♫ My dear, sometimes, ♫
♫ I feel so tired. ♫
♫ When I'm lonely, ♫
♫ I'll cry as well. ♫
♫ Ooh. Ooh. ♫
♫ Trying hard to grow up. ♫
♫ Ooh. Ooh. ♫
♫ Keeping up with hesitation. ♫
♫ Bravely ♫
♫ The so-called darkness ♫
♫ is just your supposition. ♫
♫ The detour in life ♫
♫ makes us fearless. ♫
♫ Ooh. Ooh. ♫
♫ Go flying. ♫
♫ Where are you now? ♫
♫ Let's go. ♫
Go ahead
Episode 34
Okay.
What happened to He Lan?
Ziqiu already knew
you'd been to prison.
♫ My dear, ♫
♫ sometimes, ♫
♫ I feel so tired. ♫
Where are you going?
♫ When I'm lonely, ♫
♫ I'll cry as well. ♫
Ziqiu.
♫ Trying hard to grow up. ♫
You.
I said I'm fine.
What are you doing here?
We're afraid you'd jump into the sea.
I was scared to death when dad called me.
Aunt He Mei is really...
out of line, isn't she?
How dare she lie about such a big thing?
She's never said a single true thing.
Dad is such a quick messenger.
It's really no big deal. Why is he freaking out?
Come on.
She never remarried and had been to prison.
You're really the son of Aunt He Mei.
You all made your own decisions
and did great things silently.
Oh, please!
They were destroying themselves silently.
There are two infuriating people like you in this world.
- I'm sorry.
- There you go.
Now you know how much damage lies could cause.
Li Jianjian, can you be quiet?
If not, then jump for a swim before you talk.
What do you think?
Can you understand Aunt He Mei?
I kind of understand her a little bit.
Just a little bit.
That's the part she left Brother He in our home.
But I totally disagree with the rest of her.
That's the difference between people.
Some people like to put their hopes on their children.
And others like to protect themselves
by separating from their kids.
Well, when you put it like that,
I think the latter is better.
Of course, it's just a little better.
What do you think, Ziqiu?
I don't know.
The reason why I was abandoned
is not because I was a burden.
I felt relieved when I knew it.
She never remarried and bred,
which has helped take my mind off of it.
It's been very rough for her all these years.
I felt really bad about it.
But as for whether I forgive her or not,
I think it's meaningless.
I don't hate her.
I don't know.
That's why Xiao said you're alike.
The way you think is the same.
Just like when you went abroad,
you wanted to save our family money,
but you worried Zhao Huaguang would harm me.
So you played a good show of eating dirt.
Can you just stop talking about this?
I'm sorry, okay?
I'm really sorry.
Li Jianjian, don't push him.
Fine, I listen to you.
Did you like Ling Xiao, as a girl growing up?
As a girl growing up?
You liked to chase Ling Xiao
since the day I met you.
You thought of me every time you did bad things.
Because you were afraid he'd know.
You didn't hit or yell at him, but you hit and yelled at me.
Yeah?
Did I? No.
No?
Your eyes lit up when you saw Ling Xiao.
You couldn't stop talking about him.
In your mind, he's the best in the world.
He is good.
So are you.
No. I didn't like him that way.
I just liked being with him.
Like being with him.
- Is there any difference?
- No?
No difference?
Gross.
Here, I'll make you sick.
What the hell, Li Jianjian.
Do you know how smelly your feet are?
- No, stop chasing me!
- How many days haven't you washed them?
♫ When we held our hands for the first time, ♫
♫ it was like you were grasping all you had. ♫
♫ One turns bigger ♫
♫ while the other turns smaller. ♫
So what are you gonna do?
I don't know.
I just think it seems deliberate no matter what I say or do.
It feels strange.
I kind of like the way it is now.
♫ Walk slowly. ♫
♫ Don't look back. ♫
Right.
The relationship doesn't work like a tap.
You can't just turn it on and off.
♫ watching you fly away. ♫
Dad.
You're the one that loves me best in the world.
Thank you.
What for?
Why not you spare me the heartache?
The chrysanthemums.
The walking chrysanthemums.
Go to Syria?
You send me there.
Who's here?
Dad Ling, you're back.
Dad.
Well, I was passing by the noodle restaurant
and I saw your dad talking to Ziqiu.
So I didn't go in.
Is Ziqiu all right?
Yeah, he's great.
By the way, are you still taking the Chinese medicine?
Yeah, I've been taking it.
- Does it work?
- It works great.
Keep taking it.
Well, don't eat that... that, um, that stimulating food.
For example, seafood.
And that... carrots.
Jianjian, keep an eye on him for me.
I'll take you for a follow-up after you ran out of the medicine.
Oh yeah, did your mom say when she's going to leave?
I booked the flight for her on Sunday.
Yeah, a few days are enough.
She needs to focus on her health.
If she goes here and there in a wheelchair,
it's not convenient for you.
Dad Ling, why are you more garrulous than my dad?
I'm no match for him.
Your dad is better than the cops.
He can even solve the case.
By the way, do you stay at home tonight?
Yeah.
Okay, go ahead.
I'll go upstairs for a shower. It's been a long day.
Your dad is old. He starts worrying.
Let's marry.
Marry.
Silly.
I should work to pay for a house first.
Who wants your house?
I... I want to eat fruit.
Mingyue, I'm downstairs.
I came for your household registration booklet.
Are you coming back soon?
Mom, I'm the late shift today.
Alright, I'll get it by myself.
Is anyone home?
Of course not.
Ok then, you send me the password.
Mom, just go back. I'll give it to you someday.
Aunt.
Tang Can.
Why are you back so early?
I came back after work.
That's great. I'm just asking Mingyue for the password.
I need to get something in her room.
Come on, let's go.
Okay.
I gotta go. Tang Can is back.
Is it in the bedside table?
No.
Fine, I'll find out myself.
It's open.
Mom.
Aunt.
Okay, thank you, Tang Can.
I'll leave after I got something and cleaned up her room.
Go to do what you have to do.
Okay.
Hello? Mingyue.
Your mom went to your room.
Isn't your household registration booklet in your company?
Anyway, she can't find it.
Look, the notebook is full of notes.
Hello? Qi Mingyue.
Get back right now.
Li Jianjian, Aunt Jin is gonna blow!
Mingyue will be home soon.
When do you come back?
I'm downstairs.
I came to change.
I'll go to see a movie with Xiao later.
Why not you wait for Mingyue and come up together?
It's horrible out there.
Aunt, have some water.
What's wrong, mom?
My household registration booklet is in the company.
Can you explain it to me?
Have you recited the books?
Say!
I... don't want to be a civil servant.
I never intended to be a civil servant.
Aunt.
Don't be angry.
Ask her.
Did I ever raise a hand to you all your life?
I've raised such a cheater.
How dare you lie to me about such a big thing?
I wasn't trying to lie to you.
And I don't want to cheat you.
But I really don't want to be a civil servant.
I want to be a journalist.
Just two years in Beijing, and that's what I want.
You still want to go to Beijing?
Mom, you told me you wanted me to go to Beijing
when I was in high school.
You said there were so many opportunities there.
Opportunity loves preparation.
What can you do?
Can you get a post if you haven't done well in two years?
How would such a good chance wait for you?
Why don't you think with your head?
Beijing is overflowing with talents.
What are you better than anyone else?
I'm not better than anyone.
And I'm not worse than anybody.
I'd always been the top five in the class since I was in school.
I won scholarships three years in a row in college.
I worked on the subjects after I got a job.
I got straight As in all the internal selections.
What's worse about me, mom?
It's about your psychological quality.
Usually you're good.
But you always dropped the ball at the last minute.
You failed the college entrance exam, didn't you?
It's 50, 60 points below the usual practice test.
You wanted to get into
China University of Political Science and Law.
You wanted me to apply to it.
I never thought about applying to CUPL.
You wanted me to be a lawyer.
You wanted me to be a prosecutor.
These were your thoughts.
I never thought about it.
What difference does it make?
Didn't you know what score you got?
Let me tell you, it just does.
The difference is, I'll make it if it's what I want.
Come on.
You just got over 500 points.
How could you get into it?
Mom, can you not always deny me?
You didn't approve of me until I got first since I was a kid.
Other times you denied me.
You said no when I ordered at a restaurant.
You disapproved of my taste in clothes.
You disagreed with my work, my relationship.
Everything about me.
I was not denying you.
I was doing it for your own good. I cared about you.
I don't need that.
I don't want you to care about me like that.
Qi Mingyue.
Do you have a conscience?
I've worked hard to give you a lot.
I fed you, I clothed you.
I provided you a nice learning environment.
Now you tell me that's not what you want.
In that case, why didn't you tell me when I asked you?
Did you ever bother to ask me?
Did you ever respect my opinion?
You talked about democracy.
But you're autocratic in nature.
I shouldn't have agreed to let you move here.
Look at you.
What did you learn from your good friends?
Lying.
Talking big.
Contradicting parents.
You even drink.
You can come after me but not my friends.
What? Why can't I? Am I wrong about that?
Were you like that before?
Move back home tomorrow.
And prepare for the civil service exam.
Aunt, don't be angry.
You can't take the angry talking seriously.
Calm down.
Stay calm.
Mom, you never knew me.
It's what I am.
I've always been this way.
Lying was my best thing as a kid.
You've always wanted a good daughter.
I did exactly what you told me not to behind your back.
Do you know why my score is
50, 60 points below the practice test?
Because I didn't fill in an answer sheet on purpose.
You're lying.
I had no choice.
Because I knew you'd ask me to apply to CUPL
if I reached its enrolment cut-off point.
So I chose the stupidest way.
I must be a journalist.
I must go to Beijing.
I must go outside to see the world.
I have to suffer setbacks.
I must endure suffering.
I want to see who I can be.
I don't listen to you anymore.
Good.
Great.
It's okay. I'll see her off.
Aunt.
Aunt.
Aunt.
Don't be mad.
Mingyue, Mingyue was angry just now.
Is it true that she intentionally missed an answer sheet?
I didn't hear her say such a thing.
Did you already know that and participate in deceiving me?
No. This is the first time I've heard her say that.
Good.
How dare she do such a big thing?
She's got a lot of nerve.
Go back to tell her I won't buy her a house.
I'll get the down payment back.
She may go where she likes.
I don't care if she goes to the North Pole, let alone Beijing.
She and her father hurt me very much.
Aunt, don't hold that thought.
Go back.
Your mom has left.
She asked me to tell you she wouldn't buy you a house.
She's gonna get the down payment back.
You may go where you like. Maybe the North Pole.
Is it true about your college entrance exam?
You're really a person
who does great things.
(Send the email about asking to get transferred to Beijing.)
I'll pay for the rent.
Leave the room for me, you guys.
Are you sure you can go to Beijing?
My leader said he'd take me there if I submit an application.
- When?
- October.
The show will hire some new staff when I've decided.
Then I pass off my work and train the new guys.
How could she do that?
She didn't fill in an answer sheet.
How dare she?
What if she didn't reach the enrolment
cut-off point of top colleges?
I guess she did that on the last day of the exam.
As a straight-A student, she knew what score she'd get.
That's not the point.
The point is, how dare she miss an answer sheet?
Shouldn't the point be, she's too stupid?
She could have got into a better school to study journalism.
But she had to study law if she did well in the exam.
Therefore, it's like to bring a case.
If you don't safeguard your own interests,
you'll be squeezed badly.
And there are only two choices left.
Give it up or bring an ugly sue.
If you stay strong and fight for it at the beginning,
it wouldn't have to come to this.
You should pursue her now.
It's the best time.
Come on, I just came to watch the game.
It's in the past.
Come on, Zhuang Bei, here's to you.
I really came to watch the game.
Cheers!
Coming.
Come in.
What are you doing here?
For Mingyue?
I just came to watch the game.
Okay.
Did he know about Mingyue?
So, you should be proactive now.
Mingyue has defenses against someone she likes.
All because deep in her mind,
she doesn't think her true self deserves to be loved.
She didn't fill in an answer sheet.
Oh my god.
There's a demon inside her.
I give in to you.
I really came to watch the game!
Why didn't you buy some fried peanuts?
I thought you didn't eat midnight snacks.
I don't work as an actress anymore.
I can eat what I like.
I'm not just bragging.
Even if I gained 22 pounds,
I'm still the pretty one in our museum.
Now I finally believe you don't have a crush on Zhuang Bei.
Look, you don't dress up
and you don't care about your image when you eat.
I believe you don't think of the three of us as men.
Right.
The three of you are my buddies.
Are you unhappy?
- No.
- That's a "Yes".
You answered too quickly.
Look, life can't always go smoothly as you expect.
So we should be happy.
Let's cherish the happiness together.
Come on.
Let's drink.
- Come on.
- Cheers!
- Here, clink.
- Cheers!
Come on, someone who came for Mingyue.
Tang Can.
Are you drunk?
Do you know how many calories are in this bag of fried peanuts?
No, you can't get it that way.
Except for three meals a day,
if you eat a handful of peanuts,
you'll gain 11 pounds in a year.
So much?
But I really, really like eating fried peanuts.
Eat if you like.
What... what's wrong with you?
Why do you suddenly sigh?
Mingyue's mom doesn't like me.
She looks down on me.
Because what I do is a kind of legwork.
I failed in the audition.
I don't have a steady job.
I like wasting my money buying something useless,
especially clothes.
I bought a lot of clothes.
I was against my parents.
I'm looking down on myself.
I feel like I'm the harmful waste.
Now the only good thing about me is
thinness.
I don't think it's a good thing.
But I've always wanted to eat fried peanuts.
It's okay.
You're not an actress now. You're allowed to eat.
Alright. Don't... don't cry.
Qi Mingyue's mom doesn't like you and you don't like her.
Look how good you are.
You're beautiful and kind.
My mom likes you very much.
You're a star to her.
You're a star!
Everybody in your family is a star!
I hate most when people said I'm a star.
No, I mean,
you don't have to punish yourself because someone denied you.
I think you're so good.
I'm serious.
You say one thing and do another.
Didn't you mind my job?
When?
Oh dear. You're wrong about me.
Forget it.
It doesn't matter.
Anyway, you're my buddy now.
I can't cry.
There's a junior leader who likes me in our museum.
It's not easy to put on makeup in the morning if I cry my eyes out.
I found I gained 1.6 pounds
when I stepped on the scale today.
Alright, you know what?
I'll show you a magic trick.
Look.
Watch this.
Do you believe I can eat it and let it out from the back?
You don't believe it?
Just watch.
What the hell? I'm not a baby.
Oh, I got another trick, a real one.
- Look.
- No.
Just watch.
Look at it.
Closer.
Stare at my mouth.
See?
That's so disgusting.
What the hell it is?
I got another real trick. Look.
No, I won't look at it.
Seriously, just watch.
- And this.
- Go away.
- Look at it.
- No, I won't.
Really, watch.
Do you want my advice?
If yes, I suggest you make the lines much tougher.
Angular lines make it sharper and more endangered.
Well, I don't agree with you.
I think if the lines are softer and the shape smoother
it's easier to arouse the protective instinct.
Then it's not artistic.
Too commercial and cheap.
It's for charity. Whatever.
By the way, your senior alumnus,
Yufei will work with an art gallery in Shanghai
to make a sculptures exhibition of "Dreamland".
- Do you know?
- No, I don't.
He asked for help from me, not you?
It's normal.
You're a major artist. While I'm a minor one.
Li Jianjian.
What did you buy?
- It's so heavy.
- Thank you.
Oh my god.
I bought some specialties.
My Brother Ling's mom is going back to Singapore.
So I bought her some specialties.
- Zhou Miao likes this.
- Get your own.
You're stingy!
Your Zhou Miao went for a sodality.
Do you still want to make up with him?
It's because that girl is into him and he couldn't get rid of her.
I can only blame Zhou Miao for being too good.
I think Juan is good.
In romance, you should be violent and blind.
And you should have the courage to risk everything.
Yeah.
Instead, I think your love is too common.
It hasn't burnt violently yet,
but you're like an old married couple.
You even bought these to please your future mother-in-law.
- Shame on you.
- Right.
I think you two belong to each other.
You can try to start dating.
Let it cool down.
Wait until it's cold, so as not to burn him.
Have a taste.
Is there anything Dongdong doesn't eat?
No.
No chives in it.
You want some chopped chives?
I remember you didn't eat chives. So I didn't put that in it.
You still remember it?
It... it... it came with my job.
I've seen the photo album.
I didn't expect Ziqiu liked playing basketball
so much when he's in high school.
Uh, I didn't prepare it.
You know what? I'll ask Jianjian
to print out a copy of the photos for you later.
Thank you.
Don't... don't say that.
I felt happy
that you've figured it out.
I used to think
it's for his own good not to contact him.
I was thinking about it, and you're right.
If I want the best for him, I should be nice to him.
I should care for him.
Maybe, he doesn't need it anymore.
But it feels much better to be cared than to be ignored.
Yeah. Right.
You made me feel that.
However, I don't know what to do.
After all, I don't know Ziqiu.
I don't know what he likes.
He...
He likes buying stuff for the house.
He replaced the freezer and the air conditioner in the house.
And he likes to buy handbags for Jianjian.
A while ago, he talked to me that
he wanted to marry Jianjian.
They two?
I guess he's insecure.
He'll feel easier if he's on the same
household registration booklet with us.
Well, let's drop it.
Eat. Try and see if you like it.
Taste it.
Oh, sorry. I didn't get you the chopsticks.
Thank you.
Delicious.
Dongdong, are you saying "delicious"?
I see.
You like the fish balls I made for you last time, yeah?
Alright, good.
I'll make some more for you if you like.
Come on, let's eat.
Good.
Have a look.
I know.
They came there to have some noodles.
No, they were building a relationship.
What are you talking about? Take it away.
Do you feel it's strange out there?
Not really.
They're both old. Would they be in a relationship?
You don't know that.
Come on, check it out.
No.
Ziqiu.
No.
I'm not buying it.
Do it before your boyfriend Ling Xiao.
I don't have time for this.
I want to eat dessert.
Get it yourself.
Why just two kinds?
Because I only made two.
Are you running a fast-food restaurant?
Nothing but tiramisu and sandwiches there.
Because no one bought the desserts.
But the fast food I made is doing well.
Boss, two sandwiches and a fruit salad.
Got it. Do you want to have some salad?
No.
Go ahead. I'm gonna keep working on my design.
Alright, get it yourself.
(Mei)
Hello? Did you have a good time?
Brother, can you come back to the apartment you rented now?
You're back?
I thought you'd be back tomorrow.
Come to deal with mom.
She doesn't listen to me.
♫ When we held our hands for the first time, ♫
♫ it was like you were grasping all you had. ♫
♫ One turns bigger while the other turns smaller. ♫
♫ We meet at the crossroads of time. ♫
♫ Good night. Goodbye. My children. ♫
♫ Maybe you'll leave here. ♫
♫ Maybe the way back home will be longer. ♫
♫ Walk slowly. Don't look back. ♫
♫ I'll stay here, ♫
♫ looking afar with your back view. ♫
♫ I'm like the old house you're accustomed to live in. ♫
♫ One day you find a new start, ♫
♫ like a leaf flying to the new branch. ♫
♫ The old days are just like yesterday. ♫
♫ Good night. Goodbye. My children. ♫
♫ Maybe you'll leave here. ♫
♫ Maybe the way back home will be longer. ♫
♫ Walk slowly. Don't be sad. ♫
♫ I'll stay here, ♫
♫ watching you fly away. ♫
