My heart has literally been broken in the most beautiful way ever
I just finished watching Call Me By Your Name for the third time
And I am literally crying still I didn't think it would affect me this much
I was like K I'll watch the film, and then I'll make the video because I just need to talk about this
But like I cried just as much as the first time if not even more because I knew what was gonna happen um
I'm gonna collect myself and
Then I'm gonna actually make this video
Alright, I have composed myself and reapplied some mascara because I was crying and it's a little clumpy because I was crying
But it's okay because we're just here to talk about the film
And I just want to tell you why I freaking love the heck out of this film. It's so beautiful ah
But before I do that. I just want to say if you have seen the film, and you didn't like it: That's okay
That's alright. I totally respect your opinion
We all have our own things, but I hope that you can respect my opinion as well
And I'm just gonna leave it at that for that if you haven't seen the film and you're hoping to watch it
Don't watch this video because there will definitely be spoilers
I can't really talk about my love for it without giving things that happen away, so yeah
Let's go ahead and start talking about it. Oh my god. I love it so much
I've been in this little call me by your name trance since I first watched the film
Friday night like the weekend of the Oscars
I know I'm super late to watching it but better late than never and oh my god. It was the best decision
I've made in such a long time
it was so good and
Ever since like I literally will wake up and just think about it and go to bed and think about it
And I bought the movie now, and I have it and I will constantly watch scenes from it
and I've seen way too many interviews and
Listened to podcasts on the drive on the way to the school and on the way back from school because I am just so
obsessed with it
I haven't been this obsessed with something since like lala land came out
Which is a whole different story, so I'm not gonna talk about that, but I just wanna talk about first this cinematography. Oh
My god. Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god
The director only used one lens for the whole freaking film, a 35 millimeter lens
And I just found it to be so consistent and nice the way that he did that
I don't know... and the graininess, and it was just so perfect every single shot. Just matched up perfectly
And I loved it so much and then the colours Oh
Shout-out to the DP. I don't know his name right off the top of my head
But holy frick the colors at the beginning of the film are like these like warm
Yellow-green like light blue hues. I don't know how to really describe it I'll put pictures here
So you know what I'm talking about. You know what I'm talking about because you watched the film, but anyway
I loved the use of like colors, and the aesthetic it was just so lovely also
But the whole aesthetic aspect of this thing the scenery
I think they went to a little village called crema which is where the actual director Luca lives
And the scenery is so pretty so beautiful
It really transports you to Italy and then I love how towards the end of the movie when Elio is on the phone
They use colder tones kind of thing to set the mood
I guess so it's like more towards the blue and just just colder colder tones
To depict just the like sadness of the film. I don't know it just really came across to me, and it communicated it so well
And I think that's about it that I'm gonna talk about first cinematography. I'm gonna move on to music Sufjan Stevens
Oh my lord you have done it
Obviously you've done it because you were nominated for an Oscar for the mystery of love which was just a lovely
Song that just told a narrative, so well. Oh, I just I loved it
I went and downloaded it right after and Visions of Gideon which place at the end
When the credits sequence is happening and Elio is just crying by the fireplace breaking my heart again
Let me just see if I can play it oh
My lord I I can literally feel myself starting to cry again because I just
The lyrics are so
Gorgeous and the tone of the song is just so reminiscent of everything that just led up to that moment
the
The song says I have loved you for the last time and the first time I heard that line
it just broke me because
You don't really know at the end of the film what's gonna happen like Oliver's off to get married and Elio is just
Trying to process this whole
love
story that happened and his heart is breaking and is it the last time that he's gonna love him and and
Probably is I don't know and then the mystery of love ahhh the mystery of love is so good obviously
Because the Oscar nomination and everything the lyrics if you go and look up the lyrics
They're so telling us Elio and Oliver's story and my god Sufjan Stevens
Like frick yes blessed be the mystery of love
Oh, so gorgeous
And then his Oscar performance was just so beautiful as well when Sufjan went up on stage
To play the mystery of love, and you see Timothy and armie looking so happy. I was also like oh my god
Yes, and the read finished. I was like
Yes like shook what a performance and the whole soundtrack
like this
It's just so perfect for that Italian setting. I don't know what it is
It just matches up
Perfectly and it's like telling the story of the little town to me that basically concludes all there is for music Sufjan Stevens
Massive freakin shoutout even though you're obviously never gonna watch this but a girl can hope moving on to the acting
Wow this cast was just a match made in heaven they fit so perfectly together
And they all gave such honest and truthful and just ahh
Instinctual performances to the point where they just became their characters, and were just doing
What their character would do based on instinct at least That's what it felt like to me like Armie Hammer
Just became Oliver and Timothee Chalamet just became Elio
Let me just talk about these two people because they are such good actors Timothée Chalamet's
performance was so
emotionally raw and
Vulnerable that he really had to put himself out there like wear his heart on his sleeve
And that is not an easy thing to do
Especially I would guess or I mean in my own
Perspective and things and characters that I've had to play it's not an easy thing to do in front of other people much- like like
A crew of what 30 50 people. I don't know how many people there in the crew yeah, like he really had to be
Emotionally vulnerable and available to take direction and be malleable and just be
Elio, I first saw Timothee's performance and Lady Bird, which was really good
He played the perfect douchebag in the most the authentic way if that makes sense
But this was just on another level for me obviously because the character was very different
and it touched me in ways that Kyle in Lady Bird would have never been able to do but I
Feel like he was just so committed to the character everything that he did felt, so instinctual his performance as Elio just
God broke my heart in that last scene I
Cried through that whole uh end credits sequence
Honestly from like the phone call I was crying and I kept on crying because it was so authentic
it was so raw and it really touched you in a way that you could see yourself being in the same position and
he kind of
related to you so well on that level on the other hand there's Armie Hammer who plays Oliver and
Man his performance was so beautifully controlled
Obviously Oliver has to have like a wall up as we find out towards the end of the movie
That his parents would have never approved of anything that he was doing I feel like he has this sense of like
some slight guilt or something
I don't know how to explain it
but he's clearly more of like a walled character and Armie Hammer does so perfectly in captivating that and his facial  expressions just
Almost say it all like there's so many parts in the movie where there's zero
dialogue and
Going back to Timothee and Armie put together in the goodbye scene which just touched my heart in
so many ways
There was no dialogue between them. No like goodbye
I love you or anything there was nothing there besides them just looking into each other's eyes and
Communicating what each other felt through just just looking at each other and Armie and Timothee did so well in
So many parts of the movie but that particularly stands out to me as a point where
Just their facial expressions and their feelings and everything was just captivated
Without dialogue, and I think that is really beautiful, and I I commend them for that. It's not easy and they just did it so
It almost seems so
effortless another thing is the
intimacy
And I'm not talking about the fact that Armie and Timothee had to kiss and they were straight men that literally
No that it's not what I'm talking about
I'm just talking about the level of intimacy that there had to be between Oliver and Elio for this whole thing to work in the
chemistry and the let go the
that Armie and Timothée must have had with each other to just let go and trust each other and and
Be confident and feel comfortable. I don't know if you know this but Timothée
Actually was in Italy for like a month and a half or something before
Armie came up and then once they met they had some time to like you know talk it over and stuff
But I find it absolutely insane that there was no chemistry test no camera test for this
It was just like okay you guys are gonna meet each other
And this is gonna work somehow and it did like how meant to be is that, I know it's super cheesy
But I just feel like it was
Just meant to be that's it I also want to mention
The acting from Michael and Amira who play Elio's parents and then Esther I forgot her last name
I didn't say the last name for the other two. I'll just insert it here
They also had such great great performances um Esther who plays Marzia
There's a couple scenes that really stuck out to me
I'm just gonna talk about them really really quickly because I want to dedicate more time to some of my other favorite scenes
But basically when she is asking Elio am I your girl
You can see there's like subtext there, and there's like a little bit of a heartache, and then when she goes up to Elio
When he's sitting in the car
And she's asking hey like can we still be friends or whatever the line is I forget right now
Um, but you can also see there was like subtext going on in the back of her mind as an actor
But not like oo am I doing it right subtext, but like oh my gosh I need to talk to Elio
Oh like she was really in it and she was really committed and I applaud that as for Amira and Michael's um
Performances I think I'm gonna talk about them a little bit later once. I get into some of my favorite scenes
I honestly don't think this film would have been the same if anyone else had been casted in those roles
It was also just so captivating to see them interact with one another it felt like the chemistry was really there
And there was a sense of comfort
comfortableness
on set which just played out really nicely on screen and
Yes, I think that is all I'm gonna say for this
I have to talk about the screenplay because holy heck it won an Oscar James ivory won the Oscar for the Best Adapted Screenplay
And it made my heart so happy when he went up to get his Oscar
He was wearing a shirt with Elio's face on it
How iconic is that like so perfect when I heard the announcement
I was shook shooketh and the Oscar goes to call me by your name
I just gotta say the fact that this got like four Oscar nominations
I think that's the right number if it's not I will edit it
But the fact that it got so much public eye recognition is just yes
Amazing like I'm shook. This is great
I think that says more about the screenplay than I will ever be able to put into words right now
That it won an Oscar. It was so well deserved. I am so happy. Let's move on to something else now
I have to talk about some of my favorite scenes
Which is I can't believe honestly the whole frickin movie because I loved every second of it
But obviously there were some highlights, and they actually bought the movie. I purchased it on iTunes
Oh, my goodness the best the best purchase
I have ever made like really great twenty dollars spent and girl girl
I know that you can probably find links to watch this and watch your favorite scenes on YouTube, but man
I wanted to support them so I spent my twenty dollars supporting this beautiful piece of art, the scene where they're in the plaza
Ah
Oh my god. It's the first thing in memorable moments. Uh-huh. Yes. Why are you telling me this?
because I thought you should know because you thought I should know?
For this plaza a scene where Elio finally kind of confirms his love for Oliver
Wow the director had this choice, I don't know if this was intentional, but this is kind of like the way that I interpret it
Oliver is -there's distance between Oliver and Elio because there's that plaza
centerpiece thing and then they start coming around to each other and that distance is kind of closed and
I just found that so beautiful like they started off
Obviously distant from each other and then once Elio tells him this it's like it brings them together
Another scene that I really loved obviously It's the one where includes the title of the movie, and it is one where Oliver says
Call me by your name, and I'll call you by mine, and it is right after they've had sex
and it is so powerful it almost is more of a powerful sentence than if he'd said I'm in love with you or I
Love you
Because it communicates that there's this
The boundaries between who Elio and Oliver are have been kind of blurred and they've just kind of become one
It's just Elio and Elio
Oliver and Oliver
Elio and Oliver, I don't really know how to explain it and how to articulate things properly, but
I'm just gonna find a link
and put in the description down below if you're interested in the title of the name
And why I love it so much because I can't put it into words
But I just wanted to mention how much I love that line and how powerful
I think it is also just to speak about the sex scene that happened right before that line was spoken
I know that a lot of people were mad about the fact that the actual sex scene wasn't show
shown, and there's not a lot of
representation or showings of that in film and I just want to say to that point I
feel like if we'd seen
the sex scene between Oliver and Elio it wouldn't have been as intimate and
Luca who is the director of the film actually
Explained it in a podcast or some interview something that I was listening to recently and it made a lot of sense to me is
that it would have been an
intrusion on their intimacy if they'd shown the whole sex scene and personally I
Found it more beautiful that they just kind of panned off and we heard the sounds of their lovemaking
It felt it felt better that way I felt like I would have been
intruding and
Disrupting their privacy. I just kind of wanted to mention this because there's obviously some criticisms about the sex scene not being shown
But I also just want to say the director himself
He's gay
and he agrees with the fact that the camera should have
Panned off and kept that moment private and intimate which leads me to the whole
Sensuality and eroticism that there was throughout this whole film
and I almost found that the little touches to me were more special than if they'd shown a whole sex scene like I
think it's sometime right before the sex happens where
they're putting -  they're just kind of sitting on the bed and
Elio moves his foot on Oliver's and then and then Oliver asks,  does this is make you happy?
and it's just those little touches of just being in each other's presence and
Having contact all these little things that add up to me seemed a lot more
Perfect to show their intimacy than a sex scene with grunting and thrusting and whatever would have been to me in my opinion
Okay, let's move back to like my favorite scenes
I know I talked about the Train scene briefly
And how Armie and Timothée were really able to communicate things without dialogue
And then when Elio is just sitting on the bench trying to hold his tears back like man
I've been there you touched me again
But the actors
Timothée is just ah
so good at letting go and being vulnerable in front of the camera and
God the scene
when he's calling his mom and
His voice cracks. It's like mom can you?
Can you come get me? ah
My heart just breaks and shatters and drops and it really fricking hurts
Because I understand it, but then obviously I don't understand the full extent of it because I've never been in a situation of that
That high-stakes um but then when he's in the car with his mom and his mom doesn't say anything
And he just grabs his hair, and you see that she just understands him and just wants to let him think
And settle with this and try and process it I could not make this video without talking about
Mr. Perlman's monologue because I just freaking shattered me the words of wisdom that he gives Elio are so
Eloquent and the whole thing is just so fricking beautiful. This is when we realized that
He's known all along about the relationship between them
Which I think they all had like our own little intuitions and knowing that they kind of knew, but this is when it's really
Solidified and there's a sentence in the monologue where he says something like in
My place most parents would hope the whole thing
goes away, and that their sons would land on their feet or something along those lines and
here we see that his dad doesn't judge him at all for having this relationship and ah
Frick his dad is so good and then he says something like
Right now you're feeling sorrow and pain don't kill it and with it the joy that you felt
whoo everything he says is just
Lovely like he's just such a good father and the actor communicates this so
So perfectly and and you really see this like father-son
Relationship that is just it's just a love it it. That's all it is. It's just love and
um I
Think that's really all I have to say about the monologue also about mr.
Perlman and the mom and the relationship with Elio not just the fact that they didn't pass judgment, but they
encouraged him to embrace his sexuality and
especially when they say Oh what if Elio went on the trip with Oliver
And they have this whole thing on their own and the parents encouraged to that and the parents are just both so good
actually everyone in this movie is so good and
That is one of the first things that my parents said to me after they finished watching the movie
I can't remember if it was my mom or my dad
but one of them said to me that movie was just filled with good people and that really did resonate with me because
There is no
Antagonist in the movie. There is nothing external stopping the relationship between Elio and
Oliver really there's no bad people in the movie attempting to break that apart
Or anything like that. They're able to just explore their love together
During the phone scene you can see that the parents look at each other like right before they hang up to let Elio and
Oliver talk to each other um and their the look just communicates
the
Sadness that they feel for their son, and you can really see how much they love him by way again if no dialogue
just nonverbal communication that we get across the screen and
Again the actors. from the phone call we move on to him staring into the fireplace where Elio is just kind of
trying to process things and he's
God holding the tears back and you can really feel it and see his like thought process of
Like what's going on and him remembering it, and I think that it's a solid straight
I don't know four minutes of a non cut take and then when he breaks the fourth wall and looks straight into the camera
Ah
The chills, the goosebumps everything you feel everything at once and once again like I said the song that plays
During the background of this as visions of Gideon, and there's a whole I have loved you for the last time
it's sort of video and
It's at a video like is the memory just just the video. What is it like?
it's just in the past now it I loved you for the last time and that's it ah
It just really hurts, and it really gets to you and Timothée Chalamet
Timothée Chalamet
Thank you for being so vulnerable
I just realized I've been talking about call me by your name for a solid hour and a half
So I don't know how I'm gonna edit that down into any kind of reasonable time frame
And I think sadly a lot of things are gonna have to be cut out, which sucks cuz I love talking about them
So I'm just gonna try and wrap this up
I just want to say I know these people are never gonna see this
But if I could say something to them to everyone that made this film possible the director, the producer, the actors, the extras, the grips
Everyone that made this thing possible. Thank you. I am so grateful that I was able to see this such a beautiful
Masterpiece and it touched me in so many different ways it was honest and raw and truthful and real
I
loved it in every possible way, and I am
Again, so grateful. It really inspired me to keep going with my own acting which is absolutely priceless. to everyone
That's watching this right now
If you are also ass obsessed with call me by your name and need to let your feelings out like I did even if it
Was just to a camera leave comments down below, and we can discuss it. I could talk about this film forever
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