Diana - 3:37:51 pm

And coffee

Me - 3:38:57 pm

Well, that's always on the list. At all times :)

Me - 3:39:10 pm

I've had about 8 today.

Me - 3:39:45 pm

Trouble hanging around home and doing computer based stuff.

Me - 3:40:03 pm

Need a "break" every 40 minutes. Haha

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

So go out then :)

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

Surf?

Me - 3:43:56 pm

I checked. No swell for this wind. Tomorrow maybe. And/or Thursday

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Birthday surf

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Joel and I can't get to yours until late afternoon Thursday

Me - 3:47:46 pm

Just anytime will be awesome! Thanks.

Me - 4:23:16 pm

Reading superannuation entitlement stuff. I hate this stuff but I should know what it's about. I always just leave it up to my accountant. It's hard to stay awake and take it in :)

Me - 4:28:16 pm

I'm reading "10 interesting facts about super". They lied! None are interesting at all :))

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

Yuk

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

Why don't you leave it to your accountant?

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

Or just ask him?

Me - 4:31:30 pm

I have. And I do. But thought I should know more.

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

I have to go for coffee now the call is over

Me - 4:32:22 pm

But you're right, it's too complex and too boring :)

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

No you're right

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

I just put my head in the sand

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

I need to get it out and figure some stuff out

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

I just realised the kids are only getting more expensive

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

It's frightening

Me - 4:33:30 pm

It can be expensive

Diana - 4:32:48 pm

That's why I am going to waste money on a coffee now :)

Me - 4:34:42 pm

But coffee is like breathing :)) Necessary for survival.

Diana - 5:10:54 pm

It's a drug

Diana - 5:10:55 pm

Stop glorifying it

Diana - 5:11:00 pm

Addict ;)

Me - 5:12:05 pm

No doubt about it :)

Diana - 5:15:28 pm

You know we are not really going to get a chance to chat before the dinner

Diana - 5:15:28 pm

And in your text when you wrote you want to be with me, you meant as friends right?

Diana - 5:16:20 pm

I think we shouldn't spend any time drinking alone together, we are both lonely and it's to easy to fuck things up between us, don't you think?

Diana - 5:16:24 pm

That's what I think anyway

Me - 5:40:26 pm

I think the hard part is done. Remember how you felt on the footpath after the Chinese doctor? We don't want to throw that away. We're based on a strong, intimate friendship but Sunday showed that it's more than that. It doesn't have to follow any previous path and I think we've got so far it would be sad to stop. It will take trust, that's mostly all. We may not be the perfect people for each other (age difference) but we're perfect for each other now. This week, month, rest of the year. It may last 6 months or 6 years but unless it ends naturally I can't see us successfully being friends only. I mean, just normal friends. I don't believe in walking from problems, and especially when the positives so outweigh the negatives. The kids like me and that's the second most important thing, the first is you trusting me and knowing there is no basis for jealousy. And even if you think it, we can talk and sort it out. I really believe, the hardest part has been negotiated and it's easier from here. Look at the last 2 days too. We can't stop talking to each other. But we both need to feel secure in this and that is by trust. There's lots more that could be said but if we haven't time to talk before Saturday then text is all we have. And it's not a bad thing, we're always together this way. But, I agree, a decision either way by this weekend is needed. I want to go on, call it friends, if you don't like lovers, but it includes physical sharing too. But we've shown, I think, a half way of trying to be "normal" friends is not possible. I guess, the choice is yours to make. But, again, I really think, the hard part is done and it's easier if we accept what this really is. It's awesome and it works for now.

Diana - 5:45:20 pm

I disagree with what you've written

Diana - 5:46:38 pm

And in everything you wrote you said 'we'

Diana - 5:46:45 pm

As in you think you know what I want

Diana - 5:46:59 pm

The only reason we slept with each other is because we got drunk

Diana - 5:47:07 pm

And I don't think we would have if we weren't

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

The jealousy stuff is me being confused because I did something that I knew wasn't right and lashed out

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

I don't think we should hang out when we are drinking alone like I said

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

I don't want a relationship

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

I say it over and over yet you then send a text saying we are perfect for each other now

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

It's like you never actually hear what I am saying

Diana - 5:48:36 pm

I want a friendship

Diana - 5:48:43 pm

I don't want any physical sharing

Diana - 5:48:51 pm

I don't want to hang out at night

Diana - 5:48:55 pm

Or hang out drunk

Diana - 5:49:31 pm

For me, it went against what I know to be the truth Saturday night

Diana - 5:49:36 pm

But I was lonely and so were you and we needed closure which at the time you said you got

Diana - 5:49:36 pm

A nice way to go out you said

Diana - 5:50:52 pm

And no we can't be normal friends with out history if we are drunk and alone

Diana - 5:50:55 pm

Not yet anyway

Diana - 5:51:06 pm

The friendship needs to be given the grace to develop

Diana - 5:51:22 pm

Do you think that is possible?

Me - 5:53:57 pm

No

Diana - 5:57:55 pm

So we've gone full circle again?

Me - 8:57:10 pm

Every time it's around my birthday this stuff happens. It makes me hate it. I'm sick of being treated like this by women, it must be something inherently unloveable about me. But, whatever it is, goodbye Diana. Please don't contact me again. This time it's permanent.

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

Are you going to the dinner?

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

Just tell me what is happening with that so I know what to expect

Diana - 8:59:28 pm

Then I won't ever contact you again

Me - 9:04:21 pm

No dinner

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

Ok

Diana - 9:03:44 pm

Goodbye then Mark, I won't contact you again.

**Wednesday 12 November**

No texts.

**Thursday 13 November**

Me - 2:51:36 pm

How about this idea? We try a less intense friendship. Sometimes hang out and with less texting. And if either of us start seeing someone or sleep with someone we promise to tell the other. Then jealousy is never an issue, and we can decide to end the friendship at that time, if we want to. In the short term, I would like to be at the dinner with you.

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

Happy birthday

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

And I'd like that

Me - 2:56:11 pm

Thanks

Diana - 2:58:23 pm

Have you been out your front door?

Me - 2:58:39 pm

The big thing is the "promise to tell". Are you ok with that? Jealousy, for me, in the short term, is the big hurdle.

Me - 2:58:58 pm

Of course! Had a great surf this morning.

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

Promise

Me - 2:59:09 pm

St Andrews

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

Since the surf?

Me - 2:59:31 pm

Had a meeting at the gym

Me - 2:59:56 pm

Been home since. Pretty tired haha. Haven't had a surf like that in a while

Me - 3:00:17 pm

Working out now with my new stuff in the garage

Me - 3:00:34 pm

Paddle soon. Went for one yesterday

Me - 3:00:52 pm

And I promise too

Diana - 3:00:55 pm

Go out the front door

Me - 3:03:33 pm

You can't know what that means to me. Thank you!! And even though we're just friends it's part of why I love you. Thank you.

Me - 4:07:31 pm

This just came back from Michael. He is a good friend.

Me - 4:13:00 pm

And this is what I said back to him. I think it'll be ok. I'll try and think a bit more before I act or say anything in the future.

Diana - 4:15:05 pm

Nothing is coming through

Me - 4:17:09 pm

Editor: Images of a text conversation with Michael

Me - 4:17:48 pm

Sent the images again. They say delivered

Diana - 4:17:52 pm

I left my keys somewhere! While ee were talking, I have no idea where!

Diana - 4:18:22 pm

Not delivered but maybe still coming through

Diana - 4:21:43 pm

See my arms still aren't high enough. Not enough length in Achilles calves or quads or strength in back. Argh

Diana - 4:21:53 pm

Still nothing coming through

Diana - 4:21:57 pm

From your end

Me - 4:24:15 pm

Yeah, you need more extension through your thoracic spine. It takes practice and lots of stretching. I'll bring my yoga block in tomorrow

Diana - 4:24:16 pm

Things are coming through with a question mark on then

Diana - 4:24:16 pm

Them

Diana - 4:24:16 pm

I've not seen that before

Me - 4:25:15 pm

Can you see the images?

Me - 4:25:32 pm

I'll try emailing them.

Diana - 4:25:39 pm

Nope nothing :/

Me - 4:27:41 pm

I just emailed them. This is crap service though. When you really need to send something it doesn't come through

Me - 4:28:28 pm

It was just Michael saying it was none of his business and no one knows.

Diana - 4:28:29 pm

Yes I thought maybe it's the new phone?

Diana - 4:28:32 pm

It hasn't happened before

Me - 4:28:44 pm

I got your image

Me - 4:29:16 pm

Check your gmail account

Diana - 4:30:40 pm

Ok

Diana - 4:37:04 pm

Did he say you can get back on the bus?

Diana - 4:37:04 pm

And I'm sure he'll defend your professionalism

Diana - 4:37:04 pm

It was my fault too

Me - 4:38:17 pm

Haven't heard back. He's probably working

Me - 4:38:59 pm

Let's try and move on, eh? Fresh start from today?

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

Check

Me - 5:04:55 pm

And I can't find you on Facebook anymore. "Content not found". Did you block me or something? Can you undo that maybe?

Me - 5:41:12 pm

I've been staring at the food basket. I still can't believe your thoughtfulness and generosity. :-) :-) :-)

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

I think I just fucked my shoulder paddling :/ but Joel came all the way out with me and we saw a sting ray and port Joelson shark :)

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

I'm glad you like it, it's a kinda corny present

Me - 6:33:23 pm

That's great about Joel. Bummer about your shoulder :(

Me - 7:03:29 pm

Thanks. I know about it, but I have the running course that weekend. It's a real shame.

Me - 7:34:14 pm

That chocolate is awesome!!! How did you stop at one block? Haha

Diana - 7:42:40 pm

Who said I did?

Diana - 7:42:40 pm

I just stopped eating yours!

Diana - 7:42:40 pm

That's why I am fat now

Diana - 8:01:15 pm

Sumo and single dl tomorrow

Me - 8:02:40 pm

They'll be good. Sumo will hit the glutes again! :))

Me - 8:06:32 pm

Chocolate all gone ;)

Diana - 8:08:00 pm

Yep

Diana - 8:08:14 pm

Hit the same spot as crack cocaine

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

Are you seeing any other clients?

Me - 8:08:47 pm

Couldn't stop until it was over. Could have a few more I reckon haha

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

Maybe just show me enough to get through the rest of your workout?

Me - 8:09:03 pm

Not tomorrow.

Diana - 8:08:16 pm

So I don't take too much time

Me - 8:09:21 pm

I only work on Tuesday and Thursday morning

Me - 8:09:33 pm

I'll train tomorrow

Diana - 8:09:43 pm

Yes it's heavy and rich and delicious and attaches straight to my stomach!

Diana - 8:10:03 pm

After the dinner I think I'm going to join an online 12 week nutrition thingy

Diana - 8:10:24 pm

Ok well just pick one or two things To show me then you can do your own thing rather than me interrupt your training

Me - 8:11:58 pm

There's only a few more things to show. We'll see how we go.

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

Catalyst

Diana - 8:12:32 pm

Discussing low carb diets

Diana - 8:18:56 pm

Can I email you the ticket for sat night? I just got a reminder saying I need to print it but I don't have a printer

Me - 8:20:24 pm

Of course. I've got to print mine too

Diana - 8:18:56 pm

Thanks

Diana - 8:42:24 pm

You deleted my deadlift pics on Insta?

Me - 8:45:01 pm

Sorry. Moment of weakness. I regretted it straight away. I still have the images.

Diana - 8:44:32 pm

Haha! It doesn't matter

Me - 8:54:47 pm

My daughter's just gone. That was a lot of fun, just like the "old days", of a few months ago :)

Diana - 8:57:20 pm

That's cool

Diana - 8:57:20 pm

Glad you had a good bday dinner :)

Diana - 8:57:20 pm

I forgot sorry otherwise I wouldn't have texted through it!

Me - 8:58:14 pm

No cooking, no washing up and good food and company.

Me - 8:58:57 pm

How do you get those pictures taken of you in the water? The one with Joel is cool

Diana - 9:00:41 pm

Karen took that one while Dan and I took the kids out

Diana - 9:00:55 pm

She didn't want to go out.

Diana - 9:02:31 pm

The original was pretty bad, lots of post on it ;)

Me - 9:04:52 pm

"post"? Post production? Remember, I don't know that stuff :))

Me - 9:14:04 pm

I know I'm going on about this but your gesture today has floored me. Even more given the state we were in. I can't remember a non family member being so generous, and even most family members for a long time (eg my father has forgotten. Sigh!). I'll remember it for a long time. Thanks.

Diana - 9:16:32 pm

It's totally cool :)

Me - 9:18:28 pm

Just printed the tickets. All good.

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

Might be a good thing you didn't go out yesterday

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

http://m.theage.com.au/victoria/great-white-shark-feeding-frenzy-on-whale-carcass-at-st-andrews-beach-says-shark-patroller-ric-wilson-20141113-11lso2.html

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

Or did you today?

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

Hahaha!

Diana - 9:20:48 pm

Thanks for the print

Diana - 9:23:09 pm

I'm going to go chill out before heading to bed

Diana - 9:23:14 pm

I'll see you at the gym tomorrow

Me - 9:24:38 pm

That was exactly where I was surfing today. Haha Didn't see anything. See you tomorrow.

**Friday 14 November**

Diana - 11:58:18 am

What happened

Me - 12:04:49 pm

I'd call you but I'm in the supermarket. You seemed out of sorts today, looks like you're in a lot of pain. Was that the problem today? But, I'm at a loss to know what I did wrong.

Diana - 12:06:06 pm

Well you gave me the block to use but it felt like you were practically on top of me while j was trying it, so I told you I needed some personal space and you walked off!

Diana - 12:06:08 pm

Then when I asked you about stuff you weren't even present, you told me to use those bars and weren't even focused on what I was asking

Diana - 12:07:55 pm

After that I just cracked the shits

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Then I got angrier when you were chatting and laughing with michael in front of me that you told him

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Can you please email me the texts

Diana - 12:09:29 pm

They're about me I have a right to see them

Me - 12:34:33 pm

Editor: Images of text conversations

Me - 12:21:07 pm

And that's everything. Michael and I have never discussed you and I in person. I hope this clears things up. I'll try emailing them too, just in case iMessage isn't working again

Diana - 12:53:04 pm

And today?

Diana - 12:53:04 pm

You told me I wasn't the reason you quit yet you complain to Michael that you know what it's like to move on?

Diana - 12:53:04 pm

Well I'm glad you do, cause you must be good at it then and it shouldn't be hard

Diana - 12:53:04 pm

You really like the sympathy vote don't you

Diana - 12:56:50 pm

Wither version could be old man preys on woman 20 years his junior by addressing her vulnerabilities around self esteem and money? That's another version you could have written? Just saying

Diana - 12:56:59 pm

I'm sorry

Diana - 12:57:07 pm

I'm angry you told michael

Diana - 12:57:20 pm

And I'm

Angry you stormed off in the gym like s kid cause I wanted some personal space

Me - 12:59:29 pm

Michael will never think less of you, or me, because of what happened. I hope you're not too ashamed of what happened between us. It will never go any further, you know that. It was a beautiful thing, I think.

Me - 12:59:40 pm

and I'm allowed to crack the shits too

Me - 1:00:11 pm

When you told me, with a frown, to get out of your space, of course I was upset.

Diana - 1:00:34 pm

Well why??

Diana - 1:00:36 pm

Seriously?

Diana - 1:00:43 pm

You're my coach at the gym

Diana - 1:00:53 pm

You really need some boundaries at work!!

Me - 1:01:33 pm

I'm not your coach. I thought we'd discussed that. We're just mates and I'm helping you out with programming.

Diana - 1:01:36 pm

Ok then even as mates! You said you got the thing about personal space

Me - 1:02:07 pm

That's what I thought.

Diana - 1:01:36 pm

You were literally in my space. Don't you get that?

Me - 1:02:09 pm

Sure space

Diana - 1:02:11 pm

You said you did

Me - 1:02:21 pm

But why so angry?

Diana - 1:02:31 pm

You said you needed to stop touching people without their permission on the shoulder etc

Diana - 1:02:43 pm

Because you know!! We have been though it so many times!!

Me - 1:02:47 pm

I didn't touch you today

Diana - 1:02:52 pm

And Maybe you read anger that wasn't there

Diana - 1:02:55 pm

You weren't right

Diana - 1:03:07 pm

You say I wasn't right but gee your head was in the clouds

Diana - 1:03:25 pm

I know you didn't touch me, my point was you said you got what I thought about personal space and respected it

Diana - 1:03:31 pm

You missed the point

Diana - 1:03:33 pm

Argh

Me - 1:03:46 pm

And you don't think you were grumpy right from the start today?

Me - 1:04:09 pm

As soon as I said hello

Me - 1:04:23 pm

You frowned at me

Me - 1:04:28 pm

Interrupting you

Me - 1:04:52 pm

But you smile at others, even when they're being annoying

Diana - 1:05:06 pm

Right

Diana - 1:05:19 pm

So usual you're the victim

Diana - 1:05:22 pm

No responsibility

Diana - 1:05:25 pm

All my fault

Diana - 1:05:27 pm

That's right

Diana - 1:05:30 pm

Poor mark

Diana - 1:05:33 pm

Always the victim

Diana - 1:05:41 pm

Yep mark it was all me

Diana - 1:05:46 pm

You were on point as usual

Me - 1:05:54 pm

Today, it was you

Diana - 1:05:52 pm

Bullshit

Diana - 1:06:47 pm

You walked off like a baby

Diana - 1:07:00 pm

Because I wanted my personal space respected

Diana - 1:07:05 pm

Like a hurt little baby

Me - 1:07:21 pm

And when I tried to talk to you later, you threw back the gifts I'd given you

Diana - 1:07:43 pm

Yep and I explained the process of that also

Diana - 1:07:55 pm

After you were chatting and laughing with michael I got angry

Diana - 1:08:00 pm

Don't suppose you could understand that either because you have an inability to empathise what it would be like for me, and that's why you told him in he first place

Me - 1:08:28 pm

So, why did you ignore me when I first said hello?

Diana - 1:08:00 pm

I didn't

Diana - 1:08:00 pm

You started chatting with Ian

Me - 1:08:45 pm

After you did!

Diana - 1:09:00 pm

Oh so I didn't fall over you when it suited you??

Diana - 1:09:07 pm

Geez no wonder you're hurt

Me - 1:09:16 pm

Just a smile, that's all

Me - 1:09:22 pm

Not a frown

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

Fuck I've honesty never met anyone with such an inability to accept their role in stuff

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

You told michael about us

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

It's our first time in the gym together and you're honestly telling me it's all my behaviour

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

You know what mark, I can't do this

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

I'm sorry

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

Let's just grit our teeth through the dinner and then have seperate days in the gym along with separate lives

Diana - 1:11:18 pm

I can't even do this I'm sorry

Diana - 1:11:28 pm

The dinner should be the last time we spend together

Diana - 1:11:44 pm

Closure

Diana - 1:11:53 pm

Thankfully the dinner will give us closure

Diana - 1:16:32 pm

And yes I was grumpy

Diana - 1:16:32 pm

And I'm sorry I couldn't manage more

Diana - 1:16:32 pm

I wanted to

Diana - 1:16:32 pm

But I couldn't pick up my mood

Me - 1:17:44 pm

Today, I was in a great mood coming into the gym. I was really looking forward to seeing you. But from the start you were uncomfortable that I was there. I could feel that. I felt the same last weekend at the movies and that time, you didn't want to be with me, you never even smiled and were distracted. I was willing to give this a go, I really thought it would work. Although it would take time to settle.

Diana - 1:16:32 pm

And then I spiralled

Me - 1:18:09 pm

Can we talk please?

Diana - 1:16:32 pm

Yes you're right

Diana - 1:18:17 pm

I am about to have an app

Diana - 1:18:20 pm

I'll call after

Diana - 1:18:40 pm

Sorry I'm literally being called In

Me - 1:19:39 pm

To work?

Me - 1:22:06 pm

Let's work out some short term boundaries and get over these hurdles. Until we can both settle into our new roles in this friendship.

Me - 1:27:27 pm

And if you're going to work early, don't forget your dinner! :)

Diana - 2:00:16 pm

Not working and no dinner

Diana - 2:00:24 pm

Though I'm starving

Me - 2:03:15 pm

Where are you now? Why can't you eat?

Me - 2:03:58 pm

I'm walking up to the shops to buy a bottle of wine for us to drink on the bus :)

Me - 2:04:12 pm

And others too, if they want

Diana - 2:05:36 pm

You're not serious?

Diana - 2:06:22 pm

I'm not drinking on the bus!

Me - 2:07:33 pm

Apparently it's what everyone does because the drinks at the dinner are really expensive. You don't think so?

Me - 2:07:38 pm

I'll buy wine anyway

Me - 2:07:58 pm

And just leave it at home, if we don't need it tomorrow

Diana - 2:07:44 pm

Michael did say he wanted to get you drunk

Diana - 2:07:44 pm

Just take it

Diana - 2:07:44 pm

You can drink it

Me - 2:08:21 pm

Did he?

Diana - 2:07:44 pm

Just because I'm not doesn't mean you shouldn't!!

Me - 2:08:41 pm

You're not drinkning?

Diana - 2:08:52 pm

Not on the bus

Diana - 2:08:54 pm

Jesus

Diana - 2:09:23 pm

I'd die if I spilt it on my dress

Me - 2:09:30 pm

Of course

Diana - 2:09:48 pm

Just get some and you and michael can drink

Diana - 2:09:52 pm

Given you're such good buddies ;))

Me - 2:10:54 pm

Haha. That hurts but is funny.

Me - 2:11:06 pm

We've never drink togerher just played golf

Me - 2:17:40 pm

Where are you now? Why can't you eat?

Diana - 2:18:24 pm

I can, I'm just getting coffee

Diana - 2:29:31 pm

I have to run and find shoes and a clutch for tomorrow night

Diana - 2:29:52 pm

Kinda left it to the last minute with all the tooing and froing

Me - 2:30:14 pm

Ahh, ok. Whatever a clutch is. :)

Me - 2:30:17 pm

Need help?

Diana - 2:30:32 pm

Help?

Me - 2:30:48 pm

Clutching? :)

Me - 2:31:19 pm

Just asked, if you needed me to get something before tkdmorrow

Diana - 2:33:20 pm

No it's cool

Diana - 2:33:20 pm

I'll just have to grab whatever I can find

Me - 4:17:20 pm

Were you able to get your accessories?

Me - 4:18:36 pm

And there's a new optimum nutrition pre workout released. Gold Standard. Haha. Must be good!!

Diana - 5:21:52 pm

Order now ;))

Diana - 5:46:36 pm

Editor: Image of Imogen swinging on the clothes line

Diana - 5:46:37 pm

She thinks I'm not watching

Me - 5:48:47 pm

I used to do that! I can still remember the thrill. So cool! And I got yelled at for doing it. Didn't stop me. It never really changes does it. :)

Diana - 5:49:29 pm

I pretend I can't see but we both know I can :)

Diana - 5:49:36 pm

She's singing and being a monkey, how can one yell at that?

Diana - 5:51:12 pm

I just had the fright of my life though, while Joel and I were at karate the school rang to say Imogen was missing from after school care. I rang everyone to see if they'd taken her home and no one had. I rushed to the school and it turned out she had been in after school care the whole time. It was absolutely terrifying and my heart is Still skipping beats.

Me - 5:51:44 pm

That must have been horrible!!

Me - 5:51:54 pm

I've never had that with the kids

Me - 5:52:01 pm

Dream of it

Me - 5:52:07 pm

Nightmare really

Me - 5:53:14 pm

It sucks whoever made that first call. Were you angry? I guess just relieved first.

Diana - 5:53:26 pm

Editor: An image of writing on a wall

Diana - 5:53:26 pm

Now she's doing Korean graffiti

Diana - 5:53:46 pm

Not angry, relieved and grateful they noticed and followed it up

Me - 6:20:08 pm

I'm listening to Mogwai, having beer and looking at the lake.

Me - 6:23:05 pm

Can't help but think of you a bit when I listen, since you introduced me to it. Thanks.

Diana - 6:39:18 pm

No worries :)

**Saturday 15 November**

Me - 8:02:40 am

Good morning! Would you like to spend some time together this morning?

Diana - 8:06:06 am

I'm taking the kids swimming to tire them out before they go to Neil's, it's sure to tire me out more! And I've got to run get a percolater before that, my coffee machine spat the dummy. I'm giving it some love and trying again in 5

Me - 8:07:01 am

Want me to come with you to some of those things?

Me - 8:07:40 am

Swimming could be fun

Diana - 8:10:48 am

It's the first time we are hanging out together since a fortnight ago, and they're going to Neil's tonight so I think we need some family time. Imogen has been at her dads every second night this week so we haven't really hung out

Me - 8:11:37 am

No worries. I didn't know it had been so long. Enjoy! I'll see you later on.

Diana - 8:12:20 am

Yes we only really get every second weekend, week night we always have activities

Me - 8:14:15 am

Yeah, I guess it can be difficult with the 2 dads and going separate ways often.

Me - 8:15:45 am

My daughter had a skin cancer cut out of her leg. All good apparently, but still gives a parent a bit of a scare. She's totally fine about it.

Diana - 8:17:11 am

2 dads is inconsequential as they'd be away from me regardless, much like with you at Xmas. Though It certainly means time we have together is precious.

Diana - 8:17:19 am

That's terrible and great about your daughter

Diana - 8:17:38 am

Shit that would be worriesome but I'm seriously glad she found it early and got it out

Me - 8:18:09 am

But the 2 dads means the kids are apart from each other too. That's waft I mean abiut having family time

Diana - 8:19:09 am

Ok we'll have a good day, we are off. I'll see you at the gym :)

Me - 8:19:44 am

Ok have a good one

Diana - 8:26:24 am

Should I print the ticket? I forgot if you did it?

Diana - 8:26:24 am

The method to my madness is if we get to Southland at 9 on the dot then it won't be busy, what are my chances :)

Me - 8:29:09 am

I printed the ticket. I have not here. I could drop it around if you want, or just give it to you on the bus

Me - 8:29:49 am

Southland? Saturday morning? :) Good luck with that.

Me - 8:30:14 am

I have your ticket here

Diana - 8:30:40 am

The bus is fine

Diana - 8:30:40 am

And thanks

Diana - 8:30:40 am

I think right on 9 should be ok then straight to pool

Diana - 8:30:40 am

I have a car park God remember :)

Me - 8:32:29 am

I wish I did. I have the opposite. A car park devil haha.

Me - 8:33:49 am

I'm going to get a taxi at 5pm to get to the gym, do you want to be picked up on the way? Taxi is just to make sure I don't drive, even if I feel I might be ok afterwards.

Diana - 8:44:37 am

I think I'll be ok, especially if the drinks are so expensive that rocket fuel is needed on the bus ;)

Me - 8:45:56 am

Well, maybe, if you're driving anyway... Could you give me a lift to and from the gym? :)

Diana - 8:49:52 am

I really think we should go seperatley

Diana - 8:49:52 am

To keep clear boundaries

Diana - 8:51:43 am

I don't want to keep going around in circles or eventually it will be that we can't have a friendship

Me - 8:52:10 am

Ok. No problems.

Me - 9:00:59 am

Let's both try really hard tonight. No spiralling, for both of us. Ok? We're close friends so we can talk tonight, right? I won't do anything intentionally to upset you, but if I do, by mistake, just let me know. And vice versa. Is that ok?

Diana - 9:02:40 am

Yep ok

Diana - 9:02:40 am

Sounds good

Me - 11:09:54 am

Michael's circuit was a good one today. Lots of running!! With Push-ups, pull-ups and cleans. I did it. Feeling it now haha.

Diana - 11:22:46 am

Argh running!

Diana - 11:23:01 am

Bet you were the only one who liked it ;)

Diana - 11:23:20 am

I just had a leg workout in the pool with the kids. I need a nap! Milkshake time

Diana - 11:29:27 am

And my callouses were destroyed in the water

Me - 12:04:17 pm

Did you rip them off? That's not a good move :)

Me - 12:05:01 pm

I'm going to have a nap soon. That workout killed me!

Me - 12:05:45 pm

And apparently there is drinkning on the bus. Just no glass allowed.

Me - 12:06:40 pm

Becca asked if you were coming tonight. She seemed really pleased when I said you were.

Diana - 12:14:08 pm

That's nice

Diana - 12:14:11 pm

She's a good kid

Diana - 12:15:15 pm

Maybe I'll jump in the taxi with you

Diana - 12:15:45 pm

Have a drink before I leave home help me warm up

Diana - 12:15:52 pm

Or take some pre workout maybe

Me - 12:17:22 pm

Let me know soon what you want to do. I'll get a taxi if you're coming with me

Me - 12:18:55 pm

Otherwise I was going to ask Michael or Chris to give me a lift. But they're going to the gym early to drink. Id rather go with you, if I drink too much beforehand I'll be asleep on the bus :)

Diana - 12:27:01 pm

Really? They're going early to drink?

Diana - 12:27:14 pm

So I guess it's a big night then?

Me - 12:27:39 pm

And they're staying in town to "kick on" haha.

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

I forfeited the coffee maker and bought scales, and just came back from shopping for serious bulking groceries.

Diana - 12:27:28 pm

Well I guess it's rare for them to 'let their hair down'

Me - 12:29:40 pm

What do you want to do about transport? It might be sensible leaving your car at home. Means you can have a few drinks. And I'm sure the 8th place getter will get a few free drinks :)

Me - 12:31:22 pm

You decide, let me know

Diana - 12:31:23 pm

Pfft yea sure

Diana - 12:35:54 pm

You go with the boys, it'll be fun.

Diana - 12:36:00 pm

I can drive and if need be get a taxi back, it's not far to go and get my car tomorrow if I need to

Me - 12:36:57 pm

That sounds good

Me - 12:37:30 pm

I'm looking forward to seeing the dress.

Diana - 12:37:57 pm

I don't know if I'm going to wear it

Diana - 12:38:04 pm

So don't be too disappointed

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

It all feels a bit weird now

Diana - 12:38:08 pm

Anyway I'll see you at the gym. Is it 530?

Me - 12:38:36 pm

Bus leaves at 5:30

Me - 12:38:45 pm

So, a bit before

Me - 12:39:04 pm

What feels weird about the dress?

Diana - 12:40:16 pm

To be honest I'm afraid you're going to drink too much and have a go at me, or tell everyone you bought the dress

Diana - 12:40:16 pm

I feel on guard

Me - 12:44:12 pm

You should know me better than that. That would never happen. And you know me drunk, I'm a sleepy drunk. Not a loud one who says too much. I never think about the money I gave you unless you remind me, seriously. But you need to feel secure tonight, so go with what you feel will make you feel the best.

Me - 12:46:08 pm

And we're not going to spiral, remember? This is going to be a great night. I'm sure you'll be celebrated by doing so well in FFS, lap it up. I'll talk with you as much or as little as you want. Just tell me to stay with you or to go away for awhile. I promise I won't take offense tonight.

Diana - 12:50:30 pm

I'm positive you're over exaggerating, 8th isn't important at all but I'm happy with it. And ok, no spiralling

Diana - 12:50:39 pm

Don't get sooky either though ok????

Diana - 12:50:48 pm

You can be a sook when you're drunk ;)

Diana - 12:50:56 pm

Especially if you're drinking with the boys before

Me - 12:51:11 pm

Sooky is my spiralling. I won't.

Diana - 12:50:56 pm

I'll have a glass of that champagne and then drive up

Diana - 12:51:36 pm

Be there for the bus, the classy bus :)

Me - 12:52:01 pm

Haha. Real classy!!

Me - 1:37:15 pm

Bringing back memories. Not many of them good. :))

Me - 1:37:15 pm

Editor: An image of a shirt being ironed

Diana - 1:50:08 pm

The only thing I can see is how clean your laundry is!

Me - 1:50:45 pm

I see ironing business shirts. Shudder :)

Diana - 1:52:48 pm

I didn't even notice the iron!

Diana - 1:52:48 pm

Just the fact I could see the floor unlike mine

Diana - 1:54:35 pm

The dinner isn't until 7 is it?

Diana - 1:54:42 pm

Why are we leaving at 530?

Diana - 1:54:56 pm

I prob going to be late!

Me - 1:56:43 pm

Don't know why the bus leaves at 5:30.

Me - 1:57:09 pm

How late?

Diana - 1:59:08 pm

I'm not dropping the kids until 430, then I'll come home get changed and try to get there asap

Diana - 1:59:10 pm

It'll be a rush

Diana - 1:59:12 pm

Luckily I like pressure

Me - 1:59:59 pm

Keep texting me, I'll stand in front of the bus until you get there :))

Diana - 2:00:35 pm

But I want them to wait ;)

Me - 2:01:20 pm

I'm sure they will wait. Just keep me updated around the time about how far away you are.

Diana - 2:01:20 pm

Ok

Diana - 2:01:20 pm

It should be fine

Me - 2:03:03 pm

Of course. They'll have drinks so they'll wait.

Diana - 2:05:13 pm

Should be a good laugh if you're all plastered by the time we leave

Diana - 2:05:33 pm

I'm gonna have a book on who'll spew first

Diana - 5:06:23 pm

My best wow yet

Diana - 5:06:23 pm

Getting ready

Me - 5:07:08 pm

Cool. We're at the gym drinking. 2nd beer ;))

Diana - 5:09:04 pm

Ok I'm leaving in a minute

Me - 5:10:12 pm

5:30 depart is optimistic, I've been told :))

Diana - 5:10:41 pm

Oh really?

Diana - 5:11:06 pm

I'll have a glass of wine then

Me - 5:11:43 pm

Apparently, Michael says over all the years, everyone is late. Yeah, good idea with the wine, get here at 5:30 you'll be fine

Diana - 8:21:04 pm

Where are you?

Diana - 8:21:04 pm

Checking out fountain gate?

**Sunday 16 November**

Diana - 2:20:32 am

Your cab is here!

Diana - 7:48:00 am

I hope I'm not waking you but I've been wondering, are you ok? Did you get home ok? You're cab arrived minutes after you left

Me - 7:53:20 am

Yes, I got home. Thanks. And yes, still sleeping :)

Diana - 7:54:23 am

Did you get the taxi?

Me - 7:55:29 am

No. But I waved one down half way home

Diana - 7:56:00 am

Cool ok I hope you didn't get too cold! I'll leave you to sleep

Diana - 10:19:12 am

Oh god my cousin and her family are coming over!!

Diana - 10:19:13 am

My head hurts!

Me - 10:40:59 am

Not the day for visitors! I'm barely functioning here. Got 2 small items on today's to do list. Might not get to both :))

Diana - 10:47:12 am

Is there a name for that brown pole at the gym?

Me - 10:51:06 am

Dowel stick

Me - 10:51:20 am

Or just dowel rod

Diana - 10:51:20 am

Editor: An image of Joel dancing

Me - 10:51:35 am

Joel looks on fire!

Me - 11:12:16 am

Rainy day reading activity

Diana - 12:29:36 pm

Is it good?

Diana - 12:29:36 pm

My cousins just left

Diana - 12:29:36 pm

I'm going to have a rest and then try to start the big cook up

Diana - 12:53:04 pm

I'm fighting the washing machines getting school uniforms ready

Diana - 12:53:04 pm

About to sit and watch barbie

Diana - 12:53:04 pm

Does your cleaner do big spring cleans? I need to hand to get this place back under control in finding it quite depressing

Me - 1:11:05 pm

Yes. She normally does big cleans. She fits me in around other bigger paying jobs. She's good.

Me - 1:13:40 pm

Mention that you know me, if you decide to go ahead with it.

Diana - 1:14:09 pm

Ok

Diana - 1:14:18 pm

I'll think about it

Diana - 1:14:24 pm

It'd be nice to have the place clean for when mum comes

Diana - 1:14:24 pm

I'm looking online at quotes

Me - 1:15:09 pm

Yeah. Good idea. It's a great feeling coming home to a clean house. When someone else has done it :)

Diana - 1:16:19 pm

True it's expensive though. I'll think on it when my head doesn't hurt so much

Diana - 1:16:29 pm

I've cooked waaaaaay to much brown rice!

Me - 2:51:10 pm

Listening to OK Computer, foam rolling, stretching, mobility drills. Being gentle with myself this afternoon.

Me - 2:52:56 pm

And you're right, there's not enough music happening here. It can be hard work listening to good music, the emotional response, but it's worth the effort. Especially the "greatest rock album of all time" :))

Diana - 3:18:08 pm

Well I have to disagree about the status you've given ok computer but I'm glad you're having a nice day :)

Diana - 3:18:08 pm

Editor: An image of stacks of plastic containers of food

Diana - 3:45:11 pm

Pfft all this has taken ages and it's only one week for two meals of the day!

Me - 3:47:19 pm

You've done well!

Me - 3:48:49 pm

I should do the same. Not today though :)) You've done an awesome job on zero sleep.

Diana - 3:50:02 pm

It's the weighing that is the tiring bit

Diana - 3:50:08 pm

It'll get quicker as time goes on I guess

Diana - 3:50:08 pm

Though I can't help but wonder is this really a sane way to live?

Diana - 3:56:30 pm

Well I know it's not

Me - 3:58:25 pm

If you have specific weight goals, you sort of have to, don't you? In your circumstances, it's only way.

Me - 3:58:43 pm

Yeah, weighing would be a pain

Me - 3:59:12 pm

Look about 300 calories each meal, are they?

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

Why my circumstances? Cause I find it so hard to lose?

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

No calorie counting allowed they say

Me - 3:59:46 pm

Kids, work, gym

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

It's a new approach for me

Diana - 3:58:40 pm

I'll prob figure out calories also

Me - 4:00:25 pm

So no calories?

Diana - 4:00:37 pm

I would say the average is about 300 for Monday to Wednesday then carb cycles days vary a lot

Me - 4:00:41 pm

Just clean food

Diana - 4:00:42 pm

No calories

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

Just everything is weighed and measured and timed

Me - 4:01:29 pm

It'll get easier won't it? After you've done it a couple of times

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

Yep

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

I'm not sure it's the way I want to go means I never eat with kids but I'll have a go for a few days

Diana - 4:05:04 pm

And I'm not allowed blueberries that's gonna be hard!

Me - 4:05:34 pm

What's wrong with blueberries? All I've heard is good

Diana - 4:10:06 pm

You can have one piece of fruit at 4pm on four days, they can be blueberries

Diana - 4:10:17 pm

No shakes or breakfast fruit

Me - 4:10:35 pm

Harsh! :)

Diana - 4:13:18 pm

Yea that's why I wonder if it's practical for someone like me, who does have kids and work etc

Diana - 4:13:36 pm

In any case I have heaps of meals prepped and they all fmm

Diana - 4:20:55 pm

Seventh load of washing done I think I might collapse

Me - 4:21:49 pm

Holy shit! But you know you're just adding to the "to be folded" mountain, right? :))

Diana - 4:30:07 pm

Haha! You should see it!!

Diana - 4:30:23 pm

It's almost hitting the roof but I couldn't get in the laundry so something had to give

Me - 4:43:48 pm

Just saw you changed your profile pic. It *is* a pretty cool dress!

Diana - 4:54:03 pm

Yes it's beautiful

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

Thanks

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

For buying it

Me - 4:55:29 pm

I didn't text to mean for you to say that. It's just a great dress and you look great in it.

Me - 4:55:52 pm

but thanks, totally worth it!!

Diana - 4:57:35 pm

The kids have been nagging me to jump on the trampoline all day

Diana - 4:57:46 pm

I finally succumbed and nearly spewed!

Me - 4:58:01 pm

Poison ball? Cool game.

Me - 4:58:24 pm

Yeah. I don't think I could today

Diana - 4:58:24 pm

So I said tomorrow after school we can go to the beach, go to kids fit or we can come home and I'll jump on the trampoline. They both chose the trampoline!!

Diana - 4:58:24 pm

No, I have to be a jumping crocodile and attack them

Diana - 4:58:24 pm

Much like the shark in the water yesterday

Diana - 4:58:24 pm

Their dads don't really do much physical with them, I mean Neil will

Kick the footy but that's about it

Me - 5:04:49 pm

That's a bummer, physical is really important, I reckon. And you can see that Joel loves it, and Imogen as well. He loved the wrestling on the trampoline. And apart from everything else, it's just plain fun when the kids are young and you can throw them around :)

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

Apart from when you have a hangover

Me - 5:06:49 pm

Haha. Still gotta do it! :))

Me - 5:08:49 pm

You really shouldn't have driven this morning, eh? I'm not much of a friend, really, I should have tried harder to stop you. But, we might still be waiting for a taxi :))

Diana - 5:36:29 pm

Yea I'm notorious for drink driving :/

Me - 7:26:10 pm

Going to try the bath crystals

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

Cool

Diana - 7:40:32 pm

I'm investigating the ironedge website

Me - 8:16:03 pm

Well that worked. I fell asleep in the bath :)

**Week Fourteen**

**Monday 17 November**

Diana - 11:14:56 am

Oh my god you've got to talk to Donna!

Diana - 11:14:56 am

She just ranted in my ear for 20 minutes straight

Diana - 11:17:04 am

She doesn't feel at all confident working in the gym on her own and is relying on me to take her through it, luckily I was at the end of my workout

Me - 11:19:25 am

I'm seeing her tomorrow. What do you want me to tell her?

Diana - 11:21:58 am

She needs you to write her a program that she feels confident coming intot the gym and doing, she said she is still too scared to even use the rack but wants to do weights

Diana - 11:23:19 am

She said she has heaps of programs but none of them have weights so gets bored and wants to do weights but isn't confident enough

Me - 11:23:56 am

Ok. Thanks.

Diana - 11:25:27 am

My guess is it's a confidence issue more so than a program issue

Me - 11:28:23 am

Yeah I agree. And I haven't seen her for more than a week. So she's only had the circuit programs I've written for her to do. I devise a simple one day weights program she can do on the one day she's not training with me

Diana - 11:27:44 am

Thing is it's really up to her to push through the self confidence in the gym, I had to and I know it's terrifying but she isn't going to do it with you holding her hand

Me - 11:28:26 am

Instead of circuits for a while

Me - 11:29:37 am

I'll give her easy stuff we've done before. She probably needs some gentle and slow "weaning". :)

Diana - 11:29:44 am

Yea she says she gets bored doing the circuits

Diana - 11:29:52 am

Or a slap telling her to get over it

Me - 11:30:09 am

Probably bexuSe she's done them 4 times in a row

Diana - 11:29:52 am

Which is the approach I'd take

Me - 11:30:37 am

Hmm. Doesnt work with everyone :))

Diana - 11:30:58 am

It would with her

Me - 11:31:01 am

But I take your pojnt

Diana - 11:42:15 am

Have you tried any of the food?

Diana - 11:42:31 am

I did the zercher lunges this morning, they're hard work

Diana - 11:42:40 am

And front squats again but with arms up rather than holding onto bar

Me - 11:44:29 am

Good idea with the front squats. You need more flexibility through the lats before you can do hands on properly. But staps work too, you could borrow mine, I don't use them anymore

Me - 11:46:16 am

Just the choc and the bath salts so far. I will get into the other stuff. Not eating enough again, just not hungry.

Me - 11:46:32 am

I didn't eat the bath salts :))

Diana - 11:44:48 am

Staps? Do you mean straps? How do you use them? I did 40kg no hands but heaps of reps, really feel it in my back. I'm seeing Stephen for the last time today I just can't justify spending so much money on it

Diana - 11:44:48 am

That's not good!!!!

Diana - 11:46:46 am

Back on a programs for you

Me - 11:47:04 am

Front squats are limited by back

Diana - 11:46:56 am

I'd kill not not feel like eating you're very lucky

Me - 11:47:13 am

Which is what you need

Me - 11:47:22 am

Upper back

Me - 11:47:46 am

I really should take you through front squats at least once

Me - 11:48:02 am

Much better for you, for now, than back squats

Me - 11:48:58 am

Straps take out the flexibility limitation, but only as much as is required

Diana - 11:46:56 am

I haven't done back squats only lunges with the bar on my back

Me - 11:48:59 am

So you can work up to full flexibility

Diana - 11:46:56 am

But hep a session would be good one day

Diana - 11:49:04 am

Ok I'll google a pic and have a look

Me - 11:50:55 am

My recommendation for you is to go as heavy as you want for single leg stuff (lunges, sl squat variations), but don't max out on 2 leg stuff. Except front squats, because they're limited by upper back

Diana - 11:49:04 am

Almond and coconut milk is only $2 atm! Woowoop savings. :))

Diana - 11:51:29 am

That's pretty much your program and that's all I'm doing for a month

Diana - 11:51:37 am

I'm not even going that heavy on single leg stuff

Diana - 11:52:15 am

Front squats I didn't max out cause I didn't put safety bars up, I felt like I could have gone heavier though

Diana - 11:52:25 am

The bar on my shoulders hurt more than my legs

Me - 11:52:34 am

Don't need safety bars with from squats

Me - 11:52:50 am

Drop the bar in front of you

Me - 11:52:57 am

Easy to bail out of

Me - 11:54:12 am

Only need bars for heavy back squats. Hard to bail without hurting your shoulders, back, neck.

Diana - 11:54:17 am

Oh yeah of course, just noisy!!

Diana - 11:54:23 am

And embarrassing ;))

Diana - 11:54:43 am

Ok I'll see how heavy I can go next time I'm in :)))

Me - 11:55:22 am

Should be 10 to 15 kg less than back squats. Is for me.

Me - 11:55:44 am

Got to keep you back straight though :))

Me - 11:55:57 am

Well, if you don't, you'll drop the bar

Me - 11:56:08 am

That's what's good about front squats :)

Me - 11:57:32 am

I'll should show you some lat stretches and do them between sets of everything you do at the gym. Will only take a few weeks to fix. Did with me.

Me - 11:57:41 am

Or look on YouTube

Diana - 11:59:44 am

Ok cool

Diana - 11:59:44 am

Sounds good

Diana - 11:59:44 am

Back straight is hard!

Diana - 12:00:48 pm

Look at lat stretches on YouTube? Is that what you mean?

Me - 12:01:29 pm

Yeah. Or get me to show you. But quicker on YouTube I guess

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

Don't tell Donna I said anything will you?

Diana - 12:04:00 pm

She was pretty full on this morning though so I thought I should let you know

Diana - 12:05:16 pm

Maybe if we are in the gym at the same time it would be good if you could show me

Diana - 12:05:27 pm

YouTube will do for now though

Me - 12:10:54 pm

Being in the gym (at least at this one, other gyms would be ok) at the same time doesn't work. Not doing ad hoc stuff. We've shown that. We're too close and it's hard to find the balance. That's why I'm giving you space there. But booking a real coaching session would be a great idea. Then I could focus on your workout and coach.

Me - 12:24:43 pm

It's amazing how little you need to have a killer workout. Just a few kettlebells and bands and I've worked out a few sessions that are really, really tough! Haha. Been good, it's made me be imaginative and inventive.

Me - 12:25:15 pm

And I get to listen to Sigur Ros, unadulterated, while training :))

Diana - 12:28:37 pm

Cool

Diana - 12:46:40 pm

I know you're staying away from the gym for me but i have to go in Thursday, cause Joel starts orientation Friday at school

Diana - 12:46:40 pm

Though I can go to another one if that's an issue

Me - 12:49:35 pm

I'm fine with you being at the gym. I'll be finished by 10am anyway.

Diana - 12:48:48 pm

I'm going to do one room, from roof to floor. Paying for cleaning isn't really something I can justify. Argh here goes!

Diana - 12:48:48 pm

I'll be in around 930 then do yoga

Diana - 12:48:48 pm

Donna said you have her at 11

Me - 12:50:16 pm

Tomorrow, yes

Me - 12:50:24 pm

9:30 from them on

Me - 12:51:08 pm

Good luck with the cleaning! I don't envy you :) I hate cleaning

Diana - 12:55:58 pm

Well a busy house with young kids can't escape it

Diana - 12:56:18 pm

At least it's full of life I guess

Me - 12:57:02 pm

Great point!! Remember that as you're scrubbing :))

Diana - 12:58:14 pm

They're helping

Diana - 12:59:12 pm

They're good like that

Diana - 1:02:51 pm

And maybe check with Donna, she said she couldn't get in to the 930 crèche session

Diana - 1:03:00 pm

Anyway I'm sure you've got it sorted

Diana - 1:03:03 pm

Maybe I heard wrong

Diana - 1:03:18 pm

Scrubbing time

Me - 1:03:36 pm

I'll call her tonight. Thanks.

Me - 1:17:54 pm

You've got great kids. You must be doing the right things, for them to turn out like that. It's great that they're helping!

Diana - 1:18:40 pm

Joel is putting his cars in order of when they were bought!

Diana - 1:18:40 pm

Neil will take him swimming too so if you don't mind I'll be at the gym tomorrow

Diana - 1:18:40 pm

I'm happy to go to another gym though

Me - 1:20:33 pm

Gym wise, you do whatever you want. It doesn't bother me at all if you're there.

Diana - 1:32:53 pm

Cool

Diana - 1:33:36 pm

We got distracted and started building crazy racing tracks

Me - 1:34:26 pm

Are you doing Joel's room are you?

Diana - 1:39:16 pm

Yep :)

Diana - 1:39:20 pm

And we've nearly finished

Diana - 1:39:28 pm

One room a day is how I'm going to tackle it

Diana - 1:39:58 pm

I need to do the wardrobe too, it's full of old cameras but he needs some bike riding practice so we are doing that

Me - 1:40:04 pm

Hmmm. Sounds like something if say! Haha Work on the small issues :)

Me - 1:40:21 pm

" something I'd say"

Diana - 1:44:16 pm

He just said wow it looks like a new bedroom :)

Me - 3:35:01 pm

You said both kids were helping? Why's Imogen there this arvo?

Me - 3:36:27 pm

Just did some running intervals. 500m repeats. Phew! Sleep time. :)

Diana - 3:50:08 pm

She was going to do her room tonight

Diana - 3:50:08 pm

But Chris is there with his girls while I go see Stephen

Diana - 3:54:24 pm

They'll stay for dinner because his wife is away for work

Me - 4:00:27 pm

More cooking, after yesterday's effort. Yay!

Me - 4:01:52 pm

I might have to cook too. Don't know yet.

Diana - 4:34:56 pm

I'm not cooking don't be silly ;)

Diana - 4:35:24 pm

Off to buy a home made family quiche

Diana - 4:35:25 pm

:p

Diana - 4:37:41 pm

I have a foam roller :)

Me - 4:37:59 pm

Cool! Get to it :)

Me - 4:38:09 pm

And Steven said?

Diana - 4:41:20 pm

My calves and upper back are my weakest points

Diana - 4:41:20 pm

He is going to come into the gym tomorrow and Thursday and show me some stuff

Diana - 4:41:20 pm

Did you know he used to be a pt?

Me - 4:42:06 pm

Yes

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

It's nice of him to come into the gym don't you think

Me - 4:51:23 pm

Yeah, I agree.

Diana - 4:51:27 pm

I mean you asked what he said then had nothing to say

Me - 4:51:50 pm

But it should be what all professionals should do

Diana - 4:52:00 pm

But they don't

Diana - 4:52:00 pm

So it makes it nice

Diana - 4:52:00 pm

Anyway have a good night

Me - 4:52:34 pm

Thanks

Me - 4:53:36 pm

And you too with your friends

**Tuesday 18 November**

Me - 8:20:06 am

Would you like to get together sometime today? After gym maybe? I'm finished at 11:30am. We could get or have coffee and just hang out. It's been a while.

Diana - 8:26:24 am

There's been a change of plans and I now have Joel, We can meet you after we finish at the gym somewhere for a coffee maybe? After 12

Me - 8:30:37 am

That'll be great. You could bring Joel to my place, then he'd have room to play. But then you'd have to suffer my coffee :)) But anywhere would be good.

Me - 8:31:16 am

So no gym for you today?

Diana - 8:33:44 am

Yes we are coming in, but I want to stay until 12, maybe we can meet you at the cafe near your place, then he can have a milkshake

Diana - 8:34:22 am

How did you go with Donna? Was she ok this morning?

Me - 8:35:28 am

Donna is at 11.

Diana - 12:46:20 pm

I wanted to kill that kid ;)

Me - 12:48:42 pm

Haha. I agree. I don't think a play date would be a lot of fun.

Me - 12:49:30 pm

She needs attention. Did you see that she purposively tipped the glass of water on that table to get attention?

Me - 12:50:11 pm

Then purposively hit her head under that table, I was watching, to get attention from Donna.

Me - 12:51:03 pm

But must be tough being a sole child and after so much effort to have one.

Me - 12:53:03 pm

We'll have to catch up some other time :)

Diana - 12:58:53 pm

I was astounded how Donna kept talking about herself whilst her kid was squeeling like that

Diana - 12:59:08 pm

Really, the child was screaming for attention

Diana - 12:59:20 pm

Yet Donna managed to continue to hold a conversation

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

I didn't see her purposefully do those things, but just the fact she did them is an issue

Diana - 12:59:28 pm

Band aids and bread just got

Me - 1:04:07 pm

Some people can parent well naturally. Donna looks a bit lost to me, unsure what to do.

Me - 1:04:38 pm

Kids can sense that lack of confidence

Diana - 1:03:44 pm

Donna is a spoilt little Greek girl

Me - 1:05:11 pm

Yep :) Agree

Diana - 1:03:44 pm

Raising a spoilt little Greek girl

Diana - 1:05:48 pm

You can tell by the hedonistic way she wants to train with me with no regard as to whether it's good for me to train with her

Diana - 1:05:52 pm

Totally self centred and self fulfilling

Diana - 1:05:52 pm

Anyway she pays ;)

Diana - 1:05:52 pm

That's the good side of spoilt little Greek girls ;)

Me - 1:08:42 pm

It's a pity you're bound by crèche hours, on those days, it's hard to get away.

Diana - 1:08:00 pm

Really is

Diana - 1:08:00 pm

Still a few more weeks and I won't be able to come in much so i might lose her then

Me - 1:09:45 pm

I might try and explain gym etiquette to her, without a reference to you.

Me - 1:09:59 pm

She has no idea

Me - 1:10:22 pm

My fault probably. I should have explained how the gym works by now

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

What would you say?

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

I'd love to be a fly on the wall!!

Me - 1:11:36 pm

I'd have to be gentle :))

Me - 1:13:07 pm

Even best friends don't interrupt each other's workout. Other than a quick "Hi". I'll have to think how to explain it best.

Diana - 1:20:24 pm

Can you make sure dan is there too?

Me - 1:21:14 pm

Haha. Dan wouldn't listen.

Diana - 1:25:04 pm

I might Google Doherty at Dandenong and have a look

Me - 1:26:25 pm

Great idea.

Me - 1:29:26 pm

He has his own tv program. I was given a set of dvd's of it. Big into body building and competitions. But I've heard they do other stuff like power lifting.

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

They aren't much more expensive but it mentions nothing about training

Diana - 1:30:37 pm

You can get a free pass to go try it though

Me - 1:31:27 pm

Do you want to do a "gym buddy" trip, to check it out?

Diana - 1:33:04 pm

I don't know

Diana - 1:33:13 pm

I'm looking through their Insta

Diana - 1:33:17 pm

They look pretty hard core

Diana - 1:33:33 pm

Think I'm a bit soft for it

Me - 1:33:35 pm

That's what you want isn't it?

Me - 1:33:58 pm

But they would show the high end stuff as advertising

Diana - 1:33:36 pm

$10 for a casual pass

Diana - 1:33:36 pm

Maybe

Diana - 1:33:36 pm

Well I don't know if I'm really needing something that hard core

Me - 1:34:32 pm

Ok

Diana - 1:35:44 pm

They seem really into body building comps

Diana - 1:35:44 pm

The only power lifting photo I've seen is of two women double deading

Diana - 1:35:44 pm

Maybe asp in Brunswick is more the go

Me - 1:37:56 pm

What's asp?

Me - 1:38:39 pm

It would be good to see other gyms. I should really be doing it anyway.

Diana - 1:37:52 pm

Though they are holding the national deadlifting comp

Me - 1:39:41 pm

The original doherty's is in Brunswick anyway, isn't it?

Diana - 1:39:49 pm

Yep

Diana - 1:39:57 pm

Maybe I will call

Diana - 1:40:00 pm

I'll think about it

Diana - 1:40:00 pm

Get prices etc

Me - 1:40:48 pm

Prices would be interesting to know

Diana - 1:45:26 pm

I found a trainer she is a beast!!

Diana - 1:45:35 pm

Amanda Doherty

Diana - 1:45:45 pm

They have a weight lifting club

Diana - 1:45:53 pm

No powerlifting

Me - 1:50:35 pm

I think I've seen her on the tv program. Is she the wife?

Diana - 1:51:42 pm

Yep

Diana - 1:52:15 pm

Brunswick has the most trainers and they range from 60-75 session, they're all generally body decomposition fat loss etc

Diana - 1:52:30 pm

Though I'm sure there are lifting ones too

Diana - 1:52:35 pm

Just not advertised

Me - 2:00:50 pm

Ok. She works really hard, from the tv program. Really dedicated and has a few kids too.

Me - 2:01:23 pm

It's always a risk when there's a pool of trainers, you might be given the new guy who's learning.

Diana - 2:01:20 pm

Exactly just like at this gym with dan

Diana - 2:01:20 pm

I've been asked to work the election I'm madly looking for babysitters!

Diana - 2:01:20 pm

I really need the cash

Me - 2:02:51 pm

Yeah!! Somehow, we need a name.

Me - 2:03:18 pm

I can't help, sorry. I've got a course that day.

Diana - 2:03:28 pm

I wasn't asking

Diana - 2:03:28 pm

Sorry didn't mean for it to sound like that

Diana - 2:03:28 pm

Just thinking out aloud

Diana - 2:03:28 pm

It's Friday evening but only until 6

Diana - 2:03:28 pm

It's that the 29th

Diana - 2:03:28 pm

And Saturday

Me - 2:04:58 pm

I'm available Friday. Not Saturday and not Sunday. If you can't find anyone.

Me - 2:06:36 pm

I wonder if Steve knows anyone for power lifting?

Diana - 2:05:36 pm

One of his receptionists are a competitive power lifter he said

Diana - 2:07:23 pm

I'll just go for a few weeks doing what I'm doing

Diana - 2:07:35 pm

I really couldn't justify spending any money on it even if I had it

Diana - 2:09:52 pm

I think between your programs and what Stephen is showing me I should be ok for a few months

Diana - 2:09:52 pm

And then I'll save and maybe buy myself some sessions for my bday

Me - 2:11:42 pm

Ok. That sounds good. But we should tweak your programs a bit in a few weeks. Just change up a few things. If you want, that is.

Diana - 2:12:00 pm

Yea ok

Diana - 2:12:00 pm

But I need to get the kids birthdays and Xmas sorted, that's the priority not my lifting ;)

Me - 2:14:57 pm

Isn't it odd, don't you think, that this time of year which is about family and giving, is so stressful that we look forward to Boxing Day so much :)

Diana - 2:17:17 pm

Yea, but the stress is worth it when you see smiles on little kids faces

Diana - 2:17:28 pm

Birthdays this year is just a family pizza night

Diana - 2:17:39 pm

I just need to go present shopping

Me - 2:18:26 pm

Ditto. But I have no idea what to buy yet.

Diana - 2:18:54 pm

The trickiest thing is the kids were going to spend Xmas eve with their dads but Neil has decided to work so Imogen will get upset if Joel is with me and she isn't :/

Diana - 2:19:22 pm

I know what to buy, I've purposely left toy catalogues out for the last month ;)

Me - 2:20:38 pm

That's tricky. You can't really ask Jarrod to share Imogen. Or can you?

Diana - 2:21:09 pm

I can and he would but it seems unfair

Diana - 2:21:29 pm

I'm going to ask Jill if she'd like to come, then I can ask Jarrod if he'd like to come and we can have it here

Diana - 2:21:32 pm

Xmas morning that is

Me - 2:22:43 pm

Cool. There's always a solution :) You're lucky there's no animosity with the dads. That would make it hard.

Diana - 2:23:33 pm

Yea my ex and another's ex's girlfriend here Xmas morning

Diana - 2:23:45 pm

They do say it take a community to bring up a child ;)

Me - 2:37:41 pm

Yeah, it would make for an interesting morning. Maybe begin the matchmaking for Jarrod? Find someone else to bring :))

Diana - 2:48:36 pm

It's interesting and open, I think that's great for the kids and it ensures the day is about them

Diana - 2:48:38 pm

Which it is

Diana - 2:49:04 pm

You should see the size of my blisters!

Diana - 2:49:04 pm

Editor: Image of open blisters on Diana's heels

Me - 2:49:51 pm

That's what a bottle of champagne does haha. Blunts too much pain at the time.

Diana - 2:50:24 pm

gross!!!!

Me - 2:51:11 pm

Nonetheless, cool!

Me - 2:52:01 pm

Was that the first time you'd worn this shoes? Were they what you bought the day before?

Diana - 2:52:23 pm

That is good

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

One child at least should be home for Xmas

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

Yes way too much pain blunted

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

They're really sore!!

Me - 2:53:38 pm

Bare foot for a while I assume. Do your gym shoes hurt too?

Me - 2:53:56 pm

and I think it's grandma's turn to cook this year. Yay!!

Diana - 2:54:17 pm

Yea it kills to wear shoes

Diana - 2:57:41 pm

Jarrod is such a dick, Imogen really wants to do karate and he doesn't want her to cause it 'goes against his fundamental beliefs' wtf??

Me - 3:03:19 pm

It's just an activity, she's not going to be a warrior and kill people :)

Diana - 3:07:28 pm

I've sent him an email saying she needs to find her own belief system about things in life, not have one forced upon her by others

Me - 3:10:02 pm

That's so right.

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

Hes a fucking idiot

Me - 3:10:20 pm

You'll convince him right?

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

For the first time ever I juts said something negative about one of the dads in front of the kids

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

I just called him a dickhead in front of Joel

Diana - 3:09:36 pm

I shouldn't have to convince the idiot

Me - 3:11:36 pm

No you shouldn't. Might have to, for Imogen's sake.

Me - 3:12:07 pm

Absent parents don't "get it" sometimes.

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

He's not really that absent

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

He just wants a ballet dancing poet for a daughter

Diana - 3:11:44 pm

Lost track of reality and who Imogen really is

Me - 3:15:28 pm

Ok. Kids have to try lots of stuff though. She might still end up as that. However, in the meantime, karate.

Diana - 3:13:52 pm

I really believe that's why she doesn't like going there, he is a control freak

Me - 3:16:17 pm

Can you get in the middle of that?

Diana - 3:16:26 pm

I'm going to let her have a try out session tonight

Diana - 3:16:39 pm

He will threaten to cut money but fuck it

Me - 3:17:55 pm

For what it's worth, I think you're right. See if she likes it.

Diana - 3:18:50 pm

Thanks

Diana - 3:18:56 pm

I trust her

Diana - 3:19:00 pm

That's all a kid ever needs

Me - 3:19:17 pm

And also for want it's worth, I know your frustration

Me - 3:19:41 pm

5 and 6 still need to make their descisions

Diana - 3:19:40 pm

I was just thinking fuck I've done some dumb shit but she is worth it

Diana - 3:19:57 pm

Yep. Well she is off to the dojo tonight!

Me - 3:20:40 pm

It makes it easier too right? Both at the same place at the same time? That's reason enough :)

Diana - 3:21:04 pm

I'll jus be on standby for his reply email :/

Me - 3:22:33 pm

Deep breaths, Diana. Deep breaths :))

Diana - 3:23:41 pm

Yes

Diana - 3:23:45 pm

Good idea

Diana - 3:24:32 pm

Editor: Image of a text message from Jarrod

Diana - 3:24:32 pm

He is a complete nutter!

Me - 3:27:58 pm

Whoa!! Phew! "Fear as the past"? Wtf? And it's not about actually defending herself, it's about confidence, which is the best defense. Especially against guys like him :) Controlling guys/people.

Diana - 3:28:13 pm

Exactly

Diana - 3:28:41 pm

I'm going to sign her up tonight

Diana - 3:28:43 pm

Fuck him

Me - 3:29:59 pm

It's too important not to try it. You're right.

Me - 3:30:08 pm

Argue after the fact

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

I've told him

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

I'm going to let her try it out

Diana - 3:30:56 pm

Now I'll await the next email

Me - 3:32:24 pm

Good luck :)

Me - 4:23:29 pm

Just been at Peninsula. If you ever get an hour free (yeah, I know, I know haha) we should go and hit a few balls at the range then hang at the clubhouse and drink coffee. Maybe it's a January thing :)

Diana - 4:25:03 pm

For sure

Diana - 4:25:22 pm

It's turned out to be a lovely afternoon

Me - 4:25:44 pm

It was nice at the golf course.

Diana - 4:39:12 pm

It's such an emotional roller coaster isn't it, dealing with ex's

Diana - 4:40:53 pm

Especially around kids

Diana - 4:41:03 pm

Involving kids I mean

Diana - 4:41:20 pm

We are just going to hang in the backyard it's so nice

Diana - 4:41:20 pm

I'll have s glass of wine while I figure out what to cook for dinner

Me - 4:44:31 pm

I sympathize 100%. The frustration, caused by the ex wanting what they wanted not what was good for the kids, used to eat me up.

Me - 4:44:47 pm

I couldn't understand why they couldn't see it from the kids view

Me - 4:45:26 pm

My wife was similar to Jarrod. Controlling. Had to win no matter what.

Me - 4:45:48 pm

Wine sounds like a good idea, if you don't have to drive again :))

Me - 4:46:23 pm

You're lucky with that backyard

Me - 4:46:32 pm

It's a cool place for young kids

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

It's really heart breaking

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

I mean it really stresses me out

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

Hurts my heart

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

Anyway wine is poured

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

Not that that's a good thing

Diana - 4:52:00 pm

And the wine is bad :/

Diana - 4:52:00 pm

Argh

Me - 4:52:50 pm

Well, you've got a sympathetic ear here. My heart was broken by this stuff for 5 years, with kids of your age. I don't think you ever can really forgive the ex, after all this shit.

Me - 4:54:07 pm

Bad wine? Grin and bear it :)

Diana - 4:54:53 pm

It's horrible

Diana - 4:55:16 pm

Maybe the gym needs another receptionist and I can work 9-5 and be here and not need his help at all

Diana - 4:55:25 pm

Maybe I need to look at solutions like that

Diana - 4:55:57 pm

How I've managed to keep it so civil I have no idea

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

They want me to jump on the trampoline and all I want to do is cry

Me - 4:56:34 pm

It's not help

Me - 4:58:12 pm

I know there's wine involved, but if you need company to talk this out (more than texts), I have no child commitments this evening. Just saying.

Diana - 4:59:19 pm

No child commitments?

Me - 4:59:29 pm

No

Diana - 4:59:39 pm

You're welcome to come over

Me - 5:00:05 pm

Ok. I'll head over.

Diana - 5:00:32 pm

I have to make dinner though

Me - 5:01:00 pm

I can be the distraction :))

Diana - 5:01:57 pm

Do you have wine?

Me - 5:06:04 pm

Yep. I'll bring a "good" bottle

Diana - 5:15:28 pm

Ok I've got to go to the trampoline

Diana - 9:59:12 pm

Thanks for coming over and hanging out this evening

Me - 10:01:44 pm

Thanks for having me. It was fun. You and your kids are great company.

Diana - 10:02:15 pm

Oh and thanks for the wine too! It helped :)

Diana - 10:02:23 pm

Not the calories but the state of mind :)

Me - 10:03:27 pm

Glad I could help.

Me - 10:05:17 pm

It helps to talk about stuff that's worrying.

Diana - 10:09:34 pm

Better than eating

Diana - 10:09:44 pm

Though I've done that too ;)

Diana - 10:09:52 pm

I sent an email to dohertys and they have a power lifting coach for $55 a strength building session.

Me - 10:11:06 pm

Sounds reasonable.

Me - 10:11:16 pm

If you have the cash to spare

Diana - 10:12:00 pm

I'm thinking one session a month?

Diana - 10:12:54 pm

Learn and then come back to this gym to practice

Diana - 10:12:59 pm

Would that work?

Diana - 10:13:23 pm

I mean if I was just given some small points to work on

Diana - 10:13:31 pm

I'd work at them for sure I'm pretty motivated

Diana - 10:14:04 pm

That'd be less than $15 a week, I could lose that in coffees and those $5 bars I buy

Me - 10:15:13 pm

That's what a good coach would suggest anyway

Me - 10:15:21 pm

Go away and practice

Diana - 10:15:39 pm

It might just help me get some specific lifting training?

Diana - 10:15:47 pm

Keep me motivated and moving forward

Me - 10:15:49 pm

Not making it about making money from the client

Diana - 10:16:06 pm

I can see myself floundering with no real goal in mind

Diana - 10:16:16 pm

I'll email and suggest once a month and see how they respond

Diana - 10:16:16 pm

Tell them I'm a total beginner and ask whether I should get stronger before even going in

Diana - 10:16:16 pm

I mean the gym seems pretty hard core

Me - 10:16:53 pm

No

Me - 10:17:02 pm

Don't tell them you're a beginner

Me - 10:17:12 pm

Tell them what you are

Diana - 10:16:16 pm

Why not?

Me - 10:17:21 pm

Training age of a year or so

Me - 10:17:42 pm

Because they'll have different training ideas for you

Diana - 10:17:45 pm

Lifting age of 12 weeks

Me - 10:17:56 pm

It's like saying you're Donna's level

Diana - 10:18:03 pm

Oh really?

Diana - 10:18:22 pm

I'll tell them I've been training s year and what I can lift

Diana - 10:18:24 pm

Just put all my cards on the table

Diana - 10:18:24 pm

Once a month

Diana - 10:18:24 pm

Stay at this gym

Diana - 10:18:24 pm

Go in for a session and walk out

Diana - 10:18:24 pm

The $55 includes the 10 causal entry so I guess it's not too bad

Me - 10:20:05 pm

Yeah that's good.

Me - 10:20:19 pm

Tell them what you've done and go from rhere

Me - 10:21:55 pm

They'll know what's best. Hopefully

Me - 10:22:29 pm

It'll be worth at least one go

Diana - 10:22:29 pm

I'll know if they're just Cowboys

Diana - 10:22:40 pm

Hopefully

Me - 10:22:55 pm

If you tell them you can lift heavy, they may not give you the young guy

Diana - 10:22:40 pm

Or cowgirls ;)

Diana - 10:22:40 pm

There's a specific coach for powerlifting

Me - 10:23:14 pm

The inexperienced trainers

Diana - 10:22:40 pm

The others are for bodybuilding

Me - 10:23:23 pm

Oh ok.

Me - 10:23:27 pm

Even better

Diana - 10:22:40 pm

As in sculpting

Me - 10:23:34 pm

I should doing too

Diana - 10:22:40 pm

That's pretty much all the gym focuses on

Diana - 10:22:40 pm

There's a gazillion photos of posing workshops

Me - 10:24:20 pm

Just one power lifting coach? That would be good.

Diana - 10:24:28 pm

Just one at Dandenong

Diana - 10:24:36 pm

The rest are at City and Brunswick

Diana - 10:24:38 pm

Heaps there

Me - 10:32:04 pm

Good night

Diana - 10:32:18 pm

I guess really the answer is a powerlifting gym but dohertys was the only one around Michael said

Me - 10:32:44 pm

Worth a try. Then decide

Me - 10:33:25 pm

It will depend on the coach, not the gym

Me - 10:33:54 pm

Although a good gym will attract a good coach

Diana - 10:34:04 pm

yes I guess

Diana - 10:34:08 pm

And they have a good reputation

Diana - 10:34:14 pm

I'll give it a try

Diana - 10:34:19 pm

Then I'll know either way

Diana - 10:34:32 pm

After One session I'll know

Diana - 10:34:41 pm

And once a month I can manage

Me - 10:35:02 pm

Cool.

Me - 10:36:09 pm

One session for sure. If they stuff you around you'll know. And you've read heaps so you can ask good questions

Diana - 10:36:53 pm

Now I feel stupid

Diana - 10:36:58 pm

Is it even worth it?

Me - 10:37:29 pm

Sleep on it. You've worked out a plan

Me - 10:37:43 pm

See if it makes sense in the morning

Me - 10:37:54 pm

That works for me

Me - 10:38:07 pm

Don't second guess immediately

Diana - 10:38:23 pm

Yea and it's been a long day I guess

Me - 10:38:35 pm

You'll know if it feels right if you're excited tomorrow

Diana - 10:41:01 pm

Excited or nervous :)

Me - 10:41:53 pm

Both will work :)

Diana - 10:44:00 pm

Thanks again for today

Diana - 10:45:10 pm

I think now I've over eaten and feel sick I'll go to bed :/

Me - 10:45:32 pm

My pleasure. Any time.

Me - 10:45:38 pm

You're not in bed already?

Diana - 10:45:45 pm

Nope

Diana - 10:45:50 pm

I've been researching

Diana - 10:45:53 pm

Powerlifting

Diana - 10:45:56 pm

Power lifters

Diana - 10:45:58 pm

Gyms

Diana - 10:46:00 pm

Etc

Me - 10:46:27 pm

Wow. I think you might have done enough for one day.

Diana - 10:46:08 pm

Yep me and my blisters need some rest

Me - 10:47:04 pm

But I love the enthusiasm. Don't ever lose that

Diana - 10:46:08 pm

Especially as I have to get back in that bloody wave pool tomorrow

Diana - 10:47:20 pm

My blisters will go soft again! Ouch!!

Diana - 10:47:43 pm

I won't, but I'd like it to stay with this for a while. If I get bored I'll move on and I don't want to

Me - 10:47:47 pm

Bret Contraras had a good article about how to maximize lifts today

Me - 10:48:00 pm

Number one item was sleep

Diana - 10:48:16 pm

It's good to read but I'm really a need to do in person learner

Diana - 10:48:16 pm

I've really always been terrible at reading to learn

Me - 10:48:56 pm

You've done the research now.

Me - 10:49:24 pm

Lifting has to be a physical learning process

Me - 10:50:03 pm

You need a coach to put your body in the right positions. But you know that.

Me - 10:50:50 pm

I think both ways of learning can be used in conjunction.

Diana - 10:50:24 pm

I don't really know what I need but I guess this is a process of elimination

Diana - 10:50:24 pm

If this gym is a dud then look for the next motivator

Diana - 10:50:24 pm

Yea, but there's no way I'll spend that much money again

Diana - 10:51:55 pm

I'm pissed at myself about that

Diana - 10:52:04 pm

But needed to to know I guess

Diana - 10:52:32 pm

Worst case scenario is I end up back in body pump classes ;))

Me - 10:53:04 pm

Nooooooo

Me - 10:53:07 pm

:)

Diana - 10:52:32 pm

Ok I better sleep

Diana - 10:52:32 pm

Talk tomorrow

Me - 10:53:16 pm

Night

**Wednesday 19 November**

Me - 2:24:14 pm

I've had a tough day. Check my Instagram post :)) Looked at a surf this morning but too big for the beaches and too small and easterly for inside the bay. About to go and chat to Steve about his course and his product. I hope you got outside, it was nice out there :)

Diana - 2:56:40 pm

Cool, glad you had a good day. We had a good swim. Good luck with Steve

Me - 4:09:35 pm

Just spent an hour with Steve. He's good value, he's really trying to help me. He thinks I'm onto something, with my training philosophy, but just need the right clientele. The personal marketing is what I need to get better at, he reckons. I agree, but it's hard to sell yourself :)

Diana - 5:36:48 pm

And that's great what Stephen said about your work too

Me - 5:39:27 pm

It makes me feel a little better having someone like him so positive about what I do. He said he's heard it takes 2 years to get established in an area. I am a bit rash with my decision making haha.

Diana - 5:41:29 pm

Oh well

Diana - 5:41:41 pm

He agrees camber well is where the money is though

Me - 5:42:00 pm

Yep. And doing his stuff too

Me - 6:11:12 pm

I've just made enough food to feed a full family. :)

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

That's good

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

You can have seconds :)

Me - 6:40:54 pm

These kids in the water are annoying. Loud and annoying

Me - 6:41:34 pm

Now sitting outside with a beer

Me - 6:41:53 pm

Watching annoying children play in the lake :)

Me - 6:42:16 pm

And there's mozzies :(

Me - 6:42:57 pm

And reading mike Boyle about powerlifting for athletes :)

Diana - 6:59:14 pm

Blasted kids

Me - 7:00:37 pm

Yeah!! I know!! Enjoying themselves!!! Hahaha

Me - 7:01:58 pm

They've gone now. But the parents have got stupid radio on loud! It's like the gym!!

Diana - 7:02:08 pm

Headphones might be the go

Me - 7:02:58 pm

With a bird song sound track :)

Me - 7:03:15 pm

Have you had a good day?

Me - 7:03:25 pm

I'm really tired

Me - 7:03:35 pm

After those workouts

Me - 7:03:48 pm

Now a power saw Argh!!

Diana - 7:04:16 pm

Jesus what a way to ruin the serenity

Diana - 7:04:16 pm

Yeo we've had a good day, the kids are playing outside and I'm getting through the washing which is good

Diana - 7:12:48 pm

Maybe you'll need a rest day tomorrow

Me - 7:34:19 pm

Shit no. Heavy front squats tomorrow. Heavy deads yesterday. Today was the rest day :))

Diana - 7:34:08 pm

Are you at the gym tomorrow?

Me - 8:05:05 pm

Yep. Tuesday and Thursday mornings

Me - 8:17:32 pm

Just saw your Instagram. Looks cool with Becca! Heavy!!

Diana - 8:20:12 pm

Haha yeah it was a bit of fun

Diana - 8:29:26 pm

She wouldn't do more than 60 on her own though

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

I want to find someone to train with that can lift heavier than me, rather than being the helper

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

It was fun though and I'll meet up with her when I can

Diana - 8:29:36 pm

You know she told me she only benches 28 and deads 60, fuck know me where those wow scores came from ;)

Diana - 8:30:43 pm

We are benching oh Sunday

Diana - 8:30:46 pm

Light is good for me

Me - 8:30:53 pm

I thought she dead 80?

Diana - 8:30:58 pm

Get my shoulder moving again

Diana - 8:31:05 pm

87.5 was what was posted

Diana - 8:31:12 pm

Anyway none of it matters

Diana - 8:31:20 pm

She is fun to work with

Me - 8:31:28 pm

No. All done and dusted :)

Diana - 8:31:38 pm

But I think for me personally to improve I should be lifting wth someone who can go heavier

Me - 8:32:25 pm

Good idea. Not many women to choose from though. Probably need a guy

Diana - 8:33:26 pm

Someone will present themselves at the right time

Diana - 8:33:40 pm

In the mean time I'll work with Becca sometimes and focus on my own program

**Thursday 20 November**

Diana - 11:48:00 am

I think I was a little rude to Donna this morning?

Diana - 11:48:17 am

I didjt mean to be, I juts had music blaring in my ears and didn't want to stop training

Me - 11:50:44 am

I haven't spoken to her yet about etiquette. But I will mention that if someone has earphones in, don't bother them. You're right to be non chatty. I'm quite rude to some of the new trainers, they love to chat mid set!!! :)

Me - 11:50:56 am

Did you have a good session?

Me - 11:52:01 am

We should have grabbed a coffee afterwards, I wasn't far behind you in leaving.

Diana - 11:54:35 am

I thought that but you were chatting with michael

Diana - 11:54:49 am

Yea it was a good session :)

Diana - 11:54:49 am

Did you?

Diana - 11:55:08 am

I didn't even feel tired after yesterday with nuance

Diana - 11:55:13 am

Becca I mean

Me - 11:55:22 am

Yeah. Just a few lower body compound movements

Me - 11:55:39 am

That's a good thing! Not being too tired

Me - 11:56:03 am

Although I usually train to exhaustion

Me - 11:56:09 am

Not today

Me - 11:56:34 am

Started practice snatches today. They're awesome! Haha

Diana - 11:56:52 am

Cool

Diana - 11:57:03 am

Im not ready for overhead

Diana - 11:57:36 am

Well overhead pushing

Diana - 11:57:36 am

I did some pulling

Diana - 11:58:54 am

And about 24 benches at 32kg and tried the back arch I see why they do it, it's almost like you're standing and your feet give you heaps of lift

Me - 12:00:19 pm

That's cool. 34 must have felt easy? To do so many reps. They arch their back so you're doing a decline bench press. You can lift more weight like that. Apparently.

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

Well I don't know the words but it feels heaps easier :)

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

32kg not 34

Diana - 12:01:52 pm

I've got a lot to learn

Me - 12:04:22 pm

You're doing great! I'll help whenever you want me to, just ask.

Diana - 12:07:52 pm

Cool thanks

Diana - 12:08:01 pm

I'm thinking some nutrition advice might be good too

Diana - 12:08:13 pm

There's so much to read its s little overwhelming

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Need to choose someone and go with them

Diana - 12:08:16 pm

Even as far as the net goes

Me - 12:13:37 pm

That's exactly right. I stick to one way of coaching. It's too confusing otherwise and you'll never know what works. I've read there's lots of cooks but few chefs. You choose the best chef (that fits with what you want to do), and follow what they've done and advise. I do Mike Boyle's coaching but read and incorporate little things from other top coaches. But I don't change completely. You probably need to sit down and think of your realistic goals for the next 12 months and choose a way to achieve that. And stick to it. Mostly :))

Me - 12:15:14 pm

You probably already have done that. Powerlifting. But you'll need some functional stuff so you don't get injured.

Me - 12:16:01 pm

Powerlifting isn't just the 3 lifts. You'll need ancillary exercises to get stronger without injury.

Diana - 12:14:40 pm

It's the 3 for competition though :)

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

Of course I'll need a rounded program

Me - 12:17:10 pm

Yeah I know. But you wouldn't just do those 3 lifts everytime at the gym

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

I don't now

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

And I'll have yoga to incorporate too

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

I'll have to do about 5 hours of that

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

Fit that in somewhere

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

All I've been doing is following your program since the wows

Diana - 12:16:48 pm

And that hasn't had squats or benches in a powerlifting sense in them

Diana - 12:19:06 pm

I'm happy to back off on the power stuff and strengths build

Diana - 12:19:14 pm

I'm not in a rush

Diana - 12:19:27 pm

And I want to include nutrition in the program

Me - 12:19:30 pm

It was only supposed to be for 8 workouts, to "rest" after the wow. Then I was going to change it

Diana - 12:19:34 pm

A holistic approach

Diana - 12:19:53 pm

Well I'm enjoying them

Me - 12:20:00 pm

Cool

Diana - 12:21:01 pm

What am I supposed to do net

Diana - 12:21:33 pm

Next

Diana - 12:21:46 pm

Why are those programmes no good ongoing?

Me - 12:22:42 pm

The programs are "rounded" if you cycle through them. But, I'd have to look again, they need a bit more core work and I'd add some 2 legged stuff in and mix it up.

Me - 12:24:23 pm

That's my dilemma :)) Do what's right or what people seem to want. One makes money the other helps people (but only a few)

Me - 12:24:49 pm

But i could be sneaky and do what they want but also give them what they need

Me - 12:25:03 pm

I don't know how to do that

Diana - 12:33:52 pm

It's weird isn't it

Diana - 1:05:52 pm

I just finished at the dentist

Diana - 1:05:52 pm

Argh

Me - 1:06:28 pm

Problems?

Me - 1:06:51 pm

You mean, Argthh :))

Diana - 1:07:34 pm

No real cavities but terrines receding gums and need to go for an opg which is some dental type mri

Diana - 1:07:46 pm

Cha Ching

Me - 1:07:58 pm

It's always that!!

Me - 1:09:41 pm

Food shopping for me. Again. Makes a difference having another adult here every night. And he eats lots haha

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

I'm going for the scan then to organise after school care for Joel and Imogen for next year

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

Another mouth to feed

Diana - 1:10:08 pm

You love it

Me - 1:12:35 pm

Haha Yeah. I love providing for people who appreciate it.

Diana - 1:14:24 pm

Has your son moved in with you?

Me - 1:16:34 pm

Just until Sunday. He's off to Sydney next week.

Diana - 1:16:32 pm

Haha! Yeah I hardly imagine he's in holiday mode

Diana - 1:16:32 pm

Better feed him well then! He'll need it

Diana - 1:18:40 pm

Becca wants me to do the games. :( :(

Diana - 1:18:40 pm

I told her I'd gone into retirement

Me - 1:21:01 pm

Yeah, I suggest not doing any stuff like that until your shoulder/body is fixed. Good move!

Diana - 1:24:03 pm

Editor: Image at the dentist

Diana - 1:24:03 pm

My head is about to be strapped in this thing!!

Me - 1:25:16 pm

Wow. Doesn't look too pleasant

Me - 1:25:31 pm

Are you in there for long?

Diana - 1:29:20 pm

Done

Diana - 1:30:03 pm

Seriously lucky to be in this country

Me - 1:33:57 pm

For sure. And if it's really serious health stuff, it'll be free too. Lucky.

Diana - 1:34:51 pm

Unfortunately I don't have cancer ;)

Diana - 1:40:00 pm

And after school care stuff is done! Just need to sort holiday program now. Days to get stuff done without kids are so precious

Diana - 1:40:00 pm

And now I totally need a coffee

Me - 1:41:45 pm

That's pretty efficient. Done by 2pm including a workout!

Me - 1:42:07 pm

Without the kids is the best way to organize stuff

Me - 1:42:12 pm

You can move quickly

Me - 1:42:16 pm

:)

Me - 1:44:23 pm

And speaking of kids. It's a sad night tomorrow night. Saying goodbye to my wonderful daughter until March. :(

Diana - 1:55:32 pm

Oh really

Diana - 1:55:34 pm

She goes tomorrow?

Diana - 1:55:37 pm

That is sad

Diana - 1:55:54 pm

Still nothing to stop you doing a surfing road trip along the coast to go see her!!!!

Me - 1:59:28 pm

She goes on Saturday. Having dinner here tomorrow night. Hmmm. Just what a 22 yo wants. Her dad dropping in :))

Diana - 2:01:20 pm

Don't use her as your excuse!

Diana - 2:01:20 pm

You know she'd love a visit

Diana - 2:01:20 pm

Maybe just don't stay too long

Diana - 2:34:47 pm

Seriously it's a great excuse for an adventure

Diana - 2:34:56 pm

And I shall never speak of it again

Diana - 2:35:27 pm

What I shall speak of is I just found some cool jeans the op shop :) I've gone down 6 jeans sizes!!

Diana - 2:35:28 pm

All brands are diff though that needs to be take into consideration

Me - 2:36:51 pm

6 sizes?? Have you got anything to wear in your wardrobe? :)

Diana - 2:43:26 pm

Nope

Diana - 2:43:34 pm

That's why I'm in the op shop

Diana - 2:43:38 pm

Seriously no pants at all

Diana - 2:43:47 pm

I found jeans and now trying a skirt

Diana - 2:43:55 pm

Or gone from size 12 to 6-8

Me - 2:47:10 pm

Are they any good quality? Do people throw out stuff they've hardly used? I keep clothes until they actually wear out, then they become rags in the laundry.

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

I got a almost new pair of Calvin Klein jeans for $20

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

Well I'm about to

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

There's good op shops

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

You juts got to know where to go :)

Diana - 2:48:16 pm

Despite the size change still all I see is fat :(

Me - 2:50:01 pm

The "fat" is in your mind, it's not on your body. Don't forget I've seen and felt it all myself :)

Me - 2:52:06 pm

I'm going back to the gym at 4:30. Doing Steve's testing with him. Got to get dinner done before then

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

It's not in my mind

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

It's actually quite easy to grab

Diana - 2:52:32 pm

You've really hooked up with Steve huh

Me - 2:54:13 pm

He's trying to help. Which is nice

Diana - 3:01:04 pm

Yea he is a nice person

Diana - 3:25:21 pm

You used to say to me I was strong for an old person and a girl ;))

Me - 3:27:25 pm

Wow. That's ancient history :) Like 10 weeks ago! :)) It seems (to me at least) that we've known each other for years. Maybe it's just the intensity over a short time :)

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

I've had to talk to Joels and Imogens teachers today

Diana - 3:33:04 pm

It really never stops

Diana - 3:33:49 pm

And I wonder how to kids cope who's parents are not around

Diana - 3:33:58 pm

Who are working full time

Diana - 3:33:59 pm

Or juts not able to be there

Diana - 3:34:07 pm

I mean I'm sure I miss stuff all the time

Diana - 3:34:32 pm

Ancient history eh?

Diana - 3:34:58 pm

I wonder if I could do some body composition stuff

Diana - 3:35:12 pm

Or if the negatives outweigh the positives in getting particularly lean in a healthy way

Diana - 3:35:59 pm

Metabolic precision had a really good article about what you can expect from different body fat percentage, as in socially what you have to give up

Diana - 3:36:10 pm

And the moodiness etc

Me - 3:36:28 pm

You've got plenty of time to do most things. Pick one and try it for 6 months

Diana - 3:36:30 pm

I've cut to 1200 and I'm getting dizzy

Me - 3:36:42 pm

Then try something else

Me - 3:36:51 pm

But give each a good go

Diana - 3:37:11 pm

Every time I got up from s hip thrust this morning I had stars going around my head like Warner bros cartoons :)

Diana - 3:37:13 pm

It was kinda fun

Me - 3:37:25 pm

I'm not telling you want to do, but I think strong comes first

Me - 3:37:29 pm

I felt the same! Haha

Me - 3:37:40 pm

They're raeally good and hard

Me - 3:38:00 pm

Actually healthy comes first

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

Strong comes first?

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

Before what?

Diana - 3:37:20 pm

Physique?

Me - 3:38:14 pm

Yep

Me - 3:38:49 pm

But need sleep, body balanced, injuries repaired eyc

Me - 3:39:00 pm

My thoughts anyway

Diana - 3:39:09 pm

1200 is def not enough for the workouts I do, I burnt almost 800 this morning

Diana - 3:39:19 pm

I just wanted to cut hard after last week

Diana - 3:39:28 pm

Get some equilibrium back

Diana - 3:39:28 pm

By tomorrow I'll be there

Me - 3:39:38 pm

Ok

Diana - 3:39:28 pm

Then I'll go back to 1500-1600

Me - 3:40:32 pm

Getting stronger would be a good thing for the next 6 months. As well as yoga, and whatever Tina gets you to do

Me - 3:41:04 pm

And trying to not be so tired

Diana - 3:41:35 pm

I'd like to combine lifting with cutting

Me - 3:41:42 pm

I'd love to hang out with a non exhausted Diana :))

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

You're always just as tired as me

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

What are you talking about?

Diana - 3:41:36 pm

Except you don't have kids you just train yourself into the ground!

Me - 3:42:22 pm

Exactly!

Me - 3:42:42 pm

So you may not be able to do exactly the same

Me - 3:43:36 pm

You've got plenty of years to go hard. But still have great short term goals too.

Me - 3:43:39 pm

Just saying

Diana - 3:43:44 pm

She said she did this with no surgery!

Diana - 3:43:44 pm

Except for boobs maybe ;))

Diana - 3:43:44 pm

The way I see it

Diana - 3:43:44 pm

Is if the nutrition is right

Diana - 3:43:44 pm

The training can be more precise and less frequent

Me - 3:44:56 pm

That's pretty impressive

Me - 3:45:12 pm

Not many would achieve results like that

Me - 3:45:30 pm

Yeah. I agree. Nutrition and sleep

Me - 3:45:40 pm

They come first

Me - 3:45:55 pm

As part of everything else. Not just on their own

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Well I'm not saying I'll achieve them :))

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Just think it's worth a try

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Being smarter about it all

Me - 3:46:50 pm

You know the nutrition right?

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Food and training

Me - 3:46:53 pm

Do you?

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Leaving more time for 'life'

Me - 3:47:03 pm

Just a matter of planning and doing it

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

You know like the beach and road trips and enjoyment

Diana - 3:45:52 pm

Get out of the gym

Diana - 3:47:27 pm

Still active but when I'm there being smarter

Me - 3:48:28 pm

If you can't find anyone better I'd love to help you with the gym stuff. Maybe a few programs that can be done in less than an hour.

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

Ideally to be at the gym 3 times a week

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

I'd love that but I've already taken so much of your time

Diana - 3:48:00 pm

Though maybe we could do one session s month, like what I'm thinkng with a power lifting coach

Me - 3:49:58 pm

Yeah, that could work

Me - 3:51:43 pm

Things have been a little "tender" recently, going from fucking to saying goodbye. Twice! But I think we could get back to scheduled sessions. I think the occasional advice stuff doesn't work. I'd need to give you an hour and we'd work through each program.

Me - 3:52:06 pm

And I have the time :)

Me - 3:53:04 pm

Ok. Cooking now before the gym.

Diana - 3:57:34 pm

Yea but I can't afford it

Diana - 3:57:43 pm

Joel won the award at kinder :))

Diana - 3:57:54 pm

And we just got the notice for graduation night :)

Diana - 3:57:58 pm

Here come the tears!

Me - 3:58:54 pm

That's awesome! You must be so happy

Me - 3:59:18 pm

There's no cost for training for you.

Diana - 3:59:37 pm

I had to tell them they forgot him the first round, he is only there 2 days a week and a good kid so he slips through sometimes

Diana - 3:59:45 pm

That was one of the talks this morning

Me - 3:59:58 pm

What's the award?

Diana - 3:59:59 pm

The other was Imogen getting hassled by a girl with behavioural issues

Diana - 4:00:05 pm

All before the gym!

Me - 4:00:41 pm

All sorted now though?

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

He is a good sharer :))

Diana - 4:00:48 pm

Are you serious no cost?

Me - 4:01:26 pm

That's so cool! What a great award

Diana - 4:01:29 pm

In that case I would have asked weeks ago!

Diana - 4:01:35 pm

Yea he is beaming!

Diana - 4:01:47 pm

Fucking kinder graduation!

Diana - 4:02:01 pm

School transition starts tomorrow

Diana - 4:02:09 pm

Kleenex are going to have a big quarter

Me - 4:03:07 pm

So, they do a few hours at school do they? That's a great idea. We never had that. Just started in feb

Diana - 4:04:03 pm

Yep twice a week for 2 hours until the end of term

Diana - 4:04:17 pm

It's great isn't it

Diana - 4:04:33 pm

They assess which class each child will go into and give the parents feedback on their skills

Diana - 4:04:39 pm

What they need to work on etc

Me - 4:04:40 pm

It makes next year easier for sure

Me - 4:04:50 pm

For Joel anyway :)

Me - 4:04:52 pm

Not for you

Diana - 4:04:55 pm

As well as the Playgrouo he's been doing at the school

Diana - 4:05:04 pm

I'll do parent helper for a few months

Diana - 4:05:04 pm

Then figure out work

Me - 4:05:44 pm

Parent helper is important and it's fun.

Me - 4:06:59 pm

Ok so the kids will know their classmates too. That's good

Me - 4:09:40 pm

Golfers dinner :)

Diana - 4:11:07 pm

Cool

Diana - 4:11:10 pm

Looks healthy

Me - 4:15:03 pm

Ok. Dinner done. Heading back to the gym. It almost feels like the days when I had kids. Rushed to get everything done haha

Diana - 4:20:00 pm

Do you miss it or are you glad it's over

Diana - 4:20:00 pm

Enjoy the gym

Me - 4:21:21 pm

Yes, I do miss it with the kids

Me - 4:21:26 pm

It was fun

Diana - 4:24:16 pm

Big change from kids to no kids

Diana - 4:26:24 pm

It's good you're so busy

Me - 4:26:42 pm

Yep. Wasted talent haha. I was pretty good at doing all that organizing stuff

Me - 4:26:52 pm

Busy? I'm not busy

Me - 4:27:09 pm

Far from it

Me - 4:40:47 pm

I loved the feeling at the end of the day of busyness doing all the kids stuff as well as run the farm. I had to have each task time dependant to finish and on to the next.

Diana - 4:40:51 pm

Well no I guess you're not busy, but you fill your time easily

Me - 4:43:15 pm

It was a great sense if achievement. Although exhausting. I really enjoyed it. And when I could fit in a run too. Yay!! That was a great day haha

Diana - 4:45:36 pm

You're quite sick do you know that :)

Diana - 4:45:36 pm

That bloody mountain run is coming up in a couple of weeks

Diana - 4:45:36 pm

I wonder if I can get out of it

Diana - 4:47:09 pm

15km and I've run once in 4 months!

Me - 4:47:20 pm

We all enjoy different things :)) Luckily

Me - 4:47:40 pm

That would be a tough ask to run that

Me - 4:48:09 pm

But it's little bits of running right?

Me - 4:48:27 pm

You'll be ok

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

Broken up with obstacles

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

Yes I'll get through it

Diana - 4:47:44 pm

Just slowly

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

Shit

Diana - 4:49:52 pm

I wonder if I should try to get out of it

Me - 4:51:55 pm

How?

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

I could find a way :)

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

I should do it

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

I'll be ok

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

Just be like a massive workout

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

We did 8 right?

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

The only thing hard about that was that I hated it

Diana - 4:54:08 pm

The running I mean

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

Max did a time trial today and ran 3km in 10

Minutes

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

Don't think I'll be keeping up with him :)

Me - 4:58:20 pm

That's really fast!!

Diana - 4:58:46 pm

Yes, he's the 17 years old being poached by afl

Diana - 4:59:07 pm

He taught me what a plank was last October, after that was when I started training

Me - 5:01:07 pm

Cool. It should be ok doing the mountain. Depends on the weather haha

Diana - 5:02:40 pm

Depends on the pre workout

Diana - 5:03:00 pm

It'll be pretty and should be fun

Diana - 5:03:23 pm

And it's an excuse to eat pizza

Diana - 5:03:33 pm

:)))

Me - 5:04:06 pm

Anything to eat pizzas!!!

Me - 5:04:36 pm

If you want me involved, just ask

Diana - 5:04:48 pm

If you want to be involved just ask :)

Me - 5:12:43 pm

Nice! :))

Diana - 5:15:28 pm

Well you've talked about buying s ticket like 25 times

Diana - 5:15:28 pm

What can I say?

Me - 5:23:01 pm

Yeah, I know.

Me - 5:23:47 pm

Just hanging at the gym with one of the physio's. Steve's not here until 6

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

Oh that's a pain

Diana - 5:24:00 pm

You've been there ages

Me - 5:28:58 pm

A waste of time so far. This guy isn't really interested. I'll have to wait for Steve to run through stuff.

Me - 5:29:29 pm

I'll be here until 7 probably.

Me - 5:29:54 pm

And I'm hungry after cooking dinner already :))

Me - 5:32:30 pm

There's a lot of people training this time of night. The racks are all taken. There's people everywhere

Me - 5:35:25 pm

And now he's gone home :(

Diana - 5:35:40 pm

Who's gone home?

Diana - 5:35:42 pm

Steve?

Me - 5:37:46 pm

The young guy. Steve's coming at 6.

Me - 5:38:01 pm

20 minutes of foam rolling coming up :)

Me - 5:39:43 pm

There's group of strong looking guys dead lifting 100 together and making a meal of it. All back!! I'm shuddering looking at them.

Diana - 5:40:05 pm

Strong looking and only doing 100?

Diana - 5:40:07 pm

Pfft

Me - 5:41:23 pm

They have muscles :)) They "look" good

Me - 5:42:17 pm

Ok. They're going now and just left the bar on the floor. Sigh!!

Diana - 5:45:20 pm

Did they go any heavier?

Diana - 5:45:20 pm

Becca and I are having s benching session Sunday

Me - 5:47:38 pm

They tried 110. And sort of lifted it haha. Be nice to have a buddy to lift with

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

Oh free injury risk screenings is that why?

Diana - 5:47:28 pm

Did anyone get one?

Me - 5:47:50 pm

Not yet

Me - 5:48:21 pm

And the young guy (Keith), didn't bring all the required stuff

Me - 5:48:38 pm

And I don't know how to do them all yet

Me - 5:51:10 pm

That's a pretty cool feeling!

Diana - 5:55:49 pm

I'm going to come into the gym one evening just to see muscly guys who can't lift ;)

Diana - 5:56:00 pm

How can someone have muscles that don't work?

Me - 5:59:07 pm

They do higher reps with less weight. Builds muscle but not that strong. But, 100 kg is still strong! You're just really strong.

Me - 6:00:32 pm

You should definatley come in and set up next to them :)

Me - 6:05:10 pm

Editor: Image of a ON stand at the gym

Diana - 6:05:07 pm

Hahaha!!

Diana - 6:05:11 pm

That would be hilarious

Diana - 6:05:29 pm

Who is that?

Diana - 6:05:33 pm

Steal some for me :))

Diana - 6:06:01 pm

I'm going to come in with a bag and swipe while Joel distracts him

Me - 6:07:10 pm

He's the ON rep

Me - 6:08:02 pm

Only tiny amounts. Not enough for seasoned campaigners like you :))

Diana - 6:08:48 pm

I see containers

Diana - 6:08:48 pm

And imagine his boot!

Me - 6:09:05 pm

Steve's arrived. Going to pull up stumps.

Me - 6:10:58 pm

Maybe that's your dream job. Work for ON :)

Diana - 6:13:04 pm

Nope just be sponsored, and not have to work ;)

Me - 6:34:25 pm

Home again. Although bed might be awhile, I had a few shots of pre workout trying different flavours :)

Diana - 6:39:36 pm

Haha!

Diana - 6:39:40 pm

Quick session?

Me - 6:40:01 pm

No way!

Diana - 6:40:21 pm

At the gym, it went quick

Me - 6:41:03 pm

That was a waste if time tonight. But you've got to try

Me - 6:41:24 pm

Steve thinks 6am running class might be an option to try

Diana - 6:42:12 pm

What's he trying to do

Me - 6:42:21 pm

Hmmm. Reheating stir fry

Me - 6:42:31 pm

Rehab stuff

Me - 6:42:54 pm

Or really, prehab. Prevention of injury by testing

Me - 6:43:09 pm

Checking differences

Me - 6:43:20 pm

Using various tests

Me - 6:43:26 pm

Nothing he's invented

Me - 6:43:47 pm

Just put it all together in one place

Me - 6:43:59 pm

Using his mat thingy

Diana - 6:44:19 pm

Then he should offer it as part of the running class service when people start and work out money

Diana - 6:44:29 pm

Easey peasey

Me - 6:44:57 pm

Yeah, great idea

Diana - 6:44:56 pm

Wish I could figure out my own life as daily as easily as I figure out other people's ;)

Me - 6:45:03 pm

Haha

Me - 6:45:33 pm

Other people's lives appear much simpler eh?

Me - 6:45:45 pm

I don't think they are though

Diana - 6:46:07 pm

Yea they kind of are ;)

Me - 6:46:08 pm

It often means some change in personality to fix thjngs

Diana - 6:46:12 pm

During these few years anyway

Diana - 6:46:41 pm

Maybe the gym needs a receptionist and I can work in school hours and just stay and train

Me - 6:48:11 pm

Often people don't want to be sorted out. The change, to make things easier, seems too hard. When to others it seems quite easy and logical :)

Me - 6:49:09 pm

I don't think they pay much. But you could ask.

Me - 6:49:12 pm

They're close

Me - 6:49:24 pm

Or another gym chain?

Diana - 6:51:28 pm

Locl is easy

Diana - 6:51:28 pm

And I know mostly everyone

Diana - 6:51:28 pm

I can't imagine anywhere else pays any more

Diana - 6:52:59 pm

But it'd fit in with kids

Diana - 6:53:13 pm

Depends if they need someone I guess

Diana - 6:53:14 pm

It's an option

Me - 6:54:02 pm

Ask now. There might be something by February.

Me - 6:54:30 pm

Still do work too?

Diana - 6:55:44 pm

Do you think?

Diana - 6:55:44 pm

Yes for sure keep my work

Diana - 6:55:44 pm

Until they tell me there's nothing left

Me - 6:58:55 pm

No harm in asking and getting it known you're looking

Diana - 7:00:00 pm

Yes I guess

Diana - 7:00:00 pm

If they have something during school hours that would be cool

Me - 7:02:52 pm

There's at least one mum I know with young kids. Alison. She works reception

Diana - 7:03:37 pm

Reception work might make me want to kill myself

Diana - 7:03:37 pm

I've never done it before

Diana - 7:03:38 pm

But Atleast I could train before and after :)

Me - 7:11:22 pm

My son has been trying to explain all the emoji's to me.

Me - 7:12:14 pm

He uses heaps and they all have very specific meanings. Apparently, just a smiley face isn't enough :)

Diana - 7:12:29 pm

Hahaha!

Me - 7:12:34 pm

Not nuanced enough

Me - 7:13:30 pm

He said he's lost "girlfriends" through bad texting emoji's. Or lack of

Me - 7:17:33 pm

He had an interesting idea about modern relationships and why they end so quickly. Texting enables too much information sharing in a short time and people run out of things to say. Don't know I agree. Probably means the relationship's nit working anyway. But it's cool he's thought of it.

Me - 7:18:05 pm

He's gone to hang with his sister

Diana - 7:18:45 pm

I think it enables an advancement of information that would otherwise be withheld until an appropriate time

Diana - 7:18:57 pm

But I don't think people run out of things to say

Diana - 7:19:04 pm

The magic just dies

Diana - 7:19:06 pm

Maybe

Diana - 7:20:58 pm

To the important news, breville have made a super duper new coffee machine!

Me - 7:21:18 pm

Has your one died completely

Me - 7:21:28 pm

?

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

It's called the oracle

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

Sometimes it'll work

Me - 7:21:49 pm

Expensive?

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

The other day it wouldn't turn on

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

I had a serious meltdown ;)

Me - 7:22:06 pm

Haha

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

Lucky for the percolater

Me - 7:22:15 pm

I can imagine

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

Yeah it's 2.6k

Me - 7:22:22 pm

Wow!

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

I'm just looking ;)

Me - 7:22:29 pm

Serious coffee!!

Diana - 7:21:20 pm

Miracle coffee

Me - 7:23:22 pm

It's like mine is it? Push a button Nd it's all done for you?

Me - 7:23:38 pm

I really need to clean mine

Me - 7:24:00 pm

It so gunged up it's leaking water

Me - 7:25:38 pm

The one thing I don't miss about having a family at home anymore, is doing the dishes! Argh! I hate dishes.

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

They're the easy bit

Diana - 7:25:36 pm

It's a little different to yours

Diana - 7:29:52 pm

You still have to froth the milk and set the temp

Diana - 7:29:52 pm

And set the grind

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

But no where near as labour intensive as mine

Diana - 7:32:00 pm

Was :)

Me - 7:35:26 pm

It's pretty pricey. I think mine was about $1500.

Me - 7:35:33 pm

But it would be nice eh?

Me - 7:37:01 pm

Dishes done. I know it doesn't take long but it's like fingernails on a blackboard to me :)

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

Hang on

Diana - 7:38:24 pm

So he ate the meal you cooked then left the dishes?????

Diana - 7:38:52 pm

I wouldn't even think of spending that much

Diana - 7:39:06 pm

I don't have that much

Diana - 7:39:24 pm

But if I did I'd spend s little extra and get s gaggia for sure :))

Me - 7:42:09 pm

Expensive coffee tastes you have ;)

Diana - 7:42:28 pm

Don't worry

Diana - 7:42:38 pm

I'll buy something cheap and second hand

Diana - 7:42:40 pm

Like the one I have

Diana - 7:42:40 pm

God I'm hungry

Diana - 7:42:40 pm

Willpower!!!

Me - 7:43:22 pm

Yeah, it is (was) here too haha

Me - 7:43:32 pm

Not tonight

Me - 7:43:47 pm

You skipped dinner?

Me - 7:44:21 pm

How many calories are you having today? Including your workout.

Me - 7:44:33 pm

-300?

Diana - 7:44:36 pm

I had dinner

Diana - 7:44:44 pm

1200

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

And burnt around 600

Me - 7:45:01 pm

Drink water

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

597

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

I am

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

And diet coke

Me - 7:45:23 pm

Haha 3 makes all the difference

Diana - 7:44:48 pm

If it gets too much I'll have a protein shake

Diana - 7:45:43 pm

I want to be able to train tomorrow

Me - 7:45:57 pm

Kids stuff?

Me - 7:46:05 pm

And work too, I guess

Diana - 7:46:39 pm

Yep all of it

Diana - 7:46:51 pm

Joel starts school too

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

And a friends 40th tomorrow night

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

Not sure I'll go though

Me - 7:47:11 pm

So exciting!!

Me - 7:47:22 pm

I mean Joel

Me - 7:47:28 pm

Not the party

Diana - 7:46:56 pm

Yea I know what you're meaning

Diana - 7:50:17 pm

I'm going s protein shake

Diana - 7:50:20 pm

Or some seeds

Diana - 7:50:30 pm

Too light headed not good

Me - 7:51:17 pm

No it's not. You did big movements today. Need something to build strength.

Diana - 7:51:12 pm

Yes otherwise I'll lose muscle

Diana - 7:51:12 pm

Don't want that

Me - 7:52:27 pm

It's really raining heaps!

Me - 7:52:41 pm

Would be nice in your porch watching it

Me - 7:52:51 pm

It's nice in the lake

Diana - 7:53:20 pm

Yes it's a nice night

Diana - 7:53:20 pm

Surfing tomorrow?

Diana - 7:53:20 pm

Sat morning looks good for a paddle

Me - 7:54:28 pm

No.

Diana - 7:53:20 pm

Might go for a sunrise paddle then go train

Diana - 7:55:24 pm

I'm going to dohertys to meet the powerlifting trainer

Diana - 7:55:28 pm

Just spoke to him

Me - 7:55:38 pm

Cool

Diana - 7:57:36 pm

Better carb load ;)

**Friday 21 November**

Me - 2:39:31 pm

What have you been up to today? I haven't heard from you. All ok?

Diana - 2:54:00 pm

Yep I'm good

Diana - 2:54:19 pm

Just finished at Dohertys heading into work

Diana - 2:54:23 pm

Joel went well this morning

Me - 2:57:02 pm

How was the gym? Good coach?

Me - 2:57:35 pm

But how did you go with Joel this morning? :))

Diana - 2:58:43 pm

I held in the tears

Diana - 2:58:46 pm

But boy I was sad

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

He has the teacher I was hoping he would get

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

He loved it

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

And I'm going to fall apart when he goes for real!

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

Coach is good, is a power lifter and holds 2 Australian records for squats

Diana - 2:58:56 pm

I'll go back when I have some money for a session

Me - 2:59:56 pm

I'm glad you were ok for Joel

Me - 3:00:25 pm

I assume he had a good time?

Diana - 3:00:32 pm

Always ok for the kids :)

Me - 3:00:34 pm

Did the coach give you a program?

Diana - 3:00:35 pm

He loved it

Diana - 3:00:39 pm

Can't wait to go back

Me - 3:00:49 pm

That's awesome

Me - 3:00:59 pm

Everything you want really

Diana - 3:49:57 pm

Still it's a prefect day for it

Me - 3:58:43 pm

Not a cloud in the sky. Cool breeze. Yep! Awesome!

Diana - 4:17:04 pm

I was told to get some amino acid to drink while training so I recover quicker and also buy a belt for the heavy days. I don't really feel like I'm lifting heavy enough for a belt but he assured me I was. I think I'd be too self conscious to wear one but I'll look into it over the next few months

Diana - 4:17:26 pm

Oh and I got a new squat pb @80 :)

Me - 4:18:40 pm

Awesome squat pb!!

Diana - 4:18:55 pm

My form was terrible

Me - 4:18:57 pm

Did he think you could compete?

Diana - 4:19:09 pm

We literally spent 20 minutes correcting my shit

Diana - 4:19:22 pm

Yes he thinks I'm strong and could be competing

Me - 4:19:28 pm

I'd love to hear what he said

Diana - 4:19:36 pm

But I'd need to get serious

Diana - 4:19:47 pm

Train 5 times a week for 10 weeks

Diana - 4:19:50 pm

Not with him

Diana - 4:19:56 pm

But just do it on my own

Me - 4:20:03 pm

What weights would you need?

Diana - 4:20:00 pm

He's happy for me to go whenever I can afford it

Me - 4:20:07 pm

Did he say?

Diana - 4:20:23 pm

Don't know, he's writing me a program once he finishes work

Diana - 4:20:28 pm

Over the weekend I guess

Me - 4:20:32 pm

That's tough with yoga, etc

Diana - 4:20:39 pm

Some kind of 10 week program

Diana - 4:20:41 pm

Cycle

Me - 4:20:42 pm

A lot of work

Diana - 4:20:47 pm

Yes heaps

Diana - 4:21:08 pm

I don't know my body could handle it

Diana - 4:21:14 pm

I'll do what I can do and see how I go

Diana - 4:21:24 pm

He says I'm naturally strong

Diana - 4:21:33 pm

There was a dude there squatting 220!!!

Me - 4:21:41 pm

Did you tell him your time constraints?

Diana - 4:21:41 pm

On a machine that holds the weights in the air

Diana - 4:21:51 pm

Yes he knows all of that

Diana - 4:21:56 pm

Age weight lifestyle

Diana - 4:22:02 pm

He used to train at our gym

Diana - 4:22:08 pm

When he was just starting out

Me - 4:22:38 pm

Love to see the program he gives you :)

Me - 4:22:57 pm

And he still thinks 5 days is possible?

Me - 4:23:08 pm

Maybe shorter sessions??

Me - 4:23:22 pm

Are you going to do it?

Me - 4:24:09 pm

I think it would be good for you to stick to it. And stop getting conflicting info from FB and other trainers.

Me - 4:24:37 pm

You are strong!!

Diana - 4:27:21 pm

Yes, like I said I'll do what I can with the time I have and see how I go. That's all I can do. Competing doesn't phase me as much as making progress does. I guess if I make good progress I can think about competing? I'll def follow his program, he is down to earth and can squat 260 so I'm going to listen to him. I didn't feel any ego from him at all. As far as lifting goes I will definitely do what he says.

Diana - 4:27:48 pm

I felt good after today's session, tired but not too tired. Seriously hungry too!

Diana - 4:28:00 pm

My dream is to dead then have a slice of pizza :) continually :))

Diana - 4:28:10 pm

And not gain weight ;)

Diana - 4:28:16 pm

That's going to have to be heavy lifts ;)

Me - 4:31:38 pm

Haha. Good plan. Pizza and deadlifts. I'll join you :-)

Me - 4:36:16 pm

I'm glad you've found someone that works for you. A solid plan will work.

Me - 4:37:03 pm

I'll be really interested to see what lifts he programs for you.

Diana - 4:51:36 pm

Next weekend I'm on for 11 hours!

Me - 4:53:45 pm

You'll need to pack 2 meals! At least.

Me - 4:53:49 pm

But good money I assume

Diana - 4:56:16 pm

Penalties for 11 hours

Diana - 4:56:57 pm

Exactly what I need to pay for coaching. I mean kids presents!!!

Me - 5:00:24 pm

Haha. Priorities are hard, eh. :)

Me - 5:01:42 pm

It's beautiful here now. Really good. Not many people. Great light.

Me - 5:02:03 pm

Photographers heaven :)

Me - 5:22:43 pm

So many fat guys here. It's an activity for guys with enormous stomachs!!

Me - 5:23:07 pm

And skinny legs.

Diana - 5:23:08 pm

I saw that on the to

Diana - 5:23:12 pm

Tv

Diana - 5:23:17 pm

Lots of big bellys

Diana - 5:23:22 pm

In polo shirts

Diana - 5:23:25 pm

Ewww

Me - 5:23:40 pm

Yep! It's a sight to see haha

Diana - 5:26:08 pm

Imogen just won student of the week :))

Diana - 5:26:08 pm

I wasn't there to see it :(

Me - 5:37:03 pm

Both kids getting awards. That's great for them to share!

Diana - 6:17:20 pm

Gee I'm feeling the fatigue of those lifts now

Me - 6:25:21 pm

Yep and I'm home now. Well, in the car in the garage haha. Quick shower and got to start cooking.

Me - 6:25:34 pm

Son you did squats. What else?

Me - 6:25:47 pm

Deads too today?

Diana - 6:25:52 pm

Yep deads and then just bench for form

Me - 6:26:17 pm

How was your bench form?

Me - 6:26:21 pm

And dead form?

Me - 6:26:42 pm

I'm tired too. But standing all day tired

Diana - 6:26:59 pm

Yes I needed some dead work but picked it up straight away so did 3x100kg then dropped back for speed

Diana - 6:27:06 pm

Hmm that's hard too

Me - 6:27:26 pm

Bench form??

Me - 6:56:24 pm

Might open rhat other bottle of wine. It'll be sad saying goodbye to my daughter. It's the first time we'll be apart for that long a time. Big change. Maybe a bit like how you'll feel in February with Joel. It's got to happen, but it's sad nonetheless.

Diana - 6:58:20 pm

Thank god for wine :)

Me - 7:27:11 pm

Feast time!

Me - 8:46:41 pm

Now that's seriously sad. She's gone (and I'm drunk) :((

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

Oh :(

Diana - 8:50:56 pm

Walk around the lake maybe? A walk always helps

Diana - 9:11:26 pm

I've come home to eat

Diana - 9:11:39 pm

Couldn't be bothered with the party and want to lift again tomorrow

Me - 9:12:16 pm

I thought the party was tomorrow night?

Me - 9:12:34 pm

You said that last week

Diana - 9:12:16 pm

Nope tonight

Me - 9:13:53 pm

Big bench morning

Diana - 9:14:10 pm

For you?

Me - 9:15:04 pm

You

Me - 9:15:08 pm

And Becca

Diana - 9:14:24 pm

Nope

Diana - 9:14:24 pm

That's Sunday

Me - 9:15:25 pm

Excuse my lack of coherence :))

Diana - 9:15:54 pm

I'm not interested in going heavy with Becca

Diana - 9:16:12 pm

It's just a bit of fun

Me - 10:12:16 pm

You know I really needed to talk to you tonight. It's been tough. And you weren't there.

Diana - 10:16:16 pm

The last text I got last night was 'cool', after I told you about going to Dohertys and then nothing else. Then nothing today apart from what you were doing and how your day was going, much like the day before, just statements about you with no grounds for any conversation, and today, despite you knowing Joel had his first day of school orientation and how that made me feel I got nothing from you to see how it went. So don't guilt me out about not knowing you needed to talk tonight. If you needed to talk you should have asked.

Diana - 10:16:16 pm

Im going to bed. Have a good weekend

Diana - 10:17:57 pm

I even let you know I wasn't going to the party in case you were stressing.

Diana - 10:18:07 pm

So don't fucking try to guilt me out:

Diana - 10:18:11 pm

Enjoy the course

Diana - 10:18:22 pm

I'll talk to you next week sometime

Me - 10:27:17 pm

Boy, you really cherry pick our text conversations. All you seem to talk about is lifting. I find the same, no room for conversation in what you say. And when I do offer stuff about your kids, as I did today, you throw it back at me. You seem to be looking for faults no matter what is said or remains unsaid. Surprising after all that's happened. Well, I'm surprised and I don't really understand what's happening. I thought I was just being nice. Obviously not. Goodnight.

Diana - 10:26:56 pm

Never any accountability and forever the victim. Yep all I do is talk about working out. I don't think this friendship is working out. Good luck with everything Mark, I need to walk away.

**Saturday 22 November**

No texts.

**Sunday 23 November**

No texts.
**Week Fifteen**

**All days**

No texts.
**Week Sixteen**

**All days**

No texts.
**Week Seventeen**

**Monday 8 December**

No texts.

**Tuesday 9 December**

Me - 5:01:49 pm

I think this time apart is good. And if we meet up again, we can see if this all makes sense. Maybe we can be friends, although I doubt that. I'll always want more. But we could try starting again. Good luck, Diana. I wish you all the best.

Diana - 5:52:30 pm

Anyway, the guy I met in the Whitsundays has moved to Melbourne. And I've slept with a couple of men since you. You should do the same. You deserve happiness. I wish you all the best.

Me - 6:12:40 pm

There was no need to tell me about sleeping with someone else, and with multiple guys, other than an intention to hurt me on purpose. And that you have done. You could have quite easily not said anything. I really don't understand why you would do that. After all the kindness I have shown you, you reward that with an intention to hurt. I really don't understand that need to hurt others. And for someone who, supposedly, has personal space and touching issues (although I doubt this now and wonder why you lied), you certainly fuck a lot of men.

Me - 6:12:58 pm

So then let me get this straight. All those times you were saying I Love You to me you were in contact with this guy you fucked on holiday? Knowing his plans? And knowing you'd end up fucking him when he came to Melbourne? Holy Shit! So the whole time I was deceived and lied to??? Fuck me!

Me - 6:13:51 pm

You should save that intentional hurting for the people in your life that deserve it. The Dads, mostly. And treat kindly those, who for all their faults, have only ever treated you with kindness. Don't say I deserve happiness and then go ahead and say what you said. Making me far from happy. Thinking of you sharing yourself. Sex for me is a relationship sealer. It's most important. It's love made physical.

Me - 6:14:21 pm

I don't blame you for moving on, I just find it odd given how difficult our relationship was that you would move onto someone else so quickly. I can't do that. And given all the stressful issues in your life.

Me - 6:15:12 pm

This isn't a "Jarrod" email. It's a final explaining, or an attempt to. It's hard when your hands are shaking to think straight. I really hope this new guy can make you happy, as I was unable to. I guess that's the definition of real love, wishing the happiness of the other person even in circumstances as these.

Me - 6:16:02 pm

This has only happened 4 times to me in my life. Real love. The first 2 ended up as a book and the third I married and had children. This one will have to be a book, I guess, in a few years, after I've begun to forget. I don't really stop loving, and that's my problem, not yours. You didn't force me. All the best Diana. And I mean it. Please don't reply. There's nothing further that needs to be said.

Diana - 6:22:00 pm

I didn't say it to hurt you but rather to force you to move on. I could sense your continued attachment under the pretence of friendship and an end to that was necessary. How hurt you say you feel is proof you've not let go. I can move on because I knew seeing you was wrong from the very beginning, which is not news to you.

Diana - 6:22:52 pm

I refuse to be in a friendship where there are alterior motives or unclear boundaries, and you making out I did it to hurt you is ridiculous: I'm at an integral part of my life, finally standing up for myself. I need clear honest communication.

Diana - 6:23:48 pm

You have always been very kind it is true, and I'm thankful for that: I can't be kind fiscally but I hope you see one day that telling you about this was the kindest thing I could do for both of us. I also wish you all the very best, genuinely and whole heartedly.

Me - 6:25:45 pm

I asked you to not reply, and you couldn't do that. No purpose was served, other than to make me feel bad again. Although there is no blame, we did both make the decision to have a relationship. You could have, instead of replying, just remain silent and accept that I'm hurt and you're not.

Me - 6:25:57 pm

Fiscally?? WTF? So the only thing you remember is that I gave you money?? And that was my only kindness to you? Wow!!

Me - 6:26:15 pm

There's no need to tell me that you need to stand up for yourself. I believe, for all my issues, I've promoted that for you. I genuinely believe I've been honest. I did not wish a relationship in the short term, as I said in the last message, I believed a absence was for the best. However, I held some hope for the future, however faint. That is true.

Me - 6:27:11 pm

Anyway, enough is enough. Time to attempt to move on. Please, please don't reply. I need to hold onto some dignity that not everything that has failed in this relationship is my fault.

Diana - 6:28:50 pm

Fuck you. Fuck off!! And the purpose wasn't to hurt you, you're so childish, it was to have a voice which you had a chance to have and then tried to mute me. Don't fucking say your piece then try to mute me. Seriously if we never speak again it's too soon.
**Postscript**

**Afterwards**

Me - 5:15:39 pm

Thanks for today. I really enjoyed being with you, and talking with you! And, again, I'm so sorry.

Diana - 5:16:12 pm

Talking is better and I'm sorry too. Are you coming over soon?

Me - 5:19:00 pm

Driving...
